WEBVTT - Unfiltered with @MakeupbyGriselda

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<v Speaker 1>My nigga is dedication. This is antire hesitation. It's a

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<v Speaker 1>real nigga celebration. It's a Don Black declaration. Fifty nine

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<v Speaker 1>to fIF that Granny house with Anala waits. It's the

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<v Speaker 1>remedy of separation to a pocket of my generation. Blue

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<v Speaker 1>Pill in the Fucking Matrix, Red Rose in the Great Pagments.

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<v Speaker 1>Young Black nigga trapped and he can't shaction nor genius.

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<v Speaker 1>He just can't claim it because they let him know

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<v Speaker 1>platforms to explain it. He frustrated, so he gets faded,

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<v Speaker 1>like deep down inside, you know you can't fail. How

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<v Speaker 1>long should I stay dedicated? How long till the opportunity

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<v Speaker 1>meet preparation? I need some real nigga preparations or run

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<v Speaker 1>up in your bank just for recre Welcome back.

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<v Speaker 2>This is a good moms by choice. I'm Erica and

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<v Speaker 2>I'm Nila, And what's up girl? It's on beautiful day

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<v Speaker 2>in La. It is beautiful, really really nice. Lately. I

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<v Speaker 2>know I'm going to the pool. It is my season.

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<v Speaker 2>This is my season. I know I've been going to

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<v Speaker 2>the gym because this season is coming and winter has

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<v Speaker 2>been I've been chilling. Yeah, the summer's my time is shine. Well,

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<v Speaker 2>you don't have any of those issues. You like a

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<v Speaker 2>supermodel for I don't want to close. You don't even

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<v Speaker 2>when it's cold. No, it's true. You own one sweater.

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<v Speaker 2>I've seen it. It's that striped sweater. You own one.

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<v Speaker 3>That's it. It's the only naeded sweater I own. It's true. Anyway,

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<v Speaker 3>we have a special guest today, guys.

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<v Speaker 2>We have my friend and makeup guru, makeup influencer Mama,

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<v Speaker 2>and just overall the vast person grisel Da Martinez. Thank you.

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<v Speaker 2>What's up girl? What's going on? If you guys are

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<v Speaker 2>into makeup, you definitely need to follow Roselda at make

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<v Speaker 2>up by Grocelta, make up by Groselda. Yeah right, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>I knew that it's weird. I just never said it

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<v Speaker 2>out loud. I just never. I just never said it

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<v Speaker 2>out loud. I'm like, wait, makeup, Yeah, make up, buy something?

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<v Speaker 2>Makeup by what's her name?

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<v Speaker 4>Again?

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<v Speaker 2>What's up? What's going on?

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<v Speaker 5>Are you doing?

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<v Speaker 2>I'm good? Yeah, it's such a beautiful day. I know

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<v Speaker 2>it is. I guess we can. I mean, first, first, first,

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<v Speaker 2>and foremost I wanna talk about really quickly. Nipsy Nipsey

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<v Speaker 2>hustle fucking when I heard about that news, Like when

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<v Speaker 2>I remember like when they when someone said he'd been

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<v Speaker 2>shot like six times. I hate to say it, but

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<v Speaker 2>I kind of like, there's n he might not make it.

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<v Speaker 2>Like I was just thinking he was gonna make it.

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<v Speaker 2>I didn't think that unfortunately, like and then like moments later,

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<v Speaker 2>it was just so it really like hit home for

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<v Speaker 2>me actually, Like I think because I've met him a

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<v Speaker 2>few times, maybe because my baby daddy's a rapper like

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<v Speaker 2>all those things, and it's like a fear of mine.

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<v Speaker 2>I've definitely like had the had that fear because he

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<v Speaker 2>comes from, you know, that lifestyle, grew up that way,

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<v Speaker 2>and you know, it's hard to depart from that, right,

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<v Speaker 2>Like if anybody knows that has a has somebody who

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<v Speaker 2>was like a former gang member, usually they're not really former.

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<v Speaker 2>They always keep like one foot there, you know, even

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<v Speaker 2>if they're not really partaking in like the activities, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>and but that is dangerous.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, it's it's fucking sad, man, It's so fucking sad.

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<v Speaker 2>That shit broke my heart.

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<v Speaker 6>Just the thought just I know which but she's probably going,

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<v Speaker 6>I mean, I don't know, but to even slightly imagine I.

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<v Speaker 2>Think now I think as I'm a mom, like I

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<v Speaker 2>really the first thing I thought about was laur in

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<v Speaker 2>London and then the baby was there.

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<v Speaker 6>It's just yeah, it's just it's just a function, man,

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<v Speaker 6>it's just unnecessary, dumb shit. That's like someone's life that

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<v Speaker 6>affects so many people, you know, the kids, the kids, her,

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<v Speaker 6>you know, his community.

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<v Speaker 2>It's just fucked up in all the great things that

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<v Speaker 2>he was doing right for the community.

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<v Speaker 5>Like I was, you know, raised in Englandwood, and when

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<v Speaker 5>I heard the news, I was like like I had

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<v Speaker 5>no words, Like I had no emotion, Like I never

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<v Speaker 5>met the guy, but it was like everything that he

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<v Speaker 5>was doing for his people and just the impact that

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<v Speaker 5>he had already done was incredible. So it was like,

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<v Speaker 5>you know, thinking about the kids, thinking about Lauren, like

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<v Speaker 5>I can only imagine what she's going through. Like the

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<v Speaker 5>relationship that they had, I think was so transparent and

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<v Speaker 5>you can see the love that they had for each other.

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<v Speaker 5>And I think that that's.

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<v Speaker 2>Why I was like, I think almost like the relationship

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<v Speaker 2>they've kind of like been they're kind of like low key,

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<v Speaker 2>you know what I mean, And it doesn't wasn't until

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<v Speaker 2>recently that I kind of started seeing them step out

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<v Speaker 2>and like the public about their relationship. Everyone knows that

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<v Speaker 2>Lauren Lyndon Nipsey hustle together and have a baby and

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<v Speaker 2>all that shit, but like they were f kind of

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<v Speaker 2>stepping out. They're both coming out, like he just got

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<v Speaker 2>nominated for a Grammy, you know, she is like reviving

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<v Speaker 2>her career. They're they're doing this together, and it's just like, man,

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<v Speaker 2>it's so sad and I couldn't I couldn't stop thinking

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<v Speaker 2>about like cud, Like how does she tell her baby?

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<v Speaker 2>Will her baby remember him? You know, like the baby's

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<v Speaker 2>like two years old? Probably not, you know. I mean

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<v Speaker 2>she could keep him alive in in ways and always,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, but it's just fucked up. It's so fucking sad, man.

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<v Speaker 2>And like coming home to your house where you once

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<v Speaker 2>yesterday you were with them your day when today is

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<v Speaker 2>not here anymore. Yeah, Like ugh, I was just like

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<v Speaker 2>unpacking all that shit. I'm just thinking about all the

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<v Speaker 2>the steps that you don't even think about when you

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<v Speaker 2>lose someone that close to you, right, like moving shit

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<v Speaker 2>out of the closet, like just shit like that, you

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<v Speaker 2>know what I mean, Like how do you get rid

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<v Speaker 2>of things of someone that you never wanted to get

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<v Speaker 2>rid of.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, yah, you know, like w I mean, I feel

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<v Speaker 5>like it's it's gonna be a process. It's she probably

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<v Speaker 5>won't do it until she's ready. I don't know, But

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<v Speaker 5>when are you ever ready to do that?

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<v Speaker 2>I just like, man, it's just so I just like

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<v Speaker 2>and I'm thinking more about like our community. Like it's

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<v Speaker 2>just like, man, we have some like the value of

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<v Speaker 2>our lives is like we don't value our b like

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<v Speaker 2>brothers and sisters'.

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<v Speaker 6>Lives cause sometimes of people like because we don't value ourselves.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, that's the biggest thing.

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<v Speaker 6>When you don't value yourself, you don't value life period.

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<v Speaker 6>That's that's true. And that's sa I mean, how like

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<v Speaker 6>where is your mind that you didn't even think about

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<v Speaker 6>that one time? How do you go through the motions

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<v Speaker 6>of taking somebody's life and not really.

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<v Speaker 2>Consider it's just pure r tago it's and hate. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>cause like you would think, like, oh, Okay, if I

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<v Speaker 2>do this, I'm gonna I'm going to murder as a

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<v Speaker 2>big figure in the community who's connected in all ways

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<v Speaker 2>gang ways, you know, celebrity people are gonna people I'm

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<v Speaker 2>going to get caught, I'm going to probably die. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>so like maybe like you didn't think about that once

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<v Speaker 2>you thought you were gonna kill him and then you out.

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<v Speaker 2>I think the thing is even that is ego.

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<v Speaker 6>I think sometimes people murderers kill high per I mean

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<v Speaker 6>high profile people because they take some kind of.

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<v Speaker 2>Pleasure in that. And you know, I I you know,

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<v Speaker 2>I've watched the ID channel, but I mean there's that.

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<v Speaker 2>But then, like when you kill someone who's so well loved,

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<v Speaker 2>you don't think about like how that's going to affect

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<v Speaker 2>you in prison because guess what. Nipsy for sure has

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<v Speaker 2>homies in prison for sure, and they are going to

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<v Speaker 2>fuck him up. It's just sad, even people that aren't

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<v Speaker 2>his homie, people that just are like, yeah.

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<v Speaker 6>It's just sad, and it's just it's such a sad,

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<v Speaker 6>such a way, such a waste of life.

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<v Speaker 2>It's just waste. It's so unnecessary, it's so fucked up,

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<v Speaker 2>so damn. I mean, should rest in peace, Nipsty. I'm

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<v Speaker 2>sorry that happened to you. I know, it's so bad.

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<v Speaker 2>I had to touch on it cause I've been like so.

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<v Speaker 6>Sad about it, and it really makes you value and

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<v Speaker 6>not take it for granted, little things like you know,

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<v Speaker 6>and of course it will last maybe a few days

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<v Speaker 6>for us, cause something happens, and then it fades, not

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<v Speaker 6>for her obviously months later, but like years, years, ever forever.

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<v Speaker 6>That's the love of your life. You don't forget that shit.

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<v Speaker 6>But also just like I I'm you leave somebody now for.

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<v Speaker 2>The next you know, you're gonna be thinking about did

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<v Speaker 2>I kiss you? Did I hug you? And I embrace

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<v Speaker 2>you and I look at you?

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<v Speaker 6>You know what I'm saying, Cause sometimes you just go

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<v Speaker 6>through the motions so often not valuing our friendships or

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<v Speaker 6>our parents or family, our lovers, and just not noticing

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<v Speaker 6>how much how much weight our words hold. And you know,

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<v Speaker 6>we're saying that, we're communicating how we feel.

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<v Speaker 2>It's just so quick, like I feel, I mean, it's

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<v Speaker 2>like what everyone says never like you know, always say

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<v Speaker 2>I love you even though you're angry. Yeah, And it's

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<v Speaker 2>like and sometimes that's really hard, Like someone tell me,

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<v Speaker 2>go to tell this person I love you. After like

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<v Speaker 2>I've done curse them out, I'm go'na be like fuck you, right,

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<v Speaker 2>but you look, but it makes you put them to

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<v Speaker 2>put in perspective, like Okay, I'm I'm really don't fuck

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<v Speaker 2>with you right now, but I love you goodbye, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know. But anyway, that's all the current events

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<v Speaker 2>I have, because that's really the only one that really

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<v Speaker 2>matters right now. Everything else is I don't know it

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<v Speaker 2>was anything else. I don't know any current events this Sorry, guys,

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<v Speaker 2>there's a gardener half there's a gardening situation happening. I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know. If you hear the windblower in the background.

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<v Speaker 6>They must be gardening the shit out of that yard,

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<v Speaker 6>blowing those leaves for about thirty minutes.

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<v Speaker 2>Anyway, could have said that, see, can you share with

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<v Speaker 2>our fool listeners we've never had and am someone that

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<v Speaker 2>you know? Firstly, like you know, I work in beauty

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<v Speaker 2>with Beauty Blunder And that's actually how me and Griselda met.

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<v Speaker 2>She came to a uh event that we had a

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<v Speaker 2>few years ago at the Mandrion m and I remember

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<v Speaker 2>seeing you and I was like, who is that sexy

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<v Speaker 2>one man over there? You were talking to my mom

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<v Speaker 2>and I came over and you were so sweet and

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<v Speaker 2>we just like immediately hit it off. Yeah, and I think, oh,

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<v Speaker 2>you invited me to it was like a tart event.

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<v Speaker 2>We went to oh yeah, yeah yeah, and I think

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<v Speaker 2>my outfit fell apart before I got to your house

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<v Speaker 2>literally like yeah together, yeah, sh like my whole zipper.

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<v Speaker 2>Like I was like gonna be naked. Yeah oh no,

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<v Speaker 2>Adam Adam like he put a belt on me and

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<v Speaker 2>he like fixed her up in seconds, and I was

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<v Speaker 2>like like me and you're still coming. But you know,

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<v Speaker 2>uh during that time, I was going through like a

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<v Speaker 2>crazy time in my relationship with my with my baby daddy.

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<v Speaker 2>He was in jail overseas at the time, and uh

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<v Speaker 2>me was like I just I don't know, I just

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<v Speaker 2>felt comfortable with you, and I just we just like

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<v Speaker 2>started sharing things and opened up. I remember sitting at

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<v Speaker 2>your house and we were just like it was like

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<v Speaker 2>telling you all my shit, and I was like I

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<v Speaker 2>love this, Like she just was. You just were so amazing.

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<v Speaker 5>I felt the exact same way, and it was more

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<v Speaker 5>so like because it was like so relatable, like you

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<v Speaker 5>had been with you know, your son, I mean, your

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<v Speaker 5>daughter's baby daddy or.

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<v Speaker 2>Your baby daddy.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm like my daughter's father, your daughter's father for so long,

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<v Speaker 5>and you know I was with my son's dad.

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<v Speaker 7>For you know, how long were you with him fourteen years.

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<v Speaker 5>Yes, so it was you know something that we I

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<v Speaker 5>felt that you know, being separated and being you know,

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<v Speaker 5>a single parent.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, you were he was overseas, you were here,

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<v Speaker 2>and I know it was hard.

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<v Speaker 5>So but I instantly felt the connection with you, and

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<v Speaker 5>I was like, can we just be friends?

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<v Speaker 2>And you know we've I feel like you and I

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<v Speaker 2>always like pick.

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<v Speaker 7>Up right where we left off.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, No, it's not sure, it's just natural. Yeah. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>So so when you like, so when you speaking of

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<v Speaker 2>your baby daddy and being with someone for fourteen years,

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<v Speaker 2>because that's a really long time. My longest relationship is

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<v Speaker 2>seven years. What's yours? Oh, yours is long too, Like

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<v Speaker 2>I'm kind of low key on and off what like

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<v Speaker 2>fifteen or some shit, But I know they took a

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<v Speaker 2>long breaks. Yeah, like for the most part. Yeah, I've

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<v Speaker 2>been my baby daddy for like fifteen years. I don't know. Yeah, No,

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<v Speaker 2>I was like with him since I met him when

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<v Speaker 2>I was fourteen? Did you lose your virginity to him? Uh?

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<v Speaker 5>Huh?

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<v Speaker 2>Because how how is your son now?

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<v Speaker 7>He's in me thirteen? Okay, yeah, and we've been separated.

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<v Speaker 2>For five six so is he You're only the only

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<v Speaker 2>person you'd ever slept with for that whole time. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>oh my god, girl for fourteen years. So fourteen it

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<v Speaker 2>was crazy. You were kind of like starting new in

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<v Speaker 2>your sex life. I mean fourteen six years year, but

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<v Speaker 2>like fourteen when you went to like, if you don't

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<v Speaker 2>mind like me asking when I lost my virginity. No,

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<v Speaker 2>like we were like till you were like twenty something,

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<v Speaker 2>twenty seven, twenty eight, you only had sex with one person. Yeah, dang, girl,

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<v Speaker 2>I know hopefully it was good.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, I mean I was with them for fourteen years.

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<v Speaker 5>I know that one, so that's all I knew.

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<v Speaker 2>And like, I mean, but I mean like going now

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<v Speaker 2>and like having experiences as an adult because I think

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<v Speaker 2>about like the sex I was having as like a

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<v Speaker 2>teenager versus I mean, I guess when you grow with someone,

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<v Speaker 2>you grow, but like the sex I would. I actually

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<v Speaker 2>went back and had like in a sexual encounter with

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<v Speaker 2>someone that I slept with when I was in a

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<v Speaker 2>teen that I thought was like the ship back then.

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<v Speaker 2>I was like, that was so amazing, like the best

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<v Speaker 2>I've ever had, And then you go back, you go

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<v Speaker 2>back to that, I'm like, wait that, No, that was

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<v Speaker 2>not that was not what I remember.

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<v Speaker 8>Nothing, levels of knowledge I have not right, and you

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<v Speaker 8>are the same, So like, were was that scary for

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<v Speaker 8>you coming out of like a relationship and then like

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<v Speaker 8>having to explore like being with someone else.

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<v Speaker 2>Like how do you even know? I think I was ready?

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<v Speaker 2>You're ready?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, because I was like so past that, like not

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<v Speaker 5>wanting to be with him for so long that like

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<v Speaker 5>I had already detached my emotion and my sexual emotion

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<v Speaker 5>towards him that like I was just like I was

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<v Speaker 5>definitely scared.

