Speaker 1: Hi. What's your name?
Speaker 2: My name is Let's go with Dave.
Speaker 1: Dave. What's up, Dave? How you doing?
Speaker 2: I'm doing pretty good. I'm just hanging out waiting by
Speaker 2: my window because I'm getting an important package today. But
Speaker 2: my apartment doesn't have a buzzer, so he's hanging out
Speaker 2: waiting for the mailman.
Speaker 1: And if you're like a wife at the pier waiting
Speaker 1: for her sailor husband to return to.
Speaker 2: Her, yeah, it feels very wistful, kind of like that.
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, may that. May I ask what's in the
Speaker 1: package that you're waiting for?
Speaker 2: It is the title to my car because it's it
Speaker 2: was my parents' carbet we're transferring it, but they live
Speaker 2: out of state, so just hanging out.
Speaker 1: Okay, that's nice. That's quite an adult because I remember
Speaker 1: when I was a kid and I was waiting for package,
Speaker 1: it was usually like a toy or a game or something.
Speaker 1: And now where now that we're old, we're waiting for
Speaker 1: the title to our car, which is and we're just
Speaker 1: as excited because it feels good to complete the navigation
Speaker 1: of bureaucracy in a competent way. Yes, hopefully it's well, Weave, Dave,
Speaker 1: I assume that, and by the way, totally fine if
Speaker 1: it was. But is there a particular thing that you
Speaker 1: called in to want to talk about.
Speaker 2: I mean, I've been watching your show for a while
Speaker 2: and I feel like over the months there have been
Speaker 2: different things that I've wanted to call in for, but
Speaker 2: at this stage in my life, like it's it's I
Speaker 2: don't know this the past couple of months, it's been
Speaker 2: a lot of changes, new job, just feeling different in general.
Speaker 2: At my previous job, I was super underworked, which was
Speaker 2: like a weird feeling. I wanted to tell him about
Speaker 2: that before.
Speaker 1: You were feeling underworked? Yes, what what was that job?
Speaker 2: I was doing? Like events for a nonprofit?
Speaker 1: Okay, how many events does a nonprofit have per quarter?
Speaker 2: Like you could do? Probably you could. You could do
Speaker 2: one a week if you wanted to, but you I
Speaker 2: wanted to have weekends. Like yeah, it's yeah.
Speaker 1: You okay, all right? So over the huh See, it
Speaker 1: sounds like you had a lot of things that were
Speaker 1: stressing you out, but now this happens to sometimes it's
Speaker 1: like you have a lot of things that are stressing
Speaker 1: you out, but then you let a little bit of
Speaker 1: time pass and then you realize that it fucking didn't
Speaker 1: matter at all. You know you were gonna be fine.
Speaker 1: Is that what's happening right now? Or am I making
Speaker 1: an a leap?
Speaker 2: I guess you could say that somewhat of a leap,
Speaker 2: Like I'm still adjusting to my new situation and adjusting
Speaker 2: to a new state. I've been here for a year.
Speaker 3: Now.
Speaker 1: What's the new state?
Speaker 2: Massachusetts?
Speaker 1: Massachusetts? What you're doing in Massachusetts?
Speaker 2: I'm living my life, just walking around and walking in
Speaker 2: the woods and cooking. Learned how to cook mochi the
Speaker 2: other day.
Speaker 1: That's great, that's good.
Speaker 2: I'm not being a get go.
Speaker 1: What what are you is the adjustment? What are you
Speaker 1: adjusting to? What do you feel like there is left
Speaker 1: to adjust to?
Speaker 2: You can't always say that's what's weird.
Speaker 3: Is like.
Speaker 2: When you start a new grade or a new school
Speaker 2: when you're growing up, it's it's very clear what there
Speaker 2: is that you need to adjust to your like, oh, yeah,
Speaker 2: I feel this way because I need friends, or I
Speaker 2: feel which if it's like all of the above, and
Speaker 2: you know, it's kind of hard to pinpoint one thing.
Speaker 2: But I switched over to a new job that I
Speaker 2: like more so that helped I've made a few friends now,
Speaker 2: so it's pretty good.
Speaker 1: How old are.
Speaker 2: You I just turned twenty four?
Speaker 1: Very cool? Yeah, that's good. Friends are the most important
Speaker 1: thing in life. I do feel. I do feel friends
Speaker 1: are the most important thing in life. Nothing really matters
Speaker 1: if you if you don't have friends. Nothing about that?
Speaker 2: Yeah, because not nothing.
Speaker 1: What do you hold on when you so when you
Speaker 1: think about when you said you think about that sometimes,
Speaker 1: what do you think about when you're thinking about that?
Speaker 2: I mean, I guess I think do I need to
Speaker 2: spend more time with my friends and my peers or
Speaker 2: do I need to spend more time by myself?
Speaker 1: Oh that's an interesting question.
Speaker 2: I feel like at this stage of life, since I'm
Speaker 2: new here, I really only know my girlfriend and so
Speaker 2: we hang out together every day. But I feel like
Speaker 2: your communication style kind of evolves in tandem with one person.
Speaker 2: If you're only hanging out with one person every day,
Speaker 2: you don't get all the new ideas, Like you don't
Speaker 2: get definite Yeah, like I want to hear people say
Speaker 2: like interesting novel things to me that it's like, where
Speaker 2: did you get that? I was talking with my one
Speaker 2: of my new friends about this guy was friends with
Speaker 2: who had all.
Speaker 3: These really all the time.
Speaker 1: That is a really funny. So just I'm sorry, I
Speaker 1: want to let you finish, but that's a really really
Speaker 1: funny way to talk about wanting new friends, because there
Speaker 1: is truth to its total. I absolutely want to be
Speaker 1: around people who are saying interesting novel things. That's one
Speaker 1: of the exciting things about being around new people. Uh So,
Speaker 1: I like the way you phrased that, So go ahead.
Speaker 1: You met somebody who's a conspiracy theorist.
Speaker 2: Oh that was that was some friends I had. Well
Speaker 2: I've met a few different conspiracy purities in my life.
Speaker 1: But okay, so you just so, you just are hanging
Speaker 1: out with your girlfriend, and where would you if you
Speaker 1: wanted to meet new people? Where would you go?
Speaker 2: M So, this is something I wanted to tell you. Yeah,
Speaker 2: because it's I came up with this plot and I
Speaker 2: call it like the old fashioned way of making friends, okay,
Speaker 2: and it's you go to the bar once a week,
Speaker 2: you go to the gym once a week, and you
Speaker 2: go to church or whatever religious organization you go to
Speaker 2: once a week. Look at and that's the old that's
Speaker 2: how they did it.
