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Speaker 1: The Nicky Glazer Podcast. Nils here, Nikky, Hello here I am.

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Speaker 1: It's the Nikki Gla Podcast. Welcome to the show. It

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Speaker 1: is Wednesday's day. I'm in St. Louis, Missouri with Andrew Colin.

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Speaker 1: What's going on? Is there a different look going on

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Speaker 1: here today? Did you get a haircut? But there's something

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Speaker 1: else too? I thought I got used to the mustache,

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Speaker 1: but something looks different. Really? No boots, shoels, Andrew Jackson sandals.

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Speaker 1: You've got some flippies, some flippy floppy, some reefs. You know,

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Speaker 1: it's getting ninety degrees out. I forget how hot it

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Speaker 1: is outside because it's so cold up in this bitch.

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Speaker 1: I walk out there, I'm like Jesus Christ, it's too hot.

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Speaker 1: It is getting really hot. I mean it's scary. Things

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Speaker 1: aren't looking good. Look you get to boil and egg

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Speaker 1: out there or whatever have you? You? Um, what do

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Speaker 1: you do yesterday? After the pod? No? Before the I

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Speaker 1: don't know. And are you stalling to think by saying

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Speaker 1: after the that's like when people go that's a really

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Speaker 1: good question. Can I have a minute? Is actually being honest?

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Speaker 1: Can I have thirty second? Can I have seven seconds?

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Speaker 1: That's being honest saying that's a good question when you're waiting,

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Speaker 1: when you're trying to figure out what to say, that's

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Speaker 1: the one stalling and trying to Yeah, you know, that

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Speaker 1: is a really good question. Why I was texting that

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Speaker 1: other girl. I'm really glad you asked that. It's interesting

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Speaker 1: you say that, yeah before the pod, because I was

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Speaker 1: thinking about that after the pod. Um. It is interesting though,

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Speaker 1: when you do listen to somebody's podcasts and they speaks

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Speaker 1: so slow, I don't know it. Let's try to speak slow.

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Speaker 1: What do you think would happen? Like, like, let's try

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Speaker 1: so ask me that question, Andrew, what do you do yesterday?

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Speaker 1: M Yeah, it's interesting you asked that. Um, you know

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Speaker 1: the times you know we're in now it's tough to

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Speaker 1: really do anything with gas prices going through the roofs.

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Speaker 1: Here's the problem. Why do we talk fast is because

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Speaker 1: we're not smart. We're not smart. Yeah, or because we

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Speaker 1: are smart. We're not smart. So we talk fast because

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Speaker 1: people the information we're giving is not that dense and

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Speaker 1: it doesn't have a lot in it. So if we

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Speaker 1: it's the same reason I do four podcasts a week,

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Speaker 1: then no one can go your podcast sucks, and I go, well,

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Speaker 1: I give it to four times a week, motherfucker. Whereas

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Speaker 1: if someone was like, no one can tell, but don't

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Speaker 1: you think some of your points that are actually dense

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Speaker 1: and are smart because I think down down post No,

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Speaker 1: I just showed on my talking and I go listen.

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Speaker 1: I think that this, like I have a more deliberate tone,

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Speaker 1: but when we're just saying stupid shit, it's just like,

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Speaker 1: I know it's hard because I listened to Sam Harris

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Speaker 1: on one speed. I don't speed him up. I listen

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Speaker 1: to Conan one point to five. Sometimes I gotta slow

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Speaker 1: down because he's just so fast. But like the more

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Speaker 1: comedy and comedic and easy going, it is the faster

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Speaker 1: I wanted to be. Um. I think people who talk

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Speaker 1: slow either do it so that they can be understood

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Speaker 1: and they're trying to make a good point, or they

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Speaker 1: are narcissists. Oh and they're just their time is not

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Speaker 1: your time. I'm definitely have narcissistic tendencies. There's no fucking

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Speaker 1: question about it. I really do constantly consider how I

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Speaker 1: don't think people. Um, I'm always considering how other people

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Speaker 1: probably don't want to be listening to me as much

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Speaker 1: as I do put out stuff to be listened to,

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Speaker 1: I'm chronically talk like doing things to avoid someone going

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Speaker 1: you suck, and then saying, well, that's why I do.

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Speaker 1: That's why it works so much. I realized it's because

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Speaker 1: when I put out one thing, everything is on at

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Speaker 1: one thing. But if I do a ton of stuff,

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Speaker 1: I can go. I'm so busy. That's why it's bad.

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Speaker 1: I always have an out or if you know my

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Speaker 1: my stand up show, that's why I do a meet

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Speaker 1: and greet afterwards, because I want people to get something

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Speaker 1: out of it that literally they couldn't get anywhere else,

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Speaker 1: which is I know what I'm I'm I know I'm

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Speaker 1: good at stand up, but what I'm best at is

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Speaker 1: being personable with people and making them feel seen in

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Speaker 1: a way that I if I was meeting the Dixie

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Speaker 1: Chicks like I did in would have liked them to

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Speaker 1: have met me. When I met the Dixie Chicks, you

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Speaker 1: just walked in and stood behind their chairs and didn't

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Speaker 1: say anything to them and just snapped a picture and

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Speaker 1: then moved on. And so I just I'm like, Okay,

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Speaker 1: I'm constantly aware that, um, I'm probably not enough. It's

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Speaker 1: low self esteem. I realized that I obviously do sometimes

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Speaker 1: have self high self esteem, but and then sometimes you

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Speaker 1: self distraught. I do it too, Yeah, but but then

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Speaker 1: why if you're so worried about that, But then you

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Speaker 1: also then will lean into things where you're like it

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Speaker 1: comes across like yourn like fun it all, say whatever

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Speaker 1: the hell I want, um, Because then also because I

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Speaker 1: know I'm right in those times if I'm on my

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Speaker 1: vegan so bad, well that was out of curs for

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Speaker 1: people being like, shut up, bitch. But I'm still gonna

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Speaker 1: say it because I know that it's a difference between

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Speaker 1: knowing I'm right and knowing I'm talented. Like I questioned

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Speaker 1: my talent all the time. I always feel like an impostor.

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Speaker 1: And I know this is like hard to hear for

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Speaker 1: people who are like but I'm a huge fan of yours.

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Speaker 1: If Taylor Swift said she wasn't talented, I might be

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Speaker 1: like a little bit hurt, Like you think your ship

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Speaker 1: but I think you're a god. Um, every single talented

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Speaker 1: person thinks they're not talented secretly, even you know, everyone

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Speaker 1: who listened to this has has impostor syndrome. I have

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Speaker 1: it too, And um, I think that though I I

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Speaker 1: but when it comes to veganism, that's what I always say.

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Speaker 1: And I'm not gonna get this is I'm talking about veganism,

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Speaker 1: not about it. I'm not gonna go on a rant.

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Speaker 1: I'm just touching on it. I just know I'm right.

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Speaker 1: So there's no I have no impostor syndrome of like

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Speaker 1: that is as right as you know, should I kick

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Speaker 1: my dog or not kick my dog? That to me

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Speaker 1: is like there's just no there's no moral argument to

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Speaker 1: be had, like it's done, Like the argument's done and

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Speaker 1: so and there's so few things in life that I'm

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Speaker 1: so sure of that, and that's probably one of the

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Speaker 1: only things I'm sure of that. And I'm sure that

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Speaker 1: I'm not as talented as people think I am. But

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Speaker 1: then sometimes I do think I'm really talented. Do you

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Speaker 1: ever get like really caught like the look in the

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Speaker 1: mirror and I'm like, you're the hot Like Amy used

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Speaker 1: to have a joke about this where she's like, do

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Speaker 1: you ever like look in the mirror and you're like,

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Speaker 1: I'm a fucking model, Like she used to have a joke.

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Speaker 1: And so I don't want to even say anything that

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Speaker 1: sounds like I'm ripping that off, but I really do

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Speaker 1: relate to that of like sometimes I definitely and like

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Speaker 1: I'm one of the most talented people ever, I'm one

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Speaker 1: of the hottest people ever. Like I feel so good

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Speaker 1: and I can feel the opposite of that within minutes.

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Speaker 1: I think our brains are similar in regards to one

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Speaker 1: how we feel about ourselves depending on how we're actually feeling,

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Speaker 1: like internally, you know what I mean, Like, I think

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Speaker 1: depending on our mood, even before we start to think

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Speaker 1: about how talented we are and my sad that day,

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Speaker 1: my depressed that day, depending on your emotional stage. But

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Speaker 1: like at least me to like one morning, I could

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Speaker 1: wake up thinking I'm a brilliant comedian. The next day

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Speaker 1: I can't even think because and then in regards to

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Speaker 1: look all emotional, I literally like I have dys morphia

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Speaker 1: a little bit of the face where I'll look at

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Speaker 1: the mirror and I'll go, you're a handsome man. And

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Speaker 1: then literally the next morning, when I had a little

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Speaker 1: bit of soy the night before, my face starts going

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Speaker 1: I look puffier and maybe I am. I don't know,

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Speaker 1: but do I know? But that is the thing, do

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Speaker 1: I look. We all have a body to morphia because

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Speaker 1: we're all seeing pictures of ourselves that are not what

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Speaker 1: we see in the mirror. When you look in the mirror,

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Speaker 1: But we are you know, we're not symmetrical. So we're

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Speaker 1: we're like, what the hell is that? And it's because

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Speaker 1: Even if it's straight on, it is not oriented to

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Speaker 1: what our face looks like. Ter to day, I was

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Speaker 1: on Instagram live and doing uh, just doing wacky filters

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Speaker 1: rabbit nose, but still smaller than mine. Um, like pink cheeks.

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Speaker 1: we're being lined to constantly about what we look like,

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Speaker 1: and even with our own eyes. There's this crazy thing,

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Speaker 1: is not able to I cannot do it on the podcast.

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Speaker 1: It would be like not interesting radio at all or

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Speaker 1: even for the video podcast. But they have it's this

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Speaker 1: and then you you go, no way, are these the

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Speaker 1: face The faces are definitely changing to monsters. They're normal people,

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Speaker 1: and it is so well. Some people in the comments

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Speaker 1: said that perhaps it's because when we cannot see what

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Speaker 1: is next, when we are in a position where we

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Speaker 1: cannot tell what is coming at us or what kind

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Speaker 1: of threats there are, where we can't get a good

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Speaker 1: look at it, we see the worst just in order

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Speaker 1: to alarm us enough to you know, air on the

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Speaker 1: side of that thing is going to come get us.

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Speaker 1: I'm saying, I said, so many people you would think

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Speaker 1: it is so insane how these faces look. They look

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Speaker 1: like Picasso and like that. I mean it's called some

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Speaker 1: kind of effect, you know, a scientific effect. But I mean,

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Speaker 1: do you think kids nowadays, because of filters, like their

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Speaker 1: reality ever since they're five years old, is filled like

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Speaker 1: just normal. It's just normal. It's not like when I

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Speaker 1: from my thought that I'm unlovable unless I'm giving people

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Speaker 1: what they want, and that depresses me because I just

428
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Speaker 1: want to be lovable the way I am, even if

429
00:22:29,680 --> 00:22:31,919
Speaker 1: I was like a burn victim. And that's why my

430
00:22:31,960 --> 00:22:34,200
Speaker 1: favorite videos are the Beauty Queen fell on a fire

431
00:22:34,240 --> 00:22:36,920
Speaker 1: and had to find a personality, because do you think

432
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Speaker 1: you'd feel better? Let's say you go up on stage,

433
00:22:39,000 --> 00:22:42,720
Speaker 1: you're wearing jeans an old T shirt. No, maker, never

434
00:22:42,760 --> 00:22:45,760
Speaker 1: do that ever, because I don't want to disrespect my audience.

435
00:22:45,800 --> 00:22:49,280
Speaker 1: I want to put an effort, but isn't the effort

436
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Speaker 1: of being No, That's another thing. My act isn't enough.

437
00:22:53,920 --> 00:22:57,880
Speaker 1: I think that I'm not talented. Yeah, I'm not saying

438
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Speaker 1: you should. I'm just saying like, that's the other option

439
00:23:00,480 --> 00:23:05,280
Speaker 1: is to go, and then I can't do that because

440
00:23:05,520 --> 00:23:07,840
Speaker 1: for me, I think I'm not talented enough and I

441
00:23:07,840 --> 00:23:10,240
Speaker 1: think people will go. Her act sucked and she was

442
00:23:10,280 --> 00:23:12,679
Speaker 1: not even good to look at because at least the

443
00:23:12,760 --> 00:23:14,960
Speaker 1: girls that bring their husbands along that don't want to

444
00:23:14,960 --> 00:23:17,080
Speaker 1: be there, And I'm like, I hate female comics. I'm

445
00:23:17,119 --> 00:23:19,879
Speaker 1: literally dressing hot so that they are like, wellly she

446
00:23:19,920 --> 00:23:21,760
Speaker 1: was hot and I could just fucking stare at her

447
00:23:21,920 --> 00:23:24,359
Speaker 1: like I know that's sad to admit, but I do.

