WEBVTT - “I’M A ZOOKEEPER”

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<v Speaker 1>Hello, Hi, What is your name?

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<v Speaker 2>My name is Shrimp.

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<v Speaker 1>Shrimp. What's up, Shrimp? How's life?

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<v Speaker 2>Life is good? I've been waiting to Collin for a while.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm pretty excited.

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<v Speaker 1>Fucking hell yeah, man, here we are. We are doing

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<v Speaker 1>the Gecko Show. This is gonna be a this is

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<v Speaker 1>this is gonna be a very low key Gecko show.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know what the fuck I just said. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know what that means, but I.

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<v Speaker 2>Think they're all pretty low key.

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<v Speaker 1>You're right, That's why I that's I feel like they're

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<v Speaker 1>all pretty low key. So I don't know why I

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<v Speaker 1>specifically mentioned that this was going to be low key.

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<v Speaker 1>I think what I here's what? Okay? Actually, I'm shrimp.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel so hard I'm shrimp. I'm completely bullshitting you

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<v Speaker 1>right now. I know exactly why I said what I

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<v Speaker 1>just said, and I'm gonna explain to you why I

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<v Speaker 1>said what I just said. I I said that I'm

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<v Speaker 1>I'm I think I'm very sleepy right now, and so

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<v Speaker 1>I said to you, oh, this is going to be

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<v Speaker 1>a low key Gecko session, because I was trying to

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<v Speaker 1>absolve myself from responsibility in the event that my sleepiness

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<v Speaker 1>makes this a bad conversation, and so I was giving

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<v Speaker 1>myself an out so that if you know, for example,

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<v Speaker 1>I dozed off while we were talking or spaced out,

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<v Speaker 1>instead of being like, oh, he's kind of spacing out

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<v Speaker 1>on me while I'm talking to him, you'll just be like,

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<v Speaker 1>oh wait, I'm I'm expecting a chill Gecko session. Do

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<v Speaker 1>you understand the psychology of this?

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<v Speaker 2>But it's totally fine and Lyle. You know, if you

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<v Speaker 2>want to tap out any point, this is your show

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<v Speaker 2>and you can do whatever you want, all right.

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<v Speaker 1>I appreciate you giving me permission to do that. I

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<v Speaker 1>genuinely might take up on that. But for now, what's up, shrimp?

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<v Speaker 1>What do you want to talk about today?

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<v Speaker 2>Not much?

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<v Speaker 3>You know, I'm a post grad and you know, living

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<v Speaker 3>in this pretty much recession and just having a tough

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<v Speaker 3>time with money, and you know, I'm just struggling along

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<v Speaker 3>a little bit, but looking for some camaraderie. You know,

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<v Speaker 3>I feel like I'm a good company on this podcast,

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<v Speaker 3>so I'm just looking for maybe some advice. I hear

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<v Speaker 3>you talking about iris and I'm already involved in all that,

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<v Speaker 3>and I'm just like, what else can I do?

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<v Speaker 1>You know? You want? You want advice. You want financial advice.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't want financial advice. I think I'm just kind

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<v Speaker 2>of like looking to moan a little bit about it's

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<v Speaker 2>tough out here for the postgrads, and I'm just saying,

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<v Speaker 2>y'all are alone.

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<v Speaker 1>How I have I have talked about iras on here

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<v Speaker 1>a lot, haven't, I like a weird amount?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, yeah, And you you're pretty financially literate. It's actually

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<v Speaker 2>pretty inspiring to hear about. I do take a lot

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<v Speaker 2>of your advice.

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<v Speaker 1>From when I listened to Man, I gotta get a

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<v Speaker 1>I gotta get in with Vanguard or something. Do you

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<v Speaker 1>know what a high yield savings account is? I was

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<v Speaker 1>talking to my friend the other day about about high

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<v Speaker 1>yield savings accounts.

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<v Speaker 2>I do, and I'm you know, I had to actually

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<v Speaker 2>pay a lot of taxes because I took money out

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<v Speaker 2>of an IRA and that I was completely oblivious to

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<v Speaker 2>the fact that you can't do that. And I was like, crap,

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<v Speaker 2>So no, not.

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<v Speaker 1>IRN, not an IRA, A high yield savings account. God,

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<v Speaker 1>this is exciting banter.

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<v Speaker 2>A high yield we can talk about something different.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, it's not yours, although that's not it's not your fault.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm just I'm just snarking it up.

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<v Speaker 3>Uh No, I don't have a high yield savings account.

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<v Speaker 2>Unfortunately.

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<v Speaker 1>Anyway, what did you graduate with?

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<v Speaker 4>So?

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<v Speaker 2>I graduated with a degree in ecology and evolutionary biology.

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<v Speaker 1>That sounds real. How come you can get a job

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<v Speaker 1>with that? You know what is annoying?

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<v Speaker 2>Job?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, you have a job. You have a job. You

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<v Speaker 1>have a job. I was about to say, if you

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<v Speaker 1>you're a v you're a V tuber?

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<v Speaker 2>No, no, no, I'm a zoo keeper.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh I thought you were a v tuber.

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<v Speaker 2>I was like, all right, no, that would be worse.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh god, I probably actually would make more money doing that, honestly.

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<v Speaker 1>I here's the thing is, if you graduate with something real,

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<v Speaker 1>you deserve to make some amount of money. Like if

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<v Speaker 1>you went if you go to school for like English

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<v Speaker 1>or film or like theater arts. You know, it's if

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<v Speaker 1>you and you have no money that makes sense. But

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<v Speaker 1>if you if you went to it for like biology

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<v Speaker 1>or chemistry or something, they should give you some money.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I mean the unfortunately thaying you know, I wanted

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<v Speaker 2>to be a zoo keeper, and I wanted to work

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<v Speaker 2>with idotic cannibals, and you know, I've done that, and

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<v Speaker 2>I love my job. And there's a passion tax. You know.

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<v Speaker 2>I've heard other people that called in before I talk

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<v Speaker 2>about this. But you know, you get the job you

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<v Speaker 2>love after college, and then you're kind of paying the

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<v Speaker 2>unfortunate I guess, yeah, passion tax, and that you're not making,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, necessarily the wage you should make, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>but the price you pay is that you go into

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<v Speaker 2>work every day enjoying what you do.

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<v Speaker 1>You keep a zoo, I do I do.

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<v Speaker 2>For the sake of anonymity. I won't say what zoo,

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<v Speaker 2>but it is an azy a zoo. And yeah, I

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<v Speaker 2>take care of rhinos and giraffes and africans of stock.

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<v Speaker 1>What's an asy a zoo?

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<v Speaker 5>So asy a.

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<v Speaker 2>That's it's the Association of Using Aquariums. So that's like

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<v Speaker 2>the highest, uh kind of governing body of animals and captivities.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh so you work at like a major zoo.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah yeah, dude, hell yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you like because zoos are interesting because they're like

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<v Speaker 1>half like entertainment tourist attraction and half educational center.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah yeah, And so I like initially wanted to get

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<v Speaker 2>into this for the sake of conservation, and you know,

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<v Speaker 2>saving species out in the wild. So a lot of

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<v Speaker 2>like what we do in captivity translates to what they're

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<v Speaker 2>doing for research and conservation stuff out in the wild.

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<v Speaker 2>So I feel good about that.

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<v Speaker 6>But yeah, it's nice.

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<v Speaker 2>I also like getting to interact with the guests like

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<v Speaker 2>day to day and like educating people. That's a funny

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<v Speaker 2>part of my job.

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<v Speaker 1>Now, what's your favorite animal at the zoo?

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<v Speaker 2>I do love the rhinos. I can't lie. I'm a

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<v Speaker 2>rhino girl.

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<v Speaker 1>What is it about the rhinos?

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<v Speaker 2>They're kind of just like big horses. They're super for

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<v Speaker 2>like gentle, they love getting scripted, they train really well,

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<v Speaker 2>and the crash that we have are just a munch

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<v Speaker 2>of super sweet older folks and yeah, they're they're really

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<v Speaker 2>good kids. I love them a lot.

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<v Speaker 6>M m.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>But now, okay, so if you're not making that much money, now,

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<v Speaker 1>is there like, uh, what's the career trajectory in zoom keeping?

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<v Speaker 1>Can you over the years? Is it like a long

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<v Speaker 1>term career field?

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<v Speaker 2>That's just the thing. It's like a lot of the

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<v Speaker 2>people in my position have been in the field for

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<v Speaker 2>fifteen years or so, and it's like kind of they're

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<v Speaker 2>still kind of in the same position so unfortunate that

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<v Speaker 2>I'm a younger keeper that I've gotten the privilege to

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<v Speaker 2>kind of move pretty quickly ahead in their career as

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<v Speaker 2>opposed to some other people. But I think I'm as

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<v Speaker 2>of like seeing like, oh God, I don't know if

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<v Speaker 2>I can, you know, do this forever. As as happy

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<v Speaker 2>as I am, I don't think it's like viable, But

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<v Speaker 2>I think afterwards I probably want to do something with

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<v Speaker 2>like USCA or like US Fish and Wildlife. I think

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<v Speaker 2>that would be a probably a little bit more of

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<v Speaker 2>a solid long term career plan. But yeah, for now,

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<v Speaker 2>it's it's fun getting to interact with all these animals

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<v Speaker 2>every day and train them and you know, be part

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<v Speaker 2>of their lives.

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<v Speaker 1>What's going on in uh US fish and Wildlife are they?

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<v Speaker 1>Is that? Like you're do you work for the governments?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you go fishing? What do you do?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, Honestly, I'm not like totally sure. I'm not totally

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<v Speaker 2>well versed in that career. I don't know many people,

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<v Speaker 2>if any, like that are part of it. But yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>it is part of the government. So those are the

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<v Speaker 2>people that kind of enforce like fishing allotments, stand force

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<v Speaker 2>like hunting laws and that kind of thing, which you know,

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<v Speaker 2>I didn't grow a cohunting or anything, but you know,

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<v Speaker 2>I think it's for the sake of conservation of like

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<v Speaker 2>you know, the United States sparks and wildlife, so you

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<v Speaker 2>know it's a good cause. But as of recently, you

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<v Speaker 2>know the recent trunk stuff. You know, a lot of

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<v Speaker 2>these governments have got those agencies, uh have just gotten

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<v Speaker 2>their budget slash. So you know, we'll see in a

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<v Speaker 2>few years you know, what the status of hiring for

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<v Speaker 2>those agencies looks like. But I would be interested in

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<v Speaker 2>working for those I think that's a good noble cause.

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<v Speaker 1>What's an animal one world? What's an animal that most

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<v Speaker 1>people don't know about? Like everyone knows about monkeys and giraffes,

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<v Speaker 1>stuff like that. But what give us an animal where

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<v Speaker 1>it's like I didn't even know. I thought, I give

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<v Speaker 1>us an animal that'll make a think the animals.

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<v Speaker 2>That's a super good question. Let me think. Okay, I'll

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<v Speaker 2>give you guys one animal that I'm about to get

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<v Speaker 2>on grounds at my VIOO. It's called a diker. It's

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<v Speaker 2>the d u I K E R. And there are antelope,

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<v Speaker 2>yeah dyker, so yellow backed diker is one of those animals.

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<v Speaker 2>They're really neat. They're kind of like little forest antelope

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<v Speaker 2>that are just kind of strange. I recommend looking it up.

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<v Speaker 1>And now what do they eat?

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<v Speaker 2>And so you all sorts of brows, which is like

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<v Speaker 2>trees and all these all sorts of vegs kind of

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<v Speaker 2>similar to like a what a goat would eat you know,

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<v Speaker 2>mm hm. But they're they're kind of neat.

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<v Speaker 1>Look do they get by? Do they get eaten by anything?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, so they can get eaten by like leopards. That's

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<v Speaker 2>probably the most common thing. Earlier today I was doing

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<v Speaker 2>exams on sable antelope. Those guys are pretty neat or

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<v Speaker 2>my favorite, like weird marsupial is a water apossum. I've

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<v Speaker 2>looked those up. They're pretty neat.

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<v Speaker 1>Would you rather have? All right, you can have a

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<v Speaker 1>million dollars, but all dikers have to die? What would

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<v Speaker 1>you have if you do? No?

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<v Speaker 2>I would not take my million dollars. The dikers can live.

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<v Speaker 1>What what about like? Uh, what about like a species

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<v Speaker 1>of bug? Like something no one cares about? Like you like, like,

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<v Speaker 1>is there any species of bug that you would eradicate

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<v Speaker 1>from the world and you get a million dollars?

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<v Speaker 2>It's just super like simple answer, But mosquitoes can go.

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<v Speaker 2>They don't serve any like ecological purpose. They're pretty they're

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<v Speaker 2>pretty crappy. Bug.

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<v Speaker 1>Now, I now I'm going to fight you on this.

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<v Speaker 1>What is what does it mean to serve an ecological purpose?

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<v Speaker 1>Because fucking doesn't doesn't simply existing cause an ecological purpose.

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<v Speaker 2>That's a fair point. Yeah, I mean, I will say

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<v Speaker 2>ecological purpose in the form I guess in terms of insects.

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<v Speaker 2>That could be like digesting bacteria like the tritis, anything

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<v Speaker 2>like that. Insects are pretty important in our world. But

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<v Speaker 2>mosquitos genuinely don't serve any benefit. They don't enrich any

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<v Speaker 2>of the the water supply. They aren't pollenizer pollinators, excuse me,

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<v Speaker 2>like as an insect, they aren't really helping plants or

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<v Speaker 2>animals in any way. They're just kind of vectors for disease.

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<v Speaker 1>So you'd get rid of all of them for a

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<v Speaker 1>million dollars, I would.

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<v Speaker 2>There are people trying to figure out how to do

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<v Speaker 2>that already. But yeah, I think they're it's kind of

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<v Speaker 2>a a easy answer.

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<v Speaker 1>But yeah, I don't, I don't, I don't. I don't

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<v Speaker 1>judge on this show, but I think that's pretty fucked up.

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<v Speaker 1>What's your name again, Shrimp? Shrimp, Shrimp? Is there anything

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<v Speaker 1>else you want to say to the people of the

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<v Speaker 1>computer before we go?

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<v Speaker 2>It costs your dollars to be kind? Just be nice

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<v Speaker 2>to people.

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<v Speaker 1>What if somebody asks you for what? Hold on? Hold on?

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<v Speaker 1>Hold on? There have been many times where somebody asks

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<v Speaker 1>me for a dollar and it would be nicer to

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<v Speaker 1>give them the dollar, And sometimes I do. Sometimes I don't,

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<v Speaker 1>but sometimes I do. But that in that situation, it

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<v Speaker 1>doesn't cost zero dollars to be kind.

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<v Speaker 2>I guess that's fair.

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<v Speaker 1>Fine, So it costs, but there are I would rephrase

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<v Speaker 1>what you said. I would say it costs zero dollars

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<v Speaker 1>to be kind in certain situations, and in other situations

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<v Speaker 1>it will cost more money.

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<v Speaker 2>That's a that's a fair point. I did get heckled

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<v Speaker 2>by a musician holding a bucket recently for a dollar,

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<v Speaker 2>and I digital kinds by giving him a dollar. And

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<v Speaker 2>I guess that wasn't free.

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<v Speaker 1>So you're right, Thank you, shrimp.

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<v Speaker 2>You're welcome, lyle, Thank you.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm trying to think of more. Uh, what when else

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<v Speaker 1>does it cost of Christmas? If you've given people Christmas presents,

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<v Speaker 1>that's nice. That costs money. Yeah, there's no there's a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of ways we're being kind costs money. I'm trying

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<v Speaker 1>to go more. It's like most ways of being kind,

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<v Speaker 1>like the ways that if the ways of being kind

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<v Speaker 1>that don't cost money are kind of bullshit, Like holding

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<v Speaker 1>a door open for someone that doesn't cost any money,

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<v Speaker 1>but nobody's actually, nobody's life is genuinely positively impacted that

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<v Speaker 1>much by someone holding a door open for them. So

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<v Speaker 1>if you want to be really kind to somebody, give

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<v Speaker 1>them three thousand dollars, they will that will impact their

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<v Speaker 1>life and give them joy, but it won't be free

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<v Speaker 1>for you. Lyle, Hey, Hi, who are you? Who are you?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah? My name is Jay. How are you?

