1 00:00:00,080 --> 00:00:13,960 Speaker 1: The nicky Nikki Here, I am, hey guys, good morning, 2 00:00:14,760 --> 00:00:21,840 Speaker 1: good afternoon, good night, whatever, wherever it's it's again. Listen. 3 00:00:22,360 --> 00:00:24,200 Speaker 1: It's it's been a rough day of spelling a lot 4 00:00:24,239 --> 00:00:26,880 Speaker 1: of coffee. It's the arms of these mics and I 5 00:00:26,880 --> 00:00:30,200 Speaker 1: want to put my drink here and then I literally 6 00:00:30,240 --> 00:00:35,400 Speaker 1: have knocked over Starbucks cup so many times in this room, 7 00:00:35,440 --> 00:00:37,839 Speaker 1: but twice this morning. But I don't mind, you know why, 8 00:00:37,840 --> 00:00:40,520 Speaker 1: because I have a little bistle cleaner that I'm obsessed 9 00:00:40,560 --> 00:00:44,440 Speaker 1: with that I got. Um, I mean, I'm gonna have 10 00:00:44,479 --> 00:00:46,199 Speaker 1: to get that stain before I bring Andrew in. But 11 00:00:46,640 --> 00:00:51,080 Speaker 1: I got this like cleaner on Reddit. Well I didn't 12 00:00:51,080 --> 00:00:52,600 Speaker 1: get it on Reddit, but I heard about it on Reddit. 13 00:00:52,680 --> 00:00:54,920 Speaker 1: It's like cleaning tips or something. I'm just trying to 14 00:00:54,960 --> 00:00:56,880 Speaker 1: be like a learn how to clean because no one 15 00:00:56,880 --> 00:01:03,920 Speaker 1: taught me and everyone recommends this bustle, little portable thing. 16 00:01:04,920 --> 00:01:07,600 Speaker 1: It's like, I don't know why my mom always complains 17 00:01:07,640 --> 00:01:09,959 Speaker 1: about stains and the dogs paining. It's like, buy a 18 00:01:10,080 --> 00:01:12,800 Speaker 1: hundred dollar bistile thing, and then my whole childhood would 19 00:01:12,800 --> 00:01:14,840 Speaker 1: have been different if my mom had this thing. It 20 00:01:14,880 --> 00:01:17,720 Speaker 1: was always like spraying resolve and then blotting it and 21 00:01:17,720 --> 00:01:20,560 Speaker 1: then her yelling at me about these goddamn dogs, and 22 00:01:20,600 --> 00:01:23,200 Speaker 1: it was just like this bustle thing. I took it 23 00:01:23,200 --> 00:01:25,479 Speaker 1: out in the hallway. Yes, I love cleaning with it. 24 00:01:25,959 --> 00:01:28,520 Speaker 1: You hit a switch and then it's sprays as the 25 00:01:28,600 --> 00:01:30,840 Speaker 1: not like on the nozzle is the spray, and then 26 00:01:30,840 --> 00:01:32,839 Speaker 1: you spray it and then it sucks up the pea 27 00:01:33,080 --> 00:01:34,840 Speaker 1: or throw I mean, I cleaned up Marion's throw up, 28 00:01:34,920 --> 00:01:37,400 Speaker 1: cleaned up coffee, and then you see it in the container. 29 00:01:37,400 --> 00:01:40,039 Speaker 1: You see all this like disgusting liquid that's coming out 30 00:01:40,040 --> 00:01:42,640 Speaker 1: of your and I enjoy it. I went and I 31 00:01:42,680 --> 00:01:45,800 Speaker 1: went rogue on the couch yesterday and did the whole couch. 32 00:01:45,840 --> 00:01:49,240 Speaker 1: I just love it. I don't understand why cleaning has 33 00:01:49,280 --> 00:01:51,320 Speaker 1: to be so hard when there's all these devices that 34 00:01:51,360 --> 00:01:54,280 Speaker 1: are so easy. Like I don't know, I just grew 35 00:01:54,400 --> 00:01:57,639 Speaker 1: up in a house that was like constantly talking about 36 00:01:57,760 --> 00:02:01,680 Speaker 1: how messy everything was and how we can't keep anything nice, 37 00:02:02,120 --> 00:02:05,000 Speaker 1: and I just I I don't even want good things anymore. 38 00:02:05,080 --> 00:02:07,000 Speaker 1: I don't even know why we get good things. You 39 00:02:07,080 --> 00:02:11,600 Speaker 1: just recommend And it's like every single day was filled 40 00:02:11,760 --> 00:02:16,320 Speaker 1: with just anxiety about stains and shoes on the carpet, 41 00:02:16,400 --> 00:02:19,320 Speaker 1: dogs and it's like it all could have been cured 42 00:02:19,360 --> 00:02:24,200 Speaker 1: by spending a hundred dollars at sears um. But yeah, 43 00:02:24,240 --> 00:02:26,280 Speaker 1: I just whipped that thing out and it sucked the coffee, 44 00:02:26,680 --> 00:02:29,720 Speaker 1: so I drank probably half of VENTI brought it in here, 45 00:02:29,919 --> 00:02:35,519 Speaker 1: spilled another fourth of it on the carpet, cleaned it 46 00:02:35,600 --> 00:02:38,720 Speaker 1: up in you know, thirty seconds, and then started the 47 00:02:38,720 --> 00:02:43,080 Speaker 1: podcast and spilled the the final four and um. You know, 48 00:02:43,400 --> 00:02:45,920 Speaker 1: I'm regretting when Andrew went to Starbucks and said, do 49 00:02:45,919 --> 00:02:47,560 Speaker 1: you want any coffee and I said, already got one. 50 00:02:47,680 --> 00:02:51,440 Speaker 1: I'm regretting that answer. Um, But otherwise, great morning. We 51 00:02:51,560 --> 00:02:56,240 Speaker 1: just got off on Instagram live on the podcast, uh 52 00:02:56,440 --> 00:03:01,400 Speaker 1: you know account Nikki Glazer pod and um, because I 53 00:03:01,400 --> 00:03:04,000 Speaker 1: was in the mood to play guitar Andrew and I 54 00:03:04,040 --> 00:03:07,680 Speaker 1: got out the karaoke karaoke mic that makes his voice 55 00:03:07,720 --> 00:03:10,040 Speaker 1: kind of like echoe. There's a setting on it, Noah 56 00:03:10,040 --> 00:03:12,959 Speaker 1: that says like karaoke mode, and then it's like very 57 00:03:13,000 --> 00:03:15,120 Speaker 1: echoe and it makes your voice sound, you know, like 58 00:03:15,160 --> 00:03:19,160 Speaker 1: almost auto tuned, like better than it should sound. People 59 00:03:19,200 --> 00:03:23,800 Speaker 1: don't know this, but like the reason, like anytime you 60 00:03:23,919 --> 00:03:27,760 Speaker 1: listen to an artist on the radio, It's very rare 61 00:03:27,800 --> 00:03:31,040 Speaker 1: that someone's voice just in a in a without like 62 00:03:31,200 --> 00:03:33,960 Speaker 1: effects on it, it's gonna sound good, like purely. I mean, 63 00:03:33,960 --> 00:03:36,280 Speaker 1: that's like a really good singer. But most artists their 64 00:03:36,320 --> 00:03:39,839 Speaker 1: voices are layered like ten times, and you would listen 65 00:03:39,880 --> 00:03:41,680 Speaker 1: on the radio and think, oh, that's just one that's 66 00:03:41,680 --> 00:03:44,080 Speaker 1: just them singing once. But it's like the more layer 67 00:03:44,120 --> 00:03:47,560 Speaker 1: and echo, the better you sound. So Andrew doesn't understand that. 68 00:03:47,600 --> 00:03:50,080 Speaker 1: So he's like, there's a karaoke mode that makes it 69 00:03:50,160 --> 00:03:53,240 Speaker 1: very echoe. Then there's a master mode, which makes it 70 00:03:53,280 --> 00:03:55,119 Speaker 1: sound like you're in a dungeon, and I guess that's 71 00:03:55,120 --> 00:03:57,240 Speaker 1: for like B D s. I'm like, I'm your master, 72 00:03:58,720 --> 00:04:02,720 Speaker 1: stay in a cornerable I will, I'll fill your water 73 00:04:02,840 --> 00:04:05,880 Speaker 1: bowl when when you're when you call him or what. 74 00:04:06,040 --> 00:04:08,000 Speaker 1: I don't know. It's just it's called Master mode. And 75 00:04:08,000 --> 00:04:10,760 Speaker 1: then there's one that's like professional mode. And he likes 76 00:04:10,760 --> 00:04:13,720 Speaker 1: to be on professional mode. And I said, Andrew, Andrew's 77 00:04:13,760 --> 00:04:16,279 Speaker 1: voice is garbage, Like his singing voice is one of 78 00:04:16,279 --> 00:04:19,760 Speaker 1: the worst I've ever heard. And with that, I say 79 00:04:19,800 --> 00:04:22,120 Speaker 1: that with notice saying mine is not good. I can 80 00:04:22,160 --> 00:04:28,000 Speaker 1: at least carry a tune. He cannot Um. But he 81 00:04:28,160 --> 00:04:34,120 Speaker 1: thinks he can, which is, you know, an unfortunate side 82 00:04:34,120 --> 00:04:37,160 Speaker 1: effect of his confidence. I like him to have confidence, 83 00:04:37,200 --> 00:04:39,120 Speaker 1: but not there. So I told him you gotta put 84 00:04:39,120 --> 00:04:40,680 Speaker 1: it on karaoke mode. He's like, no, I should do 85 00:04:40,720 --> 00:04:43,360 Speaker 1: professional mode and I go, no, that's for professional singers 86 00:04:43,400 --> 00:04:45,440 Speaker 1: because there's no effect on it. And he's like, no, 87 00:04:45,520 --> 00:04:47,839 Speaker 1: it makes you sound like a professional. And I go, okay, 88 00:04:47,880 --> 00:04:49,840 Speaker 1: well we'll let the podcast be the judgement, so we'll 89 00:04:49,839 --> 00:04:51,880 Speaker 1: do it later and you tell me if you sing 90 00:04:51,960 --> 00:04:53,960 Speaker 1: professional mode makes him sound like a professional or not. 91 00:04:54,279 --> 00:04:59,320 Speaker 1: But we're just singing and so fun. It's like I wanted. 92 00:05:00,040 --> 00:05:02,680 Speaker 1: The thing is, I just want to perform alone eventually, 93 00:05:02,760 --> 00:05:05,200 Speaker 1: but it gives me if I have someone dancing in 94 00:05:05,240 --> 00:05:07,880 Speaker 1: the background or Andrew singing terribly, it makes it so 95 00:05:07,920 --> 00:05:09,880 Speaker 1: it's not all about me. And he does do funny 96 00:05:09,960 --> 00:05:11,960 Speaker 1: stuff during it, and he has a really good time. 97 00:05:12,040 --> 00:05:14,080 Speaker 1: But it was so fun. It was like the earliest 98 00:05:14,080 --> 00:05:16,320 Speaker 1: concert that's ever been put on. It was like ten 99 00:05:16,480 --> 00:05:19,680 Speaker 1: thirty and we just played a few songs. We played 100 00:05:19,680 --> 00:05:23,560 Speaker 1: Britney Spears, Oops, I did it again, You Belong with Me, 101 00:05:23,600 --> 00:05:26,599 Speaker 1: Taylor swift Um, the best. These were all commoning really 102 00:05:26,680 --> 00:05:28,719 Speaker 1: nice things. Thank you so much. You guys are also 103 00:05:28,800 --> 00:05:34,320 Speaker 1: supportive and sweet. Um, I'm going to San Jose today. Yeah, 104 00:05:34,360 --> 00:05:37,800 Speaker 1: I'm flying to San Jose. We have two shows. Wait no, 105 00:05:37,880 --> 00:05:40,480 Speaker 1: we have a show tomorrow in Monterey, California, and then 106 00:05:40,480 --> 00:05:43,480 Speaker 1: another show on Saturday and Napa. I think they're almost 107 00:05:43,520 --> 00:05:47,640 Speaker 1: both sold out. Um, we're going in early just because 108 00:05:47,640 --> 00:05:49,240 Speaker 1: it's like, I don't want to do any more day 109 00:05:49,240 --> 00:05:53,200 Speaker 1: of travel. It really stresses me out. And it's just 110 00:05:53,279 --> 00:05:56,000 Speaker 1: there's it's a lot to just land and go like, Okay, 111 00:05:56,000 --> 00:05:58,479 Speaker 1: I gotta go get dressed and put on makeup and 112 00:05:58,480 --> 00:06:00,440 Speaker 1: then go perform. I want to be the best for 113 00:06:00,480 --> 00:06:04,880 Speaker 1: these performances. Um. I have just so much going on 114 00:06:04,960 --> 00:06:07,239 Speaker 1: right now. I'm supposed to be attempting to write a book, 115 00:06:08,240 --> 00:06:11,920 Speaker 1: and I was. I've tried to do that before and 116 00:06:12,960 --> 00:06:17,040 Speaker 1: it just got too overwhelming and I quit. And uh 117 00:06:17,120 --> 00:06:21,359 Speaker 1: so now I'm looking for help from someone. Um, you know, 118 00:06:21,440 --> 00:06:23,719 Speaker 1: not like a ghostwriter, because I'm I am a writer 119 00:06:23,800 --> 00:06:25,640 Speaker 1: and I am I'm too much of a control freak. 120 00:06:25,760 --> 00:06:28,080 Speaker 1: So I just want someone to listen to me talk, 121 00:06:28,640 --> 00:06:30,920 Speaker 1: write it all down, give it to me, and then 122 00:06:30,960 --> 00:06:33,359 Speaker 1: I go no, no, no, And then I I redo 123 00:06:33,400 --> 00:06:37,040 Speaker 1: it in my voice. Um. But there's some point of pride, 124 00:06:37,080 --> 00:06:39,320 Speaker 1: as like I was talking to David Spade last week 125 00:06:39,360 --> 00:06:41,760 Speaker 1: and he wrote his own books. He didn't need any help, 126 00:06:41,839 --> 00:06:43,920 Speaker 1: and I'm just like, if you can do it, I 127 00:06:43,920 --> 00:06:45,360 Speaker 1: should be able to do it. And he's like, yeah, 128 00:06:45,360 --> 00:06:47,520 Speaker 1: you just get note cards and start writing ideas and 129 00:06:47,520 --> 00:06:50,080 Speaker 1: then those not cards you take them. And I mean 130 00:06:50,120 --> 00:06:53,240 Speaker 1: he did have help, um from his assistant who would 131 00:06:53,240 --> 00:06:55,080 Speaker 1: listen to his stories and then like write down his jokes. 132 00:06:55,120 --> 00:06:57,440 Speaker 1: So I just got a streamline the process and not 133 00:06:57,560 --> 00:06:59,680 Speaker 1: be so scared about involving other people. I think that 134 00:07:00,279 --> 00:07:02,320 Speaker 1: I remember going to that abuse of therapist I had, 135 00:07:02,360 --> 00:07:04,520 Speaker 1: and one of the piece of advice was she was like, 136 00:07:04,560 --> 00:07:07,200 Speaker 1: you don't have to do everything alone. You can ask 137 00:07:07,279 --> 00:07:11,640 Speaker 1: for help. And there's just something in me though that 138 00:07:12,080 --> 00:07:15,520 Speaker 1: when I can do it myself, I don't want If 139 00:07:15,560 --> 00:07:17,560 Speaker 1: I could do it myself and it might take longer, 140 00:07:17,920 --> 00:07:22,320 Speaker 1: I should because A it saves money. Be it saves money, 141 00:07:22,320 --> 00:07:24,280 Speaker 1: and see it saves money because I grew up with 142 00:07:24,600 --> 00:07:27,160 Speaker 1: a mom who likes to use Resolve called carpet cleaner 143 00:07:27,200 --> 00:07:28,640 Speaker 1: and get on her hands and knees and scrub a 144 00:07:28,680 --> 00:07:31,560 Speaker 1: carpet instead of just buying a bistle for a hundred dollars, 145 00:07:32,560 --> 00:07:35,000 Speaker 1: get yourself abistle. I'm not sponsored by them by any 146 00:07:35,040 --> 00:07:38,960 Speaker 1: means I should be because I'm a stained person. Uh 147 00:07:39,960 --> 00:07:42,640 Speaker 1: stained What it was that? Uh It's been a while 148 00:07:43,520 --> 00:07:49,840 Speaker 1: since I didn't spill my coffee. I mean I am, Um, yeah, 149 00:07:49,840 --> 00:07:53,920 Speaker 1: I'm a splotchy bit. I mean my spray tan. There's 150 00:07:53,920 --> 00:07:57,400 Speaker 1: nothing that makes you feel less clean than a schluffing 151 00:07:57,520 --> 00:08:01,560 Speaker 1: spray tan. Um. But I applied it. I applied it 152 00:08:01,600 --> 00:08:05,000 Speaker 1: every morning. Um. Because now this podcast is gonna be 153 00:08:05,080 --> 00:08:08,520 Speaker 1: on video and I have to look presentable for these things. 154 00:08:08,560 --> 00:08:10,520 Speaker 1: But at some point I'm going to let it go. 155 00:08:11,080 --> 00:08:15,200 Speaker 1: I have to. There's this upkeep is too much um. 156 00:08:15,240 --> 00:08:17,520 Speaker 1: And and I'm thinking about the wig thing. I don't 157 00:08:17,520 --> 00:08:20,040 Speaker 1: I'm not opposed to getting wigs and just throwing those 158 00:08:20,040 --> 00:08:24,119 Speaker 1: on to just cancel out my hair problems. Um, because 159 00:08:24,160 --> 00:08:26,360 Speaker 1: sometimes you just don't want to do your hair. But 160 00:08:26,400 --> 00:08:30,720 Speaker 1: I did get sent by a bestie a article called 161 00:08:30,920 --> 00:08:36,200 Speaker 1: the condition Squish, Squish and condish, and it's essentially my 162 00:08:36,640 --> 00:08:39,160 Speaker 1: congealing thing that I came up with. Where you fill 163 00:08:39,240 --> 00:08:42,120 Speaker 1: the sinc basin with water, you make your hair, so 164 00:08:42,240 --> 00:08:45,000 Speaker 1: you brush through your hair so that it runs straight 165 00:08:45,000 --> 00:08:47,320 Speaker 1: and you have no tangles. Then you separate it into 166 00:08:47,320 --> 00:08:50,240 Speaker 1: pieces with your fingers and those pieces are the curls 167 00:08:50,240 --> 00:08:52,280 Speaker 1: that will congeal together, and then you dip it in 168 00:08:52,320 --> 00:08:56,079 Speaker 1: the sink and then you scrutch. But um, yeah so much. 169 00:08:56,080 --> 00:08:59,079 Speaker 1: She was like, you should have patten that ship. Um 170 00:08:59,400 --> 00:09:05,120 Speaker 1: we I got sent a box of um like you 171 00:09:05,160 --> 00:09:11,080 Speaker 1: know what that promotional um goodies from Comedy Central for 172 00:09:11,559 --> 00:09:13,959 Speaker 1: the show Nora from Queens, which I haven't seen the 173 00:09:13,960 --> 00:09:15,840 Speaker 1: first season, but they're promoting the second season. And they 174 00:09:15,880 --> 00:09:19,080 Speaker 1: sent me a box of all these like cute things 175 00:09:19,160 --> 00:09:24,760 Speaker 1: like coffee mug, journal, little tray. It's all weed themed. 176 00:09:25,120 --> 00:09:27,760 Speaker 1: I must say, like this show must be like Nora 177 00:09:27,880 --> 00:09:30,160 Speaker 1: from Queens must be like a heavy pot smoker, because 178 00:09:30,520 --> 00:09:32,240 Speaker 1: every single thing I got in the box is like 179 00:09:32,800 --> 00:09:35,560 Speaker 1: get high smoking school, a shirt with like a little 180 00:09:35,600 --> 00:09:39,000 Speaker 1: cartoon of smoking a joint. So ironic to get all 181 00:09:39,000 --> 00:09:41,600 Speaker 1: these things. And I will say another best. Sea sent 182 00:09:41,679 --> 00:09:47,120 Speaker 1: me pipes like glass beautiful glass made pipes. Um glass 183 00:09:47,160 --> 00:09:50,720 Speaker 1: made beautiful glass pipes that were like I'm I'm just 184 00:09:50,760 --> 00:09:52,720 Speaker 1: displaying them on my shelf now because there aren't because 185 00:09:52,720 --> 00:09:55,120 Speaker 1: I'm not smoking weed right now, And it's just so 186 00:09:55,160 --> 00:09:57,760 Speaker 1: funny that this influx of weed stuff and then c 187 00:09:58,000 --> 00:10:00,040 Speaker 1: J yesterday on the show being like, You've got to 188 00:10:00,120 --> 00:10:05,400 Speaker 1: try this cannabis cola. I'm just like, it's really funny 189 00:10:05,440 --> 00:10:07,600 Speaker 1: that if you want to do what you want to do, 190 00:10:08,320 --> 00:10:11,160 Speaker 1: if you want an excuse to do the thing that 191 00:10:11,200 --> 00:10:13,559 Speaker 1: you know doesn't make you your best self, you can 192 00:10:13,600 --> 00:10:17,160 Speaker 1: find it. You can always find it, you know, Like 193 00:10:17,520 --> 00:10:21,200 Speaker 1: I think that, um, you know, men who justified cheating, 194 00:10:21,720 --> 00:10:24,880 Speaker 1: they can surround themselves with other men who cheat and 195 00:10:24,920 --> 00:10:27,560 Speaker 1: convince themselves that every man cheats. So if you surround 196 00:10:27,600 --> 00:10:29,880 Speaker 1: yourself with people that are doing it, you go It's 197 00:10:29,920 --> 00:10:32,480 Speaker 1: it normalizes it. So you can just like, if I 198 00:10:32,520 --> 00:10:34,160 Speaker 1: want to smoke weed, I can just hang out with 199 00:10:34,160 --> 00:10:36,000 Speaker 1: a bunch of people. And if I want to feel 200 00:10:36,000 --> 00:10:39,080 Speaker 1: okay about smoking weed, I know what to read. I 201 00:10:39,120 --> 00:10:41,400 Speaker 1: know it to watch that makes me feel like this 202 00:10:41,480 --> 00:10:45,160 Speaker 1: is fine. This doesn't make this actually is medicinal. It's 203 00:10:45,240 --> 00:10:47,120 Speaker 1: and and by the way it is for some people. 