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Speaker 1: Once upon a time there was a good old traditional housewife,

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Speaker 1: and she couldn't. She cleaned and cared for her children

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Speaker 1: and the man of the house, and of course she

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Speaker 1: didn't talk back. She was both obedient and soft by nature.

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Speaker 1: She was a good woman who always made good choices.

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Speaker 2: We're good Mom's bad choices, two single mom who said,

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Speaker 2: but the patriarchy shared all their bad choices and sound out.

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Speaker 2: They weren't so bad after all, we're experts, overshares and

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Speaker 2: your new besties.

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Speaker 3: Sit back and enjoy the ride.

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Speaker 2: I can welcome back to good Mom's bad Choices. I'm

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Speaker 2: Erica and.

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Speaker 3: I'm Mila, and it's Wednesday, bitches. Welcome back, Welcome back,

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Speaker 3: welcome back.

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Speaker 2: How you doing. How have you been doing? You've been

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Speaker 2: integrating back from the jungle?

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Speaker 3: Are you okay? You know, kind of I'm integrating back

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Speaker 3: from the jungle. Yeah, one day at a time, one

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Speaker 3: step at a time. I'm feeling good. I've been in

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Speaker 3: the house mostly. I went out twice and it was

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Speaker 3: a little scary, but yeah, I'm trying to just get

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Speaker 3: back into the routine of motherhood, which is you know,

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Speaker 3: shocking and you know all and wifehood in americahood, how

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Speaker 3: about you? How are you feeling? Yeah?

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Speaker 2: I mean it was I had like a pretty like

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Speaker 2: hit the ground running situations. When I got back, I

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Speaker 2: had to deal with like child stuff, personality differences, uncleaned homes,

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Speaker 2: emails responded to, just opinions that nobody fucking asked for, and.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, unhealthy food. Yeah, that part I was like, maybe

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Speaker 3: I just want to eat. Yeah. Managing motherhood is like

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Speaker 3: being the manager at a costco and there's just so

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Speaker 3: many There's like all these team members or I don't know,

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Speaker 3: I feel like I'm just like the sole supervisor at

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Speaker 3: Target or something, and everybody's coming with me with their problems,

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Speaker 3: and I just I didn't sign up. I did. I

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Speaker 3: did sign up? You did? I did?

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Speaker 2: I did?

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Speaker 3: But sometimes I'm like, am I good at this? Is

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Speaker 2: You know?

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Speaker 3: I used to think that's a people person, but I

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Speaker 3: think it's I'm a people person at a distance. This time,

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Speaker 3: me and Erica went to Costa Rica for our fourteenth

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Speaker 3: retreat alone, no kids, no, no nobody, It was just

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Speaker 3: us and it was really nice. We're going for two

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Speaker 3: weeks and you know, I just like when you're only

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Speaker 3: small bubble of people, and then you go back and

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Speaker 3: you're like deeply integrated with your whole house. Again, it's

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Speaker 3: a lot, it's a lot. It's a lot.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, No, I get it, Yeah, which is why I

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Speaker 2: mean no offense.

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Speaker 3: But I'm glad I don't.

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Speaker 2: Have anyone else living with me besides one person, because

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Speaker 2: two would be a lot to manage. And I know

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Speaker 2: one day I'm heading towards that direction of perhaps letting

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Speaker 2: out of my pussy.

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Speaker 3: But I feel like I thought I was ready for that,

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Speaker 3: and I don't think so. It's a lot.

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Speaker 2: I don't think so. I think I really enjoy, Like, yeah,

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Speaker 2: I really enjoy when Iri goes away and then I'm

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Speaker 2: Ralph's not Ralph's Stross living in different homes situation, you know.

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Speaker 3: Shout out to Aaron Marie Claire, who I don't know

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Speaker 3: how many years ago told me that I would do

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Speaker 3: what is she talking about? She doesn't know me and

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Speaker 3: Human design? It was on point with that, okay, because

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Speaker 3: I'm like, I am the type of bitch I need

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Speaker 3: multiple houses, Like go to go to the Costa Rica house,

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Speaker 3: I'm going to Brooklyn. I just like I want to

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Speaker 3: But then you're like, am I ever going to be

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Speaker 2: No?

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Speaker 3: No, you're not.

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Speaker 2: This is it? Well, you know, we did talk remember

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Speaker 3: Now you're going to be a married person, so good luck, bitch.

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Speaker 3: We did say that. We did remember.

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Speaker 2: That we were talking about married people, say how you're married?

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Speaker 2: Oh so sorry, like you get no breaks, none, you.

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Speaker 3: Know, seasons, seasons, seasons, I do. I'm not I'm mourning that,

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Speaker 2: It is for you guys that are just tuning in

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Speaker 2: do one YouTube live a month, and they're kind of

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Speaker 2: sporadic like us because water signs we just be flowing.

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Speaker 2: So technically supposed to be the third week of February.

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Speaker 2: We're doing well so far. So just check in on

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Speaker 3: We can't commit to a day because although we are

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Speaker 2: So if you join YouTube live, we'll answer your questions live,

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Speaker 2: you guys in the chat right now. High Tribe, High

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Speaker 2: Discord Tribe, High YouTube Tribe. Hi, Jess Sharlee Ralph, Yes

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Speaker 2: that's her name. I got it wrong on the Cherylie

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Speaker 2: Cheryl Lee, Rol Cheryl Lee, Ralphie Rossick.

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Speaker 3: That's disrespectful.

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Speaker 2: I'm sorry, hey, Dianni, Dianni, I really do enjoy my

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Speaker 2: at work. That's fair. I need like days alone. I

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Speaker 2: I really enjoy that time. I don't really get them

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Speaker 3: Could you? I was, who's the bitcher threw her hair

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Speaker 3: down for Punzel? Puzzel Punzel. I'm like, the bitch you

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Speaker 3: Fern Gully noa, oh my god. This is my favorite

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Speaker 2: Do you remember fern Gully. I really flecked with fern Gully.

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Speaker 2: She was like she was a fairy. I got jungle fairy.

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Speaker 3: about her. I was like, I like Sumbillina that he

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Speaker 3: and I really like that. I don't know they were

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Speaker 3: trying to be progressive. Then my parents are very progressive,

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Speaker 3: not your parents. That means society. I grew up very

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Speaker 3: my middle name is a Soda. I had to leave

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Speaker 3: the recording because Orlando got locked out because it was

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Speaker 3: very important that we smoke weed. That's true.

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Speaker 2: You know, I'm supposed to be going on a weed detox,

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Speaker 3: Now, So so's start today.

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Speaker 2: I'm sorry, boo, it's just not gonna happen today. Maybe

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Speaker 3: what's going on? I just feel like I should take

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Speaker 3: a break. Oh, then do it? Yeah, I know.

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Speaker 2: I went for a run this morning at five point

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Speaker 2: Because he you know, he he doesn't really these. Oh no,

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Speaker 2: Every single one has been opened. Okay, these are a

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Speaker 3: You have a backwood paper towork? Yeah, like you could

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Speaker 3: leaf graba. Yeah, and you just use it like that.

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Speaker 2: that's what you told your twenty one year old stuff.

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Speaker 3: what year was it where a ball was four hundred dollars?

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Speaker 3: New York's expense? It was a Christmas gift.

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Speaker 2: I spent my whole Christmas gift on cocaine from your grandma,

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Speaker 3: Sorry, Tommy, did it work? Yeah? But I should have.

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Speaker 2: I could have died because I was doing coke and

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Speaker 2: then running on the treadmill.

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Speaker 3: Oh, my dad, there reminds me one time. One time

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Speaker 3: I was in college and I didn't coke. Like it

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Speaker 3: I'm like, hey, I feel so good. She's like, what

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Speaker 3: We're never going for a job to your house. She's like,

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Speaker 3: I was like, sigm I'm just high. She's like, I know, wow.

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Speaker 2: Long story? Because you said did you peopleant to put

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Speaker 2: It's a great space. It's a great place for you

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Speaker 3: lingerie to like do something, film something, and I just

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00:22:04,560 --> 00:22:06,239
Speaker 3: left it on. I was cleaning the house and like

435
00:22:06,600 --> 00:22:10,240
Speaker 3: full blown stockings, and I was like, I like this.

436
00:22:11,240 --> 00:22:13,480
Speaker 3: Sometimes it requires that you put on the sexy shit

437
00:22:13,560 --> 00:22:16,359
Speaker 3: and do nothing, like literally just clean your house. It

438
00:22:16,400 --> 00:22:18,080
Speaker 3: just puts you in the energy of like, oh I

439
00:22:18,119 --> 00:22:20,879
Speaker 3: kind of look motherfucking good. You almost forget. You have

440
00:22:20,920 --> 00:22:24,240
Speaker 3: to like train yourself. Put on the lingerie, feel the silks,

441
00:22:24,280 --> 00:22:27,760
Speaker 3: feel the lace, put on the motherfucking garters and the stockings,

442
00:22:27,800 --> 00:22:29,960
Speaker 3: and just be like I'm that bitch, you know, like

443
00:22:30,040 --> 00:22:33,040
Speaker 3: if you were trumping around all goddamn day and sweats

444
00:22:33,040 --> 00:22:35,920
Speaker 3: and shit, it's gonna be hard to feel yourself and

445
00:22:35,960 --> 00:22:38,800
Speaker 3: even as a newdiest. There's been seasons in my life

446
00:22:38,800 --> 00:22:40,400
Speaker 3: where I knew I was depressed because I was wearing

447
00:22:40,400 --> 00:22:42,439
Speaker 3: a lot of sweats, and I'm like, bitch, if you

448
00:22:42,440 --> 00:22:46,000
Speaker 3: don't put on some actual fucking freakom dresses and come

449
00:22:46,040 --> 00:22:50,240
Speaker 3: out of this fucking deep depression, sometimes the anti depressant

450
00:22:50,560 --> 00:22:53,280
Speaker 3: medicine is just the freakom dress and the lingerie. Like

451
00:22:53,359 --> 00:22:55,840
Speaker 3: sometimes you have to like fake it until you make it,

452
00:22:55,880 --> 00:22:58,119
Speaker 3: and like even if you don't feel your greatest, you know,

453
00:22:58,320 --> 00:23:00,000
Speaker 3: just do what you gotta do until like put on

454
00:23:00,080 --> 00:23:01,160
Speaker 3: some lipstick can get there.

455
00:23:02,760 --> 00:23:05,240
Speaker 2: I also blame my boyfriend for making me gain weight

456
00:23:05,280 --> 00:23:09,280
Speaker 2: because he likes me and my moo moos, like that

457
00:23:09,400 --> 00:23:12,200
Speaker 2: turns him on, Like not lingerie. I've put on lingerie

458
00:23:12,240 --> 00:23:13,720
Speaker 2: and he's like, I don't really go a fuck about this.

459
00:23:13,760 --> 00:23:15,879
Speaker 2: I don't care about this. I actually prefer you in

460
00:23:15,880 --> 00:23:19,879
Speaker 2: like big T shirts. And now I have no I

461
00:23:19,920 --> 00:23:22,040
Speaker 2: don't I don't wear I barely put it on. So

462
00:23:22,040 --> 00:23:25,520
Speaker 2: I'm just wearing moon moves around the fucking house, just

463
00:23:25,560 --> 00:23:30,440
Speaker 2: like floating through like fucking Auntie, not putting on the

464
00:23:30,520 --> 00:23:33,760
Speaker 2: lingerie for like a mental check, Like bitch, it doesn't

465
00:23:33,760 --> 00:23:35,560
Speaker 2: fit anymore. It's been a while.

466
00:23:35,640 --> 00:23:35,680
Speaker 1: Ho.

467
00:23:36,080 --> 00:23:38,679
Speaker 3: You do need to have a mental check and you

468
00:23:38,760 --> 00:23:42,239
Speaker 3: need to do it for you. Fuck these niggas for real,

469
00:23:42,320 --> 00:23:45,000
Speaker 3: forar real. It's just like, yeah, it's just for you,

470
00:23:46,080 --> 00:23:50,639
Speaker 3: even if you live alone, you know. Anyway, that's my spiel.

471
00:23:52,200 --> 00:23:53,959
Speaker 2: So what are we doing here? Can you gut us

472
00:23:53,960 --> 00:23:56,040
Speaker 2: through this backwood experience? This? Ok?

473
00:23:56,240 --> 00:23:59,960
Speaker 3: This new so here, I've crushed up the black wood.

474
00:24:00,200 --> 00:24:02,679
Speaker 3: This is how you recycle your backwoods. If you opened

475
00:24:02,680 --> 00:24:05,120
Speaker 3: every fucking pack for no goddamn reason and they got

476
00:24:05,119 --> 00:24:07,760
Speaker 3: a little stale, you just crunch it up. This is

477
00:24:07,800 --> 00:24:12,040
Speaker 3: the eco friendly backwood. Crunch it up so that you

478
00:24:12,040 --> 00:24:14,080
Speaker 3: can still use it and that you get a little

479
00:24:14,080 --> 00:24:15,639
Speaker 3: spliff and it doesn't have to be too much. This

480
00:24:15,720 --> 00:24:18,160
Speaker 3: is like if you're not wanting to go so tobacco

481
00:24:18,400 --> 00:24:19,720
Speaker 3: and you don't want to get like, you know, someone's

482
00:24:19,800 --> 00:24:22,359
Speaker 3: could do that lightheaded feeling. You want a little lightheadedness,

483
00:24:22,640 --> 00:24:30,399
Speaker 3: then you just crunch up a little backwood like so, okay, Saltbee, Orlando,

484
00:24:30,400 --> 00:24:31,879
Speaker 3: where's my where's my camp?

