WEBVTT - Conversations with Me, Myself, and I 0:00:02.360 --> 0:00:06.880 This is Conversations with Olivia Jade and I Heart Radio Podcast. 0:00:12.520 --> 0:00:16.040 Hi everybody, it's Olivia Jade. Welcome back to another episode 0:00:16.040 --> 0:00:20.080 of Conversations. Today's episode is a little bit different considering 0:00:20.160 --> 0:00:23.759 I'm solo and I won't be interviewing anybody, but I 0:00:23.840 --> 0:00:26.520 kind of wanted to take this chance in this UM 0:00:26.560 --> 0:00:30.920 episode to have you guys interviewed me. So I took 0:00:30.960 --> 0:00:34.280 it to Instagram and I asked you guys some questions 0:00:34.320 --> 0:00:36.200 and I just want to give you a little life 0:00:36.280 --> 0:00:40.000 update as well, so we can just hop right into it. 0:00:40.040 --> 0:00:42.400 I don't have anybody else to introduce accept me, so 0:00:42.440 --> 0:00:45.480 I hope you guys enjoy and I'm going to dive 0:00:45.800 --> 0:00:48.839 right into it first. By starting out, I want to 0:00:48.880 --> 0:00:52.000 say I dyed my hair red. And I've been getting 0:00:52.080 --> 0:00:55.440 so many questions about like, how do you decide to 0:00:55.480 --> 0:00:58.200 die it? Read what inspoted you go to? And I 0:00:58.200 --> 0:01:01.680 actually think it's really funny because I brought my mom's 0:01:01.720 --> 0:01:05.400 photo from when she was on Full House to um 0:01:05.440 --> 0:01:07.200 my hair stylist, and I was like, can you just 0:01:07.280 --> 0:01:09.920 make it look like that? And the reason for that 0:01:10.040 --> 0:01:13.039 was is because I've never touched my hair before, I've 0:01:13.080 --> 0:01:15.560 like highlighted it a little bit here and there, but 0:01:16.200 --> 0:01:20.880 never like a full onde change new colors. So I 0:01:20.920 --> 0:01:25.600 was really nervous, and I was thinking to myself, Um, 0:01:25.680 --> 0:01:27.360 you know, I kind of look like my mom. I 0:01:27.400 --> 0:01:29.800 see a lot of differences, but everybody seems to think 0:01:29.880 --> 0:01:32.400 we look alike. So I was like, everybody says I 0:01:32.480 --> 0:01:34.479 look like her, so I'm going to dye my hair. 0:01:34.600 --> 0:01:37.679 Maybe I should just diet of colors she's had, so 0:01:37.760 --> 0:01:40.679 at least I know, like, okay, I could maybe possibly 0:01:40.720 --> 0:01:42.440 pull it off, because it was like my biggest fear 0:01:42.480 --> 0:01:45.360 I was going to diet and despise how I looked. 0:01:45.720 --> 0:01:48.040 But I actually really like it. It's different, it's fun. 0:01:48.320 --> 0:01:50.560 I feel like I kind of feel like it's like 0:01:50.560 --> 0:01:54.520 an alter ego of mine now, so I'm enjoying it. Um. 0:01:54.600 --> 0:01:57.160 But that's like my little life update on that, which 0:01:57.600 --> 0:02:02.520 is not super interesting. Um. And I also have seen 0:02:02.560 --> 0:02:06.280 a lot of questions on my Instagram that some are 0:02:06.360 --> 0:02:08.920 really really great questions that I think I think about 0:02:09.000 --> 0:02:12.200 often and things i'd love to talk about, but I'm 0:02:12.200 --> 0:02:15.560 always kind of fearful to speak about just because I 0:02:15.600 --> 0:02:20.440 never wanted to be misconstrued or taken the wrong way. Um, 0:02:20.480 --> 0:02:22.880 but I also know that I've said this from the 0:02:22.960 --> 0:02:25.520 very beginning of when I started this podcast, is that 0:02:25.560 --> 0:02:28.799 it's like being vulnerable and open, and this is my 0:02:28.880 --> 0:02:32.400 podcast after Also, the listeners hopefully are people that have 0:02:32.480 --> 0:02:34.880 either been with me for a while or care to 0:02:35.000 --> 0:02:38.880 hear what I have to say. Um, but I want 0:02:38.880 --> 0:02:41.280 to start out a little bit more general because I 0:02:41.320 --> 0:02:44.920 got so many questions about like my workout routine and 0:02:44.960 --> 0:02:47.079 how I lost all this weight and how many