WEBVTT - Ep15: Why Do Women Cheat?! 0:00:04.360 --> 0:00:08.039 I can't believe like I'm just just with you, mommy. 0:00:08.400 --> 0:00:11.840 Oh I heard this song before. Yeah, it supems to 0:00:11.880 --> 0:00:16.360 be an African pop It played in every club. Let 0:00:16.400 --> 0:00:18.960 me see how to look like he's actually not bad looking. 0:00:19.000 --> 0:00:24.200 It's Malika, Barry Malika or Malik Berry. I just want 0:00:24.200 --> 0:00:29.880 to dance with you, mommy, Mali not bad looking. Well 0:00:29.960 --> 0:00:31.680 the way, I just gotta play this part hold on. 0:00:32.120 --> 0:00:37.080 It definitely didn't pop up and is it him? Too much? 0:00:37.159 --> 0:00:41.880 So too much, too much, too much juice. When this 0:00:42.080 --> 0:00:47.080 played in the club, everybody was just like like no, no, 0:00:47.600 --> 0:00:51.839 So Hi guys, we are back with another episode of 0:00:52.040 --> 0:00:56.000 horrible decisions. Um. The song that I just played was 0:00:56.120 --> 0:00:59.640 a niger song. If you guys follow me on social network, 0:01:00.240 --> 0:01:02.760 I just got back from Nigeria. What is so funny 0:01:02.880 --> 0:01:05.240 because like when we were growing up, used to be 0:01:05.280 --> 0:01:09.319 like I'm mixed and now you're all of a sudden 0:01:09.360 --> 0:01:13.200 just a loud and Africa what I love? Well? I 0:01:13.240 --> 0:01:18.640 love going to the motherland. Um. This was actually my 0:01:18.760 --> 0:01:21.200 second trip again for you guys who don't know, I 0:01:21.319 --> 0:01:24.119 just got back this week from Nigeria. I was there 0:01:24.160 --> 0:01:31.240 for about two weeks. Um. It was interesting to say um. Nonetheless, 0:01:31.560 --> 0:01:33.800 if you guys also know I went to South Africa 0:01:34.120 --> 0:01:39.440 last year, what hold on, guys, Wheezy is like, I'm 0:01:39.520 --> 0:01:44.240 just oh, I have a lot of new people that 0:01:44.280 --> 0:01:46.520 are like I just found you guys. Matter bro. At 0:01:46.520 --> 0:01:47.960 the end of the day, everyone knows whoy I am. 0:01:48.000 --> 0:01:51.480 You can introduce yourself when the fun we get to you, 0:01:52.480 --> 0:01:56.800 because I am who I am. Damn. Anyway, I want 0:01:56.800 --> 0:02:00.640 to maybe tis so last year I went to Africa, 0:02:01.240 --> 0:02:03.360 um and yeah, so I was just in Nigeria for 0:02:03.400 --> 0:02:07.120 two weeks. It was fun, it was exciting. Um. I 0:02:07.120 --> 0:02:09.080 think Wheezy missed me and she fucking faced time. He 0:02:09.120 --> 0:02:11.359 every fucking day. But bitch, I just wanted to see 0:02:11.360 --> 0:02:13.880 some like African in the background. You know what I'm saying. 0:02:14.000 --> 0:02:16.160 We'll see And this is the thing. So for any 0:02:16.200 --> 0:02:18.200 of you guys who don't know, Nigeria is one of 0:02:18.200 --> 0:02:21.200 the countries in which you actually need a visa UM 0:02:21.240 --> 0:02:23.160 to go to. And this isn't a visa that you 0:02:23.200 --> 0:02:24.880 could just buy at the airport, like you actually have 0:02:25.000 --> 0:02:26.960 to go to the embassy or get one on arrival, 0:02:27.000 --> 0:02:29.240 but you actually have to be invited by someone who 0:02:29.320 --> 0:02:33.080 lives there. So I'm going to oh my God. And 0:02:33.200 --> 0:02:37.480 see that's another little so I'll tell you guys, so 0:02:38.240 --> 0:02:41.160 when you go to Nigeria, so if you know there's 0:02:41.200 --> 0:02:43.639 all these stigmas about you know, everyone thought I was 0:02:43.680 --> 0:02:46.480 there getting dick down by a huge African man, dingo 0:02:46.600 --> 0:02:50.480 dick everybody. I was actually there celebrating my home girl's birthday. 