1 00:00:00,080 --> 00:00:12,239 Speaker 1: Mm from grandmothers who whispered in their baby girl in 2 00:00:13,400 --> 00:00:16,920 Speaker 1: two fathers on dimly lit street corners, instructing young soldiers 3 00:00:16,920 --> 00:00:20,959 Speaker 1: to always keep their eyes open. You be queen, you 4 00:00:21,040 --> 00:00:24,279 Speaker 1: were fired. You will pass through centuries on the hands 5 00:00:24,320 --> 00:00:28,720 Speaker 1: of your daughters. They called you wisdom. Proverbs on the 6 00:00:28,800 --> 00:00:32,320 Speaker 1: backs of diamond eyed school children who growing into hymnals 7 00:00:32,360 --> 00:00:37,200 Speaker 1: recited by amethyst holding urban philosophers who recited neighborhood commandments 8 00:00:37,240 --> 00:00:40,680 Speaker 1: out of the windows of restored Alchemedo cheriots. To keep 9 00:00:40,720 --> 00:00:46,080 Speaker 1: the warmth of their blood, be wise, be smart, being black, 10 00:00:46,120 --> 00:00:50,760 Speaker 1: Opal Brown courts, bloodstone and prayer. Be every form of 11 00:00:50,880 --> 00:00:57,080 Speaker 1: Jim se King told, scribe, scribe, told son, son, told wife, 12 00:00:57,480 --> 00:01:00,400 Speaker 1: wife told her daughter, and daughter told the as this is, 13 00:01:00,640 --> 00:01:03,320 Speaker 1: And the innsts has told me that you would come 14 00:01:04,040 --> 00:01:08,960 Speaker 1: to give wisdom. Thousands They said you would come. Dropping Jim, 15 00:01:09,160 --> 00:01:14,360 Speaker 1: Dropping Jim. Hey, welcome back another episode of the Dropping 16 00:01:14,480 --> 00:01:18,880 Speaker 1: Jim's Podcasts. We're in episode nineteen today. I'm your host, 17 00:01:18,959 --> 00:01:23,000 Speaker 1: Deevie Brown, and it has been a while. I know 18 00:01:23,120 --> 00:01:26,120 Speaker 1: y'all got questions. I have some answers for you, So 19 00:01:26,160 --> 00:01:28,640 Speaker 1: we're really going to explore so much in this episode 20 00:01:28,640 --> 00:01:30,919 Speaker 1: We're gonna talk about all that's been going on throughout 21 00:01:30,920 --> 00:01:34,120 Speaker 1: the pandemic, what I've been up to, some really big 22 00:01:34,160 --> 00:01:36,720 Speaker 1: epiphanies that I've had in this time, and I really 23 00:01:36,760 --> 00:01:40,560 Speaker 1: want to touch on our collective consciousness. So what we 24 00:01:40,600 --> 00:01:45,280 Speaker 1: are witnessing in the world, how we're experiencing it. We're 25 00:01:45,280 --> 00:01:48,360 Speaker 1: gonna unpack all that good stuff this episode. But I 26 00:01:48,440 --> 00:01:52,120 Speaker 1: would be remiss if I didn't start off by saying 27 00:01:52,480 --> 00:01:56,920 Speaker 1: thank you God. Number one, thank you God for the 28 00:01:56,960 --> 00:02:00,560 Speaker 1: gifts of our lives and even for the gifts of 29 00:02:00,600 --> 00:02:04,280 Speaker 1: the pandemic and the gifts of this really challenging moment 30 00:02:04,320 --> 00:02:09,040 Speaker 1: in time. But also thank you God for Joe Biden 31 00:02:09,200 --> 00:02:15,359 Speaker 1: and Kamala Harris. They are officially our president and vice 32 00:02:15,400 --> 00:02:19,079 Speaker 1: president elect, and my god, you know, when I thought 33 00:02:19,600 --> 00:02:22,799 Speaker 1: as this election cycle was happening, I mean, everything about 34 00:02:22,840 --> 00:02:25,880 Speaker 1: the world has been so strange, So that piece of 35 00:02:25,919 --> 00:02:28,359 Speaker 1: the puzzle was really you know, we're all trying to 36 00:02:28,400 --> 00:02:30,720 Speaker 1: wrap our heads around what's going to happen in our 37 00:02:30,760 --> 00:02:34,800 Speaker 1: best case scenarios and the worst case scenarios. And I 38 00:02:34,880 --> 00:02:37,720 Speaker 1: didn't know how it was going to feel either way, 39 00:02:37,760 --> 00:02:40,120 Speaker 1: because we're still also in the midst of being embedded 40 00:02:40,160 --> 00:02:44,560 Speaker 1: in this pandemic in the coronavirus COVID nineteen. You know, 41 00:02:44,600 --> 00:02:48,519 Speaker 1: there's so many things, so many things happening with our economy, 42 00:02:48,760 --> 00:02:52,040 Speaker 1: so much warring happening within ourselves and with each other. 43 00:02:52,320 --> 00:02:55,040 Speaker 1: You know, I was like, if we win, what's gonna happen. 44 00:02:55,040 --> 00:02:58,560 Speaker 1: If we lose, what's gonna happen. Um. But it felt 45 00:02:59,800 --> 00:03:03,239 Speaker 1: like for the first time in a really long time, 46 00:03:03,840 --> 00:03:07,320 Speaker 1: we were able to taste hope. We don't know what's 47 00:03:07,360 --> 00:03:10,000 Speaker 1: going to happen. We don't know really how all of 48 00:03:10,000 --> 00:03:13,000 Speaker 1: this is going to unfold because the current president is 49 00:03:13,160 --> 00:03:16,360 Speaker 1: a wild wild boy, um, so we don't really know 50 00:03:17,000 --> 00:03:19,920 Speaker 1: how all of that is going to play out. You know, 51 00:03:20,080 --> 00:03:23,119 Speaker 1: the Joe and Kamala have so much on their shoulders 52 00:03:23,200 --> 00:03:27,799 Speaker 1: right now, much like Obama did coming in after George Bush. 53 00:03:27,840 --> 00:03:30,520 Speaker 1: There's so much on their shoulders and so much that 54 00:03:30,600 --> 00:03:33,320 Speaker 1: has to be healed and so much that has to 55 00:03:33,400 --> 00:03:36,960 Speaker 1: be repaired. So we'll see how that unfolds. It's a big, 56 00:03:37,000 --> 00:03:40,720 Speaker 1: big job. But I think ultimately in this moment, something 57 00:03:40,760 --> 00:03:44,600 Speaker 1: we can really let ourselves do is savor the hope, 58 00:03:45,200 --> 00:03:49,960 Speaker 1: this idea that you know, maybe we can be reconnected 59 00:03:50,000 --> 00:03:53,440 Speaker 1: with the things that we loved about life and people 60 00:03:53,800 --> 00:03:56,680 Speaker 1: before this year kind of unfolded in the way that 61 00:03:56,720 --> 00:04:00,320 Speaker 1: it did. So I don't think too much about all 62 00:04:00,360 --> 00:04:02,240 Speaker 1: the things and all the systems and how we're gonna 63 00:04:02,280 --> 00:04:04,560 Speaker 1: make it work. Let yourself take a little moment to 64 00:04:04,920 --> 00:04:09,920 Speaker 1: dive into that remembrance of what it feels like to 65 00:04:10,040 --> 00:04:14,400 Speaker 1: be optimistic and to be able to look forward with 66 00:04:14,520 --> 00:04:19,200 Speaker 1: an idea of the best possible thing happening for our 67 00:04:19,279 --> 00:04:23,080 Speaker 1: highest good. I am savoring that. I am loving that. 68 00:04:23,760 --> 00:04:26,880 Speaker 1: And even though you know so much hasn't changed with out, 69 00:04:27,160 --> 00:04:30,520 Speaker 1: you know, our work and our day to day lives 70 00:04:30,560 --> 00:04:32,880 Speaker 1: and all of the things. Um I woke up this 71 00:04:32,960 --> 00:04:36,400 Speaker 1: morning and I came here and the sky felt brighter, 72 00:04:37,320 --> 00:04:41,839 Speaker 1: and so much more felt possible. So I feel deeply, 73 00:04:42,000 --> 00:04:44,479 Speaker 1: deeply grateful for that, and for this moment. I also 74 00:04:44,480 --> 00:04:47,000 Speaker 1: want to say, my God, I am beyond thrilled and 75 00:04:47,040 --> 00:04:52,560 Speaker 1: excited at the knowingness that this incredible woman is going 76 00:04:52,600 --> 00:04:55,000 Speaker 1: to be the vice president and potentially on the road 77 00:04:55,040 --> 00:04:58,320 Speaker 1: to a presidency of her own. Obviously, what we have 78 00:04:58,400 --> 00:05:01,600 Speaker 1: been seeing, you know, in our in our feeds, how 79 00:05:01,640 --> 00:05:05,240 Speaker 1: we've been feeling this is this is just historic, beyond measure, 80 00:05:05,400 --> 00:05:12,480 Speaker 1: the first female vice president, the first Indian American Jamaican 81 00:05:12,480 --> 00:05:18,440 Speaker 1: American vice president, the first woman with brown skin in 82 00:05:18,520 --> 00:05:23,920 Speaker 1: the White House. My god. And she comes from California. 