WEBVTT - EP 108: The Mama Boo Episode 0:00:00.800 --> 0:00:05.720 When I wrote, y'all all across the USC Compton Watts 0:00:06.360 --> 0:00:10.680 Bank to l A from on the California the Valley. 0:00:11.280 --> 0:00:14.200 We represent that kind of county. So if you're keeping 0:00:14.200 --> 0:00:16.840 it rail on your side of your town, you tune 0:00:16.880 --> 0:00:22.120 into Gangster Chronicles Gangster the Goals. We're gonna tell you 0:00:22.160 --> 0:00:25.480 how we go. If I like my nose, will girl 0:00:25.520 --> 0:00:27.720 like Pinocchio. We're gonna tell you the truth and nothing 0:00:27.760 --> 0:00:31.680 but the truth Gangster Chronic Goals. This is not your 0:00:31.840 --> 0:00:36.320 average show. You're now tuned into the Rail m c A. 0:00:36.520 --> 0:00:45.240 Bick James and Bix Fails from the Streets. Hello, where 0:00:45.240 --> 0:00:48.640 you act? This is o G Gangster Granny and the 0:00:48.760 --> 0:00:53.400 Gangster Chronicles podcast is back in effect. Get ready for 0:00:53.440 --> 0:00:56.959 some of that ship. Welcome to the Gangster Chronicles podcast, 0:00:57.000 --> 0:01:00.200 the production of our Heart Radio and Black Effect Podcast Network. 0:01:00.520 --> 0:01:02.800 Make sure you download the I Heart app and subscribe 0:01:02.800 --> 0:01:05.319 to the Gangster Chronicles. For my Apple users, hit the 0:01:05.319 --> 0:01:08.080 purple mica on your front screen. Subscribe to against Chronicles 0:01:08.080 --> 0:01:11.399 and leave a five star rate in the comment. We'd 0:01:11.400 --> 0:01:13.920 like to welcome you to another episode or a Gangster 0:01:14.000 --> 0:01:18.000 Chronicles podcast. And of course I'm with my homeboys. Jill, 0:01:18.480 --> 0:01:20.800 you have mama booing the studio with us, Yes we do. 0:01:21.120 --> 0:01:25.480 Hey tell the people where are you from? Um Los 0:01:25.560 --> 0:01:29.800 Angeles neighborhood Anthons Park? So you from Athens Park? Yes, 0:01:30.040 --> 0:01:33.760 I know Athens Park very well. And you have a 0:01:33.880 --> 0:01:36.000 reputation as a person not to be played with back 0:01:36.000 --> 0:01:39.920 in the day. Yes, that's absolutely true. And see a 0:01:39.920 --> 0:01:42.560 lot of people don't know that women sometimes can be 0:01:42.640 --> 0:01:47.880 the most dangerous people, you know what I'm saying, Because 0:01:47.880 --> 0:01:51.360 you're dangerous as a mother, especially you know the pretty 0:01:51.360 --> 0:01:53.760 ones you know like that, and I'm pretty sure you 0:01:53.760 --> 0:01:55.800 don't been able to use that to your advantage. And 0:01:55.960 --> 0:01:58.960 as far as you know, getting a little different situations 0:01:59.000 --> 0:02:01.440 popping and everything, which we're gonna go into too much 0:02:02.280 --> 0:02:06.560 detail like that, but growing up in Athens always that 0:02:06.680 --> 0:02:08.680 to us a bunch of childhood a little bit well 0:02:08.760 --> 0:02:13.200 my childhood, my mother was on drugs my whole life basically, 0:02:13.600 --> 0:02:15.760 my dad was in the penitentiary for a majority of 0:02:15.800 --> 0:02:17.560 my life up in Top was twelve and he got 0:02:17.639 --> 0:02:20.760 killed six months after he got out the penitentiary. So 0:02:20.880 --> 0:02:22.720 from there I was just like one of those kids 0:02:22.760 --> 0:02:27.120 that was defiant, bad, fighting all the time. But me 0:02:27.200 --> 0:02:29.440 being grown now looking back, it was really because I 0:02:29.440 --> 0:02:32.359 couldn't read and I couldn't write, so at school, instead 0:02:32.400 --> 0:02:34.480 of you know, paying attention to the teacher, I was 0:02:34.600 --> 0:02:37.400 being disrespectful, fighting in the classroom because I didn't want 0:02:37.400 --> 0:02:39.200 the attention to be on me that I couldn't actually 0:02:39.240 --> 0:02:41.880 read and write. So I was a typical kid growing 0:02:41.960 --> 0:02:44.639 up in the inner city with a parent on