1 00:00:00,200 --> 00:00:03,320 Speaker 1: Welcome to Can't Fully Reckless, the production of iHeartRadio and 2 00:00:03,360 --> 00:00:16,840 Speaker 1: the Black Effects. Oh shit, we're back on the air. 3 00:00:16,960 --> 00:00:19,440 Speaker 1: Welcome back to you got another carefully reckless episode. It's 4 00:00:19,480 --> 00:00:22,160 Speaker 1: your girl, Jess. Hilarious and I'm here to fix some mess. 5 00:00:22,360 --> 00:00:25,400 Speaker 1: We're gonna jump straight in, y'all. Y'all see how I 6 00:00:25,440 --> 00:00:27,480 Speaker 1: just started talking like I wasn't about to tell y'all 7 00:00:27,480 --> 00:00:30,360 Speaker 1: how I took two weeks off. I had to do 8 00:00:30,440 --> 00:00:32,640 Speaker 1: some shit. Man, I had to do some shit. But 9 00:00:32,720 --> 00:00:35,279 Speaker 1: now I'm back, all right. So we got a couple 10 00:00:35,400 --> 00:00:37,839 Speaker 1: voice notes, but this story seems a little juicy. She 11 00:00:37,960 --> 00:00:40,520 Speaker 1: wrote this in so I'm just gonna read it. Hey, Jess, 12 00:00:40,560 --> 00:00:42,880 Speaker 1: my name is Kimberly. This is my first time doing 13 00:00:42,920 --> 00:00:45,120 Speaker 1: this because I'm not one to speak on what's bothering me. 14 00:00:45,400 --> 00:00:47,760 Speaker 1: But I really need your advice at this point, so 15 00:00:47,800 --> 00:00:49,879 Speaker 1: I hope you get to read this. So here it is. 16 00:00:50,240 --> 00:00:52,600 Speaker 1: I've been in a long distance relationship with this guy 17 00:00:52,640 --> 00:00:56,160 Speaker 1: since October of last year. He lives in California, where 18 00:00:56,160 --> 00:00:59,279 Speaker 1: I'm from, and I live in Texas. Now, I've been 19 00:00:59,280 --> 00:01:01,720 Speaker 1: knowing him since I was fourteen and he was twelve, 20 00:01:01,920 --> 00:01:04,399 Speaker 1: So yes, he's younger. Than me. But that's besides the 21 00:01:04,400 --> 00:01:06,959 Speaker 1: point right now. So he was in jail for thirteen 22 00:01:07,040 --> 00:01:08,479 Speaker 1: years and got out and I was in a half 23 00:01:08,560 --> 00:01:11,440 Speaker 1: way house. Oh wait, not you Okay. He got out 24 00:01:11,440 --> 00:01:13,640 Speaker 1: and was in a half way house for a year, 25 00:01:14,200 --> 00:01:16,800 Speaker 1: and that's when me and him started talking again. He 26 00:01:16,880 --> 00:01:19,200 Speaker 1: was supposed to come move to Texas with me, but 27 00:01:19,280 --> 00:01:21,679 Speaker 1: when he got out of the halfway house, due to 28 00:01:21,800 --> 00:01:24,120 Speaker 1: him being a Level four in jail, they said he 29 00:01:24,200 --> 00:01:26,560 Speaker 1: was high risk and have to be on probation for 30 00:01:26,680 --> 00:01:28,920 Speaker 1: a year before he could move here with me. And 31 00:01:28,959 --> 00:01:31,800 Speaker 1: I was cool with that because we got along so well. 32 00:01:32,080 --> 00:01:34,240 Speaker 1: We had a lot in common and things were great. 33 00:01:34,319 --> 00:01:36,480 Speaker 1: We were just getting to know each other again. So 34 00:01:36,560 --> 00:01:38,760 Speaker 1: of course me trying to be a good girlfriend and 35 00:01:38,800 --> 00:01:41,959 Speaker 1: making sure he was okay mentally and physically. I made 36 00:01:42,000 --> 00:01:44,360 Speaker 1: sure I bought him whatever he needed and gave him 37 00:01:44,400 --> 00:01:46,360 Speaker 1: money to make sure he had money in his pocket 38 00:01:46,720 --> 00:01:49,000 Speaker 1: and so that he could eat, because the halfway house 39 00:01:49,200 --> 00:01:51,600 Speaker 1: would take his work check and hold it until he 40 00:01:51,680 --> 00:01:55,720 Speaker 1: was released. Goddamn Now. On February