1 00:00:00,440 --> 00:00:06,440 Speaker 1: And you Martinez in real life podcast. I was reapy 2 00:00:06,480 --> 00:00:09,600 Speaker 1: to be here. So when I saw you, I was 3 00:00:09,640 --> 00:00:11,880 Speaker 1: somewhere where was that when you DM? I was like, 4 00:00:11,920 --> 00:00:15,720 Speaker 1: oh my god, J teaches DM. I want to way. 5 00:00:15,800 --> 00:00:17,960 Speaker 1: I'm like, I want to do this. Where were you 6 00:00:17,960 --> 00:00:20,120 Speaker 1: with me when she podcasts? Yeah? You sent me this, 7 00:00:20,280 --> 00:00:22,119 Speaker 1: you sent you told me the d M. Yes, Like 8 00:00:22,239 --> 00:00:24,480 Speaker 1: I want to do this podcast. It's like, this is 9 00:00:24,840 --> 00:00:28,480 Speaker 1: so like elevating. I'm like, if I'm like the youngest person, 10 00:00:28,520 --> 00:00:32,320 Speaker 1: I'm you. Are you the baby, the baby in the podcast? 11 00:00:32,520 --> 00:00:34,959 Speaker 1: I feel like everybody should like properly welcome j T. Though. 12 00:00:35,000 --> 00:00:45,960 Speaker 1: I feel like j J ch j T is the 13 00:00:45,960 --> 00:00:51,400 Speaker 1: baby of the podcast. So lucky. I'm so happy happy, 14 00:00:51,560 --> 00:00:55,200 Speaker 1: I'm so happy happy. I was mine of my business. 15 00:00:55,280 --> 00:00:57,760 Speaker 1: I was. I was sitting somewhere with and I was 16 00:00:57,880 --> 00:00:59,840 Speaker 1: just talking about the podcast and how great I was 17 00:01:00,040 --> 00:01:02,400 Speaker 1: about some episode. Oh, it was at Fat Joe's house. 18 00:01:02,440 --> 00:01:05,039 Speaker 1: That's where I was at Fat Joe's house. His wife 19 00:01:05,080 --> 00:01:06,400 Speaker 1: is one of my best friends. Who were sitting there 20 00:01:06,400 --> 00:01:09,880 Speaker 1: eat and talking about the podcast, and um, I was 21 00:01:09,920 --> 00:01:11,759 Speaker 1: telling them how great an episode I had just shot 22 00:01:11,840 --> 00:01:14,319 Speaker 1: to Roger bi Henson's episode. We're talking about it and 23 00:01:14,360 --> 00:01:17,160 Speaker 1: then you d have me out of nowhere and I 24 00:01:17,200 --> 00:01:19,320 Speaker 1: was like, she said you should I want to do 25 00:01:19,400 --> 00:01:22,720 Speaker 1: the show. Yes, I said Jim, she said she wants 26 00:01:22,720 --> 00:01:25,960 Speaker 1: to the show. I thought it was so thought the show. Yeah, 27 00:01:26,000 --> 00:01:27,960 Speaker 1: I love your show. I watch you. I'm so much 28 00:01:28,000 --> 00:01:31,120 Speaker 1: share on Alon like I just I was, I'm like 29 00:01:31,440 --> 00:01:33,520 Speaker 1: a my age to go on this show, like I 30 00:01:34,360 --> 00:01:37,080 Speaker 1: stop right now, no, and I'm no shade, like no 31 00:01:37,160 --> 00:01:39,280 Speaker 1: shade because I love everybody that comes on the show. 32 00:01:39,319 --> 00:01:40,800 Speaker 1: But I was like, it's this just like a show 33 00:01:40,840 --> 00:01:43,480 Speaker 1: for mature people who should have eggs or like should 34 00:01:43,480 --> 00:01:45,399 Speaker 1: I have my team? And I'm like, she'll see my 35 00:01:45,440 --> 00:01:47,760 Speaker 1: d M faster. It made me so happy because I 36 00:01:47,800 --> 00:01:49,520 Speaker 1: don't want it to be for one for just like 37 00:01:49,560 --> 00:01:51,600 Speaker 1: the first couple of guests I had with all women, 38 00:01:51,680 --> 00:01:53,200 Speaker 1: and I was like, I don't want guys to think 39 00:01:53,200 --> 00:01:55,240 Speaker 1: it's just for women. But I don't want nobody to 40 00:01:55,240 --> 00:01:56,920 Speaker 1: feel like that because I feel like real life is 41 00:01:56,960 --> 00:01:59,480 Speaker 1: real life for everybody, Like your real life is very 42 00:01:59,480 --> 00:02:01,880 Speaker 1: different than some of my other guests, but that's what 43 00:02:01,960 --> 00:02:04,680 Speaker 1: it's about. It's like what do you what is your 44 00:02:04,720 --> 00:02:07,240 Speaker 1: what is your real life like? And what are you 45 00:02:07,440 --> 00:02:09,840 Speaker 1: going through and what are you, what are your challenges 46 00:02:09,880 --> 00:02:12,000 Speaker 1: in your dreams and the things that we could because 47 00:02:12,000 --> 00:02:13,639 Speaker 1: we can all learn from each other. I don't think 48 00:02:13,680 --> 00:02:15,760 Speaker 1: this age on that. I don't think that. I don't 49 00:02:15,800 --> 00:02:17,920 Speaker 1: think that. And that's what I was saying. I was like, Okay, 50 00:02:18,000 --> 00:02:19,840 Speaker 1: let me just sneaking. But I'm glad you said that, 51 00:02:19,840 --> 00:02:23,680 Speaker 1: because I feel like your podcast has ranged and it's 52 00:02:23,760 --> 00:02:27,240 Speaker 1: by it's like everybody, like so many people I look 53 00:02:27,280 --> 00:02:29,639 Speaker 1: up so came on your show. Like, so, I'm like, 54 00:02:30,040 --> 00:02:31,679 Speaker 1: which one don't you watch? Tuppy right now? It's like 55 00:02:31,720 --> 00:02:36,600 Speaker 1: a good guys. I watched Lord London, Um, Kelly Rowlands, 56 00:02:36,880 --> 00:02:41,760 Speaker 1: I watched it's one more personal depitely watched Kim Kardashian's on, 57 00:02:42,120 --> 00:02:44,840 Speaker 1: but it's one more person like in between there. I 58 00:02:44,840 --> 00:02:50,640 Speaker 1: don't was one of the guys was that Ashantish? It 59 00:02:50,680 --> 00:02:53,040 Speaker 1: was Ashanti? It was Ashanti. So you watched all the girls, 60 00:02:53,040 --> 00:02:54,720 Speaker 1: you didn't watching them the guys you didn't watch Mike 61 00:02:54,720 --> 00:02:57,280 Speaker 1: Tyson didn't watch us so no, no, no, no no, I 62 00:02:57,320 --> 00:02:59,640 Speaker 1: didn't watch some of US. I didn't watch the full thing. 63 00:02:59,680 --> 00:03:01,680 Speaker 1: I'm a week fan of ushers, so I watched some 64 00:03:01,760 --> 00:03:03,800 Speaker 1: of Usher, but I did not finish it out, but 65 00:03:03,840 --> 00:03:06,200 Speaker 1: I finished all the women because I'm such a I 66 00:03:06,240 --> 00:03:08,960 Speaker 1: feel like I learned so much from women. Like I 67 00:03:09,120 --> 00:03:11,240 Speaker 1: funk with men too, but I feel like I learned 68 00:03:11,280 --> 00:03:14,120 Speaker 1: so much about from women, Like I don't really care 69 00:03:14,160 --> 00:03:16,760 Speaker 1: what a man things like that. No, I don't like 70 00:03:16,919 --> 00:03:18,640 Speaker 1: I learned from women more than a man. A man 71 00:03:18,720 --> 00:03:22,359 Speaker 1: can't teach me nothing for real, Like for real, you're 72 00:03:22,400 --> 00:03:25,040 Speaker 1: talking about Lauren London and how much she's I love 73 00:03:25,160 --> 00:03:28,799 Speaker 1: Lauren London. Both of us are said, so she always 74 00:03:27,639 --> 00:03:31,360 Speaker 1: be Yeah, she always seeing me with the most positive 75 00:03:31,520 --> 00:03:34,680 Speaker 1: one point information about myself. I feel like how to fun, 76 00:03:34,840 --> 00:03:37,360 Speaker 1: you know? But she s gifted. I wish she talked 77 00:03:37,360 --> 00:03:40,880 Speaker 1: more and she always talks to me like if I 78 00:03:40,960 --> 00:03:42,680 Speaker 1: might not even on the internet for a long time. 79 00:03:42,760 --> 00:03:45,280 Speaker 1: She's just randomly DM me and me like let see 80 00:03:45,320 --> 00:03:48,280 Speaker 1: your head in it like like she's just so positive, 81 00:03:48,400 --> 00:03:53,960 Speaker 1: Like and have you met her in person? Only we 82 00:03:54,080 --> 00:03:56,600 Speaker 1: DM friends. But Lauren was like one of the first person, 83 00:03:56,760 --> 00:03:59,120 Speaker 1: first people to show the city girls love. Like I 84 00:03:59,160 --> 00:04:02,360 Speaker 1: remember she she uploaded sweet Tooth. I was like, how 85 00:04:02,360 --> 00:04:07,920 Speaker 1: to fund you noticed on she knows? She definitely she knows. 86 00:04:08,080 --> 00:04:10,720 Speaker 1: I appreciate it so much. Because she always say I 87 00:04:10,760 --> 00:04:13,000 Speaker 1: know how I said. It's Harry said, you're going to 88 00:04:13,040 --> 00:04:15,240 Speaker 1: your show. I'm like, yeah, I just don't sunk with 89 00:04:15,280 --> 00:04:17,159 Speaker 1: it in there right now, Like I'm just gonna be away. 90 00:04:17,400 --> 00:04:20,520 Speaker 1: That's so cute. She's the best. I call her too, 91 00:04:20,560 --> 00:04:22,000 Speaker 1: but sometimes like yo, what do you think about this? 92 00:04:22,000 --> 00:04:24,400 Speaker 1: And she's like a person, like I trust her. I 93 00:04:24,480 --> 00:04:27,000 Speaker 1: just trust her judgment and stuff. She needs to talk more, Yeah, 94 00:04:27,040 --> 00:04:29,480 Speaker 1: she do right, because you know, like growing up, I 95 00:04:29,600 --> 00:04:32,200 Speaker 1: used to think pretty faces don't go through anything. Huh. 96 00:04:32,560 --> 00:04:34,760 Speaker 1: I think if you're pretty, you're not going with nothing. 97 00:04:35,279 --> 00:04:37,440 Speaker 1: And she's so pretty. Yeah, she's so beautiful. It so 98 00:04:37,640 --> 00:04:39,400 Speaker 1: like if you're pretty, you won't go through nothing. So 99 00:04:39,480 --> 00:04:40,880 Speaker 1: it's like the gold is to be pretty, so I 100 00:04:40,880 --> 00:04:43,120 Speaker 1: won't have to go through nothing. But that's not ain't out. 101 00:04:43,120 --> 00:04:49,599 Speaker 1: How's that work out for you? You get pretty, then 102 00:04:49,640 --> 00:04:51,520 Speaker 1: you want to get prettier, get sexy, you want to 103 00:04:51,520 --> 00:04:53,680 Speaker 1: get sexy er, Like it's just like no, Like I 104 00:04:53,720 --> 00:04:57,880 Speaker 1: feel like women's a woman, especially in today's age, Like 105 00:04:57,960 --> 00:05:00,520 Speaker 1: we see so much on Instagram, we you so much 106 00:05:00,560 --> 00:05:03,280 Speaker 1: on Twitter. We see so many different body type faiths 107 00:05:03,440 --> 00:05:06,520 Speaker 1: here and all of that, and we today I'm gonna 108 00:05:06,520 --> 00:05:08,159 Speaker 1: look like this, and tomorrow I wanna look like that, 109 00:05:08,400 --> 00:05:10,760 Speaker 1: and then like one calm may get throw off your 110 00:05:10,800 --> 00:05:17,239 Speaker 1: whole day or like anything. So just like today's age, 111 00:05:17,400 --> 00:05:19,960 Speaker 1: it's so hard. It's a pinpoint who you are. And 112 00:05:20,000 --> 00:05:21,919 Speaker 1: if you find out who you are, so important to 113 00:05:23,040 --> 00:05:25,400 Speaker 1: master that, yes, because you have so much noise at 114 00:05:25,440 --> 00:05:27,680 Speaker 1: all time, and then who do you listen to? And 115 00:05:27,680 --> 00:05:30,520 Speaker 1: then and then you throw fame into it. Then you 116 00:05:30,600 --> 00:05:33,720 Speaker 1: throw two women in a group together, and all the 117 00:05:33,760 --> 00:05:37,320 Speaker 1: stuff that comes with that, the comparisons, the groomers, all 118 00:05:37,320 --> 00:05:39,040 Speaker 1: of the things that come with that. Oh yeah, it's 119 00:05:39,040 --> 00:05:40,920 Speaker 1: a lot. It has to be here for you. I'll 120 00:05:40,920 --> 00:05:42,760 Speaker 1: tell you one of the things that I saw about you, 121 00:05:43,160 --> 00:05:45,599 Speaker 1: I was so excited. First of all, I always thought, 122 00:05:45,880 --> 00:05:48,560 Speaker 1: how you've managed to kind of like jump back into 123 00:05:48,600 --> 00:05:50,960 Speaker 1: your career after you know, coming out of president, how 124 00:05:51,040 --> 00:05:53,480 Speaker 1: you've managed and just I've seen you in interviews and yeah, 125 00:05:53,480 --> 00:05:55,760 Speaker 1: you sad seeing all that stuff, but but you're smart 126 00:05:55,800 --> 00:05:58,279 Speaker 1: and you about your business and I always respected that. 127 00:05:58,320 --> 00:06:00,000 Speaker 1: So when I got your d M, I was like, here, 128 00:06:00,000 --> 00:06:02,039 Speaker 1: I want to know her more because you don't do 129 00:06:02,080 --> 00:06:05,520 Speaker 1: a lot of interviews. No, because when I come up 130 00:06:05,600 --> 00:06:08,520 Speaker 1: unfortunately I was in prison like it was. It was 131 00:06:08,640 --> 00:06:11,839 Speaker 1: very um an unfortunate situation that I kind of beat 132 00:06:11,920 --> 00:06:15,479 Speaker 1: myself up about to this day, like yes, I'd be 133 00:06:15,520 --> 00:06:17,440 Speaker 1: like if I would have never went to prison, we 134 00:06:17,480 --> 00:06:19,360 Speaker 1: would have been here like or we would have been 135 00:06:19,360 --> 00:06:23,240 Speaker 1: on this level because I feel like wrapping is my 136 00:06:23,320 --> 00:06:26,360 Speaker 1: skill and I and I feel like when I got out. 137 00:06:26,640 --> 00:06:27,719 Speaker 1: As soon as I got out, I had to go 138 00:06:27,760 --> 00:06:29,200 Speaker 1: to the halfway house, and a lot of people didn't 139 00:06:29,320 --> 00:06:30,720 Speaker 1: understand I had to do like six months and a 140 00:06:30,720 --> 00:06:33,320 Speaker 1: halfway house, meaning I could not shoot a video, I 141 00:06:33,320 --> 00:06:35,640 Speaker 1: couldnot be seen for real, and I used to sneak 142 00:06:35,680 --> 00:06:38,200 Speaker 1: and do like posts. But like I swear out of 143 00:06:38,240 --> 00:06:40,080 Speaker 1: my last week of the house foray House, I got 144 00:06:40,080 --> 00:06:42,680 Speaker 1: a big trouble and I almost got sent the prison 145 00:06:42,760 --> 00:06:46,520 Speaker 1: for posting. And I was like yeah, because I was 146 00:06:46,560 --> 00:06:48,400 Speaker 1: letting people get in my head because so many people 147 00:06:48,400 --> 00:06:50,200 Speaker 1: was typing on internet, like she came home and she 148 00:06:50,240 --> 00:06:52,920 Speaker 1: did nothing, but I couldn't do nothing, and there was 149 00:06:52,960 --> 00:06:55,640 Speaker 1: so many people at the time coming up, and when 150 00:06:55,640 --> 00:06:57,760 Speaker 1: we first came in, was not that many girls coming up. 151 00:06:57,760 --> 00:06:59,480 Speaker 1: So I felt like I had a responsibility to get 152 00:06:59,480 --> 00:07:01,920 Speaker 1: out in like get back to my group, but I couldn't. 153 00:07:01,960 --> 00:07:05,320 Speaker 1: I couldn't give nothing because I was in a halfway house. 154 00:07:05,680 --> 00:07:07,680 Speaker 1: So I was trying to like post a little bit. 155 00:07:07,839 --> 00:07:09,760 Speaker 1: And then the song that we came out where I 156 00:07:09,800 --> 00:07:12,120 Speaker 1: didn't like. We didn't like that song and much, but 157 00:07:12,160 --> 00:07:14,640 Speaker 1: I just wanted to put it through something. It's not 158 00:07:14,680 --> 00:07:18,440 Speaker 1: even remember what call you tried it something like, but 159 00:07:19,720 --> 00:07:22,080 Speaker 1: it was just like a crazy situation. So it seems 160 00:07:22,120 --> 00:07:24,080 Speaker 1: as if I went back into it, but I never did. 161 00:07:24,200 --> 00:07:25,680 Speaker 1: I never did because first of all, I had to 162 00:07:25,680 --> 00:07:27,200 Speaker 1: go to the halfway house. Second of all, as Tunis, 163 00:07:27,480 --> 00:07:29,080 Speaker 1: I got out of hype for House Smart six and 164 00:07:29,120 --> 00:07:35,120 Speaker 1: the pandemic hit. The pandemic hits, like it was unbelievable. 165 00:07:35,160 --> 00:07:37,040 Speaker 1: It was just like I knew it, like I knew 166 00:07:37,040 --> 00:07:38,880 Speaker 1: it was too good to be true, Like I know 167 00:07:39,040 --> 00:07:41,920 Speaker 1: my life is just cannot be puny. But no way 168 00:07:42,600 --> 00:07:44,440 Speaker 1: I want to talk about that whole time. But I 169 00:07:44,440 --> 00:07:47,120 Speaker 1: would love because there might be some people that I 170 00:07:47,280 --> 00:07:49,840 Speaker 1: don't know all that much about, like how you even 171 00:07:49,880 --> 00:07:52,200 Speaker 1: got there, and young j T and who she is 172 00:07:52,280 --> 00:07:54,440 Speaker 1: and how you got to wrap it one know, how 173 00:07:54,480 --> 00:07:55,920 Speaker 1: you even got to that point, yeah, where you're in 174 00:07:55,920 --> 00:07:59,239 Speaker 1: a group and you got locked up and you you'ren't 175 00:07:59,280 --> 00:08:01,680 Speaker 1: even in that position, and like just about your young life, 176 00:08:01,720 --> 00:08:04,520 Speaker 1: like like just give us a little bit about young JT. 177 00:08:04,960 --> 00:08:07,320 Speaker 1: Growing up. Okay, So my life was like a little 178 00:08:07,560 --> 00:08:10,080 Speaker 1: crazy because growing up I did have a dad who 179 00:08:10,160 --> 00:08:12,160 Speaker 1: had a lot of money. He sold drugs and he 180 00:08:12,200 --> 00:08:15,040 Speaker 1: had a lot a lot of money. But it was like, uh, 181 00:08:16,520 --> 00:08:19,920 Speaker 1: mama's baby daddy maybe situation. So it was like my 182 00:08:20,000 --> 00:08:22,600 Speaker 1: dad had sixteen kids, but I didn't look like them. 183 00:08:22,720 --> 00:08:25,440 Speaker 1: So it was always I feel like always I was 184 00:08:25,480 --> 00:08:27,920 Speaker 1: like a black sheep in my family or I wasn't 185 00:08:27,960 --> 00:08:30,720 Speaker 1: treated fairly because he did not like my mom. Like 186 00:08:30,840 --> 00:08:32,240 Speaker 1: I know my dad probably see this, but he did 187 00:08:32,360 --> 00:08:33,719 Speaker 1: not like my mom, so I didn't think he liked 188 00:08:33,760 --> 00:08:36,640 Speaker 1: me because he hated her. So I lived with him 189 00:08:36,679 --> 00:08:39,960 Speaker 1: because my mom was like on drugs, and I felt 190 00:08:39,960 --> 00:08:41,600 Speaker 1: like I was never treated fairly because I stayed with 191 00:08:41,600 --> 00:08:43,840 Speaker 1: my spelm mom and there was their mogs. So it 192 00:08:43,960 --> 00:08:46,160 Speaker 1: was like my sisters and brothers and it was with 193 00:08:46,200 --> 00:08:48,479 Speaker 1: their mom and my dad and it was like okay 194 00:08:48,720 --> 00:08:50,280 Speaker 1: day with their mom. They did they see a married 195 00:08:50,320 --> 00:08:52,600 Speaker 1: family and I'm just an outcast, Like I was always 196 00:08:52,640 --> 00:08:57,880 Speaker 1: so outspoken, always so instrouble and just like you have 197 00:08:57,960 --> 00:08:59,640 Speaker 1: to be because as a little girl in the house 198 00:08:59,679 --> 00:09:02,120 Speaker 1: like that, you're probably trying to stand out right, You're 199 00:09:02,120 --> 00:09:05,319 Speaker 1: trying to Yeah, Like basically just felt like at home 200 00:09:05,360 --> 00:09:07,360 Speaker 1: I wasn't getting enough potention, So when I go to school, 201 00:09:07,400 --> 00:09:10,000 Speaker 1: I would act out all the time just for that attention, 202 00:09:10,040 --> 00:09:11,640 Speaker 1: and then I it would resign and let me getting 203 00:09:11,640 --> 00:09:13,520 Speaker 1: my ass whooped all the fucking time because I was 204 00:09:13,559 --> 00:09:17,600 Speaker 1: so bad so my growing up. Then I stopped leaving 205 00:09:17,679 --> 00:09:19,560 Speaker 1: my dad when I was like thirteen years old, and 206 00:09:19,600 --> 00:09:21,560 Speaker 1: I wanted to move with my aunt and my cousins, 207 00:09:21,559 --> 00:09:24,880 Speaker 1: And where's your mom? The whole time on drugs in prison? 