WEBVTT - Soccer Mommy

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<v Speaker 1>Pushkin.

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<v Speaker 2>Soccer Mommy is one of the standout singer songwriters to

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<v Speaker 2>merge over the last half decade. She was born Sophia

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<v Speaker 2>Allison and raised in Nashville, Tennessee, where she started playing

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<v Speaker 2>guitar at six years old. Sophia started posting her songs

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<v Speaker 2>on band camp in twenty fifteen under the name soccer

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<v Speaker 2>Mommy the summer before moving to New York to study

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<v Speaker 2>music business at NYU. Two years later, she dropped out

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<v Speaker 2>after signing her first record deal with Fat Possum. Since then,

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<v Speaker 2>she has released four albums and toured with artists like

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<v Speaker 2>Vampire Weekend, Phoebe Bridgers, and Mitski. Soccer Mommy's latest album, Evergreen,

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<v Speaker 2>is a reflection on grief and loneliness, and was described

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<v Speaker 2>recently by Pitchfork as the most laid back and pastoral

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<v Speaker 2>music of her career. This is broken record liner notes

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<v Speaker 2>for the digital age. I'm justin Ritchman. Here's Bruce Alum

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<v Speaker 2>with Soccer Mommy.

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<v Speaker 3>You've got name, You've got to face all these things.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't know Send James, It's Slyes Sun. You've got

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<v Speaker 4>a name. You've been with me? Where Argon Hashi faces

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<v Speaker 4>on a no.

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<v Speaker 5>Sles Bsnoyay, it's so makes.

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<v Speaker 4>Sense based the lever.

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<v Speaker 6>Fheard not the chance had ask her though, I'll ask you.

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<v Speaker 4>I've got a name, You've got a big sho.

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<v Speaker 7>Out of careny thing, and.

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<v Speaker 8>I ne.

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<v Speaker 4>N escape from.

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<v Speaker 3>Gibbert say linn if I moed.

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<v Speaker 5>Bosing, It's makes sense. Bosnoid leve fhard not the chance.

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<v Speaker 4>Side give th bosing. It can't forget boss, like.

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<v Speaker 9>The things on itself, for had not the chance side

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<v Speaker 9>tell the thing.

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<v Speaker 4>A sell the thing.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, that's the first it's the first grade song. Well

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<v Speaker 1>actually it's the first song and the first grade song

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<v Speaker 1>off your new album. So, Sophie Allison soccer mommy, thank

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<v Speaker 1>you so much for coming in. Yeah, thanks for having me,

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<v Speaker 1>your total trooper. You come in, you pick up the guitar,

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<v Speaker 1>I need some reverb, and then you just sit down

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<v Speaker 1>and play. That was no muss, no fuss.

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<v Speaker 8>It's always easier alone without it, without a band with you.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh really, yeah, they're bringing you down.

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<v Speaker 8>Well no, it's obviously I love playing with them, but

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<v Speaker 8>it's it's simpler. Yeah, you know, it's more straightforward. Everything

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<v Speaker 8>I write is just guitar and vocals. While I'm writing it,

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<v Speaker 8>So it's just like playing its simplest form.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay. For the guitar players out there who were saying, wow,

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<v Speaker 1>how'd she get that sound? What was your tuning?

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<v Speaker 8>It's open D. It's da D F sharp ad.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh okay, so like dad, dad, but you turn down

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<v Speaker 1>the F sharp exactly? Do you write a lot in that?

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<v Speaker 8>I do? Actually, I use it a lot. I mostly

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<v Speaker 8>use that open A, which is e A C sharp

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<v Speaker 8>eae and standard.

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<v Speaker 1>When did you, cause you started playing very young, when

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<v Speaker 1>did the different tunings come in?

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<v Speaker 8>That wasn't until like soccer mommy, pretty much until I

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<v Speaker 8>started writing songs for that. I think it was probably

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<v Speaker 8>about when I was like nineteen or twenty. I think

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<v Speaker 8>it's just a really good way if you've been playing

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<v Speaker 8>guitar for a long time and you kind of know

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<v Speaker 8>the neck a bit, you know chord shapes to take

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<v Speaker 8>all of that knowledge out of your hands a little

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<v Speaker 8>bit and to kind of erase that, like you can

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<v Speaker 8>get a little bit like formulaic. I think sometimes when

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<v Speaker 8>you know where to go next, and it definitely takes

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<v Speaker 8>that away.

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<v Speaker 1>Does it take a lot of rethinking or is it

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<v Speaker 1>the sort of thing you find a chord, you find

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<v Speaker 1>a good sound and then you move it up and

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<v Speaker 1>down the neck a little bit.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, it's kind of you have to rethink a lot,

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<v Speaker 8>but you do find things that I think in open

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<v Speaker 8>a for example, if I were to play like a

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<v Speaker 8>dominant seven chord just anywhere on the neck pretty much,

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<v Speaker 8>if I were to play that kind of shape, it

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<v Speaker 8>would be a minor chord, just randomly found that out.

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<v Speaker 8>But you just kind of you mess around until you

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<v Speaker 8>find something that sounds like a chord, sounds recognizable, and

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<v Speaker 8>then yeah, you can put it, put it anywhere, and

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<v Speaker 8>just have to maybe work around open strings sounding a

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<v Speaker 8>little funky and try to stay away from those if

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<v Speaker 8>it's not working.

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<v Speaker 1>I've read somewhere your father was a neuroscientist.

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<v Speaker 8>He is a neuroscientist.

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<v Speaker 1>What does he study.

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<v Speaker 8>I have no clue he does. He was, like, I know,

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<v Speaker 8>he was studying amphibians when I was younger. I think

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<v Speaker 8>he just runs like a lab for college students now,

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<v Speaker 8>so he's not doing anything crazy, you know, it's just

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<v Speaker 8>kind of lab work.

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<v Speaker 1>I think he would have some he would have some

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<v Speaker 1>thoughts on open tunings and how you it sort of

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<v Speaker 1>rearranges your neural pathways all that.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, I think it really does. It completely makes you

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<v Speaker 8>relearn that which you know, and like chord shapes, you know,

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<v Speaker 8>you have these new chord shapes that if you were

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<v Speaker 8>to blame in standard, it's like mush.

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<v Speaker 1>How did that change your song writing?

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<v Speaker 8>I think it just gave me more space to be inspired. Honestly.

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<v Speaker 8>I still write in standard too sometimes, but it's a

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<v Speaker 8>lot easier to come up with something new and fresh

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<v Speaker 8>and something that triggers something new in your brain, you know,

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<v Speaker 8>melodically or just kind of vibe wise, if you don't

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<v Speaker 8>have such a set idea of what you're going to

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<v Speaker 8>do and what you can.

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<v Speaker 1>Do, does it become a little more almost subconscious what

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<v Speaker 1>you're doing.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, you're just looking for sound, honestly, like when you're

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<v Speaker 8>doing an open tuning and you don't know chords, You're

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<v Speaker 8>just looking for something that sounds cool, and you're just

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<v Speaker 8>like putting your hands in places kind of guessing and

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<v Speaker 8>if something sounds weird and you can just move your

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<v Speaker 8>finger over a thread, move it up a thread, down

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<v Speaker 8>a fret, see if that changes anything. And then once

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<v Speaker 8>you get those, yeah, those kind of shapes, you can

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<v Speaker 8>get a little bit more normal with what you're expecting

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<v Speaker 8>to do and chord progressions and all that. But it

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<v Speaker 8>definitely is something that kind of unleashes this freedom in

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<v Speaker 8>the same way that people can write amazing music without

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<v Speaker 8>understanding an instrument at all. It's like you can kind

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<v Speaker 8>of get a freedom out.

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<v Speaker 1>Of it, and some people, if they learn an instrument too,

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<v Speaker 1>will feel a little constricted.

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<v Speaker 10>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, but you've got a lot of and you always

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<v Speaker 1>have in your music. You've got a lot of really

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<v Speaker 1>sort of harmonic moves in your songs. Do you write,

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<v Speaker 1>is it the harmony come first and then the melody?

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<v Speaker 8>It's always chords first. Yeah, it's always always guitar chords,

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<v Speaker 8>not necessarily the entire song written out, but I kind

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<v Speaker 8>of find a chord progression or something and start working

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<v Speaker 8>off of that with like lyrical and melodic ideas. Those

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<v Speaker 8>lyrics and melody usually kind of form together. The lyrics

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<v Speaker 8>maybe take a little longer. She tweaked a little bit,

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<v Speaker 8>but I try to make sure those are intertwined, because

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<v Speaker 8>I think that cadence and everything is really important.

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<v Speaker 1>You have a I think it's in the song change.

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<v Speaker 1>I think you've got a nice I think you've got

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<v Speaker 1>a nice key change right at the end of the chorus,

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<v Speaker 1>which I can't I can't quite remember what the aggression was.

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<v Speaker 8>I don't know what the key change goes. I wish

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<v Speaker 8>I could tell you, because it's in a crazy tuning,

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<v Speaker 8>so I have basically no idea what I'm playing. It's in.

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<v Speaker 8>It's like a Joni Mitchell tuning that I that I saw,

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<v Speaker 8>but it's I think it's dac fa fa D. I

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<v Speaker 8>think dak fad.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 8>That sounds like something definitely strange.

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<v Speaker 1>It's a very deep holl you're going into if you're

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<v Speaker 1>doing Joni Mitchell tune. Yeah, yeah, what did you just

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<v Speaker 1>hear one of her songs and start looking them up?

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<v Speaker 8>No? I think Actually my guitar player, Julian, who's my partner,

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<v Speaker 8>who had tuned one of the guitars in our house

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<v Speaker 8>to it.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, okay.

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<v Speaker 8>Sometimes we'll just give me one and say try this

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<v Speaker 8>and if I can't. If I don't find something in

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<v Speaker 8>a minute, I'm like, I don't like this one. If

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<v Speaker 8>I find like a really pretty sounding chord, I'm like, ooh.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting, You've also and I'm not I don't remember the song.

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<v Speaker 1>You've got a lot of boro chords and songs you

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<v Speaker 1>go to a lot of miners. When people that expect

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<v Speaker 1>a major one song, you've got a really nice walk

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<v Speaker 1>up from like the minor sixth, the flat six flat

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<v Speaker 1>seventh to the tonic, which is really unexpected. Songs are

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<v Speaker 1>full of you know, in an era where most songs

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<v Speaker 1>we hear have like four chords, Yeah, yours are always surprising.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah. I love chords and I love you know, surprising

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<v Speaker 8>changes that make you like kind of feel it. I

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<v Speaker 8>guess when it comes to a point in a song

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<v Speaker 8>and there's a strange chord and you're like, WHOA interesting.

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<v Speaker 8>I think that was something that used to be used

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<v Speaker 8>a lot more in particularly in pop music, Like even

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<v Speaker 8>when I was growing up. I think there's a lot

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<v Speaker 8>of really sneaky stuff going on in pop music. You

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<v Speaker 8>don't see it as much now, I don't think, but

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<v Speaker 8>I think you can still make things that are catchy

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<v Speaker 8>and you know, poppy, so to speak, and have those

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<v Speaker 8>kind of things start in there and it's kind of

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<v Speaker 8>like being sneakily kind of crazy in the middle of

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<v Speaker 8>a song that's right like pop.

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<v Speaker 1>And you know, you give people a little like you said,

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<v Speaker 1>you got a jolt when you find those things, So

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<v Speaker 1>of course it gives the listeners that too.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, it's I mean it feels good when you hear

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<v Speaker 8>people do that. I mean you look at like Nirvana

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<v Speaker 8>even for example, and you hear these kind of sometimes

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<v Speaker 8>slightly off chord progressions that are really satisfying with the

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<v Speaker 8>melodies and everything, and I think it inspires something a

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<v Speaker 8>little different, a little more exciting.

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<v Speaker 1>Sometimes I hear quite a bit of Elliott Smith and

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<v Speaker 1>you're playing too, But I don't know if.

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<v Speaker 8>That's I love Elliot Smith.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, yeah, so I'm not You're not going to stare

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<v Speaker 1>at me blankly.

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<v Speaker 8>Like what, No, I love Elliott Smith?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, Yeah, I think a lot of the major mindor

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<v Speaker 1>borrowed chords he does that a lot. I hear that

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<v Speaker 1>in you, and that's Beatles, I guess ultimately. But yeah, okay,

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<v Speaker 1>we're really nerding out on chords, So maybe we should

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<v Speaker 1>back up. The new album is Evergreen. Tell me about

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<v Speaker 1>how it came about.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, I mean, it's a long process writing an album.

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<v Speaker 8>I pretty much started right after the last album came out,

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<v Speaker 8>So summer twenty twenty two is when I really started

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<v Speaker 8>getting into it. Changes, which you brought up earlier, is

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<v Speaker 8>a little older. Actually, I wrote that during making the

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<v Speaker 8>last album and said this is not gonna fit and

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<v Speaker 8>kind of kept it for later.

