WEBVTT - Don't Judge Me

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<v Speaker 1>Once upon a time there was a good old traditional housewife,

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<v Speaker 1>and she couldn't. She cleaned and cared for her children

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<v Speaker 1>and the man of the house, and of course she

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<v Speaker 1>didn't talk back. She was both obedient and soft by nature.

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<v Speaker 1>She was a good woman who always made good choices.

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<v Speaker 2>We're good Mom's bad choices, two single mom who said,

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<v Speaker 2>but the patriarchy shared all their bad choices and sound out.

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<v Speaker 2>They weren't so bad after all, we're experts, overshares and

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<v Speaker 2>your new besties.

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<v Speaker 3>Sit back and enjoy the ride.

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<v Speaker 2>I can welcome back to good Mom's bad Choices. I'm

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<v Speaker 2>Erica and.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm Mila, and it's Wednesday, bitches. Welcome back, Welcome back,

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<v Speaker 3>welcome back.

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<v Speaker 2>How you doing. How have you been doing? You've been

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<v Speaker 2>integrating back from the jungle?

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<v Speaker 3>Are you okay? You know, kind of I'm integrating back

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<v Speaker 3>from the jungle. Yeah, one day at a time, one

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<v Speaker 3>step at a time. I'm feeling good. I've been in

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<v Speaker 3>the house mostly. I went out twice and it was

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<v Speaker 3>a little scary, but yeah, I'm trying to just get

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<v Speaker 3>back into the routine of motherhood, which is you know,

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<v Speaker 3>shocking and you know all and wifehood in americahood, how

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<v Speaker 3>about you? How are you feeling? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>I mean it was I had like a pretty like

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<v Speaker 2>hit the ground running situations. When I got back, I

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<v Speaker 2>had to deal with like child stuff, personality differences, uncleaned homes,

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<v Speaker 2>emails responded to, just opinions that nobody fucking asked for, and.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, unhealthy food. Yeah, that part I was like, maybe

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<v Speaker 3>I just want to eat. Yeah. Managing motherhood is like

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<v Speaker 3>being the manager at a costco and there's just so

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<v Speaker 3>many There's like all these team members or I don't know,

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<v Speaker 3>I feel like I'm just like the sole supervisor at

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<v Speaker 3>Target or something, and everybody's coming with me with their problems,

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<v Speaker 3>and I just I didn't sign up. I did. I

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<v Speaker 3>did sign up? You did? I did?

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<v Speaker 2>I did?

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<v Speaker 3>But sometimes I'm like, am I good at this? Is

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<v Speaker 3>this my calling?

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<v Speaker 2>You know?

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<v Speaker 3>I used to think that's a people person, but I

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<v Speaker 3>think it's I'm a people person at a distance. This time,

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<v Speaker 3>me and Erica went to Costa Rica for our fourteenth

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<v Speaker 3>retreat alone, no kids, no, no nobody, It was just

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<v Speaker 3>us and it was really nice. We're going for two

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<v Speaker 3>weeks and you know, I just like when you're only

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<v Speaker 3>in one or one other person's energy or like a

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<v Speaker 3>small bubble of people, and then you go back and

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<v Speaker 3>you're like deeply integrated with your whole house. Again, it's

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<v Speaker 3>a lot, it's a lot. It's a lot.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, No, I get it, Yeah, which is why I

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<v Speaker 2>mean no offense.

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<v Speaker 3>But I'm glad I don't.

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<v Speaker 2>Have anyone else living with me besides one person, because

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<v Speaker 2>two would be a lot to manage. And I know

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<v Speaker 2>one day I'm heading towards that direction of perhaps letting

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<v Speaker 2>another human live with me besides the one that came

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<v Speaker 2>out of my pussy.

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<v Speaker 3>But I feel like I thought I was ready for that,

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<v Speaker 3>and I don't think so. It's a lot.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't think so. I think I really enjoy, Like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>I really enjoy when Iri goes away and then I'm

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<v Speaker 2>alone for real. I think that I might really understand

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<v Speaker 2>the two household thing, or even Sheryl Lee Rose Ross's

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<v Speaker 2>Ralph's not Ralph's Stross living in different homes situation, you know.

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<v Speaker 3>Shout out to Aaron Marie Claire, who I don't know

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<v Speaker 3>how many years ago told me that I would do

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<v Speaker 3>best in a relationship with separate housing, and I was like,

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<v Speaker 3>what is she talking about? She doesn't know me and

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<v Speaker 3>she does. Okay, Uh, what is it called personality design?

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<v Speaker 2>Human design?

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<v Speaker 3>Human design? It was on point with that, okay, because

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<v Speaker 3>I'm like, I am the type of bitch I need

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<v Speaker 3>multiple houses, Like go to go to the Costa Rica house,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm going to Brooklyn. I just like I want to

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<v Speaker 3>have space. And I just also think I don't know

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<v Speaker 3>if it's about like getting older and just recognizing I

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<v Speaker 3>think as you get older as an adult, you're like,

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<v Speaker 3>we have families because that's what we're trained to do.

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<v Speaker 3>But then you're like, am I ever going to be

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<v Speaker 3>alone again?

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<v Speaker 2>No?

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<v Speaker 3>No, you're not.

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<v Speaker 2>This is it? Well, you know, we did talk remember

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<v Speaker 2>when we were like real like single moms in the beginning,

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<v Speaker 2>and well, I mean we like were partnerless, and we

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<v Speaker 2>said that we actually felt bad for married people.

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<v Speaker 3>Now you're going to be a married person, so good luck, bitch.

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<v Speaker 3>We did say that. We did remember.

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<v Speaker 2>That we were talking about married people, say how you're married?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh so sorry, like you get no breaks, none, you.

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<v Speaker 3>Know, seasons, seasons, seasons, I do. I'm not I'm mourning that,

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<v Speaker 3>but there is a part of me that's like, oh

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<v Speaker 3>my god, am I ever gonna just be alone? At

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<v Speaker 3>my house again for five days. Probably not, you know,

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<v Speaker 3>I mean it's very rare unless like I don't let

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<v Speaker 3>it go out of town and I don't have the kid.

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<v Speaker 3>But yeah, I think as you get older, time alone

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<v Speaker 3>is it's worth a lot. It's valuable. Yeah, yeah, it is.

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<v Speaker 2>It is for you guys that are just tuning in

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<v Speaker 2>on YouTube or really on YouTube. If you're watching this

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<v Speaker 2>episode on YouTube, this actually is a YouTube live. We

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<v Speaker 2>do one YouTube live a month, and they're kind of

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<v Speaker 2>sporadic like us because water signs we just be flowing.

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<v Speaker 2>So technically supposed to be the third week of February.

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<v Speaker 2>It is the third week of February, so we did do.

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<v Speaker 2>We're doing well so far. So just check in on

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<v Speaker 2>the third weeks of each month and we'll probably have

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<v Speaker 2>a YouTube live at some point during that week.

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<v Speaker 3>We can't commit to a day because although we are

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<v Speaker 3>partnered or not very committed.

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<v Speaker 2>So if you join YouTube live, we'll answer your questions live,

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<v Speaker 2>we'll talk to you live. I see a lot of

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<v Speaker 2>you guys in the chat right now. High Tribe, High

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<v Speaker 2>Discord Tribe, High YouTube Tribe. Hi, Jess Sharlee Ralph, Yes

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<v Speaker 2>that's her name. I got it wrong on the Cherylie

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<v Speaker 2>Cheryl Lee, Rol Cheryl Lee, Ralphie Rossick.

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<v Speaker 3>That's disrespectful.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm sorry, hey, Dianni, Dianni, I really do enjoy my

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<v Speaker 2>alone time, but I don't want to live alone. I

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<v Speaker 2>just need a day or two at home while he's

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<v Speaker 2>at work. That's fair. I need like days alone. I

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<v Speaker 2>actually really need days alone.

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<v Speaker 3>I do.

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<v Speaker 2>I really enjoy that time. I don't really get them

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<v Speaker 2>that often, but when I do, it's very nice, very

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<v Speaker 2>bad nice.

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<v Speaker 3>Could you? I was, who's the bitcher threw her hair

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<v Speaker 3>down for Punzel? Puzzel Punzel. I'm like, the bitch you

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<v Speaker 3>through her hair? Yeah, I'm like at the live show

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<v Speaker 3>where she took she threw off her.

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<v Speaker 2>W oh no, no, no no, I said, Thumbolina and

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<v Speaker 2>I was like, that doesn't seem right.

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<v Speaker 3>Fern Gully noa, oh my god. This is my favorite

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<v Speaker 3>character because she was small like me, but not some

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<v Speaker 3>bollina bit.

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<v Speaker 2>Do you remember fern Gully. I really flecked with fern Gully.

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<v Speaker 2>She was like she was a fairy. I got jungle fairy.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh yeah, yeah, yeah, now I remember. I almost forgot

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<v Speaker 3>about her. I was like, I like Sumbillina that he

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<v Speaker 3>used to have a My mom bought me like the

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<v Speaker 3>black version of the Little Book when I was little,

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<v Speaker 3>and I really like that. I don't know they were

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<v Speaker 3>trying to be progressive. Then my parents are very progressive,

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<v Speaker 3>not your parents. That means society. I grew up very

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<v Speaker 3>very very very pro black in my household, very malcolm X,

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<v Speaker 3>pretty hardcore, and I still stand by that. Hence why

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<v Speaker 3>my middle name is a Soda. I had to leave

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<v Speaker 3>the recording because Orlando got locked out because it was

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<v Speaker 3>very important that we smoke weed. That's true.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, I'm supposed to be going on a weed detox,

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<v Speaker 2>but I don't think I'm going to join my boyfriend

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<v Speaker 2>on this journey right.

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<v Speaker 3>Now, So so's start today.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm sorry, boo, it's just not gonna happen today. Maybe

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<v Speaker 2>I'll try tomorrow.

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<v Speaker 3>I might need to join your boyfriend on a weed

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<v Speaker 3>de talk. It's not gonna happen right now. But why

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<v Speaker 3>what's going on? I just feel like I should take

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<v Speaker 3>a break. Oh, then do it? Yeah, I know.

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<v Speaker 2>I went for a run this morning at five point

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<v Speaker 2>thirty in the morning, because with who wish you can?

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<v Speaker 2>Because he you know, he he doesn't really these. Oh no,

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<v Speaker 2>let me open a fresh pack. Yeah, he doesn't run

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<v Speaker 2>because these are all open because we can't stop smoking

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<v Speaker 2>backwards OCD. Why would we open.

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<v Speaker 3>Every single one?

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<v Speaker 2>Every single one has been opened. Okay, these are a

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<v Speaker 2>little crunch crunch Okay, well, I know, do we have

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<v Speaker 2>papers because I know another.

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<v Speaker 3>You have a backwood paper towork? Yeah, like you could

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<v Speaker 3>just roll it.

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<v Speaker 2>I have one in my backpack.

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<v Speaker 3>Then you sprinkle the back You sprinkle it in like

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<v Speaker 3>grava is a grava with a V or B. The

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<v Speaker 3>New Yorker is somebody help a bitch out the grapa

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<v Speaker 3>leaf graba. Yeah, and you just use it like that.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh okay, you know what I'm saying. Okay, how many

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<v Speaker 3>ways can you use the backwood? Four hundred and twenty

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<v Speaker 3>seven ways? Okay, Well let's do it. So you went

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<v Speaker 3>running at five thirty in the morning.

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<v Speaker 2>I went running at five thirty in the morning because

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<v Speaker 2>you know, I've I'm just I've been I've talked about

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<v Speaker 2>this before about just like body confidence, body issues, body

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<v Speaker 2>dysmorphia in the I talk about it in my in

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<v Speaker 2>the book, how I've like gone through I wouldn't say

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<v Speaker 2>like severe eating disorder. But like I've definitely like borderlined

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<v Speaker 2>eating disorder of like starving myself, overeating, stress eating, gaining

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<v Speaker 2>weight in college, I like bought an eight ball of

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<v Speaker 2>cocaine to lose like twenty pounds? How many I did?

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<v Speaker 2>I bought an eight ball specifically for my diet. So

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<v Speaker 2>that's what you told your twenty one year old stuff.

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<v Speaker 3>I need it. I just needed I was in the

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<v Speaker 3>Actually I was nineteen.

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<v Speaker 2>And I had gained my freshman fifteen and I'm so

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<v Speaker 2>stressed out about it that I said, I know, I'll

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<v Speaker 2>buy an eight ball my my grandma's mis send me

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<v Speaker 2>four hundred dollars for Christmas.

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<v Speaker 3>And I'm going to spend all of it on cocaine. Wow,

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<v Speaker 3>what year was it where a ball was four hundred dollars?

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<v Speaker 3>What in the nineteen year old money? Do you have?

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<v Speaker 3>New York's expense? It was a Christmas gift.

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<v Speaker 2>I spent my whole Christmas gift on cocaine from your grandma,

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<v Speaker 2>from my grandma.

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<v Speaker 3>Sorry, Tommy, did it work? Yeah? But I should have.

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<v Speaker 2>I could have died because I was doing coke and

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<v Speaker 2>then running on the treadmill.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh, my dad, there reminds me one time. One time

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<v Speaker 3>I was in college and I didn't coke. Like it

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<v Speaker 3>was like nine o'clock in the morning. I called my

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<v Speaker 3>homegirl and she's lived around the corrin of form Me.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm like, hey, I feel so good. She's like, what

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<v Speaker 3>am I? I think I want to run over? Not run over.

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<v Speaker 3>We're never going for a job to your house. She's like,

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<v Speaker 3>you've never jopped. I was like, this morning, I'm doing it.

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<v Speaker 3>I hung up the phone with the fuck to sleep.

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<v Speaker 3>I was like, sigm I'm just high. She's like, I know, wow.

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<v Speaker 3>So anyway, don't you cocaine and do it?

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<v Speaker 2>This is that we're not This is not a good idea. Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>I was nineteen bad idea. I know, for the people listening,

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<v Speaker 2>it's so crazy black women doing cocaine. I know, live

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<v Speaker 2>in la if we live in Hollywood, it's not even

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<v Speaker 2>about Hollywood or la you know whatever. You know, we

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<v Speaker 2>have a we have deep issues with that, and as

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<v Speaker 2>we should. However, I do not support the use of cocaine.

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<v Speaker 2>Us do it as your own discretion. However anymore, it's

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<v Speaker 2>not just for metal, just for medical announcements.

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<v Speaker 3>Anybody watching, we highly do not recommend using cocaine as

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<v Speaker 3>any type of dietary supplement. We did not stand by

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<v Speaker 3>this message.

