WEBVTT - Decoding Your Human Design Feat. Erin Claire Jones 0:00:13.240 --> 0:00:15.960 Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. I'm Erica and 0:00:16.000 --> 0:00:19.880 I'm Nila, and it's Wednesday. It's a beautiful day. 0:00:20.160 --> 0:00:22.800 It really is a beautiful day. I was outside, like, wow, 0:00:23.079 --> 0:00:27.000 it's the perfect weather. It's the perfect about of sunshine. Anyway, 0:00:27.600 --> 0:00:29.120 today I've pulled a card. 0:00:29.600 --> 0:00:33.960 Oh wow, you did look at you? Yes, congratulations. Well 0:00:34.720 --> 0:00:37.280 on the tarot coin of this of the show. You 0:00:37.360 --> 0:00:40.520 are sex of the show, the tarror of the show. Oh, 0:00:40.560 --> 0:00:41.880 I don't know what. I don't know where I fit in. 0:00:42.360 --> 0:00:43.000 I'm just here. 0:00:43.720 --> 0:00:44.400 Well, you're not going. 0:00:44.360 --> 0:00:48.680 To figure it out. You're the expert. You're the expert 0:00:48.680 --> 0:00:49.479 of many things. 0:00:49.960 --> 0:00:53.840 Okay, today I pulled the Night of Pinnacles, and it 0:00:53.960 --> 0:00:58.880 signifies hard work, productivity, routine, and conservatism. 0:00:58.920 --> 0:01:02.360 Because we're so con conservative. I think maybe like financially 0:01:02.400 --> 0:01:04.440 maybe like hold, I don't know, read it for me, 0:01:04.520 --> 0:01:05.039 tarot queen. 0:01:05.160 --> 0:01:06.360 Okay, well it is financed. 0:01:06.440 --> 0:01:10.920 A lot of the pentacles are money related, got it? 0:01:11.360 --> 0:01:13.040 Or material related. 0:01:13.080 --> 0:01:14.840 I hope I'm saying this right because someone's going to 0:01:14.920 --> 0:01:18.480 come for me, fucking bitch telling why. Okay, the Night 0:01:18.560 --> 0:01:21.600 of Pinnacles, like the Knights of Other Suits, represents work effort, 0:01:21.640 --> 0:01:24.679 and responsibility that follows upon the dreams and ideals of 0:01:24.720 --> 0:01:25.399 the page. 0:01:25.720 --> 0:01:26.520 This night is the. 0:01:26.480 --> 0:01:31.400 Most hardworking, methodical, and detailed oriented character of the Tarot deck. 0:01:31.760 --> 0:01:34.360 He may not be the most inspiring or creative night, 0:01:34.400 --> 0:01:36.560 but he'll do the work to get the results he seeks, 0:01:36.600 --> 0:01:39.680 even if that work is highly repetitive and routine. When 0:01:39.680 --> 0:01:42.120 this card appears in a tariro reading, you are working 0:01:42.520 --> 0:01:46.080 methodically towards your goals. You have a plan in place 0:01:46.120 --> 0:01:48.600 and are striking in your schedule to get the job done. 0:01:48.800 --> 0:01:52.920 You may not work particularly quickly, but you are consistent, dedicated, 0:01:54.040 --> 0:01:57.440 and committed to your goal. But one foot in front 0:01:57.440 --> 0:01:59.040 of the other and finish the. 0:01:59.160 --> 0:02:00.880 Job right, baby. 0:02:01.120 --> 0:02:03.040 This card also asks if you continue doing what you 0:02:03.040 --> 0:02:06.680 were doing, plotting along and making gradual progress, no need 0:02:06.720 --> 0:02:08.679 to change your approach, go with the flow, stick to 0:02:08.720 --> 0:02:12.359 your usual routines, and over time you will reach your goals. 0:02:13.200 --> 0:02:17.160 I agree this sounds like us, baby, It does, girl, 0:02:17.160 --> 0:02:19.040 because we move in slow, but we be moving. 0:02:19.200 --> 0:02:21.120 We be's doing it. You know what, we don't really 0:02:21.200 --> 0:02:24.000 move slow. We just got too much shit. Okay, yeah, 0:02:24.040 --> 0:02:26.320 that's true. There's just a lot of shit to be done. 0:02:26.440 --> 0:02:29.400 But wow, you envision your goal, to determine the best 0:02:29.440 --> 0:02:31.440 course of action, and then stick to your path with 0:02:31.520 --> 0:02:33.160 a methodical and relentless focus. 