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Speaker 1: Lisa Lampanelli is not a licensed therapist or life coach.

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Speaker 1: She is a meddling advice giving yanta. I know it all,

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Speaker 1: and her words come from her head, her heart, and

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Speaker 1: often out of her ass. This podcast should not be

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Speaker 1: misconstrued as therapy. I should be taking with a huge

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Speaker 1: grain of salt for entertainment purposes only.

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Speaker 2: These You need help, You're the problems.

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Speaker 3: Come on, come down, go leam, take a pill. I

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Speaker 3: think you're insane.

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Speaker 2: Do what I say, dumb ass, listen to me.

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Speaker 4: You what the Lisa?

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Speaker 5: I get out?

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Speaker 2: Everybody, welcome back.

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Speaker 4: Don't drink this.

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Speaker 2: I like a long pause too. It's Lisa Lampanelli here,

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Speaker 2: your friend, your fae, your ally, and your advocate, which

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Speaker 2: is four things. I clearly am not doing a podcast

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Speaker 2: with my buddy, my pal, my friend in titified unity. Next, gope,

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Speaker 2: Eddy say.

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Speaker 5: I Nick, what's up?

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Speaker 4: Stop it be back? Microphone right here, baby, Thank you.

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Speaker 2: For holding the mic correctly.

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Speaker 6: Neck.

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Speaker 2: Where can everybody find you on social media?

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Speaker 5: You could follow me at Nick Scopes on Instagram and

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Speaker 5: TikTok and because.

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Speaker 2: Because what you do, you do? And we are also

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Speaker 2: here for the third time and hopefully the last, according

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Speaker 2: to her, because she hates us with our kind of

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Speaker 2: filling producer bitch, the half Irish quarter porter Ricken quarter ighty,

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Speaker 2: Stepanie Lane, which, by the way, Lane, that is a

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Speaker 2: very non descript last name. What was your father's Irish

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Speaker 2: name from years agober Ferry comes over to the continent

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Speaker 2: of the potatoes.

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Speaker 6: I don't know, but my grandma was prot.

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Speaker 2: Okay, literally adding nothing. I'm used to it because we

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Speaker 2: have Celia who adds nothing. Celia will be back if

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Speaker 2: she ever recovers from hating us.

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Speaker 5: You will, won't.

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Speaker 2: I'm trying to get enough head drinking to see if

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Speaker 2: I want to go back to those two.

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Speaker 5: Remember when she said her therapist listen to the podcast.

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Speaker 5: I was like, I don't love the word.

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Speaker 6: You.

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Speaker 2: Well listen. That's what's good having Stephanie because she's too

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Speaker 2: emotionally unavailable to have a therapist, so she doesn't have

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Speaker 2: anybody to talk shit about us too.

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Speaker 4: You're higher, yeah, So just leave us.

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Speaker 2: There and follow Stephanie ad In on Instagram at I'm

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Speaker 2: gonna say it s T E p H L A

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Speaker 2: and that's two e's and an underscore, Oh, the underscore,

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Speaker 2: the bane of my existence. And you can follow me

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Speaker 2: at Lisa Lambinelli. Listen, Nick, you know do you you

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Speaker 2: see the musical chorus line and you have two things

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Speaker 2: that keep you from seeing a chorus line. They're called testicles. Well,

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Speaker 2: chorus line at a very famous number, and it began,

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Speaker 2: I shall sing it for you. Who am I anyway

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Speaker 2: upon my resume? Just a picture of a person?

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Speaker 6: No.

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Speaker 2: I recently heard that song because I'm gay for that,

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Speaker 2: and I was like, that question of who am I

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Speaker 2: haunts people. It's almost like if people don't have an identity,

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Speaker 2: they feel they are nothing. I'm coming to believe the

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Speaker 2: actual opposite is true. By not having one identity, we

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Speaker 2: are more of a human being. So here's what happened

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Speaker 2: eight years ago. I retire. I'm like, whoa, I'm not

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Speaker 2: a comic anymore. But wait, I'll quickly replace it with

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Speaker 2: another identity. I will be bump bump bomb, a life coach,

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Speaker 2: which is what every loser over forty who had a

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Speaker 2: divorce and I'm talking women decides to be because they

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Speaker 2: can't help themselves, so they decide to help other people badly.

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Speaker 2: So let me take a big, long course and figure

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Speaker 2: out how to help the great unfortunate masses who can

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Speaker 2: afford me. Well, that quickly blew up because I just

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Speaker 2: pay attention to how I live. They're like, oh, no,

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Speaker 2: what do I do now? Oh? I know, I can

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Speaker 2: just craft. That's it.

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Speaker 2: I have lots of crafting supplies. I have painting supplies

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Speaker 2: for my father. I'm going to be a crafter and

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Speaker 2: can't paint like dad. So I'm not a painter? What

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Speaker 5: Have you had this experience, Nick Listen, I've been pretty

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Speaker 5: consistently perfied. No, definitely have had it. When I was little.

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Speaker 5: I don't know what the identity was, to be honest,

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Speaker 5: I was more of a goofball, I would say high school.

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Speaker 5: It was definitely like football, lifting weights, college similar it

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Speaker 5: was just like lifting weights and powerlifting slash bodybuilding. That

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Speaker 5: don't know what the fuck I am anymore? Is I was?

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Speaker 5: I've always been a trainer. I I was a trainer

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Speaker 5: just like the defeat quote unquote, not even a defeat,

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Speaker 5: ruined my confidence, if anything, right, And so I kind

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Speaker 5: of was like, but I used to do bodybuilding and

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Speaker 5: on to these things. I realized as I got older,

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Speaker 5: I'm similar to where you're at, where it's like, yeah,

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Speaker 5: just like, who, what the fuck is mone am I doing?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, oh my god. That's the classic Whenever you feel

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Speaker 2: a lack of identity and you're an unhealthy place, you

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Speaker 2: either want to go back to for a master's or

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Speaker 2: become a life coach. Those both are real red flags,

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Speaker 2: and it's like, no, you just kind of have to

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Speaker 2: and yeah, you may eventually decide to do those two

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Speaker 2: things or one of them. Our friend Andrew has a

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Speaker 2: client who I think she's eighty and just went back

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Speaker 2: to Yale for Divinity Masters. And that's just purely out

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Speaker 2: of love of the learning of it and the love

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Speaker 2: of that subject matter. So I love when we do

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Speaker 2: things just because it arises up in us. But isn't like,

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Speaker 2: ooh good Now, I could go around and say I'm this,

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Speaker 2: I'm an actor, I'm a comic. I'm like, for so

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Speaker 2: many years I didn't even identify as a stand up comic.

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Speaker 2: It was an insult comic. I wanted to be so

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Speaker 2: specifically different that I'm like, yeah, there's like three of us, Like,

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Speaker 2: I'm not just a stand up but it's just like me,

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Speaker 2: Jeff Ross and Don Rickles, and Rickles is dead.

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Speaker 4: So it's just us.

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Speaker 2: So it's just like, Wow, you really need an identity bad.

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Speaker 2: So I think the more solid we are as people

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Speaker 2: It's always that thing with men. I feel too. In

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Speaker 2: Are you with Mac? And you'd be like, well, I'm

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Speaker 2: with like p W and kunt or whatever the thing's called.

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Speaker 2: Like you know, it's always just like I'm with Colgate

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Speaker 2: the new toothpaste. Like so, men often were asked to

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Speaker 2: like lead more with like your identity better be about worker,

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Speaker 2: you're not a good provider. Women a little less. They

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Speaker 2: had it be like I'm a mom, Like there's no

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Speaker 2: freaked the fuck out and now they're four hundred pounds.

