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Speaker 1: Yep, the world's most dangerous morning show, The Breakfast Club.

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Speaker 1: Charlamagne the God DJ Envy is not here, but we

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Speaker 1: got a Nihilis and Moon just hilarious of course, and

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Speaker 1: we got the greatest lyricists in the world whose name

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Speaker 1: is not Kendrick Lamar Rat.

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Speaker 2: New album, Please Don't Cry? How are You.

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Speaker 3: Excited?

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Speaker 4: Look good? And thank you?

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Speaker 1: Okay, we got to get into it first before we

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Speaker 1: started talking about your album.

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Speaker 2: Kendrick and Drake. Come on, Kendrick, easy call.

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Speaker 3: It's so easy. I could do it my eyes closed.

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Speaker 1: Kendrick, what what causes an MC to win a rap battle?

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Speaker 1: Because you're an m C MC, So what causes an

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Speaker 1: MC to win a rap battle?

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Speaker 3: You gotta have strategy, right, I tell people it's like

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Speaker 3: the art of war. You got to know who you're

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Speaker 3: going against. And for this case in particular, the type

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Speaker 3: of person that Kendrick is. You know he's strategic. Like

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Speaker 3: if he goes quiet, you should know that he's cooking.

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Speaker 3: But you gotta have the right beats. You know, your

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Speaker 3: bar has got to be up. Your performance is a thing,

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Speaker 3: like I think all of those things matter. And the

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Speaker 3: thing that I like that he did, he gave you.

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Speaker 3: He cooked that boy so many different ways. Like I said,

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Speaker 3: he baked them, he stir fried them, that grilled him,

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Speaker 3: like he marinated a little bit. Like he gave you stories.

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Speaker 3: He gave you a banger, He gave you the classic

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Speaker 3: hip hop bar. Joint was however you want it, I

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Speaker 3: got it for you. And you know, he anything, Drake said.

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Speaker 3: He came back and was like he just didn't have rooms.

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Speaker 3: It's like when you're boxing somebody on you can't get

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Speaker 3: your arms.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, I really love that.

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Speaker 6: Char always used a parallel of you and Kendrick when

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Speaker 6: it comes to rap in the current state of rap

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Speaker 6: right now, just like the Complexion record, I feel like

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Speaker 6: that was also like a great introduction to a bigger

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Speaker 6: audience for you as well. But I feel like it's

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Speaker 6: a little weird because I would love to see that

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Speaker 6: from Cold just because y'allvote from the Carolina US, you

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Speaker 6: know what, Like what is what's that dynamic?

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Speaker 3: Me and Cole? Yeah, like working together like that, y'all

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Speaker 3: did a record, Yeah we did sojourn.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, covers phenomenal.

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Speaker 5: But yes, yes, yes, Rob Washington, Yes, yes, yes.

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Speaker 3: I think it's your preference because you know, I see

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Speaker 3: some people like Cole and I'm just like, I ain't

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Speaker 3: mad at either way. You know, we got all what

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Speaker 3: you say, like why we don't work together more. Yes,

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Speaker 3: I think it's just like the town. Yeah, I don't

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Speaker 3: know Kendrick. Kendrick since the beginning. He's always been the

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Speaker 3: one to come to the studio early in the days. Like,

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Speaker 3: I just had a friendship with him earlier. I had

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Speaker 3: his number longer, like we text as, So the friendship

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Speaker 3: was just there. Even though he from the West Coast,

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Speaker 3: when he would come down to North Carolina, they would

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Speaker 3: always bring the tour bus bar you know. So you

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Speaker 3: know Cole was in New York. You know, I just

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Speaker 3: didn't see him that much.

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Speaker 5: So it's a relationship.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, it's just real relationships. It ain't nothing funny. But

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Speaker 3: call I think coaches moved back to NC maybe like

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Speaker 3: around the pandemic time. Okay, so that's just he really

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Speaker 3: wasn't in the proximity for me to have a relationship.

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Speaker 2: You have. You and Kendrick ever performed Complexion and Power together.

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Speaker 3: One time he did that short tour run remember, but

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Speaker 3: to Butterfly. He was doing those smaller venues, intimate spots

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Speaker 3: for him and we did it in DC.

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Speaker 1: The reason I'm glad we started the conversation like this

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Speaker 1: because I'm trying to set the stage for how Dope

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Speaker 1: Rhapsody is for those who still don't know.

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Speaker 2: Like your peers, the mcs MC's hold you in high regard.

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Speaker 2: That's why they do these type of records with you.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, and everybody says like you bring the best out

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Speaker 3: of them. I'm just you really do you know? It's

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Speaker 3: a beautiful, healthy competition.

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Speaker 6: I think your features that are on all your projects,

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Speaker 6: from Layla's Wisdom down to this latest one, from like

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Speaker 6: a Black Thought to an Eric Kobad to working with

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Speaker 6: Hip Boy, It's like the quality is just different.

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Speaker 3: You know.

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Speaker 5: When you tap into an album like this.

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Speaker 3: It's you know, I'm creating. It's about the music, Like

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Speaker 3: the music is the biggest ego in the room. And

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Speaker 3: I think when you approach it from that point of view,

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Speaker 4: You know.

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Speaker 3: It makes it fun and exciting, you know, even on

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Speaker 3: Complexion like you going there like y'all, I gotta I

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Speaker 3: gotta meet they level. Even with the Wayne Joint on

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Speaker 3: the album, I wrote my versal.

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Speaker 5: Yo, I wrote my vers that one.

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Speaker 6: I feel like for a hip hop purists, that's the

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Speaker 6: best one on there.

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Speaker 5: I love that record.

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Speaker 3: I did, and I'm not afraid to say that at all,

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Speaker 3: like the first time I ever did that. But I

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Speaker 3: sent it to him first, and I was just approaching

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Speaker 3: it like I was trying to grow and like, I

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Speaker 3: don't have to be so lyrical. I want to do

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Speaker 3: it's not dumb down, Like it's still me, but it's

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Speaker 3: not like just more relaxed. Yeah, when I got his

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Speaker 3: verse back, I was like, nah, I gotta I gotta

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Speaker 3: match his level of raw, Like I gotta match it.

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Speaker 3: So I was like, no, I can't. I can't get

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Speaker 4: What do you say when you rewrote it?

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Speaker 3: He said, I just sent it back to him. I

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Speaker 3: was like, I rewrote it. I said, I took your

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Speaker 3: flow and I just put my words to it. I

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Speaker 3: just want to let you know what you think. Send

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Speaker 3: me fire emojis.

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Speaker 1: And the wild thing about this project is called please

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Speaker 1: Don't Cry. Yeah, what ironically, throughout the album, all you're

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Speaker 1: doing is giving us stuff to.

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Speaker 7: Cry about, Like what is that about?

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Speaker 3: That's that's the point. It was like the title got

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Speaker 3: a realer man. It's about like I was never one

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Speaker 3: to show my emotion in public, or you know we

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Speaker 3: grow up maybe men, especially what you're crying about. But

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Speaker 3: it's really about allowing yourself to be human. Why you

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Speaker 3: should cry, all the reasons you should cry. Don't cry

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Speaker 3: just because you're sad. Cry because it's something so funny

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Speaker 3: you laugh until you cry, or you so in love,

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Speaker 3: you know, like are you joyful or you angry? Like

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Speaker 3: I I cry when I'm mad because if I don't,

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Speaker 3: I'm gonna say someone or do something that I'm gonna regret.

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Speaker 3: So I'm gonna just let it come out to tears,

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Speaker 3: Like allow yourself to just be human. I don't think

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Speaker 3: we do that enough, especially in a day with social media.

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Speaker 3: It's perfection, perfection in your face all day, like the

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Speaker 3: highlight reel. But where's the raw stuff? So you got

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Speaker 3: to remind people like you human.

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Speaker 2: You're giving people permission the only feelings.

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Speaker 6: Absolutely for the record, Rhapsody isn't Aquarius, So you know.

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Speaker 3: To aquarium your birthday February thirteen, Okay, in February Quarious

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Speaker 3: January twenty first, querious.

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Speaker 6: They have a hard time showing emotion like you guys

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Speaker 6: have a face and y'all will keep that poker face

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Speaker 6: so strong.

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Speaker 5: So that's why I think this is a great See I've.

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Speaker 3: I've been healing. Yeah, healing.

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Speaker 1: It's not real because whenever she upset and t it off,

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Speaker 1: I say something to me and I'm really come back

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Speaker 1: to her like you're just gonna say that to me,

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Speaker 1: like I don't know what's really going on.

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Speaker 3: Oh no, he knows me.

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Speaker 7: Yeah, yeah, that's yeah, that's the good thing. But I

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Speaker 7: really don't show my emotions. He will make you show them. Yes,

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Speaker 7: you know what I'm saying, especially if he knows you.

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Speaker 7: You know, and that's honestly a cancer.

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Speaker 5: Yes, yeah.

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Speaker 1: Text the other day she responded back, okay, and so

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Speaker 1: I texted back, I said, you think I didn't.

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Speaker 2: You think I didn't. I don't know.

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Speaker 1: You rolled your eyes and stuff your teeth. I know

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Speaker 1: when you read this that's what you did.

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Speaker 5: Y'are Aquarius. But ain't nothing wrong with it.

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Speaker 3: I know.

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Speaker 6: On the first single that you released for the album Asteroids,

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Speaker 6: you talked about how you almost wanted to step away

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Speaker 3: It was a thought.

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Speaker 5: Yeah that broke my heart. Yeah, why it was.

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Speaker 3: I was just at a place like I was just

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Speaker 3: seeing the music business and everything that was in front

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Speaker 3: what I'm saying, Like I don't know if people care.

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Speaker 3: And it's like I could do music by myself, Like

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Speaker 3: I don't even have to play this game. I want

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Speaker 3: to get into the film world anyway. But I love

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Speaker 3: it too much. I got too much purpose in it.

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Speaker 3: And you know hip hop likes to aid you out.

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Speaker 7: So what helped you get over that part of it?

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Speaker 7: Because I can imagine you don't feel that way now?

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Speaker 4: You better not.

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Speaker 3: You gotta you have to unplug from the matrix, right

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Speaker 3: And you look at it and you like, I feel

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Speaker 3: this way cause I'm trying to validate myself through all

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Speaker 3: these other things that everybody like, Yo, why don't why

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Speaker 3: aren't you know, why don't I get this award? Or

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Speaker 3: why I'm not in this space or these same spaces

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Speaker 3: to do it. You know, it's like, what are you

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Speaker 3: like to connect with people and make music to inspire people.

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Speaker 3: So do that. Anything else is a blessing.

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Speaker 4: Yeah.

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Speaker 2: So how did you feel last year? I mean it's

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Speaker 2: still going on now.

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Speaker 1: Last year it was like this thing where it was

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Speaker 1: like female rappers are keeping hip hop alive, Female.

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Speaker 2: Rappers are holding it down for hip hop.

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Speaker 1: But then when I look at the rappers, I'm like,

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Speaker 1: I don't think Rahap City fits in that.

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Speaker 2: How did you feel.

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Speaker 3: It's a unique physician. I think it's beautiful because it's

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Speaker 3: so many women. We never seen it like this on

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Speaker 3: exciting because you know women. I think it was like

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Speaker 3: that's beautiful for the space and women, but it's still

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Speaker 3: not enough variety and harmony when you look at it.

