1 00:00:00,240 --> 00:00:04,560 Speaker 1: Coming up. Keep It Positive, sweetie. What is my take 2 00:00:04,680 --> 00:00:08,039 Speaker 1: on someone who really loves guide but wants to have 3 00:00:08,080 --> 00:00:12,320 Speaker 1: a little look or too? Mm okay, Well, as we 4 00:00:12,360 --> 00:00:17,040 Speaker 1: all know, Jesus turned water into wine. Kay. And if 5 00:00:17,079 --> 00:00:19,840 Speaker 1: you read the the text in the text, it said 6 00:00:19,880 --> 00:00:22,520 Speaker 1: they was already they'd already gone through the first batch 7 00:00:22,560 --> 00:00:24,919 Speaker 1: of wine and it was like some really good ones. 8 00:00:24,920 --> 00:00:26,480 Speaker 1: So they was already you know what I'm saying, feeling it, 9 00:00:26,480 --> 00:00:28,600 Speaker 1: you know. And then his mama said, hey, go on 10 00:00:28,680 --> 00:00:30,440 Speaker 1: and do that thing you do you know what I'm saying. 11 00:00:30,640 --> 00:00:32,519 Speaker 1: So he was like, man, I'm alright, cool, So I 12 00:00:32,520 --> 00:00:35,199 Speaker 1: don't wanna do that, do what I should do. She 13 00:00:35,200 --> 00:00:39,280 Speaker 1: give him the look and he said, alright, bell. So 14 00:00:39,320 --> 00:00:41,600 Speaker 1: he went ahead and turned that thing that wide and wine. 15 00:00:41,600 --> 00:01:09,160 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. Welcome to another episode of 16 00:01:09,200 --> 00:01:12,679 Speaker 1: the Keep It Positive Sweeties show a safe space to heal, laugh, 17 00:01:12,880 --> 00:01:15,959 Speaker 1: grow and love. I'm your host, Chris Ornee Hazlet, and 18 00:01:16,040 --> 00:01:19,800 Speaker 1: today we are turning the spotlight onto you guys. I 19 00:01:19,880 --> 00:01:24,200 Speaker 1: received so many heartfelt messages, thoughtful questions, and inspiring stories 20 00:01:24,240 --> 00:01:27,240 Speaker 1: from you all. In this special episode, I'll be checking 21 00:01:27,240 --> 00:01:31,000 Speaker 1: my dms and answering your questions and sharing my perspective 22 00:01:31,080 --> 00:01:34,920 Speaker 1: on topics that matter most to you. So grab your 23 00:01:34,920 --> 00:01:38,600 Speaker 1: favorite drink or dessert, get comfortable, and let's embark on 24 00:01:38,680 --> 00:01:42,600 Speaker 1: this journey of positivity and growth together. And remember, no 25 00:01:42,640 --> 00:01:46,479 Speaker 1: matter what, we're gonna keep it positive. Sweetie. But before 26 00:01:46,520 --> 00:01:48,880 Speaker 1: we get into the episode, we have to get into 27 00:01:49,040 --> 00:01:56,760 Speaker 1: this outfit. Let's take a look in Crystal's closet. I 28 00:01:56,800 --> 00:02:00,600 Speaker 1: am wearing a colorful cardigan from zar b Uh. It's 29 00:02:00,800 --> 00:02:04,200 Speaker 1: wool blend. I love this. It's actually one of my favorites, 30 00:02:04,240 --> 00:02:07,240 Speaker 1: but this kind of gives me that collegiate field. I'm 31 00:02:07,240 --> 00:02:10,960 Speaker 1: wearing some boyfriend jeans from Tzara as well. My boots 32 00:02:11,000 --> 00:02:14,440 Speaker 1: are Botega Vanetta. These are some of my favorite butits 33 00:02:14,480 --> 00:02:16,360 Speaker 1: have actually have two pair of these in different colors. 34 00:02:17,360 --> 00:02:21,200 Speaker 1: Love these. I am wearing a a tank also known 35 00:02:21,240 --> 00:02:26,240 Speaker 1: as a wife beater from Tarja and my signature jewelry 36 00:02:26,280 --> 00:02:37,919 Speaker 1: and some fiendy earrings. That's my look all right, Here 37 00:02:37,960 --> 00:02:44,480 Speaker 1: goes nothing. One thing I regret never being able to do, 38 00:02:45,160 --> 00:02:47,880 Speaker 1: and one thing I thank God for shielding me from 39 00:02:49,080 --> 00:02:56,240 Speaker 1: ah something I regret. I always say that hindsight is 40 00:02:56,280 --> 00:03:01,200 Speaker 1: twenty twenty looking back at my younger years. When I 41 00:03:01,280 --> 00:03:04,280 Speaker 1: had the opportunity to leave for college, I stayed in 42 00:03:04,320 --> 00:03:08,200 Speaker 1: my hometown. I think that looking back now, I would've 43 00:03:08,200 --> 00:03:11,440 Speaker 1: definitely moved, and I think that would would have helped 44 00:03:11,440 --> 00:03:13,440 Speaker 1: me develop faster, if I would have learned how to 45 00:03:13,480 --> 00:03:17,600 Speaker 1: be on my own a lot quicker because I still 46 00:03:17,639 --> 00:03:20,280 Speaker 1: had my parents. You know, I was able if say 47 00:03:20,440 --> 00:03:22,760 Speaker 1: I needed some groceries, I was able to go to 48 00:03:22,800 --> 00:03:24,919 Speaker 1: my parents, and we had a big deep freezer in 49 00:03:24,960 --> 00:03:27,000 Speaker 1: the garage. I could go get whatever I wanted from 50 00:03:27,000 --> 00:03:30,040 Speaker 1: that deep freezer. A lot of the responsibility that I 51 00:03:30,040 --> 00:03:32,639 Speaker 1: would've had to learn very fast if I had've moved 52 00:03:32,680 --> 00:03:35,080 Speaker 1: away from home, I didn't have to learn it. It's 53 00:03:35,120 --> 00:03:37,680 Speaker 1: a blessing as well. But I think one of the 54 00:03:37,720 --> 00:03:40,600 Speaker 1: things I would've done is definitely left and went to 55 00:03:40,840 --> 00:03:44,840 Speaker 1: college somewhere else. But still a grateful for the experience 56 00:03:44,840 --> 00:03:48,440 Speaker 1: I had. One of the things I'm grateful God shielded 57 00:03:48,480 --> 00:03:57,040 Speaker 1: me from, uh, so many things. You know, there's so 58 00:03:57,080 --> 00:04:02,280 Speaker 1: many times where I look back and I realize some 59 00:04:02,320 --> 00:04:04,440 Speaker 1: of the choices that I made when I was younger 60 00:04:05,000 --> 00:04:09,440 Speaker 1: weren't the wisest, and I thank Him for shielding me 61 00:04:09,480 --> 00:04:13,800 Speaker 1: from myself sometimes, you know, even now I look back 62 00:04:13,840 --> 00:04:16,800 Speaker 1: and like that was nothing but God. So yeah, definitely 63 00:04:16,880 --> 00:04:20,800 Speaker 1: some of the decisions MM my self care ritual. When 64 00:04:20,839 --> 00:04:23,560 Speaker 1: I need time to myself, I usually catch a flight 65 00:04:23,640 --> 00:04:27,200 Speaker 1: down to Miami just to spend time down there. That 66 00:04:27,360 --> 00:04:30,880 Speaker 1: is my place of solitude. I love the water. Uh. 67 00:04:30,960 --> 00:04:33,240 Speaker 1: When I'm there, I spend time at the pool, or 68 00:04:33,279 --> 00:04:37,560 Speaker 1: I'll go to the beach. I even spend time alone. 69 00:04:37,600 --> 00:04:41,520 Speaker 1: You know, sometimes people feel like isolation is not a 70 00:04:41,560 --> 00:04:44,400 Speaker 1: good thing, but I feel like my isolation is more solitude, 71 00:04:44,440 --> 00:04:46,680 Speaker 1: you know, where I find peace to be at one 72 00:04:46,720 --> 00:04:49,000 Speaker 1: with my thoughts and by myself a lot of times 73 00:04:49,040 --> 00:04:50,800 Speaker 1: when you're around a lot of people, you can be 74 00:04:50,880 --> 00:04:53,960 Speaker 1: distracted by how you really feel, and sometimes you need 75 00:04:54,000 --> 00:04:56,640 Speaker 1: to be centered and to do that is to find 76 00:04:56,760 --> 00:04:59,760 Speaker 1: alone time with God. So definitely going down to my 77 00:04:59,760 --> 00:05:04,520 Speaker 1: st in Miami just to refresh and refill my cup 78 00:05:05,160 --> 00:05:11,360 Speaker 1: and get some sunshine. My top three hair products right now, 79 00:05:11,360 --> 00:05:15,320 Speaker 1: I use sacreds Hair Oil. I love that. I use 80 00:05:15,480 --> 00:05:20,040 Speaker 1: my L's it's one of their Mint deep conditioners. Babasu 81 00:05:20,080 --> 00:05:24,720 Speaker 1: a Mint deep conditioner. Love that. And then for these edges, honey, 82 00:05:24,839 --> 00:05:31,200 Speaker 1: I use RS's Edge Control. Augh. Okay, so right, now 83 00:05:32,760 --> 00:05:37,240 Speaker 1: I'm using the entire renewtre of collection by Essay Lauder 84 00:05:37,839 --> 00:05:39,560 Speaker 1: top to Botto. When I tell you, guys, I've been 85 00:05:39,640 --> 00:05:42,800 Speaker 1: using it for over a year now. It started last 86 00:05:42,920 --> 00:05:46,920 Speaker 1: January of twenty twenty four, and it has done wonders 87 00:05:46,960 --> 00:05:49,920 Speaker 1: for my skin. Even the bags under my eyes from 88 00:05:49,960 --> 00:05:52,120 Speaker 1: filming and wearing a lot of makeup and having the 89 00:05:52,160 --> 00:05:56,320 Speaker 1: makeup packed on throughout the day, I noticed, like the 90 00:05:56,360 --> 00:05:59,160 Speaker 1: bags in my eyes were insane. It was so bad. 91 00:05:59,200 --> 00:06:01,960 Speaker 1: I was like, I look like I'm seventy, you know. 92 00:06:02,560 --> 00:06:04,560 Speaker 1: And you know, once I get that age, of course 93 00:06:04,600 --> 00:06:07,440 Speaker 1: I will embrace whatever wrinkles I have because they're all 94 00:06:07,440 --> 00:06:10,360 Speaker 1: a blessing. But at this age, I'm like, I shouldn't. 95 00:06:10,560 --> 00:06:13,600 Speaker 1: It shouldn't look like this. So it has worked wonders 96 00:06:13,640 --> 00:06:16,760 Speaker 1: on that. I love butter skin. They had this amazing 97 00:06:16,800 --> 00:06:20,200 Speaker 1: toner that helps my skin feel really refreshed. And Tasa 98 00:06:20,360 --> 00:06:25,159 Speaker 1: Tascha has this. It's a rice scrub like that kind 99 00:06:25,160 --> 00:06:28,920 Speaker 1: of exfoliates your skin, but it's