1 00:00:00,160 --> 00:00:11,440 Speaker 1: Family Secrets is a production of I Heart Radio. I'm 2 00:00:11,520 --> 00:00:15,640 Speaker 1: Danny Shapiro, and this is family Secrets, the secrets that 3 00:00:15,680 --> 00:00:18,520 Speaker 1: are kept from us, the secrets we keep from others, 4 00:00:19,000 --> 00:00:22,960 Speaker 1: and the secrets we keep from ourselves. I've heard from 5 00:00:23,040 --> 00:00:26,760 Speaker 1: so many about your own family secrets and realize that 6 00:00:26,800 --> 00:00:29,400 Speaker 1: what we are creating for each other on this podcast 7 00:00:29,920 --> 00:00:32,800 Speaker 1: is a community, a community for those who are looking 8 00:00:32,800 --> 00:00:36,960 Speaker 1: for a safe and supportive space to unburden themselves. To 9 00:00:37,080 --> 00:00:39,800 Speaker 1: that end, we've created a number for listeners to call 10 00:00:39,880 --> 00:00:43,839 Speaker 1: in to record stories to share here in this space. 11 00:00:44,640 --> 00:00:47,080 Speaker 1: This week, I'd like to share a few of those 12 00:00:47,080 --> 00:00:51,519 Speaker 1: stories from our community. Thanks for listening. Hi, um Mom 13 00:00:51,520 --> 00:00:54,600 Speaker 1: would just want to share my family secrets. I was 14 00:00:55,680 --> 00:00:59,400 Speaker 1: either four or five, and I'm fifty five now, but 15 00:01:00,280 --> 00:01:02,560 Speaker 1: as I was a little girl, woke up milba night, 16 00:01:02,960 --> 00:01:07,720 Speaker 1: went downstairs to go pee and was grabbed by some 17 00:01:07,920 --> 00:01:11,080 Speaker 1: man in the dark. He put his hand over my 18 00:01:11,200 --> 00:01:13,160 Speaker 1: mouth in the back of my head, so picked me 19 00:01:13,240 --> 00:01:15,600 Speaker 1: up by my head and he walks me to my 20 00:01:15,760 --> 00:01:19,880 Speaker 1: parents bedroom and says there's nothing they can do to 21 00:01:19,920 --> 00:01:23,520 Speaker 1: help you, now, which I well. I he said this. 22 00:01:23,680 --> 00:01:26,440 Speaker 1: I was looking in at down the sleep I just 23 00:01:26,520 --> 00:01:31,280 Speaker 1: went lamp. Never remembered any nothing after that. Still to 24 00:01:31,440 --> 00:01:34,839 Speaker 1: this day do not remember anything like that. So for many, 25 00:01:34,840 --> 00:01:38,720 Speaker 1: many years I was haunted by this this what happened 26 00:01:38,720 --> 00:01:42,880 Speaker 1: the spear at eleven? I asked my mom if this happened, 27 00:01:42,880 --> 00:01:46,480 Speaker 1: I told her about it. She said no, so okay, 28 00:01:46,520 --> 00:01:51,360 Speaker 1: so still terrified my whole life. About nine years ago 29 00:01:51,480 --> 00:01:54,200 Speaker 1: I asked my oldest sister, who has since passed away, 30 00:01:55,200 --> 00:01:57,800 Speaker 1: about it. She said, well, this is not the story 31 00:01:57,880 --> 00:02:01,160 Speaker 1: that happened. She said, what how en was? Mom and 32 00:02:01,240 --> 00:02:04,480 Speaker 1: dad had a party. She said, some man grabbed me 33 00:02:04,560 --> 00:02:08,600 Speaker 1: and took off with me. And she says, Mom, Dad, 34 00:02:08,760 --> 00:02:11,359 Speaker 1: somebody's got you know, said my name, somebody's got me. 35 00:02:12,440 --> 00:02:14,560 Speaker 1: And she said they tackled him, got me away from 36 00:02:14,560 --> 00:02:18,480 Speaker 1: this guy. So if that actually that version happened, then 37 00:02:18,520 --> 00:02:22,960 Speaker 1: it happened twice. This man, whoever he was, came to 38 00:02:23,040 --> 00:02:27,080 Speaker 1: get me twice. I had no one else to ask now, 39 00:02:27,120 --> 00:02:30,960 Speaker 1: because both parents are dead. You know, Mom initially denied it, 40 00:02:32,320 --> 00:02:36,240 Speaker 1: and my only school, you know, my older sister who's dead, said, 41 00:02:36,360 --> 00:02:39,600 Speaker 1: you know what happened. But what I do remember was, 42 00:02:39,960 --> 00:02:43,560 Speaker 1: you know, all through life, you know, if I would 43 00:02:43,560 --> 00:02:47,519 Speaker 1: be so scared, scared of you know, leaving the house, 44 00:02:47,720 --> 00:02:50,720 Speaker 1: you know, because he came into my house obviously twice, 45 00:02:51,360 --> 00:02:55,560 Speaker 1: but I get so scared I would actually literally wake 46 00:02:55,680 --> 00:02:59,680 Speaker 1: up and not know where I was, no talent, how 47 00:02:59,760 --> 00:03:02,760 Speaker 1: much time had passed. I you know, my first memory 48 00:03:02,760 --> 00:03:06,000 Speaker 1: of that happening with me missing time was thirteen. The 49 00:03:06,120 --> 00:03:08,960 Speaker 1: last time it happened was probably you know, I think 50 00:03:09,240 --> 00:03:11,640 Speaker 1: twenty five years ago was the last time. But it 51 00:03:11,720 --> 00:03:15,200 Speaker 1: only happens when I get severely strussed, and I