tecond of this year, 41 00:01:55,920 --> 00:01:58,440 Speaker 1: which was his birthday, he got mad at me for 42 00:01:58,520 --> 00:02:01,200 Speaker 1: telling him people are not obligated to give him a 43 00:02:01,240 --> 00:02:04,280 Speaker 1: birthday party. He has grown now and people do it 44 00:02:04,280 --> 00:02:07,000 Speaker 1: because they want to, not because they have to. And 45 00:02:07,040 --> 00:02:09,519 Speaker 1: he disrespected me in so many ways for saying that 46 00:02:10,200 --> 00:02:12,440 Speaker 1: I cussed his ass out on his birthday, and ever 47 00:02:12,480 --> 00:02:14,600 Speaker 1: since then we've been up and down. I tried to 48 00:02:14,639 --> 00:02:17,880 Speaker 1: apologize and let him know why I reacted that way, 49 00:02:18,000 --> 00:02:20,359 Speaker 1: but he's not a forgiving person, so it was like 50 00:02:20,400 --> 00:02:22,800 Speaker 1: a lost cause. But he said he still wanted to 51 00:02:22,800 --> 00:02:24,839 Speaker 1: be with me and marry me. Oh yeah, I left 52 00:02:24,840 --> 00:02:28,760 Speaker 1: that part out. We got engaged. What cold up? How 53 00:02:28,800 --> 00:02:30,639 Speaker 1: the fuck? Oh yeah, I left that part out because 54 00:02:30,680 --> 00:02:34,400 Speaker 1: we had got engaged, all right, so obviously I'll move forward, 55 00:02:34,440 --> 00:02:38,320 Speaker 1: all right, continuing. We were still fine after that, but 56 00:02:38,440 --> 00:02:41,200 Speaker 1: then March came around and he started changing. He was 57 00:02:41,280 --> 00:02:44,320 Speaker 1: rarely calling and texting like he used to be, but 58 00:02:44,440 --> 00:02:47,600 Speaker 1: we still talked every day. Now, April comes around and 59 00:02:47,639 --> 00:02:51,000 Speaker 1: he was getting out the halfway house that month and 60 00:02:51,040 --> 00:02:54,080 Speaker 1: he just started to disappear, like he stopped calling, only 61 00:02:54,160 --> 00:02:58,040 Speaker 1: texting when he needed something. I will go to Kelly 62 00:02:58,080 --> 00:02:59,919 Speaker 1: and visit him and everything is great, but as soon 63 00:02:59,880 --> 00:03:02,120 Speaker 1: as I come back to Texas, he's right back on 64 00:03:02,160 --> 00:03:05,720 Speaker 1: his disappearing act again. I've voiced my opinion about how 65 00:03:05,760 --> 00:03:08,800 Speaker 1: I felt about the situation on so many occasions, but 66 00:03:08,840 --> 00:03:12,119 Speaker 1: he always tried to guilt me, saying things like I'm 67 00:03:12,120 --> 00:03:14,560 Speaker 1: not being understanding or I need to realize he's out 68 00:03:14,600 --> 00:03:17,800 Speaker 1: there alone and have nobody and he's trying to adjust 69 00:03:17,919 --> 00:03:19,960 Speaker 1: being out in the world again and he has to 70 00:03:20,000 --> 00:03:22,360 Speaker 1: do it alone. And I get that, But my whole 71 00:03:22,360 --> 00:03:25,280 Speaker 1: thing is, what is a phone call or text? Right? 72 00:03:25,280 --> 00:03:26,960 Speaker 1: It ain't like his ask ain't been doing it before. 73 00:03:27,000 --> 00:03:28,799 Speaker 1: But I know this story all too well because I 74 00:03:28,840 --> 00:03:30,600 Speaker 1: had one of these back in my day, So I'm 75 00:03:30,600 --> 00:03:33,480 Speaker 1: about to continue. I don't ask him for nothing besides 76 00:03:33,520 --> 00:03:35,960 Speaker 1: his attention, and he can't even give me that, like 77 00:03:36,000 --> 00:03:39,720 Speaker 1: we are not long distance already. I've given up, or 78 00:03:39,760 --> 00:03:42,560 Speaker 1: at least said I give up on multiple occasions. But 79 00:03:42,560 --> 00:03:44,760 Speaker 1: as soon as he hit me up needing something, I 80 00:03:44,880 --> 00:03:46,960 Speaker 1: jump and do it because I'm that type of person. 