WEBVTT - Conversations With Job (From the Bible) 0:00:00.280 --> 0:00:03.120 If I believe, if God could read your mind, then 0:00:03.160 --> 0:00:05.200 you might as well say what's on it? If he 0:00:05.240 --> 0:00:07.480 really loves me, that he gonna understand the position. I 0:00:07.520 --> 0:00:13.720 mean when I'm cussing them out, Pete, this is Rachel. Hello, 0:00:14.040 --> 0:00:19.640 what's happening? Ye, Rachel, that's King King, that's Rachel. Okay, 0:00:19.680 --> 0:00:21.800 So this is gonna be crazy. I'm gonna just tell 0:00:21.800 --> 0:00:28.480 you this story. Right, no sailings, jail, Peter, the Hume girl, Rachel. 0:00:28.600 --> 0:00:33.520 It's like my spirit twin family. We finally met up spirits. 0:00:34.200 --> 0:00:38.559 It's the friend spiritually to connect. So King. So I 0:00:38.640 --> 0:00:40.319 was telling you the story about how I met King 0:00:40.320 --> 0:00:43.320 when I was going through my journey and he was 0:00:43.360 --> 0:00:45.280 like the only person that was really down for me, 0:00:45.720 --> 0:00:48.320 Like everybody else left me and thought I was crazy, 0:00:48.360 --> 0:00:50.440 but he stayed down with me. And I know it 0:00:50.479 --> 0:00:53.280 sounded crazy what I was on, but it really made sense. 0:00:54.000 --> 0:01:00.840 So let me tell you king story. So King King's 0:01:00.920 --> 0:01:05.120 family right, his uh, his girlfriend would be like his fiancee, 0:01:05.959 --> 0:01:12.000 his his daughter, her daughter, his young son um two 0:01:13.080 --> 0:01:17.880 two and a half maybe three, right, his daughter and 0:01:18.200 --> 0:01:23.400 three grandchildren right, all died in one car accident. I 0:01:23.480 --> 0:01:30.000 knew you're gonna say something horrific and for more people 0:01:30.080 --> 0:01:33.760 than not. Right, it sounds crazy because one person could 0:01:33.760 --> 0:01:38.560 bear that load. Yeah, I'm like, how but was ill 0:01:38.600 --> 0:01:41.280 about King? And what I respect about him the most 0:01:41.400 --> 0:01:44.679 is somehow he finds a way to keep walking forward 0:01:44.880 --> 0:01:47.840 even through all of this, Right, Like my code always 0:01:47.840 --> 0:01:51.800 tell people, I'm like, I'm still here, so you know, 0:01:51.880 --> 0:01:53.840 I do have a lot of respect for people who 0:01:53.880 --> 0:01:57.640 are still here after terrible things. And and I don't 0:01:57.640 --> 0:02:00.320 want to say terrible, because God loans all his people. 0:02:00.680 --> 0:02:03.440 I'm just not yet to me, that's terrible. I'm sorry. Well, 0:02:03.640 --> 0:02:06.400 sometimes God loan us all the people, and sometimes we 0:02:06.400 --> 0:02:08.160 gotta realize we gotta give them back, even if you 0:02:08.200 --> 0:02:10.360 don't want to. I don't think I've lost anyone close 0:02:10.440 --> 0:02:12.400 enough to me to get to that place of people 0:02:12.760 --> 0:02:19.000 obviously that that's that's the that's it'll never be peaced, right, 0:02:19.040 --> 0:02:21.280 They'll never be peaced. But you really got to understand 0:02:21.320 --> 0:02:22.960 that God only people. And I will tell you that 0:02:22.960 --> 0:02:26.640 based off the story, and then I'm like, yeah, I 0:02:26.639 --> 0:02:30.480 mean conceptually it makes sense for putting that into practice. 0:02:30.960 --> 0:02:33.200 You know that that's one of the goals of life 0:02:33.320 --> 0:02:35.440 is to be able to let everything go, and that's 0:02:35.440 --> 0:02:41.560 what I'm having right, not let it go, though, And 0:02:41.600 --> 0:02:43.520 I feel like we all could get a lesson because 0:02:43.520 --> 0:02:46.359 it's right. This is somebody I looked up to before 0:02:46.360 --> 0:02:52.120 I even knew why. Yeah, you know, I don't even 0:02:52.200 --> 0:02:54.000 This is like a weird question because you got to 0:02:54.000 --> 0:02:55.760 engineer the show and I don't want you to like 0:02:55.840 --> 0:03:00.480 to break up and ship, But how is it possible 