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Speaker 2: But stop giving your kidne eating disorder. So there's like

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Speaker 2: the emo kid, I'm the like whatever you identify as,

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Speaker 5: Yeah, you gotta have you gotta have stuff, I would say,

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Speaker 5: outside of certain things, like I know, like I again

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Speaker 5: like I gotta do other things. And that's just me,

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Speaker 5: you know, trying stuff and doing comedy or doing this

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Speaker 5: you're at. And yeah, now it's just like to have

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Speaker 5: just so much more like relaxing, Yes, so much like

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Speaker 5: nicer to just be like I try a bunch of things.

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Speaker 5: Like for years you're talking about how you want to

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Speaker 5: be just an insult comic. For years, I didn't even

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Speaker 2: Mm hmm.

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Speaker 5: I was like three four years. I was like, no,

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Speaker 5: I'm just I'd do it once in a while, be

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Speaker 2: I go, no, right, well, I would think that's even

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Speaker 2: depending where that comes from, it's almost more healthy gets

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Speaker 2: something I kind of do. It's kind of fun, you Like.

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Speaker 5: It took me years to be like, yes, I am one.

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Speaker 2: I mean I would argue, are you? I mean I

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Speaker 2: think too, Like it's not just limited to the jobs

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Speaker 2: it's and the identities of like what we do. It's

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Speaker 2: like the person who identifies as oh, I'm always the

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Speaker 2: one who sends a thank you note. I'm always the

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Speaker 2: one who brings things to the party. I never arrive

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Speaker 2: empty handed. It's like, are you or is that?

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Speaker 5: Like?

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Speaker 2: Why are you always that person? Have you just been

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Speaker 2: told by society that you're a horrible human if you

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Speaker 2: don't send a thank you? I have a niece. I

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Speaker 2: don't know how the fuck she sends thank you notes.

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Speaker 2: She has two kids under three, and she's a doctor

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Speaker 2: Letting go didn't happen till I tried like fifty things.

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Speaker 2: not everyone else is allowed to get fat, not made. Yeah,

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Speaker 3: You know.

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Speaker 2: Will I do everything to keep my blood work perfect? Yes,

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Speaker 2: So it's just like worth going. I don't have to

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Speaker 2: So is this your retirement?

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Speaker 5: It's not on Howard Stern, but it's close.

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Speaker 5: No, not yet, Like again we have this comment, but

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Speaker 5: I've gotten mad when other people have made it my identity.

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Speaker 2: Oh yeah, he's my buddy Nick. He's a real funny

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Speaker 5: The maddest I ever get is when I'm at parties

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Speaker 5: I didn't start till I was thirty, right, I'm like

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Speaker 5: That made me this. I've been this way, so that

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Speaker 2: I get like, yeah, don't don't put that on me.

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Speaker 2: Just annoyingly funny when you're off stage time, Stephanie, do

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Speaker 2: And then you say like, oh, and I know, like

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Speaker 6: And then after that I kind of just like go

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Speaker 2: Yeah, do you feel like your hobbies or your job

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Speaker 6: Sort of because I crochet and I think that makes

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Speaker 2: Yeah, No, I love those I envy people who have

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Speaker 2: look at their life. It looks so nice that one's

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Speaker 2: So what do you find you're most proud of internally?

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Speaker 2: I work for all my life. What gives you a

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Speaker 6: job where everyone's sitting down opening up an Excel sheet.

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Speaker 6: That's why always say I have to marry someone who

433
00:23:47,200 --> 00:23:48,920
Speaker 6: has an interesting job because I can't ask you about

434
00:23:48,920 --> 00:23:49,520
Speaker 6: your Excel.

435
00:23:49,320 --> 00:23:50,600
Speaker 2: Sheet every day. Yeah that's true.

436
00:23:50,680 --> 00:23:52,879
Speaker 6: But for me, like I found a job and I

437
00:23:52,920 --> 00:23:54,800
Speaker 6: was able to land it, and like all this that

438
00:23:54,840 --> 00:23:57,440
Speaker 6: I actually like going to every day and it's different.

439
00:23:57,560 --> 00:24:00,320
Speaker 6: It's cool. I'm meeting people all the time. I'm not

440
00:24:00,440 --> 00:24:03,000
Speaker 6: changing who I am just to sit at a dusk

441
00:24:03,119 --> 00:24:05,560
Speaker 6: for nine to five, right, Like, it's just way different.

442
00:24:05,600 --> 00:24:08,080
Speaker 6: So I think it is representative of who I am

443
00:24:08,119 --> 00:24:09,040
Speaker 6: as a person too.

444
00:24:09,359 --> 00:24:11,760
Speaker 2: Well, what I would say to you is you're young,

445
00:24:13,040 --> 00:24:18,719
Speaker 2: probably twenty three, so you'll be sixty nine in three times. Okay,

446
00:24:18,880 --> 00:24:24,240
Speaker 2: so i'll be long dead, sad, But by sixty nine.

447
00:24:24,560 --> 00:24:28,240
Speaker 2: What's good is now if you also develop these hobbies

448
00:24:28,920 --> 00:24:33,480
Speaker 2: and these pastimes that you enjoy and grow the personality

449
00:24:34,000 --> 00:24:38,960
Speaker 2: and interests outside the career. Then when you're too age

450
00:24:39,000 --> 00:24:40,880
Speaker 2: out of this business or you're like, I don't want

451
00:24:40,880 --> 00:24:43,159
Speaker 2: to do that anymore, like ooh, but now look at

452
00:24:43,200 --> 00:24:46,320
Speaker 2: all the cool stuff I do, which could lead to

453
00:24:46,359 --> 00:24:48,840
Speaker 2: like a lot of happiness. Like I have a lot

454
00:24:48,880 --> 00:24:52,080
Speaker 2: of happiness from just the little shit I do every

455
00:24:52,200 --> 00:24:55,200
Speaker 2: day or my cute little things I do with friends.

456
00:24:55,240 --> 00:24:59,160
Speaker 2: And I'm like, oh, well that this all feels more

457
00:24:59,200 --> 00:25:04,199
Speaker 2: meaningful now ben the career did at the time. So

458
00:25:04,400 --> 00:25:06,600
Speaker 2: developing both I think is a good. It's good that

459
00:25:06,640 --> 00:25:09,560
Speaker 2: you start that. You know, Nick, it's too late for

460
00:25:09,600 --> 00:25:16,199
Speaker 2: you on all levels. Yeah, all right, okay, okay, So

461
00:25:16,359 --> 00:25:20,200
Speaker 2: let's talk identity with some of our crazy a hole listeners.

462
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Speaker 5: Dear Lisa, I am a former actor who quit about

463
00:25:24,320 --> 00:25:28,359
Speaker 5: ten years ago. I did a bunch of day player

464
00:25:28,440 --> 00:25:31,679
Speaker 5: roles on TV and film, but can never progress past.

465
00:25:31,480 --> 00:25:37,639
Speaker 2: That day player also meaning home extra extra and or

466
00:25:37,760 --> 00:25:41,959
Speaker 2: background which oh no, his day player.

467
00:25:43,720 --> 00:25:45,560
Speaker 5: No, you could have speaking lines, I think.

468
00:25:45,480 --> 00:25:48,040
Speaker 2: No, that's under five. Nick. Could you maybe be a

469
00:25:48,080 --> 00:25:54,280
Speaker 2: professional Stephanie do your job and look up day player.