485
00:24:33,400 --> 00:24:36,760
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, oh yeah, the tobacco the backwood, Saltbee, This

486
00:24:36,840 --> 00:24:39,200
Speaker 2: is backwards back would Bay.

487
00:24:39,240 --> 00:24:41,040
Speaker 3: This is just a little sprinkle if you want to

488
00:24:41,040 --> 00:24:43,840
Speaker 3: just a little sprinkle on your joint, that's what you do.

489
00:24:43,960 --> 00:24:46,040
Speaker 3: So here I have the weed. Here, I have my

490
00:24:46,160 --> 00:24:50,439
Speaker 3: sprinkle of spliff tobacco from the backwoods, and voila.

491
00:24:50,720 --> 00:24:55,399
Speaker 2: Okay, well give it to the paper master here. So

492
00:24:55,400 --> 00:24:57,480
Speaker 2: what I'm gonna do now is I'm going to actually,

493
00:24:57,480 --> 00:24:59,800
Speaker 2: I'm going to get a filter because this is very

494
00:25:00,359 --> 00:25:03,439
Speaker 2: I don't trust people that don't use filters and their joints.

495
00:25:04,280 --> 00:25:08,040
Speaker 2: I believe that it's very unsanitary, and it's lazy and

496
00:25:08,080 --> 00:25:10,359
Speaker 2: you're wasting the cannabis because you're not gonna stop it

497
00:25:10,359 --> 00:25:10,959
Speaker 2: all lazy.

498
00:25:11,080 --> 00:25:12,720
Speaker 3: I don't know how to do the filter. I barely

499
00:25:12,800 --> 00:25:13,840
Speaker 3: can roll a joint.

500
00:25:14,280 --> 00:25:16,080
Speaker 2: So what you do is you roll it up like so,

501
00:25:17,480 --> 00:25:23,679
Speaker 2: you place it here in the joint like so, and

502
00:25:23,720 --> 00:25:25,440
Speaker 2: then you just do a little.

503
00:25:27,840 --> 00:25:30,040
Speaker 3: And then you roll it just but like that, and.

504
00:25:30,000 --> 00:25:31,520
Speaker 2: Then I guess I'm just I mean, I'm just gonna

505
00:25:31,520 --> 00:25:34,600
Speaker 2: mix these up together right here. I'm gonna mix up

506
00:25:36,280 --> 00:25:39,639
Speaker 2: the backwood with the cannabis.

507
00:25:41,320 --> 00:25:45,320
Speaker 3: We're fucking backwood chefs, okay, we are, We're the backwood chefs.

508
00:25:45,359 --> 00:25:50,040
Speaker 3: I don't like the Martha Steward are backwards. Okay, I'm

509
00:25:50,119 --> 00:25:54,440
Speaker 3: making a recipe book, four hundred ways to roll a backwood. Okay,

510
00:25:54,920 --> 00:26:01,840
Speaker 3: do you call me anyway?

511
00:26:02,119 --> 00:26:08,080
Speaker 2: Speaking of Costa Rica, we had the privilege of really

512
00:26:08,119 --> 00:26:11,439
Speaker 2: rapping for La and Costa Rica. So we watched the

513
00:26:11,440 --> 00:26:14,760
Speaker 2: Super Bowl at a little dive bar on the beach

514
00:26:15,280 --> 00:26:17,399
Speaker 2: next to the water, looking up at the stars, shout

515
00:26:17,400 --> 00:26:23,920
Speaker 2: out to Johnny's and actually, so before I was actually

516
00:26:24,119 --> 00:26:27,760
Speaker 2: getting like I was in like a spiritual session moments

517
00:26:27,760 --> 00:26:28,720
Speaker 2: before this happened.

518
00:26:28,800 --> 00:26:29,159
Speaker 3: Mila.

519
00:26:30,160 --> 00:26:30,560
Speaker 2: I told her.

520
00:26:30,600 --> 00:26:31,560
Speaker 3: I was like, Okay, I'm gonna be done.

521
00:26:31,560 --> 00:26:34,399
Speaker 2: You have to come get me afterwards, and I like

522
00:26:34,480 --> 00:26:36,840
Speaker 2: finished my session. I text Mila, I'm like, did I

523
00:26:36,880 --> 00:26:39,040
Speaker 2: miss it? I just knew that I'd missed the super Bowl.

524
00:26:39,080 --> 00:26:41,080
Speaker 2: And she's like, no, there's eight minutes left. There was

525
00:26:41,080 --> 00:26:44,280
Speaker 2: eight minutes. I'm coming to get you. Be ready. So

526
00:26:44,320 --> 00:26:47,440
Speaker 2: she left the bar to come get me, like zoom date.

527
00:26:47,520 --> 00:26:51,440
Speaker 2: I heard her like I'm over there like pulling my cards,

528
00:26:51,480 --> 00:26:55,760
Speaker 2: like oh yes, devotion this She's like, bitch, take a picture.

529
00:26:55,760 --> 00:26:57,520
Speaker 3: We got to go bust it in, Like are you ready?

530
00:26:57,520 --> 00:26:58,840
Speaker 3: What a hammock?

531
00:26:59,560 --> 00:27:02,720
Speaker 2: I was like, don't get like a coconut water, don't

532
00:27:03,359 --> 00:27:03,720
Speaker 2: get you.

533
00:27:03,800 --> 00:27:05,760
Speaker 3: At halftime, if you're not gonna be ready, like we're

534
00:27:05,800 --> 00:27:08,640
Speaker 3: shrifting gears. You went from spiritual massage to fucking cach

535
00:27:08,720 --> 00:27:08,960
Speaker 3: and I.

536
00:27:08,920 --> 00:27:10,439
Speaker 2: Wasn't sure how I was gonna feel because I just

537
00:27:10,440 --> 00:27:14,240
Speaker 2: had this very like like transformative experience that I was

538
00:27:14,280 --> 00:27:16,119
Speaker 2: about to go like be with a lot of people

539
00:27:16,240 --> 00:27:18,479
Speaker 2: and like turn up. But actually it was exactly what

540
00:27:18,520 --> 00:27:21,560
Speaker 2: I needed, exactly what I needed. So we got there

541
00:27:21,640 --> 00:27:25,199
Speaker 2: right in this in the nick of time, and Kendrick

542
00:27:25,280 --> 00:27:28,400
Speaker 2: came on and me and Mila like immediately like we're.

543
00:27:28,240 --> 00:27:30,840
Speaker 3: On ten everybody. First of all, they almost didn't put

544
00:27:30,840 --> 00:27:32,880
Speaker 3: the halftime show on. Someone was like okay. They asked

545
00:27:32,920 --> 00:27:34,960
Speaker 3: me if we wanted to play the music or play

546
00:27:35,000 --> 00:27:36,800
Speaker 3: the halftime show, and I was like, what are you

547
00:27:36,840 --> 00:27:39,920
Speaker 3: talking about? I totally five people like excuse me, I'm

548
00:27:39,920 --> 00:27:43,240
Speaker 3: from I'm from LA. So we're here for the halftime show.

549
00:27:43,680 --> 00:27:45,560
Speaker 3: And then like at halftime, I know, she was really

550
00:27:45,560 --> 00:27:48,440
Speaker 3: irritated with me. I was like, hey, don't forget halftime.

551
00:27:48,480 --> 00:27:50,679
Speaker 3: She's like I know, like I know, bitch. I'm like, okay,

552
00:27:50,720 --> 00:27:52,680
Speaker 3: well don't act like you know, turn the fucking turn

553
00:27:52,720 --> 00:27:55,119
Speaker 3: the fucking TV back on, bitch. So I was like

554
00:27:55,119 --> 00:27:56,920
Speaker 3: giving her the death stair, Like, if I missed any

555
00:27:56,960 --> 00:27:58,959
Speaker 3: one minute of this, we're gonna have a fucking problem

556
00:27:58,960 --> 00:28:01,720
Speaker 3: with Costa Rica Baby. So me and Erica, I'm pretty

557
00:28:01,760 --> 00:28:03,199
Speaker 3: sure Me and Erica hyped the whole bar.

558
00:28:03,400 --> 00:28:05,800
Speaker 2: We did not not pretty sure. We were like people were

559
00:28:05,880 --> 00:28:09,040
Speaker 2: standing around looking stupid. We're like we were, and I

560
00:28:09,119 --> 00:28:10,520
Speaker 2: was like, why is no one dancing?

561
00:28:10,520 --> 00:28:12,639
Speaker 3: You would have thought it was our cousin. Okay, cousin

562
00:28:12,720 --> 00:28:16,119
Speaker 3: Kendrick was about to fucking perform because we were hype

563
00:28:16,160 --> 00:28:18,120
Speaker 3: as ship. We stood up, we were looking at other

564
00:28:18,119 --> 00:28:18,560
Speaker 3: people like.

565
00:28:18,600 --> 00:28:22,720
Speaker 2: Kendrick, Oh give me those matches, never mind Orlando Kendrick.

566
00:28:24,560 --> 00:28:31,600
Speaker 3: So he performed we fake crypt walk for however long.

567
00:28:31,680 --> 00:28:34,399
Speaker 3: The performance was all fourteen minutes. Okay, I really had to.

568
00:28:34,480 --> 00:28:36,080
Speaker 2: I had to like really bust out my fake crip

569
00:28:36,160 --> 00:28:37,960
Speaker 2: walking because there was a time in my life when

570
00:28:38,160 --> 00:28:39,920
Speaker 2: I because I'm you know, I'm Valley girl, but I'd

571
00:28:39,960 --> 00:28:41,560
Speaker 2: forced my mom to drop me off in Englewood. So

572
00:28:41,640 --> 00:28:43,800
Speaker 2: then I was hanging out with like like the baby Crips.

573
00:28:43,800 --> 00:28:45,080
Speaker 2: I think we really crips. They were like the cousin

574
00:28:45,200 --> 00:28:47,720
Speaker 2: of the crips. Yeah, they were like the Crips brothers

575
00:28:47,760 --> 00:28:49,840
Speaker 2: and like little brothers and like little sisters. But they

576
00:28:49,840 --> 00:28:51,360
Speaker 2: gave me a duitorial. But it was a very long

577
00:28:51,400 --> 00:28:53,800
Speaker 2: time ago. So then when I came to I tapped in.

578
00:28:53,880 --> 00:28:55,200
Speaker 2: I felt like, Okay, did I make them proud?

579
00:28:55,240 --> 00:28:57,840
Speaker 3: Did I do it right? I didn't care. I was

580
00:28:57,920 --> 00:29:00,280
Speaker 3: just going like I didn't guess what. Nobody touched Rita

581
00:29:00,400 --> 00:29:02,160
Speaker 3: knows what the fuck it is. They think I'm doing

582
00:29:02,200 --> 00:29:05,000
Speaker 3: it I was. I was like, you don't know shit.

583
00:29:07,760 --> 00:29:11,680
Speaker 3: And it was great. We went fucking wild. I was

584
00:29:11,720 --> 00:29:14,880
Speaker 3: getting chills at my spine and getting downloads and I.

585
00:29:14,880 --> 00:29:15,320
Speaker 2: Was like what.

586
00:29:17,600 --> 00:29:21,280
Speaker 3: And I felt really like activated from that performance. And

587
00:29:21,280 --> 00:29:23,800
Speaker 3: then I told our homegirl Dutch. Shout out to Dutch,

588
00:29:24,120 --> 00:29:26,440
Speaker 3: who actually came to a retreat two years ago and

589
00:29:26,480 --> 00:29:28,680
Speaker 3: then moved to Costa Rica. I told her, oh my god,

590
00:29:28,680 --> 00:29:32,760
Speaker 3: I had so many downloads during this halftime performance, which

591
00:29:32,800 --> 00:29:37,800
Speaker 3: aka downloads for the spiritual community are like times just

592
00:29:37,960 --> 00:29:40,760
Speaker 3: messages from the from the divine universe that you know,

593
00:29:40,880 --> 00:29:43,120
Speaker 3: if you're in the healer community, you know, I got

594
00:29:43,160 --> 00:29:45,840
Speaker 3: so many downloads, Like, because I'm so many downloads, I

595
00:29:45,880 --> 00:29:47,800
Speaker 3: was holding space for them. And then I got so

596
00:29:47,840 --> 00:29:52,760
Speaker 3: many downloads, so many downloads, So she was like, that's

597
00:29:52,840 --> 00:29:54,600
Speaker 3: interesting that you say that, because you see that lady

598
00:29:54,640 --> 00:29:56,680
Speaker 3: behind us. It's like an old lady, like a very

599
00:29:56,680 --> 00:29:58,440
Speaker 3: old lady with gray hair, just sitting in the back

600
00:29:58,480 --> 00:30:00,640
Speaker 3: of the bar. She's like she we said that two

601
00:30:00,720 --> 00:30:03,480
Speaker 3: years ago. This psychic on the internet said that Kendrick

602
00:30:03,520 --> 00:30:06,280
Speaker 3: would perform at the super Bowl in two years and

603
00:30:06,320 --> 00:30:07,800
Speaker 3: she said that black people are going to get some

604
00:30:07,880 --> 00:30:10,640
Speaker 3: kind of superpowers. And I was like, I believe her.