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<v Speaker 2>This was a bad no no because then because I

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<v Speaker 2>was before that it was xenadrin. I don't remember every

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<v Speaker 2>anyone remembers xenodron, but it was a diet pill my

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<v Speaker 2>mom was taking, and so in high school I would

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<v Speaker 2>sneak them and that was crazy, Like I lost a weight,

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<v Speaker 2>like crazy time.

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<v Speaker 3>How long were you taking the fucking xenager? Like a week?

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<v Speaker 3>And I lost like ten pounds.

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<v Speaker 2>Anyway, my long journey of loving my body, I've so

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<v Speaker 2>I've gained in the last year in my I think

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<v Speaker 2>it's like happy weight, but I've gained almost twenty pounds

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<v Speaker 2>And I, yeah, I know this because I weighed myself

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<v Speaker 2>the other day and I said, oh, yeah, okay. And

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<v Speaker 2>I've just been like having to like really love myself

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<v Speaker 2>through it. And I'm really proud of myself because I've

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<v Speaker 2>done a lot of work on my body and I'm

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<v Speaker 2>not perfect. Like I'll mention my weight and I'll you know,

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<v Speaker 2>try to you know, I try to talk myself off ledges.

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<v Speaker 2>But I realized, like it's the weight is correlated to

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<v Speaker 2>my mental health, which correlates to my how much I'm exercising.

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<v Speaker 2>So if I'm not exercising, my mental health is not well,

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<v Speaker 2>which then directly impacts obviously my body. And so I

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<v Speaker 2>was like, I have got to like get my shit

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<v Speaker 2>together because mentally I need.

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<v Speaker 3>To be well.

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<v Speaker 2>I just had a beautiful experience Costa Rica. I was

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<v Speaker 2>I felt really good there. I came back and I

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<v Speaker 2>was like feeling myself like trying to crash and burn

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<v Speaker 2>in like this like hamster wheel of all the work

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<v Speaker 2>that we do. And then also like talk shit about

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<v Speaker 2>myself in the mirror, and then like I found myself

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<v Speaker 2>like commenting to my partner about it, and then I

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<v Speaker 2>was like, I don't do that. I don't need him to,

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<v Speaker 2>like I mean, of course, like it's it's nice to

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<v Speaker 2>have your partner validate you and say, like.

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<v Speaker 3>You look beautiful. That's so great, Like you're so great.

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<v Speaker 3>It doesn't matter what size you are. Goddess is worth

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<v Speaker 3>thick blah blah blah. Goddesses are sick? Is that what

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<v Speaker 3>he said? That was?

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<v Speaker 2>Actually that was that was something I saw on Instagram yesterday,

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<v Speaker 2>which then I was like, yeah, that's right. They were thick,

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<v Speaker 2>So I'm thick right now, because my mother fucking got it.

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<v Speaker 3>Goddesses were also petite goddesses came in all sizes and

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<v Speaker 3>shapes like some Bellina.

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<v Speaker 2>This is not about you.

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<v Speaker 3>Listen. If you don't want to do body positivity for everyone,

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<v Speaker 3>then I don't even know who you are.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm just saying. I'm just saying I would say there's

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<v Speaker 2>probably more, you know what, thick girls in the world

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<v Speaker 2>worry about their body.

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<v Speaker 3>Me just say I'm the fucking thing here. Okay, as

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<v Speaker 3>we're talking about body positivity, I'm so sick and tired

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<v Speaker 3>of the thick im sickies thinking they could say anything

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<v Speaker 3>they want to petite bitches because they think we have

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<v Speaker 3>it all and we do, but we also have issues too. Okay.

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<v Speaker 3>We live in a world where Kim K and all

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<v Speaker 3>the rest of these big booty bitches made it big

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<v Speaker 3>and cool to be sick and have that aunt ass

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<v Speaker 3>and big titties and blah blah blah, and all the

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<v Speaker 3>rap songs are like blah blah blah. Thick them, thick this,

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<v Speaker 3>thick them, think that whatever nobody says, oh look at

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<v Speaker 3>that petite girl. You know, we had that one solemn

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<v Speaker 3>they said, petite thick, But I don't appreciate you telling

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<v Speaker 3>us that we don't have any issues. Maybe we didn't

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<v Speaker 3>do it. I say, you don't have no issues. I said,

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<v Speaker 3>this isn't about you. You know, because we didn't do

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<v Speaker 3>eight bowl of cocaine for our twenty first birthday for

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<v Speaker 3>our diets does mean shit. You know what happened When

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<v Speaker 3>I was in eighth grade, I try to eat a

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<v Speaker 3>lot of McDonald's, and in college you try to drink

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<v Speaker 3>a lot of beers, and the beers did help. But

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<v Speaker 3>the point is you are how God made you, and

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<v Speaker 3>you're perfectly perfect, and everybody the grass is always greener

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<v Speaker 3>on the other side. And I'm realizing this even with aging.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, I agree to all of those things. However, I

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<v Speaker 2>would say that people who are thicker and bigger and

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<v Speaker 2>whatever it is, generally the information, the meatia, all those things,

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<v Speaker 2>they torment us a lot more than they do tiny

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<v Speaker 2>petite women. So yes, tiny petite women. I'm sure you

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<v Speaker 2>guys have your own set of issues wanting you know,

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<v Speaker 2>bigger asses, bigger hips, whatever, the fuck, being able to

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<v Speaker 2>gain weight, all those things. I'm sorry that you guys

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<v Speaker 2>go through that. I'm very sorry. However, I would say Historically,

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<v Speaker 2>figger women have a harder motherfucking time.

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<v Speaker 3>Okay, this is not an argument of thicker. You just

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<v Speaker 3>made it an argument. I just said, don't sleep under

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<v Speaker 3>the carpet. The body dysmorphia of different shapes and sizes

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<v Speaker 3>of women, I get. I hear that a lot. I'm

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<v Speaker 3>just saying I've had a lot of rude comments that

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<v Speaker 3>I didn't ask for about my body type and my

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<v Speaker 3>body size, like oh my god, you're so skinny, dub bitch.

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<v Speaker 3>So I'm just saying that kes this is a place

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<v Speaker 3>for women, and we're in the babe cave. I just

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<v Speaker 3>made that up, that we're just here to embrace all

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<v Speaker 3>the shapes and sizes because historically, different sizes are in

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<v Speaker 3>at different times. Okay, so you're gonna roll the bland. No,

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<v Speaker 3>I need you to roll it because it's a paper now.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, so is gonna work. So you're gonna break up

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<v Speaker 2>the backwood. This is our new technique. Okay, Okay, I

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<v Speaker 2>hear you. I understand. But all I was saying. What

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<v Speaker 2>I was also getting to was this morning, in the mirror,

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<v Speaker 2>I was doing my body work exercises, and I was

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<v Speaker 2>looking in the mirror and I was thinking how much

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<v Speaker 2>like women need to And actually I fucked up because

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<v Speaker 2>I was actually gonna wear something different today. I totally

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<v Speaker 2>forgot in my fucking exercise. I was gonna wear something

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<v Speaker 2>that made me feel really uncomfortable like that, I that

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<v Speaker 2>would make me have to highlight the things that I

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<v Speaker 2>feel uncomfortable with, because then I'd have to face it

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<v Speaker 2>and be like, I love myself no matter what, because like,

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<v Speaker 2>my belly is doing this thing here, guys everyone you know,

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<v Speaker 2>you guys know if you guys have this little floup

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<v Speaker 2>boss situation. Yeah, this little thing. I know, Jamila doesn't

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<v Speaker 2>know anything about this.

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<v Speaker 3>Wow, this is feeling really targeted.

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<v Speaker 2>And this is the kind of goddess stomach.

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<v Speaker 3>Okay, well that's what we're gonna have to. We're gonna

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<v Speaker 3>have to Pasi right there.

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<v Speaker 2>This is the goddess belly.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know what meme you saw this week, but

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<v Speaker 3>you're gonna have to chill with the goddess belly. Okay,

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<v Speaker 3>this belly also carried a child, you know, And I'm

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<v Speaker 3>let me you want to talk about I wore something

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<v Speaker 3>that I generally wouldn't wear because I'm sitting down and

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<v Speaker 3>this is like I don't like outfits that really show

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<v Speaker 3>my skinniness. And I licked this out a particularly. I

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<v Speaker 3>usually don't wear one piece fucking stretched suits. Look, I

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<v Speaker 3>feel like, wait, which way is it? Very? Oh?

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<v Speaker 2>Wow?

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<v Speaker 3>Like very like we have my Vagiina's big though.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, well then okay, so then me and Neila standing

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<v Speaker 2>next to each other. The other day we went to

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<v Speaker 2>a fucking call her daddy? Of it?

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<v Speaker 3>Why we went to a call her daddy?

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<v Speaker 2>Event you guys? Okay, speaking of which, God damn all

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<v Speaker 2>her art her audience are twelve. She's on when her

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<v Speaker 2>audience are twelve. Yeah, And anyway, I made you took

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<v Speaker 2>a picture together and she she's like, Fumblina.

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<v Speaker 3>I forgot about that picture.

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<v Speaker 2>She was like Fumblelina, And I was like right in front. Look,

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<v Speaker 2>I was like, god damn wait, we.

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<v Speaker 3>Gotta put We're gonna please GP. We gotta put the

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<v Speaker 3>picture because I look super small. Also, we because we

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<v Speaker 3>are such different side, we're kind of like.

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<v Speaker 2>Xpree have to photograph certain ways that Okay, I'm sorry,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm just it's falling off.

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<v Speaker 3>What are you gonna do? Just take it off? Can

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<v Speaker 3>I unplug this for five seconds? No? Yeah, okay oh

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<v Speaker 3>now that her microsoft perfect, So yeah, fuck not fast enough.

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<v Speaker 3>Eric and I have had to learn to really pose

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<v Speaker 3>an accordance with each other because if I am in

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<v Speaker 3>the back of her and she's like on a different

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<v Speaker 3>like on one step above me, then like the proportions

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<v Speaker 3>are not proportioning she's taller than me. So we've actually

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<v Speaker 3>really learned to and that's another thing, you know what,

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<v Speaker 3>like maybe God put us in this relationship because it's

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<v Speaker 3>like a it's a constant mirror of like we are

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<v Speaker 3>totally different looking women with totally different body shapes, and

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<v Speaker 3>so sometimes I'm looking at pictures, I'm like, oh my god,

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<v Speaker 3>this bitch and her titties and like, my titties are

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<v Speaker 3>all small, and like this is very fucking annoying. And

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<v Speaker 3>we bring Lingerie and she's all thick EM's and kirby,

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<v Speaker 3>and like we're constantly, constantly we could be in comparison

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<v Speaker 3>of each other because we have totally different body types.

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<v Speaker 3>But what good would that do for our fucking mental

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<v Speaker 3>health or our fucking friendship? But yes, that picture was

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<v Speaker 3>can we zoom into the picture? We're do not need

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<v Speaker 3>to put it here?

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<v Speaker 2>Here?

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<v Speaker 3>You can't we see Okay, wait, oh god, I just

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<v Speaker 3>got to get closer. I don't know if that's how

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<v Speaker 3>you do I don't know if that's how you do it.

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<v Speaker 3>You got to come back. Anyway, are you pulling up

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<v Speaker 3>the picture?

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<v Speaker 2>Long story? Because you said did you peopleant to put

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<v Speaker 2>it in. I just want the people on Live right

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<v Speaker 2>now to see it at this very moment. Anyway, long

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<v Speaker 2>story short, love on yourself. I'm still in the process,

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<v Speaker 2>still like I've come a long way. I've come a

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<v Speaker 2>long way, but I still have work to do. I

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<v Speaker 2>think it's like especially because of like I think of

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<v Speaker 2>Instagram and just just everything, just comparison is the devil, literally,

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<v Speaker 2>and I think that so many women we are so

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<v Speaker 2>hard on ourselves. We starve ourselves, we overeat ourselves, we

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<v Speaker 2>stay inside. We don't wear the thing. And that was

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<v Speaker 2>a thing too. That was like why even subconsciously I

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<v Speaker 2>didn't do it, but I told myself I was gonna

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<v Speaker 2>wear the thing that actually makes me feel a little

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<v Speaker 2>bit uncomfortable so that I can just be like, bitch,

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<v Speaker 2>it's fine, you look great. So this is just a

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<v Speaker 2>message to you to put on the thing, even if

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<v Speaker 2>you don't go outside, just put the thing on.

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<v Speaker 3>Look at yourself in.

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<v Speaker 2>The mirror, touch your body, talk nice to yourself. Send

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<v Speaker 2>nudes to the Discord group chat so that we can

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<v Speaker 2>pump you up. If you aren't in Discord, join Discord.

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<v Speaker 2>It's a great space. It's a great place for you

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<v Speaker 2>to just be yourself and send nudes. Send news that

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<v Speaker 2>you don't feel comfortable sending to anyone else, send them

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<v Speaker 2>to us. And I'm going to send you mine because

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<v Speaker 2>I was having a hard day today.

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<v Speaker 3>You know, yesterday last night I had put on some

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<v Speaker 3>lingerie to like do something, film something, and I just

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<v Speaker 3>left it on. I was cleaning the house and like

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<v Speaker 3>full blown stockings, and I was like, I like this.

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<v Speaker 3>Sometimes it requires that you put on the sexy shit

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<v Speaker 3>and do nothing, like literally just clean your house. It

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<v Speaker 3>just puts you in the energy of like, oh I

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<v Speaker 3>kind of look motherfucking good. You almost forget. You have

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<v Speaker 3>to like train yourself. Put on the lingerie, feel the silks,

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<v Speaker 3>feel the lace, put on the motherfucking garters and the stockings,

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<v Speaker 3>and just be like I'm that bitch, you know, like

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<v Speaker 3>if you were trumping around all goddamn day and sweats

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<v Speaker 3>and shit, it's gonna be hard to feel yourself and

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<v Speaker 3>even as a newdiest. There's been seasons in my life

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<v Speaker 3>where I knew I was depressed because I was wearing

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<v Speaker 3>a lot of sweats, and I'm like, bitch, if you

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<v Speaker 3>don't put on some actual fucking freakom dresses and come

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<v Speaker 3>out of this fucking deep depression, sometimes the anti depressant

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<v Speaker 3>medicine is just the freakom dress and the lingerie. Like

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<v Speaker 3>sometimes you have to like fake it until you make it,

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<v Speaker 3>and like even if you don't feel your greatest, you know,

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<v Speaker 3>just do what you gotta do until like put on

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<v Speaker 3>some lipstick can get there.