know, 52 00:03:15,520 --> 00:03:18,680 Speaker 1: you know, whatever, you know, whatever this happened, whatever this 53 00:03:18,760 --> 00:03:21,440 Speaker 1: guy did, I don't know, but you know, still to 54 00:03:21,480 --> 00:03:25,880 Speaker 1: this day at fifty five, still haunts me, and this 55 00:03:26,280 --> 00:03:32,440 Speaker 1: want to I guess actually voices Hi. I just wanted 56 00:03:32,480 --> 00:03:36,480 Speaker 1: to share my stories. I had been told live and 57 00:03:37,320 --> 00:03:40,160 Speaker 1: UM other stories to make me believe that I was 58 00:03:40,240 --> 00:03:45,280 Speaker 1: the natural child of my parents UM and then also UM. 59 00:03:45,320 --> 00:03:48,120 Speaker 1: I come to find out later, much later in life, 60 00:03:48,720 --> 00:03:53,240 Speaker 1: that my mother, her mother that raised her, was actually 61 00:03:53,280 --> 00:03:56,080 Speaker 1: her grandmother and she was born to who she believed 62 00:03:56,120 --> 00:03:59,920 Speaker 1: was her sister. So that was kept hidden from everyone. 63 00:04:00,080 --> 00:04:02,120 Speaker 1: It someone had brought it to my attention, and next 64 00:04:02,160 --> 00:04:04,520 Speaker 1: boyfriend of mine UM had brought it to my attention 65 00:04:04,600 --> 00:04:09,080 Speaker 1: that they look a lot alike, and I never really 66 00:04:09,160 --> 00:04:12,440 Speaker 1: thought about it much. I had just kind of accepted 67 00:04:12,480 --> 00:04:16,919 Speaker 1: the story that my grandmother was my grandmother, not my 68 00:04:16,960 --> 00:04:21,039 Speaker 1: great grandmother. And then I saw a picture one of 69 00:04:21,320 --> 00:04:26,919 Speaker 1: um my sister, well my aunts, sorry, and it looked 70 00:04:26,960 --> 00:04:30,960 Speaker 1: exactly like my mom, and it just all kind of 71 00:04:31,000 --> 00:04:34,080 Speaker 1: clicked to me at one point that yes, this is 72 00:04:34,120 --> 00:04:39,839 Speaker 1: actually her her biological mother. Um. And so that's there's 73 00:04:39,920 --> 00:04:43,080 Speaker 1: kind of a lot of shame and secrets and things, 74 00:04:43,160 --> 00:04:47,279 Speaker 1: and my family, um, you know, include myself and my 75 00:04:47,360 --> 00:04:50,080 Speaker 1: mother included, and my mom and my dad are both 76 00:04:50,160 --> 00:04:53,599 Speaker 1: deceased now, so the secrets are kind of buried with them, 77 00:04:53,640 --> 00:04:57,080 Speaker 1: and there's no more information than I can get about 78 00:04:57,080 --> 00:05:00,320 Speaker 1: what had happened or anything like that. So it's my 79 00:05:00,360 --> 00:05:04,480 Speaker 1: league story. Hi Danny, Um, I really first of all, 80 00:05:04,480 --> 00:05:07,040 Speaker 1: I want to thank you guys for putting up this podcast. 81 00:05:07,240 --> 00:05:08,960 Speaker 1: I'm a little late at the party and just now 82 00:05:09,000 --> 00:05:12,520 Speaker 1: getting privy to it. But I want to also admit 83 00:05:12,600 --> 00:05:16,520 Speaker 1: that I am the family's secret. I I don't know 84 00:05:16,560 --> 00:05:20,520 Speaker 1: who my biological father is. I've never met him, and 85 00:05:20,960 --> 00:05:24,400 Speaker 1: as far as everything goes, he doesn't know like this, 86 00:05:25,160 --> 00:05:29,599 Speaker 1: and I've been on the search for him for about 87 00:05:30,400 --> 00:05:37,200 Speaker 1: eight months now, I joined a DNA site and nothing 88 00:05:37,560 --> 00:05:42,200 Speaker 1: nothing fitting. And it's really heavy to be that burden. 89 00:05:42,240 --> 00:05:44,120 Speaker 1: And I don't want to cause them any trouble, but 90 00:05:44,839 --> 00:05:46,599 Speaker 1: I just want them to know that I'm out there 91 00:05:47,360 --> 00:05:49,680 Speaker 1: and I would like to know what they look like. 92 00:05:50,040 --> 00:05:52,719 Speaker 1: I want to cause anyone any drama or anything. And 93 00:05:53,680 --> 00:05:56,839 Speaker 1: you know, as far as like Frank's story goes like, 94 00:05:57,240 --> 00:06:02,000 Speaker 1: I don't want to uproot anyone's I guess perception of 95 00:06:02,040 --> 00:06:05,159 Speaker 1: what their reality is. I just want to kind of 96 00:06:05,200 --> 00:06:07,800 Speaker 1: know a little bit more about me and maybe stuff 97 00:06:07,800 --> 00:06:10,920 Speaker 1: relating to So thank you very much and I love 98 00:06:10,960 --> 00:06:28,120 Speaker 1: your podcast and I will keep listening. If you'd like 99 00:06:28,200 --> 00:06:31,560 Speaker 1: to share your story, call one eight eight eight Secret 100 00:06:31,920 --> 00:06:35,360 Speaker 1: zero and record your story. We won't be able to 101 00:06:35,440 --> 00:06:37,359 Speaker 1: run all the stories, but we do want to shine 102 00:06:37,360 --> 00:06:39,839 Speaker 1: a light on as many as we can. 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