1 00:00:05,960 --> 00:00:08,559 Speaker 1: Hello, gorgeous. It is La La Kent. Welcome back to 2 00:00:08,600 --> 00:00:11,159 Speaker 1: my podcast I have. It's so weird to have you 3 00:00:11,200 --> 00:00:13,119 Speaker 1: here as like a guest because you're just like my homies. 4 00:00:13,240 --> 00:00:15,000 Speaker 1: So I'm like, this feels so official. 5 00:00:15,840 --> 00:00:16,400 Speaker 2: I love it. 6 00:00:16,760 --> 00:00:20,000 Speaker 1: Hi Britney Cartwright, Hi girl, how's it going good? 7 00:00:20,200 --> 00:00:21,120 Speaker 2: Thanks for having me. 8 00:00:21,720 --> 00:00:25,440 Speaker 1: I can't wait to have you. I was like looking 9 00:00:25,480 --> 00:00:30,600 Speaker 1: at the time, and then Stace, our mutual producer, says 10 00:00:30,720 --> 00:00:32,559 Speaker 1: she stopped off at a gas station to go to 11 00:00:32,600 --> 00:00:35,280 Speaker 1: the bathroom. I'm like, it's like a thirty minute commute, 12 00:00:35,360 --> 00:00:37,720 Speaker 1: and normally, like if you're on a road trip, you 13 00:00:37,720 --> 00:00:40,760 Speaker 1: would stop off at a gas station to go to the bathroom. 14 00:00:41,040 --> 00:00:44,960 Speaker 2: There was no way around it. God to stop. 15 00:00:45,840 --> 00:00:49,800 Speaker 1: What are we talking? Like? Are we talking like a chevron? Uh? 16 00:00:50,320 --> 00:00:52,440 Speaker 2: It was a I don't even know what it happened 17 00:00:52,440 --> 00:00:55,200 Speaker 2: to actual now that I think about it. What was 18 00:00:55,320 --> 00:00:56,840 Speaker 2: a shell? 19 00:00:57,960 --> 00:00:59,600 Speaker 1: You're so Kentucky right now. 20 00:01:01,040 --> 00:01:02,720 Speaker 2: Oh man, you gotta do what you gotta do. And 21 00:01:02,760 --> 00:01:05,559 Speaker 2: that traffic coming here from the valley was like stop 22 00:01:05,600 --> 00:01:05,920 Speaker 2: and go. 23 00:01:06,160 --> 00:01:06,360 Speaker 1: Yeah. 24 00:01:06,360 --> 00:01:07,800 Speaker 2: I was like, I ain't gonna make it if I 25 00:01:07,800 --> 00:01:09,440 Speaker 2: if I have to go all the way there. 26 00:01:09,680 --> 00:01:12,920 Speaker 1: We cause you come from Kentucky. I come from uh 27 00:01:13,120 --> 00:01:15,959 Speaker 1: Salt Lake City, Utah. There's no traffic and I don't 28 00:01:16,000 --> 00:01:18,280 Speaker 1: know if you ever saw the snl skit about like 29 00:01:18,360 --> 00:01:20,839 Speaker 1: when people moved to California, all they ever talk about 30 00:01:20,959 --> 00:01:23,440 Speaker 1: is being stuck in traffic and like how they true 31 00:01:23,560 --> 00:01:25,960 Speaker 1: took the four oh five to the one oh one 32 00:01:26,120 --> 00:01:27,959 Speaker 1: or whatever, and I'm like, oh my god, we've turned 33 00:01:27,959 --> 00:01:28,680 Speaker 1: into those people. 34 00:01:28,800 --> 00:01:30,479 Speaker 2: Oh but what's bad about me is I don't ever 35 00:01:30,520 --> 00:01:34,200 Speaker 2: know where I am. Like if it wasn't for my GPS, 36 00:01:34,480 --> 00:01:35,800 Speaker 2: I would not. I don't know what the four oh 37 00:01:35,880 --> 00:01:37,880 Speaker 2: five is, Like I heard of it, but like I 38 00:01:37,920 --> 00:01:40,240 Speaker 2: couldn't tell you which one it is. You've been here 39 00:01:40,360 --> 00:01:41,800 Speaker 2: for ten years? 40 00:01:43,240 --> 00:01:46,959 Speaker 1: Oh my okay. So then when you go from your 41 00:01:47,040 --> 00:01:48,960 Speaker 1: house to take Cruizy to school because our kids go 42 00:01:49,000 --> 00:01:51,920 Speaker 1: to the same school, do you have to use your GPS? 43 00:01:52,120 --> 00:01:54,960 Speaker 2: I put my GPS on for safety because I just 44 00:01:55,000 --> 00:01:56,960 Speaker 2: like to follow it and know where I am. It's 45 00:01:57,040 --> 00:01:59,920 Speaker 2: like I absolutely had to do it without my phone. 46 00:02:00,000 --> 00:02:03,120 Speaker 2: I could take him to school, okay, but I never 47 00:02:03,200 --> 00:02:05,559 Speaker 2: tried because it's like my safety blanket, you know. 48 00:02:05,800 --> 00:02:08,240 Speaker 1: Right, just in case you forget yeah, or. 49 00:02:08,160 --> 00:02:10,320 Speaker 2: Like I'm not paying attention and I like missed the 50 00:02:10,400 --> 00:02:13,400 Speaker 2: turn and then I would be screwed. I have no 51 00:02:13,440 --> 00:02:14,560 Speaker 2: clue where the heck I was. 52 00:02:14,720 --> 00:02:17,280 Speaker 1: I just like knowing how long it's gonna take me exactly. 53 00:02:17,360 --> 00:02:17,960 Speaker 2: I like that too. 54 00:02:18,200 --> 00:02:21,040 Speaker 1: Yeah, like I know where I'm going, but I sometimes 55 00:02:21,040 --> 00:02:23,359 Speaker 1: it could take ten minutes, sometimes it could take thirty five. 56 00:02:23,280 --> 00:02:26,000 Speaker 2: And sometimes it'll say save five minutes if you click here. 57 00:02:25,960 --> 00:02:29,799 Speaker 1: And I'm like, yes, like you said, it was like 58 00:02:30,000 --> 00:02:32,080 Speaker 1: a hell of a morning. What went on this morning? 59 00:02:32,160 --> 00:02:35,560 Speaker 2: Oh my gosh. So Cruise and I swam like all 60 00:02:35,639 --> 00:02:38,520 Speaker 2: day yesterday, just him and I. So he was like 61 00:02:38,600 --> 00:02:41,760 Speaker 2: really tired. So if he goes to bed early, there's 62 00:02:41,800 --> 00:02:44,480 Speaker 2: no it's never like for sure that he's gonna stay 63 00:02:44,480 --> 00:02:46,919 Speaker 2: asleep all night. Okay. So he fell asleep around eight 64 00:02:46,919 --> 00:02:51,320 Speaker 2: o'clock and woke up at four am. Oh no, ready 65 00:02:51,320 --> 00:02:56,520 Speaker 2: to party, just like yay hello, like smacking on my 66 00:02:56,600 --> 00:03:00,520 Speaker 2: face like this to get me up, and yeah, he 67 00:03:00,560 --> 00:03:02,359 Speaker 2: just would not go back to sleep. Finally went back 68 00:03:02,400 --> 00:03:05,280 Speaker 2: to sleep at seven point thirty. Okay. So I was 69 00:03:05,360 --> 00:03:07,440 Speaker 2: up with him that entire time, and then he had 70 00:03:07,480 --> 00:03:09,680 Speaker 2: to be at school at eight forty five, so I 71 00:03:09,720 --> 00:03:11,760 Speaker 2: decided to keep it home today. 72 00:03:12,080 --> 00:03:14,040 Speaker 1: He stayed home too, Yeah, because what am I gonna do? 73 00:03:14,080 --> 00:03:17,000 Speaker 2: Make it's just pre school if it was like, yeah, 74 00:03:17,040 --> 00:03:18,320 Speaker 2: you know what I mean, like if it was like 75 00:03:18,400 --> 00:03:20,760 Speaker 2: school school. But I just felt like he would be 76 00:03:20,800 --> 00:03:23,360 Speaker 2: so miserable if he went, so then I was up 77 00:03:23,360 --> 00:03:25,240 Speaker 2: with him the whole time too, and I'm just like, 78 00:03:25,480 --> 00:03:26,400 Speaker 2: I was so tired. 79 00:03:26,560 --> 00:03:28,239 Speaker 1: Oh and you're all glamed and everything. 80 00:03:28,400 --> 00:03:29,760 Speaker 2: I just rushed but makeup on. 81 00:03:30,120 --> 00:03:32,000 Speaker 1: I'm very impressed. Did you do that at the gas 82 00:03:32,000 --> 00:03:32,560 Speaker 1: station too? 83 00:03:32,760 --> 00:03:36,640 Speaker 2: I did my lips in the car on the way, a. 84 00:03:36,720 --> 00:03:38,520 Speaker 1: Car that I'm laying my horn. 85 00:03:38,680 --> 00:03:42,920 Speaker 2: Like plan your day better, bitch, of which I'm at 86 00:03:42,960 --> 00:03:45,960 Speaker 2: like a stop sign. Okay, it's not just like I'm 87 00:03:46,000 --> 00:03:47,760 Speaker 2: not driving and actively doing it. 88 00:03:47,960 --> 00:03:48,120 Speaker 1: You know. 89 00:03:48,160 --> 00:03:50,440 Speaker 2: Little Wayne's playing and I'm just like, dude. 90 00:03:51,240 --> 00:03:53,400 Speaker 1: By the way, some people thought Lil Wayne was paying 91 00:03:53,440 --> 00:03:54,760 Speaker 1: you to promote his new album. 92 00:03:55,200 --> 00:03:56,840 Speaker 2: Somebody said that to me. They were like, is Little 93 00:03:56,840 --> 00:03:59,560 Speaker 2: Wayne paying you? And I said what I was like, 94 00:03:59,600 --> 00:04:02,640 Speaker 2: I love Little White. Everyone knows that, if I mean, 95 00:04:02,760 --> 00:04:04,520 Speaker 2: they obviously don't know me very well. If they thought 96 00:04:04,560 --> 00:04:05,480 Speaker 2: I didn't know little Way. 97 00:04:05,480 --> 00:04:07,160 Speaker 1: Do you still like him? Now that he broke up 98 00:04:07,200 --> 00:04:08,960 Speaker 1: with his girlfriend on Mother's Day? 99 00:04:09,080 --> 00:04:11,360 Speaker 2: He broke up with I didn't even see that. Yes, 100 00:04:12,600 --> 00:04:15,840 Speaker 2: he does things that disappoint me sometimes, Like that was 101 00:04:16,200 --> 00:04:20,359 Speaker 2: his concert and uh, you know Kara, my friend from Yestechy, 102 00:04:20,760 --> 00:04:23,560 Speaker 2: she flew in from Vegas and he was so late. 103 00:04:23,600 --> 00:04:25,560 Speaker 2: It was that one that kind of like went viral 104 00:04:25,600 --> 00:04:28,479 Speaker 2: where he like walked off the sage're there, we're there. 105 00:04:28,480 --> 00:04:30,679 Speaker 1: And didn't he like shame the audience, Yes. 106 00:04:30,560 --> 00:04:32,279 Speaker 2: Because he said that we weren't interested in like his 107 00:04:32,400 --> 00:04:35,520 Speaker 2: new rappers and stuff. I'm look, we waited three hours, 108 00:04:36,000 --> 00:04:38,039 Speaker 2: you were late, and then you walked off early because 109 00:04:38,040 --> 00:04:40,719 Speaker 2: we weren'tcheering enough for songs that we had never heard before. 110 00:04:41,279 --> 00:04:42,320 Speaker 1: I was bently boy. 111 00:04:42,480 --> 00:04:44,960 Speaker 2: That was a disappointing moment, but he will never. 112 00:04:45,080 --> 00:04:47,400 Speaker 1: You know what, you're a true true blue fan? 113 00:04:47,480 --> 00:04:48,440 Speaker 2: Oh yeah, aam. 114 00:04:49,040 --> 00:04:51,240 Speaker 1: I feel like you have true blue fans like that 115 00:04:51,600 --> 00:04:54,320 Speaker 1: just rock with you no matter because the fans are 116 00:04:54,360 --> 00:04:57,440 Speaker 1: fickle when it comes to like reality television. Yeah, And 117 00:04:58,200 --> 00:05:00,479 Speaker 1: do you watch reality TV or you just on it? 118 00:05:02,200 --> 00:05:04,200 Speaker 2: For the most part, I'm just on it. I do 119 00:05:04,279 --> 00:05:08,120 Speaker 2: see things here and there. Obviously I was big into 120 00:05:08,120 --> 00:05:10,480 Speaker 2: like nine to Day Fiance and stuff like that for 121 00:05:10,520 --> 00:05:15,960 Speaker 2: a while. I think because I wasn't really that much 122 00:05:15,960 --> 00:05:18,039 Speaker 2: into it before I even started on reality to you, 123 00:05:18,080 --> 00:05:20,719 Speaker 2: So like maybe I had watched like Laguna Beach or 124 00:05:21,240 --> 00:05:24,960 Speaker 2: you know, Jersey Shore, like the very great the very 125 00:05:24,960 --> 00:05:27,760 Speaker 2: first ones. And I used to love like trading spaces 126 00:05:27,880 --> 00:05:33,680 Speaker 2: like home de courseo yeah KLC, you know stuff like that. 127 00:05:34,080 --> 00:05:37,960 Speaker 2: So that was like what I really watched. Don't hate me, problemo, 128 00:05:38,040 --> 00:05:39,560 Speaker 2: I love you now. But I was just never like 129 00:05:39,640 --> 00:05:42,120 Speaker 2: really huge into that world. 