0:02:50.600 --> 0:02:54.799 People ask me that, like, and I'm gonna let It's 0:02:54.840 --> 0:02:57.480 funny that even people who knew I was there with 0:02:57.520 --> 0:02:59.000 my friend were just convinced I was going to be 0:02:59.080 --> 0:03:03.160 the African prints and it's it's actually it's really like no, Bro, 0:03:03.240 --> 0:03:04.959 no Prinson as the Moon do none of that ship. 0:03:05.120 --> 0:03:08.160 So I actually go there and at a lot of 0:03:08.200 --> 0:03:10.440 the clubs and the places where the bosses would be, 0:03:10.720 --> 0:03:12.560 they won't let you in unless you're with a guy 0:03:12.560 --> 0:03:15.720 already because they'll assume that you're working like you're a prostitute. 0:03:16.200 --> 0:03:20.920 And so even for the pros, so even like the 0:03:21.040 --> 0:03:24.440 v I P section, Bro, if like you weren't with 0:03:24.480 --> 0:03:27.200 a guy, they weren't letting you in. So that I 0:03:27.280 --> 0:03:28.919 was like that for me any visa, like they felt 0:03:28.960 --> 0:03:31.120 like I wasn't allowed to go in v I P. 0:03:31.280 --> 0:03:33.080 Even when dudes wanted to invite me v I P 0:03:33.520 --> 0:03:35.280 they had. Yeah, they had to come and get you. 0:03:35.320 --> 0:03:36.520 And that's what it was for me. And but you 0:03:36.560 --> 0:03:42.280 know me happy. Is there a problem? Hello? Oh God, 0:03:42.280 --> 0:03:44.280 shut up? But no, it was fun. Um, it was 0:03:44.440 --> 0:03:47.560 a lot. It was probably the most I don't want 0:03:47.600 --> 0:03:49.120 to say, the most third world country I've been too, 0:03:49.160 --> 0:03:51.760 because I have been to Philippines and Cambodia, which were 0:03:51.760 --> 0:03:53.480 pretty bad, but I had never been to a place 0:03:53.480 --> 0:03:56.320 where there are so many beggars, like and they were 0:03:56.360 --> 0:03:59.560 literally hustling, but like the children. We would be literally 0:03:59.600 --> 0:04:01.920 sitting at a light and there would be probably eight 0:04:02.000 --> 0:04:04.880 kids at the window just with their hands like asking 0:04:04.960 --> 0:04:09.720 for money. Like, oh my god, right, but I know, 0:04:09.840 --> 0:04:11.520 but I was there for two weeks. It was just 0:04:11.960 --> 0:04:13.960 it was just a lot. It was just a lot 0:04:14.000 --> 0:04:15.520 to take in. Not only that, because it's not a 0:04:15.520 --> 0:04:18.880 tourist place, bro, there was like nothing to fucking do. 0:04:19.200 --> 0:04:21.039 Like all we did was club. I did go and 0:04:21.080 --> 0:04:24.200 see a Nigerian film it's called Nollywood like Hollywood, which 0:04:24.240 --> 0:04:26.719 was cool, but there's nothing to do there, Bro, Like, 0:04:26.800 --> 0:04:28.800 there's nothing to do. And then are you in the 0:04:28.800 --> 0:04:31.960 biggest city. I was in Legos, well, Victoria island. It's 0:04:32.000 --> 0:04:37.279 not Lucky Legos a logos. I believe Lego. I believe 0:04:37.279 --> 0:04:39.080 it was Legos Bro. I'm gonna let them come for you, 0:04:39.600 --> 0:04:42.039 let them come for me. I'm pretty sure it's Lego. 0:04:42.160 --> 0:04:44.559 But I stayed them Lucky and we partied in Victoria Island. 0:04:44.560 --> 0:04:47.200 I was on the island part, not the mainland. Um 0:04:47.279 --> 0:04:49.080 it was cool, though it was cool, got no dig 0:04:49.080 --> 0:04:51.039 But as soon as the guy bad guy did, I 0:04:51.080 --> 0:04:54.719 showed in which I was waiting like it was so 0:04:54.760 --> 0:04:57.279 bad while I was there, So I'm texting no. So 0:04:57.360 --> 0:04:59.880 the nigga who I ended up, we were talking girl, 0:05:00.120 --> 0:05:01.560 So I hopped on it. As soon as I got 0:05:01.560 --> 0:05:03.560 off my flight, well, I got on my flight, went home, 0:05:03.640 --> 0:05:06.800 then went I have never ever after a fifteen hour flight, 0:05:06.800 --> 0:05:09.360 I'm sorry, I need to Punna. Give a fuck, bitch 0:05:09.440 --> 0:05:12.080 I was going for I was. That was a little longer. 