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Ella La, let's say, 11 00:01:07,560 --> 00:01:11,640 Speaker 1: welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. I'm Mila and 12 00:01:11,880 --> 00:01:12,800 Speaker 1: I'm Ediquita. 13 00:01:13,440 --> 00:01:24,920 Speaker 2: Okay, can we do a whole episode in Spanish? Condo 14 00:01:25,640 --> 00:01:30,119 Speaker 2: moy despasio, your competende mass impressive. 15 00:01:30,560 --> 00:01:32,360 Speaker 1: You don't know I know Spanish? I know, I know, 16 00:01:32,400 --> 00:01:36,080 Speaker 1: I know my Spanish. On the other hand, actually it's 17 00:01:36,120 --> 00:01:40,039 Speaker 1: not bad. It's Justish is good, I know, but it 18 00:01:40,120 --> 00:01:42,720 Speaker 1: could be better. I get nervous when I speak, start 19 00:01:42,760 --> 00:01:44,920 Speaker 1: speaking around people that actually know how to speak, knows 20 00:01:44,920 --> 00:01:48,560 Speaker 1: how to speak. She doesn't correct me though, why I'll 21 00:01:48,600 --> 00:01:59,080 Speaker 1: be telling for like port for Luna espio. Wow. 22 00:02:01,640 --> 00:02:02,920 Speaker 3: I feel like if you live in l A, you 23 00:02:02,920 --> 00:02:05,040 Speaker 3: should know some Spanish. 24 00:02:05,760 --> 00:02:07,480 Speaker 1: Yeah, but that's not true. 25 00:02:07,600 --> 00:02:09,760 Speaker 3: Also, I'm recruiting, and then I had big plans that 26 00:02:09,840 --> 00:02:12,600 Speaker 3: me and literally Spanish together, because that's been like my 27 00:02:12,720 --> 00:02:14,120 Speaker 3: dream for a long time to be fluent. 28 00:02:14,440 --> 00:02:17,600 Speaker 1: Clearly, I don't think I'm like a linguistics person. Someone's 29 00:02:17,600 --> 00:02:25,120 Speaker 1: will wait, I's mom's friend's mom friends you, or I 30 00:02:25,120 --> 00:02:29,320 Speaker 1: IRI's friend's mom told me about an app not dual Lingo, 31 00:02:29,400 --> 00:02:33,040 Speaker 1: but a different one like Impressivo some. 32 00:02:33,160 --> 00:02:37,480 Speaker 3: One that's really really to ask her, that's an ad bitch. 33 00:02:38,520 --> 00:02:46,960 Speaker 3: We just gave impressive Evo impressed in calling all Latin 34 00:02:47,080 --> 00:02:52,040 Speaker 3: men and women and women. I think I'm really back 35 00:02:52,080 --> 00:02:53,120 Speaker 3: on my lesbianism. 36 00:02:53,400 --> 00:02:55,040 Speaker 1: Are you always? Is that your door? And they were 37 00:02:55,080 --> 00:02:57,440 Speaker 1: there texting and ship all own and ship No. 38 00:02:58,040 --> 00:03:00,200 Speaker 3: But I have text my one of my ex a 39 00:03:00,200 --> 00:03:05,320 Speaker 3: couple times. But I just feel like maybe I was 40 00:03:05,360 --> 00:03:07,360 Speaker 3: more lesbian than I want to believe. 41 00:03:07,880 --> 00:03:11,079 Speaker 1: You only had girlfriends? What do you mean you I did? 42 00:03:11,320 --> 00:03:13,840 Speaker 1: I thought you were like a bona fide lesbo I was. 43 00:03:13,639 --> 00:03:16,040 Speaker 3: I was lesbian, and I like buried it in the 44 00:03:16,040 --> 00:03:17,760 Speaker 3: back of my mind because it was so much drama. 45 00:03:17,880 --> 00:03:21,040 Speaker 3: But when I saw my ex lesbian girlfriend, I was like, 46 00:03:21,080 --> 00:03:23,960 Speaker 3: I saw two lesbian girlfriends actually, and I was. 47 00:03:23,960 --> 00:03:24,440 Speaker 1: Like, Okay. 48 00:03:24,760 --> 00:03:26,440 Speaker 3: First of all, one loved me more than anyone who's 49 00:03:26,440 --> 00:03:28,480 Speaker 3: ever loved me in my life, would do anything for me, 50 00:03:28,560 --> 00:03:31,119 Speaker 3: buy me anything, make sure I'm straight. The other one 51 00:03:31,440 --> 00:03:33,600 Speaker 3: she like, I was like laying there like my eyes closed, 52 00:03:33,600 --> 00:03:36,280 Speaker 3: and she came and kissed me. Essentially, I was like, oh, okay, 53 00:03:36,320 --> 00:03:37,040 Speaker 3: you love me too. 54 00:03:38,400 --> 00:03:39,640 Speaker 1: And then I didn't. 55 00:03:39,400 --> 00:03:44,760 Speaker 3: Say this last episode, but our friend's friend, Carlton's friend, 56 00:03:44,760 --> 00:03:47,520 Speaker 3: and I saw her at the after hours. First of all, 57 00:03:47,560 --> 00:03:50,320 Speaker 3: Atlanta's the devil because you can find something to do 58 00:03:50,360 --> 00:03:53,880 Speaker 3: in all hours. I literally was out. I looked at 59 00:03:53,880 --> 00:03:56,960 Speaker 3: the clock. It was like five point fifty seven at pals. 60 00:03:57,040 --> 00:03:59,040 Speaker 3: I was like, when does this shit close? 61 00:04:00,240 --> 00:04:02,120 Speaker 1: And no close at six am. I think yeah. I 62 00:04:02,160 --> 00:04:03,640 Speaker 1: was like, it has to be close. I don't know how. 63 00:04:03,960 --> 00:04:05,880 Speaker 1: I don't know how. He does me crazy. 64 00:04:08,120 --> 00:04:10,520 Speaker 3: And as she was there with her husband or her boyfriend, 65 00:04:10,560 --> 00:04:12,560 Speaker 3: but as I was leaving, same thing kind of with 66 00:04:12,600 --> 00:04:14,880 Speaker 3: your lipstick situation, I was wearing like a black lipstick 67 00:04:15,200 --> 00:04:16,720 Speaker 3: and as I was like, I'm like I'm leaving girl, 68 00:04:16,920 --> 00:04:21,280 Speaker 3: and girl, huh, she made out with me deep and 69 00:04:21,360 --> 00:04:26,479 Speaker 3: essentially and felt me up in five point fifty five 70 00:04:26,560 --> 00:04:29,040 Speaker 3: am in the club and it was crowded still, which 71 00:04:29,040 --> 00:04:32,280 Speaker 3: is crazy, and we had a very deep makeout and 72 00:04:32,320 --> 00:04:33,920 Speaker 3: I was like, I think you have black stuff all 73 00:04:33,920 --> 00:04:36,400 Speaker 3: over your face. I have black lipstick on and then 74 00:04:36,440 --> 00:04:39,160 Speaker 3: she was like I don't care. M He's like okay, 75 00:04:39,560 --> 00:04:41,400 Speaker 3: and her husband was like sitting right there like trying 76 00:04:41,440 --> 00:04:45,400 Speaker 3: to get a little I was like, calm. 77 00:04:45,160 --> 00:04:47,480 Speaker 1: Down, but it was good. 78 00:04:47,720 --> 00:04:50,080 Speaker 3: And I was like, maybe something about the Atlanta water 79 00:04:50,240 --> 00:04:51,440 Speaker 3: just make me lesbian. 80 00:04:51,520 --> 00:04:55,200 Speaker 1: Mm. But I didn't spend enough time there, you did. 81 00:04:55,400 --> 00:04:57,039 Speaker 1: I want to go back though. Somebody asked me how 82 00:04:57,080 --> 00:04:57,800 Speaker 1: to did Erica like it? 83 00:04:57,960 --> 00:05:01,560 Speaker 3: So she doesn't know for forty eight hours literally, and 84 00:05:01,600 --> 00:05:03,880 Speaker 3: we panicked to forty seven of those hours. 85 00:05:04,040 --> 00:05:09,160 Speaker 1: Seriously. Well, I just wanted to start off this episode 86 00:05:09,200 --> 00:05:13,680 Speaker 1: with some sage because I feel like we need some saging. 87 00:05:14,960 --> 00:05:20,840 Speaker 1: Today was a day as usual, but I'm grateful that 88 00:05:21,360 --> 00:05:24,280 Speaker 1: we are now two weeks out of a show and 89 00:05:24,360 --> 00:05:28,280 Speaker 1: I feel like I'm finally really decompressed. My birthday is 90 00:05:28,320 --> 00:05:35,000 Speaker 1: in two days. Happy birthday, Thank you. And I'm turning 91 00:05:35,040 --> 00:05:41,039 Speaker 1: thirty two, which I don't know feels good. I'm like 92 00:05:41,240 --> 00:05:44,360 Speaker 1: chilling in thirties, like I'm good, Like I'm not stressed. 93 00:05:44,400 --> 00:05:46,400 Speaker 1: Maybe ask me when I'm like turning thirty six to 94 00:05:46,440 --> 00:05:49,360 Speaker 1: thirty seven. I've had different feelings about it. Just come down. 95 00:05:51,640 --> 00:05:53,520 Speaker 1: Someone told me today, wow, you look really good for 96 00:05:53,600 --> 00:05:57,520 Speaker 1: thirty two. I hate that shit. I feel I say that, 97 00:05:57,560 --> 00:06:00,880 Speaker 1: I feel like that's some la shit. Don't say no 98 00:06:01,120 --> 00:06:06,120 Speaker 1: to anyone under thirty listening. If don't tell a thirty 99 00:06:06,160 --> 00:06:09,200 Speaker 1: person a person over thirty they look good for being 100 00:06:09,240 --> 00:06:12,280 Speaker 1: in the thirties. Guess what when you turn thirty and 101 00:06:12,320 --> 00:06:14,359 Speaker 1: you look exactly the same as you did when you 102 00:06:14,400 --> 00:06:17,040 Speaker 1: were twenty five, I'd be like, what the fuck are 103 00:06:17,080 --> 00:06:20,000 Speaker 1: you talking about? Like it's really not that deep. So 104 00:06:20,040 --> 00:06:22,120 Speaker 1: many young bitches have told me that. I'm like, oh 105 00:06:22,200 --> 00:06:24,279 Speaker 1: my god, I know you were in your thirties. Looks 106 00:06:24,320 --> 00:06:27,000 Speaker 1: so good. He looks so young. I'm like, duh, I'm young. 107 00:06:27,480 --> 00:06:30,200 Speaker 1: Look better than you, bitch. I actually do look better. 108 00:06:30,800 --> 00:06:32,640 Speaker 1: I was looking at my face today and I was like, 109 00:06:35,480 --> 00:06:39,480 Speaker 1: still snatched period. I was like, nope, no wrinkles, look 110 00:06:39,480 --> 00:06:42,080 Speaker 1: a little more tired, got the dark circles maybe, but 111 00:06:42,120 --> 00:06:44,240 Speaker 1: you know what gives me character? You know what? That's 112 00:06:44,279 --> 00:06:48,279 Speaker 1: what conceler and beauty blenders are for. Period bomb bam, 113 00:06:48,480 --> 00:06:51,080 Speaker 1: pick up your local pick up your beauty blender at 114 00:06:51,080 --> 00:06:58,120 Speaker 1: your local Sephora yep, yeah, or at beauty blender dot com. Yeah. 115 00:06:58,160 --> 00:07:03,040 Speaker 1: So I I don't know. I love at Scorpio season, 116 00:07:03,160 --> 00:07:08,360 Speaker 1: which you know as Scorpios another thing. Check out our 117 00:07:08,360 --> 00:07:10,760 Speaker 1: patreon to see what that looks like. If you want 118 00:07:10,760 --> 00:07:13,120 Speaker 1: to watch this episode, you want to check out Patreon. 119 00:07:15,160 --> 00:07:19,520 Speaker 1: But yeh, Scorpio season is in full effect. Today's the 120 00:07:19,560 --> 00:07:25,920 Speaker 1: first day of Scorpio season, and I will say, uh, Scorpios, 121 00:07:26,000 --> 00:07:29,600 Speaker 1: we go hard for our birthdays, like it's an all 122 00:07:29,680 --> 00:07:32,520 Speaker 1: month thing. Like we might not say it, but we're 123 00:07:32,520 --> 00:07:36,080 Speaker 1: thinking it. Mkay. Birthdays are very important to us, even 124 00:07:36,160 --> 00:07:38,840 Speaker 1: though we act like they're not. Like once the the 125 00:07:39,000 --> 00:07:41,680 Speaker 1: day starts approaching, like it's gets to like day, like 126 00:07:41,800 --> 00:07:44,080 Speaker 1: two days before the birthday, and there's no plans made. 127 00:07:44,120 --> 00:07:46,440 Speaker 1: We're mad at everyone, but no one planned our shit, 128 00:07:46,880 --> 00:07:49,560 Speaker 1: and then we take control. Okay, is that well you've 129 00:07:49,560 --> 00:07:51,680 Speaker 1: been taking control of the situation. Well, I plan the 130 00:07:51,720 --> 00:07:53,840 Speaker 1: ship like me so I'm going on a trip. I'm 131 00:07:53,920 --> 00:07:59,280 Speaker 1: actually going to Tuloom tomorrow, which I've never been there. Uh, 132 00:07:59,320 --> 00:08:02,800 Speaker 1: and I'm going with like three other birth scorpios. So 133 00:08:02,840 --> 00:08:06,880 Speaker 1: it's my birthday, it's Ashley's birthday, It's NAS's birthday. It's 134 00:08:07,360 --> 00:08:09,160 Speaker 1: I think that's it. Actually May maybe there's one more 135 00:08:09,160 --> 00:08:12,200 Speaker 1: person's birthday. As you can tell, we take our birthdays 136 00:08:12,240 --> 00:08:14,600 Speaker 1: very seriously. We like all plan a trip together about it. 137 00:08:15,840 --> 00:08:18,080 Speaker 1: But actually this this trip. Normally when I go on 138 00:08:18,120 --> 00:08:19,960 Speaker 1: these type of trips, I like have a schedule of 139 00:08:20,000 --> 00:08:21,360 Speaker 1: like the things I want to hit. I have no 140 00:08:21,400 --> 00:08:23,280 Speaker 1: idea what I want to do, and I'm kind of like, okay, 141 00:08:23,320 --> 00:08:25,320 Speaker 1: maybe this is thirty two. Maybe I'm like chilling out 142 00:08:25,360 --> 00:08:27,680 Speaker 1: a little more. When it comes to the B day festivities. 143 00:08:27,760 --> 00:08:29,920 Speaker 1: I really just want to lay on a beach and float. 144 00:08:29,960 --> 00:08:31,960 Speaker 1: That's really all real. Limb is very chill. 145 00:08:32,120 --> 00:08:35,760 Speaker 3: There's the Aztec Ruins, which is close by Mayan ruins. 