WEBVTT - “THE WAY I TALK IS RUINING MY LIFE” 0:00:00.160 --> 0:00:05.320 Call from Nathan Hostable. Hello, Hey, how's it going. 0:00:05.800 --> 0:00:06.560 What's up, Nathan? 0:00:07.080 --> 0:00:07.480 Not much? 0:00:07.480 --> 0:00:08.480 How you doing, man? 0:00:08.720 --> 0:00:10.079 I'm hanging in there. What's going on with you? 0:00:10.640 --> 0:00:10.760 Uh? 0:00:11.280 --> 0:00:11.720 Not much? 0:00:11.760 --> 0:00:13.840 Hey? There was something I wanted to call and talk 0:00:13.880 --> 0:00:14.360 to you about. 0:00:14.800 --> 0:00:15.400 Yeah. Please. 0:00:16.079 --> 0:00:21.640 So I have this weird addiction and it only happens 0:00:21.680 --> 0:00:24.320 with my friends for a while, but then it happens 0:00:24.320 --> 0:00:28.639 in real life where I say mon a lot, like 0:00:28.680 --> 0:00:32.159 I'll say hey mon or thanks mon, and I can't 0:00:32.159 --> 0:00:33.360 really get rid of it. 0:00:35.680 --> 0:00:38.000 Like like you do, like a Jamaican mon. 0:00:39.560 --> 0:00:41.919 I must be mon. I just don't see I did 0:00:41.920 --> 0:00:42.280 it again. 0:00:47.120 --> 0:00:48.680 What do you think is causing you to do this? 0:00:50.800 --> 0:00:54.560 Probably just like repetition. I don't know. I've done it 0:00:54.600 --> 0:00:58.200 so much that it is like literally ingrained in my mind. 0:00:58.240 --> 0:01:05.399 Now, how how long have you been saying mon? For? 0:01:09.920 --> 0:01:11.840 Probably like two or three years at this point. 0:01:13.200 --> 0:01:14.480 Has anyone ever told you to stop? 0:01:17.840 --> 0:01:18.520 Surprisingly? 0:01:18.640 --> 0:01:18.720 No? 0:01:24.680 --> 0:01:27.480 Do you think I think where it really started to 0:01:29.160 --> 0:01:31.360 take its toll as we went. So we went to 0:01:31.400 --> 0:01:34.560 the seven eleven, right, and they have these candies that 0:01:34.600 --> 0:01:39.399 are now discontinued called mystery Monkeys, And we went into 0:01:39.520 --> 0:01:41.840 every seven eleven trying to find them. Referring to them 0:01:41.880 --> 0:01:49.640 as mystery monkeys, and the castiers got really confused. They 0:01:49.640 --> 0:01:51.600 were never mad about it, though, they were just confused. 0:01:53.040 --> 0:01:55.640 Has it ever come out in an an opportune moment, 0:01:55.800 --> 0:01:57.720 like a date or a job interview? 0:02:00.040 --> 0:02:00.280 Mhm. 0:02:03.880 --> 0:02:10.520 It has definitely in work a couple of times, and 0:02:10.840 --> 0:02:12.280 I kind of just play it off. I think we 0:02:12.360 --> 0:02:13.440 all just kind of play it off. 0:02:13.480 --> 0:02:20.520 But do you think it affects how people perceive you? 0:02:23.360 --> 0:02:26.959 It's it's starting to become my personality. 0:02:27.120 --> 0:02:27.600 I think. 0:02:28.320 --> 0:02:29.120 Does that scare you? 0:02:30.919 --> 0:02:31.800 It does a little bit. 0:02:31.880 --> 0:02:35.560 Yeah, I don't want to be known as the Mond guy. 0:02:35.800 --> 0:02:36.120 You know. 0:02:38.400 --> 0:02:39.639 What would you rather be known as? 0:02:48.480 --> 0:02:51.600 I want I want to I want to be known 0:02:51.639 --> 0:03:00.760 as a historian specific specifically, uh, like a music historian. 0:03:02.320 --> 0:03:04.119 That's what I'm studying in college right now. 0:03:04.200 --> 0:03:10.720 So maybe the next time you think you're gonna say man, 0:03:12.040 --> 0:03:15.560 you could bring up an interesting music history fact instead. 0:03:17.120 --> 0:03:18.120 That's a really good idea. 0:03:18.160 --> 0:03:21.560 Actually, do you have any for us right now to 0:03:21.600 --> 0:03:21.920 try that? 0:03:25.080 --> 0:03:29.320 Did you know that when the Right of Spring premiered 0:03:29.639 --> 0:03:33.000 in the early nineteen hundreds there were riots? 0:03:34.639 --> 0:03:35.800 That's pretty interesting man. 0:03:38.680 --> 0:03:52.160 Indeed, Well, hey, man, I appreciate the advice. I've got 0:03:52.160 --> 0:03:57.040 to get going to everyone else out there. Just don't 0:03:57.040 --> 0:03:58.960 even start saying mon it won't end. 0:04:00.400 --> 0:04:01.120 Thank you for calling. 0:04:02.520 --> 0:04:03.440 Thank you, gek. 0:04:07.440 --> 0:04:10.800 All from Hello, No fucking way. 0:04:11.000 --> 0:04:11.720 What's going on? 0:04:12.960 --> 0:04:13.280 Uh? 0:04:13.400 --> 0:04:14.680 Not much? What's going on with you? 0:04:15.480 --> 0:04:15.880 Uh? 0:04:15.960 --> 0:04:20.000 Your name is Tofer something like that. All right? What's 0:04:20.080 --> 0:04:20.719 going on with you? 0:04:21.960 --> 0:04:23.760 Just got off work and I've been trying to call 0:04:23.800 --> 0:04:25.679 you for a long time. I'm a little nervous smoking 0:04:25.720 --> 0:04:26.160 a lie. 0:04:26.600 --> 0:04:32.840 Oh shit, Well that's exciting. Being nervous is exciting, you know. 0:04:32.960 --> 0:04:35.440 It means there's your body is telling you that, uh, 0:04:35.800 --> 0:04:38.040 something important is happening. I mean, I don't know if 0:04:38.040 --> 0:04:39.159 this is important. 0:04:38.760 --> 0:04:40.520 But I'm just excited to talk to you. 0:04:40.920 --> 0:04:42.960 I'm excited to talk to you, Tafer. What's going on? 0:04:44.480 --> 0:04:46.080 I wonder if I smoke too much weed? 0:04:47.360 --> 0:04:51.479 I wonder that myself. Let's talk. What's how often you 0:04:51.520 --> 0:04:52.159 smoking weed? 0:04:53.279 --> 0:04:53.760 Mm hmmm? 0:04:54.760 --> 0:04:55.800 Like every couple hours? 0:04:59.160 --> 0:05:01.559 All right. You know what's funny is I always forget 0:05:01.560 --> 0:05:03.359 the weed is bad for you. I've talked about this 0:05:03.360 --> 0:05:05.279 a bunch of times, but I always forget what it is. 0:05:05.360 --> 0:05:05.920 That's the thing. 0:05:06.240 --> 0:05:09.120 It's shut up. It's shut up. Shut up is not 0:05:10.000 --> 0:05:13.440 it's not good, it's not. I don't care what Reddit says, 0:05:13.560 --> 0:05:17.240 and I listen. I listen. I smoke weed every single day. 0:05:17.640 --> 0:05:20.280 I will not say that it's good for. 0:05:20.279 --> 0:05:23.720 You, Okay, I don't. Maybe it's not good for like 0:05:23.960 --> 0:05:28.320 your organs, but I truly believe that it helps me mentally, okay, 0:05:28.320 --> 0:05:31.800 and help me. And it helps me. So I got 0:05:31.800 --> 0:05:35.320 really bad ADHD and I can't like think or like 0:05:35.560 --> 0:05:38.000 get a get like a solid thought out or like 0:05:38.040 --> 0:05:40.040 I'll stutter. But then I get high, and then I 0:05:40.080 --> 0:05:41.640 can think about one thing at a time and I 0:05:41.640 --> 0:05:44.320 can have like a solid conversation and it probably wouldn't het 0:05:44.320 --> 0:05:45.159 me to get high right now? 0:05:46.160 --> 0:05:46.280 Right? 0:05:47.360 --> 0:05:49.160 Are you not high? Right now? Already? You said you 0:05:49.200 --> 0:05:50.440 smoke every few hours. 0:05:50.880 --> 0:05:53.680 Well yeah, but it's been probably like an hour and 0:05:53.720 --> 0:05:55.680 a half or an hour, right. 0:05:56.279 --> 0:05:58.279 I don't know, man, I'm not I'm not a I'm 0:05:58.279 --> 0:06:03.760 not a doctor. I don't h I don't know what. 0:06:04.200 --> 0:06:10.440 Uh yeah, you know I know that you you know 0:06:10.520 --> 0:06:12.039 this is one I knew you were going to say this. 0:06:14.560 --> 0:06:15.640 What that I'm not a doctor? 0:06:16.400 --> 0:06:17.520 Yeah, I thought you might say this. 0:06:17.720 --> 0:06:20.320 Tell me tell me, yeah, yeah, do you Okay, So 0:06:20.560 --> 0:06:23.320 tell me? You thought I was going to say, what 0:06:23.320 --> 0:06:24.880 were you going to say in response to what you 0:06:24.880 --> 0:06:25.960 thought I was going to say? 0:06:26.440 --> 0:06:26.560 Oh? 0:06:26.640 --> 0:06:29.520 Fuck, I don't think that went that far. Yeah, no, 0:06:29.520 --> 0:06:30.560 I definitely didn't go that far. 0:06:30.920 --> 0:06:32.120 Mm hmmm mm hmm. 0:06:33.680 --> 0:06:35.440 Maybe I didn't. I didn't think I had that you 0:06:35.440 --> 0:06:36.839 were going to say that, But when you said it, 0:06:36.920 --> 0:06:38.960 I was like, oh, yeah, definitely something you would say. 0:06:39.520 --> 0:06:42.840 Well, what I mean? Do you do you feel as 0:06:42.880 --> 0:06:45.040 though weed is negatively impacting your life? 0:06:47.120 --> 0:06:49.320 It's negatively impacting my bank account? 0:06:51.040 --> 0:06:51.280 Yeah? 0:06:51.320 --> 0:06:52.880 How often much money is beating on weed? 0:06:54.760 --> 0:07:00.080 Like rent? Like eightsand bucks a month. That used to me, 0:07:00.680 --> 0:07:03.719 what stay do you in? What's stay in Washington State? 0:07:04.160 --> 0:07:05.560 All right? Is it legal there? 0:07:06.560 --> 0:07:08.840 Yeah? We got good stuff here. It's like the one 0:07:08.880 --> 0:07:10.160 of the first dates to become legal. 0:07:10.560 --> 0:07:11.920 How much we do smoking to day? 0:07:13.360 --> 0:07:16.160 Well? I smoked dabs because I've smoked like every day 0:07:16.160 --> 0:07:19.720 for like seven years, and so that we stopp affecting 0:07:19.720 --> 0:07:21.840 me after a few years or like, man, it affects me, 0:07:21.880 --> 0:07:23.360 but it doesn't get me like just high as I 0:07:23.360 --> 0:07:25.560 want to be. So I smoked dabs. I have a 0:07:25.600 --> 0:07:27.640 puff co Have you ever heard of a puff co peak? 0:07:28.600 --> 0:07:29.679 A puff coo peak? 0:07:31.400 --> 0:07:33.200 Dude, if you do you have a dab or do 0:07:33.240 --> 0:07:34.120 you only smoke reed? 0:07:35.040 --> 0:07:36.920 I mean I smoke like the pins. I haven't. I 0:07:36.960 --> 0:07:39.320 haven't done the whole dab with the nail and the 0:07:39.320 --> 0:07:40.600 torch thing in a long time. 0:07:41.000 --> 0:07:44.040 Yeah. But the puff Coo is like a portable vaporizer 0:07:44.200 --> 0:07:46.160 and it's got like a battery in there and you 0:07:46.280 --> 0:07:48.080 just go a little bull you put the dabs in 0:07:48.080 --> 0:07:49.920 there and then you it just stays in the cup 0:07:49.960 --> 0:07:54.240 holder of my car and it just gets used like obsessively. 0:07:54.920 --> 0:07:57.960 Well all right, I mean, so how old are you? 0:07:59.200 --> 0:07:59.920 I'm twenty two? 0:08:00.640 --> 0:08:04.440 Okay? Do you what do you do in life? 0:08:06.080 --> 0:08:09.080 Right now? I paint houses and it sucks. I hate 0:08:09.120 --> 0:08:09.560 my job. 0:08:11.000 --> 0:08:12.240 What do you what would you rather be doing? 0:08:12.680 --> 0:08:14.480 That's the thing. I don't really have, like too much 0:08:14.560 --> 0:08:19.000 passions like I honestly, I'm pretty passionate about weed, but 0:08:19.040 --> 0:08:21.720 it's hard to get into the profession. I also really 0:08:21.800 --> 0:08:23.800 like money because I have to travel and I can't 0:08:23.800 --> 0:08:27.400 really travel without money, and I can't make money working 0:08:27.400 --> 0:08:27.840 with weeds. 