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Speaker 1: I am a Yamla. I had a baby daddy relationship.

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Speaker 1: I spent time in a relationship with a married man.

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Speaker 1: I had to learn the skills and tools required to

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Speaker 1: make my relationships healthy, fulfilling and loving. Welcome to the Rspot,

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Speaker 1: a production of Shondaland Audio in partnership with iHeartRadio. Beloved

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Speaker 1: by Now, you know that if you come to me

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Speaker 1: with an issue, I am going to tell you some

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Speaker 1: things you probably don't want to hear. And for today's topic,

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Speaker 1: I've got something to say to most, if not every

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Speaker 1: woman out there, Grow some lady balls. It's a topic

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Speaker 1: I love to discuss and one I want to educate

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Speaker 1: women about. And as we get into our conversation today,

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Speaker 1: you'll see what I mean. Growing lady balls is all

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Speaker 1: about choosing you and my first caller and I get

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Speaker 1: to the heart of exactly what that means. Good afternoon, beloved,

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Speaker 1: Welcome to the R Spot, where we talk about all

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Speaker 1: things relationships. So how can I support you? What is

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Speaker 1: your issue, problem, challenge, dilemma today?

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Speaker 2: Wow, Good afternoon, Good afternoon. The reason that I am

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Speaker 2: calling in today is because I'm going through a breakup

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Speaker 2: right now. Okay, I was a long distance relationship for

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Speaker 2: two years. And so this relationship began right after a

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Speaker 2: divorce and my partner was never married, no children. I

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Speaker 2: have three children, and we were long distance, like I said,

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Speaker 2: for two years, and then in the last two months,

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Speaker 2: my partner moved closer to close the distance, and I thought,

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Speaker 2: you know, this was going to bring us closer. So

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Speaker 2: I just got a call on last week. There wasn't

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Speaker 2: really an argument that was out of the norm or anything.

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Speaker 2: There was a disagreement, and then we went five days

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Speaker 2: without talking. No one called, and that was very unusual

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Speaker 2: because usually my partner will call and just leave voice

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Speaker 2: messages and you know, send me emails and things like

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Speaker 2: that in the event that there is a time that

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Speaker 2: I shut down and don't communicate. This time, none of

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Speaker 2: that happened, and I got a call, and you know,

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Speaker 2: I was told during that time we weren't speaking. I

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Speaker 2: went out, I had a couple of drinks and I

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Speaker 2: kissed someone else, and I don't think we can fix this.

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Speaker 2: Since then, you've talked maybe once or twice. There's been

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Speaker 2: a lot of confusing conversation. I'm being told I do

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Speaker 2: want to repair. I'm not sure I know how to repair.

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Speaker 2: Then I'm also being told I'm not sure that I

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Speaker 2: want to repair? Or how do I know that you

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Speaker 2: know this is right? I thought everything was wonderful. I

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Speaker 2: thought everything was great. So I'm just I don't have

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Speaker 2: a lot of answers, and I'm really torn. I feel broken.

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Speaker 2: I felt numb about this, and I just feel.

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Speaker 3: Like I've truly lost my best friend.

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Speaker 2: Okay, And when I saw that this opportunity came up

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Speaker 2: to speak with you, I jumped on it because who's

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Speaker 2: better to speak with?

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Speaker 4: Nah?

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Speaker 1: I don't know if I'm the one. Are you sure

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Speaker 1: you want to speak to me? Because I'm going right

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Speaker 1: in for the jugular here?

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Speaker 2: Okay, all right, tell me what.

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Speaker 1: Is it that you really want to know? Let's get

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Speaker 1: clear about that first.

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Speaker 2: Should I wait?

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Speaker 3: How do I move forward? Like?

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Speaker 2: Is there a chance maybe that we reconcile, we repair?

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Speaker 2: Does heartbreak ever feel better? Is it pain going to ever?

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Speaker 3: Stop? But I can pull up?

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Speaker 1: Hold up? Hold up, hold up, Hold up, My sister woman,

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Speaker 1: you were in a long distance relationship for two years?