448
00:23:24,800 --> 00:23:27,159
Speaker 1: And I dress up because girls dress up for my

449
00:23:27,160 --> 00:23:28,639
Speaker 1: show and I want to, Like Matt, it feels like

450
00:23:28,640 --> 00:23:30,520
Speaker 1: showing up to a party where you're under dress. I

451
00:23:30,520 --> 00:23:33,359
Speaker 1: would never dress like Adam Sandler with my stand up.

452
00:23:33,359 --> 00:23:35,040
Speaker 1: I would never do that, even if it was like

453
00:23:35,520 --> 00:23:38,159
Speaker 1: I feel ridiculous, I want to, you know, but you

454
00:23:38,200 --> 00:23:40,679
Speaker 1: did at the one time in Canada, because because I

455
00:23:40,760 --> 00:23:45,399
Speaker 1: lost my there's an excuse. There's an If there's an excuse,

456
00:23:45,440 --> 00:23:47,680
Speaker 1: I'll do it. I can. That's why I'm like bondage,

457
00:23:47,680 --> 00:23:49,800
Speaker 1: so I don't have to fucking move because there's an excuse.

458
00:23:49,840 --> 00:23:53,120
Speaker 1: If I'm tied up, I can't do anything. I love

459
00:23:53,119 --> 00:23:56,560
Speaker 1: a forced excuse or a forced reason for why you

460
00:23:56,840 --> 00:23:59,439
Speaker 1: go half and half. That's why there's parts of me

461
00:23:59,560 --> 00:24:02,080
Speaker 1: that some times go it would be nice to be

462
00:24:02,119 --> 00:24:04,160
Speaker 1: a burn. I'm not saying nice to be a burn victim.

463
00:24:04,320 --> 00:24:07,680
Speaker 1: There'll be something freeing about not ever having the ability

464
00:24:07,720 --> 00:24:11,399
Speaker 1: to ever be hot again, that that that is taken

465
00:24:11,440 --> 00:24:14,000
Speaker 1: from me because if it's if it's on the table,

466
00:24:14,000 --> 00:24:15,960
Speaker 1: I always feel like a failure that I'm not wearing

467
00:24:16,000 --> 00:24:18,000
Speaker 1: I'm not trying enough. Like I have to go do

468
00:24:18,040 --> 00:24:20,359
Speaker 1: a podcast today, Jason Nash's podcast. I think it has

469
00:24:20,400 --> 00:24:23,200
Speaker 1: a huge following. There's gonna be video of it. He

470
00:24:23,200 --> 00:24:25,600
Speaker 1: he's always hanging out with these young YouTubers. There's gonna

471
00:24:25,600 --> 00:24:28,320
Speaker 1: be young people watching it. No, he's flying here to

472
00:24:28,560 --> 00:24:32,639
Speaker 1: film me for it. But um and I just feel like,

473
00:24:33,760 --> 00:24:35,720
Speaker 1: because it's video, I have to curl my hair, I

474
00:24:35,720 --> 00:24:37,840
Speaker 1: have to dress up, I have to look presentable again.

475
00:24:37,920 --> 00:24:41,280
Speaker 1: Because it's on video. Things that look you know, visually

476
00:24:41,359 --> 00:24:45,239
Speaker 1: pleasing are more fun to watch. Um. And that's why

477
00:24:45,280 --> 00:24:47,520
Speaker 1: I always tell you, like, fix your lighting. It's not

478
00:24:47,600 --> 00:24:50,680
Speaker 1: because it'll things that look good are gonna get eyes

479
00:24:50,680 --> 00:24:52,600
Speaker 1: on them, because you want to look at things. That's

480
00:24:52,600 --> 00:24:54,520
Speaker 1: why you when you make your phone in gray scale,

481
00:24:54,520 --> 00:24:56,120
Speaker 1: you don't want to be on as much. It sounds pretty,

482
00:24:56,119 --> 00:24:59,000
Speaker 1: it's not as satisfying. It's not because you're you know,

483
00:24:59,000 --> 00:25:01,240
Speaker 1: want to funk your phone. I had the uh the

484
00:25:01,800 --> 00:25:05,119
Speaker 1: green room we were in uh the second trip or

485
00:25:05,160 --> 00:25:09,200
Speaker 1: a second Pittsburgh had like nineteen mirrors in it, like

486
00:25:09,640 --> 00:25:13,080
Speaker 1: and so I could see my I would staying o'h

487
00:25:13,119 --> 00:25:15,959
Speaker 1: my god, I look handsome and then I caught like

488
00:25:16,000 --> 00:25:18,800
Speaker 1: a side probe and I think my side and whatever

489
00:25:18,840 --> 00:25:21,239
Speaker 1: you want to, but I feel like it's dogshit. Like

490
00:25:21,440 --> 00:25:24,280
Speaker 1: from this side my neck, I have this fat now

491
00:25:24,359 --> 00:25:26,679
Speaker 1: that has gotten here, like I'm getting older, Like my

492
00:25:26,760 --> 00:25:29,320
Speaker 1: neck looks fatter. My eyes look like, I don't know,

493
00:25:29,400 --> 00:25:32,399
Speaker 1: indented a little. I just look. I feel like my

494
00:25:32,440 --> 00:25:35,000
Speaker 1: back of my head is cut off. I feel like

495
00:25:35,040 --> 00:25:36,879
Speaker 1: the back of my head got cut off by a

496
00:25:36,920 --> 00:25:41,439
Speaker 1: tomahawk that someone scalp me. Yeah. Yeah, and then my

497
00:25:41,520 --> 00:25:44,440
Speaker 1: neck this thing. I'm sucking my own dick all the time,

498
00:25:45,680 --> 00:25:48,879
Speaker 1: which is cool, but it sucks my standing. So I

499
00:25:48,920 --> 00:25:53,359
Speaker 1: see all this it's cool, and it fucking drives me nuts,

500
00:25:53,440 --> 00:25:55,760
Speaker 1: it really does. And then I go, I don't know,

501
00:25:57,080 --> 00:26:00,760
Speaker 1: maybe as a guy, there's less Like I'm not saying

502
00:26:00,800 --> 00:26:02,840
Speaker 1: that I don't freak out when I see a bit,

503
00:26:03,640 --> 00:26:05,400
Speaker 1: And people are probably gonna write to me and say, Nick,

504
00:26:05,400 --> 00:26:08,159
Speaker 1: you sound really sick, and you should go back to

505
00:26:08,200 --> 00:26:10,520
Speaker 1: get in some sort of recovery program. You should read

506
00:26:10,560 --> 00:26:15,119
Speaker 1: this book about Well, you're not on camera constantly unless

507
00:26:15,200 --> 00:26:17,440
Speaker 1: you are, unless you're a newscaster, that is, to see

508
00:26:17,440 --> 00:26:19,399
Speaker 1: your face every day and you sit in here and

509
00:26:19,440 --> 00:26:21,080
Speaker 1: make up every day, and you have to post put

510
00:26:21,080 --> 00:26:22,720
Speaker 1: photos of yourself every day, and you have to go

511
00:26:22,760 --> 00:26:25,040
Speaker 1: on a video podcast every day, and the second you

512
00:26:25,080 --> 00:26:26,359
Speaker 1: wake up, you have to walk in your room and

513
00:26:26,400 --> 00:26:29,399
Speaker 1: look at your fucking you know, puffy face from not

514
00:26:29,400 --> 00:26:31,800
Speaker 1: getting sleep last night and put some makeup on it

515
00:26:32,119 --> 00:26:33,760
Speaker 1: and make yourself look good and then go to this

516
00:26:33,840 --> 00:26:35,639
Speaker 1: video podcast and then go on Zoom and try to

517
00:26:35,680 --> 00:26:38,280
Speaker 1: pitch a show on this. But unless you're looking at

518
00:26:38,320 --> 00:26:40,040
Speaker 1: your face all day, every day, and you're part of

519
00:26:40,040 --> 00:26:42,040
Speaker 1: your career is based on how you look, do not

520
00:26:42,160 --> 00:26:44,320
Speaker 1: write me because you don't know what it's like. And

521
00:26:44,320 --> 00:26:46,760
Speaker 1: this is why I talk this way, And I'm not crazy.

522
00:26:46,960 --> 00:26:49,639
Speaker 1: I'm a little crazy. But the reason I'm so focused

523
00:26:49,640 --> 00:26:52,200
Speaker 1: on my looks is because it's part of my job.

524
00:26:52,800 --> 00:26:55,040
Speaker 1: And I wish I could be blind and not see

525
00:26:55,040 --> 00:26:56,679
Speaker 1: it and deal with it. But people write me all

526
00:26:56,720 --> 00:26:58,639
Speaker 1: the time and go, you sound so sick, girl, this

527
00:26:58,720 --> 00:27:01,639
Speaker 1: isn't good for you. And it's just like, well, do

528
00:27:01,800 --> 00:27:03,560
Speaker 1: what do you do for a living? You have one

529
00:27:03,600 --> 00:27:06,399
Speaker 1: school picture you take a year teacher, or maybe you're

530
00:27:06,440 --> 00:27:08,200
Speaker 1: on Zoom and safe to look at yourself. But like

531
00:27:08,400 --> 00:27:10,320
Speaker 1: you shouldn't be You should be teaching and maybe turn

532
00:27:10,359 --> 00:27:12,320
Speaker 1: off your camera like their solutions for you. For me,

533
00:27:12,400 --> 00:27:14,400
Speaker 1: I have to look at these photos and post them.

534
00:27:14,440 --> 00:27:17,679
Speaker 1: And if I don't, then I just paid Matt money

535
00:27:17,720 --> 00:27:20,480
Speaker 1: that is worthless because I can't have someone else go

536
00:27:20,560 --> 00:27:22,399
Speaker 1: through the photos and post them because when I do that,

537
00:27:22,440 --> 00:27:24,560
Speaker 1: people don't have the same taste as me, and they'll

538
00:27:24,600 --> 00:27:26,360
Speaker 1: post a photo where I'm like, oh my god, why

539
00:27:26,359 --> 00:27:28,920
Speaker 1: would you. I have to look at this stuff I

540
00:27:28,200 --> 00:27:31,280
Speaker 1: got yesterday, but I didn't want to look at because

541
00:27:31,320 --> 00:27:33,560
Speaker 1: I looked fat in it. I didn't want to look

542
00:27:33,560 --> 00:27:35,439
Speaker 1: at it. I didn't want to feel bad about myself,

543
00:27:35,560 --> 00:27:38,080
Speaker 1: but I had to because there's content within the clip,

544
00:27:38,119 --> 00:27:39,840
Speaker 1: and if it's not funny, I don't want to post it.

545
00:27:39,920 --> 00:27:42,159
Speaker 1: My career is in that clip, and so I have

546
00:27:42,240 --> 00:27:45,040
Speaker 1: to watch it, and then so the I used to

547
00:27:45,080 --> 00:27:46,760
Speaker 1: never look in the mirror. Before I was a stand up,

548
00:27:46,800 --> 00:27:49,040
Speaker 1: I didn't look at photos of myself. I didn't analyze things.

549
00:27:49,080 --> 00:27:51,560
Speaker 1: I wouldn't be on Instagram if I weren't a comedian.

550
00:27:51,680 --> 00:27:53,840
Speaker 1: I wouldn't because it's not good for my mental health.

551
00:27:53,880 --> 00:27:56,400
Speaker 1: So I am just making do the best I can.

552
00:27:56,920 --> 00:28:00,159
Speaker 1: I'm working in a bar, and I'm an alcoholic and

553
00:28:00,200 --> 00:28:02,000
Speaker 1: I have to deal with drinks and smell them and

554
00:28:02,040 --> 00:28:04,080
Speaker 1: taste them all the time. And I'm an alcoholic, So

555
00:28:04,119 --> 00:28:06,679
Speaker 1: why not do this? Why not? We've talked about this before,

556
00:28:08,320 --> 00:28:12,000
Speaker 1: You have managed whatever. You have a team that could

557
00:28:12,040 --> 00:28:14,720
Speaker 1: do your Instagram. You would never even have to look

558
00:28:14,760 --> 00:28:16,960
Speaker 1: I just said, because when they look at it, I don't.

559
00:28:17,080 --> 00:28:18,919
Speaker 1: I don't like the pictures they chose. I've tried to

560
00:28:18,920 --> 00:28:21,280
Speaker 1: outsource before, and because when I finally seen, I go

561
00:28:22,359 --> 00:28:24,760
Speaker 1: first one. Because sometimes your friends will go, you look

562
00:28:24,760 --> 00:28:26,879
Speaker 1: beautiful in this, and you go, what the funk? I

563
00:28:27,600 --> 00:28:29,640
Speaker 1: you think I look like that? Like there's no one

564
00:28:29,680 --> 00:28:32,200
Speaker 1: you can really trust except yourself unless it's your old

565
00:28:32,240 --> 00:28:36,399
Speaker 1: comedy usually how I feel. I'm just saying this today,

566
00:28:36,440 --> 00:28:39,720
Speaker 1: like when did you see that I'm here? When did

567
00:28:39,720 --> 00:28:42,640
Speaker 1: you get that f boy poster? That email? Oh? I

568
00:28:42,680 --> 00:28:46,200
Speaker 1: got that months ago? And I and my publicists felt

569
00:28:46,240 --> 00:28:47,640
Speaker 1: so bad because I wrote back and I go, I

570
00:28:47,640 --> 00:28:50,240
Speaker 1: don't photoshop my body and I'll never will. And I

571
00:28:50,600 --> 00:28:52,880
Speaker 1: do not change my size. You know, I understand taking

572
00:28:52,880 --> 00:28:56,560
Speaker 1: out imperfections in because they do like retouch your face

573
00:28:56,600 --> 00:29:01,080
Speaker 1: and things, but I will never change my size ever, ever, ever, ever,

574
00:29:01,560 --> 00:29:04,200
Speaker 1: on anything I do, I'm as you know, unless it's

575
00:29:04,200 --> 00:29:08,560
Speaker 1: against my will. And someone did it, and I could

576
00:29:08,560 --> 00:29:10,760
Speaker 1: tell she was like freaked out, like she was like

577
00:29:10,800 --> 00:29:12,640
Speaker 1: made of grave because she pretty much said, your arm

578
00:29:12,680 --> 00:29:14,480
Speaker 1: looks fat. And then I go, no, I like it.