470
00:25:54,080 --> 00:25:55,080
Speaker 5: Way better than Celia.

471
00:25:55,160 --> 00:25:57,639
Speaker 2: I would like you if you did your job go ahead.

472
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Speaker 6: The performer hired for short term work, typically just one

473
00:26:01,000 --> 00:26:01,800
Speaker 6: or a few days.

474
00:26:02,359 --> 00:26:05,840
Speaker 2: Oh, non recurring role. Oh so it could be someone who,

475
00:26:05,880 --> 00:26:09,080
Speaker 2: for instance, on the sketch on SNL and stands there

476
00:26:09,200 --> 00:26:11,919
Speaker 2: or something. Okay, so it's maybe not an extra Okay,

477
00:26:11,960 --> 00:26:12,960
Speaker 2: so that day player.

478
00:26:13,160 --> 00:26:14,560
Speaker 4: Okay, day play.

479
00:26:16,320 --> 00:26:20,600
Speaker 5: Didn't progress that. Last week I got a letter from

480
00:26:20,600 --> 00:26:21,680
Speaker 5: the Screen Actors.

481
00:26:21,440 --> 00:26:27,639
Speaker 2: Guild, which is of course the union sag.

482
00:26:27,960 --> 00:26:31,280
Speaker 5: ZAG, saying that they will expel me if I don't

483
00:26:31,320 --> 00:26:33,200
Speaker 5: pay my dues. I haven't paid in years, but it

484
00:26:33,240 --> 00:26:36,199
Speaker 5: looks like they're finally throwing down the gauntlet. Do you

485
00:26:36,280 --> 00:26:38,680
Speaker 5: think I should pay it and keep my SAG status

486
00:26:38,760 --> 00:26:40,040
Speaker 5: or let that dream go?

487
00:26:40,600 --> 00:26:40,840
Speaker 6: Wow?

488
00:26:41,000 --> 00:26:43,720
Speaker 5: Getting in SAG was something I was proud of, and

489
00:26:43,760 --> 00:26:46,720
Speaker 5: the thought that I may return to acting someday still

490
00:26:46,720 --> 00:26:48,320
Speaker 5: pops in my head. Thank you for your help.

491
00:26:48,400 --> 00:26:52,120
Speaker 2: Doug from Hoboken, Oh man, he has so many red

492
00:26:52,160 --> 00:26:55,159
Speaker 2: flags of guy who should quit because you're like hanging

493
00:26:55,200 --> 00:26:58,480
Speaker 2: on to that New York City thing by being in Hoboken.

494
00:26:58,560 --> 00:27:01,200
Speaker 2: But it's not really New York. You're a you're a

495
00:27:01,280 --> 00:27:06,600
Speaker 2: day player. But you probably said like three words one

496
00:27:06,640 --> 00:27:10,760
Speaker 2: thing though, if it's not hurting you or that's what

497
00:27:10,920 --> 00:27:12,760
Speaker 2: the thing is and you can't. You have to be

498
00:27:12,800 --> 00:27:16,639
Speaker 2: honest with yourself. If it's not hurting you by staying

499
00:27:16,680 --> 00:27:20,359
Speaker 2: in the union, you can pay the dues and stay.

500
00:27:20,400 --> 00:27:23,920
Speaker 2: And this doesn't just mean financially. Yeah, it's like I

501
00:27:23,960 --> 00:27:26,120
Speaker 2: think it's like four hundred bucks a year. If that's

502
00:27:26,200 --> 00:27:29,600
Speaker 2: hurting you, then figure your shit out. So, if it's

503
00:27:29,600 --> 00:27:32,320
Speaker 2: not hurting you financially to stay in, that's fine, but

504
00:27:32,440 --> 00:27:35,080
Speaker 2: you have to look at the deeper level. Is it

505
00:27:35,440 --> 00:27:40,720
Speaker 2: keeping you stuck? Is it keeping you holding on to

506
00:27:40,840 --> 00:27:44,480
Speaker 2: a dream that should die and the only one who

507
00:27:44,480 --> 00:27:47,719
Speaker 2: could figure that out is you, because I don't know

508
00:27:47,800 --> 00:27:50,919
Speaker 2: should that dream die for you? Maybe maybe it's holding

509
00:27:50,920 --> 00:27:52,960
Speaker 2: you back from finding what you really want to do.

510
00:27:53,280 --> 00:27:56,240
Speaker 2: Like my show dream Killer Idea, which I've talked about,

511
00:27:56,400 --> 00:27:59,640
Speaker 2: where we would go around. This is a fantasy show.

512
00:27:59,680 --> 00:28:03,920
Speaker 2: I have go around pick a shitty actor or comic

513
00:28:04,040 --> 00:28:06,720
Speaker 2: or songwriter or whatever and say you have no talent

514
00:28:06,760 --> 00:28:09,240
Speaker 2: in that, But here's how you let go of that

515
00:28:09,320 --> 00:28:12,440
Speaker 2: dream and find the new thing. So is just him

516
00:28:12,520 --> 00:28:17,040
Speaker 2: keeping one foot in sag keeping him from moving forward?

517
00:28:17,560 --> 00:28:20,040
Speaker 2: If it's not, and if you can fully say no,

518
00:28:20,080 --> 00:28:21,800
Speaker 2: but I'm still trying a bunch of stuff. It's kind

519
00:28:21,800 --> 00:28:24,600
Speaker 2: of in the background. Who cares, I'm just going to

520
00:28:24,680 --> 00:28:27,159
Speaker 2: keep in the union. But only he can know that.

521
00:28:27,640 --> 00:28:30,359
Speaker 5: Yeah, I don't know. I mean, my only question would

522
00:28:30,400 --> 00:28:33,240
Speaker 5: be because I don't know, because I'm not in SAGFAG

523
00:28:33,359 --> 00:28:34,600
Speaker 5: yet equity?

524
00:28:34,640 --> 00:28:38,200
Speaker 2: Are you in equity?

525
00:28:39,080 --> 00:28:41,480
Speaker 5: I was going to say, was what is the advantage

526
00:28:41,480 --> 00:28:43,880
Speaker 5: of keeping the SAG card versus letting it go? Because

527
00:28:43,880 --> 00:28:46,440
Speaker 5: if he's thinking about it one day, cool, Well.

528
00:28:46,320 --> 00:28:48,880
Speaker 2: Because it's almost it's really hard to get back in.

529
00:28:49,720 --> 00:28:51,880
Speaker 2: So it's a thing where you I think the rules

530
00:28:51,960 --> 00:28:53,200
Speaker 2: used to be, I don't know what they are now,

531
00:28:53,680 --> 00:28:58,120
Speaker 2: where you could tafteartly, which means you can do two

532
00:28:58,160 --> 00:29:04,400
Speaker 2: parts on TV or film without paying dues, and the

533
00:29:04,480 --> 00:29:06,560
Speaker 2: third one it's like, dude, you got to start fucking

534
00:29:06,760 --> 00:29:13,240
Speaker 2: paying dues, so he'd have to redo again. I think. So,

535
00:29:13,440 --> 00:29:16,080
Speaker 2: I mean those are maybe old rules, but meaning there

536
00:29:16,160 --> 00:29:19,880
Speaker 2: is some cost to letting it go, But only he

537
00:29:19,960 --> 00:29:26,120
Speaker 2: can figure out if the cost of staying is more

538
00:29:26,160 --> 00:29:29,240
Speaker 2: emotionally than he should handle. Like I remember when I

539
00:29:29,280 --> 00:29:32,480
Speaker 2: was about to retire my manager Maggie, who is just

540
00:29:32,680 --> 00:29:35,040
Speaker 2: I mean, she's more patient than even Celia, Like she's

541
00:29:35,160 --> 00:29:38,360
Speaker 2: just like, okay, man, I just want you to be happy.