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Speaker 1: How many times did y'all see each other in that

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Speaker 1: two years? How often monthly? So you've seen them twenty

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Speaker 1: four times for how long? Each visit.

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Speaker 2: Sometimes it would be like a week, sometimes maybe a

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Speaker 2: few days. But this person seemed very invested in me.

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Speaker 2: I mean treated me like gold. I had no complaints.

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Speaker 2: I didn't have to to open a door, I didn't

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Speaker 2: have to carry any bags anywhere. I didn't have to

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Speaker 2: pay for any meals ever. Whatever I needed support, they

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Speaker 2: were there anytime we traveled. I didn't have much responsibility

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Speaker 2: at all. So this person seemed to be very genuine

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Speaker 2: and very giving.

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Speaker 1: And what if he let me ask you this, were

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Speaker 1: you raised in the church? Yes, okay, have you ever

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Speaker 1: heard and I will send the comforter? Have you heard

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Speaker 4: Oh?

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Speaker 3: Yeah?

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Speaker 1: What if he was just a comforter? What if he's

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Speaker 3: I met?

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Speaker 1: You said long distance relationship right after a divorce?

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Speaker 3: Yes?

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Speaker 1: What if he was your comforter? Beloved? I don't know

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Speaker 1: why as women we think everyone has to be the one.

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Speaker 1: What if he was the one for them?

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Speaker 4: Right?

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Speaker 1: What if? Could you just be grateful you didn't have

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Speaker 1: to open the door. Can you be grateful? He paid,

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Speaker 1: he invested in you. Can you be grateful he took

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Speaker 1: you out to dinner? Can you be grateful? Was the

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Speaker 1: sex good?

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Speaker 3: Absolutely.

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Speaker 1: Could you be grateful? You know how many people got

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Speaker 1: divorced eight years ago and it ain't had no nookie since then.

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Speaker 1: They are dying from lack of nookie. Could you just

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Speaker 1: be grateful to him, to your creator, to the universe,

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Speaker 1: to life, and now you know what you're looking for

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Speaker 1: in the next one. Why do we as women think

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Speaker 1: that everyone is the one? Because if he was the one,

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Speaker 1: he would know and he wouldn't be kissing somebody else.

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Speaker 1: And if they kissed, I don't know if that's where

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Speaker 1: it ended, right, What if that season is just over?

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Speaker 1: What do you need to do to have peace? How

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Speaker 1: do you choose you now? As opposed to worrying about him?

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Speaker 1: It was good and I'm grateful, he was great, and

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Speaker 1: I'm grateful, But I'm just not going to allow myself

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Speaker 1: to be torn up by somebody who don't know surely

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Speaker 1: clearly right now, that this is what they want. When

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Speaker 1: he figures it out, maybe he'll come back, maybe maybe not,

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Speaker 1: who knows, could be. But how do you choose you

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Speaker 1: in the meantime?

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Speaker 2: Right, I gotta figure it out?

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Speaker 1: No, you don't. You just have to make a choice.

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Speaker 1: I did that one time. I had that situation. I mean,

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Speaker 1: this brother was off the chain, gorgeous, okay, sweet, calm,

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Speaker 1: spiritually grounded, focused, dedicated, and he had made a commitment

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Speaker 1: in his mind to himself that until he finished his

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Speaker 1: doctorate we were in graduate school together, that he wasn't

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Speaker 1: going to be in in a relationship. And so then

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Speaker 1: I showed up. Oops, you know, and we had a

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Speaker 1: great time together. We had it study together and went together. Well,

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Speaker 1: it was just wonderful. And he was tormented. Tormented. You know,

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Speaker 1: this is not what I want. I don't know if

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Speaker 1: this is what God wants for me. I made a

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Speaker 1: commitment I can't do a relationship in school and boot

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Speaker 1: bah the And normally my process would have been to

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Speaker 1: try to convince him of how wonderful and marvelous I was.

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Speaker 1: But I grew some lady. I had grown some lady balls.