0:02:33.600 --> 0:02:35.280 Okay, well that speaks to us. 0:02:35.600 --> 0:02:38.120 I feel like it kind of may speak to our 0:02:38.160 --> 0:02:41.200 guests today too, because maybe we'll have some insight about 0:02:41.200 --> 0:02:44.960 why the fuck We have a lot of ideas and 0:02:45.040 --> 0:02:47.520 a lot of meetings and a lot of little notebooks 0:02:47.560 --> 0:02:50.160 and papers everywhere, but it takes a really long time 0:02:50.200 --> 0:02:51.600 sometimes to send three emails. 0:02:53.440 --> 0:02:56.120 So without further ado, we love to introduce our guest, 0:02:56.440 --> 0:03:01.960 Aaron Claire Jones. She is a huge design expert. So 0:03:02.000 --> 0:03:03.040 welcome to the show. 0:03:02.960 --> 0:03:05.760 Erin thank you so much, I'm so happy to be here. 0:03:06.280 --> 0:03:09.080 Aaron, tell us why we can't get shit done? We 0:03:09.120 --> 0:03:10.480 have so many ideas. 0:03:11.200 --> 0:03:13.200 Wait before you tell her, I want to say that, like, 0:03:13.280 --> 0:03:18.160 you know, we're some astrology tearo magical research and ass bitches, 0:03:18.600 --> 0:03:21.600 and right before we just like the universe always does. 0:03:21.680 --> 0:03:23.920 Like Erica had just come to me recently and was like, 0:03:23.960 --> 0:03:26.440 have you heard of human design? And I was like no, 0:03:26.919 --> 0:03:29.360 And then magically I've been someone else say it to 0:03:29.400 --> 0:03:29.960 you too, like. 0:03:30.200 --> 0:03:32.720 Yeah, my friend a Nishka was like, oh, human design 0:03:32.760 --> 0:03:35.400 like change my business, Like I got my human design 0:03:35.440 --> 0:03:38.880 reading and it literally changed the way that I navigate 0:03:38.920 --> 0:03:42.839 with my staff and just my choices, and it makes 0:03:42.880 --> 0:03:46.000 so much more sense in how I hire people. So 0:03:46.040 --> 0:03:48.600 then Aaron reached out and I was like, look at this, 0:03:48.760 --> 0:03:51.600 Look at God, God just met, look at us, just 0:03:51.680 --> 0:03:54.600 manifesting guests right and left. A few months ago, we 0:03:54.600 --> 0:03:57.080 couldn't find any guests this month, boom. 0:03:57.480 --> 0:03:58.720 And you know what, I just like to. 0:03:58.680 --> 0:04:03.280 Say that we are mediums for the messages that you 0:04:03.360 --> 0:04:06.840 need to hear. A lot of our guests are come 0:04:07.080 --> 0:04:09.160 at the perfect time, right in our hands, right in 0:04:09.200 --> 0:04:11.960 the DMS, right when three other people have mentioned it, 0:04:12.000 --> 0:04:14.160 and then we can just spread the word and learn together. 0:04:14.640 --> 0:04:21.000 So we're podcast mediums. Okay, well that's our introduction with Aaron. 0:04:22.040 --> 0:04:24.599 Oh good, I'm so happy to chat with you guys. 0:04:24.800 --> 0:04:26.120 It feels like the perfect time. 0:04:27.160 --> 0:04:30.120 So well, can you tell our listeners what human design is? 0:04:30.200 --> 0:04:33.440 What is this, where is it derived from? And how 0:04:33.440 --> 0:04:34.919 do you use it in your life? 0:04:35.200 --> 0:04:38.359 Of course? So human design is a system based on 0:04:38.400 --> 0:04:40.880 your time, date and place of birth that gives you 0:04:40.880 --> 0:04:43.359 your energetic blueprint. And what I mean by that is 0:04:43.400 --> 0:04:46.880 how we're each wire to make decisions, work within teams, collaborate, 0:04:46.960 --> 0:04:49.840 parent partner, all the things. It really just gives us 0:04:50.120 --> 0:04:53.200 each our kind of own roadmap. And the idea is 0:04:53.200 --> 0:04:55.760 that human design pulls from lots of different systems astrology 0:04:55.760 --> 0:05:00.839 included also the kabala, the eaching chakra system, quantum physics, genetics, biochemistry, 0:05:01.080 --> 0:05:02.560 