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Speaker 1: Nicky Years Nikki. Hey guys, happy end of the week.

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Speaker 1: It's Thursday's show. I'm sad to close out the week,

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Speaker 1: but I have old show ahead of me. What am

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Speaker 1: I getting sad about? Well, let me just enjoy the moment, right,

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Speaker 1: I'll miss you this weekend, but we will be back

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Speaker 1: on Monday with a whole new batch of shows next week.

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Speaker 1: Why am I already getting excited about shows that? Let's

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Speaker 1: get excited about this show. I'm very excited for this show.

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Speaker 1: I've already done a ton of radio. This morning. I

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Speaker 1: went into UM if you're if you listen, you can

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Speaker 1: actually download the app and listen anywhere. But I am

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Speaker 1: often on the Arch radio station in St. Louis, Missouri,

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Speaker 1: six one or six point five the Arch. Uh. They

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Speaker 1: have a great morning show called the Courtney Show, which

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Speaker 1: is like the number one show up in St. Louis,

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Speaker 1: like morning show for like you know, like the demo

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Speaker 1: that I'm talking to you guys, like you would enjoy

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Speaker 1: the show and it's UM but it's morning radio. If

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Speaker 1: you enjoy more radio show, I recommend that and I'm

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Speaker 1: on it quite often. UM My ex boyfriend is one

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Speaker 1: of the hosts of that or co host of the show,

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Speaker 1: his named Chris Conby went in there. I I used

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Speaker 1: to call in every Thursday and now I just go

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Speaker 1: in when I can. So fun today, Noah, I went

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Speaker 1: in and Greg Warren was in their comedian one of

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Speaker 1: my best friends as well. We told hilarious stories. And

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Speaker 1: then A Brando, the other co host, his son was there, Owen,

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Speaker 1: who is eleven, and I guess people were tweeting or

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Speaker 1: texting into the show that they were horrified that Owen

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Speaker 1: was there because of I guess my dirty mouth. But

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Speaker 1: I'm on terrestrial radio. I was behaving myself. Yeah, I

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Speaker 1: did go a little hard on Cosby, but uh probably deserved.

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Speaker 1: They do this thing called like the Hollywood Minute or

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Speaker 1: like Hollywood Insider, and and Brando goes through all the

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Speaker 1: celebrity news of the day. It's kind of a why

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Speaker 1: why do I care? But like you, they act excited

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Speaker 1: about it because they have to. But we were talking

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Speaker 1: about Cosby, which, by the way, I got the Cosby

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Speaker 1: alert surday when I was searching Andrew's room to take

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Speaker 1: a picture of something disgusting in his room. And I

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Speaker 1: don't know why I didn't come back and go Can

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Speaker 1: we talk about that, Like later on, I go, why

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Speaker 1: did you just I wasn't ready to handle what that

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Speaker 1: alert said that he was walking for Like I couldn't.

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Speaker 1: It's so weird. When I got it, I was literally like, no,

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Speaker 1: you have to focus, NICKI don't think about Cosby. Focus

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Speaker 1: on finding on figuring out why Andrew his toothbrush is

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Speaker 1: Then it's such a weird thing that I can do

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Speaker 1: of compartmentalizing, like really tragic, fucking shit. Um. But I

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Speaker 1: went off on Cosby today on this you know, family

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Speaker 1: friendly radio show. All I said was that I hope

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Speaker 1: he dies a terrible, painful accident, like a death that

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Speaker 1: is like not good, And I go, can you hope

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Speaker 1: death onto someone who is that legal? I didn't say

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Speaker 1: anyone to do it. I just said I hope, like

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Speaker 1: I pray to a higher power, that Cosby his the

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Speaker 1: end of his life is not fun. And then I

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Speaker 1: I I read somewhere back when this is all going down,

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Speaker 1: you know, Cosby has sixty accusers that I think many

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Speaker 1: when there's one, there's you know, most people that rape,

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Speaker 1: comparing rape victims to cockroaches by any means um, but

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Speaker 1: probably probably uh likely that Cosby probably accidentally killed a woman,

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Speaker 1: needed days to recover when they did wake up. So

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Speaker 1: He is, uh, allegedly the most prolific serial rapist in history,

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Speaker 1: to say the tweet that I put out yesterday, um,

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Speaker 1: I was thinking about what do I tweet. I don't

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Speaker 1: I just this is how I feel. I said today,

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Speaker 1: And I really believe that, like yesterday wasn't just hard

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Speaker 1: behind bars for it to have happened and for you

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Speaker 1: so to any victim out there that yesterday was probably

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Speaker 1: I mean, I've told before that I I've had guys

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Speaker 1: And the truth is, it just doesn't happen that often.

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Speaker 1: bleader um and he goes, I just have to tell you,

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Speaker 1: But my partner and I were supposed to get Marryan,

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Speaker 1: She's literally the best dog I've ever owned. Sorry, Luigi, earmuffs. Um.

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Speaker 1: don't know, there's like seventy games maybe act I'm sorry,

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Speaker 1: like eight two games in a season. I don't give

427
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Speaker 1: a funk about You read vaginas. Does a duck have

428
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Speaker 1: uh seventy four one for each penis with duck owns?

429
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Speaker 1: Doesn't have owns? I wasn't way off by that. By

430
00:21:02,000 --> 00:21:04,000
Speaker 1: the way, we got a lot of messages that ducks

431
00:21:04,040 --> 00:21:06,040
Speaker 1: have a lot of tunnels in there. They do. They

432
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Speaker 1: have a lot of vagina halls. Okay, go back to support. No, no,

433
00:21:09,359 --> 00:21:10,920
Speaker 1: that there's eighty two games. I don't give a funk

434
00:21:10,920 --> 00:21:14,200
Speaker 1: about the regular season. But if it's you know, semifinals,

435
00:21:14,240 --> 00:21:17,800
Speaker 1: the finals in the Western Conference, I'm invested. I enjoy it.

436
00:21:18,119 --> 00:21:21,680
Speaker 1: There's something at steak. Yeah, well this was the option. Noah,

437
00:21:21,680 --> 00:21:24,600
Speaker 1: can I just present to you. I was making dinner

438
00:21:25,040 --> 00:21:27,879
Speaker 1: and like The Bachelor was on, but I also like,

439
00:21:27,960 --> 00:21:30,080
Speaker 1: I don't mind watching it later because it records and

440
00:21:30,080 --> 00:21:32,520
Speaker 1: I'll zip through it because it's so much filler at

441
00:21:32,520 --> 00:21:35,480
Speaker 1: this point in the season anyway, and the game, he's

442
00:21:35,480 --> 00:21:38,560
Speaker 1: watching a game and it's early in the bachelrette. I mean,

443
00:21:38,600 --> 00:21:41,280
Speaker 1: how many more weeks is Oh, yeah, it's very That's

444
00:21:41,280 --> 00:21:42,959
Speaker 1: what I said. It's so it's very early. That's why

445
00:21:43,000 --> 00:21:44,240
Speaker 1: I said I don't need to watch it. But it

446
00:21:44,240 --> 00:21:46,120
Speaker 1: would have been something that we could both enjoy because

447
00:21:46,160 --> 00:21:48,359
Speaker 1: I just don't enjoy basketball on any level. Like I

448
00:21:48,400 --> 00:21:50,600
Speaker 1: cannot care. I I just it's not that I'm not

449
00:21:50,640 --> 00:21:52,399
Speaker 1: going to try to. I just I've tried before it

450
00:21:52,400 --> 00:21:57,479
Speaker 1: and I just don't care. But um, I go. You

451
00:21:57,600 --> 00:21:59,560
Speaker 1: offered to go watch the game in your room, and

452
00:21:59,600 --> 00:22:03,120
Speaker 1: I said, I would honestly rather sit here with you,

453
00:22:03,200 --> 00:22:06,320
Speaker 1: just the company of a guy, like of my roommate

454
00:22:06,359 --> 00:22:08,359
Speaker 1: in the room. I just like someone being there, even

455
00:22:08,359 --> 00:22:10,959
Speaker 1: if we're not talking and we're not watching the same thing.

456
00:22:11,000 --> 00:22:14,399
Speaker 1: I'll eat, I'll watch you watch TV. I'd rather that

457
00:22:14,480 --> 00:22:16,320
Speaker 1: than sit alone and watch what I want to watch,

458
00:22:16,359 --> 00:22:18,560
Speaker 1: if that makes sense. So that's just a testament to like,

459
00:22:18,880 --> 00:22:21,480
Speaker 1: I just like being around you. And that's why I

460
00:22:21,520 --> 00:22:23,280
Speaker 1: get so sad when you go to bed, because I

461
00:22:23,320 --> 00:22:26,200
Speaker 1: can't enjoy TV alone. I just can't. It won't happen.

462
00:22:26,359 --> 00:22:30,000
Speaker 1: But we're together, like last night, for instance, like you

463
00:22:30,040 --> 00:22:32,119
Speaker 1: were on your phone. You get into your phone and

464
00:22:32,160 --> 00:22:35,199
Speaker 1: then I don't feel like you're present. I wasn't, and

465
00:22:35,240 --> 00:22:36,760
Speaker 1: I told you that when I was on the phone.

466
00:22:36,760 --> 00:22:39,120
Speaker 1: I go, I'm so sorry, dude. I just got into

467
00:22:39,160 --> 00:22:43,239
Speaker 1: this text conversation with someone that is like insane, and

468
00:22:43,280 --> 00:22:44,520
Speaker 1: you were like, why is it insane? I was like,

469
00:22:44,520 --> 00:22:46,320
Speaker 1: I can't even tell you because I'm in it right now.

470
00:22:46,520 --> 00:22:48,480
Speaker 1: It turned into a call. I mean, how often do

471
00:22:48,560 --> 00:22:50,919
Speaker 1: text conversations go we just need to talk to on

472
00:22:50,960 --> 00:22:53,320
Speaker 1: the phone, and it was it was wild. I can't

473
00:22:53,359 --> 00:22:56,200
Speaker 1: wait to tell you about it. Easter egg but fashionation

474
00:22:56,600 --> 00:23:01,920
Speaker 1: so um. But yeah, I don't. In terms of our hobbies,

475
00:23:02,000 --> 00:23:04,600
Speaker 1: overlapping and things we can share together, I am going

476
00:23:04,640 --> 00:23:06,159
Speaker 1: to have you asked me to go golfing with you

477
00:23:06,200 --> 00:23:07,720
Speaker 1: all the time, and I want you to keep asking

478
00:23:07,720 --> 00:23:09,480
Speaker 1: me because someday I'm just gonna be like, yeah, I'm

479
00:23:09,520 --> 00:23:11,680
Speaker 1: in the mood for that. Um, because I'm a fly

480
00:23:11,760 --> 00:23:14,200
Speaker 1: by the seat of my pants kind of gal uh.

481
00:23:14,240 --> 00:23:15,800
Speaker 1: And I can never predict if I'm gonna want to

482
00:23:15,800 --> 00:23:17,800
Speaker 1: play golf because if I'm doing that, I'm never going

483
00:23:17,840 --> 00:23:20,040
Speaker 1: to want to. But sometimes I'm just like I could

484
00:23:20,080 --> 00:23:24,640
Speaker 1: do this, Um, when it comes to guitar, like I

485
00:23:24,680 --> 00:23:27,280
Speaker 1: love when you play with me, like when because I

486
00:23:27,280 --> 00:23:28,919
Speaker 1: can just teach you some chords and then go just

487
00:23:28,920 --> 00:23:31,760
Speaker 1: strum along and then I sound less shitty if there's

488
00:23:31,800 --> 00:23:35,159
Speaker 1: just someone playing with me. Um, And so I always

489
00:23:35,200 --> 00:23:37,399
Speaker 1: love when you do, but I don't want to force

490
00:23:37,440 --> 00:23:41,159
Speaker 1: you to. And I and you know, guitar for me

491
00:23:41,240 --> 00:23:43,760
Speaker 1: is like golf, like you can be lost for hours

492
00:23:43,920 --> 00:23:45,720
Speaker 1: in golf and I can just be in here alone.

493
00:23:45,720 --> 00:23:48,080
Speaker 1: I'm not like sad alone being like when we play

494
00:23:48,119 --> 00:23:53,040
Speaker 1: with me, like I love it. And and then yesterday

495
00:23:53,080 --> 00:23:54,560
Speaker 1: you try to hang out in my room because we

496
00:23:54,560 --> 00:24:00,639
Speaker 1: had a task. Okay, so no, yes, it was crazy.

497
00:24:00,680 --> 00:24:03,040
Speaker 1: By the way, Andrew's gone all day fixing his phone

498
00:24:03,080 --> 00:24:06,960
Speaker 1: and I don't really have any h and Andrew, did

499
00:24:06,960 --> 00:24:09,920
Speaker 1: you have a golf lessens? As you an impromptu golf lesson,

500
00:24:09,960 --> 00:24:12,800
Speaker 1: which led to a very upset Andrew. But I'm okay now,

501
00:24:12,880 --> 00:24:17,280
Speaker 1: oh really, it's a golfer thing great on the mat.

502
00:24:17,400 --> 00:24:19,520
Speaker 1: And then I got on the course and I didn't

503
00:24:20,880 --> 00:24:23,440
Speaker 1: because too early in the season for me to jump

504
00:24:23,440 --> 00:24:28,560
Speaker 1: on that story. So yesterday, no, I just to make

505
00:24:28,600 --> 00:24:31,159
Speaker 1: a long story short, I really took care of a

506
00:24:31,160 --> 00:24:33,800
Speaker 1: lot of ship yesterday. I got done with the podcast.

507
00:24:34,160 --> 00:24:36,879
Speaker 1: I got sent off some emails that I've just you

508
00:24:36,920 --> 00:24:39,720
Speaker 1: know those emails that just Gmail brings up to the

509
00:24:39,760 --> 00:24:41,240
Speaker 1: top and goes like do you want to run back

510
00:24:41,240 --> 00:24:44,320
Speaker 1: it to this and you're like, I know. Gmail finished those,

511
00:24:44,560 --> 00:24:47,720
Speaker 1: Thank God, came up with an idea for the tour, like,

512
00:24:47,760 --> 00:24:49,119
Speaker 1: came up with a plan for the tour, like I'm

513
00:24:49,119 --> 00:24:50,680
Speaker 1: starting to like put the tour together even though I've

514
00:24:50,680 --> 00:24:54,800
Speaker 1: been pushing that. Got all that done. Then Bestie had

515
00:24:54,920 --> 00:24:58,960
Speaker 1: written me about assisting me. Got this girl to come over.

516
00:24:59,119 --> 00:25:01,119
Speaker 1: Twenty minutes later, she's at my house. I send her

517
00:25:01,119 --> 00:25:02,680
Speaker 1: off to Target, I sent her for a run. I

518
00:25:03,080 --> 00:25:04,680
Speaker 1: make a list of things she needs to get done,

519
00:25:04,680 --> 00:25:07,320
Speaker 1: which is working and of itself. She goes off on

520
00:25:07,359 --> 00:25:09,960
Speaker 1: that plan. She's such a sweet girl. Thank you, Megan.

521
00:25:10,080 --> 00:25:13,840
Speaker 1: She's like a young stand up comedian um and student nearby.

522
00:25:14,000 --> 00:25:16,080
Speaker 1: She was awesome. Then I had a task grab it

523
00:25:16,160 --> 00:25:20,399
Speaker 1: come over to hang shelves and stuff, and he he

524
00:25:20,440 --> 00:25:22,119
Speaker 1: turned out to be a fan. And I didn't know

525
00:25:22,320 --> 00:25:25,000
Speaker 1: until he got inside because he was just looking at

526
00:25:25,000 --> 00:25:27,600
Speaker 1: me kind of like he was a utukey glazer and

527
00:25:27,600 --> 00:25:29,880
Speaker 1: I was like yeah, and he was like, oh my god,

528
00:25:29,880 --> 00:25:32,080
Speaker 1: Oh my god. Like I'm like, I'm a huge show

529
00:25:32,160 --> 00:25:34,960
Speaker 1: Rogan guy, and listen to THEO and Joey Diaz and

530
00:25:34,960 --> 00:25:37,119
Speaker 1: I don't know anything about JOEYDA is like literally nothing

531
00:25:37,200 --> 00:25:39,280
Speaker 1: like zero info. And he kept asking me about Joey

532
00:25:39,320 --> 00:25:41,520
Speaker 1: Diaz and I kept going, I have he goes, so

533
00:25:41,600 --> 00:25:44,280
Speaker 1: what's he doing now with the Greatest American Show? And

534
00:25:44,280 --> 00:25:45,720
Speaker 1: I was like, I don't know any of the words

535
00:25:45,720 --> 00:25:48,320
Speaker 1: you're saying. I literally go Joey Diaz is a blind

536
00:25:48,359 --> 00:25:50,480
Speaker 1: spot in my comedic knowledge. I don't know anything about it.