81 00:03:47,320 --> 00:03:50,240 Speaker 1: I can't see someone struggling and don't think about it 82 00:03:50,520 --> 00:03:53,520 Speaker 1: when I have it to help. I told him many 83 00:03:53,560 --> 00:03:56,640 Speaker 1: times how I feel when nothing has changed. I know 84 00:03:56,720 --> 00:03:59,120 Speaker 1: what I need to do, trust me, I do, but 85 00:03:59,200 --> 00:04:02,000 Speaker 1: I really need your on this situation. Well, if you 86 00:04:02,000 --> 00:04:03,320 Speaker 1: know what to do, why the hell you need my 87 00:04:03,360 --> 00:04:07,640 Speaker 1: out continuing. It's getting to me in more ways than 88 00:04:07,680 --> 00:04:10,720 Speaker 1: I feel it should. Yes, I do love that man, 89 00:04:10,840 --> 00:04:12,600 Speaker 1: but all he is doing is hurting me. So I 90 00:04:12,640 --> 00:04:14,760 Speaker 1: need you right now. I know you will keep it 91 00:04:14,800 --> 00:04:17,240 Speaker 1: real with me. How do you feel about this situation? 92 00:04:17,600 --> 00:04:19,840 Speaker 1: And what advice can you give me? I'm torn right 93 00:04:19,839 --> 00:04:22,039 Speaker 1: now because I know what I should do, but my 94 00:04:22,120 --> 00:04:24,760 Speaker 1: heart won't let me. Please, baby girl, help me fix 95 00:04:24,800 --> 00:04:28,160 Speaker 1: this mess. Lol. Then she said something else. Sorry, I 96 00:04:28,200 --> 00:04:30,400 Speaker 1: know my message as long as fuck, but you did 97 00:04:30,480 --> 00:04:32,640 Speaker 1: say you need all the meat on the bones, so 98 00:04:32,680 --> 00:04:35,039 Speaker 1: I try not to leave nothing out. We'll laughing my 99 00:04:35,080 --> 00:04:38,719 Speaker 1: ass off. Well, it definitely was a juicy damn story, 100 00:04:38,760 --> 00:04:41,120 Speaker 1: and I can relate to it. That's how juicy it 101 00:04:41,279 --> 00:04:44,919 Speaker 1: was that I can relate. I actually had I've dealt 102 00:04:44,920 --> 00:04:47,880 Speaker 1: with I could say about two or three jailbirds in 103 00:04:47,920 --> 00:04:50,440 Speaker 1: my day. And yes, that's how it happens. I actually 104 00:04:50,480 --> 00:04:54,400 Speaker 1: happened to deal with someone years back who came home 105 00:04:54,440 --> 00:04:56,080 Speaker 1: who I thought was coming home, and then he had 106 00:04:56,120 --> 00:05:00,159 Speaker 1: gotten he got released, but he had to go and 107 00:05:00,200 --> 00:05:02,400 Speaker 1: spend a year and a half way house. And then 108 00:05:03,080 --> 00:05:06,360 Speaker 1: as the time narrowed down to the time that he 109 00:05:06,400 --> 00:05:09,560 Speaker 1: was supposed to come home. The phone calls lessened, the 110 00:05:09,800 --> 00:05:11,840 Speaker 1: amount of time we were on the phone lesson. The 111 00:05:11,880 --> 00:05:15,320 Speaker 1: text messages got shorter and shorter, the letters just stopped, 112 00:05:15,640 --> 00:05:17,880 Speaker 1: and he had somebody else, you know what I'm saying. 113 00:05:17,880 --> 00:05:20,159 Speaker 1: Come to find out, he had had somebody that he 114 00:05:20,240 --> 00:05:22,200 Speaker 1: was going to come home. And Marry was telling me 115 00:05:22,279 --> 00:05:25,320 Speaker 1: all the same things, and then was telling somebody else 116 00:05:25,360 --> 00:05:27,599 Speaker 1: all the same things. Just so happened that he could 117 00:05:27,600 --> 00:05:31,000 Speaker 1: actually do it with her because she was a lot 118 00:05:31,080 --> 00:05:34,080 Speaker 1: older and a lot more stable. I was younger and 119 00:05:34,400 --> 00:05:37,160 Speaker 1: he was older, and that's how that goes. But that 120 00:05:37,320 --> 00:05:38,839 Speaker 