all that kind of give us a blueprint to how 0:05:02.560 --> 0:05:04.840 we operate at our best and I think to how 0:05:04.839 --> 0:05:07.080 we're designed to best use it is that, I think, 0:05:07.120 --> 0:05:09.200 more than anything, human design gives us permission to be 0:05:09.240 --> 0:05:11.200 who we are. I think we often have spent a 0:05:11.200 --> 0:05:13.320 lot of our lives trying to build businesses and show 0:05:13.400 --> 0:05:15.160 up in a way that doesn't really work for us, 0:05:15.160 --> 0:05:17.360 but it's what we think we should do, and human 0:05:17.360 --> 0:05:19.520 design kind of reveals this is how you're wired to 0:05:19.520 --> 0:05:21.760 do it. And I think often when I'm sitting with people, 0:05:21.800 --> 0:05:24.000 I'm not telling them anything new. I'm just giving them 0:05:24.040 --> 0:05:25.680 like a language and a framework for things they have 0:05:25.800 --> 0:05:28.440 always felt but haven't really allowed themselves to step into. 0:05:29.040 --> 0:05:31.080 Beautiful. Wow, that's interesting. 0:05:31.279 --> 0:05:33.159 Like the time and date of birth that is so 0:05:33.440 --> 0:05:36.200 close to like your natal chart, your natal reading. I 0:05:36.279 --> 0:05:41.360 never thought about like how many ways that can translate totally. Yeah, 0:05:41.360 --> 0:05:43.040 where does this come from? Who came up with this 0:05:43.160 --> 0:05:44.640 method of reading the stars? 0:05:45.120 --> 0:05:48.840 It's a very mystical origin story. It's been around since 0:05:49.000 --> 0:05:51.640 nineteen eighty seven. The founder is a man named ra 0:05:51.920 --> 0:05:54.960 Uhuru who he's actually no longer alive, but he basically 0:05:54.960 --> 0:05:57.240 had a very mystical experience where he was walking home 0:05:57.240 --> 0:05:59.120 one night and heard a voice and the voice said 0:05:59.120 --> 0:06:01.719 it's time to work. And so for basically eight days 0:06:01.760 --> 0:06:04.240 and eight nights he kind of received all this information 0:06:04.400 --> 0:06:06.440 and then he spent the next twenty years building it out. 0:06:06.680 --> 0:06:08.760 So it's a channel system, meaning it's just like it 0:06:08.800 --> 0:06:11.520 didn't come from him analyzing people. It was very much received. 0:06:11.920 --> 0:06:13.600 And I think I work with a lot of skeptics, 0:06:13.600 --> 0:06:15.520 so I just want to kind of preface this by saying, like, 0:06:15.760 --> 0:06:19.119 take what feels useful, supportive resident like throw the rest away. 0:06:19.400 --> 0:06:22.000 And I think the more important question to ask yourself 0:06:22.080 --> 0:06:23.800 is not like is this true, but is it useful? 0:06:24.240 --> 0:06:24.800 What do you mean? 0:06:24.839 --> 0:06:26.200 You work with a lot of skeptics. 0:06:26.240 --> 0:06:28.640 A lot of your clients comes skeptical, like, hey, I 0:06:28.680 --> 0:06:29.160 don't believe it. 0:06:29.640 --> 0:06:33.320 Tell me about it, right that a lot of my 0:06:33.440 --> 0:06:36.520 individual clients are definitely not skeptical. I also work with 0:06:36.520 --> 0:06:38.800 a lot of teams, so I think like one kind 0:06:38.839 --> 0:06:40.719 of like big ambassador will bring me in, But a 0:06:40.720 --> 0:06:42.400 lot of them are very new to it, you know. 0:06:42.480 --> 0:06:44.520 And so you're right that it's not the skeptics that 0:06:44.560 --> 0:06:46.760 are the ones that are coming, but they're often roped in, 0:06:46.880 --> 0:06:48.479 and so it's important to kind of know how to 0:06:48.560 --> 0:06:50.440 language it to them as well, because I think the 0:06:50.480 --> 0:06:52.800 magic of human design is that even though it feels 0:06:52.839 --> 0:06:55.120 so cosmic and even though it comes from the stars, 0:06:55.160 --> 0:06:58.400 the information it offers us is so grounded, so practical, 0:06:58.839 --> 0:07:00.760 and like just so accessible. So I think that it 0:07:00.839 --> 0:07:03.080 tends to be accessible even to the most skeptical people. 