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Speaker 1: Hi, guys, Welcome to your favorite podcast, Cheeky's and Chill.

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Speaker 1: If you're interested in learning, growing and glowing, this is

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Speaker 1: the perfect podcast for you. And speaking of growing and glowing,

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Speaker 1: today we're going to talk about self confidence. I'm going

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Speaker 1: to talk about how my confidence has evolved over the years,

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Speaker 1: how it's helped me in different areas of my life,

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Speaker 1: and I'm going to give you tips on how you

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Speaker 1: can become more confident too. I wrote a bunch of notes,

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Speaker 1: so I'm going to be going back to them. I

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Speaker 1: wrote them this morning to prepare because it's something very important.

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Speaker 1: First of all, I felt that I wanted to talk

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Speaker 1: about this because I see a lot of people on

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Speaker 1: social media with confidence, but I wonder is it real confidence?

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Speaker 1: Because I was also on that side before, and I'll

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Speaker 1: explain that in a little bit. But also I want

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Speaker 1: you guys to know we are all born with this

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Speaker 1: crazy amount of confidence. Okay, we are born perfect in

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Speaker 1: the most perfect essence, even if you have any type

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Speaker 1: of disability. God made us the way He made us

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Speaker 1: in his perfect divine you know, realm. But what happens

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Speaker 1: as we start going to school, as we start going

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Speaker 1: on social media, people's opinions. It just starts making us

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Speaker 1: less and less confident, and it pushes us further and

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Speaker 1: further away from our essence, our true essence. It happened

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Speaker 1: to me. I think the first person that affected my

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Speaker 1: confidence was my mom and my dad actually, And in reality,

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Speaker 1: like when you start doing healing, deep healing, you start

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Speaker 1: realizing that a lot of this stuff starts in our childhood,

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Speaker 1: in our homes. And it's not that our parents are bad,

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Speaker 1: it's just that they didn't know any better. And now

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Speaker 1: we are being awakened and people are now starting to

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Speaker 1: realize certain things. But our parents and their parents didn't

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Speaker 1: have these tools, and I had to learn that. And

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Speaker 1: when I learned that, I was able to let go

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Speaker 1: and forgive my mom right again. She wasn't a bad mother.

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Speaker 1: She was just doing her best. She was fifteen when

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Speaker 1: she had me, and her father affected her a lot

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Speaker 1: with weight and appearance, and my grandfather also affected my grandmother.

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Speaker 1: So it was just like a ripple domino effect. And

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Speaker 1: so my mother and our household weight was huge, and

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Speaker 1: I was always told like I have to be on

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Speaker 1: a diet or I have to like work out, and

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Speaker 1: my mom was just she didn't want us to go

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Speaker 1: through what she went through, but she didn't know how

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Speaker 1: to vocalize it. She only knew how to be very

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Speaker 1: direct and straightforward, and sometimes it was hurtful, you know.

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Speaker 1: So I think that's where it started for me, that

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Speaker 1: I had to like be conscious about my weight. And

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Speaker 1: then as I got older and started dating, the boyfriends

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Speaker 1: would be like, oh, you look great, You're beautiful, and

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Speaker 1: then it just kind of like poured into my cup

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Speaker 1: of confidence and I was like, yeah, I am beautiful

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Speaker 1: no matter what size I am, even if my arms

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Speaker 1: are a little thicker than other girls and my thighs too.

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Speaker 1: Like my mom says, you know, it's okay, he likes it.

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Speaker 1: You know, I'm okay, you know. And I just started

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Speaker 1: kind of giving myself self therapy. And again, I started

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Speaker 1: therapy at twelve, so I think doing therapy for that

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Speaker 1: long also helped. But I get older, and yeah, of course,

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Speaker 1: down the road there's a guy that tells you, you

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Speaker 1: know what, you know, get your asked to running, you're

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Speaker 1: a little too chubby, whatever, and that hurts you. But

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Speaker 1: for me personally, I didn't really realize I was as

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Speaker 1: big as I was until I started singing. Until I

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Speaker 1: started coming out on television, and then it got worse

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Speaker 1: after my mom passed away, because I was depressed and

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Speaker 1: I was just eating my feelings and I gained weight

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Speaker 1: and I didn't even realize it, and I didn't even

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Speaker 1: think I was that big until everyone just started calling

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Speaker 1: me fat and miss piggy on social media. And then

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Speaker 1: I was like, oh, wait, I guess I am kind

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Speaker 1: of big. Television doesn't help, and that's when a lot

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Speaker 1: of stuff started happening. I was pretty confident, and I

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Speaker 1: would wear my wardrobe very confidently. It wasn't that I