605
00:30:11,000 --> 00:30:13,160
Speaker 3: That is true. And so it was just a divine

606
00:30:13,160 --> 00:30:17,880
Speaker 3: alignment that Kendrick activated my superpowers. In Costa Rica while

607
00:30:17,920 --> 00:30:20,200
Speaker 3: we were repping hard for the West Coast and like

608
00:30:20,280 --> 00:30:24,120
Speaker 3: we were like sweating, we were dripping sweat. And then

609
00:30:24,360 --> 00:30:26,880
Speaker 3: suddenly when everybody else saw us repping for our cousin,

610
00:30:27,240 --> 00:30:28,600
Speaker 3: suddenly it was hit their cousin too.

611
00:30:28,680 --> 00:30:31,720
Speaker 2: Yeah, they didn't even know the lyrics. They were just dancing, dancing.

612
00:30:32,480 --> 00:30:34,920
Speaker 2: Wait side note, this is good. I kind of fuck

613
00:30:34,960 --> 00:30:35,200
Speaker 2: with this.

614
00:30:35,320 --> 00:30:37,880
Speaker 3: You like that. It's like, oh, it's like a diet Backwood.

615
00:30:38,000 --> 00:30:41,080
Speaker 3: It's like a little tobacco, not too much. It's going

616
00:30:41,160 --> 00:30:44,520
Speaker 3: to like give you a little bit lightheadedness. Yeah, we

617
00:30:44,560 --> 00:30:46,840
Speaker 3: had a like that was an amazing trip, a really

618
00:30:46,880 --> 00:30:49,320
Speaker 3: amazing trip. It was really important for Erica and I

619
00:30:49,400 --> 00:30:53,160
Speaker 3: to go. I think, do this trip alone. We've been

620
00:30:53,280 --> 00:30:56,280
Speaker 3: like in the last few years. We've only had our

621
00:30:56,280 --> 00:31:01,800
Speaker 3: business three years, the Good Ripe Retreat. But oh yeah, yeah, yeah,

622
00:31:01,840 --> 00:31:05,880
Speaker 3: you like that. That's that real. That's that real nigga hit.

623
00:31:06,000 --> 00:31:08,280
Speaker 3: It's a real nigga shit, you know, speaking of crips

624
00:31:08,280 --> 00:31:11,040
Speaker 3: and ship. Yeah, you know, you know, you know, back

625
00:31:11,040 --> 00:31:12,520
Speaker 3: in the day, my baby daddy said he was a blood.

626
00:31:12,520 --> 00:31:14,680
Speaker 3: He's a fucking lie. What the fuck are you kidding me?

627
00:31:14,840 --> 00:31:15,480
Speaker 3: Oh no, I'm not.

628
00:31:15,720 --> 00:31:16,520
Speaker 2: Are you serious?

629
00:31:16,600 --> 00:31:17,200
Speaker 3: Oh yeah?

630
00:31:17,280 --> 00:31:18,560
Speaker 2: He was where from where?

631
00:31:18,760 --> 00:31:21,880
Speaker 3: From the valley village? Baby? He was wearing red, he

632
00:31:21,920 --> 00:31:24,920
Speaker 3: was listening to he was listening to the game, you know,

633
00:31:25,160 --> 00:31:28,280
Speaker 3: was bopin' but what was bop and butt? What's boping? Blood?

634
00:31:28,480 --> 00:31:28,600
Speaker 2: You know?

635
00:31:28,600 --> 00:31:30,480
Speaker 3: Because you can't say any Please don't make me hate

636
00:31:30,520 --> 00:31:32,440
Speaker 3: him more than I already do. No, I'm serious. He

637
00:31:32,520 --> 00:31:35,440
Speaker 3: said it was a blood okay, because he probably had

638
00:31:35,440 --> 00:31:38,200
Speaker 3: some blood cousins, some distant ones, because he's super from

639
00:31:38,240 --> 00:31:48,120
Speaker 3: the valid Sorry, what's up? Oh my god, I would pay.

640
00:31:49,440 --> 00:31:52,760
Speaker 3: I probably have some pictures perfect. He was talking. You know,

641
00:31:52,800 --> 00:31:54,120
Speaker 3: when your date a girl from the valley and she

642
00:31:54,120 --> 00:31:55,800
Speaker 3: don't know no better. You're just talking ship, you know.

643
00:31:55,840 --> 00:31:59,680
Speaker 3: Looking back, I'm like, nigga, use a lie. He was

644
00:31:59,680 --> 00:32:02,880
Speaker 3: a mother fucking lie. Okay, with your English teacher mom

645
00:32:03,520 --> 00:32:06,120
Speaker 3: in the suburbs, with your white picket fence, can always

646
00:32:06,160 --> 00:32:08,360
Speaker 3: be them. Why do you niggas want to be gangster

647
00:32:08,560 --> 00:32:09,160
Speaker 3: so bad?

648
00:32:11,200 --> 00:32:13,920
Speaker 2: Some sort of weird masculinity that they feel like and

649
00:32:14,200 --> 00:32:18,080
Speaker 2: women have, like, uh, have like surrendered to it, because

650
00:32:18,200 --> 00:32:21,960
Speaker 2: even our like are we contribute to the toxic masculinity

651
00:32:23,120 --> 00:32:26,280
Speaker 2: format a lot sometimes, Like I'm like, well, I think

652
00:32:26,320 --> 00:32:29,640
Speaker 2: a gangster somehow, like uh, creates this illusion of like

653
00:32:29,720 --> 00:32:33,880
Speaker 2: protection and and honestly, like a loyalty to something, Like

654
00:32:33,920 --> 00:32:36,360
Speaker 2: there's a loyalty to something. There's some sort of initiation

655
00:32:36,480 --> 00:32:39,040
Speaker 2: that you've gone through. Like these words, these like these

656
00:32:39,040 --> 00:32:41,120
Speaker 2: ideas and these concepts I feel like are things that

657
00:32:41,120 --> 00:32:43,120
Speaker 2: are attractive to women. But like, when you get to

658
00:32:43,160 --> 00:32:45,320
Speaker 2: the nitty gritty of what it actually is, it's not

659
00:32:45,680 --> 00:32:46,200
Speaker 2: it's not that.

660
00:32:46,280 --> 00:32:48,480
Speaker 3: Honey, It's just not the worst part about my baby

661
00:32:48,560 --> 00:32:51,680
Speaker 3: daddy claiming to be a blood is that, Honestly, if

662
00:32:51,720 --> 00:32:53,920
Speaker 3: we were in a fucking fight, he wouldn't bust a grape.

663
00:32:54,440 --> 00:32:56,280
Speaker 3: I was thinking that, like what if I had to

664
00:32:56,280 --> 00:32:58,200
Speaker 3: fight him, or like I had to jump them or something.

665
00:32:58,560 --> 00:33:01,120
Speaker 3: Don't tell anybody really pissed me off this week, But

666
00:33:01,160 --> 00:33:03,560
Speaker 3: I was like, you know, because he gets really mouthy

667
00:33:03,560 --> 00:33:05,840
Speaker 3: with women. I noticed that today, Like he used to

668
00:33:05,840 --> 00:33:07,840
Speaker 3: get mouthed with me, get physical with me, get mouthed

669
00:33:07,880 --> 00:33:10,440
Speaker 3: with his mama. I never seen this nigga get mouthy

670
00:33:10,440 --> 00:33:12,400
Speaker 3: with no nigga. So if you a gangster doing a

671
00:33:12,400 --> 00:33:15,200
Speaker 3: lot of this to women, to women, nine times out

672
00:33:15,200 --> 00:33:19,680
Speaker 3: of ten, nigga, use a bitch. Anyway, Sorry, that was

673
00:33:19,720 --> 00:33:22,080
Speaker 3: my rant for the day. No I got got to

674
00:33:22,080 --> 00:33:24,320
Speaker 3: sprinkle a little bit of baby daddy hate in there

675
00:33:25,800 --> 00:33:28,640
Speaker 3: would be a good mom shoven stuck into the backwood,

676
00:33:28,840 --> 00:33:30,720
Speaker 3: just like you sprinkle the backwoods, sprinkle a little bit

677
00:33:30,720 --> 00:33:32,320
Speaker 3: of baby daddy hate, a little bit of daddy hate.

678
00:33:32,480 --> 00:33:34,040
Speaker 3: You know, we want you to do better, though we

679
00:33:34,160 --> 00:33:36,040
Speaker 3: hope and we pray that you always do better. We do,

680
00:33:36,120 --> 00:33:37,960
Speaker 3: we truly do, but we're not going to hold our breath.

681
00:33:40,720 --> 00:33:43,240
Speaker 3: Speaking of bad choices, do you have any bad choices

682
00:33:43,320 --> 00:33:45,520
Speaker 3: this week? My dear, it's a bad choice of the week.

683
00:33:45,960 --> 00:33:46,560
Speaker 2: Bat mom.

684
00:33:46,640 --> 00:33:50,640
Speaker 4: Not a bad mom, but a bad mom, so.

685
00:33:50,880 --> 00:33:59,840
Speaker 3: Good I'm Lizy. I'm gonna tell a bad choice from

686
00:34:00,080 --> 00:34:03,320
Speaker 3: we were off season. I wasn't really I don't know

687
00:34:03,320 --> 00:34:05,560
Speaker 3: why I'm feeling reluctant to tell it now. I feel

688
00:34:05,560 --> 00:34:07,120
Speaker 3: a little embarrassed, but I guess it wouldn't be a

689
00:34:07,160 --> 00:34:08,920
Speaker 3: bad choice if it wasn't a little bit embarrassing and

690
00:34:09,000 --> 00:34:13,520
Speaker 3: me with it. None you bitches in the comments judge

691
00:34:13,560 --> 00:34:16,560
Speaker 3: me either, I'm gonna get judged. So once upon a time,

692
00:34:18,560 --> 00:34:20,239
Speaker 3: me and Orlando were at our house like we are

693
00:34:20,560 --> 00:34:24,000
Speaker 3: nine times out of ten, and Lynna was home. It

694
00:34:24,040 --> 00:34:26,719
Speaker 3: was a school night, so our friend, our homie comes

695
00:34:26,719 --> 00:34:29,920
Speaker 3: over and we put her to bed. So because the

696
00:34:29,960 --> 00:34:32,120
Speaker 3: school night, and our homie comes over, and you know,

697
00:34:32,280 --> 00:34:35,000
Speaker 3: our homie is married, but he is Polly, so he

698
00:34:35,160 --> 00:34:38,799
Speaker 3: is like, you know, girl, friend girls, girlfriends whatever, So

699
00:34:38,960 --> 00:34:41,239
Speaker 3: friend girls. He was like, he had one girl come over.

700
00:34:41,280 --> 00:34:42,520
Speaker 3: Then he's like, I'm gonna take her home, and I

701
00:34:42,520 --> 00:34:44,440
Speaker 3: was like, you're drunk. He's like, I'm uber home and

702
00:34:44,520 --> 00:34:46,239
Speaker 3: he's like, oh yeah, my other two homegirls is gonna

703
00:34:46,239 --> 00:34:47,959
Speaker 3: come by. And I was like, you think you're slick, Okay,

704
00:34:48,000 --> 00:34:50,440
Speaker 3: you're just inviting bitches over here because you can't take

705
00:34:50,520 --> 00:34:52,600
Speaker 3: them home whatever that our house is.

706
00:34:52,600 --> 00:34:53,680
Speaker 2: That house is free hotel.

707
00:34:53,920 --> 00:34:55,719
Speaker 3: Like it's like a come all come like I get

708
00:34:55,719 --> 00:34:57,160
Speaker 3: calls a four in the morning. I'm like, okay, the

709
00:34:57,160 --> 00:35:00,799
Speaker 3: door is open. Whatever. So these two the bitches come over.

710
00:35:02,320 --> 00:35:04,399
Speaker 3: They go upstairs. Mire Orlanda go in the room. We're

711
00:35:04,440 --> 00:35:07,399
Speaker 3: like getting a little freak freaky deeky. I'm in the room,

712
00:35:07,520 --> 00:35:10,200
Speaker 3: like naked, so I'm like standing up on our bed

713
00:35:10,440 --> 00:35:13,560
Speaker 3: because I'm sure I'm touching the ceiling and Orlando's eating

714
00:35:13,600 --> 00:35:18,480
Speaker 3: my pussy. Our homeboy comes in. He has on his

715
00:35:18,520 --> 00:35:20,200
Speaker 3: whole shirt is off. I don't know where his shirt went.

