1 00:00:00,200 --> 00:00:03,159 Speaker 1: Welcome to Can't Fully Reckless, the production of iHeart Radio 2 00:00:03,279 --> 00:00:04,080 Speaker 1: and the Black Effect. 3 00:00:15,840 --> 00:00:16,960 Speaker 2: Oh shit, we on the air. 4 00:00:17,040 --> 00:00:19,479 Speaker 1: Welcome back to get another carefully reckless episode with your 5 00:00:19,480 --> 00:00:23,600 Speaker 1: girl ess hilarious. Guess what you're so Last Friday at work, 6 00:00:23,600 --> 00:00:25,640 Speaker 1: I felt my baby cack for the first time, and 7 00:00:25,680 --> 00:00:28,720 Speaker 1: I was so so, so, so fucking happy. At first, 8 00:00:28,840 --> 00:00:30,080 Speaker 1: you know, I thought it was just, you know, I 9 00:00:30,080 --> 00:00:32,160 Speaker 1: had a little gas or something like that, just moving 10 00:00:32,200 --> 00:00:34,560 Speaker 1: around on my stomach. But I'm like, oh no, no, 11 00:00:35,000 --> 00:00:37,919 Speaker 1: this is really the baby. And y'all can refer to 12 00:00:38,040 --> 00:00:41,800 Speaker 1: my page. I put it video on Instagram, like because 13 00:00:41,800 --> 00:00:44,519 Speaker 1: they caught my reaction here at work and for her 14 00:00:44,600 --> 00:00:46,559 Speaker 1: to kick me. And mind you, I keep saying her 15 00:00:46,680 --> 00:00:48,319 Speaker 1: because that's what I'm wishing for it, that's what I'm 16 00:00:48,320 --> 00:00:50,920 Speaker 1: hoping for. I'm saying her, That's what I'm manifesting my 17 00:00:50,960 --> 00:00:53,120 Speaker 1: girl yet. But I have not found out the gender 18 00:00:53,159 --> 00:00:56,560 Speaker 1: of the baby yet, right, but I felt her kick 19 00:00:56,720 --> 00:00:59,720 Speaker 1: for the first time, and it's just amazing that they 20 00:00:59,800 --> 00:01:02,920 Speaker 1: call that on air, right, Like, oh my god, I 21 00:01:02,960 --> 00:01:06,000 Speaker 1: was so happy. I didn't know whether to screamshout, call 22 00:01:06,080 --> 00:01:09,080 Speaker 1: my man, call my mom, call my sister. I was 23 00:01:09,200 --> 00:01:12,160 Speaker 1: just so fucking happy now. I put the video up, 24 00:01:12,160 --> 00:01:13,959 Speaker 1: and of course I go through my own comments, and 25 00:01:14,000 --> 00:01:16,880 Speaker 1: I seen people in the comments like she had like 26 00:01:16,920 --> 00:01:19,920 Speaker 1: Shane never had a baby before, Like, and I'm blocking y'all, 27 00:01:20,000 --> 00:01:22,920 Speaker 1: Yes I am, Yeah, I'm blocking y'all because what the 28 00:01:22,959 --> 00:01:24,400 Speaker 1: fuck bitch? 29 00:01:24,959 --> 00:01:25,880 Speaker 2: I was nineteen. 30 00:01:26,480 --> 00:01:30,280 Speaker 1: First of all, I don't even fucking remember like the 31 00:01:30,319 --> 00:01:34,520 Speaker 1: specifics of my pregnancy. I remember me finding out at 32 00:01:34,600 --> 00:01:37,679 Speaker 1: four months that I was pregnant. After that, I was 33 00:01:37,760 --> 00:01:40,160 Speaker 1: just scared because, you know, I was like, oh my god, 34 00:01:40,160 --> 00:01:41,600 Speaker 1: I don't know what my mom gonna think. It was 35 00:01:41,640 --> 00:01:44,840 Speaker 1: so much going through my fucking mind, Like a lot 36 00:01:44,840 --> 00:01:47,080 Speaker 1: of things going through my fucking mind as a young 37 00:01:47,240 --> 00:01:50,920 Speaker 1: mom soon to be mom, like don't fucking play with me, 38 00:01:51,000 --> 00:01:54,600 Speaker 1: because y'all don't fucking know men. And not to mention, 39 00:01:54,720 --> 00:01:57,320 Speaker 1: I was a fucking kid, I you know, I was. 40 00:01:57,400 --> 00:02:00,600 Speaker 1: I was legal eighteen, but I wasn't adult. I was 41 00:02:00,600 --> 00:02:03,360 Speaker 1: still living in my mother's house, you know, me and Rome, 42 00:02:03,440 --> 00:02:04,080 Speaker 1: we were young. 43 00:02:04,280 --> 00:02:07,040 Speaker 2: I wasn't. I wasn't really in tune with my own 44 00:02:07,080 --> 00:02:07,760 Speaker 2: body like that. 45 00:02:08,360 --> 00:02:10,880 Speaker 1: So No, I don't remember the first time I felt 46 00:02:10,880 --> 00:02:12,440 Speaker 1: Ashton kick when he was in my stomach. 47 00:02:12,639 --> 00:02:13,240 Speaker 2: No, I don't. 48 00:02:13,360 --> 00:02:16,239 Speaker 1: I didn't really fully embrace my pregnancy because I was 49 00:02:16,280 --> 00:02:18,440 Speaker 1: scared for my fucking parents to find out I didn't. 50 00:02:18,480 --> 00:02:20,359 Speaker 1: I mean, I never wanted an abortion, and then by 51 00:02:20,440 --> 00:02:22,239 Speaker 1: then I think it was too late for me to 52 00:02:22,280 --> 00:02:24,440 Speaker 1: get one anyway, if I had even thought about going 53 00:02:24,440 --> 00:02:25,640 Speaker 1: that route, which I never did. 54 00:02:25,919 --> 00:02:27,920 Speaker 2: You know, Thank God for my son today. 55 00:02:28,320 --> 00:02:31,960 Speaker 1: But bitch, y'all don't know me, so stop playing with me, okay, 56 00:02:32,040 --> 00:02:33,640 Speaker 1: and I and it's been a long time since I 57 00:02:33,680 --> 00:02:36,280 Speaker 1: called people some bitches. You know what I'm saying. But 58 00:02:36,680 --> 00:02:38,680 Speaker 1: that's why y'all getting blocked. So I know a lot 59 00:02:38,680 --> 00:02:41,200 Speaker 1: of people that I do block and that I have blocked. 60 00:02:41,200 --> 00:02:43,160 Speaker 1: They reached out to me on my other pages, like 61 00:02:43,160 --> 00:02:44,519 Speaker 1: why did you block me? 62 00:02:45,160 --> 00:02:47,160 Speaker 2: Because your ass sitting up there. 