542
00:29:38,520 --> 00:29:41,400
Speaker 2: I said, I want to retire publicly, and she's like nah,

543
00:29:41,440 --> 00:29:43,200
Speaker 2: she goes, why don't you just like stop doing it

544
00:29:44,000 --> 00:29:45,800
Speaker 2: and just not You don't have to kill the character,

545
00:29:46,000 --> 00:29:47,720
Speaker 2: like you know, to kill the queen and me. And

546
00:29:47,720 --> 00:29:49,920
Speaker 2: it took a long time for that to develop. I

547
00:29:50,120 --> 00:29:53,280
Speaker 2: just kind of don't announce it, just stop working. And I

548
00:29:53,360 --> 00:29:55,720
Speaker 2: was like, no, I have to kill it to move forward,

549
00:29:56,360 --> 00:29:58,920
Speaker 2: and I did because maybe in a weak moment, I'd

550
00:29:58,960 --> 00:30:01,479
Speaker 2: be like, oh, man, I can we have fucking forty

551
00:30:01,480 --> 00:30:03,880
Speaker 2: grand here. I can grow this and not even about

552
00:30:03,880 --> 00:30:06,320
Speaker 2: the money. It's about going I can step back into

553
00:30:06,320 --> 00:30:08,160
Speaker 2: the past and get that little hit of like a

554
00:30:08,360 --> 00:30:11,680
Speaker 2: She still got it, But I would have never progressed

555
00:30:11,680 --> 00:30:14,520
Speaker 2: through the other identities and come out on the side

556
00:30:14,520 --> 00:30:16,760
Speaker 2: of what doesn't really matter. I don't need an identity

557
00:30:16,840 --> 00:30:19,880
Speaker 2: other than my perfect blood work. It's all I need.

558
00:30:20,320 --> 00:30:21,440
Speaker 2: I just need to be alive.

559
00:30:21,640 --> 00:30:23,719
Speaker 5: It was your way of being accountable to other people.

560
00:30:24,120 --> 00:30:27,520
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, yeah, a reason to not get tempted, not

561
00:30:27,560 --> 00:30:30,640
Speaker 2: to get tempted by a bad offer. So then when

562
00:30:30,680 --> 00:30:33,560
Speaker 2: a decent offer, like a cute thing like a game show,

563
00:30:33,600 --> 00:30:35,680
Speaker 2: that doesn't require you to live in the past, and

564
00:30:35,720 --> 00:30:37,800
Speaker 2: you could just earn money for charity that comes up

565
00:30:37,840 --> 00:30:39,400
Speaker 2: your life. It's take oh cute, Yeah, but I don't

566
00:30:39,400 --> 00:30:41,480
Speaker 2: have to be funny on it. I don't have to

567
00:30:41,520 --> 00:30:44,400
Speaker 2: hold on to that is my identity. So only he'll

568
00:30:44,400 --> 00:30:49,200
Speaker 2: be able to tell. I would say it's worth letting go, because,

569
00:30:49,240 --> 00:30:54,440
Speaker 2: as Jonathan Livingston Seagull said, it's more to find you again.

570
00:30:55,840 --> 00:30:59,360
Speaker 2: So you will say, you hit sixty, you see a

571
00:30:59,440 --> 00:31:04,040
Speaker 2: casting for you know, old man in grocery store with

572
00:31:04,200 --> 00:31:07,800
Speaker 2: two lines, you do it and then pay to get

573
00:31:07,840 --> 00:31:09,880
Speaker 2: back in. If it's going to find you, it will.

574
00:31:10,280 --> 00:31:12,600
Speaker 5: Yeah. That was my only question because I don't know,

575
00:31:12,680 --> 00:31:14,840
Speaker 5: like does he have health insurance through there? I started

576
00:31:14,880 --> 00:31:15,680
Speaker 5: thinking proudic.

577
00:31:15,520 --> 00:31:17,600
Speaker 2: No, if he hasn't paid it in years, he doesn't.

578
00:31:17,640 --> 00:31:21,800
Speaker 2: And you have to earn a certain amount through TV

579
00:31:21,880 --> 00:31:24,960
Speaker 2: and film every year for them to keep giving you insurance.

580
00:31:25,280 --> 00:31:28,640
Speaker 2: So years ago, Leo, my business manager, was like, oh,

581
00:31:28,680 --> 00:31:31,440
Speaker 2: by the way, you aren't doing enough TV and film.

582
00:31:31,600 --> 00:31:34,280
Speaker 2: We have to get you insurance elsewhere. So like, okay,

583
00:31:34,480 --> 00:31:39,280
Speaker 2: find me something. So yeah, he's probably if I gun

584
00:31:39,320 --> 00:31:41,000
Speaker 2: to head, if I had to give him an answer,

585
00:31:41,040 --> 00:31:42,880
Speaker 2: i'd be like, quit it. It's going to find you

586
00:31:42,920 --> 00:31:43,680
Speaker 2: if it's supposed to.

587
00:31:45,200 --> 00:31:47,400
Speaker 5: Yeah, I mean does does it Another question I have,

588
00:31:47,480 --> 00:31:49,280
Speaker 5: does it affect him? Get if you want to get

589
00:31:49,280 --> 00:31:52,560
Speaker 5: back into acting with having a SAG card versus not affect.

590
00:31:53,720 --> 00:31:56,600
Speaker 2: It's very rarely that I think that, again, this all

591
00:31:56,600 --> 00:31:59,680
Speaker 2: could have changed I'm out of the business. Usually not.

592
00:32:00,040 --> 00:32:04,560
Speaker 2: I think if you if you are auditioning and they're like, oh,

593
00:32:04,600 --> 00:32:07,080
Speaker 2: non union, that's okay, you know you just have to

594
00:32:07,120 --> 00:32:08,440
Speaker 2: join the union, okay.

595
00:32:08,680 --> 00:32:11,040
Speaker 5: Yeah, let it Yeah, then I would say let it expire.

596
00:32:11,160 --> 00:32:12,320
Speaker 5: I need to ask all these questions.

597
00:32:12,360 --> 00:32:15,080
Speaker 2: I really know. That's okay. I'm so glad I can

598
00:32:15,160 --> 00:32:17,360
Speaker 2: give you wrong answers about most of this stuff.

599
00:32:17,480 --> 00:32:20,800
Speaker 5: So whatever someone currently is like, that's how it is now.

600
00:32:20,800 --> 00:32:24,560
Speaker 2: I know. Just yeah, yeah, I'm retired. I'm supposed to

601
00:32:24,600 --> 00:32:27,680
Speaker 2: have all the answers. You fucked, But I still stay

602
00:32:27,680 --> 00:32:30,680
Speaker 2: in all the unions. Why not? It's not hurting me

603
00:32:31,200 --> 00:32:36,280
Speaker 2: because I'm flush. Because also like equity. I love equity

604
00:32:36,600 --> 00:32:40,440
Speaker 2: because it's like the live actor, like Broadway, off Broadway

605
00:32:40,480 --> 00:32:44,440
Speaker 2: and regional and it just sounds classy to be like,

606
00:32:44,600 --> 00:32:48,160
Speaker 2: now I'm an actor, it's like fucking not. Still getting

607
00:32:48,160 --> 00:32:50,640
Speaker 2: that to an identity. Maybe I could let go of,

608
00:32:50,680 --> 00:32:52,320
Speaker 2: but it's not whole. I don't think about it. It

609
00:32:52,320 --> 00:32:56,120
Speaker 2: doesn't hold me back. It's well, if you're on Broadway,

610
00:32:56,160 --> 00:32:58,760
Speaker 2: you have to be in the Equity Union, got it?

