Speaker 1: All from Hello.
Speaker 2: Hello, I didn't think i'd get through again.
Speaker 3: Why didn't you think you would get through?
Speaker 4: Uh?
Speaker 5: Because I was on a call, maybe like a few
Speaker 5: or two weeks ago or something. Oh, thank you for
Speaker 5: putting the kaleidoscope background.
Speaker 3: I of course I am.
Speaker 5: It's because I love it so much right now, because
Speaker 5: I just had an edible.
Speaker 3: Don't die. Some people have died on edibles.
Speaker 6: What like you mean like least edibles.
Speaker 3: I care about your safety, what to stay safe, Pay
Speaker 3: attention to the pay attention to what's in what you're eating,
Speaker 3: what you're putting in your body. Okay, good, I'm good.
Speaker 3: I care about your well being. I don't want you
Speaker 3: to get laced with cocaine or something.
Speaker 7: No, no, no, I got their like would.
Speaker 3: You buy it? You buy it underneath a breach or
Speaker 3: did you buy it a store like you would an apple.
Speaker 8: My boyfriend got it from one of his coworkers, whose
Speaker 8: boyfriend is a drug dealer.
Speaker 3: All right, I don't try it. I don't trust that
Speaker 3: you should go to the hospital immediately.
Speaker 5: No, no, no official talk.
Speaker 3: I'm sorry. What's your name? What's your name?
Speaker 9: Grace?
Speaker 3: Grace? Will you promise me that you will go to
Speaker 3: the hospital immediately after this school. No, I can't be
Speaker 3: liable for this, Grace, she said, I got it from
Speaker 3: a safe place. I got it from my boyfriend's coworker.
Speaker 3: Go to the hospital, Grace. I could hear you convulsing
Speaker 3: over the phone. I could tell that you needed medical attention.
Speaker 10: On the line.
Speaker 3: Every night, was teaching.
Speaker 1: You all from Saudi Arabia.
Speaker 3: Saudi Arabia.
Speaker 4: Hey, what's up.
Speaker 3: It's just the country of Saudi Arabia. You call it from,
Speaker 3: not government.
Speaker 11: I'm just a normal citizens.
Speaker 3: Do you really do you really live in Saudi Arabia.
Speaker 11: Yeah, you probably doubt it because of my accent. Well,
Speaker 11: no lack of accent, but it's because I've lived in
Speaker 11: the US before.
Speaker 3: No, I looked at it because of your lack of
Speaker 3: the accent. I doubt it because I, you know, generally
Speaker 3: number had not the phone number. The not that I
Speaker 3: doubt it, but I am surprised by it because of
Speaker 3: the phone number, and because of the fact that people
Speaker 3: who live in other countries have generally had a hard
Speaker 3: time calling into this stream for whatever reason. The way
Speaker 3: the Google Voice works.
Speaker 11: I'm just using an app that gives you a false
Speaker 11: US number.
Speaker 3: So I can call nice. How's it going in Saudi Arabia? Anything?
Speaker 4: Pretty nice?
Speaker 11: It's four forty am. People here are fasting because of Ramadan?
Speaker 11: Nice oh as well, though I am fasting.
Speaker 3: Why do people fast for Ramadan?
Speaker 5: Like?
Speaker 3: What is the I don't know. I don't really know
Speaker 3: anything about Ramadan.
Speaker 11: Well, Ramadan is like a whole month where Muslims fast
Speaker 11: and by fasting we don't eat or drink, but we
Speaker 11: also refrain from sinning, maybe like saying bad words, doing
Speaker 11: bad acts. Interesting, So it's basically a full day dedicated
Speaker 11: to worshiping gods.
Speaker 3: Now, let me ask you something. You're abstaining from sin
Speaker 3: for this brief window of time, but you know the
Speaker 3: other three iningances to four days of the year. Do
Speaker 3: you consider yourself in general to be much of a sinner?
Speaker 11: Yeah, to be honest, Yeah, I'm not gonna lie and
Speaker 11: say that I'm perfect, but I do sin, but I
Speaker 11: do also ask God for forgiveness all the time.
Speaker 3: What have been some of your some of your sins, masturbation,
Speaker 3: looking at porn, stuff like that kind of ask you thinking, Look,
Speaker 3: you know, I'm not trying to get in deep into
Speaker 3: your head, you or anything. You know, I'm not a
Speaker 3: real therapist, I'm sky on the computer. But when you
Speaker 3: look at you know, when you when you yourself outside of
Speaker 3: the lens of your religion, and maybe in a more
Speaker 3: objective sense, look at the act of masturbating, look at
Speaker 3: the act of looking at porn. Do you? I don't
Speaker 3: think it's right A wrong answer. I'm trying to steer
Speaker 3: you anyway. But what do you actually think about those
Speaker 3: acts and whether or not they are moral?
Speaker 12: Well?
Speaker 11: I think I do believe that personally that porn and
Speaker 11: masturbation may have detriments on one's personal life, like on
Speaker 11: marriage or or it may also affect the social structure
Speaker 11: of society. However, I don't believe that all masturbation is bad,
Speaker 11: because it is if you believe that by masturbating, you
Speaker 11: are putting an end to your desires, for example, to
Speaker 11: look at porn. If you masturbate, will you stop looking
Speaker 11: at porn? Then go ahead and masturbate so you can
Speaker 11: stop sinning?
Speaker 3: Interesting? Why do you believe that it's detrimental to society?
Speaker 11: I feel like if you keep for example, if we're
Speaker 11: still talking about porn, uh, if you're married and you
Speaker 11: keep on looking at porn, your wife may not, uh
Speaker 11: maybe you'll want more, if you know what I mean,
Speaker 11: You'll have uh more desires for things that are beyond
Speaker 11: your reach. So it might uh yeah, it might unravel
Speaker 11: your marriage and it'll uh indirectly affect society as a whole.
Speaker 3: When you say it'll make you desire things that are
Speaker 3: outside of your reach, is desire for things outside of
Speaker 3: your reach in general, like desire for grandiosity, or like
Speaker 3: desire for extreme wealth or anything like that considered considered
Speaker 3: a sin.
Speaker 11: Oh, absolutely not.
Speaker 1: It's just.
Speaker 11: Uh, if you desire reasonable things, it's not an issue.
Speaker 11: But when you're looking at porn, you may desire more
Speaker 11: than what you have, and that may affect your wife,
Speaker 11: for example, or kids. You may want to abandon them
Speaker 11: and seek seek your pleasure from somewhere else, and that
Speaker 11: will no doubt affect them.
Speaker 3: In my belief, you know, I'm pleased to hear that.
Speaker 3: You know. It sounds like you are standing from these
Speaker 3: things because of a legitimate belief that you have in
Speaker 3: the negative ways that they might affect your personal life,
Speaker 3: as opposed to be some sort of abstract fear.
Speaker 13: Yeah.
Speaker 11: Yeah, I like to understand or try to make reason
Speaker 11: of what I believe in and I feel like everything
Speaker 11: has a reason if you look deeply into it. And
Speaker 11: I also don't condone like blind belief. So someone tells
Speaker 11: you to not do something, I believe you have a
Speaker 11: right to know why you shouldn't do that thing. And
Speaker 11: if it's reasonable no, then yes, absolutely don't do it.
Speaker 3: So have you quit masturbating altogether or just not excessively
Speaker 3: or just not for this small period of time?
Speaker 6: Yeah?
Speaker 11: I try to refrain from it as much as possible.
Speaker 11: I mean sometimes I do slip between the cracks, but
Speaker 11: I do get back to where I was quickly.
Speaker 3: Well, it's kind of cool because if you go a
Speaker 3: long time with that masturbating and then you do masturbate,
Speaker 3: it feels a lot better.
Speaker 11: I mean it does, it does, but it's it's also
Speaker 11: not like if you stop masturbating altogether, Uh, it'll affects
Speaker 11: your health or anything.
Speaker 13: Uh.
Speaker 11: I believe that. Uh, what dreams are are kind of
Speaker 11: away for your body to release itself.
Speaker 3: But more naturally are you saying physically?
Speaker 11: Yeah, I mean if you want to put it that way, maybe.
Speaker 3: It's actually kind of nice. What did your your name was?
Speaker 11: Uh? But you can just call me Poke.
Speaker 3: There's a pleasure talking with you. Poke. You have a
Speaker 3: wonderful us the evening and a wonderful rest of Ramadan.
Speaker 11: Thank you so much, YouTube and all viewers, thank you.
Speaker 11: Good night, good night.
Speaker 1: Huh from Jack.
Speaker 13: Jack?
Speaker 12: Yeah, it's ok.
Speaker 14: I go Jack May nimble Jack me quick Jack Flash.
Speaker 14: Sat on a candlestick because fires the Devil's only friend.
Speaker 3: And what fuck? What comes after that?
Speaker 12: I don't know what I'm really enjoying that. That's beautiful.
Speaker 3: Wow the king that's not I know that's in the song,
Speaker 3: but it's not going after that.
Speaker 12: What do you eat today? What do you eat today?
Speaker 12: My head steak?
Speaker 3: It's pretty good. Did you cook it good? Buy it
Speaker 3: from somewhere now?
Speaker 12: My dad cooked it so pretty much?
Speaker 3: Bother that with your dad? Mm hmmm do you live
Speaker 3: with your dad?
Speaker 12: Yeah?
Speaker 3: Well how old are you?
Speaker 12: I'm twenty five right now?
Speaker 3: Okay? Word does your what's your relationship like with your dad?
Speaker 12: How do we get a pretty well? I can't complain.
Speaker 6: I respect the guy.
Speaker 3: Why do you respect him? What do you respect him for?
Speaker 11: Uh?
Speaker 12: Pretty hard working dude and he definitely like cares of
Speaker 12: family ship, so that's pretty cool. Nice.
Speaker 3: Yeah, what does he what does he do to work
Speaker 3: for work.
Speaker 12: He fixes elevators.
Speaker 4: M hmm.
Speaker 3: Do you have you picked up any elevator knowledge from him?
Speaker 6: No?
Speaker 12: No, no, I work at a high school.
Speaker 6: I do not work.
Speaker 3: That is not forte What do you what do you
Speaker 3: do at a high school?
Speaker 12: I'm like a teacher assistant teachers?
Speaker 3: Do you enjoy doing that? Are you in are you
Speaker 3: in person? Or are you still in the virtual?
Speaker 12: So actually we start in person tomorrow, so that should
Speaker 12: be fun.
Speaker 3: How do you feel about the impending uh transition from
Speaker 3: virtual to now? Is this what? Okay? Is this a
Speaker 3: new gig? Like have you.
Speaker 6: And I thought?
Speaker 12: This is my second year?
Speaker 3: Yeah, so you have experience teaching in person and just
Speaker 3: start the job on the stule.
Speaker 12: I'm actually excited because online's pretty boring or like the
Speaker 12: hybrid model, you don't get tonother kids as.
Speaker 3: Well, right right? What made you want to get into
Speaker 3: that initially?
