WEBVTT - Breadwinner with Heather McMahan 0:00:00.920 --> 0:00:04.040 Hi, Catherine, Hi Chelsea, Hello, Hello, Hello, what a week? 0:00:04.080 --> 0:00:04.640 What a world? 0:00:04.720 --> 0:00:07.120 I mean, honestly, have you been I well, I've been 0:00:07.120 --> 0:00:09.400 spending a lot of time in my hyperbaric chamber. 0:00:09.600 --> 0:00:10.160 Last week. 0:00:10.400 --> 0:00:12.239 I had some healing to do, so I was in 0:00:12.280 --> 0:00:15.400 there getting after it, and so I read about four books. 0:00:15.600 --> 0:00:18.279 I reread that book Letting Go, the one I love 0:00:18.360 --> 0:00:21.280 to talk about. Yes, and it couldn't have come at 0:00:21.280 --> 0:00:22.720 a better time. I should have read it about two 0:00:22.720 --> 0:00:26.000 months ago. And I want anyone who is going through 0:00:26.040 --> 0:00:30.960 any sort of turmoil, stress, negative patterns of thoughts or 0:00:31.000 --> 0:00:33.199 any of those things, anyone who needs to put a 0:00:33.240 --> 0:00:35.560 little extra pep in your step. This is a very 0:00:35.800 --> 0:00:39.880 deep book about metaphysics, so it's kind of I've started 0:00:39.880 --> 0:00:41.640 to read this book before and put it down about 0:00:41.640 --> 0:00:43.839 ten pages in, going well this is too much. But 0:00:44.040 --> 0:00:46.240 I promise you, if you can get past that window 0:00:46.640 --> 0:00:49.360 and you don't give up, you will change your vibes 0:00:49.440 --> 0:00:50.560 within twenty four hours. 0:00:50.640 --> 0:00:52.519 It sounds like it comes back into your life when 0:00:52.560 --> 0:00:52.960 you need it. 0:00:53.000 --> 0:00:55.160 Well, it should have come a lot sooner, okay, Catherine, 0:00:55.320 --> 0:00:57.680 Because you know I was getting stressed out about all 0:00:57.680 --> 0:01:00.000 the nonsense going on around my house you know, finally 0:01:00.160 --> 0:01:03.880 we're seeing my house come together and progress and everything. 0:01:03.920 --> 0:01:06.840 But again, you know, letting negativity. 0:01:06.280 --> 0:01:08.600 Get you is up to you. You don't have to 0:01:08.640 --> 0:01:09.240 go into that. 0:01:09.400 --> 0:01:11.440 And like I know, people are dealing with much more, 0:01:11.760 --> 0:01:15.240 much more serious problems and much less serious problems. But 0:01:15.480 --> 0:01:20.039 like when you actually change your outlook and your vibration, 0:01:20.280 --> 0:01:22.959 you change everything that's coming your way all of a sudden, 0:01:23.000 --> 0:01:25.600 when nothing seems to be going right, and you can 0:01:25.640 --> 0:01:29.120 get in there and actually understand what letting go means, 0:01:29.720 --> 0:01:31.880 things start to go right, and then you start to 0:01:31.920 --> 0:01:34.399 get all these opportunities start to come your way, and 0:01:34.440 --> 0:01:37.240 then fixes come your way, and nicer people come your way, 0:01:37.319 --> 0:01:40.640 and people want to help. And it's been it's really 0:01:40.680 --> 0:01:42.000 transform I mean, I'm still reading it. 0:01:42.000 --> 0:01:42.399 I read it. 0:01:42.680 --> 0:01:44.360 I'm in the middle of it now, but I won't 0:01:44.400 --> 0:01:46.080 go that long without rereading it again. 0:01:46.280 --> 0:01:47.160 Yeah, that's awesome. 0:01:47.240 --> 0:01:49.840 It's by David Hawkings. For anyone listening. 0:01:50.040 --> 0:01:51.080 He is no longer with us. 0:01:51.600 --> 0:01:53.600 Oh he's dead. He's dead. Oh well, trying to get 0:01:53.600 --> 0:01:54.120 over the shell. 0:01:54.240 --> 0:01:55.000 But we did. 0:01:55.080 --> 0:01:56.640 I was going to say we should book him. He 0:01:56.760 --> 0:01:58.120 was not alive. He was not alive. 