1 00:00:00,680 --> 00:00:03,240 Speaker 1: Well, we're back on the phone. That lafter long time, 2 00:00:05,840 --> 00:00:15,080 Speaker 1: good happy. It literally feels just like dragged on. Someone 3 00:00:15,160 --> 00:00:17,279 Speaker 1: posted it was actually Radio Amy from the Body but 4 00:00:17,280 --> 00:00:20,799 Speaker 1: Bobby Bones Show. She posted earlier today that she didn't 5 00:00:20,800 --> 00:00:23,200 Speaker 1: want to subscribe after her two weeks trial run to 6 00:00:24,040 --> 00:00:26,880 Speaker 1: and I was like, it's totally been two weeks. Can 7 00:00:26,960 --> 00:00:31,000 Speaker 1: we talk about that? This week alone has been a month. 8 00:00:31,160 --> 00:00:34,920 Speaker 1: I know, everything just feels I feel like the overall 9 00:00:35,000 --> 00:00:41,400 Speaker 1: weight is just heavy, and so everything drags on. We 10 00:00:41,400 --> 00:00:43,400 Speaker 1: were talking about the reason that we're on the phone 11 00:00:43,600 --> 00:00:46,599 Speaker 1: is um that I have a little sniffle, and so 12 00:00:46,760 --> 00:00:50,040 Speaker 1: I'm just so paranoid now, especially since I've had COVID. 13 00:00:50,240 --> 00:00:53,400 Speaker 1: I think that I'm even more sensitive to the topic. 14 00:00:53,440 --> 00:00:55,600 Speaker 1: But it feels like in Nashville people are just dropping 15 00:00:55,640 --> 00:00:58,840 Speaker 1: like flies. I mean, it's everywhere here and I have 16 00:00:58,880 --> 00:01:02,000 Speaker 1: a little sniffle and pretty sure it's just allergies, but 17 00:01:02,080 --> 00:01:03,520 Speaker 1: I just wanted to be really safe and so I 18 00:01:03,520 --> 00:01:06,720 Speaker 1: wouldn't got tested today. I'll find out my results tomorrow, 19 00:01:06,800 --> 00:01:09,280 Speaker 1: but I didn't want to expose you. If I do 20 00:01:09,440 --> 00:01:13,920 Speaker 1: have it, yeah, I've got this long I know, well 21 00:01:14,000 --> 00:01:15,560 Speaker 1: you think, I mean, you could have had it too, 22 00:01:15,600 --> 00:01:18,080 Speaker 1: and you just don't even know. Yeah, except for I've 23 00:01:18,080 --> 00:01:20,840 Speaker 1: been tested a lot and it's always negative. So yeah, 24 00:01:21,480 --> 00:01:24,479 Speaker 1: I feel like I'm giving blood and my anibodies test 25 00:01:24,640 --> 00:01:28,440 Speaker 1: came back negative, so it did. Okay. It's just such 26 00:01:28,440 --> 00:01:30,759 Speaker 1: a it's such an interesting time to me, the fact 27 00:01:30,800 --> 00:01:32,200 Speaker 1: that like I have to text you in the middle 28 00:01:32,200 --> 00:01:33,720 Speaker 1: of the day and be like, hey, full disclosure, I'm 29 00:01:33,720 --> 00:01:35,759 Speaker 1: going to get a COVID tests and you're like, okay, cool. 30 00:01:35,800 --> 00:01:38,280 Speaker 1: I mean, like it's just so part of the way 31 00:01:38,319 --> 00:01:41,520 Speaker 1: that our life is right now, you know, And I 32 00:01:41,760 --> 00:01:45,880 Speaker 1: honestly I hope that nobody's using it like um falsely, 33 00:01:46,000 --> 00:01:48,480 Speaker 1: like to get out of doing things like sorry, can't 34 00:01:48,480 --> 00:01:54,680 Speaker 1: come over, like coosed way to get out of the date. 35 00:01:54,760 --> 00:01:56,960 Speaker 1: But I mean, I guess, but like, isn't that the 36 00:01:56,960 --> 00:01:59,160 Speaker 1: way we used to be, Like maybe in twenty nineteen 37 00:01:59,240 --> 00:02:00,840 Speaker 1: or something like that, But now if you have any 38 00:02:00,840 --> 00:02:03,120 Speaker 1: sort of opportunity to see another human, you're like, I'll 39 00:02:03,160 --> 00:02:07,320 Speaker 1: do anything. Where are you? That is a point. Yeah, 40 00:02:07,360 --> 00:02:10,040 Speaker 1: I don't think people are making excuses. My go to 41 00:02:10,200 --> 00:02:11,880 Speaker 1: if I didn't want to do something, I would just say, 42 00:02:11,919 --> 00:02:14,240 Speaker 1: like I don't feel well, and like you can't say 43 00:02:14,280 --> 00:02:17,760 Speaker 1: that now. Because everyone seem like everyone's like, oh my god, 44 00:02:18,639 --> 00:02:20,880 Speaker 1: you don't just you just have to jump right to 45 00:02:21,080 --> 00:02:23,359 Speaker 1: like I might have been exposed. I mean remember the 46 00:02:23,480 --> 00:02:27,480 Speaker 1: common cold, Like where is that? Like, oh my gosh, 47 00:02:27,840 --> 00:02:31,280 Speaker 1: it's like you can't get it now because it's leprosy, right, 48 00:02:31,400 --> 00:02:34,720 Speaker 1: remember if the flu season, like it's just I feel 49 00:02:34,720 --> 00:02:38,040 Speaker 1: like every other illness has almost gone away because we're 50 00:02:38,080 --> 00:02:41,480 Speaker 1: just not talking about it because COVID is so talked about. Well, 51 00:02:41,520 --> 00:02:44,160 Speaker 1: I mean, I do think I actually looked up numbers 52 00:02:44,320 --> 00:02:47,400 Speaker 1: UM when I was at home for Christmas about the flu, 53 00:02:47,520 --> 00:02:50,799 Speaker 1: and there has been a decrease and that's obviously because 54 00:02:51,919 --> 00:02:54,480 Speaker 1: there's not as much human interaction and people are wearing 55 00:02:54,560 --> 00:02:58,239 Speaker 1: masks and um, but they're the flu is still out there. Yeah, 56 00:02:58,760 --> 00:03:01,640 Speaker 1: it is, It is out there. See, it does seem 57 00:03:01,680 --> 00:03:03,360 Speaker 1: like this season has been a little bit better. So 58 00:03:03,440 --> 00:03:08,760 Speaker 1: thankfully maybe COVID's helping with that. But yeah, we were 59 00:03:08,800 --> 00:03:11,720 Speaker 1: talking earlier and both of our days have just kind 60 00:03:11,760 --> 00:03:13,120 Speaker 1: of I mean I have to go run and get 61 00:03:13,160 --> 00:03:15,240 Speaker 1: the test, which was like it just throws a wrench 62 00:03:15,280 --> 00:03:16,720 Speaker 1: in your day. And then I was trying, you know, 63 00:03:16,760 --> 00:03:19,560 Speaker 1: I'm trying not to be around anyone basically and just 64 00:03:19,600 --> 00:03:22,000 Speaker 1: so I don't know, I'm just being overly cautious if 65 00:03:21,919 --> 00:03:24,639 Speaker 1: I mean, I think that's a respectful way to be. 66 00:03:24,760 --> 00:03:27,640 Speaker 1: You know, it's until you know, like that's kind of 67 00:03:27,680 --> 00:03:31,720 Speaker 1: like the stance you have to take, yes exactly. So um, 68 00:03:31,760 --> 00:03:34,040 Speaker 1: it sort of was like a rearrangement of the day. 69 00:03:34,120 --> 00:03:38,000 Speaker 1: But you said you've been sort of just what up 70 00:03:38,040 --> 00:03:41,400 Speaker 1: to your neck and stuff this week. I mean, it 71 00:03:41,440 --> 00:03:44,960 Speaker 1: has just been call after call after call, after meeting 72 00:03:45,000 --> 00:03:47,120 Speaker 1: after meeting. And I don't know if it's because if 73 00:03:47,160 --> 00:03:51,720 Speaker 1: it's amplified because obviously we hadn't been working. The whole 74 00:03:51,760 --> 00:03:55,720 Speaker 1: industry that I work and shuts down um for the holiday, 75 00:03:55,920 --> 00:04:00,240 Speaker 1: and I feel like last week was still like people 76 00:04:00,280 --> 00:04:04,480 Speaker 1: are like lingering vacation still, and then everybody came back 77 00:04:04,480 --> 00:04:06,880 Speaker 1: and it's like, oh, everything that I need is urgent 78 00:04:06,960 --> 00:04:09,480 Speaker 1: and so important it has to be done today, and 79 00:04:10,800 --> 00:04:12,560 Speaker 1: or the meeting has to be done today, and it's 80 00:04:12,560 --> 00:04:15,960 Speaker 1: just like, good God. Like the last three days I've 81 00:04:15,960 --> 00:04:18,479 Speaker 1: worked until one o'clock in the morning because the day 82 00:04:18,600 --> 00:04:22,920 Speaker 1: is so full of calls and zooms and things that 83 00:04:22,960 --> 00:04:26,400 Speaker 1: you can't even respond to emails thoroughly or do what 84 00:04:26,480 --> 00:04:28,520 Speaker 1: you like any of the work that comes out of 85 00:04:28,560 --> 00:04:32,920 Speaker 1: those calls. So it's like those it's those hours later 86 00:04:32,960 --> 00:04:35,080 Speaker 1: at night that I can focus on getting shipped done. 87 00:04:35,200 --> 00:04:38,440 Speaker 1: So you're actually really busy. Are you finding it difficult? 88 00:04:38,680 --> 00:04:39,919 Speaker 1: I mean, I don't know if this is just me, 89 00:04:40,000 --> 00:04:42,960 Speaker 1: but I feel very heavy and so like all of 90 00:04:43,000 --> 00:04:45,920 Speaker 1: the work that I'm doing, unless it's really like fulfilling 91 00:04:45,920 --> 00:04:49,520 Speaker 1: me internally, I'm really struggling to get anything done. Truly. 