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Speaker 1: was faking. It wasn't until after I would watch my

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Speaker 1: performance or I would read the comments that I was like, damn,

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Speaker 1: I guess I didn't look as good as I felt

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Speaker 1: as I would look in the mirror and I'm like, damn,

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Speaker 1: I look good. But then you let other people's opinions

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Speaker 1: And it happened like that back and forth for years, guys,

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Speaker 1: until I was I think thirty six. I was already

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Speaker 1: like a year in with Emilio, my now husband, and

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Speaker 1: he just made me feel like the most beautiful girl

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Speaker 1: in the world. But I was also on my healing

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Speaker 1: journey when I had first met him. I was looking

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Speaker 1: inward and that helped me a lot. I was meditating

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Speaker 1: and all that stuff. And then he came into my

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Speaker 1: life and just showered me with compliments. And it's funny

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Speaker 1: because we were just literally talking about it a few

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Speaker 1: days ago that he seriously didn't realize either that I

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Speaker 1: was bigger or that I was I don't know, whatever you.

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Speaker 1: He's like, no one told me, you know. And I

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Speaker 1: know I've mentioned that here on the podcast, but it's true.

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Speaker 1: It's for real, And I think that also helped me

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Speaker 1: a lot. But I was already on my healing journey.

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Speaker 1: And that's what I want to share with you guys,

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Speaker 1: the things that I've learned that have helped me be

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Speaker 1: more confident because now that I've lost weight. When I

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Speaker 1: had first lost weight, I did feel a little insecure

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Speaker 1: about other things. It wasn't about like the clothes was

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Speaker 1: fitting me better, but I had, like, you know, blue

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Speaker 1: skin on my arms. I didn't really know how to

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Speaker 1: dress myself because I always wanted to wear baggy clothes.

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Speaker 1: But then I was like, okay, I can't wear baggy clothes.

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Speaker 1: It was just an adjustment that I didn't know, and

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Speaker 1: then I don't know it was crazy now though, now

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Speaker 1: I feel a lot better. But it has to do

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Speaker 1: with the work that I've done within myself, my inner work.

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Speaker 1: And I think once you do your inner work mentally,

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Speaker 1: emotionally and spiritually, you radiate different. And a lot of

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Speaker 1: people think it's because of a medio, and yes, it

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Speaker 1: helps to have a good partner that loves you, flaws

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Speaker 1: and all, because I have scars and I have things.

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Speaker 1: I have salulite, I have things that used to bother me,

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Speaker 1: and I swear to you now I'll wear a bathing

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Speaker 1: I can give two f's. I'm like, I was telling

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Speaker 1: him the other day. I'm like, it feels so good

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Speaker 1: to finally not care. And you know why, because now

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Speaker 1: more than ever, I've always known who I was, even

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Speaker 1: who I am, and I'm okay with a lot of

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Speaker 1: Even in my relationship. Even if there's a beautiful, thin,

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Speaker 1: and he never is disrespectful and stares, but we both look.

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Speaker 1: I'm like, damn, she's beautiful, and he'll be yeah, she's okay,

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Speaker 1: He'll never like be disrespectful. But I don't feel jealous.

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Speaker 1: I don't feel worried. And it has to do with

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Speaker 1: the way he loves me, but it also has to

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Speaker 1: do with the way I love myself now. So that's

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Speaker 1: what we're gonna talk about. Okay, And this is where

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Speaker 1: my notes come in. And Brionna and Pablo, if you

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Speaker 1: guys have any questions, please feel free to put them

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Speaker 1: in the chat so that I can make sure I

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Speaker 1: answer them. Okay, those are my producers, guys. They're here

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Speaker 1: with us all the time. You just don't hear them

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Speaker 1: or see them. But okay, talking about spirituality, Okay. I

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Speaker 1: wrote a bunch of these things down this morning because

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Speaker 1: I was like, okay, wait, where did it happen? Where

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Speaker 1: did it start? And I started like thinking back and

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Speaker 1: other girls dressed and they have this and they have that,

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Speaker 1: and you feel that that's what confidence is like if

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Speaker 1: I wear something that's expensive or they have better shoes

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Speaker 1: Absolutely not. Confidence has nothing to do guys, with the

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Speaker 1: Absolutely not. And if it is, we have a problem.

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Speaker 1: If those are the things that move you, materialistic things,

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Speaker 1: in my opinion, and I know a few of those people,

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Speaker 1: and I won't say anyone's name, but I pray for

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Speaker 1: them because that's not where the value, the true value

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Speaker 1: comes from. It's not from things, because those things will disappear.