579
00:29:14,720 --> 00:29:16,640
Speaker 1: I don't think it looks fat, and I'm like, so

580
00:29:16,720 --> 00:29:19,720
Speaker 1: I wrote her, you know, separately being like, don't worry,

581
00:29:20,160 --> 00:29:22,600
Speaker 1: I'm not mad at you. It's totally fine. You're looking

582
00:29:22,600 --> 00:29:27,360
Speaker 1: out for me. You're right, it does look a little meaty. Um, Yeah,

583
00:29:27,560 --> 00:29:30,720
Speaker 1: what if because we tried that, bef, we talked about

584
00:29:30,760 --> 00:29:33,080
Speaker 1: that before. If you know, like someone like Nate bar

585
00:29:33,120 --> 00:29:35,880
Speaker 1: gaffew right, he just puts up his stand up, just

586
00:29:36,000 --> 00:29:38,240
Speaker 1: a stand up and then a picture, maybe one every

587
00:29:38,280 --> 00:29:41,760
Speaker 1: twenty would that I think? Do you think that would

588
00:29:42,040 --> 00:29:44,440
Speaker 1: help you in your brain? Like? But then people don't

589
00:29:44,440 --> 00:29:47,120
Speaker 1: pick the right stand up clips? Could you have more?

590
00:29:48,240 --> 00:29:52,480
Speaker 1: You have so much? I would be doing stand up

591
00:29:52,480 --> 00:29:54,200
Speaker 1: clips that they were easy for me. They are the

592
00:29:54,280 --> 00:29:57,120
Speaker 1: most hard for me because they are moving picture of me,

593
00:29:57,480 --> 00:30:01,840
Speaker 1: which I actually love myself on video I have I

594
00:30:01,880 --> 00:30:04,120
Speaker 1: can watch I can watch anything I do on mute.

595
00:30:04,160 --> 00:30:08,360
Speaker 1: I love it. It's my voice plus my jokes and

596
00:30:08,440 --> 00:30:11,480
Speaker 1: content that make me go, oh god, you're so untalented,

597
00:30:11,520 --> 00:30:13,960
Speaker 1: and then I can't post it. I literally can't post

598
00:30:14,000 --> 00:30:21,040
Speaker 1: any clips. And I have shot five special wait one, two, three, four, five,

599
00:30:22,920 --> 00:30:27,520
Speaker 1: six specials. I have seven six or seven specials late

600
00:30:27,640 --> 00:30:29,920
Speaker 1: night a half hour to an hour long, and then

601
00:30:29,960 --> 00:30:33,400
Speaker 1: I have eleven late night in appearances I have. I

602
00:30:33,400 --> 00:30:36,840
Speaker 1: have more content than anyone. You just just write that

603
00:30:37,320 --> 00:30:42,040
Speaker 1: every single day, Just post that video. Yeah, right, like

604
00:30:42,120 --> 00:30:44,920
Speaker 1: how Mike Tally, I would. I would like to remind

605
00:30:44,920 --> 00:30:48,680
Speaker 1: people I forget. Don't look at my IMDb and you

606
00:30:48,760 --> 00:30:51,840
Speaker 1: tell me like that I'm not seventy three years old

607
00:30:51,880 --> 00:30:55,360
Speaker 1: and haven't been working in this business since nine because

608
00:30:55,400 --> 00:30:57,480
Speaker 1: it looks like I have been. It is I don't

609
00:30:57,480 --> 00:30:59,720
Speaker 1: even know how many things I've done, but it is insane,

610
00:30:59,760 --> 00:31:03,200
Speaker 1: and I just I I would be more successful if

611
00:31:03,240 --> 00:31:05,240
Speaker 1: I had an easier time looking at myself and I

612
00:31:05,280 --> 00:31:08,280
Speaker 1: was a little bit more Yeah, I mean I can.

613
00:31:08,440 --> 00:31:11,720
Speaker 1: I can brag about my achievements, but I tricked everyone

614
00:31:11,760 --> 00:31:15,960
Speaker 1: to get them. I did it. I didn't. I didn't

615
00:31:15,960 --> 00:31:19,040
Speaker 1: trick besties because this show, there's nothing I'm doing that's

616
00:31:19,080 --> 00:31:21,880
Speaker 1: like sleight of hand or I feel like it's sneaky

617
00:31:22,160 --> 00:31:23,719
Speaker 1: people that listen to the show and like me from

618
00:31:23,720 --> 00:31:27,080
Speaker 1: the show, just like me for me, and I don't start.

619
00:31:27,200 --> 00:31:28,959
Speaker 1: I don't need to start singing that song about song

620
00:31:29,000 --> 00:31:33,240
Speaker 1: I want, um, but I really do. That's why I

621
00:31:33,240 --> 00:31:34,719
Speaker 1: love this podcast. I feel like it's the first time

622
00:31:34,760 --> 00:31:36,440
Speaker 1: where I go, I could look like anything and people

623
00:31:36,440 --> 00:31:38,840
Speaker 1: would still listen. So thank you for that. When we

624
00:31:38,880 --> 00:31:42,080
Speaker 1: get back, we are coming back with our Wednesday segment

625
00:31:42,160 --> 00:31:44,920
Speaker 1: that we do once in a while called Besties Being Guesties,

626
00:31:45,000 --> 00:31:47,280
Speaker 1: and it is a very special bestie guest that I

627
00:31:47,320 --> 00:31:56,480
Speaker 1: can't wait too before Instagram for the Internet. Alright, we're back.

628
00:31:56,840 --> 00:31:59,280
Speaker 1: It's Wednesday, and it's time for our new segment that

629
00:31:59,320 --> 00:32:01,160
Speaker 1: we've only done one. This is our second time doing it.

630
00:32:01,160 --> 00:32:09,360
Speaker 1: It's time for Besties being Guesties. Bestie the Guestie. Yeah,

631
00:32:10,040 --> 00:32:20,880
Speaker 1: Bestie the guestie. Yeah yeah, today's bestie? Who is our guestie? Um? Yeah,

632
00:32:20,920 --> 00:32:23,360
Speaker 1: I wrote that and I produced. No, no, I've produced.

633
00:32:23,440 --> 00:32:27,760
Speaker 1: I wrote it and Britney Spears inspired it. Um. Today's

634
00:32:28,040 --> 00:32:32,880
Speaker 1: guest is a bestie that got into the show. I

635
00:32:32,920 --> 00:32:34,400
Speaker 1: don't know how he got into the show, but we'll

636
00:32:34,440 --> 00:32:37,240
Speaker 1: get into that in a second. Yes, you know what.

637
00:32:37,400 --> 00:32:40,160
Speaker 1: You haven't been introduced yet, so you shut your trap

638
00:32:40,200 --> 00:32:47,480
Speaker 1: over their mist and also make your bed. It's your bed,

639
00:32:47,560 --> 00:32:50,960
Speaker 1: first of all. Second of all, I did put a

640
00:32:50,960 --> 00:32:54,360
Speaker 1: comforter on there, just yeah, it seems it seems made

641
00:32:54,760 --> 00:32:57,320
Speaker 1: mess and I was like this, you had to tossle

642
00:32:57,360 --> 00:32:58,720
Speaker 1: it up just to make it look like you didn't

643
00:32:58,720 --> 00:33:02,280
Speaker 1: try to. All right. So our bestie who was a

644
00:33:02,280 --> 00:33:05,960
Speaker 1: guestie today is an old friend of mine who we

645
00:33:06,040 --> 00:33:11,360
Speaker 1: got reconnected recently through social media found each other. I

646
00:33:11,480 --> 00:33:15,600
Speaker 1: met Daniel is here today. Daniel is someone I met

647
00:33:15,640 --> 00:33:20,160
Speaker 1: in on spring break in two thousand two, Yes I

648
00:33:20,160 --> 00:33:23,840
Speaker 1: believe it was two um and I was a senior

649
00:33:23,840 --> 00:33:26,200
Speaker 1: in high school. We were down in Deston, Florida. I

650
00:33:26,240 --> 00:33:28,960
Speaker 1: was there with my sister Lauren and my other best

651
00:33:29,000 --> 00:33:32,720
Speaker 1: friend Lauren who goes by Huffy, and we were down

652
00:33:32,720 --> 00:33:35,800
Speaker 1: there with my family and we met these boys stay

653
00:33:35,800 --> 00:33:38,320
Speaker 1: in the same hotel. No, I know, we were staying

654
00:33:38,360 --> 00:33:40,880
Speaker 1: somewhere else, but we met them. I don't Here's the thing,

655
00:33:40,920 --> 00:33:43,640
Speaker 1: I don't remember exactly how we met. And Daniel is

656
00:33:43,680 --> 00:33:45,280
Speaker 1: going to share that because he almost told me the

657
00:33:45,320 --> 00:33:47,360
Speaker 1: other night in Baltimore. When I first met I saw

658
00:33:47,440 --> 00:33:49,160
Speaker 1: Daniel for the first time twenty years. I mean, this

659
00:33:49,240 --> 00:33:52,480
Speaker 1: is twenty years ago. And can I preface this with

660
00:33:52,880 --> 00:33:56,520
Speaker 1: spring break? You never run into your hook up or

661
00:33:56,760 --> 00:33:59,560
Speaker 1: the person you meet on springbreak twenty years later, like

662
00:33:59,600 --> 00:34:01,640
Speaker 1: this never happened. Well, we didn't run into each other.

663
00:34:01,720 --> 00:34:06,400
Speaker 1: It happened because we found we found each other. It doesn't.

664
00:34:06,440 --> 00:34:09,280
Speaker 1: But I did always wonder about these boys from Alabama

665
00:34:09,360 --> 00:34:12,920
Speaker 1: that we called the Alabama Boys. We became really good friends.

666
00:34:13,040 --> 00:34:15,680
Speaker 1: There was looking up by the way there. We were

667
00:34:15,719 --> 00:34:18,920
Speaker 1: just friends. We we loved them so much. We probably

668
00:34:18,960 --> 00:34:20,600
Speaker 1: all we we kind of like add crushes on you,

669
00:34:20,640 --> 00:34:22,400
Speaker 1: but we didn't even know how to like fucking we

670
00:34:22,680 --> 00:34:27,000
Speaker 1: think about that. We were just friends and got along

671
00:34:27,040 --> 00:34:29,480
Speaker 1: so well. We went back to St. Louis and you know,

672
00:34:29,520 --> 00:34:31,960
Speaker 1: told all our friends about the Alabama Boys. I think

673
00:34:31,960 --> 00:34:34,200
Speaker 1: they came to visit at one point, but we lost

674
00:34:34,239 --> 00:34:36,280
Speaker 1: touch of the years, and I kind of always wondered

675
00:34:36,840 --> 00:34:39,440
Speaker 1: if I would ever meet them again, or if they

676
00:34:39,440 --> 00:34:41,360
Speaker 1: would ever see me on TV and be like, is

677
00:34:41,400 --> 00:34:45,040
Speaker 1: that the girl from St. Louis that we met, If

678
00:34:45,080 --> 00:34:46,399
Speaker 1: they would you know, if they would go in their

679
00:34:46,400 --> 00:34:49,160
Speaker 1: Alabama Boys text chain and go, hey, guys, turn on

680
00:34:49,160 --> 00:34:51,319
Speaker 1: the TV. I think one of the girls we met,

681
00:34:52,560 --> 00:34:55,080
Speaker 1: and it turns out I think that's is what happened. Daniel,

682
00:34:55,400 --> 00:34:59,879
Speaker 1: Um Daniel was no fence to Lee and and Dan

683
00:35:00,400 --> 00:35:03,040
Speaker 1: was it. Dan was the other one man I speak

684
00:35:03,560 --> 00:35:05,640
Speaker 1: or not? Yeah, you can speak. I guess you were

685
00:35:05,640 --> 00:35:08,279
Speaker 1: my favorite. I don't want to be mean to that,

686
00:35:08,360 --> 00:35:10,160
Speaker 1: but you were always my favorite. So that was my

687
00:35:10,800 --> 00:35:12,680
Speaker 1: That's what I was very excited about, was that you

688
00:35:12,760 --> 00:35:15,160
Speaker 1: got in touch. That's really nice because we've been debating

689
00:35:15,200 --> 00:35:17,480
Speaker 1: this for a long time now, Like, first of all,

690
00:35:17,480 --> 00:35:19,520
Speaker 1: do you remember, Second of all, who is your favorite?