1: was just to touch the service, to let you know 121 00:05:38,880 --> 00:05:40,719 Speaker 1: that I've been through this before, so you don't have 122 00:05:40,760 --> 00:05:43,000 Speaker 1: to feel like you're the only girl, you're the only 123 00:05:43,040 --> 00:05:45,280 Speaker 1: person that then you feel stupid and all this type 124 00:05:45,279 --> 00:05:46,920 Speaker 1: of shit. I was there before. And it's not about 125 00:05:46,920 --> 00:05:49,200 Speaker 1: you feeling stupid, is it? Because like you said, you 126 00:05:49,320 --> 00:05:50,960 Speaker 1: know what you have to do, but your heart won't 127 00:05:51,040 --> 00:05:53,760 Speaker 1: let you. No, you won't let you. It ain't your 128 00:05:53,800 --> 00:05:57,320 Speaker 1: damn heart. You control every part of your body, every 129 00:05:57,400 --> 00:06:00,440 Speaker 1: part of it, whether you know it or not. You do, 130 00:06:00,480 --> 00:06:02,080 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. You just need to find 131 00:06:02,120 --> 00:06:05,880 Speaker 1: that strength and you need to know your value. I 132 00:06:05,880 --> 00:06:08,799 Speaker 1: don't feel like you know your value because this person 133 00:06:08,880 --> 00:06:10,680 Speaker 1: is not even home yet, you know what I'm saying, 134 00:06:10,680 --> 00:06:15,599 Speaker 1: Like you're really giving your life, like draining yourself trying 135 00:06:15,640 --> 00:06:17,440 Speaker 1: to keep up with somebody that ain't even on the 136 00:06:17,520 --> 00:06:20,000 Speaker 1: outside yet. How you trying to keep up with a 137 00:06:20,040 --> 00:06:22,080 Speaker 1: nigga that ain't even out, you know what I'm saying. 138 00:06:22,520 --> 00:06:26,360 Speaker 1: That's not what you're supposed to be doing. Now. I 139 00:06:26,400 --> 00:06:29,440 Speaker 1: appreciate you being understanding, because yes, we know how it 140 00:06:29,480 --> 00:06:32,280 Speaker 1: goes when these men are in jail, just like when 141 00:06:32,279 --> 00:06:34,760 Speaker 1: women are in jail, but we're speaking on men. Yeah, 142 00:06:34,760 --> 00:06:37,360 Speaker 1: it is lonely. It's definitely lonely in those halfway homes 143 00:06:37,360 --> 00:06:41,200 Speaker 1: and you know, only being able to talk to people 144 00:06:41,240 --> 00:06:43,719 Speaker 1: certain hours out the day, and you know, you really 145 00:06:43,720 --> 00:06:45,760 Speaker 1: get to see who's for you when you're in a 146 00:06:45,800 --> 00:06:48,160 Speaker 1: situation like that, You know, you get to see who's 147 00:06:48,200 --> 00:06:50,719 Speaker 1: for you, you get to see who's not. But on the 148 00:06:50,720 --> 00:06:53,080 Speaker 1: flip side of that, you really get to see how 149 00:06:53,120 --> 00:06:56,039 Speaker 1: a person can manipulate you too, you know what I'm saying, 150 00:06:56,320 --> 00:06:59,520 Speaker 1: How they can be selfish in a way. You know, 151 00:06:59,600 --> 00:07:02,720 Speaker 1: and then it's very cliche, but hurt people hurt people. 152 00:07:02,720 --> 00:07:05,640 Speaker 1: It's as hurt in jail for nineteen years. I think 153 00:07:05,680 --> 00:07:09,000 Speaker 1: you said, the hell he hurt. He's probably had people 154 00:07:09,440 --> 00:07:12,160 Speaker 1: leave him in there promise some shit, don't you know. 155 00:07:12,240 --> 00:07:13,920 Speaker 1: And then it's not a lot to hold on to 156 00:07:13,960 --> 00:07:16,080 Speaker 1: you when you lock the way that long. And then yes, 157 00:07:16,120 --> 00:07:18,960 Speaker 1: he has to adjust being out in the world, you know, 158 00:07:19,080 --> 00:07:21,200 Speaker 1: So maybe that's not really where you need to be 159 00:07:21,320 --> 00:07:24,680 Speaker 1: right now. Yes, I know you love him and things 160 00:07:24,680 --> 00:07:27,640 Speaker 1: like this happen. You need this to grow, You need 161 00:07:27,640 --> 00:07:31,280 Speaker 1: this to grow. This is just you growing. Seriously, a 162 00:07:31,280 --> 00:07:34,120 Speaker 1: lot of times, we as women also could feel like 163 00:07:34,280 --> 00:07:39,040 Speaker 1: if there's history there and there's time between you two 164 00:07:39,080 --> 00:07:42,160 Speaker 1: and then you come back, then it must be meant. 