0:07:03.800 --> 0:07:04.960 Got it, Got it? 0:07:05.320 --> 0:07:07.920 That's so interesting. How did you come into this? 0:07:08.080 --> 0:07:10.680 Like have you always come from a like mystical family 0:07:10.880 --> 0:07:13.480 and this was just your calling? Or like did you 0:07:13.520 --> 0:07:16.240 have a strong affinity with astrology? 0:07:17.720 --> 0:07:21.920 No? And no not. You know, I love astrology, but 0:07:22.000 --> 0:07:23.680 like by no means an expert, you know, And it's 0:07:23.680 --> 0:07:25.480 not like I've really studied it much at all. And 0:07:25.520 --> 0:07:27.680 my family was not really mystical at all. I think 0:07:27.680 --> 0:07:30.800 I was always into like different personal development things, even 0:07:30.800 --> 0:07:34.360 in high school. But I discovered human design, so taranctipitously. 0:07:34.400 --> 0:07:36.120 I had been working for a bunch of different startups 0:07:36.160 --> 0:07:37.960 and kind of a more corporate setting in New York, 0:07:38.080 --> 0:07:41.080 and I went to a friend's house in twenty fifteen 0:07:41.080 --> 0:07:43.360 and was in her backyard and sat next to a stranger, 0:07:43.880 --> 0:07:45.720 and the stranger was like, I would love to share 0:07:45.760 --> 0:07:47.240 your human design with you. And I was like, I 0:07:47.280 --> 0:07:49.520 don't know what human design is, but like, tell me everything. 0:07:50.040 --> 0:07:52.160 And he gave me a little mini reading on the spot, 0:07:52.200 --> 0:07:54.200 and it was just like the most resonant thing I 0:07:54.240 --> 0:07:57.240 had ever heard. And he ended that conversation by saying, 0:07:57.280 --> 0:07:58.560 I think that you're meant to do this, and I 0:07:58.560 --> 0:08:00.440 think that we should build a business together. It was 0:08:00.520 --> 0:08:03.080 just like such a direct and intense invitation, and I 0:08:03.080 --> 0:08:05.200 didn't say yes immediately, but he started to kind of 0:08:05.240 --> 0:08:07.600 reveal to me how we could use human design not 0:08:07.640 --> 0:08:09.760 only individually, but how to kind of help teams work 0:08:09.760 --> 0:08:12.720 better together, how you can use it in parenting and partnership. 0:08:12.720 --> 0:08:15.120 And I had just like, never seen a system as 0:08:15.160 --> 0:08:18.160 detailed and as practical as this one, and so I 0:08:18.200 --> 0:08:19.920 went all in. And it's been a real journey. It 0:08:19.920 --> 0:08:22.520 hasn't been smooth sailing for sure. I think like early 0:08:22.560 --> 0:08:25.360 on in twenty fifteen, human design was so weird and 0:08:25.400 --> 0:08:27.960 out there for most people, and so it's really only 0:08:28.040 --> 0:08:30.160 kind of become more in the mainstream in the past 0:08:30.160 --> 0:08:32.679 I would say, three years. But it was such a serendipitous, 0:08:32.760 --> 0:08:34.520 like cosmic introduction to it, for sure. 0:08:35.200 --> 0:08:37.520 Yeah, it's so amazing someone that just comes in next 0:08:37.559 --> 0:08:39.120 to you and be like, let's start a business. 0:08:39.320 --> 0:08:41.760 What were you doing before? Let me teach you everything about? 0:08:41.840 --> 0:08:43.440 What kind of business were you before? 0:08:43.480 --> 0:08:44.240 Like very weird? 0:08:44.320 --> 0:08:46.120 Yeah, what were you doing before human design? 