WEBVTT - Why Bebe Neuwirth doesn’t read reviews

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<v Speaker 1>What do you do when life doesn't go according to

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<v Speaker 1>plan that moment you lose a job, or a loved one,

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<v Speaker 1>or even a piece of yourself. I'm Brookshields and this

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<v Speaker 1>is now What, a podcast about pivotal moments as told

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<v Speaker 1>by people.

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<v Speaker 2>Who lived them.

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<v Speaker 1>Each week, I sit down with a guest to talk

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<v Speaker 1>about the times they were knocked off course and what

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<v Speaker 1>they did to move forward. Some stories are funny, others

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<v Speaker 1>are gut wrenching, but all are unapologetically human and remind

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<v Speaker 1>us that every success and every setback is accompanied by

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<v Speaker 1>a choice, and that choice answers one.

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<v Speaker 2>Question, now what. I remember we were doing the twenty

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<v Speaker 2>four Hour Plays.

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<v Speaker 1>We were doing that commercial after nine to eleven, and

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<v Speaker 1>when anybody, when the director or someone will say does

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<v Speaker 1>anybody have any questions, You'd always raise your hands and

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<v Speaker 1>it would be something. And then I'd be like, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>do I have to make fun of her for this?

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<v Speaker 1>Because like maybe I can how you want to make

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<v Speaker 1>fun of her for this one? But you stood out

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<v Speaker 1>and you said excuse me, You're like, uh, do you

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<v Speaker 1>think we could?

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<v Speaker 2>Could we stagger? And that was that was your way

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<v Speaker 2>of saying that.

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<v Speaker 1>Elaine Stretch's hand when she was doing New York, was

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<v Speaker 1>covering your face and you didn't want to say, you're

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<v Speaker 1>covering my face? Yeah, it was Terry mints any and

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<v Speaker 1>you go could we stagger? And then I went, Jerry,

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<v Speaker 1>could Beebe's face not be covered by Elaine's hands? My

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<v Speaker 1>guest today is an icon of the stage m screen.

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<v Speaker 1>BB Newarth is a Tony An Emmy Award winning actor

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<v Speaker 1>and dancer. She's well known on Broadway for her star

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<v Speaker 1>making performances in Sweet Charity and Chicago and One over

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<v Speaker 1>a new legion of fans in shows like Frasier, Madam,

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<v Speaker 1>Secretary Julia, just to name a few. Bib is an

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<v Speaker 1>actor's actor. She's had an enviable career, one built on

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<v Speaker 1>equal parts talent and hard work.

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<v Speaker 2>I have been a.

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<v Speaker 1>Fan of hers for years and was so honored that

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<v Speaker 1>she agreed to share lessons from her incredible journey with me. So,

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<v Speaker 1>without further ado, here is BB Newarth. BB Newarth, thank

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<v Speaker 1>you so much. I'm so happy that you said yes

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<v Speaker 1>to come and join the show and talk to me.

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<v Speaker 2>Where are you right now?

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<v Speaker 3>Happy to be talking to you, Brooke. Every time we

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<v Speaker 3>bump into each other, we have to sit down for

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<v Speaker 3>an hour and talk and catch up. So I'm so

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<v Speaker 3>grateful that you invited me to come on your show.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm down in Greenwich Village where I live in New

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<v Speaker 3>York City.

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<v Speaker 1>By the way, I don't need to have a podcast

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<v Speaker 1>to sit down for an hour and talk with you.

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<v Speaker 2>I will. I will do that anytime you want.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, it's funny because I was to do just

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<v Speaker 1>a little extra research.

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<v Speaker 2>And I didn't know you were born in Newark.

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<v Speaker 3>I was.

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<v Speaker 2>I love that my mother was born in Newark.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, I hate to break it to you, but I

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<v Speaker 3>was in my being in Newark. Was that's where the

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<v Speaker 3>hospital was. But when I was you know, so I

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<v Speaker 3>was born in the hospital in Newark, and then I

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<v Speaker 3>was taken home to Princeton, New Jersey, where I I

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<v Speaker 3>want to get to say, yeah, I'm a Jersey girl.

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<v Speaker 2>That's okay.

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<v Speaker 1>You can get both because you were born there so

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<v Speaker 1>you still have that in your blood. And then you

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<v Speaker 1>were raised in Princeton, which I spent four years or

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<v Speaker 1>the best years of my life there.

