WEBVTT - Brittany Cartwright Is One Bad Bitch!

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<v Speaker 1>Hello, gorgeous. It is La La Kent. Welcome back to

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<v Speaker 1>my podcast I have. It's so weird to have you

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<v Speaker 1>here as like a guest because you're just like my homies.

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<v Speaker 1>So I'm like, this feels so official.

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<v Speaker 2>I love it.

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<v Speaker 1>Hi Britney Cartwright, Hi girl, how's it going good?

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<v Speaker 2>Thanks for having me.

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<v Speaker 1>I can't wait to have you. I was like looking

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<v Speaker 1>at the time, and then Stace, our mutual producer, says

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<v Speaker 1>she stopped off at a gas station to go to

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<v Speaker 1>the bathroom. I'm like, it's like a thirty minute commute,

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<v Speaker 1>and normally, like if you're on a road trip, you

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<v Speaker 1>would stop off at a gas station to go to the bathroom.

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<v Speaker 2>There was no way around it. God to stop.

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<v Speaker 1>What are we talking? Like? Are we talking like a chevron? Uh?

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<v Speaker 2>It was a I don't even know what it happened

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<v Speaker 2>to actual now that I think about it. What was

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<v Speaker 2>a shell?

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<v Speaker 1>You're so Kentucky right now.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh man, you gotta do what you gotta do. And

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<v Speaker 2>that traffic coming here from the valley was like stop

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<v Speaker 2>and go.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>I was like, I ain't gonna make it if I

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<v Speaker 2>if I have to go all the way there.

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<v Speaker 1>We cause you come from Kentucky. I come from uh

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<v Speaker 1>Salt Lake City, Utah. There's no traffic and I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know if you ever saw the snl skit about like

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<v Speaker 1>when people moved to California, all they ever talk about

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<v Speaker 1>is being stuck in traffic and like how they true

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<v Speaker 1>took the four oh five to the one oh one

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<v Speaker 1>or whatever, and I'm like, oh my god, we've turned

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<v Speaker 1>into those people.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh but what's bad about me is I don't ever

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<v Speaker 2>know where I am. Like if it wasn't for my GPS,

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<v Speaker 2>I would not. I don't know what the four oh

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<v Speaker 2>five is, Like I heard of it, but like I

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<v Speaker 2>couldn't tell you which one it is. You've been here

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<v Speaker 2>for ten years?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh my okay. So then when you go from your

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<v Speaker 1>house to take Cruizy to school because our kids go

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<v Speaker 1>to the same school, do you have to use your GPS?

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<v Speaker 2>I put my GPS on for safety because I just

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<v Speaker 2>like to follow it and know where I am. It's

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<v Speaker 2>like I absolutely had to do it without my phone.

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<v Speaker 2>I could take him to school, okay, but I never

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<v Speaker 2>tried because it's like my safety blanket, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>Right, just in case you forget yeah, or.

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<v Speaker 2>Like I'm not paying attention and I like missed the

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<v Speaker 2>turn and then I would be screwed. I have no

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<v Speaker 2>clue where the heck I was.

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<v Speaker 1>I just like knowing how long it's gonna take me exactly.

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<v Speaker 2>I like that too.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, like I know where I'm going, but I sometimes

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<v Speaker 1>it could take ten minutes, sometimes it could take thirty five.

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<v Speaker 2>And sometimes it'll say save five minutes if you click here.

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<v Speaker 1>And I'm like, yes, like you said, it was like

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<v Speaker 1>a hell of a morning. What went on this morning?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh my gosh. So Cruise and I swam like all

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<v Speaker 2>day yesterday, just him and I. So he was like

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<v Speaker 2>really tired. So if he goes to bed early, there's

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<v Speaker 2>no it's never like for sure that he's gonna stay

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<v Speaker 2>asleep all night. Okay. So he fell asleep around eight

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<v Speaker 2>o'clock and woke up at four am. Oh no, ready

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<v Speaker 2>to party, just like yay hello, like smacking on my

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<v Speaker 2>face like this to get me up, and yeah, he

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<v Speaker 2>just would not go back to sleep. Finally went back

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<v Speaker 2>to sleep at seven point thirty. Okay. So I was

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<v Speaker 2>up with him that entire time, and then he had

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<v Speaker 2>to be at school at eight forty five, so I

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<v Speaker 2>decided to keep it home today.

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<v Speaker 1>He stayed home too, Yeah, because what am I gonna do?

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<v Speaker 2>Make it's just pre school if it was like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>you know what I mean, like if it was like

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<v Speaker 2>school school. But I just felt like he would be

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<v Speaker 2>so miserable if he went, so then I was up

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<v Speaker 2>with him the whole time too, and I'm just like,

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<v Speaker 2>I was so tired.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh and you're all glamed and everything.

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<v Speaker 2>I just rushed but makeup on.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm very impressed. Did you do that at the gas

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<v Speaker 1>station too?

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<v Speaker 2>I did my lips in the car on the way, a.

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<v Speaker 1>Car that I'm laying my horn.

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<v Speaker 2>Like plan your day better, bitch, of which I'm at

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<v Speaker 2>like a stop sign. Okay, it's not just like I'm

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<v Speaker 2>not driving and actively doing it.

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<v Speaker 1>You know.

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<v Speaker 2>Little Wayne's playing and I'm just like, dude.

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<v Speaker 1>By the way, some people thought Lil Wayne was paying

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<v Speaker 1>you to promote his new album.

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<v Speaker 2>Somebody said that to me. They were like, is Little

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<v Speaker 2>Wayne paying you? And I said what I was like,

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<v Speaker 2>I love Little White. Everyone knows that, if I mean,

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<v Speaker 2>they obviously don't know me very well. If they thought

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<v Speaker 2>I didn't know little Way.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you still like him? Now that he broke up

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<v Speaker 1>with his girlfriend on Mother's Day?

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<v Speaker 2>He broke up with I didn't even see that. Yes,

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<v Speaker 2>he does things that disappoint me sometimes, Like that was

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<v Speaker 2>his concert and uh, you know Kara, my friend from Yestechy,

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<v Speaker 2>she flew in from Vegas and he was so late.

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<v Speaker 2>It was that one that kind of like went viral

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<v Speaker 2>where he like walked off the sage're there, we're there.

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<v Speaker 1>And didn't he like shame the audience, Yes.

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<v Speaker 2>Because he said that we weren't interested in like his

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<v Speaker 2>new rappers and stuff. I'm look, we waited three hours,

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<v Speaker 2>you were late, and then you walked off early because

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<v Speaker 2>we weren'tcheering enough for songs that we had never heard before.

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<v Speaker 1>I was bently boy.

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<v Speaker 2>That was a disappointing moment, but he will never.

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<v Speaker 1>You know what, you're a true true blue fan?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh yeah, aam.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like you have true blue fans like that

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<v Speaker 1>just rock with you no matter because the fans are

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<v Speaker 1>fickle when it comes to like reality television. Yeah, And

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<v Speaker 1>do you watch reality TV or you just on it?

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<v Speaker 2>For the most part, I'm just on it. I do

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<v Speaker 2>see things here and there. Obviously I was big into

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<v Speaker 2>like nine to Day Fiance and stuff like that for

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<v Speaker 2>a while. I think because I wasn't really that much

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<v Speaker 2>into it before I even started on reality to you,

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<v Speaker 2>So like maybe I had watched like Laguna Beach or

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<v Speaker 2>you know, Jersey Shore, like the very great the very

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<v Speaker 2>first ones. And I used to love like trading spaces

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<v Speaker 2>like home de courseo yeah KLC, you know stuff like that.

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<v Speaker 2>So that was like what I really watched. Don't hate me, problemo,

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<v Speaker 2>I love you now. But I was just never like

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<v Speaker 2>really huge into that world.

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<v Speaker 1>My mom was all the moms loved house Yes, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I loved Housewives too.

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<v Speaker 2>You still do?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, I'm addicted.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, maybe if I watched it, I would like be

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<v Speaker 2>into it. But whenever you live the life, you.

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<v Speaker 1>Feel like, because you know how the sausage is made,

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<v Speaker 1>you can't watch it.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah. Maybe it gives me like a little anxiety or something.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I know, it's weird. How is this season going

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<v Speaker 1>for you?

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<v Speaker 2>Definitely the hardest season I've ever filmed. Okay, hard to

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<v Speaker 2>watch back. I think that I'm definitely like showing a

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<v Speaker 2>different side of me that people aren't used to. I

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<v Speaker 2>think I'm showing like a lot of like growth and strength. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>and I'm in a much better place right now than

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<v Speaker 2>I was when I was filming this because you know,

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<v Speaker 2>we film over the summer, so it's been a hot minute.

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<v Speaker 2>But yeah, I feel like I've got so much support

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<v Speaker 2>and I'm so grateful, grateful for that. But like, if

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<v Speaker 2>I do one thing wrong, I feel like people like

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<v Speaker 2>come at me, and it's like, give me a little

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<v Speaker 2>bit of grace here. I'm literally going through the hardest

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<v Speaker 2>summer of my entire life and doing it all on TV.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, and it'll be one of the hardest times of

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<v Speaker 1>your entire life for the long run. Like, yeah, looking back,

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<v Speaker 1>when you think about your life, this will always be

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<v Speaker 1>one of the most difficult and most challenging times of

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<v Speaker 1>your life. So when you went into filming, did you

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<v Speaker 1>know that it was going to be difficult.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, because two days before is whenever all the stuff happened,

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<v Speaker 2>Like two days before we even picked up cameras is

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<v Speaker 2>whenever all the stuff with Jack's happened. So I knew

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<v Speaker 2>that it was gonna be bad. And before that, we

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<v Speaker 2>had been separated for like six or seven months already, right,

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<v Speaker 2>and it wasn't good our entire separation because that's when

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<v Speaker 2>he started spiraling and stuff. So I was like even

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<v Speaker 2>worse than normal so I just knew it was going

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<v Speaker 2>to be extremely hard.

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<v Speaker 1>I remember when it did start getting very very bad,

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<v Speaker 1>and you and I were driving, I think, to Will

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<v Speaker 1>and Elaine's house and we were talking just about what

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<v Speaker 1>you were going through, and you were talking about some

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<v Speaker 1>ring footage and you were like, I can show you.

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<v Speaker 1>And I was like, Britt, yeah, you weren't to a

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<v Speaker 1>place yet. I don't even think that you had separated fully.