0:08:46.600 --> 0:08:48.400 I was working for a bunch of different startups in 0:08:48.440 --> 0:08:51.080 New York, kind of in the financial space, but also 0:08:51.120 --> 0:08:53.880 in the wellness space and in kind of more community 0:08:53.880 --> 0:08:56.040 and business development roles. But I think on this side 0:08:56.080 --> 0:08:58.000 of that work, I was always like I had my 0:08:58.080 --> 0:09:00.440 Taro Dex with me everywhere I did all kinds of training, 0:09:00.480 --> 0:09:02.400 so I was like always on this path, but like 0:09:02.679 --> 0:09:04.960 I never really envisioned doing it for work, And I 0:09:04.960 --> 0:09:06.840 think human design for me kind of bridge the two 0:09:06.880 --> 0:09:09.439 where it like satisfied all my desires so like understand 0:09:09.440 --> 0:09:11.880 ourselves on the deepest level, but also allowed me to 0:09:11.960 --> 0:09:13.760 come of work not only with people that love the 0:09:13.800 --> 0:09:15.800 mystical in the way that I do, but also people 0:09:15.840 --> 0:09:18.240 that were very skeptical, but it could be really supportive 0:09:18.280 --> 0:09:19.840 to them as well, because. 0:09:19.640 --> 0:09:22.840 I feel like human design feels like, like you said, 0:09:22.880 --> 0:09:25.080 like it's a ligne for like the person that's kind 0:09:25.080 --> 0:09:27.760 of a little bit more I don't want to say 0:09:27.920 --> 0:09:31.200 a realist, because that kind of like makes everything else 0:09:31.240 --> 0:09:34.320 feel not real, but like someone who is more like 0:09:35.040 --> 0:09:39.160 needs the facts, like needs to understand like the facts 0:09:39.160 --> 0:09:42.160 and not just like leave it to the stars, you know. 0:09:42.360 --> 0:09:44.760 Yeah, yeah, and also want to do something with it. 0:09:44.800 --> 0:09:46.760 I feel like there's so many amazing systems out there 0:09:46.800 --> 0:09:48.679 that give us like juicy information and then we have 0:09:48.679 --> 0:09:49.400 no idea what to do. 0:09:49.720 --> 0:09:52.839 Ye're like, okay, well great with scorpios and rising now 0:09:52.880 --> 0:09:55.199 what ah exactly? 0:09:55.360 --> 0:09:58.720 Yeah, it's so fun. Like I still love that, but 0:09:58.720 --> 0:10:00.360 I think human design is so cool well that it 0:10:00.400 --> 0:10:02.200 gives us all the self knowledge, but it also gives 0:10:02.240 --> 0:10:04.079 us these tools that we can use in our day 0:10:04.080 --> 0:10:05.280 to day like starting the next day. 0:10:05.960 --> 0:10:09.679 So you know, we gave you our do we need 0:10:09.679 --> 0:10:12.000 to give you our birth dates? Again? No? No, no, I 0:10:12.280 --> 0:10:17.319 have our birth information and you have run run the test. 0:10:17.200 --> 0:10:17.880 Run the system. 0:10:18.400 --> 0:10:21.280 You've input us in the systems of the stars and 0:10:21.800 --> 0:10:25.880 you've gotten some information back data the data systems. 0:10:26.760 --> 0:10:27.640 Are you ready to hear? 0:10:28.320 --> 0:10:29.200 Ready, let's do it? 0:10:29.240 --> 0:10:31.400 Okay, who wants to start Mela? 0:10:32.040 --> 0:10:35.920 Okay, we'll have volunteer, right, okay? 0:10:36.040 --> 0:10:38.679 Perfect. So, and just for context for people, there are 0:10:38.720 --> 0:10:41.840 basically five different types than human design, and then underneath 0:10:41.840 --> 0:10:43.880 the type they are like a bajillion other configuration. So 0:10:43.920 --> 0:10:45.320 we'll kind of start with the type that start to 0:10:45.320 --> 0:10:47.280 explore some of the different pieces. And you can look 0:10:47.320 --> 0:10:50.160 up your design at Aaronclaire Jones dot com slash look up. 0:10:50.559 --> 0:10:54.720 So MELA is a manifestor and manifestors are about eight 0:10:54.760 --> 0:10:56.679 to nine percent of the population. So it's like a 0:10:56.679 --> 0:10:57.520 more rare type. 0:10:57.600 --> 0:10:59.360 Oh maybe rare rarity. 0:11:00.240 --> 0:11:11.640 So a lot of you always are fine ashtag, We're fine, sorry. 