204 00:10:47,200 --> 00:10:51,520 Speaker 1: For me, it does treat the anxiety, and um, it 205 00:10:51,600 --> 00:10:54,079 Speaker 1: gives me a sense of euphoria and makes me feel 206 00:10:54,080 --> 00:10:56,440 Speaker 1: good like instantly. But I think the long term effects 207 00:10:56,480 --> 00:10:57,920 Speaker 1: are not good, so I'm just gonna cut it out 208 00:10:57,960 --> 00:11:01,200 Speaker 1: for now. But there the lesson here that if you 209 00:11:01,240 --> 00:11:04,839 Speaker 1: want to indulge in be a you know, drinking, there's 210 00:11:04,880 --> 00:11:07,720 Speaker 1: always there. You can always hang out with people that 211 00:11:07,760 --> 00:11:11,600 Speaker 1: make drinkings seem cool and like it makes you more 212 00:11:11,640 --> 00:11:14,720 Speaker 1: interesting person and makes your life better. There's always people 213 00:11:14,720 --> 00:11:16,440 Speaker 1: that can make smoke. You can watch mad Men and 214 00:11:16,480 --> 00:11:19,960 Speaker 1: feel like, oh, smoking cigarettes is cool and okay, and 215 00:11:20,559 --> 00:11:23,120 Speaker 1: Hunter s Thompson and Doug stand up. There's always gonna 216 00:11:23,120 --> 00:11:25,960 Speaker 1: be people that make you feel like what you're doing 217 00:11:26,040 --> 00:11:30,079 Speaker 1: is okay and justified. So just I would pay attention 218 00:11:30,080 --> 00:11:31,640 Speaker 1: to those things, you know, the thing that you feel 219 00:11:31,640 --> 00:11:35,200 Speaker 1: guilty about, even like eating an entire pizza. Like there's 220 00:11:35,200 --> 00:11:39,480 Speaker 1: always memes of like, you know, some girls eat salads. 221 00:11:39,640 --> 00:11:42,199 Speaker 1: I eat an entire pizza on the couch, and it's 222 00:11:42,200 --> 00:11:44,240 Speaker 1: like makes it look cool because this girl is like 223 00:11:44,320 --> 00:11:47,680 Speaker 1: super cute, and it's like she didn't eat that whole pizza, 224 00:11:47,679 --> 00:11:50,120 Speaker 1: and if she did, that's like kind of destructive, do 225 00:11:50,160 --> 00:11:53,160 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying? Like there's always there's always 226 00:11:53,160 --> 00:11:55,319 Speaker 1: someone to reinforce the thing that you want to do, 227 00:11:55,720 --> 00:11:59,240 Speaker 1: good or bad. Um, but yeah, getting sent all these 228 00:11:59,240 --> 00:12:01,600 Speaker 1: things that were like, there's a notebook that's so cupid 229 00:12:01,640 --> 00:12:04,920 Speaker 1: on the front, covers as high as fuck. I'm like, 230 00:12:04,960 --> 00:12:07,160 Speaker 1: you know what, I'm high on life. I'll use that notebook. 231 00:12:07,440 --> 00:12:10,400 Speaker 1: I'll write. I'll journal in that notebook once every three months. 232 00:12:11,080 --> 00:12:13,080 Speaker 1: I mean, the old journals that I have, I just 233 00:12:13,160 --> 00:12:15,280 Speaker 1: opened them up, and it's just like one day in 234 00:12:15,360 --> 00:12:17,400 Speaker 1: two thousand and eight when I was just feeling a 235 00:12:17,440 --> 00:12:20,840 Speaker 1: certain way, and it's so funny all of the things. 236 00:12:20,920 --> 00:12:23,080 Speaker 1: Anytime I reached for a journal and I'm just scribbling 237 00:12:23,120 --> 00:12:26,559 Speaker 1: about my feelings in a manic way. I go back 238 00:12:26,559 --> 00:12:30,199 Speaker 1: and look at these years later, and I'm always dealing 239 00:12:30,600 --> 00:12:33,120 Speaker 1: in that moment with an issue that I've either either 240 00:12:34,480 --> 00:12:37,199 Speaker 1: conquered because it eventually became such a problem. Like it's 241 00:12:37,200 --> 00:12:40,559 Speaker 1: funny that these things. I would have thought that my 242 00:12:40,679 --> 00:12:43,800 Speaker 1: drinking problems, like I I would have thought that I 243 00:12:43,840 --> 00:12:46,199 Speaker 1: only kind of struggled with my drinking habits for two 244 00:12:46,320 --> 00:12:49,520 Speaker 1: years before I quit quit in two thousand eleven. I 245 00:12:49,559 --> 00:12:51,560 Speaker 1: would have thought, maybe two nine is when I started going, 246 00:12:51,960 --> 00:12:54,720 Speaker 1: you might need to not do this anymore. But it 247 00:12:54,800 --> 00:12:56,920 Speaker 1: dated back all the way to like two thousand six, 248 00:12:57,040 --> 00:12:59,440 Speaker 1: of me in journals going like I have a drinking 249 00:12:59,440 --> 00:13:03,760 Speaker 1: problem and it's WHOA, I like you They're there were 250 00:13:03,840 --> 00:13:06,880 Speaker 1: little red flags along the way and I opened up 251 00:13:06,920 --> 00:13:08,760 Speaker 1: things and it's like, I want to quit smoking weed. 252 00:13:08,840 --> 00:13:12,000 Speaker 1: I hate that I smoked like it's it's it's everywhere, 253 00:13:12,200 --> 00:13:14,960 Speaker 1: you know. Um. But it's interesting because I was talking 254 00:13:14,960 --> 00:13:17,640 Speaker 1: to Andrew about not smoking weed, and I'm like, and 255 00:13:17,720 --> 00:13:21,199 Speaker 1: he he did an interesting thing the other night, which 256 00:13:21,360 --> 00:13:24,199 Speaker 1: I've told him this before, where it's like because I've 257 00:13:24,200 --> 00:13:26,200 Speaker 1: asked him straight up, like am I better when I 258 00:13:26,240 --> 00:13:28,280 Speaker 1: smoke weed? Like you've seen me before and after you're 259 00:13:28,320 --> 00:13:31,760 Speaker 1: someone who's around me constantly and like you've seen me sober, 260 00:13:32,040 --> 00:13:34,959 Speaker 1: then you see me smoke weed. Am I different? Afterwards? 261 00:13:35,320 --> 00:13:38,920 Speaker 1: And he's like he's always been like, yeah, you're You're 262 00:13:38,960 --> 00:13:40,600 Speaker 1: just I mean, I think it's better, Like he's never 263 00:13:40,600 --> 00:13:44,160 Speaker 1: given me a concrete answer. Then the other night, after 264 00:13:44,200 --> 00:13:47,000 Speaker 1: I've quit smoking for a week and I think he 265 00:13:47,080 --> 00:13:50,760 Speaker 1: found out, like the other night, and then I'm making 266 00:13:50,760 --> 00:13:54,120 Speaker 1: dinner and he's like can I like you know what, 267 00:13:54,280 --> 00:13:57,240 Speaker 1: never mind? And I hate that the start of something. 268 00:13:57,600 --> 00:13:59,000 Speaker 1: Never mind, it's not the time for it. I'm like, 269 00:14:00,080 --> 00:14:01,840 Speaker 1: now it is the time, tell me what you're gonna say. 270 00:14:01,880 --> 00:14:03,800 Speaker 1: He's like, do you want me to say something if 271 00:14:03,840 --> 00:14:05,840 Speaker 1: I feel like you have a problem with something? And 272 00:14:05,840 --> 00:14:10,120 Speaker 1: I'm like, I mean sure what I mean what? And 273 00:14:10,120 --> 00:14:13,160 Speaker 1: he's like like if you're like sometimes I found your 274 00:14:13,200 --> 00:14:15,760 Speaker 1: like acting like you're outside of yourself. I don't know. 275 00:14:15,920 --> 00:14:18,440 Speaker 1: He wasn't being very clear about it, and I honestly 276 00:14:18,480 --> 00:14:22,320 Speaker 1: don't want to hear someone say like in retrospect like 277 00:14:22,440 --> 00:14:24,640 Speaker 1: you were so weird then like it makes me feel 278 00:14:24,720 --> 00:14:28,200 Speaker 1: really sad if someone was like harboring thoughts about me, 279 00:14:28,280 --> 00:14:31,800 Speaker 1: Like I'd rather know in the moment then later on 280 00:14:32,000 --> 00:14:34,720 Speaker 1: like I like you were so weird that it. I 281 00:14:34,760 --> 00:14:38,640 Speaker 1: didn't say anything, so but he was like, he said, 282 00:14:38,680 --> 00:14:40,560 Speaker 1: do you want if I if you ever have a problem, 283 00:14:40,560 --> 00:14:41,960 Speaker 1: do you want me to confront you about it? And 284 00:14:41,960 --> 00:14:44,840 Speaker 1: I said, well, if i'm I know when it's time 285 00:14:44,840 --> 00:14:48,360 Speaker 1: for me to get help. Sometimes people intervening and you know, 286 00:14:48,400 --> 00:14:50,760 Speaker 1: if it's ever like affecting my life and career in 287 00:14:50,760 --> 00:14:52,360 Speaker 1: a way where you think I'm going to die, yes, 288 00:14:52,440 --> 00:14:55,600 Speaker 1: have an intervention please, even though I will be like 289 00:14:55,680 --> 00:14:59,600 Speaker 1: people on intervention and go no, no, I am leaving 290 00:14:59,720 --> 00:15:02,520 Speaker 1: and I'll walk into the conference room at the fucking 291 00:15:02,960 --> 00:15:07,040 Speaker 1: Double Tree, and I'll go, no, oh my god, I'm 292 00:15:07,040 --> 00:15:09,360 Speaker 1: not I'm not doing this, you guys like you know, 293 00:15:09,720 --> 00:15:11,520 Speaker 1: that's what addicts do when they don't want to change. 294 00:15:11,520 --> 00:15:13,360 Speaker 1: But if I want to change, like that might get 295 00:15:13,400 --> 00:15:17,240 Speaker 1: me to change. But generally, when someone's really struggling with 296 00:15:17,320 --> 00:15:21,600 Speaker 1: something and engaging in a behavior that's destructive and it's 297 00:15:21,640 --> 00:15:24,960 Speaker 1: in it, no amount of I'm really worried about you 298 00:15:25,120 --> 00:15:28,240 Speaker 1: is gonna make that person feel better. I mean, you 299 00:15:28,320 --> 00:15:30,360 Speaker 1: got to tell them, but usually they're gonna they're not 300 00:15:30,400 --> 00:15:31,840 Speaker 1: gonna handle it well. And so I told him that, 301 00:15:31,840 --> 00:15:33,600 Speaker 1: I go, if I'm if I really want to smoke weed, 302 00:15:33,600 --> 00:15:35,040 Speaker 1: and you come at me and you're like, I don't 303 00:15:35,040 --> 00:15:36,600 Speaker 1: think you should smoke weed because you're this and this 304 00:15:36,640 --> 00:15:39,680 Speaker 1: and this, I'll be like, fuck you and then go 305 00:15:39,800 --> 00:15:42,320 Speaker 1: smoke weed. But it'll stay in my brain for when 306 00:15:42,320 --> 00:15:46,840 Speaker 1: I'm ready to quit, you know. But I don't like 307 00:15:46,960 --> 00:15:49,440 Speaker 1: someone telling me a week after I quit smoking that 308 00:15:49,560 --> 00:15:52,600 Speaker 1: they think I should have quit I should quit smoking, Like, 309 00:15:52,960 --> 00:15:55,120 Speaker 1: I'm like, is that what he come on? It? So? 310 00:15:55,160 --> 00:15:59,080 Speaker 1: Did Andrew smoke or not smoke? He told me that, Well, 311 00:15:59,160 --> 00:16:01,680 Speaker 1: at first, know what he was like when I asked him, 312 00:16:01,920 --> 00:16:03,920 Speaker 1: I would say, I've been like, I mean, I've been 313 00:16:03,920 --> 00:16:07,200 Speaker 1: struggling with my feeling shame about smoking weed for a 314 00:16:07,240 --> 00:16:09,320 Speaker 1: really long time. But I think like a couple of 315 00:16:09,320 --> 00:16:11,520 Speaker 1: months ago, I was straight up on the podcast like 316 00:16:11,760 --> 00:16:14,560 Speaker 1: am I different? Like what is it good or bad? 317 00:16:14,600 --> 00:16:16,680 Speaker 1: Do you think it serves me? I'm hearing a lot 318 00:16:16,720 --> 00:16:18,760 Speaker 1: of people tell me, NICKI keeps smoking weed if it 319 00:16:18,760 --> 00:16:20,480 Speaker 1: makes you feel good, do what you want. Then some 320 00:16:20,520 --> 00:16:23,080 Speaker 1: people are like, no, what's addictive? It's you know. Um, 321 00:16:23,120 --> 00:16:25,160 Speaker 1: everything I read online is like don't it makes your 322 00:16:25,160 --> 00:16:28,440 Speaker 1: brain like lose blood and you you just become stupider 323 00:16:28,480 --> 00:16:32,640 Speaker 1: and everything, and um, so I was getting mixed messages. Um, 324 00:16:32,720 --> 00:16:34,560 Speaker 1: and so I asked Andrew because he's the one that 325 00:16:34,600 --> 00:16:37,000 Speaker 1: sees me, and he was like, no, I don't see 326 00:16:37,040 --> 00:16:39,120 Speaker 1: a difference. I don't really. I think you're nicer to me. 327 00:16:39,200 --> 00:16:41,240 Speaker 1: I think he said that that you're nicer. And then 328 00:16:41,280 --> 00:16:43,200 Speaker 1: after he finds out I've not smoked for a week, 329 00:16:43,240 --> 00:16:46,120 Speaker 1: which he didn't know, he just like, you know, he 330 00:16:46,160 --> 00:16:48,760 Speaker 1: obviously doesn't smell it as much and isn't like, doesn't 331 00:16:48,800 --> 00:16:50,440 Speaker 1: see me do it. But I was sometimes doing it 332 00:16:50,480 --> 00:16:52,040 Speaker 1: in my room he wouldn't know if it, but he 333 00:16:52,040 --> 00:16:53,880 Speaker 1: found out at the baseball game. I think I announced 334 00:16:53,920 --> 00:16:55,640 Speaker 1: it to my sister and I think he overheard that 335 00:16:55,640 --> 00:16:57,080 Speaker 1: I hadn't smoked in a week, and I think that's 336 00:16:57,080 --> 00:16:59,520 Speaker 1: when he was like, I think you have a problem 337 00:16:59,600 --> 00:17:02,360 Speaker 1: with it, and like, I really, I think you need 338 00:17:02,400 --> 00:17:06,439 Speaker 1: to stop. And I'm like, you can't jump on my again. 339 00:17:06,480 --> 00:17:08,720 Speaker 1: It's like, don't write my joke for me. That's my 340 00:17:09,040 --> 00:17:11,080 Speaker 1: I came up with the idea to quit, Like, it's 341 00:17:11,119 --> 00:17:14,399 Speaker 1: not your idea, but it was. It is all for 342 00:17:14,480 --> 00:17:19,240 Speaker 1: the good. And I just don't like when someone after 343 00:17:19,280 --> 00:17:23,119 Speaker 1: the fact is like, yeah, yeah, I was a Devil's 344 00:17:23,160 --> 00:17:26,199 Speaker 1: advocate Nikki. Sure what if he just needed to have 345 00:17:26,280 --> 00:17:29,159 Speaker 1: the reference and to see and he had to like 346 00:17:29,320 --> 00:17:35,639 Speaker 1: process the comparison. Okay, I will um, I will accept 347 00:17:35,680 --> 00:17:39,480 Speaker 1: that because he did say the past week, you've seemed 348 00:17:39,560 --> 00:17:44,840 Speaker 1: much better and like, but that also could be other things. 349 00:17:44,880 --> 00:17:46,960 Speaker 1: I'm not. I mean, I I definitely feel better. I 350 00:17:47,000 --> 00:17:50,080 Speaker 1: don't want I'm I'm I'm still on this you know, 351 00:17:50,200 --> 00:17:54,000 Speaker 1: sober journey, uh and and don't want to go back 352 00:17:54,040 --> 00:17:56,720 Speaker 1: to it. But I do know that I also have 353 00:17:56,840 --> 00:18:00,320 Speaker 1: like been trying to address my anger issue and like 354 00:18:00,400 --> 00:18:02,720 Speaker 1: my treatment of him, and like how I talk to 355 00:18:02,800 --> 00:18:06,080 Speaker 1: people I love and and really been focusing on those things. 356 00:18:06,119 --> 00:18:08,920 Speaker 1: But I think those go hand in hand, like because 357 00:18:09,000 --> 00:18:13,119 Speaker 1: I noticed maybe, yeah, why do I want credit for everything? 358 00:18:13,359 --> 00:18:15,600 Speaker 1: Why why do I need that? I I don't know. 359 00:18:15,960 --> 00:18:18,919 Speaker 1: Um again, it's about not wanting help from others and 360 00:18:18,960 --> 00:18:22,479 Speaker 1: being like I got it. I already knew that. And 361 00:18:22,520 --> 00:18:25,000 Speaker 1: it's not, um, it's it's not who I want to be. 362 00:18:25,040 --> 00:18:27,480 Speaker 1: I want to work on being able to give other 363 00:18:27,520 --> 00:18:32,120 Speaker 1: people credit for things. But you know, it's it's just 364 00:18:33,600 --> 00:18:36,040 Speaker 1: it's something that it just stays with me. Ever since 365 00:18:36,040 --> 00:18:39,760 Speaker 1: I was anorectic and everyone talked about me behind my back. 366 00:18:39,840 --> 00:18:42,160 Speaker 1: All of my friends went to the counselor in high 367 00:18:42,200 --> 00:18:46,360 Speaker 1: school and told them and before they went to me, 368 00:18:47,480 --> 00:18:49,000 Speaker 1: and you know, they were annoyed. They were like, you 369 00:18:49,000 --> 00:18:51,479 Speaker 1: don't eat anything, and they were like bratty to me 370 00:18:51,480 --> 00:18:54,160 Speaker 1: and like mean about it and like angry. But then 371 00:18:54,760 --> 00:18:57,439 Speaker 1: them all getting together and bringing in their parents and 372 00:18:57,480 --> 00:18:59,919 Speaker 1: calling my parents behind my back, and then going to 373 00:19:00,040 --> 00:19:02,399 Speaker 1: the counselor, and then the counselor pulling me out of class, 374 00:19:02,440 --> 00:19:07,040 Speaker 1: and like it just felt like so it felt like 375 00:19:07,480 --> 00:19:10,160 Speaker 1: I That's why I hate surprises, because I hate people 376 00:19:10,160 --> 00:19:12,520 Speaker 1: talking about me behind my back from that time and 377 00:19:12,680 --> 00:19:14,320 Speaker 1: that time in my life when it was like everyone 378 00:19:14,359 --> 00:19:16,360 Speaker 1: was so worried about me, yet no one could tell 379 00:19:16,400 --> 00:19:21,080 Speaker 1: me to my really skinny face. And it's just but 380 00:19:21,160 --> 00:19:23,119 Speaker 1: at the same time, I would have just which I 381 00:19:23,160 --> 00:19:25,320 Speaker 1: did do it when the I will say, when I 382 00:19:25,320 --> 00:19:28,040 Speaker 1: went to that counselor's office, I was like, no, I 383 00:19:28,040 --> 00:19:29,640 Speaker 1: just figured out how to lose weight, and everyone's working 384 00:19:29,680 --> 00:19:33,280 Speaker 1: jealous because I wasn't like terribly thin yet to the 385 00:19:33,280 --> 00:19:35,960 Speaker 1: point where it looked like, you know, of concern. I 386 00:19:36,040 --> 00:19:37,719 Speaker 1: just dropped a lot of weight and I go listen, 387 00:19:38,080 --> 00:19:40,200 Speaker 1: I just figured out how to how to diet and 388 00:19:40,840 --> 00:19:43,760 Speaker 1: it's working for me. And I mean, I'm not intorextic. 389 00:19:43,800 --> 00:19:46,080 Speaker 1: I just totally lied because at the time I didn't 390 00:19:46,119 --> 00:19:50,080 Speaker 1: even know. But I remember this teacher, this counselor, saying, 391 00:19:50,400 --> 00:19:51,840 Speaker 1: so what are you doing? And she was like a 392 00:19:51,840 --> 00:19:53,600 Speaker 1: bigger woman. She was like can you tell me, Like, 393 00:19:53,840 --> 00:19:55,920 Speaker 1: so what if you changed? It went from her being 394 00:19:55,960 --> 00:19:58,399 Speaker 1: worried about me being like, are you interrectic too? We'll 395 00:19:58,480 --> 00:20:03,879 Speaker 1: teach me your ways. Oh you know, it's it's all. 396 00:20:04,240 --> 00:20:08,000 Speaker 1: It's all comes from past trauma. Every single thing you do, 397 00:20:08,160 --> 00:20:12,320 Speaker 1: including f boys. Looking yesterday, it was so much fun. 398 00:20:12,560 --> 00:20:15,840 Speaker 1: We gotta get to Uh, let's bring in our boy. Andrew. 399 00:20:19,640 --> 00:20:24,480 Speaker 1: Hey Handrew, good morning, good morning, good morning, good morning. 400 00:20:25,160 --> 00:20:29,399 Speaker 1: Sleep decent. I didn't have the ship. I kind of 401 00:20:29,400 --> 00:20:34,040 Speaker 1: had the midnight ships again. The midnight ships. Yeah, we've 402 00:20:34,040 --> 00:20:38,280 Speaker 1: talked about this, you know. Oh yeah, is it from 403 00:20:38,320 --> 00:20:41,720 Speaker 1: the Is it from the cauliflower pizza? Like, I gotta 404 00:20:41,760 --> 00:20:44,520 Speaker 1: slow down on my pizza. I've been getting real into 405 00:20:44,560 --> 00:20:46,920 Speaker 1: pizzas these days. I was thinking about like you used 406 00:20:46,920 --> 00:20:49,000 Speaker 1: to be when I was at Whole Foods getting your pizza. 