1 00:00:00,440 --> 00:00:04,000 Speaker 1: Hey guys, welcome to another episode of Eating While Broke. 2 00:00:04,120 --> 00:00:06,640 Speaker 1: I'm your host, Coleen Witt, and today we have very 3 00:00:06,680 --> 00:00:12,600 Speaker 1: special guest recording artists, actor influencer, hair dresses, stylists. 4 00:00:12,840 --> 00:00:14,640 Speaker 2: You know, sometimes I'll be doing my hair when I 5 00:00:14,640 --> 00:00:15,880 Speaker 2: feel like but. 6 00:00:17,440 --> 00:00:20,760 Speaker 1: You know, Clerizadas, We're gonna get to know big Boss 7 00:00:20,880 --> 00:00:24,880 Speaker 1: Vet today. So today we are not in Los Angeles. 8 00:00:24,880 --> 00:00:27,160 Speaker 1: We are over here at eighty five South hanging out 9 00:00:27,240 --> 00:00:30,080 Speaker 1: crashing eighty five South Studio. So shout out to y'all. 10 00:00:30,360 --> 00:00:36,800 Speaker 1: Thank you. All right, So I gotta know. I gotta 11 00:00:36,880 --> 00:00:38,720 Speaker 1: know what you were eating when you were. 12 00:00:38,560 --> 00:00:41,400 Speaker 2: Broke and I was broke. 13 00:00:41,720 --> 00:00:44,360 Speaker 1: Well, we kind of grew up with a kind of 14 00:00:44,960 --> 00:00:48,240 Speaker 1: you know, so I used to eat like ketchup. 15 00:00:47,960 --> 00:01:36,520 Speaker 3: Sound we just got to school because yeah. 16 00:01:14,680 --> 00:01:18,399 Speaker 1: I was hungry and tried like I remember when we 17 00:01:18,520 --> 00:01:22,600 Speaker 1: used to have like hot dogs, like picnics and you 18 00:01:22,640 --> 00:01:24,360 Speaker 1: know when you eat all to meet out, but it's 19 00:01:24,360 --> 00:01:26,440 Speaker 1: still like a little bread left or like ketchup on it. 20 00:01:26,440 --> 00:01:27,240 Speaker 2: That party be good. 21 00:01:27,360 --> 00:01:29,720 Speaker 1: So one day I was thinking, I'm like, let's try 22 00:01:29,800 --> 00:01:32,680 Speaker 1: ketchup sew I did, and you came up with it. 23 00:01:33,319 --> 00:01:36,720 Speaker 1: I mean it kind of came but I was like, 24 00:01:36,840 --> 00:01:38,920 Speaker 1: let's try it, and then once I tried it, it 25 00:01:39,040 --> 00:01:41,640 Speaker 1: was good. Okay, we're gonna see how good it taste. 26 00:01:41,680 --> 00:01:43,800 Speaker 1: For at what age was this? 27 00:01:44,040 --> 00:01:45,040 Speaker 2: I was at grade school? 28 00:01:45,280 --> 00:01:48,320 Speaker 1: Grade school? All right, let's do it. Alright, So I'm 29 00:01:48,320 --> 00:01:50,600 Speaker 1: gonna follow your lead. We got to do so, you're. 30 00:01:50,480 --> 00:01:52,280 Speaker 2: Just gonna grab one. 31 00:01:52,360 --> 00:01:53,080 Speaker 1: I will say this. 32 00:01:53,520 --> 00:01:54,800 Speaker 2: You gotta make sure you shake it up. 33 00:01:54,920 --> 00:01:58,560 Speaker 4: Shout outs to you, because I've done almost one hundred 34 00:01:58,640 --> 00:01:59,559 Speaker 4: episodes of this show. 35 00:02:01,200 --> 00:02:04,040 Speaker 1: Better grace of God, I have not done the ketchup 36 00:02:04,080 --> 00:02:09,200 Speaker 1: saying okay, I love how you refer to the you 37 00:02:09,240 --> 00:02:11,320 Speaker 1: know what. I hope they don't. I don't think we 38 00:02:11,400 --> 00:02:14,440 Speaker 1: pulled the go ahead open it. It still got the 39 00:02:14,480 --> 00:02:20,600 Speaker 1: seal on it can't no one has touched the Yeah, yeah, 40 00:02:20,960 --> 00:02:21,760 Speaker 1: hold on, I got nails. 41 00:02:21,800 --> 00:02:22,840 Speaker 2: I don't know if it's gonna do it right. 42 00:02:23,520 --> 00:02:25,919 Speaker 1: I got nails, but your nails look mine a little 43 00:02:25,919 --> 00:02:29,880 Speaker 1: bit more. Yes, watch both of us struggles. 44 00:02:30,720 --> 00:02:32,080 Speaker 2: I mean we kind of got a knife. 45 00:02:32,120 --> 00:02:34,000 Speaker 1: I'm gonna bite it. I'm gonna be that person. 46 00:02:34,080 --> 00:02:36,000 Speaker 2: Guys. I always thinking about buying it, but then my 47 00:02:36,400 --> 00:02:37,760 Speaker 2: lip gloss and line it. 48 00:02:37,760 --> 00:02:39,440 Speaker 1: Is just gonna be Okay, I got it. I gotta go. 49 00:02:39,480 --> 00:02:40,480 Speaker 2: Okay, look, take you out. 50 00:02:40,600 --> 00:02:41,320 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. 51 00:02:41,639 --> 00:02:45,600 Speaker 2: You get it, teamwork. Okay, okay, let's see it. Make 52 00:02:45,639 --> 00:02:47,119 Speaker 2: sure you shake it up because you know that little 53 00:02:47,120 --> 00:02:49,720 Speaker 2: stuff that come off, the little liquid would make you 54 00:02:49,760 --> 00:02:52,040 Speaker 2: not even want the sandwich, and so is watering. 55 00:02:52,080 --> 00:02:55,000 Speaker 1: Now are you doing a lot? Okay, that's how much 56 00:02:55,040 --> 00:02:59,000 Speaker 1: we're supposed to bil Okay, here we go. I got 57 00:02:59,040 --> 00:03:04,079 Speaker 1: so much more, uh admiration for you. So I have 58 00:03:04,200 --> 00:03:06,960 Speaker 1: a little saying I say on this show, is the 59 00:03:06,960 --> 00:03:13,280 Speaker 1: broker the dish, the better the story. Yeah, so I 60 00:03:13,280 --> 00:03:15,800 Speaker 1: don't see you eating this whole sandwich on this show. 61 00:03:15,880 --> 00:03:17,880 Speaker 1: So I'm gonna cheers to our bite. Is it gonna 62 00:03:17,880 --> 00:03:22,119 Speaker 1: We're gonna eat it like butter toast so much sometimes 63 00:03:22,280 --> 00:03:25,359 Speaker 1: I like smash it together and then sometimes I just 64 00:03:26,080 --> 00:03:28,239 Speaker 1: I just like eat it like this, So we don't 65 00:03:28,280 --> 00:03:30,880 Speaker 1: wait would make you feel better. I'm gonna do it. 66 00:03:30,919 --> 00:03:32,400 Speaker 1: I'm gonna che Here we go. 67 00:03:33,400 --> 00:03:36,360 Speaker 2: I haven't ate this in years, okay, or here we go. 68 00:03:36,400 --> 00:03:37,200 Speaker 2: I gotta smelling now. 69 00:03:37,240 --> 00:03:44,200 Speaker 5: Okay, that is another bad and now I ain't gonna 70 00:03:44,240 --> 00:03:46,880 Speaker 5: lie since I ate this New Years, I thought we 71 00:03:46,880 --> 00:03:47,640 Speaker 5: were gonna be like. 72 00:03:48,840 --> 00:03:52,280 Speaker 1: It's actually not bad. I don't know if it's because 73 00:03:52,320 --> 00:03:54,880 Speaker 1: the bread is like Artisian bread, so it's kind of good. 74 00:03:55,640 --> 00:03:59,720 Speaker 1: But this really works. It's nothing bad and I'm gonna 75 00:03:59,720 --> 00:04:02,840 Speaker 1: hate on you eat like one or twoities and technopotyth 76 00:04:03,680 --> 00:04:07,920 Speaker 1: You were fine. You're hilarious. So what was your home 77 00:04:07,920 --> 00:04:08,640 Speaker 1: life looking like? 78 00:04:10,800 --> 00:04:14,560 Speaker 2: So we were like, hmmm, let me shoot his bread up. 79 00:04:15,000 --> 00:04:18,880 Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, I have so much, so much respect for you. 80 00:04:18,960 --> 00:04:22,200 Speaker 1: Just off the sandwich, okay, because I've been broke, but 81 00:04:22,240 --> 00:04:24,000 Speaker 1: I don't know if I've ever been kind of men 82 00:04:27,600 --> 00:04:27,880 Speaker 1: hm hm. 83 00:04:28,640 --> 00:04:32,520 Speaker 2: You were like a lower class family. I don't know, Like. 84 00:04:34,400 --> 00:04:39,400 Speaker 1: We had the things we needed, but never what we wanted. Well, 85 00:04:39,400 --> 00:04:43,560 Speaker 1: sometimes we wanted, but not a lot. You know. My 86 00:04:43,600 --> 00:04:47,719 Speaker 1: grandmother basically took the road of my dad, and I 87 00:04:47,760 --> 00:04:49,960 Speaker 1: had my mom as well, so they were like co parenting. 88 00:04:50,400 --> 00:04:53,120 Speaker 1: I was back and forth to the houses. Did you 89 00:04:53,120 --> 00:04:56,240 Speaker 1: grow up with your dad at all? Or okay, you 90 00:04:56,279 --> 00:04:59,080 Speaker 1: meet him or no, you never met him? I mean 91 00:04:59,120 --> 00:05:00,640 Speaker 1: I have met him, but we don't we don't like 92 00:05:00,680 --> 00:05:05,760 Speaker 1: talk with anything. So I lived with my mama for 93 00:05:05,839 --> 00:05:09,600 Speaker 1: like the school year and like coming home from like school, 94 00:05:09,720 --> 00:05:11,920 Speaker 1: if we ain't have food, which. 95 00:05:13,240 --> 00:05:14,760 Speaker 2: It used to be food that we have to cook 96 00:05:15,600 --> 00:05:16,480 Speaker 2: and we kids don't. 97 00:05:16,520 --> 00:05:19,080 Speaker 1: We don't know how to cook, so we would resort to, 98 00:05:19,400 --> 00:05:20,280 Speaker 1: you know, things like this. 99 00:05:21,400 --> 00:05:22,720 Speaker 2: Or I would go to my neighbor house. 100 00:05:23,880 --> 00:05:26,720 Speaker 1: We used to call her Big Mama because she didn't 101 00:05:26,760 --> 00:05:30,360 Speaker 1: like being called granny, but she she was she was 102 00:05:30,480 --> 00:05:34,240 Speaker 1: she was like an older lady and I used to 103 00:05:34,279 --> 00:05:37,599 Speaker 1: hang with her grandkids. So I used to go to 104 00:05:37,600 --> 00:05:40,000 Speaker 1: her house like I'm hungry, can I can I have something? 105 00:05:40,120 --> 00:05:42,479 Speaker 1: And she would like give me soups, some soups, or 106 00:05:42,480 --> 00:05:44,920 Speaker 1: she would make me like sandwiches. But I didn't want 107 00:05:44,920 --> 00:05:46,800 Speaker 1: to like always ask her for stuff because I didn't. 108 00:05:46,800 --> 00:05:48,440 Speaker 1: I didn't want her to ask, Mama, like you need 109 00:05:48,480 --> 00:05:51,240 Speaker 1: even to help you, you know. So it was that 110 00:05:53,040 --> 00:05:56,000 Speaker 1: the middle school that I went to like every day 111 00:05:56,000 --> 00:05:58,480 Speaker 1: in recess, so I had so I had like this 112 00:05:58,560 --> 00:06:00,520 Speaker 1: rap group or whatever. We would do like battles in 113 00:06:00,560 --> 00:06:04,800 Speaker 1: them and we were win because I you know. And 114 00:06:04,839 --> 00:06:07,120 Speaker 1: then one day I came home and I told my 115 00:06:07,160 --> 00:06:09,680 Speaker 1: mom and them, I'm like I want to be a rapper, 116 00:06:09,720 --> 00:06:11,800 Speaker 1: and it was like you can't rap. I'm like, yeah 117 00:06:11,839 --> 00:06:13,400 Speaker 1: I can, So I can pulled out this paper this 118 00:06:13,480 --> 00:06:16,600 Speaker 1: filled with just like like raps on that and I 119 00:06:16,640 --> 00:06:18,640 Speaker 1: was like reading it to them and then some my 120 00:06:18,760 --> 00:06:25,200 Speaker 1: uh so, my stepdad he was like, you have a 121 00:06:25,200 --> 00:06:27,640 Speaker 1: lot of verses, but you have to make a hook. 122 00:06:27,800 --> 00:06:29,720 Speaker 1: Because because he didn't have a hook, I guess I 123 00:06:29,720 --> 00:06:31,080 Speaker 1: didn't even know what the hook was. I was just 124 00:06:31,120 --> 00:06:33,760 Speaker 1: writing around like I was in grade school. 125 00:06:33,760 --> 00:06:35,120 Speaker 2: How old are you in grade school? 126 00:06:36,680 --> 00:06:39,560 Speaker 1: It was like from like grade school from what I 127 00:06:39,560 --> 00:06:43,479 Speaker 1: can remember, it was like like second to like fifth. Okay, 128 00:06:43,800 --> 00:06:45,559 Speaker 1: so you started young at rapper? 129 00:06:45,600 --> 00:06:46,760 Speaker 2: Okay, yeah, I was young. 130 00:06:47,880 --> 00:06:49,839 Speaker 1: Who was who was you looking up to at that point? 131 00:06:50,800 --> 00:06:52,120 Speaker 1: I'm going to put you on to rap? 132 00:06:52,279 --> 00:06:54,960 Speaker 2: Like you know what? Like, I didn't like nobody in 133 00:06:54,960 --> 00:06:56,880 Speaker 2: my family really listened to music that much. 134 00:06:56,960 --> 00:06:59,479 Speaker 1: It was just like the radio or like so my 135 00:06:59,560 --> 00:07:02,120 Speaker 1: dad he would like have like these music videos, but 136 00:07:02,120 --> 00:07:04,960 Speaker 1: I wouldn't really like pay attention to them. It'll it'll 137 00:07:05,080 --> 00:07:07,039 Speaker 1: just be something to like watch while we're in a 138 00:07:07,040 --> 00:07:09,600 Speaker 1: car or something and just be it. You know, it'll 139 00:07:09,640 --> 00:07:12,720 Speaker 1: like blow over. But as far as doing music, like, 140 00:07:12,960 --> 00:07:15,000 Speaker 1: I don't, I don't know. I just could do it. 141 00:07:15,160 --> 00:07:16,160 Speaker 1: So it was just something I did. 142 00:07:16,200 --> 00:07:22,320 Speaker 2: You know, But were there particular rappers that inspired you? Hmmm? 143 00:07:23,800 --> 00:07:26,400 Speaker 1: I just used to like songs, so like, no, not really. 