1 00:00:00,760 --> 00:00:03,800 Speaker 1: This is the Benn and Ashley I Almost Famous podcast 2 00:00:03,840 --> 00:00:08,080 Speaker 1: with I R Radio. What's up bats Nation. I know 3 00:00:08,119 --> 00:00:11,039 Speaker 1: what you're thinking, this is in Ben's voice, and you're 4 00:00:11,080 --> 00:00:14,800 Speaker 1: also thinking this is in Ashley's voice or if it is, 5 00:00:15,000 --> 00:00:18,040 Speaker 1: man pregnancy is really taking a hard left turn for 6 00:00:18,160 --> 00:00:23,120 Speaker 1: her vocal cords. Nope, this is your favorite friendly bartender 7 00:00:23,239 --> 00:00:28,120 Speaker 1: slash master of ceremonies. Wells Adams, I'm filling in because 8 00:00:28,160 --> 00:00:32,800 Speaker 1: guess what you know. Ben's in the Islands with his 9 00:00:33,000 --> 00:00:38,600 Speaker 1: brand new bride, Jess, and they are doing sexy stuff 10 00:00:39,320 --> 00:00:42,320 Speaker 1: down there, which means he can't host his own podcast. 11 00:00:42,520 --> 00:00:46,720 Speaker 1: And Ashley is I assume about ready to pop. I 12 00:00:46,720 --> 00:00:49,239 Speaker 1: don't know how these things work, but I do know 13 00:00:49,320 --> 00:00:53,040 Speaker 1: that she is carrying a bib, which means, um, I 14 00:00:53,080 --> 00:00:55,920 Speaker 1: don't think she can do the podcast today. So yeah, 15 00:00:56,000 --> 00:01:00,520 Speaker 1: you get me. Sorry, but that's how it goes. Anyways. 16 00:01:00,560 --> 00:01:04,280 Speaker 1: I'm excited to do this show, not because I don't 17 00:01:04,319 --> 00:01:07,639 Speaker 1: love coming on the Almost Famous podcasts and chit chatting 18 00:01:07,640 --> 00:01:10,119 Speaker 1: with all of you, but because of the guests that 19 00:01:10,160 --> 00:01:13,560 Speaker 1: we are going to have today. Hannaby Hannah Brown. She's 20 00:01:13,600 --> 00:01:16,440 Speaker 1: got a new book out called God Bless This Mess, 21 00:01:16,520 --> 00:01:19,640 Speaker 1: and uh well, she has dropped a lot of Hannah bombs, 22 00:01:19,959 --> 00:01:23,480 Speaker 1: to be fair, lots of them. We found out just 23 00:01:23,560 --> 00:01:27,400 Speaker 1: a couple of days ago Visa VI every tabloid magazine 24 00:01:27,440 --> 00:01:31,240 Speaker 1: that apparently she was hooking up with Peter after a 25 00:01:31,360 --> 00:01:34,360 Speaker 1: season while he was still with I don't know whoever 26 00:01:34,400 --> 00:01:36,320 Speaker 1: he picked at the end of that thing. Not sure 27 00:01:36,319 --> 00:01:38,240 Speaker 1: we're gonna get to the bottom of that. We also 28 00:01:38,520 --> 00:01:41,679 Speaker 1: learned more about her relationship with Tyler Cameron. What really 29 00:01:41,720 --> 00:01:46,680 Speaker 1: went down during that quarantine crew situation down in Florida. 30 00:01:47,040 --> 00:01:49,440 Speaker 1: Were they going to Pound Town during that time? Were 31 00:01:49,480 --> 00:01:52,400 Speaker 1: they not? I don't know, but we're gonna get the answers. 32 00:01:52,920 --> 00:01:55,080 Speaker 1: So Yeah, decided to talk to Hannah By about her 33 00:01:55,080 --> 00:01:58,520 Speaker 1: new book. God bless this mess. So just trying to 34 00:01:58,560 --> 00:02:01,280 Speaker 1: do a mental tally in my head. Hannah Be's got 35 00:02:01,280 --> 00:02:05,080 Speaker 1: a book out, Ben's got a book out called Alone 36 00:02:05,080 --> 00:02:08,080 Speaker 1: in Plain Site. I believe Ashley and Jared have a 37 00:02:08,160 --> 00:02:11,480 Speaker 1: children's book out. I believe Peter has a book out. 38 00:02:11,720 --> 00:02:15,200 Speaker 1: I believe um Mike Johnson has a book out, which 39 00:02:15,200 --> 00:02:18,320 Speaker 1: begs the question were you ever really on the Bachelor 40 00:02:18,360 --> 00:02:20,840 Speaker 1: of the bat Serette if you haven't published a book? 41 00:02:21,200 --> 00:02:25,120 Speaker 1: Also begs the question, who's writing this stuff? Well, I 42 00:02:25,120 --> 00:02:27,239 Speaker 1: guess you guys are, but we're gonna give you the 43 00:02:27,240 --> 00:02:30,720 Speaker 1: cliff notes. Today, in other Bachelor news, I saw that 44 00:02:30,840 --> 00:02:34,720 Speaker 1: Katie is no longer with Blake shockingly enough, but she's 45 00:02:34,720 --> 00:02:37,080 Speaker 1: now with that guy John, which she kicked off the show. 46 00:02:37,320 --> 00:02:40,040 Speaker 1: I guess way to go. Also saw that Tasia is 47 00:02:40,080 --> 00:02:43,040 Speaker 1: no longer with Zach Claire of course, no longer with 48 00:02:43,200 --> 00:02:46,880 Speaker 1: Dale Colton. I guess he's got a Netflix show coming out. 49 00:02:47,200 --> 00:02:49,760 Speaker 1: Matt and Rachel are still together, which that one's actually 50 00:02:49,800 --> 00:02:52,840 Speaker 1: a shocker. I would just like to say that the 51 00:02:52,919 --> 00:02:56,280 Speaker 1: b I p relationships, the show that I work on, 52 00:02:56,360 --> 00:02:59,280 Speaker 1: the show that let's be fair, that I host uh 53 00:02:59,480 --> 00:03:02,560 Speaker 1: doing well. Dean and Kaylan strong, Hannah, Dylan strong, Joan 54 00:03:02,680 --> 00:03:06,679 Speaker 1: Serena strong, Ashley and Jared this is strong. Having a kid. 55 00:03:07,160 --> 00:03:11,080 Speaker 1: Tanner and Jade this is strong. Rusta and Riley strong. 56 00:03:11,480 --> 00:03:14,880 Speaker 1: I think Noan Abigail are back together, Mary and Kenny strong, 57 00:03:15,120 --> 00:03:19,120 Speaker 1: Becca and Thomas they broke up. They're going strong. Listen. 58 00:03:19,160 --> 00:03:22,639 Speaker 1: I'm not saying that I'm the reason why it's successful. 59 00:03:22,680 --> 00:03:24,920 Speaker 1: I'm just saying that the show that I work on 60 00:03:25,600 --> 00:03:29,520 Speaker 1: is killing its Also, my dogs are barking in the 61 00:03:29,600 --> 00:03:33,400 Speaker 1: background because they agree with me that b I P 62 00:03:34,120 --> 00:03:36,240 Speaker 1: Is the place to go to find love. All right, 63 00:03:37,120 --> 00:03:41,280 Speaker 1: off the soapbox, down to the interview. Let's get Hannah 64 00:03:41,280 --> 00:03:56,960 Speaker 1: by Online Hannah by Hannah Brown. What's up, dude, Hey, 65 00:03:57,760 --> 00:04:01,160 Speaker 1: nothing much, just uh moaning a book. I had a 66 00:04:01,200 --> 00:04:04,600 Speaker 1: book come out. I know, should I write a book? 67 00:04:05,000 --> 00:04:06,760 Speaker 1: I feel like I'm the only person from the Bachelor 68 00:04:06,760 --> 00:04:08,840 Speaker 1: world that has written a book. I mean, why not? 69 00:04:10,880 --> 00:04:15,000 Speaker 1: What would mind be about? You? Think? Um? I felt 70 00:04:15,040 --> 00:04:17,039 Speaker 1: you have a lot of stories to tell being a 71 00:04:17,080 --> 00:04:21,240 Speaker 1: bartender on Bachelor in Paradise. Yes, but I am still 72 00:04:21,320 --> 00:04:24,640 Speaker 1: under contract. There is an NDA hanging over my head, 73 00:04:24,680 --> 00:04:27,680 Speaker 1: which I assume, Uh, you are free and clear of 74 00:04:27,760 --> 00:04:31,880 Speaker 1: hence why this beautiful publication has reached the bookshelves. Well, 75 00:04:31,920 --> 00:04:33,960 Speaker 1: I don't know if I'm even free. I think that 76 00:04:34,279 --> 00:04:38,640 Speaker 1: it lasts forever, um parts of it, so uh, you know, 77 00:04:38,640 --> 00:04:43,360 Speaker 1: I had to make sure everything was was okay. Um, 78 00:04:43,400 --> 00:04:48,200 Speaker 1: But yeah, I think we're always under when I'm pretty sure. Yeah, 79 00:04:48,720 --> 00:04:52,400 Speaker 1: you never you never get away from it. I gotta say, 80 00:04:52,440 --> 00:04:56,240 Speaker 1: you dropped some freaking bombs in this book. I haven't 81 00:04:56,240 --> 00:05:00,280 Speaker 1: read it because I believe it's out like today today. U. Um, 82 00:05:00,279 --> 00:05:03,640 Speaker 1: but I'm excited to talk to you and go through 83 00:05:03,760 --> 00:05:08,320 Speaker 1: kind of all the the stuff that you that you 84 00:05:08,480 --> 00:05:11,479 Speaker 1: revealed in it. Um. I will say, I think the 85 00:05:11,560 --> 00:05:14,760 Speaker 1: last time I saw you, it was back when we 86 00:05:14,760 --> 00:05:18,479 Speaker 1: were able to go to parties and experience the world. 