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Speaker 2: Tabby, Hello, I'm here, Tabby. How are you.

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Speaker 1: I'm actually I'm surprised I got through.

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Speaker 4: How are you doing?

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Speaker 2: Tabby? It says here that your fiance spends more time

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Speaker 4: Yeah, so he does, and he's only played video games

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Speaker 4: like ever since I've known him and my dad and

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Speaker 1: Been up on video games, and I do have a

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Speaker 2: So what is it, what is it that you would

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Speaker 1: For him to like spend some of the time off

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Speaker 1: I feel like a lot of men, and I don't

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Speaker 2: So all right, have you have you told him everything

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Speaker 1: Yeah, And that's where it really comes from where he

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Speaker 1: like NonStop video games and so like they like encourage

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Speaker 2: you know, your guys' relationship. You can't make him get

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Speaker 2: No, I don't think you're I don't like the idea

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Speaker 2: you're openly examining what you want from people, right, and

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Speaker 2: it's you're only twenty two years old.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm twenty probably twenty three on the thirtieth almost.

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Speaker 2: I mean, so like this is like a good thing

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Speaker 1: Yeah, that's very true. Thank you for validating my feelings.

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Speaker 1: I guess that if anything, feels nice to know that.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I won't. Thank you appreciate it for sure.

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Speaker 2: Thanks for calling Tabby good night. How's your life going, toy?

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Speaker 2: Is it Victoria or Tory?

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Speaker 5: Oh no, no, no, no one calls me. There's Victoria?

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Speaker 2: Victoria? What are you doing right now?

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Speaker 5: Well, I'm like high, sitting in my boyfriend's room.

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Speaker 5: I took two bowls earlier, so I'm pretty I.

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Speaker 2: Is that enough for you? Or are you considering a

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Speaker 5: Or am I what? I'm sorry?

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Speaker 2: Victoria? It says here you grew up thinking that your

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Speaker 5: Okay, well, I guess I can sum this up. And basically,

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Speaker 5: Well, because we got uh, me and my two brothers

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Speaker 5: That basically she made us believe that he was our

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Speaker 2: Okay, and that guy is gone. Yeah, your actual father?

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Speaker 5: Hours I went to go visit my mom nearby. She

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Speaker 5: Well, basically she admitted and confessed everything, even though my

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Speaker 2: And have you gone to see your father since finding

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Speaker 5: Yes, Well, actually he came to me. He actually has

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Speaker 5: At first, I was surprised, but after a while I

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Speaker 2: Changing interesting not so you kind of have gotten used

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Speaker 5: I don't know, Like my life is pretty okay, Like

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Speaker 5: Sometimes he'll message me or I'll message him, but there's

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Speaker 5: No, I had uh through actually mostly through his wife.

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Speaker 5: like I'll call her and then she'll she'll like tell

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Speaker 5: Are you?

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Speaker 5: About the same as much as he is. You know,

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Speaker 2: Okay, now are you? How do you feel about the

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Speaker 5: I don't. I I don't feel like a certain type

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Speaker 2: So, so, are you planning on learning any Spanish to

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Speaker 5: I have not. I am pretty unmotivated to do that,

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Speaker 5: But now that you're mentioning it just seems like a

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Speaker 5: No, you know what it's It's also funny that you

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Speaker 5: but I tell her you could also lose an me,

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Speaker 2: But so you have adopt. So you said you were

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Speaker 5: M hmm, yes.

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Speaker 2: And it's it's funny because it's like, you know, it's

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Speaker 2: And then here comes a new dad. It's like, even

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Speaker 5: Like I'm also you know, I'm kind of getting to

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Speaker 2: It was good memories in't okay. So you're not just

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Speaker 2: What do you call that? Because it's not because it's

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Speaker 2: What do you what do you refer to those people

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Speaker 5: Well, they call me, you know, like sister and whatnot,

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Speaker 5: So I don't know. My mom was kind of kind

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Speaker 2: That's a that's a whole slow of dads, A lot

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Speaker 5: I feel like they probably know both. But I've only

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Speaker 2: Yeah, okay, but when you went to see him for

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Speaker 5: Yeah, we all like try to we try to find

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Speaker 2: I was about to say that sounds like a lot,

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Speaker 5: It's no, it's it goes crazy. Whenever I first met

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Speaker 2: So I mean figured out you finally figured out.

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Speaker 5: What like I Yeah, I am like way harrier than

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Speaker 2: H Okay. So you're coming to epiphanies, you're learning about

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Speaker 5: Yeah, that's crazy.

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Speaker 2: Well, uh, Victoria, before we go, I mean, do you

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Speaker 2: are they kind of you know, as you have all

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Speaker 5: Well, it's not going to be like one of my

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Speaker 5: because he actually sent me some like release funds because

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Speaker 5: But I think I will at least try to get

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Speaker 5: to know them better, maybe learn a little Spanish, a.

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Speaker 2: Little Spanish, make a little money. It's a good gig.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, I just wanted to say, I really do enjoy

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Speaker 5: watching your show, and it's it's nice to see you

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Speaker 2: Hey, thank you very much, Victoria, appreciate you.

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Speaker 5: Sharon, Okay, I'll see you.

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Speaker 2: That was a Victoria. Yeah. It's hard, I feel like

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Speaker 2: because when you're twenty three, I was reading this article

439
00:27:01,600 --> 00:27:04,240
Speaker 2: that said something like, by the okay, if you were

440
00:27:04,280 --> 00:27:09,520
Speaker 2: to like sum up all the in person time that

441
00:27:09,600 --> 00:27:12,400
Speaker 2: you spend with your parents over the course of your

442
00:27:12,720 --> 00:27:18,560
Speaker 2: entire life, right that all the in person time that

443
00:27:18,560 --> 00:27:20,240
Speaker 2: you're going to spend with your parents the course of

444
00:27:20,240 --> 00:27:23,639
Speaker 2: your entire life by the time you're Victoria's age by

445
00:27:23,680 --> 00:27:29,280
Speaker 2: time you're twenty three, something like ninety or even ninety

446
00:27:29,280 --> 00:27:37,320
Speaker 2: five percent of that time is already gone. So at

447
00:27:37,359 --> 00:27:40,720
Speaker 2: that point it's like, you know, the way that she

448
00:27:40,840 --> 00:27:43,800
Speaker 2: was describing it, like, I'll, you know, I'll try to

449
00:27:44,280 --> 00:27:48,440
Speaker 2: keep the relationship going when I can. It's like, well,

450
00:27:48,480 --> 00:27:51,760
Speaker 2: that's how it has to be, even with even with

451
00:27:51,800 --> 00:27:55,159
Speaker 2: your birth parents, you know, at that age. So I

452
00:27:55,240 --> 00:27:58,720
Speaker 2: find that to be an interesting predicament. Someone said, GHEK,

453
00:27:58,760 --> 00:28:05,120
Speaker 2: how tall you? Uh, I'm five six. I'm actually five

454
00:28:05,160 --> 00:28:07,280
Speaker 2: So okay, let me just real quick. I'm actually five

455
00:28:07,359 --> 00:28:10,679
Speaker 2: six and a half. I used to tell people that

456
00:28:10,800 --> 00:28:14,879
Speaker 2: I was five seven. I used to round up, and

457
00:28:14,960 --> 00:28:21,119
Speaker 2: now I round down because I feel like it's closer

458
00:28:21,160 --> 00:28:26,679
Speaker 2: to the truth. I'm probably closer to like five six

459
00:28:27,280 --> 00:28:30,280
Speaker 2: point four that I am the five six point five.