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<v Speaker 2>Because I didn't know what size I was gonna get

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<v Speaker 2>my next one. When the first time disappointing or was it?

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<v Speaker 2>I was like, where has this been? Amazing? Yeah? But

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<v Speaker 2>I took a two year break.

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<v Speaker 5>So even after after I like you know, separated with

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<v Speaker 5>my son's dad, and I was like, I'm not ready

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<v Speaker 5>to like even think of being with another man because

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<v Speaker 5>I needed to like yeah, like collect my thoughts and

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<v Speaker 5>my feelings and emotions as being alone. Yeah a long time,

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<v Speaker 5>and it was definitely like you know, happy times in

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<v Speaker 5>set times of course, but like I was so attached

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<v Speaker 5>to him and you know, being with him for so

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<v Speaker 5>long that I was just kind of like do I

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<v Speaker 5>want to.

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<v Speaker 2>Be with him. You have to like that.

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<v Speaker 6>Sometimes your identity becomes blended with somebody else's.

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<v Speaker 2>It's just like a routine. It's a comfort level. How

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<v Speaker 2>old How old were you when you had any anthony?

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<v Speaker 2>I was twenty one, so you guys were already dating

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<v Speaker 2>for what like six years? Seven years? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 5>Okay, so yeah, so when I met him, he actually

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<v Speaker 5>I had a boyfriend at the time.

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<v Speaker 7>I was going to summer school my first.

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<v Speaker 2>Year when you were thirteen. When I was my friends

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<v Speaker 2>had a boyfriend.

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<v Speaker 5>Very say you know so, and he was like back then,

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<v Speaker 5>he was like I saw you making with your.

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<v Speaker 2>God yeah, Macie like that was that's how you know

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<v Speaker 2>how they used to say that. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 5>Oh, they used to say like, let's go bust them

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<v Speaker 5>back in the I don't know, mat like mac like,

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<v Speaker 5>let's go back and advanced use of that word.

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<v Speaker 6>I remember scamming m yeah yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>Man. Ever comes up to me and tells me wanted.

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<v Speaker 5>To Sam Yeah, I like yeah, yeah again, I hail it.

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<v Speaker 5>So it was I don't know. It was so hard

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<v Speaker 5>for me to like not want to go back, like

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<v Speaker 5>wanting to be with him, but then after them, I

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<v Speaker 5>was like, no, I really don't want to be with him,

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<v Speaker 5>you know. And then when I had that, you know, first,

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<v Speaker 5>I call it, you know, popping my chairy because it

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<v Speaker 5>probably was because me and my son's dad weren't even

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<v Speaker 5>having sex. So it was just one of those things

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<v Speaker 5>where I was like, ready, finally.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, move forward, move forward and do the damn thing.

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<v Speaker 9>You know.

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<v Speaker 2>Has Anthony ever met anyone you've dated? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 4>No?

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<v Speaker 2>Is it because why I'm curious? I mean just because

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<v Speaker 2>you're I know, I'm obviously I know the answers. You're

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<v Speaker 2>protective because of your parents and that's what we are.

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<v Speaker 2>But is it because also you haven't met anyone that

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<v Speaker 2>you feel like is I Yeah?

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<v Speaker 5>I mean the one person that I thought was he

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<v Speaker 5>did meet him, but just like as a friend, like

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<v Speaker 5>you know, how we how we talked about yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>Like you know, he had his daughter and then you know.

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<v Speaker 5>We picked him up from school. But it was always like, oh,

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<v Speaker 5>he's just my friend and that was it.

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<v Speaker 9>You know.

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<v Speaker 5>I wasn't like more so like over dating, and we

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<v Speaker 5>never around each other, like touch each other or anything

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<v Speaker 5>like that.

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<v Speaker 2>I was just and Anthony's twelve now.

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<v Speaker 7>Right, yeah, and this is like what.

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<v Speaker 2>Almost almost four years ago. Poor does he ask you

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<v Speaker 2>about dating. Yeah, he's like, oh my god.

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<v Speaker 5>Sometimes with him, I'm just like, where do you get

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<v Speaker 5>these things? He was I was almost floor cracking my

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<v Speaker 5>bag because I have back problems. And he saw, uh,

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<v Speaker 5>match dot com on the TV. He goes, Mom, you

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<v Speaker 5>should just sign up for that. And I'm like, I

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<v Speaker 5>wasn't paying attention to the TV, and I was like,

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<v Speaker 5>sign up for what. He goes, you need a man,

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<v Speaker 5>sign up for match dot com. And I was like,

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<v Speaker 5>she doesn't even need a man.

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<v Speaker 7>And I was like, I don't need a man.

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<v Speaker 5>He goes no, he goes, you need you need a boyfriend, mom,

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<v Speaker 5>And he's like, I think it's time.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, at least you know that he is open to it,

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<v Speaker 2>you know what I mean, because some kids are like,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't need your mind.

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<v Speaker 5>No, He's very like, I just wanted you to be happy.

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<v Speaker 5>He cried dad's wedding when he got when I got married,

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<v Speaker 5>when he got married, and I thought at first, I

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<v Speaker 5>was like, what happened? Like what, like, why were you crying?

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<v Speaker 5>He goes, no, Mom, calm down. He goes, I cried

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<v Speaker 5>because I was very happy for my dad.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh. I thought maybe it was like he was mad

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<v Speaker 2>that you guys weren't together.

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<v Speaker 7>I mean that too.

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<v Speaker 2>He always was it hard to stup, Like, how do

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<v Speaker 2>you because like Irie was so young when she was

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<v Speaker 2>like two and half maybe when me and my baby

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<v Speaker 2>daddy separated and you know you Luna too, like and

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<v Speaker 2>you know, she still sees him very often, so I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know if she even it's just normal to her

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<v Speaker 2>at this point. But like he was six years old,

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<v Speaker 2>like it's a little more. I think at first though,

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<v Speaker 2>I redid be like with daddy, Luna said stuff or

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<v Speaker 2>were together hands, I want you, But it's not as

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<v Speaker 2>like devastating, whereas like when you get a little older

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<v Speaker 2>it might be.

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<v Speaker 5>You know, I think because I moved out, we had

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<v Speaker 5>an incident, well, I had an incident with him where

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<v Speaker 5>he was contacting someone that he had previously spoke to.

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<v Speaker 5>So I was like, I don't tolerate.

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<v Speaker 10>That, yeah, technically, but not emotion She was emotionally, was stating, yeah,

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<v Speaker 10>so it was can be worse, yeah, because I'm like, you.

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<v Speaker 2>Know the bitch, Yeah, you know, I know the bitch.

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<v Speaker 7>She was like my best friend in high school.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, So he was three, so that's when I was

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<v Speaker 5>like we were living together and I like grabbed my

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<v Speaker 5>shit and I left and so I was living with

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<v Speaker 5>my mom and so then I was like, okay, whatever,

0:20:07.359 --> 0:20:10.199
<v Speaker 5>we'll get back together. But I never moved back in,

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<v Speaker 5>like never moved back in, and it was like, so

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<v Speaker 5>he kind of knew that we were separated, so I

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<v Speaker 5>wasn't asked, did you ever have a conversation about it

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<v Speaker 5>when we when I got my own place. Yeah, I

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<v Speaker 5>was just like, your dad and I are not together.

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<v Speaker 2>We're not going to be together.

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<v Speaker 5>And he was like why And at the time, I

0:20:30.480 --> 0:20:32.320
<v Speaker 5>didn't know what to say, and I was just like,

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<v Speaker 5>you know, we're just arguing a lot, and we.

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<v Speaker 2>Just made our space.

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<v Speaker 5>So but then after that he was just like, would

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<v Speaker 5>get sad, you know, and it was hard for me

0:20:43.119 --> 0:20:46.760
<v Speaker 5>to see that. But I also didn't want my son

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<v Speaker 5>to see us arguing. And I'm when I get angry,

0:20:52.119 --> 0:20:57.720
<v Speaker 5>I get angry. So it was like, yeah, is that crazy. Yeah, Listen,

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<v Speaker 5>every time I might tell someone I'm a Gemini, they're like.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh, it was the same thing. Scorpio too. We always

0:21:04.160 --> 0:21:07.560
<v Speaker 2>get like that, oh thing. Yeah, those are those are

0:21:07.560 --> 0:21:10.400
<v Speaker 2>the two signs to get the most Probably then there's

0:21:10.400 --> 0:21:12.800
<v Speaker 2>other signs you're like, oh, I love you. I cancer. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>oh you're so great. I know I liked him like funny.

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<v Speaker 6>Well honest, now I could gets I could get spicy

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<v Speaker 6>and I'm I'm Gemini cussed. So that's probably like together. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 6>but I'm not crazy. I know Gemenis could be crazy.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, but you know we don't look at it and

0:21:32.160 --> 0:21:34.359
<v Speaker 5>that's why we don't think we're crazy like.

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<v Speaker 6>What we are.

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<v Speaker 5>I mean, I just have to like face reality. But

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<v Speaker 5>so yeah, it was like, you know, it's a huge

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<v Speaker 5>It was a huge stuff that I.

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<v Speaker 7>Had to take.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, having that conversation with my son, Like when

0:21:46.720 --> 0:21:48.320
<v Speaker 2>you said he would get sad, like would he talk

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<v Speaker 2>to you about it or you would just notice that

0:21:49.800 --> 0:21:52.959
<v Speaker 2>he was like no, he was very vulcal and like

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<v Speaker 2>what would he say, like I want you and Daddy

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<v Speaker 2>get back together?

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<v Speaker 5>Or then he would be one time we were at Target,

0:21:59.119 --> 0:22:02.760
<v Speaker 5>he was like, Mom, I want a baby brother or

0:22:02.800 --> 0:22:07.080
<v Speaker 5>baby sister. And I was like, uh, where do you

0:22:07.080 --> 0:22:08.480
<v Speaker 5>want me to get a baby brother?

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<v Speaker 2>Target? Yeah, then he goes.

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<v Speaker 7>With my dad and I was.

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<v Speaker 2>Like maybe maybe he thought like maybe if they have

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<v Speaker 2>a baby. Yeah, And then I was like, let's go

0:22:20.800 --> 0:22:21.600
<v Speaker 2>look at the toys.

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<v Speaker 5>Maybe we can find like a play doll something, ice

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<v Speaker 5>c something, and.

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<v Speaker 7>I was like, what's the next option?

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<v Speaker 2>And then like at first he didn't know what to say,

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<v Speaker 2>and then I was like how old was he around then?

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<v Speaker 2>He's like eight nine, So it was like a few years.

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<v Speaker 2>It kept it and went on to this day really

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<v Speaker 2>even now still to this day. And what is their

0:22:45.200 --> 0:22:48.600
<v Speaker 2>relationship like? Is it? You know? I mean obviously I

0:22:48.600 --> 0:22:52.000
<v Speaker 2>think you know, women, we take on a lot of

0:22:52.040 --> 0:22:55.200
<v Speaker 2>the work, but you know sometimes no, I mean, I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know. Is your situation in more like you take

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<v Speaker 2>on most of the work as a parent.

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<v Speaker 7>Yeah, it's more so like a work in progress.

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<v Speaker 5>That's like the best way that I can describe it,

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<v Speaker 5>because we've definitely had our ups and downs where I

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<v Speaker 5>just hate him and like you're doing this and he

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<v Speaker 5>might think the same thing. You know, I'm not perfect

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<v Speaker 5>and I know I make mistakes, and I know Anthony

0:23:18.640 --> 0:23:20.280
<v Speaker 5>probably communicates.

0:23:20.000 --> 0:23:22.200
<v Speaker 7>To him because he's so vocal.

0:23:22.400 --> 0:23:26.080
<v Speaker 5>So he probably has his way of thinking about me.

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<v Speaker 5>But I've learned that I just need to let it

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<v Speaker 5>go and let it be and if you want to

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<v Speaker 5>be there, you can. I'm not stopping you, but I'm

0:23:35.560 --> 0:23:39.200
<v Speaker 5>not also forcing you. So that's where we're at. So,

0:23:39.480 --> 0:23:41.040
<v Speaker 5>but he does see him. He picks them up, like

0:23:41.080 --> 0:23:42.320
<v Speaker 5>he's picking him up today.

0:23:42.200 --> 0:23:45.320
<v Speaker 2>From school, and he'll be involved.

0:23:45.320 --> 0:23:47.560
<v Speaker 5>He like takes him look to baseball stuff like that,

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<v Speaker 5>but not as much as I would like for him.

0:23:52.240 --> 0:23:53.080
<v Speaker 7>To be involved.

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<v Speaker 2>When you started your like YouTube chan, are you channel later?

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<v Speaker 2>Right when you started kind of growing on Instagram? Were

0:24:03.760 --> 0:24:07.440
<v Speaker 2>you already were you still in your well you guys,

0:24:07.480 --> 0:24:09.200
<v Speaker 2>were you weren't married? Right? No?

0:24:09.240 --> 0:24:09.320
<v Speaker 4>No?

0:24:09.840 --> 0:24:12.199
<v Speaker 2>In your relationship? Like did he see that? What is

0:24:12.320 --> 0:24:14.560
<v Speaker 2>what does he feel like now seeing like where you

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<v Speaker 2>were versus now, like the visibility you have and like

0:24:18.880 --> 0:24:21.520
<v Speaker 2>all the people that look to you for you know,

0:24:21.600 --> 0:24:25.399
<v Speaker 2>they looked to you for what's beautiful? Really? And was

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<v Speaker 2>he around during the beginning of that?

0:24:27.200 --> 0:24:30.719
<v Speaker 5>He was around? Like So my old Instagram this was

0:24:30.720 --> 0:24:34.880
<v Speaker 5>like twenty ten. I started that and it was called

0:24:34.920 --> 0:24:39.480
<v Speaker 5>sugarpants sugar pants, so underschool, underscore sugarpants. If you look

0:24:39.520 --> 0:24:42.840
<v Speaker 5>up the hashtag, there's like a bunch of people that like, yeah,

0:24:42.840 --> 0:24:44.600
<v Speaker 5>it's crazy, why sugarpants?

0:24:45.000 --> 0:24:45.479
<v Speaker 2>I don't know?

0:24:46.000 --> 0:24:48.840
<v Speaker 5>It was cut I because when I started Instagram, I

0:24:48.960 --> 0:24:52.159
<v Speaker 5>started it because of the filters. I didn't know it

0:24:52.240 --> 0:24:55.600
<v Speaker 5>had any meaning. And then people started following me and

0:24:55.640 --> 0:24:58.560
<v Speaker 5>I was like why and I would start blocking them.

0:24:58.960 --> 0:25:00.359
<v Speaker 7>Don't don't come to my page.

0:25:01.040 --> 0:25:06.159
<v Speaker 5>And then I started working at Mac and then I

0:25:06.240 --> 0:25:08.280
<v Speaker 5>like kind of picked up on like, oh, this is

0:25:08.320 --> 0:25:11.119
<v Speaker 5>like social media. And then I don't know if you

0:25:11.200 --> 0:25:14.600
<v Speaker 5>remember vegas name, so she reposted me and that's where

0:25:14.640 --> 0:25:17.639
<v Speaker 5>like my platform grew and Vegas Nay was.

0:25:17.640 --> 0:25:21.600
<v Speaker 2>Like this like instagrammer that like was a reposter. It

0:25:21.680 --> 0:25:25.400
<v Speaker 2>had so many followers, like an influence, and.

0:25:25.359 --> 0:25:27.520
<v Speaker 5>It was like all beauty and like, you know, it

0:25:27.600 --> 0:25:31.800
<v Speaker 5>was really she's She was really one of the first

0:25:31.800 --> 0:25:33.400
<v Speaker 5>ones that ever started the repost.

0:25:34.800 --> 0:25:37.480
<v Speaker 2>And then that's when he started seeing that.

0:25:37.640 --> 0:25:40.080
<v Speaker 5>And I would always post Anthony, but I would never

0:25:40.119 --> 0:25:40.880
<v Speaker 5>post him.

0:25:41.280 --> 0:25:42.400
<v Speaker 2>But for me it was.

0:25:42.359 --> 0:25:46.480
<v Speaker 5>More so because I wasn't sure that I wanted to

0:25:46.520 --> 0:25:48.480
<v Speaker 5>be with him for the rest of my life.

0:25:48.760 --> 0:25:52.000
<v Speaker 2>Maybe it's also before social media became a thing like actually,

0:25:52.040 --> 0:25:54.679
<v Speaker 2>like why aren't you posting me? Because now, like if

0:25:54.720 --> 0:25:56.560
<v Speaker 2>you're in a relationship and you're not posted, it's like

0:25:56.560 --> 0:25:58.680
<v Speaker 2>you're not in Like you're not in a relationship.

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<v Speaker 5>Even when I was after, I wouldn't post the person

0:26:03.920 --> 0:26:06.200
<v Speaker 5>that I was with because I just don't think it's

0:26:06.200 --> 0:26:11.000
<v Speaker 5>anyone's business, you know. But for me went with him.

0:26:11.359 --> 0:26:15.760
<v Speaker 5>He's a pisces, so he was very sensitive. Especially he

0:26:15.840 --> 0:26:19.639
<v Speaker 5>always needed reassurance of like tell me that you love me,

0:26:19.720 --> 0:26:21.280
<v Speaker 5>show me that you love me. And for me, it's like,

0:26:21.400 --> 0:26:23.040
<v Speaker 5>I do love you, like I don't need to post

0:26:23.080 --> 0:26:24.640
<v Speaker 5>you somewhere to show you that I love you.