87 00:05:18,800 --> 00:05:23,120 Speaker 1: And was it the Was it the Emmy's Yeah, I 88 00:05:23,120 --> 00:05:26,160 Speaker 1: think so, yeah, the Emmys it was? Was it the 89 00:05:26,200 --> 00:05:32,240 Speaker 1: Golden Globes? Yeah, one of those. Um. Yeah. I feel like, 90 00:05:33,320 --> 00:05:38,280 Speaker 1: you know, I had a really weird like I was 91 00:05:38,320 --> 00:05:41,200 Speaker 1: a bachelorrette at a really weird time because I went 92 00:05:41,240 --> 00:05:44,960 Speaker 1: straight from being on the Bachelorette to like being on 93 00:05:45,040 --> 00:05:47,680 Speaker 1: Dancing with Stars and then like I just started to 94 00:05:47,720 --> 00:05:49,320 Speaker 1: be able to hang out with people and then like 95 00:05:49,720 --> 00:05:54,440 Speaker 1: a pandemic happened. Yeah, so um, and then you know, 96 00:05:54,520 --> 00:05:58,240 Speaker 1: had like my own mental breakdowns and stuff. So uh yeah, 97 00:05:58,240 --> 00:06:01,880 Speaker 1: I haven't really seen many pool from the franchise since 98 00:06:01,960 --> 00:06:08,000 Speaker 1: since then. Okay, well I gotta ask because you, um, 99 00:06:08,160 --> 00:06:10,200 Speaker 1: you unleash a lot of I get. I don't know 100 00:06:10,240 --> 00:06:12,960 Speaker 1: if it's dirt, but information in this book. Have you 101 00:06:13,080 --> 00:06:15,760 Speaker 1: talked to like so I know that like Peter's in 102 00:06:15,800 --> 00:06:18,760 Speaker 1: the crosshairs, Tyler gets a lot of love. By the way, 103 00:06:18,800 --> 00:06:21,240 Speaker 1: am I in this fucking book? Am I? Do I 104 00:06:21,360 --> 00:06:24,599 Speaker 1: have a chapter or something that I don't know about? Um, 105 00:06:24,800 --> 00:06:28,760 Speaker 1: you did not make the final Edits okay, good news 106 00:06:28,800 --> 00:06:30,920 Speaker 1: for me. I'm just waiting for like the Daily Mail 107 00:06:31,000 --> 00:06:33,120 Speaker 1: to let me know that I've done something wrong. So 108 00:06:33,440 --> 00:06:36,240 Speaker 1: my first question is this, like, do you give those 109 00:06:36,279 --> 00:06:38,800 Speaker 1: people that are in your book the heads up that 110 00:06:38,880 --> 00:06:42,120 Speaker 1: you're having a book? Uh that's coming out that has 111 00:06:42,160 --> 00:06:48,000 Speaker 1: information about their lives? Um? Yes, and I mean like 112 00:06:48,360 --> 00:06:51,839 Speaker 1: Tyler knew because we were kind of writing books at 113 00:06:51,880 --> 00:06:56,640 Speaker 1: the same time. Uh. But no, I didn't like give 114 00:06:56,720 --> 00:07:00,240 Speaker 1: them the heads up because I really try had to 115 00:07:00,240 --> 00:07:03,040 Speaker 1: make sure. Yes, there was things about our personal lives 116 00:07:03,040 --> 00:07:06,760 Speaker 1: in there, but we also have shared our personal lives 117 00:07:06,880 --> 00:07:12,240 Speaker 1: on camera, and UM, I felt like it was really 118 00:07:12,280 --> 00:07:16,119 Speaker 1: important for me to share my honest, true story and 119 00:07:16,120 --> 00:07:18,280 Speaker 1: and everything that I put in there. I wouldn't say 120 00:07:18,360 --> 00:07:22,800 Speaker 1: it was dirt because I wasn't trying to be like 121 00:07:23,320 --> 00:07:27,280 Speaker 1: mean spirited or put blame on anybody for any experience 122 00:07:27,320 --> 00:07:33,520 Speaker 1: because I really tried to, um have awareness for how 123 00:07:33,600 --> 00:07:37,440 Speaker 1: I played a part and everything too. So UM, even 124 00:07:37,480 --> 00:07:39,600 Speaker 1: though yes, there were things that I revealed that people 125 00:07:39,640 --> 00:07:43,120 Speaker 1: didn't know. It wasn't in a malicious way or to 126 00:07:43,320 --> 00:07:45,960 Speaker 1: like put people under attack. It was just like it 127 00:07:46,040 --> 00:07:50,920 Speaker 1: was things that affected me and had last lasting impacts 128 00:07:50,920 --> 00:07:55,080 Speaker 1: and I think a lot of people connect with and so, um, 129 00:07:55,160 --> 00:07:58,840 Speaker 1: yeah people. I didn't like let everyone know what was 130 00:07:58,880 --> 00:08:00,880 Speaker 1: going to be in the book because as I didn't 131 00:08:00,920 --> 00:08:04,640 Speaker 1: really let people read the book before, not even my parents. 132 00:08:04,800 --> 00:08:10,040 Speaker 1: So everybody is just having all these surprises. Have your 133 00:08:10,040 --> 00:08:15,160 Speaker 1: folks read it now? Have my parents read it now? No? They, 134 00:08:15,240 --> 00:08:17,320 Speaker 1: I mean they get their books today. My dad was 135 00:08:17,360 --> 00:08:20,280 Speaker 1: so sweet he bought he bought a few books for 136 00:08:20,320 --> 00:08:23,360 Speaker 1: me to sign when I get back home. But they 137 00:08:23,400 --> 00:08:25,760 Speaker 1: do know what's in there, like they haven't read it, 138 00:08:25,920 --> 00:08:28,440 Speaker 1: but like I was very honest that I was going 139 00:08:28,840 --> 00:08:32,679 Speaker 1: to be honest about the things that affected me from 140 00:08:32,720 --> 00:08:36,360 Speaker 1: my childhood and forward. And they're aware that our family 141 00:08:36,400 --> 00:08:39,880 Speaker 1: has gone through a lot of challenges but also we've 142 00:08:39,920 --> 00:08:44,920 Speaker 1: grown through that. Um. And my parents were like, look 143 00:08:45,000 --> 00:08:48,360 Speaker 1: like write your story, we support you, we love you, 144 00:08:48,640 --> 00:08:52,600 Speaker 1: and kind of just gave me free range. The books 145 00:08:52,600 --> 00:08:55,480 Speaker 1: called God Bless this mess, Learning to Live and Love 146 00:08:55,600 --> 00:08:59,600 Speaker 1: through life's best and then in parentheses worst moments, Um, 147 00:08:59,640 --> 00:09:02,960 Speaker 1: I hate do this but I gotta ask the questions 148 00:09:03,480 --> 00:09:06,320 Speaker 1: about the specifics of the book. I think the one 149 00:09:06,400 --> 00:09:12,160 Speaker 1: that that this audience cares about, which is your relationship 150 00:09:12,280 --> 00:09:15,240 Speaker 1: with Peter. And so I guess I'm fuzzy on this. 151 00:09:15,280 --> 00:09:18,800 Speaker 1: I've read the headlines, but your relationship with Peter. I 152 00:09:18,840 --> 00:09:25,559 Speaker 1: guess after he finished um filming Bachelor, you guys had 153 00:09:25,600 --> 00:09:29,040 Speaker 1: a hook up session, but he was still kind of 154 00:09:29,280 --> 00:09:34,280 Speaker 1: with Madison or Hannah. I don't know who he was with, 155 00:09:34,400 --> 00:09:38,920 Speaker 1: but um, so what happened. So the last time I 156 00:09:39,120 --> 00:09:42,480 Speaker 1: saw Peter was him you know, I was on Lazy 157 00:09:42,520 --> 00:09:45,079 Speaker 1: with Stars. He was a Bachelor. I went on the show. 158 00:09:45,400 --> 00:09:48,000 Speaker 1: Last time I saw him, he said he would lead 159 00:09:48,040 --> 00:09:52,760 Speaker 1: the show to be with me. And that was really 160 00:09:53,480 --> 00:09:56,240 Speaker 1: hard because I felt like I had just gone through 161 00:09:56,320 --> 00:10:00,560 Speaker 1: like two pretty major blows to my heart, my ego, 162 00:10:00,800 --> 00:10:03,800 Speaker 1: everything with thinking that two guys who told me that 163 00:10:03,840 --> 00:10:06,760 Speaker 1: they loved me want to be with me. Um, it 164 00:10:06,840 --> 00:10:11,760 Speaker 1: didn't work out, And I think at that point, I'm like, 165 00:10:11,800 --> 00:10:14,400 Speaker 1: oh my gosh, the only guy who actually loved me 166 00:10:14,559 --> 00:10:17,120 Speaker 1: cared about me isn't out the Bachelor. And now they're 167 00:10:17,160 --> 00:10:20,640 Speaker 1: I'm being now I have to go on this show again, 168 00:10:20,640 --> 00:10:24,160 Speaker 1: and I'm like a mess. And I think a lot 169 00:10:24,320 --> 00:10:27,559 Speaker 1: of emotions just came from me, just not like just 170 00:10:27,720 --> 00:10:30,760 Speaker 1: being like it was this even real, Like how have 171 00:10:30,880 --> 00:10:33,200 Speaker 1: I let this affect me so much? And now I 172 00:10:33,240 --> 00:10:35,240 Speaker 1: do not want to be back in this setting. And 173 00:10:35,280 --> 00:10:38,880 Speaker 1: so the last time everybody sees me together with Peter, 174 00:10:38,960 --> 00:10:43,600 Speaker 1: but also just for myself before um, everything that happened 175 00:10:43,640 --> 00:10:48,640 Speaker 1: after the show, Uh, I was left with I told him, like, 176 00:10:49,320 --> 00:10:51,240 Speaker 1: you know, I'm not gonna be dating anybody if it 177 00:10:51,280 --> 00:10:53,560 Speaker 1: doesn't work out for you, like I'd love to go 178 00:10:53,840 --> 00:10:56,840 Speaker 1: on a date. Well, of course, like we know, he 179 00:10:57,000 --> 00:11:02,480 Speaker 1: ends up getting engaged on the show, and um, I 180 00:11:02,559 --> 00:11:04,800 Speaker 1: was happy for him and like, but I think there 181 00:11:04,840 --> 00:11:06,640 Speaker 1: was still like this weird like that's the last time 182 00:11:06,679 --> 00:11:10,480 Speaker 1: I talked to him, was you wanted me to say 183 00:11:10,480 --> 00:11:12,640 Speaker 1: I could be with him? So I was really confused. 