63 00:02:48,080 --> 00:02:50,079 Speaker 1: So then y'all be rude and nasty with it talking 64 00:02:50,120 --> 00:02:52,160 Speaker 1: about she really would set up be in a egg 65 00:02:52,240 --> 00:02:55,400 Speaker 1: like she ain't never fill a baby kick before. Bitch, No, 66 00:02:56,160 --> 00:02:58,200 Speaker 1: I didn't say I didn't fill a baby kick before. 67 00:02:58,720 --> 00:03:02,119 Speaker 1: I said, I don't remember the first time my son 68 00:03:02,240 --> 00:03:03,840 Speaker 1: kicked when I was pregnant with him. 69 00:03:03,880 --> 00:03:04,679 Speaker 2: I don't. 70 00:03:04,880 --> 00:03:07,160 Speaker 1: But this is what I'm looking for with this pregnancy. 71 00:03:07,240 --> 00:03:11,040 Speaker 1: This pregnancy is different. It's twelve years later, dumbass, and 72 00:03:11,320 --> 00:03:14,600 Speaker 1: now this is a planned baby, and it's a planned 73 00:03:14,639 --> 00:03:18,200 Speaker 1: baby with the man of my dreams, the man, the 74 00:03:18,200 --> 00:03:21,079 Speaker 1: love of my life, like my best friend, my man, 75 00:03:21,200 --> 00:03:23,680 Speaker 1: my boyfriend, my soon to be fucking husband. 76 00:03:23,680 --> 00:03:24,840 Speaker 2: Like this is different. 77 00:03:24,880 --> 00:03:26,920 Speaker 1: I'm very much in a different space than I was 78 00:03:27,240 --> 00:03:29,359 Speaker 1: eleven twelve years ago, when I was nineteen, just out 79 00:03:29,400 --> 00:03:30,200 Speaker 1: here doing my thang. 80 00:03:30,400 --> 00:03:31,160 Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying. 81 00:03:31,480 --> 00:03:33,880 Speaker 1: So give me some of my fucking grace and I can 82 00:03:33,919 --> 00:03:37,080 Speaker 1: be happy about my baby. She my son is my son. 83 00:03:37,240 --> 00:03:39,600 Speaker 1: Was like, you felt her kick and she ain't kick 84 00:03:39,680 --> 00:03:43,040 Speaker 1: for me. I was like, ah, she gonna kick way, way, 85 00:03:43,040 --> 00:03:44,760 Speaker 1: way more when I get a little bit bigger. You 86 00:03:44,800 --> 00:03:46,320 Speaker 1: wanna say, that's why I need to be in Jersey 87 00:03:46,320 --> 00:03:48,080 Speaker 1: with you, because I need to know when she kicking. 88 00:03:48,720 --> 00:03:51,200 Speaker 1: I love my son, but yeah, don't play with me, y'all. 89 00:03:51,600 --> 00:03:53,360 Speaker 1: I'm just laying y'all know, don't play with me, and 90 00:03:53,400 --> 00:03:55,560 Speaker 1: y'all won't get blocked because y'all think I like blocking. 91 00:03:55,640 --> 00:03:55,920 Speaker 2: Y'all. 92 00:03:56,360 --> 00:03:59,160 Speaker 1: Y'all think I like that shit, especially when you know 93 00:03:59,800 --> 00:04:02,680 Speaker 1: YA really going against me. But y'all definitely sitting fucking air. 94 00:04:02,800 --> 00:04:06,680 Speaker 1: Y'all sitting there playing and shit like, don't play with me. Yeah, 95 00:04:06,720 --> 00:04:09,920 Speaker 1: and I'm emotional too, so I'm definitely bit blocking your 96 00:04:09,960 --> 00:04:11,920 Speaker 1: ways if I feel like you're playing with me. So 97 00:04:12,960 --> 00:04:15,200 Speaker 1: now let's get into it. We have a story that 98 00:04:15,320 --> 00:04:18,080 Speaker 1: somebody's hyped and they want me to fix their mess. 99 00:04:18,320 --> 00:04:20,680 Speaker 3: Hey, Jess, So I'm a lesbian, but I have yet 100 00:04:20,720 --> 00:04:23,400 Speaker 3: to come out yet. My family is very homophobic, so 101 00:04:23,440 --> 00:04:24,440 Speaker 3: it makes it even harder. 102 00:04:24,760 --> 00:04:26,400 Speaker 2: I've been talking to this girl and. 103 00:04:26,400 --> 00:04:28,880 Speaker 3: Have been though key hiding it because I'm around my 104 00:04:28,960 --> 00:04:31,640 Speaker 3: family all the time and i know they would question 105 00:04:31,760 --> 00:04:33,560 Speaker 3: me about it, and it's putting me in a deep 106 00:04:33,600 --> 00:04:36,720 Speaker 3: depression because I want to be able to tell my family, 107 00:04:36,920 --> 00:04:38,839 Speaker 3: but I don't want them to judge me or treat 108 00:04:38,839 --> 00:04:40,960 Speaker 3: me any different. I am still the same O me, 109 00:04:41,240 --> 00:04:43,440 Speaker 3: but I want to freely be a me. I feel 110 00:04:43,440 --> 00:04:46,080 Speaker 3: what's really holding me back is that sometimes my family 111 00:04:46,120 --> 00:04:49,320 Speaker 3: can make some pretty homophobic comments. And sometimes it isn't 112 00:04:49,320 --> 00:04:51,719 Speaker 3: a joking matter, but I don't find it very funny. 113 00:04:51,760 --> 00:04:55,000 Speaker 3: At times, I would literally fake a smile and walk away, 114 00:04:55,320 --> 00:04:57,839 Speaker 3: but it literally kills me and bother me so much 115 00:04:57,880 --> 00:05:00,440 Speaker 3: that they play around with it like that. Mom is 116 00:05:00,480 --> 00:05:02,760 Speaker 3: like my best best friend, but it's that she's the 117 00:05:02,760 --> 00:05:04,640 Speaker 3: main one to do it, so it's like a and 118 00:05:04,680 --> 00:05:06,560 Speaker 3: it makes me mad at her. I want to be 119 00:05:06,600 --> 00:05:09,040 Speaker 3: able to sit down with my family and tell them 120 00:05:09,040 --> 00:05:11,279 Speaker 3: that I am a lesbian and that there is someone 121 00:05:11,360 --> 00:05:14,239 Speaker 3: because I honestly do see myself getting somewhere with this girl, 122 00:05:14,279 --> 00:05:16,760 Speaker 3: and I can even say I'm growing to love her. 123 00:05:17,040 --> 00:05:19,280 Speaker 3: So of course I would want my family to know 124 00:05:19,320 --> 00:05:22,200 Speaker 3: about this. But if my family doesn't take it how 125 00:05:22,240 --> 00:05:25,000 Speaker 3: I expect or doesn't accept me, I know it would 126 00:05:25,000 --> 00:05:27,440 Speaker 3: definitely crush me. But I will not change who I 127 00:05:27,480 --> 00:05:28,320 Speaker 3: am to please them. 128 00:05:29,000 --> 00:05:33,200 Speaker 2: Wow. So okay, I definitely do understand. 