Speaker 1: The Nickels Podcasts. Nikki, Hello, it's Nikki here. I am
Speaker 1: It's Nick Laser podcast. Welcome to Monday morning in St. Louis, Missouri.
Speaker 1: I'm here with Andrew Colin. Um Noah is in Arizona.
Speaker 1: Hey Andrew, how's it going? It's good? Is that Tom
Speaker 1: Petty T shirt? Where'd you get that? I've had it?
Speaker 1: I got at the concert? Maybe? Why why you were?
Speaker 1: I don't like it without an over shirt? What's going
Speaker 1: with your hair? What do you mean? There's a little
Speaker 1: like it looks like just like a little like you
Speaker 1: got some gell in it or something? A little product?
Speaker 1: Is that new product? Newish? Yeah? It's a it's a cream. Yeah.
Speaker 1: Have you ever done his body? Have I ever done
Speaker 1: a cream? No? Did you hear this? Guy asked me
Speaker 1: if I've ever put a cream in my hair? I
Speaker 1: don't know what girls put in there here? Yeah? Um?
Speaker 1: Do you want to know what my routineous? No? You
Speaker 1: got to share yours too, then I'll mind. I'll share mine. Well,
Speaker 1: I can tell you what yours is. You get out
Speaker 1: of the shower, you dry your hair, and then you
Speaker 1: put some product in it and you just go. You
Speaker 1: put a little palm maaid in your hand or whatever
Speaker 1: it is, and you just scrunch it in and then
Speaker 1: you wait. But from back to front, like how I wipe,
Speaker 1: Oh my god, I do everything back to front, from
Speaker 1: hair to huh, back to front. It's really good idea
Speaker 1: because the back you get rid of most of the
Speaker 1: access excess, you know, and that way you don't have
Speaker 1: too much product greasing it up. If you put on
Speaker 1: the front. It's almost like when you use condition or
Speaker 1: you're supposed to start on the ends then work up
Speaker 1: because your roots are more they have more oil. Anyway,
Speaker 1: I learned that the hard way, like you know, way
Speaker 1: too late in the game, but yeah, I learned that
Speaker 1: the hard way. You learn how to do things your
Speaker 1: own way, and you gotta take is something, and isn't it.
Speaker 1: I mean you have a very petty look going tom
Speaker 1: petty yeah, like petty right now and uh yeah, I'm
Speaker 1: angry about petty things this morning to what's this hair? Um, well,
Speaker 1: my hair thing. I'm so greased up right now. My
Speaker 1: hair is still going from Saturday night, I think. Yeah,
Speaker 1: so it was just two days old, which is nothing,
Speaker 1: but I was already I put too much product. Then
Speaker 1: I okay. So I usually, UM, I washed my hair
Speaker 1: every three days every day. If I have to do,
Speaker 1: like if I'm on TV or something or have a
Speaker 1: live performance, UM, I get in the shower. I use shampoo.
Speaker 1: I try to use UM. Usually I do whatever the
Speaker 1: funk they have there, because shampoo, to me is less.
Speaker 1: I could use the soap I use. UM. Oh my god,
Speaker 1: I hate to say it, but her products are amazing. UM.
Speaker 1: I was making I think a list on Target dot
Speaker 1: com one day for something you know, they delivered to you,
Speaker 1: and I was like, I'll try this Honest brand, you know,
Speaker 1: Jessica Alba's brand, the Honest Company, I think it's called.
Speaker 1: And their shampoo works as a body wash and a
Speaker 1: m and a shampoo. So I was like, I love that,
Speaker 1: which I've already always used shampoo as body wash. It does.
Speaker 1: It's it's negligible differences between the two. If you're going
Speaker 1: to like a hotel, you just grab the thing that's clear.
Speaker 1: It's a shampoo. Every body washed. It's the same ship.
Speaker 1: And I threw that. UM, so I use that. It's
Speaker 1: like the vanilla orange kind, I think. And then I
Speaker 1: use that for body wash too, But I just use
Speaker 1: a lot, Like I don't use a lot. I don't
Speaker 1: like it to be like super suddsy on my head,
Speaker 1: like I'm a woman in the nineties hair commercial. I
Speaker 1: just want to get like the oils out, and I
Speaker 1: think that shampoo strips a lot. So I try not
Speaker 1: to go too crazy, but sometimes if I don't do
Speaker 1: it enough, it will start to build up. No, what
Speaker 1: what do you feel about shampoo? What's your shampoo? Well,
Speaker 1: I I just had a reaction because you said that
Speaker 1: your shampoo is vanilla and orange, and those are two
Speaker 1: of my least favorite like artificial sense, Well, it's not artificial.
Speaker 1: This ship is natural. Well, I think it's vanilla orange,
Speaker 1: just like in product that Yes, I get that, Like
Speaker 1: you don't want them outside of the food that you consume. Yeah,
Speaker 1: you've never tried to eat my hair. If a piece
Speaker 1: of my hair got in your food, you'd probably leave it,
Speaker 1: probably not. Yeah, I love vanilla cream out of your head.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna get there and then I use But I
Speaker 1: gotta say the shampoo in the body wash was the
Speaker 1: thing that I used for her first, and then I
Speaker 1: was always using my own conditioners that are I use
Speaker 1: like expensive conditioners because conditioning is like what I need
Speaker 1: the most of my white girl overprocessed blonde hair. It's
Speaker 1: dry and conditioner has always been since high school. I've used,
Speaker 1: I would say, and this is not an exaggeration, forty
Speaker 1: times the amount of conditioner that I do shampoo per session.
Speaker 1: I mean conditioner used. I used to pile it up
Speaker 1: like a sigh of a two hackey sacks in my hand,
Speaker 1: like just a joy promount of it. And then for shampoo,
Speaker 1: I would just use a little dollarp um. You know
Speaker 1: you just reminded me of huh. I remember when I
Speaker 1: was in high school, herbal Essence had like it was
Speaker 1: the most popular shampoo because they had those controversial commercials
Speaker 1: of the women having orgasms. I know that was my
Speaker 1: first time seeing what an orgasm was. I didn't even
Speaker 1: know what they were been making in those ads. You
Speaker 1: know you're too young, but I would be so funny
Speaker 1: that's what would actually happen every morning. Well, I mean
Speaker 1: some people jerk off every morning, so that could be.
Speaker 1: Do you think anyone's ever come from? Probably have asturbated
Speaker 1: more times in a week than shampoo my hair. It's
Speaker 1: some weeks of my life. Have you ever rubbed your
Speaker 1: Have you ever conditioned your head so much that it's
Speaker 1: turned you on yourself? No, that's what I'm saying. Well,
Speaker 1: I'm just saying that you were saying it would be
Speaker 1: weird if every time you did that you would come.
Speaker 1: But I would say, the only weirdness about that would
Speaker 1: be like, oh, it's so frequent you would have to
Speaker 1: calm all the time. But really, I'm probably masturbating more
Speaker 1: than I am washing my hair, so it wouldn't be
Speaker 1: as frequent, do you know what I mean? Um, So,
Speaker 1: then I use but I use this, But I got
Speaker 1: the conditioner from this honest company, and I gotta recommend
Speaker 1: it to people there if you're a girl that likes
Speaker 1: really good conditioner that helps you just right away your
Speaker 1: your fingers slip through your hair. Like That's how I
Speaker 1: know a good conditioner is it makes it completely dentangled
Speaker 1: right away. And my hair is so tangled it takes
Speaker 1: so much conditioner to get through it. And that's always
Speaker 1: the mark of a great conditioner for me. And so
Speaker 1: this and that kind. I uses the lavender kind. So
Speaker 1: I um, but now I use way less conditioner, probably
Speaker 1: probably double the amount of shampoo when it used to
Speaker 1: literally be forty times the amount. So I washed shampoo
Speaker 1: my hair, immediately leave it on for maybe not even
Speaker 1: like I just do it and then immediately wash it out,
Speaker 1: like I don't leave it. I probably should leave it.
Speaker 1: People are gonna write to me and be like, this
Speaker 1: is not the right way to do it. This works
Speaker 1: for me. Then I do conditioner ton and then I
Speaker 1: start on the ends, and then I do maybe a
Speaker 1: little bit more, and I go all the way up
Speaker 1: to the top and I just at least soak it,
Speaker 1: and then I kind of twist it like this into
Speaker 1: a knot so that it can because I have long hair,
Speaker 1: and if I twisted up enough and it's wet, I
Speaker 1: can all make it like it just stays on top
Speaker 1: of my head like that. And so I do it
Speaker 1: so it's almost like a mask, so it's like soaking,
Speaker 1: and then I maybe take some more conditioner and then
Speaker 1: over I like pad it over it so that every
Speaker 1: stingle strand has some conditioner on it, and then I
Speaker 1: then that's when I do Okay. I go, okay, so
Speaker 1: I want this condition to the last longest. I don't
Speaker 1: take long showers, as we all know, So then I go,
Speaker 1: Now I'll shave my legs, which again will take literally
Speaker 1: a minute and a half. I don't know what other
Speaker 1: women are doing. I only cut myself once in a while. Um,
Speaker 1: but I shave really fast, so minimal. Yeah. No, I
Speaker 1: use conditioner or shampoo, same stuff. No, no special stuff,
Speaker 1: but I use Harry's um razors. I really recommend those,
Speaker 1: like the expensive kind that are like they're not even
Speaker 1: they're ten bucks, which I know is not cheap, but
Speaker 1: it's ten bucks and they come with a refillable things.
Speaker 1: They're the ones that target they just work the best girls.
Speaker 1: Like if you're shaving your vagina, stop using these like
Speaker 1: little like two blade once, like, use a big fucking
Speaker 1: nice men's razor for your vagina and I never get
Speaker 1: razor burned anymore. You can also use ten skin afterwards
Speaker 1: if you do get razor burn after you shave your vagina.
Speaker 1: There's stuff you can buy an Amazon and I think
Speaker 1: probably get out Walgreens. And it's in a blue bottle.
Speaker 1: It's called ten skin And if you put it on
Speaker 1: like a little cotton bad or toilet paper and you
Speaker 1: like dab it around, it kills the bacteria and it
Speaker 1: makes it so you do not get those but you
Speaker 1: have to do it preemptively, not before. You don't wait
Speaker 1: till after you get the infections. Do it before, right
Speaker 1: after you shave, so then I rinse out my hair
Speaker 1: and if my fingers run through it, then I know
Speaker 1: it's been a successful conditioning. And then I get out
Speaker 1: and I ha yes the night. But if it normally,
Speaker 1: I'll put up my hair and like a scrunchy, or
Speaker 1: I'll put my hair up in a towel and I'll
Speaker 1: just wash my body so that my hair doesn't get wet.
Speaker 1: If if it's you know, every day, I shower basically
Speaker 1: maybe twice a day. But if I don't want to
Speaker 1: wet my hair, do that and then I get out
Speaker 1: of the shower. If my hair is wet, and then
Speaker 1: I um towel dry. I put it up in a
Speaker 1: towel like a classic lady from the fifties, and then
Speaker 1: I take it out after it absorbs most of it,
Speaker 1: and then I brushed through it with detangling brush. And
Speaker 1: if I have any snags, I like, don't try to
Speaker 1: just brush through them. I don't understand women who do that.
Speaker 1: Please stop doing that. If you feel a snag, don't
Speaker 1: just try to push through it it's gonna rip your
Speaker 1: hair out and no, you go, no, it doesn't. It does.
Speaker 1: So then you find the not and then you work
Speaker 1: it through with either more conditioner and then you wash
Speaker 1: it out, but you try to get that little snag
Speaker 1: out so that you don't just rip that hair out.
