WEBVTT - “I’M A LONELY GAMER BOY” 0:00:00.120 --> 0:00:02.560 Hey, folks, it's Lyle. Before we get into the episode, 0:00:02.640 --> 0:00:04.440 I wanted to talk to you guys about a new 0:00:04.519 --> 0:00:07.880 thing I'm doing where you can help support my lizard 0:00:08.119 --> 0:00:12.680 endeavors by becoming a Premium member of this podcast over 0:00:12.720 --> 0:00:17.400 at Therapy Gecko dot supercast dot com. Premium members, or 0:00:17.600 --> 0:00:20.479 gek Legends, as I call them, we'll be able to 0:00:20.480 --> 0:00:24.360 get every new and existing episode of Therapy Gecko completely 0:00:24.440 --> 0:00:27.720 ad free. 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God? 0:01:03.280 --> 0:01:03.440 King? 0:01:03.520 --> 0:01:04.280 Get how you doing? 0:01:05.360 --> 0:01:11.559 Uh? Is this Parker? Yes, sir, what's up Parker? How's 0:01:11.680 --> 0:01:14.279 life dude? 0:01:14.360 --> 0:01:17.760 I'm not gonna lie to you, all right, fucking sucks. 0:01:18.120 --> 0:01:21.039 All right, all right, well where do you want me 0:01:21.080 --> 0:01:21.360 to start? 0:01:21.400 --> 0:01:21.520 Man? 0:01:22.520 --> 0:01:24.520 It's it kind of sounded like you were about to 0:01:24.560 --> 0:01:27.280 start before you asked me where you wanted where I 0:01:27.560 --> 0:01:29.600 wanted to start, And I want you to start where 0:01:29.600 --> 0:01:30.640 you were just about to start. 0:01:32.560 --> 0:01:34.600 You know what, I got a good damn point right there. 0:01:34.640 --> 0:01:40.959 I'll start right away. Okay. So working at Papa John's right, 0:01:41.280 --> 0:01:45.360 flipping the dough making his Uh, all right, I meet 0:01:45.400 --> 0:01:50.080 this girl. I uh fallen head over heels with her. Right, 0:01:51.520 --> 0:01:55.480 I got a buddy. Yeah, I won't mention the names. 0:01:56.440 --> 0:01:57.120 Grew up with him. 0:01:57.320 --> 0:02:01.600 You know, all throughout elementary school, uh, through middle school, 0:02:01.680 --> 0:02:05.560 high school, we were buddies. And me and this girl, 0:02:05.720 --> 0:02:09.240 you know, we really vibe. Everything was really really good. 0:02:09.480 --> 0:02:12.040 You know, it was beautiful. You know, we're going out 0:02:12.080 --> 0:02:18.360 doing stuff, going to concerts, kicking it. And then you know, 0:02:18.639 --> 0:02:23.760 as it turns out, Uh, she has a thing, foresaid, homie, 0:02:25.160 --> 0:02:27.600 and this is a this is a big kicker. Here, 0:02:28.240 --> 0:02:34.480 I should mention a polyamorous relationship, okay, and just a 0:02:34.560 --> 0:02:35.880 quick thing that I can say. 0:02:36.280 --> 0:02:39.240 You are in your phone, sucks. You were in a 0:02:39.280 --> 0:02:42.240 polyamorous relationship. I was. 0:02:42.320 --> 0:02:46.480 I was in a polyamorous relationship, and what. 0:02:46.480 --> 0:02:48.600 Kind of phone I want to I promise you were 0:02:48.600 --> 0:02:49.880 going to talk about what you want to talk about? 0:02:49.919 --> 0:02:50.680 What phone do you have? 0:02:52.280 --> 0:02:56.320 Okay? This is a Samsung. We'll see that came out 0:02:56.360 --> 0:02:57.720 like two years ago. 0:02:59.280 --> 0:03:03.600 Okay, well this is what's the opposite of an advertisement. 0:03:03.639 --> 0:03:07.280 That's what this is for Samsung. Okay, continue, you're you're 0:03:07.320 --> 0:03:09.200 you are in a polyamorous relationship. 