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<v Speaker 1>It was just you kind of toying with the idea. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>And I said to you, if you show me, if

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<v Speaker 1>you guys reconcile, I don't think I'll ever be able

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<v Speaker 1>to be around him again.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>And then two days before, you guys picked up cameras

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<v Speaker 1>we were at the school. Mm hmm. You showed me

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<v Speaker 1>a video mm hmm. But I said, if you don't

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<v Speaker 1>get out of this, someone's gonna end up dead. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>and it probably will be you. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, it was escalating so bad. And those are

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<v Speaker 2>two different occasions. Like the ring kids you're talking about

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<v Speaker 2>the first time, Like we had so many fights that

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<v Speaker 2>led up to why I had to separate in the

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<v Speaker 2>first place, like why I left in the first place,

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<v Speaker 2>and then the whole stuff that happened two days before filming.

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<v Speaker 2>I had already been separated for six or seven months, correct,

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<v Speaker 2>So that like a lot of people get the timeline

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<v Speaker 2>messed up, and I'm like, no, no, no, there was

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<v Speaker 2>a lot of times that happened and a lot of

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<v Speaker 2>things that happened before the separation in general. You know

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<v Speaker 2>that led me to leave in the very first place.

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<v Speaker 2>And it had nothing to do with Julian.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, you know, I know. This was the first time

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<v Speaker 1>way after us going cause I think it was us

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<v Speaker 1>going to like a Christmas party. This was like two

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<v Speaker 1>years ago.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh yeah, yeah. Do you remember also I came up

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<v Speaker 2>to the grove and met you and Sheena and your moms. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>at the grow and that's when I first told you guys,

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<v Speaker 2>I think I'm gonna leave him. Yes, yeah, that was

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<v Speaker 2>before I left him too.

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<v Speaker 1>You And that's such a difficult I don't like when

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<v Speaker 1>people talk about things like this when they haven't been

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<v Speaker 1>placed in this situation and they say, well, if this

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<v Speaker 1>were happening, you should have done this. Yep, there is

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<v Speaker 1>no roadmap. Everyone's story is different. Oh h do you

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<v Speaker 1>think that you're going to catch heat? The fact that

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<v Speaker 1>you filed for divorce when he was in a treatment center.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't think so, because people are gonna see a

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<v Speaker 2>lot more stuff that happens leading up to it. So

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<v Speaker 2>there's a lot more that hasn't even aired yet that

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<v Speaker 2>I had to that I have to go through. And

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<v Speaker 2>I think people are gonna be like, oh, what the hell? Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't think anybody. I think some people are gonna

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<v Speaker 2>be like, why didn't you do it sooner? Honestly, right,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, And if people do give me heat, I'm like, listen,

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<v Speaker 2>it took me a long time to get where I

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<v Speaker 2>finally had the strength to leave him in the first place.

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<v Speaker 2>I was trying to give him like some grace while

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<v Speaker 2>he was doing things and HOPEFU working on himself. But

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<v Speaker 2>then you obviously see, because it's already been on the show,

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<v Speaker 2>I was getting rage text constantly all this stuff was happening.

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<v Speaker 2>And then there's more stuff I can't say yet because

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<v Speaker 2>it's on the show obviously, but even more stuff that

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<v Speaker 2>hasn't aired yet that like I had to go through.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, it doesn't end, yeah, and.

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<v Speaker 2>Ever, it was like almost every other day something new

0:10:20.040 --> 0:10:23.600
<v Speaker 2>was happening, and you know, yeah, it took me a

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<v Speaker 2>long time. To leave. But I did leave, and I'm

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<v Speaker 2>like very proud of myself and I'm happy with what

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<v Speaker 2>I did. You know, it should be.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, no matter when you choose to leave somebody. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>like you said, this was a decade with this man. Yes,

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<v Speaker 1>where some people most people, you know, because I got

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of people saying, well, you pushed your ex

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<v Speaker 1>on us so much, and you did this and you

0:10:46.679 --> 0:10:49.160
<v Speaker 1>did that, and it's like, well, now I'm telling you

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<v Speaker 1>that he sucked.

0:10:50.679 --> 0:10:52.680
<v Speaker 2>So if you're like I changed my events, I changed

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<v Speaker 2>my mind.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, And there's a moment where it just kind of

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<v Speaker 1>all makes so much sense of like I'm just done here. Yeah,

0:11:02.440 --> 0:11:05.120
<v Speaker 1>And you can't pick and choose when that time come.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, you have to like hit your breaking point. And

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<v Speaker 2>I always say, like having cruise around with all the

0:11:11.200 --> 0:11:13.840
<v Speaker 2>fighting and stuff that was going on, that really brought

0:11:13.880 --> 0:11:15.760
<v Speaker 2>me to my breaking point. A lot of people stay

0:11:15.760 --> 0:11:18.680
<v Speaker 2>in relationships because of their kids and things like we

0:11:18.720 --> 0:11:20.319
<v Speaker 2>need to stay together, we need to make it through

0:11:20.679 --> 0:11:22.959
<v Speaker 2>to college and this and that, and they're like miserable

0:11:23.000 --> 0:11:25.240
<v Speaker 2>their whole lives. It just got to the point where

0:11:25.280 --> 0:11:28.480
<v Speaker 2>it was so toxic and so bad and my little, sweet,

0:11:28.480 --> 0:11:30.960
<v Speaker 2>innocent Cruise, Like having to be around that, it like

0:11:31.000 --> 0:11:33.360
<v Speaker 2>broke my heart. So my Mama bear came out and

0:11:33.400 --> 0:11:36.520
<v Speaker 2>I was like, nope, like it just completely opened my eyes.

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<v Speaker 1>Cruisy is nonverbal. Hm, I feel like that. And I'm

0:11:44.160 --> 0:11:47.480
<v Speaker 1>not the mother obviously of a child who's nonverbal. But

0:11:48.280 --> 0:11:51.360
<v Speaker 1>he can't tell you what he's feeling, so he kind of,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sure, just internalizes what's going on around him.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, Like just because he's nonverbal doesn't mean he's not

0:11:58.160 --> 0:12:00.560
<v Speaker 2>taking things in and feeling all the same. And I

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<v Speaker 2>just could not allow that to happen, Like I have

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<v Speaker 2>to be his voice and like protect him at all costs.

0:12:05.640 --> 0:12:09.080
<v Speaker 2>And that like really really was like that's with one

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<v Speaker 2>hundred percent in my breaking point because he doesn't care

0:12:11.640 --> 0:12:14.559
<v Speaker 2>to yell at me in front of anybody. And you

0:12:14.640 --> 0:12:16.560
<v Speaker 2>knew that, like it didn't matter. We talked about on

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<v Speaker 2>the after show, like it didn't matter who was around,

0:12:20.360 --> 0:12:22.400
<v Speaker 2>if it was my mom, if it was my dad,

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<v Speaker 2>if it was you guys. You know, I didn't matter.

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<v Speaker 1>Not So he didn't care what he said to you,

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<v Speaker 1>how he acted. He was not And that's what I

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<v Speaker 1>always found so interesting is I'm not an expert when

0:12:35.000 --> 0:12:40.480
<v Speaker 1>it comes to the broad the broadness of narcissism. But

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, this is so wild because normally in

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<v Speaker 1>front of people they want to put on a show,

0:12:47.120 --> 0:12:50.199
<v Speaker 1>and then behind closed doors is when all hell breaks loose.

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<v Speaker 1>But he really only cared about the audience watching him

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<v Speaker 1>on camera.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, and like social media and stuff, like he didn't

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<v Speaker 2>care to fight with me. Like if we were having

0:12:59.760 --> 0:13:01.880
<v Speaker 2>a pool party or something at the house, you didn't

0:13:01.920 --> 0:13:02.880
<v Speaker 2>care then, But.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, it's a camera there, it would be much different. Yeah.

0:13:05.200 --> 0:13:07.360
<v Speaker 2>But I mean, look how he traded me with cameras there.

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<v Speaker 1>That's true. Yeah, So that's why I'm so confused.

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<v Speaker 2>That's just like a lot of people need to realize,

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<v Speaker 2>like if that was on camera, think about what I

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<v Speaker 2>dealt with all the time, you know, And I think

0:13:16.679 --> 0:13:20.600
<v Speaker 2>a lot of people don't realize that. And you know,

0:13:20.840 --> 0:13:23.520
<v Speaker 2>it's it does something to your brain. There's like a

0:13:23.600 --> 0:13:27.320
<v Speaker 2>chemical addiction or something that I like, you have to

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<v Speaker 2>break before you can get away. It's crazy.

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<v Speaker 1>You know. It's funny that you say that because I

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<v Speaker 1>was having a conversation with a mom friend of mine

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<v Speaker 1>the other day and she we were talking about who

0:13:38.920 --> 0:13:41.080
<v Speaker 1>I you know, what my type is, who I'd be

0:13:41.120 --> 0:13:45.080
<v Speaker 1>interested in dating, and I was like, it's just a

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<v Speaker 1>wild thing that I am. So I think of all

0:13:48.840 --> 0:13:51.360
<v Speaker 1>the dudes who have come into my life since my ex,

0:13:52.200 --> 0:13:58.480
<v Speaker 1>and none of them are productive relationships. I am so

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<v Speaker 1>comfortable in combative situations and having to be in fight

0:14:03.600 --> 0:14:06.160
<v Speaker 1>mode that I wouldn't even know what to do if

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<v Speaker 1>a healthy man walked into my life and it was easy.

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<v Speaker 2>I know. I'm like, would I be the red flag now?

0:14:10.920 --> 0:14:14.839
<v Speaker 2>I like, yes, Like what in the world, like, just

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<v Speaker 2>because I've been through so much and I've got like

0:14:16.559 --> 0:14:18.640
<v Speaker 2>baggage now, I feel like Jackson will like try to

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<v Speaker 2>scare every guy a date away.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, you know what, there are things that you're you're

0:14:23.040 --> 0:14:25.520
<v Speaker 1>gonna have to work through. You're gonna you'll get into

0:14:25.560 --> 0:14:28.160
<v Speaker 1>a relationship, I'm sure, and there's gonna be things that

0:14:28.240 --> 0:14:30.880
<v Speaker 1>happen that have nothing to do with that relationship, but

0:14:30.960 --> 0:14:32.920
<v Speaker 1>they trigger something in you that takes you to a

0:14:32.960 --> 0:14:36.760
<v Speaker 1>place where you can't really explain it on why you're

0:14:36.760 --> 0:14:39.320
<v Speaker 1>feeling that way. Yep, But I think that same thing.

0:14:39.360 --> 0:14:42.120
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, I feel like I have I've done so

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<v Speaker 1>much healing and there's so much more to do that

0:14:44.840 --> 0:14:46.720
<v Speaker 1>Am I the red flag? Like, if a great guy

0:14:46.800 --> 0:14:50.200
<v Speaker 1>comes into my atmosphere, am I gonna push him away?