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Speaker 3: So it's like, but you know, we still got a

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Speaker 7: And then like, if you're trying to appeal to men,

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Speaker 4: I was guess who saying he would bring you up

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Speaker 7: It will always bring you up, big supporter, you're Yeah,

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Speaker 7: but I always heard about you from men like you

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Speaker 4: Fan base and they like to hear you spit that shit.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, and that's crazy because I would I tell people that,

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Speaker 3: Like I would see comments they be like, if y'all

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Speaker 3: I was like, that's a great point. Is it really

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Speaker 2: Mm?

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Speaker 3: Because if but there's women that right their own, but

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Speaker 2: Let's just be realtriarchy.

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Speaker 3: It's still the patriarchy, Like, you know, we try to

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Speaker 3: it really empowering if it's not your story, if it's

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Speaker 3: But if you're doing it just because you feel like

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Speaker 3: this is what we gotta do to make it. That's

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Speaker 3: whack to me. You know, I don't feel like you

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Speaker 1: You think a woman can take off and wrap without

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I think, you know, we have so many resources

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Speaker 3: if you make great music. One thing Ninfe always told me,

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Speaker 3: don't matter if the music good is somebody gonna find

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Speaker 3: it eventually. But I think you can, like, but you

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Speaker 1: Because I always think about how dope it would have

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Speaker 2: You in that way. This thing, I think that goes

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Speaker 3: Sometimes no it does, and he has you know, Complexion

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Speaker 7: But yeah, and then a lot I mean, to be honest,

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Speaker 7: a lot of embracing from like, you know, older generations.

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Speaker 7: I noticed a lot of people like the embraced people

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Speaker 7: that can't touch them.

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Speaker 4: You get what I'm saying, Like.

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Speaker 7: They will embrace people that they know cannot touch them. Yeah,

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Speaker 7: beat them lyrically, can't even I'm just gonna throw you

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Speaker 7: in because you're popularity. You've got the big platform right now.

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Speaker 7: You would there what they want to be like, you're

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Speaker 4: All already cool.

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Speaker 7: So I'm gonna take you under my wing, you know

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Speaker 7: what I'm saying, just to keep me in the game.

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Speaker 3: Attached. But that's a real thing.

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Speaker 4: That's crazy.

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Speaker 5: It is a honor though, to be the bar.

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Speaker 6: I know, it's so like misweighted because it's like everybody else.

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Speaker 6: And then Rhapsody, you feel like a pressure at all

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Speaker 3: Nah pressure, No, only because it's real to me the

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Speaker 3: you know what I'm saying, Like I care the things

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Speaker 3: in that way I will say, like, sometimes I think about, like, yo,

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Speaker 3: And then I'd be like, yo, those are the times

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Speaker 3: enough for that. Who who's gonna be the voice to

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Speaker 3: make sure we talk about those things? So that part

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Speaker 5: Maybe give us a tape.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I started one really, Yeah, I explore you know,

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Speaker 5: Yeah, so you haven't shown this side either of No,

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Speaker 3: I started working on three albums at one time. Yeah.

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Speaker 3: I called Sherry. I was like, Sherry, that's the co

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Speaker 3: She was like, no, absolutely not. We have to give

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Speaker 1: Did this album should because I've heard you say that

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Speaker 1: this album has brought you the most peace you've ever seen.

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Speaker 1: How does the album this raw and vulnerabile bring you peace?

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Speaker 3: It brings me peace because it's it's the most me

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Speaker 3: I've ever been. I'm so fearless now again, like I'm

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Speaker 3: So that's like everybody's been asking me how you feel,

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Speaker 3: do this amount of numbers, like yo, what's good? If

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Speaker 3: we all do at some point.

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Speaker 7: any expectations. Charlemagne said it a lot about like his books, events,

436
00:20:33,040 --> 00:20:34,480
Speaker 7: all of that, like people. I will hear people that

437
00:20:34,600 --> 00:20:37,320
Speaker 7: are you excited about like the we just had the

438
00:20:37,359 --> 00:20:41,240
Speaker 7: second annual Black Effect Podcast Festival when Atlanta, and someone's

439
00:20:41,240 --> 00:20:42,160
Speaker 7: like you, are you excited?

440
00:20:42,280 --> 00:20:44,040
Speaker 4: He was like, I mean, I have no expectations.

441
00:20:44,040 --> 00:20:46,000
Speaker 7: It's either you know it was it was big, Like

442
00:20:46,080 --> 00:20:48,639
Speaker 7: it turned out big last year. It's gonna do that

443
00:20:48,680 --> 00:20:50,800
Speaker 7: this year. I mean, if it doesn't, it's like I

444
00:20:50,960 --> 00:20:54,360
Speaker 7: like to have that. I like that mindset. I'm trying

445
00:20:54,400 --> 00:20:58,320
Speaker 7: to get there. You can get the Girl's Coy show

446
00:20:58,920 --> 00:21:03,880
Speaker 7: like you're ready, I'm like, yeah, yeah, I'm always like that.

447
00:21:03,960 --> 00:21:05,040
Speaker 3: People love you for you.

448
00:21:05,359 --> 00:21:06,000
Speaker 2: Yeah.

449
00:21:06,040 --> 00:21:09,119
Speaker 3: And when you like really, I think take that in

450
00:21:09,160 --> 00:21:11,000
Speaker 3: and hone it. It's just like I just gotta go

451
00:21:11,040 --> 00:21:12,440
Speaker 3: up here and be myself.

452
00:21:13,119 --> 00:21:14,320
Speaker 4: And I ended up doing it.

453
00:21:14,640 --> 00:21:18,000
Speaker 7: I just can't ever be that calm before the show.

454
00:21:18,160 --> 00:21:20,840
Speaker 3: Is the nerve? Yeah, I think that's could just you

455
00:21:20,960 --> 00:21:23,640
Speaker 3: care though. Yeah, I still get like that before shows

456
00:21:25,280 --> 00:21:27,000
Speaker 3: normally when I go on to show too easy and

457
00:21:27,080 --> 00:21:29,840
Speaker 3: make me I'm like, yo, you too relaxed? Yeah, well

458
00:21:29,880 --> 00:21:32,800
Speaker 3: mess up, So that just shows you care. I don't

459
00:21:32,840 --> 00:21:33,600
Speaker 3: think that's too bad.

460
00:21:33,760 --> 00:21:37,480
Speaker 6: So what pushed you to the point of wanting to live,

461
00:21:38,000 --> 00:21:40,040
Speaker 6: you know, like this much in your truth and be

462
00:21:40,080 --> 00:21:40,919
Speaker 6: this transparent.

463
00:21:42,240 --> 00:21:48,000
Speaker 3: I wanted to grow, you know, I had gotten out

464
00:21:48,000 --> 00:21:51,560
Speaker 3: a relationship when I started this project and healing from that.

465
00:21:52,880 --> 00:21:58,919
Speaker 3: You you know, therapy, you realize it's never about the

466
00:21:59,000 --> 00:22:02,280
Speaker 3: person's about you you. So once you like start to

467
00:22:02,320 --> 00:22:04,720
Speaker 3: sit and ask yourself these questions trying to figure out

468
00:22:05,040 --> 00:22:07,919
Speaker 3: how to heal from the relationship. The relationship is over with.

469
00:22:08,040 --> 00:22:10,360
Speaker 3: It's just like, oh, what are the mirrors in front

470
00:22:10,359 --> 00:22:12,800
Speaker 3: of me? What are the things about me that make

471
00:22:12,880 --> 00:22:18,840
Speaker 3: me feel you know, incomplete or all the things? Why

472
00:22:18,920 --> 00:22:21,439
Speaker 3: do I act like this when this happens. So it

473
00:22:21,520 --> 00:22:23,480
Speaker 3: was like an onion. I was just peeling back, pelling back,

474
00:22:23,520 --> 00:22:24,520
Speaker 3: peeling back, and I.

475
00:22:24,400 --> 00:22:26,520
Speaker 2: Was just like crying, crying every time.

476
00:22:29,160 --> 00:22:33,240
Speaker 3: Year was crazy. Yeah, a lot of solitude, a lot

477
00:22:33,280 --> 00:22:37,080
Speaker 3: of tears, a lot of praying. And I have a

478
00:22:37,240 --> 00:22:42,320
Speaker 3: beautiful village. So my homegirls would tell me, like, yo,

479
00:22:42,840 --> 00:22:45,960
Speaker 3: you your next phase is you gotta let people see

480
00:22:46,000 --> 00:22:49,959
Speaker 3: you the human party. You gotta be vulnerable. And so

481
00:22:50,080 --> 00:22:54,480
Speaker 3: I love a good challenge. It was hard, uncomfortable, it

482
00:22:54,520 --> 00:22:57,720
Speaker 3: was not fun, but the other side is so beautiful.

483
00:22:58,200 --> 00:23:00,879
Speaker 3: So it's like that you really got to let yourself

484
00:23:01,119 --> 00:23:04,879
Speaker 3: sit in the fire and burn. And some days I

485
00:23:04,920 --> 00:23:06,760
Speaker 3: was like, man, am I gonna feel like this forever?

486
00:23:06,920 --> 00:23:07,720
Speaker 3: But now.

487
00:23:09,840 --> 00:23:12,800
Speaker 1: I was going to ask, like which specific experience led to,

488
00:23:12,920 --> 00:23:16,200
Speaker 1: like the journey of self exploration and self acceptance.

489
00:23:16,200 --> 00:23:19,160
Speaker 2: So it was a breakup. It's like my life album.

490
00:23:19,359 --> 00:23:30,320
Speaker 3: Yes, it's a lot of my life, alle pieces of it.

491
00:23:30,680 --> 00:23:34,360
Speaker 3: Your relationship was dope, though, Like I learned a lot

492
00:23:34,400 --> 00:23:38,040
Speaker 3: in a relationship about even how to begin this journey.

493
00:23:38,880 --> 00:23:41,080
Speaker 3: You know, they was back to back relationship. So I

494
00:23:41,119 --> 00:23:43,560
Speaker 3: got out of a long one, I had a little

495
00:23:43,640 --> 00:23:44,920
Speaker 3: time that got in another one.

496
00:23:45,359 --> 00:23:48,600
Speaker 2: But the second one was just a rebound, really.

497
00:23:53,280 --> 00:23:55,640
Speaker 3: You I mean, yes, that happened, but that that wasn't

498
00:23:55,680 --> 00:23:56,719
Speaker 3: my my experience.

499
00:23:56,920 --> 00:23:57,480
Speaker 4: It was.

500
00:23:59,320 --> 00:24:02,359
Speaker 3: The one the relationship that impacted me the most. I

501
00:24:03,040 --> 00:24:06,560
Speaker 3: wouldn't have become the person I am now without that relationship.

502
00:24:06,840 --> 00:24:10,320
Speaker 3: So they gave me like the starter pack tools you know,

503
00:24:10,440 --> 00:24:12,680
Speaker 3: to figure out. They say people come into your life

504
00:24:12,720 --> 00:24:16,640
Speaker 3: for a reason, season or lifetime, and there was definitely

505
00:24:16,680 --> 00:24:19,000
Speaker 3: reason in this. I think it could be multiple things.

506
00:24:19,520 --> 00:24:22,440
Speaker 3: So yeah, you know, but once it was like now

507
00:24:22,440 --> 00:24:24,280
Speaker 3: you're on your own, you by yourself.

508
00:24:24,359 --> 00:24:26,240
Speaker 1: I was like, oh, I gotta do the work work,

509
00:24:26,840 --> 00:24:29,320
Speaker 1: you know, is are you ready to answer those questions though,

510
00:24:29,320 --> 00:24:31,840
Speaker 1: because this album is going to be having people ask

511
00:24:31,880 --> 00:24:33,040
Speaker 1: a lot of questions.