611
00:32:58,840 --> 00:33:02,920
Speaker 2: You know, like all the it's at Norwalk. They strive

612
00:33:02,960 --> 00:33:04,800
Speaker 2: and most of them are already. They'll strive to be

613
00:33:04,880 --> 00:33:07,520
Speaker 2: equity National Tour reach this.

614
00:33:07,520 --> 00:33:09,120
Speaker 5: I always think it's like in my head because I

615
00:33:09,160 --> 00:33:10,800
Speaker 5: don't know anything. I like make shit up. I'm like

616
00:33:10,800 --> 00:33:13,160
Speaker 5: equity means like a. It's probably like a like a

617
00:33:13,240 --> 00:33:15,120
Speaker 5: gold level of SAG or something.

618
00:33:15,560 --> 00:33:16,760
Speaker 2: They're two different unions.

619
00:33:16,800 --> 00:33:18,400
Speaker 4: It's okay on Silver's all.

620
00:33:18,400 --> 00:33:21,240
Speaker 2: Right, one TV and film SAG after his TV and

621
00:33:21,320 --> 00:33:25,280
Speaker 2: film they merged and inequity is for live performers. Luckily,

622
00:33:25,320 --> 00:33:29,000
Speaker 2: comics don't have a union because comics are such backstabbing cunts.

623
00:33:29,760 --> 00:33:33,200
Speaker 2: We take every non union job that's screwed over somebody

624
00:33:33,200 --> 00:33:35,840
Speaker 2: else because we don't care about any Well, let's take

625
00:33:35,880 --> 00:33:37,760
Speaker 2: it all the worst, all right, bitch.

626
00:33:38,640 --> 00:33:42,560
Speaker 5: All right? Letter number two, Dear Litha. I'm Joe Anne,

627
00:33:42,760 --> 00:33:46,160
Speaker 5: fifty nine in Saint Louis. My kids are grown, my

628
00:33:46,240 --> 00:33:49,200
Speaker 5: husband's retired. My uterus is on strike?

629
00:33:49,840 --> 00:33:50,520
Speaker 2: Who isn't?

630
00:33:51,320 --> 00:33:54,640
Speaker 5: So is fucking Stephanie's over here? I wake up every

631
00:33:54,680 --> 00:33:57,640
Speaker 5: day and think, wait, who the hell am I? Now?

632
00:33:57,720 --> 00:34:03,120
Speaker 5: I'm not anyone's mom, wife or emergency contact anymore. I mean,

633
00:34:03,120 --> 00:34:03,959
Speaker 5: you're still a wife.

634
00:34:05,480 --> 00:34:06,080
Speaker 2: She hates him?

635
00:34:06,160 --> 00:34:12,200
Speaker 5: Okay, all right, I'm just Joanne of Joanne's Fabrics.

636
00:34:12,280 --> 00:34:15,000
Speaker 2: Oh my god, you built the Empire which went by way?

637
00:34:15,120 --> 00:34:18,520
Speaker 2: Was just overtaken by Michaels, was it? I know, so

638
00:34:18,560 --> 00:34:19,600
Speaker 2: sad for Joanne.

639
00:34:19,719 --> 00:34:21,560
Speaker 5: I saw the Pride Paride They're gonna have a float

640
00:34:21,560 --> 00:34:21,919
Speaker 5: this year.

641
00:34:22,000 --> 00:34:23,319
Speaker 2: Are you serious? Oh?

642
00:34:23,440 --> 00:34:25,600
Speaker 4: Shut up? You got all excited?

643
00:34:25,719 --> 00:34:27,600
Speaker 5: Doesn't all the gays? Yeah?

644
00:34:27,880 --> 00:34:28,359
Speaker 2: New York.

645
00:34:29,040 --> 00:34:32,320
Speaker 5: Oh my god, I'm just Joanne and Joanne. It turns

646
00:34:32,360 --> 00:34:38,440
Speaker 5: out it's kind of boring. She does missionary like Stephanie.

647
00:34:38,840 --> 00:34:41,239
Speaker 5: I need. Do I need a new identity or just

648
00:34:41,280 --> 00:34:44,600
Speaker 5: a hobby that doesn't involve wine and detective shows?

649
00:34:44,640 --> 00:34:49,439
Speaker 2: Oh my god, they detective first of all, step away

650
00:34:49,440 --> 00:34:53,440
Speaker 2: from the line. It can't go. Step away from the

651
00:34:53,520 --> 00:34:54,960
Speaker 2: detective shows. That can't go.

652
00:34:55,080 --> 00:34:55,319
Speaker 5: Well.

653
00:34:55,480 --> 00:35:06,920
Speaker 2: Yeah, I would argue she doesn't need an identity. She's

654
00:35:06,960 --> 00:35:10,600
Speaker 2: gonna just have to try doing a lot of different things.

655
00:35:10,680 --> 00:35:16,160
Speaker 2: I read that I've said this before. Anxiety is fear

656
00:35:16,280 --> 00:35:20,399
Speaker 2: without a plan. Get a plan, a little loose plan.

657
00:35:20,560 --> 00:35:23,520
Speaker 2: I'm gonna try this next month. I'm gonna try that

658
00:35:23,800 --> 00:35:28,080
Speaker 2: the month after. You gotta stop thinking you need one

659
00:35:28,200 --> 00:35:32,360
Speaker 2: overarching identity because it didn't work. None of them lasted.

660
00:35:32,480 --> 00:35:34,840
Speaker 2: Mom doesn't last because once they're out of the house,

661
00:35:35,440 --> 00:35:38,640
Speaker 2: they're on to the next. Wife doesn't last because the

662
00:35:38,719 --> 00:35:44,120
Speaker 2: charmer that fucking wears off quick. Believe you me. Daughter

663
00:35:44,280 --> 00:35:47,719
Speaker 2: doesn't last because they die. Sister doesn't last, like all

664
00:35:47,760 --> 00:35:51,800
Speaker 2: of it's just these things you are, but you don't

665
00:35:51,840 --> 00:35:55,120
Speaker 2: need the big overarching thing. I remember in Acropollu, this

666
00:35:55,239 --> 00:35:57,160
Speaker 2: meditation place we went to. I was in a workshop

667
00:35:57,200 --> 00:36:02,239
Speaker 2: and they said, write down everything you identify as, and

668
00:36:02,680 --> 00:36:06,080
Speaker 2: you know, we write down daughter, sister, comic, helper or whatever,

669
00:36:06,200 --> 00:36:09,120
Speaker 2: any grammy ate, whatever, and so you have tons of

670
00:36:09,120 --> 00:36:12,160
Speaker 2: these things. And then it'd be like, oh wait, I

671
00:36:12,239 --> 00:36:14,719
Speaker 2: forgot and it will sound corny, but I don't care

672
00:36:15,840 --> 00:36:21,000
Speaker 2: forgot the most important one. Just a human, that's all

673
00:36:21,080 --> 00:36:24,120
Speaker 2: that fucking counts. So the more she could lean into

674
00:36:24,160 --> 00:36:28,680
Speaker 2: acceptance of oh wait, I'm just a human. How do

675
00:36:28,760 --> 00:36:32,280
Speaker 2: I not make that into I'm boring? Because it's not boring.

