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Speaker 1: What's up the slip service. I'm Angela, I'm g G Maguire,

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Speaker 1: I'm Storial, I'm sorry. Welcome back, welcome back smoking the.

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Speaker 2: Building now for reinforcing Inglewood California stereotype.

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Speaker 3: Man, come on, it's okay?

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Speaker 1: Is that a serious think?

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Speaker 3: This is a California californ type.

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Speaker 1: He was that y'all can smoke here legally? Yeah?

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Speaker 2: Yeah.

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Speaker 1: Legal. Smoking was illegal here for the longest because I

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Speaker 1: felt like everybody everybody did anyway, I know what.

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Speaker 4: It became unspoken rules that you guys just knew. But

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Speaker 4: it was so secretive. That's what I loved about New York.

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Speaker 4: Like the last five years has changed so much. When

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Speaker 4: I first started coming out here, it was like speakeasier

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Speaker 4: everywhere and like secretive when you have weed. It was

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Speaker 4: like shut the fuck up, you know what I mean,

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Speaker 4: that kind of situation. But now it's like, yeah, come

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Speaker 4: on in, we got somebody we can.

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Speaker 1: Now you can go to the store in the street.

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Speaker 2: And as it's not as fun now that that is

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Speaker 2: legal to speaking it, you still can't.

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Speaker 1: We'll figure out. Want to live on the edge. That's

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Speaker 1: a beautiful sweater. I want to say, did that pain

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Speaker 1: come with the sweater or did you add that?

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Speaker 3: You know, we added this?

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Speaker 1: Okay, I like that. That gives it a little oof,

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Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. And sir, listen, it feels

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Speaker 1: like I haven't like seen you well since before the

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Speaker 1: pandemic personally in real life. So how are you feeling

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Speaker 1: because you have a new project Heavy that is coming out.

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Speaker 3: I feel good. We got two weeks two weeks to today.

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Speaker 3: I feel really good. We put out five singles.

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Speaker 4: You guys have gotten to see a lot of the

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Speaker 4: new met the new visuals you know, that have been

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Speaker 4: very revealing. And you know, I'm you know, I'm proud

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Speaker 4: of the body of work that we're putting out.

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Speaker 3: You know what I mean.

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Speaker 4: I'm proud of myself right now. I'm happy, I'm healthy,

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Speaker 4: you know what I mean. I'm focused, and you know,

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Speaker 4: for the most part.

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Speaker 1: I'm sober, right for the most part. Well, let's get

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Speaker 1: into that, because I said, how does it feel that

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Speaker 1: also channels Di'angelo? And you did channel di' Angelo somewhat

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Speaker 1: in this in this project? Right? Is that is that

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Speaker 1: fair to say?

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Speaker 3: Definitely? It's a couple of shout outs to him, some

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Speaker 3: very blatant ones. You know what I mean.

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Speaker 4: But I've been a fan of his, and you know,

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Speaker 4: I've said it publicly. He's one of the many, you know,

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Speaker 4: people that I look up to in music. And I

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Speaker 4: think there are a lot of moments where I show

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Speaker 4: love to some familiar faces, some artists in this album,

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Speaker 4: and there's some easter eggs that people aren't even gonna

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Speaker 1: I got to listen to it more because I only

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Speaker 1: had a chance. You know, they sent us a little advance. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: but we got it right before, so we don't get

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Speaker 1: to Yeah started in nothing even matters because that's a d'

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Speaker 1: angelo favorite with La Hill, and that's a song on

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Speaker 4: Man, it took me a long time to even like

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Speaker 4: know who produced that and and and know that it

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Speaker 4: was a D'Angel sample. I just was so attracted to

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Speaker 4: the music. I was like, this sample sounds so familiar.

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Speaker 4: I don't know what it is. Somebody had to tell me,

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Speaker 4: and once they did, we started to plan accordingly and

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Speaker 4: make sure that every time we get an opportunity to

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Speaker 4: we show him his respect.

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Speaker 1: And I used to work for Dangel. Really, Yeah, that's

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Speaker 1: a little fun fact. I didn't know that.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I used to work at.

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Speaker 1: Virgin Records when they started his label, Chieva Sounds. It

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Speaker 1: was like the worst job of my life, No wonder

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Speaker 1: you never talk. But it wasn't because of DiAngelo. It

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Speaker 1: wasn't him. He was It's not like he was in

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Speaker 1: the office ever, but it was while he was on

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Speaker 1: that fitness journey. Mark Jenkins was his personal trainer, and

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Speaker 1: I will tell you he did not show up to

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Speaker 1: He would call the office and be like, Angel, could

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Speaker 1: in this time, and then he would have the studio

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Speaker 1: electric lady was locked out. But he would never show

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Speaker 1: up to the studio sessions and he wouldn't let them

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Speaker 1: hear his music. And that's when I met Anthony Hamilton

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Speaker 1: because Anthony Hamilton was one of his backup singers. Wow

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Speaker 1: you know at the time. And that's when Angie Stone

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Speaker 1: having a child together. Yeah, but I did used to

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Speaker 3: That's crazy.

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Speaker 1: And here's the fun fact. He was a big fan

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Speaker 5: I was at that video how does it feel video?

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Speaker 1: You were there?

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Speaker 5: I went to I went to that video shoot.

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Speaker 3: I was at Love to Know.

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Speaker 2: You know, we stayed for a second. I only actually

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Speaker 2: went with j Dilla. Okay, yeah, we stayed for like

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Speaker 5: He was in zone. We were all hanging out and yeah,

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Speaker 5: that's a low.

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Speaker 3: Key flex right there. Yeah, have you seen that's a flex?

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Speaker 1: How was it for you doing your video?

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Speaker 4: By the way, because I was at bud Necker, so

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Speaker 4: it wasn't I mean, And I'm proud of my body.

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Speaker 3: I put a lot of work in.

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Speaker 4: I did a lot of the working out by myself,

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Speaker 4: like with my brother and my nephew, and we trained

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Speaker 4: six days a week. I have a nutritionist name is

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Speaker 4: Kevin Henderson. He does a lot for me. But like

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Speaker 4: I did a.

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Speaker 3: I don't have no personal trainer.

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Speaker 4: I don't have nobody like Mark Jackson Johnson you know

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Speaker 4: what I mean.

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Speaker 3: You know what I mean. I work out.

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Speaker 4: I work out with kid when I can but I

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Speaker 4: really can't afford him. I can only afford to keep

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Speaker 3: I do sprints, I do bark, I do extra work

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Speaker 4: I'm thirty seven, I'm not no kid, no more so

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Speaker 4: it's hard to stay like that. And a lot of

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Speaker 4: I've been eating like salmon, zucchini, protein.

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Speaker 1: You make it sound so boring.

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Speaker 3: It's so fucking.

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Speaker 5: Salmon too, But it is all yeah, yeah, yeah.

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Speaker 4: And it's the portions for me to fuck me up.

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Speaker 4: Like I'm eating three on the calorie meals.

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Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying.

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Speaker 4: You gotta do that four times to day. Two protein shakes,

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Speaker 4: no salt, no carbs.

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Speaker 1: How was it when you first started, no frost, nothing,

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Speaker 1: How hard was it when you first started? And did

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Speaker 3: Definitely?

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Speaker 4: It took it took like four months before I actually

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Speaker 4: I'm in this state where I look good, but I

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Speaker 3: Do it all over again. So I'm bulking. I've been

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Speaker 3: eating like crazy in New York.

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Speaker 1: I love It's good.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I had carbone in the Barclays Center.

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Speaker 1: Oh that's because they have the Crown Room.

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Speaker 3: Lillow tiny room. Somebody was like, yeah, this carbone. I

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Speaker 1: Take some stuff to go to. Yeah, because you were

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Speaker 3: Yeah, go Lakers, don't don't.

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Speaker 4: It was good to see Schroder, who used to play

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Speaker 4: Bridges play live. I'm a big fan of his, you

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Speaker 3: You don't know that. You know, got to play an

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Speaker 1: I saw you, you know what I mean, telling up

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Speaker 1: your muscles playing body. Oh my god, Now let's get

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Speaker 1: So talk to us about just what happened, because I

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Speaker 3: Oh? Man?

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Speaker 4: It just started off as as you know, me, kind

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Speaker 4: I started to self medicaid. Man, I talk about my

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Speaker 4: But once I did get caught, and it was the

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Speaker 1: And what do you mean you got caught?

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Speaker 3: I had a surgery.

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Speaker 4: I mean, well, hallelujah, God is the most important thing, right,

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Speaker 3: Is special, you know what I mean. I'm not.

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Speaker 3: Four years for me. It talks about everything.

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Speaker 3: Woo heavy yourself? I've been killing myself softly wakeing of remembering.

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Speaker 1: You know, because people also had no idea what you

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Speaker 3: And it's a beautiful song.

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Speaker 4: That's I think that's the real the what we wanted

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Speaker 1: And I was just thinking, like he just was drinking

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Speaker 4: I've been talking my shit up and I respect to

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Speaker 3: Are scared reap you read about that, Yeah.

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Speaker 4: Look you know, alcohol is not to be fucked with,

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Speaker 3: It doesn't affect anything.

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Speaker 4: It makes me a better version of myself in instances

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Speaker 4: Or five days a week, you know what I mean.

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Speaker 3: Thought it was a vivid way to paint, you know,

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Speaker 4: And really that's an eight year old song. Was crazy

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Speaker 3: It was me. It's not me anymore.

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Speaker 4: I definitely you know, I have a gracious wife. I'm

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Speaker 1: You know that's amazing. Yeah, you hear here, let me

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Speaker 4: And you know, I fought the good fight. I ain't

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Speaker 4: And you know, I've been showing a lot of grace

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Speaker 3: Show anybody else that's going through anything like that, you

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Speaker 4: I just want to show them love and grace because

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Speaker 3: I'm blessed and I know it.

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Speaker 3: We were done? Yeah? We were done. We were done.

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Speaker 4: Then, and there was never a time where we weren't

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Speaker 4: to kind of hide and spilt right on over into

441
00:18:32,320 --> 00:18:33,600
Speaker 4: the bedroom and we.

442
00:18:33,600 --> 00:18:37,880
Speaker 1: Just that can patch things up way right back.

443
00:18:40,359 --> 00:18:42,680
Speaker 4: No, no, no, just a lot of it was conversation,

444
00:18:42,960 --> 00:18:47,120
Speaker 4: like and painful conversation, but definitely that room.