a gentle exfoliator. When 100 00:06:28,960 --> 00:06:31,560 Speaker 1: I tell you, my face feels like a baby like 101 00:06:31,640 --> 00:06:35,800 Speaker 1: it's it feels so soft when I use that. Hm, 102 00:06:35,800 --> 00:06:40,040 Speaker 1: how is my dating life? Then to whine out. Everybody 103 00:06:40,080 --> 00:06:43,240 Speaker 1: wants to know. My dating life is great, you know, 104 00:06:43,400 --> 00:06:46,560 Speaker 1: and as a public figure, there are a lot of 105 00:06:46,640 --> 00:06:48,920 Speaker 1: things that I share, but I've also learned to keep 106 00:06:48,960 --> 00:06:52,480 Speaker 1: things private, and I think it is great because that 107 00:06:52,560 --> 00:06:55,120 Speaker 1: it's something that I choose to keep private. But yeah, 108 00:06:55,240 --> 00:06:59,680 Speaker 1: it's going good, m am. I going to do a 109 00:06:59,760 --> 00:07:03,039 Speaker 1: kid Yes, I'm going to do a kIPS tour. I'm 110 00:07:03,080 --> 00:07:06,080 Speaker 1: so excited about it and I hope to see you 111 00:07:06,120 --> 00:07:09,000 Speaker 1: all there. I do. The first one was amazing and 112 00:07:09,040 --> 00:07:12,280 Speaker 1: I cannot wait to see everyone and just see the 113 00:07:12,320 --> 00:07:14,960 Speaker 1: community cause it's so beautiful and bright and I cannot wait. 114 00:07:15,200 --> 00:07:19,320 Speaker 1: So yeah, it's on the way. MM. What is my 115 00:07:19,480 --> 00:07:23,520 Speaker 1: secret to getting motivated? When I tell you, guys, just 116 00:07:23,840 --> 00:07:28,120 Speaker 1: full transparency. For the past few weeks, I've had a 117 00:07:28,120 --> 00:07:31,080 Speaker 1: hard time going to sleep, So I find myself hitting 118 00:07:31,120 --> 00:07:35,239 Speaker 1: this snooze button multiple times and sleeping sometimes hours past 119 00:07:35,280 --> 00:07:37,320 Speaker 1: the time that I try to get up in the morning, 120 00:07:37,800 --> 00:07:42,720 Speaker 1: and really not feeling as motivated as I usually do 121 00:07:42,840 --> 00:07:45,280 Speaker 1: or as I try to be, because I know that 122 00:07:45,520 --> 00:07:49,440 Speaker 1: my motivation inspires other people to be motivated. But I've 123 00:07:49,480 --> 00:07:57,880 Speaker 1: had about of un motivated energy, like I just yeah, 124 00:07:57,880 --> 00:08:00,240 Speaker 1: I don't feel like getting out of bed. I'm not 125 00:08:00,240 --> 00:08:02,760 Speaker 1: depressed or anything. I'm just tired. I'm not getting enough 126 00:08:02,760 --> 00:08:07,840 Speaker 1: sleep because my mind is wandering, and sometimes I think 127 00:08:07,920 --> 00:08:11,440 Speaker 1: that we have so much going on it's hard to 128 00:08:11,440 --> 00:08:18,320 Speaker 1: shut our brains off. So when I'm not motivated, I eventually, 129 00:08:18,480 --> 00:08:22,640 Speaker 1: after I've hit this snooze button ten times, I say alright, Crystal, enough, 130 00:08:23,200 --> 00:08:25,280 Speaker 1: it's time to get up. And once my feet hit 131 00:08:25,320 --> 00:08:28,960 Speaker 1: the ground, I say thank you Jesus. The energy comes 132 00:08:29,000 --> 00:08:31,560 Speaker 1: and I just hit the day and do what I can. 133 00:08:31,880 --> 00:08:35,280 Speaker 1: And sometimes it's all you can do. My favorite memory 134 00:08:35,320 --> 00:08:41,360 Speaker 1: on Sisters and my favorite memory on Zatima for Sisters 135 00:08:41,800 --> 00:08:49,000 Speaker 1: favorite memory, uh, one of my favorite things that we 136 00:08:49,080 --> 00:08:51,559 Speaker 1: did with the Sisters was I wanna say the top 137 00:08:51,600 --> 00:08:54,520 Speaker 1: of two thousand twenty four. We got to go to 138 00:08:54,559 --> 00:08:58,240 Speaker 1: the very top of the Empire State Building. It was 139 00:08:59,640 --> 00:09:03,240 Speaker 1: the view was absolutely stunning. It's an area that a 140 00:09:03,240 --> 00:09:04,960 Speaker 1: lot of people don't get to go to, so to 141 00:09:05,080 --> 00:09:10,480 Speaker 1: experience that with my sisters was amazing. On Zatima, one 142 00:09:10,520 --> 00:09:14,320 Speaker 1: of my favorite moments is honestly, every day that I 143 00:09:14,320 --> 00:09:16,200 Speaker 1: get to go to work with those people. You know, 144 00:09:16,600 --> 00:09:20,960 Speaker 1: there's a team of cast is very special. Tu Deval 145 00:09:21,040 --> 00:09:24,200 Speaker 1: and I have an opportunity to go in and set 146 00:09:24,240 --> 00:09:27,000 Speaker 1: the tone for the energy that we want on our set, 147 00:09:27,120 --> 00:09:34,280 Speaker 1: and it literally flows from the cast, the crew, the executives, 148 00:09:34,360 --> 00:09:36,280 Speaker 1: Like you just feel the energy from the moment that 149 00:09:36,360 --> 00:09:39,280 Speaker 1: you walk into the building. Everyone's happy to be there, 150 00:09:40,559 --> 00:09:42,559 Speaker 1: and it's just, Yeah, I think that's my favorite thing, 151 00:09:42,640 --> 00:09:45,720 Speaker 1: is just getting to work with everyone. It's truly special. 152 00:09:48,080 --> 00:09:50,679 Speaker 1: What is a career goal or dream that I have 153 00:09:50,760 --> 00:09:57,760 Speaker 1: been afraid to chase? You know, I've always wanted my 154 00:09:58,320 --> 00:10:01,480 Speaker 1: start off is just wanting to be this s incredible 155 00:10:01,520 --> 00:10:06,680 Speaker 1: business woman that built an empire and w seeing so 156 00:10:06,880 --> 00:10:11,520 Speaker 1: many parts of the industry oversaturated but having such great 157 00:10:11,559 --> 00:10:15,040 Speaker 1: passions and all these different things, there was this doubt 158 00:10:15,040 --> 00:10:17,680 Speaker 1: in the back of my mind, could I really thrive 159 00:10:17,920 --> 00:10:22,880 Speaker 1: and and prosper in these certain areas. So these are 160 00:10:22,920 --> 00:10:25,440 Speaker 1: things that I'm working on this year and h hopefully 161 00:10:25,520 --> 00:10:27,920 Speaker 1: soon to come that I'm actually gonna go for it. 162 00:10:27,960 --> 00:10:29,960 Speaker 1: And that would be having my own hair care line, 163 00:10:30,120 --> 00:10:32,880 Speaker 1: having my own fashion line. I love fashion, you know, 164 00:10:33,440 --> 00:10:36,280 Speaker 1: having my own lifestyle line home Like, I wanna do 165 00:10:36,360 --> 00:10:38,240 Speaker 1: all the things and I don't wanna put myself in 166 00:10:38,280 --> 00:10:41,560 Speaker 1: a box, But that'd be something that I think I 167 00:10:41,600 --> 00:10:44,480 Speaker 1: have kind of held off on for a while that 168 00:10:44,600 --> 00:10:47,960 Speaker 1: I think I'm ready to run after now. One of 169 00:10:48,000 --> 00:10:51,920 Speaker 1: my greatest challenges that I have overcome in the last year, 170 00:10:53,080 --> 00:10:56,040 Speaker 1: and how did I rely on my faith to overcome it? 171 00:10:57,000 --> 00:11:02,880 Speaker 1: I am one of th last year was a really 172 00:11:02,920 --> 00:11:08,280 Speaker 1: tough year because I feel like God was really just 173 00:11:08,440 --> 00:11:10,560 Speaker 1: convicting me on a lot of things he was working 174 00:11:10,600 --> 00:11:13,800 Speaker 1: on me, and a lot of times when God is 175 00:11:13,880 --> 00:11:17,240 Speaker 1: like really getting to you, the devil is so busy 176 00:11:17,600 --> 00:11:20,320 Speaker 1: trying to distract you. And I found like a lot 177 00:11:20,320 --> 00:11:23,679 Speaker 1: of things were kind of irking my spirit as it 178 00:11:23,960 --> 00:11:26,320 Speaker 1: came to Christianity, and my part of me was like 179 00:11:26,920 --> 00:11:28,600 Speaker 1: I I just wanna do what I wanna do, Like I, 180 00:11:28,679 --> 00:11:30,600 Speaker 1: this is just too much. And but that was nothing 181 00:11:30,600 --> 00:11:32,520 Speaker 1: but the enemy because he knew what God was trying 182 00:11:32,559 --> 00:11:35,960 Speaker 1: to use me for. And in that trying to be 183 00:11:36,040 --> 00:11:40,559 Speaker 1: transparent about my walk and understanding that, look, God knows 184 00:11:40,600 --> 00:11:42,880 Speaker 1: where I am. But when you try to be open 185 00:11:42,920 --> 00:11:46,240 Speaker 1: about it, it seems like the Christian community was the 186 00:11:46,320 --> 00:11:49,720 Speaker 1: first to come and attack me. And I think that's 187 00:11:49,720 --> 00:11:51,680 Speaker 1: one of the biggest things that I had to overcome, 188 00:11:51,720 --> 00:11:55,640 Speaker 1: because when you know that you are truly seeking God's 189 00:11:55,679 --> 00:11:58,439 Speaker 1: face and and you're wanting to do right and changing 190 00:11:58,600 --> 00:12:01,000 Speaker 1: things in your life. Whether I publicize it or not. 191 00:12:01,040 --> 00:12:03,040 Speaker 1: There's so many things in private that God is working 192 00:12:03,080 --> 00:12:05,640 Speaker 1: with me on. And when I try to share my 193 00:12:05,679 --> 00:12:08,160 Speaker 1: testimony and try to share my walk, people tear you down. 194 00:12:08,640 --> 00:12:10,000 Speaker 1: And there was a time where I was just like, 195 00:12:10,040 --> 00:12:13,480 Speaker 1: I don't want to do this anymore, like I'm cool. 196 00:12:13,679 --> 00:12:16,199 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. Y'all got it? And that 197 00:12:16,280 --> 00:12:19,400 Speaker 1: was something initially I was done with. But God really 198 00:12:19,440 --> 00:12:21,960 Speaker 1: worked with me, and I started leaning on him and 199 00:12:22,000 --> 00:12:24,920 Speaker 1: asking him. God showed me how you want to use 200 00:12:24,960 --> 00:12:27,760 Speaker 1: me because I think I lost myself and just trying 201 00:12:27,760 --> 00:12:29,440 Speaker 1: to do what everybody else was doing. And Okay, well 202 00:12:29,480 --> 00:12:32,440 Speaker 1: this works, so let me try this. But I need 203 00:12:32,480 --> 00:12:35,040 Speaker 1: to do exactly what God has for me because I'm 204 00:12:35,080 --> 00:12:39,880 Speaker 1: nobody else. I'm uniquely made in his image, and because 205 00:12:39,920 --> 00:12:43,160 Speaker 1: of Him, I'm able to stand firmly and confidently in 206 00:12:43,200 --> 00:12:46,880 Speaker 1: my faith and talk about it. The wellness routine that 207 00:12:47,000 --> 00:12:49,480 Speaker 1: I rely on most of the stress would one be 208 00:12:49,960 --> 00:12:53,439 Speaker 1: I'm giving a few because it's not just one thing. Meditation. 