0:03:13.120 --> 0:03:17.799 It was in a polyamorous as it turns it out. 0:03:17.800 --> 0:03:20.680 You know, she has a thing for my friend and 0:03:21.800 --> 0:03:25.440 she starts to say, you know, what would happen if 0:03:25.680 --> 0:03:30.079 me and him did something? You know, It's like. 0:03:31.000 --> 0:03:36.120 Uh, in my mind, did your phone your phone mate? 0:03:36.160 --> 0:03:38.840 You're suck too much for us to do this? 0:03:41.400 --> 0:03:46.160 I understand completely. Uh Is this is this better? 0:03:48.160 --> 0:03:51.320 Yeah? Just stand still and talking like that? Yes? 0:03:53.440 --> 0:03:57.080 Okay, in fact, I'm just gonna put it right here. 0:03:57.160 --> 0:03:57.680 Is that better? 0:03:58.200 --> 0:04:01.040 Yes? Okay? Continue? 0:04:01.280 --> 0:04:07.840 Okay, So long story short, We're dating in about like 0:04:07.920 --> 0:04:13.120 six months. Nothing crazy. I'm chilling downstairs in my room 0:04:13.480 --> 0:04:16.839 and I was we were gonna watch Harry Potter or something, right. 0:04:17.760 --> 0:04:21.400 I end up falling asleep and I wake up at 0:04:21.440 --> 0:04:25.200 about three o'clock in the morning to her and my 0:04:25.360 --> 0:04:32.719 childhood best friend having sex. So yeah, I didn't know 0:04:32.720 --> 0:04:36.479 what to do in that situation, so pretty much I 0:04:36.560 --> 0:04:44.760 broke down, she leaves. She says that I ruined a 0:04:44.800 --> 0:04:47.320 really like special thing for her, is what she said 0:04:47.320 --> 0:04:51.880 when it happened. And I was really like, kind of confused, 0:04:52.120 --> 0:04:55.880 as if, you know, she couldn't really read the situation, 0:04:56.760 --> 0:04:59.920 you know what I mean, Like, I just walked in 0:05:00.480 --> 0:05:03.880 on my childhood best friend who told me that he 0:05:04.000 --> 0:05:10.440 had no interest in her whatsoever. That I walked in 0:05:10.480 --> 0:05:11.520 on them, fucking you know. 0:05:12.120 --> 0:05:20.240 Let me get on some thing. OK, all right, so 0:05:20.360 --> 0:05:23.800 your phone, Brandon, let's keep all the phones. I want 0:05:23.800 --> 0:05:26.440 people to know what we overcame, because your phone sounds 0:05:26.440 --> 0:05:29.359 a lot better. So Brandon, don't cut out any of 0:05:30.080 --> 0:05:33.560 this guy's phone being shitty, because it's I feel like 0:05:33.720 --> 0:05:36.520 you and I accomplished something together by even having this 0:05:36.600 --> 0:05:39.360 conversation right now, and I want people to know about it. 0:05:39.400 --> 0:05:40.160 I completely agree. 0:05:40.240 --> 0:05:42.279 Then the first thing, don't cut out any of that. 0:05:42.920 --> 0:05:45.840 But we normally cut it out, remember I don't. We're 0:05:45.920 --> 0:05:49.479 leaving it all in for this call. Okay, the phone 0:05:49.480 --> 0:05:51.360 was being shitty and I didn't hear you you are 0:05:51.480 --> 0:05:55.800 in a polyamorous relationship, correct. 0:05:55.800 --> 0:05:56.240 Yes, sir? 0:05:56.720 --> 0:06:00.599 Okay? And or what wasn't one you you broke up 0:06:00.600 --> 0:06:01.080 with this girl? 0:06:02.839 --> 0:06:03.039 Oh? 0:06:03.120 --> 0:06:06.040 Yes, absolutely, okay, But. 0:06:06.080 --> 0:06:07.120 Here's what I'm Here's what. 0:06:07.080 --> 0:06:11.080 I'm honestly, this is a two parter. I should say, 0:06:11.080 --> 0:06:12.400 this is a little bit of a two parter, and 0:06:12.440 --> 0:06:13.560 it gets really crazy. 0:06:15.480 --> 0:06:17.280 I want to hear the second part. But okay, I 0:06:17.320 --> 0:06:23.960 guess Here's here's where I'm confused about. Is you entered 0:06:23.960 --> 0:06:28.680 a relationship. You entered a relationship with this girl where 0:06:29.480 --> 0:06:32.080 the confines of the relationship where that you were both 0:06:32.279 --> 0:06:34.720 okay with each other sleeping with other people? 