716
00:35:20,760 --> 00:35:26,560
Speaker 3: What's y'all doing? And I'm like my lega, um, well,

717
00:35:27,440 --> 00:35:30,399
Speaker 3: I'm getting some head. So you would think that would

718
00:35:30,400 --> 00:35:32,120
Speaker 3: be his sign and like open and close the door. No,

719
00:35:32,400 --> 00:35:35,680
Speaker 3: he comes in and close the doors behind him. Oh yeah,

720
00:35:35,680 --> 00:35:38,799
Speaker 3: oh y'all down here getting it poppin. Yes we are, friend,

721
00:35:38,880 --> 00:35:40,600
Speaker 3: Yes we are. You know what this naked does. He said,

722
00:35:40,640 --> 00:35:42,359
Speaker 3: I'm gonna get the I'm gonna get those girls. I'm

723
00:35:42,360 --> 00:35:44,279
Speaker 3: gonna right back. I'm like, so, Mir or Landa, we

724
00:35:44,280 --> 00:35:45,040
Speaker 3: don't even say shit.

725
00:35:45,120 --> 00:35:46,120
Speaker 2: We just staying there.

726
00:35:46,360 --> 00:35:47,960
Speaker 3: And he goes back out of the room, close the door,

727
00:35:48,000 --> 00:35:50,440
Speaker 3: and I was like, Landy, you let your friend punk us.

728
00:35:51,760 --> 00:35:55,240
Speaker 3: Nobody said shit, nobody said no, thank you, nobody said anything.

729
00:35:55,280 --> 00:35:59,239
Speaker 3: We're just like okay. So he comes back in with

730
00:35:59,280 --> 00:36:02,600
Speaker 3: the two girls. Me and Orlando are just like I

731
00:36:02,640 --> 00:36:05,520
Speaker 3: think I finally sit down, but I'm butt ass naked.

732
00:36:05,520 --> 00:36:08,960
Speaker 3: I think Orlando's naked too. So then they're like, we

733
00:36:09,000 --> 00:36:11,040
Speaker 3: have surround Okay, we have like a We're not Polly,

734
00:36:11,040 --> 00:36:13,240
Speaker 3: but we have a poly bed because we have surround seating.

735
00:36:13,440 --> 00:36:16,080
Speaker 3: There's platforms all around the bed, so if someone one

736
00:36:16,120 --> 00:36:17,759
Speaker 3: wanted to sit and watch, it would be like a

737
00:36:17,800 --> 00:36:21,920
Speaker 3: perfect situation. So the girls sit down. Anyway, him and

738
00:36:22,040 --> 00:36:24,920
Speaker 3: one of the girls start fucking around, and I'm like, okay,

739
00:36:24,960 --> 00:36:28,040
Speaker 3: well I guess front Row show it in my room.

740
00:36:28,480 --> 00:36:30,960
Speaker 2: And then you got your friends and the girls are around.

741
00:36:31,040 --> 00:36:34,319
Speaker 3: One girl and the friend is fucking around. But then

742
00:36:34,360 --> 00:36:36,920
Speaker 3: he stops and says, do you have a towel? So

743
00:36:36,960 --> 00:36:38,879
Speaker 3: I'm like yeah. He's like she'd be squirting a lot,

744
00:36:39,120 --> 00:36:41,160
Speaker 3: like oh yeah, Oh lord Jesus, I'm like, yeah, let

745
00:36:41,160 --> 00:36:42,520
Speaker 3: me get your towel because this is my bed and

746
00:36:42,560 --> 00:36:45,960
Speaker 3: my nigger. Oh shit, oh shit, oh god, what are

747
00:36:46,000 --> 00:36:49,040
Speaker 3: you doing? Sorry?

748
00:36:50,520 --> 00:36:53,279
Speaker 2: He just stayed the area stage my bed, stage your

749
00:36:53,280 --> 00:36:53,880
Speaker 2: bad choices.

750
00:36:54,239 --> 00:36:57,799
Speaker 3: Okay, So I get two towels because bitch, you're not

751
00:36:57,800 --> 00:37:00,960
Speaker 3: about to get your fluids all over my bed. But

752
00:37:01,000 --> 00:37:03,240
Speaker 3: then I'm kind of interested because you know, I haven't

753
00:37:03,360 --> 00:37:06,040
Speaker 3: I haven't really mastered the skirting thing, which is just

754
00:37:06,200 --> 00:37:08,400
Speaker 3: really one of these days I'm gonna have the announcement

755
00:37:08,440 --> 00:37:11,880
Speaker 3: that I did it. And so I go get the

756
00:37:11,920 --> 00:37:14,080
Speaker 3: towels and I'm like, hey, this is the only area

757
00:37:14,120 --> 00:37:16,920
Speaker 3: in which you could do this because my bed. So

758
00:37:16,960 --> 00:37:20,240
Speaker 3: anybody were like watching them, like I'm gonna pussyate. They're like, fucking,

759
00:37:20,280 --> 00:37:22,879
Speaker 3: she's bent over, They're like getting loud. I'm like, hey, hey,

760
00:37:23,239 --> 00:37:26,839
Speaker 3: my kid is sleeping in the next room. So I'm

761
00:37:26,840 --> 00:37:29,040
Speaker 3: like I make then the mommy announcement, like hey, I

762
00:37:29,040 --> 00:37:32,680
Speaker 3: know we're adults having fun, but upt the fuck up. Okay,

763
00:37:32,880 --> 00:37:34,719
Speaker 3: So they start fucking iek like me and or Lando

764
00:37:34,760 --> 00:37:36,600
Speaker 3: start fucking. So we're just like it's not like any

765
00:37:36,640 --> 00:37:38,200
Speaker 3: type of an orgy. It's just like a side by

766
00:37:38,239 --> 00:37:42,799
Speaker 3: side fucking and one girl watching. Don't ask my life.

767
00:37:42,880 --> 00:37:46,600
Speaker 3: It's a regular like Wednesday night, and we totally just

768
00:37:46,680 --> 00:37:49,239
Speaker 3: let this happen. Okay, so she starts like going in.

769
00:37:49,280 --> 00:37:51,640
Speaker 3: He's doing some kind of moves and I could see

770
00:37:51,640 --> 00:37:54,000
Speaker 3: He's like, so I know it's about to happen. So

771
00:37:54,080 --> 00:37:54,480
Speaker 3: I'm like.

772
00:37:56,320 --> 00:37:57,240
Speaker 2: Trying to see the technique.

773
00:37:57,440 --> 00:38:01,560
Speaker 3: I'm trying to see the technique, right, So for sure,

774
00:38:01,600 --> 00:38:04,839
Speaker 3: she just starts sucking squirting all over the fucking bed.

775
00:38:04,880 --> 00:38:08,839
Speaker 3: I'm like, WHOA, Like front row seats pretty cool, right,

776
00:38:08,920 --> 00:38:12,040
Speaker 3: like live porn. So whenever we keep going, like we're

777
00:38:12,080 --> 00:38:14,840
Speaker 3: telling jokes in between, I'm like talking shit to my friends.

778
00:38:15,120 --> 00:38:18,799
Speaker 3: The other girl is just like the other We're gonna

779
00:38:18,800 --> 00:38:20,959
Speaker 3: just suck up this yellow couch, and the other girl's

780
00:38:21,040 --> 00:38:24,880
Speaker 3: just like being very demir like watching. So then me

781
00:38:24,960 --> 00:38:26,520
Speaker 3: Orlando take a meeting in the closet.

782
00:38:27,120 --> 00:38:30,680
Speaker 2: What how did you sneak into the closet? It was

783
00:38:30,760 --> 00:38:34,239
Speaker 2: like like sexily dragged him over. They're like, come me here, baby. No,

784
00:38:34,280 --> 00:38:35,560
Speaker 2: I think he was just like come here.

785
00:38:36,200 --> 00:38:38,319
Speaker 3: I don't know how he got that. Has keep in mind,

786
00:38:38,520 --> 00:38:40,799
Speaker 3: here's my bed, here's the closet. We have to walk

787
00:38:40,880 --> 00:38:44,360
Speaker 3: nowhere or just literally one step. So we get we

788
00:38:44,400 --> 00:38:46,560
Speaker 3: get in the closet and he's like we start talking.

789
00:38:46,600 --> 00:38:49,080
Speaker 3: I'm like, what's happening, Like, are they trying to have three?

790
00:38:49,160 --> 00:38:50,839
Speaker 3: Like are they trying to have orgy? I don't know.

791
00:38:50,960 --> 00:38:54,240
Speaker 3: He's like, I mean, you know that girl has nice boom.

792
00:38:56,160 --> 00:38:57,920
Speaker 3: Like why He's like, you know, it wouldn't be so

793
00:38:58,239 --> 00:39:01,759
Speaker 3: it would be nice to like on her titty. I'm like,

794
00:39:02,080 --> 00:39:03,320
Speaker 3: do you want to suck on her titties?

795
00:39:03,360 --> 00:39:03,440
Speaker 1: Like?

796
00:39:03,719 --> 00:39:05,520
Speaker 3: I mean kind of yeah, you know, like almost like

797
00:39:05,560 --> 00:39:08,799
Speaker 3: an child, like I have been good this week. I

798
00:39:08,800 --> 00:39:12,160
Speaker 3: am a really nice boy. I'm like, so, I'm like,

799
00:39:12,760 --> 00:39:14,759
Speaker 3: note to self, remind me tocus him out tomorrow about

800
00:39:14,840 --> 00:39:17,520
Speaker 3: using his niceness as a privilege to get things some

801
00:39:17,600 --> 00:39:19,800
Speaker 3: I'm like, okay, well okay, well you could suck her titty.

802
00:39:19,920 --> 00:39:21,960
Speaker 3: So then we go back out of the closet and

803
00:39:22,040 --> 00:39:22,840
Speaker 3: he just moves me.

804
00:39:22,840 --> 00:39:25,279
Speaker 2: On over to her tit crawl over.

805
00:39:25,400 --> 00:39:27,799
Speaker 3: Yeah. So they were like you get it popping again,

806
00:39:28,000 --> 00:39:30,799
Speaker 3: like making out. She was like sitting right there, and

807
00:39:30,880 --> 00:39:38,040
Speaker 3: I just, oh, you want to suck your tick? I didn't,

808
00:39:38,080 --> 00:39:40,320
Speaker 3: but I had to initiate it. I was sure, oh okay.

809
00:39:40,360 --> 00:39:42,200
Speaker 3: I was like okay, trying to be a good wing woman.

810
00:39:43,280 --> 00:39:45,520
Speaker 3: I was like like kissing her shoulder and I was

811
00:39:45,560 --> 00:39:48,960
Speaker 3: like rubbing the girl's shoulder and I was like, what's

812
00:39:49,000 --> 00:39:52,239
Speaker 3: your mind if he licked your titty? Gotta kiss you?

813
00:39:52,320 --> 00:39:53,759
Speaker 3: First I kissed her and then I was like, do

814
00:39:53,800 --> 00:39:55,279
Speaker 3: you mind if he sucks on your titty? And she's

815
00:39:55,320 --> 00:39:57,680
Speaker 3: like no, and she like takes out her big, voluptuous

816
00:39:57,719 --> 00:40:01,080
Speaker 3: breast and then like he's so it's like kissing Lila

817
00:40:01,840 --> 00:40:03,600
Speaker 3: and I kissed the other and we're like looking at

818
00:40:03,640 --> 00:40:09,160
Speaker 3: each other, these big old titties in her mouth and

819
00:40:09,160 --> 00:40:16,440
Speaker 3: I'm I crawled over so awkward. Anyway we do that,

820
00:40:16,560 --> 00:40:18,040
Speaker 3: I like make out with her a little bit, like

821
00:40:18,120 --> 00:40:20,520
Speaker 3: only her top comes off. And then it ends like

822
00:40:20,560 --> 00:40:22,080
Speaker 3: I look at the time, it's just late. It's like

823
00:40:22,120 --> 00:40:25,520
Speaker 3: three o'clock in the morning, and I'm like okay. So

824
00:40:25,520 --> 00:40:27,680
Speaker 3: then they just collect themselves and get up and leave,

825
00:40:27,920 --> 00:40:33,960
Speaker 3: and Orlando's so happy, he's just beaming. I'm like, give you,

826
00:40:34,160 --> 00:40:36,320
Speaker 3: give your nigga one titty suckle a year is gonna

827
00:40:36,320 --> 00:40:39,919
Speaker 3: be fucking thinks you're the ship. So it wasn't even

828
00:40:40,000 --> 00:40:42,040
Speaker 3: like an orgy or anything of that story. It was

829
00:40:42,160 --> 00:40:45,799
Speaker 3: just like a diet a diet light orgy. But the

830
00:40:45,800 --> 00:40:48,879
Speaker 3: bad choice was that my kid was in the next room,

831
00:40:49,400 --> 00:40:51,560
Speaker 3: but she was sound asleep and she had no clue,

832
00:40:52,040 --> 00:40:53,799
Speaker 3: so and like we hang out in our room all

833
00:40:53,840 --> 00:40:57,680
Speaker 3: the time with friends, and so yeah, that's my bad, bad,

834
00:40:57,680 --> 00:41:00,000
Speaker 3: good choice of the week. Because Orlando was very thrilled

835
00:41:00,280 --> 00:41:01,600
Speaker 3: after they left. You would have thought he had a

836
00:41:01,600 --> 00:41:04,640
Speaker 3: whole fucking foursome or some shit. He you couldn't tell

837
00:41:04,680 --> 00:41:05,759
Speaker 3: him shit, And I was just like.

