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What would you say is 46 00:02:35,200 --> 00:02:40,000 Speaker 1: your earliest childhood memory that has defined who you are today? 47 00:02:40,440 --> 00:02:45,799 Speaker 2: Packing groceries at the supermarket and freestyle And while I 48 00:02:45,840 --> 00:02:48,400 Speaker 2: was doing and that's the way I would discovered. I 49 00:02:48,400 --> 00:02:51,440 Speaker 2: would always go there because I would make twenty dollars 50 00:02:51,880 --> 00:02:53,920 Speaker 2: by quarters because they would give me always quarters every 51 00:02:53,960 --> 00:02:57,200 Speaker 2: time I pack groceries, and I'll make twenty dollars with that. 52 00:02:57,240 --> 00:03:00,840 Speaker 2: I will buy ham, cheese, milk, sigrea for my dad 53 00:03:00,919 --> 00:03:02,640 Speaker 2: and stuff like that. And I will go every day. 54 00:03:02,680 --> 00:03:04,960 Speaker 2: I will walk probably like thirty minutes to go there. 55 00:03:05,000 --> 00:03:09,320 Speaker 2: And that's me, you know, always try trying to like 56 00:03:09,360 --> 00:03:12,200 Speaker 2: take care of my family, but at the same time 57 00:03:12,280 --> 00:03:14,960 Speaker 2: having fun while I do it, you know, rapping and 58 00:03:14,960 --> 00:03:18,640 Speaker 2: doing music and making people laugh and making people having fun. 59 00:03:19,040 --> 00:03:21,440 Speaker 2: That's Nikki, you know, That's that's that's the Nikki I 60 00:03:21,480 --> 00:03:23,120 Speaker 2: always have in my mind, even when I was in 61 00:03:23,160 --> 00:03:26,560 Speaker 2: those dark moments. That's what went through my head in 62 00:03:26,600 --> 00:03:27,280 Speaker 2: those moments. 63 00:03:27,600 --> 00:03:30,840 Speaker 1: That's amazing. So you're packing groceries, that's your job and 64 00:03:30,880 --> 00:03:33,240 Speaker 1: you're freestyling to the customers groceries that you're packing. 65 00:03:33,240 --> 00:03:35,360 Speaker 2: It wasn't really my job. I was. I was twelve 66 00:03:35,440 --> 00:03:37,680 Speaker 2: years old. It was illegal for me to work there. 67 00:03:37,720 --> 00:03:40,600 Speaker 2: But the guy, the manager from the supermarket, he will 68 00:03:40,720 --> 00:03:42,480 Speaker 2: let me do it because he knew I was trying 69 00:03:42,480 --> 00:03:44,880 Speaker 2: to make some money. So every now and then he'd 70 00:03:44,880 --> 00:03:46,320 Speaker 2: be like, Okay, NIGGI, you gotta go because you know 71 00:03:46,360 --> 00:03:48,480 Speaker 2: the supervisors are here or whatever. But I would, like, 72 00:03:48,520 --> 00:03:50,920 Speaker 2: you know, I would I would pack groceries. I would 73 00:03:50,920 --> 00:03:53,920 Speaker 2: freestyle like you know, the letters and tomatoes and like 74 00:03:53,960 --> 00:03:57,560 Speaker 2: I would wrap rhyme the food that I was packing. 75 00:03:58,080 --> 00:04:00,520 Speaker 2: I became like a little celebrity there, and people peop like, yo, 76 00:04:00,560 --> 00:04:02,120 Speaker 2: this is this kid that he'd be rapping while he's 77 00:04:02,120 --> 00:04:04,280 Speaker 2: packing groceries. And everybody wanted to see me over there 78 00:04:04,280 --> 00:04:07,000 Speaker 2: in Puerto Rico at this supermarket and buy my own. 79 00:04:07,400 --> 00:04:09,800 Speaker 2: This lady came to me once and I was I 80 00:04:09,840 --> 00:04:11,480 Speaker 2: wasn't in a rapping mood. I was just, you know, 81 00:04:11,560 --> 00:04:13,560 Speaker 2: packing groceries. It was a bad day or whatever. And 82 00:04:13,560 --> 00:04:15,160 Speaker 2: she looks at me and she's like, so you're not 83 00:04:15,160 --> 00:04:17,960 Speaker 2: gonna wrap for me? And I'm like yeah, So I 84 00:04:18,040 --> 00:04:20,160 Speaker 2: was rapping and I started freestyling, and she was like 85 00:04:20,279 --> 00:04:22,240 Speaker 2: she was shocked because I was so I was a kid. 86 00:04:22,279 --> 00:04:25,120 Speaker 2: I was like eleven years old, and she was like, 87 00:04:25,640 --> 00:04:28,520 Speaker 2: can you come with me? I'm like, no, I don't 88 00:04:28,560 --> 00:04:31,880 Speaker 2: know you. And she was like, I'm like, why should I, 89 00:04:32,120 --> 00:04:34,720 Speaker 2: you know, go with you? And she's like, my husband, 90 00:04:35,360 --> 00:04:37,760 Speaker 2: he's a producer for this record label, and I want 91 00:04:37,800 --> 00:04:39,839 Speaker 2: him to hear you. And I'm like, okay, in that case, yes, 92 00:04:39,920 --> 00:04:42,200 Speaker 2: let's go. So I got in the car with her. 93 00:04:42,640 --> 00:04:46,560 Speaker 2: She took me to her husband and I started rapping 94 00:04:46,560 --> 00:04:49,240 Speaker 2: for him. And next day he was in my house 95 00:04:49,240 --> 00:04:52,400 Speaker 2: with a big ass contract like this. I told my 96 00:04:52,480 --> 00:04:54,680 Speaker 2: Dad's like, I don't even know what it says. I'm like, 97 00:04:54,680 --> 00:04:56,160 Speaker 2: I don't care what it said. Just sign it. You 98 00:04:56,200 --> 00:04:57,640 Speaker 2: know what I'm saying. I want to I want to 99 00:04:57,640 --> 00:05:00,000 Speaker 2: get my first deal. And that's how I got my first, 100 00:05:00,360 --> 00:05:03,920 Speaker 2: you know, working at that supermarket. The album was whack. 101 00:05:04,080 --> 00:05:06,839 Speaker 2: It was horrible. I mean, how creative can you be 102 00:05:06,880 --> 00:05:09,039 Speaker 2: when you're twelve years old. I had to write all 103 00:05:09,080 --> 00:05:11,760 Speaker 2: the lyrics myself, and I was I wasn't really good 104 00:05:11,800 --> 00:05:14,039 Speaker 2: writing in that moment. I was more a freestyler you know, 105 00:05:15,560 --> 00:05:19,960 Speaker 2: but I did an album. It didn't sell anything. Can 106 00:05:20,000 --> 00:05:22,880 Speaker 2: I curse here? Yeah, of course, okay, I didn't sell shit. 107 00:05:23,360 --> 00:05:28,000 Speaker 2: So but the good thing about it, DJ's recognized me 108 00:05:29,000 --> 00:05:33,159 Speaker 2: all over Puerto Rico. The famous mixtape era was coming. 109 00:05:33,720 --> 00:05:36,599 Speaker 2: I started, you know, recording in these mixtapes, and I 110 00:05:36,640 --> 00:05:39,200 Speaker 2: became one of the like, one of the biggest artists 111 00:05:39,240 --> 00:05:42,599 Speaker 2: in the mixtape industry, you know, included Daddy Yankee. That obviously, 112 00:05:42,680 --> 00:05:45,080 Speaker 2: Daddy Yankee was like the boss in that moment, and 113 00:05:45,520 --> 00:05:47,880 Speaker 2: in the mixtape he was already in the boss in 114 00:05:47,920 --> 00:05:50,680 Speaker 2: those days. I'm talking about nineteen ninety two, ninety three, 115 00:05:50,760 --> 00:05:54,560 Speaker 2: ninety four, those those years, and uh yeah, I mean 116 00:05:54,800 --> 00:05:58,280 Speaker 2: from the album. Nothing happened with the album, but I 117 00:05:58,279 --> 00:06:00,400 Speaker 2: got to be a little I got to be a 118 00:06:00,440 --> 00:06:04,320 Speaker 2: bigger singer and more famous in Puerto Rico because of 119 00:06:04,360 --> 00:06:05,480 Speaker 2: these mixtapes. 120 00:06:05,880 --> 00:06:08,200 Speaker 1: How did you not let like, at such a young age, 121 00:06:08,640 --> 00:06:11,200 Speaker 1: I can imagine that feeling like you're getting a record deal, 122 00:06:11,600 --> 00:06:15,280 Speaker 1: you have no idea what you're signing. But then, as 123 00:06:15,320 --> 00:06:17,640 Speaker 1: you said, the album was whack. How do you deal 124 00:06:17,680 --> 00:06:20,200 Speaker 1: with the fact that was there any negativity at that time? 125 00:06:20,600 --> 00:06:21,200 Speaker 1: No one cared. 126 00:06:21,320 --> 00:06:23,880 Speaker 2: I was just happy I had a deal. See the 127 00:06:23,920 --> 00:06:28,760 Speaker 2: thing is, in those days, the urban music, the reggaeton music, 128 00:06:28,920 --> 00:06:32,440 Speaker 2: was not even something that was happening. So just for 129 00:06:32,480 --> 00:06:34,200 Speaker 2: me to have an album and show people that I 130 00:06:34,240 --> 00:06:37,159 Speaker 2: had an album for me was big. I didn't care about, 131 00:06:37,520 --> 00:06:39,920 Speaker 2: you know, having hits, because I didn't know about that. 132 00:06:40,040 --> 00:06:41,839 Speaker 2: You know, I didn't even to be honest with you, 133 00:06:41,880 --> 00:06:43,480 Speaker 2: I didn't even think my album was going to be 134 00:06:43,520 --> 00:06:46,839 Speaker 2: a hit, you know, because I knew about the people 135 00:06:46,839 --> 00:06:49,040 Speaker 2: that was doing big in those days. We had vco C, 136 00:06:49,240 --> 00:06:52,000 Speaker 2: Blu Limc, all these rappers that were killing the game 137 00:06:52,600 --> 00:06:55,640 Speaker 2: in the urban industry in Puerto Rico. So I know 138 00:06:55,880 --> 00:06:58,880 Speaker 2: I was nothing like them. And to be honest with you, 139 00:06:59,680 --> 00:07:01,839 Speaker 2: when I got to Puerto Rico, my Spanish wasn't really 140 00:07:01,839 --> 00:07:04,800 Speaker 2: too good because I was born in the States, so 141 00:07:04,839 --> 00:07:06,360 Speaker 2: when I got to Puerto Rico, I had to learn 142 00:07:06,440 --> 00:07:09,880 Speaker 2: the language. So if you listen to that album, you 143 00:07:09,880 --> 00:07:16,240 Speaker 2: know closely, you would realize my Spanish wasn't really that good. 144 00:07:16,280 --> 00:07:20,000 Speaker 2: So imagine a guy, a kid, singing writing when he's 145 00:07:20,040 --> 00:07:25,280 Speaker 2: twelve years old. Music his Spanish is not the best. Obviously, 146 00:07:25,320 --> 00:07:27,120 Speaker 2: I didn't expect for it to be the best. I 147 00:07:27,200 --> 00:07:29,160 Speaker 2: was just happy I had an album and I was signed. 148 00:07:29,480 --> 00:07:33,080 Speaker 1: Yeah, that makes a lot of sense. I'm just trying 149 00:07:33,080 --> 00:07:35,680 Speaker 1: to put myself back into that age and thinking how 150 00:07:35,720 --> 00:07:37,560 Speaker 1: it I felt if I was you. But one of 151 00:07:37,560 --> 00:07:39,760 Speaker 1: the things that I saw, I mean, the docu series 152 00:07:39,800 --> 00:07:42,080 Speaker 1: that you had on Netflix was incredible, Like it weciated, 153 00:07:42,280 --> 00:07:45,000 Speaker 1: super powerful, and I remember when I think it was 154 00:07:45,000 --> 00:07:47,200 Speaker 1: like twenty eighteen when it came out, but there was 155 00:07:47,200 --> 00:07:49,680 Speaker 1: something that was really powerful in that. There's this scene 156 00:07:49,680 --> 00:07:52,480 Speaker 1: where you're you have this experience of when you run 157 00:07:52,520 --> 00:07:55,040 Speaker 1: into watching your mom I's at a restaurant having sex 158 00:07:55,040 --> 00:07:58,040 Speaker 1: in a car. Yeah, like that moment feels like a 159 00:07:58,040 --> 00:08:02,760 Speaker 1: defining moment as well early life. Walk us through your 160 00:08:02,760 --> 00:08:03,840 Speaker 1: headspace in that moment. 161 00:08:05,720 --> 00:08:09,040 Speaker 2: Wow. Well, the reality of everything is that I lived 162 00:08:09,160 --> 00:08:14,840 Speaker 2: in a street where girls would you know, would work 163 00:08:14,960 --> 00:08:19,720 Speaker 2: as prostitutes in the corners, and I would see my mom, 164 00:08:20,080 --> 00:08:25,440 Speaker 2: you know, and in those corners, and when she got 165 00:08:25,480 --> 00:08:28,560 Speaker 2: into a car, I knew what was going on. So 166 00:08:28,880 --> 00:08:31,000 Speaker 2: when you're a kid and you see stuff like that, 167 00:08:31,160 --> 00:08:33,640 Speaker 2: obviously it affects you. But at the same time, you 168 00:08:33,760 --> 00:08:37,040 Speaker 2: think it's normal because you don't know better. You know, 169 00:08:37,880 --> 00:08:40,520 Speaker 2: you haven't seen a different world. You only see what's 170 00:08:40,520 --> 00:08:42,800 Speaker 2: going on. The only thing that would probably made me 171 00:08:42,880 --> 00:08:46,160 Speaker 2: think is not normal is watching TV and seeing families 172 00:08:46,320 --> 00:08:51,160 Speaker 2: on TV and stuff like that. But I just thought 173 00:08:51,200 --> 00:08:53,160 Speaker 2: it was my life. And to be honest with you, 174 00:08:53,760 --> 00:08:56,160 Speaker 2: the whole street where I was living, kids were living 175 00:08:56,240 --> 00:08:58,480 Speaker 2: like that, so it was kind of like normal, you know, 176 00:08:58,600 --> 00:09:02,200 Speaker 2: like it was it was kind of like normal. The 177 00:09:02,240 --> 00:09:06,920 Speaker 2: reality is, is not normal today. I suffer because of 178 00:09:07,040 --> 00:09:11,520 Speaker 2: situations like that. You know, even if I have success 179 00:09:11,559 --> 00:09:14,880 Speaker 2: in my life, even if I'm doing really good and 180 00:09:14,920 --> 00:09:18,440 Speaker 2: stuff like that, sometimes I go back to those traumas. 181 00:09:18,640 --> 00:09:20,120 Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying. I go back to those 182 00:09:20,760 --> 00:09:23,640 Speaker 2: moments that affects my life. A lot of people think, 183 00:09:23,720 --> 00:09:27,120 Speaker 2: cause I told my story, it's done, and that's a lie. 184 00:09:27,160 --> 00:09:29,080 Speaker 2: That's not the way it works. You know, you still 185 00:09:29,120 --> 00:09:31,320 Speaker 2: have it there, you still have it in your head. 186 00:09:31,960 --> 00:09:36,040 Speaker 2: And even the situation with my mom and everything I 187 00:09:36,080 --> 00:09:37,880 Speaker 2: went through living in the hood and all the stuff 188 00:09:37,920 --> 00:09:40,320 Speaker 2: that I saw. You know, when people come from the wall, 189 00:09:40,520 --> 00:09:43,760 Speaker 2: they have PTSD, right, they need to get medication because 190 00:09:43,760 --> 00:09:46,080 Speaker 2: of that and stuff like that. The reality is when 191 00:09:46,120 --> 00:09:47,480 Speaker 2: you live in the hood and you see all these 192 00:09:47,480 --> 00:09:49,319 Speaker 2: stuff like stuff that I saw with my mom and 193 00:09:49,400 --> 00:09:51,480 Speaker 2: situations that I saw in my house and stuff that 194 00:09:51,520 --> 00:09:53,400 Speaker 2: I saw in the hood about friends of mine getting 195 00:09:53,440 --> 00:09:55,679 Speaker 2: shot and other people that are not my friends getting 196 00:09:55,720 --> 00:09:59,280 Speaker 2: shot and stuff like that. You get PTSD too, but 197 00:09:59,320 --> 00:10:02,720 Speaker 2: people don't underst and that. So when you get a situation, 198 00:10:02,840 --> 00:10:06,920 Speaker 2: when you go through, you know, back to the darkness. 199 00:10:07,480 --> 00:10:10,360 Speaker 2: Even if you're successful, people judge you and they're like, oh, 200 00:10:10,360 --> 00:10:14,200 Speaker 2: he's back again. You saw my story, you saw what 201 00:10:14,240 --> 00:10:17,520 Speaker 2: I went through. Why would you Why would you judge 202 00:10:17,520 --> 00:10:20,000 Speaker 2: me when I came out with my story? You said, 203 00:10:20,080 --> 00:10:23,880 Speaker 2: you deserve everything you have. It's funny because I always 204 00:10:23,880 --> 00:10:25,680 Speaker 2: did deserve anything I had because I worked for what 205 00:10:25,760 --> 00:10:29,120 Speaker 2: I had. All those moments, especially like the moment that 206 00:10:29,160 --> 00:10:31,640 Speaker 2: you just talked about. You know my mom, because my mom, 207 00:10:32,000 --> 00:10:35,160 Speaker 2: your mom as a man, is everything for you for 208 00:10:35,640 --> 00:10:38,400 Speaker 2: you know, she's the base of the house. She's the 209 00:10:38,400 --> 00:10:41,040 Speaker 2: one that take care of you. You know, she makes 210 00:10:41,080 --> 00:10:45,080 Speaker 2: you think that everything's gonna be okay. Not having that 211 00:10:45,840 --> 00:10:48,080 Speaker 2: causes an effect in me in every situation, even with 212 00:10:48,160 --> 00:10:50,080 Speaker 2: my kids. I don't know how to give the love 213 00:10:50,120 --> 00:10:51,640 Speaker 2: that I have to give because I never had it. 214 00:10:52,160 --> 00:10:55,480 Speaker 2: You know, a lot of people be saying sometimes yeah, 215 00:10:55,480 --> 00:10:57,280 Speaker 2: I'm going to give my kids everything I didn't have. 216 00:10:57,520 --> 00:11:00,080 Speaker 2: That's not the way it works. If you don't know 217 00:11:00,120 --> 00:11:02,440 Speaker 2: how to do it, how can you do it? It 218 00:11:02,480 --> 00:11:05,960 Speaker 2: affects me in every way. But the good thing I 219 00:11:05,960 --> 00:11:09,439 Speaker 2: have a good sense of humor, and even in bad situations, 220 00:11:09,520 --> 00:11:13,680 Speaker 2: I laugh and I make people laugh. I try to 221 00:11:14,840 --> 00:11:20,000 Speaker 2: enjoy myself the best. But I hope that answer you, Yeah, 222 00:11:20,080 --> 00:11:20,599 Speaker 2: it does. No. 223 00:11:20,760 --> 00:11:22,840 Speaker 1: Thank you for being so open as well and vulnerable. 224 00:11:22,880 --> 00:11:23,000 Speaker 2: Man. 225 00:11:23,080 --> 00:11:25,840 Speaker 1: I think it's amazing to see that because you're so 226 00:11:26,040 --> 00:11:28,120 Speaker 1: right that when you're living your life it looks normal. 227 00:11:28,480 --> 00:11:30,920 Speaker 1: What age did you get to where you were like, oh, 228 00:11:31,000 --> 00:11:33,959 Speaker 1: that's not normal, Like when didn't kind of register where 229 00:11:33,960 --> 00:11:37,160 Speaker 1: you were like, oh wait a minute, that's not what 230 00:11:37,240 --> 00:11:38,520 Speaker 1: life looks like for everyone. 