Speaker 12: That's a great question. I'm just I've always been good
Speaker 12: with people, so I just wanted to do like a
Speaker 12: something pertaining to people. So I tried politics for a while,
Speaker 12: worked at the state house. I didn't really like that,
Speaker 12: but I'm not thirty six by the way, twenty five
Speaker 12: but I, yeah, just decided to go into schools, want
Speaker 12: to make a difference. I guess, do something worthwhile that
Speaker 12: I don't hate.
Speaker 3: I like that, were you doing something you hated before? Right,
Speaker 3: you're working politics? Did you hate that? Would you say?
Speaker 12: M no, no, no, I shouldn't say I hated that. But
Speaker 12: a lot of bullshit. So that's why I could put.
Speaker 3: It, what's your favorite thing about what you do?
Speaker 12: Now? It's never boring? I don't hate waking up and
Speaker 12: going to work.
Speaker 6: Yeah.
Speaker 3: Yeah, Now that's surprising to me that you say it's
Speaker 3: never boring because I and I'm sure you as well,
Speaker 3: went to high school, and I mean, I'm sure I
Speaker 3: look at it fondly with rose colored glasses, but I know,
Speaker 3: deep down, you know, at the time, every single day,
Speaker 3: I was like, Wow, this is the most boring thing
Speaker 3: of all time. I can't wait to get out of here.
Speaker 12: I guess it's different when you're getting paid.
Speaker 3: So I feel like your experience. So what I guess
Speaker 3: the what I'm getting at is like, I'm curious what
Speaker 3: your experience with high with high school and your view
Speaker 3: of high school is as a staff, how that contrasts
Speaker 3: with maybe what your view was as a student, and
Speaker 3: you're twenty five, so I feel like you're young enough
Speaker 3: to still kind of remember.
Speaker 12: Yeah. No, I was definitely more bored as a student.
Speaker 7: I was.
Speaker 12: I was not a very good student at all actually,
Speaker 12: But I feel like now it's like I'm always doing
Speaker 12: something and I always like because when you're a student's
Speaker 12: just you. But now it's like I might have five
Speaker 12: different kids all in there, and I'm like, I got
Speaker 12: to make sure they're doing their work and not doing
Speaker 12: something stupid.
Speaker 3: Do you have to do a lot of babysitting?
Speaker 12: Yeah, I won't even lie.
Speaker 3: Yeah does that annoy you?
Speaker 12: Sometimes? I just want the kids to do their work.
Speaker 12: But you know, it's like being a kid too, And
Speaker 12: it was some days where I was like, I'm not
Speaker 12: doing anything. Sometimes you can't do anything about it. That's
Speaker 12: the thing. Sometimes you're not gonna win.
Speaker 3: M You know, that's an interesting position to be in
Speaker 3: because you know when you're in because I remember being
Speaker 3: in high school and like teachers getting mad and being like,
Speaker 3: what the fuck is this person so fucking mad for like,
Speaker 3: you know, yeah, they're overreacting, But I feel like you
Speaker 3: have greater empathy for that now.
Speaker 12: Yeah, it doesn't you don't solve anything. Doing that doesn't
Speaker 12: solve the thing, the kid gets mad at you, You
Speaker 12: start getting mad, and then sometimes it turns into a
Speaker 12: pissing contest of like, oh, I'm in charge here, No,
Speaker 12: I'm in charge here. So never really works out. Sometimes
Speaker 12: if a kid's not gonna work, just give them some space,
Speaker 12: because sometimes I just have, you know, shit going on,
Speaker 12: and you'd rather them come up and tell you, like, hey,
Speaker 12: like you know this just bother me, rather than oh,
Speaker 12: is you're going to be mad at me for not
Speaker 12: doing work? So it depends.
Speaker 3: I like, that's a that's a refined, more empathetic approach.
Speaker 12: But I feel like you have to be, especially in
Speaker 12: schools nowadays, so many kids are like anxious with I
Speaker 12: mean like social media, which started becoming a big thing
Speaker 12: when I was in high school. But oh yeah, you
Speaker 12: know everyone, like all the kids think they have to
Speaker 12: like keep up with other things, and oh my god, yeah,
Speaker 12: you know, it can be stressful being a kid. Like
Speaker 12: you look back at it and it's like, you know,
Speaker 12: it doesn't seem like a big deal now, but to
Speaker 12: you then it's obviously everything. So they have to keep
Speaker 12: that in mind.
Speaker 3: You know, the social media aspect of it actually scares
Speaker 3: the shit out of me. Like just how I mean
Speaker 3: we like we had our fucking phones and shit when
Speaker 3: when when we were in high school. But like I mean,
Speaker 3: now everything is so much more public, Like it used
Speaker 3: to be, like if you fucked around and posted some
Speaker 3: stupid video on Facebook, like your Facebook friends would see it.
Speaker 3: But with TikTok, it's like you can fuck around and
Speaker 3: post something stupid on social media goes viral the whole world.
Speaker 3: Season that scares the shit out of me.
Speaker 6: Yeah.
Speaker 12: Well, something that's really crazy kind of like on what
Speaker 12: you're saying is there's actually like a whole Instagram page
Speaker 12: with my school and obviously I'm gonna keep that confidential,
Speaker 12: but it's like just an Instagram page about like who's
Speaker 12: like sexual harassed who and stuff?
Speaker 3: Oh my god, kind of crazy.
Speaker 12: Yeah, it's absolutely nuts. I mean you never realize like
Speaker 12: how prevalent that is until you just see hundreds of
Speaker 12: posts about it.
Speaker 3: It's nuts, really have Like and again you don't have to,
Speaker 3: you know, tell me more than you're liberty to tell
Speaker 3: me about. Like is that something that the like faculty,
Speaker 3: faculty is like looked into.
Speaker 12: Oh yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, then you take it seriously.
Speaker 3: You have to damn well, listen, man, props to you.
Speaker 3: You know, I I I appreciate what you're doing because
Speaker 3: I feel like I remember, you know, lots of people
Speaker 3: remember being in high school and being like, damn, I
Speaker 3: wish I had like you know, even if it's just
Speaker 3: the way, even every kid, all they need is one
Speaker 3: staff member to be empathetic with them for them to like,
Speaker 3: you know, feel good about coming to school. So you know,
Speaker 3: I appreciate the work you're doing.
Speaker 12: My friend, hey man, thanks and you too. You're doing
Speaker 12: a pretty good job.
Speaker 15: I like it.
Speaker 12: I enjoy it.
Speaker 3: What they your name was Jack. You have a good
Speaker 3: rest of the night. Jack, good look too, he was, Well, good.
Speaker 1: Night all from Cherry.
Speaker 3: Cherry.
Speaker 9: Hello Cherry with.
Speaker 3: The h How are you? How are you Cherry?
Speaker 9: I'm very good. Actually today it's been a really good day.
Speaker 9: How are you doing?
Speaker 15: Really?
Speaker 3: Why is today been such a good day?
Speaker 9: Well, I went to work and my shifts was really
Speaker 9: good and now I'm at home just dipping on some
Speaker 9: bird dog whiskey and I think it might rain and
Speaker 9: I'm very excited about that.
Speaker 3: I love the all the all this, Like you're like
Speaker 3: if I could use a metaphor like, your day is
Speaker 3: a towel and you're squeezing. It's like a wet towel
Speaker 3: and you're squeezing all the joy of it that can
Speaker 3: possibly be squeezed.
Speaker 9: Yeah, yeah, exactly. You know, I'm looking at the positive side.
Speaker 3: So why tell me about your affinity for rain?
Speaker 9: Oh, I will just have a rain in like a
Speaker 9: week and a half year, And I live in a
Speaker 9: very rainy state, so you know, when it hasn't rained
Speaker 9: in a while, you can smell it. And I could
Speaker 9: smell it when I left my shift it work, So
Speaker 9: it was just it was really nice to smell the
Speaker 9: rain and to see the clouds roll in and now
Speaker 9: the sky is very dark completely, and.
Speaker 1: I love that.
Speaker 3: When it rains. Do you like to are you, you know,
Speaker 3: out there running in the rain, sticking your tongue out,
Speaker 3: getting rain drops all over your face, you know, really
Speaker 3: basking around in it? Or do you like to appreciate the rain?
Speaker 3: From afar, I.
Speaker 9: Like to appreciate the rain because my bed is pushed
Speaker 9: up against my window and there's a bunch of like
Speaker 9: eighty tall trees in the backyard, and I like to
Speaker 9: sit on my bed with a cup of teat and
Speaker 9: just watch the trees sway as the wind and rain
Speaker 9: pours down, and it's just very poetic.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean, you're you're being very poetic in your
Speaker 3: description about it.
Speaker 9: I love it. It's my Actually, I don't write poetry,
Speaker 9: but little short like blurreds like his choos three sentences,
Speaker 9: So that's my favorite time. That's really the only time
Speaker 9: I write those, and it's very it's very nice, very healing.
Speaker 3: I'm glad to hear that because I was actually gonna
Speaker 3: say the portrait that you're painting here, I feel like
Speaker 3: you'd be remiss not to, you know, get something on
Speaker 3: record of it.
Speaker 9: Yeah, yeah, it's my Like the big storm withers, thunder
Speaker 9: and lightning cracking, those are nice favorite times to sit
Speaker 9: down and like write.
Speaker 3: Do you feel as though in your day to day
Speaker 3: life you are more focused on being in the moment
Speaker 3: and being in touch with your surroundings and what's in
Speaker 3: front of you, or you know, do you spend that
Speaker 3: much time in your head?
Speaker 9: A little bit of bull So in the moment, I
Speaker 9: really just focused on what I'm doing, and it's at
Speaker 9: the end of the day where I like to reflect
Speaker 9: on certain situations where remember throughout the day that have
Speaker 9: made me feel a certain type of way, and it
Speaker 9: really sitn't like to think about it and how it's
Speaker 9: that with me, you.
Speaker 3: Know, would you would you be comfortable sharing maybe maybe
Speaker 3: even from today, maybe if you might not mind letting
Speaker 3: us in on your reflections for this evening of the day.
Speaker 3: Is there anything that happened today? Yeah, you might want
Speaker 3: to reflect on.
Speaker 9: Well, the main thing that the first thing that happens
Speaker 9: to my head is a conversation that I have with
Speaker 9: a regular name Tom. And Tom is a man I've
Speaker 9: met about four or five times, and he's a regular
Speaker 9: my new job, and everybody knows his face and everything
Speaker 9: like that. And he's moving and he's talking about how
Speaker 9: he's lived in this house, uh for like thirty four
Speaker 9: years and suing states and he's getting more property and
Speaker 9: that type of thing. And I'm thinking about what it
Speaker 9: means to move away from something so comfortable and something
Speaker 9: so to leave to something so new. And he was
Speaker 9: talking about trying to stake his house with him, and.
Speaker 3: It's like literally like take fucking take it all down,
Speaker 3: and how do you even do that?