407 00:20:49,200 --> 00:20:51,680 Speaker 1: I was I looked at the chicken tenders and I remember, oh, 408 00:20:51,680 --> 00:20:53,639 Speaker 1: he was on a chicken tender thing for a while. 409 00:20:53,760 --> 00:20:56,240 Speaker 1: Like you're like me. You go through like phases with 410 00:20:56,320 --> 00:20:58,960 Speaker 1: food that you just like really get into a thing. 411 00:20:59,240 --> 00:21:02,080 Speaker 1: It's like that, and same with the song. I just 412 00:21:02,240 --> 00:21:03,560 Speaker 1: you know, I think a lot of people do this. 413 00:21:03,680 --> 00:21:06,720 Speaker 1: You just you just like what you like. You like 414 00:21:06,840 --> 00:21:09,320 Speaker 1: what you like until you hate it. It's dopamine. I 415 00:21:09,359 --> 00:21:12,639 Speaker 1: think it's like it just it feels good until you 416 00:21:12,680 --> 00:21:15,000 Speaker 1: get tired of it. And like the you're not getting 417 00:21:15,040 --> 00:21:18,639 Speaker 1: that little burst of it's like everything though, like you know, 418 00:21:18,720 --> 00:21:22,120 Speaker 1: even with like a haircut or my facial hair. I 419 00:21:22,200 --> 00:21:25,440 Speaker 1: constantly I think I found something and then I need 420 00:21:25,440 --> 00:21:28,080 Speaker 1: to change. I don't understand how like, wait, you think 421 00:21:28,080 --> 00:21:29,960 Speaker 1: you found something and you need to change. You mean 422 00:21:30,000 --> 00:21:31,439 Speaker 1: like you think you found something and it's like this 423 00:21:31,520 --> 00:21:34,119 Speaker 1: is my new thing, this will be Yeah. I I 424 00:21:34,840 --> 00:21:37,480 Speaker 1: recognize that in you, as I do for myself. I 425 00:21:37,600 --> 00:21:42,720 Speaker 1: know now from enough of that that nothing ever lasts. Yes, yes, 426 00:21:42,800 --> 00:21:45,560 Speaker 1: but I think then you sometimes think it's gonna laugh. Well, 427 00:21:45,600 --> 00:21:49,760 Speaker 1: you've got to have that childhood feeling of like happiness, 428 00:21:49,800 --> 00:21:53,159 Speaker 1: because if not, then what what's the world for If 429 00:21:53,160 --> 00:21:55,840 Speaker 1: you're not looking for anything look forward to anything. Well, 430 00:21:55,840 --> 00:21:58,960 Speaker 1: I think that like when you go these pants, these 431 00:21:59,000 --> 00:22:00,720 Speaker 1: are the rest of these pants all I need for 432 00:22:00,760 --> 00:22:03,080 Speaker 1: the rest of my life. It's just like you're closing 433 00:22:03,119 --> 00:22:06,280 Speaker 1: yourself off to other things and you I don't know, 434 00:22:06,359 --> 00:22:09,840 Speaker 1: Like when I get things or have like a thing 435 00:22:09,880 --> 00:22:14,040 Speaker 1: that I love, I don't like that feeling of like 436 00:22:14,320 --> 00:22:17,520 Speaker 1: this is it because I don't know what it is like. 437 00:22:17,800 --> 00:22:21,439 Speaker 1: I think we need to allow ourselves to understand that 438 00:22:21,480 --> 00:22:22,960 Speaker 1: it is going to go away, and that we're obsessed 439 00:22:23,040 --> 00:22:26,439 Speaker 1: right now like, that's why I'm so scared of a 440 00:22:26,480 --> 00:22:29,399 Speaker 1: relationship because I've been in them when they are so 441 00:22:29,480 --> 00:22:33,520 Speaker 1: good and everything is perfect, and somewhere along the line 442 00:22:34,040 --> 00:22:36,520 Speaker 1: you stop being as into each other. And I don't 443 00:22:36,560 --> 00:22:38,920 Speaker 1: want that honeymoon phase to ever end. So how do 444 00:22:39,000 --> 00:22:41,959 Speaker 1: you keep it going? You find a new person everything 445 00:22:42,640 --> 00:22:46,200 Speaker 1: six months, you find pizza. I honestly, I was talking 446 00:22:46,200 --> 00:22:49,560 Speaker 1: to any about it yesterday and we're talking about compromises 447 00:22:49,600 --> 00:22:51,480 Speaker 1: you make in a relationship where it's like you're never 448 00:22:51,520 --> 00:22:55,359 Speaker 1: going to find someone who is perfect, and that Dr 449 00:22:55,400 --> 00:22:57,359 Speaker 1: Pat Allen, who wrote Getting Too I Do, says, if 450 00:22:57,359 --> 00:23:00,280 Speaker 1: you find a guy who's fifty one percent good, like 451 00:23:00,359 --> 00:23:03,640 Speaker 1: fifty one that's all you need then, and you want 452 00:23:03,680 --> 00:23:05,560 Speaker 1: to be in a relationship, you make that work. If 453 00:23:05,560 --> 00:23:10,359 Speaker 1: they're so annoying to you, but they're fifty one the majority, 454 00:23:11,000 --> 00:23:17,400 Speaker 1: it's good. You make it work. That's terrible because grows, 455 00:23:18,040 --> 00:23:22,960 Speaker 1: it grows. I feel like over time it depletes, Like 456 00:23:23,320 --> 00:23:27,720 Speaker 1: I don't want a relationship so badly like that, I don't. 457 00:23:28,520 --> 00:23:35,679 Speaker 1: My ideal relationship is um like where you can have 458 00:23:35,760 --> 00:23:41,359 Speaker 1: your independence, wow, being extremely loving to be with the 459 00:23:41,359 --> 00:23:44,040 Speaker 1: person at the same time, like I love a good 460 00:23:44,119 --> 00:23:47,639 Speaker 1: separation sounds like you like it on your schedule, Like 461 00:23:47,680 --> 00:23:49,199 Speaker 1: when you want to hang out, you want to hang out, 462 00:23:49,240 --> 00:23:51,719 Speaker 1: and when you don't, you don't like. Relationships are not 463 00:23:51,760 --> 00:23:54,439 Speaker 1: that you have to be in a relationship because you 464 00:23:54,480 --> 00:23:56,320 Speaker 1: want to be there for someone when they're going through 465 00:23:56,320 --> 00:23:57,880 Speaker 1: a time where you might not want to hang out 466 00:23:58,200 --> 00:23:59,800 Speaker 1: and you need to be there for them. That's what 467 00:23:59,840 --> 00:24:03,920 Speaker 1: a relationship is. So you're not describing a relationship. So 468 00:24:04,359 --> 00:24:08,680 Speaker 1: I'm the same way. We're selfish people. Yeah, I'm pretty selfish. 469 00:24:08,760 --> 00:24:13,879 Speaker 1: I I just I just like having no feeling of 470 00:24:13,960 --> 00:24:16,320 Speaker 1: someone's looking over Like the idea of someone looking over 471 00:24:16,359 --> 00:24:19,080 Speaker 1: my shoulder is always well, that's about trust. If you 472 00:24:19,080 --> 00:24:21,680 Speaker 1: have someone who trusts you, they're never looking over your shoulder. 473 00:24:21,720 --> 00:24:24,240 Speaker 1: They're just like a relationship where you're like, yeah, I 474 00:24:24,280 --> 00:24:28,399 Speaker 1: trust you still like I feel like you can't. Maybe 475 00:24:28,600 --> 00:24:32,000 Speaker 1: I don't know, you've never been trusted and you've never 476 00:24:32,160 --> 00:24:36,680 Speaker 1: trusted someone else because there is that Yeah, um, that's 477 00:24:36,840 --> 00:24:40,080 Speaker 1: that's great. They're they're totally is that to have where 478 00:24:40,119 --> 00:24:43,560 Speaker 1: you can have someone who and I haven't experienced it either, 479 00:24:43,600 --> 00:24:47,080 Speaker 1: but I will not not enter in a relationship if 480 00:24:47,119 --> 00:24:49,480 Speaker 1: I am with someone who doesn't trust me. It's pretty 481 00:24:50,200 --> 00:24:53,439 Speaker 1: not about me. It's not about them not trusting me. 482 00:24:53,480 --> 00:24:57,520 Speaker 1: It's about me creating a safe space for them where 483 00:24:57,560 --> 00:25:01,160 Speaker 1: they can trust me, because sometimes I'm a little squirrely 484 00:25:01,359 --> 00:25:03,560 Speaker 1: and I am so ashamed of who I am that 485 00:25:03,680 --> 00:25:06,960 Speaker 1: I act in ways that they might think, Oh, they're 486 00:25:07,000 --> 00:25:08,800 Speaker 1: hiding that they're talking to it, she's hiding that she's 487 00:25:08,800 --> 00:25:11,560 Speaker 1: talking another guy, when really I'm hiding that I'm watching 488 00:25:11,760 --> 00:25:14,520 Speaker 1: Warts scraping videos because I'm ashamed of that part of 489 00:25:14,560 --> 00:25:16,040 Speaker 1: my life and I don't want to share that was 490 00:25:16,200 --> 00:25:18,119 Speaker 1: even though I shared on my podcast, I don't want 491 00:25:18,119 --> 00:25:20,399 Speaker 1: a guy i'm dating to know that I every night 492 00:25:20,480 --> 00:25:23,280 Speaker 1: need to watch Warts being ripped out of people's feet. 493 00:25:23,640 --> 00:25:25,960 Speaker 1: But then that that part of me that has shame 494 00:25:27,119 --> 00:25:32,640 Speaker 1: is now creating an air of of me being not mystery, 495 00:25:32,720 --> 00:25:36,040 Speaker 1: of me being uh withholding in some way and being like, 496 00:25:36,040 --> 00:25:37,760 Speaker 1: I don't want to share all of myself with you, 497 00:25:37,840 --> 00:25:40,480 Speaker 1: And then they can interpret that to their worst parts, 498 00:25:40,520 --> 00:25:43,359 Speaker 1: which is not her watching Warts, but you know, her 499 00:25:43,880 --> 00:25:48,080 Speaker 1: talking to a guy with general Warts possibly Yeah, no, 500 00:25:48,240 --> 00:25:51,760 Speaker 1: I get yeah, It's just a feeling of like it's 501 00:25:51,800 --> 00:25:56,080 Speaker 1: two pm, right and I'm supposed to be I want 502 00:25:56,080 --> 00:25:58,119 Speaker 1: to go hit from golf balls. I don't want to 503 00:25:58,160 --> 00:26:01,720 Speaker 1: think like I'm I'm I'm making someone upset that they 504 00:26:01,720 --> 00:26:04,960 Speaker 1: that I don't that I'm choosing that over them or 505 00:26:05,000 --> 00:26:08,399 Speaker 1: anything like that. And maybe to tell you that something 506 00:26:08,600 --> 00:26:11,480 Speaker 1: into likes autonomy, that's what you're that's the word you're 507 00:26:11,520 --> 00:26:14,440 Speaker 1: looking for. I think I've been autonomized for the last 508 00:26:14,480 --> 00:26:18,520 Speaker 1: twenty years. So you know, it's true you have had 509 00:26:18,600 --> 00:26:22,240 Speaker 1: a streak of just being doing what you want to do, 510 00:26:22,400 --> 00:26:27,120 Speaker 1: not being accountable to anyone else. But I will say that, like, okay, 511 00:26:27,280 --> 00:26:29,400 Speaker 1: let's give the let's give the two BM golf example. 512 00:26:30,320 --> 00:26:33,159 Speaker 1: If you're with someone you play so much golf, okay, 513 00:26:33,200 --> 00:26:35,679 Speaker 1: like you, you would have to compromise that to be 514 00:26:35,680 --> 00:26:39,600 Speaker 1: in a relationship because I would say that very few people, 515 00:26:39,760 --> 00:26:43,000 Speaker 1: people even Ellen, wouldn't have allowed someone to play this 516 00:26:43,080 --> 00:26:44,760 Speaker 1: much golf every day if you were trying to start 517 00:26:44,760 --> 00:26:50,000 Speaker 1: a family. No, no, I'm no, I know, I'm sure 518 00:26:50,040 --> 00:26:53,879 Speaker 1: he I mean, look, there is something about keeping someone 519 00:26:53,960 --> 00:26:56,639 Speaker 1: that's you know, Tiger for his whole life, golf was 520 00:26:56,680 --> 00:26:58,800 Speaker 1: his girlfriend. I asked you yesterday if you're going to 521 00:26:58,800 --> 00:27:01,359 Speaker 1: play golf, and your respond was so defensive that I 522 00:27:01,440 --> 00:27:03,480 Speaker 1: was like, well, you said to me, you go, you 523 00:27:03,520 --> 00:27:05,320 Speaker 1: don't seem to be in the golf anymore, and I 524 00:27:05,359 --> 00:27:07,199 Speaker 1: was like, no, I'm I am more than ever. No, 525 00:27:07,320 --> 00:27:09,359 Speaker 1: it wasn't before this. I was like, are you playing 526 00:27:09,359 --> 00:27:11,720 Speaker 1: golf today? And you were like yeah, And I go, oh, 527 00:27:11,960 --> 00:27:13,879 Speaker 1: what course are you going to? And You're like, I 528 00:27:13,960 --> 00:27:16,080 Speaker 1: just want to Like you didn't even want to talk 529 00:27:16,119 --> 00:27:17,879 Speaker 1: about it because you were so embarrassed that you're going 530 00:27:17,880 --> 00:27:19,760 Speaker 1: to play it. But I get that, like I'm embarrassed 531 00:27:19,840 --> 00:27:23,159 Speaker 1: how much I spend playing guitar or watching videos on 532 00:27:23,160 --> 00:27:26,480 Speaker 1: Reddit or whatever it is. Um I think so let's 533 00:27:26,520 --> 00:27:29,399 Speaker 1: just say in your relationship that you um that the 534 00:27:29,440 --> 00:27:32,080 Speaker 1: person like you end up living with a person and 535 00:27:32,119 --> 00:27:35,560 Speaker 1: getting married and you want to go play golf one 536 00:27:35,640 --> 00:27:37,800 Speaker 1: day and they go, actually, I need you to work 537 00:27:37,800 --> 00:27:43,119 Speaker 1: on the lawn. It's overgrown. There's can I play golf? 538 00:27:44,600 --> 00:27:47,119 Speaker 1: Do it? A graduate? You're not going to be with 539 00:27:47,160 --> 00:27:49,080 Speaker 1: someone who just lets you do whatever you want all 540 00:27:49,119 --> 00:27:51,760 Speaker 1: the time. It's just not gonna happen. I shouldn't expect that. 541 00:27:51,800 --> 00:27:54,200 Speaker 1: But there is something like somewhere in the middle there, 542 00:27:54,560 --> 00:27:57,280 Speaker 1: and I feel like Brenna is very like understanding with 543 00:27:57,320 --> 00:27:59,720 Speaker 1: that and stuff. But you know, even when someone says 544 00:27:59,720 --> 00:28:04,080 Speaker 1: they're not upset about it, I feel like they are, 545 00:28:04,480 --> 00:28:08,440 Speaker 1: or like I I get that you don't trust them. Yeah, 546 00:28:08,480 --> 00:28:11,080 Speaker 1: maybe like I I don't trust someone of not being 547 00:28:11,160 --> 00:28:14,479 Speaker 1: upset with me. Yeah, that that's building trust that the 548 00:28:14,480 --> 00:28:16,439 Speaker 1: person that you're with is going to tell you when 549 00:28:16,480 --> 00:28:19,000 Speaker 1: they're upset and when they're not. And like when it 550 00:28:19,080 --> 00:28:23,320 Speaker 1: happened with us, like like yesterday the plane, so we're 551 00:28:23,359 --> 00:28:27,240 Speaker 1: going on Southwest. You sent me a number to check in, 552 00:28:27,720 --> 00:28:30,840 Speaker 1: and then you go, I'm I'm gonna take a nap, 553 00:28:30,880 --> 00:28:33,400 Speaker 1: and then I realized the number didn't work for me. 554 00:28:33,720 --> 00:28:37,040 Speaker 1: But I didn't want to write you to be like, hey, 555 00:28:37,080 --> 00:28:38,680 Speaker 1: let me get that other number because I knew you 556 00:28:38,720 --> 00:28:40,880 Speaker 1: were napping, and then I forgot until today and now 557 00:28:40,920 --> 00:28:43,400 Speaker 1: I'm like C twenty or whatever. But if I just 558 00:28:43,480 --> 00:28:45,680 Speaker 1: wrote you then and been like, Okay, she's nappy. I 559 00:28:45,720 --> 00:28:49,400 Speaker 1: know it might be a little annoying to send another confirmation, 560 00:28:49,720 --> 00:28:52,200 Speaker 1: but I should be okay writing that without thinking like 561 00:28:52,400 --> 00:28:54,640 Speaker 1: she's gonna be mad if I wake her up from this, 562 00:28:54,720 --> 00:28:57,560 Speaker 1: and it's my you know, she bought the ticket and 563 00:28:57,600 --> 00:29:00,000 Speaker 1: so therefore and so I have like all these things 564 00:29:00,040 --> 00:29:01,920 Speaker 1: just go through my head. Instead of just being like 565 00:29:02,600 --> 00:29:04,920 Speaker 1: I don't you probably wouldn't even you'd be like, yeah, 566 00:29:04,920 --> 00:29:07,760 Speaker 1: oh here's the number my dad. Yeah. I mean I 567 00:29:07,760 --> 00:29:09,120 Speaker 1: would have been like, oh, I have to look it 568 00:29:09,200 --> 00:29:12,160 Speaker 1: up and stuff. But it wouldn't like and honestly, I 569 00:29:12,160 --> 00:29:15,240 Speaker 1: would have been like, just wait until I wake up, 570 00:29:15,360 --> 00:29:17,720 Speaker 1: you'll probably get C twelve and I'll save you a 571 00:29:17,760 --> 00:29:20,480 Speaker 1: seat or whatever. But that but that response right there 572 00:29:20,520 --> 00:29:23,360 Speaker 1: is what I'm afraid of. What what was scary about that? 573 00:29:23,680 --> 00:29:25,560 Speaker 1: It's scary to go, well, just wait till I wake up, 574 00:29:25,560 --> 00:29:28,800 Speaker 1: I'll get C twelve. So then instead of going, oh, yeah, 575 00:29:28,840 --> 00:29:31,800 Speaker 1: here you go, here's the number, here's get me fourteen, 576 00:29:32,320 --> 00:29:35,480 Speaker 1: my point is is like, I'm not that that fear 577 00:29:35,600 --> 00:29:38,000 Speaker 1: is real if the response is hey, I need to 578 00:29:38,400 --> 00:29:41,960 Speaker 1: But what's scary about my response? It's the response of 579 00:29:42,040 --> 00:29:45,680 Speaker 1: being like, hey, like I can't do this for you 580 00:29:45,800 --> 00:29:49,400 Speaker 1: right now, but that's okay for me to say. But 581 00:29:49,400 --> 00:29:52,680 Speaker 1: but then that's why I wouldn't ask, um, no, why 582 00:29:52,720 --> 00:29:54,600 Speaker 1: wouldn't you? But then you would know instead of like 583 00:29:54,680 --> 00:29:57,320 Speaker 1: being like she might blow up or she might just 584 00:29:57,400 --> 00:29:59,040 Speaker 1: because I would have just been like, hey, i'll do 585 00:29:59,080 --> 00:30:00,640 Speaker 1: it when I wake up. That would have been the 586 00:30:00,680 --> 00:30:04,960 Speaker 1: response that's not that scary, like your your your fear 587 00:30:05,040 --> 00:30:07,160 Speaker 1: of what I'm going to respond is because that's not 588 00:30:07,200 --> 00:30:09,160 Speaker 1: a scary respon Was that a scary response? Would Did 589 00:30:09,200 --> 00:30:12,200 Speaker 1: that make you feel terrible that I go, I'm sleeping, 590 00:30:12,200 --> 00:30:14,160 Speaker 1: I don't really feel like looking it up. You might 591 00:30:14,200 --> 00:30:16,480 Speaker 1: get C fourteen, but like, I'll figure it out in 592 00:30:16,480 --> 00:30:18,720 Speaker 1: an hour when I wake up. I mean, it's not scary. 593 00:30:18,840 --> 00:30:22,800 Speaker 1: It's just like it's the response that, like, of why 594 00:30:22,840 --> 00:30:24,920 Speaker 1: I wouldn't ask in the first place, if I was 595 00:30:24,960 --> 00:30:29,160 Speaker 1: just gonna go, if I at least yeah, you know, 596 00:30:29,240 --> 00:30:32,240 Speaker 1: but if I really thought, like in my mind, actually, oh, 597 00:30:32,280 --> 00:30:36,400 Speaker 1: here's I'm not Is it rejection? Andrews because maybe rejection 598 00:30:36,640 --> 00:30:38,600 Speaker 1: a little bit of form of rejection, because I don't 599 00:30:38,640 --> 00:30:41,640 Speaker 1: think that like I'm allowed to say that, you are 600 00:30:41,680 --> 00:30:43,560 Speaker 1: allowed to say that even if I didn't buy the ticket, 601 00:30:43,560 --> 00:30:45,800 Speaker 1: I'm allowed to say it. I'm I'm it has nothing 602 00:30:45,800 --> 00:30:47,600 Speaker 1: to do with it. I'm not saying that you're not 603 00:30:47,640 --> 00:30:50,400 Speaker 1: allowed to say. I'm saying that the reason why I 604 00:30:50,440 --> 00:30:52,280 Speaker 1: don't ask is because I think I'm going to get 605 00:30:52,280 --> 00:30:56,120 Speaker 1: an answer that is going to make me unhappy. Uh Okay, 606 00:30:56,240 --> 00:30:59,920 Speaker 1: So that's and I'm just saying that. It's like an 607 00:31:00,120 --> 00:31:03,200 Speaker 1: example of like times where I won't ask for something 608 00:31:03,280 --> 00:31:07,680 Speaker 1: because I can't handle getting an unhappy Yes, I mean, 609 00:31:07,720 --> 00:31:09,320 Speaker 1: that's why I don't write a book, because I'm scared 610 00:31:09,320 --> 00:31:11,520 Speaker 1: I might not be good at it. So I'd rather 611 00:31:11,640 --> 00:31:15,840 Speaker 1: just say I could, I could be. I I'd rather 612 00:31:15,920 --> 00:31:18,480 Speaker 1: just be like, oh, I'm probably could write a really 613 00:31:18,560 --> 00:31:21,440 Speaker 1: good book and then never know for sure because it's 614 00:31:21,440 --> 00:31:23,760 Speaker 1: so much easier. But I get that of of not 615 00:31:23,800 --> 00:31:26,160 Speaker 1: wanting to bring up things because you're scared of the response. 