231 00:11:38,760 --> 00:11:44,160 Speaker 2: Wow, you're going really deep. Okay, I can say this. 232 00:11:46,280 --> 00:11:48,920 Speaker 2: My mom used to whip me because I used to 233 00:11:48,920 --> 00:11:51,559 Speaker 2: pee in my bed, right, I don't know. She probably 234 00:11:51,559 --> 00:11:54,120 Speaker 2: didn't understand it. It was not something that I wanted to do. 235 00:11:54,240 --> 00:11:56,120 Speaker 2: It just it happens. 236 00:11:56,120 --> 00:11:57,640 Speaker 1: I wish it's a normal thing kids do. 237 00:11:58,120 --> 00:12:00,320 Speaker 2: I think when kids pee on their bed was like 238 00:12:00,440 --> 00:12:03,880 Speaker 2: probably seven years old something like that. It's just a 239 00:12:03,920 --> 00:12:06,880 Speaker 2: problem that they have. And automatically it happens. It's not 240 00:12:06,920 --> 00:12:08,640 Speaker 2: like you wake up and it's not like you're like, 241 00:12:08,720 --> 00:12:11,360 Speaker 2: I don't want to go to the bathroom. It's more 242 00:12:11,480 --> 00:12:13,360 Speaker 2: like it's something that happens, wake up, and you just 243 00:12:13,400 --> 00:12:16,880 Speaker 2: pete on your bed. So this this kid, this white kid, 244 00:12:17,800 --> 00:12:20,000 Speaker 2: his name is Billy. I wish I could find him 245 00:12:20,000 --> 00:12:23,800 Speaker 2: wherever he is. Billy Jeannetti his name. I've been trying 246 00:12:23,800 --> 00:12:25,640 Speaker 2: to look for him on Google because he was my 247 00:12:25,679 --> 00:12:27,400 Speaker 2: best friend when I was a kid, and I can't 248 00:12:27,440 --> 00:12:30,960 Speaker 2: find him everywhere. Probably had his name was different and 249 00:12:31,440 --> 00:12:33,840 Speaker 2: I knew him, asked Billy Jeannetti. He studied with me 250 00:12:33,880 --> 00:12:36,880 Speaker 2: in school and everything. I stay at his house. I 251 00:12:36,960 --> 00:12:39,800 Speaker 2: stay at his house. You know, he was his kid, 252 00:12:39,880 --> 00:12:42,000 Speaker 2: you know, typical white kid that had everything, you know, 253 00:12:43,000 --> 00:12:47,439 Speaker 2: atari Nintendo and all that stuff. And his mom had 254 00:12:47,440 --> 00:12:51,000 Speaker 2: his room decorated with you know, a boy's room with 255 00:12:51,360 --> 00:12:53,640 Speaker 2: you know, posters on the wall and stuff like that. 256 00:12:54,480 --> 00:12:57,360 Speaker 2: And I see at his house and I peed on 257 00:12:57,720 --> 00:13:00,840 Speaker 2: the couch where I slept. I woke up fighting because 258 00:13:00,880 --> 00:13:02,679 Speaker 2: I thought I was getting I thought I was getting 259 00:13:02,679 --> 00:13:06,000 Speaker 2: my ass whooped. And she comes to me and she 260 00:13:06,040 --> 00:13:08,040 Speaker 2: sees me that I'm up because I turned on the light. 261 00:13:08,200 --> 00:13:13,160 Speaker 2: Billy's Billy's mom and she's like, what happened, You're okay. 262 00:13:13,240 --> 00:13:17,200 Speaker 2: I'm like, I'm sorry. I I peed on my bed. 263 00:13:17,360 --> 00:13:18,920 Speaker 2: I peed on the bed, I peed on the couch. 264 00:13:19,040 --> 00:13:21,400 Speaker 2: And she's like, oh, it's okay, don't don't worry about that. 265 00:13:21,679 --> 00:13:24,360 Speaker 2: I'll take care of that. And you know, she she 266 00:13:24,559 --> 00:13:26,680 Speaker 2: gave me clothes so I could take a shower, and 267 00:13:26,720 --> 00:13:28,880 Speaker 2: she gave me food, and she took care of the situation. 268 00:13:29,000 --> 00:13:32,760 Speaker 2: I was shocked, and I was like, oh, so this 269 00:13:32,960 --> 00:13:36,760 Speaker 2: is how it should be. This is how it should be. 270 00:13:37,040 --> 00:13:42,200 Speaker 2: It's not it's not uh, it's not getting whooped, you know, 271 00:13:43,200 --> 00:13:48,320 Speaker 2: And this is how she probably treats Billy. And that's 272 00:13:48,320 --> 00:13:51,840 Speaker 2: when I realized that what was going on in my 273 00:13:51,880 --> 00:13:57,679 Speaker 2: house wasn't. That situation of me, uh peeing on the 274 00:13:57,720 --> 00:14:00,400 Speaker 2: bed affected me so much that because I'm my mom 275 00:14:00,480 --> 00:14:03,720 Speaker 2: doing drugs and not taking care of what was going 276 00:14:03,760 --> 00:14:05,920 Speaker 2: on in the house, I would go to school with 277 00:14:05,920 --> 00:14:11,920 Speaker 2: my clothes smelling like pee, and the teacher in front 278 00:14:11,920 --> 00:14:15,400 Speaker 2: of the kids would spray me and spray because I'll 279 00:14:15,440 --> 00:14:21,720 Speaker 2: smell bad to learn with the spray with the yeah, Deirdre, yeah, 280 00:14:21,840 --> 00:14:23,880 Speaker 2: and she was spraying in front of everybody. Obviously the 281 00:14:23,960 --> 00:14:28,240 Speaker 2: kids will laugh, and that affected me as well, obviously 282 00:14:28,320 --> 00:14:31,040 Speaker 2: because it's embarrassing, you know, like in front of everybody. 283 00:14:31,880 --> 00:14:34,640 Speaker 2: That's how important it is for the parents to do 284 00:14:34,760 --> 00:14:36,600 Speaker 2: their job and take care of the kids, you know, 285 00:14:36,640 --> 00:14:40,000 Speaker 2: because it's just you know, it's not it's not something 286 00:14:40,040 --> 00:14:42,720 Speaker 2: that a kid should go through. 287 00:14:42,760 --> 00:14:45,560 Speaker 1: You know, why do you want to reconnect with Billy? 288 00:14:45,600 --> 00:14:48,360 Speaker 1: What would you what? What makes you want to reach out? 289 00:14:48,520 --> 00:14:50,440 Speaker 2: Well, he was my best friend when I was a kid. 290 00:14:51,040 --> 00:14:53,280 Speaker 2: I just want to know how he looks like. I 291 00:14:53,320 --> 00:14:55,920 Speaker 2: want to know is he okay. I want to know 292 00:14:56,000 --> 00:14:59,720 Speaker 2: if he's alive. I want to know if he remembers me. 293 00:15:00,080 --> 00:15:01,920 Speaker 2: I want to know if he knows that I'm famous. 294 00:15:02,280 --> 00:15:03,840 Speaker 2: He was my best friend when I was a kid, 295 00:15:03,880 --> 00:15:06,600 Speaker 2: and we went through so much and I wish I 296 00:15:06,600 --> 00:15:08,240 Speaker 2: could see him again. I mean, I don't know would 297 00:15:08,280 --> 00:15:10,320 Speaker 2: you want to see you know what? 298 00:15:10,360 --> 00:15:13,720 Speaker 1: It's so funny because I have a similar Probably how 299 00:15:13,720 --> 00:15:15,280 Speaker 1: old were you when you were and Billy were friends? 300 00:15:15,600 --> 00:15:17,680 Speaker 2: Probably like eight seven years. 301 00:15:17,720 --> 00:15:20,440 Speaker 1: Yeah, So when I was at primary school elementary school 302 00:15:20,760 --> 00:15:22,920 Speaker 1: in England, it was I had a friend that I 303 00:15:23,000 --> 00:15:25,720 Speaker 1: recently connected with again. Because I was talking about him 304 00:15:25,760 --> 00:15:27,160 Speaker 1: on the show and then he reached out. His name 305 00:15:27,200 --> 00:15:29,600 Speaker 1: is Ian, and so me and Ian like, he was 306 00:15:29,640 --> 00:15:32,400 Speaker 1: my best friend in primary school since we were like 307 00:15:32,760 --> 00:15:35,680 Speaker 1: four or five years old, two too exactly. He lost 308 00:15:35,680 --> 00:15:37,920 Speaker 1: touch after eleven, after eleven years old and we went 309 00:15:37,960 --> 00:15:41,240 Speaker 1: to different secondary school. For you now I'm thirty six. 310 00:15:41,400 --> 00:15:43,000 Speaker 1: Now thirty six, yeah, and so it's like, but I 311 00:15:43,040 --> 00:15:45,000 Speaker 1: haven't seen him again. But we did message a bit, 312 00:15:45,040 --> 00:15:45,600 Speaker 1: and it was I. 313 00:15:45,760 --> 00:15:49,920 Speaker 2: Googled his name fifty other ways and I just can't 314 00:15:49,960 --> 00:15:52,960 Speaker 2: find him his name. I know. I wish you could 315 00:15:52,960 --> 00:15:55,320 Speaker 2: see this show. I mean, his name is Billy Jeannetti. 316 00:15:56,320 --> 00:15:58,920 Speaker 2: I know him. Ask Billy Jeannetti. And if you see 317 00:15:58,920 --> 00:16:02,040 Speaker 2: this show, please, you know, hit me up on Instagram 318 00:16:02,080 --> 00:16:04,200 Speaker 2: and d m me and let me see if I 319 00:16:04,240 --> 00:16:08,120 Speaker 2: could at least meet you again and talk to you again. 320 00:16:08,160 --> 00:16:10,160 Speaker 2: I would love to. That's beautiful, man. Yeah. 321 00:16:10,240 --> 00:16:13,600 Speaker 1: No, there's kind of friendships that are different. And yeah, 322 00:16:13,640 --> 00:16:15,920 Speaker 1: that nostalgia being able to look back and see. 323 00:16:15,840 --> 00:16:18,720 Speaker 2: Oh my god. And I'm very nostalgic, like I really 324 00:16:18,720 --> 00:16:21,880 Speaker 2: I have. I'm fascinated with the past, and not only 325 00:16:21,880 --> 00:16:25,520 Speaker 2: with my past, with the past, like I see movies 326 00:16:25,560 --> 00:16:28,640 Speaker 2: from the past, and I go crazy. I don't know 327 00:16:28,640 --> 00:16:30,840 Speaker 2: why I like them so much. Like I like to 328 00:16:30,880 --> 00:16:34,200 Speaker 2: see how simple life was in the past. I think 329 00:16:34,200 --> 00:16:37,960 Speaker 2: it's so complicated now with all thens and you know, 330 00:16:38,080 --> 00:16:40,520 Speaker 2: yes we need it and stuff like that, but I 331 00:16:40,600 --> 00:16:41,680 Speaker 2: used to like the way it was. 332 00:16:41,760 --> 00:16:44,160 Speaker 1: You know, would you say your life's become more simple 333 00:16:44,240 --> 00:16:45,160 Speaker 1: or more complicated? 334 00:16:48,640 --> 00:16:51,720 Speaker 2: It depends in what terms. If you're going to say 335 00:16:52,440 --> 00:16:58,240 Speaker 2: in terms of temptation, it's simpler. If you're gonna say 336 00:16:58,240 --> 00:17:03,760 Speaker 2: in terms of a better lifestyle, no, even come back 337 00:17:03,760 --> 00:17:06,440 Speaker 2: to what you grew up with. Yeah, I mean, I've 338 00:17:08,160 --> 00:17:10,159 Speaker 2: my girls here right now, and she knows that. I 339 00:17:10,160 --> 00:17:13,000 Speaker 2: don't even touch my phone anymore. I don't care about 340 00:17:13,000 --> 00:17:15,840 Speaker 2: it anymore. I just feel that it's just toxic, you know, 341 00:17:16,600 --> 00:17:18,840 Speaker 2: And even though we need it, I use it because 342 00:17:18,840 --> 00:17:21,120 Speaker 2: we need it, but it doesn't make me happy anymore. 343 00:17:21,320 --> 00:17:25,879 Speaker 2: I'm one of the first influencers of the Spanish reggaetone, 344 00:17:26,040 --> 00:17:30,320 Speaker 2: not reggaetone, the first influencers there was back in twenty fourteen, 345 00:17:30,680 --> 00:17:34,360 Speaker 2: you know, when Instagram started. I used to do videos everywhere, 346 00:17:34,440 --> 00:17:37,680 Speaker 2: sit down here, sit down everywhere, show my lifestyle, show 347 00:17:37,720 --> 00:17:39,840 Speaker 2: the way I would talk to people from the streets 348 00:17:39,840 --> 00:17:42,400 Speaker 2: and make people laugh and make jokes and stuff like that. 349 00:17:42,720 --> 00:17:44,880 Speaker 2: And it came to a moment where record labels wanted 350 00:17:44,880 --> 00:17:47,359 Speaker 2: to obligate me to do it, and it just didn't 351 00:17:47,400 --> 00:17:51,760 Speaker 2: feel organic. And when something's not organic, it just doesn't 352 00:17:51,760 --> 00:17:53,280 Speaker 2: feel good. What you're doing right now, you're doing it 353 00:17:53,280 --> 00:17:55,480 Speaker 2: because you like it, you enjoy it. But when they 354 00:17:55,520 --> 00:17:59,280 Speaker 2: tell you you have to do it, it's different, you 355 00:17:59,320 --> 00:18:01,639 Speaker 2: know different. You doing this because you like it. I 356 00:18:01,640 --> 00:18:04,880 Speaker 2: can see you enjoying your job. That's nice as badass. 357 00:18:04,920 --> 00:18:07,040 Speaker 2: But when they're like, we need you to do content 358 00:18:07,119 --> 00:18:09,840 Speaker 2: because they like Nikki Jam being an influence, I'm like, nah, 359 00:18:09,840 --> 00:18:12,159 Speaker 2: I'm not an influence. I'm a singer. I do music 360 00:18:12,240 --> 00:18:15,760 Speaker 2: and I started influencing people by Instagram. But do not 361 00:18:15,880 --> 00:18:19,600 Speaker 2: obligate me to do something because automatically, it's not anything 362 00:18:19,640 --> 00:18:23,200 Speaker 2: that's obligated. It's not organic. And what's not organic doesn't 363 00:18:23,200 --> 00:18:23,760 Speaker 2: look cool. 364 00:18:24,320 --> 00:18:26,040 Speaker 1: You know, it doesn't work. 365 00:18:26,200 --> 00:18:26,800 Speaker 2: It doesn't work. 366 00:18:27,480 --> 00:18:29,160 Speaker 1: And I think we're living at a special time right 367 00:18:29,160 --> 00:18:32,080 Speaker 1: now where you can own your own media and you can, 368 00:18:32,240 --> 00:18:34,840 Speaker 1: like you said with this show, like we can make 369 00:18:34,880 --> 00:18:36,760 Speaker 1: it as longer as sure as we like. We can 370 00:18:37,280 --> 00:18:39,360 Speaker 1: sit down with whoever we want to find it interesting 371 00:18:40,119 --> 00:18:41,040 Speaker 1: record labels. 372 00:18:41,880 --> 00:18:45,760 Speaker 2: When I turn on a live or I do something, 373 00:18:46,240 --> 00:18:51,439 Speaker 2: they see how my everything goes up numbers and then 374 00:18:51,480 --> 00:18:55,159 Speaker 2: they're like, ooh, we need you to do this. I 375 00:18:55,160 --> 00:18:58,080 Speaker 2: don't want to do nothing you need. I want to 376 00:18:58,119 --> 00:19:00,879 Speaker 2: do something I need. I want to do something I like. 377 00:19:01,640 --> 00:19:05,640 Speaker 2: I want to do something I enjoy. If you tell 378 00:19:05,680 --> 00:19:07,320 Speaker 2: me you have to sing, I don't want to sing. 379 00:19:07,960 --> 00:19:11,520 Speaker 2: If you tell me, can you please sing? I'll probably 380 00:19:11,520 --> 00:19:14,600 Speaker 2: think about it. But there's nothing better than singing when 381 00:19:14,640 --> 00:19:17,679 Speaker 2: you want to sing. You know, when you want to 382 00:19:17,720 --> 00:19:20,399 Speaker 2: do something, you enjoy it more. And that's just the 383 00:19:20,400 --> 00:19:24,200 Speaker 2: way I am. Even in a relationship. If my girl 384 00:19:24,240 --> 00:19:26,000 Speaker 2: tells me, go get me a cup of water, I 385 00:19:26,080 --> 00:19:28,840 Speaker 2: might have no If she tells me, baby, can I 386 00:19:28,840 --> 00:19:30,240 Speaker 2: get a couple of water? I get one hundred and 387 00:19:30,359 --> 00:19:33,000 Speaker 2: fifty cups of water and I rob her if you 388 00:19:33,040 --> 00:19:36,119 Speaker 2: watch he drinking it. Because that's just the way I am. 389 00:19:36,240 --> 00:19:37,960 Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying. That's just the way I am. 390 00:19:38,359 --> 00:19:42,240 Speaker 2: I don't run by command. I've never been that type 391 00:19:42,280 --> 00:19:44,240 Speaker 2: of guy, and that's why I have the success that 392 00:19:44,280 --> 00:19:46,199 Speaker 2: I have because I always live life the way I 393 00:19:46,240 --> 00:19:46,960 Speaker 2: want to live it. 394 00:19:46,960 --> 00:19:49,360 Speaker 1: It's a beautiful way to live. But the world's kind 395 00:19:49,359 --> 00:19:52,199 Speaker 1: of set up with all these rules and contracts and 396 00:19:52,240 --> 00:19:54,080 Speaker 1: things you have to sign and everything. So how have 397 00:19:54,200 --> 00:19:56,879 Speaker 1: you managed to hold onto that? How have you kept 398 00:19:56,880 --> 00:19:59,800 Speaker 1: that when there are so many demands and Nikki, do 399 00:19:59,840 --> 00:20:00,720 Speaker 1: this sneaky do God? 400 00:20:00,800 --> 00:20:04,040 Speaker 2: Like, I don't do shit nobody tells me to do. 401 00:20:04,840 --> 00:20:07,240 Speaker 2: I've never been that guy, and that probably could be 402 00:20:07,480 --> 00:20:10,719 Speaker 2: a situation. Sometimes they call me and they say, we 403 00:20:10,760 --> 00:20:12,560 Speaker 2: need you to do a video for this show. I'm like, 404 00:20:12,600 --> 00:20:15,879 Speaker 2: I'm not doing it. I just I don't do stuff 405 00:20:15,920 --> 00:20:18,200 Speaker 2: people tell me I have to do. I don't work 406 00:20:18,280 --> 00:20:20,679 Speaker 2: like that. I don't like people telling me there's a 407 00:20:20,720 --> 00:20:25,160 Speaker 2: structure of life, there's a blueprint of living. Hell No, 408 00:20:25,880 --> 00:20:27,560 Speaker 2: I live the like the way I want to live it. 409 00:20:28,119 --> 00:20:30,679 Speaker 2: I'm a good guy and I always work with everybody, 410 00:20:30,720 --> 00:20:32,840 Speaker 2: and I listen to people because I'm open, you know, 411 00:20:33,240 --> 00:20:36,160 Speaker 2: for ideas, and I'm open for everything. I'm not open 412 00:20:36,200 --> 00:20:39,400 Speaker 2: for commands. It's just that that's just the way I am. 413 00:20:39,640 --> 00:20:42,719 Speaker 2: If you tell me, Nikki, what do you think if 414 00:20:42,720 --> 00:20:47,600 Speaker 2: we do this? You know? Yeah, yeah, why I want 415 00:20:47,600 --> 00:20:49,720 Speaker 2: to know why? Well, because I think if you do 416 00:20:49,800 --> 00:20:51,320 Speaker 2: this and we do it this way, we could do 417 00:20:51,359 --> 00:20:55,400 Speaker 2: that and this could happen. I'm like, okay, okay, let's 418 00:20:55,440 --> 00:20:57,560 Speaker 2: do it. Let's work. You know. I'd rather work that 419 00:20:57,600 --> 00:21:00,359 Speaker 2: way than a command and telling me I have to. 420 00:21:01,160 --> 00:21:03,760 Speaker 2: And just that's just the way I am. And that's 421 00:21:03,800 --> 00:21:05,359 Speaker 2: that's the way I've been living for years. 