0:26:24.680 --> 0:26:26.960
<v Speaker 2>And it was like a huge problem.

0:26:26.720 --> 0:26:29.119
<v Speaker 5>Because then I posted one of my guy friends, but

0:26:29.160 --> 0:26:33.280
<v Speaker 5>it was like business related business because it was involving beauty,

0:26:33.720 --> 0:26:35.760
<v Speaker 5>and he was like, you know, and this was the

0:26:35.800 --> 0:26:38.679
<v Speaker 5>guy that I went to elementary school, you know, So

0:26:39.359 --> 0:26:42.320
<v Speaker 5>it was it was definitely really hard. But I can't

0:26:42.720 --> 0:26:45.359
<v Speaker 5>really tell you what he thinks now because I don't

0:26:45.400 --> 0:26:46.240
<v Speaker 5>have that communication.

0:26:46.359 --> 0:26:51.359
<v Speaker 2>Like we strictly talk about Anthony and Anthony only you know.

0:26:53.520 --> 0:26:54.920
<v Speaker 2>Oh what was I about to I was just about

0:26:54.920 --> 0:27:00.399
<v Speaker 2>to ask you fuck wait, because you have you have

0:27:00.520 --> 0:27:03.679
<v Speaker 2>almost like you're close to like a million followers, So

0:27:04.200 --> 0:27:07.360
<v Speaker 2>what do you okay? Because what do you think about

0:27:08.840 --> 0:27:14.879
<v Speaker 2>boyfriends and husbands being like like the Cagrammers, the agents,

0:27:15.080 --> 0:27:18.199
<v Speaker 2>Like I'm always curious because I think it's really silly.

0:27:18.320 --> 0:27:20.119
<v Speaker 2>I think it's fun, but I think it's cute, like

0:27:20.160 --> 0:27:22.960
<v Speaker 2>they support you know, their girl like which is which

0:27:23.000 --> 0:27:25.879
<v Speaker 2>is cute. But I've always been like, could anyone I'm

0:27:25.960 --> 0:27:29.200
<v Speaker 2>dating ever be like like become my life? Now? I couldn't.

0:27:29.200 --> 0:27:30.480
<v Speaker 2>Do you think he could have been that? Like do

0:27:30.520 --> 0:27:36.440
<v Speaker 2>you think he would have done that for you? Been

0:27:36.480 --> 0:27:38.720
<v Speaker 2>you're like videographer and editor?

0:27:38.960 --> 0:27:40.919
<v Speaker 5>And I feel like the love that him and I

0:27:41.040 --> 0:27:46.080
<v Speaker 5>had was like one in a lifetime. Like I feel

0:27:46.119 --> 0:27:47.720
<v Speaker 5>like I will always say that he was like the

0:27:47.760 --> 0:27:52.200
<v Speaker 5>love of my life. Unfortunately I felt out of love.

0:27:52.880 --> 0:27:55.760
<v Speaker 5>But I will never be able to love someone the

0:27:55.800 --> 0:27:57.280
<v Speaker 5>way that I love him.

0:27:57.600 --> 0:28:00.320
<v Speaker 2>That's not true. That's not true. No, and like sense

0:28:00.320 --> 0:28:03.240
<v Speaker 2>of like a person of who he was to me,

0:28:03.280 --> 0:28:04.680
<v Speaker 2>maybe because he's the father of your child.

0:28:05.480 --> 0:28:08.160
<v Speaker 6>That's you don't think that I find someone else who

0:28:08.200 --> 0:28:09.920
<v Speaker 6>loves you even more and even better?

0:28:10.160 --> 0:28:11.560
<v Speaker 7>No, no, no, I'm not saying that.

0:28:11.600 --> 0:28:14.199
<v Speaker 5>I'm saying I will never be able to love someone

0:28:14.640 --> 0:28:16.880
<v Speaker 5>the way that I love him as a person who

0:28:17.640 --> 0:28:18.080
<v Speaker 5>he is.

0:28:18.400 --> 0:28:22.360
<v Speaker 2>But you can't say you're already like setting yourself up

0:28:22.400 --> 0:28:24.840
<v Speaker 2>for like like, oh no, I could love someone else

0:28:25.000 --> 0:28:26.960
<v Speaker 2>even more, but just maybe just different.

0:28:30.240 --> 0:28:32.160
<v Speaker 6>I get that how I feel about my baby daddy

0:28:32.240 --> 0:28:34.440
<v Speaker 6>is like as much fed up shit as he's done,

0:28:34.520 --> 0:28:36.440
<v Speaker 6>and as much as I don't want to be with him,

0:28:36.920 --> 0:28:38.920
<v Speaker 6>I love him. And I say it's strangely because I

0:28:39.000 --> 0:28:41.960
<v Speaker 6>know I'm so fucking long. Yeah, it says odd like

0:28:42.200 --> 0:28:46.040
<v Speaker 6>in a family way, Like I like, it's so we're

0:28:46.240 --> 0:28:50.000
<v Speaker 6>so close, Like I've never I never thought that I

0:28:50.000 --> 0:28:51.640
<v Speaker 6>could have a man that I would be that close

0:28:51.680 --> 0:28:54.160
<v Speaker 6>with because it was just almost like brother like anything,

0:28:54.240 --> 0:28:58.120
<v Speaker 6>everything like together all the time, but it just doesn't

0:28:58.120 --> 0:28:59.040
<v Speaker 6>work romantically.

0:28:59.080 --> 0:29:01.880
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, And that's exact same way that I feel like

0:29:02.120 --> 0:29:04.040
<v Speaker 5>I don't want to be with him. I don't love

0:29:04.120 --> 0:29:07.520
<v Speaker 5>him that way, but like I love him as a

0:29:07.600 --> 0:29:11.040
<v Speaker 5>human being, who he is, everything that he's done for me,

0:29:11.120 --> 0:29:16.040
<v Speaker 5>who he is as a father as sometimes I don't

0:29:16.040 --> 0:29:18.000
<v Speaker 5>want to say that, because he is a great father

0:29:18.400 --> 0:29:20.760
<v Speaker 5>when he wants to be. But at the same time,

0:29:20.840 --> 0:29:24.440
<v Speaker 5>it's definitely not who I want to.

0:29:23.960 --> 0:29:25.160
<v Speaker 7>Spend the rest of my life with.

0:29:25.480 --> 0:29:27.920
<v Speaker 5>I don't see myself, and even if I did, I

0:29:27.920 --> 0:29:29.880
<v Speaker 5>would probably do it for my son.

0:29:30.440 --> 0:29:34.320
<v Speaker 2>Has he had a kid, this is your wife, No,

0:29:34.680 --> 0:29:35.760
<v Speaker 2>how would you feel.

0:29:36.240 --> 0:29:38.520
<v Speaker 5>I'd be happy because it would make my son happy,

0:29:39.080 --> 0:29:43.040
<v Speaker 5>because my son wants a sibling and because I don't.

0:29:42.880 --> 0:29:44.880
<v Speaker 2>Want Do you want more kids?

0:29:45.040 --> 0:29:45.360
<v Speaker 7>I do?

0:29:46.120 --> 0:29:49.800
<v Speaker 2>I want at least two more too. Yeah, girl, you

0:29:49.880 --> 0:29:53.200
<v Speaker 2>done forgot so.

0:29:56.600 --> 0:30:00.560
<v Speaker 5>Technically technically fourteen okay because the whole.

0:30:00.400 --> 0:30:03.400
<v Speaker 2>Pregnancy, Oh yeah, you already forgot or you have that

0:30:03.440 --> 0:30:03.920
<v Speaker 2>one and be.

0:30:03.880 --> 0:30:06.560
<v Speaker 5>Like, well, my best friend just had a baby after

0:30:06.920 --> 0:30:09.720
<v Speaker 5>her daughter is twelve yea, and I went to go

0:30:09.840 --> 0:30:13.200
<v Speaker 5>visit and the baby started crying and I was like,

0:30:13.240 --> 0:30:14.240
<v Speaker 5>oh my god, like what do I do?

0:30:14.280 --> 0:30:16.280
<v Speaker 2>What do I do? And I was like okay, and

0:30:16.320 --> 0:30:18.080
<v Speaker 2>then he would be quiet, and then I would sit

0:30:18.120 --> 0:30:19.560
<v Speaker 2>back down. He was staring. I'm like, oh my god,

0:30:19.760 --> 0:30:21.960
<v Speaker 2>I could not do this. Yeah, Like I was like

0:30:22.040 --> 0:30:25.720
<v Speaker 2>just kidding, yeah, like a baby. Yeah, girl, she gets real.

0:30:25.880 --> 0:30:27.920
<v Speaker 2>I know it looks so cute. And then you're like,

0:30:27.960 --> 0:30:30.880
<v Speaker 2>what the fuck? I think? Like I've been living this

0:30:30.920 --> 0:30:35.040
<v Speaker 2>independent AsSalt and is twelve. He can make his own food, literally,

0:30:35.160 --> 0:30:37.920
<v Speaker 2>like I'm running. He's about to two years, he'll be

0:30:37.920 --> 0:30:40.960
<v Speaker 2>getting this permit, like you know, my freedom. I feel

0:30:40.960 --> 0:30:43.440
<v Speaker 2>like it's like the white light is almost right there.

0:30:43.680 --> 0:30:46.640
<v Speaker 2>I can almost taste it, and then you get pulled back. Yeah,

0:30:46.880 --> 0:30:50.560
<v Speaker 2>like recently, well, I mean I think obviously hopefully you're

0:30:50.760 --> 0:30:53.760
<v Speaker 2>you know you have a partner that wants to help you. Yeah, right,

0:30:53.840 --> 0:31:00.200
<v Speaker 2>hopefully it works out right, you know, have help, but.

0:31:00.360 --> 0:31:01.560
<v Speaker 7>I do Yeah, I don't know.

0:31:01.640 --> 0:31:04.360
<v Speaker 2>I feel like once, well, I can't say when I'm

0:31:04.400 --> 0:31:07.360
<v Speaker 2>ready because you find that it's hard to date, like

0:31:07.520 --> 0:31:09.760
<v Speaker 2>if when guys find out like because you know, we

0:31:09.880 --> 0:31:12.680
<v Speaker 2>live in the age of social media. I think it's

0:31:12.680 --> 0:31:15.760
<v Speaker 2>a lame. I like want to date you because you

0:31:16.040 --> 0:31:19.200
<v Speaker 2>can help them with a social like can you post me?

0:31:19.720 --> 0:31:23.000
<v Speaker 2>Can you post my brand? Like I have a new

0:31:23.240 --> 0:31:24.240
<v Speaker 2>like mixtape dropping.

0:31:24.960 --> 0:31:25.480
<v Speaker 7>That's great.

0:31:25.520 --> 0:31:26.840
<v Speaker 2>I mean that's never happened. To give it to me

0:31:26.960 --> 0:31:30.120
<v Speaker 2>and I'll drop it. But like, do you find have

0:31:30.200 --> 0:31:31.120
<v Speaker 2>you ever encountered that?

0:31:31.240 --> 0:31:36.040
<v Speaker 5>Like, yeah, I actually just recently met this guy and

0:31:36.960 --> 0:31:40.880
<v Speaker 5>he was you know, very you know, fascinated by just

0:31:40.920 --> 0:31:45.040
<v Speaker 5>my parents. And then you know, the first thing, you know,

0:31:45.080 --> 0:31:47.240
<v Speaker 5>obviously he asked for my number, and then he was like,

0:31:47.400 --> 0:31:52.040
<v Speaker 5>what's your Instagram? And I was just like, okay, like

0:31:52.280 --> 0:31:53.680
<v Speaker 5>is that like what we do now?

0:31:53.840 --> 0:31:56.760
<v Speaker 7>Yeah, it is in my mind, you know, And.

0:31:56.720 --> 0:31:58.360
<v Speaker 5>Then I was like okay, so I gave it to him.

0:31:58.400 --> 0:32:01.360
<v Speaker 5>It's like, oh, you're famous, and I was like no,

0:32:02.200 --> 0:32:04.040
<v Speaker 5>it's like I'm not. He goes, no, you are, and

0:32:04.080 --> 0:32:05.959
<v Speaker 5>I was like, okay, it's not going to go anywhere,

0:32:06.040 --> 0:32:09.440
<v Speaker 5>so I don't know, let it go. And then obviously

0:32:09.440 --> 0:32:11.400
<v Speaker 5>he probably just like went through my page and saw

0:32:11.440 --> 0:32:16.280
<v Speaker 5>that I had my son and it kind of got

0:32:16.280 --> 0:32:20.680
<v Speaker 5>weird after that. And then he like called me randomly

0:32:21.080 --> 0:32:23.640
<v Speaker 5>on like a Sunday and he was like hey, like

0:32:23.680 --> 0:32:25.800
<v Speaker 5>what are you doing. It's like, how's your Sunday? And

0:32:25.800 --> 0:32:27.480
<v Speaker 5>I was like it's going good. I just got home

0:32:27.480 --> 0:32:31.840
<v Speaker 5>from my son's baseball game, you know, and he was like,

0:32:31.920 --> 0:32:34.680
<v Speaker 5>oh cool. He was like, so listen, Like I wanted

0:32:34.680 --> 0:32:37.480
<v Speaker 5>to see if I can take you to dinner so

0:32:37.520 --> 0:32:39.920
<v Speaker 5>we can talk about like some social media stuff and

0:32:39.960 --> 0:32:40.960
<v Speaker 5>like how you got And.

0:32:40.920 --> 0:32:43.680
<v Speaker 2>I was like what, I was like cool, Like so

0:32:43.800 --> 0:32:45.239
<v Speaker 2>he never even wanted to go on a real date

0:32:45.280 --> 0:32:48.080
<v Speaker 2>with you. He just wanted to talk about social media stuff. Dude,

0:32:48.120 --> 0:32:50.560
<v Speaker 2>do you do makeup? Like yeah?

0:32:50.600 --> 0:32:52.840
<v Speaker 5>And to me, he said, I just want to pick

0:32:52.880 --> 0:32:55.000
<v Speaker 5>your brain on how like you got started and like

0:32:55.080 --> 0:32:55.800
<v Speaker 5>and I was like, well.

0:32:55.720 --> 0:33:04.800
<v Speaker 2>I don't do interviews. Where's my cash? Yeah? Yeah, that's it.

0:33:05.480 --> 0:33:06.440
<v Speaker 2>Oh my god.

0:33:06.680 --> 0:33:09.480
<v Speaker 5>So after that, like I unfollowed him and I blocked

0:33:09.560 --> 0:33:11.320
<v Speaker 5>him on my phone because I'm just like, I don't

0:33:11.480 --> 0:33:15.080
<v Speaker 5>have to really like you're good looking, you look like

0:33:15.120 --> 0:33:17.440
<v Speaker 5>you have money, and I don't really care about that.

0:33:17.560 --> 0:33:22.320
<v Speaker 5>But like, no, like that was such a huge turn off,

0:33:22.880 --> 0:33:24.239
<v Speaker 5>such a huge turn off for me.

0:33:24.640 --> 0:33:26.840
<v Speaker 2>I was, I was just like, damn, he's just my

0:33:26.960 --> 0:33:37.800
<v Speaker 2>t what is your time? Good looking, big, deep, large penis,

0:33:37.840 --> 0:33:48.720
<v Speaker 2>well wealthy, tall, dark, you like them, talk like ses mouth, okay,

0:33:50.160 --> 0:33:54.320
<v Speaker 2>well hardly bearded film not true, It's true, you like

0:33:54.320 --> 0:33:58.280
<v Speaker 2>like not only but she has a thing she has

0:33:58.360 --> 0:34:00.280
<v Speaker 2>like you know, everyone has like their little thing that

0:34:00.360 --> 0:34:05.280
<v Speaker 2>maybe like they are immediately initially attracted to attractive black men,

0:34:05.440 --> 0:34:11.960
<v Speaker 2>to black men always my son's dad and you're and

0:34:12.000 --> 0:34:13.880
<v Speaker 2>you're Guatemalan, Im Guatemalan.

0:34:13.960 --> 0:34:14.160
<v Speaker 4>Yeah.

0:34:14.280 --> 0:34:18.120
<v Speaker 5>So well the boyfriend that he saw me with was black,

0:34:18.960 --> 0:34:20.640
<v Speaker 5>and I'm.

0:34:20.480 --> 0:34:21.120
<v Speaker 2>Sure he knew.

0:34:21.480 --> 0:34:24.759
<v Speaker 6>But so since you, baby, I had most most of

0:34:24.760 --> 0:34:26.080
<v Speaker 6>the guys you dated been black.

0:34:26.800 --> 0:34:27.600
<v Speaker 2>Most of them.

0:34:27.680 --> 0:34:30.200
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, there was one that was also Mexican, but he

0:34:30.520 --> 0:34:36.600
<v Speaker 5>was he converted to Muslim, and like, I don't.

0:34:36.440 --> 0:34:38.840
<v Speaker 7>Know what he sounds. He sounded like on the phone,

0:34:39.080 --> 0:34:39.880
<v Speaker 7>he sounded black.

0:34:40.760 --> 0:34:42.880
<v Speaker 6>I woant to suit with Mexican converged to Muslim, it

0:34:42.920 --> 0:34:44.040
<v Speaker 6>looks sounds like you might have a beer.