208 00:09:25,080 --> 00:09:27,000 Speaker 1: Like always in and out of prison. My mom was 209 00:09:27,040 --> 00:09:30,800 Speaker 1: in in prison and she was on drugs my whole childhood. 210 00:09:30,800 --> 00:09:32,640 Speaker 1: But shout out to my mom because she's so beautiful. 211 00:09:32,679 --> 00:09:35,040 Speaker 1: Now she's off drugs and she's like doing work helping 212 00:09:35,080 --> 00:09:38,600 Speaker 1: people rehability. My mom is like in a very very 213 00:09:38,600 --> 00:09:40,760 Speaker 1: good situation. But growing up I did not have my 214 00:09:40,800 --> 00:09:43,840 Speaker 1: mom like from my from me being fined to thirty 215 00:09:43,920 --> 00:09:48,240 Speaker 1: like tim there, and I feel like she would she'll 216 00:09:48,280 --> 00:09:50,440 Speaker 1: have her brakes when she's doing good, and she'll bring 217 00:09:50,440 --> 00:09:52,800 Speaker 1: me gives and then my dad would do like even 218 00:09:52,800 --> 00:09:54,240 Speaker 1: stuff if you can't bring the rest of the kids 219 00:09:54,280 --> 00:09:55,880 Speaker 1: in the house, that she can't have that. It was 220 00:09:55,920 --> 00:09:58,320 Speaker 1: like a era one flip phones. Flip phones is coming 221 00:09:58,320 --> 00:10:02,400 Speaker 1: out and all types of ship but my mom Okay. 222 00:10:02,559 --> 00:10:03,960 Speaker 1: I moved from with my dad when I was like 223 00:10:03,960 --> 00:10:06,640 Speaker 1: thirteen years old and I went to live with my 224 00:10:06,679 --> 00:10:08,560 Speaker 1: aunt and my cousins because I felt like it was 225 00:10:08,600 --> 00:10:10,760 Speaker 1: so cool, like it was they was having their way 226 00:10:10,800 --> 00:10:12,080 Speaker 1: and they was doing what they wanted to. When I 227 00:10:12,120 --> 00:10:16,079 Speaker 1: got down there, this is and where was this? I 228 00:10:16,120 --> 00:10:19,200 Speaker 1: was living in like Cara City like with my dad, 229 00:10:19,880 --> 00:10:21,840 Speaker 1: and then I moved to Liberty Liberty and my my 230 00:10:21,880 --> 00:10:23,600 Speaker 1: mom's out of the families from Liby City. I used 231 00:10:23,600 --> 00:10:26,280 Speaker 1: to cheer for Liberty City, am, and I got you 232 00:10:26,440 --> 00:10:28,800 Speaker 1: cheered you probably so cute. Yeah, And then I got 233 00:10:28,800 --> 00:10:30,680 Speaker 1: down there and I realized they can't do they won't. 234 00:10:30,800 --> 00:10:34,000 Speaker 1: This is fucking poverty like. And so I went from 235 00:10:34,040 --> 00:10:37,160 Speaker 1: like a decent home, no no shade and my aunt 236 00:10:37,240 --> 00:10:39,559 Speaker 1: which she would tell the truth too, we were struggling, 237 00:10:39,640 --> 00:10:42,120 Speaker 1: like we were struggling so bad, and my dad would 238 00:10:42,120 --> 00:10:44,440 Speaker 1: give like three awe and she would keep it because 239 00:10:44,480 --> 00:10:45,839 Speaker 1: you know, she gotta put grocery and all of this 240 00:10:45,880 --> 00:10:48,440 Speaker 1: stuff so I won't have nothing no more. And then 241 00:10:48,440 --> 00:10:49,960 Speaker 1: I wanted to go back home with my dad. But 242 00:10:50,480 --> 00:10:51,880 Speaker 1: that's why I was in my dad now, like I 243 00:10:51,920 --> 00:10:53,960 Speaker 1: don't really funk with him like that, because I wanted 244 00:10:53,960 --> 00:10:55,480 Speaker 1: to go back home, like I'm like, all right, like 245 00:10:55,480 --> 00:10:57,200 Speaker 1: I wanna go come. He never let me, like he 246 00:10:57,400 --> 00:11:00,880 Speaker 1: never let me thirteen. He's the last sirs. I remember 247 00:11:00,880 --> 00:11:04,000 Speaker 1: as you made your bill any So it was like, 248 00:11:04,720 --> 00:11:07,680 Speaker 1: how does he feel about now? Like where you at? 249 00:11:07,679 --> 00:11:09,520 Speaker 1: You don't have anything. I don't have nothing against him, 250 00:11:09,559 --> 00:11:11,000 Speaker 1: but I don't really talk. I feel like I'm a dog. 251 00:11:11,040 --> 00:11:12,920 Speaker 1: I don't know, but it hasn't been relaid to you, 252 00:11:13,000 --> 00:11:16,800 Speaker 1: like you're like, I gotta believe he's somewhere bragging that 253 00:11:16,960 --> 00:11:19,440 Speaker 1: his daughter's once. Probably he think he's a DJ when 254 00:11:19,480 --> 00:11:23,480 Speaker 1: he's a DJ. But um, of course he is bragging 255 00:11:23,480 --> 00:11:26,200 Speaker 1: that one. He's a hustler. To hustling. It has to 256 00:11:26,240 --> 00:11:30,080 Speaker 1: be pride in what you've been able to accomplish. I mean, yeah, 257 00:11:30,520 --> 00:11:33,320 Speaker 1: it has to be. My mom must be for sure. 258 00:11:33,520 --> 00:11:35,760 Speaker 1: My mom is I'm always invite my mom. My mom 259 00:11:35,840 --> 00:11:37,480 Speaker 1: is like taking I take care of my mom, she's 260 00:11:37,520 --> 00:11:39,160 Speaker 1: where to taking care of because that's my mom, Like, 261 00:11:39,200 --> 00:11:41,240 Speaker 1: you want to get one mom, so rather whatever she 262 00:11:41,280 --> 00:11:43,880 Speaker 1: did in her life, I don't care. But I was 263 00:11:43,920 --> 00:11:46,120 Speaker 1: literally like third seen and I moved out, and then 264 00:11:46,240 --> 00:11:49,440 Speaker 1: growing up, I literally just was like a rolling song 265 00:11:49,559 --> 00:11:52,480 Speaker 1: my whole life. I would live her friends, move her friends, 266 00:11:52,520 --> 00:11:56,160 Speaker 1: go back someone, make more family like, make bigger family like. 267 00:11:56,800 --> 00:12:00,920 Speaker 1: And then I got older. I us was hard working, 268 00:12:01,559 --> 00:12:03,480 Speaker 1: like I literally was always all working. I was like 269 00:12:03,480 --> 00:12:06,360 Speaker 1: a born hustler. You had, yes, I had good jobs, 270 00:12:06,440 --> 00:12:08,600 Speaker 1: like I was working at working. I was working at 271 00:12:08,600 --> 00:12:13,800 Speaker 1: the Miames Creme. I worked at this. I did working. 272 00:12:13,880 --> 00:12:16,360 Speaker 1: Working was not like my first job. I did like 273 00:12:16,520 --> 00:12:19,400 Speaker 1: the front register and I get my mouth was always 274 00:12:19,400 --> 00:12:21,319 Speaker 1: so flipps. So I used to get in school with everybody. 275 00:12:21,320 --> 00:12:22,599 Speaker 1: It did not last because at the time I was 276 00:12:23,200 --> 00:12:25,640 Speaker 1: I was only scamming. I was slick scamming. At the 277 00:12:25,679 --> 00:12:27,559 Speaker 1: time I was walking at working. But I had a 278 00:12:27,600 --> 00:12:30,120 Speaker 1: boyfriend and I did not want my boyfriend and I 279 00:12:30,160 --> 00:12:31,680 Speaker 1: was scamming. So I was trying to make him because 280 00:12:31,720 --> 00:12:33,880 Speaker 1: he was into football, and you know, football players be 281 00:12:33,920 --> 00:12:37,240 Speaker 1: so serious and about college at school and all that. 282 00:12:37,280 --> 00:12:38,400 Speaker 1: So I didn't want him to know I was doing 283 00:12:38,440 --> 00:12:40,160 Speaker 1: nothing illegal, So I went and got a real job. 284 00:12:40,320 --> 00:12:43,760 Speaker 1: In the whole time, I had a car Couci glasses 285 00:12:43,800 --> 00:12:45,640 Speaker 1: weed to my boy, and he like burk, ain't paying 286 00:12:45,679 --> 00:12:49,880 Speaker 1: that much time. I'm scamming. So I was scamming when 287 00:12:49,880 --> 00:12:51,920 Speaker 1: I was like working at work King. Then I left Burking, 288 00:12:52,000 --> 00:12:54,000 Speaker 1: I got a better job. Then I got a better job. 289 00:12:54,000 --> 00:12:55,720 Speaker 1: I start working at Hopfools. I think Hopefuls in my 290 00:12:55,800 --> 00:12:59,320 Speaker 1: last shop. Hopfus was my last shop. And then I 291 00:12:59,360 --> 00:13:02,160 Speaker 1: went to school. I'm going to school from fashion merchandizing. 292 00:13:02,360 --> 00:13:04,880 Speaker 1: And then my friends would always use my car because 293 00:13:05,120 --> 00:13:08,520 Speaker 1: um being I was a young skinny girl. So I 294 00:13:08,520 --> 00:13:12,760 Speaker 1: had made this boy by me a car. So my 295 00:13:12,840 --> 00:13:15,680 Speaker 1: friends was using my car and they will always come 296 00:13:15,720 --> 00:13:18,480 Speaker 1: back with so many clothes in a car, like what 297 00:13:18,600 --> 00:13:21,720 Speaker 1: y'all doing? But they put me on to what they 298 00:13:21,800 --> 00:13:23,480 Speaker 1: was doing in because the first game was what were 299 00:13:23,520 --> 00:13:26,000 Speaker 1: they doing exactly? I can't say, I mean, you can't 300 00:13:26,000 --> 00:13:27,719 Speaker 1: tell them what were you doing? You can say what 301 00:13:27,920 --> 00:13:31,280 Speaker 1: I was doing. I was scamming. Basically, my first scam 302 00:13:31,400 --> 00:13:33,520 Speaker 1: wasn't a real scam like when I was like a 303 00:13:33,600 --> 00:13:35,480 Speaker 1: runner at first and I was working at very King, 304 00:13:35,880 --> 00:13:38,720 Speaker 1: but when I literally like what I went to jail 305 00:13:38,800 --> 00:13:40,959 Speaker 1: for is literally I started being more of a boss 306 00:13:41,000 --> 00:13:43,240 Speaker 1: of my situation. I learned how to do more with 307 00:13:43,320 --> 00:13:46,680 Speaker 1: the with the stuff, so they would come back with more, 308 00:13:46,840 --> 00:13:49,160 Speaker 1: like you know, clothes, shoes and all that. I'm like, 309 00:13:49,240 --> 00:13:50,840 Speaker 1: oh my god, I'm at school. I ain't making no 310 00:13:50,920 --> 00:13:53,120 Speaker 1: money in school. This ship is not working out for me. 311 00:13:53,160 --> 00:13:55,360 Speaker 1: It's taken too long. I'm thinking I'm going screen in 312 00:13:55,360 --> 00:13:56,840 Speaker 1: the school and I could have come out it's like 313 00:13:56,880 --> 00:13:59,559 Speaker 1: a fashion designer. But it was taken longer than I thought. 314 00:14:00,200 --> 00:14:02,079 Speaker 1: So I got bored with school because at the time, 315 00:14:02,120 --> 00:14:04,559 Speaker 1: I was like homeless for real, like dead as homeless. 316 00:14:04,559 --> 00:14:06,760 Speaker 1: I was going to my best friend house, but it 317 00:14:06,880 --> 00:14:08,959 Speaker 1: was like a lot because her brother was there. How 318 00:14:08,960 --> 00:14:12,280 Speaker 1: old are you at this time? Oh, I would say 319 00:14:12,320 --> 00:14:15,439 Speaker 1: I was like twenty one two. When I was going 320 00:14:15,480 --> 00:14:17,520 Speaker 1: to a I was like twenty one so when I 321 00:14:18,080 --> 00:14:21,160 Speaker 1: was going to college, because I just felt like that 322 00:14:21,160 --> 00:14:23,320 Speaker 1: that's what I wanted to do. I was a smart girl, 323 00:14:23,360 --> 00:14:27,520 Speaker 1: but I wanted to move faster. So I started making money. 324 00:14:27,840 --> 00:14:31,480 Speaker 1: Like I started making real bread, like off of real bread, 325 00:14:32,440 --> 00:14:36,600 Speaker 1: not like you make it now. He no, but no, no, no, no, no, 326 00:14:36,600 --> 00:14:39,160 Speaker 1: no real bread for the hood. I was. I was 327 00:14:39,200 --> 00:14:41,440 Speaker 1: making twenty thou and I gonna come back home with 328 00:14:41,480 --> 00:14:43,920 Speaker 1: twenty thousand and some crety like in one run, like 329 00:14:44,120 --> 00:14:45,920 Speaker 1: one in one run. But I like ye, I was 330 00:14:45,960 --> 00:14:49,800 Speaker 1: a role runner, not ye. Not like to too. Like 331 00:14:49,840 --> 00:14:53,000 Speaker 1: if I if I leave today and I come back Friday, 332 00:14:53,000 --> 00:14:55,040 Speaker 1: I'm gonna come back with like twenty beans and some 333 00:14:55,120 --> 00:14:58,560 Speaker 1: credy in some games and some shoes in the purse. 334 00:14:58,720 --> 00:15:00,640 Speaker 1: And in that time, did you ever a worry like 335 00:15:01,560 --> 00:15:03,840 Speaker 1: if I get caught and go to jail. No, I 336 00:15:03,880 --> 00:15:06,360 Speaker 1: was just living it. And I feel like time like 337 00:15:06,480 --> 00:15:10,280 Speaker 1: divine timing, like when like I got my indictment. It 338 00:15:10,360 --> 00:15:11,960 Speaker 1: was like a week after we dropped our a song. 339 00:15:12,720 --> 00:15:15,320 Speaker 1: It was so crazy, like I wanted to go to 340 00:15:15,320 --> 00:15:17,720 Speaker 1: the studio. My friend was telling me, like, oh, you 341 00:15:17,760 --> 00:15:19,640 Speaker 1: need to be a rapper because we's a freestyle on 342 00:15:19,640 --> 00:15:21,040 Speaker 1: a row and I was so good at it. I 343 00:15:21,080 --> 00:15:23,680 Speaker 1: would kill it every time, And my friend was like, 344 00:15:24,960 --> 00:15:28,000 Speaker 1: you that bitch. Um. People gonna look up to see 345 00:15:28,000 --> 00:15:30,360 Speaker 1: you if you start rapping. If you start, you already 346 00:15:30,360 --> 00:15:33,800 Speaker 1: flying right, Like I gotta do it rap, but I'm 347 00:15:33,800 --> 00:15:36,480 Speaker 1: so shy, so I'm like I can't wrap by myself, 348 00:15:36,640 --> 00:15:38,520 Speaker 1: Like I want to do the song, but I want 349 00:15:38,520 --> 00:15:41,040 Speaker 1: to do it with somebody else, and I wanted my 350 00:15:41,080 --> 00:15:43,920 Speaker 1: cousin to do I just then that's when I called 351 00:15:43,960 --> 00:15:45,920 Speaker 1: Koreasi and she was just so for it. So we 352 00:15:45,960 --> 00:15:48,200 Speaker 1: did our phone and like a week later, I got 353 00:15:48,200 --> 00:15:51,400 Speaker 1: indict it and I didn't even know. I didn't know 354 00:15:51,480 --> 00:15:54,560 Speaker 1: it was that fast. It was a week later. I 355 00:15:54,600 --> 00:15:57,320 Speaker 1: interviewed her when he was locked up. I don't know 356 00:15:57,360 --> 00:15:59,360 Speaker 1: if you know that, and I had, I knew a 357 00:15:59,400 --> 00:16:01,240 Speaker 1: little bit, but I I wasn't all the way in yet. 358 00:16:01,240 --> 00:16:03,520 Speaker 1: I didn't know so much about you, especially the history 359 00:16:03,600 --> 00:16:05,680 Speaker 1: or the how you She even got there, but I 360 00:16:05,760 --> 00:16:07,800 Speaker 1: knew you were locked up. So I met her and 361 00:16:07,840 --> 00:16:10,720 Speaker 1: just to know that it was that fast that like 362 00:16:10,800 --> 00:16:15,160 Speaker 1: you hit her, Yeah, not what We was already friends, 363 00:16:15,160 --> 00:16:17,360 Speaker 1: Like we were already like friends. I used to sleep 364 00:16:17,360 --> 00:16:19,640 Speaker 1: a sleep at Coreasians Growdmouse Leaner house all the time, 365 00:16:19,720 --> 00:16:22,200 Speaker 1: like we were already friends. And I was just calling 366 00:16:22,280 --> 00:16:25,120 Speaker 1: my closest friends to seem like who the match with, 367 00:16:25,360 --> 00:16:27,320 Speaker 1: like who the group would But I didn't even think 368 00:16:27,320 --> 00:16:28,520 Speaker 1: it was gonna be a group. I just want to 369 00:16:28,520 --> 00:16:30,600 Speaker 1: put out a song and I felt like she was 370 00:16:30,640 --> 00:16:33,240 Speaker 1: like most hated in the town. And it was like, 371 00:16:33,520 --> 00:16:36,040 Speaker 1: all right, so this is gonna go like and and 372 00:16:36,080 --> 00:16:37,800 Speaker 1: it just went. But I kind of died it so fast, 373 00:16:37,880 --> 00:16:39,960 Speaker 1: so I just wanted to give up. She must have 374 00:16:39,960 --> 00:16:43,120 Speaker 1: been freaking out, but because this was like your brain, 375 00:16:43,240 --> 00:16:46,160 Speaker 1: this was your baby, your idea. You brought her in 376 00:16:46,280 --> 00:16:48,080 Speaker 1: and then you got to go away and took off 377 00:16:48,120 --> 00:16:50,400 Speaker 1: so fast in a hood like not all over the world, 378 00:16:50,400 --> 00:16:52,800 Speaker 1: but it took off so fast, and hood everybody loved 379 00:16:52,840 --> 00:16:55,240 Speaker 1: like we were talking to ship and like the clubs 380 00:16:55,280 --> 00:16:59,400 Speaker 1: was playing it. Everybody knew for her, and um. I 381 00:16:59,440 --> 00:17:01,520 Speaker 1: remember calling her from jail and I would say, like, 382 00:17:01,760 --> 00:17:03,560 Speaker 1: I don't think I'm getting out because I didn't know 383 00:17:03,600 --> 00:17:05,360 Speaker 1: what I was in jail for, Like for the longest 384 00:17:05,440 --> 00:17:07,440 Speaker 1: I know that I wasn't going to federal jail, but 385 00:17:07,480 --> 00:17:08,679 Speaker 1: I didn't know what the funk I was in for us, 386 00:17:08,680 --> 00:17:10,080 Speaker 1: So I didn't think I was getting out. And I 387 00:17:10,119 --> 00:17:12,320 Speaker 1: was like, I don't think because I did so much 388 00:17:13,080 --> 00:17:15,280 Speaker 1: won the role. So imagine not knowing what you with 389 00:17:15,400 --> 00:17:16,960 Speaker 1: jail for him, like it could be this, it could 390 00:17:16,960 --> 00:17:18,399 Speaker 1: be there, give me that. If it's that, I'm never 391 00:17:18,440 --> 00:17:19,920 Speaker 1: getting out. But if it's that I might get out. 392 00:17:20,240 --> 00:17:21,760 Speaker 1: So I was in like in that place. Someone I 393 00:17:21,800 --> 00:17:24,640 Speaker 1: called I would be like, I don't think I'm getting 394 00:17:24,640 --> 00:17:26,880 Speaker 1: out of jail. She was like, Grant so lit out 395 00:17:26,920 --> 00:17:31,399 Speaker 1: here they're paying out song like She's like, MENI pul 396 00:17:31,480 --> 00:17:34,040 Speaker 1: for him your part. I'm like, I'm like on the 397 00:17:34,080 --> 00:17:36,000 Speaker 1: phone like, oh my god, I'm never king out. But 398 00:17:36,160 --> 00:17:38,280 Speaker 1: she was just like still so excited about it because 399 00:17:38,280 --> 00:17:40,160 Speaker 1: it was so precious, so know when everybody was working 400 00:17:40,200 --> 00:17:41,399 Speaker 1: with us and all that. And then I end up 401 00:17:41,400 --> 00:17:44,720 Speaker 1: getting out, like my my coma put her house up 402 00:17:44,760 --> 00:17:46,959 Speaker 1: and I got up like a week later, and then 403 00:17:47,000 --> 00:17:48,840 Speaker 1: I was just like but you couldn't do anything right 404 00:17:48,880 --> 00:17:50,760 Speaker 1: because no, no, I could do it something. And I 405 00:17:50,800 --> 00:17:52,320 Speaker 1: wasn't on the house to rest anything. But I was 406 00:17:52,359 --> 00:17:54,840 Speaker 1: like very very depressed, Like I was very depressed. And 407 00:17:54,880 --> 00:17:56,480 Speaker 1: then I was in my house like in the dark, 408 00:17:56,520 --> 00:17:57,919 Speaker 1: and she would come over like we need to make 409 00:17:57,920 --> 00:18:00,439 Speaker 1: another song because it was just like so big, and 410 00:18:00,480 --> 00:18:02,080 Speaker 1: she was like we need to make another song, we 411 00:18:02,080 --> 00:18:03,960 Speaker 1: need to do another song, and I'm like I'm going 412 00:18:03,960 --> 00:18:07,639 Speaker 1: to jail, like I don't. And then we made another 413 00:18:07,680 --> 00:18:10,639 Speaker 1: song and that went and then right after that, I 414 00:18:10,640 --> 00:18:13,400 Speaker 1: think we met um pian coach coach. I met coach 415 00:18:13,440 --> 00:18:16,359 Speaker 1: person and he came and he like, don't post no 416 00:18:16,480 --> 00:18:19,960 Speaker 1: pictures of y'all us like yet, because everybody's going to 417 00:18:20,000 --> 00:18:22,840 Speaker 1: sign y'all. I'm like, key lying, everybodn't want to sign us. 418 00:18:23,080 --> 00:18:25,560 Speaker 1: And we just came out swinging through the gate. We 419 00:18:25,600 --> 00:18:28,280 Speaker 1: only had two songs. I think our personality kind of 420 00:18:28,680 --> 00:18:30,560 Speaker 1: by the way we talked, the way we walk and 421 00:18:30,760 --> 00:18:35,040 Speaker 1: it's just like your stars, like everybody wanted to know 422 00:18:35,119 --> 00:18:37,840 Speaker 1: what the the city girls are talking about. So it 423 00:18:37,880 --> 00:18:40,879 Speaker 1: worked out. But I got um my dad was like 424 00:18:40,920 --> 00:18:43,480 Speaker 1: a November in a November early December, but I had 425 00:18:43,560 --> 00:18:46,879 Speaker 1: census in on January. In January. Person went to jail 426 00:18:46,960 --> 00:18:50,840 Speaker 1: in January, but coach wrote like this long letter like 427 00:18:51,640 --> 00:18:54,160 Speaker 1: not like to get me a furlough. So I got 428 00:18:54,160 --> 00:19:00,040 Speaker 1: a furlough. And when I got my furlough, take in 429 00:19:00,119 --> 00:19:03,000 Speaker 1: me six months. So through my hole six months, I 430 00:19:03,040 --> 00:19:06,320 Speaker 1: worked hard hard. I literally was in the studio the 431 00:19:06,400 --> 00:19:08,560 Speaker 1: day before I woke woke. I mean I never went 432 00:19:08,640 --> 00:19:10,119 Speaker 1: to sleep. The day I was turning my step in, 433 00:19:10,600 --> 00:19:12,040 Speaker 1: I walked down the studio. It was sunlight. It was 434 00:19:12,080 --> 00:19:13,840 Speaker 1: signing for me to time myself in and I was 435 00:19:13,880 --> 00:19:16,040 Speaker 1: so sad. I cried the morning off. I was like, 436 00:19:16,040 --> 00:19:17,920 Speaker 1: oh my god, but I had to make these songs 437 00:19:17,920 --> 00:19:20,119 Speaker 1: because I know we needed an album, we needed something. 