209 00:12:53,880 --> 00:12:57,280 Speaker 1: I have to sit still, breathe and really listen to 210 00:12:57,320 --> 00:12:59,400 Speaker 1: the word of God and just hear his voice. Sometimes 211 00:12:59,400 --> 00:13:02,760 Speaker 1: we still That's all you gotta do is be still. 212 00:13:03,480 --> 00:13:06,760 Speaker 1: Another thing is running, like I use I'm not like 213 00:13:06,800 --> 00:13:10,360 Speaker 1: an outside runner, I'm a treadmillone runner, but it's something 214 00:13:10,400 --> 00:13:13,080 Speaker 1: about getting a good run in. When I finish, I 215 00:13:13,120 --> 00:13:17,400 Speaker 1: feel so good. And another thing would be massage, like 216 00:13:17,520 --> 00:13:20,080 Speaker 1: I love a good massage. That's time for me to 217 00:13:20,280 --> 00:13:22,040 Speaker 1: disconnect and I have to do a better job with 218 00:13:22,080 --> 00:13:25,080 Speaker 1: that because sometimes like I'll still be on my phone. 219 00:13:25,280 --> 00:13:30,520 Speaker 1: But yeah, definitely those three meditation, running, and massage. Yes, 220 00:13:31,240 --> 00:13:34,400 Speaker 1: being a Christian in the public eye does have its challenges. 221 00:13:34,480 --> 00:13:38,360 Speaker 1: And I'm holding up well. You know. I ask God 222 00:13:38,400 --> 00:13:41,160 Speaker 1: for guidance every day on how he wants to use me, 223 00:13:41,920 --> 00:13:45,400 Speaker 1: how I can better steward over the platform that He's 224 00:13:45,440 --> 00:13:49,120 Speaker 1: given me. And yeah, He's with me, and I'm handling 225 00:13:49,240 --> 00:13:55,000 Speaker 1: really well. Thanks for asking. Do I have to sacrifice 226 00:13:55,120 --> 00:13:58,160 Speaker 1: other parts of my life to have the career that 227 00:13:58,240 --> 00:14:01,360 Speaker 1: I want to have? Of course, I mean with anything 228 00:14:01,480 --> 00:14:05,080 Speaker 1: that is worth having will come sacrifice. You know. For 229 00:14:06,240 --> 00:14:10,400 Speaker 1: years I felt like I sacrifice love, you know, and 230 00:14:10,400 --> 00:14:14,760 Speaker 1: and finding that and there were times that I would 231 00:14:14,760 --> 00:14:16,160 Speaker 1: pray to God and say God I feel like I 232 00:14:16,240 --> 00:14:21,000 Speaker 1: have everything but this one thing. And what I realized 233 00:14:21,160 --> 00:14:25,840 Speaker 1: was that God was preparing me for that moment because 234 00:14:25,840 --> 00:14:28,160 Speaker 1: he n he knows me. He knows me better than anybody, 235 00:14:28,480 --> 00:14:30,600 Speaker 1: and he knows how I am. When I love someone, 236 00:14:30,720 --> 00:14:33,880 Speaker 1: I go all in and I give it one thousand percent. 237 00:14:34,040 --> 00:14:36,400 Speaker 1: But if I was giving that one thousand percent, I 238 00:14:36,440 --> 00:14:38,840 Speaker 1: wouldn't be able to really put the energy and time 239 00:14:38,920 --> 00:14:41,600 Speaker 1: into what I needed to do to build my career. 240 00:14:41,720 --> 00:14:45,120 Speaker 1: So I think everything is in God's timing and and 241 00:14:45,160 --> 00:14:47,320 Speaker 1: he knows us better than anybody. But yeah, that would 242 00:14:47,320 --> 00:14:49,000 Speaker 1: be one of the main things that I feel like 243 00:14:49,040 --> 00:14:51,680 Speaker 1: I've had to sacrifice on top of that, you know, 244 00:14:52,280 --> 00:14:54,360 Speaker 1: there's certain things you can't do. You can't move how 245 00:14:54,400 --> 00:14:57,840 Speaker 1: you used to move. A lot comes with it. You know, 246 00:14:58,000 --> 00:15:01,240 Speaker 1: you have to think about way more than you ever 247 00:15:01,280 --> 00:15:04,880 Speaker 1: had to think when I'm when I was just regular Crystal, 248 00:15:06,120 --> 00:15:09,200 Speaker 1: I still operate as myself and feel like I'm still 249 00:15:09,200 --> 00:15:12,800 Speaker 1: a regular Crystal, but I can't move like that. You know, 250 00:15:12,840 --> 00:15:14,840 Speaker 1: there's a lot of things that I had to change 251 00:15:14,880 --> 00:15:18,760 Speaker 1: and sacrifices come with as well. Am salt and pepper 252 00:15:18,800 --> 00:15:21,440 Speaker 1: a sugar in my grists. Okay, I'm a country girl, y'all, 253 00:15:21,840 --> 00:15:26,000 Speaker 1: and growing up, I was a sugar girl. Kay, I 254 00:15:26,120 --> 00:15:29,400 Speaker 1: was a sugar girl. But I have since graduated and 255 00:15:29,480 --> 00:15:32,760 Speaker 1: now I am a salt and pepper. I used to 256 00:15:32,760 --> 00:15:34,880 Speaker 1: love cheese, but I stopped eating dairy recently, so I 257 00:15:34,880 --> 00:15:36,920 Speaker 1: can't even say cheese grits, but those are my favorite, 258 00:15:37,520 --> 00:15:40,040 Speaker 1: absolute favorite. But yeah, salt and pepper. I don't do 259 00:15:40,040 --> 00:15:44,160 Speaker 1: the sugar anymore. What am I most looking forward to 260 00:15:44,240 --> 00:15:48,160 Speaker 1: in twenty twenty five. I am most looking forward to 261 00:15:48,320 --> 00:15:52,440 Speaker 1: completing every goal that I go after. You know, you 262 00:15:52,520 --> 00:15:54,680 Speaker 1: start the top of the year with all these dreams 263 00:15:54,720 --> 00:15:56,520 Speaker 1: and like, alright, I'm gonna do this, I'm gonna do that. 264 00:15:56,800 --> 00:16:00,280 Speaker 1: This year is the year of completion, and that is 265 00:16:00,360 --> 00:16:02,960 Speaker 1: I'm most looking forward to just going and executing every 266 00:16:03,000 --> 00:16:06,240 Speaker 1: single thing I wanna go after. Now, my go to 267 00:16:06,360 --> 00:16:09,960 Speaker 1: karaoke song. I was just talking about this on Angie Martinez. 268 00:16:10,080 --> 00:16:13,680 Speaker 1: It is Incomplete by Cisco. I know that it's a 269 00:16:13,760 --> 00:16:17,320 Speaker 1: random song, but I love all the ooh yeah, yeah, 270 00:16:17,520 --> 00:16:21,040 Speaker 1: it's like it's so good. It's so good. Go listen 271 00:16:21,080 --> 00:16:23,920 Speaker 1: to the song. It's a great karaoke song. I'm telling you. 272 00:16:23,960 --> 00:16:26,320 Speaker 1: When I when I with my friends and they play 273 00:16:26,360 --> 00:16:28,920 Speaker 1: that song and we like singing together is so much 274 00:16:29,000 --> 00:16:32,720 Speaker 1: passion and yeah, Cisco really did that. But that's a 275 00:16:32,720 --> 00:16:38,720 Speaker 1: fun one. What would I tell my younger self? I 276 00:16:38,760 --> 00:16:42,000 Speaker 1: would tell her, do not be in a hurry to 277 00:16:42,080 --> 00:16:45,920 Speaker 1: grow up. I I I can't count how many times 278 00:16:46,000 --> 00:16:48,200 Speaker 1: I said, Ooh, I can't wait to get this house. 279 00:16:48,240 --> 00:16:52,080 Speaker 1: I can't wait to grow up child, No cause it 280 00:16:52,080 --> 00:16:53,480 Speaker 1: looked like it was so much fun to be an 281 00:16:53,480 --> 00:16:56,200 Speaker 1: adult and do what you wanted to do. But little 282 00:16:56,240 --> 00:16:59,440 Speaker 1: did I know that there's so much more that comes 283 00:16:59,440 --> 00:17:01,280 Speaker 1: to being in a don't so I would tell myself 284 00:17:01,280 --> 00:17:04,880 Speaker 1: to just slow down and enjoy the moment and continue 285 00:17:04,920 --> 00:17:09,280 Speaker 1: to enjoy it as you go through life. Ooh, where 286 00:17:09,320 --> 00:17:14,800 Speaker 1: do I see myself in five years? I see myself. Uh, 287 00:17:15,320 --> 00:17:19,800 Speaker 1: I'll be married. Oh, let's be married by then, possibly 288 00:17:19,800 --> 00:17:27,119 Speaker 1: have a kid. I would love to see my businesses flourishing, thriving, 289 00:17:27,760 --> 00:17:30,600 Speaker 1: making a difference in the community and and hopefully worldwide 290 00:17:31,240 --> 00:17:35,840 Speaker 1: through my foundation. I wanna start global initiatives as the 291 00:17:35,880 --> 00:17:41,520 Speaker 1: foundation continues to grow, and I don't know, maybe doing 292 00:17:41,520 --> 00:17:45,639 Speaker 1: more public speaking and different things like that. But yeah, oh, 293 00:17:45,720 --> 00:17:47,520 Speaker 1: and a talk show. I'm'a have my own talk this 294 00:17:47,520 --> 00:17:49,440 Speaker 1: is gonna be a talk show in five years. Alright, 295 00:17:50,720 --> 00:17:54,000 Speaker 1: from my lips to God's ears. Come home, y'all touch 296 00:17:54,040 --> 00:18:00,520 Speaker 1: and agree with me, everybody in the roup. What books 297 00:18:00,520 --> 00:18:03,080 Speaker 1: on my reading? Well, I'm glad you asked. So for 298 00:18:04,200 --> 00:18:07,399 Speaker 1: the whole year, I said that I wanted to read more, 299 00:18:07,640 --> 00:18:10,560 Speaker 1: and my word for the year was wisdom. I want 300 00:18:10,640 --> 00:18:14,119 Speaker 1: to gain wisdom. As a child, I was an avid reader. 