0:34:47.080 --> 0:34:50.759
<v Speaker 2>You do not want a Muslim. I've already loved with

0:34:50.760 --> 0:34:53.040
<v Speaker 2>a Muslim, and I won't convert it as a huge

0:34:53.040 --> 0:34:55.400
<v Speaker 2>conflict in my life. I don't need to know that.

0:34:55.480 --> 0:34:57.040
<v Speaker 2>I'm just I just wanted to see. I just don't

0:34:57.040 --> 0:34:59.760
<v Speaker 2>think I would ever be able to date another Muslim.

0:34:59.840 --> 0:35:02.799
<v Speaker 6>No, No, it's so much extreme. It's such bullshit. I mean,

0:35:02.840 --> 0:35:04.640
<v Speaker 6>not bullshit if you're Muslim. I'm just saying, like, I

0:35:04.680 --> 0:35:06.000
<v Speaker 6>know a lot of fake ass Muslims.

0:35:06.239 --> 0:35:11.040
<v Speaker 7>Like it was from Oakland. I think I don't even remember.

0:35:11.040 --> 0:35:13.040
<v Speaker 2>I like try to erase that part of my life

0:35:13.080 --> 0:35:14.200
<v Speaker 2>because it went, how.

0:35:14.160 --> 0:35:16.000
<v Speaker 6>Would your your mom feel if you brought like you

0:35:16.200 --> 0:35:17.839
<v Speaker 6>really seriously married a black guy?

0:35:18.000 --> 0:35:19.120
<v Speaker 2>Oh, she would be happy.

0:35:19.400 --> 0:35:21.680
<v Speaker 5>My dad, on the other hand, now I don't like

0:35:21.760 --> 0:35:26.000
<v Speaker 5>my dad's not I know everyone probably says my dad's

0:35:26.000 --> 0:35:27.600
<v Speaker 5>not racist, but like he.

0:35:27.719 --> 0:35:31.000
<v Speaker 2>Just culturally though, it's a thing. It's a thing.

0:35:31.080 --> 0:35:33.920
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, So I mean you'll have a conversation with anyone

0:35:34.120 --> 0:35:37.279
<v Speaker 5>with a wall. But like he told me once, he

0:35:37.320 --> 0:35:39.399
<v Speaker 5>was like, if you ever come home, I don't know why.

0:35:39.480 --> 0:35:41.520
<v Speaker 7>I was like, did I ever give out that black

0:35:41.760 --> 0:35:42.360
<v Speaker 7>my dad that I like?

0:35:42.760 --> 0:35:46.799
<v Speaker 2>Definitely girl, No, you know, it's funny because I never

0:35:46.920 --> 0:35:50.840
<v Speaker 2>used to wear hoops ever. But so he told me that,

0:35:50.880 --> 0:35:52.440
<v Speaker 2>he was like, if you ever date.

0:35:52.320 --> 0:35:54.600
<v Speaker 7>A black man, I don't ever want to hear from

0:35:54.640 --> 0:35:55.080
<v Speaker 7>you again.

0:35:55.400 --> 0:36:01.640
<v Speaker 2>Wow, that was young. That's extreme. Yeah, why do I

0:36:01.640 --> 0:36:03.680
<v Speaker 2>think that is? Like why do you think that is?

0:36:03.719 --> 0:36:06.600
<v Speaker 2>Because I mean, I think even in the black community

0:36:06.680 --> 0:36:08.840
<v Speaker 2>there's some of that too, like especially with white people,

0:36:08.880 --> 0:36:10.799
<v Speaker 2>like you're like a black mom will for sure be

0:36:10.800 --> 0:36:13.200
<v Speaker 2>like don't bring a white girl home, whereas a black

0:36:13.280 --> 0:36:16.600
<v Speaker 2>dad might be like not ever son or I don't know.

0:36:16.600 --> 0:36:19.360
<v Speaker 2>I think it's it depends. It varies from household to household,

0:36:19.400 --> 0:36:20.840
<v Speaker 2>but it is a thing. But I know, for like

0:36:20.920 --> 0:36:24.440
<v Speaker 2>definitely in the Latin community, like they want you to

0:36:24.440 --> 0:36:28.560
<v Speaker 2>marry another lat like another Latino or Latino or white

0:36:28.680 --> 0:36:30.520
<v Speaker 2>and never black. But you know what, yeah, because I.

0:36:30.600 --> 0:36:32.600
<v Speaker 6>Know other Latino friends, same thing, and like I could

0:36:32.640 --> 0:36:34.839
<v Speaker 6>I could marry when I'm my friend, I'm thinking about

0:36:34.840 --> 0:36:35.880
<v Speaker 6>particularly did marry whit guy.

0:36:35.880 --> 0:36:38.160
<v Speaker 2>But I remember in high school she's telling me like, no,

0:36:38.480 --> 0:36:40.600
<v Speaker 2>well that is I mean, it's that's so deep because

0:36:40.600 --> 0:36:44.560
<v Speaker 2>it just shows you, like it's like how like the

0:36:44.600 --> 0:36:47.200
<v Speaker 2>black man, the color even just the color black. It's

0:36:47.280 --> 0:36:50.960
<v Speaker 2>it's the fear. It's dark, it's bad, you know, and

0:36:51.000 --> 0:36:55.560
<v Speaker 2>it's influenced. It's like a universal and I love it much.

0:36:56.160 --> 0:36:58.000
<v Speaker 2>But I just wonder like why, because I mean, that's

0:36:58.120 --> 0:37:01.160
<v Speaker 2>that everyone knows that, like in the community, you don't

0:37:01.200 --> 0:37:04.000
<v Speaker 2>really honestly, I never I never asked everything.

0:37:04.000 --> 0:37:06.640
<v Speaker 5>I was so afraid of like having a conversation with

0:37:06.719 --> 0:37:07.680
<v Speaker 5>him that I was just.

0:37:07.880 --> 0:37:09.759
<v Speaker 2>Like, you never touched back on it. Well, someone tells

0:37:09.800 --> 0:37:11.040
<v Speaker 2>you I'm not going to fuck with you after that,

0:37:11.080 --> 0:37:15.000
<v Speaker 2>you don't forget that, I'm not, so so what would

0:37:15.000 --> 0:37:16.799
<v Speaker 2>you do? Like what if you did have to? My

0:37:16.880 --> 0:37:19.799
<v Speaker 2>dad has to accept whoever at this point, Like.

0:37:22.120 --> 0:37:24.640
<v Speaker 5>I'm not going to not be with someone just because,

0:37:24.719 --> 0:37:26.160
<v Speaker 5>But is that a conversation.

0:37:25.760 --> 0:37:29.920
<v Speaker 2>You would have with him before he met whoever you're

0:37:30.000 --> 0:37:32.640
<v Speaker 2>dating and I don't respect And how do you have

0:37:32.680 --> 0:37:35.719
<v Speaker 2>that conversation with the person you're dating? Like do you

0:37:35.880 --> 0:37:38.440
<v Speaker 2>just not even have it and just hope your dad behaves.

0:37:39.000 --> 0:37:41.080
<v Speaker 2>I think I would to have that conversation with my

0:37:41.160 --> 0:37:42.720
<v Speaker 2>dad first and see his reaction.

0:37:44.960 --> 0:37:49.760
<v Speaker 6>Maybe he didn't know last morning about you know, not having.

0:37:49.760 --> 0:37:51.480
<v Speaker 2>I think also as a black man, though you know

0:37:51.560 --> 0:37:53.359
<v Speaker 2>that you already know that though you know it might

0:37:53.400 --> 0:37:55.840
<v Speaker 2>be an issue. I think, so we're not like they know,

0:37:56.200 --> 0:37:58.319
<v Speaker 2>just like we just asked. You have to know.

0:37:58.400 --> 0:38:02.120
<v Speaker 6>I mean, it's a it's a universal and I specifically asked,

0:38:02.200 --> 0:38:04.279
<v Speaker 6>especially like an I like a lot of black men.

0:38:04.280 --> 0:38:06.040
<v Speaker 6>I know a lot of friends who like don't fuck

0:38:06.120 --> 0:38:09.000
<v Speaker 6>with like who only fuck with girls outside of their vice.

0:38:09.040 --> 0:38:11.399
<v Speaker 2>I always ask them, like, how does her family take

0:38:11.440 --> 0:38:13.200
<v Speaker 2>to you? How do you feel about that? Doesn't that

0:38:13.320 --> 0:38:15.960
<v Speaker 2>matter because black men love women.

0:38:16.640 --> 0:38:18.960
<v Speaker 5>Well, it's so funny because I think, did I tell

0:38:18.960 --> 0:38:20.960
<v Speaker 5>you this story about my mom?

0:38:21.000 --> 0:38:21.080
<v Speaker 2>So?

0:38:21.160 --> 0:38:24.640
<v Speaker 5>I had this guy that like I've talked to for years,

0:38:25.440 --> 0:38:28.560
<v Speaker 5>and he came to see me and.

0:38:29.120 --> 0:38:31.560
<v Speaker 7>I my mom pulled up and we were outside.

0:38:31.600 --> 0:38:32.520
<v Speaker 2>Oh you did tell me this?

0:38:32.840 --> 0:38:37.960
<v Speaker 5>And he's Dominican, and obviously he looks black.

0:38:38.400 --> 0:38:39.760
<v Speaker 2>When I met him, I thought he was black.

0:38:40.280 --> 0:38:43.560
<v Speaker 5>And then she was like so nice to him, and

0:38:43.640 --> 0:38:46.319
<v Speaker 5>like she just wants to see me happy at the

0:38:46.400 --> 0:38:46.879
<v Speaker 5>end of the day.

0:38:46.920 --> 0:38:49.160
<v Speaker 2>And she's like, I don't care what color he is, as.

0:38:49.080 --> 0:38:52.040
<v Speaker 7>Long as he's making you happy. But you know, it

0:38:52.080 --> 0:38:52.399
<v Speaker 7>was just.

0:38:52.360 --> 0:38:57.840
<v Speaker 2>Like and then he busts out that Spanish. Yeah he

0:38:58.000 --> 0:39:03.120
<v Speaker 2>was oh, even better, even better, And.

0:39:03.080 --> 0:39:04.680
<v Speaker 5>I was like then I couldn't shut the lady up,

0:39:04.719 --> 0:39:06.000
<v Speaker 5>and I was like, lady, aren't you cold?

0:39:06.000 --> 0:39:08.840
<v Speaker 2>It's cold outside and it'll get us better. That's funny.

0:39:09.600 --> 0:39:12.560
<v Speaker 2>But I mean, shit, my mom's Latina and my dad's black,

0:39:12.640 --> 0:39:14.919
<v Speaker 2>and I'm that was It wasn't a thing, but it's

0:39:15.160 --> 0:39:17.520
<v Speaker 2>a thing I had. I asked you that before, and

0:39:17.560 --> 0:39:19.799
<v Speaker 2>then I asked you that. Oh, so it was a

0:39:19.840 --> 0:39:24.000
<v Speaker 2>thing with your mom. I mean, well, my grandfather was

0:39:24.040 --> 0:39:28.160
<v Speaker 2>white or Portuguese and Irish. She lived his life past

0:39:28.200 --> 0:39:30.919
<v Speaker 2>her as a white man and living as a white man.

0:39:31.680 --> 0:39:36.960
<v Speaker 2>And then my grandma is Mexican fully so, but she's

0:39:37.040 --> 0:39:44.160
<v Speaker 2>first twelve. Yeah, she's first generation American. So she grew

0:39:44.200 --> 0:39:47.359
<v Speaker 2>up in Colorado, so she was in like a farming town.

0:39:47.560 --> 0:39:50.560
<v Speaker 2>She was amongst a lot of like Mexican people, but

0:39:50.600 --> 0:39:52.920
<v Speaker 2>also amongst a lot of white people as well, so

0:39:52.960 --> 0:39:55.919
<v Speaker 2>she was a little more like not black people though,

0:39:56.360 --> 0:39:59.759
<v Speaker 2>And like, I don't know, I think it's when I

0:39:59.840 --> 0:40:02.600
<v Speaker 2>he my grandma talk about black people shouldn't say anything negative,

0:40:02.600 --> 0:40:04.279
<v Speaker 2>but she'd be like, oh the black guy, yeah, that

0:40:04.320 --> 0:40:07.920
<v Speaker 2>black guy. Like you feel the tone chain, yeah, yeah,

0:40:08.160 --> 0:40:10.279
<v Speaker 2>kind of there is. It's like this, it's a tone

0:40:10.640 --> 0:40:14.520
<v Speaker 2>like she'll never say she, she'll never say she. I

0:40:14.520 --> 0:40:16.640
<v Speaker 2>don't think she cared. I don't think I don't. Actually

0:40:16.680 --> 0:40:19.919
<v Speaker 2>I know she didn't. Doesn't really care if my mom

0:40:20.040 --> 0:40:22.720
<v Speaker 2>was with a Latin man at all. Actually, my family,

0:40:22.760 --> 0:40:26.000
<v Speaker 2>I feel like my Mexican side of my family try

0:40:26.040 --> 0:40:28.960
<v Speaker 2>to assimilate, you know, like they tried. They never went

0:40:29.000 --> 0:40:32.040
<v Speaker 2>back to Mexico. They tried to just wear Americans. Now,

0:40:32.440 --> 0:40:34.120
<v Speaker 2>you know, my grandma doesn't like to be in the sun.

0:40:34.600 --> 0:40:36.959
<v Speaker 2>She doesn't wanted to get dark because she can really

0:40:36.920 --> 0:40:38.960
<v Speaker 2>because I say, if I just saw your grandma, I mean,

0:40:38.960 --> 0:40:41.320
<v Speaker 2>I mean, it's obvious she's I mean it she to go.

0:40:41.600 --> 0:40:43.279
<v Speaker 2>It can go either way, like well not white, but

0:40:43.360 --> 0:40:45.759
<v Speaker 2>you know she's something, but she's doesn't necessarily look what

0:40:45.800 --> 0:40:46.759
<v Speaker 2>you think Mexican may be.

0:40:47.160 --> 0:40:50.720
<v Speaker 5>Like I don't feel like I get that I'm I'm

0:40:50.760 --> 0:40:54.719
<v Speaker 5>not Mexican or I never get Guatemala. Ever, they can

0:40:54.760 --> 0:40:58.560
<v Speaker 5>never figure out what I am. I'm like, I'm Latina, but.

0:40:58.600 --> 0:41:02.200
<v Speaker 2>I don't know, Like it's not it's it's it's it's

0:41:02.200 --> 0:41:04.720
<v Speaker 2>a thing. The black thing is a thing, even.

0:41:04.600 --> 0:41:07.839
<v Speaker 6>If it's not, even if it's unspoken, you know, it's

0:41:07.840 --> 0:41:10.560
<v Speaker 6>a thing, even if it's unspoken. That's interesting because I

0:41:10.600 --> 0:41:14.080
<v Speaker 6>wonder if she's just like even saying, but now but

0:41:14.160 --> 0:41:14.759
<v Speaker 6>now she.

0:41:14.760 --> 0:41:18.680
<v Speaker 2>Has black she has two black grandchildren. Her daughter has

0:41:18.719 --> 0:41:22.200
<v Speaker 2>been had children with two black men, Like it's her

0:41:22.280 --> 0:41:24.759
<v Speaker 2>part of her life now, you know, whereas I feel

0:41:24.760 --> 0:41:26.279
<v Speaker 2>like had she dated a white she would have been

0:41:26.280 --> 0:41:28.279
<v Speaker 2>totally there would have been a conversation about dating a

0:41:28.280 --> 0:41:30.960
<v Speaker 2>white guy. It's totally fine. You know. Did you think

0:41:31.000 --> 0:41:33.200
<v Speaker 2>your grandmother ever had a conversation with your mom? I

0:41:33.239 --> 0:41:36.360
<v Speaker 2>don't know, Maybe should ask her. I don't know, just

0:41:37.600 --> 0:41:38.279
<v Speaker 2>I don't know.

0:41:38.440 --> 0:41:42.560
<v Speaker 5>Well, I have family in Houston and they're all married

0:41:42.560 --> 0:41:45.399
<v Speaker 5>to white men. And I remember, I don't know what

0:41:45.440 --> 0:41:50.680
<v Speaker 5>we were talking about, and I like said I was

0:41:50.840 --> 0:41:52.279
<v Speaker 5>talking to her and I was like, oh, yeah, like

0:41:52.320 --> 0:41:53.759
<v Speaker 5>if you come to my wedding, it's going to be

0:41:53.920 --> 0:41:55.399
<v Speaker 5>you know, because I'm going to marry a black guy.

0:41:55.840 --> 0:42:00.839
<v Speaker 5>And she was like all black men cheat about all

0:42:01.440 --> 0:42:04.239
<v Speaker 5>And then I said to her, I was like all

0:42:04.320 --> 0:42:06.920
<v Speaker 5>men shei and she was like, no, but I've heard

0:42:07.520 --> 0:42:12.240
<v Speaker 5>about more like homes coming from like black people because

0:42:13.360 --> 0:42:14.480
<v Speaker 5>the man cheats.

0:42:14.760 --> 0:42:16.360
<v Speaker 2>And I said, yeah, because.