0:14:50.200 --> 0:14:51.800
<v Speaker 1>Because I'm a crazy bitch.

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<v Speaker 2>Now, you know, I just feel like we have to

0:14:55.520 --> 0:14:57.760
<v Speaker 2>protect ourselves a lot more. Now, we got a lot

0:14:57.800 --> 0:15:00.560
<v Speaker 2>more to protect with our kids and with you know,

0:15:00.840 --> 0:15:03.720
<v Speaker 2>everything that we have going on. I've got things I

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<v Speaker 2>have to protect.

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<v Speaker 1>So it's kind of a cool feeling. Yeah, when you

0:15:07.920 --> 0:15:10.000
<v Speaker 1>think about where you come from, Like, did you ever

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<v Speaker 1>in a million years think that you would be because

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<v Speaker 1>you felt like most of the cast we talked about

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<v Speaker 1>this on your podcast, every person that was on vander

0:15:18.640 --> 0:15:21.320
<v Speaker 1>Pump Rules, we all wanted to be in the industry

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<v Speaker 1>in some capacity, and we just found ourselves on reality TV,

0:15:24.320 --> 0:15:26.520
<v Speaker 1>which it was like, fuck it, it's a camera whatever.

0:15:27.400 --> 0:15:30.600
<v Speaker 1>You literally were like, I'm at a guy and I

0:15:30.720 --> 0:15:32.800
<v Speaker 1>just love him, and he happens to be on this show.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, I'll look at you.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's wild. It's wild. That's something I hate whenever

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<v Speaker 2>people try to act like I looked for Jackson, I

0:15:42.360 --> 0:15:44.560
<v Speaker 2>found him out and blah blah blah blah. Absolutely not

0:15:44.960 --> 0:15:47.040
<v Speaker 2>Me and Kara ride a bar. They happened to come

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<v Speaker 2>to the same bar. I had never even watched vander

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<v Speaker 2>Pump rules. Everybody knows this that like actually knows me right,

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<v Speaker 2>There was nobody that would ever think I was lying

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<v Speaker 2>about that.

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<v Speaker 1>You just don't seem to me like someone that would

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<v Speaker 1>camp out on the couch and watch Van.

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<v Speaker 2>It just it wasn't my face. But you know, I've

0:16:01.720 --> 0:16:04.080
<v Speaker 2>talked about this story so many times. Kara saw Katie

0:16:04.120 --> 0:16:07.000
<v Speaker 2>wanted to take a photo with Katie. Katie started talking

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<v Speaker 2>to us because we both have like thick country accents.

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<v Speaker 2>We went to the bar to take a shot with

0:16:11.280 --> 0:16:13.480
<v Speaker 2>Katie and Schwartz. That's whenever Jack's walked up to me

0:16:13.760 --> 0:16:15.400
<v Speaker 2>and like got my number and stuff that night and

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<v Speaker 2>then loved balled me from the very get go. Oh,

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<v Speaker 2>like literally before I was even before I even left Vegas,

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<v Speaker 2>was like saying I needed to move to La and

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<v Speaker 2>this and that, and it just like happened so fast

0:16:26.200 --> 0:16:28.120
<v Speaker 2>and like too much. Like two months later I was

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<v Speaker 2>moving to.

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<v Speaker 1>La I know, like, and you drove, yeah, my little

0:16:33.320 --> 0:16:39.520
<v Speaker 1>Altima coop Alie the Ultima did it break down on

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<v Speaker 1>the way or something.

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<v Speaker 2>It started like the window wouldn't roll it for a second,

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<v Speaker 2>and then you know I drove to Sheena's house straight

0:16:46.160 --> 0:16:48.680
<v Speaker 2>to Sheena's house on the fourth of July, her parents' house.

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<v Speaker 2>So I was it was very hot during the summer.

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<v Speaker 2>So you're going through like Texas, New Mexico like a zoning,

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<v Speaker 2>like all these like hot, hot, hot states, and my

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<v Speaker 2>window was stuck down on one side, so the air

0:17:01.680 --> 0:17:04.720
<v Speaker 2>conditioning would not even like work enough to cool off

0:17:04.760 --> 0:17:07.520
<v Speaker 2>the car. My car started doing something weird where it

0:17:07.520 --> 0:17:11.240
<v Speaker 2>wouldn't go over sixty miles per hour, and I was like,

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<v Speaker 2>what the heck is happening. So they had to stop

0:17:13.680 --> 0:17:16.280
<v Speaker 2>in this like shady little town and try to get

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<v Speaker 2>my car fixed. So I had to stay in a

0:17:17.600 --> 0:17:21.199
<v Speaker 2>hotel overnight there while they looked at my car, and

0:17:21.200 --> 0:17:23.000
<v Speaker 2>then I made it the rest of the way. I

0:17:23.040 --> 0:17:25.359
<v Speaker 2>was by myself too. My dad was flipping out.

0:17:26.080 --> 0:17:27.800
<v Speaker 1>I don't think I would have allowed I would never

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<v Speaker 1>allow Ocean to drive across country. I just like to

0:17:30.400 --> 0:17:34.800
<v Speaker 1>be with a boy. You're tripping. Yeah. Also, when people

0:17:34.880 --> 0:17:38.120
<v Speaker 1>say that you were like out here seeking Jack's out

0:17:38.119 --> 0:17:40.240
<v Speaker 1>and like, let me tell you something, No, not one

0:17:40.280 --> 0:17:42.320
<v Speaker 1>person on the planet would watch fander Pumptles and be

0:17:42.320 --> 0:17:44.160
<v Speaker 1>like that's the winner.

0:17:46.119 --> 0:17:48.720
<v Speaker 2>After the fat Cara because she had obviously watched the show.

0:17:48.760 --> 0:17:51.320
<v Speaker 2>She was like, he's the bad boy. He's the bad boy.

0:17:51.359 --> 0:17:54.159
<v Speaker 2>But I've always been attracted to bad boys. I've always

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<v Speaker 2>been that girl who wants to change a man, making better.

0:17:56.800 --> 0:17:59.480
<v Speaker 2>I'm like such a caretaker and like a nurturer, like

0:17:59.520 --> 0:18:02.280
<v Speaker 2>I've like many of my boyfriends I took care of.

0:18:02.560 --> 0:18:04.080
<v Speaker 2>Even whenever I was in high school and didn't have

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<v Speaker 2>a job, I would like find a way to like

0:18:06.280 --> 0:18:09.040
<v Speaker 2>pay for my boyfriend's haircuts or something, you know, Like

0:18:09.440 --> 0:18:12.320
<v Speaker 2>that was just like who I was, you know. And

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<v Speaker 2>whenever I moved to La, like I would take loans

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<v Speaker 2>out because we lived in Koreatown, so I would get

0:18:19.000 --> 0:18:21.480
<v Speaker 2>like parking tickets all the time. And instead of asking

0:18:21.560 --> 0:18:23.520
<v Speaker 2>Jacks for money, I would like take a loan out

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<v Speaker 2>and he wouldn't even know about it, and then I

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<v Speaker 2>would like pay the loan off because I was working

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<v Speaker 2>at Hooters and Sir and all this stuff, and I

0:18:29.320 --> 0:18:34.840
<v Speaker 2>was catering, you know, all different events and stuff. And yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>but people always thought like, oh, she took advantage him

0:18:37.560 --> 0:18:40.760
<v Speaker 2>for his money. I was like, absolutely not. From day one,

0:18:40.840 --> 0:18:43.040
<v Speaker 2>I was even buying my own flights, Like he would

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<v Speaker 2>buy one. I would buy one. He would buy one

0:18:45.160 --> 0:18:47.679
<v Speaker 2>so it was never like that. Then I was, you know,

0:18:47.720 --> 0:18:50.639
<v Speaker 2>taking loans out or working a bunch and doing different jobs,

0:18:50.640 --> 0:18:52.439
<v Speaker 2>like I was working like three jobs at one time

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<v Speaker 2>once while I was here. And then we always had

0:18:55.600 --> 0:18:57.879
<v Speaker 2>separate accounts, so it was always like, did you money

0:18:57.920 --> 0:18:58.359
<v Speaker 2>his money?

0:18:58.400 --> 0:19:00.000
<v Speaker 1>Did you have separate accounts when you got me?

0:19:00.520 --> 0:19:00.840
<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

0:19:00.840 --> 0:19:01.800
<v Speaker 1>Did as good?

0:19:01.880 --> 0:19:04.880
<v Speaker 2>I never ever ever can pay God, yeah never.

0:19:05.640 --> 0:19:07.800
<v Speaker 1>He would have emptied that. Yeah, don't you think.

0:19:07.920 --> 0:19:08.920
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, for sure.

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<v Speaker 1>So once Cruisy, by the way, the message that you

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<v Speaker 1>sent after Cruise's diagnosis to your family and then you

0:19:18.080 --> 0:19:21.359
<v Speaker 1>sent it to me, and yeah, what was your headspace

0:19:21.400 --> 0:19:22.199
<v Speaker 1>when they told you?

0:19:23.840 --> 0:19:26.480
<v Speaker 2>I was expecting it, like I thought we were going

0:19:26.520 --> 0:19:28.719
<v Speaker 2>to get the diagnosis. But then like whenever you get it,

0:19:28.720 --> 0:19:31.679
<v Speaker 2>it just makes things a lot more real. It didn't

0:19:31.680 --> 0:19:35.960
<v Speaker 2>like really change anything for me, because I mean, of

0:19:35.960 --> 0:19:38.560
<v Speaker 2>course it changes things, but like whenever you're expecting that

0:19:38.680 --> 0:19:42.000
<v Speaker 2>you're going to get that anyway, it's like it's almost

0:19:42.040 --> 0:19:44.879
<v Speaker 2>a relief because you know what's going on, and you

0:19:44.960 --> 0:19:47.679
<v Speaker 2>know like Okay, now I have a plan and I

0:19:47.680 --> 0:19:49.320
<v Speaker 2>have to start doing this, and I have to do

0:19:49.359 --> 0:19:51.160
<v Speaker 2>this and blah blah blah, and like I could start

0:19:51.160 --> 0:19:53.880
<v Speaker 2>advocating and I can start, you know, doing different things

0:19:53.920 --> 0:19:56.480
<v Speaker 2>to help him that maybe I wasn't sure where I

0:19:56.520 --> 0:19:57.479
<v Speaker 2>needed to go before.