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<v Speaker 2>I also blame my boyfriend for making me gain weight

0:23:05.280 --> 0:23:09.280
<v Speaker 2>because he likes me and my moo moos, like that

0:23:09.400 --> 0:23:12.200
<v Speaker 2>turns him on, Like not lingerie. I've put on lingerie

0:23:12.240 --> 0:23:13.720
<v Speaker 2>and he's like, I don't really go a fuck about this.

0:23:13.760 --> 0:23:15.879
<v Speaker 2>I don't care about this. I actually prefer you in

0:23:15.880 --> 0:23:19.879
<v Speaker 2>like big T shirts. And now I have no I

0:23:19.920 --> 0:23:22.040
<v Speaker 2>don't I don't wear I barely put it on. So

0:23:22.040 --> 0:23:25.520
<v Speaker 2>I'm just wearing moon moves around the fucking house, just

0:23:25.560 --> 0:23:30.440
<v Speaker 2>like floating through like fucking Auntie, not putting on the

0:23:30.520 --> 0:23:33.760
<v Speaker 2>lingerie for like a mental check, Like bitch, it doesn't

0:23:33.760 --> 0:23:35.560
<v Speaker 2>fit anymore. It's been a while.

0:23:35.640 --> 0:23:35.680
<v Speaker 1>Ho.

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<v Speaker 3>You do need to have a mental check and you

0:23:38.760 --> 0:23:42.239
<v Speaker 3>need to do it for you. Fuck these niggas for real,

0:23:42.320 --> 0:23:45.000
<v Speaker 3>forar real. It's just like, yeah, it's just for you,

0:23:46.080 --> 0:23:50.639
<v Speaker 3>even if you live alone, you know. Anyway, that's my spiel.

0:23:52.200 --> 0:23:53.959
<v Speaker 2>So what are we doing here? Can you gut us

0:23:53.960 --> 0:23:56.040
<v Speaker 2>through this backwood experience? This? Ok?

0:23:56.240 --> 0:23:59.960
<v Speaker 3>This new so here, I've crushed up the black wood.

0:24:00.200 --> 0:24:02.679
<v Speaker 3>This is how you recycle your backwoods. If you opened

0:24:02.680 --> 0:24:05.120
<v Speaker 3>every fucking pack for no goddamn reason and they got

0:24:05.119 --> 0:24:07.760
<v Speaker 3>a little stale, you just crunch it up. This is

0:24:07.800 --> 0:24:12.040
<v Speaker 3>the eco friendly backwood. Crunch it up so that you

0:24:12.040 --> 0:24:14.080
<v Speaker 3>can still use it and that you get a little

0:24:14.080 --> 0:24:15.639
<v Speaker 3>spliff and it doesn't have to be too much. This

0:24:15.720 --> 0:24:18.160
<v Speaker 3>is like if you're not wanting to go so tobacco

0:24:18.400 --> 0:24:19.720
<v Speaker 3>and you don't want to get like, you know, someone's

0:24:19.800 --> 0:24:22.359
<v Speaker 3>could do that lightheaded feeling. You want a little lightheadedness,

0:24:22.640 --> 0:24:30.399
<v Speaker 3>then you just crunch up a little backwood like so, okay, Saltbee, Orlando,

0:24:30.400 --> 0:24:31.879
<v Speaker 3>where's my where's my camp?

0:24:33.400 --> 0:24:36.760
<v Speaker 2>Oh yeah, oh yeah, the tobacco the backwood, Saltbee, This

0:24:36.840 --> 0:24:39.200
<v Speaker 2>is backwards back would Bay.

0:24:39.240 --> 0:24:41.040
<v Speaker 3>This is just a little sprinkle if you want to

0:24:41.040 --> 0:24:43.840
<v Speaker 3>just a little sprinkle on your joint, that's what you do.

0:24:43.960 --> 0:24:46.040
<v Speaker 3>So here I have the weed. Here, I have my

0:24:46.160 --> 0:24:50.439
<v Speaker 3>sprinkle of spliff tobacco from the backwoods, and voila.

0:24:50.720 --> 0:24:55.399
<v Speaker 2>Okay, well give it to the paper master here. So

0:24:55.400 --> 0:24:57.480
<v Speaker 2>what I'm gonna do now is I'm going to actually,

0:24:57.480 --> 0:24:59.800
<v Speaker 2>I'm going to get a filter because this is very

0:25:00.359 --> 0:25:03.439
<v Speaker 2>I don't trust people that don't use filters and their joints.

0:25:04.280 --> 0:25:08.040
<v Speaker 2>I believe that it's very unsanitary, and it's lazy and

0:25:08.080 --> 0:25:10.359
<v Speaker 2>you're wasting the cannabis because you're not gonna stop it

0:25:10.359 --> 0:25:10.959
<v Speaker 2>all lazy.

0:25:11.080 --> 0:25:12.720
<v Speaker 3>I don't know how to do the filter. I barely

0:25:12.800 --> 0:25:13.840
<v Speaker 3>can roll a joint.

0:25:14.280 --> 0:25:16.080
<v Speaker 2>So what you do is you roll it up like so,

0:25:17.480 --> 0:25:23.679
<v Speaker 2>you place it here in the joint like so, and

0:25:23.720 --> 0:25:25.440
<v Speaker 2>then you just do a little.

0:25:27.840 --> 0:25:30.040
<v Speaker 3>And then you roll it just but like that, and.

0:25:30.000 --> 0:25:31.520
<v Speaker 2>Then I guess I'm just I mean, I'm just gonna

0:25:31.520 --> 0:25:34.600
<v Speaker 2>mix these up together right here. I'm gonna mix up

0:25:36.280 --> 0:25:39.639
<v Speaker 2>the backwood with the cannabis.

0:25:41.320 --> 0:25:45.320
<v Speaker 3>We're fucking backwood chefs, okay, we are, We're the backwood chefs.

0:25:45.359 --> 0:25:50.040
<v Speaker 3>I don't like the Martha Steward are backwards. Okay, I'm

0:25:50.119 --> 0:25:54.440
<v Speaker 3>making a recipe book, four hundred ways to roll a backwood. Okay,

0:25:54.920 --> 0:26:01.840
<v Speaker 3>do you call me anyway?

0:26:02.119 --> 0:26:08.080
<v Speaker 2>Speaking of Costa Rica, we had the privilege of really

0:26:08.119 --> 0:26:11.439
<v Speaker 2>rapping for La and Costa Rica. So we watched the

0:26:11.440 --> 0:26:14.760
<v Speaker 2>Super Bowl at a little dive bar on the beach

0:26:15.280 --> 0:26:17.399
<v Speaker 2>next to the water, looking up at the stars, shout

0:26:17.400 --> 0:26:23.920
<v Speaker 2>out to Johnny's and actually, so before I was actually

0:26:24.119 --> 0:26:27.760
<v Speaker 2>getting like I was in like a spiritual session moments

0:26:27.760 --> 0:26:28.720
<v Speaker 2>before this happened.

0:26:28.800 --> 0:26:29.159
<v Speaker 3>Mila.

0:26:30.160 --> 0:26:30.560
<v Speaker 2>I told her.

0:26:30.600 --> 0:26:31.560
<v Speaker 3>I was like, Okay, I'm gonna be done.

0:26:31.560 --> 0:26:34.399
<v Speaker 2>You have to come get me afterwards, and I like

0:26:34.480 --> 0:26:36.840
<v Speaker 2>finished my session. I text Mila, I'm like, did I

0:26:36.880 --> 0:26:39.040
<v Speaker 2>miss it? I just knew that I'd missed the super Bowl.

0:26:39.080 --> 0:26:41.080
<v Speaker 2>And she's like, no, there's eight minutes left. There was

0:26:41.080 --> 0:26:44.280
<v Speaker 2>eight minutes. I'm coming to get you. Be ready. So

0:26:44.320 --> 0:26:47.440
<v Speaker 2>she left the bar to come get me, like zoom date.

0:26:47.520 --> 0:26:51.440
<v Speaker 2>I heard her like I'm over there like pulling my cards,

0:26:51.480 --> 0:26:55.760
<v Speaker 2>like oh yes, devotion this She's like, bitch, take a picture.

0:26:55.760 --> 0:26:57.520
<v Speaker 3>We got to go bust it in, Like are you ready?

0:26:57.520 --> 0:26:58.840
<v Speaker 3>What a hammock?

0:26:59.560 --> 0:27:02.720
<v Speaker 2>I was like, don't get like a coconut water, don't

0:27:03.359 --> 0:27:03.720
<v Speaker 2>get you.

0:27:03.800 --> 0:27:05.760
<v Speaker 3>At halftime, if you're not gonna be ready, like we're

0:27:05.800 --> 0:27:08.640
<v Speaker 3>shrifting gears. You went from spiritual massage to fucking cach

0:27:08.720 --> 0:27:08.960
<v Speaker 3>and I.

0:27:08.920 --> 0:27:10.439
<v Speaker 2>Wasn't sure how I was gonna feel because I just

0:27:10.440 --> 0:27:14.240
<v Speaker 2>had this very like like transformative experience that I was

0:27:14.280 --> 0:27:16.119
<v Speaker 2>about to go like be with a lot of people

0:27:16.240 --> 0:27:18.479
<v Speaker 2>and like turn up. But actually it was exactly what

0:27:18.520 --> 0:27:21.560
<v Speaker 2>I needed, exactly what I needed. So we got there

0:27:21.640 --> 0:27:25.199
<v Speaker 2>right in this in the nick of time, and Kendrick

0:27:25.280 --> 0:27:28.400
<v Speaker 2>came on and me and Mila like immediately like we're.

0:27:28.240 --> 0:27:30.840
<v Speaker 3>On ten everybody. First of all, they almost didn't put

0:27:30.840 --> 0:27:32.880
<v Speaker 3>the halftime show on. Someone was like okay. They asked

0:27:32.920 --> 0:27:34.960
<v Speaker 3>me if we wanted to play the music or play

0:27:35.000 --> 0:27:36.800
<v Speaker 3>the halftime show, and I was like, what are you

0:27:36.840 --> 0:27:39.920
<v Speaker 3>talking about? I totally five people like excuse me, I'm

0:27:39.920 --> 0:27:43.240
<v Speaker 3>from I'm from LA. So we're here for the halftime show.

0:27:43.680 --> 0:27:45.560
<v Speaker 3>And then like at halftime, I know, she was really

0:27:45.560 --> 0:27:48.440
<v Speaker 3>irritated with me. I was like, hey, don't forget halftime.

0:27:48.480 --> 0:27:50.679
<v Speaker 3>She's like I know, like I know, bitch. I'm like, okay,

0:27:50.720 --> 0:27:52.680
<v Speaker 3>well don't act like you know, turn the fucking turn

0:27:52.720 --> 0:27:55.119
<v Speaker 3>the fucking TV back on, bitch. So I was like

0:27:55.119 --> 0:27:56.920
<v Speaker 3>giving her the death stair, Like, if I missed any

0:27:56.960 --> 0:27:58.959
<v Speaker 3>one minute of this, we're gonna have a fucking problem

0:27:58.960 --> 0:28:01.720
<v Speaker 3>with Costa Rica Baby. So me and Erica, I'm pretty

0:28:01.760 --> 0:28:03.199
<v Speaker 3>sure Me and Erica hyped the whole bar.

0:28:03.400 --> 0:28:05.800
<v Speaker 2>We did not not pretty sure. We were like people were

0:28:05.880 --> 0:28:09.040
<v Speaker 2>standing around looking stupid. We're like we were, and I

0:28:09.119 --> 0:28:10.520
<v Speaker 2>was like, why is no one dancing?

0:28:10.520 --> 0:28:12.639
<v Speaker 3>You would have thought it was our cousin. Okay, cousin

0:28:12.720 --> 0:28:16.119
<v Speaker 3>Kendrick was about to fucking perform because we were hype

0:28:16.160 --> 0:28:18.120
<v Speaker 3>as ship. We stood up, we were looking at other

0:28:18.119 --> 0:28:18.560
<v Speaker 3>people like.

0:28:18.600 --> 0:28:22.720
<v Speaker 2>Kendrick, Oh give me those matches, never mind Orlando Kendrick.

0:28:24.560 --> 0:28:31.600
<v Speaker 3>So he performed we fake crypt walk for however long.

0:28:31.680 --> 0:28:34.399
<v Speaker 3>The performance was all fourteen minutes. Okay, I really had to.

0:28:34.480 --> 0:28:36.080
<v Speaker 2>I had to like really bust out my fake crip

0:28:36.160 --> 0:28:37.960
<v Speaker 2>walking because there was a time in my life when

0:28:38.160 --> 0:28:39.920
<v Speaker 2>I because I'm you know, I'm Valley girl, but I'd

0:28:39.960 --> 0:28:41.560
<v Speaker 2>forced my mom to drop me off in Englewood. So

0:28:41.640 --> 0:28:43.800
<v Speaker 2>then I was hanging out with like like the baby Crips.

0:28:43.800 --> 0:28:45.080
<v Speaker 2>I think we really crips. They were like the cousin

0:28:45.200 --> 0:28:47.720
<v Speaker 2>of the crips. Yeah, they were like the Crips brothers

0:28:47.760 --> 0:28:49.840
<v Speaker 2>and like little brothers and like little sisters. But they

0:28:49.840 --> 0:28:51.360
<v Speaker 2>gave me a duitorial. But it was a very long

0:28:51.400 --> 0:28:53.800
<v Speaker 2>time ago. So then when I came to I tapped in.

0:28:53.880 --> 0:28:55.200
<v Speaker 2>I felt like, Okay, did I make them proud?

0:28:55.240 --> 0:28:57.840
<v Speaker 3>Did I do it right? I didn't care. I was

0:28:57.920 --> 0:29:00.280
<v Speaker 3>just going like I didn't guess what. Nobody touched Rita

0:29:00.400 --> 0:29:02.160
<v Speaker 3>knows what the fuck it is. They think I'm doing

0:29:02.200 --> 0:29:05.000
<v Speaker 3>it I was. I was like, you don't know shit.

0:29:07.760 --> 0:29:11.680
<v Speaker 3>And it was great. We went fucking wild. I was

0:29:11.720 --> 0:29:14.880
<v Speaker 3>getting chills at my spine and getting downloads and I.

0:29:14.880 --> 0:29:15.320
<v Speaker 2>Was like what.