0:03:01.240 --> 0:03:04.839 for somebody to go through that type of trauma? Yeah? 0:03:04.840 --> 0:03:07.760 I mean, even though we all know God lone us 0:03:07.800 --> 0:03:10.480 to his people and we're not ready to give him back, 0:03:10.520 --> 0:03:20.440 how do you actually find any space to operate? Honestly? Uh? Man, 0:03:20.480 --> 0:03:23.280 that is a hard I mean it's not something you 0:03:23.320 --> 0:03:26.359 really think about, right, It's just not Every day is hard. 0:03:26.360 --> 0:03:29.119 Every day I wake up and I have to tell 0:03:29.160 --> 0:03:32.560 myself I'm just like reborn again, Like it's a fresh starter, 0:03:33.200 --> 0:03:36.560 you know, and try to look at the world like 0:03:36.640 --> 0:03:41.000 a child again and everything be new and fresh, because 0:03:41.040 --> 0:03:44.680 for a while I kept chasing that old life. My 0:03:44.800 --> 0:03:47.160 family are looking at the old people that was in there, 0:03:47.160 --> 0:03:50.200 are trying to do the old things. And when you 0:03:50.280 --> 0:03:56.040 lose something so great, it's irreplaceable. Exactly, you can't find 0:03:56.080 --> 0:03:59.400 the replacement and think it's gonna work and things that's 0:03:59.400 --> 0:04:03.000 gonna build, okay. And so it took me until about 0:04:03.040 --> 0:04:08.800 thirty days ago, forty days ago to realize that I 0:04:08.840 --> 0:04:14.320 was chasing something that I'll never get. And in the 0:04:14.360 --> 0:04:17.520 process of chasing something I'll never get, I started resenting 0:04:17.600 --> 0:04:21.520 my life and not being able to be And when 0:04:21.520 --> 0:04:25.119 I started resenting my life, I stopped really caring about 0:04:25.200 --> 0:04:28.479 what other people felt and stuff, and I started hating 0:04:28.520 --> 0:04:31.039 the world. And I realized I wasn't the best for 0:04:31.080 --> 0:04:33.040 the friends that was trying to be there for me 0:04:33.440 --> 0:04:36.599 at the time of my turmoil and stuff. And so 0:04:37.120 --> 0:04:40.960 once I realized it's me and I am still here 0:04:41.520 --> 0:04:43.520 and my family is still here. As long as I'm 0:04:43.560 --> 0:04:46.360 still here, I can still have them live. And that's 0:04:46.360 --> 0:04:49.560 why I built my nonprofits so they could always stay alive. 0:04:50.080 --> 0:04:54.480 I've seen somewhere that says that when a person dies 0:04:54.880 --> 0:04:58.280 and you stopped thinking about them, they die twice because 0:04:59.360 --> 0:05:03.080 you know people energy. So I always felt as the 0:05:03.120 --> 0:05:04.880 head of my household and well I was teaching my 0:05:04.960 --> 0:05:08.480 family was to persevere no matter what, and for that 0:05:08.480 --> 0:05:11.320 that happened, and for me to preach that to my 0:05:11.360 --> 0:05:14.280 family forced to stand on. Then I had to dig 0:05:14.400 --> 0:05:17.960 deep down and live for them in the very beginning 0:05:18.160 --> 0:05:25.680 because I died that day physically, physically, mentally, body, everything, chemically, 0:05:25.680 --> 0:05:28.799 I'm not the same, you know, physically I'm not the same. 0:05:29.480 --> 0:05:32.240 I'm just I just died. That version died, like you said, 0:05:32.240 --> 0:05:35.240 that version of me died, and so it took long 0:05:35.320 --> 0:05:38.760 three years to be reborn, but with friends like you 0:05:40.279 --> 0:05:44.320 and people that didn't put a lot of pressure on me, 0:05:44.760 --> 0:05:47.720 but they was there for me. And that he was 0:05:47.800 --> 0:05:49.960 crazy because you don't really know how to be there, 0:05:50.360 --> 0:05:52.200 you know what I mean, You don't. You don't know, 0:05:52.279 --> 0:05:55.000 like I worried about you all the time, and like 0:05:55.040 --> 0:05:57.080 it was crazy than one of the coldest places in 0:05:57.120 --> 0:06:00.680 my life, feeling like I said, well, mom, family, my 0:06:00.800 --> 0:06:03.120 brothers checked out, everybody quit on me. All