129 00:05:33,600 --> 00:05:38,000 Speaker 1: I can empathize with you because I have a little 130 00:05:38,040 --> 00:05:42,960 Speaker 1: sister and I'm not sure if she's bisexual or just homosexual, but. 131 00:05:44,560 --> 00:05:46,400 Speaker 2: I do know that she's. 132 00:05:46,279 --> 00:05:49,280 Speaker 1: Exploring women, and I know the first time that she's 133 00:05:49,320 --> 00:05:51,839 Speaker 1: come to me and she told me about it, I 134 00:05:51,920 --> 00:05:54,800 Speaker 1: kind of laughed it off because I just wasn't expecting it. 135 00:05:54,880 --> 00:05:56,800 Speaker 2: Not that I was making fun of gaze or anything. 136 00:05:56,800 --> 00:05:58,400 Speaker 1: I know. I know a lot of gays, you know 137 00:05:58,440 --> 00:06:01,880 Speaker 1: what I'm saying, making fun. I am a comedian, but 138 00:06:01,920 --> 00:06:04,000 Speaker 1: before I'm a comedian, I was always just like, that's 139 00:06:04,040 --> 00:06:06,760 Speaker 1: my personality anyway, to always play about everything, even things 140 00:06:06,800 --> 00:06:09,520 Speaker 1: that I go through or things that about myself, you 141 00:06:09,520 --> 00:06:12,800 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. And my sister, I'm not sure 142 00:06:12,839 --> 00:06:14,640 Speaker 1: if she ever thought that I can't come to my 143 00:06:14,680 --> 00:06:16,800 Speaker 1: sister and talk to her and she'd be serious, because 144 00:06:16,880 --> 00:06:19,599 Speaker 1: I do. I make fun of straight people, gay people, 145 00:06:19,920 --> 00:06:22,480 Speaker 1: whoever the fuck you are. I mean, if you talk 146 00:06:22,520 --> 00:06:25,279 Speaker 1: about ABU, I'm you know, I'm gonna play around or whatever. 147 00:06:25,680 --> 00:06:29,000 Speaker 1: But I guess I never took into account how she 148 00:06:29,120 --> 00:06:33,440 Speaker 1: would feel about that until just recently, like maybe a 149 00:06:33,480 --> 00:06:35,719 Speaker 1: month or two ago, she told me she was getting 150 00:06:35,760 --> 00:06:38,200 Speaker 1: serious with this girl. 151 00:06:38,680 --> 00:06:40,560 Speaker 2: And I know the girl, you know what I mean. 152 00:06:40,600 --> 00:06:42,440 Speaker 1: And I've known the girl to be gay for a 153 00:06:42,480 --> 00:06:45,000 Speaker 1: long time, you know, far much longer than my sister. 154 00:06:45,440 --> 00:06:47,880 Speaker 1: And so what I had told my sister is well, 155 00:06:48,120 --> 00:06:49,880 Speaker 1: to be honest with you, No, I didn't take you serious, 156 00:06:49,880 --> 00:06:52,480 Speaker 1: you know, because you were dating guys before. But I 157 00:06:52,520 --> 00:06:56,160 Speaker 1: wanted you to take her serious, or take you know, 158 00:06:57,360 --> 00:06:59,720 Speaker 1: being gay serious if that's what you are, or by 159 00:06:59,760 --> 00:07:03,600 Speaker 1: sc serious, if that's what you are, because for some 160 00:07:03,640 --> 00:07:06,120 Speaker 1: people it's a trend, for others, it's a lifestyle. You 161 00:07:06,120 --> 00:07:09,320 Speaker 1: get what I'm saying, like this is a sexual preference. 162 00:07:09,400 --> 00:07:11,320 Speaker 1: You get what I mean, Like, this is not just 163 00:07:11,320 --> 00:07:13,440 Speaker 1: something you can put on and take off like a costume. 164 00:07:13,600 --> 00:07:14,920 Speaker 2: Like you can't do that. 165 00:07:15,280 --> 00:07:17,280 Speaker 1: So I want you to be serious because people get 166 00:07:17,360 --> 00:07:19,520 Speaker 1: hurt over relationships, and I was letting her know, I 167 00:07:19,600 --> 00:07:22,880 Speaker 1: don't want you to end up hurting this girl. 168 00:07:23,080 --> 00:07:23,360 Speaker 2: You know. 169 00:07:23,680 --> 00:07:25,560 Speaker 1: Not that I cared more about the girl than my feeling, 170 00:07:25,600 --> 00:07:28,160 Speaker 1: I mean, than my sister, but I know the girl 171 00:07:28,240 --> 00:07:30,400 Speaker 1: was serious about her. You know, I could see after 172 00:07:30,840 --> 00:07:33,360 Speaker 1: my sister sharing some things with me, I could see 173 00:07:33,360 --> 00:07:34,000 Speaker 1: the girl was serious. 174 00:07:34,040 --> 00:07:36,840 Speaker 2: And I could see that my sister was getting serious. 175 00:07:36,880 --> 00:07:39,840 Speaker 1: She was getting there, and I just wanted her to 176 00:07:39,960 --> 00:07:43,000 Speaker 1: think and you know, and to take something like this 177 00:07:43,160 --> 00:07:46,920 Speaker 1: serious because, like I said, you don't want to play 178 00:07:46,960 --> 00:07:50,240 Speaker 1: around with gay people. You just don't like, you know, 179 00:07:50,720 --> 00:07:52,360 Speaker 1: just to say, oh, yeah, I fucked the girl before. 