0:05:14.600 --> 0:05:17.200 So as soon as I land, sorry off Africa now. 0:05:17.240 --> 0:05:18.599 But as soon as I land, which I had this 0:05:18.680 --> 0:05:20.000 nigga weight in mind. You we have been texting the 0:05:20.040 --> 0:05:22.280 whole time in Africa. At one point while I was 0:05:22.320 --> 0:05:24.479 in Africa, he even asked me like, ain't you an 0:05:24.520 --> 0:05:26.400 Africa bitch? Why are you sex to me? Like I 0:05:26.440 --> 0:05:28.440 guess he thought I was within a nigger. I said, listen, 0:05:28.480 --> 0:05:31.240 ain't nobody getting dick out here. You're gonna talk dirty 0:05:31.279 --> 0:05:33.080 to me till I get to motherfuck New York. And 0:05:33.120 --> 0:05:35.120 so he was in town and it was just it 0:05:35.240 --> 0:05:37.480 was great. I'm so glad you had sex because I 0:05:37.520 --> 0:05:42.520 feel like I'm in such a better mood when it's 0:05:42.560 --> 0:05:44.520 good for you, because I just got off the goddamn 0:05:44.600 --> 0:05:50.920 l train. Dude, it's such a trash anyway. Um, So 0:05:50.960 --> 0:05:53.040 I was in Italy three weeks ago. We haven't recorded 0:05:53.040 --> 0:05:55.640 in a while because Mandy's been gone. So then I'm 0:05:55.680 --> 0:05:59.200 going to Miami next week in the Orlando by the way, 0:05:59.240 --> 0:06:02.840 I'm happy week in New York. Yeah, I hope we 0:06:02.920 --> 0:06:04.760 see some of you guys at the march. Um. So, yeah, 0:06:04.800 --> 0:06:07.000 I was in Italy three weeks ago. I finally saw 0:06:07.040 --> 0:06:13.279 a lover boy and what I lost my ass virginity. No, 0:06:13.560 --> 0:06:15.520 you didn't even tell me this? Were you saving this 0:06:15.640 --> 0:06:17.680 for the show? No? I didn't tell you a figure, 0:06:17.680 --> 0:06:19.800 but you didn't get into detail, like I didn't know, 0:06:19.920 --> 0:06:25.359 like we don't about a last day. How did you 0:06:25.400 --> 0:06:29.359 like it? So I did? Wait, you liked it. He 0:06:29.440 --> 0:06:32.200 was super gentle, so um, anyway, have to be you know, 0:06:32.200 --> 0:06:34.040 I moved into my apartment and then literally the next 0:06:34.120 --> 0:06:36.120 day I'm flying to Italy. So I was like super stressed. 0:06:36.120 --> 0:06:37.599 But it's just that I already had that time off. 0:06:37.920 --> 0:06:42.479 I didn't want to take anymore because I'm doing Tokyo. Um. 0:06:42.560 --> 0:06:45.560 So yeah, I was super stressed on the plane, right 0:06:45.560 --> 0:06:47.839 because you know, I'm looking funked up as ship. And 0:06:47.839 --> 0:06:49.480 then like you know, when you have them thirty minutes, 0:06:49.520 --> 0:06:52.760 like on the plane, in that little fucking shitty bathroom 0:06:52.839 --> 0:06:55.839 to get like pretty, I came out with makeup on 0:06:55.960 --> 0:06:58.560 and heals the ship in the person. We're back to 0:06:58.560 --> 0:07:00.240 my seeing the guy was like, no, somebody else sitting 0:07:00.240 --> 0:07:02.520 here was like, oh no, it's me. You might have 0:07:02.560 --> 0:07:08.520 seen Kelly and now I'm Beyonce. Oh my god, shut them. Anyway, 0:07:08.560 --> 0:07:11.160 it was a fucking amazing trip. It was a vacation 0:07:11.200 --> 0:07:15.840 for both of us. So like I arrived, Um, his 0:07:15.920 --> 0:07:17.360 bags were lost, and I thought he was going to 0:07:17.400 --> 0:07:19.120 be in a super bad mood, but like I was, 0:07:19.200 --> 0:07:21.040 I got back from Africa and they lost but at 0:07:21.120 --> 0:07:22.920 least you lost it when you get home. You're right 0:07:22.960 --> 0:07:26.080 you're right, you were right. I felt so you're right. Um. 0:07:26.480 --> 0:07:29.120 I get in and he was waiting for me, and 0:07:29.200 --> 0:07:30.960 I was like feeling super nervous. I couldn't even look 0:07:31.000 --> 0:07:32.680 him in the face because you know, all you're doing 0:07:32.800 --> 0:07:35.000 is fucking texting and sending dick face, and you finally 0:07:35.000 --> 0:07:38.480 see somebody again, you're like, oh, ship. So I didn't 0:07:38.520 --> 0:07:39.960 really know what type of ship he was gonna be 0:07:40.040 --> 0:07:42.280 on for this trip, right, like we just like fucking 0:07:42.320 --> 0:07:44.280 all day or what's going on? But I felt like 0:07:44.360 --> 0:07:46.800 a princess. We get there, I'm like, oh, do you 0:07:46.840 --> 0:07:48.600 want me to get tickets for the water bus. He's 0:07:48.640 --> 0:07:53.520 like no, We're taking a private water taxi to the hotels. 