WEBVTT - Rapsody Opens Up About New Album, Setting The Bar, "Female Rap" Labels + More

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<v Speaker 1>Yep, the world's most dangerous morning show, The Breakfast Club.

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<v Speaker 1>Charlamagne the God DJ Envy is not here, but we

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<v Speaker 1>got a Nihilis and Moon just hilarious of course, and

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<v Speaker 1>we got the greatest lyricists in the world whose name

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<v Speaker 1>is not Kendrick Lamar Rat.

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<v Speaker 2>New album, Please Don't Cry? How are You.

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<v Speaker 3>Excited?

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<v Speaker 4>Look good? And thank you?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, we got to get into it first before we

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<v Speaker 1>started talking about your album.

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<v Speaker 2>Kendrick and Drake. Come on, Kendrick, easy call.

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<v Speaker 3>It's so easy. I could do it my eyes closed.

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<v Speaker 1>Kendrick, what what causes an MC to win a rap battle?

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<v Speaker 1>Because you're an m C MC, So what causes an

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<v Speaker 1>MC to win a rap battle?

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<v Speaker 3>You gotta have strategy, right, I tell people it's like

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<v Speaker 3>the art of war. You got to know who you're

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<v Speaker 3>going against. And for this case in particular, the type

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<v Speaker 3>of person that Kendrick is. You know he's strategic. Like

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<v Speaker 3>if he goes quiet, you should know that he's cooking.

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<v Speaker 3>But you gotta have the right beats. You know, your

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<v Speaker 3>bar has got to be up. Your performance is a thing,

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<v Speaker 3>like I think all of those things matter. And the

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<v Speaker 3>thing that I like that he did, he gave you.

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<v Speaker 3>He cooked that boy so many different ways. Like I said,

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<v Speaker 3>he baked them, he stir fried them, that grilled him,

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<v Speaker 3>like he marinated a little bit. Like he gave you stories.

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<v Speaker 3>He gave you a banger, He gave you the classic

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<v Speaker 3>hip hop bar. Joint was however you want it, I

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<v Speaker 3>got it for you. And you know, he anything, Drake said.

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<v Speaker 3>He came back and was like he just didn't have rooms.

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<v Speaker 3>It's like when you're boxing somebody on you can't get

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<v Speaker 3>your arms.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, I really love that.

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<v Speaker 6>Char always used a parallel of you and Kendrick when

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<v Speaker 6>it comes to rap in the current state of rap

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<v Speaker 6>right now, just like the Complexion record, I feel like

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<v Speaker 6>that was also like a great introduction to a bigger

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<v Speaker 6>audience for you as well. But I feel like it's

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<v Speaker 6>a little weird because I would love to see that

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<v Speaker 6>from Cold just because y'allvote from the Carolina US, you

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<v Speaker 6>know what, Like what is what's that dynamic?

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<v Speaker 3>Me and Cole? Yeah, like working together like that, y'all

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<v Speaker 3>did a record, Yeah we did sojourn.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, covers phenomenal.

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<v Speaker 5>But yes, yes, yes, Rob Washington, Yes, yes, yes.

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<v Speaker 3>I think it's your preference because you know, I see

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<v Speaker 3>some people like Cole and I'm just like, I ain't

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<v Speaker 3>mad at either way. You know, we got all what

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<v Speaker 3>you say, like why we don't work together more. Yes,

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<v Speaker 3>I think it's just like the town. Yeah, I don't

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<v Speaker 3>know Kendrick. Kendrick since the beginning. He's always been the

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<v Speaker 3>one to come to the studio early in the days. Like,

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<v Speaker 3>I just had a friendship with him earlier. I had

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<v Speaker 3>his number longer, like we text as, So the friendship

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<v Speaker 3>was just there. Even though he from the West Coast,

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<v Speaker 3>when he would come down to North Carolina, they would

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<v Speaker 3>always bring the tour bus bar you know. So you

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<v Speaker 3>know Cole was in New York. You know, I just

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<v Speaker 3>didn't see him that much.

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<v Speaker 5>So it's a relationship.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, it's just real relationships. It ain't nothing funny. But

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<v Speaker 3>call I think coaches moved back to NC maybe like

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<v Speaker 3>around the pandemic time. Okay, so that's just he really

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<v Speaker 3>wasn't in the proximity for me to have a relationship.

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<v Speaker 2>You have. You and Kendrick ever performed Complexion and Power together.

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<v Speaker 3>One time he did that short tour run remember, but

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<v Speaker 3>to Butterfly. He was doing those smaller venues, intimate spots

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<v Speaker 3>for him and we did it in DC.

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<v Speaker 1>The reason I'm glad we started the conversation like this

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<v Speaker 1>because I'm trying to set the stage for how Dope

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<v Speaker 1>Rhapsody is for those who still don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>Like your peers, the mcs MC's hold you in high regard.

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<v Speaker 2>That's why they do these type of records with you.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, and everybody says like you bring the best out

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<v Speaker 3>of them. I'm just you really do you know? It's

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<v Speaker 3>a beautiful, healthy competition.

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<v Speaker 6>I think your features that are on all your projects,

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<v Speaker 6>from Layla's Wisdom down to this latest one, from like

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<v Speaker 6>a Black Thought to an Eric Kobad to working with

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<v Speaker 6>Hip Boy, It's like the quality is just different.

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<v Speaker 3>You know.

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<v Speaker 5>When you tap into an album like this.

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<v Speaker 3>It's you know, I'm creating. It's about the music, Like

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<v Speaker 3>the music is the biggest ego in the room. And

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<v Speaker 3>I think when you approach it from that point of view,

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<v Speaker 3>everybody's gonna bring the best.

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<v Speaker 4>You know.

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<v Speaker 3>It makes it fun and exciting, you know, even on

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<v Speaker 3>Complexion like you going there like y'all, I gotta I

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<v Speaker 3>gotta meet they level. Even with the Wayne Joint on

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<v Speaker 3>the album, I wrote my versal.

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<v Speaker 5>Yo, I wrote my vers that one.

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<v Speaker 6>I feel like for a hip hop purists, that's the

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<v Speaker 6>best one on there.

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<v Speaker 5>I love that record.

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<v Speaker 3>I did, and I'm not afraid to say that at all,

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<v Speaker 3>like the first time I ever did that. But I

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<v Speaker 3>sent it to him first, and I was just approaching

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<v Speaker 3>it like I was trying to grow and like, I

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<v Speaker 3>don't have to be so lyrical. I want to do

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<v Speaker 3>something that's, you know, easier for people to learn, but

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<v Speaker 3>it's not dumb down, Like it's still me, but it's

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<v Speaker 3>not like just more relaxed. Yeah, when I got his

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<v Speaker 3>verse back, I was like, nah, I gotta I gotta

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<v Speaker 3>match his level of raw, Like I gotta match it.

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<v Speaker 3>So I was like, no, I can't. I can't get

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<v Speaker 3>the people that.

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<v Speaker 4>What do you say when you rewrote it?

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<v Speaker 3>He said, I just sent it back to him. I

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<v Speaker 3>was like, I rewrote it. I said, I took your

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<v Speaker 3>flow and I just put my words to it. I

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<v Speaker 3>just want to let you know what you think. Send

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<v Speaker 3>me fire emojis.

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<v Speaker 1>And the wild thing about this project is called please

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<v Speaker 1>Don't Cry. Yeah, what ironically, throughout the album, all you're

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<v Speaker 1>doing is giving us stuff to.

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<v Speaker 7>Cry about, Like what is that about?

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<v Speaker 3>That's that's the point. It was like the title got

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<v Speaker 3>a realer man. It's about like I was never one

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<v Speaker 3>to show my emotion in public, or you know we

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<v Speaker 3>grow up maybe men, especially what you're crying about. But

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<v Speaker 3>it's really about allowing yourself to be human. Why you

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<v Speaker 3>should cry, all the reasons you should cry. Don't cry

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<v Speaker 3>just because you're sad. Cry because it's something so funny

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<v Speaker 3>you laugh until you cry, or you so in love,

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<v Speaker 3>you know, like are you joyful or you angry? Like

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<v Speaker 3>I I cry when I'm mad because if I don't,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm gonna say someone or do something that I'm gonna regret.

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<v Speaker 3>So I'm gonna just let it come out to tears,

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<v Speaker 3>Like allow yourself to just be human. I don't think

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<v Speaker 3>we do that enough, especially in a day with social media.

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<v Speaker 3>It's perfection, perfection in your face all day, like the

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<v Speaker 3>highlight reel. But where's the raw stuff? So you got

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<v Speaker 3>to remind people like you human.

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<v Speaker 2>You're giving people permission the only feelings.

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<v Speaker 6>Absolutely for the record, Rhapsody isn't Aquarius, So you know.

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<v Speaker 3>To aquarium your birthday February thirteen, Okay, in February Quarious

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<v Speaker 3>January twenty first, querious.

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<v Speaker 6>They have a hard time showing emotion like you guys

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<v Speaker 6>have a face and y'all will keep that poker face

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<v Speaker 6>so strong.

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<v Speaker 5>So that's why I think this is a great See I've.

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<v Speaker 3>I've been healing. Yeah, healing.

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<v Speaker 1>It's not real because whenever she upset and t it off,

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<v Speaker 1>I say something to me and I'm really come back

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<v Speaker 1>to her like you're just gonna say that to me,

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<v Speaker 1>like I don't know what's really going on.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh no, he knows me.

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<v Speaker 7>Yeah, yeah, that's yeah, that's the good thing. But I

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<v Speaker 7>really don't show my emotions. He will make you show them. Yes,

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<v Speaker 7>you know what I'm saying, especially if he knows you.

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<v Speaker 7>You know, and that's honestly a cancer.

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<v Speaker 5>Yes, yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Text the other day she responded back, okay, and so

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<v Speaker 1>I texted back, I said, you think I didn't.

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<v Speaker 2>You think I didn't. I don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>You rolled your eyes and stuff your teeth. I know

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<v Speaker 1>when you read this that's what you did.

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<v Speaker 5>Y'are Aquarius. But ain't nothing wrong with it.

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<v Speaker 3>I know.

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<v Speaker 6>On the first single that you released for the album Asteroids,

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<v Speaker 6>you talked about how you almost wanted to step away

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<v Speaker 6>from this completely.

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<v Speaker 3>It was a thought.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah that broke my heart. Yeah, why it was.

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<v Speaker 3>I was just at a place like I was just

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<v Speaker 3>seeing the music business and everything that was in front

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<v Speaker 3>of me. I was like, you know, I feel like

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<v Speaker 3>I'm getting tired, Like there's no with me, you know

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<v Speaker 3>what I'm saying, Like I don't know if people care.

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<v Speaker 3>And it's like I could do music by myself, Like

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<v Speaker 3>I don't even have to play this game. I want

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<v Speaker 3>to get into the film world anyway. But I love

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<v Speaker 3>it too much. I got too much purpose in it.

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<v Speaker 3>I have to be the example. I want to be

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<v Speaker 3>the example. Rather I get to be the example. So

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<v Speaker 3>you know, but it was a real thought, like man,

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<v Speaker 3>what does it look like in this space? You know?

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<v Speaker 3>And you know hip hop likes to aid you out.

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<v Speaker 3>I was, you know, as a woman. It was just

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<v Speaker 3>so many things going through my head and it's just like, yo,

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<v Speaker 3>let me just pause and just really sit with it.

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<v Speaker 7>So what helped you get over that part of it?

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<v Speaker 7>Because I can imagine you don't feel that way now?

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<v Speaker 4>You better not.

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<v Speaker 3>You gotta you have to unplug from the matrix, right

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<v Speaker 3>And you look at it and you like, I feel

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<v Speaker 3>this way cause I'm trying to validate myself through all

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<v Speaker 3>these other things that everybody like, Yo, why don't why

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<v Speaker 3>aren't you know, why don't I get this award? Or

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<v Speaker 3>why I'm not in this space or these same spaces

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<v Speaker 3>as other people? And you figure out like or whatever

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<v Speaker 3>space is for me is for me. And that's what

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<v Speaker 3>it was like. I had to validate myself and I

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<v Speaker 3>look for anybody else and any other these false measurements

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<v Speaker 3>to do it. You know, it's like, what are you

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<v Speaker 3>in it for? I was like, damn, I'd just really

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<v Speaker 3>like to connect with people and make music to inspire people.

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<v Speaker 3>So do that. Anything else is a blessing.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>So how did you feel last year? I mean it's

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<v Speaker 2>still going on now.