0:01:58.240 --> 0:02:01.040 Unfortunately I had just finished my reading goal for the year. 0:02:01.160 --> 0:02:04.240 I'm very excited. I'm what was the goal thirty two books? 0:02:04.240 --> 0:02:07.720 And I finished last night thirty two the year for 0:02:07.800 --> 0:02:09.440 the year. How did you come up with that number? 0:02:09.520 --> 0:02:11.080 I just sort of guessed. I was like, well, not 0:02:11.160 --> 0:02:13.280 quite three a month and not quite two, so you know, 0:02:13.320 --> 0:02:14.560 so that's great. 0:02:15.000 --> 0:02:15.600 Thank for you. 0:02:15.960 --> 0:02:19.280 Reading is really the biggest gift we can give ourselves. 0:02:18.760 --> 0:02:22.120 Truly, And you know what, I have been using good Reads, 0:02:22.120 --> 0:02:23.920 which it like keeps track of everything and it really 0:02:24.000 --> 0:02:25.320 sort of gamifies reading. 0:02:25.440 --> 0:02:28.000 So you're like, oh, no, I'm like a five percent instead. 0:02:27.720 --> 0:02:29.840 Of yes, it's so nice. Have you read the book 0:02:29.840 --> 0:02:30.880 on the Island of Sea Women? 0:02:31.400 --> 0:02:33.880 I gave you the copy? Actually, oh, I was going 0:02:33.960 --> 0:02:34.880 to ask have you read it? 0:02:34.919 --> 0:02:35.359 Oh my god? 0:02:35.400 --> 0:02:36.840 Yeah, Well I started reading it and I had to 0:02:36.919 --> 0:02:38.519 read another book for another guest we have. 0:02:38.639 --> 0:02:40.520 We're having on but I'm in it. And then I 0:02:40.520 --> 0:02:41.080 saw that it's. 0:02:41.000 --> 0:02:43.520 A show on Apple Oh my gosh, it's an show 0:02:43.560 --> 0:02:45.440 on Apple TV called I was like, wait, well, I 0:02:45.440 --> 0:02:46.680 didn't want to watch it because I want to read 0:02:46.720 --> 0:02:48.519 the book first. Yeah, It's like, if I watch it, 0:02:48.560 --> 0:02:51.360 I'm not going to read the books. It's fascinating. It 0:02:51.360 --> 0:02:54.240 is fascinating. That's a cool book. It's a really cool book. 0:02:54.480 --> 0:02:56.400 I tried to get my friend and I were like, oh, 0:02:56.440 --> 0:02:58.920 what should we read from Abraham for Gayes, you know, 0:02:59.040 --> 0:03:03.400 like I wrote Convenent of Water yeah, and Cutting for 0:03:03.480 --> 0:03:06.200 Stone was recommended to me by like three people. So 0:03:06.240 --> 0:03:09.160 I gave it to my friend and he was like, 0:03:09.560 --> 0:03:11.799 nothing has happened in this book in two hundred pages, 0:03:11.800 --> 0:03:13.760 and I go, oh, I was gonna let you read 0:03:13.800 --> 0:03:16.080 it by yourself, because after fifteen pages, I was like, 0:03:16.320 --> 0:03:17.520 I can't go down this word. 0:03:17.639 --> 0:03:21.880 But it's just his writing is so dense. It's dense, 0:03:21.919 --> 0:03:24.359 and it's a far away land like Island of Sea. 0:03:24.400 --> 0:03:26.760 Woman is obviously in a far away land literal, but 0:03:27.280 --> 0:03:29.360 this is really this is another far away land. And 0:03:29.400 --> 0:03:32.160 I'm like, I don't, I don't know what you're talking about, 0:03:32.320 --> 0:03:35.120 and I don't. I don't want to read hard right now, 0:03:35.200 --> 0:03:38.120 Like I mean, letting go is something I'm familiar with. 0:03:38.240 --> 0:03:40.320 You know, you just have to get back in the practice. Yeah, 0:03:40.360 --> 0:03:42.320 so that's easier, even though that is deep. 0:03:42.760 --> 0:03:44.240 I kept thinking of me when I was reading this 0:03:44.280 --> 0:03:45.400 last book that I just finished. 0:03:45.440 --> 0:03:50.560 It's called Night Bitch, Have you read it, date bitch. 