445
00:18:47,720 --> 00:18:50,000
Speaker 1: You know what that is so crazy because guys would

446
00:18:50,000 --> 00:18:53,360
Speaker 1: tell you that is like the most passionate sec use,

447
00:18:54,760 --> 00:18:58,360
Speaker 1: but they go up. It's very toxic, you know. That's

448
00:18:58,400 --> 00:19:01,840
Speaker 1: what y'all do, whatever you gotta do. It's all about pleasing,

449
00:19:02,440 --> 00:19:09,520
Speaker 1: makes good and going and saying all the right things.

450
00:19:07,880 --> 00:19:16,560
Speaker 4: Ext I definitely like I've broken down so many times

451
00:19:16,600 --> 00:19:19,280
Speaker 4: I can't count, and my wife has seen the ugliest

452
00:19:19,320 --> 00:19:21,480
Speaker 4: side of me, you know, and I think I think

453
00:19:21,520 --> 00:19:23,720
Speaker 4: that kind of vulnerability is.

454
00:19:25,880 --> 00:19:27,200
Speaker 3: It's it's hard to.

455
00:19:28,920 --> 00:19:31,200
Speaker 4: It's hard to it's hard to accept, but it's hard

456
00:19:31,280 --> 00:19:34,000
Speaker 4: not to accept, like when somebody's that truthful.

457
00:19:33,760 --> 00:19:35,719
Speaker 3: You know what I mean. I was, I was blatant,

458
00:19:35,760 --> 00:19:38,720
Speaker 3: I was ugly and was sick all at the same time.

459
00:19:38,880 --> 00:19:41,560
Speaker 3: I was an anecdote. All during all this, you know what.

460
00:19:41,520 --> 00:19:43,760
Speaker 4: I mean, And that was the biggest part of my addiction.

461
00:19:43,840 --> 00:19:46,919
Speaker 4: I'm a god fearing, god feeled man. So to have

462
00:19:46,960 --> 00:19:49,440
Speaker 4: stepped out of my house because I thought I had

463
00:19:49,520 --> 00:19:52,119
Speaker 4: something that I didn't or it was was somebody that

464
00:19:52,200 --> 00:19:55,359
Speaker 4: I wasn't was not sitting well in my spirit, and

465
00:19:55,400 --> 00:19:59,359
Speaker 4: the only way that I was like getting through getting

466
00:19:59,400 --> 00:20:01,640
Speaker 4: by was self medicating.

467
00:20:02,320 --> 00:20:05,919
Speaker 1: Was this during the pandemic too? Yeah, okay, the pandemic.

468
00:20:07,440 --> 00:20:08,920
Speaker 3: So I was stuck at the crib.

469
00:20:08,960 --> 00:20:11,879
Speaker 4: I was literally lived downtown, was going down to my

470
00:20:12,040 --> 00:20:16,960
Speaker 4: parking lot car and just doing my thing for hours

471
00:20:16,960 --> 00:20:18,880
Speaker 4: on end, for days on end. She was knocked out

472
00:20:18,880 --> 00:20:21,320
Speaker 4: in the bed, didn't know I was downstairs in the

473
00:20:21,320 --> 00:20:25,480
Speaker 4: living room while she was sleep doing my thing, going crazy.

474
00:20:27,240 --> 00:20:30,000
Speaker 1: How much of a role did that the pandemic play

475
00:20:30,080 --> 00:20:31,400
Speaker 1: in this too, because.

476
00:20:31,240 --> 00:20:33,800
Speaker 4: No idea knew that it fucked everybody up, but didn't

477
00:20:33,800 --> 00:20:36,040
Speaker 4: know that. It was like weighing so heavy on what

478
00:20:36,119 --> 00:20:40,119
Speaker 4: was going on with my own personal challenge, But looking back,

479
00:20:41,560 --> 00:20:44,600
Speaker 4: it was, oh man, COVID was hard.

480
00:20:45,119 --> 00:20:47,280
Speaker 3: Cold. That COVID period was hard.

481
00:20:47,280 --> 00:20:49,040
Speaker 1: Because there's also a time where you got to be

482
00:20:49,040 --> 00:20:51,960
Speaker 1: out making money, on the road things are hot, yep.

483
00:20:52,160 --> 00:20:56,480
Speaker 1: And then now everything hadn't been used to being home.

484
00:20:56,359 --> 00:20:58,359
Speaker 3: Right, and I was downtown in La too.

485
00:20:58,480 --> 00:21:01,000
Speaker 4: But the thing about me, though, I was slick as fuck,

486
00:21:01,119 --> 00:21:03,560
Speaker 4: so I wasn't like I never felt that kind of pressure.

487
00:21:03,720 --> 00:21:06,680
Speaker 4: I got what I needed, I got an nowhere to go. No, no, no,

488
00:21:06,840 --> 00:21:07,520
Speaker 4: I had money.

489
00:21:07,680 --> 00:21:09,600
Speaker 3: That's the thing, y'all gotta remember, like I was, sir.

490
00:21:10,119 --> 00:21:12,480
Speaker 3: So it wasn't getting getting drugs or getting.

491
00:21:12,240 --> 00:21:15,520
Speaker 4: What I needed was easy for show outn't pay niggas

492
00:21:15,560 --> 00:21:18,080
Speaker 4: rent for show out and bought a Porsche Panama with

493
00:21:18,240 --> 00:21:19,080
Speaker 4: a dope for show.

494
00:21:19,080 --> 00:21:21,639
Speaker 3: I didn't lost it all. Y'all don't understand.

495
00:21:22,280 --> 00:21:25,280
Speaker 4: I was an added that I wasn't no like, no, no,

496
00:21:25,280 --> 00:21:26,720
Speaker 4: it wasn't no little thing it was.

497
00:21:27,080 --> 00:21:29,600
Speaker 1: And the thing, like you said, you are sir, So

498
00:21:29,880 --> 00:21:33,359
Speaker 1: was it also embarrassing that like these people are serving.

499
00:21:33,000 --> 00:21:34,720
Speaker 3: You smoke smoke?

500
00:21:37,160 --> 00:21:41,560
Speaker 4: Yeah, oh yeah, it wasn't embarrassing. Oh man, I didn't care.

501
00:21:41,880 --> 00:21:44,760
Speaker 1: I didn't because, like you know, I'm giving, sir.

502
00:21:45,400 --> 00:21:48,200
Speaker 3: But they treated me like they loved me. Why would

503
00:21:48,200 --> 00:21:48,520
Speaker 3: they not.

504
00:21:50,520 --> 00:21:53,520
Speaker 4: I'm keeping the block hot, why would they not? Yeah,

505
00:21:54,480 --> 00:21:56,920
Speaker 4: I got the money they want, Why would they need, not.

506
00:21:57,000 --> 00:21:57,960
Speaker 3: What they need.

507
00:21:58,119 --> 00:21:59,920
Speaker 1: I feel like some people think that's a rock star

508
00:22:00,119 --> 00:22:03,480
Speaker 1: thing too. Like I feel like in the music business

509
00:22:03,880 --> 00:22:06,000
Speaker 1: you do stuff like that and it's not as frowned

510
00:22:06,080 --> 00:22:08,280
Speaker 1: upon because it's like rock star vibes like.

511
00:22:09,359 --> 00:22:12,280
Speaker 3: And if that is true, I'll be the first to

512
00:22:13,080 --> 00:22:16,439
Speaker 3: stand up against it because that I mean, I definitely

513
00:22:16,440 --> 00:22:18,439
Speaker 3: didn't have didn't get that feeling from the people around me.

514
00:22:18,480 --> 00:22:20,359
Speaker 3: People around me want to be to be healthy, you

515
00:22:20,400 --> 00:22:20,880
Speaker 3: know what I mean.

516
00:22:21,400 --> 00:22:24,040
Speaker 4: I definitely wasn't encouraged or pushed in the direction I

517
00:22:24,080 --> 00:22:24,440
Speaker 4: was pushed.

518
00:22:24,440 --> 00:22:25,880
Speaker 3: This was a choice I made on my own.

519
00:22:25,880 --> 00:22:27,919
Speaker 1: Well no, but sometimes people just kind of accept it

520
00:22:27,960 --> 00:22:30,720
Speaker 1: more when you know it's because they're like, yeah, you know,

521
00:22:30,960 --> 00:22:34,240
Speaker 1: sir right again, but you know, he is a artist.

522
00:22:34,440 --> 00:22:37,199
Speaker 4: I think that's more. I think that's more people that

523
00:22:37,240 --> 00:22:39,760
Speaker 4: see it don't want to talk about it. That isn't

524
00:22:39,800 --> 00:22:42,680
Speaker 4: anyone's fault. That is that's that's more of the addicts fault.

525
00:22:43,080 --> 00:22:45,640
Speaker 4: Drugs are never the fault of somebody that's watching it happen,

526
00:22:45,720 --> 00:22:48,440
Speaker 4: especially somebody that doesn't understand. I appreciate you for saying that,

527
00:22:48,480 --> 00:22:51,600
Speaker 4: because this point is very poignant. You don't blame somebody

528
00:22:51,640 --> 00:22:55,520
Speaker 4: for non understanding. You don't if somebody's watching somebody get

529
00:22:55,600 --> 00:22:56,480
Speaker 4: high and they're.

530
00:22:56,200 --> 00:22:57,880
Speaker 3: Like, what the fuck is going on?

531
00:22:58,000 --> 00:22:59,680
Speaker 4: They don't know what drug they're using, they don't see

532
00:22:59,720 --> 00:23:02,119
Speaker 4: them in jesting it. They don't they don't actually know

533
00:23:02,160 --> 00:23:04,240
Speaker 4: what's going on, but they feel it in their spirit.

534
00:23:05,119 --> 00:23:07,200
Speaker 3: You can't be mad at that person. You got to

535
00:23:07,200 --> 00:23:08,520
Speaker 3: be mad at that. You gotta be mad at the

536
00:23:08,480 --> 00:23:10,359
Speaker 3: motherfucker's trying to hide it and trying to act normal

537
00:23:10,960 --> 00:23:13,800
Speaker 3: and trying to be mad at that.

538
00:23:13,800 --> 00:23:15,280
Speaker 4: But don't be mad at the person that's trying to

539
00:23:15,280 --> 00:23:16,560
Speaker 4: figure out what the fuck's going on.

540
00:23:16,960 --> 00:23:19,119
Speaker 1: And that brings us to this song Trying my heart is.

541
00:23:20,600 --> 00:23:21,600
Speaker 3: That song makes me cry.

542
00:23:21,760 --> 00:23:25,720
Speaker 1: Fucking was gonna say, I can see it.

