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Speaker 1: Hello. Welcome to More Better, a podcast where we stop

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Speaker 1: pretending to have it all together and embrace the journey

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Speaker 1: becoming a little more better every day, or at least

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Speaker 1: trying to. That's that. Oh oh and I'm Who'm Stephanie Beatrice. Nice,

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Speaker 1: nicely done. Welcome back to the podcast. Guys. How's it going,

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Speaker 1: how's your morning drive, how's your brushing your teeth? How's

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Speaker 1: So I appreciate you carry I meant to text you earlier.

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Speaker 1: you remember, like once I one of the most romantic things,

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00:25:33,960 --> 00:25:37,560
Speaker 1: and it wasn't like an outwardly romantic move. But I

425
00:25:37,680 --> 00:25:40,359
Speaker 1: used to save things from my relationships because you know,

426
00:25:40,480 --> 00:25:43,760
Speaker 1: somebody writes you poems and it's like, that's so beautiful, right. Yeah.

427
00:25:43,840 --> 00:25:47,639
Speaker 1: But when I fell in love with Brad after a while,

428
00:25:48,119 --> 00:25:50,680
Speaker 1: and it was maybe before we were it was before

429
00:25:50,680 --> 00:25:55,399
Speaker 1: we were engaged anything, but I remember going through my

430
00:25:55,480 --> 00:25:58,040
Speaker 1: keepsafe boxes for some reason, I was like, oh, I

431
00:25:58,040 --> 00:25:59,640
Speaker 1: can get rid of all these things. I don't need

432
00:25:59,680 --> 00:26:04,399
Speaker 1: these yours anymore. I don't need these ornaments that you know,

433
00:26:04,560 --> 00:26:06,520
Speaker 1: have a picture of me and another person. And I

434
00:26:06,600 --> 00:26:09,679
Speaker 1: was like, somebody make you ornaments, girl. I made the

435
00:26:09,760 --> 00:26:12,720
Speaker 1: ornaments which will tell you about that relationship, you know.

436
00:26:13,240 --> 00:26:17,679
Speaker 1: I was like, I love me, but like, but I

437
00:26:17,720 --> 00:26:19,639
Speaker 1: threw away all that stuff, Like I threw away all

438
00:26:19,680 --> 00:26:25,040
Speaker 1: the cards and letters and things from the past because

439
00:26:25,119 --> 00:26:28,560
Speaker 1: like to me, and it's just specific to me, but

440
00:26:28,680 --> 00:26:31,679
Speaker 1: like to me, I didn't need them anymore because I

441
00:26:31,680 --> 00:26:34,439
Speaker 1: had found the person that I wanted to be to

442
00:26:34,520 --> 00:26:36,720
Speaker 1: have those expressions with, and I didn't need to look

443
00:26:36,720 --> 00:26:39,280
Speaker 1: back anymore. The memories were enough kind of like, yeah,

444
00:26:39,440 --> 00:26:41,760
Speaker 1: to save the stack of poems. It gave me the eck.

445
00:26:42,240 --> 00:26:45,440
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, yeah yeah. What are your What are your

446
00:26:45,520 --> 00:26:50,960
Speaker 1: thoughts on Valentine's Day? I personally really like Valentine's Day.

447
00:26:51,040 --> 00:26:55,400
Speaker 1: I hate that it makes everything so expensive. Yes, it's

448
00:26:55,520 --> 00:26:58,720
Speaker 1: annoying that, you know, everyone's trying to outdo each other

449
00:26:58,800 --> 00:27:01,080
Speaker 1: and stuff. One of the most romantic things I ever

450
00:27:01,119 --> 00:27:03,119
Speaker 1: did for Brad was when we first started dating. I

451
00:27:03,119 --> 00:27:08,600
Speaker 1: got him a bouquet of meat. It was like sausages.