460
00:28:31,359 --> 00:28:34,000
Speaker 2: So I'll round down because these are the cards that

461
00:28:34,040 --> 00:28:37,199
Speaker 2: I was given. I used to I used to be

462
00:28:37,240 --> 00:28:40,800
Speaker 2: uncomfortable about being short. Used to be uncomfortable about it.

463
00:28:42,200 --> 00:28:45,360
Speaker 2: There's a lot of people self conscious. I know, we

464
00:28:45,400 --> 00:28:50,040
Speaker 2: live in a society that values uh, you know, being

465
00:28:50,080 --> 00:28:52,600
Speaker 2: a taller male. Well, I'm telling you, listen, if you're

466
00:28:52,600 --> 00:28:55,760
Speaker 2: a short king out there, I'm telling you you've got

467
00:28:55,760 --> 00:28:59,640
Speaker 2: to embrace it. You gotta embrace your cards. Homeie, you

468
00:28:59,720 --> 00:29:01,680
Speaker 2: were out the hand. Some people didn't even get delt

469
00:29:01,680 --> 00:29:05,120
Speaker 2: the hand. Some people just they were come and then

470
00:29:05,160 --> 00:29:08,520
Speaker 2: that's it. They just lived and died. Is come. But

471
00:29:08,560 --> 00:29:11,680
Speaker 2: you're a whole person. It's an honor to be any

472
00:29:11,760 --> 00:29:20,360
Speaker 2: height at all. Hello there, oh, hello, Hello, how are you.

473
00:29:20,480 --> 00:29:24,080
Speaker 3: I'm I'm doing great. I'm doing great.

474
00:29:24,080 --> 00:29:24,600
Speaker 4: How about you?

475
00:29:25,280 --> 00:29:29,680
Speaker 2: Really? You said that like the first time you said it.

476
00:29:30,040 --> 00:29:33,520
Speaker 2: What happens now is you said I'm feeling great as

477
00:29:33,600 --> 00:29:36,920
Speaker 2: like a gut reaction, and then you double checked. You're like, oh,

478
00:29:36,960 --> 00:29:38,959
Speaker 2: I just said that as my gut reaction. Let me

479
00:29:39,000 --> 00:29:42,080
Speaker 2: look at it and make sure it's true. And then

480
00:29:42,160 --> 00:29:43,440
Speaker 2: you looked at it and you're like, you know what,

481
00:29:43,520 --> 00:29:45,320
Speaker 2: I actually am feeling great?

482
00:29:47,080 --> 00:29:50,239
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, exactly what happened is exactly what.

483
00:29:50,480 --> 00:29:52,520
Speaker 2: So you're telling the truth right now? You feel great?

484
00:29:53,400 --> 00:29:55,440
Speaker 3: I am. I am telling the truth completely honest.

485
00:29:55,840 --> 00:29:57,320
Speaker 2: Why do you Why do you feel so great? Could

486
00:29:57,360 --> 00:30:00,400
Speaker 2: you peg it to anything or is it just h theory?

487
00:30:00,440 --> 00:30:04,480
Speaker 3: Well, uh, well you know just here talking to you,

488
00:30:04,640 --> 00:30:06,680
Speaker 3: and uh, you know, I went to the gym earlier

489
00:30:06,760 --> 00:30:08,600
Speaker 3: that that made me feel good. But Uh, you know,

490
00:30:08,720 --> 00:30:10,560
Speaker 3: just I'm just feeling good, feeling good.

491
00:30:11,720 --> 00:30:14,920
Speaker 2: Well, Uh, is what is your name or what can

492
00:30:14,960 --> 00:30:17,040
Speaker 2: I call you? You don't have to give me a real

493
00:30:17,120 --> 00:30:20,720
Speaker 2: name number. I'm gonna call you five. Yeah. Uh, you

494
00:30:20,760 --> 00:30:23,400
Speaker 2: took you took too long? Answer? You took too long

495
00:30:23,440 --> 00:30:24,080
Speaker 2: to answer five?

496
00:30:24,200 --> 00:30:24,400
Speaker 5: Five?

497
00:30:25,200 --> 00:30:27,520
Speaker 2: Uh? Is there anything in particularly you called in to

498
00:30:27,560 --> 00:30:28,200
Speaker 2: talk about today?

499
00:30:29,800 --> 00:30:30,120
Speaker 1: Right?

500
00:30:30,200 --> 00:30:30,520
Speaker 5: Okay?

501
00:30:30,600 --> 00:30:34,520
Speaker 3: So I I joined a fraternity and and I did

502
00:30:34,520 --> 00:30:39,160
Speaker 3: it because I don't really understand men a lot. They're

503
00:30:39,160 --> 00:30:41,160
Speaker 3: they're they're very they're really confusing to me. But but

504
00:30:41,160 --> 00:30:43,320
Speaker 3: but I'm a man. I was born, uh you know,

505
00:30:43,320 --> 00:30:47,360
Speaker 3: a sign mailed birth, and that's what I am. But

506
00:30:47,600 --> 00:30:49,560
Speaker 3: I just, you know, I've never really understood man. I

507
00:30:49,560 --> 00:30:51,680
Speaker 3: always had a lot of female friends. I was raised

508
00:30:51,680 --> 00:30:56,720
Speaker 3: by a very extremely progressive mother. And now I'm kind

509
00:30:56,720 --> 00:31:00,120
Speaker 3: of at this point where I don't really like and

510
00:31:00,160 --> 00:31:02,680
Speaker 3: so so I joined this fraternity to try to figure

511
00:31:02,720 --> 00:31:05,880
Speaker 3: them out. And it has kind of just ended up

512
00:31:05,880 --> 00:31:08,840
Speaker 3: with me kind of figuring them out and then realizing

513
00:31:08,840 --> 00:31:11,080
Speaker 3: that I still don't really.

514
00:31:12,280 --> 00:31:12,600
Speaker 6: Like them.