0:42:18.040 --> 0:42:21.960
<v Speaker 5>Dumbasses stay with like you know, white men, they beat

0:42:22.000 --> 0:42:25.160
<v Speaker 5>their wives like, oh people, yeah, you.

0:42:25.080 --> 0:42:29.560
<v Speaker 2>Know, like it's so many different how people like hear

0:42:29.719 --> 0:42:32.080
<v Speaker 2>something and then it's like becomes like, oh, that's what

0:42:32.120 --> 0:42:35.680
<v Speaker 2>it is without any experience. Oh no, I've heard like

0:42:36.040 --> 0:42:37.520
<v Speaker 2>her husand's probably cheating on her right now.

0:42:38.040 --> 0:42:40.080
<v Speaker 5>Like and then my an she was like, oh no,

0:42:40.120 --> 0:42:43.880
<v Speaker 5>you would suck up your life if you like marry

0:42:43.920 --> 0:42:47.280
<v Speaker 5>a black man. When you say why, at that point,

0:42:47.440 --> 0:42:48.560
<v Speaker 5>I just don't want to hear it.

0:42:48.719 --> 0:42:50.000
<v Speaker 7>You're just not going to be invited to.

0:42:49.920 --> 0:42:52.400
<v Speaker 2>My wife my wedding. It's so interesting, you know, Like

0:42:52.600 --> 0:42:56.160
<v Speaker 2>I just don't want to deal with that. I don't.

0:42:57.280 --> 0:42:57.880
<v Speaker 6>My life.

0:42:58.520 --> 0:43:01.480
<v Speaker 2>Let it be. Fuck. You might have some really cute kids,

0:43:01.480 --> 0:43:04.640
<v Speaker 2>but your life is going to be I know.

0:43:04.680 --> 0:43:06.600
<v Speaker 6>And then in the future, like you wanted you want

0:43:06.600 --> 0:43:09.359
<v Speaker 6>to disregard like ignorant comments and dumb ship and you're

0:43:09.360 --> 0:43:10.960
<v Speaker 6>like you want to like bring your kids around in

0:43:10.960 --> 0:43:13.239
<v Speaker 6>the future, but like you can never hear that ship, Like.

0:43:13.200 --> 0:43:17.360
<v Speaker 2>I'm leaving little Jimmy with you. Yeah, you know, little Jimmy,

0:43:17.520 --> 0:43:20.520
<v Speaker 2>who knows what she's gonna be talking about. So dating,

0:43:21.080 --> 0:43:25.359
<v Speaker 2>So dating in general, like do you use apps? Are

0:43:25.400 --> 0:43:28.560
<v Speaker 2>you an Apple? Have you used apps? I have? Yeah?

0:43:28.560 --> 0:43:31.800
<v Speaker 5>In the past. I won't. It's been a few years.

0:43:31.840 --> 0:43:34.000
<v Speaker 5>I actually have used it when I'm traveling.

0:43:34.000 --> 0:43:36.200
<v Speaker 2>Did you use match dot com like Anthony suggestions?

0:43:38.440 --> 0:43:40.200
<v Speaker 7>The first app that I ever used was tender.

0:43:42.000 --> 0:43:45.040
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, the beginner beginner dating it. Sorry, I got catfished?

0:43:45.239 --> 0:43:49.160
<v Speaker 2>You got catfished? What happened? Just you know, like many

0:43:49.160 --> 0:43:51.960
<v Speaker 2>times or one specifically? Then I ended up being in

0:43:52.000 --> 0:43:56.160
<v Speaker 2>a relationship with the catfish. What's never heard a story

0:43:56.280 --> 0:43:56.560
<v Speaker 2>like this?

0:43:58.239 --> 0:43:58.359
<v Speaker 5>Right?

0:43:58.360 --> 0:44:00.439
<v Speaker 2>Okay, I don't even know what this means, but.

0:44:00.440 --> 0:44:02.160
<v Speaker 7>No, because then it went really wrong.

0:44:02.840 --> 0:44:05.120
<v Speaker 2>Okay, so what catfish in the sense that when you

0:44:05.200 --> 0:44:08.520
<v Speaker 2>pulled up he didn't look like the photo or catfish like,

0:44:08.719 --> 0:44:09.839
<v Speaker 2>he wasn't who So.

0:44:11.680 --> 0:44:16.239
<v Speaker 5>Okay, So I downloaded that and then I matched with

0:44:16.280 --> 0:44:17.759
<v Speaker 5>a few people, and I like talked to a few

0:44:17.760 --> 0:44:20.520
<v Speaker 5>people first, and then there was this particular guy who

0:44:20.560 --> 0:44:24.120
<v Speaker 5>was like very like well spoken, and I was like intrigued,

0:44:24.120 --> 0:44:28.400
<v Speaker 5>and I was like, okay, he was in a private jet,

0:44:29.360 --> 0:44:31.800
<v Speaker 5>but his face was like this way and it was

0:44:31.880 --> 0:44:35.840
<v Speaker 5>kind of like far away.

0:44:34.280 --> 0:44:37.279
<v Speaker 2>So you can't really see like his face. Oh my god, girl,

0:44:37.320 --> 0:44:40.640
<v Speaker 2>you that's how you unite? Alarming girl, Like that's the

0:44:40.640 --> 0:44:43.319
<v Speaker 2>one like the private jet, right, then they're in front

0:44:43.320 --> 0:44:46.839
<v Speaker 2>of like the car. Yes, oh my god, you are

0:44:46.880 --> 0:44:49.719
<v Speaker 2>a sucker. You are a tender sucker. It was my

0:44:49.920 --> 0:44:53.120
<v Speaker 2>first you know, go right, and then you have to

0:44:53.239 --> 0:44:56.759
<v Speaker 2>like squint at this pod and so see, that's what

0:44:56.800 --> 0:44:59.920
<v Speaker 2>you get for me in shallow. That's what you get shallow.

0:45:01.000 --> 0:45:01.840
<v Speaker 2>When I wasn't.

0:45:02.960 --> 0:45:04.400
<v Speaker 7>They were just douchebags.

0:45:04.600 --> 0:45:08.560
<v Speaker 2>That's true, you know, happy medium, Yeah, and you know,

0:45:08.760 --> 0:45:12.160
<v Speaker 2>give me a break. It was my first time, and

0:45:12.239 --> 0:45:13.120
<v Speaker 2>I was like, okay.

0:45:16.000 --> 0:45:21.680
<v Speaker 5>So we had like great conversation and then he was

0:45:21.960 --> 0:45:24.839
<v Speaker 5>like I remember vividly what he said. He was like,

0:45:24.880 --> 0:45:28.080
<v Speaker 5>I'm deleting. Here's my number, I'm deleting the app. So

0:45:28.120 --> 0:45:30.239
<v Speaker 5>of course I was like, okay.

0:45:30.000 --> 0:45:31.719
<v Speaker 2>What like, you met me and you're deleting it.

0:45:31.840 --> 0:45:34.000
<v Speaker 7>No, we have been speaking for like a few days.

0:45:34.280 --> 0:45:36.680
<v Speaker 2>And then he was like, you're so special. I want

0:45:36.680 --> 0:45:37.440
<v Speaker 2>to make you feel special.

0:45:41.080 --> 0:45:45.359
<v Speaker 6>There's scammers on tender, Like how like my friend met

0:45:45.360 --> 0:45:51.480
<v Speaker 6>some guy, my friend, my forefriend met some tender. He

0:45:51.560 --> 0:45:56.000
<v Speaker 6>said that he was on a remote location in the military.

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<v Speaker 2>Sound I know as soon as she started spit it out,

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<v Speaker 2>doesn't she know that it's like in the area.

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<v Speaker 6>This is my friends At that time, I called you

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<v Speaker 6>were like, is this like seventies And she's like no, yeah,

0:46:08.440 --> 0:46:11.320
<v Speaker 6>oh yeah, okay, And you know, she's like, we was

0:46:11.320 --> 0:46:13.000
<v Speaker 6>supposed to make this week and he's flying here. Was

0:46:13.080 --> 0:46:14.680
<v Speaker 6>talked on the phone and like you're talking phone, but

0:46:14.719 --> 0:46:15.360
<v Speaker 6>you have a FaceTime?

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<v Speaker 2>No he can't.

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<v Speaker 7>Does he not have a kN iPhone?

0:46:19.120 --> 0:46:22.120
<v Speaker 2>He wants to get married. He has all this money anyway.

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<v Speaker 11>Doesn't tender ratchet in location? What do you mean he's

0:46:24.160 --> 0:46:28.000
<v Speaker 11>getting on of pla my location anyway? Like, so the

0:46:28.000 --> 0:46:29.960
<v Speaker 11>next week I was doing, I was like, did you

0:46:30.000 --> 0:46:31.560
<v Speaker 11>meet him? Did you guys at the hotel? He's talking

0:46:31.560 --> 0:46:33.480
<v Speaker 11>about getting married. I was like, anytime you met a

0:46:33.560 --> 0:46:35.920
<v Speaker 11>negga on tender and cycle getting married within weeks?

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<v Speaker 2>This is bad.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, he was supposed to get his way. He contacted

0:46:39.719 --> 0:46:43.320
<v Speaker 6>her from Dubai. He got caught up in Dubai. He

0:46:43.440 --> 0:46:46.200
<v Speaker 6>took all his stuff. He needs her to bail him out.

0:46:47.000 --> 0:46:48.839
<v Speaker 6>Oh my god, it's like those emails like those.

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<v Speaker 2>And then she did it. I don't know, my friend.

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<v Speaker 2>She's an older woman, she's not technologically advanced. She probably

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<v Speaker 2>her husband like five years ago.

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<v Speaker 6>It's like the only husband she's ever only she's ever

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<v Speaker 6>been with for like since she was twenty met as

0:47:06.680 --> 0:47:09.080
<v Speaker 6>a waitress. He had money, he took care of her

0:47:09.200 --> 0:47:12.720
<v Speaker 6>like she has no she had no dating tools.

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<v Speaker 2>Con Oh my god, I hope he didn't. She didn't

0:47:15.239 --> 0:47:15.680
<v Speaker 2>send money.

0:47:15.719 --> 0:47:16.480
<v Speaker 7>I hope there.

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<v Speaker 2>But wait, so so you're going that's damn. I thought

0:47:22.160 --> 0:47:27.759
<v Speaker 2>we'd like I forgot. So we ended up talking like

0:47:27.800 --> 0:47:31.000
<v Speaker 2>I ended up texting him, I think.

0:47:31.520 --> 0:47:39.560
<v Speaker 5>And it just was all champagne and bubbles and it

0:47:39.600 --> 0:47:43.719
<v Speaker 5>was just like great, like yeah, okay, you met him, okay.

0:47:43.760 --> 0:47:44.800
<v Speaker 2>So then I met him.

0:47:44.680 --> 0:47:48.480
<v Speaker 5>Okay, and then I was like, hm, so short okay,

0:47:48.600 --> 0:47:51.840
<v Speaker 5>and then doesn't look like anything that was in that

0:47:51.920 --> 0:47:54.040
<v Speaker 5>picture that we're in those.

0:47:53.840 --> 0:47:56.640
<v Speaker 10>Photos in my mind, I was like walking onto the place,

0:47:56.719 --> 0:47:58.480
<v Speaker 10>I was like, oh no.

0:48:00.200 --> 0:48:02.760
<v Speaker 2>But he was such a gentleman, like he just treated

0:48:02.840 --> 0:48:06.880
<v Speaker 2>me like a queen. So he was not cute. He

0:48:07.000 --> 0:48:11.799
<v Speaker 2>was He's attractive, I think, you think. I mean now

0:48:11.840 --> 0:48:13.919
<v Speaker 2>I look at him now and I just.

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<v Speaker 6>Like, did you address the elephant in the room, Like

0:48:17.360 --> 0:48:21.680
<v Speaker 6>did you ever say you just were? He didn't say, like,

0:48:22.320 --> 0:48:24.880
<v Speaker 6>by the way, I'm just re looking at your profile

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<v Speaker 6>and which one of these are.

0:48:26.120 --> 0:48:29.640
<v Speaker 2>Because he deleted the thing so that I couldn't. Did

0:48:29.640 --> 0:48:32.600
<v Speaker 2>he think that you're gonna forget you always had a screen,

0:48:33.960 --> 0:48:37.400
<v Speaker 2>It doesn't it notify them? I don't know.

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<v Speaker 5>Well no, okay, so then after actually, let's take a

0:48:44.800 --> 0:48:46.239
<v Speaker 5>step back, he actually sent me.

0:48:46.200 --> 0:48:50.600
<v Speaker 7>Photos of him, like I was like, and.

0:48:50.520 --> 0:48:53.360
<v Speaker 5>Then the name was different of his actual name was

0:48:53.400 --> 0:48:55.799
<v Speaker 5>different than what he had on the app.

0:48:55.840 --> 0:48:58.279
<v Speaker 2>That's what I should have known. So the pictures that

0:48:58.320 --> 0:49:01.440
<v Speaker 2>he sent you were that was the actually had him. Yeah,

0:49:01.760 --> 0:49:04.160
<v Speaker 2>but when I texted him, I texted him the.

0:49:04.200 --> 0:49:08.080
<v Speaker 5>Name of that he had on the app, and then

0:49:08.480 --> 0:49:10.320
<v Speaker 5>he was like, oh, my name is actually David.

0:49:11.080 --> 0:49:16.440
<v Speaker 2>Maybe he's I don't know, like maybe he was embarrassed

0:49:16.480 --> 0:49:18.239
<v Speaker 2>to be on the app, so he made a different name.

0:49:18.840 --> 0:49:21.440
<v Speaker 2>Happened in the long term, Yeah, so what ended up happening?

0:49:21.480 --> 0:49:23.800
<v Speaker 2>He ended up he was so gentleman like he didn't

0:49:23.800 --> 0:49:27.120
<v Speaker 2>have a jet.

0:49:24.440 --> 0:49:31.239
<v Speaker 12>He didn't have a jet, okay, mos importantly above all,

0:49:34.600 --> 0:49:35.080
<v Speaker 12>it just.

0:49:35.280 --> 0:49:40.920
<v Speaker 2>You know, it was just very manipulative and like verbally abusive,

0:49:41.280 --> 0:49:43.800
<v Speaker 2>like you know, you guys like started dating.

0:49:44.280 --> 0:49:47.759
<v Speaker 5>Yeah we were together, but I never posted him or

0:49:47.800 --> 0:49:48.719
<v Speaker 5>anything like how long.

0:49:48.600 --> 0:49:49.279
<v Speaker 2>Did you guys date?

0:49:49.760 --> 0:49:51.200
<v Speaker 7>For a few months.

0:49:52.800 --> 0:49:55.840
<v Speaker 5>And then I was just like, I can't I can't

0:49:55.840 --> 0:49:58.200
<v Speaker 5>do this because he was going.

0:49:58.000 --> 0:49:58.560
<v Speaker 2>Through a lot.

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<v Speaker 5>Just let's just say that. And like I was there

0:50:02.280 --> 0:50:04.080
<v Speaker 5>for him because that's just who I am. I was

0:50:04.160 --> 0:50:05.600
<v Speaker 5>just like, let me just be there for you.

0:50:05.840 --> 0:50:10.400
<v Speaker 2>And I just couldn't. I couldn't take it anymore. I'm like,

0:50:10.400 --> 0:50:14.120
<v Speaker 2>you can't like call me a whore and a bitch because.

0:50:13.920 --> 0:50:14.680
<v Speaker 7>I'm not answering.

0:50:14.960 --> 0:50:18.160
<v Speaker 2>Oh no, hell no, No. That's the kind of guy

0:50:18.200 --> 0:50:20.719
<v Speaker 2>that like will send your news to people or something

0:50:20.960 --> 0:50:22.080
<v Speaker 2>like this.

0:50:22.360 --> 0:50:24.640
<v Speaker 6>Any sign of that you get cut the fuck off

0:50:24.719 --> 0:50:27.120
<v Speaker 6>yet start acting psycho boom boom boom.

0:50:27.280 --> 0:50:29.279
<v Speaker 5>But see at the time, because I was like so

0:50:29.400 --> 0:50:31.719
<v Speaker 5>infatuated with how he treated me, well, that's how I.

0:50:35.040 --> 0:50:35.600
<v Speaker 2>Cook for me.

0:50:35.960 --> 0:50:38.280
<v Speaker 5>He would like, would never let me pay for anything,

0:50:40.120 --> 0:50:41.839
<v Speaker 5>was just like all about me and.

0:50:41.880 --> 0:50:46.320
<v Speaker 2>Like so respectful and like you know, like completely winning.

0:50:46.400 --> 0:50:50.200
<v Speaker 7>Oh my god, when that was percent, it was crazy.

0:50:50.480 --> 0:50:52.840
<v Speaker 5>So it took me like a whole year to like

0:50:53.440 --> 0:50:55.840
<v Speaker 5>be okay with not being with him because I was,

0:50:55.840 --> 0:50:58.040
<v Speaker 5>like I can say I was like in love with

0:50:58.120 --> 0:51:01.680
<v Speaker 5>him or the idea of who was Yeah, and then

0:51:01.680 --> 0:51:03.440
<v Speaker 5>when I started seeing his true colors and I was like,

0:51:03.560 --> 0:51:05.320
<v Speaker 5>oh my god, I need.

0:51:05.160 --> 0:51:07.480
<v Speaker 2>To get out, and I did, and I like, just,

0:51:08.600 --> 0:51:11.719
<v Speaker 2>I like, don't so because of that? Are you not?