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<v Speaker 1>Now, are you the kind of writer who I'm sitting

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<v Speaker 1>down every day, you know, pencil, paper in hand, guitar

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<v Speaker 1>at the ready, to write for three hours.

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<v Speaker 8>I'm really not. I don't actually usually write anything down.

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<v Speaker 8>I don't kind of log anything. If I'm gonna log it,

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<v Speaker 8>it's gonna be like a quick demo that I just

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<v Speaker 8>have kind of done, and that's that's done.

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<v Speaker 1>You use your phone.

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<v Speaker 8>Uh no, I'll usually I have like a tape machine,

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<v Speaker 8>like I have like a four track task am like

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<v Speaker 8>a porta studio that I'll use and I'll just put

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<v Speaker 8>one mic and ta yeah, oh and I'll do yep.

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<v Speaker 8>I make tapes of my demos.

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<v Speaker 11>I like it.

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<v Speaker 8>I think I'm a very scattered person. I put them

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<v Speaker 8>into the computer obviously after where. But I like having

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<v Speaker 8>knowing that there's just a pile of like physical tapes

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<v Speaker 8>of all my stuff that I could go back to

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<v Speaker 8>if I lost something or anything like that.

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<v Speaker 1>But I didn't know you could even still buy those.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, you can.

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<v Speaker 8>You can buy cassettes. Yeah. No.

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<v Speaker 1>I even the old task because it.

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<v Speaker 8>Was oh yeah, no, there there, it was a used one.

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<v Speaker 1>It's not new, Yeah, because famously that's what Springsteen did Nebraska.

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<v Speaker 8>Yep, yeah, I'm from I mean, I'm from Nashville, so

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<v Speaker 8>there's a lot of that stuff floating around. I feel

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<v Speaker 8>like that's kind of something that a lot of people

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<v Speaker 8>had and nobody wants anymore in Nashville, so you can

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<v Speaker 8>you'll find a lot of those.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, So what spurred the writing of this album.

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<v Speaker 8>Most of the songs are about just a loss that

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<v Speaker 8>I had in my life and kind of going through

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<v Speaker 8>that process. They're not all about that, but there's a

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<v Speaker 8>lot of that in the record, and I think that

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<v Speaker 8>was really what kicks did you know? It's it's time

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<v Speaker 8>to write about something different. I think every album, even

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<v Speaker 8>if there's similarities, you know, you have all these themes

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<v Speaker 8>and these ideas that you're stuck on for a while,

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<v Speaker 8>and it takes time after the album is finished being

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<v Speaker 8>made to kind of get your head off of writing

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<v Speaker 8>more stuff that fits with this idea and move on

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<v Speaker 8>to something new, even sonically, like just kind of what

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<v Speaker 8>kind of vibe you're wanting? And em was the first

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<v Speaker 8>song that I wrote for this album, and I think

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<v Speaker 8>it really felt like fresh and new compared to what

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<v Speaker 8>I had been doing, and it was very clear to

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<v Speaker 8>me what I was going to be doing for the

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<v Speaker 8>next little bit of time.

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<v Speaker 1>Was it a conscious thought, I've got to write about

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<v Speaker 1>this loss.

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<v Speaker 8>No, Honestly, I don't think writing is ever conscious for me.

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<v Speaker 8>I think, you know, I sit around, I play guitar,

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<v Speaker 8>and I don't really like to trying to think of

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<v Speaker 8>how to the nicest word to put it, but I

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<v Speaker 8>just like, I don't want to sit around and shred

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<v Speaker 8>or learn other riffs or do stuff like that. I

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<v Speaker 8>don't really do that. I just sit around and I

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<v Speaker 8>play chords, and if I find something I like, I

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<v Speaker 8>start writing a song with it. And I think the

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<v Speaker 8>music inspires the you know, the theme of the song,

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<v Speaker 8>the ideas behind the song, you get from music itself.

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<v Speaker 8>You get a feeling and you can move off of that.

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<v Speaker 1>And you mentioned the sound on this album, and for

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<v Speaker 1>people who haven't heard your previous album sometimes forever they should.

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<v Speaker 1>First of all, thanks, but it's a very lush album

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<v Speaker 1>with a lot of studio effects, a lot of production.

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<v Speaker 1>This one is is lush, but in a different way.

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<v Speaker 1>It's got beautiful string arrangements, and I don't know how

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<v Speaker 1>much you had to do with those particularly, but it

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<v Speaker 1>feels a little more austere, a little more direct maybe

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<v Speaker 1>than the previous album. What was the feeling you wanted

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<v Speaker 1>from the record?

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<v Speaker 8>I wanted that, honestly. I wanted it to feel direct.

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<v Speaker 8>I think it being something really personal. I found that

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<v Speaker 8>the last album was not unpersonal, but it wasn't as

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<v Speaker 8>personal as some of my work has been in the past.

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<v Speaker 8>And writing this album just felt like when I was

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<v Speaker 8>I don't know, seventeen and writing songs to put on

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<v Speaker 8>band camp, and it was very tender and intimate in

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<v Speaker 8>a way that was a little bit uncomfortable. Like at

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<v Speaker 8>that point in time, I didn't really want to share

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<v Speaker 8>music with people. I knew I might post it on Twitter,

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<v Speaker 8>but I was not gonna publicize it.

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<v Speaker 1>This is when you were seventeen.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, when I was first starting like soccer mommy stuff

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<v Speaker 8>and posting on band camp, it was very it was

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<v Speaker 8>kind of secretive and private because it felt really personal.

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<v Speaker 8>And it felt like that again, you know, it felt

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<v Speaker 8>really really straightforward and personal, and the songs themselves, I

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<v Speaker 8>just wanted it to be like that at the center,

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<v Speaker 8>that really basic stripped back version like what I just played.

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<v Speaker 8>I wanted that to be at the core of everything

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<v Speaker 8>for every song, and there to be you know, accompaniment

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<v Speaker 8>around it to help it blossom a bit. But I

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<v Speaker 8>wanted to feel, yeah, just like light and airy and

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<v Speaker 8>remind me of music that makes me feel like lifted

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<v Speaker 8>and you know, feel emotional, but like light, like I'm

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<v Speaker 8>riding the wind a little bit, which for me is

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<v Speaker 8>like Emmy Lou Harris, Joni Mitchell, like that kind of

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<v Speaker 8>stuff I listen to all the time when I'm feeling

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<v Speaker 8>that way, or like Jankly like pop stuff that really

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<v Speaker 8>just kind of you can feel it it feels so light.

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<v Speaker 8>So the strings were part of that idea. I did

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<v Speaker 8>not arrange the strings. The person who played the strings

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<v Speaker 8>arranged the shrings and did an amazing job off of

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<v Speaker 8>like notes. You know, yeah, I really I wanted strings

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<v Speaker 8>and flute in particular on the record really really bad,

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<v Speaker 8>and I was very specific about that because I think

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<v Speaker 8>it's part of what pulled it together sonically. I think

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<v Speaker 8>if there had been since or like melotrons and things

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<v Speaker 8>like that, it would have just not had the same

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<v Speaker 8>feeling to it. It really needed to be that like

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<v Speaker 8>organic kind of sound that's a little bit imperfect. And

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<v Speaker 8>Ben the producer found a flute player and found Raven

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<v Speaker 8>who did the strings, who's in the UK, and he's amazing.

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<v Speaker 9>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>There, and there's very you know, particularly Evergreen, which is

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<v Speaker 1>the last song, has a very different string sound. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>not sure it's even a solo string, but it's violin.

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<v Speaker 1>But it's it's got really lovely textures throughout.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, it's a haunting. I think we had mentioned like

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<v Speaker 8>Johnny Greenwood type of thing, and he really took to it.

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<v Speaker 8>It just sounds, you know, a little eerie, a little haunting.

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<v Speaker 8>Those kind of stretches between chords, I think really bring

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<v Speaker 8>it to life.

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<v Speaker 2>We'll be right back with more from Soccer Mommy after

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<v Speaker 2>the break. We're back with Soccer Mommy.

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<v Speaker 1>So let's go back before you press send on band

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<v Speaker 1>camp or upload. I guess you're born in Switzerland, right,

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<v Speaker 1>but you grew up Nashville, Nashville, okay, and your was

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<v Speaker 1>your family musical?

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<v Speaker 8>You know, My parents are not super musical. My dad

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<v Speaker 8>does play guitars as like a hobby. My grandma was

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<v Speaker 8>a pianist, but I didn't really know her, so I

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<v Speaker 8>definitely didn't get it from family, you know, forcing me

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<v Speaker 8>to do it or anything. I was kind of the

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<v Speaker 8>first one in the family when I was really young

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<v Speaker 8>to be like, I want to play music, and then

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<v Speaker 8>all my siblings kind of did too.

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<v Speaker 1>Are you where are you in the family order?

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<v Speaker 8>I'm middle, I have an older sister and I have

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<v Speaker 8>a younger brother.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, And then what was there a particular song or

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<v Speaker 1>memory you have of music growing up that piqued your interest?

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, I don't. I don't even know what started it,

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<v Speaker 8>to be honest, I know that the first music that

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<v Speaker 8>I was listening to was like my dad's CD collection,

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<v Speaker 8>which was, like, we all really liked The Who and Springsteen,

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<v Speaker 8>so he had CDs of that, like greatest Hits that

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<v Speaker 8>we would listen to a lot. And I always really

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<v Speaker 8>loved Springsteen. I still do love Springsteen.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you love Springsteen from your music?

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<v Speaker 9>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 8>I know it's not it's not exactly an obvious pull,

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<v Speaker 8>but I think he's just such an amazing songwriter. Honestly,

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<v Speaker 8>I think he for something that's kind of like macho, like,

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<v Speaker 8>kind of like greaser manly energy. A lot of the time,

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<v Speaker 8>his lyrics can be so beautiful. I think they paint

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<v Speaker 8>such vivid pictures in my mind of like stuff that

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<v Speaker 8>just reflects I think American you know, small town not

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<v Speaker 8>even small town, but just not big city type of life,

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<v Speaker 8>like just certain like normalcies that really, you know, paint

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<v Speaker 8>a beautiful picture.

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<v Speaker 1>Was there a song in particular that that you liked

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<v Speaker 1>of his?

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<v Speaker 8>I've always loved I'm on Fire. When I was younger,

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<v Speaker 8>I loved thunder Road. I still love that one. I

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<v Speaker 8>think the entire like opening lyrical part of that song

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<v Speaker 8>is absolutely amazing. But yeah, it was a lot of hits,

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<v Speaker 8>so it was like the hit boring in the USA,

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<v Speaker 8>you know, hearing that kind of stuff. Hungry Heart was great,

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<v Speaker 8>but but yeah, I always loved that kind of stuff.

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<v Speaker 8>I think that was the first thing that really made

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<v Speaker 8>me love music that in like early two thousand's pop

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<v Speaker 8>from I was like five or six years old, so

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<v Speaker 8>that kind of stuff was really big.

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<v Speaker 1>And what was what was your first instrument?

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<v Speaker 8>Guitar?

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<v Speaker 1>It was okay, yeah, And did you take lessons or

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<v Speaker 1>did you just sit down with one?

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<v Speaker 8>One day I sat started with me sitting down with one.

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<v Speaker 8>I had gone to a like charity concert for my

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<v Speaker 8>brother's preschool and gotten a toy guitar, and I played

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<v Speaker 8>that a lot. It sounded awful, and after enough time

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<v Speaker 8>my parents were like, okay, let's get like, you know,

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<v Speaker 8>a little baby who's to guitar? And I just loved it.

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<v Speaker 8>So I took lessons for a lot of my life,

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<v Speaker 8>you know, just casually took guitar lessons and just always

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<v Speaker 8>really liked it. But particularly for the songwriting. I liked

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<v Speaker 8>writing songs on it more than anything.

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<v Speaker 1>What were your first songs like?

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<v Speaker 8>My first song was called what the heck Is a Cowgirl?

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<v Speaker 8>And it was, you know, pretty much just a chorus

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<v Speaker 8>and me shrumming a open guitar with no chords basically,

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<v Speaker 8>but it was mostly nonsense, I would say. I by

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<v Speaker 8>the time I was like, I guess, like seven or eight,

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<v Speaker 8>I started playing with one of my friends who lived nearby,

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<v Speaker 8>like across the street and was a drummer, and we

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<v Speaker 8>were both very very young, but we would play songs

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<v Speaker 8>together that were kind of like pop rock.

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<v Speaker 1>I guess was there a moment where you thought, I

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<v Speaker 1>think this is more I want to do something, This

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<v Speaker 1>could be my life.