0:06:37.080 --> 0:06:38.880 Uh yeah, yeah. 0:06:38.560 --> 0:06:41.560 Okay, But and was did at any point did you 0:06:41.560 --> 0:06:47.120 make it clear to her that, like, you know, maybe 0:06:47.160 --> 0:06:49.920 not my friends, maybe we got like at any point did 0:06:49.960 --> 0:06:52.479 you guys set boundaries of any kind at any point? 0:06:52.800 --> 0:06:55.680 Oh yeah, oh yeah, so okay, well at the very 0:06:55.680 --> 0:07:01.160 beginning of our relationship, so uh, the concrete ones that 0:07:02.360 --> 0:07:07.640 kind of you know didn't stand obviously, we're please don't 0:07:08.000 --> 0:07:13.360 fuck any of my friends, and uh, because we also 0:07:13.400 --> 0:07:15.920 work together, right, So I was also like, I would 0:07:15.960 --> 0:07:18.600 prefer you not sleeping with any of my coworkers either, 0:07:19.120 --> 0:07:26.880 that would be cool. But yeah, so do you want 0:07:26.880 --> 0:07:29.120 me to go ahead and get into the nitty gritty 0:07:29.160 --> 0:07:29.720 the second part? 0:07:29.760 --> 0:07:29.960 Here? 0:07:30.360 --> 0:07:31.320 Sure, what's the second part? 0:07:33.240 --> 0:07:37.280 Okay, here's the second part. Now, I should I should reiterate. 0:07:37.400 --> 0:07:41.720 I'm a very lonely gamer boy, all right, very lonely. 0:07:41.760 --> 0:07:45.040 I spend my time grinding Elden Ring and Dark Souls 0:07:45.080 --> 0:07:47.440 and getting pissed off. That's like that's my ship, you know, 0:07:47.600 --> 0:07:53.760 hot Miami. Anything that's like really difficult continue, all right, 0:07:53.840 --> 0:07:59.960 you know? So all right, so I'm a little stupid 0:08:01.160 --> 0:08:04.600 and decided, you know what I'm gonna do. I'm gonna 0:08:04.640 --> 0:08:09.520 stay working here because she's leaving. Cool. I'm working there, 0:08:09.840 --> 0:08:11.720 kicking ass like always. You know, I used to be 0:08:11.760 --> 0:08:14.560 able to do these cool fucking pizza dough tricks and 0:08:14.960 --> 0:08:18.560 all sorts of shit. Everyone everyone was hyped up about it. 0:08:18.560 --> 0:08:20.600 It's really it was a great job. Honestly, I liked it. 0:08:21.960 --> 0:08:25.080 But she left. She ends up coming back, right, and 0:08:25.120 --> 0:08:28.240 this is after about three months or so, So I'm 0:08:28.280 --> 0:08:33.079 still ruffed, roughed up, I'm still raw, still angry, upset. 0:08:34.400 --> 0:08:39.559 She comes back and she's talking to me and apologizes. 0:08:40.640 --> 0:08:46.480 I I I don't necessarily accept the apology, but I 0:08:46.520 --> 0:08:48.040 was more so like, Okay, yeah, we know what, we 0:08:48.080 --> 0:08:51.400 can keep it civil and stay friends or whatever. Because 0:08:51.440 --> 0:08:54.160 we're working together, we should probably like keep it cool. 0:08:56.240 --> 0:08:58.360 But you know, I mean it didn't stay like that. 0:08:58.920 --> 0:09:02.199 You know, we started hanging out more, and then we 0:09:02.240 --> 0:09:06.360 almost like kind of almost got back together, and then 0:09:07.440 --> 0:09:10.720 got back together with her, and then she, after about 0:09:10.720 --> 0:09:13.280 like a couple of weeks, was like, ah, I think 0:09:13.320 --> 0:09:15.560 I think we should just be friends, you know, because 0:09:15.640 --> 0:09:17.920 after what happened, it's really stressful. And I was like, 0:09:17.920 --> 0:09:19.240 you know what, that makes sense, you know, let's do 0:09:19.280 --> 0:09:22.280 that because this is really stressful for me. I don't 0:09:22.280 --> 0:09:24.160 want to be in a relationship, and she didn't want 0:09:24.200 --> 0:09:26.320 to be in a relationship. So we're just gonna call 