180 00:07:52,400 --> 00:07:54,280 Speaker 1: You know what I mean, like you in Layman's terms, 181 00:07:54,280 --> 00:07:55,920 Speaker 1: like that's what it is, because that's what I did 182 00:07:55,920 --> 00:07:57,280 Speaker 1: when I was younger. You get what I'm saying. I 183 00:07:57,400 --> 00:07:59,360 Speaker 1: wasn't really ready to be gay. I was just doing 184 00:07:59,400 --> 00:08:01,960 Speaker 1: it because shit, like I was a track considers one girl. 185 00:08:02,200 --> 00:08:03,720 Speaker 1: So I'm like shit, I'm a fucking around with her. 186 00:08:04,040 --> 00:08:06,000 Speaker 1: And then after she broke my heart, I was like, 187 00:08:06,000 --> 00:08:07,400 Speaker 1: oh no, fuck Dad, like I don't want to do 188 00:08:07,440 --> 00:08:08,920 Speaker 1: it no more. But I was really just trying it 189 00:08:08,960 --> 00:08:10,680 Speaker 1: any way to see what it was about. And that's 190 00:08:10,680 --> 00:08:14,200 Speaker 1: okay to be curious as well, but to lead somebody on, 191 00:08:14,320 --> 00:08:16,320 Speaker 1: I think is what I was trying to tell my sister. 192 00:08:16,400 --> 00:08:19,000 Speaker 1: Don't do like because the girl was serious about her. 193 00:08:19,080 --> 00:08:21,040 Speaker 1: So you know in your situation. That's why I can 194 00:08:21,040 --> 00:08:22,160 Speaker 1: say I can relate to that. 195 00:08:22,440 --> 00:08:23,280 Speaker 2: Hold up, Hold up. 196 00:08:23,240 --> 00:08:25,160 Speaker 1: I know the shit getting good. But listen to just 197 00:08:25,240 --> 00:08:27,240 Speaker 1: a couple seconds of a commercial. If you love me, 198 00:08:27,320 --> 00:08:32,800 Speaker 1: you'll listen. Now as far as your family, was your 199 00:08:32,840 --> 00:08:36,040 Speaker 1: family like that before? You know, like, because if they've 200 00:08:36,080 --> 00:08:38,920 Speaker 1: always been that way, I don't think that it's a 201 00:08:40,280 --> 00:08:42,600 Speaker 1: it's a direct jab to you being gay. 202 00:08:43,120 --> 00:08:43,920 Speaker 2: You get what I'm saying. 203 00:08:44,160 --> 00:08:46,920 Speaker 1: If you got imagine being in the Waynes family and 204 00:08:47,000 --> 00:08:50,560 Speaker 1: you come out with Marlin and Damon, Wayne's and all 205 00:08:50,559 --> 00:08:52,400 Speaker 1: the imagine being in that family and you come out 206 00:08:52,480 --> 00:08:54,520 Speaker 1: them people have always played like that. You can tell 207 00:08:54,520 --> 00:08:57,480 Speaker 1: they're a very tight knit, close family that play about everything. 208 00:08:57,520 --> 00:08:59,719 Speaker 1: They joke on each other for each other's problems and 209 00:08:59,720 --> 00:09:00,280 Speaker 1: shit like that. 210 00:09:00,320 --> 00:09:01,040 Speaker 2: You get what I'm saying. 211 00:09:01,800 --> 00:09:04,160 Speaker 1: Imagine that now is it one of those things or 212 00:09:04,160 --> 00:09:07,080 Speaker 1: do you feel like they personally attack you because you're gay. 213 00:09:07,640 --> 00:09:10,520 Speaker 1: Now that's two different things. You know, you gotta let 214 00:09:10,559 --> 00:09:12,079 Speaker 1: me know. But I think you should actually say, this 215 00:09:12,120 --> 00:09:14,520 Speaker 1: is your family. You know, these ain't just strangers. Sit 216 00:09:14,559 --> 00:09:16,040 Speaker 1: down and talk to them and tell them how that 217 00:09:16,080 --> 00:09:18,959 Speaker 1: makes you feel. Now, they may be able to censor 218 00:09:19,080 --> 00:09:22,840 Speaker 1: sometimes when they feel certain ways, and maybe sometimes you 219 00:09:23,040 --> 00:09:25,079 Speaker 1: still may even get those jokes, bea the butt of 220 00:09:25,160 --> 00:09:27,160 Speaker 1: some of those jokes. You have to learn how to 221 00:09:27,160 --> 00:09:30,199 Speaker 1: be confident within yourself though, you get what I'm saying. 222 00:09:30,400 --> 00:09:34,360 Speaker 1: You got to learn how to like really really not 223 00:09:34,400 --> 00:09:36,240 Speaker 1: gonna say, have tough skin. I mean, but you know 224 00:09:36,280 --> 00:09:38,360 Speaker 1: what comes with being gay, you know what I mean? Like, 225 00:09:38,480 --> 00:09:41,080 Speaker 1: it's so many that came before you that it's so 226 00:09:41,120 --> 00:09:46,240 Speaker 1: many stories that you know, and this goes for gays, trans, bisexual, 227 00:09:46,679 --> 00:09:47,760 Speaker 1: pant sexual. 228 00:09:47,480 --> 00:09:50,000 Speaker 2: Whatever you are other than heterosexual. 229 00:09:50,080 --> 00:09:53,280 Speaker 1: If you know, these are just the struggles and the critique, 230 00:09:53,320 --> 00:09:56,200 Speaker 1: the criticism that comes along with it. And we also 231 00:09:56,240 --> 00:09:59,400 Speaker 1: live in the world today where nobody takes anything serious, 232 00:09:59,480 --> 00:10:02,600 Speaker 1: but they make everything serious. You get what I'm saying, 233 00:10:02,840 --> 00:10:05,679 Speaker 1: And I know that's contradicting, but so is everything else. 234 00:10:05,720 --> 00:10:09,120 Speaker 1: So is this motherfucking world in these times. 235 00:10:09,200 --> 00:10:09,720 Speaker 2: You get me. 236 00:10:10,120 --> 00:10:16,000 Speaker 1: So you just have to prepare yourself for certain backlash, 237 00:10:16,040 --> 00:10:17,959 Speaker 1: whether it be from your family or not, and you 238 00:10:18,080 --> 00:10:21,040 Speaker 1: gotta stand in that shit. Look, I'm gay, I'm a 239 00:10:21,080 --> 00:10:24,320 Speaker 1: homosexual woman. I'm in love with my girlfriend, and yeah, 240 00:10:24,400 --> 00:10:26,319 Speaker 1: we you know what I'm saying, There's so many other 241 00:10:26,360 --> 00:10:28,360 Speaker 1: things to worry about, and it is somebody criticizing you 242 00:10:28,400 --> 00:10:30,880 Speaker 1: for your sexuality. Fuck them people, because they don't have 243 00:10:30,920 --> 00:10:33,120 Speaker 1: to go to sleep with you. They ain't gotta wake 244 00:10:33,200 --> 00:10:34,520 Speaker 1: up to you. They don't know you, they don't know 245 00:10:34,559 --> 00:10:36,520 Speaker 1: what your heart is like, you know what I'm saying. 