0:51:12.120 --> 0:51:13.560
<v Speaker 2>Have you been on a dating app since then? No?

0:51:15.800 --> 0:51:19.960
<v Speaker 5>Not doing it And I've actually I have. I tried Rya,

0:51:21.040 --> 0:51:23.479
<v Speaker 5>but like it's I.

0:51:23.560 --> 0:51:27.719
<v Speaker 2>Is so Caucasian. I went on there Caucasian. I don't

0:51:27.719 --> 0:51:29.200
<v Speaker 2>have a phone right now because I dropped in the

0:51:29.239 --> 0:51:32.680
<v Speaker 2>pool two days ago. But I went back on Rya

0:51:32.760 --> 0:51:36.520
<v Speaker 2>recently just to take a gander see if there's something new. Girl,

0:51:36.640 --> 0:51:39.120
<v Speaker 2>I was like, why is it the same people? Like

0:51:39.160 --> 0:51:41.719
<v Speaker 2>I literally saw the same guys I saw like six

0:51:41.760 --> 0:51:42.200
<v Speaker 2>months ago.

0:51:42.280 --> 0:51:44.160
<v Speaker 6>Yes, Ryot is racist, I know.

0:51:44.280 --> 0:51:46.359
<v Speaker 2>It's just like literally they don't have enough people on there.

0:51:47.080 --> 0:51:50.280
<v Speaker 5>Let people you like swipe once and they're like, please

0:51:50.280 --> 0:51:51.760
<v Speaker 5>hold right, you've.

0:51:51.560 --> 0:51:54.160
<v Speaker 2>Been swiping too eagerly. Yeah, Like we're trying to cultivate

0:51:54.200 --> 0:51:56.560
<v Speaker 2>real relationships, so we're gonna limit your swipes. I'm like that,

0:51:56.840 --> 0:51:58.760
<v Speaker 2>I'm paying for this. I should go to swipe. However

0:51:58.800 --> 0:52:00.920
<v Speaker 2>the fuck I want to swis being funny about who

0:52:00.920 --> 0:52:02.760
<v Speaker 2>they're letting is. And then any guy I've ever matched

0:52:02.760 --> 0:52:05.359
<v Speaker 2>with on Rya, like we talk and we never meet up. Yeah,

0:52:05.440 --> 0:52:07.600
<v Speaker 2>you never met anyone on Ryan like actually met somebody,

0:52:07.640 --> 0:52:09.960
<v Speaker 2>whereas on Tinder, I've met like multiple people. Have you

0:52:10.040 --> 0:52:13.240
<v Speaker 2>tried it on a hinge? I've recently been on Hinge?

0:52:13.440 --> 0:52:16.880
<v Speaker 2>I did what was the other one? Bumble bumble. I

0:52:16.880 --> 0:52:18.840
<v Speaker 2>don't like bumble because I don't like to talk first.

0:52:19.320 --> 0:52:23.200
<v Speaker 5>See that, like because I just felt that because like

0:52:23.360 --> 0:52:27.200
<v Speaker 5>the situation happened with Tender, I feel more comfortable, like

0:52:27.239 --> 0:52:28.719
<v Speaker 5>if I want to talk to you, I can talk

0:52:28.760 --> 0:52:28.920
<v Speaker 5>to you.

0:52:29.000 --> 0:52:31.319
<v Speaker 2>If not, then I don't need to. So every time

0:52:31.360 --> 0:52:33.920
<v Speaker 2>I go to New York, well not every time, but

0:52:34.600 --> 0:52:38.440
<v Speaker 2>I have traveling using apps is great. Yeah, I mean

0:52:38.480 --> 0:52:40.479
<v Speaker 2>that's that's why I fell in love with Tinder, because

0:52:40.520 --> 0:52:42.640
<v Speaker 2>I only used it when I traveled and I met

0:52:42.719 --> 0:52:44.680
<v Speaker 2>like it felt it always felt like a whirlwind, Like

0:52:44.719 --> 0:52:49.239
<v Speaker 2>it always felt like a when I know here and roman.

0:52:49.360 --> 0:52:52.120
<v Speaker 5>When I don't turn it off, I like open it

0:52:52.360 --> 0:52:54.160
<v Speaker 5>to see if I turned it off, and it'll like

0:52:54.280 --> 0:52:56.040
<v Speaker 5>match me with like my neighbor or something, and I'm

0:52:56.080 --> 0:52:56.880
<v Speaker 5>just like, oh my god, I.

0:52:56.880 --> 0:52:59.560
<v Speaker 2>Need to my neighbor. Yeah, oh yeah, I know. That's

0:52:59.560 --> 0:53:01.439
<v Speaker 2>why don't you won't do it?

0:53:02.239 --> 0:53:04.680
<v Speaker 6>I just I think guys are so dumb to think

0:53:04.719 --> 0:53:06.839
<v Speaker 6>that you're going to go on an app to get

0:53:06.960 --> 0:53:09.440
<v Speaker 6>dick like I could just go on my phone book

0:53:11.960 --> 0:53:14.120
<v Speaker 6>like like like when they're trying to get like straight

0:53:14.160 --> 0:53:16.440
<v Speaker 6>to it, I'm like, dude, this is not it's not happening.

0:53:16.440 --> 0:53:18.560
<v Speaker 2>Well, I mean I went on an app to get

0:53:18.840 --> 0:53:21.560
<v Speaker 2>penis at first. That's why I was on Tinder initially

0:53:21.600 --> 0:53:23.759
<v Speaker 2>because I didn't have any one in my phone internet creep.

0:53:23.840 --> 0:53:26.160
<v Speaker 2>And that's why I promoted Tinder for people that don't

0:53:26.200 --> 0:53:28.360
<v Speaker 2>know how to get their feet wet, because like I like,

0:53:28.360 --> 0:53:30.600
<v Speaker 2>I wasn't. Really I don't know on dates you get

0:53:31.040 --> 0:53:34.000
<v Speaker 2>like I don't. She literally goes to have dinners to eat.

0:53:34.200 --> 0:53:36.200
<v Speaker 2>I love to eat the same, and I.

0:53:36.120 --> 0:53:38.719
<v Speaker 6>Can put up with like anybody's conversation for three meals.

0:53:40.280 --> 0:53:42.200
<v Speaker 2>Speaking of which, how's your how's your? Hinge?

0:53:42.239 --> 0:53:42.399
<v Speaker 6>Guy?

0:53:43.200 --> 0:53:46.120
<v Speaker 2>The only one I wanted to date with. He's actually cool.

0:53:47.760 --> 0:53:51.440
<v Speaker 2>So Jamila met this guy on Hinge and I'm trying

0:53:51.480 --> 0:53:57.880
<v Speaker 2>to think of a name for him, Jay okay Jay,

0:53:58.080 --> 0:54:00.480
<v Speaker 2>and I can't. We can't even call a bay he

0:54:00.520 --> 0:54:04.239
<v Speaker 2>can he No, he can't. Oh I feel bad. I

0:54:04.280 --> 0:54:07.000
<v Speaker 2>hope he did never listen. Oh boy thought of Bay

0:54:07.120 --> 0:54:11.680
<v Speaker 2>yet because it's still working on it. Yeah, Denielle thinks

0:54:11.680 --> 0:54:16.520
<v Speaker 2>he lied about his age what do you think. I

0:54:16.560 --> 0:54:17.879
<v Speaker 2>think I.

0:54:17.800 --> 0:54:19.840
<v Speaker 6>Would hope guys are not lying about their age, but

0:54:19.880 --> 0:54:22.760
<v Speaker 6>I keep hearing that they are, and it's like, I lie.

0:54:23.719 --> 0:54:25.799
<v Speaker 2>I don't know. He said forty two, so it's not

0:54:25.960 --> 0:54:26.960
<v Speaker 2>like he said thirty five.

0:54:27.080 --> 0:54:28.480
<v Speaker 7>Oh wow, so you think he's older.

0:54:28.640 --> 0:54:32.080
<v Speaker 2>That's it. My friend thinks does he look older? You know,

0:54:32.160 --> 0:54:32.719
<v Speaker 2>it's hard to.

0:54:32.680 --> 0:54:35.480
<v Speaker 6>Tell with black men because you know, we've been looking

0:54:36.360 --> 0:54:38.080
<v Speaker 6>thirty five till about seventy.

0:54:38.200 --> 0:54:42.680
<v Speaker 2>Now. I met a guy in New York and he was.

0:54:42.719 --> 0:54:47.040
<v Speaker 5>What, forty three, Not that he lied about it, but

0:54:47.080 --> 0:54:48.399
<v Speaker 5>he didn't look forty three.

0:54:48.520 --> 0:54:50.239
<v Speaker 6>Yeah, Like I don't I just don't want you to lie.

0:54:50.480 --> 0:54:52.680
<v Speaker 6>I think that's like I don't care how old you are.

0:54:52.680 --> 0:54:56.440
<v Speaker 6>I just don't lie. Dinner doesn't have an age.

0:54:57.239 --> 0:55:01.080
<v Speaker 2>Your wallet doesn't have an age. It may have a limit. Fact,

0:55:01.160 --> 0:55:02.000
<v Speaker 2>and the older you.

0:55:01.920 --> 0:55:04.319
<v Speaker 6>Get, I'm helping the limit is getting up because you're older,

0:55:04.360 --> 0:55:05.240
<v Speaker 6>you've been doing this longer.

0:55:05.440 --> 0:55:10.640
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, And that's like my first after my I broke

0:55:10.680 --> 0:55:12.760
<v Speaker 5>it off with, you know that one person.

0:55:12.760 --> 0:55:13.680
<v Speaker 2>I don't even.

0:55:16.320 --> 0:55:18.560
<v Speaker 5>I met this guy in New York and he was like,

0:55:18.640 --> 0:55:23.840
<v Speaker 5>actually staying in the same hotel from that app No, no, no,

0:55:23.960 --> 0:55:26.439
<v Speaker 5>So that I went to New York for for work

0:55:26.480 --> 0:55:29.680
<v Speaker 5>and he was staying in the hotel and like, I

0:55:29.719 --> 0:55:32.359
<v Speaker 5>was like, oh my god, my weakness is black man

0:55:32.560 --> 0:55:35.160
<v Speaker 5>with like a baseball cap and a white.

0:55:34.960 --> 0:55:42.400
<v Speaker 4>Shirt what I like, I don't know, and a white

0:55:42.480 --> 0:55:49.839
<v Speaker 4>shirt waiting that's amazing nice yeah, gray sweatsuit.

0:55:52.560 --> 0:55:57.000
<v Speaker 6>Yeah, and like a super chocolate man in a white

0:55:57.000 --> 0:55:57.839
<v Speaker 6>share it with nice tea.

0:56:00.160 --> 0:56:02.399
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, but the white T shirt and the white teeth

0:56:02.640 --> 0:56:04.759
<v Speaker 2>and the chocolate. So basically, he's going to the all

0:56:04.760 --> 0:56:11.680
<v Speaker 2>white party. He's going to party, Jess. I'm just saying, well,

0:56:11.800 --> 0:56:14.240
<v Speaker 2>and you know, niggas love to wear all white. Can't

0:56:14.320 --> 0:56:16.600
<v Speaker 2>wait for a party where they get to wear all white,

0:56:16.920 --> 0:56:19.080
<v Speaker 2>like you want to all white party, can get a

0:56:19.080 --> 0:56:22.960
<v Speaker 2>fresh teath some new Air Force once and it have

0:56:23.040 --> 0:56:23.440
<v Speaker 2>to be new.

0:56:25.000 --> 0:56:28.480
<v Speaker 5>So yeah, So I met him and I was just like,

0:56:28.600 --> 0:56:31.040
<v Speaker 5>oh my, he had colored eyes, and I was like,

0:56:31.360 --> 0:56:33.719
<v Speaker 5>oh my good lord, what.

0:56:33.680 --> 0:56:34.279
<v Speaker 7>Am I going to do?

0:56:34.920 --> 0:56:37.200
<v Speaker 5>And like I didn't know, Like I was just like

0:56:37.320 --> 0:56:39.160
<v Speaker 5>I think I'm ready, Like I think I'm ready to

0:56:39.200 --> 0:56:40.680
<v Speaker 5>just like go and this I think it had been.

0:56:40.600 --> 0:56:44.400
<v Speaker 2>Like nine months and I just went for it. You

0:56:44.680 --> 0:56:46.640
<v Speaker 2>to his Roman? Did it? No?

0:56:48.080 --> 0:56:48.600
<v Speaker 7>Not that night?

0:56:50.520 --> 0:56:51.279
<v Speaker 5>That was nice.

0:56:51.680 --> 0:56:53.799
<v Speaker 2>That was. That was the second that was like the

0:56:53.840 --> 0:56:55.759
<v Speaker 2>second night, what was it four hours later?

0:56:56.480 --> 0:56:57.400
<v Speaker 7>But he was like, you know, I.

0:56:57.400 --> 0:56:59.319
<v Speaker 5>Didn't want to because I was like I didn't know,

0:56:59.520 --> 0:57:01.400
<v Speaker 5>like I'm in New York, Like I don't want to

0:57:01.440 --> 0:57:03.520
<v Speaker 5>do that. And then found and then I found out

0:57:03.520 --> 0:57:06.480
<v Speaker 5>that he lives in LA actually lives in this area

0:57:07.000 --> 0:57:09.959
<v Speaker 5>in the valley. And then I was just like, Okay,

0:57:10.000 --> 0:57:12.400
<v Speaker 5>I guess I can because maybe I need someone I

0:57:12.400 --> 0:57:12.959
<v Speaker 5>get back home.

0:57:13.080 --> 0:57:16.680
<v Speaker 2>And I did it, and then I was like, whoa,

0:57:17.680 --> 0:57:18.440
<v Speaker 2>it's a good story.

0:57:18.440 --> 0:57:22.000
<v Speaker 7>It was very I mean moving for hours.

0:57:22.160 --> 0:57:24.720
<v Speaker 2>Soon was that.

0:57:26.280 --> 0:57:29.080
<v Speaker 6>I don't know if I had any like success stories

0:57:29.800 --> 0:57:30.560
<v Speaker 6>on apps.

0:57:31.160 --> 0:57:33.200
<v Speaker 2>I mean, you know whatever, Jay's school.

0:57:33.600 --> 0:57:38.479
<v Speaker 5>But after that situation, I was just like not doing

0:57:38.520 --> 0:57:41.240
<v Speaker 5>it like that, like not in for a relationship.

0:57:41.400 --> 0:57:44.880
<v Speaker 2>I mean it depends like what your expectations. Sometimes I

0:57:44.880 --> 0:57:46.800
<v Speaker 2>feel like I've had success stories and I'm not with

0:57:46.840 --> 0:57:48.560
<v Speaker 2>anyone from an app, you know what I mean, you

0:57:48.600 --> 0:57:51.480
<v Speaker 2>have had success stories high level, I mean if they're

0:57:51.520 --> 0:57:53.560
<v Speaker 2>not my boyfriends or girlfriends. Just like I've had really

0:57:53.640 --> 0:57:57.000
<v Speaker 2>great experiences, I've also had mediocre experiences.

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<v Speaker 5>But but this was what like five years ago, right,

0:58:01.560 --> 0:58:03.520
<v Speaker 5>so it was like a long time ago. So now

0:58:03.600 --> 0:58:05.680
<v Speaker 5>I just don't even think about it, cause I'm like,

0:58:06.080 --> 0:58:06.960
<v Speaker 5>I know what you want.

0:58:06.880 --> 0:58:09.080
<v Speaker 2>That's not what I want. So I'm not gonna even

0:58:09.560 --> 0:58:10.840
<v Speaker 2>waste my time for your time.

0:58:10.920 --> 0:58:15.160
<v Speaker 6>So I just remember I have to text trembling Bay friends,

0:58:15.760 --> 0:58:17.080
<v Speaker 6>Oh trembling Bay.

0:58:16.920 --> 0:58:21.240
<v Speaker 2>Lips friend Trimling Lip trembling. He's a former Bay that

0:58:21.600 --> 0:58:25.720
<v Speaker 2>I had met on Tinder okay, and she matched with

0:58:25.840 --> 0:58:32.960
<v Speaker 2>his friend on Hinge the other day. Dating must be difficult,

0:58:33.000 --> 0:58:35.520
<v Speaker 2>because I mean, I if you guys listen, if you

0:58:35.520 --> 0:58:39.400
<v Speaker 2>guys like know, like like the influencer life may be

0:58:39.440 --> 0:58:42.600
<v Speaker 2>a fucking traveling all over the goddamn place and going

0:58:42.640 --> 0:58:46.440
<v Speaker 2>on trips and shit, and literally I went on we

0:58:46.720 --> 0:58:48.840
<v Speaker 2>Beauty Bleunder had one like in fl We've had one

0:58:48.880 --> 0:58:51.160
<v Speaker 2>influencer trip, and I thought I was gonna die. I

0:58:51.200 --> 0:58:53.840
<v Speaker 2>was like, how do they do this every weekend? Every

0:58:53.840 --> 0:58:57.440
<v Speaker 2>week or every few months even because it's so much alcohol,

0:58:58.280 --> 0:59:03.040
<v Speaker 2>and like everyone on that trip was like handling like

0:59:03.080 --> 0:59:05.040
<v Speaker 2>a g and I was like, I got to keep up.