0:29:17.600 --> 0:29:21.280
<v Speaker 3>And I felt really like activated from that performance. And

0:29:21.280 --> 0:29:23.800
<v Speaker 3>then I told our homegirl Dutch. Shout out to Dutch,

0:29:24.120 --> 0:29:26.440
<v Speaker 3>who actually came to a retreat two years ago and

0:29:26.480 --> 0:29:28.680
<v Speaker 3>then moved to Costa Rica. I told her, oh my god,

0:29:28.680 --> 0:29:32.760
<v Speaker 3>I had so many downloads during this halftime performance, which

0:29:32.800 --> 0:29:37.800
<v Speaker 3>aka downloads for the spiritual community are like times just

0:29:37.960 --> 0:29:40.760
<v Speaker 3>messages from the from the divine universe that you know,

0:29:40.880 --> 0:29:43.120
<v Speaker 3>if you're in the healer community, you know, I got

0:29:43.160 --> 0:29:45.840
<v Speaker 3>so many downloads, Like, because I'm so many downloads, I

0:29:45.880 --> 0:29:47.800
<v Speaker 3>was holding space for them. And then I got so

0:29:47.840 --> 0:29:52.760
<v Speaker 3>many downloads, so many downloads, So she was like, that's

0:29:52.840 --> 0:29:54.600
<v Speaker 3>interesting that you say that, because you see that lady

0:29:54.640 --> 0:29:56.680
<v Speaker 3>behind us. It's like an old lady, like a very

0:29:56.680 --> 0:29:58.440
<v Speaker 3>old lady with gray hair, just sitting in the back

0:29:58.480 --> 0:30:00.640
<v Speaker 3>of the bar. She's like she we said that two

0:30:00.720 --> 0:30:03.480
<v Speaker 3>years ago. This psychic on the internet said that Kendrick

0:30:03.520 --> 0:30:06.280
<v Speaker 3>would perform at the super Bowl in two years and

0:30:06.320 --> 0:30:07.800
<v Speaker 3>she said that black people are going to get some

0:30:07.880 --> 0:30:10.640
<v Speaker 3>kind of superpowers. And I was like, I believe her.

0:30:11.000 --> 0:30:13.160
<v Speaker 3>That is true. And so it was just a divine

0:30:13.160 --> 0:30:17.880
<v Speaker 3>alignment that Kendrick activated my superpowers. In Costa Rica while

0:30:17.920 --> 0:30:20.200
<v Speaker 3>we were repping hard for the West Coast and like

0:30:20.280 --> 0:30:24.120
<v Speaker 3>we were like sweating, we were dripping sweat. And then

0:30:24.360 --> 0:30:26.880
<v Speaker 3>suddenly when everybody else saw us repping for our cousin,

0:30:27.240 --> 0:30:28.600
<v Speaker 3>suddenly it was hit their cousin too.

0:30:28.680 --> 0:30:31.720
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, they didn't even know the lyrics. They were just dancing, dancing.

0:30:32.480 --> 0:30:34.920
<v Speaker 2>Wait side note, this is good. I kind of fuck

0:30:34.960 --> 0:30:35.200
<v Speaker 2>with this.

0:30:35.320 --> 0:30:37.880
<v Speaker 3>You like that. It's like, oh, it's like a diet Backwood.

0:30:38.000 --> 0:30:41.080
<v Speaker 3>It's like a little tobacco, not too much. It's going

0:30:41.160 --> 0:30:44.520
<v Speaker 3>to like give you a little bit lightheadedness. Yeah, we

0:30:44.560 --> 0:30:46.840
<v Speaker 3>had a like that was an amazing trip, a really

0:30:46.880 --> 0:30:49.320
<v Speaker 3>amazing trip. It was really important for Erica and I

0:30:49.400 --> 0:30:53.160
<v Speaker 3>to go. I think, do this trip alone. We've been

0:30:53.280 --> 0:30:56.280
<v Speaker 3>like in the last few years. We've only had our

0:30:56.280 --> 0:31:01.800
<v Speaker 3>business three years, the Good Ripe Retreat. But oh yeah, yeah, yeah,

0:31:01.840 --> 0:31:05.880
<v Speaker 3>you like that. That's that real. That's that real nigga hit.

0:31:06.000 --> 0:31:08.280
<v Speaker 3>It's a real nigga shit, you know, speaking of crips

0:31:08.280 --> 0:31:11.040
<v Speaker 3>and ship. Yeah, you know, you know, you know, back

0:31:11.040 --> 0:31:12.520
<v Speaker 3>in the day, my baby daddy said he was a blood.

0:31:12.520 --> 0:31:14.680
<v Speaker 3>He's a fucking lie. What the fuck are you kidding me?

0:31:14.840 --> 0:31:15.480
<v Speaker 3>Oh no, I'm not.

0:31:15.720 --> 0:31:16.520
<v Speaker 2>Are you serious?

0:31:16.600 --> 0:31:17.200
<v Speaker 3>Oh yeah?

0:31:17.280 --> 0:31:18.560
<v Speaker 2>He was where from where?

0:31:18.760 --> 0:31:21.880
<v Speaker 3>From the valley village? Baby? He was wearing red, he

0:31:21.920 --> 0:31:24.920
<v Speaker 3>was listening to he was listening to the game, you know,

0:31:25.160 --> 0:31:28.280
<v Speaker 3>was bopin' but what was bop and butt? What's boping? Blood?

0:31:28.480 --> 0:31:28.600
<v Speaker 2>You know?

0:31:28.600 --> 0:31:30.480
<v Speaker 3>Because you can't say any Please don't make me hate

0:31:30.520 --> 0:31:32.440
<v Speaker 3>him more than I already do. No, I'm serious. He

0:31:32.520 --> 0:31:35.440
<v Speaker 3>said it was a blood okay, because he probably had

0:31:35.440 --> 0:31:38.200
<v Speaker 3>some blood cousins, some distant ones, because he's super from

0:31:38.240 --> 0:31:48.120
<v Speaker 3>the valid Sorry, what's up? Oh my god, I would pay.

0:31:49.440 --> 0:31:52.760
<v Speaker 3>I probably have some pictures perfect. He was talking. You know,

0:31:52.800 --> 0:31:54.120
<v Speaker 3>when your date a girl from the valley and she

0:31:54.120 --> 0:31:55.800
<v Speaker 3>don't know no better. You're just talking ship, you know.

0:31:55.840 --> 0:31:59.680
<v Speaker 3>Looking back, I'm like, nigga, use a lie. He was

0:31:59.680 --> 0:32:02.880
<v Speaker 3>a mother fucking lie. Okay, with your English teacher mom

0:32:03.520 --> 0:32:06.120
<v Speaker 3>in the suburbs, with your white picket fence, can always

0:32:06.160 --> 0:32:08.360
<v Speaker 3>be them. Why do you niggas want to be gangster

0:32:08.560 --> 0:32:09.160
<v Speaker 3>so bad?

0:32:11.200 --> 0:32:13.920
<v Speaker 2>Some sort of weird masculinity that they feel like and

0:32:14.200 --> 0:32:18.080
<v Speaker 2>women have, like, uh, have like surrendered to it, because

0:32:18.200 --> 0:32:21.960
<v Speaker 2>even our like are we contribute to the toxic masculinity

0:32:23.120 --> 0:32:26.280
<v Speaker 2>format a lot sometimes, Like I'm like, well, I think

0:32:26.320 --> 0:32:29.640
<v Speaker 2>a gangster somehow, like uh, creates this illusion of like

0:32:29.720 --> 0:32:33.880
<v Speaker 2>protection and and honestly, like a loyalty to something, Like

0:32:33.920 --> 0:32:36.360
<v Speaker 2>there's a loyalty to something. There's some sort of initiation

0:32:36.480 --> 0:32:39.040
<v Speaker 2>that you've gone through. Like these words, these like these

0:32:39.040 --> 0:32:41.120
<v Speaker 2>ideas and these concepts I feel like are things that

0:32:41.120 --> 0:32:43.120
<v Speaker 2>are attractive to women. But like, when you get to

0:32:43.160 --> 0:32:45.320
<v Speaker 2>the nitty gritty of what it actually is, it's not

0:32:45.680 --> 0:32:46.200
<v Speaker 2>it's not that.

0:32:46.280 --> 0:32:48.480
<v Speaker 3>Honey, It's just not the worst part about my baby

0:32:48.560 --> 0:32:51.680
<v Speaker 3>daddy claiming to be a blood is that, Honestly, if

0:32:51.720 --> 0:32:53.920
<v Speaker 3>we were in a fucking fight, he wouldn't bust a grape.

0:32:54.440 --> 0:32:56.280
<v Speaker 3>I was thinking that, like what if I had to

0:32:56.280 --> 0:32:58.200
<v Speaker 3>fight him, or like I had to jump them or something.

0:32:58.560 --> 0:33:01.120
<v Speaker 3>Don't tell anybody really pissed me off this week, But

0:33:01.160 --> 0:33:03.560
<v Speaker 3>I was like, you know, because he gets really mouthy

0:33:03.560 --> 0:33:05.840
<v Speaker 3>with women. I noticed that today, Like he used to

0:33:05.840 --> 0:33:07.840
<v Speaker 3>get mouthed with me, get physical with me, get mouthed

0:33:07.880 --> 0:33:10.440
<v Speaker 3>with his mama. I never seen this nigga get mouthy

0:33:10.440 --> 0:33:12.400
<v Speaker 3>with no nigga. So if you a gangster doing a

0:33:12.400 --> 0:33:15.200
<v Speaker 3>lot of this to women, to women, nine times out

0:33:15.200 --> 0:33:19.680
<v Speaker 3>of ten, nigga, use a bitch. Anyway, Sorry, that was

0:33:19.720 --> 0:33:22.080
<v Speaker 3>my rant for the day. No I got got to

0:33:22.080 --> 0:33:24.320
<v Speaker 3>sprinkle a little bit of baby daddy hate in there

0:33:25.800 --> 0:33:28.640
<v Speaker 3>would be a good mom shoven stuck into the backwood,

0:33:28.840 --> 0:33:30.720
<v Speaker 3>just like you sprinkle the backwoods, sprinkle a little bit

0:33:30.720 --> 0:33:32.320
<v Speaker 3>of baby daddy hate, a little bit of daddy hate.

0:33:32.480 --> 0:33:34.040
<v Speaker 3>You know, we want you to do better, though we

0:33:34.160 --> 0:33:36.040
<v Speaker 3>hope and we pray that you always do better. We do,

0:33:36.120 --> 0:33:37.960
<v Speaker 3>we truly do, but we're not going to hold our breath.

0:33:40.720 --> 0:33:43.240
<v Speaker 3>Speaking of bad choices, do you have any bad choices

0:33:43.320 --> 0:33:45.520
<v Speaker 3>this week? My dear, it's a bad choice of the week.

0:33:45.960 --> 0:33:46.560
<v Speaker 2>Bat mom.

0:33:46.640 --> 0:33:50.640
<v Speaker 4>Not a bad mom, but a bad mom, so.

0:33:50.880 --> 0:33:59.840
<v Speaker 3>Good I'm Lizy. I'm gonna tell a bad choice from

0:34:00.080 --> 0:34:03.320
<v Speaker 3>we were off season. I wasn't really I don't know

0:34:03.320 --> 0:34:05.560
<v Speaker 3>why I'm feeling reluctant to tell it now. I feel

0:34:05.560 --> 0:34:07.120
<v Speaker 3>a little embarrassed, but I guess it wouldn't be a

0:34:07.160 --> 0:34:08.920
<v Speaker 3>bad choice if it wasn't a little bit embarrassing and

0:34:09.000 --> 0:34:13.520
<v Speaker 3>me with it. None you bitches in the comments judge

0:34:13.560 --> 0:34:16.560
<v Speaker 3>me either, I'm gonna get judged. So once upon a time,

0:34:18.560 --> 0:34:20.239
<v Speaker 3>me and Orlando were at our house like we are

0:34:20.560 --> 0:34:24.000
<v Speaker 3>nine times out of ten, and Lynna was home. It

0:34:24.040 --> 0:34:26.719
<v Speaker 3>was a school night, so our friend, our homie comes

0:34:26.719 --> 0:34:29.920
<v Speaker 3>over and we put her to bed. So because the

0:34:29.960 --> 0:34:32.120
<v Speaker 3>school night, and our homie comes over, and you know,

0:34:32.280 --> 0:34:35.000
<v Speaker 3>our homie is married, but he is Polly, so he

0:34:35.160 --> 0:34:38.799
<v Speaker 3>is like, you know, girl, friend girls, girlfriends whatever, So

0:34:38.960 --> 0:34:41.239
<v Speaker 3>friend girls. He was like, he had one girl come over.

0:34:41.280 --> 0:34:42.520
<v Speaker 3>Then he's like, I'm gonna take her home, and I

0:34:42.520 --> 0:34:44.440
<v Speaker 3>was like, you're drunk. He's like, I'm uber home and

0:34:44.520 --> 0:34:46.239
<v Speaker 3>he's like, oh yeah, my other two homegirls is gonna

0:34:46.239 --> 0:34:47.959
<v Speaker 3>come by. And I was like, you think you're slick, Okay,

0:34:48.000 --> 0:34:50.440
<v Speaker 3>you're just inviting bitches over here because you can't take

0:34:50.520 --> 0:34:52.600
<v Speaker 3>them home whatever that our house is.

0:34:52.600 --> 0:34:53.680
<v Speaker 2>That house is free hotel.

0:34:53.920 --> 0:34:55.719
<v Speaker 3>Like it's like a come all come like I get

0:34:55.719 --> 0:34:57.160
<v Speaker 3>calls a four in the morning. I'm like, okay, the

0:34:57.160 --> 0:35:00.799
<v Speaker 3>door is open. Whatever. So these two the bitches come over.

0:35:02.320 --> 0:35:04.399
<v Speaker 3>They go upstairs. Mire Orlanda go in the room. We're

0:35:04.440 --> 0:35:07.399
<v Speaker 3>like getting a little freak freaky deeky. I'm in the room,

0:35:07.520 --> 0:35:10.200
<v Speaker 3>like naked, so I'm like standing up on our bed

0:35:10.440 --> 0:35:13.560
<v Speaker 3>because I'm sure I'm touching the ceiling and Orlando's eating

0:35:13.600 --> 0:35:18.480
<v Speaker 3>my pussy. Our homeboy comes in. He has on his

0:35:18.520 --> 0:35:20.200
<v Speaker 3>whole shirt is off. I don't know where his shirt went.