0:11:11.360 --> 0:11:17.440 Aron, No, no, perfect okay. So manifestors they're here to 0:11:17.480 --> 0:11:19.560 be the initiators. They're really here to kind of get 0:11:19.559 --> 0:11:22.200 things started and get the ball rolling, not always here 0:11:22.240 --> 0:11:23.920 to do all the doing themselves. You know, they often 0:11:23.960 --> 0:11:26.000 bring so much powerful energy at the beginning. And so, 0:11:26.080 --> 0:11:27.800 like I would say, an ideal thing for MILA and 0:11:27.800 --> 0:11:29.760 this is maybe not. The way that you've operated is 0:11:29.760 --> 0:11:31.520 like bringing in a new idea to life and then 0:11:31.600 --> 0:11:33.680 kind of like handing it off and delegating and like 0:11:33.679 --> 0:11:36.160 creating space for the next inspiration to come. You know, 0:11:36.400 --> 0:11:38.640 I would guess that you really thrive when you feel 0:11:38.640 --> 0:11:41.079 really free and in control, like you're somebody who's not 0:11:41.120 --> 0:11:42.720 really here to be told what to do or controlled 0:11:42.720 --> 0:11:44.839 in any way, like here to do things on your 0:11:44.840 --> 0:11:46.880 own terms and in your own way. And so both 0:11:46.920 --> 0:11:49.760 personally and in work, it's so important to be surrounded 0:11:49.800 --> 0:11:52.120 by people that just like really give you freedom and 0:11:52.160 --> 0:11:54.079 like don't mess with your flow and kind of remind 0:11:54.120 --> 0:11:56.679 you how powerful you are. A lot of manifestors I've 0:11:56.679 --> 0:11:58.600 worked with haven't really felt permission to be as powerful 0:11:58.600 --> 0:12:00.240 as they are. They've been kind of sitting back and 0:12:00.280 --> 0:12:02.520 ask me for permission. And so you know, your job 0:12:02.600 --> 0:12:05.000 is to like step up, initiate, like trust the urges 0:12:05.040 --> 0:12:07.000 that come within you and kind of know that you're 0:12:07.000 --> 0:12:09.120 like not for everyone, because no one is, you know, 0:12:09.160 --> 0:12:11.120 And the more kind of bold and courageous you are 0:12:11.120 --> 0:12:12.840 and how you express, the more you kind of empower 0:12:12.960 --> 0:12:15.800 others to be equally bold. I think in terms of 0:12:15.840 --> 0:12:17.880 how you structure your day to day. You're somebody who 0:12:17.960 --> 0:12:20.400 really is meant to work in ebbs and flows, so 0:12:20.480 --> 0:12:22.280 you likely won't try when you're just like I'm going 0:12:22.320 --> 0:12:24.680 to be a consistent doer all day long. It's more 0:12:24.800 --> 0:12:26.319 like I'm going to have a creative burst where I 0:12:26.360 --> 0:12:28.000 can make a lot happen, whether it's over the course 0:12:28.040 --> 0:12:29.840 of a couple hours or a couple of days, and 0:12:29.880 --> 0:12:31.520 then I need to kind of pull back and arrest 0:12:31.559 --> 0:12:32.920 and take space and then kind of wait for the 0:12:32.960 --> 0:12:35.640 next burst to arrive. And there's a lot more to share, 0:12:35.640 --> 0:12:36.800 but I want to hear your thoughts on this. I 0:12:36.800 --> 0:12:38.520 think the last piece that I share in this section 0:12:38.640 --> 0:12:41.000 is just that like you're here to initiate when you 0:12:41.000 --> 0:12:43.440 feel an urge to make something happen, like your job 0:12:43.520 --> 0:12:45.800 is to trust it and not look for like confirmation 0:12:46.000 --> 0:12:49.760 or approval from anyone around you. So how does that 0:12:49.840 --> 0:12:50.600 all feel to you? 0:12:51.360 --> 0:12:52.960 It feels very accurate. 0:12:53.600 --> 0:12:54.880 Wow, that's crazy. 0:12:54.960 --> 0:12:56.800 I do have a lot of energy in the beginning, 0:12:56.880 --> 0:13:01.120 and then I can like must rest, and I think 0:13:01.160 --> 0:13:04.320 I have asked permission to like take up space, and 0:13:04.360 --> 0:13:07.280 I do, and I do flow best and freedom and 0:13:07.360 --> 0:13:08.880 not being told what to do and even when I'm 0:13:08.920 --> 0:13:13.559 told rules, I'm like, am I just like not willing 0:13:13.559 --> 0:13:16.080 to compromise, or I just I don't want to listen. 