144 00:07:26,480 --> 00:07:28,800 Speaker 1: I just used to listen to the radio. Then I 145 00:07:28,880 --> 00:07:31,240 Speaker 1: then I would hear the beat. Then I would come 146 00:07:31,320 --> 00:07:33,680 Speaker 1: up with a different cadence to it. And that's how 147 00:07:33,720 --> 00:07:41,880 Speaker 1: it happened. Okay, So literally after that, I kind of 148 00:07:41,920 --> 00:07:45,760 Speaker 1: didn't have like I didn't have the family that would 149 00:07:45,840 --> 00:07:47,880 Speaker 1: be like, Okay, since you want to be a rapper, 150 00:07:48,440 --> 00:07:52,800 Speaker 1: we're gonna try to end in vesting you like this 151 00:07:53,040 --> 00:07:54,960 Speaker 1: or teach you that. Like I didn't have nobody to 152 00:07:55,000 --> 00:07:57,320 Speaker 1: teach that. Everything that I know now you know, I 153 00:07:57,320 --> 00:08:03,560 Speaker 1: have to go through it. And I really stopped rapping. 154 00:08:03,920 --> 00:08:05,040 Speaker 2: I started doing hair. 155 00:08:06,280 --> 00:08:08,360 Speaker 1: I wouldn't take me back to the hook. So he 156 00:08:08,440 --> 00:08:10,720 Speaker 1: mentions that you need to know what a hook is. Yeah, 157 00:08:11,160 --> 00:08:14,960 Speaker 1: and he just told me, like a hook is something 158 00:08:14,960 --> 00:08:18,679 Speaker 1: that would catch everybody's attention for the song. And I'm like, okay, 159 00:08:19,200 --> 00:08:21,040 Speaker 1: kind of brush it off and was just steady doing 160 00:08:21,080 --> 00:08:23,840 Speaker 1: you know what we were doing in like recess and 161 00:08:23,880 --> 00:08:24,280 Speaker 1: all that. 162 00:08:24,520 --> 00:08:28,240 Speaker 2: And then. 163 00:08:28,560 --> 00:08:32,080 Speaker 1: It really did not go further after that because I 164 00:08:32,120 --> 00:08:34,240 Speaker 1: went to middle school, I started growing up. 165 00:08:34,280 --> 00:08:35,120 Speaker 2: I started having friends. 166 00:08:35,120 --> 00:08:37,120 Speaker 1: I started going to their houses because you know, they 167 00:08:37,160 --> 00:08:39,120 Speaker 1: had a lot of stuff. They had freedom too, Like 168 00:08:39,160 --> 00:08:41,600 Speaker 1: I didn't really have freedom growing up. My mom really 169 00:08:41,720 --> 00:08:46,000 Speaker 1: was like kind of street, you know. So as I 170 00:08:46,040 --> 00:08:47,720 Speaker 1: was making friends, I had thought that I was gonna 171 00:08:47,720 --> 00:08:50,440 Speaker 1: do hair because I used to do my hair because 172 00:08:50,920 --> 00:08:52,080 Speaker 1: I used to always want to look pretty. 173 00:08:52,080 --> 00:08:53,360 Speaker 2: But we couldn't afford nobody to do it. 174 00:08:53,880 --> 00:08:56,160 Speaker 1: So I started doing mine, and then my friends like, oh, 175 00:08:56,200 --> 00:08:58,000 Speaker 1: keep do mine, and I started doing thirst, and then 176 00:08:58,640 --> 00:09:01,000 Speaker 1: I just started doing hair for free, and my mom 177 00:09:01,160 --> 00:09:04,480 Speaker 1: was like, you're not gonna keep on doing her for free. 178 00:09:04,480 --> 00:09:07,000 Speaker 1: You gotta charge them something. So like, for like really 179 00:09:07,040 --> 00:09:09,400 Speaker 1: long skinny box braids, I used charged like thirty. 180 00:09:09,200 --> 00:09:11,360 Speaker 2: Five dollars and she was still, man, I'm like. 181 00:09:11,320 --> 00:09:14,840 Speaker 1: I'm charging But where were you learning how to do 182 00:09:14,880 --> 00:09:19,000 Speaker 1: the hair from YouTube? Oh? You were youtubecause YouTube learning. Okay, 183 00:09:19,200 --> 00:09:24,160 Speaker 1: so like this was middle school now, So I'm doing 184 00:09:24,200 --> 00:09:26,640 Speaker 1: box braids for thirty five dollars. 185 00:09:27,000 --> 00:09:27,920 Speaker 2: Mm oh yeah. 186 00:09:27,960 --> 00:09:29,840 Speaker 1: If I was doing my mom, i'd be like what yeah, 187 00:09:29,880 --> 00:09:31,720 Speaker 1: But I didn't understand why she was so mad back then. 188 00:09:31,760 --> 00:09:33,559 Speaker 1: I'm like, you said, charge him, I'm charging him. She's 189 00:09:33,559 --> 00:09:36,280 Speaker 1: like I'm like what I want charged? 190 00:09:36,360 --> 00:09:39,880 Speaker 2: Like, and like, you know, it was just something to do. 191 00:09:39,920 --> 00:09:42,760 Speaker 2: It was just fun. So I was doing that. 192 00:09:42,840 --> 00:09:44,680 Speaker 1: Then I had started doing like quick weaves and stuff, 193 00:09:44,679 --> 00:09:45,960 Speaker 1: but of course I didn't know what I was doing, 194 00:09:45,960 --> 00:09:48,160 Speaker 1: so I was like yanking my hair out, but I was. 195 00:09:48,160 --> 00:09:50,199 Speaker 2: Still putting week back in my hair because I'm like, 196 00:09:50,240 --> 00:09:51,280 Speaker 2: get I'll learn someway, you know. 197 00:09:52,760 --> 00:09:55,640 Speaker 1: And then I started getting in trouble, like I got 198 00:09:55,679 --> 00:09:59,320 Speaker 1: put out, like my eight grade year, like and your mom, no, 199 00:09:59,400 --> 00:10:01,120 Speaker 1: put out of school? Oh god, so I can put 200 00:10:01,120 --> 00:10:08,160 Speaker 1: out school? And for what the fighting? You fighting? What 201 00:10:10,160 --> 00:10:12,640 Speaker 1: back in the day you was fighting? Girls? 202 00:10:12,840 --> 00:10:15,720 Speaker 2: Yeah? Girls, teachers. 203 00:10:16,240 --> 00:10:19,240 Speaker 1: The teacher fighters got me put out. Yeah, the teacher 204 00:10:19,240 --> 00:10:20,280 Speaker 1: fighters got me put out. 205 00:10:20,360 --> 00:10:21,280 Speaker 2: Actually make you. 206 00:10:21,240 --> 00:10:23,040 Speaker 1: Hit the teacher? Did you hit a teacher? 207 00:10:23,400 --> 00:10:24,360 Speaker 2: They hit me first. 208 00:10:24,760 --> 00:10:27,160 Speaker 1: That's hilarious. What do you mean they hit you from? 209 00:10:27,280 --> 00:10:31,640 Speaker 1: Because okay, okay, so we were I was I was 210 00:10:31,720 --> 00:10:35,000 Speaker 1: leaving art class and some girls were like argument. 211 00:10:35,080 --> 00:10:36,440 Speaker 2: But I didn't even like them girls. I was just 212 00:10:36,440 --> 00:10:37,320 Speaker 2: gonna watch them fight. 213 00:10:37,679 --> 00:10:39,480 Speaker 1: All of a sudden, So my cousin trying to be 214 00:10:39,600 --> 00:10:43,520 Speaker 1: like a superman and get in the middle because I 215 00:10:43,520 --> 00:10:45,560 Speaker 1: guess she liked one of the girls and did not 216 00:10:45,679 --> 00:10:46,280 Speaker 1: like the other ones. 217 00:10:46,320 --> 00:10:48,000 Speaker 2: So it was like trying to like be petty, and 218 00:10:48,040 --> 00:10:49,880 Speaker 2: I'm like, no, you need to move out the way 219 00:10:49,880 --> 00:10:50,640 Speaker 2: and let them fight. 220 00:10:50,800 --> 00:10:53,000 Speaker 1: And then as I'm moving her out the way, the 221 00:10:53,040 --> 00:10:54,839 Speaker 1: girl that I don't like, I don't I didn't like 222 00:10:54,960 --> 00:10:57,360 Speaker 1: nan one of them. So the so one of them 223 00:10:57,400 --> 00:10:58,880 Speaker 1: tried to hit the other girl want to paint in 224 00:10:58,880 --> 00:11:00,679 Speaker 1: my cousin. So now it's like, okay, now now I 225 00:11:00,679 --> 00:11:06,440 Speaker 1: gotta beat you up, you see, my cousin. So as 226 00:11:07,160 --> 00:11:10,320 Speaker 1: as real fighting, you know, people like teachers is like 227 00:11:10,360 --> 00:11:12,079 Speaker 1: grabbing us and stuff. But like I always used to 228 00:11:12,120 --> 00:11:14,120 Speaker 1: be like a little wiggily worm, like I can, I 229 00:11:14,160 --> 00:11:15,000 Speaker 1: can get out of anything. 230 00:11:15,040 --> 00:11:16,480 Speaker 2: You're not gonna hold me too long. 231 00:11:16,920 --> 00:11:19,040 Speaker 1: So I didn't drop down and went back to the 232 00:11:19,080 --> 00:11:21,760 Speaker 1: girl and started beating her up. And then this art 233 00:11:21,840 --> 00:11:25,040 Speaker 1: teacher she was not kind of you know, a little big. 234 00:11:25,280 --> 00:11:27,440 Speaker 2: She just gonna push me to the wall. Like she 235 00:11:27,559 --> 00:11:29,120 Speaker 2: wasn't even trying to break up the fight. She just 236 00:11:29,160 --> 00:11:31,160 Speaker 2: pushed me to the wall. When I looked, it was like, 237 00:11:33,880 --> 00:11:35,280 Speaker 2: you know the teacher. 238 00:11:35,120 --> 00:11:38,920 Speaker 1: Yeah, because you say do like multiple yes, yes, hilarious. 239 00:11:39,440 --> 00:11:41,280 Speaker 2: I thought she was jumping in the hair or something. 240 00:11:41,360 --> 00:11:43,000 Speaker 2: It was like, you know, so. 241 00:11:44,480 --> 00:11:48,920 Speaker 1: As I'm booping her, you know, my cousin comes and 242 00:11:48,960 --> 00:11:57,360 Speaker 1: start booping her too sore and yeah, so boom it 243 00:11:57,520 --> 00:12:01,400 Speaker 1: was that kicked out. Actually only me and my cousin 244 00:12:01,480 --> 00:12:03,040 Speaker 1: got kicked out, not the two girls that was gonna 245 00:12:03,080 --> 00:12:04,920 Speaker 1: fight and they jumping the teacher. 246 00:12:04,920 --> 00:12:09,040 Speaker 2: It sounds like we were. 247 00:12:08,280 --> 00:12:11,680 Speaker 1: Okay, okay, so yeah, so boom that that was the 248 00:12:11,679 --> 00:12:15,000 Speaker 1: start of me just getting put out of school because 249 00:12:15,000 --> 00:12:17,000 Speaker 1: at that point it was it was like I was 250 00:12:17,040 --> 00:12:18,880 Speaker 1: like a minute, like I was just like, you know what, 251 00:12:18,960 --> 00:12:21,160 Speaker 1: I don't care, you know, I didn't I didn't care, 252 00:12:21,280 --> 00:12:26,520 Speaker 1: So then like I didn't really have like guidance, what 253 00:12:26,600 --> 00:12:28,400 Speaker 1: did your mom say when you get kicked out? For him? 254 00:12:28,440 --> 00:12:33,040 Speaker 1: And teaching well being as though that it was my 255 00:12:33,120 --> 00:12:35,679 Speaker 1: cousin fight that I jumped into. It was like they 256 00:12:35,720 --> 00:12:38,440 Speaker 1: always tell us like, if you watch somebody beat up 257 00:12:38,440 --> 00:12:41,840 Speaker 1: your cousin, your sibling, then when you get home, we're 258 00:12:41,880 --> 00:12:42,520 Speaker 1: gonna whoop you. 259 00:12:43,080 --> 00:12:45,720 Speaker 2: So I was like, y'all told me to jump at 260 00:12:45,720 --> 00:12:46,840 Speaker 2: our fights. What are you talking about? 261 00:12:46,880 --> 00:12:47,080 Speaker 1: You know? 262 00:12:47,320 --> 00:12:49,600 Speaker 2: So I kind of kind of slid with that, And 263 00:12:49,640 --> 00:12:50,480 Speaker 2: when I told. 264 00:12:50,280 --> 00:12:52,320 Speaker 1: Them that the teacher pushed me, they wouldn't even bring 265 00:12:52,440 --> 00:12:54,080 Speaker 1: up that video, like they were like, oh, so our 266 00:12:54,080 --> 00:12:56,520 Speaker 1: cameras broke your lying show hard that you pushed me, 267 00:12:57,000 --> 00:13:00,280 Speaker 1: and that's why it happened like that, but for broke 268 00:13:00,360 --> 00:13:03,480 Speaker 1: quote unquote, you know, and then that kind of didn't 269 00:13:03,559 --> 00:13:07,120 Speaker 1: Then then then in there either we had thought we 270 00:13:07,120 --> 00:13:09,800 Speaker 1: were actually walking back to the classroom because things got rowdy, 271 00:13:09,920 --> 00:13:12,280 Speaker 1: so you know, we kind of squazed out of the 272 00:13:12,280 --> 00:13:13,760 Speaker 1: group and tried to walk back to our classroom and 273 00:13:13,760 --> 00:13:16,000 Speaker 1: actually got brought out our classroom like no, you hit me, 274 00:13:16,080 --> 00:13:20,480 Speaker 1: and I'm like I did. And in the office we 275 00:13:20,480 --> 00:13:22,280 Speaker 1: were like plotting to get the girl again and did 276 00:13:22,320 --> 00:13:24,040 Speaker 1: not know that they were in her listening to it. 277 00:13:24,240 --> 00:13:26,280 Speaker 1: So it was it was odd that written up in 278 00:13:26,280 --> 00:13:29,280 Speaker 1: the stavement and I was just like, you guys won, okay. 279 00:13:29,880 --> 00:13:33,920 Speaker 1: And after that, I was just like I don't care, 280 00:13:34,080 --> 00:13:36,040 Speaker 1: you know. I once I turned to school and I 281 00:13:36,080 --> 00:13:37,800 Speaker 1: was started for like three hours, and I was the 282 00:13:37,880 --> 00:13:41,360 Speaker 1: youngest youngest one there, and I'm just like, it's cool, 283 00:13:41,559 --> 00:13:43,320 Speaker 1: Like I ain't I gotta go to school four day. 284 00:13:43,320 --> 00:13:45,120 Speaker 1: I gotta see these folks, I gotta talk to them 285 00:13:45,200 --> 00:13:48,840 Speaker 1: because we did everything on our computers. 