92 00:04:49,640 --> 00:04:53,599 Speaker 1: That is just the way that I feel. Yeah, I 93 00:04:53,640 --> 00:05:00,200 Speaker 1: mean it's me too, and I feel like, um, I 94 00:05:00,040 --> 00:05:03,160 Speaker 1: and I don't know, I've I've been feeling like even 95 00:05:03,160 --> 00:05:04,800 Speaker 1: when I do get something done, I don't feel like 96 00:05:04,839 --> 00:05:07,800 Speaker 1: I'm doing it to the best of my ability or 97 00:05:07,839 --> 00:05:13,480 Speaker 1: with all my heart. And that's not my intention, you know. 98 00:05:14,160 --> 00:05:16,120 Speaker 1: And I think that is part of what drives is 99 00:05:16,160 --> 00:05:20,400 Speaker 1: stressed because I am like, I'm high functioning and I 100 00:05:20,480 --> 00:05:25,120 Speaker 1: want I want everything to be done perfectly. So when 101 00:05:25,120 --> 00:05:27,640 Speaker 1: I feel like I'm not performing at that level, it 102 00:05:27,880 --> 00:05:31,960 Speaker 1: drives me crazy. That makes total sense to me. I've 103 00:05:31,960 --> 00:05:34,920 Speaker 1: been posting a little bit because you know, velvisage dot 104 00:05:34,920 --> 00:05:39,400 Speaker 1: com and my actual Instagram and stuff. I really started 105 00:05:39,440 --> 00:05:41,479 Speaker 1: it and it was a fashion blog. It was where 106 00:05:41,480 --> 00:05:45,000 Speaker 1: I posted a lot of hair tutorials. It was very 107 00:05:45,040 --> 00:05:46,920 Speaker 1: much based off of what I do for a living, 108 00:05:46,960 --> 00:05:49,600 Speaker 1: which is hair and makeup and styling. And it's been 109 00:05:49,640 --> 00:05:52,680 Speaker 1: such an interesting transition over the last year just because 110 00:05:52,720 --> 00:05:56,280 Speaker 1: that stuff has completely gone away, and I mean there's 111 00:05:56,279 --> 00:05:58,120 Speaker 1: been a job here and there, but like you said, 112 00:05:58,120 --> 00:06:00,080 Speaker 1: the music industry has kind of died down and so 113 00:06:00,760 --> 00:06:03,520 Speaker 1: um it seems like it's starting to pick back up. 114 00:06:03,560 --> 00:06:06,719 Speaker 1: But a lot of what I've dealt with this year 115 00:06:06,760 --> 00:06:09,520 Speaker 1: has more been like dealing with the inner stuff and 116 00:06:09,560 --> 00:06:13,040 Speaker 1: just the turmoil that I've faced with, like losing my 117 00:06:13,160 --> 00:06:16,920 Speaker 1: livelihood and also just sort of like facing myself in 118 00:06:16,920 --> 00:06:20,120 Speaker 1: this weird way of not realizing how much weight I 119 00:06:20,279 --> 00:06:22,600 Speaker 1: put on what I do for a living and all 120 00:06:22,640 --> 00:06:25,560 Speaker 1: that stuff, and so I have been I've really been 121 00:06:25,600 --> 00:06:27,719 Speaker 1: kind of trying to open up about that on Instagram 122 00:06:27,760 --> 00:06:29,880 Speaker 1: and stuff. And the feedback that I'm getting is that 123 00:06:30,160 --> 00:06:34,520 Speaker 1: every single person is feeling this right now, like everyone collectively. 124 00:06:34,880 --> 00:06:37,280 Speaker 1: I don't know if it's like moving into a new year, 125 00:06:37,680 --> 00:06:40,160 Speaker 1: maybe we were feeling like, oh, this has to get 126 00:06:40,520 --> 00:06:43,840 Speaker 1: better or easier or whatever, and knowing that maybe it's 127 00:06:43,839 --> 00:06:45,360 Speaker 1: going to be a little more of a haul for 128 00:06:45,480 --> 00:06:49,240 Speaker 1: us is a little harder or whatever it is. It 129 00:06:49,279 --> 00:06:52,920 Speaker 1: just seems like people in general are sort of struggling 130 00:06:53,040 --> 00:06:55,840 Speaker 1: right now and just feeling really really heavy with the 131 00:06:55,880 --> 00:06:58,640 Speaker 1: climate and the weight of all the things happening all 132 00:06:58,680 --> 00:07:01,560 Speaker 1: at once. Yeah. I do think we all sort of, 133 00:07:03,040 --> 00:07:06,640 Speaker 1: um stupidly let ourselves believe that, like at the tick 134 00:07:06,680 --> 00:07:10,400 Speaker 1: of the clock, clan January first, like it was new year, 135 00:07:10,480 --> 00:07:15,600 Speaker 1: knew me. I mean that might be true, but the 136 00:07:17,280 --> 00:07:22,960 Speaker 1: climate that which the new you have to exist didn't change, 137 00:07:23,440 --> 00:07:26,600 Speaker 1: you know, So it's like, and I mean I think 138 00:07:26,640 --> 00:07:31,320 Speaker 1: that's it's it's a deeply sort of emotional mental thing 139 00:07:31,520 --> 00:07:33,920 Speaker 1: that a lot of us have never had to deal with. 140 00:07:35,280 --> 00:07:37,760 Speaker 1: I mean, you know, like I do think that, like 141 00:07:38,000 --> 00:07:40,280 Speaker 1: it is pretty common towards the end of the year 142 00:07:40,600 --> 00:07:43,360 Speaker 1: that people just kind of say, oh fuck it. I'm like, 143 00:07:43,440 --> 00:07:47,000 Speaker 1: I'm tired, I worked hard, I'm gonna get lazy, and 144 00:07:47,000 --> 00:07:49,120 Speaker 1: in January one, I'm gonna come back, I'm gonna be 145 00:07:49,120 --> 00:07:51,080 Speaker 1: a new me. And I think that's a very real 146 00:07:51,120 --> 00:07:56,280 Speaker 1: thing that happens on normal years. But the circumstances um 147 00:07:56,640 --> 00:08:02,800 Speaker 1: are so beyond everybody's control that, um, you know, it's 148 00:08:04,120 --> 00:08:05,920 Speaker 1: we don't know how to do. We were not equipped 149 00:08:05,960 --> 00:08:08,320 Speaker 1: to deal with it properly this year. Yeah, I agree 150 00:08:08,360 --> 00:08:10,560 Speaker 1: with that. I will say I did feel a flip 151 00:08:10,600 --> 00:08:15,000 Speaker 1: on January one, and myself and not necessarily that life 152 00:08:15,000 --> 00:08:17,520 Speaker 1: had changed. And it's gotten a little harder honestly over 153 00:08:17,520 --> 00:08:19,560 Speaker 1: the last two weeks, just because I feel like we 154 00:08:19,680 --> 00:08:23,320 Speaker 1: keep getting hit super hard. But um, there was a 155 00:08:23,320 --> 00:08:26,320 Speaker 1: shift in me of just kind of like an acceptance 156 00:08:26,440 --> 00:08:30,040 Speaker 1: almost of like where we are and almost letting go 157 00:08:30,200 --> 00:08:32,480 Speaker 1: of trying to change that, because that was something I 158 00:08:32,600 --> 00:08:35,480 Speaker 1: really struggled with, was no, no, no, no no, no, this 159 00:08:35,520 --> 00:08:37,559 Speaker 1: can't be happening, this can't be happening, or oh this 160 00:08:37,640 --> 00:08:40,200 Speaker 1: is only going to happen for a little bit, and 161 00:08:40,480 --> 00:08:44,920 Speaker 1: just realizing over and over and over that there's really 162 00:08:44,960 --> 00:08:46,800 Speaker 1: not a lot that a lot of us can do 163 00:08:46,880 --> 00:08:50,320 Speaker 1: to control the big things happening in our country and 164 00:08:50,360 --> 00:08:54,000 Speaker 1: in our world, and um, and just knowing that like 165 00:08:54,280 --> 00:08:56,920 Speaker 1: we're gonna be okay ultimately, and things just might look 166 00:08:56,920 --> 00:08:58,680 Speaker 1: a little different, and they might look a little bent 167 00:08:58,720 --> 00:09:00,960 Speaker 1: for a while, and they might look a little different 168 00:09:01,080 --> 00:09:03,920 Speaker 1: forever now, you know, like we might just be building 169 00:09:03,920 --> 00:09:08,040 Speaker 1: a new reality. But I do think that letting go 170 00:09:08,280 --> 00:09:10,800 Speaker 1: of trying to change any of that or control it 171 00:09:10,800 --> 00:09:16,679 Speaker 1: has been somewhat helpful to me mentality wise, totally. Well, 172 00:09:16,720 --> 00:09:19,880 Speaker 1: so what have you been doing? Like, Okay, for instance, 173 00:09:19,920 --> 00:09:21,960 Speaker 1: this week we both talked about just feel you said 174 00:09:22,000 --> 00:09:24,320 Speaker 1: this was the most emo you've maybe ever felt in 175 00:09:24,360 --> 00:09:28,280 Speaker 1: your life this week. So why first of all, and 176 00:09:28,320 --> 00:09:29,920 Speaker 1: then what have you been doing to kind of help 177 00:09:29,960 --> 00:09:36,360 Speaker 1: yourself get through the days? Well, um, I mean to 178 00:09:36,480 --> 00:09:39,000 Speaker 1: get through I'll answer that part first. I've had to 179 00:09:39,040 --> 00:09:42,760 Speaker 1: focus on