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Speaker 1: I wanted to do something a little bit more serious,
Speaker 1: right because, um, I know that a lot of people
Speaker 1: have an a skining about my weight loss and stuff,
Speaker 1: and I don't want I want to share some stuff.
Speaker 1: There's some things you can't say everything. Maybe on episode fifteen,
Speaker 1: I do want to share a little bit of my
Speaker 1: weight loss journey. And um, for those that may not
Speaker 1: know if you heard the last episode when we had
Speaker 1: our guests, um Dr Miami. I also, um, you know,
Speaker 1: I I said that I had an eating disorder at
Speaker 1: one point in my life, which I'll tell you the truth.
Speaker 1: I don't think you completely heal a thousand percent because
Speaker 1: it's been a little bit hard for me. But I
Speaker 1: think that we've all had some somebody image issues at
Speaker 1: one point in life, have you. Yeah? I mean I
Speaker 1: feel like I go up and down and up and
Speaker 1: down and it's like with the goal ya lasna and
Speaker 1: all of that stuff, Like I don't know what I'm
Speaker 1: gonna do because, first of all, Spanish people we love
Speaker 1: fried food and fried chicken cattle man want. But you know,
Speaker 1: stigma like in the in the Latin community, um, chunkier
Speaker 1: you are, everybody's like Gallin, like Gallina, instead of knowing
Speaker 1: that you're unconsciously creating eating disorder by just like stopping
Speaker 1: food in their face and you know, telling them that
Speaker 1: the fatter you are, the healthier you are. That but
Speaker 1: and don't you're dying. It doesn't work like that. They
Speaker 1: over exaggerated. They were like, oh, you're gonna skin, You're dying,
Speaker 1: Like why can't I just look good like seeing? But
Speaker 1: you know what those are? Those are Latino traditions. Well,
Speaker 1: I don't even know tradition. There's stigmas um that. Like
Speaker 1: I said before, the fatter you are, the cuter you are,
Speaker 1: the skinnier you are, you're sick, You're dying, which is
Speaker 1: obviously not true. And that's why I think it's important
Speaker 1: for the Latin X and this new generation to take
Speaker 1: more control of our health and to gain more knowledge
Speaker 1: on what is what is the right or wrong way
Speaker 1: for you, because that's another thing. What may have worked
Speaker 1: for me may not work for you. Everybody's body, genetics
Speaker 1: and everything is different, you know, So I don't know.
Speaker 1: Let's startup from the beginning, Stevie at In. Well, wait
Speaker 1: a second, so you're really gonna discuss this right now,
Speaker 1: because I'm gonna ask you questions exactly exactly Ada, right now,
Speaker 1: exactly who you are? When did you notice that you
Speaker 1: were paying at touch into your weight? When did that happen?
Speaker 1: When did you say no? You want to know something?
Speaker 1: Ever since I was really young, I always felt self
Speaker 1: conscious about my body because I used to see that
Speaker 1: Kita Like I'm talking about like six seven, eight years old,
Speaker 1: And it's crazy that at such an early age you
Speaker 1: start to notice that your body is different from other girls.
Speaker 1: I my mom had me in like ballet and things
Speaker 1: like that, and the dance teachers are always like, suck
Speaker 1: it up, so halla this, tuck it in, And I
Speaker 1: was like, no matter how much hard, like how much
Speaker 1: I try to tuck it in, my butt is still here,
Speaker 1: My fast is here. It's just the way my body
Speaker 1: is naturally set up. Like the Victoria's Secret autos, like
Speaker 1: long legs, long arms, just like a long neck. I
Speaker 1: just wanted to be like that. But then eventually I
Speaker 1: had to understand your body wasn't designed to look like them,
Speaker 1: you know. So I think at a very early age, um,
Speaker 1: and even for parents, if you have kids at a
Speaker 1: very early age, you may not even know if they're
Speaker 1: being bullied in school because of their way. Whether it
Speaker 1: is skinny, tall, you know, chunky, um, all those things
Speaker 1: really do matter. So you have to be out in
Speaker 1: the lookout for that. For sure. The television and film
Speaker 1: change your thoughts on how you should look like. Did
Speaker 1: you look at an actress and be like, no, I said,
Speaker 1: at least like anybody? Yeah, yeah, for sure, I don't.
Speaker 1: I don't know if there was someone specific. It was
Speaker 1: just looking at the women on TV or on magazine
Speaker 1: covers and just their bodies just you know, say Joe,
Speaker 1: you wouldn't see any study light, no dimples. But I
Speaker 1: need that six paths, long, long legs, flawless skin better
Speaker 1: than Later on, as you grow you learned that half
Speaker 1: of that is photoshop, if not more, you know, but
Speaker 1: you're you're trying to mimic what you see. So yes,
Speaker 1: I definitely wanted to um to change how I look
Speaker 1: to to fit in and be more accepted on on TV.
