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Speaker 1: Welcome back to the podcast. Fred Hey, and this is

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Speaker 1: one moan about drama.

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Speaker 2: I'm very excited, very special, very special episode for us.

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Speaker 1: We were going to do it in a very refreshing

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Speaker 1: new start in the show.

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Speaker 2: But Freddy, expectively, you know, has started our episode officially,

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Speaker 2: so because we're talking.

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Speaker 1: Man, yes, I know he's dropping the jewels. Man, I

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Speaker 1: gotta get it on camera.

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Speaker 2: Well as you know, Uh, those Amigos is not technically

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Speaker 2: a show where you know, it's like you know, it's

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Speaker 2: not it's not it's not heavy relighting on on the

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Speaker 2: stories of of our guests.

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Speaker 1: We were kind of explored so much of our lives.

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Speaker 2: But in the conversation of our lives, yes, certain individuals

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Speaker 2: have popped up and we're like, I ever had someone

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Speaker 2: on this show. I had to be Yeah, this man

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Speaker 2: right here, know and I'm sorry. I want to you know,

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Speaker 2: I want to introduce Lewis House, one of the most

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Speaker 2: uh just a prolific voices of inspiration.

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Speaker 1: You know, what are you going going to?

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Speaker 3: How many years now twelve years.

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Speaker 2: Of twelve years of podcasting?

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Speaker 1: You know your lunch? I mean multiple books? How many

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Speaker 1: books now?

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Speaker 3: Five?

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Speaker 1: Five books?

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Speaker 2: And uh he he's someone that is very important to me.

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Speaker 1: We've we've done a pretty.

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Speaker 2: Uh, pretty intensive uh we've done our best with the

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Speaker 2: lives that we've had to stay connected and soultly connected

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Speaker 2: in the energy.

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Speaker 1: We absolutely have to do better to the end person.

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Speaker 2: But our lives have taken so many different place, you know,

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Speaker 2: to so many different places. And I was just excited,

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Speaker 2: you know, when I was talking New Freddy about about you,

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Speaker 2: I just wanted to start by saying that, you know,

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Speaker 2: you started out exploring some of the greatest minds that

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Speaker 2: have inspired the plan on it have inspired different sectors

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Speaker 2: of our worlds and interests, from sports to business, to

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Speaker 2: entertainment to the spiritual world, you know, and all that.

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Speaker 2: And and I was telling him many years ago that

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Speaker 2: for me, the more I watched everything he did, the

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Speaker 2: more I realized that the attention went from some of

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Speaker 2: the amazing voices that he was carrying on his show

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Speaker 2: to like, what does he think his perspective perspective because

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Speaker 2: he's been able to really summerse himself in so many philosophies,

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Speaker 2: and you know, we're very big in philosophy over here,

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Speaker 2: you know, so for us was very excited to kind

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Speaker 2: of explore that and to basically you know, in many ways.

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Speaker 2: So it's give you, give you your flowers. You know,

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Speaker 2: you Bob lifted. You've changed so many people's lives. You've

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Speaker 2: inspired so many people to shade their own selves and

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Speaker 2: become better versions of themselves. And you have had your

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Speaker 2: own transformative process too, you know. And I think in

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Speaker 2: the process of hearing all this wisdom, applying it to

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Speaker 2: We're all gonna have an appeal battle with certain things

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Speaker 2: that you know match or not match other people's journeys.

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Speaker 1: You know, it's what you take from it. So I

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Speaker 2: I literally texted him two seconds He says, yes, what time,

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Speaker 2: and I was like, oh, okay, fine.

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Speaker 1: Up, and I just uh so, first and foremost, thank you.

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Speaker 2: It's a very informal conversation about inspiration and things like that,

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Speaker 2: but also kind of like our.

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Speaker 1: Way to, you know, to to say thank you.

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Speaker 2: You know, I appreciate it for the stuff that you've

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Speaker 2: done for so many communities.

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Speaker 3: And Puppy can go yeah, almost that's the new podcast.

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Speaker 4: One thing I appreciate about you, and hopefully we'll get

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Speaker 4: to connect more for it in the future, buddy, even

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Speaker 4: though you're so busy doing all the projects that you're

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Speaker 4: doing and fatherhood, married, all these different things. We unfortunately

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Speaker 4: we haven't seen each other that frequently, but when we do,

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Speaker 3: We text, we call, but it's like seeing each other.

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Speaker 4: It just feels like I just saw you because of

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Speaker 4: that bond that we go deep.

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Speaker 3: When we do talk and I do pick.

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Speaker 2: Up or we left off, it's it's still just as

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Speaker 2: and you know you you really and I and I

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Speaker 2: don't say this often at all, and you know, many

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Speaker 2: fifteen plus episodes so far and you know more, you

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Speaker 2: haven't really said this, but there's very very few individuals

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Speaker 2: at at the meeting have stayed with me in such

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Speaker 2: a philosophical in such an insightful way. And your honesty,

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Speaker 2: your energy, your way, your heart is open, and we're

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Speaker 2: going to explore so many of those things today in

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Speaker 2: this conversation and really understanding you know, the the where

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Speaker 2: you got here because it's so important for us to

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Speaker 2: really humanize you know, you know that destination.

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Speaker 1: But anyways, Freddy, you have any and to understand the journey.

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Speaker 5: Well, but before we started the show, we realized that

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Speaker 5: we're both too Midwest guys.

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Speaker 3: Yeah.

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Speaker 5: We were just kind of talking about the values Midwest

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Speaker 3: To everyone in line.

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Speaker 5: It's a very specific thing, yes, yes, that time, Like

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Speaker 5: you know, you got East Coast people, you got West

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Speaker 1: And when when he said that, I was like, ah, okay, yeah, yeah,

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Speaker 1: we're speaking the same language. So you were born in Ohio.

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Speaker 3: Small town, Delaware, Ohio.

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Speaker 3: And so what I lived in the Northwest suburbs for

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Speaker 3: a summer. Okay, in Chicago, you did.

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Speaker 4: I lived in Northwest suburbs. Yeah, where about Arlington Heights Okay?

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Speaker 3: I played a playoff game there. So I've been around Chicago.

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Speaker 4: I've been to Wrigley games and the bleachers, shirt off,

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Speaker 4: Waste of Chicago. Fourth of July, Taste of Chicago, all

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Speaker 5: I'm I'm I'm going to start this off by saying,

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Speaker 5: I'm a fan. Okay, I've watched your stuff in the past,

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Speaker 5: and I've been really intrigued about your trajectory and where

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Speaker 5: you started and where you out now. I was just

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Speaker 5: like you all of a sudden interviewing people like a monk,

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Speaker 5: Like how do you go from being a kid like

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Speaker 4: I lived with a lot of insecurity and my first

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Speaker 3: So therefore I'm unlovable.

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Speaker 4: then there's multiple instances where I just never felt enough.

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Speaker 3: So my behavior has just matched my beliefs. That's what

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Speaker 4: Our beliefs influence our behaviors, and our beliefs are formed

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Speaker 4: memories I had for twenty five years, I imagined myself

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Speaker 4: You have stuff from childhood, if you've healed it or

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Speaker 4: getting here. And it doesn't mean it's right or wrong,

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Speaker 4: You were talking about this before we started rolling. I

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Speaker 4: was like, how are all the projects going? And you're like,

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Speaker 4: it's good, but and you said, oh, I have to

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Speaker 4: notice even just saying it's good, it's not where I

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Speaker 3: But I'm reflecting that.