130 00:05:42,160 --> 00:05:45,679 Speaker 1: My mom was all the moms loved house Yes, yeah, 131 00:05:46,000 --> 00:05:47,279 Speaker 1: I loved Housewives too. 132 00:05:47,440 --> 00:05:48,080 Speaker 2: You still do? 133 00:05:48,320 --> 00:05:49,039 Speaker 1: Oh, I'm addicted. 134 00:05:49,200 --> 00:05:51,279 Speaker 2: Yeah, maybe if I watched it, I would like be 135 00:05:51,360 --> 00:05:54,600 Speaker 2: into it. But whenever you live the life, you. 136 00:05:54,560 --> 00:05:57,000 Speaker 1: Feel like, because you know how the sausage is made, 137 00:05:57,200 --> 00:05:58,040 Speaker 1: you can't watch it. 138 00:05:58,320 --> 00:06:01,360 Speaker 2: Yeah. Maybe it gives me like a little anxiety or something. 139 00:06:01,480 --> 00:06:04,159 Speaker 1: Yeah, I know, it's weird. How is this season going 140 00:06:04,200 --> 00:06:04,440 Speaker 1: for you? 141 00:06:05,520 --> 00:06:08,560 Speaker 2: Definitely the hardest season I've ever filmed. Okay, hard to 142 00:06:08,600 --> 00:06:14,400 Speaker 2: watch back. I think that I'm definitely like showing a 143 00:06:14,400 --> 00:06:16,680 Speaker 2: different side of me that people aren't used to. I 144 00:06:16,680 --> 00:06:19,400 Speaker 2: think I'm showing like a lot of like growth and strength. Yeah, 145 00:06:19,400 --> 00:06:21,000 Speaker 2: and I'm in a much better place right now than 146 00:06:21,000 --> 00:06:22,400 Speaker 2: I was when I was filming this because you know, 147 00:06:22,400 --> 00:06:25,839 Speaker 2: we film over the summer, so it's been a hot minute. 148 00:06:26,200 --> 00:06:28,360 Speaker 2: But yeah, I feel like I've got so much support 149 00:06:28,400 --> 00:06:30,280 Speaker 2: and I'm so grateful, grateful for that. But like, if 150 00:06:30,279 --> 00:06:32,120 Speaker 2: I do one thing wrong, I feel like people like 151 00:06:32,160 --> 00:06:34,080 Speaker 2: come at me, and it's like, give me a little 152 00:06:34,120 --> 00:06:36,320 Speaker 2: bit of grace here. I'm literally going through the hardest 153 00:06:36,360 --> 00:06:39,919 Speaker 2: summer of my entire life and doing it all on TV. 154 00:06:40,240 --> 00:06:42,839 Speaker 1: Yeah, and it'll be one of the hardest times of 155 00:06:42,880 --> 00:06:47,080 Speaker 1: your entire life for the long run. Like, yeah, looking back, 156 00:06:47,120 --> 00:06:49,760 Speaker 1: when you think about your life, this will always be 157 00:06:49,760 --> 00:06:52,400 Speaker 1: one of the most difficult and most challenging times of 158 00:06:52,440 --> 00:06:57,120 Speaker 1: your life. So when you went into filming, did you 159 00:06:57,279 --> 00:06:59,520 Speaker 1: know that it was going to be difficult. 160 00:06:59,640 --> 00:07:04,080 Speaker 2: Yeah, because two days before is whenever all the stuff happened, 161 00:07:04,200 --> 00:07:06,760 Speaker 2: Like two days before we even picked up cameras is 162 00:07:06,800 --> 00:07:09,520 Speaker 2: whenever all the stuff with Jack's happened. So I knew 163 00:07:09,520 --> 00:07:11,600 Speaker 2: that it was gonna be bad. And before that, we 164 00:07:11,680 --> 00:07:14,760 Speaker 2: had been separated for like six or seven months already, right, 165 00:07:14,880 --> 00:07:17,200 Speaker 2: and it wasn't good our entire separation because that's when 166 00:07:17,240 --> 00:07:20,120 Speaker 2: he started spiraling and stuff. So I was like even 167 00:07:20,160 --> 00:07:22,640 Speaker 2: worse than normal so I just knew it was going 168 00:07:22,680 --> 00:07:23,679 Speaker 2: to be extremely hard. 169 00:07:23,880 --> 00:07:27,880 Speaker 1: I remember when it did start getting very very bad, 170 00:07:28,640 --> 00:07:30,880 Speaker 1: and you and I were driving, I think, to Will 171 00:07:30,880 --> 00:07:33,520 Speaker 1: and Elaine's house and we were talking just about what 172 00:07:33,560 --> 00:07:37,360 Speaker 1: you were going through, and you were talking about some 173 00:07:38,320 --> 00:07:40,640 Speaker 1: ring footage and you were like, I can show you. 174 00:07:40,680 --> 00:07:42,680 Speaker 1: And I was like, Britt, yeah, you weren't to a 175 00:07:42,720 --> 00:07:45,920 Speaker 1: place yet. I don't even think that you had separated fully. 176 00:07:45,960 --> 00:07:49,520 Speaker 1: It was just you kind of toying with the idea. Yeah, 177 00:07:49,560 --> 00:07:52,920 Speaker 1: And I said to you, if you show me, if 178 00:07:52,960 --> 00:07:55,840 Speaker 1: you guys reconcile, I don't think I'll ever be able 179 00:07:55,880 --> 00:07:56,960 Speaker 1: to be around him again. 180 00:07:57,440 --> 00:07:57,840 Speaker 2: Yeah. 181 00:07:57,880 --> 00:08:00,480 Speaker 1: And then two days before, you guys picked up cameras 182 00:08:00,800 --> 00:08:03,200 Speaker 1: we were at the school. Mm hmm. You showed me 183 00:08:03,720 --> 00:08:06,080 Speaker 1: a video mm hmm. But I said, if you don't 184 00:08:06,080 --> 00:08:08,520 Speaker 1: get out of this, someone's gonna end up dead. Yeah, 185 00:08:08,600 --> 00:08:10,440 Speaker 1: and it probably will be you. Yeah. 186 00:08:10,480 --> 00:08:14,560 Speaker 2: I mean, it was escalating so bad. And those are 187 00:08:14,560 --> 00:08:17,240 Speaker 2: two different occasions. Like the ring kids you're talking about 188 00:08:17,280 --> 00:08:19,440 Speaker 2: the first time, Like we had so many fights that 189 00:08:19,520 --> 00:08:21,040 Speaker 2: led up to why I had to separate in the 190 00:08:21,040 --> 00:08:23,600 Speaker 2: first place, like why I left in the first place, 191 00:08:23,640 --> 00:08:25,880 Speaker 2: and then the whole stuff that happened two days before filming. 192 00:08:26,120 --> 00:08:28,560 Speaker 2: I had already been separated for six or seven months, correct, 193 00:08:28,560 --> 00:08:30,480 Speaker 2: So that like a lot of people get the timeline 194 00:08:30,520 --> 00:08:33,080 Speaker 2: messed up, and I'm like, no, no, no, there was 195 00:08:33,160 --> 00:08:34,959 Speaker 2: a lot of times that happened and a lot of 196 00:08:35,040 --> 00:08:38,840 Speaker 2: things that happened before the separation in general. You know 197 00:08:39,000 --> 00:08:41,040 Speaker 2: that led me to leave in the very first place. 198 00:08:41,320 --> 00:08:42,760 Speaker 2: And it had nothing to do with Julian. 199 00:08:43,200 --> 00:08:45,720 Speaker 1: Yeah, you know, I know. This was the first time 200 00:08:46,040 --> 00:08:48,480 Speaker 1: way after us going cause I think it was us 201 00:08:48,520 --> 00:08:51,320 Speaker 1: going to like a Christmas party. This was like two 202 00:08:51,480 --> 00:08:52,040 Speaker 1: years ago. 203 00:08:52,120 --> 00:08:56,120 Speaker 2: Oh yeah, yeah. Do you remember also I came up 204 00:08:56,160 --> 00:08:59,880 Speaker 2: to the grove and met you and Sheena and your moms. Yeah, 205 00:09:00,080 --> 00:09:01,960 Speaker 2: at the grow and that's when I first told you guys, 206 00:09:01,960 --> 00:09:04,480 Speaker 2: I think I'm gonna leave him. Yes, yeah, that was 207 00:09:04,520 --> 00:09:05,559 Speaker 2: before I left him too. 208 00:09:06,920 --> 00:09:09,679 Speaker 1: You And that's such a difficult I don't like when 209 00:09:09,720 --> 00:09:13,080 Speaker 1: people talk about things like this when they haven't been 210 00:09:13,080 --> 00:09:15,160 Speaker 1: placed in this situation and they say, well, if this 211 00:09:15,240 --> 00:09:17,840 Speaker 1: were happening, you should have done this. Yep, there is 212 00:09:18,000 --> 00:09:21,720 Speaker 1: no roadmap. Everyone's story is different. Oh h do you 213 00:09:21,960 --> 00:09:25,920 Speaker 1: think that you're going to catch heat? The fact that 214 00:09:25,960 --> 00:09:29,480 Speaker 1: you filed for divorce when he was in a treatment center. 215 00:09:29,960 --> 00:09:32,240 Speaker 2: I don't think so, because people are gonna see a 216 00:09:32,280 --> 00:09:35,520 Speaker 2: lot more stuff that happens leading up to it. So 217 00:09:35,600 --> 00:09:37,360 Speaker 2: there's a lot more that hasn't even aired yet that 218 00:09:37,400 --> 00:09:39,720 Speaker 2: I had to that I have to go through. And 219 00:09:40,160 --> 00:09:43,280 Speaker 2: I think people are gonna be like, oh, what the hell? Yeah, 220 00:09:43,320 --> 00:09:45,400 Speaker 2: I don't think anybody. I think some people are gonna 221 00:09:45,400 --> 00:09:47,920 Speaker 2: be like, why didn't you do it sooner? Honestly, right, 222 00:09:48,040 --> 00:09:50,600 Speaker 2: you know, And if people do give me heat, I'm like, listen, 223 00:09:51,200 --> 00:09:54,040 Speaker 2: it took me a long time to get where I 224 00:09:54,040 --> 00:09:56,120 Speaker 2: finally had the strength to leave him in the first place. 225 00:09:56,520 --> 00:09:58,520 Speaker 2: I was trying to give him like some grace while 226 00:09:58,520 --> 00:10:01,120 Speaker 2: he was doing things and HOPEFU working on himself. But 227 00:10:01,160 --> 00:10:04,120 Speaker 2: then you obviously see, because it's already been on the show, 228 00:10:04,160 --> 00:10:07,520 Speaker 2: I was getting rage text constantly all this stuff was happening. 229 00:10:07,600 --> 00:10:10,160 Speaker 2: And then there's more stuff I can't say yet because 230 00:10:10,200 --> 00:10:13,080 Speaker 2: it's on the show obviously, but even more stuff that 231 00:10:13,160 --> 00:10:15,360 Speaker 2: hasn't aired yet that like I had to go through. 232 00:10:15,520 --> 00:10:17,040 Speaker 1: Yeah, it doesn't end, yeah, and. 233 00:10:17,200 --> 00:10:19,959 Speaker 2: Ever, it was like almost every other day something new 234 00:10:20,040 --> 00:10:23,600 Speaker 2: was happening, and you know, yeah, it took me a 235 00:10:23,600 --> 00:10:25,960 Speaker 2: long time. To leave. But I did leave, and I'm 236 00:10:26,000 --> 00:10:29,120 Speaker 2: like very proud of myself and I'm happy with what 237 00:10:29,240 --> 00:10:30,800 Speaker 2: I did. You know, it should be. 238 00:10:30,960 --> 00:10:34,400 Speaker 1: Yeah, no matter when you choose to leave somebody. I mean, 239 00:10:34,920 --> 00:10:38,520 Speaker 1: like you said, this was a decade with this man. Yes, 240 00:10:39,080 --> 00:10:42,160 Speaker 1: where some people most people, you know, because I got 241 00:10:42,200 --> 00:10:44,680 Speaker 1: a lot of people saying, well, you pushed your ex 242 00:10:44,720 --> 00:10:46,679 Speaker 1: on us so much, and you did this and you 243 00:10:46,679 --> 00:10:49,160 Speaker 1: did that, and it's like, well, now I'm telling you 244 00:10:49,160 --> 00:10:49,800 Speaker 1: that he sucked. 