Speaker 1: And for men, I think it's the same amount. I
Speaker 1: think that we look at these men, especially on only Fans,
Speaker 1: and we're like, wow, if I could only he's like
Speaker 1: an only fan. I mean, you know what. I like
Speaker 1: the fact that you brought that point, because the truth is,
Speaker 1: I feel that it's unfair that I don't think that
Speaker 1: we're talk enough about the pressure than men have the
Speaker 1: men received. I think that when we talk about beauty,
Speaker 1: we usually always talk about women and how women get surgeries,
Speaker 1: this that, all this stuff, But I feel that men
Speaker 1: also have a lot of pressure to look at a
Speaker 1: certain type of way amongst themselves. See for us, it's
Speaker 1: society that puts that pressure on us as women. But
Speaker 1: amongst men, I think amongst them who like all this,
Speaker 1: you know, see who has a bigger arm, who has
Speaker 1: a bigger arms, and who's this, and who's the fittest,
Speaker 1: And it stopped being about your health and now it
Speaker 1: just became about looking good to compete with God knows
Speaker 1: who disorder? What can you tell us about this and
Speaker 1: get into a get to mata? Well about my eating disorder?
Speaker 1: I mean, I don't know exactly how to tell you
Speaker 1: when I'll tell you this. Okay, So this is how
Speaker 1: it started for me. Um so being curvy me means men,
Speaker 1: I got me very latina like, very shapely and um nothing.
Speaker 1: I was in dance classes and one day, I'll never
Speaker 1: forget one day I saw we were in we were
Speaker 1: in the dance rehearsals, and they made us wear like
Speaker 1: sports brawls and booty shorts so that we could look
Speaker 1: at ourselves in the mirror and see that we were fat.
Speaker 1: Because he had like a you know, a standard of
Speaker 1: how you're supposed to look. We're going to competition, duding
Speaker 1: very like that. He I saw that a girl was
Speaker 1: coming out of the bathroom and she was just barfing, barfing,
Speaker 1: throwing up whatever. I went to her and let me, mama,
Speaker 1: what happened? Are you o kids? And that? And she
Speaker 1: was like, oh, no, no, no, it's just that I
Speaker 1: don't want to get any weight. I don't want to
Speaker 1: be fat because we have competition. She didn't even realize
Speaker 1: that that small comment sink into my head. If you
Speaker 1: eat and you throw up, then you don't get in weight.
Speaker 1: But I can still eat it and then I don't
Speaker 1: have to feel bad about it. Huh. Okay, so that's
Speaker 1: how that works. And you're skinny and I'm not, then
Speaker 1: let me start trying it. So then I did it,
Speaker 1: and my dance teacher at the moment was like, what
Speaker 1: has their basil? That's what That's what he told me.
Speaker 1: And actually that's how it started. And never and ever since,
Speaker 1: you know, I used to bench eat. I would have
Speaker 1: like a whole large pizza by myself, with coke and everything,
Speaker 1: and I would just barf it out so that I
Speaker 1: didn't have to feel guilty about, you know, being not
Speaker 1: as skinny as the rest of the girls. And that
Speaker 1: was really bad for me. I actually ended up hospitalized
Speaker 1: in to two occasions for like a week each time.
Speaker 1: The acid uh destroyed my vocal cords for a very
Speaker 1: long time. It was very bad. And I literally went
Speaker 1: from a way in two hundred thirty pounds two because
Speaker 1: I did. I did gain a lot of weight. I
Speaker 1: was going through depression and stuff because you know, issues
Speaker 1: that that were happening in my house with like um,
Speaker 1: you know, there was a lot of like violence and
Speaker 1: stuff like that. At home, my mom was with my stepfather.
Speaker 1: She didn't have no papers, so she had to put
Speaker 1: up with a lot of things that unfortunately I had
Speaker 1: to see, and it was very tough, and just my
Speaker 1: fear made me eat, and that was my comfort zone,
Speaker 1: just eating and hiding away in my room. Even nah,
Speaker 1: I went from to thirty to thirty, I literally lost
Speaker 1: a hundred pounds, but like in a couple of months,
Speaker 1: really bad. I looked sick. I just feel happy because
Speaker 1: I was skinny. So I just think it's a it's
Speaker 1: a it's a disorder mentally. You know, it's not just
Speaker 1: the eating part, but it's a mental condition because even
Speaker 1: after you lose the weight, you look at yourself in
Speaker 1: the mirror and you still see yourself as you used
Speaker 1: to look. It's real. You're absolutely right because I remember
Speaker 1: my senior year in high school. I look back at
Speaker 1: these photos and I literally looked like a worm, and
Speaker 1: I thought that I was so like like, you know,
Speaker 1: I guess fat, I guess that's the word. Like I
Speaker 1: thought I was overweight. And it was like wow at
Speaker 1: such a young age, because due to television, why do
Speaker 1: we create this kind of you know, crazy self esteem
Speaker 1: and low self esteem And it's just like it starts
Speaker 1: at a really young age, and people think that, you know,
Speaker 1: the youth, they don't really go through that, or they
Speaker 1: don't go through anything, or they don't really stress what
Speaker 1: you got stressed about. You don't have bals, you don't
Speaker 1: have that, but you don't know that it starts at
Speaker 1: a very young age. And the word that I was
Speaker 1: looking for was called play. How like I think like
Speaker 1: I had was real? Yeah, I mean it's terrible. I
Speaker 1: did recover from it, Um, I stopped for many years.