543
00:23:25,760 --> 00:23:27,919
Speaker 4: Is okay, but like performing it live. I've tried to

544
00:23:27,920 --> 00:23:31,960
Speaker 4: rehearse it in live and mark two seconds inn and

545
00:23:32,280 --> 00:23:35,200
Speaker 4: definitely wrote that after the second relapse I was talking

546
00:23:35,240 --> 00:23:36,919
Speaker 4: about so the first time around.

547
00:23:37,040 --> 00:23:38,000
Speaker 3: Definitely lost my shit.

548
00:23:38,520 --> 00:23:41,840
Speaker 4: Three days after I got out of the door second time,

549
00:23:42,000 --> 00:23:44,480
Speaker 4: after a long period of not messing up, I messed

550
00:23:44,560 --> 00:23:46,399
Speaker 4: up and I wrote that song. I'm trying my hardest

551
00:23:46,480 --> 00:23:48,280
Speaker 4: plent to sy give it time, hope that it grows

552
00:23:48,400 --> 00:23:50,159
Speaker 4: energy is hard to find. I know that you know

553
00:23:50,560 --> 00:23:52,520
Speaker 4: promises I want to keep in keeping me down, but

554
00:23:52,600 --> 00:23:54,760
Speaker 4: I know how I would feel if I can't keep

555
00:23:54,760 --> 00:23:57,359
Speaker 4: you around. So I meditate, got my mind focused on you.

556
00:23:57,920 --> 00:23:59,040
Speaker 3: Change your pace. It ain't a race.

557
00:23:59,080 --> 00:24:01,080
Speaker 4: I'm chasing the truth, sick of all the pain that

558
00:24:01,080 --> 00:24:03,320
Speaker 4: I've been putting you through. I keep getting it wrong,

559
00:24:03,440 --> 00:24:05,920
Speaker 4: but I know that I'm trying my hardest. I wish

560
00:24:06,000 --> 00:24:08,239
Speaker 4: more people really like read lyrics and paid attention. Whate

561
00:24:08,280 --> 00:24:10,200
Speaker 4: motherfuckers were saying, if they pay attention to what I'm

562
00:24:10,200 --> 00:24:12,640
Speaker 4: actually saying on this, they'll, they'll, they'll.

563
00:24:12,760 --> 00:24:15,240
Speaker 1: That sounds to me really touched me too, though, just

564
00:24:16,200 --> 00:24:18,440
Speaker 1: actually knowing what you went through and knowing that it's

565
00:24:18,480 --> 00:24:21,639
Speaker 1: probably the especially towards it's also towards the end of

566
00:24:21,680 --> 00:24:24,920
Speaker 1: the album, and so knowing that, like you've done the

567
00:24:25,040 --> 00:24:28,119
Speaker 1: no Evil six whole Days, six whole Days, which is

568
00:24:28,240 --> 00:24:30,359
Speaker 1: just you on that song, and you're talking about just

569
00:24:30,480 --> 00:24:33,120
Speaker 1: looking at the sun, and so basically you've been up.

570
00:24:33,040 --> 00:24:37,040
Speaker 4: And so that song represents a bad time.

571
00:24:37,119 --> 00:24:38,720
Speaker 3: I was just telling somebody that was I.

572
00:24:38,640 --> 00:24:41,439
Speaker 4: Was going through it when I wrote that song, just

573
00:24:41,480 --> 00:24:46,600
Speaker 4: after the last Relapse. It was just a day that

574
00:24:46,800 --> 00:24:48,479
Speaker 4: had been way too long, and I was in my

575
00:24:48,480 --> 00:24:51,400
Speaker 4: mother's backyard just looking up at the sky and that

576
00:24:51,400 --> 00:24:53,680
Speaker 4: that idea came and I sang it to my mom

577
00:24:53,680 --> 00:24:55,439
Speaker 4: as a joke and she laughed, and then I just

578
00:24:55,440 --> 00:24:57,720
Speaker 4: went inside and actually like kind of jotted it down.

579
00:24:57,880 --> 00:25:00,280
Speaker 3: Yeah, and it worked out. It turned out. That's uncle

580
00:25:00,280 --> 00:25:05,399
Speaker 3: playing bass, that's my mom singing about Wow. Me and

581
00:25:05,480 --> 00:25:06,520
Speaker 3: cale Banks shout out to.

582
00:25:06,480 --> 00:25:11,879
Speaker 4: Cow and definitely my uncle Andrew is like he's a

583
00:25:11,880 --> 00:25:14,040
Speaker 4: god of base. He's a god of gospel based people

584
00:25:14,119 --> 00:25:18,040
Speaker 4: know him. We our careers started from the Q base

585
00:25:18,080 --> 00:25:22,760
Speaker 4: that he gave us and the Excel board that he

586
00:25:22,800 --> 00:25:25,359
Speaker 4: gave us back in the day. He gave us everything

587
00:25:25,400 --> 00:25:27,800
Speaker 4: that we've ever worked on, all the equipment and always

588
00:25:27,840 --> 00:25:30,000
Speaker 4: put you know, our careers first, you know what I mean.

589
00:25:30,040 --> 00:25:30,720
Speaker 3: Love him to death.

590
00:25:30,840 --> 00:25:32,960
Speaker 4: So anytime I get an opportunity to work with him,

591
00:25:33,119 --> 00:25:35,199
Speaker 4: I do. And he's like excited to work with me,

592
00:25:35,240 --> 00:25:40,119
Speaker 4: which is crazy, Like hello, what he's like sixty hours,

593
00:25:40,200 --> 00:25:42,720
Speaker 4: Like sixty one I believe. But you know, I still

594
00:25:42,760 --> 00:25:46,160
Speaker 4: see him as the young who like driving a Porsche

595
00:25:46,280 --> 00:25:50,000
Speaker 4: Uncle Andrew tour in the world musician, you know what

596
00:25:50,000 --> 00:25:53,520
Speaker 4: I mean, And the like that song in particular is

597
00:25:53,520 --> 00:25:55,359
Speaker 4: a blessing to have on the roster because I got

598
00:25:55,400 --> 00:25:56,639
Speaker 4: so many family members attached to it.

599
00:25:57,160 --> 00:25:58,360
Speaker 3: On that too, my brother Dave.

600
00:25:58,359 --> 00:26:00,800
Speaker 1: So y'all got like it is. I really like that.

601
00:26:04,040 --> 00:26:06,280
Speaker 1: You know, how hard is it too, even when you're

602
00:26:06,320 --> 00:26:09,200
Speaker 1: listening to this album knowing what you are going through,

603
00:26:09,920 --> 00:26:12,520
Speaker 1: you know on so many of these songs, like and

604
00:26:12,760 --> 00:26:15,520
Speaker 1: I know you're planning a tour so you'll be performing this.

605
00:26:15,600 --> 00:26:18,560
Speaker 3: I mean, this is this is the most emotional I'll

606
00:26:18,560 --> 00:26:19,840
Speaker 3: ever be, for sure.

607
00:26:20,000 --> 00:26:23,439
Speaker 4: It's I mean, it's difficult listening back. But I'm not

608
00:26:23,520 --> 00:26:26,440
Speaker 4: in the place anymore. I don't I don't go there anymore.

609
00:26:26,880 --> 00:26:29,840
Speaker 4: I'm I'm stuck in my routine. I'm focused on the

610
00:26:29,880 --> 00:26:32,040
Speaker 4: right things, and I know what I have to do.

611
00:26:32,119 --> 00:26:32,919
Speaker 4: I have to sing it.

612
00:26:33,560 --> 00:26:37,399
Speaker 3: I have to sing it.

613
00:26:36,040 --> 00:26:37,359
Speaker 1: For your wife to hear some of this.

614
00:26:37,640 --> 00:26:40,159
Speaker 4: She don't listen to it. Wow, we don't listen to it.

615
00:26:40,160 --> 00:26:41,520
Speaker 4: And I don't play in my house. I don't force

616
00:26:41,520 --> 00:26:42,760
Speaker 4: it on you know what I mean. I ain't gonna

617
00:26:42,760 --> 00:26:44,040
Speaker 4: do that. It's no point.

618
00:26:44,119 --> 00:26:44,640
Speaker 3: I gotta listen.

619
00:26:44,720 --> 00:26:47,160
Speaker 1: I have to listen to What are the rules now?

620
00:26:47,240 --> 00:26:50,000
Speaker 1: With everything that you guys have been through things change

621
00:26:50,000 --> 00:26:52,879
Speaker 1: in the household, right, and there are certain things that

622
00:26:52,920 --> 00:26:55,200
Speaker 1: you have to, like really continue to prove yourself.

623
00:26:55,800 --> 00:26:57,320
Speaker 4: One of the biggest things that we do is we

624
00:26:57,440 --> 00:27:01,640
Speaker 4: keep a very very open been in the line of communication, like.

625
00:27:01,720 --> 00:27:04,439
Speaker 3: Calls whenever calls all the time. We have fun with it.

626
00:27:04,520 --> 00:27:06,360
Speaker 3: I actually enjoy it, like more than she does.

627
00:27:06,400 --> 00:27:10,359
Speaker 4: I call her all the time, like what I love

628
00:27:10,400 --> 00:27:15,040
Speaker 4: to I'm in the background, and we just talked constantly.

629
00:27:15,200 --> 00:27:17,840
Speaker 4: And of course, you know, I got open phone privileges,

630
00:27:17,880 --> 00:27:19,600
Speaker 4: which you know, was never really a big thing in

631
00:27:19,600 --> 00:27:22,040
Speaker 4: our relationship. She's never wanted to check my phone, but

632
00:27:22,160 --> 00:27:24,080
Speaker 4: nowadays she can grab my phone ever she.

633
00:27:24,080 --> 00:27:26,480
Speaker 3: Wants to look through it. Of course, everything's cool, you.

634
00:27:26,440 --> 00:27:30,480
Speaker 4: Know, and just a lot of prayer and a lot

635
00:27:30,480 --> 00:27:34,080
Speaker 4: of like rough conversations, you know, we don't have them

636
00:27:34,080 --> 00:27:39,720
Speaker 4: too much anymore, but a lot of rough me saying

637
00:27:39,760 --> 00:27:41,520
Speaker 4: stuff that I should have said a long time ago,

638
00:27:41,720 --> 00:27:44,639
Speaker 4: stuff she don't want to hear, and me, you know,

639
00:27:44,960 --> 00:27:46,600
Speaker 4: trying to talk.

640
00:27:46,440 --> 00:27:49,240
Speaker 3: Through things that she needs from me and figure things out.

641
00:27:49,280 --> 00:27:52,240
Speaker 3: A lot of tough conversations.