691
00:35:19,920 --> 00:35:22,000
Speaker 1: So that score is miss thank you. Did you have

692
00:35:22,040 --> 00:35:24,880
Speaker 1: like long hair? Yeah for sure? And I was probably

693
00:35:24,920 --> 00:35:26,879
Speaker 1: wearing a hat, Like a wore a hat all the time.

694
00:35:27,280 --> 00:35:30,719
Speaker 1: So when you saw me, Yeah, what of University of

695
00:35:30,719 --> 00:35:35,600
Speaker 1: Alabama Auburn? First of all, Andrew, it's Auburn. I know

696
00:35:35,640 --> 00:35:38,160
Speaker 1: you went to Auburn. I remember I talked at nauseam

697
00:35:38,200 --> 00:35:44,480
Speaker 1: about this. Hey, I was all right, but I don't

698
00:35:44,480 --> 00:35:46,120
Speaker 1: know if Yeah, it probably was an Auburn hat or

699
00:35:46,160 --> 00:35:54,879
Speaker 1: something like did you comb your hair forward? Yeah for sure,

700
00:35:55,440 --> 00:35:59,239
Speaker 1: for sure. That's the rage Daniel. How did we like?

701
00:35:59,320 --> 00:36:01,680
Speaker 1: What was so was? Because you seem to remember this,

702
00:36:01,760 --> 00:36:03,400
Speaker 1: and I stopped you before you told me, because I

703
00:36:03,400 --> 00:36:04,960
Speaker 1: go just come on the show and let's relive it,

704
00:36:04,960 --> 00:36:08,320
Speaker 1: because it'll all come back to me. Yes, So I

705
00:36:08,360 --> 00:36:10,080
Speaker 1: always thought it was two thousand one. By the way,

706
00:36:10,880 --> 00:36:12,719
Speaker 1: you think it was two thousand Yeah, I'm pretty sure

707
00:36:12,719 --> 00:36:20,759
Speaker 1: it was time to change the tattoo. So, uh, two

708
00:36:20,800 --> 00:36:24,439
Speaker 1: thousand whatever it was. We were the the Alabama Boys.

709
00:36:24,440 --> 00:36:28,279
Speaker 1: It was. It was Dan, Jake Lee, and me. So

710
00:36:28,400 --> 00:36:32,160
Speaker 1: there was a fourth Dan, Jake Lee, I remember, I

711
00:36:32,160 --> 00:36:35,280
Speaker 1: don't remember Jake. Sorry, Jake. Well, Jake was with Huffy

712
00:36:35,320 --> 00:36:39,279
Speaker 1: most of the time. Okay, okay, yeah, no, did they

713
00:36:39,280 --> 00:36:45,279
Speaker 1: ever kiss or anything like that? Yeah? Oh god, at

714
00:36:45,280 --> 00:36:46,799
Speaker 1: the time, I'm sure I knew this, but I can't

715
00:36:46,800 --> 00:36:50,200
Speaker 1: believe I've forgotten it. Okay, Okay, So, actually I talked

716
00:36:50,239 --> 00:36:51,480
Speaker 1: to you. I haven't talked to Jake in a while,

717
00:36:51,480 --> 00:36:52,959
Speaker 1: and we talked for like an hour and a half

718
00:36:53,080 --> 00:36:56,080
Speaker 1: last night to try to catch up, so and remember

719
00:36:56,120 --> 00:37:00,399
Speaker 1: some stuff, remember something. So yeah, so definitely they they

720
00:37:00,440 --> 00:37:03,319
Speaker 1: were together. They were like on off by themselves for

721
00:37:03,360 --> 00:37:05,200
Speaker 1: the most of the trip, but we were at we

722
00:37:05,200 --> 00:37:08,879
Speaker 1: were at the Crab Trap in Destin, Florida, is like

723
00:37:09,000 --> 00:37:11,600
Speaker 1: I think it's like a local chain now probably and

724
00:37:11,719 --> 00:37:14,880
Speaker 1: uh and uh, it's probably not a place that we

725
00:37:14,920 --> 00:37:18,040
Speaker 1: would want to go anymore. But we were all standing.

726
00:37:18,160 --> 00:37:20,440
Speaker 1: We remember Gil going to the beach. They had like

727
00:37:20,480 --> 00:37:21,920
Speaker 1: a little beach bar, and we went down there and

728
00:37:21,960 --> 00:37:25,600
Speaker 1: got um some virgin pina colatus and we were just

729
00:37:25,680 --> 00:37:27,239
Speaker 1: drinking those down on the beach and I we're like

730
00:37:27,280 --> 00:37:30,880
Speaker 1: fifteen sixteen um. And so then we come back inside

731
00:37:30,960 --> 00:37:33,120
Speaker 1: and we're hanging out in the restaurant and then we're

732
00:37:33,160 --> 00:37:37,560
Speaker 1: like waiting for our table, and these three lovely ladies

733
00:37:37,719 --> 00:37:41,799
Speaker 1: approach us, and we're like, they approached you. They approached us,

734
00:37:41,920 --> 00:37:44,759
Speaker 1: And Nikki not every day you see him, Like, I

735
00:37:44,840 --> 00:37:47,640
Speaker 1: know you've like blocked this out of your memory, but

736
00:37:47,760 --> 00:37:53,560
Speaker 1: you approached us. You saw some virgin drinking virgins. Yeah,

737
00:37:53,760 --> 00:37:59,799
Speaker 1: extra virgin is what you saw does not shock me

738
00:38:00,400 --> 00:38:03,920
Speaker 1: because we we had had a spring break. Before our

739
00:38:03,920 --> 00:38:06,640
Speaker 1: spring break A one, we had gotten approach and like

740
00:38:06,760 --> 00:38:08,840
Speaker 1: things happened with some boys, and so I think I

741
00:38:08,840 --> 00:38:11,120
Speaker 1: was feeling a little confident in O two. I'm a senior.

742
00:38:11,400 --> 00:38:13,000
Speaker 1: I got nothing to lose, I got my little sister.

743
00:38:13,080 --> 00:38:15,279
Speaker 1: I gotta show how it's done. And I think that

744
00:38:15,360 --> 00:38:19,000
Speaker 1: I just and you guys like seems so nice and

745
00:38:19,040 --> 00:38:23,279
Speaker 1: we were are not intimidating, Yeah exactly. So yeah, we

746
00:38:23,280 --> 00:38:24,560
Speaker 1: were like, you know, we were on the we were

747
00:38:24,600 --> 00:38:26,800
Speaker 1: kind of nerdy. What was her line? Do you remember

748
00:38:26,800 --> 00:38:29,319
Speaker 1: her first line? No, not at all. We were all

749
00:38:29,360 --> 00:38:31,960
Speaker 1: just like stunted, like these these women come to us

750
00:38:32,000 --> 00:38:38,319
Speaker 1: and we're like, girls don't talk to us, Like what's happening? Yeah?

751
00:38:39,360 --> 00:38:42,319
Speaker 1: It was wild. Um. So yeah, you guys came and

752
00:38:42,360 --> 00:38:44,560
Speaker 1: talked to us, and we were just like I can't

753
00:38:44,560 --> 00:38:47,440
Speaker 1: believe this is happening. And then we um, we you know,

754
00:38:47,480 --> 00:38:49,840
Speaker 1: we had dinner and or we so we but we

755
00:38:49,880 --> 00:38:52,320
Speaker 1: had dinner separately like we were we were the table,

756
00:38:52,800 --> 00:38:55,719
Speaker 1: and then um, I think this is where I need

757
00:38:55,760 --> 00:38:58,680
Speaker 1: your help. We think we like went our separate ways,

758
00:38:58,719 --> 00:39:02,520
Speaker 1: like went back to our hotel condo, freshened up, and

759
00:39:03,160 --> 00:39:07,160
Speaker 1: met again that night. We definitely did. Yes, that's yes. Um.

760
00:39:07,200 --> 00:39:10,160
Speaker 1: And so you have phones, Yeah that's the thing. Okay,

761
00:39:10,200 --> 00:39:12,520
Speaker 1: we didn't. I don't. We didn't have phones. I don't

762
00:39:12,560 --> 00:39:16,440
Speaker 1: think we have to meet at the Palm Tree. Meet

763
00:39:16,440 --> 00:39:19,720
Speaker 1: at the Palm Tree at nine, Yeah, exactly, like the address,

764
00:39:19,760 --> 00:39:23,000
Speaker 1: like we probably said, like meat back around here at

765
00:39:23,080 --> 00:39:26,160
Speaker 1: this time and like, well, yeah, we'll meet up at

766
00:39:26,200 --> 00:39:30,040
Speaker 1: the beer. Yeah, so you meet up, so you get

767
00:39:30,040 --> 00:39:32,480
Speaker 1: freshened up. Are you guys thinking like, oh my god,

768
00:39:32,600 --> 00:39:36,160
Speaker 1: like what am I gonna sprain extra like obsession on

769
00:39:36,800 --> 00:39:41,520
Speaker 1: or something like some obsession some woods clanny happy. We're

770
00:39:41,560 --> 00:39:45,279
Speaker 1: all just like bathing in it. Yeah, you guys have

771
00:39:45,360 --> 00:39:47,839
Speaker 1: to be excited to leaving and then going to meet

772
00:39:48,160 --> 00:39:50,439
Speaker 1: I mean there's three boys, there's three of you, Yeah,

773
00:39:50,480 --> 00:39:52,680
Speaker 1: I mean, but I gotta be honest with my I

774
00:39:52,719 --> 00:39:55,840
Speaker 1: was not. I was not like thinking hook up. I

775
00:39:55,920 --> 00:39:58,280
Speaker 1: was just like I just wanted to meet cute boys,

776
00:39:58,320 --> 00:40:00,200
Speaker 1: like I was. I did not have like Dick gone

777
00:40:00,280 --> 00:40:02,279
Speaker 1: the brain like I wasn't like man, I can't wait

778
00:40:02,320 --> 00:40:06,640
Speaker 1: to you know, sucking fuck like that was not nick.

779
00:40:07,760 --> 00:40:09,720
Speaker 1: I just wanted to be around cute boys and flirt

780
00:40:09,760 --> 00:40:13,600
Speaker 1: and have crushes like we just wanted. I just I

781
00:40:13,680 --> 00:40:16,040
Speaker 1: still to this day just love being like what God

782
00:40:16,760 --> 00:40:19,200
Speaker 1: like so excited and being like which one do you like?

783
00:40:19,200 --> 00:40:21,880
Speaker 1: Like picking your favorite? But that's hard, though, is because

784
00:40:21,920 --> 00:40:26,480
Speaker 1: if there's three and then four you who get to us,

785
00:40:26,560 --> 00:40:31,640
Speaker 1: we get there's we we all will take anybody. Yeah.

786
00:40:31,800 --> 00:40:33,959
Speaker 1: So but there is thinking like that, like I'm sure

787
00:40:34,080 --> 00:40:37,040
Speaker 1: when you guys were like, Okay, I like the blonde one.

788
00:40:37,239 --> 00:40:43,680
Speaker 1: I'm sure Jake, you'll take anything. Jake seriously, I mean

789
00:40:43,840 --> 00:40:46,359
Speaker 1: he was much more than we were at that time.

790
00:40:46,480 --> 00:40:51,640
Speaker 1: Like Huffy was kind of all taking anything. I love,

791
00:40:52,160 --> 00:40:55,920
Speaker 1: I don't know anything about. But was the one that

792
00:40:56,040 --> 00:40:58,760
Speaker 1: was just like, what's to make out with me? Huffy

793
00:40:58,880 --> 00:41:03,399
Speaker 1: was looking for some action. Yea guy like he was experienced.

794
00:41:04,160 --> 00:41:06,560
Speaker 1: Those are the two friends that found that makes sense.

795
00:41:07,320 --> 00:41:09,480
Speaker 1: Like Jake was experienced. What did he do? He kind

796
00:41:09,520 --> 00:41:13,200
Speaker 1: of finger a girl once was back then that was

797
00:41:14,719 --> 00:41:20,360
Speaker 1: anything he was a yeah, so we just second um.

798
00:41:20,760 --> 00:41:23,520
Speaker 1: But something interesting about this is that it was me

799
00:41:23,600 --> 00:41:26,360
Speaker 1: and my sister then, Like, like my sister and I

800
00:41:26,400 --> 00:41:29,000
Speaker 1: were not social together in high school. You know, she

801
00:41:29,160 --> 00:41:32,360
Speaker 1: was popular and as a sophomore and I was somewhere

802
00:41:32,360 --> 00:41:34,480
Speaker 1: in between as a senior. And so my sister had

803
00:41:34,520 --> 00:41:37,719
Speaker 1: a lot more experience with boys, not just you know, physically,

804
00:41:37,760 --> 00:41:40,120
Speaker 1: but like just being friends with cool boys that I

805
00:41:40,200 --> 00:41:42,480
Speaker 1: really did. So it was it's interesting to me that

806
00:41:42,520 --> 00:41:46,200
Speaker 1: me and my sister did this together. But we we

807
00:41:46,280 --> 00:41:49,560
Speaker 1: had a great time with you guys. So what did

808
00:41:49,560 --> 00:41:54,560
Speaker 1: you guys do like throw a turtle or something. Well,

809
00:41:54,719 --> 00:41:59,359
Speaker 1: so we went to your place. Did we meet your parents? Probably? Yeah,

810
00:41:59,400 --> 00:42:01,839
Speaker 1: my parents are here too, and I'm guessing yes they

811
00:42:01,840 --> 00:42:03,120
Speaker 1: were there. They were there, and we were staying with

812
00:42:03,200 --> 00:42:06,400
Speaker 1: my parents. Yeah yeah, yeah, okay, So we just I

813
00:42:06,440 --> 00:42:08,319
Speaker 1: feel like you had like two levels. We hung out

814
00:42:08,360 --> 00:42:11,760
Speaker 1: down at the lower level and we just like talked.