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<v Speaker 1>Jay? How am I? I'm actually doing all right today.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like actually I feel pretty stable. I feel

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<v Speaker 1>pretty normal. I feel safe. Do you feel safe?

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<v Speaker 5>I do feel safe. I'm at home with my wife

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<v Speaker 5>and children, and yeah, I feel I feel pretty safe. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>How long have you had a wife and child?

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<v Speaker 5>Well, I've been married for about five years and we

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<v Speaker 5>just had our third kid on the twelfth of last month.

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<v Speaker 1>Three children. Let me ask you some is there anything

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<v Speaker 1>like what how old were you when you how old

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<v Speaker 1>were you when you had your first kid.

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<v Speaker 5>I was twenty four, about to turn twenty five.

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<v Speaker 1>Wow, okay, is your how significantly different is your life

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<v Speaker 1>before you had kids to after?

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<v Speaker 5>Hmmm? I would I would say it's been a very

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<v Speaker 5>post positive change. Before I had kids, I was just

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<v Speaker 5>kind of running the mut and doing a bunch of

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<v Speaker 5>drugs and not really caring. And now that I have kids,

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<v Speaker 5>I'm stable and work a lot and have responsibility and

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<v Speaker 5>I take that very seriously. So yeah, I would say

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<v Speaker 5>it's pretty significant change.

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<v Speaker 1>What kind of drugs were you doing?

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<v Speaker 5>Oh man, a lot. I was drinking, smoking weed, snorting demali, cocaine, LSD, mushrooms. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 5>just parting it up, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>And have you completely utterly ceased the drug use since

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<v Speaker 1>you had your first kid or have you found some time?

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<v Speaker 5>You know?

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<v Speaker 1>Look, you don't want to be a piece of shit

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<v Speaker 1>alcohol like that, but do you are you ever like, hey, honey,

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<v Speaker 1>can you watch the kids for a weekend so I

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<v Speaker 1>can do a bunch of drugs?

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<v Speaker 5>Definitely not. You know I stopped smoking weed about a

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<v Speaker 5>year ago. Well, I can't say completely. I've smoked about

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<v Speaker 5>four times since last March, and I drink pretty regularly.

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<v Speaker 5>But nothing crazy. I'll drink you know, maybe four beers

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<v Speaker 5>four to six beers a couple of times a night,

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<v Speaker 5>I mean a couple of times weekly, so you know,

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<v Speaker 5>nothing significant. But I just want to say really quick,

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<v Speaker 5>holy shit, I am talking to lyle I. Bro. I

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<v Speaker 5>was just watching you on YouTube and talking to my

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<v Speaker 5>wife because I've been listening to you for like five years,

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<v Speaker 5>and then I saw that you were alive and I

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<v Speaker 5>called you, and Bro, I cannot believe I am actually

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<v Speaker 5>talking to you right now. I have called you probably

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<v Speaker 5>over five hundred times away of the years.

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<v Speaker 1>Wow, this is just awesome, dude. Thanks man.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, Bro, I enjoy your content. I love watching your

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<v Speaker 5>YouTube videos. I listened to you at work all the time.

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<v Speaker 5>I listened to your podcast daily. I just want to

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<v Speaker 5>say that I just like, Bro, this is awesome. Like

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<v Speaker 5>I can't believe I got connected to you.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you. That makes me. That makes me feel really nice.

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<v Speaker 1>I always, yeah, I get in my head all the

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<v Speaker 1>time about like, oh, I don't know if people still

0:19:32.560 --> 0:19:35.760
<v Speaker 1>listen to this show. I've been thinking about that, uh

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<v Speaker 1>the entire time I've been doing it, even like I've

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<v Speaker 1>six months in. I was like, I don't know how

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<v Speaker 1>long this journey is gonna last. So to have someone

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<v Speaker 1>listening for five years is very very nice. I appreciate that.

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<v Speaker 1>What did you say your name is? Did I get

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<v Speaker 1>your name?

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<v Speaker 3>Uh?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, let's just say my name is Jay Jay?

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<v Speaker 1>All right? Well interesting, Okay, So I have a lot

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<v Speaker 1>of things about your life that I'm generally curious about.

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<v Speaker 1>But if you've listened to the show for so long,

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<v Speaker 1>I have to ask, is there anything that you always,

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<v Speaker 1>as you've listened, thought that you might want to talk

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<v Speaker 1>about when you got the chance to talk.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, definitely, Yeah, definitely. And I think talking about my

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<v Speaker 5>life now was a good preface to what I would

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<v Speaker 5>want to discuss if you would like to talk about it.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, hit me.

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<v Speaker 5>All right? Well, man, when I was fifteen, you know,

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<v Speaker 5>I grew up in a pretty abusive household, both with

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<v Speaker 5>my stepdad. My mom she wasn't too bad, but my

0:20:45.280 --> 0:20:48.040
<v Speaker 5>stepdad was pretty bad and my dad was pretty bad.

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<v Speaker 5>And I ran away from my mom's house and I

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<v Speaker 5>was on the run for man, I don't know, like

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<v Speaker 5>three months. I stopped going to school and when when

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<v Speaker 5>they found me, they put me into like this. Uh man,

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<v Speaker 5>I'm not sure what to call it. I would say

0:21:10.880 --> 0:21:14.639
<v Speaker 5>it was like kind of a holding stage where I

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<v Speaker 5>was there with a bunch of other kids, and man,

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<v Speaker 5>it was kind of like a like a juvenile pod, right,

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<v Speaker 5>but it wasn't like jail, like they couldn't touch you.

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<v Speaker 5>You could leave. So I ended up doing that. So

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<v Speaker 5>I'm in Utah and at that point I ended up

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<v Speaker 5>in Salt Lake with this kid I had met at

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<v Speaker 5>that at that center, and uh, we ran away. It

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<v Speaker 5>was like man nine or ten at night, and we

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<v Speaker 5>hopped on the tracks which connects like the the Wahsatch Front,

0:21:55.440 --> 0:21:58.280
<v Speaker 5>which is just the mountain range. So we hopped on

0:21:58.320 --> 0:22:01.800
<v Speaker 5>the tracks and we rode out to Salt Lake, hoping

0:22:01.880 --> 0:22:04.239
<v Speaker 5>that no one would try to check our tickets, and

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<v Speaker 5>no one did. And then we got off in Salt Lake

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<v Speaker 5>in the Rose Park area and we just kind of

0:22:11.880 --> 0:22:14.280
<v Speaker 5>walked around and we were just like, man, we should

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<v Speaker 5>get some weed. Like, let's try to find some weed.

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<v Speaker 5>So we ended up at the seven to eleven. We

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<v Speaker 5>met this homeless guy and he was like, yeah, come

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<v Speaker 5>back and we could smoke weeds. So he had like

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<v Speaker 5>this little stack sort of set up behind like this

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<v Speaker 5>car wash, So we smoked some weed with him. We

0:22:36.640 --> 0:22:39.480
<v Speaker 5>spent the night and he was like, yeah, you can

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<v Speaker 5>come back if you don't have a place to stay,

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<v Speaker 5>you know. And he wasn't like weird or anything like.

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<v Speaker 5>He was just you know, helping us out really and

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<v Speaker 5>they we were like okay. So the next day we

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<v Speaker 5>came back towards the end of the night and he

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<v Speaker 5>ended up getting like some meth. So I'm fifteen away

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<v Speaker 5>from this place, I'm on the run again, and we

0:23:03.720 --> 0:23:14.200
<v Speaker 5>smoked math all night and so like, man, I remember

0:23:14.359 --> 0:23:16.280
<v Speaker 5>I had checked the time and I was like, what

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<v Speaker 5>time is it and it was like, you know, nine

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<v Speaker 5>am or something, and I was like, holy crap, Like

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<v Speaker 5>we were up all night, bro, And I was just wandering,

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<v Speaker 5>like I don't I think it was like West Valley

0:23:26.680 --> 0:23:28.639
<v Speaker 5>at that point. I don't even know where I was.

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<v Speaker 5>A cop ended up picking me up. I turned sixteen

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<v Speaker 5>in juvenile detention and spent a year in a boys

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<v Speaker 5>home and yeah, bro, just an absolutely insane time.

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<v Speaker 1>And how what that was? That was over the course

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<v Speaker 1>of three months.

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<v Speaker 5>Well not the whole thing. So, like I said, I

0:23:58.320 --> 0:24:02.679
<v Speaker 5>ran away when I was fifteen, and like, I was

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<v Speaker 5>on the run for three months then they found me.

0:24:04.920 --> 0:24:06.480
<v Speaker 5>I was in that place for like a week or

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<v Speaker 5>two before me and this kid decided to run away,

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<v Speaker 5>and I would say I was on the run at

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<v Speaker 5>that point for another I don't know, a couple of weeks,

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<v Speaker 5>maybe a month, and then, like I said, I got

0:24:19.240 --> 0:24:21.480
<v Speaker 5>picked up by a cop. He realized who I was.

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<v Speaker 5>He put me in this like like this kid's home

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<v Speaker 5>again when they were gonna transport me up back. So

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<v Speaker 5>I spent a couple I think it was like a

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<v Speaker 5>month in Juvie, like I said, I spent I turned

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<v Speaker 5>sixteen in Juvie. And then they were trying to find

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<v Speaker 5>like a rehab center for me, and so I spent

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<v Speaker 5>a year in that boy's home in like the middle

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<v Speaker 5>of Utah because I was considered a flight risk, so

0:24:55.840 --> 0:24:58.000
<v Speaker 5>it was in the middle of nowhere, so there was

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<v Speaker 5>nowhere to go. And yeah, then I completed that successfully

0:25:05.000 --> 0:25:08.240
<v Speaker 5>and my life just continued to move forward.

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<v Speaker 2>M M.

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<v Speaker 1>And did you end up going to college after this

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<v Speaker 1>or did you? Did you graduate high school?

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<v Speaker 5>So I didn't graduate per se because no one would

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<v Speaker 5>let me in. I ended up getting my ged and

0:25:24.920 --> 0:25:29.879
<v Speaker 5>right now I am trying to complete my bachelor's What

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<v Speaker 5>do you do for what I've been going So I

0:25:33.480 --> 0:25:37.800
<v Speaker 5>worked for a landscaping company, so I do like a

0:25:37.880 --> 0:25:41.640
<v Speaker 5>multitude of things there. I do like the fertilizing part

0:25:41.640 --> 0:25:45.640
<v Speaker 5>of it. And then also over the winter when it's

0:25:45.800 --> 0:25:50.120
<v Speaker 5>less busy, I'm pretty tech savvy. I built them a website,

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<v Speaker 5>and like I said, I'm going to college and I'm

0:25:52.920 --> 0:26:00.480
<v Speaker 5>trying to pursue pursue a marketing degree. So right now

0:26:00.480 --> 0:26:03.199
<v Speaker 5>I'm helping them with marketing, and over the winter, I

0:26:03.240 --> 0:26:06.160
<v Speaker 5>help them with marketing. I do like social media posts

0:26:06.240 --> 0:26:09.760
<v Speaker 5>and Google ads and yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>So, and what's the story of how you Is it

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<v Speaker 1>your your wife right now? Is this the mother of

0:26:20.480 --> 0:26:21.399
<v Speaker 1>all three of your kids?

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<v Speaker 5>Yep, yep, you married for five years.

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<v Speaker 1>What's the story of how you met her?

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<v Speaker 5>So we met on Facebook dating out of all of

0:26:33.560 --> 0:26:39.000
<v Speaker 5>the things, and so she was about an hour away,

0:26:39.440 --> 0:26:43.359
<v Speaker 5>and I went up and we kind of hit it off,

0:26:43.440 --> 0:26:49.000
<v Speaker 5>and then we kept talking. And yeah, that's been the

0:26:49.000 --> 0:26:54.840
<v Speaker 5>story ever since. We met the summer of twenty twenty

0:26:55.560 --> 0:27:00.960
<v Speaker 5>and we had our first go ahead, go ahead, sorry,

0:27:01.880 --> 0:27:03.159
<v Speaker 5>oh yeah, I was just gonna say we met the

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<v Speaker 5>summer of twenty twenty, and we had our daughter the

0:27:07.200 --> 0:27:08.280
<v Speaker 5>summer of twenty.

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<v Speaker 1>One, and no drugs you said, we're totally done with

0:27:14.280 --> 0:27:14.960
<v Speaker 1>drugs now.

0:27:17.119 --> 0:27:22.520
<v Speaker 5>Oh yeah, yeah, like I said, since last March, I

0:27:22.640 --> 0:27:27.719
<v Speaker 5>quote unquote, I guess have quit weed, but I've smoked

0:27:27.720 --> 0:27:31.760
<v Speaker 5>four times in the past year. But like I said,

0:27:31.320 --> 0:27:35.520
<v Speaker 5>I drink beer. But yeah, I don't do anything anymore.

0:27:36.600 --> 0:27:40.920
<v Speaker 5>I take the responsibility of being a dad very seriously,

0:27:41.000 --> 0:27:45.280
<v Speaker 5>and I bust my ass at work and try to

0:27:45.320 --> 0:27:50.920
<v Speaker 5>get over time. And yeah, no drugs, man, no drugs.

0:27:50.960 --> 0:27:55.200
<v Speaker 5>I take the responsibility of providing for my children very seriously.

0:27:56.400 --> 0:28:00.000
<v Speaker 1>How is how is that responsibility going for you?

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<v Speaker 5>Are you?

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<v Speaker 1>Are you enjoying it? Are you feeling fulfilled and happy

0:28:04.040 --> 0:28:07.320
<v Speaker 1>and safe and all those good things?

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<v Speaker 5>Man? I mean, don't get me wrong, I am fulfilled.

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<v Speaker 5>It's just a lot, especially you know, I have a

0:28:19.720 --> 0:28:23.800
<v Speaker 5>four four year old, a two year old and a

0:28:23.880 --> 0:28:32.199
<v Speaker 5>one month old, and it's it's like a circus. I

0:28:32.240 --> 0:28:35.960
<v Speaker 5>love them a lot. It's just sometimes it's very stressful

0:28:37.520 --> 0:28:42.240
<v Speaker 5>and and I don't I don't, I don't know how

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<v Speaker 5>to express those feelings. It's like I am, I'm definitely fulfilled.

0:28:46.800 --> 0:28:52.840
<v Speaker 5>I love them a lot. Sometimes though I wish we

0:28:52.880 --> 0:28:55.800
<v Speaker 5>would have waited until we were a little more stable.

0:28:56.080 --> 0:28:59.080
<v Speaker 5>And it's not like we're not stable. You know, my

0:28:59.120 --> 0:29:03.760
<v Speaker 5>wife and I we both work and we have a

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<v Speaker 5>decent sized apartment, and but it's definitely a lot. You know,

0:29:12.760 --> 0:29:15.200
<v Speaker 5>I'm gonna turn twenty nine in a couple of months,

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<v Speaker 5>and it's definitely a lot right now. You know, like

0:29:19.520 --> 0:29:26.560
<v Speaker 5>people at work they're eight six years older and they

0:29:26.600 --> 0:29:30.000
<v Speaker 5>don't have three kids, And I don't know. Sometimes I'm

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<v Speaker 5>just like, man, what would it be like if we

0:29:33.320 --> 0:29:37.320
<v Speaker 5>weren't so financially stressed, you know what I mean. So,

0:29:38.000 --> 0:29:42.880
<v Speaker 5>but I definitely enjoy being a parent. Bro. I love

0:29:42.920 --> 0:29:45.200
<v Speaker 5>them so much and they make me so happy, and

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<v Speaker 5>but it's definitely very stressful to try to make everything work,

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<v Speaker 5>you know, rent and food and diapers and wipes and

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<v Speaker 5>you know, blah blah blah blah blah.