301 00:18:14,280 --> 00:18:16,480 Speaker 1: I mean I sat in my said, I think it's 302 00:18:16,480 --> 00:18:17,919 Speaker 1: because we had the book club and we would get 303 00:18:17,960 --> 00:18:21,480 Speaker 1: the points and get the pizza, the little personal pan pizza. 304 00:18:21,560 --> 00:18:23,360 Speaker 1: So it was an incentive for me to read more. 305 00:18:23,760 --> 00:18:26,320 Speaker 1: But it's something that I realized as I got older. 306 00:18:26,359 --> 00:18:28,520 Speaker 1: I was like, oh my goodness, I'm losing my vocabulary. 307 00:18:29,119 --> 00:18:31,160 Speaker 1: And I think that was because I wasn't reading enough. 308 00:18:31,240 --> 00:18:35,160 Speaker 1: So this year I decided to pick up a book. 309 00:18:35,160 --> 00:18:37,240 Speaker 1: So this is my third book this year, and right 310 00:18:37,280 --> 00:18:40,640 Speaker 1: now I am reading The Left Them Theory by Mail Robbins. 311 00:18:40,920 --> 00:18:43,840 Speaker 1: This book is so good. It's all the rape everyone's 312 00:18:43,840 --> 00:18:47,639 Speaker 1: been talking about it, and it's really good when it 313 00:18:47,640 --> 00:18:51,000 Speaker 1: comes to just allowing people to be them and not 314 00:18:51,359 --> 00:18:53,399 Speaker 1: taking it personally because a lot of times we do that. 315 00:18:53,720 --> 00:18:57,399 Speaker 1: But also allowing ourselves to take accountability and look in 316 00:18:57,440 --> 00:19:00,199 Speaker 1: the mirror and look inward as well. So loving this 317 00:19:00,000 --> 00:19:02,159 Speaker 1: this book. Shout out mail, we need to get you 318 00:19:02,200 --> 00:19:05,760 Speaker 1: on here, girl, because you are that girl. And then 319 00:19:06,160 --> 00:19:08,200 Speaker 1: shout out to Brenda Palmer, a good friend, a mind 320 00:19:08,240 --> 00:19:11,639 Speaker 1: who you all saw on one of our episodes. She 321 00:19:12,480 --> 00:19:14,520 Speaker 1: gave me this book. It's called The Awe of God 322 00:19:14,640 --> 00:19:17,000 Speaker 1: and it is a daily read where you read it 323 00:19:18,600 --> 00:19:21,679 Speaker 1: every day. And I love it because it talks about 324 00:19:22,520 --> 00:19:26,320 Speaker 1: how when you fear God, it's a healthy fear. It's 325 00:19:26,359 --> 00:19:29,520 Speaker 1: really an admiration and an awe of God versus like, 326 00:19:29,760 --> 00:19:31,800 Speaker 1: oh my gosh, Yes, we're supposed to tremble in fear 327 00:19:31,840 --> 00:19:35,800 Speaker 1: of him, but it should be this. The reverence of 328 00:19:35,880 --> 00:19:38,000 Speaker 1: Him should be so great that we are in awe 329 00:19:38,080 --> 00:19:42,280 Speaker 1: of Him. So absolutely love this book. It's by John Revere. 330 00:19:42,400 --> 00:19:45,000 Speaker 1: Shout out Brenda Palmer again, for give me this book 331 00:19:45,040 --> 00:19:46,800 Speaker 1: gets you a friend that gives you books that are 332 00:19:46,800 --> 00:19:49,200 Speaker 1: gonna bringing closer to God. I love this one and 333 00:19:49,240 --> 00:19:51,600 Speaker 1: it at the end of it's really short chapters, and 334 00:19:51,600 --> 00:19:54,960 Speaker 1: then at the end of it, it gives you a 335 00:19:55,000 --> 00:19:58,000 Speaker 1: little segment where you can make it personal, and it 336 00:19:58,000 --> 00:20:00,280 Speaker 1: gives you a passage. It gives you points and to 337 00:20:00,320 --> 00:20:02,680 Speaker 1: ponder on, and then it gives you a prayer, and 338 00:20:02,880 --> 00:20:06,280 Speaker 1: I'll just read this one for you, guys. This prayer says, 339 00:20:06,280 --> 00:20:09,800 Speaker 1: Dear Heavenly Father, please forgive me for starting to obey 340 00:20:09,920 --> 00:20:12,920 Speaker 1: what you told me to do, but not finishing. Just 341 00:20:12,960 --> 00:20:16,520 Speaker 1: talked about that finishing completing either by ignoring it or 342 00:20:16,600 --> 00:20:19,520 Speaker 1: changing my mind because of not seeing it as self serving. 343 00:20:19,760 --> 00:20:22,760 Speaker 1: I repent this lack of holy fear and ask for 344 00:20:22,800 --> 00:20:26,920 Speaker 1: your forgiveness in Jesus name, I pray Amen. My profession 345 00:20:26,960 --> 00:20:29,280 Speaker 1: of the day is I choose to obey guy's word 346 00:20:29,359 --> 00:20:33,879 Speaker 1: to completion. So yeah, it's so good. And I usually 347 00:20:33,920 --> 00:20:37,080 Speaker 1: just read this after I read my scriptures in the 348 00:20:37,119 --> 00:20:42,040 Speaker 1: morning as well as journaling, so that's more kind of 349 00:20:42,040 --> 00:20:43,600 Speaker 1: my morning routine, which you didn't ask me. Just asked 350 00:20:43,600 --> 00:20:45,040 Speaker 1: what books I'm reading, but I just kind of gave 351 00:20:45,080 --> 00:20:47,040 Speaker 1: you all that. But yeah, those are the two books 352 00:20:47,040 --> 00:20:51,560 Speaker 1: I'm reading right now. Before I read uh the I 353 00:20:51,600 --> 00:20:54,359 Speaker 1: just finished The Ruthless Elimination of Hurry. When I say 354 00:20:54,480 --> 00:20:57,639 Speaker 1: game change, your guys, I am ready to simplify my 355 00:20:57,800 --> 00:21:00,280 Speaker 1: entire life. You know. It opened my eyes to a 356 00:21:00,280 --> 00:21:02,639 Speaker 1: lot of things and things that distract us from living 357 00:21:02,640 --> 00:21:05,320 Speaker 1: more like Jesus and really focusing on him. There are 358 00:21:05,320 --> 00:21:07,359 Speaker 1: so many things that are in our lives that are 359 00:21:07,480 --> 00:21:10,000 Speaker 1: complete distractions from what we should really be focused on. 360 00:21:10,359 --> 00:21:13,480 Speaker 1: So that's another good book. Shout out pastor doctor Darius 361 00:21:13,560 --> 00:21:18,720 Speaker 1: Daniels for recommending that book, really good book, game changer 362 00:21:18,760 --> 00:21:22,080 Speaker 1: that I would implore you guys to read. I'm a 363 00:21:22,119 --> 00:21:25,359 Speaker 1: bookwork Now, should we start a book club is China? Yes, Yes, 364 00:21:26,720 --> 00:21:30,040 Speaker 1: let's do it. Let's do it alright. Financial advice I 365 00:21:30,080 --> 00:21:32,919 Speaker 1: wish I knew when I was twenty one. Whoo, this 366 00:21:32,960 --> 00:21:35,199 Speaker 1: is a good one, cause y'all that's why I'm so 367 00:21:35,240 --> 00:21:37,720 Speaker 1: big on financial literacy, cause I made so many mistakes 368 00:21:38,040 --> 00:21:42,399 Speaker 1: as a young one knowing that your income should be 369 00:21:42,480 --> 00:21:47,000 Speaker 1: four times your rent. So backstory, I moved to Washington, 370 00:21:47,080 --> 00:21:50,560 Speaker 1: DC from Martin, Tennessee. When I stayed at home and 371 00:21:51,320 --> 00:21:52,560 Speaker 1: my p I never told it. I don't know. I 372 00:21:52,560 --> 00:21:54,480 Speaker 1: think I've shared this with you, but my parents. My 373 00:21:54,560 --> 00:21:56,479 Speaker 1: dad built every house that we lived in, and he 374 00:21:56,520 --> 00:21:59,199 Speaker 1: also built some apartments cause it's a college town, so 375 00:21:59,240 --> 00:22:02,399 Speaker 1: we had twelve units. It was two buildings, twelve units. 376 00:22:02,440 --> 00:22:05,280 Speaker 1: So in college I stayed in one of the units, 377 00:22:05,320 --> 00:22:08,800 Speaker 1: the rent was three fifty. I paid eighty seven fifty, 378 00:22:09,000 --> 00:22:13,720 Speaker 1: like cause my parents own the apartments. So going from 379 00:22:13,720 --> 00:22:15,879 Speaker 1: that and then just being able to do whatever I 380 00:22:15,880 --> 00:22:17,520 Speaker 1: wanted to do with my money, cause my dad was like, 381 00:22:17,720 --> 00:22:20,639 Speaker 1: just pay this, pay your utilities, and we'll take care 382 00:22:20,640 --> 00:22:23,360 Speaker 1: of everything else. Still he still paid my car insurance 383 00:22:23,400 --> 00:22:28,400 Speaker 1: and car payments, all those things. And I moved out 384 00:22:28,600 --> 00:22:31,399 Speaker 1: and I had no idea how to manage money. I 385 00:22:31,480 --> 00:22:36,359 Speaker 1: had no idea of the core financial literacy principles that 386 00:22:36,400 --> 00:22:38,960 Speaker 1: I should know. And when I tell you, I learned 387 00:22:39,000 --> 00:22:42,399 Speaker 1: so many hard lessons when I moved to DC. So 388 00:22:42,440 --> 00:22:44,560 Speaker 1: that was one thing. And not even tell adults, cause 389 00:22:44,560 --> 00:22:46,840 Speaker 1: you be surprised how many people don't know that, even 390 00:22:47,320 --> 00:22:49,600 Speaker 1: later on in the age, that your income stry four 391 00:22:49,640 --> 00:22:53,439 Speaker 1: times your rent. Also, you should pay yourself first, you know, 392 00:22:53,480 --> 00:22:55,880 Speaker 1: you should save money every time you get paid, save, 393 00:22:56,280 --> 00:22:58,439 Speaker 1: give yourself something to live off of, and then tie. 394 00:22:59,480 --> 00:23:02,760 Speaker 1: I wasn't say anything, So that's another thing I would say. 395 00:23:03,760 --> 00:23:07,040 Speaker 1: And then as you get more money and you realize, okay, 396 00:23:07,119 --> 00:23:09,320 Speaker 1: i've got a little nests egg here, take some of 397 00:23:09,359 --> 00:23:12,520 Speaker 1: that and put it into an account that grows interests 398 00:23:12,520 --> 00:23:14,720 Speaker 1: where your money is making money. A lot of people 399 00:23:14,760 --> 00:23:17,880 Speaker 1: don't know that there are different accounts that you can 400 00:23:17,920 --> 00:23:19,840 Speaker 1: put that are interest bearing accounts that you can put 401 00:23:19,920 --> 00:23:22,919 Speaker 1: money into that can grow f e up to like 402 00:23:23,119 --> 00:23:24,840 Speaker 1: sometimes I don't know what the highest I know like 403 00:23:24,880 --> 00:23:27,240 Speaker 1: it can start off of even like four point five percent. 