WEBVTT - Running Trains With Friends Feat. Black Girls Texting 0:00:20.600 --> 0:00:22.560 Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. 0:00:22.680 --> 0:00:26.320 I'm Nila and I'm Erica and this is a two 0:00:26.560 --> 0:00:28.360 part episode, y'all. 0:00:29.240 --> 0:00:32.680 Yeah, we met up with the homies of Black Girls 0:00:32.760 --> 0:00:34.960 Texting in New York, but we didn't go to New York, 0:00:35.000 --> 0:00:37.400 but you know, you know what I mean. And we 0:00:37.479 --> 0:00:40.440 recorded a long ass episode with the ladies, a very 0:00:40.560 --> 0:00:44.480 very good one. The first one is on their web 0:00:44.600 --> 0:00:46.800 on their platform, so you want to make sure to 0:00:46.800 --> 0:00:50.239 go follow Black Girls Texting on all podcast platforms to 0:00:50.280 --> 0:00:52.760 hear part one of this episode. 0:00:54.480 --> 0:00:55.160 The part two. 0:00:55.560 --> 0:00:57.160 I think we're just gonna like, we haven't talked to 0:00:57.240 --> 0:00:59.520 you guys in a minute, and like we don't normally 0:00:59.520 --> 0:01:01.600 do this where we talk first and then we like 0:01:02.360 --> 0:01:04.200 intro into an episode. 0:01:04.920 --> 0:01:07.039 But we got a lot of catching up to do. 0:01:07.200 --> 0:01:10.679 But fuck it, Weed a boss, We a boss. 0:01:12.080 --> 0:01:14.640 So how is your weekend that's been going on with you, Henny? 0:01:15.800 --> 0:01:17.640 This weekend was your daughter's birthday? 0:01:17.880 --> 0:01:21.280 Yes it was, and so you know, my daughter was 0:01:21.319 --> 0:01:24.520 in full Like I want to wait, what is Luna doing? 0:01:24.640 --> 0:01:27.600 Like the moment was Friday, It was calling Jamila stressing 0:01:27.600 --> 0:01:29.160 her out, Like what what are we doing? 0:01:29.160 --> 0:01:30.920 Because my daughter was stressing me the fuck out. 0:01:31.000 --> 0:01:33.720 She remembered, Oh my god, yes're texting me like eight 0:01:33.760 --> 0:01:35.040 o'clock in the morning, like what's the plan? 0:01:35.120 --> 0:01:35.800 What are we doing. 0:01:35.840 --> 0:01:40.319 I'm like, calm down, Okay, we're doing something, just let 0:01:40.319 --> 0:01:41.160 me wake up first. 0:01:41.920 --> 0:01:45.360 Yeah, she was very excited. Our kids had a two 0:01:45.480 --> 0:01:46.240 day sleepover. 0:01:47.280 --> 0:01:51.960 Yes, I try to make it a point on birthdays 0:01:52.160 --> 0:01:53.200 to do slumber parties. 0:01:53.240 --> 0:01:55.240 I think I'm gonna stop that this year. This is 0:01:55.240 --> 0:01:55.960 gonna be a lot. 0:01:56.000 --> 0:02:01.800 Honestly, I I'm so I'm I commend you because I 0:02:01.840 --> 0:02:05.000 was so happy to leave my kid with you, i know, 0:02:05.120 --> 0:02:06.680 and all those screaming ass kids. 0:02:06.960 --> 0:02:07.920 There was literally like. 0:02:07.920 --> 0:02:10.080 Seven kids at Jamila's house and I was like, wow, 0:02:10.120 --> 0:02:11.840 this is I'm so glad. 0:02:11.639 --> 0:02:14.919 I'm not staying here. And I was like, I hope 0:02:14.919 --> 0:02:17.440 she doesn't asked me to stay, Like I hope, like 0:02:17.560 --> 0:02:18.880 you got it on there really quickly. 0:02:19.000 --> 0:02:20.920 I was like, I hope she's not like you're my 0:02:20.960 --> 0:02:22.880 best friend, you'd say it. I was like, I bet 0:02:22.919 --> 0:02:25.480 she got like four other best friends. So I'm really 0:02:25.520 --> 0:02:28.440 glad that I was not on like baby duty. Shout 0:02:28.480 --> 0:02:30.120 out to Alana because she stayed. 