0:19:57.680 --> 0:20:00.720
<v Speaker 1>If that makes sense, It makes total sense you saying,

0:20:01.040 --> 0:20:04.400
<v Speaker 1>you know, with you being a hustler from the very beginning,

0:20:04.640 --> 0:20:08.520
<v Speaker 1>and you know you would split things with Jacks, I

0:20:08.560 --> 0:20:10.919
<v Speaker 1>can't help but think that all of those things that

0:20:11.000 --> 0:20:14.640
<v Speaker 1>you went through it was kind of teeing you up

0:20:14.840 --> 0:20:18.280
<v Speaker 1>to be in the position that you're in now, where yeah,

0:20:18.359 --> 0:20:21.439
<v Speaker 1>you really are the only person that's taking care of

0:20:21.520 --> 0:20:27.240
<v Speaker 1>Cruisy on every level emotionally, financially, on top of being

0:20:27.440 --> 0:20:31.560
<v Speaker 1>a voice. I mean, how do you educate yourself? Do

0:20:31.600 --> 0:20:35.880
<v Speaker 1>you speak with his therapist and they're telling you are

0:20:35.920 --> 0:20:37.240
<v Speaker 1>you researching on your own?

0:20:37.400 --> 0:20:39.760
<v Speaker 2>I'm definitely researching on my own. I follow like every

0:20:39.760 --> 0:20:42.560
<v Speaker 2>single autism awareness page that you can on social different

0:20:42.640 --> 0:20:46.040
<v Speaker 2>social media's and that's very helpful for me. I've had

0:20:46.080 --> 0:20:47.960
<v Speaker 2>a lot of moms reach out to me and like

0:20:48.000 --> 0:20:50.160
<v Speaker 2>I communicate with them, and I'm going to like really

0:20:50.200 --> 0:20:52.840
<v Speaker 2>try to get involved with different charities and stuff this year.

0:20:53.160 --> 0:20:55.000
<v Speaker 2>Like that's gonna be like one of my main focuses.

0:20:56.240 --> 0:20:58.760
<v Speaker 2>But yeah, I'm always learning. But also, like he goes

0:20:58.840 --> 0:21:02.320
<v Speaker 2>to speech there and OT twice a week every week,

0:21:02.600 --> 0:21:05.280
<v Speaker 2>so I go, like, he's there right now. So I'm

0:21:05.280 --> 0:21:07.239
<v Speaker 2>not there, but I make sure he's there no matter what,

0:21:07.280 --> 0:21:10.320
<v Speaker 2>like he does not miss OT and speech. But normally

0:21:10.400 --> 0:21:12.360
<v Speaker 2>I go and I sit in there with the therapist

0:21:12.440 --> 0:21:14.840
<v Speaker 2>so I'm learning everything that they're doing and so that

0:21:14.880 --> 0:21:17.800
<v Speaker 2>I could take it home and practice the same things

0:21:17.800 --> 0:21:20.280
<v Speaker 2>that they're practicing with him while he's there. And he

0:21:20.359 --> 0:21:23.240
<v Speaker 2>is thriving, like he is doing so well.

0:21:23.440 --> 0:21:27.800
<v Speaker 1>I don't even believe like the change since he's been

0:21:27.840 --> 0:21:31.119
<v Speaker 1>doing all of this work. Yes, I mean, he's such

0:21:31.119 --> 0:21:35.600
<v Speaker 1>a beautiful and happy little boy. I mean, we all

0:21:35.640 --> 0:21:38.760
<v Speaker 1>know how Jackson is, but you guys made a very

0:21:39.480 --> 0:21:41.000
<v Speaker 1>beautiful yeah Son.

0:21:41.080 --> 0:21:43.000
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, thank you. Always say that's the best thing that

0:21:43.480 --> 0:21:47.600
<v Speaker 2>Jax will ever do. Me too, though, you know, he's

0:21:47.680 --> 0:21:51.439
<v Speaker 2>like so amazing and he's so sweet and he's so good,

0:21:51.760 --> 0:21:57.720
<v Speaker 2>Like it's he's just he's loving and it's weird because yeah,

0:21:57.760 --> 0:22:00.560
<v Speaker 2>he's nonverbal, but like I know everything he needs, like

0:22:00.600 --> 0:22:01.560
<v Speaker 2>we're like connected.

0:22:01.760 --> 0:22:02.560
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, you're his mom.

0:22:02.680 --> 0:22:05.080
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, and it's just like, oh my gosh, I just

0:22:05.080 --> 0:22:07.199
<v Speaker 2>love him so much. But he's doing so well. His

0:22:07.280 --> 0:22:08.880
<v Speaker 2>eye contact and everything like that.

0:22:08.840 --> 0:22:12.119
<v Speaker 1>Is just that's what's so much better. Yeah, he makes

0:22:12.200 --> 0:22:16.359
<v Speaker 1>complete eye contacts and to see like he and Ocean

0:22:16.440 --> 0:22:19.480
<v Speaker 1>were fully playing on the day. Yeah, yeah, which I

0:22:19.480 --> 0:22:26.720
<v Speaker 1>thought was adorable. How will we explain to our kids,

0:22:26.760 --> 0:22:31.640
<v Speaker 1>because you know, the other day, Cruisy was it's called stemming, right, yeah, yeah,

0:22:31.680 --> 0:22:33.960
<v Speaker 1>and Ocean came up to you and she goes, oh,

0:22:34.000 --> 0:22:35.920
<v Speaker 1>my gosh, he's acting so crazy.

0:22:36.160 --> 0:22:38.119
<v Speaker 2>Well she was. She said, why isn't he talking?

0:22:38.560 --> 0:22:41.040
<v Speaker 1>Oh, she said, she said that at Mother's Day? Yeah, yeah, yeah.

0:22:41.080 --> 0:22:43.720
<v Speaker 2>And Mother's Day she goes, she goes, why is it

0:22:43.880 --> 0:22:47.560
<v Speaker 2>Cruisy talking? And I said, I said he will, he'll

0:22:47.600 --> 0:22:49.720
<v Speaker 2>talk eventually. I said, his brain just works a little

0:22:49.720 --> 0:22:52.359
<v Speaker 2>different than yours, but he will start talking eventually. And

0:22:52.400 --> 0:22:54.280
<v Speaker 2>she goes, okay and gave him like a big hug.

0:22:54.359 --> 0:22:54.479
<v Speaker 1>Oh.

0:22:54.560 --> 0:22:55.640
<v Speaker 2>So she was really.

0:22:55.440 --> 0:22:59.440
<v Speaker 1>Sweet because I wonder how we talk to our kids

0:23:00.080 --> 0:23:04.040
<v Speaker 1>and they have a child who's autistic in their class. Yeah,

0:23:04.119 --> 0:23:06.920
<v Speaker 1>it's hard to break down to a four year.

0:23:06.840 --> 0:23:09.840
<v Speaker 2>Old, it is. So there are a lot of different

0:23:09.840 --> 0:23:12.000
<v Speaker 2>things I've seen on social media, and I should, honestly

0:23:12.040 --> 0:23:14.960
<v Speaker 2>just send it to the group chat for our school

0:23:15.160 --> 0:23:16.960
<v Speaker 2>so that like other parents and some of the parents

0:23:16.960 --> 0:23:19.120
<v Speaker 2>have reached out to me asking how they should talk

0:23:19.160 --> 0:23:21.600
<v Speaker 2>to their kids about, you know, crewise and stuff, and

0:23:21.640 --> 0:23:25.440
<v Speaker 2>I appreciate that more than they'll ever know. But there's

0:23:25.480 --> 0:23:27.360
<v Speaker 2>like so many different ways that you can like talk

0:23:27.359 --> 0:23:30.200
<v Speaker 2>about it. And there's also like Sesame Street is starting

0:23:30.240 --> 0:23:33.119
<v Speaker 2>to have characters with autism, Oh really and yeah, so

0:23:33.160 --> 0:23:35.680
<v Speaker 2>that you can like let them watch like that episode,

0:23:35.720 --> 0:23:38.800
<v Speaker 2>like I think the character's name is Julia, and it

0:23:38.920 --> 0:23:42.240
<v Speaker 2>like really talks about how they can play together different

0:23:42.240 --> 0:23:45.840
<v Speaker 2>things like that. So inclusion matters so much. And they're

0:23:45.880 --> 0:23:48.920
<v Speaker 2>starting to like include all these characters that have autism,

0:23:49.280 --> 0:23:52.360
<v Speaker 2>a nonverbal and all these different things. And it's amazing

0:23:52.440 --> 0:23:54.520
<v Speaker 2>because then it shows other people how they can play

0:23:54.520 --> 0:23:57.080
<v Speaker 2>with them, like how sometimes they might need their space,

0:23:57.240 --> 0:23:59.879
<v Speaker 2>how you know, you have to like kind of follow

0:24:00.040 --> 0:24:02.720
<v Speaker 2>their lead a little bit. Like I think the Ocean

0:24:02.760 --> 0:24:05.439
<v Speaker 2>is really good about not trying to force him to

0:24:05.600 --> 0:24:07.719
<v Speaker 2>play or do something that like he doesn't want to do.

0:24:07.800 --> 0:24:11.040
<v Speaker 2>She like follows his lead, and you know, she doesn't

0:24:11.040 --> 0:24:12.960
<v Speaker 2>always have to do that, but she's like really good

0:24:13.040 --> 0:24:14.479
<v Speaker 2>at doing that, you know.

0:24:14.760 --> 0:24:21.199
<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, she's.

0:24:18.320 --> 0:24:22.000
<v Speaker 2>So sweet with him, and so is Summer. You know.

0:24:22.119 --> 0:24:24.880
<v Speaker 2>I heard one of the parents that I follow on

0:24:24.920 --> 0:24:27.640
<v Speaker 2>social media. She was, you know, talking to a class

0:24:28.280 --> 0:24:30.399
<v Speaker 2>room and she was like talking about autism, and she

0:24:30.560 --> 0:24:33.920
<v Speaker 2>was like, she said something about like how I wish

0:24:33.960 --> 0:24:35.880
<v Speaker 2>I could quote it directly, but I'll have to send

0:24:35.920 --> 0:24:38.320
<v Speaker 2>you the link after this. But she was talking about how,

0:24:38.520 --> 0:24:42.000
<v Speaker 2>like you know, kids with autism, they just their brains

0:24:42.040 --> 0:24:44.560
<v Speaker 2>just work a little bit differently. They're born that way,

0:24:44.680 --> 0:24:46.919
<v Speaker 2>just like you were born with brown eyes and you

0:24:46.960 --> 0:24:49.560
<v Speaker 2>were born with blue eyes, Like that's just how they

0:24:49.600 --> 0:24:52.480
<v Speaker 2>were born. And she was like explaining it like that,

0:24:52.920 --> 0:24:55.840
<v Speaker 2>and it was it was just very inspiring. She said

0:24:55.880 --> 0:24:57.920
<v Speaker 2>other things as well. So I'll make sure I send

0:24:57.920 --> 0:24:58.480
<v Speaker 2>that link out.