404 00:23:27,640 --> 00:23:30,080 Speaker 1: That can grow over time no matter how much you 405 00:23:30,080 --> 00:23:33,119 Speaker 1: put in there. So I think that if we knew 406 00:23:33,200 --> 00:23:36,359 Speaker 1: more of that, we would do better make better decisions. 407 00:23:36,359 --> 00:23:38,320 Speaker 1: So those are the things I definitely wish I knew. 408 00:23:38,320 --> 00:23:41,480 Speaker 1: I'm I'm learning now and I'm trying to share as well. 409 00:23:41,680 --> 00:23:46,320 Speaker 1: What is my dream role? Ah? So many, but I 410 00:23:46,359 --> 00:23:49,040 Speaker 1: want to work on a procedural. I love Law and Order. 411 00:23:49,080 --> 00:23:52,200 Speaker 1: I can literally watch every episode and not get old. 412 00:23:52,240 --> 00:23:53,960 Speaker 1: It doesn't matter if the rerun, if I seen it 413 00:23:54,000 --> 00:23:57,199 Speaker 1: again a million times. I love Law and Order and 414 00:23:58,119 --> 00:24:01,000 Speaker 1: I would love to do a show like that, play 415 00:24:01,040 --> 00:24:04,440 Speaker 1: a detective, FBI agent. I love those type of shows. 416 00:24:05,800 --> 00:24:09,320 Speaker 1: I also would love to do an action thriller. I 417 00:24:09,400 --> 00:24:15,280 Speaker 1: wanna do something like that, and a comedy cause I 418 00:24:15,320 --> 00:24:21,480 Speaker 1: think I'm funny. I mean it's that's what people tell me. Yeah, 419 00:24:21,880 --> 00:24:24,119 Speaker 1: when is the album coming out? Honey? I wanna know 420 00:24:24,160 --> 00:24:28,040 Speaker 1: the same thing I'm play. We are working on the album. 421 00:24:28,119 --> 00:24:31,119 Speaker 1: So many things going on, so scheduling getting into the 422 00:24:31,160 --> 00:24:35,440 Speaker 1: studio and working with the team, schedules, so many different 423 00:24:35,440 --> 00:24:37,760 Speaker 1: people that play a part in me getting in the 424 00:24:37,760 --> 00:24:40,040 Speaker 1: studio to create the music. I'm just going by myself. 425 00:24:40,080 --> 00:24:43,439 Speaker 1: So we are working on that and I've got some 426 00:24:43,560 --> 00:24:46,920 Speaker 1: amazing songs already recorded and I cannot wait to share 427 00:24:46,960 --> 00:24:49,440 Speaker 1: with you. But just know that as soon as it's ready, 428 00:24:49,440 --> 00:24:52,360 Speaker 1: you guys will be the first to know. Do I 429 00:24:52,440 --> 00:24:55,040 Speaker 1: have any mentors? Yeah, I mean I I do. I 430 00:24:55,080 --> 00:24:58,960 Speaker 1: have amazing people in my life. Tyler Perry is one 431 00:24:59,160 --> 00:25:02,240 Speaker 1: of my great this mentors, someone that I call on 432 00:25:02,520 --> 00:25:05,400 Speaker 1: pretty much about every facet of my life, whether it's 433 00:25:06,080 --> 00:25:14,040 Speaker 1: relationally or financially, business decisions, career decisions, even ideas that 434 00:25:14,080 --> 00:25:15,840 Speaker 1: I have. I I talk to him about it because 435 00:25:15,840 --> 00:25:18,800 Speaker 1: he's done it at the highest level, and I'm blessed 436 00:25:18,800 --> 00:25:20,639 Speaker 1: to have someone who has done it at the highest 437 00:25:20,720 --> 00:25:24,000 Speaker 1: level to really get that insight as I continue to 438 00:25:24,119 --> 00:25:28,720 Speaker 1: climb and and try to go higher. I would say, 439 00:25:30,560 --> 00:25:35,040 Speaker 1: even like in this industry, I would say de val 440 00:25:35,119 --> 00:25:39,000 Speaker 1: Elis my co star, is an incredible mentor because he's 441 00:25:39,000 --> 00:25:40,919 Speaker 1: seen a lot and done a lot. He's able to 442 00:25:40,960 --> 00:25:43,199 Speaker 1: help me navigate a lot of things, and I do 443 00:25:43,280 --> 00:25:44,800 Speaker 1: the same for him. On the business side. I may 444 00:25:44,840 --> 00:25:47,200 Speaker 1: know something that he may not be privy to, and 445 00:25:47,200 --> 00:25:49,679 Speaker 1: and we share. We're not gatekeepers. We share information. But 446 00:25:49,960 --> 00:25:52,119 Speaker 1: he's also someone that I can go to and say, hey, 447 00:25:52,160 --> 00:25:54,439 Speaker 1: do like I'm struggling with this, how do you flash 448 00:25:54,440 --> 00:25:56,560 Speaker 1: to handle this? And and he gives the best advice. 449 00:25:57,560 --> 00:25:59,359 Speaker 1: And also Mom and Dad, you know, I still lean 450 00:25:59,440 --> 00:26:02,960 Speaker 1: on them as well. Any strategies for planning out my content, 451 00:26:03,119 --> 00:26:06,720 Speaker 1: let me tell you guys, Uh, being a content creator 452 00:26:06,760 --> 00:26:10,680 Speaker 1: can take up so much time. Uh, I find myself 453 00:26:11,200 --> 00:26:15,320 Speaker 1: when I'm really in my creator bag, I it takes 454 00:26:15,400 --> 00:26:17,159 Speaker 1: up a lot of times. So you do have to 455 00:26:17,200 --> 00:26:19,320 Speaker 1: plan it out. So I try to take a day 456 00:26:19,359 --> 00:26:21,240 Speaker 1: out of the week to kind of plan what I 457 00:26:21,280 --> 00:26:24,480 Speaker 1: wanna shoot, when I wanna drop it based around whether 458 00:26:24,760 --> 00:26:26,560 Speaker 1: what episode is coming out, what time of the month 459 00:26:26,560 --> 00:26:29,159 Speaker 1: it is. There's so many things that go behind the 460 00:26:29,200 --> 00:26:32,200 Speaker 1: strategy of when we put certain things out, our pieces 461 00:26:32,200 --> 00:26:35,320 Speaker 1: of content out. But yeah, I'm trying to get a 462 00:26:35,359 --> 00:26:38,080 Speaker 1: handle on that because I wanna be consistent. But it 463 00:26:38,119 --> 00:26:42,240 Speaker 1: also takes up a lot of times. So yeah, we're 464 00:26:42,280 --> 00:26:45,840 Speaker 1: working on that. Mm. A day in the life when 465 00:26:45,880 --> 00:26:52,040 Speaker 1: we're not traveling or working, I wake up, I'll get up, 466 00:26:52,760 --> 00:26:57,879 Speaker 1: do my meditation, read my Bible journal, and most of 467 00:26:57,880 --> 00:26:59,200 Speaker 1: the time just try to read a chapter of the 468 00:26:59,240 --> 00:27:02,400 Speaker 1: book that I'm reading for that time, and then I'll 469 00:27:02,440 --> 00:27:08,000 Speaker 1: work out. I will run errands if I need to. 470 00:27:08,359 --> 00:27:10,879 Speaker 1: Sometimes I don't leave the house at all if I 471 00:27:10,920 --> 00:27:13,280 Speaker 1: don't have anything to do. I I love being home. 472 00:27:13,320 --> 00:27:18,800 Speaker 1: I'm a homebody and chat with friends, binge, watch my 473 00:27:18,840 --> 00:27:23,600 Speaker 1: favorite TV show, and eat good. That's that's a day 474 00:27:23,600 --> 00:27:26,480 Speaker 1: in the life. Yeah, and shop I like. I like 475 00:27:26,480 --> 00:27:28,959 Speaker 1: online shopping cause I don't like going into the stores. 476 00:27:30,440 --> 00:27:33,640 Speaker 1: What is my take on someone who really loves guide 477 00:27:34,200 --> 00:27:38,240 Speaker 1: but wants to have a little look or too. Mm? Okay, Well, 478 00:27:38,880 --> 00:27:43,080 Speaker 1: as we all know, Jesus turned water into wine. Kay, 479 00:27:43,600 --> 00:27:46,280 Speaker 1: And if you read the text. In the text, it 480 00:27:46,400 --> 00:27:49,080 Speaker 1: said they was already they'd already gone through the first 481 00:27:49,080 --> 00:27:51,720 Speaker 1: batch of wine and it was like some really good ones. 482 00:27:51,760 --> 00:27:53,280 Speaker 1: So they was already you know what I'm saying, feeling it, 483 00:27:53,320 --> 00:27:55,440 Speaker 1: you know. And then his mama said, hey, go on 484 00:27:55,480 --> 00:27:57,240 Speaker 1: and do that thing you do. You know what I'm saying. 485 00:27:57,480 --> 00:27:59,480 Speaker 1: So He's like, man, I'm alright, cool, So I don't 486 00:27:59,480 --> 00:28:02,000 Speaker 1: wanna do that. Do what I see a dude, she 487 00:28:02,000 --> 00:28:05,600 Speaker 1: give 'em the turl you go, And he said, alright, 488 00:28:05,640 --> 00:28:07,560 Speaker 1: bet so he went ahead and turned that thing that 489 00:28:07,680 --> 00:28:09,480 Speaker 1: why didn't wine? You know what I'm saying. So, I 490 00:28:09,480 --> 00:28:11,239 Speaker 1: don't think there's anything wrong with it. As long as 491 00:28:11,240 --> 00:28:13,560 Speaker 1: you're not getting intoxicated. You have to know your limits. 