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<v Speaker 8>I always wanted to do it. I think I can't

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<v Speaker 8>remember a time where I didn't want to make music

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<v Speaker 8>for a living. But I think I gave it up

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<v Speaker 8>like the dream a little bit when I was probably

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<v Speaker 8>like maybe like sixteen. I think I just kind of

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<v Speaker 8>reached a point where I was like, what are the

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<v Speaker 8>odds of this just becoming like a career for me?

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<v Speaker 8>I just like to play music, and I just got

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<v Speaker 8>a little bit realistic about it and decided, you know,

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<v Speaker 8>I'm not going to go to college for music. I'm

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<v Speaker 8>not going to do that. I'm just gonna go for

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<v Speaker 8>a normal thing. And honestly, it wasn't depressing as it sounds, but.

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<v Speaker 1>You're making it sound pretty.

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<v Speaker 8>I think it was just it was just like I

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<v Speaker 8>can play music for the rest of my life, no

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<v Speaker 8>matter what. Like I can do this for myself regardless.

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<v Speaker 8>And around the time that I was graduating from high school,

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<v Speaker 8>I particularly was like, I'm going to start recording my

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<v Speaker 8>songs in a really basic way and putting them on

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<v Speaker 8>band camp just for me, just for fun, because it's

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<v Speaker 8>something I like doing, it's something I want to work at.

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<v Speaker 8>And there was no expectation of, you know, it becoming

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<v Speaker 8>what it eventually did. But I think that was good.

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<v Speaker 8>I didn't. I think it can be very defeating if

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<v Speaker 8>you if you really want to do something and you

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<v Speaker 8>really care about you know, music, and you're like dying

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<v Speaker 8>to do it for your life, and you get old enough,

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<v Speaker 8>we get to reach a point where you say, this

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<v Speaker 8>is not going to be more than, you know, just

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<v Speaker 8>a hobby and something that I love doing. It's I'm

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<v Speaker 8>gonna have to work at something else.

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<v Speaker 1>You thought you'd get the disappointment out of the way early, Yeah, like.

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<v Speaker 8>Crush it before. Like I'm not gonna like spend years

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<v Speaker 8>of my life hoping crush it. Crush it early, you know,

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<v Speaker 8>and then if it happens great, it doesn't mean you

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<v Speaker 8>have to stop. I think that you know, being realistic

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<v Speaker 8>about it. I think it is to an extent. I think,

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<v Speaker 8>you know, being real about your chances at success. It's

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<v Speaker 8>not about whether you're good it's something it's not. It's

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<v Speaker 8>just about if something you have to say is of

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<v Speaker 8>the moment, honestly, and it's it's a little bit of

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<v Speaker 8>luck and it's a lot of hard work. You can

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<v Speaker 8>do all that hard work and still be saying, you know,

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<v Speaker 8>I need to get a job.

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<v Speaker 4>Uh.

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<v Speaker 1>But then what what was the impulse to put stuff

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<v Speaker 1>up on band camp?

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<v Speaker 8>I think it was just for fun. Honestly, I got

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<v Speaker 8>like a back to the task that point. I was

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<v Speaker 8>not in a band. I've never really been in a

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<v Speaker 8>band besides my very young two piece childhood band. But

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<v Speaker 8>I just wanted to, you know, I was writing songs

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<v Speaker 8>and I got for I think for Christmas or something.

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<v Speaker 8>My dad gave me one of the Porta Studio task

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<v Speaker 8>ams that is digital, which makes it really easy to

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<v Speaker 8>transfer to using the tape one because they're very similar,

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<v Speaker 8>but it's a digital one, which those are really great.

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<v Speaker 8>They have like internal mics and them, so you can

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<v Speaker 8>just record with it onto there and go for it.

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<v Speaker 8>You can sing into the into the thing, you can

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<v Speaker 8>pop it in front.

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<v Speaker 1>Of your You could have done all that just with

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<v Speaker 1>garage band though, or yeah you could.

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<v Speaker 8>But I like working on not a computer. I don't

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<v Speaker 8>really like. I don't know why something about the computer.

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<v Speaker 8>There's too many options of things to do to something.

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<v Speaker 8>I'm like, let's just get the raw sound sounding pretty,

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<v Speaker 8>you know, pretty good. Let's see if we can make

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<v Speaker 8>it away that we like to hear it and deal

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<v Speaker 8>with it, because I think I get I get crazy

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<v Speaker 8>if I start pulling up eques and all this stuff.

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<v Speaker 8>I start losing my mind.

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<v Speaker 1>See it's nice. Having scarcity is good.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, I think so. I mean at the time, I

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<v Speaker 8>just wanted to get the songs in a place where

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<v Speaker 8>somebody could listen to them, not in this you know,

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<v Speaker 8>produced type of space. I just wanted to do something

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<v Speaker 8>really simple, pop them up and kind of have them

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<v Speaker 8>for me, like, you know, these songs are more than

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<v Speaker 8>just something I played for a while and then never

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<v Speaker 8>thought of again after a couple of years.

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<v Speaker 1>How many tracks would be on those early.

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<v Speaker 8>I'd usually pop like four or five onto a drop,

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<v Speaker 8>so to speak. I deleted a lot of them at

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<v Speaker 8>this point, but I kept up some of the stuff

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<v Speaker 8>where I was like a little bit more, had been

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<v Speaker 8>doing it a little more and was a little more

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<v Speaker 8>proud of it, and kind of felt like, oh, I'm

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<v Speaker 8>going to put up like something that feels more like

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<v Speaker 8>an EP or something rather than just throwing things up

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<v Speaker 8>really quick, because I would turn it around. I'd record something,

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<v Speaker 8>you know, put it into the computer and just throw

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<v Speaker 8>it on the internet, just because I was like excited

0:29:11.756 --> 0:29:14.596
<v Speaker 8>about it, I guess. But yeah, once people were listening,

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<v Speaker 8>I was like, let's get that old stuff hid in

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<v Speaker 8>a way.

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<v Speaker 1>The early years you only have early years. Of course

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<v Speaker 1>you're twenty six, so twenty seven.

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<v Speaker 8>Well getting up there.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, you're early. You're over it now.

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<v Speaker 6>You know.

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<v Speaker 1>One of the great things about listening to all your music,

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<v Speaker 1>but this record particularly, is you know, there are those

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<v Speaker 1>writers who the guitar is a vehicle for their songs.

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<v Speaker 1>Like I need to say something, guitar or a piano

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<v Speaker 1>is the way to do it. And then there are

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<v Speaker 1>people who just like guitar sounds and who the sound

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<v Speaker 1>of it kind of drives them. And a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>the bands I grew up listening to, like, particularly Well

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<v Speaker 1>Ram the Smiths particularly, fall into that category. They just

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<v Speaker 1>they clearly just love the sound of a guitar and

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<v Speaker 1>that's what drives the sort of songs. When did you

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<v Speaker 1>get your first electric I think I.

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<v Speaker 8>Was even or eight. I got one of those baby

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<v Speaker 8>strats you may have seen. I had a baby strat,

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<v Speaker 8>And yeah, honestly, I prefer electric in the long run.

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<v Speaker 8>I write with acoustic though usually just because you know,

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<v Speaker 8>I'm just sitting there playing guitar. It's easier to hear

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<v Speaker 8>things with an acoustic but I do, just I do

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<v Speaker 8>love the sounds. I think that if you're going to

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<v Speaker 8>go in the studio and record something. Why not be

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<v Speaker 8>particular about everything, every sound you're making, everything that you're recording,

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<v Speaker 8>and you can make something simple and also put a

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<v Speaker 8>lot of thought and effort into the sounds of everything.

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<v Speaker 8>And that's like you only get to do that every

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<v Speaker 8>couple of years, go in and record, Like you got

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<v Speaker 8>to make the most of it.

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<v Speaker 1>Now, are you? Are you the kind that that fiddles

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<v Speaker 1>with you have to have absolutely the right pedal and

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<v Speaker 1>this isn't quite right you know that has all the

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<v Speaker 1>kind of paraphernalia that goes with it.

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<v Speaker 8>Oh yeah, definitely. I think that you've got to get

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<v Speaker 8>into that kind of stuff really, Like, you know, there

0:31:10.756 --> 0:31:13.716
<v Speaker 8>there are some sounds that, like even on this album,

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<v Speaker 8>for example, like electric guitar sounds. A lot of my

0:31:17.036 --> 0:31:19.596
<v Speaker 8>rhythm tracks are very simple. It's just like through a

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<v Speaker 8>old like twin amp and it's got some reverb on it.

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<v Speaker 8>But when you're getting down to you know, more out

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<v Speaker 8>front like riffs and lines and you know, textures and

0:31:32.796 --> 0:31:34.316
<v Speaker 8>all this kind of stuff, you've got to take your

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<v Speaker 8>time on it because you're never just gonna pop on

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<v Speaker 8>your pedal and get something that's the most inspiring thing

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<v Speaker 8>in the world. You have to keep changing things and

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<v Speaker 8>messing with things and make sure you're throughout an album

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<v Speaker 8>that you have an idea for how you want everything

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<v Speaker 8>to sound. But you also have to change things song

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<v Speaker 8>to song. You can't just you know, set up all

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<v Speaker 8>the settings and record something. Otherwise it's every song is

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<v Speaker 8>gonna have the same sound to it.

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<v Speaker 1>Is there anything new you used on this album that

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<v Speaker 1>you found particularly.

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<v Speaker 8>Exciting, Yeah, there was a lot of There's a lot

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<v Speaker 8>of news. It was a new studio, so all of

0:32:11.596 --> 0:32:14.996
<v Speaker 8>the like outboard gear is basically new. We did a

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<v Speaker 8>lot of stuff with the Aged three thousand. I'm pretty

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<v Speaker 8>sure we used a lot of stuff off of that.

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<v Speaker 8>I was using a von Gone pedal called Ultra Shear

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<v Speaker 8>a lot just for really simple like REAVERB you know,

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<v Speaker 8>vibrato type sounds. That's really nice. It sounds very spring

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<v Speaker 8>like and it's really pretty. So was that there was

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<v Speaker 8>a lot of H nine's in the studio that were happening.

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<v Speaker 8>So there's a lot of that, a lot of H

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<v Speaker 8>nine chorus going on between everybody, but mostly Julian I

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<v Speaker 8>would say.

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<v Speaker 1>Hello, you didn't you play all? You played all the

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<v Speaker 1>guitars on this record, not all of them.

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<v Speaker 8>There's there's the guys around that too. Julian and Rodrigo

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<v Speaker 8>has a little bit of he's he's doing some guitar

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<v Speaker 8>and twelve string is usually Rodrigo because I hate twelve string.

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<v Speaker 8>It's like the most frustrating instrument in the entire world.

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<v Speaker 8>So he did a lot of the twelve string.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you play a twelve string electric?

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<v Speaker 5>Now?

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<v Speaker 8>I just think it's it's so annoying, it's so unbelievably annoyed.

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<v Speaker 8>They sound really cool, but I would rather have somebody

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<v Speaker 8>else have to deal with it than me. Just so

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<v Speaker 8>much tuning and my I feel like my ear gets

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<v Speaker 8>really sensitive at a certain point if I'm trying to

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<v Speaker 8>mess around with something that much. So, yeah, he's playing

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<v Speaker 8>some twelve string. Julian's playing a lot of like chorus

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<v Speaker 8>y guitar lines because we do some some live taking.

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<v Speaker 8>You know, there's a mixture of live takes and getting

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<v Speaker 8>kind of drums and bass down and building on top

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<v Speaker 8>of that, and a lot of pre production too. That

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<v Speaker 8>was kind of meshing in by the end and coming

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<v Speaker 8>in and saying this is here, We're gonna get rid

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<v Speaker 8>of this. We're going to get rid of that, you know,

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<v Speaker 8>kind of moving stuff around.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you like that process?

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<v Speaker 9>I do.

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<v Speaker 8>I love it. I love being able to make something

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<v Speaker 8>really exciting. I never do it at home. I never

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<v Speaker 8>do it on my own, but it's like so much

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<v Speaker 8>fun to be able to make something sound just like

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<v Speaker 8>exactly how you would want it to sound, and build

0:34:22.836 --> 0:34:25.076
<v Speaker 8>dynamics and all that kind of stuff. I think it's

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<v Speaker 8>really important.

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<v Speaker 2>After this last break, we'll be back with the rest

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<v Speaker 2>of Bruce Helm's conversation with Soccer Mommy. We're back with

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<v Speaker 2>Soccer Mommy.

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<v Speaker 1>This is terrible to admit, but sometimes, you know, I'll

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<v Speaker 1>go on YouTube and I'll watch guys talking about this

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<v Speaker 1>pedal or that pedal and the sounds they get out

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<v Speaker 1>of this, and honestly, everything sounds the same to me.