838
00:41:06,120 --> 00:41:07,600
Speaker 2: That's like a bad choice slash a whoy.

839
00:41:08,200 --> 00:41:12,640
Speaker 3: Yeah wow, so that's my story that happened. I love

840
00:41:12,680 --> 00:41:13,880
Speaker 3: that that, But I always have a meeting in the

841
00:41:13,920 --> 00:41:16,360
Speaker 3: closet first. That sounds fun, you know, if it's if

842
00:41:16,360 --> 00:41:18,760
Speaker 3: it requires going in the closet and being a little strange,

843
00:41:18,880 --> 00:41:20,640
Speaker 3: just do it because then you have clear you have

844
00:41:20,680 --> 00:41:23,360
Speaker 3: clear guidelines of what's about to happen. Because when you

845
00:41:23,360 --> 00:41:24,560
Speaker 3: don't have communication, it's.

846
00:41:24,400 --> 00:41:27,359
Speaker 2: Okay to step away from the threesome one and get

847
00:41:27,440 --> 00:41:29,879
Speaker 2: it to get get the communication together and then come back.

848
00:41:30,000 --> 00:41:32,080
Speaker 2: It's okay. Do not force yourself just like you've done

849
00:41:32,080 --> 00:41:33,520
Speaker 2: all your life with men where you didn't want to

850
00:41:33,520 --> 00:41:35,040
Speaker 2: sleep with them, but you're already doing it and you

851
00:41:35,040 --> 00:41:36,799
Speaker 2: felt like you had to just stay. No, you can.

852
00:41:36,880 --> 00:41:38,960
Speaker 2: You can step away with your partner and make the

853
00:41:39,600 --> 00:41:43,239
Speaker 2: make negotiations terms and agreements.

854
00:41:42,800 --> 00:41:45,120
Speaker 3: Terms and agreements and this this has been the key

855
00:41:45,360 --> 00:41:49,759
Speaker 3: in uh, having the fluctuation and the relationship is like

856
00:41:49,880 --> 00:41:53,560
Speaker 3: having the conversation first. I mean ideally, yes, not normally

857
00:41:53,600 --> 00:41:56,200
Speaker 3: when you're in the midst mandatory, don't do it. We've

858
00:41:56,200 --> 00:41:59,480
Speaker 3: been there, We've done that. I was traumatized, Okay, and

859
00:41:59,560 --> 00:42:01,719
Speaker 3: you try to did that right now. You didn't have

860
00:42:01,719 --> 00:42:05,080
Speaker 3: the conversation first, No, but mid mid whatever the fuck

861
00:42:05,200 --> 00:42:07,680
Speaker 3: was happening, we knew because there's been times where we

862
00:42:07,719 --> 00:42:10,160
Speaker 3: have not had the conversation and it went terribly wrong

863
00:42:10,760 --> 00:42:12,880
Speaker 3: that it doesn't matter how weird it looks or how

864
00:42:12,920 --> 00:42:14,680
Speaker 3: strange it is, We're going to take a moment to

865
00:42:14,719 --> 00:42:17,880
Speaker 3: go into the closet and have a meeting because it

866
00:42:17,920 --> 00:42:20,080
Speaker 3: could go south and then we're gonna then they're they're

867
00:42:20,080 --> 00:42:22,560
Speaker 3: gonna leave, and we're gonna have problems. So if it

868
00:42:22,600 --> 00:42:24,080
Speaker 3: takes to just go in the closet and have some

869
00:42:24,120 --> 00:42:26,200
Speaker 3: communication that you.

870
00:42:26,200 --> 00:42:28,439
Speaker 2: Have to be in solidarity with your partner. You really

871
00:42:28,480 --> 00:42:32,480
Speaker 2: have to feel like you guys are a team working together.

872
00:42:33,040 --> 00:42:35,360
Speaker 3: Yeah, because if if some one person, like one person

873
00:42:35,360 --> 00:42:38,160
Speaker 3: doesn't communicate adventures out of the fucking contract or there's

874
00:42:38,200 --> 00:42:42,640
Speaker 3: no contract, things can go really bad and even as

875
00:42:42,640 --> 00:42:45,560
Speaker 3: someone who's not Polly or I would I am monogamous.

876
00:42:45,600 --> 00:42:49,600
Speaker 3: I guess in this case would be monogamish, but just

877
00:42:50,000 --> 00:42:52,239
Speaker 3: it requires a lot of communication and that has been

878
00:42:52,320 --> 00:42:57,600
Speaker 3: the game changer for me. In Orlando's play good, I

879
00:42:57,680 --> 00:42:58,440
Speaker 3: love that. I love that.

880
00:42:58,440 --> 00:43:01,520
Speaker 2: It's very good advice for all the three Summers and

881
00:43:02,080 --> 00:43:05,319
Speaker 2: group sext people in the YouTube live and like, if.

882
00:43:05,640 --> 00:43:10,160
Speaker 3: Your man asks you for a titty suck, I was like, whatever, sure,

883
00:43:11,560 --> 00:43:13,239
Speaker 3: I don't even know this bitch, never seen her again.

884
00:43:13,480 --> 00:43:16,640
Speaker 3: I can't even tell your name those you know, like

885
00:43:16,800 --> 00:43:25,720
Speaker 3: she was a nice little fairy of the night unicorn unicorn. Yeah,

886
00:43:25,760 --> 00:43:28,719
Speaker 3: so that's my bad choice of the week. I love that.

887
00:43:28,840 --> 00:43:33,520
Speaker 3: Thank you for sharing. I think I was just a

888
00:43:33,560 --> 00:43:35,719
Speaker 3: concerned that I would be judged because my kid was

889
00:43:35,719 --> 00:43:36,399
Speaker 3: in the next room.

890
00:43:36,480 --> 00:43:39,480
Speaker 2: But I mean, people have sex with their kid at

891
00:43:39,480 --> 00:43:39,799
Speaker 2: the house.

892
00:43:39,800 --> 00:43:41,200
Speaker 3: We all do it. Yeah, it's true.

893
00:43:41,239 --> 00:43:42,480
Speaker 2: Who decides how many it can be?

894
00:43:43,160 --> 00:43:47,839
Speaker 3: You? Yep, it's actually very normal now that you say

895
00:43:47,840 --> 00:43:50,520
Speaker 3: it like that, thank you. Yeah, I feel like it's

896
00:43:50,640 --> 00:43:51,360
Speaker 3: it's the truth.

897
00:43:51,760 --> 00:43:56,759
Speaker 2: You know, you were with your fiance, Yeah, you're like, yeah.

898
00:43:56,400 --> 00:43:59,600
Speaker 3: It says Alexa play meeting in my bedroom meeting in

899
00:43:59,600 --> 00:44:04,280
Speaker 3: the closet. Okay, oh my gosh.

900
00:44:04,320 --> 00:44:07,640
Speaker 2: Well should we answer some questions from the YouTube live?

901
00:44:08,520 --> 00:44:09,560
Speaker 3: Yes? We should.

902
00:44:09,760 --> 00:44:12,280
Speaker 2: Should we have any terranny?

903
00:44:12,360 --> 00:44:17,399
Speaker 3: Did you text me digit text us? She did cause

904
00:44:17,440 --> 00:44:22,640
Speaker 3: she's this shit. Oh okay, Oh, while you do that,

905
00:44:22,680 --> 00:44:25,959
Speaker 3: I'm gonna pick a tarot card. Okay, okay.

906
00:44:26,040 --> 00:44:30,000
Speaker 2: So this is a question from somebody in our Patreon.

907
00:44:30,160 --> 00:44:33,680
Speaker 2: If you haven't joined Patreon, what are you doing on Patreon?

908
00:44:33,760 --> 00:44:34,400
Speaker 3: At this point?

909
00:44:34,560 --> 00:44:37,120
Speaker 2: It's ten dollars a month and you get access to

910
00:44:37,160 --> 00:44:41,680
Speaker 2: our discord, which is like the juiciest, most supportive, loving,

911
00:44:42,880 --> 00:44:46,960
Speaker 2: constant community that you didn't even know existed, but now

912
00:44:46,960 --> 00:44:50,920
Speaker 2: you do, because literally, like the discord every someone actually

913
00:44:50,920 --> 00:44:53,080
Speaker 2: the other day yesterday was like, how do you do it?

914
00:44:53,080 --> 00:44:55,560
Speaker 3: There's so many there's so many conversations happening.

915
00:44:55,560 --> 00:44:58,560
Speaker 2: They're like there's people get sharing titties and there's people

916
00:44:58,600 --> 00:45:02,440
Speaker 2: like venting about their Then there's someone who's like getting

917
00:45:02,440 --> 00:45:05,000
Speaker 2: gradulated because she got a great job. There's people meeting up,

918
00:45:05,040 --> 00:45:07,600
Speaker 2: there's people putting one one, one, two, two, three through three.

919
00:45:07,880 --> 00:45:11,399
Speaker 3: I was like, people share full full moon rituals. It's

920
00:45:11,440 --> 00:45:14,600
Speaker 3: you know, I told you recently, like the discord is

921
00:45:14,600 --> 00:45:17,640
Speaker 3: such a full spectrum. But it's like it's the physical

922
00:45:17,800 --> 00:45:23,440
Speaker 3: manifestation of like the pillars of good moms akas like

923
00:45:24,360 --> 00:45:28,760
Speaker 3: mom shit, witchy shit, it's spiritual enlightenment, fun shit.

924
00:45:29,040 --> 00:45:31,200
Speaker 2: Sexy shit. There's a smart ship. There's a book club

925
00:45:31,239 --> 00:45:33,680
Speaker 2: happening right now. Shout out to Carrie, who's in our discord,

926
00:45:33,680 --> 00:45:37,080
Speaker 2: who's leading our first book club. The book is Lessons

927
00:45:37,080 --> 00:45:39,040
Speaker 2: and Thorns, which I think is like a sexy, like

928
00:45:39,200 --> 00:45:42,000
Speaker 2: mighty little sexy book. And so they're meeting weekly and like,

929
00:45:42,040 --> 00:45:44,600
Speaker 2: I just love how it just it just keeps on

930
00:45:44,800 --> 00:45:47,960
Speaker 2: expanding and growing. So shout out to the Discord. Make

931
00:45:47,960 --> 00:45:50,759
Speaker 2: sure you go check us out Patreon dot com, slash

932
00:45:50,800 --> 00:45:54,560
Speaker 2: Good Mom's Bad Choices on Discord. Okay, so this is

933
00:45:55,080 --> 00:45:59,879
Speaker 2: a question, how do you break a breakup to your

934
00:46:00,640 --> 00:46:02,799
Speaker 2: My three year old was introduced to my ex at

935
00:46:02,800 --> 00:46:05,600
Speaker 2: one years old. We were mostly long distance FaceTime dates

936
00:46:05,920 --> 00:46:08,960
Speaker 2: and practically lived together for six months before ending things.

937
00:46:09,080 --> 00:46:11,080
Speaker 2: She brings him up frequently, and I don't know what

938
00:46:11,160 --> 00:46:12,960
Speaker 2: to say. Sometimes I want her to be able to

939
00:46:13,000 --> 00:46:13,480
Speaker 2: move on to.

940
00:46:15,600 --> 00:46:17,000
Speaker 3: Well, you gotta tell her you broke up.

941
00:46:17,600 --> 00:46:19,279
Speaker 2: I don't know if that hasn't happened yet because it

942
00:46:19,280 --> 00:46:21,520
Speaker 2: says how do you break a breakup to your kid?

943
00:46:21,600 --> 00:46:23,960
Speaker 2: I mean I think that there's like just like you're

944
00:46:24,000 --> 00:46:26,480
Speaker 2: having a morning process, like your child also might have

945
00:46:26,480 --> 00:46:28,480
Speaker 2: a morning process, and you have to kind of allow that,

946
00:46:28,600 --> 00:46:30,360
Speaker 2: just like you have to give yourself and you guys

947
00:46:30,360 --> 00:46:33,360
Speaker 2: can I think it's just about communicating, like how do

948
00:46:33,400 --> 00:46:35,799
Speaker 2: you feel, what does it make you feel? Like you know,

949
00:46:36,000 --> 00:46:39,799
Speaker 2: and then expressing I think the you don't have to

950
00:46:39,840 --> 00:46:43,680
Speaker 2: be I think at a at whatever a kid appropriate level,

951
00:46:43,719 --> 00:46:46,480
Speaker 2: but like sharing why. I mean, like I remember when

952
00:46:46,560 --> 00:46:49,719
Speaker 2: I broke up with my ex, I told Iri, like

953
00:46:51,080 --> 00:46:53,560
Speaker 2: I told her the real shit, Like he was disrespectful

954
00:46:53,640 --> 00:46:56,279
Speaker 2: to me, He didn't show me that he valued me,

955
00:46:56,840 --> 00:46:57,560
Speaker 2: he lied to me.

956
00:46:58,000 --> 00:46:59,680
Speaker 3: And these are things that I'm not going to tolerate now.