0:03:51.200 --> 0:03:53.040 It's a movie or it's going to be a movie 0:03:53.040 --> 0:03:55.680 with Amy Adams, and it's by a Mennonite author, which 0:03:55.680 --> 0:03:57.000 is what made me first. 0:03:56.840 --> 0:03:57.920 Get interested in it. 0:03:57.920 --> 0:04:00.920 It's kind of a horror, kind of a little magical realism, 0:04:00.960 --> 0:04:04.200 but it's about a woman who is a new mom 0:04:04.360 --> 0:04:07.360 and she believes she's like turning into a dog at night. 0:04:08.080 --> 0:04:09.400 So it's a little wild, okay. 0:04:09.560 --> 0:04:13.800 But also it's an incredible meditation on motherhood, on being 0:04:13.840 --> 0:04:16.520 a woman, on the responsibilities that we face, on not 0:04:16.600 --> 0:04:17.599 asking for what we need. 0:04:17.800 --> 0:04:20.240 So a lot of there seems to be a lot 0:04:20.240 --> 0:04:20.960 of that going around. 0:04:21.000 --> 0:04:23.440 I can't wait until after the election and hopefully in 0:04:23.480 --> 0:04:26.040 success it'll just be all positive female vibes, you know 0:04:26.120 --> 0:04:28.680 what I mean, if we can make this happen. I'm 0:04:28.680 --> 0:04:31.880 already pretending it did happen. I campaigned earlier this week 0:04:32.040 --> 0:04:34.880 for the first time actually in this election, which you know, 0:04:34.960 --> 0:04:37.120 I've been doing other things, but more quiet because you know, 0:04:37.120 --> 0:04:38.960 people don't like what I love to bang on and 0:04:39.000 --> 0:04:42.520 bang on with Jane Fonda. Actually, my girlfriend Connie Brittan 0:04:42.560 --> 0:04:45.160 this week in Alvuquerquez. Yes, we went earlier this week, 0:04:45.200 --> 0:04:45.840 so that was fun. 0:04:46.160 --> 0:04:46.320 Oh. 0:04:46.440 --> 0:04:47.520 Also, I'm coming. 0:04:47.880 --> 0:04:48.440 Where am I coming? 0:04:48.520 --> 0:04:53.480 Kansas City, Saint Louis, and Indianapolis. Tickets are still available. 0:04:53.680 --> 0:04:56.760 I asked my agents, I'm like, why are tickets still available? 0:04:56.800 --> 0:04:58.720 And they said, because this is your third time returning 0:04:58.760 --> 0:05:02.159 to the market years And I'm like, isn't that your job? 0:05:02.400 --> 0:05:04.240 Come on, let's shop people anyway. 0:05:04.520 --> 0:05:06.719 And then I'm going back to Vegas November two and 0:05:06.760 --> 0:05:07.640 November thirtieth. 0:05:07.680 --> 0:05:08.440 So that's fun. 0:05:08.880 --> 0:05:09.960 Oh yeah, our guest today. 0:05:10.120 --> 0:05:12.880 I watched her new special that has just came out, 0:05:12.960 --> 0:05:15.640 which is really funny, called Breadwinner, and her name is 0:05:15.640 --> 0:05:18.720 Heather McMahon, so please welcome Heather McMahon. The good thing 0:05:18.760 --> 0:05:21.680 about chows is is that they're one person dog like 0:05:21.680 --> 0:05:22.880 they're not interested in others. 0:05:23.000 --> 0:05:23.400 Uh huh. 0:05:23.400 --> 0:05:26.680 And I never really noticed that, but I don't mind 0:05:26.680 --> 0:05:28.719 it anyway. Like my friends would come over and walk 0:05:28.720 --> 0:05:31.080 into the room and the dogs wouldn't move. Yeah, And 0:05:31.160 --> 0:05:34.360 I was like, well that's you're insecure. You care about that, 0:05:34.440 --> 0:05:36.560 you know what I mean? Like, who cares what? I 0:05:36.600 --> 0:05:38.400 don't want a dog jumping all over me. But this 0:05:38.520 --> 0:05:42.320 dog is so he distributes his love so evenly to 0:05:42.480 --> 0:05:43.359 men and women. 0:05:44.000 --> 0:05:46.080 It is such a joy like well opportunists. 