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<v Speaker 1>Last year it was like this thing where it was

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<v Speaker 1>like female rappers are keeping hip hop alive, Female.

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<v Speaker 2>Rappers are holding it down for hip hop.

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<v Speaker 1>But then when I look at the rappers, I'm like,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't think Rahap City fits in that.

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<v Speaker 2>How did you feel.

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<v Speaker 3>It's a unique physician. I think it's beautiful because it's

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<v Speaker 3>so many women. We never seen it like this on

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<v Speaker 3>this stage before, like especially with social media, so it's

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<v Speaker 3>exciting because you know women. I think it was like

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<v Speaker 3>an all female lineup for like a hot summer hot

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<v Speaker 3>ninety seventh. I've never seen that before, So I'm like, wow,

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<v Speaker 3>that's beautiful for the space and women, but it's still

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<v Speaker 3>not enough variety and harmony when you look at it.

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<v Speaker 3>So it's like, but you know, we still got a

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<v Speaker 3>long way to go, because this can't be the only

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<v Speaker 3>thing that we make the reason why you're successful.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>Like, so that's where I was at. It was like, Yo,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm not trying to dog nobody, but at the same time,

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<v Speaker 3>like I gotta advocate for myself and others who have

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<v Speaker 3>other stories to tell, Like, you know, I don't see us,

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<v Speaker 3>you know, as one of those ones that people are

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<v Speaker 3>like helping to push this beautiful resurgence of women in

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<v Speaker 3>hip hop in the forefront, you know, in your face.

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<v Speaker 3>So it was like, yeah, it's great for women, but

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<v Speaker 3>on the other end, it's like it's nothing different than

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<v Speaker 3>any other thing American sell sex, sex, sex, sex, sex,

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<v Speaker 3>you know what I'm saying. Like, So that was it.

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<v Speaker 1>Did you feel like your pen wasn't being respected? That

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<v Speaker 1>was one of the reasons you wanted to walk away?

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<v Speaker 3>Nah, not necessarily, my it's respected by the right people.

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<v Speaker 3>It was just like people not listening.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, that was it.

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<v Speaker 3>Like I said, I see comments. They'd be like, don't

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<v Speaker 3>look at it, but I like to look. The psychology

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<v Speaker 3>of people is interesting to me. I see, I see all.

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<v Speaker 3>I would see all the conversations, and I'm just like

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<v Speaker 3>what people say about me, what they think, And I'm like, oh,

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<v Speaker 3>you never pressed play. You don't have to like it,

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<v Speaker 3>but I know you never pressed play, and really sad

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<v Speaker 3>with it. So it was just like, man, what a fight.

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<v Speaker 1>What's the what's the comments that bothered you the most?

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<v Speaker 1>Like there's always one that sticks out in my mind

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<v Speaker 1>that motivates you when you wake up in the morning.

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<v Speaker 3>That motivates me, that pisses me off. I don't know

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<v Speaker 3>it was, I just see it. I I would just

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<v Speaker 3>take notice. I was I was in a space of healing. Charlmagne, like,

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<v Speaker 3>you know, I could tell you older things, but now

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<v Speaker 3>it was just a place of like I could look

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<v Speaker 3>at it and observe and I didn't have to be

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<v Speaker 3>emotional about it. I could just be like, Okay, I

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<v Speaker 3>see where you are. You know, you got some growing

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<v Speaker 3>to do as a human. But it would be things like,

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<v Speaker 3>you know, one of the conversations is between mostly the guys, right,

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<v Speaker 3>the guys that I would see mostly is like all

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<v Speaker 3>the women do is shake they ass and dah dah dah.

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<v Speaker 3>You should be rhapsody, Like that's the thing, Like I'm

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<v Speaker 3>the standard and other women like all y'all only bring

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<v Speaker 3>up rhapsody when y'all trying to put down another female.

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<v Speaker 3>So I'm sitting in the middle, like I see both

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<v Speaker 3>sides of what y'all saying, Like, don't make me the

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<v Speaker 3>standard to put down nobody else. I ain't never with that.

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<v Speaker 3>But at the same time, there is something to be

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<v Speaker 3>said about why don't you women tap into Tierra wat

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<v Speaker 3>rhapsody or like Kaylee forty seven, like where you know,

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<v Speaker 3>does it have to be that you need something to

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<v Speaker 3>somebody to tell you that this is who you should

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<v Speaker 3>pay attention to. Yeah, so that's what it was. It

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<v Speaker 3>was like, you know, because you don't have to be me,

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<v Speaker 3>but I know there's a lot more women that don't

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<v Speaker 3>get the opportunity to get the support, you know.

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<v Speaker 7>And then like, if you're trying to appeal to men,

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<v Speaker 7>why not listen to one? Why not like listen to

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<v Speaker 7>what the's men are saying. And to be honest, what

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<v Speaker 7>you I've been put on by your music by men

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<v Speaker 7>like my brothers, my father, and my cousin.

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<v Speaker 4>And then when I.

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<v Speaker 7>Got this, well what before I got the job officially,

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<v Speaker 7>it's before to everybody, I got the job and I

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<v Speaker 7>didn't have it yet.

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<v Speaker 4>I was guess who saying he would bring you up

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<v Speaker 4>a lot.

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<v Speaker 7>It will always bring you up, big supporter, you're Yeah,

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<v Speaker 7>but I always heard about you from men like you

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<v Speaker 7>have a big male.

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<v Speaker 4>Fan base and they like to hear you spit that shit.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, and that's crazy because I would I tell people that,

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<v Speaker 3>Like I would see comments they be like, if y'all

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<v Speaker 3>support Rhapsody, why you're on buy a record? I'd be like,

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<v Speaker 3>I got a big male following. Yeah, you know what

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<v Speaker 3>I'm saying. So that was I don't know, that was

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<v Speaker 3>just part of my fight. And then too, like another

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<v Speaker 3>conversation I would be thinking about was you would see

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<v Speaker 3>like especially when it comes to women and the sex

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<v Speaker 3>appeal would be like it's empowering, and I'd be like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>I could see how it is for sure, Like especially

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<v Speaker 3>when Kim came up, and you know, it wasn't a

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<v Speaker 3>thing like she made like it's okay to love our bodies,

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<v Speaker 3>but it's it's so one sided now, and I'm thinking, like,

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<v Speaker 3>is it really like this is a conversation me and

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<v Speaker 3>somebody else were having and they brought it up, and

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<v Speaker 3>I was like, that's a great point. Is it really

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<v Speaker 3>empowering if a man is writing it?

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<v Speaker 2>Mm?

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<v Speaker 3>Because if but there's women that right their own, but

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<v Speaker 3>a lot they're men penning it.

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<v Speaker 2>Let's just be realtriarchy.

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<v Speaker 3>It's still the patriarchy, Like, you know, we try to

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<v Speaker 3>take ownership because we the face of it. Or is

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<v Speaker 3>it really empowering if it's not your story, if it's

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<v Speaker 3>not your words, you know, like, it's just a thought

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<v Speaker 3>that I'm just like, I would love to people to

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<v Speaker 3>explore that thought more because I you know, I have

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<v Speaker 3>conversations with some women and they'd be like, yo, rap,

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<v Speaker 3>I love what you do. Yo, I want to rap

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<v Speaker 3>like this. I want to rap like that, but this

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<v Speaker 3>is what they like. I'm just like, you should do

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<v Speaker 3>what you like. She'd do what you want it. That's

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<v Speaker 3>my only thing. Like, you should be able to show

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<v Speaker 3>up how you want to show up. If it is

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<v Speaker 3>sexy and if it's real to you, then do that.

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<v Speaker 3>But if you're doing it just because you feel like

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<v Speaker 3>this is the only way that I could be successful,

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<v Speaker 3>and this is I see everybody else doing it, so

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<v Speaker 3>this is what we gotta do to make it. That's

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<v Speaker 3>whack to me. You know, I don't feel like you

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<v Speaker 3>could be all the way happy for doing something that's

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<v Speaker 3>not true.

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<v Speaker 1>You think a woman can take off and wrap without

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<v Speaker 1>a male code sign because.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I think, you know, we have so many resources

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<v Speaker 3>if you make great music. One thing Ninfe always told me,

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<v Speaker 3>it might take you longer, but people can't deny it.

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<v Speaker 3>So it's kind of like either down for the marathon

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<v Speaker 3>or not. You know, that's everybody like man, woman, It

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<v Speaker 3>don't matter if the music good is somebody gonna find

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<v Speaker 3>it eventually. But I think you can, like, but you

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<v Speaker 3>gotta you gotta make great music and still be on

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<v Speaker 3>your brand and in marketing and you know, all the

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<v Speaker 3>little things. But I do think it's possible.

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<v Speaker 1>Because I always think about how dope it would have

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<v Speaker 1>been if, like the way embraces the sexy red, Kendrick

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<v Speaker 1>wouldn't embrace.

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<v Speaker 2>You in that way. This thing, I think that goes

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<v Speaker 2>a long way.

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<v Speaker 3>Sometimes no it does, and he has you know, Complexion

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<v Speaker 3>was an alley to Ali big alley for me.

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<v Speaker 7>But yeah, and then a lot I mean, to be honest,

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<v Speaker 7>a lot of embracing from like, you know, older generations.

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<v Speaker 7>I noticed a lot of people like the embraced people

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<v Speaker 7>that can't touch them.

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<v Speaker 4>You get what I'm saying, Like.

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<v Speaker 7>They will embrace people that they know cannot touch them. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 7>beat them lyrically, can't even I'm just gonna throw you

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<v Speaker 7>in because you're popularity. You've got the big platform right now.

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<v Speaker 7>You would there what they want to be like, you're

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<v Speaker 7>playing into what you know, pussy money, drugs.

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<v Speaker 4>All already cool.

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<v Speaker 7>So I'm gonna take you under my wing, you know

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<v Speaker 7>what I'm saying, just to keep me in the game.

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<v Speaker 3>Attached. But that's a real thing.

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<v Speaker 4>That's crazy.

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<v Speaker 5>It is a honor though, to be the bar.

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<v Speaker 6>I know, it's so like misweighted because it's like everybody else.

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<v Speaker 6>And then Rhapsody, you feel like a pressure at all

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<v Speaker 6>because you are the bar?

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<v Speaker 3>Nah pressure, No, only because it's real to me the

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<v Speaker 3>things I talk about it. I don't like I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 3>do this because I do it because I want to,

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<v Speaker 3>you know what I'm saying, Like I care the things

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<v Speaker 3>I say I care about, So it's not a pressure

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<v Speaker 3>in that way I will say, like, sometimes I think about, like, yo,

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<v Speaker 3>if I wanted to have fun and just do something

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<v Speaker 3>to show people the side of me, like I like

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<v Speaker 3>the club too, like that's I'm a well rounded human being.

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<v Speaker 3>And then I'd be like, yo, those are the times

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<v Speaker 3>I feel a little pressure. It's like you don't have

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<v Speaker 3>room to do that because nobody else is talking about

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<v Speaker 3>the things that need to be talked about. It's a

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<v Speaker 3>lot of people having fun, so like, okay, we got

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<v Speaker 3>enough for that. Who who's gonna be the voice to

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<v Speaker 3>make sure we talk about those things? So that part

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<v Speaker 3>sometimes I'm just like, yo, I would love to let

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<v Speaker 3>people see what a fun album for me, Like I'm

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<v Speaker 3>just having fun.

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<v Speaker 6>I mean I think with the albums, maybe your intention

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<v Speaker 6>is different, but I feel like you can still do that.

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<v Speaker 5>Maybe give us a tape.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I started one really, Yeah, I explore you know,

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<v Speaker 3>a turn up take. Yeah. I call it my my

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<v Speaker 3>ignorant album. Ignorant and I mean that just by the beast, Like,

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<v Speaker 3>but yeah, I wanted to do something that was that

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<v Speaker 3>that side of me because I haven't shown that side.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, so you haven't shown this side either of No,

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<v Speaker 5>please don't cry.

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<v Speaker 3>I started working on three albums at one time. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>I called Sherry. I was like, Sherry, that's the co

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<v Speaker 3>president of rock Nation, So I want to put out

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<v Speaker 3>three albums in one year. She was like rap. I

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<v Speaker 3>was like, I need to show people all sides of me.

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<v Speaker 3>She was like, no, absolutely not. We have to give

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<v Speaker 3>proper attention and support with the albums each So I

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<v Speaker 3>was like, Okay, how.

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<v Speaker 1>Did this album should because I've heard you say that

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<v Speaker 1>this album has brought you the most peace you've ever seen.