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Speaker 4: I'm just responding that it's good because I have an

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Speaker 4: It's serving because it's in alignment with who he is

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Speaker 3: And I'm healthy. I get to even though I wake

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Speaker 4: So I think it's perspective and it doesn't mean we

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Speaker 4: Percent people pleaser yeah, or people prove her. It was

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Speaker 4: I'm not going to allow anyone to cross boundaries anymore.

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Speaker 4: And it's like the littlest boundaries to the biggest boundaries.

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Speaker 3: I'm not advising you what to do.

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Speaker 4: So I recommend being in the relationship and creating the

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Speaker 4: She wasn't trying to tell me what to do, and

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Speaker 4: And so the little boy inside of me was screaming

445
00:21:22,000 --> 00:21:27,920
Speaker 4: at me through ezema, through your chest pain, through feeling stranged,

446
00:21:28,000 --> 00:21:30,200
Speaker 4: like I'm not using my voice.

447
00:21:30,400 --> 00:21:32,800
Speaker 5: So so the boundary you felt it was all me

448
00:21:33,280 --> 00:21:38,000
Speaker 5: your decision to to.

449
00:21:36,520 --> 00:21:39,840
Speaker 4: Make a boundary, boundaries you over and over again, and

450
00:21:39,840 --> 00:21:42,600
Speaker 4: then she said something to me because I was just like,

451
00:21:42,680 --> 00:21:44,080
Speaker 4: I just want peace in my life.

452
00:21:44,800 --> 00:21:46,680
Speaker 3: And she looked at me and she said, you are peace.

453
00:21:48,160 --> 00:21:50,000
Speaker 3: You have to you have to own peace.

454
00:21:50,240 --> 00:21:54,960
Speaker 4: You can't you can't create, you can't give in to something.

455
00:21:55,359 --> 00:21:59,600
Speaker 4: To have peace. You have to be piece, be peace.

456
00:22:00,240 --> 00:22:01,919
Speaker 4: And she just kept saying, over and over again, you

457
00:22:01,960 --> 00:22:02,440
Speaker 4: are piece.

458
00:22:02,840 --> 00:22:07,080
Speaker 2: There's something there's something so empowering about saying I'm gonna

459
00:22:07,119 --> 00:22:12,120
Speaker 2: meet you. I'm just not gonna meet you there, right right,

460
00:22:13,160 --> 00:22:18,320
Speaker 2: most oftentimes we shake the inability for us to to

461
00:22:18,560 --> 00:22:23,920
Speaker 2: act within our strengths. And when we perform or try

462
00:22:23,960 --> 00:22:27,640
Speaker 2: to make reason within our weaknesses, that's where you open

463
00:22:27,680 --> 00:22:31,040
Speaker 2: the door for control. Somebody can really control those emotions

464
00:22:31,080 --> 00:22:33,160
Speaker 2: because they know they can get you up in that frequency.

465
00:22:33,240 --> 00:22:33,440
Speaker 3: Right.

466
00:22:33,480 --> 00:22:35,919
Speaker 2: So, in many friendships in the past, you know, you

467
00:22:35,960 --> 00:22:39,800
Speaker 2: could tell that certain friendships of mine in the past.

468
00:22:39,680 --> 00:22:40,920
Speaker 1: They wanted me to meet them here.

469
00:22:41,840 --> 00:22:43,959
Speaker 2: You know, they wanted to bring me up to this

470
00:22:44,160 --> 00:22:47,600
Speaker 2: level of frequency in which frankly, I didn't feel effective,

471
00:22:47,920 --> 00:22:51,360
Speaker 2: I didn't feel strong, I didn't have clarity, right, So

472
00:22:51,480 --> 00:22:53,840
Speaker 2: I so whatever would come out of my mouth, just

473
00:22:53,920 --> 00:22:57,119
Speaker 2: could not solve it or could not enhance it or

474
00:22:57,119 --> 00:22:57,840
Speaker 2: make it feel better.

475
00:22:57,880 --> 00:23:00,879
Speaker 1: So what you're saying makes so much, and he tracks

476
00:23:01,240 --> 00:23:03,400
Speaker 1: so much. But what we're talking about.

477
00:23:04,040 --> 00:23:06,680
Speaker 2: You know, because in order for us to achieve, build,

478
00:23:06,840 --> 00:23:10,399
Speaker 2: or create or just find that piece within us, Yes,

479
00:23:11,359 --> 00:23:15,639
Speaker 2: you have to really understand where do you stand in

480
00:23:15,680 --> 00:23:19,080
Speaker 2: strength and cultivate that because that's where you can tell

481
00:23:19,119 --> 00:23:19,720
Speaker 2: that little.

482
00:23:19,520 --> 00:23:21,560
Speaker 1: Boy, hey, yeah, I got it, you got you.

483
00:23:21,640 --> 00:23:23,040
Speaker 4: So it was the first time where I felt like

484
00:23:23,080 --> 00:23:26,239
Speaker 4: the adult was in the room, which was me, Like

485
00:23:26,520 --> 00:23:31,080
Speaker 4: I showed up as my adult self within my own body,

486
00:23:31,160 --> 00:23:32,920
Speaker 4: and I said, I got you.

487
00:23:33,320 --> 00:23:34,399
Speaker 3: Whether this girl.

488
00:23:34,320 --> 00:23:36,639
Speaker 4: Likes me or not, whether she gives me the silent

489
00:23:36,640 --> 00:23:40,040
Speaker 4: treatment or not, whether we're together or not, like you're good.

490
00:23:40,359 --> 00:23:41,880
Speaker 4: And I never knew I was going to be good

491
00:23:41,920 --> 00:23:44,320
Speaker 4: with just me. So it was a lot of just

492
00:23:44,520 --> 00:23:49,560
Speaker 4: healing the kind of wounded parts of me that never

493
00:23:49,640 --> 00:23:52,240
Speaker 4: got healed. You break your arm and you never heal it.

494
00:23:52,240 --> 00:23:54,480
Speaker 4: It's going to hurt every time you touch it. You know,

495
00:23:54,520 --> 00:23:56,760
Speaker 4: it's gonna the wind blows, it's going to hurt your arm.

496
00:23:56,760 --> 00:24:01,520
Speaker 4: It's like imagine the emotional and psychology wounds that we have,

497
00:24:02,160 --> 00:24:05,560
Speaker 4: especially like you know, immigrants haven't even stronger wounds of

498
00:24:05,720 --> 00:24:08,440
Speaker 4: just like I need to prove, I need to accelerate,

499
00:24:08,520 --> 00:24:10,280
Speaker 4: I need to like do it for my parents.

500
00:24:10,320 --> 00:24:12,320
Speaker 3: I need to get all these things. It's like men

501
00:24:12,400 --> 00:24:13,399
Speaker 3: deeper levels for it.