492 00:28:14,240 --> 00:28:17,440 Speaker 1: Of course, you have to be safe, and I do 493 00:28:17,520 --> 00:28:22,280 Speaker 1: feel that responsibly. There are a lot of studies that 494 00:28:22,320 --> 00:28:25,360 Speaker 1: are coming out just saying that there's certain health risks, 495 00:28:25,400 --> 00:28:26,959 Speaker 1: so you have to make sure you're drinking the right 496 00:28:27,000 --> 00:28:31,320 Speaker 1: type of liquor, that you're not just out here binge drinking, 497 00:28:31,600 --> 00:28:34,239 Speaker 1: you know, and and not being responsible with it. But 498 00:28:34,320 --> 00:28:36,320 Speaker 1: I don't see anything wrong with it. I love me 499 00:28:36,359 --> 00:28:38,520 Speaker 1: a glass of wine. I love me a lemon drop. 500 00:28:39,200 --> 00:28:43,000 Speaker 1: And anybody got a problem with it, judge your mama, 501 00:28:43,320 --> 00:28:48,280 Speaker 1: not me, mkay. And that's that on that. If I 502 00:28:48,320 --> 00:28:53,840 Speaker 1: could raid any celebrities closet, who would it be? And why? Man? 503 00:28:53,880 --> 00:29:03,040 Speaker 1: Okay ooh mm, celebrities closet? Rihanna's closet. I would raid 504 00:29:03,120 --> 00:29:07,640 Speaker 1: Rihanna's closet. She is the ultimate Fashionissa, Like, this girl 505 00:29:07,680 --> 00:29:09,480 Speaker 1: can do no wrong in my book when it comes 506 00:29:09,520 --> 00:29:11,800 Speaker 1: to fashion, Like she just has it. She has the 507 00:29:11,800 --> 00:29:15,960 Speaker 1: street style, she could be elegant, she's sexy, she's edgy, 508 00:29:16,040 --> 00:29:19,520 Speaker 1: she's all the things. So re read. I would come raise 509 00:29:19,520 --> 00:29:25,120 Speaker 1: your closet. For sure. I'm a former cheerleader, but I'm 510 00:29:25,160 --> 00:29:29,000 Speaker 1: also forty two. I ain't gonna do no toe touches. Okay, 511 00:29:29,680 --> 00:29:34,840 Speaker 1: I'm like, pops up. I don't know what, ye know what? 512 00:29:34,920 --> 00:29:38,360 Speaker 1: Was my my response from Patreon sold out the toe 513 00:29:38,400 --> 00:29:42,840 Speaker 1: bags before everyone else got DIBs. First of all, just 514 00:29:42,920 --> 00:29:44,840 Speaker 1: mind blown. I was on the phone with my team 515 00:29:44,880 --> 00:29:47,400 Speaker 1: and we were like, y'all, everything's flying, Like it was 516 00:29:47,440 --> 00:29:51,960 Speaker 1: just selling like hotcakes, and before we could even open 517 00:29:52,000 --> 00:29:54,520 Speaker 1: it up to the public, like we literally had to 518 00:29:54,600 --> 00:29:57,000 Speaker 1: up the numbers of inventory and order more stuff in 519 00:29:57,040 --> 00:29:59,400 Speaker 1: real time. And I just I give all glory to 520 00:29:59,400 --> 00:30:00,880 Speaker 1: God because I lot of times you go into this 521 00:30:00,880 --> 00:30:02,280 Speaker 1: and you're like, we play it small, and we're like, 522 00:30:02,600 --> 00:30:04,680 Speaker 1: which was responsible? We play it small and we're like, Okay, 523 00:30:04,720 --> 00:30:06,440 Speaker 1: let's just do this many of this and just see 524 00:30:06,440 --> 00:30:09,720 Speaker 1: how it does. But when I tell you my Patreon 525 00:30:10,080 --> 00:30:13,720 Speaker 1: a kid's family, everybody you guys show up and show 526 00:30:13,760 --> 00:30:15,440 Speaker 1: out for me every single time, and I do not 527 00:30:15,480 --> 00:30:20,080 Speaker 1: take it for granted. And I know that everything we do, 528 00:30:20,160 --> 00:30:22,560 Speaker 1: we we put our best out for you guys. I 529 00:30:22,680 --> 00:30:25,400 Speaker 1: make sure that we have the best customer service. If 530 00:30:25,400 --> 00:30:27,280 Speaker 1: you have any issues, you call us and you email 531 00:30:27,360 --> 00:30:30,480 Speaker 1: us and let us know and we rectified immediately. But 532 00:30:31,280 --> 00:30:33,920 Speaker 1: one of them things, I'm telling you, when we sold out, 533 00:30:34,440 --> 00:30:37,600 Speaker 1: I was like, this is crazy. Like I was looking 534 00:30:37,640 --> 00:30:41,120 Speaker 1: at my computer like, oh my gosh, it's still going up. 535 00:30:41,120 --> 00:30:42,800 Speaker 1: I'm on the phone with its China was like are 536 00:30:42,880 --> 00:30:45,720 Speaker 1: y'all seeing this? And then we were like, okay, we 537 00:30:45,760 --> 00:30:48,080 Speaker 1: got extended so they can shop longer. It was just 538 00:30:48,080 --> 00:30:49,680 Speaker 1: a lot of it was. It was so much fun, 539 00:30:49,760 --> 00:30:53,000 Speaker 1: and it just it made me happy to know that 540 00:30:53,560 --> 00:30:56,920 Speaker 1: I have people, real people that genuinely love me and 541 00:30:57,000 --> 00:30:59,200 Speaker 1: support me, because that's hard to find in this industry. 542 00:30:59,360 --> 00:31:02,959 Speaker 1: And you work hard and you wanna provide different things 543 00:31:03,000 --> 00:31:05,520 Speaker 1: for your community, and you guys, you guys give me 544 00:31:05,600 --> 00:31:08,880 Speaker 1: ideas on new things to come out with. So I'm grateful. 545 00:31:08,960 --> 00:31:11,240 Speaker 1: Let's keep doing it. Let's keep selling out. We got 546 00:31:11,240 --> 00:31:15,520 Speaker 1: something else coming, so it's let's do it again. MM. 547 00:31:15,520 --> 00:31:19,760 Speaker 1: What is my favorite food. Oh, it's so hard because 548 00:31:19,800 --> 00:31:24,800 Speaker 1: I've I'm changing so many of my dietary choices that 549 00:31:26,280 --> 00:31:29,680 Speaker 1: my favorite food is honestly Italian food. But it that's 550 00:31:29,760 --> 00:31:38,800 Speaker 1: cheese in all every dish mostly. Yeah, I'll still stay Italian. 551 00:31:38,840 --> 00:31:45,240 Speaker 1: It'll forever have my heart. Yep A, we can't afford 552 00:31:45,280 --> 00:31:50,000 Speaker 1: you and Beyonce. Listen, the dates are dropping soon, stay tuned, 553 00:31:51,520 --> 00:31:54,200 Speaker 1: but I can tell you this mine is just one day. 554 00:31:54,840 --> 00:31:57,800 Speaker 1: You can go see Beyonce. You have way more options 555 00:31:57,800 --> 00:31:59,560 Speaker 1: to go see Beyonce, so you can spread it out, 556 00:31:59,720 --> 00:32:00,760 Speaker 1: you know, when I had to do it all at 557 00:32:00,800 --> 00:32:03,080 Speaker 1: the same time. I think I come first anyway, though, 558 00:32:03,120 --> 00:32:05,440 Speaker 1: So come see me, then go see my girl, cause 559 00:32:05,440 --> 00:32:07,320 Speaker 1: you know I'm gonna go see my girl for real, 560 00:32:07,440 --> 00:32:09,520 Speaker 1: like I love me some be I gotta go see her. 561 00:32:10,120 --> 00:32:17,800 Speaker 1: But yeah, you can do both for sure. Please. Thanks. 562 00:32:17,840 --> 00:32:22,320 Speaker 1: My favorite college memory, I would say, honestly, it was 563 00:32:22,360 --> 00:32:24,959 Speaker 1: when I won. It was two thousand and three. I 564 00:32:25,040 --> 00:32:28,680 Speaker 1: won Miss University of Tennessee at Martin, which put me 565 00:32:28,920 --> 00:32:32,160 Speaker 1: in the Miss Tennessee pageant. That was also my most 566 00:32:32,240 --> 00:32:35,320 Speaker 1: challenging year in college because I tore my achilles tendon 567 00:32:36,080 --> 00:32:40,160 Speaker 1: and I remember at that time I was done cheering. 568 00:32:40,240 --> 00:32:44,560 Speaker 1: I was coaching assistant coach for the cheer squad and 569 00:32:44,600 --> 00:32:46,120 Speaker 1: we were having an open gym and I just like 570 00:32:46,160 --> 00:32:51,200 Speaker 1: to flip. And I remember one of the Deltas cause 571 00:32:51,240 --> 00:32:53,160 Speaker 1: I was always flipping and she's like, Chris, I always 572 00:32:53,160 --> 00:32:56,479 Speaker 1: slipping and shit. Then I tore my achilles. She was like, 573 00:32:56,720 --> 00:32:59,160 Speaker 1: you was slipping this shit wady. I was like yes. 574 00:33:00,320 --> 00:33:03,920 Speaker 1: And I remember at the time my boyfriend he had 575 00:33:03,960 --> 00:33:06,560 Speaker 1: just tore his he was playing basketball tour his and 576 00:33:06,640 --> 00:33:08,040 Speaker 1: his went all the way up to if you know, 577 00:33:08,160 --> 00:33:09,760 Speaker 1: the achilles is the back of your ankle, and it 578 00:33:09,840 --> 00:33:11,920 Speaker 1: called up to his calf muscle, so they had to 579 00:33:11,960 --> 00:33:13,959 Speaker 1: literally do the incision all the way up to his 580 00:33:13,960 --> 00:33:16,240 Speaker 1: calf and pull it down to join it back together. 581 00:33:16,600 --> 00:33:18,200 Speaker 1: So as soon as I heard it pop, I just 582 00:33:18,240 --> 00:33:20,320 Speaker 1: went down and grabbed it. I was like, oh my gosh, 583 00:33:20,400 --> 00:33:21,960 Speaker 1: cause I didn't want it to coil up if it 584 00:33:22,120 --> 00:33:25,400 Speaker 1: completely torn. And I remember going to the doctor that 585 00:33:25,520 --> 00:33:29,680 Speaker 1: night and it was a husband and wife doctor and 586 00:33:29,760 --> 00:33:31,440 Speaker 1: she told her husband. She was like, she has a 587 00:33:31,440 --> 00:33:33,840 Speaker 1: Miss Tennessee pageant. You better make that scar as small 588 00:33:33,880 --> 00:33:36,080 Speaker 1: as possible. And he did. He did a really good 589 00:33:36,160 --> 00:33:38,800 Speaker 1: job on it and gratefully, it didn't completely tear. It 590 00:33:38,840 --> 00:33:42,120 Speaker 1: was literally just holding on by some strands. But I 591 00:33:42,160 --> 00:33:44,360 Speaker 1: went on to compete in miss Tennessee and it was 592 00:33:44,400 --> 00:33:49,520 Speaker 1: an incredible experience. It taught me so much just about community, 593 00:33:49,600 --> 00:33:54,000 Speaker 1: about women and supporting women, the bond that we built together, 594 00:33:54,400 --> 00:33:59,920 Speaker 1: and competing in a healthy way. Yeah. What are three 595 00:34:00,200 --> 00:34:02,080 Speaker 1: important qualities that I look for in a man? And 596 00:34:02,160 --> 00:34:07,880 Speaker 1: what are three deal breakers? Oh? This is