146 00:08:35,800 --> 00:08:42,560 Speaker 1: Oh yeah, Mayan ruins all the same pyramids, Indigenous ruins. Yeah. No, 147 00:08:42,640 --> 00:08:45,720 Speaker 1: I definitely want to try and go see them. Go 148 00:08:45,880 --> 00:08:49,480 Speaker 1: maybe go to Chichinitza, which it's a city which is 149 00:08:49,520 --> 00:08:51,199 Speaker 1: like I think it's about like an hour and a 150 00:08:51,240 --> 00:08:55,400 Speaker 1: half to two hours outside of Tuloom, and then there's 151 00:08:55,440 --> 00:08:58,200 Speaker 1: this and not this, which are like the caves. But 152 00:08:58,280 --> 00:09:00,160 Speaker 1: right now it's raining a lot, so I'm hoping I mean, 153 00:09:00,200 --> 00:09:02,040 Speaker 1: that it calms the fuck down so you can go. 154 00:09:04,080 --> 00:09:08,680 Speaker 1: But yeah, I was just like reflecting on thirty one, 155 00:09:09,160 --> 00:09:17,080 Speaker 1: and it's been like such a beer of intense uncomfortability, 156 00:09:18,440 --> 00:09:24,679 Speaker 1: like really but uncomfortability, but also like feeling more secure 157 00:09:24,960 --> 00:09:28,480 Speaker 1: in who I am, like more than ever, like not 158 00:09:28,640 --> 00:09:34,959 Speaker 1: feeling I feel like just knowing, like what my purpose 159 00:09:35,080 --> 00:09:38,520 Speaker 1: is more, what are you doing? What the fuck are 160 00:09:38,559 --> 00:09:43,120 Speaker 1: you doing? I'm trying to see sleep. I think she is, 161 00:09:43,320 --> 00:09:47,840 Speaker 1: Oh cute school. I know. I was like, oh my god, 162 00:09:48,000 --> 00:09:52,719 Speaker 1: it's a school done. Yeah, which we mean to talk 163 00:09:52,720 --> 00:09:55,080 Speaker 1: about that too much. And it has been a month 164 00:09:55,080 --> 00:09:59,000 Speaker 1: of wod you say? Uncomfortable uncomfortability like I think also 165 00:09:59,160 --> 00:10:04,640 Speaker 1: just having this like us coming together weekly and talking 166 00:10:04,720 --> 00:10:08,079 Speaker 1: really like forces us to like face things and check in, 167 00:10:08,160 --> 00:10:11,880 Speaker 1: which is like something before this I didn't do, you know, 168 00:10:11,960 --> 00:10:15,360 Speaker 1: like maybe I would, maybe I'd try to do it 169 00:10:15,400 --> 00:10:19,720 Speaker 1: alone in my head, but actually vocalizing things and talking 170 00:10:19,760 --> 00:10:23,720 Speaker 1: things through is just it's just different. So I think 171 00:10:23,760 --> 00:10:27,000 Speaker 1: I just feel more confident than ever. I feel like 172 00:10:27,280 --> 00:10:30,520 Speaker 1: this next thirty two for me is really just trusting 173 00:10:30,559 --> 00:10:33,440 Speaker 1: my instincts. I feel like thirty one there was a 174 00:10:33,480 --> 00:10:36,360 Speaker 1: lot of that, like me going against it and then 175 00:10:36,480 --> 00:10:41,760 Speaker 1: like time and time again, the universe saying no, you 176 00:10:41,760 --> 00:10:44,559 Speaker 1: were right. Follow that go with that, and also that 177 00:10:44,640 --> 00:10:48,320 Speaker 1: like don't underestimate yourself, which I think like we have 178 00:10:48,440 --> 00:10:50,679 Speaker 1: done a lot, and even in our podcast thinking that 179 00:10:50,760 --> 00:10:53,240 Speaker 1: like well we can't, We're not. No one's gonna come, 180 00:10:53,280 --> 00:10:55,160 Speaker 1: no one's gonna show up, no one's gonna buy a ticket, 181 00:10:55,200 --> 00:10:57,160 Speaker 1: no one wants to pay to come like hang out 182 00:10:57,200 --> 00:11:00,120 Speaker 1: and like see hear us, like talk our shit it. 183 00:11:01,640 --> 00:11:04,040 Speaker 1: No one's gonna buy gift bags, no one's gonna like 184 00:11:05,120 --> 00:11:08,319 Speaker 1: who's gonna follow us? You know why? Who's gonna show 185 00:11:08,360 --> 00:11:10,560 Speaker 1: up at the meet up? Are we? Who the fuck 186 00:11:10,640 --> 00:11:12,920 Speaker 1: are we? You know what we're talking about? What are 187 00:11:12,920 --> 00:11:15,200 Speaker 1: we doing? Like even today, like what are we talking about? 188 00:11:15,240 --> 00:11:18,680 Speaker 1: Like overthinking things and just like instead of just like Okay, 189 00:11:18,760 --> 00:11:23,600 Speaker 1: we got this, I think thirty two it's gonna be 190 00:11:23,640 --> 00:11:25,720 Speaker 1: more of that for me, like just like no, I 191 00:11:25,720 --> 00:11:29,600 Speaker 1: got this right. I think even like when I when 192 00:11:29,640 --> 00:11:34,000 Speaker 1: we started this, I felt really insecure about how much 193 00:11:34,040 --> 00:11:36,360 Speaker 1: I could share and like what I was going to 194 00:11:36,400 --> 00:11:37,960 Speaker 1: share and what I was going to talk about. And 195 00:11:38,000 --> 00:11:41,840 Speaker 1: now I feel, more more than ever, like share whatever 196 00:11:41,840 --> 00:11:44,360 Speaker 1: the fuck I want. It's too late, well that it's 197 00:11:44,400 --> 00:11:46,959 Speaker 1: too late, but also like it's too late, but it's 198 00:11:47,000 --> 00:11:51,280 Speaker 1: too late, but also like I've seen the results. I've 199 00:11:51,360 --> 00:11:58,920 Speaker 1: seen the like what happens when you when people relate 200 00:11:59,040 --> 00:12:00,680 Speaker 1: and you're honest, you can. 201 00:12:00,559 --> 00:12:04,240 Speaker 3: Never go wrong when you're telling the truth. Like, what 202 00:12:04,320 --> 00:12:06,439 Speaker 3: is something I gonna tell you you're wrong? No, Well that's 203 00:12:06,520 --> 00:12:07,120 Speaker 3: what happens. 204 00:12:07,160 --> 00:12:09,040 Speaker 1: Well, I think I've lived in a place of like 205 00:12:09,200 --> 00:12:14,320 Speaker 1: fear of like disappointing family, disappointing people that are important 206 00:12:14,360 --> 00:12:16,720 Speaker 1: to me, wanting to feeling like I had to like 207 00:12:17,520 --> 00:12:24,800 Speaker 1: be a certain way to a appease them. And I'm 208 00:12:24,640 --> 00:12:26,960 Speaker 1: I'm doing what I want to do and they're fine, 209 00:12:27,640 --> 00:12:31,240 Speaker 1: They're okay, they're surviving. Whether or not I'm talking about 210 00:12:31,240 --> 00:12:35,080 Speaker 1: dicks or mental health, it doesn't matter. I still, well, 211 00:12:35,120 --> 00:12:37,079 Speaker 1: that's I say, No one's gonna no one's gonna disown you. 212 00:12:37,240 --> 00:12:40,800 Speaker 1: Erica's I know. But it's like, but I think I 213 00:12:40,880 --> 00:12:45,439 Speaker 1: just I've always I've always had I think disappointing. Disappointment 214 00:12:46,760 --> 00:12:50,440 Speaker 1: is like something that I've that has like paralyzed me 215 00:12:50,520 --> 00:12:53,080 Speaker 1: so much in my life. And I think this like 216 00:12:53,360 --> 00:12:57,320 Speaker 1: the past year and a half two years, it's a 217 00:12:57,360 --> 00:12:59,880 Speaker 1: culmination of things, not just this, but like you know, 218 00:13:00,120 --> 00:13:03,199 Speaker 1: becoming a like just becoming a mother and like try 219 00:13:03,400 --> 00:13:07,280 Speaker 1: like that journey of becoming a mother and feeling more confident, 220 00:13:07,880 --> 00:13:11,640 Speaker 1: becoming more confident, just being a single person, like I've 221 00:13:11,640 --> 00:13:15,200 Speaker 1: always been attached to someone, I've always been in a relationship, 222 00:13:15,679 --> 00:13:17,920 Speaker 1: like figuring out who I am outside of that. Like 223 00:13:17,920 --> 00:13:19,719 Speaker 1: all those things have kind of like made me kind 224 00:13:19,720 --> 00:13:22,280 Speaker 1: of not give a fuck anymore. And I still I'm 225 00:13:22,320 --> 00:13:25,000 Speaker 1: still unlearning things. There's still times where I like feel like, 226 00:13:25,000 --> 00:13:28,120 Speaker 1: ooh should I can I H I don't know, but 227 00:13:28,640 --> 00:13:32,680 Speaker 1: I just feel like thirty two is going to be 228 00:13:33,160 --> 00:13:38,880 Speaker 1: a really pivotabal, pivotal, pivotal, pivotal year for me. And 229 00:13:39,240 --> 00:13:42,280 Speaker 1: the pattern says so too, So it must be trip 230 00:13:42,440 --> 00:13:44,800 Speaker 1: pattern knows everything. So it is true. 231 00:13:46,040 --> 00:13:49,679 Speaker 3: It's funny because I don't think so much my issue 232 00:13:49,880 --> 00:13:54,679 Speaker 3: is disappoining family as as it is so much that 233 00:13:54,720 --> 00:13:56,319 Speaker 3: I think I get into my head about like how 234 00:13:56,320 --> 00:13:58,000 Speaker 3: I come off with people that don't know me. 235 00:13:59,320 --> 00:14:01,600 Speaker 1: I don't know why care about the people close to me. 236 00:14:02,200 --> 00:14:03,240 Speaker 1: You're gonna disown me. 237 00:14:03,360 --> 00:14:07,520 Speaker 3: I didn't think so, but even like saying I've come 238 00:14:07,559 --> 00:14:08,439 Speaker 3: the same way like. 239 00:14:11,080 --> 00:14:11,800 Speaker 1: Certain things. 240 00:14:12,000 --> 00:14:15,840 Speaker 3: So I just realized a lot this year that like 241 00:14:15,920 --> 00:14:18,360 Speaker 3: being comfortable in my skin and who I am as 242 00:14:18,400 --> 00:14:19,680 Speaker 3: a person is. 243 00:14:19,640 --> 00:14:21,360 Speaker 1: Like people are gonna like it or not like it. 244 00:14:21,600 --> 00:14:24,000 Speaker 1: People are gonna always have some shit to say. 245 00:14:24,280 --> 00:14:25,760 Speaker 3: But at the end of the day, when I know 246 00:14:25,840 --> 00:14:28,880 Speaker 3: like this is who I am and this is like 247 00:14:29,120 --> 00:14:34,520 Speaker 3: my journey and my purpose, I care less slowly about 248 00:14:34,560 --> 00:14:37,160 Speaker 3: people what people say, and just by talking to people, 249 00:14:37,200 --> 00:14:38,400 Speaker 3: like I told you, I was talking to one of 250 00:14:38,440 --> 00:14:40,760 Speaker 3: our friends and she was just like, you know, it's 251 00:14:40,800 --> 00:14:43,720 Speaker 3: so crazy, like I'm constantly thinking about what other people 252 00:14:43,760 --> 00:14:46,560 Speaker 3: are thinking. She's like, I'll probably leave here right now 253 00:14:46,560 --> 00:14:48,520 Speaker 3: and be like does she like me? And I'm like, 254 00:14:48,520 --> 00:14:50,080 Speaker 3: oh my god, I'm so happy you said that, because 255 00:14:50,080 --> 00:14:52,120 Speaker 3: sometimes I feel the same way. I'm like, so in 256 00:14:52,200 --> 00:14:55,720 Speaker 3: my head, hmmm, that was stupid. When I say that, 257 00:14:55,960 --> 00:14:59,000 Speaker 3: then I'm like, bitch, nobody's even thinking about you but you. 258 00:15:00,320 --> 00:15:02,640 Speaker 3: But her even saying that aloud to me was so 259 00:15:03,000 --> 00:15:04,960 Speaker 3: such a big deal for me. I'm like, oh, I'm 260 00:15:05,000 --> 00:15:07,760 Speaker 3: not crazy, Like, oh, this is what this is like 261 00:15:07,880 --> 00:15:10,320 Speaker 3: the unlearning where the unlearning begins. 262 00:15:11,040 --> 00:15:13,040 Speaker 1: And even with people who are close to me, that 263 00:15:13,120 --> 00:15:14,400 Speaker 1: it bothers me when they. 264 00:15:14,240 --> 00:15:17,600 Speaker 3: Don't agree or when they're like, you know, telling me 265 00:15:17,640 --> 00:15:20,360 Speaker 3: something about myself that like, I feel like we don't 266 00:15:20,400 --> 00:15:24,000 Speaker 3: have to discuss. I've realized that everybody's grown up differently 267 00:15:24,040 --> 00:15:28,480 Speaker 3: and had different experiences and they're not going to understand 268 00:15:28,600 --> 00:15:32,240 Speaker 3: yours and they're not supposed to, you know what I'm saying, Like. 269 00:15:35,040 --> 00:15:37,200 Speaker 1: People project, that's what humans do. 270 00:15:37,520 --> 00:15:40,320 Speaker 3: And if you're insecure and about your shit or about 271 00:15:40,320 --> 00:15:43,120 Speaker 3: what other people think of you, me being overly honest 272 00:15:43,160 --> 00:15:45,080 Speaker 3: about my shit is gonna make you uncomfortable. 273 00:15:45,240 --> 00:15:46,680 Speaker 1: But that's not my problem. 274 00:15:46,760 --> 00:15:49,480 Speaker 3: And usually, like my cancer will harbor some shit and 275 00:15:49,520 --> 00:15:52,440 Speaker 3: I can like, sim shit will bother me and bother 276 00:15:52,520 --> 00:15:54,280 Speaker 3: me and bother me and bother me, and I'll think 277 00:15:54,280 --> 00:15:55,240 Speaker 3: about it and then I'm like Okay. 278 00:15:55,280 --> 00:15:57,440 Speaker 1: Finally I'm like, Okay, well let me tell you how 279 00:15:57,480 --> 00:15:57,920 Speaker 1: I feel. 280 00:15:57,960 --> 00:16:01,160 Speaker 3: But it's just like I don't even I've noticed in myself, 281 00:16:01,240 --> 00:16:02,800 Speaker 3: like there's a lot of things I still need to 282 00:16:03,200 --> 00:16:05,280 Speaker 3: cultivate and grow because I still fuck up. But there's 283 00:16:05,320 --> 00:16:08,200 Speaker 3: partying where I'm like, I see that I'm growing because 284 00:16:08,200 --> 00:16:10,840 Speaker 3: there's things I'm like, I'm not taking this personally. I'm 285 00:16:10,880 --> 00:16:13,840 Speaker 3: not going to I refuse to take this personally right now. 286 00:16:15,040 --> 00:16:18,760 Speaker 1: And so I think that's even when I went to 287 00:16:18,760 --> 00:16:20,680 Speaker 1: Atlanta and I was in Atlanta and I. 288 00:16:20,600 --> 00:16:23,120 Speaker 3: Was like, damn, I was so stressed out while I 289 00:16:23,160 --> 00:16:24,680 Speaker 3: was here, But I didn't have nothing to stress about, 290 00:16:24,720 --> 00:16:26,120 Speaker 3: you know what I mean. Like I was so young, 291 00:16:26,240 --> 00:16:28,040 Speaker 3: Like I was here doing what I was supposed to 292 00:16:28,040 --> 00:16:29,360 Speaker 3: be doing, fucking up. 293 00:16:29,720 --> 00:16:34,320 Speaker 1: Making money, doing horseshit, fucking up. That's exactly what I 294 00:16:34,320 --> 00:16:36,000 Speaker 1: was supposed to be doing in those twenties because I 295 00:16:36,000 --> 00:16:40,000 Speaker 1: didn't go in college. I mean college was a floor, 296 00:16:40,160 --> 00:16:43,880 Speaker 1: but I was like maybe going class I yeah, that 297 00:16:44,040 --> 00:16:47,920 Speaker 1: was like ten percent. No, I get it, you know 298 00:16:47,960 --> 00:16:48,280 Speaker 1: what I mean. 299 00:16:48,320 --> 00:16:52,040 Speaker 3: I'm like, So it reminds me now my early thirties, 300 