drugs 0:02:44.720 --> 0:02:47.600 and a parent that passed away young. So you know, 0:02:47.680 --> 0:02:51.040 it was just a lot going on. So instead of 0:02:51.120 --> 0:02:54.560 me being on a positive note, I just used all 0:02:54.600 --> 0:02:57.680 my fears and just took it out violently. So you 0:02:57.800 --> 0:03:00.680 lashed up, which sounds like another person I knew for this. 0:03:01.000 --> 0:03:04.079 I mean all of us to live their life. And 0:03:04.120 --> 0:03:07.240 every time we do a show, I tell everybody it's 0:03:07.280 --> 0:03:10.120 a whole bunch of mees out there, and it's some 0:03:10.200 --> 0:03:14.000 women out there that lived that rough life that was 0:03:14.080 --> 0:03:16.320 tougher than some of the brothers that the homies that 0:03:16.400 --> 0:03:19.000 was out there. You grew up in the hood. Basically, 0:03:19.040 --> 0:03:22.239 it's the situation of being the product of your environment 0:03:22.560 --> 0:03:25.240 I made. Basically, if you ain't got that start, you 0:03:25.320 --> 0:03:27.920 give me. A lot of people be thinking that the 0:03:28.040 --> 0:03:31.720 places we grow up, you have choices, you feel me, 0:03:32.240 --> 0:03:34.840 I didn't look at it like that. I had no choice. 0:03:35.080 --> 0:03:36.920 By the time I turned to out thirteen, it was 0:03:37.000 --> 0:03:39.560 game banging. There was no other choice, especially if you 0:03:39.560 --> 0:03:44.880 don't have structure. In my mom's wasn't on drugs, but 0:03:45.480 --> 0:03:49.000 my pops was. You know, if you came from that era, 0:03:49.160 --> 0:03:51.560 you probably had somebody in your family member that was 0:03:51.640 --> 0:03:55.040 on drugs or whatever. And then Moms was, you know, 0:03:55.120 --> 0:03:57.720 a hard worker. She'd go to work, you know, eleven 0:03:57.720 --> 0:04:04.920 at night to seven in the morning. So at night 0:04:05.000 --> 0:04:09.320 to seven in the morning, I think I was in 0:04:09.320 --> 0:04:11.880 the streets down on the block every day trying to 0:04:11.920 --> 0:04:14.320 get my hand on fifty pack to double up and 0:04:14.360 --> 0:04:17.440 all that ship man, because that's what that's what the 0:04:17.480 --> 0:04:21.960 o gs was that he wasn't telling, you know, Nikka 0:04:22.040 --> 0:04:23.960 go to school or what the niggas was like, nigga, 0:04:24.000 --> 0:04:26.160 here Nikka makes some money. They didn't here go to 0:04:26.200 --> 0:04:31.040 this heat, nigga, let's go exactly. Was the Big Homies 0:04:31.880 --> 0:04:36.320 like more influenced for you then um for me? Growing 0:04:36.400 --> 0:04:38.680 up with the Big homies, I really wasn't in the 0:04:38.720 --> 0:04:41.520 circle with him. I was more on the outskirts, but 0:04:41.560 --> 0:04:43.760 I had a smart ass mouth. That's why I got 0:04:43.800 --> 0:04:46.119 my name Booboo from anthes it's got a smart mouth. 0:04:46.320 --> 0:04:49.520 So I was doing more stuff like moving way different 0:04:49.520 --> 0:04:51.800 stuff over you know, back and forth from different states 0:04:51.880 --> 0:04:55.040 or whatever. But I wasn't in this conversation circle with them, 0:04:55.040 --> 0:04:57.240 so it wasn't more of a go to school or 0:04:57.240 --> 0:04:59.760 whatever because they wasn't there like that. For my big 0:04:59.800 --> 0:05:01.799 home is, it was just me and the young guys 0:05:01.839 --> 0:05:04.279 that I grew up with because it was just me 0:05:04.360 --> 0:05:06.960 and two of the home girls amongst all of our peers, 0:05:06.960 --> 0:05:09.720 which was guys. So but the big homies wasn't too 0:05:09.800 --> 0:05:12.279 much around that. I can really just be like, oh yeah, 0:05:12.320 --> 0:05:14.040 they used to pull up and no, it was me 0:05:14.160 --> 0:05:17.040 standing them from afar and hearing their conversation and just 0:05:17.120 --> 0:05:21.159 going off of that. I used to I used to 0:05:21.200 --> 0:05:25.000 go through anters through a party and every time we 0:05:25.040 --> 0:05:28.440 went to the party, the girls would well like us 0:05:28.440 --> 0:05:31.160 and we wind up arguing with the anthems because them 0:05:31.200 --> 0:05:33.719 they said, y'all ain't coming over here to get our women, 0:05:34.320 --> 0:05:37.000 and I know how they were and not. And I've 0:05:37.040 --> 0:05:39.880 seen the women in action over there and they was 0:05:39.920 --> 0:05:47.000 with it, and uh it's rough, I know it's rough. 