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<v Speaker 1>How does the album this raw and vulnerabile bring you peace?

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<v Speaker 3>It brings me peace because it's it's the most me

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<v Speaker 3>I've ever been. I'm so fearless now again, like I'm

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<v Speaker 3>I'm neo, like unplugged from the matrix and living my reality.

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<v Speaker 3>So that's like everybody's been asking me how you feel,

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<v Speaker 3>how you feel like the album's about to come out,

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<v Speaker 3>and I tell them myself, I'm at peace because I

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<v Speaker 3>have no expectations. I'm not thinking about I need to

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<v Speaker 3>do this amount of numbers, like yo, what's good? If

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<v Speaker 3>do we need to do this? I'm just like people

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<v Speaker 3>like it or they don't. Yeah, I made an album

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<v Speaker 3>that I was happy with and I shared things that

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<v Speaker 3>I wanted to share that with for me, like so

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<v Speaker 3>many albums, I would shine a light on the world,

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<v Speaker 3>and this one was like I need to shine light

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<v Speaker 3>on me and so to be able to like because

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<v Speaker 3>I'm so private and I protect myself in that way

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<v Speaker 3>and I held so much and I feel lighter because

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<v Speaker 3>you know, I'm I'm so confident and again I'm not

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<v Speaker 3>afraid to just share. I was afraid before because I

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<v Speaker 3>was afraid of judgment, what people would think, like you're

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<v Speaker 3>not perfect, You're not always the good girl. You have

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<v Speaker 3>disappointed yourself and some people. But it's like it's okay,

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<v Speaker 3>we all do at some point.

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<v Speaker 7>I like that that mindset to have. You don't have

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<v Speaker 7>any expectations. Charlemagne said it a lot about like his books, events,

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<v Speaker 7>all of that, like people. I will hear people that

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<v Speaker 7>are you excited about like the we just had the

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<v Speaker 7>second annual Black Effect Podcast Festival when Atlanta, and someone's

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<v Speaker 7>like you, are you excited?

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<v Speaker 4>He was like, I mean, I have no expectations.

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<v Speaker 7>It's either you know it was it was big, Like

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<v Speaker 7>it turned out big last year. It's gonna do that

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<v Speaker 7>this year. I mean, if it doesn't, it's like I

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<v Speaker 7>like to have that. I like that mindset. I'm trying

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<v Speaker 7>to get there. You can get the Girl's Coy show

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<v Speaker 7>like you're ready, I'm like, yeah, yeah, I'm always like that.

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<v Speaker 3>People love you for you.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>And when you like really, I think take that in

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<v Speaker 3>and hone it. It's just like I just gotta go

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<v Speaker 3>up here and be myself.

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<v Speaker 4>And I ended up doing it.

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<v Speaker 7>I just can't ever be that calm before the show.

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<v Speaker 3>Is the nerve? Yeah, I think that's could just you

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<v Speaker 3>care though. Yeah, I still get like that before shows

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<v Speaker 3>normally when I go on to show too easy and

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<v Speaker 3>make me I'm like, yo, you too relaxed? Yeah, well

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<v Speaker 3>mess up, So that just shows you care. I don't

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<v Speaker 3>think that's too bad.

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<v Speaker 6>So what pushed you to the point of wanting to live,

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<v Speaker 6>you know, like this much in your truth and be

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<v Speaker 6>this transparent.

0:21:42.240 --> 0:21:48.000
<v Speaker 3>I wanted to grow, you know, I had gotten out

0:21:48.000 --> 0:21:51.560
<v Speaker 3>a relationship when I started this project and healing from that.

0:21:52.880 --> 0:21:58.919
<v Speaker 3>You you know, therapy, you realize it's never about the

0:21:59.000 --> 0:22:02.280
<v Speaker 3>person's about you you. So once you like start to

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<v Speaker 3>sit and ask yourself these questions trying to figure out

0:22:05.040 --> 0:22:07.919
<v Speaker 3>how to heal from the relationship. The relationship is over with.

0:22:08.040 --> 0:22:10.360
<v Speaker 3>It's just like, oh, what are the mirrors in front

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<v Speaker 3>of me? What are the things about me that make

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<v Speaker 3>me feel you know, incomplete or all the things? Why

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<v Speaker 3>do I act like this when this happens. So it

0:22:21.520 --> 0:22:23.480
<v Speaker 3>was like an onion. I was just peeling back, pelling back,

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<v Speaker 3>peeling back, and I.

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<v Speaker 2>Was just like crying, crying every time.

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<v Speaker 3>Year was crazy. Yeah, a lot of solitude, a lot

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<v Speaker 3>of tears, a lot of praying. And I have a

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<v Speaker 3>beautiful village. So my homegirls would tell me, like, yo,

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<v Speaker 3>you your next phase is you gotta let people see

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<v Speaker 3>you the human party. You gotta be vulnerable. And so

0:22:50.080 --> 0:22:54.480
<v Speaker 3>I love a good challenge. It was hard, uncomfortable, it

0:22:54.520 --> 0:22:57.720
<v Speaker 3>was not fun, but the other side is so beautiful.

0:22:58.200 --> 0:23:00.879
<v Speaker 3>So it's like that you really got to let yourself

0:23:01.119 --> 0:23:04.879
<v Speaker 3>sit in the fire and burn. And some days I

0:23:04.920 --> 0:23:06.760
<v Speaker 3>was like, man, am I gonna feel like this forever?

0:23:06.920 --> 0:23:07.720
<v Speaker 3>But now.

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<v Speaker 1>I was going to ask, like which specific experience led to,

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<v Speaker 1>like the journey of self exploration and self acceptance.

0:23:16.200 --> 0:23:19.160
<v Speaker 2>So it was a breakup. It's like my life album.

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<v Speaker 3>Yes, it's a lot of my life, alle pieces of it.

0:23:30.680 --> 0:23:34.360
<v Speaker 3>Your relationship was dope, though, Like I learned a lot

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<v Speaker 3>in a relationship about even how to begin this journey.

0:23:38.880 --> 0:23:41.080
<v Speaker 3>You know, they was back to back relationship. So I

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<v Speaker 3>got out of a long one, I had a little

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<v Speaker 3>time that got in another one.

0:23:45.359 --> 0:23:48.600
<v Speaker 2>But the second one was just a rebound, really.

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<v Speaker 3>You I mean, yes, that happened, but that that wasn't

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<v Speaker 3>my my experience.

0:23:56.920 --> 0:23:57.480
<v Speaker 4>It was.

0:23:59.320 --> 0:24:02.359
<v Speaker 3>The one the relationship that impacted me the most. I

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<v Speaker 3>wouldn't have become the person I am now without that relationship.

0:24:06.840 --> 0:24:10.320
<v Speaker 3>So they gave me like the starter pack tools you know,

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<v Speaker 3>to figure out. They say people come into your life

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<v Speaker 3>for a reason, season or lifetime, and there was definitely

0:24:16.680 --> 0:24:19.000
<v Speaker 3>reason in this. I think it could be multiple things.

0:24:19.520 --> 0:24:22.440
<v Speaker 3>So yeah, you know, but once it was like now

0:24:22.440 --> 0:24:24.280
<v Speaker 3>you're on your own, you by yourself.

0:24:24.359 --> 0:24:26.240
<v Speaker 1>I was like, oh, I gotta do the work work,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, is are you ready to answer those questions though,

0:24:29.320 --> 0:24:31.840
<v Speaker 1>because this album is going to be having people ask

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of questions.

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<v Speaker 3>About Yeah, some things that I shared, Yeah, yeah, some

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<v Speaker 3>things I'm okay with and some things I'm okay with,

0:24:40.760 --> 0:24:42.680
<v Speaker 3>like I gave you what I gave you, some things

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<v Speaker 3>a a metough, So you know, there's some things I'm

0:24:45.880 --> 0:24:48.119
<v Speaker 3>okay with talking about and as others. It's just like

0:24:48.880 --> 0:24:49.960
<v Speaker 3>you don't need to know the rest.

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<v Speaker 6>You talked about unplugging, and you also talk about it

0:24:55.520 --> 0:24:59.040
<v Speaker 6>on one of them days that you sampled Monica Bier sample.

0:24:59.200 --> 0:25:01.280
<v Speaker 6>I kind of wanted to know what was the inspiration

0:25:01.400 --> 0:25:03.520
<v Speaker 6>behind it. Did somebody like piss you off? And then

0:25:03.560 --> 0:25:05.760
<v Speaker 6>you heard the record and you kind of like went

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<v Speaker 6>to a daze, like talk to me about that?

0:25:08.520 --> 0:25:12.280
<v Speaker 3>Nah? It was like having my conversation with my homegirls.

0:25:12.800 --> 0:25:15.520
<v Speaker 3>She's my homegirl, ran a biddy, she was a poet

0:25:15.760 --> 0:25:18.800
<v Speaker 3>this stuff. On Eve she was texting me, she was

0:25:18.920 --> 0:25:21.680
<v Speaker 3>a list of things people need to know. What makes

0:25:21.720 --> 0:25:24.240
<v Speaker 3>you mad, what makes you sad? Who you in love with?

0:25:24.320 --> 0:25:25.879
<v Speaker 3>Do you like to have sex? Like she was?

0:25:25.960 --> 0:25:27.640
<v Speaker 2>I was like, right, when you have too many friends?

0:25:27.680 --> 0:25:30.440
<v Speaker 2>That you got too many friends? That's doing the works?

0:25:30.560 --> 0:25:37.440
<v Speaker 4>Come on now, why like how you.

0:25:38.119 --> 0:25:40.280
<v Speaker 3>I screenshot? And I was like, okay, So I'm in

0:25:40.320 --> 0:25:42.439
<v Speaker 3>the studio writing on the white board. I'm like, what

0:25:42.520 --> 0:25:45.360
<v Speaker 3>are all the things about me that people I want

0:25:45.400 --> 0:25:49.320
<v Speaker 3>to share? And now was just Aquarius like very you know,

0:25:49.560 --> 0:25:52.600
<v Speaker 3>personable person, but my social battery goes down really fast

0:25:52.640 --> 0:25:55.800
<v Speaker 3>and I don't want to be the don't call me

0:25:55.800 --> 0:25:57.360
<v Speaker 3>I want to talk you like that.

0:25:57.560 --> 0:25:58.359
<v Speaker 4>I'm very much like that.

0:25:58.359 --> 0:26:02.159
<v Speaker 7>I just had a conversation and they're like earlier in

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<v Speaker 7>this episode like no, I don't like.

0:26:05.840 --> 0:26:09.080
<v Speaker 3>It's turned off now. So it was just like, Okay,

0:26:09.119 --> 0:26:10.800
<v Speaker 3>that's a part of me that I want to share.

0:26:12.480 --> 0:26:15.760
<v Speaker 3>And especially too because of the pandemic, especially I spent

0:26:15.880 --> 0:26:18.679
<v Speaker 3>so much time by myself and I was healing and

0:26:18.720 --> 0:26:20.520
<v Speaker 3>my friends would hit me and I wouldn't probably would

0:26:20.600 --> 0:26:28.280
<v Speaker 3>hit them back for eight months and yeah like eight months, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

0:26:28.080 --> 0:26:29.160
<v Speaker 2>I was not quarantine.

0:26:31.240 --> 0:26:35.719
<v Speaker 3>Yeah like nah, you know or if I did it? Yeah, No,

0:26:36.000 --> 0:26:37.800
<v Speaker 3>I was not hitting people back. You had to be

0:26:37.880 --> 0:26:41.040
<v Speaker 3>like in a really really really close circle for me

0:26:41.080 --> 0:26:42.200
<v Speaker 3>to talk to you during that time.

0:26:42.320 --> 0:26:42.639
<v Speaker 4>Gotcha.

0:26:43.160 --> 0:26:46.640
<v Speaker 3>So and it was just like I heard the song,

0:26:46.720 --> 0:26:50.160
<v Speaker 3>so I was like, Yo, that's the perfect flip because

0:26:50.160 --> 0:26:53.040
<v Speaker 3>that's exactly how I feel like, don't take it personal.

0:26:53.480 --> 0:26:56.960
<v Speaker 3>It's not personally, it's a me thing. And that's where

0:26:56.960 --> 0:26:59.600
<v Speaker 3>that came from. Like I knew and I wanted it

0:26:59.640 --> 0:27:02.480
<v Speaker 3>to feel feel good and not sad, because the very

0:27:02.520 --> 0:27:06.399
<v Speaker 3>first version of this album was it was heavy and sad,

0:27:07.040 --> 0:27:08.639
<v Speaker 3>and I was like, I don't want to make something

0:27:08.680 --> 0:27:10.639
<v Speaker 3>that people can feel, but they don't want to go

0:27:10.720 --> 0:27:13.000
<v Speaker 3>back to it because it's too heavy. So it was like,

0:27:13.119 --> 0:27:13.919
<v Speaker 3>let's lighten it up.

