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Speaker 1: Hello, Hi, What is your name?

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Speaker 2: My name is Shrimp.

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Speaker 1: Shrimp. What's up, Shrimp? How's life?

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Speaker 2: Life is good? I've been waiting to Collin for a while.

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Speaker 2: I'm pretty excited.

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Speaker 1: Fucking hell yeah, man, here we are. We are doing

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Speaker 1: the Gecko Show. This is gonna be a this is

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Speaker 1: this is gonna be a very low key Gecko show.

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Speaker 1: I don't know what the fuck I just said. I

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Speaker 1: don't know what that means, but I.

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Speaker 2: Think they're all pretty low key.

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Speaker 1: You're right, That's why I that's I feel like they're

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Speaker 1: all pretty low key. So I don't know why I

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Speaker 1: specifically mentioned that this was going to be low key.

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Speaker 1: I think what I here's what? Okay? Actually, I'm shrimp.

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Speaker 1: I feel so hard I'm shrimp. I'm completely bullshitting you

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Speaker 1: right now. I know exactly why I said what I

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Speaker 1: just said, and I'm gonna explain to you why I

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Speaker 1: said what I just said. I I said that I'm

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Speaker 1: I'm I think I'm very sleepy right now, and so

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Speaker 1: I said to you, oh, this is going to be

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Speaker 1: a low key Gecko session, because I was trying to

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Speaker 1: absolve myself from responsibility in the event that my sleepiness

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Speaker 1: makes this a bad conversation, and so I was giving

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Speaker 1: myself an out so that if you know, for example,

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Speaker 1: I dozed off while we were talking or spaced out,

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Speaker 1: instead of being like, oh, he's kind of spacing out

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Speaker 1: on me while I'm talking to him, you'll just be like,

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Speaker 1: oh wait, I'm I'm expecting a chill Gecko session. Do

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Speaker 1: you understand the psychology of this?

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Speaker 2: But it's totally fine and Lyle. You know, if you

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Speaker 2: want to tap out any point, this is your show

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Speaker 2: and you can do whatever you want, all right.

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Speaker 1: I appreciate you giving me permission to do that. I

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Speaker 1: genuinely might take up on that. But for now, what's up, shrimp?

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Speaker 1: What do you want to talk about today?

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Speaker 2: Not much?

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Speaker 3: You know, I'm a post grad and you know, living

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Speaker 3: in this pretty much recession and just having a tough

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Speaker 3: time with money, and you know, I'm just struggling along

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Speaker 3: a little bit, but looking for some camaraderie. You know,

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Speaker 3: I feel like I'm a good company on this podcast,

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Speaker 3: so I'm just looking for maybe some advice. I hear

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Speaker 3: you talking about iris and I'm already involved in all that,

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Speaker 3: and I'm just like, what else can I do?

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Speaker 1: You know? You want? You want advice. You want financial advice.

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Speaker 2: I don't want financial advice. I think I'm just kind

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Speaker 2: of like looking to moan a little bit about it's

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Speaker 2: tough out here for the postgrads, and I'm just saying,

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Speaker 2: y'all are alone.

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Speaker 1: How I have I have talked about iras on here

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Speaker 1: a lot, haven't, I like a weird amount?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, And you you're pretty financially literate. It's actually

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Speaker 2: pretty inspiring to hear about. I do take a lot

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Speaker 2: of your advice.

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Speaker 1: From when I listened to Man, I gotta get a

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Speaker 1: I gotta get in with Vanguard or something. Do you

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Speaker 1: know what a high yield savings account is? I was

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Speaker 1: talking to my friend the other day about about high

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Speaker 1: yield savings accounts.

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Speaker 2: I do, and I'm you know, I had to actually

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Speaker 2: pay a lot of taxes because I took money out

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Speaker 2: of an IRA and that I was completely oblivious to

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Speaker 2: the fact that you can't do that. And I was like, crap,

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Speaker 2: So no, not.

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Speaker 1: IRN, not an IRA, A high yield savings account. God,

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Speaker 1: this is exciting banter.

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Speaker 2: A high yield we can talk about something different.

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Speaker 1: Well, it's not yours, although that's not it's not your fault.

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Speaker 1: I'm just I'm just snarking it up.

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Speaker 3: Uh No, I don't have a high yield savings account.

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Speaker 2: Unfortunately.

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Speaker 1: Anyway, what did you graduate with?

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Speaker 4: So?

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Speaker 2: I graduated with a degree in ecology and evolutionary biology.

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Speaker 1: That sounds real. How come you can get a job

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Speaker 1: with that? You know what is annoying?

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Speaker 2: Job?

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Speaker 1: Okay, you have a job. You have a job. You

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Speaker 1: have a job. I was about to say, if you

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Speaker 1: you're a v you're a V tuber?

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Speaker 2: No, no, no, I'm a zoo keeper.

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Speaker 1: Oh I thought you were a v tuber.

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Speaker 2: I was like, all right, no, that would be worse.

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Speaker 2: Oh god, I probably actually would make more money doing that, honestly.

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Speaker 1: I here's the thing is, if you graduate with something real,

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Speaker 1: you went if you go to school for like English

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Speaker 1: if you if you went to it for like biology

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean the unfortunately thaying you know, I wanted

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Speaker 2: with idotic cannibals, and you know, I've done that, and

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Speaker 2: I love my job. And there's a passion tax. You know.

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Speaker 2: I've heard other people that called in before I talk

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Speaker 2: you know, necessarily the wage you should make, you know,

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Speaker 2: but the price you pay is that you go into

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Speaker 2: work every day enjoying what you do.

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Speaker 1: You keep a zoo, I do I do.

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Speaker 2: For the sake of anonymity. I won't say what zoo,

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Speaker 2: but it is an azy a zoo. And yeah, I

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Speaker 2: take care of rhinos and giraffes and africans of stock.

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Speaker 1: What's an asy a zoo?

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Speaker 2: That's it's the Association of Using Aquariums. So that's like

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Speaker 2: the highest, uh kind of governing body of animals and captivities.

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Speaker 1: Oh so you work at like a major zoo.

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Speaker 4: Yeah yeah, dude, hell yeah.

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Speaker 1: Do you like because zoos are interesting because they're like

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Speaker 1: half like entertainment tourist attraction and half educational center.

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Speaker 2: Yeah yeah, And so I like initially wanted to get

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Speaker 2: So I feel good about that.

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Speaker 6: But yeah, it's nice.

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Speaker 2: I also like getting to interact with the guests like

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Speaker 2: day to day and like educating people. That's a funny

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Speaker 2: part of my job.

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Speaker 1: Now, what's your favorite animal at the zoo?

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Speaker 2: I do love the rhinos. I can't lie. I'm a

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Speaker 1: What is it about the rhinos?

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Speaker 2: They're kind of just like big horses. They're super for

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Speaker 2: like gentle, they love getting scripted, they train really well,

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Speaker 1: But now, okay, so if you're not making that much money, now,

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Speaker 1: is there like, uh, what's the career trajectory in zoom keeping?

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Speaker 1: Can you over the years? Is it like a long

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Speaker 2: That's just the thing. It's like a lot of the

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Speaker 2: I'm a younger keeper that I've gotten the privilege to

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Speaker 2: kind of move pretty quickly ahead in their career as

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Speaker 2: opposed to some other people. But I think I'm as

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Speaker 2: I can, you know, do this forever. As as happy

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Speaker 2: I think afterwards I probably want to do something with

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Speaker 2: a solid long term career plan. But yeah, for now,

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Speaker 2: it's it's fun getting to interact with all these animals

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Speaker 1: What's going on in uh US fish and Wildlife are they?

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Speaker 1: Is that? Like you're do you work for the governments?

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Speaker 1: Do you go fishing? What do you do?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, Honestly, I'm not like totally sure. I'm not totally

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Speaker 2: well versed in that career. I don't know many people,

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Speaker 2: if any, like that are part of it. But yeah,

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Speaker 2: it is part of the government. So those are the

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Speaker 2: I didn't grow a cohunting or anything, but you know,

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Speaker 2: know it's a good cause. But as of recently, you

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Speaker 2: these governments have got those agencies, uh have just gotten

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Speaker 2: their budget slash. So you know, we'll see in a

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Speaker 2: working for those I think that's a good noble cause.

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Speaker 1: What's an animal one world? What's an animal that most

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Speaker 1: people don't know about? Like everyone knows about monkeys and giraffes,

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Speaker 2: That's a super good question. Let me think. Okay, I'll

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Speaker 2: give you guys one animal that I'm about to get

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Speaker 2: on grounds at my VIOO. It's called a diker. It's

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Speaker 2: the d u I K E R. And there are antelope,

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Speaker 2: yeah dyker, so yellow backed diker is one of those animals.

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Speaker 2: They're really neat. They're kind of like little forest antelope

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Speaker 2: that are just kind of strange. I recommend looking it up.

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Speaker 1: And now what do they eat?

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Speaker 2: And so you all sorts of brows, which is like

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Speaker 2: similar to like a what a goat would eat you know,

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Speaker 2: mm hm. But they're they're kind of neat.

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Speaker 1: Look do they get by? Do they get eaten by anything?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, so they can get eaten by like leopards. That's

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Speaker 2: probably the most common thing. Earlier today I was doing

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Speaker 2: exams on sable antelope. Those guys are pretty neat or

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Speaker 2: my favorite, like weird marsupial is a water apossum. I've

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Speaker 2: looked those up. They're pretty neat.

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Speaker 1: Would you rather have? All right, you can have a

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Speaker 1: million dollars, but all dikers have to die? What would

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Speaker 1: you have if you do? No?

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Speaker 2: I would not take my million dollars. The dikers can live.

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Speaker 1: What what about like? Uh, what about like a species

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Speaker 1: of bug? Like something no one cares about? Like you like, like,

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Speaker 1: is there any species of bug that you would eradicate

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Speaker 1: from the world and you get a million dollars?

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Speaker 2: It's just super like simple answer, But mosquitoes can go.

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Speaker 2: They don't serve any like ecological purpose. They're pretty they're

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Speaker 2: pretty crappy. Bug.

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Speaker 1: Now, I now I'm going to fight you on this.

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Speaker 1: What is what does it mean to serve an ecological purpose?

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Speaker 1: Because fucking doesn't doesn't simply existing cause an ecological purpose.

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Speaker 2: That's a fair point. Yeah, I mean, I will say

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Speaker 2: ecological purpose in the form I guess in terms of insects.

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Speaker 2: That could be like digesting bacteria like the tritis, anything

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Speaker 2: like that. Insects are pretty important in our world. But

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Speaker 2: It costs your dollars to be kind? Just be nice

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Speaker 5: Yeah? My name is Jay. How are you?

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Speaker 1: Jay? How am I? I'm actually doing all right today.

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Speaker 1: Wow, this is just awesome, dude. Thanks man.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, Bro, I enjoy your content. I love watching your

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Speaker 1: Thank you. That makes me. That makes me feel really nice.

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Speaker 1: What did you say your name is? Did I get

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Speaker 5: Yeah, definitely, Yeah, definitely. And I think talking about my

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Speaker 5: story ever since. We met the summer of twenty twenty

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Speaker 5: and we had our first go ahead, go ahead, sorry,

437
00:27:01,880 --> 00:27:03,159
Speaker 5: oh yeah, I was just gonna say we met the

438
00:27:03,160 --> 00:27:07,159
Speaker 5: summer of twenty twenty, and we had our daughter the

439
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Speaker 5: summer of twenty.

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Speaker 1: One, and no drugs you said, we're totally done with

441
00:27:14,280 --> 00:27:14,960
Speaker 1: drugs now.

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00:27:17,119 --> 00:27:22,520
Speaker 5: Oh yeah, yeah, like I said, since last March, I

443
00:27:22,640 --> 00:27:27,719
Speaker 5: quote unquote, I guess have quit weed, but I've smoked

444
00:27:27,720 --> 00:27:31,760
Speaker 5: four times in the past year. But like I said,

445
00:27:31,320 --> 00:27:35,520
Speaker 5: I drink beer. But yeah, I don't do anything anymore.

446
00:27:36,600 --> 00:27:40,920
Speaker 5: I take the responsibility of being a dad very seriously,

447
00:27:41,000 --> 00:27:45,280
Speaker 5: and I bust my ass at work and try to

448
00:27:45,320 --> 00:27:50,920
Speaker 5: get over time. And yeah, no drugs, man, no drugs.

449
00:27:50,960 --> 00:27:55,200
Speaker 5: I take the responsibility of providing for my children very seriously.

450
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Speaker 1: How is how is that responsibility going for you?

451
00:28:00,080 --> 00:28:00,320
Speaker 5: Are you?

452
00:28:00,400 --> 00:28:03,920
Speaker 1: Are you enjoying it? Are you feeling fulfilled and happy

453
00:28:04,040 --> 00:28:07,320
Speaker 1: and safe and all those good things?

454
00:28:08,160 --> 00:28:13,800
Speaker 5: Man? I mean, don't get me wrong, I am fulfilled.

455
00:28:15,240 --> 00:28:19,639
Speaker 5: It's just a lot, especially you know, I have a

456
00:28:19,720 --> 00:28:23,800
Speaker 5: four four year old, a two year old and a

457
00:28:23,880 --> 00:28:32,199
Speaker 5: one month old, and it's it's like a circus. I

458
00:28:32,240 --> 00:28:35,960
Speaker 5: love them a lot. It's just sometimes it's very stressful

459
00:28:37,520 --> 00:28:42,240
Speaker 5: and and I don't I don't, I don't know how

460
00:28:42,240 --> 00:28:46,800
Speaker 5: to express those feelings. It's like I am, I'm definitely fulfilled.

461
00:28:46,800 --> 00:28:52,840
Speaker 5: I love them a lot. Sometimes though I wish we

462
00:28:52,880 --> 00:28:55,800
Speaker 5: would have waited until we were a little more stable.

463
00:28:56,080 --> 00:28:59,080
Speaker 5: And it's not like we're not stable. You know, my

464
00:28:59,120 --> 00:29:03,760
Speaker 5: wife and I we both work and we have a

465
00:29:03,800 --> 00:29:11,480
Speaker 5: decent sized apartment, and but it's definitely a lot. You know,

466
00:29:12,760 --> 00:29:15,200
Speaker 5: I'm gonna turn twenty nine in a couple of months,

467
00:29:15,240 --> 00:29:19,440
Speaker 5: and it's definitely a lot right now. You know, like

468
00:29:19,520 --> 00:29:26,560
Speaker 5: people at work they're eight six years older and they

469
00:29:26,600 --> 00:29:30,000
Speaker 5: don't have three kids, And I don't know. Sometimes I'm

470
00:29:30,080 --> 00:29:33,320
Speaker 5: just like, man, what would it be like if we

471
00:29:33,320 --> 00:29:37,320
Speaker 5: weren't so financially stressed, you know what I mean. So,

472
00:29:38,000 --> 00:29:42,880
Speaker 5: but I definitely enjoy being a parent. Bro. I love

473
00:29:42,920 --> 00:29:45,200
Speaker 5: them so much and they make me so happy, and

474
00:29:48,040 --> 00:29:52,840
Speaker 5: but it's definitely very stressful to try to make everything work,

475
00:29:52,960 --> 00:29:57,840
Speaker 5: you know, rent and food and diapers and wipes and

476
00:29:58,120 --> 00:29:59,840
Speaker 5: you know, blah blah blah blah blah.

477
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Speaker 1: So but I bet it makes you. My understanding of

478
00:30:04,640 --> 00:30:07,720
Speaker 1: it is that it puts you very much like in life.

479
00:30:08,320 --> 00:30:11,200
Speaker 1: You know, there's not a lot of time to you know,

480
00:30:11,480 --> 00:30:15,080
Speaker 1: fritter away thinking about bullshit when you have, you know,

481
00:30:15,240 --> 00:30:16,640
Speaker 1: all that responsibility.