83 00:05:24,040 --> 00:05:26,520 Speaker 1: She likes to wear chuck, She's from the town, She's 84 00:05:26,560 --> 00:05:30,000 Speaker 1: from Oakland. Like, I'm just so excited about the amount 85 00:05:30,000 --> 00:05:32,360 Speaker 1: of flavor that is going to come into this place 86 00:05:32,920 --> 00:05:35,640 Speaker 1: and come into this world. And not just that, but 87 00:05:35,720 --> 00:05:39,839 Speaker 1: the amount of experience. You know it. There's so much 88 00:05:39,880 --> 00:05:43,839 Speaker 1: to be said about letting people who know how to 89 00:05:43,839 --> 00:05:46,120 Speaker 1: do their job to their job. So I'll say that, 90 00:05:46,360 --> 00:05:48,560 Speaker 1: but I also want to really touch on and share 91 00:05:48,600 --> 00:05:50,920 Speaker 1: with you guys this fun story that I had so 92 00:05:51,160 --> 00:05:54,880 Speaker 1: last year. Uh, John Witherspoon may he rest in peace, 93 00:05:55,000 --> 00:05:59,960 Speaker 1: and his beautiful wife Angela Witherspoon, they held a fundraiser 94 00:06:00,160 --> 00:06:02,680 Speaker 1: for Kamala Harris when she was going to be running 95 00:06:02,680 --> 00:06:05,480 Speaker 1: for the presidency. So this is about a little over 96 00:06:05,480 --> 00:06:08,840 Speaker 1: a year ago, I believe, um. And they have this 97 00:06:09,000 --> 00:06:12,320 Speaker 1: luncheon at their home and their home is so beautiful, 98 00:06:12,440 --> 00:06:16,839 Speaker 1: just gorgeous, really enchanting. They have this outdoor luncheon to 99 00:06:17,000 --> 00:06:19,440 Speaker 1: meet Kamala and to hear her speak, and it was 100 00:06:19,560 --> 00:06:22,920 Speaker 1: really small. There was probably like maybe fifty people their 101 00:06:23,160 --> 00:06:26,760 Speaker 1: tops and I got a ticket and one of my 102 00:06:26,880 --> 00:06:29,960 Speaker 1: really close friends who I had on the podcast Humble 103 00:06:30,000 --> 00:06:33,400 Speaker 1: O conga credible human spirit. He and I went to 104 00:06:33,480 --> 00:06:36,640 Speaker 1: that together and we got to sit directly in front 105 00:06:36,640 --> 00:06:39,279 Speaker 1: of Kamala. And at that time, I was really indecided 106 00:06:39,320 --> 00:06:41,320 Speaker 1: about what direction I wanted to go in. I mean, 107 00:06:41,360 --> 00:06:43,560 Speaker 1: I think there was like fifteen people in the running 108 00:06:43,960 --> 00:06:47,080 Speaker 1: for the Democratic seat. But I knew that I needed 109 00:06:47,120 --> 00:06:49,040 Speaker 1: to see her and I knew that I needed to 110 00:06:49,080 --> 00:06:51,120 Speaker 1: hear from her, and so we went to their home 111 00:06:51,440 --> 00:06:54,000 Speaker 1: and we got to sit with her for lunch, and 112 00:06:54,160 --> 00:06:58,200 Speaker 1: she was just exquisite. I mean, both of us throughout 113 00:06:58,240 --> 00:07:00,960 Speaker 1: the whole day kept looking at each other there and 114 00:07:01,080 --> 00:07:04,000 Speaker 1: Jess like eyes kind of wild, like wow, she's magic. 115 00:07:04,320 --> 00:07:07,400 Speaker 1: It was actually such a beautiful experience. On our way out, 116 00:07:07,480 --> 00:07:10,200 Speaker 1: there were different community leaders from Los Angeles there and 117 00:07:10,240 --> 00:07:12,680 Speaker 1: we had a chance to pray for her. So I 118 00:07:12,720 --> 00:07:15,360 Speaker 1: actually had a chance to lay hands on Kamala and 119 00:07:15,520 --> 00:07:18,520 Speaker 1: we said a beautiful prayer for her and for her 120 00:07:18,600 --> 00:07:21,400 Speaker 1: journey and for her path. And I hope one day 121 00:07:21,400 --> 00:07:23,160 Speaker 1: I can find the pictures of that, because it was 122 00:07:23,200 --> 00:07:26,240 Speaker 1: a really special moment that I would never forget. And 123 00:07:26,280 --> 00:07:28,880 Speaker 1: also something I'm kind of hype about right now is 124 00:07:28,920 --> 00:07:31,520 Speaker 1: that do you all know what her middle name is? 125 00:07:32,800 --> 00:07:37,800 Speaker 1: Her middle name is Debbie, Debbie d v I. Yes, So, 126 00:07:37,960 --> 00:07:41,480 Speaker 1: I mean, you know, it doesn't actually mean anything, but 127 00:07:41,560 --> 00:07:43,040 Speaker 1: at the same time, I'm going to take credit for 128 00:07:43,080 --> 00:07:48,320 Speaker 1: it and think it's amazing. So there we are. So 129 00:07:48,440 --> 00:07:50,320 Speaker 1: let me catch you guys up. What have I been 130 00:07:50,400 --> 00:07:53,280 Speaker 1: up to while I've been gone. Well, our last episode 131 00:07:53,320 --> 00:07:56,680 Speaker 1: aired in April, and that episode, I believe was revolved 132 00:07:56,720 --> 00:07:59,720 Speaker 1: around our Divine time Out challenge. Big shout out to 133 00:07:59,760 --> 00:08:02,720 Speaker 1: any body that happened to do that with us. Uh, 134 00:08:02,760 --> 00:08:07,440 Speaker 1: it was incredible. We did that on UM, we did 135 00:08:07,440 --> 00:08:10,000 Speaker 1: that on karma blist dot com and the new community 136 00:08:10,000 --> 00:08:12,400 Speaker 1: that I created, which is called Karma Gang, and learned 137 00:08:12,440 --> 00:08:16,360 Speaker 1: about self care, really prepared for what this pandemic could 138 00:08:16,440 --> 00:08:19,040 Speaker 1: or would be. And so that was where I kind 139 00:08:19,040 --> 00:08:21,240 Speaker 1: of left off with you guys. And there were a 140 00:08:21,280 --> 00:08:24,360 Speaker 1: couple of reasons why I have been away from the 141 00:08:24,400 --> 00:08:27,560 Speaker 1: mic um lots of personal reasons which I won't be 142 00:08:27,600 --> 00:08:30,320 Speaker 1: diving into as we get through some of these shows, 143 00:08:30,360 --> 00:08:33,320 Speaker 1: because it gets very spicy and juicy to that respect, 144 00:08:34,120 --> 00:08:37,480 Speaker 1: but also I was in the midst of finalizing this 145 00:08:37,640 --> 00:08:41,800 Speaker 1: deal of how You're currently hearing Me, which was getting 146 00:08:42,080 --> 00:08:46,560 Speaker 1: this beautiful podcast onto the Black Effect Network on I 147 00:08:46,760 --> 00:08:50,080 Speaker 1: Heart Radio. One of my dearest friends, one of my 148 00:08:50,200 --> 00:08:53,720 Speaker 1: favorite human spirit, Charlotmagne, that God has truly made history 149 00:08:54,160 --> 00:08:56,320 Speaker 1: and he has launched something that has never been the 150 00:08:56,360 --> 00:08:59,720 Speaker 1: Black Effect Network. For I Heart, There's never been anything 151 00:08:59,760 --> 00:09:02,880 Speaker 1: like this, and he just continues to leave me in 152 00:09:03,040 --> 00:09:07,320 Speaker 1: complete awe of the empire that he has built and 153 00:09:07,400 --> 00:09:11,000 Speaker 1: continuing to build, and the way that his vision operates 154 00:09:11,000 --> 00:09:14,280 Speaker 1: and the people that he includes. So I'm really really 155 00:09:14,320 --> 00:09:17,679 Speaker 1: honored to be back connected to my Heart. I used 156 00:09:17,679 --> 00:09:20,000 Speaker 1: to be a radio personality with them for quite a while, 157 00:09:20,080 --> 00:09:22,120 Speaker 1: but so excited to be a part of the I 158 00:09:22,280 --> 00:09:24,760 Speaker 1: Heart podcast network, to be a part of the Black 159 00:09:24,800 --> 00:09:29,720 Speaker 1: Effect podcast network, so many shows speaking to so many 160 00:09:29,760 --> 00:09:33,000 Speaker 1: things that our spirits, our minds, even our bellies need. 161 00:09:34,800 --> 00:09:38,760 Speaker 1: So also, I took on a new beautiful opportunity. Since 162 00:09:38,800 --> 00:09:42,240 Speaker 1: I last spoke to you, many people know that my 163 00:09:42,600 --> 00:09:46,760 Speaker 1: A lot of my journey really really deepened when I 164 00:09:46,840 --> 00:09:50,520 Speaker 1: learned to meditate from Deepak Chopra, and this was roughly 165 00:09:50,559 --> 00:09:53,599 Speaker 1: eight years ago. I one of my very first meditation 166 00:09:53,679 --> 00:09:56,360 Speaker 1: retreat that I had ever been on. I was so 167 00:09:56,360 --> 00:10:02,199 Speaker 1: so restless and lost and confused. At the time, I 168 00:10:02,320 --> 00:10:04,840 Speaker 1: knew something in my life was calling to be changed. 