502
00:24:13,400 --> 00:24:15,520
Speaker 2: It was crazy, but by the way for it. For

503
00:24:15,640 --> 00:24:19,919
Speaker 2: what's crazy for immigrants is that they may be not

504
00:24:19,960 --> 00:24:23,359
Speaker 2: even a point in their lifetime where they can sit

505
00:24:23,800 --> 00:24:26,240
Speaker 2: with their wounds and say, I'm going to heal that.

506
00:24:26,320 --> 00:24:28,880
Speaker 1: You know, the time you don't have the time, you.

507
00:24:28,880 --> 00:24:31,280
Speaker 5: Have the time or maybe or maybe schools, you know,

508
00:24:31,960 --> 00:24:35,800
Speaker 5: or maybe not even understand the concept of healing.

509
00:24:35,640 --> 00:24:37,160
Speaker 3: Because your parents not even talking about that.

510
00:24:37,320 --> 00:24:41,240
Speaker 5: No, never, I didn't even understand the concept of healing.

511
00:24:41,480 --> 00:24:44,119
Speaker 5: Just in the last like two three years, like like

512
00:24:44,200 --> 00:24:46,679
Speaker 5: when did you as we were back to like the

513
00:24:46,720 --> 00:24:50,160
Speaker 5: Midwest and us, right like like, at what point did

514
00:24:50,200 --> 00:24:52,200
Speaker 5: you go healing is like a thing?

515
00:24:52,680 --> 00:24:54,640
Speaker 3: Right, Well, it wasn't until I moved out of here.

516
00:24:54,480 --> 00:24:57,040
Speaker 5: And I have to like heal these wounds in order

517
00:24:57,080 --> 00:24:59,480
Speaker 5: for me to grow into and to It.

518
00:24:59,560 --> 00:25:00,439
Speaker 3: Wasn't I got here.

519
00:25:00,480 --> 00:25:02,760
Speaker 4: But really it wasn't until I had breakdown after breakdown

520
00:25:02,760 --> 00:25:05,960
Speaker 4: after breakdown in my life about twelve years ago, and

521
00:25:06,400 --> 00:25:09,720
Speaker 4: a relationship was going bad, a business partnership was going bad,

522
00:25:10,040 --> 00:25:11,960
Speaker 4: and I was I was living in West Hollywood, and

523
00:25:12,000 --> 00:25:14,479
Speaker 4: I was playing basketball a lot in the mean streets

524
00:25:14,480 --> 00:25:18,840
Speaker 4: of West Hollywood, and I just started getting I just

525
00:25:18,880 --> 00:25:21,879
Speaker 4: started getting in fights all the time to pick up basketball.

526
00:25:21,880 --> 00:25:24,199
Speaker 4: But this is like, essentially in Beverly Hills. It's not

527
00:25:24,280 --> 00:25:26,880
Speaker 4: like we're freaking comptent or something, you know, It's like we're.

528
00:25:26,880 --> 00:25:28,760
Speaker 2: Do you think that in those moments you were trying

529
00:25:28,800 --> 00:25:30,560
Speaker 2: to release something you didn't know what has.

530
00:25:30,480 --> 00:25:31,880
Speaker 3: So much anger inside of me?

531
00:25:32,440 --> 00:25:35,439
Speaker 4: And here's an analogy I've been talking about lately. Have

532
00:25:35,440 --> 00:25:37,600
Speaker 4: you guys ever heard of someone named Wayne Dyer? You

533
00:25:37,600 --> 00:25:39,840
Speaker 4: ever heard of this guy. He's written a lot of books.

534
00:25:39,840 --> 00:25:41,439
Speaker 4: He's since passed, but he was used to be a

535
00:25:41,440 --> 00:25:46,320
Speaker 4: big spiritual personal development guy and he has sold a

536
00:25:46,320 --> 00:25:47,480
Speaker 4: ton of books, all these things.

537
00:25:47,640 --> 00:25:49,480
Speaker 3: Me and Martha watch a lot of his content now.

538
00:25:49,520 --> 00:25:51,160
Speaker 3: But he passed away I think seven years ago.

539
00:25:51,200 --> 00:25:54,920
Speaker 4: Anyways, he used to give a speech with a great analogy,

540
00:25:55,359 --> 00:25:56,800
Speaker 4: and when he would go on stage, he would take

541
00:25:56,800 --> 00:25:59,480
Speaker 4: an orange out with him on stage and he'd say,

542
00:26:00,240 --> 00:26:03,440
Speaker 4: look at this orange. When you squeeze this orange. What

543
00:26:03,480 --> 00:26:05,560
Speaker 4: type of juice comes out of an orange? And you'd

544
00:26:05,560 --> 00:26:10,360
Speaker 4: ask people what comes orange juice? So if you squeeze

545
00:26:10,359 --> 00:26:13,080
Speaker 4: this orange, Freddy, does apple juice come out?

546
00:26:13,920 --> 00:26:16,320
Speaker 3: Does it? Does apple just come out of an orange?

547
00:26:16,480 --> 00:26:18,200
Speaker 3: It doesn't. Does grape juice come out of it?

548
00:26:18,800 --> 00:26:19,320
Speaker 1: No? No?

549
00:26:19,480 --> 00:26:21,520
Speaker 3: Does watermelon juice come out of an orange? No?

550
00:26:21,520 --> 00:26:22,040
Speaker 1: No it doesn't.

551
00:26:22,160 --> 00:26:26,119
Speaker 4: No, orange juice does. Because that's what's inside. And so

552
00:26:26,240 --> 00:26:30,200
Speaker 4: when we as humans are applied pressure in life, when

553
00:26:30,240 --> 00:26:32,639
Speaker 4: there's an audition and we've got to get ready for

554
00:26:33,280 --> 00:26:36,080
Speaker 4: we get it or we don't get it. When there's

555
00:26:36,320 --> 00:26:41,440
Speaker 4: someone calling me names, when there's traffic and someone cuts

556
00:26:41,520 --> 00:26:46,040
Speaker 4: us off. Whatever, whatever comes out of us is what's

557
00:26:46,040 --> 00:26:50,240
Speaker 4: inside of us. So if there's anger and resentment and

558
00:26:50,359 --> 00:26:54,639
Speaker 4: jealousy and frustration when I'm applied pressure, that emotion is

559
00:26:54,680 --> 00:26:56,639
Speaker 4: going to come out of me. If I'm filled with

560
00:26:56,720 --> 00:26:59,080
Speaker 4: peace and love and harmony in alignment because I've done

561
00:26:59,119 --> 00:27:01,960
Speaker 4: the healing work, then if I get the audition, I

562
00:27:01,960 --> 00:27:02,800
Speaker 4: don't get the audition.

563
00:27:03,000 --> 00:27:05,720
Speaker 3: I have a huge success. The show's number one. It's

564
00:27:05,880 --> 00:27:06,520
Speaker 3: my bombs.