0:09:26.360 --> 0:09:29.719 it off, call it quit friends, you know what I mean. 0:09:30.880 --> 0:09:35.400 So what ends up happening is we're we're not friends, 0:09:36.480 --> 0:09:41.040 just chilling and and it stayed that way see for 0:09:41.080 --> 0:09:47.160 about three or so months, and then we're watching the 0:09:47.240 --> 0:09:49.840 last of US TV show and we get to the 0:09:49.920 --> 0:09:52.560 last episode and I do find this kind of funny 0:09:52.600 --> 0:09:58.719 that we literally finished this series and then yeah, immediately 0:09:59.120 --> 0:10:05.839 U left to do but going like yeah, man, no, no, no, 0:10:06.160 --> 0:10:13.000 it was a time where oh yeah, no, it's understandable. Uh, understandable. 0:10:13.760 --> 0:10:16.040 I did miss a couple of parts. I'm a little 0:10:16.240 --> 0:10:18.120 mixed match with my with my story. So I mean, 0:10:18.320 --> 0:10:20.839 are are you able to tag along on this? We're 0:10:20.840 --> 0:10:21.920 going to go back a little bit. 0:10:22.240 --> 0:10:25.600 Okay, I'm just a little bit. Okay, I'm you know what, 0:10:25.960 --> 0:10:30.120 I the second part of the what's the what? I 0:10:30.280 --> 0:10:32.520 you know what? And I and I you want to 0:10:32.559 --> 0:10:35.600 know I'm with you, I'm with you, but and I 0:10:35.720 --> 0:10:39.560 mean this in like, sincerely, what's the point? What's the crocs? 0:10:39.640 --> 0:10:41.679 What's going on? You know? You guys watching? 0:10:42.559 --> 0:10:43.079 You want to know what? 0:10:43.160 --> 0:10:44.160 You want to know the gritty? 0:10:44.640 --> 0:10:46.840 Yes, you want to know what's happening? 0:10:49.000 --> 0:10:51.720 All right, God King, all right, God King, get I'll 0:10:51.720 --> 0:10:57.600 tell you. Please we finish the last of us. We've 0:10:57.600 --> 0:11:04.120 been hanging out a lot, chilling. She starts crying. Uh. 0:11:05.240 --> 0:11:08.240 Only after I had start saying, I start saying, hey, 0:11:08.360 --> 0:11:11.600 it's kind of like bothering me that you are now 0:11:11.840 --> 0:11:15.720 talking to my friend that I live with upstairs and 0:11:16.280 --> 0:11:21.520 he's not here a lot. And then I'm like, you know, 0:11:22.600 --> 0:11:25.080 I don't feel comfortable with you if you guys get 0:11:25.120 --> 0:11:27.480 in a relationship. I want to move out because I 0:11:27.520 --> 0:11:31.920 would be forced to watch this clockwork orange style. Everything 0:11:32.040 --> 0:11:35.200 just burned, you know, and I didn't want to do 0:11:35.280 --> 0:11:38.360 that because I lived in the basement. So I just 0:11:38.440 --> 0:11:40.360 kind of flat out said that. She turns to me 0:11:41.040 --> 0:11:50.080 and she goes, I'm pregnant. No, I I heart sinks. 0:11:51.440 --> 0:11:55.600 I uh fall onto the ground. Just I stood up 0:11:55.640 --> 0:11:58.960 and I was like, you're joking. No, no, you're ug 0:11:59.200 --> 0:12:01.880 fuck it with me. And then she was like, no, 0:12:02.840 --> 0:12:04.360 I am, and I was like. 0:12:06.200 --> 0:12:06.280 What. 0:12:08.360 --> 0:12:14.320 And then I go upstairs. This dude fast asleep. I 0:12:14.400 --> 0:12:16.640 bang on his door. I open it. I'm like, hey, 0:12:18.000 --> 0:12:21.280 what the fuck? And then he lets out a sigh, 0:12:21.960 --> 0:12:25.000 like like a ah shit, here we go again, man, 0:12:25.720 --> 0:12:29.320 you know, let's out a sigh. And then I just 0:12:29.520 --> 0:12:34.319 lose it. I go downstairs and I just start crying constantly, 0:12:36.200 --> 0:12:42.200 and it really messes It really messed with my head 0:12:42.559 --> 0:12:45.200 because I had gotten into this relationship when I was 0:12:45.320 --> 0:12:51.000 very like lonely, and it wasn't like me getting with 0:12:51.000 --> 0:12:53.680 her out of desperation. It was literally like I genuinely 0:12:54.679 --> 0:12:55.200 loved her. 0:12:56.920 --> 0:12:59.360 Yeah, she's pregnant with who's child? 