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<v Speaker 1>So but I bet it makes you. My understanding of

0:30:04.640 --> 0:30:07.720
<v Speaker 1>it is that it puts you very much like in life.

0:30:08.320 --> 0:30:11.200
<v Speaker 1>You know, there's not a lot of time to you know,

0:30:11.480 --> 0:30:15.080
<v Speaker 1>fritter away thinking about bullshit when you have, you know,

0:30:15.240 --> 0:30:16.640
<v Speaker 1>all that responsibility.

0:30:18.680 --> 0:30:21.640
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, definitely, Like I said, I work full time, and

0:30:21.720 --> 0:30:24.240
<v Speaker 5>you know, I come home and my wife works nice

0:30:24.360 --> 0:30:29.520
<v Speaker 5>because child cares insanely expensive, and so I come home

0:30:29.560 --> 0:30:32.440
<v Speaker 5>and she leaves and I take care of them, and

0:30:32.480 --> 0:30:36.000
<v Speaker 5>when I put them to bed, I do school. I'm

0:30:36.000 --> 0:30:41.240
<v Speaker 5>in school full time. It's all online. Yeah, there's not

0:30:41.280 --> 0:30:45.640
<v Speaker 5>a lot of time to to worry about bullshit. I

0:30:45.680 --> 0:30:48.360
<v Speaker 5>guess you just got to do it. And I know

0:30:48.520 --> 0:30:51.640
<v Speaker 5>at a certain point in my life financial stress will

0:30:51.640 --> 0:30:55.280
<v Speaker 5>go away. My wife. My wife wants to do school

0:30:55.280 --> 0:30:58.600
<v Speaker 5>and I'm currently doing my school, and you know, hopefully

0:31:00.120 --> 0:31:02.400
<v Speaker 5>it will all pay off in a couple of years,

0:31:02.480 --> 0:31:06.840
<v Speaker 5>will be finding like financially stable for once in our life,

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<v Speaker 5>and everything will just kind of be smooth sailing. That's

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<v Speaker 5>the hope and the dream of of course.

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<v Speaker 1>What is your name again? I know you've made one

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<v Speaker 1>up for me.

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<v Speaker 5>Oh it's Jay. Jay.

0:31:24.960 --> 0:31:29.800
<v Speaker 1>Well, thanks for sharing your life story. Jay is interesting. Yeah,

0:31:29.800 --> 0:31:32.800
<v Speaker 1>I've been thinking a lot about like, uh, like kids

0:31:32.800 --> 0:31:35.880
<v Speaker 1>and what life with kids would would look like. So

0:31:35.920 --> 0:31:39.440
<v Speaker 1>it's definitely a subject that I'm quite fascinated in. But

0:31:39.480 --> 0:31:43.480
<v Speaker 1>it seems across the board the people that I've talked

0:31:43.520 --> 0:31:47.200
<v Speaker 1>to about it feel as though the responsibility that it

0:31:47.200 --> 0:31:51.240
<v Speaker 1>gives them is like a good thing, uh and makes them,

0:31:51.360 --> 0:31:55.520
<v Speaker 1>you know, feel fulfilled and nice. So I appreciate you

0:31:55.560 --> 0:31:58.920
<v Speaker 1>giving giving us your perspective on on how it's a

0:31:59.000 --> 0:31:59.600
<v Speaker 1>role in your life.

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<v Speaker 5>Man, can I can I ask you a question?

0:32:02.960 --> 0:32:03.200
<v Speaker 4>Lyle?

0:32:03.440 --> 0:32:04.720
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, go ahead and hit me.

0:32:05.440 --> 0:32:07.560
<v Speaker 5>Like I said, I've listened to you forever, and I

0:32:07.600 --> 0:32:10.040
<v Speaker 5>listened to like I listened to your podcast today and

0:32:10.200 --> 0:32:13.600
<v Speaker 5>just like five minutes ago, I was watching you on YouTube.

0:32:13.960 --> 0:32:16.320
<v Speaker 5>Do you have someone special in your life? Like, I

0:32:16.600 --> 0:32:18.640
<v Speaker 5>don't hear anyone really asking about you.

0:32:19.720 --> 0:32:22.520
<v Speaker 1>People ask about me. People do ask about me.

0:32:23.920 --> 0:32:25.160
<v Speaker 5>Not very often though.

0:32:25.760 --> 0:32:28.680
<v Speaker 1>You look just at the beginning, Look at the beginning

0:32:28.720 --> 0:32:30.280
<v Speaker 1>of this call, you asked me how I was doing.

0:32:30.520 --> 0:32:32.040
<v Speaker 1>That Was that was asking about me?

0:32:33.360 --> 0:32:36.840
<v Speaker 5>Right? I? Yeah, I guess that was.

0:32:36.840 --> 0:32:41.240
<v Speaker 1>Asking about me. I feel like I volunteer a decent

0:32:41.320 --> 0:32:45.080
<v Speaker 1>amount of maybe of I guess I volunteer a decent

0:32:45.120 --> 0:32:52.240
<v Speaker 1>amount of I guess emotional information, uh like, less logistical information.

0:32:53.280 --> 0:32:57.200
<v Speaker 1>But I'm not married. If that's what you're asking.

0:32:59.200 --> 0:33:02.000
<v Speaker 5>No, that's not I would. Do you have anyone special

0:33:02.040 --> 0:33:02.600
<v Speaker 5>in your life?

0:33:02.960 --> 0:33:06.680
<v Speaker 1>Do I have anything that maybe that maybe.

0:33:06.200 --> 0:33:09.120
<v Speaker 5>You feel like, yeah, I could have kids, Yeah, I

0:33:09.160 --> 0:33:12.320
<v Speaker 5>could spend forever with this person person.

0:33:12.720 --> 0:33:17.800
<v Speaker 1>No, I don't have anyone in my life that I'm

0:33:18.360 --> 0:33:24.040
<v Speaker 1>at this moment, like ready to spend forever with.

0:33:25.680 --> 0:33:26.600
<v Speaker 5>Right, right.

0:33:28.120 --> 0:33:33.120
<v Speaker 1>That being being I think being married and having children

0:33:33.760 --> 0:33:37.280
<v Speaker 1>would be nice, but I also feel it's something I

0:33:37.280 --> 0:33:40.040
<v Speaker 1>would definitely like to do in my lifetime.

0:33:42.080 --> 0:33:45.480
<v Speaker 5>But I could see you being a great parent, just

0:33:46.560 --> 0:33:52.320
<v Speaker 5>like like I don't know, like just listening to you

0:33:52.360 --> 0:33:54.400
<v Speaker 5>and watching you all these years, like I feel like

0:33:55.080 --> 0:33:58.120
<v Speaker 5>I know you in a sense even though we've never met, right,

0:33:58.560 --> 0:34:02.400
<v Speaker 5>And I feel like you would be a very good parent,

0:34:02.680 --> 0:34:07.560
<v Speaker 5>Like you're just like calm, collective, and I don't know,

0:34:07.600 --> 0:34:10.160
<v Speaker 5>some of the insights you have have really helped you

0:34:10.200 --> 0:34:12.680
<v Speaker 5>know in my life and them, I feel like you'd

0:34:12.719 --> 0:34:14.640
<v Speaker 5>be a good parent, Lyle, I feel like you'd be

0:34:14.680 --> 0:34:15.520
<v Speaker 5>a big ass dad.

0:34:15.880 --> 0:34:18.200
<v Speaker 1>You want to fucking be my son, I'll adopt you.

0:34:21.200 --> 0:34:22.840
<v Speaker 5>Hell yeah, even though I'm older than you.

0:34:22.960 --> 0:34:25.319
<v Speaker 1>Hell yeah, I'll be your son. I'll be your I'll

0:34:25.320 --> 0:34:28.000
<v Speaker 1>be your son. You can be my son, and I'll

0:34:28.000 --> 0:34:31.080
<v Speaker 1>be I'll be your father, and h your children. Your

0:34:31.120 --> 0:34:35.719
<v Speaker 1>children could be my grandchildren and and that way, and

0:34:35.760 --> 0:34:37.880
<v Speaker 1>then you can see. Then you can see for yourself

0:34:37.920 --> 0:34:42.360
<v Speaker 1>whether or not I would be a good father. You

0:34:42.400 --> 0:34:46.480
<v Speaker 1>can see for yourself. I'll feed you, I'll uh what

0:34:47.080 --> 0:34:51.280
<v Speaker 1>I'll change your diaper. I'll do it all. You'll be like, dude,

0:34:51.280 --> 0:34:54.440
<v Speaker 1>I'll be literally you'll be spade out on a table

0:34:55.040 --> 0:34:57.279
<v Speaker 1>and you can take a ship in your underwear and

0:34:57.320 --> 0:34:59.520
<v Speaker 1>I'll change them and you could be like I was right, dude,

0:34:59.520 --> 0:35:00.759
<v Speaker 1>Liles of gre are you fucking dead?

0:35:03.000 --> 0:35:05.160
<v Speaker 5>I don't think you want to see that, but hey,

0:35:05.360 --> 0:35:07.279
<v Speaker 5>if you want to go that route, let's do it.

0:35:07.320 --> 0:35:10.640
<v Speaker 1>Bro, what's your day? Is there anything else you want

0:35:10.680 --> 0:35:12.640
<v Speaker 1>to say to thee I'm sorry I forgot the fake

0:35:12.680 --> 0:35:14.239
<v Speaker 1>name that you gave me again, but I'm bad with it.

0:35:14.320 --> 0:35:15.319
<v Speaker 1>Is there anything else you want to say to the

0:35:15.320 --> 0:35:16.560
<v Speaker 1>people of the computer Before we go?

0:35:18.920 --> 0:35:22.759
<v Speaker 5>I just want to say, like, this is awesome. I

0:35:22.760 --> 0:35:26.440
<v Speaker 5>didn't expect to get through. I really enjoyed talking to you,

0:35:28.719 --> 0:35:30.839
<v Speaker 5>and I hope you keep doing this podcast. I know

0:35:30.880 --> 0:35:33.480
<v Speaker 5>you have you know your own doubts as a human,

0:35:33.680 --> 0:35:39.200
<v Speaker 5>but Bro, just keep pushing forward. And like I I

0:35:39.520 --> 0:35:41.839
<v Speaker 5>every every day when I get to work, I look

0:35:41.880 --> 0:35:44.400
<v Speaker 5>on Spotify and see if a new podcast came out,

0:35:44.440 --> 0:35:46.200
<v Speaker 5>and if it does, You're the first thing I listened

0:35:46.200 --> 0:35:48.399
<v Speaker 5>to in the morning. So just just keep pushing. Bro.

0:35:48.800 --> 0:35:50.520
<v Speaker 1>Hey, thanks for having me in your ears. Man, I

0:35:50.560 --> 0:35:53.920
<v Speaker 1>really appreciate it. I'll I'll keep seeing you around the

0:35:54.000 --> 0:35:57.719
<v Speaker 1>universe of the computer, my friends. And congratulations on your

0:35:57.719 --> 0:35:58.759
<v Speaker 1>beautiful life.

0:36:00.520 --> 0:36:03.120
<v Speaker 5>You know what. Congratulations on your beautiful life as well. Le.

0:36:03.440 --> 0:36:08.840
<v Speaker 1>Thank you, buddy. Hey, take care man, you too. That

0:36:08.920 --> 0:36:11.200
<v Speaker 1>was a sweet guy. That was a nice guy. That's

0:36:11.200 --> 0:36:16.080
<v Speaker 1>gonna be my son one day. I respect, respect having

0:36:16.160 --> 0:36:23.320
<v Speaker 1>the responsibility to have kids. Do I have somebody special

0:36:23.360 --> 0:36:23.920
<v Speaker 1>in my life?

0:36:27.480 --> 0:36:27.799
<v Speaker 4>You know?

0:36:28.280 --> 0:36:36.120
<v Speaker 1>I am? You know? Nah, you know whatever. All right,

0:36:36.440 --> 0:36:39.799
<v Speaker 1>let's keep going. Hi.

0:36:39.880 --> 0:36:41.800
<v Speaker 4>What's your name, Darren?

0:36:43.160 --> 0:36:45.320
<v Speaker 1>Darren? What's up? Darren?

0:36:46.840 --> 0:36:50.319
<v Speaker 4>Isn't that much bro, It's a cloudy day. Decided to

0:36:50.320 --> 0:36:52.440
<v Speaker 4>call you, and I'm surprised I got through.

0:36:53.120 --> 0:36:57.360
<v Speaker 1>Here we are, Darren. Here we are, Darren. Here we are.

0:36:57.840 --> 0:37:02.759
<v Speaker 1>We're talking on a podcast cast listened to by at

0:37:02.840 --> 0:37:05.600
<v Speaker 1>least one hundred people, which is pretty cool.

0:37:07.040 --> 0:37:08.080
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, that's pretty cool.

0:37:08.320 --> 0:37:11.799
<v Speaker 1>We're chatting, we're chatting. We're alive. What's up?

0:37:11.840 --> 0:37:12.000
<v Speaker 4>Oh?

0:37:12.080 --> 0:37:14.760
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, how's it going? Man, Let's talk.

0:37:15.960 --> 0:37:18.480
<v Speaker 4>It's going like I will say, life is going all right.

0:37:18.560 --> 0:37:21.480
<v Speaker 4>But you know, I'm living life, you know, trying to

0:37:21.480 --> 0:37:25.560
<v Speaker 4>have a good time. You know, we're here in the earth. Yeah,

0:37:25.760 --> 0:37:27.600
<v Speaker 4>I mean, I decided to call you, and I'm the

0:37:27.640 --> 0:37:31.520
<v Speaker 4>surprise that I got through. That's amazing. It's it's it's

0:37:31.560 --> 0:37:32.360
<v Speaker 4>freaking amazing.

0:37:34.160 --> 0:37:36.080
<v Speaker 1>Did you have anything you want to talk about today, Darren?

0:37:36.200 --> 0:37:38.400
<v Speaker 1>It's fine if not, we can just palor around.

0:37:39.440 --> 0:37:43.520
<v Speaker 4>Well, I guess I'll say light you. You know, well,

0:37:43.600 --> 0:37:47.520
<v Speaker 4>what will you thinking about? What is life like? What?

0:37:47.640 --> 0:37:48.720
<v Speaker 4>What's the point of living?

0:37:50.360 --> 0:37:52.399
<v Speaker 1>What is life? And what's the point of living? Those

0:37:52.400 --> 0:37:54.880
<v Speaker 1>are great questions. I've been wrestling with a lot of

0:37:54.880 --> 0:37:59.400
<v Speaker 1>those questions, and you know, Darren, I have realized something.

0:37:59.719 --> 0:38:02.040
<v Speaker 1>I've realized something, Darren. Do you know what I've realized.

0:38:03.840 --> 0:38:08.360
<v Speaker 1>I've realized that the questions, what's the point of living?

0:38:08.680 --> 0:38:11.560
<v Speaker 1>What is life? You know? What happens after we die?

0:38:11.600 --> 0:38:13.120
<v Speaker 1>What is consciousness? Why am I?

0:38:13.239 --> 0:38:13.319
<v Speaker 4>Me?

0:38:13.440 --> 0:38:16.399
<v Speaker 1>And other people are other people? I've been really I've

0:38:16.440 --> 0:38:19.760
<v Speaker 1>just deeply been wrestling with a lot of these questions

0:38:19.760 --> 0:38:26.600
<v Speaker 1>in kind of a scary existential way for about two months.