work because it's coming at me so hard. Um, 180 00:09:43,559 --> 00:09:47,720 Speaker 1: But I've done a lot of like meditating. I've never 181 00:09:47,800 --> 00:09:50,320 Speaker 1: been one to journal, but i keep grabbing the journal 182 00:09:50,440 --> 00:09:54,160 Speaker 1: to start and I'm really overwhelmed by like how to 183 00:09:54,280 --> 00:09:56,400 Speaker 1: do it right? And I know that there's no right 184 00:09:56,400 --> 00:09:58,120 Speaker 1: way to do it. The right way to do it 185 00:09:58,160 --> 00:10:02,680 Speaker 1: is just to start writing. There's a block there for me. Um, 186 00:10:02,720 --> 00:10:05,640 Speaker 1: but it's like I'm taking the baby steps towards that. 187 00:10:06,400 --> 00:10:10,600 Speaker 1: And um, I've been like really trying to give myself 188 00:10:10,600 --> 00:10:13,680 Speaker 1: the grace like you are not failing if you take 189 00:10:13,760 --> 00:10:16,360 Speaker 1: thirty minutes to step away from your computer and have lunch, 190 00:10:16,800 --> 00:10:19,400 Speaker 1: Like that is taking care of yourself. And so I've 191 00:10:19,400 --> 00:10:23,240 Speaker 1: been making very conscious choices to take care of me 192 00:10:23,920 --> 00:10:28,559 Speaker 1: and um, and I think like, historically I'm not good 193 00:10:28,600 --> 00:10:31,199 Speaker 1: at taking care of myself. Like my job is about 194 00:10:31,200 --> 00:10:33,560 Speaker 1: taking care of other people. I get pleasure from like 195 00:10:33,679 --> 00:10:37,839 Speaker 1: taking care of other people. That's my drive, and I 196 00:10:37,840 --> 00:10:39,800 Speaker 1: I'm usually the last one that I take care of. 197 00:10:40,440 --> 00:10:45,600 Speaker 1: And um, so I think there's something that like I 198 00:10:45,640 --> 00:10:49,720 Speaker 1: feel like a sea change happening in myself because I'm like, 199 00:10:50,240 --> 00:10:52,880 Speaker 1: I have to take care of me, and that is 200 00:10:52,920 --> 00:10:56,520 Speaker 1: stirring up emotions that like, you know, like I've never 201 00:10:56,640 --> 00:11:00,080 Speaker 1: liked it's been forever since I've seen us arapist. So 202 00:11:00,120 --> 00:11:03,680 Speaker 1: I'm like starting to feel like, Okay, something's bubbling here. 203 00:11:04,080 --> 00:11:07,040 Speaker 1: Let's find a therapist, you know, let's get some of 204 00:11:07,080 --> 00:11:10,200 Speaker 1: these these things out. And I mean that's a really 205 00:11:10,240 --> 00:11:13,000 Speaker 1: long sort of answer to like what you're doing. Like, 206 00:11:13,360 --> 00:11:15,839 Speaker 1: but I've been, you know, I've been forcing myself to 207 00:11:15,880 --> 00:11:18,439 Speaker 1: go to bed earlier than I've wanted to, like because 208 00:11:18,440 --> 00:11:21,640 Speaker 1: I didn't feel like the work was done. I've been 209 00:11:21,679 --> 00:11:24,560 Speaker 1: making sure to get in a Poleton ride. Um, that's 210 00:11:24,600 --> 00:11:27,679 Speaker 1: not an AD. That's something with right now. I wish 211 00:11:27,679 --> 00:11:34,120 Speaker 1: it was God. Um. Yeah, and it's you know, I 212 00:11:34,120 --> 00:11:36,040 Speaker 1: haven't left my house and I literally have not been 213 00:11:36,080 --> 00:11:40,280 Speaker 1: outside in three days. My trash can I took it 214 00:11:40,280 --> 00:11:42,480 Speaker 1: out really or what is today? I took it out 215 00:11:42,559 --> 00:11:45,240 Speaker 1: early Tuesday morning, and I can still see it sitting 216 00:11:45,240 --> 00:11:49,199 Speaker 1: out there empty because they picked it up Tuesday. I 217 00:11:49,240 --> 00:11:51,440 Speaker 1: love that though about the taking care of yourself piece 218 00:11:51,440 --> 00:11:53,360 Speaker 1: because I think that's sort of what I was saying 219 00:11:53,520 --> 00:11:55,720 Speaker 1: in a in a different way, but that is similar 220 00:11:55,760 --> 00:11:58,880 Speaker 1: to what my mindset has been. Is. Okay, so the 221 00:11:58,960 --> 00:12:02,360 Speaker 1: chaos around us isn't changing anytime soon, right, and maybe 222 00:12:02,360 --> 00:12:06,199 Speaker 1: we're like under I actually feel like our country specifically 223 00:12:06,280 --> 00:12:10,160 Speaker 1: is under some sort of really really long lasting change. 224 00:12:10,320 --> 00:12:12,520 Speaker 1: Like I don't feel like we're just gonna go back 225 00:12:12,679 --> 00:12:15,360 Speaker 1: to the way things were. Ever, I don't think so. 226 00:12:15,920 --> 00:12:19,559 Speaker 1: I think it's like I think stuff is shifting, um. 227 00:12:19,600 --> 00:12:22,320 Speaker 1: And that was really really scary to me. Like last 228 00:12:22,400 --> 00:12:25,080 Speaker 1: year specifically, I think it was like a very big 229 00:12:25,200 --> 00:12:27,840 Speaker 1: grieving process for a lot of us, and it still 230 00:12:28,040 --> 00:12:31,200 Speaker 1: is on some days because you just crave the normalcy 231 00:12:31,320 --> 00:12:34,680 Speaker 1: or the things that you know, um, And I just 232 00:12:34,720 --> 00:12:36,640 Speaker 1: don't think that that's going to happen. But I do 233 00:12:36,800 --> 00:12:40,040 Speaker 1: agree with you that if you really put the focus 234 00:12:40,120 --> 00:12:43,880 Speaker 1: back on yourself and maybe like look at this time 235 00:12:43,920 --> 00:12:46,040 Speaker 1: as some a way to kind of start to train 236 00:12:46,080 --> 00:12:50,319 Speaker 1: yourself to treat yourself differently. It's amazing the difference that 237 00:12:50,400 --> 00:12:52,640 Speaker 1: makes and the piece that I have throughout the day. 238 00:12:52,679 --> 00:12:57,679 Speaker 1: Like it doesn't necessarily fix stuff or like change you know, 239 00:12:58,080 --> 00:13:01,040 Speaker 1: my job situation or any thing like that right now, 240 00:13:01,280 --> 00:13:03,600 Speaker 1: but it has given me a sense of peace and 241 00:13:03,640 --> 00:13:06,640 Speaker 1: a sense of like this knowing of I'm gonna be 242 00:13:06,760 --> 00:13:13,080 Speaker 1: okay regardless of what the world looks like right now. Yeah, 243 00:13:13,120 --> 00:13:17,920 Speaker 1: I've been like living in my bathtub. Probably that's weird, 244 00:13:17,960 --> 00:13:20,839 Speaker 1: but I'm a cancer, which we know water signs are 245 00:13:20,960 --> 00:13:23,760 Speaker 1: very Water is very calming. But also if you are 246 00:13:23,760 --> 00:13:26,200 Speaker 1: a sensitive person or any sort of like I'm an EmPATH, 247 00:13:26,360 --> 00:13:30,360 Speaker 1: which I just pick up everyone else's feelings all the time, 248 00:13:30,480 --> 00:13:33,400 Speaker 1: and I'm getting better at it sometimes as I'm getting older. 249 00:13:33,440 --> 00:13:34,880 Speaker 1: But you know, like I think this has been a 250 00:13:34,880 --> 00:13:36,959 Speaker 1: time where everyone's been really worn down, and so like 251 00:13:37,520 --> 00:13:39,560 Speaker 1: I have to recharge, and I have to recharge by 252 00:13:39,600 --> 00:13:42,840 Speaker 1: myself a lot of times, and I honestly, sitting in 253 00:13:42,880 --> 00:13:45,800 Speaker 1: a bathtub really helps, Like for some reason, that just 254 00:13:46,440 --> 00:13:49,560 Speaker 1: gets Yeah, that gets a negative energy off of you 255 00:13:49,640 --> 00:13:52,360 Speaker 1: and kind of recharges you. So if you're a sensitive person, 256 00:13:52,400 --> 00:13:55,120 Speaker 1: I highly recommend it. EP. Some salts are really great. 257 00:13:55,200 --> 00:13:57,400 Speaker 1: That's another thing I'm doing. I'm so happy that you've 258 00:13:57,400 --> 00:14:01,240 Speaker 1: been meditating chip. I'm pressed to buy that. Well, you 259 00:14:01,280 --> 00:14:05,920 Speaker 1: know it's my Like this isn't like me complimenting myself, 260 00:14:05,960 --> 00:14:09,680 Speaker 1: but I have a really hard time quieting my brain. Yeah. 261 00:14:09,720 --> 00:14:12,199 Speaker 1: I think most people do. Yeah. I mean it's like, 262 00:14:12,400 --> 00:14:14,920 Speaker 1: because I'm an ideas person. So it's like, if I'm 263 00:14:14,960 --> 00:14:17,200 Speaker 1: not thinking about something that I have to be thinking about, 264 00:14:17,240 --> 00:14:21,200 Speaker 1: I'm thinking about something creative or something stupid, you know, 265 00:14:22,280 --> 00:14:25,440 Speaker 1: or harping on something that I haven't dealt with personally, 266 00:14:25,560 --> 00:14:28,800 Speaker 1: and it's um. And I've really been trying to like 267 00:14:28,840 --> 00:14:32,040 Speaker 1: figure out how to without like throwing away the creativity. 