Speaker 1: And then I brushed through it and then I either
Speaker 1: let it air dry and um and then curl it
Speaker 1: later and try to like gussie it up. But you
Speaker 1: usually the best solution is to then um oh, and
Speaker 1: then I put in a cream. Um it is, oh
Speaker 1: you ai. I first think of the name is and
Speaker 1: it's like conditioning cream. It's a white bottle. It's like
Speaker 1: oh yo, um that is. So what's a ham drip
Speaker 1: that comes before the it's that's a turkey tear and
Speaker 1: you'll see why soon. So I use that and I
Speaker 1: put a dollop in my hand about a dime sized amount,
Speaker 1: and then I rub it all over my hands and
Speaker 1: then I start at the ends and then I go
Speaker 1: to the top, eventually the crown and then um, I
Speaker 1: blowed her my hair with a just regular paddle like
Speaker 1: I don't sometimes I'll do a round brush, but right
Speaker 1: now I'm using a paddle and I use this really
Speaker 1: nice hair dryer I got that gives is supposed to
Speaker 1: give a lot of shine to your hair. Forget the
Speaker 1: name of it, but just look up. You know hair
Speaker 1: dryers that give you shine. They really actually do if
Speaker 1: you spend the extra money on them. It's like it's
Speaker 1: two hair dryer, so you know, it's packs a punch
Speaker 1: and then um, and then once my hair has been
Speaker 1: blow dried, I can do anything with it later on.
Speaker 1: Sometimes it's a little bit like two moisturized after a shower,
Speaker 1: and I need it to dry out a little bit
Speaker 1: before I curl it, because to keep a curl, your
Speaker 1: hair needs to be a little bit dryer and not
Speaker 1: have as much thickness to it. This is boring to
Speaker 1: anyone who doesn't do hair care. But then I can
Speaker 1: curl my hair and and I really do want to
Speaker 1: do a makeup tutorial because every time I go on
Speaker 1: Instagram Live and I go, guys, I gotta go because
Speaker 1: I gotta put on my makeup for a thing. People
Speaker 1: are like, do a makeup tutorial, and I'm like, I would,
Speaker 1: but I just got to throw it on really fast
Speaker 1: right now. This isn't the time, so I'm gonna do
Speaker 1: that at some point, not that I know what I'm doing,
Speaker 1: but I I kind of do. I know what works
Speaker 1: for me. And I've been watching a lot of makeup
Speaker 1: tutorial instagrams that have like these new kind of tips.
Speaker 1: I'm using one of my favorites. Oh my god, I
Speaker 1: did this weekend and I just didn't do it right
Speaker 1: now because I didn't have time. No, it's so good.
Speaker 1: So I don't know why I took off my sunglasses
Speaker 1: because my eyes are like little little tiny slivers of
Speaker 1: almonds like you would find in a good salad right now,
Speaker 1: Like my eyes are puffy because I just have been
Speaker 1: like I'll get into it in a second, but I've
Speaker 1: just been like a puffy bitch. Like not that not
Speaker 1: saying that, I'm just saying like his stamine and like emotional.
Speaker 1: I've been like very emotional, but not cry. It's just
Speaker 1: like I need to. I My face constantly looks like
Speaker 1: it needs to cry. So uh, but it's good. It's
Speaker 1: all good. It's it's good to feel your feelings even
Speaker 1: though you don't let them out ever and you hold
Speaker 1: them back. So but this is the best tip that
Speaker 1: I saw. No I should send you some of these
Speaker 1: tips because I always send them to Robin, my makeup girl,
Speaker 1: to be like, what do you think about this? You'll
Speaker 1: like this one because you're a big eye makeup girl.
Speaker 1: So you take tweezers, okay, and you take your mass
Speaker 1: scara wand and you get a bunch of goop on it,
Speaker 1: and you take the tweezers and you tweeze goop between them.
Speaker 1: So you you tweeze the masscara goop with the tweezers. Okay,
Speaker 1: So you get a bunch of goop that just looks
Speaker 1: like almost like a paint brush of goop. And then
Speaker 1: you this for your under eyelashes because when you do
Speaker 1: your under eyelashes, they collect too much with the wand
Speaker 1: they bleed onto your uh skin and it will just
Speaker 1: look clumpy or or bad. So then you lightly do
Speaker 1: not tweez like you're tweezing out hair, but you take
Speaker 1: the hair gently and you know how to do. You
Speaker 1: think you're going to tweeze your hair out, but you
Speaker 1: you will not. There's not even a part of you
Speaker 1: that could ever out your own eyelashes unless you have
Speaker 1: trick it tilmnia, which is a different thing. Altogether, and
Speaker 1: then you go through individually and you grasp inside the
Speaker 1: gloopy between the tweezer. You just gently like tug on
Speaker 1: each of your eyelashes to do like a singular, and
Speaker 1: it gives it this like awesome, like you know, kind
Speaker 1: of Twiggy. I was gonna say, Twiggy, Yeah, Twiggy goldie
Speaker 1: hawn um like look underneath your eye like for your
Speaker 1: lower lashes that I did this weekend, and I was like,
Speaker 1: oh my god, I don't even need like it was
Speaker 1: just such a cool look that I love when something
Speaker 1: makeup wise, I discovered like a whole new look to
Speaker 1: my face. And then I just found out last night.
Speaker 1: If you're in over forty and you're doing contour right
Speaker 1: here where your cheekbone, right below your cheekbone where everyone
Speaker 1: thinks you're supposed to do contour, now, contour is the
Speaker 1: dark line that you do. Like if you're doing contouring,
Speaker 1: you do like a brown line. If you're a white girl,
Speaker 1: or you know, lighter skinned or just any skin color. Really,
Speaker 1: if you're contouring, you do a darker shade than your color,
Speaker 1: much darker in between your cheekbone and your jaw. I
Speaker 1: guess like where that dent is. But if you're over forty,
Speaker 1: that's wrong. You're pulling your face down. You should do
Speaker 1: the um the dark line on your cheekbone, which is
Speaker 1: totally different than I thought. It's just so interesting because
Speaker 1: it is all really like painting. It's like Bob Ross
Speaker 1: and there's all these tricks. It's all an illusion. It's
Speaker 1: optical illusions. You're drawing on your face, but you can
Speaker 1: highlight different places and truly look like so much different
Speaker 1: with just a little bit of It's just it's so
Speaker 1: easy to just do these things. And and by the way,
Speaker 1: like the things that we think we're doing to make
Speaker 1: ourselves look younger, in fact sometimes can be making us
Speaker 1: look a lot older. Like eyeshadow for me makes me
Speaker 1: look so old because it closes off my eye. It
Speaker 1: makes it look smaller, or like gives if I use
Speaker 1: just um, if I use concealer on my eye and
Speaker 1: make my eye like almost a lighter color than my
Speaker 1: skin tone and my it gives me a youthful look
Speaker 1: because k it's don't wear makeup, so if you look
Speaker 1: like you're not, if you wear less makeup, your face
Speaker 1: will look younger. It will also look more masculine. But
Speaker 1: then that's why you do the eyelashes. Eyelashes are the
Speaker 1: thing that sets part women. And then final answer, I
Speaker 1: fucking forgot I have bottom eyelashes. Yeah, mine are I
Speaker 1: had no idea. I really haven't thought about. Like, I
Speaker 1: would love to give your eyes this look because bottom
Speaker 1: lashes are such it's a thing that everyone forgets. Really
Speaker 1: and browsed change everything. I was looking an old eyebrow
Speaker 1: or old eyebrow pictures. Oh my god, can noah no,
Speaker 1: what can you tell him what you discovered? Please? So
Speaker 1: on your Instagram story, you posted a close up photo
Speaker 1: that you just recently took on tour of you turning
Speaker 1: around looking kind of sultry, and then you posted a
Speaker 1: younger version of yourself photo but like just a lot younger,
Speaker 1: and I said younger, Andrew reminds me of Brenda. You
Speaker 1: look like Brenna's brother. Do you look like a hot
Speaker 1: girl like you? You have the face of like a
Speaker 1: really like Brenna has one of the prettiest faces that
Speaker 1: you'll ever see in person, and trust like she pops
Speaker 1: on his Instagram, but like in person, she's one of
Speaker 1: the most striking, beautif naturally beautiful people I've ever seen,
Speaker 1: and you have night and I was like, they do
Speaker 1: look so similar and this and this is no insult
Speaker 1: to Brenna or to you know, it's actually like the
Speaker 1: most compliment to both of you because you just have
Speaker 1: a beautiful face and and it supports our thesis that
Speaker 1: is not even ours. It's like one that I think
Speaker 1: it's biologically proven, is that we're attracted to people with
Speaker 1: our same like face structure. And like that kind of
Speaker 1: looked like us and Chris I realized, looks we both
Speaker 1: have like big smiles, big smiles, very little but yeah,
Speaker 1: but I I could see that how back in the day,
Speaker 1: the back in the day, but I realized my eyebrows
Speaker 1: were very manicured. Then then that photo and my mom
Speaker 1: would make me wax my eyebrows. Maybe you should go
Speaker 1: back to that. It's a good look. Yeah, I don't
Speaker 1: know the bottoms. It hurts, man, I know it hurts.
Speaker 1: But you know what, every girl knows what you're talking about.
Speaker 1: And you get I know this sounds stupid, You get
Speaker 1: callous to it, like it doesn't hurt anymore. Maybe I'm wrong.
Speaker 1: Maybe if you're sensitive ones talking about sensitivity, I just
Speaker 1: want to say, I am like, I you got off
Speaker 1: Zoloft recently, right like about two months. Was that a
Speaker 1: choice or did it just you miss some doses and
Speaker 1: you go, I'll just see what this? What do you remember?
Speaker 1: What was the impetus? It was? We were in um
Speaker 1: Cabo and I think I was just in a really
Speaker 1: good space head wise, brain wise to the point eyebrow wise. Um,
Speaker 1: well we'll never get there. But that has nothing to
Speaker 1: do with off. Oh my god, So I um want
Speaker 1: to talk about library Liberry was funny, he said, Lieberry
Speaker 1: this weekend, and I go, I just have never known
Speaker 1: you to not say that word. It was um. So
Speaker 1: I ended up Yeah, So I just like I took
Speaker 1: one and then I was like down to three days.
Speaker 1: I started well beautron too, So I felt like I
Speaker 1: was getting whatever endorphin or whatever feeling of like less
Speaker 1: anxiety from that. So I could slowly get off the Zoloft.
Speaker 1: I know plenty of I read. I read a lot
Speaker 1: about people being able to wean off one for the other,
Speaker 1: and then I got off the Zoloft. I didn't feel
Speaker 1: too many. Uh, I felt a little zappy little people
Speaker 1: talk about but I wasn't sad at all. Like I
Speaker 1: wasn't feeling Those are withdrawal symptoms, so maybe you go
Speaker 1: all wait him out. If they persist, then we'll think
Speaker 1: about But you you were monitoring your withdrawals. And then
Speaker 1: and then with well Beautron, I was like, okay, well
Speaker 1: I don't really, I'm not really I was getting a
Speaker 1: little anger. It's like I felt like very on edge,
Speaker 1: a little bit from the well you. And I was like, okay,
Speaker 1: let me slowly get off this too. While I'm here.
Speaker 1: It's kind of like a rehab down there. And I
Speaker 1: you know, the only tough part was looking in the
Speaker 1: mirror that one day at my body and like that
Speaker 1: was a great day for me. I mean it was
Speaker 1: offe so anyway, so I was able to just get
Speaker 1: off and there it felt like I was in I mean,
Speaker 1: I was in paradise. Yeah. So and then I came
Speaker 1: back and it's been it's been good. It's been really good.
Speaker 1: I've noticed that you have. There's been an uptick. And
Speaker 1: this is just me being aware because I'm usually suffering
Speaker 1: and I'm trying to look for other people suffering around
Speaker 1: me to justify my suffering. Let me just be honest
Speaker 1: with that. But I've noticed that there's been more like
Speaker 1: like doing the biting your fingernails than when you were
Speaker 1: on well betim, but it's not as bad as it
Speaker 1: was before you were on that stuff or before so left.