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<v Speaker 3>I remember when you were at the school there there

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<v Speaker 3>were people walking around the campus with buttons that said, yes,

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<v Speaker 3>I've seen Brooke.

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<v Speaker 2>I you know, luckily that wore off pretty quickly.

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<v Speaker 1>Like freshman the first part of freshman month was a

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<v Speaker 1>little bit was a little bit tough.

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<v Speaker 3>That must have been awful. It must have been hard

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<v Speaker 3>enough to go to college and then have people staring

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<v Speaker 3>at you well.

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<v Speaker 1>And then the people that you wanted to be friends

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<v Speaker 1>with were trying to give you space. So I had

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<v Speaker 1>no friends, a lot of space that I didn't want,

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<v Speaker 1>and so everybody was trying to be so cool, and

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<v Speaker 1>you know, as an adjustment, I started feeling guilty for

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<v Speaker 1>putting that on anybody. It's hard enough being a freshman.

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<v Speaker 1>But what kind of a young person were you? Personality wise?

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<v Speaker 1>How would you describe who you were? Who was I was?

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<v Speaker 3>Babybould say that I was a bad girl who behaved herself.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, oh, I'm living I'm living vicariously through you right now.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, I did get arrested for smoking marijuana when I

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<v Speaker 3>was thirteen.

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<v Speaker 2>Now it's like, really walk outside your front door.

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<v Speaker 3>But you know, when you're thirteen and it's nineteen seventy two,

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<v Speaker 3>it's it was different.

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<v Speaker 2>I love that you have a record, Newarth has a record.

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<v Speaker 2>That's what I want. I want as a poster.

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<v Speaker 3>But that's why I say I was a bad girl

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<v Speaker 3>who behaved myself. Was like, yes, I was smoking dope

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<v Speaker 3>when I was in my very early teens, but it's like,

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<v Speaker 3>is that really I wasn't dealing heroin?

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<v Speaker 2>No, No, I'm glad you I know. I'm glad. You

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<v Speaker 2>know where to drop the line.

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<v Speaker 3>Smoking a pipe with some you know, it's like not

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<v Speaker 3>that big a deal.

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<v Speaker 2>But and they held you, They held you there.

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<v Speaker 1>You had to Did you have to call your parents

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<v Speaker 1>or someone to come and get you.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, to it. We were at a dance. Remember, oh,

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<v Speaker 3>you'd know this place. It's it's on the it's on

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<v Speaker 3>the campus. There was a dance. There's this There was

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<v Speaker 3>a great high school band, some great musicians at Princeton High.

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<v Speaker 3>They had a band called Fordham Road and they were

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<v Speaker 3>playing and my friend Kathy and I went to this

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<v Speaker 3>dance and then I slipped out to smoke some dope

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<v Speaker 3>with some friends of mine and we were sitting on

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<v Speaker 3>the grass and passing this pipe to other people and

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<v Speaker 3>these flashlights came around and they were cops. And this

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<v Speaker 3>is how stupid I am, Brookshields. I was across the

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<v Speaker 3>street from the cops station.

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<v Speaker 2>And you're a towny sex drugs old Brook.

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<v Speaker 3>It was sex, drugs, rock and roll.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh god, yes, no, but what but like being a

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<v Speaker 1>student being a towny, I say, I always was worried

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<v Speaker 1>that like they hated us, that they liked hated the

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<v Speaker 1>college kids.

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<v Speaker 3>I had no consciousness of that. I wasn't.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh that's good.

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<v Speaker 3>As you can see from talking to me, I really

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<v Speaker 3>didn't know what was going on.

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<v Speaker 2>You were stone. What did you care?

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<v Speaker 3>I was smoking pot, I was my class. That's all

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<v Speaker 3>I cared about, boy pot and ballet?

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<v Speaker 2>Did you always know that you wanted to dance? Like?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh you did?

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<v Speaker 3>Actually? Actually, when I was funny you mentioned Newark Because

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<v Speaker 3>when I was born, the doctor pulled me from my

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<v Speaker 3>mother and said, oh, she's a dancer.

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<v Speaker 2>Really, yes, Oh, come on, that's amazing.

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<v Speaker 3>I asked for ballet classes when I was four. My

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<v Speaker 3>mother had me wait until I was five because of

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<v Speaker 3>five year old's attention span is a little bit longer

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<v Speaker 3>than a four year old's. And so I started dancing

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<v Speaker 3>when I was five at Princeton Ballet and I danced

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<v Speaker 3>in this, you know, non professional ballet company all through

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<v Speaker 3>high school, and then I went to Juilliard in the

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<v Speaker 3>dance department, and then I quit Juilliard in the dance

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<v Speaker 3>department after one year, and then I just started working.