0:24:59.000 --> 0:25:01.640
<v Speaker 1>I would love to see that because there's so much

0:25:01.680 --> 0:25:05.480
<v Speaker 1>that goes on in the world now where I don't

0:25:06.000 --> 0:25:09.119
<v Speaker 1>really know how to talk to Ocean about it. Like

0:25:09.600 --> 0:25:13.800
<v Speaker 1>I had Gigi Gorgeous on the podcast a few months ago,

0:25:14.560 --> 0:25:18.040
<v Speaker 1>and it was brought up because Jared came over and

0:25:18.080 --> 0:25:21.240
<v Speaker 1>he was in full glam before the Paris HILLTI and

0:25:21.280 --> 0:25:23.879
<v Speaker 1>you know, Ocean had never seen Jared with makeup on.

0:25:24.160 --> 0:25:27.480
<v Speaker 1>So she came up and was like, Mommy, Jared's here

0:25:27.480 --> 0:25:29.960
<v Speaker 1>and he has a lot of makeup on his face.

0:25:30.080 --> 0:25:34.000
<v Speaker 1>I'm scared, and I was like, that's so wild because

0:25:34.040 --> 0:25:37.680
<v Speaker 1>I've never said anything like this is her genuine feeling,

0:25:37.880 --> 0:25:40.239
<v Speaker 1>So how do I now take this and make it

0:25:40.280 --> 0:25:44.560
<v Speaker 1>a teachable moment? And the other day she had two

0:25:44.600 --> 0:25:48.040
<v Speaker 1>barbies and it was a Cinderella barbie and Teana. She goes,

0:25:48.880 --> 0:25:52.160
<v Speaker 1>this one's black and this one's white and they kiss

0:25:52.359 --> 0:25:57.760
<v Speaker 1>because girls can kiss too. Yes, that's exactly right. Gigi

0:25:58.240 --> 0:26:01.320
<v Speaker 1>was saying, like they just say what they're what they're seeing.

0:26:01.400 --> 0:26:02.080
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, exactly.

0:26:02.080 --> 0:26:07.199
<v Speaker 1>And it is something where when you know Cruisey is

0:26:07.240 --> 0:26:10.400
<v Speaker 1>doing his thing, how do I teach Ocean to give

0:26:10.480 --> 0:26:13.320
<v Speaker 1>him his space? Because she's very much about the why

0:26:13.359 --> 0:26:16.520
<v Speaker 1>of things. She wants to know why is he wearing makeup?

0:26:16.560 --> 0:26:18.840
<v Speaker 1>Why can he wear a dress? And it's it's not

0:26:18.880 --> 0:26:21.840
<v Speaker 1>coming from an ill place, their church, their babies.

0:26:22.280 --> 0:26:25.040
<v Speaker 2>I think hate is taught. So like, you know, if

0:26:25.080 --> 0:26:26.960
<v Speaker 2>you're you're doing a great job with trying to like

0:26:27.440 --> 0:26:30.800
<v Speaker 2>open her eyes to be inclusive with everybody, and that's

0:26:30.840 --> 0:26:32.119
<v Speaker 2>what parents should be doing.

0:26:32.320 --> 0:26:37.000
<v Speaker 1>It's terrifying, Brittany, Yeah, it is terrifying to be responsible

0:26:37.720 --> 0:26:42.640
<v Speaker 1>for children where you're like, oh, I'm responsible for making

0:26:42.720 --> 0:26:45.439
<v Speaker 1>you a nice human being. To go out into the

0:26:45.480 --> 0:26:49.200
<v Speaker 1>world and be productive and then I like looking in

0:26:49.200 --> 0:26:53.680
<v Speaker 1>there sometimes or I'll watch band. I'm not supposed to

0:26:53.760 --> 0:26:55.840
<v Speaker 1>be doing this. What am I doing?

0:26:55.960 --> 0:26:57.120
<v Speaker 2>You're doing a great job.

0:26:57.240 --> 0:27:02.600
<v Speaker 1>Made me a parent? Is is Jack's hands on with

0:27:02.920 --> 0:27:05.159
<v Speaker 1>like does he know what to do when Cruisey is

0:27:05.160 --> 0:27:05.840
<v Speaker 1>at his house?

0:27:06.400 --> 0:27:10.560
<v Speaker 2>Yes? And no, Like I very much take the reins whenever,

0:27:10.720 --> 0:27:13.240
<v Speaker 2>even whenever he's over there, like all right, tell him

0:27:13.240 --> 0:27:15.199
<v Speaker 2>what to pack and his lunch ball because his backpack.

0:27:15.240 --> 0:27:17.640
<v Speaker 2>I pack everything the night before and send it with him.

0:27:17.800 --> 0:27:20.080
<v Speaker 2>He doesn't stay there very often. He's probably stayed there

0:27:20.080 --> 0:27:23.520
<v Speaker 2>like maybe six times, yes, or seven times overall, and

0:27:23.560 --> 0:27:25.679
<v Speaker 2>that's been for a very long time, so you know,

0:27:25.720 --> 0:27:29.080
<v Speaker 2>he's always with me. But Jax does a good job

0:27:29.119 --> 0:27:31.359
<v Speaker 2>with like wanting to see him and visit him and

0:27:31.400 --> 0:27:33.320
<v Speaker 2>stuff like that. And if I need to go do something,

0:27:33.520 --> 0:27:35.560
<v Speaker 2>I can normally count on him to like watch him

0:27:35.640 --> 0:27:36.119
<v Speaker 2>and stuff.

0:27:36.200 --> 0:27:36.720
<v Speaker 1>That's great.

0:27:36.880 --> 0:27:40.960
<v Speaker 2>But when it comes like groceries or anything, like I'm

0:27:41.080 --> 0:27:43.280
<v Speaker 2>sending lists and you know, making sure that he has

0:27:43.320 --> 0:27:45.040
<v Speaker 2>everything that he possibly needs.

0:27:45.480 --> 0:27:49.200
<v Speaker 1>Sometimes I wonder is this just like a man thing?

0:27:50.240 --> 0:27:52.679
<v Speaker 1>Because I still get messages from my ex and it's like,

0:27:52.680 --> 0:27:55.639
<v Speaker 1>what does she like to eat what is she? Yeah,

0:27:55.080 --> 0:27:59.000
<v Speaker 1>and because we're not fond of our baby days, it's.

0:27:58.840 --> 0:28:02.679
<v Speaker 2>Like what a fucking d know? But I'm like, oh,

0:28:02.920 --> 0:28:04.640
<v Speaker 2>how can you not know? But I also took care

0:28:04.640 --> 0:28:06.200
<v Speaker 2>of everything while we were together.

0:28:06.080 --> 0:28:10.960
<v Speaker 1>Right, so then he like is lost anyways? Yeah, like

0:28:11.000 --> 0:28:12.440
<v Speaker 1>he knows how to cut the grass.

0:28:13.040 --> 0:28:20.760
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, but now I have turf, so so I don't

0:28:20.760 --> 0:28:21.359
<v Speaker 2>really need it.

0:28:21.480 --> 0:28:25.200
<v Speaker 1>No one needs to be cutting the grass anymore, no anybody.

0:28:25.359 --> 0:28:26.480
<v Speaker 2>I hired a landscaper.

0:28:26.720 --> 0:28:27.320
<v Speaker 1>That's great.

0:28:27.480 --> 0:28:31.160
<v Speaker 2>So my my flowers are looking better than ever. Honestly

0:28:31.960 --> 0:28:34.400
<v Speaker 2>changed all the landscaping out and it's like beautiful, they're

0:28:34.400 --> 0:28:35.159
<v Speaker 2>blooming right now.

0:28:35.240 --> 0:28:37.639
<v Speaker 1>Well, now it's like your safe space. Yeah, did you

0:28:37.720 --> 0:28:38.680
<v Speaker 1>sage it yet?

0:28:39.280 --> 0:28:43.520
<v Speaker 2>Uh? Well, Kristen has a couple of times. Yeah, you know,

0:28:44.320 --> 0:28:46.440
<v Speaker 2>I don't really know much about that stuff.

0:28:46.640 --> 0:28:49.920
<v Speaker 1>She's very into it. Yeah, so we're running along again.

0:28:50.160 --> 0:28:52.720
<v Speaker 2>Yes, thank god, that's my life easier.

0:28:53.640 --> 0:28:57.160
<v Speaker 1>One person to check off your list. You I got

0:28:57.280 --> 0:28:57.840
<v Speaker 1>many more.

0:28:57.720 --> 0:29:00.400
<v Speaker 2>To go, but at least, yeah, you guys are checked off.

0:29:01.160 --> 0:29:03.239
<v Speaker 1>Do you feel like you're ready to date or are

0:29:03.240 --> 0:29:05.440
<v Speaker 1>you just ready to like fuck.

0:29:10.120 --> 0:29:14.680
<v Speaker 2>Both? Sometimes? You know, it's been over a year that

0:29:14.760 --> 0:29:17.880
<v Speaker 2>i've been separated and might divorce will be final any

0:29:18.000 --> 0:29:22.080
<v Speaker 2>day hopefully really so yeah, like fingers crossed, I don't

0:29:22.160 --> 0:29:24.000
<v Speaker 2>really like being single.

0:29:25.520 --> 0:29:26.040
<v Speaker 1>Partnership.

0:29:26.200 --> 0:29:29.240
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I think I get like lonely, But then again,

0:29:29.280 --> 0:29:30.520
<v Speaker 2>I do have a lot of things I need to

0:29:30.560 --> 0:29:33.240
<v Speaker 2>work on still and I need to heal from things.

0:29:33.720 --> 0:29:36.880
<v Speaker 2>But again, people are watching The Valley right now, which

0:29:36.920 --> 0:29:39.480
<v Speaker 2>was last summer. I've grown even more of course since

0:29:39.520 --> 0:29:43.200
<v Speaker 2>that that aired, you know, a lot stronger within myself.

0:29:43.840 --> 0:29:46.840
<v Speaker 2>But I'm having fun. I have a crush, nothing serious,

0:29:47.000 --> 0:29:49.280
<v Speaker 2>but yeah, we'll see where it goes.

0:29:50.040 --> 0:29:52.160
<v Speaker 1>I was thinking about this. I think we talked about

0:29:52.160 --> 0:29:56.680
<v Speaker 1>this on the after show. It has been two years,

0:29:57.040 --> 0:30:01.560
<v Speaker 1>maybe even more than that, that I've been intimate with

0:30:02.280 --> 0:30:02.720
<v Speaker 1>a man.