calories 0:02:47.120 --> 0:02:49.079 and how I don't compare my body on social media 0:02:49.240 --> 0:02:51.800 and some of these questions the way they're phrased, it 0:02:51.880 --> 0:02:55.880 makes me realize, like how consumed all of us are 0:02:56.040 --> 0:02:59.640 in social media and comparing ourselves to other people. And 0:02:59.720 --> 0:03:03.040 I us want to remind everybody that's listening that and 0:03:03.080 --> 0:03:06.600 take it for me. Somebody who's on social media posting 0:03:06.600 --> 0:03:09.280 their best moments getting the comments that are like, how 0:03:09.320 --> 0:03:11.400 do you look like that? And sure, I have my 0:03:11.440 --> 0:03:14.000 good days, but also you need to remember that these 0:03:14.000 --> 0:03:18.000 are all angles and our best moments and our cutest photos, 0:03:18.120 --> 0:03:21.160 and my tennis moments and my favorite outfits and the 0:03:21.200 --> 0:03:25.520 most flattering bikinis, and um, although I do love to 0:03:25.560 --> 0:03:27.560 work out and eat right and take care of my 0:03:27.639 --> 0:03:31.399 body more so for my mental at this point. Um, 0:03:31.440 --> 0:03:34.320 I just I think it's really important that everybody reminds 0:03:34.320 --> 0:03:36.800 themselves we're all kind of living in this fantasy world 0:03:36.800 --> 0:03:40.520 where we see everybody every second of every day looking 0:03:40.600 --> 0:03:42.920 their best, and it gives us all these like false 0:03:43.000 --> 0:03:45.160 ideas in our head that we're not good enough, which 0:03:45.200 --> 0:03:48.560 is just so not the case. So if anybody can 0:03:48.600 --> 0:03:50.040 preach it to you, I hope you can take it 0:03:50.080 --> 0:03:52.960 from me, somebody who post my best moments. And then 0:03:53.000 --> 0:03:55.400 also when I think about that, I feel guilty because 0:03:55.400 --> 0:03:57.880 I'm like, well, I don't want people to get the 0:03:57.920 --> 0:04:00.000 wrong idea that this is what I look like all 0:04:00.080 --> 0:04:04.240 the time or I'm always feeling this good. Um. I 0:04:04.320 --> 0:04:09.720 also think that social media can dehumanize like a lot 0:04:09.760 --> 0:04:12.640 of people sometimes and make you feel like the people 0:04:12.680 --> 0:04:17.280 you're following aren't really real. And I remember when I 0:04:17.320 --> 0:04:20.720 was on I had lost a bunch of weight, like 0:04:20.880 --> 0:04:24.320 right before the summer of last year, and then throughout 0:04:24.320 --> 0:04:26.839 the summer, I think I gave like ten or fifteen pounds, 0:04:26.880 --> 0:04:30.119 which really isn't a big deal to like most people, 0:04:30.160 --> 0:04:34.480 i'd hope, Um, But I remember getting a brand deal 0:04:34.720 --> 0:04:37.480 and it was like these bikini posts that I had 0:04:37.480 --> 0:04:39.279 to do and I was freaking out because I was 0:04:39.320 --> 0:04:41.200 so insecure about it. I was like, I don't want 0:04:41.200 --> 0:04:43.000 to do this. I don't feel the best right now. 0:04:43.440 --> 0:04:46.120 I don't look like how I was posting on social 0:04:46.120 --> 0:04:48.960 media the last like three months anymore. And it's like 0:04:49.400 --> 0:04:51.640 you get so in your head about everything, and I 0:04:51.680 --> 0:04:54.760 just want people to be reminded constantly that like everybody 0:04:54.839 --> 0:04:58.760 has um I don't know, just their sensitivities and stuff 0:04:58.800 --> 0:05:01.200 that you're so consumed with and concerned about that other 0:05:01.240 --> 0:05:05.240 people don't get to see. And I remember also, I 0:05:05.320 --> 0:05:08.279 was going on Dancing with the Stars right after all 0:05:08.320 --> 0:05:10.120 of this, and I was like, people are going to 0:05:10.240 --> 0:05:14.039 think I'm like lying all my social media because again 0:05:14.080 --> 0:05:16.360 it was posting my best moments when I felt like 0:05:16.560 --> 0:05:19.440 my hottest version, really really good. And I don't want 