Speaker 1: In the whenever the thing, look at this guy, look
Speaker 1: at this guy, he has a plan. This guy is
Speaker 1: I did not.
Speaker 2: I came up with that like a year ago and
Speaker 2: I never really followed through.
Speaker 1: No, that's a great plan. I like that plan.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't know. I mean the gym.
Speaker 1: The gym, well, I mean the gym's the gym is
Speaker 1: good because it just makes you feel better, but it's
Speaker 1: not I've never particularly saw saw the gym as a
Speaker 1: social activity. I mean, I have a friend or two
Speaker 1: that I'll go to the gym with, but it's not
Speaker 1: a situation where I've ever met new people doing it.
Speaker 1: You could do like there's you know, classes, or like
Speaker 1: you could you could file that, you know what instead
Speaker 1: of the gym. You could file it under like fucking
Speaker 1: physical activity, right, like do a fucking soccer or whatever
Speaker 1: thing or you know, go bouldering or some shit like that.
Speaker 1: You know. I like that plan. You go to the
Speaker 1: church once a week, you go to the what was
Speaker 1: the fucking other one though? Uh, the bar, go to
Speaker 1: the bar once a week, and you go to the
Speaker 1: do a physical activity once a week. That's like three
Speaker 1: days a week that you're Yeah, and then when you're
Speaker 1: in while you're there, you got to challenge yourself to
Speaker 1: talk to some new people.
Speaker 2: You know. Yeah, I don't know how to approach strangers.
Speaker 2: I never really learned. I mean I was the kid
Speaker 2: in high school who would walk around and say hi
Speaker 2: to every single person in the hallway that I possibly could,
Speaker 2: and I got to know like half the school. But
Speaker 2: then you go to and you're just the weirdo. So
Speaker 2: I stopped. Yeah, it was like the friendly kid.
Speaker 1: Wait a minute, really, when you say, can you tell
Speaker 1: me more about this? You went up to everyone around
Speaker 1: you and said hello.
Speaker 2: Yeah. It was like my whole thing was I got so.
Speaker 2: I studied sociology in college, among other things, but I
Speaker 2: did that partly because in high school I was super
Speaker 2: into making these surveys and like going around to everyone
Speaker 2: in the school and like asking them, you know, a
Speaker 2: multiple choice question and then like getting all that information.
Speaker 1: You would ask people multiple choice questions.
Speaker 2: Yeah, that was like what I did during lunch every day.
Speaker 1: What kind of like just for fun, Like this wasn't
Speaker 1: an assignment. You just did this for fun.
Speaker 2: Yeah, questions.
Speaker 1: Can I hear some of the questions that you might
Speaker 1: have asked?
Speaker 2: It was like, I mean, one of them it was
Speaker 2: anything from like where would you land your spaceship. If
Speaker 2: you were a Martian invading Earth and you want to
Speaker 2: set up like a new capital city, okay, and everyone
Speaker 2: would choose that and then.
Speaker 1: Or some of them would be effect Was this effective
Speaker 1: for you? Do you feel like you do you feel
Speaker 1: more integrated into the larger community as a result of
Speaker 1: your surveys?
Speaker 2: I think I did. I think people saw me. I
Speaker 2: was like a familiar face, even if I didn't have
Speaker 2: a lot of super close friends.
Speaker 1: And then you tried this again in college and people
Speaker 1: thought you were weird.
Speaker 2: Oh I didn't. I didn't do that in college.
Speaker 1: But but you, but you alluded to that you said
Speaker 1: something that you felt weird.
Speaker 2: Yeah, just like saying hi to everyone you pass and
Speaker 2: like because it's not normal to stay hi to everyone.
Speaker 1: Yeah, but I learned that.
Speaker 4: Yeah.
Speaker 1: So if someone could you imagine that guy where like
Speaker 1: you walk past you walk past them and you say hello,
Speaker 1: and then they go, look at that fuck their fucking
Speaker 1: asshole saying hello to me. It's like, you know, screw
Speaker 1: that guy. That's not Yeah even if that, even if
Speaker 1: that is a guy that you imagine in your head,
Speaker 1: the guy who when you say hi to them, he
Speaker 1: goes what a fucking horrible man saying hi to everyone. Yea,
Speaker 1: even if that is the guy, even if the guy
Speaker 1: you have in your head exists, that's that, you know,
Speaker 1: it doesn't matter because you were never going to reach
Speaker 1: him anyway, and I don't know if you wanted to
Speaker 1: even talk to that person.
Speaker 2: You know. See, I've noticed I have less social anxiety
Speaker 2: just walking around in the mornings here and then because
Speaker 2: there's something to say. You say good morning when you
Speaker 2: watch and like I went to Mexico recently and you
Speaker 2: have good morning, good afternoon, good evening, all in your toolbox.
Speaker 2: You say good afternoon.
Speaker 1: What's good? Buenos dias, buenos tardes, buenos nochez.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's very reassuring. And one time I said all
Speaker 2: up to someone I passed on the street and they
Speaker 2: looked at me like I was crazy. So you have
Speaker 2: should start those three you should.
Speaker 1: Yeah, you should start just around your around uh Boston,
Speaker 1: being just saying buenos to people and see what happens.
Speaker 1: That could be kind of fun Yeah, that is that
Speaker 1: is funny. That is funny that when you like walk
Speaker 1: around in the mornings because there's something to talk about,
Speaker 1: which is the fact that it's morning. It's like, you
Speaker 1: don't have to scramble for something to connect with others on.
Speaker 1: You can just connect with them on the simple level
Speaker 1: that that it is morning slash afternoons slash evening. That's good,
Speaker 1: that's good. Uh yeah, do you Okay, so you were
Speaker 1: just hanging out with your girlfriend, but do you have friends?
Speaker 1: In Massachusetts already?
Speaker 2: I met the very It took like a year to
Speaker 2: make to start making friends, which I think I could
Speaker 2: have done it in less than that. But we're here now,
Speaker 2: and yeah, I hung out with two friends in the
Speaker 2: past week.
Speaker 1: Two friends is good. Two friends is good. There's some
Speaker 1: I was watching some stupid YouTube video and it said
Speaker 1: something like most Americans haven't have Americans have an average
Speaker 1: of two friends. So but an average is not Like,
Speaker 1: so there's a lot of lonely people who have no friends,
Speaker 1: and then a lot of socialites so have a lot
Speaker 1: of friends. You add them all together and divide it
Speaker 1: by whatever, and you get to you get two friends
Speaker 1: a pop. So if you got to at least two friends,
Speaker 1: you're doing good. You're better than the national average.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's weird when you have friends you can't see
Speaker 2: too much in different time zone, different part of the country,
Speaker 2: because you feel like you can feel yourself like growing apart.