815
00:42:11,840 --> 00:42:13,840
Speaker 1: We were just talking for hours and hours and hours

816
00:42:14,600 --> 00:42:17,799
Speaker 1: is what is what I think we look We were obsessed,

817
00:42:17,960 --> 00:42:20,200
Speaker 1: Like I was like, these are our best friends. Like

818
00:42:20,280 --> 00:42:22,520
Speaker 1: I'm so I was so sad when we had to

819
00:42:22,520 --> 00:42:25,960
Speaker 1: say goodbye, Like there was this really intense bond that

820
00:42:26,040 --> 00:42:28,680
Speaker 1: happened of like why don't these boys go to school

821
00:42:28,680 --> 00:42:31,880
Speaker 1: with us? And you know they're not going to graduate

822
00:42:32,239 --> 00:42:34,800
Speaker 1: until next year? Where are they going to go to school?

823
00:42:34,920 --> 00:42:37,120
Speaker 1: Like where? How can we? How can we have them

824
00:42:37,160 --> 00:42:39,160
Speaker 1: in our lives? Like there was just like this longing

825
00:42:39,280 --> 00:42:41,759
Speaker 1: for like why can't we why can't we have these

826
00:42:41,840 --> 00:42:43,600
Speaker 1: kind of boys in our lives? Where? Where were they

827
00:42:43,600 --> 00:42:45,600
Speaker 1: in high school? For us? I feel like there's an

828
00:42:45,800 --> 00:42:48,480
Speaker 1: energy when you know, when I'd go on a cruise,

829
00:42:48,520 --> 00:42:51,960
Speaker 1: you get the best, you got the best, Daniel, you

830
00:42:52,040 --> 00:42:55,160
Speaker 1: got the best, You got the best of Nikki, you

831
00:42:55,200 --> 00:42:57,560
Speaker 1: know what I mean, And and that energy comes together

832
00:42:57,600 --> 00:43:00,239
Speaker 1: and it's I don't know, it ignites when you have

833
00:43:00,360 --> 00:43:02,960
Speaker 1: only a few days together. It really does, even if

834
00:43:02,960 --> 00:43:05,880
Speaker 1: it's friendship. So you're like, where are these boys? You

835
00:43:05,960 --> 00:43:09,400
Speaker 1: probably had some boys in Missouri in your school that

836
00:43:09,680 --> 00:43:12,600
Speaker 1: we were similar, but they just got our sense of

837
00:43:12,680 --> 00:43:15,600
Speaker 1: humor right away, which is very unique and absurd. You know,

838
00:43:15,680 --> 00:43:18,799
Speaker 1: like we were definitely a different type of I hear

839
00:43:18,840 --> 00:43:20,600
Speaker 1: it all the time of people being like in high school,

840
00:43:20,600 --> 00:43:23,840
Speaker 1: you guys were so like, well, I just tell stories

841
00:43:23,840 --> 00:43:26,120
Speaker 1: about the things we were. Like the other day I

842
00:43:26,160 --> 00:43:28,439
Speaker 1: was telling my boyfriend, I was like, because Kristen sent

843
00:43:28,480 --> 00:43:31,080
Speaker 1: me this card for my birthday where she drew a

844
00:43:31,080 --> 00:43:33,920
Speaker 1: picture of us now, and then she drew a drawing

845
00:43:33,960 --> 00:43:35,920
Speaker 1: of like this picture of us back in middle school

846
00:43:35,960 --> 00:43:37,719
Speaker 1: where we used to just like wet our hair and

847
00:43:37,800 --> 00:43:40,919
Speaker 1: slick it back, and we in high school we would

848
00:43:40,920 --> 00:43:43,279
Speaker 1: refer to that photo of us from eighth grade is like,

849
00:43:43,320 --> 00:43:46,000
Speaker 1: look at us, we look like such slick fux. So

850
00:43:46,000 --> 00:43:47,719
Speaker 1: it would be like, don't look like a slick fun

851
00:43:47,840 --> 00:43:50,840
Speaker 1: and that kind of sense of humor in high school

852
00:43:50,840 --> 00:43:54,600
Speaker 1: to refer to yourselves as oh, I'm just slick, fun

853
00:43:55,080 --> 00:43:58,000
Speaker 1: We're really funny and weird, and I don't think a

854
00:43:58,040 --> 00:44:01,919
Speaker 1: lot of boys who were trying to be these guys

855
00:44:01,920 --> 00:44:06,200
Speaker 1: were not cut at all, and that's what There was

856
00:44:06,239 --> 00:44:09,399
Speaker 1: not an ounce of that, And I appreciate you saying that, Yeah,

857
00:44:09,400 --> 00:44:11,200
Speaker 1: how many days did you guys end up just that

858
00:44:11,480 --> 00:44:15,080
Speaker 1: it was just one special night or four days? It

859
00:44:15,200 --> 00:44:21,160
Speaker 1: was several, if we'll call it a few. And I

860
00:44:21,160 --> 00:44:23,879
Speaker 1: think there was one time where we actually someone said

861
00:44:23,920 --> 00:44:26,640
Speaker 1: we walked to Jake's thought this. He was like, we

862
00:44:26,640 --> 00:44:28,719
Speaker 1: we walked. You were on one end of DestinE, we

863
00:44:28,719 --> 00:44:30,440
Speaker 1: were on the other, and we walked the beach to you,

864
00:44:30,480 --> 00:44:33,399
Speaker 1: which I think is insane, but I mean that would

865
00:44:33,400 --> 00:44:35,640
Speaker 1: sound accurate to me, like back then, we would have

866
00:44:35,640 --> 00:44:38,040
Speaker 1: walked to you like we were so obsessed with you,

867
00:44:38,480 --> 00:44:40,520
Speaker 1: and we came back with the story to tell our

868
00:44:40,560 --> 00:44:42,880
Speaker 1: friends of like the Alabama Boys, we found the best

869
00:44:42,960 --> 00:44:46,640
Speaker 1: boys ever that are literally us in boy forms of

870
00:44:46,719 --> 00:44:48,919
Speaker 1: like same sense of humor, I like to talk about

871
00:44:48,960 --> 00:44:51,200
Speaker 1: the same kind of things, like the same music. But

872
00:44:51,239 --> 00:44:54,200
Speaker 1: there had to have been some kind of wanting that

873
00:44:54,480 --> 00:44:56,960
Speaker 1: I did not but I did hear. I was the

874
00:44:57,000 --> 00:44:59,000
Speaker 1: only time I had ever kissed. Someone was the year

875
00:44:59,040 --> 00:45:03,400
Speaker 1: before in spring break, but no, but I was the

876
00:45:03,440 --> 00:45:05,960
Speaker 1: guy like was really aggressive, which is what I needed.

877
00:45:06,000 --> 00:45:07,920
Speaker 1: And these guys were not no offense. You are not

878
00:45:08,000 --> 00:45:11,080
Speaker 1: aggressive boys that are going to make them move, and

879
00:45:11,120 --> 00:45:12,719
Speaker 1: I am not someone that's going to be like I'm

880
00:45:12,719 --> 00:45:14,920
Speaker 1: going to make a move. And so I mean, at

881
00:45:14,920 --> 00:45:16,879
Speaker 1: that point in my life, there was no I would

882
00:45:16,920 --> 00:45:19,680
Speaker 1: have never been kissed had someone not been like very

883
00:45:20,760 --> 00:45:23,440
Speaker 1: But there must have been three or four days. That's like,

884
00:45:24,120 --> 00:45:27,400
Speaker 1: oh yeah, that's a substantial amount of time to form

885
00:45:27,400 --> 00:45:30,800
Speaker 1: a crush. Yes, there were crushes happened. I had a

886
00:45:30,800 --> 00:45:36,479
Speaker 1: crush on Daniel for sure, because hard crushes the long hairs.

887
00:45:38,600 --> 00:45:43,200
Speaker 1: This seems very platonic. But did Lee like my sister?

888
00:45:43,320 --> 00:45:45,120
Speaker 1: I felt like Lee and my sister had more of

889
00:45:45,120 --> 00:45:47,280
Speaker 1: a thing, and then Dan was somewhere just like floating

890
00:45:47,320 --> 00:45:49,440
Speaker 1: in the middle. But I felt like you and I

891
00:45:49,480 --> 00:45:51,400
Speaker 1: were like mainly I don't know if we were friends

892
00:45:51,480 --> 00:45:53,480
Speaker 1: or like we probably had mutual crushes and would never

893
00:45:53,480 --> 00:45:55,400
Speaker 1: talk about it, but like it was a you and

894
00:45:55,440 --> 00:45:57,160
Speaker 1: I and I think it was my sister and Lee

895
00:45:57,600 --> 00:46:00,560
Speaker 1: and then Huffy and whoever, Yes that was. That's been

896
00:46:00,600 --> 00:46:02,480
Speaker 1: a debate I'm telling you, we've been we've been debating

897
00:46:02,480 --> 00:46:07,200
Speaker 1: this week now, and I'm like, you have the crush. Yes,

898
00:46:07,320 --> 00:46:09,160
Speaker 1: I think you're absolutely right. Now were you all? Were

899
00:46:09,160 --> 00:46:13,320
Speaker 1: you Nikki's age at this point? You right in between?

900
00:46:14,760 --> 00:46:17,759
Speaker 1: Well did you? When? Did you? Did you ever come

901
00:46:17,800 --> 00:46:19,520
Speaker 1: across Did you know of me before you put it

902
00:46:19,560 --> 00:46:21,160
Speaker 1: together that I was the girl back then? Or did

903
00:46:21,160 --> 00:46:22,960
Speaker 1: we connect on Facebook at some point? Like was there

904
00:46:23,000 --> 00:46:26,440
Speaker 1: always the awareness of me? Oh god, I'm like sweating guys,

905
00:46:26,480 --> 00:46:31,560
Speaker 1: it's hot in here's your shirt off? Or something reminding

906
00:46:31,600 --> 00:46:36,440
Speaker 1: a springbreak again. Yeah, let's see that's free break boy. Yeah,

907
00:46:37,200 --> 00:46:43,839
Speaker 1: get on the bull. But now, um oh, like, how

908
00:46:43,880 --> 00:46:46,680
Speaker 1: did you? When did you? Because someone made someone? I

909
00:46:46,719 --> 00:46:48,440
Speaker 1: got a text from Hoff, who I don't really even

910
00:46:48,440 --> 00:46:50,719
Speaker 1: talk to that much anymore, and she wrote a bunch

911
00:46:50,760 --> 00:46:53,520
Speaker 1: of us being like the Alabama boys got in touch

912
00:46:53,600 --> 00:46:55,399
Speaker 1: with me. This was two, you know, three weeks ago,

913
00:46:55,719 --> 00:46:58,080
Speaker 1: and I was like, oh my god. And for me,

914
00:46:58,239 --> 00:47:01,440
Speaker 1: that sends back all this nostalgia of like, my friends

915
00:47:01,440 --> 00:47:03,279
Speaker 1: are out there, like these guys that I was like

916
00:47:03,320 --> 00:47:05,520
Speaker 1: so into and honestly I was thinking of you because

917
00:47:05,520 --> 00:47:07,480
Speaker 1: I was thinking about the long haired one named Daniel.

918
00:47:08,040 --> 00:47:09,719
Speaker 1: But I didn't remember your last name, and I was like,

919
00:47:10,120 --> 00:47:12,360
Speaker 1: oh my god, who wasn't And she sent it and

920
00:47:12,400 --> 00:47:14,120
Speaker 1: it was it was the other Dan. But I'm like,

921
00:47:14,160 --> 00:47:16,080
Speaker 1: I know they're still friends. There's no way they're not

922
00:47:16,120 --> 00:47:19,120
Speaker 1: still friends. And then I googled and then I then

923
00:47:19,200 --> 00:47:21,680
Speaker 1: then she sent me something, and then I just looked

924
00:47:21,840 --> 00:47:24,000
Speaker 1: up your name and I went to message you and

925
00:47:24,040 --> 00:47:25,960
Speaker 1: then you would argue message me. It was loaded. I

926
00:47:26,000 --> 00:47:28,719
Speaker 1: just hadn't seen it. I was like, yes, connection has

927
00:47:28,719 --> 00:47:32,480
Speaker 1: been made, So what led to that? So, um, I

928
00:47:32,520 --> 00:47:34,839
Speaker 1: get so the other Well, yeah, a few weeks ago

929
00:47:35,040 --> 00:47:36,759
Speaker 1: we were My wife and I watch a lot of

930
00:47:37,040 --> 00:47:41,400
Speaker 1: um trash TV, garbage TV, love it, so I appreciate

931
00:47:41,440 --> 00:47:46,240
Speaker 1: you doing that. Yeah, and and uh, like an advert

932
00:47:46,320 --> 00:47:47,840
Speaker 1: for your show came up and I was like, holy

933
00:47:47,920 --> 00:47:52,520
Speaker 1: sh it, Nikki has a show on and so and

934
00:47:52,600 --> 00:47:54,960
Speaker 1: my wife was like like, weren't you friends with her?