00:16:52,160 --> 00:16:55,040 Speaker 3: like you know, you got it under control and panic, 301 00:16:55,120 --> 00:16:57,040 Speaker 3: but don't panic to the point where it like. 302 00:16:57,360 --> 00:16:59,440 Speaker 1: Well, because you'll look back on the thirties and when 303 00:16:59,480 --> 00:17:01,160 Speaker 1: you're a fifties and be like, why did I waste 304 00:17:01,160 --> 00:17:03,040 Speaker 1: so much time? It's like that's I feel like that's 305 00:17:03,120 --> 00:17:05,440 Speaker 1: the trend in life, and that's the one I don't want. 306 00:17:05,520 --> 00:17:08,680 Speaker 1: That's the one thing I hear consistently that I don't want, 307 00:17:08,840 --> 00:17:11,200 Speaker 1: you know. I like even thinking back, Like I think 308 00:17:11,240 --> 00:17:16,600 Speaker 1: back too, Like I feel like when you know, when 309 00:17:16,640 --> 00:17:19,600 Speaker 1: I was like young too, Like I was always so 310 00:17:19,680 --> 00:17:24,560 Speaker 1: worried about like how I looked like my body, And 311 00:17:24,600 --> 00:17:26,520 Speaker 1: then I look back on pictures and I'm like, what 312 00:17:26,560 --> 00:17:29,240 Speaker 1: the fuck was I talking about? It was fine, it 313 00:17:29,320 --> 00:17:31,000 Speaker 1: was fine, and I and but thank god, Like I've 314 00:17:31,040 --> 00:17:32,760 Speaker 1: done a lot of work on myself now where like 315 00:17:32,800 --> 00:17:36,080 Speaker 1: I like even now like I'm I'm in a place 316 00:17:36,119 --> 00:17:37,959 Speaker 1: in my body where like I feel like I'm not 317 00:17:38,000 --> 00:17:42,000 Speaker 1: in the best shape. I notice things, but I love 318 00:17:42,119 --> 00:17:44,879 Speaker 1: myself more. And that's a big deal for me because 319 00:17:44,920 --> 00:17:46,639 Speaker 1: like for me, that's always been an issue. But like 320 00:17:46,720 --> 00:17:49,479 Speaker 1: looking back, it's always like that looking back, like what 321 00:17:49,560 --> 00:17:53,840 Speaker 1: was I worried about? Like even like I think about 322 00:17:54,160 --> 00:17:58,040 Speaker 1: when I was like fourteen and thinking like, wow, thirty 323 00:17:58,480 --> 00:18:01,159 Speaker 1: is really grown. I better have. I'm gonna have all 324 00:18:01,200 --> 00:18:02,760 Speaker 1: my shit together, I'm gonna own a home, I'm gonna 325 00:18:02,760 --> 00:18:05,840 Speaker 1: be two. I'm like, you know, yeah, five kids. I'm 326 00:18:05,840 --> 00:18:09,240 Speaker 1: like basically I'm dying you'll be dying, You'll be you'll 327 00:18:09,359 --> 00:18:12,920 Speaker 1: basically almost to the great every child I was dead. 328 00:18:13,000 --> 00:18:16,320 Speaker 3: So, like, I really thought thirty was so old. I 329 00:18:17,080 --> 00:18:19,520 Speaker 3: remember my aunt, my favorite aunt, turning thirty two, and 330 00:18:19,560 --> 00:18:19,840 Speaker 3: I was. 331 00:18:19,800 --> 00:18:22,520 Speaker 1: Like, what, you're how old? Right? 332 00:18:23,320 --> 00:18:28,520 Speaker 3: Crazy? And now like my therapist she's I guess. 333 00:18:28,640 --> 00:18:30,959 Speaker 1: She's like forty. How's that going. I've been going stuff. 334 00:18:31,200 --> 00:18:33,200 Speaker 3: Well I've been out of town because I was duction, 335 00:18:33,359 --> 00:18:38,080 Speaker 3: but I think she's forty six. She's like, you're so young. 336 00:18:38,400 --> 00:18:41,000 Speaker 3: She's like, you're so young, you're so young. I'm like, okay, 337 00:18:41,160 --> 00:18:43,399 Speaker 3: I'm like maybe I should believe it. Yeah, don't say 338 00:18:43,400 --> 00:18:44,040 Speaker 3: I don't be offended. 339 00:18:44,080 --> 00:18:46,159 Speaker 1: So I'm twenty, right, So sometimes we can be offend. 340 00:18:46,160 --> 00:18:48,919 Speaker 1: We're offended if people think we're too old, then we're 341 00:18:48,960 --> 00:18:50,800 Speaker 1: offended people think we're too young. But you know what, 342 00:18:50,920 --> 00:18:53,680 Speaker 1: I'm not offended because I know I'm not like not offended, 343 00:18:53,720 --> 00:18:56,560 Speaker 1: but you know what I mean, like okay, like you know, yeah, yeah, 344 00:18:56,640 --> 00:18:58,200 Speaker 1: like come down. Okay. 345 00:18:58,280 --> 00:19:00,560 Speaker 3: So when I was in Atlanta, went out with my 346 00:19:00,680 --> 00:19:02,760 Speaker 3: ex girlfriend, who I haven't talked to in a long 347 00:19:02,800 --> 00:19:04,480 Speaker 3: time because she kind of reminded me. She stocked me 348 00:19:04,520 --> 00:19:07,320 Speaker 3: at the end, which was true. I think she's grown 349 00:19:07,359 --> 00:19:10,080 Speaker 3: a lot, which is good. But we went out okay, 350 00:19:10,560 --> 00:19:13,320 Speaker 3: we went out with two of her co workers. 351 00:19:13,359 --> 00:19:13,399 Speaker 1: No. 352 00:19:13,520 --> 00:19:15,000 Speaker 3: First night, we went out with one of her coworkers 353 00:19:15,000 --> 00:19:17,879 Speaker 3: and one of my girlfriends who's also like a steadily lesbian, 354 00:19:18,160 --> 00:19:18,880 Speaker 3: and they were fine. 355 00:19:18,960 --> 00:19:20,680 Speaker 1: We went to a star bar. We had a great time. 356 00:19:20,680 --> 00:19:23,480 Speaker 1: We danced disco, my favorite thing. Yeah, a star bars. 357 00:19:23,560 --> 00:19:26,440 Speaker 1: You mentioned that last time. It's like famous. 358 00:19:28,040 --> 00:19:30,439 Speaker 3: The second night, went to MJQ and she came with 359 00:19:30,480 --> 00:19:33,560 Speaker 3: this other girl from her job, and the other girl 360 00:19:33,640 --> 00:19:35,879 Speaker 3: like started a scene in the parking lot. I was like, well, 361 00:19:35,920 --> 00:19:38,080 Speaker 3: what's wrassling a scene in a parla? 362 00:19:38,480 --> 00:19:39,359 Speaker 1: So what's wrong with her? 363 00:19:39,400 --> 00:19:41,159 Speaker 3: And later she's like, well, she was upset because I 364 00:19:41,160 --> 00:19:43,439 Speaker 3: was flirted because we know, we were like, you know, 365 00:19:43,560 --> 00:19:44,720 Speaker 3: like they might have made out a little bit in 366 00:19:44,760 --> 00:19:47,080 Speaker 3: the club or whatever, and the girl was like freaking 367 00:19:47,080 --> 00:19:48,800 Speaker 3: out in the parking lot. 368 00:19:48,800 --> 00:19:50,439 Speaker 1: And I was like never ever. I was like, how 369 00:19:50,440 --> 00:19:52,639 Speaker 1: old is she? She's like twenty nine. I'm like that's insane. 370 00:19:52,760 --> 00:19:55,160 Speaker 3: And I was like, I've never been crazy like that. 371 00:19:55,280 --> 00:19:59,080 Speaker 3: I can't like, I've never been like stupid in my twenties. 372 00:19:59,359 --> 00:20:01,959 Speaker 3: I've always been a pretty mature person. I have an 373 00:20:01,960 --> 00:20:05,360 Speaker 3: old soul. So sometimes like when people say like, oh, 374 00:20:05,400 --> 00:20:07,960 Speaker 3: you're so young, you're so young, I'm like, Okay, calm down, 375 00:20:08,040 --> 00:20:10,879 Speaker 3: because I know I've been here a lot of times before. 376 00:20:11,440 --> 00:20:13,800 Speaker 3: There's certain things I just wouldn't I've don dumb shit, 377 00:20:13,840 --> 00:20:15,760 Speaker 3: but there's anything that just wouldn't do, Like my ego 378 00:20:15,760 --> 00:20:16,359 Speaker 3: won't allow it. 379 00:20:16,440 --> 00:20:17,040 Speaker 1: My pride. 380 00:20:17,560 --> 00:20:19,800 Speaker 3: And I see some twenties and I'm like, oh my god, 381 00:20:19,840 --> 00:20:21,400 Speaker 3: you're so green, and. 382 00:20:21,720 --> 00:20:23,520 Speaker 1: You can be forty in act that way. 383 00:20:23,600 --> 00:20:26,520 Speaker 3: That's true, and that's you could be forty and act 384 00:20:26,640 --> 00:20:27,480 Speaker 3: like a crazy bitch. 385 00:20:27,840 --> 00:20:31,320 Speaker 1: Don't get that age. Age is twisted. Yeah, that's true, 386 00:20:31,440 --> 00:20:34,119 Speaker 1: that's true. It's just a level. Yeah. I mean, I 387 00:20:34,160 --> 00:20:38,640 Speaker 1: think it's understanding self that piece. I think a lot 388 00:20:38,640 --> 00:20:40,920 Speaker 1: of the reasons I don't freak out is because I 389 00:20:41,000 --> 00:20:44,879 Speaker 1: really value my inner I already struggle enough to like 390 00:20:44,920 --> 00:20:48,280 Speaker 1: maintain inner peace when I'm when there's nothing happening, Like 391 00:20:48,720 --> 00:20:51,719 Speaker 1: I don't need to like make it worse. Right, I'm 392 00:20:51,760 --> 00:20:54,240 Speaker 1: not going to see I'm not about to let you 393 00:20:54,760 --> 00:20:57,680 Speaker 1: make me crazy, you know. Like, don't get me wrong, 394 00:20:58,280 --> 00:21:00,879 Speaker 1: I've I've definitely seen moments of my from like who 395 00:21:00,920 --> 00:21:04,480 Speaker 1: the fuck was that like violent ass moments like not 396 00:21:04,760 --> 00:21:09,800 Speaker 1: for throwing shit, crazy psycho shit. But for the most part, 397 00:21:11,119 --> 00:21:14,080 Speaker 1: I can keep it together. But like sometimes you need 398 00:21:14,119 --> 00:21:16,560 Speaker 1: those moments though too. Those moments are necessary. Sometimes some 399 00:21:16,600 --> 00:21:20,679 Speaker 1: of those moments I have felt like the most like 400 00:21:21,080 --> 00:21:23,480 Speaker 1: that was the only way to release at that time. 401 00:21:23,600 --> 00:21:26,720 Speaker 1: I needed to throw that shit. Like that's why I'm 402 00:21:26,720 --> 00:21:28,320 Speaker 1: like you think like I want, like I want to 403 00:21:28,320 --> 00:21:30,680 Speaker 1: go to one of those like breakrooms, because I'm telling 404 00:21:30,680 --> 00:21:32,800 Speaker 1: you there's some shit in there. Meet up, there's some shit. 405 00:21:33,440 --> 00:21:36,000 Speaker 1: We should get a group price for a group good 406 00:21:36,040 --> 00:21:39,040 Speaker 1: mom we should no for real, because there's ship that 407 00:21:39,080 --> 00:21:41,960 Speaker 1: you don't even realize you need to, like in order 408 00:21:42,040 --> 00:21:44,600 Speaker 1: to release it, you need to be physical. You can't 409 00:21:44,640 --> 00:21:48,640 Speaker 1: always just breathe everything out or like work out everything out, 410 00:21:48,680 --> 00:21:51,200 Speaker 1: Like yeah, it's just you have to be physical. And 411 00:21:51,280 --> 00:21:53,520 Speaker 1: like Viole, there's a beauty in violence. I know that 412 00:21:53,560 --> 00:21:59,280 Speaker 1: sounds creepy, but like, no, there is, but not I 413 00:21:59,280 --> 00:22:02,040 Speaker 1: don't know. That's it's kind of scary. There's beauty and violence, but. 414 00:22:02,280 --> 00:22:06,560 Speaker 3: No, let's talk about that. I want to talk about polarity. 415 00:22:07,240 --> 00:22:10,040 Speaker 3: I want to talk about balance. I want to talk 416 00:22:10,040 --> 00:22:13,840 Speaker 3: about that, Like there's something slightly intriguing and beautiful about 417 00:22:13,920 --> 00:22:17,640 Speaker 3: darkness about like I don't know, like creepy things. 418 00:22:18,080 --> 00:22:22,359 Speaker 1: What is Halloween? Yeah, it's Halloween music, Happy Halloween, Happy, 419 00:22:22,880 --> 00:22:27,160 Speaker 1: happy Halloween. But people don't discuss that enough. 420 00:22:27,160 --> 00:22:30,000 Speaker 3: And I think that's where like religion irritates me, because 421 00:22:30,560 --> 00:22:35,320 Speaker 3: everybody knows what's considered bad is actually to indulge in. 422 00:22:35,359 --> 00:22:39,240 Speaker 3: It is actually like nourishing to the soul and feels good. 423 00:22:39,600 --> 00:22:42,200 Speaker 3: And if it feels good naturally, then can it really 424 00:22:42,200 --> 00:22:43,639 Speaker 3: be that bad? 425 00:22:43,800 --> 00:22:44,240 Speaker 1: Calm down? 426 00:22:44,280 --> 00:22:50,600 Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm for the sociopaths, like like you're talking about scorpio, 427 00:22:50,720 --> 00:22:53,159 Speaker 3: I can get dark, Okay, I'm thinking of the darkes. 428 00:22:54,320 --> 00:22:58,920 Speaker 1: So if I voodoo, this is karma right now, what 429 00:22:58,960 --> 00:23:02,040 Speaker 1: I mean? Let me calm down. No, but that's the cancer. 430 00:23:02,080 --> 00:23:04,360 Speaker 1: And you're like, why did he do that? What happened 431 00:23:04,400 --> 00:23:07,560 Speaker 1: to him? No, for sure, there's why it happened to 432 00:23:07,640 --> 00:23:09,960 Speaker 1: him and his child. We could have caught that right 433 00:23:09,960 --> 00:23:12,400 Speaker 1: here in this hugged more. 434 00:23:13,080 --> 00:23:17,520 Speaker 3: Six years old, Johnny didn't get played with in the schoolyard, and. 435 00:23:16,920 --> 00:23:19,120 Speaker 1: Only I had been there and I was his first 436 00:23:19,119 --> 00:23:23,159 Speaker 1: grade teacher. I really feel that way, Eric, I know 437 00:23:23,280 --> 00:23:27,960 Speaker 1: you do. That's why I know everyone from and I 438 00:23:28,040 --> 00:23:30,960 Speaker 1: feel that way in ways, but then there's other ways 439 00:23:30,960 --> 00:23:33,040 Speaker 1: where I'm like, no, some people are just fucked up. 440 00:23:33,080 --> 00:23:35,880 Speaker 1: What I mean is like sometimes it's from the beginning. 441 00:23:35,640 --> 00:23:41,159 Speaker 3: Fun to do irresponsible things. Absolutely, sacrifice pigeons. 