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<v Speaker 3>But you know, when I say to you, I'm a

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<v Speaker 3>dancer first, it's sort of I sort of feel like

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<v Speaker 3>that's the animal that I am. You know that some

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<v Speaker 3>people are jocks, that is that's what they are, that

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<v Speaker 3>is their true nature. So I feel like when I say, well,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm a dancer first, it's because I that's the animal

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<v Speaker 3>that I am. And so you know, i might be

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<v Speaker 3>doing a television show where I'm talking and listening, but

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<v Speaker 3>I always feel like just because I'm not dancing doesn't

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<v Speaker 3>mean I'm not dancing. I think that's why it's always

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<v Speaker 3>a little bit awkward when I don't get to dance

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<v Speaker 3>in something. I feel a little bit Okay, I'm doing

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<v Speaker 3>it inside, but it might not be showing outside.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>But also there's a there's a lyricism to it, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>to all of it, to the rhythm of your voice,

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<v Speaker 1>to the sort of flow that happens when you're.

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<v Speaker 2>In a part.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, I mean, there's it's not as if I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know, but whenever I've watched you on stage

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<v Speaker 1>or off, there's no sort of just a beginning, middle,

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<v Speaker 1>and an end. When you first see you, you think

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<v Speaker 1>that there's something that you might have missed from before.

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<v Speaker 1>But then when you last see you, for that moment,

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<v Speaker 1>you're still thinking of the continuation of the.

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<v Speaker 2>Piece of music or the whatever.

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<v Speaker 1>And I know that sounds all kind of lofty, but

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<v Speaker 1>there's something very beautiful and about the physicality, and it's

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<v Speaker 1>just in your body, you know, And you can tell that.

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<v Speaker 3>Brook. That's one of the nicest things anybody's ever said

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<v Speaker 3>to me. I Am, that is so beautiful. I'm so

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<v Speaker 3>grateful that you said that. That is a beautiful observation

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<v Speaker 3>and that's really moving.

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you, well, thank you. Listen.

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<v Speaker 1>I've had the the fear and the distinct honor of

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<v Speaker 1>actually having to step into your shoes on Broadway, and

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<v Speaker 1>that was daunting for me to do when you were

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<v Speaker 1>leaving Adam's family, and then to sort of be this

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<v Speaker 1>first replacement.

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<v Speaker 2>There's so much pressure in it.

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<v Speaker 1>And I was very acutely aware of that, and it

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<v Speaker 1>was it was not only an honor, but it was

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<v Speaker 1>also I thought, God, I want to live up to

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<v Speaker 1>It's different because you don't want to compare, but you

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<v Speaker 1>also want to make sure that you honor the person

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<v Speaker 1>who performed prior.

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<v Speaker 2>It's a really.

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<v Speaker 3>Interesting position to be in, and I have been in

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<v Speaker 3>it myself. I replaced, I've replaced. I played the role

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<v Speaker 3>of Spider Woman in Kiss of the Spider Woman after

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<v Speaker 3>Cheea Rivera did. No one can replace Cheeta Rivera, you know,

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<v Speaker 3>she was playing in Spider Woman, and then the next

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<v Speaker 3>person to play that part was me. So I can't

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<v Speaker 3>say that I replaced her, but I'd say I played

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<v Speaker 3>the part next. And so I understand the conundrum of

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<v Speaker 3>stepping into a role that is created by somebody else,

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<v Speaker 3>doesn't matter who it is. Really, It's a very good

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<v Speaker 3>lesson in humility, but also in being true to yourself

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<v Speaker 3>and recognizing what you have. You know, my Morticia is

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<v Speaker 3>not your mortician. Your Morticio is not mine. But the

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<v Speaker 3>role has been created and it happened to be created

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<v Speaker 3>by me. So now you have to come in and go, Okay,

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<v Speaker 3>what did she create? And how can I be true

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<v Speaker 3>to myself in doing that? Because the minute you stop

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<v Speaker 3>being true to yourself in any part, in any walk

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<v Speaker 3>of life, you're sunk.

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<v Speaker 2>Why did you leave Julliard after a year.