422 00:21:05,400 --> 00:21:06,960 Speaker 1: You know, That's what I was gonna say. It makes 423 00:21:06,960 --> 00:21:09,719 Speaker 1: sense for you because you've had to be your own 424 00:21:09,800 --> 00:21:12,280 Speaker 1: boss and make decisions and tough times and you've had 425 00:21:12,320 --> 00:21:12,800 Speaker 1: to you. 426 00:21:12,760 --> 00:21:16,160 Speaker 2: Know, and I've paid and I've paid my dudes because 427 00:21:16,200 --> 00:21:18,480 Speaker 2: of that too. At the same time, I've been I've 428 00:21:18,480 --> 00:21:22,680 Speaker 2: been situations where I almost got killed a lot of times, 429 00:21:22,720 --> 00:21:27,000 Speaker 2: not once, probably like fifty sixty times. I've been in jail. 430 00:21:28,160 --> 00:21:31,960 Speaker 2: I've been through so many things because I do whatever 431 00:21:32,440 --> 00:21:34,080 Speaker 2: I want to do, you know what I'm saying. But 432 00:21:34,080 --> 00:21:36,719 Speaker 2: at the same time, I've done so many good things 433 00:21:37,040 --> 00:21:39,639 Speaker 2: because I do whatever I want to do. You know, 434 00:21:39,720 --> 00:21:42,560 Speaker 2: I have so much success. And it's not even about success. 435 00:21:42,800 --> 00:21:46,640 Speaker 2: It's about helping people too, because the mean of everything 436 00:21:46,800 --> 00:21:51,359 Speaker 2: is my whole way of thinking about things is I 437 00:21:51,440 --> 00:21:55,359 Speaker 2: want people. I want to inspiraate people. If I open 438 00:21:55,400 --> 00:22:00,880 Speaker 2: a restaurant, if I do a song, if I give 439 00:22:00,960 --> 00:22:05,640 Speaker 2: away aol, a scholarship, anything I do, even if I up, 440 00:22:06,720 --> 00:22:11,040 Speaker 2: I want people to get inspiraated by it, because the 441 00:22:11,080 --> 00:22:14,800 Speaker 2: reality is we all go where human beings are, not 442 00:22:14,880 --> 00:22:18,320 Speaker 2: angels who we don't have wings and ship. We all up. 443 00:22:18,359 --> 00:22:21,240 Speaker 2: So I want people to, you know, see things that's 444 00:22:21,320 --> 00:22:23,920 Speaker 2: inspiration I and I like, you know, to be honest 445 00:22:23,960 --> 00:22:25,840 Speaker 2: with you. I know people think, you know, they saw 446 00:22:25,920 --> 00:22:28,520 Speaker 2: my story and they see it like, well, you know, 447 00:22:29,680 --> 00:22:32,680 Speaker 2: he's already had his success, he had his bad moments. 448 00:22:33,240 --> 00:22:36,040 Speaker 2: He woke up like the phoenix because they call me 449 00:22:36,080 --> 00:22:40,720 Speaker 2: the phoenix and the in the urban music game, because 450 00:22:40,760 --> 00:22:42,639 Speaker 2: I came from the ashes and I came back and 451 00:22:42,680 --> 00:22:45,119 Speaker 2: I did a comeback and then I conquered the world 452 00:22:45,119 --> 00:22:49,920 Speaker 2: and soever soever. But the reality of everything is I 453 00:22:50,040 --> 00:22:53,920 Speaker 2: still go through shit. I still have my bad not 454 00:22:54,080 --> 00:22:58,560 Speaker 2: bad days, bad months, well I could say a whole 455 00:22:58,560 --> 00:23:02,560 Speaker 2: bad year, even if I have success, you know, because 456 00:23:02,600 --> 00:23:05,200 Speaker 2: we have these skeletons in the closets that are trying 457 00:23:05,240 --> 00:23:08,160 Speaker 2: to pull me back. You know, the past is killing 458 00:23:08,200 --> 00:23:10,359 Speaker 2: me and a lot of people be like the past go, 459 00:23:10,560 --> 00:23:14,399 Speaker 2: And that's not the way it works, you know, We 460 00:23:14,560 --> 00:23:18,639 Speaker 2: have a lot of people, especially men, going to mental health, 461 00:23:18,960 --> 00:23:25,159 Speaker 2: you know, mental problems, and they just don't talk about it. 462 00:23:25,680 --> 00:23:28,359 Speaker 2: They scared of talking about it. It's not easy for 463 00:23:28,440 --> 00:23:30,280 Speaker 2: a man to do it because a man always have 464 00:23:30,320 --> 00:23:32,200 Speaker 2: to have shit together, you know. Like I'm a man, 465 00:23:32,680 --> 00:23:34,639 Speaker 2: I never have a problem. I take care of everything. 466 00:23:34,640 --> 00:23:37,119 Speaker 2: But that's not the way it works. You know. I 467 00:23:37,200 --> 00:23:42,280 Speaker 2: go to anxiety sometimes, I get panic attacks, I get nervous, 468 00:23:42,280 --> 00:23:44,800 Speaker 2: I get the shakes, I get a lot of shit. 469 00:23:44,840 --> 00:23:47,679 Speaker 2: I start thinking about because I'm a human being, you know, 470 00:23:47,720 --> 00:23:51,280 Speaker 2: when I went through a lot of shit, and I'm 471 00:23:51,320 --> 00:23:54,159 Speaker 2: paying a lot of things that I went through and 472 00:23:54,200 --> 00:23:55,800 Speaker 2: a lot of things that I did in the past. 473 00:23:56,119 --> 00:23:59,240 Speaker 2: You know, even if I have success, even if I 474 00:23:59,240 --> 00:24:01,680 Speaker 2: help somebody, even if tomorrow I'll give one hundred dollars 475 00:24:01,720 --> 00:24:04,840 Speaker 2: to a homeless guy, or give away a scholarship through 476 00:24:04,880 --> 00:24:07,800 Speaker 2: the Grammys, or or I don't know, give away a 477 00:24:07,840 --> 00:24:10,560 Speaker 2: whole concert for free or whatever I do, I still 478 00:24:11,000 --> 00:24:13,560 Speaker 2: I have a smile. But I go through, you know, 479 00:24:14,080 --> 00:24:18,399 Speaker 2: my bad moments. So it's just you know, it's just life. 480 00:24:18,560 --> 00:24:21,240 Speaker 1: Yeah, it's just like, yeah, what creates the It sounds 481 00:24:21,280 --> 00:24:24,840 Speaker 1: like it almost feels like you have that to share today, 482 00:24:24,880 --> 00:24:27,119 Speaker 1: like you've come here with this feeling of like, I 483 00:24:27,160 --> 00:24:30,600 Speaker 1: want people to know that despite the success, despite the 484 00:24:30,720 --> 00:24:32,720 Speaker 1: arc of my journey from like a lot of pain 485 00:24:32,840 --> 00:24:36,439 Speaker 1: to finding my genius and flow and the greatness that 486 00:24:36,480 --> 00:24:39,560 Speaker 1: you've achieved, that you want people to know that I 487 00:24:39,600 --> 00:24:42,320 Speaker 1: still have human emotions. I still have issues. What would 488 00:24:42,359 --> 00:24:44,919 Speaker 1: you say, are those things that come up now? What 489 00:24:44,960 --> 00:24:46,320 Speaker 1: are the roots of those? What are those? 490 00:24:46,520 --> 00:24:49,199 Speaker 2: No, I'm gonna be honest with you and I have 491 00:24:49,280 --> 00:24:51,760 Speaker 2: I've never opened up in any of these shows about this. 492 00:24:52,520 --> 00:24:54,919 Speaker 2: I've been going through alcohol problems. It's the last uh, 493 00:24:55,760 --> 00:24:59,680 Speaker 2: this whole last year. It's because for some reason the 494 00:24:59,720 --> 00:25:03,000 Speaker 2: past came back to me and people have seen this, 495 00:25:03,280 --> 00:25:06,080 Speaker 2: you know, and it affects me in a way that 496 00:25:06,160 --> 00:25:14,000 Speaker 2: even I I even said I was gonna retire, and 497 00:25:14,040 --> 00:25:16,240 Speaker 2: that's a lie. I'm not retiring. I will never retire. 498 00:25:16,720 --> 00:25:18,760 Speaker 2: I even posted a video. I edited a video and 499 00:25:18,800 --> 00:25:21,760 Speaker 2: I posted it that I was retiring. It was an 500 00:25:21,760 --> 00:25:24,439 Speaker 2: alcohol you know. I've been battling with this for a 501 00:25:24,440 --> 00:25:28,520 Speaker 2: couple of years now. I could say one or two years. 502 00:25:29,160 --> 00:25:30,959 Speaker 2: You know, I can't say I'm an alcoholic as if 503 00:25:30,960 --> 00:25:33,080 Speaker 2: I say I'm an alcoholic. I'm lying. Alcoholic is a 504 00:25:33,119 --> 00:25:35,960 Speaker 2: person that sees alcoholics are shivering and drinks every single day. 505 00:25:36,000 --> 00:25:38,400 Speaker 2: But I go through my days where I go crazy 506 00:25:38,600 --> 00:25:44,000 Speaker 2: five or six days and people seen this. And to 507 00:25:44,080 --> 00:25:48,360 Speaker 2: be honest with you, I smoke weed today because I'm 508 00:25:48,400 --> 00:25:52,280 Speaker 2: dealing with the anxiety of not drinking and I've been stopping, 509 00:25:52,400 --> 00:25:54,200 Speaker 2: you know, drinking and all that because of the weed. 510 00:25:54,240 --> 00:25:57,040 Speaker 2: The we'ed been helping me in a way. And people 511 00:25:57,080 --> 00:26:00,360 Speaker 2: seeing me smoke and they're like, oh, he went back. Well, 512 00:26:00,400 --> 00:26:02,920 Speaker 2: we was never a problem for me. It was perks 513 00:26:02,960 --> 00:26:07,280 Speaker 2: and cocaine and other stuff. We was never a problem 514 00:26:07,280 --> 00:26:11,520 Speaker 2: for me. So when people start seeing me smoking weed, 515 00:26:11,560 --> 00:26:13,479 Speaker 2: they were like, oh, he went back again, and oh 516 00:26:13,520 --> 00:26:18,280 Speaker 2: they saw me drinking alcohol, he went back again. Reality is, 517 00:26:19,280 --> 00:26:23,639 Speaker 2: I've always been battling with my situation. You know, I've 518 00:26:23,760 --> 00:26:28,360 Speaker 2: just had good years, seven, eight, nine years, and then 519 00:26:28,400 --> 00:26:31,840 Speaker 2: I you know, I have my struggles again with other stuff. 520 00:26:32,280 --> 00:26:35,119 Speaker 2: You know, you can say the alcohol the weed, I 521 00:26:35,160 --> 00:26:37,240 Speaker 2: don't see as a drug. That's just the way I 522 00:26:37,280 --> 00:26:40,800 Speaker 2: see it. I smoke. It makes me chill, I get hungry, 523 00:26:40,880 --> 00:26:45,440 Speaker 2: sometimes I eat, I laugh, and it gets my mind 524 00:26:45,440 --> 00:26:48,920 Speaker 2: off all the negativity and drinking and stuff like that, 525 00:26:49,520 --> 00:26:52,479 Speaker 2: and I just felt judged by people, like, you know, 526 00:26:52,600 --> 00:26:56,640 Speaker 2: like just because I stopped doing the other stuff and 527 00:26:56,720 --> 00:26:58,880 Speaker 2: I've been clean for so many years, and then they 528 00:26:58,920 --> 00:27:02,640 Speaker 2: see me smoking weed, you know, they see me drinking alcohol. 529 00:27:02,840 --> 00:27:07,000 Speaker 2: They judge me, but they saw my past, and it's 530 00:27:07,040 --> 00:27:10,639 Speaker 2: contradicting because it's like, Okay, so you see my past, 531 00:27:10,760 --> 00:27:13,920 Speaker 2: you say you feel bad about my situation, you understand 532 00:27:13,920 --> 00:27:17,120 Speaker 2: my situation, but then you see me fall in any situation, 533 00:27:17,240 --> 00:27:19,399 Speaker 2: or you see me do anything to deal with my 534 00:27:19,480 --> 00:27:24,000 Speaker 2: anxiety or my present moment, and you judge me, And yeah, 535 00:27:24,040 --> 00:27:26,600 Speaker 2: I do feel the type of way. It pisses me off. 536 00:27:26,600 --> 00:27:30,320 Speaker 2: I ain't gonna be lying, but I can't get mad 537 00:27:30,359 --> 00:27:33,159 Speaker 2: at the same time because people don't understand. And you 538 00:27:33,200 --> 00:27:35,679 Speaker 2: can't get mad if people don't understand your situation, you know. 539 00:27:36,680 --> 00:27:39,439 Speaker 2: But at the same time, can you judge somebody if 540 00:27:39,480 --> 00:27:42,080 Speaker 2: you don't know the situation? Who we do? You know? 541 00:27:42,400 --> 00:27:46,399 Speaker 2: I judge my mom for so many years until I 542 00:27:46,440 --> 00:27:50,840 Speaker 2: heard what happened to her in the past. And that's 543 00:27:50,920 --> 00:27:53,880 Speaker 2: why today I respect my mom and I understand my mom. 544 00:27:54,359 --> 00:27:58,680 Speaker 2: She had a crazy past, So you know, I wish 545 00:27:58,720 --> 00:28:00,600 Speaker 2: I could share it, but I respect for her. I 546 00:28:00,600 --> 00:28:02,600 Speaker 2: want to do it. I don't. I don't know if 547 00:28:02,600 --> 00:28:04,320 Speaker 2: I have the green light. Like stuff that I did 548 00:28:04,359 --> 00:28:07,120 Speaker 2: talk about my mom is because I had the green 549 00:28:07,200 --> 00:28:10,920 Speaker 2: light from her to talk about But probably one day 550 00:28:11,480 --> 00:28:14,840 Speaker 2: I come out and do another series, you know, and 551 00:28:15,160 --> 00:28:17,679 Speaker 2: she gives me the green light to talk about whatever. 552 00:28:17,800 --> 00:28:19,800 Speaker 2: But I don't think I'll do another series about my life. 553 00:28:19,840 --> 00:28:23,520 Speaker 2: I think what I did was enough, and I don't 554 00:28:23,520 --> 00:28:25,920 Speaker 2: want to in a way. I don't want to. I 555 00:28:25,920 --> 00:28:28,040 Speaker 2: don't want to be in a box. A few people 556 00:28:28,160 --> 00:28:32,160 Speaker 2: box me like this, like the how do you say 557 00:28:32,160 --> 00:28:36,359 Speaker 2: this in English? Because I think in Spanish like a 558 00:28:36,440 --> 00:28:40,160 Speaker 2: role model. I don't want to be a role model. 559 00:28:42,240 --> 00:28:45,360 Speaker 2: I appreciate that people see me as a role model, 560 00:28:46,160 --> 00:28:49,280 Speaker 2: but I'm a human being, and if I have to 561 00:28:49,320 --> 00:28:51,760 Speaker 2: be a perfect human being to be a role model, 562 00:28:51,920 --> 00:28:54,200 Speaker 2: I don't want to be a role model. I want 563 00:28:54,200 --> 00:28:55,520 Speaker 2: to be a human I want to keep being a 564 00:28:55,600 --> 00:28:58,040 Speaker 2: human being. I want to be able to fall and 565 00:28:58,080 --> 00:29:00,680 Speaker 2: get back up again, and fall and give back up again, 566 00:29:00,720 --> 00:29:03,120 Speaker 2: and fall and get back up again. I don't want 567 00:29:03,120 --> 00:29:06,000 Speaker 2: to be boxed. That's this role model just because people 568 00:29:06,040 --> 00:29:08,360 Speaker 2: want to see me as a role model, and after 569 00:29:08,400 --> 00:29:11,840 Speaker 2: I did this series, people see me as this guy 570 00:29:11,880 --> 00:29:18,360 Speaker 2: that can't up why I'm not an angel? When you 571 00:29:18,400 --> 00:29:21,960 Speaker 2: go to church. A lot of people say, I don't 572 00:29:22,000 --> 00:29:24,360 Speaker 2: like going to church because I see shit in church 573 00:29:24,480 --> 00:29:26,600 Speaker 2: that I don't like, and I see people from church 574 00:29:26,680 --> 00:29:28,680 Speaker 2: doing things they don't have to do. They're not angels. 575 00:29:29,880 --> 00:29:35,120 Speaker 2: They're fighting their battles. You cannot expect them to be perfect. 576 00:29:35,280 --> 00:29:40,640 Speaker 2: Even the pastor, he's gonna up. He's a human being. Now, 577 00:29:41,480 --> 00:29:43,240 Speaker 2: we in the sky and we were God, and there's 578 00:29:43,320 --> 00:29:47,680 Speaker 2: angels up. I understand, but none of these motherfuckers got wings. 579 00:29:48,520 --> 00:29:52,440 Speaker 2: They human beings. People don't understand that. And it's easy 580 00:29:52,480 --> 00:29:55,520 Speaker 2: to judge people. You know, it's easy to judge people. 581 00:29:55,560 --> 00:29:58,960 Speaker 2: But if you had my money, and you had my power, 582 00:29:59,000 --> 00:30:04,040 Speaker 2: and you had my past, and you had my career, 583 00:30:04,360 --> 00:30:09,920 Speaker 2: how would you manage it? You know, you can't say 584 00:30:10,280 --> 00:30:12,880 Speaker 2: you know how you're gonna do it because you never 585 00:30:12,920 --> 00:30:13,560 Speaker 2: had it before. 586 00:30:13,680 --> 00:30:17,360 Speaker 1: You know, Hey, you're just catching me as I have 587 00:30:17,440 --> 00:30:21,320 Speaker 1: my midday pick me up. I'm sure you've heard about Juni. 588 00:30:21,600 --> 00:30:24,120 Speaker 1: Radi and I put all of our love into creating 589 00:30:24,160 --> 00:30:27,640 Speaker 1: this amazing drink. It's full of new tropics and adaptogens. 