0:05:47.720 --> 0:05:50.839 And and you know most people, you know, they could 0:05:50.839 --> 0:05:52.839 talk about the hood, they could talk about being in 0:05:52.839 --> 0:05:57.240 the streets, but being out there twelve doing your thing 0:05:57.320 --> 0:06:00.880 because I mean, you ain't got no choice right to 0:06:00.960 --> 0:06:03.760 do what you gotta do to to fit in and 0:06:03.839 --> 0:06:08.960 to you know, like really get it. So it had 0:06:09.000 --> 0:06:12.159 to have been rough and it's hard. Yeah, you know 0:06:12.200 --> 0:06:17.719 what I'm saying. So what was the the what was 0:06:17.720 --> 0:06:21.160 your bottom line? What age was your bottom line? Where 0:06:21.160 --> 0:06:24.840 you said I gotta get my ship together. Um, when 0:06:24.880 --> 0:06:27.280 I got prayed you with my daughter, my oldest, that's 0:06:27.279 --> 0:06:29.480 when I was like, I gotta stop this because based 0:06:29.520 --> 0:06:31.840 on the fact that I've always thought that nothing is 0:06:31.880 --> 0:06:34.239 too much ever gonna happen to me and my mind, 0:06:34.279 --> 0:06:35.960 then that didn't messed around and stuff that happened to 0:06:36.040 --> 0:06:38.480 my baby, So that right there was like, we're not 0:06:38.560 --> 0:06:41.599 doing that. So that was the start of me changing 0:06:41.600 --> 0:06:45.839 my life when I was pregnant her. That's cool. Your 0:06:46.240 --> 0:06:50.880 children have a tendency to divert us to the right path. 0:06:51.720 --> 0:06:53.360 It should be in most cases. You know, when you 0:06:53.440 --> 0:06:55.840 have a child come in your life, you usually decided 0:06:55.880 --> 0:06:57.640 to start you know, I'm had to straighten up because 0:06:57.640 --> 0:07:00.680 I got somebody depending on me right now. Sometimes that's 0:07:00.720 --> 0:07:02.920 not always the case, because I'm gonna tell you the 0:07:02.960 --> 0:07:05.800 eighties was real turbulent, and I assume that's the eighties 0:07:05.800 --> 0:07:08.720 that you're talking about. You know what's turbuling for everybody 0:07:08.880 --> 0:07:11.440 at this table. We all had the brother a relative 0:07:11.560 --> 0:07:14.400 that was on crack crack just ripped through our communities 0:07:14.440 --> 0:07:16.600 and just ruined it. I saw, dudes, it was ballers. 0:07:16.600 --> 0:07:18.560 You know, you had to do that. You looked up 0:07:18.560 --> 0:07:20.400 to the road down the street. He had to just 0:07:20.600 --> 0:07:22.800 you know, to do some quarter on and he was 0:07:22.800 --> 0:07:25.360 sitting up high, had the sound system. The next thing 0:07:25.400 --> 0:07:27.280 you know, all it ain't there no more, just like 0:07:27.320 --> 0:07:30.560 everybody else. He walking down the street, reregulant cats cars 0:07:30.600 --> 0:07:33.120 and you know, stealing people's VCRs, mocked the house. You know, 0:07:33.160 --> 0:07:36.200 that was just what it was back then. So you 0:07:36.280 --> 0:07:38.280 got to shout in your life right now. Was it 0:07:38.440 --> 0:07:40.400 hard for you to escape the clutches of the hood 0:07:40.440 --> 0:07:43.800 at that point? No, it wasn't. Because her dad, it's 0:07:43.880 --> 0:07:47.560 like a O G from Java Street. So I basically 0:07:47.560 --> 0:07:50.080 moved from my mom and moved with him and had 0:07:50.120 --> 0:07:52.320 two more kids by him. So it really I didn't 0:07:52.320 --> 0:07:55.640 have that strangeous relationship like busting out