565
00:27:07,119 --> 00:27:09,720
Speaker 4: Sure, maybe I'm a little saddered, just it's not bypassing

566
00:27:09,760 --> 00:27:13,440
Speaker 4: my emotions. But anger is not inside of me. If

567
00:27:13,480 --> 00:27:17,480
Speaker 4: I've healed more, and okay, I have a little disappointment,

568
00:27:17,520 --> 00:27:19,200
Speaker 4: But then I'm like, you know what, did I give

569
00:27:19,240 --> 00:27:22,920
Speaker 4: my best? Did I show up my best today? That's

570
00:27:22,960 --> 00:27:25,159
Speaker 4: what's inside of me, That's what should come out. So

571
00:27:25,200 --> 00:27:29,040
Speaker 4: what I got in all these relationships and fights and

572
00:27:29,080 --> 00:27:31,919
Speaker 4: I would just get triggered so easily. Now I had

573
00:27:31,960 --> 00:27:33,840
Speaker 4: a lot of love and joy inside of me as well,

574
00:27:34,280 --> 00:27:36,480
Speaker 4: So when good things happened, I was like the passion guy,

575
00:27:36,640 --> 00:27:40,240
Speaker 4: fun guy. But you trigger that broken arm that wound

576
00:27:40,280 --> 00:27:43,439
Speaker 4: inside of me. Boom, you hit that button. It's like,

577
00:27:43,560 --> 00:27:46,359
Speaker 4: let's go and defend myself. And that came from feeling

578
00:27:46,400 --> 00:27:49,640
Speaker 4: abused and taking advantage of and all that stuff, needing

579
00:27:49,680 --> 00:27:50,960
Speaker 4: to like defend myself.

580
00:28:00,520 --> 00:28:04,080
Speaker 2: So at some point you said, I want to explore more? Right,

581
00:28:04,119 --> 00:28:06,600
Speaker 2: and how was school for grade news? Because you've built

582
00:28:06,640 --> 00:28:09,960
Speaker 2: an empire out of the search for greatness?

583
00:28:11,160 --> 00:28:13,000
Speaker 1: How how did that idea started?

584
00:28:13,240 --> 00:28:18,280
Speaker 4: It started because I was broken during this time and

585
00:28:18,320 --> 00:28:21,560
Speaker 4: I was like, I need answers. Let me go find

586
00:28:21,560 --> 00:28:24,160
Speaker 4: the smartest people I know and start having these conversations.

587
00:28:24,400 --> 00:28:27,439
Speaker 4: And I was already having these conversations and these kind

588
00:28:27,480 --> 00:28:29,280
Speaker 4: of mentors or coaches were helping me, and I was

589
00:28:29,320 --> 00:28:30,879
Speaker 4: just like, people need to hear.

590
00:28:30,760 --> 00:28:32,880
Speaker 5: This, And did you feel like there was a correlation

591
00:28:33,040 --> 00:28:34,479
Speaker 5: between what they were all saying.

592
00:28:34,840 --> 00:28:35,040
Speaker 3: Yeah.

593
00:28:35,080 --> 00:28:38,600
Speaker 4: I mean early the early days, I was more still

594
00:28:38,680 --> 00:28:40,600
Speaker 4: driven by like how do I be successful?

595
00:28:40,640 --> 00:28:42,240
Speaker 3: How do I be number one? How do you be

596
00:28:42,280 --> 00:28:42,760
Speaker 3: the best?

597
00:28:42,960 --> 00:28:45,720
Speaker 4: It was like learning from champions of sport or industry

598
00:28:45,840 --> 00:28:48,719
Speaker 4: on like getting to the top. So I still driven

599
00:28:48,800 --> 00:28:52,360
Speaker 4: to be number one, But then I was like, oh,

600
00:28:52,400 --> 00:28:56,560
Speaker 4: being number one doesn't mean you're going to be happy, right,

601
00:28:56,600 --> 00:28:57,320
Speaker 4: Look at Wilmer.

602
00:28:57,880 --> 00:28:59,160
Speaker 3: I'm scared.

603
00:29:00,880 --> 00:29:14,440
Speaker 6: Kidding you know, right, he's place doctor met podcast and

604
00:29:14,800 --> 00:29:19,080
Speaker 6: hit TV show, and it's just it's going okay for me,

605
00:29:23,920 --> 00:29:24,680
Speaker 6: it's very good.

606
00:29:24,800 --> 00:29:27,000
Speaker 4: No, So it's it was a journey of like, let

607
00:29:27,040 --> 00:29:29,920
Speaker 4: me learn about how to first be the best I

608
00:29:29,960 --> 00:29:31,760
Speaker 4: can be to destroy people?

609
00:29:31,920 --> 00:29:33,280
Speaker 3: That was like the initial thought.

610
00:29:33,760 --> 00:29:36,959
Speaker 4: Interesting, I mean, like be the best of my industry

611
00:29:37,000 --> 00:29:38,440
Speaker 4: and be number one and be looked at it as

612
00:29:38,520 --> 00:29:45,360
Speaker 4: like cool or whatever. And you mean in competition, how

613
00:29:45,400 --> 00:29:46,960
Speaker 4: can everyone talk about me all the time?

614
00:29:46,960 --> 00:29:49,120
Speaker 3: How can everyone talk make me look good?

615
00:29:49,160 --> 00:29:49,280
Speaker 1: You know?

616
00:29:49,320 --> 00:29:50,440
Speaker 3: Because I was wounded.

617
00:29:50,960 --> 00:29:52,959
Speaker 4: I came from a place of not having friends, being

618
00:29:52,960 --> 00:29:55,400
Speaker 4: in the bottom of my class, being picked on, picked

619
00:29:55,400 --> 00:29:59,680
Speaker 4: the last, sexually abused, all these things to Okay, I'm

620
00:29:59,680 --> 00:30:02,880
Speaker 4: gonna prove people wrong. Let me become the best version

621
00:30:02,880 --> 00:30:05,640
Speaker 4: of me to prove people wrong and run away from

622
00:30:05,640 --> 00:30:06,040
Speaker 4: the pain.

623
00:30:06,760 --> 00:30:09,840
Speaker 3: So I didn't face the pain for twenty five years.

624
00:30:10,320 --> 00:30:13,440
Speaker 4: So I was building a version of me to run

625
00:30:13,480 --> 00:30:17,680
Speaker 4: away from pain, run away from bullying, sexual abuse, sadness,

626
00:30:17,720 --> 00:30:22,680
Speaker 4: whatever it might be. And you can only run for

627
00:30:22,720 --> 00:30:26,000
Speaker 4: so long until it catches up to you. Yeah, you

628
00:30:26,000 --> 00:30:29,160
Speaker 4: can only chase success for so long. That thing is

629
00:30:29,200 --> 00:30:32,240
Speaker 4: gonna keep coming out. There's a storm that's just trailing it.

630
00:30:32,280 --> 00:30:35,200
Speaker 4: And I felt the storm constantly, like just touching the.

631
00:30:35,160 --> 00:30:36,280
Speaker 3: Back of my neck.

632
00:30:37,160 --> 00:30:40,400
Speaker 4: And then the storm hit and it broke in every

633
00:30:40,440 --> 00:30:43,400
Speaker 4: relationship in my life at one point. And that's where

634
00:30:43,440 --> 00:30:46,120
Speaker 4: I was like, something, I'm the common denominator of all

635
00:30:46,200 --> 00:30:49,960
Speaker 4: these relationships and moments in life where I'm reacting. I

636
00:30:50,000 --> 00:30:52,480
Speaker 4: can't blame everyone else anymore. I'm realizing it's me now.

637
00:30:52,880 --> 00:30:54,840
Speaker 4: And that was a reflection moment where I said, let

638
00:30:54,880 --> 00:30:55,320
Speaker 4: me do something.