0:27:15.000 --> 0:27:16.920
<v Speaker 2>What was it like writing when you was unlearning?

0:27:17.000 --> 0:27:20.199
<v Speaker 1>Like those habits and those beliefs and those behaviors that

0:27:20.240 --> 0:27:21.240
<v Speaker 1>didn't serve you no more?

0:27:22.680 --> 0:27:26.440
<v Speaker 3>Man, the writing was so easy, Like when I tell

0:27:26.480 --> 0:27:29.520
<v Speaker 3>you things were poor, it was pouring out like it's

0:27:29.520 --> 0:27:33.480
<v Speaker 3>probably the best writing I've ever done. And I think

0:27:33.520 --> 0:27:36.960
<v Speaker 3>because I was healing and unplugged and just not have

0:27:37.080 --> 0:27:42.160
<v Speaker 3>no expectations. I didn't write to have to prove anything,

0:27:42.520 --> 0:27:44.880
<v Speaker 3>you know. Before it was like I'm trying to make

0:27:44.920 --> 0:27:46.399
<v Speaker 3>my way in the game of trying to get the

0:27:46.480 --> 0:27:48.760
<v Speaker 3>respect and all those things. And it's like, when you

0:27:48.760 --> 0:27:51.480
<v Speaker 3>don't care no more, you can be profound. And I

0:27:51.480 --> 0:27:53.880
<v Speaker 3>think that's somewhere the best music that you can make,

0:27:54.000 --> 0:27:58.199
<v Speaker 3>you know what I'm saying, Like the simplest word. They

0:27:58.240 --> 0:28:01.720
<v Speaker 3>don't have to have a crazy metaphor, but people connect

0:28:01.720 --> 0:28:04.280
<v Speaker 3>with it. And I was like, because I was listening

0:28:04.320 --> 0:28:08.600
<v Speaker 3>to Lawrence Unplugged a whole lot during this process, and

0:28:08.640 --> 0:28:10.680
<v Speaker 3>I was just like, she don't have like a lot

0:28:10.720 --> 0:28:14.320
<v Speaker 3>of crazy double ntag and all that, but the thing

0:28:14.480 --> 0:28:19.440
<v Speaker 3>she's saying hitting because they just real it's profound lyricism,

0:28:19.720 --> 0:28:21.480
<v Speaker 3>and I was like, dag, that's what I want to

0:28:21.520 --> 0:28:25.399
<v Speaker 3>work on. But yeah, it was It was just easy

0:28:25.440 --> 0:28:30.399
<v Speaker 3>because I knew myself too. When you're healing and you

0:28:30.520 --> 0:28:32.440
<v Speaker 3>know exactly who you are and how you want to

0:28:32.480 --> 0:28:36.439
<v Speaker 3>show up and like you're finding yourself again. I wasn't

0:28:36.680 --> 0:28:41.080
<v Speaker 3>creating through anybody else's perception. Like earlier in my career,

0:28:41.080 --> 0:28:43.440
<v Speaker 3>I had nine, I had grew, I had a beautiful village,

0:28:43.880 --> 0:28:46.520
<v Speaker 3>and because I was so unsure and not confident, and

0:28:46.600 --> 0:28:48.840
<v Speaker 3>you know, we was trying to figure out, like, yo,

0:28:48.920 --> 0:28:51.360
<v Speaker 3>how we gonna get you to this next level? Like

0:28:52.360 --> 0:28:54.200
<v Speaker 3>you know, they would be like, let's do a song

0:28:54.280 --> 0:28:56.440
<v Speaker 3>about this, let's lie about this, and I'd be like, yeah, okay,

0:28:56.480 --> 0:28:59.840
<v Speaker 3>that rap and it's nothing wrong with like the intention.

0:29:00.000 --> 0:29:03.320
<v Speaker 3>It was beautiful and now it's just like it was

0:29:03.400 --> 0:29:05.080
<v Speaker 3>just all me what you feel.

0:29:05.200 --> 0:29:08.960
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I love I love when rappers rap about things

0:29:09.000 --> 0:29:11.600
<v Speaker 1>I've never heard before on records, right, So that's why

0:29:11.600 --> 0:29:13.760
<v Speaker 1>I loved mister Ryland the big step of so much, Yo,

0:29:13.880 --> 0:29:15.760
<v Speaker 1>I'm please don't cry. It the same way you got

0:29:15.760 --> 0:29:19.800
<v Speaker 1>a song about dementia, which is something that impacts so

0:29:19.960 --> 0:29:21.760
<v Speaker 1>many of us, Like we all have a loved one

0:29:21.800 --> 0:29:25.000
<v Speaker 1>that you know, stuffering from dementia. I had dementia. Like

0:29:25.000 --> 0:29:26.280
<v Speaker 1>what made you want to speak on that?

0:29:27.080 --> 0:29:29.400
<v Speaker 3>Because it was it was such a big part of

0:29:29.400 --> 0:29:33.280
<v Speaker 3>my life during that time. My aunt, who's my mom's sister,

0:29:33.440 --> 0:29:35.640
<v Speaker 3>oldest sister, helped raise me. So just like all my

0:29:35.640 --> 0:29:39.040
<v Speaker 3>aunt's like my second moms. So when she got diagnosed,

0:29:39.360 --> 0:29:42.800
<v Speaker 3>it hit me like, yo, my grandmother had it, but

0:29:43.320 --> 0:29:48.280
<v Speaker 3>you know, to to sit with somebody and see it progress,

0:29:49.000 --> 0:29:51.520
<v Speaker 3>it was just it was like a It's like, it's

0:29:51.760 --> 0:29:54.560
<v Speaker 3>just a big part of my life and it affects

0:29:54.600 --> 0:29:57.760
<v Speaker 3>me so emotionally, and it was just like I want

0:29:58.600 --> 0:30:00.920
<v Speaker 3>to talk about it, and because I do, know so

0:30:01.000 --> 0:30:05.600
<v Speaker 3>many people that go through it, and that's just I

0:30:05.680 --> 0:30:07.760
<v Speaker 3>was just everything I was feeling. I was just putting

0:30:07.800 --> 0:30:13.720
<v Speaker 3>on paper, you know, And I think people need that,

0:30:14.800 --> 0:30:17.760
<v Speaker 3>but that that's just what it was. Like. I think

0:30:17.800 --> 0:30:20.400
<v Speaker 3>about her all the time, you know, every time I

0:30:20.440 --> 0:30:22.880
<v Speaker 3>go home, that's the first place I go sometimes before

0:30:22.920 --> 0:30:25.880
<v Speaker 3>I stop with my mom. And this last time I went,

0:30:26.120 --> 0:30:28.760
<v Speaker 3>I was there for like four hours. We was talking, laughing.

0:30:28.880 --> 0:30:31.720
<v Speaker 3>I think the last hour somebody came in the house

0:30:31.760 --> 0:30:33.720
<v Speaker 3>and they was like, you know who that is? She

0:30:33.880 --> 0:30:38.640
<v Speaker 3>was like I don't know. I was like, damn, yeah, yeah,

0:30:38.720 --> 0:30:41.000
<v Speaker 3>it's tough. It's tough. And you know, I think about

0:30:41.040 --> 0:30:43.840
<v Speaker 3>my cousins who's as her kids. So it was just like,

0:30:45.120 --> 0:30:47.080
<v Speaker 3>you know, a story that I wanted to share, Like,

0:30:47.120 --> 0:30:48.640
<v Speaker 3>if you want to know me, this is what I

0:30:48.720 --> 0:30:50.840
<v Speaker 3>go with, This is what I go through when I'm

0:30:51.320 --> 0:30:52.000
<v Speaker 3>with my family.

0:30:52.680 --> 0:30:55.320
<v Speaker 2>Your grandma got to matory yea yeah.

0:30:55.440 --> 0:30:57.120
<v Speaker 4>And that's why I say that definitely hurts out.

0:30:57.640 --> 0:31:00.920
<v Speaker 7>My father gave my grandmother U birthday party and he

0:31:01.000 --> 0:31:03.760
<v Speaker 7>DJs and he does karaoke and she loves to sing

0:31:04.320 --> 0:31:07.120
<v Speaker 7>and dance and all of that stuff. Right, and I came,

0:31:07.200 --> 0:31:10.719
<v Speaker 7>me and my little sister went and she ain't even

0:31:10.720 --> 0:31:12.480
<v Speaker 7>know who I was like you know what I'm saying.

0:31:12.560 --> 0:31:15.360
<v Speaker 7>She and I can you can tell? Yeah, because she

0:31:15.440 --> 0:31:17.000
<v Speaker 7>don't greet me like that. You know, she called me

0:31:17.120 --> 0:31:18.959
<v Speaker 7>Jade or or whatever, and she was just like, oh,

0:31:19.000 --> 0:31:19.960
<v Speaker 7>how you how are you?

0:31:20.000 --> 0:31:23.520
<v Speaker 4>How you doing? Just like I'm like, you know, a

0:31:23.800 --> 0:31:24.560
<v Speaker 4>regular person.

0:31:25.040 --> 0:31:27.640
<v Speaker 7>But then my dad, we like our favorite song to

0:31:27.720 --> 0:31:31.280
<v Speaker 7>perform karaoke is Utfo rock sayning rock saying, so you

0:31:31.360 --> 0:31:35.520
<v Speaker 7>put that on she she instantly knew who I was,

0:31:35.720 --> 0:31:37.800
<v Speaker 7>and she came up. She said, where is Robin?

0:31:37.920 --> 0:31:38.760
<v Speaker 4>Robin is my mother.

0:31:39.040 --> 0:31:41.160
<v Speaker 7>I'm like, I've been here for two hours and you

0:31:41.360 --> 0:31:43.880
<v Speaker 7>just now so I'm getting smart with her, but my

0:31:43.880 --> 0:31:44.880
<v Speaker 7>grandmother is a fire crack.

0:31:44.960 --> 0:31:46.800
<v Speaker 4>At the same time, She's like, yeah, where is your mother?

0:31:46.880 --> 0:31:48.080
<v Speaker 4>Ad I don't want to see you. I want to

0:31:48.080 --> 0:31:49.720
<v Speaker 4>see Robin. You know what I'm saying.

0:31:49.880 --> 0:31:52.640
<v Speaker 7>So I still treat it the same way, you know,

0:31:52.680 --> 0:31:56.400
<v Speaker 7>because she wouldn't want me to treat her like, oh, Grandma,

0:31:56.480 --> 0:31:58.680
<v Speaker 7>it's gonna be okay, Like we've never been like that.

0:31:58.920 --> 0:31:59.120
<v Speaker 2>You know.

0:31:59.240 --> 0:32:01.600
<v Speaker 7>She still hard on me and all that type of stuff.

0:32:01.640 --> 0:32:04.160
<v Speaker 7>But that to relate to that that it does hurt.

0:32:04.520 --> 0:32:05.200
<v Speaker 4>It's like a.

0:32:05.200 --> 0:32:09.560
<v Speaker 3>Hard, hard disease and go through like the mind goes

0:32:09.640 --> 0:32:12.560
<v Speaker 3>and the memory. Yeah, you know, but same thing. My

0:32:12.600 --> 0:32:15.000
<v Speaker 3>family is the same way. Like I remember the first time,

0:32:15.080 --> 0:32:16.960
<v Speaker 3>like she was really doing things where I could really

0:32:16.960 --> 0:32:18.840
<v Speaker 3>see it, because I could always see it before, but

0:32:18.880 --> 0:32:21.320
<v Speaker 3>I was I remember the day and my other aunt

0:32:21.400 --> 0:32:23.280
<v Speaker 3>came over and we were just talking about it. She

0:32:23.400 --> 0:32:26.040
<v Speaker 3>just said she busts out laughing, you know, like talking

0:32:26.040 --> 0:32:29.880
<v Speaker 3>to pictures or whatever. I like, I was in my feelings.

0:32:29.920 --> 0:32:31.840
<v Speaker 3>She started laughing. She's like, girl, we got laugh to

0:32:31.920 --> 0:32:35.000
<v Speaker 3>keep from crying. And that just changed me. Like so

0:32:35.680 --> 0:32:39.320
<v Speaker 3>it's beautiful to see, like how the family takes care

0:32:39.320 --> 0:32:41.920
<v Speaker 3>of her and we just whatever she on that day,

0:32:41.960 --> 0:32:43.000
<v Speaker 3>we just all a part of it.