0:02:30.400 --> 0:02:32.400 I was like, you have to know which best friend 0:02:32.440 --> 0:02:35.320 you could ask for what. Eric is not the one 0:02:35.320 --> 0:02:38.640 to ask to join you for a sleepover with five children. No. 0:02:39.480 --> 0:02:44.520 Luckily, my other best friend Alana was probably because two 0:02:44.560 --> 0:02:49.840 of the seven were hers, right, So we had a 0:02:49.840 --> 0:02:53.040 really good time. I like to I finally got my 0:02:53.200 --> 0:02:56.960 place semi together, mostly together. I'm pretty proud of myself. 0:02:57.000 --> 0:02:58.560 I'm just gonna take it. I'm just gonna say, I'm 0:02:58.560 --> 0:03:02.000 proud of you. It's as cute as I have gotten 0:03:02.000 --> 0:03:05.480 the place and like basically eighty five percent fully furnished 0:03:05.480 --> 0:03:08.840 my own apartment, and like o days, I've be on 0:03:08.880 --> 0:03:12.400 a like fucking serious hustle. I've been trying to get 0:03:12.400 --> 0:03:15.440 her room together before her birthday and surprise her. I've 0:03:15.440 --> 0:03:17.079 been trying to get my own shit together so I 0:03:17.280 --> 0:03:19.040 feel like I'm at home so I could stay there. 0:03:20.760 --> 0:03:23.240 So I've done that in the works. Do you need 0:03:23.520 --> 0:03:25.240 some others? Some a little bit of shit, but for 0:03:25.280 --> 0:03:28.800 the most part all me. Baby, Yeah, it looks good. 0:03:28.880 --> 0:03:30.320 I was like, okay, home good. 0:03:30.400 --> 0:03:32.200 So if you've been following us, if you follow us 0:03:32.200 --> 0:03:35.840 on Instagram, then you know we have been home goodding 0:03:35.880 --> 0:03:40.280 our fucking life away. Like every opportunity we get or 0:03:40.360 --> 0:03:42.320 can get to go to. 0:03:42.320 --> 0:03:45.640 A different home goods in the valley. We've gone. I've 0:03:45.680 --> 0:03:47.640 literally been on a home goods tour for the past 0:03:47.640 --> 0:03:49.840 two weeks. It's literally our date night. 0:03:50.600 --> 0:03:53.160 We have had date night at home goods far too 0:03:53.200 --> 0:03:54.560 many times and it's amazing. 0:03:55.000 --> 0:03:58.520 One night we even made Margarita's which, oh, by the way, 0:03:58.840 --> 0:04:01.680 today is actually today, but today is officially. 0:04:01.800 --> 0:04:04.480 I'm not smoking. I'm not sorry I'm smoking. 0:04:04.520 --> 0:04:07.760 I just saw you got what your lip was trembling 0:04:07.800 --> 0:04:10.680 when I said that, You're like your face. 0:04:10.800 --> 0:04:12.480 As I look it over, I pull out a blunt 0:04:12.480 --> 0:04:14.800 from my purse and she says, I'm not smoking. 0:04:14.960 --> 0:04:18.239 Like, what what I meant to say is not drinking. 0:04:18.720 --> 0:04:21.000 I'm going to take a break from drinking until the 0:04:21.040 --> 0:04:23.880 new year, to be hard, because the holidays are around. 0:04:23.920 --> 0:04:26.520 I want to like drink and do those things, but 0:04:27.400 --> 0:04:29.240 I feel like in my thirties, I have to pick 0:04:29.320 --> 0:04:29.839 my poison. 0:04:29.920 --> 0:04:33.480 I'm starting to like, I'm starting to see my face 0:04:33.600 --> 0:04:36.279 age like it's freaking me the fuck out. And I 0:04:36.320 --> 0:04:38.800 have some lines, like my smile lines, and I'm like, 0:04:38.839 --> 0:04:39.640 oh no, I. 0:04:39.600 --> 0:04:41.599 Mean I've always have the smile lines, but I'm like, 0:04:41.720 --> 0:04:45.400 I literally feel like it's my skin is thinning. 0:04:46.200 --> 0:04:49.280 Also, this vein in my forehead seems like super intense. 0:04:49.320 --> 0:04:55.599 Do you see it. No, that's not a vein, that's skin. Okay, 0:04:55.640 --> 0:04:59.880 it's wrinkling. And that's like a frown. It's wrinkling. Yeah, 0:05:00.240 --> 0:05:01.960 over aging, and you're not gonna drink anymore. 