0:59:05.120 --> 0:59:07.440
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, I'm on two hours of sleep, Like the

0:59:07.560 --> 0:59:12.400
<v Speaker 2>fuck I'm probably like and now and those and those

0:59:12.560 --> 0:59:15.440
<v Speaker 2>experiences you're having so much fun. But most of the

0:59:15.480 --> 0:59:18.280
<v Speaker 2>time you're with like gay men, Like you're with a

0:59:18.360 --> 0:59:22.960
<v Speaker 2>lot of gay men and girl husbands or or husbands. Yeah,

0:59:23.040 --> 0:59:28.520
<v Speaker 2>that's true. So like, how do you meet people? I mean, honestly,

0:59:28.560 --> 0:59:30.080
<v Speaker 2>you'reparently not really meeting people.

0:59:30.240 --> 0:59:30.920
<v Speaker 7>I'm not because I.

0:59:30.880 --> 0:59:33.880
<v Speaker 5>Really don't go anywhere when I'm like home, I'm like,

0:59:34.760 --> 0:59:37.320
<v Speaker 5>I work from home. So I go and I pick

0:59:37.360 --> 0:59:42.280
<v Speaker 5>up Anthony and come home, take them to baseball, go home, record,

0:59:42.360 --> 0:59:46.280
<v Speaker 5>and I do like all that stuff. But I told

0:59:46.720 --> 0:59:48.960
<v Speaker 5>my friends here and I was like, hey, like we

0:59:49.000 --> 0:59:50.480
<v Speaker 5>need to start going places.

0:59:51.520 --> 0:59:52.040
<v Speaker 6>I like this.

0:59:52.240 --> 0:59:56.919
<v Speaker 7>I'm like dry as a desert. There's like no nothing.

0:59:57.400 --> 0:59:59.000
<v Speaker 6>You know, I get that way. I get like attention,

0:59:59.640 --> 1:00:01.280
<v Speaker 6>you know, crazy than I get them the apps and then

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<v Speaker 6>I go.

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<v Speaker 7>I'm not like that.

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<v Speaker 2>I really don't care so much about attention. I'm justause

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<v Speaker 2>you get it all day every day on your Instagram's

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<v Speaker 2>four commons you are beautiful. Speaking of which do you

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<v Speaker 2>get like, I'm sure because you have so many followers

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<v Speaker 2>like you probably get like a lot of hate too. No, no,

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<v Speaker 2>no one ever says mean shit.

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<v Speaker 5>To you before, like a long time ago, they used

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<v Speaker 5>to always like be that's I mean, you look like

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<v Speaker 5>a man or like like just dumb shit, honestly, but

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<v Speaker 5>at first I would like fight back, like hock you bitch,

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<v Speaker 5>go wipe your child's ass that like stop being on Instagram,

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<v Speaker 5>like go take care of your child.

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<v Speaker 2>Like you're saying positive things.

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<v Speaker 5>On your bio, but you're coming in trash, like trash

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<v Speaker 5>talking me when I'm not.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm not doing anything to you. I just bother you.

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<v Speaker 2>Then get off my page, you know what i mean,

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<v Speaker 2>Like it would bother me.

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<v Speaker 7>But now I'm just like.

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<v Speaker 2>Keep them coming. You're putting money in my bank.

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<v Speaker 5>So that's honestly how I look at it, Like you

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<v Speaker 5>want to be negative, like I'm gonna let you be negative.

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<v Speaker 2>And even when I go on live. When I go

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<v Speaker 2>on live, I get.

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<v Speaker 5>More they're like, oh, like you're hoe and you're a bitch,

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<v Speaker 5>you're a hope.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, all kinds of stuff.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm like yeah, or like nasty stuff like let me

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<v Speaker 5>see your tits and like get up, like chose your

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<v Speaker 5>nipples and I'm like hold on, let me put my

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<v Speaker 5>brush down and I'll let me do it now one second.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 5>But aside from that, like if you read, most of

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<v Speaker 5>my comments are never anything negative and it's like more

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<v Speaker 5>people that I have a connection with, like through social

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<v Speaker 5>media that like.

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<v Speaker 7>Have like always comment on my photos.

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<v Speaker 2>So well that's good, yeah, because I feel like I

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<v Speaker 2>can imagine, like I guess people. I guess maybe makeup,

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<v Speaker 2>like if you're following a makeup instagrammer or like YouTuber

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<v Speaker 2>more because you want to follow them, right like you

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<v Speaker 2>want to look for them. Whereas I think if you'l

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<v Speaker 2>like a cele I don't know, for some reason, I think,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know why, but it's maybe I think it's

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<v Speaker 2>more like we're looking to you because we we think

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<v Speaker 2>that you know, we're we're more relatable, and also like

1:02:15.040 --> 1:02:19.520
<v Speaker 2>they're looking to you for beauty and inspiration. Yeah, Whereas

1:02:19.560 --> 1:02:22.880
<v Speaker 2>when people might be following like something like a celebrity

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<v Speaker 2>in that way, like a like an actor or something,

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<v Speaker 2>it's more I don't know, sometimes it's jealousy or but

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<v Speaker 2>they still follow them, but they still follow them. Yeah,

1:02:30.720 --> 1:02:32.920
<v Speaker 2>Like people follow Kimkardashian, but the hater you know what

1:02:32.920 --> 1:02:35.440
<v Speaker 2>I mean, and they want to comment say shit, but

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<v Speaker 2>it's like you know, so maybe it's like d it's

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<v Speaker 2>different in that way. Have you ever had any like

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<v Speaker 2>weird stalkers or anything like that. No, that's good. I mean.

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<v Speaker 5>The current situation that I had with my ex, he

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<v Speaker 5>wouldn't leave me alone still to this day, like call

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<v Speaker 5>and I'm like, why are you calling me?

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<v Speaker 7>I've never answered an email a phone call?

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<v Speaker 2>Like do you think that there's like a higharchy in

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<v Speaker 2>the beauty world when it comes to influencers, do you

1:03:03.680 --> 1:03:08.800
<v Speaker 2>like meaning like, for example, like in rap there's especially

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<v Speaker 2>for women, there's like can only be like one rap girl?

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<v Speaker 2>Like in beauty, like is there like only a few

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<v Speaker 2>like three? I don't really see, Like maybe I'm not

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<v Speaker 2>maybe I don't know every influencer or whatever, but like

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<v Speaker 2>there's like one really big black influencer like that I

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<v Speaker 2>can think of off the top of my head. There's

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<v Speaker 2>a few, but there's the one that you think of.

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<v Speaker 2>And then like as far as like do you think

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<v Speaker 2>like race as far in in in in the beauty

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<v Speaker 2>influencer world, like kind of is in is it in?

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<v Speaker 2>Is it a thing? Like do you notice that?

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<v Speaker 5>Like I never looked at it that way, but now

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<v Speaker 5>that you're saying and maybe so, like I feel like

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<v Speaker 5>there is like an every single race, there is one.

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<v Speaker 2>One you think of or maybe not like one or

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<v Speaker 2>two or something, you know that's getting all like the brand,

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<v Speaker 2>like the bigger brand deals yea, and like because it

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<v Speaker 2>kind of I mean it is it's entertainment. It's like

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<v Speaker 2>the entertainment.

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<v Speaker 6>Well, every industry is gonna be like microcosm of the

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<v Speaker 6>real world, so like you know, like it's gonna be

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<v Speaker 6>in every type of industry.

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<v Speaker 2>There's gonna be a little bit of because I remember

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<v Speaker 2>even when we're talking about Depica, when we interviewed Depica,

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<v Speaker 2>oh and she was talking, Yeah, she's so sweet. I

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<v Speaker 2>love her too. And we interviewed her and we talked

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<v Speaker 2>about you know, her being Indian and her always being

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<v Speaker 2>like the token brown girl in the campaign or like,

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<v Speaker 2>and she was like it offended her, but she was

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<v Speaker 2>just happy that she could even be there to represent

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<v Speaker 2>that because it wasn't being represented before. Yeah, And so

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<v Speaker 2>I'm just curious, like because she's she but she's she's

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<v Speaker 2>an influencer, but she's kind of moved away from that

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<v Speaker 2>and now I was like more doing her lib tinted brand,

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<v Speaker 2>whereas like, you know, you you were constantly and actively

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<v Speaker 2>like creating content all the time. Like I don't know

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<v Speaker 2>how you do it, Like I don't know how you

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<v Speaker 2>come up with any more makeup looks? That's another thing.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm like, how how you are so creative because it's

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<v Speaker 2>like how could like I get asked to do a

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<v Speaker 2>makeup to Tori and I'm like, so a natural beat again,

1:05:04.480 --> 1:05:07.880
<v Speaker 2>my favorite one, more natural. Maybe we'll do like a

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<v Speaker 2>maybe a silver highlight this time. I'm like so uncreative,

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<v Speaker 2>like cause I feel because you're a real artist, you know.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, So I started as a makeup art and so

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<v Speaker 5>this is what you would get like out of me,

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<v Speaker 5>Like I would never do my makeup because I just didn't.

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<v Speaker 5>I've found my passion doing makeup on others and when

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<v Speaker 5>I started doing it on myself and obviously like I

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<v Speaker 5>got better at it, and I'm like, oh, like I

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<v Speaker 5>can do this, and I can cut my crease and

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<v Speaker 5>I can do a wing win or and I can

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<v Speaker 5>do it a cut. I like so many different ways.

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<v Speaker 5>And then like now I'm just more so inspired by

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<v Speaker 5>like not people that are here like overseas, like you.

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<v Speaker 7>Know people that get so creative.

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<v Speaker 5>Like there's this one girl, I think it's by Brokel.

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<v Speaker 2>She's so talented like her like her skills, her blending

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<v Speaker 2>skills is what gets me every time, and I'm like.

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<v Speaker 5>How, like I spend hours blending my shit still doesn't

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<v Speaker 5>look like that, you know. But it's just like her talent,

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<v Speaker 5>you know, and like I just try to practice to

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<v Speaker 5>be as good as her. I'm not gonna be here

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<v Speaker 5>because I don't want to be here. I just want

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<v Speaker 5>to be as good as her. So I just get

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<v Speaker 5>a like inspiration from like so many different people.

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<v Speaker 2>And I always like talk about it, you know, because

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<v Speaker 2>if you if you weren't doing makeup, what would you

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<v Speaker 2>be doing? Is there any do you have any other

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<v Speaker 2>dreams or aspirations outside of you know, beauty? Uh? Massuse? Really?

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<v Speaker 2>I love giving massages.

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<v Speaker 5>Oh good to know, yeah, because kink I'm so good

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<v Speaker 5>at it that Like even like Angel Macdaddy, he every

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<v Speaker 5>single time, like or at his house, He's like, can

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<v Speaker 5>you massage in my back?

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<v Speaker 7>And I'm like, oh my god, here we go.

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<v Speaker 2>But I don't mind it because like I really do

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<v Speaker 2>enjoy doing it.

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<v Speaker 5>Like I feel like it's just pleasing people, you know

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<v Speaker 5>that I like love to do or a singer, but

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<v Speaker 5>I know I can't a singer, Yeah, I cannot singer.

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<v Speaker 2>What you want to be a singer? For you just

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<v Speaker 2>want to be on stage. Yeah, I just like love

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<v Speaker 2>to I love music.

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<v Speaker 5>Music is like I can't do anything without music, you know.

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<v Speaker 5>So when I do my Instagram videos where there's no audio, like,

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<v Speaker 5>I blast music and like you'll see I show you

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<v Speaker 5>my things, I'll be singing like crazy.

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<v Speaker 2>So if you were singer, what kind of music would

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<v Speaker 2>you be singing?

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<v Speaker 6>R and B?

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<v Speaker 5>Like very Yeah, I'm such I remember I did a

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<v Speaker 5>video with this DJ.

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<v Speaker 7>Her name is DJ Leslie.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't do you know?

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<v Speaker 1>M h.

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<v Speaker 5>She does like a lot of beauty events and I

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<v Speaker 5>have my nineties R and B playlist and one of

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<v Speaker 5>her she went live in one of her followers or

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<v Speaker 5>subscribe or whatever. He's like, oh, she must her man

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<v Speaker 5>must be black because I like listen to like like

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<v Speaker 5>classic nineties R and B, and that's all I listened to.

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<v Speaker 2>I listened to like trap music, but mostly yeah, it's

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<v Speaker 2>like my my kind of music. Fine, yeah, me too,

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<v Speaker 2>me too. Listen to ninety four point seven ninety four

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<v Speaker 2>point seven. Wait, I was listening to that yesterday. Actually

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<v Speaker 2>on the way was ninety seven point four. I was

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<v Speaker 2>ninety four point seven ninety four point seven. I was

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<v Speaker 2>driving to my to meet Happy way and I needed

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<v Speaker 2>like a like a energy happiness boost. Yeah, And I

1:08:29.680 --> 1:08:31.120
<v Speaker 2>put that on and I was like, I do. I

1:08:31.160 --> 1:08:33.840
<v Speaker 2>was feeling real good. I drove there. I was like,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm in a really good mood. Nothing's gonna fuck this up, right,

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<v Speaker 2>They said, the commercial fucking radio commercials and they still

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<v Speaker 2>have these. Well, because I don't have my phone, I've

1:08:43.000 --> 1:08:44.760
<v Speaker 2>been forced to listen to the radio past todays. And

1:08:44.800 --> 1:08:46.519
<v Speaker 2>I told you, I'm like, what are they playing on

1:08:46.520 --> 1:08:48.799
<v Speaker 2>the radio or even not even me from my computer.

1:08:49.400 --> 1:08:50.960
<v Speaker 2>I was like, I don't even have I don't even

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<v Speaker 2>know these songs. There's stuff like all these specifically LA

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<v Speaker 2>songs that they only play on LA Radio. I'm like,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't even know who this is? Who is this?

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know?

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<v Speaker 9>Very interesting Radio point seven. I'm gonna I think I've

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<v Speaker 9>listened to them before. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh, by the way, you guys, me and Griselda did

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<v Speaker 2>a video. Oh yeah. I went over to her house

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<v Speaker 2>and we did a YouTube video. I don't really think

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<v Speaker 2>it was a tutorial. I don't believe. We just got

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<v Speaker 2>distracted and we forgot to show the products we were

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<v Speaker 2>using and ship like but my my makeup and she

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<v Speaker 2>was late and I had to go pick up Iry

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<v Speaker 2>from the airport from her my baby daddy. You better believe.

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<v Speaker 2>I was like, Hi, what did he say? He needed

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<v Speaker 2>to say shit because he never said shit, but I

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<v Speaker 2>was looking really cute. I'm sure he thought I was

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<v Speaker 2>coming from a very important place because he thinks I

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<v Speaker 2>have a boyfriend. He told me that yesterday. Oh he

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<v Speaker 2>did he or two days ago. He was like, you know,

1:09:51.360 --> 1:09:53.680
<v Speaker 2>you have a whole boyfriend. And I was like, oh,

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<v Speaker 2>is that what you think? I wonder where I got

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<v Speaker 2>that from. You look at my insta ring. I don't

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<v Speaker 2>even but I don't even post my happy happy bag.

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<v Speaker 2>It's not my boyfriend. Let's be clear. Like, what's her name?

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<v Speaker 7>What's her name?

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<v Speaker 2>Be Simon my boyfriend? What's up? Oh? No, she is,

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<v Speaker 2>but I know that name be Simone too. She's hilarious.

1:10:13.360 --> 1:10:17.840
<v Speaker 2>She's like inspiration. Is she like she had she were?

1:10:18.800 --> 1:10:20.439
<v Speaker 2>She's kind of big and has big glasses and she

1:10:20.520 --> 1:10:22.000
<v Speaker 2>does inspirational like pop.

1:10:22.720 --> 1:10:26.240
<v Speaker 5>While you're confusing her, that's Jay, I know who you're

1:10:26.240 --> 1:10:26.599
<v Speaker 5>talk about.

1:10:27.360 --> 1:10:33.680
<v Speaker 2>She's hilarious. She doesn't like like I like her. She's like.

1:10:35.160 --> 1:10:38.000
<v Speaker 5>She's a comedian and like you have to watch her

1:10:38.439 --> 1:10:42.920
<v Speaker 5>she goes crazy with like men, like she calls them

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<v Speaker 5>their boyfriend, like her boyfriend. She was like, that's my boyfriend,

1:10:46.880 --> 1:10:48.600
<v Speaker 5>but it's like a tone, the tone that she like,

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<v Speaker 5>I don't.

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<v Speaker 2>Have a boyfriend.

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<v Speaker 9>Guys, so very clear, I'm single, no boyfriend, but I

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<v Speaker 9>am in love.

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<v Speaker 2>Her updates when I'm ready to know. I love, but

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<v Speaker 2>I'm single, So okay, call me there. How does one

1:11:09.400 --> 1:11:12.360
<v Speaker 2>take that? Like, I don't know, I don't know. It's

1:11:12.960 --> 1:11:20.840
<v Speaker 2>navigating through my current situation. It's definitely alternatives and I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know. If I don't know, I don't know how

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<v Speaker 2>I feel about it yet, I'm like still figuring it out.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, because i feel like I'm at a point where

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<v Speaker 5>like I'm blocking my feelings because I just don't want

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<v Speaker 5>to feel that because I feel like I'm ready, but

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<v Speaker 5>I'm scared that I'm ready, you know.

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<v Speaker 6>We don't want to get hurt probably yeah, or waste

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<v Speaker 6>time crazy.