642
00:27:52,280 --> 00:27:54,639
Speaker 1: Does she want to know everything you did? Because I

643
00:27:54,680 --> 00:27:58,320
Speaker 1: know sometimes okay, some people want to know, like Kim

644
00:27:58,640 --> 00:28:01,800
Speaker 1: help you went through it went through? Did you want

645
00:28:01,800 --> 00:28:02,320
Speaker 1: to know it all?

646
00:28:03,240 --> 00:28:06,000
Speaker 2: When I was going through it, I was looking for answers, right,

647
00:28:06,080 --> 00:28:10,880
Speaker 2: like so like the the I think for me, the

648
00:28:10,920 --> 00:28:12,960
Speaker 2: why of it all was really the answer.

649
00:28:13,800 --> 00:28:16,359
Speaker 4: That's a huge thing because the why attached to the

650
00:28:16,400 --> 00:28:17,560
Speaker 4: why is like his.

651
00:28:17,520 --> 00:28:18,680
Speaker 3: Emotions, right, you know what I mean?

652
00:28:18,760 --> 00:28:21,840
Speaker 4: Like what am I doing wrong? It comes first, That's

653
00:28:21,840 --> 00:28:24,120
Speaker 4: what she think, Kelly. I'm just speaking from my wife.

654
00:28:24,160 --> 00:28:26,920
Speaker 4: I know there's probably some similarities, but like what she thought?

655
00:28:26,960 --> 00:28:28,600
Speaker 3: What am I doing wrong? What did I do wrong?

656
00:28:29,000 --> 00:28:31,399
Speaker 3: You know what I mean? Or like where's his head been?

657
00:28:31,520 --> 00:28:33,960
Speaker 4: Like how did he get to the point where do

658
00:28:34,080 --> 00:28:35,800
Speaker 4: we miss where he got to the point where he

659
00:28:35,800 --> 00:28:38,040
Speaker 4: thought he needed this as his outlet?

660
00:28:38,240 --> 00:28:38,840
Speaker 3: You know what I mean?

661
00:28:38,960 --> 00:28:42,920
Speaker 4: And it's not exactly but the kind And this is

662
00:28:42,960 --> 00:28:45,640
Speaker 4: one of those tricky conversations where it's it's it's so

663
00:28:45,760 --> 00:28:47,959
Speaker 4: much deeper than that and bigger than that, but it's

664
00:28:48,000 --> 00:28:50,560
Speaker 4: it's a whole different mindset, and especially me being served,

665
00:28:50,560 --> 00:28:52,600
Speaker 4: my mindset was not that It wasn't that I was

666
00:28:52,600 --> 00:28:54,400
Speaker 4: falling in love at all.

667
00:28:54,200 --> 00:28:56,520
Speaker 3: In any instance. My heart was never the thing that

668
00:28:56,800 --> 00:28:57,800
Speaker 3: was in it.

669
00:28:57,800 --> 00:29:03,080
Speaker 4: It was in addiction and be an emotional like almost released,

670
00:29:03,120 --> 00:29:04,280
Speaker 4: like there was no emotion.

671
00:29:04,080 --> 00:29:05,200
Speaker 1: Attached to disconnect.

672
00:29:05,760 --> 00:29:06,720
Speaker 3: It was a disconnect.

673
00:29:06,800 --> 00:29:08,560
Speaker 4: It was the exact opposite, you know what I mean,

674
00:29:08,640 --> 00:29:11,320
Speaker 4: And I don't you know, say that's for everybody, you know,

675
00:29:11,560 --> 00:29:12,560
Speaker 4: that was your situation.

676
00:29:12,640 --> 00:29:15,120
Speaker 3: That was my situation where I was, I was disconnecting.

677
00:29:15,200 --> 00:29:17,320
Speaker 1: And what did her fan? Did her family know what

678
00:29:17,360 --> 00:29:19,040
Speaker 1: was going on? And where they like, I'm sure they

679
00:29:19,080 --> 00:29:23,280
Speaker 1: know now, Okay now, because sometimes people share too much

680
00:29:23,360 --> 00:29:24,960
Speaker 1: and then it kind of can ruin.

681
00:29:25,360 --> 00:29:27,239
Speaker 4: This ain't nobody business with mine? No, at the end

682
00:29:27,240 --> 00:29:29,160
Speaker 4: of the day, Like that's what me and Kelly do know.

683
00:29:29,240 --> 00:29:31,000
Speaker 4: And that's this is a mistake that a lot of

684
00:29:31,040 --> 00:29:33,240
Speaker 4: people make, is they bring people into these situations.

685
00:29:33,600 --> 00:29:35,040
Speaker 3: Nobody has any word or say, in.

686
00:29:35,000 --> 00:29:38,280
Speaker 4: My eye, we got fists for you, I got fisticuffs

687
00:29:38,280 --> 00:29:38,479
Speaker 4: for you.

688
00:29:38,520 --> 00:29:40,040
Speaker 3: Nobody has any word in our situation.

689
00:29:40,600 --> 00:29:43,280
Speaker 1: Did y'all do like any type of therapy, couple's therapy

690
00:29:43,400 --> 00:29:43,960
Speaker 1: or nothing?

691
00:29:44,400 --> 00:29:47,880
Speaker 4: We did an individual therapy, okay, individuals for sure, Yeah,

692
00:29:48,040 --> 00:29:48,840
Speaker 4: a couple therapy.

693
00:29:48,880 --> 00:29:50,320
Speaker 3: We've talked about it, prayed about it.

694
00:29:51,360 --> 00:29:52,440
Speaker 1: How was therapy for you?

695
00:29:52,800 --> 00:29:53,080
Speaker 3: Great?

696
00:29:53,680 --> 00:29:58,080
Speaker 4: Wonderful, very eye opening, very self revealing, Like how mag oh,

697
00:29:58,120 --> 00:30:00,840
Speaker 4: my gosh. I learned a lot about like forgiveness in

698
00:30:00,880 --> 00:30:04,800
Speaker 4: my therapy, you know, self forgiveness huge radics. We don't

699
00:30:04,840 --> 00:30:06,360
Speaker 4: know how you know what I mean. That's one of

700
00:30:06,400 --> 00:30:08,480
Speaker 4: our first problems is not being able to talk about

701
00:30:08,520 --> 00:30:10,200
Speaker 4: it and not be able to move past it, able

702
00:30:10,240 --> 00:30:12,760
Speaker 4: to forgive ourselves for the things we've done, because a

703
00:30:12,800 --> 00:30:14,800
Speaker 4: lot of it's like things we don't talk about, like

704
00:30:15,240 --> 00:30:18,560
Speaker 4: people never see type shit. But forgiveness. My therapist was

705
00:30:18,600 --> 00:30:23,240
Speaker 4: great at giving me that gift, you know, and we talked.

706
00:30:23,320 --> 00:30:25,760
Speaker 4: We talked a lot about routine, you know, like me

707
00:30:25,800 --> 00:30:27,680
Speaker 4: figuring out what my routine was. She's the one that

708
00:30:27,760 --> 00:30:29,600
Speaker 4: got me like back focused on like the gym and

709
00:30:29,600 --> 00:30:32,280
Speaker 4: stuff like that, and switched that dopamine on for me,

710
00:30:32,360 --> 00:30:33,920
Speaker 4: you know what I mean, And like, oh.

711
00:30:33,960 --> 00:30:34,480
Speaker 3: She's great.

712
00:30:34,560 --> 00:30:35,960
Speaker 1: You think you're addicted to the gym.

713
00:30:35,800 --> 00:30:37,520
Speaker 3: Now I know. I'm addicted to them.

714
00:30:38,400 --> 00:30:41,440
Speaker 1: It's not a bad addiction. But not all addictions are bad, No.

715
00:30:41,680 --> 00:30:43,680
Speaker 3: No, for sure. For sure. I used to be addicted

716
00:30:43,680 --> 00:30:45,240
Speaker 3: to gummy bears, you know what I mean. I much

717
00:30:45,320 --> 00:30:46,320
Speaker 3: rather be addicted to sprints.

718
00:30:46,640 --> 00:30:48,440
Speaker 1: Man. I used to always eat gummy beers from the

719
00:30:48,440 --> 00:30:51,640
Speaker 1: stomach first. Is that crazy? The stomach. When I was little,

720
00:30:52,600 --> 00:30:55,440
Speaker 1: I used to eat the stomach and why vended? And

721
00:30:55,480 --> 00:30:57,600
Speaker 1: then I would do that and act like they were

722
00:30:57,600 --> 00:30:58,000
Speaker 1: in pain.

723
00:30:58,040 --> 00:30:58,680
Speaker 3: Would you like to talk?

724
00:30:58,760 --> 00:31:02,480
Speaker 1: You talk to them before you did, and then they

725
00:31:02,480 --> 00:31:06,680
Speaker 1: would look very like distorted, you know, it would.

726
00:31:06,440 --> 00:31:08,400
Speaker 3: Look like screaming and the hurt.

727
00:31:08,840 --> 00:31:11,560
Speaker 1: I really killed this gummy beer stomach first.

728
00:31:12,480 --> 00:31:16,959
Speaker 5: I think mutilated stomach off of gummy bears.

729
00:31:17,040 --> 00:31:18,720
Speaker 1: I was the next time I eat a gummy beer,

730
00:31:18,720 --> 00:31:19,160
Speaker 1: I want.

731
00:31:19,040 --> 00:31:19,320
Speaker 3: To do that.

732
00:31:19,520 --> 00:31:24,320
Speaker 4: I want to talk to like, what's your last word?

733
00:31:23,920 --> 00:31:25,240
Speaker 1: I think you're gonna live?

734
00:31:25,320 --> 00:31:27,400
Speaker 5: Now that's weird.

735
00:31:30,080 --> 00:31:33,760
Speaker 1: Okay, so gummy bears beers, and now you're to zucchini.

736
00:31:34,680 --> 00:31:39,840
Speaker 1: Actually I love I love zucchini too. But the way

737
00:31:39,880 --> 00:31:43,320
Speaker 1: he said like salmon zucchati, you.

738
00:31:43,320 --> 00:31:44,840
Speaker 4: Know, I think I was switching at all. Right, So

739
00:31:44,880 --> 00:31:47,800
Speaker 4: I eat according to like my blood type and your

740
00:31:47,800 --> 00:31:49,080
Speaker 4: blood low cor uh?

741
00:31:49,720 --> 00:31:53,720
Speaker 1: Oh unusual? Wasn't that like the most unusual?

742
00:31:53,760 --> 00:31:54,120
Speaker 5: Positive?

743
00:31:54,640 --> 00:31:55,040
Speaker 3: Negative?