616 00:31:26,240 --> 00:31:29,800 Speaker 1: But it is about like trusting a person to not 617 00:31:29,920 --> 00:31:33,000 Speaker 1: fly off the handle and if they do, understanding that 618 00:31:33,000 --> 00:31:35,440 Speaker 1: that is them and not you, because like I have 619 00:31:35,560 --> 00:31:39,080 Speaker 1: fear with people that I've dated in the past with 620 00:31:39,240 --> 00:31:43,120 Speaker 1: what their anger? What just fear of anger. Honestly, that's 621 00:31:43,160 --> 00:31:47,560 Speaker 1: what it is. You're you. You know, your childhood probably 622 00:31:47,560 --> 00:31:49,480 Speaker 1: was filled with people like not giving you what you 623 00:31:49,520 --> 00:31:51,400 Speaker 1: needed when you did ask for something. So it's just 624 00:31:51,480 --> 00:31:54,480 Speaker 1: easier to not ask because then you can convince yourself 625 00:31:54,520 --> 00:31:57,400 Speaker 1: your mom loves you, and then you didn't get actual 626 00:31:57,440 --> 00:31:59,400 Speaker 1: confirmation that maybe she doesn't love you as much as 627 00:31:59,440 --> 00:32:03,160 Speaker 1: you need her to. And also that it just sucks 628 00:32:03,160 --> 00:32:07,600 Speaker 1: because sometimes it's like, what do I even deserve it? Well, 629 00:32:07,640 --> 00:32:10,920 Speaker 1: I when I asked my ex boyfriend, um, you know, 630 00:32:11,000 --> 00:32:12,640 Speaker 1: you're a year and a half into dating, and I 631 00:32:12,640 --> 00:32:14,520 Speaker 1: was like, I think I love you and I just 632 00:32:14,560 --> 00:32:16,120 Speaker 1: don't feel like you're about to say it. And he 633 00:32:16,200 --> 00:32:18,240 Speaker 1: was like, yeah, I just don't say it. I mean 634 00:32:18,320 --> 00:32:20,760 Speaker 1: that was that taught me forever to keep my mouth 635 00:32:20,760 --> 00:32:23,800 Speaker 1: shut because once I go because I go, well, I 636 00:32:23,840 --> 00:32:26,160 Speaker 1: need to beat with someone who says I love you eventually, 637 00:32:26,760 --> 00:32:28,160 Speaker 1: and he was like, well, I'm just I don't ever 638 00:32:28,240 --> 00:32:30,720 Speaker 1: say it. I'm never gonna say it. And it put 639 00:32:30,800 --> 00:32:33,320 Speaker 1: me in a position of like, I have to break 640 00:32:33,400 --> 00:32:35,280 Speaker 1: up with you because I just said because I thought 641 00:32:35,280 --> 00:32:38,040 Speaker 1: he was just gonna say, well, he was just gonna 642 00:32:38,040 --> 00:32:40,760 Speaker 1: say I'll get there eventually, but he said never, and 643 00:32:40,760 --> 00:32:42,840 Speaker 1: I go, well, I want that eventually, and so I 644 00:32:42,840 --> 00:32:44,360 Speaker 1: had to break up with him before I was ready. 645 00:32:44,600 --> 00:32:47,560 Speaker 1: So now I don't bring up Look, you're gonna be 646 00:32:47,600 --> 00:32:51,160 Speaker 1: in Yeah, that's when it's going to be. Well. His 647 00:32:51,320 --> 00:32:53,960 Speaker 1: response was, you can. This is gonna be like Kabul 648 00:32:54,080 --> 00:32:55,920 Speaker 1: for you. You're gonna be falling off the plane like 649 00:32:55,960 --> 00:32:58,080 Speaker 1: you're never getting on this plane. You can grab on, 650 00:32:58,160 --> 00:33:00,640 Speaker 1: but you're gonna die on the tarmac like that was 651 00:33:00,680 --> 00:33:02,520 Speaker 1: the it. You can't bring up the flight again. That's 652 00:33:02,560 --> 00:33:04,080 Speaker 1: the hard part is once you say I love you, 653 00:33:04,120 --> 00:33:06,800 Speaker 1: once you can't go, hey, do you love me? Now? Know? 654 00:33:06,960 --> 00:33:08,880 Speaker 1: My point is like when you asked for when I 655 00:33:08,880 --> 00:33:11,640 Speaker 1: asked for something from him, you can say I'll give 656 00:33:11,640 --> 00:33:14,400 Speaker 1: it like it's exactly It would be as if you 657 00:33:14,480 --> 00:33:19,520 Speaker 1: asked for, um, the check in number, the confirmation number, 658 00:33:19,960 --> 00:33:23,760 Speaker 1: and I say, um, I'm never giving you that for 659 00:33:23,800 --> 00:33:25,880 Speaker 1: the rest of your life, like I'm not capable of 660 00:33:25,920 --> 00:33:28,600 Speaker 1: ever giving you a confirmation number, and actually you're never 661 00:33:29,280 --> 00:33:30,560 Speaker 1: I'm never going to buy a flight for you for 662 00:33:30,600 --> 00:33:32,560 Speaker 1: the rest of your life. You would then be forced 663 00:33:32,560 --> 00:33:34,240 Speaker 1: to go, well, I don't want to work with someone 664 00:33:34,280 --> 00:33:36,840 Speaker 1: who's not gonna pay me. And now I have to 665 00:33:36,920 --> 00:33:39,600 Speaker 1: quit because I've brought up this thing that if I 666 00:33:39,640 --> 00:33:41,600 Speaker 1: would have kept my mouth shut, it would have been fine. 667 00:33:41,880 --> 00:33:44,719 Speaker 1: But now I know this thing that makes it so 668 00:33:44,840 --> 00:33:48,080 Speaker 1: I have. If I have integrity, I cannot stay. And 669 00:33:48,120 --> 00:33:50,320 Speaker 1: that's the thing. In jobs. You don't want to ask 670 00:33:50,320 --> 00:33:53,240 Speaker 1: for a raise because you feel like they're gonna go no, Actually, 671 00:33:53,280 --> 00:33:55,680 Speaker 1: we don't do raises. Here um, and you're we don't, 672 00:33:55,920 --> 00:33:59,560 Speaker 1: we're never going to promote you. And you go, well, okay, 673 00:33:59,560 --> 00:34:02,520 Speaker 1: well now I have to leave. And before yesterday, before 674 00:34:02,520 --> 00:34:04,880 Speaker 1: I brought this up, I I didn't have to leave, 675 00:34:04,920 --> 00:34:07,640 Speaker 1: and now I have to in it. And so I 676 00:34:07,640 --> 00:34:10,400 Speaker 1: I really get scared about confronting people about things that 677 00:34:10,440 --> 00:34:13,160 Speaker 1: if they can't give to me. I so I'd rather 678 00:34:13,280 --> 00:34:16,120 Speaker 1: just not know so that I can stay and be comfortable. 679 00:34:16,520 --> 00:34:19,600 Speaker 1: And it's just like, but I will say, I was 680 00:34:19,640 --> 00:34:23,200 Speaker 1: telling my friend about you getting angry at me the 681 00:34:23,280 --> 00:34:25,279 Speaker 1: other day in the podcast about the joke thing, and 682 00:34:25,320 --> 00:34:29,840 Speaker 1: how like you were so frustrated you just go like 683 00:34:29,880 --> 00:34:31,799 Speaker 1: you just had a moment of like and it was 684 00:34:31,880 --> 00:34:36,080 Speaker 1: like it was so I liked it, Like I like 685 00:34:36,680 --> 00:34:39,600 Speaker 1: that immediate like I'm mad at you about this. It's 686 00:34:39,640 --> 00:34:43,399 Speaker 1: coming out now, let's deal with it now, instead of 687 00:34:43,880 --> 00:34:45,920 Speaker 1: I'm going to tuck it away and it's gonna come 688 00:34:45,960 --> 00:34:49,080 Speaker 1: out later because later, guess what, it's too late. But 689 00:34:49,160 --> 00:34:52,360 Speaker 1: here's the thing. Sometimes when people are I'll say for myself, 690 00:34:52,640 --> 00:34:56,040 Speaker 1: I'll tuck it away, not with the idea that it's 691 00:34:56,040 --> 00:34:58,560 Speaker 1: gonna come back and be like, well, these are four 692 00:34:58,640 --> 00:35:00,680 Speaker 1: things you did wrong. I know That's why you have 693 00:35:00,760 --> 00:35:02,839 Speaker 1: to know that it always does. You have to know 694 00:35:02,960 --> 00:35:06,279 Speaker 1: that based on somewhere you can say, well, I did 695 00:35:06,280 --> 00:35:08,160 Speaker 1: this not not with intent. I didn't know it was 696 00:35:08,160 --> 00:35:10,839 Speaker 1: going to come out later. Based on the past, when 697 00:35:10,880 --> 00:35:13,640 Speaker 1: things tend to when you tuck them away, you've noticed 698 00:35:13,680 --> 00:35:15,440 Speaker 1: that they do come out later. So you have to 699 00:35:15,920 --> 00:35:18,640 Speaker 1: you have to change the way you approaching. So you 700 00:35:18,680 --> 00:35:24,759 Speaker 1: know I was, I was, you know, I love immediate, like, 701 00:35:25,080 --> 00:35:26,759 Speaker 1: I don't like the way you talk to me right now, 702 00:35:26,880 --> 00:35:28,640 Speaker 1: let's deal with it. I'm mad at you. And then 703 00:35:28,719 --> 00:35:36,080 Speaker 1: it's just it makes me feel what you're feeling. And 704 00:35:36,360 --> 00:35:38,560 Speaker 1: we haven't heard that word until yesterday. Oh my god 705 00:35:38,600 --> 00:35:42,359 Speaker 1: when people say path watch out. My worry with that though, 706 00:35:42,440 --> 00:35:45,120 Speaker 1: is even if it's in the moment, it's like, this 707 00:35:45,200 --> 00:35:49,040 Speaker 1: is what I'm upset about. Then the response from you 708 00:35:49,160 --> 00:35:52,000 Speaker 1: or for whoever I bring it up with isn't again 709 00:35:52,080 --> 00:35:55,239 Speaker 1: it's like not the response you once. So then you're like, well, 710 00:35:55,280 --> 00:35:57,279 Speaker 1: why am I bringing up anything if I'm not if 711 00:35:57,440 --> 00:36:00,759 Speaker 1: the end result isn't positive, Well, that's about trust. You 712 00:36:00,760 --> 00:36:04,319 Speaker 1: have to trust me that I'm that I'm not so 713 00:36:04,360 --> 00:36:09,040 Speaker 1: irrational that you're anger at me about thinking that I'm 714 00:36:09,080 --> 00:36:12,960 Speaker 1: thinking I'm competitive, would make me go get out? You're 715 00:36:13,000 --> 00:36:17,360 Speaker 1: moving I'm moving out? Uh um taking your clubs? I 716 00:36:17,400 --> 00:36:21,719 Speaker 1: don't know why would I do that? Then I'm gonna 717 00:36:21,760 --> 00:36:29,680 Speaker 1: tell the golf course that you get angry, um someone Yeah, 718 00:36:29,680 --> 00:36:34,399 Speaker 1: it means you've hit a ball and it might hit someone. Um. 719 00:36:34,440 --> 00:36:37,480 Speaker 1: But yeah, Like I just think it's we all tipped. 720 00:36:37,600 --> 00:36:41,560 Speaker 1: I'm so so fucking sick of tiptoeing around people's anger 721 00:36:42,000 --> 00:36:44,600 Speaker 1: and I just need to, like ce J said yesterday, 722 00:36:44,960 --> 00:36:48,360 Speaker 1: understand that if they fucking fly off the handle, it 723 00:36:48,440 --> 00:36:52,000 Speaker 1: doesn't Maybe something I do precipitated it, but like I 724 00:36:52,040 --> 00:36:54,600 Speaker 1: can be accountable for what I did and say like, okay, 725 00:36:54,760 --> 00:36:57,040 Speaker 1: well obviously what I did made you feel this way. 726 00:36:57,440 --> 00:36:59,880 Speaker 1: I am sorry it made you feel that way. I 727 00:37:00,000 --> 00:37:02,719 Speaker 1: will try to do better. But it really doesn't have 728 00:37:02,760 --> 00:37:06,840 Speaker 1: anything to do with me. It's you taking. It's you 729 00:37:06,880 --> 00:37:08,719 Speaker 1: can You get to choose whether or not to put 730 00:37:08,760 --> 00:37:10,200 Speaker 1: up with my ship, and I get to choose whether 731 00:37:10,239 --> 00:37:11,640 Speaker 1: or not to put up with your ship. And it's 732 00:37:11,680 --> 00:37:14,799 Speaker 1: like it's so hard to act. I like how you 733 00:37:14,840 --> 00:37:18,040 Speaker 1: said that you go they have to deal with they 734 00:37:18,040 --> 00:37:20,840 Speaker 1: have to deal with whatever, Like how they how do 735 00:37:20,920 --> 00:37:23,120 Speaker 1: I put it like, I like that you said that 736 00:37:23,320 --> 00:37:28,640 Speaker 1: your behavior still could be wrong if they're responding angrily 737 00:37:28,719 --> 00:37:31,360 Speaker 1: to you, Like I could have also been in the wrong. 738 00:37:31,480 --> 00:37:33,680 Speaker 1: Like a lot of people go, you're being so angry 739 00:37:33,960 --> 00:37:36,720 Speaker 1: and they they're not self aware of them, like cause 740 00:37:36,840 --> 00:37:40,400 Speaker 1: possibly causing. Yeah, you know what I mean though, Like 741 00:37:40,520 --> 00:37:44,239 Speaker 1: and so it's like, I can't care how they single 742 00:37:44,440 --> 00:37:48,560 Speaker 1: thing that you do, every single thing that you can 743 00:37:48,600 --> 00:37:51,480 Speaker 1: go you play the victim of I've learned this and 744 00:37:51,520 --> 00:37:57,080 Speaker 1: it's it's honestly, it's it's pretty much everything, even the 745 00:37:57,120 --> 00:37:59,120 Speaker 1: worst things. And I know people are like, how would 746 00:37:59,120 --> 00:38:01,080 Speaker 1: that be that person's fault? We all know what I'm 747 00:38:01,080 --> 00:38:03,440 Speaker 1: talking about, right, Obviously it's not your fault that that 748 00:38:03,520 --> 00:38:07,479 Speaker 1: happened to you, but how you handle it and how 749 00:38:07,600 --> 00:38:11,319 Speaker 1: you take it in and make it define who you 750 00:38:11,360 --> 00:38:15,600 Speaker 1: are or make it ruin you. Um, Honestly, it's not 751 00:38:15,640 --> 00:38:17,840 Speaker 1: in your control because there's no free will. But there 752 00:38:18,560 --> 00:38:21,279 Speaker 1: we all there's always an even if I feel like God, 753 00:38:21,320 --> 00:38:23,799 Speaker 1: Andrew's mad at me about this thing, He's been such 754 00:38:23,800 --> 00:38:25,720 Speaker 1: a little bit right now, I didn't even do anything. 755 00:38:25,760 --> 00:38:27,560 Speaker 1: I'm the nicest person and I feel like I did 756 00:38:27,680 --> 00:38:31,560 Speaker 1: nothing wrong. I'm lying to myself, there's something I did. 757 00:38:31,600 --> 00:38:35,480 Speaker 1: You can always find something you did, even when you're 758 00:38:35,640 --> 00:38:38,760 Speaker 1: the most victim of the thing. Like you know, someone 759 00:38:39,080 --> 00:38:41,319 Speaker 1: I got rear ended and I was I wasn't on 760 00:38:41,320 --> 00:38:44,919 Speaker 1: my phone both hands with it, like like it wasn't 761 00:38:44,960 --> 00:38:47,399 Speaker 1: my fault. Well, I feel like you were talking about 762 00:38:47,400 --> 00:38:50,399 Speaker 1: your sex life just then. My hands were on the thing. 763 00:38:50,440 --> 00:38:54,080 Speaker 1: I got rear ended. I did nothing wrong. My body 764 00:38:54,160 --> 00:38:56,160 Speaker 1: was just operating the way it's supposed to. I'm sorry 765 00:38:56,160 --> 00:38:59,560 Speaker 1: that your bumper. All right, guys, we gotta get to then. 766 00:39:00,120 --> 00:39:06,040 Speaker 1: That's a great bumper to ticker fuck a chevy hemmy. 767 00:39:07,080 --> 00:39:15,719 Speaker 1: Huh Hey, everybody, thank you so much for listening to 768 00:39:15,760 --> 00:39:17,400 Speaker 1: the pod. We love you out there. We had an 769 00:39:17,440 --> 00:39:20,560 Speaker 1: early morning concert if you missed it, it it was fantastic 770 00:39:20,600 --> 00:39:23,080 Speaker 1: on our Instagram live on Nicky Glazer Pod. I wanted 771 00:39:23,080 --> 00:39:24,640 Speaker 1: you to bring in the karaoke mic so we could 772 00:39:24,680 --> 00:39:30,000 Speaker 1: see if karaoke or professional is better. Oh it may 773 00:39:30,040 --> 00:39:33,919 Speaker 1: be a final thought. Um, thank you again. I don't 774 00:39:33,920 --> 00:39:35,279 Speaker 1: know why I said thank you again. I hope you're 775 00:39:35,280 --> 00:39:37,839 Speaker 1: having a great time having all looking at us. What 776 00:39:37,840 --> 00:39:40,239 Speaker 1: were you just looking at I don't even know. You 777 00:39:40,280 --> 00:39:42,640 Speaker 1: were really distracted by something. Do you really not know? 778 00:39:42,760 --> 00:39:44,120 Speaker 1: I think you do know, and you don't want to 779 00:39:44,120 --> 00:39:47,520 Speaker 1: say you were like so distracted by something on the carpet. 780 00:39:47,560 --> 00:39:49,920 Speaker 1: I thought there was like a guy holding a mouse 781 00:39:49,920 --> 00:39:53,680 Speaker 1: holding que cards or something like what is he looking at? 782 00:39:54,680 --> 00:39:58,200 Speaker 1: It was what's the cutest thing? That sound adorable? Little 783 00:39:58,320 --> 00:40:03,239 Speaker 1: sl and he has like he wears like old like 784 00:40:03,560 --> 00:40:06,640 Speaker 1: collared shirts. You know, they're all like the Q card guy, 785 00:40:06,920 --> 00:40:10,879 Speaker 1: always dressed in old jeans and like boots that are 786 00:40:10,960 --> 00:40:14,360 Speaker 1: like no one would wear. Okay. First story, Facebook launches 787 00:40:14,400 --> 00:40:17,680 Speaker 1: a virtual reality office where users can host meetings with 788 00:40:17,760 --> 00:40:21,640 Speaker 1: cartoon avatars of their colleagues, as part of Mark Zuckerberg's 789 00:40:21,680 --> 00:40:26,319 Speaker 1: ambition to turn the platform into a metaverse metaverse. Oh 790 00:40:26,440 --> 00:40:29,520 Speaker 1: my god, this is wild to me, by the way, 791 00:40:29,880 --> 00:40:34,960 Speaker 1: I mean, no one wants this. This is he's turning. 792 00:40:35,400 --> 00:40:37,400 Speaker 1: He couldn't go far enough to be like, look, you 793 00:40:37,400 --> 00:40:41,200 Speaker 1: shouldn't have you don't need friends in real life. Burn 794 00:40:41,280 --> 00:40:43,640 Speaker 1: this all down. Now you can just be a cartoon. 795 00:40:43,719 --> 00:40:45,960 Speaker 1: You don't even have to be a human. And it's 796 00:40:45,960 --> 00:40:50,400 Speaker 1: fucking wild. Um yeah, I mean, does he admit that 797 00:40:50,440 --> 00:40:53,040 Speaker 1: he wants to make the world a metaverse? Like he 798 00:40:53,080 --> 00:40:56,319 Speaker 1: says that or whatever that means. Okay, so I mean 799 00:40:56,360 --> 00:40:58,799 Speaker 1: that's where we're headed. What does metaverse mean? Everything's on 800 00:40:58,840 --> 00:41:02,160 Speaker 1: the computer, you know. He wants Facebook to be like 801 00:41:02,239 --> 00:41:06,680 Speaker 1: its own world like sims like an animal farm or 802 00:41:06,680 --> 00:41:11,480 Speaker 1: what's that there's Facebook? Oh yeah, what's the what's the game? 803 00:41:11,520 --> 00:41:15,439 Speaker 1: That world of Warcraft? No, it's there's some there's there's 804 00:41:15,480 --> 00:41:19,480 Speaker 1: some world maybe Minecraft. Yeah, there's like these video game worlds. 