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<v Speaker 1>That's a terrible thing to admit. I appreciate on records

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<v Speaker 1>it's going to sound different, but often the sounds just

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<v Speaker 1>seem the difference to seem minuscule to me, And I

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<v Speaker 1>think if that were me, i'd be like, I don't

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<v Speaker 1>have time for this.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, there's a lot of stuff that does similar things,

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<v Speaker 8>I think for sure, but you can for you. I

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<v Speaker 8>think it's I just think with any pedal, especially if

0:35:10.396 --> 0:35:12.276
<v Speaker 8>you're gonna like watch a video or watch someone else

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<v Speaker 8>use it, you have to use it yourself and see

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<v Speaker 8>how you like it, because I think there's a lot

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<v Speaker 8>of you know, there's always a lot of editing you

0:35:19.196 --> 0:35:22.676
<v Speaker 8>can do on the pedal to find different ideas. And

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<v Speaker 8>I think something that's fun in the studio too is

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<v Speaker 8>being able to mess with a lot of pedals that

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<v Speaker 8>you would never or at least I would never be

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<v Speaker 8>using live. If you're playing like rhythm guitar chords and stuff,

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<v Speaker 8>you're not going to be using certain things that you

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<v Speaker 8>can then get really get weird with when you're in

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<v Speaker 8>the studio. I think, like my favorite weird pedal is

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<v Speaker 8>the microcosm by what are they called Hologram. Hologram has

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<v Speaker 8>some great stuff.

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<v Speaker 1>Did you use that on this album?

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<v Speaker 4>I did.

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<v Speaker 8>I didn't use it on guitar, I don't think from

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<v Speaker 8>my memory. I used it with a vocal mic, putting

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<v Speaker 8>it into the pedal, and it's like it kind of

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<v Speaker 8>makes loops, but they're like weird, very affected loops that

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<v Speaker 8>have you know, there's different options and different you know,

0:36:11.356 --> 0:36:14.916
<v Speaker 8>things that you can parameters, you can mess with, but

0:36:15.276 --> 0:36:18.076
<v Speaker 8>it's really great for making weird vocal loops, like you

0:36:18.196 --> 0:36:20.196
<v Speaker 8>can sing into it and you can turn the like

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<v Speaker 8>you know, the thing all the way up wet and

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<v Speaker 8>just have no none of the dry signal really still

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<v Speaker 8>in there and get these weird like echoed like vocal

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<v Speaker 8>like humming sounds that kind of make ambient textures.

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<v Speaker 1>Where did you use that on the on this record?

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<v Speaker 8>It's un lost. It's just like a ambiance in the

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<v Speaker 8>entire background where I like, I'm doing some humming that

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<v Speaker 8>kind of, you know, makes these like ghostly kind of sounds,

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<v Speaker 8>and then adding like whistling for sounds like birds a

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<v Speaker 8>little bit on the loops and stuff like that. And

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<v Speaker 8>I think on changes too, there's a there's a lot

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<v Speaker 8>of that that kind of makes this like dreamy, atmospheric

0:37:03.236 --> 0:37:05.956
<v Speaker 8>type of sound. I think that's the only two where

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<v Speaker 8>it's really coming out.

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<v Speaker 1>So I do want to talk about a couple of

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<v Speaker 1>the songs Driver, which starts with the great line I'm

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<v Speaker 1>a five foot four engine waiting to move. Tell me

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<v Speaker 1>about that song. It's got a great, very interesting melody,

0:37:22.636 --> 0:37:26.396
<v Speaker 1>big jumps in that for just like a major seventh,

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<v Speaker 1>I think, or something big vocal jumps, So tell me

0:37:30.076 --> 0:37:30.716
<v Speaker 1>about that song.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, that one is That's one of the ones that

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<v Speaker 8>is not kind of in the context of I guess

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<v Speaker 8>the entire album, but it's just like kind of a

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<v Speaker 8>fun one for me. I think I'm very spacey and

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<v Speaker 8>very all over the place a lot of the time.

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<v Speaker 8>And my partner is very grounding and you know, not

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<v Speaker 8>really as much like that, but really puts up with

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<v Speaker 8>it and tries to keep me on track with certain things.

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<v Speaker 8>And I think that's a really beautiful thing, and I

0:37:57.676 --> 0:38:00.476
<v Speaker 8>wanted to make it, you know, take one of these examples,

0:38:00.556 --> 0:38:03.396
<v Speaker 8>like driving. I can't count how many times I've been

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<v Speaker 8>driving and completely started going towards something that is not

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<v Speaker 8>where I'm going and realize literally, yeah, literally when I'm

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<v Speaker 8>driving driving down the road and pass my turn way

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<v Speaker 8>back and I don't even know where my brain has

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<v Speaker 8>decided we're going now, and kind of having someone in

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<v Speaker 8>the car to say, hey, which what root are you

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<v Speaker 8>taking right now? You know, which where are we going?

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<v Speaker 8>And being able to be brought back a little bit.

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<v Speaker 8>It's it's like, you know, such a goofy little little piece,

0:38:33.916 --> 0:38:36.956
<v Speaker 8>but it's I think it really pulls that that feeling

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<v Speaker 8>of like having someone with you to ground you and

0:38:40.476 --> 0:38:42.276
<v Speaker 8>you know, be that other half a little bit.

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<v Speaker 1>Hello. Arguably you're doing in the car just what you

0:38:46.196 --> 0:38:48.756
<v Speaker 1>do with the with the guitar, which is your messinger.

0:38:48.836 --> 0:38:52.396
<v Speaker 1>You're just just just wandering in a close state. Yeah, well,

0:38:52.956 --> 0:38:53.516
<v Speaker 1>isn't that true?

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<v Speaker 8>Pretty much? I do think so. I think it's like

0:38:55.716 --> 0:38:58.876
<v Speaker 8>you're just looking for just going in whatever direction it

0:38:58.916 --> 0:39:02.116
<v Speaker 8>takes you and looking for something exciting.

0:39:03.556 --> 0:39:05.356
<v Speaker 1>And some sunny day talk about that one.

0:39:06.356 --> 0:39:08.396
<v Speaker 8>Yeah, Actually, I wasn't sure if I was going to

0:39:08.436 --> 0:39:10.756
<v Speaker 8>bring that one into the studio, which seems crazy to

0:39:10.836 --> 0:39:13.876
<v Speaker 8>me now because I love how it turned out. But

0:39:13.996 --> 0:39:16.156
<v Speaker 8>that was one of the first songs we worked on

0:39:16.636 --> 0:39:19.516
<v Speaker 8>in the studio when we did like pre production, and

0:39:19.836 --> 0:39:23.436
<v Speaker 8>it really just kind of quickly took off and it

0:39:23.556 --> 0:39:27.036
<v Speaker 8>was so obvious where it was going to go, and

0:39:28.036 --> 0:39:30.516
<v Speaker 8>you know where it was going to lead In response

0:39:30.556 --> 0:39:31.996
<v Speaker 8>to the rest of the album. I think it's really

0:39:32.076 --> 0:39:36.876
<v Speaker 8>important to find those sonic ideas early on and then

0:39:36.956 --> 0:39:40.236
<v Speaker 8>be able to spread them across the album and kind

0:39:40.276 --> 0:39:42.556
<v Speaker 8>of figure out what you're wanting to do and do it.

0:39:43.036 --> 0:39:46.356
<v Speaker 8>And that was really instrumental I think for me personally,

0:39:46.436 --> 0:39:49.996
<v Speaker 8>it really has that lightness and that airiness, and it's

0:39:50.036 --> 0:39:53.876
<v Speaker 8>a little bit dreamy and it's soft, but it's also

0:39:53.996 --> 0:39:57.076
<v Speaker 8>kind of like it's like dreamy and when you look

0:39:57.076 --> 0:39:58.516
<v Speaker 8>at like a dream filter and there's a lot of

0:39:58.636 --> 0:40:02.156
<v Speaker 8>light and it's kind of like hazy but like blinding

0:40:02.236 --> 0:40:05.876
<v Speaker 8>a little bit. And Yeah, it was really exciting for

0:40:06.036 --> 0:40:09.076
<v Speaker 8>me with that song because I think that I was

0:40:09.276 --> 0:40:11.676
<v Speaker 8>unsure of how it would work with how many parts

0:40:11.716 --> 0:40:14.636
<v Speaker 8>there are. There's a lot of chords going on, and

0:40:14.676 --> 0:40:19.476
<v Speaker 8>there's a lot of sections that are different from each other. Yeah,

0:40:19.876 --> 0:40:23.796
<v Speaker 8>and I think sometimes blending those together can be difficult

0:40:23.996 --> 0:40:26.756
<v Speaker 8>in a studio setting, even if you can sit and

0:40:26.836 --> 0:40:29.276
<v Speaker 8>play it, going from part to part and making each

0:40:29.316 --> 0:40:31.916
<v Speaker 8>one feel special and interesting can be hard. But it

0:40:31.996 --> 0:40:34.996
<v Speaker 8>was seamless, was there.

0:40:34.996 --> 0:40:38.116
<v Speaker 1>Every temptation will take out this one, idea, will take

0:40:38.156 --> 0:40:39.516
<v Speaker 1>out the middle eight will.

0:40:40.436 --> 0:40:42.716
<v Speaker 8>No, no, I never will compromise.

0:40:43.596 --> 0:40:43.956
<v Speaker 1>I see.

0:40:44.716 --> 0:40:46.476
<v Speaker 8>There are certain things I would you know, in a

0:40:46.516 --> 0:40:50.196
<v Speaker 8>studio setting with a song edits that can be made, like,

0:40:50.876 --> 0:40:54.156
<v Speaker 8>you know, let's shorten this part. It's half this part

0:40:54.476 --> 0:40:56.836
<v Speaker 8>blah blah blah. But I think with a song like that,

0:40:57.396 --> 0:41:00.476
<v Speaker 8>every section it's so important and you can't cut it

0:41:00.516 --> 0:41:04.956
<v Speaker 8>in half really they're just like the weight that they're

0:41:04.996 --> 0:41:07.356
<v Speaker 8>laid out. It just wouldn't make sense, I think in

0:41:07.476 --> 0:41:10.956
<v Speaker 8>my brain at least to chop anything down. It like

0:41:11.036 --> 0:41:14.076
<v Speaker 8>all goes into the flow of everything.

0:41:15.036 --> 0:41:17.236
<v Speaker 1>Was that a song you wrote in bits and pieces

0:41:17.316 --> 0:41:19.916
<v Speaker 1>as well and then joined or did you write it

0:41:19.996 --> 0:41:21.356
<v Speaker 1>as a coherent whole.

0:41:21.916 --> 0:41:21.956
<v Speaker 6>No.

0:41:22.076 --> 0:41:26.116
<v Speaker 8>I wrote it as a whole, And I remember thinking

0:41:27.236 --> 0:41:29.356
<v Speaker 8>this is like I could hear it in my head

0:41:29.636 --> 0:41:31.276
<v Speaker 8>kind of what I was going to want out of it.

0:41:31.436 --> 0:41:33.876
<v Speaker 8>But I was trying to imagine if it was going

0:41:33.956 --> 0:41:37.676
<v Speaker 8>to be something that would feel really clunky. But I

0:41:37.796 --> 0:41:39.516
<v Speaker 8>ended up taking it in because I really liked it

0:41:39.876 --> 0:41:43.116
<v Speaker 8>and found it exciting. I'm always excited by a song.

0:41:43.196 --> 0:41:47.236
<v Speaker 8>And it has lots of different chord changes and turnarounds

0:41:47.556 --> 0:41:50.476
<v Speaker 8>that kind of bring everything from one place to another

0:41:50.556 --> 0:41:52.596
<v Speaker 8>and blend it in that kind of way.

0:41:52.716 --> 0:41:55.956
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, it's got a very nice descending figure in the

0:41:56.316 --> 0:41:56.996
<v Speaker 1>in the chorus.

0:41:57.316 --> 0:41:58.156
<v Speaker 8>Yeah, that song.

0:41:58.396 --> 0:42:01.396
<v Speaker 1>But really, and you're right, it stretched out so when

0:42:01.436 --> 0:42:02.956
<v Speaker 1>it comes it's very very satisfying.

0:42:03.076 --> 0:42:03.276
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

0:42:03.996 --> 0:42:05.076
<v Speaker 1>And then what's the song about.

0:42:06.516 --> 0:42:10.516
<v Speaker 8>It's just kind of about feeling, you know, all of

0:42:10.636 --> 0:42:14.676
<v Speaker 8>this darkness surrounding the sadness and feeling kind of like

0:42:14.716 --> 0:42:16.876
<v Speaker 8>you're drowning in it a little bit and looking around

0:42:17.036 --> 0:42:19.636
<v Speaker 8>and not seeing I guess, the hope in the way out,

0:42:19.716 --> 0:42:25.636
<v Speaker 8>but clinging to the idea of positivity. I guess, like

0:42:25.756 --> 0:42:28.036
<v Speaker 8>having this shred of positivity and being like, you know,

0:42:28.196 --> 0:42:30.516
<v Speaker 8>this is not all there is, this is not all

0:42:30.556 --> 0:42:33.036
<v Speaker 8>there will ever be, and I know that it just

0:42:33.116 --> 0:42:34.956
<v Speaker 8>doesn't feel like it in the moment.