Speaker 9: I don't know. One my colder said, her cousin does
Speaker 9: something like that actually, where they like compete the foundation
Speaker 9: of the house and move physically move the house.
Speaker 3: Interesting. So now Tom talking about uprooting his comfortable life
Speaker 3: and doing something new. Did that make it you think
Speaker 3: about out if you would do something similar?
Speaker 9: Absolutely? Yeah, it's you know, the scary feeling definitely was
Speaker 9: reflected with in the something so new and something so bold,
Speaker 9: because you know, you've lived there for thirty years, and
Speaker 9: I relate to that. I've been in the same industry
Speaker 9: for so long. At uprooting myself and moving on and
Speaker 9: up in the world something very relatable. I think everyone
Speaker 9: can translate that to their own life.
Speaker 3: Do you have anything because you know, you seem you
Speaker 3: seem like you know and again we don't have that
Speaker 3: much information about you from this five minute call, but
Speaker 3: you seem like you have such a great ability to
Speaker 3: appreciate the sort of things that other people might find
Speaker 3: monotonous that you know, I mean, you could, you could,
Speaker 3: you could make yourself comfortable anywhere.
Speaker 9: Yeah. Well, I feel like it comes from a place
Speaker 9: of having already been uprooted because I grew up in
Speaker 9: one home in one place, and I moved my family
Speaker 9: away to another place, so I can appreciate where he's
Speaker 9: coming from, because I've already kind of been through that.
Speaker 9: I didn't move as Barty as he's living multiple states away,
Speaker 9: hundreds of miles, so it's not the safe, but I
Speaker 9: still feel that what he's feeling.
Speaker 3: Are you comfort where you are right now?
Speaker 13: Yeah?
Speaker 9: Absolutely, I am very comfortable. I'm happy and I can
Speaker 9: appreciate it.
Speaker 3: But before we go, what is do you think something
Speaker 3: that might make you, if anything, that might make you
Speaker 3: want to uproot once again? What would be.
Speaker 9: The only thing I can think of is lost if
Speaker 9: I was to lose something that was meeting me to
Speaker 9: the slave I am right now, mhm, like my job
Speaker 9: or someone in seeing me, or something that makes me
Speaker 9: kick up and leave.
Speaker 1: Mm hmm.
Speaker 3: Well I hope that that doesn't happen to you, but
Speaker 3: even if it does.
Speaker 9: Yeah, you know, you know, exploration is great exactly.
Speaker 3: It seems though you have the skills to adapt. Yeah,
Speaker 3: thank you, well share it, Cherry, Cherry. Yes, it's a pleasure,
Speaker 3: pleasure speaking with you this evening.
Speaker 9: Thank you so much. It's too lile. By the way,
Speaker 9: I love your name. That's means my grandpa.
Speaker 3: Oh really, Yeah, I don't know a lot of other
Speaker 3: Liles except fictional ones.
Speaker 9: Yeah. No, Lyle is a great name. If I ever
Speaker 9: have kids, I'm definitely naming them Lyle.
Speaker 3: Well, thank you, Cherry. If I ever have.
Speaker 9: Don't, I wouldn't recommend it. I got so much.
Speaker 3: Yeah, no, I appreciate that.
Speaker 9: Yeah, you're welcome. Thank you? Are you kind.
Speaker 2: Too?
Speaker 1: All from it's Lisa, Lisa.
Speaker 7: Oh my god?
Speaker 8: Hey, Okay, Lyle gack, how are you what are you doing?
Speaker 2: I'm doing great. I'm outside. It's funny to beauty.
Speaker 4: I'm not in my house.
Speaker 2: I'm in Los Angeles.
Speaker 3: Do you like Los Angeles?
Speaker 12: No?
Speaker 1: I do not.
Speaker 2: People here were like, I'm not people.
Speaker 3: You know, they're not a lot of people. What do
Speaker 3: you mean by that?
Speaker 2: A lot of plastic layers. There's a lot of guessing
Speaker 2: what people really mean. There's not a lot of there's
Speaker 2: not a lot of vulnerability. There's not a lot of
Speaker 2: anything but competition. Who had a better car, who was
Speaker 2: a nicer house?
Speaker 9: That's Los Angeles?
Speaker 1: No, thank you, I hear.
Speaker 3: Possibly, if you're willing to get specific and you don't
Speaker 3: have to name names, you can you know who is
Speaker 3: the last person or maybe the last interaction you had
Speaker 3: with someone that sort of matches the description of plastic
Speaker 3: plasticity that you have just described.
Speaker 2: Every single person I worked with give me.
Speaker 3: In particular, I give you their name, of course.
Speaker 2: I guess my boss, my boss. I'll just say her.
Speaker 9: I don't be so negative.
Speaker 1: Whatever.
Speaker 9: She has the reasons for being that way.
Speaker 2: But it's just like every conversations is like petty little
Speaker 2: dance of like letting me know that I'm not whatever
Speaker 2: she thinks she is, which is very powerful whatever, God.
Speaker 3: And what sort of subtle ways do you think she
Speaker 3: tries to make you feel as though you are not
Speaker 3: as powerful.
Speaker 2: As her, just like reminding me she flies first class
Speaker 2: and letting me know that, like she bought the new
Speaker 2: Louis Bauton, be like all that crap. Sorry, no offerense
Speaker 2: to anyone in the chat. If you guys like these things,
Speaker 2: that's great.
Speaker 3: Lord in the chat are probably very offended by you
Speaker 3: right now.
Speaker 2: Yeah I know, yeah, I know.
Speaker 9: Sorry, guys.
Speaker 2: Whatever, people like what they like, it's fine. But whatever,
Speaker 2: she has a reason, I shouldn't be so judgmental.
Speaker 3: Mm hmm, well I don't know. I mean, do you
Speaker 3: have a brag about anything.
Speaker 1: You know?
Speaker 2: I could see how there could be times where people
Speaker 2: could interpret me bragging about something when I'm just sharing
Speaker 2: a fact about my life.
Speaker 3: You know, I, honest to God believe that because I
Speaker 3: think about this a lot. Actually, what is the difference
Speaker 3: between bragging and just sharing something about your life? I
Speaker 3: think the key difference and and I genuinely believe even
Speaker 3: though it's even though it's internal, it comes out externally.
Speaker 3: The key difference is your intentions, and your intentions always
Speaker 3: show through, I believe. So if your actual intention when
Speaker 3: you say something is to share a fact about your
Speaker 3: life and not to brag, and you have you have
Speaker 3: to like go in deep and check because you might
Speaker 3: subconsciously be trying to brag.
Speaker 2: It could also be you could be very secure and
Speaker 2: the person you're speaking to might not be very secure,
Speaker 2: and they interpret it as a slight against them, Which
Speaker 2: is making me realize, as I'm saying this right now,
Speaker 2: I could have been doing that to her, although I.
Speaker 9: Don't think so, because she did it with everyone.
Speaker 2: This woman anyway, shouldn't bother me. Shouldn't bother me it's her.
Speaker 3: Yes, it could be the other person's insecure, so they're
Speaker 3: interpreting what you're saying, which is you just trying to
Speaker 3: share your life as But you know what I mean,
Speaker 3: all these things. I don't know if you're truly secure.
Speaker 3: I feel like if you're not even thinking about this stuff.
Speaker 2: But in LA it's like you never really get to
Speaker 2: that level with people.
Speaker 9: For the most part.
Speaker 2: It's like you're always on this, like you're always at
Speaker 2: arms blank. Well, I don't know. I have experience again
Speaker 2: not to throw shade or be negative towards anyone in
Speaker 2: the chat who's from here who likes it, but I
Speaker 2: have experienced Los Angeles is everyone's at arms blinks, and
Speaker 2: it's like this whole facade that you're trying to portray
Speaker 2: as you're this you know, perfect whatever you think you are,
Speaker 2: and everyone needs to know and that's just what it is.
Speaker 2: And I'm just like I see through it and I don't.
Speaker 2: I'm like, but who are you? And people are like, WHOA,
Speaker 2: You're not allowed you have to see the facade interact
Speaker 2: with the facade.
Speaker 11: Okay, fine, what have.
Speaker 3: Your experience has been like as you try to break
Speaker 3: break through this facade? Reactions have you gotten?
Speaker 2: Say too, I'm all limited to this one specific person.
Speaker 2: It's like it's like it becomes a fight. Then it's
Speaker 2: just like it's like you're not you know, like you're
Speaker 2: just not allowed. Just it's not interpreted as me trying
Speaker 2: to be friendly or friend It's like I'm trying to
Speaker 2: poke at the facade because maybe they're aware on some
Speaker 2: level it's not real and that's frightened them.
Speaker 12: M hmm.
Speaker 3: Well, you know, you can motivation.
Speaker 2: I rank too much into people who don't who don't
Speaker 2: give a ship, who don't actually want Like that's just
Speaker 2: I don't know. Have you been in LA have you
Speaker 2: you know.
Speaker 8: What it's like here.
Speaker 3: I've been to Los Angeles. Well, you know, it's funny.
Speaker 3: I keep hearing the I keep hearing this about I
Speaker 3: heard all the time in Los Angeles, like the people
Speaker 3: are fake. And look, you know, I went out there
Speaker 3: and you know, honest to god, everyone I met was
Speaker 3: very nice to me.
Speaker 1: They're nice.
Speaker 2: They can be very nice. It depends like where you are.
Speaker 2: So I worked in finance, so that was probably the problem.
Speaker 2: But it like it depends where you are in the city,
Speaker 2: and it depends like it depends people. People are very
Speaker 2: smiley here.
Speaker 9: That's what.
Speaker 2: Someone that I knew from New York that was their
Speaker 2: big take on La. Everyone's smiling and everyone's happy, like
Speaker 2: they didn't catch into the like yeah, but there's like
Speaker 2: a distance the facade.
Speaker 15: There's a thought of happiness.
Speaker 3: I don't know, you know you can use well, yeah,
Speaker 3: that's what I was gonna say. You know, you know
Speaker 3: you can use when you look at these people and
Speaker 3: you go, all right, these people act in certain ways
Speaker 3: that I'm noting down that I don't like. So when
Speaker 3: I go out into the world and I act upon people,
Speaker 3: I'm gonna make sure that I do not act this way.
Speaker 9: True.
Speaker 3: That's true, very true, Lisa, Lisa, there's a pleasure talking
Speaker 3: to you, and I hope that, Yeah, maybe you move
Speaker 3: somewhere that you like.
Speaker 4: I am.
Speaker 2: It's definitely in the cards. It's actually like a couple
Speaker 2: of months. I am no longer here.
Speaker 3: A couple months the cards, Lisa, forever.
Speaker 2: Baby, Thanks while I have a great night.
Speaker 3: Bam bam you two all right?
Speaker 2: Call from Celeste?
Speaker 3: Celeste, Oh my god, how are you?
Speaker 15: Yes, I'm great, I'm great.
Speaker 7: Oh my god, I'm so nervous.