744
00:31:55,440 --> 00:31:58,840
Speaker 5: Your oh? Positives? Pretty common?

745
00:31:59,160 --> 00:32:01,040
Speaker 3: Pretty comb is the most.

746
00:32:01,080 --> 00:32:02,400
Speaker 5: Baby My daughter has a.

747
00:32:02,680 --> 00:32:04,640
Speaker 3: Really Oh do they ask her to get blood all

748
00:32:04,680 --> 00:32:08,960
Speaker 3: the time? Not yet they will as an adult every month.

749
00:32:09,480 --> 00:32:12,200
Speaker 3: You know, Okay, you're a positive.

750
00:32:12,280 --> 00:32:12,520
Speaker 1: Yeah?

751
00:32:12,600 --> 00:32:15,120
Speaker 4: Oh wow, you know our diets are so different, like

752
00:32:15,200 --> 00:32:19,680
Speaker 4: what our bodies digest and how it digests are very similar.

753
00:32:19,960 --> 00:32:22,080
Speaker 3: So I can't. I've told her I can't do red meat.

754
00:32:22,120 --> 00:32:25,400
Speaker 3: I can, but it's not yeah you know, yeah, yeah, yeah,

755
00:32:25,440 --> 00:32:28,520
Speaker 3: but I can do beef. You can do lamb.

756
00:32:28,960 --> 00:32:32,000
Speaker 4: Lamb is great for us. You know, salmon's great for us.

757
00:32:32,080 --> 00:32:35,720
Speaker 4: Any kind of white fish is great for us. Chicken, no,

758
00:32:35,800 --> 00:32:39,280
Speaker 4: fried chicken. Chicken is neutral, which is crazy.

759
00:32:40,320 --> 00:32:40,480
Speaker 1: Love.

760
00:32:40,640 --> 00:32:47,040
Speaker 3: I love chicken. Dark meat not so much, you know,

761
00:32:47,080 --> 00:32:51,080
Speaker 3: I mean too much. Fact. Yeah, but avocados bad for us.

762
00:32:52,600 --> 00:32:56,200
Speaker 5: I've never heard avocado a lot of I love ala.

763
00:32:56,320 --> 00:32:59,120
Speaker 1: I just had avocado for the first time. I don't

764
00:32:59,240 --> 00:33:01,120
Speaker 1: but it doesn't. Yeah, I don't like it.

765
00:33:01,400 --> 00:33:03,120
Speaker 3: You don't. You guys are weird.

766
00:33:03,560 --> 00:33:06,960
Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't. I'm like a superrigy eater. I just

767
00:33:07,000 --> 00:33:08,840
Speaker 1: had it for the first I don't like the consistency,

768
00:33:09,160 --> 00:33:10,000
Speaker 1: I don't like the texture.

769
00:33:10,080 --> 00:33:11,680
Speaker 4: My daughter, the first I would try to give it

770
00:33:11,720 --> 00:33:13,959
Speaker 4: to her, she made this face that I will never forget.

771
00:33:13,960 --> 00:33:16,040
Speaker 4: It was like it was like the face like was like,

772
00:33:16,120 --> 00:33:17,560
Speaker 4: why hast out forsaken?

773
00:33:20,760 --> 00:33:22,560
Speaker 1: How did life change after? I mean, I know you

774
00:33:22,600 --> 00:33:24,680
Speaker 1: were going through a lot, like while your wife was pregnant,

775
00:33:24,680 --> 00:33:27,560
Speaker 1: but you have a daughter. You know what were some

776
00:33:27,680 --> 00:33:30,360
Speaker 1: great moments from having a little girl?

777
00:33:30,840 --> 00:33:34,360
Speaker 4: Oh Man, one of the best was like her first

778
00:33:34,400 --> 00:33:34,880
Speaker 4: time walking.

779
00:33:34,920 --> 00:33:37,040
Speaker 3: She started walking when she was like a year and

780
00:33:37,080 --> 00:33:37,520
Speaker 3: like a month.

781
00:33:38,480 --> 00:33:40,560
Speaker 1: Little girls walking earlier than boy.

782
00:33:40,600 --> 00:33:42,480
Speaker 4: But I mean, I just I just know that from

783
00:33:42,480 --> 00:33:44,240
Speaker 4: the time she started walking, it was almost like she

784
00:33:44,280 --> 00:33:45,640
Speaker 4: started running the next day.

785
00:33:45,800 --> 00:33:47,320
Speaker 3: She's the fastest person in our house.

786
00:33:47,760 --> 00:33:51,680
Speaker 4: And like we talk about lely because she she's a toddler,

787
00:33:51,840 --> 00:33:53,840
Speaker 4: full on tiller now but likes to like do this

788
00:33:53,880 --> 00:33:56,920
Speaker 4: thing where you say come here, and she says and.

789
00:33:56,960 --> 00:34:00,480
Speaker 3: Goes the opposite direction. One of the favorite games to play.

790
00:34:00,840 --> 00:34:03,719
Speaker 4: But she's like a football Like she's like a wide receiver.

791
00:34:04,720 --> 00:34:07,960
Speaker 4: How she dodges and jukes. You reach for her shoulder drops,

792
00:34:08,040 --> 00:34:11,560
Speaker 4: she moves back. She's just the jukester. She's like she's

793
00:34:11,600 --> 00:34:14,759
Speaker 4: the swiftest like ninja that I've ever met in my life.

794
00:34:14,760 --> 00:34:18,160
Speaker 4: And you know, just our conversations are sweet. That the

795
00:34:18,160 --> 00:34:20,799
Speaker 4: most innocent things I've ever had my life.

796
00:34:20,840 --> 00:34:24,080
Speaker 1: And she's she's three now, so that's she's in school.

797
00:34:24,239 --> 00:34:28,560
Speaker 1: That's a good age. And everything you say and you

798
00:34:28,560 --> 00:34:32,759
Speaker 1: could tell that they really understand you. Know everything, body train, and.

799
00:34:32,800 --> 00:34:35,640
Speaker 4: Yeah, we're we're definitely at the stage where we're like

800
00:34:35,880 --> 00:34:43,480
Speaker 4: considering another baby and like, you know time, I definitely

801
00:34:43,680 --> 00:34:45,720
Speaker 4: what I would take another girl in a heartbeat.

802
00:34:46,800 --> 00:34:49,640
Speaker 3: That's one of those choices that I would never ever

803
00:34:49,960 --> 00:34:52,880
Speaker 3: want to make or make a face about. I'd be

804
00:34:53,160 --> 00:34:54,279
Speaker 3: happy with anything. Man.

805
00:34:54,560 --> 00:34:56,000
Speaker 4: You know, me and my wife been together a long time.

806
00:34:56,000 --> 00:34:58,000
Speaker 4: We was trying to have kids in our twenties. You know,

807
00:34:58,040 --> 00:34:59,880
Speaker 4: we were blessed with a kid in our in our

808
00:35:00,440 --> 00:35:02,040
Speaker 4: you know what I mean. So to have another one,

809
00:35:02,600 --> 00:35:05,040
Speaker 4: what a miracle. You know, what a miracle.

810
00:35:05,920 --> 00:35:08,880
Speaker 1: Y'all have been through so many You've been through so much. Honestly,

811
00:35:09,200 --> 00:35:11,719
Speaker 1: I'm so happy that you're in this space that you're

812
00:35:11,760 --> 00:35:13,520
Speaker 1: in right now. How long has it been since you've

813
00:35:13,560 --> 00:35:14,759
Speaker 1: been pretty much.

814
00:35:14,680 --> 00:35:19,280
Speaker 3: Sober and going on? Four months or three months?

815
00:35:19,320 --> 00:35:19,560
Speaker 1: Okay?

816
00:35:20,480 --> 00:35:20,880
Speaker 3: Yeah?

817
00:35:21,120 --> 00:35:23,400
Speaker 4: Man, all this was like happen it in twenty twenty

818
00:35:23,400 --> 00:35:25,840
Speaker 4: It's twenty four, right, Yeah.

819
00:35:25,640 --> 00:35:30,839
Speaker 3: So the worst of it was over in twenty twenty two.

820
00:35:31,480 --> 00:35:33,279
Speaker 1: When did you get comfortable talking about it?

821
00:35:34,640 --> 00:35:40,000
Speaker 3: What's today? Over the last like six months, you know

822
00:35:40,000 --> 00:35:41,839
Speaker 3: what I mean, I've.

823
00:35:43,320 --> 00:35:46,000
Speaker 4: I've had a few chances to talk about it in private,

824
00:35:46,200 --> 00:35:48,200
Speaker 4: that kind of helped me get ready to talk about

825
00:35:48,239 --> 00:35:50,239
Speaker 4: it in public, talk about it with some people that

826
00:35:50,280 --> 00:35:54,080
Speaker 4: I wanted to talk about it with, nephews, uncles, aunts,

827
00:35:54,239 --> 00:35:56,840
Speaker 4: you know, people that knew but didn't know, had heard

828
00:35:56,960 --> 00:35:59,520
Speaker 4: but hadn't seen, or wasn't sure, wasn't sure.

829
00:36:00,120 --> 00:36:03,000
Speaker 1: Is there anything that is there anything that you think

830
00:36:03,120 --> 00:36:05,400
Speaker 1: that anybody could have said to you that would have mattered,

831
00:36:05,680 --> 00:36:07,520
Speaker 1: because I know a lot of times there's a lot

832
00:36:07,560 --> 00:36:09,839
Speaker 1: of people that are you know, dealing with somebody close

833
00:36:09,840 --> 00:36:12,719
Speaker 1: to them and are trying to figure out how to navigate.

834
00:36:12,760 --> 00:36:17,120
Speaker 1: But sometimes like I don't know if there's nothing you

835
00:36:17,160 --> 00:36:19,000
Speaker 1: can say or is there anything that you feel like

836
00:36:19,200 --> 00:36:19,920
Speaker 1: could have helped.

837
00:36:20,400 --> 00:36:22,680
Speaker 3: I mean, people tried, but I think.

838
00:36:25,040 --> 00:36:28,640
Speaker 4: One of the main things that I've learned is, you know,

839
00:36:28,760 --> 00:36:32,120
Speaker 4: the first thing is you have to want to help yourself.

840
00:36:32,320 --> 00:36:32,839
Speaker 3: You know what I mean?

841
00:36:32,880 --> 00:36:35,960
Speaker 1: You can't yeah, and someone's not ready, they can't receive that.

842
00:36:36,520 --> 00:36:38,640
Speaker 4: You have the strongest support system around you. But if

843
00:36:38,680 --> 00:36:41,400
Speaker 4: you're not ready to make the steps, nothing's gonna change.