184 00:11:13,440 --> 00:11:17,280 Speaker 1: So we had I think there was talks of us 185 00:11:17,360 --> 00:11:22,079 Speaker 1: having a conversation on camera after the fact, because it 186 00:11:22,120 --> 00:11:24,719 Speaker 1: was left so unsettled, and I'm like, I'm not doing that, 187 00:11:24,880 --> 00:11:28,600 Speaker 1: Like I don't think either, I'm not doing that. So 188 00:11:29,200 --> 00:11:33,360 Speaker 1: I think I messaged him was like I think we 189 00:11:33,360 --> 00:11:36,560 Speaker 1: were both getting contacted about should we somehow have some 190 00:11:36,600 --> 00:11:39,520 Speaker 1: type of resolve. So we just got on the phone 191 00:11:39,679 --> 00:11:43,800 Speaker 1: and talked to each other, and um, it was really 192 00:11:43,800 --> 00:11:46,079 Speaker 1: good to catch up and I think it allowed us 193 00:11:46,120 --> 00:11:48,760 Speaker 1: like there's only a few people that can understand what 194 00:11:48,800 --> 00:11:51,800 Speaker 1: it's like to be a lead of that show. It's 195 00:11:51,880 --> 00:11:57,200 Speaker 1: it's really hard, and I mean being a part of 196 00:11:57,200 --> 00:11:58,959 Speaker 1: the show. I think it's just hard in general. But 197 00:12:00,040 --> 00:12:03,640 Speaker 1: that world One really connected us, and I think he 198 00:12:03,840 --> 00:12:06,480 Speaker 1: looked at me as somebody that he could talk to 199 00:12:06,640 --> 00:12:08,520 Speaker 1: when it was filming, So we kind of like stayed 200 00:12:08,520 --> 00:12:12,480 Speaker 1: in touch a little, but nothing like crossing the line 201 00:12:12,679 --> 00:12:17,520 Speaker 1: at all. It was just like supporting him talking through 202 00:12:17,600 --> 00:12:21,200 Speaker 1: especially like the first two episodes I was in and 203 00:12:21,760 --> 00:12:25,240 Speaker 1: knowing he was with somebody, like it was all just 204 00:12:25,400 --> 00:12:28,920 Speaker 1: kind of it was weird, and I didn't really I 205 00:12:29,120 --> 00:12:31,560 Speaker 1: wasn't really happy about being a part of all that 206 00:12:31,840 --> 00:12:35,559 Speaker 1: because I knew I was really emotional. So anyway, how 207 00:12:35,600 --> 00:12:41,439 Speaker 1: all that Hannah Godwin and Dylan's party engagement party is 208 00:12:41,720 --> 00:12:44,360 Speaker 1: um where we saw each other for the first time, 209 00:12:45,559 --> 00:12:47,760 Speaker 1: and it was weird because like Jed was there with 210 00:12:47,840 --> 00:12:50,640 Speaker 1: his girl, like his new girlfriend Peter was there. At 211 00:12:50,640 --> 00:12:52,840 Speaker 1: one point, they like preparing me that Tyler was going 212 00:12:52,880 --> 00:12:55,880 Speaker 1: to be there, and I'm like, oh gosh, this is 213 00:12:56,280 --> 00:12:59,040 Speaker 1: going to be interesting because I haven't seen anybody. And 214 00:12:59,080 --> 00:13:02,440 Speaker 1: then all the rest of my ex boyfriends were there too, 215 00:13:02,520 --> 00:13:07,400 Speaker 1: so it was like I was really nervous going in there. Um. 216 00:13:07,559 --> 00:13:10,240 Speaker 1: But Peter was like, I have so much to tell you, 217 00:13:10,240 --> 00:13:12,520 Speaker 1: like when we said hello, and I was like what 218 00:13:12,600 --> 00:13:14,160 Speaker 1: does that mean? Like he was like, oh, I just 219 00:13:14,160 --> 00:13:15,520 Speaker 1: have so much telling you and I was like, well, 220 00:13:15,640 --> 00:13:18,800 Speaker 1: let's talk. Well, the producers were there at the show, 221 00:13:19,000 --> 00:13:22,000 Speaker 1: I mean at the party, and like kept keeping us 222 00:13:22,200 --> 00:13:25,840 Speaker 1: away from each other, and so I was like I 223 00:13:25,840 --> 00:13:27,679 Speaker 1: want to know, like what what are you talking about? 224 00:13:27,720 --> 00:13:30,320 Speaker 1: So you like texted me afterwards and it was like 225 00:13:30,320 --> 00:13:33,240 Speaker 1: come outside, and so we sat we actually like sat 226 00:13:33,280 --> 00:13:36,320 Speaker 1: in a driveway for a little bit and like around 227 00:13:36,360 --> 00:13:39,440 Speaker 1: the corner and just talked. And it got late and 228 00:13:39,480 --> 00:13:42,760 Speaker 1: he like driving me home. We kept talking and it 229 00:13:42,840 --> 00:13:47,120 Speaker 1: was all just about the experience and then yeah, I 230 00:13:47,480 --> 00:13:49,199 Speaker 1: he was like, well I have a flight in the morning, 231 00:13:49,280 --> 00:13:51,360 Speaker 1: Like you want to keep talking and we'll go to 232 00:13:51,400 --> 00:13:53,520 Speaker 1: Wooden Hills and I was like sure. It was like 233 00:13:53,559 --> 00:13:55,199 Speaker 1: and I'll drive you back, like let's just and I'm 234 00:13:55,200 --> 00:14:00,200 Speaker 1: like okay, like sure, like truly not thinking anything more 235 00:14:00,280 --> 00:14:03,440 Speaker 1: than we're just like catching up and that's what it 236 00:14:03,480 --> 00:14:08,880 Speaker 1: felt like. That's what it felt like. And then um, yeah, 237 00:14:09,000 --> 00:14:11,480 Speaker 1: I get there, like he texted me. I mean, he 238 00:14:11,559 --> 00:14:13,360 Speaker 1: like tells me in the car as mom texted him, 239 00:14:13,360 --> 00:14:15,280 Speaker 1: and he's like, my mom's still up. She would love 240 00:14:15,320 --> 00:14:21,280 Speaker 1: to talk to you. Okay. I end up like being 241 00:14:21,320 --> 00:14:24,720 Speaker 1: in their living room with barbed for like two and 242 00:14:24,760 --> 00:14:29,880 Speaker 1: a half hours. Peter goes upstairs and leaves me down there, 243 00:14:29,920 --> 00:14:31,720 Speaker 1: and I'm like what do I do at this point? 244 00:14:31,800 --> 00:14:34,400 Speaker 1: Like now I'm like here, Like what do I do? 245 00:14:34,560 --> 00:14:36,840 Speaker 1: Like I don't have a ride home, Like it's like 246 00:14:38,000 --> 00:14:47,040 Speaker 1: some ungodly hour and yeah, Like then I she was like, 247 00:14:47,080 --> 00:14:48,880 Speaker 1: well you want to just stay here? I can like 248 00:14:49,000 --> 00:14:51,280 Speaker 1: make you a bed, and I'm like he's like you 249 00:14:51,400 --> 00:14:54,920 Speaker 1: like Peter's already in bed at States like by the way, 250 00:14:54,960 --> 00:14:59,080 Speaker 1: By the way, Barbara is the best wingman I've ever 251 00:14:59,160 --> 00:15:03,120 Speaker 1: heard of in my entire life. She is always trying 252 00:15:03,160 --> 00:15:08,040 Speaker 1: to get her son whatever continue on. I know. So 253 00:15:08,120 --> 00:15:11,160 Speaker 1: I'm like, okay, whatever, and like she's always been kind 254 00:15:11,160 --> 00:15:15,840 Speaker 1: to me, but she was not having Madison. Um Hannah 255 00:15:15,840 --> 00:15:20,320 Speaker 1: Ann and Peter had already been broken up like he 256 00:15:20,360 --> 00:15:22,200 Speaker 1: had already ended the engagement. So that's what he was 257 00:15:22,240 --> 00:15:24,280 Speaker 1: telling me all about like how all that happened, blah 258 00:15:24,320 --> 00:15:28,360 Speaker 1: blah blah everything, and then the whole like Madison thing 259 00:15:28,440 --> 00:15:30,400 Speaker 1: was going on, and at that point he was like, 260 00:15:30,880 --> 00:15:33,040 Speaker 1: I think it's just like over, like I'm just gonna 261 00:15:33,040 --> 00:15:38,960 Speaker 1: focus on like and I'm like, okay, whatever. They weren't talking. Well, 262 00:15:39,000 --> 00:15:41,640 Speaker 1: I am not in the best emotional place myself, Like 