0:30:02.760 --> 0:30:04.400
<v Speaker 2>I cannot believe that, can you believe?

0:30:04.400 --> 0:30:04.760
<v Speaker 1>Though?

0:30:05.040 --> 0:30:05.880
<v Speaker 2>That's crazy?

0:30:06.080 --> 0:30:10.600
<v Speaker 1>The last time I bumped peeps was I think this

0:30:10.640 --> 0:30:12.680
<v Speaker 1>is how I gauge it. It was the weekend before

0:30:13.400 --> 0:30:18.080
<v Speaker 1>Ocean's birthday party. Wow, so was March of twenty twenty three.

0:30:18.280 --> 0:30:18.720
<v Speaker 2>Wow?

0:30:19.000 --> 0:30:21.880
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, is that not the craziest shit ever?

0:30:22.160 --> 0:30:25.360
<v Speaker 2>That's been a minute, Like, what the fuck?

0:30:25.920 --> 0:30:30.880
<v Speaker 1>And then I got pregnant the following November, and I'm like,

0:30:31.640 --> 0:30:34.240
<v Speaker 1>I worry that I'm going to be so comfortable with

0:30:34.280 --> 0:30:37.720
<v Speaker 1>being single and in my routine that I will not

0:30:37.800 --> 0:30:39.800
<v Speaker 1>be able to find anybody because I'm like, well this

0:30:39.880 --> 0:30:40.840
<v Speaker 1>is kind of lit.

0:30:41.200 --> 0:30:43.320
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, but I think you'll find somebody. I think it'll

0:30:43.320 --> 0:30:45.600
<v Speaker 2>happen whenever it's meant to happen, just with me, Like

0:30:45.640 --> 0:30:47.960
<v Speaker 2>I'm not in a rush, yeah, by any mains, but

0:30:48.080 --> 0:30:51.080
<v Speaker 2>like I do like being with somebody. You know, Yeah,

0:30:51.120 --> 0:30:54.160
<v Speaker 2>it's fun, but it doesn't it's not what I'm revolving

0:30:54.200 --> 0:30:56.600
<v Speaker 2>my life around. Like I feel like I'm a bad

0:30:56.640 --> 0:30:59.320
<v Speaker 2>bitch right now. I'm taking care of everything. Isn't a

0:30:59.360 --> 0:31:02.800
<v Speaker 2>house myself? Like it's it's great.

0:31:03.640 --> 0:31:07.560
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, And like you said, like a man anything, No,

0:31:07.640 --> 0:31:09.400
<v Speaker 1>but that's a good place to be in where like

0:31:09.480 --> 0:31:11.960
<v Speaker 1>the person who comes into your life is really going

0:31:12.000 --> 0:31:15.160
<v Speaker 1>to have to add because you're not looking for anything.

0:31:15.200 --> 0:31:18.880
<v Speaker 1>You don't need a man financially exactly, emotionally, you know,

0:31:19.120 --> 0:31:21.760
<v Speaker 1>you've been through a lot to where you're I'm sure thinking,

0:31:21.800 --> 0:31:24.080
<v Speaker 1>like I really don't need you for that either, exactly.

0:31:24.400 --> 0:31:26.480
<v Speaker 2>I just want somebody that like makes me laugh, is

0:31:26.520 --> 0:31:29.600
<v Speaker 2>a good time, respects me, is nice to me, like

0:31:29.640 --> 0:31:33.680
<v Speaker 2>actually treats me like I'm supposed to be treated and

0:31:34.160 --> 0:31:37.880
<v Speaker 2>you know, obviously loves my family, loves my son. Eventually,

0:31:37.960 --> 0:31:40.720
<v Speaker 2>like that's nothing that's gonna happen from the start, Like

0:31:40.760 --> 0:31:42.360
<v Speaker 2>it will take me a long time to ever have

0:31:42.400 --> 0:31:45.600
<v Speaker 2>anybody around Cruise. But whoever eventually is in my life

0:31:45.640 --> 0:31:47.880
<v Speaker 2>will have to be like in love with him.

0:31:47.960 --> 0:31:51.680
<v Speaker 1>You know. Yeah, when when would that be? Like how

0:31:51.680 --> 0:31:54.160
<v Speaker 1>would you know when it's time to introduce a man

0:31:54.200 --> 0:31:54.640
<v Speaker 1>to Cruise?

0:31:54.920 --> 0:31:59.520
<v Speaker 2>Well, legally because I put it in my divorce papers, yeah,

0:31:59.600 --> 0:32:04.720
<v Speaker 2>that Jacks can't have a female or a somebody that

0:32:04.720 --> 0:32:06.720
<v Speaker 2>they're dating. And I can't have somebody that I'm dating

0:32:07.200 --> 0:32:09.840
<v Speaker 2>around Cruise unless it's been over six months and we

0:32:09.920 --> 0:32:13.080
<v Speaker 2>talked to each other about it. Yeah, And I wanted

0:32:13.120 --> 0:32:15.400
<v Speaker 2>to make sure that that was written in ink because

0:32:15.440 --> 0:32:19.120
<v Speaker 2>I know Jackson is just like going around town. Me

0:32:19.160 --> 0:32:21.240
<v Speaker 2>and Jack's have been very different since the separation, Like

0:32:21.280 --> 0:32:23.640
<v Speaker 2>you don't see me out with guys in the public,

0:32:23.720 --> 0:32:25.600
<v Speaker 2>and you don't see like headlines and stuff like that

0:32:25.720 --> 0:32:28.680
<v Speaker 2>about me private. Yeah, So I just wanted to make

0:32:28.720 --> 0:32:31.720
<v Speaker 2>sure that that was something very safe, Like Cruise doesn't

0:32:31.760 --> 0:32:33.680
<v Speaker 2>deserve to have people in and out of his life

0:32:33.720 --> 0:32:35.840
<v Speaker 2>like that, So I wanted to make sure that that

0:32:35.960 --> 0:32:38.240
<v Speaker 2>was like very clear. Again, I don't even know if

0:32:38.280 --> 0:32:40.320
<v Speaker 2>six months would be enough. I think it would be

0:32:40.400 --> 0:32:42.520
<v Speaker 2>just something that you would have to like really feel like,

0:32:42.600 --> 0:32:44.280
<v Speaker 2>is this person going to be around or not?

0:32:44.760 --> 0:32:46.640
<v Speaker 1>Well, I think it's gonna be hard for you with

0:32:46.880 --> 0:32:52.840
<v Speaker 1>Jacks because unless he makes a huge change in his life,

0:32:53.120 --> 0:32:57.160
<v Speaker 1>there's going to be women who are around for a

0:32:57.200 --> 0:33:01.200
<v Speaker 1>significant amount of time. Mm hmm better than out And

0:33:01.240 --> 0:33:03.200
<v Speaker 1>I kind of had to be okay with that. When

0:33:03.200 --> 0:33:07.120
<v Speaker 1>it comes to Ocean, is that she's going to see

0:33:07.680 --> 0:33:13.520
<v Speaker 1>much younger women with her dad and they'll be around

0:33:13.800 --> 0:33:16.200
<v Speaker 1>for a long period of time until the girl gets

0:33:16.240 --> 0:33:18.520
<v Speaker 1>fed up and leaves him, because he would.

0:33:18.240 --> 0:33:19.120
<v Speaker 2>Never leave a chick.

0:33:19.840 --> 0:33:22.880
<v Speaker 1>But there's already one teed up to bring in the

0:33:22.920 --> 0:33:29.360
<v Speaker 1>next round. So I feel like I'm overcompensating. And now

0:33:29.400 --> 0:33:31.840
<v Speaker 1>Ocean's asking me, like last night she was playing the

0:33:31.840 --> 0:33:34.400
<v Speaker 1>piano and I was with Sosa, and she goes pretend like,

0:33:34.440 --> 0:33:38.200
<v Speaker 1>so says your boyfriend, and this is your wedding and

0:33:38.240 --> 0:33:41.120
<v Speaker 1>I'm playing the piano and then you guys kiss. Like oh,

0:33:41.240 --> 0:33:42.720
<v Speaker 1>now she's asking me.

0:33:42.880 --> 0:33:44.240
<v Speaker 2>Like, why don't you have a boyfriend?

0:33:44.480 --> 0:33:47.800
<v Speaker 1>Yes, yeah, And she said the other day she said, mom,

0:33:47.880 --> 0:33:49.200
<v Speaker 1>are you ever going to get a boyfriend?

0:33:49.320 --> 0:33:49.720
<v Speaker 2>Oh?

0:33:49.840 --> 0:33:51.360
<v Speaker 1>I said, do you want mommy to get a boyfriend?

0:33:51.440 --> 0:33:53.480
<v Speaker 1>She goes, yes, I would like that, And then I

0:33:53.480 --> 0:33:56.240
<v Speaker 1>could see her wheels turning, and she goes, mom, what

0:33:56.240 --> 0:33:59.320
<v Speaker 1>if your boyfriend is not nice to me? Oh? I said,

0:33:59.320 --> 0:34:02.040
<v Speaker 1>then I wouldn't be with him. You're the judge. You're

0:34:02.040 --> 0:34:03.920
<v Speaker 1>the one that tells Mommy, like I like him, you

0:34:03.920 --> 0:34:05.560
<v Speaker 1>can keep him around, and if you don't like him,

0:34:05.600 --> 0:34:07.960
<v Speaker 1>he's gone. And she goes, Okay, so if I don't

0:34:08.080 --> 0:34:10.960
<v Speaker 1>like him, I'm just gonna say I don't like you. Next,

0:34:12.040 --> 0:34:14.920
<v Speaker 1>I was like, this is a wild so funny. Now

0:34:15.000 --> 0:34:18.000
<v Speaker 1>she's thinking her mom's like a boring square, Like yo,

0:34:18.160 --> 0:34:22.120
<v Speaker 1>cause you get a boyfriend, bring someone else the boyfriend.

0:34:22.120 --> 0:34:24.799
<v Speaker 2>That is hilarious. She is so funny. I love that

0:34:24.840 --> 0:34:25.279
<v Speaker 2>little girl.

0:34:25.960 --> 0:34:27.879
<v Speaker 1>So it would you'd have to go with your gut.

0:34:28.080 --> 0:34:29.600
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I don't have to croize my gut, but it

0:34:29.640 --> 0:34:32.440
<v Speaker 2>definitely it would take a while before I would, you know,

0:34:32.800 --> 0:34:36.439
<v Speaker 2>have somebody around him, and then yeah, go with my gut.

0:34:36.520 --> 0:34:38.319
<v Speaker 2>And then if they didn't like vibe or whatever, then

0:34:38.440 --> 0:34:38.799
<v Speaker 2>see you.