805 00:41:19,520 --> 00:41:21,479 Speaker 1: I mean that we don't even hear about these people 806 00:41:21,480 --> 00:41:24,360 Speaker 1: because they just live in those worlds like they're My 807 00:41:24,840 --> 00:41:26,960 Speaker 1: roommate used to live in them, and she'd like she 808 00:41:27,040 --> 00:41:28,920 Speaker 1: built the store and I was like, yeah, that was 809 00:41:28,960 --> 00:41:32,920 Speaker 1: called that animal thing was doing. Yeah, I remember it. 810 00:41:33,000 --> 00:41:34,839 Speaker 1: I was. I was thinking about getting into it because 811 00:41:34,840 --> 00:41:36,480 Speaker 1: it was during COVID, and I was like, I need 812 00:41:36,520 --> 00:41:39,280 Speaker 1: a new world, and you could make little Taylor Swift 813 00:41:39,360 --> 00:41:42,280 Speaker 1: like like she can make your room like a Taylor 814 00:41:42,320 --> 00:41:44,839 Speaker 1: Swift like Wonderland. I saw that like people. She'd bring 815 00:41:44,880 --> 00:41:46,680 Speaker 1: me in and she'd be all excited and I'd be like, 816 00:41:46,719 --> 00:41:48,480 Speaker 1: what is it, what is it? Gen what happened in 817 00:41:48,520 --> 00:41:51,400 Speaker 1: real life? She's like no, no, and I can't remember it, 818 00:41:51,440 --> 00:41:53,799 Speaker 1: but she's like, look at look at this tree. I 819 00:41:53,880 --> 00:41:58,360 Speaker 1: planted Nick and and that awesome. I'm like Farmville farm No, 820 00:41:58,520 --> 00:42:02,080 Speaker 1: it wasn't Farmville. It's we're screaming at their podcast right now. 821 00:42:02,480 --> 00:42:07,239 Speaker 1: Let it doesn't matter. But like Mark Sucker, like, I'm 822 00:42:07,239 --> 00:42:09,600 Speaker 1: not even on Facebook anymore, and I know that's probably 823 00:42:09,920 --> 00:42:13,520 Speaker 1: uh not the right move for my career, but I 824 00:42:13,560 --> 00:42:18,239 Speaker 1: truly don't. You don't go on Facebook, but but I 825 00:42:18,239 --> 00:42:21,000 Speaker 1: post on Instagram it like double post to it. But 826 00:42:21,040 --> 00:42:25,200 Speaker 1: I have not locked book. This is interesting because your 827 00:42:25,239 --> 00:42:29,120 Speaker 1: Facebook videos that go from Instagram straight to Facebook get 828 00:42:29,200 --> 00:42:33,359 Speaker 1: like a million views and a million comments and you'll 829 00:42:33,400 --> 00:42:35,880 Speaker 1: never check it. And it's just in its own little metaverse. 830 00:42:36,120 --> 00:42:41,240 Speaker 1: So many messages over there, just over the potential aunt suitors. 831 00:42:41,400 --> 00:42:43,560 Speaker 1: We should treat every so like we we give one 832 00:42:43,600 --> 00:42:46,320 Speaker 1: social media. That's all I can do because they because 833 00:42:46,360 --> 00:42:49,799 Speaker 1: Instagram is it will go away someday. TikTok. I will 834 00:42:49,880 --> 00:42:52,120 Speaker 1: not get on um, not because I do want to 835 00:42:52,120 --> 00:42:56,000 Speaker 1: make videos for TikTok. But it's too good man. I 836 00:42:56,280 --> 00:42:58,319 Speaker 1: you you watch TikTok, I don't know how you do 837 00:42:58,400 --> 00:43:00,200 Speaker 1: anything else if you let that thing in your life, 838 00:43:00,200 --> 00:43:06,440 Speaker 1: because it is so addictive, because in TikTok is for 839 00:43:06,640 --> 00:43:10,080 Speaker 1: it makes you stupider. It's just they just can't stand 840 00:43:10,239 --> 00:43:14,080 Speaker 1: this woman's voice that talks like this for every Instagram 841 00:43:14,120 --> 00:43:18,440 Speaker 1: reel my best friend is also my gay lover, like 842 00:43:18,800 --> 00:43:22,360 Speaker 1: those that What is that voice? Why can't people just talk? 843 00:43:23,440 --> 00:43:25,640 Speaker 1: Why do we have to use this weird woman's voice. 844 00:43:25,640 --> 00:43:29,319 Speaker 1: It's so obnoxious every single video. I'm going to wear 845 00:43:29,440 --> 00:43:33,040 Speaker 1: a different outfit every day. Problem with TikTok is you 846 00:43:33,120 --> 00:43:35,919 Speaker 1: have a hot a hot girl that could be too young. 847 00:43:36,440 --> 00:43:38,920 Speaker 1: You have a guy hitting golf balls and then someone 848 00:43:39,000 --> 00:43:42,200 Speaker 1: get getting shot and it's like I don't want to 849 00:43:42,200 --> 00:43:45,520 Speaker 1: see death, and then you know, and then there's now 850 00:43:45,560 --> 00:43:51,560 Speaker 1: there's like eighteen million unvaccinated which vaccinated fucking videos. So 851 00:43:52,280 --> 00:43:55,120 Speaker 1: TikTok's the dumbest of the dumb. Instagram is a little 852 00:43:55,200 --> 00:43:58,000 Speaker 1: less dumb, and then Twitter is a little I'm off 853 00:43:58,040 --> 00:44:00,440 Speaker 1: Twitter too, Like I rarely go in two it too, 854 00:44:00,480 --> 00:44:03,719 Speaker 1: because I I just it's just too much. And know 855 00:44:03,960 --> 00:44:06,319 Speaker 1: what about you, like you, I feel like, don't go 856 00:44:06,400 --> 00:44:09,640 Speaker 1: on any of it. Really, I'm trying to cleanse myself 857 00:44:09,680 --> 00:44:11,520 Speaker 1: of it. But the only one that I will go 858 00:44:11,640 --> 00:44:16,360 Speaker 1: to just to look at your guys Instagram stories is Instagram. Yeah, Okay, 859 00:44:16,719 --> 00:44:20,000 Speaker 1: Twitter so toxic. I will never be on TikTok. You 860 00:44:20,000 --> 00:44:22,600 Speaker 1: will not find me there, read it for me like 861 00:44:22,680 --> 00:44:26,000 Speaker 1: kind of combs them all and finds the best of 862 00:44:26,840 --> 00:44:29,520 Speaker 1: each place. And because I'll find tweets from there that 863 00:44:29,560 --> 00:44:31,879 Speaker 1: are really funny and stuff, but it's too much work 864 00:44:31,960 --> 00:44:34,719 Speaker 1: to keep up with all of them, and um yeah, 865 00:44:34,760 --> 00:44:39,120 Speaker 1: I'm I'm and read it is like outside you're getting 866 00:44:39,160 --> 00:44:42,839 Speaker 1: outside information Facebook. The problem with Facebook is almost every 867 00:44:42,880 --> 00:44:45,960 Speaker 1: story that's shared, it's within the group of people that 868 00:44:46,000 --> 00:44:48,040 Speaker 1: you've let in your life in the past, and they're 869 00:44:48,080 --> 00:44:51,239 Speaker 1: sharing like the shittiest stories ever. So it's boring. I 870 00:44:51,239 --> 00:44:54,080 Speaker 1: don't even look on like Instagram bums me out. I 871 00:44:54,080 --> 00:44:57,240 Speaker 1: don't even scroll on Instagram anymore because I just find 872 00:44:57,440 --> 00:45:01,200 Speaker 1: that I just get depressed because I start comparing myself 873 00:45:01,280 --> 00:45:03,440 Speaker 1: and I even get depressed when I when I posted 874 00:45:03,480 --> 00:45:05,799 Speaker 1: yesterday that f Boy Island was picked up for a 875 00:45:05,800 --> 00:45:09,120 Speaker 1: second season, I really got sad at how many people 876 00:45:09,200 --> 00:45:11,120 Speaker 1: were probably going to be a little bit jealous of 877 00:45:11,160 --> 00:45:14,120 Speaker 1: me and think and project like because I know that 878 00:45:14,160 --> 00:45:18,200 Speaker 1: when I hear like some someone that's in my you know, 879 00:45:18,400 --> 00:45:21,080 Speaker 1: comedic circle, or I came up with, or who I 880 00:45:21,120 --> 00:45:25,800 Speaker 1: look to as like they have a perfect life, um, 881 00:45:25,840 --> 00:45:28,520 Speaker 1: and they get some news like that. I tend to 882 00:45:28,560 --> 00:45:30,279 Speaker 1: just like it makes me feel bad about myself. And 883 00:45:30,280 --> 00:45:32,919 Speaker 1: I thought, I bet this is gonna make someone feel 884 00:45:33,000 --> 00:45:36,120 Speaker 1: bad about themselves, and I hope they know that I'm not. 885 00:45:36,719 --> 00:45:39,960 Speaker 1: This isn't it, This isn't Fay Island season to actually 886 00:45:40,000 --> 00:45:42,120 Speaker 1: it is it. That's the only thing that actually like 887 00:45:42,760 --> 00:45:44,719 Speaker 1: kind of news like that that makes me really happy. 888 00:45:44,840 --> 00:45:49,040 Speaker 1: But generally like news of like I'm selling out, shows 889 00:45:49,040 --> 00:45:52,040 Speaker 1: are doing this, like I'm letting the love in, like 890 00:45:52,080 --> 00:45:54,680 Speaker 1: I said on my Instagram, like I'm finally realizing like 891 00:45:54,760 --> 00:45:57,400 Speaker 1: my fans are like pulling for me and they like, 892 00:45:57,600 --> 00:46:00,680 Speaker 1: genuinely love me and it's not about like anything other 893 00:46:00,719 --> 00:46:03,319 Speaker 1: than just like they like who I am and I 894 00:46:03,400 --> 00:46:06,399 Speaker 1: make them feel better sometimes and make them angry something 895 00:46:06,440 --> 00:46:07,960 Speaker 1: I don't know that I make them feel and it 896 00:46:08,000 --> 00:46:11,960 Speaker 1: feels good. But that stuff I just felt bad even 897 00:46:11,960 --> 00:46:14,000 Speaker 1: posting yesterday because I go, I bet this is going 898 00:46:14,080 --> 00:46:17,440 Speaker 1: to make someone who maybe just didn't get something in 899 00:46:17,480 --> 00:46:21,000 Speaker 1: their life or who isn't doing so well, because I've 900 00:46:21,000 --> 00:46:22,279 Speaker 1: been on the other side of that, and I just 901 00:46:22,440 --> 00:46:25,080 Speaker 1: I wanted to post along with it, like a picture 902 00:46:25,200 --> 00:46:27,520 Speaker 1: of me like picking my skin or something like just 903 00:46:27,840 --> 00:46:33,960 Speaker 1: you always I need to because it's not real that 904 00:46:34,080 --> 00:46:36,880 Speaker 1: I disagree with you, Nikki, I'm gonna be up here disagreeing. 905 00:46:36,920 --> 00:46:38,799 Speaker 1: I think the person who is going to judge you 906 00:46:38,880 --> 00:46:42,319 Speaker 1: is the one who's being selfish and insecure. And you 907 00:46:43,760 --> 00:46:46,360 Speaker 1: be proud of your accomplishments. You worked really hard to 908 00:46:47,239 --> 00:46:50,120 Speaker 1: I didn't though, Like f Weight Island was not hard. 909 00:46:50,239 --> 00:46:51,919 Speaker 1: I did work hard to get to a place where 910 00:46:52,040 --> 00:46:54,839 Speaker 1: that came into my life, but working hard it never 911 00:46:55,280 --> 00:46:57,719 Speaker 1: I'm so I'm just lucky. I'm lucky that I was 912 00:46:57,760 --> 00:47:00,880 Speaker 1: born with a brain that this is didn't do anything. 913 00:47:01,040 --> 00:47:04,239 Speaker 1: It's funny that that Val Kilmer document responsible for my 914 00:47:04,320 --> 00:47:08,520 Speaker 1: success in any way. The Val Kilmer documentary, Uh, he 915 00:47:08,640 --> 00:47:12,440 Speaker 1: talks about how like really no actor is a working actor, 916 00:47:12,520 --> 00:47:15,239 Speaker 1: Like literally it's like two of people and the same 917 00:47:15,280 --> 00:47:18,279 Speaker 1: with stand up. So it's like but then to hear 918 00:47:18,320 --> 00:47:21,640 Speaker 1: the person that's in the two percent, it's impossible. It's 919 00:47:21,680 --> 00:47:25,200 Speaker 1: tough because it sounds like a shitty. But like you 920 00:47:25,239 --> 00:47:29,080 Speaker 1: can't complain because it's going well and people can't relate 921 00:47:29,120 --> 00:47:31,000 Speaker 1: to that, you know what I mean. Like I'm not 922 00:47:31,000 --> 00:47:33,200 Speaker 1: saying you don't complain I'm just saying. People don't want 923 00:47:33,200 --> 00:47:35,799 Speaker 1: to hear because they're like, well you're working like the 924 00:47:35,840 --> 00:47:37,879 Speaker 1: person it's like, wow, she got another thing and now 925 00:47:38,360 --> 00:47:43,560 Speaker 1: oh her life. So but within that world that's your reality, 926 00:47:43,800 --> 00:47:48,960 Speaker 1: there is sadness therese mean, there's always starving kids in Africa. Yes, exactly, 927 00:47:49,040 --> 00:47:54,400 Speaker 1: but I just would I want I say that, and 928 00:47:54,440 --> 00:47:57,239 Speaker 1: I give that disclaimer about everything I do, because the 929 00:47:57,239 --> 00:47:59,680 Speaker 1: thing is I am happy, like my life is really 930 00:47:59,680 --> 00:48:03,279 Speaker 1: good and I'm so grateful for it. But I don't 931 00:48:03,280 --> 00:48:05,960 Speaker 1: want to project that these things are the reason my 932 00:48:06,000 --> 00:48:08,399 Speaker 1: life is happy, because I think that when you get 933 00:48:08,680 --> 00:48:11,319 Speaker 1: because I I even get jealous of people that have 934 00:48:11,440 --> 00:48:14,560 Speaker 1: stuff happened to them, like um that get things. I 935 00:48:15,040 --> 00:48:17,160 Speaker 1: want all of the things. I'll admit it. I want 936 00:48:17,320 --> 00:48:21,160 Speaker 1: everything if any one, especially women, because I'm competitive with 937 00:48:21,200 --> 00:48:23,759 Speaker 1: women because you can tell me not to be well, 938 00:48:23,800 --> 00:48:27,000 Speaker 1: then tell society to like give us make it even. 939 00:48:27,120 --> 00:48:29,279 Speaker 1: But I get jealous of women more than men when 940 00:48:29,320 --> 00:48:31,920 Speaker 1: they get things. Don't know why I still feel competitive 941 00:48:31,960 --> 00:48:35,200 Speaker 1: with women. Trying to trying to stop that, trying to 942 00:48:35,320 --> 00:48:38,920 Speaker 1: uphold women and and give them the shine a light 943 00:48:38,960 --> 00:48:41,919 Speaker 1: on them so that it helps me with my insecurity 944 00:48:41,920 --> 00:48:44,719 Speaker 1: and jealousy. But when I see a woman, or like 945 00:48:44,800 --> 00:48:47,440 Speaker 1: really anyone gets something that I think I could have 946 00:48:47,480 --> 00:48:51,120 Speaker 1: had a shot at, I think that there they have 947 00:48:51,239 --> 00:48:53,960 Speaker 1: it all, like they God, they must be so happy. 948 00:48:54,000 --> 00:48:56,440 Speaker 1: And then I go, nicky, what are you doing? Like 949 00:48:56,760 --> 00:48:58,719 Speaker 1: you know that when you've gotten these things that look 950 00:48:58,800 --> 00:49:01,719 Speaker 1: so glitzy and shiny on the outside, it didn't stop 951 00:49:01,760 --> 00:49:04,000 Speaker 1: you from wanting to kill yourself last summer. I mean, like, 952 00:49:04,239 --> 00:49:06,000 Speaker 1: this is exactly what you were saying to me up 953 00:49:06,040 --> 00:49:08,839 Speaker 1: top about like how I find something new. And I 954 00:49:08,880 --> 00:49:11,440 Speaker 1: convinced myself that this is the thing I know, But 955 00:49:11,560 --> 00:49:14,239 Speaker 1: I always tell myself it's going to go away. It's 956 00:49:14,280 --> 00:49:16,440 Speaker 1: there's never but you're doing it with this, yet you're 957 00:49:16,440 --> 00:49:18,239 Speaker 1: looking at someone else with another That's what I'm saying. 958 00:49:18,280 --> 00:49:20,240 Speaker 1: But that's what I'm saying. It's it's a flawed thinking. 959 00:49:20,320 --> 00:49:22,120 Speaker 1: So that's why I want to put out to women, 960 00:49:22,200 --> 00:49:27,440 Speaker 1: because this all got into my psyche from watching you know, 961 00:49:27,560 --> 00:49:30,800 Speaker 1: there was never celebrities have flaws. In the early two thousand, 962 00:49:31,239 --> 00:49:34,480 Speaker 1: late nineties when I was coming up and modeling my 963 00:49:34,600 --> 00:49:38,160 Speaker 1: life after celebrities, no one had flaws ever, and if 964 00:49:38,200 --> 00:49:42,200 Speaker 1: they did, it was like on the cover of National Enchoir, 965 00:49:42,680 --> 00:49:45,520 Speaker 1: and they never addressed it. They would never admit it themselves. 966 00:49:45,760 --> 00:49:48,839 Speaker 1: I was dying for Jennifer Aniston to to say she's 967 00:49:48,920 --> 00:49:53,080 Speaker 1: depressed or she felt less than like it never came out. 968 00:49:53,600 --> 00:49:57,080 Speaker 1: And so I say that so that young girls or 969 00:49:57,080 --> 00:50:00,480 Speaker 1: even girls my age, will understand that this ain't it 970 00:50:00,520 --> 00:50:03,279 Speaker 1: if you You can get all these things, but it's 971 00:50:03,320 --> 00:50:06,560 Speaker 1: not if if you're not working on yourself and doing 972 00:50:06,719 --> 00:50:09,600 Speaker 1: good for other people and like actually putting good into 973 00:50:09,600 --> 00:50:12,080 Speaker 1: the world besides f Boy Island, which is good and 974 00:50:12,560 --> 00:50:15,960 Speaker 1: serves the purpose of entertainment. But I can get a 975 00:50:15,960 --> 00:50:18,960 Speaker 1: million seasons of f Boy Island, and unless I am, 976 00:50:19,000 --> 00:50:22,920 Speaker 1: you know, working on myself and and being there for 977 00:50:23,120 --> 00:50:27,520 Speaker 1: my loved ones, and like just that's that's never I'm 978 00:50:27,560 --> 00:50:30,759 Speaker 1: never gonna feel complete by um, you know, performing at 979 00:50:30,800 --> 00:50:33,920 Speaker 1: Carnegie Hall isn't thing like Gary Goldman's performing at Carnegie 980 00:50:33,960 --> 00:50:36,200 Speaker 1: Hall and he just announced it and I wrote, like, congratulations, Gary, 981 00:50:36,239 --> 00:50:38,279 Speaker 1: that's huge. He was someone I reached out to when 982 00:50:38,280 --> 00:50:41,360 Speaker 1: I was really depressed last summer because I wanted to 983 00:50:41,400 --> 00:50:43,160 Speaker 1: go like go to way to a hospital, and I 984 00:50:43,160 --> 00:50:45,279 Speaker 1: was asking Gary, like what does that look like? What's 985 00:50:45,320 --> 00:50:47,160 Speaker 1: it gonna be and I told him I was like 986 00:50:47,160 --> 00:50:50,640 Speaker 1: super depressed, and he um and we had talked about it, 987 00:50:50,640 --> 00:50:52,080 Speaker 1: and I didn't end up going there. I ended up 988 00:50:52,120 --> 00:50:54,400 Speaker 1: just like getting meds and and seeking help in my 989 00:50:54,400 --> 00:50:56,799 Speaker 1: own way. But he checked in on me yesterday after 990 00:50:56,840 --> 00:50:58,600 Speaker 1: I commented on his thing, and he goes, how are 991 00:50:58,680 --> 00:51:01,000 Speaker 1: you doing? And I was like, I'm actually like thriving. 