245 00:10:50,679 --> 00:10:52,680 Speaker 2: So if you're like I changed my events, I changed 246 00:10:52,720 --> 00:10:53,200 Speaker 2: my mind. 247 00:10:53,480 --> 00:10:58,360 Speaker 1: Yeah, And there's a moment where it just kind of 248 00:10:58,400 --> 00:11:02,240 Speaker 1: all makes so much sense of like I'm just done here. Yeah, 249 00:11:02,440 --> 00:11:05,120 Speaker 1: And you can't pick and choose when that time come. 250 00:11:05,240 --> 00:11:07,480 Speaker 2: Yeah, you have to like hit your breaking point. And 251 00:11:08,120 --> 00:11:11,200 Speaker 2: I always say, like having cruise around with all the 252 00:11:11,200 --> 00:11:13,840 Speaker 2: fighting and stuff that was going on, that really brought 253 00:11:13,880 --> 00:11:15,760 Speaker 2: me to my breaking point. A lot of people stay 254 00:11:15,760 --> 00:11:18,680 Speaker 2: in relationships because of their kids and things like we 255 00:11:18,720 --> 00:11:20,319 Speaker 2: need to stay together, we need to make it through 256 00:11:20,679 --> 00:11:22,959 Speaker 2: to college and this and that, and they're like miserable 257 00:11:23,000 --> 00:11:25,240 Speaker 2: their whole lives. It just got to the point where 258 00:11:25,280 --> 00:11:28,480 Speaker 2: it was so toxic and so bad and my little, sweet, 259 00:11:28,480 --> 00:11:30,960 Speaker 2: innocent Cruise, Like having to be around that, it like 260 00:11:31,000 --> 00:11:33,360 Speaker 2: broke my heart. So my Mama bear came out and 261 00:11:33,400 --> 00:11:36,520 Speaker 2: I was like, nope, like it just completely opened my eyes. 262 00:11:39,679 --> 00:11:44,080 Speaker 1: Cruisy is nonverbal. Hm, I feel like that. And I'm 263 00:11:44,160 --> 00:11:47,480 Speaker 1: not the mother obviously of a child who's nonverbal. But 264 00:11:48,280 --> 00:11:51,360 Speaker 1: he can't tell you what he's feeling, so he kind of, 265 00:11:51,559 --> 00:11:55,600 Speaker 1: I'm sure, just internalizes what's going on around him. 266 00:11:55,720 --> 00:11:58,080 Speaker 2: Yeah, Like just because he's nonverbal doesn't mean he's not 267 00:11:58,160 --> 00:12:00,560 Speaker 2: taking things in and feeling all the same. And I 268 00:12:00,600 --> 00:12:03,000 Speaker 2: just could not allow that to happen, Like I have 269 00:12:03,080 --> 00:12:05,319 Speaker 2: to be his voice and like protect him at all costs. 270 00:12:05,640 --> 00:12:09,080 Speaker 2: And that like really really was like that's with one 271 00:12:09,160 --> 00:12:11,600 Speaker 2: hundred percent in my breaking point because he doesn't care 272 00:12:11,640 --> 00:12:14,559 Speaker 2: to yell at me in front of anybody. And you 273 00:12:14,640 --> 00:12:16,560 Speaker 2: knew that, like it didn't matter. We talked about on 274 00:12:16,559 --> 00:12:20,280 Speaker 2: the after show, like it didn't matter who was around, 275 00:12:20,360 --> 00:12:22,400 Speaker 2: if it was my mom, if it was my dad, 276 00:12:22,960 --> 00:12:25,760 Speaker 2: if it was you guys. You know, I didn't matter. 277 00:12:25,800 --> 00:12:28,560 Speaker 1: Not So he didn't care what he said to you, 278 00:12:28,679 --> 00:12:31,160 Speaker 1: how he acted. He was not And that's what I 279 00:12:31,240 --> 00:12:35,000 Speaker 1: always found so interesting is I'm not an expert when 280 00:12:35,000 --> 00:12:40,480 Speaker 1: it comes to the broad the broadness of narcissism. But 281 00:12:40,520 --> 00:12:43,800 Speaker 1: I was like, this is so wild because normally in 282 00:12:43,880 --> 00:12:46,400 Speaker 1: front of people they want to put on a show, 283 00:12:47,120 --> 00:12:50,199 Speaker 1: and then behind closed doors is when all hell breaks loose. 284 00:12:50,640 --> 00:12:53,760 Speaker 1: But he really only cared about the audience watching him 285 00:12:53,800 --> 00:12:54,320 Speaker 1: on camera. 286 00:12:54,440 --> 00:12:57,480 Speaker 2: Yeah, and like social media and stuff, like he didn't 287 00:12:57,520 --> 00:12:59,720 Speaker 2: care to fight with me. Like if we were having 288 00:12:59,760 --> 00:13:01,880 Speaker 2: a pool party or something at the house, you didn't 289 00:13:01,920 --> 00:13:02,880 Speaker 2: care then, But. 290 00:13:02,840 --> 00:13:05,120 Speaker 1: You know, it's a camera there, it would be much different. Yeah. 291 00:13:05,200 --> 00:13:07,360 Speaker 2: But I mean, look how he traded me with cameras there. 292 00:13:07,679 --> 00:13:10,080 Speaker 1: That's true. Yeah, So that's why I'm so confused. 293 00:13:10,160 --> 00:13:12,480 Speaker 2: That's just like a lot of people need to realize, 294 00:13:12,520 --> 00:13:14,280 Speaker 2: like if that was on camera, think about what I 295 00:13:14,320 --> 00:13:16,640 Speaker 2: dealt with all the time, you know, And I think 296 00:13:16,679 --> 00:13:20,600 Speaker 2: a lot of people don't realize that. And you know, 297 00:13:20,840 --> 00:13:23,520 Speaker 2: it's it does something to your brain. There's like a 298 00:13:23,600 --> 00:13:27,320 Speaker 2: chemical addiction or something that I like, you have to 299 00:13:27,360 --> 00:13:30,880 Speaker 2: break before you can get away. It's crazy. 300 00:13:31,080 --> 00:13:33,240 Speaker 1: You know. It's funny that you say that because I 301 00:13:33,360 --> 00:13:36,600 Speaker 1: was having a conversation with a mom friend of mine 302 00:13:36,600 --> 00:13:38,800 Speaker 1: the other day and she we were talking about who 303 00:13:38,920 --> 00:13:41,080 Speaker 1: I you know, what my type is, who I'd be 304 00:13:41,120 --> 00:13:45,080 Speaker 1: interested in dating, and I was like, it's just a 305 00:13:45,240 --> 00:13:48,800 Speaker 1: wild thing that I am. So I think of all 306 00:13:48,840 --> 00:13:51,360 Speaker 1: the dudes who have come into my life since my ex, 307 00:13:52,200 --> 00:13:58,480 Speaker 1: and none of them are productive relationships. I am so 308 00:13:58,800 --> 00:14:03,480 Speaker 1: comfortable in combative situations and having to be in fight 309 00:14:03,600 --> 00:14:06,160 Speaker 1: mode that I wouldn't even know what to do if 310 00:14:06,160 --> 00:14:08,400 Speaker 1: a healthy man walked into my life and it was easy. 311 00:14:08,679 --> 00:14:10,520 Speaker 2: I know. I'm like, would I be the red flag now? 312 00:14:10,920 --> 00:14:14,839 Speaker 2: I like, yes, Like what in the world, like, just 313 00:14:14,880 --> 00:14:16,480 Speaker 2: because I've been through so much and I've got like 314 00:14:16,559 --> 00:14:18,640 Speaker 2: baggage now, I feel like Jackson will like try to 315 00:14:18,640 --> 00:14:20,040 Speaker 2: scare every guy a date away. 316 00:14:20,760 --> 00:14:23,000 Speaker 1: Yeah, you know what, there are things that you're you're 317 00:14:23,040 --> 00:14:25,520 Speaker 1: gonna have to work through. You're gonna you'll get into 318 00:14:25,560 --> 00:14:28,160 Speaker 1: a relationship, I'm sure, and there's gonna be things that 319 00:14:28,240 --> 00:14:30,880 Speaker 1: happen that have nothing to do with that relationship, but 320 00:14:30,960 --> 00:14:32,920 Speaker 1: they trigger something in you that takes you to a 321 00:14:32,960 --> 00:14:36,760 Speaker 1: place where you can't really explain it on why you're 322 00:14:36,760 --> 00:14:39,320 Speaker 1: feeling that way. Yep, But I think that same thing. 323 00:14:39,360 --> 00:14:42,120 Speaker 1: I'm like, I feel like I have I've done so 324 00:14:42,200 --> 00:14:44,720 Speaker 1: much healing and there's so much more to do that 325 00:14:44,840 --> 00:14:46,720 Speaker 1: Am I the red flag? Like, if a great guy 326 00:14:46,800 --> 00:14:50,200 Speaker 1: comes into my atmosphere, am I gonna push him away? 327 00:14:50,200 --> 00:14:51,800 Speaker 1: Because I'm a crazy bitch. 328 00:14:51,880 --> 00:14:55,480 Speaker 2: Now, you know, I just feel like we have to 329 00:14:55,520 --> 00:14:57,760 Speaker 2: protect ourselves a lot more. Now, we got a lot 330 00:14:57,800 --> 00:15:00,560 Speaker 2: more to protect with our kids and with you know, 331 00:15:00,840 --> 00:15:03,720 Speaker 2: everything that we have going on. I've got things I 332 00:15:03,760 --> 00:15:04,600 Speaker 2: have to protect. 333 00:15:05,440 --> 00:15:07,880 Speaker 1: So it's kind of a cool feeling. Yeah, when you 334 00:15:07,920 --> 00:15:10,000 Speaker 1: think about where you come from, Like, did you ever 335 00:15:10,080 --> 00:15:12,880 Speaker 1: in a million years think that you would be because 336 00:15:12,880 --> 00:15:15,000 Speaker 1: you felt like most of the cast we talked about 337 00:15:15,040 --> 00:15:18,600 Speaker 1: this on your podcast, every person that was on vander 338 00:15:18,640 --> 00:15:21,320 Speaker 1: Pump Rules, we all wanted to be in the industry 339 00:15:21,320 --> 00:15:24,240 Speaker 1: in some capacity, and we just found ourselves on reality TV, 340 00:15:24,320 --> 00:15:26,520 Speaker 1: which it was like, fuck it, it's a camera whatever. 341 00:15:27,400 --> 00:15:30,600 Speaker 1: You literally were like, I'm at a guy and I 342 00:15:30,720 --> 00:15:32,800 Speaker 1: just love him, and he happens to be on this show. 343 00:15:33,000 --> 00:15:34,280 Speaker 1: You know, I'll look at you. 344 00:15:34,720 --> 00:15:38,560 Speaker 2: Yeah, it's wild. It's wild. That's something I hate whenever 345 00:15:38,640 --> 00:15:42,280 Speaker 2: people try to act like I looked for Jackson, I 346 00:15:42,360 --> 00:15:44,560 Speaker 2: found him out and blah blah blah blah. Absolutely not 347 00:15:44,960 --> 00:15:47,040 Speaker 2: Me and Kara ride a bar. They happened to come 348 00:15:47,080 --> 00:15:48,920 Speaker 2: to the same bar. I had never even watched vander 349 00:15:48,960 --> 00:15:52,120 Speaker 2: Pump rules. Everybody knows this that like actually knows me right, 350 00:15:52,200 --> 00:15:53,960 Speaker 2: There was nobody that would ever think I was lying 351 00:15:54,000 --> 00:15:54,360 Speaker 2: about that. 352 00:15:54,480 --> 00:15:56,400 Speaker 1: You just don't seem to me like someone that would 353 00:15:56,440 --> 00:15:57,920 Speaker 1: camp out on the couch and watch Van. 354 00:15:58,680 --> 00:16:01,680 Speaker 2: It just it wasn't my face. But you know, I've 355 00:16:01,720 --> 00:16:04,080 Speaker 2: talked about this story so many times. Kara saw Katie 356 00:16:04,120 --> 00:16:07,000 Speaker 2: wanted to take a photo with Katie. Katie started talking 357 00:16:07,000 --> 00:16:09,240 Speaker 2: to us because we both have like thick country accents. 358 00:16:09,640 --> 00:16:11,200 Speaker 2: We went to the bar to take a shot with 359 00:16:11,280 --> 00:16:13,480 Speaker 2: Katie and Schwartz. That's whenever Jack's walked up to me 360 00:16:13,760 --> 00:16:15,400 Speaker 2: and like got my number and stuff that night and 361 00:16:15,400 --> 00:16:17,760 Speaker 2: then loved balled me from the very get go. Oh, 362 00:16:18,160 --> 00:16:21,800 Speaker 2: like literally before I was even before I even left Vegas, 363 00:16:21,880 --> 00:16:23,600 Speaker 2: was like saying I needed to move to La and 364 00:16:23,640 --> 00:16:25,600 Speaker 2: this and that, and it just like happened so fast 365 00:16:26,200 --> 00:16:28,120 Speaker 2: and like too much. Like two months later I was 366 00:16:28,600 --> 00:16:29,040 Speaker 2: moving to. 367 00:16:29,080 --> 00:16:33,320 Speaker 1: La I know, like, and you drove, yeah, my little 368 00:16:33,320 --> 00:16:39,520 Speaker 1: Altima coop Alie the Ultima did it break down on 369 00:16:39,560 --> 00:16:40,320 Speaker 1: the way or something. 