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<v Speaker 3>I wanted to work. I was just you know, when

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<v Speaker 3>I graduated, you know, as I was looking to see

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<v Speaker 3>if I Princeton I would let me graduate in school,

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<v Speaker 3>I was like, am I going to get out of here?

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know. I you know, I said I didn't

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<v Speaker 3>want to go to college. I just wanted to go

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<v Speaker 3>to New York and dance. And my parents said, you

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<v Speaker 3>have to go to college. I said, I don't want

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<v Speaker 3>to go to college. I said, you have to go

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<v Speaker 3>to college. I said, okay. So in nineteen seventy six,

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<v Speaker 3>when I graduated high school, there were two schools pretty

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<v Speaker 3>much for that, and that was Sunni at Purchase and

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<v Speaker 3>there was Juilliard, and so I auditioned for both and

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<v Speaker 3>I got into both. And I chose Juilliard because it

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<v Speaker 3>was in New York City. And then I just wanted

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<v Speaker 3>to start working. I wanted to start auditioning, you know,

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<v Speaker 3>I was eighteen. I was let me get going. And

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<v Speaker 3>so my parents, who are really creative, brilliant people, said, okay,

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<v Speaker 3>create your own college within the city. Find yourself some

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<v Speaker 3>acting classes and voice classes and dance classes and all that,

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<v Speaker 3>and we will support you in that, and that will

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<v Speaker 3>be the college that you create in the city. So

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<v Speaker 3>I did that for about It was almost a year

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<v Speaker 3>when I got my first job.

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<v Speaker 1>That's a big decision, though, to make as of a

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<v Speaker 1>young person.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh, I never even a whisper of a shadow of

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<v Speaker 3>a doubt in my mind. It was just let me

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<v Speaker 3>get started.

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<v Speaker 2>How did you get your first job?

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<v Speaker 3>I went to open calls and I went to you know,

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<v Speaker 3>you get the backstage or on Thursdays show business and

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<v Speaker 3>backstage came out and you get them and you go

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<v Speaker 3>through and look at all where the auditions were and

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<v Speaker 3>what has open calls? And I went to the the

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<v Speaker 3>first open call I think I went to for chorus line.

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<v Speaker 3>I was still eighteen, and I got cut right away.

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<v Speaker 3>I was really, really, really too young. And then I went,

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know, six months later and I got a

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<v Speaker 3>little further in the audition, and then I remember it

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<v Speaker 3>was another few months later. It said only people who

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<v Speaker 3>have not previously auditioned apply, and I went, well, screw that,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm glad.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm just going to pretend I didn't yeah going.

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<v Speaker 3>And so I went, And that's that's the one. I

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<v Speaker 3>got called back and called back and called back and

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<v Speaker 3>called back, and that's when they finally hired me. And

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<v Speaker 3>I was nineteen nineteen.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh my god, and then you win a Tony by

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<v Speaker 2>the time you're.

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<v Speaker 3>Twenty seven, twenty seven. The first one was twenty seven.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, the first one. Doesn't that feel good? The first one?

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<v Speaker 2>The first of.

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<v Speaker 1>Wait, if you were smoking again, I would just do

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<v Speaker 1>a little inhale, then go for the first one, the

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<v Speaker 1>first one, and then you'd ask.

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<v Speaker 3>I was just trying to be accurate. I'm sorry, Oh.

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<v Speaker 2>I love it. No, please, that's my bad. But my god,

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<v Speaker 2>So what did that feel like?

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<v Speaker 3>Out of body? Just completely so real and out of body?

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<v Speaker 3>And that was the first time I think I ever

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<v Speaker 3>had to be on stage as myself. I have never

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<v Speaker 3>ever had a moment of stage fright in my life.

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<v Speaker 3>But when they called my name and I had to

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<v Speaker 3>go on stage and it was me out there, Oh man,

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<v Speaker 3>I froze. I didn't know what I it was.

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<v Speaker 1>But that's a real thing, and I think just it's

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<v Speaker 1>kind of very metaphor people, but I do really think

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<v Speaker 1>that that's a that's a very important piece of it.