165 00:07:42,240 --> 00:07:46,320 Speaker 1: That doesn't Hell no, that doesn't necessarily mean that it's 166 00:07:46,360 --> 00:07:49,840 Speaker 1: meant because this is a person from your past. Don't 167 00:07:49,880 --> 00:07:53,920 Speaker 1: ever think that. Don't ever think that that's always the case, 168 00:07:53,960 --> 00:07:57,800 Speaker 1: because it very well cannot be as well as it 169 00:07:57,880 --> 00:08:00,080 Speaker 1: very well could be. You know. So you have to 170 00:08:00,120 --> 00:08:03,760 Speaker 1: be careful with that type of situation. But I want 171 00:08:03,800 --> 00:08:07,200 Speaker 1: you to keep in contact and definitely update me because 172 00:08:07,720 --> 00:08:09,560 Speaker 1: I need to know you know what you need to do. 173 00:08:10,520 --> 00:08:14,960 Speaker 1: But I think you're resting on the fact that he 174 00:08:15,040 --> 00:08:17,120 Speaker 1: may change his mind when he get out and just 175 00:08:17,160 --> 00:08:19,480 Speaker 1: come to you, and you're thinking that all of this 176 00:08:19,480 --> 00:08:22,320 Speaker 1: would have been for nothing if you don't nah, that's 177 00:08:22,320 --> 00:08:26,800 Speaker 1: how you learn yourself. You know you're dating and it happens. 178 00:08:27,400 --> 00:08:29,880 Speaker 1: But I'm letting you know right now hitting this nice 179 00:08:29,880 --> 00:08:33,280 Speaker 1: old beasy. My sister just rolled up. I think my 180 00:08:33,280 --> 00:08:36,920 Speaker 1: boyfriend rolled this blunt. Yeah, whoever wrote it, it's hitting good, 181 00:08:36,920 --> 00:08:39,040 Speaker 1: and I'm letting you know that, ain't it, Champ that 182 00:08:39,120 --> 00:08:41,560 Speaker 1: ain't it? Hold up? Hold up? I know this shit 183 00:08:41,600 --> 00:08:43,880 Speaker 1: getting good, But listen to just a couple seconds of 184 00:08:43,880 --> 00:08:48,000 Speaker 1: a commercial. If you love me, you'll listen. All right, 185 00:08:48,040 --> 00:08:50,680 Speaker 1: So we're moving on, Okay, y'all. So this is an update. 186 00:08:50,720 --> 00:08:55,240 Speaker 1: This is from because I do remember reading this story Jazz. 187 00:08:55,280 --> 00:08:57,600 Speaker 1: This is a really mess, but more of a young 188 00:08:57,640 --> 00:08:59,960 Speaker 1: and asking for some advice. Okay. So this is twenty 189 00:09:00,280 --> 00:09:03,280 Speaker 1: three year old who kept saying, heyone to run away, 190 00:09:03,920 --> 00:09:07,360 Speaker 1: and that he's trying to figure out how not to 191 00:09:07,440 --> 00:09:10,560 Speaker 1: be alone or how to get used to being alone 192 00:09:10,679 --> 00:09:13,040 Speaker 1: because he's been out of in and out of relationship 193 00:09:13,080 --> 00:09:15,760 Speaker 1: since he was thirteen. And my mom already told me 194 00:09:15,760 --> 00:09:17,920 Speaker 1: I'm too young to be thinking like this, and this 195 00:09:18,000 --> 00:09:19,920 Speaker 1: is the reason why I'm trying to run away. Okay, 196 00:09:20,000 --> 00:09:22,840 Speaker 1: all right, well this is the response. Oh shit, the 197 00:09:22,880 --> 00:09:27,920 Speaker 1: response say, damn, I look like a boy. How embarrassing. 