good. Important 597 00:34:07,920 --> 00:34:12,440 Speaker 1: qualities first and foremost a believer of Jesus. Uh, I 598 00:34:12,440 --> 00:34:15,040 Speaker 1: don't really. I used to put an a a huge 599 00:34:15,040 --> 00:34:17,920 Speaker 1: emphasis on where they were in their walk. But you 600 00:34:17,960 --> 00:34:19,319 Speaker 1: have to have grace for people because I had to 601 00:34:19,360 --> 00:34:21,640 Speaker 1: know that I was once in a pl different place 602 00:34:21,680 --> 00:34:24,520 Speaker 1: and God works with us in his own timing. So 603 00:34:25,040 --> 00:34:28,160 Speaker 1: just being a believer is the number one thing. Someone 604 00:34:28,200 --> 00:34:36,080 Speaker 1: who's honest and someone who who is able to communicate 605 00:34:36,120 --> 00:34:38,640 Speaker 1: their feelings. I I love that in a man. Deal 606 00:34:38,680 --> 00:34:43,480 Speaker 1: breakers would be lying, It would be someone who is 607 00:34:44,600 --> 00:34:49,920 Speaker 1: not you don't have to be like, everybody's not gonna 608 00:34:49,920 --> 00:34:52,400 Speaker 1: be as driven as I am. But I want someone 609 00:34:52,480 --> 00:34:58,840 Speaker 1: who who is not just content with just mediocre living, 610 00:34:58,880 --> 00:35:00,400 Speaker 1: you know, like I want somebody who want us more 611 00:35:00,440 --> 00:35:03,120 Speaker 1: and who who strives for more and and wants more 612 00:35:03,160 --> 00:35:06,160 Speaker 1: out of life, So I'd be so. I guess that 613 00:35:06,200 --> 00:35:08,480 Speaker 1: would go into somebody just being lazy and content. I 614 00:35:08,520 --> 00:35:12,360 Speaker 1: don't like that. And another deal breaker would be so 615 00:35:12,560 --> 00:35:16,720 Speaker 1: anyone who treats mistreats someone of service. I like anyone 616 00:35:16,760 --> 00:35:19,319 Speaker 1: in the service industry. When I tell you like, the 617 00:35:19,360 --> 00:35:21,960 Speaker 1: biggest turnoff for me is when someone is rude to 618 00:35:21,960 --> 00:35:24,880 Speaker 1: someone that is working a job whe they're here to 619 00:35:24,880 --> 00:35:28,000 Speaker 1: serve other people. I don't play that. So that would 620 00:35:28,000 --> 00:35:31,279 Speaker 1: be the main thing made through things. Yeah, have you 621 00:35:31,320 --> 00:35:34,040 Speaker 1: lost many friends because of your celebrity status and your 622 00:35:34,080 --> 00:35:38,120 Speaker 1: walk with God? I wouldn't say I've lost many friends. 623 00:35:38,160 --> 00:35:42,160 Speaker 1: I would say that or even with your walk with God, 624 00:35:42,440 --> 00:35:45,040 Speaker 1: things are revealed and you may realize, Okay, we're not 625 00:35:45,040 --> 00:35:47,839 Speaker 1: in the same place and a lot of things that 626 00:35:48,320 --> 00:35:51,000 Speaker 1: God convicts you on. If your friends are still doing that, 627 00:35:51,360 --> 00:35:53,239 Speaker 1: you may not be able to hang with them or 628 00:35:53,239 --> 00:35:55,600 Speaker 1: talk to them in the same way because it's not 629 00:35:55,640 --> 00:35:58,319 Speaker 1: in alignment with where you are with God. As far 630 00:35:58,360 --> 00:36:01,640 Speaker 1: as like losing friends or anything like that because of that, 631 00:36:01,840 --> 00:36:04,759 Speaker 1: because of my celebrity or my walk that has I 632 00:36:04,760 --> 00:36:07,480 Speaker 1: haven't lost a lot of friends. No, if anything, it 633 00:36:07,520 --> 00:36:13,480 Speaker 1: brings us closer, you know. And it also when you 634 00:36:13,520 --> 00:36:16,239 Speaker 1: have people around you that also want better for themselves 635 00:36:16,320 --> 00:36:20,120 Speaker 1: or wanna level up, it inspires them. So, if anything, 636 00:36:20,160 --> 00:36:22,000 Speaker 1: it it has brought me closer to my friends, and 637 00:36:22,040 --> 00:36:26,040 Speaker 1: I love them for that. How do I handle the 638 00:36:26,080 --> 00:36:28,680 Speaker 1: negativity on social media and not let it get to me? 639 00:36:29,360 --> 00:36:35,040 Speaker 1: You know? There are days where I feel like I'm good, 640 00:36:35,640 --> 00:36:39,200 Speaker 1: you know, and then there are days where I wanna 641 00:36:39,480 --> 00:36:42,520 Speaker 1: say something back or I wanna respond, and some days 642 00:36:42,520 --> 00:36:47,480 Speaker 1: I do and then I delete it. But one thing 643 00:36:47,520 --> 00:36:52,000 Speaker 1: I will say is that as a celebrity, I feel 644 00:36:52,040 --> 00:36:56,400 Speaker 1: like people forget that we're human. I feel like people 645 00:36:56,440 --> 00:37:01,879 Speaker 1: forget that if you have nothing nice to sages, don't 646 00:37:01,880 --> 00:37:04,800 Speaker 1: say anything at all, you know, because if the roles 647 00:37:04,800 --> 00:37:07,880 Speaker 1: were reversed and you were in my position, would you 648 00:37:07,920 --> 00:37:13,240 Speaker 1: want someone literally like combing your entire life or judging 649 00:37:13,280 --> 00:37:16,320 Speaker 1: every little thing you do with a fine tooth comb. 650 00:37:16,480 --> 00:37:21,600 Speaker 1: You know? I understand, Y mean, everybody's entited her their opinion, 651 00:37:21,719 --> 00:37:25,239 Speaker 1: but not everything has to be said. And I just 652 00:37:25,239 --> 00:37:28,720 Speaker 1: feel like there are times where I just really wanna 653 00:37:29,000 --> 00:37:30,960 Speaker 1: put the keep it poets weedy aside. If I'm being 654 00:37:31,000 --> 00:37:36,040 Speaker 1: honest and let some of these people have it. But yeah, 655 00:37:36,080 --> 00:37:39,799 Speaker 1: he's still working on me. Okay, but yeah, and it 656 00:37:39,800 --> 00:37:42,680 Speaker 1: it's not it doesn't feel good if I'm being honest, 657 00:37:42,760 --> 00:37:46,600 Speaker 1: and I just my My hope is that people would 658 00:37:46,960 --> 00:37:50,319 Speaker 1: see the humanness and celebrities and understand that we are 659 00:37:50,480 --> 00:37:54,040 Speaker 1: just like you. We are not shielded from from having 660 00:37:54,040 --> 00:37:57,120 Speaker 1: emotions and feeling things when people talk bad about us, 661 00:37:57,760 --> 00:38:03,080 Speaker 1: So just be kind on What is my dream vacation? Uh, 662 00:38:05,360 --> 00:38:07,319 Speaker 1: my dream vacation. You know, there's a few places I 663 00:38:07,320 --> 00:38:09,200 Speaker 1: have not I haven't been to Bali. I would love 664 00:38:09,280 --> 00:38:12,239 Speaker 1: to go to Bali and maybe spend a month there, 665 00:38:12,880 --> 00:38:15,759 Speaker 1: you know, I wanna. I want to go somewhere and 666 00:38:15,800 --> 00:38:18,160 Speaker 1: maybe he's even hop around for like a month and 667 00:38:18,320 --> 00:38:21,680 Speaker 1: just be free of work, completely disconnect and be around 668 00:38:21,719 --> 00:38:25,080 Speaker 1: people I love. Maybe find my family out for a 669 00:38:25,120 --> 00:38:28,200 Speaker 1: portion of that, and then my friends for another portion, 670 00:38:28,320 --> 00:38:31,000 Speaker 1: and maybe do a week by myself. That would be 671 00:38:32,080 --> 00:38:36,920 Speaker 1: my dream vacation. How am I doing spiritually and mentally? 672 00:38:37,920 --> 00:38:40,920 Speaker 1: I will say, at the beginning of twenty twenty five, 673 00:38:40,960 --> 00:38:44,359 Speaker 1: it's been a very heavy spirit just everywhere, and we're 674 00:38:44,400 --> 00:38:47,640 Speaker 1: we're doing our best to to maintain and doing our 675 00:38:47,680 --> 00:38:51,560 Speaker 1: best to stay in good spirits and stay upbeat and positive. 676 00:38:51,640 --> 00:38:54,719 Speaker 1: But for me to say that it hasn't had an 677 00:38:54,719 --> 00:38:58,880 Speaker 1: effect on my mental and just wondering, like, God, what 678 00:38:58,920 --> 00:39:00,600 Speaker 1: are you trying to tell us? You know, I'm like, 679 00:39:00,600 --> 00:39:02,960 Speaker 1: I'm talking to him, like, God, what what's the message? 680 00:39:03,000 --> 00:39:04,759 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, help me understand what's going 681 00:39:04,800 --> 00:39:07,120 Speaker 1: on so that I can be better prepared and and 682 00:39:07,200 --> 00:39:10,080 Speaker 1: help people navigate this season because it it's a tough one. 683 00:39:11,320 --> 00:39:13,480 Speaker 1: And then also I have so many different things on 684 00:39:13,520 --> 00:39:16,680 Speaker 1: the table. I have an incredible team. But one of 685 00:39:16,719 --> 00:39:21,080 Speaker 1: my faults in life is control. I struggle with control, 686 00:39:21,160 --> 00:39:23,880 Speaker 1: and I struggle with want to be hands on with 687 00:39:23,920 --> 00:39:27,160 Speaker 1: everything because I'm such a creator and I like to 688 00:39:27,840 --> 00:39:30,120 Speaker 1: I like the whole process, but being a part of 689 00:39:30,160 --> 00:39:34,080 Speaker 1: the whole process also it's stressful at times and it 690 00:39:34,120 --> 00:39:36,839 Speaker 1: takes away from you being able to be creative as 691 00:39:36,880 --> 00:39:40,120 Speaker 1: a creator. And I think that with that added on 692 00:39:40,160 --> 00:39:44,880 Speaker 1: to everything that's going on in the world, and spiritually 693 00:39:44,960 --> 00:39:51,759 Speaker 1: God convicted me on things. It has been. It's been 694 00:39:51,800 --> 00:39:59,960 Speaker 1: a good and a tough season for me. Uh, I 695 00:40:00,000 --> 00:40:03,560 Speaker 1: I'll about something. I know you