0:08:28.280 --> 0:08:29.840 Where do you Where would you like to go? 0:08:31.120 --> 0:08:31.400 Uh? 0:08:31.760 --> 0:08:34.560 Next on my list is like Japan and Africa. I 0:08:34.600 --> 0:08:36.160 want to go to those two places. I've been to 0:08:36.240 --> 0:08:40.480 like almost twenty countries. Cool, but you've got to be careful. 0:08:40.520 --> 0:08:43.120 Bringing weed to the countries, okay, gets you in trouble. 0:08:43.679 --> 0:08:45.280 Oh yeah, like bring weed into Japan. 0:08:46.160 --> 0:08:46.680 Mm hmmm. 0:08:46.920 --> 0:08:49.319 I want to say I want to say Paul McCartney 0:08:49.400 --> 0:08:51.240 did that. I want to say, Paul McCartney did that 0:08:51.679 --> 0:08:56.800 and it didn't work out, didn't get in trouble. Paul McCartney. Yeah, 0:08:56.960 --> 0:08:59.360 he got caught, I think so, But he's you know, 0:08:59.600 --> 0:09:02.680 he's Paul McCartney's so nothing bad can ever happen to him. 0:09:02.920 --> 0:09:04.560 Well, that's what they said about Brittany Griner. 0:09:05.679 --> 0:09:08.800 I don't know who that is. Well, oh, that's the 0:09:08.840 --> 0:09:10.840 fucking that way. That's the lady who got arrested in 0:09:10.880 --> 0:09:12.280 Russia for the weed pen right. 0:09:12.360 --> 0:09:12.840 Yeah. 0:09:13.240 --> 0:09:15.080 I think about her all the time. I think about 0:09:15.080 --> 0:09:17.320 her all the time, actually, because I'm always bringing a 0:09:17.320 --> 0:09:19.000 weed pen places. 0:09:19.200 --> 0:09:23.360 But I actually got arrested for international drug smuggling. 0:09:24.200 --> 0:09:25.480 Where did you smuggle drugs? 0:09:26.880 --> 0:09:29.240 So I didn't, I didn't. I got arrested for it, 0:09:29.320 --> 0:09:30.520 but I didn't actually do it. 0:09:32.040 --> 0:09:33.640 Why tell me that story? 0:09:35.000 --> 0:09:37.760 Okay, So I was living in Norway at the time 0:09:39.080 --> 0:09:42.280 and I made a bad decision. I was on like 0:09:42.640 --> 0:09:45.480 some substances, and I couldn't afford to pay for them, 0:09:45.559 --> 0:09:49.480 and so the guy who provided them said, Okay, you 0:09:49.480 --> 0:09:51.000 don't got to pay if I can order like another 0:09:51.000 --> 0:09:53.720 package to your name, you know, on the on the 0:09:53.800 --> 0:09:58.240 dark side of the internet. I didn't tell anybody about 0:09:58.240 --> 0:09:59.800 this for like four years, but I think I'm safe now. 0:10:01.040 --> 0:10:02.440 I thought they tapped my phone for like a year. 0:10:02.480 --> 0:10:06.720 I didn't talked about it, but okay, anyways, Uh where 0:10:06.800 --> 0:10:11.160 was I was that idho's talking out? Oh yeah, But 0:10:11.200 --> 0:10:13.880 then the package came and uh it was like three 0:10:13.920 --> 0:10:16.400 weeks later and he was like and then the package came, 0:10:17.160 --> 0:10:20.839 but it got complicated at the border because uh the 0:10:20.920 --> 0:10:23.560 dogs or something. And then I was just like chilling 0:10:23.600 --> 0:10:25.839 up the school and the police came and got me 0:10:25.920 --> 0:10:27.760 and they said, hey, man, you have a warrant to 0:10:27.760 --> 0:10:29.800 search your phone and your room and like all of 0:10:29.800 --> 0:10:32.400 your belongings that you have in the country. Well fuck 0:10:32.960 --> 0:10:35.160 but and so they took me away in the handcuffs 0:10:35.160 --> 0:10:36.839 and they interrogated me. They were like yelling at me 0:10:36.840 --> 0:10:39.040 in Norwegient for like four hours, like we know you 0:10:39.080 --> 0:10:41.560 did it, like like just tell us or like and 0:10:41.600 --> 0:10:42.960 I was like, I didn't do I didn't do it. Okay, 0:10:43.040 --> 0:10:44.559 well tell us who did it and then we'll like 0:10:44.600 --> 0:10:47.360 take down your sentence. So I don't know, but then 0:10:48.559 --> 0:10:52.440 there's no proof. So I didn't get arrested or so 0:10:52.440 --> 0:10:57.640 I didn't go to jail. But it was like one 0:10:57.679 --> 0:10:59.480 of the scariest, pretty scary. 0:11:00.440 --> 0:11:01.920 What were you doing living in Norway? 0:11:03.240 --> 0:11:04.199 Let's go to school there? 0:11:05.080 --> 0:11:06.360 Okay after high school. 0:11:06.360 --> 0:11:08.760 I moved there for like a few months to because 0:11:08.760 --> 0:11:09.800 I didn't just for fun. 0:11:10.679 --> 0:11:12.880 All right, So you're a you're a traveling man. 0:11:14.480 --> 0:11:16.520 I try to be. I haven't gone in like a year. 0:11:17.640 --> 0:11:20.080 Okay, now you're just now. Now you live in Washington 0:11:20.120 --> 0:11:21.640 and you're painting houses and you hate it. 0:11:22.760 --> 0:11:24.560 Yeah, I mean that's where I've always lived. This is 0:11:24.559 --> 0:11:26.160 like the home base. But I'll move. 0:11:26.440 --> 0:11:29.800 I like, I'll you have Do you have any money? 0:11:31.240 --> 0:11:31.720 Uh? 0:11:31.920 --> 0:11:32.520 Right now? 0:11:33.559 --> 0:11:34.320 Not a lot? 0:11:35.400 --> 0:11:37.400 But after I finished finishing this house, though, I'll get paid. 0:11:37.440 --> 0:11:39.839 I got like, I'll just check coming after I finished 0:11:39.840 --> 0:11:40.160 this house. 0:11:40.200 --> 0:11:42.760 Because you don't need, dude, you don't need like I 0:11:42.800 --> 0:11:44.520 don't know how much research you've done, but you don't 0:11:44.559 --> 0:11:48.440 need like a lot of money to travel you need 0:11:48.520 --> 0:11:50.880 I think the biggest your biggest expense is going to 0:11:50.960 --> 0:11:54.120 be like the plane to get there. But if you 0:11:54.320 --> 0:11:58.720 go to like you know, Asia or somewhere like uh, 0:11:59.080 --> 0:12:01.960 really cheap, you can get around for not that much money. 0:12:01.960 --> 0:12:05.000 And there's also all these like little programs and whatnot 0:12:05.040 --> 0:12:07.680 where you can like go work at a hospital or 0:12:08.320 --> 0:12:12.520 work on a teach people English or all these all 0:12:12.520 --> 0:12:14.920 these things like I don't know, I'm thinking because like 0:12:15.000 --> 0:12:17.040 if I if I were you and I just had 0:12:17.120 --> 0:12:21.240 like no, I mean, I guess I can also do 0:12:21.280 --> 0:12:23.719 whatever I want, But like what, I don't know that 0:12:23.800 --> 0:12:26.880 you could? Why why not? Why would you stay in 0:12:27.080 --> 0:12:32.680 Washington panting houses when you could feasibly cobble something together 0:12:32.800 --> 0:12:37.160 that gets you out on the on the road traveling. 0:12:37.200 --> 0:12:39.240 You know you have you tried to do anything like that? 0:12:40.080 --> 0:12:41.440 I do it. Yeah, tell me the honest truth. 0:12:43.160 --> 0:12:45.640 And this is why people think I smoke too much weed, okay, 0:12:46.679 --> 0:12:49.160 because I wouldn't go because there's like I would have 0:12:49.200 --> 0:12:51.200 to go to a country where's legal, Like I couldn't 0:12:51.240 --> 0:12:53.160 go without weed. In the last seven years, I didn't 0:12:53.200 --> 0:12:55.839 smoke for like forty hours, and for those whole forty hours, 0:12:55.840 --> 0:12:58.800 I couldn't eat or sleep or like I was feeling crazy, 0:12:59.679 --> 0:13:03.080 like I'm pretty dependent on that, on that stuff, you know, I'm. 0:13:03.000 --> 0:13:05.640 Pretty sure in like Thailand, I'm I'm so dumb, And 0:13:06.240 --> 0:13:06.800 that's true. 0:13:06.800 --> 0:13:08.640 I've been. I've been to Thailand and they have a pretty 0:13:08.800 --> 0:13:09.480 decent weed there. 0:13:09.480 --> 0:13:11.599 Actually go to Thailand. 0:13:12.440 --> 0:13:14.360 Yeah, But what am I gonna do there? How am 0:13:14.360 --> 0:13:15.120 I gonna make money? 0:13:15.640 --> 0:13:21.480 I don't know? If teach English? I don't know. What 0:13:21.520 --> 0:13:23.559 the fuck are you gonna do anywhere? What do you what? 0:13:23.640 --> 0:13:26.520 I'm what are what? What are we gonna do with 0:13:26.600 --> 0:13:28.600 our lives at all? Anyway? What are we gonna do? 0:13:28.679 --> 0:13:30.360 I have no What are you supposed to do? God 0:13:30.440 --> 0:13:33.160 damn it, I'm freaking out with you, my friend. What 0:13:33.160 --> 0:13:34.679 what are we supposed to do with our lives? I 0:13:34.720 --> 0:13:35.640 don't know. I have no idea. 0:13:36.400 --> 0:13:39.439 There's nothing to do. I think life is pretty pointless. 0:13:39.480 --> 0:13:41.439 But that's why I like traveling, because it's kind of fun. 0:13:41.320 --> 0:13:44.400 And it is kind of fun. Have you ever spoken 0:13:44.440 --> 0:13:46.559 to a real therapist about all this weed thing, all 0:13:46.559 --> 0:13:47.480 this weed stuff? 0:13:48.679 --> 0:13:48.880 No? 0:13:49.240 --> 0:13:51.240 But I don't think that's the real problem, because like, 0:13:51.320 --> 0:13:53.840 I smoked weed and I actually am pretty I'm like 0:13:53.880 --> 0:13:56.400 the most productive stoner you've ever met. Like high functioning, 0:13:56.440 --> 0:13:58.040 like I get my ship done. You know it's not 0:13:58.040 --> 0:13:59.880 I I don't smoke, but I don't get my ship done. 0:14:01.000 --> 0:14:02.400 Like I'll wake up at four am and take a 0:14:02.440 --> 0:14:04.240 dab and then go to work and like work the 0:14:04.280 --> 0:14:04.679 whole day. 0:14:04.720 --> 0:14:04.880 You know. 0:14:06.080 --> 0:14:09.760 Okay, are you? Are you? But you're unhappy with this, 0:14:10.880 --> 0:14:12.880 with this job and with this life that you're living. 0:14:13.520 --> 0:14:15.480 Is that accurate to all kind of sucks? 0:14:15.520 --> 0:14:17.240 Yeah, for sure. Like I don't enjoy the work, but 0:14:17.280 --> 0:14:18.240 it pays me good money. 0:14:18.840 --> 0:14:21.400 Okay. I mean I'm trying to think what you could change, 0:14:21.800 --> 0:14:22.960 you know, if you want to travel? Do you have 0:14:23.000 --> 0:14:25.280 a girlfriend? Do you have like something that's else that's 0:14:25.320 --> 0:14:27.600 weighing you to live in Washington? 0:14:29.080 --> 0:14:29.480 Uh? 0:14:29.560 --> 0:14:31.240 Yeah, I guess I do have a girlfriend. 0:14:32.040 --> 0:14:34.960 Most most the answer to whether or not you have 0:14:35.000 --> 0:14:37.640 a girlfriend is usually yes or no and not Yeah, 0:14:37.680 --> 0:14:40.200 I guess I do. 0:14:40.600 --> 0:14:42.720 I mean she's pretty fresh, like a month, so it's 0:14:42.760 --> 0:14:45.600 like not too held down yet, you know, all. 0:14:45.560 --> 0:14:48.800 Right, are you happy with your relationship? 