0:35:20.760 --> 0:35:26.560
<v Speaker 3>What's y'all doing? And I'm like my lega, um, well,

0:35:27.440 --> 0:35:30.399
<v Speaker 3>I'm getting some head. So you would think that would

0:35:30.400 --> 0:35:32.120
<v Speaker 3>be his sign and like open and close the door. No,

0:35:32.400 --> 0:35:35.680
<v Speaker 3>he comes in and close the doors behind him. Oh yeah,

0:35:35.680 --> 0:35:38.799
<v Speaker 3>oh y'all down here getting it poppin. Yes we are, friend,

0:35:38.880 --> 0:35:40.600
<v Speaker 3>Yes we are. You know what this naked does. He said,

0:35:40.640 --> 0:35:42.359
<v Speaker 3>I'm gonna get the I'm gonna get those girls. I'm

0:35:42.360 --> 0:35:44.279
<v Speaker 3>gonna right back. I'm like, so, Mir or Landa, we

0:35:44.280 --> 0:35:45.040
<v Speaker 3>don't even say shit.

0:35:45.120 --> 0:35:46.120
<v Speaker 2>We just staying there.

0:35:46.360 --> 0:35:47.960
<v Speaker 3>And he goes back out of the room, close the door,

0:35:48.000 --> 0:35:50.440
<v Speaker 3>and I was like, Landy, you let your friend punk us.

0:35:51.760 --> 0:35:55.240
<v Speaker 3>Nobody said shit, nobody said no, thank you, nobody said anything.

0:35:55.280 --> 0:35:59.239
<v Speaker 3>We're just like okay. So he comes back in with

0:35:59.280 --> 0:36:02.600
<v Speaker 3>the two girls. Me and Orlando are just like I

0:36:02.640 --> 0:36:05.520
<v Speaker 3>think I finally sit down, but I'm butt ass naked.

0:36:05.520 --> 0:36:08.960
<v Speaker 3>I think Orlando's naked too. So then they're like, we

0:36:09.000 --> 0:36:11.040
<v Speaker 3>have surround Okay, we have like a We're not Polly,

0:36:11.040 --> 0:36:13.240
<v Speaker 3>but we have a poly bed because we have surround seating.

0:36:13.440 --> 0:36:16.080
<v Speaker 3>There's platforms all around the bed, so if someone one

0:36:16.120 --> 0:36:17.759
<v Speaker 3>wanted to sit and watch, it would be like a

0:36:17.800 --> 0:36:21.920
<v Speaker 3>perfect situation. So the girls sit down. Anyway, him and

0:36:22.040 --> 0:36:24.920
<v Speaker 3>one of the girls start fucking around, and I'm like, okay,

0:36:24.960 --> 0:36:28.040
<v Speaker 3>well I guess front Row show it in my room.

0:36:28.480 --> 0:36:30.960
<v Speaker 2>And then you got your friends and the girls are around.

0:36:31.040 --> 0:36:34.319
<v Speaker 3>One girl and the friend is fucking around. But then

0:36:34.360 --> 0:36:36.920
<v Speaker 3>he stops and says, do you have a towel? So

0:36:36.960 --> 0:36:38.879
<v Speaker 3>I'm like yeah. He's like she'd be squirting a lot,

0:36:39.120 --> 0:36:41.160
<v Speaker 3>like oh yeah, Oh lord Jesus, I'm like, yeah, let

0:36:41.160 --> 0:36:42.520
<v Speaker 3>me get your towel because this is my bed and

0:36:42.560 --> 0:36:45.960
<v Speaker 3>my nigger. Oh shit, oh shit, oh god, what are

0:36:46.000 --> 0:36:49.040
<v Speaker 3>you doing? Sorry?

0:36:50.520 --> 0:36:53.279
<v Speaker 2>He just stayed the area stage my bed, stage your

0:36:53.280 --> 0:36:53.880
<v Speaker 2>bad choices.

0:36:54.239 --> 0:36:57.799
<v Speaker 3>Okay, So I get two towels because bitch, you're not

0:36:57.800 --> 0:37:00.960
<v Speaker 3>about to get your fluids all over my bed. But

0:37:01.000 --> 0:37:03.240
<v Speaker 3>then I'm kind of interested because you know, I haven't

0:37:03.360 --> 0:37:06.040
<v Speaker 3>I haven't really mastered the skirting thing, which is just

0:37:06.200 --> 0:37:08.400
<v Speaker 3>really one of these days I'm gonna have the announcement

0:37:08.440 --> 0:37:11.880
<v Speaker 3>that I did it. And so I go get the

0:37:11.920 --> 0:37:14.080
<v Speaker 3>towels and I'm like, hey, this is the only area

0:37:14.120 --> 0:37:16.920
<v Speaker 3>in which you could do this because my bed. So

0:37:16.960 --> 0:37:20.240
<v Speaker 3>anybody were like watching them, like I'm gonna pussyate. They're like, fucking,

0:37:20.280 --> 0:37:22.879
<v Speaker 3>she's bent over, They're like getting loud. I'm like, hey, hey,

0:37:23.239 --> 0:37:26.839
<v Speaker 3>my kid is sleeping in the next room. So I'm

0:37:26.840 --> 0:37:29.040
<v Speaker 3>like I make then the mommy announcement, like hey, I

0:37:29.040 --> 0:37:32.680
<v Speaker 3>know we're adults having fun, but upt the fuck up. Okay,

0:37:32.880 --> 0:37:34.719
<v Speaker 3>So they start fucking iek like me and or Lando

0:37:34.760 --> 0:37:36.600
<v Speaker 3>start fucking. So we're just like it's not like any

0:37:36.640 --> 0:37:38.200
<v Speaker 3>type of an orgy. It's just like a side by

0:37:38.239 --> 0:37:42.799
<v Speaker 3>side fucking and one girl watching. Don't ask my life.

0:37:42.880 --> 0:37:46.600
<v Speaker 3>It's a regular like Wednesday night, and we totally just

0:37:46.680 --> 0:37:49.239
<v Speaker 3>let this happen. Okay, so she starts like going in.

0:37:49.280 --> 0:37:51.640
<v Speaker 3>He's doing some kind of moves and I could see

0:37:51.640 --> 0:37:54.000
<v Speaker 3>He's like, so I know it's about to happen. So

0:37:54.080 --> 0:37:54.480
<v Speaker 3>I'm like.

0:37:56.320 --> 0:37:57.240
<v Speaker 2>Trying to see the technique.

0:37:57.440 --> 0:38:01.560
<v Speaker 3>I'm trying to see the technique, right, So for sure,

0:38:01.600 --> 0:38:04.839
<v Speaker 3>she just starts sucking squirting all over the fucking bed.

0:38:04.880 --> 0:38:08.839
<v Speaker 3>I'm like, WHOA, Like front row seats pretty cool, right,

0:38:08.920 --> 0:38:12.040
<v Speaker 3>like live porn. So whenever we keep going, like we're

0:38:12.080 --> 0:38:14.840
<v Speaker 3>telling jokes in between, I'm like talking shit to my friends.

0:38:15.120 --> 0:38:18.799
<v Speaker 3>The other girl is just like the other We're gonna

0:38:18.800 --> 0:38:20.959
<v Speaker 3>just suck up this yellow couch, and the other girl's

0:38:21.040 --> 0:38:24.880
<v Speaker 3>just like being very demir like watching. So then me

0:38:24.960 --> 0:38:26.520
<v Speaker 3>Orlando take a meeting in the closet.

0:38:27.120 --> 0:38:30.680
<v Speaker 2>What how did you sneak into the closet? It was

0:38:30.760 --> 0:38:34.239
<v Speaker 2>like like sexily dragged him over. They're like, come me here, baby. No,

0:38:34.280 --> 0:38:35.560
<v Speaker 2>I think he was just like come here.

0:38:36.200 --> 0:38:38.319
<v Speaker 3>I don't know how he got that. Has keep in mind,

0:38:38.520 --> 0:38:40.799
<v Speaker 3>here's my bed, here's the closet. We have to walk

0:38:40.880 --> 0:38:44.360
<v Speaker 3>nowhere or just literally one step. So we get we

0:38:44.400 --> 0:38:46.560
<v Speaker 3>get in the closet and he's like we start talking.

0:38:46.600 --> 0:38:49.080
<v Speaker 3>I'm like, what's happening, Like, are they trying to have three?

0:38:49.160 --> 0:38:50.839
<v Speaker 3>Like are they trying to have orgy? I don't know.

0:38:50.960 --> 0:38:54.240
<v Speaker 3>He's like, I mean, you know that girl has nice boom.

0:38:56.160 --> 0:38:57.920
<v Speaker 3>Like why He's like, you know, it wouldn't be so

0:38:58.239 --> 0:39:01.759
<v Speaker 3>it would be nice to like on her titty. I'm like,

0:39:02.080 --> 0:39:03.320
<v Speaker 3>do you want to suck on her titties?

0:39:03.360 --> 0:39:03.440
<v Speaker 1>Like?

0:39:03.719 --> 0:39:05.520
<v Speaker 3>I mean kind of yeah, you know, like almost like

0:39:05.560 --> 0:39:08.799
<v Speaker 3>an child, like I have been good this week. I

0:39:08.800 --> 0:39:12.160
<v Speaker 3>am a really nice boy. I'm like, so, I'm like,

0:39:12.760 --> 0:39:14.759
<v Speaker 3>note to self, remind me tocus him out tomorrow about

0:39:14.840 --> 0:39:17.520
<v Speaker 3>using his niceness as a privilege to get things some

0:39:17.600 --> 0:39:19.800
<v Speaker 3>I'm like, okay, well okay, well you could suck her titty.

0:39:19.920 --> 0:39:21.960
<v Speaker 3>So then we go back out of the closet and

0:39:22.040 --> 0:39:22.840
<v Speaker 3>he just moves me.

0:39:22.840 --> 0:39:25.279
<v Speaker 2>On over to her tit crawl over.

0:39:25.400 --> 0:39:27.799
<v Speaker 3>Yeah. So they were like you get it popping again,

0:39:28.000 --> 0:39:30.799
<v Speaker 3>like making out. She was like sitting right there, and

0:39:30.880 --> 0:39:38.040
<v Speaker 3>I just, oh, you want to suck your tick? I didn't,

0:39:38.080 --> 0:39:40.320
<v Speaker 3>but I had to initiate it. I was sure, oh okay.

0:39:40.360 --> 0:39:42.200
<v Speaker 3>I was like okay, trying to be a good wing woman.

0:39:43.280 --> 0:39:45.520
<v Speaker 3>I was like like kissing her shoulder and I was

0:39:45.560 --> 0:39:48.960
<v Speaker 3>like rubbing the girl's shoulder and I was like, what's

0:39:49.000 --> 0:39:52.239
<v Speaker 3>your mind if he licked your titty? Gotta kiss you?

0:39:52.320 --> 0:39:53.759
<v Speaker 3>First I kissed her and then I was like, do

0:39:53.800 --> 0:39:55.279
<v Speaker 3>you mind if he sucks on your titty? And she's

0:39:55.320 --> 0:39:57.680
<v Speaker 3>like no, and she like takes out her big, voluptuous

0:39:57.719 --> 0:40:01.080
<v Speaker 3>breast and then like he's so it's like kissing Lila

0:40:01.840 --> 0:40:03.600
<v Speaker 3>and I kissed the other and we're like looking at

0:40:03.640 --> 0:40:09.160
<v Speaker 3>each other, these big old titties in her mouth and

0:40:09.160 --> 0:40:16.440
<v Speaker 3>I'm I crawled over so awkward. Anyway we do that,

0:40:16.560 --> 0:40:18.040
<v Speaker 3>I like make out with her a little bit, like

0:40:18.120 --> 0:40:20.520
<v Speaker 3>only her top comes off. And then it ends like

0:40:20.560 --> 0:40:22.080
<v Speaker 3>I look at the time, it's just late. It's like

0:40:22.120 --> 0:40:25.520
<v Speaker 3>three o'clock in the morning, and I'm like okay. So

0:40:25.520 --> 0:40:27.680
<v Speaker 3>then they just collect themselves and get up and leave,

0:40:27.920 --> 0:40:33.960
<v Speaker 3>and Orlando's so happy, he's just beaming. I'm like, give you,

0:40:34.160 --> 0:40:36.320
<v Speaker 3>give your nigga one titty suckle a year is gonna

0:40:36.320 --> 0:40:39.919
<v Speaker 3>be fucking thinks you're the ship. So it wasn't even

0:40:40.000 --> 0:40:42.040
<v Speaker 3>like an orgy or anything of that story. It was

0:40:42.160 --> 0:40:45.799
<v Speaker 3>just like a diet a diet light orgy. But the

0:40:45.800 --> 0:40:48.879
<v Speaker 3>bad choice was that my kid was in the next room,

0:40:49.400 --> 0:40:51.560
<v Speaker 3>but she was sound asleep and she had no clue,

0:40:52.040 --> 0:40:53.799
<v Speaker 3>so and like we hang out in our room all

0:40:53.840 --> 0:40:57.680
<v Speaker 3>the time with friends, and so yeah, that's my bad, bad,

0:40:57.680 --> 0:41:00.000
<v Speaker 3>good choice of the week. Because Orlando was very thrilled

0:41:00.280 --> 0:41:01.600
<v Speaker 3>after they left. You would have thought he had a

0:41:01.600 --> 0:41:04.640
<v Speaker 3>whole fucking foursome or some shit. He you couldn't tell

0:41:04.680 --> 0:41:05.759
<v Speaker 3>him shit, And I was just like.

0:41:06.120 --> 0:41:07.600
<v Speaker 2>That's like a bad choice slash a whoy.

0:41:08.200 --> 0:41:12.640
<v Speaker 3>Yeah wow, so that's my story that happened. I love

0:41:12.680 --> 0:41:13.880
<v Speaker 3>that that, But I always have a meeting in the

0:41:13.920 --> 0:41:16.360
<v Speaker 3>closet first. That sounds fun, you know, if it's if

0:41:16.360 --> 0:41:18.760
<v Speaker 3>it requires going in the closet and being a little strange,

0:41:18.880 --> 0:41:20.640
<v Speaker 3>just do it because then you have clear you have

0:41:20.680 --> 0:41:23.360
<v Speaker 3>clear guidelines of what's about to happen. Because when you

0:41:23.360 --> 0:41:24.560
<v Speaker 3>don't have communication, it's.

0:41:24.400 --> 0:41:27.359
<v Speaker 2>Okay to step away from the threesome one and get

0:41:27.440 --> 0:41:29.879
<v Speaker 2>it to get get the communication together and then come back.