0:05:02.160 --> 0:05:02.240 Oh. 0:05:02.320 --> 0:05:04.680 I saw a picture of j Lo for a fucking 0:05:04.720 --> 0:05:08.840 new single. She's fifty seven years old. She doesn't drink. 0:05:09.160 --> 0:05:11.240 She doesn't know. There's a reason why Jaylo looks the 0:05:11.279 --> 0:05:13.720 way she doesn't drink. Is that what it is doesn't drink. 0:05:14.880 --> 0:05:17.040 Everyone that I know that doesn't really drink just looks 0:05:17.080 --> 0:05:21.119 better overall, like just period. So I know that drinking forever, 0:05:21.200 --> 0:05:24.000 not drinking forever is probably not a true possibility for me. However, 0:05:24.920 --> 0:05:26.960 hiatuses are and I feel like I got to take 0:05:26.960 --> 0:05:28.880 little hiatus and maybe if I start seeing the results 0:05:28.920 --> 0:05:31.280 of my hiatus, I will feel less inclined to drink. 0:05:31.279 --> 0:05:33.560 But I think over the last few months, I've been 0:05:33.640 --> 0:05:37.279 drinking a lot, and I've been stressed and stuff for 0:05:37.360 --> 0:05:41.120 different for different reasons or whatever, and I was just like, yeah, 0:05:41.279 --> 0:05:43.360 you know, I'm gonna cut the drinking and just stick 0:05:43.440 --> 0:05:45.599 to the smoking. And I'm about to do a little 0:05:45.640 --> 0:05:48.479 cleans because Thanksgiving, I don't. 0:05:48.320 --> 0:05:51.000 Do a juice cleans every time. For the last three years, 0:05:51.000 --> 0:05:52.799 I've said I'm gonna do it with you, and I'm 0:05:52.839 --> 0:05:54.160 just gonna do a short one. I'm gonna do three 0:05:54.279 --> 0:05:55.360 day cleans. What are you doing? 0:05:55.440 --> 0:06:01.560 Maybe getting back on my vegetarian pescatarian shit because guys, 0:06:02.040 --> 0:06:04.640 I haven't updated the tribe. 0:06:05.279 --> 0:06:06.080 But I'm single. 0:06:06.880 --> 0:06:09.320 I am newly single, and due to the fact that 0:06:09.360 --> 0:06:13.839 I'm single, I no longer have to ingest copious amounts 0:06:13.880 --> 0:06:17.240 of beef and chicken because my partner that's all he 0:06:17.279 --> 0:06:19.799 eats or eat, and so now there's. 0:06:19.600 --> 0:06:21.840 A lot of bacon, lots so much bacon. I was like, wait, yet, 0:06:21.920 --> 0:06:23.560 last week you're a vegetarian. This week you got a 0:06:23.600 --> 0:06:25.320 new nigga. No, your pork a feeder. 0:06:25.600 --> 0:06:27.440 You always knew pork was my gateweight. I know you 0:06:27.440 --> 0:06:29.360 do love por Pork is my gateway meat drug. It's 0:06:29.360 --> 0:06:32.159 not pork, it's bacon, specifically bake. I don't like ham 0:06:32.240 --> 0:06:35.480 and like all that other shit. But yeah, I just 0:06:35.680 --> 0:06:37.479 I looked in the mirror and I was like, I 0:06:37.480 --> 0:06:39.279 don't look my best like I don't and it's not 0:06:39.320 --> 0:06:43.440 even about weight. It's just like I feel like my skin, 0:06:43.520 --> 0:06:45.960 like there's a clarity that happens when all the things 0:06:45.960 --> 0:06:49.160 are aligned and working well, and it's not aligned and 0:06:49.240 --> 0:06:49.800 working well. 0:06:51.839 --> 0:06:56.080 Like a week ago, I drank way too much, really 0:06:56.160 --> 0:07:00.440 got really drunk, like really drunk, like I'm I remembered, 0:07:00.480 --> 0:07:03.560 and then I just suddenly don't remember. And apparently I 0:07:03.640 --> 0:07:05.960 was making out with my homegirl that we don't make out, 0:07:06.320 --> 0:07:10.280 and like the next day, I was so fucking sick. 0:07:10.520 --> 0:07:13.800 I have not been that sick in a long while, 0:07:13.920 --> 0:07:15.600 and I was like I was. 0:07:15.560 --> 0:07:17.520 Crouching over the toilet and telling God, I'm never going 0:07:17.600 --> 0:07:20.800 to drink till twenty twenty one. Three days later I drank. 