590 00:30:27,920 --> 00:30:30,680 Speaker 1: Great for that little boast of energy and hance, focus 591 00:30:31,040 --> 00:30:33,760 Speaker 1: and a happy mind. And guess what, it's only five 592 00:30:33,840 --> 00:30:37,600 Speaker 1: calories and absolutely no sugar. I hope you're going to 593 00:30:37,640 --> 00:30:40,360 Speaker 1: try it out. It's available right now at Target if 594 00:30:40,360 --> 00:30:42,720 Speaker 1: you're a Target shop, I head there right now and 595 00:30:42,960 --> 00:30:46,360 Speaker 1: at Sprouts as well this summer. Go grab your JUNI. 596 00:30:46,760 --> 00:30:50,640 Speaker 1: It's powerful to hear that having context of your mum's 597 00:30:50,720 --> 00:30:54,760 Speaker 1: past was so helpful in you making sense of who 598 00:30:54,840 --> 00:30:57,400 Speaker 1: she was and why she was that way. I want 599 00:30:57,400 --> 00:30:59,320 Speaker 1: to know for you, what was it that took you 600 00:30:59,400 --> 00:31:02,719 Speaker 1: to drugs the first time, and what was it that 601 00:31:02,800 --> 00:31:05,640 Speaker 1: took you back to alcohol this time? Like, what were 602 00:31:05,680 --> 00:31:08,760 Speaker 1: the two motivations that took you there the first time? 603 00:31:08,760 --> 00:31:09,560 Speaker 1: And now as well? 604 00:31:10,280 --> 00:31:13,520 Speaker 2: Drugs was part of my family since I was a kid. 605 00:31:14,640 --> 00:31:19,640 Speaker 2: My uncle died of age because he shot heroin using 606 00:31:19,640 --> 00:31:24,520 Speaker 2: somebody else's needles. He died in my face. My dad 607 00:31:24,520 --> 00:31:27,040 Speaker 2: did drugs, my mom did drugs in the house, my 608 00:31:27,200 --> 00:31:32,240 Speaker 2: uncle did drugs, my other uncle did drugs. Everybody in 609 00:31:32,280 --> 00:31:34,000 Speaker 2: the house will come to my house to do drugs, 610 00:31:34,000 --> 00:31:35,880 Speaker 2: and I would see that a whole bunch of zombies 611 00:31:35,880 --> 00:31:40,880 Speaker 2: in my house. So this started since that, and then 612 00:31:40,920 --> 00:31:43,040 Speaker 2: when I'm eleven years old, I moved to Puerto Rico, 613 00:31:43,080 --> 00:31:45,320 Speaker 2: and kids in Puerto Rico were doing drugs like nothing 614 00:31:46,160 --> 00:31:48,960 Speaker 2: in the hood. I'm not saying everybody in Puerto Rico 615 00:31:49,000 --> 00:31:53,120 Speaker 2: does drugs. Where I was raised, it was normal just 616 00:31:53,120 --> 00:31:57,000 Speaker 2: to see kids doing drugs. And at eleven, I started 617 00:31:57,000 --> 00:32:02,480 Speaker 2: smoking weed, and from weed a couple of years after, 618 00:32:02,520 --> 00:32:05,520 Speaker 2: I went to coke. What made me do coke was 619 00:32:05,560 --> 00:32:09,720 Speaker 2: a what's the first girl that I had? She left 620 00:32:09,760 --> 00:32:14,000 Speaker 2: me for another man when I was fourteen or fifteen 621 00:32:14,080 --> 00:32:16,520 Speaker 2: years old. She left me because I was a kid 622 00:32:16,800 --> 00:32:18,880 Speaker 2: and I didn't have a job or nothing like that, 623 00:32:18,920 --> 00:32:20,480 Speaker 2: and she left me for a man that had a 624 00:32:20,560 --> 00:32:23,840 Speaker 2: job and had inspiration and had all that, you know, 625 00:32:23,920 --> 00:32:31,959 Speaker 2: blah blah blah, and my mom abandoned me. So to 626 00:32:32,040 --> 00:32:34,800 Speaker 2: have another girl abandoned me, it affected me in a 627 00:32:34,800 --> 00:32:38,560 Speaker 2: way so big that I did. I started doing cocaine 628 00:32:39,640 --> 00:32:46,160 Speaker 2: and from there I it went from cocaine to heroine, heroin, 629 00:32:46,360 --> 00:32:52,040 Speaker 2: to ecstasy, ecstasy to any type of drug until I 630 00:32:52,080 --> 00:32:56,320 Speaker 2: got hooked with the with the perks and you know, codeine, 631 00:32:56,360 --> 00:33:00,720 Speaker 2: and I was doing perks, thirty perks a day for years. 632 00:33:01,240 --> 00:33:03,920 Speaker 2: I cleaned myself for years, because you know, I got 633 00:33:03,920 --> 00:33:05,960 Speaker 2: my shit together, and I said, I know it was 634 00:33:06,000 --> 00:33:09,200 Speaker 2: destroying me, and it was destroying my body and destroying 635 00:33:09,240 --> 00:33:15,120 Speaker 2: my mind, destroying my health. But when I had success 636 00:33:15,200 --> 00:33:18,360 Speaker 2: and I did it all and I was all this money, 637 00:33:18,440 --> 00:33:22,880 Speaker 2: and you know, it's lonely in the top. For some reason, 638 00:33:23,400 --> 00:33:29,840 Speaker 2: that lifestyle took me back to the past, and I 639 00:33:29,880 --> 00:33:32,920 Speaker 2: started going out. I didn't do anything, and I was bored, 640 00:33:32,960 --> 00:33:36,440 Speaker 2: and somebody had a thing of champagne and I just 641 00:33:36,480 --> 00:33:38,800 Speaker 2: took one and I started drinking one. And from there 642 00:33:38,880 --> 00:33:40,720 Speaker 2: it went to give me another one, and there gave 643 00:33:40,760 --> 00:33:42,680 Speaker 2: me for another one. And then I started traveling and 644 00:33:43,200 --> 00:33:45,959 Speaker 2: I went to Europe, and then the base where I 645 00:33:46,000 --> 00:33:49,880 Speaker 2: was staying was Amsterdam during the week, and I had 646 00:33:49,880 --> 00:33:53,240 Speaker 2: a little bar in the front, and I started drinking 647 00:33:53,280 --> 00:33:55,680 Speaker 2: and drinking and drinking, and I thought it was something 648 00:33:55,760 --> 00:33:58,440 Speaker 2: that I could do, you know. And while I was 649 00:33:58,480 --> 00:34:01,080 Speaker 2: touring during the week and then weekends I would perform. 650 00:34:02,240 --> 00:34:04,360 Speaker 2: Went back to Miami. It wasn't the same. I was 651 00:34:04,400 --> 00:34:08,400 Speaker 2: still in Answerdam even if I was in Miami. And 652 00:34:08,960 --> 00:34:10,120 Speaker 2: that's how I got back to it. 653 00:34:10,680 --> 00:34:12,399 Speaker 1: Where do you go for help? Like when you clean 654 00:34:12,440 --> 00:34:15,320 Speaker 1: the first time, and now you're being so open about 655 00:34:15,360 --> 00:34:17,360 Speaker 1: this challenge that you have right now, Like how have 656 00:34:17,440 --> 00:34:20,400 Speaker 1: you been able to find the right help to support 657 00:34:20,400 --> 00:34:20,840 Speaker 1: you through that? 658 00:34:20,920 --> 00:34:25,200 Speaker 2: Myself? Myself and my people, my girl, you know, my 659 00:34:25,280 --> 00:34:28,400 Speaker 2: girl would tell me Nikki, you drink and you sleep 660 00:34:28,440 --> 00:34:33,040 Speaker 2: for a whole day and I be alone. That affected me. 661 00:34:33,120 --> 00:34:35,880 Speaker 2: I'm like, oh shit, like really, like I leave you 662 00:34:35,920 --> 00:34:39,040 Speaker 2: alone for like eight hours and shit and all the 663 00:34:39,080 --> 00:34:41,719 Speaker 2: shit that I I would do that I wouldn't remember, 664 00:34:42,840 --> 00:34:44,880 Speaker 2: you know, And I'm like, I don't want to be 665 00:34:44,960 --> 00:34:46,239 Speaker 2: that guy. I don't want to be a guy that 666 00:34:46,360 --> 00:34:50,359 Speaker 2: do things and don't remember. So that helped me a lot. 667 00:34:50,400 --> 00:34:53,319 Speaker 2: People around me see people around me, you know, not 668 00:34:53,520 --> 00:34:56,480 Speaker 2: liking me being this guy that's drinking. And you know, 669 00:34:57,080 --> 00:34:59,520 Speaker 2: I've had fun. I ain't gonna lie this whole time. 670 00:35:00,200 --> 00:35:01,719 Speaker 2: I don't want to make it a sad story. I 671 00:35:01,719 --> 00:35:03,760 Speaker 2: don't want people to think that I've been like sad 672 00:35:03,840 --> 00:35:06,719 Speaker 2: and crying and I've had a lot of fun, a 673 00:35:06,760 --> 00:35:09,239 Speaker 2: lot of fun. But too much fun is not good, 674 00:35:09,360 --> 00:35:11,640 Speaker 2: you know, Yeah, too much fun is not good. And 675 00:35:12,840 --> 00:35:15,759 Speaker 2: if you forget shit and you don't remember, shit is bad. 676 00:35:15,800 --> 00:35:21,440 Speaker 2: And that's why I started smoking, because I would get 677 00:35:21,480 --> 00:35:23,759 Speaker 2: a lot. I'm very anxious. If you see me here, 678 00:35:23,800 --> 00:35:26,520 Speaker 2: I can't stop moving. That's just the way I am. 679 00:35:26,719 --> 00:35:29,359 Speaker 2: I've been like that since I was a kid. I've 680 00:35:29,360 --> 00:35:31,480 Speaker 2: never told this story before, but when I was a kid, 681 00:35:32,040 --> 00:35:36,799 Speaker 2: I lead paint with lead. They paint the house where 682 00:35:36,840 --> 00:35:39,120 Speaker 2: I was living with lead, and I used to eat 683 00:35:39,120 --> 00:35:42,960 Speaker 2: that when I was a kid, So that lad got 684 00:35:43,000 --> 00:35:46,480 Speaker 2: into my blood, and that lad affected me in a 685 00:35:46,520 --> 00:35:50,520 Speaker 2: way that it makes me very anxious. My sister had 686 00:35:50,520 --> 00:35:55,840 Speaker 2: it too, and so you know, all the drugs that 687 00:35:55,880 --> 00:35:57,799 Speaker 2: I did in the past and all that affected my 688 00:35:57,840 --> 00:36:03,160 Speaker 2: nervous system. So I'm a very anxious person and I 689 00:36:03,160 --> 00:36:05,399 Speaker 2: ain't gonna lie. The weed helps me a lot. It's 690 00:36:05,440 --> 00:36:08,719 Speaker 2: been helping me a lot. Probably somebody hears who's like, 691 00:36:08,760 --> 00:36:11,560 Speaker 2: you're stupid, You're leaving something for another thing or whatever. 692 00:36:11,680 --> 00:36:13,680 Speaker 2: I mean. I do whatever I gotta do to like, 693 00:36:13,800 --> 00:36:16,040 Speaker 2: for sure, to feel better. And I've rather smoked and 694 00:36:16,160 --> 00:36:18,600 Speaker 2: drink and I'm not doing the perks I used to 695 00:36:18,600 --> 00:36:21,839 Speaker 2: do in the past, or the cocaine, et cetera. And 696 00:36:22,120 --> 00:36:23,799 Speaker 2: I don't even know why I'm telling you some of shit. 697 00:36:24,040 --> 00:36:26,839 Speaker 1: I appreciate it, no, man, I think it's I mean, 698 00:36:26,880 --> 00:36:29,680 Speaker 1: it's real. It's real, and oh I'm real. Yeah, and 699 00:36:30,000 --> 00:36:35,879 Speaker 1: if anything, I'm It's impressive how aware you are of 700 00:36:35,920 --> 00:36:42,120 Speaker 1: yourself having had so much trauma, stress, pain, Like you're 701 00:36:42,200 --> 00:36:44,200 Speaker 1: so aware. Like that's what I'm noticing in you. 702 00:36:44,239 --> 00:36:44,800 Speaker 2: I'm listening to you. 703 00:36:44,840 --> 00:36:48,160 Speaker 1: I'm like, well, this person so aware. You're so open 704 00:36:48,239 --> 00:36:51,760 Speaker 1: to people in your inner circle being able to share 705 00:36:52,400 --> 00:36:55,480 Speaker 1: their feedback with you. Yeah, you said it's lonely at 706 00:36:55,480 --> 00:36:57,759 Speaker 1: the top, but it seems like you've surrounded yourself with 707 00:36:57,840 --> 00:37:01,080 Speaker 1: people that can be honest with you and are arnest 708 00:37:01,120 --> 00:37:01,480 Speaker 1: with you. 709 00:37:01,960 --> 00:37:04,400 Speaker 2: Yeah you could. You could have good people next to 710 00:37:04,440 --> 00:37:07,640 Speaker 2: you and still feel lonely. It's weird. I don't know 711 00:37:07,640 --> 00:37:10,640 Speaker 2: how to explain that. For some reason, you can have 712 00:37:11,520 --> 00:37:13,360 Speaker 2: good people next to you. I have a good circle 713 00:37:13,400 --> 00:37:16,000 Speaker 2: of people, have good friends. I have a good girl. 714 00:37:17,000 --> 00:37:21,719 Speaker 2: I have beautiful kids. My kids are big now, you know, 715 00:37:21,880 --> 00:37:25,440 Speaker 2: all in college and high school. And I'm not the 716 00:37:25,520 --> 00:37:28,440 Speaker 2: typical guy that calls the family every day and checks 717 00:37:28,440 --> 00:37:30,920 Speaker 2: on them. I'm the guy that when you call them 718 00:37:30,920 --> 00:37:34,600 Speaker 2: there you know. My dad calls me and I'll be 719 00:37:34,640 --> 00:37:37,080 Speaker 2: there in a second. Anything. He needs my mom as well, 720 00:37:37,320 --> 00:37:41,920 Speaker 2: my kids as well. Even my friends sometimes I just 721 00:37:41,920 --> 00:37:43,440 Speaker 2: don't want to be next to people. But it's not 722 00:37:43,440 --> 00:37:46,360 Speaker 2: because I'm a jerk, because I love my friends and 723 00:37:46,440 --> 00:37:48,800 Speaker 2: my friends been my family for a long time. Because 724 00:37:49,400 --> 00:37:51,279 Speaker 2: you know, I've been on the road so long. I've 725 00:37:51,320 --> 00:37:53,560 Speaker 2: been more on the road than in my house, you know, 726 00:37:53,680 --> 00:37:55,840 Speaker 2: traveling the world. I've traveled the world. I've done so 727 00:37:55,960 --> 00:38:00,240 Speaker 2: much around the world that to be in my house 728 00:38:00,280 --> 00:38:06,080 Speaker 2: it's just something that doesn't happen. But uh, but yeah, 729 00:38:06,239 --> 00:38:10,799 Speaker 2: sometimes you still feel lonely. It's just a the traumas. Man. 730 00:38:10,880 --> 00:38:13,319 Speaker 2: The traumas take you, take you there. But I deal 731 00:38:13,360 --> 00:38:15,400 Speaker 2: with it. I mean, I'm just opening it up to you. 732 00:38:15,440 --> 00:38:17,640 Speaker 2: I'm not sure. It's not that I'm like I was. 733 00:38:17,719 --> 00:38:20,160 Speaker 2: I've been laughing my whole way here. I have a 734 00:38:20,200 --> 00:38:24,400 Speaker 2: good time. I make fun of myself. I joke around 735 00:38:24,400 --> 00:38:27,719 Speaker 2: everywhere I go. I have a lot of fun. But 736 00:38:28,160 --> 00:38:31,000 Speaker 2: you know, I'm a human being, and that's what I 737 00:38:31,040 --> 00:38:34,000 Speaker 2: want people to understand. I have my days just like you. 738 00:38:35,400 --> 00:38:37,799 Speaker 2: I have my depressions, just like you. I have my 739 00:38:37,880 --> 00:38:41,759 Speaker 2: insecurities just like you. I have my all that shit 740 00:38:41,840 --> 00:38:44,000 Speaker 2: that people think we don't have because we have money, 741 00:38:44,120 --> 00:38:47,640 Speaker 2: we have cars, we have all that bullshit that the 742 00:38:47,719 --> 00:38:50,759 Speaker 2: reality is just nothing, you know, the end of the day, 743 00:38:52,000 --> 00:38:54,200 Speaker 2: it's just when you're alone in that bed. You know, 744 00:38:56,080 --> 00:38:58,080 Speaker 2: you're dying in that bed. You don't have a Farrari 745 00:38:58,200 --> 00:39:01,480 Speaker 2: next to you. You don't have a whole bunch of 746 00:39:01,520 --> 00:39:04,239 Speaker 2: girls next to you, you don't have a whole bunch 747 00:39:04,280 --> 00:39:06,080 Speaker 2: of friends. Next to you? Is your family? Who's there 748 00:39:06,120 --> 00:39:06,480 Speaker 2: with you? 749 00:39:06,480 --> 00:39:06,680 Speaker 1: You know? 750 00:39:06,760 --> 00:39:08,600 Speaker 2: So I'm real. 751 00:39:09,040 --> 00:39:11,440 Speaker 1: Yeah, no, walk me through. There's there's some things you 752 00:39:11,480 --> 00:39:13,479 Speaker 1: said to me that I think, you know, people won't 753 00:39:13,520 --> 00:39:16,720 Speaker 1: experience once. Let learn fifty sixty times you were saying, 754 00:39:16,760 --> 00:39:20,480 Speaker 1: like nearly being killed, Like what is that? That must 755 00:39:20,560 --> 00:39:22,719 Speaker 1: be a life altering experience. But when you've had it 756 00:39:22,760 --> 00:39:26,279 Speaker 1: fifty sixty times, I mean, do you become immune to that? 757 00:39:26,320 --> 00:39:27,360 Speaker 1: Does that just become normal? 758 00:39:27,680 --> 00:39:30,120 Speaker 2: Not now, No, not now, because I lived that life 759 00:39:30,120 --> 00:39:32,040 Speaker 2: a long time ago. But yeah, by that time and 760 00:39:32,080 --> 00:39:34,560 Speaker 2: that time, yes, of course, yeah, I was. I don't care. 761 00:39:34,760 --> 00:39:36,680 Speaker 1: Walk me through one of the events if that was 762 00:39:36,719 --> 00:39:38,200 Speaker 1: the worst, like that was the closest. 763 00:39:38,560 --> 00:39:41,319 Speaker 2: Oh my god. I mean, there's so many things I 764 00:39:41,320 --> 00:39:43,919 Speaker 2: can't even talk about because the thin well I could, 765 00:39:43,960 --> 00:39:46,839 Speaker 2: I could, I could almost talk about I was at 766 00:39:46,840 --> 00:39:52,239 Speaker 2: this club and I just bought a gun. I bought 767 00:39:52,239 --> 00:39:54,560 Speaker 2: a gun. And for some reason, this gun, if you, 768 00:39:54,600 --> 00:39:57,960 Speaker 2: if you, if you, if you lower the safety, it 769 00:39:58,040 --> 00:40:02,560 Speaker 2: shoots because because the gun was they put it fully 770 00:40:02,600 --> 00:40:06,520 Speaker 2: automatic in the street, in the street way. So I 771 00:40:06,520 --> 00:40:09,200 Speaker 2: bought this gun. I went into a club. The way 772 00:40:09,200 --> 00:40:11,320 Speaker 2: I got into the club with the gun. It's funny 773 00:40:11,320 --> 00:40:13,040 Speaker 2: that I put it in my chain and I sucked 774 00:40:13,080 --> 00:40:15,480 Speaker 2: it in. Security guy touched it. I said, it was, 775 00:40:15,520 --> 00:40:18,520 Speaker 2: you know, it was. It was if you had like 776 00:40:18,600 --> 00:40:23,239 Speaker 2: a like a how do you call that, like a 777 00:40:23,320 --> 00:40:26,840 Speaker 2: rosemary or something like that or something or anything in gold. 778 00:40:27,920 --> 00:40:30,080 Speaker 2: They you can't, they can't touch it because it's prepared. 