0:14:49.880 --> 0:14:53.800 Yeah, she's cool. But that's stuck. Man, that's fucked up too. 0:14:53.840 --> 0:14:55.000 I don't know how much time you have this A 0:14:55.000 --> 0:14:56.000 little that's sucked up too. 0:14:56.080 --> 0:14:59.600 Now what what do you mean it's fucked up? 0:15:01.040 --> 0:15:05.600 Well, like, Okay, she's super cool and like she's actually dope. 0:15:05.640 --> 0:15:09.480 But I didn't know, like my best friend, I didn't 0:15:09.480 --> 0:15:11.120 know before I started dating her. My best friend took 0:15:11.120 --> 0:15:13.560 her virginity, and that like fucks with my brain. Dude, 0:15:15.640 --> 0:15:17.360 I don't know if I can like stay with like. 0:15:17.400 --> 0:15:19.680 I don't know if I could, like like theoretically like 0:15:19.720 --> 0:15:21.160 you date to Mary, right, I don't know if I can. 0:15:21.480 --> 0:15:24.280 Like the sentence, my best friend took my wife's virginity, 0:15:24.520 --> 0:15:26.240 like that does not sit. That is not a very 0:15:26.240 --> 0:15:26.800 good sentence. 0:15:29.920 --> 0:15:31.640 How did you meet this person. 0:15:33.520 --> 0:15:35.720 Just like through mutual friends? 0:15:37.280 --> 0:15:40.720 Okay, do you like her? 0:15:41.480 --> 0:15:43.880 I do? She's actually super cool. It's that's why. That's 0:15:43.880 --> 0:15:45.880 why it's sucked with me. That's if I didn't actually 0:15:45.920 --> 0:15:47.520 like her, I would have just like dropped it already. 0:15:48.000 --> 0:15:54.280 I just look, I get that, like whatever, I get that. 0:15:54.400 --> 0:15:56.840 Dudes have hang ups about things like that. But on 0:15:57.160 --> 0:16:00.240 a look, on a personal level, it to me, like, 0:16:01.000 --> 0:16:04.680 if you like this girl a look on a person level, 0:16:04.680 --> 0:16:07.360 to me, if you like this girl, then who gives 0:16:07.400 --> 0:16:12.440 a fuck who she's had sex with? Before? Well? 0:16:12.560 --> 0:16:15.240 Yeah, but that's like I don't know because that's like 0:16:15.280 --> 0:16:18.800 my best friend too, and like I'm just I'll be uncomfortable. 0:16:18.840 --> 0:16:21.000 It's like because I want my girlfriend and my friend 0:16:21.000 --> 0:16:22.520 to be able to hang out and like I want 0:16:22.560 --> 0:16:25.560 to like and I trust them. Yeah, but like I 0:16:25.720 --> 0:16:27.560 definitely feel some type of way if they're hanging out 0:16:27.560 --> 0:16:29.680 on their own, you know, not on their own, but 0:16:29.760 --> 0:16:32.160 like I don't know, even if like they're just talking, 0:16:32.240 --> 0:16:40.240 like it makes me feel weird, but I need my 0:16:40.240 --> 0:16:41.880 girlfriend and my friend to be friends, you. 0:16:41.840 --> 0:16:49.760 Know, Okay, I feel like, look, this is I mean, 0:16:49.800 --> 0:16:52.480 this is a whole separate conversation and maybe that's why 0:16:52.520 --> 0:16:56.880 you didn't want to bring it up. But to me, 0:16:57.240 --> 0:17:01.040 it's like you you have to build up some sense 0:17:01.080 --> 0:17:05.600 of security of like I trust my girlfriend and I 0:17:05.640 --> 0:17:09.480 trust my friend to uh you know, I I love 0:17:09.520 --> 0:17:13.200 my girlfriend. I trust her not to cheat on me, right, 0:17:13.359 --> 0:17:16.000 And if you're just constantly insecure about whether I'm just 0:17:16.000 --> 0:17:20.119 gonna cheat on you, that's that's that's a problem. 0:17:20.280 --> 0:17:22.000 No, that's the thing I do. Like I don't think 0:17:22.040 --> 0:17:24.040 she would, but it don't makes me feel weird, like 0:17:24.080 --> 0:17:29.240 I do trust her though, mm hmmm. I think it's 0:17:29.280 --> 0:17:32.200 just like the male like a that like what it's 0:17:32.200 --> 0:17:34.160 it called like psychology just doesn't like it. 0:17:35.280 --> 0:17:46.160 Okay, yeah, this is this is dude. 0:17:46.160 --> 0:17:47.120 This one stumped me too. 0:17:51.880 --> 0:17:53.760 I don't know, you know, talking to you. You know, 0:17:53.760 --> 0:17:56.000 I've I've been I've been enjoying talking to you because 0:17:56.040 --> 0:17:58.840 you as I talk to you and I think about 0:17:58.840 --> 0:18:01.800 your life and your problems, I kind of get out 0:18:01.800 --> 0:18:05.639 of my own, you know. And I'm like I was saying, 0:18:05.640 --> 0:18:08.520 but I'm like, I don't know. I don't know, dude, 0:18:08.520 --> 0:18:14.879 I don't know what to tell you. I really don't 0:18:15.480 --> 0:18:16.080 mm hmm. 0:18:17.600 --> 0:18:19.679 Like is it a deal breaker? 0:18:20.680 --> 0:18:23.919 What the you're what? Your girlfriend had sex with your 0:18:23.960 --> 0:18:25.560 friend before you guys were dating. 0:18:26.200 --> 0:18:28.480 Yeah, but it's like you took her virginity, which makes it. 0:18:28.440 --> 0:18:29.760 Like why here's the why? 0:18:29.880 --> 0:18:30.240 I just. 0:18:31.920 --> 0:18:36.840 Whatever. Everyone's I get that guys have hang ups about things, 0:18:36.920 --> 0:18:40.520 but I and but to me, it's like, dude, if 0:18:41.960 --> 0:18:48.040 this shouldn't be more complicated than you two like each 0:18:48.080 --> 0:18:52.959 other and make each other happy, so you're together, you know, why, 0:18:53.280 --> 0:18:57.600 why are you over complicating this with the fact that 0:18:58.000 --> 0:19:01.720 she lost her virginity to your friend? How long ago 0:19:01.840 --> 0:19:04.200 even was that, I don't know. 0:19:04.119 --> 0:19:07.280 Like four or five years, like it was a while ago. 0:19:07.520 --> 0:19:11.239 Okay, so then what's the I don't get while you're 0:19:11.280 --> 0:19:11.960 hung up on it. 0:19:13.119 --> 0:19:16.320 I'm an overstiger man. My brain's always moving like a 0:19:16.320 --> 0:19:17.160 million miles an hour. 0:19:17.640 --> 0:19:21.680 Is it the weed? What is it the weed? 0:19:23.520 --> 0:19:30.200 No, the weed calms it down. It's the eighth I 0:19:30.240 --> 0:19:32.080 think my brain go crazy. 0:19:33.760 --> 0:19:35.800 But you should see a real therapist at some point. 0:19:35.880 --> 0:19:38.280 I have you ever thought about doing that? 0:19:40.920 --> 0:19:44.639 No, people have, like my mom's always told me too, 0:19:44.880 --> 0:19:47.240 like my like people have told me to before family. 0:19:48.040 --> 0:19:51.119 I don't know about that one. I don't really like 0:19:51.240 --> 0:19:53.119 the thought of paying somebody to talk to me. I 0:19:53.200 --> 0:19:54.720 also feel like I can probably figure it out on 0:19:54.720 --> 0:19:55.400 my own eventually. 0:19:56.720 --> 0:19:57.760 Well, what are you going to do? Man? 0:19:58.080 --> 0:20:00.199 Might take a little longer. What am I gonna do? 0:20:00.320 --> 0:20:00.800 With the Yeah? 0:20:00.840 --> 0:20:02.200 What are you gonna do? 0:20:02.200 --> 0:20:02.320 Just? 0:20:02.359 --> 0:20:02.720 What do you I do? 0:20:02.960 --> 0:20:03.000 Just? 0:20:03.000 --> 0:20:05.480 What are you gonna do? We've we've talked about a 0:20:05.480 --> 0:20:07.880 lot of stuff. We've talked about your relationship, We've talked 0:20:07.920 --> 0:20:10.920 about your desire to travel, We've talked about weed, We've 0:20:10.920 --> 0:20:13.320 talked about your job. What are you gonna do? 0:20:14.560 --> 0:20:16.600 I mean, I'm probably gonna go smoke weed? 0:20:18.000 --> 0:20:19.920 Why? For some reason I thought that you would say that. 0:20:20.840 --> 0:20:22.199 Yeah, I mean, I don't know what else to do. 0:20:25.040 --> 0:20:27.000 Is there anything else you wanted to And I'm not 0:20:27.000 --> 0:20:29.919 even saying this like to end this conversation, but is 0:20:29.960 --> 0:20:31.920 there any other aspect or anything at all that you 0:20:31.920 --> 0:20:32.800 wanted to talk about? 0:20:34.280 --> 0:20:36.080 Damn? I mean probably, but I'm not gonna think of 0:20:36.080 --> 0:20:39.159 it right now. My brain's like, I'm gonna get off 0:20:39.160 --> 0:20:41.000 the phone. I'm gonna be like, damn, what should happen this? 0:20:41.800 --> 0:20:43.680 But no, it's okay, I guess my life. 0:20:44.480 --> 0:20:49.680 Okay, try not to try it to hold yourself back 0:20:49.800 --> 0:20:55.919 with like random bullshit. If something's between you and being 0:20:56.640 --> 0:20:59.760 happy and calm, at least make sure it's like a 0:21:00.480 --> 0:21:06.560 worth worth being a barrier between you and that and 0:21:06.640 --> 0:21:10.280 not just like a bullshit thing. Is that is that? 0:21:10.640 --> 0:21:13.480 Is that makes sense? Is that a fair thing? 0:21:13.600 --> 0:21:13.800 Yeah? 0:21:14.800 --> 0:21:17.160 No, I mean yeah, that's fair. I overthink a lot 0:21:17.200 --> 0:21:19.760 and like make up things that get in the way 0:21:19.760 --> 0:21:20.960 that probably shouldn't even be there. 0:21:21.240 --> 0:21:23.280 The b too, man, And I'm sure a lot of 0:21:23.280 --> 0:21:24.680 people listening to this do as well. 0:21:26.840 --> 0:21:27.159 Well. 0:21:27.320 --> 0:21:30.600 On that note, I hope you get You're gonna ask 0:21:30.640 --> 0:21:31.840 me if I have anything else to say. 0:21:31.680 --> 0:21:33.520 To the people the computer, Yeah, is there anything else 0:21:33.520 --> 0:21:34.840 you want to say to the people of the computer. 0:21:35.960 --> 0:21:41.480 I hope that everybody doesn't overthink too much and gets 0:21:41.520 --> 0:21:42.639 a little extra high today. 0:21:43.920 --> 0:21:46.399 Have a good rest of your entire life, my friends. 0:21:47.359 --> 0:21:49.040 Thank you, Go have a good night. 0:21:53.040 --> 0:21:53.679 Hi. How are you? 0:21:54.440 --> 0:21:55.280 Hi? I'm good. 0:21:55.359 --> 0:21:55.880 How are you? 0:21:56.840 --> 0:21:58.159 I'm doing okay? What's going on? 0:21:58.760 --> 0:21:59.119 Well? 0:21:59.520 --> 0:22:00.399 At this moment? 0:22:00.560 --> 0:22:05.040 I am feeding my son of little apples that I 0:22:05.119 --> 0:22:08.560 baked them in the oven with butter and cinnamon and yeah, 0:22:08.600 --> 0:22:11.120 and they're all soft and me like, some how are you? 0:22:11.960 --> 0:22:15.840 That sounds very delicious? I'm okay. I'm actually I'm feeling 0:22:16.359 --> 0:22:19.240 better today than I have been. So that's good. 0:22:19.840 --> 0:22:21.320 That's good. What's different about today? 0:22:21.800 --> 0:22:28.200 It is I you know, I am well. I left 0:22:28.280 --> 0:22:32.359 my fucking room to go be in places that are 0:22:32.400 --> 0:22:38.080 not my room. I did some pushups. I meditated for 0:22:38.160 --> 0:22:41.680 like a second, feeling good, working on myself. 0:22:42.400 --> 0:22:42.840 That's good. 0:22:43.040 --> 0:22:46.439 Meditating is great once you really start to get into it, 0:22:46.520 --> 0:22:53.320 for I think just relaxing and your mental kind of focus. 