Speaker 16: Now why are you?
Speaker 3: Why are you nervous? What honest, okay, what do you
Speaker 3: think is the worst thing? That could possibly happen right now.
Speaker 15: I don't know, you don't like my call or something.
Speaker 3: The worst thing that could possibly happen is that.
Speaker 15: I don't like you or like my call is like
Speaker 15: a mediocre call. I feel like that's like the the
Speaker 15: whole thing that I have.
Speaker 3: Well, let me ask you something. Okay, you're afraid of
Speaker 3: your call being a mediocre call, but I need to
Speaker 3: ask you, Celeste, in your head, what are the qualities
Speaker 3: of a mediocre call?
Speaker 15: I don't know, like just like, oh my god, there
Speaker 15: is like like you know, you tell them the question,
Speaker 15: they answer, they give you like kind of just I
Speaker 15: don't know, Like, dude, mm hmm.
Speaker 3: You know, there's so much, you know, a Celesti, I
Speaker 3: gotta tell you out there on the internet, out there online,
Speaker 3: out there in society, there's so much, there's so much
Speaker 3: focus on there of you know, it's really hot right now.
Speaker 3: You know it's a big fad. I believe, maybe not
Speaker 3: a fad, but god, you know it's so hot right now, CELESTI.
Speaker 3: Just qualitative judgments of things, would you quality of what?
Speaker 3: Qualitative judgments of things? This is good, this is bad,
Speaker 3: this is okay, this sucks. Yeah, that was awesome, that
Speaker 3: was really cool. That was stupid, that was boring, you know,
Speaker 3: qualitative judgments about things very popular right now?
Speaker 2: I mean, I don't.
Speaker 15: I just feel like I don't even know.
Speaker 7: Man.
Speaker 15: I didn't expect you to pick up. I really didn't.
Speaker 3: Mm hmm. I didn't expect you to answer. I didn't
Speaker 3: expect you to answer. I didn't expect you to get
Speaker 3: in either. But here we are, two people are talking
Speaker 3: to each other on the phone. What did you eat today, Celeste?
Speaker 5: What did I eat?
Speaker 15: I ate a lot of things. I went to work,
Speaker 15: I had a salad work. We're at a salad restaurant.
Speaker 15: Came home a salad restaurant, Yes, like a salad bar.
Speaker 3: Okay, what kind of salad?
Speaker 2: What?
Speaker 3: What was in this salad that you ate?
Speaker 15: It's called the guacamly Greens that has avocado, black and chicken, romaine, lettuce,
Speaker 15: spring spring mix, onions, tomatoes, basic stuff.
Speaker 3: Did you make it yourself?
Speaker 9: Yes? I did?
Speaker 1: M hm.
Speaker 3: Did you did you get now? Okay? Did you get
Speaker 3: paid to make your own salad?
Speaker 15: I didn't.
Speaker 3: I do not. I think you should put off the clock.
Speaker 3: Is your a customer? Correct?
Speaker 15: Mm hmm?
Speaker 3: Okay, when you're off the clock. You're merely a customer, right, right,
Speaker 3: So when you're merely a customer, you shouldn't be making
Speaker 3: your own stuff.
Speaker 2: That's true.
Speaker 15: Usually we have like our other like make your own
Speaker 15: make the salad for you, But I feel really bad,
Speaker 15: so I just do it myself. Mm hmm, Like I'm
Speaker 15: not gonna ask.
Speaker 3: Like, imagine if you went into like if a random person,
Speaker 3: if a customer came into your shop right and went
Speaker 3: behind the counter and just started making themselves a salad.
Speaker 3: I mean, that's kind of what you did.
Speaker 16: That's true.
Speaker 15: Yeah, but I mean I don't want to be rude
Speaker 15: and like ask my coworkers like, hey, can you make
Speaker 15: me a salad right now?
Speaker 8: Like I just feel it.
Speaker 3: But is it rude? But if you go into a
Speaker 3: salad store and you ask the person, hey, goold, you
Speaker 3: make me a salad? And if it's rude to do that,
Speaker 3: then what's the point of even having a store in
Speaker 3: the first place. Everyone who's ever ordered a salad at
Speaker 3: that store and had someone made it is rude.
Speaker 16: That's true.
Speaker 17: That's true.
Speaker 3: I mean, look, I would rather you just get paid
Speaker 3: to make yourself a salad because you're a customer, right,
Speaker 3: But when Okay, when you're eating a salad, you're a customer.
Speaker 3: When you're making the salad, you work there. So as
Speaker 3: you're working there, you are making As you make the salad,
Speaker 3: you are working to make a salad for the customer.
Speaker 3: It doesn't matter that the customer is you. That's that's irrelevant.
Speaker 3: You're still making a salad for the customer. You could
Speaker 3: pay for making the sud. A lot of people they
Speaker 3: get employee discounts, but you should go. They should pay
Speaker 3: you to make the salad for yourself.
Speaker 15: You like lost me halfway, but I get it. Yeah,
Speaker 15: I get it.
Speaker 3: It was a pleasure talking to you, so Leste, to.
Speaker 15: You, it went for you, okay. I mean I'm like
Speaker 15: super like Judy right now. So I'm like I'm probably
Speaker 15: studying a little bit, but and like my mind is
Speaker 15: like all over the place right now.
Speaker 3: No, you sound excellent.
Speaker 15: Thank you.
Speaker 3: You sound like a human being. You sound like a
Speaker 3: human being. All right, thank you, absolutely, you have good
Speaker 3: rest of the night.
Speaker 15: Wait, can I say something?
Speaker 3: Sure?
Speaker 2: I really like your show and I like the giggy Doo.
Speaker 15: You're really cool and you're awesome.
Speaker 3: Thank you, Selest. That's very nice. That's the one. No,
Speaker 3: thank you, thank you lest I appreciate that you're you
Speaker 3: have good rest of the night, you too, all right?
Speaker 3: Per stream quick shout out to Celeste seemed like a
Speaker 3: very sweet person. I say seemed like because I don't
Speaker 3: know her that way. I only know. The only information
Speaker 3: I have about Celeste is the information that she revealed
Speaker 3: to me to us in that five minute phone call.
Speaker 3: And I don't like to make qualitative judgments on people,
Speaker 3: good or bad based on a small amount of information.
Speaker 3: That's why I say she seems like a good person.
Speaker 3: And I will say, listen, listen here, people are I
Speaker 3: per stream people are allowed to be nice to me twice?
Speaker 3: I think. I think that's a good ruling. I think
Speaker 3: people again, I appreciate Celeste from the information that I've
Speaker 3: gathered from her, she seems like a nice person. Again,
Speaker 3: won't make a fun of decision unless if I got
Speaker 3: more information, which I probably won't because I don't know
Speaker 3: her in person and she has the right to maintain
Speaker 3: her own privacy. I think people are allowed to be
Speaker 3: nice to me twice. Per scream. Any more than that
Speaker 3: and it's like, you know, who is this guy? Bryon Hagen,
Speaker 3: Bryce and Hagen.
Speaker 11: Yes, Bryon Hagen?
Speaker 13: Is that?
Speaker 7: Is that?
Speaker 3: Okay? Is your full name Bryson Hagen? Or is your
Speaker 3: name Bryce? And you're with someone named Hagen?
Speaker 4: Bryon that's my first name?
Speaker 3: Okay? Bryce's Hagen? Is okay? So I'm talking to one person.
Speaker 6: Yeah, you're just talking to one person.
Speaker 3: Am I on the speaker? Am I on speakerphone right now?
Speaker 6: Yeah?
Speaker 3: Could you would you mind taking me off speakerphone? It's
Speaker 3: a little bit hard to hear you.
Speaker 11: Can you hear me better now?
Speaker 5: Oh?
Speaker 3: I can hear you wonderfully. What's your full name again?
Speaker 11: Uh?
Speaker 3: Bryson Hagen, Bryce and Hagen? Uh? Can I ask you something?
Speaker 1: Yeah?
Speaker 3: Do you consider yourself to be a generally trusting person?
Speaker 3: Because a lot of people they won't even give me
Speaker 3: Like a lot of people will call in with a
Speaker 3: fake first name because they don't want to reveal their
Speaker 3: real name. But you gave me your real what I
Speaker 3: assume to be funds and last name.
Speaker 1: Trust.
Speaker 3: What do you think has allowed you to be so trusting? Oh?
Speaker 17: I guess the way I was raised.
Speaker 3: Up And how would you describe that way?
Speaker 1: Oh?
Speaker 17: I grew up in a small community, just understanding, knowing
Speaker 17: everyone you know. I don't know stuff like that.
Speaker 3: Do you still live in the small community that you
Speaker 3: grew up in?
Speaker 13: Well?
Speaker 17: Now I go to conversation at A and m oh,
Speaker 17: so you go to a larger university now?
Speaker 6: Yes?
Speaker 3: And is this a new thing? Or how long have
Speaker 3: you been in school for?
Speaker 17: I'm actually graduating in two weeks.
Speaker 3: Oh, congratulations? Would graduating with what?
Speaker 17: Bachelor's of Science and range the Hendy College ad Management?
Speaker 3: Beautiful? So after having spent a significant portion of your
Speaker 3: life in a small community and now graduating after having
Speaker 3: spent it also a significant portion of your life, I
Speaker 3: would say four years in a much larger community. What
Speaker 3: would you say is more referable to.
Speaker 6: You a smaller community?
Speaker 7: For me?
Speaker 3: Why is that?
Speaker 17: I like less traffic, pretty easygoing a guy. I like
Speaker 17: to know pretty much everyone I see around town and
Speaker 17: everything because I like to have a conversation.
Speaker 11: With just about anyone.
Speaker 3: You can have a conversation with just about anyone.
Speaker 12: You say, yes.
Speaker 3: Do you often approach strangers on the street or talk
Speaker 3: to people when you're on the bus or in lines
Speaker 3: for things? Or do you keep to yourself a little
Speaker 3: bit both?
Speaker 17: Depending how I feel that day.
Speaker 3: I like that you know that takes a lot of confidence.
Speaker 9: Thank you.
Speaker 3: Where do you do you think? Where do you think
Speaker 3: now that you've graduated? Where do you think you'll move?
Speaker 3: Not you know, location wise, but to a you know,
Speaker 3: a small community or a big community, small community. Well,
Speaker 3: I wish you good luck in doing so. You seem
Speaker 3: like you're going to fit in just well, just fine,
Speaker 3: and not even just fit in, but thrive.
Speaker 6: Thank you, Thank you very much.
Speaker 17: I think you were doing great yourself.
Speaker 3: Thank you. What do you say your name was again?
Speaker 6: Bryce and Hagen?
Speaker 3: Bryce and Hagen, you have a wonder for us of
Speaker 3: the evening. Let me know what your LinkedIn is because
Speaker 3: I want to endorse you on there. Let's find myself
Speaker 3: and endorse you. I love you, Bryson. I'll talk to
Speaker 3: you soon, all.