370 00:16:41,040 --> 00:16:44,040 Speaker 2: It started like the window wouldn't roll it for a second, 371 00:16:44,040 --> 00:16:46,160 Speaker 2: and then you know I drove to Sheena's house straight 372 00:16:46,160 --> 00:16:48,680 Speaker 2: to Sheena's house on the fourth of July, her parents' house. 373 00:16:49,240 --> 00:16:51,680 Speaker 2: So I was it was very hot during the summer. 374 00:16:51,840 --> 00:16:55,120 Speaker 2: So you're going through like Texas, New Mexico like a zoning, 375 00:16:55,200 --> 00:16:58,920 Speaker 2: like all these like hot, hot, hot states, and my 376 00:16:59,040 --> 00:17:01,680 Speaker 2: window was stuck down on one side, so the air 377 00:17:01,680 --> 00:17:04,720 Speaker 2: conditioning would not even like work enough to cool off 378 00:17:04,760 --> 00:17:07,520 Speaker 2: the car. My car started doing something weird where it 379 00:17:07,520 --> 00:17:11,240 Speaker 2: wouldn't go over sixty miles per hour, and I was like, 380 00:17:11,400 --> 00:17:13,640 Speaker 2: what the heck is happening. So they had to stop 381 00:17:13,680 --> 00:17:16,280 Speaker 2: in this like shady little town and try to get 382 00:17:16,280 --> 00:17:17,560 Speaker 2: my car fixed. So I had to stay in a 383 00:17:17,600 --> 00:17:21,199 Speaker 2: hotel overnight there while they looked at my car, and 384 00:17:21,200 --> 00:17:23,000 Speaker 2: then I made it the rest of the way. I 385 00:17:23,040 --> 00:17:25,359 Speaker 2: was by myself too. My dad was flipping out. 386 00:17:26,080 --> 00:17:27,800 Speaker 1: I don't think I would have allowed I would never 387 00:17:27,840 --> 00:17:30,359 Speaker 1: allow Ocean to drive across country. I just like to 388 00:17:30,400 --> 00:17:34,800 Speaker 1: be with a boy. You're tripping. Yeah. Also, when people 389 00:17:34,880 --> 00:17:38,120 Speaker 1: say that you were like out here seeking Jack's out 390 00:17:38,119 --> 00:17:40,240 Speaker 1: and like, let me tell you something, No, not one 391 00:17:40,280 --> 00:17:42,320 Speaker 1: person on the planet would watch fander Pumptles and be 392 00:17:42,320 --> 00:17:44,160 Speaker 1: like that's the winner. 393 00:17:46,119 --> 00:17:48,720 Speaker 2: After the fat Cara because she had obviously watched the show. 394 00:17:48,760 --> 00:17:51,320 Speaker 2: She was like, he's the bad boy. He's the bad boy. 395 00:17:51,359 --> 00:17:54,159 Speaker 2: But I've always been attracted to bad boys. I've always 396 00:17:54,160 --> 00:17:56,520 Speaker 2: been that girl who wants to change a man, making better. 397 00:17:56,800 --> 00:17:59,480 Speaker 2: I'm like such a caretaker and like a nurturer, like 398 00:17:59,520 --> 00:18:02,280 Speaker 2: I've like many of my boyfriends I took care of. 399 00:18:02,560 --> 00:18:04,080 Speaker 2: Even whenever I was in high school and didn't have 400 00:18:04,119 --> 00:18:06,280 Speaker 2: a job, I would like find a way to like 401 00:18:06,280 --> 00:18:09,040 Speaker 2: pay for my boyfriend's haircuts or something, you know, Like 402 00:18:09,440 --> 00:18:12,320 Speaker 2: that was just like who I was, you know. And 403 00:18:12,359 --> 00:18:15,120 Speaker 2: whenever I moved to La, like I would take loans 404 00:18:15,119 --> 00:18:19,000 Speaker 2: out because we lived in Koreatown, so I would get 405 00:18:19,000 --> 00:18:21,480 Speaker 2: like parking tickets all the time. And instead of asking 406 00:18:21,560 --> 00:18:23,520 Speaker 2: Jacks for money, I would like take a loan out 407 00:18:23,720 --> 00:18:25,240 Speaker 2: and he wouldn't even know about it, and then I 408 00:18:25,240 --> 00:18:27,040 Speaker 2: would like pay the loan off because I was working 409 00:18:27,080 --> 00:18:29,240 Speaker 2: at Hooters and Sir and all this stuff, and I 410 00:18:29,320 --> 00:18:34,840 Speaker 2: was catering, you know, all different events and stuff. And yeah, 411 00:18:34,840 --> 00:18:37,560 Speaker 2: but people always thought like, oh, she took advantage him 412 00:18:37,560 --> 00:18:40,760 Speaker 2: for his money. I was like, absolutely not. From day one, 413 00:18:40,840 --> 00:18:43,040 Speaker 2: I was even buying my own flights, Like he would 414 00:18:43,080 --> 00:18:45,000 Speaker 2: buy one. I would buy one. He would buy one 415 00:18:45,160 --> 00:18:47,679 Speaker 2: so it was never like that. Then I was, you know, 416 00:18:47,720 --> 00:18:50,639 Speaker 2: taking loans out or working a bunch and doing different jobs, 417 00:18:50,640 --> 00:18:52,439 Speaker 2: like I was working like three jobs at one time 418 00:18:52,840 --> 00:18:55,560 Speaker 2: once while I was here. And then we always had 419 00:18:55,600 --> 00:18:57,879 Speaker 2: separate accounts, so it was always like, did you money 420 00:18:57,920 --> 00:18:58,359 Speaker 2: his money? 421 00:18:58,400 --> 00:19:00,000 Speaker 1: Did you have separate accounts when you got me? 422 00:19:00,520 --> 00:19:00,840 Speaker 2: Yeah? 423 00:19:00,840 --> 00:19:01,800 Speaker 1: Did as good? 424 00:19:01,880 --> 00:19:04,880 Speaker 2: I never ever ever can pay God, yeah never. 425 00:19:05,640 --> 00:19:07,800 Speaker 1: He would have emptied that. Yeah, don't you think. 426 00:19:07,920 --> 00:19:08,920 Speaker 2: Yeah, for sure. 427 00:19:09,800 --> 00:19:13,000 Speaker 1: So once Cruisy, by the way, the message that you 428 00:19:13,119 --> 00:19:18,000 Speaker 1: sent after Cruise's diagnosis to your family and then you 429 00:19:18,080 --> 00:19:21,359 Speaker 1: sent it to me, and yeah, what was your headspace 430 00:19:21,400 --> 00:19:22,199 Speaker 1: when they told you? 431 00:19:23,840 --> 00:19:26,480 Speaker 2: I was expecting it, like I thought we were going 432 00:19:26,520 --> 00:19:28,719 Speaker 2: to get the diagnosis. But then like whenever you get it, 433 00:19:28,720 --> 00:19:31,679 Speaker 2: it just makes things a lot more real. It didn't 434 00:19:31,680 --> 00:19:35,960 Speaker 2: like really change anything for me, because I mean, of 435 00:19:35,960 --> 00:19:38,560 Speaker 2: course it changes things, but like whenever you're expecting that 436 00:19:38,680 --> 00:19:42,000 Speaker 2: you're going to get that anyway, it's like it's almost 437 00:19:42,040 --> 00:19:44,879 Speaker 2: a relief because you know what's going on, and you 438 00:19:44,960 --> 00:19:47,679 Speaker 2: know like Okay, now I have a plan and I 439 00:19:47,680 --> 00:19:49,320 Speaker 2: have to start doing this, and I have to do 440 00:19:49,359 --> 00:19:51,160 Speaker 2: this and blah blah blah, and like I could start 441 00:19:51,160 --> 00:19:53,880 Speaker 2: advocating and I can start, you know, doing different things 442 00:19:53,920 --> 00:19:56,480 Speaker 2: to help him that maybe I wasn't sure where I 443 00:19:56,520 --> 00:19:57,479 Speaker 2: needed to go before. 444 00:19:57,680 --> 00:20:00,720 Speaker 1: If that makes sense, It makes total sense you saying, 445 00:20:01,040 --> 00:20:04,400 Speaker 1: you know, with you being a hustler from the very beginning, 446 00:20:04,640 --> 00:20:08,520 Speaker 1: and you know you would split things with Jacks, I 447 00:20:08,560 --> 00:20:10,919 Speaker 1: can't help but think that all of those things that 448 00:20:11,000 --> 00:20:14,640 Speaker 1: you went through it was kind of teeing you up 449 00:20:14,840 --> 00:20:18,280 Speaker 1: to be in the position that you're in now, where yeah, 450 00:20:18,359 --> 00:20:21,439 Speaker 1: you really are the only person that's taking care of 451 00:20:21,520 --> 00:20:27,240 Speaker 1: Cruisy on every level emotionally, financially, on top of being 452 00:20:27,440 --> 00:20:31,560 Speaker 1: a voice. I mean, how do you educate yourself? Do 453 00:20:31,600 --> 00:20:35,880 Speaker 1: you speak with his therapist and they're telling you are 454 00:20:35,920 --> 00:20:37,240 Speaker 1: you researching on your own? 455 00:20:37,400 --> 00:20:39,760 Speaker 2: I'm definitely researching on my own. I follow like every 456 00:20:39,760 --> 00:20:42,560 Speaker 2: single autism awareness page that you can on social different 457 00:20:42,640 --> 00:20:46,040 Speaker 2: social media's and that's very helpful for me. I've had 458 00:20:46,080 --> 00:20:47,960 Speaker 2: a lot of moms reach out to me and like 459 00:20:48,000 --> 00:20:50,160 Speaker 2: I communicate with them, and I'm going to like really 460 00:20:50,200 --> 00:20:52,840 Speaker 2: try to get involved with different charities and stuff this year. 461 00:20:53,160 --> 00:20:55,000 Speaker 2: Like that's gonna be like one of my main focuses. 462 00:20:56,240 --> 00:20:58,760 Speaker 2: But yeah, I'm always learning. But also, like he goes 463 00:20:58,840 --> 00:21:02,320 Speaker 2: to speech there and OT twice a week every week, 464 00:21:02,600 --> 00:21:05,280 Speaker 2: so I go, like, he's there right now. So I'm 465 00:21:05,280 --> 00:21:07,239 Speaker 2: not there, but I make sure he's there no matter what, 466 00:21:07,280 --> 00:21:10,320 Speaker 2: like he does not miss OT and speech. But normally 467 00:21:10,400 --> 00:21:12,360 Speaker 2: I go and I sit in there with the therapist 468 00:21:12,440 --> 00:21:14,840 Speaker 2: so I'm learning everything that they're doing and so that 469 00:21:14,880 --> 00:21:17,800 Speaker 2: I could take it home and practice the same things 470 00:21:17,800 --> 00:21:20,280 Speaker 2: that they're practicing with him while he's there. And he 471 00:21:20,359 --> 00:21:23,240 Speaker 2: is thriving, like he is doing so well. 472 00:21:23,440 --> 00:21:27,800 Speaker 1: I don't even believe like the change since he's been 473 00:21:27,840 --> 00:21:31,119 Speaker 1: doing all of this work. Yes, I mean, he's such 474 00:21:31,119 --> 00:21:35,600 Speaker 1: a beautiful and happy little boy. I mean, we all 475 00:21:35,640 --> 00:21:38,760 Speaker 1: know how Jackson is, but you guys made a very 476 00:21:39,480 --> 00:21:41,000 Speaker 1: beautiful yeah Son. 477 00:21:41,080 --> 00:21:43,000 Speaker 2: Yeah, thank you. Always say that's the best thing that 478 00:21:43,480 --> 00:21:47,600 Speaker 2: Jax will ever do. Me too, though, you know, he's 479 00:21:47,680 --> 00:21:51,439 Speaker 2: like so amazing and he's so sweet and he's so good, 480 00:21:51,760 --> 00:21:57,720 Speaker 2: Like it's he's just he's loving and it's weird because yeah, 481 00:21:57,760 --> 00:22:00,560 Speaker 2: he's nonverbal, but like I know everything he needs, like 482 00:22:00,600 --> 00:22:01,560 Speaker 2: we're like connected. 