0:05:19.440 --> 0:05:21.080 this to get twisted. It's not to say if you 0:05:21.120 --> 0:05:23.440 gain weight that you're not hot. That's not at all 0:05:23.440 --> 0:05:25.640 what I'm saying. But it is like I'm going on 0:05:25.760 --> 0:05:28.760 National TV in one version of myself and then all 0:05:28.839 --> 0:05:31.120 my Instagram I look like a different version of myself, 0:05:31.120 --> 0:05:33.640 and that can be really really tricky for a for 0:05:33.720 --> 0:05:36.359 somebody who's doing it themselves because you feel guilt and 0:05:36.400 --> 0:05:38.760 you feel bad for portraying this image, but also to 0:05:38.839 --> 0:05:42.599 my followers, it's also not fair. So I just want 0:05:42.600 --> 0:05:47.320 to remind you that, um, you're seeing everybody's best moments 0:05:47.320 --> 0:05:50.760 and you really do mean that. But um, in terms 0:05:50.800 --> 0:05:54.000 of the workout questions and how many calories I eat 0:05:54.080 --> 0:05:56.719 and stuff like that, it's really not for me about 0:05:56.839 --> 0:06:00.320 counting my calories or pushing myself in the gym to 0:06:00.600 --> 0:06:02.240 where I feel like I'm going to throw up and die. 0:06:02.720 --> 0:06:05.159 If you want to know my real secret, this is 0:06:05.200 --> 0:06:08.960 what I've seen do wonders for my body. This is 0:06:09.000 --> 0:06:12.359 how I got in probably like the best shape of 0:06:12.400 --> 0:06:15.919 my life, um, about a year ago, and this is 0:06:15.960 --> 0:06:17.800 what I've been doing for the last month again, and 0:06:17.839 --> 0:06:20.279 I really see a difference. And I've talked about it 0:06:20.320 --> 0:06:22.600 on my YouTube a little bit before, but it's this 0:06:22.720 --> 0:06:27.440 exercise called twelve three thirty which was created by Lauren 0:06:27.440 --> 0:06:31.839 Giraldo and she's awesome, But basically, you just put your 0:06:31.880 --> 0:06:34.440 treadmill at an incline of twelve, you walk at a 0:06:34.480 --> 0:06:38.120 speed of three for thirty minutes. I sometimes will do 0:06:38.200 --> 0:06:40.400 like a ten minute app work out, I'll do like 0:06:40.480 --> 0:06:42.800 a ten minute but workout after it. But that's pretty 0:06:42.880 --> 0:06:46.160 much all I do. I also love Sammy Clark's workouts 0:06:46.200 --> 0:06:49.400 on her app called form Um. You just sign up, 0:06:49.440 --> 0:06:51.760 but they're all like thirty minute workouts and you normally 0:06:51.760 --> 0:06:54.599 just need like a band or five pound weights and 0:06:54.680 --> 0:06:56.640 you can just do it in your house and those 0:06:56.680 --> 0:07:00.840 are really great and easy. Um, just little things, because 0:07:00.880 --> 0:07:03.240 I feel like the most important thing with working out 0:07:03.360 --> 0:07:08.320 and um like staying consistent with it is finding stuff 0:07:08.360 --> 0:07:11.920 you actually like doing. If you're just working out and 0:07:11.960 --> 0:07:13.640 thinking of it as like, oh, I just want to 0:07:13.680 --> 0:07:17.120 be in this like certain body type or this like whatever, 0:07:17.240 --> 0:07:19.000 you're never going to stick with it because it's going 0:07:19.080 --> 0:07:21.840 to become tortuous, you're going to create negative feelings towards it, 0:07:21.880 --> 0:07:24.360 You're going to correlate it with bad habits and kind 0:07:24.360 --> 0:07:27.520 of unhealthy habits. So I think finding stuff that you like. 0:07:27.760 --> 0:07:30.120 I also really like pilates, which I don't do enough, 0:07:30.200 --> 0:07:34.320 but I do enjoy it. So I think stuff like that. Okay, 0:07:34.480 --> 0:07:37.200 enough about that, now that I got that whole spiel 0:07:37.200 --> 0:07:41.320 out of the way. UM, I think this is another 0:07:41.360 --> 0:07:43.679 great question, and I also want to answer it because 0:07:43.760 --> 0:07:45.760 I have no idea what the answer is, but I 0:07:45.800 --> 0:07:48.720 think we can all relate a little bit, and it's 