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<v Speaker 1>So that's stage. And then you book a job on

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<v Speaker 1>Cheers as Lilith. How do you get from because that's

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<v Speaker 1>la right?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, you know what happened. I when we did the

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<v Speaker 3>revival of Sweet Charity. We rehearsed and opened that in

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<v Speaker 3>La at the Drothy Chandler, and then we did it

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<v Speaker 3>in San Francisco, and then we had four months off

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<v Speaker 3>before we rehearsed for Broadway. And during those four months,

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<v Speaker 3>that was so that Debbie Allen, our star, would finish

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<v Speaker 3>her series of Fame. And so during those four months,

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<v Speaker 3>I hung out in LA and I got a couple

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<v Speaker 3>of auditions for some walk on parts and some television shows,

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<v Speaker 3>because that's sort of what you do, I guess, and

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<v Speaker 3>I got a couple of walk on lines and one

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<v Speaker 3>of them was, you know, this little scene on Cheers.

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<v Speaker 3>So that's all it was. It was just one of those,

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<v Speaker 3>you know jobs. And then so I did that, and

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<v Speaker 3>then I went home to New York and I started

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<v Speaker 3>up Sweet Charity on Broadway. And then Cheers called and

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<v Speaker 3>they say, can you come back and do that part again?

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<v Speaker 3>And I went, oh, and I had, like.

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<v Speaker 2>I can only do it on a Monday, right, They.

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<v Speaker 3>Had, like I like to say, it's like snow days.

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<v Speaker 3>Like I could in my contract for Sweet Charity, I

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<v Speaker 3>could walk a week to do a TV show, but

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<v Speaker 3>I had to add that week to the end of

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<v Speaker 3>my contract.

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<v Speaker 1>So you're doing Sweet Charity for like nine more years.

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<v Speaker 3>Because you keep but no. So I took off a

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<v Speaker 3>week and I went out to LA and I did

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<v Speaker 3>another Cheers episode, and then I came back and I

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<v Speaker 3>did that like maybe twice. And I remember sitting backstage

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<v Speaker 3>with Michael Rupert, who was playing Oscar. He said, what

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<v Speaker 3>are you going to do when they asked you to

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<v Speaker 3>be on Cheers full time? I said, that's not going

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<v Speaker 3>to happen. They're not going to ask me to do that.

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<v Speaker 2>So what happened when they did?

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<v Speaker 3>So? They did, and I got the advice of the

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<v Speaker 3>four people that I trusted most, that is Mommy, daddyk Yes,

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<v Speaker 3>Bob Fosse, and Gwen Verdon.

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<v Speaker 2>Come on, it's funny. Those are my people too, Babe,

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<v Speaker 2>her parents, Bob.

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<v Speaker 3>So I was in a position, you know that where

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<v Speaker 3>I was working, you know, I actually could ask ask

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<v Speaker 3>them all and they all gave me brilliant advice and

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<v Speaker 3>made me feel very good about a decision to take

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<v Speaker 3>the job, because I really I had never seen myself

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<v Speaker 3>doing television. I had never saw that for myself. I

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<v Speaker 3>never thought I'm going to do this, and I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 3>do television. I just thought, I'm just going to dance

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<v Speaker 3>on Broadway forever.

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<v Speaker 1>And the accolades that you got and the you know

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<v Speaker 1>awards that you got doing that, that was that. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>it was such an important period of time to did

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<v Speaker 1>you so were you?

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<v Speaker 2>Were you married then?

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<v Speaker 3>Very badly?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh well we all have to have a starter marriage.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh I have one of those.

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<v Speaker 3>Did it happen?

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<v Speaker 2>But you were married early early, right twenty five?

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<v Speaker 3>It was a it was that was no good? That

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<v Speaker 3>was it was interesting. I was doing the best show

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<v Speaker 3>on television. I mean, it was getting awards for you know,

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<v Speaker 3>best comedy series, winning this, Emmy awards for this, and

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<v Speaker 3>I'm getting all this stuff and I'm doing really well

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<v Speaker 3>well in that an absolutely miserable marriage. It was the

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<v Speaker 3>kind of thing where I had to go, that's it,

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<v Speaker 3>it's over, and get out of there.

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<v Speaker 1>But that, I mean, that takes a lot of guts

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<v Speaker 1>and thank God that you are able to make that

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<v Speaker 1>decision for yourself. I mean, you know, it's terrifying, but

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<v Speaker 1>you knew you had to. Did that experience sort of

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<v Speaker 1>shape you in sort of how you went forward into

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<v Speaker 1>your career and your life after that? Knowing that you

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<v Speaker 1>made that decision for yourself.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't think it had anything to do with career,

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<v Speaker 3>because career and creativity has always been completely separate from

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<v Speaker 3>romantic life. So I don't think anything that happened, you know,

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<v Speaker 3>a miserable marriage and a horrible divorce didn't change the

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<v Speaker 3>way I approached the performing arts or my life in

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<v Speaker 3>it right, But I would say that I was very

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<v Speaker 3>nervous about getting involved. I'm not getting married again. Then

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<v Speaker 3>it was like, okay, I'm not going to live with

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<v Speaker 3>anyone again. It was like, okay, you can live across

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<v Speaker 3>the street from me.