Speaker 1: Yeah, what's your name again, Dave? Dave? Well, let's see
Speaker 1: do we have any you know what? I want to
Speaker 1: take some questions from the chat. I don't know why
Speaker 1: I like taking questions from the Actually I do know why.
Speaker 1: I don't know why I said, I don't know why.
Speaker 1: Actually I do know why. I said. I don't know why.
Speaker 1: I said I don't know why because I lacked confidence
Speaker 1: in my decision. M hm, and so I'm gonna have
Speaker 1: confidence in my decision. Sorry, I'm acting like a lunatic.
Speaker 1: All right, Let's get some questions from the chat. If
Speaker 1: the chat has any questions for Dave. Someone wants to
Speaker 1: know what car are you waiting for the title.
Speaker 2: To It's a Honda Odyssey Van.
Speaker 1: Oh that's pretty cool.
Speaker 2: Mm hmmm uh yes.
Speaker 1: Someone said, do you think I'm going to survive during
Speaker 1: this hurricane in Florida?
Speaker 2: Well? I think so, someone asked.
Speaker 1: Someone asked, if if you have if you're gonna have
Speaker 1: sex in the van?
Speaker 2: Am I am I going to?
Speaker 1: I guess we have? Have you?
Speaker 4: Have you?
Speaker 2: Yes and no?
Speaker 1: How can it be yes and yes? And no, no, no.
Speaker 2: The first question yes, the second question no, because I
Speaker 2: now use it as a second closet because we don't
Speaker 2: have any closets here.
Speaker 1: Wait will buzzer, wait wait wait wait wait, the question is, well,
Speaker 1: let me see the question where does it say? Uh wait,
Speaker 1: let me actually see what the actual question was. The
Speaker 1: question was, yeah, have you he said, oh wait, the
Speaker 1: question he said he he finna get niaky in the van.
Speaker 1: And now someone just said, do you fucking it? I
Speaker 1: think that was the question, so I guess whatever they
Speaker 1: answer that question.
Speaker 2: Is no, I use it for storage. Okay, I have
Speaker 2: so much stuff in there.
Speaker 1: Okay, somebody No, somebody said, he's trying to say he
Speaker 1: has had sex in the van already, but he is
Speaker 1: not going to in the future. Yeah, you got it,
Speaker 1: all right, okay, all right, that's what I thought. All Right,
Speaker 1: we'll take one more question from the chat. Let's see,
Speaker 1: uh oh, what is your what's your favorite band?
Speaker 2: I don't I don't have one anymore.
Speaker 1: Everything is so cryptic with you, I see.
Speaker 2: I feel like I don't think.
Speaker 1: That's such a cryptic answer. No, no, no, because that is
Speaker 1: an answer, right you You said I don't have one.
Speaker 1: Anymore which used to have but and you but you
Speaker 1: did that on is the leading things? But it's okay,
Speaker 1: what's the What was the band that you had? Had
Speaker 1: a favorite one?
Speaker 2: In college? I really liked like eighties Scottish rock based
Speaker 2: and for some reason, so I listened to a lot
Speaker 2: of the Water Boys and Big Country and that other one.
Speaker 1: I can't remember, but yeah, that's cool eighties Scottish rock.
Speaker 1: Is there a fucking do they have a what's the
Speaker 1: name of that instrument? What's the name of the come on?
Speaker 1: What's the name of the hurdy gurdy? No, they're what harmonica?
Speaker 1: The bagpipes? Do they play bagpipes in the Scottish rock bands?
Speaker 2: No, they but they would so they would modify their
Speaker 2: guitars to kind of sound like bad bagpipes, a little
Speaker 2: bit like the electric guitars. Yeah, electric Scottish.
Speaker 1: Well, Dave, was this was this conversation? Did you enjoy
Speaker 1: having this conversation?
Speaker 2: I think so. I know that's cryptic.
Speaker 1: I was. I expected nothing less.
Speaker 2: I would like to ask you for some advice though,
Speaker 2: just to get I need to I need to think
Speaker 2: of what is the most pressing thing right now? Mm hmm, Okay,
Speaker 2: I guess mm hmm. So I'm pretty I'm pretty not antisocial.
Speaker 2: But I used to be a lot more social, as
Speaker 2: I said, you know, high school, college, and then now
Speaker 2: I kind of I feel like and I feel like
Speaker 2: a lot of people feel like since COVID, we've kind
Speaker 2: of just been un learning, like all of our social
Speaker 2: skills that we had built up. I would you learn them?
Speaker 2: Want to? How would how would you get those back?
Speaker 1: How'd I re learn social skills?
Speaker 2: Mm hmmm that you had at one point that stage
Speaker 2: in your life.
Speaker 1: But you know, let you know, I don't want to
Speaker 1: give you advice because you don't really need my advice.
Speaker 1: You had it down pretty well. You were like, I'm
Speaker 1: going to go to the I'm going to do my
Speaker 1: physical activity. I'm going to go to the church, and
Speaker 1: I'm going to go to what's the fucking third one?
Speaker 1: Damn it? The bar? At the bar, there's no you
Speaker 1: just just go just go to them and talk to
Speaker 1: people and try your best. There's no there's no magic,
Speaker 1: don't know. Don't do it for me, do it for you, man. No,
Speaker 1: you're right, there's uh yeah, yeah, I have I have
Speaker 1: no ad But you had it down great. I loved
Speaker 1: the plan. You had a plan. I loved the plan.
Speaker 1: Go to your plan.
Speaker 2: M hmm.
Speaker 1: I'll see you at a church. I guess I won't
Speaker 1: because Jewish.
Speaker 2: But you know, maybe you're ever gonna come to Hampshire.
Speaker 1: Am I ever gonna come to New Hampshire. I'm gonna
Speaker 1: be so honest with you. I don't think I'll ever
Speaker 1: come to New Hampshire. Yeah, I don't. I don't like.
Speaker 1: I don't like to promise. I try not. I'm not
Speaker 1: always successful, but I try not to. I don't want
Speaker 1: to just be like, yeah, no, man, totally going to go.
Speaker 1: I don't see a reason.
Speaker 2: It's a pretty rare Hampshire.
Speaker 1: Well I don't. I I might. I don't know if
Speaker 1: I will. I might die having never gone to New Hampshire.
Speaker 2: It's somewhat unfortunate, but you're not. There's other similar places
Speaker 2: to see.
Speaker 1: Yeah, there's other places I'm sure that I'll probably go to.