512
00:24:32,640 --> 00:24:37,160
Speaker 3: About Yeah, some things that I shared, Yeah, yeah, some

513
00:24:37,240 --> 00:24:40,560
Speaker 3: things I'm okay with and some things I'm okay with,

514
00:24:40,760 --> 00:24:42,680
Speaker 3: like I gave you what I gave you, some things

515
00:24:42,680 --> 00:24:45,880
Speaker 3: a a metough, So you know, there's some things I'm

516
00:24:45,880 --> 00:24:48,119
Speaker 3: okay with talking about and as others. It's just like

517
00:24:48,880 --> 00:24:49,960
Speaker 3: you don't need to know the rest.

518
00:24:50,640 --> 00:24:55,360
Speaker 6: You talked about unplugging, and you also talk about it

519
00:24:55,520 --> 00:24:59,040
Speaker 6: on one of them days that you sampled Monica Bier sample.

520
00:24:59,200 --> 00:25:01,280
Speaker 6: I kind of wanted to know what was the inspiration

521
00:25:01,400 --> 00:25:03,520
Speaker 6: behind it. Did somebody like piss you off? And then

522
00:25:03,560 --> 00:25:05,760
Speaker 6: you heard the record and you kind of like went

523
00:25:05,880 --> 00:25:07,920
Speaker 6: to a daze, like talk to me about that?

524
00:25:08,520 --> 00:25:12,280
Speaker 3: Nah? It was like having my conversation with my homegirls.

525
00:25:12,800 --> 00:25:15,520
Speaker 3: She's my homegirl, ran a biddy, she was a poet

526
00:25:15,760 --> 00:25:18,800
Speaker 3: this stuff. On Eve she was texting me, she was

527
00:25:18,920 --> 00:25:21,680
Speaker 3: a list of things people need to know. What makes

528
00:25:21,720 --> 00:25:24,240
Speaker 3: you mad, what makes you sad? Who you in love with?

529
00:25:24,320 --> 00:25:25,879
Speaker 3: Do you like to have sex? Like she was?

530
00:25:25,960 --> 00:25:27,640
Speaker 2: I was like, right, when you have too many friends?

531
00:25:27,680 --> 00:25:30,440
Speaker 2: That you got too many friends? That's doing the works?

532
00:25:30,560 --> 00:25:37,440
Speaker 4: Come on now, why like how you.

533
00:25:38,119 --> 00:25:40,280
Speaker 3: I screenshot? And I was like, okay, So I'm in

534
00:25:40,320 --> 00:25:42,439
Speaker 3: the studio writing on the white board. I'm like, what

535
00:25:42,520 --> 00:25:45,360
Speaker 3: are all the things about me that people I want

536
00:25:45,400 --> 00:25:49,320
Speaker 3: to share? And now was just Aquarius like very you know,

537
00:25:49,560 --> 00:25:52,600
Speaker 3: personable person, but my social battery goes down really fast

538
00:25:52,640 --> 00:25:55,800
Speaker 3: and I don't want to be the don't call me

539
00:25:55,800 --> 00:25:57,360
Speaker 3: I want to talk you like that.

540
00:25:57,560 --> 00:25:58,359
Speaker 4: I'm very much like that.

541
00:25:58,359 --> 00:26:02,159
Speaker 7: I just had a conversation and they're like earlier in

542
00:26:02,160 --> 00:26:03,720
Speaker 7: this episode like no, I don't like.

543
00:26:05,840 --> 00:26:09,080
Speaker 3: It's turned off now. So it was just like, Okay,

544
00:26:09,119 --> 00:26:10,800
Speaker 3: that's a part of me that I want to share.

545
00:26:12,480 --> 00:26:15,760
Speaker 3: And especially too because of the pandemic, especially I spent

546
00:26:15,880 --> 00:26:18,679
Speaker 3: so much time by myself and I was healing and

547
00:26:18,720 --> 00:26:20,520
Speaker 3: my friends would hit me and I wouldn't probably would

548
00:26:20,600 --> 00:26:28,280
Speaker 3: hit them back for eight months and yeah like eight months, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

549
00:26:28,080 --> 00:26:29,160
Speaker 2: I was not quarantine.

550
00:26:31,240 --> 00:26:35,719
Speaker 3: Yeah like nah, you know or if I did it? Yeah, No,

551
00:26:36,000 --> 00:26:37,800
Speaker 3: I was not hitting people back. You had to be

552
00:26:37,880 --> 00:26:41,040
Speaker 3: like in a really really really close circle for me

553
00:26:41,080 --> 00:26:42,200
Speaker 3: to talk to you during that time.

554
00:26:42,320 --> 00:26:42,639
Speaker 4: Gotcha.

555
00:26:43,160 --> 00:26:46,640
Speaker 3: So and it was just like I heard the song,

556
00:26:46,720 --> 00:26:50,160
Speaker 3: so I was like, Yo, that's the perfect flip because

557
00:26:50,160 --> 00:26:53,040
Speaker 3: that's exactly how I feel like, don't take it personal.

558
00:26:53,480 --> 00:26:56,960
Speaker 3: It's not personally, it's a me thing. And that's where

559
00:26:56,960 --> 00:26:59,600
Speaker 3: that came from. Like I knew and I wanted it

560
00:26:59,640 --> 00:27:02,480
Speaker 3: to feel feel good and not sad, because the very

561
00:27:02,520 --> 00:27:06,399
Speaker 3: first version of this album was it was heavy and sad,

562
00:27:07,040 --> 00:27:08,639
Speaker 3: and I was like, I don't want to make something

563
00:27:08,680 --> 00:27:10,639
Speaker 3: that people can feel, but they don't want to go

564
00:27:10,720 --> 00:27:13,000
Speaker 3: back to it because it's too heavy. So it was like,

565
00:27:13,119 --> 00:27:13,919
Speaker 3: let's lighten it up.

566
00:27:15,000 --> 00:27:16,920
Speaker 2: What was it like writing when you was unlearning?

567
00:27:17,000 --> 00:27:20,199
Speaker 1: Like those habits and those beliefs and those behaviors that

568
00:27:20,240 --> 00:27:21,240
Speaker 1: didn't serve you no more?

569
00:27:22,680 --> 00:27:26,440
Speaker 3: Man, the writing was so easy, Like when I tell

570
00:27:26,480 --> 00:27:29,520
Speaker 3: you things were poor, it was pouring out like it's

571
00:27:29,520 --> 00:27:33,480
Speaker 3: probably the best writing I've ever done. And I think

572
00:27:33,520 --> 00:27:36,960
Speaker 3: because I was healing and unplugged and just not have

573
00:27:37,080 --> 00:27:42,160
Speaker 3: no expectations. I didn't write to have to prove anything,

574
00:27:42,520 --> 00:27:44,880
Speaker 3: you know. Before it was like I'm trying to make

575
00:27:44,920 --> 00:27:46,399
Speaker 3: my way in the game of trying to get the

576
00:27:46,480 --> 00:27:48,760
Speaker 3: respect and all those things. And it's like, when you

577
00:27:48,760 --> 00:27:51,480
Speaker 3: don't care no more, you can be profound. And I

578
00:27:51,480 --> 00:27:53,880
Speaker 3: think that's somewhere the best music that you can make,

579
00:27:54,000 --> 00:27:58,199
Speaker 3: you know what I'm saying, Like the simplest word. They

580
00:27:58,240 --> 00:28:01,720
Speaker 3: don't have to have a crazy metaphor, but people connect

581
00:28:01,720 --> 00:28:04,280
Speaker 3: with it. And I was like, because I was listening

582
00:28:04,320 --> 00:28:08,600
Speaker 3: to Lawrence Unplugged a whole lot during this process, and

583
00:28:08,640 --> 00:28:10,680
Speaker 3: I was just like, she don't have like a lot

584
00:28:10,720 --> 00:28:14,320
Speaker 3: of crazy double ntag and all that, but the thing

585
00:28:14,480 --> 00:28:19,440
Speaker 3: she's saying hitting because they just real it's profound lyricism,

586
00:28:19,720 --> 00:28:21,480
Speaker 3: and I was like, dag, that's what I want to

587
00:28:21,520 --> 00:28:25,399
Speaker 3: work on. But yeah, it was It was just easy

588
00:28:25,440 --> 00:28:30,399
Speaker 3: because I knew myself too. When you're healing and you

589
00:28:30,520 --> 00:28:32,440
Speaker 3: know exactly who you are and how you want to

590
00:28:32,480 --> 00:28:36,439
Speaker 3: show up and like you're finding yourself again. I wasn't

591
00:28:36,680 --> 00:28:41,080
Speaker 3: creating through anybody else's perception. Like earlier in my career,

592
00:28:41,080 --> 00:28:43,440
Speaker 3: I had nine, I had grew, I had a beautiful village,

593
00:28:43,880 --> 00:28:46,520
Speaker 3: and because I was so unsure and not confident, and

594
00:28:46,600 --> 00:28:48,840
Speaker 3: you know, we was trying to figure out, like, yo,

595
00:28:48,920 --> 00:28:51,360
Speaker 3: how we gonna get you to this next level? Like

596
00:28:52,360 --> 00:28:54,200
Speaker 3: you know, they would be like, let's do a song

597
00:28:54,280 --> 00:28:56,440
Speaker 3: about this, let's lie about this, and I'd be like, yeah, okay,

598
00:28:56,480 --> 00:28:59,840
Speaker 3: that rap and it's nothing wrong with like the intention.

599
00:29:00,000 --> 00:29:03,320
Speaker 3: It was beautiful and now it's just like it was

600
00:29:03,400 --> 00:29:05,080
Speaker 3: just all me what you feel.

601
00:29:05,200 --> 00:29:08,960
Speaker 1: Yeah, I love I love when rappers rap about things

602
00:29:09,000 --> 00:29:11,600
Speaker 1: I've never heard before on records, right, So that's why

603
00:29:11,600 --> 00:29:13,760
Speaker 1: I loved mister Ryland the big step of so much, Yo,

604
00:29:13,880 --> 00:29:15,760
Speaker 1: I'm please don't cry. It the same way you got

605
00:29:15,760 --> 00:29:19,800
Speaker 1: a song about dementia, which is something that impacts so

606
00:29:19,960 --> 00:29:21,760
Speaker 1: many of us, Like we all have a loved one

607
00:29:21,800 --> 00:29:25,000
Speaker 1: that you know, stuffering from dementia. I had dementia. Like

608
00:29:25,000 --> 00:29:26,280
Speaker 1: what made you want to speak on that?

609
00:29:27,080 --> 00:29:29,400
Speaker 3: Because it was it was such a big part of

610
00:29:29,400 --> 00:29:33,280
Speaker 3: my life during that time. My aunt, who's my mom's sister,

611
00:29:33,440 --> 00:29:35,640
Speaker 3: oldest sister, helped raise me. So just like all my

612
00:29:35,640 --> 00:29:39,040
Speaker 3: aunt's like my second moms. So when she got diagnosed,

613
00:29:39,360 --> 00:29:42,800
Speaker 3: it hit me like, yo, my grandmother had it, but

614
00:29:43,320 --> 00:29:48,280
Speaker 3: you know, to to sit with somebody and see it progress,

615
00:29:49,000 --> 00:29:51,520
Speaker 3: it was just it was like a It's like, it's

616
00:29:51,760 --> 00:29:54,560
Speaker 3: just a big part of my life and it affects

617
00:29:54,600 --> 00:29:57,760
Speaker 3: me so emotionally, and it was just like I want

618
00:29:58,600 --> 00:30:00,920
Speaker 3: to talk about it, and because I do, know so

619
00:30:01,000 --> 00:30:05,600
Speaker 3: many people that go through it, and that's just I

620
00:30:05,680 --> 00:30:07,760
Speaker 3: was just everything I was feeling. I was just putting

621
00:30:07,800 --> 00:30:13,720
Speaker 3: on paper, you know, And I think people need that,

622
00:30:14,800 --> 00:30:17,760
Speaker 3: but that that's just what it was. Like. I think

623
00:30:17,800 --> 00:30:20,400
Speaker 3: about her all the time, you know, every time I

624
00:30:20,440 --> 00:30:22,880
Speaker 3: go home, that's the first place I go sometimes before

625
00:30:22,920 --> 00:30:25,880
Speaker 3: I stop with my mom. And this last time I went,

626
00:30:26,120 --> 00:30:28,760
Speaker 3: I was there for like four hours. We was talking, laughing.