Speaker 1: But I'm going to tell you the truth. I don't
Speaker 1: think and I know that a lot of people that
Speaker 1: have suffer suffered from bolimia can relate to me. I
Speaker 1: don't think you completely heal a thousand percent. Having an
Speaker 1: eating disorder is like to me personally, because I can
Speaker 1: only speak from my own personal experience. It's like being
Speaker 1: a drug addict, because even when you heal, there's certain
Speaker 1: moments where temptation comes and it just makes you want
Speaker 1: to do it. I've had moments to this day. I'm
Speaker 1: not proud of it. That's why I'm I'm openly talking
Speaker 1: about it, and I'm being honest and transparent. To this day,
Speaker 1: I've had moments where I've been depressed, stressed out or
Speaker 1: whatever the case, maybe and my anxiety will be like,
Speaker 1: well then just eat. It's a mental condition, It really is,
Speaker 1: especially in this industry, the entertainment industry, makes you feel
Speaker 1: so much pressure to be flawless, to be perfect your nose,
Speaker 1: your skin, your body, your stomach, your boobs, your ask,
Speaker 1: your thighs. You it's a lot. And I don't feel
Speaker 1: like people really understand how much pressure these women feel.
Speaker 1: And not to mention the fact that we're living up
Speaker 1: you know, face tune and all these apps that you
Speaker 1: used to fix yourself, and we're comparing real life to
Speaker 1: these photoshop pictures and images. And now I think the
Speaker 1: things have changed. It is no longer so much about
Speaker 1: being skinny. Yes, a lot of it is like, oh,
Speaker 1: you have to lose weight, But now it's become the
Speaker 1: era of the surgery era, which is why we had
Speaker 1: Dr Miami last week. Now I feel that the pressure
Speaker 1: has become of like, if you don't look the way
Speaker 1: that you want to look, then just you know that,
Speaker 1: ain't you want to resolve everything? You to resolve everything
Speaker 1: with surgery. And yes, these these filtures, which by the way,
Speaker 1: I love these filtures make you realize like, oh my god,
Speaker 1: I should have my nose more snaps, Oh my god,
Speaker 1: I shouldn't have my jawline, or I need to have this,
Speaker 1: or I need to do this. It's a lot of pressure.
Speaker 1: I can't wait till cellulite and being fat and stretch
Speaker 1: marks are in style, because I'm gonna be a bad bit.
Speaker 1: So what kind of helps you see as far as
Speaker 1: like therapy, And you know in the they like frown
Speaker 1: upon therapy, So you really did therapy, which is great.
Speaker 1: So no, my therapy. It is true, and I'm so
Speaker 1: glad that you said it, because it is true. A
Speaker 1: month community getting therapy is like, yeah, you're gonna spend money.
Speaker 1: So if someone can tell you what you already know that.
Speaker 1: So for me, I had to do more of like
Speaker 1: self healing. And it takes a lot for you to
Speaker 1: be able to heal yourself. It takes a lot for
Speaker 1: you to be able. But I guess that because I
Speaker 1: have that single child only child syndrome, I'm accustomed to
Speaker 1: talking to myself and playing with myself and answering myself,
Speaker 1: and you know, but I had to like just disconnect.
Speaker 1: It just took me. It took me a lot of
Speaker 1: like self healing. You know, I just have to like
Speaker 1: talk to myself and accept myself and understand that I
Speaker 1: am one in a million. I am unique. I am
Speaker 1: only like out of seven billion human beings on this planet.
Speaker 1: God only made one of me. My body, what I have,
Speaker 1: my brain, my personality, everything that I am is exactly
Speaker 1: on my It's exactly and it's exactly who I'm supposed
Speaker 1: to be. And it takes a long time for you
Speaker 1: don't understand that. And I was able to understand that.
Speaker 1: And now even more now that I've done like this
Speaker 1: body transformation once again. Um, now that I've lost like
Speaker 1: sixty pounds, my mentality has also transformed with this body,
Speaker 1: uh you know weight loss. Now I'm more concerned about
Speaker 1: my mindset than I was about my body before that
Speaker 1: body that all that stuff, And I still like that.
Speaker 1: I still like that because of course, but I feel like,
Speaker 1: no matter what, even if my body has changed, is
Speaker 1: still good. My dog's still good and that's what matters. Okay,
Speaker 1: all my weight went to my toldo was popping. But
Speaker 1: I just think that now I'm more concerned about, like
Speaker 1: where is my mind a becoming more more intellectual becoming
Speaker 1: more strong mentally, you know, that makes me more of
Speaker 1: a woman, the type of woman that I want to
Speaker 1: be that's not just so focused on my body. So
Speaker 1: I think you have to have a balance better. Regardless,
Speaker 1: I definitely want to know what you guys think of
Speaker 1: this topic. Have you ever had an eating disorder? Do
Speaker 1: you understand where I'm coming from? Do you have a
Speaker 1: family member or you know someone that has had an
Speaker 1: eating disorder? How has it been for you or how
Speaker 1: have you been a support system for them? Let us
Speaker 1: know at exactly Amata on Instagram, Twitter. We will be
Speaker 1: right back with more Exactly Welcome back to our very
Speaker 1: juicy conversation. You're finally giving us exactly a Mada. What
Speaker 1: can you tell? And we were speaking obviously about your
Speaker 1: eating disorder and you finally it wasn't an eating disorder? Yeah,
Speaker 1: I mean I had it. Now I currently have feels
Speaker 1: from it. I've already recovered. Now. My question is to
Speaker 1: a man or a woman that's going through this, what
Speaker 1: can you say to them? Um, if you're going through it,
Speaker 1: you have to have you have to have some individual
Speaker 1: personal healing with yourself like this means um going away
Speaker 1: talking to yourself understanding yourself, understanding that you are one
Speaker 1: in a million, understanding that your body will be with
Speaker 1: you for the rest of your life and you have
Speaker 1: to take care of it and you have to love
Speaker 1: it like this is literally a machine. Sometimes we can
Speaker 1: be so ungrateful with our bodies and mistreat it so much.