286 00:13:48,880 --> 00:13:49,679 Speaker 2: And I'm like, okay. 287 00:13:50,679 --> 00:13:54,040 Speaker 1: So my first year, they led me back into regular 288 00:13:54,080 --> 00:13:58,120 Speaker 1: school and this is when I started back doing covers 289 00:13:58,120 --> 00:14:02,080 Speaker 1: again because I was seeing girls on Facebook go go 290 00:14:02,320 --> 00:14:04,960 Speaker 1: viral for just sitting in the cars wrapping, and I'm like, well, 291 00:14:04,960 --> 00:14:06,320 Speaker 1: I don't have a car, so I can just pop 292 00:14:06,360 --> 00:14:09,560 Speaker 1: my Oh. So I didn't have have a phone that 293 00:14:09,720 --> 00:14:12,560 Speaker 1: was on. I think either I found the phone somewhere 294 00:14:12,720 --> 00:14:14,679 Speaker 1: or I actually like saved the way you like body 295 00:14:15,120 --> 00:14:17,600 Speaker 1: from like doing hair. So I used to prop my 296 00:14:17,640 --> 00:14:20,440 Speaker 1: phone up and like play a beat off of my 297 00:14:20,520 --> 00:14:22,240 Speaker 1: TV because I had like a little game. And then 298 00:14:22,240 --> 00:14:24,040 Speaker 1: I go to YouTube and I play the beat and 299 00:14:24,160 --> 00:14:28,040 Speaker 1: I used to do covers. My first cove I did. 300 00:14:27,880 --> 00:14:31,200 Speaker 1: I did not have no beat to it. I did 301 00:14:31,200 --> 00:14:33,520 Speaker 1: it a capella and it was to the Day's Long 302 00:14:33,600 --> 00:14:36,720 Speaker 1: try Me. And I posted it at like seven something, 303 00:14:36,760 --> 00:14:38,720 Speaker 1: and I woke up the next morning totally forgot that 304 00:14:38,760 --> 00:14:41,760 Speaker 1: I posted a video. I'm in class posting a picture 305 00:14:41,840 --> 00:14:43,680 Speaker 1: knowing I ain't got no being to doing it posting 306 00:14:43,680 --> 00:14:48,920 Speaker 1: a picture and it got like a thousand and some 307 00:14:49,360 --> 00:14:54,000 Speaker 1: likes in like thirty minutes. I'm like, go on, and 308 00:14:55,400 --> 00:14:57,920 Speaker 1: I posted a second picture. I'm like, let me see 309 00:14:57,920 --> 00:15:00,760 Speaker 1: if it's gonna do it again, And when it did 310 00:15:00,800 --> 00:15:04,840 Speaker 1: it again, I'm like, so I'm going through the notifications 311 00:15:04,880 --> 00:15:06,880 Speaker 1: and I realized that the video that I posted the 312 00:15:06,960 --> 00:15:09,800 Speaker 1: night prior is viral. So they're like, oh my gosh, 313 00:15:09,800 --> 00:15:13,200 Speaker 1: you're so pretty. We didn't know you can rap, you 314 00:15:13,240 --> 00:15:16,840 Speaker 1: can sing too, And I'm like, oh my god. And 315 00:15:16,880 --> 00:15:19,480 Speaker 1: now looking back on that video, I looked at like crazy, 316 00:15:19,560 --> 00:15:22,000 Speaker 1: like I had some really fat box braids in my head, 317 00:15:22,320 --> 00:15:25,120 Speaker 1: I had some bright pink lipstick, some really big eyelashes. 318 00:15:25,200 --> 00:15:27,480 Speaker 2: I'm like, y'all like that great? Okay. 319 00:15:27,840 --> 00:15:30,520 Speaker 1: So after that, I just kept going viral, doing during 320 00:15:30,560 --> 00:15:35,760 Speaker 1: covers and all that. And so my cousin, my cousin 321 00:15:35,960 --> 00:15:39,520 Speaker 1: who I got into that fight with ed in middle school, 322 00:15:39,560 --> 00:15:43,440 Speaker 1: she actually passed away the beginning of our senior and 323 00:15:43,480 --> 00:15:46,720 Speaker 1: that sent me right off the right, off the rails 324 00:15:46,760 --> 00:15:50,560 Speaker 1: and the like. Before the school year was over. On 325 00:15:50,600 --> 00:15:53,400 Speaker 1: our junior year, we got into a fight like the 326 00:15:53,480 --> 00:15:55,800 Speaker 1: last week of school, thinking like, oh, guys, I gotta 327 00:15:55,800 --> 00:15:59,760 Speaker 1: put us out. They put me out and I have 328 00:15:59,880 --> 00:16:03,240 Speaker 1: to start my senior year and altern to school. And 329 00:16:03,320 --> 00:16:04,920 Speaker 1: she was supposed to go to regular school, but she 330 00:16:04,960 --> 00:16:10,000 Speaker 1: never was able to start school because she died. So, yeah, 331 00:16:10,040 --> 00:16:15,960 Speaker 1: what you don't mind asking, I never seen the autopsy, 332 00:16:16,040 --> 00:16:18,360 Speaker 1: so I couldn't tell you to be honest. It was 333 00:16:18,480 --> 00:16:20,520 Speaker 1: a lot of crazy things going on around his time, 334 00:16:21,320 --> 00:16:25,200 Speaker 1: so they like send me off the rails, and I didn't. 335 00:16:25,240 --> 00:16:27,000 Speaker 1: I didn't cry about life. I didn't cary about nothing. 336 00:16:28,080 --> 00:16:30,800 Speaker 1: That's when I was always outside of fighting. I was 337 00:16:31,680 --> 00:16:34,520 Speaker 1: really going to school, like I don't know how I 338 00:16:34,520 --> 00:16:37,160 Speaker 1: finished my senior to did your mom think to put 339 00:16:37,200 --> 00:16:40,240 Speaker 1: you in therapy or anything to deal with that? To 340 00:16:40,280 --> 00:16:44,680 Speaker 1: be honest, no, no, like I didn't. I didn't have 341 00:16:44,760 --> 00:16:47,760 Speaker 1: the type of family they would say, hey, we see 342 00:16:47,800 --> 00:16:49,680 Speaker 1: that you're going through something, let's go get your help. 343 00:16:49,720 --> 00:16:53,200 Speaker 1: You know, it would it would just be, oh, she's 344 00:16:53,240 --> 00:16:54,040 Speaker 1: just disrespectful. 345 00:16:54,080 --> 00:16:54,800 Speaker 2: Oh she's just she. 346 00:16:54,880 --> 00:16:59,160 Speaker 1: Just after your cousin passing. They didn't see like the 347 00:17:00,080 --> 00:17:02,520 Speaker 1: I think I became very fear like, like because I 348 00:17:02,560 --> 00:17:05,760 Speaker 1: didn't fear nothing, so I was willing to do anything. 349 00:17:05,880 --> 00:17:10,280 Speaker 1: And people who are very unpredictable you would stay away 350 00:17:10,320 --> 00:17:12,120 Speaker 1: from because you don't know what they're capable of. And 351 00:17:12,160 --> 00:17:14,040 Speaker 1: that's kind of what my family did. They stayed away 352 00:17:14,040 --> 00:17:15,880 Speaker 1: from me because it was like if you don't want 353 00:17:15,880 --> 00:17:21,800 Speaker 1: to deal with her, you know. And she died August fourteenth, 354 00:17:22,160 --> 00:17:26,119 Speaker 1: and that like for the whole year, I was going crazy, 355 00:17:26,160 --> 00:17:27,919 Speaker 1: like I was. I was drinking, I was smoking, I 356 00:17:27,960 --> 00:17:30,439 Speaker 1: was really going to school. I was always fighting, and 357 00:17:30,480 --> 00:17:32,760 Speaker 1: you were in high school at this point. Yeah, And 358 00:17:32,800 --> 00:17:37,359 Speaker 1: then I graduated how I don't know, I don't know, 359 00:17:37,440 --> 00:17:42,280 Speaker 1: but I did it, you know. And it still didn't 360 00:17:42,280 --> 00:17:44,879 Speaker 1: stop there, you know. I was still Yeah, I was 361 00:17:44,920 --> 00:17:48,320 Speaker 1: still going crazy. And are you still doing your upkeep 362 00:17:48,400 --> 00:17:52,639 Speaker 1: with the online stuff? Yes this point. So, so at 363 00:17:52,640 --> 00:17:55,600 Speaker 1: this point, people are following me because I'm I'm a 364 00:17:55,720 --> 00:17:56,520 Speaker 1: drama magnet. 365 00:17:56,720 --> 00:17:59,440 Speaker 2: Like it's like always something going on. So they're like, oh, 366 00:17:59,800 --> 00:18:01,320 Speaker 2: she she's going to fight, Let me follow her. Oh 367 00:18:01,359 --> 00:18:02,760 Speaker 2: she's allregu let me, you know. 368 00:18:02,840 --> 00:18:07,840 Speaker 1: So it's so they're tuning in because of the darkness 369 00:18:07,840 --> 00:18:15,560 Speaker 1: that was around, you know. And August fourteenth, a year later, 370 00:18:17,800 --> 00:18:20,360 Speaker 1: I was I'm always to a fight, and I got 371 00:18:20,359 --> 00:18:24,920 Speaker 1: shy and I'm on your way to a fight. Nah 372 00:18:24,960 --> 00:18:26,800 Speaker 1: at the fight. I got shy at the fight. It 373 00:18:26,880 --> 00:18:29,760 Speaker 1: was supposed long story, it was supposed to be a fight. 374 00:18:29,880 --> 00:18:30,920 Speaker 1: It was, but it was not a fight. 375 00:18:31,200 --> 00:18:32,680 Speaker 2: I got shy, and. 376 00:18:35,040 --> 00:18:37,280 Speaker 1: I'm so at this time, so I so I have 377 00:18:37,320 --> 00:18:39,439 Speaker 1: my own car and I'm trying to like drive myself 378 00:18:39,480 --> 00:18:40,119 Speaker 1: to like the hospital. 379 00:18:40,160 --> 00:18:41,600 Speaker 2: But I couldn't because every time that. 380 00:18:41,520 --> 00:18:45,360 Speaker 1: I would try to drive, my my hand would come 381 00:18:45,359 --> 00:18:47,080 Speaker 1: off the wound and I will start bleeding. 382 00:18:47,600 --> 00:18:49,199 Speaker 2: So my cousin had to drive me. 383 00:18:49,400 --> 00:18:54,320 Speaker 1: And I'm like thinking to myself, I'm like, okay, it's 384 00:18:54,320 --> 00:18:55,840 Speaker 1: I'm funn to go be with my cousin at this point, 385 00:18:55,880 --> 00:18:58,640 Speaker 1: you know, I'm like whatever, I don't care, like it's 386 00:18:58,640 --> 00:19:00,840 Speaker 1: time for me to go. And then I'm just hearing 387 00:19:01,119 --> 00:19:03,040 Speaker 1: her voice, you know, she like, no, you're not, No, 388 00:19:03,160 --> 00:19:06,679 Speaker 1: you're not, and I don't know, you know, Like I 389 00:19:06,680 --> 00:19:08,680 Speaker 1: started calling on my family. I'm like, I got shot. 390 00:19:08,800 --> 00:19:10,440 Speaker 1: They're like, no, you didn't, because it's like I used 391 00:19:10,440 --> 00:19:11,960 Speaker 1: to have very dark he went back in it, like 392 00:19:12,400 --> 00:19:14,240 Speaker 1: I mean, I kind of still have dark hement with it. 393 00:19:14,280 --> 00:19:15,880 Speaker 1: Would they would be put because people don't like dark 394 00:19:15,920 --> 00:19:19,920 Speaker 1: human anymore. I'm like, I seriously got shot and we're 395 00:19:19,920 --> 00:19:21,679 Speaker 1: like show you. So I would show them and they 396 00:19:21,720 --> 00:19:25,440 Speaker 1: were like you like now, it's like, oh my god. 397 00:19:26,520 --> 00:19:29,119 Speaker 1: They they drove me to the hospital. I was I 398 00:19:29,160 --> 00:19:31,800 Speaker 1: was put on blackout. Did not know what it was 399 00:19:31,880 --> 00:19:32,160 Speaker 1: at all. 400 00:19:32,200 --> 00:19:32,840 Speaker 2: What is that? 401 00:19:33,080 --> 00:19:33,159 Speaker 3: So? 402 00:19:33,359 --> 00:19:37,240 Speaker 1: Blackout is when you get shot but you survive. They 403 00:19:37,240 --> 00:19:40,199 Speaker 1: don't know if whoever come back. They don't know if 404 00:19:40,240 --> 00:19:42,320 Speaker 1: whoever shot you is going to come back to to 405 00:19:42,359 --> 00:19:46,639 Speaker 1: try to kill you, so they won't say what hospital 406 00:19:46,640 --> 00:19:47,000 Speaker 1: you are at? 407 00:19:47,480 --> 00:19:48,720 Speaker 2: Can nobody come and see you? 408 00:19:49,520 --> 00:19:49,680 Speaker 3: Oh? 409 00:19:49,800 --> 00:19:51,480 Speaker 1: So like when your family went to look for you 410 00:19:51,520 --> 00:19:54,760 Speaker 1: to could they couldn't find you? Yeah, And basically they 411 00:19:54,800 --> 00:19:57,080 Speaker 1: only found me because they tracked my phone because they 412 00:19:57,760 --> 00:20:01,600 Speaker 1: had my location, and and the hospital still didn't even 413 00:20:01,640 --> 00:20:03,159 Speaker 1: want to let them in because they were like, we 414 00:20:03,160 --> 00:20:05,679 Speaker 1: don't know if you are family. At that point, I 415 00:20:05,760 --> 00:20:07,840 Speaker 1: was sedated because me and the doctor actually got intour 416 00:20:07,960 --> 00:20:11,560 Speaker 1: because she was being very rough trying to clean my wound. 