627
00:30:28,880 --> 00:30:31,720
Speaker 3: I think the last hour somebody came in the house

628
00:30:31,760 --> 00:30:33,720
Speaker 3: and they was like, you know who that is? She

629
00:30:33,880 --> 00:30:38,640
Speaker 3: was like I don't know. I was like, damn, yeah, yeah,

630
00:30:38,720 --> 00:30:41,000
Speaker 3: it's tough. It's tough. And you know, I think about

631
00:30:41,040 --> 00:30:43,840
Speaker 3: my cousins who's as her kids. So it was just like,

632
00:30:45,120 --> 00:30:47,080
Speaker 3: you know, a story that I wanted to share, Like,

633
00:30:47,120 --> 00:30:48,640
Speaker 3: if you want to know me, this is what I

634
00:30:48,720 --> 00:30:50,840
Speaker 3: go with, This is what I go through when I'm

635
00:30:51,320 --> 00:30:52,000
Speaker 3: with my family.

636
00:30:52,680 --> 00:30:55,320
Speaker 2: Your grandma got to matory yea yeah.

637
00:30:55,440 --> 00:30:57,120
Speaker 4: And that's why I say that definitely hurts out.

638
00:30:57,640 --> 00:31:00,920
Speaker 7: My father gave my grandmother U birthday party and he

639
00:31:01,000 --> 00:31:03,760
Speaker 7: DJs and he does karaoke and she loves to sing

640
00:31:04,320 --> 00:31:07,120
Speaker 7: and dance and all of that stuff. Right, and I came,

641
00:31:07,200 --> 00:31:10,719
Speaker 7: me and my little sister went and she ain't even

642
00:31:10,720 --> 00:31:12,480
Speaker 7: know who I was like you know what I'm saying.

643
00:31:12,560 --> 00:31:15,360
Speaker 7: She and I can you can tell? Yeah, because she

644
00:31:15,440 --> 00:31:17,000
Speaker 7: don't greet me like that. You know, she called me

645
00:31:17,120 --> 00:31:18,959
Speaker 7: Jade or or whatever, and she was just like, oh,

646
00:31:19,000 --> 00:31:19,960
Speaker 7: how you how are you?

647
00:31:20,000 --> 00:31:23,520
Speaker 4: How you doing? Just like I'm like, you know, a

648
00:31:23,800 --> 00:31:24,560
Speaker 4: regular person.

649
00:31:25,040 --> 00:31:27,640
Speaker 7: But then my dad, we like our favorite song to

650
00:31:27,720 --> 00:31:31,280
Speaker 7: perform karaoke is Utfo rock sayning rock saying, so you

651
00:31:31,360 --> 00:31:35,520
Speaker 7: put that on she she instantly knew who I was,

652
00:31:35,720 --> 00:31:37,800
Speaker 7: and she came up. She said, where is Robin?

653
00:31:37,920 --> 00:31:38,760
Speaker 4: Robin is my mother.

654
00:31:39,040 --> 00:31:41,160
Speaker 7: I'm like, I've been here for two hours and you

655
00:31:41,360 --> 00:31:43,880
Speaker 7: just now so I'm getting smart with her, but my

656
00:31:43,880 --> 00:31:44,880
Speaker 7: grandmother is a fire crack.

657
00:31:44,960 --> 00:31:46,800
Speaker 4: At the same time, She's like, yeah, where is your mother?

658
00:31:46,880 --> 00:31:48,080
Speaker 4: Ad I don't want to see you. I want to

659
00:31:48,080 --> 00:31:49,720
Speaker 4: see Robin. You know what I'm saying.

660
00:31:49,880 --> 00:31:52,640
Speaker 7: So I still treat it the same way, you know,

661
00:31:52,680 --> 00:31:56,400
Speaker 7: because she wouldn't want me to treat her like, oh, Grandma,

662
00:31:56,480 --> 00:31:58,680
Speaker 7: it's gonna be okay, Like we've never been like that.

663
00:31:58,920 --> 00:31:59,120
Speaker 2: You know.

664
00:31:59,240 --> 00:32:01,600
Speaker 7: She still hard on me and all that type of stuff.

665
00:32:01,640 --> 00:32:04,160
Speaker 7: But that to relate to that that it does hurt.

666
00:32:04,520 --> 00:32:05,200
Speaker 4: It's like a.

667
00:32:05,200 --> 00:32:09,560
Speaker 3: Hard, hard disease and go through like the mind goes

668
00:32:09,640 --> 00:32:12,560
Speaker 3: and the memory. Yeah, you know, but same thing. My

669
00:32:12,600 --> 00:32:15,000
Speaker 3: family is the same way. Like I remember the first time,

670
00:32:15,080 --> 00:32:16,960
Speaker 3: like she was really doing things where I could really

671
00:32:16,960 --> 00:32:18,840
Speaker 3: see it, because I could always see it before, but

672
00:32:18,880 --> 00:32:21,320
Speaker 3: I was I remember the day and my other aunt

673
00:32:21,400 --> 00:32:23,280
Speaker 3: came over and we were just talking about it. She

674
00:32:23,400 --> 00:32:26,040
Speaker 3: just said she busts out laughing, you know, like talking

675
00:32:26,040 --> 00:32:29,880
Speaker 3: to pictures or whatever. I like, I was in my feelings.

676
00:32:29,920 --> 00:32:31,840
Speaker 3: She started laughing. She's like, girl, we got laugh to

677
00:32:31,920 --> 00:32:35,000
Speaker 3: keep from crying. And that just changed me. Like so

678
00:32:35,680 --> 00:32:39,320
Speaker 3: it's beautiful to see, like how the family takes care

679
00:32:39,320 --> 00:32:41,920
Speaker 3: of her and we just whatever she on that day,

680
00:32:41,960 --> 00:32:43,000
Speaker 3: we just all a part of it.

681
00:32:43,080 --> 00:32:43,920
Speaker 4: Yeah, you know what I'm saying.

682
00:32:43,920 --> 00:32:46,960
Speaker 3: That's good and it makes it a little easier, but yeah,

683
00:32:47,320 --> 00:32:48,040
Speaker 3: it's it's tough.

684
00:32:49,240 --> 00:32:51,360
Speaker 2: Is it true? You credits and not late with helping you.

685
00:32:53,040 --> 00:33:03,200
Speaker 3: Finishing it. She's singing, and I'm sany thin can sing,

686
00:33:03,760 --> 00:33:06,880
Speaker 3: like yeah, yeah. And when I worked we worked on

687
00:33:07,440 --> 00:33:09,960
Speaker 3: the movie On a Come Up in twenty twenty one,

688
00:33:10,880 --> 00:33:12,840
Speaker 3: and she brought me on to help with the music

689
00:33:12,880 --> 00:33:17,440
Speaker 3: and coach the actor. But I got to see how

690
00:33:17,520 --> 00:33:20,280
Speaker 3: much of a music fan, especially hip hop, she was,

691
00:33:20,320 --> 00:33:22,680
Speaker 3: because like I'd send her demos and stuff. She tell

692
00:33:22,720 --> 00:33:24,480
Speaker 3: me about the beat and what she liked, and I

693
00:33:24,520 --> 00:33:26,720
Speaker 3: was like, you know what you're talking about. You know,

694
00:33:26,760 --> 00:33:29,440
Speaker 3: we talked about music a lot. But she was a

695
00:33:29,440 --> 00:33:32,120
Speaker 3: big part of the healing process for one, right, you know,

696
00:33:32,200 --> 00:33:35,440
Speaker 3: healing goals and phases. So she had put me onto

697
00:33:35,480 --> 00:33:39,280
Speaker 3: this course it's called how to Bemagnetic dot com or whatever,

698
00:33:39,840 --> 00:33:42,640
Speaker 3: and I did the course, and it was so instrumental,

699
00:33:42,720 --> 00:33:47,160
Speaker 3: like meditation, like she helped me get through over the hump.

700
00:33:47,280 --> 00:33:47,600
Speaker 4: Yeah.

701
00:33:47,840 --> 00:33:51,680
Speaker 3: So we was in New York at a premiere and

702
00:33:51,720 --> 00:33:54,240
Speaker 3: she was always asking about the album because you know,

703
00:33:54,280 --> 00:33:57,320
Speaker 3: we talked about pretty much everything. And she was like,

704
00:33:57,360 --> 00:33:59,280
Speaker 3: you're not finished with it yet, just like everybody on

705
00:33:59,320 --> 00:34:01,880
Speaker 3: the edit that like, I'm still not finished. She was like,

706
00:34:01,920 --> 00:34:04,280
Speaker 3: what's taking so long. I was like, I don't know.

707
00:34:04,320 --> 00:34:07,120
Speaker 3: I said, I feel like it's too gray, like I

708
00:34:07,160 --> 00:34:10,080
Speaker 3: see music and color. Sometimes I don't know. I think

709
00:34:10,080 --> 00:34:12,719
Speaker 3: it's too gray. It might be too sad, like I'm

710
00:34:12,800 --> 00:34:15,600
Speaker 3: just overthinking it. I could do that sometimes, And so

711
00:34:15,719 --> 00:34:19,480
Speaker 3: she was like, play me some songs. So I played

712
00:34:19,640 --> 00:34:22,120
Speaker 3: like three or four songs and she was like, it's

713
00:34:22,160 --> 00:34:26,359
Speaker 3: not too sad, It's exactly what people need. Finished the album.

714
00:34:26,760 --> 00:34:29,400
Speaker 3: And because she said that, I was like, okay, and

715
00:34:29,480 --> 00:34:32,000
Speaker 3: I finished the album. Other than I probably would still

716
00:34:32,000 --> 00:34:32,920
Speaker 3: be recording right now.

717
00:34:33,000 --> 00:34:40,800
Speaker 6: I believe I believe that you. I do love having

718
00:34:40,880 --> 00:34:42,920
Speaker 6: Felicia on the project.

719
00:34:42,960 --> 00:34:45,520
Speaker 2: I thought that was the full name.

720
00:34:46,040 --> 00:34:51,440
Speaker 5: Yeah, yes, okay, I know what I.

721
00:34:51,400 --> 00:34:51,879
Speaker 3: Was talking about.

722
00:34:52,719 --> 00:34:53,239
Speaker 2: Sell it out.

723
00:34:54,600 --> 00:34:58,279
Speaker 6: You have Felicia Rashad Narrate and I love on the

724
00:34:58,320 --> 00:34:59,840
Speaker 6: intro the only way out is in?

725
00:35:00,040 --> 00:35:01,719
Speaker 5: And do you even know who you are?

726
00:35:01,800 --> 00:35:04,560
Speaker 6: I'm like, this project really takes you on a ride,

727
00:35:04,680 --> 00:35:06,759
Speaker 6: but you having her narrate, I feel like it was

728
00:35:06,840 --> 00:35:10,000
Speaker 6: so vital, just because as a black woman, you know,

729
00:35:10,080 --> 00:35:11,960
Speaker 6: she's one of the ones that we looked.