Speaker 1: It's just for me. I look at you biting your
Speaker 1: fingers and I go, that's just me, like going like
Speaker 1: I'm worried, Like it's okay to bite your fingernails. Before
Speaker 1: it was the thing where you were sometimes clawing on
Speaker 1: your hand constantly. Well, there's a time when I clawed
Speaker 1: my hand and it's when my anxiety is the highest.
Speaker 1: And when when I bite my nails. I know when
Speaker 1: I do it. It's when I fly, especially after I
Speaker 1: drink a lot of coffee, or and when I do shows.
Speaker 1: And I noticed it other times too. Okay, but I'm
Speaker 1: saying for me, I know that I get I get it.
Speaker 1: I know, you know. But I do things too where
Speaker 1: I go, oh, I know I'm doing this because I'm stressed.
Speaker 1: But I think sometimes we do those things and we
Speaker 1: don't realize we're doing it. But it's not a bad thing.
Speaker 1: It's not like we should be able to chew on
Speaker 1: our fingernails instead of taking a drug so that we
Speaker 1: don't have to do that if if we know our
Speaker 1: fingernails aren't bleeding, let's talk about this stuff like these
Speaker 1: are all coping mechanisms in the short term because I
Speaker 1: am only bringing this up because I, uh recently got
Speaker 1: off an antidepressant and I'm going to talk about it
Speaker 1: right when we get back from this. But I really
Speaker 1: relate to seeing little things like that come up for
Speaker 1: me where I'm like, it's okay, you know, are you
Speaker 1: doing that on purpose? We'll be right back here. I
Speaker 1: come down the road all the time, off the street,
Speaker 1: don't freak, can eat street met unless you got utensils.
Speaker 1: It's just good advice. Okay, we're back. So as I
Speaker 1: was saying, um, I, I was wondering how you got
Speaker 1: off it, because whenever I get off antonia presence, which
Speaker 1: I've gotten off every single thirty five times, like I've
Speaker 1: been on so many things. Now, let's ever breakup. Um,
Speaker 1: But that is interesting that perfectly know it always well
Speaker 1: what really happen? And I don't want this. Please, if
Speaker 1: you are on stuff right now, please do not get
Speaker 1: off it. This is not and this was This doesn't
Speaker 1: work out for a lot of people, and it might
Speaker 1: not work out for me. Because I want to say
Speaker 1: the only reason I'm off stuff right now, because I
Speaker 1: just want to be honest with people, is that I couldn't.
Speaker 1: You know, there's got to be a solution for people
Speaker 1: with meds that are dealing with anxiety and depression, because
Speaker 1: it is so hard to get meds on time and
Speaker 1: things like that. If you have a d D, if
Speaker 1: you have anxiety like staying up with I'll have two
Speaker 1: pills left, and I'll go, i gotta call the doctor,
Speaker 1: and then I don't get around to it, and then
Speaker 1: all of a sudden, I'm missing a pill and then
Speaker 1: I know the side effects are suicidal thoughts, and I'm like,
Speaker 1: oh my god, fuck. And then i'd call and then
Speaker 1: I have the transfer to the CDs. I go to
Speaker 1: the CVS. We're in a strange town. They don't have
Speaker 1: my information. I'm just like, there's been a long line.
Speaker 1: We have to get to the next gig, and I'm like,
Speaker 1: you know what, I'm just gonna skip it and see
Speaker 1: what happens. I'm gonna be aware of any possible side effects.
Speaker 1: So I was on the drug Pristique for because I
Speaker 1: was like, you know, on they got me on anxiety
Speaker 1: men's and then I was still having like, really this
Speaker 1: urge to smoke pot. This was back in like a
Speaker 1: couple of years ago, and I was still like, god,
Speaker 1: you know, like this is taking care of this part
Speaker 1: of my life, this one drug, but this other part,
Speaker 1: I'm still dying smoke weed all the time. And my
Speaker 1: doctor was probably like, Okay, well weed, you're reaching for
Speaker 1: that because of anxiety and like, so maybe we give
Speaker 1: you Pristique. So I was on that and then yeah,
Speaker 1: the weed urges went away. I was able to quit.
Speaker 1: It didn't go away, but I was able to quit
Speaker 1: on my own and then, um, and I never really
Speaker 1: thought it helped with the weed stuff. I thought that
Speaker 1: I just found a different solution for myself. The reason
Speaker 1: I quit weed was because it was making me unfunny
Speaker 1: and like I was doing it every day, so that
Speaker 1: I shared my own path with that in multiple episodes.
Speaker 1: But anyway, so I just kept taking Pristi because I'm
Speaker 1: scared to get off it because the one of the
Speaker 1: side effects was like possible suicide, like which is so ironic,
Speaker 1: Like you talked about so all oft is like it
Speaker 1: helps depression, but then you can't come and it's like, well,
Speaker 1: now I'm depressed because I can't come. It's like, what's
Speaker 1: what is this doing to us? So you can only
Speaker 1: kill yourself, I know, and you can only come once.
Speaker 1: So I was like, and I don't want to kill myself.
Speaker 1: I don't want anything to like do. But I also
Speaker 1: know that people no one wants to kill themselves, you know,
Speaker 1: like it's not something that if even if you do
Speaker 1: want to kill yourself, it's not there's something there's a
Speaker 1: disease happening in your head, Like a disease is trying
Speaker 1: to kill you, not you know then and it's it's
Speaker 1: out of your troll. Um. So I just didn't want
Speaker 1: to catch whatever disease that would be from a withdrawal
Speaker 1: side effect. So I was monitoring it and I was
Speaker 1: making sure. I was like, I'm not having suicidal thoughts.
Speaker 1: I'm very aware of that when those come up. And
Speaker 1: so I lapsed in my like I was off it
Speaker 1: for a week, and I was like, Okay, I looked
Speaker 1: up like the half life of the stuff, like things
Speaker 1: withdrawal symptoms should be taking place. And I've never experienced
Speaker 1: withdrawal symptoms like I just I read about when I
Speaker 1: used to be on two d milligrams the ultimate dose,
Speaker 1: and I went off cold turkey because I was just, oh,
Speaker 1: I feel good. I don't need anymore. I didn't feel
Speaker 1: the brains apps, I didn't feel the suicidal thoughts. I
Speaker 1: didn't I didn't feel anything. And I have weaned in
Speaker 1: the past when I was more responsible, But there are
Speaker 1: times where I've just cold turkey it and I have
Speaker 1: just gotten lucky. I have whatever chemistry is in my
Speaker 1: body for those types of things. I do not experience
Speaker 1: withdrawal symptoms from those meds, or I haven't yet. But
Speaker 1: I was like, prostque is something I haven't been on,
Speaker 1: so I don't want to make zolof I know that
Speaker 1: I've never experienced withdraws. I've gone off in a million times,
Speaker 1: but so, but do not do that. It's very dangerous,
Speaker 1: you guys. I think I'm just like lucky in that way,
Speaker 1: like what my physiology is different, and you know, so
Speaker 1: please don't do that. I'm not saying you will have
Speaker 1: I've never heard of someone not having it, but I
Speaker 1: have not. So with f Steek, I was worried about it,
Speaker 1: and I just I was paying attention to it. But
Speaker 1: what I've discovered is no withdraw symptoms. But all of
Speaker 1: a sudden, so many feelings all the time. I feel
Speaker 1: like I'm constantly p mssing, which doesn't make sense because
Speaker 1: I just had my period and I was able to
Speaker 1: like write the feelings off when they first came in
Speaker 1: as PMS because I was like about to start my period.
Speaker 1: That makes sense, But the field it's so interesting because
Speaker 1: I just don't know how to feel like, I don't
Speaker 1: know how to cry. I don't. I truly don't know
Speaker 1: how to cry. I don't I know how. There are
Speaker 1: some things that get me to do it, like when
Speaker 1: my friends give me permission, or I'm able to like
Speaker 1: talk about something enough that starts bringing it up. I
Speaker 1: was able to cry last night. I was texting with
Speaker 1: my sister about just some stuff I felt like stupid about,
Speaker 1: and she like so sweet. She just like asked one question.
Speaker 1: I was like blah blah blah blah, and like spilled.
Speaker 1: She was like, I really want to talk to you
Speaker 1: about this thing that's going on in my life. And
Speaker 1: she was like, yeah, we'll get coffee later this week
Speaker 1: because it was late, and I was like I don't
Speaker 1: have time to get into it. And then all of
Speaker 1: a sudden, I just keep texting and I'm getting into
Speaker 1: it and then I start crying and it felt good,
Speaker 1: but it was just like not enough anyway. I'm just
Speaker 1: feeling so so much and it's okay, and it's like
Speaker 1: it almost feels good, like I I think that, but
Speaker 1: I am compelled to smoke weed again, and like I
Speaker 1: want to because I want a way out of these feelings.
Speaker 1: That's like always what everything is, that's what thinking is,
Speaker 1: that's what are I was just doing a meditation today
Speaker 1: where he was like it was such a good Sam
Speaker 1: Harris that I put on, which I'm obviously starting to
Speaker 1: meditate again because when things start coming up like this
Speaker 1: and I don't have these drugs pushing down the feelings,
Speaker 1: I gotta find other ways. So now I'm journaling, I'm
Speaker 1: getting back into meditation, like I'm finding other ways so
Speaker 1: I don't have to go back on a drug. But
Speaker 1: I was listening to the meditation and he was just like,
Speaker 1: you know, it's about focusing on the thought. Okay. Notice
Speaker 1: when a thought comes up, okay, conjure thought that stressing
Speaker 1: you out, something that's stressing you out. So I was
Speaker 1: all of a sudden, I'm like, oh, He's letting me
Speaker 1: think during this quitation. Perfect. So I conjure up the
Speaker 1: fact that I had an audition that I was supposed
Speaker 1: to turn in today at eleven am my time. I
Speaker 1: didn't even read the script, like not even didn't even
Speaker 1: do it. And then I was like just he goes, now,
Speaker 1: notice the feelings that come up when you think about
Speaker 1: this thing that is bothering you, that you fit whatever
Speaker 1: at all? No, No, but I asked for an extension,
Speaker 1: but this meditation happened after I before I got back
Speaker 1: that I could have an extension, and it really was
Speaker 1: prompt about like you needed in by nine am. P
Speaker 1: s T like, and I was like, okay, so I
Speaker 1: didn't get it, so whatever. So I was thinking about
Speaker 1: it and he was like, notice physiologically, like through your
Speaker 1: body where that feeling is, like what's what's changed? So
Speaker 1: I went from a state like a state of just
Speaker 1: paying attention to my breath and then all of a sudden,
Speaker 1: I think about this audition and I noticed like just
Speaker 1: this like kind of a little bit of ache in
Speaker 1: my chest and like my leg a little bit of
Speaker 1: my leg, and I was and I was just focusing
Speaker 1: on this cloud of like kind of tingling of like
Speaker 1: just like anxiety. And I was like, okay, that's where
Speaker 1: it is, which I don't usually I am able to
Speaker 1: feel that. I used to go to a somatic therapist
Speaker 1: and she used to be like, now where is this feeling?
Speaker 1: And I would be like, my head, I don't know,
Speaker 1: I'm not connected. For some reason, I felt it this
Speaker 1: morning and it was interesting because he was like, so
Speaker 1: what the At the end of the thing, he was like,
Speaker 1: what this was? He kind of broke down what we
Speaker 1: just did. What this was was you paying attention to
Speaker 1: when things, when emotions come up, paying attention to what
Speaker 1: those thoughts do to you physiologically, what they do to
Speaker 1: your heart, what they do to your stomach, what they
Speaker 1: do to your body, and not just notice and let
Speaker 1: it happen. Because what we do when we have normally,
Speaker 1: when we have a feeling come up, we turn off
Speaker 1: those we don't feel it. We're do anything to not
Speaker 1: feel it, so we think about something, we put on
Speaker 1: a song, we we distract ourselves with our phone, and
Speaker 1: we keep that feeling from just going through us like
Speaker 1: a wave, like just letting the wave pass over you.