169 00:10:05,400 --> 00:10:07,360 Speaker 1: I didn't know what, and I didn't know how. And 170 00:10:07,440 --> 00:10:12,720 Speaker 1: so I found myself at this Detox retreat in Carl's Bad, California, 171 00:10:12,760 --> 00:10:15,680 Speaker 1: which is right by San Diego, and it was rooted 172 00:10:15,679 --> 00:10:19,560 Speaker 1: in Deepox life practices and his life work. And from 173 00:10:19,600 --> 00:10:22,880 Speaker 1: that day forward, everything about the trajectory of my life 174 00:10:23,160 --> 00:10:27,839 Speaker 1: literally everything changed, and I was able to meet myself 175 00:10:28,120 --> 00:10:31,680 Speaker 1: so deeply for the very first time. So to have 176 00:10:31,880 --> 00:10:35,720 Speaker 1: had that experience and then to now, almost eight years later, 177 00:10:35,880 --> 00:10:38,040 Speaker 1: be able to sit here and tell you that I 178 00:10:38,080 --> 00:10:42,000 Speaker 1: was appointed in the last several months as Chief Impact 179 00:10:42,080 --> 00:10:46,400 Speaker 1: Officer of Deepox Company Choper Global, and I now serve 180 00:10:46,600 --> 00:10:49,920 Speaker 1: as the daily voice of meditation and inspiration on the 181 00:10:50,040 --> 00:10:52,880 Speaker 1: Choper app. To say it's a dream come true would 182 00:10:52,880 --> 00:10:56,600 Speaker 1: just be such a silly understatement. Its purpose come to life, 183 00:10:56,760 --> 00:11:01,200 Speaker 1: and it's really the embodiment of God's voice and the 184 00:11:01,240 --> 00:11:03,440 Speaker 1: way that he spoke to me many years ago when 185 00:11:03,480 --> 00:11:06,400 Speaker 1: I chose to transition my career. And so I say 186 00:11:06,440 --> 00:11:08,800 Speaker 1: that now not to be boastful, even though I do 187 00:11:08,920 --> 00:11:12,480 Speaker 1: feel extremely proud and excited. But I really say that 188 00:11:12,559 --> 00:11:17,479 Speaker 1: for anybody that needed it as confirmation and even permission 189 00:11:17,600 --> 00:11:20,360 Speaker 1: if you needed that, for you to listen to God, 190 00:11:20,880 --> 00:11:22,960 Speaker 1: and for you to listen to your own heart and 191 00:11:23,000 --> 00:11:25,680 Speaker 1: listen to your voice. One thing I know for sure 192 00:11:26,400 --> 00:11:29,719 Speaker 1: is God does not give you a dream that you 193 00:11:29,800 --> 00:11:33,240 Speaker 1: cannot fulfill. It would not be taking up space in 194 00:11:33,280 --> 00:11:35,720 Speaker 1: your mind, in your heart if you were not called 195 00:11:36,400 --> 00:11:38,760 Speaker 1: to birth it and to create it and to be 196 00:11:38,800 --> 00:11:48,679 Speaker 1: it or become it. So I really want to frame this. 197 00:11:48,840 --> 00:11:51,240 Speaker 1: I really want to sit in the gifts of the 198 00:11:51,280 --> 00:11:54,559 Speaker 1: pandemic right now. If it feels comfortable for you, guys, 199 00:11:54,640 --> 00:11:59,200 Speaker 1: let's get let's just get comfortable. Let's get comfortable in 200 00:11:59,240 --> 00:12:02,400 Speaker 1: this show. Let's take a second, let's sit down, let's 201 00:12:02,440 --> 00:12:07,839 Speaker 1: get adjusted, and let's just feel presently connected. Let's take 202 00:12:07,840 --> 00:12:10,800 Speaker 1: a deep breath together. If it feels comfortable and you're able. 203 00:12:11,000 --> 00:12:14,720 Speaker 1: If not, just enjoy this moment, but go ahead and 204 00:12:14,720 --> 00:12:16,760 Speaker 1: take a deep breath in through your nose right now 205 00:12:21,360 --> 00:12:26,640 Speaker 1: and release it through your nose. This is something I 206 00:12:26,679 --> 00:12:30,120 Speaker 1: like to do when I know it's time to get deep. 207 00:12:30,840 --> 00:12:33,400 Speaker 1: I like to get really anchored in the present moment 208 00:12:33,520 --> 00:12:38,400 Speaker 1: and really connected to this exact moment in time that 209 00:12:38,559 --> 00:12:42,040 Speaker 1: is filled with potential. Let's take another deep breath in 210 00:12:50,280 --> 00:12:53,840 Speaker 1: and at yourself release all right, that is some present 211 00:12:53,960 --> 00:13:02,760 Speaker 1: moment awareness for that ass. I just really want to 212 00:13:02,800 --> 00:13:05,120 Speaker 1: extend to you. And I'm going to repeat this so 213 00:13:05,160 --> 00:13:07,440 Speaker 1: many times and a matter of fact, write this down 214 00:13:07,440 --> 00:13:09,880 Speaker 1: if you feel so led. None of us are going 215 00:13:09,920 --> 00:13:12,719 Speaker 1: to get an A on the pandemic. Okay, let me 216 00:13:12,760 --> 00:13:14,880 Speaker 1: say that louder for the people in the back. None 217 00:13:14,920 --> 00:13:17,280 Speaker 1: of us are going to get an A on the pandemic. 218 00:13:17,760 --> 00:13:21,160 Speaker 1: So it is okay, take some of the pressure off. 219 00:13:21,559 --> 00:13:23,360 Speaker 1: We are going to find all the tools that we 220 00:13:23,440 --> 00:13:26,920 Speaker 1: need and we are going to turn this year that 221 00:13:27,000 --> 00:13:31,439 Speaker 1: I think many people have internalized as perhaps uh not 222 00:13:31,520 --> 00:13:34,640 Speaker 1: being the greatest year. Um. I believe we can really 223 00:13:34,679 --> 00:13:37,000 Speaker 1: reframe this, and this is something I've been working on, 224 00:13:37,280 --> 00:13:41,280 Speaker 1: is really reframing it as this is the most magical 225 00:13:41,400 --> 00:13:46,559 Speaker 1: year of my life. When I think about starting and 226 00:13:46,640 --> 00:13:48,600 Speaker 1: one of I think one of the episodes, you know, 227 00:13:48,640 --> 00:13:50,360 Speaker 1: we kind of went through what are our goals for 228 00:13:50,400 --> 00:13:53,760 Speaker 1: this vision and you know, the goals that I set 229 00:13:53,800 --> 00:13:56,080 Speaker 1: for my own life and the things that I've written down, 230 00:13:56,160 --> 00:13:59,160 Speaker 1: and the affirmations that I've put up, we're all rooted 231 00:13:59,200 --> 00:14:02,720 Speaker 1: around a few particular words. So one of those words 232 00:14:02,920 --> 00:14:07,000 Speaker 1: was freedom. I wanted to be free. I didn't really 233 00:14:07,080 --> 00:14:10,240 Speaker 1: know what that meant or how it would manifest, but 234 00:14:10,360 --> 00:14:15,920 Speaker 1: the words freedom and liberation just sat really really anchored 235 00:14:15,920 --> 00:14:18,240 Speaker 1: in my spirit, and so I wrote those down at 236 00:14:18,280 --> 00:14:21,680 Speaker 1: the top of And another word that really came forward 237 00:14:21,720 --> 00:14:29,120 Speaker 1: for me was supernatural, grace, ease, lightness of being, and 238 00:14:29,280 --> 00:14:32,200 Speaker 1: self mastery. So at the top of the year, when 239 00:14:32,240 --> 00:14:34,640 Speaker 1: I kind of wrote down what my ideal seeing for 240 00:14:34,760 --> 00:14:37,640 Speaker 1: my life would be and who I wanted to become 241 00:14:37,640 --> 00:14:40,280 Speaker 1: and how I wanted to feel, those were the words 242 00:14:40,360 --> 00:14:44,080 Speaker 1: that really anchored my spiritual values. And little did I know, 243 00:14:46,240 --> 