730
00:35:11,800 --> 00:35:15,080
Speaker 5: Up to do, to Cosby, even to night Lathan.

731
00:35:15,160 --> 00:35:17,760
Speaker 6: I feel like, yeah, hell Erica, you got the holy

732
00:35:17,800 --> 00:35:20,400
Speaker 6: girl black woman. You know what I'm saying on this album.

733
00:35:20,520 --> 00:35:22,799
Speaker 6: So it's it's just been fire. But how did you

734
00:35:22,920 --> 00:35:23,880
Speaker 6: connect with her?

735
00:35:24,239 --> 00:35:26,680
Speaker 3: It was It was a lot easier than I thought

736
00:35:27,760 --> 00:35:31,240
Speaker 3: because I was like, I think big, I'm gonna always

737
00:35:31,239 --> 00:35:33,040
Speaker 3: go big, and I'm like all they can say is no.

738
00:35:33,840 --> 00:35:35,960
Speaker 3: So I was just prepared. I would tell my manager.

739
00:35:36,000 --> 00:35:37,919
Speaker 3: I was like, if she doesn't, we can't get hurt.

740
00:35:37,960 --> 00:35:41,040
Speaker 3: And this person, this person, this person, back up. But

741
00:35:42,640 --> 00:35:46,680
Speaker 3: my manager got information on her manager and they just

742
00:35:46,719 --> 00:35:49,520
Speaker 3: she sent her a request and at first they were like,

743
00:35:49,640 --> 00:35:51,840
Speaker 3: we want to hear some music. And I was busy

744
00:35:51,880 --> 00:35:54,239
Speaker 3: at the time, but before I could even send it,

745
00:35:54,239 --> 00:36:01,120
Speaker 3: it was two days when they went by. No.

746
00:36:01,200 --> 00:36:06,080
Speaker 5: I didn't no, no, no, you That's not what happened.

747
00:36:06,640 --> 00:36:08,879
Speaker 3: I was to get you know, the song. I'm trying

748
00:36:08,880 --> 00:36:11,200
Speaker 3: to figure out what exactly the sender because the album

749
00:36:11,200 --> 00:36:13,840
Speaker 3: went all the way done. So I was like, you know,

750
00:36:14,000 --> 00:36:17,560
Speaker 3: I was moving around, so it was maybe two days later.

751
00:36:18,560 --> 00:36:25,440
Speaker 3: I was traveling, but I think like they asked for

752
00:36:25,440 --> 00:36:27,319
Speaker 3: the music, and then I think the next day she

753
00:36:27,560 --> 00:36:29,839
Speaker 3: was just like yes, you know, I don't know if

754
00:36:29,840 --> 00:36:32,160
Speaker 3: they google, I don't know what happened. But I was like,

755
00:36:32,560 --> 00:36:34,600
Speaker 3: my mouth was on the floor. I was like what

756
00:36:36,200 --> 00:36:38,920
Speaker 3: And so I wrote out the parts and sent them

757
00:36:38,920 --> 00:36:42,160
Speaker 3: to her and she recorded it and she's so good,

758
00:36:42,360 --> 00:36:46,200
Speaker 3: like I just I wrote out my part in her

759
00:36:46,280 --> 00:36:49,360
Speaker 3: part and she did it on a voice memo in

760
00:36:49,400 --> 00:36:54,640
Speaker 3: her hotel. But she's she's just so good, like you

761
00:36:54,880 --> 00:36:58,080
Speaker 3: hear it. But I chose her for that, you know,

762
00:36:58,200 --> 00:37:01,040
Speaker 3: for the very reason or what she represents to the

763
00:37:01,080 --> 00:37:03,680
Speaker 3: black community. To us. I was watching The Matrix and

764
00:37:03,719 --> 00:37:07,080
Speaker 3: I was so intrigued by the relationship of Neo and

765
00:37:07,120 --> 00:37:10,040
Speaker 3: the Oracle. You know, it was like that was the

766
00:37:10,120 --> 00:37:13,200
Speaker 3: journey I was on and how she got it him.

767
00:37:13,440 --> 00:37:15,360
Speaker 3: So when we were in the studio and I was

768
00:37:15,400 --> 00:37:19,200
Speaker 3: with Black Odyssey in Austin, Texas, they helped executive produce

769
00:37:19,239 --> 00:37:21,560
Speaker 3: the album with us one, They were like, how are

770
00:37:21,560 --> 00:37:24,520
Speaker 3: you gonna put pieces together? And that's what I thought of,

771
00:37:24,600 --> 00:37:26,200
Speaker 3: And she was the only voice that I heard.

772
00:37:26,520 --> 00:37:27,920
Speaker 2: So, so what's her color?

773
00:37:27,920 --> 00:37:29,520
Speaker 1: When if you say the album was black and white

774
00:37:29,560 --> 00:37:31,680
Speaker 1: at one or gray at one point, what was her

775
00:37:31,680 --> 00:37:35,720
Speaker 1: color coloring it?

776
00:37:35,880 --> 00:37:39,280
Speaker 3: She got to be like a brown, brown, orange, yellow, warm,

777
00:37:40,080 --> 00:37:45,200
Speaker 3: very warm the light. That's that's what she represents.

778
00:37:46,000 --> 00:37:48,200
Speaker 2: Yeah, you know, so what color is the song?

779
00:37:48,600 --> 00:37:53,040
Speaker 5: Like Diary of a Mad that's red.

780
00:37:52,440 --> 00:37:59,520
Speaker 3: I see blood, no hesitation, blood on the floor.

781
00:38:00,440 --> 00:38:02,719
Speaker 1: Depressure of that record that you said. You know, people

782
00:38:02,760 --> 00:38:04,560
Speaker 1: always like, oh, that's the stereotype.

783
00:38:04,080 --> 00:38:06,279
Speaker 2: Angry black woman that you like owning that?

784
00:38:06,360 --> 00:38:09,319
Speaker 3: Like, I got right, Yeah, we'd be mad sometimes when

785
00:38:09,320 --> 00:38:11,280
Speaker 3: I was. I was, you know, one of the questions

786
00:38:11,320 --> 00:38:14,200
Speaker 3: with what makes you mad lyon niggas, Like and I

787
00:38:14,280 --> 00:38:16,759
Speaker 3: just thought about every relationship I've been in and there's

788
00:38:16,800 --> 00:38:21,120
Speaker 3: be some lying niggas, and so I'd be balking before

789
00:38:21,280 --> 00:38:24,560
Speaker 3: like I learned how to communicate or whatever, like you know,

790
00:38:24,840 --> 00:38:27,359
Speaker 3: I'm super chill, but when I go there, I go there.

791
00:38:27,440 --> 00:38:29,160
Speaker 3: And I was thinking about I was like, oh, I

792
00:38:29,239 --> 00:38:31,480
Speaker 3: used to yell all the time. It cuts people out.

793
00:38:31,480 --> 00:38:34,279
Speaker 3: I might throw a chair not at them when they leave,

794
00:38:34,960 --> 00:38:37,000
Speaker 3: you know, Like so I was like, yo, this is

795
00:38:37,200 --> 00:38:40,160
Speaker 3: And when I was creating this out, I created it differently.

796
00:38:41,640 --> 00:38:43,760
Speaker 3: I would get on Pinterests and I would find pictures.

797
00:38:43,800 --> 00:38:48,760
Speaker 3: It would be colors, palette sometimes or words or just photos.

798
00:38:48,760 --> 00:38:52,440
Speaker 3: And with Diving Mad Uh Diary of a Mad Bitch,

799
00:38:53,000 --> 00:38:55,160
Speaker 3: there were two photos. It was one of a dovermen

800
00:38:55,320 --> 00:38:57,840
Speaker 3: growling and I was like, that's how I feel. Niggas

801
00:38:57,840 --> 00:38:59,920
Speaker 3: be messing with me like that. And then it was

802
00:39:00,120 --> 00:39:03,239
Speaker 3: one it had hands and honey was dripping down really

803
00:39:03,280 --> 00:39:06,319
Speaker 3: slow and I was and I showed the honeymoon that

804
00:39:06,360 --> 00:39:08,000
Speaker 3: s one. I was like, what does this sound like?

805
00:39:08,880 --> 00:39:12,120
Speaker 3: And that's when he made the beat and it sounded

806
00:39:12,200 --> 00:39:15,480
Speaker 3: so angry and aggressive. The drums he did them in reverse,

807
00:39:15,560 --> 00:39:19,279
Speaker 3: so it sounds like it's sticky pulling. And I was like, oh,

808
00:39:19,360 --> 00:39:22,040
Speaker 3: this is my mask song. Who I'm mad at? Nick's

809
00:39:25,120 --> 00:39:30,680
Speaker 3: so yeah, I own that, I be mad, I'll be masked.

810
00:39:31,280 --> 00:39:34,640
Speaker 6: I really like how you're using the Pinterest images to

811
00:39:34,920 --> 00:39:36,080
Speaker 6: create the sound.

812
00:39:36,280 --> 00:39:37,480
Speaker 5: I love a good move board too.

813
00:39:37,520 --> 00:39:38,360
Speaker 3: I do that for everything.

814
00:39:38,440 --> 00:39:41,080
Speaker 6: Anytime I got to like execute something, I need to see,

815
00:39:41,760 --> 00:39:44,440
Speaker 6: you know, help and for the vision in order to execute.

816
00:39:44,480 --> 00:39:49,560
Speaker 6: So that's that's dope. And also just outside from just

817
00:39:49,560 --> 00:39:53,480
Speaker 6: the music, I love the interview that you did with Ericabadu,

818
00:39:54,400 --> 00:39:59,120
Speaker 6: very very dope, and it's just it's just real, like

819
00:39:59,239 --> 00:40:01,839
Speaker 6: you and her two people that like we can look

820
00:40:01,920 --> 00:40:04,400
Speaker 6: up to and chime in and get like a direct

821
00:40:04,400 --> 00:40:07,120
Speaker 6: reflection of us back. So seeing you guys have a

822
00:40:07,120 --> 00:40:10,480
Speaker 6: conversation was dope. But what inspired you guys to have

823
00:40:10,520 --> 00:40:12,000
Speaker 6: a three Am combo?

824
00:40:12,719 --> 00:40:16,200
Speaker 3: To have the conversation that was really part of the rollout,

825
00:40:16,320 --> 00:40:19,560
Speaker 3: like we did it in chapters. So got with the

826
00:40:19,640 --> 00:40:22,040
Speaker 3: label to my management team and they were like, how

827
00:40:22,080 --> 00:40:25,160
Speaker 3: are we gonna tell this story to the people? And

828
00:40:25,200 --> 00:40:27,280
Speaker 3: we had a plan of like the singles we wanted

829
00:40:27,280 --> 00:40:29,560
Speaker 3: to release. And I was sitting at home during the

830
00:40:29,600 --> 00:40:34,400
Speaker 3: holidays and I I called Sherry. I was like, I'm

831
00:40:34,440 --> 00:40:37,160
Speaker 3: the single plan we have, don't it doesn't feel good

832
00:40:37,200 --> 00:40:39,360
Speaker 3: to me cause it was like raw. First, it was

833
00:40:39,400 --> 00:40:41,800
Speaker 3: like everybody know I can rap. Like they got to

834
00:40:41,840 --> 00:40:43,879
Speaker 3: see something different, they got to see the human part

835
00:40:43,880 --> 00:40:47,359
Speaker 3: of me. And so I was like three Am has

836
00:40:47,400 --> 00:40:50,239
Speaker 3: to be in there. You know. It was like rap

837
00:40:50,360 --> 00:40:55,719
Speaker 3: is back ars unveiling which was standing tall and then

838
00:40:56,160 --> 00:40:59,719
Speaker 3: Erica three Am was unconditional, you know, learning to love yourself.