992 00:51:01,200 --> 00:51:03,399 Speaker 1: Things are great because of this and this and this. 993 00:51:03,880 --> 00:51:06,040 Speaker 1: None of those things that I listed were my career, 994 00:51:06,120 --> 00:51:08,960 Speaker 1: by the way, none of them the things that are 995 00:51:08,960 --> 00:51:11,440 Speaker 1: making me happy right now. They're all things that I 996 00:51:11,440 --> 00:51:14,000 Speaker 1: would never promote on Instagram and that you wouldn't have 997 00:51:14,080 --> 00:51:17,880 Speaker 1: to like do a promo code for or dvr um. 998 00:51:17,920 --> 00:51:20,320 Speaker 1: But then I said to him, I go, I'm assuming 999 00:51:20,360 --> 00:51:22,759 Speaker 1: you're great because you're performing at Carnegie Hall, but I 1000 00:51:22,800 --> 00:51:27,440 Speaker 1: also know that doesn't That doesn't actually mean fucking anything 1001 00:51:27,680 --> 00:51:30,120 Speaker 1: in the scheme of things. It's it's cool, but how 1002 00:51:30,160 --> 00:51:32,080 Speaker 1: are you? And he goes, I happen to be great, 1003 00:51:32,160 --> 00:51:35,120 Speaker 1: but he also knows that does not. And we can 1004 00:51:35,120 --> 00:51:37,240 Speaker 1: say that a million times, but you know it's lonely 1005 00:51:37,280 --> 00:51:40,080 Speaker 1: at the top or like and and someone who's listening 1006 00:51:40,080 --> 00:51:45,200 Speaker 1: that is like, you know, I do think that sometimes 1007 00:51:45,200 --> 00:51:47,239 Speaker 1: those things do make you you happy, and I wish 1008 00:51:47,280 --> 00:51:49,160 Speaker 1: I could let some of that in some more. Let's 1009 00:51:49,200 --> 00:51:53,000 Speaker 1: get to the next story. Next story. Okay, New York 1010 00:51:53,080 --> 00:51:56,719 Speaker 1: yellow cab driver makes horror discovery that his passenger is 1011 00:51:56,840 --> 00:51:59,839 Speaker 1: dead after she was dumped in the car by her 1012 00:52:00,120 --> 00:52:04,399 Speaker 1: friend who said she was drunk. So this girl put 1013 00:52:04,440 --> 00:52:08,160 Speaker 1: her friend in a car who maybe was not dead yet, 1014 00:52:09,480 --> 00:52:12,279 Speaker 1: who was very fucked up, and said, take her to 1015 00:52:12,320 --> 00:52:15,080 Speaker 1: this address. There was someone else waiting at that address 1016 00:52:15,160 --> 00:52:18,440 Speaker 1: for her. So it makes me think that this person 1017 00:52:18,560 --> 00:52:22,239 Speaker 1: didn't know was it a morgue? But they took her 1018 00:52:22,239 --> 00:52:24,439 Speaker 1: to Oh my god, in New York City. One time 1019 00:52:24,440 --> 00:52:27,120 Speaker 1: I walked by a funeral home and they were just 1020 00:52:27,320 --> 00:52:29,719 Speaker 1: rolling a dead body and I was like, I didn't 1021 00:52:29,760 --> 00:52:32,680 Speaker 1: need to see that on a crazy how many dead 1022 00:52:32,719 --> 00:52:35,520 Speaker 1: bodies are like around us all the time, Like everyone 1023 00:52:35,800 --> 00:52:37,920 Speaker 1: that is alive will be dead. We'll just be a 1024 00:52:37,960 --> 00:52:40,520 Speaker 1: corpse someday. Of like, I hope we both died at 1025 00:52:40,520 --> 00:52:43,560 Speaker 1: the same time on this podcast, O God, I will 1026 00:52:43,640 --> 00:52:47,359 Speaker 1: throw you in an uber X and stay beat it 1027 00:52:47,960 --> 00:52:50,239 Speaker 1: a big one. Take take him to take him to 1028 00:52:50,280 --> 00:52:56,480 Speaker 1: Forest Park golf course. Wait a second, So this girl 1029 00:52:56,840 --> 00:52:58,880 Speaker 1: was she young? And it was alcohol place and they 1030 00:52:58,880 --> 00:53:09,239 Speaker 1: were in their twenties. Um, it didn't go into buy 1031 00:53:09,280 --> 00:53:16,239 Speaker 1: me coke diet board on the ground. Uh yeah. So 1032 00:53:16,360 --> 00:53:18,560 Speaker 1: I mean, so who's that fall? Here is the girl 1033 00:53:18,640 --> 00:53:20,879 Speaker 1: that left her at fall? I mean, no one's really 1034 00:53:20,920 --> 00:53:25,839 Speaker 1: at fault. I mean it's a boy, you know, I 1035 00:53:25,880 --> 00:53:31,080 Speaker 1: think the I don't know. I mean, we could blame 1036 00:53:31,120 --> 00:53:33,319 Speaker 1: a lot of things, but I think that you know, 1037 00:53:33,400 --> 00:53:37,160 Speaker 1: we could blame whatever lead to our alcohol addiction or 1038 00:53:37,360 --> 00:53:41,320 Speaker 1: problems with drinking. We can blame society that makes drinking 1039 00:53:41,360 --> 00:53:44,880 Speaker 1: binge drinking seemed like cool and fun. We could blame 1040 00:53:45,440 --> 00:53:48,279 Speaker 1: the taxi cab driver for being on the phone with 1041 00:53:48,320 --> 00:53:51,840 Speaker 1: some with his bride in in another country. They're always 1042 00:53:51,880 --> 00:53:55,280 Speaker 1: like murmuring to someone in another country for hours and hours. 1043 00:53:56,320 --> 00:53:59,160 Speaker 1: It's so impressive, I know, and they just like talk 1044 00:53:59,360 --> 00:54:02,239 Speaker 1: to some have their own podcast for them. Yeah, it's 1045 00:54:02,239 --> 00:54:04,520 Speaker 1: really I mean, there's a million things you could point 1046 00:54:04,760 --> 00:54:08,520 Speaker 1: the finger up, but um, but you know, maybe it's 1047 00:54:08,560 --> 00:54:11,399 Speaker 1: just it's I wonder where she was before, like and 1048 00:54:11,440 --> 00:54:16,120 Speaker 1: what led to this out this intoxication, and what a 1049 00:54:16,160 --> 00:54:18,319 Speaker 1: friend just like tossing her in the back and just 1050 00:54:19,200 --> 00:54:21,319 Speaker 1: and I hope she hit the roof of the car. 1051 00:54:21,360 --> 00:54:23,960 Speaker 1: It was like taking care of her like like kicked 1052 00:54:23,960 --> 00:54:29,879 Speaker 1: it like like lovingly. That is was annoyed by her 1053 00:54:29,920 --> 00:54:32,120 Speaker 1: friend being all fucked up and was just like take 1054 00:54:32,200 --> 00:54:34,479 Speaker 1: her to here. I don't want to deal with it, 1055 00:54:35,280 --> 00:54:37,279 Speaker 1: you know, I don't want to hold her hair while 1056 00:54:37,360 --> 00:54:41,319 Speaker 1: she throws up. And she probably would have lived with her. 1057 00:54:41,440 --> 00:54:44,879 Speaker 1: To be honest, the person who put her in the cab, 1058 00:54:44,920 --> 00:54:46,800 Speaker 1: I think in the story had said that they weren't 1059 00:54:46,880 --> 00:54:54,520 Speaker 1: able to identify just yet. A taxi driver should not 1060 00:54:55,160 --> 00:54:58,239 Speaker 1: go on the journey with someone in the backseat who 1061 00:54:58,360 --> 00:55:01,880 Speaker 1: is not able to talk. He did take her to 1062 00:55:01,920 --> 00:55:04,400 Speaker 1: the hospital, though, once the other friend discovered that she 1063 00:55:04,440 --> 00:55:06,440 Speaker 1: wasn't responding and not coming out of the car. So 1064 00:55:06,560 --> 00:55:15,040 Speaker 1: let's give him. Yeah, yeah, that's a boring confessions just gurgling. 1065 00:55:16,080 --> 00:55:19,440 Speaker 1: I'm sorry, that is not nice. It's death scares me 1066 00:55:19,480 --> 00:55:20,840 Speaker 1: and I have to make fun of it. I really, 1067 00:55:20,880 --> 00:55:23,200 Speaker 1: I feel so sad for that girl and all of 1068 00:55:23,200 --> 00:55:26,800 Speaker 1: her friends and family. I'm sorry to hear that. Next story, 1069 00:55:27,000 --> 00:55:31,440 Speaker 1: all right? Um. After a tweet goes viral claiming it 1070 00:55:31,560 --> 00:55:35,040 Speaker 1: was him, seventy two year old wrestler Ric Flair response 1071 00:55:35,120 --> 00:55:38,200 Speaker 1: response that it is not him giving oral sex to 1072 00:55:38,239 --> 00:55:41,240 Speaker 1: a woman on a tramp. I saw this picture on Reddit. 1073 00:55:42,480 --> 00:55:47,880 Speaker 1: This was wild. There's an old man going down. I 1074 00:55:47,880 --> 00:55:51,800 Speaker 1: mean it does look like him on the transit system somewhere. 1075 00:55:51,960 --> 00:55:54,160 Speaker 1: And it's daylight because you can see the light coming 1076 00:55:54,160 --> 00:55:56,600 Speaker 1: through the window. And it's an old man and a 1077 00:55:56,680 --> 00:56:02,120 Speaker 1: woman and she is laying on her back. It is 1078 00:56:02,160 --> 00:56:06,239 Speaker 1: pretty hot, honestly, Um, he's grabbing her ass. It's I mean, 1079 00:56:06,239 --> 00:56:11,359 Speaker 1: if he weren't so like like old looking, and some 1080 00:56:11,400 --> 00:56:13,560 Speaker 1: people are into that. Some people like watching old men 1081 00:56:13,640 --> 00:56:15,520 Speaker 1: bang young woman. But her foot looks like a young 1082 00:56:15,560 --> 00:56:19,279 Speaker 1: woman's foot. My foot looks more looks like it looks 1083 00:56:19,320 --> 00:56:23,640 Speaker 1: like a woman of pite his age. But that's a 1084 00:56:23,719 --> 00:56:26,560 Speaker 1: young foot. Let's zoom in on that foot. And what 1085 00:56:26,719 --> 00:56:29,239 Speaker 1: is she wearing? She has like a yeah, her hands 1086 00:56:29,280 --> 00:56:31,560 Speaker 1: look young. You can always tell someone's age by their hands. 1087 00:56:31,680 --> 00:56:34,239 Speaker 1: And that is a um old man. I mean, that's 1088 00:56:34,280 --> 00:56:36,719 Speaker 1: so hot. That is a great position. By the way, 1089 00:56:37,160 --> 00:56:43,040 Speaker 1: and coach in the quiet car, someone just like, can 1090 00:56:43,080 --> 00:56:46,360 Speaker 1: you not? I saw this on Reddit and someone had commented, 1091 00:56:46,400 --> 00:56:48,279 Speaker 1: I'm going through a tunnel right now, I can't hear you. 1092 00:56:52,920 --> 00:56:55,680 Speaker 1: It's fucking great too, because these chairs we've all sat 1093 00:56:55,760 --> 00:56:58,319 Speaker 1: in these chairs. They're they're not the nicest chairs to 1094 00:56:58,320 --> 00:57:01,239 Speaker 1: have your pussy in. And no, and that doesn't discuss me, 1095 00:57:01,320 --> 00:57:03,200 Speaker 1: like I would sit in that chair like people go, oh, 1096 00:57:03,280 --> 00:57:05,400 Speaker 1: I have to sit there. There's been a man that 1097 00:57:05,440 --> 00:57:08,439 Speaker 1: went down on a woman's like, there's not many. Yeah, 1098 00:57:08,480 --> 00:57:10,799 Speaker 1: that's where Rick Flavor. Have you ever seen his video 1099 00:57:10,800 --> 00:57:13,880 Speaker 1: where he's like, I don't even know driving limousine riding. 1100 00:57:14,480 --> 00:57:16,960 Speaker 1: He was the best. He was w W E star 1101 00:57:17,560 --> 00:57:20,520 Speaker 1: and he was his his promos were the best ever 1102 00:57:20,920 --> 00:57:23,360 Speaker 1: and he was known for partying his fucking dick off 1103 00:57:23,640 --> 00:57:26,000 Speaker 1: like he shouldn't be alive. I'll tell you so funny 1104 00:57:26,000 --> 00:57:28,320 Speaker 1: that someone he had to make a statement that wasn't him. 1105 00:57:28,440 --> 00:57:30,840 Speaker 1: And how did that person not get more footage of 1106 00:57:30,920 --> 00:57:33,360 Speaker 1: this guy except just the shot behind the head. Do 1107 00:57:33,440 --> 00:57:35,720 Speaker 1: you think he was more upset that they thought he 1108 00:57:35,760 --> 00:57:39,040 Speaker 1: was eating pussy or that people would think he'd travel 1109 00:57:39,120 --> 00:57:43,200 Speaker 1: by train. He's like, I wouldn't be caught down to 1110 00:57:43,320 --> 00:57:46,480 Speaker 1: his training if I eat pussy. It's on a fucking 1111 00:57:46,640 --> 00:57:50,400 Speaker 1: the Metro North. Have you done that position? Uh? On 1112 00:57:50,680 --> 00:57:53,520 Speaker 1: not on a train? Uh? Yeah, I've done that where 1113 00:57:53,840 --> 00:57:56,280 Speaker 1: my big thing is putting her up on a pillow. 1114 00:57:56,360 --> 00:58:00,120 Speaker 1: So that's kind of what that's doing, thereating that with 1115 00:58:00,200 --> 00:58:04,560 Speaker 1: her legs, legs behind her head. Yeah, while you could 1116 00:58:04,560 --> 00:58:06,720 Speaker 1: eat her button because you could tell he's like lifting 1117 00:58:06,720 --> 00:58:09,600 Speaker 1: her up, like her butt was like up. Yeah, it's 1118 00:58:09,600 --> 00:58:12,840 Speaker 1: a wrestler move. Um. The person that I'm like currently 1119 00:58:13,080 --> 00:58:17,320 Speaker 1: doing things with, um wants me to buy the classic 1120 00:58:17,880 --> 00:58:21,040 Speaker 1: sex ramp type thing, the Liberator, Remember the thing that 1121 00:58:21,160 --> 00:58:24,080 Speaker 1: was always advertised in the back of Rolling Stone. It's 1122 00:58:24,080 --> 00:58:26,200 Speaker 1: called the Liberator, and it's like a little like it's 1123 00:58:26,200 --> 00:58:29,200 Speaker 1: like a ramp that it's pretty much like a pillow, 1124 00:58:29,280 --> 00:58:31,840 Speaker 1: but you said it's it's like it's a harder foam though, 1125 00:58:34,160 --> 00:58:35,840 Speaker 1: but it's like, you know, it's like the steps they 1126 00:58:35,880 --> 00:58:37,720 Speaker 1: put for dogs to go on a bed when they're 1127 00:58:37,760 --> 00:58:41,280 Speaker 1: all yes, yes, but you know, because we always put 1128 00:58:41,280 --> 00:58:44,040 Speaker 1: down pillows to like me and this person, like we 1129 00:58:44,120 --> 00:58:46,840 Speaker 1: put down but pillows can just like sink and like 1130 00:58:46,960 --> 00:58:49,200 Speaker 1: kind of falling into the bed. And this gives you 1131 00:58:49,240 --> 00:58:53,400 Speaker 1: like an actual surface that isn't hard but not too soft. 1132 00:58:53,640 --> 00:58:56,960 Speaker 1: And it's called the Liberator there it is. Yeah, yeah, 1133 00:58:57,000 --> 00:58:59,760 Speaker 1: these like sex ramps. Oh yeah, it's great. Yeah, and 1134 00:58:59,760 --> 00:59:02,560 Speaker 1: then could ride your bike off into BMX jump. Oh 1135 00:59:02,560 --> 00:59:06,320 Speaker 1: my god, I can't even tell you what I yesterday. 1136 00:59:06,360 --> 00:59:09,560 Speaker 1: I was preparing for a sex capade and I was 1137 00:59:09,640 --> 00:59:13,680 Speaker 1: laughing so hard at what I was going through. Uh 1138 00:59:13,720 --> 00:59:16,760 Speaker 1: to get to like I watched a video. It was 1139 00:59:16,800 --> 00:59:19,280 Speaker 1: a whole thing. You're gonna give out this list? Are 1140 00:59:19,320 --> 00:59:21,120 Speaker 1: you gonna keep it to yourself? Now, we'll get to 1141 00:59:21,200 --> 00:59:23,520 Speaker 1: it at another time. We gotta get to our sports moments, 1142 00:59:23,680 --> 00:59:26,520 Speaker 1: which honestly that that it was a sports moment for 1143 00:59:26,560 --> 00:59:28,880 Speaker 1: me yesterday. It was very athletic when I had to 1144 00:59:28,920 --> 00:59:32,000 Speaker 1: go through water sports. You know what, Let's take a 1145 00:59:32,000 --> 00:59:44,760 Speaker 1: short break gears Andrew's weekly sports moment. I mean thrilled. 1146 00:59:45,560 --> 00:59:50,000 Speaker 1: LaMelo Ball has no regrets over skipping college. I love 1147 00:59:50,080 --> 00:59:53,280 Speaker 1: this quote he said, saying school not even teaching you ship? 1148 00:59:53,800 --> 00:59:58,760 Speaker 1: What the fund is school? Later clarify, let me rephrase 1149 00:59:58,800 --> 01:00:03,800 Speaker 1: school now for every buddy. Um, I mean, did he 1150 01:00:03,840 --> 01:00:06,040 Speaker 1: tweet this or say it? I believe he said it 1151 01:00:06,080 --> 01:00:09,360 Speaker 1: because in quotes. But okay, yeah, school not forever. But 1152 01:00:09,480 --> 01:00:11,160 Speaker 1: he's in an interview he goes, now, if you want 1153 01:00:11,160 --> 01:00:12,840 Speaker 1: to be a doctor, but to take that ask to 1154 01:00:12,880 --> 01:00:17,040 Speaker 1: school s c O. UM, I don't know if you 1155 01:00:17,080 --> 01:00:19,560 Speaker 1: know who LaMelo Ball is. He's one of three brothers. 1156 01:00:19,600 --> 01:00:23,680 Speaker 1: His older brother was picked first in the name which 1157 01:00:23,720 --> 01:00:26,760 Speaker 1: one first? Yes, pick first? I mean LaMelo is a 1158 01:00:26,800 --> 01:00:30,040 Speaker 1: weird name. LaMelo my weird. I mean, like I haven't 1159 01:00:30,040 --> 01:00:34,440 Speaker 1: heard it before. And Angelo Okay are those really his 1160 01:00:34,480 --> 01:00:39,560 Speaker 1: brother's names? Okay, what are they again? Alonzo, Lo, Angelo, 1161 01:00:40,680 --> 01:00:46,000 Speaker 1: and LaMelo. Um, it sounds like like a lemon candy. Yeah, 1162 01:00:46,000 --> 01:00:48,600 Speaker 1: it sounds delicious. Sounds like one of Noah's favorite candies 1163 01:00:48,600 --> 01:00:54,400 Speaker 1: that I've never heard of, cry baby or something. Um. Yeah, 1164 01:00:54,440 --> 01:00:57,280 Speaker 1: he's right. College is dumb, especially if you're an NBA. 1165 01:00:57,720 --> 01:00:59,760 Speaker 1: But I mean, kids are going to see this though 1166 01:00:59,760 --> 01:01:01,640 Speaker 1: that aren't as good as him, and then they're gonna 1167 01:01:01,840 --> 01:01:06,840 Speaker 1: not think school for them. And honestly, you do have 1168 01:01:06,880 --> 01:01:09,800 Speaker 1: to learn a trade. And I'm sorry if if you're 1169 01:01:09,920 --> 01:01:15,720 Speaker 1: dumb enough to hear LaMelo what's his last name? Ball say, 1170 01:01:15,760 --> 01:01:18,880 Speaker 1: schools not for everyone and you go, yeah, I'm not 1171 01:01:18,880 --> 01:01:20,360 Speaker 1: going to go to school, then you weren't going to 1172 01:01:20,440 --> 01:01:23,200 Speaker 1: go to school anyway. So like anyone that this would 1173 01:01:23,240 --> 01:01:26,600 Speaker 1: actually influence wasn't really going to go to school anyway. 1174 01:01:26,680 --> 01:01:28,560 Speaker 1: And like I said at the beginning of the show, 1175 01:01:28,880 --> 01:01:31,320 Speaker 1: you look for the validation of what you already want 1176 01:01:31,360 --> 01:01:34,080 Speaker 1: to do. You surround yourself with people and with information 1177 01:01:34,120 --> 01:01:36,560 Speaker 1: that validates the choice you already want to make if 1178 01:01:36,600 --> 01:01:38,800 Speaker 1: you really want to make it. I know, I just 1179 01:01:38,840 --> 01:01:42,160 Speaker 1: think like I think sometimes just because he's you know, 1180 01:01:42,200 --> 01:01:45,520 Speaker 1: an NBA player young and what you don't realize, like 1181 01:01:45,600 --> 01:01:48,720 Speaker 1: what your words they do have meaning to these kids, 1182 01:01:48,800 --> 01:01:51,640 Speaker 1: Like like a thirteen year old is going to go, oh, well, 1183 01:01:51,680 --> 01:01:53,760 Speaker 1: I'm good at video games. I don't need school. Or 1184 01:01:54,000 --> 01:01:55,600 Speaker 1: it's like so many kids now are going I'm just 1185 01:01:55,640 --> 01:01:57,360 Speaker 1: gonna be oh, yeah, if I'm not a doctor, I 1186 01:01:57,360 --> 01:01:59,920 Speaker 1: should just not go to school. And and I know 1187 01:02:00,120 --> 01:02:02,600 Speaker 1: it's like, how could these people think that people were 1188 01:02:02,680 --> 01:02:04,440 Speaker 1: dumb dude, But that's what I'm saying. They wouldn't go 1189 01:02:04,440 --> 01:02:07,000 Speaker 1: to school anyway. Well, yeah, they wouldn't get into the no, 1190 01:02:07,080 --> 01:02:09,600 Speaker 1: but I do. I do. But there's something to be 1191 01:02:09,680 --> 01:02:12,520 Speaker 1: said for that, Like the amount of debt that's that 1192 01:02:12,600 --> 01:02:16,520 Speaker 1: people are in to get a just a degree in 1193 01:02:16,680 --> 01:02:19,680 Speaker 1: political science and then they are working at Best Buy. 1194 01:02:20,480 --> 01:02:23,760 Speaker 1: It's just like and they'll never pay it off and 1195 01:02:23,800 --> 01:02:26,000 Speaker 1: they're they're going to be they're going to die early 1196 01:02:26,080 --> 01:02:28,880 Speaker 1: because of the stress that the debt caused them their 1197 01:02:29,040 --> 01:02:31,640 Speaker 1: entire life. It's like, yeah, I wouldn't go to school either, 1198 01:02:31,960 --> 01:02:35,640 Speaker 1: Like I wouldn't suggest you go to school, Like, but 1199 01:02:35,680 --> 01:02:38,880 Speaker 1: i'd say out of college? What after a year and 1200 01:02:38,920 --> 01:02:40,800 Speaker 1: a half, I dropped out of college for that reason. 