438 00:19:20,640 --> 00:19:22,720 Speaker 1: But you're in the studio making an album, not even 439 00:19:22,800 --> 00:19:25,960 Speaker 1: knowing if you're gonna be free. You're making music that's 440 00:19:26,000 --> 00:19:27,960 Speaker 1: gonna come out and you're not even gonna be Yeah, 441 00:19:28,000 --> 00:19:29,280 Speaker 1: I'm not gonna be there to do it. But it 442 00:19:29,359 --> 00:19:31,960 Speaker 1: was just like it didn't matter at the time because 443 00:19:32,040 --> 00:19:33,960 Speaker 1: I felt like it was nothing else for me to do. 444 00:19:34,000 --> 00:19:37,520 Speaker 1: I couldn't scam no more, I couldn't I do nothing. 445 00:19:37,520 --> 00:19:39,199 Speaker 1: It was like, literally, do what die? So it's like 446 00:19:39,640 --> 00:19:42,879 Speaker 1: use my talent or you phone right now. And I 447 00:19:42,960 --> 00:19:45,240 Speaker 1: went to the studio. I was at d J Halle studio, 448 00:19:45,600 --> 00:19:48,320 Speaker 1: matter of fact, and I recorded all night, all night, 449 00:19:48,359 --> 00:19:50,680 Speaker 1: all night, all night, and then I woke I never 450 00:19:50,720 --> 00:19:52,760 Speaker 1: went to sleep and I woke up. I walked out 451 00:19:52,760 --> 00:19:54,600 Speaker 1: of studio. The daytime, I said, oh my god, this today, 452 00:19:54,640 --> 00:19:57,040 Speaker 1: I'm going to jail, like for real. And the night 453 00:19:57,080 --> 00:19:58,960 Speaker 1: before it was such a happy night because I tell 454 00:19:58,960 --> 00:20:00,680 Speaker 1: this story all the time. That's when I song with 455 00:20:00,760 --> 00:20:02,800 Speaker 1: Drake came out, So it was such a happy night 456 00:20:04,119 --> 00:20:06,439 Speaker 1: and I was like, damn tomorrow, I'm going to jail, 457 00:20:06,720 --> 00:20:08,919 Speaker 1: Like I cannot leave. I'm going to jail, like and 458 00:20:08,960 --> 00:20:10,600 Speaker 1: there was nothing I could do about it but go 459 00:20:10,680 --> 00:20:12,800 Speaker 1: to jail. Like I can't go on the run because 460 00:20:12,800 --> 00:20:15,080 Speaker 1: I had to. It would have put my career in 461 00:20:16,119 --> 00:20:20,679 Speaker 1: at state. And I was like, I can't sold, I 462 00:20:20,680 --> 00:20:23,719 Speaker 1: gotta go to jail. I can't even imagine yo yo, 463 00:20:23,840 --> 00:20:28,080 Speaker 1: hustle and your work ethic and your belief. Yeah, it was. 464 00:20:28,760 --> 00:20:31,320 Speaker 1: It was. It was like crazy, like but I can't 465 00:20:31,560 --> 00:20:34,359 Speaker 1: I can't even give myself all the credit because at 466 00:20:34,359 --> 00:20:37,240 Speaker 1: the time, it was just so much like Pete coming 467 00:20:37,280 --> 00:20:40,280 Speaker 1: to sit inside of the studio and like motivate, motivate, 468 00:20:40,320 --> 00:20:44,240 Speaker 1: push push push y'all girl's gonna go like you just 469 00:20:44,280 --> 00:20:47,399 Speaker 1: got a Ladies Records, like say, like you know, do 470 00:20:47,520 --> 00:20:49,720 Speaker 1: these videos and we're gonna shoot as many videos we can, 471 00:20:49,880 --> 00:20:51,880 Speaker 1: like we're gonna nine it all up. All you gotta 472 00:20:52,000 --> 00:20:54,439 Speaker 1: tell yourself being like do the songs we're gonna put 473 00:20:54,560 --> 00:20:56,920 Speaker 1: We was doing videos, he was we was laying a 474 00:20:56,960 --> 00:20:59,520 Speaker 1: foundation and he was like I swear like when you 475 00:20:59,560 --> 00:21:02,800 Speaker 1: get out, it's still gonna be alive. And the whole 476 00:21:02,840 --> 00:21:05,320 Speaker 1: time I was in prison. It was like growing before 477 00:21:05,359 --> 00:21:07,199 Speaker 1: my eyes because I couldn't really see much, but I 478 00:21:07,240 --> 00:21:11,159 Speaker 1: had like billboard like magazines, and I would see our 479 00:21:11,240 --> 00:21:13,399 Speaker 1: name and a billboard magazine like on the charts, and 480 00:21:13,440 --> 00:21:17,040 Speaker 1: I was like, what the fun like this is us? 481 00:21:17,240 --> 00:21:19,760 Speaker 1: It was just like like amazing, it's crazy because when 482 00:21:19,760 --> 00:21:21,359 Speaker 1: you hear a lot. I have a lot of friends 483 00:21:21,359 --> 00:21:22,679 Speaker 1: that have been locked up, and I have a lot 484 00:21:22,720 --> 00:21:25,399 Speaker 1: of friends also that done work in the criminal justice 485 00:21:25,840 --> 00:21:27,760 Speaker 1: area and try to perform and stuff. And a lot 486 00:21:27,840 --> 00:21:30,440 Speaker 1: of times when you were a kid and one of 487 00:21:30,520 --> 00:21:33,280 Speaker 1: your parents is in jail, they say you're likely to 488 00:21:33,320 --> 00:21:36,760 Speaker 1: wind up in jail. Yeah, the children of people who 489 00:21:36,760 --> 00:21:40,199 Speaker 1: are incarcerated for a secret. My mom, my brother, and 490 00:21:40,240 --> 00:21:42,159 Speaker 1: my sister on my mom's side, they all had been 491 00:21:42,160 --> 00:21:44,880 Speaker 1: a prison, and I thought I was exempt, like that 492 00:21:44,920 --> 00:21:47,479 Speaker 1: ship is a real You can't letter they get like 493 00:21:47,760 --> 00:21:49,520 Speaker 1: in jail. They make you write there down like if 494 00:21:49,520 --> 00:21:51,119 Speaker 1: your mom in a jail. They caught it like a 495 00:21:51,119 --> 00:21:54,240 Speaker 1: generation room Curtis. My mom had went to jail, My sister, 496 00:21:54,359 --> 00:21:56,160 Speaker 1: and my brother had been in prison, and I thought 497 00:21:56,200 --> 00:21:59,280 Speaker 1: they couldn't happen to me. So I was why would 498 00:21:59,280 --> 00:22:02,760 Speaker 1: you think that you It's like all my friends damning 499 00:22:02,800 --> 00:22:05,200 Speaker 1: and none of them went to jail to this day, Like, 500 00:22:05,960 --> 00:22:08,280 Speaker 1: and did you have fear of that? You know what 501 00:22:08,280 --> 00:22:09,879 Speaker 1: I'm saying, Like, Well, you didn't fear it. You just 502 00:22:09,920 --> 00:22:12,040 Speaker 1: thought you were. I thought I was on such like 503 00:22:12,080 --> 00:22:13,639 Speaker 1: I thought I was gonna be out here in my 504 00:22:14,520 --> 00:22:18,240 Speaker 1: Chanel bags, my Gucci, and I thought I was gonna 505 00:22:18,240 --> 00:22:20,159 Speaker 1: get away with it. I thought I was gonna keep 506 00:22:20,200 --> 00:22:22,639 Speaker 1: going to people's stoves as other people and getting my 507 00:22:22,640 --> 00:22:25,080 Speaker 1: ship and I was gonna live my best life. But 508 00:22:25,200 --> 00:22:27,919 Speaker 1: God had something bigger for me, you know. So it 509 00:22:28,040 --> 00:22:30,600 Speaker 1: was like, I feel like that's the reason I'm gonna pressed. 510 00:22:30,600 --> 00:22:33,320 Speaker 1: You ever feel like, I don't know, do you ever 511 00:22:33,400 --> 00:22:36,840 Speaker 1: realize how lucky you are that it landed the way Atlanta, 512 00:22:37,320 --> 00:22:39,320 Speaker 1: because it could have went It could have went bad, 513 00:22:39,760 --> 00:22:44,800 Speaker 1: real bad, real bad. It could have been terrible like 514 00:22:44,840 --> 00:22:47,080 Speaker 1: it could have been. It could have been terrible, And 515 00:22:47,119 --> 00:22:50,160 Speaker 1: I'm glad that it landed the way that it did land. 516 00:22:50,200 --> 00:22:52,159 Speaker 1: But sometimes I kind of beat myself up for it 517 00:22:52,160 --> 00:22:53,560 Speaker 1: because I felt like if I would have never win 518 00:22:53,600 --> 00:22:56,879 Speaker 1: to prison, we could have pushed like more so, and 519 00:22:56,920 --> 00:22:58,679 Speaker 1: I feel like me going to prison kind of like 520 00:22:59,600 --> 00:23:03,080 Speaker 1: said Greate ad it a little bit, and it was like, 521 00:23:03,240 --> 00:23:05,879 Speaker 1: if I was out, we could have grew as a 522 00:23:05,920 --> 00:23:07,520 Speaker 1: group more. You get what I'm trying to say, because 523 00:23:07,520 --> 00:23:08,960 Speaker 1: it was like a height at the time he had 524 00:23:08,960 --> 00:23:12,680 Speaker 1: acted up. It was nobody else out and then like 525 00:23:12,760 --> 00:23:14,960 Speaker 1: I knew what I could do at the time, like 526 00:23:15,080 --> 00:23:17,000 Speaker 1: at that era of everybody trying to get in what 527 00:23:17,080 --> 00:23:21,359 Speaker 1: a fitting, I knew that I had something to give, 528 00:23:21,520 --> 00:23:24,680 Speaker 1: like and I feel like we could have we could 529 00:23:24,720 --> 00:23:26,520 Speaker 1: have gave both. But are you not happy where you're 530 00:23:26,520 --> 00:23:31,920 Speaker 1: at now? I'm happy. I'm happy, but I just feel 531 00:23:31,960 --> 00:23:34,160 Speaker 1: like as the city girls, it could have been more 532 00:23:34,240 --> 00:23:36,840 Speaker 1: like And it's not the end of it, so I 533 00:23:36,840 --> 00:23:38,760 Speaker 1: feel like we're still growing and we're still learning. But 534 00:23:38,800 --> 00:23:40,520 Speaker 1: I feel like if I would have never went to prison, 535 00:23:40,920 --> 00:23:43,840 Speaker 1: we could have grew more as a group and it 536 00:23:43,880 --> 00:23:47,080 Speaker 1: would have been like more like you know, that's not 537 00:23:47,200 --> 00:23:49,320 Speaker 1: interesting you think that because even when we started the interview, 538 00:23:49,359 --> 00:23:50,800 Speaker 1: I told you, like, one of the things that's most 539 00:23:50,960 --> 00:23:54,640 Speaker 1: like I'm impressed, most or just inspired is how you've 540 00:23:54,640 --> 00:23:58,160 Speaker 1: been able to make so much so quickly while you're 541 00:23:58,200 --> 00:23:59,520 Speaker 1: sitting in the cell and then you come out and 542 00:23:59,520 --> 00:24:01,960 Speaker 1: you hit the running like you did is because sometimes 543 00:24:01,960 --> 00:24:05,040 Speaker 1: people need an adjustment too. Yeah, but I felt you 544 00:24:05,080 --> 00:24:06,800 Speaker 1: know what I mean when you come out, Yeah you 545 00:24:06,840 --> 00:24:08,440 Speaker 1: need to just I have. I just been doing the 546 00:24:08,480 --> 00:24:10,840 Speaker 1: Halfway House, and I used to really lose my mind 547 00:24:10,840 --> 00:24:12,680 Speaker 1: because there was no way I could go but the studio. 548 00:24:13,280 --> 00:24:17,960 Speaker 1: So I really I recorded, and we recorded um City 549 00:24:18,000 --> 00:24:20,600 Speaker 1: on log and then they got leaked. It was like 550 00:24:21,440 --> 00:24:25,040 Speaker 1: nothing good is happening, Like nobody don't even respect us 551 00:24:25,040 --> 00:24:28,119 Speaker 1: in this ship. They're spending our music, they're putting it out, 552 00:24:28,359 --> 00:24:31,040 Speaker 1: Like why do I even want to rap? Like if 553 00:24:31,080 --> 00:24:34,480 Speaker 1: nobody can't even respect us as a group. And then 554 00:24:35,760 --> 00:24:37,680 Speaker 1: it was just bad that day and I felt like 555 00:24:38,359 --> 00:24:41,520 Speaker 1: give up, Like fuck it, it's not working the it's 556 00:24:41,560 --> 00:24:46,080 Speaker 1: not selling, it's not doing good. But as time go about, 557 00:24:46,080 --> 00:24:48,320 Speaker 1: like now, I feel like it's not even about that. 558 00:24:48,359 --> 00:24:52,120 Speaker 1: It's about just giving all you can give and leave 559 00:24:52,160 --> 00:24:54,800 Speaker 1: me on mark more than worrying out an album sale 560 00:24:54,960 --> 00:24:57,840 Speaker 1: or worrying about where you're laying at at the top 561 00:24:57,840 --> 00:24:59,399 Speaker 1: of about it, because I feel like everybody knows to 562 00:24:59,400 --> 00:25:02,679 Speaker 1: see you girls, Yes, everybody know the secrets. I feel like, no, 563 00:25:02,760 --> 00:25:05,480 Speaker 1: you you cemented in the books, right, yeah, it's like right, 564 00:25:05,600 --> 00:25:07,240 Speaker 1: So it's like, like, you know what I'm saying, even 565 00:25:07,320 --> 00:25:09,320 Speaker 1: like you did you did it. Yeah, I'm not saying 566 00:25:09,320 --> 00:25:11,640 Speaker 1: you don't have plenty of we have so much ready 567 00:25:11,640 --> 00:25:15,240 Speaker 1: to do. But I feel like you landed. We landed 568 00:25:15,280 --> 00:25:19,399 Speaker 1: our feet perfectly for us to keep going so and 569 00:25:19,440 --> 00:25:22,880 Speaker 1: people are rooting for you too. Do you feel that sometime? 570 00:25:23,840 --> 00:25:26,479 Speaker 1: Sometimes not all the time, but I feel like sometimes, 571 00:25:26,520 --> 00:25:30,440 Speaker 1: like for me personally, no, because like I used to 572 00:25:30,480 --> 00:25:32,240 Speaker 1: be such a free spirit when I first came out, 573 00:25:32,800 --> 00:25:34,719 Speaker 1: when we first came out, if you look back at 574 00:25:34,720 --> 00:25:37,240 Speaker 1: the videos, I used to be so funny, you talked 575 00:25:37,280 --> 00:25:40,600 Speaker 1: so much going live, and I had a personality out 576 00:25:40,600 --> 00:25:43,080 Speaker 1: of this world. But I feel like once I got 577 00:25:43,119 --> 00:25:45,280 Speaker 1: a jail, it was so many more people knew us 578 00:25:45,520 --> 00:25:47,560 Speaker 1: and like knew me and like to freak you out 579 00:25:47,560 --> 00:25:49,760 Speaker 1: a little bit, freaked me how It's like, why are 580 00:25:49,760 --> 00:25:52,320 Speaker 1: you posting that on these blogs and writing it is 581 00:25:52,359 --> 00:25:55,160 Speaker 1: caption when I don't even mean that, that's not That's 582 00:25:55,160 --> 00:25:57,280 Speaker 1: not what I mean at all. Like I'm just having 583 00:25:57,320 --> 00:26:00,760 Speaker 1: fun and you're taking my funny. You're making a I'm serious. 584 00:26:00,920 --> 00:26:03,520 Speaker 1: I'm not serious. I'm just I'm just really, But that's 585 00:26:03,520 --> 00:26:07,120 Speaker 1: what happens. They ruin you because they're ruined so many people. 586 00:26:07,160 --> 00:26:12,560 Speaker 1: Now they ruin everybody, everybody people. They're fun. I feel 587 00:26:12,640 --> 00:26:15,600 Speaker 1: like back and back before I was a celebrity, when 588 00:26:15,600 --> 00:26:19,600 Speaker 1: I used to see other celebrities blogs to do real work, 589 00:26:20,200 --> 00:26:22,119 Speaker 1: Like I'm gonna go I sign him, gonna cash this 590 00:26:22,119 --> 00:26:25,639 Speaker 1: person on the date, I'm gonna catch this person at dinner. 591 00:26:25,720 --> 00:26:27,720 Speaker 1: I'm gonna catch this person doing a crime and cash 592 00:26:27,800 --> 00:26:32,080 Speaker 1: this person. But now they're taking our content and making 593 00:26:32,119 --> 00:26:36,160 Speaker 1: it whatever they wanted to be. No, so you're taking 594 00:26:36,280 --> 00:26:40,360 Speaker 1: my story that I'm posting for my fans. Oops, look 595 00:26:40,440 --> 00:26:44,359 Speaker 1: like no, stop that it's whatever I sayd is. So 596 00:26:44,480 --> 00:26:49,360 Speaker 1: it's just like they're eating off of just stealing basically. 597 00:26:49,440 --> 00:26:52,360 Speaker 1: But I don't have nothing against that. I don't care, 598 00:26:52,480 --> 00:26:55,280 Speaker 1: but it's the truth. Like, so it's scared, it's frighten 599 00:26:55,359 --> 00:26:57,760 Speaker 1: is starting people. But I'm at a stage where it 600 00:26:57,800 --> 00:26:59,359 Speaker 1: is don't fright I feel like you're coming around on 601 00:26:59,359 --> 00:27:01,439 Speaker 1: the other side of that. Yeah, Like it's like, okay, 602 00:27:01,520 --> 00:27:04,600 Speaker 1: whatever however you want to splip it twisted. Everybody gotta 603 00:27:04,600 --> 00:27:09,080 Speaker 1: make any money. Same is a weird fucking thing, especially 604 00:27:09,160 --> 00:27:11,760 Speaker 1: in its day age. I feel like it's an illusion 605 00:27:11,760 --> 00:27:14,280 Speaker 1: now it's not even real no more. Like I feel 606 00:27:14,320 --> 00:27:17,840 Speaker 1: like back then, people have a better chance it's being 607 00:27:18,440 --> 00:27:21,200 Speaker 1: icons than we do now because you've got so many 608 00:27:21,200 --> 00:27:24,240 Speaker 1: people like beating us down, beating us to the punch, 609 00:27:24,359 --> 00:27:30,600 Speaker 1: mimicking us, and things become old fast. Yes, it becomes 610 00:27:30,600 --> 00:27:34,360 Speaker 1: so so fast. So it's like you gotta constantly reinvent 611 00:27:34,400 --> 00:27:38,800 Speaker 1: yourself and then you gotta be strong because you can't 612 00:27:38,800 --> 00:27:40,879 Speaker 1: get influenced by other people. Like some days I wake 613 00:27:40,960 --> 00:27:44,080 Speaker 1: up I want to be Instagram monel. Some days I 614 00:27:44,080 --> 00:27:46,600 Speaker 1: wake up I want to be a rapper. Some days 615 00:27:46,600 --> 00:27:49,639 Speaker 1: I wake up I want to be a model, some 616 00:27:49,800 --> 00:27:51,879 Speaker 1: days I to be an actual. It's like, girl, you're 617 00:27:51,880 --> 00:27:55,880 Speaker 1: a wrapper. Just do your job. But it's like so 618 00:27:55,960 --> 00:27:59,600 Speaker 1: much you see a day that it's like you have 619 00:27:59,720 --> 00:28:03,480 Speaker 1: to become strong minded enough to know what you came 620 00:28:03,520 --> 00:28:07,919 Speaker 1: here for, get it done, get it done, and be 621 00:28:08,119 --> 00:28:11,240 Speaker 1: great at that. And I feel like that's why what 622 00:28:11,320 --> 00:28:14,399 Speaker 1: I was lacking over these years. And it's somebody so 623 00:28:14,480 --> 00:28:19,840 Speaker 1: special to me who told me that? Who did that? No, no, no, 624 00:28:21,280 --> 00:28:25,000 Speaker 1: him too, but no, um it was a female and 625 00:28:25,040 --> 00:28:27,359 Speaker 1: she was wrapper and she she she's just got the 626 00:28:27,680 --> 00:28:31,920 Speaker 1: most toughest love ever, Like she'll take me some ship 627 00:28:32,440 --> 00:28:36,720 Speaker 1: and the moment, yeah, and you'll be like and then 628 00:28:36,760 --> 00:28:38,920 Speaker 1: you'll think about it like she's all right. Like you 629 00:28:39,000 --> 00:28:42,320 Speaker 1: came here for to to You got this talent, you 630 00:28:42,400 --> 00:28:45,280 Speaker 1: got this gift. You can write this down and not 631 00:28:45,360 --> 00:28:47,720 Speaker 1: many people can do this. So you need to come. 632 00:28:48,040 --> 00:28:49,800 Speaker 1: You need to do what you came to do, and 633 00:28:49,840 --> 00:28:51,600 Speaker 1: you need to go as hard as you can. You 634 00:28:51,640 --> 00:28:54,520 Speaker 1: can't think about outside of pins because that's my problem. 