0:07:48.800 --> 0:07:51.640 best advice for young adults who are struggling to figure 0:07:51.640 --> 0:07:57.640 out what to do career wise. Oh sis, you're telling me, Um, 0:07:57.800 --> 0:08:00.600 I don't know. I don't know, like the opper answer 0:08:00.680 --> 0:08:03.120 to it, I think something that when I talk to people, 0:08:03.240 --> 0:08:07.200 because I feel I feel you, it's really scary, especially 0:08:07.280 --> 0:08:09.560 like for me at least, like just I can only 0:08:09.600 --> 0:08:12.600 speak for myself. I think I started social media and 0:08:12.640 --> 0:08:15.240 YouTube at such a young age before it was really 0:08:15.280 --> 0:08:19.520 a job, and then obviously going through everything um with 0:08:19.560 --> 0:08:22.120 the whole college thing and everything in the media, and 0:08:22.880 --> 0:08:25.920 I feel like after all of that, I'm I'm a 0:08:26.200 --> 0:08:28.560 just I feel like entirely different, but I don't have 0:08:28.680 --> 0:08:31.680 that same like I don't even want to say connection 0:08:31.760 --> 0:08:34.160 with my audience. But I think because I took so 0:08:34.240 --> 0:08:37.320 much time off, it's like I don't even remember what 0:08:37.559 --> 0:08:40.400 like it was like to be that invested in it. 0:08:40.520 --> 0:08:42.760 And I think I'm still struggling to figure that out. 0:08:42.800 --> 0:08:45.960 So I get it, like I do understand being at 0:08:46.000 --> 0:08:48.280 this age where you kind of feel the pressure to 0:08:48.320 --> 0:08:51.720 figure it out and having no idea what the next 0:08:51.840 --> 0:08:55.199 best move is. I think some advice that I hold 0:08:55.320 --> 0:08:57.080 very close to my heart that's been given to me 0:08:57.240 --> 0:09:00.320 is just be patient with yourself. I know that's really afical. 0:09:00.440 --> 0:09:04.040 I also know everybody's in different circumstances, but I think 0:09:04.080 --> 0:09:07.120 just remembering that, like the key word in that question 0:09:07.240 --> 0:09:09.640 is as a young adult, we're still young and we 0:09:09.720 --> 0:09:13.560 have time. And Um, last week's episode I had, or 0:09:13.559 --> 0:09:15.920 maybe it was a few weeks ago now, I had 0:09:16.000 --> 0:09:17.880 Katie Austin on and she was telling me a story 0:09:17.880 --> 0:09:20.560 about her dad where I think it was her dad. Yeah, 0:09:20.679 --> 0:09:23.040 he like figured out what he wanted to do at 0:09:23.200 --> 0:09:26.280 some crazy age like way later in life, he like 0:09:26.400 --> 0:09:28.719 finally figured it out and went back to school. And 0:09:29.200 --> 0:09:31.439 you guys should listen to that episode if you haven't already. 0:09:31.520 --> 0:09:34.760 But um, I think just knowing that, like, you're on 0:09:34.800 --> 0:09:36.480 this path and it's not going to be the same, 0:09:36.520 --> 0:09:38.240 and you've got to not compare yourself to the people 0:09:38.280 --> 0:09:40.640 you see online or the people in your friend groups 0:09:40.880 --> 0:09:44.920 or other family members, because everybody's on their own journey 0:09:45.040 --> 0:09:46.839 and you're going to figure it out at your own time. 0:09:47.320 --> 0:09:51.719 I think though starting and actually actively doing stuff is 0:09:51.760 --> 0:09:54.000 a really good first step. I think if you're just 0:09:54.040 --> 0:09:56.720 sitting around hoping that things are just gonna like fall 0:09:56.720 --> 0:10:00.520 into your lap and come your way, it's probably very 0:10:00.640 --> 0:10:02.640 rare that that will happen. I think you actually have 0:10:02.720 --> 0:10:05.680 to start and pursue something, and if you don't know 0:10:05.760 --> 0:10:08.400 what that is yet, that's okay. But trying different things, 0:10:08.440 --> 0:10:12.360 trying to find your passion, I think is really cool. Um, 0:10:12.400 --> 0:10:14.760 trying to make your passion into some sort of job 0:10:14.840 --> 0:10:17.760 that can create like a reliable income, I