0:34:39.400 --> 0:34:40.960
<v Speaker 1>Was it hard to sleep with someone new?

0:34:41.440 --> 0:34:41.600
<v Speaker 2>No?

0:34:42.360 --> 0:34:45.800
<v Speaker 1>It was easy. Yeah, it was just like whatever, goodbye.

0:34:45.960 --> 0:34:47.840
<v Speaker 2>Yeah. I mean I was treated so badly and I

0:34:47.840 --> 0:34:50.200
<v Speaker 2>had lost all my confidence. So it was like having

0:34:50.239 --> 0:34:52.359
<v Speaker 2>somebody give me attention and make me feel good, like

0:34:53.360 --> 0:34:56.920
<v Speaker 2>was great. You know I needed that at that time.

0:34:57.200 --> 0:34:59.560
<v Speaker 2>You know, there were things like I didn't like about

0:34:59.560 --> 0:35:02.200
<v Speaker 2>my body and different things that you know, I had

0:35:02.239 --> 0:35:05.200
<v Speaker 2>been putting down and putting down about so many times.

0:35:05.800 --> 0:35:09.359
<v Speaker 2>But there have been out there who do not care

0:35:09.400 --> 0:35:11.319
<v Speaker 2>and they love you and they just you know, they

0:35:11.360 --> 0:35:11.799
<v Speaker 2>love your.

0:35:11.680 --> 0:35:13.840
<v Speaker 1>Body and like a womanly body.

0:35:13.920 --> 0:35:16.360
<v Speaker 2>Yeah. So I was made to feel like I was

0:35:16.400 --> 0:35:19.759
<v Speaker 2>like imperfect for a very long time after having my son,

0:35:20.040 --> 0:35:22.080
<v Speaker 2>and you know, it was great to have somebody that

0:35:22.160 --> 0:35:23.120
<v Speaker 2>made me feel good.

0:35:23.800 --> 0:35:26.200
<v Speaker 1>I like the guy who you fell straight on your

0:35:26.280 --> 0:35:29.080
<v Speaker 1>ass out of the shower and you guys laughed and

0:35:29.160 --> 0:35:31.120
<v Speaker 1>he still wanted to be with you after.

0:35:33.200 --> 0:35:38.960
<v Speaker 2>I hate too in the shower butt neked and you

0:35:39.120 --> 0:35:41.440
<v Speaker 2>slipped like you it was like I like slipped on

0:35:41.480 --> 0:35:45.040
<v Speaker 2>a banana pill like whoo, went straight back and he

0:35:45.520 --> 0:35:49.080
<v Speaker 2>was gonna like hit my head. Oh so it was

0:35:49.120 --> 0:35:51.520
<v Speaker 2>so embarrassing. But then the way that we laughed about

0:35:51.560 --> 0:35:53.840
<v Speaker 2>it was like so cute.

0:35:55.080 --> 0:35:58.760
<v Speaker 1>Get you a man where you can fall buck neked

0:35:59.280 --> 0:36:02.719
<v Speaker 1>but around. He laughed about it, and he's like, come here,

0:36:02.840 --> 0:36:08.160
<v Speaker 1>let me put it in. Oh my gosh. She's like,

0:36:08.200 --> 0:36:12.440
<v Speaker 1>I've never been so turned on. By the way. Then, God,

0:36:12.480 --> 0:36:13.560
<v Speaker 1>you didn't get a concussion.

0:36:14.120 --> 0:36:14.680
<v Speaker 2>Thank god.

0:36:15.160 --> 0:36:17.360
<v Speaker 1>See that's how I know I'm a square. It's like,

0:36:17.440 --> 0:36:19.439
<v Speaker 1>you're like, hey, it's so funny. I'm like, oh my god,

0:36:19.480 --> 0:36:21.239
<v Speaker 1>did you call nine one one? Well?

0:36:21.280 --> 0:36:24.080
<v Speaker 2>In my head like somehow like I didn't hit my head,

0:36:24.160 --> 0:36:26.160
<v Speaker 2>like I laid it on my back but kept my

0:36:26.200 --> 0:36:27.120
<v Speaker 2>head up or something.

0:36:27.800 --> 0:36:28.640
<v Speaker 1>Damn. Yeah.

0:36:28.719 --> 0:36:30.560
<v Speaker 2>He was like trying to catch me, and he was

0:36:30.600 --> 0:36:32.160
<v Speaker 2>like I thought it was gonna be bad, but you

0:36:32.239 --> 0:36:34.839
<v Speaker 2>like somehow didn't hit your head. And I was just like,

0:36:34.880 --> 0:36:41.000
<v Speaker 2>don't look at me. It was so embarrassing.

0:36:42.000 --> 0:36:45.879
<v Speaker 1>I like it, and I like him. He's talented. Yeah,

0:36:46.200 --> 0:36:48.560
<v Speaker 1>FORM going to move on before. I spelled way too

0:36:48.640 --> 0:36:54.640
<v Speaker 1>much this season of The Valley I we talked about

0:36:54.640 --> 0:36:59.279
<v Speaker 1>this when it first came out the teaser. Yeah, and

0:36:59.320 --> 0:37:01.319
<v Speaker 1>you were like, I feel like they could have put

0:37:01.400 --> 0:37:04.560
<v Speaker 1>so many other things into it. And I know that

0:37:04.719 --> 0:37:07.280
<v Speaker 1>I know that feeling of getting married to your story. Yeah,

0:37:07.280 --> 0:37:10.440
<v Speaker 1>and then you're like, why was this cut? And I

0:37:10.560 --> 0:37:13.160
<v Speaker 1>love that they showed you still having fun and still

0:37:13.200 --> 0:37:16.640
<v Speaker 1>being like the lighthearted Brittany that we all came to love,

0:37:17.200 --> 0:37:19.319
<v Speaker 1>like from Kentucky, just like happy to be here.

0:37:19.520 --> 0:37:21.440
<v Speaker 2>I think they did a good job with that all season,

0:37:21.480 --> 0:37:23.279
<v Speaker 2>because yeah, there's a lot of hard stuff to come,

0:37:23.320 --> 0:37:26.000
<v Speaker 2>but I was still like going out with my girls,

0:37:26.080 --> 0:37:28.879
<v Speaker 2>having fun, laughing about a lot of stuff. Like there's

0:37:28.920 --> 0:37:30.680
<v Speaker 2>a lot of ups and downs the entire season, and

0:37:30.719 --> 0:37:33.720
<v Speaker 2>I know the Valley can be really dark at times,

0:37:34.040 --> 0:37:37.080
<v Speaker 2>but it's like what we were actually going through ran

0:37:37.960 --> 0:37:41.799
<v Speaker 2>We're not hiding stuff, and that's like why people can

0:37:41.840 --> 0:37:44.360
<v Speaker 2>relate to what's going on, especially in my life.

0:37:44.440 --> 0:37:47.719
<v Speaker 1>Well, yeah, it's a very dark season, but like, what

0:37:47.880 --> 0:37:50.719
<v Speaker 1>do you want you guys to do start pretending like

0:37:50.880 --> 0:37:53.080
<v Speaker 1>everything's all good. I mean, like you said, this is

0:37:53.200 --> 0:37:55.440
<v Speaker 1>what you guys are going through, and I do feel

0:37:56.600 --> 0:38:01.359
<v Speaker 1>that so much has changed since you guys filmed that.

0:38:01.520 --> 0:38:06.120
<v Speaker 1>Come your guys's next season, you will have the lighthearted moment.

0:38:06.239 --> 0:38:08.200
<v Speaker 2>Oh yeah, I think next season is going to be,

0:38:08.920 --> 0:38:12.720
<v Speaker 2>hopefully knock on Wood a lot better for me because,

0:38:12.760 --> 0:38:15.040
<v Speaker 2>like I said, I'm in such a better place and

0:38:16.080 --> 0:38:20.799
<v Speaker 2>I have moved on like big time, and I think

0:38:20.800 --> 0:38:24.160
<v Speaker 2>I was so struggling a lot last this season, so

0:38:24.400 --> 0:38:26.480
<v Speaker 2>it'll be interesting to see how next summer goes.

0:38:26.600 --> 0:38:28.560
<v Speaker 1>Do you feel like it's a setback when you have

0:38:28.640 --> 0:38:31.839
<v Speaker 1>to when you watch it and then like, I don't

0:38:31.880 --> 0:38:33.759
<v Speaker 1>know how you are with the comment section, but like

0:38:33.800 --> 0:38:35.920
<v Speaker 1>if you allow yourself to go into the comment section,

0:38:36.440 --> 0:38:37.319
<v Speaker 1>is it a set back?

0:38:37.480 --> 0:38:42.280
<v Speaker 2>Sometimes? Yeah, And like my team will be like, Brittany,

0:38:42.480 --> 0:38:44.439
<v Speaker 2>for your mental health, don't look at that stuff. That's

0:38:44.480 --> 0:38:47.520
<v Speaker 2>not who you are. Everyone's allowed to have down moments

0:38:47.520 --> 0:38:49.319
<v Speaker 2>and or you know, good moments and blah blah blah,

0:38:49.320 --> 0:38:50.960
<v Speaker 2>and it's so up and down. There's a lot more

0:38:51.000 --> 0:38:53.520
<v Speaker 2>people that are supporting me that are like hating on

0:38:53.600 --> 0:38:57.320
<v Speaker 2>me or doing whatever, so they'll, you know, they'll definitely

0:38:57.360 --> 0:38:58.680
<v Speaker 2>be like, do you want me to send you like

0:38:58.719 --> 0:39:00.920
<v Speaker 2>all the good comments so that you'll just see that,

0:39:01.200 --> 0:39:04.040
<v Speaker 2>you know, that would be excellent. I just I'm such

0:39:04.040 --> 0:39:06.400
<v Speaker 2>a people pleaser, so I don't like when people don't

0:39:06.520 --> 0:39:08.759
<v Speaker 2>like me. That's just how my personality is.

0:39:09.239 --> 0:39:12.399
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, but I thought it was very refreshing this this

0:39:12.719 --> 0:39:15.880
<v Speaker 1>uh season so far, especially when you guys were in

0:39:16.360 --> 0:39:19.600
<v Speaker 1>Santa Barbara, Yeah, and you got annoyed and it was like,

0:39:19.719 --> 0:39:21.719
<v Speaker 1>I share my whole life, and I feel like other

0:39:21.760 --> 0:39:24.480
<v Speaker 1>people aren't. And then Nia says, because you're going through

0:39:24.520 --> 0:39:28.520
<v Speaker 1>a hard time, yeah, you have to project onto me yep,

0:39:29.520 --> 0:39:31.800
<v Speaker 1>And I'm like, no, not at all. It's this is

0:39:31.800 --> 0:39:34.480
<v Speaker 1>a reality television show and everyone needs to show up

0:39:34.520 --> 0:39:36.560
<v Speaker 1>and share their fucking life or else you make this

0:39:36.680 --> 0:39:38.560
<v Speaker 1>really un fun and very hard. Yeah.