417 00:20:11,640 --> 00:20:13,359 Speaker 1: I'm like, give me the God, and she was like, 418 00:20:13,400 --> 00:20:13,919 Speaker 1: you can't do that. 419 00:20:14,000 --> 00:20:15,000 Speaker 2: So I grabbed it from her. 420 00:20:15,119 --> 00:20:16,680 Speaker 1: Wait where was your wound? Exactly? 421 00:20:17,920 --> 00:20:21,720 Speaker 2: I had to take whoever now? Oh wow, So we're like. 422 00:20:21,760 --> 00:20:24,879 Speaker 1: So you was like it better than you can so 423 00:20:24,880 --> 00:20:28,000 Speaker 1: so so she's like trying to like she's right here, 424 00:20:28,119 --> 00:20:30,080 Speaker 1: and I'm like, give me the God. 425 00:20:30,119 --> 00:20:31,119 Speaker 2: So I grabbed it from her. 426 00:20:31,160 --> 00:20:33,359 Speaker 1: So now were tussling over this gud and I feel 427 00:20:33,359 --> 00:20:35,400 Speaker 1: a sharp pain in his arm because I was sedated. 428 00:20:35,760 --> 00:20:36,679 Speaker 2: They got mass you. 429 00:20:36,680 --> 00:20:42,239 Speaker 1: Know, it's like they got me and everything. After they 430 00:20:42,359 --> 00:20:44,320 Speaker 1: just went like I don't know like I was. I 431 00:20:44,359 --> 00:20:47,560 Speaker 1: was seeing doubles, like if I see one light, I 432 00:20:47,600 --> 00:20:49,800 Speaker 1: would see five of them. If you say hey, I 433 00:20:49,840 --> 00:20:52,280 Speaker 1: were hear hey hey hey, Like it was crazy. 434 00:20:52,320 --> 00:20:53,400 Speaker 2: I was like yeah. 435 00:20:54,240 --> 00:20:56,600 Speaker 1: So once I finally came to it was a detective 436 00:20:56,640 --> 00:20:57,960 Speaker 1: to my right and to my left it was like, 437 00:20:57,960 --> 00:20:58,560 Speaker 1: who shot you? 438 00:20:58,600 --> 00:20:59,199 Speaker 2: I'm like, I don't know. 439 00:20:59,359 --> 00:20:59,639 Speaker 1: I don't know. 440 00:21:11,600 --> 00:21:12,040 Speaker 2: I don't know. 441 00:21:12,160 --> 00:21:14,160 Speaker 1: You know, wrong place, wrong time, Let me out there, 442 00:21:14,480 --> 00:21:17,960 Speaker 1: I don't you know. They're like, are you sure? I'm 443 00:21:17,960 --> 00:21:20,760 Speaker 1: like yeah, I'm like, where's my family? Like and then 444 00:21:21,000 --> 00:21:22,600 Speaker 1: when they finally came in Wroong, they were like yeah, 445 00:21:22,640 --> 00:21:24,800 Speaker 1: they wasn't trying to let us back here. They didn't 446 00:21:24,800 --> 00:21:27,399 Speaker 1: think we were a real family. You're on blackout like 447 00:21:28,680 --> 00:21:31,960 Speaker 1: they explained it to me. And then they sent me home. 448 00:21:33,720 --> 00:21:37,560 Speaker 1: And you didn't know who shot you? Mhm no, yeah 449 00:21:37,600 --> 00:21:42,680 Speaker 1: I didn't, but it was it was an accidental. Do 450 00:21:42,720 --> 00:21:46,760 Speaker 1: you think mm hmm, no, it was maybe it was 451 00:21:46,800 --> 00:21:49,639 Speaker 1: wrong place, wrong time, Maybe maybe they didn't know how 452 00:21:49,640 --> 00:21:49,920 Speaker 1: to aim. 453 00:21:49,960 --> 00:21:53,120 Speaker 2: I don't know. Your guess is as good as mine. 454 00:21:53,440 --> 00:21:56,040 Speaker 1: You know. And what do you think about it being 455 00:21:56,400 --> 00:21:59,800 Speaker 1: the date to the anniversary date of your cousin? Did 456 00:21:59,840 --> 00:22:04,399 Speaker 1: you feel like you surviving it meant something. Yeah, I 457 00:22:04,440 --> 00:22:07,080 Speaker 1: felt like that was that was like my second chance 458 00:22:07,080 --> 00:22:10,520 Speaker 1: at life. That was like, chill out, stop doing it, 459 00:22:10,600 --> 00:22:14,080 Speaker 1: Stop stop meeting up for fights, stop stop drinking, stop 460 00:22:14,359 --> 00:22:18,000 Speaker 1: stop smoking, focus on your music, focus on doing hair. 461 00:22:18,160 --> 00:22:21,880 Speaker 1: Get you a job, like you are wasting your life 462 00:22:21,960 --> 00:22:25,760 Speaker 1: right now, you know, like do better, you know. So 463 00:22:25,840 --> 00:22:29,159 Speaker 1: after that, I just stopped hanging with everybody that I 464 00:22:29,200 --> 00:22:31,000 Speaker 1: was hanging with because I felt like that I just 465 00:22:31,040 --> 00:22:36,440 Speaker 1: had to go into isolation, you know, which I attached 466 00:22:36,440 --> 00:22:37,760 Speaker 1: myself to this toxic man. 467 00:22:38,040 --> 00:22:41,119 Speaker 2: Oh horrible. He was like a wolf in sheep's clothing. 468 00:22:44,520 --> 00:22:47,280 Speaker 1: At first he was great, Like when I got shot, 469 00:22:47,320 --> 00:22:49,320 Speaker 1: so my car looked at like a murdercing like it 470 00:22:49,400 --> 00:22:52,480 Speaker 1: was like blood everywhere and I didn't know how to 471 00:22:52,480 --> 00:22:54,239 Speaker 1: clean it out. I didn't even like I didn't even 472 00:22:54,280 --> 00:22:55,520 Speaker 1: want my car anymore like it was. 473 00:22:55,600 --> 00:22:55,879 Speaker 5: It was. 474 00:22:56,720 --> 00:23:01,679 Speaker 1: It was like crazy, you know, And he cleaned out 475 00:23:01,720 --> 00:23:04,359 Speaker 1: my whole car for me. He was taking care of me, 476 00:23:04,440 --> 00:23:06,320 Speaker 1: he was he was picking up my meds. 477 00:23:06,359 --> 00:23:09,200 Speaker 2: Like, because how did you meet him? 478 00:23:09,200 --> 00:23:09,360 Speaker 5: Though? 479 00:23:10,760 --> 00:23:14,639 Speaker 1: I real p Yeah, prior to it, we were just talking. 480 00:23:15,920 --> 00:23:17,679 Speaker 1: But that was like my favorite one out of all 481 00:23:17,720 --> 00:23:21,800 Speaker 1: of them. I like your style. Okay, I get that. 482 00:23:21,880 --> 00:23:26,600 Speaker 1: I get shout out, shout out to that we gotta 483 00:23:26,640 --> 00:23:26,800 Speaker 1: do that. 484 00:23:28,240 --> 00:23:31,600 Speaker 2: What I can say is he he. 485 00:23:30,920 --> 00:23:32,800 Speaker 1: He did pull me up out of a dark spot, 486 00:23:32,840 --> 00:23:37,480 Speaker 1: but then he put my ass back in it. Once 487 00:23:37,520 --> 00:23:40,320 Speaker 1: I once I finally like started to like him, that's 488 00:23:40,359 --> 00:23:41,720 Speaker 1: when he started. 489 00:23:41,320 --> 00:23:42,560 Speaker 2: To become different. 490 00:23:44,920 --> 00:23:48,520 Speaker 1: I started back doing like my my covers, which I 491 00:23:48,560 --> 00:23:53,280 Speaker 1: was going viral again, and he didn't like that. He 492 00:23:53,440 --> 00:23:57,080 Speaker 1: was like, oh, they only like you because they want 493 00:23:57,080 --> 00:24:00,280 Speaker 1: to have sex with you, because it was yeah, and 494 00:24:01,280 --> 00:24:03,600 Speaker 1: I was like, no, I can actually rap, you know. 495 00:24:03,720 --> 00:24:06,879 Speaker 1: Then I started going to the studio and making songs 496 00:24:06,920 --> 00:24:08,359 Speaker 1: and he's like, I don't. I don't want you to 497 00:24:08,359 --> 00:24:09,760 Speaker 1: put this out because I don't want them hearing you 498 00:24:09,800 --> 00:24:13,480 Speaker 1: rap like this. That's embarrassing to me. And I'm like, no, 499 00:24:14,000 --> 00:24:17,000 Speaker 1: this is music. Every time he would he would get 500 00:24:17,000 --> 00:24:19,040 Speaker 1: got cheatd on me, I drop a song and go viral. 501 00:24:19,119 --> 00:24:22,960 Speaker 1: Get every time get got cheating on me, your song 502 00:24:23,000 --> 00:24:26,480 Speaker 1: would go viral. No, so I wouldn't really drop music 503 00:24:26,560 --> 00:24:28,800 Speaker 1: or post pictures or get cute because he would he 504 00:24:29,040 --> 00:24:30,720 Speaker 1: would get mad, and I didn't want to make it 505 00:24:30,720 --> 00:24:31,560 Speaker 1: mad because I was so. 506 00:24:31,560 --> 00:24:35,320 Speaker 2: In love, you know, but it it was a trauma. Vind. 507 00:24:35,480 --> 00:24:37,439 Speaker 1: Now that I'm in therapy, you know, I can I 508 00:24:37,440 --> 00:24:41,360 Speaker 1: can actually look back and say, Hey, that was this, 509 00:24:41,480 --> 00:24:42,240 Speaker 1: Hey that was that. 510 00:24:42,320 --> 00:24:45,639 Speaker 2: You know, there was a trauma, Vind, you know. 511 00:24:45,720 --> 00:24:49,520 Speaker 1: And can you explain what a trauma bond is for 512 00:24:49,560 --> 00:24:53,679 Speaker 1: people that don't know? When you go through something and 513 00:24:53,720 --> 00:24:58,480 Speaker 1: you isolate yourself, you if there's someone there, you would 514 00:24:58,560 --> 00:25:01,760 Speaker 1: you would attach yourself to them, and it would be 515 00:25:03,040 --> 00:25:06,919 Speaker 1: a horrible bond because once you over that trauma and 516 00:25:06,960 --> 00:25:10,080 Speaker 1: they start to show you who they are or if 517 00:25:10,080 --> 00:25:10,560 Speaker 1: they want to. 518 00:25:10,520 --> 00:25:13,200 Speaker 2: Leave you, you go. 519 00:25:13,200 --> 00:25:16,040 Speaker 1: Back through the trauma, like and it's and it's kind 520 00:25:16,040 --> 00:25:18,159 Speaker 1: of like a soul tie, Like it's hard to get 521 00:25:18,200 --> 00:25:21,479 Speaker 1: away from that person. Like it's hard you think that 522 00:25:21,480 --> 00:25:23,440 Speaker 1: that's all that you have, Like you don't you don't 523 00:25:23,440 --> 00:25:25,199 Speaker 1: know how to let them go, no matter what they 524 00:25:25,240 --> 00:25:28,200 Speaker 1: do to you, no matter how bad they treat you 525 00:25:28,320 --> 00:25:31,080 Speaker 1: don't know how to let them go. And you only 526 00:25:31,119 --> 00:25:35,600 Speaker 1: bond with them through a through a traumatic experience in 527 00:25:35,680 --> 00:25:40,960 Speaker 1: your life, you know. And Yeah, So every time I 528 00:25:41,000 --> 00:25:43,159 Speaker 1: would catch him cheating because I wouldn't drop music, I 529 00:25:43,200 --> 00:25:45,359 Speaker 1: want post pictures, wouldn't do nothing because he would always 530 00:25:45,400 --> 00:25:49,480 Speaker 1: have a problem with me doing something. I drop a 531 00:25:49,480 --> 00:25:52,679 Speaker 1: song that he didn't want me to drop, so Ratchet 532 00:25:52,680 --> 00:25:55,360 Speaker 1: Turk Sauce started going crazy and he was like, they 533 00:25:55,440 --> 00:25:56,920 Speaker 1: only like the song because you're talking. 534 00:25:56,760 --> 00:26:00,359 Speaker 2: About it was it was a raunchy song. I'm sying 535 00:26:01,000 --> 00:26:01,560 Speaker 2: AI cool. 536 00:26:01,800 --> 00:26:04,600 Speaker 1: It was like, oh, because you're talking about shaking ass. 537 00:26:04,600 --> 00:26:07,159 Speaker 1: And I'm like, no, they like the song because the 538 00:26:07,160 --> 00:26:10,040 Speaker 1: song is good what you're talking about, you know. And 539 00:26:10,119 --> 00:26:11,919 Speaker 1: every time that I would get bookings, he would come 540 00:26:11,920 --> 00:26:12,680 Speaker 1: out of town with me. 541 00:26:12,760 --> 00:26:14,680 Speaker 2: Just to ruin my fucking bookings. 542 00:26:14,720 --> 00:26:17,680 Speaker 1: Oh god, like he would think that I'm trying to 543 00:26:17,720 --> 00:26:20,240 Speaker 1: talk to the promoters and so that we you. Meanwhile 544 00:26:20,359 --> 00:26:23,800 Speaker 1: he does his cheating. Yes, that's so. I was like 545 00:26:23,920 --> 00:26:28,520 Speaker 1: ninety eight pounds, like so small I was. I was 546 00:26:28,560 --> 00:26:32,360 Speaker 1: so fragile, but I was. And every time and he'll 547 00:26:32,440 --> 00:26:34,040 Speaker 1: cheat on me, I go out to go fight the girl. 548 00:26:34,480 --> 00:26:37,240 Speaker 1: So I'm so I'm back in what I fought so 549 00:26:37,280 --> 00:26:41,440 Speaker 1: hard to get away from. And yeah, it. 550 00:26:41,520 --> 00:26:43,960 Speaker 2: Sucks and I and I didn't know how to break it. 551 00:26:44,000 --> 00:26:45,800 Speaker 1: And I wasn't close to my family so I couldn't 552 00:26:45,840 --> 00:26:48,960 Speaker 1: run to them and say, hey, I'm going through this, Hey, 553 00:26:49,040 --> 00:26:50,040 Speaker 1: this is what's happening. 