779 00:40:30,120 --> 00:40:32,879 Speaker 2: It's it's a Puerto Rican thing. And so I got 780 00:40:32,880 --> 00:40:35,680 Speaker 2: in my gun and I shot the gun inside there 781 00:40:35,760 --> 00:40:40,839 Speaker 2: and then the no, someone just no, no, I didn't 782 00:40:40,840 --> 00:40:43,440 Speaker 2: want to shoot it. I lowered the safety and it shot. 783 00:40:44,960 --> 00:40:49,080 Speaker 2: So I'm in the club and the big guy from 784 00:40:49,120 --> 00:40:51,399 Speaker 2: Puerto Rico, the one that it was, I'm not gonna 785 00:40:51,400 --> 00:40:54,160 Speaker 2: say names, but the big guy, he was there and 786 00:40:54,200 --> 00:40:57,799 Speaker 2: his right man was there too, and they tell him, yo, 787 00:40:57,880 --> 00:41:00,640 Speaker 2: Nikki's shooting in the club. And the big guy, you know, 788 00:41:00,760 --> 00:41:02,920 Speaker 2: the top guy, he knew me and he was like, oh, 789 00:41:02,960 --> 00:41:05,120 Speaker 2: you know, Nikki, I'll deal with in a word, but 790 00:41:05,200 --> 00:41:09,000 Speaker 2: that's my boy. But then I was hiding myself behind 791 00:41:09,040 --> 00:41:11,680 Speaker 2: this guy because I knew I just shot some shot 792 00:41:11,719 --> 00:41:13,360 Speaker 2: the roof of the club and I didn't want nobody 793 00:41:13,360 --> 00:41:14,840 Speaker 2: to know it was me. And I had an argument 794 00:41:14,920 --> 00:41:16,840 Speaker 2: with the guy and the guy said he was with 795 00:41:16,920 --> 00:41:18,440 Speaker 2: the top guy, and I said, I don't carry you 796 00:41:18,480 --> 00:41:20,520 Speaker 2: with the top guy. But he told the top guys, 797 00:41:20,560 --> 00:41:23,840 Speaker 2: like Nikki said, he don't care about you. So his 798 00:41:23,960 --> 00:41:25,920 Speaker 2: right hand man came to shoot me, and then I 799 00:41:25,920 --> 00:41:30,799 Speaker 2: shoot my way out. I shot him too, and and 800 00:41:31,960 --> 00:41:36,920 Speaker 2: they gave me that phone call saying, bro, wherever we 801 00:41:37,000 --> 00:41:40,840 Speaker 2: get you, it's done. That's a scary moment because I 802 00:41:40,880 --> 00:41:42,600 Speaker 2: know who this guy was, and he was one of 803 00:41:42,600 --> 00:41:48,840 Speaker 2: the biggest guys, biggest guys in Puerto Rico. Long story short, 804 00:41:49,120 --> 00:41:53,799 Speaker 2: the whole music industry helped me not get killed. And 805 00:41:54,480 --> 00:41:56,719 Speaker 2: I had to pay my way to help the guy 806 00:41:56,719 --> 00:42:01,520 Speaker 2: because the guy had and how do you call this, 807 00:42:03,200 --> 00:42:05,919 Speaker 2: he was, uh, he had diabetes. So when you get 808 00:42:06,239 --> 00:42:09,839 Speaker 2: if you get shot, having diabetes for some reason, it 809 00:42:09,880 --> 00:42:13,040 Speaker 2: affects you way more. And I had to like pay 810 00:42:13,080 --> 00:42:14,839 Speaker 2: a lot of money in that moment. We didn't make 811 00:42:14,880 --> 00:42:17,000 Speaker 2: that much money in the industry and the music industry, 812 00:42:17,880 --> 00:42:19,560 Speaker 2: and I got out of that. But that's just one 813 00:42:19,600 --> 00:42:21,759 Speaker 2: of the stories of a whole bunch of stories. I 814 00:42:21,760 --> 00:42:22,400 Speaker 2: could tell you. 815 00:42:22,520 --> 00:42:25,360 Speaker 1: Wow, man, And like you said, it's there's real fear. 816 00:42:25,400 --> 00:42:27,880 Speaker 2: There's no when the guy like that calls you and 817 00:42:27,920 --> 00:42:31,000 Speaker 2: tells you was done is you know, it's one of 818 00:42:31,040 --> 00:42:33,000 Speaker 2: the worst things you could hear in your life. You know, 819 00:42:33,120 --> 00:42:35,000 Speaker 2: It's just I went through a lot of stuff, man, 820 00:42:35,000 --> 00:42:36,360 Speaker 2: I went through a lot of stuff, and I was 821 00:42:36,440 --> 00:42:40,000 Speaker 2: just a rebel. My mom not being there made me 822 00:42:40,040 --> 00:42:42,880 Speaker 2: not care about living, you know, and just it's just 823 00:42:42,920 --> 00:42:43,560 Speaker 2: the way it was. 824 00:42:43,800 --> 00:42:45,360 Speaker 1: How long were you ever in prison for for the 825 00:42:45,440 --> 00:42:49,320 Speaker 1: longest time, like three years? Three years in one stretch. Yeah, 826 00:42:49,880 --> 00:42:52,200 Speaker 1: walk us through what three years in prison looks like, 827 00:42:52,239 --> 00:42:54,600 Speaker 1: because I feel like, again most people are on the 828 00:42:54,680 --> 00:42:57,480 Speaker 1: see in the movies, and you know it's glorified in 829 00:42:57,520 --> 00:42:58,200 Speaker 1: the TV show. 830 00:42:58,360 --> 00:43:02,600 Speaker 2: At the beginning, you get all classophobic and you feel like, uh, 831 00:43:02,800 --> 00:43:05,319 Speaker 2: you feel like you're gonna die. I mean, come on, 832 00:43:05,480 --> 00:43:07,399 Speaker 2: you used to living in the house, and from living 833 00:43:07,400 --> 00:43:09,960 Speaker 2: in a house, you living in four walls like this, 834 00:43:10,200 --> 00:43:13,839 Speaker 2: like this morning, this is huge, bro. No, I mean 835 00:43:17,520 --> 00:43:20,200 Speaker 2: from your from York, from where you are to where 836 00:43:20,200 --> 00:43:23,200 Speaker 2: I am, and probably a little bit over here. That's it. 837 00:43:23,920 --> 00:43:26,840 Speaker 2: That's all you got in a toilet for the reality 838 00:43:26,880 --> 00:43:30,360 Speaker 2: of everything. I've always been the soul of the party. 839 00:43:31,160 --> 00:43:33,879 Speaker 2: So I made these people have fun. I sang for them. 840 00:43:34,120 --> 00:43:36,279 Speaker 2: I made jokes all day because I'm a joker. I'll 841 00:43:36,320 --> 00:43:40,759 Speaker 2: be doing jokes, and uh, people love me. You know, 842 00:43:40,880 --> 00:43:43,239 Speaker 2: people love me, and uh, they were gonna give me 843 00:43:43,280 --> 00:43:45,359 Speaker 2: six years. And from six years, I came out in three. 844 00:43:45,400 --> 00:43:47,600 Speaker 2: So I try not to talk too much about that 845 00:43:47,640 --> 00:43:50,719 Speaker 2: because it was crazy days. But but I could tell 846 00:43:50,719 --> 00:43:54,080 Speaker 2: you that I thought, for one moment everything was going 847 00:43:54,160 --> 00:43:56,799 Speaker 2: to be done when I got into that place, and 848 00:43:56,960 --> 00:44:00,200 Speaker 2: as soon as I came out coming inside it it's 849 00:44:00,200 --> 00:44:04,560 Speaker 2: not a problem when you come out and you fund 850 00:44:04,600 --> 00:44:08,280 Speaker 2: everything that you left before you went inside of jail. 851 00:44:08,960 --> 00:44:11,200 Speaker 2: Just like drugs, you know, you stop doing drugs and 852 00:44:11,200 --> 00:44:14,120 Speaker 2: then you got to confront yourself with all the things 853 00:44:14,160 --> 00:44:18,640 Speaker 2: that made you get into drugs. So I don't know, 854 00:44:18,719 --> 00:44:24,880 Speaker 2: I I'm just happy, I'm not I'm outside. 855 00:44:25,840 --> 00:44:29,000 Speaker 1: No, I'm fascinated because it's such a unique life experience 856 00:44:29,120 --> 00:44:31,000 Speaker 1: that you know, I don't get to speak to someone 857 00:44:31,000 --> 00:44:33,000 Speaker 1: who's had that experience and then have the other experience 858 00:44:33,000 --> 00:44:35,560 Speaker 1: that you've had. So to me, I'm just curious because 859 00:44:35,560 --> 00:44:38,480 Speaker 1: I feel like we have such a limited understanding of 860 00:44:39,280 --> 00:44:41,520 Speaker 1: that life experience from the outside. Ind Like you have 861 00:44:41,560 --> 00:44:44,160 Speaker 1: no clue what it looks like to have that experience. 862 00:44:44,200 --> 00:44:46,560 Speaker 1: And I love what you said that it's actually harder 863 00:44:46,600 --> 00:44:48,120 Speaker 1: when you come out and you've got to see where 864 00:44:48,120 --> 00:44:51,040 Speaker 1: everything's kind of you got to catch up with life. 865 00:44:50,800 --> 00:44:52,719 Speaker 2: Catch up with life, and you know, you know, and 866 00:44:53,560 --> 00:44:56,640 Speaker 2: come back and it will come back. And it was worse. 867 00:44:57,520 --> 00:44:59,480 Speaker 2: I came out and it was worse and worse and worse, 868 00:44:59,520 --> 00:45:01,520 Speaker 2: and I didn't more drugs and more drugs, and it 869 00:45:01,640 --> 00:45:04,760 Speaker 2: was it came to a moment I looked all messed 870 00:45:04,800 --> 00:45:08,160 Speaker 2: up because Perks was a drugs that would not will 871 00:45:08,160 --> 00:45:11,840 Speaker 2: make you eat. So I was a drug addict. I 872 00:45:11,920 --> 00:45:14,279 Speaker 2: was a big drug addict. You know what I'm saying. 873 00:45:14,320 --> 00:45:17,040 Speaker 2: I was an overweight drug addict. I would rather be 874 00:45:17,080 --> 00:45:21,200 Speaker 2: a skinny drug addict, it makes more sense. But I wasn't. 875 00:45:21,200 --> 00:45:23,319 Speaker 2: I was eating all this shit and you know, and 876 00:45:24,080 --> 00:45:31,520 Speaker 2: overweight and just you know, embarrassment, embarrassments, embarrassments, so it 877 00:45:31,600 --> 00:45:36,640 Speaker 2: was like it was just horrible. But you know, moving 878 00:45:36,680 --> 00:45:39,439 Speaker 2: to Columbia changed my life. 879 00:45:39,920 --> 00:45:41,279 Speaker 1: Why why did that change your life? 880 00:45:41,719 --> 00:45:46,480 Speaker 2: Well, the reality is sometimes you have to move, you know, 881 00:45:46,520 --> 00:45:49,680 Speaker 2: you can't stay in one place. And they called me 882 00:45:49,719 --> 00:45:51,560 Speaker 2: for a show in Columbia when I was in my 883 00:45:51,719 --> 00:45:58,320 Speaker 2: worst moment, and I went over there and I performed reality. 884 00:45:58,360 --> 00:46:01,120 Speaker 2: I acted like I was my own manager, and they 885 00:46:01,239 --> 00:46:05,000 Speaker 2: changed my voice. They're like, yo, can we get Nikki 886 00:46:05,080 --> 00:46:09,239 Speaker 2: jam for the A Teeth one moment? They put my manager, Yes, 887 00:46:09,280 --> 00:46:12,120 Speaker 2: what do you need right now? Change my voice? And 888 00:46:12,160 --> 00:46:14,759 Speaker 2: I had feel like I was my own manager. And 889 00:46:16,080 --> 00:46:18,160 Speaker 2: I went to Columbia and I'm thinking over here, I'm 890 00:46:18,160 --> 00:46:22,719 Speaker 2: the worst guy on the list of singers that are 891 00:46:22,760 --> 00:46:24,799 Speaker 2: going to be in this concert. You know, all these 892 00:46:24,880 --> 00:46:28,279 Speaker 2: kids were popping. They were like killing the game. I 893 00:46:28,360 --> 00:46:30,319 Speaker 2: haven't been in Colombia for a long time. So I 894 00:46:30,400 --> 00:46:33,400 Speaker 2: go over there and I'm over here thinking, damn, I 895 00:46:33,440 --> 00:46:36,719 Speaker 2: was singing these old songs. You know, I've been out 896 00:46:36,719 --> 00:46:38,760 Speaker 2: of the game for so long and not doing well, 897 00:46:38,840 --> 00:46:41,000 Speaker 2: and you know, I don't know if I want to 898 00:46:41,040 --> 00:46:43,760 Speaker 2: go on stage. You know, like I got even nervous 899 00:46:43,800 --> 00:46:47,120 Speaker 2: and everything, and I'm seeing that all these kids are 900 00:46:47,120 --> 00:46:51,839 Speaker 2: performing and they saving me for last. And I tell 901 00:46:51,880 --> 00:46:54,040 Speaker 2: the promoter, like, bro, why are you leaving me for last? 902 00:46:54,040 --> 00:46:56,360 Speaker 2: I mean, you got all these kids. They killing the 903 00:46:56,400 --> 00:47:00,000 Speaker 2: game right now, they're doing everything perfect, Like why are you? 904 00:47:00,320 --> 00:47:03,520 Speaker 2: He's like, we're saving you for last, Bro, because you're 905 00:47:03,520 --> 00:47:05,759 Speaker 2: the one people want to see. You never did a 906 00:47:05,800 --> 00:47:08,560 Speaker 2: show here when you was really popping, so people want 907 00:47:08,600 --> 00:47:10,840 Speaker 2: to see you. So when I got on stage, it 908 00:47:10,960 --> 00:47:14,839 Speaker 2: was standing ovation. I mean, people were like crazy. And 909 00:47:14,880 --> 00:47:18,200 Speaker 2: it went from that to that same two weeks, I 910 00:47:18,280 --> 00:47:23,279 Speaker 2: was doing like fifteen shows. I did cheap, but hey, 911 00:47:23,880 --> 00:47:27,560 Speaker 2: I made some money and I paid the rent, went 912 00:47:27,600 --> 00:47:30,319 Speaker 2: back to Puerto Rico, paid arin, bought myself a car, 913 00:47:31,600 --> 00:47:35,160 Speaker 2: and I'm thinking, oh am I doing here in Puerto Rico. 914 00:47:35,640 --> 00:47:39,839 Speaker 2: I have this country that loves me so much. I'm 915 00:47:39,880 --> 00:47:44,160 Speaker 2: working and I feel good over there. So I started. 916 00:47:44,280 --> 00:47:46,960 Speaker 2: It started for me like staying two weeks, three weeks 917 00:47:47,480 --> 00:47:49,879 Speaker 2: to me saying, you know what, I'm moving here. I'm 918 00:47:49,920 --> 00:47:53,080 Speaker 2: moving to this country. And I was going through a 919 00:47:53,120 --> 00:47:55,319 Speaker 2: bad moment there. You know, I was going through a 920 00:47:55,360 --> 00:47:57,399 Speaker 2: really bad moment in Puerto Rico, and I went through 921 00:47:57,440 --> 00:48:00,240 Speaker 2: a lot of embarrassments and stuff like that. So people 922 00:48:00,320 --> 00:48:07,160 Speaker 2: in Colombia was seeing me as an idol. Nikon like Nikki, 923 00:48:07,160 --> 00:48:09,920 Speaker 2: You're an iconom, like Kon, what do you mean? I'm broke, 924 00:48:11,200 --> 00:48:15,640 Speaker 2: nikonum overweight, broke. How you gonna call me an iconom? 925 00:48:15,719 --> 00:48:21,640 Speaker 2: But people see when people give you that love and 926 00:48:21,680 --> 00:48:25,640 Speaker 2: they say you the best, you believe it. So thanks 927 00:48:25,640 --> 00:48:28,680 Speaker 2: for the people giving me that love and saying I'm 928 00:48:28,719 --> 00:48:31,720 Speaker 2: the best. I did believe I was the best until 929 00:48:31,760 --> 00:48:36,080 Speaker 2: I became the best and I conquered the world. I 930 00:48:36,120 --> 00:48:39,240 Speaker 2: realized the country had more than sixty five million people, 931 00:48:40,040 --> 00:48:41,960 Speaker 2: and it was the YouTube era, and I said, you 932 00:48:41,960 --> 00:48:45,760 Speaker 2: know what, if I have one number one hit national 933 00:48:45,840 --> 00:48:49,479 Speaker 2: hit in this country, I could probably have so many 934 00:48:49,560 --> 00:48:53,560 Speaker 2: views that I can make other countries want to know 935 00:48:53,600 --> 00:48:56,399 Speaker 2: why I have so many views. And it went from 936 00:48:56,440 --> 00:49:01,760 Speaker 2: having one national hit to five nights hits and having 937 00:49:02,440 --> 00:49:06,480 Speaker 2: fifteen million in one song, twenty million in another, one, 938 00:49:06,600 --> 00:49:10,360 Speaker 2: thirty million in another one. People was like Yo, Nikky's popping. 939 00:49:11,000 --> 00:49:12,960 Speaker 2: And from there it went to Chi left from there 940 00:49:13,000 --> 00:49:16,560 Speaker 2: went to Ecuador. From there went to hear Europe by 941 00:49:16,760 --> 00:49:20,239 Speaker 2: and then from there I did five number one global hits, 942 00:49:20,840 --> 00:49:26,120 Speaker 2: did the World Cup, did movies in Hollywood, et cetera, 943 00:49:26,280 --> 00:49:30,960 Speaker 2: et cetera. I did everything, and thanks to Columbia, you know, 944 00:49:31,480 --> 00:49:34,400 Speaker 2: thanks for the love they gave me, Thanks for the 945 00:49:34,440 --> 00:49:38,960 Speaker 2: support they gave me, Thanks for making me think that 946 00:49:39,040 --> 00:49:42,120 Speaker 2: I was somebody bigger than I thought I was, you know. 947 00:49:42,200 --> 00:49:45,319 Speaker 2: And that's just something that I appreciate so much. And 948 00:49:45,360 --> 00:49:47,279 Speaker 2: that's why I love the country. Everywhere I go and 949 00:49:47,440 --> 00:49:49,839 Speaker 2: every country I go, I talk about Colombia. I could 950 00:49:49,840 --> 00:49:52,520 Speaker 2: be in Mexico and I talk about Columbia. I could 951 00:49:52,520 --> 00:49:54,719 Speaker 2: be in Puerto Rico and I talk about Colombia and 952 00:49:54,760 --> 00:49:57,720 Speaker 2: I say, Hey, if you guys see two Colombias walking 953 00:49:57,719 --> 00:50:00,799 Speaker 2: around the streets, give them love. Why because they took 954 00:50:00,840 --> 00:50:04,960 Speaker 2: one of yours and they gave them love. That's just 955 00:50:05,000 --> 00:50:06,920 Speaker 2: the way I see it. That's the way I believe it. 956 00:50:07,400 --> 00:50:11,279 Speaker 2: You know, if I see somebody from Columbia struggling in 957 00:50:11,280 --> 00:50:13,840 Speaker 2: my country, if I mean I'm living in Puerto Rico, 958 00:50:14,040 --> 00:50:17,359 Speaker 2: I'll get them in my house. I'll take care of them, 959 00:50:17,600 --> 00:50:20,439 Speaker 2: because Columbia did it with me. They gave me love 960 00:50:20,440 --> 00:50:23,279 Speaker 2: when I needed it. I own so much. That's why 961 00:50:23,280 --> 00:50:25,960 Speaker 2: I always try to, you know, show love and do 962 00:50:26,040 --> 00:50:27,560 Speaker 2: whatever I could do to help the country. 963 00:50:27,600 --> 00:50:30,799 Speaker 1: You know, yeah, I really believe in this idea of 964 00:50:31,080 --> 00:50:34,920 Speaker 1: having a power place or a purpose place in the world. 965 00:50:34,960 --> 00:50:39,120 Speaker 1: There are certain places that you move to that it 966 00:50:39,160 --> 00:50:42,120 Speaker 1: feels like the whole universe is conspiring for you to 967 00:50:42,160 --> 00:50:43,480 Speaker 1: grow and become. 968 00:50:44,160 --> 00:50:46,759 Speaker 2: Colombia is exactly, and Columbia is that you and I 969 00:50:46,760 --> 00:50:49,520 Speaker 2: appreciate that so much. You know, even if I wish, 970 00:50:49,719 --> 00:50:53,760 Speaker 2: I wish I would have went before. 971 00:50:54,320 --> 00:50:56,880 Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, there's I mean, there's a reason why like 972 00:50:57,560 --> 00:51:00,760 Speaker 1: places become iconic for something like you look at Silicon 973 00:51:00,840 --> 00:51:03,680 Speaker 1: Valley in tech where you look at LA and entertainment, 974 00:51:04,160 --> 00:51:06,879 Speaker 1: you look at New York and finance, you look at 975 00:51:07,160 --> 00:51:09,239 Speaker 1: you know, even though I was with my friend and 976 00:51:09,440 --> 00:51:11,840 Speaker 1: you know, we're in this we're in Oxford in England, 977 00:51:12,000 --> 00:51:14,719 Speaker 1: and like literally every book that we grew up on, 978 00:51:14,760 --> 00:51:17,480 Speaker 1: whether it was Alice in Wonderland or Lord of the Rings, 979 00:51:17,560 --> 00:51:21,359 Speaker 1: was written in that area of Oxford. And so it's 980 00:51:21,360 --> 00:51:26,600 Speaker 1: like you've got all these hubs in the world where writers, creatives, artists, 981 00:51:26,840 --> 00:51:30,920 Speaker 1: entrepreneurs gravitate because there's an energetic pull in that place. 