844
00:36:41,640 --> 00:36:43,520
Speaker 1: Did it make you duck people if they were trying

845
00:36:43,520 --> 00:36:43,920
Speaker 1: to talk to you.

846
00:36:44,239 --> 00:36:46,680
Speaker 4: Yeah, I remember one time in particular, being mood. Laugh

847
00:36:46,760 --> 00:36:50,879
Speaker 4: at this now but Musa who being Musa fucking which

848
00:36:51,200 --> 00:36:53,359
Speaker 4: we had to meet in at Apple and I had

849
00:36:53,360 --> 00:36:56,719
Speaker 4: a brand new car. I just bought a car, brand

850
00:36:56,760 --> 00:37:02,120
Speaker 4: new Tesla and a man, I just was not in

851
00:37:02,239 --> 00:37:04,080
Speaker 4: any position to show up to this meeting.

852
00:37:04,560 --> 00:37:07,560
Speaker 3: And I called Mouse. I was like, hey, man, I'm.

853
00:37:07,440 --> 00:37:09,600
Speaker 4: Sorry, bro, but I got a flat tire. I'm stuck

854
00:37:09,640 --> 00:37:11,840
Speaker 4: on the side of the road. Man, I can't They're

855
00:37:11,880 --> 00:37:13,680
Speaker 4: not gonna be able to get to me for another hour.

856
00:37:14,160 --> 00:37:17,600
Speaker 4: I'm not gonna make it. He's like, all right, you

857
00:37:17,600 --> 00:37:20,759
Speaker 4: want me to reschedule? Okay, bye, hung up the phone,

858
00:37:20,800 --> 00:37:24,759
Speaker 4: turned my phone off, and just continue to do some

859
00:37:24,840 --> 00:37:25,960
Speaker 4: bullshit and.

860
00:37:26,520 --> 00:37:28,920
Speaker 3: That kind of stuff. Now it's like funny to think about.

861
00:37:29,000 --> 00:37:32,319
Speaker 3: But yeah, I've been through a lot, man.

862
00:37:32,640 --> 00:37:36,920
Speaker 1: Yeah, And so when is the tour going to start?

863
00:37:39,880 --> 00:37:43,440
Speaker 1: He's like, I don't know, July.

864
00:37:42,880 --> 00:37:45,359
Speaker 4: With July August where we're playing dates right now. We're

865
00:37:45,440 --> 00:37:46,439
Speaker 4: still trying to figure it out.

866
00:37:46,440 --> 00:37:49,560
Speaker 1: But man, when I tell you got to see Sarah perform,

867
00:37:49,800 --> 00:37:54,640
Speaker 1: and I gotta go, I have not pretty good you know,

868
00:37:54,680 --> 00:37:55,799
Speaker 1: I don't be outside like that.

869
00:37:56,080 --> 00:37:58,880
Speaker 4: I definitely went to I had to, you know, and

870
00:37:58,920 --> 00:38:01,120
Speaker 4: this was gonna be a lot different I'm simplified things.

871
00:38:01,120 --> 00:38:03,239
Speaker 4: I think I've grown a lot of my artistry as

872
00:38:03,239 --> 00:38:07,640
Speaker 4: a person. You know, I definitely want to, you know,

873
00:38:07,719 --> 00:38:12,000
Speaker 4: make sure that the tour is proper this time around,

874
00:38:12,000 --> 00:38:14,319
Speaker 4: the last time I wasn't even so, I wasn't so

875
00:38:14,360 --> 00:38:15,479
Speaker 4: all the way sober on tour.

876
00:38:16,000 --> 00:38:18,880
Speaker 1: I mean it was, I mean I couldn't tell so nobody.

877
00:38:19,160 --> 00:38:21,920
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, it was the beginning of the end for me.

878
00:38:22,040 --> 00:38:24,640
Speaker 4: But still this time around, I know I'm a lot

879
00:38:26,480 --> 00:38:28,600
Speaker 4: I've been focused a lot more on my vocal. I've

880
00:38:28,600 --> 00:38:30,600
Speaker 4: been doing a lot more singing, you know, I've been

881
00:38:30,600 --> 00:38:33,399
Speaker 4: doing a lot more cardio. It's a lot more personal work,

882
00:38:33,400 --> 00:38:34,719
Speaker 4: you know what I mean. So I'm excited to show

883
00:38:34,719 --> 00:38:35,600
Speaker 4: this version of myself.

884
00:38:35,600 --> 00:38:36,440
Speaker 1: You have your shirt off.

885
00:38:41,400 --> 00:38:43,560
Speaker 3: They pay me extra make now have you.

886
00:38:43,680 --> 00:38:45,520
Speaker 1: Have you spoken to DeAngelo at all?

887
00:38:45,880 --> 00:38:47,440
Speaker 3: Never? Not a once.

888
00:38:48,320 --> 00:38:50,520
Speaker 1: I feel like that could happen though, Like have you

889
00:38:50,640 --> 00:38:51,760
Speaker 1: tried or figured?

890
00:38:51,960 --> 00:38:52,200
Speaker 3: No?

891
00:38:52,080 --> 00:38:54,360
Speaker 4: No, no, no, I barely man the features that I

892
00:38:54,360 --> 00:38:56,040
Speaker 4: got on my my gcause they the hummies.

893
00:38:56,320 --> 00:38:57,280
Speaker 3: I don't be reaching out.

894
00:38:57,280 --> 00:38:59,280
Speaker 1: So Anderson Pack, I love that song.

895
00:38:59,280 --> 00:38:59,960
Speaker 3: My bros man.

896
00:39:00,040 --> 00:39:08,799
Speaker 1: Yeah, he's single now and probably Jesus.

897
00:39:06,760 --> 00:39:08,440
Speaker 4: Man, I'm always praying for him. Man, that's a good

898
00:39:08,440 --> 00:39:09,839
Speaker 4: friend of mine for sure.

899
00:39:10,080 --> 00:39:13,160
Speaker 1: He was talking about his Vegas residency. Ain't it crazy

900
00:39:13,200 --> 00:39:16,799
Speaker 1: how these Vegas residencies are no joke right now? Like

901
00:39:16,880 --> 00:39:19,719
Speaker 1: we need to be. It used to be like Vegas residency.

902
00:39:19,719 --> 00:39:22,320
Speaker 1: You looked at it like okay, you know this person.

903
00:39:22,840 --> 00:39:24,760
Speaker 1: But now it's like it's.

904
00:39:25,280 --> 00:39:27,080
Speaker 3: Yeah, it used to be strikes.

905
00:39:27,239 --> 00:39:30,920
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean Celine Dion had like that Vegas residency

906
00:39:31,040 --> 00:39:34,560
Speaker 1: that was you know, but it wasn't for us necessarily right.

907
00:39:34,640 --> 00:39:36,480
Speaker 1: And then when we had a chance to see like

908
00:39:36,760 --> 00:39:40,240
Speaker 1: you know, Bruno Mars and Anderson Pack and Wu Tang

909
00:39:40,320 --> 00:39:43,040
Speaker 1: and now jo Toasy and new addition Usher really changed

910
00:39:43,040 --> 00:39:43,279
Speaker 1: the game.

911
00:39:43,360 --> 00:39:44,680
Speaker 5: Yea did change the game?

912
00:39:44,800 --> 00:39:45,000
Speaker 1: You know.

913
00:39:45,120 --> 00:39:45,919
Speaker 3: Did you see that show?

914
00:39:46,680 --> 00:39:49,439
Speaker 1: You know it's crazy. I did not, Okay, and I can't.

915
00:39:52,000 --> 00:39:52,440
Speaker 3: I didn't.

916
00:39:52,680 --> 00:39:56,600
Speaker 1: I want to see new additions and I want to see, yes,

917
00:39:56,640 --> 00:39:58,000
Speaker 1: new editions in Vegas now.

918
00:39:57,920 --> 00:39:59,680
Speaker 5: Yeah, I can't wait.

919
00:40:00,480 --> 00:40:02,560
Speaker 1: That might be a good date night for you. Give

920
00:40:02,560 --> 00:40:05,080
Speaker 1: me something to do, go right on down to Vegas.

921
00:40:05,280 --> 00:40:06,920
Speaker 3: We have to take our daughter as we got no

922
00:40:06,960 --> 00:40:08,600
Speaker 3: baby shitter nobody.

923
00:40:08,600 --> 00:40:11,640
Speaker 1: You don't let nobody watch the baby. But you guys

924
00:40:11,719 --> 00:40:12,760
Speaker 1: have family members.

925
00:40:13,080 --> 00:40:16,080
Speaker 3: Yeah, sure, sure, it's not thing you.

926
00:40:16,080 --> 00:40:18,319
Speaker 1: All at those parents like nobody's.

927
00:40:17,960 --> 00:40:20,400
Speaker 3: I mean my mom for sure, but we don't you know,

928
00:40:20,560 --> 00:40:24,080
Speaker 3: push that on her. Would love to though she loves to.

929
00:40:24,239 --> 00:40:27,320
Speaker 4: No, she does ever softer, But my my daughter doesn't

930
00:40:27,360 --> 00:40:28,920
Speaker 4: like go hang out and spending the night at other

931
00:40:29,040 --> 00:40:29,520
Speaker 4: kid's house.

932
00:40:29,600 --> 00:40:31,200
Speaker 1: Is that not you know I was talking about.

933
00:40:31,400 --> 00:40:33,600
Speaker 5: That's so I think that's the first kid thing.

934
00:40:33,800 --> 00:40:34,800
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, we did that.

935
00:40:34,800 --> 00:40:36,799
Speaker 5: That was like, oh, it's my first kid. By the

936
00:40:36,800 --> 00:40:38,640
Speaker 5: time y'all get to the third baby, you're gonna.

937
00:40:38,440 --> 00:40:42,400
Speaker 1: Be like, yeah, is there anybody that can take this child?

938
00:40:44,640 --> 00:40:46,600
Speaker 4: The one time we did it, this was like a

939
00:40:46,600 --> 00:40:48,520
Speaker 4: couple of weeks ago. I swear to god, we tried

940
00:40:48,520 --> 00:40:50,440
Speaker 4: it out. We send it to our sister's house, send

941
00:40:50,480 --> 00:40:53,640
Speaker 4: her to Dan's wife and uh you know, Ange's sweetest part.

942
00:40:53,760 --> 00:40:55,920
Speaker 3: They have great relationships. There are other kids at the house.

943
00:40:56,480 --> 00:40:59,040
Speaker 4: Man brought my daughter back sick oft dog and my

944
00:40:59,080 --> 00:41:00,480
Speaker 4: wife has been sick for two weeks.