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Speaker 1: You can lose those things tomorrow. They can be taken

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Speaker 1: it's a very, very scary and it's not a place

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Speaker 1: you want to be anyway. Spiritual foundation, absolutely one hundred

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Speaker 1: percent very important. Okay, connect to something bigger than yourself, God,

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Speaker 1: the universe, higher self, asanho whatever er bigger than yourself

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Speaker 1: because there is Okay, when you start thinking that you're

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Speaker 1: And that is so important. It's life changing. Daily affirmations

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Speaker 1: are mantras speaking life into yourself. Okay, gratitude practice being grateful.

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Speaker 1: I just talked about that, being grateful for things that, yes,

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Speaker 1: power that is giving you that. People are like I

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Speaker 1: And that's why I wanted to start off with spiritual foundation,

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Speaker 1: because we need to be grateful.

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Speaker 1: There are a lot of people going through a lot

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Speaker 1: of difficult things all over the world, and it's so

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Speaker 1: sad to know that people are starving and being starved

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Speaker 1: and having to worry about if they're going to have

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Speaker 1: a home or not because it might get bombed. And

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Speaker 1: I'm not going to go into all of that right

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Speaker 1: I know there's two sides and it's just so messed

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Speaker 1: up either way. But we need to be grateful and remember, guys,

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Speaker 1: to be grateful every single day, even for the water

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Speaker 1: all that stuff. Being grateful brings confidence from depths of

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Speaker 1: your soul, not exterior fake confidence that we put up

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Speaker 1: make me feel even less beautiful. Friends, family, yeah, mm hmm. Bye,

430
00:23:32,160 --> 00:23:33,720
Speaker 1: I want you to tell me the truth that doesn't

431
00:23:33,720 --> 00:23:35,960
Speaker 1: mean lie to me. Okay, But if you have to

432
00:23:36,000 --> 00:23:38,679
Speaker 1: tell me something and you have to be honest with me,

433
00:23:38,920 --> 00:23:41,440
Speaker 1: it could be in a nice way. Call it sugarcoating,

434
00:23:42,000 --> 00:23:45,159
Speaker 1: call it whatever you want, but you can be honest

435
00:23:45,200 --> 00:23:49,080
Speaker 1: with someone and direct and firm in a loving way.

436
00:23:49,240 --> 00:23:54,960
Speaker 1: Distance yourself from toxic comparison. Take social media detoxes, okay,

437
00:23:55,000 --> 00:23:57,399
Speaker 1: when needed. I've done it, and it does help a

438
00:23:57,440 --> 00:24:00,520
Speaker 1: little bit if you feel that social it can be

439
00:24:00,520 --> 00:24:03,880
Speaker 1: a bit overwhelming and stuff like that. Like that will

440
00:24:03,920 --> 00:24:08,120
Speaker 1: help you just kind of detach yourself and just recharge

441
00:24:08,200 --> 00:24:13,800
Speaker 1: and reconnect with yourself, but definitely distance yourself from toxicity

442
00:24:13,880 --> 00:24:17,840
Speaker 1: and from toxic comparison. That is also something that my

443
00:24:17,960 --> 00:24:21,919
Speaker 1: mom would do, and it did affect my relationship with

444
00:24:21,920 --> 00:24:24,119
Speaker 1: my sister. For instance, there was like a lot of

445
00:24:24,119 --> 00:24:27,080
Speaker 1: comparison and that that's not good. You know. Obviously I

446
00:24:27,119 --> 00:24:29,159
Speaker 1: didn't distance myself from my sister because I know that

447
00:24:29,200 --> 00:24:32,000
Speaker 1: we're different and that's okay. But I'm sure my mom

448
00:24:32,119 --> 00:24:34,480
Speaker 1: would have corrected it by now. It's just, you know,

449
00:24:34,480 --> 00:24:36,119
Speaker 1: we were young and whatever. I'm not going to get

450
00:24:36,160 --> 00:24:40,760
Speaker 1: into that, okay. Build a tribe community that reflects your values, Okay.

451
00:24:41,320 --> 00:24:43,080
Speaker 1: I used to waste my time with a lot of bs,

452
00:24:43,080 --> 00:24:45,679
Speaker 1: with a lot of people that were I guess callum

453
00:24:45,800 --> 00:24:50,399
Speaker 1: cool or in the cool crowd. I have my friends

454
00:24:50,400 --> 00:24:52,919
Speaker 1: that I've had for years. If you are not pouring

455
00:24:52,960 --> 00:24:55,000
Speaker 1: into my cup and allowing me to pour into your

456
00:24:55,040 --> 00:24:58,960
Speaker 1: cup and it's like a reciprocated type of relationship, I

457
00:24:59,000 --> 00:25:00,840
Speaker 1: don't want it. I want to sit at a table

458
00:25:00,840 --> 00:25:03,359
Speaker 1: where we're thinking about ideas and happy things and not

459
00:25:03,480 --> 00:25:05,679
Speaker 1: just chees me on though and talking about other people

460
00:25:05,720 --> 00:25:06,320
Speaker 1: and stuff like that.