676
00:36:32,800 --> 00:36:34,759
Speaker 2: If I told you about a person who got up

677
00:36:34,760 --> 00:36:38,759
Speaker 2: in the morning, they lit a candle, they did their meditation,

678
00:36:39,080 --> 00:36:41,719
Speaker 2: they went outside, got the paper because they're still the

679
00:36:41,760 --> 00:36:47,000
Speaker 2: old person who gets the newspaper. They but fed the dogs,

680
00:36:47,120 --> 00:36:51,880
Speaker 2: They read a book, they watched a show, they journaled,

681
00:36:51,920 --> 00:36:55,440
Speaker 2: they met with friends, they went to game night. Whatever

682
00:36:55,480 --> 00:36:57,920
Speaker 2: it is, you'll be like, that's not a boring person.

683
00:36:58,000 --> 00:37:00,520
Speaker 2: That's like a person who has a cute look life.

684
00:37:01,360 --> 00:37:06,280
Speaker 2: If her goal was I'm gonna be what's her first name, Jones,

685
00:37:06,600 --> 00:37:09,880
Speaker 2: Joanne's fabrics with a cute little life. You never know

686
00:37:09,920 --> 00:37:12,640
Speaker 2: what it's gonna look like. But that's driving over a

687
00:37:12,680 --> 00:37:15,919
Speaker 2: big one, a big identifier. I don't think it's gonna work.

688
00:37:17,239 --> 00:37:19,120
Speaker 5: Yeah, I mean, Joanne, here's the deal.

689
00:37:19,960 --> 00:37:23,120
Speaker 2: Oh jeez, we're gearing up here for some words of

690
00:37:23,160 --> 00:37:24,560
Speaker 2: wisdom that aren't gonna come.

691
00:37:25,360 --> 00:37:28,040
Speaker 5: Just give up, it's over.

692
00:37:28,280 --> 00:37:31,680
Speaker 2: Just cheat on your husband, yes, I mean with me,

693
00:37:32,040 --> 00:37:36,839
Speaker 2: get drunk on wine. You relive a true crime thing

694
00:37:36,920 --> 00:37:40,960
Speaker 2: yourself by cheating on your husband and murdering him. That's

695
00:37:41,080 --> 00:37:44,160
Speaker 2: not yo, that's not boring. That's the opposite. Do you

696
00:37:44,160 --> 00:37:45,000
Speaker 2: want that life?

697
00:37:45,080 --> 00:37:47,359
Speaker 5: You want to spend your golden years in a penitentiary.

698
00:37:47,800 --> 00:37:50,400
Speaker 2: I mean, that's not boring. Uncle Junior did.

699
00:37:50,200 --> 00:37:54,880
Speaker 5: It pretty good? Junior go to jail, he was he

700
00:37:54,920 --> 00:37:57,560
Speaker 5: had like a he went to like an insane hospital.

701
00:37:57,800 --> 00:37:59,719
Speaker 5: Oh that's right, it was actually jail.

702
00:38:00,200 --> 00:38:01,840
Speaker 2: She could do that. Drive herself crazy.

703
00:38:01,880 --> 00:38:04,480
Speaker 5: I just go, I'm crazy. All the type of shows

704
00:38:04,560 --> 00:38:05,400
Speaker 5: and why.

705
00:38:05,320 --> 00:38:07,600
Speaker 2: Yeah, I just think the more you go after the

706
00:38:07,680 --> 00:38:10,560
Speaker 2: big identity, it's just going to lead you down another

707
00:38:10,640 --> 00:38:13,760
Speaker 2: path of like in ten years, Wow, I'm not that anymore.

708
00:38:14,200 --> 00:38:18,640
Speaker 2: Just go internal, find out, and a very elemental exercise

709
00:38:18,680 --> 00:38:21,200
Speaker 2: might be what did you like to do as a kid, right?

710
00:38:21,360 --> 00:38:23,520
Speaker 2: Who knows what that leads to. It might be some

711
00:38:23,920 --> 00:38:27,600
Speaker 2: exercise hobby, or some art hobby, or some nature thing

712
00:38:27,640 --> 00:38:29,480
Speaker 2: that you're like, oh yeah, I forgot that part of me.

713
00:38:29,840 --> 00:38:33,200
Speaker 5: Yeah. And in the playground, which is what you used

714
00:38:33,200 --> 00:38:34,560
Speaker 5: to do to beat up myself.

715
00:38:34,960 --> 00:38:37,120
Speaker 2: There you go, Next letter.

716
00:38:38,000 --> 00:38:43,200
Speaker 5: Next letter. All right, hey, Lisa, what I feel like?

717
00:38:43,760 --> 00:38:44,800
Speaker 5: You'll tell me the truth?

718
00:38:44,960 --> 00:38:45,080
Speaker 2: Oh?

719
00:38:45,160 --> 00:38:52,280
Speaker 5: Yeah, Angelo, I'm thirty one. I live in Los Angeles.

720
00:38:52,719 --> 00:38:54,200
Speaker 5: I always said I was going to be an act

721
00:38:54,280 --> 00:38:59,920
Speaker 5: all but after five years of rejection, postmate gigs and

722
00:39:00,080 --> 00:39:02,359
Speaker 5: performing in front of four drunk tourists at a bar

723
00:39:02,440 --> 00:39:05,359
Speaker 5: I didn't know it booked a contwait at a bar

724
00:39:05,440 --> 00:39:07,279
Speaker 5: that I didn't know it booked a comedy show. I'm

725
00:39:07,280 --> 00:39:10,920
Speaker 5: starting to wonder if I'm just a guy who majored

726
00:39:10,960 --> 00:39:14,320
Speaker 5: in the theater and now sells skincare on TikTok.

727
00:39:14,880 --> 00:39:16,200
Speaker 4: Oh.

728
00:39:16,280 --> 00:39:19,480
Speaker 5: Damn, this is hard. Damn, this is giving up or

729
00:39:19,520 --> 00:39:22,640
Speaker 5: growing up. Please advise Angelo. I'll take this.

730
00:39:22,560 --> 00:39:27,359
Speaker 2: One, Nick as a loser with a dream. What do

731
00:39:27,400 --> 00:39:28,200
Speaker 2: you think.

732
00:39:28,760 --> 00:39:34,680
Speaker 5: If you're selling anything on TikTok, No, it's your as.

733
00:39:34,960 --> 00:39:38,360
Speaker 2: No. If it's a puffer vest, it's okay.

734
00:39:38,840 --> 00:39:40,720
Speaker 4: Guys. I love this puffer jacket.

735
00:39:40,800 --> 00:39:43,200
Speaker 5: You could dress it up, it down, stay cold, warm,

736
00:39:43,440 --> 00:39:45,000
Speaker 5: squeeze your tits, whatever, it.

737
00:39:44,880 --> 00:39:47,280
Speaker 4: Doesn't matter, No, it doesn't, it doesn't.

738
00:39:47,480 --> 00:39:47,920
Speaker 5: Denim.

739
00:39:48,080 --> 00:39:49,080
Speaker 4: These are my favorite.

740
00:39:49,120 --> 00:39:49,680
Speaker 5: I hate those.