0:07:22.400 --> 0:07:23.760 So I'm not going to just sit here and lie 0:07:23.800 --> 0:07:28.440 to everyone and to myself. I'm not going to drink 0:07:28.680 --> 0:07:31.040 like that anymore. I'm definitely not gonna drink like I'm twenty. 0:07:31.120 --> 0:07:33.040 I'm definitely not gonna drink an empty stomach, and I'm 0:07:33.040 --> 0:07:35.160 definitely not drinking whiskey for a long while. 0:07:35.360 --> 0:07:37.240 But you know, I'm just. 0:07:37.160 --> 0:07:39.560 Gonna work my way in between drinking less so then 0:07:39.600 --> 0:07:41.960 when the new year comes that I will be drinking less. 0:07:42.440 --> 0:07:44.200 And because I just know myself, and I know the 0:07:44.240 --> 0:07:47.320 holiday is coming. I'm going to Mexico soon. I'm going 0:07:47.400 --> 0:07:49.720 to drink, but I'm going to drink less and I'm 0:07:49.720 --> 0:07:51.240 going to drink more precautiously. 0:07:52.040 --> 0:07:55.120 And I'm going to do the three day detox with you. 0:07:55.120 --> 0:07:56.360 No, I do because I've been wanting to do that 0:07:56.360 --> 0:07:57.840 for a long time. And I have a juicer three 0:07:57.880 --> 0:08:00.120 to five days and we go to food for Less 0:08:00.160 --> 0:08:03.720 and get our ship. Also, let me order some jars 0:08:03.720 --> 0:08:06.880 on Amazon and it's done. We've got it under control. 0:08:06.960 --> 0:08:08.680 I think I want to do it nice months. 0:08:09.000 --> 0:08:10.680 Oh for jars? Okay, great. 0:08:12.360 --> 0:08:16.320 Anyway, Yes, Erica and I because our lives are perfectly 0:08:16.360 --> 0:08:20.920 aligned in the universe, we are universal sisters. 0:08:21.320 --> 0:08:23.400 We are both single, and. 0:08:25.800 --> 0:08:29.800 Just for the record, I'm so happy, not that we're 0:08:29.840 --> 0:08:33.120 both single or that her relationship didn't work out, but 0:08:33.440 --> 0:08:34.559 just that she's happy. 0:08:36.200 --> 0:08:41.120 Exact. You can see her face. You have to join 0:08:41.200 --> 0:08:43.319 patroon Smila's face right now. 0:08:43.559 --> 0:08:48.680 If you're happy, I'm happyest. I was happy when you 0:08:48.679 --> 0:08:51.760 were happy, but when you weren't happy, it was annoying. 0:08:51.360 --> 0:08:56.880 Me because I knew that wasn't the situation for you. 0:08:57.360 --> 0:09:00.000 And I was being cool because I'm a nice friend 0:09:00.640 --> 0:09:02.760 and I was just chilling in the corner. 0:09:03.760 --> 0:09:06.000 But yeah, I'm happy to know. 0:09:06.160 --> 0:09:08.200 I love how my friend's tiptoe around shit with me, 0:09:08.240 --> 0:09:10.200 whereas like I don't do I don't do that, but 0:09:10.200 --> 0:09:11.079 for some reason, my. 0:09:11.080 --> 0:09:13.760 Friends feel like they have to just say no. I 0:09:13.880 --> 0:09:16.520 wasn't saying tiptoe. I wasn't saying that. 0:09:16.600 --> 0:09:18.959 I was being particular about how I was going to 0:09:19.000 --> 0:09:23.600 approach the situation because bitches get real sensitive when they're 0:09:23.600 --> 0:09:25.800 in love and when Dick is involved. And I've had 0:09:25.880 --> 0:09:29.160 situations with other best friends where Dick was involved and 0:09:29.200 --> 0:09:31.520 it didn't go well, and so I know to tread 0:09:31.640 --> 0:09:33.400 lightly when Dick is involved. 0:09:34.040 --> 0:09:36.559 Now I know you are a more sane friend, so 0:09:36.880 --> 0:09:37.840 I'm not tripping. 0:09:38.160 --> 0:09:40.640 But also, I don't have to tell you how I 0:09:40.679 --> 0:09:44.000 feel because you already know how I feel because you 0:09:44.120 --> 0:09:44.360 know me. 0:09:44.840 --> 0:09:46.880 And I told you this before. I wasn't tiptoeing. 