1201 01:02:40,840 --> 01:02:44,040 Speaker 1: I just didn't want to a crew debt and I 1202 01:02:44,160 --> 01:02:46,680 Speaker 1: just worked. And then I went to a trade school 1203 01:02:46,680 --> 01:02:50,000 Speaker 1: and I got into broadcasting. And tell me, only dollars 1204 01:02:50,040 --> 01:02:53,440 Speaker 1: on my education? What? What? What was the final straw 1205 01:02:53,520 --> 01:02:59,920 Speaker 1: that made you go this isn't Yes? No, I think 1206 01:03:00,000 --> 01:03:05,080 Speaker 1: I told I was in a class and we were 1207 01:03:05,160 --> 01:03:07,560 Speaker 1: learning about like Chinese dynasties, and I was like, I 1208 01:03:07,600 --> 01:03:09,600 Speaker 1: already learned this in high school. Why am I paying 1209 01:03:09,640 --> 01:03:12,840 Speaker 1: to learn this again? I'm done? Yeah, And I when 1210 01:03:12,840 --> 01:03:17,840 Speaker 1: I dropped out, I mean, I'm not telling anyone. I 1211 01:03:17,920 --> 01:03:22,080 Speaker 1: just think and we listen. If everyone just did whatever 1212 01:03:22,400 --> 01:03:25,160 Speaker 1: felt good and like, oh, just you know what if 1213 01:03:25,160 --> 01:03:27,240 Speaker 1: you if you find what you love and you make 1214 01:03:27,560 --> 01:03:29,920 Speaker 1: if you make money, if you go into what you 1215 01:03:29,960 --> 01:03:31,720 Speaker 1: love and you do that, you'll never work a day 1216 01:03:31,720 --> 01:03:34,200 Speaker 1: in your life. We'd have no one being garbage men. 1217 01:03:34,320 --> 01:03:36,480 Speaker 1: We'd have no one being Barisa's at Starbucks. We have 1218 01:03:36,520 --> 01:03:40,280 Speaker 1: no you know, like we need people to not pursue 1219 01:03:40,320 --> 01:03:45,840 Speaker 1: their passions. But I did pursue my passion. You did. Yes, 1220 01:03:46,040 --> 01:03:49,200 Speaker 1: school is important, Yes you did. I'm saying that, Like, 1221 01:03:49,640 --> 01:03:52,800 Speaker 1: but if everyone pulled a Noah, we would we would 1222 01:03:52,800 --> 01:03:57,240 Speaker 1: have great podcasts and great you know, well produced entertainment, 1223 01:03:57,640 --> 01:04:02,080 Speaker 1: but we wouldn't have anyone to um. I guess troubleshoot 1224 01:04:02,360 --> 01:04:06,160 Speaker 1: for us. You know why Zoom isn't loading, You know, 1225 01:04:06,200 --> 01:04:08,920 Speaker 1: like there's people working at lower levels of Zoom that 1226 01:04:09,000 --> 01:04:10,880 Speaker 1: probably don't want to be that want to be doing others. 1227 01:04:10,880 --> 01:04:13,320 Speaker 1: I don't know what I'm trying. There's something to his 1228 01:04:13,400 --> 01:04:15,760 Speaker 1: quote where it's like it's for some people, it's not 1229 01:04:15,800 --> 01:04:18,560 Speaker 1: for others. Yeah, he should have said maybe doctors and 1230 01:04:18,600 --> 01:04:20,280 Speaker 1: then added a couple more things because a lot of 1231 01:04:20,360 --> 01:04:21,600 Speaker 1: kids can go well, I don't want to be a doctor. 1232 01:04:21,640 --> 01:04:24,520 Speaker 1: I don't need to go to school. Yeah. All I 1233 01:04:24,560 --> 01:04:26,920 Speaker 1: know is I cheated on everything in college, and I 1234 01:04:26,960 --> 01:04:28,960 Speaker 1: think it was a cry for help to Like I think, 1235 01:04:29,600 --> 01:04:32,920 Speaker 1: looking back, I wish I got kicked out of school 1236 01:04:33,120 --> 01:04:35,840 Speaker 1: or maybe dropped out and then started over after taking 1237 01:04:35,880 --> 01:04:39,200 Speaker 1: some time to get men to get to get caught. 1238 01:04:39,800 --> 01:04:42,840 Speaker 1: You were like, so, I know, we just like when 1239 01:04:42,880 --> 01:04:46,560 Speaker 1: you are really struggling mentally, sometimes you do destructive things. 1240 01:04:46,640 --> 01:04:50,960 Speaker 1: And then no one I was like, what, I'm walking 1241 01:04:51,000 --> 01:04:53,560 Speaker 1: to get my degree, like it was a joke. In 1242 01:04:54,280 --> 01:04:58,720 Speaker 1: everyone did not expect I'm talking. There's no reason why 1243 01:04:58,800 --> 01:05:02,600 Speaker 1: I have a degree, and whatever, it is, what it is, 1244 01:05:02,640 --> 01:05:05,760 Speaker 1: and I'm you know, I don't regret it. I really 1245 01:05:05,800 --> 01:05:09,440 Speaker 1: don't because I'm here, but I do think, like, I 1246 01:05:09,440 --> 01:05:10,920 Speaker 1: don't think you even knew what you were doing, but 1247 01:05:10,960 --> 01:05:14,360 Speaker 1: you probably wanted to get caught cheating so that you 1248 01:05:14,360 --> 01:05:16,120 Speaker 1: could get kicked out of school and hit the bottom. 1249 01:05:16,160 --> 01:05:20,280 Speaker 1: And like, actually people would, well, Andrew is sucked up, 1250 01:05:20,800 --> 01:05:23,480 Speaker 1: Like Andrew got caught cheating. Now this unearthed all the 1251 01:05:23,520 --> 01:05:26,120 Speaker 1: stuff he's been doing. Now he has to get help, 1252 01:05:26,160 --> 01:05:28,200 Speaker 1: and we have to help him get help. It was like, 1253 01:05:28,680 --> 01:05:32,760 Speaker 1: it's interesting. You can't be halfway to the low and 1254 01:05:32,800 --> 01:05:35,440 Speaker 1: then get like free help without like being like no, 1255 01:05:35,560 --> 01:05:37,480 Speaker 1: just go to re take as much time as you need. 1256 01:05:37,520 --> 01:05:40,800 Speaker 1: You gotta be really hit the bottom. Yeah, if you 1257 01:05:40,800 --> 01:05:42,680 Speaker 1: don't hit the bottom, they're not gonna be like no, 1258 01:05:42,880 --> 01:05:47,040 Speaker 1: just take two months to yourself again. I couldn't so 1259 01:05:47,200 --> 01:05:49,240 Speaker 1: last summer when I wanted to go away and like 1260 01:05:49,520 --> 01:05:51,760 Speaker 1: get because no one. I was living with my parents, 1261 01:05:51,960 --> 01:05:54,600 Speaker 1: they were not taking my depression. Seriously, what are you 1262 01:05:54,640 --> 01:05:59,640 Speaker 1: crying about? You just hosted Kimmel. This is ridiculous, Nikki, 1263 01:05:59,760 --> 01:06:01,760 Speaker 1: And I'm like, I don't know, but I want to 1264 01:06:01,840 --> 01:06:04,600 Speaker 1: walk in front of traffic, like I don't know why 1265 01:06:04,640 --> 01:06:06,680 Speaker 1: Oz and Kimmel didn't make me not want to do that, 1266 01:06:06,920 --> 01:06:09,240 Speaker 1: but I need help. And it was like it wasn't 1267 01:06:09,320 --> 01:06:12,080 Speaker 1: until I would go on these runs so I could 1268 01:06:12,120 --> 01:06:14,400 Speaker 1: just cry because my parents could not handle my crying 1269 01:06:14,400 --> 01:06:16,200 Speaker 1: because they would just say, what are you crying about? 1270 01:06:16,240 --> 01:06:20,200 Speaker 1: Like ABC, your life is great, this COVID, everyone's going 1271 01:06:20,240 --> 01:06:23,040 Speaker 1: through this. It's normal. So I would go on runs 1272 01:06:23,040 --> 01:06:25,480 Speaker 1: and I would just like sob during these runs on 1273 01:06:25,480 --> 01:06:27,480 Speaker 1: the phone with Anya and she would be like, dude, 1274 01:06:27,520 --> 01:06:29,160 Speaker 1: you need to like go somewhere, and I'd be like, 1275 01:06:29,200 --> 01:06:31,280 Speaker 1: but no one's listening. And I remember I went home 1276 01:06:31,320 --> 01:06:33,480 Speaker 1: and I like I went up to my mom and 1277 01:06:33,480 --> 01:06:35,880 Speaker 1: I was just like, you need to know, like how 1278 01:06:35,960 --> 01:06:38,560 Speaker 1: serious I am. I'm going to a hospital. I'm going now, 1279 01:06:38,680 --> 01:06:41,720 Speaker 1: And that was this, That's all because then then she 1280 01:06:41,840 --> 01:06:44,640 Speaker 1: just goes, oh, Nick, like she finally got it and 1281 01:06:44,720 --> 01:06:47,920 Speaker 1: was like come here, like and like Finally, all she 1282 01:06:48,120 --> 01:06:51,080 Speaker 1: had to do was just go, I I'm so sorry 1283 01:06:51,120 --> 01:06:53,320 Speaker 1: you're struggling, and this is like real for you, and 1284 01:06:53,320 --> 01:06:55,200 Speaker 1: this this isn't what I think it is. It's what 1285 01:06:55,240 --> 01:06:57,720 Speaker 1: you think, it's what you're telling. I'm trusting you and 1286 01:06:57,760 --> 01:07:00,240 Speaker 1: I had, but I had to be so explicit and 1287 01:07:00,280 --> 01:07:03,200 Speaker 1: be like almost over the top to get hurt of 1288 01:07:03,320 --> 01:07:07,160 Speaker 1: finally go I'm sorry like that you're struggling, because I 1289 01:07:07,160 --> 01:07:09,040 Speaker 1: think it's like if you would have gone to anyone 1290 01:07:09,080 --> 01:07:11,320 Speaker 1: about what you were going through in college, it would 1291 01:07:11,320 --> 01:07:16,800 Speaker 1: have been met by paying for this ship. I was 1292 01:07:16,880 --> 01:07:19,480 Speaker 1: in debt and I was like crying for help, but 1293 01:07:19,520 --> 01:07:23,080 Speaker 1: I wasn't, like I didn't know how to Sometimes you 1294 01:07:23,080 --> 01:07:24,400 Speaker 1: could ask for help and you don't know how to 1295 01:07:24,480 --> 01:07:27,240 Speaker 1: verbalize it, you know what I mean, So then you 1296 01:07:27,280 --> 01:07:29,560 Speaker 1: can't get to help you want, or you're you know, 1297 01:07:29,640 --> 01:07:33,000 Speaker 1: you're just afraid to ask for help because it's not strong, 1298 01:07:33,040 --> 01:07:35,040 Speaker 1: because you got to do it on your own, or 1299 01:07:35,040 --> 01:07:37,160 Speaker 1: you'll be told that or you're told that it's not 1300 01:07:37,200 --> 01:07:39,280 Speaker 1: that big of a deal. And then once you're told that, 1301 01:07:39,360 --> 01:07:42,160 Speaker 1: once it goes back to everything we were saying. You're 1302 01:07:42,200 --> 01:07:45,080 Speaker 1: told at once you're never gonna ask again. So it's 1303 01:07:45,120 --> 01:07:48,240 Speaker 1: like there's so much build up to like asking for help, 1304 01:07:48,400 --> 01:07:50,439 Speaker 1: and you're at your lowest and your brain isn't even 1305 01:07:50,560 --> 01:07:53,320 Speaker 1: right to know how to write. Yes, let's get to 1306 01:07:53,360 --> 01:08:08,040 Speaker 1: fan tracks. Yeah. Whoa, Oh my god, whoa. That's so 1307 01:08:08,120 --> 01:08:13,640 Speaker 1: weird that you can make that noise. That's pretty good. 1308 01:08:14,040 --> 01:08:29,760 Speaker 1: Say something really cheerful. But believe in yourself. God loves you. Okay, Noah, 1309 01:08:29,880 --> 01:08:33,120 Speaker 1: let's get to uh some voice memos and just messages, 1310 01:08:33,840 --> 01:08:37,559 Speaker 1: all right? Can I please read this email? Yes? Okay, 1311 01:08:38,800 --> 01:08:42,719 Speaker 1: this is from Matthew and Maryland. Hello, Nikki. Does Andrew 1312 01:08:42,720 --> 01:08:46,519 Speaker 1: know about an NFL analyst named Jeff Saturday? He used 1313 01:08:46,560 --> 01:08:49,400 Speaker 1: to be Peyton Manning Center for the Colts for years 1314 01:08:49,479 --> 01:08:53,240 Speaker 1: now he's now he plays Andrew's twin on ESPN. What 1315 01:08:53,280 --> 01:08:57,320 Speaker 1: do you think it's wild how much this guy looks like? Yeah? 1316 01:08:57,439 --> 01:08:59,680 Speaker 1: I only know about this guy because people have sent 1317 01:08:59,720 --> 01:09:02,559 Speaker 1: it to you so many times. I mean, Andrew, that 1318 01:09:02,600 --> 01:09:05,880 Speaker 1: guy looks exactly if you told me that was you, 1319 01:09:06,040 --> 01:09:09,080 Speaker 1: I wouldn't doubt the guy on the left, which is you. 1320 01:09:09,080 --> 01:09:12,280 Speaker 1: No one's done in comparison, looks less like you than 1321 01:09:12,400 --> 01:09:16,439 Speaker 1: the guy than Jeff Saturday. Oh yeah, yeah, I mean, 1322 01:09:16,479 --> 01:09:19,920 Speaker 1: what's interesting is he's like in real life, that dude 1323 01:09:20,000 --> 01:09:23,400 Speaker 1: is like, he's so much bigger than me. He would 1324 01:09:23,439 --> 01:09:27,599 Speaker 1: look like like, we gotta we gotta get you guys together. Yeah, 1325 01:09:27,680 --> 01:09:30,280 Speaker 1: I'm like Jeff Tuesday with how much I've done in 1326 01:09:30,320 --> 01:09:33,559 Speaker 1: my life. And do you feel insulted by that comparison? No, 1327 01:09:33,720 --> 01:09:39,760 Speaker 1: it's great. Yeah, I mean yeah, I'm like and we 1328 01:09:39,800 --> 01:09:42,080 Speaker 1: all know that you think Tuesdays are really hard for people. 1329 01:09:42,400 --> 01:09:44,479 Speaker 1: I'm more like Jeff Saturday, if you know what I mean. 1330 01:09:45,000 --> 01:09:48,960 Speaker 1: My body is just getting loose again, pizzas anyhow, But yes, 1331 01:09:49,040 --> 01:09:55,960 Speaker 1: I've gotten that before. Uh lose again. Yeah, my tips 1332 01:09:56,000 --> 01:10:04,800 Speaker 1: get loose, man, your tips get loose. Yeah, dude, I 1333 01:10:04,840 --> 01:10:06,840 Speaker 1: was in that shirt yesterday and the whole time I'm 1334 01:10:06,840 --> 01:10:11,679 Speaker 1: thinking about my tits during the interview. Really, why don't 1335 01:10:11,680 --> 01:10:15,360 Speaker 1: you just get a breast reduction? Breast cancer again? Again? 1336 01:10:15,760 --> 01:10:18,439 Speaker 1: My dad got it the first time. You could get 1337 01:10:18,439 --> 01:10:23,519 Speaker 1: a breast reduction. It's not out of your joke. Does 1338 01:10:23,640 --> 01:10:26,200 Speaker 1: kill about not wanting to shake your shirt off during 1339 01:10:26,200 --> 01:10:31,639 Speaker 1: sex because you're your tits and come to soon? So funny? 1340 01:10:31,680 --> 01:10:34,439 Speaker 1: I wrote it? Um, I didn't. I didn't write that. 1341 01:10:34,479 --> 01:10:36,760 Speaker 1: I didn't even I wish I did it so funny. 1342 01:10:36,840 --> 01:10:40,839 Speaker 1: All right, let's get to a voice memo from Tanya 1343 01:10:41,040 --> 01:10:48,080 Speaker 1: or Tanya, I think it's Damna, Nikki Andrew. No. Uh. 1344 01:10:48,240 --> 01:10:50,320 Speaker 1: I'm such a big fan of the podcast, and I 1345 01:10:50,360 --> 01:10:52,479 Speaker 1: was just listening to the one where you were talking 1346 01:10:52,520 --> 01:10:57,200 Speaker 1: about when people missed pronounce certain sayings or or say 1347 01:10:57,240 --> 01:11:00,760 Speaker 1: them incorrectly, um like donkey dog were old and so on, 1348 01:11:00,920 --> 01:11:03,320 Speaker 1: and it made me think of something that happened to 1349 01:11:03,360 --> 01:11:07,520 Speaker 1: me the other day. I was talking to my therapist 1350 01:11:07,680 --> 01:11:10,800 Speaker 1: and was having a really heartfelt moment, trying to talk 1351 01:11:10,800 --> 01:11:14,639 Speaker 1: to her about how I always, when things are going well, 1352 01:11:14,760 --> 01:11:17,679 Speaker 1: expect something bad to happen. And the phrase I went 1353 01:11:17,760 --> 01:11:20,519 Speaker 1: to her with was I'm always waiting for the other 1354 01:11:20,560 --> 01:11:23,360 Speaker 1: ball to drop. And I must have said it like 1355 01:11:23,400 --> 01:11:25,760 Speaker 1: three or four times in our one hour session. I'm 1356 01:11:25,800 --> 01:11:29,160 Speaker 1: always waiting for the other ball to drop. And later 1357 01:11:29,200 --> 01:11:30,680 Speaker 1: on in the day I was thinking about it and 1358 01:11:30,720 --> 01:11:33,320 Speaker 1: I was like, oh my god, it's waiting for the 1359 01:11:33,360 --> 01:11:38,280 Speaker 1: other shoe to drop. And so I just have like 1360 01:11:38,360 --> 01:11:42,200 Speaker 1: these images of me trying to be really heartfelt and 1361 01:11:42,240 --> 01:11:45,280 Speaker 1: honest and her like on the other end of the 1362 01:11:45,360 --> 01:11:48,360 Speaker 1: zoom call, trying not to laugh. Her ass off or 1363 01:11:48,400 --> 01:11:55,480 Speaker 1: snicker or just like thinking I was said an idiot. Anyways, 1364 01:11:55,640 --> 01:11:59,720 Speaker 1: waiting for the other shoe to drop. So anyway, good 1365 01:11:59,720 --> 01:12:04,720 Speaker 1: time up waiting. That's New Year's Eve, that's a year. 1366 01:12:05,840 --> 01:12:07,760 Speaker 1: No waiting for the other shoe to drop. Like I'm 1367 01:12:07,760 --> 01:12:09,960 Speaker 1: always on edge, like I'm always waiting for the next 1368 01:12:10,000 --> 01:12:13,680 Speaker 1: thing to happen. I'm waiting for I'm guessing Tanya struggles 1369 01:12:13,720 --> 01:12:17,799 Speaker 1: with I'm wondering I might give you some unsolicited advice 1370 01:12:18,240 --> 01:12:20,040 Speaker 1: that maybe if you were struggling, if you said that 1371 01:12:20,080 --> 01:12:22,000 Speaker 1: a lot during your session of like waiting for the 1372 01:12:22,000 --> 01:12:24,479 Speaker 1: other shoe to drop, you like you're always waiting for 1373 01:12:24,720 --> 01:12:29,639 Speaker 1: something something bad is going to happen. Actually, this might 1374 01:12:29,680 --> 01:12:32,639 Speaker 1: not help you. But I'm guessing there's something that happened 1375 01:12:32,640 --> 01:12:35,800 Speaker 1: to you in your childhood that you did not expect 1376 01:12:36,400 --> 01:12:41,280 Speaker 1: that was totally traumatic and was you were either hit physically, 1377 01:12:41,880 --> 01:12:45,120 Speaker 1: like honestly with a ball or a shoe. I have 1378 01:12:45,160 --> 01:12:48,200 Speaker 1: a friend who's like who can never relax and always 1379 01:12:48,320 --> 01:12:51,080 Speaker 1: feels in fear like something's bad's gonnappen. I'm gonna get 1380 01:12:51,080 --> 01:12:54,280 Speaker 1: a text that someone dies or something. And we we 1381 01:12:54,280 --> 01:12:57,160 Speaker 1: we were talking and I knew another anecdote from her life, 1382 01:12:57,160 --> 01:13:00,400 Speaker 1: and I was like, remember when your mom found out 1383 01:13:00,400 --> 01:13:02,800 Speaker 1: you had had sex and was very mad at you 1384 01:13:02,960 --> 01:13:06,320 Speaker 1: and ran into your room and woke you up by 1385 01:13:06,640 --> 01:13:09,479 Speaker 1: punching you pretty much like, well, you woke up from 1386 01:13:09,479 --> 01:13:12,360 Speaker 1: your sleep with her screaming at you and punching you 1387 01:13:12,400 --> 01:13:14,479 Speaker 1: in the head. Do you think maybe that's why you 1388 01:13:14,520 --> 01:13:21,800 Speaker 1: always think that something's gonna like the other shoes, Well, 1389 01:13:21,880 --> 01:13:23,880 Speaker 1: it was just because it's just like even if you're 1390 01:13:23,880 --> 01:13:25,920 Speaker 1: in a car accident or something and you're like singing 1391 01:13:25,960 --> 01:13:28,760 Speaker 1: to like I don't want to know scrub, you know, 1392 01:13:28,840 --> 01:13:32,559 Speaker 1: like that if a traumatic moment like that, um happens. 1393 01:13:32,680 --> 01:13:34,400 Speaker 1: So that doesn't really help. I don't know if it 1394 01:13:34,560 --> 01:13:37,040 Speaker 1: helps placing things, but maybe look into your past and 1395 01:13:37,080 --> 01:13:39,040 Speaker 1: see if anything like that has happened, which is my 1396 01:13:39,080 --> 01:13:43,680 Speaker 1: biggest fear, is just something happening out of nowhere that like, 1397 01:13:43,760 --> 01:13:46,400 Speaker 1: there's nothing worse than getting hid in the head, Like 1398 01:13:46,400 --> 01:13:48,320 Speaker 1: when I got hit in the head by a picture 1399 01:13:48,360 --> 01:13:51,320 Speaker 1: frame that like I bumped my nightstand and it or 1400 01:13:51,439 --> 01:13:53,559 Speaker 1: my bed post and it fell on my head. It 1401 01:13:53,600 --> 01:13:55,240 Speaker 1: didn't hurt that bed, but it hurts so much worse 1402 01:13:55,280 --> 01:13:57,640 Speaker 1: because it was a surprise, like if someone would have 1403 01:13:57,720 --> 01:13:59,320 Speaker 1: hit me with it, I would have been okay. But 1404 01:13:59,360 --> 01:14:01,720 Speaker 1: because it was just rise, it was like it was 1405 01:14:01,760 --> 01:14:04,439 Speaker 1: so much worse. That's why I'm always waiting for the 1406 01:14:04,439 --> 01:14:07,200 Speaker 1: tailor's with framed poster to fall the other, for the 1407 01:14:07,200 --> 01:14:10,519 Speaker 1: other tailor's with the other ball to I just imagine 1408 01:14:10,520 --> 01:14:13,400 Speaker 1: a scrotum where one of the nuts has fell. Like 1409 01:14:13,439 --> 01:14:15,800 Speaker 1: that's all I kept picturing every time she kept the other. 