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Speaker 1: Welcome back everyone to I Do Part two. It's your

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Speaker 1: hosts Amy and TJ. And we are going to jump

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Speaker 1: right back into our fascinating conversation with Mary Brown from

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Speaker 1: Sister Wives.

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Speaker 2: It's one thing to get divorced.

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Speaker 1: That's hard enough from one person, but you also got

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Speaker 1: divorced from your sister wives in a sense too. Or

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Speaker 1: would it feel like that? How would you describe what

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Speaker 1: that transition has been like? These are women who were

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Speaker 1: your sister wives, who you lived with, who you worked with,

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Speaker 1: and who Yeah, I mean what what?

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Speaker 2: What's that relationship?

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Speaker 1: Like?

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Speaker 3: A really interesting situation because each one of us need

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Speaker 3: to and have the right to live our lives that

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Speaker 3: is authentic to us and live in alignment to us,

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Speaker 3: right And for me, really embracing the fact and accepting

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Speaker 3: the fact that what aligns with me is not everybody

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Speaker 3: in my family, right. It just doesn't. And it took

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Speaker 3: me a while to really be able to come to

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Speaker 3: accept that I don't have to have relationships with everybody

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Speaker 3: in the family, nor do I want to. There are

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Speaker 3: some that I absolutely choose I will not. It's not

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Speaker 3: healthy for me, you know, It's it's just not it's

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Speaker 3: not healthy. And so really just kind of embracing that

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Speaker 3: is heartbreaking on a level, but also it's the best

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Speaker 3: for me, and it's the best for them too, you know,

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Speaker 3: because I know some of them have I'm not healthy

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Speaker 3: for them either, right, And that's okay, that's okay. It

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Speaker 3: just because we were in the same family doesn't mean

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Speaker 3: we have to spend our whole lives together as friends.

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Speaker 4: So you and Christine are now don't talk. Okay. That's

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Speaker 4: so much different from good is there have you?

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Speaker 3: But there's like, on my part, I don't know about her.

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Speaker 3: On my part, there's no hate. I just don't choose

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Speaker 3: to have her in my life.

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Speaker 1: You know.

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Speaker 3: It's just it's not healthy and it's not safe for

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Speaker 3: me emotionally.

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Speaker 4: Well, she agreed that you're the same for her, like

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Speaker 4: you're not emotionally health and Lena, yeah, I think so.

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Speaker 3: I think are just because we have had some really

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Speaker 3: good times. But I think our values just don't ALIGNE.

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Speaker 3: I know our values don't ALIGNE. There's certain things that

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Speaker 3: I want and I need in a relationship and she

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Speaker 3: absolutely doesn't have that. And I believe the same thing

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Speaker 3: for her. She needs and want certain things in a relationship,

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Speaker 3: and I don't have that for her, So for us,

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Speaker 3: I think it's just best to just I mean, we

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Speaker 3: each other. You know, It's not like we're going to

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Speaker 3: scratch each other's eyes out or anything like that, but

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Speaker 3: we just on a daily basis. We're not going to

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Speaker 3: be in others' lives.

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Speaker 4: I tune in for that though, not kidding. I'm not

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Speaker 4: advocating for two women going at it physically on a show,

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Speaker 4: obviously not. I want to ask you have said this

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Speaker 4: a couple of times about whether it's Cody, whether it's Christine,

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Speaker 4: that you as what your your principles don't align anymore,

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Speaker 4: but it sounds like some of youst certainly you and

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Speaker 4: Cody might have started with the same ones. Am I

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Speaker 4: hearing right that maybe you have grown in a different

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Speaker 4: place and you don't want to be where they are anymore.