635 00:28:55,520 --> 00:28:57,640 Speaker 1: I'll let everything just get in my ear because I 636 00:28:57,640 --> 00:28:59,600 Speaker 1: think they're right for whatever reason, because it's like, if 637 00:28:59,600 --> 00:29:02,000 Speaker 1: you saw right, you will be on a different level. 638 00:29:02,120 --> 00:29:04,200 Speaker 1: You won't just be talking, You'll be getting to it. 639 00:29:05,600 --> 00:29:07,800 Speaker 1: So I feel like that's why I'm at right now 640 00:29:07,920 --> 00:29:10,720 Speaker 1: my career, just just getting to it, giving giving the 641 00:29:10,760 --> 00:29:16,480 Speaker 1: people what I'm here for, which is music, and be 642 00:29:16,960 --> 00:29:20,840 Speaker 1: unapologetically mean because I feel like if I shut up, 643 00:29:21,960 --> 00:29:24,360 Speaker 1: nobody had nothing to say about me. And that's kind 644 00:29:24,360 --> 00:29:26,200 Speaker 1: of sucked up because why would I Why do I 645 00:29:26,200 --> 00:29:27,479 Speaker 1: have to shut up? Why do you want to live 646 00:29:27,520 --> 00:29:29,040 Speaker 1: your life like that? Yeah? Why do I feel in 647 00:29:29,080 --> 00:29:31,080 Speaker 1: my life like that? Because I feel like the Internet 648 00:29:31,080 --> 00:29:34,120 Speaker 1: has painted painted me. The Internet has painted me is 649 00:29:34,160 --> 00:29:39,640 Speaker 1: like this angry black girl, like she always mad, she 650 00:29:39,640 --> 00:29:43,520 Speaker 1: always got attitude. And it's like that really bothers you 651 00:29:43,520 --> 00:29:45,479 Speaker 1: because you've said that to me even before we started. 652 00:29:45,720 --> 00:29:48,680 Speaker 1: That really bothers me because it's like y'all don't even 653 00:29:48,720 --> 00:29:52,440 Speaker 1: know me. And it's like I could be joking, I 654 00:29:52,520 --> 00:29:54,880 Speaker 1: could just be talking. I could just be having an opinion. 655 00:29:55,000 --> 00:29:58,240 Speaker 1: You could be defending yourself and defending myself. And I'm 656 00:29:58,280 --> 00:30:01,040 Speaker 1: the mad one. I'm the crazy and I'm the rule one, 657 00:30:01,320 --> 00:30:05,680 Speaker 1: like I'm the nasty one. It's like I never when 658 00:30:05,760 --> 00:30:11,840 Speaker 1: at anybody unprovoked, Nobody, nobody, like nobody can never pull 659 00:30:11,960 --> 00:30:15,160 Speaker 1: up any time where it was like I woke in 660 00:30:15,240 --> 00:30:18,000 Speaker 1: my past like yeah, in my past life. I'm talking 661 00:30:18,040 --> 00:30:20,920 Speaker 1: about in celebrity life, like in my new in my 662 00:30:21,000 --> 00:30:23,680 Speaker 1: new life and me being a dog, me being grown, 663 00:30:23,760 --> 00:30:26,040 Speaker 1: me learning my lessoning. I never went to nobody. I 664 00:30:26,120 --> 00:30:28,880 Speaker 1: never woke up and just started ship with nobody. I 665 00:30:28,960 --> 00:30:33,120 Speaker 1: always defend myself, which is at this point it's just 666 00:30:33,200 --> 00:30:37,600 Speaker 1: so irrelevant to them. Defending yourself against a stranger. It's 667 00:30:37,600 --> 00:30:40,520 Speaker 1: just stupid. It's so hard not to though. It's hard 668 00:30:40,600 --> 00:30:42,880 Speaker 1: not especially you when you talk about your history and 669 00:30:42,880 --> 00:30:46,080 Speaker 1: how you came up. You you. You got sixteen brothers 670 00:30:46,120 --> 00:30:48,920 Speaker 1: and sisters. You you fight like you fight you for you. 671 00:30:48,920 --> 00:30:50,960 Speaker 1: You're trying to find your own life, your path. You 672 00:30:51,600 --> 00:30:55,560 Speaker 1: hustling you from house to house. You got trauma, your 673 00:30:55,600 --> 00:30:59,360 Speaker 1: mom's dealing with addiction. You it's not you. You're not 674 00:30:59,400 --> 00:31:01,480 Speaker 1: trying to take your from anybody. Know. Then you go 675 00:31:01,560 --> 00:31:03,560 Speaker 1: to jail. Then you come out of jail, and you 676 00:31:03,680 --> 00:31:07,520 Speaker 1: defending yourself as fifteen for fifteen months in jail. Fifteen 677 00:31:07,520 --> 00:31:09,880 Speaker 1: months in jail, I had to defend myself because people 678 00:31:09,920 --> 00:31:12,520 Speaker 1: would say, Oh, she thinks she all that, or she 679 00:31:12,560 --> 00:31:15,040 Speaker 1: ain't nobody, or she ain't this, she ain't that, if 680 00:31:15,040 --> 00:31:16,840 Speaker 1: she was this, she was this, or she was so 681 00:31:16,880 --> 00:31:19,280 Speaker 1: I had to defend myself a fifteen months in them, 682 00:31:19,360 --> 00:31:21,200 Speaker 1: and then I had to get out and defend myself 683 00:31:21,240 --> 00:31:25,680 Speaker 1: again because people not understanding my situation. Then I had 684 00:31:25,720 --> 00:31:28,560 Speaker 1: to defend myself from people saying like, oh, she got 685 00:31:28,600 --> 00:31:30,640 Speaker 1: her face done, she got this done, she got this thing, 686 00:31:30,720 --> 00:31:32,720 Speaker 1: she got this, And I'm like, no, I fucking din 687 00:31:33,360 --> 00:31:36,960 Speaker 1: I got my teeth thing. And it's like I got 688 00:31:36,960 --> 00:31:39,640 Speaker 1: a good face beat. Yeah, I got a great face beat. 689 00:31:39,960 --> 00:31:41,479 Speaker 1: And I'm taking care of my skin. I'm taking care 690 00:31:41,480 --> 00:31:43,240 Speaker 1: of myself, babe. They're not gonna have that much time. 691 00:31:43,280 --> 00:31:46,000 Speaker 1: It's taking myself. I'm hustling. I'm I'm getting out the mud. 692 00:31:46,000 --> 00:31:47,640 Speaker 1: I'm not really worried. I don't even know too much 693 00:31:47,680 --> 00:31:50,200 Speaker 1: about beauty and glamour and all that. From where I'm from. 694 00:31:50,200 --> 00:31:52,600 Speaker 1: We just out here getting it. We're not running about 695 00:31:52,640 --> 00:31:54,880 Speaker 1: a face when we're not round about if I face 696 00:31:55,480 --> 00:31:57,480 Speaker 1: is beat. We run about getting to them folds and 697 00:31:57,480 --> 00:32:00,520 Speaker 1: getting our money and selling our ships. So I'm not 698 00:32:00,640 --> 00:32:04,200 Speaker 1: paying myself. It's this beautiful girl paying myself. It's this hustler. 699 00:32:04,240 --> 00:32:05,760 Speaker 1: But now that I got the time to relax, I 700 00:32:05,760 --> 00:32:07,880 Speaker 1: can pay myself. It's a beautiful girl. So now I 701 00:32:07,920 --> 00:32:09,640 Speaker 1: gotta defend myself. But you were saying I got my 702 00:32:09,680 --> 00:32:11,480 Speaker 1: nose done. You're saying I need you. Just you saying 703 00:32:11,600 --> 00:32:13,720 Speaker 1: do this. You're bringing up my mug shot, You're saying 704 00:32:13,720 --> 00:32:17,080 Speaker 1: that I'm ugly, ugly. It's you're saying it like I'm 705 00:32:17,120 --> 00:32:22,080 Speaker 1: just tired. So it's just like, of course I'm gonna 706 00:32:22,080 --> 00:32:25,520 Speaker 1: wake up every day defensive because I'm barely seeing good 707 00:32:25,520 --> 00:32:29,520 Speaker 1: things about myself. It's so crazy too, because I only 708 00:32:29,560 --> 00:32:32,040 Speaker 1: know you for this short period of time. Watching your 709 00:32:32,040 --> 00:32:34,200 Speaker 1: career and then having this little interaction we spoke the 710 00:32:34,200 --> 00:32:36,440 Speaker 1: other day on the phone and then today, and I 711 00:32:36,480 --> 00:32:39,920 Speaker 1: feel like the things about your character that stands out 712 00:32:39,960 --> 00:32:42,200 Speaker 1: to me not and I know you could be sassy. 713 00:32:42,240 --> 00:32:44,000 Speaker 1: I didn't see some of the videos and the tweets 714 00:32:44,000 --> 00:32:46,280 Speaker 1: and all of that ship, but like the way you 715 00:32:46,320 --> 00:32:49,920 Speaker 1: hold your your your friend down because you know they 716 00:32:49,960 --> 00:32:53,160 Speaker 1: try to. They'll compare you to Karsian. The way you 717 00:32:53,920 --> 00:32:56,960 Speaker 1: hold your stance next to that is admirable. The way 718 00:32:57,000 --> 00:32:58,840 Speaker 1: you came out of prison and got to your business 719 00:32:58,920 --> 00:33:01,160 Speaker 1: is admirable. The way you came from what you come 720 00:33:01,280 --> 00:33:05,320 Speaker 1: from and survived that, it's like admirable and you should 721 00:33:05,520 --> 00:33:08,479 Speaker 1: even like seeing you in your relationship. I think I'm like, 722 00:33:08,600 --> 00:33:11,280 Speaker 1: I see the soft side, like I see that you 723 00:33:11,320 --> 00:33:13,840 Speaker 1: are a kring person, you know what I'm saying, Like Karen, like, 724 00:33:13,880 --> 00:33:17,000 Speaker 1: I'm I'm so sweet, But then again, I do have 725 00:33:17,040 --> 00:33:20,280 Speaker 1: that defense side that that's just it comes from salt. Well, 726 00:33:20,320 --> 00:33:21,920 Speaker 1: what does that sweet side come from? Where do you 727 00:33:21,920 --> 00:33:24,800 Speaker 1: attribute that too? I think that it comes from like 728 00:33:25,040 --> 00:33:26,840 Speaker 1: not want to go back to where I used to be, 729 00:33:27,640 --> 00:33:29,600 Speaker 1: you know, like I would never want to go back there. 730 00:33:29,640 --> 00:33:33,120 Speaker 1: It's like a scariest thought, Like sometimes I get so scared, 731 00:33:33,120 --> 00:33:34,320 Speaker 1: I'm like, oh my god, what if I have to 732 00:33:34,320 --> 00:33:36,320 Speaker 1: go back there? But it's just come from there. It 733 00:33:36,400 --> 00:33:38,120 Speaker 1: comes from not want to go back so where I 734 00:33:38,200 --> 00:33:40,720 Speaker 1: used to be. Always want to see my people happy, 735 00:33:40,840 --> 00:33:44,560 Speaker 1: Like I never want to disappoint nobody that I love, Like, 736 00:33:44,640 --> 00:33:46,400 Speaker 1: if I love you, I don't want to disappoint you. 737 00:33:46,520 --> 00:33:48,480 Speaker 1: I don't want to make you feel sad. I don't 738 00:33:48,480 --> 00:33:50,120 Speaker 1: want to I don't want to do nothing like that 739 00:33:50,200 --> 00:33:52,640 Speaker 1: to you if I love you, you know. So that's 740 00:33:52,680 --> 00:33:54,560 Speaker 1: where my sweet side kind of come from. And then 741 00:33:54,560 --> 00:33:57,400 Speaker 1: I know I'm sometimes a bit, but my bit side 742 00:33:57,400 --> 00:33:58,840 Speaker 1: come from want to see the best out of my 743 00:33:58,920 --> 00:34:00,920 Speaker 1: people and don't want to to suck me up because 744 00:34:01,520 --> 00:34:03,000 Speaker 1: now that the time to say I'm getting sucked though, 745 00:34:03,040 --> 00:34:06,440 Speaker 1: But like I'm the one who getting sucked over every time, 746 00:34:06,520 --> 00:34:08,359 Speaker 1: and it's like, damn whit, you're sucking me up. I'm 747 00:34:08,400 --> 00:34:11,480 Speaker 1: just so even the fact even the way you talk 748 00:34:11,520 --> 00:34:14,200 Speaker 1: about like your mom, like you said you said earlier 749 00:34:14,200 --> 00:34:16,759 Speaker 1: when we're talking about young JT, that like your mom 750 00:34:16,920 --> 00:34:18,560 Speaker 1: was doing with drugs back then, and it was a 751 00:34:18,600 --> 00:34:20,680 Speaker 1: lot of times she wasn't there, No, she wasn't there 752 00:34:20,800 --> 00:34:24,000 Speaker 1: like ever, like for real now you have found like 753 00:34:24,120 --> 00:34:26,799 Speaker 1: you love. Yeah, but I'm working on that too, because 754 00:34:26,800 --> 00:34:28,200 Speaker 1: I still talk to her in any kind of way. 755 00:34:29,760 --> 00:34:33,719 Speaker 1: Is that from like basically it's basically like I'm talking 756 00:34:33,719 --> 00:34:35,759 Speaker 1: to her like I'm the mom you trying to say, 757 00:34:35,760 --> 00:34:38,920 Speaker 1: and sometimes I feel bad after I hang up what 758 00:34:39,080 --> 00:34:42,560 Speaker 1: you never said that? But it's like you and my 759 00:34:42,640 --> 00:34:46,160 Speaker 1: mom is so entitled and I don't even think it's 760 00:34:46,280 --> 00:34:50,520 Speaker 1: entitled me. I think it's more so overexcitement and my 761 00:34:50,520 --> 00:34:53,640 Speaker 1: my daughter got money and like everything that I went through, 762 00:34:54,239 --> 00:34:58,120 Speaker 1: my mom lives lives great because of me. And I 763 00:34:58,160 --> 00:35:00,880 Speaker 1: think it's just be over excitement like up and I 764 00:35:00,960 --> 00:35:05,040 Speaker 1: take it it's boasting and I don't like boasting. That's 765 00:35:05,040 --> 00:35:07,960 Speaker 1: my Peppie boasting. No, you don't really, No, I don't 766 00:35:07,960 --> 00:35:11,759 Speaker 1: know you talking for a living on records because that's 767 00:35:11,840 --> 00:35:17,040 Speaker 1: my job. That's my job. That's your job, you Cora 768 00:35:17,520 --> 00:35:19,000 Speaker 1: and other women. You know what I'm trying to say, 769 00:35:19,080 --> 00:35:20,840 Speaker 1: Like when I talk my ship, I popped my shape. 770 00:35:20,880 --> 00:35:22,880 Speaker 1: Come from me just popping my ship probably to react 771 00:35:22,920 --> 00:35:25,080 Speaker 1: to somebody. But I'm not gonna shoot. I'm not gonna 772 00:35:25,080 --> 00:35:26,640 Speaker 1: stand on the body for no reason, Like I'm not 773 00:35:26,680 --> 00:35:28,719 Speaker 1: waking for your mom. You don't think you don't think 774 00:35:28,719 --> 00:35:30,840 Speaker 1: you've got some of that from your mother. My mom 775 00:35:31,040 --> 00:35:34,160 Speaker 1: is like delustional, like she literally thinks that, Like I'm 776 00:35:34,200 --> 00:35:37,919 Speaker 1: like girl like she's like she'll go somewhere and she'll 777 00:35:38,040 --> 00:35:40,480 Speaker 1: order like so much. She didn't call my phone and 778 00:35:40,560 --> 00:35:44,759 Speaker 1: be like my daughter got it. And I'm like, like 779 00:35:44,880 --> 00:35:47,279 Speaker 1: where you get this attitude from because that's not me, 780 00:35:47,400 --> 00:35:50,560 Speaker 1: Like I'm so like, I'm so timmy. You know it's 781 00:35:50,600 --> 00:35:52,799 Speaker 1: areas because I know what it's not, what it's like 782 00:35:52,920 --> 00:35:56,160 Speaker 1: not to have ship. But if you piss me off, 783 00:35:56,160 --> 00:35:59,399 Speaker 1: I'm a sun or you. Like if you piss me off, 784 00:35:59,400 --> 00:36:00,480 Speaker 1: I'm a sun or you. But if you don't do 785 00:36:00,560 --> 00:36:02,600 Speaker 1: nothing to me, I'm just not I'm gonnag regular around 786 00:36:02,640 --> 00:36:04,680 Speaker 1: my friends. I'm gonna go around you with my sweats. 787 00:36:04,680 --> 00:36:06,680 Speaker 1: I'm going around my regular hair. I'm not every trying 788 00:36:06,680 --> 00:36:09,680 Speaker 1: to be like the biggest one or like treat nobody 789 00:36:09,719 --> 00:36:11,440 Speaker 1: like ship, because that's not where I come from. I 790 00:36:11,560 --> 00:36:14,000 Speaker 1: come from sixteen sisters and brothers. I come from living 791 00:36:14,040 --> 00:36:17,080 Speaker 1: with my cousins, you know, sharing clothes. I come from 792 00:36:17,120 --> 00:36:19,600 Speaker 1: like sleeping on the floor. I come from sharing everything. 793 00:36:19,719 --> 00:36:22,400 Speaker 1: So that's all I know is to share the space. 794 00:36:22,840 --> 00:36:26,080 Speaker 1: So I really don't know how to be the stand 795 00:36:26,120 --> 00:36:28,359 Speaker 1: out all the time you get I'm trying to say, 796 00:36:28,400 --> 00:36:31,480 Speaker 1: that's not my character because I'm so used to sharing space. 797 00:36:32,600 --> 00:36:35,000 Speaker 1: So probably why you're a good member of a group. Yeah, 798 00:36:35,160 --> 00:36:36,719 Speaker 1: Like I'm a good member of a group because I'm 799 00:36:36,719 --> 00:36:38,879 Speaker 1: not used to being a standout because I'm so used 800 00:36:38,920 --> 00:36:42,040 Speaker 1: to sharing, sharing everything. If you were only child, I 801 00:36:42,080 --> 00:36:43,920 Speaker 1: don't know if city girls would happen. I don't know 802 00:36:43,960 --> 00:36:46,879 Speaker 1: if city girls could be yeah no, no, no, no no. 803 00:36:47,360 --> 00:36:49,680 Speaker 1: But it's just like and if you feel like why 804 00:36:49,719 --> 00:36:50,800 Speaker 1: you don't do this? Why do you don't know that? 805 00:36:50,880 --> 00:36:53,160 Speaker 1: And I'm like, I'm just trying to figure it out. 806 00:36:53,360 --> 00:36:56,000 Speaker 1: Who taught you all these? Like because you know the 807 00:36:56,239 --> 00:36:58,759 Speaker 1: state your mom wasn't at that time, and he wasn't 808 00:36:58,800 --> 00:37:00,839 Speaker 1: with your dad, So who taught you all this? Like 809 00:37:01,320 --> 00:37:07,200 Speaker 1: forgiveness and hard work and loyalty and life. Life teach 810 00:37:07,200 --> 00:37:09,719 Speaker 1: you that your life is life will definitely teach you 811 00:37:09,880 --> 00:37:13,600 Speaker 1: like forgiveness, hard work, and like because if you don't record, 812 00:37:13,680 --> 00:37:16,919 Speaker 1: I wouldn't have nothing. If I don't work. Nobody wasn't 813 00:37:16,960 --> 00:37:19,760 Speaker 1: handing me ship like I was nobody's daughter in the house. 