Speaker 1: But Dave, is there anything else you want to say
Speaker 1: to the people of the computer before we go? See?
Speaker 2: I haven't prepared for this, but.
Speaker 1: You don't need to prepare whatever is in your head, Dave.
Speaker 2: I guess just speak from the heart, even if it's cryptic.
Speaker 2: It's okay.
Speaker 1: Already knew it was going to be I was prepared
Speaker 1: for it to be cryptic. Please.
Speaker 2: Yeah, no, that was my advice.
Speaker 1: Oh oh oh shit. All right, Well thank you, Dave,
Speaker 1: good luck, good luck. Stick with the plan. All right,
Speaker 1: it's a good plan.
Speaker 2: All right, I'll try my best. Nice talking.
Speaker 1: Crap. I hung up on him. Well I didn't really.
Speaker 1: It was the end of the call. But it was
Speaker 1: nice talking to you, to Dave. It's nice talking to
Speaker 1: you too. I liked that plan. This you gotta do stuff.
Speaker 1: This is the thing. There's no secret. I don't have
Speaker 1: advice for him. My advice for him would have been
Speaker 1: probably guess to go out and do stuff. But he
Speaker 1: already knew that there was no He wasn't missing any information.
Speaker 1: He was not of lack of info. There's like certain
Speaker 1: I think certain times, when you have like a problem,
Speaker 1: you try to convince yourself that you just don't have
Speaker 1: enough information to solve your problem because you're procrastinating on
Speaker 1: taking any actual action to solve your problem. I know
Speaker 1: this from a lot of lived experience and a lot
Speaker 1: of experience. I continue to live where I'm like on
Speaker 1: chatchy bit your Google being like how do I lose weight?
Speaker 1: Or how do I do this? Or whatever? And it's like,
Speaker 1: or how do I talk to people? What do I like?
Speaker 1: You know? You know what? You just do it. I
Speaker 1: guess maybe maybe I'm wrong, God I don't. This is
Speaker 1: one thing I hate about having a podcast is you
Speaker 1: say stuff and then it becomes like you're right, but
Speaker 1: you're not. Just because you say something in your podcast
Speaker 1: doesn't mean you're right. I just want everyone to know
Speaker 1: that I might be wrong. I might be wrong about everything, don't.
Speaker 1: I just want to I'm just That's why I like
Speaker 1: talking to other people. This is why I like talking
Speaker 1: to other people. I like hearing other people's advice and
Speaker 1: lived experience because if then if they're wrong, you know,
Speaker 1: it's not my fault. But uh yeah, I think that
Speaker 1: you probably just do it. Just go talk to people,
Speaker 1: go to church, go to the bar, talk to some
Speaker 1: guy or girl. Live your life. Hello, Hello, hiy hi.
Speaker 1: What's your name? Mina like with an M, yeah and
Speaker 1: I an a Mina. What's up? Mina? How's life has.
Speaker 4: Been very fucking crazy lately? Very crazy?
Speaker 1: Sure?
Speaker 4: I'd like for you, mister Gecko man, how's.
Speaker 1: Life for me? Mister Gecko man. Uh well, actually, well,
Speaker 1: over the past week, I've made some certain I'm trying
Speaker 1: to live life a little bit more intentionally. I am. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I'm doing actually pretty okay over the past week.
Speaker 4: I'm glad to hear that, because like it's sound of
Speaker 4: like you were, I don't know, the super depressed.
Speaker 1: Yes, yes, yes, it often on this podcast, does indeed
Speaker 1: sound like I am super depressed. I accept that. I
Speaker 1: acknowledge that. I'm happy to share that I did this.
Speaker 1: I don't I don't know if people on the who
Speaker 1: listen to this show know this, but I did this
Speaker 1: like Vice interview earlier this year, and it came out
Speaker 1: back in January, and I watched it and I was like,
Speaker 1: this is a this is a professionally made documentary from
Speaker 1: a major news outlet about how fucking depressed I am.
Speaker 1: That's what this is. It's like twenty minutes of me
Speaker 1: being depressed. And I watched that and I was like, oh,
Speaker 1: I gotta change something because there's because you know, there's
Speaker 1: that quote that's like if a documentary film crew followed
Speaker 1: you around, what would they find and they just found
Speaker 1: me like complaining? So you know, I'm trying to get,
Speaker 1: but I'm also okay, but I'm also okay with sharing
Speaker 1: it because I want if so. I'm sure a lot
Speaker 1: of people listening to this shit are depressed, and so
Speaker 1: if if I I think, if they see that I'm depressed,
Speaker 1: maybe it'll make them feel less stupid about being depressed.
Speaker 1: So anyway, okay, we did it. I got. I talked
Speaker 1: about myself for the quota. I was trying to hit
Speaker 1: go ahead, sorry, go ahead, go ahead.
Speaker 4: Because so you were interviewed by Vice and all that.
Speaker 4: I haven't gotten around to watching it, but I was
Speaker 4: recently interviewed by NBC, and I just want to know
Speaker 4: how did you feel after being interviewed after after an
Speaker 4: air and shit, because me personally, like I was so
Speaker 4: excited in the moment, I was like telling my story
Speaker 4: and things, and then as soon as it came out,
Speaker 4: like I hate.
Speaker 2: This so much.
Speaker 1: Something.
Speaker 4: How do you say about like your documentary, your experience
Speaker 4: with Essa.
Speaker 1: I didn't I didn't like it, but oh but as nothing.
Speaker 1: By the way, just as I want to make it
Speaker 1: very clear, it has nothing to do with Vice themselves
Speaker 1: or the people that were making their documentary. They were
Speaker 1: very lovely, they were very lovely. I just want to
Speaker 1: make that very clear. It has to do with I
Speaker 1: didn't like it because it kept I because it here's
Speaker 1: what I feel like, it captured, you know, truthful elements
Speaker 1: of my life, and I did not like those elements,
Speaker 1: not because of anything with doc itself. It's just it
Speaker 1: like basically captured and it maybe like look in a mirror,
Speaker 1: you know I and I didn't like, right, So that's
Speaker 1: that's how I feel. But what were you interviewed about?
Speaker 4: Because so I live in Florida, and you know, we
Speaker 4: all love Florida so much, and I'm a trans woman
Speaker 4: and I just graduated high school and basically I got
Speaker 4: suspend it for using the women's back around my school.
Speaker 4: And I'm not trying to get a political anything. I'm
Speaker 4: talking what it's about. And so they were interviewing me
Speaker 4: and a couple of other students about that, about our
Speaker 4: experience as trans students and Florida and stuff like that.