0:09:46.920 --> 0:09:50.640 But never, ever, not once, did you say what do 0:09:50.679 --> 0:09:54.200 you think, Mila, because you knew what I thought, So 0:09:54.440 --> 0:09:55.080 I asked. 0:09:54.840 --> 0:09:57.719 Your opinion on things. For sure, I did, maybe not 0:09:57.840 --> 0:09:59.120 the overall relationship. 0:09:59.200 --> 0:10:00.600 Okay, Well, don't you. 0:10:00.520 --> 0:10:02.679 Know I told you the beginning I was like, I'm 0:10:02.679 --> 0:10:03.800 going to tell you how this is going to go 0:10:03.840 --> 0:10:06.520 for me, I'm not going to be feeling it. 0:10:06.559 --> 0:10:08.319 I could tell, and I left it at that, and 0:10:08.360 --> 0:10:12.040 then I was just like, hey, I'm nice. But overall, 0:10:12.080 --> 0:10:12.640 you know. 0:10:12.440 --> 0:10:15.040 Sometimes the thing is sometimes your friends be hating, but 0:10:15.040 --> 0:10:16.880 when you got good friends, most of the time your 0:10:16.920 --> 0:10:17.600 friends be knowing. 0:10:18.200 --> 0:10:20.240 Your friends be knowing because if your friends know you. 0:10:22.040 --> 0:10:27.960 But anyway I have, I'm finally being more sane and 0:10:28.240 --> 0:10:31.360 really putting two feet into my single theom and I'm 0:10:31.400 --> 0:10:32.360 feeling really good about it. 0:10:32.360 --> 0:10:34.320 I know you're a little bit newer in the pond. 0:10:34.760 --> 0:10:36.839 I mean, so you know, a little bit newer in 0:10:36.880 --> 0:10:40.079 the single pond than I am this round, but it's 0:10:40.120 --> 0:10:41.520 actually the time. 0:10:41.760 --> 0:10:43.640 It just really makes things better. 0:10:43.800 --> 0:10:47.640 I've you know, I went to Tennessee to see an 0:10:47.640 --> 0:10:50.840 Internet bay, which was a great trip and you can 0:10:50.880 --> 0:10:55.959 also learn about that more on Patreon. I recently, Oh 0:10:56.160 --> 0:10:59.520 Orlando from Harder Soft podcast came out here. We hung out, 0:11:00.240 --> 0:11:03.640 did all types of cool date night stuff and it 0:11:03.760 --> 0:11:08.439 just reminded me like, I like doing me whenever I want, 0:11:09.920 --> 0:11:14.280 with whoever I want, and don't call me because I'm 0:11:14.320 --> 0:11:18.080 not answering. I just yeah, I'm like really thriving in 0:11:18.120 --> 0:11:20.400 that space right now, just like I'm loving myself and 0:11:20.400 --> 0:11:23.840 appreciating myself and saying fuck the bullshit, you know, and 0:11:23.920 --> 0:11:26.600 also being super super honest with people that I'm dating, 0:11:26.640 --> 0:11:27.000 because I. 0:11:27.000 --> 0:11:30.760 Think once feelings start to develop, it's easy. 0:11:30.520 --> 0:11:32.800 To curve the truth, especially when it's about you, like 0:11:32.880 --> 0:11:34.800 when it's things that don't make you look that good. 0:11:35.400 --> 0:11:37.880 But I'm like, I don't care because I'm gonna just 0:11:37.960 --> 0:11:39.840 like I'm not perfect, Like, yeah, I cheated on my 0:11:39.880 --> 0:11:43.840 last X, Yeah twice doesn't make me look great, but 0:11:44.280 --> 0:11:47.120 this is what it is. I'd be fucking up and 0:11:47.160 --> 0:11:48.880 you could you could take it or you could leave it. 0:11:48.920 --> 0:11:50.439 And then I also feel like the people who can 0:11:50.480 --> 0:11:53.360 take it, they're gonna be there and they're gonna like 0:11:53.440 --> 0:11:55.480 be looking forward to who you're becoming and not so 0:11:55.600 --> 0:11:57.319 much the things that you've done previously. 