0:32:43.080 --> 0:32:43.920
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, you know what I'm saying.

0:32:43.920 --> 0:32:46.960
<v Speaker 3>That's good and it makes it a little easier, but yeah,

0:32:47.320 --> 0:32:48.040
<v Speaker 3>it's it's tough.

0:32:49.240 --> 0:32:51.360
<v Speaker 2>Is it true? You credits and not late with helping you.

0:32:53.040 --> 0:33:03.200
<v Speaker 3>Finishing it. She's singing, and I'm sany thin can sing,

0:33:03.760 --> 0:33:06.880
<v Speaker 3>like yeah, yeah. And when I worked we worked on

0:33:07.440 --> 0:33:09.960
<v Speaker 3>the movie On a Come Up in twenty twenty one,

0:33:10.880 --> 0:33:12.840
<v Speaker 3>and she brought me on to help with the music

0:33:12.880 --> 0:33:17.440
<v Speaker 3>and coach the actor. But I got to see how

0:33:17.520 --> 0:33:20.280
<v Speaker 3>much of a music fan, especially hip hop, she was,

0:33:20.320 --> 0:33:22.680
<v Speaker 3>because like I'd send her demos and stuff. She tell

0:33:22.720 --> 0:33:24.480
<v Speaker 3>me about the beat and what she liked, and I

0:33:24.520 --> 0:33:26.720
<v Speaker 3>was like, you know what you're talking about. You know,

0:33:26.760 --> 0:33:29.440
<v Speaker 3>we talked about music a lot. But she was a

0:33:29.440 --> 0:33:32.120
<v Speaker 3>big part of the healing process for one, right, you know,

0:33:32.200 --> 0:33:35.440
<v Speaker 3>healing goals and phases. So she had put me onto

0:33:35.480 --> 0:33:39.280
<v Speaker 3>this course it's called how to Bemagnetic dot com or whatever,

0:33:39.840 --> 0:33:42.640
<v Speaker 3>and I did the course, and it was so instrumental,

0:33:42.720 --> 0:33:47.160
<v Speaker 3>like meditation, like she helped me get through over the hump.

0:33:47.280 --> 0:33:47.600
<v Speaker 4>Yeah.

0:33:47.840 --> 0:33:51.680
<v Speaker 3>So we was in New York at a premiere and

0:33:51.720 --> 0:33:54.240
<v Speaker 3>she was always asking about the album because you know,

0:33:54.280 --> 0:33:57.320
<v Speaker 3>we talked about pretty much everything. And she was like,

0:33:57.360 --> 0:33:59.280
<v Speaker 3>you're not finished with it yet, just like everybody on

0:33:59.320 --> 0:34:01.880
<v Speaker 3>the edit that like, I'm still not finished. She was like,

0:34:01.920 --> 0:34:04.280
<v Speaker 3>what's taking so long. I was like, I don't know.

0:34:04.320 --> 0:34:07.120
<v Speaker 3>I said, I feel like it's too gray, like I

0:34:07.160 --> 0:34:10.080
<v Speaker 3>see music and color. Sometimes I don't know. I think

0:34:10.080 --> 0:34:12.719
<v Speaker 3>it's too gray. It might be too sad, like I'm

0:34:12.800 --> 0:34:15.600
<v Speaker 3>just overthinking it. I could do that sometimes, And so

0:34:15.719 --> 0:34:19.480
<v Speaker 3>she was like, play me some songs. So I played

0:34:19.640 --> 0:34:22.120
<v Speaker 3>like three or four songs and she was like, it's

0:34:22.160 --> 0:34:26.359
<v Speaker 3>not too sad, It's exactly what people need. Finished the album.

0:34:26.760 --> 0:34:29.400
<v Speaker 3>And because she said that, I was like, okay, and

0:34:29.480 --> 0:34:32.000
<v Speaker 3>I finished the album. Other than I probably would still

0:34:32.000 --> 0:34:32.920
<v Speaker 3>be recording right now.

0:34:33.000 --> 0:34:40.800
<v Speaker 6>I believe I believe that you. I do love having

0:34:40.880 --> 0:34:42.920
<v Speaker 6>Felicia on the project.

0:34:42.960 --> 0:34:45.520
<v Speaker 2>I thought that was the full name.

0:34:46.040 --> 0:34:51.440
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, yes, okay, I know what I.

0:34:51.400 --> 0:34:51.879
<v Speaker 3>Was talking about.

0:34:52.719 --> 0:34:53.239
<v Speaker 2>Sell it out.

0:34:54.600 --> 0:34:58.279
<v Speaker 6>You have Felicia Rashad Narrate and I love on the

0:34:58.320 --> 0:34:59.840
<v Speaker 6>intro the only way out is in?

0:35:00.040 --> 0:35:01.719
<v Speaker 5>And do you even know who you are?

0:35:01.800 --> 0:35:04.560
<v Speaker 6>I'm like, this project really takes you on a ride,

0:35:04.680 --> 0:35:06.759
<v Speaker 6>but you having her narrate, I feel like it was

0:35:06.840 --> 0:35:10.000
<v Speaker 6>so vital, just because as a black woman, you know,

0:35:10.080 --> 0:35:11.960
<v Speaker 6>she's one of the ones that we looked.

0:35:11.800 --> 0:35:15.080
<v Speaker 5>Up to do, to Cosby, even to night Lathan.

0:35:15.160 --> 0:35:17.760
<v Speaker 6>I feel like, yeah, hell Erica, you got the holy

0:35:17.800 --> 0:35:20.400
<v Speaker 6>girl black woman. You know what I'm saying on this album.

0:35:20.520 --> 0:35:22.799
<v Speaker 6>So it's it's just been fire. But how did you

0:35:22.920 --> 0:35:23.880
<v Speaker 6>connect with her?

0:35:24.239 --> 0:35:26.680
<v Speaker 3>It was It was a lot easier than I thought

0:35:27.760 --> 0:35:31.240
<v Speaker 3>because I was like, I think big, I'm gonna always

0:35:31.239 --> 0:35:33.040
<v Speaker 3>go big, and I'm like all they can say is no.

0:35:33.840 --> 0:35:35.960
<v Speaker 3>So I was just prepared. I would tell my manager.

0:35:36.000 --> 0:35:37.919
<v Speaker 3>I was like, if she doesn't, we can't get hurt.

0:35:37.960 --> 0:35:41.040
<v Speaker 3>And this person, this person, this person, back up. But

0:35:42.640 --> 0:35:46.680
<v Speaker 3>my manager got information on her manager and they just

0:35:46.719 --> 0:35:49.520
<v Speaker 3>she sent her a request and at first they were like,

0:35:49.640 --> 0:35:51.840
<v Speaker 3>we want to hear some music. And I was busy

0:35:51.880 --> 0:35:54.239
<v Speaker 3>at the time, but before I could even send it,

0:35:54.239 --> 0:36:01.120
<v Speaker 3>it was two days when they went by. No.

0:36:01.200 --> 0:36:06.080
<v Speaker 5>I didn't no, no, no, you That's not what happened.

0:36:06.640 --> 0:36:08.879
<v Speaker 3>I was to get you know, the song. I'm trying

0:36:08.880 --> 0:36:11.200
<v Speaker 3>to figure out what exactly the sender because the album

0:36:11.200 --> 0:36:13.840
<v Speaker 3>went all the way done. So I was like, you know,

0:36:14.000 --> 0:36:17.560
<v Speaker 3>I was moving around, so it was maybe two days later.

0:36:18.560 --> 0:36:25.440
<v Speaker 3>I was traveling, but I think like they asked for

0:36:25.440 --> 0:36:27.319
<v Speaker 3>the music, and then I think the next day she

0:36:27.560 --> 0:36:29.839
<v Speaker 3>was just like yes, you know, I don't know if

0:36:29.840 --> 0:36:32.160
<v Speaker 3>they google, I don't know what happened. But I was like,

0:36:32.560 --> 0:36:34.600
<v Speaker 3>my mouth was on the floor. I was like what

0:36:36.200 --> 0:36:38.920
<v Speaker 3>And so I wrote out the parts and sent them

0:36:38.920 --> 0:36:42.160
<v Speaker 3>to her and she recorded it and she's so good,

0:36:42.360 --> 0:36:46.200
<v Speaker 3>like I just I wrote out my part in her

0:36:46.280 --> 0:36:49.360
<v Speaker 3>part and she did it on a voice memo in

0:36:49.400 --> 0:36:54.640
<v Speaker 3>her hotel. But she's she's just so good, like you

0:36:54.880 --> 0:36:58.080
<v Speaker 3>hear it. But I chose her for that, you know,

0:36:58.200 --> 0:37:01.040
<v Speaker 3>for the very reason or what she represents to the

0:37:01.080 --> 0:37:03.680
<v Speaker 3>black community. To us. I was watching The Matrix and

0:37:03.719 --> 0:37:07.080
<v Speaker 3>I was so intrigued by the relationship of Neo and

0:37:07.120 --> 0:37:10.040
<v Speaker 3>the Oracle. You know, it was like that was the

0:37:10.120 --> 0:37:13.200
<v Speaker 3>journey I was on and how she got it him.

0:37:13.440 --> 0:37:15.360
<v Speaker 3>So when we were in the studio and I was

0:37:15.400 --> 0:37:19.200
<v Speaker 3>with Black Odyssey in Austin, Texas, they helped executive produce

0:37:19.239 --> 0:37:21.560
<v Speaker 3>the album with us one, They were like, how are

0:37:21.560 --> 0:37:24.520
<v Speaker 3>you gonna put pieces together? And that's what I thought of,

0:37:24.600 --> 0:37:26.200
<v Speaker 3>And she was the only voice that I heard.

0:37:26.520 --> 0:37:27.920
<v Speaker 2>So, so what's her color?

0:37:27.920 --> 0:37:29.520
<v Speaker 1>When if you say the album was black and white

0:37:29.560 --> 0:37:31.680
<v Speaker 1>at one or gray at one point, what was her

0:37:31.680 --> 0:37:35.720
<v Speaker 1>color coloring it?

0:37:35.880 --> 0:37:39.280
<v Speaker 3>She got to be like a brown, brown, orange, yellow, warm,

0:37:40.080 --> 0:37:45.200
<v Speaker 3>very warm the light. That's that's what she represents.

0:37:46.000 --> 0:37:48.200
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, you know, so what color is the song?

0:37:48.600 --> 0:37:53.040
<v Speaker 5>Like Diary of a Mad that's red.

0:37:52.440 --> 0:37:59.520
<v Speaker 3>I see blood, no hesitation, blood on the floor.

0:38:00.440 --> 0:38:02.719
<v Speaker 1>Depressure of that record that you said. You know, people

0:38:02.760 --> 0:38:04.560
<v Speaker 1>always like, oh, that's the stereotype.

0:38:04.080 --> 0:38:06.279
<v Speaker 2>Angry black woman that you like owning that?

0:38:06.360 --> 0:38:09.319
<v Speaker 3>Like, I got right, Yeah, we'd be mad sometimes when

0:38:09.320 --> 0:38:11.280
<v Speaker 3>I was. I was, you know, one of the questions

0:38:11.320 --> 0:38:14.200
<v Speaker 3>with what makes you mad lyon niggas, Like and I

0:38:14.280 --> 0:38:16.759
<v Speaker 3>just thought about every relationship I've been in and there's

0:38:16.800 --> 0:38:21.120
<v Speaker 3>be some lying niggas, and so I'd be balking before

0:38:21.280 --> 0:38:24.560
<v Speaker 3>like I learned how to communicate or whatever, like you know,

0:38:24.840 --> 0:38:27.359
<v Speaker 3>I'm super chill, but when I go there, I go there.

0:38:27.440 --> 0:38:29.160
<v Speaker 3>And I was thinking about I was like, oh, I

0:38:29.239 --> 0:38:31.480
<v Speaker 3>used to yell all the time. It cuts people out.

0:38:31.480 --> 0:38:34.279
<v Speaker 3>I might throw a chair not at them when they leave,

0:38:34.960 --> 0:38:37.000
<v Speaker 3>you know, Like so I was like, yo, this is

0:38:37.200 --> 0:38:40.160
<v Speaker 3>And when I was creating this out, I created it differently.

0:38:41.640 --> 0:38:43.760
<v Speaker 3>I would get on Pinterests and I would find pictures.