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<v Speaker 2>But were there were there were there things that you

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<v Speaker 2>felt like you had to sacrifice in your personal life

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<v Speaker 2>to keep that career going at the trajectory it was on.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know. Maybe I did, but I wasn't conscious

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<v Speaker 3>of it. I don't know. I've never been, like I

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<v Speaker 3>kind of said earlier, I've never been a person who

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<v Speaker 3>plans things out. I've never been a schemer. I've never

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<v Speaker 3>been I like to say I'm not ambitious, because I

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<v Speaker 3>think of ambition as somebody sitting down with a notebook

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<v Speaker 3>and going, Okay, here's what I'm going to do, right,

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<v Speaker 3>and then in five years, I'm going to do this

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<v Speaker 3>and if I meet this person, if I do this.

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<v Speaker 3>I've never been like that. It's been it's always been like,

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<v Speaker 3>I really want to get a job. This is what

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<v Speaker 3>I want to do. I want to dance on Broadway

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<v Speaker 3>and anything that I saw that crossed my path that

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<v Speaker 3>was an audition, you know, I would go to in

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<v Speaker 3>order to do that.

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<v Speaker 1>There's something about dance that I think is I know

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<v Speaker 1>what you mean about the word ambition, but I always

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<v Speaker 1>think of it in terms of a striving.

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<v Speaker 2>You know.

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<v Speaker 1>It's that you strive to keep getting better at your craft,

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<v Speaker 1>and you dance even when it hurts, and you keep

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<v Speaker 1>going when you don't think you can go anymore. And

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<v Speaker 1>to me, that's a form of ambition. But it's really

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<v Speaker 1>just a perseverance and a striving and that can that

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<v Speaker 1>can take a toll on a person physically. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>did you find that your commitment to sort of to

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<v Speaker 1>dancing took a toll on your body physically?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh? Yeah, I'm a beat uple. Every time I go

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<v Speaker 3>to like, let's say I go to a new massage

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<v Speaker 3>therapist and they go, is there anything bothering you right now?

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<v Speaker 3>I go Okay, here we go. I am a beat

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<v Speaker 3>up old dancer. I had two hip replacements, one when

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<v Speaker 3>I was forty seven and the other when I was

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<v Speaker 3>forty nine.

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<v Speaker 2>And then did you do Chicago again after after them?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, come on, you're so you get two hip replacements,

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<v Speaker 1>then you go back into Fossy, which is all about

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<v Speaker 1>twisting it all and all of that. Was that the

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<v Speaker 1>best thing you could have ever done?

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<v Speaker 2>I mean it like, did it.

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<v Speaker 3>Make you see? No?

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<v Speaker 2>I think it was. Maybe.

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<v Speaker 1>Honestly, I think that might have been the best thing

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<v Speaker 1>for a dancer to get hip replacements and then go

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<v Speaker 1>do Fossy and know you can do it.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, yes, I mean psychologically emotionally it was extremely important.

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<v Speaker 3>But I'll tell you I was still I was. I was.

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<v Speaker 3>I was definitely off crutches. I may or may not

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<v Speaker 3>have still had a cane when I went to Barry

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<v Speaker 3>Weissler and said, I'd like to play Roxy? What do

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<v Speaker 3>you think of that? So I played Roxy six months

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<v Speaker 3>after I had my first hip replacement.

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<v Speaker 2>What was your recovery process like for your hips?

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<v Speaker 3>Well, like I say, this was this was a while ago,

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<v Speaker 3>and they had the way they do it now. You

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<v Speaker 3>are up and out and back and running around when

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<v Speaker 3>I was doing it. And it was when I said

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<v Speaker 3>I was in ballet class eight weeks after my hip replacement,

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<v Speaker 3>jaws would drop. But now people I actually said that

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<v Speaker 3>to someone, They said, really that long.

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<v Speaker 2>I was like, wow, wow.

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<v Speaker 1>But you also went in very fit and very and

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<v Speaker 1>your muscle memory as a dancer is that? Was it

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<v Speaker 1>after that that you started the Dancer's Resource Program.

