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Speaker 1: Welcome into Unbreakable Mental Wealth Podcast with Jay Lazer. I'm

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Speaker 1: Jay Glazer. Today is my Tuesday mental health check in,

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Speaker 1: and this has been a rough weekend, full transparency, really

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Speaker 1: rough where hard to get out of bed, rough and

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Speaker 1: it was crazy. Like again, folks with mental health, you

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Speaker 1: don't need a trigger if you have depression of anxiety.

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Speaker 1: It just happen. And I don't feel bad for myself

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Speaker 1: or get angry anymore. It's it's just the rules of it.

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Speaker 1: There are no rules. So I was sitting at Nobu

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Speaker 1: Malibu with my wife and her sister the other day

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Speaker 1: and it just came, and man, it was. It's been

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Speaker 1: hard to get out of bed for the last three days.

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Speaker 1: I've forced myself because when it happens, guys, I don't

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Speaker 1: take off of work. I don't let it win. I

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Speaker 1: forced myself to go to the gym, even if I

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Speaker 1: have a shitty half half a workout. It's better than

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Speaker 1: nothing because sometimes it does affect me physically. And you know,

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Speaker 1: the cool, cool thing I guess about this is that

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Speaker 1: when these happen now, they stand out more because there's

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Speaker 1: so much more infrequent than they have been it used

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Speaker 1: to be. Damn, there every two days, sometimes every day.

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Speaker 1: And now I have these rituals, this breath work and

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Speaker 1: this meditation, and a gratitude list, and these walks I

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Speaker 1: take and the cold plunge and have all these different

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Speaker 1: things that I do to make sure we keep it

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Speaker 1: going between the ears. So these don't happen as often.

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Speaker 1: But I just caved in this past week, so probably

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Speaker 1: feels even darker than it normally would be. But again

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Speaker 1: it's my obligation to you all to tell you when

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Speaker 1: it happens. The other thing I do when I am

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Speaker 1: like this, I made a promise to Michael Phelps and

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Speaker 1: Andrew Whitworth. When I get this dark where I don't

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Speaker 1: want to wake up the next day, I reach out

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Speaker 1: and tell them, Now, folks, I'm never going to go

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Speaker 1: past the point, well, I'm gonna take my own life,

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Speaker 1: because that's selfish me. I got a kid, I got

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Speaker 1: a wife, I got a lot of you out there.

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Speaker 1: And then if I do that, then man, I've taught

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Speaker 1: it's for nothing. So I will always be here. That

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Speaker 1: is my promise to you all, every one of you.

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Speaker 1: I will be here. It's honorable for me to handle

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Speaker 1: my own pain. But it was a dark bleak weekend,

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Speaker 1: really dark, really bleak, and you know the shame that

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Speaker 1: comes after because how I negative self talk or how

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Speaker 1: I talked around my wife and that was rough. And

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Speaker 1: you know what Rosie did And I didn't know this

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Speaker 1: until yesterday. She bought a bunch of cards from a

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Speaker 1: CDs over here and she has stocked in the house

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Speaker 1: for whenever I have these really bad grade days. And

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Speaker 1: she writes a letter to me that, hey, babe, I

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Speaker 1: got you. We're walking this walk together, no matter what,

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Speaker 1: We're doing this together. How special is that? So even

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Speaker 1: like the darkest shit I go through, brings the most beautiful,

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Speaker 1: beautiful gifts. So just keep her remembering that. And that's

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Speaker 1: what happens when you lean into your teammates. My teammate

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Speaker 1: is Rosie, my teammate is God, it's Andrew Whitworth, It's

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Speaker 1: Michael Phelps. But I want the full transparency here for

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Speaker 1: you today. Gang. This was a rough, rough couple of days,

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Speaker 1: and I'm still in it. I'm still pulling myself out

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Speaker 1: of it. I want to let you know, so you

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Speaker 1: at home, No, it's not just you. I am in

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Speaker 1: it with you. Love y'all. Let's keep walking this walk. Together,