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Speaker 1: Mental health check in for today, and today I'm actually

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Speaker 1: leaving Thailand and I am squarely in the blue. And

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Speaker 1: but here's the thing. I'm out here working on my mind, body,

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Speaker 1: and spirit. I mean, I'm out here working with monks

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Speaker 1: on my mental health, doing breath work for my spiritual health,

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Speaker 1: workingmy time for my physical health. And when I realized, like,

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Speaker 1: I've been out here for fourteen days and twelve of

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Speaker 1: them were in the blue, two were in dark, dark,

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Speaker 1: dark gray. And in the past I would have beat

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Speaker 1: up on myself for any days in the gray. Every

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Speaker 1: day I'm in the gray, I kind of beat up

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Speaker 1: with myself for it. And instead, this time I looked

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Speaker 1: at it saying, hey, I only had two gray days

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Speaker 1: in twelve blue days, which is a wind for me.

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Speaker 1: That's how I looked at it this time. In the past,

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Speaker 1: I would have looked at it in those gray days saying, oh, man,

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Speaker 1: I'm in a grade day. How can I be in

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Speaker 1: a gray day? Well, my life is so great. I'm

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Speaker 1: out of here in this magical place. So I shifted

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Speaker 1: my own narrative while I was out here to realize, look,

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Speaker 1: just when you have an anxiety and depression as much

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Speaker 1: as we battle it. We're still going to have those

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Speaker 1: days and we just have to learn tools. Had a

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Speaker 1: better deal with those days. So I'm in the blue today.

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Speaker 1: I don't know if I will be tomorrow or not,

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Speaker 1: but I had better tools now to deal with it

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Speaker 1: when I'm not in the blue. And it was really

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Speaker 1: beautiful to be able to come out here, also with

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Speaker 1: my girlfriend Rosie, who the last time I came out

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Speaker 1: here to Thailand, I didn't feel worthy of being loved.

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Speaker 1: I didn't feel worth it, and that and selfless growth

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Speaker 1: for me now feeling worthy. If I didn't take this

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Speaker 1: mental health journey, you go down this road, I never

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Speaker 1: would have felt worthy of being loved and I wouldn't

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Speaker 1: have had my heart my universe open to beating with

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Speaker 1: somebody now. So because I opened up to all you

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Speaker 1: and all the advice I got back and the guidant

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Speaker 1: I got back, not just from professionals but from you

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Speaker 1: as well, has opened my universe for love and for

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Speaker 1: me to be out here more loving path. Thank y'all,

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Speaker 1: Love y'all, let's keep walking this walk together. One other

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Speaker 1: note of your gang. My book Unbreakable, comes out in

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Speaker 1: paperback in April. If you haven't gotten it yet? Please

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Speaker 1: get it? It's again. It's I just open up fully

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Speaker 1: about what it feels like to live in the gray,

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Speaker 1: what depression anxiety feels like, to give it words. We

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Speaker 1: talk about mental health and who really gives it words,

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Speaker 1: so we could out of the conversations with each other.

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Speaker 1: I do believe that we're in the majority of those

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Speaker 1: of us in the gray. I don't think we're in

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Speaker 1: the minority. I just think not enough for us talk

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Speaker 1: about it yet, so we feel like we're in the minority.

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Speaker 1: Once we know we're in the majority, communicating and finding

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Speaker 1: your teammates to talk about this would be a lot easier.

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Speaker 1: Love y'all.