839
00:41:01,360 --> 00:41:04,600
Speaker 3: So we we knew, like it can't just be music

840
00:41:04,680 --> 00:41:06,960
Speaker 3: like people like rap. People don't know about you, so

841
00:41:07,040 --> 00:41:11,040
Speaker 3: they have to see you have conversations. And so we

842
00:41:11,080 --> 00:41:13,120
Speaker 3: knew three Am was gonna come out, and we was like,

843
00:41:13,160 --> 00:41:15,839
Speaker 3: we need to have a conversation piece about it. And

844
00:41:16,560 --> 00:41:20,160
Speaker 3: she's so good to talk to. I felt like it

845
00:41:20,239 --> 00:41:22,360
Speaker 3: was something to have for people to go back and

846
00:41:22,400 --> 00:41:26,360
Speaker 3: reference because there's so many conversations now men this, women

847
00:41:26,520 --> 00:41:30,200
Speaker 3: that and relationships and you know, it's just like, yo,

848
00:41:30,360 --> 00:41:34,360
Speaker 3: what happened to just love? Even in music like a

849
00:41:34,400 --> 00:41:38,359
Speaker 3: lot of sex songs? What about love? And that was it?

850
00:41:38,400 --> 00:41:41,279
Speaker 3: Like I just knew, like, well that's the chapter. So

851
00:41:41,360 --> 00:41:44,280
Speaker 3: that's that. That has to be the conversation. But Erica

852
00:41:44,360 --> 00:41:47,480
Speaker 3: is so insightful and wise that I already knew she

853
00:41:47,680 --> 00:41:54,160
Speaker 3: from Drop magim No from out of this World. Yeah

854
00:41:54,440 --> 00:42:00,239
Speaker 3: that the.

855
00:42:00,239 --> 00:42:02,959
Speaker 2: Room as queen mother goddess.

856
00:42:02,640 --> 00:42:09,200
Speaker 4: Right there, I would cras me both.

857
00:42:10,400 --> 00:42:12,759
Speaker 2: That's why you tweet no such thing as female hip hop?

858
00:42:13,280 --> 00:42:14,480
Speaker 3: Yeah, I don't like that.

859
00:42:14,600 --> 00:42:15,840
Speaker 2: What is that elaborate on that?

860
00:42:16,600 --> 00:42:20,160
Speaker 3: Yeah, it's it's just hip hop. Like somebody they try

861
00:42:20,160 --> 00:42:23,400
Speaker 3: to rebottle me like, there are women who make songs

862
00:42:23,400 --> 00:42:30,200
Speaker 3: specifically for women. That's called an audience, sir, audiences women,

863
00:42:30,320 --> 00:42:33,520
Speaker 3: But what she does is hip hop. Like when you

864
00:42:33,560 --> 00:42:37,080
Speaker 3: when you label something, labels are just there to separate us.

865
00:42:37,480 --> 00:42:39,960
Speaker 3: So if you labeling it female hip hop and you're

866
00:42:39,960 --> 00:42:42,600
Speaker 3: putting it in a category with this is just for females,

867
00:42:42,640 --> 00:42:46,000
Speaker 3: and you're looking at it a certain way, it's like, no,

868
00:42:46,360 --> 00:42:49,279
Speaker 3: they do hip hop, they rap, but their audience may

869
00:42:49,280 --> 00:42:53,160
Speaker 3: be mostly women, you know, And and I just hate

870
00:42:53,160 --> 00:42:55,879
Speaker 3: the separation and labels. It's already hard for us. It's

871
00:42:55,920 --> 00:43:00,400
Speaker 3: just another form of sexism to yeah, you know, like

872
00:43:01,120 --> 00:43:05,200
Speaker 3: I don't make female hip hop. I'll wrap for everybody.

873
00:43:05,239 --> 00:43:07,400
Speaker 3: You get it or you don't. And my you know,

874
00:43:07,480 --> 00:43:10,920
Speaker 3: my fan base shows that got men, women, older people,

875
00:43:11,040 --> 00:43:13,799
Speaker 3: younger people. It's just that's what it is. So it's like,

876
00:43:13,880 --> 00:43:16,280
Speaker 3: we're not about to do that, and I'm gonna advocate

877
00:43:16,320 --> 00:43:16,640
Speaker 3: for it.

878
00:43:16,920 --> 00:43:18,719
Speaker 1: You do address it a little bit on Asteroids because

879
00:43:18,719 --> 00:43:20,080
Speaker 1: you said if I went basically got to be in

880
00:43:20,080 --> 00:43:23,719
Speaker 1: the rape, if I had to dick. I feel that

881
00:43:23,760 --> 00:43:35,279
Speaker 1: way too, So there's a lot of sexism still in

882
00:43:35,280 --> 00:43:38,239
Speaker 1: it because I'm like, there's nothing that these guys are

883
00:43:38,280 --> 00:43:40,839
Speaker 1: doing that Rhapsod is not doing better. You're not gonna

884
00:43:40,840 --> 00:43:42,640
Speaker 1: tell me you don't listen to Rhapsody and just hear

885
00:43:42,719 --> 00:43:44,399
Speaker 1: somebody barring motherfuckers up.

886
00:43:44,760 --> 00:43:46,560
Speaker 3: Don't be trying to hear me because you don't got

887
00:43:46,560 --> 00:43:49,000
Speaker 3: a dick, ain't got you, ain't got to hit.

888
00:43:50,920 --> 00:43:51,440
Speaker 2: Hit of the dick.

889
00:43:55,080 --> 00:43:58,560
Speaker 3: I'm gonna just be real with myself. It was superficial,

890
00:43:58,640 --> 00:44:01,680
Speaker 3: like that stuff matter to them, you know, because it's

891
00:44:02,040 --> 00:44:04,520
Speaker 3: they've been programmed to think that now that people people

892
00:44:04,520 --> 00:44:06,399
Speaker 3: don't know how to think for themselves. So it's like

893
00:44:06,880 --> 00:44:09,239
Speaker 3: if it ain't got mad numbers of chart and it

894
00:44:09,280 --> 00:44:09,920
Speaker 3: don't matter.

895
00:44:10,320 --> 00:44:14,160
Speaker 1: Like I disagree because they don't mention women in the

896
00:44:14,160 --> 00:44:17,080
Speaker 1: greatest debates. Ni not she shouldn't be, but Nicki's not

897
00:44:17,120 --> 00:44:20,000
Speaker 1: in the Golt debate. Lauren's not really in the goat debate.

898
00:44:20,040 --> 00:44:23,520
Speaker 1: They acknowledge them being dope, but not like the dope

899
00:44:23,560 --> 00:44:24,919
Speaker 1: dope rapidly they are.

900
00:44:25,400 --> 00:44:29,359
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's why we got to change that. You're out

901
00:44:29,440 --> 00:44:33,120
Speaker 3: of here we in the debate. Baby. I just saw

902
00:44:33,200 --> 00:44:36,480
Speaker 3: Lauren perform on Jimmy Fallon. She spent a verse. I

903
00:44:36,520 --> 00:44:40,399
Speaker 3: was like, my god, when it was yeah, I don't

904
00:44:40,440 --> 00:44:42,080
Speaker 3: know if it's gonna be on anything, but if you

905
00:44:42,160 --> 00:44:47,319
Speaker 3: go on Jimmy Fallon, oh man, you just gotta go

906
00:44:47,400 --> 00:44:48,239
Speaker 3: listen to the verse.

907
00:44:49,000 --> 00:44:52,080
Speaker 2: What problems you to the address questions about your sexuality?

908
00:44:52,120 --> 00:44:54,120
Speaker 2: Understand tall records, because it was.

909
00:44:54,120 --> 00:44:56,960
Speaker 3: It would be conversations throughout the years of my career,

910
00:44:57,600 --> 00:45:01,080
Speaker 3: and so it was like things that I internalized to

911
00:45:01,400 --> 00:45:05,600
Speaker 3: like the way that I dress or whatever. People assume

912
00:45:05,680 --> 00:45:09,360
Speaker 3: things about you or because you have you don't know

913
00:45:09,440 --> 00:45:11,880
Speaker 3: who I've been in relationship. I'm private, so they just

914
00:45:11,960 --> 00:45:14,680
Speaker 3: assume who you are. So it's just like, let me

915
00:45:14,760 --> 00:45:17,680
Speaker 3: just address it head on. Then you know you hear

916
00:45:17,719 --> 00:45:18,080
Speaker 3: it from me.

917
00:45:18,440 --> 00:45:19,520
Speaker 2: You said the judgment saw me.

918
00:45:19,560 --> 00:45:21,200
Speaker 1: They wonder if I'm gonna eat the Kouchie fan all

919
00:45:21,239 --> 00:45:23,560
Speaker 1: because I choose the style and sneakers and some baggy

920
00:45:23,600 --> 00:45:25,920
Speaker 1: pants used to make me aggie. You want to blackout

921
00:45:26,000 --> 00:45:26,799
Speaker 1: like the Aggie fans.

922
00:45:27,080 --> 00:45:27,600
Speaker 2: I heard that line.

923
00:45:27,600 --> 00:45:30,920
Speaker 4: I thought about not yo, of course you did.

924
00:45:32,400 --> 00:45:36,239
Speaker 3: You. Of course you did the same, same, same, That's

925
00:45:36,280 --> 00:45:40,120
Speaker 3: what I'm yo. I'd be like, it's like if you

926
00:45:40,200 --> 00:45:42,920
Speaker 3: dress like this, oh you do not like men because

927
00:45:42,960 --> 00:45:46,239
Speaker 3: you're not catering to men of what we think or

928
00:45:46,280 --> 00:45:48,480
Speaker 3: what we think men want to be catered to, and

929
00:45:48,520 --> 00:45:51,000
Speaker 3: now the conversation I'll be seeing men having it, like yo,

930
00:45:51,520 --> 00:45:53,799
Speaker 3: we miss having some imagination about it.

931
00:45:53,560 --> 00:45:54,319
Speaker 4: Do you hear me?

932
00:45:54,600 --> 00:45:57,440
Speaker 7: That's why I'm like, Yo, Y're gonna show us everything

933
00:45:57,840 --> 00:46:01,200
Speaker 7: somewhere listening to the man if with these new you know,

934
00:46:01,560 --> 00:46:04,960
Speaker 7: newer brands of women are trying to uppeal the men

935
00:46:05,040 --> 00:46:07,759
Speaker 7: all the time, listen to them. They don't always want

936
00:46:07,760 --> 00:46:10,319
Speaker 7: to get online and see titties and are listening and

937
00:46:10,400 --> 00:46:12,520
Speaker 7: misplace belly buttons and all that, Like they.

938
00:46:12,440 --> 00:46:14,800
Speaker 3: Don't want to see that all the time.

939
00:46:15,000 --> 00:46:22,040
Speaker 7: Like I'd rather not even see a stomachies.

940
00:46:19,480 --> 00:46:21,920
Speaker 4: Like you know what I'm saying.

941
00:46:22,800 --> 00:46:24,880
Speaker 3: I feel like more.

942
00:46:25,120 --> 00:46:29,400
Speaker 6: Difficult to be taken seriously when you were trying, like

943
00:46:29,480 --> 00:46:31,319
Speaker 6: if they're focused on trying to get with me or

944
00:46:31,320 --> 00:46:33,600
Speaker 6: trying to bag me or like you know what I mean.