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<v Speaker 3>I started the Dancer's Resource in between my two hip replacements. Actually,

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<v Speaker 3>so you.

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<v Speaker 1>Had one and then the other. Okay, you didn't get

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<v Speaker 1>them both done at this No, okay, there.

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<v Speaker 3>Was two years in between.

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<v Speaker 1>My right one was okay, so you start the Dancer's

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<v Speaker 1>Resource Program.

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<v Speaker 2>It's very important. I want you to have a chance

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<v Speaker 2>to talk about that.

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<v Speaker 3>Thank you. Well. I started the Dancers Resource after I'd

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<v Speaker 3>been through the emotional and physical trauma really of the

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<v Speaker 3>arthritis that i'd had in my hip and then the

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<v Speaker 3>subsequent replacement, and I had recovered and I was doing fine,

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<v Speaker 3>I was dancing again, but I recognized that this is

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<v Speaker 3>it's traumatic. And I had a friend who was having

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<v Speaker 3>a real, really really hard time with her hip and

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<v Speaker 3>with her surgeries, and I thought, I wish you had

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<v Speaker 3>someone to talk to about this, a therapist to talk to,

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<v Speaker 3>or someone to talk to. And so I was on

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<v Speaker 3>the board of trustees at the Actor's Fund and the

0:23:33.520 --> 0:23:37.760
<v Speaker 3>Actor's Fund which is a human services organization for everyone

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<v Speaker 3>in show business and the performing arts, and in fact

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<v Speaker 3>now it's called the Entertainment Community Fund. So I was

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<v Speaker 3>on the board of trustees and I said, can we

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<v Speaker 3>have a program for dancers? I said, it should be

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<v Speaker 3>like group therapy for injured dancers, but I'll call it

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<v Speaker 3>Injured Dancers Anonymous. It has to be private. No one

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<v Speaker 3>can know that. You know, there is so much stigma

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<v Speaker 3>around being injured. If you're a dancer and you have

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<v Speaker 3>to be so secretive about it. You cannot show weakness.

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<v Speaker 2>Because you'll be replaced, or you'll because there's someone right

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<v Speaker 2>behind you.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, it's dancers are on the bottom of the food

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<v Speaker 3>chain in the performing arts. We are the least respected,

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<v Speaker 3>We get paid less than everybody else.

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<v Speaker 2>There's no physical therapy. It's maybe five minutes a week.

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<v Speaker 3>It's really it's just we need a little bit of

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<v Speaker 3>extra help. And so we brought the idea to the

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<v Speaker 3>board and the board said yes, and bless the Fund

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<v Speaker 3>for saying yes. So Now, there is something called the

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<v Speaker 3>Dancers Resource at the Entertainment Community Fund, and it's a

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<v Speaker 3>portal to the rest of the services that the Fund

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<v Speaker 3>has to offer. But it also has these groups where

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<v Speaker 3>you can go for eight weeks of sessions and sit

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<v Speaker 3>with other dancers with a social worker who is a

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<v Speaker 3>dedicated social worker, and it's completely confidential. And I'm so

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<v Speaker 3>so pleased that it's up and going and the Fund

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<v Speaker 3>is running it so beautifully.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, you're making a huge difference in many a dancer's lives.

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<v Speaker 1>I call the show now What because it's about the

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<v Speaker 1>pivotal moments in life that sort of force us to

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<v Speaker 1>refocus and keep going. What do you think a big

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<v Speaker 1>now what moment was for you?

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know. I mean, I don't think. I consciously

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<v Speaker 3>say now what do I do? I just go, Hey,

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<v Speaker 3>it looks like I need a lawyer, but I left

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<v Speaker 3>this miserable relationship. I'd better get a lawyer, you know,

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<v Speaker 3>I owned now what?

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<v Speaker 2>I mean.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm always I'm always looking to learn from experiences. I mind,

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<v Speaker 1>now what's are all the time? Too? And I just

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<v Speaker 1>go oh, and then I pivot. I don't ever wallow

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<v Speaker 1>in the in the the inactivity. It's just not the

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<v Speaker 1>way I'm programmed. But I'm curious if there was an

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<v Speaker 1>experience that taught you something. I mean, do you ever

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<v Speaker 1>read reviews? I didn't ask you that question.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh that's the no. I don't read reviews, and I

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<v Speaker 3>don't read reviews because Bob taught me not to read reviews.