268 00:14:32,080 --> 00:14:37,240 Speaker 1: Like how can I quiet my brain? You know? Um? Yeah, yeah, 269 00:14:37,520 --> 00:14:39,440 Speaker 1: how are you doing it? Where do you like? Do 270 00:14:39,520 --> 00:14:43,440 Speaker 1: an app? Are you? There's a meditating there's a meditation 271 00:14:43,520 --> 00:14:48,280 Speaker 1: stuff on Peloton? Shut up, not an ad? Literally, do 272 00:14:48,400 --> 00:14:51,000 Speaker 1: you love Peloton more than you love anything? Well? Do 273 00:14:51,240 --> 00:14:53,920 Speaker 1: you know the cool thing that's about Peloton? I will 274 00:14:53,960 --> 00:14:56,360 Speaker 1: say this is um. I know a lot of people 275 00:14:56,400 --> 00:14:59,280 Speaker 1: can't afford it, but there is an app that's thirty 276 00:15:00,000 --> 00:15:02,240 Speaker 1: months that have that goes along with the bike, but 277 00:15:02,320 --> 00:15:04,640 Speaker 1: you don't have to have a bike or the treadmill. Um. 278 00:15:04,760 --> 00:15:07,640 Speaker 1: There are like floor classes and core classes and like 279 00:15:08,120 --> 00:15:13,040 Speaker 1: meditation and sleep things and walking. There's so much that's 280 00:15:13,120 --> 00:15:14,880 Speaker 1: on there um and I think that a lot of 281 00:15:14,880 --> 00:15:16,800 Speaker 1: people don't realize that. So I wanted to say that. 282 00:15:16,920 --> 00:15:21,200 Speaker 1: So yeah, I discovered that they had some meditation stuff 283 00:15:21,200 --> 00:15:23,000 Speaker 1: and I'm like, oh, this is great. Like I'm already 284 00:15:23,000 --> 00:15:25,000 Speaker 1: paying for the app, Like why go and get like 285 00:15:25,160 --> 00:15:26,840 Speaker 1: Calm or one of those other ones that I would 286 00:15:26,840 --> 00:15:29,680 Speaker 1: have to pay for him. So I'm exploring it that way. Ideally, 287 00:15:29,720 --> 00:15:32,000 Speaker 1: I just want to like get away from someone guiding 288 00:15:32,040 --> 00:15:36,320 Speaker 1: me and be able to do it myself. But like, yeah, 289 00:15:36,360 --> 00:15:40,560 Speaker 1: it's like when when you start doing something, just five 290 00:15:40,600 --> 00:15:43,760 Speaker 1: minutes feels like an hour, you know, and to try 291 00:15:43,760 --> 00:15:48,640 Speaker 1: and keep your brain quiet and rested for that five 292 00:15:48,680 --> 00:15:51,640 Speaker 1: minutes without going off track, it's harder than it sounds, 293 00:15:53,280 --> 00:15:55,480 Speaker 1: and it's just it's it's a it's a kind of 294 00:15:55,520 --> 00:15:58,800 Speaker 1: a muscle that you just have to train. But that's 295 00:15:58,840 --> 00:16:02,880 Speaker 1: also in line with what you're saying about self care. 296 00:16:03,000 --> 00:16:06,080 Speaker 1: It's like just start, that's one thing I've learned um 297 00:16:06,080 --> 00:16:09,080 Speaker 1: through the years is just, you know, the overwhelming feeling 298 00:16:09,120 --> 00:16:11,840 Speaker 1: of starting something new or not being good at something 299 00:16:12,120 --> 00:16:14,480 Speaker 1: has always, you know, in the past, kind of kept 300 00:16:14,560 --> 00:16:17,520 Speaker 1: me from even doing stuff like ever. But if you 301 00:16:17,600 --> 00:16:19,960 Speaker 1: just start, even if you suck at it, it's just 302 00:16:20,080 --> 00:16:22,520 Speaker 1: starting and you'll get better. And every time you do 303 00:16:22,560 --> 00:16:26,000 Speaker 1: it it gets easier. You start to crave the peace 304 00:16:26,040 --> 00:16:28,720 Speaker 1: that you feel in those moments, and it really does. 305 00:16:28,920 --> 00:16:31,400 Speaker 1: Like I mean, I'm I'm I struggle with it too, 306 00:16:31,400 --> 00:16:32,960 Speaker 1: and some days I'm really great at it, and some 307 00:16:33,040 --> 00:16:36,520 Speaker 1: days I fucking suck. Like I just sit there and 308 00:16:36,560 --> 00:16:38,240 Speaker 1: think through all the stuff that I need to do 309 00:16:38,240 --> 00:16:40,400 Speaker 1: on my day. But that's the other point of meditation, 310 00:16:40,560 --> 00:16:43,840 Speaker 1: is they say, you don't judge what's happening, but just 311 00:16:43,840 --> 00:16:47,320 Speaker 1: pay attention, like gently, pay attention to what's happening in 312 00:16:47,360 --> 00:16:49,920 Speaker 1: your brain and those kind of things like that in 313 00:16:49,960 --> 00:16:53,720 Speaker 1: and of itself of really paying attention to yourself, to 314 00:16:53,880 --> 00:16:57,920 Speaker 1: me is maybe what the universe or God or whoever 315 00:16:58,960 --> 00:17:01,400 Speaker 1: you want to call your higher power is kind of 316 00:17:01,480 --> 00:17:04,440 Speaker 1: encouraging us to do with all of this just ship 317 00:17:04,760 --> 00:17:07,359 Speaker 1: happening in our world, because it's really truly the only 318 00:17:07,400 --> 00:17:13,440 Speaker 1: thing we can control, right right. Yeah, It's like I um, 319 00:17:13,640 --> 00:17:17,520 Speaker 1: I've I've always struggled with like sort of believing in ourselves, 320 00:17:18,400 --> 00:17:20,640 Speaker 1: which is a weird thing to say, because I've also 321 00:17:20,680 --> 00:17:24,320 Speaker 1: achieved a lot in my life. But I've always had 322 00:17:24,359 --> 00:17:26,640 Speaker 1: that sort of devil on my shoulder telling me I'm 323 00:17:26,640 --> 00:17:31,240 Speaker 1: not good enough. And I feel like this, the culmination 324 00:17:31,320 --> 00:17:33,680 Speaker 1: of all of this is like, all right, it's time 325 00:17:33,720 --> 00:17:37,160 Speaker 1: to kick that fucking devil acts, you know, Like and 326 00:17:37,320 --> 00:17:40,640 Speaker 1: I feel all of that sort of bubbling to the top, 327 00:17:40,720 --> 00:17:44,200 Speaker 1: which you know, it's there's some joy in that too. 328 00:17:44,200 --> 00:17:47,000 Speaker 1: There's some excitement in it, and there's you know, it's 329 00:17:47,040 --> 00:17:49,359 Speaker 1: stirring a lot of emotions, and so it's made me 330 00:17:49,480 --> 00:17:53,240 Speaker 1: really you know, plus like I miss everybody, you know, 331 00:17:53,280 --> 00:17:57,080 Speaker 1: all of the other things that are like we commonly 332 00:17:57,119 --> 00:18:00,920 Speaker 1: are sharing, Like it's just come to all days. Yeah, 333 00:18:01,080 --> 00:18:05,760 Speaker 1: and and you know, thankfully there is some sort of 334 00:18:05,840 --> 00:18:08,240 Speaker 1: tiny light at the end of the tunnel with the vaccine. 335 00:18:08,720 --> 00:18:11,919 Speaker 1: But it just feels like it's you know, we're running 336 00:18:11,920 --> 00:18:14,320 Speaker 1: in place. Well I think like we're just it's like 337 00:18:14,359 --> 00:18:17,640 Speaker 1: feels so heightened because especially here I don't really know 338 00:18:17,720 --> 00:18:19,439 Speaker 1: exactly how it is in the rest of the country, 339 00:18:19,440 --> 00:18:22,520 Speaker 1: but it is just rampant. It just feels like people 340 00:18:22,520 --> 00:18:25,560 Speaker 1: are dropping like flawes. Um well, they say the only 341 00:18:25,600 --> 00:18:27,720 Speaker 1: way out is through, and so I do feel like 342 00:18:27,800 --> 00:18:29,920 Speaker 1: that's another thing to think about right now, is just 343 00:18:30,840 --> 00:18:32,880 Speaker 1: I mean, this isn't an act casual moment. I don't 344 00:18:32,920 --> 00:18:36,160 Speaker 1: know what is because it's like, okay, well like today 345 00:18:36,320 --> 00:18:38,720 Speaker 1: I had to go get COVID tested and so I'm 346 00:18:38,720 --> 00:18:40,480 Speaker 1: just sort of laying low and it's not how I 347 00:18:40,480 --> 00:18:43,320 Speaker 1: thought my day was going to go. But I mean, 348 00:18:44,080 --> 00:18:46,520 Speaker 1: it's just the tims and so I could either like 349 00:18:47,000 --> 00:18:49,080 Speaker 1: huff and puff or fight about it, or you just go, Okay, 350 00:18:49,080 --> 00:18:51,240 Speaker 1: how do I shift here? Like, I definitely think this 351 00:18:51,400 --> 00:18:53,359 Speaker 1: kind of life is teaching us to be a little 352 00:18:53,359 --> 00:18:56,680 Speaker 1: more flexible. I was listening to this podcast earlier. Um 353 00:18:56,680 --> 00:18:58,560 Speaker 1: it's this guy I'm working with right now. His name 354 00:18:58,600 --> 00:19:00,919 Speaker 1: is Jake Widard. He's also been on the Velvet Edge podcast. 