945
00:41:00,560 --> 00:41:00,719
Speaker 3: Yep.

946
00:41:01,080 --> 00:41:03,319
Speaker 1: Well you know them kids always get when they go

947
00:41:03,320 --> 00:41:04,840
Speaker 1: to school, especially oh.

948
00:41:04,680 --> 00:41:06,640
Speaker 3: My god, this was serious. Those one of those like

949
00:41:06,640 --> 00:41:07,520
Speaker 3: whooping coughs.

950
00:41:07,600 --> 00:41:09,400
Speaker 5: Yeah, you know what I mean. They come back with

951
00:41:09,440 --> 00:41:10,200
Speaker 5: all types of six.

952
00:41:13,040 --> 00:41:14,840
Speaker 1: My parents would never let me spend the night at

953
00:41:14,840 --> 00:41:17,080
Speaker 1: anybody's house growing up, But everybody used to spend the

954
00:41:17,120 --> 00:41:17,719
Speaker 1: night at my house.

955
00:41:18,080 --> 00:41:20,000
Speaker 4: Come on over, our house is clean. We'll keep you

956
00:41:20,080 --> 00:41:22,120
Speaker 4: clean and send you home clean.

957
00:41:22,640 --> 00:41:23,720
Speaker 1: He's not going to get cleaner.

958
00:41:24,520 --> 00:41:26,200
Speaker 3: Yeah, and we learned our lesson.

959
00:41:26,200 --> 00:41:28,640
Speaker 4: I feel like that was like, I mean, it was

960
00:41:28,680 --> 00:41:30,960
Speaker 4: important for us to try, for sure, but we understand

961
00:41:31,320 --> 00:41:35,120
Speaker 4: with our daughter, especially like she's not you know, no,

962
00:41:35,320 --> 00:41:37,240
Speaker 4: she's not ready for that.

963
00:41:36,800 --> 00:41:38,799
Speaker 2: You know, That's how I was with my daughter. I'm

964
00:41:38,840 --> 00:41:40,560
Speaker 2: telling right now, I don't know where my kids at

965
00:41:42,520 --> 00:41:46,879
Speaker 2: right now, I'm like, where, Well, your.

966
00:41:46,800 --> 00:41:49,680
Speaker 1: Kids wrong though I feel like they yeah, they.

967
00:41:49,560 --> 00:41:52,360
Speaker 2: Can, but when you have your third kid, you're like,

968
00:41:53,280 --> 00:41:56,359
Speaker 2: I tried, I did everything.

969
00:41:55,600 --> 00:41:58,400
Speaker 1: You know what I wanted to ask you to. With

970
00:41:58,480 --> 00:42:01,960
Speaker 1: so many conversations about marriage now and people being like

971
00:42:02,040 --> 00:42:03,440
Speaker 1: off of it, like I don't know if I need

972
00:42:03,520 --> 00:42:05,719
Speaker 1: to be married, tell us why it was important for

973
00:42:05,800 --> 00:42:07,920
Speaker 1: you to be married and why marriage is important to you.

974
00:42:08,480 --> 00:42:11,280
Speaker 3: Ah, man, that's a good question.

975
00:42:12,120 --> 00:42:14,120
Speaker 4: When I first got married, I probably wouldn't have been

976
00:42:14,160 --> 00:42:15,280
Speaker 4: able to tell you that answer.

977
00:42:15,360 --> 00:42:16,799
Speaker 3: But marriage is important to me.

978
00:42:16,840 --> 00:42:21,120
Speaker 4: Now because it's a real agreement, not just between me

979
00:42:21,520 --> 00:42:22,320
Speaker 4: and my wife.

980
00:42:22,400 --> 00:42:24,800
Speaker 3: Up between me and my God, my family, you know

981
00:42:24,840 --> 00:42:26,960
Speaker 3: what I mean. And I.

982
00:42:29,360 --> 00:42:31,560
Speaker 4: Love this woman that way, you know what I mean.

983
00:42:31,600 --> 00:42:33,560
Speaker 4: A lot of people get married for the wrong reasons.

984
00:42:33,640 --> 00:42:37,240
Speaker 4: But I love this woman more than I love anything,

985
00:42:38,000 --> 00:42:40,600
Speaker 4: and should be able to show her that with some

986
00:42:40,760 --> 00:42:43,520
Speaker 4: simple steps. Being married is a small step, just a

987
00:42:43,520 --> 00:42:45,839
Speaker 4: part of the contract. Doing the work is the hard part,

988
00:42:46,560 --> 00:42:49,520
Speaker 4: you know. But I'm proud to be her husband. And

989
00:42:49,840 --> 00:42:51,080
Speaker 4: I lived my life like that.

990
00:42:51,200 --> 00:42:51,400
Speaker 3: You know.

991
00:42:51,560 --> 00:42:53,600
Speaker 2: I was sold when you said she had phone privileges,

992
00:42:53,880 --> 00:42:57,400
Speaker 2: because let me just tell you something. The phone and

993
00:42:57,480 --> 00:43:01,320
Speaker 2: these men with the face down phone right.

994
00:43:01,560 --> 00:43:06,120
Speaker 5: And the and the protective speed, the protective and the

995
00:43:06,200 --> 00:43:06,560
Speaker 5: dn D.

996
00:43:06,800 --> 00:43:07,960
Speaker 1: I let me tell you something.

997
00:43:08,120 --> 00:43:09,080
Speaker 5: Your phone ain't ringing?

998
00:43:09,960 --> 00:43:12,840
Speaker 1: His phone is it announces the person's name out loud

999
00:43:12,960 --> 00:43:14,080
Speaker 1: and somebody cross him.

1000
00:43:14,560 --> 00:43:18,000
Speaker 3: That's funny. Phone ringing twelve The phone.

1001
00:43:17,880 --> 00:43:20,560
Speaker 2: Been silent for twelve egg, no one calling you because

1002
00:43:20,560 --> 00:43:22,240
Speaker 2: every time I called you always on the phone.

1003
00:43:22,920 --> 00:43:24,920
Speaker 1: And then having any phone right here and next to them,

1004
00:43:25,080 --> 00:43:27,520
Speaker 1: the phone sleep with the phone. That's the best feeling.

1005
00:43:27,520 --> 00:43:29,480
Speaker 1: When you're in a space where you can have my code,

1006
00:43:29,480 --> 00:43:31,879
Speaker 1: I'm not doing nothing and I'm not like that's a

1007
00:43:31,920 --> 00:43:33,919
Speaker 1: different feeling in a relationship.

1008
00:43:34,000 --> 00:43:38,120
Speaker 4: You know, I think my wife is is never She's

1009
00:43:38,239 --> 00:43:39,960
Speaker 4: never been the type to even want to be all

1010
00:43:39,960 --> 00:43:42,160
Speaker 4: in my ship like that, you know, and still is,

1011
00:43:42,719 --> 00:43:45,000
Speaker 4: you know what I mean. But needed to feel comfortable,

1012
00:43:45,400 --> 00:43:47,040
Speaker 4: you know what I mean, And that she took time.

1013
00:43:47,280 --> 00:43:50,000
Speaker 4: Fuck man, it was a long time where she felt

1014
00:43:50,040 --> 00:43:50,759
Speaker 4: the need to go.

1015
00:43:50,760 --> 00:43:51,360
Speaker 3: Through my phone.

1016
00:43:51,360 --> 00:43:53,680
Speaker 2: But I was gonna say, she probably don't even look

1017
00:43:53,719 --> 00:43:55,040
Speaker 2: at your phone now because.

1018
00:43:54,760 --> 00:43:58,600
Speaker 4: She phone mins my daughter's right.

1019
00:43:58,680 --> 00:44:01,200
Speaker 5: Nobody like, what's what's hiding?

1020
00:44:01,480 --> 00:44:05,040
Speaker 3: Yeah, she ain't not known Nickelodeon, nickelodeon.

1021
00:44:06,040 --> 00:44:06,239
Speaker 4: You know.

1022
00:44:06,520 --> 00:44:08,600
Speaker 1: You know how many guys have gotten cauck because their

1023
00:44:08,719 --> 00:44:11,399
Speaker 1: kids was on their phone and then the baby mom

1024
00:44:11,480 --> 00:44:13,600
Speaker 1: grabbed the phone while it was unlocked.

1025
00:44:13,719 --> 00:44:15,040
Speaker 3: Yeah, is that a thing.

1026
00:44:15,160 --> 00:44:15,759
Speaker 1: That's a thing.

1027
00:44:15,960 --> 00:44:19,120
Speaker 3: I'm glad I don't have to worry about. That's yeah.

1028
00:44:19,280 --> 00:44:22,359
Speaker 5: Oh my god, opening the phone face. I d want

1029
00:44:22,400 --> 00:44:23,319
Speaker 5: to sleep.

1030
00:44:23,160 --> 00:44:25,960
Speaker 3: Like yo, that's cool.

1031
00:44:26,200 --> 00:44:28,520
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, if you did get caught, how did you

1032
00:44:28,520 --> 00:44:29,600
Speaker 1: get caught?

1033
00:44:30,239 --> 00:44:30,880
Speaker 3: I talked about it.

1034
00:44:30,960 --> 00:44:32,920
Speaker 4: That was one thing that that it was never you

1035
00:44:33,000 --> 00:44:34,880
Speaker 4: know what I mean. Of course she's seen some text messages.

1036
00:44:34,920 --> 00:44:36,919
Speaker 3: She should up next message, you know for sure.

1037
00:44:37,760 --> 00:44:40,279
Speaker 4: One time it was an iPad like she was on

1038
00:44:40,360 --> 00:44:43,160
Speaker 4: my iPad and went through my messages on my iPad,

1039
00:44:43,400 --> 00:44:45,719
Speaker 4: which are always you know, when I thought I was

1040
00:44:45,800 --> 00:44:47,440
Speaker 4: being slick and deleted on my phone.

1041
00:44:47,520 --> 00:44:50,840
Speaker 1: Yeah, you can look there on my phone if you want.

1042
00:44:49,600 --> 00:44:53,160
Speaker 1: But yeah, I didn't know they stayed.

1043
00:44:53,120 --> 00:44:55,400
Speaker 5: They wasn't up on technology.

1044
00:44:56,320 --> 00:44:58,680
Speaker 1: Nothing is not a good liar.

1045
00:44:59,000 --> 00:45:02,280
Speaker 2: Yeah, those men aren't. I'm gonna say that most mens

1046
00:45:02,320 --> 00:45:05,200
Speaker 2: can't lie. They can't like people can tell you.