957
00:46:59,719 --> 00:47:01,640
Speaker 2: Three I'm not sure, but like I feel like there's

958
00:47:01,680 --> 00:47:04,000
Speaker 2: a PG version of that too, where you start educating

959
00:47:04,040 --> 00:47:07,200
Speaker 2: your kids on the real shit and it's not harmful

960
00:47:07,239 --> 00:47:11,120
Speaker 2: for them to understand. I feel like interpersonal dynamics as

961
00:47:11,560 --> 00:47:14,960
Speaker 2: earlier as possible, you know, like we keep waiting to

962
00:47:15,120 --> 00:47:17,560
Speaker 2: like show them things and think we're protecting them and

963
00:47:17,719 --> 00:47:22,319
Speaker 2: really like harming them and not preparing them for the inevitable.

964
00:47:22,960 --> 00:47:26,120
Speaker 3: You know, yeah, I agree. I mean, yeah, three obviously

965
00:47:26,200 --> 00:47:30,839
Speaker 3: age appropriate conversations, but this is one of my favorite conversations.

966
00:47:30,840 --> 00:47:33,240
Speaker 3: I think there's a lot of shit on the internet

967
00:47:33,320 --> 00:47:37,880
Speaker 3: about a single mom's dating. I literally was watching something

968
00:47:37,960 --> 00:47:41,719
Speaker 3: and the comments were so crazy, like the women were like, yeah,

969
00:47:41,719 --> 00:47:44,320
Speaker 3: that's why I'm i'd in date to my some was eighteen.

970
00:47:44,560 --> 00:47:46,920
Speaker 3: I don't bring no man home. Like it was almost

971
00:47:46,960 --> 00:47:50,400
Speaker 3: like a a like a stripe of righteousness, you know.

972
00:47:50,480 --> 00:47:55,399
Speaker 3: I was like, so, you're gonna possibly like starve your

973
00:47:55,440 --> 00:47:57,920
Speaker 3: pleasure and the things that may support and help you

974
00:47:58,480 --> 00:48:01,319
Speaker 3: so that your kid can see what you struggling, see

975
00:48:01,320 --> 00:48:06,440
Speaker 3: you like not dating, so doing everything alone, Like this

976
00:48:06,560 --> 00:48:08,640
Speaker 3: is not a life is not a Disney movie, and

977
00:48:08,680 --> 00:48:10,680
Speaker 3: we give ourselves. We don't even sound like Disney. That

978
00:48:10,760 --> 00:48:14,480
Speaker 3: sounds like a no. I'm just saying. It's like, you

979
00:48:14,600 --> 00:48:18,000
Speaker 3: can't protect your child from everything, and breakups do happen.

980
00:48:18,040 --> 00:48:20,160
Speaker 3: And I think one of the biggest lessons that we

981
00:48:21,120 --> 00:48:24,319
Speaker 3: that we skip over is that people leave. People leave,

982
00:48:24,400 --> 00:48:28,600
Speaker 3: and that's okay. And I think, especially for girls, it's

983
00:48:28,640 --> 00:48:30,880
Speaker 3: important that you know that people leave. Everyone is not

984
00:48:30,960 --> 00:48:34,480
Speaker 3: meant to stay. Because there's this there's this, uh, something

985
00:48:34,560 --> 00:48:37,719
Speaker 3: tied to our value of men staying, you know, and

986
00:48:37,760 --> 00:48:40,000
Speaker 3: it's just like sometimes it's not that they're just not

987
00:48:40,239 --> 00:48:42,839
Speaker 3: for me. And I thought, like, I think that is

988
00:48:42,920 --> 00:48:45,600
Speaker 3: something that we all could like a lesson we all

989
00:48:45,760 --> 00:48:49,400
Speaker 3: could could benefit from. The earlier the better, because inevitably,

990
00:48:49,640 --> 00:48:51,600
Speaker 3: throughout our kids' lives there are gonna people that come

991
00:48:51,640 --> 00:48:54,640
Speaker 3: and go because that's life. And I think that, yeah,

992
00:48:54,680 --> 00:48:57,480
Speaker 3: like telling him what's up. We broke up because you

993
00:48:57,560 --> 00:49:00,160
Speaker 3: got it. There's a trial and error period that exist

994
00:49:00,200 --> 00:49:02,840
Speaker 3: and dating. It doesn't happen on the first try. You

995
00:49:02,840 --> 00:49:05,120
Speaker 3: don't kiss a fucking frog and becomes your husband and

996
00:49:05,200 --> 00:49:08,319
Speaker 3: your prince charming. It's human shit, and humans fuck up

997
00:49:08,320 --> 00:49:11,000
Speaker 3: and they're flawed and we have issues and you work

998
00:49:11,080 --> 00:49:13,200
Speaker 3: through and problem solve with your kids so that they're

999
00:49:13,239 --> 00:49:16,080
Speaker 3: prepared in real life and not thinking that everything's going

1000
00:49:16,120 --> 00:49:20,800
Speaker 3: to be picture perfect and then fucking shopped when it's not. Yeah, agreed,

1001
00:49:21,080 --> 00:49:26,160
Speaker 3: just be honest. Hope that helps. What other comments do

1002
00:49:26,200 --> 00:49:31,640
Speaker 3: we have here? What other questions? Mmm? This is from Instagram?

1003
00:49:32,080 --> 00:49:36,200
Speaker 2: It is is it okay to spin the block if

1004
00:49:36,239 --> 00:49:39,120
Speaker 2: the breakup was abrupt two years of no communication but

1005
00:49:39,120 --> 00:49:43,160
Speaker 2: a sudden apology and reconciliation has been established. The love

1006
00:49:43,280 --> 00:49:46,600
Speaker 2: was strong, and I want this? Would you do it?

1007
00:49:46,640 --> 00:49:49,960
Speaker 3: Sounds like you answered your own questionss I want this.

1008
00:49:50,760 --> 00:49:53,680
Speaker 3: I think people we all do this, especially as women.

1009
00:49:53,920 --> 00:49:55,960
Speaker 3: We know what we want to do, and then we

1010
00:49:56,000 --> 00:49:58,960
Speaker 3: ask seventeen people also we could do what we wanted

1011
00:49:58,960 --> 00:50:02,520
Speaker 3: to do to begin with, we really crave validation because

1012
00:50:02,560 --> 00:50:05,600
Speaker 3: sometimes our intuition is not enough. And just like your

1013
00:50:05,600 --> 00:50:07,640
Speaker 3: intuition knows when you shouldn't spend the block when you're

1014
00:50:07,680 --> 00:50:10,920
Speaker 3: playing yourself, because we do that too. It's important that

1015
00:50:10,960 --> 00:50:13,280
Speaker 3: we like when there's things we really genuinely want to do,

1016
00:50:13,280 --> 00:50:15,640
Speaker 3: do it, and if it doesn't work out, know that

1017
00:50:15,719 --> 00:50:18,040
Speaker 3: you honored yourself in that way. Know that you honored

1018
00:50:18,360 --> 00:50:21,000
Speaker 3: your desire to do something or play in something, or

1019
00:50:21,160 --> 00:50:23,720
Speaker 3: you know, revisit something. Like You're not going to always

1020
00:50:23,760 --> 00:50:26,320
Speaker 3: make the best, perfect decision, but at least it's yours

1021
00:50:26,400 --> 00:50:29,120
Speaker 3: and so you can move through it gently however the outcome.

1022
00:50:30,840 --> 00:50:31,600
Speaker 2: Write down the.

1023
00:50:31,480 --> 00:50:32,320
Speaker 3: Pros and cons.

1024
00:50:32,880 --> 00:50:35,319
Speaker 2: Also, I think sometimes like you have to see it

1025
00:50:35,480 --> 00:50:37,680
Speaker 2: in front of you, like your brain will play tricks

1026
00:50:37,680 --> 00:50:39,640
Speaker 2: on you, but like the facts are not going to

1027
00:50:39,800 --> 00:50:41,640
Speaker 2: Like why did you break up? What was the reason

1028
00:50:41,680 --> 00:50:43,759
Speaker 2: why it didn't work? Why was it abrupt? Why did

1029
00:50:43,800 --> 00:50:47,799
Speaker 2: communication cease abruptly? Was it important? Was it necessary? Like

1030
00:50:47,880 --> 00:50:51,280
Speaker 2: what is he doing now? Are the cons from before

1031
00:50:51,520 --> 00:50:55,520
Speaker 2: still seem like the cons now? Like you know, just yeah,

1032
00:50:55,640 --> 00:50:58,560
Speaker 2: but yes, I think honoring your intuition too, But historically

1033
00:50:58,640 --> 00:51:01,400
Speaker 2: we will be stupid bitches because sometimes our intuition is

1034
00:51:01,719 --> 00:51:02,880
Speaker 2: like it's not even our intuition.

1035
00:51:02,920 --> 00:51:05,000
Speaker 3: We do normally know better, but like.

1036
00:51:04,920 --> 00:51:08,360
Speaker 2: I like, it gets foggy. It's it's easy to say that,

1037
00:51:08,440 --> 00:51:10,560
Speaker 2: but then sometimes like you've been like you've been wrong.

1038
00:51:10,800 --> 00:51:12,800
Speaker 2: You know, you really thought you were following your intuition,

1039
00:51:13,480 --> 00:51:17,080
Speaker 2: and so you know, I don't agree that you need

1040
00:51:17,120 --> 00:51:19,480
Speaker 2: to ask a thousand friends because I've done that before

1041
00:51:19,600 --> 00:51:22,360
Speaker 2: and like that also hasn't like done me right, I

1042
00:51:22,440 --> 00:51:24,040
Speaker 2: knew what I wanted to do, or you know, they

1043
00:51:24,080 --> 00:51:27,360
Speaker 2: didn't know the circumstances of the situation. But I do

1044
00:51:27,440 --> 00:51:29,920
Speaker 2: think sometimes like there's been situations I think more recently

1045
00:51:29,920 --> 00:51:31,840
Speaker 2: in my life where like I want my friends to

1046
00:51:31,880 --> 00:51:34,560
Speaker 2: have input, please tell me I'm being a stupid bitch,

1047
00:51:35,120 --> 00:51:38,399
Speaker 2: like don't let me do this, and I still might

1048
00:51:38,440 --> 00:51:38,920
Speaker 2: do it.

1049
00:51:38,960 --> 00:51:41,520
Speaker 3: Exactly, I still might do it. But like, at least

1050
00:51:41,520 --> 00:51:43,160
Speaker 3: you know that I told you the truth before you

1051
00:51:43,160 --> 00:51:43,400
Speaker 3: did it.

1052
00:51:43,480 --> 00:51:47,840
Speaker 2: Yeah, be stern, don't just don't get straight to the point.

1053
00:51:48,239 --> 00:51:51,919
Speaker 3: Don't sugarcoat it for me. That's just me. I mean that. Yeah.

1054
00:51:51,960 --> 00:51:54,400
Speaker 3: But then historically women do not have like, do not

1055
00:51:54,520 --> 00:51:58,920
Speaker 3: take relationship advice or criticism like that lightly. It's it's

1056
00:51:58,920 --> 00:52:02,960
Speaker 3: always a very sticky, sicky I think conversation when it

1057
00:52:03,000 --> 00:52:05,720
Speaker 3: comes to friends and boyfriends, because we all know bitches

1058
00:52:05,760 --> 00:52:08,080
Speaker 3: go to the moon and back for a nigga that

1059
00:52:08,120 --> 00:52:11,160
Speaker 3: they like. I know he said that, but that's not

1060
00:52:11,200 --> 00:52:13,920
Speaker 3: really what he said. I lie, he said it differently.

1061
00:52:14,560 --> 00:52:16,880
Speaker 3: I was just mad. I was just mad at that time.

1062
00:52:17,000 --> 00:52:18,560
Speaker 3: I didn't tell you all the gig. She didn't call

1063
00:52:18,600 --> 00:52:26,879
Speaker 3: me a bitch. He just said I was. I was

1064
00:52:26,920 --> 00:52:29,239
Speaker 3: acting like a bitch, which I was different. I was

1065
00:52:29,320 --> 00:52:31,640
Speaker 3: kind of action. I was even though he cheated, you know,

1066
00:52:31,719 --> 00:52:33,279
Speaker 3: I was kind of like a bitch that whole time

1067
00:52:33,400 --> 00:52:34,040
Speaker 3: to everybody.

1068
00:52:34,080 --> 00:52:39,319
Speaker 2: So it wasn't like it was true. So yeah, anyway.

1069
00:52:40,239 --> 00:52:46,960
Speaker 3: Oh my goodness, do we have affirmation? Huh? Do we

1070
00:52:46,960 --> 00:52:50,600
Speaker 3: have affirmation? An affirmation? Do we haven't?

1071
00:52:50,600 --> 00:52:53,399
Speaker 2: After an affirmation from anyone in the YouTube live, does

1072
00:52:53,440 --> 00:52:57,600
Speaker 2: anybody have an affirmation that they love to share that

1073
00:52:57,640 --> 00:52:59,959
Speaker 2: we can share with the trial.

1074
00:53:00,040 --> 00:53:05,239
Speaker 3: I should be something about body positivity, since we're talking

1075
00:53:05,280 --> 00:53:07,239
Speaker 3: about loving our bodies.