198 00:09:28,200 --> 00:09:30,560 Speaker 1: Thanks so much for the advice, Jess. I guess my 199 00:09:30,600 --> 00:09:33,080 Speaker 1: real question was how do I start the process of 200 00:09:33,120 --> 00:09:37,080 Speaker 1: self love. You're absolutely right. Lack of self love is 201 00:09:37,280 --> 00:09:40,439 Speaker 1: very apparent, and it's starting to show in everyday situations. 202 00:09:40,480 --> 00:09:42,760 Speaker 1: I know I'm young, but my biggest fear is failure 203 00:09:43,080 --> 00:09:45,920 Speaker 1: and rejection. If I don't put myself out there, I 204 00:09:45,920 --> 00:09:48,240 Speaker 1: can't get let down. I'm trying to get over that. 205 00:09:48,559 --> 00:09:51,200 Speaker 1: I am not looking for love es I promise and 206 00:09:51,280 --> 00:09:54,480 Speaker 1: running away to find me. I just don't know where 207 00:09:54,480 --> 00:09:57,240 Speaker 1: to look. Also, it's crazy that you said I should 208 00:09:57,240 --> 00:09:59,480 Speaker 1: be a therapist. That's almost exactly what I want to 209 00:09:59,480 --> 00:10:02,520 Speaker 1: go to college for. I'm starting this fall for psychology 210 00:10:02,720 --> 00:10:07,079 Speaker 1: minoring and social work. Thank you again, gorgeous. Oh, thank you. 211 00:10:07,280 --> 00:10:10,200 Speaker 1: And no, I'm so sorry I did not know that 212 00:10:10,320 --> 00:10:14,200 Speaker 1: you wasn't a boy. I'm sorry. No, you don't look okay, 213 00:10:14,240 --> 00:10:16,600 Speaker 1: See I didn't go to your damn page. I just 214 00:10:16,679 --> 00:10:20,960 Speaker 1: looked at your little thumbnail and yeah, you look My gosh, 215 00:10:21,120 --> 00:10:29,520 Speaker 1: all right, No you don't. Sorry, I love you. You're 216 00:10:29,520 --> 00:10:32,920 Speaker 1: gonna make me say that, you girl my bed. I 217 00:10:32,920 --> 00:10:38,680 Speaker 1: ain't know. But listen, I wasn't knocking you running away. 218 00:10:38,760 --> 00:10:41,560 Speaker 1: I thought you literally meant running away like you're gonna 219 00:10:41,600 --> 00:10:43,400 Speaker 1: pack a bag and throw a damn fit. Now if 220 00:10:43,440 --> 00:10:47,199 Speaker 1: you were. If you're moving away, you know, to find you, 221 00:10:47,240 --> 00:10:50,840 Speaker 1: that's fine. Don't don't change the narrative of it. Don't 222 00:10:50,840 --> 00:10:53,760 Speaker 1: say running. Don't call it running because running mix is 223 00:10:53,840 --> 00:10:56,880 Speaker 1: something else. You know what I'm saying, that's something else. 224 00:10:56,960 --> 00:11:02,120 Speaker 1: You're running to run away from thing is to avoid it. 225 00:11:02,360 --> 00:11:04,520 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, to be running away from it. 226 00:11:05,160 --> 00:11:08,560 Speaker 1: You know it's exactly what it is. So don't say 227 00:11:08,559 --> 00:11:12,320 Speaker 1: it like that. Paraphrase it, and just say you're going 228 00:11:12,360 --> 00:11:15,120 Speaker 1: on a journey to find yourself. You know what I mean. 229 00:11:15,200 --> 00:11:17,720 Speaker 1: I mean, then you're twenty three, you ain't. You don't 230 00:11:17,760 --> 00:11:20,320 Speaker 1: have to run away, right, you know you're not being 231 00:11:20,360 --> 00:11:22,320 Speaker 1: held captive. You know you're just going to go look 232 00:11:22,360 --> 00:11:25,240 Speaker 1: for you. That's different. You said it like you was 233 00:11:25,320 --> 00:11:28,680 Speaker 1: running away, so that's how I addressed it. But I 234 00:11:28,720 --> 00:11:30,160 Speaker 1: want you to do whatever you have to do for 235 00:11:30,280 --> 00:11:32,480 Speaker 1: you though, you know, and since you promised me