483 00:22:01,760 --> 00:22:02,560 Speaker 1: Yeah, you're his mom. 484 00:22:02,680 --> 00:22:05,080 Speaker 2: Yeah, and it's just like, oh my gosh, I just 485 00:22:05,080 --> 00:22:07,199 Speaker 2: love him so much. But he's doing so well. His 486 00:22:07,280 --> 00:22:08,880 Speaker 2: eye contact and everything like that. 487 00:22:08,840 --> 00:22:12,119 Speaker 1: Is just that's what's so much better. Yeah, he makes 488 00:22:12,200 --> 00:22:16,359 Speaker 1: complete eye contacts and to see like he and Ocean 489 00:22:16,440 --> 00:22:19,480 Speaker 1: were fully playing on the day. Yeah, yeah, which I 490 00:22:19,480 --> 00:22:26,720 Speaker 1: thought was adorable. How will we explain to our kids, 491 00:22:26,760 --> 00:22:31,640 Speaker 1: because you know, the other day, Cruisy was it's called stemming, right, yeah, yeah, 492 00:22:31,680 --> 00:22:33,960 Speaker 1: and Ocean came up to you and she goes, oh, 493 00:22:34,000 --> 00:22:35,920 Speaker 1: my gosh, he's acting so crazy. 494 00:22:36,160 --> 00:22:38,119 Speaker 2: Well she was. She said, why isn't he talking? 495 00:22:38,560 --> 00:22:41,040 Speaker 1: Oh, she said, she said that at Mother's Day? Yeah, yeah, yeah. 496 00:22:41,080 --> 00:22:43,720 Speaker 2: And Mother's Day she goes, she goes, why is it 497 00:22:43,880 --> 00:22:47,560 Speaker 2: Cruisy talking? And I said, I said he will, he'll 498 00:22:47,600 --> 00:22:49,720 Speaker 2: talk eventually. I said, his brain just works a little 499 00:22:49,720 --> 00:22:52,359 Speaker 2: different than yours, but he will start talking eventually. And 500 00:22:52,400 --> 00:22:54,280 Speaker 2: she goes, okay and gave him like a big hug. 501 00:22:54,359 --> 00:22:54,479 Speaker 1: Oh. 502 00:22:54,560 --> 00:22:55,640 Speaker 2: So she was really. 503 00:22:55,440 --> 00:22:59,440 Speaker 1: Sweet because I wonder how we talk to our kids 504 00:23:00,080 --> 00:23:04,040 Speaker 1: and they have a child who's autistic in their class. Yeah, 505 00:23:04,119 --> 00:23:06,920 Speaker 1: it's hard to break down to a four year. 506 00:23:06,840 --> 00:23:09,840 Speaker 2: Old, it is. So there are a lot of different 507 00:23:09,840 --> 00:23:12,000 Speaker 2: things I've seen on social media, and I should, honestly 508 00:23:12,040 --> 00:23:14,960 Speaker 2: just send it to the group chat for our school 509 00:23:15,160 --> 00:23:16,960 Speaker 2: so that like other parents and some of the parents 510 00:23:16,960 --> 00:23:19,120 Speaker 2: have reached out to me asking how they should talk 511 00:23:19,160 --> 00:23:21,600 Speaker 2: to their kids about, you know, crewise and stuff, and 512 00:23:21,640 --> 00:23:25,440 Speaker 2: I appreciate that more than they'll ever know. But there's 513 00:23:25,480 --> 00:23:27,360 Speaker 2: like so many different ways that you can like talk 514 00:23:27,359 --> 00:23:30,200 Speaker 2: about it. And there's also like Sesame Street is starting 515 00:23:30,240 --> 00:23:33,119 Speaker 2: to have characters with autism, Oh really and yeah, so 516 00:23:33,160 --> 00:23:35,680 Speaker 2: that you can like let them watch like that episode, 517 00:23:35,720 --> 00:23:38,800 Speaker 2: like I think the character's name is Julia, and it 518 00:23:38,920 --> 00:23:42,240 Speaker 2: like really talks about how they can play together different 519 00:23:42,240 --> 00:23:45,840 Speaker 2: things like that. So inclusion matters so much. And they're 520 00:23:45,880 --> 00:23:48,920 Speaker 2: starting to like include all these characters that have autism, 521 00:23:49,280 --> 00:23:52,360 Speaker 2: a nonverbal and all these different things. And it's amazing 522 00:23:52,440 --> 00:23:54,520 Speaker 2: because then it shows other people how they can play 523 00:23:54,520 --> 00:23:57,080 Speaker 2: with them, like how sometimes they might need their space, 524 00:23:57,240 --> 00:23:59,879 Speaker 2: how you know, you have to like kind of follow 525 00:24:00,040 --> 00:24:02,720 Speaker 2: their lead a little bit. Like I think the Ocean 526 00:24:02,760 --> 00:24:05,439 Speaker 2: is really good about not trying to force him to 527 00:24:05,600 --> 00:24:07,719 Speaker 2: play or do something that like he doesn't want to do. 528 00:24:07,800 --> 00:24:11,040 Speaker 2: She like follows his lead, and you know, she doesn't 529 00:24:11,040 --> 00:24:12,960 Speaker 2: always have to do that, but she's like really good 530 00:24:13,040 --> 00:24:14,479 Speaker 2: at doing that, you know. 531 00:24:14,760 --> 00:24:21,199 Speaker 1: Oh yeah, she's. 532 00:24:18,320 --> 00:24:22,000 Speaker 2: So sweet with him, and so is Summer. You know. 533 00:24:22,119 --> 00:24:24,880 Speaker 2: I heard one of the parents that I follow on 534 00:24:24,920 --> 00:24:27,640 Speaker 2: social media. She was, you know, talking to a class 535 00:24:28,280 --> 00:24:30,399 Speaker 2: room and she was like talking about autism, and she 536 00:24:30,560 --> 00:24:33,920 Speaker 2: was like, she said something about like how I wish 537 00:24:33,960 --> 00:24:35,880 Speaker 2: I could quote it directly, but I'll have to send 538 00:24:35,920 --> 00:24:38,320 Speaker 2: you the link after this. But she was talking about how, 539 00:24:38,520 --> 00:24:42,000 Speaker 2: like you know, kids with autism, they just their brains 540 00:24:42,040 --> 00:24:44,560 Speaker 2: just work a little bit differently. They're born that way, 541 00:24:44,680 --> 00:24:46,919 Speaker 2: just like you were born with brown eyes and you 542 00:24:46,960 --> 00:24:49,560 Speaker 2: were born with blue eyes, Like that's just how they 543 00:24:49,600 --> 00:24:52,480 Speaker 2: were born. And she was like explaining it like that, 544 00:24:52,920 --> 00:24:55,840 Speaker 2: and it was it was just very inspiring. She said 545 00:24:55,880 --> 00:24:57,920 Speaker 2: other things as well. So I'll make sure I send 546 00:24:57,920 --> 00:24:58,480 Speaker 2: that link out. 547 00:24:59,000 --> 00:25:01,640 Speaker 1: I would love to see that because there's so much 548 00:25:01,680 --> 00:25:05,480 Speaker 1: that goes on in the world now where I don't 549 00:25:06,000 --> 00:25:09,119 Speaker 1: really know how to talk to Ocean about it. Like 550 00:25:09,600 --> 00:25:13,800 Speaker 1: I had Gigi Gorgeous on the podcast a few months ago, 551 00:25:14,560 --> 00:25:18,040 Speaker 1: and it was brought up because Jared came over and 552 00:25:18,080 --> 00:25:21,240 Speaker 1: he was in full glam before the Paris HILLTI and 553 00:25:21,280 --> 00:25:23,879 Speaker 1: you know, Ocean had never seen Jared with makeup on. 554 00:25:24,160 --> 00:25:27,480 Speaker 1: So she came up and was like, Mommy, Jared's here 555 00:25:27,480 --> 00:25:29,960 Speaker 1: and he has a lot of makeup on his face. 556 00:25:30,080 --> 00:25:34,000 Speaker 1: I'm scared, and I was like, that's so wild because 557 00:25:34,040 --> 00:25:37,680 Speaker 1: I've never said anything like this is her genuine feeling, 558 00:25:37,880 --> 00:25:40,239 Speaker 1: So how do I now take this and make it 559 00:25:40,280 --> 00:25:44,560 Speaker 1: a teachable moment? And the other day she had two 560 00:25:44,600 --> 00:25:48,040 Speaker 1: barbies and it was a Cinderella barbie and Teana. She goes, 561 00:25:48,880 --> 00:25:52,160 Speaker 1: this one's black and this one's white and they kiss 562 00:25:52,359 --> 00:25:57,760 Speaker 1: because girls can kiss too. Yes, that's exactly right. Gigi 563 00:25:58,240 --> 00:26:01,320 Speaker 1: was saying, like they just say what they're what they're seeing. 564 00:26:01,400 --> 00:26:02,080 Speaker 2: Yeah, exactly. 565 00:26:02,080 --> 00:26:07,199 Speaker 1: And it is something where when you know Cruisey is 566 00:26:07,240 --> 00:26:10,400 Speaker 1: doing his thing, how do I teach Ocean to give 567 00:26:10,480 --> 00:26:13,320 Speaker 1: him his space? Because she's very much about the why 568 00:26:13,359 --> 00:26:16,520 Speaker 1: of things. She wants to know why is he wearing makeup? 569 00:26:16,560 --> 00:26:18,840 Speaker 1: Why can he wear a dress? And it's it's not 570 00:26:18,880 --> 00:26:21,840 Speaker 1: coming from an ill place, their church, their babies. 571 00:26:22,280 --> 00:26:25,040 Speaker 2: I think hate is taught. So like, you know, if 572 00:26:25,080 --> 00:26:26,960 Speaker 2: you're you're doing a great job with trying to like 573 00:26:27,440 --> 00:26:30,800 Speaker 2: open her eyes to be inclusive with everybody, and that's 574 00:26:30,840 --> 00:26:32,119 Speaker 2: what parents should be doing. 575 00:26:32,320 --> 00:26:37,000 Speaker 1: It's terrifying, Brittany, Yeah, it is terrifying to be responsible 576 00:26:37,720 --> 00:26:42,640 Speaker 1: for children where you're like, oh, I'm responsible for making 577 00:26:42,720 --> 00:26:45,439 Speaker 1: you a nice human being. To go out into the 578 00:26:45,480 --> 00:26:49,200 Speaker 1: world and be productive and then I like looking in 579 00:26:49,200 --> 00:26:53,680 Speaker 1: there sometimes or I'll watch band. I'm not supposed to 580 00:26:53,760 --> 00:26:55,840 Speaker 1: be doing this. What am I doing? 581 00:26:55,960 --> 00:26:57,120 Speaker 2: You're doing a great job. 582 00:26:57,240 --> 00:27:02,600 Speaker 1: Made me a parent? Is is Jack's hands on with 583 00:27:02,920 --> 00:27:05,159 Speaker 1: like does he know what to do when Cruisey is 584 00:27:05,160 --> 00:27:05,840 Speaker 1: at his house? 585 00:27:06,400 --> 00:27:10,560 Speaker 2: Yes? And no, Like I very much take the reins whenever, 586 00:27:10,720 --> 00:27:13,240 Speaker 2: even whenever he's over there, like all right, tell him 587 00:27:13,240 --> 00:27:15,199 Speaker 2: what to pack and his lunch ball because his backpack. 588 00:27:15,240 --> 00:27:17,640 Speaker 2: I pack everything the night before and send it with him. 589 00:27:17,800 --> 00:27:20,080 Speaker 2: He doesn't stay there very often. He's probably stayed there 590 00:27:20,080 --> 00:27:23,520 Speaker 2: like maybe six times, yes, or seven times overall, and 591 00:27:23,560 --> 00:27:25,679 Speaker 2: that's been for a very long time, so you know, 592 00:27:25,720 --> 00:27:29,080 Speaker 2: he's always with me. But Jax does a good job 593 00:27:29,119 --> 00:27:31,359 Speaker 2: with like wanting to see him and visit him and 594 00:27:31,400 --> 00:27:33,320 Speaker 2: stuff like that. And if I need to go do something, 595 00:27:33,520 --> 00:27:35,560 Speaker 2: I can normally count on him to like watch him 596 00:27:35,640 --> 00:27:36,119 Speaker 2: and stuff. 597 00:27:36,200 --> 00:27:36,720 Speaker 1: That's great. 598 00:27:36,880 --> 00:27:40,960 Speaker 2: But when it comes like groceries or anything, like I'm 599 00:27:41,080 --> 00:27:43,280 Speaker 2: sending lists and you know, making sure that he has 600 00:27:43,320 --> 00:27:45,040 Speaker 2: everything that he possibly needs. 