246 00:10:36,559 --> 00:10:39,000 Speaker 1: They don't know you. You know, some people hear the 247 00:10:39,040 --> 00:10:41,320 Speaker 1: word gay and just bust out laughing just because of 248 00:10:41,400 --> 00:10:44,440 Speaker 1: so many jokes and you know, stigmas that has been 249 00:10:44,480 --> 00:10:46,040 Speaker 1: built around it, you know what I mean. 250 00:10:46,480 --> 00:10:47,240 Speaker 2: Fuck that. 251 00:10:47,240 --> 00:10:48,800 Speaker 1: That's why a lot of people don't even like to 252 00:10:48,800 --> 00:10:51,880 Speaker 1: be classified as gay, a lot of people, you know, 253 00:10:51,960 --> 00:10:54,400 Speaker 1: and in certain states they're trying to even ban the 254 00:10:54,440 --> 00:10:57,520 Speaker 1: fucking word, you know what I mean. But if you 255 00:10:57,600 --> 00:11:00,240 Speaker 1: focus too much on that shit, that shit can brain 256 00:11:00,320 --> 00:11:02,440 Speaker 1: you and take away from your happiness and who you 257 00:11:02,480 --> 00:11:02,920 Speaker 1: really are. 258 00:11:03,559 --> 00:11:04,760 Speaker 2: Fuck that, fuck all that. 259 00:11:05,000 --> 00:11:07,520 Speaker 1: You get what I'm saying, you know, because trust me, 260 00:11:08,080 --> 00:11:10,080 Speaker 1: you ain't the only one going through this. You know, 261 00:11:10,559 --> 00:11:14,040 Speaker 1: but I love a person who still can stand in 262 00:11:14,400 --> 00:11:17,000 Speaker 1: their originality, standing who the fuck they are. 263 00:11:17,320 --> 00:11:19,880 Speaker 2: And I can tell it really really bothers you. 264 00:11:19,920 --> 00:11:22,160 Speaker 1: But sit down and talk to your family, because communication 265 00:11:22,280 --> 00:11:24,960 Speaker 1: is the best thing, especially for families. 266 00:11:25,000 --> 00:11:25,480 Speaker 2: You get me. 267 00:11:26,000 --> 00:11:27,440 Speaker 1: I want you to know that, and I want you 268 00:11:27,480 --> 00:11:31,319 Speaker 1: to update me. And congratulations on you and your new love. Man, 269 00:11:31,360 --> 00:11:33,400 Speaker 1: you're saying you falling in love with her, you know 270 00:11:33,440 --> 00:11:36,200 Speaker 1: you really really care about her and stuff like that. 271 00:11:36,520 --> 00:11:38,440 Speaker 2: Shit like that is hard to find these days. 272 00:11:38,559 --> 00:11:42,480 Speaker 1: You know. Everybody is either superficial, damaged and fucking hurt 273 00:11:42,520 --> 00:11:45,520 Speaker 1: from previous relationships, and before they heal themselves, they trying 274 00:11:45,520 --> 00:11:48,559 Speaker 1: to jump in other relationships and make the new person 275 00:11:48,600 --> 00:11:50,720 Speaker 1: pay for what the old motherfucker put them through and 276 00:11:50,800 --> 00:11:54,000 Speaker 1: all of that. Love is just not easy. Love was 277 00:11:54,040 --> 00:11:58,080 Speaker 1: never easy, but it seemed like it's beyond hard to 278 00:11:58,160 --> 00:11:59,559 Speaker 1: find genuine. 279 00:11:59,080 --> 00:12:00,000 Speaker 2: Love these days. 280 00:12:00,440 --> 00:12:02,280 Speaker 1: So I say, if that's where you're getting it from, 281 00:12:02,520 --> 00:12:04,800 Speaker 1: and you genuinely feeling in your heart that this person 282 00:12:04,880 --> 00:12:07,360 Speaker 1: is for you. Keep on pushing with that, Mama. That's 283 00:12:07,400 --> 00:12:09,600 Speaker 1: all I can say to you. But definitely sit down, 284 00:12:10,040 --> 00:12:12,160 Speaker 1: have a talk with your family moving forward. Let them 285 00:12:12,200 --> 00:12:16,240 Speaker 1: know and then the conversation. Let them know that you 286 00:12:16,360 --> 00:12:18,760 Speaker 1: still love them and you expect for them to love 287 00:12:18,800 --> 00:12:21,680 Speaker 1: you no matter who you bring home, no matter what 288 00:12:21,920 --> 00:12:24,319 Speaker 1: sex you are attracted to you or whatever, you know 289 00:12:24,400 --> 00:12:26,840 Speaker 1: what I mean. Let them know that this is serious 290 00:12:26,880 --> 00:12:28,920 Speaker 1: for you and they hurt your feelings a lot of 291 00:12:29,000 --> 00:12:30,400 Speaker 1: times with a lot of their jokes. 