554 00:26:50,080 --> 00:26:53,040 Speaker 2: To me, so I had to sit in it again. 555 00:26:55,080 --> 00:26:57,600 Speaker 1: And at this time I lived with my grandmother, so 556 00:26:57,720 --> 00:27:01,199 Speaker 1: like I would be so meaning like last shot, but 557 00:27:01,280 --> 00:27:03,040 Speaker 1: she didn't understand, like what was going on, Like I 558 00:27:03,080 --> 00:27:08,920 Speaker 1: was really hurting, you know, And oh, it happens a 559 00:27:08,960 --> 00:27:10,439 Speaker 1: lot on this show, Believe or not. You want to 560 00:27:10,440 --> 00:27:10,760 Speaker 1: get a. 561 00:27:13,240 --> 00:27:16,360 Speaker 2: It's a safe space. Coult this burt out. I don't cry. 562 00:27:18,040 --> 00:27:21,719 Speaker 1: It's good crying. Crying price healing it is. 563 00:27:23,600 --> 00:27:27,560 Speaker 2: But I'm like, I'm finna cheap back. 564 00:27:27,600 --> 00:27:30,760 Speaker 1: I'm gonna get outside because me staying in his house 565 00:27:31,000 --> 00:27:33,440 Speaker 1: being stressed and oppressed about a man that in mind, 566 00:27:34,040 --> 00:27:38,760 Speaker 1: I can't keep doing it and I'm not getting nowhere. 567 00:27:38,920 --> 00:27:42,120 Speaker 1: So I so I kept dropping music, I started going out. 568 00:27:42,320 --> 00:27:45,880 Speaker 1: He hated it like it was. It was like when 569 00:27:46,040 --> 00:27:54,440 Speaker 1: a narcissistic a narcissistic psychopath lose control control, they go crazy. 570 00:27:54,960 --> 00:27:58,600 Speaker 2: I never knew what he was called until now. 571 00:27:58,800 --> 00:28:03,199 Speaker 1: It sounds like you've been doing your Yeah, you know 572 00:28:03,240 --> 00:28:05,920 Speaker 1: what from the second walked in. You had this beautiful 573 00:28:05,960 --> 00:28:08,520 Speaker 1: glow about you. But everything from like I said, the 574 00:28:08,520 --> 00:28:11,000 Speaker 1: broker of the dish, the better the story its. 575 00:28:12,160 --> 00:28:17,080 Speaker 2: So how did you end up get away? Yeah? 576 00:28:17,480 --> 00:28:20,320 Speaker 1: I started dating other people and like I will tell them, 577 00:28:20,320 --> 00:28:22,879 Speaker 1: like I might leave you alone when he want. 578 00:28:22,760 --> 00:28:23,200 Speaker 2: To come back. 579 00:28:23,760 --> 00:28:28,680 Speaker 1: And I met I met this girl, and I would 580 00:28:28,760 --> 00:28:31,160 Speaker 1: leave everybody alone for him. But I couldn't leave her alone. 581 00:28:31,920 --> 00:28:36,640 Speaker 1: And I started talking to her and she became a girlfriend. 582 00:28:36,520 --> 00:28:39,280 Speaker 2: And I left him alone. 583 00:28:39,440 --> 00:28:43,240 Speaker 1: And then that's when I ran into this conflict because 584 00:28:43,240 --> 00:28:44,880 Speaker 1: they were like, oh, how do you wrap up men, 585 00:28:44,920 --> 00:28:45,800 Speaker 1: but you have a girlfriend. 586 00:28:46,160 --> 00:28:48,520 Speaker 2: I'm like, you ya act like I'm gay. You act 587 00:28:48,560 --> 00:28:54,440 Speaker 2: like I only like women, you know, and either way 588 00:28:54,480 --> 00:28:54,560 Speaker 2: or go. 589 00:28:54,760 --> 00:28:57,600 Speaker 1: I still went up, Literally like, I still went up. 590 00:28:58,240 --> 00:29:01,080 Speaker 1: And at one point time I used to want to 591 00:29:01,240 --> 00:29:03,760 Speaker 1: like hide that I liked women, because I'm like, what 592 00:29:03,800 --> 00:29:06,200 Speaker 1: if they just judged me off the fact that I 593 00:29:06,200 --> 00:29:10,080 Speaker 1: had a girlfriend. They might say, oh, it's capping your 594 00:29:10,120 --> 00:29:12,320 Speaker 1: wrap because you have a girlfriend, which you wrap by man. 595 00:29:12,400 --> 00:29:14,360 Speaker 1: It's like I've had white friends. 596 00:29:14,720 --> 00:29:16,240 Speaker 2: I like men. I don't only like women. 597 00:29:16,320 --> 00:29:17,920 Speaker 1: You know, was that your first girlfriend? 598 00:29:18,240 --> 00:29:20,960 Speaker 2: No, I was actually in the closet back in the day. 599 00:29:21,360 --> 00:29:23,880 Speaker 2: I was in the closet. You know, even if you 600 00:29:23,880 --> 00:29:24,960 Speaker 2: would have opened it, you bout. 601 00:29:24,760 --> 00:29:27,720 Speaker 1: What, but you would be considered that would be bisexual? 602 00:29:27,800 --> 00:29:27,960 Speaker 4: Right? 603 00:29:28,480 --> 00:29:29,560 Speaker 2: Yeah? Yeah? 604 00:29:29,800 --> 00:29:31,760 Speaker 1: You know at first, I used to identify its pans 605 00:29:31,800 --> 00:29:34,120 Speaker 1: sexual because I don't have a type, you know. I 606 00:29:34,160 --> 00:29:36,720 Speaker 1: love is love to me, really, yes, love is love. 607 00:29:37,000 --> 00:29:39,680 Speaker 1: I don't I don't have a type. But it was 608 00:29:39,840 --> 00:29:43,840 Speaker 1: you don't have a type at all. No, okay, you don't. 609 00:29:44,440 --> 00:29:51,400 Speaker 1: And it was like like that that became the main 610 00:29:51,400 --> 00:29:51,960 Speaker 1: focus of me. 611 00:29:52,000 --> 00:29:54,000 Speaker 2: And I'm like, god, damn, I I'm by sexual. What 612 00:29:54,080 --> 00:29:55,120 Speaker 2: you like? Come on now? 613 00:29:55,160 --> 00:29:58,720 Speaker 1: Because I that that would be the main focus. 614 00:29:58,800 --> 00:30:01,160 Speaker 2: I'm like, Okay, I make great music. That's it. I 615 00:30:01,200 --> 00:30:02,000 Speaker 2: make great music. 616 00:30:02,760 --> 00:30:06,440 Speaker 1: It shouldn't it shouldn't matter who i'm you know, but 617 00:30:07,200 --> 00:30:11,520 Speaker 1: sometimes they matter in this game, you know. And every 618 00:30:11,560 --> 00:30:13,040 Speaker 1: time that I came with it here, it was like 619 00:30:13,120 --> 00:30:13,680 Speaker 1: it didn't matter. 620 00:30:14,240 --> 00:30:16,440 Speaker 2: It didn't matter what I was doing, who I was with, 621 00:30:16,640 --> 00:30:17,040 Speaker 2: to who. 622 00:30:17,600 --> 00:30:19,760 Speaker 1: It didn't matter to who. It didn't it didn't matter 623 00:30:19,800 --> 00:30:23,560 Speaker 1: to the masses. Because when I made Snatched, I had 624 00:30:23,560 --> 00:30:27,640 Speaker 1: a girlfriend. When I made Pretty Girls Walk, I had 625 00:30:27,640 --> 00:30:36,280 Speaker 1: a girlfriend heavy out Outside. So so Outside is the 626 00:30:36,320 --> 00:30:40,600 Speaker 1: song that really got me noticed by the labels. 627 00:30:40,960 --> 00:30:43,240 Speaker 2: And it was about about a man. 628 00:30:43,640 --> 00:30:46,720 Speaker 1: I was like, break that bitch, but you know, and 629 00:30:46,760 --> 00:30:49,920 Speaker 1: it was going crazy and I had a girlfriend saying 630 00:30:49,920 --> 00:30:52,480 Speaker 1: break daddy, like like I had a girlfriend, but you know, 631 00:30:52,600 --> 00:30:53,960 Speaker 1: still it went crazy. 632 00:30:54,000 --> 00:30:56,280 Speaker 2: It didn't matter who who I laid with, you know. 633 00:30:57,520 --> 00:31:00,000 Speaker 1: And at that time, like that is when I found 634 00:31:00,040 --> 00:31:03,040 Speaker 1: the caneralization. Is like, I'm not going to have I'm me. 635 00:31:03,880 --> 00:31:06,960 Speaker 1: I make dope bass music. You know I could do her, 636 00:31:07,080 --> 00:31:09,200 Speaker 1: I do concent. I'm pretty come on it, you know. 637 00:31:10,160 --> 00:31:14,280 Speaker 1: So I started living with my truth in and felt great. 638 00:31:15,000 --> 00:31:21,320 Speaker 1: I signed to Republic Records. This is doing COVID twenty twenty. 639 00:31:20,120 --> 00:31:23,760 Speaker 1: When did the ex end up coming coming around again? 640 00:31:24,960 --> 00:31:25,720 Speaker 1: Or did he? 641 00:31:25,720 --> 00:31:29,520 Speaker 2: He would start writing me periodically. Once I go up 642 00:31:29,560 --> 00:31:34,920 Speaker 2: on media, he would like be like, oh, I always 643 00:31:35,000 --> 00:31:35,960 Speaker 2: knew he was gonna make it. 644 00:31:36,440 --> 00:31:41,400 Speaker 1: I miss you. I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Yeah, can you 645 00:31:41,440 --> 00:31:41,920 Speaker 1: try again? 646 00:31:43,240 --> 00:31:43,640 Speaker 2: No, sir? 647 00:31:44,200 --> 00:31:48,600 Speaker 1: Like no, sirn So, I knew that my CD gave 648 00:31:48,640 --> 00:31:51,040 Speaker 1: me everything that they could. So I moved to lant 649 00:31:52,040 --> 00:31:56,320 Speaker 1: So as I signed, I went to I'm from Saint Louis, Okay. 650 00:31:56,320 --> 00:32:00,240 Speaker 1: Saint Louis Okay. So I moved to Atlanta and and 651 00:32:00,320 --> 00:32:02,840 Speaker 1: I've been here since and it's only been up for her. 652 00:32:02,960 --> 00:32:05,440 Speaker 1: And you've been by yourself in Atlanta. You moved by yourself. 653 00:32:05,560 --> 00:32:07,640 Speaker 2: No, I actually moved with us with a significant other. 654 00:32:08,840 --> 00:32:10,880 Speaker 1: But are you and the girls still together? Is it 655 00:32:10,960 --> 00:32:11,760 Speaker 1: like love story? 656 00:32:12,280 --> 00:32:13,040 Speaker 2: I'm by myself. 657 00:32:14,960 --> 00:32:19,880 Speaker 1: Oh you moved okay, but now you're single okay, yeah, okay, yeah, 658 00:32:19,920 --> 00:32:28,560 Speaker 1: and now I'm big bossed the Wow. What are some 659 00:32:28,640 --> 00:32:32,280 Speaker 1: of the things that you would say if you had 660 00:32:32,280 --> 00:32:34,720 Speaker 1: to look back, some of the things that you wish 661 00:32:34,800 --> 00:32:35,880 Speaker 1: you could have avoided? 662 00:32:38,200 --> 00:32:38,640 Speaker 2: M hmm. 663 00:32:39,200 --> 00:32:41,320 Speaker 1: Do you feel like some of your stories. 664 00:32:43,320 --> 00:32:44,920 Speaker 2: I do feel like that. 665 00:32:46,120 --> 00:32:49,280 Speaker 1: I like beinginess though that I didn't have guidance or 666 00:32:49,360 --> 00:32:54,720 Speaker 1: I didn't have someone who knew whatever doing. I had 667 00:32:54,760 --> 00:32:56,760 Speaker 1: to go through everything that I went through because if 668 00:32:56,800 --> 00:32:59,480 Speaker 1: I didn't do it, then I'll be going through it now. 669 00:33:00,600 --> 00:33:05,280 Speaker 1: And I learned like early on, so they took everything 670 00:33:05,280 --> 00:33:08,360 Speaker 1: when I had nothing to take, and now that I 671 00:33:08,400 --> 00:33:11,840 Speaker 1: have everything to lose, oh, I won't do now. I 672 00:33:11,840 --> 00:33:14,960 Speaker 1: can read contracts, front was backwards naked clothes. However you 673 00:33:14,960 --> 00:33:16,200 Speaker 1: give it to me, I'm going to read it. Then 674 00:33:16,240 --> 00:33:19,600 Speaker 1: I'm going to send to my lawyer. I can manage 675 00:33:19,600 --> 00:33:24,480 Speaker 1: my money. I know how to do things by myself, 676 00:33:24,520 --> 00:33:26,680 Speaker 1: like like like I can go places by myself, I 677 00:33:26,680 --> 00:33:29,880 Speaker 1: can book flights, I can book like back in the day, 678 00:33:29,960 --> 00:33:32,120 Speaker 1: I didn't know how to book a flight, book a rental, 679 00:33:32,680 --> 00:33:33,360 Speaker 1: payper id. 680 00:33:33,480 --> 00:33:35,200 Speaker 2: I know how to do nothing. I just knew how 681 00:33:35,240 --> 00:33:36,160 Speaker 2: to just I don't know. 682 00:33:36,640 --> 00:33:38,400 Speaker 1: Do you feel like you learned those skill sets after 683 00:33:38,440 --> 00:33:39,720 Speaker 1: you move to Atlanta. 684 00:33:39,400 --> 00:33:40,600 Speaker 2: Or before before? 685 00:33:40,880 --> 00:33:44,040 Speaker 1: Like I like I learned them when I was trying 686 00:33:44,040 --> 00:33:47,080 Speaker 1: to break during COVID, like like twenty nineteen, twenty twenty. 