452
00:27:09,040 --> 00:27:14,160
Speaker 1: Oh my god, that is amazing it that is up

453
00:27:14,280 --> 00:27:17,119
Speaker 1: his alley. Yeah. He's a big he loves food. He

454
00:27:17,200 --> 00:27:23,120
Speaker 1: loves like eating and you know, speaking of like that

455
00:27:23,280 --> 00:27:26,040
Speaker 1: was one of the most romantic moments ever that I've

456
00:27:26,160 --> 00:27:29,040
Speaker 1: ever had with anyone. Was the two of us on

457
00:27:29,080 --> 00:27:33,320
Speaker 1: our honeymoon in Japan eating at this really really special

458
00:27:33,840 --> 00:27:39,040
Speaker 1: pizza place. And I don't think it's open anymore, but

459
00:27:39,119 --> 00:27:41,439
Speaker 1: it was this chef who all he made was like

460
00:27:41,440 --> 00:27:42,919
Speaker 1: three different kinds of pizza. Is kind of like a

461
00:27:42,920 --> 00:27:45,840
Speaker 1: sushi chef, you know, like that's what he did, and

462
00:27:45,880 --> 00:27:48,919
Speaker 1: they were so perfect and so good. And while we

463
00:27:48,920 --> 00:27:50,920
Speaker 1: were sitting there, he made us like a special pizza

464
00:27:51,040 --> 00:27:53,159
Speaker 1: and we were like in our cups, you know, like

465
00:27:53,240 --> 00:27:56,800
Speaker 1: drinking whiskey, like highballs and stuff. And one of the

466
00:27:56,800 --> 00:27:59,639
Speaker 1: reasons it was so romantic was because before I met Brad,

467
00:27:59,680 --> 00:28:05,320
Speaker 1: I had really hard time with my body image and food. Yeah,

468
00:28:05,359 --> 00:28:08,960
Speaker 1: and he really was the first person that I was

469
00:28:09,040 --> 00:28:14,000
Speaker 1: with that really opened the opened my mind to like

470
00:28:14,440 --> 00:28:19,080
Speaker 1: you can enjoy food and not like close yourself off

471
00:28:19,119 --> 00:28:22,280
Speaker 1: to the joy of eating and the joy of celebrating

472
00:28:22,320 --> 00:28:24,199
Speaker 1: through food and doesn't have to be this thing that

473
00:28:24,240 --> 00:28:27,480
Speaker 1: you're battling and fighting all the time, and like you

474
00:28:27,520 --> 00:28:30,520
Speaker 1: can have pizza and be happy. And like I remember

475
00:28:30,520 --> 00:28:33,119
Speaker 1: being like real drunk, but like you know, eating our

476
00:28:33,400 --> 00:28:36,120
Speaker 1: for pizza on our honeymoon and like crying and being like.

477
00:28:36,119 --> 00:28:38,239
Speaker 3: I just never thought I would feel like this, and

478
00:28:38,320 --> 00:28:41,200
Speaker 3: you made me like see this about myself and.

479
00:28:41,080 --> 00:28:45,480
Speaker 1: It's so beautiful, Like I'll never forget it. I know,

480
00:28:45,560 --> 00:28:49,240
Speaker 1: I'll never forget it. So dinky and dumb, just like

481
00:28:49,280 --> 00:28:52,360
Speaker 1: the two of us, like no pizza, so special and

482
00:28:52,440 --> 00:28:55,000
Speaker 1: it is it's so romantic, and that is it was.

483
00:28:56,000 --> 00:28:58,120
Speaker 1: It was very romantic and it was really special because

484
00:28:58,120 --> 00:29:00,920
Speaker 1: it's like he like he changed my life in that way,

485
00:29:01,040 --> 00:29:04,480
Speaker 1: like you change my life in that way. I know,

486
00:29:04,600 --> 00:29:07,040
Speaker 1: you guys are so good at going out to dinners

487
00:29:07,160 --> 00:29:11,120
Speaker 1: and like he loves to go out, so that's yeah, yeah,

488
00:29:11,160 --> 00:29:14,280
Speaker 1: but I love that. Yeah, anytime I need a review

489
00:29:14,280 --> 00:29:16,160
Speaker 1: in a new restaurant, I just have to ask you.

490
00:29:16,280 --> 00:29:19,400
Speaker 1: Let us know we're out of I mean, like to

491
00:29:19,440 --> 00:29:22,560
Speaker 1: be fair. We also my sister lives so close by

492
00:29:22,640 --> 00:29:25,160
Speaker 1: that like we have babysitter, like right right, right, Yeah,

493
00:29:25,200 --> 00:29:27,800
Speaker 1: we have a babysitter that's like almost on call because

494
00:29:27,840 --> 00:29:30,360
Speaker 1: she's like, yeah, hang out with my niece. I would

495
00:29:30,360 --> 00:29:34,080
Speaker 1: love to. Yeah yeah, yeah that's huge, Yeah for sure. Yeah,

496
00:29:34,720 --> 00:29:38,120
Speaker 1: not everybody has that. Yeah what about you? What's like

497
00:29:38,160 --> 00:29:41,440
Speaker 1: the most like romantic thing you've ever done for slash

498
00:29:41,560 --> 00:29:44,160
Speaker 1: has been done for you or I guess, like what's

499
00:29:44,760 --> 00:29:47,680
Speaker 1: like a really like beautiful romantic moment that you've had.