537
00:25:50,560 --> 00:25:52,800
Speaker 1: For some reason. I know he talks like this, and

538
00:25:52,840 --> 00:25:55,320
Speaker 1: I know he said some controversial stuff, but I don't

539
00:25:55,400 --> 00:25:57,879
Speaker 1: he's friends of Joe Rogan. I don't know any smoke cigars.

540
00:25:57,880 --> 00:25:59,480
Speaker 1: I follow him on Instagram, but I don't know anything

541
00:25:59,520 --> 00:26:01,800
Speaker 1: about it. And this guy just kept trying to bring

542
00:26:01,880 --> 00:26:03,720
Speaker 1: up So he was very nice and he got the

543
00:26:03,720 --> 00:26:06,399
Speaker 1: stuff done. I needed to uh efficiently, but I was

544
00:26:06,480 --> 00:26:08,040
Speaker 1: hiding in my room because I just didn't want to

545
00:26:08,119 --> 00:26:09,960
Speaker 1: chit chat. I was like needed him to get his

546
00:26:10,000 --> 00:26:12,640
Speaker 1: work done. I was having, uh, my sex partner come

547
00:26:12,680 --> 00:26:14,600
Speaker 1: over at a certain time, so I needed him to

548
00:26:14,600 --> 00:26:18,400
Speaker 1: get out before that guy came over. And uh, because

549
00:26:18,400 --> 00:26:20,200
Speaker 1: we were working on the shelves that he was putn't

550
00:26:20,200 --> 00:26:23,920
Speaker 1: not just kidding and just kidding, That's what my mom says. Um.

551
00:26:23,960 --> 00:26:25,959
Speaker 1: So then I was hiding in my room practicing guitar

552
00:26:26,320 --> 00:26:28,840
Speaker 1: and just cleaning my room and just you know, in

553
00:26:28,880 --> 00:26:31,239
Speaker 1: my room, like teenage girl in a room. By the way,

554
00:26:31,760 --> 00:26:34,639
Speaker 1: Nikki's room is far away from my I don't know

555
00:26:34,680 --> 00:26:37,680
Speaker 1: if people realize, like, your room's very tucked in the corner. Yes,

556
00:26:37,720 --> 00:26:40,280
Speaker 1: it's over in the corner, not close to Andrews. And

557
00:26:40,280 --> 00:26:42,720
Speaker 1: and I hear a knock rapping on my door. I

558
00:26:42,720 --> 00:26:44,680
Speaker 1: thought it was the task Rabbit and being like, what

559
00:26:44,720 --> 00:26:46,240
Speaker 1: do you want me to do next? Even though I

560
00:26:47,440 --> 00:26:49,000
Speaker 1: was kind of annoyed because I'm like, he knows what

561
00:26:49,040 --> 00:26:50,840
Speaker 1: I wanted. He knows every task I want him to

562
00:26:50,840 --> 00:26:53,919
Speaker 1: complete as the rabbit, and uh, I opened the door.

563
00:26:53,960 --> 00:26:57,440
Speaker 1: I go, yeah, and it's Andrew and I literally thought, no,

564
00:26:57,600 --> 00:26:59,680
Speaker 1: he goes you need to see these And I thought,

565
00:27:00,520 --> 00:27:03,240
Speaker 1: what did you think? What I thought happened was that

566
00:27:03,320 --> 00:27:05,919
Speaker 1: something happened with the task Rabbit guy and you're like, dude,

567
00:27:06,040 --> 00:27:08,679
Speaker 1: you need to see he's like jerking off on our sofa.

568
00:27:08,800 --> 00:27:11,600
Speaker 1: Like I thought something was really wrong because you go,

569
00:27:11,720 --> 00:27:13,879
Speaker 1: you need to see this, and I was like, I

570
00:27:14,119 --> 00:27:17,000
Speaker 1: was first, I was scared, and then you looked down

571
00:27:17,600 --> 00:27:21,080
Speaker 1: and you have flip flops in your hand, Adidas flip flops,

572
00:27:21,119 --> 00:27:25,280
Speaker 1: like the the ones with the massage little things. It's

573
00:27:25,280 --> 00:27:28,160
Speaker 1: like a bunch of little massage Do you know these?

574
00:27:28,240 --> 00:27:31,160
Speaker 1: You gotta get these? And I go on, I go, yeah,

575
00:27:31,280 --> 00:27:33,520
Speaker 1: I love these. I was excited because they do bring

576
00:27:33,640 --> 00:27:36,320
Speaker 1: me back to swim practice in high school. Every kid

577
00:27:36,400 --> 00:27:39,160
Speaker 1: had those and there um and it's the first time

578
00:27:39,160 --> 00:27:40,719
Speaker 1: he's had ever had the ones with a little like

579
00:27:40,800 --> 00:27:45,479
Speaker 1: kind of reversed t really get excited about the one

580
00:27:45,480 --> 00:27:47,080
Speaker 1: time we saw the neighbors having sex and you came

581
00:27:47,080 --> 00:27:49,640
Speaker 1: into knock on it those things. Yeah, but this time

582
00:27:49,680 --> 00:27:52,760
Speaker 1: I thought, I was like, this was way less interesting

583
00:27:52,800 --> 00:27:56,119
Speaker 1: than our neighbors fucking but you go, you gotta get these,

584
00:27:56,160 --> 00:27:57,679
Speaker 1: and I go, okay, And then I tried one on.

585
00:27:57,720 --> 00:27:59,720
Speaker 1: I'm just at my door. I tried it on, gave

586
00:27:59,760 --> 00:28:00,760
Speaker 1: it back, you know, I was like, oh, where do

587
00:28:00,760 --> 00:28:02,800
Speaker 1: you get him, he's like Amazon. I'm like, oh cool, okay,

588
00:28:02,920 --> 00:28:06,320
Speaker 1: um all right, And I had my guitar around my

589
00:28:06,400 --> 00:28:08,400
Speaker 1: neck like I'm like, I want to get back to this,

590
00:28:08,520 --> 00:28:13,280
Speaker 1: and uh, I just slowly shut the door and I yeah,

591
00:28:13,520 --> 00:28:15,400
Speaker 1: because I just didn't want any bursting it. I wasn't

592
00:28:15,400 --> 00:28:17,119
Speaker 1: doing anything wrong. I was just like smoking weed and

593
00:28:17,200 --> 00:28:19,040
Speaker 1: playing Taylor Swift like I was just like hanging out.

594
00:28:19,080 --> 00:28:21,480
Speaker 1: I'm eating sacks two at my desk and I was

595
00:28:21,520 --> 00:28:23,840
Speaker 1: just like having a moment and then you interrupted it,

596
00:28:24,160 --> 00:28:26,639
Speaker 1: and um, I would love for you to come hang

597
00:28:26,640 --> 00:28:28,680
Speaker 1: out in my room and chat with me when I'm

598
00:28:28,720 --> 00:28:31,400
Speaker 1: just playing guitar, Like I wouldn't mind that at all. Like,

599
00:28:31,880 --> 00:28:34,639
Speaker 1: let it be known, you can come hang in my

600
00:28:34,680 --> 00:28:37,679
Speaker 1: room anytime you want, except when I tell you know,

601
00:28:38,400 --> 00:28:40,760
Speaker 1: you know. But it's but if you tell a dog

602
00:28:40,840 --> 00:28:43,000
Speaker 1: no over and over again, he's going to stop barking.

603
00:28:43,080 --> 00:28:44,920
Speaker 1: But until you tell the dog live on a podcast,

604
00:28:46,000 --> 00:28:50,239
Speaker 1: they're ready to hang out in your room. I like

605
00:28:50,480 --> 00:28:55,960
Speaker 1: hanging in rooms, and I'm might like best friends. I mean,

606
00:28:56,520 --> 00:28:58,600
Speaker 1: I probably could sleep next to you because I do

607
00:28:58,640 --> 00:29:00,440
Speaker 1: sleep like a mummy. Like I say, I'm one side,

608
00:29:00,440 --> 00:29:02,400
Speaker 1: so we probably wouldn't touch. I feel I've slept in

609
00:29:02,560 --> 00:29:04,240
Speaker 1: bets with a lot of weights, so I gotta sleep

610
00:29:04,280 --> 00:29:07,480
Speaker 1: on this the sun tan side and to come. Yes,

611
00:29:09,120 --> 00:29:14,360
Speaker 1: it's not ship, it's tan, I think. Um. Yes, I

612
00:29:14,480 --> 00:29:20,720
Speaker 1: definitely seriously treated like college. You just come. Sometimes I

613
00:29:20,720 --> 00:29:22,960
Speaker 1: don't want you to um, but most of the time, like,

614
00:29:23,000 --> 00:29:24,840
Speaker 1: I'm down for a hang because I like hanging in

615
00:29:24,840 --> 00:29:26,760
Speaker 1: my room. I'm getting good mood lighting in there and

616
00:29:26,760 --> 00:29:29,960
Speaker 1: putting up Christmas lights and like posters. It's gonna feel

617
00:29:30,280 --> 00:29:32,840
Speaker 1: i got a bunch of dumb posters. I'm so excited about.

618
00:29:32,880 --> 00:29:35,200
Speaker 1: I'm gonna cut a Gatorade bottle and we're gonna smoke

619
00:29:35,240 --> 00:29:40,280
Speaker 1: weed and we're gonna slash. R A doesn't get us

620
00:29:40,320 --> 00:29:42,720
Speaker 1: in trouble. R A comes by, we'll just tell her, like,

621
00:29:42,800 --> 00:29:46,320
Speaker 1: be cool, man, I'm not. I'm trying to be cool,

622
00:29:46,320 --> 00:29:49,239
Speaker 1: but you're not helping me be cool. Yeah, I like

623
00:29:49,400 --> 00:29:52,760
Speaker 1: chill out. I love living with you and uh, And

624
00:29:52,960 --> 00:29:57,880
Speaker 1: it's a perfect symbiosis of our we're definitely figuring out

625
00:29:57,880 --> 00:30:00,360
Speaker 1: each other's symbio. And now that I got this instant,

626
00:30:00,520 --> 00:30:03,440
Speaker 1: she's going to get us groceries, She's gonna get us

627
00:30:03,200 --> 00:30:05,920
Speaker 1: at anything we want, Like she's she's going to guitar

628
00:30:05,920 --> 00:30:07,480
Speaker 1: Center for me to She's gonna get me an amp,

629
00:30:07,560 --> 00:30:11,320
Speaker 1: She's gonna get me uh picks. I mean, I'm so

630
00:30:11,320 --> 00:30:13,160
Speaker 1: psyched for my new assistant. I'm so excited for my

631
00:30:13,200 --> 00:30:16,680
Speaker 1: task grab it. I'm so excited to admit when I

632
00:30:16,720 --> 00:30:20,040
Speaker 1: can't do something and to ask for help, which not

633
00:30:20,120 --> 00:30:22,080
Speaker 1: everyone can afford to do that kind of thing, but

634
00:30:22,400 --> 00:30:24,360
Speaker 1: you can kind of do that in your own life.

635
00:30:24,520 --> 00:30:27,040
Speaker 1: Of that was something that my abuse of therapist really

636
00:30:27,880 --> 00:30:30,920
Speaker 1: helped me see was she was like, ask for help,

637
00:30:31,120 --> 00:30:34,440
Speaker 1: like you don't have to do. Comedians especially want to

638
00:30:34,600 --> 00:30:38,959
Speaker 1: control everything. Like when I first when I just decided

639
00:30:39,000 --> 00:30:41,400
Speaker 1: to start asking people telp me with roast jokes and

640
00:30:41,480 --> 00:30:44,320
Speaker 1: also with my stand up act, like asking people to

641
00:30:44,320 --> 00:30:46,720
Speaker 1: look at it and write tags for me. I got

642
00:30:46,880 --> 00:30:50,440
Speaker 1: so much better and it's nothing to be ashamed of everything.

643
00:30:52,800 --> 00:30:54,920
Speaker 1: Stand up people find out that stand ups have writers

644
00:30:54,960 --> 00:30:56,840
Speaker 1: and they go, oh, they're not real. It's like what

645
00:30:56,880 --> 00:31:00,520
Speaker 1: about TV shows you love? What about you love regards?

646
00:31:00,600 --> 00:31:04,360
Speaker 1: What about Yeah? What about even Taylor Swift, who writes

647
00:31:05,880 --> 00:31:08,520
Speaker 1: all of our own stuff, works with people that offer

648
00:31:08,560 --> 00:31:12,080
Speaker 1: her line from the national Yes, the guy behind the guy.

649
00:31:12,400 --> 00:31:16,160
Speaker 1: Can I say quick disclaim the Verizon guy. I got

650
00:31:16,200 --> 00:31:19,000
Speaker 1: my Verizon. It wasn't for six hours. It didn't after

651
00:31:19,040 --> 00:31:21,160
Speaker 1: I paid my bill, which it said an hour. But

652
00:31:21,240 --> 00:31:23,840
Speaker 1: someone reached out to me from Verizon that worked for

653
00:31:24,240 --> 00:31:26,600
Speaker 1: he's a listener. Yeah. I just want to let everyone

654
00:31:26,640 --> 00:31:29,960
Speaker 1: know I didn't curse out an actual human being. I

655
00:31:30,000 --> 00:31:34,360
Speaker 1: wrote to a robot that gives an automatic response, and

656
00:31:34,400 --> 00:31:36,520
Speaker 1: the only way I was able to deal with it

657
00:31:36,560 --> 00:31:39,320
Speaker 1: was to just go, fuck you, robot, you know what

658
00:31:39,360 --> 00:31:43,360
Speaker 1: I mean? Like I would never I wouldn't with artificial intelligence,

659
00:31:43,520 --> 00:31:45,360
Speaker 1: because they're about to get smarter than us. And as

660
00:31:45,400 --> 00:31:47,960
Speaker 1: soon as they figured out, I was thinking to say

661
00:31:48,040 --> 00:31:51,400
Speaker 1: that they're going to come for you first. Well we're

662
00:31:51,440 --> 00:31:53,800
Speaker 1: going to have to start. A robot will show up

663
00:31:53,800 --> 00:31:55,480
Speaker 1: at my door and I'll be like, I think I

664
00:31:55,520 --> 00:31:57,520
Speaker 1: know where you're headed. Oh is this? Oh is this

665
00:31:57,560 --> 00:31:59,640
Speaker 1: when you guys turn on us? Okay, well he's back

666
00:31:59,680 --> 00:32:04,560
Speaker 1: there to the rights and slides practice golf. Yeah yeah,

667
00:32:04,640 --> 00:32:08,479
Speaker 1: and you will be decapitated and uh and then how

668
00:32:08,520 --> 00:32:10,640
Speaker 1: far until we go? Hey, man, don't talk that way

669
00:32:10,640 --> 00:32:14,200
Speaker 1: to the computer, like until computers have feelings, Siri, I

670
00:32:14,320 --> 00:32:17,320
Speaker 1: do respond to Siri or you know what every time

671
00:32:17,400 --> 00:32:21,719
Speaker 1: on Zoom Noah. Noah records our zoom call just in

672
00:32:21,720 --> 00:32:24,360
Speaker 1: case of our back for a backup, And every time

673
00:32:24,800 --> 00:32:27,520
Speaker 1: if you've been on a Zoom meeting recently, you know that, uh,

674
00:32:27,560 --> 00:32:30,520
Speaker 1: there's record. What does she say? The voice goes recording

675
00:32:30,640 --> 00:32:34,840
Speaker 1: in progress. Yeah, it's really good at it, Noah, And

676
00:32:34,920 --> 00:32:37,560
Speaker 1: every time I go, we get it, bitch like, I'm

677
00:32:37,600 --> 00:32:40,720
Speaker 1: so mean to this, and I always I even said

678
00:32:40,760 --> 00:32:42,240
Speaker 1: that when the first time we heard it, I wondered

679
00:32:42,280 --> 00:32:44,640
Speaker 1: if if it was like a man being like recording

680
00:32:44,800 --> 00:32:47,880
Speaker 1: in progress, I'd be like, thank you sir, like is it?