windows and tripping 0:07:55.640 --> 0:07:59.760 and tweaking. So I never stayed edgy like that, where 0:08:00.040 --> 0:08:01.760 Hill like I'm still with one foot in the game 0:08:01.760 --> 0:08:03.520 Bang World, one ft trying to be a mom. It 0:08:03.600 --> 0:08:05.600 was like I actually was able to take both feet 0:08:05.840 --> 0:08:07.640 and be a mom and just figure out what it 0:08:07.680 --> 0:08:08.920 is that I wanted to do. And I did a 0:08:08.920 --> 0:08:11.400 lot of reflecting them, but I didn't know that that's 0:08:11.440 --> 0:08:14.560 what I was doing. But I basically made it to 0:08:14.600 --> 0:08:17.480 where I'm not my mom to my daughter because I 0:08:17.520 --> 0:08:19.920 played sports to school and I was a tomboy growing up, 0:08:19.960 --> 0:08:22.760 you know, like more the boy activities of person and 0:08:23.320 --> 0:08:25.200 lipstick was never my thing. It was, you know, in 0:08:25.240 --> 0:08:27.960 the mud with the guys playing football, and I played 0:08:27.960 --> 0:08:30.800 basketball and I did good eighth, ninth, and tenth grade 0:08:30.840 --> 0:08:33.720 playing basketball. But she never came to not one of 0:08:33.720 --> 0:08:35.800 my games, never did anything, and she didn't have nothing 0:08:35.800 --> 0:08:37.600 to do but be in the house. So to me, 0:08:37.640 --> 0:08:40.160 it's like you don't even support me, and there's nobody 0:08:40.240 --> 0:08:43.040 here cheer me on. And on top of that, when 0:08:43.080 --> 0:08:44.920 I sit in the classroom to get these grades at 0:08:44.960 --> 0:08:47.199 least to a c R, I D so I can't 0:08:47.200 --> 0:08:49.480 play sports. I don't even know what's really going on 0:08:49.520 --> 0:08:51.400 in the classroom because I don't want nobody to hear 0:08:51.400 --> 0:08:53.319 me read because I can't read. So it was a 0:08:53.400 --> 0:08:56.800 lot of turmoil that I went through, but I just 0:08:56.880 --> 0:08:58.640 know God was with me the whole time. So when 0:08:58.640 --> 0:09:00.120 my daughter, it was like, I don't want her to 0:09:00.200 --> 0:09:03.720 feel the way I felt and not be there. So 0:09:04.280 --> 0:09:07.600 my main focus with her was whoever she is, whoever 0:09:07.600 --> 0:09:10.080 her little spirit is, that's what we're gonna stay with 0:09:10.160 --> 0:09:14.120 because she's always been on honor row since like elementary, 0:09:14.360 --> 0:09:17.280 and I made her stay right there and be that person. 0:09:17.679 --> 0:09:19.880 You know. Now, she's aggressive. She get it from my 0:09:19.960 --> 0:09:22.560 mama on top of her daddy is not a joke. 0:09:23.080 --> 0:09:25.600 But she tried to veer off, but I had to 0:09:25.640 --> 0:09:30.680 will her back in, like she didn't really want to 0:09:30.720 --> 0:09:32.720 be like me, because I would say I never took 0:09:32.720 --> 0:09:35.240 her around that environment. I never had my kids like 0:09:35.280 --> 0:09:37.040 in the back seat of the car when I pull 0:09:37.120 --> 0:09:38.680 up in the parking lot, even though I would go 0:09:38.760 --> 0:09:41.440 to the hood here and there throughout the first two 0:09:41.520 --> 0:09:44.040 younger little lives or whatever, but they was at my 0:09:44.080 --> 0:09:46.880 mom house, so they never seen that. They would just 0:09:46.920 --> 0:09:48.640 ask me questions like Mama, why are you time you 0:09:48.679 --> 0:09:50.600 go to the store, blah blah blah. You know, but 0:09:50.760 --> 0:09:53.200 they never was around, so she didn't know the other 0:09:53.240 --> 0:09:55.640 side of me, even though she made heard me talk 0:09:55.760 --> 0:09:58.280 or see me get angry with somebody, but she didn't 0:09:58.280 --> 0:10:00.600 know that. But it was just natural for her to 0:10:00.600 --> 0:10:03.400 be aggressive. And I started saying that, like ninth grade, 0:10:03.760 --> 0:10:06.040 like you, it's nothing to be a little bubble West Centennio. 