the people 0:06:03.120 --> 0:06:05.279 around me with music thought I was losing my mind 0:06:05.360 --> 0:06:08.800 because I was on my own journey, mixing purpose with 0:06:08.960 --> 0:06:11.560 actual you know what I was supposed to doing this 0:06:11.640 --> 0:06:14.919 industry because they all played together. So trying to be 0:06:14.960 --> 0:06:17.680 there for you, it's not even calm, it's not even 0:06:17.680 --> 0:06:22.720 comparable what I'm saying, Like like we were on the 0:06:22.880 --> 0:06:26.240 road for me, we buying a car, drive and he's 0:06:26.279 --> 0:06:28.600 flying out there, ride with me for days as much 0:06:28.640 --> 0:06:30.880 as he can, you know, still being back with his 0:06:30.920 --> 0:06:34.000 family running his businesses. He would fly out there. We'd 0:06:34.040 --> 0:06:36.159 be out there for days, you know what I mean, 0:06:36.200 --> 0:06:39.240 and just he let me figure it all out for 0:06:39.400 --> 0:06:41.920 me and never like pushed me or said, oh, it 0:06:42.000 --> 0:06:44.039 needs to happen now, right, And he kind of said 0:06:44.080 --> 0:06:46.479 that he touched on the same thing as first. He 0:06:46.560 --> 0:06:53.479 felt like friends like you, this is different. Really, the 0:06:53.600 --> 0:06:56.800 impact that he put on my life, people really would 0:06:56.839 --> 0:07:03.080 never understand because he helped me build my family. Honestly, 0:07:03.320 --> 0:07:06.360 he helped me build. He helped me name my child. 0:07:06.480 --> 0:07:09.000 I made him like, man, you're the guyfather of my son. 0:07:09.880 --> 0:07:12.400 You know, I got a picture on my phone for 0:07:13.000 --> 0:07:17.000 and so he actually was there from the very beginning. 0:07:17.080 --> 0:07:20.440 He helped me. He helped me have my family have fun, 0:07:20.480 --> 0:07:22.360 you know what I'm saying. Like he said, we're across 0:07:22.400 --> 0:07:25.000 the country and I was able to bring my family 0:07:25.080 --> 0:07:28.040 and stuff to these events that we did. And he 0:07:28.160 --> 0:07:30.320 wasn't like, your family can't be a party. He's like, 0:07:30.400 --> 0:07:35.040 they could bring your family's fun. So he was showing 0:07:35.080 --> 0:07:38.240 me a world that you know, I could bring my 0:07:38.320 --> 0:07:40.640 family into it, and we all have fun and stuff. 0:07:40.920 --> 0:07:44.640 So when that accident happened, he was a cornerstone for me, 0:07:44.960 --> 0:07:47.880 even though it was hard. Like I was saying to people, 0:07:48.120 --> 0:07:51.680 it was hard to see other people be happy. It 0:07:51.840 --> 0:07:54.680 was hard to see people play with their kids. It 0:07:54.760 --> 0:07:56.560 was even hard for me to go see him be 0:07:56.600 --> 0:07:59.160 with his family and stuff because I feel like a 0:07:59.200 --> 0:08:01.280 part of the family at one time. But then I 0:08:01.320 --> 0:08:06.200 became so broken. What do you say to somebody? What? 0:08:06.360 --> 0:08:12.400 There's nothing, nobody, anything at all that could really tell 0:08:12.440 --> 0:08:15.480 me because there's no way I could explain how I 0:08:15.520 --> 0:08:18.160 really feel. Because I come to a point is I 0:08:18.160 --> 0:08:20.240 don't want people to feel what I feel. Right, you 0:08:20.400 --> 0:08:22.760 don't even want to know. I stopped talking or even 0:08:22.800 --> 0:08:25.760 wanted to tell people feel it. No, don't feel whatever 0:08:25.840 --> 0:08:28.560 what I feel. Don't even try to feel what I 0:08:28.600 --> 0:08:31.280 feel because the pain that you have to go through, 0:08:31.760 --> 0:08:34.400 people don't make it. It's still unbearable as to ship 0:08:34.640 --> 0:08:38.600 people don't trust me. People, but that pain. Because the 0:08:38.600 --> 0:08:42.400 way I was raised, I used that pain as energy 0:08:42.480 --> 0:08:46.319 in and I feel like I could be the conduit 0:08:46.480 --> 0:08:57.080 between negative and positive, something to listen