0:05:46.160 --> 0:05:48.480 Yeah, and he's so sweet and he cuddles up to people, 0:05:48.480 --> 0:05:52.240 and then the joy that that elicits is so joyful 0:05:52.279 --> 0:05:54.120 for me. So he's really bringing I didn't know how 0:05:54.160 --> 0:05:55.360 much joy I was missing out on. 0:05:55.520 --> 0:05:56.000 Yeah. 0:05:56.040 --> 0:05:57.960 So that's my story and I'm sticking to it. 0:05:58.080 --> 0:05:59.960 You should stick to that. I am a frenchie mom, 0:06:00.080 --> 0:06:02.679 so I get it. I mean, they like growled, they screamed, 0:06:02.720 --> 0:06:06.160 They're you know, breathing deeply in your face, and I'm obsessed. 0:06:06.200 --> 0:06:07.800 I look at my dogs like I breast fat on. 0:06:07.880 --> 0:06:09.360 I cauried them for nine months, the whole thing. Those 0:06:09.360 --> 0:06:12.160 are my children, some craving breast milk. That's weird that 0:06:12.200 --> 0:06:15.320 you bring that up. I'm sitting with Heather McMahon, Hi, Anny, 0:06:15.360 --> 0:06:17.200 how are you. I'm just so happy that I know 0:06:17.240 --> 0:06:20.320 who you are because you and I don't. 0:06:22.640 --> 0:06:25.919 I don't mean that the way it sounded, but I 0:06:25.960 --> 0:06:29.840 didn't know you and then Jamie somehow, which is why 0:06:30.000 --> 0:06:31.520 I wanted to talk to you, because I'm like, how 0:06:31.520 --> 0:06:34.040 could we not know each other? Because you're a very 0:06:34.080 --> 0:06:38.040 accomplished stand up comedian and the only reason and this 0:06:38.120 --> 0:06:41.560 sounds terrible, but whatever, I the only reason you came 0:06:41.600 --> 0:06:45.159 to my attention is because Jamie Greenberg, our mutual friend, 0:06:45.200 --> 0:06:48.599 my megas and your makeup artist, I'm presuming, was like, 0:06:48.720 --> 0:06:50.360 oh my god, you have to meet Heather McMahon. 0:06:50.400 --> 0:06:51.120 You were going to love her. 0:06:51.120 --> 0:06:52.440 And I was like, how do I not know who 0:06:52.480 --> 0:06:55.120 Heather McMahon is? And then I started seeing your name everywhere? 0:06:55.279 --> 0:06:57.240 And then I saw you were doing the pantagious like 0:06:57.600 --> 0:06:59.440 right before I was doing it, and I was like, Oh, 0:06:59.520 --> 0:07:01.160 you're a real successful comedian. 0:07:01.520 --> 0:07:02.360 How the fuck have. 0:07:02.400 --> 0:07:03.000 We not met? 0:07:03.440 --> 0:07:05.080 It's because I'm not in La. I used to be 0:07:05.120 --> 0:07:07.080 in LA, and I owe a lot to Jamie. Shout 0:07:07.080 --> 0:07:10.000 out to Jamie Greenberg. She not too many. You know 0:07:10.040 --> 0:07:12.080 what that? Can I tell you that cut has been 0:07:12.200 --> 0:07:15.320 very busy and she's like, you have a book me. 0:07:15.280 --> 0:07:17.080 In a minute ago, Jamie, You're always fucking book. 0:07:17.240 --> 0:07:17.920 That's a funny thing. 0:07:17.920 --> 0:07:19.760 She says that because Jamie, I hope you're listening, and 0:07:19.800 --> 0:07:21.840 she is because she listens to every podcast. She said 0:07:21.880 --> 0:07:23.560 the same thing to me. She goes, are you sure 0:07:23.600 --> 0:07:25.520 I'm still number one on your call sheet? And I said, 0:07:25.560 --> 0:07:27.240 I'm pretty sure. Not number one on my call sheet, 0:07:27.240 --> 0:07:29.000 but number one of my makeup, and I go, yeah, 0:07:29.040 --> 0:07:32.240 I'm sure, yes, Jamie never availed, and then so I 0:07:32.320 --> 0:07:35.440 made sure again that she was and guess who was 0:07:35.480 --> 0:07:38.680 not available the next sixteen fucking times I needed hair 0:07:38.720 --> 0:07:39.160 and makeup. 0:07:39.600 --> 0:07:41.440 So Jamie, this is your intervention. 0:07:42.160 --> 0:07:44.080 Jamie. We know you have three children who have a 0:07:44.080 --> 0:07:45.440 lot of after school activities. 0:07:45.520 --> 0:07:48.040 A lot of them is like a professional softball player already. 