think it 0:10:17.840 --> 0:10:20.880 is probably a good first step as well. But I 0:10:20.920 --> 0:10:25.240 think also taking a little pressure off yourself because you're 0:10:25.280 --> 0:10:27.280 young and you're going to figure it out and you're 0:10:27.280 --> 0:10:32.320 not gonna be jobless forever, I promise, UM, So try 0:10:32.360 --> 0:10:35.680 to take a little pressure off yourself. I like this 0:10:35.800 --> 0:10:38.240 question a lot. It says what something people seem to 0:10:38.280 --> 0:10:42.480 misunderstand about you. I'm hesitant to talk about this type 0:10:42.480 --> 0:10:44.400 of stuff because I feel like every time I do, 0:10:45.520 --> 0:10:48.000 and this is not meant to sound arrogant, because it's 0:10:48.000 --> 0:10:49.800 going to come across that way, but I don't mean 0:10:49.840 --> 0:10:51.560 it that way, I swear, but I feel like it 0:10:51.640 --> 0:10:54.040 ends up in the media anytime I talk about this 0:10:55.440 --> 0:10:59.959 quote unquote scandal. Um. But I think one thing people 0:11:00.080 --> 0:11:05.040 misunderstand is that they think that like just unfazed by it, 0:11:05.160 --> 0:11:08.240 like never affected me, no problems, And I sit here 0:11:08.320 --> 0:11:11.320 sometimes and I'm like, hmm, I don't know how to 0:11:11.360 --> 0:11:15.040 convey to people that like this was the most like 0:11:15.880 --> 0:11:21.280 life changing like wake up call ever. I also feel 0:11:21.320 --> 0:11:23.840 like people, a lot of people don't know like all 0:11:23.880 --> 0:11:26.439 the details and the ins and outs of like the 0:11:26.520 --> 0:11:28.160 real things. So I think people hold a lot of 0:11:28.160 --> 0:11:34.120 anger towards me that maybe necessarily isn't entirely like supposed 0:11:34.160 --> 0:11:35.560 to be put on me. And I don't know how 0:11:35.559 --> 0:11:39.680 to say that without walking on eggshells. But um, I 0:11:39.720 --> 0:11:42.400 think one day I will or somebody hopefully and my 0:11:42.440 --> 0:11:48.680 family will cover what happened. Um. But I do think 0:11:48.679 --> 0:11:51.560 that it's a big misunderstanding that like, oh, how dare 0:11:51.559 --> 0:11:53.319 you just move on with your life and like you 0:11:53.360 --> 0:11:56.280 don't care and it's like, no, this, I think about 0:11:56.280 --> 0:11:59.920 this every day. It completely changed who I am. I 0:12:00.000 --> 0:12:02.800 everything I do is like that's in the back of 0:12:02.880 --> 0:12:08.640 my mind. Um, I feel awful. I feel terrible about it, 0:12:09.280 --> 0:12:13.280 and like me posting and trying to come back to 0:12:13.280 --> 0:12:15.800 social media, I always see the comments of like, oh, 0:12:15.960 --> 0:12:18.880 this girl, like she's just coming back again, and it's like, well, 0:12:18.880 --> 0:12:21.000 I have to live my life, and like I know 0:12:21.120 --> 0:12:23.160 for myself that I'm not a terrible person, like I 0:12:23.200 --> 0:12:25.200 want to go back out and do what I'm passionate about. 0:12:25.240 --> 0:12:28.440 But at the same time, I hate that people think 0:12:28.480 --> 0:12:30.600 that I'm just like I don't care, I'm moving on. 0:12:31.280 --> 0:12:34.000 Um and like so much of the time I feel 0:12:34.000 --> 0:12:36.400 like I'm not talking about like what I'm doing to 0:12:37.200 --> 0:12:39.480 give back or do certain things because I can already 0:12:39.520 --> 0:12:42.040 foresee those comments is like, oh, you're just doing this 0:12:42.120 --> 0:12:44.080 to talk about it. So I'd rather just do it 0:12:44.120 --> 0:12:46.000 privately and just know why I'm doing it, and then 0:12:46.160 --> 0:12:49.600 who cares if people figure it out or not. Um. 0:12:49.640 --> 0:12:51.840 But I just I think that's a big misunderstanding that 0:12:51.880 --> 0:12:53.480 people think that like it doesn't affect me and I 0:12:53.520 --> 0:12:54.960 don't care and I can just go back to my 0:12:55.000 --> 0:12:58.280 normal life