Speaker 6: Right, Love you too.
Speaker 1: All from Rosie.
Speaker 13: Rosie.
Speaker 7: Hey, what's up?
Speaker 3: How are you.
Speaker 13: All right?
Speaker 9: How are you?
Speaker 3: I'm all right?
Speaker 14: How are you.
Speaker 9: Pretty good?
Speaker 2: How are you?
Speaker 3: I'm doing all right? How are you?
Speaker 9: You know what now I'm not all right?
Speaker 3: Why are you not all right?
Speaker 4: I don't know.
Speaker 7: Something just changed in the last like second, you know,
Speaker 7: I went from all right now I'm not all right?
Speaker 3: Tell me about that.
Speaker 13: I don't know what do you what do you?
Speaker 14: All right?
Speaker 3: I know you don't know what happens. You might not
Speaker 3: even have an idea of what happened. But I mean,
Speaker 3: give us your best give me your best hypothesis, conspiracy,
Speaker 3: your best idea of what might have happened to change
Speaker 3: your mood so rapidly like this.
Speaker 7: I mean, maybe like I intersected with like a parallel
Speaker 7: universe where I wasn't all right, and maybe it was
Speaker 7: just like the two merging at that time. I don't know.
Speaker 3: Maybe, all right, hold on to this this parallel al right,
Speaker 3: So you believe that at the beginning of this call,
Speaker 3: you were existing in the universe in which you felt
Speaker 3: all right, and then you sort of crashed intersected with
Speaker 3: a universe in which you weren't feeling all right, and
Speaker 3: that caused you to feel less al right? Am I correct?
Speaker 9: Yeah, that's probably it.
Speaker 11: I mean, that's all.
Speaker 3: I hold that real quick. In this parallel universe that
Speaker 3: we crashed into, in which we know you don't feel
Speaker 3: all right? Is there anything else different about the universe
Speaker 3: or is it identical to the one we started in
Speaker 3: except for the fact that you feel less alright at
Speaker 3: this very moment, the like or is the universe where
Speaker 3: you feel right? Or do we all have little tentacles
Speaker 3: on our legs instead of legs?
Speaker 8: Like what?
Speaker 6: You know?
Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying here?
Speaker 15: Yeah, like and I'm I mean, I'm looking around my
Speaker 15: room some lane in bed, and you know, everything was normal.
Speaker 7: But I mean I could very well walk outside like
Speaker 7: everything's on fire right now.
Speaker 2: I don't know.
Speaker 7: I mean, we just don't know right now.
Speaker 3: Do you hope everything is not on fire?
Speaker 18: Yeah?
Speaker 7: I don't think i'd want anything to be on fire.
Speaker 7: I think that probably wouldn't be a good time.
Speaker 3: That's good. That's a sign of mental stability. I believe
Speaker 3: to not to be at peace with things not being
Speaker 3: on fire.
Speaker 7: Oh my god, I am not mentally stable in any way,
Speaker 7: shape or form. But thanks thanks for giving me, you know,
Speaker 7: some positive reinforcements.
Speaker 3: Well, I mean, you know, I was, you know, making
Speaker 3: any statement on your personal mental stability. I was just
Speaker 3: saying objectively, I believe that it Maybe it's not a
Speaker 3: sign of mental stability, but it's it is a sign
Speaker 3: of mental instability. If someone were to be obsessed with
Speaker 3: lighting things on fire, would you agree with that?
Speaker 13: Yeah?
Speaker 3: I would obsession is not present in you, which is
Speaker 3: a point, not necessarily point towards mental stability, but it's
Speaker 3: not a point for mental instability.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 7: Yeah, I'm picking up what you're saying. You know, I'd
Speaker 7: say i'd agree with all that.
Speaker 9: Are you there? Yes?
Speaker 7: Oh okay, So gek, what did you eat today?
Speaker 3: What did you eat today?
Speaker 9: I had Chipotle?
Speaker 3: Oh what exactly did you have?
Speaker 7: I had white rice and black beans, and then I
Speaker 7: got chicken mm hm and then I put stuff on
Speaker 7: it and.
Speaker 13: It was good.
Speaker 3: Well, okay, you just you just completely skipped. I mean,
Speaker 3: you know, don't don't.
Speaker 7: Tell Okay, So then then I put okay, so then
Speaker 7: I put the the mild salsa, and then the green salsa,
Speaker 7: sour cream, cheese, is guacamole, lettuce.
Speaker 3: Wow, I'm she's maybe so fucking hungry just now.
Speaker 4: I know. It was pretty good.
Speaker 7: It was like my first like oh, it was like
Speaker 7: my first real meal in like three days because I
Speaker 7: was on like a road trip.
Speaker 9: I was on a road trip.
Speaker 7: Uh, Hot Springs, Arkansas.
Speaker 3: How was that?
Speaker 7: It was underwhelming?
Speaker 3: Under Why do you say underwhelming?
Speaker 15: Well, I have like this.
Speaker 7: Thing where I want to see every national park in
Speaker 7: the United States before I die. So yeah, so I
Speaker 7: was just like, well, I'm gonna go to like Hot
Speaker 7: Springs National Park, and it was it was pretty lame,
Speaker 7: like it was probably like the lamest national park I've
Speaker 7: been to. And then it was just like it was Arkansas,
Speaker 7: so all the people were weird, like did you.
Speaker 11: Oh, oh my god.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 7: Like I was driving back. I live in Tennessee and
Speaker 7: I was driving back and I was just on this
Speaker 7: like flat stretch of highway in the middle of nowhere, Arkansas,
Speaker 7: and I pulled over to a Love's truck stop, okay,
Speaker 7: like cause those are usually really safe, Like I don't
Speaker 7: want to go to like Bob Gas station in the
Speaker 7: middle of Arkansas because I'm like a girl traveling by.
Speaker 9: Myself, you know, I don't want to get stabbed or
Speaker 9: you know anything.
Speaker 7: So then I go into this Love's truck stop and
Speaker 7: there's this lady in the bathroom who just starts like
Speaker 7: telling me about how she like lost two hundred pounds
Speaker 7: by like accepting Jesus and taking a bunch of like dolcalacs,
Speaker 7: which is like a laxative. And then like she followed
Speaker 7: me around the truck stop like showing me before and
Speaker 7: after pictures of her weight loss, and it was like
Speaker 7: it was like freaking me out. Like I like went
Speaker 7: back to my car and like what the fuck, Wow,
Speaker 7: that's awesome.
Speaker 6: Yeah it was.
Speaker 3: Did you get her phone number afterwards? No?
Speaker 15: I didn't want any communication with her afterwards. Like it
Speaker 15: was weird because she like approached me in the bathroom
Speaker 15: and was.
Speaker 7: Like telling me about like Jesus. I'm like, okay, well
Speaker 7: this is like Arkansas, so I can expect that. And
Speaker 7: then she started telling me about like weight loss, and
Speaker 7: I was trying to like weave the bathroom, but she
Speaker 7: kept on, like you know, saying like but weight.
Speaker 13: And then.
Speaker 7: Then as I like walked out and I was like
Speaker 7: looking at the drinks, she like came up behind me.
Speaker 3: How exactly did she lose weight with Jesus? I mean
Speaker 3: two hundred pounds? No, Jesus was that strong?
Speaker 15: No, it wasn't Jesus.
Speaker 7: It was the dolcalax, which is like a laxative. Basically
Speaker 7: every after school special in like the nineties said like
Speaker 7: don't lose weight with laxatives, and that's exactly what this
Speaker 7: woman did.
Speaker 16: Like, well, shed and Jesus and Jesus.
Speaker 7: I think like Jesus gave her the inspiration through the
Speaker 7: laxatives or maybe the systems to take them.
Speaker 15: I have no clue.
Speaker 3: She didn't lose weight from the last She didn't lose
Speaker 3: away from from Jesus and the laxatives. She lost away
Speaker 3: from the laxatives. But it was Jesus's idea.
Speaker 7: I mean, she told me her doctor told her to
Speaker 7: do it, so maybe like Jesus like got her through it.
Speaker 7: Because I'm assuming if you're taking a bunch of laxatives,
Speaker 7: that's just.
Speaker 15: Going to be god awful.
Speaker 3: Okay, her doctor told her to take a bunch of laxatives.
Speaker 3: It gave her a lot of physical pain, and she
Speaker 3: was able to bear the physical pain because she had,
Speaker 3: uh the aid of Jesus.
Speaker 7: I am assuming. I mean that's how I.
Speaker 3: Pep are you do you? You didn't get her phone number,
Speaker 3: her snapchat? No? No, no, no, no, okay, because I
Speaker 3: kind of want to ask her these questions.
Speaker 7: See, I was just like more, I don't know, I
Speaker 7: don't like in the moment, like looking back, I probably
Speaker 7: should have said like something like that, you know, got
Speaker 7: some kind of contact information, just like like what the hell,
Speaker 7: But in the moment, I was just like what Like,
Speaker 7: I just didn't. I didn't know how to react to that.
Speaker 1: To be honest.
Speaker 3: Wow, I'm very amazed that I somehow convinced you in
Speaker 3: like I've somehow convinced you in your sort of I've
Speaker 3: somehow been able to have you revised your history of
Speaker 3: this situation from that girl. That lady was weird too.
Speaker 3: You know, maybe I should have gotten her phone number.
Speaker 15: No, I mean she's still weird.
Speaker 3: That's the arc. That's the arc of this call. Is
Speaker 3: you know, you've recontextualized the situation and and maybe now
Speaker 3: instead of disgusted, you maybe feel a sense of regret.
Speaker 7: I'd say no, because, I mean, things work out the
Speaker 7: way they work out. You shouldn't really regret shit. I
Speaker 7: try not to regret stuff.
Speaker 3: Damn. So this wasn't an ARC.
Speaker 7: No, I don't think it was.
Speaker 16: What did you say?
Speaker 3: Your name was?
Speaker 1: What?
Speaker 6: Oh?
Speaker 11: My name is Rosie.
Speaker 3: Well, thank you so much for sharing the story with
Speaker 3: this Rosie.
Speaker 7: It was my pleasure.
Speaker 3: You have a wonder for us to the name.
Speaker 7: Thanks gag you two.
Speaker 3: I yeah, I think it was an arc. No, you
Speaker 3: know what, it wasn't arc. It wasn't arc because when
Speaker 3: she said when she said when she initially said in
Speaker 3: our conversation just now, when she said, you know, maybe
Speaker 3: I should maybe, thinking back on it, I should have
Speaker 3: gotten her number. She was being genuine, she was being genuine.
Speaker 3: She was not being funny. She's being genuine. She was
Speaker 3: being genuine. And then I brought it up that she
Speaker 3: was being genuine and she took it back, but she
Speaker 3: almost took it back because I brought it up.
Speaker 8: That was an arc.
Speaker 18: Matthew, Matthew, Hello.
Speaker 12: Hey, how you doing.
Speaker 3: I'm a gecko on the computer.