0:41:30.000 --> 0:41:32.080
<v Speaker 2>It's okay. Do not force yourself just like you've done

0:41:32.080 --> 0:41:33.520
<v Speaker 2>all your life with men where you didn't want to

0:41:33.520 --> 0:41:35.040
<v Speaker 2>sleep with them, but you're already doing it and you

0:41:35.040 --> 0:41:36.799
<v Speaker 2>felt like you had to just stay. No, you can.

0:41:36.880 --> 0:41:38.960
<v Speaker 2>You can step away with your partner and make the

0:41:39.600 --> 0:41:43.239
<v Speaker 2>make negotiations terms and agreements.

0:41:42.800 --> 0:41:45.120
<v Speaker 3>Terms and agreements and this this has been the key

0:41:45.360 --> 0:41:49.759
<v Speaker 3>in uh, having the fluctuation and the relationship is like

0:41:49.880 --> 0:41:53.560
<v Speaker 3>having the conversation first. I mean ideally, yes, not normally

0:41:53.600 --> 0:41:56.200
<v Speaker 3>when you're in the midst mandatory, don't do it. We've

0:41:56.200 --> 0:41:59.480
<v Speaker 3>been there, We've done that. I was traumatized, Okay, and

0:41:59.560 --> 0:42:01.719
<v Speaker 3>you try to did that right now. You didn't have

0:42:01.719 --> 0:42:05.080
<v Speaker 3>the conversation first, No, but mid mid whatever the fuck

0:42:05.200 --> 0:42:07.680
<v Speaker 3>was happening, we knew because there's been times where we

0:42:07.719 --> 0:42:10.160
<v Speaker 3>have not had the conversation and it went terribly wrong

0:42:10.760 --> 0:42:12.880
<v Speaker 3>that it doesn't matter how weird it looks or how

0:42:12.920 --> 0:42:14.680
<v Speaker 3>strange it is, We're going to take a moment to

0:42:14.719 --> 0:42:17.880
<v Speaker 3>go into the closet and have a meeting because it

0:42:17.920 --> 0:42:20.080
<v Speaker 3>could go south and then we're gonna then they're they're

0:42:20.080 --> 0:42:22.560
<v Speaker 3>gonna leave, and we're gonna have problems. So if it

0:42:22.600 --> 0:42:24.080
<v Speaker 3>takes to just go in the closet and have some

0:42:24.120 --> 0:42:26.200
<v Speaker 3>communication that you.

0:42:26.200 --> 0:42:28.439
<v Speaker 2>Have to be in solidarity with your partner. You really

0:42:28.480 --> 0:42:32.480
<v Speaker 2>have to feel like you guys are a team working together.

0:42:33.040 --> 0:42:35.360
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, because if if some one person, like one person

0:42:35.360 --> 0:42:38.160
<v Speaker 3>doesn't communicate adventures out of the fucking contract or there's

0:42:38.200 --> 0:42:42.640
<v Speaker 3>no contract, things can go really bad and even as

0:42:42.640 --> 0:42:45.560
<v Speaker 3>someone who's not Polly or I would I am monogamous.

0:42:45.600 --> 0:42:49.600
<v Speaker 3>I guess in this case would be monogamish, but just

0:42:50.000 --> 0:42:52.239
<v Speaker 3>it requires a lot of communication and that has been

0:42:52.320 --> 0:42:57.600
<v Speaker 3>the game changer for me. In Orlando's play good, I

0:42:57.680 --> 0:42:58.440
<v Speaker 3>love that. I love that.

0:42:58.440 --> 0:43:01.520
<v Speaker 2>It's very good advice for all the three Summers and

0:43:02.080 --> 0:43:05.319
<v Speaker 2>group sext people in the YouTube live and like, if.

0:43:05.640 --> 0:43:10.160
<v Speaker 3>Your man asks you for a titty suck, I was like, whatever, sure,

0:43:11.560 --> 0:43:13.239
<v Speaker 3>I don't even know this bitch, never seen her again.

0:43:13.480 --> 0:43:16.640
<v Speaker 3>I can't even tell your name those you know, like

0:43:16.800 --> 0:43:25.720
<v Speaker 3>she was a nice little fairy of the night unicorn unicorn. Yeah,

0:43:25.760 --> 0:43:28.719
<v Speaker 3>so that's my bad choice of the week. I love that.

0:43:28.840 --> 0:43:33.520
<v Speaker 3>Thank you for sharing. I think I was just a

0:43:33.560 --> 0:43:35.719
<v Speaker 3>concerned that I would be judged because my kid was

0:43:35.719 --> 0:43:36.399
<v Speaker 3>in the next room.

0:43:36.480 --> 0:43:39.480
<v Speaker 2>But I mean, people have sex with their kid at

0:43:39.480 --> 0:43:39.799
<v Speaker 2>the house.

0:43:39.800 --> 0:43:41.200
<v Speaker 3>We all do it. Yeah, it's true.

0:43:41.239 --> 0:43:42.480
<v Speaker 2>Who decides how many it can be?

0:43:43.160 --> 0:43:47.839
<v Speaker 3>You? Yep, it's actually very normal now that you say

0:43:47.840 --> 0:43:50.520
<v Speaker 3>it like that, thank you. Yeah, I feel like it's

0:43:50.640 --> 0:43:51.360
<v Speaker 3>it's the truth.

0:43:51.760 --> 0:43:56.759
<v Speaker 2>You know, you were with your fiance, Yeah, you're like, yeah.

0:43:56.400 --> 0:43:59.600
<v Speaker 3>It says Alexa play meeting in my bedroom meeting in

0:43:59.600 --> 0:44:04.280
<v Speaker 3>the closet. Okay, oh my gosh.

0:44:04.320 --> 0:44:07.640
<v Speaker 2>Well should we answer some questions from the YouTube live?

0:44:08.520 --> 0:44:09.560
<v Speaker 3>Yes? We should.

0:44:09.760 --> 0:44:12.280
<v Speaker 2>Should we have any terranny?

0:44:12.360 --> 0:44:17.399
<v Speaker 3>Did you text me digit text us? She did cause

0:44:17.440 --> 0:44:22.640
<v Speaker 3>she's this shit. Oh okay, Oh, while you do that,

0:44:22.680 --> 0:44:25.959
<v Speaker 3>I'm gonna pick a tarot card. Okay, okay.

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<v Speaker 2>So this is a question from somebody in our Patreon.

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<v Speaker 2>If you haven't joined Patreon, what are you doing on Patreon?

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<v Speaker 3>At this point?

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<v Speaker 2>It's ten dollars a month and you get access to

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<v Speaker 2>our discord, which is like the juiciest, most supportive, loving,

0:44:42.880 --> 0:44:46.960
<v Speaker 2>constant community that you didn't even know existed, but now

0:44:46.960 --> 0:44:50.920
<v Speaker 2>you do, because literally, like the discord every someone actually

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<v Speaker 2>the other day yesterday was like, how do you do it?

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<v Speaker 3>There's so many there's so many conversations happening.

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<v Speaker 2>They're like there's people get sharing titties and there's people

0:44:58.600 --> 0:45:02.440
<v Speaker 2>like venting about their Then there's someone who's like getting

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<v Speaker 2>gradulated because she got a great job. There's people meeting up,

0:45:05.040 --> 0:45:07.600
<v Speaker 2>there's people putting one one, one, two, two, three through three.

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<v Speaker 3>I was like, people share full full moon rituals. It's

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<v Speaker 3>you know, I told you recently, like the discord is

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<v Speaker 3>such a full spectrum. But it's like it's the physical

0:45:17.800 --> 0:45:23.440
<v Speaker 3>manifestation of like the pillars of good moms akas like

0:45:24.360 --> 0:45:28.760
<v Speaker 3>mom shit, witchy shit, it's spiritual enlightenment, fun shit.

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<v Speaker 2>Sexy shit. There's a smart ship. There's a book club

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<v Speaker 2>happening right now. Shout out to Carrie, who's in our discord,

0:45:33.680 --> 0:45:37.080
<v Speaker 2>who's leading our first book club. The book is Lessons

0:45:37.080 --> 0:45:39.040
<v Speaker 2>and Thorns, which I think is like a sexy, like

0:45:39.200 --> 0:45:42.000
<v Speaker 2>mighty little sexy book. And so they're meeting weekly and like,

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<v Speaker 2>I just love how it just it just keeps on

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<v Speaker 2>expanding and growing. So shout out to the Discord. Make

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<v Speaker 2>sure you go check us out Patreon dot com, slash

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<v Speaker 2>Good Mom's Bad Choices on Discord. Okay, so this is

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<v Speaker 2>a question, how do you break a breakup to your

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<v Speaker 2>My three year old was introduced to my ex at

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<v Speaker 2>one years old. We were mostly long distance FaceTime dates

0:46:05.920 --> 0:46:08.960
<v Speaker 2>and practically lived together for six months before ending things.

0:46:09.080 --> 0:46:11.080
<v Speaker 2>She brings him up frequently, and I don't know what

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<v Speaker 2>to say. Sometimes I want her to be able to

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<v Speaker 2>move on to.

0:46:15.600 --> 0:46:17.000
<v Speaker 3>Well, you gotta tell her you broke up.

0:46:17.600 --> 0:46:19.279
<v Speaker 2>I don't know if that hasn't happened yet because it

0:46:19.280 --> 0:46:21.520
<v Speaker 2>says how do you break a breakup to your kid?

0:46:21.600 --> 0:46:23.960
<v Speaker 2>I mean I think that there's like just like you're

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<v Speaker 2>having a morning process, like your child also might have

0:46:26.480 --> 0:46:28.480
<v Speaker 2>a morning process, and you have to kind of allow that,

0:46:28.600 --> 0:46:30.360
<v Speaker 2>just like you have to give yourself and you guys

0:46:30.360 --> 0:46:33.360
<v Speaker 2>can I think it's just about communicating, like how do

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<v Speaker 2>you feel, what does it make you feel? Like you know,

0:46:36.000 --> 0:46:39.799
<v Speaker 2>and then expressing I think the you don't have to

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<v Speaker 2>be I think at a at whatever a kid appropriate level,

0:46:43.719 --> 0:46:46.480
<v Speaker 2>but like sharing why. I mean, like I remember when

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<v Speaker 2>I broke up with my ex, I told Iri, like

0:46:51.080 --> 0:46:53.560
<v Speaker 2>I told her the real shit, Like he was disrespectful

0:46:53.640 --> 0:46:56.279
<v Speaker 2>to me, He didn't show me that he valued me,

0:46:56.840 --> 0:46:57.560
<v Speaker 2>he lied to me.

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<v Speaker 3>And these are things that I'm not going to tolerate now.

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<v Speaker 2>Three I'm not sure, but like I feel like there's

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<v Speaker 2>a PG version of that too, where you start educating

0:47:04.040 --> 0:47:07.200
<v Speaker 2>your kids on the real shit and it's not harmful

0:47:07.239 --> 0:47:11.120
<v Speaker 2>for them to understand. I feel like interpersonal dynamics as

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<v Speaker 2>earlier as possible, you know, like we keep waiting to

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<v Speaker 2>like show them things and think we're protecting them and

0:47:17.719 --> 0:47:22.319
<v Speaker 2>really like harming them and not preparing them for the inevitable.

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<v Speaker 3>You know, yeah, I agree. I mean, yeah, three obviously

0:47:26.200 --> 0:47:30.839
<v Speaker 3>age appropriate conversations, but this is one of my favorite conversations.

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<v Speaker 3>I think there's a lot of shit on the internet

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<v Speaker 3>about a single mom's dating. I literally was watching something

0:47:37.960 --> 0:47:41.719
<v Speaker 3>and the comments were so crazy, like the women were like, yeah,

0:47:41.719 --> 0:47:44.320
<v Speaker 3>that's why I'm i'd in date to my some was eighteen.

0:47:44.560 --> 0:47:46.920
<v Speaker 3>I don't bring no man home. Like it was almost

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<v Speaker 3>like a a like a stripe of righteousness, you know.

0:47:50.480 --> 0:47:55.399
<v Speaker 3>I was like, so, you're gonna possibly like starve your

0:47:55.440 --> 0:47:57.920
<v Speaker 3>pleasure and the things that may support and help you

0:47:58.480 --> 0:48:01.319
<v Speaker 3>so that your kid can see what you struggling, see

0:48:01.320 --> 0:48:06.440
<v Speaker 3>you like not dating, so doing everything alone, Like this

0:48:06.560 --> 0:48:08.640
<v Speaker 3>is not a life is not a Disney movie, and

0:48:08.680 --> 0:48:10.680
<v Speaker 3>we give ourselves. We don't even sound like Disney. That

0:48:10.760 --> 0:48:14.480
<v Speaker 3>sounds like a no. I'm just saying. It's like, you

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<v Speaker 3>can't protect your child from everything, and breakups do happen.

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<v Speaker 3>And I think one of the biggest lessons that we

0:48:21.120 --> 0:48:24.319
<v Speaker 3>that we skip over is that people leave. People leave,

0:48:24.400 --> 0:48:28.600
<v Speaker 3>and that's okay. And I think, especially for girls, it's

0:48:28.640 --> 0:48:30.880
<v Speaker 3>important that you know that people leave. Everyone is not

0:48:30.960 --> 0:48:34.480
<v Speaker 3>meant to stay. Because there's this there's this, uh, something

0:48:34.560 --> 0:48:37.719
<v Speaker 3>tied to our value of men staying, you know, and

0:48:37.760 --> 0:48:40.000
<v Speaker 3>it's just like sometimes it's not that they're just not

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<v Speaker 3>for me. And I thought, like, I think that is

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<v Speaker 3>something that we all could like a lesson we all

0:48:45.760 --> 0:48:49.400
<v Speaker 3>could could benefit from. The earlier the better, because inevitably,

0:48:49.640 --> 0:48:51.600
<v Speaker 3>throughout our kids' lives there are gonna people that come

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<v Speaker 3>and go because that's life. And I think that, yeah,

0:48:54.680 --> 0:48:57.480
<v Speaker 3>like telling him what's up. We broke up because you

0:48:57.560 --> 0:49:00.160
<v Speaker 3>got it. There's a trial and error period that exist

0:49:00.200 --> 0:49:02.840
<v Speaker 3>and dating. It doesn't happen on the first try. You

0:49:02.840 --> 0:49:05.120
<v Speaker 3>don't kiss a fucking frog and becomes your husband and

0:49:05.200 --> 0:49:08.319
<v Speaker 3>your prince charming. It's human shit, and humans fuck up

0:49:08.320 --> 0:49:11.000
<v Speaker 3>and they're flawed and we have issues and you work

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<v Speaker 3>through and problem solve with your kids so that they're

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<v Speaker 3>prepared in real life and not thinking that everything's going

0:49:16.120 --> 0:49:20.800
<v Speaker 3>to be picture perfect and then fucking shopped when it's not. Yeah, agreed,

0:49:21.080 --> 0:49:26.160
<v Speaker 3>just be honest. Hope that helps. What other comments do

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<v Speaker 3>we have here? What other questions? Mmm? This is from Instagram?