0:11:58.480 --> 0:12:04.719 Right, So yeah, that's my update. How's your. 0:12:05.679 --> 0:12:09.400 I mean, being single has been whatever, It's fine. I'm 0:12:09.400 --> 0:12:11.960 really not in the space to be, you know, out 0:12:12.000 --> 0:12:13.720 there like that at all, really at all. 0:12:14.240 --> 0:12:15.360 I'm kind of just like. 0:12:15.400 --> 0:12:17.520 Oh, guys, I know I said, I'm not on like 0:12:17.559 --> 0:12:18.559 fuck niggas anymore. 0:12:18.600 --> 0:12:20.239 And like we shouldn't say nagas. 0:12:22.800 --> 0:12:29.679 Like honestly, fuck them, fuck them, fuck them, not all 0:12:29.720 --> 0:12:30.559 of them, but like. 0:12:30.800 --> 0:12:35.160 There's like two specific ones, two specifically. 0:12:35.240 --> 0:12:37.600 Yeah, maybe there's actually three, but we're gonna just with 0:12:37.600 --> 0:12:39.840 the top top three older top. 0:12:39.880 --> 0:12:42.480 There's two people that are are the top two ranks 0:12:42.520 --> 0:12:44.000 of the fuck Nigga List. 0:12:44.200 --> 0:12:46.040 They're like, if you put up the fuck Niggas List, 0:12:46.120 --> 0:12:47.560 their faces pop up. 0:12:47.600 --> 0:12:52.839 It's like, yeah, damn, sucks to be you. So I've 0:12:52.840 --> 0:12:55.120 been like trying to like breathe through that. I'm like, 0:12:55.160 --> 0:13:00.480 you know what, it's fine, it's cool, it's all good. 0:13:01.520 --> 0:13:04.000 But it's been a challenging like week and a half 0:13:04.040 --> 0:13:07.680 between like breaking up with the boyfriend and then dealing 0:13:07.720 --> 0:13:11.320 with some other bullshit. I have had to like I 0:13:11.320 --> 0:13:13.600 feel like I've been like over eating too. I realize, 0:13:13.600 --> 0:13:15.959 like that's a thing that I do, Like when I 0:13:16.040 --> 0:13:20.280 am stressed, I like eat, I pick my face. I 0:13:20.320 --> 0:13:23.160 can't stop eating, like I'll i'll like eat and drinking and. 0:13:23.080 --> 0:13:26.920 It's like fucked up. It's like it's like borderline. 0:13:28.280 --> 0:13:30.440 I don't want to say eating disorder because that's not 0:13:30.640 --> 0:13:32.559 like that's not something you should just throw around. 0:13:34.120 --> 0:13:35.719 But like I don't know, I. 0:13:35.720 --> 0:13:38.160 Just noticed myself doing a weird shit, like I'll just eat, 0:13:38.320 --> 0:13:39.400 like wake up in the middle of the night and 0:13:39.480 --> 0:13:40.239 just like eat. 0:13:40.040 --> 0:13:42.360 Like a lot of food for no reason. You're it, 0:13:42.400 --> 0:13:43.800 You're only a secret sweet eater. 0:13:44.080 --> 0:13:46.199 I'm a secret eater period because like I'm in I 0:13:46.240 --> 0:13:48.280 get embarrassed by like, bitch just like just saw me 0:13:48.280 --> 0:13:50.160 eat like five hundred thousand things that I'm like gonna 0:13:50.160 --> 0:13:50.680 go in the kitchen. 0:13:50.880 --> 0:13:55.239 Meanwhile, I'm like, do you want to order more food? 0:13:55.840 --> 0:13:57.960 But that's been like contributing to me not feeling well 0:13:58.280 --> 0:14:00.640 and then the drinking. So I just feel like I 0:14:00.679 --> 0:14:04.040 need to like be more healthy because I have so 0:14:04.080 --> 0:14:06.680 many great, amazing things happening in my life. I was 0:14:06.679 --> 0:14:11.000 literally driving the other day and I was thinking about us, 0:14:11.040 --> 0:14:13.400 and I was thinking about my daughter and how like 0:14:13.679 --> 0:14:16.120 how like smart she is and how bright she is, 0:14:16.280 --> 0:14:18.840 and how much I fucking love her. It's had like 0:14:19.160 --> 0:14:20.800 I think I've talked about this before, Like I had 0:14:20.800 --> 0:14:23.240 this moment where like it's like all of a sudden, 0:14:23.280 --> 0:14:25.760 it's like I unlocked another like dimension of how much 0:14:25.760 --> 0:14:28.360 I fucking love her. And it was like that moment 0:14:28.360 --> 0:14:30.560 I was like I just love her so much, and 0:14:30.600 --> 0:14:32.320 I was like, you know what, fuck all this other shit, 0:14:32.320 --> 0:14:35.960 because nothing else matters. I'm good, I'm healthy, my family's healthy. 