0:38:43.800 --> 0:38:48.760
<v Speaker 3>It would be colors, palette sometimes or words or just photos.

0:38:48.760 --> 0:38:52.440
<v Speaker 3>And with Diving Mad Uh Diary of a Mad Bitch,

0:38:53.000 --> 0:38:55.160
<v Speaker 3>there were two photos. It was one of a dovermen

0:38:55.320 --> 0:38:57.840
<v Speaker 3>growling and I was like, that's how I feel. Niggas

0:38:57.840 --> 0:38:59.920
<v Speaker 3>be messing with me like that. And then it was

0:39:00.120 --> 0:39:03.239
<v Speaker 3>one it had hands and honey was dripping down really

0:39:03.280 --> 0:39:06.319
<v Speaker 3>slow and I was and I showed the honeymoon that

0:39:06.360 --> 0:39:08.000
<v Speaker 3>s one. I was like, what does this sound like?

0:39:08.880 --> 0:39:12.120
<v Speaker 3>And that's when he made the beat and it sounded

0:39:12.200 --> 0:39:15.480
<v Speaker 3>so angry and aggressive. The drums he did them in reverse,

0:39:15.560 --> 0:39:19.279
<v Speaker 3>so it sounds like it's sticky pulling. And I was like, oh,

0:39:19.360 --> 0:39:22.040
<v Speaker 3>this is my mask song. Who I'm mad at? Nick's

0:39:25.120 --> 0:39:30.680
<v Speaker 3>so yeah, I own that, I be mad, I'll be masked.

0:39:31.280 --> 0:39:34.640
<v Speaker 6>I really like how you're using the Pinterest images to

0:39:34.920 --> 0:39:36.080
<v Speaker 6>create the sound.

0:39:36.280 --> 0:39:37.480
<v Speaker 5>I love a good move board too.

0:39:37.520 --> 0:39:38.360
<v Speaker 3>I do that for everything.

0:39:38.440 --> 0:39:41.080
<v Speaker 6>Anytime I got to like execute something, I need to see,

0:39:41.760 --> 0:39:44.440
<v Speaker 6>you know, help and for the vision in order to execute.

0:39:44.480 --> 0:39:49.560
<v Speaker 6>So that's that's dope. And also just outside from just

0:39:49.560 --> 0:39:53.480
<v Speaker 6>the music, I love the interview that you did with Ericabadu,

0:39:54.400 --> 0:39:59.120
<v Speaker 6>very very dope, and it's just it's just real, like

0:39:59.239 --> 0:40:01.839
<v Speaker 6>you and her two people that like we can look

0:40:01.920 --> 0:40:04.400
<v Speaker 6>up to and chime in and get like a direct

0:40:04.400 --> 0:40:07.120
<v Speaker 6>reflection of us back. So seeing you guys have a

0:40:07.120 --> 0:40:10.480
<v Speaker 6>conversation was dope. But what inspired you guys to have

0:40:10.520 --> 0:40:12.000
<v Speaker 6>a three Am combo?

0:40:12.719 --> 0:40:16.200
<v Speaker 3>To have the conversation that was really part of the rollout,

0:40:16.320 --> 0:40:19.560
<v Speaker 3>like we did it in chapters. So got with the

0:40:19.640 --> 0:40:22.040
<v Speaker 3>label to my management team and they were like, how

0:40:22.080 --> 0:40:25.160
<v Speaker 3>are we gonna tell this story to the people? And

0:40:25.200 --> 0:40:27.280
<v Speaker 3>we had a plan of like the singles we wanted

0:40:27.280 --> 0:40:29.560
<v Speaker 3>to release. And I was sitting at home during the

0:40:29.600 --> 0:40:34.400
<v Speaker 3>holidays and I I called Sherry. I was like, I'm

0:40:34.440 --> 0:40:37.160
<v Speaker 3>the single plan we have, don't it doesn't feel good

0:40:37.200 --> 0:40:39.360
<v Speaker 3>to me cause it was like raw. First, it was

0:40:39.400 --> 0:40:41.800
<v Speaker 3>like everybody know I can rap. Like they got to

0:40:41.840 --> 0:40:43.879
<v Speaker 3>see something different, they got to see the human part

0:40:43.880 --> 0:40:47.359
<v Speaker 3>of me. And so I was like three Am has

0:40:47.400 --> 0:40:50.239
<v Speaker 3>to be in there. You know. It was like rap

0:40:50.360 --> 0:40:55.719
<v Speaker 3>is back ars unveiling which was standing tall and then

0:40:56.160 --> 0:40:59.719
<v Speaker 3>Erica three Am was unconditional, you know, learning to love yourself.

0:41:01.360 --> 0:41:04.600
<v Speaker 3>So we we knew, like it can't just be music

0:41:04.680 --> 0:41:06.960
<v Speaker 3>like people like rap. People don't know about you, so

0:41:07.040 --> 0:41:11.040
<v Speaker 3>they have to see you have conversations. And so we

0:41:11.080 --> 0:41:13.120
<v Speaker 3>knew three Am was gonna come out, and we was like,

0:41:13.160 --> 0:41:15.839
<v Speaker 3>we need to have a conversation piece about it. And

0:41:16.560 --> 0:41:20.160
<v Speaker 3>she's so good to talk to. I felt like it

0:41:20.239 --> 0:41:22.360
<v Speaker 3>was something to have for people to go back and

0:41:22.400 --> 0:41:26.360
<v Speaker 3>reference because there's so many conversations now men this, women

0:41:26.520 --> 0:41:30.200
<v Speaker 3>that and relationships and you know, it's just like, yo,

0:41:30.360 --> 0:41:34.360
<v Speaker 3>what happened to just love? Even in music like a

0:41:34.400 --> 0:41:38.359
<v Speaker 3>lot of sex songs? What about love? And that was it?

0:41:38.400 --> 0:41:41.279
<v Speaker 3>Like I just knew, like, well that's the chapter. So

0:41:41.360 --> 0:41:44.280
<v Speaker 3>that's that. That has to be the conversation. But Erica

0:41:44.360 --> 0:41:47.480
<v Speaker 3>is so insightful and wise that I already knew she

0:41:47.680 --> 0:41:54.160
<v Speaker 3>from Drop magim No from out of this World. Yeah

0:41:54.440 --> 0:42:00.239
<v Speaker 3>that the.

0:42:00.239 --> 0:42:02.959
<v Speaker 2>Room as queen mother goddess.

0:42:02.640 --> 0:42:09.200
<v Speaker 4>Right there, I would cras me both.

0:42:10.400 --> 0:42:12.759
<v Speaker 2>That's why you tweet no such thing as female hip hop?

0:42:13.280 --> 0:42:14.480
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I don't like that.

0:42:14.600 --> 0:42:15.840
<v Speaker 2>What is that elaborate on that?

0:42:16.600 --> 0:42:20.160
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, it's it's just hip hop. Like somebody they try

0:42:20.160 --> 0:42:23.400
<v Speaker 3>to rebottle me like, there are women who make songs

0:42:23.400 --> 0:42:30.200
<v Speaker 3>specifically for women. That's called an audience, sir, audiences women,

0:42:30.320 --> 0:42:33.520
<v Speaker 3>But what she does is hip hop. Like when you

0:42:33.560 --> 0:42:37.080
<v Speaker 3>when you label something, labels are just there to separate us.

0:42:37.480 --> 0:42:39.960
<v Speaker 3>So if you labeling it female hip hop and you're

0:42:39.960 --> 0:42:42.600
<v Speaker 3>putting it in a category with this is just for females,

0:42:42.640 --> 0:42:46.000
<v Speaker 3>and you're looking at it a certain way, it's like, no,

0:42:46.360 --> 0:42:49.279
<v Speaker 3>they do hip hop, they rap, but their audience may

0:42:49.280 --> 0:42:53.160
<v Speaker 3>be mostly women, you know, And and I just hate

0:42:53.160 --> 0:42:55.879
<v Speaker 3>the separation and labels. It's already hard for us. It's

0:42:55.920 --> 0:43:00.400
<v Speaker 3>just another form of sexism to yeah, you know, like

0:43:01.120 --> 0:43:05.200
<v Speaker 3>I don't make female hip hop. I'll wrap for everybody.

0:43:05.239 --> 0:43:07.400
<v Speaker 3>You get it or you don't. And my you know,

0:43:07.480 --> 0:43:10.920
<v Speaker 3>my fan base shows that got men, women, older people,

0:43:11.040 --> 0:43:13.799
<v Speaker 3>younger people. It's just that's what it is. So it's like,

0:43:13.880 --> 0:43:16.280
<v Speaker 3>we're not about to do that, and I'm gonna advocate

0:43:16.320 --> 0:43:16.640
<v Speaker 3>for it.

0:43:16.920 --> 0:43:18.719
<v Speaker 1>You do address it a little bit on Asteroids because

0:43:18.719 --> 0:43:20.080
<v Speaker 1>you said if I went basically got to be in

0:43:20.080 --> 0:43:23.719
<v Speaker 1>the rape, if I had to dick. I feel that

0:43:23.760 --> 0:43:35.279
<v Speaker 1>way too, So there's a lot of sexism still in

0:43:35.280 --> 0:43:38.239
<v Speaker 1>it because I'm like, there's nothing that these guys are

0:43:38.280 --> 0:43:40.839
<v Speaker 1>doing that Rhapsod is not doing better. You're not gonna

0:43:40.840 --> 0:43:42.640
<v Speaker 1>tell me you don't listen to Rhapsody and just hear

0:43:42.719 --> 0:43:44.399
<v Speaker 1>somebody barring motherfuckers up.

0:43:44.760 --> 0:43:46.560
<v Speaker 3>Don't be trying to hear me because you don't got

0:43:46.560 --> 0:43:49.000
<v Speaker 3>a dick, ain't got you, ain't got to hit.

0:43:50.920 --> 0:43:51.440
<v Speaker 2>Hit of the dick.

0:43:55.080 --> 0:43:58.560
<v Speaker 3>I'm gonna just be real with myself. It was superficial,

0:43:58.640 --> 0:44:01.680
<v Speaker 3>like that stuff matter to them, you know, because it's

0:44:02.040 --> 0:44:04.520
<v Speaker 3>they've been programmed to think that now that people people

0:44:04.520 --> 0:44:06.399
<v Speaker 3>don't know how to think for themselves. So it's like

0:44:06.880 --> 0:44:09.239
<v Speaker 3>if it ain't got mad numbers of chart and it

0:44:09.280 --> 0:44:09.920
<v Speaker 3>don't matter.

0:44:10.320 --> 0:44:14.160
<v Speaker 1>Like I disagree because they don't mention women in the

0:44:14.160 --> 0:44:17.080
<v Speaker 1>greatest debates. Ni not she shouldn't be, but Nicki's not

0:44:17.120 --> 0:44:20.000
<v Speaker 1>in the Golt debate. Lauren's not really in the goat debate.

0:44:20.040 --> 0:44:23.520
<v Speaker 1>They acknowledge them being dope, but not like the dope

0:44:23.560 --> 0:44:24.919
<v Speaker 1>dope rapidly they are.

0:44:25.400 --> 0:44:29.359
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, that's why we got to change that. You're out

0:44:29.440 --> 0:44:33.120
<v Speaker 3>of here we in the debate. Baby. I just saw

0:44:33.200 --> 0:44:36.480
<v Speaker 3>Lauren perform on Jimmy Fallon. She spent a verse. I

0:44:36.520 --> 0:44:40.399
<v Speaker 3>was like, my god, when it was yeah, I don't

0:44:40.440 --> 0:44:42.080
<v Speaker 3>know if it's gonna be on anything, but if you

0:44:42.160 --> 0:44:47.319
<v Speaker 3>go on Jimmy Fallon, oh man, you just gotta go

0:44:47.400 --> 0:44:48.239
<v Speaker 3>listen to the verse.

0:44:49.000 --> 0:44:52.080
<v Speaker 2>What problems you to the address questions about your sexuality?

0:44:52.120 --> 0:44:54.120
<v Speaker 2>Understand tall records, because it was.

0:44:54.120 --> 0:44:56.960
<v Speaker 3>It would be conversations throughout the years of my career,

0:44:57.600 --> 0:45:01.080
<v Speaker 3>and so it was like things that I internalized to

0:45:01.400 --> 0:45:05.600
<v Speaker 3>like the way that I dress or whatever. People assume

0:45:05.680 --> 0:45:09.360
<v Speaker 3>things about you or because you have you don't know

0:45:09.440 --> 0:45:11.880
<v Speaker 3>who I've been in relationship. I'm private, so they just

0:45:11.960 --> 0:45:14.680
<v Speaker 3>assume who you are. So it's just like, let me

0:45:14.760 --> 0:45:17.680
<v Speaker 3>just address it head on. Then you know you hear

0:45:17.719 --> 0:45:18.080
<v Speaker 3>it from me.