00:14:50,920 Speaker 1: little did I know what those words were actually going 244 00:14:50,960 --> 00:14:53,440 Speaker 1: to turn into. But now as we're at the end 245 00:14:53,480 --> 00:14:57,880 Speaker 1: of and I'm seeing how much um this work has 246 00:14:57,960 --> 00:15:00,640 Speaker 1: manifested in my life and way that I could have 247 00:15:00,720 --> 00:15:05,160 Speaker 1: never fathomed, even in the midst of some of this chaos, 248 00:15:05,280 --> 00:15:09,160 Speaker 1: even in the midst of some really profound discomfort that 249 00:15:09,200 --> 00:15:14,600 Speaker 1: I've been walking through, I feel so grateful. I feel 250 00:15:14,680 --> 00:15:19,760 Speaker 1: so grateful for the opportunity. Sometimes we are so overwhelmed 251 00:15:20,440 --> 00:15:24,440 Speaker 1: by the amount of trauma that we have to unearth 252 00:15:25,080 --> 00:15:28,360 Speaker 1: from the experiences of our lives that we avoid it. 253 00:15:28,680 --> 00:15:31,480 Speaker 1: We're not able to see the gift in it. Sometimes 254 00:15:31,480 --> 00:15:34,400 Speaker 1: I like to call this the gift wrapped in ship paper, 255 00:15:36,440 --> 00:15:38,720 Speaker 1: right like, it's still a gift. We got to get 256 00:15:38,760 --> 00:15:41,360 Speaker 1: through some things to get to it. But there's always 257 00:15:41,440 --> 00:15:46,560 Speaker 1: a gift underneath it. There's always I've found this supernatural 258 00:15:46,760 --> 00:15:51,440 Speaker 1: grace that the divine has woven into every challenge. And 259 00:15:51,520 --> 00:15:54,520 Speaker 1: when we're able to connect to that thread, that thread 260 00:15:54,560 --> 00:15:58,760 Speaker 1: of grace and our life's tapestry, the ability for everything 261 00:15:58,800 --> 00:16:01,360 Speaker 1: to open up and the ability for us to heal 262 00:16:02,080 --> 00:16:04,760 Speaker 1: in an accelerated way, the ability for us to show 263 00:16:04,840 --> 00:16:10,000 Speaker 1: up as our highest potential just unpacks and unfolds so beautifully. 264 00:16:10,040 --> 00:16:12,400 Speaker 1: So for anybody listening right now that I is saying, 265 00:16:12,600 --> 00:16:15,880 Speaker 1: I don't know what opportunity exists in this, I think 266 00:16:15,880 --> 00:16:18,280 Speaker 1: there's so much beauty and being able to sit in 267 00:16:18,320 --> 00:16:23,080 Speaker 1: yourself and say, well, at least I'm able to recognize 268 00:16:23,160 --> 00:16:26,280 Speaker 1: my areas of discomfort. I can call them out by name, 269 00:16:26,840 --> 00:16:30,360 Speaker 1: I can see them, because if you can see them, 270 00:16:30,440 --> 00:16:33,880 Speaker 1: then the path to their dissolving becomes so much more clear. 271 00:16:34,240 --> 00:16:35,920 Speaker 1: And I think that's what a lot of people, and 272 00:16:35,960 --> 00:16:38,960 Speaker 1: a lot of people listening to this show especially, are 273 00:16:39,000 --> 00:16:44,240 Speaker 1: really realizing about this unique time and really realizing about 274 00:16:44,280 --> 00:16:48,720 Speaker 1: this moment, is that we do have the power to 275 00:16:48,920 --> 00:16:54,320 Speaker 1: create the life of our dreams, even in the most difficult, 276 00:16:54,640 --> 00:16:58,080 Speaker 1: difficult circumstances. And when we get to the to the 277 00:16:58,200 --> 00:17:00,560 Speaker 1: root of what a life of your dream means, it 278 00:17:00,640 --> 00:17:04,120 Speaker 1: doesn't have anything to do with success. It has everything 279 00:17:04,200 --> 00:17:07,720 Speaker 1: to do with how we feel about ourselves, how we're 280 00:17:07,760 --> 00:17:11,600 Speaker 1: able to regulate ourselves, how we're able to experience ourselves 281 00:17:11,600 --> 00:17:14,679 Speaker 1: and be with ourselves. And I think if we really 282 00:17:14,760 --> 00:17:19,320 Speaker 1: take the opportunity that this year has afforded us, there 283 00:17:19,600 --> 00:17:24,080 Speaker 1: is limitless potential for how we can build into that 284 00:17:24,720 --> 00:17:28,840 Speaker 1: and how we can amplify ourselves regardless of circumstance. And 285 00:17:28,880 --> 00:17:31,600 Speaker 1: these skills aren't going nowhere, because once you learn how 286 00:17:31,600 --> 00:17:34,239 Speaker 1: to cultivate that, once you learn how to show up 287 00:17:34,240 --> 00:17:36,720 Speaker 1: for you, you can never unlearn it, kind of like 288 00:17:36,840 --> 00:17:39,919 Speaker 1: riding a bike, you can never unlearn it. So often 289 00:17:40,560 --> 00:17:43,600 Speaker 1: we can get even when we're committed to growth, we 290 00:17:43,640 --> 00:17:47,320 Speaker 1: can get a little complacent, right, um, But this is 291 00:17:47,359 --> 00:17:50,320 Speaker 1: a lifelong journey, and there is going to be a 292 00:17:50,400 --> 00:17:54,480 Speaker 1: constant shedding that happens for each of us. And I'll say, 293 00:17:54,520 --> 00:17:57,159 Speaker 1: in this moment, you know, I I really like to 294 00:17:57,240 --> 00:18:00,280 Speaker 1: the version I of me I was before this been Amick. 295 00:18:00,320 --> 00:18:02,240 Speaker 1: I was pretty proud of her and the work that 296 00:18:02,280 --> 00:18:04,680 Speaker 1: we've done. Um, and I thought I was going to 297 00:18:04,760 --> 00:18:09,440 Speaker 1: be able to be her for a while, and then 298 00:18:09,600 --> 00:18:11,960 Speaker 1: this moment in time came up and showed me there 299 00:18:12,040 --> 00:18:15,000 Speaker 1: was more. And so we all have to just continue 300 00:18:15,400 --> 00:18:18,400 Speaker 1: to extend the dignity of our process to ourselves and 301 00:18:18,920 --> 00:18:26,240 Speaker 1: really walk through whatever this is with gentleness, tenderness of self, 302 00:18:26,480 --> 00:18:31,360 Speaker 1: and as much joy as possible. So that has been 303 00:18:31,400 --> 00:18:34,840 Speaker 1: my hiatus, and you know, kind of just observing collectively 304 00:18:34,960 --> 00:18:38,040 Speaker 1: what is going on in the world, aside from it 305 00:18:38,119 --> 00:18:46,600 Speaker 1: being a zoo and being like sometimes just like outrageously bizarre. Um, 306 00:18:46,640 --> 00:18:52,480 Speaker 1: it's been it's been really fascinating to observe our collective experience. 307 00:18:52,840 --> 00:18:55,679 Speaker 1: So let's talk about this collective experience that we are 308 00:18:55,720 --> 00:18:58,560 Speaker 1: all going through together. We have our individual journeys, right, 309 00:18:58,680 --> 00:19:02,639 Speaker 1: our spiritual curriculum that we kind of carved and crafted 310 00:19:02,720 --> 00:19:07,400 Speaker 1: before we embodied on earth, and we have the curriculum 311 00:19:07,520 --> 00:19:11,560 Speaker 1: of our family systems quite often, and the curriculum of 312 00:19:11,600 --> 00:19:16,840 Speaker 1: our friendships and our socioeconomic backgrounds and all the different 313 00:19:17,280 --> 00:19:20,840 Speaker 1: pieces of the recipes that have come together, and then 314 00:19:20,880 --> 00:19:24,520 Speaker 1: we have our collective experience as humanity. And that's the 315 00:19:24,560 --> 00:19:28,960 Speaker 1: part that can be more triggering than anything. You know, 316 00:19:28,960 --> 00:19:30,720 Speaker 1: how you get a little woke, and then you get 317 00:19:30,720 --> 00:19:32,960 Speaker 1: mad at everybody, you know, because it's like, why can't 318 00:19:32,960 --> 00:19:35,040 Speaker 1: you be woke too? Why am I the only one 319 00:19:35,080 --> 00:19:38,000 Speaker 1: speaking this language? Uh? That's kind of how it is now. 320 00:19:38,160 --> 00:19:41,280 Speaker 1: Right when we think about the state of our world politically, 321 00:19:41,840 --> 00:19:44,560 Speaker 1: Something that occurred to me a few days ago that 322 00:19:44,640 --> 00:19:47,239 Speaker 1: I just thought was so strange is that as we 323 00:19:47,320 --> 00:19:50,720 Speaker 1: have conversations about Donald Trump, the fact that more of 324 00:19:50,760 --> 00:19:55,120 Speaker 1: these conversations are not rallied around mental health. It's honestly 325 00:19:55,240 --> 00:19:58,800 Speaker 1: very strange to me. Mental health has become such a 326 00:19:59,000 --> 00:20:06,400 Speaker 1: mainstream and really often misunderstood and um oftentimes kept far 327 00:20:06,480 --> 00:20:11,000 Speaker 1: to surface aspect of popular culture. Right now, It's incredibly 328 00:20:11,040 --> 00:20:14,520 Speaker 1: important mental health, spiritual health, well being as a whole. 