to. As far 0:08:57.160 --> 0:09:02.920 as being able to kind of go through the process 0:09:03.040 --> 0:09:07.160 of of a rebirth internally and in your outlook for 0:09:07.160 --> 0:09:10.079 for your life and everything. Not to compound bad news 0:09:10.080 --> 0:09:14.680 on bad news, but did like the experience of getting 0:09:16.240 --> 0:09:18.600 a big you know term handed to you when you 0:09:18.640 --> 0:09:21.360 were young, you know, and that changing maybe like the 0:09:21.440 --> 0:09:24.640 outlook of Okay, my life's now changed permanently, and then 0:09:24.880 --> 0:09:27.840 coming out and reinventing yourself. Is that something that could 0:09:27.840 --> 0:09:31.680 help you. Well. Definitely, our past always help us because 0:09:31.720 --> 0:09:34.160 if we pay attention, it becomes wisdom, you know what 0:09:34.200 --> 0:09:38.320 I'm saying. But for me, if we really go back 0:09:38.360 --> 0:09:40.040 to would build me to be able to go through 0:09:40.080 --> 0:09:43.480 this is I remember my mom telling me I was 0:09:43.480 --> 0:09:46.679 a little kid that she was I was supposed to 0:09:46.720 --> 0:09:50.600 be adopted. She had put me up for adoption, but 0:09:51.000 --> 0:09:53.160 I was born with a head full of hair, and 0:09:53.200 --> 0:09:55.040 so the newspaper wanted to take a picture of me 0:09:55.720 --> 0:09:58.200 because kids at that time didn't have a head full 0:09:58.200 --> 0:10:02.000 of beautiful soldier nurse did something which she wasn't supposed 0:10:02.040 --> 0:10:04.679 to do. She took me to my mom as she 0:10:04.720 --> 0:10:10.280 saw you see, I want to keep you. I want 0:10:10.320 --> 0:10:12.440 to keep my son, you know what I'm saying. So 0:10:13.120 --> 0:10:15.200 for me, and then you know, when I was two 0:10:15.280 --> 0:10:18.160 years old, she met this white guy who was an attorney. 0:10:18.200 --> 0:10:21.960 He became my dad. So for me, my life has 0:10:22.200 --> 0:10:28.199 always been growing up black with a white stepdad. You 0:10:28.320 --> 0:10:31.559 learned the fight, yeah, because they would take it as 0:10:31.559 --> 0:10:35.200 a weakness. And wait a minute, my whole family helped 0:10:35.240 --> 0:10:38.280 build where I'm from. Just because my mom, you know, 0:10:38.360 --> 0:10:40.760 got a white dude, doesn't make me different than who 0:10:40.800 --> 0:10:43.599 I'm from. I got a black dad. Really, you know 0:10:43.640 --> 0:10:45.880 what I'm saying. I'm really a nig I'm not a 0:10:45.920 --> 0:10:48.120 white dude, you know what I'm saying. So for me, 0:10:48.200 --> 0:10:50.520 my life has always been that way. So at seven 0:10:50.559 --> 0:10:53.559 years old, I got locked up in juvenile you know 0:10:53.600 --> 0:10:55.720 what I'm saying. I've always been in trouble all my 0:10:55.760 --> 0:10:59.960 life because I always felt different, And I mean I 0:11:00.040 --> 0:11:03.920 could get down to some real just being a Seahawks fan, 0:11:04.480 --> 0:11:08.679 well Seahawks Seahawks different Seahawks fan empowered me to go 0:11:08.720 --> 0:11:10.920 around the country and feel good. I'm just saying, because 0:11:10.920 --> 0:11:13.319 that's different to be a superslime Was you a SuperSonics fan? 0:11:13.840 --> 0:11:16.280 I was a supersilized fan when it was a good day. 0:11:16.400 --> 0:11:18.079 Did you like the Mariners when they had all those 0:11:18.120 --> 0:11:22.040 players and can never win. I love the Mariners and 0:11:22.360 --> 0:11:26.280 my fact, what's your team? And what see there? It 0:11:26.400 --> 0:11:30.880 is so anyway there it is right there, somebody answer 0:11:31.000 --> 0:11:34.000 that one. It's like, yeah, he didn't ask the question 0:11:34.080 --> 0:11:36.200 correctly at all because he's not a sports fan. He's 0:11:36.200 --> 0:11:39.000 not because I would have just said I'm not a fan, 0:11:41.080 --> 0:11:43.320 Like what's your favorite who's your favorite team out of 0:11:43.360 --> 0:11:47.920 all the sports? Obviously money is his favorite team. Ever's 0:11:47.960 --> 0:11:51.120 going to win his Pete's favorite team. Remember I told 0:11:51.120 --> 0:11:53.760 you that this favorite team is bit calm set up 0:11:54.160 --> 0:11:57.800 straight up, let me ask you something like, yeah, how 0:11:57.920 --> 0:12:01.560 trying is it? Spiritually? I never like these is what's crisis. 