Speaker 1: And what you find any what he said in today's
Speaker 1: meditation is that the half life of these feelings that
Speaker 1: you are pushing away constantly is so much shorter than
Speaker 1: you think if you just let it run through you
Speaker 1: and you let that feeling go, because all it is,
Speaker 1: all thoughts are are really distractions from feeling things. So
Speaker 1: if you're able to take something that's causing you a
Speaker 1: lot of anxiety and just look at it as almost
Speaker 1: this thing that like like a bunch of like, um god,
Speaker 1: I don't know how it like a wave, Like you're
Speaker 1: in the ocean, and your thoughts and your worries are waves.
Speaker 1: And if you let them pass over you and you
Speaker 1: suffer the brunt, it's gonna feel uncomfortable for like a bit.
Speaker 1: But if you let if you just hold on and
Speaker 1: you pay attention to how that manifests, you can notice
Speaker 1: that it's just it's a thing. It's not you. It's
Speaker 1: not this permanent thing that you are now Like Nikki
Speaker 1: you're a failed person because you didn't get the thing
Speaker 1: turned in time, your bad actress, You're you're not going
Speaker 1: have success, all these things. It's just it's just a moment.
Speaker 1: And in a year, will I even think about this audition? No,
Speaker 1: if I get the movie. Would it have happened because
Speaker 1: I asked for an extension or because I didn't like it?
Speaker 1: Most of the stuff that I think back on that
Speaker 1: causes me so much pain about myself, or just these
Speaker 1: fleeting moments that I'll never remember. My friend recently just
Speaker 1: shared a story that she someone thought she was pregnant
Speaker 1: and she's not, and she was so embarrassed and so
Speaker 1: sad because she's trying to lose weight and someone thought
Speaker 1: she was pregnant. And I was thinking about that, and
Speaker 1: I was like, oh my god, I told her, and
Speaker 1: I'm serious about this. If someone thought I was pregnant,
Speaker 1: I would be so fucking excited, because for me, as
Speaker 1: a thirty about to be thirty eight in a week,
Speaker 1: if someone thought I looked like I could a be
Speaker 1: a mom, was someone who was maybe trying for kids
Speaker 1: equals I have my life together enough, Like I associate
Speaker 1: being a mother with things that I didn't back when
Speaker 1: I was even two years ago. Whereas like, you look healthy,
Speaker 1: you look like you could carry a baby, you look happy,
Speaker 1: you look like you maybe have someone in your life
Speaker 1: that's gonna help you raise this with you. You look
Speaker 1: like content, like I would associate that with so many
Speaker 1: things that aren't fat, whereas my friend who is not
Speaker 1: wanting to look like she is having a baby, took
Speaker 1: it as only as negatives, so that also helped me.
Speaker 1: There was this great Sam Harris thing that I came
Speaker 1: upon upon yesterday and I just want to share it
Speaker 1: really quickly, and this one really is a hack for
Speaker 1: being in a bad mood, for like getting out of
Speaker 1: a bad mood instantly, And I shared it on our
Speaker 1: threat today, Noah that you have probably sixty thousand miss
Speaker 1: messages from from all the girls that went to Cabo
Speaker 1: on that Girl's trip, because everyone is suffering on that
Speaker 1: Cabo Strain trip, like in different ways, and it's so
Speaker 1: great because they're everyone's suffering. One of us is one
Speaker 1: of the girls is married to a brilliant man who
Speaker 1: loves her so much and they just had a baby
Speaker 1: in their lives are so happy, and she's a beautiful
Speaker 1: model and like has everything that we would ever have,
Speaker 1: a house in the Hampton's, the house in New York, um,
Speaker 1: a supportive husband who loves her, and she is finding
Speaker 1: ways that her life is like unmanageable and miserable. And
Speaker 1: then there's another friend who's like, has a waitressing job
Speaker 1: she fucking hates, has no time for herself, is getting
Speaker 1: woken up every morning at seven thirty by a construction
Speaker 1: literally a foot outside her window, and these two lots.
Speaker 1: It's nice because you think, like, oh, girl whose life
Speaker 1: seems perfect, shut the funk up, look at my life.
Speaker 1: But instead, what you find is that even if you
Speaker 1: had all the things that you think that, if you
Speaker 1: had what that person had, you would be appreciative of.
Speaker 1: If you if you don't change your mindset, you're gonna
Speaker 1: find things to be pissed about. We're all equal in
Speaker 1: that way, Like you're it's not about getting that TV show.
Speaker 1: It's not about getting that job. Is not abou getting
Speaker 1: the boyfriend. It's not about having the baby. It's not
Speaker 1: about losing the weight. Like, unless you're unless you fix
Speaker 1: your perspective, there's always gonna be something to fuck you up.
Speaker 1: So what this um this thing that he said, it's
Speaker 1: different than the meditation I did. I'm really getting back
Speaker 1: into sam. I'll just paraphrise it. So he says, when
Speaker 1: you're driving, let's say you're stuck in traffic in your
Speaker 1: for something, You're like, mother fuck, I'm going to relate
Speaker 1: this fucking thing stop for a second, and it's a
Speaker 1: practice of gratitude, but it's a different way of looking
Speaker 1: at gratitude. Think about how right now, a thing that
Speaker 1: could be happening in your life that would completely ruin
Speaker 1: your life, that is something that could happen didn't happen.
Speaker 1: Like let's say you're stuck in drafting, you're late for
Speaker 1: this fucking thing, and you're like, fucking give it. Think
Speaker 1: about the fact that you haven't been diagnosed with terminal
Speaker 1: cancer today, which someone in your position, with your same
Speaker 1: kind of happiness in life has been, and there's spending
Speaker 1: the next two months of their lives getting their affairs
Speaker 1: in order to die. You haven't been today. So think
Speaker 1: about that person that would consider their biggest prayers answered
Speaker 1: to be in your position, stuck in traffic, think about
Speaker 1: the things not not don't think about the starving kids
Speaker 1: in Africa unless that is something that could be you,
Speaker 1: which it could be, but let's go beyond that, Like
Speaker 1: something that could actually happen to you in your life
Speaker 1: right now that day hasn't happened. The worst thing that
Speaker 1: could happen that could happen that hasn't happened to you
Speaker 1: and just be grateful for that, and just think about, Wow,
Speaker 1: if I was that person, how much would I give
Speaker 1: if I learned tomorrow I'm dying of cancer and I
Speaker 1: have a month to live. How much would I give
Speaker 1: for that day where I was in traffic and just
Speaker 1: my biggest worry in life was being late for something.
Speaker 1: I like that because I think a lot of times
Speaker 1: we do here, well, you could be living in Afghanistan
Speaker 1: under war, Like it's always something so far fetched that
Speaker 1: you can't put yourself in those shoes. So it's interesting
Speaker 1: to think about, like something very terrible, but that's all
Speaker 1: had that happened before? Where you learn something terrible and
Speaker 1: you go, God, yesterday, I didn't even know that happened.
Speaker 1: Why can't I wish I could go back to my
Speaker 1: naivete of yesterday. You are currently whatever you're living, even
Speaker 1: if it is horrible, You are living in some version
Speaker 1: of a world that is better than one that could
Speaker 1: be happening to you right now, and so live in
Speaker 1: that moment of like tomorrow everything could change. You would
Speaker 1: long for today when your biggest worry was that your
Speaker 1: Uber Eats order got stolen or whatever, which doesn't happen
Speaker 1: with uber eats, and they will reimburse you. I want
Speaker 1: to say, but like you know, there have been times
Speaker 1: where I'm like, this is the worst, and I'm like, God,
Speaker 1: something that happened. Like with the first part of what
Speaker 1: you were saying about learning how to feel your feelings
Speaker 1: and what happens physiologically, No, I don't think it's denying it.
Speaker 1: I think that some people just really have no idea
Speaker 1: what it is, what an emotion is, and then they're
Speaker 1: feeling it in that present moment. So going back, I
Speaker 1: think it's important not to lose sight of learning what
Speaker 1: happens to your body physiologically so that you can connect
Speaker 1: it with your emotion to know, hey, right now I
Speaker 1: am anxious, or right now I'm upset about something, or
Speaker 1: I feel anger because it's it's in my chest and
Speaker 1: my leg instead of in my back. Yes, noticing Like
Speaker 1: this weekend, I was such a dick to Andrew about
Speaker 1: this thing that we're not going to get into, but
Speaker 1: I was just I was in a fucking mood and
Speaker 1: he said something that set me off and made me
Speaker 1: insecure about something, and I lash out at him in
Speaker 1: the moment when you you know when you've been a
Speaker 1: bit before or a dick whoever I'm talking to, you
Speaker 1: know I'm out of line here and I'm going to
Speaker 1: own apology and you just can't bring yourself in that
Speaker 1: moment to be in that or maybe you don't know
Speaker 1: I'm I'm I'm mindful enough that I know in the
Speaker 1: moment I'm gonna owe and an apology for this, and
Speaker 1: I'm I can't do it now. I am too weak.
Speaker 1: I don't have the backbone right now. My backbone is
Speaker 1: covered in anxiety and it's weekend and I don't have
Speaker 1: it right now to actually do this. Like it's almost
Speaker 1: like when sometimes you do a workout and you're like
Speaker 1: I do this workout every day, why can't I do
Speaker 1: it today? And it's like, I just don't have it
Speaker 1: in me. Tomorrow, I'll do this workout, like I know
Speaker 1: I can do it tomorrow. I cannot do this today,
Speaker 1: And I wasn't able to apologize for it till the
Speaker 1: next day, almost like well after it had happened, but
Speaker 1: because I was in a weekend state, like my it's
Speaker 1: not an excuse. I'm just saying, like if you get
Speaker 1: mad about something, or if you become an ugly version
Speaker 1: of yourself. I do feel that as long as you're
Speaker 1: able to account for it at some point and hopefully
Speaker 1: sooner than later, and always be working towards making that
Speaker 1: time between offending and apologizing shorter and shorter, closing that gap.
Speaker 1: If you're trying in your life to do that, you're
Speaker 1: doing the best you can, and that you're not You're
Speaker 1: not a bad person. We all have moments where like
Speaker 1: we're late for something and then our where our skin
Speaker 1: is itching because this these pants are too tight, and
Speaker 1: like so many different things are making you uncomfortable that
Speaker 1: one little thing will you'll be like and if you like,
Speaker 1: you can't even in that moment, you can't even realize.
Speaker 1: It's about being late, it's about being in traffic, it's
Speaker 1: about being scared. Do you think it's important though, to
Speaker 1: try to get ahead of that reaction and to be
Speaker 1: able to respond instead, Like if Andrew had said something
Speaker 1: that you know you don't like to respond to it
Speaker 1: as opposed to react and then have to apologize, because
Speaker 1: I think that it would be so much better for
Speaker 1: me to recognize what happens. Hey, I'm starting to feel
Speaker 1: it in my body. Soon it's going to get to
Speaker 1: my head and then I'm gonna blow up. Yeah, and
Speaker 1: that takes so much more work on That's why I'm saying,
Speaker 1: like I'm trying to get to some where it doesn't Yeah,
Speaker 1: you're right, I'm trying to I stay minimize the gap
Speaker 1: between it happening and then apologizing. I'm trying to minimize
Speaker 1: so that I get ahead of before it even happens.