Speaker 1: It hard knows because sometimes don't mem I talked a
Speaker 1: lot of ship. I talked to it all the time.
Speaker 1: I look at my fasts, I hate my boobs, look
Speaker 1: at my face, and it's like going, noo, stop complaining.
Speaker 1: You're beautiful, You're blessed. There's so many people that wish
Speaker 1: they had your body, that wish they had your arms,
Speaker 1: your legs, just who you are. So sometimes I just
Speaker 1: feel that we can be very ungrateful, and it's just
Speaker 1: coming from a place of gratitude and understanding that this
Speaker 1: is you, this is your body. You're not meant to
Speaker 1: look like anybody else. You're not meant to be a
Speaker 1: copy paste. Not everybody's gonna look like Kim Kardashian. Yeah,
Speaker 1: even though you can buy it, but you don't have
Speaker 1: to look at women out there that do look like
Speaker 1: Kim Kardashian and pay for see, because and I understand
Speaker 1: if you're an inspiration other women. See if you're an
Speaker 1: inspiration for other women's based on your body, because it's
Speaker 1: okay if you like somebody's body, like oh my god,
Speaker 1: I wouldn't have her ask that it go do you.
Speaker 1: But I'm just saying, do it because you want to,
Speaker 1: don't do it because you feel that you have to
Speaker 1: fit in. That's basically what I'm saying. And then that's
Speaker 1: that's what you're going through it. If you're planning on
Speaker 1: going through it. Hello, memo that I just said, Like,
Speaker 1: stop trying to be like everybody else. Just accept you
Speaker 1: for who you are and become the better version of you.
Speaker 1: Like you have to accept your body. That's the only
Speaker 1: way you can come out of it. Because let me
Speaker 1: tell you, between you and me and me and you,
Speaker 1: in the process of me being the limit and stuff
Speaker 1: I was trying to I was literally pushing and trying
Speaker 1: myself to do the crossover into being anorexic because it
Speaker 1: becomes addictive. I would wait myself a thousand time and
Speaker 1: am Inyana in the morning, I would be wait myself.
Speaker 1: I would take a ship, waite myself and then if
Speaker 1: I get a little bit that's it. I'm not eating
Speaker 1: all day till I go back to my you know,
Speaker 1: it was really really bad. And there's a lot of websites,
Speaker 1: crazy enough. There's a lot of pro anna which is
Speaker 1: what it's called pro anna um websites where they give
Speaker 1: you tips on how to become an eratic. And I
Speaker 1: also want to clarify something. There's a lot of women
Speaker 1: that are thin. There's a lot of women that are
Speaker 1: petite because that's just naturally who they are. And you know,
Speaker 1: some Bay yet Vina, you're you're beautiful. You know what
Speaker 1: I'm saying. If this is how your body is naturally
Speaker 1: set up, my most highest respects to you because I'm
Speaker 1: bo I wanna I want them to we're shading on them. Noaa.
Speaker 1: And if you're a little chunky or whatever that, enjoy
Speaker 1: and embrace your curves some being as long as you're healthy.
Speaker 1: You recently lost sixty pounds. How do you manage this?
Speaker 1: Knowing you have had weight struggles before. But I'm gonna
Speaker 1: tell you this, um, I think that a lot of
Speaker 1: us gained a little, you know, a couple of pounds
Speaker 1: during the pandemic. We all got really comfortable because God
Speaker 1: knows I did. I got really comfortable. I didn't even
Speaker 1: notice when it's steady gaining weight. And I went to
Speaker 1: the Dominican Republic to do a music video because I
Speaker 1: was like, we're in the pandemic. I haven't put out
Speaker 1: music in a really long time. I just want to
Speaker 1: feel productive. So I went and I did the music
Speaker 1: video for TikTok because TikTok was super booming during pandemic time.
Speaker 1: And I was like, we no, let me do this
Speaker 1: TikTok song and maybe oh become a little wave, you
Speaker 1: know on social media. Um. But then when I did it,
Speaker 1: and I saw a moment a year and when I
Speaker 1: saw how I looked, I was like, because in length,
Speaker 1: it just takes one picture, one video, one I don't know,
Speaker 1: if you walk by the mirror and your naked, it
Speaker 1: just takes one moment for you to be like, this
Speaker 1: is me, what happened? And I'm accustomed being you know,
Speaker 1: the sex symbol and being hot and all this other stuff.
Speaker 1: And I just didn't realize that I had gained all
Speaker 1: that weight. I don't even know how it happened. I
Speaker 1: just know that, you know, I was home aiding, not
Speaker 1: working out, not being physically active obviously as I was before.