639
00:30:55,400 --> 00:30:56,920
Speaker 1: I think it was also a combination of.

640
00:30:58,840 --> 00:31:03,680
Speaker 2: The confret you have in certain personalities, or did you

641
00:31:03,760 --> 00:31:06,840
Speaker 2: really take all the blame yourself because that's a pattern, right,

642
00:31:06,880 --> 00:31:08,480
Speaker 2: We all have patterns, and I think you have to

643
00:31:08,760 --> 00:31:11,800
Speaker 2: want to appreciate that there is something you got to

644
00:31:11,840 --> 00:31:14,240
Speaker 2: fix or you know, restructure.

645
00:31:14,760 --> 00:31:16,960
Speaker 1: And the other one is that you have a pattern in.

646
00:31:16,840 --> 00:31:21,000
Speaker 2: Exposing yourself to situations and environments in which triggers that

647
00:31:21,160 --> 00:31:22,800
Speaker 2: other broken self of yourself.

648
00:31:23,320 --> 00:31:26,120
Speaker 4: Yes, and no, I think you know, when we learn

649
00:31:26,240 --> 00:31:30,080
Speaker 4: to love and accept ourselves and create the true boundaries

650
00:31:30,080 --> 00:31:33,800
Speaker 4: we need, Like we can still have people in our

651
00:31:33,840 --> 00:31:36,200
Speaker 4: lives and create a boundary, we don't have to eliminate

652
00:31:36,240 --> 00:31:39,000
Speaker 4: them fully necessarily. There might be friends or family members

653
00:31:39,000 --> 00:31:42,239
Speaker 4: where we're creating boundaries. With some people we might need

654
00:31:42,280 --> 00:31:44,680
Speaker 4: to remove ourselves from completely or for out of alignment.

655
00:31:45,160 --> 00:31:47,480
Speaker 3: But I've learned that, Like, you know, my mom.

656
00:31:47,280 --> 00:31:50,200
Speaker 4: Triggers the crap out of me still, but I've learned

657
00:31:50,240 --> 00:31:53,280
Speaker 4: to accept her more and not get triggered as much

658
00:31:53,320 --> 00:31:55,200
Speaker 4: and just be like, Okay, that's just who she is,

659
00:31:55,800 --> 00:31:59,719
Speaker 4: And I've learned to heal that relationship better as opposed

660
00:31:59,760 --> 00:32:01,880
Speaker 4: to feeling like she's always trying to babe.

661
00:32:01,760 --> 00:32:03,160
Speaker 3: Me as a forty two year old man. You know,

662
00:32:03,200 --> 00:32:06,240
Speaker 3: it's like a grown man, stop babying me. But now

663
00:32:06,280 --> 00:32:08,320
Speaker 3: I'm just like, Okay, it's my mom. I'm gonna accept

664
00:32:08,320 --> 00:32:10,600
Speaker 3: I'm gonna accept it, and I'm gonna.

665
00:32:10,360 --> 00:32:12,479
Speaker 4: Love her for who she is as opposed to it

666
00:32:12,520 --> 00:32:15,280
Speaker 4: like really like triggering me, you know. So it's it's

667
00:32:15,360 --> 00:32:17,840
Speaker 4: learning how to create acceptance and boundaries at the same

668
00:32:17,880 --> 00:32:22,480
Speaker 4: time and and really caring less about what people think.

669
00:32:23,400 --> 00:32:25,600
Speaker 4: And I have a few you know, I care about

670
00:32:25,640 --> 00:32:28,760
Speaker 4: what my wife thinks. But I'm also I create boundaries, right.

671
00:32:28,960 --> 00:32:29,120
Speaker 3: You know.

672
00:32:29,120 --> 00:32:31,840
Speaker 4: It's because I spoke up for the first time when

673
00:32:31,880 --> 00:32:34,479
Speaker 4: we started a relationship, and I was just like, this

674
00:32:34,560 --> 00:32:35,880
Speaker 4: is what I'm willing to do, and this is what

675
00:32:35,920 --> 00:32:36,719
Speaker 4: I'm not willing to do.

676
00:32:36,920 --> 00:32:41,760
Speaker 3: This is this is my this is I was like,

677
00:32:42,120 --> 00:32:43,480
Speaker 3: no surprise is yeah.

678
00:32:43,520 --> 00:32:46,800
Speaker 4: I was like, this is everything about me, And here's

679
00:32:47,000 --> 00:32:50,200
Speaker 4: what I believe my role should be in this relationship.

680
00:32:50,760 --> 00:32:53,640
Speaker 4: And I'm gonna step in one hundred percent into this role.

681
00:32:54,240 --> 00:32:56,440
Speaker 4: I'm not going fifty percent over here, fifty here. I'm

682
00:32:56,440 --> 00:32:58,880
Speaker 4: gonna be one hundred percent this and this is what

683
00:32:58,920 --> 00:32:59,680
Speaker 4: I can agree to.

684
00:33:00,480 --> 00:33:00,800
Speaker 3: Now.

685
00:33:01,360 --> 00:33:02,960
Speaker 4: I don't think I would have if I got married

686
00:33:02,960 --> 00:33:04,840
Speaker 4: in my twenties. There's no way to be stayed married.

687
00:33:05,160 --> 00:33:09,959
Speaker 4: It was like seven failed relationships and lots of therapy

688
00:33:09,960 --> 00:33:12,920
Speaker 4: that got me to place of like creating boundaries and

689
00:33:13,000 --> 00:33:15,560
Speaker 4: to be able to speak up and say, these are

690
00:33:15,600 --> 00:33:18,000
Speaker 4: the agreements that I want to create with you, This

691
00:33:18,080 --> 00:33:22,280
Speaker 4: is where my values are, and can we agree on

692
00:33:22,320 --> 00:33:28,000
Speaker 4: these things. Those agreements, in my mind, create alignment where

693
00:33:28,000 --> 00:33:32,400
Speaker 4: we both have an expectation based on shared values and alignment,

694
00:33:33,080 --> 00:33:34,480
Speaker 4: and that alignment.

695
00:33:34,080 --> 00:33:34,720
Speaker 3: Gives me peace.

696
00:33:34,800 --> 00:33:36,320
Speaker 4: I told you this was like when I came in here,

697
00:33:36,360 --> 00:33:38,760
Speaker 4: I was like, I feel peaceful because I'm in alignment.

698
00:33:39,000 --> 00:33:39,760
Speaker 3: I have harmony.

699
00:33:40,240 --> 00:33:44,120
Speaker 4: But it was a year of having uncomfortable conversation after

700
00:33:44,160 --> 00:33:47,560
Speaker 4: conversation to make sure we're in alignment. So it wasn't

701
00:33:47,600 --> 00:33:49,920
Speaker 4: just hoping we saw eye to eye. It was like, oh, no,

702
00:33:49,960 --> 00:33:51,400
Speaker 4: we need to see eyd eye hear it. If not,

703
00:33:52,240 --> 00:33:54,520
Speaker 4: we need to make an agreement because we don't have

704
00:33:54,560 --> 00:33:59,840
Speaker 4: an agreement, that means we are in disagreement. You're automatically

705
00:34:00,080 --> 00:34:04,240
Speaker 4: you're automatically in disagreement if you do not speak about

706
00:34:04,720 --> 00:34:05,640
Speaker 4: a shared agreement.