355 00:19:00,960 --> 00:19:03,640 Speaker 1: But he does a lot about like masculine and feminine 356 00:19:03,720 --> 00:19:07,000 Speaker 1: energy and I'm really trying to work on those wounds 357 00:19:07,000 --> 00:19:10,000 Speaker 1: within myself and um, I don't know, I just I 358 00:19:10,040 --> 00:19:12,919 Speaker 1: want to become the best version of myself. That is 359 00:19:12,960 --> 00:19:17,399 Speaker 1: what one has really challenged me to get to um 360 00:19:17,440 --> 00:19:20,480 Speaker 1: but he said he was talking about the times and 361 00:19:20,520 --> 00:19:23,760 Speaker 1: just the craziness, and he said, you know, like the 362 00:19:23,800 --> 00:19:25,960 Speaker 1: same thing I've been saying. There's no there's nothing we 363 00:19:26,000 --> 00:19:30,720 Speaker 1: can change about the politics happening right now or controlling 364 00:19:30,720 --> 00:19:33,880 Speaker 1: how other people are reacting to that or COVID. I mean, 365 00:19:33,960 --> 00:19:35,920 Speaker 1: like we're doing the best we can to try to 366 00:19:35,960 --> 00:19:38,840 Speaker 1: get through it, and you can take precautions all that stuff, 367 00:19:38,840 --> 00:19:40,800 Speaker 1: but you can't just make it disappear. Like I think 368 00:19:40,840 --> 00:19:42,159 Speaker 1: that's what a lot of us would like to do. 369 00:19:42,520 --> 00:19:45,359 Speaker 1: But the only thing you can control is yourself. And 370 00:19:45,400 --> 00:19:48,359 Speaker 1: so like, why don't you take this time? When else 371 00:19:48,680 --> 00:19:53,639 Speaker 1: will we ever probably have this much time to ourselves 372 00:19:53,800 --> 00:19:57,439 Speaker 1: to focus on ourselves, and maybe it's time to really 373 00:19:57,800 --> 00:20:01,080 Speaker 1: act casual and take a deep I think, go, this 374 00:20:01,119 --> 00:20:03,160 Speaker 1: has been a gift that we've been given, and like, 375 00:20:03,280 --> 00:20:09,959 Speaker 1: what can I use it for? Exactly? No, it's like 376 00:20:10,080 --> 00:20:12,960 Speaker 1: I think, and that's not me not listening. It's like 377 00:20:13,680 --> 00:20:16,320 Speaker 1: it's it really is. It's like it's a that's the 378 00:20:16,400 --> 00:20:20,960 Speaker 1: positive way of looking at sort of the situation. Yeah, 379 00:20:21,080 --> 00:20:23,760 Speaker 1: I mean obviously some days that's easier than others, But 380 00:20:24,440 --> 00:20:26,920 Speaker 1: I think that's where my frustration comes from. It's like 381 00:20:27,800 --> 00:20:30,639 Speaker 1: I do think that, like there are some people in 382 00:20:30,720 --> 00:20:33,560 Speaker 1: my life that I feel like are getting plenty of 383 00:20:33,640 --> 00:20:40,000 Speaker 1: time to do that, and I'm like, I feel like 384 00:20:40,000 --> 00:20:43,080 Speaker 1: I'm missing a window for myself. But I heard you 385 00:20:43,119 --> 00:20:45,640 Speaker 1: say though that you were actually going, no, you know what, 386 00:20:45,760 --> 00:20:47,640 Speaker 1: it is okay for me to take a lunch break. 387 00:20:47,720 --> 00:20:50,399 Speaker 1: Like I do feel like as much even as some 388 00:20:50,520 --> 00:20:53,680 Speaker 1: of us can feel really busy, the sense of urgency 389 00:20:53,880 --> 00:20:57,400 Speaker 1: of the past can't be the same because of things 390 00:20:57,480 --> 00:21:00,679 Speaker 1: like COVID. I mean, it just we can't. We can't 391 00:21:00,720 --> 00:21:03,679 Speaker 1: operate the same, and so maybe it is time to 392 00:21:03,720 --> 00:21:06,480 Speaker 1: kind of shift and go, Wait, thirty minutes for lunch 393 00:21:06,600 --> 00:21:08,639 Speaker 1: is not an insane ask, And like I need to 394 00:21:09,000 --> 00:21:13,040 Speaker 1: take care of my body, right, Yeah. Well, I hope 395 00:21:13,040 --> 00:21:16,439 Speaker 1: that you guys are all taking different steps to do 396 00:21:16,520 --> 00:21:19,760 Speaker 1: whatever you need to do to help yourself find peace 397 00:21:19,800 --> 00:21:22,880 Speaker 1: throughout the day. I definitely recommend the baths if you're 398 00:21:22,880 --> 00:21:26,199 Speaker 1: a feeler like me, a love chips mentality of like 399 00:21:26,240 --> 00:21:29,240 Speaker 1: getting on the bike and like moving your body. I 400 00:21:29,240 --> 00:21:32,560 Speaker 1: think that's really important. Also, just like look into different 401 00:21:32,600 --> 00:21:35,480 Speaker 1: types of healers. I have a ton on the velvet 402 00:21:35,600 --> 00:21:37,679 Speaker 1: edge podcast that I talked to, and so whatever it 403 00:21:37,800 --> 00:21:40,959 Speaker 1: is that you feel like your gut is calling you to, like, 404 00:21:41,000 --> 00:21:43,160 Speaker 1: I just think this is a time to lean in 405 00:21:43,280 --> 00:21:45,960 Speaker 1: and let's all focus a little more on how we 406 00:21:46,000 --> 00:21:51,800 Speaker 1: can grow collectively hopefully at this time versus just fall apart. 407 00:21:51,920 --> 00:21:54,440 Speaker 1: Even Moore, I don't know is that. I don't know 408 00:21:54,440 --> 00:21:55,719 Speaker 1: if that's the best way to say it or not. 409 00:21:55,880 --> 00:21:59,440 Speaker 1: But um, anyway, I think it's just like an act casual, 410 00:21:59,560 --> 00:22:02,160 Speaker 1: Like it's just all at casual in life in general, 411 00:22:02,240 --> 00:22:06,800 Speaker 1: because of what other options do you fucking have? I mean, 412 00:22:06,840 --> 00:22:14,879 Speaker 1: it's it's everyone needs the mark. My astrologers said that 413 00:22:14,920 --> 00:22:18,240 Speaker 1: the people who fight UM or trying to fight the 414 00:22:18,320 --> 00:22:20,119 Speaker 1: change is happening right now, are going to be the 415 00:22:20,119 --> 00:22:22,200 Speaker 1: ones that struggle the most. So the quicker you can 416 00:22:22,280 --> 00:22:25,320 Speaker 1: lean in and just accept reality, even if it's a 417 00:22:25,359 --> 00:22:28,639 Speaker 1: reality you don't love, UM, but finding ways to make 418 00:22:28,680 --> 00:22:32,800 Speaker 1: it more comfortable for yourself or peaceful or whatever it is, 419 00:22:33,040 --> 00:22:34,959 Speaker 1: the quicker you're going to get to the other side. 420 00:22:35,480 --> 00:22:38,040 Speaker 1: So that's what I'm trying to do at least. UM. 421 00:22:37,840 --> 00:22:39,959 Speaker 1: I am going to read a couple of emails, just 422 00:22:40,000 --> 00:22:43,640 Speaker 1: some quick ones. Um. This one came from our episode. 423 00:22:43,720 --> 00:22:47,760 Speaker 1: Last week we talked a lot about one and how 424 00:22:47,760 --> 00:22:50,399 Speaker 1: crazy had it had already gotten in week one. The 425 00:22:51,000 --> 00:22:54,560 Speaker 1: topic of last or the title of last week's podcast 426 00:22:54,680 --> 00:22:58,080 Speaker 1: was so this is because it really didn't feel that 427 00:22:58,200 --> 00:23:01,480 Speaker 1: different from and I think we all had big expectations. 428 00:23:01,520 --> 00:23:04,240 Speaker 1: But this comes from Amanda, and she said, thank you 429 00:23:04,320 --> 00:23:06,520 Speaker 1: for trying to stay respectful to all views of all 430 00:23:06,520 --> 00:23:09,760 Speaker 1: your followers. You're literally one of the only podcast I'm 431 00:23:09,800 --> 00:23:13,960 Speaker 1: still listening to. The story Chip shared about the mom 432 00:23:14,040 --> 00:23:16,320 Speaker 1: he helped and the thoughts he two shared was evoking. 433 00:23:16,680 --> 00:23:18,400 Speaker 1: This is the way we should sit and dive into 434 00:23:18,440 --> 00:23:23,440 Speaker 1: each other's perspectives. I'm sorry, perceptions. Then we can discuss, understand, 435 00:23:23,560 --> 00:23:26,840 Speaker 1: and heal. We can't come together until blaming, stereotyping, and 436 00:23:26,920 --> 00:23:29,760 Speaker 1: anger is removed from the conversations. Thank you for being 437 00:23:29,880 --> 00:23:35,119 Speaker 1: used seriously. What's the status of the merch store? Oh 438 00:23:35,200 --> 00:23:41,520 Speaker 1: my god, I really gotta work on that three am 439 00:23:41,560 --> 00:23:47,240 Speaker 1: tonight store. Oh my god. The status of the merch 440 00:23:47,280 --> 00:23:51,080 Speaker 1: store is there is no March store right. Maybe when 441 00:23:51,080 --> 00:23:53,439 Speaker 1: people are buying things again, we'll get back to it. 442 00:23:53,480 --> 00:23:55,960 Speaker 1: I just feel like that's also another thing we really, 443 00:23:56,240 --> 00:23:58,399 Speaker 1: I really do want to make a list which I 444 00:23:58,440 --> 00:24:01,600 Speaker 1: think we've started, but I gotta find that somewhere to God. 445 00:24:01,720 --> 00:24:04,080 Speaker 1: I mean, this is one right. Like in the past, 446 00:24:04,119 --> 00:24:05,800 Speaker 1: I would have been like, oh, I'm not hustle, im 447 00:24:05,840 --> 00:24:07,399 Speaker 1: me get that up. I'm gonna sell some stuff. I'm 448 00:24:07,440 --> 00:24:09,720 Speaker 1: gonna like whatever. And now I'm like, I guess we 449 00:24:09,760 --> 00:24:13,440 Speaker 1: should get up at Merge store at some point. Maybe 450 00:24:13,480 --> 00:24:15,760 Speaker 1: we should just do it with the shop forward and 451 00:24:15,760 --> 00:24:18,280 Speaker 1: and raise money. I know I do love that mentality. 