0:13:16.360 --> 0:13:19.040 I don't want to listen. I don't like I just 0:13:19.040 --> 0:13:21.440 want to do things at my own pace. And I 0:13:21.520 --> 0:13:23.560 used to I used to date someone I still live 0:13:23.600 --> 0:13:25.560 with my baby daddy, and he would like have this 0:13:25.720 --> 0:13:26.400 thing in the morning. 0:13:26.400 --> 0:13:28.520 He would rush me. He was like, let's go let's 0:13:28.520 --> 0:13:31.320 do this, let's go that, and I was like, I 0:13:31.320 --> 0:13:32.160 want to lean up. 0:13:32.440 --> 0:13:35.559 I wanted to, Like it would irritate the fuck out 0:13:35.600 --> 0:13:38.040 of me that he was moving so fast and then 0:13:38.040 --> 0:13:40.000 would get mad, and I was just like, this is 0:13:40.040 --> 0:13:44.480 really interrupting how I feel the flow the flow, and 0:13:44.480 --> 0:13:46.280 it just like really irritated me. I thought something was 0:13:46.320 --> 0:13:48.760 wrong with me, but of course it really resonates with me. 0:13:48.800 --> 0:13:51.800 And even especially like having energy to start things up. 0:13:52.040 --> 0:13:55.760 Sometimes I'm like get so frustrated with myself because I'm like, 0:13:56.320 --> 0:13:59.240 I created this deck and I'm ninety nine percent done. 0:13:59.520 --> 0:14:02.760 Why can and I get the one percent done? Why 0:14:03.000 --> 0:14:05.120 can't I just finish the fucking shit? Why can't I 0:14:05.160 --> 0:14:05.560 just push some. 0:14:05.720 --> 0:14:07.760 On the email? What the fuck is wrong with me? 0:14:07.800 --> 0:14:10.000 The other day you were like, I'm so annoyed, Like 0:14:10.080 --> 0:14:12.920 I cleaned my whole house, I sweeped, and I put 0:14:13.000 --> 0:14:16.360 all these little piles of dirt in corners and I 0:14:16.440 --> 0:14:20.560 didn't pick it up, Like why I did everything except 0:14:20.760 --> 0:14:24.120 complete the fucking task. And she was like, I'm so 0:14:24.360 --> 0:14:26.880 mad at myself. Why can't I just finish shit. 0:14:27.360 --> 0:14:30.080 I am currently in therapy because I'm like, what the 0:14:30.200 --> 0:14:32.880 fuck is wrong? I like, what is in my childhood 0:14:32.880 --> 0:14:34.560 that I cannot complete the task? 0:14:36.160 --> 0:14:38.600 Wow, it's crazy. 0:14:38.920 --> 0:14:40.720 It is. I mean, that's amazing to hear. And I 0:14:40.720 --> 0:14:43.920 think again, like it's a balance. But I would just say, 0:14:44.040 --> 0:14:46.080 like workwise, in life, it's really good to have people 0:14:46.120 --> 0:14:48.760 around you that can like help you finish because again, 0:14:48.840 --> 0:14:50.440 so much of your energies at the beginning, and so 0:14:50.480 --> 0:14:52.280 instead of making yourself wrong for that, it's like I 0:14:52.280 --> 0:14:54.400 can get this thing off the ground, and I'm gonna 0:14:54.440 --> 0:14:55.680 need you to help me like move it across the 0:14:55.720 --> 0:14:56.760 finish line. 0:14:56.680 --> 0:14:57.720 You know, land it. 0:14:58.240 --> 0:15:01.120 Yeah, So it is just and again, human design really 0:15:01.160 --> 0:15:03.240 helps us know kind of what support we need around us. 0:15:03.680 --> 0:15:05.760 And it is interesting hearing you talk about kind of 0:15:05.760 --> 0:15:07.920 like being rushed in the morning, because whenever I'm talking 0:15:07.960 --> 0:15:10.160 to like somebody who's partnered with a manifestor I always 0:15:10.200 --> 0:15:11.840 kind of remind them like just like don't get in 0:15:11.840 --> 0:15:14.000 their way, like let them be in their own flow 0:15:14.040 --> 0:15:15.600 and do their own thing, and like