Speaker 1: You know that when I gained all the weight, I
Speaker 1: just felt like I need to do something about it.
Speaker 1: And in the process of me doing something, it originally
Speaker 1: started with me checking my health and I was like,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna take this time now that I have so
Speaker 1: much free time to literally go to the doctors and
Speaker 1: check every single part of me. I was doing every
Speaker 1: single blood test, that was doing everything. Like I said
Speaker 1: later on on episode fifteen, I will talk to you
Speaker 1: guys more about what really caused me to lose you
Speaker 1: know a lot of the way. And like I said it,
Speaker 1: it originally started with health issues. Um, I found out
Speaker 1: that I had I currently still have. You know, my
Speaker 1: body is not functioning the way to post soon. And
Speaker 1: in that journey, I just said, when I do need
Speaker 1: to take control of my body and my health, and
Speaker 1: I started to detox I started to use more organic
Speaker 1: and natural products, um, you know, working out lightly as
Speaker 1: long as you know, I was just trying to put
Speaker 1: down the weight. Later on, like I said, I'll get
Speaker 1: into the details. I am currently okay. I'm okay because
Speaker 1: I'm still here, but it's still something that I have
Speaker 1: to deal with and and away from that. You know,
Speaker 1: my mom's diabetic, my mom has hybrid pressure um thyroid.
Speaker 1: My father um to like a year and almost two
Speaker 1: years um had surgery for prostate cancer. I mean, my
Speaker 1: my aunt has breast cancer and it just came back unfortunately.
Speaker 1: So I'm like, I have a trace of you know,
Speaker 1: health issues if I don't do something to prevent this.
Speaker 1: And I'm only thirty years old at this moment, so
Speaker 1: I was like, no, I gotta do something about it.
Speaker 1: And my children. I don't even have children yet. I
Speaker 1: need to be here for them. Everything I do is
Speaker 1: for my children and my future. So job taking care
Speaker 1: of your parents, because I remember being you know, I've
Speaker 1: got to hang you know, I've had the honor to
Speaker 1: hang out with you and the family. They're not my family.
Speaker 1: And I see how you take care of your mom.
Speaker 1: Like me and her wanted to get a cheese cake
Speaker 1: so bad from Publix. No, And then I was like,
Speaker 1: oh my god, I wanted so bad. And then we're like, oh,
Speaker 1: we can't do this because I'm out. It's trying to
Speaker 1: keep us good. And I was like, but let me
Speaker 1: tell you, she cooks so good. I gain some pounds
Speaker 1: just being at your house. So I believe you can
Speaker 1: understand believe you. I can understand you trying to like,
Speaker 1: you know, cut that down because you know that's boy
Speaker 1: and there I believe it. And it's Latina, which is cool,
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. But something Latina and they
Speaker 1: got say they it all every single good bottle that
Speaker 1: it tastes great. But I think that as much as
Speaker 1: we love, you know, food, because food is a very,
Speaker 1: it's a it's a part of our culture. Food is
Speaker 1: a way of us coming together as one. It doesn't
Speaker 1: out of where you're from. Food, food and music naturally
Speaker 1: just brings people together. It's like, if you're happy, let's eat.
Speaker 1: If you're sad, let's eat. You went through breakup, let's eat.
Speaker 1: You have you're getting married, Let's see. Everything is a
Speaker 1: reason to eating. Cool. But I think it's important that
Speaker 1: we figure out a way that we can enjoy the
Speaker 1: taste of food. But I'm go go to that unhealthy
Speaker 1: gorda unhealthy thick or the womment chunky fo pounds three pounds.
Speaker 1: We need to figure this out. It's not so much
Speaker 1: anymore about your physical aspect. And that's where I'm like,
Speaker 1: I don't want to point fingers, and I don't want
Speaker 1: anybody to feel like, oh, she's judging me. I've been there,
Speaker 1: and I'm speaking from experience, and I'm speaking from not
Speaker 1: only being overweight, losing weight, being b limic, ending up
Speaker 1: in a hospital bed. I've been in every situation and
Speaker 1: people just look at you like and that's that's the thing.
Speaker 1: More pressure. You don't know that. Yes, we're definitely grateful
Speaker 1: for the compliment Lato, but that also comes with like
Speaker 1: a pressure of you have to stay looking a certain way.
Speaker 1: You can't you know, mess up, because everybody expects you
Speaker 1: to be this person. So it's a lot of pressure steaming.
Speaker 1: It is a lot of pressure. And speaking of pressure,
Speaker 1: even on social media, UM, I could pull up comments
Speaker 1: from you know, even just your I G. People thought
Speaker 1: that you know, you were losing weight because maybe you
Speaker 1: wanted to, you know, because that was not drugs casting
Speaker 1: or that casting in Hollywood, you know, or or am
Speaker 1: I as becoming more Hollywood or maybe she's just advancing
Speaker 1: in life and going on. And I got about those
Speaker 1: I might as losing weight because she's doing drugs, because
Speaker 1: people can be so ignorant. Okay, you don't know in
Speaker 1: my mind, I will always think of Chad, you know,
Speaker 1: our black panther. Unfortunately, when he passed away, he kept
Speaker 1: his private life buried to himself. No one even knew
Speaker 1: that he was going through health issues. And even and
Speaker 1: even then, which I respect that, even like that just
Speaker 1: made him even so much bigger. He continued to work
Speaker 1: knowing that he was very, very ill, and he continued
Speaker 1: to be professional and his work ethic was always on point.