Speaker 1: Where I know, I see it. I see the the
Speaker 1: Richter scale starting to go through, and I'm like, oh
Speaker 1: my god, we have an earthquake coming. Handrew go hide
Speaker 1: under a table. Yeah, I mean, it's it was just
Speaker 1: sometimes we just I feel like the argument. You know,
Speaker 1: I don't even if someone wants to apologize, I don't
Speaker 1: want them to feel that that like burden or guilt,
Speaker 1: Like I want even if I'm the one getting whatever,
Speaker 1: Like I just like I understand being on the other
Speaker 1: end of it and that I don't want that person
Speaker 1: to fucking be like I don't know whether to do.
Speaker 1: It's like just talk to me, like through it. Well,
Speaker 1: I feel like I'm you met me with a little
Speaker 1: bit of like don't feel bad, and it's like and
Speaker 1: I didn't want to. I hate when people when you
Speaker 1: apologize and that you go, don't feel bad and they go, oh,
Speaker 1: I don't, and you're like, well that's not what I want,
Speaker 1: like curse. I know Chris is listening. You used to
Speaker 1: do that in high school, and I used to get
Speaker 1: so angry. I'd be like, I'm really sorry, sorry I
Speaker 1: did this, or like person would apologize for something and
Speaker 1: I'd go like it's okay, and she goes, well, I
Speaker 1: know it's okay, but and I'd be like, well, that's
Speaker 1: not but I wanted to let you know, like I
Speaker 1: forgive myself, but I still think that what I did
Speaker 1: was out of line, and I'm doing my best to
Speaker 1: not do that again because I understand that it hurt
Speaker 1: you as and it hurt me to hurt you, but
Speaker 1: it's not something I'm going to live with and like
Speaker 1: cut myself later about. And I think that in the moment,
Speaker 1: your instinct was like no, just don't don't make don't
Speaker 1: be don't make it a big thing. And it's like
Speaker 1: it wasn't a big thing, but you are owed an
Speaker 1: apology for and there was nothing you did and it
Speaker 1: was all me and like, I but I get what
Speaker 1: you're saying of like you don't want because sometimes, like
Speaker 1: I say, when someone inappropriately touches me at a thing
Speaker 1: and I called them out for it and then they apologize,
Speaker 1: it's suddenly it's my fucking burden to make that person
Speaker 1: feel better about the thing they did to me. And
Speaker 1: I never want when I'm apologizing someone to have to
Speaker 1: go No, Nikki, it's okay, I don't need forgiveness. It
Speaker 1: really is about I just need I just need understanding
Speaker 1: from I just need to know that you understand that
Speaker 1: I um am doing better. I want to do better. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I get that. I also think, like I was just
Speaker 1: thinking about the first away from the argument or whatever,
Speaker 1: the whole uh the feeling thing and like letting it
Speaker 1: go through you. My whole thing with that is like
Speaker 1: you have to be in a mind space even before
Speaker 1: And it's kind of like what no I was saying,
Speaker 1: like before you react in a way that you're gonna
Speaker 1: have to apologize later. In order to uh react to
Speaker 1: a feeling or an emotion and let it go through you,
Speaker 1: you have to already be in a mind space that
Speaker 1: that you're stable enough to take that in like comes in. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I feel like there's two steps. The step before, it's
Speaker 1: meditating everything being preventative for it. So like knowing that
Speaker 1: the only way to get to a place where you
Speaker 1: can stop that and be mindful of your emotions bubbling
Speaker 1: up is to practice meditation and to get in touch
Speaker 1: with the mundane thoughts, not just the thoughts that are
Speaker 1: going to turn into a fight, but like every kind
Speaker 1: of thought, and when you're able to be you know,
Speaker 1: when you're like looking for a new pair of boots
Speaker 1: and then all of a sudden, all you see is
Speaker 1: boots everywhere. Or I'm looking for a car right now,
Speaker 1: and I look at every car now, and usually cars
Speaker 1: do not even enter into my scope of vision. I
Speaker 1: would not even know if the car hit me what
Speaker 1: model it was. But now I'm like obsessed with Oh,
Speaker 1: that's Alexis, that's whatever, So I literally can't think of
Speaker 1: another car. So um, But I think that's the same
Speaker 1: thing with meditation. Is like if you practice just like
Speaker 1: scrolling through your thoughts the way you practice. If're looking
Speaker 1: for a new backpack, suddenly you just start seeing backpacks everywhere,
Speaker 1: not because the algorithm knows you're looking at backpacks and
Speaker 1: start showing you them. Do you know what I'm talking
Speaker 1: about like when you start looking at something and you're
Speaker 1: in the market for something and you're paying attention to something,
Speaker 1: like you start noticing it everywhere. You Guys know that feeling, right, Well,
Speaker 1: I think it relates to you getting feelings after getting
Speaker 1: off that drug. It's like, oh, now I see feelings,
Speaker 1: I feel feelings. Now I feel all the feelings. So
Speaker 1: now I am having to go Okay, a lot of
Speaker 1: feelings are coming up that would not have come up
Speaker 1: before when I was on this drug. I need to
Speaker 1: get more vigilant. I need to start researching my thoughts
Speaker 1: and like looking at them every day, like I'm looking
Speaker 1: for a new pair of boots. So it's like that. Now,
Speaker 1: that's what meditation is. It's like the mundane observance of
Speaker 1: your thoughts and a lot of thoughts. You're on Zappos
Speaker 1: and you're looking at boots that you would never even
Speaker 1: fucking look at. You just scroll through them, you know,
Speaker 1: when you're looking for shoes and you're going through something
Speaker 1: and you go, oh, that doesn't even catch your eye.
Speaker 1: That's what meditation is. It's letting thoughts go by and
Speaker 1: you observe them, and once you're willing, once you're able
Speaker 1: to uh immerse yourself in us random thoughts enough, like
Speaker 1: you're looking for shoes on Zappos, Suddenly thoughts will start
Speaker 1: appearing to you and you will be able to dodge
Speaker 1: the ones that don't matter and pay attention to ones
Speaker 1: that go, Oh, my god, that's something that that's a car, Actually, oh,
Speaker 1: what model is that? I want to like check that
Speaker 1: out later, And you go, what is that car that
Speaker 1: drives by? And suddenly I'm paying attend to a car
Speaker 1: that would have driven past me and I would never
Speaker 1: thought about it, and it might have been a car
Speaker 1: that I actually need to have in my life. But
Speaker 1: now I see that car to go, oh, I'll take
Speaker 1: a picture of it and maybe research it later. And
Speaker 1: I think that's what meditation does, is it makes us
Speaker 1: be able to find the things that we should focus
Speaker 1: on before they hit us. It's a rough analogy, but
Speaker 1: I think it works. Let's get to the news. Probably
Speaker 1: gonna be Alexis friend to guess abe had all the
Speaker 1: swells this weekend. It's Monday. You know what that means?
Speaker 1: It is Monday? Apparently, who knows. I think we met
Speaker 1: so many besties, so many besties. Someone gave me golf
Speaker 1: balls with cut on it. Yeah, that was to carry
Speaker 1: on and her girlfriend, I forgot a girlfriend's name, but
Speaker 1: a girlfriend was like I let my girlfriend, you know,
Speaker 1: thank you, Like she almost was like she was like, yeah,
Speaker 1: be your girlfriend, Like my girlfriend is in love with
Speaker 1: you guys, and I let her be and um she
Speaker 1: was just she waited to the end of the line
Speaker 1: on UM I think it was. Yeah, it was the
Speaker 1: first show at Foxwoods on Saturday night. But she was awesome.
Speaker 1: And she was wearing a Nickolas podcast T shirt, the
Speaker 1: black one, which is my favorite one actually like the
Speaker 1: blue one too. Like people these fucking festies. And then
Speaker 1: there was another bestie on UM Boston at the Boston
Speaker 1: Show that gave me a bookmark that said like fucking
Speaker 1: read this book, bitch or something like that. It was
Speaker 1: this amazing, cute kid. I believe I know, I'm gonna
Speaker 1: suck your name. It was Kolby or Morty or something
Speaker 1: like that. And you're probably laughing because it's not even
Speaker 1: close to that. But you had your boyfriend with you.
Speaker 1: You were so cute, and you gave me a bookmark
Speaker 1: and you were like, here's this bookmark to hold your
Speaker 1: place in a third of books that you read, which
Speaker 1: was adorable. He was awesome. Again, It's Morty Molby Colby
Speaker 1: or so. It was a really cute name. And I'm
Speaker 1: so sorry I'm sucking it up, and please write me
Speaker 1: about your name. But we met so many other busties. Um,
Speaker 1: And if I don't remember your name, it's not because
Speaker 1: you didn't make an imprint on my heart. Like there's
Speaker 1: so many of you that I will if we see
Speaker 1: you again on the show, I'll remember because you just
Speaker 1: said the nicest things. And we do remember, like I remember, like,
Speaker 1: oh I was at this show. Oh you're with those
Speaker 1: two other people like you remember, we remember the best
Speaker 1: he's faces. I don't know what it is and you
Speaker 1: can't describe it. You can just sense before they even
Speaker 1: walk up, even if they're not wearing merch that they're
Speaker 1: a bestie. You can just sense it, like there's just something.
Speaker 1: You guys are the best. And we really appreciate you
Speaker 1: listening and all the love you give us via letters
Speaker 1: and just just listening. You don't have to do anything,
Speaker 1: and just the fact that you're listening it matters a lot.
Speaker 1: And um, and then we we got to talk about
Speaker 1: the at some point the weird people that came that
Speaker 1: was we had such a okay, we just say it
Speaker 1: really quick in the Okay, we'll do it. Well, you
Speaker 1: know what, we'll save it go on all right, Well
Speaker 1: if I get through the news, boom boom boom, there's
Speaker 1: a theme through it. Okay. So people on TikTok are
Speaker 1: putting their heads inside a coat hanger and getting freaked
Speaker 1: out by their head by the head turning effect of
Speaker 1: the hangar reflex. Have you seen this? The head turning?
Speaker 1: So I saw Chris on his show today. We have
Speaker 1: to take off our you can put your head, yeah,
Speaker 1: like Nikki's. So we don't need it to go past
Speaker 1: our ears at any point. No, you have to put
Speaker 1: it on the temples. Make sure that so put the
Speaker 1: so put it around the temple. So it's like squeezing. Yeah, okay,
Speaker 1: now what okay, I don't think it's working on you guys.
Speaker 1: So basically what's supposed to happen. The effect um uh
Speaker 1: is supposed to turn your head and it's it's supposed
Speaker 1: to turn your head away from the hangar's hook involuntarily.
Speaker 1: Let me take off the headphones because I think the
Speaker 1: headphones are sucking us up. Wait, what the fuck? Seriously?
Speaker 1: Is it like we g maybe where it's like I'm
Speaker 1: now that you said it, I'm doing I'm not kidding you.
Speaker 1: It kind of does it. Hold on, let me try
Speaker 1: it on the other side. I feel like this is
Speaker 1: a time where like someone like eats much rooms and
Speaker 1: I don't get the feeling. I don't gut it. I
Speaker 1: don't get it either. Maybe I don't have a magnetic
Speaker 1: brain or whatever. Hold on, I'm putting on my I
Speaker 1: can't hear you. This is exactly like the Wegi board.
Speaker 1: So this reminded me. Did you ever do that like
Speaker 1: ghost thing where you put your hands in between a
Speaker 1: friend's hands and they push as you push out, they
Speaker 1: push in as you push out, and then so you
Speaker 1: push in and they push out and then and then
Speaker 1: they let go in your arms just kind of like
Speaker 1: open wide. Yes, Or you do the thing where you
Speaker 1: you kind of do it. You can hold your hands
Speaker 1: to the side like you're doing like a bird flapping
Speaker 1: its wings and you push out. Or in a doorway, actually,
Speaker 1: have you ever done that? I haven't done. You're standing
Speaker 1: in a doorway and you push your hands up the
Speaker 1: doorway like you're trying to extend your hands like really hard,
Speaker 1: and then you drop them and step out of the
Speaker 1: doorway and your hands will just go muscle memory. Yes,
Speaker 1: so it's the same thing. Um, yeah, it's interesting. I
Speaker 1: like that you're gonna leave yours on. Yeah, I can
Speaker 1: see you at the end and see if my arms lift. Um.