707
00:34:06,200 --> 00:34:08,640
Speaker 1: Do you feel that therapy gave you those tools?

708
00:34:09,120 --> 00:34:14,880
Speaker 4: I'm because I think two people alone only have a

709
00:34:14,920 --> 00:34:18,480
Speaker 4: certain amount of tools to do everything. You know, it's

710
00:34:18,520 --> 00:34:21,000
Speaker 4: hard to do everything in an intimate relationship on your own.

711
00:34:21,520 --> 00:34:23,840
Speaker 4: It doesn't mean you always need a third party, but

712
00:34:23,920 --> 00:34:26,000
Speaker 4: I think when you can't do it on your own,

713
00:34:26,080 --> 00:34:28,759
Speaker 4: I think it's important to have a third party that

714
00:34:29,000 --> 00:34:33,200
Speaker 4: you both agree with. And when we started dating, within

715
00:34:33,239 --> 00:34:36,520
Speaker 4: the first three months of just dating non exclusively, I said,

716
00:34:36,640 --> 00:34:40,520
Speaker 4: I'm not getting into a committed relationship again unless the

717
00:34:40,520 --> 00:34:44,040
Speaker 4: person I'm committing to will start the relationship in therapy.

718
00:34:44,400 --> 00:34:46,680
Speaker 4: And that was that was the big move. What do

719
00:34:46,719 --> 00:34:48,480
Speaker 4: you mean like a couple the couple's therapy.

720
00:34:49,040 --> 00:34:50,640
Speaker 3: And it was the big move because I was soon

721
00:34:51,080 --> 00:34:52,759
Speaker 3: in the dates within.

722
00:34:52,600 --> 00:34:55,919
Speaker 4: Six months of dating, because I was like, I don't

723
00:34:55,960 --> 00:34:58,200
Speaker 4: want to go down another two year relationship and then

724
00:34:58,280 --> 00:35:00,160
Speaker 4: break up in therapy.

725
00:35:00,640 --> 00:35:02,000
Speaker 3: I was like, let's start in therapy.

726
00:35:02,040 --> 00:35:03,680
Speaker 2: So what you say is like, hey, we're going to

727
00:35:03,760 --> 00:35:07,360
Speaker 2: go into therapy. Let's get the tools we need, accept.

728
00:35:07,160 --> 00:35:09,319
Speaker 3: And make sure we're in alignment. Otherwise let's move on.

729
00:35:09,520 --> 00:35:10,759
Speaker 4: Like I don't want to be in a two three

730
00:35:10,840 --> 00:35:13,200
Speaker 4: four year relationship because we care about each other and

731
00:35:13,239 --> 00:35:15,520
Speaker 4: we're good people and we'd try to make it work, but.

732
00:35:15,480 --> 00:35:16,160
Speaker 3: It's not working.

733
00:35:16,680 --> 00:35:18,600
Speaker 4: Like, let's figure this out in the first year if

734
00:35:18,640 --> 00:35:21,799
Speaker 4: we have a shot, and that gave me a lot

735
00:35:21,800 --> 00:35:23,640
Speaker 4: of peace because it was the first time I felt

736
00:35:23,680 --> 00:35:26,400
Speaker 4: like I had a partner willing to invest in personal

737
00:35:26,440 --> 00:35:30,080
Speaker 4: growth as well because I was always doing it. And

738
00:35:30,200 --> 00:35:32,040
Speaker 4: all the girls that I dated before never wanted to

739
00:35:32,080 --> 00:35:34,880
Speaker 4: do therapy together. When things were getting rough, they resisted it,

740
00:35:34,920 --> 00:35:36,000
Speaker 4: And I was like, why.

741
00:35:35,800 --> 00:35:37,520
Speaker 3: Do you think girls would die for this? You know,

742
00:35:37,680 --> 00:35:38,920
Speaker 3: do you think they were resisting it?

743
00:35:39,000 --> 00:35:42,160
Speaker 4: I chose women out of a wound, and I chose

744
00:35:42,239 --> 00:35:45,160
Speaker 4: I think I chose nothing against these women, but I

745
00:35:45,160 --> 00:35:48,720
Speaker 4: don't know any woman that wouldn't die for their man

746
00:35:48,800 --> 00:35:50,799
Speaker 4: to wish they would go to therapy with them if

747
00:35:50,800 --> 00:35:54,520
Speaker 4: something struggled. But none of the women I chose ever

748
00:35:54,600 --> 00:35:56,399
Speaker 4: wanted to go because then they would have to face

749
00:35:56,440 --> 00:35:59,160
Speaker 4: their own They would have to face around stuff, accountability

750
00:35:59,160 --> 00:36:01,759
Speaker 4: to accountability. And I was choosing these women based on

751
00:36:01,760 --> 00:36:05,399
Speaker 4: my own wounds. And again doesn't mean they're right or wrong.

752
00:36:06,480 --> 00:36:09,200
Speaker 2: You were choosing them to fit the way you were

753
00:36:09,239 --> 00:36:11,040
Speaker 2: molded to be at that moment exactly.

754
00:36:11,960 --> 00:36:17,080
Speaker 4: And had I created, you know, had courageous conversations early on,

755
00:36:17,120 --> 00:36:18,760
Speaker 4: I probably would never have been with any of these women.

756
00:36:19,560 --> 00:36:23,080
Speaker 4: But I was more bonded by chemicals, by chemical pleasure

757
00:36:23,719 --> 00:36:28,040
Speaker 4: rather than spiritual connection because I wasn't having those conscious

758
00:36:28,080 --> 00:36:31,759
Speaker 4: conversations early on. There was intimacy and deep conversation, but

759
00:36:32,960 --> 00:36:35,440
Speaker 4: if they didn't like something that I was saying, this

760
00:36:35,480 --> 00:36:37,640
Speaker 4: is my vision or my value, I would kind of

761
00:36:37,640 --> 00:36:39,560
Speaker 4: be like changed to make sure they liked me.

762
00:36:40,719 --> 00:36:43,360
Speaker 3: So I was I'd be like, Okay.

763
00:36:43,120 --> 00:36:44,480
Speaker 4: I won't do this if you don't want to do that,

764
00:36:44,520 --> 00:36:47,040
Speaker 4: if that makes you uneasy, I'll just do what you

765
00:36:47,080 --> 00:36:49,800
Speaker 4: want me to do. Because I was more chemically bonded

766
00:36:50,200 --> 00:36:54,799
Speaker 4: rather than are we spiritually aligned? And that's why I

767
00:36:54,800 --> 00:36:59,239
Speaker 4: feel peace because there's better alignments and better agreements, and

768
00:36:59,280 --> 00:37:01,640
Speaker 4: if you don't have a greets, you're in disagreement.

769
00:37:02,160 --> 00:37:04,280
Speaker 3: That doesn't feel good. That's out of alignment.

770
00:37:05,760 --> 00:37:08,880
Speaker 5: You said earlier that a lot of your books and

771
00:37:09,400 --> 00:37:11,520
Speaker 5: what you do is based.

772
00:37:11,160 --> 00:37:12,480
Speaker 1: On the concept of healing.