Speaker 4: And I was excited to tell my story because you know,
Speaker 4: like there's a lot of people out there who need
Speaker 4: to know about Florida and shing like that. But as
Speaker 4: soon as they came out, I regretted it so much
Speaker 4: because one like something crazy that I did not expect
Speaker 4: is that I think getting handwritten letters to my house
Speaker 4: from the same person, just like schizophrenic writing, and it's crazy.
Speaker 4: It's insane. Bro.
Speaker 1: Well, I mean yeah, I mean going on the news
Speaker 1: and talking about something like that. I mean you totally,
Speaker 1: it's it's you know.
Speaker 4: No, I can't touch bro, like I listen, I don't understand.
Speaker 4: I understand I'm obviously gonna get hate in shit. But
Speaker 4: the letters that I have gotten. The letter I got
Speaker 4: was this person talking about veganism and they were telling
Speaker 4: me that I need to go vegan or I need
Speaker 4: to repent for my sins because I'm not vegan, and
Speaker 4: like they were just it was a you paid hand
Speaker 4: written letter just going off about that, being like you
Speaker 4: want to be transgender, but you're not going to be vegan,
Speaker 4: Like you're a hypocrite, and it's funny.
Speaker 1: So I want to well, so I want to talk
Speaker 1: about a few things. Well, I guess what initially made
Speaker 1: you excited about being able to go on the news
Speaker 1: and tell your story and then how did how did
Speaker 1: the outcome of that not match up to your expectations?
Speaker 4: So, like I I was decended to be on NBC
Speaker 4: because like, you know, like you're to a normal, average person, like,
Speaker 4: oh my god, I'm going to be in the news,
Speaker 4: Like that's so cool. They're writing a little documentary about me,
Speaker 4: Like you know, that's why. Like I'm sure so many
Speaker 4: people will go that way about being on the news
Speaker 4: things like that. Everybody kind of likes attention. I also
Speaker 4: just like to be able to tell my story, I guess,
Speaker 4: to inform people about this. It's just a cool thing.
Speaker 4: But what made me really hate it is that like
Speaker 4: I feel like NBC like or I don't know, I
Speaker 4: don't know how it works, but the people who uploaded
Speaker 4: it NBC, I feel like after they uploaded it and
Speaker 4: like they got all their clout and things like that,
Speaker 4: they just like didn't support me at all. They were
Speaker 4: just like okay, bye, like thank you for.
Speaker 3: The the video.
Speaker 1: What kind of support were you looking for from them?
Speaker 4: So, like I don't know how to describe it. Like
Speaker 4: so like, for example, in the documentary, a big part
Speaker 4: of it was that I was supposed to go to
Speaker 4: school in New York. I was supposed to go to
Speaker 4: school in New York and I was still ted go
Speaker 4: to school, and that's what they were interviewing me about there,
Speaker 4: like yo, You're finally going to get out of Florida.
Speaker 4: But then a couple of weeks before I was supposed
Speaker 4: to leave, I was like, damn, I actually can't afford
Speaker 4: this and I have to stay in Florida. And then
Speaker 4: I reached out to NBC. I was like hey, like hey, like,
Speaker 4: I'm so sorry, Like I know you guys just did
Speaker 4: a whole documentary about this, and but like I can't
Speaker 4: go to New York. Like do you guys have any
Speaker 4: scholarships available or anything that I can apply for it.
Speaker 4: You're like no, sorry, but good luck. Like I just
Speaker 4: felt a little used by that, you know. And then
Speaker 4: after that they were like, oh, actually, can you send
Speaker 4: us a video of you talking about how you can't
Speaker 4: go to New York anymore? And I was like, oh,
Speaker 4: feels a little exploitive.
Speaker 1: So were you happy at all with like how the
Speaker 1: peace came out? Do you feel like it was reflective
Speaker 1: of what you wanted to say?
Speaker 3: Yeah?
Speaker 4: Totally, totally. There were some angles when I look ugly,
Speaker 4: but like you can't control all that, you know, Like
Speaker 4: it's cool, it was nice.
Speaker 1: Nice, So tell me, so what I mean, what is
Speaker 1: the story that that you wanted to tell. What's the like,
Speaker 1: did you you you are going to school? You're you
Speaker 1: just graduated high school?
Speaker 4: Yeah, and I'm in college now, and and.
Speaker 1: You're in college in Florida or in New York. In
Speaker 1: Florida now okay. And the idea was that you were
Speaker 1: going to try to leave Florida to go to New York.
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, that was leaving Florida. Like I was accepted
Speaker 4: to the college and everything, but then, like I guess,
Speaker 4: like a couple of miscalculations on the college's part. They
Speaker 4: told me they're in state tuition, but I'm an out
Speaker 4: of state tuition person, and so it was much more expensive.
Speaker 4: And they just told me that like a couple of
Speaker 4: weeks before.
Speaker 2: Us with to leave.
Speaker 4: Things like that.
Speaker 1: Okay, so what's up. How you doing?
Speaker 4: I'm chilling.
Speaker 3: I don't know.
Speaker 4: That was just a ram rant, a random rant. Win.
Speaker 4: I didn't really I was scared. I didn't know what
Speaker 4: to talk to you about.
Speaker 1: That's fine, that's okay. Uh hmmm, are you like so
Speaker 1: your freshman? Well, we're I mean, are you what do
Speaker 1: you go to school for?
Speaker 4: I'm thinking about doing finance. Kind of boring, but I
Speaker 4: think I'm gonna do financial accounting or something like that.
Speaker 1: Mm hmm. So are you still dealing with like, are
Speaker 1: people harassing you because of the interview?
Speaker 4: Not really, honestly, No, It's just that it's just that
Speaker 4: one person who keeps like sending me letters.
Speaker 3: It's so weird.
Speaker 4: I wish I could show them to you. They're still
Speaker 4: fucking weird.
Speaker 1: Well, how they find your address.
Speaker 3: I don't know.
Speaker 4: But and the thing is that I've moved houses and
Speaker 4: they keep sending it to my old house. But then
Speaker 4: I get forward to here because they don't know my
Speaker 4: address really, but I don't know how they found out
Speaker 4: my years to address as well.
Speaker 1: Uh huh uh Okay, So I mean, are you well,
Speaker 1: you're freshmen and it's what they what yours? Oh, you're
Speaker 1: like an incoming You're like a new freshman in college.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 1: How's like, are you making friends? Are you enjoying life?
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's it's okay, Like all this is hard, and
Speaker 4: there's a lot of pressure on an eighteen year old
Speaker 4: to decide what they want to do for like the
Speaker 4: rest of the next seventy years other life, I'm telling
Speaker 4: I guess.