461
00:25:06,400 --> 00:25:09,000
Speaker 2: Like no, like I did it, don't want.

462
00:25:08,800 --> 00:25:10,919
Speaker 1: To do it. Of course you're gonna talk about with

463
00:25:10,960 --> 00:25:13,440
Speaker 1: this person, but then it's like, let's stop it, stop

464
00:25:13,480 --> 00:25:16,560
Speaker 1: it right here. I'm getting better at also telling people

465
00:25:16,600 --> 00:25:18,920
Speaker 1: at tables like if there's someone they're talking about that's

466
00:25:18,960 --> 00:25:22,040
Speaker 1: not present. I'm getting better with this. It's been very hard,

467
00:25:22,040 --> 00:25:23,679
Speaker 1: but I'm getting better with it where I'm like, you

468
00:25:23,680 --> 00:25:24,800
Speaker 1: know what, that person's not here right now.

469
00:25:24,800 --> 00:25:26,199
Speaker 2: I don't think it's cool for us to talk about them.

470
00:25:26,280 --> 00:25:27,080
Speaker 2: Let's talk about.

471
00:25:26,840 --> 00:25:31,399
Speaker 1: Something else, and you know, like changing the energy around,

472
00:25:31,440 --> 00:25:35,120
Speaker 1: like you want to surround yourself with people that want

473
00:25:35,160 --> 00:25:37,439
Speaker 1: the same things that you do. That also builds a

474
00:25:37,440 --> 00:25:40,520
Speaker 1: lot of confidence because you're surrounding yourself.

475
00:25:40,200 --> 00:25:42,600
Speaker 2: With that energy and it's important.

476
00:25:42,640 --> 00:25:45,760
Speaker 1: And then now I feel like I'm questioning certain relationships

477
00:25:45,800 --> 00:25:49,480
Speaker 1: in my life friendships as well, because I'm like, oh,

478
00:25:49,520 --> 00:25:51,720
Speaker 1: does that person kind of like is it? I don't

479
00:25:51,720 --> 00:25:54,359
Speaker 1: need them to be on my same frequency, but we

480
00:25:54,440 --> 00:25:56,760
Speaker 1: got to be at least in the same chapter, you

481
00:25:56,760 --> 00:25:58,040
Speaker 1: know what I mean, Like, you don't need to be

482
00:25:58,119 --> 00:26:00,520
Speaker 1: on the same page, but please be on the same

483
00:26:00,600 --> 00:26:03,600
Speaker 1: chapter with me, because if not, it's like I'm gonna

484
00:26:03,640 --> 00:26:06,240
Speaker 1: I don't want to divert. I don't want to detour.

485
00:26:08,000 --> 00:26:10,920
Speaker 1: Here's a big one, guys. This one's the one that

486
00:26:11,040 --> 00:26:13,040
Speaker 1: changed my life. And I need you to hear me

487
00:26:13,200 --> 00:26:17,919
Speaker 1: because when I realized what my purpose was and I

488
00:26:18,000 --> 00:26:22,240
Speaker 1: really leaned into that and I was in alignment with that,

489
00:26:22,240 --> 00:26:26,760
Speaker 1: that has changed my life. And I think this is

490
00:26:26,800 --> 00:26:30,760
Speaker 1: where the real confidence has come from and what you

491
00:26:30,800 --> 00:26:32,919
Speaker 1: guys see, because I've gotten a lot of messages from

492
00:26:32,960 --> 00:26:35,800
Speaker 1: people telling me that I look different, that I'm glowing,

493
00:26:35,840 --> 00:26:39,760
Speaker 1: that I feel like the old Janae. Or my sister

494
00:26:39,880 --> 00:26:41,159
Speaker 1: just told the other day I showed her my new

495
00:26:41,200 --> 00:26:44,359
Speaker 1: music Jenica, and She's like, oh my goodness, this is you.