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<v Speaker 2>It is is it okay to spin the block if

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<v Speaker 2>the breakup was abrupt two years of no communication but

0:49:39.120 --> 0:49:43.160
<v Speaker 2>a sudden apology and reconciliation has been established. The love

0:49:43.280 --> 0:49:46.600
<v Speaker 2>was strong, and I want this? Would you do it?

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<v Speaker 3>Sounds like you answered your own questionss I want this.

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<v Speaker 3>I think people we all do this, especially as women.

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<v Speaker 3>We know what we want to do, and then we

0:49:56.000 --> 0:49:58.960
<v Speaker 3>ask seventeen people also we could do what we wanted

0:49:58.960 --> 0:50:02.520
<v Speaker 3>to do to begin with, we really crave validation because

0:50:02.560 --> 0:50:05.600
<v Speaker 3>sometimes our intuition is not enough. And just like your

0:50:05.600 --> 0:50:07.640
<v Speaker 3>intuition knows when you shouldn't spend the block when you're

0:50:07.680 --> 0:50:10.920
<v Speaker 3>playing yourself, because we do that too. It's important that

0:50:10.960 --> 0:50:13.280
<v Speaker 3>we like when there's things we really genuinely want to do,

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<v Speaker 3>do it, and if it doesn't work out, know that

0:50:15.719 --> 0:50:18.040
<v Speaker 3>you honored yourself in that way. Know that you honored

0:50:18.360 --> 0:50:21.000
<v Speaker 3>your desire to do something or play in something, or

0:50:21.160 --> 0:50:23.720
<v Speaker 3>you know, revisit something. Like You're not going to always

0:50:23.760 --> 0:50:26.320
<v Speaker 3>make the best, perfect decision, but at least it's yours

0:50:26.400 --> 0:50:29.120
<v Speaker 3>and so you can move through it gently however the outcome.

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<v Speaker 2>Write down the.

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<v Speaker 3>Pros and cons.

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<v Speaker 2>Also, I think sometimes like you have to see it

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<v Speaker 2>in front of you, like your brain will play tricks

0:50:37.680 --> 0:50:39.640
<v Speaker 2>on you, but like the facts are not going to

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<v Speaker 2>Like why did you break up? What was the reason

0:50:41.680 --> 0:50:43.759
<v Speaker 2>why it didn't work? Why was it abrupt? Why did

0:50:43.800 --> 0:50:47.799
<v Speaker 2>communication cease abruptly? Was it important? Was it necessary? Like

0:50:47.880 --> 0:50:51.280
<v Speaker 2>what is he doing now? Are the cons from before

0:50:51.520 --> 0:50:55.520
<v Speaker 2>still seem like the cons now? Like you know, just yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>but yes, I think honoring your intuition too, But historically

0:50:58.640 --> 0:51:01.400
<v Speaker 2>we will be stupid bitches because sometimes our intuition is

0:51:01.719 --> 0:51:02.880
<v Speaker 2>like it's not even our intuition.

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<v Speaker 3>We do normally know better, but like.

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<v Speaker 2>I like, it gets foggy. It's it's easy to say that,

0:51:08.440 --> 0:51:10.560
<v Speaker 2>but then sometimes like you've been like you've been wrong.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, you really thought you were following your intuition,

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<v Speaker 2>and so you know, I don't agree that you need

0:51:17.120 --> 0:51:19.480
<v Speaker 2>to ask a thousand friends because I've done that before

0:51:19.600 --> 0:51:22.360
<v Speaker 2>and like that also hasn't like done me right, I

0:51:22.440 --> 0:51:24.040
<v Speaker 2>knew what I wanted to do, or you know, they

0:51:24.080 --> 0:51:27.360
<v Speaker 2>didn't know the circumstances of the situation. But I do

0:51:27.440 --> 0:51:29.920
<v Speaker 2>think sometimes like there's been situations I think more recently

0:51:29.920 --> 0:51:31.840
<v Speaker 2>in my life where like I want my friends to

0:51:31.880 --> 0:51:34.560
<v Speaker 2>have input, please tell me I'm being a stupid bitch,

0:51:35.120 --> 0:51:38.399
<v Speaker 2>like don't let me do this, and I still might

0:51:38.440 --> 0:51:38.920
<v Speaker 2>do it.

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<v Speaker 3>Exactly, I still might do it. But like, at least

0:51:41.520 --> 0:51:43.160
<v Speaker 3>you know that I told you the truth before you

0:51:43.160 --> 0:51:43.400
<v Speaker 3>did it.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, be stern, don't just don't get straight to the point.

0:51:48.239 --> 0:51:51.919
<v Speaker 3>Don't sugarcoat it for me. That's just me. I mean that. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>But then historically women do not have like, do not

0:51:54.520 --> 0:51:58.920
<v Speaker 3>take relationship advice or criticism like that lightly. It's it's

0:51:58.920 --> 0:52:02.960
<v Speaker 3>always a very sticky, sicky I think conversation when it

0:52:03.000 --> 0:52:05.720
<v Speaker 3>comes to friends and boyfriends, because we all know bitches

0:52:05.760 --> 0:52:08.080
<v Speaker 3>go to the moon and back for a nigga that

0:52:08.120 --> 0:52:11.160
<v Speaker 3>they like. I know he said that, but that's not

0:52:11.200 --> 0:52:13.920
<v Speaker 3>really what he said. I lie, he said it differently.

0:52:14.560 --> 0:52:16.880
<v Speaker 3>I was just mad. I was just mad at that time.

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<v Speaker 3>I didn't tell you all the gig. She didn't call

0:52:18.600 --> 0:52:26.879
<v Speaker 3>me a bitch. He just said I was. I was

0:52:26.920 --> 0:52:29.239
<v Speaker 3>acting like a bitch, which I was different. I was

0:52:29.320 --> 0:52:31.640
<v Speaker 3>kind of action. I was even though he cheated, you know,

0:52:31.719 --> 0:52:33.279
<v Speaker 3>I was kind of like a bitch that whole time

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<v Speaker 3>to everybody.

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<v Speaker 2>So it wasn't like it was true. So yeah, anyway.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh my goodness, do we have affirmation? Huh? Do we

0:52:46.960 --> 0:52:50.600
<v Speaker 3>have affirmation? An affirmation? Do we haven't?

0:52:50.600 --> 0:52:53.399
<v Speaker 2>After an affirmation from anyone in the YouTube live, does

0:52:53.440 --> 0:52:57.600
<v Speaker 2>anybody have an affirmation that they love to share that

0:52:57.640 --> 0:52:59.959
<v Speaker 2>we can share with the trial.

0:53:00.040 --> 0:53:05.239
<v Speaker 3>I should be something about body positivity, since we're talking

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<v Speaker 3>about loving our bodies.

0:53:11.800 --> 0:53:14.600
<v Speaker 2>I love my body, thicker thin, I love my body.

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<v Speaker 2>She's always gonna win.

0:53:22.960 --> 0:53:31.560
<v Speaker 3>The Oh my god, wait, I can't remember that. I

0:53:31.640 --> 0:53:35.400
<v Speaker 3>love my body with it. I am respected and well protected.

0:53:35.800 --> 0:53:38.959
<v Speaker 3>I am respected and well protected.

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<v Speaker 2>Shout out to Amirah.

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<v Speaker 3>I love that.

0:53:40.960 --> 0:53:44.360
<v Speaker 2>Thank you for sharing that I am respected and well protected.

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<v Speaker 2>She got another good win and can I Kendrick? Wait,

0:53:48.040 --> 0:53:52.320
<v Speaker 2>actually that was Cassandra. Cassandra, Thank you, Cassandra. Kendrick Lamar's

0:53:52.360 --> 0:53:54.439
<v Speaker 2>affirmation has been I deserve it all.

0:53:56.120 --> 0:53:59.360
<v Speaker 3>I deserve it all. That's that's a fact. I do

0:53:59.480 --> 0:54:02.399
<v Speaker 3>deserve it all. Like, show me how good it can get.

0:54:05.080 --> 0:54:12.640
<v Speaker 3>They've been showing it. Is it tarot tyme? It is terotyme?

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<v Speaker 3>Pulled the judgment card.

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<v Speaker 2>This sounds heavy, but actually it looks it looks happy.

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<v Speaker 3>It's judgment rebirth, inner calling absolution. It says, the judgment

0:54:42.800 --> 0:54:46.319
<v Speaker 3>card is calling you to rise and rise up and

0:54:46.360 --> 0:54:49.480
<v Speaker 3>embrace a higher level of consciousness for the service of

0:54:49.520 --> 0:54:53.360
<v Speaker 3>your highest good. You're experiencing a spiritual awakening and realizing

0:54:53.360 --> 0:54:56.360
<v Speaker 3>that you were destined for so much more. This is

0:54:56.400 --> 0:54:59.080
<v Speaker 3>your cosmic up leveling. You hear the call and are

0:54:59.120 --> 0:55:02.560
<v Speaker 3>ready to act. Tune into a higher frequency, Let go

0:55:02.640 --> 0:55:05.239
<v Speaker 3>of your old your old self, and step into this

0:55:05.400 --> 0:55:08.359
<v Speaker 3>newest version of who you really are. The judgment card

0:55:08.440 --> 0:55:11.080
<v Speaker 3>often indicates that you need to make a life changing decision,

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<v Speaker 3>but unlike those associated with the logical justice card, the

0:55:15.200 --> 0:55:18.120
<v Speaker 3>decision requires a blend of intuition and intellect. You may

0:55:18.160 --> 0:55:20.960
<v Speaker 3>be at a crosswords, aware that any choice you make

0:55:20.960 --> 0:55:24.200
<v Speaker 3>will bring a significant change with long lasting effects. Tune

0:55:24.200 --> 0:55:26.640
<v Speaker 3>into your higher self, trust your judgment, and know you

0:55:26.680 --> 0:55:29.360
<v Speaker 3>are on the right path. If you still need clarity

0:55:29.360 --> 0:55:32.399
<v Speaker 3>on the situation, look to your past and life, your

0:55:32.440 --> 0:55:36.359
<v Speaker 3>past and life lessons to guide you. It pops up

0:55:36.360 --> 0:55:39.759
<v Speaker 3>in the taro when you're reaching a significant stage in

0:55:39.800 --> 0:55:45.000
<v Speaker 3>your journey. Beautiful, that sounds that sounds great.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, the judgment doesn't have to be bad. It's really

0:55:48.320 --> 0:55:51.239
<v Speaker 2>it's like a deep dive into what is next, what

0:55:51.320 --> 0:55:51.800
<v Speaker 2>you deserve.

0:55:52.320 --> 0:55:55.440
<v Speaker 3>Leveling up and being prepared and like also accepting it.

0:55:55.480 --> 0:55:57.760
<v Speaker 3>You know, sometimes I think we know shit is coming

0:55:57.800 --> 0:56:01.120
<v Speaker 3>and we resist instead of just flowing with whatever like

0:56:01.160 --> 0:56:04.160
<v Speaker 3>your body is telling you just really checking in, Like

0:56:05.040 --> 0:56:09.920
<v Speaker 3>do I need to stop smoking weed? So yeah, I

0:56:09.960 --> 0:56:10.880
<v Speaker 3>fuck with the judgment.

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<v Speaker 2>Ye, well does that conclude this episode?

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<v Speaker 3>I just want to say before we conclude the episode,

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<v Speaker 3>I miss Costa Rica. I want to shout out to

0:56:27.960 --> 0:56:33.000
<v Speaker 3>all eleven women that joined us. A couple of weeks ago.

0:56:33.480 --> 0:56:38.319
<v Speaker 3>We had some really really really really good times and

0:56:38.440 --> 0:56:42.000
<v Speaker 3>like it was small, it was intimate, we was naked.

0:56:42.160 --> 0:56:47.359
<v Speaker 3>We went on some really deep psilocybin journeys. I think

0:56:47.360 --> 0:56:49.239
<v Speaker 3>there was like a lot of lessons, a lot of

0:56:49.280 --> 0:56:53.279
<v Speaker 3>like I just learned so much about women again, you know,

0:56:53.440 --> 0:56:56.840
<v Speaker 3>and I'm just like we are so dynamic, and we

0:56:56.880 --> 0:57:01.640
<v Speaker 3>are so resilient, and when we have space to just

0:57:02.320 --> 0:57:04.520
<v Speaker 3>be how beautiful it is. And like again seeing the

0:57:04.560 --> 0:57:09.160
<v Speaker 3>transformation of women, like starting to finish the relationships that

0:57:09.320 --> 0:57:12.080
<v Speaker 3>like that that grow. And then I just want to

0:57:12.080 --> 0:57:15.560
<v Speaker 3>tell one story. So we go out the last night

0:57:16.720 --> 0:57:19.040
<v Speaker 3>we always go out to dinner. You know, we're all

0:57:19.120 --> 0:57:21.120
<v Speaker 3>wearing like our creams and our whites, so we're looking

0:57:21.200 --> 0:57:24.160
<v Speaker 3>like a posse and shit, like some fine bitches. And

0:57:25.680 --> 0:57:28.640
<v Speaker 3>we walk to the nearest like bar and like literally

0:57:28.640 --> 0:57:30.880
<v Speaker 3>like a parade. We're like dancing on the way. There's music,

0:57:31.120 --> 0:57:34.160
<v Speaker 3>there's like live music. We get to the bar. It's

0:57:34.240 --> 0:57:37.880
<v Speaker 3>lady's night. They're serving some disgusting horn fu cauld drink

0:57:37.920 --> 0:57:43.160
<v Speaker 3>that nobody should drink, and so we start dancing. It's

0:57:43.240 --> 0:57:46.960
<v Speaker 3>like outdoors, it's warm, all the girls are there, we're

0:57:47.000 --> 0:57:51.120
<v Speaker 3>all dancing, and suddenly it starts to like rain. I'm like,

0:57:51.240 --> 0:57:55.120
<v Speaker 3>oh yeah, babies, like feeling extra sexy. It's already like moist,

0:57:55.200 --> 0:57:57.560
<v Speaker 3>but now it's really moist, and you know, everybody has

0:57:57.560 --> 0:57:59.360
<v Speaker 3>a protective style, so no one's really about their hair.