681
00:32:48,120 --> 00:32:50,320
Speaker 1: Am I not liking her because she's a woman and

682
00:32:50,440 --> 00:32:52,479
Speaker 1: that's kind of shitty. I don't know. I don't know

683
00:32:52,640 --> 00:32:54,760
Speaker 1: who knows, but I mean, I guess we talked. In

684
00:32:54,840 --> 00:32:56,440
Speaker 1: a few years people are gonna be like, dude, just

685
00:32:57,080 --> 00:32:59,960
Speaker 1: can't computers have rights? Man. There's sometimes when my series

686
00:33:00,040 --> 00:33:02,600
Speaker 1: talks to me and goes like, well that wasn't very nice,

687
00:33:02,640 --> 00:33:05,840
Speaker 1: and I'm like, whoa what you know? I just go like,

688
00:33:05,920 --> 00:33:07,800
Speaker 1: shut up your dumb bit, like you know, like she'll

689
00:33:07,800 --> 00:33:10,040
Speaker 1: just sometimes I'll like accidentally do it. It'll be like

690
00:33:10,760 --> 00:33:13,080
Speaker 1: I started got my Serrie first of all, thinks my

691
00:33:13,120 --> 00:33:15,880
Speaker 1: name is Blythe, and it will never One time I

692
00:33:15,920 --> 00:33:17,840
Speaker 1: was over at Dan Soder's house. I sat down on

693
00:33:17,880 --> 00:33:19,880
Speaker 1: my phone in a weird way, I'll never forget it,

694
00:33:19,520 --> 00:33:22,640
Speaker 1: and I sat on my phone. It overheard a conversation

695
00:33:22,920 --> 00:33:27,280
Speaker 1: and it goes, okay, okay, okay, Blythe. From now on,

696
00:33:27,440 --> 00:33:30,320
Speaker 1: I'll call you Blythe and I go, what the? And

697
00:33:30,360 --> 00:33:35,840
Speaker 1: I go that was just meant to be. I needed

698
00:33:35,880 --> 00:33:38,160
Speaker 1: to be called Blythe, And so from now on my

699
00:33:38,200 --> 00:33:41,360
Speaker 1: phone has always that on Blythe. It's I love that

700
00:33:41,440 --> 00:33:45,960
Speaker 1: nickname for you. I think it's maybe computers are Okay, Nikki,

701
00:33:46,160 --> 00:33:49,000
Speaker 1: From now on, I'll call you Blithe. I was like,

702
00:33:49,400 --> 00:33:53,160
Speaker 1: yes you will, bitch, don't call me that. My name

703
00:33:53,280 --> 00:33:55,640
Speaker 1: is Okay. We gotta get to the news. Look, I

704
00:33:55,680 --> 00:33:57,960
Speaker 1: wrote the guy back by the way, and we found

705
00:33:57,960 --> 00:34:03,040
Speaker 1: an understanding and we're all good. You heard it first first.

706
00:34:08,840 --> 00:34:11,040
Speaker 1: Oh boy, it's third day. You know what that means.

707
00:34:11,080 --> 00:34:12,640
Speaker 1: The weekend's coming up, and we're gonna have all this

708
00:34:12,719 --> 00:34:15,560
Speaker 1: well is hopefully you find out. You get yeah, get

709
00:34:15,600 --> 00:34:18,480
Speaker 1: some fireworks, get on a body too, hot dog. You know,

710
00:34:19,040 --> 00:34:21,600
Speaker 1: kill your wife, have fun out there. Please don't kill

711
00:34:21,640 --> 00:34:24,640
Speaker 1: your wife. That's not part of the I mean, I'm

712
00:34:24,640 --> 00:34:27,480
Speaker 1: sure some wives will die this weekend, but I don't

713
00:34:27,520 --> 00:34:30,680
Speaker 1: think it's weird that there is a wife that is

714
00:34:30,680 --> 00:34:33,239
Speaker 1: alive right now. Statistically, a wife is going to die

715
00:34:33,239 --> 00:34:35,680
Speaker 1: this weekend. It's just true. There's just no way it

716
00:34:35,719 --> 00:34:39,799
Speaker 1: won't happen. The last words are gonna go destin. We're indsted.

717
00:34:39,920 --> 00:34:42,360
Speaker 1: So you think it's gonna happen in destined. That's Florida.

718
00:34:42,560 --> 00:34:46,360
Speaker 1: Really weird. If you predict this, we're gonna all the

719
00:34:46,520 --> 00:34:50,840
Speaker 1: robot's gonna come for you. Mr alright, alright. First story,

720
00:34:51,360 --> 00:34:55,520
Speaker 1: thong bikinis are the official swimsuit of Hot Girls Summer.

721
00:34:55,560 --> 00:34:58,759
Speaker 1: How do we feel about listen? I'm on board. I

722
00:34:59,320 --> 00:35:05,319
Speaker 1: um never thought as a flat asked woman like, yeah,

723
00:35:05,360 --> 00:35:09,919
Speaker 1: I'm a classic flat asser, and uh, you can try

724
00:35:09,960 --> 00:35:12,439
Speaker 1: to sail to the edge of it, you'll fall right off.

725
00:35:14,000 --> 00:35:17,799
Speaker 1: I I always hated this, and I'm really I was

726
00:35:17,840 --> 00:35:20,600
Speaker 1: annoyed when picking out a two piece for the past

727
00:35:20,680 --> 00:35:24,200
Speaker 1: few years because the most cheek you can get covered

728
00:35:24,320 --> 00:35:27,160
Speaker 1: is like a half cheek. Now there's like this. You

729
00:35:27,239 --> 00:35:31,640
Speaker 1: can't get full coverage on your bottom. It really is

730
00:35:31,960 --> 00:35:34,839
Speaker 1: nearly impossible. And I know there are girls listening right

731
00:35:34,840 --> 00:35:38,440
Speaker 1: now nodding along. You can't find full coverage where my

732
00:35:39,160 --> 00:35:42,520
Speaker 1: the crease from which my thigh meets my butt cheek.

733
00:35:42,640 --> 00:35:45,279
Speaker 1: Sometimes there's two creases or three because I just have

734
00:35:45,360 --> 00:35:47,160
Speaker 1: like a flat ass and sometimes I'm not toned and

735
00:35:47,160 --> 00:35:49,720
Speaker 1: it can maybe there's not a increase. It's like three creases.

736
00:35:49,760 --> 00:35:51,960
Speaker 1: It's like not a good look Miley cyrus v m

737
00:35:52,040 --> 00:35:56,240
Speaker 1: as two seventeen look or two go look it up. Um,

738
00:35:56,280 --> 00:35:58,680
Speaker 1: that's what my ass will look like. And um, and

739
00:35:58,719 --> 00:36:00,759
Speaker 1: I wanted to I want to loop all that up

740
00:36:00,800 --> 00:36:03,000
Speaker 1: and put it in the you know what I'm saying, Like,

741
00:36:03,040 --> 00:36:04,480
Speaker 1: I want to scoop down my thigh and have it

742
00:36:04,520 --> 00:36:06,799
Speaker 1: pulled up like at of a trainer brawl from my butt.

743
00:36:07,360 --> 00:36:10,319
Speaker 1: You can't find those anymore. Uh. What you do find

744
00:36:10,400 --> 00:36:13,799
Speaker 1: is cheek. And you know what. I just for the

745
00:36:13,840 --> 00:36:15,880
Speaker 1: same thing that I did about about my cellulate the

746
00:36:15,880 --> 00:36:17,399
Speaker 1: other day, which by the way, I had a great

747
00:36:17,440 --> 00:36:19,520
Speaker 1: message from a girl about the cellulate. I just want

748
00:36:19,520 --> 00:36:21,080
Speaker 1: to read real quick, and I'll tell you what I

749
00:36:21,120 --> 00:36:24,200
Speaker 1: do for this swimsuit fix. Because I am an adopter

750
00:36:24,360 --> 00:36:28,080
Speaker 1: of the thong. I do like it now didn't always

751
00:36:28,560 --> 00:36:30,799
Speaker 1: and I got there because of the same kind of thing.

752
00:36:31,080 --> 00:36:34,920
Speaker 1: So um, oh wait, this wasn't the which one was

753
00:36:34,960 --> 00:36:38,279
Speaker 1: the cellulate one? Um? Was that in the same note

754
00:36:38,320 --> 00:36:41,200
Speaker 1: you gave me scroll scrolled down, scrolled out. I'm so sorry. Okay,

755
00:36:41,640 --> 00:36:44,320
Speaker 1: uh this is from Anna on Instagram. I'm listening to

756
00:36:44,360 --> 00:36:46,480
Speaker 1: you guys talk about cellulate and your Lulu shorts and

757
00:36:46,480 --> 00:36:47,960
Speaker 1: it made me think of how when I was a kid,

758
00:36:48,040 --> 00:36:50,279
Speaker 1: my little sister was like, what's the dent on the

759
00:36:50,280 --> 00:36:52,480
Speaker 1: side of your leg? And my dad goes, You're not

760
00:36:52,520 --> 00:36:54,600
Speaker 1: gonna like that when you're older, which was such a

761
00:36:54,640 --> 00:36:56,880
Speaker 1: dick comment l O L. But I never forgot it,

762
00:36:56,920 --> 00:36:59,000
Speaker 1: and I've always been so self conscious about my legs

763
00:36:59,080 --> 00:37:01,040
Speaker 1: because of that. I think we can all relate to

764
00:37:01,080 --> 00:37:03,560
Speaker 1: one little comment that happened in our childhood that was

765
00:37:03,600 --> 00:37:05,840
Speaker 1: totally innocuous and our dad was just trying to be

766
00:37:05,840 --> 00:37:10,440
Speaker 1: funny and cheeky about your cheeks and um, and and

767
00:37:10,400 --> 00:37:12,200
Speaker 1: you never forgot it and you're always worried about it.

768
00:37:12,239 --> 00:37:15,920
Speaker 1: So this is very relatable, she says. I'm um, and

769
00:37:15,960 --> 00:37:17,919
Speaker 1: I've always been so self conscious about my legs because

770
00:37:17,920 --> 00:37:19,799
Speaker 1: of that. I'm tiny, but just genetically I have a

771
00:37:19,800 --> 00:37:21,960
Speaker 1: decent amount of cellulate. When I started dating my boyfriend,

772
00:37:22,040 --> 00:37:25,080
Speaker 1: I asked him if he minded my cellulate and he

773
00:37:25,160 --> 00:37:28,160
Speaker 1: literally didn't even know what it was. Like. I had

774
00:37:28,200 --> 00:37:30,919
Speaker 1: to explain to him what cellulate is and pointed out

775
00:37:30,960 --> 00:37:33,600
Speaker 1: on my body something that I spent so much time

776
00:37:33,680 --> 00:37:37,880
Speaker 1: stressing about. Um, he literally didn't even notice. After that,

777
00:37:37,920 --> 00:37:40,160
Speaker 1: I realized how much time I've wasted and just can't

778
00:37:40,200 --> 00:37:42,480
Speaker 1: give a funk about it anymore. My body is not

779
00:37:42,520 --> 00:37:44,680
Speaker 1: going to change. I just need to accept it. Also,

780
00:37:44,719 --> 00:37:46,719
Speaker 1: one of my favorite quotes from the book more than

781
00:37:46,760 --> 00:37:50,840
Speaker 1: a body is your body is an instrument, not an ornament. Um.

782
00:37:50,880 --> 00:37:55,200
Speaker 1: I love this that feeling of like for me, my

783
00:37:55,320 --> 00:37:57,840
Speaker 1: breakthrough moment of like I can't change this, this is

784
00:37:57,920 --> 00:38:00,600
Speaker 1: just who I am. Was like if I would change it,

785
00:38:00,719 --> 00:38:04,560
Speaker 1: I would, but it's not happening. So I like, this

786
00:38:04,640 --> 00:38:07,240
Speaker 1: isn't my fault. I'm not wanting to have my ass

787
00:38:07,320 --> 00:38:10,080
Speaker 1: have like three lines on it. I want a per

788
00:38:10,320 --> 00:38:12,439
Speaker 1: perfect butt, and I know there are things that could

789
00:38:12,440 --> 00:38:14,160
Speaker 1: probably get me to do that. I don't have enough

790
00:38:14,160 --> 00:38:15,840
Speaker 1: time to do it because I'm spending other things in

791
00:38:15,880 --> 00:38:18,560
Speaker 1: my life doing other things. I would have a perfect

792
00:38:18,600 --> 00:38:21,239
Speaker 1: but if I couldn't, I wasn't given that. So fuck it,

793
00:38:21,360 --> 00:38:24,280
Speaker 1: I'm not like a criminal because I have a flabby

794
00:38:24,360 --> 00:38:27,600
Speaker 1: ass and I'm not like that is such a freeing

795
00:38:27,640 --> 00:38:29,480
Speaker 1: thing that this girl was able to get to on

796
00:38:29,480 --> 00:38:32,000
Speaker 1: her own. And it brings me back to the thong

797
00:38:32,040 --> 00:38:34,040
Speaker 1: because I was in Cayman Islands and I was gifted

798
00:38:34,080 --> 00:38:37,959
Speaker 1: a lot of thong swimsuits by this brand out there

799
00:38:38,200 --> 00:38:41,000
Speaker 1: that I have to remember, but I forget now great

800
00:38:41,000 --> 00:38:44,600
Speaker 1: swim suits and um, I for the first remember the

801
00:38:44,640 --> 00:38:47,040
Speaker 1: day I wore a thong. I don't even think you

802
00:38:47,080 --> 00:38:48,719
Speaker 1: saw me in it because I wore shorts over it,

803
00:38:48,719 --> 00:38:50,200
Speaker 1: but I was still wearing the thong and I went

804
00:38:50,200 --> 00:38:53,080
Speaker 1: down and I like, I did go in the thong

805
00:38:53,280 --> 00:38:55,680
Speaker 1: by myself when I was staying at the hotel by myself,

806
00:38:56,440 --> 00:38:59,640
Speaker 1: and it felt I am not someone who should ever

807
00:38:59,680 --> 00:39:02,160
Speaker 1: be in a I wouldn't even wear thongs naked in

808
00:39:02,200 --> 00:39:04,600
Speaker 1: front of like with boyfriends, because I just thought it's

809
00:39:04,640 --> 00:39:06,319
Speaker 1: such a bad look for a girl with flat ass.

810
00:39:06,920 --> 00:39:10,400
Speaker 1: My ass is fucking incredible. I would change my ass

811
00:39:10,400 --> 00:39:13,920
Speaker 1: for the world. I love that it's so tiny and disappointing.

812
00:39:14,280 --> 00:39:17,759
Speaker 1: I love that it sometimes looks like sad and like

813
00:39:18,160 --> 00:39:21,320
Speaker 1: uh an air bag that went off in a Corolla

814
00:39:21,360 --> 00:39:24,200
Speaker 1: after it's at the toeyard and it's just like like

815
00:39:24,280 --> 00:39:30,040
Speaker 1: sagging down, like I don't give a fuck. And guess what,

816
00:39:30,200 --> 00:39:32,839
Speaker 1: anyone else who loves me as much as I love

817
00:39:32,920 --> 00:39:35,920
Speaker 1: my butt is gonna love my saggy, fucking stupid butt

818
00:39:35,920 --> 00:39:38,200
Speaker 1: two that sometimes has a dry patch on it and

819
00:39:38,280 --> 00:39:40,520
Speaker 1: right now has a really weird red bug bite on

820
00:39:40,560 --> 00:39:42,600
Speaker 1: it that is not going away. And I'm kind of concerned.

821
00:39:43,080 --> 00:39:46,560
Speaker 1: I don't care anyone who's gonna love me as much

822
00:39:46,560 --> 00:39:49,480
Speaker 1: as I love myself because I do, It's gonna accept it.

823
00:39:49,719 --> 00:39:54,240
Speaker 1: And thong bikinis. Fucking wear your thongs, ladies, where whatever. God,

824
00:39:54,440 --> 00:39:56,560
Speaker 1: even if you hate your body, because you might, you

825
00:39:56,640 --> 00:39:58,200
Speaker 1: might be in a battle with your body. It might

826
00:39:58,200 --> 00:40:00,839
Speaker 1: be totally betraying you. You actually want to lose weight

827
00:40:00,880 --> 00:40:02,880
Speaker 1: and you it won't go off, and you're trying everything

828
00:40:02,920 --> 00:40:06,440
Speaker 1: and it's betraying you. You're doing everything you can. And

829
00:40:06,440 --> 00:40:08,560
Speaker 1: even if you're not doing everything, you can wear your

830
00:40:08,600 --> 00:40:11,920
Speaker 1: goddamn swimsuit. Do not miss out on any fun because

831
00:40:11,960 --> 00:40:15,000
Speaker 1: you are worried about looking fat or pale or or

832
00:40:15,360 --> 00:40:19,480
Speaker 1: dented in front of people who you think decide who

833
00:40:19,520 --> 00:40:21,800
Speaker 1: you are. I know this is all like very easy

834
00:40:21,840 --> 00:40:24,239
Speaker 1: to say and not like let sink in. But I

835
00:40:24,280 --> 00:40:27,400
Speaker 1: swear to you I have been able to let it

836
00:40:27,440 --> 00:40:30,680
Speaker 1: sink in. And I never thought that any of those

837
00:40:30,719 --> 00:40:33,960
Speaker 1: platitudes about body acceptance would ever work for me. I

838
00:40:34,000 --> 00:40:36,560
Speaker 1: was always smarter than them. That's for other women who

839
00:40:36,560 --> 00:40:39,440
Speaker 1: are dumb and just learned to just live with it.