because I can even begin to explain like 0:12:58.600 --> 0:13:02.120 how much it has affected and how much I just 0:13:02.160 --> 0:13:05.600 want to make things better and I would do anything 0:13:05.760 --> 0:13:07.920 to go back in time to make this all go away, 0:13:08.000 --> 0:13:14.079 like believe me, um, but I can't. Unfortunately, and I 0:13:14.120 --> 0:13:16.120 think all of us at some point in our life 0:13:16.120 --> 0:13:20.559 have regrets and mistakes, and we all wish we could 0:13:20.600 --> 0:13:22.400 go back in time and fix those things. And I 0:13:22.440 --> 0:13:24.120 think when I'm trying to learn as I get a 0:13:24.120 --> 0:13:28.160 little bit older, is being a little bit more forgiving 0:13:28.200 --> 0:13:32.520 of yourself and understanding that you know, just because one 0:13:32.520 --> 0:13:34.600 thing happens in your life, that doesn't mean you deserve 0:13:34.720 --> 0:13:39.880 to hate yourself for it, even though it's really hard 0:13:39.960 --> 0:13:44.440 not to sometimes. But I think, just um, I just 0:13:44.480 --> 0:13:47.120 want people to know, like me posting me trying to 0:13:47.160 --> 0:13:48.840 move on and put a smile on my face isn't 0:13:48.880 --> 0:13:52.440 because I don't care. It's just because I, for my 0:13:52.520 --> 0:13:57.560 own mental I just can't live in this for forever. Um, 0:13:57.600 --> 0:14:03.600 what keeps you motivated? M M? I think what keeps 0:14:03.640 --> 0:14:07.120 me motivated is the people I surround myself with. Is 0:14:07.160 --> 0:14:10.480 something that's really important, which I'm just figuring out now 0:14:11.200 --> 0:14:13.440 in my life. But it's so true. It's like you 0:14:13.480 --> 0:14:15.400 kind of are who you're surrounding yourself with. So if 0:14:15.400 --> 0:14:20.480 you're surrounding yourself with people that are, um, maybe just 0:14:20.560 --> 0:14:22.720 on a different journey or path than you are, just 0:14:23.320 --> 0:14:27.160 maybe doing certain things that like aren't benefiting you in 0:14:27.640 --> 0:14:29.760 or like not doing stuff for you. But you know 0:14:29.800 --> 0:14:31.440 what I mean, Like if they're doing stuff and you're 0:14:31.440 --> 0:14:33.640 doing it with them and that's not benefiting you in 0:14:33.680 --> 0:14:37.040 your career life or your personal life or whatever it is, 0:14:37.120 --> 0:14:40.040 I think that you could take a step back and 0:14:40.120 --> 0:14:43.160 look kind of inward and see, like, Okay, like I 0:14:43.200 --> 0:14:45.520 love these people, and I love this at a distance, 0:14:45.640 --> 0:14:48.040 or this works for me and this time, but like 0:14:48.080 --> 0:14:49.680 I also need to find people that are going to 0:14:49.720 --> 0:14:53.040 motivate me to you know, really focus on my work 0:14:53.320 --> 0:14:57.320 or my health habits or whatever it is. Like I 0:14:57.360 --> 0:15:00.200 think for me, it's like a perfect examp up. What 0:15:00.280 --> 0:15:02.920 I can give is one of my best friends, Natasha, 0:15:03.400 --> 0:15:05.720 who has been on the podcast before, has been in 0:15:05.760 --> 0:15:11.960 my YouTube um. But she and I have very similar careers, 0:15:12.000 --> 0:15:15.040 like just mindsets. I think we both like love the 0:15:15.080 --> 0:15:17.520 same things, and so it's she's like a really great 0:15:17.520 --> 0:15:19.840 friend to have because she keeps me really motivated. Whether 0:15:19.880 --> 0:15:22.880 it's like she text me this morning, Yo, we're working 0:15:22.880 --> 0:15:25.800 out today, no questions. I'm like, Okay, I kind of 0:15:25.800 --> 0:15:27.920 needed that because I didn't want to, you know what 0:15:27.960 --> 0:15:29.360 I mean. So I think it's people that are just 0:15:29.440 --> 0:15:33.440 like around you that like motivate you, I think is 0:15:33.440 --> 0:15:37.080 something that's really important, and also holding yourself accountable is 0:15:37.120 --> 0:15:55.160 obviously very important