814 00:37:20,560 --> 00:37:23,360 Speaker 1: I was nobody's sister. I was just the friends. I 815 00:37:23,440 --> 00:37:25,680 Speaker 1: was living with my friends. I'm not. I'm not nobody's daughter, 816 00:37:25,719 --> 00:37:28,760 Speaker 1: nobody only ship. They'll do it because they feel sorry, 817 00:37:29,120 --> 00:37:31,279 Speaker 1: or they feel bad or they wanted to wait, I'm not. 818 00:37:31,400 --> 00:37:33,239 Speaker 1: That's not my mom. So I have to get up 819 00:37:33,239 --> 00:37:35,640 Speaker 1: and go to work and I have to bring something 820 00:37:35,800 --> 00:37:39,040 Speaker 1: to this household to be here. So that's that could 821 00:37:39,040 --> 00:37:41,279 Speaker 1: turn somebody angry, Like the fact that you forgive your 822 00:37:41,320 --> 00:37:44,640 Speaker 1: mom and you have this relationship with her now, I 823 00:37:44,640 --> 00:37:46,520 Speaker 1: don't know. It's just like how do you find Where 824 00:37:46,520 --> 00:37:49,320 Speaker 1: do you find that? Where does that come? It's like 825 00:37:49,400 --> 00:37:53,040 Speaker 1: a wow, It's like a wow. Um. At first, I 826 00:37:53,160 --> 00:37:55,799 Speaker 1: was just I still to this day getting my modes 827 00:37:55,840 --> 00:37:59,000 Speaker 1: and tell my mom, I don't owe your ship. I 828 00:37:59,040 --> 00:38:01,440 Speaker 1: get my modes. I would sell fast. I don't know 829 00:38:01,680 --> 00:38:04,359 Speaker 1: ship not have to remind her. Then I feel bad 830 00:38:04,680 --> 00:38:08,600 Speaker 1: because I feel like maybe her what she went through 831 00:38:08,680 --> 00:38:13,200 Speaker 1: was the reason I'm blessed. Oh get it? So I'm like, 832 00:38:13,239 --> 00:38:15,000 Speaker 1: maybe what my mom went through is the reason I'm 833 00:38:15,040 --> 00:38:17,640 Speaker 1: blessed because she just went through so much. She went 834 00:38:17,680 --> 00:38:19,320 Speaker 1: through a lot. My mom went through so much, I 835 00:38:19,360 --> 00:38:21,680 Speaker 1: don't even want to sell you. And I saw my 836 00:38:21,680 --> 00:38:24,400 Speaker 1: mom go through so much, and I saw my dad 837 00:38:24,800 --> 00:38:26,759 Speaker 1: paying my mom as the bad Like now that I'm old, 838 00:38:26,760 --> 00:38:28,279 Speaker 1: I'm like, my dad was really paying my mom as 839 00:38:28,280 --> 00:38:30,720 Speaker 1: a bad person, but she was just trying. But since 840 00:38:30,719 --> 00:38:33,400 Speaker 1: she couldn't be who he wanted her to be, he 841 00:38:33,400 --> 00:38:35,799 Speaker 1: would keep you away from me and your mom don't 842 00:38:35,800 --> 00:38:37,200 Speaker 1: want you. Like if I get to be in I'd 843 00:38:37,200 --> 00:38:39,359 Speaker 1: be like, I want my mama. Your mom, I don't 844 00:38:39,360 --> 00:38:42,719 Speaker 1: want you. So it's like my mom, I don't want me. 845 00:38:42,719 --> 00:38:45,000 Speaker 1: So then I'm growing up paying my mom because my 846 00:38:45,120 --> 00:38:48,160 Speaker 1: dad told me my mom and don't want me. When 847 00:38:48,160 --> 00:38:51,040 Speaker 1: did you find out she did want you? Girl? I 848 00:38:51,120 --> 00:38:55,279 Speaker 1: never you don't think so gift time without feeling like that. 849 00:38:56,680 --> 00:38:59,120 Speaker 1: I want to say, like me being older and me 850 00:38:59,200 --> 00:39:01,680 Speaker 1: seeing how seriou his life is, like I kind of 851 00:39:01,680 --> 00:39:05,160 Speaker 1: don't blame her. You know, life is hard, Like life 852 00:39:05,239 --> 00:39:07,279 Speaker 1: is hard even with the position I mean, and like 853 00:39:08,160 --> 00:39:12,600 Speaker 1: trying to beat addiction and raise the child. Imagine it 854 00:39:12,719 --> 00:39:15,800 Speaker 1: like I don't do drugs. I smoke, but hard drugs. 855 00:39:15,840 --> 00:39:18,279 Speaker 1: I can never do the hard drugs. Well, I knock 856 00:39:18,320 --> 00:39:21,400 Speaker 1: on wood. You can't because if I do hard. I 857 00:39:21,440 --> 00:39:24,680 Speaker 1: felt my family, my whole family is a victim. My 858 00:39:24,719 --> 00:39:27,000 Speaker 1: whole mom's out of family, and my dad too. My 859 00:39:27,080 --> 00:39:29,720 Speaker 1: dad used to sell it into it. So I feel 860 00:39:29,719 --> 00:39:32,400 Speaker 1: like if I do it, I'll fall so flat on 861 00:39:32,440 --> 00:39:35,239 Speaker 1: my face so hard. Drugs it's just something I don't do. 862 00:39:36,280 --> 00:39:37,920 Speaker 1: And I just started smoking me when I got out 863 00:39:37,960 --> 00:39:40,279 Speaker 1: of jail, like just to be cool. And I was like, 864 00:39:40,280 --> 00:39:42,799 Speaker 1: it's a little but it ain't nothing I need every day. 865 00:39:43,760 --> 00:39:45,400 Speaker 1: I ain't rolling that ship up every day, but I 866 00:39:45,480 --> 00:39:48,160 Speaker 1: do it sometimes just be like meditate, but it ain't 867 00:39:48,960 --> 00:39:53,399 Speaker 1: too right, not right now, right now? He's drug really Yeah, 868 00:39:54,520 --> 00:39:59,160 Speaker 1: is he different that he looks? Great man? I love 869 00:39:59,200 --> 00:40:01,120 Speaker 1: the way you talk about Yeah, he's a great man. 870 00:40:01,200 --> 00:40:03,640 Speaker 1: He's a great I can say Oozy is a great 871 00:40:04,080 --> 00:40:07,080 Speaker 1: man no matter how the Internet tries to paint us, 872 00:40:07,880 --> 00:40:11,640 Speaker 1: because he's so artist artist, he's so like yeah, he's 873 00:40:11,680 --> 00:40:13,839 Speaker 1: so much like he gotta work every night, he has 874 00:40:13,880 --> 00:40:18,120 Speaker 1: work right now like me, I'm sleep I'm sleeping all 875 00:40:18,160 --> 00:40:20,319 Speaker 1: the time. But I'm so lucky and fortunate to have 876 00:40:20,400 --> 00:40:24,200 Speaker 1: somebody like him because he's so inspiring like he he 877 00:40:24,320 --> 00:40:26,040 Speaker 1: no matter what he's going through, he's going to write 878 00:40:26,200 --> 00:40:30,399 Speaker 1: like you know, like and that's so when I see 879 00:40:30,480 --> 00:40:31,839 Speaker 1: him in his bag, I'll be like, I gotta get 880 00:40:31,880 --> 00:40:34,440 Speaker 1: in my bag because this nigga isn't his bag. He's 881 00:40:34,440 --> 00:40:37,200 Speaker 1: not giving up. He comes back to him every time. 882 00:40:38,040 --> 00:40:40,720 Speaker 1: So what a nice thing to say about your partner. 883 00:40:41,160 --> 00:40:43,560 Speaker 1: He's a great man, Like he's a great great man. 884 00:40:45,160 --> 00:40:47,080 Speaker 1: That must be so nice for him to hear that. 885 00:40:47,800 --> 00:40:50,200 Speaker 1: You don't hear that every day. Okay, no, you can't 886 00:40:50,200 --> 00:40:52,480 Speaker 1: tell him every day. You don't hear that every day now, 887 00:40:52,560 --> 00:40:55,719 Speaker 1: but here majority but he's emotional with you, even publicly. 888 00:40:55,800 --> 00:41:01,640 Speaker 1: He has shown affection publicly. Yeah, yes, he's the way. 889 00:41:01,840 --> 00:41:06,560 Speaker 1: Um he's actually kind of shy. So I think people 890 00:41:06,600 --> 00:41:09,920 Speaker 1: take him as being like scrape faced, is mean, but 891 00:41:10,080 --> 00:41:12,680 Speaker 1: he's just like I'm just over the top, like yeah, yeah, 892 00:41:12,840 --> 00:41:18,359 Speaker 1: he's like like putting me on spot. Like so he's 893 00:41:18,440 --> 00:41:21,279 Speaker 1: like so he's a great man. Like he's a great guy. 894 00:41:21,440 --> 00:41:23,680 Speaker 1: Do you know how I mean? Just if we look 895 00:41:23,680 --> 00:41:27,200 Speaker 1: at like statistics coming from the household you came from, 896 00:41:27,440 --> 00:41:30,239 Speaker 1: the households you came from, you would be living in 897 00:41:30,239 --> 00:41:33,440 Speaker 1: the house and what seems to be for you a healthy, 898 00:41:33,560 --> 00:41:37,000 Speaker 1: happy relationship, um with somebody that you say it is 899 00:41:37,000 --> 00:41:39,560 Speaker 1: a great man. Do you know statistically that that's like 900 00:41:39,840 --> 00:41:43,000 Speaker 1: impossible almost and and and that's why I kind of 901 00:41:43,120 --> 00:41:46,920 Speaker 1: like me, I don't. I don't want to date no 902 00:41:47,160 --> 00:41:50,280 Speaker 1: one of like what I've seen in my whole life, 903 00:41:51,239 --> 00:41:53,320 Speaker 1: Like I don't. I've been a prison, I'm a gangster, 904 00:41:53,520 --> 00:41:55,600 Speaker 1: I'm a thug, So I don't have to date that 905 00:41:55,640 --> 00:41:58,000 Speaker 1: because I'm already yet. And who say he's not that 906 00:41:58,680 --> 00:42:03,480 Speaker 1: because he'd be chilling you. But I don't have to 907 00:42:03,520 --> 00:42:04,920 Speaker 1: paint the never, so I don't have to be that 908 00:42:05,040 --> 00:42:08,480 Speaker 1: girl like to date what people want me to date 909 00:42:08,560 --> 00:42:11,520 Speaker 1: because they feel like that fits me, because they obviously 910 00:42:11,560 --> 00:42:14,319 Speaker 1: don't fit me because I'm being a done it. I've 911 00:42:14,320 --> 00:42:19,440 Speaker 1: been a done it myself, like I did the whole prison, judge, 912 00:42:19,800 --> 00:42:22,080 Speaker 1: police car. I don't need any who did that because 913 00:42:22,120 --> 00:42:24,600 Speaker 1: I did it, So I don't need to be looking 914 00:42:24,680 --> 00:42:26,359 Speaker 1: up to know me. I didn't even I didn't even 915 00:42:26,360 --> 00:42:27,840 Speaker 1: mean like that that you should be with somebody like that. 916 00:42:27,880 --> 00:42:31,120 Speaker 1: I mean just relationships are hard in general to people 917 00:42:31,640 --> 00:42:34,480 Speaker 1: because you live together people in the house. It's so hard. 918 00:42:34,800 --> 00:42:37,279 Speaker 1: It's hard. Yeah, I'll be a liar if I say 919 00:42:37,280 --> 00:42:39,440 Speaker 1: it's not hard, because some days when I'm having a 920 00:42:39,480 --> 00:42:41,840 Speaker 1: bad day or I feel like I'm not where I 921 00:42:41,880 --> 00:42:45,640 Speaker 1: need to be. I kind of feel like I bring 922 00:42:45,680 --> 00:42:49,399 Speaker 1: that energy in the house and I'm such a I'm 923 00:42:49,400 --> 00:42:52,120 Speaker 1: not gonna say a bit, but I'm so hard on myself. 924 00:42:52,239 --> 00:42:54,080 Speaker 1: And when somebody care about you, they don't want to 925 00:42:54,080 --> 00:42:56,040 Speaker 1: see being like that on yourself, so they're trying to 926 00:42:56,080 --> 00:42:57,920 Speaker 1: fix it for you, and you're trying to tell them 927 00:42:57,960 --> 00:43:00,600 Speaker 1: it's not about you. Hate when they do that, it's 928 00:43:00,640 --> 00:43:03,319 Speaker 1: about me, but it's nice they mean, well, you mean well, 929 00:43:03,440 --> 00:43:05,920 Speaker 1: but it's about me. I'm trying to fix myself. And 930 00:43:05,920 --> 00:43:09,080 Speaker 1: then he gets frustrated about it because it's like, am 931 00:43:09,120 --> 00:43:11,000 Speaker 1: I not doing something right? You know what I'm trying 932 00:43:11,000 --> 00:43:12,840 Speaker 1: to say? Am I not doing something right? And I'm like, 933 00:43:12,880 --> 00:43:15,680 Speaker 1: you're doing everything right. I'm not doing something right. You're 934 00:43:15,719 --> 00:43:17,840 Speaker 1: I'm trying to say, I'm not doing what I'm supposed 935 00:43:17,840 --> 00:43:19,480 Speaker 1: to do, and I don't want to at the end 936 00:43:19,480 --> 00:43:20,960 Speaker 1: of the day when it all falls down, I don't 937 00:43:20,960 --> 00:43:23,279 Speaker 1: want to let you down because it's it's all funny 938 00:43:23,360 --> 00:43:26,440 Speaker 1: games now, but in the future, I always want to 939 00:43:26,480 --> 00:43:31,120 Speaker 1: be his rather have people paying it as I'm a 940 00:43:31,120 --> 00:43:33,040 Speaker 1: city girl and all that. I always want to be 941 00:43:33,400 --> 00:43:35,319 Speaker 1: his fifty fifty Like, if he ever need me, I 942 00:43:35,400 --> 00:43:40,400 Speaker 1: want to be that girl to catch him. So, yeah're 943 00:43:40,480 --> 00:43:45,200 Speaker 1: so cute. People don't know you're like us. They don't, 944 00:43:45,440 --> 00:43:48,480 Speaker 1: but you're so likable. I am so likable. But I 945 00:43:48,520 --> 00:43:51,200 Speaker 1: don't give a thing like me. You're right, Oh that's 946 00:43:51,200 --> 00:43:54,719 Speaker 1: a good Instagram mean it says, um, be a good person, 947 00:43:54,760 --> 00:43:58,279 Speaker 1: but don't waste any time trying to prove it to anybody. Yeah, 948 00:43:59,000 --> 00:44:02,520 Speaker 1: but I feel like now now, At first, I would 949 00:44:02,520 --> 00:44:05,040 Speaker 1: say I don't care if nobody like me. I don't care. 950 00:44:05,040 --> 00:44:07,239 Speaker 1: I don't care. I don't care with me. But I 951 00:44:07,280 --> 00:44:10,800 Speaker 1: feel like, like even when I'm like my little mental 952 00:44:10,840 --> 00:44:12,520 Speaker 1: breaks because I take mental breaks of life and I 953 00:44:12,560 --> 00:44:15,040 Speaker 1: need to see a therapist. I've been working on getting 954 00:44:15,040 --> 00:44:17,840 Speaker 1: a therapist because I need a therapist because I'm cool, 955 00:44:18,440 --> 00:44:23,560 Speaker 1: but we are not trauma. You might have some trauma anxiety. 956 00:44:23,560 --> 00:44:25,920 Speaker 1: And I say, you know, there's so many little girls 957 00:44:25,960 --> 00:44:31,080 Speaker 1: write me girls not little girls, women, girls, teenagers, people 958 00:44:31,080 --> 00:44:33,560 Speaker 1: that's older than me, right me, and who feel like 959 00:44:33,560 --> 00:44:36,439 Speaker 1: they look like me. They've been through what I've been through, 960 00:44:37,000 --> 00:44:38,799 Speaker 1: and I feel like it's my responsibility to be a 961 00:44:38,800 --> 00:44:41,520 Speaker 1: good person for them, you know. So it's like this year, 962 00:44:41,560 --> 00:44:43,160 Speaker 1: I just want to be who I am, Like I'm 963 00:44:43,200 --> 00:44:45,600 Speaker 1: a good person. I don't want nobody to keep thinking 964 00:44:45,600 --> 00:44:47,759 Speaker 1: I'm a bitch or I'm a bad person. And I 965 00:44:48,200 --> 00:44:50,680 Speaker 1: just feel like I'm really misunderstood and I never trying 966 00:44:50,719 --> 00:44:54,440 Speaker 1: to explain myself, and when I do try to explain myself, 967 00:44:54,440 --> 00:44:56,080 Speaker 1: they don't believe me anyway. So I just be like, 968 00:44:56,560 --> 00:44:59,440 Speaker 1: I don't care. But you do feel that responsibility and 969 00:45:00,040 --> 00:45:04,480 Speaker 1: responsibility as a as a black woman, as a like 970 00:45:05,280 --> 00:45:10,319 Speaker 1: a rapper, as the everything. I feel like I don't 971 00:45:10,320 --> 00:45:14,359 Speaker 1: want to paint their narrative, paint the narrative of just 972 00:45:14,440 --> 00:45:18,480 Speaker 1: being ignorant. Hmm. I think that's the way you do it, 973 00:45:18,520 --> 00:45:20,560 Speaker 1: but it doesn't. It doesn't have to be you proven 974 00:45:20,680 --> 00:45:22,920 Speaker 1: or over explaining that you're a good person. But I 975 00:45:22,960 --> 00:45:26,799 Speaker 1: think you constantly becoming the best person. Yeah, I just 976 00:45:26,840 --> 00:45:29,920 Speaker 1: want to be this year like I want to be 977 00:45:30,200 --> 00:45:32,520 Speaker 1: the best person I could be out looued, Like I 978 00:45:32,520 --> 00:45:36,640 Speaker 1: feel like I'm a I'm a great person behind closed doors, 979 00:45:37,280 --> 00:45:38,839 Speaker 1: but I want to be the best person I could 980 00:45:38,840 --> 00:45:41,640 Speaker 1: be allowed but like the people that believe in me, 981 00:45:41,719 --> 00:45:43,880 Speaker 1: the people who don't like you know, and I feel 982 00:45:43,920 --> 00:45:46,759 Speaker 1: like I've been through what the normal girl's been through, 983 00:45:47,719 --> 00:45:50,719 Speaker 1: and then some in being some I look like the 984 00:45:50,800 --> 00:45:53,640 Speaker 1: normal girl. So it's my responsibility to be a good person, 985 00:45:53,680 --> 00:45:54,960 Speaker 1: allowed to let them know the it's cool to be 986 00:45:54,960 --> 00:45:57,440 Speaker 1: a good person. Why do you think you need therapy? 987 00:45:57,760 --> 00:46:00,640 Speaker 1: Like what specifically? I need therapy because the way I 988 00:46:00,680 --> 00:46:03,160 Speaker 1: react to things, the way I think of things, the 989 00:46:03,200 --> 00:46:09,719 Speaker 1: way I respond um, the way I feel like what 990 00:46:10,000 --> 00:46:14,720 Speaker 1: like anxious, like angry anxiety, or like I know something 991 00:46:14,760 --> 00:46:18,360 Speaker 1: bad it's about to happen. I just trauma. Like I 992 00:46:19,160 --> 00:46:22,520 Speaker 1: it's nothing good can happen without me thinking something bad 993 00:46:22,520 --> 00:46:25,239 Speaker 1: it's gonna happen. And it's so true, something bad, it's 994 00:46:25,280 --> 00:46:29,640 Speaker 1: going to happen in my life every time something good happens. 995 00:46:30,160 --> 00:46:33,680 Speaker 1: So it's just like that's not necessarily true. It feel 996 00:46:33,760 --> 00:46:37,680 Speaker 1: like it. It feels like it's so um. I think 997 00:46:37,719 --> 00:46:41,680 Speaker 1: therapy will help you get some of that. It's even 998 00:46:41,719 --> 00:46:44,239 Speaker 1: like if I'll just share something to like so I 999 00:46:44,280 --> 00:46:46,240 Speaker 1: had to do. I had some PTSD from a situation 1000 00:46:46,280 --> 00:46:48,319 Speaker 1: I was in and I always felt like even it 1001 00:46:48,400 --> 00:46:49,839 Speaker 1: was for me driving right, So I had a bad 1002 00:46:49,840 --> 00:46:51,840 Speaker 1: car accident. I could never drive. I would get in 1003 00:46:51,840 --> 00:46:53,759 Speaker 1: the car my hands with shake like this, and the 1004 00:46:53,760 --> 00:46:57,000 Speaker 1: therapist told me, like it's okay, Like you're gonna drive 1005 00:46:57,040 --> 00:46:59,839 Speaker 1: like this in six months, you're gonna feel a little better. 1006 00:47:00,000 --> 00:47:02,640 Speaker 1: Six months more than that, you're gonna feel a little better. 1007 00:47:02,920 --> 00:47:04,239 Speaker 1: And you have to learn how to be in the 1008 00:47:04,280 --> 00:47:07,560 Speaker 1: president and remind yourself you're okay. And that she taught 1009 00:47:07,560 --> 00:47:09,279 Speaker 1: me how to deal with my trauma, which was that, 1010 00:47:09,320 --> 00:47:11,080 Speaker 1: I mean, your trauma is a different type of trauma, 1011 00:47:11,120 --> 00:47:12,960 Speaker 1: but it can be it can be dealt with like 1012 00:47:13,040 --> 00:47:18,600 Speaker 1: you can you're and you can be feel safe sometimes exactly. 