482
00:30:18,680 --> 00:30:21,640
Speaker 5: Yeah, definitely, Like I said, I work full time, and

483
00:30:21,720 --> 00:30:24,240
Speaker 5: you know, I come home and my wife works nice

484
00:30:24,360 --> 00:30:29,520
Speaker 5: because child cares insanely expensive, and so I come home

485
00:30:29,560 --> 00:30:32,440
Speaker 5: and she leaves and I take care of them, and

486
00:30:32,480 --> 00:30:36,000
Speaker 5: when I put them to bed, I do school. I'm

487
00:30:36,000 --> 00:30:41,240
Speaker 5: in school full time. It's all online. Yeah, there's not

488
00:30:41,280 --> 00:30:45,640
Speaker 5: a lot of time to to worry about bullshit. I

489
00:30:45,680 --> 00:30:48,360
Speaker 5: guess you just got to do it. And I know

490
00:30:48,520 --> 00:30:51,640
Speaker 5: at a certain point in my life financial stress will

491
00:30:51,640 --> 00:30:55,280
Speaker 5: go away. My wife. My wife wants to do school

492
00:30:55,280 --> 00:30:58,600
Speaker 5: and I'm currently doing my school, and you know, hopefully

493
00:31:00,120 --> 00:31:02,400
Speaker 5: it will all pay off in a couple of years,

494
00:31:02,480 --> 00:31:06,840
Speaker 5: will be finding like financially stable for once in our life,

495
00:31:06,840 --> 00:31:12,640
Speaker 5: and everything will just kind of be smooth sailing. That's

496
00:31:12,720 --> 00:31:15,040
Speaker 5: the hope and the dream of of course.

497
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Speaker 1: What is your name again? I know you've made one

498
00:31:18,720 --> 00:31:19,200
Speaker 1: up for me.

499
00:31:21,000 --> 00:31:22,680
Speaker 5: Oh it's Jay. Jay.

500
00:31:24,960 --> 00:31:29,800
Speaker 1: Well, thanks for sharing your life story. Jay is interesting. Yeah,

501
00:31:29,800 --> 00:31:32,800
Speaker 1: I've been thinking a lot about like, uh, like kids

502
00:31:32,800 --> 00:31:35,880
Speaker 1: and what life with kids would would look like. So

503
00:31:35,920 --> 00:31:39,440
Speaker 1: it's definitely a subject that I'm quite fascinated in. But

504
00:31:39,480 --> 00:31:43,480
Speaker 1: it seems across the board the people that I've talked

505
00:31:43,520 --> 00:31:47,200
Speaker 1: to about it feel as though the responsibility that it

506
00:31:47,200 --> 00:31:51,240
Speaker 1: gives them is like a good thing, uh and makes them,

507
00:31:51,360 --> 00:31:55,520
Speaker 1: you know, feel fulfilled and nice. So I appreciate you

508
00:31:55,560 --> 00:31:58,920
Speaker 1: giving giving us your perspective on on how it's a

509
00:31:59,000 --> 00:31:59,600
Speaker 1: role in your life.

510
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Speaker 5: Man, can I can I ask you a question?

511
00:32:02,960 --> 00:32:03,200
Speaker 4: Lyle?

512
00:32:03,440 --> 00:32:04,720
Speaker 1: Yeah, go ahead and hit me.

513
00:32:05,440 --> 00:32:07,560
Speaker 5: Like I said, I've listened to you forever, and I

514
00:32:07,600 --> 00:32:10,040
Speaker 5: listened to like I listened to your podcast today and

515
00:32:10,200 --> 00:32:13,600
Speaker 5: just like five minutes ago, I was watching you on YouTube.

516
00:32:13,960 --> 00:32:16,320
Speaker 5: Do you have someone special in your life? Like, I

517
00:32:16,600 --> 00:32:18,640
Speaker 5: don't hear anyone really asking about you.

518
00:32:19,720 --> 00:32:22,520
Speaker 1: People ask about me. People do ask about me.

519
00:32:23,920 --> 00:32:25,160
Speaker 5: Not very often though.

520
00:32:25,760 --> 00:32:28,680
Speaker 1: You look just at the beginning, Look at the beginning

521
00:32:28,720 --> 00:32:30,280
Speaker 1: of this call, you asked me how I was doing.

522
00:32:30,520 --> 00:32:32,040
Speaker 1: That Was that was asking about me?

523
00:32:33,360 --> 00:32:36,840
Speaker 5: Right? I? Yeah, I guess that was.

524
00:32:36,840 --> 00:32:41,240
Speaker 1: Asking about me. I feel like I volunteer a decent

525
00:32:41,320 --> 00:32:45,080
Speaker 1: amount of maybe of I guess I volunteer a decent

526
00:32:45,120 --> 00:32:52,240
Speaker 1: amount of I guess emotional information, uh like, less logistical information.

527
00:32:53,280 --> 00:32:57,200
Speaker 1: But I'm not married. If that's what you're asking.

528
00:32:59,200 --> 00:33:02,000
Speaker 5: No, that's not I would. Do you have anyone special

529
00:33:02,040 --> 00:33:02,600
Speaker 5: in your life?

530
00:33:02,960 --> 00:33:06,680
Speaker 1: Do I have anything that maybe that maybe.

531
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Speaker 5: You feel like, yeah, I could have kids, Yeah, I

532
00:33:09,160 --> 00:33:12,320
Speaker 5: could spend forever with this person person.

533
00:33:12,720 --> 00:33:17,800
Speaker 1: No, I don't have anyone in my life that I'm

534
00:33:18,360 --> 00:33:24,040
Speaker 1: at this moment, like ready to spend forever with.

535
00:33:25,680 --> 00:33:26,600
Speaker 5: Right, right.

536
00:33:28,120 --> 00:33:33,120
Speaker 1: That being being I think being married and having children

537
00:33:33,760 --> 00:33:37,280
Speaker 1: would be nice, but I also feel it's something I

538
00:33:37,280 --> 00:33:40,040
Speaker 1: would definitely like to do in my lifetime.

539
00:33:42,080 --> 00:33:45,480
Speaker 5: But I could see you being a great parent, just

540
00:33:46,560 --> 00:33:52,320
Speaker 5: like like I don't know, like just listening to you

541
00:33:52,360 --> 00:33:54,400
Speaker 5: and watching you all these years, like I feel like

542
00:33:55,080 --> 00:33:58,120
Speaker 5: I know you in a sense even though we've never met, right,

543
00:33:58,560 --> 00:34:02,400
Speaker 5: And I feel like you would be a very good parent,

544
00:34:02,680 --> 00:34:07,560
Speaker 5: Like you're just like calm, collective, and I don't know,

545
00:34:07,600 --> 00:34:10,160
Speaker 5: some of the insights you have have really helped you

546
00:34:10,200 --> 00:34:12,680
Speaker 5: know in my life and them, I feel like you'd

547
00:34:12,719 --> 00:34:14,640
Speaker 5: be a good parent, Lyle, I feel like you'd be

548
00:34:14,680 --> 00:34:15,520
Speaker 5: a big ass dad.

549
00:34:15,880 --> 00:34:18,200
Speaker 1: You want to fucking be my son, I'll adopt you.

550
00:34:21,200 --> 00:34:22,840
Speaker 5: Hell yeah, even though I'm older than you.

551
00:34:22,960 --> 00:34:25,319
Speaker 1: Hell yeah, I'll be your son. I'll be your I'll

552
00:34:25,320 --> 00:34:28,000
Speaker 1: be your son. You can be my son, and I'll

553
00:34:28,000 --> 00:34:31,080
Speaker 1: be I'll be your father, and h your children. Your

554
00:34:31,120 --> 00:34:35,719
Speaker 1: children could be my grandchildren and and that way, and

555
00:34:35,760 --> 00:34:37,880
Speaker 1: then you can see. Then you can see for yourself

556
00:34:37,920 --> 00:34:42,360
Speaker 1: whether or not I would be a good father. You

557
00:34:42,400 --> 00:34:46,480
Speaker 1: can see for yourself. I'll feed you, I'll uh what

558
00:34:47,080 --> 00:34:51,280
Speaker 1: I'll change your diaper. I'll do it all. You'll be like, dude,

559
00:34:51,280 --> 00:34:54,440
Speaker 1: I'll be literally you'll be spade out on a table

560
00:34:55,040 --> 00:34:57,279
Speaker 1: and you can take a ship in your underwear and

561
00:34:57,320 --> 00:34:59,520
Speaker 1: I'll change them and you could be like I was right, dude,

562
00:34:59,520 --> 00:35:00,759
Speaker 1: Liles of gre are you fucking dead?

563
00:35:03,000 --> 00:35:05,160
Speaker 5: I don't think you want to see that, but hey,

564
00:35:05,360 --> 00:35:07,279
Speaker 5: if you want to go that route, let's do it.

565
00:35:07,320 --> 00:35:10,640
Speaker 1: Bro, what's your day? Is there anything else you want

566
00:35:10,680 --> 00:35:12,640
Speaker 1: to say to thee I'm sorry I forgot the fake

567
00:35:12,680 --> 00:35:14,239
Speaker 1: name that you gave me again, but I'm bad with it.

568
00:35:14,320 --> 00:35:15,319
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the

569
00:35:15,320 --> 00:35:16,560
Speaker 1: people of the computer Before we go?

570
00:35:18,920 --> 00:35:22,759
Speaker 5: I just want to say, like, this is awesome. I

571
00:35:22,760 --> 00:35:26,440
Speaker 5: didn't expect to get through. I really enjoyed talking to you,

572
00:35:28,719 --> 00:35:30,839
Speaker 5: and I hope you keep doing this podcast. I know

573
00:35:30,880 --> 00:35:33,480
Speaker 5: you have you know your own doubts as a human,

574
00:35:33,680 --> 00:35:39,200
Speaker 5: but Bro, just keep pushing forward. And like I I

575
00:35:39,520 --> 00:35:41,839
Speaker 5: every every day when I get to work, I look

576
00:35:41,880 --> 00:35:44,400
Speaker 5: on Spotify and see if a new podcast came out,

577
00:35:44,440 --> 00:35:46,200
Speaker 5: and if it does, You're the first thing I listened

578
00:35:46,200 --> 00:35:48,399
Speaker 5: to in the morning. So just just keep pushing. Bro.

579
00:35:48,800 --> 00:35:50,520
Speaker 1: Hey, thanks for having me in your ears. Man, I

580
00:35:50,560 --> 00:35:53,920
Speaker 1: really appreciate it. I'll I'll keep seeing you around the

581
00:35:54,000 --> 00:35:57,719
Speaker 1: universe of the computer, my friends. And congratulations on your

582
00:35:57,719 --> 00:35:58,759
Speaker 1: beautiful life.

583
00:36:00,520 --> 00:36:03,120
Speaker 5: You know what. Congratulations on your beautiful life as well. Le.

584
00:36:03,440 --> 00:36:08,840
Speaker 1: Thank you, buddy. Hey, take care man, you too. That

585
00:36:08,920 --> 00:36:11,200
Speaker 1: was a sweet guy. That was a nice guy. That's

586
00:36:11,200 --> 00:36:16,080
Speaker 1: gonna be my son one day. I respect, respect having

587
00:36:16,160 --> 00:36:23,320
Speaker 1: the responsibility to have kids. Do I have somebody special

588
00:36:23,360 --> 00:36:23,920
Speaker 1: in my life?

589
00:36:27,480 --> 00:36:27,799
Speaker 4: You know?

590
00:36:28,280 --> 00:36:36,120
Speaker 1: I am? You know? Nah, you know whatever. All right,

591
00:36:36,440 --> 00:36:39,799
Speaker 1: let's keep going. Hi.

592
00:36:39,880 --> 00:36:41,800
Speaker 4: What's your name, Darren?

593
00:36:43,160 --> 00:36:45,320
Speaker 1: Darren? What's up? Darren?

594
00:36:46,840 --> 00:36:50,319
Speaker 4: Isn't that much bro, It's a cloudy day. Decided to

595
00:36:50,320 --> 00:36:52,440
Speaker 4: call you, and I'm surprised I got through.

596
00:36:53,120 --> 00:36:57,360
Speaker 1: Here we are, Darren. Here we are, Darren. Here we are.

597
00:36:57,840 --> 00:37:02,759
Speaker 1: We're talking on a podcast cast listened to by at

598
00:37:02,840 --> 00:37:05,600
Speaker 1: least one hundred people, which is pretty cool.

599
00:37:07,040 --> 00:37:08,080
Speaker 4: Yeah, that's pretty cool.

600
00:37:08,320 --> 00:37:11,799
Speaker 1: We're chatting, we're chatting. We're alive. What's up?

601
00:37:11,840 --> 00:37:12,000
Speaker 4: Oh?

602
00:37:12,080 --> 00:37:14,760
Speaker 1: Yeah, how's it going? Man, Let's talk.

603
00:37:15,960 --> 00:37:18,480
Speaker 4: It's going like I will say, life is going all right.

604
00:37:18,560 --> 00:37:21,480
Speaker 4: But you know, I'm living life, you know, trying to

605
00:37:21,480 --> 00:37:25,560
Speaker 4: have a good time. You know, we're here in the earth. Yeah,

606
00:37:25,760 --> 00:37:27,600
Speaker 4: I mean, I decided to call you, and I'm the

607
00:37:27,640 --> 00:37:31,520
Speaker 4: surprise that I got through. That's amazing. It's it's it's

608
00:37:31,560 --> 00:37:32,360
Speaker 4: freaking amazing.

609
00:37:34,160 --> 00:37:36,080
Speaker 1: Did you have anything you want to talk about today, Darren?

610
00:37:36,200 --> 00:37:38,400
Speaker 1: It's fine if not, we can just palor around.

611
00:37:39,440 --> 00:37:43,520
Speaker 4: Well, I guess I'll say light you. You know, well,

612
00:37:43,600 --> 00:37:47,520
Speaker 4: what will you thinking about? What is life like? What?

613
00:37:47,640 --> 00:37:48,720
Speaker 4: What's the point of living?

614
00:37:50,360 --> 00:37:52,399
Speaker 1: What is life? And what's the point of living? Those

615
00:37:52,400 --> 00:37:54,880
Speaker 1: are great questions. I've been wrestling with a lot of

616
00:37:54,880 --> 00:37:59,400
Speaker 1: those questions, and you know, Darren, I have realized something.

617
00:37:59,719 --> 00:38:02,040
Speaker 1: I've realized something, Darren. Do you know what I've realized.

618
00:38:03,840 --> 00:38:08,360
Speaker 1: I've realized that the questions, what's the point of living?

619
00:38:08,680 --> 00:38:11,560
Speaker 1: What is life? You know? What happens after we die?

620
00:38:11,600 --> 00:38:13,120
Speaker 1: What is consciousness? Why am I?

621
00:38:13,239 --> 00:38:13,319
Speaker 4: Me?

622
00:38:13,440 --> 00:38:16,399
Speaker 1: And other people are other people? I've been really I've

623
00:38:16,440 --> 00:38:19,760
Speaker 1: just deeply been wrestling with a lot of these questions

624
00:38:19,760 --> 00:38:26,600
Speaker 1: in kind of a scary existential way for about two months.

625
00:38:27,040 --> 00:38:32,080
Speaker 1: It's been really scary and weird, and I felt like

626
00:38:32,080 --> 00:38:36,680
Speaker 1: I've been in a Bizarrokohan Brothers movie or something, just

627
00:38:36,719 --> 00:38:40,480
Speaker 1: by the nature of my own consciousness being a bit

628
00:38:40,520 --> 00:38:43,359
Speaker 1: of a torment for it, and not because I'm dark

629
00:38:43,400 --> 00:38:46,560
Speaker 1: and cool, but just because it's bizarre. It's a weird

630
00:38:46,840 --> 00:38:49,759
Speaker 1: thing to be alive. And I've been thinking about the

631
00:38:49,800 --> 00:38:52,399
Speaker 1: answers to these questions and then I realized, wait a minute,

632
00:38:52,440 --> 00:38:56,000
Speaker 1: I'm actually not dark and cool at all, because people

633
00:38:56,040 --> 00:39:00,720
Speaker 1: have been trying to answer these questions since the fucking

634
00:39:01,160 --> 00:39:07,640
Speaker 1: dawn of man. I mean, philosophers and whatever, science, fucking

635
00:39:07,760 --> 00:39:11,960
Speaker 1: people and religion people, everyone's been trying to answer these questions.