442 00:23:41,840 --> 00:23:44,840 Speaker 1: We all know you'd like to sacrifice pigeons. I didn't once. 443 00:23:45,160 --> 00:23:49,439 Speaker 1: Calm down. If you haven't heard about the sacrifice of 444 00:23:49,560 --> 00:23:53,000 Speaker 1: the pigeons, Oh my god, he does gonna come for us. 445 00:23:53,840 --> 00:23:57,439 Speaker 1: They haven't yet. Check out you sacrifice to what? Oh 446 00:23:57,520 --> 00:24:03,600 Speaker 1: my god, there's vegans listening. Relaxed. I'm also vegetarian. I 447 00:24:03,640 --> 00:24:06,280 Speaker 1: don't condone this message. And she is not a vegetarian, 448 00:24:06,359 --> 00:24:08,960 Speaker 1: and neither of my Let's be honest. Okay, let's be clear. 449 00:24:09,000 --> 00:24:14,240 Speaker 3: It was for spiritual purpose, much larger than just simple 450 00:24:14,280 --> 00:24:14,879 Speaker 3: food intake. 451 00:24:15,200 --> 00:24:19,840 Speaker 1: Did you eat it? No? Like I didn't do that part. No, 452 00:24:20,040 --> 00:24:22,160 Speaker 1: are you crazy? I thought maybe you has like become 453 00:24:22,200 --> 00:24:23,400 Speaker 1: one with it and eat it or something. 454 00:24:23,440 --> 00:24:25,879 Speaker 3: I heard of people like licking the butt, looking the butt. 455 00:24:26,600 --> 00:24:29,919 Speaker 3: Oh my god, but I haven't. But I've heard people. Okay, 456 00:24:30,359 --> 00:24:38,760 Speaker 3: we're getting topic, we're not even sure of getting somewhere. 457 00:24:39,080 --> 00:24:42,440 Speaker 3: Got high and then I got okay, yeah, hilarity anyway 458 00:24:42,920 --> 00:24:43,840 Speaker 3: to no, no no. 459 00:24:44,080 --> 00:24:46,520 Speaker 1: I've always been intrigued by darkness, Like I think even 460 00:24:46,520 --> 00:24:48,879 Speaker 1: as a child, I've always loved horror films, even like 461 00:24:48,920 --> 00:24:52,040 Speaker 1: from a very very young age. I think my dad, actually, 462 00:24:52,320 --> 00:24:55,320 Speaker 1: my dad is kind of the one that like, I 463 00:24:55,359 --> 00:24:58,560 Speaker 1: don't know, made it okay since you told me that story, 464 00:24:59,359 --> 00:25:01,199 Speaker 1: like made it oka hey, and not like why are 465 00:25:01,240 --> 00:25:01,600 Speaker 1: you doing that? 466 00:25:01,680 --> 00:25:03,600 Speaker 3: Don't do that or like, which is really interesting to 467 00:25:03,640 --> 00:25:05,959 Speaker 3: me because he's his family and he's pretty Christian. 468 00:25:06,840 --> 00:25:11,600 Speaker 1: Well his sister's voodoo and I say his sisters because 469 00:25:11,640 --> 00:25:14,960 Speaker 1: I don't not relate it to them, not my blood 470 00:25:15,040 --> 00:25:19,520 Speaker 1: or anything. I mean some people, like you said, people 471 00:25:19,560 --> 00:25:23,560 Speaker 1: pass through people, and that's doesn't mean that you're related 472 00:25:23,600 --> 00:25:26,000 Speaker 1: to them. What did they say? They passed through people 473 00:25:26,040 --> 00:25:29,840 Speaker 1: like when you give birth to a child. Yeah, it's 474 00:25:29,920 --> 00:25:32,400 Speaker 1: just because someone gave birth to them along the way. 475 00:25:32,440 --> 00:25:35,840 Speaker 1: And then I also appeared at some point. That does 476 00:25:35,880 --> 00:25:38,439 Speaker 1: not mean relate. I mean it's also just coming through people. 477 00:25:38,520 --> 00:25:42,880 Speaker 1: So but it's true. Yeah, but yeah, my dad kind 478 00:25:42,880 --> 00:25:45,640 Speaker 1: of like was the one that, like because he likes 479 00:25:46,160 --> 00:25:47,960 Speaker 1: he likes horror in that way, like it's more like 480 00:25:48,080 --> 00:25:50,760 Speaker 1: silly horror films like practice he's a jokester, like he 481 00:25:50,760 --> 00:25:53,679 Speaker 1: would always do like these really scary mean jokes to 482 00:25:53,760 --> 00:25:57,000 Speaker 1: like me and my friends, but like low key, like 483 00:25:58,119 --> 00:26:00,399 Speaker 1: we were so young, you know, but I now you're 484 00:26:00,440 --> 00:26:02,680 Speaker 1: like that was kind of me. Yeah, that was me too. 485 00:26:02,920 --> 00:26:05,960 Speaker 1: It's like the cemetery thing, you know, like that's kind 486 00:26:06,000 --> 00:26:07,200 Speaker 1: of like traumatizing. 487 00:26:08,359 --> 00:26:10,159 Speaker 3: I know my dad would be really traumatizing things to 488 00:26:10,200 --> 00:26:12,040 Speaker 3: me too, And then I can't hurry pee because I 489 00:26:12,200 --> 00:26:13,720 Speaker 3: know people are gonna be like that's crazy. 490 00:26:14,480 --> 00:26:16,119 Speaker 1: He would always put like and he would put like 491 00:26:16,200 --> 00:26:19,879 Speaker 1: bugs in our like beds that real budd but like 492 00:26:20,119 --> 00:26:22,919 Speaker 1: really real looking ones all the time, and and like 493 00:26:23,080 --> 00:26:25,919 Speaker 1: just do just come down, just scarce he'd just be 494 00:26:25,960 --> 00:26:28,880 Speaker 1: bored in his house. Actually thinking about that, like as 495 00:26:28,880 --> 00:26:31,959 Speaker 1: a parent now like imagining me like just like this, 496 00:26:32,000 --> 00:26:34,360 Speaker 1: I'm not to go fuck with that kids, Like that's 497 00:26:34,400 --> 00:26:37,000 Speaker 1: actually hilarious. He actually put a fucking mask on his 498 00:26:37,240 --> 00:26:39,359 Speaker 1: head to come down. My dad would do that, but 499 00:26:39,359 --> 00:26:43,119 Speaker 1: he's done it. Just Actually I feel like our dads 500 00:26:43,119 --> 00:26:50,520 Speaker 1: are like similar in ways. But yeah, I don't know. 501 00:26:50,800 --> 00:26:54,480 Speaker 1: I think also I think what is darkness exactly? To 502 00:26:54,840 --> 00:26:57,879 Speaker 1: like who decided that it's darkness? Because I think also 503 00:26:57,880 --> 00:27:00,800 Speaker 1: there's so many you can just how if you you 504 00:27:00,800 --> 00:27:03,000 Speaker 1: can even get racial with it, how even like dark 505 00:27:03,560 --> 00:27:07,920 Speaker 1: darkness is scary, spooky, the scary spooky, but like we're 506 00:27:07,960 --> 00:27:10,119 Speaker 1: not going to go there tonight. We're not going to 507 00:27:10,200 --> 00:27:12,080 Speaker 1: go there tonight. But like I'm just saying like that, 508 00:27:12,560 --> 00:27:16,000 Speaker 1: why does darkness hold is such a negative connotation? If anything, 509 00:27:16,040 --> 00:27:17,760 Speaker 1: that's where life is created. 510 00:27:17,920 --> 00:27:20,600 Speaker 3: Well, I think that's where that's where the misconception is 511 00:27:20,800 --> 00:27:21,640 Speaker 3: like perpetuated. 512 00:27:21,640 --> 00:27:24,720 Speaker 1: And that's right, there's so much beauty in darkness because 513 00:27:24,760 --> 00:27:29,000 Speaker 1: literally that's where it's that's conception. It's in a dark womb. 514 00:27:29,040 --> 00:27:33,320 Speaker 1: It's it's not in the light, you know, and it 515 00:27:33,800 --> 00:27:37,560 Speaker 1: grows in the darkness. And there's and the duality is 516 00:27:37,600 --> 00:27:39,840 Speaker 1: that they're both beautiful, but for some reason one has 517 00:27:39,880 --> 00:27:44,320 Speaker 1: taken person like one sterio. Like literally I could say 518 00:27:44,560 --> 00:27:47,520 Speaker 1: if I was the first person to ever say rapists 519 00:27:47,560 --> 00:27:50,240 Speaker 1: are white, like not white people, but like that's or 520 00:27:50,280 --> 00:27:52,639 Speaker 1: like yeah, the darkness is white, white and pure. 521 00:27:52,600 --> 00:27:55,880 Speaker 3: Right, Well, if it's just overall it what it proves 522 00:27:56,040 --> 00:27:59,240 Speaker 3: is that it's just a balance and one would not 523 00:27:59,359 --> 00:28:01,800 Speaker 3: be without the other. And there's not a negative or 524 00:28:01,840 --> 00:28:05,120 Speaker 3: positive connotation, and that negative is not even really negative because. 525 00:28:04,880 --> 00:28:06,399 Speaker 1: I don't even know why it's like because it doesn't. 526 00:28:06,480 --> 00:28:09,200 Speaker 3: But remember in math, isn't like negative plus negative egos 527 00:28:09,200 --> 00:28:11,919 Speaker 3: are positive, do you remember them? And like a negative 528 00:28:11,960 --> 00:28:16,320 Speaker 3: pluzz a positive equals and negative. Yeah, but something batter operation. 529 00:28:16,359 --> 00:28:19,000 Speaker 3: It is a bad thing negative negative negative equals negative? Right? 530 00:28:20,680 --> 00:28:23,040 Speaker 1: How are we doing math all time? How we get 531 00:28:24,200 --> 00:28:27,960 Speaker 1: I'm fit? If you do one more. 532 00:28:27,800 --> 00:28:31,959 Speaker 3: Equation here you are totally agreeing with things like mm 533 00:28:32,040 --> 00:28:33,480 Speaker 3: hmm yeah negative. 534 00:28:36,400 --> 00:28:41,320 Speaker 1: My god. Yeah. Anyway, I don't know where you were 535 00:28:41,360 --> 00:28:46,680 Speaker 1: going with that. The dualities, the polarity duality, it's a balance. 536 00:28:46,760 --> 00:28:49,040 Speaker 3: We need both and need to indulge in both, and 537 00:28:49,160 --> 00:28:52,040 Speaker 3: need to indulge in all aspects of yourself just to 538 00:28:52,160 --> 00:28:52,880 Speaker 3: be one. 539 00:28:53,200 --> 00:28:58,040 Speaker 1: I think that core. We all want embrace it in 540 00:28:58,080 --> 00:29:01,360 Speaker 1: our way. Everyone celebrates Halloween sto. Halloween is literally the 541 00:29:01,400 --> 00:29:05,200 Speaker 1: celebration of the dead. Dead is usually what people would come. 542 00:29:05,280 --> 00:29:09,200 Speaker 1: It would put that under the umbrella of darkness, right, 543 00:29:09,320 --> 00:29:11,480 Speaker 1: like you're dead, we all die. I know, but I'm 544 00:29:11,520 --> 00:29:15,160 Speaker 1: just saying, for some reason, Halloween gives people permission to 545 00:29:15,280 --> 00:29:18,680 Speaker 1: celebrate darkness, where every other day of the month it's 546 00:29:18,840 --> 00:29:20,880 Speaker 1: to consider this negative thing. Why don't. We we don't 547 00:29:20,880 --> 00:29:22,280 Speaker 1: want to go to we don't want to know a funeral. 548 00:29:22,360 --> 00:29:23,760 Speaker 1: We don't want to talk about death. We don't want 549 00:29:23,760 --> 00:29:26,320 Speaker 1: to like do you know what I mean? 550 00:29:26,560 --> 00:29:30,640 Speaker 3: Yeah, speaking of that, Letta said something about my mom's 551 00:29:30,640 --> 00:29:32,040 Speaker 3: mom dying. I was like, oh, she's dead, and she 552 00:29:32,080 --> 00:29:36,000 Speaker 3: said you're going to die and I said, yeah, I 553 00:29:36,040 --> 00:29:36,920 Speaker 3: am going to die. 554 00:29:37,440 --> 00:29:39,840 Speaker 1: She's like, no, don't say that. That's gonna get me sad. 555 00:29:39,840 --> 00:29:42,680 Speaker 1: I said, it's really sad. But it's not sad because 556 00:29:42,680 --> 00:29:50,960 Speaker 1: we all are going to die. Wait, hopefully there's well 557 00:29:51,520 --> 00:29:54,560 Speaker 1: I mean, I said, it's okay. I said, it's actually life. 558 00:29:54,600 --> 00:29:55,160 Speaker 1: It's a cycle. 559 00:29:55,200 --> 00:29:57,160 Speaker 3: And I said, I said, okay, that's that part I 560 00:29:57,200 --> 00:29:58,960 Speaker 3: was and I said and I said, and I said, 561 00:29:58,960 --> 00:29:59,960 Speaker 3: and we never really die. 562 00:30:00,080 --> 00:30:02,280 Speaker 1: I said, our bodies die. I was like, this is 563 00:30:02,320 --> 00:30:03,760 Speaker 1: just how we are right now. I said, but then 564 00:30:03,800 --> 00:30:04,920 Speaker 1: we go to the next dimension. 565 00:30:05,360 --> 00:30:07,640 Speaker 3: And I said, because our souls are forever, We're always 566 00:30:07,680 --> 00:30:10,240 Speaker 3: going to be together no matter what form it takes. 567 00:30:10,280 --> 00:30:12,280 Speaker 1: You know, But that's really how I feel. I don't 568 00:30:13,280 --> 00:30:15,200 Speaker 1: I'm not. I mean, I guess I'm afraid of death, 569 00:30:15,400 --> 00:30:19,320 Speaker 1: but like I'm not afraid of death, but no, I 570 00:30:19,320 --> 00:30:24,200 Speaker 1: thought you were just ending at we're all gonna die anyway, honey, 571 00:30:23,000 --> 00:30:27,440 Speaker 1: what's for dinner? So is that too dark for my 572 00:30:27,480 --> 00:30:31,520 Speaker 1: ford to be honest? Irie has said like she's never 573 00:30:31,560 --> 00:30:34,560 Speaker 1: asked me if I'm gonna die, but she'd be like, 574 00:30:34,560 --> 00:30:37,360 Speaker 1: like even the way she handled like my dog's death 575 00:30:37,600 --> 00:30:41,200 Speaker 1: was so like, I don't think she fully understands, like 576 00:30:42,360 --> 00:30:44,640 Speaker 1: I think she I don't know. I don't know, or 577 00:30:44,680 --> 00:30:47,400 Speaker 1: she internalizes it. I'm not sure. I don't. She even 578 00:30:47,440 --> 00:30:50,280 Speaker 1: said like Flora's mom is dead, and I was like, 579 00:30:50,280 --> 00:30:51,560 Speaker 1: at the first time I ever heard her even say 580 00:30:51,560 --> 00:30:53,920 Speaker 1: the word dead, And at first it was like jarring 581 00:30:53,960 --> 00:30:55,960 Speaker 1: when I heard that word come from her little mouth, 582 00:30:56,040 --> 00:30:59,520 Speaker 1: I was like, dead, what, Relax, calm down, who's dead? 583 00:30:59,600 --> 00:31:01,760 Speaker 1: Like it's like it's it's like, well, no, it's true. 584 00:31:01,800 --> 00:31:07,720 Speaker 1: And I didn't. Yeah, but it's just hearing them or 585 00:31:08,040 --> 00:31:11,120 Speaker 1: seeing her reaction to it and her experience to it 586 00:31:11,160 --> 00:31:13,840 Speaker 1: is interesting and I don't want to have a part 587 00:31:13,840 --> 00:31:16,360 Speaker 1: in shaping it, you know, but I also like want 588 00:31:16,360 --> 00:31:19,440 Speaker 1: to guide her, you know, not have her fear like 589 00:31:19,480 --> 00:31:20,280 Speaker 1: it's a transition. 