982 00:51:31,520 --> 00:51:33,640 Speaker 1: And for you, you know, Columbia sounds like it was 983 00:51:33,680 --> 00:51:34,960 Speaker 1: that power place that there was. 984 00:51:35,160 --> 00:51:39,040 Speaker 2: It was and I'm really grateful. Yeah, I can see 985 00:51:39,080 --> 00:51:41,640 Speaker 2: that for the country, and I would always give love 986 00:51:41,680 --> 00:51:44,120 Speaker 2: and show love to the country. And so the day 987 00:51:44,160 --> 00:51:46,480 Speaker 2: I die, and I don't mind dying in Columbia, you know, 988 00:51:46,520 --> 00:51:49,719 Speaker 2: because I feel like I'm dying home. 989 00:51:49,800 --> 00:51:53,719 Speaker 1: You know, what was it like having that conversation with 990 00:51:53,760 --> 00:51:56,920 Speaker 1: your mom after you had context of whatever she went through? 991 00:51:57,880 --> 00:52:00,239 Speaker 1: What did it feel like to like appro to that? 992 00:52:00,280 --> 00:52:02,120 Speaker 1: Because the reason I ask it is, I feel like 993 00:52:02,880 --> 00:52:06,000 Speaker 1: a lot of us judge our parents for not giving 994 00:52:06,080 --> 00:52:09,680 Speaker 1: us enough, for not being there for maybe you know, 995 00:52:09,760 --> 00:52:13,239 Speaker 1: creating our trauma, et cetera. How do you then have 996 00:52:13,280 --> 00:52:15,359 Speaker 1: that conversation to be like, I don't judge you like? 997 00:52:15,719 --> 00:52:18,240 Speaker 1: This is how I like, how do you even navigate 998 00:52:18,239 --> 00:52:18,840 Speaker 1: a conversation? 999 00:52:20,200 --> 00:52:24,759 Speaker 2: My mom is not an easy individual. My mom is 1000 00:52:24,840 --> 00:52:31,280 Speaker 2: very complicated. She's not she's not well. You gotta understand, 1001 00:52:31,280 --> 00:52:34,120 Speaker 2: my mom was a lady that when she was a 1002 00:52:34,200 --> 00:52:37,360 Speaker 2: drug addict most of her life. You know, it's not 1003 00:52:37,480 --> 00:52:39,759 Speaker 2: getting to talk to a typical mom that's gonna like 1004 00:52:40,400 --> 00:52:43,240 Speaker 2: talk to you and say, yes, son, how you doing. 1005 00:52:43,360 --> 00:52:48,160 Speaker 2: And it's you know, a person that literally was raised 1006 00:52:48,160 --> 00:52:52,960 Speaker 2: in the streets, you know, So having a conversation with 1007 00:52:53,080 --> 00:52:55,200 Speaker 2: my mom is not the easiest thing in the world, 1008 00:52:55,239 --> 00:52:58,680 Speaker 2: but I give her a message in a strong way 1009 00:52:58,680 --> 00:53:03,080 Speaker 2: because I have my mom character. I don't know if 1010 00:53:03,080 --> 00:53:06,120 Speaker 2: that's the right way of saying it. My sister has 1011 00:53:06,800 --> 00:53:10,560 Speaker 2: my dad's and my mom is a strong woman and 1012 00:53:10,600 --> 00:53:13,359 Speaker 2: she don't take shit from nobody, and I'm a strong mother. 1013 00:53:13,600 --> 00:53:15,520 Speaker 2: I don't take shit from nobody. That's just the way 1014 00:53:15,560 --> 00:53:17,160 Speaker 2: I am. I've always been like that since I was 1015 00:53:17,200 --> 00:53:19,960 Speaker 2: a kid. I was raised like that, and you know, 1016 00:53:20,040 --> 00:53:22,319 Speaker 2: my mom raised me like that. In the small time 1017 00:53:22,400 --> 00:53:24,800 Speaker 2: she was with me, she would tell me in school, 1018 00:53:24,800 --> 00:53:27,239 Speaker 2: she was like, if you go and you fight in 1019 00:53:27,320 --> 00:53:32,279 Speaker 2: school and the kid he was fighting with he beat 1020 00:53:32,400 --> 00:53:34,680 Speaker 2: up more than you, I'm gonna whoop you ass when 1021 00:53:34,680 --> 00:53:39,279 Speaker 2: you get home. Automatically, my mom gave me that I 1022 00:53:39,320 --> 00:53:42,319 Speaker 2: gotta whoop people's asses if I go back home, my 1023 00:53:42,360 --> 00:53:44,120 Speaker 2: mom's gonna whoop me. And I'm scared. I'm a most 1024 00:53:44,120 --> 00:53:46,839 Speaker 2: scared of my mom than the kid in school. So 1025 00:53:46,880 --> 00:53:49,920 Speaker 2: she made me a tough guy. You know, she made 1026 00:53:49,960 --> 00:53:54,840 Speaker 2: me a tough guy. The conversation was just me being 1027 00:53:55,239 --> 00:53:57,160 Speaker 2: strong to her and telling her, hey, you know what 1028 00:53:58,000 --> 00:54:02,000 Speaker 2: you did this, you went through that I understand you. 1029 00:54:03,200 --> 00:54:06,279 Speaker 2: I went through a lot of shit myself. I needed you. 1030 00:54:07,440 --> 00:54:10,799 Speaker 2: Well you here now and we're here and that's all 1031 00:54:10,840 --> 00:54:12,600 Speaker 2: that matters, you know. And I take care of her. 1032 00:54:12,600 --> 00:54:15,520 Speaker 2: I bought her a house, you know. I give her 1033 00:54:15,520 --> 00:54:19,040 Speaker 2: money monthly, anything she needs. You know, I'll take care 1034 00:54:19,040 --> 00:54:20,960 Speaker 2: of her. You know, it's hard because you know, to 1035 00:54:21,040 --> 00:54:23,239 Speaker 2: have a relationship. She lives in them can republish, she 1036 00:54:23,280 --> 00:54:26,160 Speaker 2: can't travel. You know, I've been fighting for her to 1037 00:54:26,200 --> 00:54:29,600 Speaker 2: have her you know, a pardon from the United States 1038 00:54:29,640 --> 00:54:32,720 Speaker 2: so she could come back. She can't have it right now. 1039 00:54:33,840 --> 00:54:37,520 Speaker 2: But uh, I'll leave everything in God's hands. 1040 00:54:39,080 --> 00:54:39,520 Speaker 1: You prayer. 1041 00:54:40,400 --> 00:54:42,239 Speaker 2: If I say, I pray a lot, I'm a lie. Man. 1042 00:54:44,640 --> 00:54:49,960 Speaker 2: I have so much. It's so funny, man, I have 1043 00:54:50,080 --> 00:54:54,160 Speaker 2: so much add that even if I pray, I can 1044 00:54:54,280 --> 00:54:57,759 Speaker 2: lose myself praying, sir, girls, friend, I don't know if 1045 00:54:57,760 --> 00:54:59,520 Speaker 2: I'm the only one that has that situation. 1046 00:55:00,800 --> 00:55:01,600 Speaker 1: I think we all have. 1047 00:55:02,080 --> 00:55:06,480 Speaker 2: But I talk to God. I don't pray because praying 1048 00:55:06,520 --> 00:55:12,399 Speaker 2: has a process. You know. Praying is just not like, uh, yeah, God, 1049 00:55:12,400 --> 00:55:14,719 Speaker 2: I need you to hook me up with this, and no, 1050 00:55:14,880 --> 00:55:17,080 Speaker 2: praying is more like, you know, like you have to 1051 00:55:17,160 --> 00:55:21,200 Speaker 2: first say, you know, thank thank thank you for everything 1052 00:55:21,239 --> 00:55:27,319 Speaker 2: I have asked for other people's uh, you know, blessings 1053 00:55:27,360 --> 00:55:31,600 Speaker 2: and health and all that, and then you talk about yourself. 1054 00:55:31,640 --> 00:55:33,279 Speaker 2: That's the right way of doing it. That's the way 1055 00:55:33,280 --> 00:55:36,200 Speaker 2: the Bible says you should do it. I don't go 1056 00:55:36,320 --> 00:55:40,239 Speaker 2: through all that process every time. I do it sometimes, 1057 00:55:40,400 --> 00:55:42,480 Speaker 2: but I talk to God here and there. You know, 1058 00:55:42,600 --> 00:55:45,640 Speaker 2: I talk to God and uh, I have conversations with God. 1059 00:55:45,680 --> 00:55:48,040 Speaker 2: I feel like God is my best friend. I know 1060 00:55:48,080 --> 00:55:50,520 Speaker 2: it's not the right way. I know I should pray more. Oh, 1061 00:55:50,600 --> 00:55:52,960 Speaker 2: I mean that sounds beautiful. Yeah, that sounds like the 1062 00:55:53,080 --> 00:55:58,359 Speaker 2: essence of prayer. Yeah, I mean I I me, being 1063 00:55:58,360 --> 00:56:01,000 Speaker 2: a guy that knows about the Bible and knows about 1064 00:56:01,040 --> 00:56:04,200 Speaker 2: the Word of God. I know there's a better way 1065 00:56:04,880 --> 00:56:08,040 Speaker 2: of having a connection with God and a better way 1066 00:56:08,040 --> 00:56:11,080 Speaker 2: of praying. They say that you wake up every morning 1067 00:56:11,120 --> 00:56:14,000 Speaker 2: and you get on your knees and you pray. It's 1068 00:56:14,040 --> 00:56:20,080 Speaker 2: the right way. I wake up noxious in the morning now, 1069 00:56:20,280 --> 00:56:21,920 Speaker 2: like I feel like I'm sick in the morning. I 1070 00:56:21,920 --> 00:56:24,640 Speaker 2: got to eat something first. So if I sit, if 1071 00:56:24,640 --> 00:56:27,040 Speaker 2: I get on my knees and I start praying, and 1072 00:56:27,080 --> 00:56:29,200 Speaker 2: I don't feel good, I don't feel like I'm giving 1073 00:56:29,200 --> 00:56:33,200 Speaker 2: the best. I don't know if I'm think all of us, Yeah, 1074 00:56:33,280 --> 00:56:35,319 Speaker 2: I don't know. I mean I feel like, I mean, 1075 00:56:35,400 --> 00:56:37,320 Speaker 2: can I at least eat a piece of bread or 1076 00:56:37,360 --> 00:56:40,680 Speaker 2: something so I can like really focus on praying the 1077 00:56:40,800 --> 00:56:45,000 Speaker 2: right way. I mean, look at my pastor look with 1078 00:56:45,120 --> 00:56:47,239 Speaker 2: everything I've been through when I'm still here. You know, 1079 00:56:49,600 --> 00:56:52,120 Speaker 2: I feel God has a purpose for me. He has 1080 00:56:52,160 --> 00:56:56,640 Speaker 2: a huge purpose for me. And I feel God loves 1081 00:56:56,680 --> 00:56:59,239 Speaker 2: me the way I am. I mean, I feel if 1082 00:56:59,280 --> 00:57:02,080 Speaker 2: I go to have in and I'll probably like joke 1083 00:57:02,120 --> 00:57:03,880 Speaker 2: around with God and you know, playing around with his 1084 00:57:03,960 --> 00:57:06,520 Speaker 2: beard and and you know, just just the way I 1085 00:57:06,560 --> 00:57:10,080 Speaker 2: see myself. He made me. He knows the way I am. 1086 00:57:10,080 --> 00:57:13,120 Speaker 2: He knows my essence. He made me. I have respect 1087 00:57:13,160 --> 00:57:17,240 Speaker 2: for God. I love God, and I know the time 1088 00:57:17,280 --> 00:57:21,000 Speaker 2: will come where I would have to like really dedicate 1089 00:57:21,120 --> 00:57:23,600 Speaker 2: myself to God because he has given me so much 1090 00:57:24,480 --> 00:57:27,280 Speaker 2: and I haven't given him what I have to, you know. 1091 00:57:28,040 --> 00:57:29,360 Speaker 2: So I know I old God a lot. 1092 00:57:29,960 --> 00:57:32,520 Speaker 1: You know, that's beautiful. 1093 00:57:32,640 --> 00:57:34,360 Speaker 2: I'll pay him back. I'll pay him back. 1094 00:57:35,240 --> 00:57:36,800 Speaker 1: You've had a lot of figures in your life that 1095 00:57:36,880 --> 00:57:39,040 Speaker 1: have been important at different times, and of course, as 1096 00:57:39,040 --> 00:57:42,240 Speaker 1: you mentioned, earlier, like Daddy Yankee was in that mixtape 1097 00:57:42,280 --> 00:57:44,680 Speaker 1: time and you know, growing you and then of course 1098 00:57:44,760 --> 00:57:48,960 Speaker 1: I believe the relationship didn't go is you know, relationships 1099 00:57:49,000 --> 00:57:51,760 Speaker 1: fizzle out and don't always work the same. Have you 1100 00:57:51,920 --> 00:57:54,640 Speaker 1: found a way to reconcile those relationships as well or 1101 00:57:54,680 --> 00:57:56,560 Speaker 1: are you kind of sometimes like if it didn't work out, 1102 00:57:56,880 --> 00:57:57,840 Speaker 1: part ways move on. 1103 00:57:58,600 --> 00:58:01,280 Speaker 2: Well. The only persons who I have had situations like 1104 00:58:01,320 --> 00:58:04,440 Speaker 2: that old person was that a Yankee, and me and 1105 00:58:04,560 --> 00:58:07,760 Speaker 2: him were better than ever. He texted me. I think 1106 00:58:07,840 --> 00:58:12,400 Speaker 2: it was yesterday or today. He's in church now, he's 1107 00:58:12,480 --> 00:58:15,280 Speaker 2: with God now one hundred percent, and I'm really happy 1108 00:58:15,320 --> 00:58:17,680 Speaker 2: for him and he knows what I've been going through 1109 00:58:17,720 --> 00:58:20,800 Speaker 2: and all that, and we've talked before, we had conversations, 1110 00:58:20,840 --> 00:58:23,400 Speaker 2: and you know, me and him are like better than 1111 00:58:23,400 --> 00:58:28,320 Speaker 2: ever now. So I can't say forgiveness because he didn't 1112 00:58:28,320 --> 00:58:31,720 Speaker 2: do anything to me. If we could say it was 1113 00:58:31,760 --> 00:58:33,520 Speaker 2: the other way around. He always tried to be the 1114 00:58:33,520 --> 00:58:35,439 Speaker 2: big brother, and I always try to be the wreck 1115 00:58:36,520 --> 00:58:39,360 Speaker 2: getting that a Yankee out of the situation. Any any 1116 00:58:39,400 --> 00:58:43,080 Speaker 2: person that I've had problem with that's done something to me, 1117 00:58:43,640 --> 00:58:45,960 Speaker 2: I forgive and I feel better because the forgiveness is 1118 00:58:45,960 --> 00:58:47,960 Speaker 2: not for them, It is for yourself, you know. And 1119 00:58:48,000 --> 00:58:52,000 Speaker 2: I feel better. You know, I've had problems even here today. 1120 00:58:52,000 --> 00:58:53,680 Speaker 2: I have a friend. He's right here with me, and 1121 00:58:53,720 --> 00:58:57,880 Speaker 2: we didn't talk to each other for I don't know, 1122 00:58:58,000 --> 00:59:01,120 Speaker 2: four years or something like that. Was mad. We had 1123 00:59:01,120 --> 00:59:03,600 Speaker 2: a bad situation, and now we're joking in the car 1124 00:59:03,680 --> 00:59:06,840 Speaker 2: like nothing happened. I think that's the way it should be. 1125 00:59:07,840 --> 00:59:12,600 Speaker 2: Life is too short, you know, and to hold crushes 1126 00:59:12,680 --> 00:59:15,360 Speaker 2: and be mad and shit and be mad with people. 1127 00:59:16,680 --> 00:59:20,040 Speaker 2: Just go back to people. And they gave me so 1128 00:59:20,160 --> 00:59:22,960 Speaker 2: much in a moment that it's it's crazy like not 1129 00:59:23,120 --> 00:59:25,160 Speaker 2: to be with them. They could help too, you know. 1130 00:59:26,040 --> 00:59:29,000 Speaker 2: You know, people up and sometimes do things that other 1131 00:59:29,000 --> 00:59:32,040 Speaker 2: people will never forgive. Now I'm gonna tell you this though, 1132 00:59:33,120 --> 00:59:37,440 Speaker 2: I forgive, but I'll never forget. And with that, I'll 1133 00:59:37,480 --> 00:59:38,080 Speaker 2: say everything. 1134 00:59:39,920 --> 00:59:43,360 Speaker 1: Last year when I went on my World tour, something 1135 00:59:43,360 --> 00:59:45,760 Speaker 1: that I was doing throughout the show was I was 1136 00:59:45,840 --> 00:59:52,440 Speaker 1: creating moments of growth, but that would discomfort for people 1137 00:59:52,480 --> 00:59:55,080 Speaker 1: from the audience. I would bring people up and I 1138 00:59:55,080 --> 00:59:57,960 Speaker 1: would guide them and coach them through an uncomfortable situation 1139 00:59:58,120 --> 01:00:00,080 Speaker 1: in their life. So at the end of the show, oh, 1140 01:00:01,400 --> 01:00:03,600 Speaker 1: there was this one moment that we did across the world. 1141 01:00:03,640 --> 01:00:05,959 Speaker 1: So we did have forty shows across the world, and 1142 01:00:06,680 --> 01:00:08,760 Speaker 1: I would ask people in the audience if there was 1143 01:00:08,800 --> 01:00:11,760 Speaker 1: someone in their life that they loved but that they 1144 01:00:11,800 --> 01:00:15,920 Speaker 1: haven't talked to in five, ten, fifteen years, and people 1145 01:00:15,960 --> 01:00:18,360 Speaker 1: had crazy stories. There were people who hadn't talked to 1146 01:00:18,400 --> 01:00:21,439 Speaker 1: their kids for ten years, brothers and sisters who hadn't 1147 01:00:21,440 --> 01:00:24,640 Speaker 1: talked for five years. You know, people who hadn't talked 1148 01:00:24,680 --> 01:00:26,439 Speaker 1: to their ex for seven years. 1149 01:00:26,480 --> 01:00:26,760 Speaker 2: Whatever. 1150 01:00:26,800 --> 01:00:30,920 Speaker 1: All these stories, and I'd invite someone on stage who 1151 01:00:30,920 --> 01:00:32,680 Speaker 1: felt comfortable, I'd cut them through it and they'd have 1152 01:00:32,720 --> 01:00:35,840 Speaker 1: to I'd ask them to call that person on stage 1153 01:00:36,000 --> 01:00:38,240 Speaker 1: in front of everyone, but not tell them that they 1154 01:00:38,280 --> 01:00:40,080 Speaker 1: were at an event, and share how they really felt. 1155 01:00:41,080 --> 01:00:43,480 Speaker 1: And it was amazing man to see, Like, out of 1156 01:00:43,480 --> 01:00:45,680 Speaker 1: the forty phone calls, twenty went to voicemail, but twenty 1157 01:00:45,720 --> 01:00:48,360 Speaker 1: went through to the person. And it wasn't about a 1158 01:00:48,360 --> 01:00:51,400 Speaker 1: happy ending, or it wasn't about like a perfect reconnection. 1159 01:00:52,000 --> 01:00:54,160 Speaker 1: It was about what you said. Life was too short 1160 01:00:54,480 --> 01:00:57,520 Speaker 1: to carry that weight of I loved this person and 1161 01:00:57,560 --> 01:01:00,000 Speaker 1: I haven't said it, or I used to really appreci 1162 01:01:00,040 --> 01:01:02,720 Speaker 1: shared this friend and I we lost touch. We fell 1163 01:01:02,760 --> 01:01:05,200 Speaker 1: out over nothing, or maybe we fell out over something. 