636
00:39:12,000 --> 00:39:14,920
Speaker 1: It's people way smarter than me. I mean, I've dedicated

637
00:39:15,560 --> 00:39:18,680
Speaker 1: two months of going on Reddit and talking to chat

638
00:39:18,680 --> 00:39:22,520
Speaker 1: GPT other people. They dedicate their whole lives. They read books,

639
00:39:22,560 --> 00:39:24,840
Speaker 1: they write books, They try to find the answers to

640
00:39:24,880 --> 00:39:28,799
Speaker 1: the universe. They take science, they do the theory of

641
00:39:28,840 --> 00:39:30,800
Speaker 1: the unit, whatever the fuck that is by that fucking

642
00:39:30,840 --> 00:39:33,920
Speaker 1: the guy in the wheelchair, you know, Okay, And you

643
00:39:34,000 --> 00:39:37,720
Speaker 1: know what's the craziest part about all these people throughout

644
00:39:37,800 --> 00:39:41,239
Speaker 1: the history of consciousness looking for the answers to all

645
00:39:41,320 --> 00:39:43,919
Speaker 1: these questions, Darren, do you want to know the craziest thing.

646
00:39:44,640 --> 00:39:45,719
Speaker 4: What's the craziest thing.

647
00:39:46,080 --> 00:39:51,879
Speaker 1: They don't have an answer, Darren. They don't have an

648
00:39:51,920 --> 00:39:55,720
Speaker 1: objective answer to any of these questions. So my dumb

649
00:39:55,760 --> 00:39:58,239
Speaker 1: ass is not gonna get high and figure it out

650
00:39:58,400 --> 00:40:02,560
Speaker 1: right now and probably not ever in my lifetime, and

651
00:40:02,880 --> 00:40:07,520
Speaker 1: possibly not ever for the entirety that any life is

652
00:40:07,560 --> 00:40:10,680
Speaker 1: ever any all things. And so you know what I'm

653
00:40:10,680 --> 00:40:15,880
Speaker 1: gonna do in the face of that information, Darren. Yes,

654
00:40:16,520 --> 00:40:18,880
Speaker 1: I'm gonna go on walks. I'm gonna hang out with

655
00:40:18,920 --> 00:40:23,239
Speaker 1: my friends. I'm gonna make cool interesting things. I'm gonna

656
00:40:23,320 --> 00:40:26,960
Speaker 1: eat a chicken parmesan sandwich. I'm gonna watch a YouTube

657
00:40:27,040 --> 00:40:31,520
Speaker 1: video that goes through the history of weird pop tart flavors.

658
00:40:31,800 --> 00:40:34,439
Speaker 1: And then I'm gonna die, And you know what, it's

659
00:40:34,480 --> 00:40:37,560
Speaker 1: gonna be as nice as it can be. That's what

660
00:40:37,600 --> 00:40:38,200
Speaker 1: I'm gonna do.

661
00:40:39,880 --> 00:40:42,520
Speaker 4: I could agree with that right now. I'm just you know,

662
00:40:42,800 --> 00:40:46,000
Speaker 4: living life and putting putting my dog. You know it's

663
00:40:46,040 --> 00:40:48,680
Speaker 4: a good thing. Life is, you know, having a good time.

664
00:40:49,600 --> 00:40:51,960
Speaker 4: Life is living with your pets, Life is living good

665
00:40:52,000 --> 00:40:54,600
Speaker 4: with your friends, and life is you know what, did

666
00:40:54,640 --> 00:40:57,200
Speaker 4: whatever you want have a good time. You're hearing this

667
00:40:57,800 --> 00:41:00,759
Speaker 4: thing called earth, and you know what make the best

668
00:41:00,800 --> 00:41:01,200
Speaker 4: out of it?

669
00:41:01,680 --> 00:41:04,120
Speaker 1: Do you think the you know it's is when people

670
00:41:04,160 --> 00:41:12,800
Speaker 1: would say before I went crazy, I people would say, oh,

671
00:41:12,920 --> 00:41:15,239
Speaker 1: are we like the idea that we're living in a

672
00:41:15,280 --> 00:41:19,480
Speaker 1: simulation that never made sense, That never made sense to me.

673
00:41:19,680 --> 00:41:24,040
Speaker 1: And then lately the idea I've come around to it

674
00:41:24,120 --> 00:41:27,560
Speaker 1: that we might be living in a simulation.

675
00:41:29,040 --> 00:41:31,200
Speaker 4: You might never know. We could have taken the rip

676
00:41:31,480 --> 00:41:34,359
Speaker 4: red pill, blue pill sometime in our life, and you know,

677
00:41:34,680 --> 00:41:37,160
Speaker 4: either we're living here in this life or we're living

678
00:41:37,160 --> 00:41:40,160
Speaker 4: here in this simulation, but who knows. Man, it's it's

679
00:41:40,560 --> 00:41:42,799
Speaker 4: it's like we're living in GTA. You know, life is

680
00:41:42,880 --> 00:41:46,239
Speaker 4: fucking wild and things could happen left to right.

681
00:41:48,200 --> 00:41:49,680
Speaker 1: You ever seen The Truman Show?

682
00:41:50,680 --> 00:41:52,000
Speaker 4: Yes, I have, it's a good movie.

683
00:41:52,520 --> 00:41:55,560
Speaker 1: Yeah, I think about that ship not that like life's

684
00:41:55,600 --> 00:41:59,800
Speaker 1: the TV show. But it's a very narcissistic thing to think.

685
00:42:00,760 --> 00:42:05,120
Speaker 1: But there also is like weird, like your consciousness is

686
00:42:05,160 --> 00:42:08,279
Speaker 1: the only consciousness that's verifiable. There's a word for this.

687
00:42:08,320 --> 00:42:09,960
Speaker 1: I think I talked about this in the end of

688
00:42:09,960 --> 00:42:15,279
Speaker 1: recent podcasts. And so you could argue that because you're

689
00:42:15,320 --> 00:42:18,880
Speaker 1: the only conscious being that you can like truly verify

690
00:42:18,960 --> 00:42:23,360
Speaker 1: their consciousness, that you actually are at the center of

691
00:42:23,360 --> 00:42:25,319
Speaker 1: the universe and you are the only living thing and

692
00:42:25,400 --> 00:42:28,400
Speaker 1: your personal life is a simulation and you live in

693
00:42:28,440 --> 00:42:29,160
Speaker 1: the Truman Show.

694
00:42:30,520 --> 00:42:33,600
Speaker 4: It's like saying, like there's infinite stars. You know, each

695
00:42:33,640 --> 00:42:35,759
Speaker 4: star has its own life, and we could be one

696
00:42:35,760 --> 00:42:38,600
Speaker 4: of those stars in this infinite universe. You know, I'm

697
00:42:38,640 --> 00:42:42,279
Speaker 4: a sucker for galaxies and space and stars like that.

698
00:42:42,360 --> 00:42:44,919
Speaker 4: But you know I always look up into the sky.

699
00:42:45,000 --> 00:42:48,040
Speaker 4: I'm like, you know what that's in the whole? Another

700
00:42:48,120 --> 00:42:50,759
Speaker 4: planet when I'm thingling like that, and you know it

701
00:42:50,760 --> 00:42:51,400
Speaker 4: could be different.

702
00:42:52,960 --> 00:42:56,200
Speaker 1: What planet do you want to visit the most?

703
00:42:57,200 --> 00:43:00,279
Speaker 4: To be honest, I do not know. But if is

704
00:43:00,360 --> 00:43:03,839
Speaker 4: out there and the stars, sky space stuff like that,

705
00:43:05,120 --> 00:43:07,239
Speaker 4: I would like to visit a planet where it's like,

706
00:43:07,280 --> 00:43:09,480
Speaker 4: you know what, life is good. Life is better than

707
00:43:09,480 --> 00:43:10,880
Speaker 4: what I'm living at.

708
00:43:12,560 --> 00:43:13,799
Speaker 1: Would you ever go to the Moon?

709
00:43:15,200 --> 00:43:15,759
Speaker 4: I would love to.

710
00:43:17,600 --> 00:43:18,640
Speaker 1: What would you want to do there?

711
00:43:20,880 --> 00:43:21,560
Speaker 5: Space walker?

712
00:43:21,600 --> 00:43:24,560
Speaker 4: You know, space jump and you know, just throw myself

713
00:43:24,600 --> 00:43:28,480
Speaker 4: out there, levitate, you know, and just discover moon people

714
00:43:28,480 --> 00:43:30,200
Speaker 4: out there. If it's possible.

715
00:43:31,000 --> 00:43:33,239
Speaker 1: Bro, if you were on the Moon, you would be

716
00:43:33,320 --> 00:43:34,120
Speaker 1: the moon person.

717
00:43:36,000 --> 00:43:38,520
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's true. I'll be the only moon person on

718
00:43:38,560 --> 00:43:39,399
Speaker 4: the Moon. On the Moon.

719
00:43:40,920 --> 00:43:41,279
Speaker 5: What is it?

720
00:43:41,800 --> 00:43:43,960
Speaker 1: Who are you? Darren? Who are you? What is your

721
00:43:44,000 --> 00:43:44,440
Speaker 1: life like?

722
00:43:46,040 --> 00:43:50,120
Speaker 4: My life is I'm a guy who likes going to shows.

723
00:43:51,080 --> 00:43:55,520
Speaker 4: That's to work day job from seven to three. And

724
00:43:55,840 --> 00:43:59,279
Speaker 4: you know, enjoys a beer here and there. Why not

725
00:43:59,440 --> 00:44:01,479
Speaker 4: enjoys a beer in there, but enjoys the beer every day.

726
00:44:02,400 --> 00:44:05,400
Speaker 4: And just like pittying my dogs. You know, I'm a

727
00:44:05,400 --> 00:44:09,600
Speaker 4: dog person. But it's just life. How life is treating

728
00:44:09,600 --> 00:44:11,040
Speaker 4: me right now. I'm trying to make the best out

729
00:44:11,080 --> 00:44:11,319
Speaker 4: of it.

730
00:44:15,640 --> 00:44:19,879
Speaker 1: Let me think, here, uh, what what is your day job?

731
00:44:21,400 --> 00:44:22,480
Speaker 4: I do landscaping?

732
00:44:23,760 --> 00:44:26,640
Speaker 1: Landscaping? Well, who is that in the background?

733
00:44:27,920 --> 00:44:30,960
Speaker 4: That was my best friend? Works with me too.

734
00:44:31,719 --> 00:44:33,640
Speaker 1: I like how you were about to say friend and

735
00:44:33,680 --> 00:44:36,680
Speaker 1: you're like, no, no, no, I must clarify that this

736
00:44:36,760 --> 00:44:39,040
Speaker 1: is my best friend.

737
00:44:39,800 --> 00:44:42,080
Speaker 4: Yeah, I have a lot. I have a lot of

738
00:44:42,120 --> 00:44:45,839
Speaker 4: best friends from since school and they've been we've been

739
00:44:46,000 --> 00:44:48,480
Speaker 4: you know, friends ever since then. I considered that I

740
00:44:48,560 --> 00:44:51,120
Speaker 4: consider them as family best friends all that.

741
00:44:52,160 --> 00:44:55,960
Speaker 1: Do you do? You rank your friends in your head?

742
00:44:56,480 --> 00:44:59,080
Speaker 1: Very often? Like oh, this is like, have do you

743
00:44:59,120 --> 00:45:01,720
Speaker 1: ever could you tell me you're thanking of all your friends?

744
00:45:02,080 --> 00:45:04,440
Speaker 4: I used to back in my space days, you know,

745
00:45:04,800 --> 00:45:09,160
Speaker 4: you could choose your top six, But nowadays it's just like,

746
00:45:09,200 --> 00:45:12,040
Speaker 4: you know, they've been there for since I was since

747
00:45:12,080 --> 00:45:14,600
Speaker 4: I was introduced to them, and you know they're all

748
00:45:14,680 --> 00:45:15,160
Speaker 4: number one.

749
00:45:15,440 --> 00:45:19,040
Speaker 1: To be honest, that's really nice. There's none that you like.

750
00:45:19,120 --> 00:45:20,960
Speaker 1: Are you friends with anyone that you're just kind of

751
00:45:20,960 --> 00:45:24,680
Speaker 1: friends with because they've been around and you secretly hate them.

752
00:45:24,840 --> 00:45:28,160
Speaker 4: Yeah, there was one friend. I'm not sure if I

753
00:45:28,160 --> 00:45:29,920
Speaker 4: could say is I'm not sure if I could.

754
00:45:29,719 --> 00:45:34,279
Speaker 1: Say his name, but I mean you've you physically can, but.

755
00:45:35,880 --> 00:45:42,560
Speaker 4: Idea, we we used to call him Chewbacca, but well

756
00:45:42,760 --> 00:45:46,719
Speaker 4: not not Chewboka, but like more like Youbaca in the way.

757
00:45:47,120 --> 00:45:49,120
Speaker 4: It was just a joke, a gag. I guess you

758
00:45:49,120 --> 00:45:52,400
Speaker 4: could say he was he was a I guess say

759
00:45:52,440 --> 00:45:55,759
Speaker 4: he was a good friend. It just you know, he

760
00:45:55,760 --> 00:45:57,759
Speaker 4: he I guess he could He tried too much to

761
00:45:57,800 --> 00:46:01,480
Speaker 4: be with us. And we can understand, like you try

762
00:46:01,520 --> 00:46:03,920
Speaker 4: to hang out with us a lot, but we were

763
00:46:04,000 --> 00:46:06,920
Speaker 4: just we weren't just feeling it with him. I mean,

764
00:46:07,040 --> 00:46:09,200
Speaker 4: I mean, we we kept him around here and there,

765
00:46:09,320 --> 00:46:14,239
Speaker 4: but he was a bit too much sometimes. And yeah,

766
00:46:14,560 --> 00:46:16,600
Speaker 4: I guess he was one of those friends here. You know,

767
00:46:16,880 --> 00:46:20,719
Speaker 4: he's okay in a way, but you know he was

768
00:46:20,760 --> 00:46:21,160
Speaker 4: all right.

769
00:46:21,960 --> 00:46:29,360
Speaker 1: What was it about him that that you felt mm hmmm.

770
00:46:30,760 --> 00:46:32,879
Speaker 4: He tried to kick it with us almost every day,

771
00:46:33,560 --> 00:46:37,200
Speaker 4: but he always buys He always buy his pizza almost

772
00:46:37,200 --> 00:46:37,600
Speaker 4: every day.

773
00:46:38,360 --> 00:46:40,840
Speaker 1: So wait is why? Why is is? Do you do

774
00:46:40,880 --> 00:46:42,560
Speaker 1: you not want to hang out with your friends every day?

775
00:46:44,040 --> 00:46:44,320
Speaker 2: Well?

776
00:46:44,920 --> 00:46:48,000
Speaker 4: Yeah, I would, but sometimes there's days where he's like,

777
00:46:48,040 --> 00:46:49,879
Speaker 4: you know, you try, you try to doing your own thing,

778
00:46:49,920 --> 00:46:52,640
Speaker 4: and it's like, you know, you just want you just

779
00:46:52,640 --> 00:46:55,239
Speaker 4: want to do your own thing, and you know, every

780
00:46:55,239 --> 00:46:58,439
Speaker 4: other day hang out with your friends, but no, this guy,

781
00:46:58,480 --> 00:47:02,520
Speaker 4: this guy used to fucking want to hang out every

782
00:47:02,760 --> 00:47:05,000
Speaker 4: day of the week, every day of the month, like

783
00:47:05,239 --> 00:47:07,839
Speaker 4: be there constantly. I'm like, Okay, I understand you want

784
00:47:07,840 --> 00:47:10,600
Speaker 4: to be there, but like, come on, like at least

785
00:47:10,680 --> 00:47:12,759
Speaker 4: let me chill for a day or so, like, you know,

786
00:47:13,960 --> 00:47:17,239
Speaker 4: like you're cool enough, but it's just it just kind

787
00:47:17,239 --> 00:47:20,480
Speaker 4: of gets annoying here and there. You know, I'm not

788
00:47:20,520 --> 00:47:23,840
Speaker 4: talking bad about it. He was cool enough, but after

789
00:47:23,840 --> 00:47:26,520
Speaker 4: a while, it's it's just it's just like you know what,

790
00:47:26,480 --> 00:47:29,480
Speaker 4: I'm like, come on, like, I'm pretty sure you got

791
00:47:29,520 --> 00:47:31,360
Speaker 4: other people to hang out with here and there, but

792
00:47:31,800 --> 00:47:34,960
Speaker 4: to hang out with me twenty four seven, It's it's

793
00:47:35,000 --> 00:47:38,000
Speaker 4: all right, I guess do.