292 00:12:30,440 --> 00:12:31,440 Speaker 2: Now, also let them know. 293 00:12:31,559 --> 00:12:33,640 Speaker 1: I'm not expecting for y'all to get quiet when I 294 00:12:33,679 --> 00:12:36,240 Speaker 1: come around, you know, but just have some respect for 295 00:12:36,320 --> 00:12:40,160 Speaker 1: me in that right, you know, respect me, don't disrespect me. 296 00:12:40,400 --> 00:12:42,199 Speaker 1: I'm cool with a little joke here in there, you know, 297 00:12:42,280 --> 00:12:45,080 Speaker 1: unless you're not. But you can't expect for nobody not 298 00:12:45,080 --> 00:12:46,360 Speaker 1: not to say nothing, you know what I mean. 299 00:12:46,480 --> 00:12:48,280 Speaker 2: Let's just be real and then shit. 300 00:12:48,400 --> 00:12:51,080 Speaker 1: I'm the type I'll start making jokes about they ass. 301 00:12:51,120 --> 00:12:54,120 Speaker 1: Somebody broke, somebody lost their job, somebody can't afford you 302 00:12:54,120 --> 00:12:56,480 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, like shit, start cracking back at 303 00:12:56,520 --> 00:12:57,920 Speaker 1: they ass. If you don't want to sit down and 304 00:12:57,960 --> 00:13:01,839 Speaker 1: talk shit, and then when they want high lanst you like, yo, 305 00:13:01,840 --> 00:13:04,080 Speaker 1: why you say that? The same reason why y'all coming 306 00:13:04,120 --> 00:13:06,520 Speaker 1: at me for my sexuality, the same reason why y'all 307 00:13:06,520 --> 00:13:08,080 Speaker 1: feel like y'all can make jokes like I'm not a 308 00:13:08,120 --> 00:13:09,920 Speaker 1: real person and this is not my real life. 309 00:13:09,960 --> 00:13:10,640 Speaker 2: You get what I'm saying. 310 00:13:10,640 --> 00:13:12,880 Speaker 1: You can either go that route, that mediation where you 311 00:13:12,880 --> 00:13:15,480 Speaker 1: can sit down and talk to them, or you can 312 00:13:15,520 --> 00:13:17,600 Speaker 1: start giving them a taste of their own medicine, and 313 00:13:17,640 --> 00:13:20,720 Speaker 1: then before you know it, somebody ain't gonna be comfortable, 314 00:13:21,120 --> 00:13:22,880 Speaker 1: somebody gonna open them off and say something. 315 00:13:23,000 --> 00:13:25,120 Speaker 2: All right, what's up with you? What's up with me? 316 00:13:25,240 --> 00:13:28,559 Speaker 1: Is I'm fucking gay, and y'all keep on shooting at 317 00:13:28,559 --> 00:13:31,560 Speaker 1: me with these fucking jokes. But you ain't had a 318 00:13:31,640 --> 00:13:34,640 Speaker 1: job since, you know, three years ago. You know what 319 00:13:34,679 --> 00:13:35,160 Speaker 1: I'm saying. 320 00:13:35,760 --> 00:13:38,920 Speaker 2: You ain't been able to afford your groceries for three years. Now. 321 00:13:39,200 --> 00:13:42,360 Speaker 2: You got five different baby daddies. You know what I'm saying. 322 00:13:42,360 --> 00:13:44,640 Speaker 1: That's why I'm gay, because I don't want five different 323 00:13:44,679 --> 00:13:45,240 Speaker 1: baby daddy. 324 00:13:45,320 --> 00:13:45,960 Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying. 325 00:13:46,000 --> 00:13:48,520 Speaker 1: Start getting funny back with theirs now. I know that's 326 00:13:48,559 --> 00:13:50,120 Speaker 1: promoting a little bit of violence. 327 00:13:50,360 --> 00:13:50,880 Speaker 2: I know that. 328 00:13:51,200 --> 00:13:54,040 Speaker 1: I know how that may sound, but I want you 329 00:13:54,080 --> 00:13:56,200 Speaker 1: to know that that comes with that tough skin, that 330 00:13:56,240 --> 00:13:58,480 Speaker 1: come with that thick skin. Fuck that lets some of 331 00:13:58,480 --> 00:14:01,240 Speaker 1: that shit roll down your back, because, like I said, 332 00:14:01,240 --> 00:14:03,080 Speaker 1: at the end of the day, you're loved, you're happy. 333 00:14:03,320 --> 00:14:05,800 Speaker 1: But yeah, talk to your family and if they ain't 334 00:14:05,800 --> 00:14:08,440 Speaker 1: to talking too tight, like I said, go to Option B, 335 00:14:08,960 --> 00:14:10,960 Speaker 1: Plan B. I bet you the motherfucker's ease up off 336 00:14:11,040 --> 00:14:11,400 Speaker 1: your back. 337 00:14:11,480 --> 00:14:13,800 Speaker 2: I bet you. But keep me updated. 338 00:14:13,840 --> 00:14:16,880 Speaker 1: Girl, If you love me, you'll listen to this commercial 339 00:14:17,040 --> 00:14:18,160 Speaker 1: and then we'll be right back. 340 00:14:20,120 --> 00:14:20,640 Speaker 2: Okay, y'all. 341 00:14:20,720 --> 00:14:23,200 Speaker 1: So next I want to do one of the just 342 00:14:23,240 --> 00:14:26,520 Speaker 1: Fix My message that I did on Breakfast Club. So 343 00:14:27,280 --> 00:14:30,520 Speaker 1: this woman had called up and she was saying how 344 00:14:30,640 --> 00:14:35,080 Speaker 1: she had been married to her husband for I can't 345 00:14:35,120 --> 00:14:37,600 Speaker 1: remember the amount of years, but they were together for 346 00:14:37,680 --> 00:14:42,040 Speaker 1: a long time, and when they first got together, he 347 00:14:42,360 --> 00:14:44,760 Speaker 1: started cheating on her and she tried to leave him, 348 00:14:44,760 --> 00:14:46,440 Speaker 1: but he said that he would off himself, you know, 349 00:14:46,480 --> 00:14:49,560 Speaker 1: he would unlive himself, basically commit suicide if he couldn't 350 00:14:49,560 --> 00:14:51,360 Speaker 1: be with her, and blah blah blah blah blah. So 351 00:14:51,480 --> 00:14:54,200 Speaker 1: she went back to him because of course, she cares 352 00:14:54,200 --> 00:14:56,400 Speaker 1: about those who she loved, and although he cheated on her, 353 00:14:56,600 --> 00:14:59,160 Speaker 1: she still loved him, and she loved him enough to 354 00:14:59,200 --> 00:15:02,360 Speaker 1: go back because he and to kill himself. Now I 355 00:15:02,440 --> 00:15:06,880 Speaker 1: stopped there just for a minute. I usually I'm not 356 00:15:06,880 --> 00:15:09,040 Speaker 1: gonna say I don't take that type of shit serious. 357 00:15:09,080 --> 00:15:11,480 Speaker 1: But my thing is my nigga, you want me to 358 00:15:11,520 --> 00:15:14,720 Speaker 1: come back to you after you fucking cheated on me 359 00:15:14,800 --> 00:15:16,480 Speaker 1: all because you said you're about to end your life, 360 00:15:16,960 --> 00:15:19,480 Speaker 1: and then I will say some shit like, well end it, 361 00:15:19,520 --> 00:15:21,000 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, just to call their bluff. 