Speaker 1: I never really believed in, like QUI gi stuff. I
Speaker 1: always the power of suggestion is so insane that I
Speaker 1: would want, you know, we'd be like, what are you
Speaker 1: going to be when you grow up? And I would
Speaker 1: always make it go to hooker just for jokes, and
Speaker 1: I didn't I wanted the ghost to tell us hooker,
Speaker 1: even though I didn't want to be the one controlling it.
Speaker 1: I was not someone who was like, I'm going to
Speaker 1: make it say hooker. I was thinking hooker and then
Speaker 1: it would happen. And by the way, a ghost would
Speaker 1: not say hooker. I would say prostitute or sex worker.
Speaker 1: I mean, I feel it gho, you know, hopefully it
Speaker 1: would do a word I know how to spell. It
Speaker 1: was so funny because like, yeah, you know, it's because
Speaker 1: philanthropist money, Like I have a genius, bro, Like, like
Speaker 1: the only time you could spell is with a ghost
Speaker 1: that is that always reminds me of like when um,
Speaker 1: I know this is a really dark thought, but you
Speaker 1: always hear about there's a story of remember hearing and
Speaker 1: maybe it's like a urban legend about like during the Holocaust,
Speaker 1: like Nazis, Like there was this one circumstance where a
Speaker 1: guy was had a violin and a Nazi was like,
Speaker 1: play me a song and like had a gun and
Speaker 1: was going to murder them if they didn't play this
Speaker 1: one song. And the guy did not know how to
Speaker 1: play violin, and then suddenly he was able to do
Speaker 1: this like amazing violin solo and was able to spare
Speaker 1: his life because he so or like mom's lifting cars
Speaker 1: kind of things where you can do this thing that
Speaker 1: you can't do because you are scared of death or
Speaker 1: like because you're so Sometimes when I play guitar, I'm
Speaker 1: just like, so I had a gun, what can I do?
Speaker 1: And I just like and then umg and then you
Speaker 1: started speaking Hebrew. Yeah. No, that it's interesting to like
Speaker 1: learn a skin like a car, get lifting a car,
Speaker 1: because there's probably strength. Is there anything in your life
Speaker 1: though that you've never been able to do? There used
Speaker 1: to be a human giant sketch. I want to say,
Speaker 1: by the way, it was a zas on sorry Rob
Speaker 1: Hubil and Paul Shears show on MTV, and they did.
Speaker 1: It was called um. It was a moving company that
Speaker 1: was just all moms that they always say that a
Speaker 1: mom can summon the strength of like a thousand guerrillas
Speaker 1: if their child is pinned underneath the car. So they
Speaker 1: would just put the woman's child underneath like credenzas and
Speaker 1: then suddenly the spat was just lifted with all her mind.
Speaker 1: And it was a moving company where they would just
Speaker 1: position the child in arms way. It was so funny.
Speaker 1: I mean, human giant go back and launch those on
Speaker 1: the question have you ever, either of you ever been
Speaker 1: able to do something where you go I swear to god. Yeah.
Speaker 1: My my dad accidentally um backed over my brother's kid
Speaker 1: on its leg with a golf cart, like a heavy
Speaker 1: golf cart, and we didn't know what everyone was kind
Speaker 1: of fight or flight, like we didn't know what to do.
Speaker 1: Like it was fucking obviously get the car, but do
Speaker 1: you keep reversing? Do you run back over the leg?
Speaker 1: My brother we were like still like sitting in the car.
Speaker 1: I swear to god, fucking picked the ship up and
Speaker 1: took his kid out. And after it he took the
Speaker 1: kid out. I went and I go, how heavy is
Speaker 1: this thing? I fu and I'm strong. I'm like stronger
Speaker 1: than my brother. Like, did they try to put a
Speaker 1: golf club underneath it that you had? Just? Yeah? They
Speaker 1: put a nine under and I started spinting it on
Speaker 1: my finger. Yeah. No, dude, Yes, that's interesting. Yeah, yeah,
Speaker 1: they put my brother under it. I just got on
Speaker 1: top of it and stomped. No. Yeah, it was fucking wild.
Speaker 1: It was straight up that like that happened, and I
Speaker 1: was like, holy sh it, that's a real you know,
Speaker 1: adrenaline is a real thing to say. Uh, it's a
Speaker 1: real word. Let's go to the next story that might
Speaker 1: have a theme. Bomo okay. A twenty three year old
Speaker 1: man drowned while recreating the Titanic King of the World
Speaker 1: pose with his girlfriend on a Turkish pier after the
Speaker 1: couple slipped and fell into see No, why does this
Speaker 1: a theme? No? Uh wait, he wasn't even on a boat.
Speaker 1: He was just on a dock and you're on the
Speaker 1: pier of the couple had been drinking. I bet there's
Speaker 1: been more people than one that have died from recreating that.
Speaker 1: It's such an iconic thing that I've done. I've probably
Speaker 1: tried to recreate in my life a million times, Like
Speaker 1: every time I'm on a boat, I do. I was
Speaker 1: drowned doing one. I was going to ask you, guys,
Speaker 1: what what is like favorite or at least favorite couple pos. Oh,
Speaker 1: that's great to die recreating. Um, sure they rest in
Speaker 1: peace to that kid. That's so tragic and I'm so sorry.
Speaker 1: And that girl probably has so much trauma, you know,
Speaker 1: trauma that she suffered almost maybe worst, um, I will
Speaker 1: say the worst. I don't like, um, the caressing or
Speaker 1: the kissing of the pregnant baby belly by men. And
Speaker 1: I don't like when men are shirtless in pictures with
Speaker 1: their wives who are pregnant either, like those like those
Speaker 1: those moments really great, their stach. I mean, if it's
Speaker 1: for a joke, that's funny. If they sometimes they're just
Speaker 1: like they all want like skin on skin, and so
Speaker 1: there's like these poses that really disgusted me. But other
Speaker 1: than that, I love love, and I love people's public
Speaker 1: displays of affection. I love any sweet like p d A.
Speaker 1: I don't care if you're penetrating each other in front
Speaker 1: of me at a ice cream parlor. I just as
Speaker 1: long as one of you is not pregnant, and just
Speaker 1: like caressing your baby bump, I don't care, and I
Speaker 1: support it. What about you guys, I mean they're pretty hacky,
Speaker 1: But the one with whenever girls looking at a key
Speaker 1: andre and the guys looking at her, I just feel
Speaker 1: like that relationship is doomed. And I just I don't know.
Speaker 1: It's called Myron, that's what it's. Oh, Myron. Well, the
Speaker 1: other day I actually I followed Myron on account a subreddit.
Speaker 1: It's it's called myron when like admiring, like oh, or
Speaker 1: he's Myron her m I R I N. And there's
Speaker 1: a subreddit called myron where it's just like pictures of
Speaker 1: like catching people, like just looking at the significant other,
Speaker 1: kind of just being like I love you, like just
Speaker 1: and I love If I can ever find a picture,
Speaker 1: there's one picture that actually, and this is kind of
Speaker 1: stupid of me to talk about, but it's one of
Speaker 1: my most cherished pictures that I don't even have the
Speaker 1: other side of there's a picture of me and my
Speaker 1: friend who killed himself in high school. He um. We
Speaker 1: were at this drama club thing, and I was making
Speaker 1: him laugh pretty hard, and he was looking at me
Speaker 1: with like such like she's so fun like just he
Speaker 1: had this great smile and he was just like had
Speaker 1: this amazing look on his face. And you know, he
Speaker 1: killed himself in November. In the year a book came out,
Speaker 1: you know, in May, and so when the yearbook was
Speaker 1: put together, they kind of chose a picture that made
Speaker 1: him look angelic like to celebrate him, and they cut
Speaker 1: me out of it. So he's Myron had nothing. But
Speaker 1: I know it was me because I found there. I
Speaker 1: had the original picture for so long and I used
Speaker 1: to hold it and cry and I feel really stupid
Speaker 1: because I was like, what are you in seventh Heaven?
Speaker 1: Why are you like trying to make a scene in
Speaker 1: your bedroom where you're like, my friend is dead. But
Speaker 1: that was a really important one to me. But but
Speaker 1: that's a different kind of iron. Oh, I love that mine.
Speaker 1: That's a great Myron. Well, it's like but anyway, I
Speaker 1: don't like. I don't like a Myron that stage Those
Speaker 1: are gross. Yeah, a stage Myron where it's like the
Speaker 1: guys right here and he's like this and the girl's
Speaker 1: looking at the camera like, oh, it's not for me.
Speaker 1: Chris and I did a roast for Tim's wedding last week,
Speaker 1: like we both were back. He was asked to give
Speaker 1: a speech and then he was like, you know what
Speaker 1: I'm gonna get last year at Tim's wedding because it
Speaker 1: was a redo, he was like, I gave um. We
Speaker 1: did a bunch of like um. He did this whole speech.
Speaker 1: It was so funny, but it was all like praising
Speaker 1: Tim and Emma and and their reunion and everything, and
Speaker 1: it was he goes in this year because you guys
Speaker 1: have had such a successful year with a baby, Tim's
Speaker 1: new job, Emma's promotions, I feel like you need to
Speaker 1: get taken down a notch and so I'm gonna do
Speaker 1: a little roast. Lucky for me, I just hope happened
Speaker 1: to be close personal friends with one of Tim's favorite
Speaker 1: roast comedians. But Anthony Jessel said he couldn't be here.
Speaker 1: So um, I brought my favorite roast comedian, Nicki Glazer,
Speaker 1: and he brings me up and then we do this
Speaker 1: back and forth like roast thing. And there was a
Speaker 1: picture from it. There's only one picture from it, and
Speaker 1: he's Myron so hard and it was, and I just
Speaker 1: love it because he's looking at me like she's the
Speaker 1: funniest and I love her and I was, and I
Speaker 1: sent him a picture of it. I was like, someone's
Speaker 1: Myron caught you Myron. I was like, I remember him
Speaker 1: Myron at Dancing with the Stars when you were on
Speaker 1: the belt, and um, I just happened to like look
Speaker 1: back and I see Chris and he had sunglasses and
Speaker 1: he like pulled them down and he was like looking
Speaker 1: at you in the book. Oh that was I will
Speaker 1: I will not disclude that being a sweet thing, but
Speaker 1: that was him. We often do this thing where he
Speaker 1: will try to get my attention by staring at like
Speaker 1: if you know he's the audience. He'll just look at
Speaker 1: me like really weird, like it and hold it until
Speaker 1: I all of a sudden see it. And then I'm like, like,
Speaker 1: last word, because someone's looking at you look so weird.
Speaker 1: But yeah, he might hemires all the time, and so
Speaker 1: do I. That's why I love my reality shows because
Speaker 1: I catched so many moments where I'm either I could
Speaker 1: see how much I love someone or how much like
Speaker 1: I could just see I'm not performative. I'm just like
Speaker 1: being me. And it's like a natural moment. Or I
Speaker 1: see my family appreciating each other or me and it
Speaker 1: just feels so good to see people like not posing. Yeah. Natural. Yes,
Speaker 1: I heard the episode last night was really good, but
Speaker 1: I didn't watch it yet because I was just in
Speaker 1: bed crying to my sister about something. Um, but I
Speaker 1: heard it was really invests. Yeah, I had the live podcast.