0:42:35.476 --> 0:42:38.396
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, you've got to you keep saying how you want

0:42:38.476 --> 0:42:41.036
<v Speaker 1>to lightness in this record, because there's a lot of

0:42:41.076 --> 0:42:43.996
<v Speaker 1>references to light in your lyrics, and that one is

0:42:44.036 --> 0:42:45.836
<v Speaker 1>the trick of the Light Won't Keep Me Down. I

0:42:45.876 --> 0:42:47.796
<v Speaker 1>thought it was a very nice light keep me warm.

0:42:47.836 --> 0:42:50.876
<v Speaker 1>Pardon me, I can't read my own writing. Trick of

0:42:50.916 --> 0:42:55.436
<v Speaker 1>the Light won't keep Me warm? What image did that?

0:42:55.676 --> 0:42:56.556
<v Speaker 1>How did that come.

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<v Speaker 8>For me? It was like the image of laying in bed,

0:43:01.676 --> 0:43:06.356
<v Speaker 8>you know, tired, worn down, no motivation to do anything,

0:43:06.956 --> 0:43:11.476
<v Speaker 8>and seeing like shadows and tricks tricks of the light,

0:43:11.636 --> 0:43:14.996
<v Speaker 8>like shapes kind of just stretched out on the ceiling

0:43:15.036 --> 0:43:17.676
<v Speaker 8>from lamps and the light outside and all this kind

0:43:17.676 --> 0:43:20.876
<v Speaker 8>of stuff, and kind of letting your imagination run free

0:43:20.996 --> 0:43:24.516
<v Speaker 8>a little bit, or like even just a feeling of

0:43:25.236 --> 0:43:28.476
<v Speaker 8>I think a lot of us have experienced, you know,

0:43:28.756 --> 0:43:31.116
<v Speaker 8>being at night and thinking you see a shadow in

0:43:31.116 --> 0:43:34.596
<v Speaker 8>the corner and it's scaring you. But that kind of

0:43:34.596 --> 0:43:36.636
<v Speaker 8>feeling but almost like in a you know, you can

0:43:36.756 --> 0:43:41.196
<v Speaker 8>convince yourself that something is something else even if you

0:43:41.276 --> 0:43:44.236
<v Speaker 8>know it's not. It's like a bit of a trick

0:43:44.316 --> 0:43:44.756
<v Speaker 8>on your brain.

0:43:45.156 --> 0:43:47.076
<v Speaker 1>Yeah. I don't know if you did, if you grew

0:43:47.156 --> 0:43:48.836
<v Speaker 1>up in a house with a lot of trees around,

0:43:49.396 --> 0:43:52.476
<v Speaker 1>but that's always when I was growing up, we had

0:43:52.516 --> 0:43:53.956
<v Speaker 1>a lot of window, we had a lot of trees,

0:43:53.996 --> 0:43:57.196
<v Speaker 1>and so yeah, having the trees always sway in the breeze,

0:43:57.196 --> 0:44:02.356
<v Speaker 1>it just creates this effect inside you just think there's

0:44:02.396 --> 0:44:03.196
<v Speaker 1>always something there.

0:44:03.596 --> 0:44:06.356
<v Speaker 8>Yeah, it just creates a feeling of you're not alone.

0:44:06.436 --> 0:44:10.476
<v Speaker 8>And I feel that a lot of the time. Like

0:44:10.716 --> 0:44:14.716
<v Speaker 8>I'm not a religious person, but I do sometimes you

0:44:14.756 --> 0:44:18.276
<v Speaker 8>can just feel like energy sometimes around you, I think,

0:44:18.396 --> 0:44:22.196
<v Speaker 8>and especially if you lose someone, I think it can

0:44:22.276 --> 0:44:26.196
<v Speaker 8>be comforting to feel their energy still in places or

0:44:27.156 --> 0:44:30.076
<v Speaker 8>in actions things you do. Feeling that the kind of

0:44:30.116 --> 0:44:34.236
<v Speaker 8>ghost of that it's not haunting in a bad way.

0:44:34.316 --> 0:44:38.476
<v Speaker 8>It's like a positive feeling of you know, even if

0:44:38.516 --> 0:44:43.716
<v Speaker 8>somebody is gone, there's always parts of people left around

0:44:43.716 --> 0:44:47.196
<v Speaker 8>the world that just kind of remind you of a

0:44:47.276 --> 0:44:48.836
<v Speaker 8>certain person. You can feel that again.

0:44:50.636 --> 0:44:55.196
<v Speaker 1>Very different song is Dreaming of Falling, which seems a

0:44:55.236 --> 0:44:56.156
<v Speaker 1>little more suicidal.

0:44:56.476 --> 0:44:58.956
<v Speaker 8>Yeah, it's a little it's a little more off the edge.

0:44:59.036 --> 0:45:01.636
<v Speaker 8>I think I actually had COVID when I wrote that song,

0:45:02.436 --> 0:45:05.236
<v Speaker 8>and I was very sick, and I think that added

0:45:05.356 --> 0:45:10.156
<v Speaker 8>a sense of impending doom to the situation. But yeah,

0:45:10.196 --> 0:45:14.836
<v Speaker 8>it really was a moment of like, I don't care,

0:45:14.916 --> 0:45:18.116
<v Speaker 8>there is no looking forward, and there is, you know,

0:45:18.276 --> 0:45:22.276
<v Speaker 8>being stuck in this place of being needing to move forward,

0:45:22.556 --> 0:45:25.796
<v Speaker 8>needing to move on with your life, and not even

0:45:25.836 --> 0:45:28.596
<v Speaker 8>just needing to you are because there's no other possibility,

0:45:30.196 --> 0:45:33.036
<v Speaker 8>and also clinging to the past, which you can never

0:45:33.116 --> 0:45:35.796
<v Speaker 8>go back to you and even if you could, it

0:45:35.836 --> 0:45:39.796
<v Speaker 8>would it wouldn't be, you know, there anymore waiting for you.

0:45:41.476 --> 0:45:45.196
<v Speaker 8>So it's yeah, that kind of stuck, purgatory feeling of

0:45:45.276 --> 0:45:48.076
<v Speaker 8>being stuck in between two things and hating change. But

0:45:48.156 --> 0:45:51.156
<v Speaker 8>also there's no choice in taking the change or not

0:45:51.316 --> 0:45:53.076
<v Speaker 8>taking it. It's no option.

0:45:54.156 --> 0:45:56.356
<v Speaker 1>It also feels a little bit like wanting to end.

0:45:56.316 --> 0:46:00.876
<v Speaker 8>It all though no, definitely it's got this horrible feeling

0:46:00.956 --> 0:46:05.756
<v Speaker 8>of the rest of life is less in a sense,

0:46:05.876 --> 0:46:10.716
<v Speaker 8>which I think is something that I've always struggled with.

0:46:10.836 --> 0:46:13.916
<v Speaker 8>I think with losing things or losing bits from the past,

0:46:14.076 --> 0:46:17.996
<v Speaker 8>and even simple stuff like growing up and moving on

0:46:18.156 --> 0:46:21.596
<v Speaker 8>from people in a not you know, not difficult way,

0:46:21.636 --> 0:46:25.196
<v Speaker 8>but just naturally and looking back and seeing that you

0:46:25.236 --> 0:46:28.116
<v Speaker 8>don't have these things anymore and that your life is

0:46:28.236 --> 0:46:32.316
<v Speaker 8>kind of ever changing, and it's like, I think, with

0:46:32.596 --> 0:46:35.436
<v Speaker 8>a situation like that, it can feel very much like

0:46:36.356 --> 0:46:38.516
<v Speaker 8>you're just on a new path now in life and

0:46:38.636 --> 0:46:41.476
<v Speaker 8>you have to do it and there's no choices, and

0:46:43.436 --> 0:46:46.116
<v Speaker 8>you know, it's depressing. It's a depressing idea to not

0:46:46.276 --> 0:46:50.636
<v Speaker 8>have the uh, I guess control over over your life

0:46:50.756 --> 0:46:54.036
<v Speaker 8>a little bit and over changes and over making decisions

0:46:54.116 --> 0:46:58.356
<v Speaker 8>and letting those things happen slowly and naturally. I think

0:46:58.516 --> 0:47:01.436
<v Speaker 8>when there's usually change in your life, it fades and

0:47:01.556 --> 0:47:04.076
<v Speaker 8>it moves and you don't even realize when it's happened.

0:47:05.556 --> 0:47:07.596
<v Speaker 8>And in as such a situation like that, it's like

0:47:07.756 --> 0:47:12.076
<v Speaker 8>sudden and you're just cut off from where you were

0:47:12.996 --> 0:47:15.676
<v Speaker 8>and you're changed as a person, but you can't there's

0:47:15.716 --> 0:47:18.596
<v Speaker 8>no going back to the old person you were, and

0:47:18.676 --> 0:47:21.836
<v Speaker 8>there's also you know, you don't really want to let

0:47:21.916 --> 0:47:22.116
<v Speaker 8>go of.

0:47:22.156 --> 0:47:26.396
<v Speaker 1>It either, but you see someone who you know. You've

0:47:26.476 --> 0:47:28.876
<v Speaker 1>put out a lot of demos, live records, You've put

0:47:28.916 --> 0:47:32.476
<v Speaker 1>out a new album every two years, which these days

0:47:32.596 --> 0:47:36.396
<v Speaker 1>is a healthy pace. You went to school in New York.

0:47:36.436 --> 0:47:38.876
<v Speaker 1>We didn't talk about that. You went to NYU for

0:47:38.916 --> 0:47:44.156
<v Speaker 1>a couple of years and studied music business, and you

0:47:44.236 --> 0:47:47.756
<v Speaker 1>seem to make a lot of like did your parents

0:47:47.796 --> 0:47:52.476
<v Speaker 1>help you with contracts and lawyers or because you you know,

0:47:53.076 --> 0:47:58.076
<v Speaker 1>you were signed very early, someone else would look at

0:47:58.116 --> 0:48:00.676
<v Speaker 1>you and say, here's a person who really, you know,

0:48:01.436 --> 0:48:04.116
<v Speaker 1>took control of the situation at a very young age.

0:48:05.156 --> 0:48:05.636
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I think.

0:48:05.876 --> 0:48:09.716
<v Speaker 8>I think honestly, I wasn't very I didn't realize what

0:48:09.836 --> 0:48:12.596
<v Speaker 8>I was getting into. I think when I started, when

0:48:12.636 --> 0:48:15.916
<v Speaker 8>I first did a record deal with Fat Bossom, I

0:48:15.956 --> 0:48:18.436
<v Speaker 8>didn't really realize that it was going to be a career.

0:48:19.236 --> 0:48:22.036
<v Speaker 8>I was still thinking I took time off from school,

0:48:22.076 --> 0:48:23.636
<v Speaker 8>I didn't even drop out. I was thinking, I'm going

0:48:23.716 --> 0:48:25.276
<v Speaker 8>to go back, I'm just going to go do a

0:48:25.356 --> 0:48:28.596
<v Speaker 8>fun tour. It's going to be great. I was thinking

0:48:28.676 --> 0:48:30.396
<v Speaker 8>it was gonna be very different than what it ended

0:48:30.476 --> 0:48:33.236
<v Speaker 8>up being. I'm glad it ended up being what it was,

0:48:33.476 --> 0:48:38.076
<v Speaker 8>but I was not. I was not expecting it and

0:48:38.236 --> 0:48:41.436
<v Speaker 8>I was not prepared for it. I did. When I

0:48:41.516 --> 0:48:43.796
<v Speaker 8>first signed my deal with contract, it was a very

0:48:43.916 --> 0:48:47.436
<v Speaker 8>simple deal. I didn't have a lot of pages and

0:48:47.716 --> 0:48:51.556
<v Speaker 8>legal language for you yeah, basically train over your soul.

0:48:52.876 --> 0:48:56.516
<v Speaker 8>I had my dad found like a friend of a friend,

0:48:56.596 --> 0:48:58.356
<v Speaker 8>a friend who's a lawyer, who like looked over it

0:48:58.436 --> 0:49:00.236
<v Speaker 8>for like fifteen minutes. I was like, yeah, this is all,

0:49:01.116 --> 0:49:03.596
<v Speaker 8>you know, normal, Like it's this is all what it means.

0:49:03.876 --> 0:49:08.596
<v Speaker 8>It's pretty pretty normal for something like this, and I

0:49:08.676 --> 0:49:11.396
<v Speaker 8>signed it and went for it. It was a short deal.