263 00:15:41,680 --> 00:15:44,840 Speaker 1: I will be completely honest, it was you know, I've 264 00:15:45,080 --> 00:15:48,520 Speaker 1: worked a lot this past year and a half to 265 00:15:48,640 --> 00:15:53,880 Speaker 1: like really and like hell from all that. And so 266 00:15:56,320 --> 00:15:59,640 Speaker 1: I went to his brother's room and then Peter texted 267 00:15:59,680 --> 00:16:03,080 Speaker 1: me and was like, come cuddle, and I was. I 268 00:16:03,160 --> 00:16:07,240 Speaker 1: remember like sitting there like yeah, I don't know, there's 269 00:16:07,240 --> 00:16:10,720 Speaker 1: obvious there was still like some like chemistry, and I'm like, 270 00:16:12,200 --> 00:16:14,240 Speaker 1: you know, at this point, I'm like, none of these 271 00:16:14,280 --> 00:16:16,840 Speaker 1: guys loved me and I want I wanted that so 272 00:16:16,920 --> 00:16:19,760 Speaker 1: bad and I think because of that, I made really 273 00:16:19,760 --> 00:16:24,760 Speaker 1: poor decisions for myself. And I went in there and 274 00:16:24,800 --> 00:16:27,440 Speaker 1: I can remember knowing like this is such a bad idea, 275 00:16:27,560 --> 00:16:31,040 Speaker 1: like this is just not I don't need to be here, 276 00:16:31,280 --> 00:16:34,160 Speaker 1: And when you know, we ended up hooking up, and 277 00:16:34,200 --> 00:16:37,600 Speaker 1: it was just kind of like I remember being like 278 00:16:38,320 --> 00:16:41,200 Speaker 1: what did I just do? Like this was not good 279 00:16:41,240 --> 00:16:45,600 Speaker 1: for anybody, but also being like so confused, and then 280 00:16:46,320 --> 00:16:49,800 Speaker 1: like was he into it? Though? Like was it? You know? 281 00:16:49,960 --> 00:16:53,680 Speaker 1: Waking up the next morning was like gazing into your eyes? No, No, 282 00:16:53,840 --> 00:16:57,720 Speaker 1: it was really I felt really it was like he 283 00:16:58,200 --> 00:17:02,640 Speaker 1: had to go into work and I'm like he's like, 284 00:17:02,680 --> 00:17:06,480 Speaker 1: all right, well, like I'm gonna I gotta get ready, um, 285 00:17:06,560 --> 00:17:09,000 Speaker 1: if you want to come downstairs, my my dad's downstairs, 286 00:17:09,040 --> 00:17:10,880 Speaker 1: would love to see you. And I'm like You've got 287 00:17:10,960 --> 00:17:13,359 Speaker 1: like you've got to be kidding me, Like I'm dying, 288 00:17:13,560 --> 00:17:16,560 Speaker 1: Like what am I gonna do? He's like it's gotten 289 00:17:16,560 --> 00:17:19,560 Speaker 1: really late, like I overslept, like I'm gonna have to 290 00:17:19,640 --> 00:17:27,120 Speaker 1: go and I'm like wait what and he hands me 291 00:17:27,200 --> 00:17:33,280 Speaker 1: money to get an uber ah, And that just like 292 00:17:34,160 --> 00:17:38,119 Speaker 1: that was when I was like this is I was 293 00:17:38,240 --> 00:17:40,760 Speaker 1: just kind of done after that, which I knew immediately, 294 00:17:40,760 --> 00:17:43,919 Speaker 1: like I didn't feel like the chemistry, but then it 295 00:17:44,040 --> 00:17:47,320 Speaker 1: was like what is this? And then like I went 296 00:17:47,400 --> 00:17:50,920 Speaker 1: home and I'm like I just had coffee with Peter's 297 00:17:51,000 --> 00:17:52,840 Speaker 1: dad in a robe. I just spent the night at 298 00:17:52,840 --> 00:17:56,199 Speaker 1: his house and I'm like the show so on, Like 299 00:17:56,280 --> 00:17:59,760 Speaker 1: I'm like, what what just happened to me? And I 300 00:17:59,800 --> 00:18:01,679 Speaker 1: get at home and then like he texted me and 301 00:18:01,720 --> 00:18:04,399 Speaker 1: it was like so good to see you, but it 302 00:18:04,440 --> 00:18:08,360 Speaker 1: was so great catching like something like really like I'm 303 00:18:08,400 --> 00:18:12,879 Speaker 1: glad we have each other. I'm like, wait what, And 304 00:18:12,880 --> 00:18:15,480 Speaker 1: I was like, why are you being so nonchalant about this? 305 00:18:15,640 --> 00:18:18,960 Speaker 1: Like I don't know if that was such a good idea, 306 00:18:19,040 --> 00:18:21,639 Speaker 1: like it was and at that point, and then he 307 00:18:21,720 --> 00:18:24,280 Speaker 1: like calls me and like starts wanting to talk about 308 00:18:24,320 --> 00:18:28,040 Speaker 1: Madison with me literally the next day, talking about how 309 00:18:28,040 --> 00:18:31,800 Speaker 1: he's still like cares about Madison and I'm like, wait, 310 00:18:32,000 --> 00:18:36,600 Speaker 1: I don't know why I'm in the position, but I 311 00:18:36,720 --> 00:18:42,800 Speaker 1: don't like it, and um, it was just so messy. 312 00:18:42,920 --> 00:18:46,360 Speaker 1: And then like I'm watching, like knowing all this has happened, 313 00:18:46,560 --> 00:18:48,760 Speaker 1: and I was kind of over after that, like after 314 00:18:48,840 --> 00:18:51,359 Speaker 1: the next like the few texts and things between us, 315 00:18:51,400 --> 00:18:55,280 Speaker 1: I was like very turn off, Like I already was 316 00:18:55,320 --> 00:18:57,520 Speaker 1: turned off by like very turned off about how it 317 00:18:57,560 --> 00:19:01,040 Speaker 1: was all handled because I'm like this guy, sweet guy, 318 00:19:01,160 --> 00:19:04,159 Speaker 1: He's not okay right now, not making great decisions, and 319 00:19:04,200 --> 00:19:08,400 Speaker 1: I'm obviously not making great decisions either. And I think 320 00:19:08,600 --> 00:19:11,960 Speaker 1: at that point I was like, there's there's not anything 321 00:19:12,000 --> 00:19:15,639 Speaker 1: here anymore, Like it's already dead. I mean, he's making 322 00:19:15,680 --> 00:19:22,040 Speaker 1: a lot of f boy maneuvers, maneuvers like the text 323 00:19:22,119 --> 00:19:25,720 Speaker 1: message like that's basically like suck you up, and then 324 00:19:25,840 --> 00:19:29,720 Speaker 1: like the here's twenty bucks for your uber home and 325 00:19:29,760 --> 00:19:32,879 Speaker 1: then like the next day texting you and being like 326 00:19:33,320 --> 00:19:35,720 Speaker 1: love seeing your bud. That's not what you say to 327 00:19:35,760 --> 00:19:37,720 Speaker 1: someone you slept with and I were hooked up with 328 00:19:37,760 --> 00:19:42,960 Speaker 1: the night before, and then want advice about another girl. Yeah, 329 00:19:43,080 --> 00:19:46,359 Speaker 1: I was just like what And it's so like I 330 00:19:46,359 --> 00:19:51,439 Speaker 1: think Peter has a kind heart. I really do. Like 331 00:19:51,480 --> 00:19:54,600 Speaker 1: I'm not trying to like talk shit about him at all, 332 00:19:55,080 --> 00:19:56,800 Speaker 1: but I'm just telling the abviious this is what the 333 00:19:56,880 --> 00:20:02,720 Speaker 1: experience that I had. And um, then like to see 334 00:20:03,920 --> 00:20:08,280 Speaker 1: how he then was with Kelly at some point and 335 00:20:08,320 --> 00:20:11,720 Speaker 1: then like how everything played out, and then he starts 336 00:20:11,720 --> 00:20:15,520 Speaker 1: doing press and like sends me a text message basically 337 00:20:15,600 --> 00:20:17,439 Speaker 1: to make sure that I'm on the same page of 338 00:20:17,480 --> 00:20:21,119 Speaker 1: what he says for press. And that was when I 339 00:20:21,200 --> 00:20:27,720 Speaker 1: was just like I wasn't gonna say anything anyway, but um, 340 00:20:27,760 --> 00:20:29,720 Speaker 1: I was just really over it and that thing. That's 341 00:20:29,720 --> 00:20:32,520 Speaker 1: when I really going to be like distance myself from everything. 