0:22:54.560 --> 0:22:58.360 So, yeah, what is your name? My name is Sophia, 0:22:59.280 --> 0:23:03.000 So Sophia U. What's up with you? Man? Is there 0:23:03.000 --> 0:23:05.200 anything in particular you called in to want to talk? 0:23:05.200 --> 0:23:07.360 About Yeah, so. 0:23:10.080 --> 0:23:12.679 I hope no one I know watches a stream, but 0:23:14.160 --> 0:23:18.040 my fiance and I we a while ago. 0:23:18.880 --> 0:23:19.480 Uh we. 0:23:21.119 --> 0:23:28.120 Gosh, this is weird to talk about. We made the 0:23:28.119 --> 0:23:32.840 decision to obviously have a baby. But the thing about 0:23:32.840 --> 0:23:41.200 that is we told my parents that that he was 0:23:41.240 --> 0:23:45.600 an accident and I had at the time, I had 0:23:45.640 --> 0:23:48.119 an iu D and everything. I don't know if you 0:23:48.160 --> 0:23:51.720 know when that form of birth control what that really is? 0:23:51.760 --> 0:23:53.040 Do you know what an idea? Yeah? 0:23:53.080 --> 0:23:55.520 Sick and uh, the. 0:23:55.560 --> 0:23:58.600 Copper IUD is like ninety nine percent effective. And we 0:23:58.680 --> 0:24:00.760 had said that I was at once for sense that 0:24:01.080 --> 0:24:05.679 actually did get pregnant off of the non hormonal ID 0:24:06.040 --> 0:24:09.680 and my son is not six months and they think 0:24:09.760 --> 0:24:12.440 that he is a miracle from God. 0:24:14.480 --> 0:24:14.920 Uh. 0:24:15.000 --> 0:24:18.800 Yeah, we don't know when or if we are ever 0:24:18.840 --> 0:24:20.879 going to tell my parents or how we would go 0:24:20.960 --> 0:24:24.400 about that. But yeah, so we've been just kind of 0:24:24.520 --> 0:24:28.240 living off of this lie for a while. And like 0:24:28.240 --> 0:24:31.440 the thing about that is, we told my parents in 0:24:31.480 --> 0:24:37.080 like November that I was pregnant, and I didn't actually 0:24:37.160 --> 0:24:41.680 get pregnant until January. And I don't know like if 0:24:41.720 --> 0:24:43.719 they know they ever like did the math in their 0:24:43.760 --> 0:24:47.320 head and like just didn't care, or if they just 0:24:47.840 --> 0:24:51.439 never thought twice about it. And I had him in August. 0:24:51.800 --> 0:24:54.960 So so you convinced your parents that you're like the 0:24:55.040 --> 0:24:58.800 virgin Mary and that you're a child that like your 0:24:58.880 --> 0:25:00.880 child is a gift from God or something. 0:25:01.480 --> 0:25:05.240 Yeah, we just say that, but that's how they took it. 0:25:06.680 --> 0:25:07.720 Here's what I don't understand. 0:25:07.720 --> 0:25:10.679 So the funny thing is we do actually know people 0:25:10.760 --> 0:25:14.440 that have gotten pregnant off of the IUD, so it's 0:25:14.440 --> 0:25:19.240 not something that's like completely crazy, but because it has happened, 0:25:20.920 --> 0:25:24.240 so we just kind of took that and used it 0:25:24.240 --> 0:25:24.720 as your own. 0:25:25.720 --> 0:25:28.680 Really is the IUD only Is it like hand sanitizer 0:25:28.680 --> 0:25:31.120 where it's only ninety nine point nine percent effective? 0:25:31.880 --> 0:25:34.919 Yeah, especially if it's non hormonal. If it moves it, 0:25:35.240 --> 0:25:39.040 you're very likely to get pregnant, so yeah, versus a 0:25:39.080 --> 0:25:41.720 hormonal one, which is even more effective. But I just 0:25:41.800 --> 0:25:45.119 had long storce or I've had a bad reaction to 0:25:45.320 --> 0:25:49.080 hormonal brick controls, and so I stopt with the non 0:25:49.080 --> 0:25:50.240 hormonal IUD. 0:25:52.440 --> 0:25:55.920 So okay, So I don't understand. Why did you tell 0:25:55.960 --> 0:25:58.400 them that it was an accident. What was the point 0:25:58.440 --> 0:25:58.560 of that? 0:26:00.000 --> 0:26:03.800 Because so I am a twenty one years old. I'm 0:26:03.800 --> 0:26:07.680 pretty young, and so was my fiance. And I found 0:26:07.720 --> 0:26:11.800 my fiance is even younger than I am, and he 0:26:12.160 --> 0:26:14.520 so I got pregnant when I was twenty he got 0:26:14.640 --> 0:26:20.040 and he you know, became a going soon to be 0:26:20.080 --> 0:26:26.359 father at nineteen. And my parents, so. 0:26:25.280 --> 0:26:29.120 They are very like. 0:26:30.920 --> 0:26:32.880 They wanted me to live my life the way they 0:26:32.960 --> 0:26:34.880 wanted me to live my life, you know what I mean. 0:26:35.520 --> 0:26:38.960 And when I was in college, I'm currently going to 0:26:39.000 --> 0:26:42.160 a SEC, but I was going to a university originally 0:26:42.200 --> 0:26:45.240 because they just really really wanted me to go to university. 0:26:45.240 --> 0:26:47.600 I don't think they even really knew what that meant. 0:26:47.760 --> 0:26:49.960 They just were like college, college, college, college, you need 0:26:49.960 --> 0:26:52.520 to go to college here when they're not not going 0:26:52.520 --> 0:26:56.800 to go to college. And they paid for it, which 0:26:56.840 --> 0:27:00.480 is of course very kind of them and generous to 0:27:00.720 --> 0:27:04.040 be wanting a good future for me. But I didn't 0:27:04.080 --> 0:27:06.800 even know what I wanted to do at a university. 0:27:07.040 --> 0:27:11.679 And I've been with my now fiance for going on 0:27:11.760 --> 0:27:18.280 three years, and we wanted to move in like my 0:27:18.359 --> 0:27:22.560 freshman year in college and or like at least the 0:27:22.600 --> 0:27:24.439 next year. We were talking about it when I was 0:27:24.440 --> 0:27:26.919 a freshman and I had told my mom and she 0:27:27.240 --> 0:27:30.879 just slipped the fuck out and she was like, absolutely not, 0:27:30.960 --> 0:27:33.440 You're not doing this. And I think I was twenty 0:27:33.600 --> 0:27:39.200 nineteen twenty at the time, and yeah, so that's kind 0:27:39.240 --> 0:27:42.760 of like a small thing that had that had happened. 0:27:42.920 --> 0:27:49.000 And because I also knew that they would never they 0:27:49.040 --> 0:27:52.480 would never approve of me wanting a child so young, 0:27:53.600 --> 0:27:56.080 and so this is the only other way to go 0:27:56.119 --> 0:27:58.680 about it. And it's kind of we're kind of glad 0:27:58.680 --> 0:28:03.080 that we told them early on, even lying about it, 0:28:03.240 --> 0:28:07.679 because they ended up having we had several fights with 0:28:07.680 --> 0:28:09.600 them about the way I wanted to raise my child 0:28:09.920 --> 0:28:13.000 and because they thought that the way I wanted to 0:28:13.080 --> 0:28:14.080 raise them was incorrect. 0:28:14.760 --> 0:28:17.199 So so so what I'm I guess what I'm kind 0:28:17.240 --> 0:28:19.879 of curious about is, uh so you told them that 0:28:19.920 --> 0:28:24.880 your child was an accident because you felt like that 0:28:25.080 --> 0:28:31.120 would uh like take the blame off of you for 0:28:31.320 --> 0:28:34.760 deciding to have a kid, Yeah, a little bit, and 0:28:35.240 --> 0:28:38.000 that and that the idea so so so in your mind, 0:28:38.320 --> 0:28:42.000 So in your mind, the idea for your parents that 0:28:42.080 --> 0:28:45.600 you kind of just messed up and got pregnant and 0:28:45.680 --> 0:28:48.880 are following through with it is is an easier pill 0:28:48.960 --> 0:28:54.640 for them to swallow than me and my fiance decided 0:28:54.680 --> 0:28:55.920 to have a kid so young. 0:28:56.760 --> 0:29:00.000 Yeah and yeah, yeah, and we didn't even tell them 0:29:00.040 --> 0:29:02.480 that we were, you know, even engaged at that time. 0:29:02.640 --> 0:29:06.840 My mom and dad were like, uh, they were like, oh, like, 0:29:06.880 --> 0:29:08.320 do you guys mean to get married because we were 0:29:08.320 --> 0:29:10.800 talking about getting eloped and so they even tried to 0:29:10.800 --> 0:29:14.160 throw a whole wedding for us, and we were going 0:29:14.160 --> 0:29:16.920 to we were planning on getting married in Hawaii and 0:29:17.080 --> 0:29:19.200 all this stuff when I was about five months pregnant. 0:29:19.760 --> 0:29:22.080 But the thing about this anyways, that's kind of at. 0:29:21.960 --> 0:29:27.239 The point, Okay, well let me ask you this. I mean, 0:29:27.280 --> 0:29:29.120 how are you How are you doing with the kid? 0:29:29.160 --> 0:29:29.440 Are you? 0:29:29.640 --> 0:29:30.440 How old is the kid? 0:29:31.240 --> 0:29:34.040 He's about he's going to be seven months. He's doing 0:29:34.080 --> 0:29:37.720 phenomenal as well. We my fiance supports is really well, 0:29:37.800 --> 0:29:39.160 we're all very happy and healthy. 0:29:40.640 --> 0:29:42.400 So you're you're happy with your decision? 0:29:43.600 --> 0:29:44.400 Yeah, we are. 0:29:45.040 --> 0:29:45.320 Okay. 0:29:45.360 --> 0:29:48.280 We kind of kind of like a think to ourselves 0:29:48.280 --> 0:29:49.960 and every now and they'm like, damn, we maybe we 0:29:50.000 --> 0:29:51.920 should have waited. But we always see the other side, 0:29:52.000 --> 0:29:55.080 like we would rather be young parents that way when 0:29:55.680 --> 0:29:57.880 our child is even like five. 0:29:57.720 --> 0:29:58.440 Six years old. 0:29:58.600 --> 0:30:00.800 My mom and dad were old, or when they had me, 0:30:01.360 --> 0:30:06.080 they were my mom was over thirty, my dad was 0:30:06.920 --> 0:30:11.440 forty uh so, And I just remember when I was young, 0:30:11.480 --> 0:30:13.280 like my mom my dad had a bad back, and 0:30:13.400 --> 0:30:15.920 you know what I mean, And you're going to go 0:30:15.920 --> 0:30:17.960 on the roller coasters with me, You're like, my mom 0:30:18.520 --> 0:30:21.200 was just you know, not wanting to do some of 0:30:21.200 --> 0:30:22.400 the things that I wanted to do when I was 0:30:22.440 --> 0:30:25.480 a kid, like running around with doing this or this 0:30:25.600 --> 0:30:28.960 is and that kind of thing. So, okay, that decision 0:30:29.040 --> 0:30:33.520 of doing raising a child early and then when we're 0:30:33.520 --> 0:30:37.200 like forty, he's going to be twenty and we'll be 0:30:37.240 --> 0:30:39.400 able to do our own thing as well, have the 0:30:39.440 --> 0:30:41.120 rest of our lives to do things that we want 0:30:41.160 --> 0:30:45.440 to do. And we felt secure up to have a child. 0:30:46.360 --> 0:30:52.080 Okay, okay, well that's good that you're happy with your decision. 