0:07:53.560 --> 0:07:59.280 Like okay, yeah, your So we get to the hotel 0:07:59.560 --> 0:08:03.640 and he we had two bottles of champagne. Bro like 0:08:04.600 --> 0:08:06.960 fucking like crazy or so excited to see each other. 0:08:07.000 --> 0:08:09.680 I think literally when I arrived, he sucked me in 0:08:09.720 --> 0:08:12.120 the ass, which was crazy. I don't I'm like, be wrong, 0:08:12.200 --> 0:08:14.600 but I was like, you know, when you're talking about 0:08:14.640 --> 0:08:21.080 something so much, you want to sew. I gave a 0:08:21.240 --> 0:08:27.480 massage and open dude. I We got to the room 0:08:27.560 --> 0:08:29.080 and like, so we were together about maybe an hour 0:08:29.080 --> 0:08:30.640 and a half before we sucked, and like, you know, 0:08:30.720 --> 0:08:32.319 we just looking at each other. He's taking pictures in me. 0:08:32.400 --> 0:08:35.040 I'm like flashing the fucking camera when We're on this 0:08:35.160 --> 0:08:37.199 fucking Gonda along the way to hotel, just being like, 0:08:37.360 --> 0:08:40.760 you know, ratchet of course, and I was in Ventice 0:08:40.760 --> 0:08:42.800 by the way in Italy, and so yeah, we get 0:08:42.840 --> 0:08:45.120 in the room and it's like this gorgeous sucking balcony, 0:08:45.320 --> 0:08:49.320 like these gold like columns, and I was like, um, 0:08:49.960 --> 0:08:51.680 so I'm like trying not to get in my feelings, 0:08:51.720 --> 0:08:52.839 you know what I'm saying, because this ship was just 0:08:52.880 --> 0:08:57.719 like way too nice. I'm like, so, um, we're on 0:08:57.760 --> 0:08:59.760 the balcony, we were like literally in the robes, just 0:08:59.840 --> 0:09:03.760 like sex face when just everything's gross, drinking champagne, have 0:09:03.800 --> 0:09:06.439 an amazing time. He gives me this fucking jewelry he 0:09:06.559 --> 0:09:08.719 got for me, Like it was just like I was 0:09:08.800 --> 0:09:12.080 super overwhelmed. We get to this Michelin restaurant. I love 0:09:12.160 --> 0:09:14.599 Michelin start restaurants China, Mousey and what they're like, you know, 0:09:14.760 --> 0:09:17.520 especially out of the country, and I just felt so 0:09:17.880 --> 0:09:20.760 fucking spoiled. And then I was like, bitch, scale it 0:09:20.840 --> 0:09:23.040 back and don't get used to this mind, you don't 0:09:23.080 --> 0:09:25.719 scale it back. Because she did call me in her 0:09:25.840 --> 0:09:30.400 mother fucking buck all the details I want you all 0:09:30.440 --> 0:09:35.040 to note. She called me almost panicking, like, no, no, 0:09:35.320 --> 0:09:37.160 I'm not going to shut the funk up on this 0:09:37.320 --> 0:09:40.280 because we are going to be telling by myself. Okay, 0:09:40.360 --> 0:09:44.079 let me get it out. Okay. So but I was say, 0:09:44.120 --> 0:09:47.520 I say I would let me tell you what happened. 0:09:47.760 --> 0:09:50.280 So we're at this restaurant. This is the moment when 0:09:50.360 --> 0:09:52.440 like I can feel his energy, and this is when 0:09:52.480 --> 0:09:55.839 I knew he really missed me. He's touching me every 0:09:55.920 --> 0:09:58.959 five seconds, staring at my eyes, touching my face. He 0:09:59.040 --> 0:10:01.079 said something like I haven't liked somebody this much in 0:10:01.120 --> 0:10:04.400 ten years, and it was like overwhelming. And then there's 0:10:04.440 --> 0:10:06.800 this moment where he's like we get back to the 0:10:06.880 --> 0:10:10.360 room after we're like we like fucking dipped our feet 0:10:10.400 --> 0:10:13.000 in this canal and we're making out doing this. It's 0:10:13.000 --> 0:10:15.280 just like so fucking much, you know, And then he's 0:10:15.480 --> 0:10:17.120 we're in the room. I don't know if I'm massage 0:10:17.160 --> 0:10:18.679 to shoulders or something or what I did, but he 0:10:18.760 --> 0:10:21.480 looked at me and he said, why are you single? 