342 00:20:33,440 --> 00:20:37,239 Speaker 1: And um, but he did apologize, Like he sent me 343 00:20:37,880 --> 00:20:41,600 Speaker 1: a few messages apologizing even before the book came out. 344 00:20:41,640 --> 00:20:45,160 Speaker 1: But at that point I was just especially after all 345 00:20:45,240 --> 00:20:46,960 Speaker 1: that and like that kind of being where I'm like, 346 00:20:47,000 --> 00:20:49,320 Speaker 1: I want to separate myself from this for a while, 347 00:20:49,480 --> 00:20:54,359 Speaker 1: just for for protecting myself and in my heart and 348 00:20:54,400 --> 00:20:58,000 Speaker 1: needing to heal from everything. Um. So, yeah, have you 349 00:20:58,080 --> 00:21:00,520 Speaker 1: talked to him? Have you talked to him? The book 350 00:21:00,520 --> 00:21:04,040 Speaker 1: has come out? Um, he sent me a text about 351 00:21:04,119 --> 00:21:07,360 Speaker 1: it and was really kind. Um did it say hey, 352 00:21:07,560 --> 00:21:11,520 Speaker 1: come snuggle. No it didn't. It didn't say that, but 353 00:21:11,720 --> 00:21:14,640 Speaker 1: he took it really well. I haven't really messaged him 354 00:21:14,640 --> 00:21:19,119 Speaker 1: back yet, but um, because I think he wanted to, 355 00:21:19,200 --> 00:21:22,040 Speaker 1: you know, talk about it more publicly. And I don't 356 00:21:22,040 --> 00:21:26,040 Speaker 1: think there's really much more to say. Yeah, so but 357 00:21:26,119 --> 00:21:28,960 Speaker 1: I wish him well, I really do. Like like I said, 358 00:21:28,960 --> 00:21:30,600 Speaker 1: like all the guys that I talked about, I am 359 00:21:30,640 --> 00:21:32,520 Speaker 1: not trying to be malicious at all, and I all 360 00:21:32,600 --> 00:21:35,400 Speaker 1: like I've seen parts of their their heart that are 361 00:21:35,440 --> 00:21:41,280 Speaker 1: really great. Um. And and I wholeheartedly say that, but 362 00:21:41,640 --> 00:21:45,240 Speaker 1: in this experiences I learned that maybe my old patterns 363 00:21:45,440 --> 00:21:50,640 Speaker 1: and um, like the the way that I was feeling 364 00:21:50,760 --> 00:21:53,439 Speaker 1: in the emotions I had just didn't allow me to 365 00:21:54,720 --> 00:22:10,720 Speaker 1: have a safe, healthy relationship with with anybody at the time. Listen, 366 00:22:10,720 --> 00:22:13,080 Speaker 1: I'm running out of time with you. We only got 367 00:22:13,119 --> 00:22:17,240 Speaker 1: through the Peter of it all. I do need to know, 368 00:22:17,480 --> 00:22:24,880 Speaker 1: like I need to know the Tyler Cameron g thing 369 00:22:25,280 --> 00:22:29,600 Speaker 1: into quarantine because it seems like it seems even more 370 00:22:29,720 --> 00:22:33,919 Speaker 1: awkward than having coffee with Barb and Peter's dad after 371 00:22:34,280 --> 00:22:40,040 Speaker 1: the hook up session the g and yeah, that was 372 00:22:40,480 --> 00:22:43,000 Speaker 1: that was really hard. And I think that's where like 373 00:22:45,640 --> 00:22:50,520 Speaker 1: I taught I immediately after I got engaged to Jed 374 00:22:51,040 --> 00:22:54,879 Speaker 1: was still like very open about like I don't know 375 00:22:54,920 --> 00:22:57,400 Speaker 1: if I'm okay, Like I still have feelings for other people, 376 00:22:57,520 --> 00:22:59,760 Speaker 1: Like I'm trying to make the best decision. I'm making 377 00:22:59,800 --> 00:23:03,880 Speaker 1: this safest decision. But I can remember my parents loved 378 00:23:03,920 --> 00:23:05,919 Speaker 1: Tyler and they're like, you can change your mind, Like 379 00:23:05,960 --> 00:23:07,600 Speaker 1: I know it's close, but you can change your mind. 380 00:23:07,640 --> 00:23:09,360 Speaker 1: And I just felt like I couldn't. So I think 381 00:23:09,400 --> 00:23:12,280 Speaker 1: I always had even from the beginning, like was like 382 00:23:13,680 --> 00:23:15,800 Speaker 1: that what if, and like did I make the right decision, 383 00:23:15,880 --> 00:23:17,879 Speaker 1: and then when all the Jet stuff came out, I 384 00:23:17,960 --> 00:23:22,040 Speaker 1: was like, oh my gosh, I have the worst picker 385 00:23:22,119 --> 00:23:29,080 Speaker 1: in the entire world, and um, and yeah, I was 386 00:23:29,160 --> 00:23:31,760 Speaker 1: really upset with that, But I think mostly upset because 387 00:23:31,760 --> 00:23:33,639 Speaker 1: there were already some signs with Jet that it was 388 00:23:33,720 --> 00:23:36,800 Speaker 1: like just not going to work out. And it was 389 00:23:36,840 --> 00:23:40,520 Speaker 1: even before that, like really like the next day, I 390 00:23:40,560 --> 00:23:47,199 Speaker 1: was like, what did I just do? And Um. Then 391 00:23:47,440 --> 00:23:50,080 Speaker 1: I was just so hurt by like, oh my gosh, 392 00:23:50,080 --> 00:23:53,040 Speaker 1: like I had at that time, Lily, but two amazing 393 00:23:53,040 --> 00:23:55,600 Speaker 1: guys that I really did care for, and I didn't 394 00:23:55,640 --> 00:24:01,400 Speaker 1: have the opportunity to like have that happy ending with them, 395 00:24:01,440 --> 00:24:03,880 Speaker 1: like that that love story that I maybe could have had. 396 00:24:04,720 --> 00:24:09,320 Speaker 1: And then um, but Tyler, I think was the one 397 00:24:09,359 --> 00:24:11,000 Speaker 1: that I was like, I don't think I gave it 398 00:24:11,080 --> 00:24:15,399 Speaker 1: a chance enough, Like I wish I would have gave 399 00:24:15,480 --> 00:24:17,800 Speaker 1: me in a chance sooner. Why don't you think you 400 00:24:17,840 --> 00:24:20,199 Speaker 1: gave him a chance? Was he just like always a 401 00:24:20,200 --> 00:24:24,119 Speaker 1: pretty boy? I can't see a future with him, because 402 00:24:24,119 --> 00:24:27,000 Speaker 1: that's the perception I got from watching the show. Yeah, 403 00:24:27,000 --> 00:24:29,439 Speaker 1: for sure. I think I had a lot of and 404 00:24:29,440 --> 00:24:30,960 Speaker 1: I talked about us in the book a lot, like 405 00:24:32,720 --> 00:24:35,440 Speaker 1: I kept being reminded how I was the dark horse 406 00:24:35,480 --> 00:24:41,080 Speaker 1: of being the bachelorette and like, um, you know didn't 407 00:24:41,200 --> 00:24:45,080 Speaker 1: always steel worthy myself. And then I'm like, I just 408 00:24:45,280 --> 00:24:47,800 Speaker 1: was always suspect of him. I think of like, what 409 00:24:47,880 --> 00:24:51,000 Speaker 1: are his intentions? Why is he on here? It's funny 410 00:24:51,040 --> 00:24:53,440 Speaker 1: you were doing that with the wrong guy. You choose 411 00:24:53,520 --> 00:24:55,760 Speaker 1: the guy that you were worried about. That exact thing 412 00:24:55,840 --> 00:24:59,320 Speaker 1: happened with Tyler, for sure, and like, I own up 413 00:24:59,320 --> 00:25:01,199 Speaker 1: to that, but I think there was a part of 414 00:25:01,240 --> 00:25:04,120 Speaker 1: me that knew he could really hurt me. Tyler could 415 00:25:04,359 --> 00:25:10,600 Speaker 1: and like he and eventually did, because you know everything, Um, 416 00:25:10,640 --> 00:25:12,360 Speaker 1: and I think I was scared of that, but like 417 00:25:12,400 --> 00:25:16,679 Speaker 1: you said, like I ended up instead happened with a 418 00:25:16,680 --> 00:25:20,280 Speaker 1: different guy. Um, And I just I don't know. I 419 00:25:20,320 --> 00:25:22,440 Speaker 1: just wasn't sure of his intentions and I'm like, why 420 00:25:22,480 --> 00:25:27,240 Speaker 1: does he like me? I don't know. And then I 421 00:25:27,359 --> 00:25:29,360 Speaker 1: like I truly did fall on the sword with him. 422 00:25:29,520 --> 00:25:31,880 Speaker 1: I was very like, this is how I feel about you. 423 00:25:31,920 --> 00:25:35,120 Speaker 1: I called him like I feel like I made a mistake. 424 00:25:36,160 --> 00:25:38,480 Speaker 1: I know that like you probably moved on, but like 425 00:25:38,600 --> 00:25:40,080 Speaker 1: I just felt like I need to tell that, And 426 00:25:40,119 --> 00:25:42,679 Speaker 1: I was like I would just love like I don't like, 427 00:25:42,800 --> 00:25:45,640 Speaker 1: real life is so different than being on a show, 428 00:25:45,680 --> 00:25:48,000 Speaker 1: Like we really haven't spent that much time together, but 429 00:25:48,080 --> 00:25:50,840 Speaker 1: I'd love to get to know you more. And he 430 00:25:50,920 --> 00:25:54,200 Speaker 1: was like, well I actually so I called him after everything, 431 00:25:54,800 --> 00:25:56,920 Speaker 1: but in which while the show was on, he was like, well, actually, 432 00:25:57,000 --> 00:25:59,760 Speaker 1: like I thought we could maybe hang out when I 433 00:25:59,840 --> 00:26:04,320 Speaker 1: was in California, like doing the um after the Phone Rose, 434 00:26:04,359 --> 00:26:06,560 Speaker 1: and I was like I'd love that, like I really 435 00:26:06,560 --> 00:26:10,040 Speaker 1: love that. Well then like the producers like find out 436 00:26:10,080 --> 00:26:11,760 Speaker 1: that we have talked and they're like, well, would you 437 00:26:12,040 --> 00:26:16,240 Speaker 1: ask him that on the finale? And so I called 438 00:26:16,240 --> 00:26:17,720 Speaker 1: to him, I was like are you okay with that? 439 00:26:17,840 --> 00:26:21,600 Speaker 1: Like I just want to make sure, Um, I think 440 00:26:21,800 --> 00:26:25,960 Speaker 1: everyone wanted me to have like this, something to look 441 00:26:26,000 --> 00:26:29,600 Speaker 1: forward to and something happy with like an engagement not ending. 