you 236 00:11:32,559 --> 00:11:34,720 Speaker 1: wasn't fine in love, then that's not a problem, right, 237 00:11:35,360 --> 00:11:37,720 Speaker 1: you know, Then you ain't gonna need nobody to do it. Now. 238 00:11:37,720 --> 00:11:40,040 Speaker 1: I'm not saying you don't need people, but you don't 239 00:11:40,120 --> 00:11:43,760 Speaker 1: need a companion right now. If you don't even know 240 00:11:43,800 --> 00:11:46,120 Speaker 1: who you are, you get what I'm saying. So think 241 00:11:46,120 --> 00:11:48,960 Speaker 1: about that last, you know, if you can help it, 242 00:11:49,000 --> 00:11:52,880 Speaker 1: because sometimes these hopeless romantics just can't help it, you know. 243 00:11:52,960 --> 00:11:56,040 Speaker 1: And I can relate to that as well. But you 244 00:11:56,080 --> 00:11:58,079 Speaker 1: seem to ever figured out a little bit little bit, 245 00:11:58,400 --> 00:12:02,040 Speaker 1: So hit me back a little bit. If you love me, 246 00:12:02,120 --> 00:12:04,400 Speaker 1: you'll listen to this commercial and then we'll be right 247 00:12:04,440 --> 00:12:09,520 Speaker 1: back moving on. And this is the last wine you 248 00:12:09,679 --> 00:12:11,760 Speaker 1: up before I get up out of here. So this 249 00:12:11,800 --> 00:12:15,800 Speaker 1: one is written as well. Hey Jazz, I love your podcast. 250 00:12:15,840 --> 00:12:18,960 Speaker 1: I need you to fix my mess. So I started 251 00:12:19,000 --> 00:12:22,280 Speaker 1: dating this guy and he was literally perfect everything I wanted. 252 00:12:22,640 --> 00:12:25,000 Speaker 1: When I would see him, all I would do was melt. 253 00:12:25,320 --> 00:12:27,120 Speaker 1: One day, I wanted to take it a step further, 254 00:12:27,679 --> 00:12:29,880 Speaker 1: so I invited him over for Father's Day to meet 255 00:12:29,880 --> 00:12:32,800 Speaker 1: my dad and the rest of my family. Everything was 256 00:12:32,840 --> 00:12:35,160 Speaker 1: great and we had a good time. I invited him 257 00:12:35,200 --> 00:12:37,719 Speaker 1: over a second time for an event, and that's when 258 00:12:37,720 --> 00:12:41,160 Speaker 1: it went downhill. Oh shit, girl, my life was in shambles. 259 00:12:41,160 --> 00:12:44,679 Speaker 1: But let me tell you, me and my family we 260 00:12:44,800 --> 00:12:48,559 Speaker 1: big shroom, okay, and we decided to do it that day. 261 00:12:49,080 --> 00:12:51,760 Speaker 1: As I started feeling them, he started saying things kind 262 00:12:51,760 --> 00:12:54,200 Speaker 1: of fucking my head up, which made me distant from him. 263 00:12:54,240 --> 00:12:57,320 Speaker 1: Shortly after that, he came into my room talking to 264 00:12:57,360 --> 00:12:59,880 Speaker 1: me and I saw a demon pop up behind him, 265 00:13:00,120 --> 00:13:03,280 Speaker 1: and bitch, when I say I was petrified, I was petrified. 266 00:13:04,040 --> 00:13:06,720 Speaker 1: I ended up kicking him out, which I felt bad about, 267 00:13:07,440 --> 00:13:09,319 Speaker 1: and I talked to him about it later that night. 268 00:13:09,800 --> 00:13:11,920 Speaker 1: We had a good conversation. But things are really weird 269 00:13:11,960 --> 00:13:13,600 Speaker 1: now and it's just causing me to be a little 270 00:13:13,600 --> 00:13:17,280 Speaker 1: mean to him and push him away. Just what the 271 00:13:17,320 --> 00:13:22,160 Speaker 1: fuck should I do? Because that's some crazy shit. Oh wow, honey, 272 00:13:22,360 --> 00:13:26,480 Speaker 1: that that that is some crazy powerful shit. And sometimes 273 00:13:26,760 --> 00:13:30,440 Speaker 1: some things aren't to be fucked with. I'm just gonna say, 274 00:13:30,559 --> 00:13:33,920 Speaker 1: you know, some energies are not to be tampered with, 275 00:13:34,200 --> 00:13:40,920 Speaker 1: and just you just damn that's so. I Yo, you 276 00:13:41,000 --> 00:13:44,360 Speaker 1: got me at a loss. I would know. Does he 277 00:13:44,520 --> 00:13:47,439 Speaker 1: astra project? I mean, I don't know, because that's given 278 00:13:47,440 --> 00:13:50,160 Speaker 1: me astral projection. I mean, are you into astral projection? 