0:10:06.400 --> 0:10:09.920 That's not so I had to snatch her spirit out 0:10:10.000 --> 0:10:12.440 and give it back to her, like get it together. 0:10:12.480 --> 0:10:15.600 You're gonna stay the honor role kid, period and in 0:10:15.600 --> 0:10:18.360 the military now ye. And she graduated from Centennial a 0:10:18.600 --> 0:10:20.920 row with a three point six g p A and 0:10:21.040 --> 0:10:24.000 I graduated couldn't even read up the party. And there's 0:10:24.000 --> 0:10:27.120 a lot of women in the hood that that have 0:10:27.320 --> 0:10:30.360 that game banging mentality that didn't make it and was 0:10:30.440 --> 0:10:35.720 having kids, but was having kids by one homie, another 0:10:35.800 --> 0:10:40.200 homie or another guy from another hood and just weren't 0:10:40.200 --> 0:10:45.880 able to be mommy. It's not that easy to just 0:10:45.960 --> 0:10:51.600 focus on on your kids. But you still hood, so man, 0:10:51.960 --> 0:10:55.240 we are plugged you because you don't see that all 0:10:55.240 --> 0:10:58.000 the time. You don't see it all the time. So 0:10:58.040 --> 0:11:00.920 I guess some of us is lucky, someone much is blessed. 0:11:01.800 --> 0:11:04.760 Usually you get that following the footsteps type of ship. 0:11:05.440 --> 0:11:07.160 To be able to get your kids to go on 0:11:07.200 --> 0:11:09.960 a different path to what they saw, what they had 0:11:10.000 --> 0:11:13.520 to you know, hear about it is always challenging. You 0:11:13.600 --> 0:11:17.280 give me, yeah, but I raised minds. They only have 0:11:17.320 --> 0:11:19.800 two options. They either gonna do what I say do 0:11:20.360 --> 0:11:22.640 or are they gonna do what I say do. They're 0:11:22.679 --> 0:11:25.679 not gonna be negotiating. We're not doing none of this 0:11:25.800 --> 0:11:28.040 because you're my kid, and I know what I don't 0:11:28.080 --> 0:11:30.160 want you to do, and you're still in cartoon land, 0:11:30.559 --> 0:11:33.080 or like these two, the two oldest, y'all just now 0:11:33.160 --> 0:11:36.240 really getting out a cartoon land. Y'all still kids though. 0:11:36.679 --> 0:11:38.800 I mean, of course they say eighteen you're grown, but 0:11:38.920 --> 0:11:41.760 eighteen you're really not mentally grown. So my thing is, 0:11:41.800 --> 0:11:44.920 y'all gonna do what I say do, or you're gonna 0:11:44.960 --> 0:11:46.840 do what I say do. We're not gonna sit there 0:11:46.880 --> 0:11:48.760 and negotiat if you can go outside at ten o'clock 0:11:48.800 --> 0:11:53.120 at night, you can't. Period. You're not gonna be saying blood. 0:11:53.160 --> 0:11:55.520 You're not gonna be doing none of that because I said, 0:11:55.559 --> 0:11:58.720 you're not period. It stops right there. And a lot 0:11:58.800 --> 0:12:01.360 of people have that open or with their kids and 0:12:01.400 --> 0:12:04.000 think it's cute. I really don't trip onto now he's 0:12:04.000 --> 0:12:07.040 cutting you out of game, banging on you. Not mine. Well, 0:12:07.080 --> 0:12:11.360 that's because our kids. Certain things we do with our kids. 0:12:11.920 --> 0:12:14.959 Our kids tend to believe that, Oh, that ain't my parents, 0:12:15.000 --> 0:12:17.599 that's my friend. You know what I'm saying, because I 0:12:17.679 --> 0:12:20.760 see most homies and most females in the hood can 0:12:20.800 --> 0:12:22.920 sit on the porch and get high with their kids. 0:12:24.040 --> 0:12:26.800 And once you start getting high and drinking with your kids, 0:12:26.960 --> 0:12:29.320 now your child is ready to cuts you out what 0:12:29.800 --> 0:12:32.959 you know what I'm saying. Can you be man and 0:12:33.000 --> 0:12:35.080 knocking me the mouth because you're talking to you like that. 0:12:35.440 --> 0:12:38.280 You don't disrespected yourself about getting high with your kids, 0:12:38.960 --> 0:12:41.360 you know what I'm saying. So half of it, it 0:12:41.440 --> 0:12:44.480 ain't the kids fault, it's the parents, folks. Yeah, I 0:12:44.559 --> 0:12:49.760 actually always say that, like the kids say about sixteen 0:12:49.840 --> 0:12:52.760 the nineteen twenty years old, it's our fault. And when 0:12:52.760 --> 0:12:54.880 I say by ours, I don't want the ladies to 0:12:54.920 --> 0:12:58.160 be offended, but majority of us are single parents, so 0:12:58.400 --> 0:13:00.199 you have to put the blame right there where the 0:13:00.280 --> 0:13:03.080 kids is at all the time. You can't be like, oh, 0:13:03.120 --> 0:13:05.079 well he not there, the daddy not there. I mean 0:13:05.160 --> 0:13:07.440 you can't say that because he should be there if 0:13:07.640 --> 0:13:11.040 percent of the time. Absolutely, but it's our fault. Like 0:13:11.160 --> 0:13:14.200 sometimes you gotta sit your ass down, shut up and 0:13:14.320 --> 0:13:16.640 think of what it is you need to do different moves, 0:13:16.720 --> 0:13:19.440 different because your kids are watching, and if you don't 0:13:19.480 --> 0:13:22.800 take that time out, then it's your fault. No difference 0:13:22.840 --> 0:13:25.000 than if one of my kids right now turn out 0:13:25.000 --> 0:13:28.079 to be something crazy, that's my fault, you know what 0:13:28.120 --> 0:13:30.720 I'm saying. Like, of course their daddy or they daddy 0:13:30.800 --> 0:13:33.520 was in their life for I was waiting for eleven years. 0:13:33.880 --> 0:13:36.000 I left after eleven years and I've been a single 0:13:36.040 --> 0:13:39.079 parent by myself. He choose not to deal with his 0:13:39.200 --> 0:13:41.680 kids for whatever reason. I'm not that bitter baby mom. 0:13:41.720 --> 0:13:44.400 I don't do the bitter bitch building. I don't do 0:13:44.440 --> 0:13:46.400 the child sport and all that. I don't do nothing. 0:13:46.559 --> 0:13:48.640 My thing is I had them, I wanted them. If 0:13:48.640 --> 0:13:51.560 you don't want to help me, that's fine, but you 0:13:51.600 --> 0:13:54.240 should be around. But since you're not, whatever the case 0:13:54.320 --> 0:13:56.880 may be. But if they were to go left, it's 0:13:56.920 --> 0:13:59.280 my fault because he's not there. I can't be like, 0:13:59.480 --> 0:14:01.440 you know, he in there and that's why he acted 0:14:01.520 --> 0:14:04.120 like that. No, but I'm here. Why didn't I stop 0:14:04.200 --> 0:14:12.120 him from acting like that? With James McDonald stem age. 0:14:15.360 --> 0:14:18.960 So that's just my thing. You get a lot of 0:14:18.960 --> 0:14:24.920 the oh, well, the father was absentee, so you expect 0:14:24.960 --> 0:14:27.840 the kids to turn out in a horrible position. But 0:14:27.920 --> 0:14:29.520 then you'd be like, but if you got a good, 0:14:29.560 --> 0:14:32.960 strong mama, then because my mom was a single parent, 0:14:33.880 --> 0:14:37.520 even though I attempted, you know, I fell victim to 0:14:37.560 --> 0:14:42.320 the gang banging ship and the drugs selling. But because 0:14:42.320 --> 0:14:45.400 of who she was, it made me wake up quicker. 0:14:45.560 --> 0:14:48.080 You get me. It made me go, I need to 0:14:48.120 --> 0:14:51.080 be doing something else. You give me. Myms are struggling. 0:14:51.320 --> 0:14:55.000 She's a down South woman, come from Gulfport, Mississippi. She 0:14:55.120 --> 0:14:58.080 working two jobs. It's me, my brother and my sister. 0:14:58.520 --> 0:15:01.360 You know what I'm saying. And it ain't hurt fault 0:15:01.400 --> 0:15:03.360 that I wanted to go hang out with the niggas 0:15:03.400 --> 0:15:06.280 down the street and start serving and gang banging. Because 0:15:06.320 --> 0:15:08.800 she was doing everything when she was pulling up on 0:15:08.840 --> 0:15:12.840 the block, you was able to do that. Get your 0:15:12.840 --> 0:15:16.800 motherfucking ass in this motherfucking car. And then we'll see 0:15:16.840 --> 0:15:18.920 me walking down the street with the hood hit up 0:15:18.920 --> 0:15:22.360 all on my sweatshirt and I just seen a walking in. 0:15:24.400 --> 0:15:27.240 Did show motherfucking ass in the car? You ain't no 0:15:27.320 --> 0:15:29.200 gang And then get out in front of all the niggas. 