601 00:27:45,480 --> 00:27:49,200 Speaker 1: Sometimes I wonder is this just like a man thing? 602 00:27:50,240 --> 00:27:52,679 Speaker 1: Because I still get messages from my ex and it's like, 603 00:27:52,680 --> 00:27:55,639 Speaker 1: what does she like to eat what is she? Yeah, 604 00:27:55,080 --> 00:27:59,000 Speaker 1: and because we're not fond of our baby days, it's. 605 00:27:58,840 --> 00:28:02,679 Speaker 2: Like what a fucking d know? But I'm like, oh, 606 00:28:02,920 --> 00:28:04,640 Speaker 2: how can you not know? But I also took care 607 00:28:04,640 --> 00:28:06,200 Speaker 2: of everything while we were together. 608 00:28:06,080 --> 00:28:10,960 Speaker 1: Right, so then he like is lost anyways? Yeah, like 609 00:28:11,000 --> 00:28:12,440 Speaker 1: he knows how to cut the grass. 610 00:28:13,040 --> 00:28:20,760 Speaker 2: Yeah, but now I have turf, so so I don't 611 00:28:20,760 --> 00:28:21,359 Speaker 2: really need it. 612 00:28:21,480 --> 00:28:25,200 Speaker 1: No one needs to be cutting the grass anymore, no anybody. 613 00:28:25,359 --> 00:28:26,480 Speaker 2: I hired a landscaper. 614 00:28:26,720 --> 00:28:27,320 Speaker 1: That's great. 615 00:28:27,480 --> 00:28:31,160 Speaker 2: So my my flowers are looking better than ever. Honestly 616 00:28:31,960 --> 00:28:34,400 Speaker 2: changed all the landscaping out and it's like beautiful, they're 617 00:28:34,400 --> 00:28:35,159 Speaker 2: blooming right now. 618 00:28:35,240 --> 00:28:37,639 Speaker 1: Well, now it's like your safe space. Yeah, did you 619 00:28:37,720 --> 00:28:38,680 Speaker 1: sage it yet? 620 00:28:39,280 --> 00:28:43,520 Speaker 2: Uh? Well, Kristen has a couple of times. Yeah, you know, 621 00:28:44,320 --> 00:28:46,440 Speaker 2: I don't really know much about that stuff. 622 00:28:46,640 --> 00:28:49,920 Speaker 1: She's very into it. Yeah, so we're running along again. 623 00:28:50,160 --> 00:28:52,720 Speaker 2: Yes, thank god, that's my life easier. 624 00:28:53,640 --> 00:28:57,160 Speaker 1: One person to check off your list. You I got 625 00:28:57,280 --> 00:28:57,840 Speaker 1: many more. 626 00:28:57,720 --> 00:29:00,400 Speaker 2: To go, but at least, yeah, you guys are checked off. 627 00:29:01,160 --> 00:29:03,239 Speaker 1: Do you feel like you're ready to date or are 628 00:29:03,240 --> 00:29:05,440 Speaker 1: you just ready to like fuck. 629 00:29:10,120 --> 00:29:14,680 Speaker 2: Both? Sometimes? You know, it's been over a year that 630 00:29:14,760 --> 00:29:17,880 Speaker 2: i've been separated and might divorce will be final any 631 00:29:18,000 --> 00:29:22,080 Speaker 2: day hopefully really so yeah, like fingers crossed, I don't 632 00:29:22,160 --> 00:29:24,000 Speaker 2: really like being single. 633 00:29:25,520 --> 00:29:26,040 Speaker 1: Partnership. 634 00:29:26,200 --> 00:29:29,240 Speaker 2: Yeah, I think I get like lonely, But then again, 635 00:29:29,280 --> 00:29:30,520 Speaker 2: I do have a lot of things I need to 636 00:29:30,560 --> 00:29:33,240 Speaker 2: work on still and I need to heal from things. 637 00:29:33,720 --> 00:29:36,880 Speaker 2: But again, people are watching The Valley right now, which 638 00:29:36,920 --> 00:29:39,480 Speaker 2: was last summer. I've grown even more of course since 639 00:29:39,520 --> 00:29:43,200 Speaker 2: that that aired, you know, a lot stronger within myself. 640 00:29:43,840 --> 00:29:46,840 Speaker 2: But I'm having fun. I have a crush, nothing serious, 641 00:29:47,000 --> 00:29:49,280 Speaker 2: but yeah, we'll see where it goes. 642 00:29:50,040 --> 00:29:52,160 Speaker 1: I was thinking about this. I think we talked about 643 00:29:52,160 --> 00:29:56,680 Speaker 1: this on the after show. It has been two years, 644 00:29:57,040 --> 00:30:01,560 Speaker 1: maybe even more than that, that I've been intimate with 645 00:30:02,280 --> 00:30:02,720 Speaker 1: a man. 646 00:30:02,760 --> 00:30:04,400 Speaker 2: I cannot believe that, can you believe? 647 00:30:04,400 --> 00:30:04,760 Speaker 1: Though? 648 00:30:05,040 --> 00:30:05,880 Speaker 2: That's crazy? 649 00:30:06,080 --> 00:30:10,600 Speaker 1: The last time I bumped peeps was I think this 650 00:30:10,640 --> 00:30:12,680 Speaker 1: is how I gauge it. It was the weekend before 651 00:30:13,400 --> 00:30:18,080 Speaker 1: Ocean's birthday party. Wow, so was March of twenty twenty three. 652 00:30:18,280 --> 00:30:18,720 Speaker 2: Wow? 653 00:30:19,000 --> 00:30:21,880 Speaker 1: Yeah, is that not the craziest shit ever? 654 00:30:22,160 --> 00:30:25,360 Speaker 2: That's been a minute, Like, what the fuck? 655 00:30:25,920 --> 00:30:30,880 Speaker 1: And then I got pregnant the following November, and I'm like, 656 00:30:31,640 --> 00:30:34,240 Speaker 1: I worry that I'm going to be so comfortable with 657 00:30:34,280 --> 00:30:37,720 Speaker 1: being single and in my routine that I will not 658 00:30:37,800 --> 00:30:39,800 Speaker 1: be able to find anybody because I'm like, well this 659 00:30:39,880 --> 00:30:40,840 Speaker 1: is kind of lit. 660 00:30:41,200 --> 00:30:43,320 Speaker 2: Yeah, but I think you'll find somebody. I think it'll 661 00:30:43,320 --> 00:30:45,600 Speaker 2: happen whenever it's meant to happen, just with me, Like 662 00:30:45,640 --> 00:30:47,960 Speaker 2: I'm not in a rush, yeah, by any mains, but 663 00:30:48,080 --> 00:30:51,080 Speaker 2: like I do like being with somebody. You know, Yeah, 664 00:30:51,120 --> 00:30:54,160 Speaker 2: it's fun, but it doesn't it's not what I'm revolving 665 00:30:54,200 --> 00:30:56,600 Speaker 2: my life around. Like I feel like I'm a bad 666 00:30:56,640 --> 00:30:59,320 Speaker 2: bitch right now. I'm taking care of everything. Isn't a 667 00:30:59,360 --> 00:31:02,800 Speaker 2: house myself? Like it's it's great. 668 00:31:03,640 --> 00:31:07,560 Speaker 1: Yeah, And like you said, like a man anything, No, 669 00:31:07,640 --> 00:31:09,400 Speaker 1: but that's a good place to be in where like 670 00:31:09,480 --> 00:31:11,960 Speaker 1: the person who comes into your life is really going 671 00:31:12,000 --> 00:31:15,160 Speaker 1: to have to add because you're not looking for anything. 672 00:31:15,200 --> 00:31:18,880 Speaker 1: You don't need a man financially exactly, emotionally, you know, 673 00:31:19,120 --> 00:31:21,760 Speaker 1: you've been through a lot to where you're I'm sure thinking, 674 00:31:21,800 --> 00:31:24,080 Speaker 1: like I really don't need you for that either, exactly. 675 00:31:24,400 --> 00:31:26,480 Speaker 2: I just want somebody that like makes me laugh, is 676 00:31:26,520 --> 00:31:29,600 Speaker 2: a good time, respects me, is nice to me, like 677 00:31:29,640 --> 00:31:33,680 Speaker 2: actually treats me like I'm supposed to be treated and 678 00:31:34,160 --> 00:31:37,880 Speaker 2: you know, obviously loves my family, loves my son. Eventually, 679 00:31:37,960 --> 00:31:40,720 Speaker 2: like that's nothing that's gonna happen from the start, Like 680 00:31:40,760 --> 00:31:42,360 Speaker 2: it will take me a long time to ever have 681 00:31:42,400 --> 00:31:45,600 Speaker 2: anybody around Cruise. But whoever eventually is in my life 682 00:31:45,640 --> 00:31:47,880 Speaker 2: will have to be like in love with him. 683 00:31:47,960 --> 00:31:51,680 Speaker 1: You know. Yeah, when when would that be? Like how 684 00:31:51,680 --> 00:31:54,160 Speaker 1: would you know when it's time to introduce a man 685 00:31:54,200 --> 00:31:54,640 Speaker 1: to Cruise? 686 00:31:54,920 --> 00:31:59,520 Speaker 2: Well, legally because I put it in my divorce papers, yeah, 687 00:31:59,600 --> 00:32:04,720 Speaker 2: that Jacks can't have a female or a somebody that 688 00:32:04,720 --> 00:32:06,720 Speaker 2: they're dating. And I can't have somebody that I'm dating 689 00:32:07,200 --> 00:32:09,840 Speaker 2: around Cruise unless it's been over six months and we 690 00:32:09,920 --> 00:32:13,080 Speaker 2: talked to each other about it. Yeah, And I wanted 691 00:32:13,120 --> 00:32:15,400 Speaker 2: to make sure that that was written in ink because 692 00:32:15,440 --> 00:32:19,120 Speaker 2: I know Jackson is just like going around town. Me 693 00:32:19,160 --> 00:32:21,240 Speaker 2: and Jack's have been very different since the separation, Like 694 00:32:21,280 --> 00:32:23,640 Speaker 2: you don't see me out with guys in the public, 695 00:32:23,720 --> 00:32:25,600 Speaker 2: and you don't see like headlines and stuff like that 696 00:32:25,720 --> 00:32:28,680 Speaker 2: about me private. Yeah, So I just wanted to make 697 00:32:28,720 --> 00:32:31,720 Speaker 2: sure that that was something very safe, Like Cruise doesn't 698 00:32:31,760 --> 00:32:33,680 Speaker 2: deserve to have people in and out of his life 699 00:32:33,720 --> 00:32:35,840 Speaker 2: like that, So I wanted to make sure that that 700 00:32:35,960 --> 00:32:38,240 Speaker 2: was like very clear. Again, I don't even know if 701 00:32:38,280 --> 00:32:40,320 Speaker 2: six months would be enough. I think it would be 702 00:32:40,400 --> 00:32:42,520 Speaker 2: just something that you would have to like really feel like, 703 00:32:42,600 --> 00:32:44,280 Speaker 2: is this person going to be around or not? 704 00:32:44,760 --> 00:32:46,640 Speaker 1: Well, I think it's gonna be hard for you with 705 00:32:46,880 --> 00:32:52,840 Speaker 1: Jacks because unless he makes a huge change in his life, 706 00:32:53,120 --> 00:32:57,160 Speaker 1: there's going to be women who are around for a 707 00:32:57,200 --> 00:33:01,200 Speaker 1: significant amount of time. Mm hmm better than out And 708 00:33:01,240 --> 00:33:03,200 Speaker 1: I kind of had to be okay with that. When 709 00:33:03,200 --> 00:33:07,120 Speaker 1: it comes to Ocean, is that she's going to see 710 00:33:07,680 --> 00:33:13,520 Speaker 1: much younger women with her dad and they'll be around 711 00:33:13,800 --> 00:33:16,200 Speaker 1: for a long period of time until the girl gets 712 00:33:16,240 --> 00:33:18,520 Speaker 1: fed up and leaves him, because he would. 713 00:33:18,240 --> 00:33:19,120 Speaker 2: Never leave a chick. 714 00:33:19,840 --> 00:33:22,880 Speaker 1: But there's already one teed up to bring in the 715 00:33:22,920 --> 00:33:29,360 Speaker 1: next round. So I feel like I'm overcompensating. And now 716 00:33:29,400 --> 00:33:31,840 Speaker 1: Ocean's asking me, like last night she was playing the 717 00:33:31,840 --> 00:33:34,400 Speaker 1: piano and I was with Sosa, and she goes pretend like, 718 00:33:34,440 --> 00:33:38,200 Speaker 1: so says your boyfriend, and this is your wedding and 719 00:33:38,240 --> 00:33:41,120 Speaker 1: I'm playing the piano and then you guys kiss. Like oh, 720 00:33:41,240 --> 00:33:42,720 Speaker 1: now she's asking me. 721 00:33:42,880 --> 00:33:44,240 Speaker 2: Like, why don't you have a boyfriend? 722 00:33:44,480 --> 00:33:47,800 Speaker 1: Yes, yeah, And she said the other day she said, mom, 723 00:33:47,880 --> 00:33:49,200 Speaker 1: are you ever going to get a boyfriend? 