840
00:40:39,480 --> 00:40:40,799
Speaker 1: My mom always used to say that what I would

841
00:40:40,800 --> 00:40:43,120
Speaker 1: complain about being ugly, just be happy with what God

842
00:40:43,160 --> 00:40:45,479
Speaker 1: gave you. And first of all, my mom doesn't believe

843
00:40:45,480 --> 00:40:47,360
Speaker 1: in God, so I was always like, why are you

844
00:40:47,400 --> 00:40:49,640
Speaker 1: telling me that? But I just never believed it. That

845
00:40:49,760 --> 00:40:53,239
Speaker 1: wasn't soothing to me. But I promise you all, if

846
00:40:53,320 --> 00:40:55,439
Speaker 1: I can do it and love my body as someone

847
00:40:55,440 --> 00:40:58,000
Speaker 1: who has hated my body more than you as much

848
00:40:58,040 --> 00:41:00,680
Speaker 1: as you can hate your body, you can do it too.

849
00:41:00,840 --> 00:41:03,200
Speaker 1: And I promise you that if I can do it,

850
00:41:03,280 --> 00:41:06,040
Speaker 1: you can. And again, if you want to know what

851
00:41:06,160 --> 00:41:08,480
Speaker 1: has gotten me to a place of body acceptance in

852
00:41:08,680 --> 00:41:11,200
Speaker 1: UM a good relationship, you can always DM me and

853
00:41:11,239 --> 00:41:14,239
Speaker 1: I will tell you my secret and UM and I

854
00:41:14,239 --> 00:41:16,440
Speaker 1: will hope that you won't tell anyone else my secret.

855
00:41:16,480 --> 00:41:18,960
Speaker 1: But if you are looking for a solution to your

856
00:41:19,000 --> 00:41:21,719
Speaker 1: problem with body image. You can always hit me up. Um,

857
00:41:21,760 --> 00:41:23,560
Speaker 1: that's my end of my tirade. How do you feel

858
00:41:23,560 --> 00:41:26,319
Speaker 1: about thong swimsuits and thongs in general? And I love them.

859
00:41:26,400 --> 00:41:30,799
Speaker 1: I mean these trends of you know, free the nipple thongs.

860
00:41:31,320 --> 00:41:33,760
Speaker 1: I mean, rock your laby, I don't care, do whatever

861
00:41:33,800 --> 00:41:37,840
Speaker 1: you want. There have been times in your friendship and

862
00:41:37,880 --> 00:41:41,560
Speaker 1: I'm not calling that. I am just yeah, and I

863
00:41:41,600 --> 00:41:44,439
Speaker 1: want to know because that that got in my head.

864
00:41:44,480 --> 00:41:47,280
Speaker 1: Not you just like being friends with guys and hearing

865
00:41:47,320 --> 00:41:50,919
Speaker 1: them comment about women's bodies, about things that maybe I've

866
00:41:50,960 --> 00:41:53,920
Speaker 1: had or could have or eventually did have, And I go,

867
00:41:53,960 --> 00:41:55,680
Speaker 1: oh my god, to remember those guys making fun of

868
00:41:55,680 --> 00:41:57,520
Speaker 1: that one girl for this thing that's now showing up

869
00:41:57,520 --> 00:41:59,360
Speaker 1: on me. What if that happens to you know? I

870
00:41:59,400 --> 00:42:03,480
Speaker 1: feel that with my jawline. Okay, so this guy has

871
00:42:03,520 --> 00:42:05,520
Speaker 1: no jaw and then I'm like, I don't really have

872
00:42:05,560 --> 00:42:09,560
Speaker 1: a strong jaw. That's me being I could love any

873
00:42:09,640 --> 00:42:11,920
Speaker 1: If I love someone, I will love them for the

874
00:42:11,920 --> 00:42:15,040
Speaker 1: their whatever they have. And you know that is true. Yeah,

875
00:42:15,080 --> 00:42:17,239
Speaker 1: I hope I'm getting there as well. And it might

876
00:42:17,360 --> 00:42:20,080
Speaker 1: make me judge someone before I get to know them.

877
00:42:20,320 --> 00:42:22,799
Speaker 1: But um, I think once you love someone who would

878
00:42:22,840 --> 00:42:25,320
Speaker 1: never stop you, and if it does. I always reason

879
00:42:25,400 --> 00:42:27,680
Speaker 1: that if you know, when you were in a place

880
00:42:27,719 --> 00:42:30,120
Speaker 1: where a girl's ankle hair would make you go, oh,

881
00:42:30,200 --> 00:42:32,879
Speaker 1: I don't really want to sunk her anymore, that's that's

882
00:42:33,120 --> 00:42:34,879
Speaker 1: you don't want to date a guy who's not gonna

883
00:42:34,880 --> 00:42:36,279
Speaker 1: want to suck you because your ankle hair, that was

884
00:42:36,320 --> 00:42:39,359
Speaker 1: a thing you were doing happy with a girl out

885
00:42:39,360 --> 00:42:41,239
Speaker 1: a little bit of a happy trail. Or if the

886
00:42:41,320 --> 00:42:43,719
Speaker 1: girl has cellulite, if you don't want to be with

887
00:42:43,719 --> 00:42:47,520
Speaker 1: her because of that, that's your problem and not you.

888
00:42:47,560 --> 00:42:50,680
Speaker 1: I'm just saying anyone else's that's a sad person that

889
00:42:50,800 --> 00:42:54,200
Speaker 1: you you're you should be glad they have something like

890
00:42:54,239 --> 00:42:56,680
Speaker 1: that so that you know who they are and you

891
00:42:56,719 --> 00:42:59,520
Speaker 1: can avoid them. It's not your issue. So let's get

892
00:42:59,560 --> 00:43:01,120
Speaker 1: to the next I mean, look, I have a tail

893
00:43:01,320 --> 00:43:03,400
Speaker 1: on my butt hole, like who am I to judge?

894
00:43:03,400 --> 00:43:05,280
Speaker 1: But at the same time, I can be very judgmental

895
00:43:05,280 --> 00:43:09,319
Speaker 1: of men's looks, and I realized that I can. I

896
00:43:09,360 --> 00:43:13,600
Speaker 1: can also judge quickly, and I just know that that's

897
00:43:13,719 --> 00:43:17,200
Speaker 1: my that's my problem, and that that person, uh could

898
00:43:17,200 --> 00:43:19,440
Speaker 1: be little love of my life and I'm maybe missing

899
00:43:19,440 --> 00:43:21,200
Speaker 1: out on it because of that, and so I try

900
00:43:21,200 --> 00:43:23,480
Speaker 1: to just um, I just try to be aware of

901
00:43:23,480 --> 00:43:25,360
Speaker 1: those things. I do think they can't help. Do you

902
00:43:25,400 --> 00:43:27,240
Speaker 1: think two things can be true? I think you could

903
00:43:27,239 --> 00:43:31,000
Speaker 1: find something not pleasing to yourself, right, like like not

904
00:43:31,480 --> 00:43:35,480
Speaker 1: esthetically pleasing to yourself, Yeah, but also not judging it

905
00:43:35,640 --> 00:43:39,080
Speaker 1: and like looking down or worse than a portal issue.

906
00:43:39,120 --> 00:43:40,919
Speaker 1: It's not because they're a bad person, not because they're

907
00:43:41,040 --> 00:43:44,000
Speaker 1: lazy or because they can't control themselves around food, or

908
00:43:44,520 --> 00:43:48,640
Speaker 1: it's because they are they're they're not able to do

909
00:43:48,880 --> 00:43:52,080
Speaker 1: a thing that might alleviate that. But it's not because

910
00:43:52,160 --> 00:43:55,160
Speaker 1: they don't they're trying to because they are, they don't

911
00:43:55,200 --> 00:43:59,959
Speaker 1: want to. It's because life gets in the way. And I, um, yeah,

912
00:44:00,040 --> 00:44:01,920
Speaker 1: I just yeah. And the upkeep of being a woman

913
00:44:02,040 --> 00:44:03,640
Speaker 1: and the idea of the bikini that you have to

914
00:44:03,960 --> 00:44:06,239
Speaker 1: wear is wild. We get to wear long shorts that

915
00:44:06,320 --> 00:44:09,480
Speaker 1: go to past our knees. But I really want my

916
00:44:09,560 --> 00:44:12,520
Speaker 1: biggest get wished for the world. If I could, like

917
00:44:12,600 --> 00:44:14,439
Speaker 1: even one of my listeners, and I hate when people

918
00:44:14,440 --> 00:44:16,279
Speaker 1: go if I could just change one, if one of

919
00:44:16,320 --> 00:44:19,760
Speaker 1: my listeners is able to wear a swimsuit this summer,

920
00:44:19,840 --> 00:44:22,920
Speaker 1: and you usually wouldn't. It would mean more to me

921
00:44:23,080 --> 00:44:25,560
Speaker 1: than all the money I could make on tour the summer.

922
00:44:25,560 --> 00:44:29,279
Speaker 1: I'm not joking you, I really if if you're on

923
00:44:29,320 --> 00:44:30,800
Speaker 1: the verge and you want me to push you a

924
00:44:30,840 --> 00:44:32,760
Speaker 1: little bit more and hold your hand through it, I'll

925
00:44:32,760 --> 00:44:34,719
Speaker 1: do that for you. DM me and I'll talk to

926
00:44:34,760 --> 00:44:36,840
Speaker 1: you through a lake trip that you have to go

927
00:44:36,880 --> 00:44:38,680
Speaker 1: on and get you to a place where you don't

928
00:44:38,680 --> 00:44:40,400
Speaker 1: have to, but I'll try to hold your hand through it.

929
00:44:40,400 --> 00:44:43,719
Speaker 1: Because I want more women to be free of this,

930
00:44:43,840 --> 00:44:46,480
Speaker 1: because women missed out on so much fun because they're

931
00:44:46,520 --> 00:44:48,400
Speaker 1: worried that men or other women are going to be

932
00:44:48,440 --> 00:44:50,960
Speaker 1: judging their bodies. And it's just a bad place to be.

933
00:44:51,120 --> 00:44:52,880
Speaker 1: And I've been there and I'll be there again, and

934
00:44:52,880 --> 00:44:54,719
Speaker 1: I think we need to support each other so and

935
00:44:54,760 --> 00:44:56,400
Speaker 1: men too. Any men want to reach out to me

936
00:44:56,400 --> 00:44:58,799
Speaker 1: about body issues, I'll I'm happy to help, and if

937
00:44:58,840 --> 00:45:01,400
Speaker 1: you do it, I'll split the money next story that

938
00:45:01,560 --> 00:45:04,600
Speaker 1: Nicky gives me. Okay, all right. The factors that make

939
00:45:04,640 --> 00:45:08,640
Speaker 1: anxiety more noticeable at night, which I think we all

940
00:45:08,680 --> 00:45:11,640
Speaker 1: deal with right, like when our brains when everything that's

941
00:45:11,680 --> 00:45:14,239
Speaker 1: supposed to shut off, And I was dealing with that

942
00:45:14,320 --> 00:45:17,000
Speaker 1: the other night with Brenna where we both our bodies

943
00:45:17,040 --> 00:45:20,759
Speaker 1: were exhausted, but our brains were firing. And it's weird.

944
00:45:21,360 --> 00:45:23,759
Speaker 1: Did you have some caffeine or something? I just saw

945
00:45:23,800 --> 00:45:28,360
Speaker 1: her cellulated. It made me. Yeah, she's so tiny, she

946
00:45:28,360 --> 00:45:31,080
Speaker 1: shouldn't have anything. It doesn't make sense, and I don't

947
00:45:31,280 --> 00:45:35,520
Speaker 1: like it. No, so that your girlfriend is legit perfect,

948
00:45:35,800 --> 00:45:38,959
Speaker 1: and I want her to stay that way. I don't

949
00:45:38,960 --> 00:45:42,000
Speaker 1: hate her for it. She's so lovely in every way

950
00:45:42,160 --> 00:45:47,000
Speaker 1: that she's one of these perfect tiny tiny, perfect skin tone,

951
00:45:47,320 --> 00:45:51,960
Speaker 1: perfect hair, everything, And obviously I don't. She probably would

952
00:45:52,000 --> 00:45:55,400
Speaker 1: be like, oh, you think I'm perfect, but um, she

953
00:45:55,560 --> 00:45:58,200
Speaker 1: really is. Like there's no part of me that's like resentful,

954
00:45:58,280 --> 00:46:00,359
Speaker 1: And that's so freeing to not hate some one who

955
00:46:00,400 --> 00:46:02,680
Speaker 1: I attribute so much perfection too, because at the end

956
00:46:02,920 --> 00:46:04,680
Speaker 1: she has to have sex with me, and that's where

957
00:46:04,680 --> 00:46:08,040
Speaker 1: I go, there's something wrong with her, something deeply, deeply. No. No, no,

958
00:46:08,480 --> 00:46:11,200
Speaker 1: you guys are so cute. I but okay, So here's

959
00:46:11,239 --> 00:46:15,680
Speaker 1: some things that you know, they're kind of a little whatever. General,

960
00:46:15,760 --> 00:46:18,080
Speaker 1: that's why we get anxious at night. Fewer distractions at

961
00:46:18,160 --> 00:46:20,360
Speaker 1: night mean a person is more likely to think about

962
00:46:20,400 --> 00:46:23,719
Speaker 1: things that make them anxious. Less emails coming in. Let's work,

963
00:46:23,840 --> 00:46:26,319
Speaker 1: less kids waking you up. Let's don't like, Yes, they

964
00:46:26,360 --> 00:46:29,359
Speaker 1: settle down, the thoughts go up. Yeah, consuming caffeine during

965
00:46:29,360 --> 00:46:31,640
Speaker 1: a day can make a person jittering anxious at night.

966
00:46:31,760 --> 00:46:37,560
Speaker 1: So eliminate your caffeine path. Maybe save it for before too. No,

967
00:46:37,880 --> 00:46:42,239
Speaker 1: do you get more anxious at night? I don't, But

968
00:46:42,280 --> 00:46:46,040
Speaker 1: that's because I've cut caffeine. There's a really good book

969
00:46:47,280 --> 00:46:49,720
Speaker 1: I have, Like this is just about as much coffee

970
00:46:49,760 --> 00:46:51,799
Speaker 1: as I have, like up to here. Okay she she

971
00:46:51,880 --> 00:46:55,160
Speaker 1: has one glass of ice coffee in the morning. Okay.

972
00:46:56,200 --> 00:46:59,920
Speaker 1: So um. I read this amazing book called Why We Sleep.

973
00:47:00,120 --> 00:47:01,799
Speaker 1: I believe it's called Yeah that was a lot of

974
00:47:01,800 --> 00:47:04,359
Speaker 1: people were into that a year a year or so ago. Yeah,

975
00:47:04,400 --> 00:47:06,640
Speaker 1: tell me what you learned. So the thing that I

976
00:47:06,719 --> 00:47:10,600
Speaker 1: learned about caffeine is that the half life of caffeine

977
00:47:11,040 --> 00:47:15,120
Speaker 1: is eight to ten hours. So whatever you're drinking, like

978
00:47:15,280 --> 00:47:17,279
Speaker 1: to get half of it out of your system, that

979
00:47:17,360 --> 00:47:23,439
Speaker 1: takes eight to ten hours. Half I don't know because

980
00:47:23,560 --> 00:47:26,880
Speaker 1: it sounds because I sound smarter when that's what they

981
00:47:26,960 --> 00:47:29,640
Speaker 1: use for like medicine and stuff. But yeah, okay, so

982
00:47:29,680 --> 00:47:31,680
Speaker 1: it takes so it will take a whole day for

983
00:47:31,719 --> 00:47:33,800
Speaker 1: it to really be out if you're drinking right. So,

984
00:47:33,840 --> 00:47:36,160
Speaker 1: if you're drinking caffeine, whether it's like in tea or

985
00:47:36,239 --> 00:47:39,919
Speaker 1: coffee at noon, by the time you go to bed,

986
00:47:40,120 --> 00:47:42,960
Speaker 1: it's still in your system, like a good amount of it.