0:45:18.440 --> 0:45:19.520
<v Speaker 2>You said the judgment saw me.

0:45:19.560 --> 0:45:21.200
<v Speaker 1>They wonder if I'm gonna eat the Kouchie fan all

0:45:21.239 --> 0:45:23.560
<v Speaker 1>because I choose the style and sneakers and some baggy

0:45:23.600 --> 0:45:25.920
<v Speaker 1>pants used to make me aggie. You want to blackout

0:45:26.000 --> 0:45:26.799
<v Speaker 1>like the Aggie fans.

0:45:27.080 --> 0:45:27.600
<v Speaker 2>I heard that line.

0:45:27.600 --> 0:45:30.920
<v Speaker 4>I thought about not yo, of course you did.

0:45:32.400 --> 0:45:36.239
<v Speaker 3>You. Of course you did the same, same, same, That's

0:45:36.280 --> 0:45:40.120
<v Speaker 3>what I'm yo. I'd be like, it's like if you

0:45:40.200 --> 0:45:42.920
<v Speaker 3>dress like this, oh you do not like men because

0:45:42.960 --> 0:45:46.239
<v Speaker 3>you're not catering to men of what we think or

0:45:46.280 --> 0:45:48.480
<v Speaker 3>what we think men want to be catered to, and

0:45:48.520 --> 0:45:51.000
<v Speaker 3>now the conversation I'll be seeing men having it, like yo,

0:45:51.520 --> 0:45:53.799
<v Speaker 3>we miss having some imagination about it.

0:45:53.560 --> 0:45:54.319
<v Speaker 4>Do you hear me?

0:45:54.600 --> 0:45:57.440
<v Speaker 7>That's why I'm like, Yo, Y're gonna show us everything

0:45:57.840 --> 0:46:01.200
<v Speaker 7>somewhere listening to the man if with these new you know,

0:46:01.560 --> 0:46:04.960
<v Speaker 7>newer brands of women are trying to uppeal the men

0:46:05.040 --> 0:46:07.759
<v Speaker 7>all the time, listen to them. They don't always want

0:46:07.760 --> 0:46:10.319
<v Speaker 7>to get online and see titties and are listening and

0:46:10.400 --> 0:46:12.520
<v Speaker 7>misplace belly buttons and all that, Like they.

0:46:12.440 --> 0:46:14.800
<v Speaker 3>Don't want to see that all the time.

0:46:15.000 --> 0:46:22.040
<v Speaker 7>Like I'd rather not even see a stomachies.

0:46:19.480 --> 0:46:21.920
<v Speaker 4>Like you know what I'm saying.

0:46:22.800 --> 0:46:24.880
<v Speaker 3>I feel like more.

0:46:25.120 --> 0:46:29.400
<v Speaker 6>Difficult to be taken seriously when you were trying, like

0:46:29.480 --> 0:46:31.319
<v Speaker 6>if they're focused on trying to get with me or

0:46:31.320 --> 0:46:33.600
<v Speaker 6>trying to bag me or like you know what I mean.

0:46:33.680 --> 0:46:35.120
<v Speaker 5>So I would rather just be the bro.

0:46:35.480 --> 0:46:37.640
<v Speaker 6>I rather look at me and just want to push

0:46:37.680 --> 0:46:40.040
<v Speaker 6>me forward to what I'm actually trying to achieve.

0:46:40.120 --> 0:46:41.000
<v Speaker 5>And you're trying to.

0:46:41.320 --> 0:46:45.520
<v Speaker 7>Be the sexiest ever, like when you are out of bro,

0:46:45.880 --> 0:46:49.800
<v Speaker 7>but when you are like in your most natural element,

0:46:50.000 --> 0:46:51.839
<v Speaker 7>like you know what I'm saying, You're not caked up,

0:46:51.920 --> 0:46:55.239
<v Speaker 7>You're not like that is naturally pretty to me, Like

0:46:55.480 --> 0:46:58.600
<v Speaker 7>you naturally pretty to me. That's how I dress on stage.

0:46:58.840 --> 0:47:02.680
<v Speaker 7>And I can bake anything in the show, you know,

0:47:02.800 --> 0:47:05.160
<v Speaker 7>but they want me to be a stud real bad.

0:47:05.640 --> 0:47:11.040
<v Speaker 5>You know what I'm saying, shut up.

0:47:13.280 --> 0:47:15.440
<v Speaker 2>Showing three four to cloth. That was showing your stuff off,

0:47:15.800 --> 0:47:16.319
<v Speaker 2>Like that was.

0:47:19.080 --> 0:47:23.040
<v Speaker 3>You fly as hell. I'm gonna affirm that to you.

0:47:23.440 --> 0:47:25.880
<v Speaker 3>And yeah, and it's it's not even just in music.

0:47:26.080 --> 0:47:29.120
<v Speaker 3>Like I hear women in the business they say, like

0:47:29.200 --> 0:47:31.719
<v Speaker 3>I sometimes I cover up just so I can go

0:47:31.719 --> 0:47:33.319
<v Speaker 3>in the meeting. We can have a straight on meeting.

0:47:34.120 --> 0:47:36.719
<v Speaker 3>I ain't about to do that. But yeah, it's just

0:47:36.760 --> 0:47:41.880
<v Speaker 3>like everything is a full displays. Like you know, I

0:47:42.000 --> 0:47:44.680
<v Speaker 3>like to I like to have you guessing, like you know,

0:47:45.120 --> 0:47:47.160
<v Speaker 3>the days we do want to pop out and be.

0:47:47.080 --> 0:47:50.680
<v Speaker 5>Like damn, like yeah, let that reaction.

0:47:52.360 --> 0:47:56.360
<v Speaker 3>So it's you know, it's yeah, and it's not comfortable.

0:47:56.360 --> 0:47:59.200
<v Speaker 3>I like to be comfortable and just be real with them.

0:47:59.239 --> 0:47:59.799
<v Speaker 3>Hills hurt my.

0:48:00.520 --> 0:48:03.440
<v Speaker 6>But you know, also it's like a weird it's a

0:48:03.480 --> 0:48:06.440
<v Speaker 6>weird like social pressure because it's like, all right, in

0:48:06.480 --> 0:48:09.120
<v Speaker 6>the workplace, you got to be respected, but then like

0:48:09.160 --> 0:48:11.720
<v Speaker 6>with your homegirls, you know, you still want to embrace

0:48:11.719 --> 0:48:14.680
<v Speaker 6>your into femininity. But then you know, with a black household,

0:48:14.719 --> 0:48:17.360
<v Speaker 6>it's like, whatever you do, don't be a whole, don't

0:48:17.400 --> 0:48:19.320
<v Speaker 6>look like a whole, don't embarrass me like a whole,

0:48:19.320 --> 0:48:21.200
<v Speaker 6>don't do anything, you know what I mean. So it's

0:48:21.239 --> 0:48:25.040
<v Speaker 6>just like, all right, how do I juggle not embarrassing you,

0:48:25.120 --> 0:48:28.279
<v Speaker 6>but being myself but still embracing like my femininity that

0:48:28.320 --> 0:48:30.880
<v Speaker 6>I'm growing into, you know. So I like how you

0:48:30.880 --> 0:48:33.799
<v Speaker 6>talk about it, because it is a journey, you know,

0:48:33.920 --> 0:48:39.839
<v Speaker 6>to get through. No, but just don't act like black parents,

0:48:39.840 --> 0:48:43.279
<v Speaker 6>because I'm sure you just to like, I'm sure it's

0:48:43.320 --> 0:48:47.040
<v Speaker 6>too short change not yet.

0:48:47.080 --> 0:48:48.200
<v Speaker 2>I haven't had to say that yet.

0:48:48.440 --> 0:48:49.359
<v Speaker 5>No, yeah, it's coming.

0:48:49.360 --> 0:48:55.799
<v Speaker 6>It's in your back pocket, I know.

0:48:53.960 --> 0:48:57.560
<v Speaker 1>To say, that's how people are going to perceive.

0:48:57.840 --> 0:49:00.520
<v Speaker 6>Yeah, I think you're gonna I think, no, you you're

0:49:00.520 --> 0:49:02.480
<v Speaker 6>gonna jump out the window and say you're dressed like

0:49:02.480 --> 0:49:07.759
<v Speaker 6>a whole. Say you know what, baby, I don't want

0:49:07.760 --> 0:49:11.040
<v Speaker 6>you to think your whole, but you know, other people, Yes.

0:49:10.680 --> 0:49:16.319
<v Speaker 1>That's it's how I dress. I would say something like that,

0:49:16.480 --> 0:49:18.560
<v Speaker 1>you know, but that's not a part of him.

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<v Speaker 3>No, no, no, no, no, No, I don't think so. No.

0:49:23.239 --> 0:49:26.120
<v Speaker 6>I was just saying, like all the pressures from different

0:49:26.160 --> 0:49:28.600
<v Speaker 6>capacities and then trying to balance it and figure out

0:49:28.600 --> 0:49:30.160
<v Speaker 6>who you are throughout that.

0:49:31.000 --> 0:49:33.880
<v Speaker 4>Because you want to be respected. You want to be respected.

0:49:34.239 --> 0:49:38.040
<v Speaker 7>Even the women who don't, I mean, like who go

0:49:38.120 --> 0:49:40.760
<v Speaker 7>to extra out of show all, they want to be respected.

0:49:41.040 --> 0:49:43.759
<v Speaker 7>They just want to fit in so bad, you know,

0:49:43.840 --> 0:49:47.040
<v Speaker 7>and keep up with what you know they think is

0:49:47.080 --> 0:49:47.759
<v Speaker 7>the standard.

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<v Speaker 4>You know what I'm saying. But they just be wanting

0:49:49.800 --> 0:49:50.280
<v Speaker 4>in respect.

0:49:50.440 --> 0:49:53.560
<v Speaker 6>But you know, it's hard to have both. You know, women,

0:49:53.680 --> 0:49:55.880
<v Speaker 6>it's hard to have attention and respect.

0:49:57.200 --> 0:49:57.719
<v Speaker 5>It's hard to.

0:49:57.680 --> 0:49:59.839
<v Speaker 6>Get attention and respect at the same time.

0:50:00.239 --> 0:50:02.680
<v Speaker 5>It's like you got to pick. Well, that's how I feel.

0:50:02.680 --> 0:50:03.760
<v Speaker 5>What do you think.

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<v Speaker 3>I think it's it's easy. You just have to know

0:50:06.800 --> 0:50:09.759
<v Speaker 3>who you are and show up as that confidently. You

0:50:09.800 --> 0:50:13.880
<v Speaker 3>know people people can see that and they respect it

0:50:13.880 --> 0:50:16.880
<v Speaker 3>and they attracted to it. That's what I think.

0:50:17.120 --> 0:50:21.279
<v Speaker 7>You know, Like, it's not I need to be respected

0:50:22.120 --> 0:50:25.400
<v Speaker 7>straight off the rep you know. And and what was

0:50:25.440 --> 0:50:28.600
<v Speaker 7>that when you said and it's a girl, big attention

0:50:28.719 --> 0:50:29.320
<v Speaker 7>with respect.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, I just said that the same.

0:50:32.600 --> 0:50:36.680
<v Speaker 6>There are some people who might show a lot more

0:50:36.719 --> 0:50:37.800
<v Speaker 6>and get a lot more.

0:50:37.640 --> 0:50:41.040
<v Speaker 3>To what kind of attention I guess is the question

0:50:41.160 --> 0:50:43.320
<v Speaker 3>that's true. You know what I'm saying, what type of

0:50:43.400 --> 0:50:47.480
<v Speaker 3>attention are you looking for? And that that changes the answer. Yeah,

0:50:47.600 --> 0:50:48.040
<v Speaker 3>good point.

0:50:48.800 --> 0:50:52.080
<v Speaker 4>Very excited about your packaging. Your promotion is crazy.

0:50:52.920 --> 0:50:55.520
<v Speaker 7>Always got a creative way to appeal to your fans,

0:50:55.600 --> 0:50:59.280
<v Speaker 7>like when she does past the and she we always

0:50:59.280 --> 0:51:01.240
<v Speaker 7>have your music show. We're saying it was like show

0:51:01.560 --> 0:51:03.919
<v Speaker 7>tell us, like little creative ways that you be like.