0:30:53.080 --> 0:30:56.920 So I mean, look like, I mean, are you are 0:30:56.960 --> 0:31:00.640 you having like stress over the fact that your mom 0:31:00.720 --> 0:31:03.920 doesn't know that you you made the decision to have 0:31:03.920 --> 0:31:05.160 the baby. 0:31:06.200 --> 0:31:09.120 I guess I kind of have some guilts sometimes about 0:31:09.320 --> 0:31:14.360 lying to her, But I don't know how she would 0:31:14.360 --> 0:31:17.640 have taken it if I had purposely, if I had 0:31:17.640 --> 0:31:19.920 told her I purposely had a had a child, rather 0:31:19.960 --> 0:31:22.320 than oh yeah, I remember the thing I was gonna say. 0:31:22.480 --> 0:31:25.080 She almost sees it as like a noble thing because like, 0:31:26.200 --> 0:31:30.480 because he seems like an accident. I it's looks it 0:31:30.520 --> 0:31:34.560 looks noble because like, Okay, I'm taking this and I'm 0:31:35.640 --> 0:31:38.160 I'm having a child now and I'm taking the responsibility, 0:31:38.360 --> 0:31:38.920 rather than. 0:31:40.520 --> 0:31:40.960 I don't know. 0:31:41.240 --> 0:31:43.720 I don't know, but she's after I told her that 0:31:43.840 --> 0:31:47.480 I am deciding on keeping the child my son, now 0:31:48.600 --> 0:31:51.800 that she would her and my father would always be like, oh, like, 0:31:51.840 --> 0:31:54.200 we're so proud of you for taking this on and 0:31:54.240 --> 0:31:57.320 making this decision, and uh yeah, yeah. 0:31:58.440 --> 0:32:05.040 Mm hmmmm. Well the reason why I asked if it 0:32:05.040 --> 0:32:06.520 makes you feel a stressed, it's like, I mean, do 0:32:06.520 --> 0:32:08.920 you think it would make you feel better to just 0:32:08.960 --> 0:32:09.800 tell them the truth? 0:32:13.240 --> 0:32:18.280 I don't know. I think, sorry, my banging his feet 0:32:18.280 --> 0:32:24.680 against his little share, but it's sorry. 0:32:24.720 --> 0:32:27.760 I could you repeat the question, Do you would it 0:32:27.880 --> 0:32:29.520 make you feel better to tell them the truth? 0:32:31.120 --> 0:32:35.160 I don't know. I think, uh, it would take stress 0:32:35.200 --> 0:32:39.440 off my mental in the long run, but right now, 0:32:40.760 --> 0:32:44.120 it's nice having a decent relationship with my parents. I 0:32:44.120 --> 0:32:46.720 feel like that would really put a it would fracture 0:32:46.720 --> 0:32:52.120 our relationship really, because I've when I was younger, I 0:32:52.200 --> 0:32:54.760 was like so complacent with my parents and it would 0:32:54.800 --> 0:32:58.080 just do really whatever they told me. And when I 0:32:58.080 --> 0:33:00.880 got a little bit older to you know, having a 0:33:00.920 --> 0:33:04.320 mind of my own, and I think this would really 0:33:04.920 --> 0:33:06.240 kind of set them over the edge. 0:33:06.480 --> 0:33:12.400 And sorry, what is he so pissed off about. I 0:33:12.440 --> 0:33:15.400 don't understand why babies are. They got a great life. 0:33:15.440 --> 0:33:17.880 I don't know what they're upset about. Yeah, you made 0:33:17.920 --> 0:33:20.800 him apples. 0:33:21.200 --> 0:33:24.240 He's actually so happy about the apples that he's saying 0:33:24.240 --> 0:33:25.120 the feet against the chair. 0:33:27.320 --> 0:33:34.720 But I'm sorry, okay, so okay, So so you the 0:33:35.320 --> 0:33:37.000 question of whether or not to tell them the truth. 0:33:37.920 --> 0:33:40.440 Yeah, yeah, I don't know. 0:33:40.880 --> 0:33:41.320 I don't know. 0:33:41.680 --> 0:33:44.959 Uh now, I don't think so, because they are just 0:33:44.960 --> 0:33:49.320 so happy that he's here that yeah, they take every 0:33:49.360 --> 0:33:53.400 opportunity to see him and there's no really stress on 0:33:53.880 --> 0:33:55.400 any of us. But I don't know if that's like 0:33:55.600 --> 0:34:00.760 just if it's a moral thing to really live out 0:34:00.800 --> 0:34:05.640 the rest of their lives with this lie that their 0:34:05.640 --> 0:34:09.000 grandson with a miracle, that he made it. 0:34:08.880 --> 0:34:09.239 Through the I. 0:34:11.200 --> 0:34:13.920 Mean, I guess in my look, I guess in my head, 0:34:15.040 --> 0:34:22.560 like to declare yourself mature enough at twenty one to 0:34:22.640 --> 0:34:25.359 have a kid, it's like a big thing to do. 0:34:25.800 --> 0:34:29.560 It's a confident thing to do. I'm glad. I look, 0:34:31.040 --> 0:34:34.440 I'm glad it worked out for you. From how it sounds, 0:34:34.640 --> 0:34:38.360 I'm happy about that. And so if you have the 0:34:38.480 --> 0:34:45.120 confidence at that age to decide you want to have 0:34:45.160 --> 0:34:51.120 a kid, you know, I look, I'm not I don't 0:34:51.120 --> 0:34:53.680 want to tell you what to do, but I would 0:34:53.760 --> 0:35:00.160 think you would have a similar confidence to just to 0:35:00.160 --> 0:35:02.120 live your life how you want to live it with, 0:35:02.280 --> 0:35:07.520 you know, truthfully and not be so you know, scared 0:35:07.520 --> 0:35:09.320 of what your parents might think. 0:35:10.360 --> 0:35:14.040 Yeah, yeah, yeah, that's true. 0:35:14.840 --> 0:35:21.600 But again, you know, it doesn't sound like you're being 0:35:21.680 --> 0:35:24.480 eaten alive every night by the fact that your parents 0:35:24.520 --> 0:35:29.120 think your kid was an accident. But so then you know, again, 0:35:29.200 --> 0:35:30.759 the decisions up to you doesn't sound like a very 0:35:30.760 --> 0:35:32.640 dire thing, right. 0:35:33.200 --> 0:35:34.480 I guess it's just a story I kind of want 0:35:34.520 --> 0:35:35.239 to talk about too. 0:35:36.600 --> 0:35:38.520 It's very well, it's very interesting because it's just a 0:35:38.600 --> 0:35:42.799 subtle like I even through talking about it, I still 0:35:42.800 --> 0:35:44.919 don't fully understand. 0:35:45.440 --> 0:35:51.120 Well, you have questions all answer or I can still 0:35:51.160 --> 0:35:53.759 in any blanks I that I missed that you feel 0:35:53.760 --> 0:35:54.280 like I missed? 0:35:56.440 --> 0:36:01.239 What is your name again, Sophia, Sophia, Well, Sophilis. I'm 0:36:01.239 --> 0:36:03.240 glad that. I'm glad that your decision sounds like it 0:36:03.239 --> 0:36:07.480 it worked out for you, and I hope you continue 0:36:07.560 --> 0:36:09.920 to live live happy life. 0:36:10.080 --> 0:36:11.600 Thanks gex Is there. 0:36:11.480 --> 0:36:12.799 Anything else you want to say to the people of 0:36:12.800 --> 0:36:13.960 the computer before we go? 0:36:16.320 --> 0:36:18.279 I guess if I don't know if you're gonna end 0:36:18.320 --> 0:36:20.200 up playing this on the podcast or not, but if 0:36:20.200 --> 0:36:26.000 you do, Hello, Jason, that's nice to be honest and 0:36:27.640 --> 0:36:32.040 well for every Hey, Thanks Ben, take care of YouTube. 0:36:32.120 --> 0:36:32.480 Bye. 0:36:33.840 --> 0:36:36.600 Hey guys, it's Lyle here. I'm about to do some 0:36:36.719 --> 0:36:40.279 ad reads, but if you're a premium member of the podcast, 0:36:40.360 --> 0:36:44.200 you will not hear them. 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I 0:37:28.840 --> 0:37:32.360 am living a whole different life now and I have 0:37:32.480 --> 0:37:33.920 kind of repressed this whole thing. 0:37:34.719 --> 0:37:35.920 But are you ready? 0:37:36.520 --> 0:37:36.840 Yeah? 0:37:37.560 --> 0:37:40.319 Okay. So me and my girlfriend I was nineteen and 0:37:40.400 --> 0:37:45.319 she was eighteen, we became escorts. Well I was an 0:37:45.480 --> 0:37:47.200 escort and she was one two. 0:37:48.280 --> 0:37:48.919 And what we. 0:37:48.880 --> 0:37:52.680 Did was we just used we use like these websites 0:37:52.719 --> 0:37:57.640 that I shouldn't name because of dangerous condemnation. I suppose 0:37:57.719 --> 0:38:00.279 I don't want to condone my actions because I had 0:38:00.320 --> 0:38:02.879 a friend try to do what I did and they 0:38:02.920 --> 0:38:07.520 got robbed at gunpoint. But basically what I used to 0:38:07.600 --> 0:38:10.279 do when I was eighteen and nineteen was I used 0:38:10.280 --> 0:38:13.560 to just use these websites where you go on sugar 0:38:13.640 --> 0:38:16.160 day dates and stuff things of that nature. And I 0:38:16.200 --> 0:38:20.239 would like go out with guys because like it's it's 0:38:20.239 --> 0:38:22.319 mostly mentain for this kind of shit, it's not really women. 0:38:23.840 --> 0:38:27.560 And so I was doing that and when I had 0:38:27.600 --> 0:38:31.480 met my girlfriend, she was doing it as well, and 0:38:31.760 --> 0:38:34.440 that was kind of what our initial conversations were about 0:38:34.440 --> 0:38:36.799 actually was just like, oh wow, we used the same 0:38:36.840 --> 0:38:39.680 websites who do the same things, you know, all these things, 0:38:39.719 --> 0:38:42.320 and so we like we bonded through that in a way, 0:38:42.360 --> 0:38:44.680 because you know, I when I met her, it was 0:38:44.719 --> 0:38:47.520 mostly just about you know, forming a friendship and forming 0:38:47.520 --> 0:38:50.120 someone like forming a relationship eventually as well in the future. 0:38:50.560 --> 0:38:52.359 But then it was like, oh shit, like we did 0:38:52.400 --> 0:38:54.799 the same thing. This is crazy, and so we bought 0:38:54.800 --> 0:38:59.319 the bond through that, and we just went out into 0:38:59.360 --> 0:39:05.839 the world going on going on dates and I don't 0:39:05.880 --> 0:39:08.759 even know where to start, but we basically, I mean, 0:39:08.760 --> 0:39:11.279 we've seen it all, both of us, and it was 0:39:11.760 --> 0:39:16.400 quite weird. And because it's a really weird world. And 0:39:17.239 --> 0:39:18.080 did you have any questions? 0:39:18.160 --> 0:39:18.920 I could answer for you. 0:39:22.120 --> 0:39:24.520 M So, how old are you now? 0:39:25.400 --> 0:39:29.880 I'm twenty six. I just turned twenty six in hockey. 0:39:29.960 --> 0:39:31.080 How long were you doing this for? 0:39:31.360 --> 0:39:37.200 I was doing this from eighteen to about twenty, partially 0:39:37.440 --> 0:39:40.520 when I was twenty one, but I stopped. I took 0:39:40.520 --> 0:39:44.160 a break. The reason why I stopped doing it in general, 0:39:44.360 --> 0:39:46.960 and this is the crazy part too, is like when 0:39:47.000 --> 0:39:49.319 I was young, I didn't really have much prospect of 0:39:49.360 --> 0:39:51.279 like an idea of what I could do, and it 0:39:51.400 --> 0:39:53.520 was like, well, I'm cute, so like let me go 0:39:53.600 --> 0:39:55.120 out there and like go on dates with men and 0:39:55.120 --> 0:39:57.200 stuff and things of that nature. Because I'm also like 0:39:57.320 --> 0:40:00.319 and I was tan sexual and so like it was yeah, 0:40:00.360 --> 0:40:02.279 fuck it, let's go do this ship And it was 0:40:02.320 --> 0:40:08.160 never anything you can use like explicit language on here still. 