794
00:47:37,920 --> 00:47:39,600
Speaker 1: You think do you think you're fun to hang out

795
00:47:39,640 --> 00:47:40,520
Speaker 1: with twenty four to seven.

796
00:47:42,760 --> 00:47:45,480
Speaker 4: I wouldn't. I wouldn't say I'm not that fun from

797
00:47:45,520 --> 00:47:49,440
Speaker 4: my perspective. I don't know how other how other people

798
00:47:49,480 --> 00:47:52,399
Speaker 4: think about me, but I like to have a fun time,

799
00:47:52,520 --> 00:47:54,840
Speaker 4: you know, I like to have a good time with people.

800
00:47:54,920 --> 00:47:56,879
Speaker 1: What do you what do you usually do when you're

801
00:47:58,120 --> 00:47:58,960
Speaker 1: having a fun time?

802
00:48:01,480 --> 00:48:04,600
Speaker 4: You know, I try to drink with them, you have

803
00:48:04,680 --> 00:48:09,560
Speaker 4: a good time, make jokes and and you know it's

804
00:48:09,600 --> 00:48:13,600
Speaker 4: just well, I guess whatever, whatever every other people try

805
00:48:13,640 --> 00:48:18,960
Speaker 4: to do, you know, just make it, make make make

806
00:48:19,000 --> 00:48:22,200
Speaker 4: the whatever time is happening around you, guys the best time.

807
00:48:22,680 --> 00:48:25,920
Speaker 4: You know, you can never know when when when it

808
00:48:25,920 --> 00:48:27,640
Speaker 4: could be the last day you can hang out with them.

809
00:48:28,360 --> 00:48:31,720
Speaker 4: And to me, it's always like yeah, like I'm happy

810
00:48:31,719 --> 00:48:33,719
Speaker 4: to see you, but you know, just make the best

811
00:48:33,719 --> 00:48:34,160
Speaker 4: out of it.

812
00:48:35,520 --> 00:48:36,560
Speaker 1: What's your name, Darren?

813
00:48:37,600 --> 00:48:37,839
Speaker 5: Yes?

814
00:48:39,920 --> 00:48:41,360
Speaker 1: Did you make a nice guy? Darren?

815
00:48:43,320 --> 00:48:46,560
Speaker 4: I don't see it. I feel like I don't feel

816
00:48:46,560 --> 00:48:48,440
Speaker 4: like I'm the best guy. I just try to make

817
00:48:48,440 --> 00:48:50,080
Speaker 4: the best of the best of everything.

818
00:48:50,680 --> 00:48:52,960
Speaker 1: Why do you what? What made you say that just

819
00:48:52,960 --> 00:48:54,600
Speaker 1: now that you don't feel like you're the best guy?

820
00:48:56,680 --> 00:48:58,440
Speaker 4: Because I see other people that make the best of

821
00:48:58,520 --> 00:49:00,640
Speaker 4: things with everyone else. And I feel like I'm used

822
00:49:00,719 --> 00:49:04,320
Speaker 4: like a regular guy in this earst and I follow

823
00:49:04,400 --> 00:49:07,960
Speaker 4: like to me, like like an example, Ozzy Osbourne, that guy,

824
00:49:09,200 --> 00:49:11,120
Speaker 4: I wish I could have a life like him. You know,

825
00:49:11,760 --> 00:49:14,360
Speaker 4: that guy's a fucking that guy. To me, he's a

826
00:49:14,400 --> 00:49:20,520
Speaker 4: fucking legend, and I wish I could have a life

827
00:49:20,560 --> 00:49:22,600
Speaker 4: like him. But not like a drug addict. But I

828
00:49:22,680 --> 00:49:24,440
Speaker 4: used to have a life like him. But to me,

829
00:49:25,440 --> 00:49:27,239
Speaker 4: I try to I try to live a life like

830
00:49:27,280 --> 00:49:29,319
Speaker 4: a rock star. I try to make the best out

831
00:49:29,320 --> 00:49:31,560
Speaker 4: of it. I'm sure I've gotten in trouble here and there,

832
00:49:31,640 --> 00:49:35,560
Speaker 4: but you know what, I'm just happy to be here,

833
00:49:35,680 --> 00:49:38,120
Speaker 4: happy to have their friends, the best friends I have

834
00:49:38,920 --> 00:49:42,360
Speaker 4: to be honest, they're brothers to me. Like everyone around

835
00:49:42,400 --> 00:49:44,280
Speaker 4: me is like brother to me, and it's his brother sister.

836
00:49:44,400 --> 00:49:51,000
Speaker 4: But you know what, it's just life is life?

837
00:49:54,320 --> 00:49:56,120
Speaker 1: Why do you want to live like Ozzy Osbourne?

838
00:49:57,520 --> 00:49:59,600
Speaker 4: I look up I will say, I will look up

839
00:49:59,640 --> 00:50:02,799
Speaker 4: to him. He's he's he's a god to me in

840
00:50:02,840 --> 00:50:06,000
Speaker 4: a way, but not the not the drug addict part.

841
00:50:06,120 --> 00:50:09,000
Speaker 1: Okay, well then tell me, tell me what what parts

842
00:50:09,560 --> 00:50:12,160
Speaker 1: do you do you desire for your life that you

843
00:50:12,200 --> 00:50:13,000
Speaker 1: scraped from.

844
00:50:13,560 --> 00:50:16,719
Speaker 4: Like going going going shows and play in front of

845
00:50:16,719 --> 00:50:19,120
Speaker 4: a lot of people. Because I'm I'm a musician myself.

846
00:50:19,160 --> 00:50:22,120
Speaker 4: I play drums, and you know, I wish to be

847
00:50:22,320 --> 00:50:25,880
Speaker 4: achieve that goal like all he had, I mean, he

848
00:50:25,960 --> 00:50:29,239
Speaker 4: still has it. He's old, he's playing in his last

849
00:50:29,239 --> 00:50:32,799
Speaker 4: show and fucking Birmingham, which I would wish to go.

850
00:50:32,920 --> 00:50:40,920
Speaker 4: But yeah, it's not gonna. That's not gonna.

851
00:50:39,320 --> 00:50:42,200
Speaker 1: Birmingham, Alabama.

852
00:50:43,200 --> 00:50:45,399
Speaker 4: U k u k oh?

853
00:50:46,800 --> 00:50:47,040
Speaker 3: Yeah?

854
00:50:47,400 --> 00:50:48,279
Speaker 1: You ever been to the UK?

855
00:50:49,680 --> 00:50:53,120
Speaker 4: Uh? No? But I was planning to go to Dublin

856
00:50:53,520 --> 00:50:56,440
Speaker 4: maybe later this year and like in just lie August,

857
00:50:56,520 --> 00:50:59,680
Speaker 4: but I don't think that's gonna happen anymore. But maybe,

858
00:51:00,040 --> 00:51:02,160
Speaker 4: I mean next year I'll plan to go to Europe

859
00:51:02,560 --> 00:51:06,000
Speaker 4: because right now I'm just visiting Japan. That's you know,

860
00:51:06,080 --> 00:51:07,680
Speaker 4: that's a fucking amazing spot to visit.

861
00:51:08,040 --> 00:51:09,399
Speaker 1: But you're in Japan right now?

862
00:51:09,960 --> 00:51:12,680
Speaker 4: No, no, no, I wish it was. But I've been

863
00:51:12,719 --> 00:51:13,600
Speaker 4: there twice already.

864
00:51:14,120 --> 00:51:15,160
Speaker 1: Oh when are you going to Japan?

865
00:51:16,080 --> 00:51:20,880
Speaker 4: Hopefully in Halloween? Oh hopefully?

866
00:51:20,880 --> 00:51:23,000
Speaker 1: Why did you? Why did your Dublin trip get canceled?

867
00:51:24,000 --> 00:51:24,560
Speaker 4: What happened?

868
00:51:24,880 --> 00:51:26,720
Speaker 1: Why did your Dublin trip get canceled?

869
00:51:27,480 --> 00:51:30,680
Speaker 4: Well? Because the thing is is I'm in a financial spot.

870
00:51:30,840 --> 00:51:37,520
Speaker 4: It's kind of crappy right now for me. But it just, uh,

871
00:51:37,640 --> 00:51:39,759
Speaker 4: it just I'm not sure if I'm gonna have enough

872
00:51:39,800 --> 00:51:42,400
Speaker 4: months to go out there, like do that your trip,

873
00:51:42,440 --> 00:51:46,759
Speaker 4: then go and do that Japan trip. So I'm kind

874
00:51:46,760 --> 00:51:49,360
Speaker 4: of in the pickle if debating and going in Europe

875
00:51:49,600 --> 00:51:52,000
Speaker 4: or Japan. But for me, it's just I want to

876
00:51:52,000 --> 00:51:52,799
Speaker 4: go to Japan more.

877
00:51:53,719 --> 00:51:56,880
Speaker 1: Yeah, I also want to get Japan more. Man, Japan rocks.

878
00:51:56,920 --> 00:51:59,839
Speaker 4: It's amazing. It's crazy because the first time I went,

879
00:51:59,920 --> 00:52:03,759
Speaker 4: I like, when I went, I told myself, I'm here

880
00:52:03,800 --> 00:52:06,920
Speaker 4: in Japan, a new country, like foreign to me. The

881
00:52:06,960 --> 00:52:09,840
Speaker 4: first time I do is try to try a fucking

882
00:52:10,000 --> 00:52:12,759
Speaker 4: Japanese resident out there. You know, I'm not gonna try

883
00:52:12,800 --> 00:52:15,279
Speaker 4: any American restaurants that are out there. I'll try a

884
00:52:15,360 --> 00:52:19,440
Speaker 4: Japanese restaurant out there. I went there fucking amazing, Like

885
00:52:19,680 --> 00:52:22,920
Speaker 4: the guy gave me a bors steak, like a bor steak,

886
00:52:23,280 --> 00:52:27,400
Speaker 4: never had that before. And I visited that spot. I

887
00:52:27,480 --> 00:52:29,480
Speaker 4: visited a guy like two three times when I was there,

888
00:52:30,200 --> 00:52:32,600
Speaker 4: and so I'm hey, next time next time I come here,

889
00:52:33,000 --> 00:52:35,040
Speaker 4: I'm a fucking visit your restaurant, I said, first thing

890
00:52:35,040 --> 00:52:37,600
Speaker 4: I'm gonna do. So I went there again that same

891
00:52:37,680 --> 00:52:41,720
Speaker 4: year later later and I walked in and I'm like hey,

892
00:52:42,400 --> 00:52:45,360
Speaker 4: and he's like, oh, my best friend. I was like what.

893
00:52:46,640 --> 00:52:49,680
Speaker 4: I was like, holy shit, that's that's that's fucking amazing, dude.

894
00:52:49,680 --> 00:52:54,120
Speaker 4: Like being recognized, like being remember being remembered by someone

895
00:52:54,160 --> 00:52:56,520
Speaker 4: out there, like you've only met once and he remembers

896
00:52:56,560 --> 00:52:58,680
Speaker 4: you a couple of months later, and I'm like, dude,

897
00:52:58,719 --> 00:52:59,680
Speaker 4: that's fucking amazing.

898
00:53:00,160 --> 00:53:05,040
Speaker 1: Mm hmm, that's really nice. You have friends in Tokyo.

899
00:53:06,040 --> 00:53:09,400
Speaker 4: Yeah, you can say friends in Tokyo. It's it's it's cool.

900
00:53:09,880 --> 00:53:11,200
Speaker 4: It's it's fucking cool.

901
00:53:12,120 --> 00:53:13,440
Speaker 1: Darren. Is there anything else you want to say to

902
00:53:13,440 --> 00:53:16,560
Speaker 1: the people of the computer before we go, I.

903
00:53:16,520 --> 00:53:20,439
Speaker 4: Will say, you know, Taro and listening, you know, I listen.

904
00:53:20,480 --> 00:53:24,040
Speaker 4: I listen to you on on Spotify cool and on

905
00:53:24,080 --> 00:53:26,759
Speaker 4: YouTube this and that. You know. I just you know,

906
00:53:26,800 --> 00:53:30,279
Speaker 4: it's it's crazy to be on live right now. I

907
00:53:30,360 --> 00:53:32,480
Speaker 4: never thought this is what happens my first time calling,

908
00:53:33,280 --> 00:53:36,759
Speaker 4: and it's crazy. Also, I want to say to all

909
00:53:36,760 --> 00:53:39,960
Speaker 4: the people that work in landscaping, like me, fucking victims

910
00:53:40,000 --> 00:53:42,919
Speaker 4: up because it's a hard work out there. But yeah,

911
00:53:42,960 --> 00:53:46,120
Speaker 4: I'm happy to be on therapy. Get go, I'm happy.

912
00:53:46,239 --> 00:53:48,000
Speaker 4: You know, it's fucking amazing.

913
00:53:49,360 --> 00:53:51,080
Speaker 1: Thank you very much, Darren, have a good rest of

914
00:53:51,120 --> 00:53:51,399
Speaker 1: the night.

915
00:53:52,239 --> 00:53:54,680
Speaker 4: I'll show you. Hold up, how are you doing? How

916
00:53:54,719 --> 00:53:54,880
Speaker 4: are you?

917
00:53:54,960 --> 00:53:57,000
Speaker 1: How am I doing? How am I doing? Yeah? You

918
00:53:57,040 --> 00:53:58,680
Speaker 1: want to know how I'm doing, Darren?

919
00:53:59,239 --> 00:54:01,680
Speaker 4: Yes, tell me, tell me how are you doing?

920
00:54:01,840 --> 00:54:04,239
Speaker 1: You want to know how I'm doing? You motherfucker. You

921
00:54:04,280 --> 00:54:05,359
Speaker 1: want to know how I'm doing?

922
00:54:06,239 --> 00:54:07,840
Speaker 4: Yes? Yes?

923
00:54:08,120 --> 00:54:10,879
Speaker 1: All I want to do is eat Right now, I'm

924
00:54:11,000 --> 00:54:13,800
Speaker 1: just like, all I want to do? Are you? I

925
00:54:13,840 --> 00:54:17,120
Speaker 1: don't know where my ambition went. I mean, it's still here.

926
00:54:17,160 --> 00:54:21,319
Speaker 1: I'm very ambitious mentally, but physically I'm just oh my god,

927
00:54:21,360 --> 00:54:25,520
Speaker 1: all I want to do is like, fuck dude, right now,

928
00:54:26,640 --> 00:54:29,080
Speaker 1: my like, if I could do any you know, you

929
00:54:29,120 --> 00:54:33,600
Speaker 1: know the question if you can wave a magic wand

930
00:54:33,640 --> 00:54:39,440
Speaker 1: and me doing anything with your life? Yeah, I've been thinking,

931
00:54:39,640 --> 00:54:41,640
Speaker 1: and you know a lot of throughout my life, A

932
00:54:41,640 --> 00:54:44,040
Speaker 1: lot of the answers to that question. If usually involved

933
00:54:44,080 --> 00:54:48,680
Speaker 1: like you know, I don't know, being on a like

934
00:54:48,680 --> 00:54:53,080
Speaker 1: like some kind of something something creative, or you know,

935
00:54:54,920 --> 00:54:58,799
Speaker 1: being in an orgy or something like that. But right now.