0:49:11.436 --> 0:49:12.156
<v Speaker 4>It was only.

0:49:13.716 --> 0:49:17.876
<v Speaker 8>One record really. It was like a collection thing that

0:49:17.956 --> 0:49:21.236
<v Speaker 8>I did called Collection of band Camp Songs. We recorded

0:49:22.516 --> 0:49:26.076
<v Speaker 8>with a little, very very little money into it, and

0:49:26.196 --> 0:49:28.356
<v Speaker 8>then my first album Clean. So it was very short

0:49:28.556 --> 0:49:30.636
<v Speaker 8>deal and I was out of it really quick, free

0:49:30.716 --> 0:49:33.276
<v Speaker 8>to go, you know, do whatever I wanted. At that point,

0:49:33.316 --> 0:49:35.596
<v Speaker 8>I had my own lawyer when I signed my next deal,

0:49:35.676 --> 0:49:38.276
<v Speaker 8>so I didn't have to I didn't have to sign much.

0:49:38.516 --> 0:49:40.916
<v Speaker 8>I didn't I didn't need a lot of help in

0:49:40.996 --> 0:49:43.556
<v Speaker 8>that department. I think what made me be kind of

0:49:43.676 --> 0:49:46.116
<v Speaker 8>level headed about things. Is that I was always like

0:49:47.356 --> 0:49:49.236
<v Speaker 8>this is I was still in the headspace of this

0:49:49.396 --> 0:49:53.436
<v Speaker 8>is not like your dream is not coming true a

0:49:53.516 --> 0:49:56.956
<v Speaker 8>little bit. You know, it's like you're gonna get to tour.

0:49:57.236 --> 0:50:01.236
<v Speaker 8>That's great. Like only only focus on things that are definites,

0:50:01.476 --> 0:50:05.596
<v Speaker 8>I guess, and rather than getting lost in what could

0:50:05.676 --> 0:50:08.796
<v Speaker 8>be or what someone could offer you. I think because

0:50:08.796 --> 0:50:12.036
<v Speaker 8>a lot of people signed to labels that tell them

0:50:12.236 --> 0:50:13.796
<v Speaker 8>all these things they can do for them and give

0:50:13.796 --> 0:50:17.476
<v Speaker 8>them these huge dreams and ideas of what they could

0:50:17.516 --> 0:50:20.276
<v Speaker 8>be that are like far beyond their reach at the

0:50:20.476 --> 0:50:22.836
<v Speaker 8>current moment. You know, it's like we could turn you

0:50:22.956 --> 0:50:27.236
<v Speaker 8>into this a little bit. And I think getting in

0:50:27.636 --> 0:50:30.836
<v Speaker 8>over your head is always a bad idea. I think

0:50:31.116 --> 0:50:33.476
<v Speaker 8>because you just you are the one who's going to

0:50:33.516 --> 0:50:35.796
<v Speaker 8>do everything for yourself at the end of the day.

0:50:35.916 --> 0:50:38.756
<v Speaker 8>Like if you get big, it's because you worked really

0:50:38.756 --> 0:50:41.796
<v Speaker 8>hard at writing music and you wrote a song that

0:50:41.956 --> 0:50:43.716
<v Speaker 8>was great and then there was all the help of

0:50:43.796 --> 0:50:45.716
<v Speaker 8>the press and all of that. But you have to

0:50:45.796 --> 0:50:49.716
<v Speaker 8>be driving it, I think, and if you're not, no

0:50:50.196 --> 0:50:52.116
<v Speaker 8>label can take you and just like poof turn you

0:50:52.236 --> 0:50:56.556
<v Speaker 8>into like a star or something. It's not like a

0:50:56.636 --> 0:50:58.996
<v Speaker 8>fairy tale. You still have to work at things and

0:50:59.036 --> 0:51:01.956
<v Speaker 8>you have to grind, and that's really how you get somewhere.

0:51:02.236 --> 0:51:05.956
<v Speaker 1>Did you hear promises like that from labels?

0:51:07.436 --> 0:51:10.196
<v Speaker 8>Yeah, I definitely definitely talk labels before where it was

0:51:10.316 --> 0:51:14.276
<v Speaker 8>like a lot of big ideas. I think at the

0:51:14.356 --> 0:51:17.476
<v Speaker 8>time with fat Posum, it was not big ideas. It

0:51:17.556 --> 0:51:19.436
<v Speaker 8>was like, we want to do this in this and

0:51:19.556 --> 0:51:23.556
<v Speaker 8>it was like great small team, you know. They they

0:51:23.596 --> 0:51:27.116
<v Speaker 8>were dedicated to trying to like make my stuff take off.

0:51:27.316 --> 0:51:31.116
<v Speaker 8>But there weren't any crazy promises and I didn't have

0:51:31.396 --> 0:51:33.556
<v Speaker 8>crazy ideas in my head. I was just like, I'll

0:51:33.636 --> 0:51:36.036
<v Speaker 8>give one hundred and ten percent of anything I have

0:51:37.196 --> 0:51:40.116
<v Speaker 8>to doing this and if it takes me somewhere, great.

0:51:40.196 --> 0:51:43.396
<v Speaker 8>If it doesn't, I'm never gonna regret it. I'm just gonna,

0:51:44.196 --> 0:51:46.036
<v Speaker 8>you know, see things for how they are a little

0:51:46.076 --> 0:51:47.556
<v Speaker 8>bit that not everybody makes it.

0:51:49.316 --> 0:51:51.156
<v Speaker 1>Are you more accepting of the idea now?

0:51:52.276 --> 0:51:54.636
<v Speaker 8>Now? I accept it's my career. I do not have

0:51:54.716 --> 0:51:56.076
<v Speaker 8>to do another job currently.

0:51:57.396 --> 0:51:59.956
<v Speaker 1>Do you think you'll ever have to do another job

0:52:00.036 --> 0:52:01.636
<v Speaker 1>or you think you'll be able to make music?

0:52:01.836 --> 0:52:04.876
<v Speaker 8>I think about that all the time. I wouldn't be

0:52:04.916 --> 0:52:08.676
<v Speaker 8>surprised if I did I just don't. I don't think

0:52:08.676 --> 0:52:12.196
<v Speaker 8>I have what it takes to be like someone who's

0:52:12.236 --> 0:52:16.356
<v Speaker 8>shooting for like the very very very top. I used

0:52:16.356 --> 0:52:20.076
<v Speaker 8>to think that. I just don't think I actually want that. Now,

0:52:22.396 --> 0:52:25.196
<v Speaker 8>you know, you can want to be as successful as

0:52:25.196 --> 0:52:28.356
<v Speaker 8>possible with your music and be ambitious about music and

0:52:28.596 --> 0:52:32.396
<v Speaker 8>not care about the industry and all that kind of stuff,

0:52:32.436 --> 0:52:35.876
<v Speaker 8>and it can be very damaging to people. I think, so,

0:52:36.276 --> 0:52:39.796
<v Speaker 8>I don't think I would necessarily ever be in a

0:52:39.836 --> 0:52:44.036
<v Speaker 8>place where I'm like getting number ones top of the charts,

0:52:44.196 --> 0:52:46.756
<v Speaker 8>like doing all this kind of stuff. I wouldn't necessarily

0:52:46.796 --> 0:52:48.596
<v Speaker 8>say no to it, but I wouldn't want to fight

0:52:48.716 --> 0:52:54.636
<v Speaker 8>for it anymore. And I do think about when I'm fifty,

0:52:55.116 --> 0:52:57.956
<v Speaker 8>what will I be doing. So I save my money

0:52:58.916 --> 0:53:03.156
<v Speaker 8>and release some of it and just try to, I

0:53:03.196 --> 0:53:05.196
<v Speaker 8>don't know, keep getting to do what I want to do,

0:53:05.396 --> 0:53:08.156
<v Speaker 8>but not pushing myself into a place where it's not

0:53:08.276 --> 0:53:10.636
<v Speaker 8>fun anymore, and not you know what I want to

0:53:10.676 --> 0:53:13.476
<v Speaker 8>be doing. I'm making compromises. I don't think you should

0:53:13.516 --> 0:53:15.596
<v Speaker 8>ever compromise what you want to make in art. I

0:53:15.676 --> 0:53:19.476
<v Speaker 8>think if you do your like starting the Fall, you're

0:53:19.556 --> 0:53:23.396
<v Speaker 8>like gonna lose if you start changing yourself for what

0:53:23.556 --> 0:53:26.716
<v Speaker 8>other people want or for what the world thinks they want.

0:53:27.196 --> 0:53:29.356
<v Speaker 8>I think you're just going to be losing.

0:53:30.436 --> 0:53:34.236
<v Speaker 1>You know, you toured with Liz Fair, and I don't

0:53:34.236 --> 0:53:36.036
<v Speaker 1>know how much time you spent with her.

0:53:36.676 --> 0:53:37.316
<v Speaker 8>Yeah, a little bit.

0:53:37.556 --> 0:53:40.356
<v Speaker 1>But she is a person who kind of, like you,

0:53:40.596 --> 0:53:44.756
<v Speaker 1>had these little tapes that kind of just exploded, and

0:53:44.836 --> 0:53:48.236
<v Speaker 1>she became this very powerful symbol for people. And then

0:53:48.276 --> 0:53:51.876
<v Speaker 1>a couple albums in her record label said write with

0:53:51.956 --> 0:53:54.556
<v Speaker 1>these other people, and she, like you didn't write with

0:53:54.676 --> 0:53:58.476
<v Speaker 1>other people. She wrote by herself, and she got eviscerated

0:53:58.556 --> 0:53:58.796
<v Speaker 1>for it.

0:53:59.236 --> 0:53:59.476
<v Speaker 8>Yeah.

0:54:00.436 --> 0:54:02.356
<v Speaker 1>My old employer of The New York Times wrote a

0:54:02.396 --> 0:54:05.356
<v Speaker 1>piece that was just made it seem like she, I

0:54:05.436 --> 0:54:10.316
<v Speaker 1>don't know, betrayed the nation or something, Yeah, betrayed her fans.

0:54:10.356 --> 0:54:12.796
<v Speaker 1>Did you ever talk to her about like her career

0:54:12.916 --> 0:54:15.436
<v Speaker 1>trajectory and what people expected of her.

0:54:16.036 --> 0:54:16.676
<v Speaker 4>No, I didn't.

0:54:16.676 --> 0:54:19.356
<v Speaker 8>I didn't really, but I obviously know a bit about

0:54:19.396 --> 0:54:23.236
<v Speaker 8>her career, and I think there there is a beauty

0:54:23.356 --> 0:54:26.636
<v Speaker 8>to like kind of where she's at in life too.

0:54:27.356 --> 0:54:30.316
<v Speaker 8>You know, she's still making records, and I feel like

0:54:30.396 --> 0:54:32.996
<v Speaker 8>she's just making them for herself. She's doing what she

0:54:33.116 --> 0:54:35.636
<v Speaker 8>wants to do, and that's where I want to be

0:54:35.876 --> 0:54:38.316
<v Speaker 8>when i'm you know, when I'm fifty, I want to

0:54:38.356 --> 0:54:42.316
<v Speaker 8>be making what I want to make and being able

0:54:42.356 --> 0:54:44.996
<v Speaker 8>to literally live off of it. I don't want to,

0:54:46.356 --> 0:54:51.676
<v Speaker 8>you know, I don't need to be like this huge

0:54:51.876 --> 0:54:54.996
<v Speaker 8>star for my life. I don't think that's not something

0:54:55.076 --> 0:54:57.596
<v Speaker 8>that I think is worth giving up your happiness. And

0:54:57.876 --> 0:54:59.956
<v Speaker 8>you do lose that. I think if you try too

0:55:00.036 --> 0:55:02.996
<v Speaker 8>hard to please other people, and you try too hard

0:55:03.076 --> 0:55:06.836
<v Speaker 8>to do things that are not true to yourself, you

0:55:07.116 --> 0:55:10.036
<v Speaker 8>lose like you're happy meaness and you end up in

0:55:10.076 --> 0:55:11.396
<v Speaker 8>a place where you just aren't happy.

0:55:11.716 --> 0:55:13.876
<v Speaker 1>So you don't want to buy Michael Jackson's old ranch

0:55:13.956 --> 0:55:15.596
<v Speaker 1>or no anything like that.