515
00:31:12,600 --> 00:31:15,280
Speaker 3: And so I'm in this really weird spot where now

516
00:31:15,280 --> 00:31:17,040
Speaker 3: I'm in a fraternity and I'm and I'm a and

517
00:31:17,040 --> 00:31:17,720
Speaker 3: I'm a treasurer.

518
00:31:17,880 --> 00:31:19,120
Speaker 5: I'm a I'm a I'm a.

519
00:31:19,640 --> 00:31:22,280
Speaker 3: One of like the head positions, but like I just

520
00:31:22,360 --> 00:31:25,320
Speaker 3: don't really like I still don't really like men, And

521
00:31:25,360 --> 00:31:27,920
Speaker 3: so I've gotten myself into this odd predicament.

522
00:31:28,800 --> 00:31:29,080
Speaker 5: M M.

523
00:31:29,760 --> 00:31:31,640
Speaker 2: Why don't you like men?

524
00:31:35,720 --> 00:31:40,320
Speaker 3: I mean, to be honest, they're normally just raised badly.

525
00:31:41,760 --> 00:31:45,400
Speaker 3: But just the way that men don't really like check themselves,

526
00:31:45,400 --> 00:31:48,880
Speaker 3: like what they're saying and like there their impact on

527
00:31:48,920 --> 00:31:55,320
Speaker 3: other people is just so self centered and it's it

528
00:31:55,440 --> 00:31:58,760
Speaker 3: just gets really confusing and and and I don't know

529
00:31:58,880 --> 00:32:02,680
Speaker 3: how like like but like I like, men are really

530
00:32:02,800 --> 00:32:05,200
Speaker 3: warning and they just talk about it all the time,

531
00:32:06,160 --> 00:32:08,480
Speaker 3: and like I don't. It's not something I really feel

532
00:32:08,720 --> 00:32:11,000
Speaker 3: comfortable talking about, but it always comes up when I'm

533
00:32:11,080 --> 00:32:14,120
Speaker 3: whenever I'm like hanging out with like like male friends,

534
00:32:14,240 --> 00:32:17,240
Speaker 3: if I if I do that, yeah, m hmmm.

535
00:32:17,720 --> 00:32:21,400
Speaker 2: So okay, So I okay, So I'm curious. And you know, look,

536
00:32:21,400 --> 00:32:23,520
Speaker 2: we can go into as shallow or as deep of

537
00:32:23,560 --> 00:32:26,480
Speaker 2: detail in this regard as you're comfortable with or willing

538
00:32:26,520 --> 00:32:32,000
Speaker 2: to go. Do you how do you feel about being

539
00:32:32,040 --> 00:32:32,480
Speaker 2: a man?

540
00:32:36,080 --> 00:32:40,200
Speaker 3: I'm I'm pretty comfortable being a dude, you know, I

541
00:32:40,200 --> 00:32:42,680
Speaker 3: I just I just be chilling as a as an

542
00:32:42,800 --> 00:32:46,640
Speaker 3: entity in this world. You know, nothing really else to

543
00:32:46,640 --> 00:32:47,560
Speaker 3: do but exist.

544
00:32:47,400 --> 00:32:53,920
Speaker 2: You know, Okay, and I mean okay, So you joined

545
00:32:53,960 --> 00:33:02,360
Speaker 2: this fraternity to try to understand men more, and what

546
00:33:02,400 --> 00:33:04,080
Speaker 2: do you what do you what do you feel like

547
00:33:04,200 --> 00:33:07,800
Speaker 2: you learned from this endeavor?

548
00:33:10,040 --> 00:33:12,880
Speaker 3: I've learned that men are really stubborn, and as much

549
00:33:12,920 --> 00:33:15,720
Speaker 3: as they preach about life lessons, they really don't want

550
00:33:15,760 --> 00:33:20,360
Speaker 3: to learn anything mm hm. And they really like being right,

551
00:33:21,240 --> 00:33:22,560
Speaker 3: some weird thing about being right.

552
00:33:23,640 --> 00:33:26,080
Speaker 2: So I start to ask you, so, as as a

553
00:33:26,080 --> 00:33:29,680
Speaker 2: as a man, you know, as you're talking and saying

554
00:33:29,680 --> 00:33:35,200
Speaker 2: all these things about men, are are you including yourself

555
00:33:36,480 --> 00:33:38,480
Speaker 2: in all these things that you're saying?

556
00:33:40,840 --> 00:33:41,040
Speaker 6: Yeah?

557
00:33:41,480 --> 00:33:46,200
Speaker 3: No, absolutely no, okay, so so so I've won, but

558
00:33:46,360 --> 00:33:46,880
Speaker 3: it's so.

559
00:33:46,840 --> 00:33:50,680
Speaker 2: We're saying, so we're saying, so we're saying, so your horny,

560
00:33:51,280 --> 00:33:53,920
Speaker 2: you feel like you're always right, you feel like you're stubborn.

561
00:33:54,240 --> 00:33:56,720
Speaker 2: I'm not saying these things, but you feel like these

562
00:33:56,760 --> 00:33:58,680
Speaker 2: are things about you as well?

563
00:34:00,040 --> 00:34:01,720
Speaker 3: Oh absolutely, I just don't talk about.

564
00:34:01,560 --> 00:34:07,640
Speaker 2: It, okay, okay, up here, okay, okay, interesting, So are

565
00:34:07,680 --> 00:34:09,600
Speaker 2: these things that you don't like about yourself? Do you

566
00:34:09,600 --> 00:34:11,839
Speaker 2: not like you don't like that you're horny, You don't

567
00:34:11,920 --> 00:34:13,640
Speaker 2: like that you're stubborn, you don't like that you feel

568
00:34:13,640 --> 00:34:14,439
Speaker 2: like you're always right.

569
00:34:16,000 --> 00:34:18,480
Speaker 3: No, no, no, no, no, I no exactly, I really

570
00:34:18,480 --> 00:34:20,239
Speaker 3: don't like those things about it, And so I and

571
00:34:20,280 --> 00:34:22,879
Speaker 3: so I read a lot of like self help books

572
00:34:22,880 --> 00:34:24,520
Speaker 3: and psychology books, and I work on it, you know,

573
00:34:24,960 --> 00:34:27,000
Speaker 3: trying to make myself a better person for others and

574
00:34:27,080 --> 00:34:28,319
Speaker 3: myself and myself of course.

575
00:34:28,920 --> 00:34:37,160
Speaker 2: Mm hmmm, hmm, interesting hmmm. Now do you have any

576
00:34:37,360 --> 00:34:42,000
Speaker 2: uh I know you said that you have primarily female friends? Uh,

577
00:34:42,120 --> 00:34:43,120
Speaker 2: did you have it? Do you have a father?