1047
00:45:05,239 --> 00:45:07,680
Speaker 1: Women are sneakier than men, for sure.

1048
00:45:08,160 --> 00:45:11,640
Speaker 3: I'm much better at being honest now. And you know

1049
00:45:11,840 --> 00:45:15,560
Speaker 3: she's she's not stupid, you know what I mean.

1050
00:45:15,800 --> 00:45:18,600
Speaker 4: It didn't take long before things was a mess, and

1051
00:45:18,920 --> 00:45:21,120
Speaker 4: you know, we needed our time in our space and

1052
00:45:21,320 --> 00:45:23,960
Speaker 4: I worked through my ship, she worked through hers, and

1053
00:45:24,080 --> 00:45:26,359
Speaker 4: we met in the middle and started over.

1054
00:45:26,600 --> 00:45:29,200
Speaker 3: It was definitely a blessing for y'all.

1055
00:45:29,560 --> 00:45:31,360
Speaker 1: What song would you say on the album is about

1056
00:45:31,360 --> 00:45:37,000
Speaker 1: her brighter? The last song it feels that's like a

1057
00:45:37,040 --> 00:45:38,600
Speaker 1: gospel type of feel to it.

1058
00:45:38,920 --> 00:45:43,960
Speaker 4: Definitely, definitely, But yeah, it's an old tar relationship, you

1059
00:45:43,960 --> 00:45:45,560
Speaker 4: know what I mean. Things are heading in the right direction,

1060
00:45:45,719 --> 00:45:47,319
Speaker 4: and that's what the album is. You notice we're starting

1061
00:45:47,320 --> 00:45:49,920
Speaker 4: a real bullshit place with something like ignorant and we

1062
00:45:50,040 --> 00:45:54,040
Speaker 4: end up in a beautiful place with ignorant journey.

1063
00:45:54,160 --> 00:45:56,040
Speaker 3: It gets real heavy right after that, too.

1064
00:45:57,160 --> 00:45:59,560
Speaker 1: Well, listen, I appreciate you so much for coming through.

1065
00:45:59,760 --> 00:46:01,919
Speaker 1: This is really like, I feel like we could talk

1066
00:46:01,960 --> 00:46:05,640
Speaker 1: to you for as money long as say yeah, I

1067
00:46:05,840 --> 00:46:08,919
Speaker 1: get to ask this ahead, Yeah, whatever you need.

1068
00:46:09,120 --> 00:46:12,480
Speaker 2: Your mom sings back back up for Michael Jackson, that's true.

1069
00:46:13,200 --> 00:46:15,960
Speaker 5: Did you ever meet Michael Jackson? Because I'm obsessed.

1070
00:46:15,640 --> 00:46:18,719
Speaker 4: Never Now, one of the coolest things about being in

1071
00:46:18,760 --> 00:46:19,600
Speaker 4: a musical family.

1072
00:46:19,640 --> 00:46:20,840
Speaker 3: I'll leave you out with this story.

1073
00:46:20,880 --> 00:46:22,880
Speaker 4: This was one of the coolest things that ever happened

1074
00:46:22,880 --> 00:46:26,040
Speaker 4: my mom's sixtieth birthday. Now, mind you, My mom grew

1075
00:46:26,160 --> 00:46:29,440
Speaker 4: up listening to you know, the great Stevie Wonder, Prince

1076
00:46:29,560 --> 00:46:33,640
Speaker 4: Michael Jackson, and idolized Stevie Wonder in particular. For her

1077
00:46:33,680 --> 00:46:39,520
Speaker 4: sixtieth birthday, my brother Daniel got Stevie Wonder to pull

1078
00:46:39,600 --> 00:46:42,760
Speaker 4: up to her birthday party, wow and play my Sherrier

1079
00:46:42,880 --> 00:46:49,319
Speaker 4: more Oh my God, sang Miss Jackie onay. I had

1080
00:46:49,320 --> 00:46:52,040
Speaker 4: my mom sing with him, oh Wow. And then my

1081
00:46:52,120 --> 00:46:55,520
Speaker 4: brother Davean got Tyrese to come on stage and sing

1082
00:46:55,520 --> 00:46:59,600
Speaker 4: to my mom nice and I brought Rudy the full

1083
00:47:00,120 --> 00:47:07,040
Speaker 4: the regular Stevie Wonder and Tyree's. So it was an

1084
00:47:07,040 --> 00:47:11,160
Speaker 4: interesting day. We all laugh about that. But yeah, you know,

1085
00:47:11,200 --> 00:47:12,440
Speaker 4: and that was a cool moment, you.

1086
00:47:12,360 --> 00:47:12,879
Speaker 3: Know what I mean.

1087
00:47:13,000 --> 00:47:14,800
Speaker 1: And you were in the studio with Stevie Wonder.

1088
00:47:14,920 --> 00:47:15,719
Speaker 3: Yeah, a couple of times.

1089
00:47:15,840 --> 00:47:17,560
Speaker 1: Are we ever going to hear any of those sessions?

1090
00:47:17,560 --> 00:47:17,759
Speaker 3: No?

1091
00:47:17,760 --> 00:47:21,560
Speaker 1: No, never. You need to get us some cool things,

1092
00:47:22,680 --> 00:47:25,279
Speaker 1: not the stuff. No, No, you should ask him.

1093
00:47:25,560 --> 00:47:25,759
Speaker 3: You know.

1094
00:47:25,800 --> 00:47:28,880
Speaker 4: One of the cooler things that that I've done was was,

1095
00:47:29,440 --> 00:47:31,239
Speaker 4: you know, work with Jill Scott and that's when I

1096
00:47:31,280 --> 00:47:31,880
Speaker 4: met Stevie.

1097
00:47:32,560 --> 00:47:34,480
Speaker 3: And so the first time I met him wasn't even

1098
00:47:34,520 --> 00:47:35,240
Speaker 3: the studio session.

1099
00:47:35,280 --> 00:47:37,839
Speaker 4: He just came to see miss Jill and literally picked

1100
00:47:37,920 --> 00:47:41,080
Speaker 4: up a lap steal and played it and sang songs

1101
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Speaker 4: in the quil life, like six different songs on the

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Speaker 4: lap steal.

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Speaker 3: STEVEE wonders. I hate to be that guy to do

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Speaker 3: the example, but that's how.

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Speaker 6: Definitely like that, like skillfully too, just like man when

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Speaker 6: he said, at my mother sixty it.

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Speaker 1: Ste Wonder what I've met Stevie Wonder once. It was

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Speaker 1: we were interviewing Hillary Clinton and it was her birthday

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Speaker 1: and he came and saying happy birthday. I just want

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Speaker 1: to say, that's a flex Now. I would rather have

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Speaker 1: had my mom, you know what I'm saying, have him

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00:48:23,560 --> 00:48:26,920
Speaker 1: say mushry or more from my mind, that would have

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Speaker 1: been even better. But you know, I take what I

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Speaker 1: can get. Yeah, And so that was that was super

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Speaker 1: exciting for me. Man. Listen, honestly, sir, I have always,

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00:48:36,560 --> 00:48:39,440
Speaker 1: like really been a fan of yours. So I'm excited

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Speaker 1: to see you in this space. I know this album

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00:48:42,200 --> 00:48:45,040
Speaker 1: is an album that means a lot to you and

1119
00:48:46,160 --> 00:48:50,240
Speaker 1: is painful too, definitely. You know, in a way, sometimes

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Speaker 1: the best music comes from pain. I know. We hate

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Speaker 1: to say it. I saw somebody say about Mary day Bliges,

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00:48:55,320 --> 00:48:57,400
Speaker 1: like how she's happy in a relationship. They were like, what,

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Speaker 1: the music ain't going to be hidden? But no, I

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Speaker 1: hate when you do that. But like when you think

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Speaker 1: about Tony Braxton Amy Winehouse, like some of the best

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Speaker 1: music does unfortunately it's therapy. You let it from that space.

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Speaker 3: Sure, and I'm happy to share the story.

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Speaker 4: I know a lot of people like are ashamed of

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00:49:15,480 --> 00:49:17,799
Speaker 4: themselves and don't know how to talk about it. That's

1130
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Speaker 4: a big thing in the community, like talking about it,

1131
00:49:20,040 --> 00:49:22,120
Speaker 4: you know what I mean. But I'm definitely trying to

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Speaker 4: help the next person. I'm not trying to like hide

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Speaker 4: my story because my tragedy can be, you know, help

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00:49:27,280 --> 00:49:29,279
Speaker 4: for somebody else. I'm trying to turn my tragedy into

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Speaker 4: a testimony for sure.

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Speaker 1: And what's great is it feels like a happy ending.

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Speaker 1: Not like that, but yeah, I know it's service but

1138
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Speaker 1: he likes hand jobs again. But it feels like a

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00:49:41,480 --> 00:49:44,279
Speaker 1: happy ending because you are still with your wife, you know,

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Speaker 1: and you do have a body of work that you

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00:49:46,400 --> 00:49:50,080
Speaker 1: were able to put together even at times when you

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00:49:50,120 --> 00:49:54,120
Speaker 1: were at your you know, at your worst, and now

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Speaker 1: you're going on tour and you know. So I'm looking

1144
00:49:57,360 --> 00:50:03,359
Speaker 1: forward to seeing the Are doubt me? Okay, Well, don't

1145
00:50:03,360 --> 00:50:05,719
Speaker 1: doubt me. I'll be there. Yeah, and Kim Kim is

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Speaker 1: always my always roll dog in New York and GIZI

1147
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Speaker 1: will be there in Atlanta absolutely, Yeah, will be there.

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Speaker 1: Absolutely listen. I'll drop in your DMS now. So, Kelly,

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Speaker 1: I don't want now, I appreciate. I know she's got

1150
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Speaker 1: to be amazing though, because you know, just the fact

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00:50:26,040 --> 00:50:27,879
Speaker 1: that y'all have been together so long. I know she's

1152
00:50:27,920 --> 00:50:31,040
Speaker 1: secure and you know, her relationship with you, and she

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00:50:31,120 --> 00:50:32,280
Speaker 1: knows we don't need no harm.

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Speaker 3: Will love Kelly. Y'all ain't gonna ever meet her, but

1155
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Speaker 3: y'all love her.

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Speaker 1: Yes, we will be right up here on this count.

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Speaker 3: I think so.

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Speaker 1: Thank you so much, sir. We appreciate you so much.

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Speaker 1: And congratulations on everything, and I'm so glad that things

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Speaker 1: right now are brighter.

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Speaker 3: Thank you for having me.

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Speaker 1: Yes, congratulations, it's lift service