1076
00:53:11,800 --> 00:53:14,600
Speaker 2: I love my body, thicker thin, I love my body.

1077
00:53:20,320 --> 00:53:21,560
Speaker 2: She's always gonna win.

1078
00:53:22,960 --> 00:53:31,560
Speaker 3: The Oh my god, wait, I can't remember that. I

1079
00:53:31,640 --> 00:53:35,400
Speaker 3: love my body with it. I am respected and well protected.

1080
00:53:35,800 --> 00:53:38,959
Speaker 3: I am respected and well protected.

1081
00:53:39,040 --> 00:53:40,080
Speaker 2: Shout out to Amirah.

1082
00:53:40,239 --> 00:53:40,759
Speaker 3: I love that.

1083
00:53:40,960 --> 00:53:44,360
Speaker 2: Thank you for sharing that I am respected and well protected.

1084
00:53:44,760 --> 00:53:47,200
Speaker 2: She got another good win and can I Kendrick? Wait,

1085
00:53:48,040 --> 00:53:52,320
Speaker 2: actually that was Cassandra. Cassandra, Thank you, Cassandra. Kendrick Lamar's

1086
00:53:52,360 --> 00:53:54,439
Speaker 2: affirmation has been I deserve it all.

1087
00:53:56,120 --> 00:53:59,360
Speaker 3: I deserve it all. That's that's a fact. I do

1088
00:53:59,480 --> 00:54:02,399
Speaker 3: deserve it all. Like, show me how good it can get.

1089
00:54:05,080 --> 00:54:12,640
Speaker 3: They've been showing it. Is it tarot tyme? It is terotyme?

1090
00:54:23,960 --> 00:54:25,160
Speaker 3: Pulled the judgment card.

1091
00:54:27,440 --> 00:54:32,440
Speaker 2: This sounds heavy, but actually it looks it looks happy.

1092
00:54:33,520 --> 00:54:42,680
Speaker 3: It's judgment rebirth, inner calling absolution. It says, the judgment

1093
00:54:42,800 --> 00:54:46,319
Speaker 3: card is calling you to rise and rise up and

1094
00:54:46,360 --> 00:54:49,480
Speaker 3: embrace a higher level of consciousness for the service of

1095
00:54:49,520 --> 00:54:53,360
Speaker 3: your highest good. You're experiencing a spiritual awakening and realizing

1096
00:54:53,360 --> 00:54:56,360
Speaker 3: that you were destined for so much more. This is

1097
00:54:56,400 --> 00:54:59,080
Speaker 3: your cosmic up leveling. You hear the call and are

1098
00:54:59,120 --> 00:55:02,560
Speaker 3: ready to act. Tune into a higher frequency, Let go

1099
00:55:02,640 --> 00:55:05,239
Speaker 3: of your old your old self, and step into this

1100
00:55:05,400 --> 00:55:08,359
Speaker 3: newest version of who you really are. The judgment card

1101
00:55:08,440 --> 00:55:11,080
Speaker 3: often indicates that you need to make a life changing decision,

1102
00:55:12,160 --> 00:55:15,160
Speaker 3: but unlike those associated with the logical justice card, the

1103
00:55:15,200 --> 00:55:18,120
Speaker 3: decision requires a blend of intuition and intellect. You may

1104
00:55:18,160 --> 00:55:20,960
Speaker 3: be at a crosswords, aware that any choice you make

1105
00:55:20,960 --> 00:55:24,200
Speaker 3: will bring a significant change with long lasting effects. Tune

1106
00:55:24,200 --> 00:55:26,640
Speaker 3: into your higher self, trust your judgment, and know you

1107
00:55:26,680 --> 00:55:29,360
Speaker 3: are on the right path. If you still need clarity

1108
00:55:29,360 --> 00:55:32,399
Speaker 3: on the situation, look to your past and life, your

1109
00:55:32,440 --> 00:55:36,359
Speaker 3: past and life lessons to guide you. It pops up

1110
00:55:36,360 --> 00:55:39,759
Speaker 3: in the taro when you're reaching a significant stage in

1111
00:55:39,800 --> 00:55:45,000
Speaker 3: your journey. Beautiful, that sounds that sounds great.

1112
00:55:45,239 --> 00:55:48,280
Speaker 2: Yeah, the judgment doesn't have to be bad. It's really

1113
00:55:48,320 --> 00:55:51,239
Speaker 2: it's like a deep dive into what is next, what

1114
00:55:51,320 --> 00:55:51,800
Speaker 2: you deserve.

1115
00:55:52,320 --> 00:55:55,440
Speaker 3: Leveling up and being prepared and like also accepting it.

1116
00:55:55,480 --> 00:55:57,760
Speaker 3: You know, sometimes I think we know shit is coming

1117
00:55:57,800 --> 00:56:01,120
Speaker 3: and we resist instead of just flowing with whatever like

1118
00:56:01,160 --> 00:56:04,160
Speaker 3: your body is telling you just really checking in, Like

1119
00:56:05,040 --> 00:56:09,920
Speaker 3: do I need to stop smoking weed? So yeah, I

1120
00:56:09,960 --> 00:56:10,880
Speaker 3: fuck with the judgment.

1121
00:56:11,760 --> 00:56:18,960
Speaker 2: Ye, well does that conclude this episode?

1122
00:56:20,520 --> 00:56:24,719
Speaker 3: I just want to say before we conclude the episode,

1123
00:56:24,960 --> 00:56:27,799
Speaker 3: I miss Costa Rica. I want to shout out to

1124
00:56:27,960 --> 00:56:33,000
Speaker 3: all eleven women that joined us. A couple of weeks ago.

1125
00:56:33,480 --> 00:56:38,319
Speaker 3: We had some really really really really good times and

1126
00:56:38,440 --> 00:56:42,000
Speaker 3: like it was small, it was intimate, we was naked.

1127
00:56:42,160 --> 00:56:47,359
Speaker 3: We went on some really deep psilocybin journeys. I think

1128
00:56:47,360 --> 00:56:49,239
Speaker 3: there was like a lot of lessons, a lot of

1129
00:56:49,280 --> 00:56:53,279
Speaker 3: like I just learned so much about women again, you know,

1130
00:56:53,440 --> 00:56:56,840
Speaker 3: and I'm just like we are so dynamic, and we

1131
00:56:56,880 --> 00:57:01,640
Speaker 3: are so resilient, and when we have space to just

1132
00:57:02,320 --> 00:57:04,520
Speaker 3: be how beautiful it is. And like again seeing the

1133
00:57:04,560 --> 00:57:09,160
Speaker 3: transformation of women, like starting to finish the relationships that

1134
00:57:09,320 --> 00:57:12,080
Speaker 3: like that that grow. And then I just want to

1135
00:57:12,080 --> 00:57:15,560
Speaker 3: tell one story. So we go out the last night

1136
00:57:16,720 --> 00:57:19,040
Speaker 3: we always go out to dinner. You know, we're all

1137
00:57:19,120 --> 00:57:21,120
Speaker 3: wearing like our creams and our whites, so we're looking

1138
00:57:21,200 --> 00:57:24,160
Speaker 3: like a posse and shit, like some fine bitches. And

1139
00:57:25,680 --> 00:57:28,640
Speaker 3: we walk to the nearest like bar and like literally

1140
00:57:28,640 --> 00:57:30,880
Speaker 3: like a parade. We're like dancing on the way. There's music,

1141
00:57:31,120 --> 00:57:34,160
Speaker 3: there's like live music. We get to the bar. It's

1142
00:57:34,240 --> 00:57:37,880
Speaker 3: lady's night. They're serving some disgusting horn fu cauld drink

1143
00:57:37,920 --> 00:57:43,160
Speaker 3: that nobody should drink, and so we start dancing. It's

1144
00:57:43,240 --> 00:57:46,960
Speaker 3: like outdoors, it's warm, all the girls are there, we're

1145
00:57:47,000 --> 00:57:51,120
Speaker 3: all dancing, and suddenly it starts to like rain. I'm like,

1146
00:57:51,240 --> 00:57:55,120
Speaker 3: oh yeah, babies, like feeling extra sexy. It's already like moist,

1147
00:57:55,200 --> 00:57:57,560
Speaker 3: but now it's really moist, and you know, everybody has

1148
00:57:57,560 --> 00:57:59,360
Speaker 3: a protective style, so no one's really about their hair.

1149
00:57:59,440 --> 00:58:04,360
Speaker 3: Everyone's just like wh So we're outside dancing and we're

1150
00:58:04,400 --> 00:58:06,280
Speaker 3: like the only people dancing because we're always the only

1151
00:58:06,280 --> 00:58:08,080
Speaker 3: people dancing. It must have been kind of early. The

1152
00:58:08,200 --> 00:58:10,760
Speaker 3: DJ is like rocky and hard, and so all the

1153
00:58:10,800 --> 00:58:13,520
Speaker 3: good songs are coming on. And then Rihanna Shine like

1154
00:58:13,680 --> 00:58:17,040
Speaker 3: bright like a diamond comes on, so we're like, we're beautiful,

1155
00:58:17,080 --> 00:58:20,440
Speaker 3: like diamonds in the sky, like it's full, like the

1156
00:58:20,480 --> 00:58:23,520
Speaker 3: moon is popping, and then we say sky and then

1157
00:58:23,600 --> 00:58:26,240
Speaker 3: like pop pop pop, the electricity goes out and it's black.

1158
00:58:26,560 --> 00:58:31,439
Speaker 3: The music stops and we're like and then we all

1159
00:58:31,480 --> 00:58:35,520
Speaker 3: finished the song. A cappella and shinlight like a diamond

1160
00:58:35,600 --> 00:58:38,120
Speaker 3: like the whole club and it's like a music video

1161
00:58:40,360 --> 00:58:43,280
Speaker 3: and like it's like as if dancing in the rain

1162
00:58:43,320 --> 00:58:46,320
Speaker 3: with your homegirls isn't magical enough, then God's like, oh

1163
00:58:46,320 --> 00:58:47,440
Speaker 3: watch this, you witches.

1164
00:58:47,920 --> 00:58:48,120
Speaker 2: You know.

1165
00:58:48,240 --> 00:58:51,000
Speaker 3: It's like it was like literally when the electricity in

1166
00:58:51,040 --> 00:58:53,520
Speaker 3: our bodies and then the group got like so at.

1167
00:58:53,480 --> 00:58:56,000
Speaker 2: The highest point, the high it was the highest point,

1168
00:58:56,200 --> 00:58:57,120
Speaker 2: like the climax.

1169
00:58:57,200 --> 00:58:59,240
Speaker 3: It's like we're it was like bursting the inside and

1170
00:58:59,280 --> 00:59:01,000
Speaker 3: then it bursted.

1171
00:59:01,280 --> 00:59:06,360
Speaker 2: The whole power in the whole city went out, the

1172
00:59:06,440 --> 00:59:07,880
Speaker 2: whole for hours.

1173
00:59:08,080 --> 00:59:10,640
Speaker 3: It still chills because I knew it was us, Like

1174
00:59:10,680 --> 00:59:11,720
Speaker 3: I was like, oh, we did this.

1175
00:59:11,680 --> 00:59:14,200
Speaker 2: Because we had we had done and we had unlocked

1176
00:59:14,280 --> 00:59:16,000
Speaker 2: so much up until that point.

1177
00:59:16,080 --> 00:59:17,560
Speaker 3: At the retreat, we had like.

1178
00:59:17,840 --> 00:59:21,680
Speaker 2: Released, we had made space, we had connected, women had

1179
00:59:21,760 --> 00:59:26,600
Speaker 2: like just just binded in ways that because the group

1180
00:59:26,680 --> 00:59:29,440
Speaker 2: was so intimate like that. I don't know if we've

1181
00:59:29,520 --> 00:59:33,000
Speaker 2: I've seen before. It was just like a really beautiful experience.

1182
00:59:33,440 --> 00:59:36,240
Speaker 2: So I felt like we for sure. I knew when

1183
00:59:36,240 --> 00:59:38,360
Speaker 2: that happened. I said we did.

1184
00:59:38,480 --> 00:59:40,000
Speaker 3: I was like, look what the fuck we did?

1185
00:59:40,840 --> 00:59:43,000
Speaker 2: And I think it's so important and because like that's

1186
00:59:43,000 --> 00:59:45,680
Speaker 2: not the first time i've we've we've experienced something like that.

1187
00:59:45,840 --> 00:59:48,560
Speaker 2: But I think it's so important for women to experience

1188
00:59:48,640 --> 00:59:51,120
Speaker 2: those things and have like you're in the group and

1189
00:59:51,160 --> 00:59:56,480
Speaker 2: everyone experience everyone knows you know, like it's it's important.

1190
00:59:56,640 --> 00:59:59,040
Speaker 3: I think sometimes when you're like amongst a group of people,

1191
00:59:59,080 --> 01:00:01,080
Speaker 3: are you just like in the every you question your

1192
01:00:01,480 --> 01:00:05,480
Speaker 3: know again, your intuition, your intuition, your power, like literally

1193
01:00:05,480 --> 01:00:10,440
Speaker 3: how energetically our inside affects our outside world, and like

1194
01:00:10,640 --> 01:00:12,600
Speaker 3: when you're bursting on the inside and you're in tune

1195
01:00:12,600 --> 01:00:16,160
Speaker 3: with your pleasure, especially in a collective space, especially as women.