452 00:24:18,320 --> 00:24:20,320 Speaker 1: That's what we're doing with um. I have a shirt 453 00:24:20,359 --> 00:24:24,159 Speaker 1: with Velvet I'm sorry Disco Cowgirl right now, and it 454 00:24:24,240 --> 00:24:26,960 Speaker 1: does it just makes it feel better, like it's so. 455 00:24:27,320 --> 00:24:29,200 Speaker 1: I feel like there's a shift happening in me. And 456 00:24:29,200 --> 00:24:30,639 Speaker 1: I don't know if other people are feeling this too, 457 00:24:30,680 --> 00:24:34,040 Speaker 1: but I'm like all of this self serving strive, strive, strive, strive, 458 00:24:34,040 --> 00:24:36,800 Speaker 1: gotta win, win, win, win, win, Like I am over it. 459 00:24:36,800 --> 00:24:39,800 Speaker 1: It doesn't appeal to me anymore. Like I want to win, 460 00:24:39,840 --> 00:24:42,840 Speaker 1: but I want other people to win too. And I 461 00:24:42,880 --> 00:24:45,399 Speaker 1: don't really feel like this like competition thing that I 462 00:24:45,480 --> 00:24:47,439 Speaker 1: used to feel of just like I have to be 463 00:24:47,520 --> 00:24:49,000 Speaker 1: the best. I just want to be the best version 464 00:24:49,000 --> 00:24:53,080 Speaker 1: of myself. And like ahead, I think helping other people 465 00:24:53,200 --> 00:24:56,240 Speaker 1: is a win for you, you know, and if I 466 00:24:56,240 --> 00:25:01,400 Speaker 1: love it everyone, if everyone started like trying to win 467 00:25:01,520 --> 00:25:04,919 Speaker 1: for other people, Like the universe is so powerful and 468 00:25:05,000 --> 00:25:09,240 Speaker 1: it comes back tenfold, you know. And honestly, the idea 469 00:25:09,240 --> 00:25:11,320 Speaker 1: of working with the shop forward for it. I mean, 470 00:25:12,280 --> 00:25:15,760 Speaker 1: there there's a system in place. I think the reason 471 00:25:15,800 --> 00:25:18,159 Speaker 1: why we haven't done it is because to build it 472 00:25:18,280 --> 00:25:21,520 Speaker 1: sup to nuts is like we have to start like 473 00:25:21,760 --> 00:25:23,720 Speaker 1: with it. We got to get a designed, we got 474 00:25:23,720 --> 00:25:25,960 Speaker 1: to find the manufacturers, We've got to build the store. 475 00:25:26,000 --> 00:25:29,360 Speaker 1: It's I mean, you keep mentioning shop for them. I 476 00:25:29,400 --> 00:25:31,880 Speaker 1: think their braining might be a little different than ours were, 477 00:25:31,920 --> 00:25:36,160 Speaker 1: Like god am I mean, I'm not really sure that's 478 00:25:36,200 --> 00:25:38,639 Speaker 1: one brain for them, But I do love the mentality 479 00:25:38,680 --> 00:25:41,120 Speaker 1: of the shout word. Obviously they're really good friends in mine. 480 00:25:41,160 --> 00:25:45,600 Speaker 1: But like the back, I can't imagine calling Mary and 481 00:25:45,640 --> 00:25:47,720 Speaker 1: be like, hey, listen, I have this great T shirt idea. 482 00:25:49,160 --> 00:25:54,720 Speaker 1: Go yes, slet a palooza. I mean I think she 483 00:25:54,800 --> 00:25:58,840 Speaker 1: might be like, I need do you think that? One? Guy? 484 00:25:59,119 --> 00:26:02,080 Speaker 1: But yes, I agree that the platform of helping others 485 00:26:02,160 --> 00:26:04,840 Speaker 1: are like putting it to some good cause versus just 486 00:26:04,880 --> 00:26:07,520 Speaker 1: like you know, to make a buck for us feels 487 00:26:07,560 --> 00:26:09,919 Speaker 1: a lot more fulfilling to me. So maybe that's our 488 00:26:09,920 --> 00:26:13,399 Speaker 1: new conversation chip when you actually call a minute to breathe. 489 00:26:14,520 --> 00:26:18,680 Speaker 1: I okay, perfect, I'll set my arm. I do love 490 00:26:18,720 --> 00:26:21,480 Speaker 1: what she said. We can't come together until blaming, stereotyping, 491 00:26:21,480 --> 00:26:23,840 Speaker 1: and anger is removed from the conversations. And I am 492 00:26:23,960 --> 00:26:26,760 Speaker 1: so with that. Like that is a big point of 493 00:26:26,800 --> 00:26:28,760 Speaker 1: why I don't want to talk about politics on here, 494 00:26:28,760 --> 00:26:30,600 Speaker 1: because I could sit until I'm blue in the face 495 00:26:30,640 --> 00:26:33,000 Speaker 1: and talk about my side right Like I could beat 496 00:26:33,040 --> 00:26:35,480 Speaker 1: it into the ground and say how could you think 497 00:26:35,520 --> 00:26:38,400 Speaker 1: the other way? Or whatever? But what's the point. That's 498 00:26:38,400 --> 00:26:41,600 Speaker 1: the problem right now is that everyone's just continuing to fight, 499 00:26:41,760 --> 00:26:45,040 Speaker 1: and it's like that's not what I want to bring. 500 00:26:45,320 --> 00:26:47,920 Speaker 1: That's not the energy I want to bring into one. 501 00:26:48,000 --> 00:26:51,440 Speaker 1: Like I sure I have an opinion. Of course I do, 502 00:26:52,040 --> 00:26:55,000 Speaker 1: and of course you do, and we talk about them sometimes, 503 00:26:55,080 --> 00:26:57,800 Speaker 1: but like I think that's just done for me. Like 504 00:26:57,840 --> 00:27:00,520 Speaker 1: I just want to bring hope and love and peace 505 00:27:00,640 --> 00:27:03,919 Speaker 1: and find different ways to keep acting casual so that 506 00:27:04,000 --> 00:27:06,159 Speaker 1: we can survive. I mean, I think that that is 507 00:27:06,200 --> 00:27:08,960 Speaker 1: where we are really, do Yeah, I mean I think 508 00:27:08,960 --> 00:27:12,080 Speaker 1: this year has taught us a lot, like, um, how 509 00:27:12,160 --> 00:27:16,720 Speaker 1: little we need? Just like what's most important is that 510 00:27:16,800 --> 00:27:23,000 Speaker 1: we're healthy and happy and a lot. Yeah. And um, 511 00:27:23,240 --> 00:27:25,840 Speaker 1: I think you know, it's the the rat race that 512 00:27:25,960 --> 00:27:30,840 Speaker 1: particularly we're in in the entertainment industry. Um, and you know, 513 00:27:32,280 --> 00:27:34,959 Speaker 1: we're surrounded by nice things all the time that like 514 00:27:35,280 --> 00:27:37,639 Speaker 1: it causes this aspiration that makes you feel like you 515 00:27:37,720 --> 00:27:40,639 Speaker 1: need all these things and now we're like, but do 516 00:27:42,680 --> 00:27:45,280 Speaker 1: because none of that has mattered and like, you know, 517 00:27:45,320 --> 00:27:47,359 Speaker 1: except for like if you want to like have a 518 00:27:47,400 --> 00:27:50,760 Speaker 1: pool to sit in during COVID, but um, just find 519 00:27:50,800 --> 00:27:54,000 Speaker 1: a friend. Also gon blow up hottub like you hot 520 00:27:54,040 --> 00:27:57,320 Speaker 1: tub and never put it up. But um, yeah, I 521 00:27:57,320 --> 00:27:59,880 Speaker 1: mean I think it's it's it's at least shifted mind, 522 00:28:00,040 --> 00:28:05,359 Speaker 1: a desire to like acquire things like I don't know 523 00:28:05,840 --> 00:28:07,639 Speaker 1: how too big as it is, I'd give me a 524 00:28:07,680 --> 00:28:10,159 Speaker 1: little cabin and I'd be happy. Yeah. And I think 525 00:28:10,240 --> 00:28:12,840 Speaker 1: the thing that I've realized that you know, and I've 526 00:28:12,880 --> 00:28:15,960 Speaker 1: always known this about myself, about how important relationships were 527 00:28:16,000 --> 00:28:18,399 Speaker 1: to me. But if this has taught me nothing else, 528 00:28:18,920 --> 00:28:21,760 Speaker 1: it's that at the end of the day, the thing 529 00:28:21,840 --> 00:28:24,119 Speaker 1: that matters the most to me is being with my people. 