329 00:20:14,960 --> 00:20:17,879 Speaker 1: But I feel like, because it's become so trendy, a 330 00:20:17,920 --> 00:20:20,600 Speaker 1: lot of it is just staying in surface level conversations 331 00:20:20,640 --> 00:20:22,680 Speaker 1: and it's not coming down to a point that's actually 332 00:20:23,359 --> 00:20:26,520 Speaker 1: really giving people a blueprint or a map on how 333 00:20:26,560 --> 00:20:28,520 Speaker 1: to have more access to it or what to do 334 00:20:28,600 --> 00:20:32,520 Speaker 1: with it outside of now knowing the phrase mental health 335 00:20:33,040 --> 00:20:36,399 Speaker 1: or knowing that therapists exists, you know, it's like really 336 00:20:36,440 --> 00:20:40,960 Speaker 1: taking it to that next level of learning how to experience, apply, 337 00:20:41,240 --> 00:20:44,359 Speaker 1: and then embody. So it's been really interesting to me 338 00:20:44,400 --> 00:20:47,400 Speaker 1: that although there are so many events and so many shows, 339 00:20:47,440 --> 00:20:50,959 Speaker 1: and so many things that are talking about mental health, 340 00:20:51,560 --> 00:20:54,119 Speaker 1: why are we not discussing the fact that it's very 341 00:20:54,119 --> 00:20:58,920 Speaker 1: clear that Donald Trump has illness. I think it's very 342 00:20:58,960 --> 00:21:02,760 Speaker 1: clear that Don Trump is on the sociopic spectrum. I 343 00:21:02,800 --> 00:21:05,800 Speaker 1: believe him to be a sociopath. I think it's very 344 00:21:05,840 --> 00:21:09,000 Speaker 1: clear that he is a high level narcissist as well, 345 00:21:09,520 --> 00:21:13,800 Speaker 1: really grandizing, a pathological liar. And I think it's clear 346 00:21:13,920 --> 00:21:17,760 Speaker 1: that he potentially has borderline personality disorder. And that's just 347 00:21:17,840 --> 00:21:21,080 Speaker 1: off the top based on my experience and study. So 348 00:21:21,119 --> 00:21:24,520 Speaker 1: the fact that I don't see more psychologists speaking to this, 349 00:21:24,680 --> 00:21:27,520 Speaker 1: the fact that I don't see more made of this 350 00:21:27,920 --> 00:21:32,760 Speaker 1: in the time of mental health, it's so strange. We 351 00:21:32,920 --> 00:21:36,280 Speaker 1: need to be studying this. And I always will ask 352 00:21:36,320 --> 00:21:38,879 Speaker 1: of you guys to study yourselves. You know, I'm a 353 00:21:38,920 --> 00:21:43,000 Speaker 1: big believer that I study myself and I study the world. 354 00:21:43,040 --> 00:21:45,200 Speaker 1: I'm a student of me, I'm a student of the world. 355 00:21:45,280 --> 00:21:48,240 Speaker 1: I'm a student of God. And I think it's important 356 00:21:48,240 --> 00:21:54,840 Speaker 1: that we apply that type of deeper understanding, excavation, and 357 00:21:54,960 --> 00:21:58,199 Speaker 1: curiosity to all the things that are happening to us 358 00:21:58,200 --> 00:22:00,600 Speaker 1: in the midst of this global pen demic and in 359 00:22:00,640 --> 00:22:03,480 Speaker 1: the midst of this trump erra coming to an end. 360 00:22:04,240 --> 00:22:08,840 Speaker 1: This moment in time that we're experiencing on Earth, it's 361 00:22:08,840 --> 00:22:13,240 Speaker 1: a time that has never been sure. We've all seen 362 00:22:13,280 --> 00:22:16,919 Speaker 1: the newsreels. I mean, it's life has never been easy 363 00:22:16,960 --> 00:22:20,800 Speaker 1: on Earth. Be clear, life has never been even close 364 00:22:20,880 --> 00:22:25,639 Speaker 1: to ideal or perfect for anyone. We've had major, major 365 00:22:25,720 --> 00:22:28,720 Speaker 1: things in our human history. You know, we've all been taught, 366 00:22:28,800 --> 00:22:33,520 Speaker 1: we've all read, we've all experienced UM from our personal 367 00:22:33,600 --> 00:22:37,560 Speaker 1: lived experience. But then there's a moment like this that 368 00:22:38,960 --> 00:22:45,280 Speaker 1: is this pot luck of experience, this pot luck of 369 00:22:45,359 --> 00:22:50,639 Speaker 1: experience UM that is creating a meal that doesn't really 370 00:22:50,680 --> 00:22:56,080 Speaker 1: go together but is nourishing us deeply. We have never 371 00:22:56,520 --> 00:23:02,639 Speaker 1: in human history ever processed this much at the same 372 00:23:02,680 --> 00:23:06,960 Speaker 1: time before. So let's really get let's really take stock 373 00:23:07,480 --> 00:23:11,000 Speaker 1: of where we're at as a human species and the 374 00:23:11,080 --> 00:23:14,080 Speaker 1: things that we are processing in this moment. One. We're 375 00:23:14,119 --> 00:23:20,080 Speaker 1: processing a global pandemic, right We're processing a major, major 376 00:23:20,119 --> 00:23:24,680 Speaker 1: health emergency that has overtaken the globe. It's filled many 377 00:23:24,760 --> 00:23:29,439 Speaker 1: of us with fear. There has been an extreme amount 378 00:23:29,600 --> 00:23:34,440 Speaker 1: of loss of life, an extreme amount of personal discomfort. 379 00:23:35,200 --> 00:23:39,119 Speaker 1: Things can be very triggering, like wearing masks, feeling like 380 00:23:39,160 --> 00:23:42,440 Speaker 1: our breath is restricted, having something on your face, being 381 00:23:42,480 --> 00:23:46,760 Speaker 1: told you can't do something, being laid off, being furloughed, 382 00:23:46,840 --> 00:23:53,080 Speaker 1: having financial hardship, having the routine of your daily life uprooted. 383 00:23:53,680 --> 00:24:00,399 Speaker 1: That's major, major trauma. We're also experiencing the common nation 384 00:24:00,840 --> 00:24:06,399 Speaker 1: of centuries of oppression being brought to light in a 385 00:24:06,440 --> 00:24:09,760 Speaker 1: way they haven't been before, which has also been one 386 00:24:09,800 --> 00:24:12,480 Speaker 1: of the gifts of the pandemic. Everyone is being forced 387 00:24:12,520 --> 00:24:15,040 Speaker 1: to sit and to gaze at the world at the 388 00:24:15,119 --> 00:24:18,600 Speaker 1: same time in real time, process and unpack at the 389 00:24:18,680 --> 00:24:21,639 Speaker 1: same time in real time, and not being able to 390 00:24:21,680 --> 00:24:27,000 Speaker 1: avoid themselves, or avoid difficult conversations, or avoid racism, or 391 00:24:27,040 --> 00:24:31,280 Speaker 1: avoid sexism, or avoid any of the things, any of 392 00:24:31,320 --> 00:24:33,639 Speaker 1: the other rings that have been going on since the 393 00:24:33,720 --> 00:24:36,360 Speaker 1: dawn of time. We are all forced to look at 394 00:24:36,400 --> 00:24:39,880 Speaker 1: things at the same time, in real time, and for 395 00:24:39,960 --> 00:24:43,800 Speaker 1: a lot of people who didn't know the deeper reality 396 00:24:43,880 --> 00:24:47,919 Speaker 1: of what the world looks like for other people with 397 00:24:48,040 --> 00:24:54,240 Speaker 1: different backgrounds, Uh, it's been incredibly probably frightening, it's been 398 00:24:54,320 --> 00:25:00,200 Speaker 1: incredibly triggering. Um, it's been incredibly shameful, I think for 399 00:25:00,240 --> 00:25:02,959 Speaker 1: a lot of people. And there's