496
00:26:45,440 --> 00:26:48,080
Speaker 1: What Like I remember when you were like driving your

497
00:26:48,119 --> 00:26:50,680
Speaker 1: little buggy and Corona and listening to this and that

498
00:26:50,720 --> 00:26:53,600
Speaker 1: type of music like this is that And I was like, yes,

499
00:26:54,400 --> 00:26:58,480
Speaker 1: I'm in alignment. I'm living my purpose. I came back

500
00:26:58,480 --> 00:27:01,600
Speaker 1: to myself and that's important, guys, when you know why

501
00:27:01,640 --> 00:27:04,600
Speaker 1: you're here, because we are all here for a reason,

502
00:27:05,880 --> 00:27:08,560
Speaker 1: big or small or whatever. We are all here for

503
00:27:08,680 --> 00:27:11,600
Speaker 1: a reason, and we're all here to change the world

504
00:27:11,640 --> 00:27:14,840
Speaker 1: and help the world in some way. And leaning into

505
00:27:14,880 --> 00:27:18,639
Speaker 1: it and getting into alignment with that will change your life.

506
00:27:19,000 --> 00:27:21,399
Speaker 1: And that just happened for me this year. I know.

507
00:27:21,520 --> 00:27:24,440
Speaker 1: It's crazy, Like I've been doing dear Cheeky's and cheekys

508
00:27:24,440 --> 00:27:27,520
Speaker 1: and chill and everything, and I've been inspiring you guys.

509
00:27:27,560 --> 00:27:31,639
Speaker 1: And it hasn't been from a fake place because everything

510
00:27:31,640 --> 00:27:34,320
Speaker 1: I do I mean and I'm always really honest with

511
00:27:34,320 --> 00:27:35,520
Speaker 1: you guys. And I'm like, this is a note for

512
00:27:35,560 --> 00:27:37,399
Speaker 1: myself as well, Like I need to remind myself of

513
00:27:37,440 --> 00:27:39,360
Speaker 1: this because this is work. This isn't the gist. You're

514
00:27:39,440 --> 00:27:42,600
Speaker 1: going to learn this and you're gonna like be healed

515
00:27:42,640 --> 00:27:46,880
Speaker 1: and forever, Like no, this is forever. This is a process.

516
00:27:46,720 --> 00:27:48,520
Speaker 2: And you have to learn. Like I said, earlier.

517
00:27:48,600 --> 00:27:51,320
Speaker 1: You have to learn to trust the process and celebrate

518
00:27:51,359 --> 00:27:53,840
Speaker 1: those small wins and know that sometimes you're going to

519
00:27:53,880 --> 00:27:56,400
Speaker 1: fall off track, like it happens to me, And that's

520
00:27:56,440 --> 00:27:58,440
Speaker 1: what happened to me. Like I was like, wait, wait, wait,

521
00:27:58,920 --> 00:28:00,840
Speaker 1: I didn't know that I even had a band over

522
00:28:00,880 --> 00:28:03,119
Speaker 1: my eyes until it was removed, and I was like,

523
00:28:03,200 --> 00:28:07,840
Speaker 1: oh my gosh, wait, no, wonder. Something didn't feel right

524
00:28:09,000 --> 00:28:12,240
Speaker 1: And it was my soul calling and saying, girl, wake up,

525
00:28:13,000 --> 00:28:15,639
Speaker 1: wake up. And I have a song called that the

526
00:28:15,680 --> 00:28:17,120
Speaker 1: Spiritra te Oh the Spiritra.

527
00:28:17,160 --> 00:28:17,560
Speaker 2: Oh my gosh.

528
00:28:17,560 --> 00:28:18,960
Speaker 1: I can't wait for you guys to hear it. Anyway,

529
00:28:19,400 --> 00:28:24,880
Speaker 1: Knowing why gives confidence. Okay, you're living with direction? Why

530
00:28:24,920 --> 00:28:27,720
Speaker 1: are you here? What do you want to leave in

531
00:28:27,760 --> 00:28:32,119
Speaker 1: this world? If you were to leave tomorrow? Are you

532
00:28:32,280 --> 00:28:36,520
Speaker 1: proud of what imprint you left in this world? And

533
00:28:36,560 --> 00:28:39,200
Speaker 1: how you help people? Did you show up as your best?

534
00:28:39,640 --> 00:28:42,320
Speaker 1: You got to ask yourself those questions and once you

535
00:28:42,360 --> 00:28:45,400
Speaker 1: know your why, it will help you find your way.