773
00:37:12,600 --> 00:37:17,480
Speaker 5: Yes, right, And as we were just talking about like immigrants,

774
00:37:17,520 --> 00:37:19,080
Speaker 5: for example, you just said that earlier.

775
00:37:19,160 --> 00:37:20,560
Speaker 1: You're like, can you imagine.

776
00:37:20,160 --> 00:37:23,400
Speaker 5: What immigrants are going through and the trauma that they're facing,

777
00:37:23,520 --> 00:37:25,640
Speaker 5: and the and the healing that needs to happen right

778
00:37:25,680 --> 00:37:30,520
Speaker 5: in them? How did you come to the conclusion that

779
00:37:30,600 --> 00:37:34,080
Speaker 5: you needed to just heal like what was like, how

780
00:37:34,120 --> 00:37:36,680
Speaker 5: did that concept even come into your brain?

781
00:37:36,800 --> 00:37:38,920
Speaker 1: And I as first you think about like how do

782
00:37:38,960 --> 00:37:41,879
Speaker 1: I fix myself? You don't think like, oh, I got

783
00:37:41,920 --> 00:37:45,040
Speaker 1: to heal, right, that that healing is even a concept.

784
00:37:45,239 --> 00:37:49,879
Speaker 4: Here's why, because all three of us are driven guys. Right,

785
00:37:49,920 --> 00:37:52,080
Speaker 4: we want to succeed. We want to be able to provide,

786
00:37:52,160 --> 00:37:53,799
Speaker 4: We want to be able to make money. We want

787
00:37:53,800 --> 00:37:56,879
Speaker 4: to be acknowledged for our skills and our talents. Right,

788
00:37:56,960 --> 00:37:58,760
Speaker 4: you want to you want to do a good job,

789
00:37:59,520 --> 00:38:01,279
Speaker 4: and you don't want it to just be good. You

790
00:38:01,320 --> 00:38:04,880
Speaker 4: want it to be you know, the top. Right, you

791
00:38:04,880 --> 00:38:07,400
Speaker 4: want to you know your effort is acknowledged. Right, you

792
00:38:07,400 --> 00:38:12,400
Speaker 4: want to be We all but no, seriously, we all

793
00:38:12,400 --> 00:38:18,759
Speaker 4: want them though, we all we all want we all

794
00:38:18,880 --> 00:38:21,040
Speaker 4: want to be successful in whatever we're doing.

795
00:38:21,160 --> 00:38:23,760
Speaker 3: However that looks like for us, whatever that that success

796
00:38:24,000 --> 00:38:24,160
Speaker 3: was like.

797
00:38:24,680 --> 00:38:28,800
Speaker 4: The challenge is when I accomp when I became a millionaire,

798
00:38:28,880 --> 00:38:31,680
Speaker 4: when I was on the USA national team for an

799
00:38:31,680 --> 00:38:35,640
Speaker 4: Olympic sport, when I had the beautiful girlfriend, when I

800
00:38:35,800 --> 00:38:38,600
Speaker 4: had you know, people recognizing me, I still didn't love

801
00:38:38,680 --> 00:38:39,520
Speaker 4: and accept myself.

802
00:38:40,280 --> 00:38:43,920
Speaker 3: So I was chasing the success, the money, the rewards,

803
00:38:44,000 --> 00:38:45,400
Speaker 3: the awards.

804
00:38:45,440 --> 00:38:48,960
Speaker 4: To feel good, and I still wasn't feeling good. Momentarily,

805
00:38:49,000 --> 00:38:51,120
Speaker 4: I was like, okay, like that feels good. They're acknowledging

806
00:38:51,160 --> 00:38:53,440
Speaker 4: me or whatever. I have money, but I still had

807
00:38:53,440 --> 00:38:55,719
Speaker 4: a lot of sadness. So I was like, what's the

808
00:38:55,840 --> 00:38:58,560
Speaker 4: point of making this money or succeeding or being on

809
00:38:58,719 --> 00:39:03,239
Speaker 4: magazine covers if I don't feel whole? And so for me,

810
00:39:03,400 --> 00:39:06,279
Speaker 4: as I was studying greatness from all these individuals and

811
00:39:06,320 --> 00:39:08,439
Speaker 4: studying how to manifest and how to create the life

812
00:39:08,440 --> 00:39:15,719
Speaker 4: we want, I was realizing that without feeling whole, all

813
00:39:15,800 --> 00:39:19,480
Speaker 4: the success is nice, but it doesn't fulfill me because

814
00:39:19,480 --> 00:39:23,239
Speaker 4: I am still not whole. So what is the point

815
00:39:23,280 --> 00:39:26,520
Speaker 4: of the success or the awards or the girl whatever

816
00:39:27,440 --> 00:39:29,040
Speaker 4: if it still does not fulfill me?

817
00:39:29,280 --> 00:39:32,200
Speaker 1: And if you're not fulfilled, then you cannot enjoy those

818
00:39:32,239 --> 00:39:33,640
Speaker 1: achievements because.

819
00:39:33,360 --> 00:39:36,239
Speaker 3: Then you're still like I need more. Right, I have

820
00:39:36,440 --> 00:39:39,040
Speaker 3: this much money, it's not making me feel good. Let

821
00:39:39,080 --> 00:39:41,560
Speaker 3: me go for more. I still feel like I'm in scarcity.

822
00:39:42,600 --> 00:39:46,880
Speaker 4: Scarcity comes from a lack of wholeness out of alignment.

823
00:39:47,600 --> 00:39:52,560
Speaker 4: We live in an emotional scarcity. Our nervous system feels disaligned,

824
00:39:53,040 --> 00:39:56,799
Speaker 4: and so we feel stressed, anxious, not enough. I needed

825
00:39:56,800 --> 00:39:59,919
Speaker 4: to be doing more. And it doesn't mean we can't

826
00:40:00,560 --> 00:40:03,839
Speaker 4: work really hard at our craft every day and we're

827
00:40:03,840 --> 00:40:05,440
Speaker 4: out of alignment or something. It doesn't mean we just

828
00:40:05,440 --> 00:40:08,120
Speaker 4: sit around and do nothing. I'm still a believer in

829
00:40:09,040 --> 00:40:12,400
Speaker 4: giving full energy, full effort, mastering your craft, being the

830
00:40:12,480 --> 00:40:15,840
Speaker 4: best you can be, excelling to be the top, whatever

831
00:40:15,920 --> 00:40:16,560
Speaker 4: that looks like for you.

832
00:40:17,600 --> 00:40:19,479
Speaker 3: But not the top.

833
00:40:19,680 --> 00:40:22,000
Speaker 4: Were the results giving us the benefit I'll give you.

834
00:40:22,080 --> 00:40:24,279
Speaker 4: I'll give you a quick example that's recent for me

835
00:40:25,520 --> 00:40:27,960
Speaker 4: with this book launch that I had. I just got

836
00:40:28,120 --> 00:40:31,840
Speaker 4: married six weeks ago, right, and then I decided to

837
00:40:31,920 --> 00:40:34,960
Speaker 4: do a wedding experience and then a book launch and

838
00:40:35,000 --> 00:40:37,560
Speaker 4: a book tour within like the same month, which was crazy.