590 00:31:20,440 --> 00:31:22,880 Speaker 3: Really it's a transition, and no one's really sure what's 591 00:31:22,880 --> 00:31:23,480 Speaker 3: on the other side. 592 00:31:23,480 --> 00:31:26,480 Speaker 1: But we're sure that it keeps going. That's true, you know, 593 00:31:26,560 --> 00:31:30,680 Speaker 1: because if you like, I don't know, But when it's close, 594 00:31:30,880 --> 00:31:35,320 Speaker 1: it's so much different. As I was saying it, I 595 00:31:35,400 --> 00:31:38,000 Speaker 1: was like, you should calm down. When it's closed, it's 596 00:31:38,040 --> 00:31:40,480 Speaker 1: so much more painful, and it's harder to even wrap 597 00:31:40,520 --> 00:31:43,920 Speaker 1: your head around even understanding that, even if you understand that, right, right, 598 00:31:44,000 --> 00:31:45,440 Speaker 1: even Yeah, for sure, for. 599 00:31:45,320 --> 00:31:52,960 Speaker 3: Sure, I've had like a bottle of one. 600 00:31:53,400 --> 00:31:58,600 Speaker 1: I have been starving myself for three juice cleanse. No, 601 00:31:58,680 --> 00:32:00,720 Speaker 1: I'm not starving myself, guys. After I talked about my 602 00:32:01,120 --> 00:32:04,280 Speaker 1: body issues, like and I've been starving. I'm going to 603 00:32:04,320 --> 00:32:05,160 Speaker 1: Mexico to masks. 604 00:32:05,800 --> 00:32:09,840 Speaker 3: I've only had fourteen juices since Sunday, which is true. 605 00:32:10,320 --> 00:32:13,600 Speaker 1: I've also eaten vegetables yam. But I just felt like 606 00:32:13,600 --> 00:32:16,080 Speaker 1: I needed to detox before my birthday. Bro. I've been 607 00:32:16,120 --> 00:32:20,680 Speaker 1: like just drinking and eating and stressing, and I just 608 00:32:20,720 --> 00:32:25,200 Speaker 1: felt heavy, like not even like like just bloated. My 609 00:32:25,360 --> 00:32:30,800 Speaker 1: insides were aching, that's what happens. They were they were 610 00:32:30,960 --> 00:32:34,480 Speaker 1: like my inside start like feeling like inflamed. Does that 611 00:32:34,520 --> 00:32:36,520 Speaker 1: ever happen? Like your stomach just feels I just know 612 00:32:36,560 --> 00:32:38,200 Speaker 1: what my body is like, Okay, it's not like a 613 00:32:38,240 --> 00:32:41,600 Speaker 1: stomach ache. It literally feels like burning. I don't know 614 00:32:42,840 --> 00:32:44,800 Speaker 1: that's the sound to me finishing the bottle of wine. 615 00:32:44,880 --> 00:32:47,000 Speaker 1: You sure did finish that bottle wine. Definitely had a 616 00:32:47,040 --> 00:32:53,080 Speaker 1: glass and two glasses. Okay, let's be clear. What are 617 00:32:53,080 --> 00:32:55,920 Speaker 1: you gonna be for Halloween? More? Titia? All right? Are 618 00:32:55,920 --> 00:32:58,000 Speaker 1: we both being more? Did you give it? Did you 619 00:32:58,000 --> 00:32:58,760 Speaker 1: give me that idea? 620 00:32:58,960 --> 00:33:01,240 Speaker 3: Or did we just like has been wanting to be 621 00:33:01,240 --> 00:33:03,920 Speaker 3: Wednesday because she's no, but like I did it for. 622 00:33:03,960 --> 00:33:05,640 Speaker 1: Work too, and I told you I was I need 623 00:33:05,720 --> 00:33:07,760 Speaker 1: to watch this, but then I didn't. But then I 624 00:33:07,840 --> 00:33:10,560 Speaker 1: was like, I gave this idea. Okay, maybe we're all 625 00:33:10,560 --> 00:33:15,640 Speaker 1: going to be You're gonna be. Yeah, well Ione wants 626 00:33:15,680 --> 00:33:17,480 Speaker 1: to be this wonder woman, so I could be wonder 627 00:33:17,480 --> 00:33:17,959 Speaker 1: woman with her. 628 00:33:17,960 --> 00:33:19,320 Speaker 3: I mean, it doesn't really matter. I don't really care 629 00:33:19,360 --> 00:33:22,000 Speaker 3: how many mortities there are trick or treating? Are we 630 00:33:22,000 --> 00:33:24,000 Speaker 3: gonna go to that popin block again? Because I need 631 00:33:24,000 --> 00:33:24,360 Speaker 3: a uber? 632 00:33:26,640 --> 00:33:30,840 Speaker 1: Yeah, we need to figure that out. It's a pop 633 00:33:30,840 --> 00:33:34,640 Speaker 1: and block, the pop and Halloween block? Are we going 634 00:33:34,680 --> 00:33:37,080 Speaker 1: to uber? What it was? So? Actually I know where 635 00:33:37,080 --> 00:33:42,960 Speaker 1: we could part. Actually, if you're just tuning in. You 636 00:33:42,960 --> 00:33:45,000 Speaker 1: should know me and Jamila, our Valley girls. We are 637 00:33:45,080 --> 00:33:48,600 Speaker 1: straight from the eight one eight. Don't hate. This is 638 00:33:48,680 --> 00:33:49,280 Speaker 1: how we talk. 639 00:33:49,520 --> 00:33:52,200 Speaker 3: We've gotten a lot of what do they call us, 640 00:33:52,440 --> 00:33:57,080 Speaker 3: something fry, white black girl, black girl, fry, black girl 641 00:33:57,200 --> 00:33:59,640 Speaker 3: voice fry or something. I don't know what the fuck 642 00:33:59,680 --> 00:34:02,160 Speaker 3: that means. I still don't really get it. But this 643 00:34:02,240 --> 00:34:05,920 Speaker 3: is just how we talk. It's our dialect, my accent, 644 00:34:05,960 --> 00:34:06,800 Speaker 3: it's my accent. 645 00:34:08,840 --> 00:34:11,080 Speaker 1: Do you have your Ma tistera dress already? I have 646 00:34:11,120 --> 00:34:12,759 Speaker 1: a dress. How many movies do you have? Do you 647 00:34:12,760 --> 00:34:16,000 Speaker 1: have another black? I only have one. I actually have one. No, 648 00:34:16,080 --> 00:34:19,760 Speaker 1: it's not dark enough. I need to get black. But Amazon, 649 00:34:20,360 --> 00:34:26,120 Speaker 1: it's like ten dollars. This is not an ad. I 650 00:34:26,120 --> 00:34:27,960 Speaker 1: don't even know if I don't think we support Amazon, 651 00:34:28,040 --> 00:34:35,240 Speaker 1: but clearly we do. Oh Luna started school today. Oh 652 00:34:36,200 --> 00:34:39,239 Speaker 1: oh she was awake. I know. Oh my god, that 653 00:34:39,680 --> 00:34:43,399 Speaker 1: video you posted, I literally was like crying. I saw. 654 00:34:43,520 --> 00:34:46,080 Speaker 1: I was crying for you because I know that feeling. 655 00:34:46,320 --> 00:34:48,759 Speaker 1: And then it's just like overwhelming. And also it took 656 00:34:48,760 --> 00:34:51,319 Speaker 1: so long and much to get there. I know. It 657 00:34:51,360 --> 00:34:53,759 Speaker 1: was like finally, it's like a relief. 658 00:34:54,200 --> 00:34:57,359 Speaker 3: So yeah, so I took a really long time putting 659 00:34:57,400 --> 00:35:02,840 Speaker 3: Luna in school, partially because I procrastinate, but because I 660 00:35:02,880 --> 00:35:04,880 Speaker 3: didn't want to get her vaccinated, and they just passed 661 00:35:04,880 --> 00:35:08,360 Speaker 3: along in LA where it's required like you can't be 662 00:35:08,400 --> 00:35:11,160 Speaker 3: medically exempt, and then what I wanted to go to 663 00:35:11,200 --> 00:35:13,440 Speaker 3: medically exempt. First there was like only a doctor in 664 00:35:13,440 --> 00:35:15,799 Speaker 3: San Francisco, and then there was one here, but he 665 00:35:15,880 --> 00:35:18,600 Speaker 3: was like X amount of dollars, and then the black 666 00:35:18,680 --> 00:35:21,600 Speaker 3: midwife showed up to the Black midwife referred me to 667 00:35:21,680 --> 00:35:27,960 Speaker 3: a doctor in OHI, and you know he is like 668 00:35:28,040 --> 00:35:31,440 Speaker 3: an MD but also an urbalist and so you know 669 00:35:31,480 --> 00:35:33,520 Speaker 3: we're gonna do it through him. But he was able 670 00:35:33,560 --> 00:35:37,520 Speaker 3: to give me a medical exemption until the apployment next 671 00:35:37,600 --> 00:35:41,920 Speaker 3: year because he's obviously booked. And then so I got 672 00:35:41,960 --> 00:35:43,560 Speaker 3: her in school, she get blood work, should go the 673 00:35:43,600 --> 00:35:46,880 Speaker 3: fucking dentist, she'd get all this shit, and finally it 674 00:35:47,000 --> 00:35:50,759 Speaker 3: happened and it's it's literally basically November, so she's miss 675 00:35:50,800 --> 00:35:51,399 Speaker 3: a shit tone. 676 00:35:51,440 --> 00:35:55,200 Speaker 1: We need to post the video on you need did 677 00:35:55,239 --> 00:35:57,520 Speaker 1: Everyone needs to watch this video. It's so sweet of 678 00:35:57,520 --> 00:36:02,120 Speaker 1: her in school and then Jamila crying because you're gonna cry, Well, 679 00:36:02,320 --> 00:36:05,360 Speaker 1: she's going to the school that I went to. She 680 00:36:06,320 --> 00:36:08,680 Speaker 1: has the same teacher that I had in kindergarten. Shut up, 681 00:36:08,760 --> 00:36:11,080 Speaker 1: she's still there. No, she does not have the same teacher. 682 00:36:11,120 --> 00:36:13,719 Speaker 1: She has my same teacher. What the that's why you 683 00:36:13,719 --> 00:36:19,239 Speaker 1: were crying? Wait too, fad, she was so much too. 684 00:36:19,800 --> 00:36:22,840 Speaker 1: She has the same fucking what's her name? Miss Specter? 685 00:36:23,480 --> 00:36:26,239 Speaker 1: The fuck? Miss Specter's still there? Inspector is still there? 686 00:36:26,280 --> 00:36:28,439 Speaker 1: Did she remember you? I don't think she remember me. 687 00:36:28,280 --> 00:36:29,719 Speaker 1: I mean literally, it was like. 688 00:36:29,640 --> 00:36:32,000 Speaker 3: I don't remember one of like five hundred kids right 689 00:36:32,360 --> 00:36:35,719 Speaker 3: fucking wait twenty twenty five years ago? 690 00:36:35,880 --> 00:36:39,520 Speaker 1: Oh my god. So yeah, it was a special and 691 00:36:40,560 --> 00:36:43,080 Speaker 1: it was just special because Miss Spector seems still like 692 00:36:43,200 --> 00:36:46,200 Speaker 1: she likes her job. She does. She still seems pretty vibrant. 693 00:36:47,040 --> 00:36:48,759 Speaker 1: I'm not gonna hold you. There's a lot of kids 694 00:36:48,760 --> 00:36:52,799 Speaker 1: in there. I feel like to count those kids. But yeah, 695 00:36:52,840 --> 00:36:54,040 Speaker 1: I was happy. It's a good school. 696 00:36:54,160 --> 00:36:57,120 Speaker 3: So it's just just so fucking much of a process, 697 00:36:58,040 --> 00:36:59,480 Speaker 3: and I'm just like, really thankful I don't have the 698 00:36:59,520 --> 00:37:01,680 Speaker 3: homeschool because I don't think I was like capable. 699 00:37:01,800 --> 00:37:06,680 Speaker 1: Honestly, who is capable? People? I don't know how know 700 00:37:06,880 --> 00:37:09,239 Speaker 1: you that's all you're doing. I can't even figure out 701 00:37:09,280 --> 00:37:13,480 Speaker 1: how to explain why C. You can make like, I 702 00:37:13,600 --> 00:37:17,600 Speaker 1: know how explain that? How? Who taught me? 703 00:37:17,760 --> 00:37:21,120 Speaker 3: I need to find you because this language is dumb 704 00:37:21,160 --> 00:37:21,799 Speaker 3: as fun. 705 00:37:22,239 --> 00:37:25,920 Speaker 1: Wait. Today I was learning the letter J and she 706 00:37:26,080 --> 00:37:29,000 Speaker 1: was like. I was like, name all things with. She's 707 00:37:29,040 --> 00:37:34,640 Speaker 1: like jelly, jump, rope, gel, and I was like, gel 708 00:37:34,680 --> 00:37:37,280 Speaker 1: doesn't start with. She's like why. I was like, fuck, 709 00:37:38,000 --> 00:37:41,640 Speaker 1: I don't don't, I don't have I don't know why. 710 00:37:41,760 --> 00:37:47,759 Speaker 1: I'm like just gel. At this point, I don't know. 711 00:37:47,800 --> 00:37:54,040 Speaker 1: I don't know it's called gel. I don't care gell 712 00:37:54,160 --> 00:37:56,279 Speaker 1: until someone explains to you why it's gel. Let me 713 00:37:56,360 --> 00:37:56,919 Speaker 1: tell you why. 714 00:37:57,040 --> 00:37:59,960 Speaker 3: Because whoever made up the English language made a mayor 715 00:38:00,640 --> 00:38:03,040 Speaker 3: and they were like, you know what, it's all gonna 716 00:38:03,040 --> 00:38:05,360 Speaker 3: be some function, nothing's gonna make sense. 717 00:38:05,760 --> 00:38:06,959 Speaker 1: So we'll make the language make. 718 00:38:06,920 --> 00:38:09,919 Speaker 3: No sense to just to set everybody all the way off. 719 00:38:10,000 --> 00:38:15,400 Speaker 3: No will ask any questions. But Ellen couldn't make there 720 00:38:15,480 --> 00:38:20,480 Speaker 3: be three theres. Make it be this trick where it's 721 00:38:20,520 --> 00:38:25,960 Speaker 3: like I free except after C, because that's super necessary 722 00:38:26,000 --> 00:38:27,960 Speaker 3: when you're tricking masses of people. 723 00:38:28,880 --> 00:38:32,000 Speaker 1: And everybody just went with it. And here we are 724 00:38:32,640 --> 00:38:35,040 Speaker 1: not even able to homeschool. We gotta drop them off 725 00:38:35,400 --> 00:38:39,560 Speaker 1: because who the fuck can explain that ship? And I 726 00:38:39,560 --> 00:38:44,240 Speaker 1: don't want you, so thank God for school ship. Wow, 727 00:38:45,920 --> 00:38:49,799 Speaker 1: that's so true though, that's so true that because we're 728 00:38:49,800 --> 00:38:53,160 Speaker 1: not we're in that place right now where like I'm like, wow, yeah, 729 00:38:53,480 --> 00:38:55,719 Speaker 1: why is there an Ellen couldn't? God damn it, why 730 00:38:55,840 --> 00:39:00,239 Speaker 1: is there an Ellen couldn't for what wouldn't why it'd 731 00:39:00,280 --> 00:39:04,799 Speaker 1: be nice? Wouldn't it be nice if the ship made 732 00:39:04,840 --> 00:39:11,080 Speaker 1: some sense? Oh my god? And I feel like also, 733 00:39:11,120 --> 00:39:13,520 Speaker 1: I'm like, oh my god, she's gonna know I'm not 734 00:39:13,560 --> 00:39:16,480 Speaker 1: that smart. One day. She's gonna come home and she's 735 00:39:16,480 --> 00:39:18,239 Speaker 1: gonna ask me some important shit I should know. And 736 00:39:18,280 --> 00:39:21,240 Speaker 1: I'm not gonna have the answers consistently. Go back to school, 737 00:39:21,320 --> 00:39:23,440 Speaker 1: I know. I was like, I need to read some 738 00:39:23,480 --> 00:39:26,400 Speaker 1: books more often. I need to read some mystory books, 739 00:39:26,440 --> 00:39:29,520 Speaker 1: like real one, actual history books. 