0:38:27.040 --> 0:38:32.080
<v Speaker 1>It's been really scary and weird, and I felt like

0:38:32.080 --> 0:38:36.680
<v Speaker 1>I've been in a Bizarrokohan Brothers movie or something, just

0:38:36.719 --> 0:38:40.480
<v Speaker 1>by the nature of my own consciousness being a bit

0:38:40.520 --> 0:38:43.359
<v Speaker 1>of a torment for it, and not because I'm dark

0:38:43.400 --> 0:38:46.560
<v Speaker 1>and cool, but just because it's bizarre. It's a weird

0:38:46.840 --> 0:38:49.759
<v Speaker 1>thing to be alive. And I've been thinking about the

0:38:49.800 --> 0:38:52.399
<v Speaker 1>answers to these questions and then I realized, wait a minute,

0:38:52.440 --> 0:38:56.000
<v Speaker 1>I'm actually not dark and cool at all, because people

0:38:56.040 --> 0:39:00.720
<v Speaker 1>have been trying to answer these questions since the fucking

0:39:01.160 --> 0:39:07.640
<v Speaker 1>dawn of man. I mean, philosophers and whatever, science, fucking

0:39:07.760 --> 0:39:11.960
<v Speaker 1>people and religion people, everyone's been trying to answer these questions.

0:39:12.000 --> 0:39:14.920
<v Speaker 1>It's people way smarter than me. I mean, I've dedicated

0:39:15.560 --> 0:39:18.680
<v Speaker 1>two months of going on Reddit and talking to chat

0:39:18.680 --> 0:39:22.520
<v Speaker 1>GPT other people. They dedicate their whole lives. They read books,

0:39:22.560 --> 0:39:24.840
<v Speaker 1>they write books, They try to find the answers to

0:39:24.880 --> 0:39:28.799
<v Speaker 1>the universe. They take science, they do the theory of

0:39:28.840 --> 0:39:30.800
<v Speaker 1>the unit, whatever the fuck that is by that fucking

0:39:30.840 --> 0:39:33.920
<v Speaker 1>the guy in the wheelchair, you know, Okay, And you

0:39:34.000 --> 0:39:37.720
<v Speaker 1>know what's the craziest part about all these people throughout

0:39:37.800 --> 0:39:41.239
<v Speaker 1>the history of consciousness looking for the answers to all

0:39:41.320 --> 0:39:43.919
<v Speaker 1>these questions, Darren, do you want to know the craziest thing.

0:39:44.640 --> 0:39:45.719
<v Speaker 4>What's the craziest thing.

0:39:46.080 --> 0:39:51.879
<v Speaker 1>They don't have an answer, Darren. They don't have an

0:39:51.920 --> 0:39:55.720
<v Speaker 1>objective answer to any of these questions. So my dumb

0:39:55.760 --> 0:39:58.239
<v Speaker 1>ass is not gonna get high and figure it out

0:39:58.400 --> 0:40:02.560
<v Speaker 1>right now and probably not ever in my lifetime, and

0:40:02.880 --> 0:40:07.520
<v Speaker 1>possibly not ever for the entirety that any life is

0:40:07.560 --> 0:40:10.680
<v Speaker 1>ever any all things. And so you know what I'm

0:40:10.680 --> 0:40:15.880
<v Speaker 1>gonna do in the face of that information, Darren. Yes,

0:40:16.520 --> 0:40:18.880
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna go on walks. I'm gonna hang out with

0:40:18.920 --> 0:40:23.239
<v Speaker 1>my friends. I'm gonna make cool interesting things. I'm gonna

0:40:23.320 --> 0:40:26.960
<v Speaker 1>eat a chicken parmesan sandwich. I'm gonna watch a YouTube

0:40:27.040 --> 0:40:31.520
<v Speaker 1>video that goes through the history of weird pop tart flavors.

0:40:31.800 --> 0:40:34.439
<v Speaker 1>And then I'm gonna die, And you know what, it's

0:40:34.480 --> 0:40:37.560
<v Speaker 1>gonna be as nice as it can be. That's what

0:40:37.600 --> 0:40:38.200
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna do.

0:40:39.880 --> 0:40:42.520
<v Speaker 4>I could agree with that right now. I'm just you know,

0:40:42.800 --> 0:40:46.000
<v Speaker 4>living life and putting putting my dog. You know it's

0:40:46.040 --> 0:40:48.680
<v Speaker 4>a good thing. Life is, you know, having a good time.

0:40:49.600 --> 0:40:51.960
<v Speaker 4>Life is living with your pets, Life is living good

0:40:52.000 --> 0:40:54.600
<v Speaker 4>with your friends, and life is you know what, did

0:40:54.640 --> 0:40:57.200
<v Speaker 4>whatever you want have a good time. You're hearing this

0:40:57.800 --> 0:41:00.759
<v Speaker 4>thing called earth, and you know what make the best

0:41:00.800 --> 0:41:01.200
<v Speaker 4>out of it?

0:41:01.680 --> 0:41:04.120
<v Speaker 1>Do you think the you know it's is when people

0:41:04.160 --> 0:41:12.800
<v Speaker 1>would say before I went crazy, I people would say, oh,

0:41:12.920 --> 0:41:15.239
<v Speaker 1>are we like the idea that we're living in a

0:41:15.280 --> 0:41:19.480
<v Speaker 1>simulation that never made sense, That never made sense to me.

0:41:19.680 --> 0:41:24.040
<v Speaker 1>And then lately the idea I've come around to it

0:41:24.120 --> 0:41:27.560
<v Speaker 1>that we might be living in a simulation.

0:41:29.040 --> 0:41:31.200
<v Speaker 4>You might never know. We could have taken the rip

0:41:31.480 --> 0:41:34.359
<v Speaker 4>red pill, blue pill sometime in our life, and you know,

0:41:34.680 --> 0:41:37.160
<v Speaker 4>either we're living here in this life or we're living

0:41:37.160 --> 0:41:40.160
<v Speaker 4>here in this simulation, but who knows. Man, it's it's

0:41:40.560 --> 0:41:42.799
<v Speaker 4>it's like we're living in GTA. You know, life is

0:41:42.880 --> 0:41:46.239
<v Speaker 4>fucking wild and things could happen left to right.

0:41:48.200 --> 0:41:49.680
<v Speaker 1>You ever seen The Truman Show?

0:41:50.680 --> 0:41:52.000
<v Speaker 4>Yes, I have, it's a good movie.

0:41:52.520 --> 0:41:55.560
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I think about that ship not that like life's

0:41:55.600 --> 0:41:59.800
<v Speaker 1>the TV show. But it's a very narcissistic thing to think.

0:42:00.760 --> 0:42:05.120
<v Speaker 1>But there also is like weird, like your consciousness is

0:42:05.160 --> 0:42:08.279
<v Speaker 1>the only consciousness that's verifiable. There's a word for this.

0:42:08.320 --> 0:42:09.960
<v Speaker 1>I think I talked about this in the end of

0:42:09.960 --> 0:42:15.279
<v Speaker 1>recent podcasts. And so you could argue that because you're

0:42:15.320 --> 0:42:18.880
<v Speaker 1>the only conscious being that you can like truly verify

0:42:18.960 --> 0:42:23.360
<v Speaker 1>their consciousness, that you actually are at the center of

0:42:23.360 --> 0:42:25.319
<v Speaker 1>the universe and you are the only living thing and

0:42:25.400 --> 0:42:28.400
<v Speaker 1>your personal life is a simulation and you live in

0:42:28.440 --> 0:42:29.160
<v Speaker 1>the Truman Show.

0:42:30.520 --> 0:42:33.600
<v Speaker 4>It's like saying, like there's infinite stars. You know, each

0:42:33.640 --> 0:42:35.759
<v Speaker 4>star has its own life, and we could be one

0:42:35.760 --> 0:42:38.600
<v Speaker 4>of those stars in this infinite universe. You know, I'm

0:42:38.640 --> 0:42:42.279
<v Speaker 4>a sucker for galaxies and space and stars like that.

0:42:42.360 --> 0:42:44.919
<v Speaker 4>But you know I always look up into the sky.

0:42:45.000 --> 0:42:48.040
<v Speaker 4>I'm like, you know what that's in the whole? Another

0:42:48.120 --> 0:42:50.759
<v Speaker 4>planet when I'm thingling like that, and you know it

0:42:50.760 --> 0:42:51.400
<v Speaker 4>could be different.

0:42:52.960 --> 0:42:56.200
<v Speaker 1>What planet do you want to visit the most?

0:42:57.200 --> 0:43:00.279
<v Speaker 4>To be honest, I do not know. But if is

0:43:00.360 --> 0:43:03.839
<v Speaker 4>out there and the stars, sky space stuff like that,

0:43:05.120 --> 0:43:07.239
<v Speaker 4>I would like to visit a planet where it's like,

0:43:07.280 --> 0:43:09.480
<v Speaker 4>you know what, life is good. Life is better than

0:43:09.480 --> 0:43:10.880
<v Speaker 4>what I'm living at.

0:43:12.560 --> 0:43:13.799
<v Speaker 1>Would you ever go to the Moon?

0:43:15.200 --> 0:43:15.759
<v Speaker 4>I would love to.

0:43:17.600 --> 0:43:18.640
<v Speaker 1>What would you want to do there?

0:43:20.880 --> 0:43:21.560
<v Speaker 5>Space walker?

0:43:21.600 --> 0:43:24.560
<v Speaker 4>You know, space jump and you know, just throw myself

0:43:24.600 --> 0:43:28.480
<v Speaker 4>out there, levitate, you know, and just discover moon people

0:43:28.480 --> 0:43:30.200
<v Speaker 4>out there. If it's possible.

0:43:31.000 --> 0:43:33.239
<v Speaker 1>Bro, if you were on the Moon, you would be

0:43:33.320 --> 0:43:34.120
<v Speaker 1>the moon person.

0:43:36.000 --> 0:43:38.520
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, it's true. I'll be the only moon person on

0:43:38.560 --> 0:43:39.399
<v Speaker 4>the Moon. On the Moon.

0:43:40.920 --> 0:43:41.279
<v Speaker 5>What is it?

0:43:41.800 --> 0:43:43.960
<v Speaker 1>Who are you? Darren? Who are you? What is your

0:43:44.000 --> 0:43:44.440
<v Speaker 1>life like?

0:43:46.040 --> 0:43:50.120
<v Speaker 4>My life is I'm a guy who likes going to shows.

0:43:51.080 --> 0:43:55.520
<v Speaker 4>That's to work day job from seven to three. And

0:43:55.840 --> 0:43:59.279
<v Speaker 4>you know, enjoys a beer here and there. Why not

0:43:59.440 --> 0:44:01.479
<v Speaker 4>enjoys a beer in there, but enjoys the beer every day.

0:44:02.400 --> 0:44:05.400
<v Speaker 4>And just like pittying my dogs. You know, I'm a

0:44:05.400 --> 0:44:09.600
<v Speaker 4>dog person. But it's just life. How life is treating

0:44:09.600 --> 0:44:11.040
<v Speaker 4>me right now. I'm trying to make the best out

0:44:11.080 --> 0:44:11.319
<v Speaker 4>of it.

0:44:15.640 --> 0:44:19.879
<v Speaker 1>Let me think, here, uh, what what is your day job?

0:44:21.400 --> 0:44:22.480
<v Speaker 4>I do landscaping?

0:44:23.760 --> 0:44:26.640
<v Speaker 1>Landscaping? Well, who is that in the background?

0:44:27.920 --> 0:44:30.960
<v Speaker 4>That was my best friend? Works with me too.

0:44:31.719 --> 0:44:33.640
<v Speaker 1>I like how you were about to say friend and

0:44:33.680 --> 0:44:36.680
<v Speaker 1>you're like, no, no, no, I must clarify that this

0:44:36.760 --> 0:44:39.040
<v Speaker 1>is my best friend.

0:44:39.800 --> 0:44:42.080
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I have a lot. I have a lot of

0:44:42.120 --> 0:44:45.839
<v Speaker 4>best friends from since school and they've been we've been

0:44:46.000 --> 0:44:48.480
<v Speaker 4>you know, friends ever since then. I considered that I

0:44:48.560 --> 0:44:51.120
<v Speaker 4>consider them as family best friends all that.

0:44:52.160 --> 0:44:55.960
<v Speaker 1>Do you do? You rank your friends in your head?

0:44:56.480 --> 0:44:59.080
<v Speaker 1>Very often? Like oh, this is like, have do you

0:44:59.120 --> 0:45:01.720
<v Speaker 1>ever could you tell me you're thanking of all your friends?

0:45:02.080 --> 0:45:04.440
<v Speaker 4>I used to back in my space days, you know,

0:45:04.800 --> 0:45:09.160
<v Speaker 4>you could choose your top six, But nowadays it's just like,

0:45:09.200 --> 0:45:12.040
<v Speaker 4>you know, they've been there for since I was since

0:45:12.080 --> 0:45:14.600
<v Speaker 4>I was introduced to them, and you know they're all

0:45:14.680 --> 0:45:15.160
<v Speaker 4>number one.

0:45:15.440 --> 0:45:19.040
<v Speaker 1>To be honest, that's really nice. There's none that you like.

0:45:19.120 --> 0:45:20.960
<v Speaker 1>Are you friends with anyone that you're just kind of

0:45:20.960 --> 0:45:24.680
<v Speaker 1>friends with because they've been around and you secretly hate them.

0:45:24.840 --> 0:45:28.160
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, there was one friend. I'm not sure if I

0:45:28.160 --> 0:45:29.920
<v Speaker 4>could say is I'm not sure if I could.

0:45:29.719 --> 0:45:34.279
<v Speaker 1>Say his name, but I mean you've you physically can, but.

0:45:35.880 --> 0:45:42.560
<v Speaker 4>Idea, we we used to call him Chewbacca, but well

0:45:42.760 --> 0:45:46.719
<v Speaker 4>not not Chewboka, but like more like Youbaca in the way.

0:45:47.120 --> 0:45:49.120
<v Speaker 4>It was just a joke, a gag. I guess you

0:45:49.120 --> 0:45:52.400
<v Speaker 4>could say he was he was a I guess say

0:45:52.440 --> 0:45:55.759
<v Speaker 4>he was a good friend. It just you know, he

0:45:55.760 --> 0:45:57.759
<v Speaker 4>he I guess he could He tried too much to

0:45:57.800 --> 0:46:01.480
<v Speaker 4>be with us. And we can understand, like you try

0:46:01.520 --> 0:46:03.920
<v Speaker 4>to hang out with us a lot, but we were

0:46:04.000 --> 0:46:06.920
<v Speaker 4>just we weren't just feeling it with him. I mean,

0:46:07.040 --> 0:46:09.200
<v Speaker 4>I mean, we we kept him around here and there,

0:46:09.320 --> 0:46:14.239
<v Speaker 4>but he was a bit too much sometimes. And yeah,

0:46:14.560 --> 0:46:16.600
<v Speaker 4>I guess he was one of those friends here. You know,

0:46:16.880 --> 0:46:20.719
<v Speaker 4>he's okay in a way, but you know he was

0:46:20.760 --> 0:46:21.160
<v Speaker 4>all right.

0:46:21.960 --> 0:46:29.360
<v Speaker 1>What was it about him that that you felt mm hmmm.

0:46:30.760 --> 0:46:32.879
<v Speaker 4>He tried to kick it with us almost every day,

0:46:33.560 --> 0:46:37.200
<v Speaker 4>but he always buys He always buy his pizza almost

0:46:37.200 --> 0:46:37.600
<v Speaker 4>every day.

0:46:38.360 --> 0:46:40.840
<v Speaker 1>So wait is why? Why is is? Do you do

0:46:40.880 --> 0:46:42.560
<v Speaker 1>you not want to hang out with your friends every day?

0:46:44.040 --> 0:46:44.320
<v Speaker 2>Well?