they'll let you 0:15:15.680 --> 0:15:16.720 know when they want to kind of be in the 0:15:16.760 --> 0:15:18.280 flow with you. But I think in a case like that, 0:15:18.320 --> 0:15:20.360 I feel like your flow is disrupted from like the 0:15:20.440 --> 0:15:22.640 first minute you woke up. Like I can imagine it'd 0:15:22.680 --> 0:15:27.160 be a bit frustrating. Yeah, makes sense, Yeah, for sure. 0:15:27.520 --> 0:15:30.120 For sure, I'm happy that human design is giving me 0:15:30.160 --> 0:15:36.200 permission to like be as wild and large and have 0:15:36.360 --> 0:15:41.840 outrageous out of the ordinary ideas and I should sit 0:15:41.920 --> 0:15:44.520 in that and not really listen to anyone else's say so. 0:15:44.840 --> 0:15:47.200 And I feel bad about the completion part. You know, 0:15:47.840 --> 0:15:49.080 just put people in place. 0:15:48.840 --> 0:15:52.120 That can complete it, complete it right right. That does help. 0:15:52.720 --> 0:15:54.320 It's also going to give you so much more energy 0:15:54.360 --> 0:15:56.560 for like the beginnings, because I imagine, like you have 0:15:56.600 --> 0:15:58.200 a lot of energy getting things off the ground, but 0:15:58.240 --> 0:16:00.760 it takes so much more to actually finish, and so 0:16:00.880 --> 0:16:02.480 like if somebody else can support you in that, it's 0:16:02.520 --> 0:16:04.080 going to free up so much energy for like the 0:16:04.120 --> 0:16:08.080 next thing to come. In terms of kind of knowing 0:16:08.120 --> 0:16:10.760 which opportunities to pursue. And this is a piece underneath 0:16:10.760 --> 0:16:13.440 the manifest or this is how you make decisions. You're 0:16:13.440 --> 0:16:16.680 not really meant to be super spontaneous and like for 0:16:16.760 --> 0:16:19.280 the small decisions. Of course be spontaneous, but you're somebody 0:16:19.280 --> 0:16:21.120 who's like deeply emotional, and so if you make a 0:16:21.160 --> 0:16:23.040 decision on like an emotional high, you might kind of 0:16:23.080 --> 0:16:24.440 wake up the next day and be like, I don't 0:16:24.440 --> 0:16:26.280 actually want to do that thing, you know, And so 0:16:26.360 --> 0:16:28.400 I would just say giving yourself like a day or 0:16:28.400 --> 0:16:30.720 two before you say yes can also help you like 0:16:30.960 --> 0:16:33.280 sustain your energy a little bit more so, some people 0:16:33.320 --> 0:16:35.320 are meant to be spontaneous, I would say for you, 0:16:35.480 --> 0:16:38.840 even like romantic relationships like courtship, taking your time to 0:16:38.840 --> 0:16:41.240 feel into things like clarity really comes with time for you. 0:16:41.160 --> 0:16:46.119 You hear that, girl, You hear that, my instant girlfriend. 0:16:47.640 --> 0:16:50.680 We're in love. She's boyfriend. She woke up, she woke up, 0:16:50.840 --> 0:16:53.320 met him last night, woke up with a boyfriend. Were love. 0:16:53.360 --> 0:16:55.360 It was just meant to be. It was are the 0:16:55.440 --> 0:16:56.680 Stars six months later? 0:16:56.960 --> 0:17:01.160 Fuck, it wasn't in the fucking stars. It's at the 0:17:01.200 --> 0:17:01.880 bars where it was. 0:17:04.400 --> 0:17:07.240 Yeah, I do probably need to take that into more consideration. 0:17:07.320 --> 0:17:10.960 I am spontaneous, but sometimes I do spread myself thin 0:17:11.160 --> 0:17:13.640 and say yes too often, and then I'm like, oh, 0:17:13.680 --> 0:17:15.159 why did I do that? Why do I want to 0:17:15.160 --> 0:17:16.800 say no, I'm such a bitch? Why do I care 0:17:16.800 --> 0:17:18.879 if anyone thinks I'm a bitch or you are bitch? 0:17:21.440 --> 0:17:21.639 You know? 0:17:21.880 --> 0:17:25.600 I like Erica, be like, be more like Erica? Care less, 0:17:25.920 --> 0:17:30.240 I know, not doing it. I changed my mind then. 0:17:30.119 --> 0:17:30.879