0:07:48.040 --> 0:07:50.120 And she's only fucking she's not even fourteen years old. 0:07:50.120 --> 0:07:51.280 Like they just came back from Italy. 0:07:51.520 --> 0:07:52.240 She was playing. 0:07:52.040 --> 0:07:54.840 Softball in Italy. In Italy, your life has gotten away 0:07:54.840 --> 0:07:57.440 from you. Oh my gosh, I said, this is extreme. 0:07:57.440 --> 0:07:58.920 I'm telling you right now, I don't have kids yet, 0:07:58.920 --> 0:08:01.080 but when I do, they're not doing travel sports. There's 0:08:01.160 --> 0:08:03.840 no travel baseball. I hope I have indoor kiddies. I 0:08:03.840 --> 0:08:05.360 hope that they just want to they want to play 0:08:05.360 --> 0:08:06.720 Halo all day. That's great. 0:08:06.440 --> 0:08:09.800 I'm gonna strike me as somebody who would want children, really. 0:08:09.880 --> 0:08:12.600 I mean, you just, well, your personality doesn't seem do 0:08:12.640 --> 0:08:14.440 you want your selfish? 0:08:16.160 --> 0:08:17.480 People something? All the time they're like, are you an 0:08:17.520 --> 0:08:19.520 only child? I'm like, I don't know what that says, 0:08:19.520 --> 0:08:22.400 but no, I am not. No, I do want kids. 0:08:22.440 --> 0:08:24.600 It's I don't know how. I guess I just wanted 0:08:24.640 --> 0:08:28.360 you to not want I know, here's the thing. I 0:08:28.440 --> 0:08:31.160 want kids. I don't want a baby, though, I want 0:08:31.200 --> 0:08:33.000 like a ten year old. Well those are easy to get, 0:08:33.040 --> 0:08:35.520 by the way. Yeah, I really want like a kid 0:08:35.600 --> 0:08:37.200 who can kind of talk back. I want that like 0:08:37.320 --> 0:08:40.200 parent child relationship. But there is nothing inside of me 0:08:40.280 --> 0:08:43.240 that craves the baby, that craves the any of that. 0:08:43.320 --> 0:08:44.920 And I think it's just because I see all my friends, 0:08:44.920 --> 0:08:46.640 like I'm in my late thirties, Like they're all going 0:08:46.679 --> 0:08:49.120 through the toddler pace and they're all fucking miserable, and 0:08:49.160 --> 0:08:51.400 they really when you're the only friend, I mean, you 0:08:51.440 --> 0:08:53.839 get this when you're the only girlfriend in a group 0:08:53.880 --> 0:08:55.320 that doesn't have kids, and then you come over and 0:08:55.320 --> 0:08:57.200 you're the fun aunt and they trauma dump all their 0:08:57.200 --> 0:08:58.720 shit on you. You're like, and then in the same 0:08:58.720 --> 0:09:00.720 breath they're like, so when you're getting pregned, what the 0:09:00.760 --> 0:09:01.840 fuck do you expect from me? 0:09:02.280 --> 0:09:04.240 You know, well, what is your game plan? If you're 0:09:04.280 --> 0:09:06.600 in your late thirties, do you have you tried to 0:09:06.600 --> 0:09:07.080 have a baby. 0:09:07.160 --> 0:09:09.000 Yes, I tried to have a baby. I have one 0:09:09.120 --> 0:09:10.760 baby girl embryo on ice. 0:09:11.000 --> 0:09:11.440 It's crazy. 0:09:11.480 --> 0:09:13.120 They can tell you the sex. Oh yeah, I have 0:09:13.160 --> 0:09:15.240 a daughter. Yeah yeah, yeah yeah. So I did that 0:09:15.280 --> 0:09:17.880 a couple of years ago. But then I've gotta probably 0:09:17.920 --> 0:09:20.360 do another round. I don't I don't want to get pregnant. 0:09:20.400 --> 0:09:21.240 My mom, can't you. 0:09:21.200 --> 0:09:22.199 Just have someone else have the bab. 0:09:22.280 --> 0:09:24.680 I can, But the problem is the statistics of when 0:09:24.679 --> 0:09:27.480 you have Usually most people have multiple embryos. It's because 0:09:27.520 --> 0:09:29.520 I only have one. The stats are really low for 0:09:29.559 --> 0:09:31.600 it to stick in a surrogate. So I have to 0:09:31.600 --> 0:09:33.400 do another round of IVF just to even get a 0:09:33.400 --> 0:09:34.199 couple more on its. 0:09:34.720 --> 0:09:35.200 It's a bitch. 