0:15:29.400 --> 0:15:32.440 You see this one. He ain't no motherfucking gang banger. 0:15:33.080 --> 0:15:36.400 You give me. So I'm telling me everything I tried 0:15:36.440 --> 0:15:39.040 to attempt. I'm giving a funk. If I was in 0:15:39.080 --> 0:15:42.000 the middle of the hood on the street where the 0:15:42.120 --> 0:15:45.720 motherfucking niggas was tolden straps and nigga, she pulling up 0:15:45.760 --> 0:15:51.880 like you opened the door. Uh, you hitch your motherfucking 0:15:51.960 --> 0:15:54.840 ass in this car. So from that type of ship, 0:15:55.160 --> 0:15:57.840 it made me just one day go maybe I need 0:15:57.840 --> 0:15:59.640 to be doing something else, because first of all, I'm 0:15:59.640 --> 0:16:01.800 tired of put him up on around the block. That'sh 0:16:01.840 --> 0:16:05.800 It is embarrassing, like a motherfucker jump out. So but 0:16:06.000 --> 0:16:09.360 when you got a good, strong mom, then you shouldn't 0:16:09.400 --> 0:16:11.800 be able to go when they turned our funked up 0:16:11.800 --> 0:16:14.760 because dad's not around. Should I'm here putting in all 0:16:14.800 --> 0:16:18.080 the efforts. My influence should be in these children. So 0:16:18.600 --> 0:16:22.840 now we're not going that round and and if you're 0:16:22.840 --> 0:16:25.720 living in the hood or living in those environments, it's 0:16:25.720 --> 0:16:28.480 an extra harder because when they walk out the door, 0:16:29.280 --> 0:16:32.920 God fucking influences everywhere. And let's face it, the kids 0:16:32.960 --> 0:16:37.760 want to be that motherfucker you're perfect, I work, I 0:16:37.800 --> 0:16:40.080 got everything going, but for some reason, they still want 0:16:40.080 --> 0:16:42.440 to be that. So you have to try to curve that. 0:16:42.560 --> 0:16:45.480 Even with my son, I didn't raise him in Compton, 0:16:45.760 --> 0:16:47.640 never took him to the hood, never took him the 0:16:47.720 --> 0:16:50.480 dragnew never took him to whatever. And at a young 0:16:50.560 --> 0:16:53.120 age when we did go pull up in Compton, I 0:16:53.120 --> 0:16:54.640 think it was he used to be scared to get 0:16:54.640 --> 0:16:57.960 out of the car. Yeah, it wasn't his verment. It wasn't. 0:16:58.720 --> 0:17:02.280 But as he gets older, he watching videos, listening to 0:17:02.400 --> 0:17:05.280 music and he wants to have to break that. Shouldn't. 0:17:05.440 --> 0:17:08.080 You're gonna grow up in on motherfucking content. So I 0:17:08.119 --> 0:17:10.880 had to try to tell people all day that's why 0:17:10.880 --> 0:17:13.719 I run a lot. They'd be like, oh, you do 0:17:13.760 --> 0:17:15.760 your son this, you do yourself to check it out 0:17:15.800 --> 0:17:18.359 here on Game Bang. He don't claim the hood, he 0:17:18.440 --> 0:17:22.160 don't sell drugs. He ain't been a juvenilehol someone run 0:17:22.200 --> 0:17:26.199 like a motherfucker. Yeah, exact. And that's one of the 0:17:26.240 --> 0:17:28.760 things I tell you know people all the time, especially 0:17:28.800 --> 0:17:33.680 these younger parents, Your kids are going to be who 0:17:33.720 --> 0:17:36.160 they are based on the effort that you put into them. 0:17:37.560 --> 0:17:39.640 If you're letting them just come home and just run 0:17:39.680 --> 0:17:42.080 them up and do what they want to, you can't 0:17:42.119 --> 0:17:44.840 be too surprised when they're sixteen you find out, man, 0:17:45.040 --> 0:17:47.080 your sell have been out there popping people who have 0:17:47.200 --> 0:17:49.240 been out there robbing people, don't about the selling them 0:17:49.280 --> 0:17:54.359 doping kinda what'd you say? Who? Wait? But not really. 