mostly probably saw the 696 00:40:03,640 --> 00:40:06,360 Speaker 1: La Craye episode. He asked me he was like, so 697 00:40:06,560 --> 00:40:09,400 Speaker 1: I heard you not having sexual marriage and I was like, 698 00:40:09,880 --> 00:40:12,000 Speaker 1: I said that, and he's like, well, I heard it 699 00:40:12,000 --> 00:40:13,440 Speaker 1: somewhere and I was like na. I was like, that 700 00:40:13,520 --> 00:40:15,040 Speaker 1: was a season in my life where I was like, Okay, God, 701 00:40:15,080 --> 00:40:18,919 Speaker 1: i'm'a do it your way. And I realized my whole 702 00:40:18,920 --> 00:40:23,640 Speaker 1: life I was doing it my way. And then I 703 00:40:23,680 --> 00:40:25,880 Speaker 1: was like, y n you know what, Like, Okay, that 704 00:40:26,000 --> 00:40:28,160 Speaker 1: was the fourth season that relationship didn't work out. So 705 00:40:28,200 --> 00:40:30,359 Speaker 1: I'm like, well, maybe doing a God's way in that 706 00:40:30,440 --> 00:40:34,680 Speaker 1: area isn't the best way to keep somebody, you know, 707 00:40:34,960 --> 00:40:39,960 Speaker 1: And which was dumb to even think. But uh, recently, 708 00:40:40,160 --> 00:40:44,279 Speaker 1: as I've been pouring more into my word and and 709 00:40:44,360 --> 00:40:48,640 Speaker 1: just seeking God, I d it was. I was reading 710 00:40:48,640 --> 00:40:50,920 Speaker 1: my Bible, y'all. I'll tell you, like every time sexual 711 00:40:50,920 --> 00:40:54,080 Speaker 1: immorality will pop up, I felt so convicted. I was like, dang, 712 00:40:54,120 --> 00:40:56,439 Speaker 1: why why is this bothering me? Like it ain't really 713 00:40:56,440 --> 00:40:58,359 Speaker 1: bothered me like this before, and it was just like 714 00:40:58,400 --> 00:41:03,600 Speaker 1: it kept convicting me. And I was like, alright, Lord, alright, 715 00:41:03,719 --> 00:41:05,000 Speaker 1: this is what you want to do, I'm gonna do it. 716 00:41:05,160 --> 00:41:07,640 Speaker 1: And it was one of the hardest things because you think, 717 00:41:07,719 --> 00:41:10,879 Speaker 1: like if I tell this person, I'm taking this off 718 00:41:10,920 --> 00:41:15,080 Speaker 1: the table. You know, what is that going? What's the 719 00:41:15,160 --> 00:41:18,839 Speaker 1: ramifications of that? Can they handle that? Because sex has 720 00:41:18,880 --> 00:41:23,880 Speaker 1: such a stronghold on people and relationships. And God was like, 721 00:41:23,880 --> 00:41:26,880 Speaker 1: either you're gonna trust me or you're not. So I 722 00:41:26,920 --> 00:41:31,600 Speaker 1: took it off the table and I wept when I 723 00:41:31,640 --> 00:41:34,000 Speaker 1: tell you, like, it was like I was in a fight. 724 00:41:34,120 --> 00:41:35,960 Speaker 1: I was like, you know how you be like like 725 00:41:36,040 --> 00:41:38,279 Speaker 1: your mama wanna take the toy that you know, like 726 00:41:38,320 --> 00:41:39,759 Speaker 1: she knows it's not good for you. You're like, but 727 00:41:39,840 --> 00:41:41,920 Speaker 1: I want it. It was like that. It was a 728 00:41:41,960 --> 00:41:44,719 Speaker 1: fight with my daddy and I was like, ugh. I 729 00:41:44,760 --> 00:41:46,320 Speaker 1: was like, I can't do this, and I was literally 730 00:41:46,360 --> 00:41:47,920 Speaker 1: in my kitchen. I remember I was leaning on the 731 00:41:48,320 --> 00:41:50,840 Speaker 1: edge of the counter and I was just bawling, crying, 732 00:41:51,360 --> 00:41:54,680 Speaker 1: And in that moment, he just said, you gotta trust 733 00:41:54,719 --> 00:41:56,680 Speaker 1: me on this, and I'm telling you it was the 734 00:41:56,719 --> 00:41:59,280 Speaker 1: best decision I made. And I knew I was serious 735 00:41:59,320 --> 00:42:03,920 Speaker 1: about it when I threw my vibrator away, Kay, and 736 00:42:03,960 --> 00:42:05,760 Speaker 1: I threw it away on the day that my cleaning 737 00:42:05,800 --> 00:42:08,160 Speaker 1: crew was coming, because I knew if I didn't, I'd 738 00:42:08,160 --> 00:42:11,040 Speaker 1: probably go back in that trash dig it up, wash 739 00:42:11,080 --> 00:42:17,880 Speaker 1: it out, okay, tee. If I'm just being real, okay. 740 00:42:17,920 --> 00:42:20,439 Speaker 1: And I was like, if I'm gonna do this, I 741 00:42:20,480 --> 00:42:22,919 Speaker 1: and I it took me a while to to throw 742 00:42:22,960 --> 00:42:24,600 Speaker 1: it out cause I would be right there in the 743 00:42:24,640 --> 00:42:27,839 Speaker 1: joy and I'm like, h nah, I ain't gonna throw that. 744 00:42:27,880 --> 00:42:30,360 Speaker 1: I they we can. We took sex off the table. 745 00:42:30,440 --> 00:42:33,160 Speaker 1: Let me just hold onto this, you know, until you 746 00:42:33,360 --> 00:42:37,919 Speaker 1: release every now and then. And God was like that too. 747 00:42:38,800 --> 00:42:42,120 Speaker 1: I said, alright, sheeesh. So I took it. I threw 748 00:42:42,160 --> 00:42:48,319 Speaker 1: it away, and uh. There's moments where I have a 749 00:42:48,320 --> 00:42:51,560 Speaker 1: little like itch where I'm like, I need to, you 750 00:42:51,600 --> 00:42:53,880 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, get some tension off. But He's like, no, 751 00:42:54,160 --> 00:42:56,400 Speaker 1: pick up the word. Read a book. These books are 752 00:42:56,400 --> 00:42:59,600 Speaker 1: really helping read a book and work out and find 753 00:42:59,640 --> 00:43:02,760 Speaker 1: other things to do with your time. And that's probably 754 00:43:02,920 --> 00:43:05,400 Speaker 1: just being obedient has been one of the best things. 755 00:43:05,440 --> 00:43:09,719 Speaker 1: But spiritually, yeah, those are some of the things I've 756 00:43:09,719 --> 00:43:13,120 Speaker 1: been going through. And spiritual warfare is real. I I 757 00:43:13,200 --> 00:43:16,480 Speaker 1: watched a documentary, not documentary, I watch a a podcast 758 00:43:16,520 --> 00:43:21,040 Speaker 1: where this woman was saying, we give ourselves to people 759 00:43:21,920 --> 00:43:24,239 Speaker 1: because we don't trust God that it's gonna work. The 760 00:43:24,239 --> 00:43:26,279 Speaker 1: way he wants it to work, and it was so 761 00:43:26,400 --> 00:43:28,440 Speaker 1: profound to me. I was like, she's so right, Like 762 00:43:28,480 --> 00:43:30,880 Speaker 1: we try to put everything into our own hands and 763 00:43:30,920 --> 00:43:33,959 Speaker 1: control everything instead of letting God control it and living 764 00:43:33,960 --> 00:43:36,239 Speaker 1: the way he wants us to live. So not saying 765 00:43:36,280 --> 00:43:40,640 Speaker 1: I'm perfect in any way, just another moment where I'm 766 00:43:40,680 --> 00:43:44,799 Speaker 1: sharing with you where I am in my journey, my 767 00:43:45,000 --> 00:43:49,840 Speaker 1: celebrity crush. Who is my stuff? The cush right now? 768 00:43:51,120 --> 00:43:53,920 Speaker 1: Chrylad thinks money. He's not married cause it used to 769 00:43:53,920 --> 00:44:00,960 Speaker 1: be interesting. He's married now metha man is married? Who else? 770 00:44:02,880 --> 00:44:09,040 Speaker 1: Damn sing it just got some abs now it was 771 00:44:09,440 --> 00:44:16,040 Speaker 1: uh Hodge h altess Eltice, Yes, Altus Hodge. Yeah, he 772 00:44:16,160 --> 00:44:19,680 Speaker 1: got me on that cross. Baby. Oh look, I shun 773 00:44:22,400 --> 00:44:28,279 Speaker 1: you got me on that cross Altie Hodge. No, he's an amazing, 774 00:44:28,800 --> 00:44:34,279 Speaker 1: incredible actor and a very handsome man. So yeah, I 775 00:44:34,360 --> 00:44:43,200 Speaker 1: say my slip christ is outist. Yeah yeah. Ooh, Crystal's 776 00:44:43,239 --> 00:44:46,840 Speaker 1: Jim for today's episode. If I had the say anything, 777 00:44:46,960 --> 00:44:50,560 Speaker 1: I would say, y'all are nosy. He's so nosy, But 778 00:44:50,600 --> 00:44:52,560 Speaker 1: I love it. I love it. One of the things 779 00:44:52,600 --> 00:44:54,520 Speaker 1: you guys asked me a lot as we were going 780 00:44:54,560 --> 00:44:57,040 Speaker 1: through the question was how are you doing? How's your mental? 781 00:44:57,080 --> 00:45:00,040 Speaker 1: How's your spirit? And I appreciate that I don't and 782 00:45:00,120 --> 00:45:01,759 Speaker 1: get asked that enough and it lets me know that 783 00:45:01,800 --> 00:45:04,880 Speaker 1: you guys really really care and I appreciate you guys 784 00:45:04,880 --> 00:45:11,960 Speaker 1: for that. Thank you all so much for spending the 785 00:45:12,000 --> 00:45:14,400 Speaker 1: day with me and getting all up in my business. 786 00:45:14,840 --> 00:45:17,640 Speaker 1: I had a great time answering your questions and giving 787 00:45:17,640 --> 00:45:20,120 Speaker 1: you guys a deeper look and to see our age. 788 00:45:20,200 --> 00:45:22,480 Speaker 1: You can follow me on all social media platforms at 789 00:45:22,520 --> 00:45:25,200 Speaker 1: Love Chris Ornee. You can also follow the show at 790 00:45:25,239 --> 00:45:27,759 Speaker 1: keep It Positive Sweetie. If you want to write into 791 00:45:27,800 --> 00:45:29,960 Speaker 1: our positive Outcomes listener letter, you can send us an 792 00:45:30,000 --> 00:45:33,120 Speaker 1: email at keep It Positive Sweetie at gmail dot com. 793 00:45:33,360 --> 00:45:35,759 Speaker 1: In the meantime, in between time, you already know what 794 00:45:35,840 --> 00:45:38,479 Speaker 1: to do. Keep it Positive, Sweeties. I'll see you guys 795 00:45:38,520 --> 00:45:39,040 Speaker 1: next time.