0:12:01.600 --> 0:12:05.560 We never had these conversations because I never felt like 0:12:05.600 --> 0:12:07.319 this was something I wanted to ask, but it was 0:12:07.400 --> 0:12:10.040 something I felt like I needed to know, you know 0:12:10.080 --> 0:12:12.880 what I mean, just because I'm around and and it's 0:12:12.880 --> 0:12:14.679 one thing, like I said, just having your back no 0:12:14.679 --> 0:12:16.600 matter what I mean, Like I told you the time, 0:12:16.880 --> 0:12:19.319 all the time we argue, like we could argue all 0:12:19.320 --> 0:12:21.360 you want to. I'm not backing down. I'm not gonna 0:12:21.400 --> 0:12:23.880 quit on you. I'm not so whatever you think you're 0:12:23.880 --> 0:12:26.320 gonna do that just ain't gonna work out and seven 0:12:26.360 --> 0:12:33.720 Street on me all the time, especially because we don't 0:12:33.720 --> 0:12:37.120 do no photo. So you can't run me off. You can't. 0:12:37.200 --> 0:12:39.160 The burden of it all can't run me off. I'm 0:12:39.160 --> 0:12:41.800 not gonna forget you exist. I'm not gonna let you 0:12:41.840 --> 0:12:46.640 just walk by yourself. If there was a burden, if 0:12:46.840 --> 0:12:49.200 I could take something, feel me, I'm gonna take as 0:12:49.280 --> 0:12:50.880 much of it as you allow me to take. So 0:12:50.920 --> 0:12:54.280 that's why I'm asking because I and I like, you know, 0:12:54.320 --> 0:12:56.840 we're on a podcast and this is such a personal conversation. 0:12:56.840 --> 0:12:59.720 But I feel like beautiful because it's something that it's 0:12:59.760 --> 0:13:04.040 something I could benefit. Rangel could benefit from it because 0:13:04.040 --> 0:13:08.000 I don't. I never talked about so spiritually, how trying 0:13:08.200 --> 0:13:10.719 is it? Like, I'm sure there's time when you could 0:13:10.760 --> 0:13:12.600 be upset with God. I'm sure there's a thousand thing 0:13:12.600 --> 0:13:17.439 when you ask why spiritually? Um, because of being locked 0:13:17.520 --> 0:13:20.160 up like I was, I was able to go through 0:13:20.800 --> 0:13:26.160 so many different transformations of religions while in prison. You know, 0:13:26.440 --> 0:13:29.320 I was, you know, seventh Venice. I was a Catholic 0:13:29.600 --> 0:13:31.199 because I used to go to these things just to 0:13:31.200 --> 0:13:33.840 get out myself, right, you know what I'm saying you 0:13:33.920 --> 0:13:37.520 had what religion? I'm there, did River cross out of 0:13:37.559 --> 0:13:42.440 the greater Christian umbrella to be like like Muslim? No, No, 0:13:42.679 --> 0:13:48.240 I'm telling my tan, my transformation, Tell my transformation, my transformation. 0:13:48.679 --> 0:13:51.320 When I was in the state prison, I was doing 0:13:51.440 --> 0:13:54.679 state stuff, you know, state religion. You know I was 0:13:54.720 --> 0:13:57.600 in Washington, so state is Christianity. Yeah, it was basically 0:13:57.679 --> 0:14:00.560 state religion. There was a couple of month Usluims and 0:14:00.600 --> 0:14:03.640 stuff that was in there, but not no real big 0:14:03.840 --> 0:14:07.199 Muslim force. You know. Now, when I went to the Fans, 0:14:08.080 --> 0:14:12.200 that's when things changed. That's when I became a nation 0:14:12.240 --> 0:14:14.559 of Islam. I became an n O I f O 0:14:14.679 --> 0:14:18.520 I and stuff. In prison, became a Muslim and started 0:14:18.600 --> 0:14:22.120 really learning about myself exactly because it's a journey of 0:14:22.120 --> 0:14:27.520 self discovery. So my spiritual journey has always started because 0:14:27.720 --> 0:14:30.040 I'm at the end of the Adiac sign as the Pisces. 