0:51:05.600 --> 0:51:06.359
<v Speaker 4>Like that one time.

0:51:06.600 --> 0:51:09.879
<v Speaker 7>Yeah, like the shirt, Yeah, the T shirt. Like I'm like, okay,

0:51:09.960 --> 0:51:12.560
<v Speaker 7>that's creative. Shiit she that's dope. That's how you really

0:51:12.640 --> 0:51:14.799
<v Speaker 7>know who youre connected to as well, like your fans

0:51:14.840 --> 0:51:15.840
<v Speaker 7>are really loyal to you.

0:51:15.920 --> 0:51:18.120
<v Speaker 3>It's one of my favorite things about putting out an album,

0:51:18.400 --> 0:51:20.680
<v Speaker 3>Like the music is of course, but then it's like,

0:51:20.719 --> 0:51:22.920
<v Speaker 3>all right, that part is fun, like with how we

0:51:23.040 --> 0:51:26.759
<v Speaker 3>gonna roll this out with this one. I watched the

0:51:26.880 --> 0:51:29.360
<v Speaker 3>movie Air. I don't know if you've seen it. No,

0:51:29.560 --> 0:51:33.120
<v Speaker 3>it's it's about yeah, it's about yesterday.

0:51:33.200 --> 0:51:33.680
<v Speaker 4>I'm sorry.

0:51:33.800 --> 0:51:37.239
<v Speaker 3>I was so inspired by the branding and marketing of it,

0:51:37.320 --> 0:51:39.040
<v Speaker 3>and it was just like it ain't about the shoe

0:51:39.080 --> 0:51:41.319
<v Speaker 3>it's about the person wearing the shoe. I was like,

0:51:41.800 --> 0:51:43.400
<v Speaker 3>I called the team. I was like, I want to

0:51:43.480 --> 0:51:45.520
<v Speaker 3>roll this out like a Nike ad for a shoe,

0:51:45.680 --> 0:51:48.319
<v Speaker 3>but with the album, how we gonna do that? And

0:51:48.400 --> 0:51:50.239
<v Speaker 3>you know, we really want it again, Like I was

0:51:50.280 --> 0:51:52.880
<v Speaker 3>in the place of like free, like I'm not worried

0:51:52.880 --> 0:51:55.560
<v Speaker 3>about Billboard or nothing like that. It's just like, let's

0:51:55.600 --> 0:51:59.000
<v Speaker 3>just focus on the fan base. So you know, we

0:51:59.160 --> 0:52:01.400
<v Speaker 3>just made them up part of it, and we just

0:52:01.480 --> 0:52:04.520
<v Speaker 3>told the story from that way, just being organic and

0:52:04.560 --> 0:52:07.279
<v Speaker 3>the ideas were just flowing. My mind worked like that.

0:52:07.360 --> 0:52:10.400
<v Speaker 3>I can't explain it. But yeah, I'm glad people are

0:52:10.400 --> 0:52:11.359
<v Speaker 3>being filmed too.

0:52:12.640 --> 0:52:14.359
<v Speaker 4>I can see that. Yeah, thank you.

0:52:14.480 --> 0:52:17.120
<v Speaker 1>I just guys, got a couple more questions. I love

0:52:17.200 --> 0:52:19.600
<v Speaker 1>to stand tall record and I understand Tall records. You

0:52:19.640 --> 0:52:22.759
<v Speaker 1>talk about the challenges of living with anxiety, yeah, and

0:52:23.360 --> 0:52:26.320
<v Speaker 1>the difficulty in finding effective solutions because you even mentioned

0:52:26.320 --> 0:52:29.840
<v Speaker 1>how the doctors struggled to identify what was what was

0:52:29.880 --> 0:52:31.839
<v Speaker 1>even your issue here?

0:52:32.320 --> 0:52:36.000
<v Speaker 3>Well, they identified it, I just didn't accept it. It

0:52:36.080 --> 0:52:39.320
<v Speaker 3>was a journey. Like I have Graves disease and thyroid

0:52:39.360 --> 0:52:43.000
<v Speaker 3>disease and I was diagnosed in two thousand and nine ten.

0:52:43.080 --> 0:52:47.000
<v Speaker 3>But before that, probably from when I graduated high school

0:52:47.080 --> 0:52:52.640
<v Speaker 3>uptil maybe I was late twenties. I would wake up

0:52:52.840 --> 0:52:56.080
<v Speaker 3>out of my sleep running for the door, like because

0:52:56.120 --> 0:52:58.160
<v Speaker 3>I felt like, I like, I can't breathe, I'm about

0:52:58.160 --> 0:53:00.000
<v Speaker 3>to die. Somebody gonna find me because I'm not about

0:53:00.080 --> 0:53:03.000
<v Speaker 3>lay in his bed like. I would just get anxious,

0:53:03.080 --> 0:53:05.200
<v Speaker 3>and it got worse and worse, and it was one

0:53:05.280 --> 0:53:09.160
<v Speaker 3>day I just I had lost like fifteen pounds. I

0:53:09.160 --> 0:53:11.040
<v Speaker 3>got down to one hundred and ten pounds. It wasn't

0:53:11.080 --> 0:53:15.400
<v Speaker 3>exercise and eating whatever I wanted, having more panic attacks,

0:53:15.440 --> 0:53:19.279
<v Speaker 3>and so I was diagnosed. And I used to think

0:53:19.320 --> 0:53:22.560
<v Speaker 3>the anxiety came from there. They'd be like, don't drink caffeine,

0:53:22.719 --> 0:53:25.120
<v Speaker 3>you know, to make it right. And I'm doing all

0:53:25.120 --> 0:53:27.120
<v Speaker 3>these yeah, and I'm doing all these things, and I'm

0:53:27.239 --> 0:53:29.799
<v Speaker 3>you know, I'm still getting anxious. Like now, it's just

0:53:29.880 --> 0:53:32.080
<v Speaker 3>not at night. I could just be driving somewhere and

0:53:32.120 --> 0:53:35.040
<v Speaker 3>it would just hit me. And you know, when you

0:53:35.040 --> 0:53:39.520
<v Speaker 3>have anxiety, if you feel like you're really about to die, yes,

0:53:39.600 --> 0:53:42.719
<v Speaker 3>I would go to yard, called it the ambulance, and

0:53:42.760 --> 0:53:44.680
<v Speaker 3>they'd be like, nothing's wrong with you. Go take a

0:53:44.760 --> 0:53:48.400
<v Speaker 3>tones's gas or it's just anxiety. Do you want anxiety medication?

0:53:48.480 --> 0:53:50.840
<v Speaker 3>I'd be like, no, I'm not taking that. And it

0:53:50.880 --> 0:53:53.080
<v Speaker 3>got to a point where it was just like I

0:53:53.120 --> 0:53:55.280
<v Speaker 3>have to that doesn't work. So I had to figure

0:53:55.280 --> 0:53:57.720
<v Speaker 3>out a way to calm myself down instead of working

0:53:57.760 --> 0:54:00.799
<v Speaker 3>on myself mentally. It would be like I'm gonna drive

0:54:00.880 --> 0:54:02.640
<v Speaker 3>to the ear. I'm gonna just sit in the parking

0:54:02.680 --> 0:54:05.440
<v Speaker 3>lot until I calm down. Because for me, it was like,

0:54:05.480 --> 0:54:09.040
<v Speaker 3>at least if it's really something happening, you're right there.

0:54:10.080 --> 0:54:14.000
<v Speaker 3>So I would do these things. And a friend of

0:54:14.040 --> 0:54:16.600
<v Speaker 3>mine they were like they were with me when I

0:54:16.600 --> 0:54:18.440
<v Speaker 3>had a panic attack on time, and they were like,

0:54:18.480 --> 0:54:21.400
<v Speaker 3>it's nothing's happening to you. You don't understand how strong

0:54:21.480 --> 0:54:25.279
<v Speaker 3>and powerful your mind is. You're creating that, like when

0:54:25.320 --> 0:54:29.759
<v Speaker 3>you think about it, you create physical responses. And you know,

0:54:29.840 --> 0:54:33.000
<v Speaker 3>I sat with him. I'm just you know, they sent

0:54:33.120 --> 0:54:35.800
<v Speaker 3>me youtubes and I watch youtubes about it. Your mind

0:54:35.840 --> 0:54:39.399
<v Speaker 3>is powerful, solid. First I had to accept that, right,

0:54:39.440 --> 0:54:42.040
<v Speaker 3>and I think once you accept it, then you gain

0:54:42.120 --> 0:54:45.520
<v Speaker 3>your power back. So I haven't had a panic attack

0:54:45.640 --> 0:54:49.320
<v Speaker 3>since probably mid twenty twenty. And it was not only

0:54:49.520 --> 0:54:52.880
<v Speaker 3>getting my mind right and elevating my consciousness and awareness.

0:54:52.920 --> 0:54:55.560
<v Speaker 3>I was exercising every day. I changed my diet. I

0:54:55.560 --> 0:54:57.960
<v Speaker 3>stopped eating pork. I don't eat beef for maybe like

0:54:58.080 --> 0:55:02.080
<v Speaker 3>once or twice a year, you know, drinking a lot

0:55:02.160 --> 0:55:05.520
<v Speaker 3>more water. And now I can feel one coming on,

0:55:05.800 --> 0:55:08.239
<v Speaker 3>but it don't even get there because I already tell

0:55:08.320 --> 0:55:11.440
<v Speaker 3>myself what's happening, and it don't even affect. Yeah, so

0:55:11.640 --> 0:55:13.040
<v Speaker 3>I haven't had one since.

0:55:13.600 --> 0:55:15.080
<v Speaker 2>That's why you said in the rap. You can believe

0:55:15.120 --> 0:55:15.720
<v Speaker 2>what you choose.

0:55:15.920 --> 0:55:19.120
<v Speaker 3>Yep ye. You create your own experiences.

0:55:19.640 --> 0:55:22.480
<v Speaker 2>And I just noticed this we eat, we eat each other,

0:55:22.520 --> 0:55:23.120
<v Speaker 2>that's your label.

0:55:25.680 --> 0:55:26.520
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I.

0:55:28.520 --> 0:55:34.960
<v Speaker 3>Wasn't ready to announce it.

0:55:35.080 --> 0:55:36.480
<v Speaker 2>Each other Jambling rock Nation.

0:55:36.600 --> 0:55:39.600
<v Speaker 3>I'm like, oh yeah, artist.

0:55:43.239 --> 0:55:45.920
<v Speaker 2>Album, right, yeah, but.

0:55:46.040 --> 0:55:50.840
<v Speaker 3>It's okay, it's now. I could still have my moment

0:55:50.960 --> 0:55:54.880
<v Speaker 3>when that time comes. But yes, I started. This is

0:55:54.920 --> 0:55:59.880
<v Speaker 3>my last album on Jamling Records, and that's my family forever.

0:56:00.000 --> 0:56:01.600
<v Speaker 3>But it got to a point where I felt like,

0:56:02.320 --> 0:56:04.840
<v Speaker 3>you know, I've learned so much. I feel like I

0:56:04.960 --> 0:56:07.799
<v Speaker 3>reached the ceiling. And it's like you leave the nest

0:56:07.920 --> 0:56:10.320
<v Speaker 3>many times over in life. You know, you get eighteen,

0:56:10.440 --> 0:56:12.440
<v Speaker 3>leave the home, you leave the nest, and I feel

0:56:12.440 --> 0:56:14.520
<v Speaker 3>like you do it many times over. So you know,

0:56:14.560 --> 0:56:16.919
<v Speaker 3>I told going Knife, I was like, I think it's

0:56:16.960 --> 0:56:19.719
<v Speaker 3>time for me, you know, to try this on my own.

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<v Speaker 3>So I have a business partner, Andre Mego, who's also

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<v Speaker 3>an artist, and our first artist that we signed together

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<v Speaker 3>is Nico brim Nao love it. Yeah, So I'm excited to,

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<v Speaker 3>you know, introduce that more to the world.

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<v Speaker 5>That's why he got his own interlude on the projects.

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<v Speaker 3>While he has project Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Well big ceo rap you know what I mean. It's

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<v Speaker 1>a pleasure. Thank you for your time as always.

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<v Speaker 3>Thank you, Thank y'all for making space for me, thank

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<v Speaker 3>you for always saying my name your like. I appreciate the.

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<v Speaker 2>Love absolutely, Please don't cry.

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<v Speaker 1>It's out right now and it's rhap City y'all. It's

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<v Speaker 1>the Breakfast Club.