362 00:15:21,400 --> 00:15:23,680 Speaker 2: However, she got back with them. 363 00:15:23,720 --> 00:15:28,440 Speaker 1: They had kids, they had three children, and he was 364 00:15:28,560 --> 00:15:30,480 Speaker 1: doing good for a while, and then he started creeping 365 00:15:30,520 --> 00:15:34,280 Speaker 1: around on her again, cheating throughout the years on this woman, 366 00:15:34,640 --> 00:15:36,680 Speaker 1: and she got to a point where she was like, listen, 367 00:15:36,960 --> 00:15:39,120 Speaker 1: I want a divorce. I'm leaving your ass again, and 368 00:15:39,240 --> 00:15:41,160 Speaker 1: this time I'm staying gone, you know what I'm saying. 369 00:15:41,720 --> 00:15:45,880 Speaker 1: And he actually really did kill himself because she left him. 370 00:15:46,320 --> 00:15:50,360 Speaker 1: What I got from that was those were deeper issues, 371 00:15:50,680 --> 00:15:52,480 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying that that guy had. 372 00:15:52,600 --> 00:15:54,120 Speaker 2: You know, he had the love of his life. 373 00:15:54,160 --> 00:15:57,160 Speaker 1: Obviously, he was totally in love with his wife for sure, 374 00:15:57,640 --> 00:16:00,640 Speaker 1: but I think it was more of abandonment starting from 375 00:16:00,680 --> 00:16:03,120 Speaker 1: the root of his childhood or something like that. Somebody 376 00:16:03,120 --> 00:16:06,080 Speaker 1: had to leave him. Somebody who he cared so much 377 00:16:06,160 --> 00:16:07,960 Speaker 1: about left his ass. I don't know if it was 378 00:16:07,960 --> 00:16:11,920 Speaker 1: one of his parents or a sibling or a grandmother 379 00:16:12,040 --> 00:16:16,360 Speaker 1: or somebody. But you don't just kill yourself when your 380 00:16:16,400 --> 00:16:18,920 Speaker 1: lover leaves you, when it's your fault. 381 00:16:19,520 --> 00:16:21,640 Speaker 2: You get what I'm saying, Like, Yo, you cheated on 382 00:16:21,680 --> 00:16:22,160 Speaker 2: this lady. 383 00:16:22,600 --> 00:16:25,720 Speaker 1: She tried to leave you before, and you told her 384 00:16:25,760 --> 00:16:27,600 Speaker 1: that she was going to kill yourself, so she came 385 00:16:27,640 --> 00:16:29,520 Speaker 1: back to you. She gave you another chance, and you 386 00:16:29,640 --> 00:16:35,360 Speaker 1: come back married, you gave you children. Cheated on her 387 00:16:35,400 --> 00:16:38,720 Speaker 1: again and again and again, she said. Throughout years of 388 00:16:38,760 --> 00:16:42,800 Speaker 1: their marriage, he cheated, and she finally got enough of 389 00:16:42,840 --> 00:16:45,960 Speaker 1: it and was fed up, mustered up the strength to 390 00:16:46,000 --> 00:16:49,560 Speaker 1: divorce him, and he killed himself because she left. 391 00:16:49,800 --> 00:16:50,680 Speaker 2: He couldn't deal with it. 392 00:16:51,080 --> 00:16:54,960 Speaker 1: So she was saying that she had blamed herself for 393 00:16:55,000 --> 00:16:57,560 Speaker 1: a while, you know, because they not It wasn't just them, 394 00:16:57,640 --> 00:17:01,560 Speaker 1: They had three children, you know, and and she just 395 00:17:01,560 --> 00:17:03,920 Speaker 1: didn't know how to face them and deal with that. 396 00:17:04,080 --> 00:17:06,040 Speaker 2: And you know, and still have to grieve. 397 00:17:06,320 --> 00:17:09,120 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, Like for her a longtime lover, 398 00:17:09,240 --> 00:17:12,000 Speaker 1: you know, and the father of her children. But the 399 00:17:12,040 --> 00:17:15,320 Speaker 1: advice I gave her is not not to blame yourself. 400 00:17:15,320 --> 00:17:17,879 Speaker 1: I've never been our predicament, nor have I ever been married, 401 00:17:18,200 --> 00:17:21,880 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. But some advice is just obvious, 402 00:17:22,000 --> 00:17:24,560 Speaker 1: like listen, that was not your fault. That was not 403 00:17:24,640 --> 00:17:26,400 Speaker 1: your fault, because that's a lot of pressure on you 404 00:17:26,480 --> 00:17:29,240 Speaker 1: that dreams you like, he was fighting demons of his 405 00:17:29,320 --> 00:17:32,359 Speaker 1: own long before you, before the marriage, before you became 406 00:17:32,400 --> 00:17:35,840 Speaker 1: his girlfriend, before he met you. He was fighting demons obviously, 407 00:17:35,880 --> 00:17:40,720 Speaker 1: you get what I'm saying. And I urged her to 408 00:17:40,800 --> 00:17:46,359 Speaker 1: seek therapy, you know, for mental health, and because that 409 00:17:46,359 --> 00:17:49,919 Speaker 1: that could drive someone to suicide as well, blaming themselves 410 00:17:50,359 --> 00:17:53,359 Speaker 1: for a life that was lost, a life that you 411 00:17:53,400 --> 00:17:55,919 Speaker 1: know that they feel, you know, was their fault, you know, 412 00:17:56,200 --> 00:17:57,720 Speaker 1: because he took his life. He had told her that 413 00:17:57,760 --> 00:18:00,359 Speaker 1: he was going to do it again, and she was like, right, well, 414 00:18:00,359 --> 00:18:03,080 Speaker 1: look whatever, you know what I mean. She didn't she 415 00:18:03,119 --> 00:18:04,560 Speaker 1: didn't think that he would do it this time. And 416 00:18:04,560 --> 00:18:06,359 Speaker 1: then she just got fed up and just tired of 417 00:18:06,359 --> 00:18:08,600 Speaker 1: all that she went through. She was miserable in her marriage, 418 00:18:08,920 --> 00:18:12,320 Speaker 1: and then when he killed himself, she felt like, damn it, 419 00:18:12,400 --> 00:18:14,280 Speaker 1: maybe if I would have stayed with him this time too. 420 00:18:14,520 --> 00:18:16,400 Speaker 2: No, don't feel that way. Don't. 421 00:18:16,560 --> 00:18:19,080 Speaker 1: And there's some other women I'm pretty sure going through 422 00:18:19,160 --> 00:18:22,919 Speaker 1: this same fucking thing. No, ma'am, you should not have 423 00:18:23,000 --> 00:18:25,200 Speaker 1: to feel that way. You pick your head up. No, no, no, 424 00:18:25,200 --> 00:18:27,040 Speaker 1: and you go sit down and you talk to somebody. 