0:46:44.920 --> 0:46:48.000
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I would, but sometimes there's days where he's like,

0:46:48.040 --> 0:46:49.879
<v Speaker 4>you know, you try, you try to doing your own thing,

0:46:49.920 --> 0:46:52.640
<v Speaker 4>and it's like, you know, you just want you just

0:46:52.640 --> 0:46:55.239
<v Speaker 4>want to do your own thing, and you know, every

0:46:55.239 --> 0:46:58.439
<v Speaker 4>other day hang out with your friends, but no, this guy,

0:46:58.480 --> 0:47:02.520
<v Speaker 4>this guy used to fucking want to hang out every

0:47:02.760 --> 0:47:05.000
<v Speaker 4>day of the week, every day of the month, like

0:47:05.239 --> 0:47:07.839
<v Speaker 4>be there constantly. I'm like, Okay, I understand you want

0:47:07.840 --> 0:47:10.600
<v Speaker 4>to be there, but like, come on, like at least

0:47:10.680 --> 0:47:12.759
<v Speaker 4>let me chill for a day or so, like, you know,

0:47:13.960 --> 0:47:17.239
<v Speaker 4>like you're cool enough, but it's just it just kind

0:47:17.239 --> 0:47:20.480
<v Speaker 4>of gets annoying here and there. You know, I'm not

0:47:20.520 --> 0:47:23.840
<v Speaker 4>talking bad about it. He was cool enough, but after

0:47:23.840 --> 0:47:26.520
<v Speaker 4>a while, it's it's just it's just like you know what,

0:47:26.480 --> 0:47:29.480
<v Speaker 4>I'm like, come on, like, I'm pretty sure you got

0:47:29.520 --> 0:47:31.360
<v Speaker 4>other people to hang out with here and there, but

0:47:31.800 --> 0:47:34.960
<v Speaker 4>to hang out with me twenty four seven, It's it's

0:47:35.000 --> 0:47:38.000
<v Speaker 4>all right, I guess do.

0:47:37.920 --> 0:47:39.600
<v Speaker 1>You think do you think you're fun to hang out

0:47:39.640 --> 0:47:40.520
<v Speaker 1>with twenty four to seven.

0:47:42.760 --> 0:47:45.480
<v Speaker 4>I wouldn't. I wouldn't say I'm not that fun from

0:47:45.520 --> 0:47:49.440
<v Speaker 4>my perspective. I don't know how other how other people

0:47:49.480 --> 0:47:52.399
<v Speaker 4>think about me, but I like to have a fun time,

0:47:52.520 --> 0:47:54.840
<v Speaker 4>you know, I like to have a good time with people.

0:47:54.920 --> 0:47:56.879
<v Speaker 1>What do you what do you usually do when you're

0:47:58.120 --> 0:47:58.960
<v Speaker 1>having a fun time?

0:48:01.480 --> 0:48:04.600
<v Speaker 4>You know, I try to drink with them, you have

0:48:04.680 --> 0:48:09.560
<v Speaker 4>a good time, make jokes and and you know it's

0:48:09.600 --> 0:48:13.600
<v Speaker 4>just well, I guess whatever, whatever every other people try

0:48:13.640 --> 0:48:18.960
<v Speaker 4>to do, you know, just make it, make make make

0:48:19.000 --> 0:48:22.200
<v Speaker 4>the whatever time is happening around you, guys the best time.

0:48:22.680 --> 0:48:25.920
<v Speaker 4>You know, you can never know when when when it

0:48:25.920 --> 0:48:27.640
<v Speaker 4>could be the last day you can hang out with them.

0:48:28.360 --> 0:48:31.720
<v Speaker 4>And to me, it's always like yeah, like I'm happy

0:48:31.719 --> 0:48:33.719
<v Speaker 4>to see you, but you know, just make the best

0:48:33.719 --> 0:48:34.160
<v Speaker 4>out of it.

0:48:35.520 --> 0:48:36.560
<v Speaker 1>What's your name, Darren?

0:48:37.600 --> 0:48:37.839
<v Speaker 5>Yes?

0:48:39.920 --> 0:48:41.360
<v Speaker 1>Did you make a nice guy? Darren?

0:48:43.320 --> 0:48:46.560
<v Speaker 4>I don't see it. I feel like I don't feel

0:48:46.560 --> 0:48:48.440
<v Speaker 4>like I'm the best guy. I just try to make

0:48:48.440 --> 0:48:50.080
<v Speaker 4>the best of the best of everything.

0:48:50.680 --> 0:48:52.960
<v Speaker 1>Why do you what? What made you say that just

0:48:52.960 --> 0:48:54.600
<v Speaker 1>now that you don't feel like you're the best guy?

0:48:56.680 --> 0:48:58.440
<v Speaker 4>Because I see other people that make the best of

0:48:58.520 --> 0:49:00.640
<v Speaker 4>things with everyone else. And I feel like I'm used

0:49:00.719 --> 0:49:04.320
<v Speaker 4>like a regular guy in this earst and I follow

0:49:04.400 --> 0:49:07.960
<v Speaker 4>like to me, like like an example, Ozzy Osbourne, that guy,

0:49:09.200 --> 0:49:11.120
<v Speaker 4>I wish I could have a life like him. You know,

0:49:11.760 --> 0:49:14.360
<v Speaker 4>that guy's a fucking that guy. To me, he's a

0:49:14.400 --> 0:49:20.520
<v Speaker 4>fucking legend, and I wish I could have a life

0:49:20.560 --> 0:49:22.600
<v Speaker 4>like him. But not like a drug addict. But I

0:49:22.680 --> 0:49:24.440
<v Speaker 4>used to have a life like him. But to me,

0:49:25.440 --> 0:49:27.239
<v Speaker 4>I try to I try to live a life like

0:49:27.280 --> 0:49:29.319
<v Speaker 4>a rock star. I try to make the best out

0:49:29.320 --> 0:49:31.560
<v Speaker 4>of it. I'm sure I've gotten in trouble here and there,

0:49:31.640 --> 0:49:35.560
<v Speaker 4>but you know what, I'm just happy to be here,

0:49:35.680 --> 0:49:38.120
<v Speaker 4>happy to have their friends, the best friends I have

0:49:38.920 --> 0:49:42.360
<v Speaker 4>to be honest, they're brothers to me. Like everyone around

0:49:42.400 --> 0:49:44.280
<v Speaker 4>me is like brother to me, and it's his brother sister.

0:49:44.400 --> 0:49:51.000
<v Speaker 4>But you know what, it's just life is life?

0:49:54.320 --> 0:49:56.120
<v Speaker 1>Why do you want to live like Ozzy Osbourne?

0:49:57.520 --> 0:49:59.600
<v Speaker 4>I look up I will say, I will look up

0:49:59.640 --> 0:50:02.799
<v Speaker 4>to him. He's he's he's a god to me in

0:50:02.840 --> 0:50:06.000
<v Speaker 4>a way, but not the not the drug addict part.

0:50:06.120 --> 0:50:09.000
<v Speaker 1>Okay, well then tell me, tell me what what parts

0:50:09.560 --> 0:50:12.160
<v Speaker 1>do you do you desire for your life that you

0:50:12.200 --> 0:50:13.000
<v Speaker 1>scraped from.

0:50:13.560 --> 0:50:16.719
<v Speaker 4>Like going going going shows and play in front of

0:50:16.719 --> 0:50:19.120
<v Speaker 4>a lot of people. Because I'm I'm a musician myself.

0:50:19.160 --> 0:50:22.120
<v Speaker 4>I play drums, and you know, I wish to be

0:50:22.320 --> 0:50:25.880
<v Speaker 4>achieve that goal like all he had, I mean, he

0:50:25.960 --> 0:50:29.239
<v Speaker 4>still has it. He's old, he's playing in his last

0:50:29.239 --> 0:50:32.799
<v Speaker 4>show and fucking Birmingham, which I would wish to go.

0:50:32.920 --> 0:50:40.920
<v Speaker 4>But yeah, it's not gonna. That's not gonna.

0:50:39.320 --> 0:50:42.200
<v Speaker 1>Birmingham, Alabama.

0:50:43.200 --> 0:50:45.399
<v Speaker 4>U k u k oh?

0:50:46.800 --> 0:50:47.040
<v Speaker 3>Yeah?

0:50:47.400 --> 0:50:48.279
<v Speaker 1>You ever been to the UK?

0:50:49.680 --> 0:50:53.120
<v Speaker 4>Uh? No? But I was planning to go to Dublin

0:50:53.520 --> 0:50:56.440
<v Speaker 4>maybe later this year and like in just lie August,

0:50:56.520 --> 0:50:59.680
<v Speaker 4>but I don't think that's gonna happen anymore. But maybe,

0:51:00.040 --> 0:51:02.160
<v Speaker 4>I mean next year I'll plan to go to Europe

0:51:02.560 --> 0:51:06.000
<v Speaker 4>because right now I'm just visiting Japan. That's you know,

0:51:06.080 --> 0:51:07.680
<v Speaker 4>that's a fucking amazing spot to visit.

0:51:08.040 --> 0:51:09.399
<v Speaker 1>But you're in Japan right now?

0:51:09.960 --> 0:51:12.680
<v Speaker 4>No, no, no, I wish it was. But I've been

0:51:12.719 --> 0:51:13.600
<v Speaker 4>there twice already.

0:51:14.120 --> 0:51:15.160
<v Speaker 1>Oh when are you going to Japan?

0:51:16.080 --> 0:51:20.880
<v Speaker 4>Hopefully in Halloween? Oh hopefully?

0:51:20.880 --> 0:51:23.000
<v Speaker 1>Why did you? Why did your Dublin trip get canceled?

0:51:24.000 --> 0:51:24.560
<v Speaker 4>What happened?

0:51:24.880 --> 0:51:26.720
<v Speaker 1>Why did your Dublin trip get canceled?

0:51:27.480 --> 0:51:30.680
<v Speaker 4>Well? Because the thing is is I'm in a financial spot.

0:51:30.840 --> 0:51:37.520
<v Speaker 4>It's kind of crappy right now for me. But it just, uh,

0:51:37.640 --> 0:51:39.759
<v Speaker 4>it just I'm not sure if I'm gonna have enough

0:51:39.800 --> 0:51:42.400
<v Speaker 4>months to go out there, like do that your trip,

0:51:42.440 --> 0:51:46.759
<v Speaker 4>then go and do that Japan trip. So I'm kind

0:51:46.760 --> 0:51:49.360
<v Speaker 4>of in the pickle if debating and going in Europe

0:51:49.600 --> 0:51:52.000
<v Speaker 4>or Japan. But for me, it's just I want to

0:51:52.000 --> 0:51:52.799
<v Speaker 4>go to Japan more.

0:51:53.719 --> 0:51:56.880
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I also want to get Japan more. Man, Japan rocks.

0:51:56.920 --> 0:51:59.839
<v Speaker 4>It's amazing. It's crazy because the first time I went,

0:51:59.920 --> 0:52:03.759
<v Speaker 4>I like, when I went, I told myself, I'm here

0:52:03.800 --> 0:52:06.920
<v Speaker 4>in Japan, a new country, like foreign to me. The

0:52:06.960 --> 0:52:09.840
<v Speaker 4>first time I do is try to try a fucking

0:52:10.000 --> 0:52:12.759
<v Speaker 4>Japanese resident out there. You know, I'm not gonna try

0:52:12.800 --> 0:52:15.279
<v Speaker 4>any American restaurants that are out there. I'll try a

0:52:15.360 --> 0:52:19.440
<v Speaker 4>Japanese restaurant out there. I went there fucking amazing, Like

0:52:19.680 --> 0:52:22.920
<v Speaker 4>the guy gave me a bors steak, like a bor steak,

0:52:23.280 --> 0:52:27.400
<v Speaker 4>never had that before. And I visited that spot. I

0:52:27.480 --> 0:52:29.480
<v Speaker 4>visited a guy like two three times when I was there,

0:52:30.200 --> 0:52:32.600
<v Speaker 4>and so I'm hey, next time next time I come here,

0:52:33.000 --> 0:52:35.040
<v Speaker 4>I'm a fucking visit your restaurant, I said, first thing

0:52:35.040 --> 0:52:37.600
<v Speaker 4>I'm gonna do. So I went there again that same

0:52:37.680 --> 0:52:41.720
<v Speaker 4>year later later and I walked in and I'm like hey,

0:52:42.400 --> 0:52:45.360
<v Speaker 4>and he's like, oh, my best friend. I was like what.

0:52:46.640 --> 0:52:49.680
<v Speaker 4>I was like, holy shit, that's that's that's fucking amazing, dude.

0:52:49.680 --> 0:52:54.120
<v Speaker 4>Like being recognized, like being remember being remembered by someone

0:52:54.160 --> 0:52:56.520
<v Speaker 4>out there, like you've only met once and he remembers

0:52:56.560 --> 0:52:58.680
<v Speaker 4>you a couple of months later, and I'm like, dude,

0:52:58.719 --> 0:52:59.680
<v Speaker 4>that's fucking amazing.

0:53:00.160 --> 0:53:05.040
<v Speaker 1>Mm hmm, that's really nice. You have friends in Tokyo.

0:53:06.040 --> 0:53:09.400
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, you can say friends in Tokyo. It's it's it's cool.

0:53:09.880 --> 0:53:11.200
<v Speaker 4>It's it's fucking cool.

0:53:12.120 --> 0:53:13.440
<v Speaker 1>Darren. Is there anything else you want to say to

0:53:13.440 --> 0:53:16.560
<v Speaker 1>the people of the computer before we go, I.

0:53:16.520 --> 0:53:20.439
<v Speaker 4>Will say, you know, Taro and listening, you know, I listen.

0:53:20.480 --> 0:53:24.040
<v Speaker 4>I listen to you on on Spotify cool and on

0:53:24.080 --> 0:53:26.759
<v Speaker 4>YouTube this and that. You know. I just you know,

0:53:26.800 --> 0:53:30.279
<v Speaker 4>it's it's crazy to be on live right now. I

0:53:30.360 --> 0:53:32.480
<v Speaker 4>never thought this is what happens my first time calling,

0:53:33.280 --> 0:53:36.759
<v Speaker 4>and it's crazy. Also, I want to say to all

0:53:36.760 --> 0:53:39.960
<v Speaker 4>the people that work in landscaping, like me, fucking victims

0:53:40.000 --> 0:53:42.919
<v Speaker 4>up because it's a hard work out there. But yeah,

0:53:42.960 --> 0:53:46.120
<v Speaker 4>I'm happy to be on therapy. Get go, I'm happy.

0:53:46.239 --> 0:53:48.000
<v Speaker 4>You know, it's fucking amazing.

0:53:49.360 --> 0:53:51.080
<v Speaker 1>Thank you very much, Darren, have a good rest of

0:53:51.120 --> 0:53:51.399
<v Speaker 1>the night.

0:53:52.239 --> 0:53:54.680
<v Speaker 4>I'll show you. Hold up, how are you doing? How

0:53:54.719 --> 0:53:54.880
<v Speaker 4>are you?

0:53:54.960 --> 0:53:57.000
<v Speaker 1>How am I doing? How am I doing? Yeah? You

0:53:57.040 --> 0:53:58.680
<v Speaker 1>want to know how I'm doing, Darren?

0:53:59.239 --> 0:54:01.680
<v Speaker 4>Yes, tell me, tell me how are you doing?

0:54:01.840 --> 0:54:04.239
<v Speaker 1>You want to know how I'm doing? You motherfucker. You

0:54:04.280 --> 0:54:05.359
<v Speaker 1>want to know how I'm doing?

0:54:06.239 --> 0:54:07.840
<v Speaker 4>Yes? Yes?

0:54:08.120 --> 0:54:10.879
<v Speaker 1>All I want to do is eat Right now, I'm

0:54:11.000 --> 0:54:13.800
<v Speaker 1>just like, all I want to do? Are you? I

0:54:13.840 --> 0:54:17.120
<v Speaker 1>don't know where my ambition went. I mean, it's still here.