936
00:54:58,880 --> 00:55:01,640
Speaker 1: If you I really mean this, If I could be

937
00:55:01,640 --> 00:55:04,120
Speaker 1: doing anything with my life in this very moment, right now,

938
00:55:04,200 --> 00:55:09,239
Speaker 1: I would be eating. I would eat two pints of

939
00:55:09,280 --> 00:55:13,520
Speaker 1: Ben and Jerry's peanut butter s'mores ice cream. No, I

940
00:55:13,520 --> 00:55:16,239
Speaker 1: would get one pint of Ben and Jerry Peanut butter

941
00:55:16,280 --> 00:55:18,360
Speaker 1: smores ice cream and then another pint of Ben and

942
00:55:18,400 --> 00:55:21,719
Speaker 1: Jerry Peanut butter half baked, and I would just do that.

943
00:55:22,200 --> 00:55:25,480
Speaker 1: I don't know why. I don't know I and I

944
00:55:25,719 --> 00:55:27,640
Speaker 1: that's all I want to do with my life right now.

945
00:55:27,640 --> 00:55:31,200
Speaker 1: That's like my career goal right now is to eat

946
00:55:31,760 --> 00:55:34,040
Speaker 1: that fucking ice cream. I don't know why. And I

947
00:55:34,080 --> 00:55:36,200
Speaker 1: don't even feel guilty, man, It's just that's just how

948
00:55:36,239 --> 00:55:39,040
Speaker 1: I feel. I don't think I'm gonna do it. I don't,

949
00:55:39,200 --> 00:55:44,080
Speaker 1: but that just feels like like in the narrative of

950
00:55:44,239 --> 00:55:47,360
Speaker 1: my life, it feels like that's the next chapter, is

951
00:55:47,400 --> 00:55:50,920
Speaker 1: to eat two pints of Ben and Jerry's ice cream.

952
00:55:51,640 --> 00:55:52,719
Speaker 1: That's how I feel right now.

953
00:55:53,560 --> 00:55:56,480
Speaker 4: You know what, goot go, I con vision that. I

954
00:55:56,520 --> 00:55:58,959
Speaker 4: hope you do that, you know, live your best life,

955
00:55:59,040 --> 00:56:01,040
Speaker 4: and you know I'll help you eat those two points

956
00:56:01,040 --> 00:56:05,480
Speaker 4: of ice and you better fucking enjoy man, like enjoy it.

957
00:56:06,280 --> 00:56:11,000
Speaker 4: Fucking enjoy it like enjoy man, You're gonna love it.

958
00:56:11,360 --> 00:56:13,560
Speaker 1: So you're a great guy, Darren, You're great. I'm sorry

959
00:56:13,560 --> 00:56:15,759
Speaker 1: I forgot your name, but and I don't even You're

960
00:56:15,800 --> 00:56:20,480
Speaker 1: just right now. You're a chill, fucking guy, Darren.

961
00:56:21,320 --> 00:56:23,840
Speaker 4: Hey, So hope hopefully I can call you again. You know,

962
00:56:23,920 --> 00:56:26,239
Speaker 4: I hope to talk to you again. And you know

963
00:56:26,440 --> 00:56:29,520
Speaker 4: I love listening to your podcast. I listened to I

964
00:56:29,560 --> 00:56:32,160
Speaker 4: listened to you in Spotify YouTube, like I said, and

965
00:56:32,200 --> 00:56:35,239
Speaker 4: you know, hopefully, hopefully in the future again another call

966
00:56:35,360 --> 00:56:38,359
Speaker 4: with you, and you know I'll be fantastic talking to you.

967
00:56:38,320 --> 00:56:40,799
Speaker 1: Again, Darren, Keep living your best life. Man, all right,

968
00:56:40,840 --> 00:56:42,200
Speaker 1: You're you're something special.

969
00:56:43,320 --> 00:56:44,560
Speaker 4: YouTube therapy, get go.

970
00:56:45,200 --> 00:56:48,000
Speaker 1: I love you, man, love it too, Darren. Bye bye.

971
00:56:48,640 --> 00:56:54,760
Speaker 1: But Darren's a bad influence. He's a He's a super

972
00:56:54,760 --> 00:56:56,959
Speaker 1: cool guy. Though he's a bad influence. There's no way

973
00:56:59,040 --> 00:57:02,960
Speaker 1: I should eat two fucking pints of Ben and Jerry's

974
00:57:02,960 --> 00:57:06,120
Speaker 1: ice cream. But he's a good guy. I really did

975
00:57:06,160 --> 00:57:09,200
Speaker 1: feel that way talking to him. He really seemed like

976
00:57:09,239 --> 00:57:11,960
Speaker 1: it just a fucking Sometimes you just meet a person

977
00:57:12,080 --> 00:57:14,319
Speaker 1: or you chat with them and they're and You're just like,

978
00:57:14,360 --> 00:57:19,320
Speaker 1: what a fucking real ass motherfucker. He just felt that way.

979
00:57:19,360 --> 00:57:23,880
Speaker 1: He just felt like a no bullshit, no fake shit guy.

980
00:57:25,160 --> 00:57:31,320
Speaker 1: His hero is Ozzy Osbourne. Doesn't make any sense. I've

981
00:57:31,360 --> 00:57:34,480
Speaker 1: never heard a person say anything close to that, and

982
00:57:34,520 --> 00:57:37,200
Speaker 1: it just that just makes me like him more. Shout

983
00:57:37,200 --> 00:57:43,040
Speaker 1: out to Darren. Oh my god, Hi, Hi, what's your name?

984
00:57:43,320 --> 00:57:44,160
Speaker 7: Andrea?

985
00:57:45,120 --> 00:57:47,560
Speaker 1: Andrea? What's up Andrea? How is life going?

986
00:57:47,920 --> 00:57:48,040
Speaker 2: Uh?

987
00:57:48,120 --> 00:57:52,720
Speaker 7: It's going good. Yeah. I just came back from a

988
00:57:53,920 --> 00:57:54,959
Speaker 7: target with my mom.

989
00:57:56,680 --> 00:58:03,720
Speaker 1: Okay, how old are you? Andrea four? How was going

990
00:58:03,760 --> 00:58:04,800
Speaker 1: to target with your mom?

991
00:58:06,320 --> 00:58:10,800
Speaker 7: It was good. Yeah, I'm big into Quarterzip, so I

992
00:58:10,840 --> 00:58:15,040
Speaker 7: got a new Quarterzip. I was like, nothing to say

993
00:58:15,360 --> 00:58:17,200
Speaker 7: because I didn't expect that you can get on.

994
00:58:18,840 --> 00:58:21,720
Speaker 1: Going to target with your mom is a psychedelic experience.

995
00:58:22,120 --> 00:58:23,680
Speaker 1: A lot of the things that when I was a

996
00:58:23,760 --> 00:58:29,560
Speaker 1: kid bored me. I've come to realize are very very

997
00:58:29,720 --> 00:58:34,960
Speaker 1: psychedelic experiences, like sitting at the sitting at the dinner

998
00:58:35,000 --> 00:58:39,880
Speaker 1: table with your mom. It's psychedelic. You're on a planet.

999
00:58:41,080 --> 00:58:46,800
Speaker 1: You're in the illusion of whatever I'm having. You know,

1000
00:58:46,840 --> 00:58:51,920
Speaker 1: you're you can have a sober psychedelic experience being a

1001
00:58:52,040 --> 00:58:54,120
Speaker 1: target with your mom. You can look around and go,

1002
00:58:54,200 --> 00:58:56,720
Speaker 1: what the fuck is all this? What am I? What

1003
00:58:56,840 --> 00:58:59,680
Speaker 1: is this camera that's always on in my head? That's

1004
00:59:00,680 --> 00:59:05,160
Speaker 1: you know, And your mom's looking at you and she's saying,

1005
00:59:05,200 --> 00:59:07,480
Speaker 1: though this might be cheaper than this thing, and you're

1006
00:59:07,960 --> 00:59:10,840
Speaker 1: you just have no idea, You're like, who even are you?

1007
00:59:11,040 --> 00:59:14,240
Speaker 1: Have you ever wondered like, is my mom real?

1008
00:59:16,960 --> 00:59:17,040
Speaker 5: No?

1009
00:59:17,720 --> 00:59:21,200
Speaker 7: I mean I was. She was. We were at five

1010
00:59:21,320 --> 00:59:26,040
Speaker 7: guys before I came home, and she was just talking

1011
00:59:26,080 --> 00:59:29,640
Speaker 7: to me and I just like was listening, and I

1012
00:59:29,760 --> 00:59:31,960
Speaker 7: just like was looking in her eyes, and I was like, wow,

1013
00:59:32,080 --> 00:59:36,200
Speaker 7: Like she's a lot older than she was when I

1014
00:59:36,280 --> 00:59:42,000
Speaker 7: was like twelve, and she like physically looks like older,

1015
00:59:42,240 --> 00:59:45,200
Speaker 7: not bad, but like she just obviously looks older than

1016
00:59:45,400 --> 00:59:47,480
Speaker 7: from when I was younger like that, and that kind

1017
00:59:47,480 --> 00:59:48,320
Speaker 7: of like hit.

1018
00:59:50,800 --> 00:59:54,600
Speaker 1: But yeah, yeah, I've had that moment too, because I've

1019
00:59:54,600 --> 00:59:58,080
Speaker 1: had that moment too, because I've you know, I don't

1020
00:59:58,160 --> 01:00:00,800
Speaker 1: live in the same city as my parents, but I

1021
01:00:00,800 --> 01:00:05,600
Speaker 1: living near them, but every time I go back to

1022
01:00:05,640 --> 01:00:09,840
Speaker 1: see them, they look older. Yeah.

1023
01:00:10,160 --> 01:00:13,600
Speaker 7: Yeah, yeah. Not to change the subject, but when you

1024
01:00:13,640 --> 01:00:16,880
Speaker 7: were doing the when you were doing the get mail thing,

1025
01:00:17,080 --> 01:00:21,400
Speaker 7: which is like my my favorite thing. I sent you

1026
01:00:21,920 --> 01:00:26,520
Speaker 7: an email back in like January. But aside from like

1027
01:00:26,600 --> 01:00:30,760
Speaker 7: everything in the body of it, my my ps was,

1028
01:00:31,840 --> 01:00:34,480
Speaker 7: what is your favorite Celsius flavor?

1029
01:00:35,800 --> 01:00:38,040
Speaker 1: Oh? Did I answer?

1030
01:00:39,160 --> 01:00:40,960
Speaker 7: No, you didn't. It was very heartbreaking.

1031
01:00:41,000 --> 01:00:46,200
Speaker 1: Listen, what is my favorite Celsius flavor depends on what

1032
01:00:46,280 --> 01:00:49,400
Speaker 1: kind of mood I'm in. Let me tell you a

1033
01:00:49,440 --> 01:00:52,880
Speaker 1: brief Let me tell you a brief story. It's it's

1034
01:00:52,920 --> 01:00:55,040
Speaker 1: such a brief story. It's like a one sentence story.

1035
01:00:55,080 --> 01:00:59,320
Speaker 1: It's not even a story. I was. I was got.

1036
01:00:59,400 --> 01:01:06,320
Speaker 1: I was like really depressed for like a few days

1037
01:01:06,360 --> 01:01:10,479
Speaker 1: in a row, and I just couldn't I couldn't be here.

1038
01:01:10,600 --> 01:01:14,360
Speaker 1: I couldn't like be present in the universe. I was

1039
01:01:14,400 --> 01:01:19,120
Speaker 1: too locked into my brain and thoughts in a bad way.

1040
01:01:19,480 --> 01:01:26,000
Speaker 1: And I went to the grocery store. And I went

1041
01:01:26,040 --> 01:01:28,880
Speaker 1: to the grocery store. I go to has a Celsius fridge.

1042
01:01:28,960 --> 01:01:34,320
Speaker 1: It's a its own fridge dedicated to Celsius. And I

1043
01:01:34,360 --> 01:01:37,880
Speaker 1: opened it and I saw that they had a Penia

1044
01:01:37,960 --> 01:01:42,840
Speaker 1: colt It's called pli a vibe. It's a it's a

1045
01:01:42,880 --> 01:01:46,880
Speaker 1: Penia Colada flavor. And I looked at it and I went, ooh,

1046
01:01:47,120 --> 01:01:51,200
Speaker 1: Plia vibe. I said that out loud, and that was

1047
01:01:51,600 --> 01:01:54,320
Speaker 1: that was the first time I felt connected to reality.

1048
01:01:54,360 --> 01:01:59,440
Speaker 1: And I think three days is just was like, was

1049
01:01:59,560 --> 01:02:07,520
Speaker 1: like just the the excitement of a Pina Colada, Celsius.

1050
01:02:07,600 --> 01:02:09,520
Speaker 1: And then after that, I was like, oh, okay, all right,

1051
01:02:10,200 --> 01:02:12,160
Speaker 1: that was good. That was a great moment for me

1052
01:02:12,400 --> 01:02:15,520
Speaker 1: because I was like, all right, I can still maintain

1053
01:02:15,720 --> 01:02:21,160
Speaker 1: interface with the universe. And I did get it. I

1054
01:02:21,160 --> 01:02:24,560
Speaker 1: did drink it. Yeah, that ship. That shit cures depression.

1055
01:02:24,600 --> 01:02:26,520
Speaker 1: By the way, Celsius, I don't know what it does

1056
01:02:26,560 --> 01:02:29,800
Speaker 1: in the long term to your actual health, but it'll

1057
01:02:29,800 --> 01:02:32,280
Speaker 1: make you feel like God if you drink a couple

1058
01:02:32,320 --> 01:02:32,640
Speaker 1: of them.

1059
01:02:33,720 --> 01:02:36,360
Speaker 7: I I always have a fridge stock to Celsius. That

1060
01:02:36,480 --> 01:02:39,360
Speaker 7: is that I'm I almost tell like every flavor of it.

1061
01:02:39,400 --> 01:02:42,120
Speaker 7: So that's why I felt qualified enough to ask the questions.

1062
01:02:42,760 --> 01:02:45,200
Speaker 1: I just felt in that moment. I was like, ooh,

1063
01:02:45,400 --> 01:02:47,400
Speaker 1: play a vibe and I was like, oh, there, I am,

1064
01:02:47,480 --> 01:02:48,479
Speaker 1: I'm back here.

1065
01:02:48,640 --> 01:02:53,160
Speaker 7: I'm no, I'm not a big fan of Pina Colada,

1066
01:02:53,240 --> 01:02:55,080
Speaker 7: so I can't I can't really vibe with you there.

1067
01:02:55,360 --> 01:02:58,800
Speaker 1: Ah, yeah, motherfucker, Okay, what's yours?

1068
01:02:59,680 --> 01:03:04,200
Speaker 7: Well, the one nutrition store near me has all the

1069
01:03:04,200 --> 01:03:08,320
Speaker 7: Celsius flavors there, and they have like a cherry coke flavor,

1070
01:03:08,960 --> 01:03:10,919
Speaker 7: and I feel like a lot of places can't mess

1071
01:03:11,000 --> 01:03:14,640
Speaker 7: up coke flavor. That one's pretty good. Other than that,

1072
01:03:16,120 --> 01:03:19,720
Speaker 7: other than that, they haven't the Arctic vibe. Pretty basic flavor,

1073
01:03:19,760 --> 01:03:20,680
Speaker 7: but it's pretty good.

1074
01:03:21,360 --> 01:03:23,600
Speaker 1: I like the Arctic Vibe. I like that. By the way,

1075
01:03:23,640 --> 01:03:26,400
Speaker 1: this is not a sponsored Celsius thing. I just I

1076
01:03:26,600 --> 01:03:31,520
Speaker 1: genuinely love Celsi. I was looking at yeah. By the way,

1077
01:03:31,640 --> 01:03:33,760
Speaker 1: I also I love the cherry coke one, the coke one.