as well. How to deal with friends 0:15:55.160 --> 0:16:00.720 never replying to you or not feeling valued by your friends. Um, 0:16:00.760 --> 0:16:04.240 I think that, well, I'm really sorry to hear that, 0:16:04.320 --> 0:16:07.480 because that's not a good feeling. I also know what 0:16:07.560 --> 0:16:11.280 that feels like, and it's like super painful. And I 0:16:11.360 --> 0:16:13.120 know what it feels like to just want people to 0:16:13.200 --> 0:16:15.960 like you and to feel like, oh my god, does 0:16:16.000 --> 0:16:17.960 this person find me annoying? Or am I like a 0:16:18.000 --> 0:16:22.400 bother to them? And I think it's I wish I 0:16:22.400 --> 0:16:25.040 would even take my own advice sometimes, but it's easier 0:16:25.040 --> 0:16:28.080 said than done as well. But also remembering like if 0:16:28.120 --> 0:16:31.400 those people aren't valuing you as a person and who 0:16:31.440 --> 0:16:34.600 you are, and you can't be your authentic self in 0:16:34.640 --> 0:16:37.280 front of them and around them, like are those really 0:16:37.320 --> 0:16:40.320 good friends anyway? Like do you want them? I think 0:16:40.400 --> 0:16:44.360 something that's also really important to learn as we get 0:16:44.400 --> 0:16:48.800 older is being okay with being alone, which is really 0:16:48.840 --> 0:16:52.080 hard and something that I'm still working through all the time, 0:16:52.160 --> 0:16:57.400 but it's it's it's so important to like know that 0:16:57.440 --> 0:16:59.400 you can be on your own and that you enjoy 0:16:59.600 --> 0:17:02.800 your own company because at the end of the day, 0:17:02.880 --> 0:17:05.640 that's like you're one constant, you will always have yourself. 0:17:05.760 --> 0:17:11.760 So I think that's crucial in life. Um But in 0:17:11.840 --> 0:17:15.679 terms of that specific question, I would say trying to 0:17:15.720 --> 0:17:19.080 find new friends is probably a good step. I also 0:17:19.119 --> 0:17:22.600 know that's really tricky because like, where where do I 0:17:22.680 --> 0:17:24.960 meet new friends? How do I meet new friends? I 0:17:24.960 --> 0:17:28.080 don't have all the answers to everybody's like different situations 0:17:28.080 --> 0:17:33.359 and circumstances, But I know that for me, in my 0:17:33.440 --> 0:17:37.199 experience with friendships, it's it feels a lot better to 0:17:37.280 --> 0:17:39.439 remove the people that don't make me feel good and 0:17:39.480 --> 0:17:42.040 that I'm always questioning, like should I be around them? 0:17:42.119 --> 0:17:45.480 Is this annoying to them? Whatever? Like, it feels so 0:17:45.560 --> 0:17:47.600 much better for me now to just be on my own. 0:17:47.720 --> 0:17:50.240 And I think as you focus on yourself and you 0:17:50.280 --> 0:17:52.880 remove those negative people from your life, and you're focusing 0:17:52.880 --> 0:17:54.800 on your career and you're focusing on things that make 0:17:54.840 --> 0:17:59.560 you genuinely happy, like other things will fall into place. Um, 0:17:59.680 --> 0:18:03.040 But I know it can be so difficult. So I'm 0:18:03.080 --> 0:18:09.000 really sorry to hear that top five skin care products. 0:18:09.080 --> 0:18:14.840 Let's get into beauty, Okay, I think I have m hmm, 0:18:15.200 --> 0:18:18.639 it's hard to choose just five. I think for face wash, 0:18:18.800 --> 0:18:21.240 we'll start there. I saw this in an Alicia Keys 0:18:21.640 --> 0:18:24.199 skincare video and I've used it and it made my 0:18:24.280 --> 0:18:28.560 skin beautiful. It's called Osmosis. It's like a facial cleanser. 0:18:29.359 --> 0:18:33.080 It's gorgeous. Ten out of ten would recommend. I think 0:18:33.119 --> 0:18:38.119 another skincare product I love is Supergroup super Goops glows screen. 