536
00:28:45,920 --> 00:28:48,240
Speaker 1: And I feel like in certain seasons of my life

537
00:28:48,440 --> 00:28:52,720
Speaker 1: it's happened I have found my way and my why

538
00:28:52,760 --> 00:28:55,720
Speaker 1: in that season, and then it's over and it's like again,

539
00:28:55,760 --> 00:28:59,280
Speaker 1: we're evolving and we're changing constantly. So that's not to

540
00:28:59,320 --> 00:29:02,680
Speaker 1: say that my confidence back then was fake or what

541
00:29:02,760 --> 00:29:04,680
Speaker 1: I was telling you guys is fake. No, it's just

542
00:29:05,080 --> 00:29:09,000
Speaker 1: I have a new found, deeper confidence and a more

543
00:29:09,040 --> 00:29:13,880
Speaker 1: of an alignment. And that's where I'm singing from. That's

544
00:29:14,000 --> 00:29:18,080
Speaker 1: how I'm dressing, that's how I'm expressing myself is because

545
00:29:18,120 --> 00:29:18,760
Speaker 1: it's different.

546
00:29:19,720 --> 00:29:21,400
Speaker 2: Yeah, oh my gosh, I just had an epiphany.

547
00:29:22,160 --> 00:29:29,360
Speaker 1: Setting achievable goals and follow through each win builds self trust. Okay,

548
00:29:29,440 --> 00:29:32,040
Speaker 1: so what does that mean? For instance, it's just use

549
00:29:32,080 --> 00:29:34,040
Speaker 1: weight because I think weight is a huge thing for

550
00:29:34,120 --> 00:29:36,920
Speaker 1: us and a lot of people feel not confident because

551
00:29:37,400 --> 00:29:39,760
Speaker 1: we're focusing so much on our weight in our exterior.

552
00:29:40,080 --> 00:29:43,440
Speaker 1: But if you set small goals, short term goals and say,

553
00:29:43,440 --> 00:29:45,960
Speaker 1: you know what, I'm going to lose five pounds from

554
00:29:46,000 --> 00:29:50,760
Speaker 1: here to in three months, realistic goals and achieving those

555
00:29:50,800 --> 00:29:53,480
Speaker 1: small goals, they will really help you with the bigger ones,

556
00:29:53,840 --> 00:29:56,160
Speaker 1: like once you feel like, oh, I accomplished, because you

557
00:29:56,240 --> 00:29:59,400
Speaker 1: have to set those small ones before you can move

558
00:29:59,400 --> 00:30:01,440
Speaker 1: on to the next step. If you set too much

559
00:30:01,440 --> 00:30:06,840
Speaker 1: of a big goal, it's very likely that you won't

560
00:30:06,880 --> 00:30:11,360
Speaker 1: achieve it because it's difficult, and setting those small ones

561
00:30:11,400 --> 00:30:14,760
Speaker 1: will definitely help you with the larger ones. Hopefully that

562
00:30:15,120 --> 00:30:19,280
Speaker 1: all made sense. But AnyWho align your actions with your

563
00:30:19,360 --> 00:30:25,320
Speaker 1: values for authentic confidence, I'm gonna read that again. I

564
00:30:25,360 --> 00:30:27,600
Speaker 1: sure did write that. I was like, oh, hold up,

565
00:30:28,720 --> 00:30:33,800
Speaker 1: align your actions with your values for authentic confidence. And

566
00:30:33,840 --> 00:30:37,080
Speaker 1: I think that is what was happening with me, guys.

567
00:30:37,520 --> 00:30:43,600
Speaker 1: I was in aligning my values with my authentic self.

568
00:30:45,200 --> 00:30:50,920
Speaker 1: I was myself, but I was doing things more to

569
00:30:51,040 --> 00:30:56,000
Speaker 1: please other people and following other people's direction and not

570
00:30:56,160 --> 00:31:00,080
Speaker 1: allowing my inner confidence and my authentic self shine.

571
00:31:00,200 --> 00:31:00,960
Speaker 2: And now I am.

572
00:31:01,120 --> 00:31:03,800
Speaker 1: Now I'm like, wait a second, No, if there's something

573
00:31:03,800 --> 00:31:08,080
Speaker 1: in my music that I don't like, now you better

574
00:31:08,120 --> 00:31:10,040
Speaker 1: believe I'm going to say, hey, can we change this,

575
00:31:10,920 --> 00:31:12,480
Speaker 1: even if it's a pain in the butt. Before I

576
00:31:12,520 --> 00:31:13,600
Speaker 1: was like, oh, I don't want to bother them or

577
00:31:13,600 --> 00:31:14,920
Speaker 1: they're going to think I'm a pain in the ass.

578
00:31:14,960 --> 00:31:17,720
Speaker 1: Like I'm sorry, but this is my music, this is

579
00:31:17,800 --> 00:31:20,400
Speaker 1: my true self, and I have to live with this forever.