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Speaker 1: You know what lady balls are. I'll tell you how

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Speaker 1: I grew lady balls. After the break, welcome back. My

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Speaker 1: caller is learning how to stand up for herself, and

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Speaker 1: right before the break, I was going to share with

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Speaker 1: her how I did it. I had grown some lady,

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Speaker 1: and I said, you know what, if he don't want

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Speaker 1: to be with me, something must be wrong with him,

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Speaker 1: and I'm gonna let him go. So you know what

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Speaker 1: I told him one day when he was covetching and

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Speaker 1: moaning and groaning about I don't know if this is

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Speaker 1: what I want to do. And well, we done done everything,

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Speaker 1: we done eight together, slept together, shared money together, and

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Speaker 1: you still don't know. Okay, I'll tell you what. And

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Speaker 1: I looked him in his face. I said, you know,

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Speaker 1: I really enjoy being with you. This has been wonderful.

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Speaker 1: This has been marvelous. But you know what, you figure

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Speaker 1: out what you want to do, and when you figure

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Speaker 1: that out, let me know. In the meantime, I'm out

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Speaker 1: because I had to choose me. And you know what

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Speaker 1: I found out about three weeks after I did that.

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Speaker 1: You want to know, don't you?

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Speaker 4: I do?

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Speaker 1: That he was living with another woman.

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Speaker 2: Wow.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, that's what I said. Wow, So I just dodged

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Speaker 1: that bullet. Yes, what if you're dodging a bullet?

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Speaker 3: Right?

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Speaker 1: You got to dust off your lady balls. Your lady

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Speaker 1: balls are dusty. Don't think that because you had a divorce.

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Speaker 1: Oh God, here we go again. I'm losing another one.

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Speaker 1: I'm losing another relationship. Forget that. He doesn't know if

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Speaker 1: he wants to be with you. You can't convince him.

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Speaker 1: Let him go. If it's yours, it'll come back, all right. Now,

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Speaker 1: tell me what you hear me saying. You don't have

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Speaker 1: to repeat my words, but I want to know what

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Speaker 1: your inner conversation is about what you just heard.

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Speaker 2: What I just heard was that some things are just

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Speaker 2: out of my control. And as opposed to just hanging

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Speaker 2: around and just waiting around, I have to pick up

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Speaker 2: the pieces of me and move forward. And what meant

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Speaker 2: for me, it's for me and it will come to me.

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Speaker 1: Well, I just want to clean that up a little bit.

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Speaker 1: What pieces? Why are you in pieces? You pretty old

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Speaker 1: to me? You had two years of good sex, good fun,

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Speaker 1: nice man. Why are you in pieces?

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Speaker 2: And it's just as heartbroken it it's sudden. I didn't

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Speaker 2: expect it. It's just so opposite of what's been going on.

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Speaker 1: Is what if you're dodging a bullet? What if you're

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Speaker 1: dodging a bullet?

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Speaker 3: Caught you off?

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Speaker 1: God, control freak, You didn't know? Okay, fine, what if

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Speaker 1: you're dodging a bullet? How come you're not saying thank

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Speaker 1: you God, yeah, thank you for sending this comforter. It

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Speaker 1: was fun, it was great. Is there another one coming

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Speaker 1: anytime soon?

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Speaker 4: So?

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Speaker 1: I want you to repeat this with me, and I

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Speaker 1: want you to make this your mantra. You know what

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Speaker 1: a mantra is. A mantra is a word or saying

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Speaker 1: that you repeat over and over and over to shift

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Speaker 1: in your consciousness. Okay, okay, if he's mine, repeat that.

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Speaker 1: If he's mine, he'll be here, he'll be here if he's.

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Speaker 2: Not, If he's not, bye bye.

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Speaker 1: And then you dust off your lady balls, and you

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Speaker 1: practice trust and you practice faith, and you choose you.

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Speaker 1: I hear you saying your heartbroke, and I hear your

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Speaker 1: saying you'll miss him and all of this. So what

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Speaker 1: do you need to do to choose you and bring

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Speaker 1: peace to you right now? What do you need to do?

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Speaker 1: You need to buy some chocolate? Do you need to

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Speaker 1: go shopping? Do you need to take some life spats?

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Speaker 1: I got some nice bath stuff you can take.