1078
01:03:33,920 --> 01:03:36,760
Speaker 1: If I'm in like a no nonsense, no bullshit, I

1079
01:03:36,840 --> 01:03:39,720
Speaker 1: am here to get some shit done mode. I just

1080
01:03:39,720 --> 01:03:45,880
Speaker 1: get orange, no vibe, no prickly cactus, Sherbert Cola, whatever,

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01:03:45,920 --> 01:03:50,800
Speaker 1: bullshit orange, you know, regular orange. I had a grape

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01:03:50,880 --> 01:03:53,760
Speaker 1: one the other day. It sent me crazy. I drank

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01:03:53,800 --> 01:03:59,560
Speaker 1: a Grape Celsius the other night. No, was it, dude,

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01:03:59,560 --> 01:04:03,200
Speaker 1: Maybe this was yesterday? I think, yeah, yesterday, I drank

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01:04:03,240 --> 01:04:07,200
Speaker 1: a Greape Celsius. And then I started I was taking

1086
01:04:07,240 --> 01:04:10,400
Speaker 1: a shit, and I started singing on the toilet, and

1087
01:04:10,440 --> 01:04:14,320
Speaker 1: I was sending videos of myself on the toilet singing

1088
01:04:14,880 --> 01:04:19,480
Speaker 1: to my my group chat of friends and I must

1089
01:04:19,480 --> 01:04:21,760
Speaker 1: have sent like six videos of me just on the

1090
01:04:21,800 --> 01:04:28,280
Speaker 1: toilet being like I love making diarrhea with my ass

1091
01:04:29,120 --> 01:04:33,560
Speaker 1: and I want to make a movie about diarrhea from

1092
01:04:33,680 --> 01:04:40,920
Speaker 1: my ass, jud Appa, how will produce my diarrhea movie?

1093
01:04:41,160 --> 01:04:44,560
Speaker 1: And I'm and I'm just singing and I'm I'm taking

1094
01:04:44,560 --> 01:04:47,200
Speaker 1: a shit. I made like six of those videos. It

1095
01:04:47,240 --> 01:04:48,080
Speaker 1: was an awesome day.

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01:04:49,280 --> 01:04:52,080
Speaker 7: Well yeah, what an absolute honor to receive a video

1097
01:04:52,120 --> 01:04:52,320
Speaker 7: like that.

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01:04:53,000 --> 01:04:57,680
Speaker 1: Yeah, so now it just makes you feel like like

1099
01:04:57,680 --> 01:05:02,400
Speaker 1: like God, you know, you can do anything absolutely, Yeah,

1100
01:05:03,680 --> 01:05:04,880
Speaker 1: go ahead and go ahead.

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01:05:05,400 --> 01:05:08,680
Speaker 7: I was just gonna say, just another thing I mentioned

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01:05:08,720 --> 01:05:13,760
Speaker 7: in the email was my my boyfriend actually told me

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01:05:13,840 --> 01:05:18,400
Speaker 7: about your podcast, uh last year, and I've just been

1104
01:05:18,440 --> 01:05:20,160
Speaker 7: listening to it like almost every day.

1105
01:05:20,840 --> 01:05:21,960
Speaker 1: Oh, yas man.

1106
01:05:23,080 --> 01:05:27,520
Speaker 7: Yeah, yeah, it's good, good one. Yeah.

1107
01:05:27,880 --> 01:05:29,880
Speaker 1: A lot of people have told me that they fall

1108
01:05:29,920 --> 01:05:32,200
Speaker 1: asleep to the podcast.

1109
01:05:32,680 --> 01:05:34,480
Speaker 7: Oh no, no, I'm active.

1110
01:05:34,720 --> 01:05:35,520
Speaker 2: I am very.

1111
01:05:35,400 --> 01:05:40,800
Speaker 1: Active and cool, cool, cool. I've become I've recently become

1112
01:05:40,840 --> 01:05:44,439
Speaker 1: a fall asleep to the TV guy. That's what's going

1113
01:05:44,480 --> 01:05:47,320
Speaker 1: on in my life. It's actually a great development.

1114
01:05:47,440 --> 01:05:47,680
Speaker 5: Man.

1115
01:05:48,400 --> 01:05:52,360
Speaker 1: I look forward every night. I put on four hours

1116
01:05:52,360 --> 01:05:56,640
Speaker 1: of Game Boy Advance Game Trivia and fucking knocks me

1117
01:05:56,760 --> 01:05:57,200
Speaker 1: right out.

1118
01:05:57,600 --> 01:06:02,080
Speaker 7: It's the best we've been doing in pop culture. Jeopardy

1119
01:06:02,160 --> 01:06:04,880
Speaker 7: with Colin Jost.

1120
01:06:04,200 --> 01:06:06,120
Speaker 1: Oh that's nice.

1121
01:06:06,200 --> 01:06:06,400
Speaker 2: Yeah.

1122
01:06:06,640 --> 01:06:10,000
Speaker 1: I don't know that guy, but he's probably what do

1123
01:06:10,040 --> 01:06:11,280
Speaker 1: you think he's like in real life?

1124
01:06:13,440 --> 01:06:17,560
Speaker 7: Probably sits on the toilet after a great Celsius just

1125
01:06:17,720 --> 01:06:19,360
Speaker 7: sings song.

1126
01:06:19,600 --> 01:06:21,760
Speaker 1: I don't know. He seems like a he seems like

1127
01:06:21,760 --> 01:06:24,200
Speaker 1: a he seems like a pretty together guy. He seems

1128
01:06:24,240 --> 01:06:26,360
Speaker 1: like like you go to his house and he has

1129
01:06:26,400 --> 01:06:29,240
Speaker 1: like a bowl of fruit on a on a desk,

1130
01:06:29,400 --> 01:06:33,400
Speaker 1: and like he goes, he goes, oh, that's a great idea,

1131
01:06:33,480 --> 01:06:34,520
Speaker 1: and then he like does it?

1132
01:06:34,720 --> 01:06:35,000
Speaker 5: You know?

1133
01:06:35,080 --> 01:06:38,720
Speaker 1: And then he's like he just seems like a normal guy.

1134
01:06:39,240 --> 01:06:42,120
Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't know him, but he seems

1135
01:06:42,120 --> 01:06:44,320
Speaker 1: like he has like knives in his house and he

1136
01:06:44,400 --> 01:06:48,200
Speaker 1: uses him to cut like lettuce.

1137
01:06:49,560 --> 01:06:51,640
Speaker 7: Are you just going based off of just his name?

1138
01:06:51,760 --> 01:06:53,160
Speaker 7: Like you don't know who this guy is at all.

1139
01:06:53,480 --> 01:06:54,880
Speaker 1: I know who Colin just is.

1140
01:06:55,960 --> 01:06:58,919
Speaker 7: Oh, oh yeah, he's like on I just know him

1141
01:06:58,920 --> 01:07:01,640
Speaker 7: on there, but I know he's like snl or whatever.

1142
01:07:02,880 --> 01:07:10,000
Speaker 1: Yeah, where do we Where do you think we go

1143
01:07:10,040 --> 01:07:12,200
Speaker 1: when we die?

1144
01:07:12,520 --> 01:07:17,000
Speaker 7: Where do we go when we die? I'm not like

1145
01:07:17,200 --> 01:07:22,680
Speaker 7: super religious or anything. I think that.

1146
01:07:24,200 --> 01:07:26,360
Speaker 2: We go to.

1147
01:07:28,320 --> 01:07:34,120
Speaker 7: The sky and we just are in another universe and

1148
01:07:34,320 --> 01:07:41,160
Speaker 7: we just move can eat whatever and do whatever. You

1149
01:07:41,240 --> 01:07:43,320
Speaker 7: were just talking to the one guy before, and you,

1150
01:07:43,680 --> 01:07:46,640
Speaker 7: like you said something about like what's one thing that

1151
01:07:46,720 --> 01:07:49,200
Speaker 7: you wish you could be doing or whatever right now?

1152
01:07:50,280 --> 01:07:53,439
Speaker 7: And you said about eating the ice cream. But then

1153
01:07:53,640 --> 01:07:57,120
Speaker 7: I was thinking sometimes the same lines as that, almost

1154
01:07:57,200 --> 01:08:00,840
Speaker 7: but like being able to eat but there's like no

1155
01:08:01,040 --> 01:08:02,840
Speaker 7: calories involved.

1156
01:08:03,680 --> 01:08:05,880
Speaker 1: Yeah, that could be awesome. Oh my god, yeah, there's

1157
01:08:05,920 --> 01:08:07,840
Speaker 1: no calie. It just makes it as if I mean,

1158
01:08:08,040 --> 01:08:10,680
Speaker 1: I mean, you can do that. It's called binging and purging,

1159
01:08:10,720 --> 01:08:11,760
Speaker 1: but it's not recommended.

1160
01:08:13,080 --> 01:08:16,520
Speaker 7: Yeah, yeah, no, you're pro will not be happy afterwards.

1161
01:08:16,760 --> 01:08:19,720
Speaker 1: Yeah, doctors do not recommend, but I mean it is

1162
01:08:19,760 --> 01:08:20,759
Speaker 1: physically possible.

1163
01:08:21,720 --> 01:08:24,480
Speaker 7: What's your name again, Andrea?

1164
01:08:25,120 --> 01:08:29,080
Speaker 1: Andrea, Andrew. We've been talking for about eleven minutes right now,

1165
01:08:29,120 --> 01:08:31,479
Speaker 1: and I was about to end our conversation, but I

1166
01:08:31,479 --> 01:08:33,320
Speaker 1: just want to check in with you. Do you feel

1167
01:08:33,360 --> 01:08:35,960
Speaker 1: like you got everything that you desired from this conversation

1168
01:08:36,439 --> 01:08:38,120
Speaker 1: and is there anything I can do to make this

1169
01:08:38,160 --> 01:08:41,840
Speaker 1: conversation a better experience for you before we do leave?

1170
01:08:44,479 --> 01:08:45,800
Speaker 7: What was I going to talk to you a little

1171
01:08:45,840 --> 01:08:47,800
Speaker 7: bit more. But you know, I'm just happy that I

1172
01:08:47,840 --> 01:08:49,320
Speaker 7: was able to get on in the first place.

1173
01:08:49,520 --> 01:08:50,760
Speaker 1: We can talk, is there what do you want to

1174
01:08:50,760 --> 01:08:51,200
Speaker 1: talk about?

1175
01:08:51,960 --> 01:08:52,200
Speaker 2: Oh?

1176
01:08:52,320 --> 01:08:54,840
Speaker 7: No, like just just shooting the ship. It was just

1177
01:08:54,920 --> 01:08:56,360
Speaker 7: cool that they about to even talk to you.

1178
01:08:57,320 --> 01:08:58,960
Speaker 1: Let me think, let me think of one more thing

1179
01:08:59,000 --> 01:09:00,760
Speaker 1: we can talk about before we go.

1180
01:09:01,720 --> 01:09:03,960
Speaker 7: Oh, well, I guess if you I guess if you

1181
01:09:04,040 --> 01:09:06,160
Speaker 7: like read my email. Then in the next in the

1182
01:09:06,200 --> 01:09:07,320
Speaker 7: next gek mail.

1183
01:09:09,000 --> 01:09:10,479
Speaker 1: Oh did you send another email?

1184
01:09:11,760 --> 01:09:15,160
Speaker 7: No, I didn't send another one. It's just back in January.

1185
01:09:15,479 --> 01:09:16,880
Speaker 1: Oh wait, did I ever read your email?

1186
01:09:17,920 --> 01:09:17,960
Speaker 2: No?

1187
01:09:18,120 --> 01:09:18,719
Speaker 7: You never did.

1188
01:09:19,000 --> 01:09:20,240
Speaker 1: Oh what was in the email?

1189
01:09:24,280 --> 01:09:24,559
Speaker 2: Uh?

1190
01:09:24,640 --> 01:09:32,760
Speaker 7: I talked about like my school? No, no, so long ago. Yeah,

1191
01:09:32,800 --> 01:09:36,559
Speaker 7: I talked about school. But uh, if you want to go,

1192
01:09:36,600 --> 01:09:37,720
Speaker 7: I don't. I don't want to keep you on.

1193
01:09:39,000 --> 01:09:42,040
Speaker 1: You can talk about school. We got we're chilling.

1194
01:09:43,560 --> 01:09:48,840
Speaker 7: Sure, Yeah, okay, I mean yeah, I mean I just

1195
01:09:48,960 --> 01:09:50,519
Speaker 7: ended my semester.

1196
01:09:51,320 --> 01:09:51,559
Speaker 4: Uh.

1197
01:09:51,760 --> 01:09:53,880
Speaker 7: Basically the whole thing was that like I was just

1198
01:09:53,960 --> 01:09:57,840
Speaker 7: like I got accepted into like this national uh this

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01:09:58,040 --> 01:10:04,000
Speaker 7: National Society for Radiology, And I just said in the

1200
01:10:04,040 --> 01:10:06,680
Speaker 7: email that I don't know, I just didn't feel like

1201
01:10:06,720 --> 01:10:09,360
Speaker 7: I was the right person for the pick.

1202
01:10:12,280 --> 01:10:16,960
Speaker 1: M hm, why not?

1203
01:10:19,439 --> 01:10:23,240
Speaker 7: I don't know, because, uh, there's a lot of people

1204
01:10:23,280 --> 01:10:27,800
Speaker 7: in my program. Well, my program's like very strict, so

1205
01:10:27,960 --> 01:10:32,479
Speaker 7: like they only pick twenty people out of like hundreds

1206
01:10:32,520 --> 01:10:36,560
Speaker 7: of applicants, and I was one of the people to

1207
01:10:36,600 --> 01:10:38,639
Speaker 7: get picked for that, and like that's cool at all.

1208
01:10:39,160 --> 01:10:40,960
Speaker 7: It's like based off of like your grades and like

1209
01:10:40,960 --> 01:10:43,479
Speaker 7: how you interview with like all the teachers and stuff,

1210
01:10:43,520 --> 01:10:47,360
Speaker 7: and there's like six teachers that you interview with, and

1211
01:10:48,720 --> 01:10:53,800
Speaker 7: you had to do like this professional points thing at

1212
01:10:53,880 --> 01:10:57,960
Speaker 7: the end of the schooling. It's like another class and

1213
01:10:58,040 --> 01:11:00,840
Speaker 7: it's like a grade. Then, so like one hundred points

1214
01:11:00,840 --> 01:11:06,240
Speaker 7: equals one hundred percent for the assignment. Fifty of the

1215
01:11:06,280 --> 01:11:10,280
Speaker 7: points comes from applying to this national society, and then

1216
01:11:10,320 --> 01:11:12,880
Speaker 7: if you get accepted, that's another fifty points, so then

1217
01:11:12,880 --> 01:11:18,519
Speaker 7: you get a hundred right there. And I kind of

1218
01:11:18,600 --> 01:11:21,800
Speaker 7: like applied to it the day before it was due

1219
01:11:22,280 --> 01:11:24,240
Speaker 7: and you had to like meet a work count for

1220
01:11:24,320 --> 01:11:28,519
Speaker 7: the essay, and I got below the work count. But

1221
01:11:28,560 --> 01:11:30,920
Speaker 7: then again, there's like you know a bunch of people

1222
01:11:30,920 --> 01:11:33,839
Speaker 7: who apply for this stuff, but like I only applied

1223
01:11:33,920 --> 01:11:36,320
Speaker 7: just because of the points I wasn't like expecting to

1224
01:11:36,360 --> 01:11:39,040
Speaker 7: get accepted. So I'm thinking, like, there's probably other people

1225
01:11:39,040 --> 01:11:44,320
Speaker 7: out there that probably would have actually cared, I guess

1226
01:11:44,520 --> 01:11:50,040
Speaker 7: in lack of better terms.

1227
01:11:50,040 --> 01:11:52,479
Speaker 1: So that's okay that you got a thing they don't

1228
01:11:52,560 --> 01:11:53,439
Speaker 1: care that much about.

1229
01:11:56,640 --> 01:12:00,160
Speaker 7: Yeah, I guess. I guess it was just like a

1230
01:12:00,200 --> 01:12:02,599
Speaker 7: mental thing, like I don't know, like, yeah, I get

1231
01:12:02,640 --> 01:12:02,920
Speaker 7: it that.