687 00:33:47,120 --> 00:33:48,920 Speaker 1: That was that was when I started to learn how 688 00:33:49,040 --> 00:33:52,080 Speaker 1: to really be an adult and pay bills and that. 689 00:33:52,160 --> 00:33:54,600 Speaker 1: But yeah, like back in the day, I didn't I 690 00:33:54,600 --> 00:33:57,680 Speaker 1: didn't know how to do anything, and I wasn't surrounded 691 00:33:57,720 --> 00:34:02,680 Speaker 1: by good people that can help me. You know, what 692 00:34:02,680 --> 00:34:04,880 Speaker 1: does your family think about your growth? Now? 693 00:34:05,560 --> 00:34:08,600 Speaker 4: I feel like your family seems to be very hidden 694 00:34:08,640 --> 00:34:12,440 Speaker 4: in your story, like they You're definitely like the roads that. 695 00:34:13,400 --> 00:34:18,960 Speaker 1: From Caer Right back in the day, we really wasn't close, 696 00:34:19,120 --> 00:34:20,880 Speaker 1: like we like, we really wasn't. 697 00:34:21,160 --> 00:34:21,600 Speaker 2: I was. 698 00:34:22,719 --> 00:34:25,000 Speaker 1: I was lashing out and needing help, and they didn't 699 00:34:25,000 --> 00:34:31,120 Speaker 1: know how to help me. And most of our household 700 00:34:31,560 --> 00:34:34,520 Speaker 1: households don't don't say hey, let me get my key help. 701 00:34:35,560 --> 00:34:38,840 Speaker 1: They don't say that, you know, So yeah, I just 702 00:34:38,920 --> 00:34:41,360 Speaker 1: had to sit in my pit. You know what made 703 00:34:41,400 --> 00:34:43,960 Speaker 1: you pick up the phone and choose therapy. I actually 704 00:34:44,040 --> 00:34:48,719 Speaker 1: just started going to therapy. Like last year toxic I was. 705 00:34:48,880 --> 00:34:52,080 Speaker 1: I was toxic, very toxic, and I didn't know how 706 00:34:52,080 --> 00:34:53,440 Speaker 1: to control my emotions. 707 00:34:53,480 --> 00:34:53,840 Speaker 2: I didn't. 708 00:34:53,920 --> 00:35:04,560 Speaker 1: I didn't know how to effectively communicate in overstimulating situations. 709 00:35:04,719 --> 00:35:05,160 Speaker 1: I didn't. 710 00:35:05,560 --> 00:35:10,040 Speaker 2: I would just be like, oh no, I would just 711 00:35:10,080 --> 00:35:11,080 Speaker 2: lash out and get physical. 712 00:35:11,160 --> 00:35:13,759 Speaker 1: It's like it was either but how did you know? 713 00:35:14,120 --> 00:35:16,360 Speaker 1: Or like where was that indicator where you felt like 714 00:35:16,400 --> 00:35:18,560 Speaker 1: it was a problem and you needed to pivot into 715 00:35:19,320 --> 00:35:21,120 Speaker 1: a better solution, Like what was that point where you 716 00:35:21,200 --> 00:35:23,000 Speaker 1: were like, I don't I don't want to fight anymore. 717 00:35:23,000 --> 00:35:24,359 Speaker 1: I don't want to be the source of. 718 00:35:28,160 --> 00:35:30,560 Speaker 4: What was that pivotal point, Because there's usually a breaking 719 00:35:30,640 --> 00:35:32,719 Speaker 4: point right where you're just like, fucking I need help. 720 00:35:35,120 --> 00:35:35,480 Speaker 2: Hmmm. 721 00:35:36,880 --> 00:35:41,720 Speaker 1: I started losing myself within the industry, like I felt 722 00:35:41,760 --> 00:35:50,960 Speaker 1: like I felt like that I was overlooked. I felt unheard. 723 00:35:51,640 --> 00:35:59,359 Speaker 1: I didn't know. I didn't know how to celebrate the 724 00:35:59,400 --> 00:36:02,440 Speaker 1: winds out I was actually having, Like I didn't I 725 00:36:02,440 --> 00:36:05,280 Speaker 1: didn't see it because I was working so hard. 726 00:36:05,400 --> 00:36:05,960 Speaker 2: It was like. 727 00:36:13,400 --> 00:36:18,520 Speaker 4: Sometimes when people are striving for a milestone, especially what 728 00:36:18,560 --> 00:36:21,640 Speaker 4: I noticed was successful people to doing this show is 729 00:36:21,680 --> 00:36:25,400 Speaker 4: like you hit a milestone and you keep moving, you know, 730 00:36:25,440 --> 00:36:27,880 Speaker 4: you keep moving the ceiling a little bit higher and higher. 731 00:36:27,880 --> 00:36:31,719 Speaker 4: Do you feel like you were that that was kind 732 00:36:31,760 --> 00:36:33,720 Speaker 4: of happening where you just kept moving the gold post. 733 00:36:35,200 --> 00:36:39,680 Speaker 2: Yeah, it was like that. They I'm like, oh gosh. 734 00:36:39,719 --> 00:36:42,839 Speaker 1: I was like, I don't know, like I was, I 735 00:36:42,960 --> 00:36:49,080 Speaker 1: was working, and then I was like I didn't I 736 00:36:49,120 --> 00:36:53,759 Speaker 1: don't know. I feel like I don't know. I really 737 00:36:53,760 --> 00:36:55,239 Speaker 1: don't even know how to put in the words. I 738 00:36:55,280 --> 00:36:58,120 Speaker 1: just felt like I was working so hard and it 739 00:36:58,160 --> 00:37:01,560 Speaker 1: was taking so long to break and I was just 740 00:37:01,640 --> 00:37:07,400 Speaker 1: like no, like this is and then like and instead 741 00:37:07,440 --> 00:37:10,600 Speaker 1: of just doing things, I was overthinking everything. 742 00:37:10,719 --> 00:37:12,400 Speaker 2: So it was putting me in my mind, putting me 743 00:37:12,440 --> 00:37:14,400 Speaker 2: in my head, and. 744 00:37:14,920 --> 00:37:18,880 Speaker 1: I was like, I can't keep I can't keep sparkling, 745 00:37:18,960 --> 00:37:21,960 Speaker 1: you know, I can't keep going like this and this. 746 00:37:22,239 --> 00:37:25,040 Speaker 1: My team was telling me like that, like you're doing good, 747 00:37:25,200 --> 00:37:30,600 Speaker 1: like cut out. So when I went to therapy, it 748 00:37:30,719 --> 00:37:35,840 Speaker 1: was like and I wasn't only losing myself within the industry, 749 00:37:35,880 --> 00:37:39,600 Speaker 1: I was losing myself at home, friends, family, Like I 750 00:37:39,640 --> 00:37:42,440 Speaker 1: was lashing out again, and I was like, therapy, I 751 00:37:42,480 --> 00:37:45,680 Speaker 1: need you, Like I don't I don't know. Was it 752 00:37:45,719 --> 00:37:47,480 Speaker 1: like when you say you were lashing out. Was there 753 00:37:47,480 --> 00:37:50,200 Speaker 1: like you would lash out and then you feel guilty. 754 00:37:49,880 --> 00:37:52,520 Speaker 4: Afterwards or something, because sometimes when you see someone that's tough, 755 00:37:52,600 --> 00:37:53,839 Speaker 4: you think, oh man, they're tough. 756 00:37:53,840 --> 00:38:00,680 Speaker 1: They're almost like fearless, right there hasn't It's something that 757 00:38:00,760 --> 00:38:03,360 Speaker 1: was indicating, like, hey, I don't like this. Were you 758 00:38:03,400 --> 00:38:08,000 Speaker 1: feeling bad after lashing out or I was feeling bad? 759 00:38:08,040 --> 00:38:11,400 Speaker 1: And then my team was like telling me like, this 760 00:38:11,480 --> 00:38:14,960 Speaker 1: is not you. Like I don't know what's going on, 761 00:38:15,160 --> 00:38:17,839 Speaker 1: but this not you, you know, And I didn't know 762 00:38:17,880 --> 00:38:21,480 Speaker 1: how to how to express myself or say what I 763 00:38:21,520 --> 00:38:26,319 Speaker 1: was feeling. I didn't know how to effectively communicate, and 764 00:38:26,680 --> 00:38:30,840 Speaker 1: I started to isolate. I didn't want to do things. 765 00:38:31,800 --> 00:38:32,160 Speaker 2: I don't know. 766 00:38:32,200 --> 00:38:35,239 Speaker 1: I just like I started to become very evil and 767 00:38:35,280 --> 00:38:38,800 Speaker 1: it was just like no, I just rather not do anything, 768 00:38:39,920 --> 00:38:43,520 Speaker 1: and I'm like something got to give. And then I 769 00:38:43,560 --> 00:38:46,160 Speaker 1: was in a relationship, so you know, my sniff other 770 00:38:46,280 --> 00:38:54,600 Speaker 1: was like, yo, you you you are being mean to 771 00:38:54,640 --> 00:39:00,239 Speaker 1: me and it's not fur of me. You know, this 772 00:39:00,280 --> 00:39:03,359 Speaker 1: ain't my fault. I'm not doing anything to you. And 773 00:39:04,239 --> 00:39:06,359 Speaker 1: I started to feel guilty because I'm like you're right, 774 00:39:06,520 --> 00:39:09,200 Speaker 1: it ain't your fault. It ain't your fault. You know 775 00:39:09,239 --> 00:39:12,160 Speaker 1: that I'm feeling this way. So I started going to 776 00:39:12,239 --> 00:39:17,799 Speaker 1: trap you. And also it was it was still like 777 00:39:19,160 --> 00:39:23,000 Speaker 1: I was enabled within a relationship. So I didn't know 778 00:39:23,000 --> 00:39:28,200 Speaker 1: how to stand alone either. Like the relationship that I 779 00:39:28,239 --> 00:39:31,360 Speaker 1: was in, I was cold dependent on it, you know. 780 00:39:32,239 --> 00:39:34,440 Speaker 1: So that was another thing, Like I was just stressed, 781 00:39:34,480 --> 00:39:35,600 Speaker 1: you know, I was going through it. 782 00:39:35,640 --> 00:39:37,120 Speaker 4: Well, I was gonna say, because you went from like 783 00:39:37,160 --> 00:39:41,239 Speaker 4: trauma bond to like another Yeah, it was like a 784 00:39:41,280 --> 00:39:44,960 Speaker 4: band aid over some of that probably could have deserved 785 00:39:45,000 --> 00:39:45,520 Speaker 4: like some. 786 00:39:45,920 --> 00:39:51,239 Speaker 1: Time king and I didn't. I didn't know that back then, 787 00:39:51,320 --> 00:39:53,839 Speaker 1: you know, Like I was just like I was an 788 00:39:53,840 --> 00:39:55,160 Speaker 1: all a part. I guess it was just like go 789 00:39:55,719 --> 00:39:59,359 Speaker 1: keep just just just keep going, just keep moving. How 790 00:39:59,400 --> 00:40:01,239 Speaker 1: tired are you with your mom and all of this? 791 00:40:01,719 --> 00:40:07,520 Speaker 1: That's my bestie now, that's your bestie now, Like but 792 00:40:07,560 --> 00:40:10,200 Speaker 1: back then would you back then? No, like we were, 793 00:40:11,320 --> 00:40:14,680 Speaker 1: I was, I don't know, like I like I think 794 00:40:14,719 --> 00:40:18,200 Speaker 1: I was the problem child, Like I was the only 795 00:40:18,280 --> 00:40:20,239 Speaker 1: kid that would go up against her, you know, like 796 00:40:20,280 --> 00:40:22,719 Speaker 1: I'd be like I'm not doing that, Like no, you know, 797 00:40:22,760 --> 00:40:26,000 Speaker 1: I would always question everything or like I don't know, 798 00:40:26,120 --> 00:40:31,799 Speaker 1: Like I feel like sometimes households need therapy before they 799 00:40:31,800 --> 00:40:34,200 Speaker 1: bring kids into the world because. 800 00:40:34,200 --> 00:40:36,120 Speaker 2: You you would. 801 00:40:35,840 --> 00:40:40,320 Speaker 1: Do your best, but sometimes your best is still not okay. 802 00:40:42,000 --> 00:40:46,160 Speaker 2: And every every. 803 00:40:47,640 --> 00:40:50,719 Speaker 1: Every one of my siblings experienced with my with my 804 00:40:50,840 --> 00:40:53,640 Speaker 1: parents is different, you know, because it was just different. 805 00:40:54,120 --> 00:40:55,719 Speaker 1: But I do know that she did the best that 806 00:40:55,760 --> 00:40:59,840 Speaker 1: she could, you know, And I do know like sometimes 807 00:40:59,840 --> 00:41:07,120 Speaker 1: that no, they don't understand. But me and my grandmother, 808 00:41:07,239 --> 00:41:10,560 Speaker 1: you know, we've always been close. That was like who 809 00:41:10,600 --> 00:41:13,440 Speaker 1: I was, who I would run to. And to be 810 00:41:13,480 --> 00:41:18,200 Speaker 1: completely honest, if I can remember correctly, when I was 811 00:41:18,239 --> 00:41:19,640 Speaker 1: in high school, it was like one day I was 812 00:41:19,680 --> 00:41:21,759 Speaker 1: acting out really bad and they and they called my 813 00:41:21,760 --> 00:41:25,200 Speaker 1: grandmother instead of my mother. But at this point I 814 00:41:25,280 --> 00:41:27,279 Speaker 1: was just like so off the rails. It was like, 815 00:41:27,320 --> 00:41:30,520 Speaker 1: couldn't nobody talk to me. My grandmother came to like 816 00:41:30,520 --> 00:41:32,799 Speaker 1: pick me up from school and took me to this 817 00:41:32,960 --> 00:41:36,920 Speaker 1: office to where we were talking to some man I 818 00:41:37,040 --> 00:41:38,520 Speaker 1: don't really remember if he was. 819 00:41:38,440 --> 00:41:39,400 Speaker 2: A therapist, I don't know. 820 00:41:39,440 --> 00:41:41,839 Speaker 1: He was talking to him and he was just basically like, 821 00:41:42,000 --> 00:41:43,239 Speaker 1: I can't force her to talk to me. 822 00:41:43,800 --> 00:41:44,640 Speaker 2: That's what I remember. 