580
00:31:20,520 --> 00:31:22,120
Speaker 1: So I'm going to make these changes, and I need

581
00:31:22,120 --> 00:31:24,000
Speaker 1: you to make them changes. And if you're not, then

582
00:31:24,040 --> 00:31:26,640
Speaker 1: you're not the person that I'm meant to work with, Like,

583
00:31:26,720 --> 00:31:30,040
Speaker 1: that's just where I'm at, and I'm aligning myself with

584
00:31:30,080 --> 00:31:34,240
Speaker 1: my values and it's allowing me to radiate and shine

585
00:31:34,240 --> 00:31:37,040
Speaker 1: in a different way, completely different, and I love And

586
00:31:37,080 --> 00:31:41,800
Speaker 1: I look back on Cheeky's five years ago last year,

587
00:31:41,840 --> 00:31:43,520
Speaker 1: and I'm like, I love what I did and I

588
00:31:43,600 --> 00:31:45,680
Speaker 1: kind of missed those things. But I'm like, was I

589
00:31:45,760 --> 00:31:50,200
Speaker 1: truly happy? Was I really living my true purpose? And

590
00:31:50,240 --> 00:31:52,760
Speaker 1: maybe I was because that was part of what I

591
00:31:52,800 --> 00:31:54,960
Speaker 1: had to do to get here. So I don't regret

592
00:31:55,000 --> 00:31:57,560
Speaker 1: any of it. I love it all. And that's not

593
00:31:57,600 --> 00:31:59,000
Speaker 1: to say that I'm not going to wear some booty

594
00:31:59,000 --> 00:32:01,600
Speaker 1: shorts on stage years I might, I may not.

595
00:32:01,720 --> 00:32:05,920
Speaker 2: I don't know. But right now I'm living what I

596
00:32:05,960 --> 00:32:07,720
Speaker 2: need to live. So that was huge.

597
00:32:07,760 --> 00:32:09,960
Speaker 1: When I wrote that, I was like, damn, I get it.

598
00:32:10,680 --> 00:32:14,600
Speaker 1: And I wrote something as well about confidence because obviously

599
00:32:14,640 --> 00:32:17,840
Speaker 1: we're talking about confidence, so confidence doesn't always look the

600
00:32:17,840 --> 00:32:21,040
Speaker 1: same throughout our lives. Sometimes it's louder, sometimes it's quieter,

601
00:32:21,120 --> 00:32:23,760
Speaker 1: and sometimes we have to rebuild it after people put

602
00:32:23,800 --> 00:32:27,320
Speaker 1: ideas in our heads. What I've learned is that real

603
00:32:27,400 --> 00:32:31,120
Speaker 1: confidence isn't about how people see you. It's about how

604
00:32:31,200 --> 00:32:35,160
Speaker 1: you see yourself and how you treat yourself, and that's

605
00:32:35,200 --> 00:32:38,920
Speaker 1: where the alignment comes in, right of aligning your values.

606
00:32:39,240 --> 00:32:43,000
Speaker 1: Also talking about my weight and stuff from earlier, because

607
00:32:43,040 --> 00:32:44,240
Speaker 1: I was like, I want to make sure I read this.

608
00:32:44,320 --> 00:32:47,560
Speaker 1: I don't forget for me. Confidence really started growing when

609
00:32:47,600 --> 00:32:50,960
Speaker 1: I got okay with myself, all of me, the good,

610
00:32:51,040 --> 00:32:54,960
Speaker 1: the bad, the messy. When I stopped lying even little lies,

611
00:32:55,720 --> 00:32:58,800
Speaker 1: and stop pretending to be someone I'm not, it gave

612
00:32:58,880 --> 00:33:01,760
Speaker 1: me this whole new time type of confidence because when

613
00:33:01,800 --> 00:33:06,040
Speaker 1: you're not hiding anything, you feel free. I feel free, y'all.

614
00:33:06,840 --> 00:33:09,240
Speaker 1: You don't have to be perfect, and when you're willing

615
00:33:09,280 --> 00:33:12,360
Speaker 1: to admit your mistakes out loud, it makes you stronger,

616
00:33:12,520 --> 00:33:16,440
Speaker 1: not weaker. That's when I realize my confidence doesn't come

617
00:33:16,640 --> 00:33:20,520
Speaker 1: from looking perfect on the outside, but from knowing I'm

618
00:33:20,600 --> 00:33:23,880
Speaker 1: real on the inside. And I think i'll leave it

619
00:33:23,920 --> 00:33:27,400
Speaker 1: with that. I'll end this episode with that, because I

620
00:33:27,400 --> 00:33:29,640
Speaker 1: think that just kind of sums everything up for us.