Speaker 1: And while this is occurring on still on social media,
Speaker 1: everybody is so concerned about calling him a crackhead, of
Speaker 1: calling him you know, he looks bad. He looked down
Speaker 1: Arex without knowing the weight that he was carrying on
Speaker 1: his shoulders. And I felt that people can be so
Speaker 1: judgment and whether it is that you're losing weight, or
Speaker 1: whether it is if someone has gained weight, if if
Speaker 1: someone is overweight, don't be judgmental. Don't be a fucking asshole. Okay,
Speaker 1: don't do that, and I know, don't don't bully them,
Speaker 1: don't make fun of them. You don't know what they're
Speaker 1: going through. No one wants to be unhappy. And a
Speaker 1: lot of times when you are in this place of
Speaker 1: being obese, you take it with with like do whatever.
Speaker 1: But deep downe inside, you know, you know that they
Speaker 1: may not be a happier content with their body shape
Speaker 1: or their body at at the moment. So instead of
Speaker 1: you being supportive, if you're being an ass, that makes
Speaker 1: it even worse. And not everybody is mentally strong to
Speaker 1: be like women they like di mental to be able
Speaker 1: to do it, you know, right, like Lizzo or um
Speaker 1: an influencer girl with a guy on TikTok, they'd be like,
Speaker 1: put it on, put it on. They put on their
Speaker 1: two piece, and they're confident and who they are, you know.
Speaker 1: But it's not for you to be calling them out
Speaker 1: and making it harder for being disrespectful. Yes, so it's
Speaker 1: safe to say that's why you lost weight or because
Speaker 1: of the you know, the eatings, the you know, you know,
Speaker 1: your disorder. I mean, I think it was a combination
Speaker 1: of many things. You know, it's a combination of the
Speaker 1: industry I'm in. You know, Um, I personally wasn't happy,
Speaker 1: and that's the most important part. People can say what
Speaker 1: they want and even guys, and even guys I was,
Speaker 1: I was dating someone who accepted me at the moment
Speaker 1: as I was better. You haven't stopped liking pictures on
Speaker 1: social media of all the girls that don't look like me.
Speaker 1: So I kind of felt like, oh, we give me Alice.
Speaker 1: It's a and we're going to talk about this in
Speaker 1: another show. I don't know. Sometimes the guys be doing that, Mama,
Speaker 1: pay attention to be meta, let me be your friend
Speaker 1: and let me talk to you know, they sometimes do
Speaker 1: this too. Sometimes you'll be trying to get them fat. No, no, no, no, no,
Speaker 1: don't do that. I've seen it. Let's have ice cream,
Speaker 1: let's have this, and deep down and set, you're plotting.
Speaker 1: You're plotting because you're like, I don't want I don't
Speaker 1: want Nobo didn't take my man. I don't want to
Speaker 1: to take my girl. So I'm just gonna make her
Speaker 1: Fat's gonna be off for me. No, take care of
Speaker 1: you first. Do you really like this new look? And
Speaker 1: you know, looking good and truly feeling good and confident?
Speaker 1: Has they made you more confident? Because I know that
Speaker 1: when I looked a certain way back in two thousand sixteen,
Speaker 1: Oh my god, bring me back, lord, you can do it,
Speaker 1: you can do it. I'm making you so happy. And
Speaker 1: I was walking with my head up high Bla, Bobby
Speaker 1: DC Blina get it. Whatever you want in life, you
Speaker 1: can conquess. Made you more confident? Do you love this
Speaker 1: new amouta amata? I don't think she likes this amnah.
Speaker 1: Well I'm thinking I do. I do love this new amatta.
Speaker 1: But you know why I love this new amata because
Speaker 1: of my confidence. It was for me. It was for me.
Speaker 1: Some women feel more confident when they have bigger boobs.
Speaker 1: Some women feel more confident with their butt is bigger.
Speaker 1: Some women feel everybody has their standards of what makes
Speaker 1: them feel good about themselves. I've always felt good about me,
Speaker 1: even in my heavier, heaviest state, I was still a
Speaker 1: bad bit. Better now, snap snap snap better now. I
Speaker 1: kind of enjoy wearing different type of outfits that I
Speaker 1: couldn't wear before. I enjoy being able to be a
Speaker 1: little bit more slimmer and not feel some type of
Speaker 1: way I missed my fat ass. I still have a
Speaker 1: little booty. Other think a little booty. But before I
Speaker 1: was like and I was more like everything kind of
Speaker 1: like you know, but it's okay. I feel like afterwards,
Speaker 1: when I have children, my body is gonna have a transformation,
Speaker 1: is gonna you know, change a little bit and eventually
Speaker 1: can't save it. You know, I feel healthy and I
Speaker 1: feel healthy, I feel blessed and that's all that matters.