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, yeah, I was in it. How did you
Speaker 1: like your appearance? I I really liked it, to be honest,
Speaker 1: I was pleasantly surprised. There's no there are no stupid
Speaker 1: faces featured. Oh good. Yeah. A lot of people wrote
Speaker 1: to me and said, okay, now this shows kicking. There's
Speaker 1: some stuff going on. There was an I guess there's
Speaker 1: a conversation between me and Chris about having kids that
Speaker 1: was very fod jokes. We were really so much Yeah,
Speaker 1: oh my god, if yeah, I think I was. That
Speaker 1: was That was a That was a conversation. Man. That
Speaker 1: was like one of those scenes where after it, uh,
Speaker 1: there was some like there was a lot of that
Speaker 1: that conversation. There was a lot there was aftershocks of
Speaker 1: that for many many days, weeks probably still continuing of
Speaker 1: like that was not a fun conversation, and like it's
Speaker 1: just interesting to what I said it before. But I
Speaker 1: watching myself on the show, and I'm seeing like I'm
Speaker 1: seeing my biting my fingernails, things that I do when
Speaker 1: I'm nervous or when I'm like stuck in a moment
Speaker 1: and I can't get out of it. You got to
Speaker 1: get to the next segment. Are we ready to go
Speaker 1: to break and come back with why do I Care? Yes,
Speaker 1: let's do it back with why do my gar nets? Boomoom?
Speaker 1: All right? Why do I care? Wait? Whatever happened to? Oh?
Speaker 1: I'll get you all right? Why do I care? Oh?
Speaker 1: I know? This story accuses our label of holding her
Speaker 1: new single hostage over a fake viral moment. I'm want
Speaker 1: to tell these a new song. It's going to be
Speaker 1: about my baby. Please let me just sing really fast
Speaker 1: and like a little baby. I've got new music that
Speaker 1: I want to come out, and you won't let me
Speaker 1: put it out. It's all my label's fault, not the
Speaker 1: fact that I've you know, just signed with the label
Speaker 1: that I probably shouldn't have and I'm a baby. Ironically, Okay,
Speaker 1: that TikTok post went viral, so maybe we'll get that
Speaker 1: ston maybe we will wait wait, so she can't. She
Speaker 1: can't release the song because her label is not allowing
Speaker 1: her to release new music right now. For what reason
Speaker 1: do we know? Unless they can fake a fake viral
Speaker 1: moment on TikTok to market the song. Oh, everything is
Speaker 1: marketing and they are doing this to basically every artist
Speaker 1: these days. She said, Oh god, so unless she put
Speaker 1: out a viral video regarding the song on TikTok, they
Speaker 1: don't want to release. Yeah. I think like they want
Speaker 1: to do it, but the irony is that this is
Speaker 1: now going to viral. Okay, I like this. I do
Speaker 1: think that, um yeah, so many songs now have to
Speaker 1: be TikTok dances or whatever to make it or have
Speaker 1: a moment um. But honestly, that's kind of how people
Speaker 1: learn new music. I think there must be uh, it
Speaker 1: must be hard to get new music played if you're
Speaker 1: not already famous and people are anticipating it, which Halsey is.
Speaker 1: But for new artists to like emerge, I think it
Speaker 1: used to be it would just be hard enough to
Speaker 1: getting your songs played on the radio. But you would,
Speaker 1: like you would listen to the radio and you would
Speaker 1: just hear what comes on for me new music. I
Speaker 1: I don't hear new music unless I already know the
Speaker 1: artists and I'm anticipating it, like or someone as there's
Speaker 1: a TikTok, like I know there's curators and there's people,
Speaker 1: but I think that a lot of people I used
Speaker 1: to discover a lot of music by just being in
Speaker 1: public spaces and hearing it over just like just hearing
Speaker 1: it on the radio or like Now, I feel like
Speaker 1: new music is so much harder to come by because
Speaker 1: we can always control what we're listening to, if that
Speaker 1: makes sense. That's why I do. On Spotify, I'll do
Speaker 1: you know, Sturgill Simpson Radio, and then it'll give me,
Speaker 1: give me like three or four different artists that I
Speaker 1: haven't heard before, and I'm like, and then I go,
Speaker 1: I think I just want Stergel. Well, you know what,
Speaker 1: But I love when it Spotify. I was listening to
Speaker 1: the Moon Soong yesterday was uh, Phoebe Bridgers. There was
Speaker 1: like some I follow Phoebe Bridgers sub breddit because I'm
Speaker 1: obsessed with her now and there was a clip from
Speaker 1: a performance at Red Rocks and there was this lyric
Speaker 1: that I just loved, and it was something about um,
Speaker 1: you're married and you're dying and I love you. And
Speaker 1: it was just like just the idea of like her
Speaker 1: writing a song about a guy that's married that she's
Speaker 1: in love. I was just like, what is this song?
Speaker 1: So I googled the lyrics. It's the song called the
Speaker 1: Moon Song, and so I listened to it on Spotify,
Speaker 1: pulled it up, and then all of a sudden, I
Speaker 1: just was, you know, lost in my phone and other
Speaker 1: songs started playing and I'm like, I like this song.
Speaker 1: I like this song. Well, that's a song already know
Speaker 1: that I really like. How did they know? Is this
Speaker 1: my playlist? And it's like, no, it was just the
Speaker 1: Moon soong radio. If you like this song, we figured
Speaker 1: out other songs are like, it's amazing how specific they
Speaker 1: can be. But for me to be open to new things,
Speaker 1: it's so fucking hard. Why is That's why I love
Speaker 1: when besties go Nikki based on what I know about you? Again,
Speaker 1: I love this song. Just give it a listen. And
Speaker 1: I often screenshot those d m s to get back
Speaker 1: to them. But if you have a song that you're like,
Speaker 1: I know Nikki Glazer will love this, don't give me
Speaker 1: a whole list give me one song. I promise I'll
Speaker 1: give it a chance if you bug me enough. And
Speaker 1: I would would like the recommendation. Noah gave me one.
Speaker 1: How how long have you loved another? Well, I'm dreaming
Speaker 1: of us together. She got the best. If you thought
Speaker 1: of you always knew to blow? Who I learned about
Speaker 1: from you? Long? If you Yeah? To Blow has this
Speaker 1: other song that she's like, uh oh, it's about um
Speaker 1: being a piece of ship. And she's like, I eat
Speaker 1: my dinner in the bathtub, then I go to sex clubs,
Speaker 1: watching freaky people getting in on it kind of makes
Speaker 1: me nervous than anything. I'm reckless. Yeah, I've been around
Speaker 1: NFC at all. Go home and eat some twinkies, throw
Speaker 1: up in the sink like she talks about being bliemic.
Speaker 1: It's just like, so to low is great. That song
Speaker 1: is called um I forget, but check out to flow
Speaker 1: t O V E L O. I do think there's
Speaker 1: other people that will go. I don't like anything mainstream.
Speaker 1: I only try to find new artists. And to that,
Speaker 1: we say, kid, let's get to top one bottom one
Speaker 1: our category this week is in honor of my upcoming
Speaker 1: birthday celebration. Karaoke songs. Karaoke songs. Now, I want to
Speaker 1: do this as your song that you would want to
Speaker 1: sing the most if you had to sing a song
Speaker 1: in front of your fans and family, and then the
Speaker 1: worst song that you could sing in front of your
Speaker 1: friends and family, and it has to be a song
Speaker 1: that you do know, though, like I think the worst
Speaker 1: song would be when you don't know. This should be
Speaker 1: a song you know but you just don't want to
Speaker 1: sing it. We always start with worst first, and I'll
Speaker 1: start with mine the worst one. Um, I will pick
Speaker 1: a song that has the N word throughout it because
Speaker 1: I would just be so nervous the whole time that
Speaker 1: I would accidentally say the N word in avoiding sing
Speaker 1: the N word, So that is on. I do like
Speaker 1: to sing up the song by Cardi B. It is
Speaker 1: one that I have karaoke before too great success. But
Speaker 1: I did have nerves the whole time that I was
Speaker 1: accidentally going to say the N word in the places
Speaker 1: where she says it because I was trying so hard
Speaker 1: not to say it. And I think even if I
Speaker 1: accidentally slipped and said the N word while I was
Speaker 1: performing it and people did film it, that I still
Speaker 1: could be forgiven because my intention was not to say it,
Speaker 1: and I think that matters. So I want to live
Speaker 1: in a world where I can perform up by Cardi
Speaker 1: B on karaoke and if I accidentally say the N
Speaker 1: word because I'm intentionally trying not to say it, you,
Speaker 1: I won't get canceled because my intention is never to
Speaker 1: ever say that word. And sometimes things go wrong. Um,
Speaker 1: but that's my biggest fear. But the worst song to
Speaker 1: karaoke by far is one that was given to me
Speaker 1: by Henry Phillips, one of my favorite comedians, and he
Speaker 1: used to do just have an anecdote of saying, you
Speaker 1: know what, I always think the worst He talks like this,
Speaker 1: He's like, I think the worst karaoke song to possibly do,
Speaker 1: and he was always talking about like he wanted to
Speaker 1: put it on and actually do it. Is I I
Speaker 1: what a song about conditioner? Yeah, but that song would
Speaker 1: be so funny and what probably one of the worst
Speaker 1: that you could carry. The only reason why I think
Speaker 1: that would actually I think because you don't have to
Speaker 1: know the lyrics. I think people would Really it's not
Speaker 1: really the worst, It's just one of the funniest ones
Speaker 1: that a person yeah, it's a very funny turned innocence
Speaker 1: or the sting song that has the Indian guy chanting
Speaker 1: in it would be hard not that one, but that's
Speaker 1: not sick. But what's your hangerhead? Which that's not saying
Speaker 1: I wear my sunglasses at night? Was that Phil Collins?
Speaker 1: It's definitely not sting. It's that the police. No, it's
Speaker 1: not a thousand dollars says it's not the police. It
Speaker 1: really is not. I would bet everything I have on it.
Speaker 1: But anyway, what's your least favorite? Hard? Thank you? Yes? Yeah,
Speaker 1: well he he didn't originally he was arrested by the police.
Speaker 1: One point is my least favorite would be like something
Speaker 1: like um like something Whitney Houston I Will Always Love You,
Speaker 1: But that was originally by Dolly Parton, which is originally
Speaker 1: by the police, but uh yeah, something like that where
Speaker 1: it's just like so emotional and it's like what are
Speaker 1: we doing, like we're at a party. You're kind of
Speaker 1: hit No, not even not you, but like anyone like
Speaker 1: some ones that are like, oh girl, what are you trying?
Speaker 1: Because if someone can do that song, bring it on true,
Speaker 1: but I can't. So that's a very emotional song that
Speaker 1: is more of a song that you should be listening
Speaker 1: alone in your room and not sharing with other people.
Speaker 1: Spotify radio so you find out other ones. Yeah, you know.
Speaker 1: Least favorite song to hear in karaoke has to be
Speaker 1: Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen Oh You're doing to hear? Okay? Yes?
Speaker 1: Because it was too long. It's too long. It's too long,
Speaker 1: too long, too long. It's it's like you said, and
Speaker 1: you're like, there's emotional, like I hate the part, especially
Speaker 1: like if guys are singing it, like where they go
Speaker 1: mama right and like you know, you're like, God, just
Speaker 1: go talk to a therapy sing the song. Yeah, the
Speaker 1: ideal karaoke song should be under three minutes. Really, it
Speaker 1: really should. And you know what, that's why it's so important.
Speaker 1: If it is over three minutes, that is either your
Speaker 1: birthday and your people allow it, or you bring someone
Speaker 1: else up to share in it with you and you
Speaker 1: make a dance about it and you make it like
Speaker 1: kind of fun, make it fun, make it funny. Um.