0:13:02.080 --> 0:13:03.880 My roommate and childhood best. 0:13:03.640 --> 0:13:06.959 Friends because she's pregnant with his child's. 0:13:08.679 --> 0:13:10.439 Yes, sir, And. 0:13:18.320 --> 0:13:27.240 Okay, Parker, dude, I guess, I guess. I guess what 0:13:28.520 --> 0:13:30.559 I guess. What I don't understand, what I don't understand. 0:13:30.800 --> 0:13:34.960 What I don't understand is like, so you were crying 0:13:34.960 --> 0:13:41.079 because you were upset about like you, there's a lot 0:13:41.080 --> 0:13:44.080 of things in here that I just don't understand. 0:13:44.679 --> 0:13:46.360 You, Okay, explain it. 0:13:46.559 --> 0:13:48.840 Okay, So you were being friends with you were you 0:13:49.880 --> 0:13:52.200 agreed to just be friends with this girl even though 0:13:52.240 --> 0:13:55.280 you still were in love with her or liked her 0:13:55.280 --> 0:14:00.600 a lot? Yeah? Okay, And then it was it was 0:14:00.640 --> 0:14:03.600 because I but you see why that's you see why 0:14:03.640 --> 0:14:08.079 that's a fuck up, right, because you're because here's the thing. 0:14:08.120 --> 0:14:10.240 If you're if you're agreeing to be just friends with 0:14:10.280 --> 0:14:12.920 this girl, she can do whatever the fuck she was. 0:14:13.000 --> 0:14:16.960 You going to have ten babies, ten different guys, all 0:14:17.160 --> 0:14:22.040 around on different planets, and that has nothing to do 0:14:22.120 --> 0:14:26.760 with you, because you have no say in anything that 0:14:26.840 --> 0:14:30.440 she has to do. Ever, and you accept that when 0:14:30.480 --> 0:14:33.720 you are cool with her being in your life in 0:14:33.760 --> 0:14:37.560 a non romantic way, and you understand that. 0:14:37.560 --> 0:14:42.320 Correct, Yeah? Yeah, And It wasn't really like out of 0:14:42.360 --> 0:14:46.560 me wanting to like control the situation or anything, you know, 0:14:46.800 --> 0:14:49.360 because I wanted her to do her thing. It was 0:14:49.400 --> 0:14:53.760 just it was more of like a he's really scummy. 0:14:54.320 --> 0:14:58.040 It's just I don't, dude, why are you Parker? Parker? 0:14:58.920 --> 0:15:00.560 What are you doing? What do you do it? Parker? 0:15:00.600 --> 0:15:02.200 Do you know how short life is? Do you really 0:15:02.280 --> 0:15:05.480 do you have any idea? What do you like? Just? 0:15:08.200 --> 0:15:09.680 Do you do you still live with these people? 0:15:11.560 --> 0:15:16.080 Absolutely not. I moved out a couple of months ago. Good, Yeah, 0:15:16.160 --> 0:15:17.040 I couldn't. 0:15:17.200 --> 0:15:20.760 I want you to know, I I I feel for you. 0:15:20.800 --> 0:15:26.080 I know you feel really upset because you were good. 0:15:26.400 --> 0:15:29.680 This was your fucking boy, and you really genuinely like 0:15:29.760 --> 0:15:32.720 this girl, bro. And I get because you tell me 0:15:32.760 --> 0:15:35.560 you're a lonely gamer boy and you finally meet this 0:15:35.640 --> 0:15:38.200 girl and things are going well and then ship just 0:15:38.280 --> 0:15:41.080 ends up like this and it's bad. Like I want 0:15:41.160 --> 0:15:43.000 you know, I get you, I get you, I get you. 0:15:43.520 --> 0:15:51.840 I do. But first of all, thank your lucky stars 0:15:52.080 --> 0:15:57.720 that that's not your kid, Okay, because since year twenty, okay, 0:15:57.840 --> 