no way to avoid 400 00:25:03,040 --> 00:25:05,399 Speaker 1: or distract from that. For the people who this has 401 00:25:05,440 --> 00:25:09,800 Speaker 1: been their lived experience, there's so many layers. One it's 402 00:25:09,840 --> 00:25:13,920 Speaker 1: the reliving of trauma. It's the constant sight and sounds 403 00:25:14,040 --> 00:25:20,399 Speaker 1: and experience of people being murdered, people being oppressed, the 404 00:25:20,440 --> 00:25:24,800 Speaker 1: effects of systemic racism being spelled out plainly. To really 405 00:25:24,920 --> 00:25:26,960 Speaker 1: sit in that and to really know there is a 406 00:25:27,000 --> 00:25:30,800 Speaker 1: percentage of us who are and have been woke to 407 00:25:31,040 --> 00:25:34,600 Speaker 1: these realities, right. But then there's also a percentage of 408 00:25:34,640 --> 00:25:38,600 Speaker 1: people who, even having lived these realities, didn't have the 409 00:25:38,720 --> 00:25:42,399 Speaker 1: languaging around it, didn't have the structure around it, didn't 410 00:25:42,480 --> 00:25:48,840 Speaker 1: have the history lesson or the connectedness to what that 411 00:25:48,880 --> 00:25:52,760 Speaker 1: lived experience was. And when it starts to shape up 412 00:25:52,800 --> 00:25:59,879 Speaker 1: around you, it's even more terrifying. It's even more enraging 413 00:26:00,840 --> 00:26:04,280 Speaker 1: when you're really seen and giving name and giving word 414 00:26:04,320 --> 00:26:07,800 Speaker 1: and giving process to what you have known deep inside 415 00:26:07,840 --> 00:26:12,480 Speaker 1: but hadn't set out loud before. That's trauma. That's traumatic. 416 00:26:13,200 --> 00:26:17,440 Speaker 1: It's the reliving of historical trauma, a reliving of your 417 00:26:17,480 --> 00:26:21,680 Speaker 1: own trauma, and then an amplification of and an extending 418 00:26:21,720 --> 00:26:25,520 Speaker 1: of trauma because now you're putting the pieces together in 419 00:26:25,520 --> 00:26:29,920 Speaker 1: new ways. You're having conversations and bigger, more vast ways. 420 00:26:29,960 --> 00:26:34,280 Speaker 1: You're having expansion of self in this process, and the 421 00:26:34,359 --> 00:26:38,480 Speaker 1: unfairness you already felt is now amplified in every direction, 422 00:26:39,080 --> 00:26:44,320 Speaker 1: and you're understanding why things always felt different. You're understanding 423 00:26:44,440 --> 00:26:49,360 Speaker 1: why things always felt unfair, and you're understanding why no 424 00:26:49,400 --> 00:26:53,280 Speaker 1: matter what you did, or how you filled yourself or 425 00:26:53,280 --> 00:26:56,800 Speaker 1: what God you prayed to, there was always a seed 426 00:26:57,440 --> 00:27:01,840 Speaker 1: of not enoughness and unworthiness inside of you that never 427 00:27:01,960 --> 00:27:06,200 Speaker 1: had anything to do with you. So we're processing that. 428 00:27:07,320 --> 00:27:11,240 Speaker 1: We're feeling a gratitude for this expansion, but we're also 429 00:27:11,440 --> 00:27:17,240 Speaker 1: grieving so deeply, and we're also irritated and enraged, and 430 00:27:17,280 --> 00:27:20,240 Speaker 1: you're really beginning to understand. And thanks to the power 431 00:27:20,280 --> 00:27:22,080 Speaker 1: of the Internet and thanks to the power of being 432 00:27:22,080 --> 00:27:25,359 Speaker 1: able to see how different people with different backgrounds are 433 00:27:25,400 --> 00:27:30,840 Speaker 1: moving through the pandemic. We're really seen the differences, we're 434 00:27:30,880 --> 00:27:35,040 Speaker 1: really seeing the classism at play, and we're really seeing 435 00:27:36,800 --> 00:27:41,919 Speaker 1: how much the effects of systemic racism per me every 436 00:27:41,920 --> 00:27:46,040 Speaker 1: fiber of everyone's being in this country and beyond. So 437 00:27:46,160 --> 00:27:50,600 Speaker 1: that's a lot. So that's one piece of it. Another 438 00:27:50,680 --> 00:27:54,399 Speaker 1: piece that we're processing at great length right now, especially 439 00:27:54,400 --> 00:27:58,760 Speaker 1: for women, are all the pieces of the feminist puzzle, 440 00:27:59,520 --> 00:28:03,680 Speaker 1: all the pieces of the patriarchy unfolding themselves. Right We're 441 00:28:03,800 --> 00:28:08,840 Speaker 1: really really understanding for the first time the role that 442 00:28:08,920 --> 00:28:13,040 Speaker 1: women and especially women of color, have been forced to 443 00:28:13,240 --> 00:28:18,680 Speaker 1: carry and endure. So there's this there is this deep 444 00:28:18,800 --> 00:28:22,240 Speaker 1: unpacking and this deep unfolding that is all in service 445 00:28:22,359 --> 00:28:26,119 Speaker 1: to our highest good. But it's all happening at once. 446 00:28:27,240 --> 00:28:33,560 Speaker 1: We're having larger conversations about gender identity, larger conversations about 447 00:28:33,600 --> 00:28:40,840 Speaker 1: sexuality that have never happened in human history. People are 448 00:28:40,920 --> 00:28:44,360 Speaker 1: showing up as their full selves for the first time 449 00:28:44,440 --> 00:28:49,640 Speaker 1: in the history of ever, and we think, oh, it's hey, 450 00:28:49,720 --> 00:28:54,560 Speaker 1: we have the Internet. Hey we're a modern society. Yeah, 451 00:28:54,640 --> 00:28:57,320 Speaker 1: but for things to be embodied, we have to have 452 00:28:57,480 --> 00:29:00,480 Speaker 1: the dignity of our process. For things to be proces tessed, 453 00:29:00,960 --> 00:29:03,040 Speaker 1: we have to have stillness, we have to have our 454 00:29:03,080 --> 00:29:05,600 Speaker 1: hearts opened, we have to have thought applied to them. 455 00:29:06,040 --> 00:29:10,240 Speaker 1: So that's part of why the pandemic, which is already difficult, 456 00:29:10,480 --> 00:29:13,360 Speaker 1: has been feeling even more isolating. There is so much 457 00:29:13,440 --> 00:29:17,760 Speaker 1: processing happening inside of you on every level of how 458 00:29:17,800 --> 00:29:20,920 Speaker 1: you've ever believed the world to be true, of how 459 00:29:20,920 --> 00:29:23,080 Speaker 1: you've ever thought of your family structure, of how you 460 00:29:23,120 --> 00:29:27,920 Speaker 1: ever thought of yourself. Every fiber, every facet of the 461 00:29:28,040 --> 00:29:31,280 Speaker 1: way we have connected to Earth and our identity is 462 00:29:31,280 --> 00:29:36,000 Speaker 1: being challenged, just being excavated, it's being illuminated. Also, so 463 00:29:36,040 --> 00:29:38,920 Speaker 1: many of us are in personal isolation as we're doing this. 464 00:29:40,040 --> 00:29:43,840 Speaker 1: So if you have been using life and experiences, your job, 465 00:29:44,000 --> 00:29:48,720 Speaker 1: the roles that you play, your title fun friends to 466 00:29:48,880 --> 00:29:53,320 Speaker 1: distract yourselves from you, well, now that's been taken away, right, 467 00:29:53,400 --> 00:29:57,720 Speaker 1: So we are being pushed and propelled to ascend, and 468 00:29:57,720 --> 00:30:00,560 Speaker 1: I want to reframe it in that way. Is specially 469 00:30:01,240 --> 00:30:04,160 Speaker 1: because it's easy for us to go through that list 470 00:30:04,200 --> 00:30:07,400 Speaker 1: of things that I have just been going through and 471 00:30:07,440 --> 00:30:12,560 Speaker 1: think how sorry we feel for ourselves, or how difficult 472 00:30:12,640 --> 00:30:18,160 Speaker 1: this is. But in actuality. What a profound gift. We 473 00:30:18,240 --> 00:30:22,720 Speaker 1: are all being pushed to ascend to a version of 474 00:30:22,720 --> 00:30:26,160 Speaker 1: ourselves we've never been. That's better than we've ever been. 475 00:30:26,880 --> 00:30:30,400 Speaker 1: But it's challenging and it's hard, and it requires work, 476 00:30:31,240 --> 00:30:34,160 Speaker 1: and it requires this really meeting ourselves, and to meet 477 00:30:34,200 --> 00:30:38,560 Speaker 1: ourselves means we have to also look at our monsters. 