Speaker 1: Also a great way to spice up a karaoke song
Speaker 1: if it's too much is to have someone come up
Speaker 1: and talk over it, like in between the interludes and
Speaker 1: like talk and do like a comedy bit with you,
Speaker 1: which is like I like you doing that with Taylor
Speaker 1: Swift songs when I'm like doing something and you're like
Speaker 1: just rapping in the background or something, and I'll make
Speaker 1: it fun and worth it if you don't enjoy the
Speaker 1: music itself. Okay, best karaoke song, what's your? What's your?
Speaker 1: What are you gonna sing? You can go? I usually
Speaker 1: my go to I have to go twos. I do
Speaker 1: Stay by Lisa Lobe. Oh my god, I was gonna
Speaker 1: say that too. We gotta do that one together. I
Speaker 1: could do that without ever tell you about. Literally, the
Speaker 1: most embarrassing moment of my life was that song in
Speaker 1: a karaoke night. Why it was a karaoke gong show,
Speaker 1: which I didn't know, not right away. I go, that
Speaker 1: might be worse to get it at the very end. No,
Speaker 1: I in the middle. It was a comedy show that
Speaker 1: I did at this place downtown Los Angeles. Such a
Speaker 1: hipster crowd. Uh no, just regular karaoke. But it's like
Speaker 1: there's no stage. You kind of like perform in the
Speaker 1: middle of the dance floor and everyone is around you,
Speaker 1: and it's like so fun. But it's a gone show.
Speaker 1: I didn't even know that I picked Lisa Lobe. I
Speaker 1: go and you say gong oh before I mean, that's
Speaker 1: not even right away. That's before I even like and
Speaker 1: I kept singing, they go no, no, and they take
Speaker 1: the micro from I was like, that's clearly a joke
Speaker 1: because I didn't do anything wrong and they were just
Speaker 1: gonging me because it wasn't a cool song. This was
Speaker 1: before it was totally because I was like, this is
Speaker 1: too this song is too tall about all right, we
Speaker 1: gotta we gotta go. Okay, so my pepper, Oh that's fun. Yeah, okay,
Speaker 1: it's a fun one. Um, I'm going to go with
Speaker 1: Criminal by uh Fyoda Apple And I know that is
Speaker 1: an emotional song, but it's in my range. My mom
Speaker 1: and I both love to sing that song. That's the
Speaker 1: one she never wants to share with me and just
Speaker 1: does on her own and then I can't do it.
Speaker 1: But it's really fun and it's very emotion Yeah, it's
Speaker 1: just like and people know it. I like a song
Speaker 1: that other people know enough that they can sing along.
Speaker 1: I don't want to alienate anyone, but you know, I
Speaker 1: would also like to get into some Britney Spears because
Speaker 1: it's just fun to like sing like her, and like
Speaker 1: if you're not gonna sing, well you might I would.
Speaker 1: I know that. Not a lot of people don't know this,
Speaker 1: but I would like to do. I used to think
Speaker 1: I had the answer everything. I'm not at though, like
Speaker 1: that would be my favorite that okay, well then I'll
Speaker 1: do it, thank you, Um noah, but you're okay. So
Speaker 1: I just want to say I cannot sing carry Okay.
Speaker 1: I would never have the balls to do it. But
Speaker 1: the song that popped into what's your biggest fear, well,
Speaker 1: it's it's not fear. I just sound terrible, So you
Speaker 1: don't want to okay okay, um okay Pony by Genuine
Speaker 1: because that would be I would enjoy hearing anybody singing
Speaker 1: it one. You know the song as soon as like
Speaker 1: the first like wow wow, like the first thing that
Speaker 1: comes out. It sounds like a guy burping a sexual
Speaker 1: root and it's such like a rawnchy song and it's
Speaker 1: I don't know, it would just be funny and I
Speaker 1: would enjoy it. Robot with acid reflix Um. That's a
Speaker 1: good that's a good song. It reminds me of like
Speaker 1: our Kelly my about is telling me, no, it's the
Speaker 1: same kind of vibe. It's very sexual. I did a
Speaker 1: joke about that song. I said that, um, I never
Speaker 1: want to get married because I don't want to do
Speaker 1: the father daughter dance at the reception because everyone watches
Speaker 1: you dance. Slow dance with your dad is so awkward.
Speaker 1: And then we you know, and our song is Genuine's Pony,
Speaker 1: and I just that's for us. I just that's are
Speaker 1: And then you're grinding with your dad and that's like
Speaker 1: the thing you guys do together and you don't want
Speaker 1: to share with other people. So that was my al Right, guys,
Speaker 1: let's go to final thought. So um oh yeah, I
Speaker 1: was gonna say I had the worst karaoke moment ever
Speaker 1: with Shoop. So like a week before I did Shoop
Speaker 1: at like a barn Brooklyn and you killed killed. Then
Speaker 1: I was in New Orleans with my little brother. We
Speaker 1: were drunk and I was like and we were in
Speaker 1: line of karaoke, like we went to this bar it's
Speaker 1: called because you were like practice this home and I'm
Speaker 1: that cats me out and I pay the guy that's
Speaker 1: doing a karaoke the bugs to bump me up to
Speaker 1: show my brother that I'm a former essentially, and then
Speaker 1: guy goes up before me and he destroys. I forget
Speaker 1: what's song he did, but he brought the like I
Speaker 1: carried off the stage. And then you go up with
Speaker 1: your and no one listens. It was just such a
Speaker 1: funny song to sing to nobody anyhow. But your brother
Speaker 1: just kind of supporting you, kind of wanting to believe you,
Speaker 1: hoping you get stabbed against. Okay, so let's just quickly
Speaker 1: talk about the worst, the weirdest, uh interaction we had
Speaker 1: this weekend. Oh god, talk about a bomb. Um. I
Speaker 1: don't want to be just specific, but there was I
Speaker 1: don't know how to do. There were some people that
Speaker 1: came to the show. I'm going to say they came
Speaker 1: to a show, even though it's not the whole story,
Speaker 1: but they came to a show and afterwards that being great,
Speaker 1: they took pictures. It was nice, they said lovely things.
Speaker 1: Um also, well, yeah, I was trying not to be
Speaker 1: if it about who they were. So they came to
Speaker 1: both shows. They came to two shows, and which is
Speaker 1: already suspect because you go, well, I don't you didn't
Speaker 1: need to do that, but thank you. Um. Two meet
Speaker 1: and greets, and then in what they took a picture
Speaker 1: and then they wanted to do a video like where
Speaker 1: I he was like, well, you just do a video
Speaker 1: where you say good job Blake. No to him, like
Speaker 1: say it to the camera and be like I'm standing
Speaker 1: with Blake and he wants me to stay at the camera.
Speaker 1: Good job Blake. You can do it like an encouraging
Speaker 1: video that he can watch when he needs encouragement. And
Speaker 1: I was like, oh, that's kind of a fun idea. Whatever.
Speaker 1: Then his buddy came over and did the same thing,
Speaker 1: and he was like, you can just say anything, and
Speaker 1: I was like, you're lovable and you deserve love, and
Speaker 1: I just gave him like a you know, positive affirmations.
Speaker 1: Then they it was the end. They were the last
Speaker 1: in line and they're walking away and we see these two.
Speaker 1: They're two older men and they're too kind of like misfits.
Speaker 1: Let me just say one looked like a bouncer to
Speaker 1: like a Mormon um church, and then the other one
Speaker 1: looked like his special friend, Like I feel like he
Speaker 1: plays the Oregon at the church. Yes, okay, nice looking guys,
Speaker 1: but like different looks right, like kind of mismatch where
Speaker 1: you go, how are they friends? But it's none of
Speaker 1: my business. Then they're walking away and they have by
Speaker 1: the way, they took this with cameras, not with phones.
Speaker 1: They're walking away and fans, and you go, they didn't
Speaker 1: like my comedy. They just want to get a picture
Speaker 1: with me, like they there's something else here. It's like
Speaker 1: they these guys just reminded me of guys that like
Speaker 1: just like meeting celebrities and collecting pictures, which is fine,
Speaker 1: like teach their I don't give a fuck. But the
Speaker 1: weird part was they were leaving and there was this
Speaker 1: old woman who was probably like she looked like, um,
Speaker 1: she was a witch from Macbeth, like had like two
Speaker 1: teeth bent over, very old. And by the way, it's
Speaker 1: to one one o'clock at night at this point, so
Speaker 1: at eleven, this is one o'clock at night at this point.
Speaker 1: This woman has been there all night long, probably and
Speaker 1: she's with these two guys and there we don't know
Speaker 1: how they're connected, but you see her go can I
Speaker 1: can I meet her? And they go, no, no, we're leaving,
Speaker 1: and I'm standing there like we're just standing. I mean,
Speaker 1: this is the end of the line. And I hear
Speaker 1: them like, shuffle her off if they don't. No, no,
Speaker 1: it's enough no, And I go, no, I'll take a
Speaker 1: picture with you, and she goes, can I have one?
Speaker 1: I'd love it, And I'd go, I love I would
Speaker 1: love to, Oh my god, And so I hold her
Speaker 1: real tight and like give her a cute little hug
Speaker 1: and they and I swear to you, I would bet
Speaker 1: anything on it. He did not take the picture because
Speaker 1: I saw him take the picture, and I could just
Speaker 1: tell it was like what you would do if you're
Speaker 1: miming taking And then they walked off with this woman
Speaker 1: who I couldn't tell if it was their mom, if
Speaker 1: it was like some woman that they had taken advantage
Speaker 1: of to get them into the Like it just went
Speaker 1: from being like this cute kind of awkward and of
Speaker 1: the weirdest thing. Andrew and I could not shake it.
Speaker 1: It was so disturbing because they yelled at this woman
Speaker 1: that she couldn't have a picture, even though I'm standing
Speaker 1: there and she's in line with them, Like there isn't like,
Speaker 1: you know, everyone has to have a wristband. It's like
Speaker 1: whoever is there gets one. There's no checking, like once
Speaker 1: you're there, you're there to get it, and she had
Speaker 1: a wristband to even get back there. Yeah, I don't
Speaker 1: know how to feel. We went backstage. I was kind
Speaker 1: of in a rage because I was like, man, what's
Speaker 1: her age? Andrew was like, she's has to be like
Speaker 1: a hundred. I'm like, probably somewhere in her nineties. That
Speaker 1: poor woman. I feel like we just witnessed a crime, see,
Speaker 1: because that man was mean to her and then they
Speaker 1: shuffled off. I wish that woman the best, but I
Speaker 1: don't have a good feeling, and I just feel off.
Speaker 1: I rhymed off with off man when I saw it.
Speaker 1: That lady. I was like, man, she's gonna fall. I
Speaker 1: think she lives inside the theater walls. She's so old
Speaker 1: she died before vampire. Huh. It sounds like a Limerick
Speaker 1: keeping you could suck my big fat little finger because
Speaker 1: it rhymes with dick. I don't even know anymore, because look,
Speaker 1: I want to find these people, and I want to
Speaker 1: find out if they live in her basement and they
Speaker 1: take her money and they fucking don't look at her.
Speaker 1: Funny got to her. You got to give her water.
Speaker 1: She's gonna die soon. The cavin for being so nice
Speaker 1: to me, and that's what late And if you were
Speaker 1: listening to this and you please explain what the connection
Speaker 1: to that woman was, to her and everything. Please tell
Speaker 1: me that you took a picture and send the picture
Speaker 1: to me to confront that that woman had her picture taken.
Speaker 1: Please do not take advantage of her and and erase
Speaker 1: my video to you because you're not a good person.
Speaker 1: If if my biggest spears are true, we gotta go
Speaker 1: have a great day, will be here all week long. Um,
Speaker 1: don't be cut and can't take the hanger off now, yeah,
Speaker 1: I know what I wasn't even making you put it on.