0:55:15.996 --> 0:55:18.796
<v Speaker 8>I mean, hey, if I get there, i'd I'd love

0:55:18.956 --> 0:55:22.076
<v Speaker 8>to buy myself a big ranch or buy myself you know,

0:55:22.196 --> 0:55:25.116
<v Speaker 8>like something. I have no problem with it. I just

0:55:25.196 --> 0:55:27.036
<v Speaker 8>think you have to be very true to what you

0:55:27.116 --> 0:55:30.436
<v Speaker 8>want to do, and it's okay to not be comfortable

0:55:30.596 --> 0:55:34.316
<v Speaker 8>with all of the parts of the the industry. I

0:55:34.396 --> 0:55:38.356
<v Speaker 8>think we really love as a like society. Everybody loves

0:55:38.436 --> 0:55:41.716
<v Speaker 8>to look at people like even like Chapel Roone. I

0:55:41.756 --> 0:55:44.076
<v Speaker 8>feel like it's been talking about it a lot. But

0:55:44.876 --> 0:55:46.836
<v Speaker 8>and you look at these people talking about it and

0:55:46.916 --> 0:55:49.036
<v Speaker 8>you're like, that's so great that they're saying something that's

0:55:49.036 --> 0:55:51.716
<v Speaker 8>so great. But people still want the same things from you,

0:55:51.796 --> 0:55:53.556
<v Speaker 8>and they're still going to ask for the same things.

0:55:53.916 --> 0:55:58.396
<v Speaker 8>And if you say no to doing certain things or

0:55:58.476 --> 0:56:01.996
<v Speaker 8>to you know, being involved in certain parts of the world,

0:56:02.076 --> 0:56:04.916
<v Speaker 8>if you pass on things, it does hurt your career,

0:56:04.956 --> 0:56:07.596
<v Speaker 8>it doesn't help it. But it's a balance of like,

0:56:08.956 --> 0:56:10.916
<v Speaker 8>just because this is how the world is and the

0:56:10.996 --> 0:56:15.356
<v Speaker 8>industry is, it doesn't mean you have to decide you're

0:56:15.356 --> 0:56:17.556
<v Speaker 8>willing to do it. You still have choice.

0:56:17.956 --> 0:56:21.476
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, but you know it occurs to me. If you

0:56:21.596 --> 0:56:23.756
<v Speaker 1>grew up in Detroit in the sixties and we're talking

0:56:23.796 --> 0:56:26.196
<v Speaker 1>this way, I would say, well, did you listen to

0:56:26.276 --> 0:56:29.436
<v Speaker 1>Marvin Gaye in Motown and you grew up in Nashville

0:56:30.396 --> 0:56:34.316
<v Speaker 1>in early two thousands, Taylor Swift must have been everywhere.

0:56:35.036 --> 0:56:35.676
<v Speaker 8>Yeah, she was.

0:56:36.716 --> 0:56:37.916
<v Speaker 1>Were you a fan growing up?

0:56:38.116 --> 0:56:38.516
<v Speaker 9>I was?

0:56:38.796 --> 0:56:40.436
<v Speaker 8>I was a fan growing up. I was a fan

0:56:40.556 --> 0:56:44.156
<v Speaker 8>when her first album came out. I remember my dad

0:56:44.236 --> 0:56:48.636
<v Speaker 8>gave me that on his iPod video that's the time period,

0:56:48.716 --> 0:56:52.196
<v Speaker 8>just to set the same for everybody. And I loved

0:56:52.316 --> 0:56:56.236
<v Speaker 8>that album and then I loved like when Fearless was

0:56:56.276 --> 0:56:57.516
<v Speaker 8>coming out, I loved some of that, but I was

0:56:57.556 --> 0:56:59.436
<v Speaker 8>also like kind of a I was a tomboy and

0:56:59.516 --> 0:57:02.196
<v Speaker 8>I kind of I think for a lot of what

0:57:02.436 --> 0:57:04.236
<v Speaker 8>was middle school for me, I was a bit like

0:57:05.316 --> 0:57:08.956
<v Speaker 8>I don't like music like that, like like I'm cooler

0:57:09.196 --> 0:57:11.876
<v Speaker 8>than that a little bit, and which was stupid because

0:57:11.916 --> 0:57:15.076
<v Speaker 8>I love it. And by the times in high school

0:57:15.076 --> 0:57:16.796
<v Speaker 8>I was like, no, I love this, this is great.

0:57:17.436 --> 0:57:18.676
<v Speaker 8>So I am a Taylor Scheff fan.

0:57:18.956 --> 0:57:19.636
<v Speaker 1>Have you ever met her?

0:57:21.076 --> 0:57:21.276
<v Speaker 4>Yes?

0:57:21.556 --> 0:57:24.956
<v Speaker 8>Actually I met her one time at it was not

0:57:25.196 --> 0:57:28.316
<v Speaker 8>through this, It was not through music world. It was

0:57:28.636 --> 0:57:31.476
<v Speaker 8>I was in high school. I went to a performing

0:57:31.556 --> 0:57:34.636
<v Speaker 8>arts high school and they got some of the guitar

0:57:34.676 --> 0:57:37.036
<v Speaker 8>students to come take a photo off at the opening

0:57:37.156 --> 0:57:41.316
<v Speaker 8>of her like learning center at the Country Music Hall

0:57:41.316 --> 0:57:45.076
<v Speaker 8>of Fame, And so we took a photo me and

0:57:45.116 --> 0:57:46.516
<v Speaker 8>a couple other students with her.

0:57:47.076 --> 0:57:49.076
<v Speaker 1>Were you holding your guitars or no, We're just.

0:57:49.116 --> 0:57:52.196
<v Speaker 8>It's just like students music students.

0:57:51.876 --> 0:57:56.236
<v Speaker 1>Standing there local. Yeah, Okay. Is she the kind of

0:57:56.396 --> 0:58:00.516
<v Speaker 1>star and not every start is? Is she the kind

0:58:00.516 --> 0:58:02.396
<v Speaker 1>of star that makes people want to pick up a

0:58:02.436 --> 0:58:04.236
<v Speaker 1>guitar and do it themselves.

0:58:04.636 --> 0:58:08.036
<v Speaker 8>Yeah, I think so when I was young, I think definitely.

0:58:08.036 --> 0:58:11.116
<v Speaker 8>I can't speak to it now always much because I'm

0:58:11.116 --> 0:58:12.916
<v Speaker 8>in a different place in my life and I don't

0:58:12.916 --> 0:58:14.836
<v Speaker 8>know if I can speak to that kind of inspiration.

0:58:15.076 --> 0:58:18.916
<v Speaker 8>But when I was younger, I think definitely seeing someone

0:58:19.916 --> 0:58:22.396
<v Speaker 8>like her, like when her first album came out, even

0:58:22.996 --> 0:58:25.356
<v Speaker 8>who's writing her songs and is sitting there playing guitar

0:58:25.436 --> 0:58:30.316
<v Speaker 8>and singing and it's just a normal girl. Really, it

0:58:30.556 --> 0:58:33.596
<v Speaker 8>was very inspirational and the songs really spoke to I

0:58:33.636 --> 0:58:37.036
<v Speaker 8>think a lot of young girls like my age. I

0:58:37.076 --> 0:58:41.156
<v Speaker 8>think it was speaking to everybody. And they're just also

0:58:41.556 --> 0:58:46.276
<v Speaker 8>super catchy, super poppy, like kind of immaculate songs they have.

0:58:47.796 --> 0:58:49.716
<v Speaker 8>They have a lot of thought behind them, you know,

0:58:49.796 --> 0:58:52.436
<v Speaker 8>they're not just something that someone wrote really quickly and

0:58:52.876 --> 0:58:57.436
<v Speaker 8>popped out. So yeah, I think it was definitely really important.

0:58:57.436 --> 0:58:58.596
<v Speaker 8>I don't think that there was a lot of that

0:58:58.716 --> 0:59:00.996
<v Speaker 8>going on where it was an artist that felt like

0:59:01.076 --> 0:59:03.796
<v Speaker 8>they were writing their music and not like they were

0:59:03.876 --> 0:59:06.116
<v Speaker 8>just a pop star that was getting thrown songs a

0:59:06.196 --> 0:59:08.916
<v Speaker 8>little bit and kind of doing that, which there's nothing

0:59:09.316 --> 0:59:12.036
<v Speaker 8>with that either, But I think it was very inspirational

0:59:12.076 --> 0:59:12.476
<v Speaker 8>at the time.

0:59:13.276 --> 0:59:15.476
<v Speaker 1>Now, you've never written with anyone else, Is that right?

0:59:15.716 --> 0:59:17.476
<v Speaker 8>Yeah, I haven't because that's.

0:59:17.356 --> 0:59:20.476
<v Speaker 1>A big part of sort of the Nashville culture. You

0:59:20.796 --> 0:59:22.956
<v Speaker 1>phone someone and at ten o'clock you meet and you

0:59:23.076 --> 0:59:25.956
<v Speaker 1>write for two hours. Have you have you ever been

0:59:26.036 --> 0:59:28.156
<v Speaker 1>asked to do that by label or.

0:59:29.316 --> 0:59:30.956
<v Speaker 8>I haven't been asked by label. I've been asked by

0:59:31.036 --> 0:59:35.036
<v Speaker 8>people if I want to write with them, and it's

0:59:35.156 --> 0:59:37.796
<v Speaker 8>I don't. I just can't imagine who could make me

0:59:37.876 --> 0:59:40.196
<v Speaker 8>want to write with them, Like, I can't imagine what

0:59:40.516 --> 0:59:43.956
<v Speaker 8>level of like idle it would have to be for

0:59:44.116 --> 0:59:46.756
<v Speaker 8>me to want to do that. I just I think

0:59:46.796 --> 0:59:50.116
<v Speaker 8>writing for me is very personal and it's very like private,

0:59:51.196 --> 0:59:55.276
<v Speaker 8>and I would feel really uncomfortable. I've like had friends

0:59:55.276 --> 0:59:56.876
<v Speaker 8>when I was in high school They're like, let's write

0:59:56.876 --> 0:59:58.516
<v Speaker 8>a song together, and would like try to do it,

0:59:58.556 --> 1:00:02.036
<v Speaker 8>and I would just be like checked out. I just can't.

1:00:02.676 --> 1:00:04.916
<v Speaker 8>I can't work like that. I don't know. It feels

1:00:05.116 --> 1:00:11.316
<v Speaker 8>very awkward, and you know, just I don't want to

1:00:11.356 --> 1:00:14.956
<v Speaker 8>compromise with anyone. If I'm working on a song, I'm

1:00:15.036 --> 1:00:16.716
<v Speaker 8>working on making something I want to make. I don't

1:00:16.716 --> 1:00:18.956
<v Speaker 8>want to compromise. I don't want to work with somebody else.

1:00:18.996 --> 1:00:20.836
<v Speaker 8>I don't want their idea in there if I don't

1:00:20.916 --> 1:00:25.556
<v Speaker 8>like it. So yeah, I don't know. I get why

1:00:25.636 --> 1:00:27.796
<v Speaker 8>some people do it. It makes a lot of good music,

1:00:27.916 --> 1:00:30.956
<v Speaker 8>but I just I can't.

1:00:31.596 --> 1:00:33.916
<v Speaker 1>No, you say it's so private what you do? Is

1:00:33.996 --> 1:00:37.476
<v Speaker 1>it hard then presenting your stuff to your band?

1:00:38.636 --> 1:00:42.636
<v Speaker 8>No, Honestly, by the time that the band hears the songs,

1:00:42.716 --> 1:00:45.116
<v Speaker 8>they've been done for a while, like they've been demoed

1:00:45.196 --> 1:00:50.996
<v Speaker 8>for like a minute, I think, and it gives you

1:00:51.116 --> 1:00:53.396
<v Speaker 8>time to decide whether you're asshirt on it. I think

1:00:53.436 --> 1:00:58.116
<v Speaker 8>when you're writing, it's such a private process because you're

1:00:58.156 --> 1:01:01.596
<v Speaker 8>making mistakes. You're thinking of an idea and saying, oh,

1:01:01.636 --> 1:01:04.716
<v Speaker 8>I hate that. I think that's embarrassing that I even

1:01:04.796 --> 1:01:06.436
<v Speaker 8>thought of that. You know, I don't. I don't like

1:01:06.516 --> 1:01:10.796
<v Speaker 8>that idea, scrap it. And I think if you're writing

1:01:10.836 --> 1:01:14.596
<v Speaker 8>with someone else, it'd feel very vulnerable to make those

1:01:14.676 --> 1:01:20.036
<v Speaker 8>kind of mistakes and have things to say that aren't good,

1:01:20.636 --> 1:01:22.756
<v Speaker 8>because that's what you know in writing. You're not going

1:01:22.796 --> 1:01:27.956
<v Speaker 8>to just write everything beautifully and great on the first try.

1:01:28.036 --> 1:01:30.836
<v Speaker 8>And it's weird to share someone with someone like the

1:01:30.956 --> 1:01:32.076
<v Speaker 8>draft process.

1:01:32.196 --> 1:01:34.876
<v Speaker 1>I think, although you know for a lot of people

1:01:35.116 --> 1:01:39.076
<v Speaker 1>that feeling of vulnerability stops them from writing altogether. Yeah,

1:01:39.196 --> 1:01:40.356
<v Speaker 1>have you ever had trouble writing?