1232
01:12:04,479 --> 01:12:04,719
Speaker 2: Good.

1233
01:12:05,560 --> 01:12:13,920
Speaker 1: Listen listen, listen, listen. It's all it's all rigged. It's

1234
01:12:14,000 --> 01:12:16,439
Speaker 1: all rigged. You know, you know it's all rigged. It's

1235
01:12:16,479 --> 01:12:20,200
Speaker 1: all rigged. Sometimes it's rigged in your favor. Sometimes it's

1236
01:12:20,280 --> 01:12:25,160
Speaker 1: rigged against your favor, but it is all rigged. And uh,

1237
01:12:25,240 --> 01:12:27,320
Speaker 1: if it's rigged in your favor, you know, it's not

1238
01:12:27,360 --> 01:12:30,120
Speaker 1: like you took away something from someone else.

1239
01:12:33,439 --> 01:12:36,519
Speaker 7: Maybe yeah, yeah, I feel it.

1240
01:12:36,840 --> 01:12:38,559
Speaker 1: So you wrote all that, and then what is your

1241
01:12:38,600 --> 01:12:39,719
Speaker 1: favorite Selseia's flavor?

1242
01:12:42,080 --> 01:12:46,519
Speaker 7: Essentially? Yeah, something like that, And then I that I

1243
01:12:46,720 --> 01:12:51,439
Speaker 7: just like, uh, met you for my boyfriend. Uh, he

1244
01:12:51,520 --> 01:12:53,120
Speaker 7: used to listen to you a lot, I guess when

1245
01:12:53,280 --> 01:12:55,280
Speaker 7: he was working at a foundry.

1246
01:12:55,880 --> 01:12:58,400
Speaker 1: What's he doing now, who's he listened to?

1247
01:13:00,000 --> 01:13:00,840
Speaker 7: Who's he listened to?

1248
01:13:01,000 --> 01:13:01,280
Speaker 1: Now?

1249
01:13:01,920 --> 01:13:02,240
Speaker 4: Uh?

1250
01:13:02,400 --> 01:13:06,360
Speaker 7: No one really? I mean he's watching your stream as

1251
01:13:06,400 --> 01:13:07,080
Speaker 7: you're talking to me.

1252
01:13:07,520 --> 01:13:12,439
Speaker 1: Okay, he's not like, uh, he's not like listening to

1253
01:13:12,479 --> 01:13:14,559
Speaker 1: the Bad Friends podcast or something.

1254
01:13:16,160 --> 01:13:21,000
Speaker 7: No, I don't know if you listen to anybody else. No,

1255
01:13:21,160 --> 01:13:22,960
Speaker 7: he doesn't get to listen to anybody at his new

1256
01:13:23,040 --> 01:13:24,679
Speaker 7: job like he did in the old one.

1257
01:13:24,920 --> 01:13:27,840
Speaker 1: Oh man, can you tell me?

1258
01:13:27,840 --> 01:13:33,719
Speaker 7: I said, Hi, he's so highs So what's while?

1259
01:13:34,080 --> 01:13:34,720
Speaker 1: I like this guy?

1260
01:13:34,880 --> 01:13:34,960
Speaker 5: Like?

1261
01:13:35,080 --> 01:13:36,680
Speaker 1: I like this guy. This guy's a cool guy. I'm

1262
01:13:36,680 --> 01:13:37,880
Speaker 1: glad that you guys are dating.

1263
01:13:38,760 --> 01:13:40,320
Speaker 7: Yeah, he's a cool guys.

1264
01:13:40,400 --> 01:13:43,680
Speaker 1: Chi guy.

1265
01:13:43,960 --> 01:13:46,439
Speaker 7: What's your name again, Andrea?

1266
01:13:47,080 --> 01:13:50,479
Speaker 1: Andrea? Yeah, Andrea? Is there anything else you want to

1267
01:13:50,479 --> 01:13:52,040
Speaker 1: say to the people of the computer before we go?

1268
01:13:55,280 --> 01:13:59,400
Speaker 7: Yeah, if you are trying to get into the stream, uh,

1269
01:13:59,760 --> 01:14:01,240
Speaker 7: call all at minimum?

1270
01:14:01,760 --> 01:14:02,160
Speaker 2: You want.

1271
01:14:06,320 --> 01:14:08,679
Speaker 1: Good luck on all of your life endeavors.

1272
01:14:08,720 --> 01:14:11,599
Speaker 7: Andrea, You two wiles like you're talking.

1273
01:14:12,240 --> 01:14:20,560
Speaker 1: But what is your name? Cowboy?

1274
01:14:21,080 --> 01:14:22,160
Speaker 8: My name is Lilith.

1275
01:14:23,080 --> 01:14:28,639
Speaker 1: Lilith, Yes, Lilith. Where are you calling from? Lilith?

1276
01:14:30,160 --> 01:14:31,759
Speaker 8: And I'm calling from Germany?

1277
01:14:32,680 --> 01:14:37,200
Speaker 1: Ah, yes, Germany. What part did you wear in Germany?

1278
01:14:38,320 --> 01:14:43,160
Speaker 8: I'm pretty much in the middle, like near Frankfurt. You

1279
01:14:43,280 --> 01:14:46,679
Speaker 8: might have heard of it. It's like the Silicon Valley

1280
01:14:46,680 --> 01:14:48,120
Speaker 8: of Germany.

1281
01:14:48,160 --> 01:14:50,960
Speaker 1: Frankfurt is the Silicon Valley of Germany.

1282
01:14:52,120 --> 01:14:54,680
Speaker 8: Maybe I don't really know what the Silicon Valley.

1283
01:14:54,520 --> 01:14:54,960
Speaker 4: Is, so.

1284
01:14:56,439 --> 01:15:01,759
Speaker 1: I respect that. I also use U metaphors and things

1285
01:15:01,800 --> 01:15:03,360
Speaker 1: that I don't know what the hell they mean, and

1286
01:15:04,000 --> 01:15:07,000
Speaker 1: I've gotten I've gotten a lot of mileage off of

1287
01:15:07,080 --> 01:15:11,439
Speaker 1: people not prodding me further on what I mean when

1288
01:15:11,479 --> 01:15:14,080
Speaker 1: I say certain things because I would not be able

1289
01:15:14,160 --> 01:15:18,320
Speaker 1: to answer them at all.

1290
01:15:18,800 --> 01:15:22,280
Speaker 8: It works a lot like when you're talking to someone

1291
01:15:22,320 --> 01:15:26,559
Speaker 8: who maybe doesn't really question what you're saying, and it works,

1292
01:15:26,600 --> 01:15:30,400
Speaker 8: But when someone called me out can be really embarrassing.

1293
01:15:30,960 --> 01:15:32,799
Speaker 1: Aren't those the best kinds of people?

1294
01:15:32,840 --> 01:15:33,000
Speaker 4: Though?

1295
01:15:33,000 --> 01:15:36,120
Speaker 1: I fucking hate when you start like talking to somebody

1296
01:15:36,120 --> 01:15:38,440
Speaker 1: and you're saying things and they ask you to elaborate

1297
01:15:38,479 --> 01:15:41,680
Speaker 1: on them. I hate talking to those ye people. I

1298
01:15:41,720 --> 01:15:45,360
Speaker 1: want somebody who just will let me say a bunch

1299
01:15:45,439 --> 01:15:48,000
Speaker 1: of nonsense to them that may or may not make

1300
01:15:48,080 --> 01:15:52,680
Speaker 1: sense and just goes yeah, totally, absolutely. You know, those

1301
01:15:52,680 --> 01:15:54,639
Speaker 1: are the best kinds of people. It's people who they

1302
01:15:54,680 --> 01:15:59,759
Speaker 1: don't They don't go what do you mean by Rhode Island?

1303
01:15:59,840 --> 01:16:06,640
Speaker 1: Is the is the Luxembourg of America? You know? I

1304
01:16:06,640 --> 01:16:10,080
Speaker 1: guess they're both small. But that's I don't have the

1305
01:16:10,520 --> 01:16:13,800
Speaker 1: I don't have. I'm yeah, fuck those people. I'm gonna

1306
01:16:13,800 --> 01:16:15,559
Speaker 1: put it right. I'm gonna put this right here on

1307
01:16:15,600 --> 01:16:18,479
Speaker 1: the Therapy Eco podcast. If you're if you're ever asked,

1308
01:16:18,800 --> 01:16:22,040
Speaker 1: you know, with your friend and they say something and

1309
01:16:22,080 --> 01:16:23,600
Speaker 1: you're like, what do you mean by that? You're a

1310
01:16:23,640 --> 01:16:27,960
Speaker 1: fucking asshole. Never ever ask your friends what they mean

1311
01:16:28,040 --> 01:16:32,000
Speaker 1: when they say things. Just just say you just say,

1312
01:16:32,080 --> 01:16:37,879
Speaker 1: that's a great point. You're awesome. Uh, you're the great, amazing.

1313
01:16:38,160 --> 01:16:40,519
Speaker 1: That's I never thought of it that way. What's your

1314
01:16:40,600 --> 01:16:47,719
Speaker 1: name again? Lilith? Lilith living in Frankfurt, Germany, the Silicon

1315
01:16:47,800 --> 01:16:51,080
Speaker 1: Valley of Germany. What's up? How's life would you want

1316
01:16:51,080 --> 01:16:51,840
Speaker 1: to talk about today?

1317
01:16:54,520 --> 01:16:58,599
Speaker 8: Life is pretty good right now actually, but something really

1318
01:16:58,640 --> 01:17:04,280
Speaker 8: crazy happened to me recently. Name so, I have I

1319
01:17:04,320 --> 01:17:07,559
Speaker 8: have one ex boyfriend and right now I actually live

1320
01:17:07,640 --> 01:17:11,760
Speaker 8: with my second every boyfriend in an apartment. But I

1321
01:17:11,840 --> 01:17:20,120
Speaker 8: have one ex boyfriend and I this crazy story happened recently,

1322
01:17:20,760 --> 01:17:23,519
Speaker 8: and I'm trying to think of a fake name for

1323
01:17:23,680 --> 01:17:31,840
Speaker 8: my ex boyfriend, Danny. Okay, all right, So we were

1324
01:17:31,880 --> 01:17:36,720
Speaker 8: all invited to a mutual friend's birthday party, because I

1325
01:17:36,800 --> 01:17:40,920
Speaker 8: come from a small town and everybody kind of know

1326
01:17:41,040 --> 01:17:45,320
Speaker 8: each other, or it's not even a small town, but

1327
01:17:45,400 --> 01:17:51,200
Speaker 8: there's this gigantic friend group of people who are similar,

1328
01:17:51,720 --> 01:17:57,600
Speaker 8: and so everybody's friends with everything, but everybody also gossips

1329
01:17:57,680 --> 01:18:00,479
Speaker 8: about each other and kind of secretly hate each other.

1330
01:18:01,080 --> 01:18:05,080
Speaker 8: And we were invited to this birthday party at a

1331
01:18:06,680 --> 01:18:11,400
Speaker 8: it's like a pub, but it's really cool, and actually

1332
01:18:11,439 --> 01:18:16,080
Speaker 8: one of our friend's mothers owns the pub, so that's

1333
01:18:16,200 --> 01:18:19,080
Speaker 8: kind of one of the places where shit goes down.

1334
01:18:19,160 --> 01:18:19,360
Speaker 6: You know.

1335
01:18:21,640 --> 01:18:25,120
Speaker 8: We were at this birthday party and then my ex

1336
01:18:25,200 --> 01:18:28,400
Speaker 8: boyfriend also showed up and he kind of invited himself,

1337
01:18:30,600 --> 01:18:35,680
Speaker 8: so he was also there. And then I had like

1338
01:18:35,680 --> 01:18:38,800
Speaker 8: like eight beers, and I don't know, I was having fun.

1339
01:18:39,640 --> 01:18:45,080
Speaker 8: And at some point everybody went outside to smoke cigarettes

1340
01:18:45,280 --> 01:18:48,639
Speaker 8: and I was sitting inside rolling a cigarette actually at

1341
01:18:48,640 --> 01:18:51,519
Speaker 8: the table, and then he was sitting there and he

1342
01:18:51,720 --> 01:18:56,760
Speaker 8: was wearing a T shirt with a with a with

1343
01:18:57,000 --> 01:18:59,920
Speaker 8: like the one of the main characters from my favorite

1344
01:19:00,040 --> 01:19:04,600
Speaker 8: anime on it and my favorite anime is me on Genesis,

1345
01:19:04,720 --> 01:19:08,360
Speaker 8: Evan Gallion, Evan Jelian. I don't know how you pronounced it.

1346
01:19:08,400 --> 01:19:09,040
Speaker 8: Do you know it?

1347
01:19:10,040 --> 01:19:11,640
Speaker 1: I'm familiar with it.

1348
01:19:12,520 --> 01:19:13,439
Speaker 5: Okay, okay.

1349
01:19:13,880 --> 01:19:16,320
Speaker 8: So he had he had ray on his T shirt

1350
01:19:16,439 --> 01:19:20,160
Speaker 8: like the blue haired girl who's who's not really real,

1351
01:19:22,120 --> 01:19:25,120
Speaker 8: and then like a like a funny I don't know,

1352
01:19:25,200 --> 01:19:27,679
Speaker 8: like a funny phrase on the T shirt as well,

1353
01:19:28,240 --> 01:19:31,280
Speaker 8: and I was it was really awkward because it was

1354
01:19:31,439 --> 01:19:35,320
Speaker 8: just the two of us, and I was like, oh,

1355
01:19:35,479 --> 01:19:39,639
Speaker 8: nice shirt, and he was he was being stupid and

1356
01:19:39,880 --> 01:19:43,200
Speaker 8: I don't know, talking talking to me, but I didn't

1357
01:19:43,240 --> 01:19:49,040
Speaker 8: really understand. And then he kept saying, oh, you know,

1358
01:19:49,200 --> 01:19:52,600
Speaker 8: I got a tattoo of the anime ha ha, And

1359
01:19:52,680 --> 01:19:55,679
Speaker 8: I thought that he was making a joke because I

1360
01:19:55,720 --> 01:20:01,160
Speaker 8: actually do have a tattoo of the face of one

1361
01:20:01,200 --> 01:20:05,400
Speaker 8: of the characters whose name is Lilith, and so is

1362
01:20:05,479 --> 01:20:08,360
Speaker 8: my name, Like that's my name, so naturally I got

1363
01:20:08,360 --> 01:20:12,240
Speaker 8: her face tattooed on my right arm, on my right

1364
01:20:12,320 --> 01:20:16,560
Speaker 8: under arm. And then I went outside to smoke a cigarette,

1365
01:20:17,080 --> 01:20:21,080
Speaker 8: and then it said, oh, Danny wanted to show me

1366
01:20:21,160 --> 01:20:27,280
Speaker 8: a tattoo, and then someone else said, oh my god, Lilith,

1367
01:20:28,040 --> 01:20:32,400
Speaker 8: Danny got the exact same tattoo as you. And then

1368
01:20:32,400 --> 01:20:35,680
Speaker 8: I was like, okay, hold my cigarette and I went

1369
01:20:35,760 --> 01:20:38,439
Speaker 8: inside and then I was like, Danny, show me your

1370
01:20:38,479 --> 01:20:40,880
Speaker 8: fucking tattoo. And then he showed me his right under

1371
01:20:41,040 --> 01:20:45,280
Speaker 8: arm and he has the same tattoo, the exact same

1372
01:20:45,280 --> 01:20:49,679
Speaker 8: tattoo as me, which also means my name on his arm.

1373
01:20:50,960 --> 01:20:53,200
Speaker 1: Well, did you guys just get the same tattoo kind

1374
01:20:53,200 --> 01:20:54,040
Speaker 1: of coincidentally?

1375
01:20:56,000 --> 01:21:00,240
Speaker 8: No, I've had this tattoo for many, many years, and

1376
01:21:00,280 --> 01:21:05,960
Speaker 8: he knew I had it for years. It was my

1377
01:21:06,160 --> 01:21:12,759
Speaker 8: second tattoo, I think, And yeah, I think. I Also

1378
01:21:13,600 --> 01:21:17,639
Speaker 8: I made him watch the anime because I was always

1379
01:21:17,720 --> 01:21:20,240
Speaker 8: talking about it and he didn't really know it before.