0:14:30.400 --> 0:14:31.960 You know what I'm saying. I always knew there was 0:14:32.000 --> 0:14:36.200 something greater in me to do something by fish, Yes, 0:14:36.360 --> 0:14:43.360 you already know bo, so you already know I'm destined. Yes, 0:14:43.360 --> 0:14:45.560 And you're very, very emotional, and you hardly talk about 0:14:45.560 --> 0:14:48.880 your emotions at all. You know everything in and it 0:14:48.960 --> 0:14:51.560 can be um traumatized in for a person to not 0:14:51.800 --> 0:15:01.920 feel that I'm in a strong yeah, all of it. 0:15:04.520 --> 0:15:07.160 That ship is real, yes, of course. Okay, Pete, what's 0:15:07.160 --> 0:15:15.480 your signs? Hold? Hold? What's your sign that's sexy as hell? No? No, 0:15:16.200 --> 0:15:19.760 like a libra or something. What's your sign? Pete? Pizza Gemini? 0:15:21.600 --> 0:15:28.400 I don't I hate Gemini. Don't say thats okay, I 0:15:28.440 --> 0:15:30.760 say libra. Because you have like a very strong confidence 0:15:30.760 --> 0:15:32.520 about yourself. But you try to pretend like you don't, 0:15:32.560 --> 0:15:34.160 like you're not shy. I don't try to raise your 0:15:34.160 --> 0:15:37.080 hand like, excuse me, like you quiet as a mouse. 0:15:37.120 --> 0:15:40.520 I'm supposed to be raising my hand. I'm the nervous one. Okay, 0:15:40.560 --> 0:15:43.400 hold on, hold on, both experts is dead ass from exactly. 0:15:43.600 --> 0:15:47.040 So where's your sign for two? You want to go? 0:15:47.080 --> 0:15:49.720 You want round two? Well, now that I see you're 0:15:49.720 --> 0:15:57.000 an asshole, you might be a tourist. Down to six 0:15:57.040 --> 0:16:01.880 more choices? Okay, virgo apparently by definition, I don't know 0:16:01.920 --> 0:16:04.160 what that means. So tell me about a vision. Oh 0:16:04.160 --> 0:16:06.760 my god, I love you. Okay. First of all, my 0:16:06.800 --> 0:16:09.120 mother is a virgo and my best guy friend is 0:16:09.120 --> 0:16:13.400 a virgo. Um, okay. Virgos are First of all, they're 0:16:13.520 --> 0:16:17.520 like super self critical. I don't want to start like 0:16:17.640 --> 0:16:21.920 with a negative, but I will just start so very 0:16:22.360 --> 0:16:25.160 self critical. But they're like able to like self correct. 0:16:25.440 --> 0:16:28.400 Virgos is born with like all these questions in their head, 0:16:28.480 --> 0:16:31.800 like how do things working? Why? Why? Why? Like if 0:16:31.800 --> 0:16:34.120 your parents tell you something, you want to know, well why? 0:16:34.840 --> 0:16:38.040 I don't know for sure, but this that like always 0:16:38.080 --> 0:16:40.480 having that curious mind and then it being so young 0:16:41.040 --> 0:16:43.880 and not having no answers. It makes you search for 0:16:44.080 --> 0:16:47.040 truth in a deeper meaning of life. And and from 0:16:47.040 --> 0:16:51.200 what I've seen, virgos be reading books that nobody else 0:16:51.240 --> 0:16:54.000 be reading at a very early age, like my mom 0:16:54.040 --> 0:16:59.880 has read over like, uh books, that's a handful of books. 0:17:00.400 --> 0:17:03.600 Oh my god, I'm right, Oh my god, I love you. 0:17:04.240 --> 0:17:10.440 How is it any accuracy at all? Okay, that's pretty good? Yeah, 0:17:10.880 --> 0:17:13.560 pretty good. Okay, that was all off of knowing you 0:17:13.680 --> 0:17:16.240 for we're meeting you ten minutes ago. Well about glasses 0:17:16.320 --> 0:17:20.240 Now we already know him, so it wouldn't be fair. 0:17:21.359 --> 0:17:23.399 It's not fair, like we're like we're kind of the 0:17:23.440 --> 0:17:25.879 same person in a sense. It's just I know, I 0:17:25.880 --> 0:17:28.960 don't look as big and tall and scary as him. 0:17:29.280 --> 0:17:33.840 But don't let this little body for you. You know, 0:17:34.000 --> 0:17:40.199 this guy no big and scary the boys no, no 0:17:40.280 --> 0:17:43.440 hold because we just lost track. That just went off spiritually. 