1410 01:14:16,120 --> 01:14:18,679 Speaker 1: But also, don't you think the shrink should say something 1411 01:14:18,720 --> 01:14:21,800 Speaker 1: they're no, especially if someone's in a moment. We all 1412 01:14:21,840 --> 01:14:23,519 Speaker 1: know what she meant. No, no, no, no no, that 1413 01:14:24,240 --> 01:14:28,800 Speaker 1: like the shrink that was testing her her honesty. Now 1414 01:14:28,880 --> 01:14:35,439 Speaker 1: let's go to Rebecca, Hey, Nikki, Andrew and Noah. So 1415 01:14:35,520 --> 01:14:38,960 Speaker 1: then I know you were asking what the most ridiculous, 1416 01:14:39,240 --> 01:14:44,280 Speaker 1: superstitious thing that we do is. And I don't know 1417 01:14:44,360 --> 01:14:47,559 Speaker 1: why I do this or why I started doing this, 1418 01:14:48,360 --> 01:14:51,679 Speaker 1: but I have to clear my microwave time to zero 1419 01:14:51,960 --> 01:14:56,880 Speaker 1: every single time or something awful will happen to my family. WHOA, 1420 01:14:57,760 --> 01:15:01,680 Speaker 1: I know, I know you could just let me know 1421 01:15:01,760 --> 01:15:04,200 Speaker 1: what to tell my therapist to prescribe me. That would 1422 01:15:04,200 --> 01:15:09,599 Speaker 1: be great. I know was really weird because she was talking. 1423 01:15:10,560 --> 01:15:13,320 Speaker 1: I know, that was crazy. I know I have to 1424 01:15:13,360 --> 01:15:17,720 Speaker 1: go clear mind microwave? Okay? That is is that that weird? Though? 1425 01:15:17,760 --> 01:15:20,519 Speaker 1: I feel like I get if I were her, I 1426 01:15:20,520 --> 01:15:24,559 Speaker 1: would switch to conventional ovens, but we take longer, but 1427 01:15:24,560 --> 01:15:29,439 Speaker 1: you'll save timeout and what Yeah, I wonder what what 1428 01:15:30,400 --> 01:15:32,160 Speaker 1: So if it's on like three seconds, if you take 1429 01:15:32,200 --> 01:15:35,760 Speaker 1: something out early, she's got to clear it. And if 1430 01:15:35,800 --> 01:15:39,439 Speaker 1: she doesn't, I think I wouldn't actually prescribe you anything. 1431 01:15:39,479 --> 01:15:41,320 Speaker 1: I think that gives you a sense of control where 1432 01:15:41,320 --> 01:15:44,320 Speaker 1: you obviously have none, and it's it's the smallest thing, 1433 01:15:44,439 --> 01:15:46,240 Speaker 1: and I don't I don't think it's taking from your life. 1434 01:15:46,640 --> 01:15:48,639 Speaker 1: And that is annoying when there's like three seconds left 1435 01:15:48,640 --> 01:15:50,800 Speaker 1: and it gets you started for the next one. But 1436 01:15:50,880 --> 01:15:53,559 Speaker 1: if you were to miss it, and then if you 1437 01:15:53,640 --> 01:15:57,320 Speaker 1: go through like a hole like yeah, where you start 1438 01:15:57,320 --> 01:15:59,679 Speaker 1: going like I gotta call everyone to make sure they're okay, 1439 01:15:59,680 --> 01:16:01,280 Speaker 1: and like don't get into a car today or don't 1440 01:16:01,280 --> 01:16:03,880 Speaker 1: go in to flight. Like that might be insane, But 1441 01:16:04,360 --> 01:16:07,559 Speaker 1: that's an interesting one. It's always interesting when they connected 1442 01:16:07,560 --> 01:16:10,800 Speaker 1: to something so negative. It's like it's like, oh, I 1443 01:16:10,840 --> 01:16:14,160 Speaker 1: gotta clear to zero or you know, um, I might 1444 01:16:14,160 --> 01:16:16,519 Speaker 1: lose a sock. But it's always like, if I don't 1445 01:16:16,560 --> 01:16:19,000 Speaker 1: clear to zero, my dog will die in a fire. 1446 01:16:19,040 --> 01:16:22,400 Speaker 1: And why are we going to such an extreme thing 1447 01:16:22,439 --> 01:16:26,519 Speaker 1: over such a little minute thing, because yeah's it never 1448 01:16:26,720 --> 01:16:29,519 Speaker 1: is It never is los a sock. You're right, Yeah, 1449 01:16:29,560 --> 01:16:32,640 Speaker 1: it's always something like insane. And so it's like you're 1450 01:16:32,640 --> 01:16:34,840 Speaker 1: already having these like real negative thoughts and now you're 1451 01:16:34,840 --> 01:16:38,360 Speaker 1: connecting them. Maybe. Look, I used to see the number 1452 01:16:38,360 --> 01:16:40,559 Speaker 1: eleven thirty four and think I was going to help 1453 01:16:40,560 --> 01:16:45,120 Speaker 1: because it was hell spelled backwards about nine zero zero nine. 1454 01:16:45,120 --> 01:16:46,760 Speaker 1: It flipped upside down. Did you think you were going 1455 01:16:46,800 --> 01:16:52,360 Speaker 1: to see boobs no eight zero zero eight? Oh? Yeah, 1456 01:16:52,439 --> 01:16:59,400 Speaker 1: but it's but a capital B. I was doing lowercase b. Oh, 1457 01:16:59,520 --> 01:17:02,960 Speaker 1: that would work to right, or maybe it'd be poop. 1458 01:17:03,960 --> 01:17:07,320 Speaker 1: I don't know, boo poop. Alright, we got one more. 1459 01:17:07,400 --> 01:17:12,559 Speaker 1: We got another voice message from Heather. I mean it's 1460 01:17:13,040 --> 01:17:16,080 Speaker 1: I want to clear that. You know, and Andrew listen 1461 01:17:16,120 --> 01:17:18,720 Speaker 1: to you guys every day, major bestie. Can he just 1462 01:17:18,800 --> 01:17:21,400 Speaker 1: calling in to let you know about something I said 1463 01:17:21,400 --> 01:17:26,120 Speaker 1: in my sleep at a sleepaway soccer camp in a 1464 01:17:26,240 --> 01:17:28,599 Speaker 1: room with a whole bunch of my teammates in high 1465 01:17:28,600 --> 01:17:32,320 Speaker 1: school and in a British accent. I said, all right, 1466 01:17:33,040 --> 01:17:36,479 Speaker 1: everybody on the bus, thoughts my plans? Single file please, 1467 01:17:37,200 --> 01:17:41,400 Speaker 1: and nobody ever let me down ever since. Guy. But 1468 01:17:41,880 --> 01:17:43,560 Speaker 1: I was in the middle that I go, how do 1469 01:17:43,680 --> 01:17:45,439 Speaker 1: you know exactly what she said? And how does she 1470 01:17:45,479 --> 01:17:48,200 Speaker 1: remember this whole thing? And I know why because they 1471 01:17:48,280 --> 01:17:51,240 Speaker 1: never let it down? And if you know, that's exactly 1472 01:17:51,240 --> 01:17:53,679 Speaker 1: what she said, all right, everyone on the bus, single 1473 01:17:53,720 --> 01:17:58,320 Speaker 1: file please? What was the last part? That is so funny? 1474 01:18:00,160 --> 01:18:03,719 Speaker 1: And she did an accent like means she was like, 1475 01:18:04,439 --> 01:18:08,320 Speaker 1: it's just the I would have I would have bullied 1476 01:18:08,360 --> 01:18:12,879 Speaker 1: you so hard for that. It's such a long phrase, 1477 01:18:13,040 --> 01:18:17,800 Speaker 1: like yours the other day. Hi, I'm nicky glazer, like 1478 01:18:17,840 --> 01:18:20,679 Speaker 1: that was mine? Alright, everyone on the bus some nicky 1479 01:18:20,680 --> 01:18:24,759 Speaker 1: glazer Like it's such a long phrase like that's usually 1480 01:18:24,760 --> 01:18:31,400 Speaker 1: mine is. Yeah, I know I've said some really weird things. 1481 01:18:31,560 --> 01:18:35,000 Speaker 1: I know there's there's this app that will record how 1482 01:18:35,160 --> 01:18:37,040 Speaker 1: might you say in your sleep? And I want I 1483 01:18:37,080 --> 01:18:39,160 Speaker 1: want to use it so bad, but I can't because 1484 01:18:39,160 --> 01:18:41,880 Speaker 1: I use white noise when I sleep, and so my 1485 01:18:41,960 --> 01:18:46,600 Speaker 1: phone can't produce a noise and also record. But I 1486 01:18:46,960 --> 01:18:52,760 Speaker 1: probably say some really weird m so funny to do it, 1487 01:18:52,960 --> 01:18:55,280 Speaker 1: not that I would know. Is it so weird that 1488 01:18:55,320 --> 01:18:59,760 Speaker 1: we like, we're also scared of death, but we're not 1489 01:19:00,040 --> 01:19:04,560 Speaker 1: scared it all of every single night we lose consciousness 1490 01:19:05,320 --> 01:19:08,680 Speaker 1: and we go into a world where we don't know 1491 01:19:08,720 --> 01:19:11,240 Speaker 1: what's going to happen. We have no control over what 1492 01:19:11,280 --> 01:19:13,679 Speaker 1: we're going to think about, and we just we're fine 1493 01:19:13,720 --> 01:19:15,760 Speaker 1: with that. We're gonna go into another realm. We don't 1494 01:19:15,840 --> 01:19:20,280 Speaker 1: understand it. Science doesn't understand what dreams are, what really 1495 01:19:20,280 --> 01:19:22,200 Speaker 1: we're doing in our sleep, what's the purpose of it? 1496 01:19:22,400 --> 01:19:25,240 Speaker 1: Why we and we just like surrender to that and 1497 01:19:25,320 --> 01:19:27,599 Speaker 1: know that anything outside of us could happen. We were 1498 01:19:27,640 --> 01:19:29,280 Speaker 1: just laying there like a limp body and we're all 1499 01:19:29,280 --> 01:19:32,640 Speaker 1: okay with that. On the subway with a knife. I 1500 01:19:32,720 --> 01:19:35,840 Speaker 1: sleep on the plane better than anywhere I've ever slept. 1501 01:19:35,880 --> 01:19:39,600 Speaker 1: I love sleeping on a plane. We gotta go to 1502 01:19:39,640 --> 01:19:41,800 Speaker 1: final thought. I want to get the karaoke mic really 1503 01:19:41,840 --> 01:19:44,000 Speaker 1: quick and just test out the professional thing really quick. 1504 01:19:45,400 --> 01:19:47,160 Speaker 1: I'll talk to Noah while you're doing that. Have you 1505 01:19:47,240 --> 01:19:51,519 Speaker 1: ever at sleep paralysis? Noah, No, I've never had sleep paralysis, 1506 01:19:51,520 --> 01:19:54,280 Speaker 1: have you? Yeah? Yeah, a lot, especially when I used 1507 01:19:54,320 --> 01:19:56,240 Speaker 1: to drink a lot like the next night, my body 1508 01:19:56,320 --> 01:19:59,680 Speaker 1: would be so exhausted. My mind would be awake, but 1509 01:19:59,720 --> 01:20:03,000 Speaker 1: I when it moved my body and so I would 1510 01:20:03,040 --> 01:20:05,880 Speaker 1: go move arms in my brain move arms and my 1511 01:20:06,000 --> 01:20:08,200 Speaker 1: arms when it moved, and I'm like, I'm dead. I'm 1512 01:20:08,200 --> 01:20:11,000 Speaker 1: definitely dead right now. Have you ever had sleep paralysis? 1513 01:20:11,080 --> 01:20:14,439 Speaker 1: I haven't. That's where you feel like something's sitting on 1514 01:20:14,479 --> 01:20:17,160 Speaker 1: your chest. Is that it? You can't, Yeah, your arms, 1515 01:20:17,200 --> 01:20:19,559 Speaker 1: you can't. Your brain is wide awake, but your body 1516 01:20:19,640 --> 01:20:23,679 Speaker 1: is dead. It's fucking wild. But like millions of people 1517 01:20:23,720 --> 01:20:25,800 Speaker 1: had it, Thank god. I googled it and like, like, 1518 01:20:25,840 --> 01:20:28,000 Speaker 1: you're one of two million people to absolutely probably I 1519 01:20:28,000 --> 01:20:30,920 Speaker 1: would say move arms, move dude. I would go move 1520 01:20:31,080 --> 01:20:34,120 Speaker 1: locked in syndrome, my face would would twitch. And I'm 1521 01:20:34,160 --> 01:20:36,200 Speaker 1: sure someone probably listening right now is like, yeah, you 1522 01:20:36,240 --> 01:20:39,800 Speaker 1: have you know, some kind of Please don't don't tell 1523 01:20:39,880 --> 01:20:41,920 Speaker 1: him that he doesn't need another thing that he might 1524 01:20:41,920 --> 01:20:44,760 Speaker 1: think he yes, just banana. But you're I feel like 1525 01:20:44,760 --> 01:20:48,000 Speaker 1: your hypochondria has been pretty good. I saw yesterday that 1526 01:20:48,040 --> 01:20:51,080 Speaker 1: there's a vaccine coming out for eight for HIV. Will 1527 01:20:51,120 --> 01:20:53,960 Speaker 1: that make you feel better? Sure? I don't even really 1528 01:20:54,000 --> 01:20:58,479 Speaker 1: think about that stuff anymore. That much, because are you 1529 01:20:58,560 --> 01:21:00,840 Speaker 1: just doing with your tongue trying to get food out 1530 01:21:00,840 --> 01:21:05,240 Speaker 1: of my teeth my tooth trying to get my tooth 1531 01:21:05,280 --> 01:21:10,640 Speaker 1: out of my food? All right, we got I have 1532 01:21:10,640 --> 01:21:13,519 Speaker 1: a rib stuck in my between my two teeth. Here's 1533 01:21:13,520 --> 01:21:17,599 Speaker 1: the little karaoke mike, and oh my god, this is 1534 01:21:17,840 --> 01:21:20,160 Speaker 1: it's so cool, you guys. This thing. It has a 1535 01:21:20,200 --> 01:21:22,519 Speaker 1: speaker on it that like projects as well as like 1536 01:21:22,560 --> 01:21:32,960 Speaker 1: an amp um. So this is let me just do it, okay, okay, 1537 01:21:33,240 --> 01:21:38,439 Speaker 1: karaoke mode. This is karaoke mode. It's very echoing and 1538 01:21:38,479 --> 01:21:42,920 Speaker 1: it makes you sound better. Okay. So no, the debate 1539 01:21:42,960 --> 01:21:45,880 Speaker 1: here is don't tell her what mode it is, so 1540 01:21:45,920 --> 01:21:47,640 Speaker 1: then she just has to go. This is better. So 1541 01:21:47,680 --> 01:21:49,519 Speaker 1: then she's she's gonna hear because it's gonna go. But 1542 01:21:49,600 --> 01:21:52,519 Speaker 1: just just okay, okay, okay. No, it has no horse 1543 01:21:52,560 --> 01:21:55,560 Speaker 1: in this game. I'm a little horse. Okay, here we go. 1544 01:21:55,600 --> 01:21:58,400 Speaker 1: I have no ball to drop. Okay. So here's karaoke mode. 1545 01:21:58,640 --> 01:22:02,040 Speaker 1: And I think that professional mode takes away any effect 1546 01:22:02,120 --> 01:22:05,599 Speaker 1: because it's for professional singers. Andrew thing's professional mode makes 1547 01:22:05,640 --> 01:22:13,280 Speaker 1: you sound more professional. So this is karaoke mode. Master mode. 1548 01:22:13,720 --> 01:22:20,320 Speaker 1: This is Master mode. Professional mode. This is professional mode. 1549 01:22:21,320 --> 01:22:27,360 Speaker 1: You didn't sing as good? This is professional mode. Okay, Now, Noah, 1550 01:22:27,400 --> 01:22:34,360 Speaker 1: before you answer, just imagine, Matt, imagine it's it's imagining 1551 01:22:34,439 --> 01:22:37,160 Speaker 1: room on zoom. So you don't want to My argument 1552 01:22:37,200 --> 01:22:40,800 Speaker 1: is you don't also want to echo. The argument is 1553 01:22:40,880 --> 01:22:43,320 Speaker 1: is professional mode for professionals or is it to make 1554 01:22:43,360 --> 01:22:51,920 Speaker 1: you sound professional? Which one? This is mode? Master mode? 1555 01:22:52,200 --> 01:23:00,040 Speaker 1: This is master mode, professional mode, this is professional of 1556 01:23:00,160 --> 01:23:05,080 Speaker 1: no move. They're also on the same Now, yeah, I 1557 01:23:05,120 --> 01:23:07,320 Speaker 1: can't tell the difference. I can't either, but you know 1558 01:23:07,360 --> 01:23:10,559 Speaker 1: what I do want to get before we go. Okay, 1559 01:23:10,600 --> 01:23:14,080 Speaker 1: so Noah and I are obsessed, well at least well 1560 01:23:14,200 --> 01:23:18,960 Speaker 1: we both think Casey from f Boy Island is so adorable. 1561 01:23:19,960 --> 01:23:22,960 Speaker 1: I mean, and like he's no would you say he's 1562 01:23:23,000 --> 01:23:25,760 Speaker 1: your faith like in terms of like if you were 1563 01:23:25,760 --> 01:23:29,559 Speaker 1: going for a guy on the show, he is one 1564 01:23:29,600 --> 01:23:32,519 Speaker 1: of my faith's. Yes, if we tell me, tell me 1565 01:23:32,560 --> 01:23:34,240 Speaker 1: who you would have gone after on the show, If 1566 01:23:34,280 --> 01:23:36,960 Speaker 1: if you were on the show, if I was on 1567 01:23:37,000 --> 01:23:39,760 Speaker 1: the show, like really looking for a relationship, I would 1568 01:23:39,800 --> 01:23:44,799 Speaker 1: have gone with Josh. Yes, yes, but as someone looking 1569 01:23:44,840 --> 01:23:49,920 Speaker 1: to uh to your life and have someone abandon you 1570 01:23:50,560 --> 01:24:00,240 Speaker 1: to the dock, by a starfish like you goot, uh, 1571 01:24:00,840 --> 01:24:04,080 Speaker 1: Casey's Casey's out there, right, I would say Casey's my 1572 01:24:04,200 --> 01:24:07,280 Speaker 1: number one. Casey's so charming. Yeah, I would love to have. 1573 01:24:08,280 --> 01:24:11,680 Speaker 1: I told Noah, like, there's certain clips Casey knows as 1574 01:24:11,760 --> 01:24:13,960 Speaker 1: much as Garrett knows, like how to grab a girl's 1575 01:24:14,000 --> 01:24:16,360 Speaker 1: neck and make her like that's a hot thing. Casey 1576 01:24:16,439 --> 01:24:18,559 Speaker 1: has a thing that he does that makes you instantly 1577 01:24:18,560 --> 01:24:22,160 Speaker 1: love him where he says your name. He if a 1578 01:24:22,160 --> 01:24:25,479 Speaker 1: guy says your name, it's so hot. And Casey has 1579 01:24:25,520 --> 01:24:26,880 Speaker 1: said my name a couple of times on the show, 1580 01:24:26,880 --> 01:24:29,720 Speaker 1: and I got to admit I've watched them over and 1581 01:24:29,760 --> 01:24:31,960 Speaker 1: over because I'm just like, oh my god, and it's 1582 01:24:31,960 --> 01:24:35,360 Speaker 1: made me like him more Carnegie techniquely Yeah, but listen 1583 01:24:35,400 --> 01:24:40,040 Speaker 1: to this a lot of God, I want to say 1584 01:24:40,040 --> 01:24:43,720 Speaker 1: to him when he said you know, NICKI, I remember 1585 01:24:43,840 --> 01:24:45,919 Speaker 1: him saying it the first time and I was just like, Okay, 1586 01:24:46,439 --> 01:24:49,120 Speaker 1: I hope you stay on the show. I was just adorable. 1587 01:24:49,360 --> 01:24:52,040 Speaker 1: And then there was one more time, right you feeling 1588 01:24:52,040 --> 01:24:55,360 Speaker 1: anything or no, no, no, not from you about on 1589 01:24:55,439 --> 01:25:04,720 Speaker 1: karaoke mode for Casey mode. Damn sadly, damn NICKI wait, 1590 01:25:04,840 --> 01:25:12,479 Speaker 1: I'll played damn Nicki again. Okay, see I'm surprised, sadly 1591 01:25:15,360 --> 01:25:19,240 Speaker 1: these guys are smooth. They're like they're smooth. They played sports, 1592 01:25:19,280 --> 01:25:22,439 Speaker 1: They're around like cool jocks their whole life. There they 1593 01:25:22,439 --> 01:25:26,639 Speaker 1: have I'm sure a ton of diverse friends. Yeah, they're 1594 01:25:26,760 --> 01:25:31,479 Speaker 1: just cool, diverse friends, black friends. Okay, who taught them 1595 01:25:31,479 --> 01:25:33,720 Speaker 1: how to be smooth? Yes, I'm waiting for the other 1596 01:25:33,760 --> 01:25:41,599 Speaker 1: ball to drop here basketball smoothball. No, I'm I'm always 1597 01:25:41,680 --> 01:25:46,479 Speaker 1: cooler and more absolutely sexy when I'm hanging around my 1598 01:25:46,520 --> 01:25:49,519 Speaker 1: black friends that have way more game than I've ever had. Yeah, 1599 01:25:49,560 --> 01:25:52,280 Speaker 1: I mean, i'd say you need to get some more 1600 01:25:52,360 --> 01:25:56,400 Speaker 1: then I'm trying. They're not at the golf course. Wait, 1601 01:25:56,520 --> 01:26:00,280 Speaker 1: what about Bagger Vans who came out of nowhere? Did 1602 01:26:00,280 --> 01:26:03,240 Speaker 1: he teach you anything? We gotta go. This show is 1603 01:26:03,240 --> 01:26:07,920 Speaker 1: getting controversial. We're gonna get canceled. We love you for watching. 1604 01:26:08,479 --> 01:26:10,559 Speaker 1: This is the end of the podcast for this week. 1605 01:26:10,760 --> 01:26:12,720 Speaker 1: Uh next week we'll be back. We're gonna be a 1606 01:26:12,760 --> 01:26:14,719 Speaker 1: nap but we're gonna be all over California this weekend, 1607 01:26:14,720 --> 01:26:17,080 Speaker 1: but we'll be back here in St. Louis from the studio. UM, 1608 01:26:17,240 --> 01:26:19,479 Speaker 1: thank you so much for listening. Don't be kid out there. 1609 01:26:20,040 --> 01:26:21,920 Speaker 1: Uh and JP but