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Speaker 1: to so many of you that listen, that have reached

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Speaker 1: out to me over this weekend. As many of you know,

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Speaker 1: one of my best friends passed away and it was

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Speaker 1: a very public story. I'm gonna do my best to

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Speaker 1: get through this. Grayson Murray was one of my best friends,

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Speaker 1: last several years. I got to watch him earlier this

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Speaker 1: He had been very public about his struggles with anxiety

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Speaker 1: and depression and alcoholism, and he had been sober now

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Speaker 1: for almost a year and had gotten engaged and things

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Speaker 1: in real life, in real time. And he was not

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Speaker 1: a golfer, to me first. He was my friend. I

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Speaker 1: had told him many at times, I don't care if

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Speaker 1: in reference to some of the load times I had

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Speaker 1: told him many times, I don't care if you ever

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Speaker 1: to keep you sober, then let's do it. Grayson took

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Speaker 1: his own life on Saturday, and it rocked the sports

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Speaker 1: it was a story that had people reacting in the

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Speaker 1: country music world that knew him, and the sports world

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Speaker 1: and the golf world, in the hockey world, he was

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Speaker 1: a huge Hurricanes fan, and so many of you that

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Speaker 1: knew that he was my friend had reached out, and

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Speaker 1: I wanted to make sure I took a moment and said,

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Speaker 1: first of all, thank you. I also wanted to use

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Speaker 1: a person, because I wanted to be used for good,

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Speaker 1: hopefully to help others that are dealing with anxiety and

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Speaker 1: depression and fighting alcoholism. It is a fight, it is

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Speaker 1: a battle. It is a lifelong battle for many. And

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Speaker 1: I also want you to know who he was as

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Speaker 1: a person. Grayson was to me more of like a

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Speaker 1: little brother. I'm forty two, he was thirty, and when

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Speaker 1: we met, I don't know, nine years ago. We met

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Speaker 1: when he was really young, he was like twenty one,

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Speaker 1: twenty two. And I'd been blessed to see pro golfers perform,

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Speaker 1: but then there's an X factor with golfers where there's

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Speaker 1: to be there and spend time with him during that victory,

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Speaker 1: as good basically as your last year. And he had

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Speaker 1: the first two tournaments the year you won. Now that's

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Speaker 1: understand You understand that, but there's a lot of anxiety

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Speaker 1: So let's play your free up to just play. And

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Speaker 1: just because I want you to know who Grayson was.

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Speaker 1: Grayson would FaceTime on the regular basis. He would he

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Speaker 1: And he got into the World champions You have to qualify.

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Speaker 1: He was his faith when he won. If you if

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Speaker 1: I know he's no longer in pain. But check on

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Speaker 1: your friends and have compassion and understanding, and just tell

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Speaker 1: them you love them and you support them. But don't

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Speaker 1: enable their addictions, please don't. I have friends who drink

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Speaker 1: too much and I tell him it, and it can

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Speaker 1: because the way I tell him is I want you

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Speaker 1: love them. I will say this finally that I miss you, buddy.

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Speaker 1: I love you. We will never forget you. I will

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Speaker 1: make sure people never forget your legacy and and and

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Speaker 1: for being in my life. We will lay him to

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Speaker 1: rest this week, and I love you. And I hope

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Speaker 1: that this show can be shared with someone that needs

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Speaker 1: to hear it and it will inspire someone to have

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Speaker 1: that those tough and hard conversations