0:10:22.320 --> 0:10:25.439 Not that question and I was like, it's so crazy 0:10:25.559 --> 0:10:31.600 because you get that question always from people who was like, nigga, hello, yeah, 0:10:31.840 --> 0:10:35.040 make me un single. Well, let me steal back for 0:10:35.160 --> 0:10:38.599 a second. First, when I heard the question, I'm I 0:10:39.000 --> 0:10:41.959 immediately started blaming myself. And I was like, for what, 0:10:42.280 --> 0:10:44.360 what were you blaming yourself? I was picking things about 0:10:44.400 --> 0:10:47.280 me right, Oh, you know, maybe because I'm by. I 0:10:47.320 --> 0:10:48.640 don't know, because I can't decide what I want. I 0:10:48.640 --> 0:10:50.280 don't know because I'm gonna have fun, I don't know 0:10:50.320 --> 0:10:52.160 what to say. And then it's time and time and 0:10:52.200 --> 0:10:55.040 time and time went on. I was starting to think, like, 0:10:55.800 --> 0:10:58.920 I'm just a good partner now, I just didn't I don't. 0:10:58.920 --> 0:11:00.679 I mean, I think I had great parts about me, 0:11:00.760 --> 0:11:03.240 but now I'm like a full woman. Now I have 0:11:03.440 --> 0:11:06.760 the great job and the personality and doing this and that, 0:11:07.040 --> 0:11:09.240 or you know, now I know how to listen more 0:11:09.480 --> 0:11:12.959 and I'm more caring and I'm generous, and um, I 0:11:13.080 --> 0:11:15.199 just I don't know. I think I've just become a 0:11:15.240 --> 0:11:18.000 different person and now people see it. And I was 0:11:18.120 --> 0:11:20.880 just thinking, like women always blame themselves so much about 0:11:21.040 --> 0:11:24.240 why they're single, Oh, because blah blah blah. And finally, 0:11:24.440 --> 0:11:27.280 I was just like, I'm just single because I haven't 0:11:27.280 --> 0:11:29.480 met the right person. Right. But it's so funny because 0:11:29.600 --> 0:11:31.800 when people ask me that question, I can ask that 0:11:31.880 --> 0:11:34.839 question as well, like especially I'm now I'm about to 0:11:34.840 --> 0:11:37.600 be seven. Not only am single, I have no kids, 0:11:37.720 --> 0:11:40.319 Like you know, I'm gonna goa catch, I think, goddamn it. 0:11:40.679 --> 0:11:43.319 And it's literally to the point where and that's my answer. 0:11:43.480 --> 0:11:45.840 It's never blaming myself. And I don't think women should 0:11:45.840 --> 0:11:48.439 blame themselves as to why they're single. It's literally the 0:11:48.559 --> 0:11:52.600 fact that maybe you haven't found somebody who you want 0:11:52.600 --> 0:11:54.240 to see here, because I got a nigger right now 0:11:54.240 --> 0:11:56.319 who who's like, can you be wifie? And I'm not 0:11:56.360 --> 0:11:59.320 gonna lie. I was completely honest. I said I would 0:11:59.360 --> 0:12:01.560 not cut all my holes off for you. I'm sorry, 0:12:02.040 --> 0:12:04.960 Like I legit, Like if I show you the text message, 0:12:05.240 --> 0:12:10.240 that doesn't mean you're in a relate like you you 0:12:10.400 --> 0:12:12.040 open to a guy doing all that to me, I'm 0:12:12.040 --> 0:12:14.640 not gonna lie. There's no way. And we'll discuss this 0:12:14.800 --> 0:12:17.599 later um when we get into the horrible decision, but 0:12:17.720 --> 0:12:19.839 there's no way that I'm going to sit here and 0:12:20.440 --> 0:12:22.560 I would say settle with a guy, regardless of how 0:12:22.640 --> 0:12:25.839 much he likes me, regardless of how we blend, and 0:12:25.920 --> 0:12:28.800 I feel like I would have to go somewhere else 0:12:29.240 --> 0:12:31.000 to make up