Speaker 1: Yeah, Well, you're not really well you're not really I mean,
Speaker 1: I don't want to. I don't want to go on
Speaker 1: my college rant for the eight hundred thousandth time. But
Speaker 1: you're not really like, you're not really making like a
Speaker 1: crazy big decision, unless if you're taking out a whole
Speaker 1: bunch of debt to be there.
Speaker 4: Well, you know, the thing is, it's the opposite situation.
Speaker 4: I have a scholarship out here where it'll pay for
Speaker 4: one hundred percent of my college only in Florida. Right,
Speaker 4: I'll say for one hundred percent of its only in Florida. Beautiful, Like,
Speaker 4: that's literally the most beautiful offer ever. But it's making
Speaker 4: me out because it's like, what if I go through
Speaker 4: my four years of college and then decide, oh, fuck
Speaker 4: the thing that I've been studying I actually don't want
Speaker 4: to do at end? Boom, I just wasted like four
Speaker 4: years of free college.
Speaker 3: Uh.
Speaker 1: I'll tell you what you do, you uh, spend the
Speaker 1: next fifty eight years of your life doing whatever you
Speaker 1: actually want to do.
Speaker 4: Yeah, but then what if that requires going back to
Speaker 4: college and I gotta fucking go into debt?
Speaker 1: What well, what would you have to what what would
Speaker 1: you have to do that requires going back in college?
Speaker 1: Because if you get your undergraduate degree right and then
Speaker 1: you decide, oh, I actually want to go to medical school,
Speaker 1: or I want to go to this, or I want
Speaker 1: to go to that, like, you still have a leg
Speaker 1: up because you have your undergraduate degree.
Speaker 4: Right right, I'll be making money even if I don't
Speaker 4: want to do it, and then I could use that
Speaker 4: money to go back to college.
Speaker 1: Yeah, you're not. There's no like, yeah, sure, you go
Speaker 1: to school and you're like, oh, I don't actually like finance.
Speaker 1: But you're twenty two. You if you have fifty eight
Speaker 1: if you're lucky, you've got to have fifty eight years
Speaker 1: left until you die, and whatever you do with that
Speaker 1: time is up to you. So you're you'll be fine.
Speaker 1: I mean that's cool. Well yeah, but also, I mean
Speaker 1: you'd be more fucked if you were going to debt.
Speaker 1: The fact that you're not going to debt makes you
Speaker 1: less fucked.
Speaker 4: So it is a little less stressful, I guess in
Speaker 4: a way, because like then I wouldn't be I'm not
Speaker 4: taking on debt right now, you know.
Speaker 1: Yeah, oh no, if you can go to college for free,
Speaker 1: go to college for free, it would only be a
Speaker 1: huge waste of time and money. If you were going
Speaker 1: into debt, so you're gonna.
Speaker 4: Be yeah, yeah, all right, all right, all right, right,
Speaker 4: you sound a lot different on the phone.
Speaker 1: That's interesting that people I sound I have a phony
Speaker 1: phone voice.
Speaker 4: It's not even a phone voice. It's like it sounds
Speaker 4: so staticky.
Speaker 1: Mina, Yeah, Nina, Well, Mina, thanks for calling in. I
Speaker 1: don't know if any of this conversation.
Speaker 4: Was conversation was boring. I don't know.
Speaker 1: No, no, it's not that it was boring. Well, was
Speaker 1: there anything else you wanted to say before we go
Speaker 1: or talk about? I just wanted to give you the.
Speaker 2: Not necessarily all right, Yeah, you're.
Speaker 1: Not fucked, don't worry about it. The fact that you
Speaker 1: got to go to school for free is great. I
Speaker 1: only hate college when it's like you spend a ship
Speaker 1: ton of because yeah, if you're if you're debt free
Speaker 1: and you have like I don't know, I don't know
Speaker 1: if you have anything saved or you're at at least
Speaker 1: you're at zero and not negative, you're not fucked. So
Speaker 1: I don't think you should like go to college for
Speaker 1: I went to college for film.
Speaker 4: Mmm.
Speaker 1: Okay, okay, okay, that's so, yes, it's fine.
Speaker 4: And my boyfriend if he kind of kind of want
Speaker 4: to go to college.
Speaker 1: For so, okay, well tell them not to go into
Speaker 1: debt to do it. Okay, all right, take care of
Speaker 1: did all right?
Speaker 3: Bye?
Speaker 2: Bye?
Speaker 1: Hello?
Speaker 3: Hi? Hi?
Speaker 1: What is your name? My name is Natalie, Natalie. What's up? Natalie?
Speaker 3: Hi? So this is kind of crazy. I've been listening
Speaker 3: to you for like years, so the fact that I
Speaker 3: got on, I've been calling so many times over the
Speaker 3: past few years. So thank you for taking it.
Speaker 1: Yeah, thank you for calling. I'm still pretty I feel
Speaker 1: very honored that after all this time people, I'm still
Speaker 1: getting to talk to new people. So I'm glad to
Speaker 1: be chatting with you too, my friend. What's up?
Speaker 3: So, I'm kind of trying to call you because I've
Speaker 3: been trying to get into I'm applaying for grad school
Speaker 3: right now, and I honestly just don't know if it's
Speaker 3: worth it anymore. I do need your advice.
Speaker 1: I'll try my best. What are you applying for.
Speaker 3: English?
Speaker 1: So you know, I'm okay, what do you want to
Speaker 1: do with your life?
Speaker 3: I want to be a professor, so it's like very niche,
Speaker 3: but you know, I want to get my PhD. And
Speaker 3: I'm just barely getting my bachelor's, so it's like pretty intense.
Speaker 1: Do you need to get your master's? And do you
Speaker 1: need to go to grad school for English to be
Speaker 1: a professor?
Speaker 3: Basically yeah, because I kind of want to do community
Speaker 3: college professor because I live in California, so the community
Speaker 3: college system is pretty good. But I basically need a
Speaker 3: PhD to do anything.
Speaker 1: So why are you on the fence about it?
Speaker 3: I don't know if I'm like ready, I guess I
Speaker 3: don't want to take a gap year, but I feel
Speaker 3: like I asked it for professor basically for a letter
Speaker 3: of recommendation the other day, and they said, while I
Speaker 3: did great, that they just think I should broaden my horizons.
Speaker 1: Basically what they didn't want to give you a letter
Speaker 1: of recommendation.
Speaker 3: Yeah, they basically said, oh, you should try applying to
Speaker 3: other places, but I didn't specify that. I'm just trying
Speaker 3: to come back to our university. But they bless you.
Speaker 3: But I don't know, not.