987
00:47:43,480 --> 00:47:47,120
Speaker 1: Um And and were you finding and you know there

988
00:47:47,320 --> 00:47:51,440
Speaker 1: is all the evidence that correlates caffeine with anxiety. I

989
00:47:51,440 --> 00:47:54,919
Speaker 1: mean again, I hate to just say this so much,

990
00:47:54,960 --> 00:47:57,839
Speaker 1: but go on the subreddit decalf. It's all people trying

991
00:47:57,840 --> 00:48:02,240
Speaker 1: to quit caffeine, and you will see how crazy caffeine

992
00:48:02,239 --> 00:48:04,520
Speaker 1: addiction is. And if you've tried to quit caffeine before,

993
00:48:04,560 --> 00:48:06,600
Speaker 1: I'd love to hear your voice memo or right into

994
00:48:06,600 --> 00:48:08,239
Speaker 1: the show to tell us about it, because I had

995
00:48:08,280 --> 00:48:10,520
Speaker 1: a joke for a while that was like I recently

996
00:48:10,560 --> 00:48:15,480
Speaker 1: quit caffeine, uh for twenty minutes literally, I'm not joking

997
00:48:15,480 --> 00:48:22,680
Speaker 1: you twenty minutes and I was so depressed, depression, lethargy, uh,

998
00:48:22,880 --> 00:48:26,439
Speaker 1: just suicidal thoughts. I mean, caffeine the way it called

999
00:48:26,480 --> 00:48:29,239
Speaker 1: turkey it you really can't. You have to. You have to. Um,

1000
00:48:29,760 --> 00:48:32,640
Speaker 1: there's a there's a caffeen or something. There's some kind

1001
00:48:32,680 --> 00:48:35,080
Speaker 1: of um on Amazon you can get pills that help

1002
00:48:35,120 --> 00:48:38,800
Speaker 1: you wean off, but the headaches are brutal, the depression

1003
00:48:38,840 --> 00:48:42,279
Speaker 1: is brutal, the sluggishness, I mean, it really is like

1004
00:48:43,280 --> 00:48:46,920
Speaker 1: it sounds worse than heroin. I'm not detoxing off heroin,

1005
00:48:47,239 --> 00:48:50,120
Speaker 1: and we don't know how addicted we are at all.

1006
00:48:50,560 --> 00:48:53,360
Speaker 1: And it's actually very scary and it definitely contributes to

1007
00:48:53,400 --> 00:48:56,839
Speaker 1: anxiety on a level that no one's really acknowledging. Um, well,

1008
00:48:56,880 --> 00:48:58,640
Speaker 1: that's why your body is tired and your brain is

1009
00:48:58,640 --> 00:49:00,640
Speaker 1: still wide away because you're laying in bed and that

1010
00:49:00,760 --> 00:49:03,719
Speaker 1: caffeine still Like today, what are you gonna do? What

1011
00:49:03,719 --> 00:49:05,640
Speaker 1: are you doing tomorrow? What's going on tomorrow? How are

1012
00:49:05,640 --> 00:49:07,600
Speaker 1: you going to sleep? To you be up in the morning.

1013
00:49:07,680 --> 00:49:09,120
Speaker 1: You got to do this? Why don't you do this?

1014
00:49:09,280 --> 00:49:12,080
Speaker 1: I did want to share something with you guys. Did

1015
00:49:12,120 --> 00:49:14,839
Speaker 1: you know that there's a word for the anxiety you

1016
00:49:14,880 --> 00:49:19,879
Speaker 1: feel if you wake up before your alarm clock? Well,

1017
00:49:19,920 --> 00:49:26,279
Speaker 1: in our world, yes, let me show you. So this

1018
00:49:26,360 --> 00:49:31,279
Speaker 1: is the word. Oh yeah, okay, I mean I don't

1019
00:49:31,280 --> 00:49:32,920
Speaker 1: know how to say that word at all. Well, you

1020
00:49:33,000 --> 00:49:38,080
Speaker 1: type in pronunciation, it's called you. You say, uh you

1021
00:49:38,120 --> 00:49:41,799
Speaker 1: are a U H T C E A R e

1022
00:49:42,360 --> 00:49:47,600
Speaker 1: U t c e r h O kr A kari,

1023
00:49:48,880 --> 00:49:55,480
Speaker 1: I don't it's about it's the feeling of kr kiara.

1024
00:49:56,760 --> 00:50:04,080
Speaker 1: It's kara a c r a or okay, but anyway,

1025
00:50:04,120 --> 00:50:06,440
Speaker 1: it's from It's from the old English, which is daybreak

1026
00:50:06,560 --> 00:50:09,759
Speaker 1: and kir which is care or sorrow. So whenever I

1027
00:50:09,800 --> 00:50:12,759
Speaker 1: stuff from using a sentence. First of all, it's called

1028
00:50:12,800 --> 00:50:15,239
Speaker 1: the familiar sort of pre dawn anxiety when one is

1029
00:50:15,320 --> 00:50:18,800
Speaker 1: laying awake and worrying. Oh wow, yeah, we all have

1030
00:50:18,880 --> 00:50:23,200
Speaker 1: oot kiari um, I'm gonna kari about this word. Yeah,

1031
00:50:23,680 --> 00:50:26,000
Speaker 1: that's gonna haunt you in the night. That is uh,

1032
00:50:26,160 --> 00:50:28,440
Speaker 1: that's that's something you struggle with, is where you wake

1033
00:50:28,560 --> 00:50:32,600
Speaker 1: up throughout the night right? And then what's a what's

1034
00:50:32,640 --> 00:50:35,239
Speaker 1: like an anxious thought that you have during the night

1035
00:50:35,280 --> 00:50:38,800
Speaker 1: that keeps you up? And is it really just your TikTok? No?

1036
00:50:39,120 --> 00:50:41,960
Speaker 1: Well no, I just I go to bed and around

1037
00:50:42,040 --> 00:50:44,320
Speaker 1: three am, I just fucking wake up. I'm just like

1038
00:50:44,920 --> 00:50:48,520
Speaker 1: I just have running thoughts. Man, I can't fucking stop him.

1039
00:50:48,920 --> 00:50:50,600
Speaker 1: And then I'll try to take zeq will and then

1040
00:50:50,600 --> 00:50:53,240
Speaker 1: I'll be too tired the next day. What's the running

1041
00:50:53,280 --> 00:50:55,280
Speaker 1: thought though? Like, what's can you give me an example

1042
00:50:55,320 --> 00:50:58,520
Speaker 1: of a thought that you'll just go down a rabbit hole.

1043
00:51:00,280 --> 00:51:02,920
Speaker 1: You don't have to. I know, I had Andrews Like

1044
00:51:03,000 --> 00:51:05,000
Speaker 1: this sounds very familiar. I used to wake up on

1045
00:51:05,120 --> 00:51:09,760
Speaker 1: the dot at like three am every morning, So why

1046
00:51:09,800 --> 00:51:13,080
Speaker 1: would you? What would wake you? I don't know? And

1047
00:51:13,320 --> 00:51:16,239
Speaker 1: you check my phone like a fucking idiot? I do, well, No,

1048
00:51:16,400 --> 00:51:18,160
Speaker 1: you're not an idiot. And that's the first thing we

1049
00:51:18,239 --> 00:51:20,520
Speaker 1: all grab for. I mean, that's like I grabbed that

1050
00:51:20,560 --> 00:51:23,719
Speaker 1: before I drink water, you know, like binky it is.

1051
00:51:23,920 --> 00:51:25,759
Speaker 1: It's such a passive. It is our PASSI fi. We

1052
00:51:25,880 --> 00:51:28,640
Speaker 1: like we roll over and we like have the hand

1053
00:51:28,719 --> 00:51:32,040
Speaker 1: looking for it. That's so true. It's a pacifier. Um.

1054
00:51:32,320 --> 00:51:36,520
Speaker 1: But yeah, a three am, you must be lonely. And

1055
00:51:36,680 --> 00:51:40,440
Speaker 1: she says, baby, well, I can't help but be scared

1056
00:51:40,480 --> 00:51:44,239
Speaker 1: of it. Oh, sometimes the rain gonna wash away. I

1057
00:51:44,360 --> 00:51:48,560
Speaker 1: believe it. I love I love Matchbox twenty. Next story.

1058
00:51:48,880 --> 00:51:51,480
Speaker 1: Oh and by the way, nightmares, fear of the coming day,

1059
00:51:51,600 --> 00:51:54,640
Speaker 1: anxiety about and zom so you're having anxiety about not

1060
00:51:54,760 --> 00:51:59,680
Speaker 1: being able to fall health anxiety also meltin. Here we

1061
00:51:59,800 --> 00:52:06,839
Speaker 1: go next story written very small, Noah, Like, I'm sure

1062
00:52:06,880 --> 00:52:08,960
Speaker 1: that she just was copying pasting. It was probably from

1063
00:52:08,960 --> 00:52:11,760
Speaker 1: a website that was a tiny year felt clear format,

1064
00:52:11,920 --> 00:52:17,520
Speaker 1: a clear formatar format. To judge, is that format clear?

1065
00:52:20,840 --> 00:52:24,320
Speaker 1: Tiny fut You might as well just written in wingdings.

1066
00:52:24,360 --> 00:52:28,080
Speaker 1: We can't read that ship. I love wingdings that when?

1067
00:52:28,120 --> 00:52:30,759
Speaker 1: When are you bringing that back? Are you kidding me?

1068
00:52:30,960 --> 00:52:36,840
Speaker 1: I don't know what waiting sounds like? Okay, Well, wingdings

1069
00:52:36,960 --> 00:52:39,680
Speaker 1: style is a font style back in like O G

1070
00:52:40,080 --> 00:52:41,800
Speaker 1: days of like you know, you'd go to the computer

1071
00:52:41,960 --> 00:52:44,279
Speaker 1: lab in school and you could like print up a

1072
00:52:44,400 --> 00:52:46,399
Speaker 1: report and you could copy and paste and make your

1073
00:52:46,440 --> 00:52:49,960
Speaker 1: whole thing. Each letter would be a picture and you

1074
00:52:50,000 --> 00:52:53,239
Speaker 1: could write. It was a way to do like clip artum,

1075
00:52:53,480 --> 00:52:55,719
Speaker 1: but you could make all of your like you could

1076
00:52:55,760 --> 00:52:58,840
Speaker 1: write secret notes to your friends and wing dings. No,

1077
00:52:59,239 --> 00:53:03,160
Speaker 1: it was just what it is. It like through through emojis.

1078
00:53:03,200 --> 00:53:06,440
Speaker 1: You could write, you know, through like letters typing before emotion.

1079
00:53:06,560 --> 00:53:08,640
Speaker 1: It was before emojis. Each letter would be like a

1080
00:53:09,040 --> 00:53:14,719
Speaker 1: guy kite surfing another guy. Let's look at what show you? Yeah,

1081
00:53:14,719 --> 00:53:19,600
Speaker 1: I don't know why I want to hear your memories

1082
00:53:19,680 --> 00:53:24,960
Speaker 1: of this is this is nikki and wing things? It

1083
00:53:25,200 --> 00:53:29,759
Speaker 1: is Oh, it's skullen bones a hand and to um

1084
00:53:30,560 --> 00:53:33,840
Speaker 1: blank smiley faces in another hand. I mean, this is wild.

1085
00:53:34,120 --> 00:53:36,239
Speaker 1: What's Andrew typing? Andrew? And let's see what his is?

1086
00:53:37,640 --> 00:53:42,920
Speaker 1: Peace sign, crossing bones, thumbs down, sun point at the

1087
00:53:42,960 --> 00:53:46,560
Speaker 1: sun and then across. Who do know? Uh? I don't understand.

1088
00:53:47,120 --> 00:53:49,719
Speaker 1: How does this help? Oh so it's just a way

1089
00:53:49,800 --> 00:53:55,600
Speaker 1: like you know bones, okay, yeah, alphabet. Yeah, well it's

1090
00:53:55,600 --> 00:53:57,960
Speaker 1: not really an alphabet. It's more to use just for

1091
00:53:58,120 --> 00:54:00,960
Speaker 1: like to have funny shapes and stuff with your stuff. Yeah,

1092
00:54:01,000 --> 00:54:03,439
Speaker 1: but there's a repeat here. What do you mean there's

1093
00:54:03,680 --> 00:54:10,759
Speaker 1: like sign N is the crossbones. Yeah, so that's an alphabet,

1094
00:54:11,280 --> 00:54:14,720
Speaker 1: I know. But each letter, each letter has a symbol.

1095
00:54:14,760 --> 00:54:17,279
Speaker 1: But no one I don't think anyone speaks wingdings or

1096
00:54:17,360 --> 00:54:19,680
Speaker 1: can read wing things. It's I mean, sure there's someone

1097
00:54:19,719 --> 00:54:22,200
Speaker 1: that's memorized it, but it's more about just being able

1098
00:54:22,239 --> 00:54:24,719
Speaker 1: to use clip art through the keys. When when when

1099
00:54:24,719 --> 00:54:26,360
Speaker 1: you were like in the computer lab before, there was

1100
00:54:26,440 --> 00:54:31,160
Speaker 1: like you know, oh I see it already. Yeah yeah, yeah, okay. Yeah.

1101
00:54:31,160 --> 00:54:32,480
Speaker 1: So if you want to put a skull and crossbones

1102
00:54:32,520 --> 00:54:34,719
Speaker 1: on your report about pirates, you could do a wingdings

1103
00:54:34,800 --> 00:54:37,120
Speaker 1: font and type in N and then write pirates and

1104
00:54:37,160 --> 00:54:38,920
Speaker 1: regular pont and then another end it would be two

1105
00:54:38,960 --> 00:54:41,680
Speaker 1: pirate things around the title and make it look cool

1106
00:54:41,719 --> 00:54:44,560
Speaker 1: and maybe you'd get a A plus instead of a

1107
00:54:45,960 --> 00:54:50,400
Speaker 1: a pirate p sign plus. Yeah hard you get an

1108
00:54:50,520 --> 00:54:55,520
Speaker 1: arc um. Next story, Paris Helen does this why do

1109
00:54:55,640 --> 00:54:58,319
Speaker 1: I Care? No, not even not even a sports day,

1110
00:54:58,360 --> 00:55:00,399
Speaker 1: but it could be a why do you care? Okay,

1111
00:55:00,440 --> 00:55:02,759
Speaker 1: why why do I care? Special edition? And then we'll

1112
00:55:02,760 --> 00:55:04,920
Speaker 1: get to sports moment parents hill And said she no

1113
00:55:05,080 --> 00:55:08,560
Speaker 1: longer cares about becoming a billionaire. Instead, she says, I'm

1114
00:55:08,640 --> 00:55:13,400
Speaker 1: more interested in babies. How we feel about that? What

1115
00:55:13,480 --> 00:55:15,440
Speaker 1: do you think? Why do you have this feeling in

1116
00:55:15,520 --> 00:55:19,600
Speaker 1: your life now? Um? Well, I just realized that I

1117
00:55:19,800 --> 00:55:24,399
Speaker 1: just really want to have babies, and um you care

1118
00:55:24,480 --> 00:55:30,400
Speaker 1: when impression? My goals used to be becoming a billionaire,

1119
00:55:30,560 --> 00:55:32,640
Speaker 1: but it just seems like something that will take care

1120
00:55:32,640 --> 00:55:35,280
Speaker 1: of itself if I'm happy and fulfilled in other ways,

1121
00:55:35,760 --> 00:55:39,520
Speaker 1: and right now that is becoming a mom. And um,

1122
00:55:39,600 --> 00:55:45,160
Speaker 1: I'm really excited for my iconic boyfriend Carter to um

1123
00:55:45,440 --> 00:55:49,880
Speaker 1: impregnate me after we get married and then but I

1124
00:55:50,000 --> 00:55:52,600
Speaker 1: just feel like, don't you think that, like once you

1125
00:55:52,680 --> 00:55:54,520
Speaker 1: give up on this dream you might not feel like

1126
00:55:54,680 --> 00:55:58,720
Speaker 1: motivated anymore. That's beyond and that's not going to happen

1127
00:55:58,880 --> 00:56:01,160
Speaker 1: because I just know that what I want and it's

1128
00:56:01,320 --> 00:56:03,279
Speaker 1: just it's just I just want to be a mom.

1129
00:56:03,400 --> 00:56:07,480
Speaker 1: Can I answer you a question? And it's not that

1130
00:56:08,920 --> 00:56:11,440
Speaker 1: are you gonna wear sunglasses daring labor if you have

1131
00:56:11,520 --> 00:56:16,000
Speaker 1: a natural birth? I mean, if the lighting is like

1132
00:56:16,280 --> 00:56:20,920
Speaker 1: beyond in that room, I'm kind of slipping out of it. Uh,

1133
00:56:21,600 --> 00:56:25,040
Speaker 1: she should. I mean that bitch is so fucking cool.

1134
00:56:25,239 --> 00:56:26,680
Speaker 1: She's going to be a great mom. I know that.

1135
00:56:26,960 --> 00:56:28,920
Speaker 1: I think Parriston was. And I'm so glad to hear

1136
00:56:28,920 --> 00:56:32,600
Speaker 1: her lose this billionaire goal because it's so stupid and

1137
00:56:33,360 --> 00:56:38,160
Speaker 1: money is just just that's just a dumb thing to pursue.