0:54:17.160 --> 0:54:21.319
<v Speaker 1>I'm very ambitious mentally, but physically I'm just oh my god,

0:54:21.360 --> 0:54:25.520
<v Speaker 1>all I want to do is like, fuck dude, right now,

0:54:26.640 --> 0:54:29.080
<v Speaker 1>my like, if I could do any you know, you

0:54:29.120 --> 0:54:33.600
<v Speaker 1>know the question if you can wave a magic wand

0:54:33.640 --> 0:54:39.440
<v Speaker 1>and me doing anything with your life? Yeah, I've been thinking,

0:54:39.640 --> 0:54:41.640
<v Speaker 1>and you know a lot of throughout my life, A

0:54:41.640 --> 0:54:44.040
<v Speaker 1>lot of the answers to that question. If usually involved

0:54:44.080 --> 0:54:48.680
<v Speaker 1>like you know, I don't know, being on a like

0:54:48.680 --> 0:54:53.080
<v Speaker 1>like some kind of something something creative, or you know,

0:54:54.920 --> 0:54:58.799
<v Speaker 1>being in an orgy or something like that. But right now.

0:54:58.880 --> 0:55:01.640
<v Speaker 1>If you I really mean this, If I could be

0:55:01.640 --> 0:55:04.120
<v Speaker 1>doing anything with my life in this very moment, right now,

0:55:04.200 --> 0:55:09.239
<v Speaker 1>I would be eating. I would eat two pints of

0:55:09.280 --> 0:55:13.520
<v Speaker 1>Ben and Jerry's peanut butter s'mores ice cream. No, I

0:55:13.520 --> 0:55:16.239
<v Speaker 1>would get one pint of Ben and Jerry Peanut butter

0:55:16.280 --> 0:55:18.360
<v Speaker 1>smores ice cream and then another pint of Ben and

0:55:18.400 --> 0:55:21.719
<v Speaker 1>Jerry Peanut butter half baked, and I would just do that.

0:55:22.200 --> 0:55:25.480
<v Speaker 1>I don't know why. I don't know I and I

0:55:25.719 --> 0:55:27.640
<v Speaker 1>that's all I want to do with my life right now.

0:55:27.640 --> 0:55:31.200
<v Speaker 1>That's like my career goal right now is to eat

0:55:31.760 --> 0:55:34.040
<v Speaker 1>that fucking ice cream. I don't know why. And I

0:55:34.080 --> 0:55:36.200
<v Speaker 1>don't even feel guilty, man, It's just that's just how

0:55:36.239 --> 0:55:39.040
<v Speaker 1>I feel. I don't think I'm gonna do it. I don't,

0:55:39.200 --> 0:55:44.080
<v Speaker 1>but that just feels like like in the narrative of

0:55:44.239 --> 0:55:47.360
<v Speaker 1>my life, it feels like that's the next chapter, is

0:55:47.400 --> 0:55:50.920
<v Speaker 1>to eat two pints of Ben and Jerry's ice cream.

0:55:51.640 --> 0:55:52.719
<v Speaker 1>That's how I feel right now.

0:55:53.560 --> 0:55:56.480
<v Speaker 4>You know what, goot go, I con vision that. I

0:55:56.520 --> 0:55:58.959
<v Speaker 4>hope you do that, you know, live your best life,

0:55:59.040 --> 0:56:01.040
<v Speaker 4>and you know I'll help you eat those two points

0:56:01.040 --> 0:56:05.480
<v Speaker 4>of ice and you better fucking enjoy man, like enjoy it.

0:56:06.280 --> 0:56:11.000
<v Speaker 4>Fucking enjoy it like enjoy man, You're gonna love it.

0:56:11.360 --> 0:56:13.560
<v Speaker 1>So you're a great guy, Darren, You're great. I'm sorry

0:56:13.560 --> 0:56:15.759
<v Speaker 1>I forgot your name, but and I don't even You're

0:56:15.800 --> 0:56:20.480
<v Speaker 1>just right now. You're a chill, fucking guy, Darren.

0:56:21.320 --> 0:56:23.840
<v Speaker 4>Hey, So hope hopefully I can call you again. You know,

0:56:23.920 --> 0:56:26.239
<v Speaker 4>I hope to talk to you again. And you know

0:56:26.440 --> 0:56:29.520
<v Speaker 4>I love listening to your podcast. I listened to I

0:56:29.560 --> 0:56:32.160
<v Speaker 4>listened to you in Spotify YouTube, like I said, and

0:56:32.200 --> 0:56:35.239
<v Speaker 4>you know, hopefully, hopefully in the future again another call

0:56:35.360 --> 0:56:38.359
<v Speaker 4>with you, and you know I'll be fantastic talking to you.

0:56:38.320 --> 0:56:40.799
<v Speaker 1>Again, Darren, Keep living your best life. Man, all right,

0:56:40.840 --> 0:56:42.200
<v Speaker 1>You're you're something special.

0:56:43.320 --> 0:56:44.560
<v Speaker 4>YouTube therapy, get go.

0:56:45.200 --> 0:56:48.000
<v Speaker 1>I love you, man, love it too, Darren. Bye bye.

0:56:48.640 --> 0:56:54.760
<v Speaker 1>But Darren's a bad influence. He's a He's a super

0:56:54.760 --> 0:56:56.959
<v Speaker 1>cool guy. Though he's a bad influence. There's no way

0:56:59.040 --> 0:57:02.960
<v Speaker 1>I should eat two fucking pints of Ben and Jerry's

0:57:02.960 --> 0:57:06.120
<v Speaker 1>ice cream. But he's a good guy. I really did

0:57:06.160 --> 0:57:09.200
<v Speaker 1>feel that way talking to him. He really seemed like

0:57:09.239 --> 0:57:11.960
<v Speaker 1>it just a fucking Sometimes you just meet a person

0:57:12.080 --> 0:57:14.319
<v Speaker 1>or you chat with them and they're and You're just like,

0:57:14.360 --> 0:57:19.320
<v Speaker 1>what a fucking real ass motherfucker. He just felt that way.

0:57:19.360 --> 0:57:23.880
<v Speaker 1>He just felt like a no bullshit, no fake shit guy.

0:57:25.160 --> 0:57:31.320
<v Speaker 1>His hero is Ozzy Osbourne. Doesn't make any sense. I've

0:57:31.360 --> 0:57:34.480
<v Speaker 1>never heard a person say anything close to that, and

0:57:34.520 --> 0:57:37.200
<v Speaker 1>it just that just makes me like him more. Shout

0:57:37.200 --> 0:57:43.040
<v Speaker 1>out to Darren. Oh my god, Hi, Hi, what's your name?

0:57:43.320 --> 0:57:44.160
<v Speaker 7>Andrea?

0:57:45.120 --> 0:57:47.560
<v Speaker 1>Andrea? What's up Andrea? How is life going?

0:57:47.920 --> 0:57:48.040
<v Speaker 2>Uh?

0:57:48.120 --> 0:57:52.720
<v Speaker 7>It's going good. Yeah. I just came back from a

0:57:53.920 --> 0:57:54.959
<v Speaker 7>target with my mom.

0:57:56.680 --> 0:58:03.720
<v Speaker 1>Okay, how old are you? Andrea four? How was going

0:58:03.760 --> 0:58:04.800
<v Speaker 1>to target with your mom?

0:58:06.320 --> 0:58:10.800
<v Speaker 7>It was good. Yeah, I'm big into Quarterzip, so I

0:58:10.840 --> 0:58:15.040
<v Speaker 7>got a new Quarterzip. I was like, nothing to say

0:58:15.360 --> 0:58:17.200
<v Speaker 7>because I didn't expect that you can get on.

0:58:18.840 --> 0:58:21.720
<v Speaker 1>Going to target with your mom is a psychedelic experience.

0:58:22.120 --> 0:58:23.680
<v Speaker 1>A lot of the things that when I was a

0:58:23.760 --> 0:58:29.560
<v Speaker 1>kid bored me. I've come to realize are very very

0:58:29.720 --> 0:58:34.960
<v Speaker 1>psychedelic experiences, like sitting at the sitting at the dinner

0:58:35.000 --> 0:58:39.880
<v Speaker 1>table with your mom. It's psychedelic. You're on a planet.

0:58:41.080 --> 0:58:46.800
<v Speaker 1>You're in the illusion of whatever I'm having. You know,

0:58:46.840 --> 0:58:51.920
<v Speaker 1>you're you can have a sober psychedelic experience being a

0:58:52.040 --> 0:58:54.120
<v Speaker 1>target with your mom. You can look around and go,

0:58:54.200 --> 0:58:56.720
<v Speaker 1>what the fuck is all this? What am I? What

0:58:56.840 --> 0:58:59.680
<v Speaker 1>is this camera that's always on in my head? That's

0:59:00.680 --> 0:59:05.160
<v Speaker 1>you know, And your mom's looking at you and she's saying,

0:59:05.200 --> 0:59:07.480
<v Speaker 1>though this might be cheaper than this thing, and you're

0:59:07.960 --> 0:59:10.840
<v Speaker 1>you just have no idea, You're like, who even are you?

0:59:11.040 --> 0:59:14.240
<v Speaker 1>Have you ever wondered like, is my mom real?

0:59:16.960 --> 0:59:17.040
<v Speaker 5>No?

0:59:17.720 --> 0:59:21.200
<v Speaker 7>I mean I was. She was. We were at five

0:59:21.320 --> 0:59:26.040
<v Speaker 7>guys before I came home, and she was just talking

0:59:26.080 --> 0:59:29.640
<v Speaker 7>to me and I just like was listening, and I

0:59:29.760 --> 0:59:31.960
<v Speaker 7>just like was looking in her eyes, and I was like, wow,

0:59:32.080 --> 0:59:36.200
<v Speaker 7>Like she's a lot older than she was when I

0:59:36.280 --> 0:59:42.000
<v Speaker 7>was like twelve, and she like physically looks like older,

0:59:42.240 --> 0:59:45.200
<v Speaker 7>not bad, but like she just obviously looks older than

0:59:45.400 --> 0:59:47.480
<v Speaker 7>from when I was younger like that, and that kind

0:59:47.480 --> 0:59:48.320
<v Speaker 7>of like hit.

0:59:50.800 --> 0:59:54.600
<v Speaker 1>But yeah, yeah, I've had that moment too, because I've

0:59:54.600 --> 0:59:58.080
<v Speaker 1>had that moment too, because I've you know, I don't

0:59:58.160 --> 1:00:00.800
<v Speaker 1>live in the same city as my parents, but I

1:00:00.800 --> 1:00:05.600
<v Speaker 1>living near them, but every time I go back to

1:00:05.640 --> 1:00:09.840
<v Speaker 1>see them, they look older. Yeah.

1:00:10.160 --> 1:00:13.600
<v Speaker 7>Yeah, yeah. Not to change the subject, but when you

1:00:13.640 --> 1:00:16.880
<v Speaker 7>were doing the when you were doing the get mail thing,

1:00:17.080 --> 1:00:21.400
<v Speaker 7>which is like my my favorite thing. I sent you

1:00:21.920 --> 1:00:26.520
<v Speaker 7>an email back in like January. But aside from like

1:00:26.600 --> 1:00:30.760
<v Speaker 7>everything in the body of it, my my ps was,

1:00:31.840 --> 1:00:34.480
<v Speaker 7>what is your favorite Celsius flavor?

1:00:35.800 --> 1:00:38.040
<v Speaker 1>Oh? Did I answer?

1:00:39.160 --> 1:00:40.960
<v Speaker 7>No, you didn't. It was very heartbreaking.

1:00:41.000 --> 1:00:46.200
<v Speaker 1>Listen, what is my favorite Celsius flavor depends on what

1:00:46.280 --> 1:00:49.400
<v Speaker 1>kind of mood I'm in. Let me tell you a

1:00:49.440 --> 1:00:52.880
<v Speaker 1>brief Let me tell you a brief story. It's it's

1:00:52.920 --> 1:00:55.040
<v Speaker 1>such a brief story. It's like a one sentence story.

1:00:55.080 --> 1:00:59.320
<v Speaker 1>It's not even a story. I was. I was got.

1:00:59.400 --> 1:01:06.320
<v Speaker 1>I was like really depressed for like a few days

1:01:06.360 --> 1:01:10.479
<v Speaker 1>in a row, and I just couldn't I couldn't be here.

1:01:10.600 --> 1:01:14.360
<v Speaker 1>I couldn't like be present in the universe. I was

1:01:14.400 --> 1:01:19.120
<v Speaker 1>too locked into my brain and thoughts in a bad way.

1:01:19.480 --> 1:01:26.000
<v Speaker 1>And I went to the grocery store. And I went

1:01:26.040 --> 1:01:28.880
<v Speaker 1>to the grocery store. I go to has a Celsius fridge.

1:01:28.960 --> 1:01:34.320
<v Speaker 1>It's a its own fridge dedicated to Celsius. And I

1:01:34.360 --> 1:01:37.880
<v Speaker 1>opened it and I saw that they had a Penia

1:01:37.960 --> 1:01:42.840
<v Speaker 1>colt It's called pli a vibe. It's a it's a

1:01:42.880 --> 1:01:46.880
<v Speaker 1>Penia Colada flavor. And I looked at it and I went, ooh,

1:01:47.120 --> 1:01:51.200
<v Speaker 1>Plia vibe. I said that out loud, and that was

1:01:51.600 --> 1:01:54.320
<v Speaker 1>that was the first time I felt connected to reality.

1:01:54.360 --> 1:01:59.440
<v Speaker 1>And I think three days is just was like, was

1:01:59.560 --> 1:02:07.520
<v Speaker 1>like just the the excitement of a Pina Colada, Celsius.

1:02:07.600 --> 1:02:09.520
<v Speaker 1>And then after that, I was like, oh, okay, all right,

1:02:10.200 --> 1:02:12.160
<v Speaker 1>that was good. That was a great moment for me

1:02:12.400 --> 1:02:15.520
<v Speaker 1>because I was like, all right, I can still maintain

1:02:15.720 --> 1:02:21.160
<v Speaker 1>interface with the universe. And I did get it. I

1:02:21.160 --> 1:02:24.560
<v Speaker 1>did drink it. Yeah, that ship. That shit cures depression.

1:02:24.600 --> 1:02:26.520
<v Speaker 1>By the way, Celsius, I don't know what it does

1:02:26.560 --> 1:02:29.800
<v Speaker 1>in the long term to your actual health, but it'll

1:02:29.800 --> 1:02:32.280
<v Speaker 1>make you feel like God if you drink a couple

1:02:32.320 --> 1:02:32.640
<v Speaker 1>of them.

1:02:33.720 --> 1:02:36.360
<v Speaker 7>I I always have a fridge stock to Celsius. That

1:02:36.480 --> 1:02:39.360
<v Speaker 7>is that I'm I almost tell like every flavor of it.

1:02:39.400 --> 1:02:42.120
<v Speaker 7>So that's why I felt qualified enough to ask the questions.

1:02:42.760 --> 1:02:45.200
<v Speaker 1>I just felt in that moment. I was like, ooh,

1:02:45.400 --> 1:02:47.400
<v Speaker 1>play a vibe and I was like, oh, there, I am,

1:02:47.480 --> 1:02:48.479
<v Speaker 1>I'm back here.

1:02:48.640 --> 1:02:53.160
<v Speaker 7>I'm no, I'm not a big fan of Pina Colada,

1:02:53.240 --> 1:02:55.080
<v Speaker 7>so I can't I can't really vibe with you there.

1:02:55.360 --> 1:02:58.800
<v Speaker 1>Ah, yeah, motherfucker, Okay, what's yours?