578
00:34:45,000 --> 00:34:45,920
Speaker 6: I do? I do.

579
00:34:45,960 --> 00:34:47,239
Speaker 3: He's a great man, Love him to death.

580
00:34:47,280 --> 00:34:48,959
Speaker 2: He's a great guy. He's a great guy.

581
00:34:50,280 --> 00:34:50,720
Speaker 3: Amazing.

582
00:34:50,840 --> 00:34:55,040
Speaker 2: But how do you how do you reconcile with the

583
00:34:55,040 --> 00:34:57,960
Speaker 2: facts that your father and these are your words. Okay, well,

584
00:34:57,960 --> 00:35:00,799
Speaker 2: I'm about to say this is not biz you. But

585
00:35:01,200 --> 00:35:11,719
Speaker 2: we've established you've established your father extremely horny. How do

586
00:35:11,760 --> 00:35:14,120
Speaker 2: you reconcile with how horny your father is?

587
00:35:16,840 --> 00:35:21,600
Speaker 3: Well? I exist, and so does my sister, and uh,

588
00:35:22,360 --> 00:35:24,000
Speaker 3: you know, I mean to an extent. If it were

589
00:35:24,040 --> 00:35:26,560
Speaker 3: not for that horniness, I suppose I would not exist.

590
00:35:26,880 --> 00:35:29,719
Speaker 3: So Okay, there is a certain thankfulness to be there

591
00:35:29,760 --> 00:35:32,200
Speaker 3: for it. But you know there's a time of place.

592
00:35:32,960 --> 00:35:37,480
Speaker 2: Okay, okay, So so you accept horning us as a

593
00:35:38,360 --> 00:35:41,680
Speaker 2: necessary evil of the universe in which we live?

594
00:35:43,320 --> 00:35:43,880
Speaker 3: It truly?

595
00:35:43,960 --> 00:35:44,720
Speaker 6: Is it? Really?

596
00:35:44,800 --> 00:35:44,920
Speaker 1: Is?

597
00:35:45,520 --> 00:35:52,480
Speaker 2: Sure? Sure? Now do you? Okay? So we know that

598
00:35:52,520 --> 00:35:57,200
Speaker 2: you have an active disdain towards men. Do how do

599
00:35:57,239 --> 00:36:02,760
Speaker 2: you feel about women? Do you have a active love

600
00:36:02,920 --> 00:36:03,680
Speaker 2: of women?

601
00:36:05,440 --> 00:36:09,160
Speaker 3: I mean, they're people. I mean ideally, I just want

602
00:36:09,200 --> 00:36:11,319
Speaker 3: to see everybody as just like a person. It's just

603
00:36:11,400 --> 00:36:16,080
Speaker 3: kind of like I really, I think labels are kind

604
00:36:16,080 --> 00:36:18,799
Speaker 3: of weird, you know, just the the idea of like

605
00:36:18,880 --> 00:36:21,359
Speaker 3: labeling all these weird biological things, like it's all made

606
00:36:21,360 --> 00:36:27,080
Speaker 3: by humans anyways. But like women, men equal in you know,

607
00:36:27,239 --> 00:36:30,040
Speaker 3: just by birth, but some of them just s more

608
00:36:30,040 --> 00:36:31,239
Speaker 3: than others in personality, you know.

609
00:36:31,960 --> 00:36:37,360
Speaker 2: So I saw if if you, if your goal is

610
00:36:37,600 --> 00:36:42,840
Speaker 2: to do less of putting people in the boxes, do

611
00:36:43,000 --> 00:36:46,040
Speaker 2: less labeling, by the way, fantastic goal. I have that

612
00:36:46,120 --> 00:36:51,440
Speaker 2: same goal. It's a good goal to have. Why do

613
00:36:51,520 --> 00:36:59,239
Speaker 2: you indulge yourself in generalizations of any kind? Because I

614
00:36:59,239 --> 00:37:04,759
Speaker 2: I because that would seem as though it's against your

615
00:37:04,800 --> 00:37:10,720
Speaker 2: goal of removing removing all of your your labeling.

616
00:37:12,480 --> 00:37:16,200
Speaker 3: That is true. That is true. But you know, I

617
00:37:15,800 --> 00:37:18,520
Speaker 3: I you make a great point. You make a great point.

618
00:37:18,560 --> 00:37:21,480
Speaker 3: Some labels are necessary. I suppose you know the state

619
00:37:21,560 --> 00:37:23,799
Speaker 3: you're in, the states that's next to you.

620
00:37:24,480 --> 00:37:25,040
Speaker 5: Mm hmmm.

621
00:37:25,640 --> 00:37:28,879
Speaker 3: Uh, you know your name. Lots of labels out there,

622
00:37:29,640 --> 00:37:30,600
Speaker 3: mm hmmmm hmm.

623
00:37:31,120 --> 00:37:35,759
Speaker 2: But labeling your fathers horning is not. We wouldn't say

624
00:37:35,800 --> 00:37:39,680
Speaker 2: that as entirely necessary. Uh, entirely necessary.

625
00:37:39,760 --> 00:37:43,560
Speaker 3: Label it is not necessary.

626
00:37:43,680 --> 00:37:48,040
Speaker 2: No, okay, okay, you know you're on a good You're

627
00:37:48,080 --> 00:37:51,520
Speaker 2: on a good journey. I feel right, I mean this

628
00:37:51,719 --> 00:37:53,680
Speaker 2: is uh, this is how we want. I feel like

629
00:37:53,719 --> 00:37:55,640
Speaker 2: this is a good way to want to see the world.

630
00:37:56,480 --> 00:37:58,800
Speaker 2: Is that to not label? And I I I think

631
00:37:59,560 --> 00:38:03,120
Speaker 2: I'm gonna a little douchey here. Uh, I'm gonna include

632
00:38:03,160 --> 00:38:06,960
Speaker 2: myself in this. I feel like I'm I myself everyone.

633
00:38:06,840 --> 00:38:13,239
Speaker 2: We label people, we label things because the truth of

634
00:38:13,320 --> 00:38:19,319
Speaker 2: what is that every single thing is like infinitely all

635
00:38:19,400 --> 00:38:25,280
Speaker 2: things and people are infinitely complex. You know, they're infinitely complex.

636
00:38:25,320 --> 00:38:29,160
Speaker 2: There's infinite backs back and forth, there's infinite points and counterpoints,

637
00:38:29,160 --> 00:38:34,240
Speaker 2: there's infinite everything, and uh, it's not tangible. We cannot

638
00:38:34,280 --> 00:38:39,200
Speaker 2: wrap our heads around the complexities of every single individual

639
00:38:40,280 --> 00:38:45,840
Speaker 2: on the planet. Uh, and that's okay, though, it's okay

640
00:38:45,880 --> 00:38:47,040
Speaker 2: to admit that.