741
00:39:50,200 --> 00:39:52,600
Speaker 2: I think a lot of times with these guys who

742
00:39:52,719 --> 00:39:54,879
Speaker 2: used to be actors, who were majored in theater, they

743
00:39:54,920 --> 00:39:58,960
Speaker 2: forget why they went to it in the first place.

744
00:40:00,080 --> 00:40:04,239
Speaker 2: So if you went into acting, it's usually a couple

745
00:40:04,320 --> 00:40:07,200
Speaker 2: of things, and I think the most healthy one was

746
00:40:07,239 --> 00:40:13,759
Speaker 2: you wanted to convey a human experience in an artistic way. Well,

747
00:40:13,800 --> 00:40:17,760
Speaker 2: you can do that on a small level, community theater

748
00:40:17,920 --> 00:40:21,920
Speaker 2: regional theater. You can do it in a way on TikTok,

749
00:40:22,040 --> 00:40:26,880
Speaker 2: like you can use some of that training and some

750
00:40:26,960 --> 00:40:31,000
Speaker 2: of that to get across why you chose to do

751
00:40:31,080 --> 00:40:34,000
Speaker 2: this thing in the first place, which is to make

752
00:40:34,120 --> 00:40:38,120
Speaker 2: people feel less alone. But if that's not why you

753
00:40:38,200 --> 00:40:40,040
Speaker 2: went into it, and you went into it to be

754
00:40:40,239 --> 00:40:43,560
Speaker 2: seen to hold people captive in a room while you

755
00:40:43,680 --> 00:40:48,960
Speaker 2: performed to get some self worth, that's worth looking at

756
00:40:49,239 --> 00:40:51,080
Speaker 2: to see if you should give it the fuck up

757
00:40:51,080 --> 00:40:52,960
Speaker 2: because you were in it for the wrong reasons and

758
00:40:53,040 --> 00:40:53,840
Speaker 2: shallow ones.

759
00:40:54,360 --> 00:40:57,920
Speaker 5: Yeah, it's fun. When I started comedy again, we had

760
00:40:57,920 --> 00:41:00,759
Speaker 5: this conversation. But when I go to comedy it was

761
00:41:00,800 --> 00:41:04,879
Speaker 5: the same thing. Was like after I went to therapy.

762
00:41:05,040 --> 00:41:07,719
Speaker 5: I remember thinking at shows and sitting down and being like,

763
00:41:08,280 --> 00:41:10,319
Speaker 5: are we all doing this because we really want to

764
00:41:10,360 --> 00:41:12,920
Speaker 5: do it? Or is this just our hit? Are we

765
00:41:12,920 --> 00:41:14,360
Speaker 5: all doing I used to in my head this is

766
00:41:14,400 --> 00:41:16,080
Speaker 5: like a jokey way, but it's kind of how I thought.

767
00:41:16,520 --> 00:41:17,920
Speaker 5: Are we just doing this because none of us have

768
00:41:17,960 --> 00:41:18,960
Speaker 5: girlfriends or wives yet?

769
00:41:19,160 --> 00:41:19,839
Speaker 2: Yeah?

770
00:41:20,000 --> 00:41:22,320
Speaker 5: Like are we just Are we just doing this for attention?

771
00:41:22,400 --> 00:41:24,800
Speaker 5: Are we just doing this because we could get a

772
00:41:24,800 --> 00:41:26,680
Speaker 5: little hit of attention out of it? Or meet a

773
00:41:26,719 --> 00:41:29,200
Speaker 5: girl or what like? Are we is that what we're

774
00:41:29,239 --> 00:41:32,800
Speaker 5: doing it for? Do we actually like love it? Because

775
00:41:33,000 --> 00:41:37,920
Speaker 5: it seems like the people who make it, like yourself

776
00:41:37,920 --> 00:41:40,440
Speaker 5: and whatever when you talked about your story, but every

777
00:41:40,480 --> 00:41:44,719
Speaker 5: comic that you speak to, it's like they loved it.

778
00:41:44,400 --> 00:41:47,480
Speaker 2: Like and they would have done anything to get that.

779
00:41:47,320 --> 00:41:50,719
Speaker 5: Thing get for them. Getting on stage was like, I

780
00:41:50,800 --> 00:41:55,080
Speaker 5: cannot live if I do not do this right, So

781
00:41:55,160 --> 00:41:59,320
Speaker 5: you got to ask yourself like, is that really? What again?

782
00:41:59,480 --> 00:42:00,680
Speaker 5: Is that what is to you?

783
00:42:00,800 --> 00:42:00,880
Speaker 1: Like?

784
00:42:01,200 --> 00:42:03,319
Speaker 5: I will not be happy unless I do this? Or

785
00:42:03,400 --> 00:42:06,160
Speaker 5: is it like you said, oh look at me, I'm

786
00:42:06,200 --> 00:42:09,160
Speaker 5: doing well, I'm attention right, You got to find out

787
00:42:09,200 --> 00:42:10,440
Speaker 5: what the fuck it is first?

788
00:42:10,800 --> 00:42:14,239
Speaker 2: Yeah, I think it's worth looking at what it would

789
00:42:14,320 --> 00:42:18,440
Speaker 2: mean to walk away? And is that in my highest good?

790
00:42:18,840 --> 00:42:22,080
Speaker 2: Like often with like somatic therapy, you do where you

791
00:42:22,160 --> 00:42:26,520
Speaker 2: identify the child who in you that felt they needed

792
00:42:26,520 --> 00:42:29,880
Speaker 2: the attention, say, for instance, and then your wisest self

793
00:42:29,960 --> 00:42:34,560
Speaker 2: now talks to them. Will that wisest self be You've

794
00:42:34,600 --> 00:42:39,040
Speaker 2: tried long enough, I see you and that's enough.

795
00:42:39,360 --> 00:42:39,840
Speaker 5: Yeah?

796
00:42:40,040 --> 00:42:44,480
Speaker 2: Would it be? Hey, I see you and it's fun.

797
00:42:45,080 --> 00:42:47,719
Speaker 2: Let's play at it. Let's make it play let's make

798
00:42:47,760 --> 00:42:50,480
Speaker 2: it fun and interesting and cute like it was when

799
00:42:50,520 --> 00:42:53,399
Speaker 2: we were in the sixth grade show. Like, I coach

800
00:42:53,440 --> 00:42:56,200
Speaker 2: a girl who told me about when she did her

801
00:42:56,280 --> 00:42:58,680
Speaker 2: first Oh it's so cute when she did like a

802
00:42:58,760 --> 00:43:00,920
Speaker 2: musical when she was eight. I think it was like

803
00:43:00,960 --> 00:43:03,720
Speaker 2: one hundred one Dalmatians and she was the little Dog

804
00:43:03,800 --> 00:43:06,000
Speaker 2: and she's I go, oh, did you have to RF?

805
00:43:06,080 --> 00:43:08,080
Speaker 2: And she's like, oh no, we like sing the chorus

806
00:43:08,120 --> 00:43:10,120
Speaker 2: and she goes, was so much fun. And I'm like,

807
00:43:10,600 --> 00:43:13,560
Speaker 2: if that's the energy like you can bring into now,

808
00:43:13,680 --> 00:43:17,200
Speaker 2: that would be great. So if he could get where

809
00:43:17,360 --> 00:43:21,440
Speaker 2: he could bring in that first energy of soulful, wonder

810
00:43:21,600 --> 00:43:24,600
Speaker 2: and love, boy, that's worth sticking with and then doing

811
00:43:24,640 --> 00:43:27,560
Speaker 2: it in whatever way you can. Then ps, even if

812
00:43:27,560 --> 00:43:29,439
Speaker 2: you do it in a small, little theater, you won't

813
00:43:29,440 --> 00:43:31,319
Speaker 2: feel like a loser because you get that hit.