500
00:29:48,000 --> 00:29:51,479
Speaker 1: It doesn't have to be a Valentine's moment? Yeah, I

501
00:29:51,600 --> 00:29:55,520
Speaker 1: you know. We actually, uh, we kind of hate Valentine's

502
00:29:55,560 --> 00:30:01,680
Speaker 1: Day until until recently because the first few years that

503
00:30:01,720 --> 00:30:05,320
Speaker 1: we were dating, pretty much all of our close friends

504
00:30:05,320 --> 00:30:08,840
Speaker 1: were single and we hated that there was this day

505
00:30:08,880 --> 00:30:11,440
Speaker 1: that kind of made them feel crummy, left out, yeah,

506
00:30:11,440 --> 00:30:15,120
Speaker 1: and left out and so we would like sometimes try

507
00:30:15,160 --> 00:30:17,280
Speaker 1: to hang out with our friends and like do more

508
00:30:17,280 --> 00:30:19,520
Speaker 1: of a friend thing. And this is like before Gallentine's

509
00:30:19,600 --> 00:30:23,200
Speaker 1: Day was a thing, and but we were just like

510
00:30:23,320 --> 00:30:24,200
Speaker 1: fuck this holiday.

511
00:30:24,240 --> 00:30:27,440
Speaker 2: Man, So it makes people feel bad. You don't like

512
00:30:27,480 --> 00:30:31,560
Speaker 2: it all the commercialism. I think some damn expensive this day.

513
00:30:31,760 --> 00:30:34,560
Speaker 2: Like we had that attitude for a long time.

514
00:30:35,200 --> 00:30:35,960
Speaker 3: And then.

515
00:30:37,520 --> 00:30:42,080
Speaker 1: Axel was born on Valentine's Day and so so now

516
00:30:42,120 --> 00:30:44,600
Speaker 1: we love it. But it's got a different you know

517
00:30:44,760 --> 00:30:47,280
Speaker 1: thing for us. But we do like for his birthday,

518
00:30:47,320 --> 00:30:50,160
Speaker 1: we decorate with hearts, and we like really lean into

519
00:30:50,160 --> 00:30:53,959
Speaker 1: the Valentine's Day of it all, which he loves and

520
00:30:54,000 --> 00:30:57,280
Speaker 1: he like loves at his birthdays on a holiday, and

521
00:30:57,680 --> 00:30:59,800
Speaker 1: so we have this different relationship. I'm trying to think

522
00:31:00,480 --> 00:31:04,280
Speaker 1: a romantic thing. Oh you know what, there was one

523
00:31:04,400 --> 00:31:07,280
Speaker 1: year I think it might have been an anniversary or something,

524
00:31:07,360 --> 00:31:09,440
Speaker 1: and it was like we both kind of forgot to

525
00:31:09,560 --> 00:31:12,600
Speaker 1: the last minute that it was anniversary and we were

526
00:31:12,680 --> 00:31:16,360
Speaker 1: really busy and we didn't have a child care you know,

527
00:31:16,520 --> 00:31:21,400
Speaker 1: like no babysitter available, and so I ended up ordering

528
00:31:22,040 --> 00:31:27,960
Speaker 1: food from Petitois. Oh so ordering all this like French

529
00:31:28,000 --> 00:31:32,200
Speaker 1: food because we both really love French food and lighting

530
00:31:32,200 --> 00:31:34,880
Speaker 1: a fire, and after he put the kids to bed,

531
00:31:35,120 --> 00:31:39,080
Speaker 1: we just literally sat on the floor like around our

532
00:31:39,160 --> 00:31:41,520
Speaker 1: coffee table in front of the fire and just ate

533
00:31:41,600 --> 00:31:45,400
Speaker 1: food and drank wine and like talked and he was

534
00:31:45,440 --> 00:31:49,440
Speaker 1: like I love like, thank you so much. I love this.