1013 00:47:18,640 --> 00:47:21,560 Speaker 1: And I feel like my past trauma if affects so 1014 00:47:21,680 --> 00:47:26,279 Speaker 1: much around me, my relationship get like I live in 1015 00:47:26,280 --> 00:47:29,080 Speaker 1: a house with I man, right, and I feel like 1016 00:47:29,680 --> 00:47:33,000 Speaker 1: I'm not domesticated because I didn't have time to be 1017 00:47:33,040 --> 00:47:35,080 Speaker 1: domesticated because who taught you how to told me how 1018 00:47:35,080 --> 00:47:36,600 Speaker 1: to be investicated? Who even told you how to be 1019 00:47:36,600 --> 00:47:39,319 Speaker 1: in a relationship, right, So it's just like I'm trying 1020 00:47:39,320 --> 00:47:42,040 Speaker 1: to figure this out every day, and I don't want 1021 00:47:42,080 --> 00:47:45,759 Speaker 1: you to think you're not doing your job because I'm 1022 00:47:45,760 --> 00:47:48,360 Speaker 1: not domesticated. I'm trying to figure myself out. So we 1023 00:47:48,520 --> 00:47:51,200 Speaker 1: just too young artists in a house with each other, 1024 00:47:51,239 --> 00:47:52,799 Speaker 1: trying to figure each other out there I can only 1025 00:47:52,840 --> 00:47:55,759 Speaker 1: imagine the conversation. So it's just like he's trying to 1026 00:47:55,760 --> 00:47:58,400 Speaker 1: sit down and counsel me, and I'm like going across 1027 00:47:58,440 --> 00:48:01,560 Speaker 1: at it, like I don't I just want to be 1028 00:48:02,239 --> 00:48:05,359 Speaker 1: you know more, And he always reassured me that, like 1029 00:48:06,239 --> 00:48:08,160 Speaker 1: it's not about who you are. I just love you 1030 00:48:08,200 --> 00:48:11,640 Speaker 1: for you getting So it's just like, no, I can't 1031 00:48:11,680 --> 00:48:14,120 Speaker 1: let you down. Like what do you think he saw 1032 00:48:14,160 --> 00:48:17,680 Speaker 1: in you? Because he saw something that he came Like 1033 00:48:17,880 --> 00:48:20,240 Speaker 1: to this day, I don't not know what he's sawing 1034 00:48:20,320 --> 00:48:24,399 Speaker 1: me because it's just like me just like coming from 1035 00:48:24,400 --> 00:48:28,160 Speaker 1: where I come from, going through what I went through, 1036 00:48:28,440 --> 00:48:31,080 Speaker 1: I don't know what made me so deserving of somebody 1037 00:48:31,160 --> 00:48:36,360 Speaker 1: so good. That's so sweet. So I just still to 1038 00:48:36,440 --> 00:48:39,319 Speaker 1: this day a little bit get a little feisty about there, 1039 00:48:39,360 --> 00:48:42,000 Speaker 1: like what you want and wet that we don't be 1040 00:48:42,040 --> 00:48:44,719 Speaker 1: together for years, and it's like what you want you 1041 00:48:44,760 --> 00:48:48,120 Speaker 1: don't trust that you feeling, not him, But I don't 1042 00:48:48,160 --> 00:48:51,759 Speaker 1: trust them the feeling. But it's okay, it's just me, 1043 00:48:51,760 --> 00:48:54,640 Speaker 1: me and therapy. I need to take therapy. I'm birdie now, 1044 00:48:54,760 --> 00:48:56,680 Speaker 1: like I'm grown, like I'm a big I got. I 1045 00:48:56,760 --> 00:48:58,840 Speaker 1: got to my big age, and I'm still I'm not domesticated. 1046 00:48:58,920 --> 00:49:01,239 Speaker 1: So it's like they're not insecure about that. Like I'm 1047 00:49:01,239 --> 00:49:03,799 Speaker 1: not in the kitchen cookie, I'm not cleaning up. We 1048 00:49:03,840 --> 00:49:07,200 Speaker 1: are cleaners. He cook, you know what I'm saying. And 1049 00:49:07,200 --> 00:49:09,400 Speaker 1: I'm like, oh my god, like he sticking watch the dishes. 1050 00:49:09,400 --> 00:49:11,279 Speaker 1: But now I'm in the room watching watching Martin because 1051 00:49:11,280 --> 00:49:13,319 Speaker 1: I know the cleaning lady coming to my room. So 1052 00:49:14,280 --> 00:49:17,040 Speaker 1: do other work. It's okay. Yeah, I'm like, damn, like 1053 00:49:17,080 --> 00:49:19,319 Speaker 1: I'm not mesisquated. I'm not doing my job, and I 1054 00:49:19,520 --> 00:49:21,839 Speaker 1: just I get mad about that. What did you love 1055 00:49:21,880 --> 00:49:24,680 Speaker 1: about him? What was it? What did you seeing him? 1056 00:49:24,800 --> 00:49:29,480 Speaker 1: His swag, his swag, his individuality, like how nice he 1057 00:49:29,719 --> 00:49:32,360 Speaker 1: was ending how much you can still be like a 1058 00:49:32,400 --> 00:49:37,200 Speaker 1: player too, um the challenge, Like just everything about him 1059 00:49:37,239 --> 00:49:39,160 Speaker 1: was cool as book. Like I was like, damn, I 1060 00:49:39,160 --> 00:49:40,640 Speaker 1: thought you was just like weird to say, hell, you 1061 00:49:40,719 --> 00:49:44,160 Speaker 1: go our holes. So it was just like it was 1062 00:49:44,239 --> 00:49:47,839 Speaker 1: cute just exploring him and getting to know him as 1063 00:49:47,840 --> 00:49:49,759 Speaker 1: a person or who he really was, and not see 1064 00:49:49,800 --> 00:49:51,279 Speaker 1: him out of the surface like I was just like 1065 00:49:51,320 --> 00:49:53,080 Speaker 1: everybody else in the rood, like looking at him as 1066 00:49:53,120 --> 00:49:56,520 Speaker 1: like this crazy wow, this person, but he's not like that, 1067 00:49:56,760 --> 00:49:58,560 Speaker 1: and it was just like me being able to know 1068 00:49:58,640 --> 00:50:00,239 Speaker 1: him on the one on one. It's really it. Like 1069 00:50:00,520 --> 00:50:03,040 Speaker 1: you call him your best friends. Yeah, that's my best 1070 00:50:03,200 --> 00:50:05,319 Speaker 1: that's my dog. Like even when we're in a relationship, 1071 00:50:05,440 --> 00:50:07,760 Speaker 1: like not in a relationship, because we always in relationship. 1072 00:50:07,800 --> 00:50:09,840 Speaker 1: We live in the same house, like I know the 1073 00:50:09,840 --> 00:50:11,839 Speaker 1: blogs are trying to put it together, like even when 1074 00:50:11,880 --> 00:50:14,279 Speaker 1: y'all put it together, like were in the same house 1075 00:50:14,400 --> 00:50:16,960 Speaker 1: rather whatever, we're in the same house. So we we're 1076 00:50:16,960 --> 00:50:19,440 Speaker 1: best friends and we gotta make it work either way go. 1077 00:50:19,560 --> 00:50:21,080 Speaker 1: We don't have to make it, but we choose make 1078 00:50:21,120 --> 00:50:23,240 Speaker 1: it because we don't have kids and we're not married 1079 00:50:23,320 --> 00:50:25,440 Speaker 1: or nothing, so I know that it's genuine because it's 1080 00:50:25,480 --> 00:50:28,520 Speaker 1: like for what else because making kids. I saw you 1081 00:50:28,560 --> 00:50:31,000 Speaker 1: say this on Coreation's podcast that you you don't want 1082 00:50:31,080 --> 00:50:33,640 Speaker 1: kids now because you want to enjoy your love like you, 1083 00:50:34,040 --> 00:50:38,360 Speaker 1: which is so smart, and people make that mistake my love, 1084 00:50:38,680 --> 00:50:41,520 Speaker 1: I don't. I get angry and like I'm very angry. 1085 00:50:41,520 --> 00:50:46,480 Speaker 1: I'm very impulsive. Um girl, I could be like you 1086 00:50:46,480 --> 00:50:49,200 Speaker 1: can step left and I'll be like it's over, Like 1087 00:50:49,280 --> 00:50:52,200 Speaker 1: you know, like um and he could be the same way. 1088 00:50:52,640 --> 00:50:54,040 Speaker 1: And I don't want to put my baby in it. 1089 00:50:54,280 --> 00:50:55,920 Speaker 1: You're gonna be trying to say, like, I feel like 1090 00:50:55,960 --> 00:50:58,240 Speaker 1: we can always work it out. I just want to mature, 1091 00:50:58,360 --> 00:51:00,960 Speaker 1: grow together kid where it's exactly where we want to 1092 00:51:01,000 --> 00:51:02,640 Speaker 1: be in our career, and then we can just bring 1093 00:51:02,640 --> 00:51:04,320 Speaker 1: a baby in it. It It could just be beautiful. I 1094 00:51:04,360 --> 00:51:06,640 Speaker 1: don't want us to be figuring it out and figuring 1095 00:51:06,680 --> 00:51:09,279 Speaker 1: each other out. I love that you're so open to 1096 00:51:09,360 --> 00:51:12,520 Speaker 1: figuring being a better version. And yeah, I want to 1097 00:51:12,560 --> 00:51:15,000 Speaker 1: be a perfect mom. I didn't have a perfect mom, 1098 00:51:15,120 --> 00:51:17,600 Speaker 1: so my my spear is not being a perfect mom, 1099 00:51:17,680 --> 00:51:19,279 Speaker 1: like I want to be there. I want to be 1100 00:51:19,360 --> 00:51:22,319 Speaker 1: a perfect my mom on Nanny, I want everything Like 1101 00:51:22,320 --> 00:51:23,919 Speaker 1: I want my baby in the backstage on my show. 1102 00:51:23,960 --> 00:51:25,880 Speaker 1: I don't want to never leave my baby behind. So 1103 00:51:26,120 --> 00:51:27,759 Speaker 1: before I have a baby, I have to make sure 1104 00:51:27,800 --> 00:51:30,600 Speaker 1: this ship is figured out. Like at that he was 1105 00:51:30,640 --> 00:51:33,680 Speaker 1: there for you too, and the transition right you can 1106 00:51:33,719 --> 00:51:36,160 Speaker 1: half a house halfway house, was that your first date 1107 00:51:36,239 --> 00:51:38,000 Speaker 1: was in the halfway house? Right that? It was kind 1108 00:51:38,040 --> 00:51:39,320 Speaker 1: of first day he took me to the mall and 1109 00:51:39,520 --> 00:51:41,200 Speaker 1: took me to like Taco Bell. It was like I 1110 00:51:41,239 --> 00:51:43,920 Speaker 1: was still in the halfway house and it was so funny, like, 1111 00:51:44,000 --> 00:51:46,160 Speaker 1: oh my god, a service. I can't believe a city 1112 00:51:46,160 --> 00:51:49,360 Speaker 1: girl went to Taco Bell for her first Like what 1113 00:51:49,360 --> 00:51:52,239 Speaker 1: what is that about? But he gave me money. He 1114 00:51:52,320 --> 00:51:55,439 Speaker 1: gave money first. He gave me money on my first 1115 00:51:55,520 --> 00:51:56,800 Speaker 1: date because I think he was thinking of me like 1116 00:51:56,880 --> 00:51:58,480 Speaker 1: a city girl. But he always laughed at me to 1117 00:51:58,560 --> 00:52:01,600 Speaker 1: this day. But he likes it though, right, he likes 1118 00:52:02,040 --> 00:52:04,319 Speaker 1: He's like the thrill of it. He liked the I 1119 00:52:04,320 --> 00:52:06,520 Speaker 1: mean he likes it. I feel like the same reason 1120 00:52:06,600 --> 00:52:08,160 Speaker 1: he get annoyed with me is the same reason he 1121 00:52:08,200 --> 00:52:11,720 Speaker 1: loved me so much. Like I would say something words 1122 00:52:11,800 --> 00:52:13,840 Speaker 1: and he was like what you just said? Said again? 1123 00:52:14,280 --> 00:52:17,520 Speaker 1: And I'd be like what because we pronounced things so 1124 00:52:17,600 --> 00:52:19,560 Speaker 1: differently because he from the North and I'm from the South. 1125 00:52:20,320 --> 00:52:23,080 Speaker 1: So it's just so like like what you're talking to 1126 00:52:23,200 --> 00:52:25,680 Speaker 1: property girl? You're talking so good though, And were just 1127 00:52:25,760 --> 00:52:30,040 Speaker 1: in a house together, just opposite and we're going at 1128 00:52:30,040 --> 00:52:31,640 Speaker 1: it because I'm like Miami to Si. He like feeling 1129 00:52:31,680 --> 00:52:33,440 Speaker 1: the ship and I'm like, no, Miami, the ship like 1130 00:52:33,600 --> 00:52:36,520 Speaker 1: feel he ain't got no beaches and it's so motherucking 1131 00:52:36,520 --> 00:52:39,920 Speaker 1: close together. Then he like, Miami is cold and it's cold, 1132 00:52:40,560 --> 00:52:41,960 Speaker 1: and that's why I'm in New York and I'm just 1133 00:52:42,080 --> 00:52:44,239 Speaker 1: mad it's so cold. He I'm sorry. I should have 1134 00:52:44,320 --> 00:52:45,640 Speaker 1: went to my Why don't we do this in Miami? 1135 00:52:45,680 --> 00:52:48,239 Speaker 1: We should have because I was in Miami for a 1136 00:52:48,239 --> 00:52:50,359 Speaker 1: couple of days. I would love to see Miami through 1137 00:52:50,360 --> 00:52:54,319 Speaker 1: the eyes of JT Oh my god, what is that like? 1138 00:52:54,400 --> 00:52:56,440 Speaker 1: What is that like? If I went to Miami hung 1139 00:52:56,440 --> 00:52:57,839 Speaker 1: out with you and say, what are we looking at? 1140 00:52:57,960 --> 00:53:00,440 Speaker 1: Or you even you're in Miami right, no, no, no, no, you' 1141 00:53:01,040 --> 00:53:02,719 Speaker 1: by Coho school. But I'm l A. You're in l 1142 00:53:02,800 --> 00:53:05,640 Speaker 1: A right, I'm l A for the sun New York 1143 00:53:05,680 --> 00:53:09,839 Speaker 1: for his um whatever. But l tell me because it's 1144 00:53:09,880 --> 00:53:13,560 Speaker 1: the sun. But I don't think I'll move back. Somebody traumatized. 1145 00:53:15,600 --> 00:53:18,600 Speaker 1: Maybe after some therapy. Maybe let's see what therapy do 1146 00:53:18,640 --> 00:53:21,480 Speaker 1: we're gonna try. I'm definitely trying therapy. I'm in it 1147 00:53:21,600 --> 00:53:24,000 Speaker 1: works again, my therapy together because I need it because 1148 00:53:24,000 --> 00:53:27,000 Speaker 1: I'm just like a wire. Yeah, but I already could 1149 00:53:27,000 --> 00:53:30,080 Speaker 1: see it's like you at least know some people don't 1150 00:53:30,080 --> 00:53:32,000 Speaker 1: even want to do to work. Some people just happy 1151 00:53:32,640 --> 00:53:34,920 Speaker 1: having all the triggers and all the trauma and all 1152 00:53:34,960 --> 00:53:36,719 Speaker 1: the ship that they do, and that's just who that 1153 00:53:36,800 --> 00:53:38,719 Speaker 1: who I am, and then they live their life like that. 1154 00:53:38,840 --> 00:53:41,200 Speaker 1: The fact that you're even like open to it, open 1155 00:53:41,239 --> 00:53:43,040 Speaker 1: to it and just looking at all the things that 1156 00:53:43,080 --> 00:53:45,239 Speaker 1: you want to be better about is you're on your way. 1157 00:53:46,520 --> 00:53:51,719 Speaker 1: I'm gonna be I'm gonna I'm gonna be fine. But 1158 00:53:51,800 --> 00:53:53,839 Speaker 1: I just love it. By the way, what you went through, 1159 00:53:54,239 --> 00:53:58,080 Speaker 1: you it warrants trauma like it's not. It wasn't just 1160 00:53:58,160 --> 00:54:01,520 Speaker 1: the regular situation. Even everybody ship. Okay, I'm gonna say this, 1161 00:54:02,120 --> 00:54:05,200 Speaker 1: everybody deal with trauma different. Some people get trauma and 1162 00:54:05,239 --> 00:54:07,879 Speaker 1: want to work hard. Some people get trauma and want 1163 00:54:07,920 --> 00:54:11,160 Speaker 1: to close off. Some people get trauma and want to disappear. 1164 00:54:11,239 --> 00:54:13,160 Speaker 1: You know, Like it's different ways you deal with trauma. 1165 00:54:13,160 --> 00:54:14,840 Speaker 1: I feel like my the way I did with trauma 1166 00:54:14,920 --> 00:54:16,960 Speaker 1: is just not dealing with it because I deal with 1167 00:54:17,000 --> 00:54:18,680 Speaker 1: it so long. I dealt with it so long, and 1168 00:54:18,719 --> 00:54:21,720 Speaker 1: I feel like like I'm in such a great position. 1169 00:54:21,719 --> 00:54:23,279 Speaker 1: Why am I dealing with trauma? So now I'm not 1170 00:54:23,320 --> 00:54:25,560 Speaker 1: dealing with it. But I need to stop being afraid 1171 00:54:25,680 --> 00:54:28,880 Speaker 1: of conflict of anything. I need to stop being afraid 1172 00:54:28,880 --> 00:54:33,040 Speaker 1: of conflict with my music, with my business, with my shows, 1173 00:54:33,360 --> 00:54:36,160 Speaker 1: my fans. What are you afraid of? Though? What do 1174 00:54:36,160 --> 00:54:37,480 Speaker 1: you think that? I just don't want to hear ship. 1175 00:54:38,560 --> 00:54:40,600 Speaker 1: I don't hear it because you're afraid of what you make, 1176 00:54:40,719 --> 00:54:43,160 Speaker 1: how you, however react you get trying to say, I'm 1177 00:54:43,160 --> 00:54:44,719 Speaker 1: not afraid of y'all, I'm afraid of how I'm gonna 1178 00:54:44,760 --> 00:54:46,400 Speaker 1: react to the situation. I don't want to react to 1179 00:54:46,440 --> 00:54:48,399 Speaker 1: the situation. It's how to look like a bad person. 1180 00:54:48,440 --> 00:54:51,600 Speaker 1: So I'm much to shut up. No, don't do that, 1181 00:54:51,960 --> 00:54:53,840 Speaker 1: because you're not a bad person. I love what you 1182 00:54:53,880 --> 00:54:57,160 Speaker 1: said about living out loud, being yourself and being just 1183 00:54:57,200 --> 00:55:00,799 Speaker 1: being that a good person out out. That's I mean. 1184 00:55:00,960 --> 00:55:03,239 Speaker 1: I love that. I just need to live out out. 1185 00:55:03,280 --> 00:55:06,320 Speaker 1: I feel like I had myself a lot because I 1186 00:55:06,360 --> 00:55:09,040 Speaker 1: don't want to be looked at as a bad person, 1187 00:55:09,120 --> 00:55:12,440 Speaker 1: and I feel like they are people always waiting on 1188 00:55:12,480 --> 00:55:14,200 Speaker 1: me to be a bad person, even if even the 1189 00:55:14,239 --> 00:55:16,319 Speaker 1: way I talk it so strong and so demanding. Night 1190 00:55:16,360 --> 00:55:19,640 Speaker 1: that's the segenary reason to me. But I'm so demanding. 1191 00:55:19,719 --> 00:55:21,920 Speaker 1: I know what I want. I know I want my eyebrows, 1192 00:55:21,960 --> 00:55:23,319 Speaker 1: I know I want my hair, I know I want 1193 00:55:23,360 --> 00:55:27,440 Speaker 1: my outfit and I'm not a puppet. So when you're 1194 00:55:27,480 --> 00:55:31,879 Speaker 1: not a puppet, you get called difficult, get called hard 1195 00:55:31,960 --> 00:55:33,840 Speaker 1: to write with, hard to deal with. But I'm just 1196 00:55:33,840 --> 00:55:35,839 Speaker 1: not a puppet and crucial deal with that as much 1197 00:55:35,960 --> 00:55:38,120 Speaker 1: or not as much as you write. I don't know. 1198 00:55:38,800 --> 00:55:40,920 Speaker 1: I don't I want to know. Like something I remember. 