935
00:47:55,000 --> 00:47:57,520
Speaker 1: And I was like yes, like we were, you know,

936
00:47:57,640 --> 00:48:00,360
Speaker 1: the best of friends. So I didn't started Yeah, I

937
00:48:00,400 --> 00:48:03,120
Speaker 1: started thinking about this and then um, and then my

938
00:48:03,440 --> 00:48:05,600
Speaker 1: then the guys and I are going to plan a

939
00:48:05,640 --> 00:48:08,200
Speaker 1: trip or we are planning a trip to Destin in November.

940
00:48:08,800 --> 00:48:14,279
Speaker 1: It's just like talking about going back and and we

941
00:48:14,280 --> 00:48:17,000
Speaker 1: were like just reminiscing about, you know, the trip with

942
00:48:17,040 --> 00:48:19,640
Speaker 1: you guys, and it's like, guys, we have got to

943
00:48:19,800 --> 00:48:24,520
Speaker 1: talk to Nikki. We've got and so and so. With you,

944
00:48:24,560 --> 00:48:27,359
Speaker 1: it was like you've got a million people that pay

945
00:48:27,400 --> 00:48:29,120
Speaker 1: attention to you, and so it's like, there's no way

946
00:48:29,160 --> 00:48:31,560
Speaker 1: she's going to see you know, my message through all

947
00:48:31,600 --> 00:48:34,680
Speaker 1: the you know, tippics. So it's like I could have

948
00:48:34,120 --> 00:48:37,560
Speaker 1: I just missed it. You know, there's some days where

949
00:48:37,560 --> 00:48:40,080
Speaker 1: I would really would have seen it. I'm so I didn't,

950
00:48:40,160 --> 00:48:43,600
Speaker 1: but okay, So they were like, let's try your sister,

951
00:48:43,760 --> 00:48:46,520
Speaker 1: and she never got back to us. But then so

952
00:48:46,880 --> 00:48:49,440
Speaker 1: then Lee, So Lee's the only one that still has Facebook,

953
00:48:49,440 --> 00:48:52,080
Speaker 1: and so we're like, Lee, what is Huffy's name now?

954
00:48:52,080 --> 00:48:54,560
Speaker 1: Because I'm sure he's changed. So he he stalked her

955
00:48:54,600 --> 00:48:57,799
Speaker 1: down he foun Yeah, so he found her name and

956
00:48:57,840 --> 00:49:00,920
Speaker 1: we were like, we were like, Huffy and then was

957
00:49:00,960 --> 00:49:03,759
Speaker 1: the one that texted me and made it all happen. Yeah,

958
00:49:03,800 --> 00:49:05,080
Speaker 1: because I told I was like, I'm going to go

959
00:49:05,120 --> 00:49:08,000
Speaker 1: see your show in Baltimore. Um, you know, than just

960
00:49:08,560 --> 00:49:12,720
Speaker 1: we were reminiscing about the trip, and yes, so what

961
00:49:12,719 --> 00:49:15,120
Speaker 1: what happened to your life. So you went to We

962
00:49:15,160 --> 00:49:17,480
Speaker 1: lost touch almost, I would say within a year or two,

963
00:49:17,520 --> 00:49:18,960
Speaker 1: like you. I think you guys came to visit my

964
00:49:19,000 --> 00:49:21,520
Speaker 1: family one time and stay at our house. Lee and

965
00:49:21,560 --> 00:49:23,239
Speaker 1: I were on a road trip. Yeah, we were on

966
00:49:23,239 --> 00:49:24,480
Speaker 1: a road trip and I don't even know how we

967
00:49:24,520 --> 00:49:27,160
Speaker 1: got in touch with you and Lauren, but I guess

968
00:49:27,160 --> 00:49:28,839
Speaker 1: it was Facebook and you weren't there. But we stayed

969
00:49:28,880 --> 00:49:31,440
Speaker 1: at your house Telegraph, which was the Mullet House. Oh

970
00:49:31,480 --> 00:49:34,239
Speaker 1: my god. The other day I was like, oh my god,

971
00:49:34,280 --> 00:49:36,799
Speaker 1: it was a Mullet house. Dude. We Oh my god,

972
00:49:36,840 --> 00:49:38,480
Speaker 1: that house. I have so many memories in the house.

973
00:49:38,480 --> 00:49:40,600
Speaker 1: I know we're running short on time, but and I

974
00:49:41,000 --> 00:49:42,880
Speaker 1: we got on the David Letterman, Well we didn't get

975
00:49:42,880 --> 00:49:45,400
Speaker 1: on the David Leman and Show, but we became audience

976
00:49:45,440 --> 00:49:47,799
Speaker 1: members by we were at your house, and we like

977
00:49:47,840 --> 00:49:50,000
Speaker 1: we knew we were going to New York City, um

978
00:49:50,040 --> 00:49:52,319
Speaker 1: from St. Louis, And so we called the Letterman show

979
00:49:52,360 --> 00:49:54,239
Speaker 1: to get tickets and they called us back and we

980
00:49:54,280 --> 00:49:56,640
Speaker 1: had to answer like a trivia question and we got tickets.

981
00:49:56,640 --> 00:49:59,400
Speaker 1: We were in your pool, uh, and we got tickets

982
00:49:59,400 --> 00:50:03,640
Speaker 1: to go see the your house. Your house was so awesome,

983
00:50:03,680 --> 00:50:07,080
Speaker 1: it was it was I love that you guys got this.

984
00:50:07,280 --> 00:50:10,239
Speaker 1: It makes me so sad that we'll never have this

985
00:50:10,280 --> 00:50:12,880
Speaker 1: time in our life back where it's like you're free

986
00:50:13,000 --> 00:50:15,520
Speaker 1: and like you just meet random boys and you guys

987
00:50:15,560 --> 00:50:19,480
Speaker 1: can cheat, I know, but it's just can't do that anymore.

988
00:50:19,520 --> 00:50:21,120
Speaker 1: You can't do that stuffing. What if you grew's hair

989
00:50:21,160 --> 00:50:25,960
Speaker 1: out so you wouldn't do now that swoop back? Yeah,

990
00:50:26,520 --> 00:50:28,920
Speaker 1: I mean I could. It's actually yeah, out a little bit.

991
00:50:29,200 --> 00:50:30,839
Speaker 1: You look like you got a good note, You're fine.

992
00:50:30,880 --> 00:50:34,040
Speaker 1: If how old are you now? Thirty six? So you're

993
00:50:34,400 --> 00:50:38,799
Speaker 1: it's fine, your hair a little right, yeah, but if

994
00:50:38,840 --> 00:50:41,560
Speaker 1: you got most of it, you're okay. What what became

995
00:50:41,600 --> 00:50:44,839
Speaker 1: of you? Give us me? Give me your life is now? Yeah?

996
00:50:45,000 --> 00:50:48,000
Speaker 1: Thank you. So UM went to went to Auburn for

997
00:50:48,440 --> 00:50:54,200
Speaker 1: UH school and yeah, and studied Go Tigers, studied UM

998
00:50:54,360 --> 00:50:59,040
Speaker 1: like construction management. So I'm in construction UM and I

999
00:50:59,080 --> 00:51:01,279
Speaker 1: interviewed with this company at school and they had a

1000
00:51:01,360 --> 00:51:04,080
Speaker 1: job offer in UM southern California. So I moved out

1001
00:51:04,120 --> 00:51:06,880
Speaker 1: there and was out there for like eight years. And

1002
00:51:06,920 --> 00:51:17,600
Speaker 1: we were there across the right there at the same time.

1003
00:51:17,840 --> 00:51:20,319
Speaker 1: This is so annoying Daniel, it's so fu up so

1004
00:51:21,120 --> 00:51:25,160
Speaker 1: um so anyways, uh so yeah, then, um, let's see,

1005
00:51:25,200 --> 00:51:27,200
Speaker 1: my wife and I got drunk one day and decided

1006
00:51:27,239 --> 00:51:30,160
Speaker 1: to go house hunting out there, and we were looking

1007
00:51:30,160 --> 00:51:32,880
Speaker 1: at a house that was like just you know, crappy

1008
00:51:32,920 --> 00:51:35,640
Speaker 1: neighborhood had offers already, it was like and then it

1009
00:51:35,719 --> 00:51:37,520
Speaker 1: was like one point two million dollars and we're like,

1010
00:51:37,520 --> 00:51:39,840
Speaker 1: fun this, we cannot stay here anymore. So we're like,

1011
00:51:40,000 --> 00:51:43,280
Speaker 1: let's leave. So we long story short, moved to Baltimore,

1012
00:51:43,800 --> 00:51:45,200
Speaker 1: where we have this did you meet your wife home

1013
00:51:45,200 --> 00:51:46,920
Speaker 1: where you're going to stay with us? Um? We met

1014
00:51:46,920 --> 00:51:48,680
Speaker 1: at a four year old birthday party out there in

1015
00:51:48,680 --> 00:51:54,520
Speaker 1: Pasadena for forty year olds. You know that. It was

1016
00:51:54,560 --> 00:51:59,200
Speaker 1: like did you did you walk seven miles down the

1017
00:51:59,280 --> 00:52:02,920
Speaker 1: beach to go to find it? I mean yeah, yeah,

1018
00:52:03,960 --> 00:52:05,440
Speaker 1: what do you mean? It was a four year old

1019
00:52:05,480 --> 00:52:07,920
Speaker 1: birthday party? Um? It was like a mutual friend that

1020
00:52:07,960 --> 00:52:12,360
Speaker 1: we had an older an older friend. Okay, did you

1021
00:52:12,440 --> 00:52:16,000
Speaker 1: date before? Yeah? Did? She were? Yeah? Well, she like

1022
00:52:16,000 --> 00:52:20,160
Speaker 1: walked up the steps and she made some funny motion

1023
00:52:20,360 --> 00:52:22,040
Speaker 1: with her body and arms, and I was like, I

1024
00:52:22,080 --> 00:52:33,200
Speaker 1: need to know you. I like You's my favorite stories

1025
00:52:33,239 --> 00:52:35,440
Speaker 1: of like how did you know? Or like, what was it?

1026
00:52:35,560 --> 00:52:37,560
Speaker 1: What was the what was the thing? And she just

1027
00:52:37,600 --> 00:52:40,959
Speaker 1: did something funny that you were just like that person. Yes,

1028
00:52:41,480 --> 00:52:43,120
Speaker 1: like I need her in my life. So we were

1029
00:52:43,160 --> 00:52:45,520
Speaker 1: friends for a long time and then um we so

1030
00:52:45,640 --> 00:52:48,120
Speaker 1: she loves music just as much. How did you take

1031
00:52:48,120 --> 00:52:51,239
Speaker 1: it from friends to to romantic? You were friends for well,

1032
00:52:51,400 --> 00:52:53,920
Speaker 1: you obviously liked her so much. Yeah, I was just

1033
00:52:54,000 --> 00:52:57,880
Speaker 1: kind of like, hey, girl, you know but no, you

1034
00:52:57,960 --> 00:52:59,600
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, Like it goes from like you

1035
00:52:59,640 --> 00:53:02,360
Speaker 1: guys are both like she probably likes you, but doesn't

1036
00:53:02,480 --> 00:53:04,359
Speaker 1: really know if you like her, and then like who

1037
00:53:04,480 --> 00:53:07,000
Speaker 1: makes the first That's the most interesting moment I think

1038
00:53:07,320 --> 00:53:10,839
Speaker 1: in humanity is that switch of like you're taking a chance.

1039
00:53:10,880 --> 00:53:13,000
Speaker 1: I don't know. Yeah, I don't know. I think, Um,

1040
00:53:13,239 --> 00:53:15,560
Speaker 1: you're gonna have to ask her those questions, my members,

1041
00:53:15,560 --> 00:53:18,440
Speaker 1: you're gonna have to find out because that's an important moment.