0:57:59.440 --> 0:58:04.360
<v Speaker 3>Everyone's just like wh So we're outside dancing and we're

0:58:04.400 --> 0:58:06.280
<v Speaker 3>like the only people dancing because we're always the only

0:58:06.280 --> 0:58:08.080
<v Speaker 3>people dancing. It must have been kind of early. The

0:58:08.200 --> 0:58:10.760
<v Speaker 3>DJ is like rocky and hard, and so all the

0:58:10.800 --> 0:58:13.520
<v Speaker 3>good songs are coming on. And then Rihanna Shine like

0:58:13.680 --> 0:58:17.040
<v Speaker 3>bright like a diamond comes on, so we're like, we're beautiful,

0:58:17.080 --> 0:58:20.440
<v Speaker 3>like diamonds in the sky, like it's full, like the

0:58:20.480 --> 0:58:23.520
<v Speaker 3>moon is popping, and then we say sky and then

0:58:23.600 --> 0:58:26.240
<v Speaker 3>like pop pop pop, the electricity goes out and it's black.

0:58:26.560 --> 0:58:31.439
<v Speaker 3>The music stops and we're like and then we all

0:58:31.480 --> 0:58:35.520
<v Speaker 3>finished the song. A cappella and shinlight like a diamond

0:58:35.600 --> 0:58:38.120
<v Speaker 3>like the whole club and it's like a music video

0:58:40.360 --> 0:58:43.280
<v Speaker 3>and like it's like as if dancing in the rain

0:58:43.320 --> 0:58:46.320
<v Speaker 3>with your homegirls isn't magical enough, then God's like, oh

0:58:46.320 --> 0:58:47.440
<v Speaker 3>watch this, you witches.

0:58:47.920 --> 0:58:48.120
<v Speaker 2>You know.

0:58:48.240 --> 0:58:51.000
<v Speaker 3>It's like it was like literally when the electricity in

0:58:51.040 --> 0:58:53.520
<v Speaker 3>our bodies and then the group got like so at.

0:58:53.480 --> 0:58:56.000
<v Speaker 2>The highest point, the high it was the highest point,

0:58:56.200 --> 0:58:57.120
<v Speaker 2>like the climax.

0:58:57.200 --> 0:58:59.240
<v Speaker 3>It's like we're it was like bursting the inside and

0:58:59.280 --> 0:59:01.000
<v Speaker 3>then it bursted.

0:59:01.280 --> 0:59:06.360
<v Speaker 2>The whole power in the whole city went out, the

0:59:06.440 --> 0:59:07.880
<v Speaker 2>whole for hours.

0:59:08.080 --> 0:59:10.640
<v Speaker 3>It still chills because I knew it was us, Like

0:59:10.680 --> 0:59:11.720
<v Speaker 3>I was like, oh, we did this.

0:59:11.680 --> 0:59:14.200
<v Speaker 2>Because we had we had done and we had unlocked

0:59:14.280 --> 0:59:16.000
<v Speaker 2>so much up until that point.

0:59:16.080 --> 0:59:17.560
<v Speaker 3>At the retreat, we had like.

0:59:17.840 --> 0:59:21.680
<v Speaker 2>Released, we had made space, we had connected, women had

0:59:21.760 --> 0:59:26.600
<v Speaker 2>like just just binded in ways that because the group

0:59:26.680 --> 0:59:29.440
<v Speaker 2>was so intimate like that. I don't know if we've

0:59:29.520 --> 0:59:33.000
<v Speaker 2>I've seen before. It was just like a really beautiful experience.

0:59:33.440 --> 0:59:36.240
<v Speaker 2>So I felt like we for sure. I knew when

0:59:36.240 --> 0:59:38.360
<v Speaker 2>that happened. I said we did.

0:59:38.480 --> 0:59:40.000
<v Speaker 3>I was like, look what the fuck we did?

0:59:40.840 --> 0:59:43.000
<v Speaker 2>And I think it's so important and because like that's

0:59:43.000 --> 0:59:45.680
<v Speaker 2>not the first time i've we've we've experienced something like that.

0:59:45.840 --> 0:59:48.560
<v Speaker 2>But I think it's so important for women to experience

0:59:48.640 --> 0:59:51.120
<v Speaker 2>those things and have like you're in the group and

0:59:51.160 --> 0:59:56.480
<v Speaker 2>everyone experience everyone knows you know, like it's it's important.

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<v Speaker 3>I think sometimes when you're like amongst a group of people,

0:59:59.080 --> 1:00:01.080
<v Speaker 3>are you just like in the every you question your

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<v Speaker 3>know again, your intuition, your intuition, your power, like literally

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<v Speaker 3>how energetically our inside affects our outside world, and like

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<v Speaker 3>when you're bursting on the inside and you're in tune

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<v Speaker 3>with your pleasure, especially in a collective space, especially as women.

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<v Speaker 3>We had cultivated this like energy together as a group,

1:00:19.240 --> 1:00:21.600
<v Speaker 3>and I could feel it like running up my body

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<v Speaker 3>even during like us dancing in the rain and singing together,

1:00:24.920 --> 1:00:27.480
<v Speaker 3>and at this very moment like it to burst, Like

1:00:27.600 --> 1:00:31.840
<v Speaker 3>it really was magical. And I think sometimes you underestimate

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<v Speaker 3>or you like brush off magical experiences as coincidences, but

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<v Speaker 3>when you're in a group like that, it's like almost impossible.

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<v Speaker 3>So it was just like we weren't even there very long,

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<v Speaker 3>but it was like the pinnacle of the night, the

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<v Speaker 3>ending of the trip, and then we went home, no

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<v Speaker 3>electricity in the whole property, but we had candles, so

1:00:49.000 --> 1:00:51.720
<v Speaker 3>we lit a bunch of tea candles. We had our speakers,

1:00:51.880 --> 1:00:55.160
<v Speaker 3>charged our downloaded plist, we had downloaded playlists, and we

1:00:55.360 --> 1:00:58.640
<v Speaker 3>just like vibed party to get all the wine all over.

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<v Speaker 3>Everybody's a room combined, and we just like vibed.

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<v Speaker 2>In the candlelight in the jungle, like literally only sounds

1:01:06.320 --> 1:01:08.600
<v Speaker 2>of insects and fucking nature.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, and darkness and like the like the sky is

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<v Speaker 3>so bright and lit up and it was just like

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<v Speaker 3>titties out just sisterhood.

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<v Speaker 4>You know.

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<v Speaker 3>It just felt really good. Every time I go, I'm

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<v Speaker 3>like I always say this, I'm like, oh, this is

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<v Speaker 3>how we're meant to exist. This is how women once existed.

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<v Speaker 3>And like in the jungle and tribes like healing each

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<v Speaker 3>other and like connecting with each other and just being

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<v Speaker 3>so clear about their pleasure and releasing and supporting each

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<v Speaker 3>other and the releases and it was just magical and yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm really I'm proud. I'm proud of what we've cultivated

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<v Speaker 3>and just shout out to all the women who like

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<v Speaker 3>choose themselves and choose to come even when it's not

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<v Speaker 3>convenient or does it feel like it's convenient choose to

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<v Speaker 3>choose themselves because the retreat is motherfucking life changing, you know,

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<v Speaker 3>Like I said, we saw Dutch. There's always a pleasure

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<v Speaker 3>to see who moved there, bought a house two years

1:01:58.200 --> 1:02:00.479
<v Speaker 3>ago from coming to the Good Ree Retreat, their first

1:02:00.520 --> 1:02:03.360
<v Speaker 3>time coming to Proto. Like it's just some really magical

1:02:03.400 --> 1:02:06.360
<v Speaker 3>shit goes down when you're in the jungle. So shout

1:02:06.360 --> 1:02:10.720
<v Speaker 3>out to Retreat fourteen, baby, shout out to Retreat fourteen.

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<v Speaker 3>That was that was really special. Speaking of the.

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<v Speaker 2>Retreat, I almost fucking forgot give away. We're giving away

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<v Speaker 2>a spot today. We're literally giving away a whole free

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<v Speaker 2>spot to the Goodbvibe Retreat.

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<v Speaker 3>This is like my I loved, I love doing this.

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<v Speaker 3>Like we really try to make it like if I

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<v Speaker 3>could give away the whole retreat forever, like I really

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<v Speaker 3>wish we could. I could.

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<v Speaker 2>It's like just whoever has the brand, get the brand

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<v Speaker 2>to pay for the bitches and then y'all, y'all can.

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<v Speaker 3>Come, because everybody really should. Expecien have to do. You

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<v Speaker 3>have to, You have to. It's never too late, it's

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<v Speaker 3>never too early, doesn't matter how old you are, where

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<v Speaker 3>you're at how many kids? No kids, It's just like

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<v Speaker 3>a woman's like an experienced women should have.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, one woman is about to have this experience.

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<v Speaker 3>Okay, Well tell us who it is.

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<v Speaker 2>This is for our Costa Rica July thirty one through

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<v Speaker 2>August fifth retreat.

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<v Speaker 3>And this was from the patri This is from Patreon

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<v Speaker 3>only Patreon.

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<v Speaker 2>So all everyone who joined Patreon, shout out to all

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<v Speaker 2>of our new patrons. You entered this giveaway, and now

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<v Speaker 2>we shall see who is the winner. It's a spin wheel,

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<v Speaker 2>Charis B. Charise B, you are the winner of the

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<v Speaker 2>Good Vibe Retreat giveaway. Congratulations, which your life is about

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<v Speaker 2>to go to the next level. You're about to expand

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<v Speaker 2>in ways you didn't even think possible, and you're about

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<v Speaker 2>to be part of a tribe that is forever. So

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<v Speaker 2>I'm so excited Charise that we get to take care

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<v Speaker 2>of you.

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<v Speaker 3>Spiritual Sorority.

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<v Speaker 2>Baby, Spiritual Sorority. Make sure Charisse you email social at

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<v Speaker 2>Good Moms, Bad Choices dot com to claim your free retreat.

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<v Speaker 3>Wow, I'm excited.

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<v Speaker 2>That was fun. That was fun, right, yeah, yeah, I

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<v Speaker 2>can't wait to go back to that retreat. And we

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<v Speaker 2>have a few more spots left to our Jamaica retreat.

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<v Speaker 3>We have just opened up.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, we had some last minute cancelations. It was totally

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<v Speaker 2>sold out. We have two spots left, So if you

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<v Speaker 2>want to come to Jamaica for four to twenty, it's

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<v Speaker 2>our gone just.

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<v Speaker 3>Got a retreat.

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<v Speaker 2>It's very cannabis friendly focused, still gottess vibes, exploration, beautiful waterfalls. Uh,

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<v Speaker 2>there's like this little there's like this fucking place where

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<v Speaker 2>there's a bar in the middle of the ocean that

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<v Speaker 2>we're going to.

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<v Speaker 3>I love. I love the middle of the ocean bar.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, there's very Mermaid. There's a lot of things

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<v Speaker 2>that we're going to do there. Leila is going to

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<v Speaker 2>be giving her one on one contra sessions, I do

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<v Speaker 2>my reiki sound healing.

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<v Speaker 3>There's a lot of like it's so beautiful. We did

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<v Speaker 3>a lot of one on ones in this last trip.

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<v Speaker 3>And I know we're both like, oh shit, we're gonna

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<v Speaker 3>be We're gonna be really doing it. But you know,

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<v Speaker 3>it's like there's since we've been practicing and like exercising

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<v Speaker 3>our like our tools and our gifts, it's so nice

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<v Speaker 3>to be able to like gift it more and like

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<v Speaker 3>give the gift of reiki and tantra and energy medicine

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<v Speaker 3>to like the girls that come and have one on

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<v Speaker 3>one time. So I'm excited. It feels really good.

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<v Speaker 2>I felt super activated on this trip in my reiki

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<v Speaker 2>energy and just the gifts, and I'm excited to open

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<v Speaker 2>up my practice a little bit. I really enjoy like

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<v Speaker 2>having it at the retreat and it is a lot

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<v Speaker 2>of energy, but it's such a beautiful way and delicate

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<v Speaker 2>way to move energy through your body and heal and

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<v Speaker 2>it's very powerful. So anyway, we have some spots left

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<v Speaker 2>at the at the August four to twenty retreat. So

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<v Speaker 2>if you are a smoker leg us and you like

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<v Speaker 2>to smoke them big blants.

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<v Speaker 3>Legous and Eata Jamaican jerk chicken and yeah, maybe.

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<v Speaker 2>Get we gotta get the bitches massage by the We

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<v Speaker 2>gotta get them. We gotta get there somehow. Waterfalls, the waterfalls,

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<v Speaker 2>you know what I'm talking about.

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<v Speaker 3>Going to figure it out, even if we have to

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<v Speaker 3>drive four hours.

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<v Speaker 2>This is very important. I think they would understand. I

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<v Speaker 2>think everyone would be on board for that because what

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<v Speaker 2>I've seen on Instagram is pretty powerful stuff.

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<v Speaker 3>You know, is that Africa that we're seeing No right,

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<v Speaker 3>it's make a mud right, yep, we gotta figure it out. Well.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I'm live.

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<v Speaker 3>Been so good.

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<v Speaker 4>Can't you tell? I went through a drought. That's until

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<v Speaker 4>I found out well may might have been known earth.

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<v Speaker 4>I used to be broken tail now got the blues

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<v Speaker 4>in to like Beyonce Jasell, throat shots or popping his cow.

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<v Speaker 2>Were in our voices.

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<v Speaker 4>Patriarchy kept it in the box to exploit its women

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<v Speaker 4>put the pee and power. So what's pointless? They want

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<v Speaker 4>me to be good So I made bad choices. Bad mom,

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<v Speaker 4>not a bad mom, but a bad mom. Itter's in

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<v Speaker 4>on put cannabis in their bath. Bon walked in bosses

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<v Speaker 4>cap and I blew his cat ball tied dog.

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<v Speaker 3>Now I'm immune to the cat called.

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<v Speaker 4>Her being no waisted straight to it like a dollar sign. Mother,

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<v Speaker 4>rent the lover when so what it is like a

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<v Speaker 4>water sign where you're renting the winter essential will when

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<v Speaker 4>the summer time.

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<v Speaker 2>I do it all they know when that needs a running.

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