0:40:07.960 --> 0:40:11.440 Right, yeah, yeah, okay. 0:40:11.360 --> 0:40:14.960 So it was never anything sexual, like I like, there 0:40:14.960 --> 0:40:16.920 were times like I would see guys and like it 0:40:16.960 --> 0:40:19.359 would lead to a sexual encounter, but for the most part, 0:40:19.400 --> 0:40:22.440 it was just like dinner with guys in La La, 0:40:22.640 --> 0:40:29.040 and like I was in mostly La Towns, La Region areas, 0:40:30.400 --> 0:40:31.919 and then sometimes I would go to like the Bay 0:40:31.960 --> 0:40:33.680 Area and such. And there was a time when me 0:40:33.680 --> 0:40:35.200 and my girlfriend were living in New York and she 0:40:35.280 --> 0:40:38.960 was seeing guys and like Lower Manhattan and I would 0:40:39.600 --> 0:40:42.120 I would literally because at that point it was like 0:40:42.680 --> 0:40:44.960 she was making way more than I was doing it, 0:40:45.000 --> 0:40:46.600 and I was like, well, why don't you do it? 0:40:47.160 --> 0:40:49.560 And then I can watch you? And so I would 0:40:49.560 --> 0:40:53.399 literally dress as homeless as possible and just like sit 0:40:53.440 --> 0:40:56.839 outside restaurants and just like watch her. And it was 0:40:56.920 --> 0:40:59.720 it was really interesting because I'm not really a jealous 0:40:59.719 --> 0:41:04.279 pipe and I'm not really like a person who like 0:41:04.440 --> 0:41:07.400 and I trust her in general too, And it was 0:41:07.440 --> 0:41:09.840 just so interesting because when you go on these dates, 0:41:09.920 --> 0:41:13.000 you're conforming to an audience. You know, you're not the 0:41:13.000 --> 0:41:15.319 person that you portray yourself as. You know, you're a 0:41:15.360 --> 0:41:17.840 whole different person. You're just whatever they want you to be, 0:41:18.280 --> 0:41:19.680 you know, because they just want someone to talk to 0:41:19.760 --> 0:41:22.120 and someone to tell about their life story, and someone 0:41:22.160 --> 0:41:25.440 to go places with who like looks cute and dresses 0:41:25.480 --> 0:41:27.600 the part so that they can feel elevated because most 0:41:27.640 --> 0:41:29.840 of the people are really lonely, and it's about the 0:41:29.880 --> 0:41:34.200 fact that like they're trying to purchase companionships. That was 0:41:34.200 --> 0:41:36.399 mostly it for both of us. I mean, like there 0:41:36.400 --> 0:41:38.719 were times when like I did like some guys, and 0:41:38.760 --> 0:41:40.960 I think she liked some guys she saw too. In 0:41:41.000 --> 0:41:43.359 the past. We both stopped doing it because it just 0:41:43.400 --> 0:41:46.680 became a and I want to stress this to anyone 0:41:46.680 --> 0:41:49.480 who's doing that in general, like there is a way out. 0:41:49.640 --> 0:41:52.319 We stopped doing it because it became the situation where 0:41:52.360 --> 0:41:55.360 we just felt like it was really affecting our sense 0:41:55.400 --> 0:41:58.600 of pride and sense of self worth because that's the thing, 0:41:58.760 --> 0:42:01.520 like you're just whatever they want you to be. And 0:42:01.520 --> 0:42:03.800 that same thing went for like our adult contents and 0:42:03.840 --> 0:42:05.719 stuff too. We had an only fans and we had 0:42:05.840 --> 0:42:06.760 a foreignub accounts. 0:42:06.760 --> 0:42:08.920 Are you Are you and this girl still together? Oh? 0:42:09.000 --> 0:42:12.600 Yeah, it's been six years now and it's been amazing. 0:42:12.880 --> 0:42:16.839 And I love her and I love her family, and 0:42:17.960 --> 0:42:20.560 I am so happy. We have a house together, and 0:42:20.600 --> 0:42:25.240 we have two cats, and we also have two geese 0:42:25.320 --> 0:42:28.560 and two turkeys and it's really great. And she's going 0:42:28.600 --> 0:42:32.359 to school for uh, she's in the tech field. She's 0:42:32.360 --> 0:42:34.360 going to school for tech stuff. And I have a 0:42:34.400 --> 0:42:39.959 really cushy, boring job. And we honestly we talked about 0:42:39.960 --> 0:42:42.960 it sometimes, but we kept it very secret from our family. 0:42:43.040 --> 0:42:45.640 So I always get scared when I talk about it 0:42:45.719 --> 0:42:48.000 with people because it was something that like I kind 0:42:48.000 --> 0:42:51.160 of repressed, mostly because it just like it wouldn't really 0:42:51.200 --> 0:42:52.720 resonate with my family or her family. 0:42:54.360 --> 0:42:55.960 Do you do you ever miss doing it? 0:42:59.120 --> 0:43:01.440 You know what the issue is with that actually is 0:43:01.440 --> 0:43:04.200 that I do. I think I missed doing both of those. 0:43:05.080 --> 0:43:07.880 The money was really easy and it was really convenient, 0:43:08.000 --> 0:43:10.839 and the money was like really great. It was very 0:43:10.880 --> 0:43:14.200 seasonal you know your best times to do it. The 0:43:14.200 --> 0:43:16.600 best times, in my opinion, were like the winter time. 0:43:16.640 --> 0:43:20.600 In the winter, right, that's whenever one yeah, everyone cuffing 0:43:20.719 --> 0:43:22.680 season yes. 0:43:22.400 --> 0:43:24.840 And then everyone there's like no one with anybody. So 0:43:25.960 --> 0:43:30.240 I do miss it because it was like honestly, and 0:43:30.239 --> 0:43:31.799 and it kind of burnt me out in the way too, 0:43:31.920 --> 0:43:34.120 Like it was the only time when like I was 0:43:34.200 --> 0:43:37.440 around exuberant consumerism, you know, like we got gifts. My 0:43:37.480 --> 0:43:39.400 girlfriend used to get like really sense of perfumes and 0:43:39.400 --> 0:43:42.959 stuff and like bags, and like guys would take both 0:43:42.960 --> 0:43:45.640 of us like individually on our own dates, like we 0:43:45.680 --> 0:43:48.120 do it to like really fancy restaurants, and like we 0:43:48.160 --> 0:43:50.960 as a couple, we'd never really gone to fancy restaurants. 0:43:50.960 --> 0:43:52.840 But also like none of that really mattered to me, 0:43:52.920 --> 0:43:55.040 Like I didn't care about the bags or the restaurants 0:43:55.040 --> 0:43:57.880 and things of that nature because it wasn't really It 0:43:57.960 --> 0:44:00.080 was nice, but it wasn't really real, and I I 0:44:00.080 --> 0:44:01.960 feel like it part of it kind of killed my 0:44:02.000 --> 0:44:05.759 whole desire to like do bougie things. Like now I 0:44:05.800 --> 0:44:08.399 live in like a really basic house and I live 0:44:08.440 --> 0:44:12.719 a really like guy financially conservative lifestyle because I just 0:44:12.880 --> 0:44:15.840 kind of realized from all those things that it's just 0:44:15.880 --> 0:44:17.239 not really worth it. You know. 0:44:17.520 --> 0:44:20.040 Did anyone ever take both you and your girlfriend out 0:44:20.080 --> 0:44:21.239 on dates at the same time. 0:44:21.640 --> 0:44:24.359 No, no, but my girlfriend did go on a date 0:44:24.400 --> 0:44:26.360 with her friend one time because her friend was like, 0:44:26.400 --> 0:44:27.920 I want to do this, but she was like, I 0:44:27.920 --> 0:44:29.799 don't want to do salon. So my girlfriend was like, well, 0:44:29.840 --> 0:44:31.160 we can go in a double date with some guy. 0:44:31.200 --> 0:44:34.040 And it was absolutely horrible. And I've heard of your 0:44:34.239 --> 0:44:36.520 doing that kind of thing well, because like the more 0:44:36.560 --> 0:44:39.120 people it is because like no one wants to Okay, 0:44:39.800 --> 0:44:43.480 typically speaking, mostly people are paying about like four to 0:44:43.560 --> 0:44:46.759 five hundred dollars per person, like for the dates for 0:44:46.840 --> 0:44:48.560 like an hour a date. Now you're trying to sell 0:44:48.600 --> 0:44:51.719 somebody on paying that for two people on a date, 0:44:51.920 --> 0:44:54.600 and the only people who are going to want that 0:44:54.719 --> 0:44:56.759 are going to want something afterwards, you know. So like 0:44:56.840 --> 0:44:58.520 the guy they want in the date with was just 0:44:58.600 --> 0:45:04.200 like egregious, like you know, over sexualizing them and like 0:45:04.440 --> 0:45:07.040 you know, just like creeping the fuck out, And so 0:45:08.200 --> 0:45:09.960 once they got the money, they ran off because it 0:45:10.000 --> 0:45:10.319 was just. 0:45:10.280 --> 0:45:12.080 Like a I don't you know, I guess that's one 0:45:12.120 --> 0:45:14.360 of the things I don't I don't really understand about 0:45:14.400 --> 0:45:19.600 like the the seeking arrangement thing is like these people, 0:45:19.800 --> 0:45:25.799 these people are mainly paying for like Protonic, Like it's 0:45:25.920 --> 0:45:32.680 they're playing for, like they're paying for like Platonic uh companionship, right, 0:45:33.280 --> 0:45:33.760 mm hmmm. 0:45:34.040 --> 0:45:36.640 And in some ways it's kind of like written off 0:45:36.640 --> 0:45:38.520 with that as that in some ways, but what they 0:45:38.520 --> 0:45:41.839 really wanted to prostitute. Like that's why I never really 0:45:41.920 --> 0:45:45.719 used Seeking Arrangements because it's one of those websites that 0:45:45.880 --> 0:45:48.120 I feel like is you know, like it's like this 0:45:48.200 --> 0:45:50.480 conversational game of like finding people who just want to 0:45:50.480 --> 0:45:52.799 hang out, you know, because a lot of them, like 0:45:53.160 --> 0:45:56.160 a lot of people want Seeking arrangements just want to prostitute. 0:45:56.160 --> 0:45:58.359 They just want someone to pay whatever amount of. 0:45:58.280 --> 0:46:00.840 Money yeah, and have, which is bizarre because it's like, 0:46:00.880 --> 0:46:03.240 if that's what you want, why don't you just hire 0:46:03.320 --> 0:46:06.320 a prostitute exactly exactly. 0:46:06.360 --> 0:46:09.000 But they want someone more innocent, they want someone, you know, 0:46:09.000 --> 0:46:09.480 because like. 0:46:09.440 --> 0:46:11.280 Prostitutes these prosecution websites. 