1199 00:55:40,960 --> 00:55:42,839 Speaker 1: I could say this though. I remember when we first 1200 00:55:42,880 --> 00:55:47,040 Speaker 1: came out, Um, she would do something and if you 1201 00:55:47,160 --> 00:55:48,640 Speaker 1: get on the phone and say I did it, and 1202 00:55:48,719 --> 00:55:52,520 Speaker 1: I'm like, that wasn't even me, and I'd be like, 1203 00:55:52,520 --> 00:55:55,080 Speaker 1: what the funk? That wasn't even me, Like it it 1204 00:55:55,200 --> 00:55:58,840 Speaker 1: was just like j T did he. J C said it, 1205 00:55:58,920 --> 00:56:01,279 Speaker 1: And I'm like, come on that, bro, that was not me. 1206 00:56:01,360 --> 00:56:03,399 Speaker 1: If I said that, I said it, and you would 1207 00:56:03,440 --> 00:56:05,440 Speaker 1: know I said it because I don't have like I don't. 1208 00:56:05,480 --> 00:56:08,839 Speaker 1: I don't. I ain't tucking no action. I'm straightforward, my ship. 1209 00:56:08,880 --> 00:56:10,680 Speaker 1: I'm gonna tell you right in your face, like I'm 1210 00:56:10,680 --> 00:56:12,840 Speaker 1: not waiting it to late. I'm not whispering, I'm not 1211 00:56:12,880 --> 00:56:15,279 Speaker 1: telling nobody else. I'm gonna sell you. So you would 1212 00:56:15,280 --> 00:56:16,759 Speaker 1: have wanted to tell on my ass right there and 1213 00:56:16,760 --> 00:56:18,440 Speaker 1: there if I said it, because I'm gonna say it 1214 00:56:18,520 --> 00:56:20,200 Speaker 1: right and there but they oh, my god was so 1215 00:56:20,239 --> 00:56:23,040 Speaker 1: bad at first, and then I was like, god, damn, 1216 00:56:23,239 --> 00:56:26,439 Speaker 1: Like you know so no, I would like they would 1217 00:56:26,480 --> 00:56:29,879 Speaker 1: be like j T jay Z is the problem jay 1218 00:56:29,920 --> 00:56:32,359 Speaker 1: z is. But I'm like, I didn't even say ship. 1219 00:56:32,440 --> 00:56:34,640 Speaker 1: I didn't even do ship. If I did say something, 1220 00:56:34,760 --> 00:56:37,000 Speaker 1: I'm saying it because you need to be fixed now, 1221 00:56:37,120 --> 00:56:39,440 Speaker 1: and I don't want a lot of people don't want 1222 00:56:39,440 --> 00:56:42,520 Speaker 1: to hear what's right. A lot of stylists, a lot 1223 00:56:42,560 --> 00:56:44,520 Speaker 1: of hair dresses, a lot of makeup artists. They feel 1224 00:56:44,520 --> 00:56:46,040 Speaker 1: like they're already say in their tones. So if you 1225 00:56:46,120 --> 00:56:48,200 Speaker 1: tell them, like you're not doing this right, you're difficult 1226 00:56:48,280 --> 00:56:49,960 Speaker 1: right in and there because they think they're perfect and 1227 00:56:50,000 --> 00:56:55,319 Speaker 1: you're not. Nobody's rfect. You're sucking me up. And also, 1228 00:56:55,320 --> 00:56:56,360 Speaker 1: you get to a point in your life you know 1229 00:56:56,400 --> 00:56:57,600 Speaker 1: what you're like, you know what works for you. You You 1230 00:56:57,600 --> 00:57:01,520 Speaker 1: shouldn't compromise that. But I do love it is nice 1231 00:57:01,520 --> 00:57:03,000 Speaker 1: to see and I've heard you say, I've heard both 1232 00:57:03,000 --> 00:57:05,440 Speaker 1: of you say this that you guys really trying to 1233 00:57:05,520 --> 00:57:09,160 Speaker 1: ride this out. Like there's no solo projects. There's no 1234 00:57:09,719 --> 00:57:13,560 Speaker 1: I mean, Lord willing right, but there's no breakups. No no, no, no, no, 1235 00:57:13,840 --> 00:57:17,120 Speaker 1: I feel like we at a stage we're grown. We 1236 00:57:17,200 --> 00:57:19,240 Speaker 1: started this ship. We wasn't that young, but we were 1237 00:57:19,320 --> 00:57:21,640 Speaker 1: young and it was all new to us. And I 1238 00:57:21,640 --> 00:57:23,240 Speaker 1: feel like we had a stage in our life where 1239 00:57:23,240 --> 00:57:26,240 Speaker 1: we kind of figured it out and we figure we 1240 00:57:26,680 --> 00:57:29,640 Speaker 1: are figuring out that we are powerful together and we 1241 00:57:29,640 --> 00:57:32,000 Speaker 1: are powerful with separate, so we can make money both ways. 1242 00:57:32,000 --> 00:57:34,400 Speaker 1: You should get we're trying to say. So it's I 1243 00:57:34,400 --> 00:57:36,720 Speaker 1: think that's where it's aid right now, Like, Okay, you 1244 00:57:36,720 --> 00:57:40,320 Speaker 1: are individual, which you can also be a group. And 1245 00:57:40,440 --> 00:57:44,800 Speaker 1: it's not that nobody thinks like you know, like no, 1246 00:57:44,920 --> 00:57:46,880 Speaker 1: because I I hear it a lie and I see 1247 00:57:46,920 --> 00:57:48,880 Speaker 1: it a line and I'll be like, yo, I'm straight, 1248 00:57:49,680 --> 00:57:51,560 Speaker 1: I'm good. I was gonna ask you how you do that? 1249 00:57:51,600 --> 00:57:53,160 Speaker 1: How you block out? Because this is so you know, 1250 00:57:53,160 --> 00:57:57,840 Speaker 1: it's always comparison. It's always um, it's always going to 1251 00:57:57,880 --> 00:57:59,880 Speaker 1: be comparison. But they gotta understand we live was totally 1252 00:58:00,000 --> 00:58:02,680 Speaker 1: it for life. I don't have kids, you know, I'm 1253 00:58:02,680 --> 00:58:04,000 Speaker 1: trying to say, I don't have to go. It's hard, 1254 00:58:04,480 --> 00:58:08,120 Speaker 1: Like I I I'm straight, I'm good, I'm more than good. 1255 00:58:08,400 --> 00:58:11,600 Speaker 1: So it's like when I feel like it, I do, 1256 00:58:12,280 --> 00:58:15,040 Speaker 1: and when I don't feel like it. I don't. It's 1257 00:58:15,080 --> 00:58:18,680 Speaker 1: just heard you like, I don't feel like nobody. I 1258 00:58:18,720 --> 00:58:21,600 Speaker 1: feel like as a woman, I want to live a 1259 00:58:21,600 --> 00:58:23,600 Speaker 1: life that I want to live, not when nobody else 1260 00:58:23,600 --> 00:58:25,440 Speaker 1: think I should live like nobody should want to see 1261 00:58:25,480 --> 00:58:27,560 Speaker 1: me work like a slave, work like a dog. It 1262 00:58:27,640 --> 00:58:29,919 Speaker 1: was so impressive to me. I heard you say this too, 1263 00:58:29,960 --> 00:58:32,320 Speaker 1: and I was like, damn, I literally it took me 1264 00:58:32,400 --> 00:58:34,360 Speaker 1: my whole life to get to here where you at 1265 00:58:34,360 --> 00:58:36,120 Speaker 1: a point where you're like because you said, I just 1266 00:58:36,120 --> 00:58:37,960 Speaker 1: want to do my job, make my money, do the 1267 00:58:37,960 --> 00:58:39,360 Speaker 1: things I want to do it, and then go home 1268 00:58:40,240 --> 00:58:43,520 Speaker 1: and have like this balanced life because and at your age, 1269 00:58:43,560 --> 00:58:45,960 Speaker 1: I didn't. It didn't even occur to me that I 1270 00:58:46,000 --> 00:58:49,880 Speaker 1: needed that for myself. But this ship, for sure, Like 1271 00:58:49,960 --> 00:58:52,200 Speaker 1: it's like, okay, do what you gotta get it while 1272 00:58:52,200 --> 00:58:55,320 Speaker 1: you're here. So you're going back outside, back outside, sure, 1273 00:58:55,800 --> 00:58:57,360 Speaker 1: because you gotta get it while you're here. Now, I 1274 00:58:57,360 --> 00:58:59,240 Speaker 1: don't get it confused. You gotta get it while you're here. 1275 00:58:59,280 --> 00:59:01,800 Speaker 1: But I'm thankful and I'm able to take breaks. You're 1276 00:59:01,800 --> 00:59:04,400 Speaker 1: gonna trying to say because I don't have as much responsibility. 1277 00:59:04,960 --> 00:59:07,560 Speaker 1: So like this year is definitely a City Girls year. 1278 00:59:07,880 --> 00:59:12,520 Speaker 1: Are you enjoying it the ride? Yeah, I'm enjoying around 1279 00:59:12,560 --> 00:59:14,560 Speaker 1: I can. I can kind of trust that outside is open. 1280 00:59:14,680 --> 00:59:16,760 Speaker 1: We probably don't have no hopefully we don't have no cobe, 1281 00:59:16,760 --> 00:59:19,800 Speaker 1: no monkey pards know nothing. To come up as an 1282 00:59:19,840 --> 00:59:22,760 Speaker 1: artist is tricky because anything can put us back inside, 1283 00:59:22,800 --> 00:59:25,280 Speaker 1: anything to cancel our festivals, anything cance to our show. 1284 00:59:25,480 --> 00:59:30,320 Speaker 1: So it's hard to like be comfortable and what we 1285 00:59:30,400 --> 00:59:32,840 Speaker 1: do because we never know what's going to cancel what 1286 00:59:32,880 --> 00:59:36,800 Speaker 1: we're doing. So it's like I'm understanding. I can get 1287 00:59:36,840 --> 00:59:38,760 Speaker 1: it in other ways. You know. I so want to 1288 00:59:38,800 --> 00:59:42,280 Speaker 1: interview you again after you start doing therapy, oh for sure, 1289 00:59:42,320 --> 00:59:44,640 Speaker 1: because I'm so interested in what comes up for you. Yeah, 1290 00:59:44,640 --> 00:59:47,160 Speaker 1: I'm so excited about therapy because I'm telling you, like, 1291 00:59:47,880 --> 00:59:52,120 Speaker 1: I'm so tired of the angry black girl um being 1292 00:59:52,520 --> 00:59:55,000 Speaker 1: narrative being projected on all of us. I feel like 1293 00:59:55,000 --> 00:59:59,120 Speaker 1: all of us, even like television, I feel like that's 1294 00:59:59,120 --> 01:00:04,160 Speaker 1: the sale of black worls drama, fighting, kicking, cousin, screaming. 1295 01:00:05,120 --> 01:00:07,440 Speaker 1: When I was in prison, when I want to watch luxury, 1296 01:00:07,760 --> 01:00:10,680 Speaker 1: like when I wanted to feel luxury or like a vacation, 1297 01:00:10,760 --> 01:00:15,880 Speaker 1: I watched the Kardashians. Yeah, because like I'm watching the 1298 01:00:16,000 --> 01:00:17,919 Speaker 1: show and it's just like they living their best life. 1299 01:00:17,920 --> 01:00:20,640 Speaker 1: So when you watch those shows in jail, yeah, jail jail. 1300 01:00:20,680 --> 01:00:23,320 Speaker 1: I watched the House fines, I watched the Kardashians, watched 1301 01:00:23,400 --> 01:00:26,640 Speaker 1: all of like tim Z, I watched all of ward shows. 1302 01:00:26,760 --> 01:00:29,920 Speaker 1: I watched basketball. This is what you did inside? This 1303 01:00:29,960 --> 01:00:32,680 Speaker 1: was the daily life TMZ, especially because I want to 1304 01:00:32,680 --> 01:00:35,000 Speaker 1: know what's going on they already have nothing Like were 1305 01:00:35,000 --> 01:00:37,920 Speaker 1: you tested inside ever? Like did you have to like 1306 01:00:38,120 --> 01:00:42,120 Speaker 1: physically fighting there? Girl? Yeah? But not really because like 1307 01:00:42,440 --> 01:00:45,680 Speaker 1: I feel like, like I said, I left prison with 1308 01:00:45,760 --> 01:00:48,160 Speaker 1: a pimple, not a scratch, Like once they knew I 1309 01:00:48,200 --> 01:00:50,280 Speaker 1: didn't play that ship, Like I do not play that ship. 1310 01:00:50,360 --> 01:00:52,760 Speaker 1: But how do you how do you How do they 1311 01:00:52,800 --> 01:00:55,920 Speaker 1: know you don't play that ship? Because they know because 1312 01:00:55,920 --> 01:00:57,760 Speaker 1: they knew, Like I was so quiet at first, like 1313 01:00:57,800 --> 01:00:59,600 Speaker 1: my first thing since I was so quiet and I 1314 01:00:59,640 --> 01:01:02,520 Speaker 1: got were like you know, like because they were they 1315 01:01:02,560 --> 01:01:04,320 Speaker 1: were messing me and pick on me and trying to 1316 01:01:04,320 --> 01:01:06,280 Speaker 1: be like nosy about my life and be like Okay, 1317 01:01:06,320 --> 01:01:08,040 Speaker 1: it's not her. That is her, that is and that's 1318 01:01:08,080 --> 01:01:09,880 Speaker 1: not her. Because then when I first got to jail. 1319 01:01:09,880 --> 01:01:11,560 Speaker 1: My house was shortest fok. I was bad hed to 1320 01:01:11,560 --> 01:01:14,840 Speaker 1: ship like I was ball heads funk. When I first 1321 01:01:14,920 --> 01:01:17,400 Speaker 1: went to jail, it didn he groom got longer. I 1322 01:01:17,440 --> 01:01:20,360 Speaker 1: was able to take my praser pictious. But you know, 1323 01:01:20,480 --> 01:01:22,080 Speaker 1: people in jail, they haven't been in jail for the 1324 01:01:22,120 --> 01:01:24,919 Speaker 1: longest time, so their idea of a celebrity was something 1325 01:01:25,000 --> 01:01:27,080 Speaker 1: totally different. So they will mess with me, mess when 1326 01:01:27,120 --> 01:01:29,160 Speaker 1: me mess with me, and I was not I'm not 1327 01:01:29,240 --> 01:01:31,720 Speaker 1: that friendly. I wasn't that friendly, and they wanted to 1328 01:01:31,760 --> 01:01:33,680 Speaker 1: know more about me, and I wouldn't tell them, so 1329 01:01:33,760 --> 01:01:35,720 Speaker 1: I would be quite as helle and then they just 1330 01:01:35,760 --> 01:01:39,320 Speaker 1: get offended by that me just not telling my business. 1331 01:01:39,120 --> 01:01:42,760 Speaker 1: I got got my lettle click together and it was 1332 01:01:42,800 --> 01:01:48,560 Speaker 1: going down, and I went to the hall two times. Yeah, 1333 01:01:49,160 --> 01:01:52,600 Speaker 1: for officer going through my locker and I tapped to 1334 01:01:52,720 --> 01:01:55,720 Speaker 1: her shoulder. I saw to get up, get the funk 1335 01:01:55,720 --> 01:01:58,320 Speaker 1: out of my locker, and then she tried to put 1336 01:01:58,360 --> 01:02:00,640 Speaker 1: me in the hall that day, but it was you know, proof, 1337 01:02:01,080 --> 01:02:02,760 Speaker 1: And then I got in trouble the next day for 1338 01:02:02,920 --> 01:02:06,440 Speaker 1: the same officer because she tricked. And then the second 1339 01:02:06,520 --> 01:02:08,240 Speaker 1: time I went to the hall, it was because two 1340 01:02:08,280 --> 01:02:11,640 Speaker 1: people had a fight I was coaching it, and she 1341 01:02:11,720 --> 01:02:16,320 Speaker 1: got mad and said on your behalf. No, she won't 1342 01:02:16,320 --> 01:02:19,080 Speaker 1: fight on my behalf. But I was coaching her because 1343 01:02:19,080 --> 01:02:20,920 Speaker 1: I didn't like the other girl. And she hit the 1344 01:02:20,960 --> 01:02:23,840 Speaker 1: locker and she cut herself on the locker, and she 1345 01:02:23,920 --> 01:02:26,080 Speaker 1: said I cut her. So they put me in the 1346 01:02:26,160 --> 01:02:30,280 Speaker 1: whole like investigation, like no, like no really getting out 1347 01:02:30,280 --> 01:02:32,400 Speaker 1: because she was saying I cut her. Out of everybody 1348 01:02:32,400 --> 01:02:35,520 Speaker 1: that was watching the fight, she said, I cut and 1349 01:02:35,560 --> 01:02:37,280 Speaker 1: I was sucking out home. But I got out like 1350 01:02:37,280 --> 01:02:41,960 Speaker 1: a week later. How long. That's not a little thing, baby, 1351 01:02:42,720 --> 01:02:44,720 Speaker 1: It was, It wasn't. It was like me. A lot 1352 01:02:44,720 --> 01:02:48,160 Speaker 1: of people went, my whole, My bunky went um which 1353 01:02:48,160 --> 01:02:49,600 Speaker 1: you are used to call my prison mom, and like 1354 01:02:49,640 --> 01:02:51,360 Speaker 1: everybody who was standing around the fight, we all went. 1355 01:02:51,400 --> 01:02:53,560 Speaker 1: But it was she was trying to stick me because 1356 01:02:53,560 --> 01:02:55,080 Speaker 1: she feel like I was a celebrity, Like she was 1357 01:02:55,080 --> 01:02:57,120 Speaker 1: trying to stick me. But it didn't stick because it 1358 01:02:57,360 --> 01:02:59,640 Speaker 1: didn't make no sense because everybody's story ended up. It 1359 01:02:59,680 --> 01:03:01,560 Speaker 1: was like fail on the locker, You lost the fight 1360 01:03:01,600 --> 01:03:03,120 Speaker 1: and you fell on locker. You're trying to blame me 1361 01:03:03,160 --> 01:03:04,960 Speaker 1: for you. You get your ass. Then you have to 1362 01:03:04,960 --> 01:03:06,200 Speaker 1: see her when you get out the whole? Is it 1363 01:03:06,360 --> 01:03:08,760 Speaker 1: like confrontation? She never got out the whole because she lied. 1364 01:03:08,960 --> 01:03:11,000 Speaker 1: She got a trouble for line, So I got out 1365 01:03:11,000 --> 01:03:13,400 Speaker 1: where she got in trouble for line. Some days we're 1366 01:03:13,400 --> 01:03:15,520 Speaker 1: gonna be crying because we were like, we really like 1367 01:03:15,720 --> 01:03:17,479 Speaker 1: a person to come yell at the thing, like y'all 1368 01:03:17,480 --> 01:03:21,240 Speaker 1: ain't getting out. They said yousted down to everybody ran 1369 01:03:21,320 --> 01:03:22,680 Speaker 1: cop out some on y'all. I'm like, oh my god, 1370 01:03:22,680 --> 01:03:24,720 Speaker 1: I'm not getting out of and I need my little 1371 01:03:24,720 --> 01:03:26,440 Speaker 1: bit of minutes to call like peeing, like oh I'm 1372 01:03:26,440 --> 01:03:28,040 Speaker 1: in the hole. And it was like it's super Bowl 1373 01:03:28,120 --> 01:03:30,000 Speaker 1: or some ship super Bowl party. He was throwing these 1374 01:03:30,000 --> 01:03:32,360 Speaker 1: crazy super Bowl party, said something, and I was like 1375 01:03:32,720 --> 01:03:35,520 Speaker 1: in trouble all the time. But who was throwing QC 1376 01:03:35,760 --> 01:03:38,360 Speaker 1: was going crazy super Bowl parties? Like you in the hole. 1377 01:03:38,520 --> 01:03:44,360 Speaker 1: I wasn't home. You have any fears ever going back? No, God, 1378 01:03:44,760 --> 01:03:47,080 Speaker 1: jail is not telling Mary. Going up jail isn't telling Mary. 1379 01:03:47,160 --> 01:03:48,800 Speaker 1: They don't there. It's no rules to going to jail. 1380 01:03:48,800 --> 01:03:50,160 Speaker 1: You get in trouble for anything. But I don't have 1381 01:03:50,200 --> 01:03:51,760 Speaker 1: a plane on going back. I don't want to go back, 1382 01:03:51,760 --> 01:03:53,480 Speaker 1: and I don't want to influence, nobody took a back. God, 1383 01:03:53,880 --> 01:03:56,160 Speaker 1: it's so much more to life than to be locked 1384 01:03:56,240 --> 01:03:59,040 Speaker 1: up in prison. I've seen so many younger as and 1385 01:03:59,040 --> 01:04:03,920 Speaker 1: there for boys scan me drugs, not telling their girlfriend, 1386 01:04:04,040 --> 01:04:05,640 Speaker 1: end up have to get a girlfriend because their boyfriend 1387 01:04:05,680 --> 01:04:07,880 Speaker 1: and left them. But that's not like a trauma of 1388 01:04:07,880 --> 01:04:09,600 Speaker 1: for you, like a fear, Like you're not walking around 1389 01:04:09,680 --> 01:04:12,320 Speaker 1: scared that you can. I'm not nothing wrong to go 1390 01:04:12,360 --> 01:04:13,960 Speaker 1: to jail now. I'm just trying to get my money, 1391 01:04:14,520 --> 01:04:19,000 Speaker 1: live my life, be happy. And that's just m What 1392 01:04:19,000 --> 01:04:20,840 Speaker 1: what do you what do you still want to do? 1393 01:04:21,040 --> 01:04:23,920 Speaker 1: Like what's the future? What's your future look like? My 1394 01:04:24,040 --> 01:04:29,520 Speaker 1: future looked like giving back, influencing the right crowd of people, 1395 01:04:29,920 --> 01:04:37,560 Speaker 1: touching the right person um, elevating like right before people eyes, 1396 01:04:38,920 --> 01:04:43,120 Speaker 1: being bold, being free via like relaxed in his industry. 1397 01:04:43,120 --> 01:04:45,080 Speaker 1: You know that you're in the industry now, like here's 1398 01:04:45,120 --> 01:04:47,560 Speaker 1: no it's no pick and choose what you can do. 1399 01:04:47,800 --> 01:04:50,080 Speaker 1: Because I feel like today I'm being reguless some my 1400 01:04:50,200 --> 01:04:52,000 Speaker 1: own being a star. But now you will start every 1401 01:04:52,040 --> 01:04:53,640 Speaker 1: day and you can't be afraid of being a star. 1402 01:04:54,560 --> 01:04:56,760 Speaker 1: What about city girls? What what does the future city 1403 01:04:56,800 --> 01:05:04,000 Speaker 1: girls look like? Hopefully I mean, hopefully, um, the future 1404 01:05:04,000 --> 01:05:08,120 Speaker 1: of the city girls can beat the city girls. And 1405 01:05:08,200 --> 01:05:12,960 Speaker 1: I pray that our egos does not like separate it 1406 01:05:14,080 --> 01:05:20,200 Speaker 1: or the internet or guys or like nothing. You're trying 1407 01:05:20,200 --> 01:05:22,439 Speaker 1: to say, like nothing, I hope do you worry? Worry 1408 01:05:23,320 --> 01:05:25,640 Speaker 1: a little bit. Sometimes sometimes I be on my ship, 1409 01:05:25,720 --> 01:05:28,680 Speaker 1: sometimes she'd be on her ship. You know, like you're human, 1410 01:05:28,920 --> 01:05:32,960 Speaker 1: We're human, we're women. We're not girls, we're women. Like 1411 01:05:33,040 --> 01:05:35,680 Speaker 1: sometimes I want to be with my me. So it's 1412 01:05:35,680 --> 01:05:38,440 Speaker 1: just like sometimes you want to be women. And I 1413 01:05:38,480 --> 01:05:43,360 Speaker 1: hope that that's not what be the reason or interfere. 1414 01:05:43,720 --> 01:05:47,040 Speaker 1: Interfere a group is hard, man because it's like a relationship. 