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Speaker 2: If you want to, Yes, you do.

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Speaker 1: What do you need to do to choose you right now?

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Speaker 1: As opposed to giving him your time, your energy, your parts,

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Speaker 1: and your pieces. They do that to us all the time. No,

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Speaker 1: you don't want me, you don't know if you want me.

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Speaker 1: I'm not gonna let myself want you by dust off

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Speaker 1: your la balls or grow him or put some hair

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Speaker 1: on them, or whatever you need to do. Just choose you.

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Speaker 1: And it's hard. I'm not being heartless. I know it's hard.

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Speaker 1: But you were long distance. You didn't see him every day.

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Speaker 1: You saw him once a month.

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Speaker 3: So you know what.

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Speaker 1: You can still talk to him. Write it in your journal.

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Speaker 1: You can still talk to him. Have the conversation out loud.

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Speaker 1: I'm coming home. You don't say that bye. See I'm

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Speaker 3: Thank you so much, thank you.

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Speaker 1: And here's the thing. You know, you're not in this

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Speaker 1: Or he makes up his mind and doesn't and you

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Speaker 1: be okay, choose you. Now what you're gonna do. You're

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Speaker 2: You so.

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Speaker 1: Okay, my love, Bye bye long distance relationships. I ain't

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Speaker 1: messing with that. She needs some lady balls. I wish

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Speaker 1: I could teach women about ladyballs. Ladyballs is that cut

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Speaker 1: off switch. It's that place in us that is just

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Speaker 1: not going to accommodate, tolerate, entertain any foolishment. Ladyballs are

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Speaker 1: that part of us that makes our spine and our

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Speaker 1: But if you want to be with me, I'm choosing me.

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Speaker 1: This is what you gotta do. I have a heart

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Speaker 1: but I can't make it okay for you. You've got

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Speaker 1: I'm the one. Like I said, I'm closer to the

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Speaker 1: and you got two years, You've got time in, you've

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Speaker 1: You gotta get that estrogen, progesterin whatever flowing through them

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Speaker 1: so that you don't waste time choosing someone else's confusion

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Speaker 1: it's for you. And yes, the other person may be

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Speaker 1: I'm not gonna try to convince you. Uh uh no,

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Speaker 1: I got a hard on for me, all right. That's

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Speaker 1: choose you, take care of you, and give up this

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Speaker 1: lady balls, chocolate helps.

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Speaker 5: Grow chocolate, chocolate cake, chocolate milkshake, and bubble baths, that's

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Speaker 1: My next scholar is a woman who feels she has

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Speaker 1: I have to say about that. Hello, Hello, good afternoon, beloved.

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Speaker 1: Welcome to the R spot and how can I support

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Speaker 4: So I need support in I'm getting out of a marriage. Basically,

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Speaker 4: So I want to learn how to tone that down

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Speaker 1: Woo oky dopey. I love when people call me with

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Speaker 1: their own self diagnosis. It's so exciting. Okay, let me

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Speaker 4: It means I will just be honest. I was very

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Speaker 1: So you consider control as a masculine.

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Speaker 1: And what's the distinction that you make between control and fear?

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Speaker 1: Very often people try to control their environment, control how

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Speaker 4: Yes, that is exactly right, because, like I said, because I.

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Speaker 4: My dad was like the mean person, right, like you

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Speaker 4: More of be loving mail. I mean, he always made

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Speaker 4: And of course this was all unconscious. I didn't mean

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Speaker 4: But once I started to kill and do the work,

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Speaker 4: and look at that past self, and I'm like, you

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Speaker 4: know what, I don't like the way I did things.

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Speaker 4: I don't like the way I treated people. Not that

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Speaker 1: So I heard you say this, not going to allow

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Speaker 4: That way was, like I said, my dad was very controlling, very.

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Speaker 3: Manipuliti, And I hope I don't start crying.

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Speaker 1: Wait a minute, I want you to stop right there,

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Speaker 1: because when the masculine energy feels aggressive, or when the

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Speaker 1: You said, I want to learn more about my feminine energy.

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Speaker 1: But then you said, I hope I don't cry? Why not?