823 00:41:44,680 --> 00:41:46,040 Speaker 1: He said, I can't force her to talk to me, 824 00:41:46,120 --> 00:41:48,560 Speaker 1: and after that it was just like uh from her 825 00:41:48,719 --> 00:41:49,560 Speaker 1: and tried again. 826 00:41:49,640 --> 00:41:51,680 Speaker 2: So maybe my grandmother didn't Maybe she did. 827 00:41:51,560 --> 00:41:56,400 Speaker 1: Try, she tried. Oh wow. Okay, So now you have 828 00:41:57,000 --> 00:42:02,279 Speaker 1: these accolades in your family's one hundred percent supportive, there 829 00:42:02,280 --> 00:42:03,840 Speaker 1: are one hundred percent supportive. 830 00:42:03,600 --> 00:42:07,279 Speaker 4: And you're in therapy and you're single. Are you gonna 831 00:42:07,280 --> 00:42:09,480 Speaker 4: try and maintain your singleness for a bit? 832 00:42:09,960 --> 00:42:12,359 Speaker 2: Or I flow with life? 833 00:42:12,920 --> 00:42:14,640 Speaker 1: You're funny? 834 00:42:15,880 --> 00:42:18,719 Speaker 4: Well okay, Well then I'm gonna ask this other thing 835 00:42:18,800 --> 00:42:21,080 Speaker 4: because I had learned this lesson a couple of years 836 00:42:21,120 --> 00:42:25,360 Speaker 4: ago from a neighbor of mine. But now that you 837 00:42:25,480 --> 00:42:29,839 Speaker 4: have so much more to lose because of everything you've accomplished. Now, 838 00:42:29,960 --> 00:42:33,040 Speaker 4: when you are challenged in the position of lashing out 839 00:42:33,200 --> 00:42:36,279 Speaker 4: or anger or fighting, do you now calculate that the 840 00:42:36,320 --> 00:42:39,040 Speaker 4: person that you're going up against may not have anything 841 00:42:39,080 --> 00:42:39,480 Speaker 4: to lose? 842 00:42:47,160 --> 00:42:47,640 Speaker 2: Yes? And no. 843 00:42:49,040 --> 00:42:53,640 Speaker 1: Yes, if I'm calm, you know, like I would try 844 00:42:53,680 --> 00:42:57,279 Speaker 1: to remove myself from any situation that I know may 845 00:42:57,440 --> 00:42:59,919 Speaker 1: bring me back to the owe me because I don't 846 00:43:00,040 --> 00:43:03,960 Speaker 1: know what she's capable of, and I know that if 847 00:43:04,000 --> 00:43:08,600 Speaker 1: I see red it's like rid, you know, I don't 848 00:43:08,719 --> 00:43:11,200 Speaker 1: I don't know how to I don't know how to 849 00:43:11,200 --> 00:43:14,320 Speaker 1: calm down, so I don't need myself in that situation 850 00:43:14,480 --> 00:43:15,120 Speaker 1: too s red. 851 00:43:15,200 --> 00:43:17,040 Speaker 2: So it's like I feel you. 852 00:43:17,080 --> 00:43:20,560 Speaker 1: My neighbor told me this story once about like you 853 00:43:20,760 --> 00:43:23,600 Speaker 1: just always got to consider that the other person has 854 00:43:23,680 --> 00:43:27,120 Speaker 1: nothing to lose. So if the other person has nothing 855 00:43:27,160 --> 00:43:30,880 Speaker 1: to lose, and you gain the possibility to lose something, 856 00:43:30,880 --> 00:43:33,600 Speaker 1: then if you go and knowing like, hey, that person 857 00:43:33,640 --> 00:43:35,600 Speaker 1: ain't gonna lose their house, they ain't gonna lose their career, 858 00:43:35,600 --> 00:43:40,120 Speaker 1: they ain't gonna lose whatever, then it reduces the like 859 00:43:40,280 --> 00:43:42,040 Speaker 1: do you really want to fight someone that has nothing 860 00:43:42,040 --> 00:43:44,279 Speaker 1: to The worst person in the world to fight is 861 00:43:44,280 --> 00:43:46,399 Speaker 1: the person has nothing to lose because they're gonna help 862 00:43:46,400 --> 00:43:49,040 Speaker 1: you lose everything. Yeah, And I'm to the point where 863 00:43:51,440 --> 00:43:53,279 Speaker 1: regular people really cannot get to me. People on the 864 00:43:53,320 --> 00:43:55,600 Speaker 1: internet can I get to me? Like people can't get 865 00:43:55,640 --> 00:43:57,719 Speaker 1: to me. The only ones that can really hurt me 866 00:43:57,840 --> 00:44:01,640 Speaker 1: is the ones that be around me, my friends, my 867 00:44:01,640 --> 00:44:04,800 Speaker 1: my family. Those are the only ones that can actually 868 00:44:04,800 --> 00:44:06,200 Speaker 1: bring me up out of my enement. And if I 869 00:44:06,239 --> 00:44:10,799 Speaker 1: see that they trying to, I would distance myself from them. 870 00:44:10,800 --> 00:44:13,719 Speaker 1: And when I talk to them again, mm hmm, like 871 00:44:13,800 --> 00:44:15,719 Speaker 1: you've set up boundaries now. 872 00:44:15,719 --> 00:44:17,760 Speaker 2: Now, yeah, But like back in the day, I didn't. 873 00:44:17,800 --> 00:44:20,000 Speaker 1: I didn't know how to set up boundaries, and I 874 00:44:20,040 --> 00:44:22,160 Speaker 1: would be baited into arguments with them. 875 00:44:22,200 --> 00:44:25,439 Speaker 2: And me and my family used to go so loved. 876 00:44:25,480 --> 00:44:30,799 Speaker 1: We would we we knew each other family trauma, so 877 00:44:30,840 --> 00:44:31,640 Speaker 1: we would bring it up. 878 00:44:31,680 --> 00:44:34,560 Speaker 2: We would we would say it, and it'd be horrible. 879 00:44:34,640 --> 00:44:36,160 Speaker 2: You know that that wouldn't be okay. 880 00:44:36,200 --> 00:44:38,440 Speaker 1: But like we were so used to just treating each 881 00:44:38,480 --> 00:44:40,920 Speaker 1: other like people on the street when they're beef, and it's. 882 00:44:40,800 --> 00:44:43,440 Speaker 2: Like but now nah, like. 883 00:44:45,400 --> 00:44:50,600 Speaker 1: Nah, I remove myself every time, and sometimes the love 884 00:44:50,640 --> 00:44:53,480 Speaker 1: that I have for people, it becomes very hard to 885 00:44:53,560 --> 00:44:58,160 Speaker 1: choose myself because I love them, and it's like, you know, 886 00:44:58,719 --> 00:45:00,879 Speaker 1: I would want to forget of them, and I will 887 00:45:00,920 --> 00:45:03,040 Speaker 1: want to look past the things that are triggering to me. 888 00:45:03,120 --> 00:45:04,439 Speaker 1: But I know for a fact that if I stay 889 00:45:04,440 --> 00:45:08,759 Speaker 1: in this situation, it's it may bring me up out 890 00:45:08,760 --> 00:45:10,480 Speaker 1: of my element and it may cause me to lose 891 00:45:10,520 --> 00:45:24,719 Speaker 1: everything that I have and I gotta choose and I'm 892 00:45:24,760 --> 00:45:28,120 Speaker 1: still learning that, but I think I'm doing great with it, 893 00:45:28,160 --> 00:45:29,439 Speaker 1: though you are you are. 894 00:45:30,400 --> 00:45:34,680 Speaker 4: So let's talk industry and metrics. So what's the thing 895 00:45:34,680 --> 00:45:35,200 Speaker 4: in the life. 896 00:45:36,760 --> 00:45:40,680 Speaker 2: Mm hmm, well right now the day of life. 897 00:45:43,280 --> 00:45:44,960 Speaker 1: We're trying to drop this record, right, it's gonna be 898 00:45:44,960 --> 00:45:47,799 Speaker 1: a nice record, it's gonna be a big record, but 899 00:45:48,520 --> 00:45:53,520 Speaker 1: we're going through clarences. And if artists who's upcoming or 900 00:45:53,719 --> 00:45:56,600 Speaker 1: don't know anything about clearences is like when you sample something, 901 00:45:57,360 --> 00:46:01,480 Speaker 1: so say you simple a cadence or or a certain 902 00:46:01,560 --> 00:46:04,920 Speaker 1: phrase or you know, any anything of that nature. Clarences 903 00:46:05,000 --> 00:46:09,880 Speaker 1: are very expensive and they take so long. But something 904 00:46:09,920 --> 00:46:11,840 Speaker 1: that my manager told me today that kind of, you know, 905 00:46:11,920 --> 00:46:15,160 Speaker 1: stuck with me. It's like, if you believe in this record, 906 00:46:15,440 --> 00:46:18,239 Speaker 1: you have to be patient, no matter what you you 907 00:46:18,400 --> 00:46:21,000 Speaker 1: have to be patient, and you have to see this 908 00:46:21,120 --> 00:46:24,440 Speaker 1: through because I'm not even like let's just drop something 909 00:46:24,440 --> 00:46:26,000 Speaker 1: else at this point, you know, yeah, yeah, or let's 910 00:46:26,040 --> 00:46:28,040 Speaker 1: just skip the Clayer. Yeah, let's yeah. 911 00:46:28,080 --> 00:46:29,960 Speaker 2: But you can't do that. You gotta do everything right. 912 00:46:30,040 --> 00:46:32,760 Speaker 1: So I'm like, all right, I believe in this record, 913 00:46:32,960 --> 00:46:38,839 Speaker 1: and I believe in myself, and you know, I do 914 00:46:38,920 --> 00:46:45,400 Speaker 1: content for the song. I post it on Instagram, Facebook, Twitter. 915 00:46:46,239 --> 00:46:48,279 Speaker 1: I can't really tease my music on TikTok right now 916 00:46:48,280 --> 00:46:52,080 Speaker 1: because you know, it's kind of that UMG things going 917 00:46:52,120 --> 00:46:57,640 Speaker 1: on right now, So that that's the UMG. So, so 918 00:46:57,680 --> 00:47:01,920 Speaker 1: TikTok and UMG have to come to terms on what 919 00:47:01,960 --> 00:47:02,799 Speaker 1: they're willing to prove. 920 00:47:03,120 --> 00:47:10,160 Speaker 2: Yeah, for an artist, and that's kind of hurting us artists. 921 00:47:10,320 --> 00:47:15,800 Speaker 1: TikTok plays a very big part in our music going viral. 922 00:47:16,320 --> 00:47:18,719 Speaker 2: Every not every but recently. 923 00:47:18,800 --> 00:47:20,799 Speaker 1: When my music has been going crazy, it will start 924 00:47:20,800 --> 00:47:22,960 Speaker 1: on TikTok and then it would then it would transfer 925 00:47:23,080 --> 00:47:24,319 Speaker 1: to different platforms. 926 00:47:24,440 --> 00:47:26,080 Speaker 2: But TikTok has always been a starter. 927 00:47:26,520 --> 00:47:28,719 Speaker 1: So this is like, this is this is me going 928 00:47:28,760 --> 00:47:30,160 Speaker 1: back to like the old days when I used to 929 00:47:30,200 --> 00:47:32,600 Speaker 1: go viral Facebook and stuff like that. You know, now 930 00:47:32,640 --> 00:47:35,160 Speaker 1: it's different because we can't use TikTok right now. I 931 00:47:35,160 --> 00:47:37,239 Speaker 1: don't know how long it's going to be. But you 932 00:47:37,280 --> 00:47:42,120 Speaker 1: got to stand alongside who you sound, you know what. Yeah, 933 00:47:42,440 --> 00:47:48,680 Speaker 1: I didn't know that. Yeah, so that's that. Sometimes I 934 00:47:48,719 --> 00:47:52,839 Speaker 1: do high content, I go to the gym. So how 935 00:47:52,880 --> 00:47:54,600 Speaker 1: do you make your money right now? Currently? 936 00:47:56,360 --> 00:47:57,520 Speaker 2: Shows? 937 00:47:58,960 --> 00:48:01,160 Speaker 1: I have a really great team that moves me around, 938 00:48:01,200 --> 00:48:09,239 Speaker 1: So I get sponsorships, my royalties, other platforms paying you 939 00:48:09,280 --> 00:48:09,799 Speaker 1: at all too? 940 00:48:10,400 --> 00:48:11,319 Speaker 2: No, no, not. 941 00:48:11,239 --> 00:48:13,520 Speaker 1: Really, I actually don't want to get played paid, I 942 00:48:13,560 --> 00:48:16,000 Speaker 1: say play. I actually don't want to get paid from 943 00:48:16,080 --> 00:48:19,480 Speaker 1: platforms because part of me feel like once they start 944 00:48:19,520 --> 00:48:21,799 Speaker 1: paying you, your views is kind of fall off. 945 00:48:22,120 --> 00:48:25,200 Speaker 2: Really, so don't pay me nothing. Keep it, keep it please. 946 00:48:26,080 --> 00:48:29,000 Speaker 1: I thought you were gonna say that. Sometimes I get 947 00:48:29,480 --> 00:48:31,120 Speaker 1: I feel some type of way when I hear like 948 00:48:31,760 --> 00:48:33,880 Speaker 1: some of the content creators make like half a million 949 00:48:33,920 --> 00:48:36,640 Speaker 1: dollars off social media. I'm like, damn, if they're giving 950 00:48:36,680 --> 00:48:40,360 Speaker 1: you half a million, your content gotta be worth a 951 00:48:40,400 --> 00:48:44,600 Speaker 1: lot more than that. Sometimes they get paid off sponsorships 952 00:48:44,920 --> 00:48:48,160 Speaker 1: because brands will see how how big their platform is 953 00:48:48,160 --> 00:48:51,240 Speaker 1: and it's like, okay, how can we incorporate our product 954 00:48:51,440 --> 00:48:52,120 Speaker 1: within your video? 