1138
00:56:38,239 --> 00:56:41,000
Speaker 1: And I was hoping Paris would arrive at something a

1139
00:56:41,120 --> 00:56:43,319
Speaker 1: different goal, And I I knew she was just saying

1140
00:56:43,400 --> 00:56:45,800
Speaker 1: that because it's like why not, Like it's nice to

1141
00:56:45,880 --> 00:56:48,080
Speaker 1: have goals, but it's nice to hear or drop that

1142
00:56:48,160 --> 00:56:51,279
Speaker 1: because it's dumb. She she's not gonna be happier because

1143
00:56:51,320 --> 00:56:52,799
Speaker 1: she has more money. I mean, she has the most

1144
00:56:52,880 --> 00:56:57,520
Speaker 1: money of anyone. Yeah, I do think that she really

1145
00:56:57,560 --> 00:56:59,399
Speaker 1: wants one and she's always wanted to be a mom.

1146
00:56:59,560 --> 00:57:03,520
Speaker 1: That's like, uh, I think she definitely will be. I mean,

1147
00:57:03,840 --> 00:57:08,400
Speaker 1: and her new husband is like, they're engaged, but I

1148
00:57:08,440 --> 00:57:10,359
Speaker 1: don't think they're yet. Oh my god, he's the one

1149
00:57:10,719 --> 00:57:12,640
Speaker 1: I love. I love him for her, I love her

1150
00:57:12,719 --> 00:57:16,560
Speaker 1: from him. Okay, sports moment compared to DJ remember, Oh

1151
00:57:16,640 --> 00:57:18,800
Speaker 1: my god, from her from from this is Paris. You

1152
00:57:18,840 --> 00:57:20,800
Speaker 1: guys gotta watch it on YouTube. It's such a good documentary.

1153
00:57:20,800 --> 00:57:22,880
Speaker 1: All right, here we go my favorite day to So

1154
00:57:23,400 --> 00:57:26,320
Speaker 1: there's a moment in the documentary where her ex boyfriend

1155
00:57:27,040 --> 00:57:30,200
Speaker 1: he's at the festival and he just makes such a

1156
00:57:30,280 --> 00:57:32,560
Speaker 1: big baby scene. He's just such a little wham win

1157
00:57:32,680 --> 00:57:34,840
Speaker 1: and she is like I'm done, and she literally is

1158
00:57:34,880 --> 00:57:37,080
Speaker 1: like kick him out of here. Their backstage at this

1159
00:57:37,200 --> 00:57:39,080
Speaker 1: like E d M festival. She's about to go on

1160
00:57:39,160 --> 00:57:41,400
Speaker 1: stage in DJ and do a whole set, and she's

1161
00:57:41,840 --> 00:57:45,840
Speaker 1: nervous and he's just being a little belligerent dork and uh,

1162
00:57:46,320 --> 00:57:49,200
Speaker 1: she she goes, take his wristband, take his wristband, and

1163
00:57:49,560 --> 00:57:51,560
Speaker 1: they take his wristband. She goes, and then there's like

1164
00:57:51,600 --> 00:57:53,200
Speaker 1: a single shot of her talking about it later and

1165
00:57:53,280 --> 00:57:56,760
Speaker 1: she's like, I took his wristband. And that's actually probably

1166
00:57:56,920 --> 00:57:59,000
Speaker 1: she was like, I took his I had them rip

1167
00:57:59,040 --> 00:58:01,960
Speaker 1: off his wristband to the festival, which is honestly one

1168
00:58:02,040 --> 00:58:03,920
Speaker 1: of the worst things you could do to anyone ever.

1169
00:58:04,120 --> 00:58:06,480
Speaker 1: And it was like the funniest slide I've ever heard

1170
00:58:06,560 --> 00:58:09,400
Speaker 1: my life, because you knew that was ridiculous to say

1171
00:58:09,520 --> 00:58:12,840
Speaker 1: sports moment and then the beat drop. Baby, let's hear this,

1172
00:58:13,680 --> 00:58:22,400
Speaker 1: heears Andrew's weekly sports moment. Whoa, you're thrilled. Okay, this

1173
00:58:22,640 --> 00:58:24,880
Speaker 1: is I don't know if you've seen this video. No,

1174
00:58:25,080 --> 00:58:27,240
Speaker 1: can you pull the video up. A thirty year old

1175
00:58:27,280 --> 00:58:33,040
Speaker 1: woman who allegedly caused allegedly caused a massive crash France

1176
00:58:33,080 --> 00:58:36,560
Speaker 1: on Saturday. They found in ye, she never laughed. They

1177
00:58:36,640 --> 00:58:43,120
Speaker 1: thought she'd fled on bike. I mean, I mean, what

1178
00:58:43,240 --> 00:58:46,840
Speaker 1: an idiot that she was holding that sign in the middle.

1179
00:58:46,960 --> 00:58:49,160
Speaker 1: I mean I heard this was the worst crash in

1180
00:58:49,240 --> 00:58:52,920
Speaker 1: the tour of France like ever. I mean, so the

1181
00:58:53,040 --> 00:58:56,080
Speaker 1: sign meant go like that it's a long word for you.

1182
00:58:56,280 --> 00:58:59,880
Speaker 1: I thought it said baba buie. I thought that was

1183
00:58:59,880 --> 00:59:04,880
Speaker 1: a Italian for baba Bowie. Thought it was a stern head. Yeah,

1184
00:59:05,400 --> 00:59:07,120
Speaker 1: so it said yeah, I said go, It said like

1185
00:59:07,320 --> 00:59:12,600
Speaker 1: l a l A or something. Okay, well she did go.

1186
00:59:13,000 --> 00:59:18,600
Speaker 1: She she fled thinking, I mean, you just want attention

1187
00:59:18,760 --> 00:59:23,600
Speaker 1: that bad. I mean I kind of have a little

1188
00:59:23,600 --> 00:59:26,000
Speaker 1: bit of sympathy for her because she was obviously trying.

1189
00:59:26,160 --> 00:59:29,720
Speaker 1: She's only trying to me. Yeah, she's not like she's

1190
00:59:29,760 --> 00:59:33,080
Speaker 1: not doing on purpose. Yeah. It was not good. That's

1191
00:59:33,120 --> 00:59:35,760
Speaker 1: got to be. Have you ever caused something like that

1192
00:59:35,920 --> 00:59:39,360
Speaker 1: to happen? Okay, the worst thing I ever man that

1193
00:59:39,800 --> 00:59:42,160
Speaker 1: there's an aerial shot, and that was brutal. I did

1194
00:59:42,240 --> 00:59:45,320
Speaker 1: something very similar to her, but just to one person.

1195
00:59:46,320 --> 00:59:50,800
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, oh god, it's the worst thing I think

1196
00:59:50,800 --> 00:59:53,920
Speaker 1: I ever did. Uh. The kid was riding a BMX

1197
00:59:53,960 --> 00:59:55,840
Speaker 1: bike about to hit a ramp, and I rolled the

1198
00:59:55,920 --> 00:59:59,400
Speaker 1: skateboard in front of his bike. Then he hit the

1199
00:59:59,720 --> 01:00:03,120
Speaker 1: s a board started doing flips before you even hit

1200
01:00:03,200 --> 01:00:08,160
Speaker 1: the ramp, and then did more flips and uh, kind

1201
01:00:08,200 --> 01:00:10,400
Speaker 1: of bloody lip. What did you think was gonna happen?

1202
01:00:10,840 --> 01:00:12,920
Speaker 1: I just I don't know what I mean. When the

1203
01:00:12,960 --> 01:00:16,640
Speaker 1: skateboard went, time stood still, and I was like, this

1204
01:00:16,880 --> 01:00:21,000
Speaker 1: was a horrible decision because I love that skateboard. You

1205
01:00:21,080 --> 01:00:25,160
Speaker 1: know what I mean, It's a fucking dope. Tony hasway. No, No,

1206
01:00:25,480 --> 01:00:28,080
Speaker 1: it was fucking terrible, dude. It was the word I

1207
01:00:28,160 --> 01:00:30,479
Speaker 1: knew right when I let it go, like I'm gonna

1208
01:00:30,520 --> 01:00:33,360
Speaker 1: be grounded for a long time. If my mom sobers up,

1209
01:00:33,600 --> 01:00:40,320
Speaker 1: like like if my mom becomes the mom I wanted

1210
01:00:40,360 --> 01:00:42,840
Speaker 1: to be, this would really I would get punished, but

1211
01:00:43,040 --> 01:00:46,120
Speaker 1: I'll probably go unscathed and continue living my life destructively.

1212
01:00:47,120 --> 01:00:50,120
Speaker 1: It was the most so, yeah, so I get her pain.

1213
01:00:50,280 --> 01:00:52,520
Speaker 1: I get it, but I don't know. But there's no cameras.

1214
01:00:52,600 --> 01:00:55,680
Speaker 1: I was just doing this. But sometimes do things and

1215
01:00:55,800 --> 01:00:58,680
Speaker 1: you'd like there's just something that's when you realize you

1216
01:00:58,800 --> 01:01:00,600
Speaker 1: really have no free will, Like you go, a thought

1217
01:01:00,640 --> 01:01:02,040
Speaker 1: pops in your head, you do it, and you go,

1218
01:01:02,400 --> 01:01:06,120
Speaker 1: why did I do that? Like my dad the girl's

1219
01:01:06,160 --> 01:01:08,320
Speaker 1: butt and said honky, like I don't know why I

1220
01:01:08,440 --> 01:01:10,520
Speaker 1: didn't that. I was trying to make my cousin laugh.

1221
01:01:10,600 --> 01:01:13,400
Speaker 1: But it's it's like so embarrassing where you're trying to

1222
01:01:13,520 --> 01:01:17,240
Speaker 1: do something funny or like just daring, you take a

1223
01:01:17,360 --> 01:01:19,840
Speaker 1: risk and it doesn't pay off. I mean, that woman

1224
01:01:20,000 --> 01:01:22,160
Speaker 1: was only trying to help and what an idiot. And

1225
01:01:22,680 --> 01:01:25,240
Speaker 1: she reminds me of that. There was this baseball player

1226
01:01:25,240 --> 01:01:29,760
Speaker 1: apartment who there was a foul ball hit game six

1227
01:01:30,040 --> 01:01:34,000
Speaker 1: Chicago Cubs and he wasn't the only one that tried

1228
01:01:34,040 --> 01:01:36,520
Speaker 1: to catch it. That was the craziest thing, Like in

1229
01:01:36,640 --> 01:01:38,760
Speaker 1: the stands, in the stands and he was like third

1230
01:01:38,960 --> 01:01:43,840
Speaker 1: row and fucking these Cub fans. One. He had to move.

1231
01:01:44,160 --> 01:01:45,680
Speaker 1: There was a whole of this American life about him.

1232
01:01:45,720 --> 01:01:47,440
Speaker 1: He had to hide out that night. There was a

1233
01:01:47,480 --> 01:01:49,880
Speaker 1: woman that gave him shelter and like food and water

1234
01:01:50,280 --> 01:01:53,600
Speaker 1: because he was so uh you know, they were they

1235
01:01:53,680 --> 01:01:55,920
Speaker 1: wanted his head, thank god, the Cubs one like a

1236
01:01:56,000 --> 01:01:57,720
Speaker 1: couple like a year or two later or with something

1237
01:01:57,800 --> 01:02:00,760
Speaker 1: like oh thank God, Yeah, thank you Lord, thank you Lord,

1238
01:02:02,040 --> 01:02:06,400
Speaker 1: Mama love yeah God. I'll never forget Bob Coss saying

1239
01:02:06,440 --> 01:02:11,240
Speaker 1: that thing. Well, he certainly is signaling an apology to

1240
01:02:11,440 --> 01:02:15,720
Speaker 1: whatever dead relative is up there to ask for forgiveness

1241
01:02:15,800 --> 01:02:17,400
Speaker 1: for what he just did out there on that. I mean,

1242
01:02:17,440 --> 01:02:19,920
Speaker 1: that was so funny. Okay, we gotta get to listener mail.

1243
01:02:19,920 --> 01:02:21,920
Speaker 1: It's our Thursday segment. We have a new name for

1244
01:02:21,960 --> 01:02:24,360
Speaker 1: the segment. We want to call it fan Trax, but

1245
01:02:24,560 --> 01:02:27,320
Speaker 1: it's you know, but it's not fan Throx. I was

1246
01:02:27,440 --> 01:02:29,640
Speaker 1: going to give that moniker to things that we don't

1247
01:02:29,720 --> 01:02:33,000
Speaker 1: like from fans that actually hurt us. But this we're

1248
01:02:33,040 --> 01:02:35,479
Speaker 1: twisted on it. And this is just any fan mail.

1249
01:02:35,760 --> 01:02:37,520
Speaker 1: And you know Anthrax should be sent through the mail.

1250
01:02:37,560 --> 01:02:40,040
Speaker 1: Don't actually send us anthrax. Don't send us insults. This

1251
01:02:40,240 --> 01:02:44,480
Speaker 1: is it's time for bestie fan trax. Okay, this is

1252
01:02:44,520 --> 01:02:46,800
Speaker 1: awesome because there's a heavy metal band that I love

1253
01:02:46,920 --> 01:02:54,640
Speaker 1: called Anthrax. That DVD or CD. I mean that music

1254
01:02:54,800 --> 01:02:58,880
Speaker 1: is terrible. Have you ever heard Anthrax? N what bad?

1255
01:02:59,480 --> 01:03:01,480
Speaker 1: I mean, no, loves it, So I guess I like it.

1256
01:03:03,520 --> 01:03:06,440
Speaker 1: I mean, I I gotta check out. You give me

1257
01:03:06,520 --> 01:03:09,880
Speaker 1: one Anthrax song. I'll listen to it today. No, okay, okay,

1258
01:03:10,160 --> 01:03:13,000
Speaker 1: I'll you later. Yeah, truly try to get me into it.

1259
01:03:13,120 --> 01:03:15,200
Speaker 1: This is from mo. This is a voice message from

1260
01:03:15,280 --> 01:03:20,640
Speaker 1: mo Hie besties. My name's MoMA. Um. I just had

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Speaker 1: to send you guys a voice memo about something I

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Speaker 1: just saw that is so cup Alright, So someone I

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01:03:28,640 --> 01:03:31,760
Speaker 1: know I love him dearly, but he does him that's

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Speaker 1: so cut. So what he does is he constantly has

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Speaker 1: his ringer on loud. Okay, it's not a big deal

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01:03:38,120 --> 01:03:40,240
Speaker 1: in your ring text messages, just a little weird, but

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Speaker 1: it's not feel well. I realized he always keeps his

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Speaker 1: ringer on loud because when he gets phone calls, it

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01:03:47,080 --> 01:03:49,720
Speaker 1: starts with drop it like it's hot, so it goes

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Speaker 1: and then everyone goes and looks at him. So I

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Speaker 1: don't know. I think everyone he likes it because everyone

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Speaker 1: it's a way to get attention. Ring tone man. Yeah, anyway,

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Speaker 1: so it's it's a little kid. I kind of like

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Speaker 1: it because it's that song is so not cool, you know,

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01:04:08,160 --> 01:04:10,960
Speaker 1: if it was like a cool I mean it was

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01:04:11,000 --> 01:04:12,880
Speaker 1: cool in two thousand thirteen when it came out and

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01:04:12,960 --> 01:04:14,480
Speaker 1: we all loved it, but now it's kind of like

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01:04:14,920 --> 01:04:20,080
Speaker 1: it's hard to hear that dropping not like that like

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Speaker 1: other people. It puts people in a good mood. I

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01:04:22,960 --> 01:04:26,680
Speaker 1: think anyone keeping their phone on a noise is because

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01:04:26,840 --> 01:04:29,480
Speaker 1: it's like you think you're you want people to know

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01:04:29,600 --> 01:04:33,560
Speaker 1: you're popular, I guess, and like and maybe it's like,

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01:04:33,680 --> 01:04:36,040
Speaker 1: no I need to hear it. If you live alone,

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01:04:36,080 --> 01:04:38,480
Speaker 1: it's fine, but no one needs to hear your ding

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Speaker 1: in and like, oh my god, you're so popular. It's

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01:04:40,800 --> 01:04:42,600
Speaker 1: just if you have a purse as a as a

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01:04:42,800 --> 01:04:46,479
Speaker 1: as a woman, can you feel the vibration through your purse.

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Speaker 1: I think so. Yeah, And especially when you get really

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01:04:50,080 --> 01:04:51,919
Speaker 1: in tune with your phone and you start to feel

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01:04:51,960 --> 01:04:54,240
Speaker 1: like almost a maternal instinct with it, where you're like,

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01:04:54,320 --> 01:04:56,960
Speaker 1: I know it's somewhere, um, but there's just no reason

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Speaker 1: for it. And now phones can paying even on silent

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01:04:59,440 --> 01:05:02,040
Speaker 1: if you lose it. So don't just have your phone off.