641
00:38:48,680 --> 00:38:49,000
Speaker 6: It is.

642
00:38:49,120 --> 00:38:51,600
Speaker 3: I meant, it's a lot of data points to consider.

643
00:38:51,719 --> 00:38:53,680
Speaker 2: It's a lot of data, but it's too much data.

644
00:38:54,000 --> 00:38:57,319
Speaker 2: It's too much to go through. I mean that's why

645
00:38:57,360 --> 00:38:59,839
Speaker 2: we label people, right, like every person. Like like when

646
00:38:59,880 --> 00:39:05,520
Speaker 2: you'll see some guy on the street, you know, trip

647
00:39:05,560 --> 00:39:07,720
Speaker 2: and fall, you can be like, that guy's a fucking idiot.

648
00:39:07,719 --> 00:39:10,399
Speaker 2: Why wasn't he watching where he's going? But we can't

649
00:39:10,440 --> 00:39:14,000
Speaker 2: just label this guy off of the five minutes of

650
00:39:14,320 --> 00:39:16,680
Speaker 2: his life that we know about. It's like there's a

651
00:39:16,719 --> 00:39:22,239
Speaker 2: whole life, you know, but we can't internalize It's it's

652
00:39:22,239 --> 00:39:26,680
Speaker 2: impossible to internalize that, to add that into our analysis,

653
00:39:26,840 --> 00:39:29,440
Speaker 2: and so it's easier to label. And I do this.

654
00:39:29,480 --> 00:39:36,120
Speaker 2: Every single person does it out of convenience and necessity.

655
00:39:36,239 --> 00:39:39,319
Speaker 2: So I mean, look good for you for doing your

656
00:39:39,320 --> 00:39:46,279
Speaker 2: best to strip yourself of that natural programming. And uh,

657
00:39:47,920 --> 00:39:51,839
Speaker 2: you know, I guess be a little bit more conscious.

658
00:39:51,880 --> 00:39:54,120
Speaker 2: Maybe is the word. Maybe that's a douchey word. Who knows,

659
00:39:54,200 --> 00:39:56,959
Speaker 2: we're ducehit it up, it says a free douche stone.

660
00:39:59,280 --> 00:40:02,799
Speaker 2: But U five. Is there anything else that you want

661
00:40:02,920 --> 00:40:05,120
Speaker 2: to talk about today?

662
00:40:05,600 --> 00:40:09,040
Speaker 3: Oh? No, not really, you know, I just hope that

663
00:40:09,080 --> 00:40:10,160
Speaker 3: you have an amazing evening.

664
00:40:10,160 --> 00:40:14,759
Speaker 2: Man, I appreciate that. I'll I'll try to have an

665
00:40:14,760 --> 00:40:15,520
Speaker 2: amazing evening.

666
00:40:16,840 --> 00:40:17,680
Speaker 6: Let me try your best.

667
00:40:18,239 --> 00:40:24,080
Speaker 2: I will thank you for calling five. Absolutely, that call

668
00:40:25,280 --> 00:40:28,239
Speaker 2: has awakened us all into something that we need to recognize,

669
00:40:28,320 --> 00:40:30,160
Speaker 2: which is that all of our the fact that we

670
00:40:30,320 --> 00:40:35,680
Speaker 2: exist means that our father. If you're listening to this,

671
00:40:35,840 --> 00:40:43,760
Speaker 2: you exist. A A leads to B B. Your father

672
00:40:44,080 --> 00:40:51,520
Speaker 2: at one point was extremely horny. Everyone has to reconcile

673
00:40:51,560 --> 00:40:57,840
Speaker 2: with that. You don't have to go into graphic, imaginative

674
00:40:57,880 --> 00:41:02,279
Speaker 2: detail about just how horning you're father was, but it

675
00:41:02,360 --> 00:41:08,960
Speaker 2: is necessary for you to accept it. If your goal

676
00:41:09,719 --> 00:41:14,240
Speaker 2: is to see other people as four dimensionally as possible,

677
00:41:15,440 --> 00:41:18,360
Speaker 2: and if you would like to start with the people

678
00:41:18,440 --> 00:41:26,319
Speaker 2: closest to you, you got to start by imagining a

679
00:41:26,440 --> 00:41:28,880
Speaker 2: very horny version of your father and your mother too.

680
00:41:28,920 --> 00:41:33,359
Speaker 2: Your mother was also very horny. And it's a love.

681
00:41:33,400 --> 00:41:43,400
Speaker 2: It's a beautiful thing that your horny sex starved. Uh

682
00:41:43,600 --> 00:41:50,879
Speaker 2: what's the word, what's the word lustful? Father? And you're

683
00:41:52,280 --> 00:41:56,799
Speaker 2: come slut of a mom found each other like like

684
00:41:57,000 --> 00:42:07,120
Speaker 2: pieces of a puzzle, and created you. Thank god, your

685
00:42:07,120 --> 00:42:11,120
Speaker 2: mother and your father were that horning. Look at you.

686
00:42:11,120 --> 00:42:14,920
Speaker 2: You're a beautiful miracle of the universe as a result

687
00:42:14,960 --> 00:42:20,280
Speaker 2: of that horniness, and so we must thank the Lord

688
00:42:25,520 --> 00:42:35,840
Speaker 2: for making us all horning. Sophie. Hello, Hi, how are you, Sophie?

689
00:42:38,000 --> 00:42:40,000
Speaker 6: I'm doing okay, pretty good.

690
00:42:41,000 --> 00:42:49,160
Speaker 2: Uh well, I'm a gecko and we're on the phone,

691
00:42:49,440 --> 00:42:53,880
Speaker 2: and that's you know, what do we what do you?

692
00:42:53,880 --> 00:42:55,160
Speaker 2: Where do you think we should go from here?

693
00:42:58,800 --> 00:42:59,400
Speaker 6: How's your day?

694
00:42:59,440 --> 00:43:06,120
Speaker 2: Then, Sophie, it says here that your thirty five year

695
00:43:06,120 --> 00:43:10,400
Speaker 2: old sister you concerned about her? Why are you concerned

696
00:43:10,400 --> 00:43:12,160
Speaker 2: about her?

697
00:43:13,080 --> 00:43:17,280
Speaker 6: Okay? So she's always been kind of a dead beat,

698
00:43:17,440 --> 00:43:20,319
Speaker 6: like she has kids, doesn't care about them, you know.

699
00:43:21,000 --> 00:43:23,879
Speaker 6: And then she got with this guy, okay, and he

700
00:43:24,160 --> 00:43:28,759
Speaker 6: is I'm not sure exactly what is wrong with him,

701
00:43:28,800 --> 00:43:32,040
Speaker 6: but he does have a history. He robbed the gas station,

702
00:43:33,160 --> 00:43:35,640
Speaker 6: was in like possession of mess, you know, all that stuff,

703
00:43:36,200 --> 00:43:40,000
Speaker 6: and they just slowly went downhill, like they called. They

704
00:43:40,000 --> 00:43:43,160
Speaker 6: thought that my dad was working with the FBI against them.