1415 01:05:47,400 --> 01:05:50,520 Speaker 1: It's like being in a relationship but marriage. If you 1416 01:05:50,520 --> 01:05:52,560 Speaker 1: look at the history of hip hop, the amount of 1417 01:05:52,600 --> 01:05:54,600 Speaker 1: groups that have managed to stay together the whole way 1418 01:05:54,640 --> 01:05:58,560 Speaker 1: through this percentage is low. So I don't know one, 1419 01:05:59,840 --> 01:06:02,680 Speaker 1: I don't know other locks, and they're still together. They're 1420 01:06:02,720 --> 01:06:06,000 Speaker 1: still together since backt them. But what I'm saying is, 1421 01:06:06,160 --> 01:06:09,800 Speaker 1: but they have done solo projects, right, right, You're absolutely right, 1422 01:06:09,840 --> 01:06:12,560 Speaker 1: That's what I'm getting. Okay, they haven't beefed and broken up. 1423 01:06:12,640 --> 01:06:14,800 Speaker 1: Because a lot of a lot of people were talking 1424 01:06:14,800 --> 01:06:18,040 Speaker 1: about beefing. I definitely don't. I do not see beefing 1425 01:06:18,040 --> 01:06:19,680 Speaker 1: and breaking up in the city girls at all, like 1426 01:06:19,960 --> 01:06:23,160 Speaker 1: ever ever, Like like that's just stupid, Like it's just 1427 01:06:23,200 --> 01:06:26,760 Speaker 1: like for real, it's a no, yeah, beefing breaking up 1428 01:06:26,760 --> 01:06:30,880 Speaker 1: hell now like beefing but doing separate things. But I 1429 01:06:30,960 --> 01:06:33,360 Speaker 1: just yeah, doing so much separate things at the point 1430 01:06:33,400 --> 01:06:35,480 Speaker 1: and be like Okay, I gotta gotta do this, I 1431 01:06:35,520 --> 01:06:38,080 Speaker 1: gotta do this. We can't do this, And that's just 1432 01:06:38,120 --> 01:06:41,160 Speaker 1: like it. But so that's what you hope you don't. Yeah, 1433 01:06:41,160 --> 01:06:43,400 Speaker 1: I hope we don't get too busy to the point 1434 01:06:43,560 --> 01:06:45,640 Speaker 1: it's like even being here, like it's like like, oh 1435 01:06:45,680 --> 01:06:47,640 Speaker 1: my god, I'm gonna you feel weird that she's not here. 1436 01:06:48,000 --> 01:06:50,800 Speaker 1: We've had her here, she told got her own podcast. 1437 01:06:50,880 --> 01:06:56,080 Speaker 1: Yeah she talks. Also, Yes, she has a platform where 1438 01:06:56,080 --> 01:06:57,920 Speaker 1: where people get to know her more and more all 1439 01:06:57,920 --> 01:06:59,680 Speaker 1: the time. And I don't. And you're not. You were 1440 01:06:59,720 --> 01:07:02,080 Speaker 1: there on one episode, but like I don't feel like 1441 01:07:02,120 --> 01:07:04,040 Speaker 1: we get to know you at that level. I don't 1442 01:07:04,080 --> 01:07:06,960 Speaker 1: want to beach to get to know me. I'm just like, no, 1443 01:07:07,160 --> 01:07:09,240 Speaker 1: I'm just saying I'm joking off. But it's not that. 1444 01:07:09,440 --> 01:07:12,479 Speaker 1: It's just the principle of like the time we live 1445 01:07:12,560 --> 01:07:14,680 Speaker 1: in and then it could be all good one day 1446 01:07:14,680 --> 01:07:16,400 Speaker 1: they didn't get just get all bad off of the 1447 01:07:16,480 --> 01:07:19,880 Speaker 1: same thing, Like you can be here talking making people 1448 01:07:20,000 --> 01:07:22,440 Speaker 1: laugh in it tomorrow the same thing they made a 1449 01:07:22,520 --> 01:07:24,600 Speaker 1: person that could be the reason they's so mad that 1450 01:07:24,680 --> 01:07:26,960 Speaker 1: you they don't want to see your success no more so, 1451 01:07:27,160 --> 01:07:28,960 Speaker 1: do you have to ever check yourself? Like, because you 1452 01:07:29,000 --> 01:07:31,440 Speaker 1: talked about your ego and this is the thing that 1453 01:07:31,440 --> 01:07:33,120 Speaker 1: comes up on the podcast a lot. It's about ego 1454 01:07:33,160 --> 01:07:35,360 Speaker 1: and how sometimes that sucks us up in a lot 1455 01:07:35,400 --> 01:07:38,200 Speaker 1: of different ways. And you said you hope that ego 1456 01:07:38,240 --> 01:07:40,760 Speaker 1: doesn't get into that for you to like split you up. 1457 01:07:40,760 --> 01:07:44,160 Speaker 1: Do you ever have to check yourself for Like, of 1458 01:07:44,200 --> 01:07:48,440 Speaker 1: course I feel like um as an adult, like talking 1459 01:07:49,080 --> 01:07:52,120 Speaker 1: if I feel some type of way, or if she like, 1460 01:07:52,200 --> 01:07:53,920 Speaker 1: if I feel some type of way, I know that 1461 01:07:54,040 --> 01:07:58,600 Speaker 1: I'm just like my personality is so strong that I 1462 01:07:58,600 --> 01:08:01,160 Speaker 1: would never want to say the wrong thing turn so 1463 01:08:01,320 --> 01:08:06,200 Speaker 1: I'm blocked, Like before I say the dude, something is 1464 01:08:06,200 --> 01:08:08,520 Speaker 1: not we can't come in from like I'm not gonna 1465 01:08:08,560 --> 01:08:10,800 Speaker 1: do that, but anybody else I do that you just 1466 01:08:10,840 --> 01:08:13,080 Speaker 1: hold it in for her. I don't hold it am 1467 01:08:13,320 --> 01:08:16,439 Speaker 1: just block. I just had my block. What it block? 1468 01:08:16,479 --> 01:08:19,960 Speaker 1: The number you block her or until you're over it. 1469 01:08:21,080 --> 01:08:23,320 Speaker 1: I don't know if that's healthy. I don't know if 1470 01:08:23,320 --> 01:08:26,280 Speaker 1: that's healthy. And I think that's a coping mechanism, but 1471 01:08:26,360 --> 01:08:29,240 Speaker 1: I don't know if it's healthy healthy it is. Did 1472 01:08:29,280 --> 01:08:32,320 Speaker 1: she know you blocked her? One time? She was like 1473 01:08:32,439 --> 01:08:35,160 Speaker 1: she didn't know because she was taxing me, but she 1474 01:08:35,280 --> 01:08:39,000 Speaker 1: probably kind of figured it out. I'm trying that with 1475 01:08:39,000 --> 01:08:40,639 Speaker 1: somebody who gets some one nerves. I'm just gonna block 1476 01:08:40,640 --> 01:08:43,000 Speaker 1: Them'm just gonna block you just so I don't say 1477 01:08:43,040 --> 01:08:44,960 Speaker 1: nothing crazy to you. But we won't say nothing crazy 1478 01:08:44,960 --> 01:08:47,240 Speaker 1: because we don't need to be talking crazy. And then 1479 01:08:47,240 --> 01:08:49,160 Speaker 1: what do you do. I'm blocked when when you're over it, 1480 01:08:49,640 --> 01:08:52,559 Speaker 1: I'm block when I'm ready to talk about it like normal, 1481 01:08:52,960 --> 01:08:56,559 Speaker 1: without yelling, without cursing, without saying the wrong thing, because 1482 01:08:56,600 --> 01:08:58,000 Speaker 1: they don't have to calm down and probably say me 1483 01:08:58,000 --> 01:09:00,439 Speaker 1: like two weeks and then like okay, I'm ready to 1484 01:09:00,439 --> 01:09:05,320 Speaker 1: talk about it. So what was that? But after therapy, 1485 01:09:05,360 --> 01:09:07,200 Speaker 1: you're gonna get better at that. Yeah, I can't wait 1486 01:09:07,240 --> 01:09:09,960 Speaker 1: to start therapy, Like therapy is on my list to do. 1487 01:09:10,120 --> 01:09:13,840 Speaker 1: Like I'm not leaving this industry without therapy. I know 1488 01:09:13,880 --> 01:09:16,200 Speaker 1: that I'm gonna be a better woman when I take therapy. 1489 01:09:16,240 --> 01:09:18,600 Speaker 1: Black people, we need to get therapy. At first, I 1490 01:09:18,680 --> 01:09:22,360 Speaker 1: used to think if I take therapy, am I crazy? No, 1491 01:09:22,400 --> 01:09:24,439 Speaker 1: you're not crazy. You're crazy to not to need it 1492 01:09:24,479 --> 01:09:26,200 Speaker 1: and not do it. Yeah, I need it. I need 1493 01:09:26,240 --> 01:09:28,400 Speaker 1: it bad. I don't been through so much. I'm still 1494 01:09:28,400 --> 01:09:30,400 Speaker 1: going through stuff. But are you probably yourself and how 1495 01:09:30,520 --> 01:09:33,920 Speaker 1: how you're managing through it? Yeah, I'm proud of myself 1496 01:09:33,960 --> 01:09:36,000 Speaker 1: some days. Some days I beat myself up on my 1497 01:09:36,040 --> 01:09:40,160 Speaker 1: own worst enemy. I beat myself down, down, down to 1498 01:09:40,240 --> 01:09:45,479 Speaker 1: the ground, from from every aspect. I just wake up 1499 01:09:45,600 --> 01:09:47,640 Speaker 1: beating myself down. And I'm tired of it. Like I 1500 01:09:47,640 --> 01:09:49,800 Speaker 1: don't want to keep waking up beating myself down. I'm 1501 01:09:49,840 --> 01:09:55,040 Speaker 1: so beautiful, like I'm all that. It's like, girl, be 1502 01:09:55,160 --> 01:09:56,640 Speaker 1: all that. Why you gotta wake up this morning and 1503 01:09:56,680 --> 01:09:58,479 Speaker 1: tell yourself you know all that? You all that? Like, 1504 01:09:58,600 --> 01:10:00,280 Speaker 1: just be all that. Don't be scared to you all that. 1505 01:10:00,320 --> 01:10:02,439 Speaker 1: Don't worry about if something bad it's about to happen, 1506 01:10:02,520 --> 01:10:05,160 Speaker 1: just be all that today. If it's something man happens tomorrow, 1507 01:10:05,200 --> 01:10:07,240 Speaker 1: you deal with that tomorrow. Don't deal with that today. 1508 01:10:07,320 --> 01:10:09,439 Speaker 1: Just be all that today. Do not be afraid to 1509 01:10:09,439 --> 01:10:12,720 Speaker 1: be all that today. In real life, what do you 1510 01:10:12,760 --> 01:10:23,280 Speaker 1: pray for? What do you ask God? Foremost health, success, wealth, um, patience, patience, patience, 1511 01:10:23,720 --> 01:10:28,040 Speaker 1: Please God please for you to in that a little 1512 01:10:28,040 --> 01:10:33,160 Speaker 1: temper of yours. Yeah, those are the things I pray for. 1513 01:10:33,360 --> 01:10:36,400 Speaker 1: Health is one of the man to stay healthy. Do 1514 01:10:36,400 --> 01:10:39,920 Speaker 1: your fear of something? I don't. I don't even try 1515 01:10:39,960 --> 01:10:42,120 Speaker 1: to think about it, but just being healthy, health as wealth. 1516 01:10:42,160 --> 01:10:45,520 Speaker 1: As you get older, you will you realize how important 1517 01:10:45,600 --> 01:10:49,320 Speaker 1: health is over money. Yeah, in real life, how important 1518 01:10:49,400 --> 01:10:54,080 Speaker 1: is money to you? M hm? The city girl answer 1519 01:10:55,160 --> 01:10:58,200 Speaker 1: both both? Um okay the city of your answer and 1520 01:10:58,280 --> 01:11:03,080 Speaker 1: money is everything? Okay my answer. It's cool. Really, it's 1521 01:11:03,120 --> 01:11:07,080 Speaker 1: cool because I don't receive items and I still we 1522 01:11:07,200 --> 01:11:12,920 Speaker 1: just so like one more. M So. I think that 1523 01:11:13,080 --> 01:11:17,840 Speaker 1: it is to anything like being inner, like you're inner peace, 1524 01:11:17,920 --> 01:11:21,000 Speaker 1: your inner happiness, your inner everything. I feel like everything 1525 01:11:21,000 --> 01:11:25,000 Speaker 1: we get on this theory is to a press others. Yeah, 1526 01:11:25,040 --> 01:11:28,080 Speaker 1: we wanted to, but we know that when we post 1527 01:11:28,120 --> 01:11:30,639 Speaker 1: this thing, somebody else's swear to call up about it, 1528 01:11:31,439 --> 01:11:36,439 Speaker 1: not even you. M m. So it's for other people. Yeah, 1529 01:11:36,920 --> 01:11:41,080 Speaker 1: I feel like this day and age me, I'm not 1530 01:11:41,120 --> 01:11:45,240 Speaker 1: exempting myself. We are like we are being taught to 1531 01:11:45,280 --> 01:11:47,559 Speaker 1: live for other people. We are being taught to live 1532 01:11:47,640 --> 01:11:55,639 Speaker 1: for comments likes No, like like the Vets in the game. 1533 01:11:55,720 --> 01:11:59,160 Speaker 1: We don't even know what they drive. Yeah, the Vets, 1534 01:11:59,160 --> 01:12:00,600 Speaker 1: So we don't know what they're I always say, I 1535 01:12:00,640 --> 01:12:03,360 Speaker 1: don't know where the fun Rihanna drive. I don't know 1536 01:12:03,400 --> 01:12:07,400 Speaker 1: what Beyonce drive. She's a driver, I'm sure, but she 1537 01:12:07,479 --> 01:12:09,200 Speaker 1: might drive sometimes. Yeah, I'm saying I don't know what 1538 01:12:09,280 --> 01:12:14,519 Speaker 1: car she happened. Yeah, like you know. Then Nikki she 1539 01:12:14,720 --> 01:12:16,400 Speaker 1: her interview and she said, you're not coming to my 1540 01:12:16,400 --> 01:12:19,040 Speaker 1: house and seeing all these cars you're gonna I'm saving 1541 01:12:19,080 --> 01:12:23,080 Speaker 1: my winning. So it's like the beds are very smart, 1542 01:12:24,560 --> 01:12:28,720 Speaker 1: and I feel like the newbies were living for the 1543 01:12:28,880 --> 01:12:32,599 Speaker 1: like we living fast. The posts are fast, the blog 1544 01:12:33,040 --> 01:12:35,120 Speaker 1: the blogs are racing us so fast because you got 1545 01:12:35,120 --> 01:12:37,120 Speaker 1: this for thirty minutes, and the next minutes about somebody else, 1546 01:12:37,120 --> 01:12:39,160 Speaker 1: and next minutes about somebody's name. Let me have my day. 1547 01:12:39,200 --> 01:12:41,400 Speaker 1: You're gonna talk about me. Let this baby about me, 1548 01:12:42,320 --> 01:12:45,360 Speaker 1: no nobody else on my motherfucking day. If you want me, 1549 01:12:46,760 --> 01:12:48,280 Speaker 1: if you for the roast me. I want to be 1550 01:12:48,360 --> 01:12:50,880 Speaker 1: roasted these full twenty more hours. Don't know no other 1551 01:12:50,920 --> 01:12:55,800 Speaker 1: bitch on my day, and they're just racing up so fast, 1552 01:12:56,880 --> 01:13:00,880 Speaker 1: they're racing us so fast, like so they really matters, right, 1553 01:13:01,080 --> 01:13:04,959 Speaker 1: what really matters nothing? Because if you even try to 1554 01:13:05,000 --> 01:13:07,160 Speaker 1: shrink my mind to think my nigga doing something wrong, 1555 01:13:07,240 --> 01:13:09,559 Speaker 1: I can't even be mad if that that long, because 1556 01:13:09,600 --> 01:13:12,000 Speaker 1: you for the upload, pithy other things. It's going all 1557 01:13:12,080 --> 01:13:14,479 Speaker 1: right here. That that be that day that I get 1558 01:13:14,479 --> 01:13:20,000 Speaker 1: on his ass, Okay, you let No. I don't let 1559 01:13:20,040 --> 01:13:22,519 Speaker 1: the Internet in my relationship at all, Like I do 1560 01:13:22,680 --> 01:13:24,120 Speaker 1: not like one thing about me. I don't let the 1561 01:13:24,160 --> 01:13:26,240 Speaker 1: internet getting my relationship at all. If I feel some 1562 01:13:26,240 --> 01:13:28,080 Speaker 1: type of way, I feel some type of way, but 1563 01:13:28,120 --> 01:13:30,240 Speaker 1: the Internet no, because I know him like I live 1564 01:13:30,320 --> 01:13:35,040 Speaker 1: with him. I'm going to bathroom. I don't know you. 1565 01:13:35,040 --> 01:13:37,120 Speaker 1: You got lots on the bathroom door. I'm not gonna 1566 01:13:37,160 --> 01:13:40,320 Speaker 1: just open it up. Some people do open open door relationships. 1567 01:13:40,360 --> 01:13:42,200 Speaker 1: Give me my privacy. I'm giving you a propacy. I'm 1568 01:13:42,200 --> 01:13:43,680 Speaker 1: not gonna Do you have your separate bathroom? Do you 1569 01:13:43,720 --> 01:13:46,439 Speaker 1: have your own bathroom? You share a bathroom? Two sinks though, 1570 01:13:46,479 --> 01:13:54,280 Speaker 1: I'm sure big ones, big ones as you should Uh okay, 1571 01:13:54,280 --> 01:13:58,439 Speaker 1: just too bar in real life? In real life, what 1572 01:13:58,640 --> 01:14:03,640 Speaker 1: is the best decision you've ever made? Mm hmmm. And 1573 01:14:03,920 --> 01:14:06,760 Speaker 1: I have the best decision I ever made. What's going 1574 01:14:06,840 --> 01:14:10,280 Speaker 1: to the studio and putting out this all? M hmm. 1575 01:14:11,520 --> 01:14:14,000 Speaker 1: Not being afraid? That's what I gotta do now. I 1576 01:14:14,040 --> 01:14:16,800 Speaker 1: wasn't afraid then. I was not scared. I was me. 1577 01:14:17,040 --> 01:14:19,439 Speaker 1: I was so bold. I just knew they was gonna 1578 01:14:19,439 --> 01:14:23,280 Speaker 1: work with it. That was the best decision I made. 1579 01:14:24,040 --> 01:14:26,839 Speaker 1: That might be your superpower is that you're not afraid. 1580 01:14:27,520 --> 01:14:30,120 Speaker 1: Is that you're bold and you're not afraid. I wasn't bold. 1581 01:14:30,120 --> 01:14:33,880 Speaker 1: I wasn't afraid. I'm kind of afraid now. No, but 1582 01:14:33,960 --> 01:14:35,960 Speaker 1: you're coming around on the other side. Yeah, I'm coming 1583 01:14:35,960 --> 01:14:41,360 Speaker 1: around this. I'm not afraid. Good for you, baby. What 1584 01:14:41,439 --> 01:14:44,320 Speaker 1: do you hope like from your real life take take 1585 01:14:44,400 --> 01:14:46,800 Speaker 1: city girls out? Take you don't have to take city 1586 01:14:46,800 --> 01:14:48,840 Speaker 1: girls out, but from your life, from your real life, 1587 01:14:49,200 --> 01:14:52,320 Speaker 1: what do you hope that people learn from you or 1588 01:14:52,320 --> 01:14:58,559 Speaker 1: take away from your life? Perseverance that like nobody, what 1589 01:14:58,680 --> 01:15:01,320 Speaker 1: you go through, no matter what you came from, no 1590 01:15:01,880 --> 01:15:08,400 Speaker 1: matter what you look like, you can always become like bigger, better, prettier, smarter, stronger, 1591 01:15:09,920 --> 01:15:13,080 Speaker 1: like yeah, because everybody love her as much as I 1592 01:15:13,080 --> 01:15:20,400 Speaker 1: love her. Thank you, You're so good. I love this 1593 01:15:20,439 --> 01:15:22,080 Speaker 1: podcast like That's why I wanted to be here. And 1594 01:15:22,080 --> 01:15:24,280 Speaker 1: I'm gonna be honest with you and give you your flowers. 1595 01:15:25,280 --> 01:15:27,479 Speaker 1: I love that you're giving women platform. I know that 1596 01:15:27,520 --> 01:15:29,800 Speaker 1: you give men platform to I love that you give 1597 01:15:29,840 --> 01:15:32,720 Speaker 1: me women platform to speed, to be, you know, to 1598 01:15:32,760 --> 01:15:38,639 Speaker 1: be looked at. It's more intact, intelligent, human human real, 1599 01:15:39,960 --> 01:15:45,280 Speaker 1: not you're not. You're not making us look crazy elevating. 1600 01:15:45,479 --> 01:15:47,680 Speaker 1: You're making us look beautiful. You known us talk. I 1601 01:15:47,720 --> 01:15:51,400 Speaker 1: love this podcast like, this is something I wanted to do, 1602 01:15:51,760 --> 01:15:53,960 Speaker 1: to be clear, because I don't want to do ship. 1603 01:15:55,600 --> 01:15:57,559 Speaker 1: I want to do this. It made me so happy 1604 01:15:57,600 --> 01:15:59,760 Speaker 1: because I felt like you you know you when you 1605 01:15:59,800 --> 01:16:01,320 Speaker 1: do these like this is something I just you know, 1606 01:16:01,360 --> 01:16:03,639 Speaker 1: I'm only on This is like episode I don't thirteen 1607 01:16:03,760 --> 01:16:07,200 Speaker 1: this year. I did this and and so you created, 1608 01:16:07,240 --> 01:16:09,960 Speaker 1: But you don't know who's listening or who's who you know. 1609 01:16:10,000 --> 01:16:12,120 Speaker 1: I can see the comments in people, but sometimes when 1610 01:16:12,160 --> 01:16:14,799 Speaker 1: I meet people who who actually listen and watch the episodes, 1611 01:16:14,840 --> 01:16:18,040 Speaker 1: and it's really nice to hear that. So good as 1612 01:16:18,040 --> 01:16:19,960 Speaker 1: I was about. I'm like, I want people to see 1613 01:16:20,000 --> 01:16:27,160 Speaker 1: me as mature, smart you. Yeah, but I almost I 1614 01:16:27,200 --> 01:16:31,439 Speaker 1: feel like so much my intros is I'm about to 1615 01:16:31,479 --> 01:16:35,439 Speaker 1: suck this dick to get this cash. That people got 1616 01:16:35,439 --> 01:16:38,599 Speaker 1: me fucked up and re specing. It's not a beautiful, black, strong, 1617 01:16:38,800 --> 01:16:42,240 Speaker 1: smart woman. So I'm like, I need to put that 1618 01:16:42,280 --> 01:16:44,920 Speaker 1: for this year, like to know people. You want people 1619 01:16:44,960 --> 01:16:48,000 Speaker 1: to get to know you a bigger, real, realer level. 1620 01:16:49,280 --> 01:17:06,200 Speaker 1: I'm so happy you chose here. Thank you, baby,