0:14:36.240 --> 0:14:40.080 All this other shit will get worked out and that's it. 0:14:42.880 --> 0:14:45.840 Other than that. Oh, this weekend, me and Jamila went 0:14:45.920 --> 0:14:50.440 to see the Mike Tyson Roy Roy Jones Junior fight. 0:14:50.640 --> 0:14:53.640 We went to see outside. We went to go see outside. 0:14:53.800 --> 0:14:55.040 We heard they were gonna be strippers. 0:14:55.160 --> 0:14:57.280 And if you know me and Jamila, if you if 0:14:57.320 --> 0:15:00.640 the word strip just comes out of your mouth, where 0:15:00.640 --> 0:15:01.240 they were are they? 0:15:01.440 --> 0:15:03.280 And I have not been to a strip club. 0:15:03.080 --> 0:15:06.680 In probably about a year now, and I really really 0:15:06.720 --> 0:15:08.800 really really really really like strippers. 0:15:09.120 --> 0:15:12.840 I've almost now finished ones from the party, not all 0:15:12.840 --> 0:15:14.080 of them, but every time I go to a store 0:15:14.080 --> 0:15:17.160 and news them, I'm like, I'm not a dancer. Take 0:15:17.200 --> 0:15:17.920 all these ones. 0:15:19.720 --> 0:15:22.400 Yeah, we got invited to this little party actually down 0:15:22.400 --> 0:15:24.560 the street from my house. 0:15:24.680 --> 0:15:25.760 It was super convenient. 0:15:26.320 --> 0:15:29.880 We had Uncle Sebastian and Uncle Josh come over and 0:15:29.920 --> 0:15:31.920 watch our kids for like four hours so that we 0:15:31.960 --> 0:15:35.440 could go get ratchet real quick in COVID safe environment. 0:15:36.040 --> 0:15:37.560 We met up with Jessica Rose. 0:15:37.600 --> 0:15:41.080 Shout out to Jessica because she's our fellow ratchet. 0:15:41.360 --> 0:15:44.680 Oh I love her. I love her. Yeah, they act. 0:15:44.880 --> 0:15:47.800 And also they left me at the party. Oh my god. 0:15:48.160 --> 0:15:49.960 Literally we went to the party. They were there for 0:15:49.960 --> 0:15:52.840 like fifteen minutes. You were not supposed to, like tell 0:15:52.840 --> 0:15:53.160 the whole. 0:15:53.280 --> 0:15:56.720 I'm just saying, fifteen minutes. I look up, Do you 0:15:56.720 --> 0:15:58.640 may to go get something out of my car? I 0:15:58.680 --> 0:16:01.160 thought no, I said, she's gonna go get alcohol. We're 0:16:01.160 --> 0:16:01.960 gonna go buy Hennessy. 0:16:02.000 --> 0:16:03.920 There was no more Hennessy, just going to Hennessy. I 0:16:03.960 --> 0:16:05.640 offered to take her and then we did. Then they 0:16:05.640 --> 0:16:06.680 were gone for an hour and a half. 0:16:06.720 --> 0:16:08.040 It was like an hour, and we did a small 0:16:08.080 --> 0:16:09.800 detour to somebody's house all the way. 0:16:09.640 --> 0:16:10.440 In North Hollywood. 0:16:10.480 --> 0:16:13.400 We came back and apparently while we were gone, I 0:16:13.440 --> 0:16:14.520 had to put on a shovel. 0:16:14.600 --> 0:16:17.760 I missed her doing the splits, the moving splits across 0:16:18.240 --> 0:16:18.800 the floor. 