0:18:39.800 --> 0:18:42.240 If you don't like the way like glowy skin looks though, 0:18:43.000 --> 0:18:46.720 maybe not for you, but I love that. Um Okay, 0:18:46.760 --> 0:18:53.000 that's two. I think. Three would be Oh, the one 0:18:53.080 --> 0:18:58.440 one skin hydro gel moisturizer. It's a little bit expensive 0:18:59.280 --> 0:19:01.760 or a lot of it defensive, but it is one 0:19:01.800 --> 0:19:05.120 of the best things I've ever used in my life. 0:19:05.760 --> 0:19:10.120 Four I would say the one one skin eye patches. Amazing. 0:19:10.240 --> 0:19:12.439 They feel so good. I love putting them in a 0:19:12.440 --> 0:19:15.560 beauty fridge. Oh and five this ice roller that you 0:19:15.560 --> 0:19:17.719 can get from Amazon and you stick it in your 0:19:17.720 --> 0:19:21.239 freezer and it's the best thing and I highly recommend it. 0:19:21.280 --> 0:19:23.680 And if you're tired when you're waking up, boom, it 0:19:23.760 --> 0:19:26.760 wakes you up. If your puffy wakes you up. I 0:19:26.800 --> 0:19:30.480 had a laser appointment recently, and you're not supposed to 0:19:30.480 --> 0:19:33.800 go in the sun if you laser, like laser hair removal, 0:19:33.920 --> 0:19:36.040 so don't do that if you didn't know that and 0:19:36.160 --> 0:19:39.159 you laser. But I was in the sun and the 0:19:39.240 --> 0:19:41.280 woman asked me like, hey, have you been in the 0:19:41.520 --> 0:19:43.320 Have you been in the sun? And I was like no, 0:19:44.000 --> 0:19:46.080 because I really wanted her to do the laser appointment. 0:19:46.119 --> 0:19:48.399 But I shouldn't have done that my whole skin on 0:19:48.480 --> 0:19:51.920 my face like because I laser like above my lip 0:19:51.960 --> 0:19:57.360 and like my sideburned area and I completely broke out 0:19:57.440 --> 0:19:59.720 into like a bunch of little dots everywhere, and I 0:19:59.800 --> 0:20:02.040 was Coali, this is karma. This is what you get 0:20:02.080 --> 0:20:04.439 for lying to the laser lady because you want to 0:20:04.480 --> 0:20:07.440 get the appointment out of the way. And they asked 0:20:07.520 --> 0:20:10.480 for a reason. Um, but I had this ice roller 0:20:10.560 --> 0:20:13.040 and I was just rolling it on my face like 0:20:13.480 --> 0:20:16.760 constantly after and it did wonders. So I think it 0:20:16.840 --> 0:20:22.119 has a lot of different purposes and good uses. And yeah, 0:20:22.240 --> 0:20:25.960 I would just ten out of ten recommend that will 0:20:25.960 --> 0:20:28.439 you do more collective and designer halls in the future, 0:20:28.480 --> 0:20:30.639 and missed them so much. I actually think my next 0:20:30.720 --> 0:20:33.040 YouTube video is going to be a collective try on hall. 0:20:33.400 --> 0:20:35.920 I think I've decided recently for my YouTube because I've 0:20:35.960 --> 0:20:38.480 been feeling a little bit lost on like what to 0:20:38.560 --> 0:20:41.640 do on my channel. I feel like I go back 0:20:41.680 --> 0:20:44.960 and forth between vlogs that I love and then I'm like, no, 0:20:46.280 --> 0:20:48.199 as the vlogs annoying, Like it just looks like I 0:20:48.240 --> 0:20:50.640 do nothing all day, and I think people don't realize 0:20:50.640 --> 0:20:53.879 that making filming doing nothing, it's like kind of my job, 0:20:54.040 --> 0:20:58.960 Like I don't know, it's really bizarre. But um, I 0:20:59.000 --> 0:21:00.720 think I kind of want to go back to like 0:21:00.800 --> 0:21:03.840 my o G YouTube videos kind of like collective halls, 0:21:03.920 --> 0:21:07.840 like remember that one. If you guys are o G subscribers, 0:21:07.880 --> 0:21:09.959 you would remember I used to do like these blinging 0:21:09.960 --> 0:21:11.960 on a budget videos and I do all these like 0:21:12.040 --> 0:21:15.840 different jewelry collections that were like pretty inexpensive or like 0:21:16.040 --> 0:21:20.200 medium to Um yeah, I'd say it's like moderately expensive 0:21:20.200 --> 0:21:23.679 but nothing crazy. And I loved those videos. Um, I 0:21:23.760 --> 0:21:25.639 just didn't get ready with me for my last one, 0:21:25.680 --> 0:21:28.920 which is really fun. I also think for me, something 0:21:28.960 --> 0:21:31.639