Speaker 6: That sounds like a life man.
Speaker 3: It's nice. I'm enjoying it right now.
Speaker 4: Well, I've been enjoying watching you.
Speaker 3: Present moment is really all we have, exactly.
Speaker 18: We got to live in the now because that's all
Speaker 18: we that's all that exists, you.
Speaker 3: Know what I mean, even living and people could say,
Speaker 3: you know, okay, well you can count in the past
Speaker 3: even more than the present may because the past already happened.
Speaker 3: But I think, you know, when I look at the past,
Speaker 3: I can never look at it with the emotions that
Speaker 3: I actually had at the time. You always look at
Speaker 3: it as, you know, more fondly than maybe it actually was.
Speaker 3: So I can't trust the past. But I can always
Speaker 3: trust the present because it's right there.
Speaker 18: You can always trust what's right in front of you.
Speaker 18: I mean, the brain lies to us about our memories anyway.
Speaker 18: We always misremember them, and every time you remember him,
Speaker 18: you're remembering a remembrance of remembering it.
Speaker 3: Hey, what's in front of you right now?
Speaker 13: My dog?
Speaker 3: What kind of dog?
Speaker 18: I don't really know the breed. He's just like a
Speaker 18: tiny little rat dog. He weighs like ten pounds.
Speaker 12: He's a good one, though.
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, what's you love about him?
Speaker 18: He always gets excited when you come home.
Speaker 3: Does that feel nice having someone to get excited for
Speaker 3: you for your problem?
Speaker 14: Yeah?
Speaker 18: Dogs, cats just like they're very grateful fear existence. You
Speaker 18: can see it when they look at you.
Speaker 3: It's easy to love animals because they're pure. You know,
Speaker 3: they're not like Machavellian or anything.
Speaker 14: They're not.
Speaker 3: They'll never trick you.
Speaker 18: They have no ulterior motives, you know, they don't think.
Speaker 18: They don't they're not conditioned by the outside world. They
Speaker 18: just know that here and now that's all they focus on.
Speaker 3: Matthew, Yeah, what are thoughts?
Speaker 12: What are thoughts?
Speaker 18: Thoughts can be akin to spells, Like you have a
Speaker 18: thought and then suddenly you're compelled to do something. It's
Speaker 18: kind of like words too, words or spells, Like I
Speaker 18: could I could describe a purple penguin wearing aviator shades,
Speaker 18: and suddenly somebody who hears me say that is imagining.
Speaker 10: That, Like I just cast a spell on him.
Speaker 3: Yes, if I start describing a dog riding a skateboard
Speaker 3: and whoever's listening to it it pictures a dog riding
Speaker 3: a skateboard, they are under my spell. Cast a spell
Speaker 3: on their brain.
Speaker 6: I mean in the brain's just the computer, so you
Speaker 6: could write code.
Speaker 12: You can look at it that way too.
Speaker 3: M So like if I so, okay with the dog
Speaker 3: on a skateboard thing. If I start talking about a
Speaker 3: dog on a skateboard and then someone imagines in their brain,
Speaker 3: I've I've written code that is programmed into their brain,
Speaker 3: that's probably not right.
Speaker 18: Well, you've spoken a code that's been programmed into their brain.
Speaker 18: It's kind of like, you know, like being conditioned by
Speaker 18: the world around you. If you walk around every day
Speaker 18: thinking that, oh, this world's shit, I'm shit, this is shit,
Speaker 18: and everything you see is going to be shit. But
Speaker 18: if you walk around being like this is full of love,
Speaker 18: that's full of life. You're gonna witness it a lot more,
Speaker 18: and you're programming your brain to see the good and
Speaker 18: not the bad.
Speaker 3: To anyone listening to this, if you have ever had
Speaker 3: a thought, or if you have the capacity to have thoughts,
Speaker 3: if you have the capacity to speak words, that makes
Speaker 3: you a wizard. Thank you for having this conversation with math.
Speaker 3: You have a wonder for us to night.
Speaker 6: You do the same.
Speaker 10: All from Kevin.
Speaker 6: Kevin, Wow, no way.
Speaker 3: Oh it wasn't by the way, real quickly, the caller
Speaker 3: who I said, whose name was not the caller the
Speaker 3: Reddit commentator whose name I said was Kitlyn has cats incorrect.
Speaker 3: Her name was actually Kitlyn has Rabbits. Was it that important?
Speaker 3: Not really, but I said it indeed, What do you
Speaker 3: think about that?
Speaker 17: Uh?
Speaker 6: You know, I totally forgot about anything you said on
Speaker 6: Reddit chat because I hang out on the twitch chat.
Speaker 6: But uh, oh yeah it clarification, man.
Speaker 3: I think that's fair. You know what an important You know,
Speaker 3: what I learned is an important part of interacting with
Speaker 3: other people I believe is you have to be able
Speaker 3: to you have to be able to slide in and
Speaker 3: this is like an advanced conversationalist skill that I'm trying
Speaker 3: to get better at myself is sliding into other people's
Speaker 3: contexts even when you have nothing to do with them
Speaker 3: or you don't understand them. Like just now me talking
Speaker 3: about this stupid Reddit thing that you don't you have
Speaker 3: no idea what I'm talking about. If you found a
Speaker 3: way to, like, you know, get like get into my context,
Speaker 3: like you know, like oh what reddit thing? Or like
Speaker 3: you know, oh, really, like I don't know whatever you
Speaker 3: could do to get yourself in there, even though you don't.
Speaker 6: Have a personal investment in it.
Speaker 3: Yes, even though you don't have a personal investment or
Speaker 3: you don't even know what's going on, you put yourself
Speaker 3: in there. I was once in a group of people.
Speaker 3: I was in a group of four people, and two
Speaker 3: people of the four we're talking about memories from their
Speaker 3: high school because the two people went to high school.
Speaker 3: And then the third person, not me, was doing a
Speaker 3: really good job at being a part of these two
Speaker 3: highs of this high school conversation even though she had
Speaker 3: no idea what the hell they were talking about. I
Speaker 3: was amazed. I can't recreat it for you.
Speaker 6: That is no, no, no, I feel that that's an
Speaker 6: impressive skill to be able to jump into, as you said,
Speaker 6: like a foreign context. I might just be able to
Speaker 6: conversationally operate in there.
Speaker 3: M M, it is, it's it's exactly. It's a skill
Speaker 3: and I'm not very good at it. I've seen people
Speaker 3: who are very good at it, and you know, you
Speaker 3: did it really well. Just now you yes ended me.
Speaker 3: I could tell that you were paying attention to what
Speaker 3: I was saying, could tell it you. I feel validated,
Speaker 3: I'm more I'm I'm more inclined to want to talk
Speaker 3: more to you because because you you you, you showed
Speaker 3: that you understood what I was trying to say and
Speaker 3: what I was trying to say. It was hard for
Speaker 3: me to to to take precause.
Speaker 6: You know, but anyway, I know, I feel you. I
Speaker 6: really think conversation is really just like a series of
Speaker 6: yes sanding each other, like in just some weird long
Speaker 6: string of a string shit, you know, Like I feel
Speaker 6: like some of the best times I've had, like making
Speaker 6: new friends, just having a couple of drinks and just
Speaker 6: spiraling down a rabbit hole of the yes ending conversation
Speaker 6: over you know, of course for a couple hours. It's great.
Speaker 3: Absolutely, I love the yes yes. You know, life is
Speaker 3: improv and when you're not yes ending each other, what
Speaker 3: do you do? You just just two people. There's nothing
Speaker 3: sadder than two people having their own conversation with each other,
Speaker 3: not off, just saying, waiting their turn to say the
Speaker 3: thing that they're going to say exactly.
Speaker 6: And it's funny like, well, I'm actually doing that precise
Speaker 6: right now. But I mean, hey, calling into a show
Speaker 6: therapy Gecko. I study psychology, and like many people who
Speaker 6: do study psychology and university, we've gone to a lot
Speaker 6: of therapy and all that. But you know, active listening really,
Speaker 6: you know, not just like waiting your turn to speak,
Speaker 6: but like truly listening to what someone saying and like
Speaker 6: digesting that information super important.
Speaker 3: You know, It's difficult because why do people Because people
Speaker 3: are afraid that when the queue comes up for them
Speaker 3: to begin talking, when the person they're listening to is
Speaker 3: done talking, there's a queue for them to start talking,
Speaker 3: and they're so afraid of that queue that they're preparing
Speaker 3: what they're going to say, and they while they're busy preparing,
Speaker 3: they miss out by what the person actually saying. But
Speaker 3: then I find I find if I just focus on
Speaker 3: what the other person is saying. Then by the time
Speaker 3: that Q comes up, I'm prepared because I have the
Speaker 3: information I need to prepare. You're prepared by listening.
Speaker 6: You're following along for the ride, and all you gotta
Speaker 6: do is it's like, fuck, I don't know, it's like
Speaker 6: a good game like ping pong or tennis or some shit.
Speaker 6: I don't know, and don't do sports or anything athletic,
Speaker 6: but LA, like, you know, if you're just if you
Speaker 6: just assume it's gonna be one place, like, you're gonna
Speaker 6: be wrong. You just gotta follow where it's going. Man.
Speaker 3: Oh, I like that. I like that analogy, right, Like
Speaker 3: if you're if you're fucking playing tennis and you're like,
Speaker 3: all right, the ball is go, I'm going to prepare
Speaker 3: for the ball to be over here. I'm not going
Speaker 3: to move. I'm going to stand right here because this
Speaker 3: is where I believe the ball. You're gonna miss the
Speaker 3: fucking ball.
Speaker 6: Yeah, ninety nine times out of one hundred, you're gonna
Speaker 6: be wrong.
Speaker 3: That's why you got to engage in the Fit's a
Speaker 3: back and forth thing. I like that analysis. That's a
Speaker 3: good thing to think about. So you're a therapist.
Speaker 6: No, no, no, I'm not a therapist. I am a
Speaker 6: I guess you could say aspiring therapist. I'm an undergrad
Speaker 6: student studying psychology.
Speaker 3: Well listen, good luck with that. I hope that, uh
Speaker 3: you become a I don't know what you can do
Speaker 3: with a psychology degree, but whatever, whatever the best possible
Speaker 3: thing that you can do with that, I hope you do.
Speaker 6: You can get you know, with a with an undergrad
Speaker 6: psychology like a bachelor's in psychology, you can basically get
Speaker 6: a master's or a pH d. That's my plan right now.
Speaker 6: You know what, Hey, when I eventually, you know, when
Speaker 6: I do it and I am a real actual therapist,
Speaker 6: I'm gonna I'm gonna have like a gecko costume maybe
Speaker 6: or like maybe even just a little decorative gecko in
Speaker 6: my in my room. It's gonna be great.
Speaker 12: You know.
Speaker 3: I like you, I endorse you, and I give you
Speaker 3: permission to steal my idea.
Speaker 6: Thank you much, good sir gek. You will be a
Speaker 6: You will be a great asset to my future.