0:15:59.440 it shouldn't have been crying. I mean, I get I 0:15:59.440 --> 0:16:01.000 get while you were it was an emotional thing. My 0:16:01.000 --> 0:16:03.600 I say, you shouldn't have been crying. But thank god 0:16:03.960 --> 0:16:07.600 it's not your kid, because you're not ready to have it, yid, 0:16:08.280 --> 0:16:12.920 And so thank your fuckings. You're actually like you you 0:16:13.040 --> 0:16:16.920 got out of this so good, Parker. You did, You're You're, 0:16:17.160 --> 0:16:22.880 you're you. That friend obviously had his own thing going 0:16:22.920 --> 0:16:27.280 on and what it wasn't you know, and that girl 0:16:27.400 --> 0:16:30.440 obviously was not the best situation for you. You got out 0:16:30.480 --> 0:16:33.200 of this good, Parker. I hope you know that. I 0:16:33.240 --> 0:16:35.040 know you're looking at it like you were fucked over 0:16:35.680 --> 0:16:39.040 and this was a tragedy and you're a lonely gamer 0:16:39.080 --> 0:16:40.600 boy and no one will ever love you. That's not 0:16:40.720 --> 0:16:43.720 none of that shit is true. You got out good. 0:16:44.840 --> 0:16:46.920 Do you do you understand? Do you can? I know 0:16:47.200 --> 0:16:50.280 there's I know, I'm removed from the situation. I don't 0:16:50.280 --> 0:16:51.960 have the same emotions about it as you do. But 0:16:51.960 --> 0:16:55.560 do you understand the perspective at which I'm coming at 0:16:55.560 --> 0:16:57.280 this from? 0:16:57.720 --> 0:17:01.080 Yeah? Yeah, okay, it takes a long time, you know 0:17:01.240 --> 0:17:03.040 to swater swallow that tail. 0:17:03.600 --> 0:17:11.120 I know, I know, yeah, dude, good good Because by 0:17:11.119 --> 0:17:13.840 the way, and I the whole thing of like, can 0:17:13.880 --> 0:17:17.080 you be friends with I don't think you can be friends. 0:17:17.560 --> 0:17:21.040 I don't think you can be friends with somebody that 0:17:21.119 --> 0:17:23.640 you have a crazy amount of affection with. I think 0:17:23.640 --> 0:17:29.760 that's and that sucks. But like like you, it's just 0:17:29.760 --> 0:17:31.679 gonna be painful for you. It's just gonna be painful 0:17:31.720 --> 0:17:34.720 for you. And that's how it ended up. Ended up 0:17:34.760 --> 0:17:37.520 with you crying on the floor. I don't know what. 0:17:37.960 --> 0:17:40.920 I guess I get why you were crying. But you 0:17:40.920 --> 0:17:46.000 you're fucking lucky. Bro. You You are not fit to 0:17:46.040 --> 0:17:49.960 have a kid right now. You're not, which is cool 0:17:50.000 --> 0:17:54.359 because you're twenty three. You're not supposed to be. Yeah, 0:17:55.440 --> 0:17:58.239 you you, and I mean you're not. You got You're 0:17:58.240 --> 0:17:59.959 gonna have no time for elden Ring if you have 0:18:00.040 --> 0:18:03.600 a kid. Think about that for a second, About how 0:18:03.640 --> 0:18:07.040 little elden Ring you're with a child screaming in the 0:18:07.080 --> 0:18:14.640 other room. I'm all right, your phone's being shitty again now, Parker. 0:18:14.720 --> 0:18:15.560 Oh fuck, I know why? 0:18:15.640 --> 0:18:15.919 Hang on? 0:18:17.320 --> 0:18:18.760 That was my bad. I picked it up. I picked 0:18:18.800 --> 0:18:23.080 it up. I said, that's my bad. Mill all right now. 0:18:23.080 --> 0:18:25.600 Park I don't all right now, I'm done talking about 0:18:25.840 --> 0:18:29.760 your friend and this girl. Let's talk about you. How 0:18:29.800 --> 0:18:30.920 long ago did all this happen. 