740 00:39:29,680 --> 00:39:31,840 Speaker 3: History is gonna come and then I'll be like, no, 741 00:39:31,840 --> 00:39:33,320 Speaker 3: none of this ship is true. 742 00:39:33,920 --> 00:39:37,120 Speaker 1: This is all not true. Take the book back. Oh 743 00:39:37,160 --> 00:39:41,640 Speaker 1: my god, the whole nother problematic situation. Oh my gosh. Yeah, 744 00:39:41,800 --> 00:39:44,560 Speaker 1: I mean I guess that's their job is to make 745 00:39:44,640 --> 00:39:49,320 Speaker 1: us feel inadequate so then we do better that's literally 746 00:39:49,400 --> 00:39:52,399 Speaker 1: the job of a child to make you do better, 747 00:39:52,520 --> 00:39:54,520 Speaker 1: to make you feel inadequate, so that you do better, 748 00:39:54,600 --> 00:39:58,040 Speaker 1: you become a better person. That's that's essentially what it is. 749 00:39:58,600 --> 00:40:01,239 Speaker 1: Because I am a better person because her, because I 750 00:40:01,239 --> 00:40:03,960 Speaker 1: felt like I needed to be because I wasn't I 751 00:40:03,960 --> 00:40:09,239 Speaker 1: could be better, right, you know? I have like mom guild, 752 00:40:09,239 --> 00:40:11,880 Speaker 1: I'm gonna miss her. I feel like really like I 753 00:40:11,920 --> 00:40:13,839 Speaker 1: want to go, and I'm excited to go, but then 754 00:40:13,840 --> 00:40:17,080 Speaker 1: I also feel like this, like who'll release it? I know, 755 00:40:17,400 --> 00:40:19,880 Speaker 1: but I also I haven't seen her though, and I 756 00:40:19,960 --> 00:40:20,480 Speaker 1: just have this. 757 00:40:20,600 --> 00:40:23,680 Speaker 3: Like, Okay, what do you think eighteen times three hundred 758 00:40:23,680 --> 00:40:24,640 Speaker 3: and sixty five is? 759 00:40:24,920 --> 00:40:26,719 Speaker 1: I don't know, but I've got a lot. I know 760 00:40:26,800 --> 00:40:28,480 Speaker 1: you're not gone. It's a lot of I don't know. 761 00:40:28,520 --> 00:40:35,120 Speaker 1: I think. I just feel like I feel like I 762 00:40:35,120 --> 00:40:35,560 Speaker 1: don't know. 763 00:40:35,880 --> 00:40:38,319 Speaker 3: I think you're gone for chunks long time, like two 764 00:40:38,400 --> 00:40:40,919 Speaker 3: weeks at a time a lot, or like three weeks 765 00:40:40,960 --> 00:40:43,120 Speaker 3: at a time, and so it feels like a lot, 766 00:40:43,200 --> 00:40:47,000 Speaker 3: and then you're here, but like because it's like sometimes 767 00:40:47,200 --> 00:40:50,480 Speaker 3: long period more longer than you'd like, it feels like 768 00:40:50,719 --> 00:40:52,200 Speaker 3: more time because it's chunks. 769 00:40:52,800 --> 00:40:55,400 Speaker 1: I just want to miss out on these moments. I 770 00:40:55,440 --> 00:40:57,239 Speaker 1: think that's more so what it is because I know 771 00:40:57,280 --> 00:41:01,360 Speaker 1: they don't last forever, so like I want to experience 772 00:41:01,440 --> 00:41:05,880 Speaker 1: them also. To be honest, I have a terrible memory, 773 00:41:06,000 --> 00:41:10,440 Speaker 1: which literally scares me sometimes, like my memory that I 774 00:41:10,560 --> 00:41:13,200 Speaker 1: worry I won't remember these moments, and so that's why 775 00:41:13,280 --> 00:41:15,880 Speaker 1: it's so important for me to be so try to 776 00:41:15,880 --> 00:41:19,200 Speaker 1: be as present as I can. And that's scary for 777 00:41:19,239 --> 00:41:21,640 Speaker 1: me to admit, because like that's something I say. I 778 00:41:21,680 --> 00:41:25,040 Speaker 1: think about a lot. I'm like, wow, there's like chunks 779 00:41:25,040 --> 00:41:27,200 Speaker 1: of my life that I don't remember, and people will 780 00:41:27,200 --> 00:41:29,560 Speaker 1: be like, do you don't remember blah blah blah blah blah, 781 00:41:29,600 --> 00:41:32,040 Speaker 1: and this is something like no, or they seem like 782 00:41:32,120 --> 00:41:33,799 Speaker 1: a faint memory. And I think that's why I also 783 00:41:33,880 --> 00:41:36,160 Speaker 1: have deja vous a lot, because they're actually just memories 784 00:41:36,200 --> 00:41:41,160 Speaker 1: popping back back in my head. But I don't know. 785 00:41:41,880 --> 00:41:44,000 Speaker 1: I'm like, is it because I spoke? Because I spoke 786 00:41:44,080 --> 00:41:47,239 Speaker 1: too much a weed at a young age. It's true, 787 00:41:48,680 --> 00:41:52,799 Speaker 1: advocate at I is it true? Yeah? I was right, 788 00:41:53,760 --> 00:41:58,200 Speaker 1: calm down, Yeah, But I think that I think about 789 00:41:58,239 --> 00:42:00,359 Speaker 1: that too. I think about just I love I love 790 00:42:00,400 --> 00:42:01,799 Speaker 1: being with her, and then sometimes I'm like I can't 791 00:42:01,800 --> 00:42:04,680 Speaker 1: wait to get away from her, No, for sure, but 792 00:42:04,719 --> 00:42:07,080 Speaker 1: then I and then but then I'm like, oh my god, 793 00:42:07,200 --> 00:42:10,880 Speaker 1: but this is you're you're the coolest human ever, so 794 00:42:11,040 --> 00:42:16,160 Speaker 1: cool rights fucking coolest human ever. Like yeah, it's insane, 795 00:42:18,680 --> 00:42:19,360 Speaker 1: but yeah. 796 00:42:19,800 --> 00:42:23,520 Speaker 3: Damn isn't it even even cooler that our kids will 797 00:42:23,640 --> 00:42:25,120 Speaker 3: require us to be more present? 798 00:42:25,719 --> 00:42:26,479 Speaker 1: That's a big gift. 799 00:42:26,800 --> 00:42:28,880 Speaker 3: So so yeah, I know, sometimes you just look at 800 00:42:28,920 --> 00:42:30,520 Speaker 3: her face and I'm like, yeah, I don't like, I 801 00:42:30,520 --> 00:42:32,520 Speaker 3: don't like to take a lot of pictures all the time. 802 00:42:32,960 --> 00:42:34,480 Speaker 3: So I'm like, am I gonna miss out because I'm 803 00:42:34,480 --> 00:42:36,799 Speaker 3: not always taking pictures? And I'm like, just take it 804 00:42:36,800 --> 00:42:37,880 Speaker 3: in right now. 805 00:42:38,360 --> 00:42:39,120 Speaker 1: You know, like just. 806 00:42:40,640 --> 00:42:44,200 Speaker 3: Really yeah, because they're never gonna be this size and 807 00:42:44,280 --> 00:42:44,840 Speaker 3: this age. 808 00:42:44,880 --> 00:42:48,200 Speaker 1: Again, it's just like and it just keeps going, just 809 00:42:48,239 --> 00:42:54,720 Speaker 1: like life. Mm hmm. Then it's crazy old. Yeah there, 810 00:42:54,360 --> 00:42:59,560 Speaker 1: then you're dead. Then you're dead that you brought that 811 00:42:59,640 --> 00:43:03,000 Speaker 1: right back around it just like I talked about, do 812 00:43:03,080 --> 00:43:05,279 Speaker 1: you know that how long do you think I would 813 00:43:05,280 --> 00:43:08,279 Speaker 1: have had to have these altoids for them to have expired? 814 00:43:08,400 --> 00:43:11,880 Speaker 1: Ten years? Like I swear I just bought this. It's crazy. 815 00:43:13,400 --> 00:43:16,239 Speaker 1: This is a really awesome joint holder holder. I never 816 00:43:16,280 --> 00:43:17,719 Speaker 1: knew that, but you know what, I knew it wasn't 817 00:43:17,719 --> 00:43:19,200 Speaker 1: altoids in that box. You didn't say it was in 818 00:43:19,239 --> 00:43:19,520 Speaker 1: that box. 819 00:43:19,520 --> 00:43:22,000 Speaker 3: And I was like, she said she had weed and 820 00:43:22,040 --> 00:43:23,440 Speaker 3: I never seen altoys before. 821 00:43:23,600 --> 00:43:26,800 Speaker 1: Yeah, if you ever need like a cool weed box, 822 00:43:26,920 --> 00:43:31,080 Speaker 1: just get your altoids box. What's happening over there? What 823 00:43:31,560 --> 00:43:33,320 Speaker 1: is that is that you? That was you? Okay? I 824 00:43:33,320 --> 00:43:35,000 Speaker 1: thought that was some him At first. I was like, 825 00:43:35,120 --> 00:43:37,839 Speaker 1: what is that position that he's saying? No, I think 826 00:43:37,840 --> 00:43:42,160 Speaker 1: I've seen that one. You're old, You're all old. This 827 00:43:42,239 --> 00:43:57,360 Speaker 1: is the Oh that is the mold. That is the mold. Yeah. Oops, 828 00:43:57,600 --> 00:44:02,160 Speaker 1: Oh my gosh. It's not a secret that King Noir 829 00:44:02,320 --> 00:44:05,200 Speaker 1: sends him as his porns. I think he sends them 830 00:44:05,200 --> 00:44:08,279 Speaker 1: to multiple women. And I'm pretty sure we're not the 831 00:44:08,280 --> 00:44:10,600 Speaker 1: only women. Oh No, for sure, that King Noir the 832 00:44:10,719 --> 00:44:14,840 Speaker 1: porn star is sending his porns too true. 833 00:44:15,320 --> 00:44:18,000 Speaker 3: I wish it's over here reviewing them while we're recording. 834 00:44:19,040 --> 00:44:23,600 Speaker 1: I mean, damn, God, damn god. 835 00:44:23,640 --> 00:44:28,040 Speaker 3: It looks like God was like God literally said, here 836 00:44:28,120 --> 00:44:30,600 Speaker 3: you go, here's the perfect dick. 837 00:44:31,880 --> 00:44:38,319 Speaker 1: It's literally wow, it really is. It almost looks fake. 838 00:44:38,360 --> 00:44:43,600 Speaker 1: It looks like an attachment. Speaking of attachments, he has 839 00:44:43,640 --> 00:44:49,080 Speaker 1: one for sale. HM, sure does, and I'm saying I 840 00:44:49,080 --> 00:44:50,680 Speaker 1: think it's probably worth the purchase. 841 00:44:51,960 --> 00:44:56,440 Speaker 3: I mean, better than the Safari one that we recommended 842 00:44:56,560 --> 00:44:57,360 Speaker 3: last year. 843 00:44:57,640 --> 00:45:00,840 Speaker 1: This you need. I'm getting this attached. I'm about to 844 00:45:00,840 --> 00:45:03,880 Speaker 1: fuck King Noir. I'm about to fuck him with his attachment. 845 00:45:03,920 --> 00:45:05,960 Speaker 1: Were you gonna put the little does he know we've 846 00:45:06,000 --> 00:45:08,759 Speaker 1: already fucked? Where are you going? Suction it? I can 847 00:45:08,800 --> 00:45:12,239 Speaker 1: suction it to the bathroom and in the bathtub. 848 00:45:11,920 --> 00:45:16,319 Speaker 3: Oh yeah, like the frog position. 849 00:45:16,960 --> 00:45:20,080 Speaker 1: Or just like against the wall, like the in the shower, 850 00:45:20,480 --> 00:45:25,160 Speaker 1: like in the docky style, like oh yeah, in order 851 00:45:25,200 --> 00:45:27,960 Speaker 1: to see all these moves happening right now that Jamila 852 00:45:28,040 --> 00:45:31,399 Speaker 1: is doing okay, like these are top not I feel 853 00:45:31,400 --> 00:45:34,480 Speaker 1: like you'd have to like reachest it so many, so 854 00:45:34,520 --> 00:45:37,520 Speaker 1: many times, just because there's nothing like the real thing 855 00:45:37,760 --> 00:45:40,000 Speaker 1: with motion. But you can make it work. I mean 856 00:45:40,200 --> 00:45:43,000 Speaker 1: with this situation here, which I will make that work. 857 00:45:43,560 --> 00:45:47,800 Speaker 1: It's nice. It's more than nice. We posted about that today. 858 00:45:47,880 --> 00:45:50,239 Speaker 1: Oh yeah, go follow a King Noir and you can 859 00:45:50,719 --> 00:45:53,800 Speaker 1: at the end and make sure if you want to see, 860 00:45:54,239 --> 00:45:57,080 Speaker 1: if you literally want to see the world's perfect most 861 00:45:57,080 --> 00:45:58,719 Speaker 1: perfect penis pretty much. 862 00:45:58,880 --> 00:46:01,959 Speaker 3: Then he has an account only fans and fans only 863 00:46:02,000 --> 00:46:03,960 Speaker 3: only fans I don't. 864 00:46:03,800 --> 00:46:06,919 Speaker 1: Know, and fetish royal fetish films. I wish we could 865 00:46:06,920 --> 00:46:12,480 Speaker 1: do a swipe up on the podcast, like swipe to buy. Actually, 866 00:46:12,680 --> 00:46:16,520 Speaker 1: we're going to include the link to his sex piece 867 00:46:16,880 --> 00:46:21,799 Speaker 1: in our description of this episode, because it's very you 868 00:46:21,840 --> 00:46:25,560 Speaker 1: will not be disappointed. Like, actually, pause the episode right 869 00:46:25,600 --> 00:46:36,600 Speaker 1: now because goddamn, goddamn. Okay, that was distracting. I have 870 00:46:36,640 --> 00:46:37,040 Speaker 1: to pack. 871 00:46:37,680 --> 00:46:40,640 Speaker 3: Okay, Oh, we have an advice question. 872 00:46:43,840 --> 00:46:46,959 Speaker 1: This advice question pissed me. Oh no, this is okay, 873 00:46:47,000 --> 00:46:49,040 Speaker 1: we have one in our DM this one email. Let's 874 00:46:49,120 --> 00:46:54,280 Speaker 1: do this one first. Okay, this advice question pissed me off. 875 00:46:56,640 --> 00:47:06,720 Speaker 1: Mm hmmm. In a while, Basic Betty again, Hi ladies. 