1380
01:21:21,400 --> 01:21:26,679
Speaker 1: Yeah, did did he like when? When when he showed

1381
01:21:26,680 --> 01:21:28,519
Speaker 1: it to did he say that he got it because

1382
01:21:28,560 --> 01:21:31,040
Speaker 1: of you?

1383
01:21:31,080 --> 01:21:31,120
Speaker 4: No?

1384
01:21:33,520 --> 01:21:37,120
Speaker 8: Actually he said that he was gonna get some other

1385
01:21:38,240 --> 01:21:44,040
Speaker 8: stuff tattooed on his right under arm. And I talked

1386
01:21:44,040 --> 01:21:46,160
Speaker 8: to some of his friends about it, and I even

1387
01:21:46,200 --> 01:21:50,320
Speaker 8: texted his mom because I was really creeped out, and

1388
01:21:50,360 --> 01:21:54,760
Speaker 8: I mean, I don't want this guy to crash out.

1389
01:21:55,080 --> 01:21:59,920
Speaker 8: I want him to be well. And so this did

1390
01:22:00,240 --> 01:22:05,160
Speaker 8: seem like what a well person would do to me,

1391
01:22:05,320 --> 01:22:10,360
Speaker 8: and so and so I texted his mom and he

1392
01:22:11,800 --> 01:22:16,800
Speaker 8: and now she texted me back and said and he

1393
01:22:16,920 --> 01:22:22,720
Speaker 8: didn't do it too to piss me off, and that

1394
01:22:22,960 --> 01:22:26,840
Speaker 8: he's been wanting that tattoo for a long time and

1395
01:22:26,880 --> 01:22:29,480
Speaker 8: stuff like that. And I don't know what I expected,

1396
01:22:29,600 --> 01:22:36,040
Speaker 8: because she's nicest person in the whole world, and she

1397
01:22:36,120 --> 01:22:41,720
Speaker 8: could never I don't know, have a I don't know,

1398
01:22:41,880 --> 01:22:45,000
Speaker 8: I don't know it was. It was not what I expected,

1399
01:22:45,080 --> 01:22:48,000
Speaker 8: but I don't know what I expected at the same time.

1400
01:22:49,800 --> 01:22:55,040
Speaker 8: But yeah, but everybody finds it really weird. I've talked

1401
01:22:55,320 --> 01:22:59,599
Speaker 8: to a lot of people about this, and they all

1402
01:22:59,680 --> 01:23:06,200
Speaker 8: signed it really disturbing. But for some reason, no one

1403
01:23:06,640 --> 01:23:10,599
Speaker 8: said anything about it to him because he also told

1404
01:23:10,680 --> 01:23:13,800
Speaker 8: everybody that he was going to get that tattoo. But

1405
01:23:14,040 --> 01:23:18,439
Speaker 8: it is well known around my town that that is

1406
01:23:18,600 --> 01:23:22,840
Speaker 8: my tattoo, because I can't shut up about the tattoos

1407
01:23:23,080 --> 01:23:28,320
Speaker 8: I have, like when I become an animal, when I'm

1408
01:23:28,360 --> 01:23:32,760
Speaker 8: a little drunk, and so everybody knows that that is

1409
01:23:32,800 --> 01:23:34,559
Speaker 8: the tattoo that I also have.

1410
01:23:36,160 --> 01:23:42,280
Speaker 1: When you become an animal, yeah, not like you like.

1411
01:23:43,840 --> 01:23:47,599
Speaker 8: In the head, you know, how how.

1412
01:23:47,479 --> 01:23:50,160
Speaker 1: Have you become? What happens to you when you become

1413
01:23:50,200 --> 01:23:50,719
Speaker 1: an animal?

1414
01:23:53,000 --> 01:24:00,240
Speaker 8: When I have when I when I drink wine, Yeah,

1415
01:24:00,280 --> 01:24:04,160
Speaker 8: when when I drink wine, I go a little crazy,

1416
01:24:04,400 --> 01:24:04,720
Speaker 8: you know.

1417
01:24:05,880 --> 01:24:11,040
Speaker 6: Interesting, and then I then I start Then I start

1418
01:24:11,439 --> 01:24:14,720
Speaker 6: going up to guys with guitars and tell them to

1419
01:24:14,800 --> 01:24:15,439
Speaker 6: play a song.

1420
01:24:15,479 --> 01:24:19,640
Speaker 8: And then I sing, but I can't really sing, or

1421
01:24:19,960 --> 01:24:27,200
Speaker 8: I start crying and sit somewhere, and or start showing

1422
01:24:27,240 --> 01:24:32,599
Speaker 8: people my tattoos and explaining the whole story of the tattoo.

1423
01:24:35,560 --> 01:24:40,680
Speaker 8: I guess that's not that crazy.

1424
01:24:41,520 --> 01:24:44,040
Speaker 1: But who are you, Lilis? What's what are you doing

1425
01:24:44,080 --> 01:24:45,840
Speaker 1: in the middle of Germany?

1426
01:24:47,560 --> 01:24:52,400
Speaker 8: I just live here. I just live normal life like

1427
01:24:52,479 --> 01:24:53,320
Speaker 8: everybody else.

1428
01:24:57,200 --> 01:24:59,479
Speaker 1: Do you What do you dream of.

1429
01:25:02,479 --> 01:25:08,840
Speaker 8: I dream of I dream of a quiet world where

1430
01:25:09,880 --> 01:25:15,640
Speaker 8: I don't know where everybody is just not afraid to

1431
01:25:15,680 --> 01:25:21,000
Speaker 8: be himself. That's so boring, that's so who doesn't dream

1432
01:25:21,080 --> 01:25:21,400
Speaker 8: of that?

1433
01:25:22,400 --> 01:25:24,360
Speaker 1: But there's a lot of people who don't dream of that.

1434
01:25:28,400 --> 01:25:35,880
Speaker 1: Hitler didn't dream of Uh yeah, I don't think. I

1435
01:25:35,880 --> 01:25:39,559
Speaker 1: don't think that the president of McDonald's dreams of that.

1436
01:25:43,000 --> 01:25:45,920
Speaker 1: I don't think Michael Jordan dreams of that. I think

1437
01:25:45,960 --> 01:25:50,200
Speaker 1: he's busy doing like brand deals and running companies and

1438
01:25:50,240 --> 01:25:59,800
Speaker 1: stuffy whoever who's in charge of Apple Computers. That guy,

1439
01:25:59,840 --> 01:26:04,320
Speaker 1: he doesn't dream of that. Yeah, yeah, there's plenty of

1440
01:26:04,320 --> 01:26:07,240
Speaker 1: people who don't dream of that. They're thinking about other stuff.

1441
01:26:08,880 --> 01:26:10,200
Speaker 8: Dream of wild horses.

1442
01:26:12,600 --> 01:26:16,800
Speaker 1: Yes, have you seen a lot of wild horses lately?

1443
01:26:18,479 --> 01:26:24,160
Speaker 8: M if I dream? No, I've never seen a wild horse,

1444
01:26:25,280 --> 01:26:27,040
Speaker 8: but I would like to very much.

1445
01:26:27,479 --> 01:26:31,320
Speaker 1: Do they have those in They have horses in Germany.

1446
01:26:31,000 --> 01:26:36,000
Speaker 8: Right, not wild horses. They have lots of horses on

1447
01:26:37,040 --> 01:26:41,160
Speaker 8: like enclosures, but not wild horses.

1448
01:26:41,200 --> 01:26:43,920
Speaker 1: Sadly, it's a whole ass country. They don't have any

1449
01:26:43,920 --> 01:26:46,720
Speaker 1: horses like wild horses. It's not like one.

1450
01:26:47,360 --> 01:26:52,400
Speaker 8: No, we don't even have natural lawns. I don't even

1451
01:26:52,439 --> 01:26:54,840
Speaker 8: know the English word force, like.

1452
01:26:55,000 --> 01:26:59,719
Speaker 5: Just wild grass waste force.

1453
01:27:01,720 --> 01:27:04,760
Speaker 8: No, we have forests. We have lots of forests. Most

1454
01:27:04,800 --> 01:27:10,679
Speaker 8: of them are artificial though. Visa is the German word

1455
01:27:11,680 --> 01:27:17,000
Speaker 8: for just like wild grown lawn, grasp with flowers and FeAs.

1456
01:27:17,479 --> 01:27:20,280
Speaker 8: We barely have that. We only have like fields.

1457
01:27:22,760 --> 01:27:32,960
Speaker 1: It's really sad, lilis, Yes, where do we go when

1458
01:27:32,960 --> 01:27:33,439
Speaker 1: we die?

1459
01:27:36,080 --> 01:27:40,280
Speaker 8: Where do we go when we die? Fuck around and

1460
01:27:40,400 --> 01:27:44,639
Speaker 8: find out? I don't know what kind of question is that?

1461
01:27:50,200 --> 01:27:51,120
Speaker 1: What kind of question is it?

1462
01:27:53,040 --> 01:27:53,360
Speaker 5: Yes?

1463
01:27:54,120 --> 01:27:56,479
Speaker 1: You know, I thought we established at the beginning of

1464
01:27:56,520 --> 01:28:01,800
Speaker 1: this conversation that it's not good to ask people what

1465
01:28:01,800 --> 01:28:03,240
Speaker 1: they mean by things.

1466
01:28:04,200 --> 01:28:07,840
Speaker 8: Oh my god, I'm so sorry.

1467
01:28:08,040 --> 01:28:14,080
Speaker 1: You're right, I forget, I apologize, don't worry about it, loves.

1468
01:28:15,200 --> 01:28:15,439
Speaker 8: Yes.

1469
01:28:16,240 --> 01:28:17,600
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the

1470
01:28:17,600 --> 01:28:19,160
Speaker 1: people as the computer before we go?

1471
01:28:21,200 --> 01:28:35,920
Speaker 8: M instead of instead of getting getting something tattooed to

1472
01:28:37,000 --> 01:28:43,439
Speaker 8: creep or to piss someone off, you should do something else,

1473
01:28:43,600 --> 01:28:48,160
Speaker 8: like throw eggs at their house or something like that.

1474
01:28:48,960 --> 01:28:56,000
Speaker 8: So don't do that. And then secondly, mhm, lift free

1475
01:28:56,640 --> 01:29:03,000
Speaker 8: lifts so freely that you're existence is an act of

1476
01:29:03,120 --> 01:29:05,599
Speaker 8: rebellion or whatever. That one guy.

1477
01:29:05,520 --> 01:29:10,160
Speaker 1: Said, thank you for calling Lilith, thank you for answering.

1478
01:29:11,400 --> 01:29:16,760
Speaker 1: I don't watch anime. That's all nerd shit. No, I've

1479
01:29:17,040 --> 01:29:20,479
Speaker 1: did I watch an anime recently? What did I watch recently?

1480
01:29:20,479 --> 01:29:27,920
Speaker 1: I watched Sokka Moto Days. I liked that one. I'm

1481
01:29:27,920 --> 01:29:33,800
Speaker 1: gonna watch I'm gonna start watching Scavenger Rain. I don't

1482
01:29:33,800 --> 01:29:37,680
Speaker 1: know if that counts as anime though I like animation. No,

1483
01:29:37,720 --> 01:29:40,400
Speaker 1: I don't know. This is anime I watched when I

1484
01:29:40,520 --> 01:29:43,960
Speaker 1: was in middle school. It was called Sergeant Frog. The

1485
01:29:44,040 --> 01:29:46,400
Speaker 1: main character. If you look this up, it's called Sergeant

1486
01:29:46,400 --> 01:29:51,040
Speaker 1: Frog the main character. Actually looks like me. I haven't

1487
01:29:51,080 --> 01:29:53,120
Speaker 1: watched that in a while, but I like it a lot,

1488
01:29:53,200 --> 01:29:55,439
Speaker 1: so I might go back and watch it. That was

1489
01:29:55,479 --> 01:30:00,240
Speaker 1: the Therapy Gecko podcast. I'm Lyle and this This is

1490
01:30:00,240 --> 01:30:05,639
Speaker 1: the outro to the Therapy Gecko podcast. That was nice.

1491
01:30:05,680 --> 01:30:10,800
Speaker 1: That was a very chit chatty podcast. I guess all

1492
01:30:10,800 --> 01:30:11,719
Speaker 1: of them are chit chats.

1493
01:30:11,760 --> 01:30:12,000
Speaker 5: I guess.

1494
01:30:12,160 --> 01:30:15,519
Speaker 1: I guess all podcasts are kind of chit chats, except

1495
01:30:15,520 --> 01:30:18,400
Speaker 1: except like the Batman ones, where they like do like

1496
01:30:18,439 --> 01:30:23,280
Speaker 1: a dramatization of Batman. Those aren't chit chats. Those are like,

1497
01:30:23,400 --> 01:30:30,479
Speaker 1: tell a story about Batman. Do I have anything else

1498
01:30:30,520 --> 01:30:36,879
Speaker 1: to say? I feel like I do. Thanks for listening.

1499
01:30:37,040 --> 01:30:40,479
Speaker 1: I say that every time, though, What more do I

1500
01:30:40,520 --> 01:30:44,280
Speaker 1: have to say? The more I think, the more I

1501
01:30:44,560 --> 01:30:46,840
Speaker 1: the older I get and the more I experience and

1502
01:30:46,880 --> 01:30:50,880
Speaker 1: the more I learn, the more I I actually I think.

1503
01:30:50,880 --> 01:30:58,960
Speaker 1: The older I get, the more futile it feels to

1504
01:30:59,000 --> 01:31:02,920
Speaker 1: feel like I know any thing. But that's actually nice,

1505
01:31:03,000 --> 01:31:11,800
Speaker 1: I think, and knowing everything is bad. Knowing everything is bad,

1506
01:31:12,680 --> 01:31:17,639
Speaker 1: and not knowing things is okay. It's good. It's actively

1507
01:31:17,680 --> 01:31:24,680
Speaker 1: beneficial to life to not know things. So if your

1508
01:31:24,720 --> 01:31:30,360
Speaker 1: mom is still around, go look at her. If you

1509
01:31:30,400 --> 01:31:33,200
Speaker 1: have anyone else in your house right now, go look

1510
01:31:33,240 --> 01:31:38,120
Speaker 1: at them. If you're alone, look in a mirror and go, wow,

1511
01:31:38,479 --> 01:31:45,760
Speaker 1: look at that. This is insane psychedelic. All right, thank

1512
01:31:45,800 --> 01:31:49,160
Speaker 1: you all. I'll be back soon. Go do something else

1513
01:31:49,560 --> 01:31:53,519
Speaker 1: with your life. Go walk around. Maybe you're walking around

1514
01:31:53,520 --> 01:32:00,360
Speaker 1: while you're listening to this already. I'm very sleepy. I'm

1515
01:32:00,360 --> 01:32:03,400
Speaker 1: gonna go, h am, I gonna go eat the pints

1516
01:32:03,400 --> 01:32:05,960
Speaker 1: of ice cream. I really want to fuck. I really

1517
01:32:05,960 --> 01:32:09,280
Speaker 1: want to I don't want to do anything besides do that.

1518
01:32:10,640 --> 01:32:13,840
Speaker 1: I might. I'll let you know if I end up

1519
01:32:13,880 --> 01:32:17,880
Speaker 1: doing it, or actually I probably won't. All right, thank you.

1520
01:32:19,120 --> 01:32:19,240
Speaker 5: Ka.

1521
01:32:19,320 --> 01:32:22,639
Speaker 1: It goes on the line, taking your phone calls every night.

1522
01:32:23,000 --> 01:32:25,680
Speaker 1: The beacon goes to his hide. You're just teaching you

1523
01:32:25,680 --> 01:32:27,160
Speaker 1: a loud your line.

1524
01:32:27,560 --> 01:32:29,720
Speaker 6: Money's not really an expert.