for what he may not do, whether 0:12:31.040 --> 0:12:33.760 it's financial means, whether it's in the bedroom, whether it's 0:12:33.960 --> 0:12:36.920 so if I don't find a nigga, Lawyer Bay has everything, 0:12:37.080 --> 0:12:40.959 I would cut everybody off for Lawyer Bay. But if 0:12:41.080 --> 0:12:43.160 it's a person who I feel like I would step 0:12:43.280 --> 0:12:46.120 out of a relationship with or I can't see myself 0:12:46.160 --> 0:12:47.920 growing with, I'm not going to settle. I'm not in 0:12:48.040 --> 0:12:49.679 high school anymore. But I think it's a bad thing 0:12:49.760 --> 0:12:53.120 to just have someone for right now. It's not so anyway. 0:12:53.720 --> 0:12:57.520 This is when I called you freaking out because I 0:12:57.640 --> 0:12:59.719 had to just I had to tell her about her 0:13:00.440 --> 0:13:02.400 bro But I don't know what I needed to be checked. 0:13:02.720 --> 0:13:05.920 But this is in my defense. You know, we are 0:13:06.000 --> 0:13:07.480 chilling in the day, we want another gun in the 0:13:07.520 --> 0:13:10.080 little weaven sex. It's awesome and we like really thrive. 0:13:10.200 --> 0:13:12.320 I noticed like together on dates. We have a lot 0:13:12.400 --> 0:13:16.240 of fun going out and doing together. So something that 0:13:16.360 --> 0:13:17.920 has been an issue in a lot of relationships for 0:13:18.000 --> 0:13:21.559 me is me giving women attention. Nigga's like when you 0:13:21.679 --> 0:13:23.280 talk to the like chicks, they think it's sexy to 0:13:23.320 --> 0:13:24.880 fund a girl, have it three somewhere whatever. But like 0:13:24.920 --> 0:13:27.160 the attention I give can be too much. So yeah, 0:13:27.200 --> 0:13:29.240 because he knows you're buy knows that you legit have 0:13:29.400 --> 0:13:30.959 a girl for it, and at the end of the 0:13:31.080 --> 0:13:34.160 day anymore. But right, But but real quick about that, 0:13:34.240 --> 0:13:37.360 because I do want to for the bisexual individuals listen, 0:13:37.400 --> 0:13:40.160 because I've been told about myself a lot, and there's 0:13:40.200 --> 0:13:43.880 actually a lot of guys who don't have the insecurity 0:13:43.960 --> 0:13:46.319 and don't like that. You feel like you got to 0:13:46.320 --> 0:13:48.120 go to a bitch to be pleased that they can't 0:13:48.160 --> 0:13:49.920 do it for you. It's so true, and they're like, 0:13:50.000 --> 0:13:52.319 what is it? What is sure? I didn't think I 0:13:52.480 --> 0:13:54.199 was going to do this, But we went to this 0:13:54.280 --> 0:13:58.120 jazz club. We're chilling, having a good time, and he, uh, 0:13:58.520 --> 0:14:00.640 there's a few things that let me. I think made 0:14:00.679 --> 0:14:02.440 me freak out when I called you because I realized 0:14:02.480 --> 0:14:04.120 there were things I liked about him a lot that 0:14:04.160 --> 0:14:06.040 I haven't had on a long time. We get to 0:14:06.080 --> 0:14:07.880 the jazz club and there's a girl sitting next to us. 0:14:07.880 --> 0:14:09.880 She young, she's with her friends, Cutest Buck and I'm 0:14:09.920 --> 0:14:13.560 feeling her. He goes out as a cigarette or something, 0:14:13.679 --> 0:14:20.240 and by the time he is not bothered at all. 0:14:21.040 --> 0:14:23.760 I mean, like totally secure, not bothered at all. And 0:14:23.840 --> 0:14:25.440 by the time he came back, I was like, Okabe, 0:14:25.480 --> 0:14:28.280 they just graduated, blah blah blah, let's get them shots. 