876 00:47:06,760 --> 00:47:08,560 Speaker 1: It's been a while since I first wrote to you 877 00:47:08,600 --> 00:47:10,759 Speaker 1: guys about my basic ass sex life, so I thought 878 00:47:10,760 --> 00:47:13,279 Speaker 1: i'd set an update since the last time I wrote 879 00:47:13,320 --> 00:47:15,960 Speaker 1: in My job moved me to tod we go to 880 00:47:16,000 --> 00:47:19,000 Speaker 1: can't read my job moved me to DC, and I 881 00:47:19,040 --> 00:47:22,759 Speaker 1: decided to use that opportunity to explore my sexuality with 882 00:47:22,880 --> 00:47:25,399 Speaker 1: hopes of becoming a little more fatianic. For a bit, 883 00:47:26,160 --> 00:47:28,520 Speaker 1: I met a guy, literally the guy of my dreams, 884 00:47:28,600 --> 00:47:31,520 Speaker 1: or so I thought, and we started dating and eventually 885 00:47:31,560 --> 00:47:34,680 Speaker 1: had sex. It was literally the best sex of my life, 886 00:47:34,680 --> 00:47:37,279 Speaker 1: and I finally had orgasms. Life was on the up 887 00:47:37,280 --> 00:47:39,880 Speaker 1: and up. I was getting great consistent Dick, got promoted 888 00:47:39,920 --> 00:47:43,680 Speaker 1: at work, and I was in a healthy relationship. Things 889 00:47:43,800 --> 00:47:46,359 Speaker 1: changed when my guy decided it was time for us 890 00:47:46,400 --> 00:47:49,480 Speaker 1: to look at wedding rings. He is thirty six, a 891 00:47:49,560 --> 00:47:52,080 Speaker 1: doctor and was ready for commitment with me, or so 892 00:47:52,200 --> 00:47:55,759 Speaker 1: he said. We talked about it and it seemed like 893 00:47:55,800 --> 00:47:57,880 Speaker 1: we were on the same page until one day he 894 00:47:57,920 --> 00:48:00,560 Speaker 1: stopped talking to me for two days and then posted 895 00:48:00,600 --> 00:48:04,160 Speaker 1: a photo of him and another woman. She turned out 896 00:48:04,200 --> 00:48:07,800 Speaker 1: to be his wife. I later found out through digging 897 00:48:07,840 --> 00:48:10,240 Speaker 1: that he lied to me about being single and apparently 898 00:48:10,280 --> 00:48:13,239 Speaker 1: was married the entire time. We dated for about a year, 899 00:48:13,280 --> 00:48:16,720 Speaker 1: and he just celebrated his two year anniversary. He archived 900 00:48:16,760 --> 00:48:18,960 Speaker 1: old photos of them on ig and had not one 901 00:48:19,000 --> 00:48:22,200 Speaker 1: single tweet about a wife, wedding, or fiance. I visited 902 00:48:22,200 --> 00:48:24,600 Speaker 1: his home several times, even pop ups, and there was 903 00:48:24,680 --> 00:48:27,160 Speaker 1: no trace of a woman that lived there. I later 904 00:48:27,239 --> 00:48:29,640 Speaker 1: found out they lived in separate states up until a 905 00:48:29,680 --> 00:48:32,080 Speaker 1: few months ago, around the same time. He ghosted me, 906 00:48:32,320 --> 00:48:35,879 Speaker 1: and I've been so upset. When he finally reached out, 907 00:48:36,360 --> 00:48:38,520 Speaker 1: it was to tell me to watch how I communicate 908 00:48:38,560 --> 00:48:41,439 Speaker 1: with him because his life is different. Mind Joy never 909 00:48:41,480 --> 00:48:44,120 Speaker 1: contacted him after finding out about his wife. I'm not 910 00:48:44,160 --> 00:48:47,120 Speaker 1: the type. I'm not the type to knowingly disprespect another 911 00:48:47,160 --> 00:48:49,399 Speaker 1: woman like that. When I asked him why he would 912 00:48:49,440 --> 00:48:52,040 Speaker 1: play me, play with my emotions, he told me he 913 00:48:52,080 --> 00:48:54,520 Speaker 1: was in love with me, but I didn't match his 914 00:48:55,160 --> 00:48:57,520 Speaker 1: I didn't match the aesthetic he wanted to build for 915 00:48:57,560 --> 00:48:59,839 Speaker 1: his life. He said he would never date me pub 916 00:49:00,360 --> 00:49:02,800 Speaker 1: because of my weight, and that he met his wife 917 00:49:02,840 --> 00:49:05,160 Speaker 1: back in med school and they look better together than 918 00:49:05,160 --> 00:49:08,160 Speaker 1: we would. I blocked him, and I've tried my best 919 00:49:08,200 --> 00:49:14,279 Speaker 1: to move on. Girl. Okay, there's a little more. There's more. Yes, 920 00:49:15,560 --> 00:49:18,000 Speaker 1: last month, I had a miscarriage. I didn't know I 921 00:49:18,080 --> 00:49:21,680 Speaker 1: was expecting, and I had one hundred percent and I 922 00:49:21,719 --> 00:49:24,320 Speaker 1: had and I one hundred percent had an emotional meltdown. 923 00:49:24,920 --> 00:49:28,120 Speaker 1: I've been taking this breakup hard. My question for you, ladies, 924 00:49:28,200 --> 00:49:30,239 Speaker 1: how do you get to the other side of heartbreak? 925 00:49:32,760 --> 00:49:34,920 Speaker 1: I've been suffering silence because, as I stated in my 926 00:49:35,120 --> 00:49:37,440 Speaker 1: in my first letter, my friends and family are super 927 00:49:37,480 --> 00:49:40,360 Speaker 1: prude and religious. Even though I didn't know he was married, 928 00:49:40,360 --> 00:49:42,040 Speaker 1: I would I would never hear the end of it. 929 00:49:42,080 --> 00:49:43,799 Speaker 1: And for the sake of my mental health, I've kept 930 00:49:43,800 --> 00:49:45,680 Speaker 1: this to myself. I just want to get my post 931 00:49:46,000 --> 00:49:49,400 Speaker 1: breakup glow up. I know it takes time. Any advice 932 00:49:49,440 --> 00:49:57,239 Speaker 1: you ladies have would be great. First of all, fuck him. 933 00:49:57,400 --> 00:50:02,480 Speaker 3: He's a fucking dickhead fuck and possibly a sociopath. 934 00:50:02,239 --> 00:50:07,160 Speaker 1: One hundred percent one. That's like deeper than fuck boy. 935 00:50:07,760 --> 00:50:14,400 Speaker 3: You are absolutely crazy, right, Like that's sociopath, Like that's 936 00:50:14,840 --> 00:50:18,960 Speaker 3: that's beyond just fuck boy. I think that you are 937 00:50:19,040 --> 00:50:20,759 Speaker 3: right for not sharing with people that you think are 938 00:50:20,760 --> 00:50:22,799 Speaker 3: gonna judge you, even though it's absolutely not your fault 939 00:50:22,800 --> 00:50:23,920 Speaker 3: because you didn't even fucking. 940 00:50:23,719 --> 00:50:24,600 Speaker 1: Know, not your fault. 941 00:50:25,239 --> 00:50:33,759 Speaker 3: But anybody who is married and takes someone to go 942 00:50:33,840 --> 00:50:35,360 Speaker 3: look at rings. 943 00:50:35,880 --> 00:50:40,480 Speaker 1: Is absolutely a sociopath. Like what the fuck is that? 944 00:50:40,680 --> 00:50:43,080 Speaker 3: Like id channel, You should be actually lucky that you 945 00:50:43,080 --> 00:50:44,520 Speaker 3: got away because he's gonna. 946 00:50:44,280 --> 00:50:47,840 Speaker 1: Be That's what I said. I you, he did you 947 00:50:47,880 --> 00:50:51,040 Speaker 1: a favor. He absolutely did you a favor because guess what, 948 00:50:51,440 --> 00:50:53,799 Speaker 1: this is not the last time, and it's probably not 949 00:50:53,880 --> 00:50:57,840 Speaker 1: the first time. That's that's I feel really bad for 950 00:50:57,880 --> 00:51:01,480 Speaker 1: that woman actually, and you really dodged a bullet, And 951 00:51:01,560 --> 00:51:03,480 Speaker 1: I think what you need to do, we really is 952 00:51:03,520 --> 00:51:06,520 Speaker 1: probably first of all, you probably need to take some time, 953 00:51:06,600 --> 00:51:09,400 Speaker 1: especially with the miscarriage, Like yeah, and I forgot I 954 00:51:09,400 --> 00:51:11,960 Speaker 1: almost forgot about this. It's like wow, Like that's a 955 00:51:12,000 --> 00:51:14,840 Speaker 1: lot that's heavy to take time to heal. But also 956 00:51:15,040 --> 00:51:19,120 Speaker 1: know that like it's not your fault. And also like 957 00:51:19,760 --> 00:51:22,160 Speaker 1: don't look at his social media. I feel like you 958 00:51:22,280 --> 00:51:26,600 Speaker 1: have to really disconnect from this completely because a sociopath, 959 00:51:27,480 --> 00:51:30,279 Speaker 1: he might come back around, you know, you just never 960 00:51:30,600 --> 00:51:34,879 Speaker 1: He's that manipulative and sounds conquer because. 961 00:51:35,040 --> 00:51:37,440 Speaker 3: Even to day, we don't look esthetically good to get 962 00:51:37,400 --> 00:51:40,400 Speaker 3: back to there, we looked a steadically going together when 963 00:51:40,480 --> 00:51:47,520 Speaker 3: your dick was in my pussy right raw, raw, Look 964 00:51:47,640 --> 00:51:51,360 Speaker 3: it was aesthetically please there and you're eating my pussy. 965 00:51:51,480 --> 00:51:55,319 Speaker 3: I just that makes me really upset and angry for you. 966 00:51:55,400 --> 00:51:56,799 Speaker 3: And I understand like. 967 00:51:58,560 --> 00:52:01,440 Speaker 1: Having a baby by somebody is so much. 968 00:52:01,280 --> 00:52:04,360 Speaker 3: Deeper, especially when you had expectations for it to blossom 969 00:52:04,400 --> 00:52:06,560 Speaker 3: to something more. I mean, I can only imagine if 970 00:52:06,560 --> 00:52:08,160 Speaker 3: I met a doctor and we had all some sex 971 00:52:08,239 --> 00:52:10,080 Speaker 3: and he was amazing and we're going to look at rings. 972 00:52:10,120 --> 00:52:15,080 Speaker 3: Oh bitch, we're getting married. We're getting married. I found 973 00:52:15,080 --> 00:52:16,879 Speaker 3: the man of my dream. I would have told all 974 00:52:17,120 --> 00:52:19,960 Speaker 3: fifty seven of my friends that I don't have all 975 00:52:19,960 --> 00:52:20,960 Speaker 3: my family members. 976 00:52:21,040 --> 00:52:22,200 Speaker 1: And if this would have happened to. 977 00:52:22,200 --> 00:52:25,560 Speaker 3: Me, I can I can't even understand. I can't even 978 00:52:25,640 --> 00:52:27,799 Speaker 3: put myself in your shoes all the way, but I 979 00:52:27,800 --> 00:52:32,239 Speaker 3: can only imagine that I would be pissed. And just so, 980 00:52:32,360 --> 00:52:34,480 Speaker 3: it's deceiving and it's fucked up, but you also have 981 00:52:34,520 --> 00:52:39,560 Speaker 3: to recognize that people thrive and manipulate on that way 982 00:52:39,640 --> 00:52:43,920 Speaker 3: because it's satisfying and it's crazy, but people are Most 983 00:52:44,000 --> 00:52:47,080 Speaker 3: people are crazy. There are not going to be that 984 00:52:47,200 --> 00:52:52,520 Speaker 3: many rational, cool down doors, normal sane people. It's just 985 00:52:52,560 --> 00:52:54,879 Speaker 3: doesn't that, it's just not how the humans are set up. 986 00:52:55,480 --> 00:52:59,320 Speaker 3: It's only ass on the podcast. I don't know, only 987 00:52:59,440 --> 00:53:03,640 Speaker 3: us that are ain't out here. Seriously, Like, if you're listening, 988 00:53:03,840 --> 00:53:06,560 Speaker 3: we're meeting. If she hits the fan, all the rational 989 00:53:06,560 --> 00:53:07,279 Speaker 3: people are meaning it. 990 00:53:07,440 --> 00:53:13,600 Speaker 1: I'm staging the microphone for you currently too, because I 991 00:53:13,640 --> 00:53:17,080 Speaker 1: think you know you have to focus on Okay, that 992 00:53:17,200 --> 00:53:19,799 Speaker 1: was really fucked up, but you went you moved to 993 00:53:19,880 --> 00:53:22,799 Speaker 1: DC a New City, You got a promotion. There's you 994 00:53:22,840 --> 00:53:26,000 Speaker 1: went there to live your best Thatiana Thatiana life, and 995 00:53:26,040 --> 00:53:27,880 Speaker 1: that's what you said and that's what you're gonna fucking do. 996 00:53:28,920 --> 00:53:31,239 Speaker 1: This was just a minor bump in the road and 997 00:53:31,400 --> 00:53:33,919 Speaker 1: maybe a learning experience. Maybe you really needed to check 998 00:53:33,960 --> 00:53:36,200 Speaker 1: your boundaries. Maybe you need to check in with what 999 00:53:36,239 --> 00:53:41,839 Speaker 1: your boundaries are. And because they're how long did they date? 1000 00:53:42,000 --> 00:53:48,319 Speaker 1: A year? Yeah? Like there you just have to check 1001 00:53:48,320 --> 00:53:53,839 Speaker 1: your boundaries, listen to your intuition, because was there no 1002 00:53:53,960 --> 00:53:57,399 Speaker 1: time at all throughout that time that maybe something didn't 1003 00:53:57,440 --> 00:54:01,919 Speaker 1: add up? You know, we as women we make shit work, right, 1004 00:54:02,000 --> 00:54:05,400 Speaker 1: We'll be like whoa, you know that we see the 1005 00:54:05,440 --> 00:54:07,600 Speaker 1: red flags and that we ignore them. And I'm not 1006 00:54:07,800 --> 00:54:10,120 Speaker 1: I'm not saying that's what happened, but I know it 1007 00:54:10,160 --> 00:54:12,000 Speaker 1: because obviously he deceived. He was deceiving. 1008 00:54:12,280 --> 00:54:14,520 Speaker 3: Yeah, and he came to his house, which is yeah, 1009 00:54:14,520 --> 00:54:15,480 Speaker 3: and I would never think I would. 1010 00:54:15,480 --> 00:54:16,799 Speaker 1: I wouldn't think anything of it either. 1011 00:54:17,320 --> 00:54:20,640 Speaker 3: Yeah, the nerve of him things to have changed, Oh 1012 00:54:20,680 --> 00:54:22,440 Speaker 3: you don't think my esthetic? 1013 00:54:22,600 --> 00:54:25,200 Speaker 1: I mean? And also to take a dig at your 1014 00:54:25,880 --> 00:54:30,120 Speaker 1: when his body and like your confidence and to make 1015 00:54:30,239 --> 00:54:35,080 Speaker 1: you feel like you've done something wrong. Is so hurtful 1016 00:54:35,280 --> 00:54:38,440 Speaker 1: and ridiculous. That's what he basically is drying and make 1017 00:54:38,520 --> 00:54:41,080 Speaker 1: it seem like sorry, you don't match my esthetic. He 1018 00:54:41,200 --> 00:54:43,800 Speaker 1: likes to hurt people. Yeah, he's not a good person. 1019 00:54:44,880 --> 00:54:48,040 Speaker 1: So so you're good. Yeah you are good. That's not 1020 00:54:48,080 --> 00:54:50,560 Speaker 1: your dream man. But he will come and if you 1021 00:54:50,960 --> 00:54:52,799 Speaker 1: I hope you listen to her. Actually I know, I 1022 00:54:52,840 --> 00:54:56,000 Speaker 1: know you listened to our last episode, and like, I 1023 00:54:56,040 --> 00:54:59,160 Speaker 1: really want to encourage you to, you know, speak out 1024 00:54:59,239 --> 00:55:01,520 Speaker 1: what the things you what things you want, you know, 1025 00:55:01,600 --> 00:55:04,799 Speaker 1: when you're ready, because just you know, join us. We 1026 00:55:04,800 --> 00:55:07,640 Speaker 1: talked about a last episode about like manifesting our men. 1027 00:55:08,800 --> 00:55:13,320 Speaker 1: Is this our new thirty day challenge, our ninety day challenge? 