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Speaker 3: Right?

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Speaker 1: Feminine is water.

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Speaker 4: Yes, yes, I'm so glad you told me, and I

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Speaker 1: Well, you said you want to set in, you want

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Speaker 4: Exactly, exactly, So that's what I've been doing.

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Speaker 1: Right, So we'll get into how to separate your energies

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Speaker 1: In an episode about growing lady Balls, we definitely need

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Speaker 1: to cover the difference between masculine and feminine energy. Mail

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Speaker 1: energy is head, thought, thinking, intellect. Feminine energy is heart, emotion, feeling.

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Speaker 1: And what I hear you saying to me, you want

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Speaker 3: Yeah.

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Speaker 1: I could be.

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Speaker 4: Wrong, You're absolutely right, and based on what you just said,

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Speaker 4: I know I'm all over the place.

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Speaker 3: No you're not.

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Speaker 1: You're not all over the place. You in your head, Okay,

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Speaker 1: protecting yourself from the controlling, manipulative, abusive energy that you

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Speaker 1: True feminine energy it's heart and feeling and vulnerability and

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Speaker 1: the word we all hate passive or submissive. And you said,

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Speaker 1: I'm not going to allow a man to treat me

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Speaker 1: that way. I'm not going to allow man to be

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Speaker 1: abusive to me. I'm not going to allow man to

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Speaker 1: be manipulative. I'm not gonna allow man to control me.

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Speaker 1: I'm not gonna allow a man to do that because

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Speaker 1: it's not safe. Listen to me, Okay, can you hear me?

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Speaker 3: Yes?

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Speaker 1: Man, okay? And I want you to answer this question

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Speaker 1: have to make sense. Who broke your heart my dad?

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Speaker 1: Did your dad break your heart by the way he

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Speaker 3: Oh?

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Speaker 1: Which one happened first? Couldn't have happened first, because if

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Speaker 1: all over you considered the possibility that your mom broke

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Speaker 1: means it's tender and it's guarded. So if you really,

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Speaker 1: to feel. I'm not just talking about crying, I'm talking

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Speaker 1: about feeling. You gotta get safe, right, and the way

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Speaker 1: to get safe is to heal that broken heart. Doesn't

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Speaker 1: matter why she left. The fact is the heart wasn't

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Speaker 1: feminine wasn't there to balance the energy of the masculine,

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Speaker 1: because the feminine is the heart. So you don't have

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Speaker 3: Wow, I'm so glad that you let me know, because

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Speaker 3: I'm like, just all over safe.

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Speaker 2: Oh you're not.

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Speaker 1: You're in your head, you're not all open place, and

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Speaker 1: you're trying so hard what not to be. I'm not

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Speaker 1: gonna let a man treat me this way. So I

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Speaker 1: have to be this and listen this and this and this.

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Speaker 1: You're trying so hard not to be something until you

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Speaker 1: aren't being what you want to be, which is feminine, soft,

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Speaker 1: open hearted, present in your feelings.

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Speaker 3: Oh that's what I want to be.

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Speaker 1: So you got to heal up that broken heart. Stop

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Speaker 1: looking at your dad. He was just a man. He

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Speaker 1: wasn't necessarily masculine energy. Although that's how masculine energy when

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Speaker 1: it's imbalanced. Right right, sounds like he had you and

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Speaker 1: your sister. Your mom was gone. We don't know what

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Speaker 1: that felt like for him. Maybe his heart was closed,

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Speaker 1: Maybe he was angry, Maybe he was hurt, Maybe he

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Speaker 1: was disappointed. Maybe he didn't know how to give you

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Speaker 1: his heart. Maybe he gave your heart his heart to

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Speaker 1: your mom and she left with it, or she broke

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Speaker 1: his heart and he just passed it on.

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Speaker 4: Who knows.

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Speaker 1: We can make it up any way. We want it

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Speaker 1: to be right. But what I hear you saying is

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Speaker 1: you want to be more in your heart. So hmm,

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Speaker 1: so much is coming to mind now. I'm all over

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Speaker 1: the place forgiveness. Oh yes, I have been.