955 00:48:52,840 --> 00:48:56,279 Speaker 2: And that is where the big bucks come for me. 956 00:48:56,880 --> 00:48:59,759 Speaker 2: I don't know, but yeah, so that's that. 957 00:49:01,600 --> 00:49:07,800 Speaker 1: And therapy, because yeah, sometimes I go home and visit 958 00:49:07,840 --> 00:49:10,320 Speaker 1: my family in Saint Louis. I gotta movie that on 959 00:49:10,400 --> 00:49:13,320 Speaker 1: from the start filming, so I can't go back home. 960 00:49:16,400 --> 00:49:18,719 Speaker 2: I go out t work on couches a little bit. 961 00:49:19,080 --> 00:49:19,960 Speaker 1: You're hilarious. 962 00:49:23,000 --> 00:49:27,200 Speaker 2: I watched I D Channel with my dog, and I 963 00:49:27,239 --> 00:49:27,560 Speaker 2: don't know. 964 00:49:27,600 --> 00:49:30,600 Speaker 1: I take life day by day because everything right now 965 00:49:31,160 --> 00:49:35,640 Speaker 1: it is new. So yeah, okay, now are you do 966 00:49:35,680 --> 00:49:36,960 Speaker 1: you believe in God, Christians. 967 00:49:37,400 --> 00:49:40,560 Speaker 2: I believe in that. Okay, I believe in that. Okay. 968 00:49:40,719 --> 00:49:42,839 Speaker 1: So is this your first time acting for real? 969 00:49:42,920 --> 00:49:43,239 Speaker 5: For real? 970 00:49:43,360 --> 00:49:43,720 Speaker 2: Yes? 971 00:49:44,320 --> 00:49:45,560 Speaker 1: And you're excited about it. 972 00:49:45,680 --> 00:49:48,880 Speaker 2: I'm so excited, but I'm nervous. I'm nervous. 973 00:49:48,920 --> 00:49:50,000 Speaker 1: What are you nervous? To them? 974 00:49:50,239 --> 00:49:51,279 Speaker 2: What if I forget my life? 975 00:49:52,960 --> 00:49:55,200 Speaker 1: Don't they have like on set readers and all that? 976 00:49:55,960 --> 00:49:57,960 Speaker 1: I think? Right? I don't know. 977 00:49:58,160 --> 00:49:59,120 Speaker 2: I haven't been on set yet. 978 00:49:59,239 --> 00:50:01,840 Speaker 1: Have you started memb rising all your stuff? I started? 979 00:50:02,640 --> 00:50:13,279 Speaker 1: Do you you start taping this again? It's it's like 980 00:50:13,640 --> 00:50:16,719 Speaker 1: you gotta you gotta memorize. Yeah, yeah, I got some 981 00:50:16,800 --> 00:50:19,799 Speaker 1: parts memorized. So it's like seeing with party feelings. So 982 00:50:19,840 --> 00:50:21,520 Speaker 1: I can go dive into that one. 983 00:50:21,560 --> 00:50:26,359 Speaker 4: You're hilarious, You're hilarious, okay, okay, So how can people 984 00:50:26,440 --> 00:50:27,040 Speaker 4: keep up with you? 985 00:50:27,680 --> 00:50:30,200 Speaker 1: Following me on all platforms and at Big Positive and 986 00:50:31,040 --> 00:50:33,680 Speaker 1: watch my content pre save my song ice me because 987 00:50:33,680 --> 00:50:34,400 Speaker 1: it is dropping. 988 00:50:34,640 --> 00:50:39,640 Speaker 2: And eat ketchup sundwiches. Please don't eat catch them sounds. Okay, 989 00:50:39,960 --> 00:50:41,319 Speaker 2: we don't. We don't eat them no more. 990 00:50:42,160 --> 00:50:45,160 Speaker 1: Try when was the last time you ate the sandwich? Mm? 991 00:50:45,200 --> 00:50:45,399 Speaker 5: Hmm? 992 00:50:47,239 --> 00:50:47,840 Speaker 2: Middle school? 993 00:50:49,040 --> 00:50:52,320 Speaker 1: Thank God God? And to be honest, I don't e 994 00:50:52,360 --> 00:50:54,040 Speaker 1: think that I that I had to eat in middle school. 995 00:50:54,040 --> 00:50:57,120 Speaker 1: I just I was craving at one time and it 996 00:50:57,239 --> 00:50:58,920 Speaker 1: was just like okay, no more, I'm not doing this 997 00:50:58,960 --> 00:51:00,880 Speaker 1: a yain. I feel like you're reference your house is 998 00:51:00,920 --> 00:51:01,880 Speaker 1: like a condiment house. 999 00:51:02,040 --> 00:51:05,600 Speaker 4: Yeah, where were all these condiments coming from? 1000 00:51:05,680 --> 00:51:07,759 Speaker 1: You know when like sometimes you would like eat out 1001 00:51:08,280 --> 00:51:11,279 Speaker 1: and then you have like liftos so that or you 1002 00:51:11,600 --> 00:51:13,239 Speaker 1: have a drawer in your house with just catch your 1003 00:51:13,239 --> 00:51:17,400 Speaker 1: packets and yeah, and then like my mom would go 1004 00:51:17,480 --> 00:51:22,440 Speaker 1: grocery shopping from time to time, but then like I 1005 00:51:22,480 --> 00:51:24,879 Speaker 1: don't know if we should just eat because it was dark, 1006 00:51:25,360 --> 00:51:26,799 Speaker 1: like the grocery should be going like the next day 1007 00:51:26,800 --> 00:51:29,640 Speaker 1: you be gone, like it just be you know, okay, 1008 00:51:29,640 --> 00:51:31,360 Speaker 1: maybe I'm over jags right not the next day, but 1009 00:51:31,400 --> 00:51:34,279 Speaker 1: it'd be going fast, and we'll be left with this 1010 00:51:34,760 --> 00:51:38,120 Speaker 1: condiment house again until she come home and like cook 1011 00:51:38,160 --> 00:51:40,520 Speaker 1: the food that we don't know how to cook. It's different. 1012 00:51:40,840 --> 00:51:43,239 Speaker 2: But other than that, we have to vand for ourselves. 1013 00:51:43,600 --> 00:51:45,799 Speaker 4: Is there any advice you would give to anybody that's 1014 00:51:45,800 --> 00:51:47,320 Speaker 4: trying to get in your position. 1015 00:51:50,440 --> 00:51:53,839 Speaker 1: As my team would say, stay in your own lane, 1016 00:51:53,920 --> 00:52:02,040 Speaker 1: watch your own race. If if you need therapy goes 1017 00:52:02,080 --> 00:52:04,600 Speaker 1: to therapy, I promise it is okay, it is fine. 1018 00:52:06,080 --> 00:52:09,799 Speaker 1: What's therapy? What you expected it to be? Actually? No, 1019 00:52:10,480 --> 00:52:12,320 Speaker 1: I thought they was gonna try to make me crazy, 1020 00:52:12,440 --> 00:52:14,040 Speaker 1: like it was gonna be like you're crazy. But then 1021 00:52:14,080 --> 00:52:16,600 Speaker 1: I was like, oh no, that's normal. Oh so in 1022 00:52:16,640 --> 00:52:20,000 Speaker 1: these situations, you know, she's she's it's a it's a 1023 00:52:20,080 --> 00:52:23,799 Speaker 1: it's a she she's a teaching me, you know, how 1024 00:52:23,880 --> 00:52:31,279 Speaker 1: to how to approach situations different differently? Do you now 1025 00:52:31,400 --> 00:52:32,440 Speaker 1: look forward to it too? 1026 00:52:32,520 --> 00:52:35,840 Speaker 4: Now because you have someone that you can like confidence sometimes. 1027 00:52:36,120 --> 00:52:38,120 Speaker 1: But then when I be doing like small toxic stuff 1028 00:52:38,120 --> 00:52:39,799 Speaker 1: I gotta tell her about I'd be like, I know 1029 00:52:39,880 --> 00:52:42,440 Speaker 1: she's gonna get in my ass, so I'd be like, 1030 00:52:43,320 --> 00:52:47,160 Speaker 1: I'll be trying to like not go. 1031 00:52:47,640 --> 00:52:48,600 Speaker 2: Then I'll be like I gotta go. 1032 00:52:49,000 --> 00:52:50,719 Speaker 1: Yeah. Well, I was gonna say, do you feel like 1033 00:52:50,719 --> 00:52:53,360 Speaker 1: it's a safe space though, Oh yeah, yeah, it is 1034 00:52:53,400 --> 00:52:55,600 Speaker 1: a safe space, like like I can I can be 1035 00:52:56,600 --> 00:52:59,120 Speaker 1: my authentic self like I don't I don't have to 1036 00:52:59,200 --> 00:53:04,000 Speaker 1: dm anything down wild in therapy, And after I'd be done, 1037 00:53:04,040 --> 00:53:07,680 Speaker 1: she'd be like okay, so and then she'll go in 1038 00:53:07,880 --> 00:53:14,400 Speaker 1: and she would dissect it and help me understand what 1039 00:53:14,520 --> 00:53:17,040 Speaker 1: I just explained to her, because I'll be everywhere, you know, 1040 00:53:21,560 --> 00:53:24,759 Speaker 1: and it's like, you know, she has been pointing out 1041 00:53:24,760 --> 00:53:28,040 Speaker 1: things that I didn't even know, you know, about myself 1042 00:53:28,239 --> 00:53:30,279 Speaker 1: because because I was just sure things for her, and 1043 00:53:30,320 --> 00:53:33,080 Speaker 1: I'll just vent and she'd be like, okay, well let's 1044 00:53:33,080 --> 00:53:35,120 Speaker 1: go back to what you said here, and I'll be 1045 00:53:35,160 --> 00:53:38,560 Speaker 1: like okay, and something that I just brushed past. She 1046 00:53:38,600 --> 00:53:42,279 Speaker 1: would literally be like, no, that's actually and then I 1047 00:53:42,320 --> 00:53:47,600 Speaker 1: was like, oh, got it. Okay, Okay, so she's she's 1048 00:53:47,640 --> 00:53:49,520 Speaker 1: she's teaching you a lot about yourself. 1049 00:53:49,840 --> 00:53:51,879 Speaker 2: Yeah, I would. 1050 00:53:52,120 --> 00:53:54,480 Speaker 1: I would also tell people to like, get you a 1051 00:53:54,520 --> 00:53:58,440 Speaker 1: great team, Like get you a team who knows the business, 1052 00:53:58,480 --> 00:54:02,680 Speaker 1: who understand it's the business, and who want to see 1053 00:54:02,719 --> 00:54:06,279 Speaker 1: you win no matter what. You know. Try to stay 1054 00:54:06,320 --> 00:54:09,600 Speaker 1: away from relationships now hurt me out there? 1055 00:54:09,600 --> 00:54:11,759 Speaker 2: Fun they are, you know, but. 1056 00:54:14,320 --> 00:54:18,759 Speaker 1: Like going through things when you're trying to build yourself 1057 00:54:19,120 --> 00:54:25,400 Speaker 1: and prepare for a different version of yourself in a 1058 00:54:25,480 --> 00:54:28,240 Speaker 1: different life, it's very hard. 1059 00:54:29,200 --> 00:54:31,799 Speaker 2: And some people is easy. 1060 00:54:33,040 --> 00:54:36,480 Speaker 1: Most of the times are all right, And I don't know, 1061 00:54:36,640 --> 00:54:41,919 Speaker 1: like focus on yourself, always choose yourself, know your words, 1062 00:54:43,719 --> 00:54:46,319 Speaker 1: and never settle. I want to touch on one last thing. 1063 00:54:46,400 --> 00:54:48,759 Speaker 4: So you have really beautiful tattoos, but one of them 1064 00:54:48,800 --> 00:54:52,320 Speaker 4: in particular really stick out, which is this never settle one. 1065 00:54:52,640 --> 00:54:56,480 Speaker 1: Can you tell me the story on this one. When 1066 00:54:56,520 --> 00:54:59,840 Speaker 1: I was with that toxic man, I used to like 1067 00:55:00,160 --> 00:55:03,480 Speaker 1: get tattoos when I would try to teach myself lessons 1068 00:55:03,520 --> 00:55:06,640 Speaker 1: because no one taught me to never settle. I felt 1069 00:55:06,680 --> 00:55:09,800 Speaker 1: like I was settling for him, Like I was settling 1070 00:55:09,880 --> 00:55:11,839 Speaker 1: because I feel like this was all that I can get. 1071 00:55:12,560 --> 00:55:15,680 Speaker 1: I was settling because I felt like nobody else is 1072 00:55:15,680 --> 00:55:18,000 Speaker 1: gonna treat me as good as he once did because 1073 00:55:18,040 --> 00:55:20,279 Speaker 1: he never treated me good after he showed me who 1074 00:55:20,320 --> 00:55:25,200 Speaker 1: he really was. It was just comfortability. Yeah, and I 1075 00:55:25,239 --> 00:55:29,239 Speaker 1: didn't know how to be alone either, so that was it. 1076 00:55:29,280 --> 00:55:35,120 Speaker 1: And yeah, it was like never settle good vibes. Yeah, 1077 00:55:35,160 --> 00:55:37,000 Speaker 1: it was like, so you do that every time you 1078 00:55:37,040 --> 00:55:39,719 Speaker 1: want to, like, hey, don't forget this lesson you inc 1079 00:55:39,800 --> 00:55:47,400 Speaker 1: it in ink it. Okay, Well, thank you for blessing 1080 00:55:47,440 --> 00:55:50,800 Speaker 1: me with a ketchup sandwich to get in to know you. 1081 00:55:52,080 --> 00:55:55,640 Speaker 1: I really appreciate your time and I really appreciate your vulnerability. 1082 00:55:55,800 --> 00:55:58,840 Speaker 1: I really do thank you so much for your time 1083 00:55:59,480 --> 00:56:02,560 Speaker 1: having themppreciate it and you guys, keep up with bet 1084 00:56:03,280 --> 00:56:06,640 Speaker 1: on all social media platforms at Big Boss b B 1085 00:56:06,760 --> 00:56:09,439 Speaker 1: I G B O S S B E T T E. 1086 00:56:10,440 --> 00:56:32,120 Speaker 6: Alright, guys, peace out 1087 00:56:33,080 --> 00:56:36,280 Speaker 1: For more eating while broke from iHeartRadio and The Black Effect, 1088 00:56:36,480 --> 00:56:40,080 Speaker 1: Visit the iHeartRadio app, Apple podcasts, or wherever you listen 1089 00:56:40,080 --> 00:56:41,240 Speaker 1: to your favorite shows