1164 01:01:05,480 --> 01:01:09,280 Speaker 1: When you're reconnecting with people in your life, what's been 1165 01:01:09,320 --> 01:01:11,880 Speaker 1: the thing that's allowed you to have the courage to 1166 01:01:11,920 --> 01:01:13,240 Speaker 1: do that? Like you've done it with your mom, You've 1167 01:01:13,240 --> 01:01:15,840 Speaker 1: done it with daddy, Yankee, Like, where's that coming from? 1168 01:01:16,000 --> 01:01:20,600 Speaker 2: That's just Nikki. I only have one friend that I 1169 01:01:20,600 --> 01:01:23,600 Speaker 2: didn't talk to that I had problems with, is the 1170 01:01:23,680 --> 01:01:26,440 Speaker 2: one I just told you. I'm the stupid one that 1171 01:01:26,560 --> 01:01:30,280 Speaker 2: always forgive people. When I say stupid, it's because that's 1172 01:01:30,320 --> 01:01:34,040 Speaker 2: what people tell me, you know, not because I think 1173 01:01:34,080 --> 01:01:37,040 Speaker 2: I'm stupid. Because I forgive people and I reconnect with 1174 01:01:37,080 --> 01:01:41,520 Speaker 2: them again. I just I don't care. I just don't care. 1175 01:01:42,440 --> 01:01:45,000 Speaker 2: It don't affect me anymore. Because something affect me in 1176 01:01:45,040 --> 01:01:49,280 Speaker 2: the moment that I forget, it makes me forget. I 1177 01:01:49,280 --> 01:01:51,280 Speaker 2: don't know why. It's just the way I am. I 1178 01:01:51,280 --> 01:01:53,280 Speaker 2: don't stay with that shit here. Probably it makes me 1179 01:01:53,320 --> 01:01:55,920 Speaker 2: a better person, I feel No, Probably it makes me 1180 01:01:56,160 --> 01:01:59,520 Speaker 2: a person, a happier person. I feel that I'm a 1181 01:01:59,560 --> 01:02:02,760 Speaker 2: happier person because of that. I'm not saying I'm perfect. 1182 01:02:02,760 --> 01:02:04,480 Speaker 2: I'm not saying I don't go through ship. Yes, I 1183 01:02:04,520 --> 01:02:08,520 Speaker 2: have a whole bunch of situations of life, but I 1184 01:02:08,520 --> 01:02:15,800 Speaker 2: have better quality of life because I forgive. I have 1185 01:02:15,960 --> 01:02:19,160 Speaker 2: no problem with forgiveness. I have no problem with sitting 1186 01:02:19,200 --> 01:02:23,720 Speaker 2: in the car with somebody that me in the past. 1187 01:02:24,480 --> 01:02:26,200 Speaker 2: I have no problem with that. I don't feel like 1188 01:02:26,400 --> 01:02:28,680 Speaker 2: some people with the ego the month like, oh yeah, 1189 01:02:29,560 --> 01:02:35,120 Speaker 2: I'm gonna get you. I don't have that situation. If 1190 01:02:35,120 --> 01:02:37,000 Speaker 2: I love you back again, I love you back again. 1191 01:02:38,240 --> 01:02:39,760 Speaker 2: You know. It's just the way I am, you know. 1192 01:02:40,680 --> 01:02:42,920 Speaker 2: And I don't want people to be like me. I 1193 01:02:43,000 --> 01:02:46,160 Speaker 2: just want people to do whatever you do to make 1194 01:02:46,240 --> 01:02:50,480 Speaker 2: you happy. You know, whatever whatever makes you happy, just 1195 01:02:50,520 --> 01:02:53,720 Speaker 2: do it. That's that's what I do. I ain't trying 1196 01:02:53,720 --> 01:02:56,040 Speaker 2: to live like the way people tell me to. I'm 1197 01:02:56,080 --> 01:02:58,520 Speaker 2: trying to live the way life, the way I'm happy. 1198 01:02:58,560 --> 01:02:59,760 Speaker 2: You know. That's just the way I am. 1199 01:03:00,160 --> 01:03:01,840 Speaker 1: Does not apply to you as well. Do you think 1200 01:03:01,880 --> 01:03:04,160 Speaker 1: you can forgive yourself easily as well? 1201 01:03:07,520 --> 01:03:09,919 Speaker 2: You know, I've never seen me in a situation where 1202 01:03:10,000 --> 01:03:15,920 Speaker 2: I do not forgive, where I need forgiveness for myself 1203 01:03:15,960 --> 01:03:19,240 Speaker 2: because I've done people things to people. I've been a 1204 01:03:19,280 --> 01:03:22,480 Speaker 2: good human being to people, you know, stuff I've done 1205 01:03:22,520 --> 01:03:24,360 Speaker 2: in the streets and stuff like that are to people 1206 01:03:24,400 --> 01:03:27,800 Speaker 2: that it's really bad people, you know. So I don't 1207 01:03:27,840 --> 01:03:36,560 Speaker 2: know if I need their forgiveness, you know, But I 1208 01:03:36,600 --> 01:03:39,480 Speaker 2: feel good about me as a human being. You know. 1209 01:03:39,560 --> 01:03:42,360 Speaker 2: I'm happy, and I'm proud of myself. I've helped my family, 1210 01:03:42,400 --> 01:03:45,560 Speaker 2: I've helped people in the streets. I've helped my friends. 1211 01:03:46,520 --> 01:03:50,360 Speaker 2: If I buy a motorcycle, we all have motorcycles. If 1212 01:03:50,400 --> 01:03:54,840 Speaker 2: I eat, we all eat. That's just the way I am. 1213 01:03:55,120 --> 01:03:57,280 Speaker 2: The guy in the corner. If he's there, he ain't eating, 1214 01:03:57,360 --> 01:03:59,160 Speaker 2: Come eat with me. You know what I'm saying. I 1215 01:03:59,320 --> 01:04:03,160 Speaker 2: like helping people. I enjoy the smiles on people's face 1216 01:04:03,200 --> 01:04:06,560 Speaker 2: when I help them. I'm proud of myself because I'm 1217 01:04:06,600 --> 01:04:09,800 Speaker 2: that human being. If I wasn't that human being, I 1218 01:04:09,800 --> 01:04:12,960 Speaker 2: would be I'm not a selfish mother. I will never 1219 01:04:13,040 --> 01:04:15,880 Speaker 2: be that guy. I see movies where people help other 1220 01:04:15,920 --> 01:04:18,720 Speaker 2: people that I cry tears like that. My girl's been 1221 01:04:18,760 --> 01:04:20,560 Speaker 2: with me in the same room and she see me 1222 01:04:20,640 --> 01:04:26,120 Speaker 2: crying like a girl in movies. Why Because I'm a 1223 01:04:26,120 --> 01:04:28,960 Speaker 2: good human being. When you're a good human being and 1224 01:04:29,040 --> 01:04:31,680 Speaker 2: you see people doing good, you cry. But if you 1225 01:04:31,720 --> 01:04:35,200 Speaker 2: see shit like that and you don't give up. I 1226 01:04:35,240 --> 01:04:38,000 Speaker 2: just think you're a piece of shit too. That's just 1227 01:04:38,040 --> 01:04:41,400 Speaker 2: the way I am, because you don't care. Why would 1228 01:04:41,400 --> 01:04:44,800 Speaker 2: you not care? Why would you Why wouldn't you see 1229 01:04:45,320 --> 01:04:50,200 Speaker 2: somebody helping somebody else? Don't see that? And why wouldn't 1230 01:04:50,200 --> 01:04:53,880 Speaker 2: that That not affect you? It affects me in a 1231 01:04:53,920 --> 01:04:57,120 Speaker 2: good way, and it's like shit, So I'm proud of 1232 01:04:57,160 --> 01:04:59,080 Speaker 2: myself as a human being. I'm proudly who I am. 1233 01:04:59,120 --> 01:05:01,640 Speaker 2: I'm proud that I like helping people. I'm proud that 1234 01:05:01,680 --> 01:05:04,320 Speaker 2: I'm a real person. I'm proud that I'm a person 1235 01:05:04,320 --> 01:05:07,240 Speaker 2: that if I go I'll say it. Oh you know, 1236 01:05:08,440 --> 01:05:11,840 Speaker 2: that's just the way I am. And I'm not perfect. 1237 01:05:12,120 --> 01:05:15,760 Speaker 2: I'll never be perfect, and I'll up tomorrow and I'll fall, 1238 01:05:16,240 --> 01:05:19,640 Speaker 2: but I'll wake up and I'll clean my shit, keep going. 1239 01:05:20,640 --> 01:05:24,320 Speaker 1: You know, why did you say you were going to retire? 1240 01:05:24,440 --> 01:05:26,920 Speaker 1: When you said today, You're like, I would never have 1241 01:05:27,000 --> 01:05:32,120 Speaker 1: done that. And then what has inspired insomnia? What part 1242 01:05:32,160 --> 01:05:33,800 Speaker 1: of your heart and mind is that drinking? 1243 01:05:34,000 --> 01:05:39,200 Speaker 2: Drinking makes you say stupid things, makes you get depressed, 1244 01:05:39,400 --> 01:05:45,200 Speaker 2: makes you see everything it's not really And that's what 1245 01:05:45,360 --> 01:05:47,640 Speaker 2: was going on in that situation, and it made me 1246 01:05:47,760 --> 01:05:51,680 Speaker 2: post a thing that I was retired and I'm not retiring, 1247 01:05:51,800 --> 01:05:55,880 Speaker 2: never have No, I will never retire. Music is my life. 1248 01:05:56,760 --> 01:05:59,640 Speaker 2: Music is everything for me. But that's what an alcohol 1249 01:05:59,720 --> 01:06:03,120 Speaker 2: do up your judgment, you know what I'm saying. And 1250 01:06:03,200 --> 01:06:05,800 Speaker 2: I've been through that a lot. For some reason, it 1251 01:06:05,840 --> 01:06:10,160 Speaker 2: made me not care in that moment. Once I stopped drinking, 1252 01:06:10,160 --> 01:06:13,280 Speaker 2: I'm like, hell no, I erased that video and everything, 1253 01:06:13,760 --> 01:06:17,040 Speaker 2: but naw, I'm not retiring. You was asking about. 1254 01:06:16,960 --> 01:06:19,400 Speaker 1: Them or the album? Yeah, what's that been inspired by? 1255 01:06:19,440 --> 01:06:21,120 Speaker 1: With this whole new journey you're on right now? 1256 01:06:21,160 --> 01:06:23,360 Speaker 2: Like you said, if you listen to the whole album 1257 01:06:24,560 --> 01:06:30,200 Speaker 2: and Tonia, all the songs has something to do with 1258 01:06:30,280 --> 01:06:33,600 Speaker 2: the nighttime and me drinking and me partying and me 1259 01:06:33,720 --> 01:06:38,800 Speaker 2: going crazy and me smoking and me my love life 1260 01:06:38,920 --> 01:06:44,440 Speaker 2: and stuff like that. So the album has that situation 1261 01:06:45,000 --> 01:06:49,080 Speaker 2: that I've been going through these last years. Music is 1262 01:06:49,440 --> 01:06:56,640 Speaker 2: my art of expression and I took my time to 1263 01:06:56,760 --> 01:06:59,200 Speaker 2: do this album and I think it's one of the 1264 01:06:59,200 --> 01:07:03,880 Speaker 2: best albums I ever done. Everything is just everything has 1265 01:07:03,920 --> 01:07:08,160 Speaker 2: the same color. The album cover is amazing. It's really 1266 01:07:08,240 --> 01:07:10,400 Speaker 2: what I've been through. It Like, if you see the picture, 1267 01:07:10,440 --> 01:07:14,720 Speaker 2: you would automatically say okay this I could understand him 1268 01:07:15,000 --> 01:07:20,520 Speaker 2: just seeing his face. The songs from the number one 1269 01:07:20,640 --> 01:07:25,880 Speaker 2: song to the fifteenth song, and not only that. Apart 1270 01:07:25,920 --> 01:07:31,160 Speaker 2: from that, this song Insomnia, that's the single that's coming 1271 01:07:31,200 --> 01:07:34,600 Speaker 2: out for me, is going to be a global hey, 1272 01:07:34,600 --> 01:07:38,000 Speaker 2: because I went hard on this song. It talks about 1273 01:07:38,560 --> 01:07:42,320 Speaker 2: the situation of my drinking and all that, but at 1274 01:07:42,360 --> 01:07:45,400 Speaker 2: the same time, it's a sad song, but it's a 1275 01:07:45,560 --> 01:07:49,320 Speaker 2: happy song. It's crazy, like if you listen to it, 1276 01:07:49,800 --> 01:07:53,240 Speaker 2: you will never imagine the way it started because it 1277 01:07:53,320 --> 01:07:57,160 Speaker 2: started as a slow R and B sad song. And 1278 01:07:57,200 --> 01:07:59,919 Speaker 2: I told my boy, the guy that wrote the song 1279 01:08:00,080 --> 01:08:04,320 Speaker 2: with me, Sneaker is a badass. By the thanks, I 1280 01:08:04,400 --> 01:08:07,080 Speaker 2: was telling him, Yo, the song is badass, but we 1281 01:08:07,120 --> 01:08:10,520 Speaker 2: need an upbeat. We need to make this ship up 1282 01:08:10,520 --> 01:08:12,280 Speaker 2: beeat man, we need a ship. This song is too 1283 01:08:12,320 --> 01:08:14,840 Speaker 2: good to be just one of the one of the 1284 01:08:14,880 --> 01:08:17,559 Speaker 2: songs in the album, you know, just one of the songs. 1285 01:08:17,560 --> 01:08:19,360 Speaker 2: And I was like, hell no, we need to make 1286 01:08:19,400 --> 01:08:23,280 Speaker 2: this ship a mother hit. And I said, let's do 1287 01:08:23,360 --> 01:08:26,400 Speaker 2: matt Inga. And I was in the bathroom of my girl. 1288 01:08:26,439 --> 01:08:28,920 Speaker 2: I started around, you know what I'm saying, like singing 1289 01:08:28,920 --> 01:08:34,000 Speaker 2: this song. I did it with my mouth, and I said, 1290 01:08:36,040 --> 01:08:38,360 Speaker 2: I call her. I called her producers, like, yo, let's 1291 01:08:38,360 --> 01:08:40,679 Speaker 2: try to do this, and we took it that route, 1292 01:08:41,760 --> 01:08:44,479 Speaker 2: and bro, I think we cooked the mega hit. So 1293 01:08:44,520 --> 01:08:49,800 Speaker 2: I think the album is just me expressing myself of 1294 01:08:49,840 --> 01:08:54,240 Speaker 2: what I've been through these last years. And uh, at 1295 01:08:54,240 --> 01:08:58,080 Speaker 2: the same time, it made good ass music. So I 1296 01:08:58,120 --> 01:09:01,360 Speaker 2: want people to enjoy it. I want people to have 1297 01:09:01,479 --> 01:09:03,960 Speaker 2: fun with this album. And uh, you know, sit down 1298 01:09:04,040 --> 01:09:08,439 Speaker 2: and analyze the lyrics because everything, every song has a 1299 01:09:08,439 --> 01:09:11,439 Speaker 2: little something that tells you about what I've been through 1300 01:09:11,640 --> 01:09:13,599 Speaker 2: and what I've been going through these last years. 1301 01:09:14,600 --> 01:09:16,240 Speaker 1: I know it's something amazing. When you start talking with 1302 01:09:16,360 --> 01:09:17,840 Speaker 1: the album, you went completely still. 1303 01:09:18,320 --> 01:09:19,559 Speaker 2: When I when you start. 1304 01:09:19,400 --> 01:09:21,880 Speaker 1: Talking about the music, your whole buddy and lay everything 1305 01:09:21,880 --> 01:09:25,400 Speaker 1: went completely still, completely still. If everyone rewinds, it just 1306 01:09:25,400 --> 01:09:27,880 Speaker 1: goes back to that change just you when you were 1307 01:09:27,920 --> 01:09:29,840 Speaker 1: locked in talking about the music and the album. 1308 01:09:30,160 --> 01:09:32,559 Speaker 2: I mean, it's my heart, man, it's my art, it's 1309 01:09:32,600 --> 01:09:37,639 Speaker 2: what makes it's my psychology, psycho it was psychology. It's 1310 01:09:37,640 --> 01:09:41,240 Speaker 2: my psychology, you know. I feel like it. 1311 01:09:42,120 --> 01:09:42,439 Speaker 1: Uh. 1312 01:09:42,960 --> 01:09:46,599 Speaker 2: It tells my story, it tells my situation. It makes 1313 01:09:46,640 --> 01:09:49,200 Speaker 2: me happy in a way where I could like express 1314 01:09:49,280 --> 01:09:55,720 Speaker 2: myself and we're always misunderstood as artists, and there's no 1315 01:09:55,760 --> 01:10:00,680 Speaker 2: better way to uh clear the misunderstandings out of your art, 1316 01:10:00,960 --> 01:10:01,759 Speaker 2: you know what I'm saying. 1317 01:10:01,920 --> 01:10:04,880 Speaker 1: Yeah, what's something that people don't know about you that 1318 01:10:04,960 --> 01:10:05,760 Speaker 1: you wish they did? 1319 01:10:06,840 --> 01:10:08,519 Speaker 2: I don't know. I'm so open. 1320 01:10:08,880 --> 01:10:10,880 Speaker 1: Yeah, that's that's why I asked. I was like, I'm 1321 01:10:11,000 --> 01:10:12,200 Speaker 1: so so much of it. 1322 01:10:12,520 --> 01:10:14,639 Speaker 2: I tell people the way I am. I don't care. 1323 01:10:14,720 --> 01:10:17,240 Speaker 2: I speak what I think. It's really hard. 1324 01:10:17,479 --> 01:10:22,240 Speaker 1: What's something people misunderstand about you that you'd like to clarify. 1325 01:10:22,320 --> 01:10:25,400 Speaker 2: It could be my situations in my relationships. A lot 1326 01:10:25,400 --> 01:10:28,200 Speaker 2: of people see me jumping around from relationship relationship, Well, 1327 01:10:28,200 --> 01:10:31,840 Speaker 2: not jumping around, but let's say I've had a lot 1328 01:10:31,880 --> 01:10:35,200 Speaker 2: of relationships that haven't worked, and for some reason, people 1329 01:10:35,240 --> 01:10:40,440 Speaker 2: think that I just I'm just unstable and not necessarily unstable. 