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Speaker 4: I'm not saying they don't have growth, but they still

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Speaker 4: some of their principles and being in religion and spiritual

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Speaker 4: marriages and all. Did you just grow out of that

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Speaker 3: I think that we all have changed in some way,

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Speaker 3: and so our paths are just different. Not one is

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Speaker 3: you know, there was a lot of a lot of

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Speaker 3: separating myself from the religious structure. It's like, Okay, I

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Speaker 3: like that whatever it is that they were promoting, especially

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Speaker 3: even in the polygamy aspect of it. But we're still

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Speaker 3: And even though I didn't believe in the church structure,

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Speaker 3: for me, I felt like and I worked for a

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Speaker 3: It's you know, it's not healthy to be in a

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Speaker 3: when you're told that, you know it was all a

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Speaker 3: then that's not good for me.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, did Cody give you any reason to even want

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Speaker 2: to stay?

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Speaker 1: If someone says, not only was it a mistake, but

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Speaker 1: I never loved you that that's kind of black and white, like, yeah,

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Speaker 1: what else would you do with that?

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Speaker 3: And when he started saying those things that he never

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Speaker 3: you know what, I'm worth more than that, and I'm

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Speaker 3: not going to stay here just for the sake of

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Speaker 3: we one time had a marriage, you know what I mean?

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Speaker 2: Do you believe that? Do you believe that he never

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Speaker 3: No, I don't. I think that he loved me to

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Speaker 3: the best of his ability at that time. And I

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Speaker 3: think that's one of the things that just changed and shifted.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean it did.

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Speaker 1: It's I can't even imagine, Like relationships are hard enough anyway,

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Speaker 1: but you're bringing other people into the relationship.

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Speaker 2: Just the dynamics that that creates, it.

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Speaker 3: Does it brings a lot of you know, there's there's

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Speaker 3: definitely a lot of dynamics. It's funny. So many people

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Speaker 3: have asked through the years as we've done interviews or

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Speaker 3: just you know, random people on social media. I don't

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Speaker 3: know how you can't be jealous. Nobody said I wasn't.

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Speaker 3: Nobody said I wasn't. I've been very jealous. I've had

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Speaker 3: a lot of emotions, and I haven't necessarily handled my

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Speaker 3: emotions the right way, none of them.

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Speaker 2: Nobody does. Nobody does.

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Speaker 1: You know?

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Speaker 3: You do the best that you can in the situation

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Speaker 3: that you're in. And when you when you what is

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Speaker 3: it when you know better? You do better?

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Speaker 4: You know?

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Speaker 3: And it's like, so like we don't. I didn't handle

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Speaker 3: better now, like I have tools now, like if I

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Speaker 3: going to scream, but it's going to be in my

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Speaker 3: car alone rather than ask somebody. You know what I mean?

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Speaker 2: Yes, that is that is healthy. That is healthy.

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Speaker 4: Doesn't make the show sound as good.

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Speaker 3: It doesn't. It doesn't. I don't try the drama.

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Speaker 1: So, Mary, I know that you're obviously aware that Christine

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Speaker 1: just came out with a memoir.

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Speaker 2: Have you read it? Are you going to read it?

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Speaker 2: Any desire to read it?

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Speaker 3: I have not read it and I probably won't. I

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Speaker 3: I can't say that I lived it with her because

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Speaker 3: my life experience was different than her life experience. Because

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Speaker 3: of our different life experiences. Even though they were in

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Speaker 3: the same life, many of the things that she's I'm

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Speaker 3: sure talking about we had the same history, we had,

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Speaker 3: we lived the same experiences. Our perspectives are completely different.

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Speaker 3: And so what she's writing about is her perspective on it,

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Speaker 3: and it's one hundred percent valid to her, you know

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Speaker 3: what I mean. So I don't want to read it

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Speaker 3: because that wouldn't be fair because in my perspective, it

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Speaker 3: a shift or whatever. Right, Like, even in this conversation

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Speaker 3: both in it with a different perspective, Right, You're going

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Speaker 3: to remember different key points because that's what's important to

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Speaker 3: different and important to me about it. So when she

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Speaker 3: for her, one hundred percent valid for her.