814
00:43:31,880 --> 00:43:35,240
Speaker 5: Yeah, that's I think when like when I started comedy,

815
00:43:35,239 --> 00:43:37,040
Speaker 5: I was in such a different place like now it's

816
00:43:37,280 --> 00:43:39,160
Speaker 5: I keep coming back to it's fun. I like it.

817
00:43:39,160 --> 00:43:42,160
Speaker 5: It's fun yep. With acting even like it's like, yeah,

818
00:43:42,320 --> 00:43:44,719
Speaker 5: you know, you get the dreams of Like imagine if

819
00:43:44,719 --> 00:43:47,080
Speaker 5: I got a sitcom and I did this and blah

820
00:43:47,080 --> 00:43:49,160
Speaker 5: blah blah, but like there's also a part of me

821
00:43:49,239 --> 00:43:51,360
Speaker 5: that's like, you know, it would be really fun. Is

822
00:43:51,400 --> 00:43:54,720
Speaker 5: like being in a live production, yeah, my acting studio.

823
00:43:54,800 --> 00:43:57,080
Speaker 5: Like I watch that, I'm like, that would be really cool.

824
00:43:57,320 --> 00:43:58,000
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's not.

825
00:43:58,040 --> 00:44:00,520
Speaker 5: I'm not I'm not making a bunch of money. I'm

826
00:44:00,560 --> 00:44:03,160
Speaker 5: not lighting the world on fire. Ye, but I'm in

827
00:44:03,200 --> 00:44:04,880
Speaker 5: that now that I'm like, oh, but that would be

828
00:44:04,960 --> 00:44:06,759
Speaker 5: that would be so fucking cool to do that.

829
00:44:07,080 --> 00:44:10,439
Speaker 2: Yeah, So that's the wonder that you want to bring

830
00:44:10,520 --> 00:44:13,880
Speaker 2: to it and the awe instead of like, you know that,

831
00:44:14,120 --> 00:44:16,440
Speaker 2: well that would help me make this and this connection

832
00:44:16,560 --> 00:44:19,239
Speaker 2: and then like when it becomes so much of a business,

833
00:44:19,840 --> 00:44:24,680
Speaker 2: it's really sad. So I would say to him, look internally,

834
00:44:25,320 --> 00:44:28,839
Speaker 2: figure out what you love about it and see if

835
00:44:28,840 --> 00:44:32,080
Speaker 2: it's worth sticking it out, or if you can get

836
00:44:32,080 --> 00:44:34,680
Speaker 2: what you love about it from other areas of your life,

837
00:44:35,120 --> 00:44:38,440
Speaker 2: if you can be seen and heard and felt valued

838
00:44:38,560 --> 00:44:40,560
Speaker 2: in other areas. There's a lot easier ways to do

839
00:44:40,600 --> 00:44:46,239
Speaker 2: it than that grind. God, that's a fucking business. I'm

840
00:44:46,320 --> 00:44:49,600
Speaker 2: so glad I made it because I probably I'm not

841
00:44:49,600 --> 00:44:51,600
Speaker 2: gonna say, i'd probably be dead, but I was like

842
00:44:51,719 --> 00:44:54,480
Speaker 2: I wonder what the fuck would have happened. I think

843
00:44:54,520 --> 00:44:56,520
Speaker 2: I was just mentally ill enough to make it work.

844
00:44:56,719 --> 00:44:58,240
Speaker 5: Okay, what do you think would have happened?

845
00:44:58,239 --> 00:45:01,560
Speaker 2: Though? I don't know if I just was some sad

846
00:45:01,680 --> 00:45:07,120
Speaker 2: headliner going from like Denver Comedy Connection, if that's the thing.

847
00:45:07,239 --> 00:45:09,719
Speaker 5: Never, so you never, you think if it didn't work

848
00:45:09,719 --> 00:45:11,440
Speaker 5: out the way that you still would have been doing it,

849
00:45:11,480 --> 00:45:13,160
Speaker 5: no matter even if you didn't make it, you think

850
00:45:13,160 --> 00:45:14,040
Speaker 5: you'd still be doing it.

851
00:45:14,800 --> 00:45:18,200
Speaker 2: Probably by now I would have had some wake up

852
00:45:18,239 --> 00:45:19,880
Speaker 2: call of like, you don't like this. I think I

853
00:45:19,880 --> 00:45:21,680
Speaker 2: would have quit at the age I quit no matter

854
00:45:21,719 --> 00:45:24,279
Speaker 2: what gotcha, at whatever level I was on. But it

855
00:45:24,320 --> 00:45:26,920
Speaker 2: was way easier to walk away when you're kind of

856
00:45:26,960 --> 00:45:30,280
Speaker 2: already somebody Yeah you know, so sure who.

857
00:45:30,120 --> 00:45:33,919
Speaker 5: Knows won super Bowl and you got out? That's right, Michael, Yeah,

858
00:45:34,160 --> 00:45:35,480
Speaker 5: an one straight listener.

859
00:45:35,680 --> 00:45:39,040
Speaker 2: It's so funny. Michael Strahanna had a sitcom on Fox

860
00:45:39,320 --> 00:45:42,560
Speaker 2: and I was in the pilot and my manager sent

861
00:45:42,640 --> 00:45:44,400
Speaker 2: it to me because like, it's not like I was

862
00:45:44,400 --> 00:45:46,520
Speaker 2: a big actor or something, but he was a fan.

863
00:45:47,360 --> 00:45:50,480
Speaker 2: So I was bartender fucking got cut out. I was

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Speaker 2: I mean like so it's like, oh, thank you Michael

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Speaker 2: strahan On. Yes, wow, we ended on such a butcher

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Speaker 2: note had some femininity. Stephanie. Tell people where to follow

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Speaker 2: you on Instagram. You said very little today, but I

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Speaker 2: enjoyed what you did. Share. Go ahead, where is your Instagram.

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Speaker 6: At steph Lane to ease underscore and I'm not spelling

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Speaker 6: it out.

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Speaker 2: No, she's she's an eight and you figure it out.

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Speaker 2: Tell everybody where to find you.

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Speaker 5: You can follow me at nick Scopes on Instagram and

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Speaker 5: the TikTok and you can find me where anywhere. Baby.

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Speaker 5: That's that's right at the local mortgage broker.

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Speaker 2: Paying people's mortgages.

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Speaker 5: Follow her, Lisa Lambinelli. If you guys want to write

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Speaker 5: into the show, first of all, thank you for listening

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Speaker 5: so much. If you want to write into the show,

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Speaker 5: email us at shrink this Show at gmail dot com.

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Speaker 5: That is shrinked this show at gmail dot com. Follow

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Speaker 5: us on Instagram, and please listen on your iHeartRadio app

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Speaker 5: and nowhere else. But it's okay if you listen to

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Speaker 5: other places.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, it really is, but we won't fucking be picking

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Speaker 2: and choosing. But if I had to pick one to.

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Speaker 5: Be iHeart, I'd probably go Spotify.

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Speaker 2: I mean, my identify as an iHeart representative. Now that's

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Speaker 2: my new identity. I'm going to change it on Instagram,

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Speaker 2: Toube podcast, or come iHeart representative.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, they don't pay me as art.

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Speaker 2: Yeah listen, bitch bye