0:14:28.320 --> 0:14:31.040 He's like, yeah, okay, like doesn't skip a beat. And 0:14:31.120 --> 0:14:33.320 then I remember like looking at him a few times, 0:14:33.360 --> 0:14:36.440 like I'm sure he's piste. Nothing nothing changed in his face. 0:14:36.680 --> 0:14:39.080 He just knows who the funk I am, which is 0:14:39.080 --> 0:14:41.120 strange because we just kind of met right a few 0:14:41.160 --> 0:14:43.880 minutes ago. Another thing happened that I really liked. I 0:14:44.000 --> 0:14:49.600 didn't realize how in my personal life I'm really dominant, 0:14:49.600 --> 0:14:51.560 whether it's work, I take care of my family, I 0:14:51.640 --> 0:14:56.000 handle everything on my conversations. Got damn you in a room. 0:14:56.080 --> 0:14:58.280 Everybody got to know you got you. And I hate 0:14:58.360 --> 0:15:01.280 to say I hate bring it to money, but it 0:15:01.560 --> 0:15:05.120 is what it is. I'm just gonna say it. He 0:15:05.240 --> 0:15:08.080 wouldn't let me spend like two bucks on a gelato. 0:15:08.600 --> 0:15:11.680 That's not a bad thing, right, But I loved how 0:15:11.880 --> 0:15:13.760 fucking manly it was. Like when we got to the 0:15:13.840 --> 0:15:15.640 jazz club, the tap was like a hundred bucks. I 0:15:15.720 --> 0:15:18.120 paid it. Well, I like snuck around and paid it 0:15:18.160 --> 0:15:21.560 and he almost got mad. It's so funny though, but everything, 0:15:22.920 --> 0:15:26.560 but this is why you in the casino right, Like 0:15:26.600 --> 0:15:28.320 we were heading to the casino. I was trying. I 0:15:28.400 --> 0:15:30.160 was about to take money out and he was like no, 0:15:30.760 --> 0:15:33.240 Like I mean every fucking thing I wanted to do 0:15:33.440 --> 0:15:35.600 on my own, well it was buy something for myself. Like, 0:15:36.560 --> 0:15:38.200 I don't know. And as much as I love to 0:15:38.280 --> 0:15:41.080 be independent, I cannot tell you did not turn me on. 0:15:41.320 --> 0:15:44.440 How assertive he was. That sh it turned me the 0:15:44.560 --> 0:15:48.440 fun on it, I think. And it's not the money. 0:15:48.720 --> 0:15:51.560 It's like something about the dominance with it, like letting 0:15:51.600 --> 0:15:53.520 someone know that they have to take care of you. 0:15:53.600 --> 0:15:56.000 But what's crazy is you're acteel like this is something 0:15:56.080 --> 0:15:59.120 new that you're saying. We didn't heard about you being 0:15:59.160 --> 0:16:01.520 put on a leash. We know that your ass really 0:16:01.600 --> 0:16:04.520 submissive in real life, like men treating me with nice 0:16:04.560 --> 0:16:07.360 things doesn't have to do with submission though, girl, it 0:16:07.480 --> 0:16:09.360 doesn't at all. And that's the funk up things. See, 0:16:09.400 --> 0:16:11.960 I've dated dudes with money before like this, probably with 0:16:12.040 --> 0:16:14.920 more money whatever, right, right, But there's something about the 0:16:15.000 --> 0:16:17.640 assertiveness with this. He just let you know, but you're 0:16:17.640 --> 0:16:20.480 not gonna put your debit card on that ship's sucking sexy. 0:16:21.160 --> 0:16:23.680 So anyway, last night, I mean the last day, I 0:16:23.760 --> 0:16:25.680 got so fucking sick, right, and he's supposed to take 0:16:25.680 --> 0:16:27.760 me to the opera. All we could do is sit 0:16:27.840 --> 0:16:31.600 in bed. And dude was not pissed that all I'm 0:16:31.640 --> 0:16:35.680 talking about, like didn't make me know he wanted to 0:16:35.680 --> 0:16:38.080 see it too, Like who gives a funk about opera. 0:16:38.200 --> 0:16:40.920 The point is like I thought that he was gonna 0:16:40.960 --> 0:16:42.800 guilt trip me a little bit, Like I got dressed, 0:16:42.840 --> 0:16:44.840 I got super sick in this fucking restaurant. I didn't 0:16:44.840 --> 0:16:46.920 tell him, but it'll probably find out now. We were 0:16:46.960 --> 0:16:49.320 in this fucking nice ass like you know, outdoor like 0:16:49.480 --> 0:16:52.000 patio ship, having sucking jam Payne again and eating all 0:16:52.040 --> 0:16:53.720 this nice ship and I was like, oh, I'll be 0:16:53.880 --> 0:16:55.960 right back. I was in the bathroom like there was 0:16:56.040 --> 0:16:59.920 egg and something. No bitch, I was so sick. Yeah, well, 0:17:00.000 --> 0:17:06.480 for you guys, eggs, Like we go out anywhere, it's like, oh, 0:17:06.600 --> 0:17:08.600 please make sure there's no eggs, no eggs, no mayo, 0:17:08.680 --> 0:17:12.080 no anything, but fucking eggs do not have it. So 0:17:12.600 --> 0:17:14.520 it was a great trip. We gave each other space, 0:17:14.600 --> 0:17:16.320 you know. Sometimes he'd sleep, I'd read my book like 0:17:16.359 --> 0:17:18.400 we were chilling. It was great and I like him Alan, 0:17:18.480 --> 0:17:20.840 and I think we're gonna see each other in like 0:17:20.920 --> 0:17:23.320 a month. I'm gonna go back to Europe where he's working. 