535
00:31:49,440 --> 00:31:52,680
Speaker 1: This is so nice. And I was like, oh, this

536
00:31:52,960 --> 00:31:55,120
Speaker 1: it doesn't again going back to like it doesn't have

537
00:31:55,160 --> 00:31:56,880
Speaker 1: to be a grand gesture. It doesn't have to be

538
00:31:56,920 --> 00:32:01,280
Speaker 1: a huge thing. Like it was so meaningful to him,

539
00:32:01,560 --> 00:32:04,600
Speaker 1: and it was like a beautiful way to spend an anniversary.

540
00:32:04,640 --> 00:32:07,120
Speaker 1: Like it was beautiful. It was so nice. Yeah, you

541
00:32:07,200 --> 00:32:09,440
Speaker 1: loved it, and we talked about it for years. We

542
00:32:09,440 --> 00:32:10,400
Speaker 1: would be like remember that.

543
00:32:10,360 --> 00:32:12,120
Speaker 3: Time, like you know, and then you get busy and

544
00:32:12,120 --> 00:32:14,800
Speaker 3: you're like we should do that again, Like, yeah, we

545
00:32:14,840 --> 00:32:15,600
Speaker 3: should do that.

546
00:32:15,800 --> 00:32:19,160
Speaker 1: We should do that again. That's also like that's the

547
00:32:19,240 --> 00:32:22,960
Speaker 1: kind of stuff that you especially when you have a

548
00:32:23,040 --> 00:32:25,840
Speaker 1: busy life. And this is anybody, but like especially when

549
00:32:25,880 --> 00:32:28,360
Speaker 1: you have a busy life and your things are hectic

550
00:32:28,400 --> 00:32:31,000
Speaker 1: and you're under a lot of stress, it's like taking

551
00:32:31,240 --> 00:32:35,120
Speaker 1: a little time aside for yourself in that way, And like,

552
00:32:35,360 --> 00:32:37,400
Speaker 1: I guess that's why I like Valentine's day because it's

553
00:32:37,440 --> 00:32:39,280
Speaker 1: like do it on this day, you know, because right

554
00:32:39,400 --> 00:32:42,080
Speaker 1: it kind of times forces it. Yeah, you just like

555
00:32:42,200 --> 00:32:44,280
Speaker 1: forget to do it, or you'll do it later, or

556
00:32:44,280 --> 00:32:46,400
Speaker 1: you'll do it later, and you'll do it later and

557
00:32:46,480 --> 00:32:49,520
Speaker 1: like yeah, and then later doesn't come or you don't

558
00:32:49,520 --> 00:32:52,400
Speaker 1: get a chance to or things get busier, and like

559
00:32:52,560 --> 00:32:56,840
Speaker 1: you keep putting it off, and suddenly it's like you're

560
00:32:56,880 --> 00:32:58,640
Speaker 1: looking at this person that you love and you're going

561
00:32:59,000 --> 00:33:00,920
Speaker 1: don't feel like connected to and I don't know why

562
00:33:01,000 --> 00:33:03,320
Speaker 1: I love you, but I get to see you all

563
00:33:03,320 --> 00:33:06,000
Speaker 1: the time or whatever it is, you know. Yeah, Yeah,

564
00:33:06,040 --> 00:33:09,560
Speaker 1: And I think that's ultimately like what all romance is

565
00:33:09,760 --> 00:33:13,280
Speaker 1: is just like connecting reconnecting, you know what I mean.

566
00:33:13,520 --> 00:33:16,560
Speaker 1: Like it can just be a random fun day at

567
00:33:16,600 --> 00:33:21,200
Speaker 1: the beach and it's a romantic like culture. Yeah, you know.