1:02:59.680 --> 1:03:04.200
<v Speaker 7>Well, the one nutrition store near me has all the

1:03:04.200 --> 1:03:08.320
<v Speaker 7>Celsius flavors there, and they have like a cherry coke flavor,

1:03:08.960 --> 1:03:10.919
<v Speaker 7>and I feel like a lot of places can't mess

1:03:11.000 --> 1:03:14.640
<v Speaker 7>up coke flavor. That one's pretty good. Other than that,

1:03:16.120 --> 1:03:19.720
<v Speaker 7>other than that, they haven't the Arctic vibe. Pretty basic flavor,

1:03:19.760 --> 1:03:20.680
<v Speaker 7>but it's pretty good.

1:03:21.360 --> 1:03:23.600
<v Speaker 1>I like the Arctic Vibe. I like that. By the way,

1:03:23.640 --> 1:03:26.400
<v Speaker 1>this is not a sponsored Celsius thing. I just I

1:03:26.600 --> 1:03:31.520
<v Speaker 1>genuinely love Celsi. I was looking at yeah. By the way,

1:03:31.640 --> 1:03:33.760
<v Speaker 1>I also I love the cherry coke one, the coke one.

1:03:33.920 --> 1:03:36.760
<v Speaker 1>If I'm in like a no nonsense, no bullshit, I

1:03:36.840 --> 1:03:39.720
<v Speaker 1>am here to get some shit done mode. I just

1:03:39.720 --> 1:03:45.880
<v Speaker 1>get orange, no vibe, no prickly cactus, Sherbert Cola, whatever,

1:03:45.920 --> 1:03:50.800
<v Speaker 1>bullshit orange, you know, regular orange. I had a grape

1:03:50.880 --> 1:03:53.760
<v Speaker 1>one the other day. It sent me crazy. I drank

1:03:53.800 --> 1:03:59.560
<v Speaker 1>a Grape Celsius the other night. No, was it, dude,

1:03:59.560 --> 1:04:03.200
<v Speaker 1>Maybe this was yesterday? I think, yeah, yesterday, I drank

1:04:03.240 --> 1:04:07.200
<v Speaker 1>a Greape Celsius. And then I started I was taking

1:04:07.240 --> 1:04:10.400
<v Speaker 1>a shit, and I started singing on the toilet, and

1:04:10.440 --> 1:04:14.320
<v Speaker 1>I was sending videos of myself on the toilet singing

1:04:14.880 --> 1:04:19.480
<v Speaker 1>to my my group chat of friends and I must

1:04:19.480 --> 1:04:21.760
<v Speaker 1>have sent like six videos of me just on the

1:04:21.800 --> 1:04:28.280
<v Speaker 1>toilet being like I love making diarrhea with my ass

1:04:29.120 --> 1:04:33.560
<v Speaker 1>and I want to make a movie about diarrhea from

1:04:33.680 --> 1:04:40.920
<v Speaker 1>my ass, jud Appa, how will produce my diarrhea movie?

1:04:41.160 --> 1:04:44.560
<v Speaker 1>And I'm and I'm just singing and I'm I'm taking

1:04:44.560 --> 1:04:47.200
<v Speaker 1>a shit. I made like six of those videos. It

1:04:47.240 --> 1:04:48.080
<v Speaker 1>was an awesome day.

1:04:49.280 --> 1:04:52.080
<v Speaker 7>Well yeah, what an absolute honor to receive a video

1:04:52.120 --> 1:04:52.320
<v Speaker 7>like that.

1:04:53.000 --> 1:04:57.680
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, so now it just makes you feel like like

1:04:57.680 --> 1:05:02.400
<v Speaker 1>like God, you know, you can do anything absolutely, Yeah,

1:05:03.680 --> 1:05:04.880
<v Speaker 1>go ahead and go ahead.

1:05:05.400 --> 1:05:08.680
<v Speaker 7>I was just gonna say, just another thing I mentioned

1:05:08.720 --> 1:05:13.760
<v Speaker 7>in the email was my my boyfriend actually told me

1:05:13.840 --> 1:05:18.400
<v Speaker 7>about your podcast, uh last year, and I've just been

1:05:18.440 --> 1:05:20.160
<v Speaker 7>listening to it like almost every day.

1:05:20.840 --> 1:05:21.960
<v Speaker 1>Oh, yas man.

1:05:23.080 --> 1:05:27.520
<v Speaker 7>Yeah, yeah, it's good, good one. Yeah.

1:05:27.880 --> 1:05:29.880
<v Speaker 1>A lot of people have told me that they fall

1:05:29.920 --> 1:05:32.200
<v Speaker 1>asleep to the podcast.

1:05:32.680 --> 1:05:34.480
<v Speaker 7>Oh no, no, I'm active.

1:05:34.720 --> 1:05:35.520
<v Speaker 2>I am very.

1:05:35.400 --> 1:05:40.800
<v Speaker 1>Active and cool, cool, cool. I've become I've recently become

1:05:40.840 --> 1:05:44.439
<v Speaker 1>a fall asleep to the TV guy. That's what's going

1:05:44.480 --> 1:05:47.320
<v Speaker 1>on in my life. It's actually a great development.

1:05:47.440 --> 1:05:47.680
<v Speaker 5>Man.

1:05:48.400 --> 1:05:52.360
<v Speaker 1>I look forward every night. I put on four hours

1:05:52.360 --> 1:05:56.640
<v Speaker 1>of Game Boy Advance Game Trivia and fucking knocks me

1:05:56.760 --> 1:05:57.200
<v Speaker 1>right out.

1:05:57.600 --> 1:06:02.080
<v Speaker 7>It's the best we've been doing in pop culture. Jeopardy

1:06:02.160 --> 1:06:04.880
<v Speaker 7>with Colin Jost.

1:06:04.200 --> 1:06:06.120
<v Speaker 1>Oh that's nice.

1:06:06.200 --> 1:06:06.400
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

1:06:06.640 --> 1:06:10.000
<v Speaker 1>I don't know that guy, but he's probably what do

1:06:10.040 --> 1:06:11.280
<v Speaker 1>you think he's like in real life?

1:06:13.440 --> 1:06:17.560
<v Speaker 7>Probably sits on the toilet after a great Celsius just

1:06:17.720 --> 1:06:19.360
<v Speaker 7>sings song.

1:06:19.600 --> 1:06:21.760
<v Speaker 1>I don't know. He seems like a he seems like

1:06:21.760 --> 1:06:24.200
<v Speaker 1>a he seems like a pretty together guy. He seems

1:06:24.240 --> 1:06:26.360
<v Speaker 1>like like you go to his house and he has

1:06:26.400 --> 1:06:29.240
<v Speaker 1>like a bowl of fruit on a on a desk,

1:06:29.400 --> 1:06:33.400
<v Speaker 1>and like he goes, he goes, oh, that's a great idea,

1:06:33.480 --> 1:06:34.520
<v Speaker 1>and then he like does it?

1:06:34.720 --> 1:06:35.000
<v Speaker 5>You know?

1:06:35.080 --> 1:06:38.720
<v Speaker 1>And then he's like he just seems like a normal guy.

1:06:39.240 --> 1:06:42.120
<v Speaker 1>I don't know. I don't know him, but he seems

1:06:42.120 --> 1:06:44.320
<v Speaker 1>like he has like knives in his house and he

1:06:44.400 --> 1:06:48.200
<v Speaker 1>uses him to cut like lettuce.

1:06:49.560 --> 1:06:51.640
<v Speaker 7>Are you just going based off of just his name?

1:06:51.760 --> 1:06:53.160
<v Speaker 7>Like you don't know who this guy is at all.

1:06:53.480 --> 1:06:54.880
<v Speaker 1>I know who Colin just is.

1:06:55.960 --> 1:06:58.919
<v Speaker 7>Oh, oh yeah, he's like on I just know him

1:06:58.920 --> 1:07:01.640
<v Speaker 7>on there, but I know he's like snl or whatever.

1:07:02.880 --> 1:07:10.000
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, where do we Where do you think we go

1:07:10.040 --> 1:07:12.200
<v Speaker 1>when we die?

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<v Speaker 7>Where do we go when we die? I'm not like

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<v Speaker 7>super religious or anything. I think that.

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<v Speaker 2>We go to.

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<v Speaker 7>The sky and we just are in another universe and

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<v Speaker 7>we just move can eat whatever and do whatever. You

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<v Speaker 7>were just talking to the one guy before, and you,

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<v Speaker 7>like you said something about like what's one thing that

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<v Speaker 7>you wish you could be doing or whatever right now?

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<v Speaker 7>And you said about eating the ice cream. But then

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<v Speaker 7>I was thinking sometimes the same lines as that, almost

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<v Speaker 7>but like being able to eat but there's like no

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<v Speaker 7>calories involved.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, that could be awesome. Oh my god, yeah, there's

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<v Speaker 1>no calie. It just makes it as if I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, you can do that. It's called binging and purging,

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<v Speaker 1>but it's not recommended.

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<v Speaker 7>Yeah, yeah, no, you're pro will not be happy afterwards.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, doctors do not recommend, but I mean it is

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<v Speaker 1>physically possible.

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<v Speaker 7>What's your name again, Andrea?

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<v Speaker 1>Andrea, Andrew. We've been talking for about eleven minutes right now,

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<v Speaker 1>and I was about to end our conversation, but I

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<v Speaker 1>just want to check in with you. Do you feel

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<v Speaker 1>like you got everything that you desired from this conversation

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<v Speaker 1>and is there anything I can do to make this

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<v Speaker 1>conversation a better experience for you before we do leave?

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<v Speaker 7>What was I going to talk to you a little

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<v Speaker 7>bit more. But you know, I'm just happy that I

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<v Speaker 7>was able to get on in the first place.

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<v Speaker 1>We can talk, is there what do you want to

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<v Speaker 1>talk about?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh?

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<v Speaker 7>No, like just just shooting the ship. It was just

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<v Speaker 7>cool that they about to even talk to you.

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<v Speaker 1>Let me think, let me think of one more thing

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<v Speaker 1>we can talk about before we go.

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<v Speaker 7>Oh, well, I guess if you I guess if you

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<v Speaker 7>like read my email. Then in the next in the

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<v Speaker 7>next gek mail.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh did you send another email?

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<v Speaker 7>No, I didn't send another one. It's just back in January.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh wait, did I ever read your email?

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<v Speaker 2>No?

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<v Speaker 7>You never did.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh what was in the email?

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<v Speaker 2>Uh?

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<v Speaker 7>I talked about like my school? No, no, so long ago. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 7>I talked about school. But uh, if you want to go,

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<v Speaker 7>I don't. I don't want to keep you on.

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<v Speaker 1>You can talk about school. We got we're chilling.

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<v Speaker 7>Sure, Yeah, okay, I mean yeah, I mean I just

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<v Speaker 7>ended my semester.

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<v Speaker 4>Uh.

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<v Speaker 7>Basically the whole thing was that like I was just

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<v Speaker 7>like I got accepted into like this national uh this

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<v Speaker 7>National Society for Radiology, And I just said in the

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<v Speaker 7>email that I don't know, I just didn't feel like

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<v Speaker 7>I was the right person for the pick.

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<v Speaker 1>M hm, why not?

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<v Speaker 7>I don't know, because, uh, there's a lot of people

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<v Speaker 7>in my program. Well, my program's like very strict, so

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<v Speaker 7>like they only pick twenty people out of like hundreds

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<v Speaker 7>of applicants, and I was one of the people to

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<v Speaker 7>get picked for that, and like that's cool at all.

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<v Speaker 7>It's like based off of like your grades and like

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<v Speaker 7>how you interview with like all the teachers and stuff,

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<v Speaker 7>and there's like six teachers that you interview with, and

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<v Speaker 7>you had to do like this professional points thing at

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<v Speaker 7>the end of the schooling. It's like another class and

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<v Speaker 7>it's like a grade. Then, so like one hundred points

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<v Speaker 7>equals one hundred percent for the assignment. Fifty of the

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<v Speaker 7>points comes from applying to this national society, and then

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<v Speaker 7>if you get accepted, that's another fifty points, so then

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<v Speaker 7>you get a hundred right there. And I kind of

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<v Speaker 7>like applied to it the day before it was due

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<v Speaker 7>and you had to like meet a work count for

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<v Speaker 7>the essay, and I got below the work count. But

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<v Speaker 7>then again, there's like you know a bunch of people

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<v Speaker 7>who apply for this stuff, but like I only applied

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<v Speaker 7>just because of the points I wasn't like expecting to

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<v Speaker 7>get accepted. So I'm thinking, like, there's probably other people

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<v Speaker 7>out there that probably would have actually cared, I guess

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<v Speaker 7>in lack of better terms.

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<v Speaker 1>So that's okay that you got a thing they don't

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<v Speaker 1>care that much about.

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<v Speaker 7>Yeah, I guess. I guess it was just like a

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<v Speaker 7>mental thing, like I don't know, like, yeah, I get

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<v Speaker 7>it that.

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<v Speaker 2>Good.

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<v Speaker 1>Listen listen, listen, listen. It's all it's all rigged. It's

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<v Speaker 1>all rigged. You know, you know it's all rigged. It's

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<v Speaker 1>all rigged. Sometimes it's rigged in your favor. Sometimes it's

1:12:20.280 --> 1:12:25.160
<v Speaker 1>rigged against your favor, but it is all rigged. And uh,

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<v Speaker 1>if it's rigged in your favor, you know, it's not

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<v Speaker 1>like you took away something from someone else.

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<v Speaker 7>Maybe yeah, yeah, I feel it.

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<v Speaker 1>So you wrote all that, and then what is your

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<v Speaker 1>favorite Selseia's flavor?

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<v Speaker 7>Essentially? Yeah, something like that, And then I that I

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<v Speaker 7>just like, uh, met you for my boyfriend. Uh, he

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<v Speaker 7>used to listen to you a lot, I guess when

1:12:53.280 --> 1:12:55.280
<v Speaker 7>he was working at a foundry.

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<v Speaker 1>What's he doing now, who's he listened to?

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<v Speaker 7>Who's he listened to?

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<v Speaker 1>Now?

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<v Speaker 4>Uh?

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<v Speaker 7>No one really? I mean he's watching your stream as

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<v Speaker 7>you're talking to me.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, he's not like, uh, he's not like listening to

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<v Speaker 1>the Bad Friends podcast or something.

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<v Speaker 7>No, I don't know if you listen to anybody else. No,

1:13:21.160 --> 1:13:22.960
<v Speaker 7>he doesn't get to listen to anybody at his new

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<v Speaker 7>job like he did in the old one.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh man, can you tell me?

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<v Speaker 7>I said, Hi, he's so highs So what's while?

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<v Speaker 1>I like this guy?

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<v Speaker 5>Like?

1:13:35.080 --> 1:13:36.680
<v Speaker 1>I like this guy. This guy's a cool guy. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>glad that you guys are dating.

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<v Speaker 7>Yeah, he's a cool guys.

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<v Speaker 1>Chi guy.

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<v Speaker 7>What's your name again, Andrea?

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<v Speaker 1>Andrea? Yeah, Andrea? Is there anything else you want to

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<v Speaker 1>say to the people of the computer before we go?

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<v Speaker 7>Yeah, if you are trying to get into the stream, uh,

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<v Speaker 7>call all at minimum?

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<v Speaker 2>You want.

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<v Speaker 1>Good luck on all of your life endeavors.

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<v Speaker 7>Andrea, You two wiles like you're talking.

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<v Speaker 1>But what is your name? Cowboy?

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<v Speaker 8>My name is Lilith.

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<v Speaker 1>Lilith, Yes, Lilith. Where are you calling from? Lilith?

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<v Speaker 8>And I'm calling from Germany?

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<v Speaker 1>Ah, yes, Germany. What part did you wear in Germany?

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<v Speaker 8>I'm pretty much in the middle, like near Frankfurt. You

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<v Speaker 8>might have heard of it. It's like the Silicon Valley

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<v Speaker 8>of Germany.