0:17:23.680 --> 0:17:26.480 Um anyway, so when I called Mandy to freak out, 0:17:28.520 --> 0:17:32.080 I asked him, after he asked me why I was single, 0:17:32.680 --> 0:17:36.760 I said, Oh, why are you single? Because just throwing 0:17:36.840 --> 0:17:40.720 the question back, and this motherfucker's said, after three days 0:17:40.840 --> 0:17:46.040 of fucking romance and champagne and pussy and spoiling, Oh, 0:17:46.440 --> 0:17:50.320 because I don't want a girlfriend. And then I realized 0:17:50.359 --> 0:17:53.720 that I probably choose the wrong end. I don't know 0:17:53.840 --> 0:17:55.680 what the funk I was thinking. And I was having 0:17:55.720 --> 0:17:59.240 a heart attack because I told Mandy, Now, when someone 0:17:59.320 --> 0:18:01.359 tells you that after you've spent so much time together, 0:18:01.440 --> 0:18:05.520 I think it put this gray area around my feelings mind. 0:18:05.560 --> 0:18:07.080 It just gave me this cap on how I can 0:18:07.119 --> 0:18:09.320 feel for you, like I can't push it past here 0:18:09.359 --> 0:18:11.639 because but this is also a thing too, and I 0:18:11.680 --> 0:18:13.960 feel like a lot of women do this. They're in 0:18:14.040 --> 0:18:16.920 a position where they're having fun, they meet a guy 0:18:17.200 --> 0:18:19.560 the sex is cool. I just really like and then 0:18:20.280 --> 0:18:23.280 they get in their feelings and then at one time 0:18:23.320 --> 0:18:25.320 they weren't pushing a title because it was just fun. 0:18:25.359 --> 0:18:27.240 And then when they get in their feelings, they expect 0:18:27.280 --> 0:18:29.080 the guy to be exactly on the same page as 0:18:29.160 --> 0:18:32.200 them at that same exact point, and it's just like, no, 0:18:32.320 --> 0:18:34.560 it was my fault, but but that's but see, don't 0:18:34.560 --> 0:18:37.920 even blame yourself on that. It's literally with any guy 0:18:38.000 --> 0:18:42.600 that you're dealing with. And I I I've plenty women. 0:18:42.720 --> 0:18:44.600 But you can't stay here and blame yourself at that point. 0:18:44.640 --> 0:18:47.000 It's up to you. Are you cool with still remaining 0:18:47.240 --> 0:18:49.080 as what you guys are and let it go from there. 0:18:49.480 --> 0:18:52.600 But let me ask you a question. Do you feel 0:18:52.640 --> 0:18:54.800 like now you're just waiting on him to sort of 0:18:54.920 --> 0:18:57.040 quote unquote pop the question like, hey, can you be 0:18:57.160 --> 0:18:59.240 my girlfriend? Like is that? Do you feel like that's 0:18:59.240 --> 0:19:01.760 what you're waiting on? Like at first I was upset 0:19:01.800 --> 0:19:04.640 because I was like, wow, I'm not sucking anybody else 0:19:05.119 --> 0:19:10.520 and all I mean, because you think everything, but he's 0:19:10.520 --> 0:19:14.680 still going for a minute, I'm facing I'm like, look, 0:19:14.720 --> 0:19:16.399 I can't hold my pussy this long. So when am 0:19:16.440 --> 0:19:19.160 I going to see and he said, well, I will 0:19:19.240 --> 0:19:21.320 look at place and I'll get back to you. And 0:19:21.400 --> 0:19:24.400 I said, I'm not as right. So to me, I mean, 0:19:24.480 --> 0:19:27.159 you know what it is. It's like I'm his girlfriend 0:19:27.200 --> 0:19:30.879 but he's single. Yeah, which I think a lot of 0:19:30.960 --> 0:19:34.639 girls do that. Actually they sit here and they are exclusive, 0:19:34.720 --> 0:19:36.880