0:09:35.559 --> 0:09:38.280 And then after IVF you basically feel like you had 0:09:38.280 --> 0:09:40.160 a baby. So you go to like through postpart and blues, 0:09:40.320 --> 0:09:41.800 all your hair falls out, you put on the way, 0:09:41.920 --> 0:09:43.920 your hormones are all fucking crazy. Then you have nothing 0:09:43.920 --> 0:09:46.480 to show for it. It's fucking awful. So I don't know. 0:09:46.840 --> 0:09:49.360 It's funny the other day literally like, Okay, I definitely 0:09:49.440 --> 0:09:50.760 want to have a kid. I got to think about 0:09:50.800 --> 0:09:52.199 this next year. But I'm trying to get these other, 0:09:52.240 --> 0:09:53.880 you know, projects off the road and all this shit. 0:09:54.120 --> 0:09:55.680 And it's like it's different when you're a woman. Like, 0:09:55.760 --> 0:09:57.680 if I'm starring in my own show or some shit, 0:09:57.880 --> 0:10:00.800 guess what, I can't be pregnant for the show exactly, 0:10:01.000 --> 0:10:03.199 So I need to find a you know, a small 0:10:03.320 --> 0:10:05.679 Swedish woman who wants to carry my enormous baby. 0:10:05.840 --> 0:10:07.720 Is it better to have a smaller woman carry your 0:10:07.720 --> 0:10:10.360 baby than a larger woman less room for maneuver? 0:10:10.559 --> 0:10:10.880 Like what? 0:10:11.080 --> 0:10:11.200 No? 0:10:11.240 --> 0:10:13.160 I definitely think I need a large woman. My husband's 0:10:13.200 --> 0:10:15.319 like six ' three. He's a large Italian guy. I mean, 0:10:15.360 --> 0:10:17.959 I'm a sixteen. You know, it's a big baby. It's 0:10:17.960 --> 0:10:20.120 going to be right, Okay, copy that. Yeah, but I 0:10:20.120 --> 0:10:21.720 would if somebody just has a ten year old that 0:10:21.720 --> 0:10:23.560 there's zika that you want to drop off at my 0:10:23.559 --> 0:10:24.560 health I think i'd rather that. 0:10:24.640 --> 0:10:26.440 I feel like you could easily adopt a ten year old, 0:10:26.480 --> 0:10:28.440 I mean probably from a different country, but or no, 0:10:28.600 --> 0:10:30.520 on the foster system, there's ten year olds, I mean 0:10:30.520 --> 0:10:32.480 if you can. Yeah, do you know how that's such 0:10:32.520 --> 0:10:34.800 a new that's probably a much easier age to adopt 0:10:34.920 --> 0:10:37.360 or foster a baby. Yeah, even though that sounds like 0:10:37.400 --> 0:10:40.520 a whole saga and of itself. Anyway, let's get back 0:10:40.559 --> 0:10:42.480 to why you don't think I should have kids. Yeah, 0:10:42.559 --> 0:10:44.800 I'm against you my children. Okay, let's just be honest. 0:10:44.880 --> 0:10:46.040 Yeah, I love it. 0:10:46.080 --> 0:10:47.240 I love what. 0:10:47.520 --> 0:10:50.720 But let's get back to why I didn't know you. Okay, okay, 0:10:50.720 --> 0:10:52.480 because I can't get my mind around that. Because I 0:10:52.480 --> 0:10:55.000 saw you at the Netflix as a Joke festival and 0:10:55.040 --> 0:10:56.200 you came up to me and we're like hi. 0:10:56.280 --> 0:10:56.880 I was like, oh, my. 0:10:56.840 --> 0:11:00.800 God, right experience, Yes, hello, what's happening? And then you 0:11:01.160 --> 0:11:03.200 said to me, You're like, I don't know any. 0:11:03.000 --> 0:11:04.640 Of these people. I don't know anyone. 0:11:04.720 --> 0:11:07.360 So then I realized, oh, okay, you must have come 0:11:07.440 --> 0:11:09.240 up somewhere else other than La. 0:11:09.280 --> 0:11:11.559 So I was in LA and then I had to 0:11:11.640 --> 0:11:13.240 kind of pick up my life moved back home to Atlanta. 