945
00:46:33,680 --> 00:46:35,120
Speaker 5: So I would rather just be the bro.

946
00:46:35,480 --> 00:46:37,640
Speaker 6: I rather look at me and just want to push

947
00:46:37,680 --> 00:46:40,040
Speaker 6: me forward to what I'm actually trying to achieve.

948
00:46:40,120 --> 00:46:41,000
Speaker 5: And you're trying to.

949
00:46:41,320 --> 00:46:45,520
Speaker 7: Be the sexiest ever, like when you are out of bro,

950
00:46:45,880 --> 00:46:49,800
Speaker 7: but when you are like in your most natural element,

951
00:46:50,000 --> 00:46:51,839
Speaker 7: like you know what I'm saying, You're not caked up,

952
00:46:51,920 --> 00:46:55,239
Speaker 7: You're not like that is naturally pretty to me, Like

953
00:46:55,480 --> 00:46:58,600
Speaker 7: you naturally pretty to me. That's how I dress on stage.

954
00:46:58,840 --> 00:47:02,680
Speaker 7: And I can bake anything in the show, you know,

955
00:47:02,800 --> 00:47:05,160
Speaker 7: but they want me to be a stud real bad.

956
00:47:05,640 --> 00:47:11,040
Speaker 5: You know what I'm saying, shut up.

957
00:47:13,280 --> 00:47:15,440
Speaker 2: Showing three four to cloth. That was showing your stuff off,

958
00:47:15,800 --> 00:47:16,319
Speaker 2: Like that was.

959
00:47:19,080 --> 00:47:23,040
Speaker 3: You fly as hell. I'm gonna affirm that to you.

960
00:47:23,440 --> 00:47:25,880
Speaker 3: And yeah, and it's it's not even just in music.

961
00:47:26,080 --> 00:47:29,120
Speaker 3: Like I hear women in the business they say, like

962
00:47:29,200 --> 00:47:31,719
Speaker 3: I sometimes I cover up just so I can go

963
00:47:31,719 --> 00:47:33,319
Speaker 3: in the meeting. We can have a straight on meeting.

964
00:47:34,120 --> 00:47:36,719
Speaker 3: I ain't about to do that. But yeah, it's just

965
00:47:36,760 --> 00:47:41,880
Speaker 3: like everything is a full displays. Like you know, I

966
00:47:42,000 --> 00:47:44,680
Speaker 3: like to I like to have you guessing, like you know,

967
00:47:45,120 --> 00:47:47,160
Speaker 3: the days we do want to pop out and be.

968
00:47:47,080 --> 00:47:50,680
Speaker 5: Like damn, like yeah, let that reaction.

969
00:47:52,360 --> 00:47:56,360
Speaker 3: So it's you know, it's yeah, and it's not comfortable.

970
00:47:56,360 --> 00:47:59,200
Speaker 3: I like to be comfortable and just be real with them.

971
00:47:59,239 --> 00:47:59,799
Speaker 3: Hills hurt my.

972
00:48:00,520 --> 00:48:03,440
Speaker 6: But you know, also it's like a weird it's a

973
00:48:03,480 --> 00:48:06,440
Speaker 6: weird like social pressure because it's like, all right, in

974
00:48:06,480 --> 00:48:09,120
Speaker 6: the workplace, you got to be respected, but then like

975
00:48:09,160 --> 00:48:11,720
Speaker 6: with your homegirls, you know, you still want to embrace

976
00:48:11,719 --> 00:48:14,680
Speaker 6: your into femininity. But then you know, with a black household,

977
00:48:14,719 --> 00:48:17,360
Speaker 6: it's like, whatever you do, don't be a whole, don't

978
00:48:17,400 --> 00:48:19,320
Speaker 6: look like a whole, don't embarrass me like a whole,

979
00:48:19,320 --> 00:48:21,200
Speaker 6: don't do anything, you know what I mean. So it's

980
00:48:21,239 --> 00:48:25,040
Speaker 6: just like, all right, how do I juggle not embarrassing you,

981
00:48:25,120 --> 00:48:28,279
Speaker 6: but being myself but still embracing like my femininity that

982
00:48:28,320 --> 00:48:30,880
Speaker 6: I'm growing into, you know. So I like how you

983
00:48:30,880 --> 00:48:33,799
Speaker 6: talk about it, because it is a journey, you know,

984
00:48:33,920 --> 00:48:39,839
Speaker 6: to get through. No, but just don't act like black parents,

985
00:48:39,840 --> 00:48:43,279
Speaker 6: because I'm sure you just to like, I'm sure it's

986
00:48:43,320 --> 00:48:47,040
Speaker 6: too short change not yet.

987
00:48:47,080 --> 00:48:48,200
Speaker 2: I haven't had to say that yet.

988
00:48:48,440 --> 00:48:49,359
Speaker 5: No, yeah, it's coming.

989
00:48:49,360 --> 00:48:55,799
Speaker 6: It's in your back pocket, I know.

990
00:48:53,960 --> 00:48:57,560
Speaker 1: To say, that's how people are going to perceive.

991
00:48:57,840 --> 00:49:00,520
Speaker 6: Yeah, I think you're gonna I think, no, you you're

992
00:49:00,520 --> 00:49:02,480
Speaker 6: gonna jump out the window and say you're dressed like

993
00:49:02,480 --> 00:49:07,759
Speaker 6: a whole. Say you know what, baby, I don't want

994
00:49:07,760 --> 00:49:11,040
Speaker 6: you to think your whole, but you know, other people, Yes.

995
00:49:10,680 --> 00:49:16,319
Speaker 1: That's it's how I dress. I would say something like that,

996
00:49:16,480 --> 00:49:18,560
Speaker 1: you know, but that's not a part of him.

997
00:49:19,400 --> 00:49:21,920
Speaker 3: No, no, no, no, no, No, I don't think so. No.

998
00:49:23,239 --> 00:49:26,120
Speaker 6: I was just saying, like all the pressures from different

999
00:49:26,160 --> 00:49:28,600
Speaker 6: capacities and then trying to balance it and figure out

1000
00:49:28,600 --> 00:49:30,160
Speaker 6: who you are throughout that.

1001
00:49:31,000 --> 00:49:33,880
Speaker 4: Because you want to be respected. You want to be respected.

1002
00:49:34,239 --> 00:49:38,040
Speaker 7: Even the women who don't, I mean, like who go

1003
00:49:38,120 --> 00:49:40,760
Speaker 7: to extra out of show all, they want to be respected.

1004
00:49:41,040 --> 00:49:43,759
Speaker 7: They just want to fit in so bad, you know,

1005
00:49:43,840 --> 00:49:47,040
Speaker 7: and keep up with what you know they think is

1006
00:49:47,080 --> 00:49:47,759
Speaker 7: the standard.

1007
00:49:47,840 --> 00:49:49,799
Speaker 4: You know what I'm saying. But they just be wanting

1008
00:49:49,800 --> 00:49:50,280
Speaker 4: in respect.

1009
00:49:50,440 --> 00:49:53,560
Speaker 6: But you know, it's hard to have both. You know, women,

1010
00:49:53,680 --> 00:49:55,880
Speaker 6: it's hard to have attention and respect.

1011
00:49:57,200 --> 00:49:57,719
Speaker 5: It's hard to.

1012
00:49:57,680 --> 00:49:59,839
Speaker 6: Get attention and respect at the same time.

1013
00:50:00,239 --> 00:50:02,680
Speaker 5: It's like you got to pick. Well, that's how I feel.

1014
00:50:02,680 --> 00:50:03,760
Speaker 5: What do you think.

1015
00:50:04,680 --> 00:50:06,759
Speaker 3: I think it's it's easy. You just have to know

1016
00:50:06,800 --> 00:50:09,759
Speaker 3: who you are and show up as that confidently. You

1017
00:50:09,800 --> 00:50:13,880
Speaker 3: know people people can see that and they respect it

1018
00:50:13,880 --> 00:50:16,880
Speaker 3: and they attracted to it. That's what I think.

1019
00:50:17,120 --> 00:50:21,279
Speaker 7: You know, Like, it's not I need to be respected

1020
00:50:22,120 --> 00:50:25,400
Speaker 7: straight off the rep you know. And and what was

1021
00:50:25,440 --> 00:50:28,600
Speaker 7: that when you said and it's a girl, big attention

1022
00:50:28,719 --> 00:50:29,320
Speaker 7: with respect.

1023
00:50:29,400 --> 00:50:32,479
Speaker 5: Yeah, I just said that the same.

1024
00:50:32,600 --> 00:50:36,680
Speaker 6: There are some people who might show a lot more

1025
00:50:36,719 --> 00:50:37,800
Speaker 6: and get a lot more.

1026
00:50:37,640 --> 00:50:41,040
Speaker 3: To what kind of attention I guess is the question

1027
00:50:41,160 --> 00:50:43,320
Speaker 3: that's true. You know what I'm saying, what type of

1028
00:50:43,400 --> 00:50:47,480
Speaker 3: attention are you looking for? And that that changes the answer. Yeah,

1029
00:50:47,600 --> 00:50:48,040
Speaker 3: good point.

1030
00:50:48,800 --> 00:50:52,080
Speaker 4: Very excited about your packaging. Your promotion is crazy.

1031
00:50:52,920 --> 00:50:55,520
Speaker 7: Always got a creative way to appeal to your fans,

1032
00:50:55,600 --> 00:50:59,280
Speaker 7: like when she does past the and she we always

1033
00:50:59,280 --> 00:51:01,240
Speaker 7: have your music show. We're saying it was like show

1034
00:51:01,560 --> 00:51:03,919
Speaker 7: tell us, like little creative ways that you be like.

1035
00:51:05,600 --> 00:51:06,359
Speaker 4: Like that one time.

1036
00:51:06,600 --> 00:51:09,879
Speaker 7: Yeah, like the shirt, Yeah, the T shirt. Like I'm like, okay,

1037
00:51:09,960 --> 00:51:12,560
Speaker 7: that's creative. Shiit she that's dope. That's how you really

1038
00:51:12,640 --> 00:51:14,799
Speaker 7: know who youre connected to as well, like your fans

1039
00:51:14,840 --> 00:51:15,840
Speaker 7: are really loyal to you.

1040
00:51:15,920 --> 00:51:18,120
Speaker 3: It's one of my favorite things about putting out an album,

1041
00:51:18,400 --> 00:51:20,680
Speaker 3: Like the music is of course, but then it's like,

1042
00:51:20,719 --> 00:51:22,920
Speaker 3: all right, that part is fun, like with how we

1043
00:51:23,040 --> 00:51:26,759
Speaker 3: gonna roll this out with this one. I watched the

1044
00:51:26,880 --> 00:51:29,360
Speaker 3: movie Air. I don't know if you've seen it. No,

1045
00:51:29,560 --> 00:51:33,120
Speaker 3: it's it's about yeah, it's about yesterday.

1046
00:51:33,200 --> 00:51:33,680
Speaker 4: I'm sorry.