Speaker 1: Bab day exactly, and we are back there. Um. I
Speaker 1: love being all up in your business. It's just so
Speaker 1: just so getting right back into it. How do you
Speaker 1: keep up with your new transformation? Me huh buenoma, I'd
Speaker 1: say that now. I'm just more conscious about you know,
Speaker 1: how much I eat. It's not even about what I eat,
Speaker 1: it's just how much I eat, like key walking me
Speaker 1: hand then okay, exactly, there you go. Um, I still
Speaker 1: have me like, I still eat everything fatal mannows. My
Speaker 1: portions are smaller. I'm talking about like smaller, like I
Speaker 1: eat like a five year old, the same amount of
Speaker 1: food that you will give a five year old. That's
Speaker 1: what I eat. And don't said like an hour or
Speaker 1: an hour or two later. Mahomo, two hours later, I'll
Speaker 1: eat again. So I eat more often now, so you
Speaker 1: know I'll do that. I love to dance, um, I
Speaker 1: love to sweat. That's cardio minutes and that will help you.
Speaker 1: So it's just finding ways. You know that. It doesn't
Speaker 1: feel like it's workout. It's a lifestyle. And I've heard
Speaker 1: this so many times, but I never really understood it.
Speaker 1: So now every day do something towards that goal, like
Speaker 1: eat that. I definitely love to de talk. I get
Speaker 1: that's buena. I'm so sorry. I love the ship. Girl
Speaker 1: and me we talk about that like that is my moment.
Speaker 1: No one bothers you because first of all, you stink,
Speaker 1: so no one's coming around you. It's like my moment.
Speaker 1: No make that hold's like and not God no. But
Speaker 1: the truth is, Mita, it's important that when you eat,
Speaker 1: you also have to like get it out. Have you
Speaker 1: implemented healthy habits such as exercising? Are you exercising me?
Speaker 1: Huh mecising? I thought you were se no, but no
Speaker 1: I haven't been come on s exercising you not? So
Speaker 1: you know, my daughter is like brand new at this point.
Speaker 1: It's been such a long time. It's terrible. But that's
Speaker 1: that's actually a great workout, and it also helps you
Speaker 1: sta song and helps helps you stimilate your body. But
Speaker 1: I know my way of working out is I love
Speaker 1: to dance. Um, I love to clean, so cleaning around
Speaker 1: the house, I'll be putting music really loud, turn off
Speaker 1: the a c and I'll be hot in here like
Speaker 1: a sauna. I'll be cleaning. I'm Florida, I'm in Miami,
Speaker 1: and then you know something else to um. I like
Speaker 1: to walk. I'm a walker, not a job. I could jog,
Speaker 1: but I hate it makes my ass hurt. But I'm
Speaker 1: walking is very good. Walking is very good. Yeah, so
Speaker 1: it's like little things I could be walking. I love
Speaker 1: to hear motivational speeches like on YouTube and stuff, so
Speaker 1: I put it on at thirty minutes. Now whatever come back. Yeah,
Speaker 1: it was a little something I did. I don't know,
Speaker 1: limit myself because I feel that then it becomes a diet,
Speaker 1: and dieting is it's not good. You eventually end up
Speaker 1: breaking the diets. Then you end up gaining more weight
Speaker 1: because now you feel like you know, you prevented yourself
Speaker 1: from eating and things you want. It's just too much.
Speaker 1: So I just eat everything I want, just it's just
Speaker 1: the amount. I just eat less. Do you sleep more?
Speaker 1: I surely don't. And sleeping actually does help you lose weight.
Speaker 1: Like literally yesterday and I was up to like two
Speaker 1: o'clock at night, so literally almost twenty four hours as
Speaker 1: your wide awake. And today who could who could amount
Speaker 1: of sleep you're a that's the thing here there everywhere.
Speaker 1: Like I woked up at five o'clock in the morning today, eMTA,
Speaker 1: and I'm still rolling. So I don't sleep too much.
Speaker 1: So I can't see that that's it. But I know
Speaker 1: the sleeping is definitely something you guys have to do.
Speaker 1: So you know, don't follow my steps, don't do what
Speaker 1: I say. I mean, don't do what I do, do
Speaker 1: what I say. So therapy, as far as therapy, mental health,
Speaker 1: you know, to address you know, you're eating disorder. Have
Speaker 1: you seek I know you said you did, but like,
Speaker 1: are you really seeking therapy? And are we going to
Speaker 1: see that? On love in hip hop? It took me
Speaker 1: a really long time to be able to heal myself,
Speaker 1: Like I said, I don't think I've been able to do.
Speaker 1: Would I still be willing to take therapy most definitely?
Speaker 1: I would love to say therapy not just for the
Speaker 1: eating disorder, you know, but also because I feel like
Speaker 1: I have a lot of childhood traumas that I never
Speaker 1: was able to heal from and and those traumas carry
Speaker 1: with me as an adult. I just hide them with
Speaker 1: other other things, and I think that they're me. It
Speaker 1: is so important for people to take like I think
Speaker 1: it's important. I wish that everybody were to take therapy.