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Speaker 4: Mary, is this definitely a part of your growth? Do

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Speaker 4: you think anyway, nineteen twenty twenty, even thirty year old

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Speaker 4: Mary would be able to have a conversation about the

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Speaker 4: guy she just divorced, and you were saying very kind things.

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Speaker 4: He's not a bad guy. I believe he loved me.

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Speaker 4: You didn't have a negative word to say, Christine. Now

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Speaker 4: writing a book in which he is expected to certainly

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Speaker 4: even saying now that you know what that is her

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Speaker 4: take her perspective and I respect it. What is that?

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Speaker 4: And how can other people get there? Because that I

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Speaker 4: didn't know you before? But that sounds like a woman

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Speaker 4: who has grown.

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Speaker 3: Thank you. I really appreciate that. I really do, and

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Speaker 3: it's something that yes, I've I've had to grow into

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Speaker 2: I'm curious, Yes, congratulations on that.

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Speaker 1: What motivated you to grow what usually people I don't

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Speaker 1: see a lot of times people hit rock bottom. They

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Speaker 1: get so uncomfortable that it's either stay and suffer or grow.

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Speaker 1: Was there a moment like.

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Speaker 2: That for you where you had to make that choice?

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Speaker 3: I don't know that it was one specific defining moment

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Speaker 3: obviously ten years ago. Everybody knows my dark my dark

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Speaker 3: moments in my life, right, So I had I had

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Speaker 3: talking about divorce, right, And I just needed to figure

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Speaker 3: I started investing in myself, like financially, education, reading, I

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Speaker 3: read I don't read books. I audible books. Audible is

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Speaker 3: it's rarely a novel, right Like I don't do novels.

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Speaker 3: I do like the personal development or the financial or

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Speaker 3: I have a better outlook on life. You look, you

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Speaker 4: She just described me perfectly in describing what she wants,

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Speaker 4: It's possible. And then you meet a fifty five year

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Speaker 2: So I love that.

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Speaker 1: I love that, and I will tell you it freaked

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Speaker 1: I was like, does it not like you know, you

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Speaker 2: But it did freak me out at first.

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Speaker 4: But no, Mary, we do a segment here, a thing

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Speaker 4: We'll keep an eye on you.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, keep your eye on me, and I get a partner,

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Speaker 2: Well, Mary, you know what, we really appreciate this.

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Speaker 1: We know you obviously have lived a fairly open life,

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Speaker 1: So I just think it's awesome when you're willing to

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Speaker 1: it does have an impact on so many people. So

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Speaker 1: we're rooting for you. We are rooting. We always root

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Speaker 1: for love, but we believe that there is someone out

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Speaker 1: really do think that. So anyway, we're appreciate. I know

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Speaker 1: the people listening who are searching for love as well.

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Speaker 1: The whole point of the podcast is for folks who

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Speaker 1: still walking that path towards love. So you fit that

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Speaker 1: people who.

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Speaker 2: Are listening today.

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Speaker 1: So make sure to check out the new season of

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Speaker 1: Sister Wives. It premieres on Sunday, September twenty eighth on TLC.

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Speaker 1: And if you are trying to date for the first

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Speaker 1: time in your chapter two, this is the podcast for you,

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Speaker 1: so you can call us, you can email us. All

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Speaker 1: the info is in the show notes because we want

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Speaker 1: to help you find your partner in life. So you

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Speaker 1: can follow us on social media. Make sure to rate

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Speaker 1: and review the podcast as well. I do Part two,

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Speaker 1: an iHeart podcast where falling in love is the main objective.

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Speaker 1: I'm Amy Robock alongside TJ.

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Speaker 2: Holmes.

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Speaker 1: Mary.

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Speaker 4: Thank you. It is such a pleasure go luck this season.

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Speaker 3: Oh, thank you both. It's been fun. I really enjoyed

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Speaker 3: the conversation. MHM.