705
00:43:43,440 --> 00:43:45,960
Speaker 6: They think they're being followed all the time, you know,

706
00:43:47,280 --> 00:43:50,480
Speaker 6: And when you think, oh, he thinks he's God, is

707
00:43:50,520 --> 00:43:53,959
Speaker 6: like one certain, No, he thinks he's the second Coming.

708
00:43:54,960 --> 00:44:02,160
Speaker 2: The second Coming of God. Yes? Is uh like does

709
00:44:02,200 --> 00:44:05,320
Speaker 2: she does she think that he's the second Coming of God?

710
00:44:06,480 --> 00:44:06,719
Speaker 5: Yes?

711
00:44:07,160 --> 00:44:09,880
Speaker 6: And like they've discussed it with my parents. They also

712
00:44:10,160 --> 00:44:15,480
Speaker 6: told my parents that they own ten of Google and

713
00:44:15,640 --> 00:44:18,560
Speaker 6: like two inundred K and Crypto, but they live in

714
00:44:18,560 --> 00:44:18,960
Speaker 6: an RV.

715
00:44:19,200 --> 00:44:22,360
Speaker 2: You know, I don't know. At what point I almost

716
00:44:23,120 --> 00:44:24,759
Speaker 2: you know, when you're telling me this, I'm almost like,

717
00:44:24,800 --> 00:44:28,640
Speaker 2: at what point do the people living in their own

718
00:44:28,680 --> 00:44:32,959
Speaker 2: delusions are they? We just have to admit that they're

719
00:44:33,000 --> 00:44:39,560
Speaker 2: having like a way better time than we are. You know,

720
00:44:39,800 --> 00:44:41,839
Speaker 2: maybe they have it right. I'm just saying, maybe they

721
00:44:41,840 --> 00:44:48,719
Speaker 2: have it right. Maybe I was and perception is that again?

722
00:44:51,440 --> 00:44:53,160
Speaker 6: Or I just wish that I could like chill and

723
00:44:53,200 --> 00:44:55,759
Speaker 6: just believe I was like the second Coming and not

724
00:44:55,880 --> 00:44:56,480
Speaker 6: to do anything.

725
00:44:57,200 --> 00:44:59,279
Speaker 2: I know, I'm like a little bit jealous of this

726
00:44:59,360 --> 00:45:04,240
Speaker 2: guy because I no matter what I do, no matter

727
00:45:04,360 --> 00:45:07,040
Speaker 2: what I do, I could say it, I could whatever

728
00:45:07,120 --> 00:45:09,560
Speaker 2: manifest it, I could think it every single day, but

729
00:45:10,480 --> 00:45:12,480
Speaker 2: I could not check myself into thinking I was God.

730
00:45:12,520 --> 00:45:15,480
Speaker 2: I totally wish I could. I would be way happier

731
00:45:15,480 --> 00:45:17,319
Speaker 2: if I thought that I was God and that I

732
00:45:17,360 --> 00:45:18,520
Speaker 2: had two hundred thousand dollars.

733
00:45:18,560 --> 00:45:21,920
Speaker 6: I know, well, just another person.

734
00:45:23,480 --> 00:45:29,400
Speaker 2: There's almost really no difference. There's really no difference between

735
00:45:30,200 --> 00:45:33,799
Speaker 2: having two hundred thousand dollars and thinking that you have

736
00:45:34,000 --> 00:45:36,120
Speaker 2: being one hundred percent convince that you have two hundred

737
00:45:36,120 --> 00:45:42,759
Speaker 2: thousand dollars the same. You experience the reality of having

738
00:45:42,800 --> 00:45:46,000
Speaker 2: two hundred thousand dollars the same, whether you have it

739
00:45:46,120 --> 00:45:49,040
Speaker 2: or whether you're convinced that you do. But I can't

740
00:45:49,040 --> 00:45:53,480
Speaker 2: convince myself that because I'm not as creative as this guy.

741
00:45:55,440 --> 00:45:56,040
Speaker 5: Yeah, that like.

742
00:45:56,040 --> 00:46:00,359
Speaker 6: Security of knowing you would have that much money. See.

743
00:46:00,400 --> 00:46:06,480
Speaker 6: The problem is though my parents enable them in a way,

744
00:46:06,719 --> 00:46:10,399
Speaker 6: like they send them money. They're like they're too much

745
00:46:10,440 --> 00:46:11,960
Speaker 6: of saint. They're like, I don't want to see my

746
00:46:12,040 --> 00:46:15,720
Speaker 6: daughter on the street, you know. But I'm like, oh,

747
00:46:15,760 --> 00:46:18,280
Speaker 6: like you're not. It's not doing anything.

748
00:46:23,400 --> 00:46:28,000
Speaker 2: So I was started talking to the previous caller about this.

749
00:46:29,840 --> 00:46:31,480
Speaker 2: I don't know if it was the exact previous but

750
00:46:31,520 --> 00:46:33,360
Speaker 2: I was. I was at one point talking to another

751
00:46:33,360 --> 00:46:37,560
Speaker 2: caller about the whole like things that are and are

752
00:46:37,600 --> 00:46:41,799
Speaker 2: not in your control. And this is a difficult one

753
00:46:41,840 --> 00:46:47,680
Speaker 2: because you are twenty. It says here, your sister's thirty five,

754
00:46:48,680 --> 00:46:52,719
Speaker 2: And yeah, it's great that you care about her. I'm

755
00:46:52,719 --> 00:46:55,839
Speaker 2: sure that you communicate to her that you care about her.

756
00:46:56,840 --> 00:47:01,439
Speaker 2: But it's hard because it's like, what can you do

757
00:47:02,200 --> 00:47:12,359
Speaker 2: really to to to help her with these delusions? Like

758
00:47:12,400 --> 00:47:16,759
Speaker 2: you have these these good intentions for this person, but

759
00:47:17,160 --> 00:47:21,359
Speaker 2: at the end of the day, she care. She's got

760
00:47:21,400 --> 00:47:26,000
Speaker 2: to be the one to pull the trigger on getting

761
00:47:26,000 --> 00:47:26,640
Speaker 2: out of this thing.

762
00:47:29,080 --> 00:47:32,279
Speaker 6: Yeah, well, she just went back to jail briefly for now,

763
00:47:33,200 --> 00:47:35,560
Speaker 6: so I'm hoping that maybe some time away we'll give

764
00:47:35,560 --> 00:47:36,479
Speaker 6: her some thinking time.

