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Speaker 1: Today by thinking of my family actually loved me, but

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Speaker 1: they had something else in mind.

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Speaker 2: Sometimes you got to give a good old fashioned I

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Speaker 2: don't love you. Yeah, yeah, you're not family to me.

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Speaker 2: Oh yeah, that's what I say, like every time to

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Speaker 2: my sister. I'm gonna when I put my kids to

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Speaker 2: bed at night, That's that's what I'm gonna say today.

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Speaker 1: It's like, hey, just remember you're nothing. You're not that.

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Speaker 2: This is how we build character Andrew Tape.

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Speaker 1: Yesterday I turned eighteen years old, and for the past

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Speaker 1: six years, like clockwork, every day on my birthday, we

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Speaker 1: go to the same place for dinner, and I always

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Speaker 1: get the same thing. For those of you that confuse,

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Speaker 1: I have extreme OCD and high functioning autism, which means

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Speaker 1: I very which means I'm very well regulated and like

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Speaker 1: things to stay the same as they've always been. Every

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Speaker 1: year on my birthday, would go to Apple Peace, amazing

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Speaker 1: birthday place I've never been. Actually, really, I'll take you.

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Speaker 2: Sometimes.

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Speaker 1: The first thing I would get is the steak in

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Speaker 1: trimp parmesan with a side of loaded mashed potatoes that

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Speaker 1: actually sounds good does and cheesy steam broccoli. Hate me

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Speaker 1: or not? Hate me or not? But I'll to get

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Speaker 1: a sad amounts of realisticks. In total, it's thirty bucks,

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Speaker 1: a bit expensive. I know. I couldn't really tell something

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Speaker 1: was off until a bit later, because when me and

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Speaker 1: my mother, my stepfather, and my older brother sat down,

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Speaker 1: they didn't really say anything. I was confused, and so

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Speaker 1: I started tapping my fingers and the conversation went a

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Speaker 1: little like this, mother, Well, I was rather confused. Well, mother,

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Speaker 1: aren't you going to call the waiter over? This gave

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Speaker 1: me extreme anxiety. I have extreme issues with speaking with people,

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Speaker 1: and I tend to stutter and get very scared, if

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Speaker 1: that's the right word. I asked her if she could

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Speaker 1: do it, and she does it in a huff. My

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Speaker 1: dad and brother staring are My dad and brother stare

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Speaker 1: nonchalantly as she calls the waiter over. The alarm bells

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Speaker 1: are ringing in my head. This is never how we

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Speaker 1: did before.

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Speaker 2: I can't order.

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Speaker 1: As a waiter gets to the table, he asks everyone

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Speaker 1: what they want, and everyone orders, and he gets to me.

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Speaker 1: My mother stops him and tells him, britt bill, damn.

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Speaker 1: This is when my heart began beating very fast. I

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Speaker 1: don't have a job. All the money I get is

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Speaker 1: from all the money I get. It's from our neighbors

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Speaker 1: raking leaves.

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Speaker 2: You're gonna make him use his leafy?

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Speaker 3: Why leaving him high and dry? Much like those leaves?

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Speaker 3: Baby goodness, I just kind of freeze. I don't know

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Speaker 3: what to say the leaf money.

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Speaker 1: I don't really say anything, and I get a really

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Speaker 1: bad stomach ache from the anxiety. This is where I'm

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Speaker 1: conflicted on whether I'm the asshole or not. My mother

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Speaker 1: would explain at the table that now that I'm eighteen,

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Speaker 1: I should be able to pay for my own things,

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Speaker 1: but the thing is, all I have is a leaf.

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Speaker 1: I was already feeling nauseous for the situation, so I

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Speaker 1: just said I love Anyboddy. My mom kind of puffs

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Speaker 1: and shoes the waiter away, poor waiter.

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Speaker 3: He's like bro.

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Speaker 1: It is like this sour at the dinner party. However,

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Speaker 1: my mom also paid for my twenty three year old brother.

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Speaker 2: Where's the logic?

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Speaker 1: My family was calling me entitled and a little a

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Speaker 1: hole the whole ride home. When I got home, I

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Speaker 1: just ran to my room and cried. They've been ignoring

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Speaker 1: me all day. I may be bad at social cues,

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Speaker 1: but my family has never acted this way before. Applebee's

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Speaker 1: was my sanctuary. I mean never, They've been treating me

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Speaker 1: horrible the whole day. I feel very angry and upset

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Speaker 1: at my family. If I would have been warned, I

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Speaker 1: would have saved my breaking.

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Speaker 3: Money, the leaf money, the leaf money.

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Speaker 1: I also don't mean this to be a validation post.

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Speaker 1: I have all the information you have. I'm just very confused,

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Speaker 1: and I'm terrible with social cues Aspergers. Am I right?

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Speaker 1: My family gets a little tighten of money. I guess

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Speaker 1: I should have really asked them before I assumed they

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Speaker 1: were going to pay for me. No, but I missed

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Speaker 1: out on my birthday dinner because I wasn't mature enough

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Speaker 1: to bring my own money.

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Speaker 2: Wait, wait, so did he just not eat the whole time?

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Speaker 3: I think so, Oh my god.

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Speaker 1: I'm just gonna rake leaves for a couple more weeks

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Speaker 1: to order it from takeout.

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Speaker 3: Oh, this is so sad.

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Speaker 1: Bro Bro doesn't get any food on his birthday and

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Speaker 1: now he's saving up his leaf money to get takeout.

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Speaker 2: And like that's already, Like it's so sad already. But

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Speaker 2: like the fact that he's like, oh, here's why, am

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Speaker 2: I being a whole you are Literally this is like

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Speaker 2: the hardest not the a whole of all time, like

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Speaker 2: you were the furthest thing from a hole in existence

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Speaker 2: that is living and breathing.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, and the edit is I understand that my parents

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Speaker 1: could be terrible, but I might be missing some social cues.

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Speaker 1: I don't know if there's anything I did wrong. I've

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Speaker 1: cried about I've cried about it and tried to speak

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Speaker 1: with them, but they don't want it talk to me.

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Speaker 1: I don't know what I did. Also, thank you for

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Speaker 1: everyone for the birthday wishes. I wish my parents did

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Speaker 1: that to me. Jeez, sad Man, Hey, happy birthday, Op, Yes,

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Speaker 1: happy birthday.

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Speaker 2: Good gosh