442 00:26:29,640 --> 00:26:32,159 Speaker 1: And so I like called him like are you okay 443 00:26:32,200 --> 00:26:35,080 Speaker 1: with this? Like I know we're not like trying to 444 00:26:35,119 --> 00:26:37,080 Speaker 1: like date, but like we just want to get to 445 00:26:37,119 --> 00:26:39,280 Speaker 1: know each other again, and he was like yeah. So 446 00:26:39,359 --> 00:26:42,959 Speaker 1: when I asked him out, like it was, it was 447 00:26:43,000 --> 00:26:46,800 Speaker 1: already like talked about and so I was hopeful and 448 00:26:46,840 --> 00:26:49,720 Speaker 1: then we did hang out, um like when because I 449 00:26:49,760 --> 00:26:51,000 Speaker 1: had to go to New York and I came back 450 00:26:51,040 --> 00:26:54,119 Speaker 1: and it was great, like we just spent the whole 451 00:26:54,240 --> 00:26:56,879 Speaker 1: night talking, like we ended up kissing, Like he was 452 00:26:56,960 --> 00:26:58,840 Speaker 1: like I haven't felt like he was, like, I have 453 00:26:59,040 --> 00:27:01,679 Speaker 1: like talk to different girls, I've been on dates, like 454 00:27:01,720 --> 00:27:04,840 Speaker 1: I haven't felt this much even just like a hug 455 00:27:04,920 --> 00:27:06,919 Speaker 1: with you than I have with anybody else. And like 456 00:27:07,080 --> 00:27:11,359 Speaker 1: you know, I it was very intimate in like vulnerable 457 00:27:11,640 --> 00:27:13,560 Speaker 1: and talking about how we still have feelings for each 458 00:27:13,600 --> 00:27:17,920 Speaker 1: other and talking about you know, maybe like we kept 459 00:27:17,920 --> 00:27:20,600 Speaker 1: getting offered trips and things and like going on these 460 00:27:20,640 --> 00:27:25,160 Speaker 1: trips and our mom's meeting, and like I was hopeful, 461 00:27:25,400 --> 00:27:29,280 Speaker 1: like I was like wow, like this and and and 462 00:27:29,359 --> 00:27:31,720 Speaker 1: at first, like I was timid, like I didn't expect 463 00:27:31,800 --> 00:27:35,639 Speaker 1: him to like, yes, be okay, like I knew I 464 00:27:35,680 --> 00:27:39,320 Speaker 1: had hurt him, but then I was I was really hopeful. 465 00:27:39,359 --> 00:27:43,120 Speaker 1: We talked all the next day and then the next 466 00:27:43,200 --> 00:27:46,280 Speaker 1: day and this I've been and when I last saw you, 467 00:27:46,320 --> 00:27:48,879 Speaker 1: I can't remember. I did not last, but maybe I 468 00:27:48,880 --> 00:27:52,840 Speaker 1: saw you this day. I had to do the whatever 469 00:27:52,880 --> 00:27:59,320 Speaker 1: with the ABC UH press day for What's called And 470 00:27:59,359 --> 00:28:01,119 Speaker 1: we have been talking that night and then he called 471 00:28:01,160 --> 00:28:05,640 Speaker 1: me and he was like Hey, um, you know, I've 472 00:28:05,640 --> 00:28:08,239 Speaker 1: been having so much fun talking with you, and like 473 00:28:08,880 --> 00:28:11,040 Speaker 1: I really do want to see where this goes, but 474 00:28:11,080 --> 00:28:13,760 Speaker 1: I just want to make sure like we're dating other 475 00:28:14,040 --> 00:28:16,199 Speaker 1: like that it's okay, we're dating other people, and I 476 00:28:16,359 --> 00:28:20,280 Speaker 1: just this is a really quick conversation. I was like, um, yeah, 477 00:28:20,359 --> 00:28:23,360 Speaker 1: like I know we're not dating like exclusively or anything, 478 00:28:24,080 --> 00:28:26,879 Speaker 1: but like for me, in my heart, I just dated 479 00:28:26,920 --> 00:28:29,000 Speaker 1: thirty guys and that didn't work out well. So I 480 00:28:29,040 --> 00:28:30,520 Speaker 1: just kind of want to see where this, if this, 481 00:28:30,720 --> 00:28:34,199 Speaker 1: if there's any potential in this for me, And he 482 00:28:34,280 --> 00:28:36,959 Speaker 1: was like, uh, well, yeah, yeah, I get that. Can 483 00:28:37,000 --> 00:28:38,480 Speaker 1: we can we just talk about it later, like I'll 484 00:28:38,520 --> 00:28:40,560 Speaker 1: call you later because it was like a quick call 485 00:28:40,600 --> 00:28:43,400 Speaker 1: and I was like yeah, sure. I remember I went 486 00:28:43,440 --> 00:28:46,560 Speaker 1: to go eat like bossa Nova and then I started 487 00:28:46,560 --> 00:28:49,440 Speaker 1: getting these pictures showing up on my phone like a 488 00:28:49,480 --> 00:28:52,440 Speaker 1: few hours after we talked of him and Gig together 489 00:28:53,120 --> 00:28:56,719 Speaker 1: and I've even talked to him about Gigi following him 490 00:28:56,760 --> 00:28:58,960 Speaker 1: And was like, oh, man, like that's really cool, like 491 00:28:59,520 --> 00:29:03,880 Speaker 1: you know, talking about it like and that that really 492 00:29:03,960 --> 00:29:08,320 Speaker 1: that hurt me truly so bad. I just felt like, 493 00:29:08,360 --> 00:29:10,080 Speaker 1: what's going on. I didn't know what was going on 494 00:29:10,400 --> 00:29:12,880 Speaker 1: and he didn't call me. And then the next morning 495 00:29:12,920 --> 00:29:14,920 Speaker 1: I had to get ready and I was going in 496 00:29:15,800 --> 00:29:19,040 Speaker 1: to the fire of press because everything came out, and 497 00:29:19,080 --> 00:29:22,320 Speaker 1: I was so confused because like a few hours before, 498 00:29:22,400 --> 00:29:26,400 Speaker 1: we were talking about, you know, going on trips together, 499 00:29:26,480 --> 00:29:28,640 Speaker 1: like my mom coming to Florida to meet his mom, 500 00:29:28,720 --> 00:29:34,880 Speaker 1: like all these things, and uh, yeah, so we had 501 00:29:35,360 --> 00:29:37,760 Speaker 1: a conversation on phone. It did not end well. I 502 00:29:37,800 --> 00:29:42,320 Speaker 1: was really upset he didn't. I don't think understand what 503 00:29:42,680 --> 00:29:45,240 Speaker 1: that felt like for me at that time to have 504 00:29:45,400 --> 00:29:48,960 Speaker 1: to go in and now talk about this again. I 505 00:29:49,000 --> 00:29:52,520 Speaker 1: just felt really embarrassed and her, and then we didn't 506 00:29:52,560 --> 00:29:56,719 Speaker 1: talk for a while, like we were over it. Do 507 00:29:56,760 --> 00:30:01,640 Speaker 1: you think that subconsciously he did that to you almost 508 00:30:01,720 --> 00:30:05,080 Speaker 1: as revenge because you did it to him effectively you 509 00:30:05,200 --> 00:30:09,120 Speaker 1: chose some other person, um and kind of like ripped 510 00:30:09,320 --> 00:30:12,160 Speaker 1: ripped his heart out. Do you think that subconscious head 511 00:30:12,240 --> 00:30:16,240 Speaker 1: that Um, yeah, we kind of talked about that before. 512 00:30:16,320 --> 00:30:18,520 Speaker 1: I think a little. But also like if I had 513 00:30:18,520 --> 00:30:24,480 Speaker 1: the opportunity to j g Aded, i'd probably date her too. Um, 514 00:30:24,560 --> 00:30:29,200 Speaker 1: But yeah, I think he wanted his opportunity to date. 515 00:30:29,320 --> 00:30:30,840 Speaker 1: But at this I think just the way that it 516 00:30:31,560 --> 00:30:38,840 Speaker 1: was handled felt really disrespectful, and um, yeah, I think 517 00:30:39,240 --> 00:30:43,360 Speaker 1: I think, yeah, I definitely understood, but I think I 518 00:30:43,440 --> 00:30:46,280 Speaker 1: needed some communication of like what is going on, because 519 00:30:46,400 --> 00:30:49,840 Speaker 1: I mean, I will ask every question. I obviously can 520 00:30:49,840 --> 00:30:51,840 Speaker 1: talk to Brick while like I can talk and so like, 521 00:30:51,960 --> 00:30:56,040 Speaker 1: I wish you would have told me preparing me a 522 00:30:56,040 --> 00:30:57,840 Speaker 1: little bit, because it's not like he was just staying 523 00:30:57,840 --> 00:31:01,440 Speaker 1: in some random girls Gigi Hadi like of course that's 524 00:31:01,440 --> 00:31:04,200 Speaker 1: gonna come out. Well, yeah, and there's a little bit 525 00:31:04,280 --> 00:31:07,280 Speaker 1: of hey, we got passed last night walking out of 526 00:31:08,040 --> 00:31:11,000 Speaker 1: Beauty and essex or whatever it is, and I know 527 00:31:11,040 --> 00:31:12,560 Speaker 1: this is gonna be coming out, so I better hit 528 00:31:12,600 --> 00:31:16,080 Speaker 1: up Hannah before she sees it, Like yeah, there's a 529 00:31:16,080 --> 00:31:18,760 Speaker 1: little bit of Okay, I gotta go fix this real 530 00:31:18,840 --> 00:31:20,800 Speaker 1: quick because I know it's going to be a thing, 531 00:31:21,360 --> 00:31:25,760 Speaker 1: which makes it a little shadier. Yeah. And then then 532 00:31:25,800 --> 00:31:28,920 Speaker 1: after that, I was like so like, my I was 533 00:31:29,000 --> 00:31:32,800 Speaker 1: so heartbroken, and I but I dried my tears and 534 00:31:32,840 --> 00:31:34,720 Speaker 1: I like had to put on the space of being 535 00:31:34,800 --> 00:31:39,120 Speaker 1: like this strong, independent woman because that was just what 536 00:31:39,240 --> 00:31:42,360 Speaker 1: I felt like I was positioned to be at that point. 