478 00:30:39,200 --> 00:30:41,800 Speaker 1: We have to also look at the pieces of ourselves 479 00:30:41,840 --> 00:30:45,680 Speaker 1: we've wanted to hide. We're doing big processing right now, 480 00:30:45,720 --> 00:30:48,920 Speaker 1: and not just for us, and and this applies to 481 00:30:49,080 --> 00:30:53,400 Speaker 1: whatever background you're from, whatever group you're a part of, 482 00:30:53,440 --> 00:30:59,800 Speaker 1: whatever culture you represent. We are doing major and sstral 483 00:31:00,000 --> 00:31:03,040 Speaker 1: healing of trauma right now. And I think that's one 484 00:31:03,040 --> 00:31:06,160 Speaker 1: of the biggest reasons why it feels so heavy. Why 485 00:31:06,200 --> 00:31:09,160 Speaker 1: even the person that is known as being the strongest, 486 00:31:09,280 --> 00:31:11,800 Speaker 1: and I know a lot of people listening right now 487 00:31:11,840 --> 00:31:14,480 Speaker 1: can identify with this. The person who may be the 488 00:31:14,560 --> 00:31:17,280 Speaker 1: fixer and their family are always known as the strong one, 489 00:31:17,720 --> 00:31:20,920 Speaker 1: is having a really hard time. And that's because we're 490 00:31:20,920 --> 00:31:24,080 Speaker 1: not just processing for ourselves right now. And that long 491 00:31:24,160 --> 00:31:27,360 Speaker 1: list that I just went through, we're not just healing ourselves. 492 00:31:27,480 --> 00:31:30,560 Speaker 1: In that long list of healing that needs to be 493 00:31:30,600 --> 00:31:35,760 Speaker 1: done all the healing, all the processing, all the excavation, 494 00:31:36,840 --> 00:31:41,240 Speaker 1: all of the beautiful self discovery that we are plowing 495 00:31:41,320 --> 00:31:44,840 Speaker 1: through right now in record time in this accelerated timeline, 496 00:31:45,520 --> 00:31:53,200 Speaker 1: is also fully in service to the healing of our lineage, past, present, future. 497 00:31:53,640 --> 00:31:56,680 Speaker 1: So that means us, that means every ancestor that came 498 00:31:56,720 --> 00:31:59,960 Speaker 1: before us, and that means a shifting of the traject 499 00:32:00,000 --> 00:32:03,640 Speaker 1: story of any seeds that come from us. So the 500 00:32:03,720 --> 00:32:07,320 Speaker 1: stakes are higher. And I say all this not to 501 00:32:07,440 --> 00:32:13,800 Speaker 1: overwhelm you, but to really get you excited about who 502 00:32:13,960 --> 00:32:19,640 Speaker 1: you are and who you're becoming. As challenging as this 503 00:32:19,680 --> 00:32:22,280 Speaker 1: moment in time is, and I'm going to really impact 504 00:32:22,360 --> 00:32:24,560 Speaker 1: my story for you over the next few episodes, But 505 00:32:25,080 --> 00:32:27,960 Speaker 1: in the deepest part of the challenge that this moment 506 00:32:27,960 --> 00:32:31,080 Speaker 1: in time has presented to me, I wake up and 507 00:32:31,120 --> 00:32:35,200 Speaker 1: I still think, my God, what a gift. How lucky 508 00:32:35,240 --> 00:32:37,880 Speaker 1: am I to have been chosen for this exact moment 509 00:32:37,920 --> 00:32:43,320 Speaker 1: in time, one of the most complex, layered, difficult times 510 00:32:43,360 --> 00:32:48,040 Speaker 1: in the history of the human race. That processing, that 511 00:32:48,200 --> 00:32:54,400 Speaker 1: collective processing of grief, that collective processing of centuries of 512 00:32:54,520 --> 00:32:58,640 Speaker 1: unhealed trauma. How lucky am I that the divine saw 513 00:32:58,800 --> 00:33:01,440 Speaker 1: me fit to show up in this moment and in 514 00:33:01,480 --> 00:33:05,760 Speaker 1: this way, So on your hardest day, reframe in that way. 515 00:33:05,840 --> 00:33:11,400 Speaker 1: This is opportunity. And the mechanisms have changed the mechanisms 516 00:33:11,400 --> 00:33:14,840 Speaker 1: of healing. It's something we can always count on to 517 00:33:14,920 --> 00:33:17,959 Speaker 1: guide the way. When we just look at the structure 518 00:33:18,120 --> 00:33:22,560 Speaker 1: of what healing is and how it operates, it really 519 00:33:22,600 --> 00:33:25,280 Speaker 1: gives us a piece because there is an end in sight, 520 00:33:25,920 --> 00:33:27,720 Speaker 1: you know. I saw this. I saw this meme on 521 00:33:27,760 --> 00:33:30,760 Speaker 1: Instagram and it was actually a little problematic. Not my faith, 522 00:33:31,320 --> 00:33:33,040 Speaker 1: but it was. It was one of those memes that 523 00:33:33,120 --> 00:33:35,800 Speaker 1: was like choose your hard right like marriage is hard, 524 00:33:35,840 --> 00:33:38,200 Speaker 1: divorce is hard, this is hard. That is hard. It 525 00:33:38,280 --> 00:33:41,640 Speaker 1: was problematic. I mean, there was some reframing I would 526 00:33:41,640 --> 00:33:44,720 Speaker 1: have done on that, But I do think it's important 527 00:33:44,760 --> 00:33:46,880 Speaker 1: to think in that context. I think a lot of 528 00:33:46,880 --> 00:33:49,560 Speaker 1: people who avoid doing some of the work one we 529 00:33:49,600 --> 00:33:51,200 Speaker 1: got to give them grace because it just may not 530 00:33:51,240 --> 00:33:53,959 Speaker 1: be in their life's plan, and so they just need 531 00:33:54,000 --> 00:33:56,160 Speaker 1: to follow God's lead and we do the best we 532 00:33:56,200 --> 00:33:59,920 Speaker 1: can do. But for those that are really feeling called 533 00:34:00,200 --> 00:34:02,800 Speaker 1: to change or to grow um but are feeling a 534 00:34:02,840 --> 00:34:05,960 Speaker 1: little too stuck in the older versions of themselves, the 535 00:34:06,000 --> 00:34:11,040 Speaker 1: outdated virgins of themselves. Growth is hard. Pain is hard, right, 536 00:34:11,320 --> 00:34:15,359 Speaker 1: Growth is hard, Trauma is hard. They're both challenging. They're 537 00:34:15,400 --> 00:34:18,360 Speaker 1: both difficult. But when we choose growth, and when we 538 00:34:18,480 --> 00:34:22,560 Speaker 1: choose to lean in like a moment like this, there 539 00:34:22,640 --> 00:34:26,440 Speaker 1: is an end in sight. There is a shifting that happens. 540 00:34:26,680 --> 00:34:31,200 Speaker 1: The hard changes, there's a piece that takes over the 541 00:34:31,400 --> 00:34:35,799 Speaker 1: space where that trauma used to sit. Versus when we 542 00:34:35,880 --> 00:34:38,480 Speaker 1: choose to stay stuck in our stories and in our 543 00:34:38,560 --> 00:34:42,480 Speaker 1: narratives and in our trauma and our pain, we'll just 544 00:34:42,560 --> 00:34:45,440 Speaker 1: always be there, you know. So when you think of 545 00:34:45,520 --> 00:34:49,840 Speaker 1: choosing your hard choosing what she'll give your time to, 546 00:34:51,160 --> 00:34:55,400 Speaker 1: always bet on yourself, Always bet on your advancement. It 547 00:34:55,480 --> 00:35:00,279 Speaker 1: will never lead you astray. There is always a better 548 00:35:00,400 --> 00:35:03,720 Speaker 1: to be had when we seek that and give yourself 549 00:35:03,760 --> 00:35:07,120 Speaker 1: the dignity of your process. I can't stress this enough. 550 00:35:07,239 --> 00:35:09,480 Speaker 1: You're not going to get an a on a global pandemic. 