1042
00:53:18,680 --> 00:53:21,120
Speaker 1: Maybe she don't remember. I'm always shocked when people don't

1043
00:53:21,320 --> 00:53:23,680
Speaker 1: boys never remember those times where I'm always like, what

1044
00:53:23,840 --> 00:53:28,920
Speaker 1: was the moment you knew what? And I haven't like, yeah, yeah,

1045
00:53:28,960 --> 00:53:31,920
Speaker 1: that's a cool. She didn't. She was outside a car

1046
00:53:32,000 --> 00:53:38,600
Speaker 1: dealership trying to fly people that. Okay, so then you

1047
00:53:38,840 --> 00:53:40,719
Speaker 1: and you have a kid now, So we have a

1048
00:53:40,760 --> 00:53:43,640
Speaker 1: kid now. So she's amazing. I wish she's napping. Um,

1049
00:53:43,680 --> 00:53:46,600
Speaker 1: so my wife has COVID. It's been awful and so

1050
00:53:46,719 --> 00:53:49,160
Speaker 1: she's yeah, you said she hasn't had a COVID for

1051
00:53:49,200 --> 00:53:51,239
Speaker 1: a while. Some people just can't get it out of

1052
00:53:51,239 --> 00:53:54,640
Speaker 1: their fucking system. Keep going on it. Twe we've done

1053
00:53:54,640 --> 00:53:56,959
Speaker 1: all this yet it's awful. So anyways, what that means

1054
00:53:57,040 --> 00:54:00,880
Speaker 1: that our child, Vivian is her name? Oh great name changed?

1055
00:54:00,920 --> 00:54:03,200
Speaker 1: Oh my god, she's amazing. Um, she can't go to

1056
00:54:03,320 --> 00:54:07,319
Speaker 1: daycare for two weeks. So we're both like, she's my

1057
00:54:07,360 --> 00:54:10,520
Speaker 1: wife works, I'm working, we're like trying to do and

1058
00:54:10,560 --> 00:54:13,280
Speaker 1: you're doing a podcast. Do you call her vis Yes,

1059
00:54:13,719 --> 00:54:17,280
Speaker 1: we do. We call her viv Vivy. She calls herself Vivian. Vivian.

1060
00:54:17,600 --> 00:54:22,480
Speaker 1: That is a great name. Congratulations. Have you met Vivian's No,

1061
00:54:22,600 --> 00:54:25,680
Speaker 1: they're all they're all dead now. But yeah, yeah, that's

1062
00:54:25,680 --> 00:54:29,319
Speaker 1: like a that's a very almost like an esther, like

1063
00:54:29,360 --> 00:54:35,080
Speaker 1: an older Um it really truly was my wife's grandmother's

1064
00:54:35,160 --> 00:54:40,400
Speaker 1: best friend's name, which that's cute. And your wife's grandmother's

1065
00:54:40,400 --> 00:54:44,160
Speaker 1: secret lesbian lover. Yes, that's what I said. Whatever grandmother's

1066
00:54:44,160 --> 00:54:47,880
Speaker 1: has best friends, like lifelong best friends. You go at

1067
00:54:47,960 --> 00:54:50,879
Speaker 1: a different time, they couldn't be out. Um, well, I'm

1068
00:54:50,960 --> 00:54:56,759
Speaker 1: so glad your daughter's name, wife's h grandmother's grandmother. Yeah,

1069
00:54:57,560 --> 00:55:00,839
Speaker 1: secret gay lover. Uh No, that's so. I was just

1070
00:55:00,880 --> 00:55:04,319
Speaker 1: saying on this weekend that, like, because I kind of

1071
00:55:04,520 --> 00:55:06,520
Speaker 1: don't even know that if I ever want to get married,

1072
00:55:06,560 --> 00:55:10,120
Speaker 1: but you just I just but I don't would just

1073
00:55:10,200 --> 00:55:12,440
Speaker 1: end up calling whoever was with my husband, just so

1074
00:55:12,480 --> 00:55:14,719
Speaker 1: people didn't feel awkward when I was like seventy something

1075
00:55:14,760 --> 00:55:17,440
Speaker 1: being like my boyfriend like I wasn't a boyfriends is

1076
00:55:17,440 --> 00:55:20,040
Speaker 1: just too weird. My grandmo used to have a boyfriend,

1077
00:55:20,080 --> 00:55:21,640
Speaker 1: and it would always crack me up to be like

1078
00:55:21,680 --> 00:55:24,240
Speaker 1: my grandma's boyfriend. Art. Well, if they have a boyfriend,

1079
00:55:24,360 --> 00:55:28,320
Speaker 1: you assumed their husband died, Yes, you always know that.

1080
00:55:28,440 --> 00:55:31,399
Speaker 1: When did your husband died three years ago? Is just

1081
00:55:31,440 --> 00:55:34,319
Speaker 1: like yeah, someone that just kind of plays by our

1082
00:55:34,360 --> 00:55:38,760
Speaker 1: own rules. She's just a widow. All right. Well we've

1083
00:55:38,840 --> 00:55:41,520
Speaker 1: ran the gamut of this discussion. Um, Daniel, thank you

1084
00:55:41,600 --> 00:55:44,160
Speaker 1: so much for joining us and taking time out of

1085
00:55:44,200 --> 00:55:48,480
Speaker 1: your COVID life. Thank you so much. We're gonna be

1086
00:55:48,480 --> 00:55:51,839
Speaker 1: friends now, like truly. Um, I wanna when I want

1087
00:55:51,840 --> 00:55:54,120
Speaker 1: a vacation together again. I want our families to be

1088
00:55:54,239 --> 00:55:59,319
Speaker 1: friends like we I have. We we made a friendship. Yeah,

1089
00:55:59,719 --> 00:56:03,080
Speaker 1: what's Jacob to Actually, guys, you two would be really good.

1090
00:56:03,120 --> 00:56:08,640
Speaker 1: You guys look alike straight up. Will you send me

1091
00:56:08,680 --> 00:56:10,840
Speaker 1: a picture of you boys back in the day, because

1092
00:56:10,880 --> 00:56:13,719
Speaker 1: I really want to remember. I know, I have a

1093
00:56:13,840 --> 00:56:19,320
Speaker 1: very strong idea. I know Alabama boys and they really

1094
00:56:19,480 --> 00:56:21,040
Speaker 1: I think one of them had a great T shirt

1095
00:56:21,200 --> 00:56:23,759
Speaker 1: with their sleeves rolled up at one point. No, they

1096
00:56:23,760 --> 00:56:26,640
Speaker 1: were like kind of nuts. They were donuts. And do

1097
00:56:26,680 --> 00:56:28,759
Speaker 1: you know what I mean by donnut? Okay that was

1098
00:56:28,960 --> 00:56:32,239
Speaker 1: when Okay, it was a type of Yeah. So it

1099
00:56:32,320 --> 00:56:34,040
Speaker 1: was a type of guy that we were really into

1100
00:56:34,080 --> 00:56:36,600
Speaker 1: that would have like kind of be like into fish

1101
00:56:36,680 --> 00:56:39,040
Speaker 1: and like the grateful dead Dave Matthews that had the

1102
00:56:39,120 --> 00:56:42,480
Speaker 1: swoopy long hair, and we're kind of like outdoorsy, not

1103
00:56:42,480 --> 00:56:46,120
Speaker 1: not hoosier, is not rednecks, but just like like of

1104
00:56:46,239 --> 00:56:49,240
Speaker 1: the earth and more like hemp necklaces. And they weren't

1105
00:56:49,360 --> 00:56:52,399
Speaker 1: quite that, but they had that spired about them. But

1106
00:56:52,680 --> 00:56:55,319
Speaker 1: and Dnuts comes from the fish song Wilson that goes

1107
00:56:55,400 --> 00:56:59,319
Speaker 1: Donna Wilson, and so we called them donuts. But you

1108
00:56:59,320 --> 00:57:05,080
Speaker 1: guys were it was work on your favorite band back then.

1109
00:57:05,440 --> 00:57:08,720
Speaker 1: Oh so that was probably what connected us. Yeah, that's

1110
00:57:08,760 --> 00:57:11,520
Speaker 1: all I needed. Yeah, and and the John Mayer, that

1111
00:57:11,600 --> 00:57:17,880
Speaker 1: John Mayer album that that was that was which with

1112
00:57:19,800 --> 00:57:29,000
Speaker 1: d That is definitely what made us all to get along.

1113
00:57:29,080 --> 00:57:30,919
Speaker 1: Was just talking about how much we love John Mayer.

1114
00:57:31,000 --> 00:57:34,280
Speaker 1: Room for Squares. Yes, he would just arrived on the scene.

1115
00:57:34,280 --> 00:57:36,320
Speaker 1: He was like, indeed, dude, like no one knew about me.

1116
00:57:36,400 --> 00:57:38,680
Speaker 1: So to find these boys that knew about John Mayer,

1117
00:57:38,720 --> 00:57:42,040
Speaker 1: who I had seen for Guster eight months prior, like

1118
00:57:42,080 --> 00:57:44,480
Speaker 1: it was wild to be like you guys John Mayor too.

1119
00:57:44,480 --> 00:57:46,520
Speaker 1: And we would talk about the CD that like you know,

1120
00:57:47,000 --> 00:57:50,480
Speaker 1: this is before Cdson, like it's over before you know

1121
00:57:50,640 --> 00:57:53,480
Speaker 1: it was back in the day twenty years later. Daniel Burson,

1122
00:57:53,680 --> 00:57:55,120
Speaker 1: So good to have you on the show. Thank you

1123
00:57:55,160 --> 00:57:57,120
Speaker 1: for listening to the show, Thank you for being a fan,

1124
00:57:57,160 --> 00:58:00,920
Speaker 1: and thank you for being my friend. Daniel person, love

1125
00:58:01,000 --> 00:58:07,360
Speaker 1: you too. Yeah, you give my love to the fam. Okay,

1126
00:58:06,240 --> 00:58:13,040
Speaker 1: bye bye, Daniel and your Grandma's friend. Oh boy. Final thought,

1127
00:58:13,240 --> 00:58:15,560
Speaker 1: it's got to be so fun to reminisce like that.

1128
00:58:15,880 --> 00:58:18,800
Speaker 1: It was. It is so fun. It's and it's you

1129
00:58:18,800 --> 00:58:21,120
Speaker 1: know what's so funny is like I'm I was even

1130
00:58:21,160 --> 00:58:23,800
Speaker 1: nervous to be like I had a crush on you. Yeah,

1131
00:58:23,960 --> 00:58:29,600
Speaker 1: I felt it was. There was literally like one percent

1132
00:58:29,640 --> 00:58:32,200
Speaker 1: of me being like, well, what if that feels like

1133
00:58:32,240 --> 00:58:34,160
Speaker 1: I don't want he's married, Like I don't want that

1134
00:58:34,240 --> 00:58:35,960
Speaker 1: to be like a weird thing, not that it would

1135
00:58:36,000 --> 00:58:38,160
Speaker 1: ever be, but I also I'm always kind of thinking

1136
00:58:38,160 --> 00:58:41,200
Speaker 1: of that and also like, um, and there's a high

1137
00:58:41,240 --> 00:58:43,280
Speaker 1: school part of me is like, but I knew he

1138
00:58:43,360 --> 00:58:46,120
Speaker 1: liked me back, Like I wasn't a dummy. I just

1139
00:58:46,200 --> 00:58:48,960
Speaker 1: knew that we we literally loved each other, like I

1140
00:58:49,160 --> 00:58:52,680
Speaker 1: loved him. He's a he's a very kind soul. Just

1141
00:58:52,840 --> 00:58:55,240
Speaker 1: was like, oh my god, like but we were both

1142
00:58:55,280 --> 00:58:59,280
Speaker 1: too scared to ever like make a move on each other.

1143
00:58:59,640 --> 00:59:01,920
Speaker 1: I mean, and it felt so comfortable with him that

1144
00:59:01,920 --> 00:59:03,800
Speaker 1: I knew that he was never going to make a move,

1145
00:59:03,880 --> 00:59:06,680
Speaker 1: you know, Like it was not I was constantly being like,

1146
00:59:06,680 --> 00:59:08,200
Speaker 1: oh my god, you might kiss me, and then it

1147
00:59:08,240 --> 00:59:10,640
Speaker 1: would make it weird because we're friends, Like it was

1148
00:59:10,680 --> 00:59:14,400
Speaker 1: a friendship of like someday we'll probably get together, not

1149
00:59:14,440 --> 00:59:17,680
Speaker 1: anytime soon. I don't feel threatened by this person, because

1150
00:59:17,680 --> 00:59:19,000
Speaker 1: there would be guys that I would be friends with

1151
00:59:19,040 --> 00:59:20,520
Speaker 1: and then all of a sudden, you you get the

1152
00:59:20,600 --> 00:59:22,400
Speaker 1: vibe that they sense that you like them, and then

1153
00:59:22,440 --> 00:59:25,080
Speaker 1: things fucking get weird. And with him it was just

1154
00:59:25,640 --> 00:59:27,880
Speaker 1: I really I think we said I love you back then,

1155
00:59:27,960 --> 00:59:30,960
Speaker 1: Like I really was like I love I loved them,

1156
00:59:31,160 --> 00:59:33,080
Speaker 1: loved them. I could see you guys doing it through

1157
00:59:33,480 --> 00:59:37,480
Speaker 1: Dave lyrics, you know, yeah for sure, probably, yeah. Oh.