1047
00:51:33,800 --> 00:51:37,239
Speaker 3: I was so inspired by the branding and marketing of it,

1048
00:51:37,320 --> 00:51:39,040
Speaker 3: and it was just like it ain't about the shoe

1049
00:51:39,080 --> 00:51:41,319
Speaker 3: it's about the person wearing the shoe. I was like,

1050
00:51:41,800 --> 00:51:43,400
Speaker 3: I called the team. I was like, I want to

1051
00:51:43,480 --> 00:51:45,520
Speaker 3: roll this out like a Nike ad for a shoe,

1052
00:51:45,680 --> 00:51:48,319
Speaker 3: but with the album, how we gonna do that? And

1053
00:51:48,400 --> 00:51:50,239
Speaker 3: you know, we really want it again, Like I was

1054
00:51:50,280 --> 00:51:52,880
Speaker 3: in the place of like free, like I'm not worried

1055
00:51:52,880 --> 00:51:55,560
Speaker 3: about Billboard or nothing like that. It's just like, let's

1056
00:51:55,600 --> 00:51:59,000
Speaker 3: just focus on the fan base. So you know, we

1057
00:51:59,160 --> 00:52:01,400
Speaker 3: just made them up part of it, and we just

1058
00:52:01,480 --> 00:52:04,520
Speaker 3: told the story from that way, just being organic and

1059
00:52:04,560 --> 00:52:07,279
Speaker 3: the ideas were just flowing. My mind worked like that.

1060
00:52:07,360 --> 00:52:10,400
Speaker 3: I can't explain it. But yeah, I'm glad people are

1061
00:52:10,400 --> 00:52:11,359
Speaker 3: being filmed too.

1062
00:52:12,640 --> 00:52:14,359
Speaker 4: I can see that. Yeah, thank you.

1063
00:52:14,480 --> 00:52:17,120
Speaker 1: I just guys, got a couple more questions. I love

1064
00:52:17,200 --> 00:52:19,600
Speaker 1: to stand tall record and I understand Tall records. You

1065
00:52:19,640 --> 00:52:22,759
Speaker 1: talk about the challenges of living with anxiety, yeah, and

1066
00:52:23,360 --> 00:52:26,320
Speaker 1: the difficulty in finding effective solutions because you even mentioned

1067
00:52:26,320 --> 00:52:29,840
Speaker 1: how the doctors struggled to identify what was what was

1068
00:52:29,880 --> 00:52:31,839
Speaker 1: even your issue here?

1069
00:52:32,320 --> 00:52:36,000
Speaker 3: Well, they identified it, I just didn't accept it. It

1070
00:52:36,080 --> 00:52:39,320
Speaker 3: was a journey. Like I have Graves disease and thyroid

1071
00:52:39,360 --> 00:52:43,000
Speaker 3: disease and I was diagnosed in two thousand and nine ten.

1072
00:52:43,080 --> 00:52:47,000
Speaker 3: But before that, probably from when I graduated high school

1073
00:52:47,080 --> 00:52:52,640
Speaker 3: uptil maybe I was late twenties. I would wake up

1074
00:52:52,840 --> 00:52:56,080
Speaker 3: out of my sleep running for the door, like because

1075
00:52:56,120 --> 00:52:58,160
Speaker 3: I felt like, I like, I can't breathe, I'm about

1076
00:52:58,160 --> 00:53:00,000
Speaker 3: to die. Somebody gonna find me because I'm not about

1077
00:53:00,080 --> 00:53:03,000
Speaker 3: lay in his bed like. I would just get anxious,

1078
00:53:03,080 --> 00:53:05,200
Speaker 3: and it got worse and worse, and it was one

1079
00:53:05,280 --> 00:53:09,160
Speaker 3: day I just I had lost like fifteen pounds. I

1080
00:53:09,160 --> 00:53:11,040
Speaker 3: got down to one hundred and ten pounds. It wasn't

1081
00:53:11,080 --> 00:53:15,400
Speaker 3: exercise and eating whatever I wanted, having more panic attacks,

1082
00:53:15,440 --> 00:53:19,279
Speaker 3: and so I was diagnosed. And I used to think

1083
00:53:19,320 --> 00:53:22,560
Speaker 3: the anxiety came from there. They'd be like, don't drink caffeine,

1084
00:53:22,719 --> 00:53:25,120
Speaker 3: you know, to make it right. And I'm doing all

1085
00:53:25,120 --> 00:53:27,120
Speaker 3: these yeah, and I'm doing all these things, and I'm

1086
00:53:27,239 --> 00:53:29,799
Speaker 3: you know, I'm still getting anxious. Like now, it's just

1087
00:53:29,880 --> 00:53:32,080
Speaker 3: not at night. I could just be driving somewhere and

1088
00:53:32,120 --> 00:53:35,040
Speaker 3: it would just hit me. And you know, when you

1089
00:53:35,040 --> 00:53:39,520
Speaker 3: have anxiety, if you feel like you're really about to die, yes,

1090
00:53:39,600 --> 00:53:42,719
Speaker 3: I would go to yard, called it the ambulance, and

1091
00:53:42,760 --> 00:53:44,680
Speaker 3: they'd be like, nothing's wrong with you. Go take a

1092
00:53:44,760 --> 00:53:48,400
Speaker 3: tones's gas or it's just anxiety. Do you want anxiety medication?

1093
00:53:48,480 --> 00:53:50,840
Speaker 3: I'd be like, no, I'm not taking that. And it

1094
00:53:50,880 --> 00:53:53,080
Speaker 3: got to a point where it was just like I

1095
00:53:53,120 --> 00:53:55,280
Speaker 3: have to that doesn't work. So I had to figure

1096
00:53:55,280 --> 00:53:57,720
Speaker 3: out a way to calm myself down instead of working

1097
00:53:57,760 --> 00:54:00,799
Speaker 3: on myself mentally. It would be like I'm gonna drive

1098
00:54:00,880 --> 00:54:02,640
Speaker 3: to the ear. I'm gonna just sit in the parking

1099
00:54:02,680 --> 00:54:05,440
Speaker 3: lot until I calm down. Because for me, it was like,

1100
00:54:05,480 --> 00:54:09,040
Speaker 3: at least if it's really something happening, you're right there.

1101
00:54:10,080 --> 00:54:14,000
Speaker 3: So I would do these things. And a friend of

1102
00:54:14,040 --> 00:54:16,600
Speaker 3: mine they were like they were with me when I

1103
00:54:16,600 --> 00:54:18,440
Speaker 3: had a panic attack on time, and they were like,

1104
00:54:18,480 --> 00:54:21,400
Speaker 3: it's nothing's happening to you. You don't understand how strong

1105
00:54:21,480 --> 00:54:25,279
Speaker 3: and powerful your mind is. You're creating that, like when

1106
00:54:25,320 --> 00:54:29,759
Speaker 3: you think about it, you create physical responses. And you know,

1107
00:54:29,840 --> 00:54:33,000
Speaker 3: I sat with him. I'm just you know, they sent

1108
00:54:33,120 --> 00:54:35,800
Speaker 3: me youtubes and I watch youtubes about it. Your mind

1109
00:54:35,840 --> 00:54:39,399
Speaker 3: is powerful, solid. First I had to accept that, right,

1110
00:54:39,440 --> 00:54:42,040
Speaker 3: and I think once you accept it, then you gain

1111
00:54:42,120 --> 00:54:45,520
Speaker 3: your power back. So I haven't had a panic attack

1112
00:54:45,640 --> 00:54:49,320
Speaker 3: since probably mid twenty twenty. And it was not only

1113
00:54:49,520 --> 00:54:52,880
Speaker 3: getting my mind right and elevating my consciousness and awareness.

1114
00:54:52,920 --> 00:54:55,560
Speaker 3: I was exercising every day. I changed my diet. I

1115
00:54:55,560 --> 00:54:57,960
Speaker 3: stopped eating pork. I don't eat beef for maybe like

1116
00:54:58,080 --> 00:55:02,080
Speaker 3: once or twice a year, you know, drinking a lot

1117
00:55:02,160 --> 00:55:05,520
Speaker 3: more water. And now I can feel one coming on,

1118
00:55:05,800 --> 00:55:08,239
Speaker 3: but it don't even get there because I already tell

1119
00:55:08,320 --> 00:55:11,440
Speaker 3: myself what's happening, and it don't even affect. Yeah, so

1120
00:55:11,640 --> 00:55:13,040
Speaker 3: I haven't had one since.

1121
00:55:13,600 --> 00:55:15,080
Speaker 2: That's why you said in the rap. You can believe

1122
00:55:15,120 --> 00:55:15,720
Speaker 2: what you choose.

1123
00:55:15,920 --> 00:55:19,120
Speaker 3: Yep ye. You create your own experiences.

1124
00:55:19,640 --> 00:55:22,480
Speaker 2: And I just noticed this we eat, we eat each other,

1125
00:55:22,520 --> 00:55:23,120
Speaker 2: that's your label.

1126
00:55:25,680 --> 00:55:26,520
Speaker 4: Yeah, I.

1127
00:55:28,520 --> 00:55:34,960
Speaker 3: Wasn't ready to announce it.

1128
00:55:35,080 --> 00:55:36,480
Speaker 2: Each other Jambling rock Nation.

1129
00:55:36,600 --> 00:55:39,600
Speaker 3: I'm like, oh yeah, artist.

1130
00:55:43,239 --> 00:55:45,920
Speaker 2: Album, right, yeah, but.

1131
00:55:46,040 --> 00:55:50,840
Speaker 3: It's okay, it's now. I could still have my moment

1132
00:55:50,960 --> 00:55:54,880
Speaker 3: when that time comes. But yes, I started. This is

1133
00:55:54,920 --> 00:55:59,880
Speaker 3: my last album on Jamling Records, and that's my family forever.

1134
00:56:00,000 --> 00:56:01,600
Speaker 3: But it got to a point where I felt like,

1135
00:56:02,320 --> 00:56:04,840
Speaker 3: you know, I've learned so much. I feel like I

1136
00:56:04,960 --> 00:56:07,799
Speaker 3: reached the ceiling. And it's like you leave the nest

1137
00:56:07,920 --> 00:56:10,320
Speaker 3: many times over in life. You know, you get eighteen,

1138
00:56:10,440 --> 00:56:12,440
Speaker 3: leave the home, you leave the nest, and I feel

1139
00:56:12,440 --> 00:56:14,520
Speaker 3: like you do it many times over. So you know,

1140
00:56:14,560 --> 00:56:16,919
Speaker 3: I told going Knife, I was like, I think it's

1141
00:56:16,960 --> 00:56:19,719
Speaker 3: time for me, you know, to try this on my own.

1142
00:56:20,120 --> 00:56:22,800
Speaker 3: So I have a business partner, Andre Mego, who's also

1143
00:56:22,840 --> 00:56:26,280
Speaker 3: an artist, and our first artist that we signed together

1144
00:56:26,360 --> 00:56:33,360
Speaker 3: is Nico brim Nao love it. Yeah, So I'm excited to,

1145
00:56:33,960 --> 00:56:36,920
Speaker 3: you know, introduce that more to the world.

1146
00:56:38,080 --> 00:56:40,600
Speaker 5: That's why he got his own interlude on the projects.

1147
00:56:40,239 --> 00:56:43,400
Speaker 3: While he has project Yeah.

1148
00:56:42,920 --> 00:56:46,359
Speaker 1: Well big ceo rap you know what I mean. It's

1149
00:56:46,360 --> 00:56:48,200
Speaker 1: a pleasure. Thank you for your time as always.

1150
00:56:48,200 --> 00:56:50,319
Speaker 3: Thank you, Thank y'all for making space for me, thank

1151
00:56:50,360 --> 00:56:53,200
Speaker 3: you for always saying my name your like. I appreciate the.

1152
00:56:53,239 --> 00:56:55,560
Speaker 2: Love absolutely, Please don't cry.

1153
00:56:55,600 --> 00:56:58,440
Speaker 1: It's out right now and it's rhap City y'all. It's

1154
00:56:58,440 --> 00:56:59,120
Speaker 1: the Breakfast Club.