Speaker 1: Fuck them cold as hell? Not that's cold. No, that's cold.
Speaker 1: That's annoying. No, that's annoying. I'm sorry, that's fucking annoying.
Speaker 1: That's cold. Let's write a letter of recommendation. Jesus Christ.
Speaker 1: Nobody is anyone whoever their professor is is. I really think, uh,
Speaker 1: something's going to get back to them, like, oh, she's
Speaker 1: not going to do well. It's going to reflect poorly
Speaker 1: on me.
Speaker 3: I was like, dude, if I'm asking you for it,
Speaker 3: but you think it's not a good choice, like, that's
Speaker 3: on me for asking you. I guess, just just say
Speaker 3: you don't want to write it. Don't give me this
Speaker 3: long ass email excuse. Just say you don't want to
Speaker 3: write it.
Speaker 4: Now.
Speaker 1: That's a chowd move, I think. But anyway, so whatever,
Speaker 1: who cares?
Speaker 3: What?
Speaker 1: Like, what do you want to fucking do?
Speaker 3: I don't know. I want to become a doctor, like
Speaker 3: have my doctorate because I'm the first of my family
Speaker 3: to go to college. So it's just pretty intense in
Speaker 3: that way.
Speaker 1: While you okay, so I mean you want to be
Speaker 1: an English professor, and I still hold on I Natalie
Speaker 1: is your name, yes, Natalie. I still don't understand why
Speaker 1: you don't want to go. You've said that this is
Speaker 1: what you want to do.
Speaker 3: I think I was just talking to two of my
Speaker 3: friends right before this. I think about it. I think
Speaker 3: it's just that I'm scared that I feel like, what
Speaker 3: if I fail?
Speaker 1: What if you fail?
Speaker 3: What if I fail?
Speaker 1: What if you like if you get bad grades or
Speaker 1: just I.
Speaker 3: Don't even know, or I think I'm also scared of
Speaker 3: the rejection letters that like what if I don't get
Speaker 3: into anywhere, because I'm being kind of selective with them.
Speaker 3: So I think I'm just more about the fact that
Speaker 3: I could get told no, like the professor. That's what
Speaker 3: me know.
Speaker 1: Yeah, but what I mean, what's the alternative is just
Speaker 1: you're not going to do anything.
Speaker 3: I guess, I don't know, take a gap year, become
Speaker 3: like a freaking Starbucks manager. I don't know, dude, I.
Speaker 1: Mean, you can take a gap here and become a
Speaker 1: freaking Starbucks manager.
Speaker 3: Yeah, it's true. I don't know. I think I've just
Speaker 3: been I've been listening to your podcast a lot lately,
Speaker 3: and I've been hearing you talk about life and about
Speaker 3: how you've been like kind of on the fence about it,
Speaker 3: and and just in general, like why are we here?
Speaker 3: And I feel like that's kind of where I'm getting at,
Speaker 3: Like where why am I? What am I doing with
Speaker 3: my life?
Speaker 4: Really?
Speaker 3: I'm twenty two. I don't know. Dude, Like I feel
Speaker 3: like I'm kind of behind.
Speaker 1: Sure, yeah, what do we do with what? I've been
Speaker 1: thinking about this a lot? And maybe this is just
Speaker 1: like a like like a YouTube motivational thing. But well,
Speaker 1: first of all, I think I have it. Like, there
Speaker 1: is a privilege in struggling with what you want to
Speaker 1: do with your life. There's an achievement in that, right
Speaker 1: because you're not you have enough. You can eat food
Speaker 1: and drink water and live in a place and as
Speaker 1: and as a result of that, you get to move
Speaker 1: on to the next level, which is what do I
Speaker 1: want to do with my life? So that's a good
Speaker 1: thing off the bat, you know, that's a nice that's
Speaker 1: a nice position to be in.
Speaker 3: I think that's true. That's a good way to look
Speaker 3: at it.
Speaker 1: So, I mean, what do you do The whole thing
Speaker 1: of like you're afraid that you're going to get rejected,
Speaker 1: is that's a dumb reason not to do something that
Speaker 1: you want to do.
Speaker 3: That's true. That is very that's very true.
Speaker 1: Yeah, No, there's a lot, there's a lot of Uh,
Speaker 1: a smart reason to not want to go to grad
Speaker 1: school is because, uh, you don't want to do it,
Speaker 1: and like your parents are telling you that you should
Speaker 1: do it or like you think you have to.
Speaker 3: No, yeah, that's not bad. That would be different. Thing
Speaker 3: is also money, but you know, usually those are funded.
Speaker 3: So it's like, that's why I'm going into the PhD
Speaker 3: and not masters first, because masters are not usually funded.
Speaker 1: Yeah, you have to go into Are you going? Are
Speaker 1: you taking out loans and ship?
Speaker 3: Yeah, I've already taken out a couple of loans from
Speaker 3: my bachelor's which is, oh, fuck hurting.
Speaker 1: Yeah, so you're going to take out more loans?
Speaker 3: Yeah? And I have Like so I guess that's another
Speaker 3: thing is like the money. I'm already probably like twenty
Speaker 3: thirty k that overall, which hurts.
Speaker 1: And then how much that would you be in after
Speaker 1: you graduate from grad school?
Speaker 3: If I got into a master's program, that could be
Speaker 3: an additional thirty thousand if it was a PhD. Like
Speaker 3: I said, those are usually get funded, so it wouldn't
Speaker 3: be as much money, but it would still be a
Speaker 3: good chunk.
Speaker 1: Okay, And then what do you then? And then the
Speaker 1: only thing you the main thing you want to do
Speaker 1: is be an English professor.
Speaker 3: Yeah, that is pretty much like the goal for me
Speaker 3: because I want to give back to like my community
Speaker 3: college that I came from.
Speaker 1: Okay, uh, look, I don't hate it. I don't hate
Speaker 1: the plan. I don't hate the plan. Yeah, the plan.
Speaker 1: I'm anti debt in general, but like for some shit
Speaker 1: like this where you have to have a degree to
Speaker 1: be a professor, I don't think that that's a horrible
Speaker 1: amount of debt, especially if this is like the career
Speaker 1: you want to get into for you know, a long
Speaker 1: period of time.
Speaker 3: So that's true.
Speaker 1: I really feel I always feel funny on this show
Speaker 1: when I play pretend guidance counselor.
Speaker 3: No, I mean are hearing because it's just hearing you
Speaker 3: talk about it kind of helps me talk through it.
Speaker 3: I guess, Okay, good cool lately, Yeah, because I mean
Speaker 3: I'm reading the chat. Should but I know that I
Speaker 3: don't need a degree to give back to the community necessarily.