Speaker 3: Absolutely you have a wife. Absolutely you have a wonderful
Speaker 3: rest of the night, my friend.
Speaker 10: It was well, sir, all from okay Loo KLO Hello, Hello, Calo,
Speaker 10: how are you?
Speaker 3: Uh?
Speaker 6: Going fine? Could be better? But how about yourself?
Speaker 3: All right, so you say it could be going better?
Speaker 16: Calo?
Speaker 3: Real quick, forget the life that you currently have.
Speaker 12: Okay, are you forgotten?
Speaker 16: Yeah?
Speaker 3: If you could from scratch design your perfect life, nothing
Speaker 3: is off limits to you, even fantastical elements, right like
Speaker 3: you could own a dragon if you really wanted to.
Speaker 3: What would your ideal life look like.
Speaker 6: In terms of just for myself or just for like
Speaker 6: the entire world?
Speaker 3: So interesting when when you know, well, let me ask
Speaker 3: you that right now is your life? If you know?
Speaker 3: When you say could be better? And indicates that some
Speaker 3: things are bad when you think of the things that
Speaker 3: are bad in your life, are the things that are
Speaker 3: bad about the world or things that are bad about
Speaker 3: your life in particular?
Speaker 6: I think in the world overall things are bad and
Speaker 6: that's not going to change. But I'm thinking bad kind
Speaker 6: of currently right now, not in an overall sense. In
Speaker 6: an overall sense, things are are are?
Speaker 15: What is your.
Speaker 16: Well, you know?
Speaker 3: I actually maybe maybe maybe we'll hear both. What Well,
Speaker 3: let's start. Let's start with your personal life in terms
Speaker 3: of the best it possibly could be in your imagination.
Speaker 6: In my personal life right now, what would be the
Speaker 6: best thing that I could think of? What I would
Speaker 6: prefer the most is not living where I currently am
Speaker 6: more because I live in like a spread out kind
Speaker 6: of city area in Florida, and I kind of preferred
Speaker 6: like closed in like cities kind of areas where it's
Speaker 6: easy to walk around.
Speaker 3: Best New York, Philadelphia, Boston, Philadelphia.
Speaker 6: Yeah, definitely somewhere around there.
Speaker 3: Shout at Philadelphia. Okay, So you're living in Philadelphia, Okay.
Speaker 6: And the best thing I could say in that situation
Speaker 6: would be living with myself and preferably an animal. I
Speaker 6: don't know about living with anybody else, but definitely with
Speaker 6: some kind of animal, maybe one that I have now,
Speaker 6: and having a decently sustainable job, and just living not
Speaker 6: overtly like expensive, like buying extravagant dumb things, just living
Speaker 6: comfortably enough where I can get by. Kind of Wow.
Speaker 3: I gave you the option of literally anything I included,
Speaker 3: even fantastical elements. I told you that you could own
Speaker 3: a dragon, and you want like a dog or something.
Speaker 3: By the way, I don't think it's a bad thing.
Speaker 3: Actually think it's a fantastic thing, Because if you had
Speaker 3: told me yeah, I want to live in Narnia and
Speaker 3: own a pet dragon. I would have actually gotten a
Speaker 3: little sad for you, because that's impossible. You can never
Speaker 3: have a pet dragon. Dragons aren't real, Narnia isn't real.
Speaker 3: But I'm actually happy for you that your dreams seem
Speaker 3: wildly achievable.
Speaker 6: I kind of like to dream like in a in
Speaker 6: an achievable way sort of.
Speaker 3: I think that's very hang, I know a lot.
Speaker 6: Of yeah, it kinda yeah. There are big aspirations, like
Speaker 6: big wild dreams like going to space or you know,
Speaker 6: sky diving with like Mike Tyson or something like that
Speaker 6: that I wish I could do. But the achievable thing
Speaker 6: is just like, you know, Philadelphia, something like that all
Speaker 6: place to live in. That'd be nice.
Speaker 3: What's stopping you from getting there?
Speaker 6: Myself? Honestly, I can't really think of a feasible exclamation
Speaker 6: other than myself.
Speaker 3: You want to live in Philadelphia and live with an amily?
Speaker 7: Said?
Speaker 3: The animal you have?
Speaker 17: Now?
Speaker 3: What animal do you have?
Speaker 14: Now?
Speaker 6: I currently have three dogs right now?
Speaker 16: Dogs?
Speaker 6: Yeah, really old one old pug pug beagle mix named Bingo.
Speaker 6: I have a younger one Australian shepherd named Zach. And
Speaker 6: much younger one named Diesel. He's kind of like a.
Speaker 3: Pitbull, Jack Diesel and Bingo. Zach ze Zach, Zach, Diesel
Speaker 3: and Bingo. Yep, hilarious names.
Speaker 6: Oh it was mostly my dad who thought of Bingo
Speaker 6: and the other two. We're just kind of there like that.
Speaker 3: Those are like nineteen thirties silent film names, except Zach
Speaker 3: Zach is modern. But Zach, Diesel and Bingo.
Speaker 6: There's actually a little bit of an interesting story behind
Speaker 6: how we got Zach, if you could get out of
Speaker 6: here about it.
Speaker 3: Yeah, what's up.
Speaker 6: So, So I was living with my dad, and I
Speaker 6: was still living with my dad, and you know, he
Speaker 6: was just dating around girls and stuff and met this
Speaker 6: one girl and you know, tried to live with her
Speaker 6: a little bit in the apartment that we were living in.
Speaker 6: It was just me and him, and you know, kind
Speaker 6: of took over my space a little bit, and she
Speaker 6: brought the dog too, and her little kid. So after
Speaker 6: a while she turned out to be not so great
Speaker 6: of a person and ended up just taking all of
Speaker 6: her stuff and leaving. And at first we thought she
Speaker 6: took it, like everything, like the dog and everything, and
Speaker 6: out of nowhere, my dad gets a call from the
Speaker 6: apartment complex that we're living at saying that you know,
Speaker 6: your dog is loose and he's thinking, you know, Bingo,
Speaker 6: the only dog that we had. He's thinking he's out.
Speaker 6: So they take him back or he goes back to
Speaker 6: the office and picks up the dog at Zach and
Speaker 6: he just like walked home because I guess she just
Speaker 6: let him go and just kind of just let him
Speaker 6: go wherever. And so he came back to us and
Speaker 6: we kept him.
Speaker 3: It's very nice.
Speaker 12: Yeah, we'd say your name one k Lo kay l.
Speaker 3: Keylo. I appreciate you sharing what you shared with us
Speaker 3: this evening, and I wish you the best of luck
Speaker 3: on a shooting your dreams of living in Philadelphia with
Speaker 3: your dogs, and I believe that it will happen for
Speaker 3: you someday.
Speaker 6: Thank you very much. And I wish all the chat
Speaker 6: and all you guys everyone watching, I you know, push
Speaker 6: them all good as well. And I want to shout
Speaker 6: out a couple of people in my life, if they're
Speaker 6: ever listening or not. I want to shout out my
Speaker 6: dad for being there for me. I want to shout
Speaker 6: out my older brother Brendon for you know, the same
Speaker 6: reason being my best friend, my friend Chris, my friend April,
Speaker 6: and my friend Drake, all all of them. I just
Speaker 6: want to give love to everybody, and I hope this
Speaker 6: is a good call.
Speaker 3: Absolutely, you have a good rest tonight.
Speaker 6: You two guys have a good night.
Speaker 3: Listen, all right. The only problem I have with that
Speaker 3: is that, look, I know this guy, I know that guy.
Speaker 3: I don't even know that guy. He only gave me
Speaker 3: what seven minutes of his time. I don't know April
Speaker 3: or Drake. I I can't personally endorse them. That's the
Speaker 3: that's that's the only problem I have is I can't
Speaker 3: personally endorse April or Drake. I don't know anything about them.
Speaker 3: I just did look the opinion because like what I
Speaker 3: you know, I don't want to go look if April
Speaker 3: does something bad, I don't want to. I don't want
Speaker 3: to go down with her because she was shouted out
Speaker 3: all my stream. I don't want. I don't want. I
Speaker 3: don't want it to look like an endorsement of April.
Speaker 3: No no friends, Saber. I don't think there's anything wrong
Speaker 3: with it, but I don't know. I literally don't know
Speaker 3: anything about April. But the only thing I the only
Speaker 3: the other thing I feel uneasy about is, you know,
Speaker 3: being so heavily associated with April and Drake and not
Speaker 3: knowing anything about them, Like, what am I getting into?
Speaker 6: What am I?
Speaker 7: You know?
Speaker 3: What's really being shadowed out here? It's it's the blindness.
Speaker 3: Dalen Jalen.
Speaker 16: Jalen with a deed Dyalen.
Speaker 9: Yes, Hi, how are you?
Speaker 3: Dalen?
Speaker 13: I am good?
Speaker 9: How are you doing?
Speaker 3: I'm a gecko on the computer?
Speaker 4: Fair enough.
Speaker 3: I'm trying that out as like a thing that like,
Speaker 3: And I had only said it once before I said
Speaker 3: it to you just now, and now I've said it twice.
Speaker 13: Yeah, yeah, I saw that bit, So it's kind of
Speaker 13: like like a persona.
Speaker 3: Now I'm trying it out as a reoccurring answer to
Speaker 3: that question.
Speaker 15: I've liked it.
Speaker 3: I've never really answer catchphrases. I mean, I've had catchphrases.
Speaker 3: I never liked having any sort of eternal catchphrase.
Speaker 13: Okay, okay, So then you don't have like any particular
Speaker 13: word that you use a lot or like just even
Speaker 13: like a catchphrase that use a lot, not like consistently.
Speaker 3: I don't think I've had any sort of catchphrases or
Speaker 3: speech quirks that have lasted for any longer than a year.
Speaker 3: Maybe I want you to think back before I interrupted
Speaker 3: you to start talking about myself, you had a thing
Speaker 3: that you were going to say, and I want to
Speaker 3: hear what that was.
Speaker 4: Oh, thank you.
Speaker 13: I actually I'm just hearing what What on earth made
Speaker 13: you decide that this was something that you were going
Speaker 13: to start doing?
Speaker 3: Dylan, I have a question for you. Yes, what are thoughts.
Speaker 9: Thoughts?
Speaker 8: Uh?
Speaker 13: I think it's kind of a pattern of how you
Speaker 13: have learned growing up. The way you think is kind
Speaker 13: of programmed through your life through other experiences. So like
Speaker 13: everybody will picture things very very differently depending on how
Speaker 13: they were raised, experiences they've had growing up.
Speaker 7: So it's kind of.
Speaker 15: A broad question that will fit each.
Speaker 9: Person very very differently.
Speaker 3: Let me ask you, Dalen, is there anything that may
Speaker 3: have happened to you in the past, anything you know
Speaker 3: that maybe is in maybe anything that's present in your
Speaker 3: environment right now, let's talk. Let's focus on the present.