1196
01:00:16,640 --> 01:00:19,200
Speaker 3: We had cultivated this like energy together as a group,

1197
01:00:19,240 --> 01:00:21,600
Speaker 3: and I could feel it like running up my body

1198
01:00:21,680 --> 01:00:24,680
Speaker 3: even during like us dancing in the rain and singing together,

1199
01:00:24,920 --> 01:00:27,480
Speaker 3: and at this very moment like it to burst, Like

1200
01:00:27,600 --> 01:00:31,840
Speaker 3: it really was magical. And I think sometimes you underestimate

1201
01:00:31,920 --> 01:00:35,480
Speaker 3: or you like brush off magical experiences as coincidences, but

1202
01:00:35,480 --> 01:00:37,720
Speaker 3: when you're in a group like that, it's like almost impossible.

1203
01:00:38,040 --> 01:00:40,480
Speaker 3: So it was just like we weren't even there very long,

1204
01:00:40,520 --> 01:00:41,960
Speaker 3: but it was like the pinnacle of the night, the

1205
01:00:42,080 --> 01:00:45,600
Speaker 3: ending of the trip, and then we went home, no

1206
01:00:45,680 --> 01:00:49,000
Speaker 3: electricity in the whole property, but we had candles, so

1207
01:00:49,000 --> 01:00:51,720
Speaker 3: we lit a bunch of tea candles. We had our speakers,

1208
01:00:51,880 --> 01:00:55,160
Speaker 3: charged our downloaded plist, we had downloaded playlists, and we

1209
01:00:55,360 --> 01:00:58,640
Speaker 3: just like vibed party to get all the wine all over.

1210
01:00:58,640 --> 01:01:02,080
Speaker 3: Everybody's a room combined, and we just like vibed.

1211
01:01:01,880 --> 01:01:06,320
Speaker 2: In the candlelight in the jungle, like literally only sounds

1212
01:01:06,320 --> 01:01:08,600
Speaker 2: of insects and fucking nature.

1213
01:01:08,840 --> 01:01:11,920
Speaker 3: Yeah, and darkness and like the like the sky is

1214
01:01:12,040 --> 01:01:14,280
Speaker 3: so bright and lit up and it was just like

1215
01:01:14,560 --> 01:01:16,440
Speaker 3: titties out just sisterhood.

1216
01:01:16,480 --> 01:01:16,680
Speaker 4: You know.

1217
01:01:16,800 --> 01:01:18,960
Speaker 3: It just felt really good. Every time I go, I'm

1218
01:01:18,960 --> 01:01:20,480
Speaker 3: like I always say this, I'm like, oh, this is

1219
01:01:20,520 --> 01:01:23,720
Speaker 3: how we're meant to exist. This is how women once existed.

1220
01:01:23,720 --> 01:01:26,640
Speaker 3: And like in the jungle and tribes like healing each

1221
01:01:26,680 --> 01:01:28,680
Speaker 3: other and like connecting with each other and just being

1222
01:01:28,720 --> 01:01:32,000
Speaker 3: so clear about their pleasure and releasing and supporting each

1223
01:01:32,000 --> 01:01:36,840
Speaker 3: other and the releases and it was just magical and yeah,

1224
01:01:36,920 --> 01:01:39,720
Speaker 3: I'm really I'm proud. I'm proud of what we've cultivated

1225
01:01:39,760 --> 01:01:43,400
Speaker 3: and just shout out to all the women who like

1226
01:01:43,480 --> 01:01:46,000
Speaker 3: choose themselves and choose to come even when it's not

1227
01:01:46,080 --> 01:01:48,560
Speaker 3: convenient or does it feel like it's convenient choose to

1228
01:01:48,640 --> 01:01:53,080
Speaker 3: choose themselves because the retreat is motherfucking life changing, you know,

1229
01:01:53,160 --> 01:01:55,440
Speaker 3: Like I said, we saw Dutch. There's always a pleasure

1230
01:01:55,480 --> 01:01:58,200
Speaker 3: to see who moved there, bought a house two years

1231
01:01:58,200 --> 01:02:00,479
Speaker 3: ago from coming to the Good Ree Retreat, their first

1232
01:02:00,520 --> 01:02:03,360
Speaker 3: time coming to Proto. Like it's just some really magical

1233
01:02:03,400 --> 01:02:06,360
Speaker 3: shit goes down when you're in the jungle. So shout

1234
01:02:06,360 --> 01:02:10,720
Speaker 3: out to Retreat fourteen, baby, shout out to Retreat fourteen.

1235
01:02:11,200 --> 01:02:14,600
Speaker 3: That was that was really special. Speaking of the.

1236
01:02:14,560 --> 01:02:17,520
Speaker 2: Retreat, I almost fucking forgot give away. We're giving away

1237
01:02:17,520 --> 01:02:22,240
Speaker 2: a spot today. We're literally giving away a whole free

1238
01:02:22,280 --> 01:02:23,680
Speaker 2: spot to the Goodbvibe Retreat.

1239
01:02:23,920 --> 01:02:26,360
Speaker 3: This is like my I loved, I love doing this.

1240
01:02:26,520 --> 01:02:28,640
Speaker 3: Like we really try to make it like if I

1241
01:02:28,640 --> 01:02:31,640
Speaker 3: could give away the whole retreat forever, like I really

1242
01:02:31,720 --> 01:02:32,919
Speaker 3: wish we could. I could.

1243
01:02:33,040 --> 01:02:35,640
Speaker 2: It's like just whoever has the brand, get the brand

1244
01:02:35,680 --> 01:02:38,600
Speaker 2: to pay for the bitches and then y'all, y'all can.

1245
01:02:38,440 --> 01:02:41,840
Speaker 3: Come, because everybody really should. Expecien have to do. You

1246
01:02:41,920 --> 01:02:44,400
Speaker 3: have to, You have to. It's never too late, it's

1247
01:02:44,440 --> 01:02:46,439
Speaker 3: never too early, doesn't matter how old you are, where

1248
01:02:46,440 --> 01:02:49,240
Speaker 3: you're at how many kids? No kids, It's just like

1249
01:02:49,520 --> 01:02:51,960
Speaker 3: a woman's like an experienced women should have.

1250
01:02:53,960 --> 01:02:56,720
Speaker 2: Well, one woman is about to have this experience.

1251
01:02:56,760 --> 01:02:59,880
Speaker 3: Okay, Well tell us who it is.

1252
01:03:00,200 --> 01:03:03,480
Speaker 2: This is for our Costa Rica July thirty one through

1253
01:03:03,520 --> 01:03:04,760
Speaker 2: August fifth retreat.

1254
01:03:05,120 --> 01:03:07,320
Speaker 3: And this was from the patri This is from Patreon

1255
01:03:07,440 --> 01:03:08,600
Speaker 3: only Patreon.

1256
01:03:08,360 --> 01:03:10,760
Speaker 2: So all everyone who joined Patreon, shout out to all

1257
01:03:10,800 --> 01:03:15,400
Speaker 2: of our new patrons. You entered this giveaway, and now

1258
01:03:15,720 --> 01:03:23,600
Speaker 2: we shall see who is the winner. It's a spin wheel,

1259
01:03:33,840 --> 01:03:39,680
Speaker 2: Charis B. Charise B, you are the winner of the

1260
01:03:39,680 --> 01:03:44,040
Speaker 2: Good Vibe Retreat giveaway. Congratulations, which your life is about

1261
01:03:44,080 --> 01:03:46,280
Speaker 2: to go to the next level. You're about to expand

1262
01:03:46,280 --> 01:03:48,920
Speaker 2: in ways you didn't even think possible, and you're about

1263
01:03:48,920 --> 01:03:51,280
Speaker 2: to be part of a tribe that is forever. So

1264
01:03:51,440 --> 01:03:53,400
Speaker 2: I'm so excited Charise that we get to take care

1265
01:03:53,400 --> 01:03:53,680
Speaker 2: of you.

1266
01:03:53,800 --> 01:03:54,640
Speaker 3: Spiritual Sorority.

1267
01:03:54,640 --> 01:04:01,240
Speaker 2: Baby, Spiritual Sorority. Make sure Charisse you email social at

1268
01:04:01,280 --> 01:04:06,400
Speaker 2: Good Moms, Bad Choices dot com to claim your free retreat.

1269
01:04:08,320 --> 01:04:09,240
Speaker 3: Wow, I'm excited.

1270
01:04:09,360 --> 01:04:15,760
Speaker 2: That was fun. That was fun, right, yeah, yeah, I

1271
01:04:15,760 --> 01:04:17,880
Speaker 2: can't wait to go back to that retreat. And we

1272
01:04:17,960 --> 01:04:20,640
Speaker 2: have a few more spots left to our Jamaica retreat.

1273
01:04:21,440 --> 01:04:22,480
Speaker 3: We have just opened up.

1274
01:04:22,600 --> 01:04:24,800
Speaker 2: Yeah, we had some last minute cancelations. It was totally

1275
01:04:24,840 --> 01:04:26,880
Speaker 2: sold out. We have two spots left, So if you

1276
01:04:26,920 --> 01:04:29,640
Speaker 2: want to come to Jamaica for four to twenty, it's

1277
01:04:29,640 --> 01:04:30,280
Speaker 2: our gone just.

1278
01:04:30,240 --> 01:04:31,080
Speaker 3: Got a retreat.

1279
01:04:31,440 --> 01:04:39,120
Speaker 2: It's very cannabis friendly focused, still gottess vibes, exploration, beautiful waterfalls. Uh,

1280
01:04:39,400 --> 01:04:41,680
Speaker 2: there's like this little there's like this fucking place where

1281
01:04:41,840 --> 01:04:43,480
Speaker 2: there's a bar in the middle of the ocean that

1282
01:04:43,520 --> 01:04:44,080
Speaker 2: we're going to.

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Speaker 3: I love. I love the middle of the ocean bar.

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Speaker 2: You know, there's very Mermaid. There's a lot of things

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Speaker 2: that we're going to do there. Leila is going to

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Speaker 2: be giving her one on one contra sessions, I do

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Speaker 2: my reiki sound healing.

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Speaker 3: There's a lot of like it's so beautiful. We did

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Speaker 3: a lot of one on ones in this last trip.

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Speaker 3: And I know we're both like, oh shit, we're gonna

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Speaker 3: be We're gonna be really doing it. But you know,

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Speaker 3: it's like there's since we've been practicing and like exercising

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Speaker 3: our like our tools and our gifts, it's so nice

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Speaker 3: to be able to like gift it more and like

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Speaker 3: give the gift of reiki and tantra and energy medicine

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Speaker 3: to like the girls that come and have one on

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Speaker 3: one time. So I'm excited. It feels really good.

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Speaker 2: I felt super activated on this trip in my reiki

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Speaker 2: energy and just the gifts, and I'm excited to open

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Speaker 2: up my practice a little bit. I really enjoy like

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Speaker 2: having it at the retreat and it is a lot

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Speaker 2: of energy, but it's such a beautiful way and delicate

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Speaker 2: way to move energy through your body and heal and

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Speaker 2: it's very powerful. So anyway, we have some spots left

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Speaker 2: at the at the August four to twenty retreat. So

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Speaker 2: if you are a smoker leg us and you like

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Speaker 2: to smoke them big blants.

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Speaker 3: Legous and Eata Jamaican jerk chicken and yeah, maybe.

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Speaker 2: Get we gotta get the bitches massage by the We

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Speaker 2: gotta get them. We gotta get there somehow. Waterfalls, the waterfalls,

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Speaker 2: you know what I'm talking about.

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Speaker 3: Going to figure it out, even if we have to

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Speaker 3: drive four hours.

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Speaker 2: This is very important. I think they would understand. I

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Speaker 2: think everyone would be on board for that because what

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Speaker 2: I've seen on Instagram is pretty powerful stuff.

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Speaker 3: You know, is that Africa that we're seeing No right,

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Speaker 3: it's make a mud right, yep, we gotta figure it out. Well.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm live.

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Speaker 3: Been so good.

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Speaker 4: Can't you tell? I went through a drought. That's until

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Speaker 4: I found out well may might have been known earth.

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Speaker 4: I used to be broken tail now got the blues

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Speaker 4: in to like Beyonce Jasell, throat shots or popping his cow.

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Speaker 2: Were in our voices.

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Speaker 4: Patriarchy kept it in the box to exploit its women

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Speaker 4: put the pee and power. So what's pointless? They want

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Speaker 4: me to be good So I made bad choices. Bad mom,

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Speaker 4: not a bad mom, but a bad mom. Itter's in

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Speaker 4: on put cannabis in their bath. Bon walked in bosses

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Speaker 4: cap and I blew his cat ball tied dog.

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Speaker 3: Now I'm immune to the cat called.

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Speaker 4: Her being no waisted straight to it like a dollar sign. Mother,

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Speaker 4: rent the lover when so what it is like a

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Speaker 4: water sign where you're renting the winter essential will when

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Speaker 4: the summer time.

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