765
00:47:37,360 --> 00:47:38,480
Speaker 2: Mm hmmm, mm hmm.

766
00:47:39,360 --> 00:47:41,239
Speaker 6: She's gonna be back out soon and it's just going

767
00:47:41,280 --> 00:47:45,120
Speaker 6: to be the exact same. But also, I don't care

768
00:47:45,160 --> 00:47:50,719
Speaker 6: about her that much, really don't like I had. She

769
00:47:50,760 --> 00:47:53,160
Speaker 6: didn't spend any time with me as a child. I

770
00:47:53,239 --> 00:47:56,080
Speaker 6: didn't even like live with her ever. And all she's

771
00:47:56,120 --> 00:47:59,600
Speaker 6: done is be like really awful to me and then

772
00:47:59,680 --> 00:48:02,000
Speaker 6: like all this like I'm not even I'm barely I'm

773
00:48:02,000 --> 00:48:04,680
Speaker 6: only in communication with her for her children because I

774
00:48:04,760 --> 00:48:10,239
Speaker 6: basically raised them at the time. So I'm like, I

775
00:48:10,400 --> 00:48:11,360
Speaker 6: just want her to go away.

776
00:48:12,960 --> 00:48:15,520
Speaker 2: Well, you care, you cared enough to call in and

777
00:48:15,560 --> 00:48:16,239
Speaker 2: talk about it.

778
00:48:17,800 --> 00:48:20,640
Speaker 6: Well, I care about my parents, like and the fact

779
00:48:20,640 --> 00:48:21,520
Speaker 6: that like they're.

780
00:48:21,560 --> 00:48:24,440
Speaker 5: Because they they treat me differently and won't.

781
00:48:24,239 --> 00:48:27,000
Speaker 6: Give me like anything because they're like, well we bought

782
00:48:27,080 --> 00:48:29,600
Speaker 6: kindle this we're sending out like we don't want you

783
00:48:29,640 --> 00:48:30,120
Speaker 6: to be her.

784
00:48:30,120 --> 00:48:30,920
Speaker 5: It's like free.

785
00:48:30,680 --> 00:48:35,800
Speaker 2: Loading m m m okay, So you take care of

786
00:48:35,840 --> 00:48:40,200
Speaker 2: how old are her kids now?

787
00:48:40,200 --> 00:48:41,680
Speaker 6: They're twelve and eight.

788
00:48:42,320 --> 00:48:46,920
Speaker 2: Okay, and you take care of them.

789
00:48:47,239 --> 00:48:50,000
Speaker 6: No, Like the their dad finally like or he stepped

790
00:48:50,080 --> 00:48:52,759
Speaker 6: up a little bit a little bit ago, and like

791
00:48:52,800 --> 00:48:55,080
Speaker 6: that's full basically full custody of them now because she

792
00:48:55,239 --> 00:48:57,799
Speaker 6: never went to court so they would get to live

793
00:48:57,800 --> 00:48:58,239
Speaker 6: with him now.

794
00:48:58,280 --> 00:48:58,800
Speaker 5: So it's okay.

795
00:48:58,840 --> 00:49:01,960
Speaker 6: But like at the time, they were like kind of

796
00:49:01,960 --> 00:49:04,239
Speaker 6: floating between them. They lived in my house.

797
00:49:07,760 --> 00:49:09,680
Speaker 2: And when you say your house, is it your parents

798
00:49:09,760 --> 00:49:10,920
Speaker 2: house or is it your house?

799
00:49:11,040 --> 00:49:13,120
Speaker 6: Oh yeah, it's my parents.

800
00:49:12,960 --> 00:49:15,719
Speaker 2: House, and so are your parents helping take care of

801
00:49:15,800 --> 00:49:16,200
Speaker 2: them as well?

802
00:49:18,360 --> 00:49:20,640
Speaker 6: A little bit at the time, my dad wasn't of

803
00:49:20,680 --> 00:49:22,680
Speaker 6: her home, so it was like kind of like me

804
00:49:22,800 --> 00:49:23,959
Speaker 6: and my.

805
00:49:23,920 --> 00:49:28,759
Speaker 2: Mom, So it's you your mom, the twelve year old

806
00:49:28,760 --> 00:49:29,479
Speaker 2: and the eight year old.

807
00:49:31,360 --> 00:49:34,400
Speaker 6: Yeah, my sister I was pretty young back then, but

808
00:49:34,440 --> 00:49:37,200
Speaker 6: I did spend like most of the time with just them,

809
00:49:37,239 --> 00:49:38,000
Speaker 6: like babysitting.

810
00:49:38,360 --> 00:49:40,480
Speaker 2: Okay, all right, so you're talking. You said you you

811
00:49:40,600 --> 00:49:43,200
Speaker 2: raised them, but like contemporarily right now.

812
00:49:43,200 --> 00:49:45,959
Speaker 6: Oh sorry, I was thinking very dramatic about.

813
00:49:46,520 --> 00:49:48,440
Speaker 2: Oh okay, all right, But so I mean at this

814
00:49:48,560 --> 00:49:51,560
Speaker 2: at this point, you're not you're not taking care of

815
00:49:51,560 --> 00:49:52,480
Speaker 2: her kids.

816
00:49:53,960 --> 00:49:57,440
Speaker 6: No, But it's like it's just such an ongoing problem,

817
00:49:58,520 --> 00:50:00,480
Speaker 6: and I'm like, I don't know if I I should

818
00:50:01,080 --> 00:50:03,840
Speaker 6: give up on this pursuit to like explain to my parents,

819
00:50:04,000 --> 00:50:07,440
Speaker 6: like because I get mad. I'm like, why did you

820
00:50:07,480 --> 00:50:09,439
Speaker 6: bail her out of jail after one day? Like let

821
00:50:09,440 --> 00:50:12,800
Speaker 6: her think or something? And then they found like drugs

822
00:50:12,800 --> 00:50:14,880
Speaker 6: in their car whatever, and they're like, well, we'll just

823
00:50:14,920 --> 00:50:17,200
Speaker 6: throw them away. You don't want to drug charge, and

824
00:50:17,320 --> 00:50:21,440
Speaker 6: like they just continue to support them because they're not working.

825
00:50:21,480 --> 00:50:24,840
Speaker 6: My parents give them money. So I'm like, why are

826
00:50:24,920 --> 00:50:26,839
Speaker 6: y'all doing this? But I'm like, should I just let

827
00:50:26,880 --> 00:50:31,040
Speaker 6: go and let them continue to enable her?

828
00:50:31,880 --> 00:50:32,399
Speaker 1: Or as like.

829
00:50:33,920 --> 00:50:36,200
Speaker 6: I guess there's nothing I could do I can do?