1:01:41.556 --> 1:01:43.956
<v Speaker 8>No? I think I've just been doing it so long.

1:01:44.116 --> 1:01:49.796
<v Speaker 8>It's thoughtless. Honestly. You know, when I sit down to

1:01:49.836 --> 1:01:52.196
<v Speaker 8>write a song, I'm not even thinking necessarily that I'm

1:01:52.236 --> 1:01:54.116
<v Speaker 8>going to write a song. It's just going to come,

1:01:54.396 --> 1:01:57.196
<v Speaker 8>or it's not going to come. But I do think

1:01:57.316 --> 1:02:00.636
<v Speaker 8>that it's stopped me from sharing my songwriting for a

1:02:00.756 --> 1:02:04.636
<v Speaker 8>long time, and it stopped me from pursuing that kind

1:02:04.676 --> 1:02:08.596
<v Speaker 8>of you know, you see people, even when I was

1:02:08.636 --> 1:02:11.196
<v Speaker 8>in high schoo people recording their songs and like making

1:02:11.236 --> 1:02:13.636
<v Speaker 8>a CD and printing it out and selling it and

1:02:13.756 --> 1:02:16.956
<v Speaker 8>like publicizing it. And I never wanted to do that

1:02:17.156 --> 1:02:22.436
<v Speaker 8>because it was embarrassing to write a song. You know,

1:02:22.516 --> 1:02:25.596
<v Speaker 8>you say a bunch of stuff, and if you're gonna

1:02:25.596 --> 1:02:28.996
<v Speaker 8>be honest, it's like really a peek into your mind

1:02:29.036 --> 1:02:31.276
<v Speaker 8>a bit, and if somebody doesn't like it, it can

1:02:31.356 --> 1:02:34.476
<v Speaker 8>be so embarrassing. Making art is like one of the

1:02:34.556 --> 1:02:37.196
<v Speaker 8>most embarrassing things that you could ever do, I think.

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<v Speaker 8>But that's why it can be so you know, satisfying

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<v Speaker 8>and can really break down a lot of walls.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, at the risk of embarrassing you. The line and

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<v Speaker 1>dreaming of falling that really stuck out for me was

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<v Speaker 1>seeing the light is an awful trick when I've been

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<v Speaker 1>going when I keep going down. So what was what

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<v Speaker 1>prompted that?

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<v Speaker 8>I think it's kind of a flip from a lot

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<v Speaker 8>of other moments on the record where there's like this

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<v Speaker 8>idea of trying to be positive and be not even hopeful,

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<v Speaker 8>but just cling to these beautiful things, you know, when

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<v Speaker 8>you're feeling all this sadness, realizing that it's a balance

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<v Speaker 8>and it's not one thing, it's all of these things,

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<v Speaker 8>and kind of remembering that memories and painful moments don't

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<v Speaker 8>have to be just awful. They can be reminders too

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<v Speaker 8>in a nice way. And I think in this moment

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<v Speaker 8>it was like that, you know, seeing the lights, seeing

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<v Speaker 8>this like warmth, and trying to have this reminder of

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<v Speaker 8>like the beauty of things is just like a knife

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<v Speaker 8>a little bit. It's not you know, it doesn't feel helpful.

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<v Speaker 8>It feels just like a reminder of what's not there anymore.

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<v Speaker 1>It's a very powerful line. It reminded me a little

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<v Speaker 1>of do you ever see the documentary The Bridge? It's

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<v Speaker 1>about the Golden Gate Bridge, and they set up cameras

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<v Speaker 1>before they put up the protections. It makes it harder

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<v Speaker 1>for people to jump off the bridge. I think about

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<v Speaker 1>fifty people used to jump every year. So you'll actually

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<v Speaker 1>see a little splash of water on one of these

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<v Speaker 1>distant cameras, and then they'll try and find the person's

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<v Speaker 1>family and talk to them about it. But there's and famously,

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<v Speaker 1>one guy jumped off the Golden gate Bridge who survived.

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<v Speaker 1>And when you talk to him and he gives speeches

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<v Speaker 1>and stuff about this, it's really you know, he was

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<v Speaker 1>a drug addict, he was having a tough life and

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<v Speaker 1>he jumped and he said the middle the minute he

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<v Speaker 1>jumped out in his foot left all he could think.

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<v Speaker 1>It was like I don't want to do this, like

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<v Speaker 1>I want to live. But he now he ended up living.

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<v Speaker 1>But you just wonder how many people sort of go

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<v Speaker 1>through that when they jump. I don't know, that's even

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<v Speaker 1>more morbid than your song, I think, so. I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know why it reminded me of that, but it just

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<v Speaker 1>brought that image fact to me. I do want to

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<v Speaker 1>ask you about a couple more songs of Salt and

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<v Speaker 1>Wound and Anchor are both. They've both got these great

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<v Speaker 1>guitars parts. I think, like you know, you mentioned Nirvana,

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<v Speaker 1>Alison Chains, I think those guys would have been proud

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<v Speaker 1>of those guitar riffs. Where did they come from?

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<v Speaker 8>The Salt and Wound one is me I that was

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<v Speaker 8>like part of the demo and everything, and I just

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<v Speaker 8>I just could wanted it to have this kind of

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<v Speaker 8>moving around the chords and you know a little bit

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<v Speaker 8>strange because there's some within the chords, there's like some

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<v Speaker 8>notes that have you know, a very particular feeling. I

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<v Speaker 8>guess that it that it gives you and it kind

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<v Speaker 8>of I love slighty half step note things all the time.

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<v Speaker 8>I love writing that. It's just fun to play. Honestly,

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<v Speaker 8>if you sit down with the guitar and you play

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<v Speaker 8>that riff, it's just like moving in half step increments

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<v Speaker 8>all over the place. It's really fun. So yeah, that

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<v Speaker 8>was a really important part to me. I feel like

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<v Speaker 8>that really brought it from being just this song to

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<v Speaker 8>like bringing it to life a little bit and you know,

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<v Speaker 8>being a little bit more yeah, rocking anchor. That's actually

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<v Speaker 8>Julian playing that part that like arpeggio on the acoustic guitar.

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<v Speaker 8>I think that's Julian and Rodrigo doubling each other. Perhaps,

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<v Speaker 8>I'm pretty sure with like a twelve string and an

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<v Speaker 8>acoustic and electric or something.

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<v Speaker 1>Damn twelve string again, Yeah.

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<v Speaker 8>Twelve string. I don't want to play it. Somebody else

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<v Speaker 8>can do it. An acoustic twelve string too, is awful

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<v Speaker 8>to play. I mean, my hands are just not used

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<v Speaker 8>to that. But yeah, it's that song was so difficult

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<v Speaker 8>to get right. I wrote it and I knew what

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<v Speaker 8>I wanted it to feel like. I guess after we

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<v Speaker 8>tried to like mess around in the studio, I was like,

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<v Speaker 8>I wanted to have this like drunken like sailor type

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<v Speaker 8>of like woodenness to it. But it was very very

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<v Speaker 8>hard to get that correct without it turning into something else,

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<v Speaker 8>you know, turning into something that's like a little corny

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<v Speaker 8>or like swung a little bit or too head with

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<v Speaker 8>how the chords are really a little bit dissonant at

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<v Speaker 8>the beginning. So it took a lot of a lot

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<v Speaker 8>of crafting on our parts to figure that out and

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<v Speaker 8>kind of piece it all together. But yeah, like that

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<v Speaker 8>guitar riff was like a perfect little transitional piece to

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<v Speaker 8>slot in that we just kind of overdubbed onto it,

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<v Speaker 8>and a lot of the stuff was very slotted in

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<v Speaker 8>there and kind of arranged after we had a lot

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<v Speaker 8>of ideas because it was just such a weird song

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<v Speaker 8>to try to get right.

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<v Speaker 1>I liked the heaviness of it, though.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, I do too, It's just originally it was like

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<v Speaker 8>much it was like getting too heavy to like rock

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<v Speaker 8>kind of vibes, and I think it needs to be

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<v Speaker 8>a little bit, a little bit creepy kind of heaviness.

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<v Speaker 1>Didn't you complain once? I thought I read this about

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<v Speaker 1>too many male dominated punk bands.

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<v Speaker 8>I mean, I can't disagree.

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<v Speaker 1>There's a particular time in your life. You were part

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<v Speaker 1>of a scene. I guess.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, it was in Nashville. There was a big music scene,

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<v Speaker 8>and I mean I loved a lot of the bands there,

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<v Speaker 8>and a lot of loved Slash, still love a lot

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<v Speaker 8>of the people there. But yeah, I think I think

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<v Speaker 8>growing up it was very just like the same dudes

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<v Speaker 8>playing in all the same bands. And yeah, there's nothing

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<v Speaker 8>wrong with having having fun like that, but I think

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<v Speaker 8>it it felt a lot of times, you know, not

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<v Speaker 8>just for me, but I think for a lot of

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<v Speaker 8>other people it felt a little bit stifling.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hmm, Well that's why there's Taylor Swift Yeah, and

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<v Speaker 1>Evergreen beautiful sort of conclusion to the record.

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<v Speaker 8>Tell me about it, Yeah, that one is kind of

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<v Speaker 8>one of my secret faves on the record. It was

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<v Speaker 8>a song I wrote really quickly and just instantly felt

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<v Speaker 8>this kind of you know, like haunting kind of beauty

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<v Speaker 8>that I wanted it to have because it's it's got

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<v Speaker 8>some you know, kind of majorie lifts and some kind

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<v Speaker 8>of haunting chords in there that make it with the melodies,

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<v Speaker 8>make it feel a little bit like ghostly and it

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<v Speaker 8>feels sad, but it feels like there's this those kind

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<v Speaker 8>of lifts at the chorus I guess, so to speak,

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<v Speaker 8>like major kind of lifts that give it that note

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<v Speaker 8>of like that light and that lightness and airiness that

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<v Speaker 8>I wanted it to have. And kind of to me,

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<v Speaker 8>it's like when it's winter and it's like snowy or something,

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<v Speaker 8>there's a lot of dead trees and it's like really sunny.

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<v Speaker 8>It's like that same kind of feeling of you know,

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<v Speaker 8>this haunting kind of warmth, I guess.

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<v Speaker 1>And what prompted the song, what was.

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<v Speaker 8>You know, just just the same thing that a lot

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<v Speaker 8>of the record's about. It's just about kind of I

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<v Speaker 8>guess that song in particular, feeling like there's all of

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<v Speaker 8>these remnants everywhere around and for me, I think, particularly

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<v Speaker 8>like in nature, I can see a lot of that

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<v Speaker 8>stuff and looking around and seeing it and having these

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<v Speaker 8>constant reminders and at times shying away from it and

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<v Speaker 8>being like, I don't want to do this anymore, I

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<v Speaker 8>don't want to think about this anymore. I don't want

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<v Speaker 8>to be reminded of these things, and at other times

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<v Speaker 8>feeling so connected to it and feeling like there's this

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<v Speaker 8>like promise that these things are going to be there

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<v Speaker 8>all the time still and never go away. And you know,

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<v Speaker 8>even if something's someone's gone, things are different. There's all

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<v Speaker 8>these changes, these like memories and these like we're just

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<v Speaker 8>feelings you know, that are connected to certain places and

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<v Speaker 8>certain things that you can do in times, and looking

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<v Speaker 8>around and seeing beauty in the world and being connected

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<v Speaker 8>to that feels lifting and feels like a good promise

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<v Speaker 8>I guess to have.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hm, well that's the trick of the light.

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<v Speaker 8>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, do you feel like playing in the song, But.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I can do that.

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<v Speaker 8>I can do another one. I'm gonna do not one

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<v Speaker 8>off of this record because of the tuning, but I

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<v Speaker 8>can play another one. I'll play an old song, all right,

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<v Speaker 8>and then we'll feel well. I'll feel very uh taken

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<v Speaker 8>back to my college days. This song I actually did

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<v Speaker 8>record for a college project, funny enough at n y

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<v Speaker 8>U songs called Alison, yeh.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh the Sun good song, you sir, give a foot

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<v Speaker 3>ship food for because he's been laid and at the

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<v Speaker 3>short speeding.

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<v Speaker 4>He said in for sir, if you bolted the who.

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<v Speaker 10>Should not don't see all the same side is something

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<v Speaker 10>you just broke.

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<v Speaker 3>This shackles hard because he won't never see those street

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<v Speaker 3>jeeves waiting.

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<v Speaker 11>At the soup wait waiting for the night train. We

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<v Speaker 11>should not not the nex train.

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<v Speaker 7>Waiting for you. You found waiting for you, you found

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<v Speaker 7>waiting for you, you found in for you, you found

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<v Speaker 7>waiting for you.

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