537 00:31:42,480 --> 00:31:46,400 Speaker 1: And then I was like I'm winning this, dang miraball 538 00:31:46,640 --> 00:31:49,400 Speaker 1: like I just really focused on the at because I 539 00:31:49,480 --> 00:31:52,080 Speaker 1: was like I need to win. And I think he 540 00:31:52,160 --> 00:31:54,400 Speaker 1: like messaged me once for my birthday and I was 541 00:31:54,440 --> 00:31:58,040 Speaker 1: just like thanks. And then we saw each other once 542 00:31:58,280 --> 00:32:01,040 Speaker 1: at the People's Choice of War and he like came 543 00:32:01,120 --> 00:32:02,880 Speaker 1: up to me, and I'll be honest, I was not 544 00:32:03,000 --> 00:32:04,520 Speaker 1: very nice, Like he tried to talk to me and 545 00:32:04,560 --> 00:32:07,320 Speaker 1: I was like we are not cool, and I'm like 546 00:32:07,520 --> 00:32:09,720 Speaker 1: we're not cool, Like I do not want to talk 547 00:32:09,920 --> 00:32:14,880 Speaker 1: like talk to you. But then when I saw his 548 00:32:15,480 --> 00:32:18,640 Speaker 1: mom and I talked all the time like she would 549 00:32:18,760 --> 00:32:21,440 Speaker 1: she really was like a Team Tanna fan and would 550 00:32:21,480 --> 00:32:24,440 Speaker 1: like send me like have you are you guys talking yet? 551 00:32:24,640 --> 00:32:27,760 Speaker 1: Like send nice things he said about me, and we 552 00:32:27,880 --> 00:32:32,760 Speaker 1: just kept a relationship and she I loved her so much. 553 00:32:33,040 --> 00:32:37,520 Speaker 1: And um when I saw because I got tagged and 554 00:32:37,680 --> 00:32:40,880 Speaker 1: literally everything he ever did that he posted them about 555 00:32:40,920 --> 00:32:42,600 Speaker 1: his mom and I had just talked to her two 556 00:32:42,680 --> 00:32:48,480 Speaker 1: days before, I was like, what's going on? Like and 557 00:32:48,560 --> 00:32:50,120 Speaker 1: at that point, I was like I just want to 558 00:32:50,120 --> 00:32:52,040 Speaker 1: reach out and like this is the time that I 559 00:32:52,080 --> 00:32:54,560 Speaker 1: want to just be like hey, like praying for you, 560 00:32:56,280 --> 00:33:00,400 Speaker 1: and then like he message me. It was like I 561 00:33:00,440 --> 00:33:03,320 Speaker 1: was literally just holding my mom's hand, like she loved you. 562 00:33:04,200 --> 00:33:06,240 Speaker 1: And I was like, why is he using past hints 563 00:33:06,640 --> 00:33:09,440 Speaker 1: and he was like, I was thinking about you, like 564 00:33:09,480 --> 00:33:11,520 Speaker 1: she loved you so much, and I'm like what. And 565 00:33:11,600 --> 00:33:14,000 Speaker 1: after that, like it was like everything else just like 566 00:33:14,840 --> 00:33:19,200 Speaker 1: took a seat and like took a back seat, and um, 567 00:33:19,240 --> 00:33:21,200 Speaker 1: I was able to like we we talked. He was like, 568 00:33:21,200 --> 00:33:22,640 Speaker 1: I would really love to get on the phone and 569 00:33:22,680 --> 00:33:24,640 Speaker 1: just like put everything behind us. And we did. We 570 00:33:24,760 --> 00:33:28,240 Speaker 1: really he apologized. We were able to talk to each other. 571 00:33:28,840 --> 00:33:33,760 Speaker 1: Like a day later, my brother had an overdose, and um, 572 00:33:33,800 --> 00:33:36,360 Speaker 1: I had somebody to talk to with that, and he 573 00:33:36,400 --> 00:33:38,600 Speaker 1: was he was there for me and I I don't 574 00:33:38,640 --> 00:33:40,320 Speaker 1: think this is a good thing, but I think we 575 00:33:40,760 --> 00:33:44,160 Speaker 1: formed a trauma bond where we were both going through 576 00:33:44,240 --> 00:33:49,280 Speaker 1: something really traumatic and hard at the same time, and 577 00:33:49,280 --> 00:33:52,320 Speaker 1: so we could be there for each other. And I 578 00:33:52,360 --> 00:33:57,160 Speaker 1: went down to Florida and during the funeral and everything, 579 00:33:57,200 --> 00:34:00,320 Speaker 1: like I was there with him, Like he he made 580 00:34:00,320 --> 00:34:02,960 Speaker 1: sure I had somewhere to stay. He stayed with me. 581 00:34:04,080 --> 00:34:09,080 Speaker 1: Um we you know, I met all his friends, I 582 00:34:09,160 --> 00:34:11,800 Speaker 1: was at everything. He really wanted me to be there 583 00:34:12,000 --> 00:34:15,600 Speaker 1: and I was so thankful. And I remember being like wow, 584 00:34:15,640 --> 00:34:19,880 Speaker 1: like I really care about this dude, like this guy, 585 00:34:20,280 --> 00:34:23,120 Speaker 1: and and telling him and him still saying he cared 586 00:34:23,120 --> 00:34:24,839 Speaker 1: about me, but I also knowing he was in this 587 00:34:24,920 --> 00:34:32,360 Speaker 1: like really um like terrible situation with like losing his 588 00:34:32,440 --> 00:34:34,040 Speaker 1: mom and like having to be there for his family. 589 00:34:34,040 --> 00:34:37,800 Speaker 1: So I was not pushing anything, but it was obvious 590 00:34:37,880 --> 00:34:40,960 Speaker 1: there was still like something there. And then he invited 591 00:34:41,000 --> 00:34:43,759 Speaker 1: me back down. This is before I knew what quarantine was, 592 00:34:43,800 --> 00:34:46,600 Speaker 1: and I wanted to get away from my trauma, which 593 00:34:46,640 --> 00:34:51,960 Speaker 1: was my brother was a drug abuser and I had 594 00:34:52,040 --> 00:34:55,719 Speaker 1: three times the more fat and I'll be like kill 595 00:34:55,760 --> 00:34:59,719 Speaker 1: a person. And it was a long time. He had 596 00:34:59,760 --> 00:35:01,360 Speaker 1: been struggling for a while and it was kind of 597 00:35:01,360 --> 00:35:05,120 Speaker 1: like a little secret our family had, and I was 598 00:35:05,160 --> 00:35:07,360 Speaker 1: the person that was able to pay for him to 599 00:35:07,400 --> 00:35:12,479 Speaker 1: go to a rehab center, and I like came back 600 00:35:12,480 --> 00:35:15,080 Speaker 1: for that and like wished him well, and then I 601 00:35:15,160 --> 00:35:16,839 Speaker 1: just wanted to be away because my family was like 602 00:35:17,160 --> 00:35:21,320 Speaker 1: just so upset because I mean, he died and it 603 00:35:21,400 --> 00:35:24,360 Speaker 1: came back to life like it was it was. It 604 00:35:24,440 --> 00:35:28,560 Speaker 1: was traumatizing, and so I left mind my trauma to 605 00:35:28,600 --> 00:35:35,239 Speaker 1: go to his. And that was a really like I'll 606 00:35:35,239 --> 00:35:39,000 Speaker 1: just say, like that was a hard time to have 607 00:35:39,040 --> 00:35:41,319 Speaker 1: any type of relationship. But I don't think it was 608 00:35:41,400 --> 00:35:46,000 Speaker 1: really helpful for us because I'm I'm in a place 609 00:35:46,080 --> 00:35:48,120 Speaker 1: like I'm not my home territory. I only know people 610 00:35:48,160 --> 00:35:51,000 Speaker 1: that are his friends. I'm like staying with his family members, 611 00:35:51,120 --> 00:35:55,160 Speaker 1: you know, like I'm staying in his bed with him. 612 00:35:55,160 --> 00:35:59,040 Speaker 1: Like there's feelings there, but some days like he just 613 00:35:59,080 --> 00:36:01,000 Speaker 1: didn't want to deal with it. But I'm like there, 614 00:36:01,400 --> 00:36:04,000 Speaker 1: like what do I do? Did he want you there? 