279 00:13:50,520 --> 00:13:52,320 Speaker 1: If you're not into it, you should definitely look it 280 00:13:52,440 --> 00:13:55,040 Speaker 1: up for sure. I would definitely take a look at 281 00:13:55,120 --> 00:13:57,160 Speaker 1: in cities if you haven't watched that shit. I mean, 282 00:13:57,200 --> 00:13:58,600 Speaker 1: not to scare the life out of you, but just 283 00:13:58,600 --> 00:14:00,880 Speaker 1: to let you know shit like that. It's totally normal 284 00:14:00,920 --> 00:14:04,240 Speaker 1: in other parts of the world and it happens. But 285 00:14:04,440 --> 00:14:07,880 Speaker 1: I don't know if because I've shrewmed, but I've never 286 00:14:07,920 --> 00:14:14,480 Speaker 1: seen a demon before. Uh, that's crazy. I think, what 287 00:14:14,520 --> 00:14:15,959 Speaker 1: did he say when you told him about it? You 288 00:14:16,040 --> 00:14:19,080 Speaker 1: gotta update me because I need to know what he said. 289 00:14:19,240 --> 00:14:20,840 Speaker 1: What you mean, all talked about it. You ain't need 290 00:14:20,840 --> 00:14:23,480 Speaker 1: to tell me shit you talk about what shoes you do. 291 00:14:23,640 --> 00:14:27,320 Speaker 1: You should tell me the rest of what happens so 292 00:14:27,360 --> 00:14:28,880 Speaker 1: I can tell you what else to do. This shit 293 00:14:28,960 --> 00:14:32,360 Speaker 1: is good. This is crazy. I mean, I know you 294 00:14:32,360 --> 00:14:36,000 Speaker 1: were scared, and I'm sorry, but this is this is 295 00:14:36,040 --> 00:14:40,680 Speaker 1: my first case. I feel this is great. This is 296 00:14:40,720 --> 00:14:43,840 Speaker 1: not you know. I hope you're okay. Just update me. 297 00:14:44,520 --> 00:14:47,240 Speaker 1: I'm gonna get out of here. On that note, got 298 00:14:47,280 --> 00:14:54,360 Speaker 1: my first paranormal activity story. I feel like a damn detective. 299 00:14:54,760 --> 00:15:00,560 Speaker 1: I feel I feel good about it. Oh, because I'm 300 00:15:00,560 --> 00:15:02,200 Speaker 1: feeling my blunt now and I really feel like I 301 00:15:02,200 --> 00:15:04,320 Speaker 1: can solve this. I just I want this person to 302 00:15:04,400 --> 00:15:06,680 Speaker 1: keep up with me. I want them to keep up 303 00:15:06,680 --> 00:15:08,760 Speaker 1: with me. All all right, So we come to the 304 00:15:08,880 --> 00:15:11,320 Speaker 1: end of yet another carefully reckless episode with your girl 305 00:15:11,360 --> 00:15:13,920 Speaker 1: Jess hilarious. I'll just be fixing mess up and down, 306 00:15:14,000 --> 00:15:17,240 Speaker 1: inside out and all of that. Y'all can catch me now, 307 00:15:17,280 --> 00:15:21,800 Speaker 1: y'all can catch me. So this way, when you hit 308 00:15:21,840 --> 00:15:23,800 Speaker 1: the black in the middle of a podcast of a 309 00:15:23,800 --> 00:15:30,160 Speaker 1: little pod Kissel, all right, I see all answers the 310 00:15:30,200 --> 00:16:44,720 Speaker 1: next Wednesday, and in my deepest pain voice can't. Fully 311 00:16:44,760 --> 00:16:48,080 Speaker 1: Reckless is a production of iHeart Radio and The Black Effect. 312 00:16:48,280 --> 00:16:51,880 Speaker 1: For more podcasts from iHeart Radio, visit the iHeartRadio app, 313 00:16:52,160 --> 00:16:55,280 Speaker 1: Apple Podcasts, or wherever you listen to your favorite shows.