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Speaker 3: Working with that, mister young But.

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Speaker 1: Who are you forgiving? What are you forgiving?

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Speaker 4: I'm forgiving, like I said, my dad or anybody else

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Speaker 4: that I feel there had hurt me, including my ex husband,

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Speaker 4: and I'm forgiving myself asking others to forgive me. And

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Speaker 4: I didn't realize, though, that forgiveness was such a hard,

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Speaker 4: complicated process.

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Speaker 3: I always thought it.

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Speaker 4: Was simple, as I say the prayer, I forgive them,

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Speaker 4: I wish them the best, I wish them well.

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Speaker 3: Okay, I'm good.

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Speaker 4: And now that I'm on this killing journey, I'm like, oh,

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Speaker 4: it's it's so much deeper than that, and I didn't

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Speaker 4: realize it before.

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Speaker 3: I have some more work to do.

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Speaker 1: Well. I want to encourage you to go back and

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Speaker 1: do your forgiveness on your mom. Forget her story, Forget

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Speaker 1: what they told you, Forget what you think, forget what

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Speaker 1: you made up. Go back and do some forgiveness work

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Speaker 1: on your mom, and then do some forgiveness work with God. Okay,

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Speaker 1: forgiving God for whatever you think God is responsible for.

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Speaker 1: If he's responsible for your mom, if leaving, if he's

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Speaker 1: responsible for your dad being abusive, controlling, manipulative, if he's

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Speaker 1: responsible for every little thing that happened to you when

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Speaker 1: you were six, twelve, thirteen, fifteen, sixteen, whatever, forgive your mom,

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Speaker 1: forgive God, then go to your dad, and then go

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Speaker 1: to yourself, and the deepest way to do it is

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Speaker 1: really to forgive the thought, forgive the feeling, forgive the belief,

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Speaker 1: forgive the judgment. But the forgiveness work. If you want

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Speaker 1: to take another look at my book on forgiveness, because

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Speaker 1: that is the work. It's a forty day process. Okay,

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Speaker 1: So think of it this way, beloved again. Masculine energy

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Speaker 1: is head thought, intellect, it's creation. Feminine energy is heart feeling.

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Speaker 1: It's a surrender and energy of surrender and energy of passivity,

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Speaker 1: not weakness, but passivity, receptivity, receptivity, let me say, receptivity,

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Speaker 1: whereas masculine energy is a more aggressive energy. So you

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Speaker 1: want to move out of the aggression into the receptivity, okay,

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Speaker 1: And you want to know that it's safe to feel

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Speaker 1: and forgiveness, and then when you finish with forgiveness, you

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Speaker 1: can work on trust.

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Speaker 3: Yeah.

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Speaker 1: Absolutely, thank you for your call, beloved. Give me a

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Speaker 1: call in about six weeks and let me know where

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Speaker 1: you are.

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Speaker 3: Okay, I surely will.

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Speaker 4: Thank you so much, miss young Okay, my love, bye bye,

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Speaker 4: all right, bye bye.

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Speaker 3: I'm glacious.

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Speaker 1: So many of us think that the one right now

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Speaker 1: has to be the one forever in fact, as women,

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Speaker 1: we sometimes try to fit the square man peg into

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Speaker 1: the round hole in our heart, even when we know

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Speaker 1: it's not a good match. A good match has nothing

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Speaker 1: to do with masculine or feminine energy. It's not about

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Speaker 1: how much you invest in a relationship or how much

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Speaker 1: time you spend together. It doesn't even have anything to

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Speaker 1: do with how much you love each other. A good match,

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Speaker 1: a solid relationship has to grow from the mutual respect

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Speaker 1: between the people involved, which means that sometimes you must

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Speaker 1: stand up for yourself. You must grow some lady balls

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Speaker 1: and choose you, especially when you are not feeling respected beloved.

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Speaker 1: Choose you, vote for you, make that change, and then

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Speaker 1: go and get yourself some chocolate and have a bubble bath.

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Speaker 1: A'miyama and I thank you for tuning in. If you

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Speaker 1: have questions or insights about this or any other relationship

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