0:18:32.920 --> 0:18:37.160 Uh, so I got the news, uh mid March. Mid 0:18:37.200 --> 0:18:38.320 March is when I got the news. 0:18:38.760 --> 0:18:41.480 Got the news. It's like I had just didn't even 0:18:41.480 --> 0:18:42.840 have anything really to do with you. 0:18:45.320 --> 0:18:45.760 Yeah. 0:18:45.880 --> 0:18:50.879 Yeah, it was more like it just because we Okay, 0:18:50.880 --> 0:18:53.119 so we had agreed to like stay friends or whatever. 0:18:53.720 --> 0:18:56.600 But the thing is is that she agreed that like 0:18:56.760 --> 0:19:01.480 also constituted him as well. And that agreement because since 0:19:01.760 --> 0:19:03.840 all three since I lived in that house, he lived 0:19:03.840 --> 0:19:04.359 in that house. 0:19:04.880 --> 0:19:09.960 All right, disagreement. I'm sorry, I Parker. I want you 0:19:10.040 --> 0:19:12.200 to know. I'm I'm I'm rooting for you in life, 0:19:13.000 --> 0:19:16.399 but this agreement sounds really stupid, and I'm really glad 0:19:16.560 --> 0:19:17.040 that you're not. 0:19:17.320 --> 0:19:18.600 It was I'm not. 0:19:18.600 --> 0:19:20.480 Okay, all right, all right, I'm done. I said I 0:19:20.520 --> 0:19:22.159 was done talking to these people. I I fucked up. 0:19:22.160 --> 0:19:26.480 I asked you more questions about it. That's my bad, Parker. Uh, 0:19:27.359 --> 0:19:29.720 what do you do for a living or are you 0:19:29.760 --> 0:19:30.760 in school? I? 0:19:30.960 --> 0:19:35.560 Uh, well, I used to build gaming computers, uh for CLX, 0:19:35.760 --> 0:19:39.680 but I actually got laid off about a month ago. 0:19:39.760 --> 0:19:42.720 So I just kind of lived with my parents now 0:19:43.320 --> 0:19:47.960 on a popped air mattress with some with some pillows, 0:19:48.000 --> 0:19:50.879 some blankets. Oh yeah, I got I got my I 0:19:50.920 --> 0:19:54.359 got my fan, I got Well, I don't have a 0:19:54.400 --> 0:19:56.439 desk yet, so so my desk, all my like my 0:19:56.480 --> 0:19:59.080 big stuff is still over there because I don't have 0:20:00.080 --> 0:20:03.679 a way to move all my big stuff, so like 0:20:03.720 --> 0:20:06.000 my mattress like all that kind of ship, my desk 0:20:06.119 --> 0:20:07.359 is still actually at that house. 0:20:07.600 --> 0:20:13.439 And I confirmed confirmed, you've confirmed my suspicions that you 0:20:13.480 --> 0:20:16.840 are not remotely ready to have a child, which is okay, 0:20:17.520 --> 0:20:23.040 which is okay, I'm a child. Okay. In fact, I 0:20:23.119 --> 0:20:25.840 you're you're you're you're doing. I want you to know 0:20:25.840 --> 0:20:28.880 what you're doing. Great, Parker, Okay, all right, you live 0:20:29.040 --> 0:20:34.119 on air mattress in your mom's basements. That's great. What 0:20:34.160 --> 0:20:38.480 do you do? You do you? Are you doing anything? 0:20:38.480 --> 0:20:42.760 Do you Are you in school? Are you working on anything? Uh? 0:20:43.880 --> 0:20:49.520 Man, I've been applying at places and got no luck. Man, Honestly, 0:20:50.400 --> 0:20:57.119 I've been turned down so many times, so many good interviews. Yeah, no, 0:20:57.240 --> 0:21:02.679 nothing's working out. It's looking really grimy. Ship really sucks. 0:21:02.840 --> 0:21:04.040 What do you what do you want to? What do 0:21:04.119 --> 0:21:06.200 you what do you I'm not even saying that, and 0:21:06.359 --> 0:21:09.840 like a toxic positivity ship, I'm just you. I can 0:21:09.920 --> 0:21:13.359 tell from the way that you've been talking this entire 0:21:13.400 --> 0:21:16.719 time that you're just beating yourself up for no reason, 0:21:17.320 --> 0:21:20.760 and I genuine genuinely in this conversation want to get 0:21:20.800 --> 0:21:25.680 you to not be doing that. Okay, what do you 0:21:25.720 --> 0:21:27.280 what do you? What do you want to do with 0:21:27.320 --> 0:21:27.720 your life? 0:21:27.760 --> 0:21:28.119 Parker? 