724 00:33:49,320 --> 00:33:49,720 Speaker 2: Oh? 725 00:33:49,840 --> 00:33:51,360 Speaker 1: I said, do you want mommy to get a boyfriend? 726 00:33:51,440 --> 00:33:53,480 Speaker 1: She goes, yes, I would like that, And then I 727 00:33:53,480 --> 00:33:56,240 Speaker 1: could see her wheels turning, and she goes, mom, what 728 00:33:56,240 --> 00:33:59,320 Speaker 1: if your boyfriend is not nice to me? Oh? I said, 729 00:33:59,320 --> 00:34:02,040 Speaker 1: then I wouldn't be with him. You're the judge. You're 730 00:34:02,040 --> 00:34:03,920 Speaker 1: the one that tells Mommy, like I like him, you 731 00:34:03,920 --> 00:34:05,560 Speaker 1: can keep him around, and if you don't like him, 732 00:34:05,600 --> 00:34:07,960 Speaker 1: he's gone. And she goes, Okay, so if I don't 733 00:34:08,080 --> 00:34:10,960 Speaker 1: like him, I'm just gonna say I don't like you. Next, 734 00:34:12,040 --> 00:34:14,920 Speaker 1: I was like, this is a wild so funny. Now 735 00:34:15,000 --> 00:34:18,000 Speaker 1: she's thinking her mom's like a boring square, Like yo, 736 00:34:18,160 --> 00:34:22,120 Speaker 1: cause you get a boyfriend, bring someone else the boyfriend. 737 00:34:22,120 --> 00:34:24,799 Speaker 2: That is hilarious. She is so funny. I love that 738 00:34:24,840 --> 00:34:25,279 Speaker 2: little girl. 739 00:34:25,960 --> 00:34:27,879 Speaker 1: So it would you'd have to go with your gut. 740 00:34:28,080 --> 00:34:29,600 Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't have to croize my gut, but it 741 00:34:29,640 --> 00:34:32,440 Speaker 2: definitely it would take a while before I would, you know, 742 00:34:32,800 --> 00:34:36,439 Speaker 2: have somebody around him, and then yeah, go with my gut. 743 00:34:36,520 --> 00:34:38,319 Speaker 2: And then if they didn't like vibe or whatever, then 744 00:34:38,440 --> 00:34:38,799 Speaker 2: see you. 745 00:34:39,400 --> 00:34:40,960 Speaker 1: Was it hard to sleep with someone new? 746 00:34:41,440 --> 00:34:41,600 Speaker 2: No? 747 00:34:42,360 --> 00:34:45,800 Speaker 1: It was easy. Yeah, it was just like whatever, goodbye. 748 00:34:45,960 --> 00:34:47,840 Speaker 2: Yeah. I mean I was treated so badly and I 749 00:34:47,840 --> 00:34:50,200 Speaker 2: had lost all my confidence. So it was like having 750 00:34:50,239 --> 00:34:52,359 Speaker 2: somebody give me attention and make me feel good, like 751 00:34:53,360 --> 00:34:56,920 Speaker 2: was great. You know I needed that at that time. 752 00:34:57,200 --> 00:34:59,560 Speaker 2: You know, there were things like I didn't like about 753 00:34:59,560 --> 00:35:02,200 Speaker 2: my body and different things that you know, I had 754 00:35:02,239 --> 00:35:05,200 Speaker 2: been putting down and putting down about so many times. 755 00:35:05,800 --> 00:35:09,359 Speaker 2: But there have been out there who do not care 756 00:35:09,400 --> 00:35:11,319 Speaker 2: and they love you and they just you know, they 757 00:35:11,360 --> 00:35:11,799 Speaker 2: love your. 758 00:35:11,680 --> 00:35:13,840 Speaker 1: Body and like a womanly body. 759 00:35:13,920 --> 00:35:16,360 Speaker 2: Yeah. So I was made to feel like I was 760 00:35:16,400 --> 00:35:19,759 Speaker 2: like imperfect for a very long time after having my son, 761 00:35:20,040 --> 00:35:22,080 Speaker 2: and you know, it was great to have somebody that 762 00:35:22,160 --> 00:35:23,120 Speaker 2: made me feel good. 763 00:35:23,800 --> 00:35:26,200 Speaker 1: I like the guy who you fell straight on your 764 00:35:26,280 --> 00:35:29,080 Speaker 1: ass out of the shower and you guys laughed and 765 00:35:29,160 --> 00:35:31,120 Speaker 1: he still wanted to be with you after. 766 00:35:33,200 --> 00:35:38,960 Speaker 2: I hate too in the shower butt neked and you 767 00:35:39,120 --> 00:35:41,440 Speaker 2: slipped like you it was like I like slipped on 768 00:35:41,480 --> 00:35:45,040 Speaker 2: a banana pill like whoo, went straight back and he 769 00:35:45,520 --> 00:35:49,080 Speaker 2: was gonna like hit my head. Oh so it was 770 00:35:49,120 --> 00:35:51,520 Speaker 2: so embarrassing. But then the way that we laughed about 771 00:35:51,560 --> 00:35:53,840 Speaker 2: it was like so cute. 772 00:35:55,080 --> 00:35:58,760 Speaker 1: Get you a man where you can fall buck neked 773 00:35:59,280 --> 00:36:02,719 Speaker 1: but around. He laughed about it, and he's like, come here, 774 00:36:02,840 --> 00:36:08,160 Speaker 1: let me put it in. Oh my gosh. She's like, 775 00:36:08,200 --> 00:36:12,440 Speaker 1: I've never been so turned on. By the way. Then, God, 776 00:36:12,480 --> 00:36:13,560 Speaker 1: you didn't get a concussion. 777 00:36:14,120 --> 00:36:14,680 Speaker 2: Thank god. 778 00:36:15,160 --> 00:36:17,360 Speaker 1: See that's how I know I'm a square. It's like, 779 00:36:17,440 --> 00:36:19,439 Speaker 1: you're like, hey, it's so funny. I'm like, oh my god, 780 00:36:19,480 --> 00:36:21,239 Speaker 1: did you call nine one one? Well? 781 00:36:21,280 --> 00:36:24,080 Speaker 2: In my head like somehow like I didn't hit my head, 782 00:36:24,160 --> 00:36:26,160 Speaker 2: like I laid it on my back but kept my 783 00:36:26,200 --> 00:36:27,120 Speaker 2: head up or something. 784 00:36:27,800 --> 00:36:28,640 Speaker 1: Damn. Yeah. 785 00:36:28,719 --> 00:36:30,560 Speaker 2: He was like trying to catch me, and he was 786 00:36:30,600 --> 00:36:32,160 Speaker 2: like I thought it was gonna be bad, but you 787 00:36:32,239 --> 00:36:34,839 Speaker 2: like somehow didn't hit your head. And I was just like, 788 00:36:34,880 --> 00:36:41,000 Speaker 2: don't look at me. It was so embarrassing. 789 00:36:42,000 --> 00:36:45,879 Speaker 1: I like it, and I like him. He's talented. Yeah, 790 00:36:46,200 --> 00:36:48,560 Speaker 1: FORM going to move on before. I spelled way too 791 00:36:48,640 --> 00:36:54,640 Speaker 1: much this season of The Valley I we talked about 792 00:36:54,640 --> 00:36:59,279 Speaker 1: this when it first came out the teaser. Yeah, and 793 00:36:59,320 --> 00:37:01,319 Speaker 1: you were like, I feel like they could have put 794 00:37:01,400 --> 00:37:04,560 Speaker 1: so many other things into it. And I know that 795 00:37:04,719 --> 00:37:07,280 Speaker 1: I know that feeling of getting married to your story. Yeah, 796 00:37:07,280 --> 00:37:10,440 Speaker 1: and then you're like, why was this cut? And I 797 00:37:10,560 --> 00:37:13,160 Speaker 1: love that they showed you still having fun and still 798 00:37:13,200 --> 00:37:16,640 Speaker 1: being like the lighthearted Brittany that we all came to love, 799 00:37:17,200 --> 00:37:19,319 Speaker 1: like from Kentucky, just like happy to be here. 800 00:37:19,520 --> 00:37:21,440 Speaker 2: I think they did a good job with that all season, 801 00:37:21,480 --> 00:37:23,279 Speaker 2: because yeah, there's a lot of hard stuff to come, 802 00:37:23,320 --> 00:37:26,000 Speaker 2: but I was still like going out with my girls, 803 00:37:26,080 --> 00:37:28,879 Speaker 2: having fun, laughing about a lot of stuff. Like there's 804 00:37:28,920 --> 00:37:30,680 Speaker 2: a lot of ups and downs the entire season, and 805 00:37:30,719 --> 00:37:33,720 Speaker 2: I know the Valley can be really dark at times, 806 00:37:34,040 --> 00:37:37,080 Speaker 2: but it's like what we were actually going through ran 807 00:37:37,960 --> 00:37:41,799 Speaker 2: We're not hiding stuff, and that's like why people can 808 00:37:41,840 --> 00:37:44,360 Speaker 2: relate to what's going on, especially in my life. 809 00:37:44,440 --> 00:37:47,719 Speaker 1: Well, yeah, it's a very dark season, but like, what 810 00:37:47,880 --> 00:37:50,719 Speaker 1: do you want you guys to do start pretending like 811 00:37:50,880 --> 00:37:53,080 Speaker 1: everything's all good. I mean, like you said, this is 812 00:37:53,200 --> 00:37:55,440 Speaker 1: what you guys are going through, and I do feel 813 00:37:56,600 --> 00:38:01,359 Speaker 1: that so much has changed since you guys filmed that. 814 00:38:01,520 --> 00:38:06,120 Speaker 1: Come your guys's next season, you will have the lighthearted moment. 815 00:38:06,239 --> 00:38:08,200 Speaker 2: Oh yeah, I think next season is going to be, 816 00:38:08,920 --> 00:38:12,720 Speaker 2: hopefully knock on Wood a lot better for me because, 817 00:38:12,760 --> 00:38:15,040 Speaker 2: like I said, I'm in such a better place and 818 00:38:16,080 --> 00:38:20,799 Speaker 2: I have moved on like big time, and I think 819 00:38:20,800 --> 00:38:24,160 Speaker 2: I was so struggling a lot last this season, so 820 00:38:24,400 --> 00:38:26,480 Speaker 2: it'll be interesting to see how next summer goes. 821 00:38:26,600 --> 00:38:28,560 Speaker 1: Do you feel like it's a setback when you have 822 00:38:28,640 --> 00:38:31,839 Speaker 1: to when you watch it and then like, I don't 823 00:38:31,880 --> 00:38:33,759 Speaker 1: know how you are with the comment section, but like 824 00:38:33,800 --> 00:38:35,920 Speaker 1: if you allow yourself to go into the comment section, 825 00:38:36,440 --> 00:38:37,319 Speaker 1: is it a set back? 826 00:38:37,480 --> 00:38:42,280 Speaker 2: Sometimes? Yeah, And like my team will be like, Brittany, 827 00:38:42,480 --> 00:38:44,439 Speaker 2: for your mental health, don't look at that stuff. That's 828 00:38:44,480 --> 00:38:47,520 Speaker 2: not who you are. Everyone's allowed to have down moments 829 00:38:47,520 --> 00:38:49,319 Speaker 2: and or you know, good moments and blah blah blah, 830 00:38:49,320 --> 00:38:50,960 Speaker 2: and it's so up and down. There's a lot more 831 00:38:51,000 --> 00:38:53,520 Speaker 2: people that are supporting me that are like hating on 832 00:38:53,600 --> 00:38:57,320 Speaker 2: me or doing whatever, so they'll, you know, they'll definitely 833 00:38:57,360 --> 00:38:58,680 Speaker 2: be like, do you want me to send you like 834 00:38:58,719 --> 00:39:00,920 Speaker 2: all the good comments so that you'll just see that, 835 00:39:01,200 --> 00:39:04,040 Speaker 2: you know, that would be excellent. I just I'm such 836 00:39:04,040 --> 00:39:06,400 Speaker 2: a people pleaser, so I don't like when people don't 837 00:39:06,520 --> 00:39:08,759 Speaker 2: like me. That's just how my personality is. 838 00:39:09,239 --> 00:39:12,399 Speaker 1: Yeah, but I thought it was very refreshing this this 839 00:39:12,719 --> 00:39:15,880 Speaker 1: uh season so far, especially when you guys were in 840 00:39:16,360 --> 00:39:19,600 Speaker 1: Santa Barbara, Yeah, and you got annoyed and it was like, 841 00:39:19,719 --> 00:39:21,719 Speaker 1: I share my whole life, and I feel like other 842 00:39:21,760 --> 00:39:24,480 Speaker 1: people aren't. And then Nia says, because you're going through 843 00:39:24,520 --> 00:39:28,520 Speaker 1: a hard time, yeah, you have to project onto me yep, 844 00:39:29,520 --> 00:39:31,800 Speaker 1: And I'm like, no, not at all. It's this is 845 00:39:31,800 --> 00:39:34,480 Speaker 1: a reality television show and everyone needs to show up 846 00:39:34,520 --> 00:39:36,560 Speaker 1: and share their fucking life or else you make this 847 00:39:36,680 --> 00:39:38,560 Speaker 1: really un fun and very hard. Yeah. 848 00:39:38,600 --> 00:39:40,359 Speaker 2: A lot of people in my comments about that were 849 00:39:40,360 --> 00:39:42,399 Speaker 2: trying to be like pretty just jealous, blah blah blah. 850 00:39:42,400 --> 00:39:44,080 Speaker 2: I was like no, I was talking about this one 851 00:39:44,120 --> 00:39:47,480 Speaker 2: specific day where I saw different things leading up to it, 852 00:39:47,520 --> 00:39:50,080 Speaker 2: which they did show some of it on the show, 853 00:39:50,200 --> 00:39:52,600 Speaker 2: like they showed like the fights and this and that, 854 00:39:52,719 --> 00:39:54,480 Speaker 2: and I love Nia, I want the best of you them, 855 00:39:54,680 --> 00:39:57,320 Speaker 2: but I'm not. That had nothing to do with jealousy 856 00:39:57,360 --> 00:39:57,799 Speaker 2: and had to. 857 00:39:57,760 --> 00:40:00,440 Speaker 1: Do with such a lazy excuse people. 