0:46:11.520 --> 0:46:13.840 And then people who you thinking arrangements are like college 0:46:13.920 --> 0:46:15.880 kids and things of that nature, younger people who like 0:46:15.920 --> 0:46:18.480 don't really know about that world, that scary world of 0:46:18.520 --> 0:46:21.239 prosecution and things of that nature, so it attracts a 0:46:21.280 --> 0:46:25.560 different audience of like providers, you know, and they know 0:46:25.640 --> 0:46:28.160 where to go to find what they want, which is 0:46:28.239 --> 0:46:29.919 kind of the cur your part too, because like once 0:46:29.960 --> 0:46:33.160 I got older, it became you know, a bit different 0:46:33.160 --> 0:46:35.239 because it's like, you know, like they don't want they 0:46:35.239 --> 0:46:36.839 don't want someone who has their shit together. They don't 0:46:36.840 --> 0:46:38.279 want they don't want someone who knows what they want 0:46:38.280 --> 0:46:40.839 in life. They want a lot of these guys, which 0:46:40.840 --> 0:46:42.960 it's I mean, like you know, it's mostly guys. They 0:46:43.040 --> 0:46:46.520 just want someone who they can use, who they can manipulate, 0:46:46.719 --> 0:46:51.480 and you know, all those things, and it's just really yeah, 0:46:51.520 --> 0:46:52.399 it's really quite sad. 0:46:53.200 --> 0:46:56.759 Do did you ever go on any any dates with 0:46:56.840 --> 0:46:59.160 any sugar mamas? No? 0:46:59.640 --> 0:47:01.799 And I remember there was this one time that there 0:47:01.840 --> 0:47:03.759 was this one girl who did want to do that. 0:47:04.360 --> 0:47:07.120 But you know, like the people, the sugar mamas who 0:47:07.160 --> 0:47:10.160 were on there, they want sex because they know that 0:47:10.200 --> 0:47:12.719 they have a specific niche that they feel, which is 0:47:12.719 --> 0:47:14.400 the fact that like men who would typically do this 0:47:14.440 --> 0:47:18.840 with women are typically women to has sex with them. 0:47:18.840 --> 0:47:23.240 Maybe I don't know, maybe I'm making a rash analysis, 0:47:23.280 --> 0:47:26.360 but I've seen a few of them. But they want sex. 0:47:26.440 --> 0:47:28.920 They know what they want, and like they usually like 0:47:28.920 --> 0:47:32.080 from what I remember getting the most like grimy, just 0:47:32.560 --> 0:47:35.200 scary messages. And then also it's just like whenever I 0:47:35.440 --> 0:47:38.040 would see them, it just came off as like this 0:47:38.200 --> 0:47:40.680 like cover for sex trafficking, you know, like some like 0:47:40.760 --> 0:47:43.000 some Glad Maxwell type shit. It just kind of scared 0:47:43.040 --> 0:47:45.680 me a little bit. Or they want to like has 0:47:45.680 --> 0:47:47.640 sex with you in front of their husband or just 0:47:47.719 --> 0:47:51.040 weird shit like that. It's just it, it's too dangerous 0:47:51.080 --> 0:47:52.799 in my opinion, whenever I see a woman on. 0:47:52.760 --> 0:47:57.840 There, fascinating hmm. And now you're you're working at a 0:47:57.920 --> 0:48:00.000 desk job, what do you have any of the money 0:48:00.400 --> 0:48:02.920 saved up? Still are you? Are you doing any. 0:48:04.080 --> 0:48:08.200 We were so horribly irresponsible with that money. I mean 0:48:08.239 --> 0:48:10.440 we still have some of the items we bought for sure. 0:48:11.400 --> 0:48:14.640 What's the most expensive thing that you that you kept? 0:48:16.360 --> 0:48:22.880 Okay? Fuck, well that's okay. So I there was this 0:48:22.920 --> 0:48:26.439 one guy my girlfriend saw and we got well, you're 0:48:26.840 --> 0:48:29.680 you're an LA person. You know led Labo, right, I 0:48:29.760 --> 0:48:32.960 know what the perfumery And okay, so the Labo is 0:48:33.000 --> 0:48:35.160 this perfumery and they're based out of New York they 0:48:35.160 --> 0:48:38.040 have some places in La It's like a really like 0:48:38.200 --> 0:48:39.400 really bliegy perfumery. 0:48:39.760 --> 0:48:41.960 Like I don't know a whole lot about the local 0:48:42.360 --> 0:48:43.879 perfumeries around here. 0:48:44.480 --> 0:48:48.200 I see, Well, the big bottles are like three hundred dollars, 0:48:48.239 --> 0:48:52.200 I think. I think the guy, one of the guys, 0:48:52.200 --> 0:48:56.080 had connections and got it's five bottles, and I gave 0:48:56.120 --> 0:48:58.399 him to various friends, and I told my friends because 0:48:58.400 --> 0:49:00.279 they didn't know what was going on. I was like, yeah, 0:49:00.280 --> 0:49:03.200 I have this friend who works for let Lavo and 0:49:03.520 --> 0:49:05.640 he got in perfumes. So each one of those was 0:49:05.680 --> 0:49:07.760 like three seventy five, I think, like the big bottle, 0:49:08.160 --> 0:49:10.640 and I just gave those to various friends. And I 0:49:10.680 --> 0:49:12.239 still have one of the bottles because it's like a 0:49:12.239 --> 0:49:16.200 really big perfume. And then design her handbags and such too, 0:49:16.280 --> 0:49:19.480 like I got this, I got this Chanel bag and 0:49:19.520 --> 0:49:23.000 a few other things, and then things of that nature, 0:49:23.040 --> 0:49:27.880 just miscellaneous designer items or like sunglasses too, designer sunglasses, 0:49:28.160 --> 0:49:31.440 mostly things of that nature. Why my girlfriend got me 0:49:31.480 --> 0:49:35.120 a pair of Gucci sunglasses, but she framed it as 0:49:35.120 --> 0:49:37.120 like she wanted them, so she asked, because like the 0:49:37.120 --> 0:49:39.080 guy was like, send me your Amazon wishless and then 0:49:39.120 --> 0:49:41.880 she sent him some like a wishless item for like 0:49:41.880 --> 0:49:44.960 a bunch of the designer sunglasses, and then she was 0:49:45.000 --> 0:49:47.000 able to get me that. And that's kind of the 0:49:47.040 --> 0:49:49.120 game we used to play. Sometimes we'd be like, oh, oh, 0:49:49.160 --> 0:49:50.160 this guy gets kind of switchless. 0:49:50.200 --> 0:49:50.920 What do you want? What do you want? 0:49:50.920 --> 0:49:52.920 You know type situation, and then we talk about it 0:49:52.920 --> 0:49:54.680 together and see, okay, well we should you get this 0:49:54.760 --> 0:49:57.160 and this, and that was really fun. 0:49:58.239 --> 0:50:00.760 But when you when you become an old old man, 0:50:02.200 --> 0:50:03.880 you know, huh do you do? 0:50:03.880 --> 0:50:03.920 You? 0:50:04.120 --> 0:50:07.919 If you and if you're lonely and maybe you maybe 0:50:08.000 --> 0:50:11.359 your girlfriend's not around anymore, what would you do? Would 0:50:11.360 --> 0:50:14.319 you ever pay somebody to go on a date with you? 0:50:14.440 --> 0:50:18.040 Or would you join like an elderly tennis club. 0:50:18.320 --> 0:50:19.120 I think I would. 0:50:19.239 --> 0:50:23.080 I've and i've because I know internally I have a 0:50:23.200 --> 0:50:27.919 kink like I love older people, and so I think 0:50:27.960 --> 0:50:29.799 that it'd be like, well, I'm old, so now I 0:50:29.840 --> 0:50:30.680 can really get. 0:50:30.560 --> 0:50:31.200 The older people. 0:50:31.719 --> 0:50:33.400 But I don't know, you know, I think about that 0:50:33.440 --> 0:50:36.160 and it's just like it's different when you're I was 0:50:36.160 --> 0:50:38.280 talking to my grandma about this because we're talking about, 0:50:38.800 --> 0:50:41.200 you know, like what it's like like like like like 0:50:41.200 --> 0:50:43.520 like what sex and things that nature. 0:50:43.360 --> 0:50:44.760 Is like as you get older and older. 0:50:45.239 --> 0:50:46.759 And she was just like, well, once you get past 0:50:46.760 --> 0:50:49.560 your sixties, last seventies, it's just it's not the same, 0:50:49.600 --> 0:50:51.920 you know, and it's like you appreciate like slower things 0:50:51.960 --> 0:50:54.080 and things of that nature. Who were you talking about 0:50:54.280 --> 0:50:55.880 with my grandmother? 0:50:55.960 --> 0:50:56.799 And she was talking to. 0:50:56.920 --> 0:50:57.960 Grandma about sex? 0:50:58.719 --> 0:51:01.080 Well, yes, we're talking about how as you get older 0:51:01.200 --> 0:51:03.560 you lose that ability. She was kind of drunk, so 0:51:03.760 --> 0:51:06.080 she was just having this really open conversation, but she 0:51:06.160 --> 0:51:07.840 was talking about like how like when you get older, 0:51:07.880 --> 0:51:10.800 your your your ability to do such things is different, 0:51:10.880 --> 0:51:14.040 so like you know, you just hang out with people 0:51:14.160 --> 0:51:16.920 or like you just sit around and stuff. And and 0:51:17.000 --> 0:51:20.719 I I really can't tell what my future holds, but 0:51:21.239 --> 0:51:24.319 I know that a lot of the older guys just 0:51:24.440 --> 0:51:28.080 wanted to like breathe in youth. You know, it's something 0:51:28.120 --> 0:51:29.879 that they're not used to being around anymore because they're 0:51:29.880 --> 0:51:31.320 older and most people around them are older. 0:51:31.400 --> 0:51:35.120 So is that what they can't have is your is 0:51:35.160 --> 0:51:37.080 your grandfather a lot around? 0:51:38.040 --> 0:51:42.279 No, My both of my grandfathers on my both of 0:51:42.280 --> 0:51:43.719 my parents' side are like deadbeats. 0:51:44.000 --> 0:51:47.040 Is your grandma having a lot of sex. 0:51:48.120 --> 0:51:53.600 I don't know. She's she's always been. She she has 0:51:53.680 --> 0:51:55.960 like eight husbands I think, and like each husband has 0:51:56.000 --> 0:51:57.600 like a different kid with her, So she has like 0:51:57.600 --> 0:52:00.359 eight kids, each one or different husband. So so she's 0:52:00.400 --> 0:52:01.480 a pretty wild character. 0:52:02.640 --> 0:52:05.319 Well its look, it sounds, it sounds. It sounds like 0:52:05.400 --> 0:52:07.400 she was just bluffing when she's talking about how you 0:52:07.440 --> 0:52:09.200 can't do that much at that age. If she has 0:52:09.560 --> 0:52:12.960 eight different kids with eight different husbands. 0:52:12.680 --> 0:52:13.440 It's possible. 0:52:13.520 --> 0:52:13.960 I don't know. 0:52:14.040 --> 0:52:16.400 She's a very secretive person, and I think it's just 0:52:16.480 --> 0:52:18.279 you know, different era. She's like from the forties. Yeah, 0:52:18.280 --> 0:52:20.400 she's worn like nineteen thirty eight, so like, you know, 0:52:20.520 --> 0:52:23.960 she's from a whole different level of like conservatism. 0:52:23.200 --> 0:52:25.239 And like she's not fool things. 0:52:25.800 --> 0:52:26.680 She's cool as fuck. 0:52:27.080 --> 0:52:27.799 Yeah, she's cool. 0:52:27.800 --> 0:52:30.120 She loves talking shit about people. I come up her 0:52:30.120 --> 0:52:32.719 house sometimes and she'll just talk shit about anybody in 0:52:32.760 --> 0:52:35.239 my life, and it's just like, Wow, do you just 0:52:35.280 --> 0:52:37.279 whenever I'm gone, do you just talk about me too? 0:52:37.719 --> 0:52:37.919 Yeah? 0:52:38.120 --> 0:52:41.040 Probably, Like yeah, that's what your mothers do. They talk 0:52:41.040 --> 0:52:43.120 shit about their kids and their grandkids and stuff. 0:52:43.480 --> 0:52:46.840 But that's okay though. I don't think it matters, not 0:52:46.920 --> 0:52:50.120 like ill will. What's your name again? 0:52:51.400 --> 0:52:52.280 My name is Dante. 0:52:53.000 --> 0:52:58.000 Dante. Hmmm. Yeah, Well it's weird, like if you have 0:52:58.120 --> 0:53:02.000 if you like older people, if that's kind of your thing, 0:53:02.040 --> 0:53:05.040 it's like, what are you going to do when you 0:53:05.080 --> 0:53:09.160 get old, man then, because like if you're eighty, the 0:53:09.200 --> 0:53:12.400 best you can do is like, you know, a ninety 0:53:12.480 --> 0:53:16.400 year old maybe maybe I don't know, I mean fairly 0:53:16.400 --> 0:53:17.960 limited as men, it's a. 0:53:17.880 --> 0:53:20.359 Bit different the privileges that like, because like the thing 0:53:20.440 --> 0:53:22.319 is is like I mean, it's it's commonly talked about, 0:53:22.320 --> 0:53:25.040 like the dating pool for men kind of gets larger 0:53:25.080 --> 0:53:26.840 and larger as you get older, whereas dating fool for 0:53:26.920 --> 0:53:28.680 women get small and smaller as they get older, just 0:53:28.760 --> 0:53:32.279 due to like gender issues and like the dichotomy of 0:53:32.360 --> 0:53:37.879 sexualization of different genders and things of that nature. But yeah, 0:53:37.880 --> 0:53:40.200 because I've seen like a fair share of older people 0:53:40.239 --> 0:53:43.239 who are fucking drippy as hell. Like it's funny, like 0:53:43.280 --> 0:53:44.879 old men who are out there on the world who 0:53:44.920 --> 0:53:47.200 are just like cool as hell, and people are just like, wow, 0:53:47.719 --> 0:53:49.319 I want to be like him when I get old, 0:53:49.560 --> 0:53:51.120 you know, And. 0:53:51.160 --> 0:53:57.440 Well, Dantel, is there any other like aspect of this 0:53:57.560 --> 0:53:59.319 or anything that you want to share before we go. 0:54:00.560 --> 0:54:02.520 Let me ask the chat if they have any questions, 0:54:02.640 --> 0:54:06.120 chat anything you want to ask to Dante before we go. 0:54:06.760 --> 0:54:11.480 Nervous Squirrel says that your grandma sounds like a baddie. 