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<v Speaker 1>Frankfurt is the Silicon Valley of Germany.

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<v Speaker 8>Maybe I don't really know what the Silicon Valley.

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<v Speaker 4>Is, so.

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<v Speaker 1>I respect that. I also use U metaphors and things

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<v Speaker 1>that I don't know what the hell they mean, and

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<v Speaker 1>I've gotten I've gotten a lot of mileage off of

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<v Speaker 1>people not prodding me further on what I mean when

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<v Speaker 1>I say certain things because I would not be able

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<v Speaker 1>to answer them at all.

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<v Speaker 8>It works a lot like when you're talking to someone

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<v Speaker 8>who maybe doesn't really question what you're saying, and it works,

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<v Speaker 8>But when someone called me out can be really embarrassing.

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<v Speaker 1>Aren't those the best kinds of people?

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<v Speaker 4>Though?

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<v Speaker 1>I fucking hate when you start like talking to somebody

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<v Speaker 1>and you're saying things and they ask you to elaborate

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<v Speaker 1>on them. I hate talking to those ye people. I

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<v Speaker 1>want somebody who just will let me say a bunch

1:15:45.439 --> 1:15:48.000
<v Speaker 1>of nonsense to them that may or may not make

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<v Speaker 1>sense and just goes yeah, totally, absolutely. You know, those

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<v Speaker 1>are the best kinds of people. It's people who they

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<v Speaker 1>don't They don't go what do you mean by Rhode Island?

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<v Speaker 1>Is the is the Luxembourg of America? You know? I

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<v Speaker 1>guess they're both small. But that's I don't have the

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<v Speaker 1>I don't have. I'm yeah, fuck those people. I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 1>put it right. I'm gonna put this right here on

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<v Speaker 1>the Therapy Eco podcast. If you're if you're ever asked,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, with your friend and they say something and

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<v Speaker 1>you're like, what do you mean by that? You're a

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<v Speaker 1>fucking asshole. Never ever ask your friends what they mean

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<v Speaker 1>when they say things. Just just say you just say,

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<v Speaker 1>that's a great point. You're awesome. Uh, you're the great, amazing.

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<v Speaker 1>That's I never thought of it that way. What's your

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<v Speaker 1>name again? Lilith? Lilith living in Frankfurt, Germany, the Silicon

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<v Speaker 1>Valley of Germany. What's up? How's life would you want

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<v Speaker 1>to talk about today?

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<v Speaker 8>Life is pretty good right now actually, but something really

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<v Speaker 8>crazy happened to me recently. Name so, I have I

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<v Speaker 8>have one ex boyfriend and right now I actually live

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<v Speaker 8>with my second every boyfriend in an apartment. But I

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<v Speaker 8>have one ex boyfriend and I this crazy story happened recently,

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<v Speaker 8>and I'm trying to think of a fake name for

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<v Speaker 8>my ex boyfriend, Danny. Okay, all right, So we were

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<v Speaker 8>all invited to a mutual friend's birthday party, because I

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<v Speaker 8>come from a small town and everybody kind of know

1:17:41.040 --> 1:17:45.320
<v Speaker 8>each other, or it's not even a small town, but

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<v Speaker 8>there's this gigantic friend group of people who are similar,

1:17:51.720 --> 1:17:57.600
<v Speaker 8>and so everybody's friends with everything, but everybody also gossips

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<v Speaker 8>about each other and kind of secretly hate each other.

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<v Speaker 8>And we were invited to this birthday party at a

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<v Speaker 8>it's like a pub, but it's really cool, and actually

1:18:11.439 --> 1:18:16.080
<v Speaker 8>one of our friend's mothers owns the pub, so that's

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<v Speaker 8>kind of one of the places where shit goes down.

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<v Speaker 6>You know.

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<v Speaker 8>We were at this birthday party and then my ex

1:18:25.200 --> 1:18:28.400
<v Speaker 8>boyfriend also showed up and he kind of invited himself,

1:18:30.600 --> 1:18:35.680
<v Speaker 8>so he was also there. And then I had like

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<v Speaker 8>like eight beers, and I don't know, I was having fun.

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<v Speaker 8>And at some point everybody went outside to smoke cigarettes

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<v Speaker 8>and I was sitting inside rolling a cigarette actually at

1:18:48.640 --> 1:18:51.519
<v Speaker 8>the table, and then he was sitting there and he

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<v Speaker 8>was wearing a T shirt with a with a with

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<v Speaker 8>like the one of the main characters from my favorite

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<v Speaker 8>anime on it and my favorite anime is me on Genesis,

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<v Speaker 8>Evan Gallion, Evan Jelian. I don't know how you pronounced it.

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<v Speaker 8>Do you know it?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm familiar with it.

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<v Speaker 5>Okay, okay.

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<v Speaker 8>So he had he had ray on his T shirt

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<v Speaker 8>like the blue haired girl who's who's not really real,

1:19:22.120 --> 1:19:25.120
<v Speaker 8>and then like a like a funny I don't know,

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<v Speaker 8>like a funny phrase on the T shirt as well,

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<v Speaker 8>and I was it was really awkward because it was

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<v Speaker 8>just the two of us, and I was like, oh,

1:19:35.479 --> 1:19:39.639
<v Speaker 8>nice shirt, and he was he was being stupid and

1:19:39.880 --> 1:19:43.200
<v Speaker 8>I don't know, talking talking to me, but I didn't

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<v Speaker 8>really understand. And then he kept saying, oh, you know,

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<v Speaker 8>I got a tattoo of the anime ha ha, And

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<v Speaker 8>I thought that he was making a joke because I

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<v Speaker 8>actually do have a tattoo of the face of one

1:20:01.200 --> 1:20:05.400
<v Speaker 8>of the characters whose name is Lilith, and so is

1:20:05.479 --> 1:20:08.360
<v Speaker 8>my name, Like that's my name, so naturally I got

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<v Speaker 8>her face tattooed on my right arm, on my right

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<v Speaker 8>under arm. And then I went outside to smoke a cigarette,

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<v Speaker 8>and then it said, oh, Danny wanted to show me

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<v Speaker 8>a tattoo, and then someone else said, oh my god, Lilith,

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<v Speaker 8>Danny got the exact same tattoo as you. And then

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<v Speaker 8>I was like, okay, hold my cigarette and I went

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<v Speaker 8>inside and then I was like, Danny, show me your

1:20:38.479 --> 1:20:40.880
<v Speaker 8>fucking tattoo. And then he showed me his right under

1:20:41.040 --> 1:20:45.280
<v Speaker 8>arm and he has the same tattoo, the exact same

1:20:45.280 --> 1:20:49.679
<v Speaker 8>tattoo as me, which also means my name on his arm.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, did you guys just get the same tattoo kind

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<v Speaker 1>of coincidentally?

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<v Speaker 8>No, I've had this tattoo for many, many years, and

1:21:00.280 --> 1:21:05.960
<v Speaker 8>he knew I had it for years. It was my

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<v Speaker 8>second tattoo, I think, And yeah, I think. I Also

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<v Speaker 8>I made him watch the anime because I was always

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<v Speaker 8>talking about it and he didn't really know it before.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, did did he like when? When when he showed

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<v Speaker 1>it to did he say that he got it because

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<v Speaker 1>of you?

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<v Speaker 4>No?

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<v Speaker 8>Actually he said that he was gonna get some other

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<v Speaker 8>stuff tattooed on his right under arm. And I talked

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<v Speaker 8>to some of his friends about it, and I even

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<v Speaker 8>texted his mom because I was really creeped out, and

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<v Speaker 8>I mean, I don't want this guy to crash out.

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<v Speaker 8>I want him to be well. And so this did

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<v Speaker 8>seem like what a well person would do to me,

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<v Speaker 8>and so and so I texted his mom and he

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<v Speaker 8>and now she texted me back and said and he

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<v Speaker 8>didn't do it too to piss me off, and that

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<v Speaker 8>he's been wanting that tattoo for a long time and

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<v Speaker 8>stuff like that. And I don't know what I expected,

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<v Speaker 8>because she's nicest person in the whole world, and she

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<v Speaker 8>could never I don't know, have a I don't know,

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<v Speaker 8>I don't know it was. It was not what I expected,

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<v Speaker 8>but I don't know what I expected at the same time.

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<v Speaker 8>But yeah, but everybody finds it really weird. I've talked

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<v Speaker 8>to a lot of people about this, and they all

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<v Speaker 8>signed it really disturbing. But for some reason, no one

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<v Speaker 8>said anything about it to him because he also told

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<v Speaker 8>everybody that he was going to get that tattoo. But

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<v Speaker 8>it is well known around my town that that is

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<v Speaker 8>my tattoo, because I can't shut up about the tattoos

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<v Speaker 8>I have, like when I become an animal, when I'm

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<v Speaker 8>a little drunk, and so everybody knows that that is

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<v Speaker 8>the tattoo that I also have.

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<v Speaker 1>When you become an animal, yeah, not like you like.

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<v Speaker 8>In the head, you know, how how.

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<v Speaker 1>Have you become? What happens to you when you become

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<v Speaker 1>an animal?

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<v Speaker 8>When I have when I when I drink wine, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 8>when when I drink wine, I go a little crazy,

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<v Speaker 8>you know.

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<v Speaker 6>Interesting, and then I then I start Then I start

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<v Speaker 6>going up to guys with guitars and tell them to

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<v Speaker 6>play a song.

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<v Speaker 8>And then I sing, but I can't really sing, or

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<v Speaker 8>I start crying and sit somewhere, and or start showing

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<v Speaker 8>people my tattoos and explaining the whole story of the tattoo.

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<v Speaker 8>I guess that's not that crazy.

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<v Speaker 1>But who are you, Lilis? What's what are you doing

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<v Speaker 1>in the middle of Germany?

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<v Speaker 8>I just live here. I just live normal life like

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<v Speaker 8>everybody else.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you What do you dream of.

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<v Speaker 8>I dream of I dream of a quiet world where

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<v Speaker 8>I don't know where everybody is just not afraid to

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<v Speaker 8>be himself. That's so boring, that's so who doesn't dream

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<v Speaker 8>of that?

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<v Speaker 1>But there's a lot of people who don't dream of that.

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<v Speaker 1>Hitler didn't dream of Uh yeah, I don't think. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't think that the president of McDonald's dreams of that.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't think Michael Jordan dreams of that. I think

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<v Speaker 1>he's busy doing like brand deals and running companies and

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<v Speaker 1>stuffy whoever who's in charge of Apple Computers. That guy,

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<v Speaker 1>he doesn't dream of that. Yeah, yeah, there's plenty of

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<v Speaker 1>people who don't dream of that. They're thinking about other stuff.

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<v Speaker 8>Dream of wild horses.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, have you seen a lot of wild horses lately?

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<v Speaker 8>M if I dream? No, I've never seen a wild horse,

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<v Speaker 8>but I would like to very much.

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<v Speaker 1>Do they have those in They have horses in Germany.

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<v Speaker 8>Right, not wild horses. They have lots of horses on

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<v Speaker 8>like enclosures, but not wild horses.

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<v Speaker 1>Sadly, it's a whole ass country. They don't have any

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<v Speaker 1>horses like wild horses. It's not like one.

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<v Speaker 8>No, we don't even have natural lawns. I don't even

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<v Speaker 8>know the English word force, like.

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<v Speaker 5>Just wild grass waste force.

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<v Speaker 8>No, we have forests. We have lots of forests. Most

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<v Speaker 8>of them are artificial though. Visa is the German word

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<v Speaker 8>for just like wild grown lawn, grasp with flowers and FeAs.

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<v Speaker 8>We barely have that. We only have like fields.

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<v Speaker 1>It's really sad, lilis, Yes, where do we go when

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<v Speaker 1>we die?

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<v Speaker 8>Where do we go when we die? Fuck around and

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<v Speaker 8>find out? I don't know what kind of question is that?

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<v Speaker 1>What kind of question is it?

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<v Speaker 5>Yes?

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<v Speaker 1>You know, I thought we established at the beginning of

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<v Speaker 1>this conversation that it's not good to ask people what

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<v Speaker 1>they mean by things.

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<v Speaker 8>Oh my god, I'm so sorry.

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<v Speaker 1>You're right, I forget, I apologize, don't worry about it, loves.

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<v Speaker 8>Yes.

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<v Speaker 1>Is there anything else you want to say to the

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<v Speaker 1>people as the computer before we go?

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<v Speaker 8>M instead of instead of getting getting something tattooed to

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<v Speaker 8>creep or to piss someone off, you should do something else,

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<v Speaker 8>like throw eggs at their house or something like that.

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<v Speaker 8>So don't do that. And then secondly, mhm, lift free

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<v Speaker 8>lifts so freely that you're existence is an act of

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<v Speaker 8>rebellion or whatever. That one guy.

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<v Speaker 1>Said, thank you for calling Lilith, thank you for answering.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't watch anime. That's all nerd shit. No, I've

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<v Speaker 1>did I watch an anime recently? What did I watch recently?

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<v Speaker 1>I watched Sokka Moto Days. I liked that one. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>gonna watch I'm gonna start watching Scavenger Rain. I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know if that counts as anime though I like animation. No,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know. This is anime I watched when I

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<v Speaker 1>was in middle school. It was called Sergeant Frog. The

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<v Speaker 1>main character. If you look this up, it's called Sergeant

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<v Speaker 1>Frog the main character. Actually looks like me. I haven't

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<v Speaker 1>watched that in a while, but I like it a lot,

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<v Speaker 1>so I might go back and watch it. That was

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<v Speaker 1>the Therapy Gecko podcast. I'm Lyle and this This is

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<v Speaker 1>the outro to the Therapy Gecko podcast. That was nice.

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<v Speaker 1>That was a very chit chatty podcast. I guess all

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<v Speaker 1>of them are chit chats.

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<v Speaker 5>I guess.

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<v Speaker 1>I guess all podcasts are kind of chit chats, except

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<v Speaker 1>except like the Batman ones, where they like do like

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<v Speaker 1>a dramatization of Batman. Those aren't chit chats. Those are like,

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<v Speaker 1>tell a story about Batman. Do I have anything else

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<v Speaker 1>to say? I feel like I do. Thanks for listening.

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<v Speaker 1>I say that every time, though, What more do I

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<v Speaker 1>have to say? The more I think, the more I

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<v Speaker 1>the older I get and the more I experience and

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<v Speaker 1>the more I learn, the more I I actually I think.

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<v Speaker 1>The older I get, the more futile it feels to

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<v Speaker 1>feel like I know any thing. But that's actually nice,

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<v Speaker 1>I think, and knowing everything is bad. Knowing everything is bad,

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<v Speaker 1>and not knowing things is okay. It's good. It's actively

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<v Speaker 1>beneficial to life to not know things. So if your

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<v Speaker 1>mom is still around, go look at her. If you

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<v Speaker 1>have anyone else in your house right now, go look

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<v Speaker 1>at them. If you're alone, look in a mirror and go, wow,

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<v Speaker 1>look at that. This is insane psychedelic. All right, thank

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<v Speaker 1>you all. I'll be back soon. Go do something else

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<v Speaker 1>with your life. Go walk around. Maybe you're walking around

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<v Speaker 1>while you're listening to this already. I'm very sleepy. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>gonna go, h am, I gonna go eat the pints

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<v Speaker 1>of ice cream. I really want to fuck. I really

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<v Speaker 1>want to I don't want to do anything besides do that.

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<v Speaker 1>I might. I'll let you know if I end up

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<v Speaker 1>doing it, or actually I probably won't. All right, thank you.

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<v Speaker 5>Ka.

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<v Speaker 1>It goes on the line, taking your phone calls every night.

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<v Speaker 1>The beacon goes to his hide. You're just teaching you

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<v Speaker 1>a loud your line.

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<v Speaker 6>Money's not really an expert.