839
00:40:38,000 --> 00:40:41,040
Speaker 4: I don't recommend it. And I remember thinking to myself

840
00:40:41,120 --> 00:40:42,759
Speaker 4: during the book launch and the tour, I was like,

841
00:40:44,719 --> 00:40:46,680
Speaker 4: I don't know if I'm going to hit the New

842
00:40:46,719 --> 00:40:49,080
Speaker 4: York Times bestseller list as an author. That's kind of

843
00:40:49,200 --> 00:40:52,640
Speaker 4: like the mark of success, right, And I'd been on

844
00:40:52,719 --> 00:40:54,320
Speaker 4: it twice before with other books.

845
00:40:54,680 --> 00:40:57,560
Speaker 3: But I was like, did I do enough? Did I

846
00:40:57,600 --> 00:40:59,719
Speaker 3: do enough marketing? Do I do enough touring? Did I

847
00:41:00,480 --> 00:41:01,240
Speaker 3: do enough press?

848
00:41:01,280 --> 00:41:04,160
Speaker 4: All these different things, and I was literally at the

849
00:41:04,239 --> 00:41:07,800
Speaker 4: place where I was just like, I did enough for

850
00:41:07,920 --> 00:41:09,920
Speaker 4: me to make an impact on people, and I did

851
00:41:10,000 --> 00:41:11,960
Speaker 4: the best I could with the season of life I'm

852
00:41:12,000 --> 00:41:15,919
Speaker 4: at and it's not worth getting sick over gaining weight,

853
00:41:16,080 --> 00:41:17,520
Speaker 4: over feeling exhausted.

854
00:41:17,520 --> 00:41:20,520
Speaker 3: It's not worth that for some list. And I was like,

855
00:41:20,600 --> 00:41:22,920
Speaker 3: I'm at peace, even if if it happens or not.

856
00:41:24,120 --> 00:41:27,200
Speaker 4: And if you hit the list in two books before

857
00:41:27,360 --> 00:41:29,759
Speaker 4: and then you don't hit it again, Normally I'd be like, ah,

858
00:41:29,880 --> 00:41:31,680
Speaker 4: I need to do it, because how is I gonna

859
00:41:31,719 --> 00:41:33,680
Speaker 4: look what if no one shows up, or what if

860
00:41:33,719 --> 00:41:35,200
Speaker 4: no one comes to my tour? What if I'm not

861
00:41:35,280 --> 00:41:36,880
Speaker 4: on the list and I have to promote I didn't

862
00:41:36,920 --> 00:41:37,160
Speaker 4: make it.

863
00:41:37,400 --> 00:41:38,520
Speaker 3: What's that going to make me feel?

864
00:41:39,080 --> 00:41:41,600
Speaker 4: But I was set so much peace, Like the day

865
00:41:41,719 --> 00:41:43,279
Speaker 4: of the list coming out, I was like, I don't

866
00:41:43,280 --> 00:41:45,000
Speaker 4: actually think it's gonna happen, and I'm okay with it.

867
00:41:46,080 --> 00:41:47,920
Speaker 4: And it happened, and I was like that's cool too,

868
00:41:48,640 --> 00:41:51,239
Speaker 4: And I was like, the awards are nice, but making

869
00:41:51,280 --> 00:41:53,880
Speaker 4: an impact and doing something that I feel is meaningful

870
00:41:53,920 --> 00:41:56,960
Speaker 4: for me, like I grew in the process of creating

871
00:41:57,480 --> 00:42:02,000
Speaker 4: this art for me, and that is the real win

872
00:42:02,239 --> 00:42:06,759
Speaker 4: at this level. So the whole key to manifesting what

873
00:42:06,920 --> 00:42:11,000
Speaker 4: you want, the whole key to having the ultimate success

874
00:42:12,080 --> 00:42:16,880
Speaker 4: is creating a sense of wholeness and alignment within you. First,

875
00:42:17,800 --> 00:42:20,640
Speaker 4: not needing the thing to fulfill me and feeling better

876
00:42:20,680 --> 00:42:23,880
Speaker 4: about me, but feeling good about me because I'm in

877
00:42:24,040 --> 00:42:26,000
Speaker 4: the act. And you guys have probably heard this a

878
00:42:26,040 --> 00:42:29,719
Speaker 4: million times. It's like, it's the daily pursuit, not the

879
00:42:30,280 --> 00:42:33,840
Speaker 4: results that should bring us joy. Now, the success is

880
00:42:33,840 --> 00:42:37,879
Speaker 4: always a nice bonus. The list, the number one show,

881
00:42:38,239 --> 00:42:41,160
Speaker 4: the money is a great bonus because it's a sense

882
00:42:41,200 --> 00:42:46,120
Speaker 4: of acknowledgment in your industry. But as you guys know,

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Speaker 4: like this, I'm adjacent to the entertainment world. I'm like

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Speaker 4: in it, but not really. It's like there's got to

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Speaker 4: be a lot of pressure for actors and producers and

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Speaker 4: writers of like. Oh, but it's so subjective and it's

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Speaker 4: like a little committee with the New York Times list.

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Speaker 4: It's a committee of people I don't know who they are,

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Speaker 4: who knows how they actually decide.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, and it's a weird numbers game in a certain

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Speaker 2: amount of time, exactly. It's not even like the life

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Speaker 2: of the Book.

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Speaker 3: It's not just like that week.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, that week, You're like, well, what if like the

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Speaker 2: press was delayed, what if like that article didn't go wide?

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Speaker 2: You know, like there's so much stuff that really plays

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Speaker 2: a factor and with how you're performing that week anyways,

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Speaker 2: you know, yeah, a lot of stuff was coming up

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Speaker 2: as you were bringing up and speaking of your book.

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Speaker 2: I want to actually talk a bit about your book

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Speaker 2: because I know it definitely wasn't easy for me to

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Speaker 2: make a book, and I will say this guy's had multiples.

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Speaker 1: What I really want to do is really break down

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Speaker 1: what this book really means. You know.

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Speaker 2: This is part one of the two part conversation with

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Speaker 2: my brother Lewis House. So this is part one, see

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Speaker 2: you guys are part two. This is Those Amigos and

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Speaker 2: my brother An. I'm Freddie Rodriguez and I'll see you

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Speaker 2: in the next one.

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Speaker 5: Those Amigos production from WV Sound and iHeartMedia's Michael through

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Speaker 5: That podcast network, hosted by Me, Freddie Rodriguez and Wilmer Valdorama.

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Speaker 2: Those Amigos is produced by Aaron Burlson and Sophie Spencer Zabos.

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Speaker 5: Our executive producers are Wilmer Valderama, Freddie Rodriguez, Aaron Burlson,

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Speaker 5: and Leo Klem at WV Sound.

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Speaker 2: This episode was shot and edited it by Ryan Posts

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Speaker 2: and mixed by Sean Tracy and features original music by

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Speaker 2: Madison Devenport and Halo boy Our.

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Speaker 5: Cover art photography is by David Avalos and designed by

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Speaker 5: Deny Holtzklau And.

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Speaker 2: Thank you for being at Third Amigo today. I appreciate

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Speaker 2: you guys always listening to those amigos.

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Speaker 5: For more podcasts from my Heart, visit the I Heart

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Speaker 5: Radio app, Apple podcast, or wherever you listen to your

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Speaker 5: favorite shows.

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Speaker 1: See you next week.