0:39:38.600 --> 0:39:40.359
<v Speaker 2>A lot of people in my comments about that were

0:39:40.360 --> 0:39:42.399
<v Speaker 2>trying to be like pretty just jealous, blah blah blah.

0:39:42.400 --> 0:39:44.080
<v Speaker 2>I was like no, I was talking about this one

0:39:44.120 --> 0:39:47.480
<v Speaker 2>specific day where I saw different things leading up to it,

0:39:47.520 --> 0:39:50.080
<v Speaker 2>which they did show some of it on the show,

0:39:50.200 --> 0:39:52.600
<v Speaker 2>like they showed like the fights and this and that,

0:39:52.719 --> 0:39:54.480
<v Speaker 2>and I love Nia, I want the best of you them,

0:39:54.680 --> 0:39:57.320
<v Speaker 2>but I'm not. That had nothing to do with jealousy

0:39:57.360 --> 0:39:57.799
<v Speaker 2>and had to.

0:39:57.760 --> 0:40:00.440
<v Speaker 1>Do with such a lazy excuse people.

0:40:00.960 --> 0:40:03.279
<v Speaker 2>I had a lot of things and I was like no,

0:40:03.680 --> 0:40:06.520
<v Speaker 2>guys like no. And also like a lot of people

0:40:07.280 --> 0:40:09.680
<v Speaker 2>thought that I was like either jealous or that like

0:40:10.160 --> 0:40:12.200
<v Speaker 2>I cared that Danny was drinking. I did not care.

0:40:12.640 --> 0:40:15.040
<v Speaker 2>We would be the last Yeah, I would have been

0:40:15.080 --> 0:40:17.960
<v Speaker 2>the last person that carried I cared because I thought

0:40:19.120 --> 0:40:21.200
<v Speaker 2>that day that there was a lot of things that

0:40:21.239 --> 0:40:23.000
<v Speaker 2>were being hidden and it was just that day. I

0:40:23.040 --> 0:40:24.719
<v Speaker 2>love them. I think they're great. If they want to

0:40:24.760 --> 0:40:28.080
<v Speaker 2>handle their business how they want to handle it, good

0:40:28.120 --> 0:40:30.760
<v Speaker 2>for them. But I was also going through the hardest

0:40:31.239 --> 0:40:33.680
<v Speaker 2>time of my wife being raised checks. At twenty four

0:40:33.719 --> 0:40:35.560
<v Speaker 2>to seven, you hit your breaking point, Yeah, I just

0:40:35.600 --> 0:40:37.840
<v Speaker 2>hit my breaking point. And there was other people that

0:40:37.880 --> 0:40:39.919
<v Speaker 2>were feeling the same way. So whenever we talked about

0:40:39.960 --> 0:40:42.880
<v Speaker 2>it, it just kind of like, yeah, it got bubbled up

0:40:42.920 --> 0:40:45.279
<v Speaker 2>and made into a much bigger deal than I ever

0:40:45.680 --> 0:40:47.600
<v Speaker 2>wish it would me in New York. Great, this was

0:40:47.680 --> 0:40:48.200
<v Speaker 2>last summer.

0:40:48.280 --> 0:40:49.480
<v Speaker 1>I know, I know good.

0:40:50.000 --> 0:40:51.840
<v Speaker 2>It was just that one night. And I'm allowed to

0:40:51.880 --> 0:40:54.880
<v Speaker 2>have bad days and moments where I.

0:40:54.880 --> 0:40:58.120
<v Speaker 1>Get enough if none of you have bad days, Yeah,

0:40:58.200 --> 0:40:59.839
<v Speaker 1>I have good days. I don't want to fucking watch

0:40:59.880 --> 0:41:03.759
<v Speaker 1>it exact Cress canceled, and a lot of.

0:41:03.680 --> 0:41:06.920
<v Speaker 2>People I'm a mean girl, and I'm like, I'm nowhere

0:41:06.960 --> 0:41:10.880
<v Speaker 2>near a mean girl, Like come on, Like, I'm allowed

0:41:10.920 --> 0:41:13.840
<v Speaker 2>to have an off moment in the hardest time of

0:41:13.880 --> 0:41:14.360
<v Speaker 2>my life.

0:41:14.760 --> 0:41:19.840
<v Speaker 1>Well, and there's going to be moments this season for

0:41:20.000 --> 0:41:24.440
<v Speaker 1>anybody where something that happens is literally just the cherry

0:41:24.480 --> 0:41:27.720
<v Speaker 1>on top of like all the other shit that someone's

0:41:27.760 --> 0:41:31.959
<v Speaker 1>going through exactly, I think exactly, And honestly, I didn't

0:41:31.960 --> 0:41:34.239
<v Speaker 1>feel like it was a projection at all. I've been

0:41:34.280 --> 0:41:36.360
<v Speaker 1>a part of filming a show and when people aren't

0:41:36.360 --> 0:41:39.799
<v Speaker 1>showing up and being authentic, it's like, fuck you all,

0:41:40.200 --> 0:41:41.680
<v Speaker 1>you're making this really hard.

0:41:42.239 --> 0:41:44.759
<v Speaker 2>Yeah. I mean people that actually are on TV get it.

0:41:44.800 --> 0:41:47.160
<v Speaker 2>I guess you know, because it's a more of a

0:41:47.200 --> 0:41:49.440
<v Speaker 2>thing like that. But you know, I just I hated

0:41:49.480 --> 0:41:52.160
<v Speaker 2>how big it got. But it was also just like

0:41:52.280 --> 0:41:56.200
<v Speaker 2>at that point we were all just like like we.

0:41:56.239 --> 0:42:01.319
<v Speaker 1>All thoroughly were watching about I feel like, whenever there's

0:42:01.360 --> 0:42:02.239
<v Speaker 1>a scene, I.

0:42:03.160 --> 0:42:05.000
<v Speaker 2>Just like, yeah, hit my breaking point, and I was

0:42:05.040 --> 0:42:07.560
<v Speaker 2>just like enough, guys, if I'm gonna share everything, then

0:42:07.600 --> 0:42:10.440
<v Speaker 2>please just share everything too. That's all that it was.

0:42:10.719 --> 0:42:14.080
<v Speaker 1>I get it. And you're is it hard filming with

0:42:14.120 --> 0:42:16.680
<v Speaker 1>a cast that's so brand new because you've been in

0:42:16.760 --> 0:42:19.719
<v Speaker 1>this for many years and you and I both came

0:42:19.719 --> 0:42:23.400
<v Speaker 1>on to a show where people were very very well seasoned,

0:42:23.440 --> 0:42:26.200
<v Speaker 1>and it came to filming a reality TV show. Now

0:42:26.239 --> 0:42:28.680
<v Speaker 1>you're the ogs and you're dealing with people who've never

0:42:28.760 --> 0:42:29.600
<v Speaker 1>done this before.

0:42:30.000 --> 0:42:33.319
<v Speaker 2>They actually I mean that one little night with Danny

0:42:33.360 --> 0:42:36.000
<v Speaker 2>and Niya. I got upset. Yeah, but I feel like

0:42:36.040 --> 0:42:39.120
<v Speaker 2>everybody's doing such a great job, Like everybody's bringing it,

0:42:39.520 --> 0:42:42.760
<v Speaker 2>you know, Yes, and they all surprised me, honestly.

0:42:43.160 --> 0:42:46.319
<v Speaker 1>Were you hesitant going into season one being like, how

0:42:46.400 --> 0:42:48.520
<v Speaker 1>is this gonna go? Or did you even think about it?

0:42:48.760 --> 0:42:50.680
<v Speaker 2>I didn't really think about that much because they are

0:42:50.719 --> 0:42:54.160
<v Speaker 2>all my actual friends, so it kind of makes it easier. Rightever,

0:42:54.160 --> 0:42:58.319
<v Speaker 2>you're all actually friends, you know, So were you nervous.

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<v Speaker 1>About that because you're, like, I actually like you guys,

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<v Speaker 1>And when you add the element of filming a reality

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<v Speaker 1>TV show, things can go south and friendships can end

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<v Speaker 1>pretty quickly.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I mean it is nerve wracking. I hope that

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<v Speaker 2>people don't change the more like popular the show gets

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<v Speaker 2>and stuff like that. Would be devastating if like people's

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<v Speaker 2>like personalities started to change. Especially I don't feel like

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<v Speaker 2>it that they.

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<v Speaker 1>Have no I season really going to see Yeah, I

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<v Speaker 1>don't think.

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<v Speaker 2>No, because I put all these people's names on a

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<v Speaker 2>list to be on the show in the first place,

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<v Speaker 2>because I actually love them all, And I would be

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<v Speaker 2>devastated if like something happened just because like personality change

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<v Speaker 2>or their egos got too big or this and that,

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<v Speaker 2>and like, I try my best to never change and

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<v Speaker 2>say true to who I am, and I just hope

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<v Speaker 2>that everybody does that, And so far, everybody's doing amazing well.

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<v Speaker 1>I said to Janet when she first started filming in

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<v Speaker 1>the season one had aired, which I didn't watch season one,

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<v Speaker 1>but I said, my hope for you is that you

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<v Speaker 1>always stay who you are, because you're so fun and

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<v Speaker 1>so care free that I don't want this world to

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<v Speaker 1>kind of make you feel like you have to have

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<v Speaker 1>your guard up at all exactly.

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<v Speaker 2>And I don't want that for any of my friends

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<v Speaker 2>that are on there, you know, yeah, because they're all

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<v Speaker 2>such amazing people and that would like break my heart.

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<v Speaker 2>But I'm just praying that they won't, that that won't happen.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, even Jesse, who's kind of like a little douche.

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<v Speaker 1>I so enjoy watching him on TV.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, and I don't think that he's letting it go

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<v Speaker 2>to his head too much. I think he naturally is

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<v Speaker 2>like that. But I think that he's doing a good job.

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<v Speaker 1>I think you guys are all killing it, And you

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<v Speaker 1>know what, I don't know what the filming process was

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<v Speaker 1>like for you guys, but I do think that you're

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<v Speaker 1>all carrying your way. Yeah. I'm so happy you came

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<v Speaker 1>on the podcast. Thanks for having me, Thank you, my love.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you guys so much for listening to another episode

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<v Speaker 1>of Give Them All That Podcast. I'm gonna catch you

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<v Speaker 1>guys next week. Bye bye,