0:17:44.040 --> 0:17:46.600 So you've been prepared for this. No, I haven't been 0:17:46.600 --> 0:17:49.720 pared for this. I mean not not actual, it's not 0:17:49.800 --> 0:17:53.000 actually God taking the people back from you. But I've 0:17:53.000 --> 0:17:56.160 been fair spiritually to have to go through war war. 0:17:56.880 --> 0:17:58.840 I've been prepared to have to. So none of this 0:17:58.960 --> 0:18:01.280 has really shook you spiritually more or less it makes 0:18:01.280 --> 0:18:03.760 you just don't want to be here. No, it shook 0:18:03.800 --> 0:18:07.480 me very spiritual. I mean like I was telling something. 0:18:07.560 --> 0:18:10.040 When I first got a prison, I was more spiritual. 0:18:10.119 --> 0:18:12.199 But then as time went on, I got away from 0:18:12.280 --> 0:18:14.880 my sports. A couple of Porto sunges. I probably came 0:18:14.920 --> 0:18:17.720 close to sniffing song some port I was bacon. I 0:18:17.760 --> 0:18:20.199 got away from my goals to be a spiritual I 0:18:20.320 --> 0:18:26.560 was that portas sounds that bacon. I didn't use garden bacon, 0:18:26.720 --> 0:18:29.760 you know, because no, because he's a Muslim. Muslim they 0:18:29.760 --> 0:18:32.360 don't eat pork. I'm saying, when you break your spiritual 0:18:32.400 --> 0:18:35.440 business by saying he does eat pork, No, I don't 0:18:35.440 --> 0:18:38.320 know if he's never seen I've never seen every's every 0:18:38.400 --> 0:18:42.080 ive never seen before I ever seen me eat pork. No, 0:18:42.160 --> 0:18:45.320 I've never seen he's never seen me eport nobody very 0:18:45.359 --> 0:18:49.320 good and pulled pork sandwich for lunch today Spring Street Barbecue, 0:18:49.359 --> 0:18:54.520 Downtown Caddy corner from over Street. Shout no, yeah, pay us, 0:18:54.640 --> 0:18:57.200 pay us stin what shot what? Shout him out. We'll 0:18:57.200 --> 0:18:59.920 give you we we we we get wet, leave you 0:19:00.000 --> 0:19:01.920 about to commercial first, and then try to try to 0:19:02.080 --> 0:19:05.080 let go to give you free poor porks. I'm glad 0:19:05.119 --> 0:19:07.439 you said that, Pete. I'm glad you said that, Pete, 0:19:07.800 --> 0:19:10.960 because before I reach my spiritual point you was talking about, 0:19:11.640 --> 0:19:14.879 I probably would attack you on that, you know, for 0:19:15.000 --> 0:19:18.480 having yeah up in here around me talking about porks. 0:19:18.920 --> 0:19:22.879 But because yeah, because of my spiritual journey now, I 0:19:23.000 --> 0:19:26.000 really don't honestly, and it's hard for people to understand. 0:19:26.600 --> 0:19:29.760 I don't give a fuck, you know. I know that 0:19:29.880 --> 0:19:33.160 I have to do things and everybody's not gonna understand. 0:19:33.359 --> 0:19:35.800 Everybody's not gonna like it as long as I have 0:19:36.119 --> 0:19:40.240 good intentions, and so right now in my spiritual form, 0:19:40.320 --> 0:19:44.080 now it's all about for me is good intentions and 0:19:44.320 --> 0:19:48.480 helping people smile. That's my spiritual basis now when I 0:19:48.520 --> 0:19:52.159 get up spiritually, I just want to help people smile 0:19:52.280 --> 0:19:54.520 and stuff, you know, things like that. That's it. And 0:19:54.600 --> 0:19:57.399 you think you can do that without cooking them pork, Oh, 0:19:57.600 --> 0:20:01.320 well you you need He made me some. The one 0:20:01.320 --> 0:20:04.280 thing is I'm not gonna use the port to divide us. 0:20:05.160 --> 0:20:10.240 That's OK. Don't don't give me roll. Pork has advantage. 0:20:11.320 --> 0:20:13.879 He won't let the pork pork pup. No, I'm not 0:20:13.880 --> 0:20:17.120 gonna let the port. I'm not gonna. I'm not gonna. 