1330 01:10:40,479 --> 01:10:44,280 Speaker 2: I just think that sometimes it doesn't work, and it's 1331 01:10:44,280 --> 01:10:47,080 Speaker 2: not easy being an artist and doing what I do 1332 01:10:47,160 --> 01:10:50,639 Speaker 2: and having stable relationships. And if you've seen my past 1333 01:10:50,680 --> 01:10:52,719 Speaker 2: and you see what I've been through, you can't expect 1334 01:10:52,720 --> 01:10:59,559 Speaker 2: me to have the typical picket white fence relationship. You know, 1335 01:10:59,640 --> 01:11:01,240 Speaker 2: It's just that's not the way it works. You know, 1336 01:11:01,600 --> 01:11:03,880 Speaker 2: I didn't have that in my house, so why should 1337 01:11:03,880 --> 01:11:06,679 Speaker 2: I have that now? And I'm always on the road, 1338 01:11:06,720 --> 01:11:08,640 Speaker 2: and it's just really hard. It's not like I'm a 1339 01:11:08,680 --> 01:11:10,559 Speaker 2: picky guy. I don't care and I just throw away 1340 01:11:10,600 --> 01:11:14,040 Speaker 2: girls like nothing, you know, But I don't care about that. 1341 01:11:14,080 --> 01:11:15,719 Speaker 2: I don't get At the end of the day, people 1342 01:11:15,760 --> 01:11:21,480 Speaker 2: will never understand you one hundred percent. And you can't 1343 01:11:21,880 --> 01:11:24,680 Speaker 2: try to make people understand you. You don't need to. 1344 01:11:26,200 --> 01:11:29,639 Speaker 2: You know, I mby old people and they're sixty years 1345 01:11:29,640 --> 01:11:33,280 Speaker 2: old and seventy years old. I don't give off. They 1346 01:11:33,320 --> 01:11:36,679 Speaker 2: don't care, wake up in the morning and take a pill, eat, 1347 01:11:37,000 --> 01:11:40,880 Speaker 2: want to sleep, and they don't stress about anything. But 1348 01:11:41,000 --> 01:11:44,679 Speaker 2: in your age and my age, we are like life. 1349 01:11:44,840 --> 01:11:49,920 Speaker 2: I gotta make money, you know what I'm saying. Like 1350 01:11:50,920 --> 01:11:53,599 Speaker 2: I want to be them. I want to not give 1351 01:11:53,600 --> 01:11:55,519 Speaker 2: a you know, I want to not care. I want 1352 01:11:55,560 --> 01:11:58,920 Speaker 2: to just enjoy life, Enjoy my friends, enjoy my family, 1353 01:11:59,000 --> 01:12:03,240 Speaker 2: enjoy my girl, enjoy my fans. Whoever are my fans, 1354 01:12:03,240 --> 01:12:05,840 Speaker 2: Because there's fans and there's people that are not your 1355 01:12:05,960 --> 01:12:10,880 Speaker 2: fans are just talking shit. Fans don't talk shit. Real 1356 01:12:10,920 --> 01:12:14,040 Speaker 2: fans are there with you. No matter what you go through, 1357 01:12:14,479 --> 01:12:19,559 Speaker 2: have you up, you're down, you're fat, you're skinny, dead 1358 01:12:19,680 --> 01:12:23,559 Speaker 2: or live. They're fans, So shout out to my real fans. 1359 01:12:23,600 --> 01:12:27,720 Speaker 2: I love you mother to death for sure for sure. 1360 01:12:27,800 --> 01:12:32,800 Speaker 1: How hard was the gastric bypass surgery you went through? Ah? 1361 01:12:33,479 --> 01:12:37,200 Speaker 1: Was it very physically challenging? Was it? 1362 01:12:37,200 --> 01:12:39,439 Speaker 2: It was stressful when I was in bed before the surgery, 1363 01:12:40,240 --> 01:12:43,360 Speaker 2: But after that, man, it was awesome. I enjoyed I 1364 01:12:43,400 --> 01:12:46,320 Speaker 2: do that, I'll do it again. I enjoyed it a lot, 1365 01:12:46,840 --> 01:12:51,040 Speaker 2: you know, and it helped me a lot. A lot 1366 01:12:51,080 --> 01:12:53,519 Speaker 2: of stuff was messing up my stomach, like food that 1367 01:12:53,600 --> 01:12:56,439 Speaker 2: I was eating. Now I don't have that situation. You know. 1368 01:12:57,520 --> 01:13:00,719 Speaker 2: I feel better, better health, play basketball like I'm twenty 1369 01:13:00,800 --> 01:13:03,920 Speaker 2: years old. I'm good. You know, I feel good. I 1370 01:13:04,000 --> 01:13:06,360 Speaker 2: enjoyed a lot to help me, a lot, a lot 1371 01:13:06,360 --> 01:13:08,519 Speaker 2: of food that I couldn't eat before I could eat now, 1372 01:13:08,880 --> 01:13:15,320 Speaker 2: you know, healthy food. Yeah. So yeah, I mean it 1373 01:13:15,360 --> 01:13:18,439 Speaker 2: was a hard process after because you know, you're just 1374 01:13:18,560 --> 01:13:21,479 Speaker 2: drinking liquids and shit. But once you can start eating 1375 01:13:21,479 --> 01:13:22,400 Speaker 2: the you know. 1376 01:13:22,320 --> 01:13:23,760 Speaker 1: How long do you have to be on liquids for? 1377 01:13:24,320 --> 01:13:25,559 Speaker 2: I think it's like two weeks? 1378 01:13:25,640 --> 01:13:27,080 Speaker 1: Oh wow, just liquids. 1379 01:13:27,560 --> 01:13:29,400 Speaker 2: Liquids in two weeks is not easy. 1380 01:13:29,560 --> 01:13:30,200 Speaker 1: That's not easy. 1381 01:13:30,240 --> 01:13:33,240 Speaker 2: I've eating popsicles. I was eating popsicles a whole time, like. 1382 01:13:36,720 --> 01:13:38,840 Speaker 1: Nikki. It's been such a joy getting to know you, man, 1383 01:13:38,880 --> 01:13:44,120 Speaker 1: and I appreciate the honesty, the vulnerability, and it's impressive 1384 01:13:44,160 --> 01:13:47,960 Speaker 1: to just see how aware you are of everything going 1385 01:13:48,000 --> 01:13:50,040 Speaker 1: on when you've been through so much. You've had some 1386 01:13:50,680 --> 01:13:53,880 Speaker 1: incredible life experience, and to be standing where you are, 1387 01:13:53,920 --> 01:13:56,639 Speaker 1: with being having the ability to look in the mirror 1388 01:13:56,640 --> 01:13:58,920 Speaker 1: and be able to see yourself and your challenges, it's 1389 01:13:59,080 --> 01:14:00,240 Speaker 1: it's really special, and. 1390 01:14:00,280 --> 01:14:04,240 Speaker 2: So I appreciate you. And at the end of the day, 1391 01:14:04,280 --> 01:14:06,280 Speaker 2: there's this therapy for me too, you know, So I 1392 01:14:06,640 --> 01:14:09,639 Speaker 2: appreciate you. Sometimes we need it, of course, I think 1393 01:14:09,640 --> 01:14:11,040 Speaker 2: probably most of the times we need it. 1394 01:14:11,080 --> 01:14:12,200 Speaker 1: So of course for. 1395 01:14:12,280 --> 01:14:14,639 Speaker 2: Me having you, you know, you know, make me talk. 1396 01:14:14,680 --> 01:14:17,080 Speaker 2: All of this makes me live a lot better and 1397 01:14:17,680 --> 01:14:20,439 Speaker 2: have a better day today. So I appreciate you so much. 1398 01:14:20,479 --> 01:14:23,840 Speaker 2: I hope that all the people enjoy the show and 1399 01:14:24,760 --> 01:14:28,439 Speaker 2: enjoy what we talk today and you know, learn from 1400 01:14:28,479 --> 01:14:32,439 Speaker 2: what they hear and see it as a constructive way 1401 01:14:32,640 --> 01:14:34,840 Speaker 2: and not a negative way, you know, because sometimes people 1402 01:14:36,360 --> 01:14:39,599 Speaker 2: they try to see things in a negative way. But like 1403 01:14:39,720 --> 01:14:46,839 Speaker 2: I said, I've learned this more. Stupid is the stupid 1404 01:14:46,920 --> 01:14:51,040 Speaker 2: that argues with the stupid. I don't argue with stupid 1405 01:14:51,040 --> 01:14:55,400 Speaker 2: people anymore. I just I ain't trying to be stupid anymore. 1406 01:14:56,640 --> 01:14:59,360 Speaker 2: Say like that, So I just sit back and enjoy 1407 01:14:59,439 --> 01:15:01,719 Speaker 2: life and keep gone. Yeah, for sure. 1408 01:15:01,960 --> 01:15:04,719 Speaker 1: We end every interview with the fast five, which means 1409 01:15:05,200 --> 01:15:07,120 Speaker 1: you have to answer every question in one word to 1410 01:15:07,160 --> 01:15:09,840 Speaker 1: one sentence maximum. So you can have one word to 1411 01:15:09,840 --> 01:15:13,160 Speaker 1: one sentence for each question. So I'll ask you a 1412 01:15:13,280 --> 01:15:16,000 Speaker 1: fast five. It's a light lightning round. So I say, 1413 01:15:16,000 --> 01:15:18,120 Speaker 1: I can answer it one word or one sentence. You 1414 01:15:18,120 --> 01:15:20,200 Speaker 1: can give me one full sentence, but no more than that. 1415 01:15:20,320 --> 01:15:20,639 Speaker 2: Okay. 1416 01:15:20,720 --> 01:15:23,160 Speaker 1: The first question is what is the best advice you've 1417 01:15:23,160 --> 01:15:24,240 Speaker 1: ever heard or received? 1418 01:15:24,840 --> 01:15:25,400 Speaker 2: Live life? 1419 01:15:26,080 --> 01:15:29,040 Speaker 1: Second question, what is the worst advice you've ever heard 1420 01:15:29,120 --> 01:15:29,639 Speaker 1: or received? 1421 01:15:30,160 --> 01:15:32,440 Speaker 2: Don't live in Colombia. 1422 01:15:32,600 --> 01:15:35,200 Speaker 1: Did someone say that to you? That's funny? How many 1423 01:15:35,240 --> 01:15:36,040 Speaker 1: times did you hear that? 1424 01:15:36,120 --> 01:15:38,320 Speaker 2: A lot? Okay? And they said I was stupid? I was. 1425 01:15:39,240 --> 01:15:42,280 Speaker 2: I was like, literally like I was going to mess 1426 01:15:42,360 --> 01:15:44,400 Speaker 2: up my career and look what it gave me. 1427 01:15:44,960 --> 01:15:49,000 Speaker 1: Question number three, your funniest memory or the silliest memory 1428 01:15:49,120 --> 01:15:50,920 Speaker 1: of you can give more than one sentence. 1429 01:15:51,600 --> 01:16:02,080 Speaker 2: Oh, I have a funny story the way I threw you. 1430 01:16:02,080 --> 01:16:06,040 Speaker 2: So I'm at this club. I'm at this club right, 1431 01:16:06,600 --> 01:16:09,320 Speaker 2: this this happening, and it's a kind of long story though. 1432 01:16:09,760 --> 01:16:10,120 Speaker 1: Tell us. 1433 01:16:11,080 --> 01:16:16,519 Speaker 2: So I'm at this club right, I'm at a VIP party. 1434 01:16:16,560 --> 01:16:20,400 Speaker 2: There's some girls there and stuff like that. And this big, 1435 01:16:20,479 --> 01:16:24,000 Speaker 2: strong guy was ripped like this. He had so many muscles. 1436 01:16:24,800 --> 01:16:26,640 Speaker 2: He looked like a body bolt or something like that. 1437 01:16:26,760 --> 01:16:29,519 Speaker 2: He's like, yo, I want to go into the vi P. 1438 01:16:30,320 --> 01:16:31,840 Speaker 2: And I didn't really want him to come in because 1439 01:16:31,840 --> 01:16:33,960 Speaker 2: I know he was problems, you know what I'm saying. 1440 01:16:33,960 --> 01:16:35,800 Speaker 2: So I'm like, yo, you I don't know. I don't 1441 01:16:35,800 --> 01:16:38,720 Speaker 2: work here. You talk to the to the to the bouncers, 1442 01:16:39,040 --> 01:16:41,720 Speaker 2: and he looks at me. He's like, I'm going to 1443 01:16:41,720 --> 01:16:46,479 Speaker 2: destroy you. Like what you said said, I'm going to 1444 01:16:46,520 --> 01:16:51,920 Speaker 2: destroy you like ship. I'm like what And I punched 1445 01:16:51,960 --> 01:16:57,639 Speaker 2: him boom and he goes, this is the best you have. 1446 01:16:59,280 --> 01:17:04,840 Speaker 2: I'm like yeah, I'm like it didn't hurt. So he 1447 01:17:05,000 --> 01:17:08,880 Speaker 2: punched me really hard. Boom And he punches me really 1448 01:17:08,920 --> 01:17:11,600 Speaker 2: hard and then he takes me against the wall. My 1449 01:17:11,800 --> 01:17:15,640 Speaker 2: neck like that, and he's and he's hitting me, and 1450 01:17:15,680 --> 01:17:17,679 Speaker 2: I'm calling my boys, and my boys are not looking 1451 01:17:17,720 --> 01:17:20,000 Speaker 2: at me. And I had a watch in that moment, 1452 01:17:20,080 --> 01:17:22,640 Speaker 2: and a big, big, heavy watch, and I take the 1453 01:17:22,680 --> 01:17:24,760 Speaker 2: watch and I hit him in the head with the 1454 01:17:24,840 --> 01:17:27,000 Speaker 2: watch and he doesn't let me. He still doesn't let 1455 01:17:27,040 --> 01:17:29,040 Speaker 2: go of me. He has blood coming out. And then 1456 01:17:29,080 --> 01:17:31,320 Speaker 2: the bouncers pick him up. The bouncers take him, and 1457 01:17:31,320 --> 01:17:33,240 Speaker 2: then when the bounce's taking I go like it's like, 1458 01:17:33,400 --> 01:17:35,120 Speaker 2: see you do mess for me. And then they let 1459 01:17:35,200 --> 01:17:37,679 Speaker 2: him go, like yo, take get him again, ghet him again. 1460 01:17:37,760 --> 01:17:40,360 Speaker 2: They pick him up, and then we get into this limo. Right, 1461 01:17:40,360 --> 01:17:43,040 Speaker 2: we get to the limo, and we imagine how oldest 1462 01:17:43,040 --> 01:17:47,439 Speaker 2: story is. I'm in a limbo. I'm telling my boys, like, yo, bro, 1463 01:17:47,520 --> 01:17:50,280 Speaker 2: you guys said help me. This got me up. He's 1464 01:17:51,080 --> 01:17:53,960 Speaker 2: and then out of nowhere, they throw a bottle at 1465 01:17:53,960 --> 01:17:56,439 Speaker 2: the limo and then the little Mexican dudes like this 1466 01:17:56,479 --> 01:17:59,040 Speaker 2: guy wants some problem, I say, and I'm like, yo, yo, yo, yo, 1467 01:17:59,120 --> 01:18:02,040 Speaker 2: you don't understand. This guy is not a human being. 1468 01:18:02,120 --> 01:18:05,240 Speaker 2: Do not stop. I hit him with everything, watches everything. 1469 01:18:05,240 --> 01:18:09,599 Speaker 2: It's not a human being. And he wanted to stop. 1470 01:18:09,640 --> 01:18:11,120 Speaker 2: He wanted to fight with the guy, but I knew 1471 01:18:11,120 --> 01:18:13,840 Speaker 2: the guy was The guy was a hulk, you know 1472 01:18:13,840 --> 01:18:16,120 Speaker 2: what I'm saying. So they take me to the hotel. 1473 01:18:16,240 --> 01:18:18,000 Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying. I'm all heard. I'm in 1474 01:18:18,040 --> 01:18:21,920 Speaker 2: the bed and then out of nowhere, I hear the 1475 01:18:21,920 --> 01:18:24,360 Speaker 2: dog going boom boom boom boom boom, and I hear 1476 01:18:24,600 --> 01:18:26,880 Speaker 2: that what this three like, I'm going to destroy you 1477 01:18:27,000 --> 01:18:35,400 Speaker 2: and I'm screaming and all that. Then it was my boys. 1478 01:18:35,400 --> 01:18:38,920 Speaker 2: They were making fun of me. They were making fun 1479 01:18:38,439 --> 01:18:42,439 Speaker 2: of man. But the story doesn't end there. Years go by, 1480 01:18:43,320 --> 01:18:46,320 Speaker 2: years go by, I'm talking about I don't know, probably 1481 01:18:46,320 --> 01:18:49,760 Speaker 2: like ten years, I don't know, twelve years. I'm at 1482 01:18:49,880 --> 01:18:54,080 Speaker 2: I'm at that Caadias where where I had this situation, 1483 01:18:54,840 --> 01:18:57,519 Speaker 2: and guess who I found next to me. This guy 1484 01:18:57,560 --> 01:19:00,599 Speaker 2: comes to me strong, not that not that strong at 1485 01:19:00,600 --> 01:19:03,160 Speaker 2: that time, and he's like, you know who I am? 1486 01:19:03,439 --> 01:19:06,679 Speaker 2: And I'm like, no, man, it's like, I'm that guy 1487 01:19:06,720 --> 01:19:09,560 Speaker 2: from that club you had a problem, Like oh yeah, 1488 01:19:09,640 --> 01:19:15,080 Speaker 2: you're the destroying guy. And he's like oh yeah. It's 1489 01:19:15,120 --> 01:19:16,960 Speaker 2: like I'm sorry. I just want to say I'm sorry. 1490 01:19:17,960 --> 01:19:20,000 Speaker 2: You know, the stereoards was messed up with me, and 1491 01:19:20,800 --> 01:19:22,920 Speaker 2: I got messed up, and I just want to say 1492 01:19:22,920 --> 01:19:25,439 Speaker 2: that if you never need security, you have me, and 1493 01:19:25,439 --> 01:19:27,120 Speaker 2: blah blah blah. And then he became a. 1494 01:19:27,120 --> 01:19:30,400 Speaker 1: Friend and now he's outside. It's your security now. 1495 01:19:30,720 --> 01:19:34,600 Speaker 2: Wish. I wish the story was that cool. But that 1496 01:19:34,920 --> 01:19:37,200 Speaker 2: was just one of the stories stories I could tell you. 1497 01:19:37,200 --> 01:19:39,599 Speaker 2: But that's a good story. So many stories. Man, that's 1498 01:19:39,640 --> 01:19:40,120 Speaker 2: a good pick. 1499 01:19:40,200 --> 01:19:41,759 Speaker 1: I like that. That's a great story. 1500 01:19:42,360 --> 01:19:42,920 Speaker 2: I loved it. 1501 01:19:43,680 --> 01:19:47,479 Speaker 1: Question numberfore, what chapter title would you give this phase 1502 01:19:47,520 --> 01:19:49,679 Speaker 1: of your life? If it was a chapter in your book, 1503 01:19:49,720 --> 01:19:51,639 Speaker 1: what would this chapter title be called? 1504 01:19:52,080 --> 01:19:54,040 Speaker 2: And nice? 1505 01:19:54,320 --> 01:19:56,240 Speaker 1: And question number five it's the question we asked to 1506 01:19:56,280 --> 01:19:58,439 Speaker 1: every guest who's ever been on the show. Final question. 1507 01:19:59,240 --> 01:20:02,479 Speaker 1: If you could create one rule or one law that 1508 01:20:02,560 --> 01:20:05,160 Speaker 1: everyone in the world had to follow, what would it be. 1509 01:20:06,360 --> 01:20:10,639 Speaker 2: Everybody give yourselves a hug. That will be my rule. 1510 01:20:11,320 --> 01:20:14,559 Speaker 2: I like that, everybody give yourselves a hug. That would 1511 01:20:14,640 --> 01:20:16,519 Speaker 2: just be my rule because I think the world needs 1512 01:20:16,560 --> 01:20:21,400 Speaker 2: a hug. This world's going crazy and every day is 1513 01:20:21,439 --> 01:20:24,839 Speaker 2: going more crazy, and this ship is making it more crazy. 1514 01:20:25,280 --> 01:20:30,000 Speaker 2: I'm sorry, Steve Jobs, we need a hug. I love it. 1515 01:20:30,760 --> 01:20:35,679 Speaker 1: Nikki jam everyone in some years out now September sixth, Uh, Nikki, 1516 01:20:35,760 --> 01:20:39,240 Speaker 1: this is such a such a joy. I've laughed, I've 1517 01:20:39,240 --> 01:20:41,760 Speaker 1: been reflecting with you. I feel like I've been in 1518 01:20:41,800 --> 01:20:43,760 Speaker 1: your pain with you. I'm so grateful that you just 1519 01:20:44,280 --> 01:20:46,880 Speaker 1: open up. One of the realist people I've ever met, so. 1520 01:20:46,960 --> 01:20:49,600 Speaker 2: Raw, so I appreciate you, so vulnerable. I'm grateful. Man. 1521 01:20:49,640 --> 01:20:51,360 Speaker 1: I hope I get to spend more time with yourself. 1522 01:20:51,360 --> 01:20:52,599 Speaker 1: You will looking forward to. 1523 01:20:52,720 --> 01:20:54,160 Speaker 2: If you ever go to Miami, hit me up. 1524 01:20:54,160 --> 01:20:54,840 Speaker 1: I won't let you know. 1525 01:20:54,920 --> 01:20:58,439 Speaker 2: No. Yeah, I promise on one drink you can drink. 1526 01:20:58,520 --> 01:21:01,479 Speaker 1: Man, you can do what every job. Thank you so much, 1527 01:21:01,560 --> 01:21:04,680 Speaker 1: I thank you, thank you. If this is the year 1528 01:21:04,760 --> 01:21:07,800 Speaker 1: that you're trying to get creative, you're trying to build more, 1529 01:21:08,120 --> 01:21:10,320 Speaker 1: I need you to listen to this episode with Rick 1530 01:21:10,400 --> 01:21:13,759 Speaker 1: Rubin on how to break into your most creative self, 1531 01:21:14,160 --> 01:21:17,880 Speaker 1: how to use unconventional methods that lead to success, and 1532 01:21:17,960 --> 01:21:21,360 Speaker 1: the secret to genuinely loving what you do. If you're 1533 01:21:21,439 --> 01:21:24,759 Speaker 1: trying to find your passion and your lane, Rick Rubin's 1534 01:21:24,760 --> 01:21:26,160 Speaker 1: episode is the one for you. 1535 01:21:26,640 --> 01:21:28,880 Speaker 2: Just because I like it, that doesn't give it any value, 1536 01:21:29,200 --> 01:21:31,599 Speaker 2: like as an artist. If you like it, that's all 1537 01:21:31,640 --> 01:21:35,280 Speaker 2: of the value that's the success comes when you say 1538 01:21:35,640 --> 01:21:37,840 Speaker 2: I like this enough for other people to see it.