858 00:40:00,960 --> 00:40:03,279 Speaker 2: I had a lot of things and I was like no, 859 00:40:03,680 --> 00:40:06,520 Speaker 2: guys like no. And also like a lot of people 860 00:40:07,280 --> 00:40:09,680 Speaker 2: thought that I was like either jealous or that like 861 00:40:10,160 --> 00:40:12,200 Speaker 2: I cared that Danny was drinking. I did not care. 862 00:40:12,640 --> 00:40:15,040 Speaker 2: We would be the last Yeah, I would have been 863 00:40:15,080 --> 00:40:17,960 Speaker 2: the last person that carried I cared because I thought 864 00:40:19,120 --> 00:40:21,200 Speaker 2: that day that there was a lot of things that 865 00:40:21,239 --> 00:40:23,000 Speaker 2: were being hidden and it was just that day. I 866 00:40:23,040 --> 00:40:24,719 Speaker 2: love them. I think they're great. If they want to 867 00:40:24,760 --> 00:40:28,080 Speaker 2: handle their business how they want to handle it, good 868 00:40:28,120 --> 00:40:30,760 Speaker 2: for them. But I was also going through the hardest 869 00:40:31,239 --> 00:40:33,680 Speaker 2: time of my wife being raised checks. At twenty four 870 00:40:33,719 --> 00:40:35,560 Speaker 2: to seven, you hit your breaking point, Yeah, I just 871 00:40:35,600 --> 00:40:37,840 Speaker 2: hit my breaking point. And there was other people that 872 00:40:37,880 --> 00:40:39,919 Speaker 2: were feeling the same way. So whenever we talked about 873 00:40:39,960 --> 00:40:42,880 Speaker 2: it, it just kind of like, yeah, it got bubbled up 874 00:40:42,920 --> 00:40:45,279 Speaker 2: and made into a much bigger deal than I ever 875 00:40:45,680 --> 00:40:47,600 Speaker 2: wish it would me in New York. Great, this was 876 00:40:47,680 --> 00:40:48,200 Speaker 2: last summer. 877 00:40:48,280 --> 00:40:49,480 Speaker 1: I know, I know good. 878 00:40:50,000 --> 00:40:51,840 Speaker 2: It was just that one night. And I'm allowed to 879 00:40:51,880 --> 00:40:54,880 Speaker 2: have bad days and moments where I. 880 00:40:54,880 --> 00:40:58,120 Speaker 1: Get enough if none of you have bad days, Yeah, 881 00:40:58,200 --> 00:40:59,839 Speaker 1: I have good days. I don't want to fucking watch 882 00:40:59,880 --> 00:41:03,759 Speaker 1: it exact Cress canceled, and a lot of. 883 00:41:03,680 --> 00:41:06,920 Speaker 2: People I'm a mean girl, and I'm like, I'm nowhere 884 00:41:06,960 --> 00:41:10,880 Speaker 2: near a mean girl, Like come on, Like, I'm allowed 885 00:41:10,920 --> 00:41:13,840 Speaker 2: to have an off moment in the hardest time of 886 00:41:13,880 --> 00:41:14,360 Speaker 2: my life. 887 00:41:14,760 --> 00:41:19,840 Speaker 1: Well, and there's going to be moments this season for 888 00:41:20,000 --> 00:41:24,440 Speaker 1: anybody where something that happens is literally just the cherry 889 00:41:24,480 --> 00:41:27,720 Speaker 1: on top of like all the other shit that someone's 890 00:41:27,760 --> 00:41:31,959 Speaker 1: going through exactly, I think exactly, And honestly, I didn't 891 00:41:31,960 --> 00:41:34,239 Speaker 1: feel like it was a projection at all. I've been 892 00:41:34,280 --> 00:41:36,360 Speaker 1: a part of filming a show and when people aren't 893 00:41:36,360 --> 00:41:39,799 Speaker 1: showing up and being authentic, it's like, fuck you all, 894 00:41:40,200 --> 00:41:41,680 Speaker 1: you're making this really hard. 895 00:41:42,239 --> 00:41:44,759 Speaker 2: Yeah. I mean people that actually are on TV get it. 896 00:41:44,800 --> 00:41:47,160 Speaker 2: I guess you know, because it's a more of a 897 00:41:47,200 --> 00:41:49,440 Speaker 2: thing like that. But you know, I just I hated 898 00:41:49,480 --> 00:41:52,160 Speaker 2: how big it got. But it was also just like 899 00:41:52,280 --> 00:41:56,200 Speaker 2: at that point we were all just like like we. 900 00:41:56,239 --> 00:42:01,319 Speaker 1: All thoroughly were watching about I feel like, whenever there's 901 00:42:01,360 --> 00:42:02,239 Speaker 1: a scene, I. 902 00:42:03,160 --> 00:42:05,000 Speaker 2: Just like, yeah, hit my breaking point, and I was 903 00:42:05,040 --> 00:42:07,560 Speaker 2: just like enough, guys, if I'm gonna share everything, then 904 00:42:07,600 --> 00:42:10,440 Speaker 2: please just share everything too. That's all that it was. 905 00:42:10,719 --> 00:42:14,080 Speaker 1: I get it. And you're is it hard filming with 906 00:42:14,120 --> 00:42:16,680 Speaker 1: a cast that's so brand new because you've been in 907 00:42:16,760 --> 00:42:19,719 Speaker 1: this for many years and you and I both came 908 00:42:19,719 --> 00:42:23,400 Speaker 1: on to a show where people were very very well seasoned, 909 00:42:23,440 --> 00:42:26,200 Speaker 1: and it came to filming a reality TV show. Now 910 00:42:26,239 --> 00:42:28,680 Speaker 1: you're the ogs and you're dealing with people who've never 911 00:42:28,760 --> 00:42:29,600 Speaker 1: done this before. 912 00:42:30,000 --> 00:42:33,319 Speaker 2: They actually I mean that one little night with Danny 913 00:42:33,360 --> 00:42:36,000 Speaker 2: and Niya. I got upset. Yeah, but I feel like 914 00:42:36,040 --> 00:42:39,120 Speaker 2: everybody's doing such a great job, Like everybody's bringing it, 915 00:42:39,520 --> 00:42:42,760 Speaker 2: you know, Yes, and they all surprised me, honestly. 916 00:42:43,160 --> 00:42:46,319 Speaker 1: Were you hesitant going into season one being like, how 917 00:42:46,400 --> 00:42:48,520 Speaker 1: is this gonna go? Or did you even think about it? 918 00:42:48,760 --> 00:42:50,680 Speaker 2: I didn't really think about that much because they are 919 00:42:50,719 --> 00:42:54,160 Speaker 2: all my actual friends, so it kind of makes it easier. Rightever, 920 00:42:54,160 --> 00:42:58,319 Speaker 2: you're all actually friends, you know, So were you nervous. 921 00:42:58,000 --> 00:43:00,040 Speaker 1: About that because you're, like, I actually like you guys, 922 00:43:00,120 --> 00:43:02,680 Speaker 1: And when you add the element of filming a reality 923 00:43:02,680 --> 00:43:06,200 Speaker 1: TV show, things can go south and friendships can end 924 00:43:06,239 --> 00:43:06,880 Speaker 1: pretty quickly. 925 00:43:07,000 --> 00:43:09,120 Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean it is nerve wracking. I hope that 926 00:43:09,239 --> 00:43:13,120 Speaker 2: people don't change the more like popular the show gets 927 00:43:13,160 --> 00:43:15,760 Speaker 2: and stuff like that. Would be devastating if like people's 928 00:43:15,760 --> 00:43:19,120 Speaker 2: like personalities started to change. Especially I don't feel like 929 00:43:19,120 --> 00:43:19,760 Speaker 2: it that they. 930 00:43:19,640 --> 00:43:23,600 Speaker 1: Have no I season really going to see Yeah, I 931 00:43:23,640 --> 00:43:24,360 Speaker 1: don't think. 932 00:43:24,239 --> 00:43:26,360 Speaker 2: No, because I put all these people's names on a 933 00:43:26,400 --> 00:43:28,000 Speaker 2: list to be on the show in the first place, 934 00:43:28,040 --> 00:43:30,680 Speaker 2: because I actually love them all, And I would be 935 00:43:30,760 --> 00:43:36,000 Speaker 2: devastated if like something happened just because like personality change 936 00:43:36,080 --> 00:43:37,960 Speaker 2: or their egos got too big or this and that, 937 00:43:38,120 --> 00:43:41,320 Speaker 2: and like, I try my best to never change and 938 00:43:41,360 --> 00:43:42,919 Speaker 2: say true to who I am, and I just hope 939 00:43:42,920 --> 00:43:46,120 Speaker 2: that everybody does that, And so far, everybody's doing amazing well. 940 00:43:46,160 --> 00:43:49,600 Speaker 1: I said to Janet when she first started filming in 941 00:43:49,640 --> 00:43:52,239 Speaker 1: the season one had aired, which I didn't watch season one, 942 00:43:52,400 --> 00:43:56,480 Speaker 1: but I said, my hope for you is that you 943 00:43:56,560 --> 00:44:00,040 Speaker 1: always stay who you are, because you're so fun and 944 00:44:00,080 --> 00:44:02,680 Speaker 1: so care free that I don't want this world to 945 00:44:02,840 --> 00:44:04,480 Speaker 1: kind of make you feel like you have to have 946 00:44:04,520 --> 00:44:05,759 Speaker 1: your guard up at all exactly. 947 00:44:05,800 --> 00:44:07,400 Speaker 2: And I don't want that for any of my friends 948 00:44:07,480 --> 00:44:09,799 Speaker 2: that are on there, you know, yeah, because they're all 949 00:44:09,880 --> 00:44:12,040 Speaker 2: such amazing people and that would like break my heart. 950 00:44:12,200 --> 00:44:14,680 Speaker 2: But I'm just praying that they won't, that that won't happen. 951 00:44:14,760 --> 00:44:16,960 Speaker 1: Yeah, even Jesse, who's kind of like a little douche. 952 00:44:17,800 --> 00:44:19,879 Speaker 1: I so enjoy watching him on TV. 953 00:44:20,080 --> 00:44:21,719 Speaker 2: Yeah, and I don't think that he's letting it go 954 00:44:21,760 --> 00:44:23,640 Speaker 2: to his head too much. I think he naturally is 955 00:44:23,719 --> 00:44:26,799 Speaker 2: like that. But I think that he's doing a good job. 956 00:44:26,880 --> 00:44:28,440 Speaker 1: I think you guys are all killing it, And you 957 00:44:28,480 --> 00:44:30,880 Speaker 1: know what, I don't know what the filming process was 958 00:44:30,960 --> 00:44:33,839 Speaker 1: like for you guys, but I do think that you're 959 00:44:33,880 --> 00:44:36,439 Speaker 1: all carrying your way. Yeah. I'm so happy you came 960 00:44:36,480 --> 00:44:38,560 Speaker 1: on the podcast. Thanks for having me, Thank you, my love. 961 00:44:38,640 --> 00:44:40,800 Speaker 1: Thank you guys so much for listening to another episode 962 00:44:40,840 --> 00:44:42,640 Speaker 1: of Give Them All That Podcast. I'm gonna catch you 963 00:44:42,680 --> 00:44:45,479 Speaker 1: guys next week. Bye bye,