0:20:17.160 --> 0:20:18.919 All I could do is give you the info and 0:20:19.119 --> 0:20:28.240 you know you can talking hours about how pork is filthy. Yeah, 0:20:28.280 --> 0:20:33.000 I'm not gonna get it too that with them Cam, Cam, 0:20:33.480 --> 0:20:37.360 it takes it takes Cam. No, no, So when Cam comes, 0:20:37.520 --> 0:20:39.960 Cam is my big brother from the nation and on 0:20:40.160 --> 0:20:43.440 my way for that for me. Yeah, we don't talk 0:20:43.480 --> 0:20:47.040 about Pete. He came through before. We didn't. Yeahah, yeah, 0:20:47.040 --> 0:20:49.119 we Cam and Cam and YB. Yeah you know Bro. 0:20:49.600 --> 0:20:51.960 So yeah, Cam is the one that knows about port. 0:20:52.359 --> 0:20:55.120 I lost a bed to young Bro, his little brother. 0:20:55.200 --> 0:20:58.399 That's how I having a port iv a porss. So 0:20:58.480 --> 0:21:03.720 it wasn't what I thought you. I thought, I you 0:21:03.760 --> 0:21:09.200 didn't eat it for spiritual reason. No, no, it is spiritual. 0:21:11.440 --> 0:21:14.040 No no, I lost that bed and I realized why 0:21:14.080 --> 0:21:16.800 shouldn't be And when he lost that bed, it was. 0:21:17.200 --> 0:21:19.399 But but I just want to go on record and 0:21:19.480 --> 0:21:23.119 camera's gonna kill me. Cam's gonna kill me? Why b 0:21:23.280 --> 0:21:28.360 is gonna kill me? Pork is awesome season. You don't 0:21:28.359 --> 0:21:30.000 even have to add season to it. You could just 0:21:30.680 --> 0:21:34.760 hook it up fried up its fire. So you miss port? 0:21:35.600 --> 0:21:38.560 Are you miss bacon? Because remember pork there's a whole 0:21:38.600 --> 0:21:42.880 big table about pork, ham slices and different so set 0:21:42.920 --> 0:21:47.199 me finished. So when me and Head lost this bet, right, 0:21:47.200 --> 0:21:49.800 because me and DJ Head lost the bet, we was 0:21:49.880 --> 0:21:52.119 at Chili's. They used to have this maple bacon. It 0:21:52.200 --> 0:21:54.159 was thick man. We used to go out like, I 0:21:54.160 --> 0:21:56.320 don't like bacon. If he has to see his eyes. 0:21:57.480 --> 0:22:01.719 This bacon was so far he should be the thick slab. 0:22:02.160 --> 0:22:04.760 We used to stack it up and belly cut man. 0:22:04.760 --> 0:22:09.280 That thing was prime. So what I missed about pork, 0:22:09.440 --> 0:22:12.760 right is I miss ham like the ham steaks. It's 0:22:12.760 --> 0:22:14.480 to the ham steak. They used to give me headaches 0:22:14.480 --> 0:22:16.760 after I ate them. What they used to be. That's 0:22:16.800 --> 0:22:20.479 way too much pork chops. That is probably number turkey 0:22:20.520 --> 0:22:24.400 chops something. To be honest, turkey chops kinda can get 0:22:24.400 --> 0:22:27.760 with pork chops. Not can turkey bacon kind of get 0:22:27.760 --> 0:22:29.760 with bacon, of course not. We're not gonna have that. 0:22:29.800 --> 0:22:32.040 But what I'm gonna tell you know, but I've tasted 0:22:32.040 --> 0:22:33.879 some fire turkey bacon. Yeah, me too, but it's just 0:22:33.920 --> 0:22:39.199 not the same. You have to season it. And you 0:22:39.240 --> 0:22:41.640 know some people don't season their food. Well, you don't 0:22:42.000 --> 0:22:46.920 season bacon. You know what you see? Pork turkeys aren't 0:22:46.960 --> 0:22:50.840 worth a red set. You heard it here first. No, 0:22:50.960 --> 0:22:54.359 that's not true. I had turkey ribs and Pittsburgh and 0:22:54.440 --> 0:22:57.760 it was amazing. It was one of the most amazing. 0:22:57.800 --> 0:23:00.639 And it was only a Pittsburgh I ain't gonna lie. 0:23:00.680 --> 0:23:03.560 I haven't had him really good anywhere else but in Pittsburgh. 0:23:03.800 --> 0:23:06.200 You remember it was in Pittsburgh. I can't remember a 0:23:06.280 --> 0:23:09.440 turkey rib. No, we was in Pittsburgh. Right, We've seen 0:23:09.520 --> 0:23:11.639 we've seen this one. We've seen Hayes and now shout 0:23:11.640 --> 0:23:14.680 out to Jay Hayes. But we was out there, my nigga, No, 0:23:15.119 --> 0:23:17.399 I remember you made me, uh damn never want to 0:23:17.480 --> 0:23:19.840 run out the goddamn place for eating the steak wrong. 0:23:20.359 --> 0:23:28.600 Didn't you ordered that a steakhouse? I remember that moment. 0:23:31.200 --> 0:23:34.439 Everybody just like what I was on a dating girls 0:23:34.520 --> 0:23:37.240