0:16:20.320 --> 0:16:21.680 So I'm pissed that I missed that. 0:16:21.840 --> 0:16:24.440 Yeah, so yeah, I started dancing with this girl and 0:16:24.480 --> 0:16:27.480 then like she was just like literally she was actually 0:16:27.800 --> 0:16:29.960 must have had the strongest ass in knees ever, because 0:16:30.000 --> 0:16:32.080 like I was behind her and then she got down 0:16:32.120 --> 0:16:34.600 and she was twrking and she was torking me backwards, 0:16:34.640 --> 0:16:37.200 Like I just kept like going backwards backwards, but we 0:16:37.280 --> 0:16:40.320 literally like probably cleared at least like ten feet all 0:16:40.360 --> 0:16:40.920 the way back. 0:16:41.040 --> 0:16:42.720 That's talent. I'm gonna have to let me see if 0:16:42.760 --> 0:16:46.240 we do so. I should have got paid. I should 0:16:46.240 --> 0:16:49.280 were my ones, I am? She kept some of those ones? 0:16:49.280 --> 0:16:54.600 You were smart? Also, those were my ones? You know that, right? 0:16:54.760 --> 0:16:57.360 I got those ones you did yes before I left? 0:16:57.880 --> 0:17:02.400 What yeah? And that good thing I left? Wow? What 0:17:02.520 --> 0:17:05.920 an ethical stripper partygoer I am. I try to support 0:17:05.960 --> 0:17:06.880 when I can. 0:17:08.440 --> 0:17:12.520 Oh, speaking of single them and drinking and reflection, it 0:17:12.600 --> 0:17:16.639 was just because I'm newly single and because I'm like 0:17:16.680 --> 0:17:19.560 in a new space. Like literally I'm just like really 0:17:19.680 --> 0:17:24.840 noticing my how I move, and I'm thinking, like I 0:17:24.880 --> 0:17:27.719 love love so much, like am I am? I always 0:17:27.760 --> 0:17:31.680 looking for new prospects maybe a little bit. 0:17:32.280 --> 0:17:34.040 I like love a lot. I like attention. I like 0:17:34.080 --> 0:17:35.080 to give love and attention. 0:17:35.600 --> 0:17:38.359 But also I'm working on like cutting that off a 0:17:38.400 --> 0:17:42.919 little bit, because like you can't love everybody everybody. 0:17:42.440 --> 0:17:45.120 And I'm noticing, like, how do you have enough love 0:17:45.160 --> 0:17:47.359 for yourself if you're giving it all away? 0:17:47.560 --> 0:17:49.800 Now, Like giving people love brings me joy. 0:17:49.960 --> 0:17:52.359 However, I just realized that, like, the type of love 0:17:52.400 --> 0:17:55.720 that I offer is very it's very luxury. 0:17:56.600 --> 0:18:01.639 It's high end, high end love, and it's who loves. 0:18:01.840 --> 0:18:07.639 It's very hot to get. Everyone loves it. I want more. 0:18:09.160 --> 0:18:14.879 It's the ax of all loves. The black car. My 0:18:15.000 --> 0:18:20.120 love is the black card. You know, everybody can't. You can't. 0:18:20.240 --> 0:18:24.240 Everyone applies for the black card. Everybody can't get it. 0:18:24.280 --> 0:18:27.720 Again, everybody wants the black cart, but everybody doesn't make 0:18:27.760 --> 0:18:33.359 all the requirements. Limited cardholders to the Black card, denied 0:18:33.720 --> 0:18:35.719 to the Black love, get your credit score up. 0:18:36.160 --> 0:18:39.000 And also it's very addicting. 0:18:39.200 --> 0:18:42.480 I know I'm infectious, you know, like I love that way, 0:18:42.640 --> 0:18:47.120 like even in kind of casual situations, just like I'm 0:18:47.119 --> 0:18:50.199 going to give you the girlfriend experience. So I just 0:18:50.359 --> 0:18:54.800 want to be more cautious of who I'm sharing my 0:18:54.960 --> 0:18:58.960 energy with and vice versa, and really just like spending 0:18:59.040 --> 0:18:59.760 energy with myself. 0:19:00.240 --> 0:19:04.760 I realize I could avoid that a lot. So now 0:19:04.760 --> 0:19:09.800 that I'm alone in my nearly furnished home, I shall 0:19:09.840 --> 0:19:15.520 reflect on that and sit, sit, sit sit. I don't 0:19:15.520 --> 0:19:18.440 know what my future dating looks like. I don't want 0:19:18.440 --> 0:19:21.360 to know. That's another thing. Yeah, I come to this discovery. 0:19:21.520 --> 0:19:23.919