0:11:13.280 --> 0:11:15.240 My dad had died all of a sudden, very quickly 0:11:15.240 --> 0:11:16.960 from cancer, so of course my family was like, oh, 0:11:16.960 --> 0:11:18.720 you're just going to come back and like deal with it. 0:11:19.080 --> 0:11:21.880 So I had been doing like UCB and improv and 0:11:21.920 --> 0:11:24.120 sketch and all that in LA and stand up. But 0:11:24.160 --> 0:11:25.599 then I just kind of picked up moved home, and 0:11:25.600 --> 0:11:27.560 then it wasn't until I went back to Atlanta that 0:11:27.600 --> 0:11:29.280 all of a sudden, like then, the career took off 0:11:29.480 --> 0:11:31.600 so I wasn't in the real stand up scene here. 0:11:31.640 --> 0:11:34.000 I was doing more like improv and sketch and then 0:11:34.080 --> 0:11:36.160 it just kind of took off from Instagram and being 0:11:36.200 --> 0:11:38.800 online and then I just hit the ground running and 0:11:38.840 --> 0:11:40.640 was on the road. So I was more like New 0:11:40.720 --> 0:11:43.080 York and Atlanta base, but I was out here like 0:11:43.160 --> 0:11:45.040 doing the I thought I was gonna do SNL and 0:11:45.080 --> 0:11:47.480 like putting on the wigs, doing the characters, doing the sketches, 0:11:47.559 --> 0:11:49.559 and you know, they never called, so I was like, 0:11:49.600 --> 0:11:50.600 we're going back to stand up. 0:11:50.760 --> 0:11:53.320 Well, from everything I can gather about, SNL doesn't sound 0:11:53.360 --> 0:11:55.120 like the most exciting environment. 0:11:56.559 --> 0:11:57.720 Exciting, but it doesn't. 0:11:57.520 --> 0:11:59.840 Sound like the most positive environment. Yeah, it SAME's a 0:11:59.840 --> 0:12:02.400 bit soul crushing, Yeah, and like everyone's just on cocaine 0:12:02.440 --> 0:12:04.880 the whole time and I'm tired. It also feels like, 0:12:05.280 --> 0:12:08.120 you know, like it's the abuse of the situation, like 0:12:08.160 --> 0:12:10.200 the amount that they work, all of the writers and 0:12:10.240 --> 0:12:12.720 all of the performers. It hasn't caught up to where 0:12:12.720 --> 0:12:14.920 we are in modern day society. Like, yeah, it's almost 0:12:14.960 --> 0:12:17.480 like like women's gymnastics team, Like you're not allowed to 0:12:17.520 --> 0:12:19.320 do that anymore, you know what I mean, Like you 0:12:19.360 --> 0:12:20.720 can't be working all fucking night. 0:12:20.840 --> 0:12:22.040 Yeah, and it is still like. 0:12:22.000 --> 0:12:24.120 The Holy Grail as like a comedy writer to like 0:12:24.160 --> 0:12:26.040 get that gig. But now I said, you know, I 0:12:26.480 --> 0:12:27.959 reworked the vision board. I'm like, well, now I just 0:12:28.000 --> 0:12:29.640 want to host, Like I just want to be able 0:12:29.640 --> 0:12:31.520 to say, you know, we got a great show stick around, 0:12:31.840 --> 0:12:34.520 you know, pitbulls, our musical artists. It's like this new goal. 0:12:34.600 --> 0:12:36.199 Okay, so do you have a vision board? 0:12:36.280 --> 0:12:36.480 I do. 0:12:36.679 --> 0:12:38.760 I've got a fucking loser. I want to know about 0:12:38.840 --> 0:12:40.959 vision boards. Okay, So here's my thing. I started it 0:12:41.000 --> 0:12:43.400 because I'd like to do arch and craft stuff, right. 0:12:43.440 --> 0:12:45.120 I like tactile things with my hands that keep me 0:12:45.120 --> 0:12:47.480 away from scrolling on TikTok, and like letting my brain 0:12:47.559 --> 0:12:48.959 loose out of my ears. And I like to get 0:12:49.000 --> 0:12:50.559 really high when I do a vision board. So on 0:12:50.679 --> 0:12:52.400 like New Year's Day, I'll take a couple of gummies. 