621
00:33:30,440 --> 00:33:33,480
Speaker 1: And I always like to use my personal experiences because

622
00:33:33,480 --> 00:33:37,360
Speaker 1: that's what this podcast is all about. It's cheeky's and chill.

623
00:33:37,400 --> 00:33:39,880
Speaker 1: I'm chilling with y'all, and I'm telling you, guys, my truth,

624
00:33:39,960 --> 00:33:41,959
Speaker 1: because that's the only way that I can help you

625
00:33:42,280 --> 00:33:47,240
Speaker 1: is by expressing my own experiences, my own adversities, and

626
00:33:47,240 --> 00:33:51,600
Speaker 1: not only outside adversities and obstacles, but those that come

627
00:33:51,680 --> 00:33:55,240
Speaker 1: from within that I have created. And I have self

628
00:33:55,240 --> 00:34:00,600
Speaker 1: destructed with my mind by thinking too much, overthinking too much,

629
00:34:00,920 --> 00:34:05,760
Speaker 1: and not putting things into action. And now I am doing,

630
00:34:06,560 --> 00:34:09,520
Speaker 1: not just thinking and saying I am doing, and all

631
00:34:09,560 --> 00:34:13,719
Speaker 1: of those things build immense confidence. And I will tell

632
00:34:13,760 --> 00:34:17,000
Speaker 1: you I am very proud of how far I've come

633
00:34:17,080 --> 00:34:19,279
Speaker 1: and how I have been able to get through every

634
00:34:19,320 --> 00:34:23,200
Speaker 1: season of my life, because it's true, confidence looks different,

635
00:34:23,600 --> 00:34:28,160
Speaker 1: and every every year we're different. I mean, we have

636
00:34:28,239 --> 00:34:31,399
Speaker 1: to accept that we come from change. And I can

637
00:34:31,440 --> 00:34:36,160
Speaker 1: tell you that I am a different person even with

638
00:34:36,719 --> 00:34:40,040
Speaker 1: this relationship I'm in, with this marriage and being more

639
00:34:40,040 --> 00:34:44,440
Speaker 1: willing and open to hearing not so good things about myself.

640
00:34:44,520 --> 00:34:48,560
Speaker 1: I'm not always the best version of myself. I try

641
00:34:48,600 --> 00:34:51,560
Speaker 1: every day and it's a lot easier to bounce back,

642
00:34:51,640 --> 00:34:55,080
Speaker 1: but there are days when I'm not my best and

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Speaker 1: my husband has to tell me, and now I am

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Speaker 1: able to hear it, and not only hear it, but

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Speaker 1: act and say, Okay, I love you. And I want

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Speaker 1: to be better and I'm going to change this for you,

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Speaker 1: for myself, and for us. It's made me become a

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Speaker 1: better sister. I feel like I am a lot better

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Speaker 1: with understanding their process and knowing that they're older and

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Speaker 1: that things change, even in relationships that you thought would

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Speaker 1: never that we were tight as heck and nothing could

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Speaker 1: ever come between us, and not that they have. It's

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Speaker 1: just the dynamic has changed, and it's helped me accept

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Speaker 1: that and it's helped me understand it and understand them

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Speaker 1: because now I know who I am and I'm like, okay, cool,

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Speaker 1: I know who I am. I'm good, I'm chilling. I

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Speaker 1: have to allow them to figure that out if they

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Speaker 1: haven't already, and not take things personally. And it's helped

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Speaker 1: me a lot. All of these things that we talked

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Speaker 1: about have just helped align me as a better musician,

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Speaker 1: a better songwriter. I trust myself now what I want

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Speaker 1: to write about, and I'm like, I know the answer.

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Speaker 2: It's in me.

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Speaker 1: God lives in me as as me and he's speaking

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Speaker 1: to me, so I have to trust that. So it

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Speaker 1: has really helped me in every area. I feel like

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Speaker 1: I'm a better boss. I'm able to communicate and and

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Speaker 1: tell my employees, Hey, I don't like this.

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Speaker 2: Fix this. And I'm not mean.

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Speaker 1: I'm just direct because I have more confidence in who

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Speaker 1: I am and the things that I want, and I'm

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Speaker 1: not afraid of speaking my truth in a loving way,

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Speaker 1: and that has helped me quite a bit. Okay, guys,

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Speaker 1: I love you, Thank you for listening. Go out there

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Speaker 1: and be confident. Okay, true confidence.

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Speaker 2: Here we go.

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Speaker 1: Whoo.

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Speaker 2: I love you, guys.

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Speaker 1: Catch you on the next episode of Cheeky's and Chill Damo.

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