530 00:28:24,200 --> 00:28:26,399 Speaker 1: And it's been so difficult to not be able to 531 00:28:26,440 --> 00:28:28,879 Speaker 1: be with my people, and like that is the thing 532 00:28:28,920 --> 00:28:31,720 Speaker 1: that really fills me with love. And so you really 533 00:28:31,720 --> 00:28:34,720 Speaker 1: start to appreciate the small moment you get with one 534 00:28:34,760 --> 00:28:37,679 Speaker 1: person here and there, and like the times you do 535 00:28:37,760 --> 00:28:40,640 Speaker 1: get to spend together if you're all COVID safe, and 536 00:28:40,800 --> 00:28:43,080 Speaker 1: it's just like those are the things that matter, and 537 00:28:43,120 --> 00:28:45,920 Speaker 1: the rest sorts itself out kind of, you know. I mean, 538 00:28:45,920 --> 00:28:47,880 Speaker 1: it's definitely stressful, and we all want to roof over 539 00:28:47,920 --> 00:28:49,520 Speaker 1: our head and we want to live a nice life 540 00:28:49,520 --> 00:28:53,320 Speaker 1: and all those things, but it doesn't I don't think. Yeah, 541 00:28:53,320 --> 00:28:57,280 Speaker 1: I know, I walked away from realizing like wow, because 542 00:28:57,320 --> 00:29:00,760 Speaker 1: so much just went away. I lost so much, got 543 00:29:00,880 --> 00:29:03,520 Speaker 1: rid of so much and realized like there's a lot 544 00:29:03,560 --> 00:29:08,000 Speaker 1: of it I just didn't need. Yeah. I think I 545 00:29:08,040 --> 00:29:11,440 Speaker 1: think there's a very healthy way to be selfish this year. Yeah, 546 00:29:11,480 --> 00:29:14,320 Speaker 1: it's like a different sort of mentality though I don't 547 00:29:14,360 --> 00:29:15,920 Speaker 1: I don't even know if I want to call it selfish, 548 00:29:15,920 --> 00:29:19,720 Speaker 1: but it's more like self care and honoring yourself. Yeah. 549 00:29:20,520 --> 00:29:22,760 Speaker 1: So this one comes from Erica, and this was actually 550 00:29:22,800 --> 00:29:24,360 Speaker 1: she sent this a couple of weeks ago, but it 551 00:29:24,400 --> 00:29:26,120 Speaker 1: was just an interesting story that I thought maybe we 552 00:29:26,160 --> 00:29:28,440 Speaker 1: could discuss um, She says, hello, in case you need 553 00:29:28,520 --> 00:29:30,240 Speaker 1: some content for the show, I thought i'd share a 554 00:29:30,280 --> 00:29:33,320 Speaker 1: little situation that happened at at work with our HR lady. 555 00:29:33,600 --> 00:29:35,480 Speaker 1: I'd like to preface this by saying, I live in 556 00:29:35,520 --> 00:29:39,400 Speaker 1: the Minneapolis area, yes, where George Floyd was murdered and 557 00:29:39,520 --> 00:29:41,640 Speaker 1: engaged to a black man, and work at a black 558 00:29:41,720 --> 00:29:44,640 Speaker 1: immigrant owned company, as well as the employees of the 559 00:29:44,720 --> 00:29:48,400 Speaker 1: company being very diverse. Anyways, so this past summer, or 560 00:29:48,720 --> 00:29:52,600 Speaker 1: R lady took some time off. She came back telling 561 00:29:52,920 --> 00:29:55,480 Speaker 1: stories about her trip. She thought it was inappropriate to 562 00:29:55,520 --> 00:29:58,080 Speaker 1: say that when she and her fiance passed a protest, 563 00:29:58,640 --> 00:30:01,040 Speaker 1: I'm sorry. She felt it was a opriate to say 564 00:30:01,120 --> 00:30:04,080 Speaker 1: that when she and her fiance passed a protest, she 565 00:30:04,120 --> 00:30:06,479 Speaker 1: told him to get his hand on his gun and 566 00:30:06,520 --> 00:30:10,240 Speaker 1: to not be afraid to shoot. Yes, our HR lady 567 00:30:10,440 --> 00:30:13,960 Speaker 1: was telling us that she said this as she passed 568 00:30:13,960 --> 00:30:17,520 Speaker 1: a Black Lives Matter peaceful protest. Talk about acting casual 569 00:30:17,600 --> 00:30:20,840 Speaker 1: in an uncomfortable situation. She also likes to come up 570 00:30:20,880 --> 00:30:23,719 Speaker 1: and hug me frequently, like ma'am, we're in a pandemic 571 00:30:23,840 --> 00:30:28,440 Speaker 1: and you are HR was dying. I'm like, okay, she 572 00:30:28,520 --> 00:30:34,440 Speaker 1: might need to evaluate something. I mean, you can't go 573 00:30:34,480 --> 00:30:39,800 Speaker 1: to Erica said, Needless to say, I don't go to 574 00:30:39,840 --> 00:30:42,240 Speaker 1: her for any HR issues that may be having. And 575 00:30:42,280 --> 00:30:47,680 Speaker 1: I try to act casually on the daily. God, that's 576 00:30:47,720 --> 00:30:50,240 Speaker 1: a tough one. I mean, you know what else, I 577 00:30:50,320 --> 00:30:53,640 Speaker 1: think something that I've really learned this year is that 578 00:30:53,680 --> 00:30:57,520 Speaker 1: we are all so human, right, Like we all you know, 579 00:30:57,520 --> 00:30:59,640 Speaker 1: like a lot of people have these really powerful positions. 580 00:30:59,640 --> 00:31:02,160 Speaker 1: Are In instance, this lady works in HR and is 581 00:31:02,200 --> 00:31:06,920 Speaker 1: saying the most inappropriate things at work and to her 582 00:31:06,960 --> 00:31:09,640 Speaker 1: employees and hugging and doing all these things during a 583 00:31:09,680 --> 00:31:13,680 Speaker 1: global pandemic and talking about protests and how you know, 584 00:31:13,800 --> 00:31:16,720 Speaker 1: just all of that was not appropriate for her workplace, 585 00:31:18,400 --> 00:31:21,120 Speaker 1: especially if you're the one who's supposed to be holding 586 00:31:21,200 --> 00:31:24,040 Speaker 1: up some higher standard, right, But like she's a human. 587 00:31:24,280 --> 00:31:27,040 Speaker 1: And that's the thing is like we put these people 588 00:31:27,040 --> 00:31:29,120 Speaker 1: in these pedestals, and if this year has taught us 589 00:31:29,280 --> 00:31:32,720 Speaker 1: nothing else, it has to be that, like we're all 590 00:31:32,960 --> 00:31:37,240 Speaker 1: super super super imperfect. We are imperfect, And you know 591 00:31:37,320 --> 00:31:41,040 Speaker 1: it's I saw I watched the video about cancel culture 592 00:31:41,080 --> 00:31:43,680 Speaker 1: the other day, and um, it was someone who had 593 00:31:43,720 --> 00:31:47,560 Speaker 1: been very pro cancel called canceled culture was speaking and 594 00:31:47,680 --> 00:31:49,960 Speaker 1: she was like, hear me out. She's like, look, I've 595 00:31:50,000 --> 00:31:53,280 Speaker 1: thought about it. I've seen cancel culture is bad obviously 596 00:31:53,320 --> 00:31:58,440 Speaker 1: if someone is is um saying really ignorant, racist, homophobic 597 00:31:58,520 --> 00:32:01,040 Speaker 1: whatever stuff like cancel, then if they are making the 598 00:32:01,120 --> 00:32:03,720 Speaker 1: choice to do that. But it is important to allow 599 00:32:03,760 --> 00:32:07,560 Speaker 1: people to make mistakes. And it's because it causes intellectual 600 00:32:07,600 --> 00:32:11,640 Speaker 1: conversations and difference of opinion, Like that's that's where the 601 00:32:11,680 --> 00:32:14,360 Speaker 1: magic happens, you know, Like the world would be boring 602 00:32:14,360 --> 00:32:17,400 Speaker 1: if we all felt the same way, you know. And um, 603 00:32:17,440 --> 00:32:21,160 Speaker 1: so I think Erica should address it actually in the 604 00:32:21,200 --> 00:32:26,160 Speaker 1: most professional way possible, be like yeah, because if this 605 00:32:26,240 --> 00:32:29,120 Speaker 1: person has the heart that she believes, she is going 606 00:32:29,160 --> 00:32:31,520 Speaker 1: to be mortified when she realizes what she said with 607 00:32:31,640 --> 00:32:37,479 Speaker 1: racists are sounded racist or came across racist. Um. And 608 00:32:37,520 --> 00:32:39,800 Speaker 1: I think at the end of the day, communication is key, 609 00:32:39,960 --> 00:32:45,200 Speaker 1: Like but like bottling things up, it's because it's like 610 00:32:45,200 --> 00:32:47,920 Speaker 1: a silent cancel. She doesn't know that she's been canceled 611 00:32:47,960 --> 00:32:50,840 Speaker 1: by Erica. She doesn't have a chance to like, she 612 00:32:50,880 --> 00:32:52,360 Speaker 1: doesn't have a chance to make good. So I think 613 00:32:52,360 --> 00:32:55,040 Speaker 1: i's you just have to communicate it. As uncomfortable as 614 00:32:55,080 --> 00:32:58,440 Speaker 1: it is, it will only make things better. Yeah, I 615 00:32:58,440 --> 00:33:01,320 Speaker 1: actually totally agree with you. When I was reading it, 616 00:33:01,400 --> 00:33:04,120 Speaker 1: I was thinking, you know, there's some people who can't 617 00:33:04,120 --> 00:33:06,320 Speaker 1: accept criticism at all and so like, and that's the 618 00:33:06,360 --> 00:33:08,640 Speaker 1: part that's hard, and like, we can't control that part 619 00:33:08,680 --> 00:33:10,800 Speaker 1: of it. But I do think there would be a 620 00:33:10,800 --> 00:33:14,320 Speaker 1: way to address the topics so that if she could 621 