0:21:30.000 --> 0:21:34.960 Well, ideally, you know, I got a buddy and he draws, 0:21:35.320 --> 0:21:37.639 He draws manga. His his whole main thing is he 0:21:37.640 --> 0:21:40.920 wants to be like a really big artist. He he's 0:21:41.080 --> 0:21:45.000 fucking amazing, dude, fucking amazing. It's ship's like jojo uh 0:21:45.040 --> 0:21:47.080 and my whole thing, me and him. I want to 0:21:47.440 --> 0:21:52.280 write stories and make comics and have like so many 0:21:52.280 --> 0:21:54.440 ideas for like sci fi stories. I really want to 0:21:54.480 --> 0:21:58.120 be like a a screenplay writer something to do with 0:21:58.160 --> 0:22:01.840 like film. But that's like it's like my my big dream, 0:22:02.040 --> 0:22:04.119 you know, because I have so many ideas, man, so 0:22:04.160 --> 0:22:05.160 many ideas, so many. 0:22:05.320 --> 0:22:08.919 It's not a bit, it's not do you want to 0:22:09.000 --> 0:22:10.960 Let's I want to get with you on some okay, 0:22:11.200 --> 0:22:12.280 you want to make? It sounds that you want to 0:22:12.280 --> 0:22:14.800 make stuff you like you want to make, whether it's 0:22:14.880 --> 0:22:20.880 drawing things or making little movies or things like that. 0:22:20.880 --> 0:22:26.879 That's am I on the right page with that? Uh yes, okay, 0:22:26.960 --> 0:22:28.800 you can you can you can do that. You can 0:22:28.840 --> 0:22:30.960 do that. Do you have an idea? You have so 0:22:31.000 --> 0:22:33.760 many ideas, that's what you said. 0:22:34.640 --> 0:22:36.400 Oh yeah, dude, so many. 0:22:36.200 --> 0:22:38.159 For ideas for what for movies I've written? 0:22:40.920 --> 0:22:45.080 Uh see, like movies, comics. Ideally I would like to 0:22:45.119 --> 0:22:49.720 do like animation, not to be like a weave, not 0:22:49.840 --> 0:22:53.280 because I mean I love anime, you know, but like 0:22:53.760 --> 0:22:57.679 only like the good ones, not the smelly ones. Okay, 0:22:57.720 --> 0:23:01.840 So I really want to have like a dark, gritty, 0:23:02.760 --> 0:23:06.120 elder ring kind of story, you know what I mean. 0:23:06.800 --> 0:23:09.960 So the reason why I start, the reason why I 0:23:10.000 --> 0:23:13.879 said it's not a big dream is because what you 0:23:14.000 --> 0:23:17.000 saying it's and I'm kinda I'm gonna I'm gonna go 0:23:17.119 --> 0:23:21.080 I'm going to go motivational guru guy on you right now, 0:23:21.359 --> 0:23:24.520 because that's how I'm feeling you're saying it's a big dream. 0:23:25.359 --> 0:23:30.280 Is in my eyes, You're like, it's just you putting 0:23:30.359 --> 0:23:33.280 a thing that's actually right. It's you taking a thing 0:23:33.400 --> 0:23:35.760 that's just right in front of you, and you're on 0:23:35.840 --> 0:23:40.280 your your shitty air mattress room. It's right that you're 0:23:40.320 --> 0:23:43.520 the dream. It's right there in that shitty room, and 0:23:43.680 --> 0:23:49.679 you're thinking you're placing it on another planet when it's not. 0:23:49.840 --> 0:23:52.080 It's right there in your shitty room. Because you can 0:23:52.160 --> 0:23:56.880 start doing those ideas now. You can start drawing right now. 0:23:56.920 --> 0:24:00.200 You can start making movies right now on your iPhone. 0:24:00.359 --> 0:24:03.800 You can start creating comics, you can start writing things, 0:24:03.840 --> 0:24:07.720 you can start sharing things to the internet right now. 0:24:07.760 --> 0:24:11.240 You can just start doing those things. And I just 0:24:11.280 --> 0:24:15.000 would So, I'm just would so much rather you be 0:24:15.480 --> 0:24:22.359