1158
00:59:37,520 --> 00:59:38,920
Speaker 1: I would do that with boys all the time. And

1159
00:59:38,920 --> 00:59:40,480
Speaker 1: as soon as it would get a little bit too

1160
00:59:40,640 --> 00:59:42,360
Speaker 1: like lover or laydown would come on, and I'd be like,

1161
00:59:42,360 --> 00:59:44,200
Speaker 1: this is too much about sex, Like let's get back

1162
00:59:44,240 --> 00:59:47,360
Speaker 1: to trip and Billy's let's keep it lighting here, Let's

1163
00:59:47,400 --> 00:59:52,240
Speaker 1: get back to a song about deforestation. He writes a

1164
00:59:52,280 --> 00:59:57,160
Speaker 1: lot about like don't drink the water's um, the pollution

1165
00:59:57,800 --> 01:00:00,560
Speaker 1: and the white man. I like that one song about

1166
01:00:00,560 --> 01:00:06,360
Speaker 1: the bart bartender. Yeah, fix me drink. I don't need

1167
01:00:06,400 --> 01:00:11,800
Speaker 1: to think that is. I just remember like drinking to

1168
01:00:11,840 --> 01:00:15,520
Speaker 1: my twins being like man Dave gets it, like any

1169
01:00:15,600 --> 01:00:18,000
Speaker 1: song that makes you feel cool about drinking. God, it's

1170
01:00:18,040 --> 01:00:24,560
Speaker 1: just anything that will just yeah, cigarettes even like you know,

1171
01:00:24,800 --> 01:00:27,840
Speaker 1: mad men making me feel like it's cool, like to smoke.

1172
01:00:28,120 --> 01:00:31,880
Speaker 1: There's so many things that make you feel cool, men

1173
01:00:32,360 --> 01:00:35,280
Speaker 1: that culturally just convince you that it's the right thing

1174
01:00:35,280 --> 01:00:40,360
Speaker 1: to do. Um oh God reminiscent. This is where I

1175
01:00:40,400 --> 01:00:43,040
Speaker 1: get really sad because I'm just liked. Being a teenager

1176
01:00:43,160 --> 01:00:46,680
Speaker 1: was a fucking buss. The possibilities that were like just endless.

1177
01:00:47,200 --> 01:00:49,520
Speaker 1: And I feel like the more the older you get,

1178
01:00:49,560 --> 01:00:51,440
Speaker 1: the less time you obviously have, but the more like

1179
01:00:52,440 --> 01:00:57,640
Speaker 1: everything gets smaller, and like you can't have everyone in

1180
01:00:57,680 --> 01:00:59,000
Speaker 1: your life that you want to have in your life.

1181
01:00:59,000 --> 01:01:01,280
Speaker 1: You can't have friends around constantly. Everyone has a job,

1182
01:01:01,320 --> 01:01:03,720
Speaker 1: everyone has a wife, everyone has a husband, everyone has kids.

1183
01:01:03,800 --> 01:01:07,120
Speaker 1: Like you just it can't. You can't keep the party going.

1184
01:01:07,720 --> 01:01:10,160
Speaker 1: And there's something about that that, like, I think that

1185
01:01:10,160 --> 01:01:13,400
Speaker 1: that's why I'm still single and have the job that

1186
01:01:13,440 --> 01:01:15,560
Speaker 1: I have. I want to keep the party. I want

1187
01:01:15,560 --> 01:01:17,880
Speaker 1: to keep the hand going, not the party. I'm not

1188
01:01:17,920 --> 01:01:21,200
Speaker 1: a partier. I don't like going this is the way

1189
01:01:21,200 --> 01:01:25,840
Speaker 1: it's going to be forever now we're I don't like commitment. Um,

1190
01:01:25,960 --> 01:01:28,480
Speaker 1: And I think I'm right to not like commitment because

1191
01:01:29,200 --> 01:01:34,120
Speaker 1: it makes it so you can't change. I don't like

1192
01:01:34,160 --> 01:01:37,440
Speaker 1: commitment because it means that's what you're due to you

1193
01:01:37,720 --> 01:01:40,240
Speaker 1: till you die, and it reminds me of death. And

1194
01:01:40,280 --> 01:01:43,400
Speaker 1: that's why commitment scares me. But the commitment could be

1195
01:01:43,480 --> 01:01:48,080
Speaker 1: with you. Wow, you change, change, I know, but that

1196
01:01:48,240 --> 01:01:50,320
Speaker 1: but you'll always be with that person. And that means

1197
01:01:50,360 --> 01:01:52,240
Speaker 1: that there will never be anyone new in your life.

1198
01:01:52,240 --> 01:01:56,320
Speaker 1: There will never be another way. Especially with a romantic relationship.

1199
01:01:56,560 --> 01:02:00,520
Speaker 1: You'll never get that butterflies in your stomach of someone

1200
01:02:00,600 --> 01:02:02,400
Speaker 1: knew that you met, that Oh my god, what could

1201
01:02:02,400 --> 01:02:06,280
Speaker 1: this be? You'll never have the first date, you'll never have,

1202
01:02:06,320 --> 01:02:09,560
Speaker 1: a first kiss, You'll never have And that's and I'm

1203
01:02:09,600 --> 01:02:13,320
Speaker 1: only thinking about this for relationships because I literally that feeling.

1204
01:02:13,320 --> 01:02:15,280
Speaker 1: I get that feeling for a new job, for a

1205
01:02:15,320 --> 01:02:18,560
Speaker 1: new restaurant I find, for a new pet I get.

1206
01:02:18,960 --> 01:02:20,880
Speaker 1: But those things I can have for a new friend,

1207
01:02:20,960 --> 01:02:24,479
Speaker 1: I mean a new show, a new song. I those

1208
01:02:24,520 --> 01:02:26,240
Speaker 1: things I will not. I can do over and over

1209
01:02:26,240 --> 01:02:29,360
Speaker 1: and over. There's no limit. But a partner, you get

1210
01:02:29,440 --> 01:02:31,640
Speaker 1: one and then you have to keep it and then

1211
01:02:31,680 --> 01:02:34,240
Speaker 1: you can never And yeah, you can do like I

1212
01:02:34,240 --> 01:02:36,320
Speaker 1: was saying yesterday. You can role play and like pretended

1213
01:02:36,440 --> 01:02:39,160
Speaker 1: someone new, but you never really get the excitement of

1214
01:02:39,200 --> 01:02:42,680
Speaker 1: something new again. But here's the thing. I think, for me,

1215
01:02:42,760 --> 01:02:44,880
Speaker 1: at least, you get so much more out of the

1216
01:02:44,880 --> 01:02:47,080
Speaker 1: fact that you grow together and you have such an

1217
01:02:47,120 --> 01:02:49,320
Speaker 1: intense That's not what I was going to say. That's

1218
01:02:49,320 --> 01:02:52,240
Speaker 1: not what I was gonna say. What I was gonna say, Okay,

1219
01:02:52,400 --> 01:02:55,760
Speaker 1: what we're you gonna say? I was gonna say, um,

1220
01:02:56,320 --> 01:02:59,680
Speaker 1: what do you think about? No, you know I was

1221
01:02:59,760 --> 01:03:01,560
Speaker 1: going to say this, And I really do think it's

1222
01:03:01,560 --> 01:03:05,480
Speaker 1: a fucking real point that the new thing that you experience,

1223
01:03:05,800 --> 01:03:09,200
Speaker 1: all these new things you're experiencing, you're experiencing with someone else.

1224
01:03:09,480 --> 01:03:13,480
Speaker 1: So you can experience things except for the one new partner.

1225
01:03:13,520 --> 01:03:18,080
Speaker 1: But all those new things will feel great telling someone

1226
01:03:18,120 --> 01:03:20,200
Speaker 1: else how great they are. But I can always But

1227
01:03:20,520 --> 01:03:22,640
Speaker 1: if I had a partner, I could tell them about

1228
01:03:22,720 --> 01:03:24,960
Speaker 1: how great a song was. And I could still if

1229
01:03:25,000 --> 01:03:27,040
Speaker 1: they allowed me to have other partners, or of society

1230
01:03:27,040 --> 01:03:29,800
Speaker 1: allowed me to have other partners, or even I allowed

1231
01:03:29,800 --> 01:03:32,040
Speaker 1: myself to. But no, it's not it's not even about

1232
01:03:32,080 --> 01:03:35,240
Speaker 1: like like I want other partners. It's about the fact

1233
01:03:35,280 --> 01:03:38,920
Speaker 1: that it's it just won't work. You cannot in a

1234
01:03:39,200 --> 01:03:43,240
Speaker 1: in a in relationships having multiple partners, even if I

1235
01:03:43,280 --> 01:03:46,560
Speaker 1: wanted it, it's not sustainable. It doesn't work. It ends

1236
01:03:46,640 --> 01:03:49,160
Speaker 1: up like if I get a new friend, it doesn't

1237
01:03:49,160 --> 01:03:51,560
Speaker 1: deteriorate my other friends. If I get a new dog,

1238
01:03:51,600 --> 01:03:54,640
Speaker 1: it doesn't deteriorate. People don't if I have two kids.

1239
01:03:54,960 --> 01:03:57,760
Speaker 1: No one says you have two kids, But what about

1240
01:03:57,760 --> 01:03:59,800
Speaker 1: your one kid? Now you don't have enough love for

1241
01:04:00,000 --> 01:04:02,680
Speaker 1: do well? Maybe I do well? Where it works is

1242
01:04:02,840 --> 01:04:05,439
Speaker 1: so why can't I have enough love? You can, It's

1243
01:04:05,480 --> 01:04:08,800
Speaker 1: just you can't in society or whatever. However the hell

1244
01:04:08,880 --> 01:04:12,040
Speaker 1: we want to talk. You don't want my boyfriend have

1245
01:04:12,040 --> 01:04:15,200
Speaker 1: two girlfriends. You can't take it to the next level.

1246
01:04:15,240 --> 01:04:17,800
Speaker 1: You could have multiple you could be dating. If you

1247
01:04:17,920 --> 01:04:20,360
Speaker 1: have a boyfriend, you could date and having a crush

1248
01:04:20,400 --> 01:04:22,800
Speaker 1: for me, unless there's the opportunity that it could be forever,

1249
01:04:22,960 --> 01:04:26,000
Speaker 1: which is ironic because I don't want forever. But the

1250
01:04:27,040 --> 01:04:29,880
Speaker 1: fantasy that we could get married and all these things

1251
01:04:29,960 --> 01:04:32,960
Speaker 1: that I play out, if that is it possible because

1252
01:04:33,000 --> 01:04:35,160
Speaker 1: I have a partner in which that you can see

1253
01:04:35,160 --> 01:04:37,320
Speaker 1: from those things, it's like dreaming about flying. I'm not

1254
01:04:37,320 --> 01:04:40,040
Speaker 1: gonna fantasize about flying. It's I can't fly. What I'm

1255
01:04:40,040 --> 01:04:42,600
Speaker 1: saying is you take if you take a partner out

1256
01:04:42,640 --> 01:04:46,400
Speaker 1: of it, you can have everything You're saying. You can

1257
01:04:46,440 --> 01:04:50,240
Speaker 1: have all these new experiences. You just can't make one solidified.

1258
01:04:50,280 --> 01:04:54,000
Speaker 1: You could have. There's no problem dating multiple people, no one,

1259
01:04:54,360 --> 01:04:56,240
Speaker 1: no one gets hurt. But what I'm talking about is

1260
01:04:56,240 --> 01:05:01,840
Speaker 1: I and that and you have the fantasy you of

1261
01:05:01,920 --> 01:05:04,080
Speaker 1: the one, and then you get the one. You can't

1262
01:05:04,080 --> 01:05:06,360
Speaker 1: have more. It's it's it's like I feel about Christmas.

1263
01:05:06,400 --> 01:05:08,760
Speaker 1: I never want to open my Christmas presents because then

1264
01:05:08,800 --> 01:05:10,600
Speaker 1: the fantasy of what it could be is over and

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Speaker 1: you just have. But then you have the present. Nikki,

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Speaker 1: go play with the present. The present isn't isn't as

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Speaker 1: good as what the present could be. Ever to me,

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Speaker 1: and there's something that I gotta work on in therapy.

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Speaker 1: Thanks for listening to the show. That's a rap. I

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Speaker 1: gotta go. That is that That's how I wrap every day.

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna go to a podcast with Jason Nash. Is

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Speaker 1: gonna be good. Yeah, just a little bit of a

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Speaker 1: dash of me and him and some other people. I'm

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Speaker 1: going to a studio down the street. Um, it's gonna

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Speaker 1: start it too. And then I'm gonna go to pickle ball.

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna go hang out with my boyfriend and all

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Speaker 1: of his friends. I hope he doesn't ask me to

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Speaker 1: go on the court because I can't uh hold a

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Speaker 1: racket and I don't have a score. A score would

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Speaker 1: be a cute thing to wear to tennis. If I

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Speaker 1: find a cute outfit, then maybe, um, I'll feel like

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Speaker 1: Elaine Bennie, cool and chic and fun and nice. That's

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Speaker 1: the end of this, and now go buff give me

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Speaker 1: some ice another ice machine that my boyfriend fixed the

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Speaker 1: other night because he was so efficient and he's a

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Speaker 1: boy and I can't do it, and I've been delaying

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Speaker 1: calling the super And this isn't a rap anymore. It's

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Speaker 1: just the facts. Alligator, turtles, mice and cheese. Everyone has

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Speaker 1: nothing if you don't get off your knees, stop crawling

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Speaker 1: towards the sun and run to the moon. If we're

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Speaker 1: not eating hard, we're not eating with spoons. All right, guys,

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Speaker 1: thank you for listening. They'll be cut and cheers.