615 00:36:04,040 --> 00:36:06,000 Speaker 1: Like I know that you got stuck because of COVID, 616 00:36:06,040 --> 00:36:09,840 Speaker 1: but did he want you to stay? Were you like 617 00:36:09,840 --> 00:36:13,960 Speaker 1: like almost like a like a comfort for him, like 618 00:36:14,520 --> 00:36:18,239 Speaker 1: some sort of pacifier. I think so at some points. Yeah, 619 00:36:18,480 --> 00:36:20,879 Speaker 1: I think there were sometimes like he wanted like we 620 00:36:20,880 --> 00:36:24,400 Speaker 1: were over each other, like you know, we would literally 621 00:36:24,400 --> 00:36:26,640 Speaker 1: not talk for like a day to each other. It 622 00:36:26,719 --> 00:36:30,040 Speaker 1: was in a in a small house, But um, yeah, 623 00:36:30,080 --> 00:36:31,799 Speaker 1: I think I was, Like I said, I think there 624 00:36:31,840 --> 00:36:34,920 Speaker 1: was a trauma bond there that like I was like 625 00:36:36,160 --> 00:36:39,240 Speaker 1: literally a figured to be like his comforter or his blanket, 626 00:36:39,360 --> 00:36:42,560 Speaker 1: like just somebody to be there. But for somebody who 627 00:36:42,640 --> 00:36:46,600 Speaker 1: has emotions and like feelings for somebody it was it 628 00:36:46,640 --> 00:36:49,120 Speaker 1: would really toy with my head. And of course I 629 00:36:49,160 --> 00:36:50,959 Speaker 1: did want to be like what am I doing here? 630 00:36:51,120 --> 00:36:53,839 Speaker 1: And he did not want to talk about it, and 631 00:36:53,960 --> 00:36:56,040 Speaker 1: that was really hard and it calls a lot of friction, 632 00:36:56,280 --> 00:37:00,000 Speaker 1: and um then it like really messed with my head 633 00:37:00,000 --> 00:37:02,319 Speaker 1: because and I'm like, why this guy who said he 634 00:37:02,360 --> 00:37:06,080 Speaker 1: loved me and you know, we haven't been intimate, like 635 00:37:06,160 --> 00:37:08,279 Speaker 1: he he hasn't even tried to make a move on me. 636 00:37:08,320 --> 00:37:10,120 Speaker 1: And then I'm like, oh my gosh, what's wrong with me? 637 00:37:10,239 --> 00:37:11,759 Speaker 1: You know? And then I go into what every girl 638 00:37:11,840 --> 00:37:14,319 Speaker 1: goes into and not that I don't think he meant 639 00:37:14,360 --> 00:37:17,040 Speaker 1: that at all, but like it just caused some insecurities 640 00:37:17,040 --> 00:37:20,600 Speaker 1: to come up. Um. But like in all that, like 641 00:37:22,200 --> 00:37:26,120 Speaker 1: I think, like I don't I'm not trying to say 642 00:37:26,160 --> 00:37:27,880 Speaker 1: anything bad about him. I think he could have handled 643 00:37:27,880 --> 00:37:30,280 Speaker 1: a lot of things differently. And then like even after 644 00:37:30,320 --> 00:37:33,120 Speaker 1: the fact of like him being like we're still like 645 00:37:33,160 --> 00:37:34,680 Speaker 1: I just let's just figure it out. I'm like, what 646 00:37:34,719 --> 00:37:36,920 Speaker 1: does figure it out mean? You know? What does what 647 00:37:36,960 --> 00:37:40,000 Speaker 1: does that mean? Because figuring out gives me hope? And 648 00:37:40,040 --> 00:37:43,040 Speaker 1: I don't want to have like hope if like you 649 00:37:43,080 --> 00:37:47,239 Speaker 1: don't want to be with me, and like are we 650 00:37:47,360 --> 00:37:49,080 Speaker 1: do you just want to be friends and he's like, 651 00:37:49,520 --> 00:37:51,319 Speaker 1: I want to be friends and like see where it goes. 652 00:37:51,360 --> 00:37:54,040 Speaker 1: And I'm like, you can't say that. Don't say where 653 00:37:54,040 --> 00:37:57,200 Speaker 1: it goes because I don't know how to hand like, 654 00:37:57,239 --> 00:37:59,520 Speaker 1: I don't know what to do with that. So we 655 00:37:59,680 --> 00:38:04,120 Speaker 1: just had a lot of like, yeah, there was just 656 00:38:04,280 --> 00:38:08,320 Speaker 1: a lot that happened, and um, ultimately, I just don't 657 00:38:08,360 --> 00:38:11,640 Speaker 1: think that timing ever worked out for us and if 658 00:38:11,680 --> 00:38:13,960 Speaker 1: we are really what each other wants, but we have 659 00:38:14,560 --> 00:38:16,960 Speaker 1: such we you know, we just had a connection because 660 00:38:16,960 --> 00:38:20,160 Speaker 1: of everything we've been through. Well, listen, I feel like 661 00:38:20,360 --> 00:38:24,920 Speaker 1: I could do like three more hours with you on this, Um, 662 00:38:24,920 --> 00:38:29,239 Speaker 1: But I guess that's a good cliffhanger for everyone out 663 00:38:29,280 --> 00:38:30,759 Speaker 1: there listening. If you want to hear the rest of 664 00:38:30,800 --> 00:38:34,600 Speaker 1: the story, go by Hannah's new book, God Bless This Mess, 665 00:38:34,640 --> 00:38:38,200 Speaker 1: Learning to Live and Love through Life's and through life's 666 00:38:38,239 --> 00:38:41,480 Speaker 1: best and worst moments. It's out now. Um, do you 667 00:38:41,520 --> 00:38:44,200 Speaker 1: do the audio book? Are you inaudible? I did do 668 00:38:44,280 --> 00:38:50,560 Speaker 1: the audio. Yes, I feel like a sound an accent. Well, hey, listen, UM, 669 00:38:50,600 --> 00:38:54,360 Speaker 1: it's good to see you. Congratulations on on releasing this book. 670 00:38:54,560 --> 00:38:57,320 Speaker 1: I know it's not easy to to write a book, 671 00:38:57,480 --> 00:39:00,640 Speaker 1: let alone write a book about your life. Let alone 672 00:39:00,719 --> 00:39:03,680 Speaker 1: write a book about your life, which you know has 673 00:39:03,719 --> 00:39:07,080 Speaker 1: a lot of ups and downs, which I'm sure was difficult. 674 00:39:07,160 --> 00:39:10,480 Speaker 1: So I applaud you for your bravery in doing that. 675 00:39:10,600 --> 00:39:12,279 Speaker 1: I imagine this is going to help a lot of 676 00:39:12,320 --> 00:39:15,480 Speaker 1: girls out there who are going through not the same thing, 677 00:39:15,520 --> 00:39:18,919 Speaker 1: but similar things with boys and stuff. So, UM, you rock, 678 00:39:18,960 --> 00:39:20,840 Speaker 1: and it's always wonderful to talk to you. You're the 679 00:39:20,840 --> 00:39:23,120 Speaker 1: best interview ever you can. Literally, I can ask you 680 00:39:23,160 --> 00:39:25,360 Speaker 1: one question, you'll go for forty five minutes. I know 681 00:39:27,200 --> 00:39:29,239 Speaker 1: it's bad. I'm definitely long winded, but I'll give you 682 00:39:29,280 --> 00:39:33,120 Speaker 1: all the information. Is there anything else you want to 683 00:39:33,160 --> 00:39:36,920 Speaker 1: promote while you're here? Um, yeah, I'm gonna be doing 684 00:39:37,040 --> 00:39:40,040 Speaker 1: some uh if you're in the Los Angeles area on 685 00:39:40,120 --> 00:39:44,600 Speaker 1: December four, I'm going to have a UM live show. UM. 686 00:39:44,640 --> 00:39:47,359 Speaker 1: Tonny rad is going to be my moderator. We're gonna 687 00:39:47,360 --> 00:39:49,960 Speaker 1: talk about the book and UM it'll be a good time. 688 00:39:50,120 --> 00:39:53,160 Speaker 1: It's December four at the Hollywood Improv. You can get 689 00:39:53,200 --> 00:39:56,760 Speaker 1: tickets on my link tree in my bio at Hannah 690 00:39:56,800 --> 00:40:00,759 Speaker 1: Brown on Instagram And if you're in Alabama, I'll be 691 00:40:01,760 --> 00:40:05,200 Speaker 1: UM doing some book signings at local Barnes and Nobles 692 00:40:05,200 --> 00:40:07,239 Speaker 1: and books A millions to check that out, but it'll 693 00:40:07,280 --> 00:40:12,920 Speaker 1: all be on my Instagram for any information. Well, thanks again, Hannah. 694 00:40:12,960 --> 00:40:14,840 Speaker 1: And also we didn't even get to talk about it, 695 00:40:14,840 --> 00:40:17,160 Speaker 1: and I feel bad, but shout out to your current 696 00:40:17,200 --> 00:40:20,919 Speaker 1: boyfriend Adam, who's I'm sure having to uh wait through 697 00:40:20,960 --> 00:40:23,880 Speaker 1: a lot of crap right now, So shout out to 698 00:40:23,960 --> 00:40:27,080 Speaker 1: him for being a good man and having to uh 699 00:40:27,360 --> 00:40:29,319 Speaker 1: kind of deal with this right now. Hannah, thank you 700 00:40:29,360 --> 00:40:31,839 Speaker 1: so much. It's wonderful talking with you, and I hope 701 00:40:31,880 --> 00:40:36,880 Speaker 1: to see again soon, maybe at the next Golden Clube. Yes, maybe, 702 00:40:36,960 --> 00:40:39,920 Speaker 1: all right, see you. 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