568
00:33:21,520 --> 00:33:26,800
Speaker 1: So it's you know, it's important to I think, remind

569
00:33:26,840 --> 00:33:29,680
Speaker 1: ourselves to not go too long without those little moments

570
00:33:29,720 --> 00:33:31,640
Speaker 1: and that they don't have to be big. They can

571
00:33:31,680 --> 00:33:35,240
Speaker 1: be really tiny too. On the flip side, I will say,

572
00:33:36,520 --> 00:33:40,640
Speaker 1: I will say, especially when I'm working a lot, yeah

573
00:33:41,480 --> 00:33:48,600
Speaker 1: I do need not necessarily a romantic gesture, but I

574
00:33:48,600 --> 00:33:51,320
Speaker 1: guess what I need is like, like, I I'm not

575
00:33:51,440 --> 00:33:54,840
Speaker 1: in a space to be thinking about romance most of

576
00:33:54,920 --> 00:33:58,240
Speaker 1: the time while working, you know, I'm like so in

577
00:33:58,360 --> 00:34:01,120
Speaker 1: it and the hours are long and I'm in it,

578
00:34:01,240 --> 00:34:04,800
Speaker 1: in it, and so when I come home, I'm just

579
00:34:04,840 --> 00:34:07,200
Speaker 1: like I washed my face, I take a shower. I'm like, yeah,

580
00:34:07,280 --> 00:34:11,879
Speaker 1: in bed, studying lines or whatever. And so when I have,

581
00:34:12,560 --> 00:34:14,920
Speaker 1: you know, multiple weeks in a row like that and

582
00:34:14,960 --> 00:34:19,480
Speaker 1: there's no break or something. Brad planned when we were

583
00:34:19,480 --> 00:34:22,719
Speaker 1: in Toronto, he planned a surprise for me and he

584
00:34:22,840 --> 00:34:26,000
Speaker 1: was like, get in the car, We're going somewhere this Saturday.

585
00:34:26,000 --> 00:34:29,080
Speaker 1: And I was like okay, And we ended up going

586
00:34:29,120 --> 00:34:32,200
Speaker 1: to the Four Seasons and he had like booked me

587
00:34:32,280 --> 00:34:36,200
Speaker 1: a massage and I was like, this is amazing. And

588
00:34:36,239 --> 00:34:38,680
Speaker 1: I had the massage and it was so nice and

589
00:34:38,800 --> 00:34:41,640
Speaker 1: like my body was all beat up from the show

590
00:34:41,760 --> 00:34:45,000
Speaker 1: and like and then after the massage, I went to

591
00:34:45,040 --> 00:34:46,960
Speaker 1: go you know, he was like, just meet me after

592
00:34:47,000 --> 00:34:48,359
Speaker 1: and then you know, we can pay and go back

593
00:34:48,400 --> 00:34:51,160
Speaker 1: home and like I go to the counter to pay

594
00:34:51,200 --> 00:34:52,480
Speaker 1: and they're like, oh, this is for you, and it's

595
00:34:52,520 --> 00:34:55,680
Speaker 1: a room key and like he'd got us a room

596
00:34:55,920 --> 00:34:58,920
Speaker 1: there with our credit card points because Brad, it's very smart.

597
00:35:01,280 --> 00:35:04,600
Speaker 1: That allowed us to have some time to like drinks

598
00:35:04,600 --> 00:35:06,799
Speaker 1: at their rooftop bar. And it was like it was

599
00:35:07,040 --> 00:35:10,400
Speaker 1: really nice because we didn't we hadn't done anything like

600
00:35:10,440 --> 00:35:16,000
Speaker 1: that in that way months. You know, good job, Brad. Yeah,

601
00:35:16,120 --> 00:35:21,360
Speaker 1: he's really he really like thinks about Yeah, really tries

602
00:35:21,400 --> 00:35:25,600
Speaker 1: really hard and romantic and romantic. Yeah, that's very romantic.

603
00:35:25,960 --> 00:35:32,640
Speaker 1: I think it's necessary too. However, it's showing up in

604
00:35:32,680 --> 00:35:36,239
Speaker 1: your relationship. It definitely is something that like falls by

605
00:35:36,239 --> 00:35:39,440
Speaker 1: the wayside a lot, because very easy to fall by

606
00:35:39,440 --> 00:35:42,600
Speaker 1: the way. It's very easy to fall by the wayside.