Speaker 3: Is there anything in your present environment that you think
Speaker 3: regularly affects your thoughts.
Speaker 9: In the present?
Speaker 13: In the present, Honestly, it's mainly me trying, like trying
Speaker 13: to just re write my thoughts and how I was raised,
Speaker 13: so like a lot of my inner thoughts, like the
Speaker 13: first thought does sometimes come to mind, would be somebody
Speaker 13: in my past who, like for instance, was negative, and
Speaker 13: then me going no, no, no, let's not think like that,
Speaker 13: and then rewiring to go a different direction.
Speaker 3: You know what I like about the Stalen is Dalen right, yes, yes,
Speaker 3: you know I like about the Stalen is that when
Speaker 3: I ask you, you know, what is it in your
Speaker 3: environment that is in you know, persistently influencing your thoughts?
Speaker 3: Your answer was you it is.
Speaker 9: It's me.
Speaker 3: I think that's a good that's a good metric, that's
Speaker 3: a good goal, it's a good thing to reach. It's
Speaker 3: a good half at the practice.
Speaker 2: It is.
Speaker 14: Well.
Speaker 3: Thank you, of course, thank you very this pleasure talking.
Speaker 1: All from Grace.
Speaker 3: Grace Grace.
Speaker 16: Hello, hey, hello him.
Speaker 3: Hello, Hello?
Speaker 8: Can you hear me?
Speaker 14: Yes?
Speaker 8: Okay, I turned the stream off. It was being weird.
Speaker 16: Hello, Hello, how are you?
Speaker 3: I'm a gecko?
Speaker 2: You'r gecko.
Speaker 8: I see that I venmoted you earlier, so you venmoe me.
Speaker 3: I did, thank you, jeez. I appreciate that.
Speaker 8: Six point nine dollars and my caption was for bellies
Speaker 8: out on tonight's dream.
Speaker 3: Holy got totally dude, damn six point nine dollars I
Speaker 3: can buy like I can. I can actually probably buy
Speaker 3: a full fucking thing of Tyson's chicken tenders. I appreciate
Speaker 3: that very much.
Speaker 8: Anytime I called you, probably seven hundred times tonight.
Speaker 3: Have we spoken, Grace? Have we ever spoken before?
Speaker 6: No?
Speaker 4: We have not, but I have.
Speaker 3: Oh so why didn't you say so? Grace? Hello? What's up?
Speaker 3: How you doing?
Speaker 18: What?
Speaker 14: Where? Where? Where?
Speaker 3: Where do your parents live? Are you close with them?
Speaker 8: I'm Michael. Yeah, we're from Chicago area. And my brother
Speaker 8: found you on TikTok and would like check out this guy?
Speaker 8: And I was like, that guy's pretty cool. So then
Speaker 8: we started watching our streams every night that they're.
Speaker 3: On, and so, all right, so is he with you?
Speaker 3: Is he still watch the stream or is he over it?
Speaker 3: He's Scott sick of men.
Speaker 8: No, we watch it every single time. It's gone together,
Speaker 8: like all of.
Speaker 3: Us all like, wait, who's all of us?
Speaker 12: It's you?
Speaker 3: Your brother? Is that it?
Speaker 8: And and then my brother's girlfriend and then occasionally our
Speaker 8: friend Jake.
Speaker 3: Are they all are all you guys here right now?
Speaker 4: Me?
Speaker 8: Alex, my brother and Mackenzie we're all here together.
Speaker 9: Wow, yeah, the whole crowd.
Speaker 3: Damn I I I which which of these people are
Speaker 3: you closest with?
Speaker 8: My brother Alex?
Speaker 3: M I guess that makes sense that you're closer with
Speaker 3: your brother than your brother's girl friend. And who's the
Speaker 3: other who's the fourth person?
Speaker 13: Jake?
Speaker 8: He's Alex's friend.
Speaker 3: Well, the fucking Jake's just over there? Let me can
Speaker 3: I speak to Jake?
Speaker 8: He's not here right now. Only Alex is my brother.
Speaker 3: Okay, so it is it's just you two tonight.
Speaker 9: And his girlfriend.
Speaker 3: M hm, well you know, hi, who am I on
Speaker 3: with my Is it Grace still? Or is it with
Speaker 3: Grace's friends boyfriend's cousin's dog.
Speaker 15: It's great?
Speaker 3: Gh sure, sure, sure I would, I would. I would
Speaker 3: love to speak with Alex.
Speaker 6: I would.
Speaker 3: I would be honored to speak with Alex. Am I
Speaker 3: speaking with Alex right now? Or is it still Grace?
Speaker 9: This?
Speaker 6: This is Alex. How are you doing?
Speaker 2: I'm doing great?
Speaker 15: Brother?
Speaker 12: How are you doing?
Speaker 3: I'm doing well as well. I am a gecko on
Speaker 3: the computer. I heard that. Uh, what would you describe
Speaker 3: to me your relationship with your sister?
Speaker 4: Oh man, it's pretty pretty comical. Let's say, it's a
Speaker 4: pretty pretty comedic relationship.
Speaker 3: What he is comedic about it?
Speaker 8: Oh?
Speaker 3: My lord?
Speaker 14: What isn't?
Speaker 4: Well we can start with her crazy dog. That's probably
Speaker 4: a good starting point.
Speaker 3: And well, okay, So is your relationship with gray dog
Speaker 3: a sort of separate relationship or is it merely or
Speaker 3: is your relationship with Grace's dog an extension of your
Speaker 3: relationship with Grace?
Speaker 4: Oh, I'd say it's definitely an extension.
Speaker 3: Okay, So you don't have sort of your own opinion
Speaker 3: of your relationship with the dog. You see, the dog
Speaker 3: is attached to Grace, So your interactions Grace's dog are
Speaker 3: reflective of Grace in your eyes?
Speaker 12: Yes, yes, okay?
Speaker 3: And why are these interactions comical?
Speaker 4: Well, for example, we have a mattress in the basement
Speaker 4: where I keep my ax of Lottels, and on this
Speaker 4: match keep your a mattress. No, no, no, they're by
Speaker 4: the mattress. Oh okay, yes, So he took a ship
Speaker 4: down there, and we all had to examine this ship
Speaker 4: to figure out which dog it came from. Of course,
Speaker 4: so he decided to try and blame it on another one.
Speaker 12: Of our dogs.
Speaker 3: Is that did you just merely want to look at
Speaker 3: dog shit, and you use that as like a reason
Speaker 3: why you couldn't it's a possibility, because the reason why
Speaker 3: I don't believe that is because how how long do
Speaker 3: you have to stare at a ship to know what
Speaker 3: which dog came from?
Speaker 4: If?
Speaker 3: If that is even something you could tell?
Speaker 4: Well, personally, do you think it's really easy to Like,
Speaker 4: could you look at.
Speaker 17: A piece of dog shit and tell me what dog
Speaker 17: it came from?
Speaker 12: Nope, that's what I mean.
Speaker 4: It takes some examination to figure out what dog it could.
Speaker 15: Have came from.
Speaker 3: No, but I couldn't even do it after any amount
Speaker 3: of examination.
Speaker 4: Oh well, the three dogs are pretty uh significant difference
Speaker 4: in sizes between the three of them.
Speaker 3: Uh, so you're sort of judging based on the size
Speaker 3: of the ship which doggie came.
Speaker 12: Out of exactly?
Speaker 3: M m okay. Uh, Like, I want to stay focused
Speaker 3: on your relationship with your sister. You know enough about
Speaker 3: the dogs.
Speaker 12: Okay.
Speaker 3: What is it about your relationship with your sister specifically
Speaker 3: that is comical?
Speaker 4: I'd say just probably the way we get through a
Speaker 4: lot of the things that we have gotten through as
Speaker 4: siblings is uh through comedy.
Speaker 12: M hm.
Speaker 3: Can I get an example of something?
Speaker 8: Well?
Speaker 6: Oh, jeez.
Speaker 4: Well, just today, her and her boyfriend have been going
Speaker 4: through some rough times, so the family decided to, uh,
Speaker 4: you know, have her down for a little family dinner
Speaker 4: and just crack jokes and just try and get her
Speaker 4: to smile. But just random things like that.
Speaker 3: That sounds very sweet, anything to get her to smile,
Speaker 3: you know. Hey Alex, Yeah, can I speak with Grace
Speaker 3: real quick?
Speaker 2: Of course?
Speaker 4: Hey Greg?
Speaker 3: Great, So how would you describe your relationship with your brother.
Speaker 8: Comforting?
Speaker 7: Mhm.
Speaker 3: You guys seem to have a very nice relationship. You
Speaker 3: seem like you both love each other very much.
Speaker 8: We have been best friends since I was born, although
Speaker 8: although he's uh, we've gotten in some physical altercations. Like
Speaker 8: fun fact, I have a super hard head.
Speaker 3: You have a supper It is hard. Do you now
Speaker 3: your hard head? Is that something you utilize defensively or offensively?
Speaker 8: Definitely defensively, Like when we would get in fights as
Speaker 8: a kid, he would like try and draw spit over
Speaker 8: my face and when he would draw it back in,
Speaker 8: I would just clock him with my head and away.
Speaker 3: That's an offense. That's offensively. I guess it is defense.
Speaker 3: I no, I guess that is defensive. It's self defense,
Speaker 3: right right.
Speaker 13: I would never.
Speaker 8: Right, I would never start the altercations. I would just
Speaker 8: have to defend myself.
Speaker 1: You know.
Speaker 3: Well, Grace, do you guys, You guys don't currently get
Speaker 3: into that many physical altercations, do you.
Speaker 8: No, We're we're too old now. And he's he has
Speaker 8: had like seven concussions, so I can't hurt his little head.
Speaker 3: How many of those seven concussions were your fault?
Speaker 8: Absolutely none. He plays rugby and he played football, so
Speaker 8: he got them all from there.
Speaker 3: All right, So you could just kind of beat the
Speaker 3: shit out of him and wouldn't even feel it.
Speaker 8: Right, yeah, Because like I feel like at some point,
Speaker 8: the concussions just start like leveling out with how many
Speaker 8: brain cells you can lose, and I feel like he's
Speaker 8: pretty much tapped out.
Speaker 3: So we'll be careful around him, all right, don't rough
Speaker 3: house too much?
Speaker 8: Okay, we'll try it.
Speaker 3: Grace, It was a pleasure talking to you. Is a
Speaker 3: pleasure talking Alex as well. And I appreciate you guys
Speaker 3: watching the stream, and you know, I hope that you
Speaker 3: all are members of Gagnation for many years to come.
Speaker 8: Oh, we will be enjoying your venmo.
Speaker 3: Thank you very much, grace here.
Speaker 2: Good night you too by.
Speaker 10: Never Beken goes on the line, taking your phone calls
Speaker 10: every night.
Speaker 3: Never Beacon goes too on his hide, just teaching you
Speaker 3: to loud in the middle of your life blood. He's
Speaker 3: not ready an expert