Speaker 1: Too. There's that too. If you just want to give
Speaker 1: back to the community, I mean, you can do that
Speaker 1: in a billion different ways. Yeah. So I'm gonna just
Speaker 1: here's what I'm gonna use my official stance upon this. Okay,
Speaker 1: let me give you my official fucking geck laydown, all right,
Speaker 1: you you're afraid of failure, but it doesn't really matter
Speaker 1: because you should just go for it, and then if
Speaker 1: you get accepted into these schools, then greats. And you
Speaker 1: can use that as your vessel for giving back to
Speaker 1: the community. Okay, but if you don't, you don't have
Speaker 1: to cry and be like, oh my god, I can
Speaker 1: never do anything ever in my life is over. You
Speaker 1: can just be like, all right, how are the some
Speaker 1: other ways that I can give back to my community?
Speaker 1: You know, so you're gonna no matter what you will,
Speaker 1: if your goal is that you want to get back
Speaker 1: to the community, you can do that forever, and you
Speaker 1: can do that until you're dead. So don't don't freak
Speaker 1: out about it.
Speaker 3: That's a good point. I didn't think about it. Leave
Speaker 3: that nice.
Speaker 1: Oh man, I've been drinking so much. I'm gonna get
Speaker 1: I'm gonna Can I use some of your call time
Speaker 1: to give a free advertisement?
Speaker 3: Please do? I would love that.
Speaker 1: I'm going to give a free advertise. We do a
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Speaker 3: Okay, that's yeah, that's true.
Speaker 4: I don't know.
Speaker 3: No, no, no, no, no no.
Speaker 1: Your pause of confusion is not lost upon me, because
Speaker 1: there's there's also diet mountain dew. There's diet mountain dew
Speaker 1: and mountain dew zero sugar. I don't know what the
Speaker 1: fucking difference is between those, And there's like pepsi zero sugar.
Speaker 1: There's pepsi zero and like what are they're all the
Speaker 1: same fucking I don't know what the difference between the
Speaker 1: diet and the zero sugar. But anyway, I actually do
Speaker 1: know the difference. If you're curious, Yeah, I am curious.
Speaker 3: What is it? I was just talking to someone about
Speaker 3: this yesterday. Diet drinks. I don't know what the actual
Speaker 3: difference differences, but I know the difference and tastes. The
Speaker 3: difference of diet drinks is there less serrupy and the
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Speaker 1: Know, Natalie, If I could, I'd just give you a
Speaker 1: PhD right now for having explained that I'm endowed by
Speaker 1: no legitimate education board. Unfortunately. Is there anything else do
Speaker 1: you want to say to the people of the computer
Speaker 1: before we go?
Speaker 3: No, just keep on keeping on. I appreciate you taking
Speaker 3: my call again, Lyle. It's been a long time coming.
Speaker 3: And I hope I can go to your live show
Speaker 3: in La Oh.
Speaker 1: Shit, yeah, yeah, come through. It'll be a good time.
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Speaker 1: Jesus Christ, it's I love I love a diet Mountain dew.
Speaker 1: It's so good, it's so good. I don't know, dude,
Speaker 1: I don't know what anyone should do with their life.
Speaker 1: I guess I don't know. Maybe I know things. I'm
Speaker 1: trying to. I'm trying this. It feels like such a
Speaker 1: fucking douchebag, but I'm trying to. I feel like I
Speaker 1: know a little bit. I don't know everything, but like something,
Speaker 1: you just I think deep. I think I know some things,
Speaker 1: but I'm always like I'm a piece of ship. I
Speaker 1: don't know anything. But then I'll like see some kid
Speaker 1: on TikTok or YouTube, and I'll see them talking like
Speaker 1: with authority, like they know things. They're not like saying
Speaker 1: I suck every two seconds and I don't know anything.
Speaker 1: They're like talking as if they know stuff, And I'm like, well,
Speaker 1: that guy's fucking on TikTok talking about like he knows things.
Speaker 1: People listen to my stuff. I know stuff. I think
Speaker 1: I know a couple of things. I don't know everything. No,
Speaker 1: I'm a piece of shit. I don't know anything. I
Speaker 1: don't know any Maybe I know I don't know. I
Speaker 1: feel I know a few Here's what I'll settle on.
Speaker 1: I think I know a few things. I certainly feel
Speaker 1: as though I have lived, experience experience, but as we all,
Speaker 1: as every person alive does. I have thoughts, but they
Speaker 1: just pale in comparison to the everything that I don't know.
Speaker 1: And I think everyone has the same amount of like
Speaker 1: lived experience. I guess everyone of every age maybe, But
Speaker 1: it's not it's not really like a quo like I.
Speaker 1: We're sort of living in this like collective conscious. So
Speaker 1: it's very when you try to like compare the amount
Speaker 1: of things you know to the amount of things somebody
Speaker 1: else's know knows You're it's apples and oranges. Those are
Speaker 1: two different things. You know, They're part of a different
Speaker 1: collective thing. See that right there? Just what did I
Speaker 1: just say? I said they're part of a different collective thing.
Speaker 1: That part didn't. I had me and then I lost
Speaker 1: me when I said that phrase.
Speaker 3: Just now.
Speaker 1: I sometimes I wonder if I can do a whole
Speaker 1: podcast of just ranting into a microphone, no callers. Just
Speaker 1: I wrote that down in my notes at I was like,
Speaker 1: try to do it. I was, that's one of my
Speaker 1: future goals. I want to do one of these podcasts,
Speaker 1: no calls, just ranting, the entire forty forty five minutes
Speaker 1: of ranting. Mark Marin does it. He opens every one
Speaker 1: of his podcasts by just ranting for like by himself
Speaker 1: twelve minutes. I could do that. I could do that
Speaker 1: right now. I could keep this post call thought going
Speaker 1: for another forty minutes. This is all sponsored by Mountain
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Speaker 1: talking for this long. So yeah, maybe I'll do that.
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna do that right now, although this has
Speaker 1: been a long post call thought, and I could keep
Speaker 1: going for an hour, but I don't want to. But
Speaker 1: part of me wants to know. I'm not gonna do
Speaker 1: it right now. I'm gonna if when I do that,
Speaker 1: it's gonna be a conceited it's gonna be a I'm
Speaker 1: gonna I'm gonna sit down knowing that's what I'm gonna
Speaker 1: try to do. I'm not gonna do it spontaneously, all right,
Speaker 1: we have to move on or else I'm gonna keep
Speaker 1: going again.
Speaker 3: Goes on the line, taking your calls every nine never again.
Speaker 1: Goes to teaching to be a line expect