551 00:35:10,080 --> 00:35:12,800 Speaker 1: No one is walking through this unscathed, not a soul, 552 00:35:13,920 --> 00:35:16,160 Speaker 1: and no one is going to get a prize. There 553 00:35:16,239 --> 00:35:23,600 Speaker 1: is nothing to be had with feeling like you're doing 554 00:35:23,680 --> 00:35:27,279 Speaker 1: great at this or judging someone else as not surviving 555 00:35:27,320 --> 00:35:31,480 Speaker 1: this well. Right, Like This is just about our personal 556 00:35:31,880 --> 00:35:36,280 Speaker 1: process and extending to ourselves the dignity of that process 557 00:35:36,320 --> 00:35:41,000 Speaker 1: and letting it be whatever it's supposed to be. And 558 00:35:41,040 --> 00:35:42,920 Speaker 1: for each of us that's going to be different, and 559 00:35:42,960 --> 00:35:44,920 Speaker 1: for each of us that's going to require a certain 560 00:35:44,920 --> 00:35:50,120 Speaker 1: amount of self investigation. But there's something to be had 561 00:35:50,160 --> 00:36:06,640 Speaker 1: here for all of us. M All right, we're back 562 00:36:06,680 --> 00:36:09,840 Speaker 1: and it's time to lead into a little soul work. 563 00:36:10,480 --> 00:36:14,000 Speaker 1: So something I'm really excited about doing for the show 564 00:36:14,120 --> 00:36:20,680 Speaker 1: now is really creating space for opportunities to embody. We've 565 00:36:20,680 --> 00:36:24,239 Speaker 1: talked quite a bit about what healing process looks like 566 00:36:24,400 --> 00:36:28,000 Speaker 1: and what the dignity of our own individual process looks like. 567 00:36:28,800 --> 00:36:33,239 Speaker 1: And part of that extension of dignity to ourselves and 568 00:36:33,320 --> 00:36:39,000 Speaker 1: healing is giving ourselves time to savor the lesson and 569 00:36:39,080 --> 00:36:44,560 Speaker 1: to embody the newer version of ourselves. And the work 570 00:36:44,680 --> 00:36:49,719 Speaker 1: isn't complete until we process and embody. So first comes 571 00:36:49,719 --> 00:36:53,080 Speaker 1: the intellectualization. We get the information. We get the knowledge, 572 00:36:53,640 --> 00:36:57,440 Speaker 1: then comes the process. We apply it to ourselves. We 573 00:36:57,560 --> 00:37:01,319 Speaker 1: see what fits, we see what we can let go 574 00:37:01,440 --> 00:37:06,520 Speaker 1: of and what we can add, and then we embody. 575 00:37:06,719 --> 00:37:10,719 Speaker 1: We live it. It seeps out of our pores, It 576 00:37:10,960 --> 00:37:14,239 Speaker 1: enters the room before we get there, and that's the 577 00:37:14,320 --> 00:37:16,799 Speaker 1: piece that we're really going to refine as we go 578 00:37:16,880 --> 00:37:20,240 Speaker 1: through the episodes of this podcast. Okay, we're going to process, 579 00:37:20,280 --> 00:37:23,399 Speaker 1: we're gonna intellectualize, we are going to embody, we're going 580 00:37:23,440 --> 00:37:27,200 Speaker 1: to master. So a little journal prompt that I have 581 00:37:27,400 --> 00:37:30,120 Speaker 1: for you to really lead you into this week and 582 00:37:30,520 --> 00:37:34,000 Speaker 1: anchor you into whatever work you are currently doing with 583 00:37:34,080 --> 00:37:38,480 Speaker 1: yourself with your soul would be And if it feels comfortable, 584 00:37:38,600 --> 00:37:40,880 Speaker 1: go ahead and grab a pen to drop this down 585 00:37:41,120 --> 00:37:45,839 Speaker 1: or revisit this a little bit later. But your soul 586 00:37:45,880 --> 00:37:50,239 Speaker 1: work for the week is take stock of how you 587 00:37:50,400 --> 00:37:57,280 Speaker 1: feel right now, do a little self inventory. I highly 588 00:37:57,360 --> 00:38:00,760 Speaker 1: recommend this tool as something to really do every quarter, 589 00:38:01,600 --> 00:38:04,239 Speaker 1: but at minimum once a year, either on the New Year, 590 00:38:04,480 --> 00:38:07,800 Speaker 1: on your New Year, which is your birthday. But sit down, 591 00:38:07,880 --> 00:38:11,520 Speaker 1: get a piece of paper, get a journal out, and 592 00:38:11,560 --> 00:38:14,960 Speaker 1: I want you to jest without judgment of self. Just 593 00:38:15,200 --> 00:38:22,359 Speaker 1: really start writing down, either novel style or bullet pointed inventory, 594 00:38:22,600 --> 00:38:26,200 Speaker 1: personal inventory of how you are feeling about yourself in 595 00:38:26,239 --> 00:38:29,479 Speaker 1: your life right now. And it's really important to try 596 00:38:29,520 --> 00:38:33,239 Speaker 1: to come to this space from a neutral feeling. So 597 00:38:33,280 --> 00:38:35,440 Speaker 1: if it's comfortable and if you have the bandwidth for it. 598 00:38:35,480 --> 00:38:39,000 Speaker 1: I would recommend sitting down and meditating for a few 599 00:38:39,040 --> 00:38:42,080 Speaker 1: moments before you do this, making sure that you don't 600 00:38:42,120 --> 00:38:47,520 Speaker 1: have any emotional charge connected to any specific thing, and 601 00:38:47,560 --> 00:38:52,040 Speaker 1: then just write down without judgment, how you feel. And 602 00:38:52,120 --> 00:38:57,040 Speaker 1: it's okay. If it's I feel terrible today, it's okay. 603 00:38:57,120 --> 00:39:00,520 Speaker 1: If it's I feel all right today, it's okay. If 604 00:39:00,560 --> 00:39:04,440 Speaker 1: it's I feel great today, none of that matters. There's 605 00:39:04,480 --> 00:39:07,359 Speaker 1: no test. You're not getting get an A or an 606 00:39:07,440 --> 00:39:09,600 Speaker 1: F based on how you feel. This is just for 607 00:39:09,760 --> 00:39:14,040 Speaker 1: you to connect to the innermost part of you and 608 00:39:14,120 --> 00:39:19,000 Speaker 1: get clear on where your work lies. So take personal 609 00:39:19,080 --> 00:39:22,520 Speaker 1: inventory this week and just jot down with bullet points, 610 00:39:24,239 --> 00:39:28,520 Speaker 1: how you're feeling in every sector of your life personally, professionally, 611 00:39:29,640 --> 00:39:32,960 Speaker 1: all of the facets, all of the roles. Let's just 612 00:39:33,000 --> 00:39:35,360 Speaker 1: get it on paper, and let's observe it from a 613 00:39:35,480 --> 00:39:40,560 Speaker 1: very neutral space, and then we'll talk about what to 614 00:39:40,560 --> 00:39:44,399 Speaker 1: do with it next week. Okay, deal, take a second 615 00:39:44,480 --> 00:39:46,399 Speaker 1: right now, as we close out the show, let's just 616 00:39:46,520 --> 00:39:49,719 Speaker 1: get comfortable. I just have a few words to share 617 00:39:49,760 --> 00:39:51,960 Speaker 1: with you, So if you can, if you're able to 618 00:39:52,040 --> 00:39:55,440 Speaker 1: just gently close your eyes let's kind of go from 619 00:39:55,480 --> 00:39:57,399 Speaker 1: the top of our head to the tips of our 620 00:39:57,440 --> 00:40:00,440 Speaker 1: toes and just do a really nice little gan of 621 00:40:00,480 --> 00:40:09,279 Speaker 1: ourselves and our bodies. Our emotions are energetic bodies, and 622 00:40:09,360 --> 00:40:13,680 Speaker 1: anywhere that you might be holding tension, anywhere that feels 623 00:40:13,680 --> 00:40:17,080 Speaker 1: a little stuck, go ahead and like move your neck 624 00:40:17,160 --> 00:40:23,719 Speaker 1: from side to side if it feels good. Loosen your shoulders, 625 00:40:23,800 --> 00:40:27,959 Speaker 1: loosen your job, wiggle your toes, and let's just get 626 00:40:28,120 --> 00:40:33,600 Speaker 1: soft and now just naturally breathing in and out through 627 00:40:33,640 --> 00:40:37,040 Speaker 1: your nose at a pace that feels good to you. 628 00:40:40,760 --> 00:40:42,880 Speaker 1: I want you to hear my voice in the words 629 00:40:42,880 --> 00:40:47,040 Speaker 1: that I'm saying, and then repeat them to yourself, either 630 00:40:47,160 --> 00:40:57,240 Speaker 1: out loud or silently deep inside. I am worthy. I 631 00:40:57,280 --> 00:41:14,000 Speaker 1: am worthy. M I am enough. I am enough. I 632 00:41:14,239 --> 00:41:21,600 Speaker 1: am equipped with all the tools I need for this life. 633 00:41:22,680 --> 00:41:28,839 Speaker 1: I am equipped with all the tools I need for 634 00:41:28,920 --> 00:41:40,000 Speaker 1: this life. Love you guys, Catch you next week. 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