0:12:52.559 --> 0:12:54.920 My husband's watching you know, sports in the background, and 0:12:54.960 --> 0:12:56.960 I'm just chillin and I and I make my little 0:12:57.000 --> 0:12:59.120 creative vision board. And then I made it like four 0:12:59.160 --> 0:13:00.720 or five years ago, and and all the shit started 0:13:00.760 --> 0:13:03.800 to come true and I freakishly and I say, it's weird. 0:13:04.080 --> 0:13:06.079 I think I'm onto something. So then I just make 0:13:06.120 --> 0:13:08.319 them every year and I keep checking things off the list. 0:13:08.400 --> 0:13:10.360 Do you have a vision board cutn I mean I 0:13:10.400 --> 0:13:12.400 have done them before, and it is weird. You go 0:13:12.440 --> 0:13:14.000 back and look and you're like, mo's all right there. 0:13:14.080 --> 0:13:15.800 I do more of a written one. I'm more of 0:13:15.800 --> 0:13:18.120 a words person, so I've written my stuff out. But 0:13:18.200 --> 0:13:19.880 you go back and look and you're like that that 0:13:20.080 --> 0:13:21.920 this that that, it's weird. 0:13:22.240 --> 0:13:24.400 Yeah, and you're not mad at the things that didn't happen. 0:13:24.440 --> 0:13:26.760 You're just focusing on the things that did, yeah, because 0:13:26.840 --> 0:13:28.439 they could also happen in like ten years. 0:13:28.440 --> 0:13:30.560 Like I had this giant villa that I want to 0:13:30.600 --> 0:13:32.800 like raise my you know, kids that I probably won't 0:13:32.840 --> 0:13:34.920 have in Italy, and that's on there and I raised 0:13:35.200 --> 0:13:37.560 I want to raise my embryos there and you know 0:13:37.559 --> 0:13:40.600 it'll happen eventually. So yeah, it's just wold. I think 0:13:40.640 --> 0:13:42.680 it's also like a different way of goal setting, and 0:13:42.800 --> 0:13:44.920 especially you know if you're you know a little high, 0:13:44.960 --> 0:13:46.880 and you just start to visually put it together. But 0:13:46.960 --> 0:13:48.840 I mean I literally put like Radio City and all 0:13:48.880 --> 0:13:50.400 these things, and then they just started to check them 0:13:50.440 --> 0:13:52.240 off the list. It's fucking crazy. Wow. 0:13:52.360 --> 0:13:55.000 Yeah, I'm into that stuff to a degree, but I've 0:13:55.040 --> 0:13:57.440 never written, like, I've never done a vision board, and 0:13:57.520 --> 0:14:00.400 I really don't see myself ever doing that. It doesn't 0:14:00.440 --> 0:14:02.719 matter how many edibles, the more edibles I take, the 0:14:02.840 --> 0:14:05.760 less inclined I will become. I will be to write 0:14:05.800 --> 0:14:08.440 a vision board or create one. I also have anti 0:14:08.480 --> 0:14:11.559 crafts crafts I do. 0:14:12.679 --> 0:14:13.679 I don't have a blue sex. 0:14:13.800 --> 0:14:16.079 Yesterday, my cousin and I were traveling back from the 0:14:16.200 --> 0:14:18.559 road and she said she has a young daughter, and 0:14:18.600 --> 0:14:20.800 she was like, oh, plus, I have this huge crafts box. 0:14:20.840 --> 0:14:22.520 So because I was saying, she was saying, some days 0:14:22.520 --> 0:14:24.360 we don't leave the house at all, and I was saying, 0:14:24.400 --> 0:14:27.400 one of the most annoying things about having children is 0:14:27.440 --> 0:14:30.720 having to create activities for them all the time. Like, 0:14:30.800 --> 0:14:33.360 I have enough trouble keeping myself entertained. I don't need 0:14:33.400 --> 0:14:35.480 to be fucking entertaining other people, you know what I mean. 0:14:36.240 --> 0:14:38.440 Like yesterday, I came home. The other day I had 0:14:38.480 --> 0:14:40.960 performed on a Friday and Saturday night on the East Coast. 0:14:41.080 --> 0:14:43.640 I flew home and I took a xannex at three 0:14:43.640 --> 0:14:46.960