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<v Speaker 3>My family and a friend of mine and I were

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<v Speaker 3>leaving the opening night party for Sweet Charity and we

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<v Speaker 3>bumped into Bob and was coming back into the ballroom

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<v Speaker 3>and we were on our way out, and goes, where

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<v Speaker 3>are you going? Where you're going? And I'm go, oh,

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<v Speaker 3>we're going to go home. We're going to go read

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<v Speaker 3>the reviews. He goes, don't don't do that. Don't read

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<v Speaker 3>the reviews. Don't read the reviews.

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<v Speaker 2>Did he say why?

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<v Speaker 3>He didn't say it. That's all they said, don't read

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<v Speaker 3>the reviews. And he said it a couple of times.

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<v Speaker 3>And we left, and I had this little thing in

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<v Speaker 3>my mind, you know, you know, with my family and

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<v Speaker 3>all happy and la la la la lab, but there

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<v Speaker 3>is something in the back I you know, I try

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<v Speaker 3>to keep Bob's voice in the back of my mind.

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<v Speaker 3>Certainly when I'm working in the performing arts, but that

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<v Speaker 3>was deeply lodge. It was right there, and so we

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<v Speaker 3>went and got the papers, and as I read the reviews,

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<v Speaker 3>I had Bob's voice and that lesson with me. As

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<v Speaker 3>I read the reviews, and I went right, they don't

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<v Speaker 3>mean anything. There is no reason to read a review.

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<v Speaker 3>I believe this is me and everybody's a different artist

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<v Speaker 3>and they have to do what they have to do.

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<v Speaker 3>But for me, I have I said that way. I

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<v Speaker 3>have no reason to read a review. It does no good,

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<v Speaker 3>It can only harm me. What matters when I do

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<v Speaker 3>a show or perform is how I feel, how my

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<v Speaker 3>colleagues feel, how the audience in that moment feels, and

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<v Speaker 3>that's all that matters. You know, with respect to critics,

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<v Speaker 3>there are good ones or bad ones, but that's one

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<v Speaker 3>person coming in to do their job in their life,

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<v Speaker 3>to write something for their work. It has nothing to

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<v Speaker 3>do with me and my life and my work.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't read reviews either, because I read them years

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<v Speaker 1>and years back, and I read them because I wanted approval,

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<v Speaker 1>and I wanted a pat on my back and I

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<v Speaker 1>wanted to be told I was doing a good job.

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<v Speaker 1>And it has had nothing to do with what I

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<v Speaker 1>was going to do the next night, the next show,

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<v Speaker 1>And if someone said I sucked, was I going to

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<v Speaker 1>go out on stage and just stand there and say,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sorry, I suck.

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<v Speaker 2>I can't give you a show that you just paid for.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, what we do is, you know, if you're an

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<v Speaker 3>artist or a creative person or a crafts person, it

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<v Speaker 3>is a at least for me, it is a deeply,

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<v Speaker 3>deeply personal, very profound experience. It is so personal it

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<v Speaker 3>has nothing to do with anybody else I work with

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<v Speaker 3>and share that with my colleagues. I share it with

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<v Speaker 3>my choreographer, director, music director, and we make something and

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<v Speaker 3>it is always very very deep and profound and personal

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<v Speaker 3>to me. To have somebody come in and, you know,

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<v Speaker 3>to go, oh, let's see what this stranger says about me,

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<v Speaker 3>it just doesn't make sense. But it wasn't until I

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<v Speaker 3>had the voice of an artist who I trusted completely,

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<v Speaker 3>Bob Fosse. I completely trusted him, and I trusted that

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<v Speaker 3>he saw me and who I was as a performer

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<v Speaker 3>that when he said that, I just he said jump.

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<v Speaker 3>I said how high? I know that will be best

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<v Speaker 3>for me. So when he says don't read reviews. It's

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<v Speaker 3>because it's the right thing to not do.

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<v Speaker 1>That was a wildly talented bb Newarth. If you liked

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<v Speaker 1>our interview, check out her work in Julia. It's streaming

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<v Speaker 1>now on HBO mex That's it for us today.

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<v Speaker 2>Talk to you next week.

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<v Speaker 3>Now.

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<v Speaker 1>What with Burkeshields is a production of iHeartRadio. Our lead

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<v Speaker 1>producer and wonderful showrunner is Julia Weaver. Additional research and

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<v Speaker 1>editing by Darby Masters and Abu Zafar. Our executive producer

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<v Speaker 1>is Christina Everett. The show is mixed by Vahid Fraser.