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<v Speaker 5>Like I've recently, like you know, expressed my feelings to

1:11:46.520 --> 1:11:51.280
<v Speaker 5>someone and I was not that I'm afraid of rejection,

1:11:51.640 --> 1:11:54.520
<v Speaker 5>but I was always afraid of that person.

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<v Speaker 7>Not feeling the same way.

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<v Speaker 2>And not that he doesn't feel the same way, he's just.

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<v Speaker 5>Not ready, and he's very he was very honest with

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<v Speaker 5>me and like it hurt, but I also appreciated his honesty,

1:12:08.000 --> 1:12:10.519
<v Speaker 5>you know, because he could have easily taken that and

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<v Speaker 5>like ran with it.

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<v Speaker 2>So that's why I was like asking, like, how do

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<v Speaker 2>you how do you deal with that?

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<v Speaker 5>Like for me, I'm just like I'm gonna shut it up,

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<v Speaker 5>like not feel again.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean I like that. I'm I mean, it's I.

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<v Speaker 6>Don't know, you would like to think that you're like that.

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<v Speaker 6>The shee says, You're not really shutting shit off, like

1:12:30.920 --> 1:12:33.160
<v Speaker 6>you'll numb it for a little bit. You'll like say,

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<v Speaker 6>like well, like do other things so to distract from

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<v Speaker 6>those feelings.

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<v Speaker 2>That overall, like if you feel some way about someone,

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<v Speaker 2>it's kind of there.

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<v Speaker 5>But then they do something and it's like I'm the

1:12:43.680 --> 1:12:45.519
<v Speaker 5>type of person you do something and you just like

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<v Speaker 5>completely turn you off.

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<v Speaker 2>That can happen too, and I'm just like, never mind, Yeah,

1:12:50.280 --> 1:12:55.639
<v Speaker 2>it takes me a while, Like I'm I'm like I'll

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<v Speaker 2>give you, which is probably not good. I Mean, sometimes

1:12:57.680 --> 1:13:00.800
<v Speaker 2>I ignore red flags because I'm like, say, maybe it

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<v Speaker 2>was just that one time, But I'm in the place

1:13:03.400 --> 1:13:06.959
<v Speaker 2>now where I'm like I'm in a place where like recently,

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<v Speaker 2>like I was telling you, like I was me and

1:13:09.280 --> 1:13:12.040
<v Speaker 2>happy bear and an open it's not a relation. I

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<v Speaker 2>don't even know how to describe it, because we're not

1:13:13.479 --> 1:13:15.880
<v Speaker 2>in a relationship, like not even like that, but we

1:13:15.920 --> 1:13:18.320
<v Speaker 2>are in a relationship, because even we're in a relationships,

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<v Speaker 2>it's in a relationship. But I was recently confronted with

1:13:22.200 --> 1:13:25.000
<v Speaker 2>the fact that he is talking to other women, and

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<v Speaker 2>it's something that I haven't yet had to experience because

1:13:27.880 --> 1:13:30.160
<v Speaker 2>when we're together, it's very isolated and it feels like

1:13:30.200 --> 1:13:33.240
<v Speaker 2>we're in a relationship and we don't talk about it.

1:13:33.600 --> 1:13:35.760
<v Speaker 2>But when I saw that, I was like, Okay, we

1:13:35.800 --> 1:13:37.920
<v Speaker 2>need to talk about this because it like when I

1:13:37.960 --> 1:13:41.040
<v Speaker 2>saw it, I was immediately angry. I was immediately super jealous.

1:13:41.120 --> 1:13:44.400
<v Speaker 2>I wanted to like cry a little bit, and then

1:13:44.439 --> 1:13:46.800
<v Speaker 2>I had to like work through my emotions and be like, Okay,

1:13:46.840 --> 1:13:49.800
<v Speaker 2>he's done nothing wrong, Like you guys are doing this,

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<v Speaker 2>so either work through these emotions because you're trying to

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<v Speaker 2>try something different and you're trying to like let go

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<v Speaker 2>of this idea of possession in a world relationship and ownership.

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<v Speaker 2>So then let's work through this because this is like

1:14:04.040 --> 1:14:07.280
<v Speaker 2>this is the lesson right here. Yeah, but also like

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<v Speaker 2>being real with myself, like I was saying too, like okay,

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<v Speaker 2>but do you actually like to do this? This is what

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<v Speaker 2>you really want to do though, you know, like would

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<v Speaker 2>you be okay doing this for like another year? Yeah? Yeah, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>And I don't know. The answer is I don't know.

1:14:20.920 --> 1:14:22.479
<v Speaker 2>This is the first time I've had to really deal

1:14:22.520 --> 1:14:25.320
<v Speaker 2>with it, and vice versa. We've been honest with each other,

1:14:25.400 --> 1:14:27.559
<v Speaker 2>and he can't really deal with it even though this

1:14:27.680 --> 1:14:32.519
<v Speaker 2>was his idea, Like never, never did I think I

1:14:32.600 --> 1:14:34.400
<v Speaker 2>was going to be in a relationship where like the

1:14:34.400 --> 1:14:37.200
<v Speaker 2>man is mad, he cares too much, Like it's usually

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<v Speaker 2>the opposite, and that's why it's like life is so

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<v Speaker 2>fucking hilarious.

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<v Speaker 5>But I think it's because you're so open, Like we

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<v Speaker 5>talked about this, but it's like, give me the choice, and.

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<v Speaker 2>I think that that's where you guys are at, Like

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<v Speaker 2>you know, yeah, I need the choice, I need the choe.

1:14:50.600 --> 1:14:52.640
<v Speaker 2>I need to know what my options are. Therefore, I

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<v Speaker 2>need to know what you're doing to make sure that

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<v Speaker 2>I want to continue to do this and vice versa.

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<v Speaker 2>But you know, I don't know. Relationship ships man confusing

1:15:03.160 --> 1:15:07.519
<v Speaker 2>you're can't be dosing, he asks. Anyway, we have we

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<v Speaker 2>have a someone that wrote in that wants some advice,

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<v Speaker 2>so okay, you can help us answer this question? Is

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<v Speaker 2>this the whole thing? I think? I want to remain anonymous,

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<v Speaker 2>but like, how would y'all communicate? Okay, how would y'all

1:15:24.760 --> 1:15:28.639
<v Speaker 2>communicate with your friends whose man sabotagees trips? She goes

1:15:28.680 --> 1:15:32.200
<v Speaker 2>on without him even if she invites him, telling her

1:15:32.320 --> 1:15:37.080
<v Speaker 2>she ain't finna do this, tell her she ain't tell

1:15:37.160 --> 1:15:39.760
<v Speaker 2>her she ain't gonna do this. Every weekend, he been

1:15:39.760 --> 1:15:42.080
<v Speaker 2>stuck doing this all day. He's been basically, he's been

1:15:42.080 --> 1:15:45.160
<v Speaker 2>doing this all weekend, watching their three kids, just yelling

1:15:45.479 --> 1:15:47.400
<v Speaker 2>I love my friend, but I just want to be

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<v Speaker 2>a better support I just want to be a better

1:15:49.720 --> 1:15:53.280
<v Speaker 2>support system because the whole weekend could have gone smoother,

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<v Speaker 2>but for some reason he had to act like that

1:15:55.920 --> 1:16:00.120
<v Speaker 2>with with her when she's with me? Or learn? Is

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<v Speaker 2>that it a learned to redirect energies? Is that it?

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<v Speaker 2>Mm hm? Basically, how do you talk to your.

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<v Speaker 6>Friend about her toxic baby daddy that's sabotaging you guys's plan?

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<v Speaker 7>Are they together?

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<v Speaker 9>Yes?

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<v Speaker 2>I assume so? Yeah, with the baby daddy and her together,

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<v Speaker 2>they watch she's at home, he was at home watching

1:16:18.200 --> 1:16:21.080
<v Speaker 2>their three kids. They came out here from Modesto, California.

1:16:21.120 --> 1:16:22.679
<v Speaker 2>They came to oursh They were coming to our show.

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<v Speaker 6>What she's going to be anonymous because the friend listens, Okay,

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<v Speaker 6>we'll cut that out.

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<v Speaker 2>Anyway. Basically, how do how does she tell her friend

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<v Speaker 2>that her baby daddy's annoying as fuck and controlling? You

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<v Speaker 2>can't really do it.

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<v Speaker 6>I mean, like, I've been in that space, and my

1:16:45.560 --> 1:16:48.160
<v Speaker 6>baby daddy tryed to sabotage anything I ever did by

1:16:48.200 --> 1:16:52.519
<v Speaker 6>calling me seventy five times, calling my friends seventy five times,

1:16:52.760 --> 1:16:56.120
<v Speaker 6>harassing me, calling me names seventy five times an hour.

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<v Speaker 6>And the truth is, there's really not sure you can

1:16:58.840 --> 1:17:00.680
<v Speaker 6>do about it until that friend is done. For like,

1:17:01.000 --> 1:17:02.719
<v Speaker 6>like you just gonna avoid hanging out with her because

1:17:02.720 --> 1:17:05.280
<v Speaker 6>you already know what it's going to be. Or if

1:17:05.280 --> 1:17:06.840
<v Speaker 6>you're like, look, bitch, you either get in the car

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<v Speaker 6>at three or I'm leaving you.

1:17:08.320 --> 1:17:10.000
<v Speaker 2>Like these are the stuffs you have to go through.

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<v Speaker 6>With people in those type of relationships because as long

1:17:11.479 --> 1:17:14.040
<v Speaker 6>as they accept it, you kind of accept it too.

1:17:14.200 --> 1:17:15.439
<v Speaker 2>You don't have to detached from it.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, and you have to know where if you can

1:17:17.280 --> 1:17:19.960
<v Speaker 6>invite her places, and how's the tight time schedule is,

1:17:20.080 --> 1:17:22.800
<v Speaker 6>or she needs to ride by herself because that's just

1:17:22.880 --> 1:17:25.000
<v Speaker 6>what it is, or if you even want to deal

1:17:25.040 --> 1:17:29.639
<v Speaker 6>with that, Like sometimes energy is just so toxic for yourself.

1:17:29.640 --> 1:17:31.920
<v Speaker 5>It's like, Okay, I'm gonna go away for the weekend,

1:17:32.560 --> 1:17:34.880
<v Speaker 5>but my friend's coming and then I already know that

1:17:35.520 --> 1:17:36.120
<v Speaker 5>I'm leading.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, so don't invite her. I mean I think you

1:17:38.680 --> 1:17:40.479
<v Speaker 2>have to tell her. I think you owe her and

1:17:40.800 --> 1:17:42.920
<v Speaker 2>to tell her. And because you can't just be like

1:17:43.080 --> 1:17:45.920
<v Speaker 2>just stop inviting her places, because if she's your real friend,

1:17:45.960 --> 1:17:47.559
<v Speaker 2>if she really means a lot to you.

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<v Speaker 6>I think a lot of times in these situations, the

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<v Speaker 6>fucked up part is.

1:17:49.880 --> 1:17:51.519
<v Speaker 2>You do tell your friends a lot. A lot you

1:17:51.560 --> 1:17:52.160
<v Speaker 2>hear them complains.

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<v Speaker 6>I mean this is only in that situation if you

1:17:53.800 --> 1:17:56.600
<v Speaker 6>just hear the same complaints and the same excuses, and

1:17:56.640 --> 1:17:59.559
<v Speaker 6>you're constantly dealing with the same toxic energy. Yeah, at

1:17:59.600 --> 1:18:01.320
<v Speaker 6>some point you gotta just like take it for what

1:18:01.400 --> 1:18:03.000
<v Speaker 6>it is and stop inviting people.

1:18:03.560 --> 1:18:04.160
<v Speaker 2>We have been there.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, and when she's done, she'll be you know, you

1:18:06.960 --> 1:18:10.080
<v Speaker 6>guys can go back to that. But sometimes even for me,

1:18:10.120 --> 1:18:11.960
<v Speaker 6>when I was in that place, I would stop talking

1:18:11.960 --> 1:18:14.120
<v Speaker 6>about it sometimes when I could handle, when I could

1:18:14.160 --> 1:18:16.240
<v Speaker 6>take not talking about it, because I already knew it

1:18:16.280 --> 1:18:18.599
<v Speaker 6>was annoying, already knew I needed to do right.

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<v Speaker 5>Maybe she's not there that her friend is, like, she

1:18:21.680 --> 1:18:22.679
<v Speaker 5>doesn't think it's annoying.

1:18:22.960 --> 1:18:26.519
<v Speaker 2>She probably won't like that. She probably doesn't like it,

1:18:26.600 --> 1:18:28.559
<v Speaker 2>but she's used to it. I mean, she has three

1:18:28.640 --> 1:18:31.240
<v Speaker 2>kids with this man. You know, she's all in right

1:18:31.280 --> 1:18:36.040
<v Speaker 2>now and probably doesn't see the words talks or like

1:18:36.240 --> 1:18:39.000
<v Speaker 2>yeah or is that you know, there's nothing you can

1:18:39.040 --> 1:18:42.000
<v Speaker 2>do boo. Basically you just have to decide, you know,

1:18:43.000 --> 1:18:44.680
<v Speaker 2>is she the friend you invite on trips or not?

1:18:45.240 --> 1:18:48.040
<v Speaker 2>And like you've probably already told her her baby daddy's

1:18:48.040 --> 1:18:51.120
<v Speaker 2>annoying as fuck, right like I would have already told her.

1:18:51.200 --> 1:18:54.560
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, damn again, you know, So there's really not

1:18:54.680 --> 1:18:56.400
<v Speaker 2>much you can do. You just kind of like, don't

1:18:56.400 --> 1:18:58.000
<v Speaker 2>invite her on a trip again, and don't you dare

1:18:58.439 --> 1:19:08.679
<v Speaker 2>ever miss don't you ever miss our live show again. Yeah,

1:19:08.800 --> 1:19:09.920
<v Speaker 2>that's that's all I got for you.

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<v Speaker 6>Okay, Well, that's it for today, ladies and gentlemen, I'm

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<v Speaker 6>starving like Marvin.

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you Griselda for coming on and sharing your stories

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<v Speaker 2>and I love you. I love you too, And yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>check out our video. Check out our video on Griselda's page.

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<v Speaker 2>It's make up by Griselda on YouTube and on Instagram

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<v Speaker 2>and on Instagram. Yes, and you need to check out

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<v Speaker 2>her page anyway, because she makes she just does beautiful,

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<v Speaker 2>beautiful bomb makeup. And maybe you'll catch her doing her

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<v Speaker 2>beer trick.

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<v Speaker 7>I don't know what beer trick you're talking about.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know. I'm gonna put her on a blast,

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<v Speaker 2>but Griselda's has a beer trick. I can chuck a

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<v Speaker 2>beer in like less than ten seconds. Would you like

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<v Speaker 2>to do that? I don't want to check about I've

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<v Speaker 2>seen it. I get to see it in person. But

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<v Speaker 2>every time, every time she's out, what the fuck? And

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<v Speaker 2>it's usually I feel like it's Mac Daddy that's always

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<v Speaker 2>encouraging you to everybody I see. It's like Angel Angel

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<v Speaker 2>recording it, like watch her go. How drunk do you

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<v Speaker 2>get after that?

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<v Speaker 7>I don't get drunk. That's the problem.

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<v Speaker 2>Beers don't get if you drink them fast, if you did,

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<v Speaker 2>if you drink like if.

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<v Speaker 5>I do like maybe like your four like fast and

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<v Speaker 5>I'd be like buzz no, yeah, not drunk girl, beer

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<v Speaker 5>does Now did you learn that you could do that trick?

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<v Speaker 2>You just did it one day? No, So me and

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<v Speaker 2>my brother, like my brother started checking my beer and

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<v Speaker 2>I was like, oh, I can beat you.

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<v Speaker 7>And of course the first time, I almost like vomit.

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<v Speaker 2>Because it was so much. It was like so much

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<v Speaker 2>like practices. Oh yeah, I was like, I'm gonna yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>and I still do that. What that mouth did. That

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<v Speaker 2>mouth swallows a whole beer. It knows how to do

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<v Speaker 2>a lot of things. Multi talented. No, I mean I

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<v Speaker 2>brought it up. So anyway, you guys have a wonderful

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<v Speaker 2>out this episode with our girl Mindy from the Thick

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<v Speaker 2>Podcast song so Blanco blancoy, Hey girl, Hey, so turn

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<v Speaker 2>this ship up?

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<v Speaker 6>Bye bye?

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<v Speaker 13>Okay, so a blanco best The Leaf on the hancho.

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<v Speaker 13>I'm making fascated pronto Jehovah. No, I met your front dope.

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<v Speaker 13>I got the word, got the paper, got the birthday

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<v Speaker 13>to come in front of watch Tabby.

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<v Speaker 2>Fine.

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<v Speaker 13>Our might be just because deportation never been a fair.

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<v Speaker 13>I've been skipping tea up safe for years, sending battles

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<v Speaker 13>out to may. I've wine blackish niggas, no defauts.

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<v Speaker 2>A line, see, I've been. I've been on. My game

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<v Speaker 2>is too strong.

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<v Speaker 13>Travels of countries, results don't exist on names, sim buzza

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<v Speaker 13>and places.

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<v Speaker 2>I ship on niggas break easy when niggas like crayons.

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<v Speaker 13>I've been on a date night head aboard labor