1028 00:55:13,520 --> 00:55:15,480 Speaker 1: Manifest your man? What if it doesn't come up for 1029 00:55:15,520 --> 00:55:17,399 Speaker 1: ninety days, that's doubtful. I don't even want to think. 1030 00:55:19,960 --> 00:55:23,839 Speaker 1: I don't know whatever. But in the meantime, really think 1031 00:55:23,880 --> 00:55:27,359 Speaker 1: about the things that you and commit if you want 1032 00:55:27,400 --> 00:55:30,560 Speaker 1: to be thought, maybe this mom came in the road 1033 00:55:30,600 --> 00:55:32,239 Speaker 1: because it's manifest your Thoughtiana. 1034 00:55:32,520 --> 00:55:35,799 Speaker 3: You came to play, you came to date, you came 1035 00:55:35,840 --> 00:55:38,880 Speaker 3: to indulge in that dating and indulge mostly in yourself. 1036 00:55:38,920 --> 00:55:41,160 Speaker 3: I think that's what with fucking and dating sometimes do 1037 00:55:41,480 --> 00:55:43,680 Speaker 3: if you're doing it right, if you like come. 1038 00:55:43,560 --> 00:55:45,440 Speaker 1: To the terms where you're like in tune with yourself. 1039 00:55:45,440 --> 00:55:49,080 Speaker 3: You could be doing it to satisfy you. 1040 00:55:49,160 --> 00:55:52,759 Speaker 1: And if that's your purpose, then don't don't get caught up. 1041 00:55:53,000 --> 00:55:54,960 Speaker 1: Don't get caught up, especially your new city. 1042 00:55:55,160 --> 00:55:57,279 Speaker 3: Take your time if people, if people are gonna fuck 1043 00:55:57,280 --> 00:55:59,440 Speaker 3: with you, they'll be there, they will be there. But 1044 00:55:59,719 --> 00:56:02,239 Speaker 3: really commit And maybe that's who the lesson was the 1045 00:56:02,280 --> 00:56:07,160 Speaker 3: first shiny thing. Don't settle, maybe because shiny things be dull. 1046 00:56:07,320 --> 00:56:14,560 Speaker 1: When you scratched, you past the starkfest. I got appreach bitch, 1047 00:56:15,400 --> 00:56:16,000 Speaker 1: I don't know. 1048 00:56:18,120 --> 00:56:23,480 Speaker 3: The church say amen, yeah, and you gotta really let 1049 00:56:23,520 --> 00:56:25,000 Speaker 3: the time play its part. You know. 1050 00:56:25,480 --> 00:56:28,080 Speaker 1: Have you read this book? It's called My Men Love Bitches. 1051 00:56:28,480 --> 00:56:29,920 Speaker 1: You love that fucking book? I do. 1052 00:56:30,080 --> 00:56:31,799 Speaker 3: I think you need it. I think you should find it. 1053 00:56:31,800 --> 00:56:34,560 Speaker 3: It's on our website actually in our book club. But 1054 00:56:36,120 --> 00:56:38,680 Speaker 3: I think because and I don't, I don't know you personally. 1055 00:56:38,760 --> 00:56:41,080 Speaker 3: This is just my psychic ability in the stage all 1056 00:56:41,120 --> 00:56:45,000 Speaker 3: working together, plus the two stories you send it. I'm 1057 00:56:45,040 --> 00:56:48,000 Speaker 3: thinking that because of the background you came from and 1058 00:56:48,120 --> 00:56:49,719 Speaker 3: the family and. 1059 00:56:49,480 --> 00:56:52,400 Speaker 1: What you're what you're used to you. 1060 00:56:53,320 --> 00:56:54,960 Speaker 3: I mean not just that, just the fact that you 1061 00:56:54,960 --> 00:56:57,000 Speaker 3: have a vagina, and I think you have a vagina. 1062 00:56:57,080 --> 00:57:00,520 Speaker 1: I don't know she does. Yeah, I think, I guess. 1063 00:57:01,160 --> 00:57:05,960 Speaker 3: I think we gravitate to love, to comfort, to to 1064 00:57:06,520 --> 00:57:10,160 Speaker 3: like you know, taking care and nurturing what's comfortable to us. 1065 00:57:10,760 --> 00:57:11,760 Speaker 1: That's in our nature. 1066 00:57:13,239 --> 00:57:16,600 Speaker 3: I think I'm the most non feeling, feeling person. But 1067 00:57:17,240 --> 00:57:19,360 Speaker 3: one time a nigga bathed me, I don't even know 1068 00:57:19,400 --> 00:57:22,120 Speaker 3: he could read good honestly bathed me. 1069 00:57:22,280 --> 00:57:24,400 Speaker 1: To remember when that should happened to me too? And 1070 00:57:24,440 --> 00:57:27,160 Speaker 1: I was like, that was like he had told me 1071 00:57:27,200 --> 00:57:29,000 Speaker 1: about the CD he got in high school. Bitch. 1072 00:57:29,080 --> 00:57:31,120 Speaker 3: I drove to a mobia the next day and got 1073 00:57:31,120 --> 00:57:34,880 Speaker 3: that CD. I'm not kidding. And he literally had probably 1074 00:57:34,920 --> 00:57:39,520 Speaker 3: like he couldn't texts well, So I was like, wow, 1075 00:57:39,560 --> 00:57:42,480 Speaker 3: I'd be blinded. That's when I knew it should be 1076 00:57:42,520 --> 00:57:47,080 Speaker 3: fucked up in our heads. All I'm saying is with 1077 00:57:47,120 --> 00:57:50,880 Speaker 3: all that, take take this time to decompress what you've 1078 00:57:50,920 --> 00:57:56,480 Speaker 3: been taught, what you've learned about sexuality, about dating, about expectations. 1079 00:57:55,840 --> 00:57:59,760 Speaker 1: Especially coming from your background of you know, judge, maybe 1080 00:57:59,800 --> 00:58:05,520 Speaker 1: over really no religious people maybe seek experiences, and that 1081 00:58:05,720 --> 00:58:08,760 Speaker 1: is you have think something to choose from. You get 1082 00:58:08,760 --> 00:58:13,040 Speaker 1: yourself options, give yourself the rain, the permission to have options. 1083 00:58:13,360 --> 00:58:16,880 Speaker 1: It's okay you don't. It's healthy to have options. 1084 00:58:16,960 --> 00:58:22,040 Speaker 3: It's important to fuck a few dicks safely. 1085 00:58:23,320 --> 00:58:26,320 Speaker 1: Just to know what's out there, right, I agree. I 1086 00:58:26,440 --> 00:58:28,160 Speaker 1: had one hundred percent agree with that. 1087 00:58:28,640 --> 00:58:29,840 Speaker 3: And don't do it to the point where you're like 1088 00:58:29,880 --> 00:58:31,920 Speaker 3: trip it the next day. If you can do it 1089 00:58:31,960 --> 00:58:33,320 Speaker 3: with being cool with it. 1090 00:58:33,280 --> 00:58:34,479 Speaker 1: Do what feels good to you. 1091 00:58:34,480 --> 00:58:37,800 Speaker 3: You know your limits, right, but just don't clan like, 1092 00:58:38,200 --> 00:58:40,680 Speaker 3: don't attach to the first thing that looks good because 1093 00:58:40,840 --> 00:58:41,880 Speaker 3: it's rarely. 1094 00:58:42,160 --> 00:58:43,960 Speaker 1: It's rarely the first one is no. 1095 00:58:44,120 --> 00:58:46,360 Speaker 3: Honestly, don't even take a nigga seriously until it's been 1096 00:58:46,400 --> 00:58:47,160 Speaker 3: twelve months. 1097 00:58:47,600 --> 00:58:51,120 Speaker 1: Honestly, honestly, twelve months. Let's stay for twelve month. Even 1098 00:58:51,200 --> 00:58:54,520 Speaker 1: my shit with Happy Bay, like, it took nine months 1099 00:58:54,680 --> 00:58:56,520 Speaker 1: for me to be like, you know, this is not 1100 00:58:56,640 --> 00:58:59,800 Speaker 1: for me, like it's and it all seemed great in 1101 00:58:59,840 --> 00:59:01,960 Speaker 1: the getting and it's and he's a great person. It's 1102 00:59:02,000 --> 00:59:04,480 Speaker 1: just like we weren't on the same page really, like 1103 00:59:04,520 --> 00:59:07,440 Speaker 1: I think we were just on different journeys in our 1104 00:59:07,560 --> 00:59:13,160 Speaker 1: like singleness, and it just took nine months though, But 1105 00:59:13,280 --> 00:59:17,240 Speaker 1: that relationship I learned so much, Like that's so true, 1106 00:59:17,360 --> 00:59:19,800 Speaker 1: and being single, I've really learned that because I've always 1107 00:59:19,840 --> 00:59:22,840 Speaker 1: jumped back into relationships and like giving in like things 1108 00:59:22,960 --> 00:59:25,600 Speaker 1: not working out. How I even thought, I'm so grateful 1109 00:59:25,640 --> 00:59:28,040 Speaker 1: for so many of those times that they haven't because 1110 00:59:28,120 --> 00:59:32,200 Speaker 1: like I feel like it takes time, Like for me, 1111 00:59:32,280 --> 00:59:35,160 Speaker 1: even in my in my most in my longest relationships, 1112 00:59:35,200 --> 00:59:38,720 Speaker 1: I never it didn't start to get weird until like 1113 00:59:38,760 --> 00:59:41,480 Speaker 1: around a year and a half, two years, Oh yeah, because. 1114 00:59:41,200 --> 00:59:44,120 Speaker 3: I mean I know my baby daddy for fifteen years 1115 00:59:44,240 --> 00:59:45,000 Speaker 3: and it's weird. 1116 00:59:45,040 --> 00:59:47,600 Speaker 1: It got really weird. But but then and I feel 1117 00:59:47,600 --> 00:59:50,280 Speaker 1: like you choose either to push through or you break 1118 00:59:50,320 --> 00:59:54,360 Speaker 1: it up. Right, Yeah, I pushed through her push through 1119 00:59:54,640 --> 00:59:56,840 Speaker 1: me too, which is not always good. 1120 00:59:58,440 --> 01:00:01,240 Speaker 3: But to answer your question, I think getting through this 1121 01:00:02,240 --> 01:00:05,440 Speaker 3: is recognizing that this is your lesson. There is no 1122 01:00:05,560 --> 01:00:11,880 Speaker 3: relationship friends, boyfriend, baby daddy that isn't set there for 1123 01:00:11,960 --> 01:00:14,040 Speaker 3: you to come out on the other side like, oh, okay, 1124 01:00:15,320 --> 01:00:16,240 Speaker 3: I learned this from that. 1125 01:00:16,600 --> 01:00:18,680 Speaker 1: I'm stronger because of that. That hurt my feelings. 1126 01:00:19,200 --> 01:00:22,400 Speaker 3: But now in the next situation, maybe your skin's a 1127 01:00:22,440 --> 01:00:25,840 Speaker 3: little tougher, maybe there's always a lesson to draw from 1128 01:00:25,840 --> 01:00:29,440 Speaker 3: any experience, and I think it's really important to pay 1129 01:00:29,480 --> 01:00:32,560 Speaker 3: attention with that lesson. Maybe in order to get to 1130 01:00:32,640 --> 01:00:33,640 Speaker 3: the next level. 1131 01:00:36,280 --> 01:00:38,760 Speaker 1: I think just really focus on loving yourself to the most, 1132 01:00:38,800 --> 01:00:40,800 Speaker 1: because once you do that, you just respect yourself in 1133 01:00:40,840 --> 01:00:44,280 Speaker 1: a different way, and like you respect your boundaries, your space, 1134 01:00:44,360 --> 01:00:49,040 Speaker 1: your time, just giving yourself permission to have options like 1135 01:00:49,120 --> 01:00:52,400 Speaker 1: all those things. You'll just have a clearer probably idea 1136 01:00:52,440 --> 01:00:54,600 Speaker 1: of what it is you want too. Now you're living 1137 01:00:54,600 --> 01:00:56,440 Speaker 1: in a new city, it's like you really have this 1138 01:00:56,520 --> 01:01:00,320 Speaker 1: opportunity to start over. It can be whatever you wanted 1139 01:01:00,400 --> 01:01:03,360 Speaker 1: to be, that kind of who you wanted. That's so cool, 1140 01:01:03,720 --> 01:01:12,360 Speaker 1: you know, so dive into that. I'd been excited about that. Yeah. 1141 01:01:12,480 --> 01:01:15,000 Speaker 1: So much weed, Yeah, so much weed, so much stage. 1142 01:01:15,240 --> 01:01:17,160 Speaker 1: I want to hit it again, hit it again, please. 1143 01:01:17,240 --> 01:01:19,160 Speaker 1: I talk about the lavender blunt and the last one. 1144 01:01:19,880 --> 01:01:21,880 Speaker 1: I think, yes you did, Okay, well you have you 1145 01:01:21,960 --> 01:01:24,560 Speaker 1: found lavender since no, but I know somebody has a 1146 01:01:24,560 --> 01:01:28,680 Speaker 1: goddamn lavender. But somewhere you just go get one. I 1147 01:01:28,720 --> 01:01:31,200 Speaker 1: don't just grow one yourself. I know, let's get some seats. 1148 01:01:31,280 --> 01:01:34,720 Speaker 1: Actually I should grow it right there. Yeah, yeah, are right, 1149 01:01:35,200 --> 01:01:37,200 Speaker 1: somebody else. I also need to grow weed out there. 1150 01:01:37,360 --> 01:01:41,560 Speaker 1: Oh yeah, my baby Daddy's dad. He grows weak. It's 1151 01:01:41,600 --> 01:01:43,800 Speaker 1: good too, Can I can you tell me where to 1152 01:01:43,840 --> 01:01:46,520 Speaker 1: grow here? Can you tell him? You take a picture. 1153 01:01:47,800 --> 01:01:49,440 Speaker 1: I don't know. I think that does. It needs to 1154 01:01:49,440 --> 01:01:51,200 Speaker 1: be in the shade or in the sun. I don't 1155 01:01:51,200 --> 01:01:53,560 Speaker 1: know anything about. We just smoke it. 1156 01:01:54,320 --> 01:01:58,720 Speaker 3: Okay, let me take care of it, all right. Oh 1157 01:01:58,720 --> 01:02:00,320 Speaker 3: what I was gonna say is this other will tell 1158 01:02:00,360 --> 01:02:03,040 Speaker 3: me roll blunts with rose petals? 1159 01:02:03,640 --> 01:02:05,720 Speaker 1: Like rose petals? Why would I want to do that? 1160 01:02:05,880 --> 01:02:10,680 Speaker 1: For what I know? But I don't know. Look, I 1161 01:02:10,720 --> 01:02:11,120 Speaker 1: gotta go. 1162 01:02:11,440 --> 01:02:16,360 Speaker 3: I love you, guys, Okay, close them out, whole bottle 1163 01:02:16,400 --> 01:02:16,760 Speaker 3: of line. 1164 01:02:16,840 --> 01:02:18,720 Speaker 1: All right, guys. You know where to find us at 1165 01:02:18,840 --> 01:02:22,960 Speaker 1: Good Mom's Underscore Bad Choices, Join our newsletter on our 1166 01:02:22,960 --> 01:02:28,080 Speaker 1: website Good Mom's Bad Choices dot com, and we will 1167 01:02:28,120 --> 01:02:45,040 Speaker 1: see you guys next week.