607
00:35:43,160 --> 00:35:46,879
Speaker 1: At this turned into like very much like you know,

608
00:35:47,080 --> 00:35:51,279
Speaker 1: how how much more of it I actually have in

609
00:35:51,320 --> 00:35:53,759
Speaker 1: my life than I think? Because I was like, oh, no,

610
00:35:53,960 --> 00:35:57,239
Speaker 1: I don't know, I don't have any that's what you do,

611
00:35:57,520 --> 00:36:05,759
Speaker 1: that's true, Yeah, I do more better? Do you feel

612
00:36:05,760 --> 00:36:08,120
Speaker 1: a little more better than about romance? And when we started, Oh,

613
00:36:08,400 --> 00:36:11,000
Speaker 1: I actually think I'm like kind of no, I'm not

614
00:36:11,000 --> 00:36:13,800
Speaker 1: gonna be like I'm nailing it, but I'm I'm certainly

615
00:36:13,840 --> 00:36:16,839
Speaker 1: doing better than you thought. Yeah, this is the thing

616
00:36:16,880 --> 00:36:19,560
Speaker 1: about like talking about this stuff on this podcast because

617
00:36:20,080 --> 00:36:21,880
Speaker 1: and I hope this is what people get out of

618
00:36:21,920 --> 00:36:24,480
Speaker 1: it too. It's like most of the time we're usually

619
00:36:24,520 --> 00:36:28,040
Speaker 1: doing more better than we thought. Yeah, you know, so true,

620
00:36:28,200 --> 00:36:32,160
Speaker 1: and like that's the important thing we kind of get

621
00:36:32,200 --> 00:36:34,839
Speaker 1: out of every episode is like just talking about it.

622
00:36:34,840 --> 00:36:36,959
Speaker 1: It's almost like a check in and it's like, oh, wait,

623
00:36:37,239 --> 00:36:39,960
Speaker 1: maybe it's not as bad as I thought. Like we're

624
00:36:39,960 --> 00:36:44,399
Speaker 1: doing okay, it's failing areas, but I'm not failing. I'm

625
00:36:44,400 --> 00:36:52,320
Speaker 1: not like totally failing at this. No, yeah, probably yeah,

626
00:36:52,440 --> 00:36:55,520
Speaker 1: I mean listen same anyways, this is me announcing my

627
00:36:55,560 --> 00:36:59,799
Speaker 1: divorce here on the thought that was a joke. That

628
00:36:59,840 --> 00:37:02,879
Speaker 1: was joke joke, joke, joke, joke, joke, joke, joke, joke, joke,

629
00:37:03,000 --> 00:37:05,920
Speaker 1: joke joke. At you do you feel more better about this?

630
00:37:06,360 --> 00:37:08,560
Speaker 1: But I do feel more better about this. And I

631
00:37:08,600 --> 00:37:11,399
Speaker 1: also feel like this was a reminder to like, you know,

632
00:37:11,600 --> 00:37:14,240
Speaker 1: it's been life has been hectic and chaotic and busy,

633
00:37:14,440 --> 00:37:16,640
Speaker 1: and like we need we need to we need to

634
00:37:16,680 --> 00:37:19,239
Speaker 1: do something soon. You should do that again, like just

635
00:37:19,280 --> 00:37:22,200
Speaker 1: surprise him with like some kind of crazy ordering and

636
00:37:22,239 --> 00:37:25,000
Speaker 1: don't yeah you're doing it. Yeah, like we need a

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Speaker 1: You know, it's a lot, and so, like you said,

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Speaker 1: so busy. So this was a good like check in

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Speaker 1: reminder for me. Yeah, Happy Valentine's Today, Happy Valentine's Day

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Speaker 1: two those who celebrate. And also, if you hate it,

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Speaker 1: that's great, that's great. We have no judgment about it

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Speaker 1: because I also kind of hate it. We get it,

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Speaker 1: except it's my son's birthday. I love that part of it,

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Speaker 1: but the other part of it, I don't like. That

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Speaker 1: part's cute. That part's cute. Okay, guys, we'll see you

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Speaker 1: featured on the pod. Ooh, More Better with Stephanie Melissa

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Speaker 1: is a production from Wvsound and iHeartMedia's Mikultura podcast network.

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Speaker 1: Hosted by Me, Stephanie Beatriz and Melissa Fumero. More Better

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Speaker 1: is produced by Isis Madrid and Sophie Spencer Zabos. Our

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Speaker 1: executive producers are Wilmer Valderrama and Leo Klem at Wvsound.

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Speaker 1: This episode was edited by Isis Madrid and engineered by

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Speaker 1: Sean Tracy and features original music by Madison Davenport and

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Speaker 1: hey Loo Boy. Our cover art is by Vincent Remis

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Speaker 1: mm hmmmm oo. Tokitomas Mayhor