Speaker 1: I think it's so important. And it's not that you're
Speaker 1: talking to it is that it's not about the money,
Speaker 1: and it's not that you're talking to someone that's going
Speaker 1: to tell you what to do with your life. It's
Speaker 1: just that they're professional people that know how to tap
Speaker 1: into certain feelings and certain situations that may have caused
Speaker 1: you to react or do certain things. So I would
Speaker 1: love to, And I don't think you'll see it on
Speaker 1: Loving hip Hop, not this season anyway. You like people
Speaker 1: questioning you about your weight and telling you what do
Speaker 1: you I don't know what I'm saying. Are we going
Speaker 1: to see that on Loving hip Hop? Like people all
Speaker 1: up in your business, like friends, family members, like all
Speaker 1: up in your business? By no, I guess you're gonna
Speaker 1: have to stay tuned for the fourth season on Live
Speaker 1: in Hip Hop Miami. I'll be trying. I know you guys,
Speaker 1: be asking you guys, be sending me questions, and I'll
Speaker 1: be trying to tell them in there. I know. I know.
Speaker 1: Keep Instagram, No, yes, I mean I've gotten a lot
Speaker 1: of attention for you know, my my new body, and
Speaker 1: and now I just really want to focus on my
Speaker 1: mental health. I think that we've seen, we've recently seen
Speaker 1: a lot of people talking on social media and being
Speaker 1: very vocal about mental health. And I never understood how
Speaker 1: important it is to be able to be to have sanity,
Speaker 1: to be able to be at peace with who you
Speaker 1: are as a person, your body, just everything overall, everything
Speaker 1: that is you. So I just want to take I
Speaker 1: just want to be in a better mental space. I
Speaker 1: think that I'm doing great. I am happy. I think
Speaker 1: that there's always space for improvement, and that's something that
Speaker 1: you have to be okay with an understand you. You
Speaker 1: don't say a bit fake that sassi to become better?
Speaker 1: Why not? You're getting a lot of attention for your
Speaker 1: new body, but how do you healthy when others are physical.
Speaker 1: I'm in a I'm in a happy mental mental space.
Speaker 1: I am satisfied with my body, which is all that
Speaker 1: matters to me. Who cares what the people have to say?
Speaker 1: Who cares? Who can be judgmental? Who cares? Like at
Speaker 1: the end of the day, the day that I die,
Speaker 1: nobody's comments die with me. You know, I have to
Speaker 1: live with my own I have to live with my
Speaker 1: own consequences. I have to live with my own life.
Speaker 1: So I need to do was best for me. And
Speaker 1: that's just what it is. If you don't think that
Speaker 1: I no longer because I've had people say, oh, I'm
Speaker 1: gonna follow you by good night, Hey peace, you know,
Speaker 1: like you have to you have to get into a
Speaker 1: space where you're okay with saying no. You have to
Speaker 1: get into a space where you're okay with saying I
Speaker 1: don't care what you think. Like I know that we
Speaker 1: give more um and like I can't change my body.
Speaker 1: I can't change who I am. I can't change who
Speaker 1: I am as a person or physically for anybody. So
Speaker 1: but I mean what I do want to say that
Speaker 1: to me is extremely important. I feel that I still
Speaker 1: have more healing to do. I feel that I am
Speaker 1: comfortable where I am right now. I feel that, um,
Speaker 1: I healed myself by doing by being my own therapist. However,
Speaker 1: I would love to have their you know, therapy at
Speaker 1: one point in life and and really like you know,
Speaker 1: so search and and get really deep in there and
Speaker 1: and see those traumas and issues that I have in life.
Speaker 1: But if you are someone you know it's suffering or
Speaker 1: has suffered of eating disorder. Please please seek help, like
Speaker 1: this is so real. Please seek help. Call or text
Speaker 1: the n e d A which is the National Eating
Speaker 1: Disorder Association Hotline UM or the helpline rather better UH
Speaker 1: and the phone number is eight hundred nine three one
Speaker 1: to two three seven, eight hundred nine three one to
Speaker 1: two three seven. It will also be posted on the
Speaker 1: exactly amount of Instagram and Twitter page UM and it's
Speaker 1: it's it's extremely confidential. No one has to know that
Speaker 1: you called. No one has to know nothing. You can
Speaker 1: just call and ask for help or just say, look,
Speaker 1: I've been doing this or I feel this type of way,
Speaker 1: whatever it is that you want to express, and they
Speaker 1: will literally help you and guide you into how to
Speaker 1: better yourself. UM. If you can't do it on your own,
Speaker 1: you need to ask for help. And let's be clear,
Speaker 1: eating disorders are not just the gay who became anorexic
Speaker 1: or your billimic and you're losing weight. If you're gaining
Speaker 1: weight and you're over eating and you're OBEs, that is
Speaker 1: also an eating disorder. So don't don't feel like you're
Speaker 1: being judged rather than complaining or arguing about what we
Speaker 1: already know. Let's just find a solution to the problem.
Speaker 1: Let's figure out ways to become better. And I think
Speaker 1: that's the most important part. Eating disorders are real, this
Speaker 1: is real. Don't judge, don't be a bully, be supportive,
Speaker 1: get educated on the topic. You know, whether it is
Speaker 1: that you're going through it, or you may know someone
Speaker 1: that's going through it, please be a support system to them.
Speaker 1: Um Stevie, thank you so much for taking this time
Speaker 1: to actually, you know, ask the right questions. And I
Speaker 1: really feel and hope that this conversation has been motivational,
Speaker 1: inspirational in some way, helpful in some way for anybody
Speaker 1: that's listening. That's why I want to thank you for
Speaker 1: spending some time with us today. UM, don't forget to
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