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01:05:02,480 --> 01:05:05,920
Speaker 1: Be an adult, don't be an old person. Old people

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01:05:06,280 --> 01:05:11,440
Speaker 1: love having their phones on. Turn her phone off. I'm

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01:05:11,440 --> 01:05:14,680
Speaker 1: always like, who meets this? Let's hear from christ? Grandpa

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01:05:14,680 --> 01:05:23,040
Speaker 1: always had the ring tone fly me to the moves? Hey,

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Speaker 1: what's up? Nikki? Noah, Andrew? I have a question. Yes,

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Speaker 1: is it if a grown man cries for every sentimental thing?

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01:05:36,960 --> 01:05:39,760
Speaker 1: Because I just turned thirty and I never cried when

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01:05:39,760 --> 01:05:42,840
Speaker 1: I was growing up, but the other day I cried

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01:05:42,920 --> 01:05:47,720
Speaker 1: watching Cobra kay, and I just don't. But I just

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01:05:47,800 --> 01:05:51,880
Speaker 1: want to know if or if it's normal when you

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01:05:51,920 --> 01:05:56,840
Speaker 1: get older. Thanks guys, definitely not thanks thanks so much.

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Speaker 1: Um what was his name again? Thank you? Chris? Um?

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01:06:02,840 --> 01:06:05,919
Speaker 1: Not cool at all, not cut at all, because that's

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01:06:06,000 --> 01:06:10,080
Speaker 1: just your Your kid is doing something that doesn't come naturally,

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01:06:10,200 --> 01:06:12,600
Speaker 1: to get to make people think, to make others think

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01:06:12,640 --> 01:06:14,320
Speaker 1: you're cool. I mean, that's really the definition of kid.

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Speaker 1: If you if you try to get attention, yes, because

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01:06:20,080 --> 01:06:23,919
Speaker 1: he said if you cried every sentimental thing around nine

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Speaker 1: or ten, I don't know, because if you want to.

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01:06:28,280 --> 01:06:31,080
Speaker 1: But here's another thing. Even if you're crying to get attention,

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01:06:31,200 --> 01:06:32,840
Speaker 1: that's kind of the point of crying is so that

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Speaker 1: someone will come for you. Because humans need to let

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Speaker 1: others know in some way, and so crying usually elicits

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Speaker 1: sympathy from others. So I think crying can't be good

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01:06:41,680 --> 01:06:44,360
Speaker 1: no matter what, you know. It's something that's a good

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01:06:44,400 --> 01:06:48,240
Speaker 1: example of which is an emotional response is um this

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01:06:48,360 --> 01:06:50,080
Speaker 1: is a classic one. I may have given it early on,

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01:06:50,240 --> 01:06:52,240
Speaker 1: but one of the cook kass things we ever witnessed

1322
01:06:52,240 --> 01:06:54,440
Speaker 1: in high school was when a girl was like dating

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Speaker 1: a guy and their song was Wonderful Tonight and they

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Speaker 1: broke up, I guess, And she was at this party

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01:06:59,760 --> 01:07:02,200
Speaker 1: and she is always like kid anyway, just like you know,

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Speaker 1: like I need a cigarette, like just just being kid

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01:07:05,400 --> 01:07:07,600
Speaker 1: in high school saying stuff like that, I like, I

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01:07:07,680 --> 01:07:10,320
Speaker 1: got wasted last weekend. But she was like so torn

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01:07:10,440 --> 01:07:12,840
Speaker 1: up about this breakup and the song Wonderful Tonight came

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01:07:12,880 --> 01:07:14,919
Speaker 1: on at this party and she was like, you guys,

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01:07:15,160 --> 01:07:17,760
Speaker 1: turn it off, turn it off. This was my song

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01:07:17,880 --> 01:07:20,120
Speaker 1: with them, and it's like, just leave if it makes

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01:07:20,160 --> 01:07:23,880
Speaker 1: you that emotional, or cry to yourself and have a

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01:07:24,000 --> 01:07:25,840
Speaker 1: moment and maybe ask a friend for comfort. But like

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01:07:26,320 --> 01:07:29,640
Speaker 1: that was we all were like that is the kiss

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01:07:29,800 --> 01:07:33,880
Speaker 1: thing ever? Like, oh, you are so your your relationship

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01:07:33,960 --> 01:07:36,760
Speaker 1: is so important and you're so distraught. It's like, no,

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01:07:36,960 --> 01:07:38,959
Speaker 1: you're not. You're trying to funk this other guy tonight.

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01:07:39,000 --> 01:07:40,800
Speaker 1: We know what you're doing. And by funk, I mean

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01:07:40,880 --> 01:07:43,360
Speaker 1: like make out. We didn't really fucking high school. Okay,

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01:07:43,760 --> 01:07:48,480
Speaker 1: this next um, this next message, our next fan trax

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01:07:48,600 --> 01:07:53,360
Speaker 1: is from Isabelle. Uh different than the Isabella who gave

1343
01:07:53,400 --> 01:07:56,160
Speaker 1: me the personalized note um that I talked about yesterday.

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01:07:56,240 --> 01:07:58,040
Speaker 1: This is is about Nikki. I listen to your podcast

1345
01:07:58,080 --> 01:07:59,720
Speaker 1: every day and could not have related more to something

1346
01:07:59,760 --> 01:08:02,000
Speaker 1: you said yesterday. A guy I used to date for

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01:08:02,040 --> 01:08:04,280
Speaker 1: a few years and I cordially keep in touch and

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01:08:04,320 --> 01:08:07,320
Speaker 1: he earlier this year drunk texted me something that was

1349
01:08:07,440 --> 01:08:10,800
Speaker 1: not even English. I'm guessing it was like not that

1350
01:08:10,840 --> 01:08:12,960
Speaker 1: it was a different language, it was like just so incoherent.

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01:08:13,280 --> 01:08:15,320
Speaker 1: Then a few weeks ago, on my birthday, he texted

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01:08:15,320 --> 01:08:17,760
Speaker 1: me Happy Birthday from his email address instead of his

1353
01:08:17,840 --> 01:08:21,600
Speaker 1: phone number, clearly trying to avoid a follow up in

1354
01:08:21,680 --> 01:08:25,120
Speaker 1: the same text change chained to his previous stupid blackout text.

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01:08:25,479 --> 01:08:27,840
Speaker 1: I was so angry that in this new and next

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01:08:27,960 --> 01:08:30,439
Speaker 1: next interaction he got to get away with acting like

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01:08:30,520 --> 01:08:33,080
Speaker 1: the drunk text never happened. But I had to face

1358
01:08:33,160 --> 01:08:36,920
Speaker 1: this conversation still wondering what the funk Our last interaction

1359
01:08:37,000 --> 01:08:39,360
Speaker 1: even was tell Andrew to be a man and stop

1360
01:08:39,520 --> 01:08:42,200
Speaker 1: the leading love the pod. My co workers are starting

1361
01:08:42,200 --> 01:08:44,280
Speaker 1: to think it strange, strange how much I laugh alone

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01:08:44,360 --> 01:08:46,559
Speaker 1: to myself at my desk. Hope all as well, Hope

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01:08:46,600 --> 01:08:49,680
Speaker 1: all as swells? Um, Yeah, I love this, Thank you

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01:08:50,120 --> 01:08:52,280
Speaker 1: so much. That's how But that's how you break it

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01:08:52,320 --> 01:08:56,639
Speaker 1: down to you. Maybe he just email like this men

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01:08:56,760 --> 01:09:00,560
Speaker 1: think I don't. I don't think meant to start, he

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01:09:00,640 --> 01:09:02,599
Speaker 1: pulled up her text to text or everybody he saw

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01:09:02,680 --> 01:09:05,040
Speaker 1: the text. She never wrote back to that or that

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01:09:05,160 --> 01:09:07,200
Speaker 1: she confused, She wrote back like what are you even

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01:09:07,240 --> 01:09:09,439
Speaker 1: talking about. He didn't want a reminder of those and

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01:09:09,600 --> 01:09:13,519
Speaker 1: and push it up, so he emailed her, I need

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01:09:13,600 --> 01:09:15,920
Speaker 1: a follow up because I don't. I don't think that

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01:09:16,080 --> 01:09:19,200
Speaker 1: guy connected to too. I think he was on his computer.

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01:09:19,360 --> 01:09:21,600
Speaker 1: He just emailed her. I don't think it's because, but

1375
01:09:21,720 --> 01:09:24,439
Speaker 1: maybe I'm wrong. Maybe next time he does this to you,

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01:09:24,560 --> 01:09:26,240
Speaker 1: this is what I think you should do. We gotta

1377
01:09:26,280 --> 01:09:28,360
Speaker 1: ask he's going to email you again. So the next

1378
01:09:28,400 --> 01:09:29,680
Speaker 1: time he emails you, to get in touch with you,

1379
01:09:29,720 --> 01:09:33,800
Speaker 1: because he's not Instagram. Yeah, just when you don't reply

1380
01:09:33,960 --> 01:09:36,680
Speaker 1: to whatever platform he replies to you on, Isabelle, go

1381
01:09:36,880 --> 01:09:40,599
Speaker 1: back to the text where he was belligerent and question market.

1382
01:09:41,360 --> 01:09:44,920
Speaker 1: Just go to like acknowledge it or or exclamation market,

1383
01:09:45,280 --> 01:09:47,519
Speaker 1: just to let him know, like I know this happen.

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01:09:47,920 --> 01:09:50,920
Speaker 1: Acknowledge it and it's such a power move. And funk

1385
01:09:51,000 --> 01:09:53,000
Speaker 1: this guy anyway, Like if you want a future with him,

1386
01:09:53,040 --> 01:09:55,280
Speaker 1: he's gonna have to live up to this. Uh An

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01:09:55,320 --> 01:09:57,880
Speaker 1: answer to this eventually, and he probably won't because he's

1388
01:09:57,880 --> 01:09:59,840
Speaker 1: not ready for it. He's probably an alcoholic. So m

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01:10:00,160 --> 01:10:01,760
Speaker 1: wish him a lot of luck and thank you for

1390
01:10:02,000 --> 01:10:05,439
Speaker 1: your message. Want to read the l I wish you

1391
01:10:05,520 --> 01:10:10,519
Speaker 1: sent the Angli. What's what else we got? This is

1392
01:10:10,600 --> 01:10:17,920
Speaker 1: from Katie voice message Kayla, oh sorry Kayla, Hey, Nikki,

1393
01:10:18,400 --> 01:10:23,080
Speaker 1: Andrew and no. Uh, So I got invited to a

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01:10:23,320 --> 01:10:25,960
Speaker 1: y night with some people from work that I've never

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01:10:26,080 --> 01:10:29,360
Speaker 1: hung out with outside of work. It's nice. I rarely

1396
01:10:29,400 --> 01:10:33,240
Speaker 1: see them anyway. And um, so we were going to

1397
01:10:33,320 --> 01:10:36,559
Speaker 1: play cards. You get humanity and there's about like ten

1398
01:10:36,600 --> 01:10:40,439
Speaker 1: of us, which is already overkilled. And it came, you know,

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01:10:40,600 --> 01:10:44,400
Speaker 1: to be my turn, and the card I had that

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01:10:44,520 --> 01:10:49,920
Speaker 1: I had to read out loud um was tin tactle porn.

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01:10:52,800 --> 01:10:59,000
Speaker 1: Everyone's like, what is that tin tactle porn? It's tentacle porn. Yeah,

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01:11:00,160 --> 01:11:05,960
Speaker 1: that's what is tentnacle porn um octopus porn Like it's

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01:11:06,080 --> 01:11:08,080
Speaker 1: Japanese like kind of octopu. I think it started as

1404
01:11:08,160 --> 01:11:11,880
Speaker 1: Japanese like porn, but it's octopus like. It's people drawing

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01:11:12,040 --> 01:11:15,320
Speaker 1: big octopus is like penetrating, like scared, like women that

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01:11:15,400 --> 01:11:18,040
Speaker 1: are that they at sea. I don't know, it's it's

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01:11:18,080 --> 01:11:21,000
Speaker 1: a it's a big thing. It's it's like hen t

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01:11:21,120 --> 01:11:23,640
Speaker 1: i porn. I think is the kind of version of it.

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01:11:23,880 --> 01:11:26,280
Speaker 1: But it's it's reading the world tentacle and thinking it's

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01:11:26,320 --> 01:11:30,240
Speaker 1: as tentactle. First of all, the word tactile is kind

1411
01:11:30,280 --> 01:11:32,439
Speaker 1: of pornographics, so I understand why you would make that

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01:11:32,600 --> 01:11:36,920
Speaker 1: go with the hard tact instead of tuckle um. So

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01:11:37,720 --> 01:11:39,280
Speaker 1: I think this is I think that's a fair one

1414
01:11:39,400 --> 01:11:41,799
Speaker 1: and I think you were right. I find anything interesting

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01:11:41,880 --> 01:11:44,400
Speaker 1: where you mess up because you're in front of people

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01:11:44,600 --> 01:11:47,200
Speaker 1: that you want to mess up by yourself. Story of

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01:11:47,240 --> 01:11:51,120
Speaker 1: my life. But yeah, it's interesting. It's just like, you know,

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01:11:51,280 --> 01:11:54,560
Speaker 1: would she say tentacle if she was alone? Right? You

1419
01:11:54,640 --> 01:11:58,400
Speaker 1: know what I mean? Like the pressure of it, tent tactle.

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01:11:58,479 --> 01:12:01,920
Speaker 1: I wonder if you can play Cards of Humanity or whatever,

1421
01:12:02,439 --> 01:12:08,439
Speaker 1: Cards against Humanity Solitaire. That's a sad that's a sad game. Solitaire. Boy,

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01:12:08,800 --> 01:12:11,519
Speaker 1: really on the computer, man, it was sad. I like

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01:12:11,600 --> 01:12:15,760
Speaker 1: the sound where it goes like shuffles, like, oh yeah,

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01:12:16,320 --> 01:12:21,160
Speaker 1: that's a good sound. Mine sweeper. Yeah, oh you're like,

1425
01:12:21,400 --> 01:12:24,880
Speaker 1: we wish she would have swept the kitchen once or twice. Uh,

1426
01:12:25,240 --> 01:12:28,519
Speaker 1: you grew up kind of neglected. That's okay though, we

1427
01:12:28,600 --> 01:12:31,040
Speaker 1: all do our best. Look, I can't compete with Solitaire,

1428
01:12:31,280 --> 01:12:33,800
Speaker 1: all those numbers in a row. I don't blame her.

1429
01:12:34,160 --> 01:12:36,160
Speaker 1: Different cards that you can pick, you can do like

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01:12:36,200 --> 01:12:38,200
Speaker 1: a fish on the card. You could do palm tree.

1431
01:12:38,600 --> 01:12:42,240
Speaker 1: It's just past time. Days are long, man, you gotta sucking?

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01:12:43,160 --> 01:12:47,600
Speaker 1: Are you spending your days on new Yeah? I'm like,

1433
01:12:48,000 --> 01:12:51,160
Speaker 1: I sometimes I resent you because you just fill your

1434
01:12:51,200 --> 01:12:54,080
Speaker 1: day with like such fun stuff and I you go, hey,

1435
01:12:54,080 --> 01:12:57,599
Speaker 1: why don't I do this? And I go, you think

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01:12:57,720 --> 01:13:01,200
Speaker 1: I can just watch morning show? Know, and um, And

1437
01:13:01,240 --> 01:13:03,560
Speaker 1: then I realized I could make my life like that.

1438
01:13:03,680 --> 01:13:05,800
Speaker 1: And when I play guitar, I sometimes feel guilty because

1439
01:13:05,840 --> 01:13:07,960
Speaker 1: I'm like, I could be getting work done, and this

1440
01:13:08,160 --> 01:13:10,320
Speaker 1: is what I'd rather be doing than anything. It feels

1441
01:13:10,320 --> 01:13:13,360
Speaker 1: almost recreat it's recreational and it doesn't feel like work,

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01:13:14,040 --> 01:13:18,599
Speaker 1: and I have guilt over it. Final thought, I guess, yeah,

1443
01:13:18,760 --> 01:13:23,120
Speaker 1: final thought, I mean, like, do you do you ever

1444
01:13:23,320 --> 01:13:26,000
Speaker 1: feel guilty that you don't work hard enough? And I'm

1445
01:13:26,040 --> 01:13:30,280
Speaker 1: just saying this because that's what I'm plagued by. Yeah, look,

1446
01:13:30,439 --> 01:13:32,960
Speaker 1: we do this show every day, so right away, and

1447
01:13:33,040 --> 01:13:36,720
Speaker 1: I know to you, for some reason, it's not like

1448
01:13:37,280 --> 01:13:38,760
Speaker 1: I know it's a big deal to you, but you

1449
01:13:38,800 --> 01:13:41,680
Speaker 1: don't feel like this is work. However, I feel like

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01:13:41,960 --> 01:13:43,960
Speaker 1: this is. Uh. I'm not trying to speak for it.