00:33:14,440 --> 00:33:17,920 Speaker 1: receive the conversation and she could look at it more 622 00:33:17,960 --> 00:33:21,120 Speaker 1: as feedback, it might really change the culture of their business, 623 00:33:21,320 --> 00:33:24,760 Speaker 1: you know, and like, and especially with that lady, I mean, 624 00:33:24,840 --> 00:33:26,920 Speaker 1: she's in a position that people need to feel comfortable 625 00:33:27,000 --> 00:33:28,960 Speaker 1: to come talk to her, so hopefully she would be 626 00:33:29,040 --> 00:33:30,560 Speaker 1: able to receive it. And maybe it's just one of 627 00:33:30,560 --> 00:33:33,320 Speaker 1: those things that she's not even thinking about. Like I 628 00:33:33,400 --> 00:33:37,040 Speaker 1: know that after all of these black Lives Matters matters 629 00:33:37,160 --> 00:33:40,760 Speaker 1: protests started, I was so that person that was like, well, 630 00:33:40,800 --> 00:33:43,560 Speaker 1: I'm not racist, you know, and like I did not 631 00:33:43,840 --> 00:33:47,160 Speaker 1: at all understand my privilege. I really didn't, and I'm 632 00:33:47,160 --> 00:33:49,920 Speaker 1: still learning so much about it. But like it has 633 00:33:49,960 --> 00:33:52,760 Speaker 1: been an awakening for me of like, oh my god, 634 00:33:52,800 --> 00:33:55,280 Speaker 1: I would never have even thought of the fact that 635 00:33:55,320 --> 00:33:57,480 Speaker 1: I said that this way and that could be offensive 636 00:33:57,720 --> 00:33:59,840 Speaker 1: or like just even just some things that I just 637 00:34:00,080 --> 00:34:02,840 Speaker 1: and consider about my daily life that other people don't 638 00:34:02,880 --> 00:34:06,320 Speaker 1: have the luxury to feel like. It's been so educational 639 00:34:06,440 --> 00:34:10,040 Speaker 1: for me and humbling, honestly, because there is no chance 640 00:34:10,080 --> 00:34:11,719 Speaker 1: in my mind that I ever thought that I had 641 00:34:11,800 --> 00:34:15,560 Speaker 1: any sort of thought process of like racism or privilege 642 00:34:15,719 --> 00:34:17,880 Speaker 1: in me. I just didn't think that way, and I 643 00:34:17,960 --> 00:34:21,400 Speaker 1: do because I'm a white girl, like and that's the truth. 644 00:34:22,400 --> 00:34:25,400 Speaker 1: So it's a lot of un learning. Yeah, it's a 645 00:34:25,480 --> 00:34:28,680 Speaker 1: lot of un learning. But anyway, Erica, let us know 646 00:34:28,719 --> 00:34:30,440 Speaker 1: if you do have that conversation. I hope that if 647 00:34:30,440 --> 00:34:32,440 Speaker 1: you do, it is well received and it can be 648 00:34:32,480 --> 00:34:34,960 Speaker 1: a growth opportunity for everyone. But yeah, I think we 649 00:34:35,040 --> 00:34:37,560 Speaker 1: have to give each other grace and accept that everyone's human. 650 00:34:37,600 --> 00:34:39,759 Speaker 1: And I'm so over the cancel culture. I actually think 651 00:34:39,760 --> 00:34:42,480 Speaker 1: it's a terrible thing. Like I just think you have 652 00:34:42,560 --> 00:34:48,320 Speaker 1: to give people the space to grow and evolve. And however, 653 00:34:48,960 --> 00:34:50,680 Speaker 1: there are some people that need to be canceled. I'm 654 00:34:50,719 --> 00:34:52,720 Speaker 1: not gonna say any names, but there are some people 655 00:34:52,719 --> 00:34:58,120 Speaker 1: that need to be canceled that. Yeah, but I think 656 00:34:58,120 --> 00:35:00,960 Speaker 1: that's a mentality too. It's like if they're willing to 657 00:35:01,120 --> 00:35:04,000 Speaker 1: change and grow, like I will always give people second chances. 658 00:35:04,080 --> 00:35:10,760 Speaker 1: That's just me, which is probably why I getting shitty situations. Anyway, 659 00:35:10,800 --> 00:35:14,120 Speaker 1: you guys keep the emails coming. This it's hard, honestly. 660 00:35:14,440 --> 00:35:16,120 Speaker 1: I mean, I know you and I've talked about this, 661 00:35:16,160 --> 00:35:18,719 Speaker 1: but just to be completely transparent with you guys, we've 662 00:35:18,719 --> 00:35:22,080 Speaker 1: bumped up a little bit against like what is appropriate 663 00:35:22,120 --> 00:35:24,160 Speaker 1: to talk about right now, because honestly, Chip and I 664 00:35:24,200 --> 00:35:27,560 Speaker 1: are both struggling emotionally and kind of going through the 665 00:35:27,560 --> 00:35:30,839 Speaker 1: trenches of the ups and downs of what's happening right 666 00:35:30,840 --> 00:35:32,960 Speaker 1: now too. And so if you guys have any sort 667 00:35:33,000 --> 00:35:36,080 Speaker 1: of questions or feedback or thoughts that you would like 668 00:35:36,160 --> 00:35:38,439 Speaker 1: us to talk about, we're wide open right now. We're 669 00:35:38,520 --> 00:35:41,879 Speaker 1: very open to hearing what works for y'all. I think 670 00:35:41,880 --> 00:35:46,640 Speaker 1: it's just we're all trying to navigate this time together. Yes, 671 00:35:50,120 --> 00:35:53,080 Speaker 1: well also too, if it's all. If if you come 672 00:35:53,120 --> 00:35:56,000 Speaker 1: across any sort of like at casual moments, like in 673 00:35:56,040 --> 00:35:58,719 Speaker 1: the media or something, yeah, you would like our take 674 00:35:58,800 --> 00:36:00,840 Speaker 1: on it, Like please said in our way, did you 675 00:36:00,880 --> 00:36:08,160 Speaker 1: read about Azelia Banks eating her cat casual moment? She's 676 00:36:08,200 --> 00:36:11,680 Speaker 1: always just something I think that she is literally a 677 00:36:11,760 --> 00:36:16,600 Speaker 1: master of stirring ship. I don't really much about her. Yeah, 678 00:36:16,600 --> 00:36:19,120 Speaker 1: I mean, look, she might have some squirts. Listens, who 679 00:36:19,120 --> 00:36:22,680 Speaker 1: am I to judge? I do too. But she also 680 00:36:22,760 --> 00:36:25,000 Speaker 1: posted today like a picture of her cat, like how 681 00:36:25,080 --> 00:36:27,320 Speaker 1: much she missed him, So I think she's just looking 682 00:36:27,360 --> 00:36:31,000 Speaker 1: for attention. She got it for me. I was like, what, 683 00:36:31,120 --> 00:36:34,040 Speaker 1: you dug up your dead cat and ate it? Okay, 684 00:36:34,200 --> 00:36:38,040 Speaker 1: we're all losing our moments here. Apparently, next time, get 685 00:36:38,040 --> 00:36:42,640 Speaker 1: a tattoo. All right, yeah, tattoo make a strine, just like, 686 00:36:42,920 --> 00:36:46,040 Speaker 1: don't I don't digging up a dead cat that the 687 00:36:46,640 --> 00:36:48,640 Speaker 1: smell in and of itself, I just can't even. I 688 00:36:48,680 --> 00:36:51,239 Speaker 1: can't even don't like make soup and tea out of 689 00:36:51,400 --> 00:36:55,239 Speaker 1: no thank you. I don't care what kind of that's. 690 00:36:55,280 --> 00:36:57,879 Speaker 1: Like when people talk about eating placenta, like I would 691 00:36:57,920 --> 00:36:59,840 Speaker 1: actually do it. It doesn't gross me out, like in 692 00:36:59,880 --> 00:37:03,160 Speaker 1: a pillform, but like some people just can't even stomach it. 693 00:37:03,239 --> 00:37:05,080 Speaker 1: And that's how I feel about eating a dead cat. 694 00:37:06,280 --> 00:37:08,440 Speaker 1: I don't care if it's in a t or anything. 695 00:37:08,520 --> 00:37:13,239 Speaker 1: I don't want that thing anywhere near me. Bye? All right, Well, 696 00:37:13,280 --> 00:37:16,320 Speaker 1: you guys, keep the emails coming at casual at gmail 697 00:37:16,360 --> 00:37:19,600 Speaker 1: dot com. You can. I'm wait, what that's not our email? True? 698 00:37:21,120 --> 00:37:25,320 Speaker 1: Why am I the worst at that? Wow? At casual 699 00:37:25,600 --> 00:37:28,920 Speaker 1: at Velvet's Edge dot com that would be the correct one. 700 00:37:28,960 --> 00:37:31,160 Speaker 1: Don't send it to the other one. We won't read it, um, 701 00:37:31,280 --> 00:37:33,640 Speaker 1: or you can always message us on Instagram. I'm at 702 00:37:33,719 --> 00:37:37,839 Speaker 1: Velvet's Edge, Chip is at chip doorsh and I hope 703 00:37:37,880 --> 00:37:39,959 Speaker 1: you guys take some of our tips. If you guys 704 00:37:40,000 --> 00:37:42,040 Speaker 1: have any more tips for us as far as ways 705 00:37:42,040 --> 00:37:44,040 Speaker 1: that you're getting through your days, send them along. I 706 00:37:44,040 --> 00:37:47,400 Speaker 1: will take all that I can get personally, UM, and 707 00:37:47,560 --> 00:37:49,560 Speaker 1: just enjoy the rest of your week and always remember 708 00:37:50,360 --> 00:37:54,320 Speaker 1: at bye.