425 00:18:27,240 --> 00:18:28,679 Speaker 1: I know it's going to be hard for her to 426 00:18:28,720 --> 00:18:30,840 Speaker 1: move forward with three children, you know, because looking at 427 00:18:30,880 --> 00:18:33,399 Speaker 1: them every day will remind me of their father and 428 00:18:33,440 --> 00:18:35,320 Speaker 1: the times that we shared as a family, you know. 429 00:18:35,800 --> 00:18:41,320 Speaker 1: But time does heal all wounds, and to help that 430 00:18:42,480 --> 00:18:47,840 Speaker 1: talking to a professional person, a professional therapist that can 431 00:18:47,880 --> 00:18:51,399 Speaker 1: also heal wounds as well. Like and then we often say, 432 00:18:51,480 --> 00:18:53,600 Speaker 1: you know, as black people, I don't need therapy, We 433 00:18:53,600 --> 00:18:54,160 Speaker 1: won't need therapy. 434 00:18:54,160 --> 00:18:56,000 Speaker 2: It's not just black men. I've heard black women say that. 435 00:18:55,960 --> 00:18:57,760 Speaker 1: Too, like, no, I'm not gonna send on somebody coach 436 00:18:57,920 --> 00:19:00,720 Speaker 1: and tell her my business, because no offer them to 437 00:19:00,800 --> 00:19:03,040 Speaker 1: judge me, like no, no, no, no, no no, that's 438 00:19:03,119 --> 00:19:05,520 Speaker 1: literally what they are for. You know what I'm saying, 439 00:19:06,320 --> 00:19:09,720 Speaker 1: You have deep, deep, deep issues with yourself. 440 00:19:09,800 --> 00:19:11,320 Speaker 2: If that's how you look at a therapist. 441 00:19:11,359 --> 00:19:14,760 Speaker 1: And I do understand not everybody is perfect, not even therapists, 442 00:19:14,760 --> 00:19:18,119 Speaker 1: but they are licensed, professional people who are put in 443 00:19:18,160 --> 00:19:21,359 Speaker 1: place for people who go through things like that. And 444 00:19:21,440 --> 00:19:24,439 Speaker 1: so I want to speak to all the women you 445 00:19:24,480 --> 00:19:26,800 Speaker 1: know and men who are going through something like that 446 00:19:27,040 --> 00:19:29,239 Speaker 1: who actually take the blank for someone else, taking their 447 00:19:29,280 --> 00:19:31,840 Speaker 1: own life in that instance. I don't know if any 448 00:19:31,880 --> 00:19:34,560 Speaker 1: of you or you know my listeners pray to the 449 00:19:34,600 --> 00:19:36,560 Speaker 1: same God. I pray to you every night in morning, 450 00:19:36,600 --> 00:19:39,240 Speaker 1: but listen, He does heal as well, and he listens. 451 00:19:39,600 --> 00:19:42,159 Speaker 1: Sometimes you don't want somebody to talk back. You just 452 00:19:42,200 --> 00:19:44,600 Speaker 1: want somebody to listen. Look, talk to God. Shut your door, 453 00:19:45,040 --> 00:19:46,480 Speaker 1: you know, you get on your knees, you lay in 454 00:19:46,480 --> 00:19:47,680 Speaker 1: your bed, you talk to God. 455 00:19:47,800 --> 00:19:48,560 Speaker 2: That's what you do. 456 00:19:49,080 --> 00:19:52,080 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, And that's only if you 457 00:19:52,080 --> 00:19:53,360 Speaker 1: don't want somebody to talk back. 458 00:19:53,359 --> 00:19:55,000 Speaker 2: Trust me, He does communicate with us. 459 00:19:55,359 --> 00:19:58,640 Speaker 1: But if you don't want to hear a voice, talk 460 00:19:58,720 --> 00:19:59,920 Speaker 1: back to you because you feel like you're going to 461 00:19:59,960 --> 00:20:02,600 Speaker 1: be judge, talk to him first, and he will show 462 00:20:02,640 --> 00:20:05,040 Speaker 1: you how to love on yourself and how to heal 463 00:20:05,080 --> 00:20:08,640 Speaker 1: you heal yourself again, you know, and and just get 464 00:20:08,640 --> 00:20:11,520 Speaker 1: through things a bit easier, you know, and and just 465 00:20:11,640 --> 00:20:14,680 Speaker 1: have better days than before. And on that note, I'm 466 00:20:14,680 --> 00:20:18,359 Speaker 1: gonna end this episode, y'all. Jesus, I've been noxious this 467 00:20:18,400 --> 00:20:20,639 Speaker 1: whole time, but it's all right, it's all right. This 468 00:20:20,720 --> 00:20:24,040 Speaker 1: is what comes with pregnancy. So I love you guys. 469 00:20:24,080 --> 00:20:27,520 Speaker 1: Make sure you tune into Carefully Pregnane each and every Wednesday, 470 00:20:27,560 --> 00:21:41,560 Speaker 1: and then my deepest pan voice can't. Fully Reckless is 471 00:21:41,560 --> 00:21:44,600 Speaker 1: a production of iHeart Radio and The Black Effect. For 472 00:21:44,680 --> 00:21:49,440 Speaker 1: more podcasts from iHeartRadio, visit the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, 473 00:21:49,560 --> 00:21:51,480 Speaker 1: or wherever you listen to your favorite shows.