0:54:12.400 --> 0:54:15.840 She is, She's pretty cool. I don't know if I 0:54:15.840 --> 0:54:18.240 can talk about my grandma's looks. That sounds pretty scary. 0:54:18.800 --> 0:54:22.680 Jamin Baker wants to know if you like doctor Pepper. 0:54:24.440 --> 0:54:27.040 I don't really like soda. Actually I drink a lot 0:54:27.040 --> 0:54:30.399 of wine though. But there was something I did want 0:54:30.400 --> 0:54:33.359 to say, and that is that if you get into 0:54:33.360 --> 0:54:36.239 this lifestyle, I see so many people who just get 0:54:36.239 --> 0:54:39.240 shipped on for doing only fans and things of that nature, 0:54:39.400 --> 0:54:42.719 or doing adult content, and it seems as though a 0:54:42.800 --> 0:54:44.720 lot of people feel like if you do that, there's 0:54:44.719 --> 0:54:47.680 no way out. And I truly think that there is 0:54:47.719 --> 0:54:51.200 a way out, because as time goes on, there's so 0:54:51.440 --> 0:54:55.239 much saturation of adult content creators, and I guess it 0:54:55.440 --> 0:54:58.920 varies on, like, you know, how popularly you become. We 0:54:59.000 --> 0:55:01.680 had a you know, relatively sizable fan base with our 0:55:01.960 --> 0:55:05.600 content creation, but you know, once we were done with it, 0:55:05.640 --> 0:55:07.879 we deleted everything, and you know, there was a little 0:55:07.920 --> 0:55:09.600 like period of time when like people would like the 0:55:09.719 --> 0:55:11.520 me and my personal Instagram everything it's that nature and 0:55:11.560 --> 0:55:13.080 be like, oh what happened. What happened and that kind 0:55:13.080 --> 0:55:14.920 of scared me. Feels like, oh shit, they know what's 0:55:14.960 --> 0:55:18.680 going on. But there is a future outside of that 0:55:18.760 --> 0:55:21.040 if that's what you want in life, and do not 0:55:21.120 --> 0:55:23.120 put yourself in a box and feel like you can't 0:55:23.120 --> 0:55:25.399 do other things in your life because you did, you. 0:55:25.400 --> 0:55:29.600 Know, having thing. Emily Bayze wants to know how was 0:55:29.680 --> 0:55:31.200 the sex with rich men. 0:55:33.760 --> 0:55:43.959 Hmm, okay, pretty good, not as vigorous. It's like trying 0:55:44.000 --> 0:55:46.600 to think of it in a non weird way. It's 0:55:46.719 --> 0:55:49.160 like whenever you like shake an old man's hand and 0:55:49.160 --> 0:55:51.600 it's like strong as thuff, but like not moving fast. 0:55:51.920 --> 0:55:53.960 That's what sex with old men is. Like it's like 0:55:54.080 --> 0:55:58.400 strong and like but like it's not embracing, you know, 0:55:58.440 --> 0:56:00.560 like it's not like scary, like how like younger men 0:56:00.600 --> 0:56:03.720 have seg where like all vicious and crazy like older 0:56:03.760 --> 0:56:06.640 men are, like they're firm, but they're and then it's 0:56:06.960 --> 0:56:08.799 it's also very conservative. 0:56:08.239 --> 0:56:09.400 You know, like they don't want to do any like 0:56:09.440 --> 0:56:10.960 weird shit. They just want to like you know. 0:56:10.920 --> 0:56:13.439 Have normal sex and not. They didn't last very long 0:56:13.480 --> 0:56:18.600 and they just they're it's very simplistic, and oftentimes for 0:56:18.680 --> 0:56:20.920 me it was in like foreign cars and such like 0:56:20.920 --> 0:56:21.760 in the back seats. 0:56:21.560 --> 0:56:22.600 Where their drivers are driving. 0:56:22.680 --> 0:56:26.640 It was kind of weird. I remember one time I was, oh, yes, 0:56:26.760 --> 0:56:27.120 that's it. 0:56:27.280 --> 0:56:29.720 Oh sure, if you if you have a story about 0:56:29.760 --> 0:56:32.160 having sex with an old man, you can you can 0:56:32.200 --> 0:56:34.120 tell it real quick, Okay. 0:56:34.239 --> 0:56:36.400 I mean I was just in the backseat of this 0:56:36.480 --> 0:56:38.719 guy's Rolls Royce. It was the Phantom, I think the 0:56:38.760 --> 0:56:42.799 four door one, and his driver was driving, and we're 0:56:42.840 --> 0:56:45.480 having sex in the back seat, and it was just 0:56:45.920 --> 0:56:49.800 really weird because there's a fucking person in the front 0:56:49.800 --> 0:56:52.320 seat and it just like that never really felt normalized 0:56:52.360 --> 0:56:56.840 to me. But it was pretty fire, honestly, and I 0:56:56.880 --> 0:56:57.520 saw him a lot. 0:56:57.520 --> 0:57:00.279 He was pretty cool. He was pretty respectful too, But yeah, 0:57:00.320 --> 0:57:00.960 that was that. 0:57:01.600 --> 0:57:05.799 Was a live Well thanks for calling Dante did this? 0:57:06.840 --> 0:57:08.200 How did it feel to talk about all this? 0:57:09.360 --> 0:57:12.200 H scary? I've never talked to I mean, this is 0:57:12.200 --> 0:57:14.040 a pretty big audience that you have, and I've never 0:57:14.239 --> 0:57:15.879 talked to anyone in my life about this, So it's 0:57:15.960 --> 0:57:18.120 nice to be It's nice to have anonymity and talk 0:57:18.120 --> 0:57:21.000 about this with somebody and so, like, you know, honestly, 0:57:21.040 --> 0:57:22.320 I just wanted to get this off my chest and 0:57:22.320 --> 0:57:25.000 talk about people and let people know about this kind 0:57:25.000 --> 0:57:26.520 of thing. And I really appreciate the platform that you 0:57:26.640 --> 0:57:28.880 provided me to do this. I really appreciate your work 0:57:28.880 --> 0:57:29.600 that you do as well. 0:57:30.160 --> 0:57:34.320 Oh thanks man, your thanks man. I haven't seen your work, 0:57:34.360 --> 0:57:36.200 but I'm sure it's it's pretty rad too. 0:57:38.600 --> 0:57:40.720 I try my best. Well, thank you very much for 0:57:40.760 --> 0:57:41.120 your time. 0:57:41.120 --> 0:57:45.320 I really appreciate this, of course, take care of Dante. 0:57:45.040 --> 0:57:49.520 By A Roll's voice. I always thought a Rolls Royce 0:57:49.680 --> 0:57:53.720 was a watch. I didn't realize it was a car. 0:57:56.200 --> 0:58:00.240 That's that's that's my only comment on that store. Sorry, 0:58:02.360 --> 0:58:05.880 thanks for calling Dante. Hello, folks, it is Lyle. We 0:58:06.040 --> 0:58:09.480 are at the end of this episode. But get this, 0:58:10.160 --> 0:58:14.440 I'm about to play a clip before we go from 0:58:14.560 --> 0:58:19.080 this week's bonus episode, which is a live show that 0:58:19.200 --> 0:58:22.880 I recorded in front of five hundred people all the 0:58:22.920 --> 0:58:27.840 way over in Sydney, Australia. Bonus episodes are available to 0:58:27.960 --> 0:58:33.760 Premium super cast subscribers of Therapy Gecko. 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Yemp, 0:59:18.880 --> 0:59:25.440 Now did your did your girlfriend give your mom permission 0:59:25.440 --> 0:59:25.960 to watch? 0:59:26.320 --> 0:59:26.400 No? 0:59:28.800 --> 0:59:29.680 I fucking hope not. 0:59:29.760 --> 0:59:29.800 No. 0:59:31.160 --> 0:59:35.120 Uh, tell me tell me about this, this relationship your 0:59:35.120 --> 0:59:38.600 mom has with your girlfriend where she's gay keeping your asshole. 0:59:41.960 --> 0:59:43.840 I guess. I guess I'll preface this by saying. 0:59:43.680 --> 0:59:46.880 My my, my, my mother is a is a sex 0:59:46.920 --> 0:59:48.200 love and relationship coach. 0:59:48.520 --> 0:59:51.280 Oh okay, that's got to be weird for you. 0:59:51.400 --> 0:59:52.520 Yeah, you wouldn't believe it. 0:59:54.600 --> 0:59:56.840 Everyone's like, hey, you know that kid from sex education? 0:59:57.600 --> 0:59:59.080 Oh you know it? 0:59:59.120 --> 1:00:01.920 Wait, dude, your mom heart sex education at your school? 1:00:02.040 --> 1:00:02.080 No? 1:00:02.440 --> 1:00:05.520 Fuck, okay, I'm so thankful for No. It's if she's 1:00:05.520 --> 1:00:06.840 taught with you in the class. 1:00:07.000 --> 1:00:10.800 Yeah, this was a later thing that came on, but yeah, 1:00:11.040 --> 1:00:14.120 so it started off, me and my partner and a 1:00:14.120 --> 1:00:16.440 few friends do a thing called Wish miss, which I 1:00:16.520 --> 1:00:19.720 highly suggest everyone do. It's like a secret sounds like 1:00:19.760 --> 1:00:22.560 it hasn't worked out for you. 1:00:22.560 --> 1:00:24.200 No, it's it's it's very funny. 1:00:24.200 --> 1:00:27.080 So you do a secret Santa, but you're only allowed 1:00:27.080 --> 1:00:29.160 to buy things from the site called wish. 1:00:29.720 --> 1:00:30.120 I don't know. 1:00:31.080 --> 1:00:33.640 Yeah, sure, you know, crack pipes, you know, five dollars, 1:00:33.640 --> 1:00:37.560 PlayStation five still those all that sort of ship all 1:00:37.560 --> 1:00:40.160 in the one place. It's fantastic wish Edward Collin there 1:00:40.160 --> 1:00:46.000 it is there they go. Yeah, So for my for 1:00:46.640 --> 1:00:48.600 my person, they give to me a present. They gifted 1:00:48.640 --> 1:00:51.680 me a you know obviously Sully from Monster Zinc. 1:00:53.560 --> 1:00:54.360 It was a it was a. 1:00:54.240 --> 1:01:00.200 Butt plug, but it was with the Sully Tale. 1:01:01.080 --> 1:01:04.200 If you want to see this full Australia show, you 1:01:04.240 --> 1:01:08.760 can go to Therapy Gecko dot supercast dot com to 1:01:08.880 --> 1:01:12.720 sign up now and become a Premium member, or find 1:01:12.760 --> 1:01:16.200 the link in the episode description. All right, that's it. 1:01:16.280 --> 1:01:21.600 I have nothing else to say. I hate recording things. 1:01:22.840 --> 1:01:27.840 I think I probably fucked this recording up and restarted 1:01:27.840 --> 1:01:30.200 it at least five times, and it was really stressful. 1:01:30.280 --> 1:01:33.920 So I'm gonna go play Red Dead Redemption for six hours. 1:01:34.800 --> 1:01:39.680 Thanks again. Goes on the line making your phone calls 1:01:39.760 --> 1:01:40.560 every nine. 1:01:40.680 --> 1:01:44.280 Derek goes to a staging your cloud in the MIDI 1:01:44.360 --> 1:01:44.800 Your life. 1:01:45.200 --> 1:01:48.200 Money's not really an expert