0:17:55.800 --> 0:18:00.320 My two sons went to college. Didn't say they hands, 0:18:00.400 --> 0:18:04.000 don't wear it rings, none of that. Ship never would 0:18:04.040 --> 0:18:07.680 be like me. But I got a daughter, my daughter 0:18:07.720 --> 0:18:12.080 in prison right now. I was her father. Her mother 0:18:12.200 --> 0:18:15.200 was in prison for nine years. I had my daughter 0:18:15.960 --> 0:18:19.719 the whole time. I didn't let her stay with her 0:18:19.760 --> 0:18:22.439 my mama. I went and got my daughter this mine 0:18:23.200 --> 0:18:26.880 and raised my daughter. I told my daughter, you don't 0:18:27.000 --> 0:18:30.200 never want a man like me. You see what I do, 0:18:30.280 --> 0:18:32.640 You see how things is, You don't you don't want 0:18:32.640 --> 0:18:35.040 a man like me. I told her to be different. 0:18:36.000 --> 0:18:39.040 I told her everything. But when I let my daughter 0:18:39.080 --> 0:18:45.400 go back to her mama, to sea, was replanting her. 0:18:45.400 --> 0:18:48.280 Mama ain't ready to be a mama. She had two kids, 0:18:48.400 --> 0:18:52.720 but she doing her. She on some gangster ship. Tell 0:18:52.800 --> 0:18:55.320 me if my daughter wanted to be on some gangster ship. 0:18:55.800 --> 0:18:59.199 And then my daughter wanted up claiming the Southside, and 0:18:59.280 --> 0:19:04.080 now she in prison. And then everything I did, everything 0:19:04.200 --> 0:19:07.240 she needed, everything she wanted it, I gave it to it. 0:19:07.480 --> 0:19:09.480 So when you say, if a baby girl would have 0:19:09.480 --> 0:19:13.520 stay with you with my biggest mistake, letting her go back, 0:19:14.040 --> 0:19:16.600 and just like that little one out there when she 0:19:16.720 --> 0:19:19.720 come home, I'm not gonna repeat history, and letting him 0:19:19.760 --> 0:19:23.000 go back makes sense, you feel me, I'm gonna keep 0:19:23.040 --> 0:19:27.840 him antili teen. Then I know I've raised a young man, 0:19:28.520 --> 0:19:33.560 a man, you feel me. So he's nothing like me. 0:19:33.640 --> 0:19:37.280 He tried, but nothing like what I used to be. 0:19:37.560 --> 0:19:40.840 And that's what all of us do. Everything my parents was, 0:19:41.119 --> 0:19:45.120 I'm nothing like just like you said, I'm nothing like that. 0:19:45.880 --> 0:19:49.280 So it all depends on it really do depend on us. 0:19:49.840 --> 0:19:54.600 But options are limited with everything, like A said, everything 0:19:54.640 --> 0:19:56.800 that when you walk out the door or when you 0:19:56.840 --> 0:19:59.360 go to school, all this ship you see you want 0:19:59.400 --> 0:20:02.840 to do it? Yeah, exactly, my little brothers and then 0:20:03.080 --> 0:20:06.119 couldn't wait to get up to go and smoke weeds. 0:20:07.440 --> 0:20:10.000 I'm fifty some years old. I ain't never smoked weeds. 0:20:11.280 --> 0:20:15.160 I just didn't see the why when I get high 0:20:15.200 --> 0:20:17.080 and not know what the you're doing and where you at. 0:20:17.800 --> 0:20:20.119 You gotta partition to ship. This ship is real out here, 0:20:20.200 --> 0:20:24.280 especially in the eighties, so they didn't understand that ship. 0:20:24.480 --> 0:20:28.600 So to hang out and function with him. I'm a 0:20:28.720 --> 0:20:32.040 drink and I was old English drinking my buckle back 0:20:32.040 --> 0:20:34.359 in the days. You know what I'm saying on some 0:20:34.440 --> 0:20:38.000 one hundad. But it all depends when you become a parent. 0:20:38.080 --> 0:20:41.680 I was in prison with my first time in eighty one. 0:20:43.560 --> 0:20:47.520 No I went to prison and any six, my son 0:20:49.000 --> 0:20:54.440 was two, and that was the worstest feeling to him, 0:20:54.480 --> 0:20:57.240 coming to prison and walking around the goddamn visiting room. 0:20:57.320 --> 0:20:59.480 That's my daddy right there. I can even be proud 0:20:59.520 --> 0:21:02.320 of me and I'm in prison, and I went back 0:21:02.320 --> 0:21:04.600 to my shell after the vision was like, damn, I 0:21:04.640 --> 0:21:07.200 had to revampt this ship. So when I got out 0:21:07.200 --> 0:21:12.200