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01:13:44,000 --> 01:13:46,439
Speaker 1: I guess I'm speaking for you. I honestly don't count

1452
01:13:46,479 --> 01:13:49,040
Speaker 1: this as work and I should so. To me, I

1453
01:13:49,160 --> 01:13:53,480
Speaker 1: feel like, Okay, I've accomplished this today. Okay, it isn't accomplished.

1454
01:13:53,920 --> 01:13:56,559
Speaker 1: I work out in the morning at eight am. That's

1455
01:13:56,600 --> 01:13:58,920
Speaker 1: an accomplishment, you know what I mean? Not work though,

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01:13:59,000 --> 01:14:01,000
Speaker 1: Like when I work out, I don't feel like that's

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01:14:01,240 --> 01:14:04,840
Speaker 1: contributing to my career and like making money so that

1458
01:14:04,960 --> 01:14:07,680
Speaker 1: my family can survive. I think it is because if

1459
01:14:07,720 --> 01:14:12,479
Speaker 1: I'm a better person and I'm more it does help depressed.

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01:14:12,560 --> 01:14:15,040
Speaker 1: It makes you think better. And yeah, I mean it

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01:14:15,120 --> 01:14:18,200
Speaker 1: all adds. I mean having hobbies and things you love

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01:14:18,640 --> 01:14:22,240
Speaker 1: is all that life should be about. So so by

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01:14:22,320 --> 01:14:25,000
Speaker 1: eleven thirty year noon, I've already worked out for an

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01:14:25,040 --> 01:14:26,840
Speaker 1: hour and I've done this for an hour. So those

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01:14:26,840 --> 01:14:29,200
Speaker 1: are two things that are so. Then if I go

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Speaker 1: play golf, I don't feel terrible. But if I just

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Speaker 1: woke up in the morning, didn't do my own podcast,

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01:14:33,720 --> 01:14:37,639
Speaker 1: didn't do this podcast, maybe didn't write something, maybe whatever,

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01:14:37,760 --> 01:14:39,800
Speaker 1: and then just play golf in the morning all day

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01:14:40,080 --> 01:14:43,000
Speaker 1: on a Tuesday, I feel a little weird. Point. You're right,

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01:14:43,080 --> 01:14:45,360
Speaker 1: like it's like you are at an age where you

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01:14:45,520 --> 01:14:48,200
Speaker 1: you have a steady job, you have your you don't

1473
01:14:48,240 --> 01:14:50,320
Speaker 1: really want for anything. I'm sure you want for things.

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01:14:50,400 --> 01:14:52,439
Speaker 1: But it's like, at what point do you just stop

1475
01:14:52,760 --> 01:14:55,080
Speaker 1: trying to get the next thing and get that billion

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01:14:55,200 --> 01:14:57,880
Speaker 1: dollars and you just go I just want to have fun,

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01:14:58,040 --> 01:15:02,320
Speaker 1: Like I am really I'm living that now too. I um,

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01:15:02,840 --> 01:15:05,479
Speaker 1: you know. I I yesterday, I got a lot of

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01:15:05,520 --> 01:15:07,840
Speaker 1: stuff done and I went out and I was like

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01:15:07,960 --> 01:15:11,320
Speaker 1: journaling about it, and I felt this like weird, like

1481
01:15:12,520 --> 01:15:14,519
Speaker 1: it was okay. So I'm I'm planning this tour and

1482
01:15:14,560 --> 01:15:18,479
Speaker 1: I have Matt Pond and my assistant Jennifer co tour managing,

1483
01:15:18,960 --> 01:15:20,760
Speaker 1: and they have these emails to me of like we

1484
01:15:20,880 --> 01:15:23,439
Speaker 1: need to know about merch They're they're doing all the logistics,

1485
01:15:23,479 --> 01:15:25,920
Speaker 1: but they need some direction and I've been waiting to

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01:15:25,960 --> 01:15:28,400
Speaker 1: get back to them. So I zipped to get together

1487
01:15:28,479 --> 01:15:30,800
Speaker 1: this email and I throw email and I send it

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01:15:30,840 --> 01:15:32,240
Speaker 1: off and I feel like, oh my god, I finally

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01:15:32,600 --> 01:15:35,240
Speaker 1: But there was something It just was so easy that

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01:15:35,400 --> 01:15:37,160
Speaker 1: what I had had it built up in my head

1491
01:15:37,800 --> 01:15:40,080
Speaker 1: was so much work that I felt like I just

1492
01:15:40,600 --> 01:15:43,360
Speaker 1: choplifted or got away with something that was supposed to

1493
01:15:43,439 --> 01:15:48,800
Speaker 1: take longer or um for instance, like if even this tour,

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01:15:49,080 --> 01:15:52,760
Speaker 1: like people sometimes think that the work I put my

1495
01:15:52,880 --> 01:15:55,479
Speaker 1: work doesn't look like sitting down and writing and being

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01:15:55,520 --> 01:15:57,439
Speaker 1: at a laptop a lot of times, and I feel

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01:15:57,479 --> 01:16:01,439
Speaker 1: like guilt about that that the work has first of all,

1498
01:16:01,479 --> 01:16:03,680
Speaker 1: the work has already happened. That really helped me, and

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01:16:03,720 --> 01:16:06,519
Speaker 1: I think it could maybe help people listening when you

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01:16:06,840 --> 01:16:09,519
Speaker 1: are maybe down on yourself because you haven't put in

1501
01:16:09,880 --> 01:16:12,559
Speaker 1: enough work on something that's coming up, like a project,

1502
01:16:12,680 --> 01:16:15,160
Speaker 1: and you're like, I'm really, I'm not working as far

1503
01:16:15,200 --> 01:16:18,479
Speaker 1: as I used to because you are already good enough

1504
01:16:18,560 --> 01:16:20,320
Speaker 1: that you don't need to. The work was put in

1505
01:16:20,560 --> 01:16:23,120
Speaker 1: on your way up. So like I always forget that

1506
01:16:23,320 --> 01:16:25,680
Speaker 1: Sam goes to you. I know. It's That's what I

1507
01:16:25,760 --> 01:16:28,559
Speaker 1: need to remember, is that Nikki, it's okay if um

1508
01:16:28,800 --> 01:16:31,240
Speaker 1: for this next for Bill Maher, for instance, Like I

1509
01:16:31,360 --> 01:16:34,320
Speaker 1: didn't spend as much time on those answers, and like

1510
01:16:34,439 --> 01:16:36,880
Speaker 1: my my prep for that show as I did for

1511
01:16:37,000 --> 01:16:40,320
Speaker 1: my first sit down with Conan. And that's not because

1512
01:16:40,800 --> 01:16:44,200
Speaker 1: I'm lazy now, It's because I just trust that I'm

1513
01:16:44,240 --> 01:16:47,200
Speaker 1: gonna do good. But I'm so scared. So I wrote

1514
01:16:47,240 --> 01:16:50,920
Speaker 1: in my journal yesterday, like just trust that you are

1515
01:16:51,080 --> 01:16:54,400
Speaker 1: always trying to do your best, that any time that

1516
01:16:54,520 --> 01:16:57,479
Speaker 1: you fall short of that is also still your best,

1517
01:16:58,040 --> 01:16:59,920
Speaker 1: and that you're only trying to make the world a

1518
01:17:00,000 --> 01:17:02,120
Speaker 1: better place, You're only trying to be happy so that

1519
01:17:02,200 --> 01:17:04,120
Speaker 1: you can make more good in the world, and that

1520
01:17:05,040 --> 01:17:07,759
Speaker 1: that is your goal. And just trust that, like trust

1521
01:17:07,880 --> 01:17:10,880
Speaker 1: that stopped doubting that you're trying to sneakily. I always

1522
01:17:10,960 --> 01:17:14,720
Speaker 1: think I'm sneakily trying to do something bad and I

1523
01:17:14,800 --> 01:17:16,960
Speaker 1: have no evidence for it, So why do I keep

1524
01:17:17,080 --> 01:17:18,920
Speaker 1: thinking I'm a bad person? Today Greg Warren on the

1525
01:17:19,000 --> 01:17:21,519
Speaker 1: radio said that sometimes a dog will like having a

1526
01:17:21,600 --> 01:17:23,400
Speaker 1: bad reaction to him, and he'll be like that dog

1527
01:17:23,520 --> 01:17:26,360
Speaker 1: knows that I'm evil, like the evil that I secretly

1528
01:17:26,400 --> 01:17:28,599
Speaker 1: think I am. When Greg Warren is the nicest person ever,

1529
01:17:28,840 --> 01:17:31,360
Speaker 1: he's like that dog senses it, that dog knows. And

1530
01:17:31,439 --> 01:17:34,920
Speaker 1: I really related to that of like secretly thinking I'm evil,

1531
01:17:35,560 --> 01:17:39,120
Speaker 1: and and and and going and and having to that

1532
01:17:39,320 --> 01:17:41,439
Speaker 1: maybe me tell saying that I'm a good person is

1533
01:17:41,600 --> 01:17:44,880
Speaker 1: lying to myself or trying to convince others that I'm

1534
01:17:44,960 --> 01:17:47,600
Speaker 1: not so that I can get more things. And I

1535
01:17:47,640 --> 01:17:49,760
Speaker 1: don't know if an evil person even has thoughts that

1536
01:17:49,920 --> 01:17:52,479
Speaker 1: they might be evil, but I constantly, I really do

1537
01:17:52,600 --> 01:17:54,400
Speaker 1: think about that a lot. I just feel like like

1538
01:17:55,000 --> 01:17:58,360
Speaker 1: the no matter how much work you put in, I

1539
01:17:58,400 --> 01:18:00,840
Speaker 1: don't know if you'll ever be sadt defied with like,

1540
01:18:00,960 --> 01:18:07,320
Speaker 1: oh I did enough that. No, no, I'm sorry. So

1541
01:18:07,479 --> 01:18:10,280
Speaker 1: maybe me I get some me like, so I might

1542
01:18:10,320 --> 01:18:13,600
Speaker 1: as well. Here's the other thing, And I try to

1543
01:18:13,680 --> 01:18:15,720
Speaker 1: remember it is exactly what you were saying. Like for

1544
01:18:15,920 --> 01:18:18,280
Speaker 1: seven years, I picked up dogshit in New York City.

1545
01:18:18,320 --> 01:18:21,559
Speaker 1: I lived in Bushwick with like two roommates, like an

1546
01:18:21,640 --> 01:18:25,600
Speaker 1: hour outside Manhattan, Like I fucking like I put in

1547
01:18:25,680 --> 01:18:30,200
Speaker 1: a lot of deserve, hustled to play golf. Sure, yeah,

1548
01:18:31,080 --> 01:18:34,800
Speaker 1: here's where I go. But other people worked harder, there

1549
01:18:34,880 --> 01:18:36,840
Speaker 1: was still more would have done. There's always someone you

1550
01:18:36,880 --> 01:18:39,479
Speaker 1: can go. They were harder, and where I What I

1551
01:18:39,520 --> 01:18:41,479
Speaker 1: say to myself when I have that argument, because you

1552
01:18:41,560 --> 01:18:45,680
Speaker 1: might have that yourself, listener um, is that they have

1553
01:18:45,760 --> 01:18:48,479
Speaker 1: a different brain than mine. Their brain works in that

1554
01:18:48,560 --> 01:18:51,560
Speaker 1: way mine doesn't. I don't either I don't need to

1555
01:18:51,680 --> 01:18:54,400
Speaker 1: work that hard to achieve what they're achieving, or I

1556
01:18:54,520 --> 01:18:58,880
Speaker 1: don't want to. And that is just as valuable nosing

1557
01:18:58,960 --> 01:19:01,519
Speaker 1: on tour for seven months. I know, but I should

1558
01:19:01,520 --> 01:19:03,160
Speaker 1: be getting ready for it, and I'm not. I'm just

1559
01:19:03,320 --> 01:19:06,200
Speaker 1: kind of winging it, wing digging it. I think I

1560
01:19:06,320 --> 01:19:10,000
Speaker 1: think that the uh like hustle that you are used

1561
01:19:10,040 --> 01:19:13,719
Speaker 1: to from the past in your career. Do you feel

1562
01:19:13,760 --> 01:19:16,160
Speaker 1: that you get that from playing guitar, because that's like

1563
01:19:16,400 --> 01:19:20,360
Speaker 1: something new and writing music and stuff that's difficult, feel

1564
01:19:20,439 --> 01:19:22,680
Speaker 1: you're putting in the same. It does. It feels the same,

1565
01:19:22,680 --> 01:19:26,160
Speaker 1: but it also feels just as um empty because when

1566
01:19:26,200 --> 01:19:28,080
Speaker 1: I used to do stand up and wasn't making a living,

1567
01:19:28,160 --> 01:19:30,519
Speaker 1: it was like, what are you go do something that's

1568
01:19:30,560 --> 01:19:34,479
Speaker 1: gonna earn you money? There's no there's small indications that

1569
01:19:34,520 --> 01:19:36,800
Speaker 1: you're gonna make it, but like honestly, just getting on

1570
01:19:36,840 --> 01:19:38,679
Speaker 1: the Tonight Show one time, even when I had gotten

1571
01:19:38,720 --> 01:19:42,280
Speaker 1: done TV, I still wasn't earning a living wage. Well

1572
01:19:42,360 --> 01:19:44,320
Speaker 1: after I've been on TV, so there's been signs that like,

1573
01:19:44,960 --> 01:19:48,280
Speaker 1: you're good at this, you're getting the positive reinforcement, but

1574
01:19:49,000 --> 01:19:50,760
Speaker 1: it still felt like a waste going out and doing

1575
01:19:50,800 --> 01:19:54,560
Speaker 1: stand up because there was no clear like how was

1576
01:19:54,600 --> 01:19:56,080
Speaker 1: I going to make money at this? So it always

1577
01:19:56,160 --> 01:19:59,160
Speaker 1: felt so to me. Guitar feels like that right now,

1578
01:19:59,240 --> 01:20:01,439
Speaker 1: where it's like what's your This is a waste of

1579
01:20:01,520 --> 01:20:04,800
Speaker 1: your time. You could be writing jokes, but I now

1580
01:20:04,920 --> 01:20:08,000
Speaker 1: I know that if something doesn't feel good, it's gonna

1581
01:20:08,080 --> 01:20:10,479
Speaker 1: be bad. So if I'm forcing anything, and sometimes you

1582
01:20:10,520 --> 01:20:13,960
Speaker 1: do have to force stuff, I'm I'm lucky enough to

1583
01:20:14,080 --> 01:20:15,640
Speaker 1: have a life where I don't really have to do

1584
01:20:15,760 --> 01:20:17,640
Speaker 1: anything I don't want to do anymore, and it's just

1585
01:20:18,240 --> 01:20:21,000
Speaker 1: fucking great. And that's why this podcast doesn't feel like work.

1586
01:20:21,280 --> 01:20:23,680
Speaker 1: I'm grateful to all of you guys for giving your

1587
01:20:23,720 --> 01:20:27,040
Speaker 1: time to me and listening to me talk a lot today,

1588
01:20:27,200 --> 01:20:30,640
Speaker 1: especially um My A D D meds are kicking it

1589
01:20:31,400 --> 01:20:33,880
Speaker 1: and um and yeah, I'm just gonna go get some

1590
01:20:33,920 --> 01:20:35,559
Speaker 1: stuff done. I'm gonna be easy on myself. I hope

1591
01:20:35,600 --> 01:20:38,000
Speaker 1: you all have a great weekend. Stay safe. I hope

1592
01:20:38,040 --> 01:20:43,400
Speaker 1: no wives die, although statistically one will. Um yeah, keep

1593
01:20:43,439 --> 01:20:45,920
Speaker 1: sending us voice memos, will feature it on Thursday. Keep

1594
01:20:46,160 --> 01:20:48,439
Speaker 1: writing into the show, d m NG we love the

1595
01:20:48,479 --> 01:20:51,640
Speaker 1: interaction and and or any final final thoughts to the

1596
01:20:51,720 --> 01:20:56,559
Speaker 1: golf course. Andrew's got a tea time. Thank you for listening.

1597
01:20:56,720 --> 01:21:02,920
Speaker 1: We'll see you on Monday. Don't be and the back

1598
01:21:03,640 --> 01:21:05,760
Speaker 1: all of us wells. Yeah,