830
00:50:38,920 --> 00:50:44,480
Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean, I I like, like, I like I've

831
00:50:44,520 --> 00:50:47,319
Speaker 2: been saying, it's it's hard, right because there are things

832
00:50:47,320 --> 00:50:50,080
Speaker 2: that are in your control. There are things that are

833
00:50:50,120 --> 00:50:54,759
Speaker 2: not in your control. Uh, now you are in control

834
00:50:55,080 --> 00:51:06,080
Speaker 2: of I think, uh, what you communicate to your sister,

835
00:51:06,960 --> 00:51:12,320
Speaker 2: to your parents, right? So you know, you can tell

836
00:51:12,400 --> 00:51:16,200
Speaker 2: your sister how you feel about her, to care about her.

837
00:51:16,440 --> 00:51:20,080
Speaker 2: You're there for her if you are. If that's genuinely

838
00:51:20,080 --> 00:51:22,799
Speaker 2: how you feel, I don't know if it is. You

839
00:51:22,840 --> 00:51:27,040
Speaker 2: can tell your parents you're doing this wrong for this reason,

840
00:51:28,239 --> 00:51:33,640
Speaker 2: blah blah blah. You know, communicate to them your feelings

841
00:51:33,640 --> 00:51:38,960
Speaker 2: on why they shouldn't be doing what they're doing. You

842
00:51:39,000 --> 00:51:41,880
Speaker 2: can go all out with that because that's that's in

843
00:51:42,000 --> 00:51:44,520
Speaker 2: your control. But once you've gone all out with that,

844
00:51:44,640 --> 00:51:53,880
Speaker 2: once you've sort of exhausted that communication, you are correct.

845
00:51:55,000 --> 00:52:00,319
Speaker 2: I believe that how they choose to treat yourself, sture,

846
00:52:00,360 --> 00:52:02,560
Speaker 2: what they choose to do, what your sister chooses to do,

847
00:52:03,719 --> 00:52:10,800
Speaker 2: is indeed outside of your control, and therefore is uh

848
00:52:11,400 --> 00:52:14,600
Speaker 2: is is not you know, I mean, it seems like

849
00:52:14,600 --> 00:52:18,560
Speaker 2: you're expending a lot of mental energy on this that

850
00:52:19,520 --> 00:52:21,840
Speaker 2: ultimately will go nowhere because it's not in your control.

851
00:52:22,640 --> 00:52:24,000
Speaker 2: Do you, I mean, do you what do you think

852
00:52:24,040 --> 00:52:24,560
Speaker 2: about all that?

853
00:52:26,960 --> 00:52:27,200
Speaker 5: Yeah?

854
00:52:27,600 --> 00:52:33,680
Speaker 6: I agree, this is something some hills you can't die on,

855
00:52:33,760 --> 00:52:36,359
Speaker 6: I guess mm hmmm mm hmm.

856
00:52:37,200 --> 00:52:42,400
Speaker 2: Yeah, but you have good intentions, you know, do you

857
00:52:42,440 --> 00:52:45,239
Speaker 2: do you have a do you have a good relationship

858
00:52:45,280 --> 00:52:49,160
Speaker 2: with uh, with these these kids. It seems like it

859
00:52:49,160 --> 00:52:51,160
Speaker 2: seems like you care a lot about these kids.

860
00:52:52,920 --> 00:52:55,719
Speaker 6: Yeah, the like older one became like a little mini

861
00:52:55,760 --> 00:52:59,080
Speaker 6: me for a while and it was really cute. Then

862
00:52:59,160 --> 00:53:02,719
Speaker 6: the there's a love me a lot.

863
00:53:03,520 --> 00:53:05,840
Speaker 2: That's great. I mean again, that's another thing. That's that's

864
00:53:05,960 --> 00:53:08,480
Speaker 2: when we're sort of break So like in this situation

865
00:53:08,560 --> 00:53:12,040
Speaker 2: where we're breaking down the various aspects of it that

866
00:53:12,120 --> 00:53:15,719
Speaker 2: are in your control. How you choose to foster your

867
00:53:15,760 --> 00:53:19,240
Speaker 2: relationship with these kids, the amount of effort you choose

868
00:53:19,280 --> 00:53:22,920
Speaker 2: to put into that relationship. I mean, of course, the

869
00:53:22,960 --> 00:53:24,920
Speaker 2: amount effort you choose to put into all these relationships,

870
00:53:25,000 --> 00:53:27,840
Speaker 2: but uh, the amount of efort you choose you choose

871
00:53:27,880 --> 00:53:31,319
Speaker 2: to put into these kids forming Obama with them, that's

872
00:53:31,360 --> 00:53:35,000
Speaker 2: in your control, you know what I'm saying. So, uh,

873
00:53:35,600 --> 00:53:38,759
Speaker 2: if you were to like sort of channel all of

874
00:53:38,800 --> 00:53:44,319
Speaker 2: your energy about this situation into the appropriate funnels of it,

875
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Speaker 2: you might find a greater sense of agency. Does that

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Speaker 2: make sense? Did what I say? Just make sense.

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Speaker 5: I don't know.

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Speaker 2: I'm asking myself as well, but I'm pretty sure it did.

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Speaker 6: No, I understand it's a different mindset.

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Speaker 2: So if I were you, I would channel all this.

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Speaker 2: Uh it sounds like frustration.

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Speaker 6: It is a lot of it.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, And the frustration comes from the fact that you

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Speaker 2: can know that you can do because your parents just

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Speaker 2: gonna do what the fuck they're gonna do. You're just

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Speaker 2: gonna do what the fuck she's gonna do, and so yeah,

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Speaker 2: of course you're frustrated from that. But if you channel

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Speaker 2: that frustration into something that's in your control, such as

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Speaker 2: how you build your relationship with your niece and nephew,

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Speaker 2: you might find, like I said, a greater sense of

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Speaker 2: agency over the situation because you're attacking it at the

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Speaker 2: at the right points, you know what I'm saying.

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Speaker 6: Yeah, interesting, Okay, I agree, we'll be taking that right. Good.

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Speaker 2: Good? Is there anything else you want to say before we,

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Speaker 2: uh disintegrate into dust?

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Speaker 6: Well, thank you so much, And oh my gosh, I've

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Speaker 6: been so nervous. I've never called in or talked to

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Speaker 6: anyone you know, like this, But thank you so much.

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Speaker 6: I had a great time.

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Speaker 2: Thank you for calling Soavey, thank you. I had a

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Speaker 2: pretty good time as well. I'll say it, not a

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Speaker 2: bad time being a gecko talking to people on the phone.

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Speaker 2: Never be goes on the line thanking your phone calls

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Speaker 2: every night. Never bek goes too much time. I'm just

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Speaker 2: teaching you loud life. Bloody is not ready an expert.